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Jillian Vessey is a DID (Dissociative Personality Disorder) LARPer who trivializes mental health and sugar coats every single bad trait of hers while hyping up a dubious diagnostic impression that she paid copious amounts of bucks for.
She happily accepted her ~life changing~ diagnostic impression (NOT a real diagnosis!) with a "coming out as DID" celebratory cake, but struggled to maintain the LARP. The number of alters keep piling up and she doesn’t seem to stop anytime soon.
>Early Years:>began her lolcow run as a "pansexual" lolita lifestyle who dropped from the community due to LACE and "restrictive rules">gained fame for the creation of the J-fashion-inspired "Party Kei" fashion, a fashion she no longer wears nor backs>known lurker>formerly covered fashion and magical girl anime in her videos, was a pivotal figure in the LACE drama prior to her transition to the Party Kei years>has a running track record of inconsistent uploaded despite pushing a "full-time Youtuber" career; used barely-productive incentives for support on Patreon; both have plateaued if not decreased in income entirely following recent events>previously spent money frivolously (either from YT profit or from parents), like on wasteful plastic or fast fashion, and also claimed to make enough from YT and at the same time complain of demonetization>has prior history of “severe mental illness” in the forms of a brief stay in a mental hospital in her early teens due to ED and self-harm>often inflates her skills and knowledge in various subjects, leading to a very narcissistic view of herself
>Current relevant info:>loves the idea of toying with the idea of having multiple mental illnesses; her main target is currently DID due to a diagnostic impression, and claims up to 9 alters right now with very shaky substance as to her alters' creation and the origin of her trauma which caused the DID; despite this, she has taken root in the DID community and has been involved or tried to insert herself into DID-related videos as an "expert" despite carrying the diagnostic impression for at least a year or more now>is still extremely thin-skinned; has history of deleting comments critical to her and has preached getting along with people while also blasting critics and concern in a very rude and passive-aggressive manner; has gotten into pissfights online as of late with users that have spoken out of concern for her or wanting to help or