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Jillian Vessey is a DID (Dissociative Personality Disorder)/Autism LARPer who trivializes mental health and compartmentalizes every single bad trait of hers while hyping up a dubious diagnostic impression that she paid copious amounts of money for.
She eagerly accepted her ~life changing~ diagnostic impression with a "Congrats on the DID Diagnosis" celebratory cake, but struggles to maintain the LARP. No one has seen her alters in months and she rarely mentions her DID anymore, preferring to bring up her totes real autism for ponies and other autistic shit.
JILL RECEIVED A DIAGNOSTIC IMPRESSION, SHE HAS NEVER RECEIVED A DIAGNOSIS FOR HER DID, LURK MOAR
>Early Years:>began her lolcow run as a "pansexual" lolita lifestyle who dropped from the community due to LACE and "restrictive rules">gained fame for the creation of the J-fashion-inspired "Party Kei" fashion, a fashion she no longer wears nor backs>known lurker>formerly covered fashion and magical girl anime in her videos, was a pivotal figure in the LACE drama prior to her transition to the Party Kei years>has a running track record of inconsistent uploaded despite pushing a "full-time Youtuber" career; used barely-productive incentives for support on Patreon; both have plateaued if not decreased in income entirely following recent events>previously spent money frivolously (either from YT profit or from parents), like on wasteful plastic or fast fashion, and also claimed to make enough from YT and at the same time complain of demonetization>has prior history of “severe mental illness” in the forms of a brief stay in a mental hospital in her early teens due to ED and self-harm>often inflates her skills and knowledge in various subjects, leading to a very narcissistic view of herselfCurrent relevant info:
>loves the idea of toying with the idea of having multiple mental illnesses; her main target is currently DID due to a diagnostic impression, and claims up to 9 alters right now with very shaky substance as to her alters' creation and the origin of her trauma which caused the DID; she has dropped DID “as much” and now prefers to pretend she has the most severe of all autism— the rainbow autism. she’s also acknowledging her BPD again.>is still extremely thin-skinned; has history of deleting comments critical to her and has preached getting along with people while also blasting critics and concern in a very rude and passive-aggressive manner; has gotten into pissfights online as of late with users that have spoken out of concern for her or wanting to help or talk in some degree. will put videos on blast.>her sexuality has been a sliding scale, from pansexual to queer to lesbian to back to currently pansexual (and nonbinary due to alters); current partner is Steven Clarke, who has enabled her delusions and has racked up his own questionable reputation; has a long history of drama with relationships, claiming abuse to some degree in most of them>formerly had a fashion brand called Five Petal Flower before graduating from her college fashion class, but seems to be no longer active if not just slowly dying; was once into drag as Villany Swells; did two shows, claimed she was being stalked when someone posted a vid to the thread, no one has seen her in drag since and she drags her own makeup from that era as the disaster it was>has a shaky history of substance misuse regarding her meds; now takes in various degrees of alcohol and weed leading to possible clashes in medication or mental/physical state>privated her personal twitter due to bullying>once again heavily filtering/editing pictures>her friend sof got engaged>says she is trying to launch fivepetalflower (has been saying this for years)>got engaged a few months after Sof>posts only about weddings and my little pony nowadays unless she’s grandstanding about “muh mentaw iwwness”>Kills off first ever alter OC (Jerrick)MEET THE ALTERS:
>Pixie: The collective name of all the alters, but is also used interchangeably with the name Jillian. Is a "genderfluid they/them".>Jillian: Rainbow emoji. 25, but "age slides" from 4-25. This is actually just herself, but she herself is both an alter and the host. Desperately wants to have autism.>Jerrick: "Fused" alter that used to be Jill's co-host. Fused because his BPD symptoms were therapized. Snake emoji. 17, formerly 14-16. Emo trans guy. Used to conveniently hold all her BPD traits which have magically disappeared since he's fused. Entire personality was being angry and liking green. Like all the alters, is into drag.>Veronica: Doing nails emoji, formerly flame emoji. 21 year old horny alter. She is a “protector of sexual trauma”. Says she had to become a "fuckable plaything" because she was “raped for months”. Was going to be intersex, but Jill didn't want to deal with the backlash and decided against it. >Berry: Strawberry emoji. 4-6 year old. Talks and acts like a baby. Is always “co-fronting” in some way. Had her name previously withheld for “safety reasons”. Is for some reason triggered out by positive things like holidays and presents and is "trauma-free".>Cliffe: Sprout emoji, formerly club emoji. 35 year old old man. Her "homosexual assistant". Combo of her dad, sweetie angel therapist, and Ian Bruce. Formerly a mix between her dad and Sasha Velour. Somehow too old for social media, but responsible enough to come out when she does taxes.>Flora: Cherry blossom emoji. 18 year old fictive. Used to be a fragment, but became a full alter. She is supposed to be Cure Flora and all the pink PreCures. She is a blonde, sweet lolita.>Jax: Test tube emoji. 19 year old “character salad” that speaks and types with a Brooklyn accent. She's a fictive of Harley Quinn (Batman), Jinx (Arcane), and Spinel (Steven Universe). Apparently was born from watching Arcane while having major trauma. “Hypersexual”.>Sandwich: Sandwich emoji. Cat alter. Represents how lost she felt moving to a new city. Not much else is currently known about it.>Amanda: Not much has been said about her. Note that Jillian’s middle name is actually Amanda.>Ramona: An alter that was only announced after she fused with Jillian. After doing so, Jillian suddenly wanted to start playing the piano again.>Sunny: Shooting star emoji. 14. Another PreCure fictive for all the yellow ones. She's "energetic" and positive in a way that's "crazy". Basically just Flora, but hyper. Can't "mask".>Amber: Partly cloudy emoji. "20?" Formerly 25. She's edgy and has freckles. Also yellow. Formed at the same time as Sunny in response to the McLean video drama. Supposed to look the most normal.>Seb: Emoji unknown. 26, "Cool dude." Masculine and a grown-up version of jerrick but a younger version of cliffe. Came about when Jerrick fused and is supposed to protect Jill from self harm. Struggles with trich and likes cutting hair. Has a romantic relationship with Steve. Last Thread:
>>>/w/336444Last Thread:
>Jill tries posting the pinkie pie video and it keeps getting disputed >>336537>youtube comment tells jill to upload the pinkie pie video without monetization and jill calls it "objectively dumb to do" >>336575>jill continues retweeting tweets that make her feel like her weed use is justified >>336601>jill flips when someone else gently accuses her for not being passionate about ponies and posting the vid unmonetized >>336632>livestream cleaning ponies >>336636>pinkie pie video finally goes up >>336740>thrift with me video >>337044>steve was on a 3 min segment on local news talking about gender shit in school. looks like a pedo in contrast to the rainby house >>337239>jill does scootaloo and starsong pony cosplay with sof >>337528>hair dying and trich video >>337616>pumpkin carving video with steve. steves neck is painted black for no apparent reason >>337937>jill gets a po box >>338124>jill seethes about an election in a country she doesnt live in, uses it as an opportunity for wake n bake >>338277 >another pony cleaning livestream >>338392>talking about pony characters video >>338429>pinkie pie vid his 100k views and jill promises to make a pt 2 >>338432>jerrick's twitter account gets privated, last tweet is from march 27 >>339401 >"the truth" video where she kills off jerrick and replaces him with a "chill dude" named seb >>339744Social Media & Other Links:
Youtube:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCpi2P_y-wXa7q84C-46U6ZA/featuredInstagram:
https://www.instagram.com/pixieelocks/Instagram 2:
https://www.instagram.com/villainyswells/ (used to be @pixieespam)
Twitter (Main):
https://twitter.com/pixieeelocks/Twitter #2 Now Private (“Jerrick” alter):
https://twitter.com/villainyswellsTwitter #3 - Now Private (“Sweetie” alters, previously @xcherrybombica):
https://twitter.com/pixie_petalsTwitter #4 - Private ("Seb" alter):
https://x.com/theworldwidesebBluesky -
https://bsky.app/profile/pixielocks.bsky.socialCurrent Tiktok:
https://www.tiktok.com/@multipetalpixieSecond Current Tiktok Now Private:
https://www.tiktok.com/@pixieelocks(Past) TikTok:
https://www.tiktok.com/@pixieelocksCosplay(Past) Second Tiktok for her alters:
https://www.tiktok.com/@pixieeesystemFacebook Page #1:
https://www.facebook.com/pixielockss/Facebook Page #2:
https://facebook.com/cosplaypixie/Threads:
https://www.threads.net/@pixieelocksMoonmist Girls Instagram:
https://www.instagram.com/moonmistgirls/Moonmist Girls Facebook Page:
https://www.facebook.com/moonmistgirls/Old Deviantart:
https://www.deviantart.com/xhellodecemberx/journal/Old Blog:
http://pixie-locks.blogspot.comDrag Facebook page:
https://facebook.com/pixieandvillainy/[ No. 339823
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this really doesn't look like crying to me
No. 339824
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twitter reply to her 'the truth' video
>i get jealous really easily
jealous of…yourself? the narc is strong with this one
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Here's a tweet from Jill's secret account for Sebastian. It shows a screenshot of a note(?) where she herself has written something her therapist supposedly said to her about Sebastian.
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More tweets from Sebastian account. Kinda risky making jokes about autism, being undiagnosed.
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Another one, where Jill has sent herself memes and is reacting to them and then replies to herself reacting to her own memes. Insane level of cringe.
No. 339831
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Meet Sebastian.
No. 339834
>>339827Is this a fucking AI chat therapist??? Is this what Jillian means with "going to therapy".
>>339830Whenever she wants to try and prove that her alters are totally real she does shit like this. She has done the same with every alter so far.
No. 339837
>>339831So "Seb" is just Jillian with greasy hair and glasses, got it.
>>339824What level of delusion is this? How can she be jealous of an alter hanging out with Steven?
No. 339839
Just so that it's here for any anons that want to read it, here's the link to the recap of the first half of the video
>>339768 and another anon said that she'd upload the recap of the second half once this thread was made. Hopefully she sees this thread and posts it soon.
>>339834I'm trying to figure out what app she's using, it's definitely one of those scuzzy BetterHelp clones, but I'm not sure which one.
>>339831She looks so ugly. Now that her lips are starting to shrink from age from the chronic cannabis abuse, and her hair is starting to thin from constant bleaching, she looks more and more like a malnourished Seth Rogan. She probably reeks like him too. Seriously, zoom in on the photo and look at her hairline and you can actually see the strands of her hair shrinking and breaking.
No. 339849
>>339839>>339768Hello, I'm here with the other half of the recap. Thanks again to the
nonnie who sat through 30 minutes of that video for us o7. This part of the video is all of the Seb lore
34:30 You can see the BPD rage in her eyes as she stares down the camera and says "I definitely fucking have DID" in case she hasn't said it enough. Today (the day of recording) her symptoms were so bad that she got lost in a parking lot because she was so "dissociated", then had to sit in her car and ground for 45 minutes.
36:30 Goes back to her notes. Blames society on her "shame and fear" around her DID. Continues to talk about how she felt safest following the same structure that other DID content creators did so she would feel
valid.
37:45 She ends this portion of the video and comes back a week later with a different outfit, glasses, and no makeup. She says that Seb is around while she's recording.
39:11 A graphic pops up on the screen showing which parts of Jereick went into Jill and which parts went into Seb. Says that when her voice is high and "squeaky" that it's usually Sunny, not Jill. Tbh her handwriting is hard to read, but here's what I could read.
Jerr: masc + fem, severe BPD symptoms, desperate to be seen/heard, copes through music, asexual (sex repulsed), SH
Jill: feminine, more chill and grounded (while Sunny remains the crazy cringe girl), business focused, SIB, in love with Stevie (yes she wrote that down)
Seb: masculine, sensitive boy, fear of abandonment and BPD symptoms, desires to be seen and heard, copes through music, dysphoria (milder), deeply romantic and longing, in love with Stevie, trich
40:04 Clutches her pearls and says "oh my God, I did not think I would still be struggling with [self harm] at 26". Recalls when she was filming her Jill Meet the Alters video that something felt "unnatural" about her and where she fit in the system. She was detached from reality at that time.
41:10 Sunny split from Jill after the ISSTD Mcclean drama because she "can't be a dissociated happy little clown cartoon character person and have people take you seriously". Meanwhile, Amber holds all the trauma and the "bark bark, let me go yell at an institution" so Sunny can be the "hyper autism, open stimming, happy happy, no volume control" alter. Jill says she is so grateful that there is no limit to how much joy and happiness she has the ability to feel. It feels like the ISSTD stuff happened 5 years ago and is a horror that has been looming over her her whole life.
43:53 Seb came around November of last year. More Twitter screenshots from April 19.
First tweet: "Too scared to tell jill's friend group I absorbed one of their friends"
Second tweet: "It's so weird and sad that the last two gifts people got for him he like half existed for. Bro was fading away pixel by pixel into the aether and could not appreciate a keychain. Why is this making me so sad"
Jerrick's fusion took from October to March, Seb's split took a few days in response to Jerr beginning to fuse.
45:33 Starts getting into how she visualized Jerr's fusion in her inner world. In the inner world main home where Jill checks in with Cliffe every night, Jill started seeing a dark hazy figure out the window that would get closer every night. Doesn't know how to describe it without it sounding like something out of Scooby Doo. Still is dealing with internalized ableism because people don't take DID seriously. Also started seeing crackly visions of Cliffe with hair, screen changes to a speed drawing of Seb. He looks like a mix between an emo boy and a shonen character. Dark fluffy hair, pale skin. Jill originally thought he was a surfer guy, like Jude from 16. Jill needed it because she's been more stressed since Sunny's split (since Sunny took all her manic happiness away from her). Seb feels like younger Cliffe/older Jerr.
50:05 More Twitter screenshots. Seb calls Cliffe "papi". Looks like Will Wood. Says they cut their bangs because it's like Seb's bangs. Jill feels more like a girl after Jerr's fusion. Seb feels like "a guy who was born a guy in the brain of a girl". Seb wants to be seen and heard and "real in the real world" with friends and family and a Twitter account. Jill starts blushing like a fujoshi while talking about Seb and Stevie's romantic relationship.
54:37 Screen changes to a bunch of face claims/inspo pics for Seb. Seb is a hopeless romantic who loves music, has more "quiet BPD". Seb struggles severely with trich. Another Twitter screenshot from December 22: "Here to pound omelettes lift weights and cut my hair impulsively". Jill also reminds everyone again that she is diagnosed by a doctor.
58:00 Momtage of Seb's tweets from the past year. I'm not gonna write all of it here. Lots of shitposts and breakfast cooking pics. One tweet has a content warning for food. Seb and Sunny are friends. Stevie calls him Sebaby.
No. 339850
>>339823For someone who worked in a few school plays you would think she'd be better at acting.
>>339824This is Tumblr levels of stupidity. You could even use Tumblr logic against them and say that Steve didn't consent to dating one of Jill's alters or an open relationship. It could be considered forced cheating, grooming or worse when Jill "switches" into Seb, Ramona, Berry or whoever the fuck when they're on a date, flirting, or sex since the rest of the system didn't consent to being romantically or sexually involved with him. She's so stupid.
No. 339861
>>339859bpd retards like jill don't learn from their mistakes and grow because they misinterpret that is "giving into" haters. shes gonna double down on the DID aka talking to herself and making sockpuppets and never reveal how often she smokes nor how strong the strain is.
cant believe she thinks sitting in the car or ground for 45 minutes is a sign her shit is real. no, in the real world thats the sign of addict - phone and energy drink addiction counts.
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>28:27If you want to make memes.
Just imagine being able to make money from home (regardless of the amount) from dedicated followers who'll watch anything from you. Imagine wanting to be seen as the most traumatised person ever instead of chilling and making cutesy diy projects and the occasional anime review. Sometimes I wish I could kick her ass outside without a phone.
>>339858No I feel like you're onto something nonna. Haven't heard of cherry in a while too.
No. 339904
>>339858cherry isn't just mentally ill, she's mentally
disabled which makes jill's influence on her even worse
No. 339906
>>339903But
nonnie, visiting her mom recently was just sooo traumatic. kek her life is so dull that she really has to come up with a new OC to larp. But hey Steve gets his BPD girlfriend to roleplay as some fag for his porn addicted self.
No. 339920
>>339903that’s why no one other than kids or adults with a vulnerable mental state believe her shit. you cant "fuse" with an alter then squirt another one from your ass.
>>339911that will only happen when grows up, gains a little introspection and step away from social media. with cows, their biggest enemy is themselves.
like, her life as a homebody is so dull boring and monotonous that she overreacts to every little things that falls outside her norm. as much as covid tried to normalize homebodies its not. thats her real issue, her social anxiety. weed wont help itll just make it worse.
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The comments on her videos are always so insane.
>>339858For me the easiest explanation is that she got tired of pretending to be an angsty emo boy and all the problems it came with, so she had to kill it in the name of "healing" because she sees herself as "recovered from BPD". So now instead she wants to be a "uwu cutesy gay boi", something that Steven may find more palatable.
No. 339929
>>339926All she does is lie. Every single thing she says is a lie. Even lying about things that are extremely obvious, such as saying she's been doing tons of therapy when she does not go to therapy. She does nothing but lie, that's it.
Every ounce of this boils down to BPD, being a liar (that goes hand-in-hand), and an intense desire to not be an adult. That's it. No autism, no trauma, no DID. Lying, BPD, spoiled rotten failure to launch loser.
No. 339940
>>339926She, like a lot of gen z,uses "dissociating" as a replacement for "spacing out". I'm guessing what actually happened was she got a head rush or something leaving the parking lot, maybe she's still a nervous driver and has some anxiety, so she decided to park and chill on her phone a little bit. 45 minutes of scrolling later she looks up and is shook to notice she just spent a bunch of time scrolling. She can't remember what she just looked at, because it was all bland meaningless slop the algorithm spoon fed her. This becomes a "dissociating and DID switching episode" in her head, because she's a drama written and
doesnt realize all this stuff is literally just a common experience.
>>339849> Continues to talk about how she felt safest following the same structure that other DID content creators did so she would feel valid. She's still not getting that the "other DID content creators" are also all fakers. This kind of thing is one of many reasons underage shouldn't be online, they see some idiot on tiktok and think thats a normal depiction of an illness or whatever. However, most young people are growing out of this now, not doubling down like she is.
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She’s so embarrassing, begging people to follow her new alter on Bluesky
No. 339955
>>339952This is so embarrassing it's disturbing. When you watch the video and see her post atrocities like this it's clear she craves friendship. Posting like this is just like binging sugar, she can't resist spilling and self-image crafting through social media because she has made an empty life. She was bemoaning how keeping this secret was actually so much worse and how she just wanted to tell people. This accomplishes two things, lets her catch up of her shit larp and allows her to harvest attention.
>8:30>I will say, I wonder if anyone guessed that Jerrick might have fused because he suddenly was just not online at allLike this is next level fart huffage. How skewed is her fucking day to day if this is what she occupies herself with? How does she expect people to realize or even care? Why do your DID personalities need a social media Jill???
>>339848>>339862Not only that, but it allowed her to hype up the pity around her keeping quiet and finding it oh so hard to just talk about herself at length for an hour like she usually does anyway.
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>>339952I only took a glimpse towards Seb's bluesky account and all I saw was more autism larping and Jillian doing everything she can to copy Steven's interests in a very maladjusted way. So she did kill the mean emo alter that hated Steven to create a new guy that Steven could hold conversations with so she could be jealous of her own self hanging out with her own boyfriend. Lol.
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>>339971Couldn't get tickets to see MCR this time
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>>339976It also looks like a faked overreaction on her part. I don't think anyone could laugh at themselves sending memes through different accounts unless it gave her faker larper bliss. Or she's super high and can't tell reality from fiction anymore.
>>339887>>339858Too bad she killed Jerrick just when Wicked, the infamously green and pink movie, recently premiered. Imagine the tiktok videos she could had made if she revived him.
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even her followers dgaf lmao
No. 339998
>>339994Yeah she's obviously skinwalking Steeb or her ideal male partner with "Seb", I think even just naming the OC "Seb" is very close to "Steve", what is so insane is how first the OC was a convenient way to hide her BPD spergouts when Steeb didn't act the way she wanted and she was discarding him, then because she knows what she's fucking doing she conveniently hides the development of the new OC who actually likes Steve so she can beat the "DID is just a cover up for her BPDemon lack of identity and BPD sperg outs" when, in reality, it's so obvious what her perogative is.
Also the fact she made her dad alter gay is so fucking weird, not even going to go into
that. She's genuinely mentally ill and she needs fucking help, but sadly she won't help herself because her type of illness isn't the poor, helpless OOWOO traumatized innocent
victim kind of illness. It's the insane BPDemon malingering attention seeking kind.
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>>339946>Has this ever been explicitly stated?Yes, this has been long since established.
No. 340023
>>339849Kek today I learned I have did cause I forget where I parked sometimes.
I know it won’t happen but with the apparent friction between her and Louise/the family I wonder how big the melt down would be if little jillybean wasn’t invited to Christmas this year
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why can't she fuse all alters already?
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>>340041>>339823>>339831It's so funny that people her age are achieving real normal adult things. Her brother especially! Meanwhile she's announcing a new OC at 26. Like oh my god congratulations to your new quirky alter on twitter Jillian.
Pic related to another jillian narcissism classic. She knows she's a faildaugther
No. 340050
>>340009Nitpick but steebie's pose on the left is so annoying. Why did he pose like a mildly retarded man, straighten your goddamn back and and stand like a
man, you're not a cool model in some teens' magazine. He's so unappealing i feel confident in saying even deathfat Pixie was way above his league.
No. 340055
>>340054But nona how dare her best friend get engaged before she did? And celebrating it? Jillian just HAD to say something KEK. How dare people not notice those other things that she's
also not doing.
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On November 22 I was looking at Jill and Stevie’s Bluesky and noticed them following this DID faker and screenshotted it just because I found it odd for them to be following someone with very few followers and figured it might be relevant some day. Of course it ended up being another Jill roleplay account, I should’ve known kek.(sage this nonmilk)
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What does she mean by this?
No. 340062
>>340057to be this self-pitying and simultaneously self-aggrandizing is really astonishing. i guess this is the point of the LARP, as many nonnas have said before. first you partition off DID as the most super serious trauma. then, you do whatever it takes to convince yourself that you have DID, so now when you RP as one of your OCs, everything you do is automatically tragic. there is no level of hardship you shouldn’t appropriate and equivocate with your own suffering, because DID means you have it worst of anyone, right? notice yourself on some live laugh love carpe diem ass trip leading up to the holidays? oh honey, that’s cancer-kid levels of heartbreaking, you have DID! no, don’t spare a thought for anyone else who might be going through anything worse, think of yourself and all that you’ve been through. seriously, it’s mind-breaking to see someone feel sorry for themself, for feeling happy? what the actual fuck
No. 340069
>>340041>>339952How is she not killing herself after the psychic damage this would bring to anyone by the sheer force of cringe?
Is it really that difficult to make some online friends to respond to your shitty memes and retarded tweets? This is even more proof of how low has Jillian fallen, she can't even find random people to talk with.
No. 340074
>>340057Pure unadulterated selfishness. She is so far up her own ass it’s almost unbelievable. How much happier would she be if she stopped trying to paint her life as a tragedy? If she ever gets over herself she’s going to be so angry at having wasted all this time trying to find a reason for her unhappiness (again it’s Jill, she is the reason).
Jillian you’re unhappy because of you, because you make choices to be the worst version of yourself and you know it! And instead of taking steps to be happy and grateful for what you do have, you find reasons to shit on everything or destroy it so you can shrug, claim you tried, and disavow any responsibilities. You’re lazy, selfish and mean, grow the fuck up already.
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Talking about ponies but it feels like something someone should say to her
No. 340081
>>340079Does she know she can sperg about the mental wellbeing and trauma of ponies without being a chronic attention seeking malingerer? And here
>>340057 does she know she can write out her angsty feelings without pretending to have a billion people in her head? She lauds herself as being a creative but her malingering munchie business is counterintuitive to the image of a creative that she loves to present herself as. Like genuinely she's such an empty person. Normal internet dwelling straight women pour all of this drive into writing fanfiction and shipping characters together or whatever and maybe they grow out of it and end up amateur, or professional, authors. It must be so exhausting needing to have every interest and like relate to you and revolve around yourself. Like holy shit that is hell.
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>>340079Weird that she thinks this, considering.
No. 340083
>>340082That's how the fucking diagnosis works though
These people i stg
No. 340084
>>340082I wonder if the drama was that mama vessey finally figured out that anyone who believes jilly's tall tales also believes that she must have been horrifically
abusive or neglectful to allow such heinous things to happen to her kid that she started having fictional people live in her head. so now we have the "it wasn't that bad" era to placate her mom.
No. 340085
>>340082She agrees with this because her original story that she doesn’t have significant trauma is true, and her subsequent scrambling to get internet credit by claiming to be a
victim of repeated egregious childhood sexual abuse is all bullshit.
No. 340101
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>>340057poor jerricka didn't even get to plan for christmas
No. 340113
>>340086>She goes hard on this topic because she knows nothing fucking happened. that's absolutely it too, she doubles down so hard because it's this huge act in an attempt to make herself the biggest
victim in the room all while trying to be as vague as possible knowing nothing fucking happened and she's full of shit. her malingering ass
wants to think that someone yelling at her once or twice as a kid was the worst thing that ever happened to her and she wants everyone else to think that something absolutely terrible happened to her because she was uncomfortable once. she lives in a little rainbow dungeon smoking weed all day acting like her entire world revolves around her LARP, spends all her time trying to prove everyone wrong to the point of making multiple accounts to interact with herself and acts like she's so misunderstood because people rightfully criticize her nasty behavior. she's a spoiled fucking brat and if she can't have it her way she throws a tantrum and goes above and beyond over it. if she was as messed up as she says she is, none of the above would be even relevant to the conversation because people with the debilitating disorders she likes to claim aren't the ones doing this shit. the absolute hubris
>>340102kek, too real nona. that's seriously true
>>340101next threadpic please also
>poor jerricka didn't even get to plan for christmasjfc nona KEKKKK
No. 340135
>>340101Please next thread pic kek
>>340102This, she has no respect for people that have gone through worse because everything has to be about herself
No. 340216
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>>340209why is she nailing vintage ponies to a wall? the ponies look terrible and she looks high.
No. 340236
>>340216>>340222She grew up with parents who let her do anything and bought her anything she ever wanted. They may not help her now, but she never learned to save up money or not to buy every single thing she wants.
All the shit she gets into is about buying random shit (expensive or not). All she knows is consoom. She absolutely did not think twice before buying or wrecking those ponies. She's a spoiled child and doesn't think anything twice.
No. 340238
>>340209>>340233>>340216It's an odd choice she probably made while high. It's not even a shelf, it's an ugly hook.
>>340222The "restoration" itself was terrible but I wonder why didn't she buy/thrift a simple wall mounted shelf for her ponies to be properly displayed on? She's damaging her walls by randomly sticking shit everywhere so there's no excuse as to why she couldn't just pick a shelf. She could had even done a diy video on it like she used to with other furniture.
Deep down I know she wants to look crazy and or autistic doing this but all I can see is someone not taking proper care of a collection she's supposedly obsessed with. Same thing with the peeps plush she hasn't mended yet.
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>>340216This looks stupid. How many ponies is she going to put up on hooks?
No. 340470
>>340439>None of this gives ‘special interest’Someone with a special interest in ponies would take care of them and properly display them instead of nailing them to a wall as a photo prop. She's very transparent, she may like ponies but her only real interest is herself.
>>340438>This looks stupid. How many ponies is she going to put up on hooks?Didn't watch the entire video because of the extreme cringe Jill emanates but I'm assuming it'll be the entire wall so she can take photos in front of it. I think it's not so much an aesthetic choice but something she's doing so people can go "omg is she autistic lol???" so she's probably going to sacrifice a lot more vintage ponies in the future.
No. 340478
>>340237The difference between her and the dandelion girl is that at least this girl is somewhat credible and knows how to display things better than Jill. Again Jilian's just copying others for her own benefit. A "pony wall" would had look better and more credible if she instead drew a bunch of pony fanart, framed it, and added the toys somewhere. Or she could had printed a huge wall vinyl sticker of pinkie pie. This is stupid.
No. 340542
>>340497I wasn't going to watch the video because I find her too unbearable 99% of the time but your comment made me go back and take a peak, and good fucking grief, you hit the nail on the head.
The BPD, the narcissism, and the drugs are wrestling each other for control of the wheel the entire time. It's a hard watch
No. 340556
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and none of this applies to Jill.
No. 340557
>>340556it's funny seeing this shit because to me it's one of the things that gives her away as a faker the most (asides from the fact she's beyond obvious and terrible at faking). retweeting some quick overview that some retard carelessly highlighted just to highlight it because jill is constantly seething no one believes her LARP asides from the LARPers kek. the more she tries to prove it to everyone and act like "gotcha!" the more pathetic and tryhard she looks. imagine scrolling twitter all day trying to convince everyone of all the make believe illnesses you have and how it's oh-so hard to deal with all of these symptoms while tweeting at the same time as her 10th dissasociation of the day is happening. this bitch is so stupid
>>340542>>340552kek i have a hard time watching any video where jillian is speaking but i might have to watch at least a bit based on what you nonas are saying
No. 340582
>>340478>>340552>dandelion girl isn't even autisticSorry for slight OT but she's a good comparison to Jill, there's no record of dandelion girl being autistic from what I know nor is her collection that out of hands. She stated in a video from just a few months ago that she had 473 (leave or take a few, I don't remember the exact number) crayons, 400 of which came from briefly opening a PO box. She didn't even make it past 100 on her own, and crayons don't take a lot of space. You can literally buy packs with over 100 crayons in them, so she owned less than a pack before being gifted them from social media.
She's a perfect example of a girl being creative and fun about a silly little collection - unlike Jill who claims (one of her veeery many) autistic special interest obsession is peeps… but she has a handful of items at most. Crayon girl doesn't tie it to autism or a mental illness, she doesn't use excuses like that. She built a social media profile and stayed likable and popular based on this small niche. Jill is just such a failure in comparison, failure at social media and at even faking autism.
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Was thinking "what is Jill going to do with all of Jerrick's clothes now?" But then I remembered that most of her clothes were stolen from Steven's, and that makes me believe that taking his clothes and hobbies from him was always the goal for Jill. Now I wonder if Seb will continue being the green alter with maybe a different shade of green or if he'll wear the atrocious green wig and knitted sweater Jillian made. And if he's getting a friendship bracelet as well.
No. 340618
>>340592It's so funny that you can tell she wanted to go all out with the trans Jerrick shit. Tranny, DID and autistic was THE trifecta of tiktok fakers
But she looked so awful, fat, and older than her age. The teenage fakeboi shit is for teenagers for a reason. She never committed to this cause she's too insecure about looks. But you know damn well she desperately wanted those fake LGBT points
No. 340642
>>340625>tries to allude that her constant UTIs from sex are due to sexual trauma from being raped as a childOh god I almost forgot about this. It's so obvious she read about this without understanding
why it happens and claimed it anyway. I wish her dumbass followers recognized this but of course they didn't
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>>340625Don't forget that she claimed to have suffered neglect as a baby, Says that her fake autism made non-traumatic things seem traumatic and has alluded to csa a lot, while having publicly defended actual pedos on her social media.
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now she has trauma from hair cuts? guess she needed to step up her totes real trich larp
No. 340708
>>340673I could understand forceful pushing of a tampon when you’re not relaxed
triggering a flashback, but penetration from a moid when you are relaxed not doing the same. Regardless, she’s a dumbfuck. She tastelessly believes her having experimented with her girlfriend in the same age group as her is in any way comparable to heinous rape that WOULD result in DID, like the molestation her peers faced from her pedophile piano teacher.
No. 340731
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>>340722how are you this gullible? if what she says is true then her whole family is autistic
No. 340738
>>340708I'm sorry if this gets read as spoonfeeding request, but am I right in thinking Jill keeps contradicting herself all the time? I'm fairly sure all of the following statements have been claimed by her:
>She did NOT have childhood trauma (that caused DID)>Implied her DID wasn't due to trauma, but her being some kind of "sensitive dissociative autist" who can therefor get DID without trauma and later in life (as a teen instead of a child)>Her DID was caused by trauma as a teenager, implied to be traumatic sexual abuse>The trauma happened for months and she was unable to speak or do anything against it>She DOES have early childhood trauma, which is sometimes implied or even directly stated to to be "CSA">Implied her family was terribly abusive towards her>Her DID was implied to be caused by early childhood trauma>Loves and is close to her family, even based an alter on her own dad>Berry alter split when 4-6 years old, implying that's when sexual abuse happened to her>She can't even use tampons due to trauma and "hellish flashbacks">She loves dick too much to be a lesbian>Veronica alter (aka Jill herself) is a slut/sexy plaything/whatever she called it who loves sex and flirtingI legit can't keep track of all of her fictional lies anymore. But I guess that's her plan, to say and allude to whatever benefits her in the moment and to later pretend she totally didn't say or mean that and it was really something else. Only to them switch the "something else" to another new thing, and then another…
No. 340741
>>340731I assume this is an old tweet of hers but want to comment on it anyway because it’s so indicative of how clueless and social media rotted she is. EVERY family has “crazy echolalia” because that’s how humans work. She’s so sheltered and all these “peer-reviewed autism!” chicks talk to each other and unofficially diagnose each other by all agreeing they share the bullet point traits of ASD, meanwhile if they pulled their heads out of their asses they’d see that literally the entire world fits such vague criteria.
Every single healthy happy family has inside jokes and songs and sound bytes and little quips they do to pass the time, ease boredom, and break silence—it’s how the human brain works and is why humming, whistling, and singing are known to be completely normal things people have done to amuse themselves while waiting around or working or doing something slightly boring, since the dawn of time. Cultures around the world have shared songs for things like washing and making clothes, harvesting food, all sorts of things during which we get a little bored and want to chat and hear familiar sounds and use another part of our brain to be more occupied and engaged. We’re so linguistic our brains are like sponges for sound by nature—all of us, and it’s why very linguistic creatures like parrots and dolphins behave and respond similarly.
She’s made autism not only into astrology but also into a way to pathologize every aspect of her life. Imagine making your whole brand that you’re the most tragic, unique, special person ever, who has a get out of jail free card for completely squandering your life, and your story is just that you didn’t like experimenting with your middle school girlfriend, and you collect toys and sing little tunes while smoking pot on your couch all day.
No. 340743
>>340690KEK
>>340741Like you said, she just has to pathologize every single normal thing to make her LARP make sense. For example, getting a haircut can make people nervous, but she takes that normal experience and turns it into "so very autistic I am afraid of change because autism and also did I mention my trich? She seems to get a very weird enjoyment out of talking about her performance and caricature of an autistic/mentally ill individual and misusing therapy/medical lingo.
No. 340747
>>340731Does she think that getting songs stuck in her head and singing them is echolalia? Because as far as I know that's not it
>>340716Adding to this, she lives in Canada where a lot of people are left leaning and like another anon said, hair dressers are trained to deal with people's hair, no matter if they're queer, homeless, mentally ill, autistic, etc. Like I cannot imagine any hair dresser refusing to cut some gay person's hair unless they were super right wing leaning (also dumb because a lot of hair dressers are gay themselves).
And, at the end of the day, she's just a girl in a spicy straight relationship that larps autism, she has no real issues or needs that for example an schizophrenic or low functioning autistic person getting a haircut would have, other than wanting to play with toys (like she did in the classroom but she called that "stimming") and wearing rainbow colors so she can feel special, unique and vulnerable. If staying still is an issue I think most hair dressers can accommodate that. For me "queer and autistic friendly place" means "quirky and sad failed adult friendly place" and it would not be any different to any other salon other than the walls being painted rainbow and having trans flags everywhere. So there's literally no point to any of that kek. Vidrel is how I imagine said hair salon to be kek all these places are super predictable. It's all for show.
No. 340763
She has stated that she used to be fine with going to the hairdressers but moved town and now has anxiety about finding a new stylist (and added some bs about autistic people not being good with change etc of course). I do agree with
>>340752 though.
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Jill is going to do drag again
No. 340808
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>>340676didn't know it was a video
No. 340815
>>340804KEK no way, flashbacks to when "Jerr" was always getting gigs for drag shows just to quit last second. Obviously these half assed events that are probably made by people who are just as big of cows as Jillian wouldn't put research or just wouldn't care at all to see if the person they're hiring actually has a track record of preforming at events, but surely they actually would want to host an actual event? It's not even like that one MCR steven universe performance was good either, she just flopped around with no energy because she hadn't actually choreographed and prepared most of the dance and wasn't used to moving around so much.
The weed and nuggies stop her>>340808As someone with bangsThose bangs are too long. Usually when you get bangs like the ones she has, you're supposed to cut them a little shorter than you want since they grow relativley fast compared to other parts of the hair. She's going to have to get them cut in a week like
>>340810 this
nonnie said. The pastel colors also make the shaping look weird and I wish she'd go for a semi normal hair color at least.
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New post on her community page. Looks like the new video might be a Christmas vlog. I wonder if she filmed her hair appointment for her larp. The "hair salon fear" is such bullshit. She's gotten her hair professionally dyed and styled at the salon throughout her life with no problem bc she doesn't have autism. She's so stupid to play around with did/autism larp when her years of documentation and openness about her anxiety says otherwise. She's forgetting her mom's facebook posts, too.
No. 340838
>>340829>>340209>everypony>shoe horned mlp stickerYou can buy rare vintage toys. You can keep shoe horning it into pumpkins and xmas and shit. You're only making it more obvious that you were NOT doing this few before.
It's not about how many times you say you have the interest. It's about aspie loyalty and dedication… And you cannot buy that you lolita poser.
No. 340843
>>340837- left some of the overwhelming cluttered decorations in the the box because it's "less overwhelming". Your whole house is overwhelming.
- To be sustainable she keeps using things that she has, repairs things if broken or turns them around. Will add one or two new things a year.
- Has a video of Serena smacking the ornaments on the tree, which is out of character. I hope those aren't breakable for the cat's sake.
- " I have the easiest job in the world where I get to decide all my hours and what I do and what I fill my time with" but the way her brain works thats means that's she's always doing something that relates to youtube or posting to social media. I guess being a malingering piece of shit stoner is apart of the job. IT really racks in the views.
- Made a granny square lesbian flag blanket for her friend which has been taking up a lot of her time along with the Pinkie Pie script.
- Keeps singing "That's what I love about Christmas" and calls it echolalia. The 20 mlpfim episode's song are "so stimmy".
- Has been really into retrobriting and restoration so she wants to make her things UV friendly especially the retro ponies. But she wanted to see the ponies's sides and cutie marks and didn't want to put them on a shelf or dessert plates. She was nervous how it was going to look. Surprisingly, the ponies aren't nailed to the wall- But are floating on wires connected to the wall with tape and tack.
- Started washing her face everyday and loves feeling fresh and clean. Has a "sensory issue" of the water dripping down her arms. And got 7 dollar wrist bands for her "sensory needs". Or you can just wash your face in the shower/tub or deal with the water like everyone else does. Uses whatever skincare brand is cute and not expensive. Is not loyal to any specific brand, which isn't bad for your face's skin barrier at all
No. 340845
>>340808Damn she's an ugly little gremlin. Shave it all off, get a wig and start all over again Jill, its the only way.
>>340805I'm so assblasted she's going to butcher a sailor mars cosplay. I figured she'd go for sailor moon or sailor Venus if anything.
>>340818I think its because she has small earlobes that are more "attached" to her head than other people. I remember a piercer telling me about this before but i forgot how they explained it. I wish she'd take them out because she's reminding me of those old 2010 crusty stoners who smell like old B.O and stale cornchips.
No. 340846
>>340843kek threads back there were jokes about her not showering and now she dedicates a section of her video about how she
actually LOVES showering. Even with fake autism!
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>>340843Whoops, didn't mean to post the video twice. Sorry everybody.
No. 340852
>>340837Christ her house is so dank looking despite all the bright kawiwi colours. It's so DARK in there.
Also fuck her for pretending to have all these sensory issues suddenly. Someone who can play with yarn, pom poms, consistently cut and dye her own hair, deal with the smell of weed constantly and the absolute retinal burn of colours she has plastered throughout the house? No, bitch. It's clearly a facade to get internet points but it shits me off more than almost any other thing she's done.
No. 340863
>>340843This woman is so bored.
She reminds me of a dolphin or a parrot or something trapped in a too-small enclosure that ends up compulsively spinning and pulling out its feathers. She literally gives me the same energy, it makes me feel so uncomfortable.
No. 340873
>>340863that is perfectly analogy for her life, hell the majority of fake nice influencers on social media. she can pretend all she wants she lives a happy life but we know its all bullshit from steve's reaction and distance from her, her hair
trigger bpd reactions when people don't believe her DID act or if something inconveniences her, and her retarded need to sprinkle clinical terms into every mundane thing she does. shes socially and emotionally deprived from being in the cannabis rainbow dungeon for so long with only using her phone to engage with the outside world.
No. 340879
>>340876She seems particularly unwell in this video. She's doing the constant thing of shaming herself, questioning her actions and what she's doing, flipping between self-amused and self-shame constantly and rapidly. She is NOT well, and if you actually listen to what she really says? She is not actually OK with it, and knows what she's doing is wrong. When she launches into her "I have the easiest job in the world" thing, that is not a humble brag, she is shaming herself. Mentally unwell and under stimulated parrots pull out their feathers, and under stimulated BPD bitches pull out their hair.
Jill. Get. A. Job. You are literally doing this all to yourself, and the worst part is: YOU KNOW IT.
No. 340885
>>340861The DID larp is funny because the characters are ridiculous, she even wears costumes. Also DID is not scientifically proven and has a whole faker community around it. With autism is just offensive. She plays a version of autism that implies that she is all of a sudden pretty much disabled and very high needs, and we have proof it's a complete lie.
>>340876>>340879Jill cannot survive a real 9 to 5 or a "real" job in any capacity. And not because of the totes real autism or DID, but because she is a whiny self-entitled spoiled child woman. She would ask for a million acommodations and she would cry ableism on twitter daily.
No. 340888
>>340886100% half her issues would go away if she had an actual life with requirements of regularly going out into the actual world and existing for long periods of time around somewhat normal people, which is why she was way more normal in high school and did fine with full time study and theater and a part time job.
It’s honestly indicative of her poor character that she’s used this massive amount of free time to do nothing of use for herself OR anyone else. I know a LOT of people in charity work and have learned that pretty much every empty nest housewife with free time on their hands ends up becoming an actual activist (not posting shit on Twitter) and hard worker in some volunteer field like doing manual labor to help the less fortunate. Jill has gone all these years twiddling her thumbs about how tragic she is while sitting on a rainbow throne.
No. 340899
>>340837I don't know how to do it, but can someone
please make a .gif of the weird movement she does from 13:17 - 13:24? That was some of the weirdest thing I seen from her in a long time. Why does she upload stuff like this? Doesn't she ever feel embarrassed or ashamed for herself?
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>>340899you can use gifrun.com
No. 340902
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>>340900>>340899made an extra one kek
No. 340909
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>>340902jill when she doesn't get what she wants
No. 340911
>>340843>Started washing her face everyday and loves feeling fresh and clean. Has a "sensory issue" of the water dripping down her arms. And got 7 dollar wrist bands for her "sensory needs".I'm going to flip a table, just how many perfectly normal things to experience must she pathologize before her braindead followers realize she's a faker? Even if they think she's '
valid' for ~surviving~ the stupidest shit ever, surely at some point they'd have doubts???
>>340900>>340902>>340899>Doesn't she ever feel embarrassed or ashamed for herself?She probably thinks that makes her look more autistic, when it reality it just highlights how obnoxious and annoying she is. She's the kind of person that randomly shouts in a store when she's excited about a product like a poorly educated child and you want to strangle her because you just want to shop in peace.
No. 340916
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>>339983She had to kill Jerrick. If you go back through the old threads when her DID saga began, there's a lot of examples of the deranged shit she'd post there. I think she finally realized, albeit too late, that posts like these could seriously impact her reputation and her income. The account that she used to roleplay as her Jerrick OC was just filled with vile, putrid shit like picrel, her negative mean-spirited behaviours and cruel malicious thoughts on full display without the rainbow facade.
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>>339849Late reply, I know, but I wanted to screen cap the graphic displayed at 39:11 and post it here just for archival purposes. I'll also transcribe what's written because the handwriting is sort of messy.
Jill:>Feminine>General personality is more chill & grounded (this "level" now lives in Sunny)>Business focused>SIB>In love with StevieJerrick:>Masculine & feminine>Severe BPD symptoms>Desperate to be seen/heard.>Copes through music>Dysphoria (major)>Asexual (sex repulsed)>SHSeb:>Masculine>Sensitive Boy>Fear of abandonment & BPD symptoms>Desires to be seen/heard>Copes through music>Dysphoria (milder)>Deeply romantic and longing lol>In love with Stevie>Trich!From this graphic, it looks like Jerrick and Seb share a lot of the same features like being a convenient excuse for her BPD-esque behaviours, an infantile need for attention, & listening to music. It seems like Jill just retconned Jerrick to make her OC more politically correct to cover her ass from the Twittards that make up the majority of her audience. I assume that she was wary of getting into hot water with the gendie crowd for having a troon alter, so instead of a TIF, Seb is a man. She's also decided that this character should no longer hate Stephen, conveniently after his proposal to her. I don't really understand the difference between Jerrick's
desperation to be seen/head versus Seb's
desire to be seen or heard, nor do I understand how Jill can seriously think that she's a "business-focused" person.
What the hell does "SIB" mean? I looked it up on UrbanDictionary and it gave me "sweaty itchy butt," but I don't think that that's what Jill meant. Or at least I hope that's not what she meant. No. 340921
>>340900Someone needs to put
> lolcow.farm timeOn the left and turn this into a banner
>>340909When lolcow.farm is down kek
No. 340923
>>340917It's a medical terminology short form for 'Self-Injurous Behavior'.
Source: I'm a support worker for people with extremely low functioning autism and this is something that doctors put in their charts. So … lol
No. 340924
>>340917Seb
>Desires to be seen/heardInadvertently affirming her attention-whore behavior
>>Dysphoria (milder)Yeah the dysphoria is just being upset that she's fat, it's milder now because she lost some weight through Wellbutrin kek
>In love with StevieYep, this identity is no longer asexual and repulsed by Stevie because he finally proposed and gave her what she was passive aggressively tormenting him over kek.
This fucking retarded loser bitch.
No. 340925
>>340917>>340916Will Seb tell people to go "suck a cock" on social media as well?
>nor do I understand how Jill can seriously think that she's a "business-focused" person. Here's the thing anon, Jill is business focused but her other 6 alters excluding Cliffe The Accountant are not, so when she transforms into a cat all the business grind in her mind disappears. And since all 6 alters are fighting to come out all times she ends up doing no business at all. Kek
No. 340926
>>340917I like the fact that she put a ! after trich as if it's just a cutesy quirky thing. Lol. Thank you for the transcription. She thinks she can get out of the hole she made by using a "loophole" but in reality it's just her digging a deeper hole by doing the same thing and expecting a different outcome. Insanity.
>>340923What I'm thinking too especially when you put into context Jill making that tweet from last year supposedly hitting herself.
No. 340927
>>340923What it probably means: low functioning autistic people that hit themselves when they have a meltdown
What Jill wants it to mean: cutting herself, self harm
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of course she loves anything that validates her larp. my god make it stop
No. 340947
>>340945Lurk more. There is no trauma. She has been throwing shit at the wall and just seeing what sticks since the very beginning. From the top of my head, she's claimed: that she experienced severe sexual and physical abuse as a child in her parents' home; that she was sexually abused over DeviantArt; that her piano teacher inappropriately touched another girl but that she was more traumatized than her; that hitting a deer with her cow traumatized her. That's just what I can remember off the top of my head, there's way more that she's spewed out in the past.
It might be a good idea if someone goes through all the threads and links every post she's made that gives background on her "trauma," just so that it's all compiled into one post. A lot of the OP for the threads is dedicated to her alters, but not a lot of it is devoted to her past milk besides the last thread recap portion. It's been like 3 years since her DID saga began, and so much has happened since then.
No. 340949
>>340947>That's just what I can remember off the top of my head, there's way more that she's spewed out in the past.>It might be a good idea if someone goes through all the threads and links every post she's made that gives background on her "trauma," just so that it's all compiled into one post. Agreed. What I can remember from all her contradictory trauma claims is this:
>She had no trauma, splitted alters naturally >She had no trauma, splitted alters because she thinks autistic people are more prone to DID>She has vague trauma, sometimes is severe and only she knows what happened, other times she knows people think her trauma is not as severe but then she says even the smallest things cause traumaAs for what things caused it:
>Her basement >Her dA ex gf>A girl getting groomed by her piano teacher (but not her)>The car accident with the deer>Her hometownFeel free to add more
No. 340951
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Time to see if she says anything dumb enough to note from her live today.
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>>340951- Opens the stream by saying she freaked out a little (over the haircut) because she can't do any of her normal styles but she loves it.
- Different parts are reacting to it differently. "All that hair had to go". Hopes her hair grows and carefully bleached the roots. Knows that she has a bowlcut if it's not styled right then squawks out an annoying noise.
- Says her last haircut was awful and lopsided. The one she got to also help with growth and said she loved about a year ago. Says this haircut is "very gender" and almost a pixie-cut. Scared her hair doesn't pineapple anymore.
- Was contacted by another youtuber for a pony collab so that video along with the wrapping Christmas presents video should be the last videos of the year.
- Mixes her dyes in mason jars and the styling brush keeps annoyingly clinking up against the glass, which isn't irritating to her as a larping autist. Adds a bit of purple to her pink dye to cancel out the orange tones because "when you bleach hair it's a little bit yellowy".
- Blabs about dnd sessions and how she has a character named eros who's a drag queen.Yaps about mlp and the second part of the Pinkie Pie video.
- The rest of the stream is her and her audience being annoying while she dyed her hair. I somehow forgot that Jill's fans are just as obnoxious and desperate to stand out as her. One of them being extra special as a pansexual pagan in polycule.
- Jill's does the "scooby doo" four color hair thing again but with hot pink and golden yellow on one side and teal and mystic magenta on the other.
- She will be away for the remainder of this year's Saturdays (presumably at her parents' house) but might stream for one of them.
>>340954Maybe she did name herself after pixie sticks, but I remember her saying in one video long ago that she put a bunch of cute nouns together in a list and came up with Pixielocks. I think that was in one of her first Q and A videos.
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>>340957>>340958I always thought she had ripped off her name from "Lady Lovely Locks and the Pixytails"
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>>340958Thanks for the quick rundown.
>Was contacted by another youtuber for a pony collab so that video along with the wrapping Christmas presents video should be the last videos of the year.Wonder who she got to collab with?
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>>340958She literally does have a bowl cut lmao she looks like that crazy bitch from the movie the Empty Man.
Man there’s no way to save that hair. Jillian just shave it off and start all over and wear wigs. The fact this dumbass doesn’t realize putting her dried straw like hair in a bun causes breakage and worsens its condition. Even if her bowl cut was long enough to put in a bun she could not afford to do so without further hindering growth and worsening breakage
No. 340999
>>340958The autism friendly salon really gave her the coconut head bowl cut.
>>340957It only looks good when its styled a certain way. It looks like she asked for a wolf cut but the salon didn't know how to do it and also didn't realize wolf cuts only look good when your hair is curled/is curly.
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>>340958>Says her last haircut was awful and lopsided. The one she got to also help with growth and said she loved about a year ago.Wait, this haircut which looks similar to the one she got last year except with bangs? Unless I'm confusing something, why the rewrite all of a sudden?
>>340972I know, it hurts how she's so pigheaded. No matter how many tantrums she has the truth is her hair needs a break. Why she's so fixated on it being her real hair is a mystery to me especially since no one gives a fuck about people wearing wigs.
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>>341009Continuing, here's the haircut she got last year. I also like the fact that in that tweet she shows the before pic of last year only. She only showed the back so I took a screenshot of one of the clips after she got the cut to try to show the front.
No. 341019
>>341009Maybe I took what she said about the last haircut out of context? Maybe she meant that it was awful and lopsided because it was so damaged from chemicals and heat because the haircut looks fine in
>>341011Or she's lying and changing her opinions around again because of BPD.
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>>341003It's been 6 years of rainbow hair and she's been doing unconventional hair colors since high school. She's too immature to let it be a "phase".
At most we could get blonde but she's too attention-starved to ever go back to brown.
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>>341026damn, imagine what could had been
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>>341033Her natural color suits her better than bleach blonde. I couldn't find a photo of Jill with longish hair in this style but it looks so healthy here.
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>>341019>Or she's lying and changing her opinions around again because of BPDWhat she is doing. I think it's hilarious she can't put her hair up in her "signature style."
>>341034Completely agree
>>341038She desperately needs self-awareness. I sometimes want to insert the horrid laugh track used by sitcoms in certain clips of hers. It feels appropriate since she fancies herself to be a main character.
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>Severe neglect/abandonment when children need closeness and protection is horrifying when-
Except that didn't happen to her.
No. 341076
>>341066Louise and her dad need to call her out on this garbage already. She lives such a sheltered, privileged existence with parents who
enable dote on her and have supported every frivolous endeavour she has ever tryfailed. Any wonder their attention has shifted to their grateful son.
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>>341066>>341075The neglect they endured was beyond cruel. Her parents should be ashamed by their conditions they were in. Not even 50 gifts! Hopefully Jill will one day recover
No. 341081
>>341076I wish Jill would go on a podcast or something and get asked about all the things she's claimed. Not even in a call out way, give her the benefit of the doubt and politeness of assuming it's all true and sincerely ask "Jill you've mentioned your family was terribly
abusive to you as a child, how do you think that has affected you? And without going into details what was the nature of the abuse, was it physical or verbal…?". Give her the attention she wants.
No. 341086
>>341066she seems slightly aware of her bpd, but like the rest of them, selfishly tries to play
victim instead of growing tf up
No. 341091
>>341088Yeah really typical BPD behavior honestly. A lot of those who get diagnosed try to use it as an excuse for poor behaviors, or to play up the melodrama of their life, or they ignore it and claim they’ve done nothing wrong and actually have some other condition like autism. Jill doing all of this and acting like she’s the world’s biggest helpless
victim despite just having “you’re an overdramatic asshole” condition is so textbook. I mean it’s literally just a term given to people who are huge crybaby dickheads who mess up their life and other people’s lives with their antics yet Jill wants us to believe she’s truly a paragon of tragedy and empathy.
>>341079So sad to witness abuse, neglect, and abandonment this severe. This should be spoilered for the graphic scenes of torture and abuse. How shocking she isn’t already in a famous TV documentary like those kids who grew up chained to radiators or kidnapped and kept in a basement. Clearly this is evidence that Jill is so severely neglected beyond anything normally imaginable, no wonder her mind shattered into ten dozen Japanese cartoon children and several gay men to cope.
(armchairing) No. 341100
>>341094She never goes into the specifics of her "trauma" with her parents but she has gone into specific trauma when talking about a
toxic relationship with an older girl. Not being able to listen to certain songs or go downtown in her charlottesville. Before she claimed she was traumatized she spoke openly about her anxiety, self harm, depression, eating disorders and even mentioned that her mom had cancer (probably without her permission).
Over the ten years she's been on youtube, she's mentioned how spoiled she is and how much she loves her family and how much her family cares about her. She's said that she was abusived heavily as a child starting from a young age but didn't say what kind of abuse it was. Could it be that Jillian has limits to her lies and doesn't want to claim that her family physically/verbally/sexually/etc abused her because she's afraid of being confronted by them? She doesn't realize that most people who have been abused by their family go no contact as soon as they can while Jillian is clearly still in her family's lives.
It's crazy that her parents didn't shut that shit down asap, as her claiming that they abused her could ruin their livelihoods. Even Jill linking her last name and showing her family in videos and posts could ruin things for them.
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>>341101Don't forget how her parents were evil baby abusers.
No. 341113
>>341111She always implies and tries to get the idea out there cause she wants the attention so bad. But never goes into the neglect because her parents would distance even more.
For "autistic" she's so insanely manipulative with shit like this. Tweeting vague shit to get people to feel sorry for you. But vague enough to play dumb when mom calls you. Such calculated shit and she does it everytime
>>341094>>341097Exactly, it's not the expensive dress.
She was best friends with her mom and they spent every single second together. She was coddled and praised and got everything - even niche imported expensive shit. That's how insanely close they were.
This wasn't a neglectful parent buying something to "make up" for it. Your sweet mom knew you so well and followed your insane weeaboo thing to get you the only thing you couldn't get (yet). She was close and crucial in your upbringing and supported every thing you liked or did. Now you shame her with neglect accusations and act like buying a dress doesn't mean you weren't abused. You weren't abused. And you clearly didn't deserve that dress you ungrateful bitch.
No. 341122
>>341120>why else would she suddenly switch over to the child who is not showing open mental illness online and can't be bragged about.I see what point you're trying to make, but this happened AFTER Jill started claiming her mom was a terrible
abusive parent who gave her long lasting trauma from the age of infancy, and after publicly becoming addicted to weed. It's just hurtful and insulting to be lied about, especially if it's as serious as child abuse.
Even IF there was abuse and her mom accepts Jill talking about it to some degree, if her mom is not the abuser she should rightfully be angry Jill is framing it as if she is the one who did it.
And if her mom really IS the terrible infant abuser asshole Jill insinuates she is, then it's confusing Jill is even still in contact with her to begin with. She can't even listen to certain songs without trauma
triggering, but she happily stays in contact with her abuser?
And why the hell WOULD anyone brag about their child faking mental illness (I'm sure the parents know it's fake and don't buy into it), why would they be proud when they don't approve of their daughters public weed addiction? It's straight up embarrassing for any normal person.
No. 341124
>>341101>I'm pretty convinced her main "neglect trauma" she refers to is when her mom had cancer.And her mom
LIVED! She's alive
right now! If Jill was neglected AND her mother died,
maybe she'd have some claim to that trauma, but her mother is
currently, as we type, alive and thriving. Jill is grasping at straws to justify her bullshit as anything but Beautiful Princess Disorder kek
No. 341126
>>341125stop trying to justify jill's antics. there is no proof that in any way indicates louise is a narcissist. she is quite the opposite. the only bad thing she has done to jill is enable her, which i understand because she wants to believe her child and do what she thinks is best for her. most likely jill got pissed off for her mother not being there for her (because she had cancer, she was disabled), and she discovered her and her sick mom got attention from being ill. jill is like any other child who went through mild trauma at a young age and got attention from it (divorce, sick parent, grandparent died, whatever early childhood trauma that is relatively common), and then decided they could use that for the rest of their life when they mount to nothing. she's always thought of herself as special for being quirky and "different", yet she got nowhere in life compared to others her age, so she uses illnesses to pretend for herself that she's actually done much more than just be a stoner larping illnesses to avoid responsibilities. venusangelic had an
abusive narcissistic mom. this is the type of person you (and jill) are comparing louise to. you sound like jill or a jill fan when you try to argue her mother was "probably a narcissist/
abusive" based on absolutely nothing. it's also not uncommon for parents to make mistakes and not be perfect in every area, and that doesn't make them
abusive.
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>>341133>>341126Louise is the smothering type of narcissistic, you don't remember her hoping on lolcow to defend her precious jillybean and trashing her exes with her? Or the fact that until Jill turned out to be a dud she basically just ignored her son. Read the old threads. Jill and her mom had this weird
toxic codependency, Louise just isn't malicious.
(armchair) No. 341143
>>341081longform, unedited content like podcasts is literally jills nightmare. sage for tinfoil but i would bet 100% of the reason she hasnt already had the "idea" to have a podcast is because she then loses her control over this extremely complex story she's spun up. having to talk WITHOUT responding to a livestream chat would be impossible for her to not drop the larp/have massive holes in her claims.
podcasts are uber trendy, everyone has had or currently has one, (including albinwonderland who jill is known to skinwalk). it's on her radar and she'd still never do it.
it would truly be the milkiest day in jillhistory to pull apart something longform and unedited
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>>341125Just because her daughter turned out to be a shitty person it doesn't mean that Louise is an
abusive narc mom. Stop pathologizing everything.
>>341126A big part of it is also Jillian's own personality and life choices. That's something parents don't always have a choice on. Sure, Louise didn't want her kid to get bullied and tried to support her as much as she could, Jill was a sensitive kid with big dreams. There's thousands of supportive mothers like that out there and their kids become well adjusted happy adults. There's a reason why her brother didn't turn out like she did and that's because he never asked for attention on the internet nor tried to change his identity multiple times for online woke points. I could also mention he never wanted to be a walking rainbow but even people with colorful hair can be well adjusted unlike Jill.
Maybe lot of anons itt may not have siblings themselves because as someone who has a very shitty sibling it's pretty obvious here that this will never be entirely her parent's fault. Some people just choose to be terrible on their own.
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Present wrapping video coming this weekend.
A surprise month of Hellmas is now in effect. For the rest of the month of December, VPN posting will be banned.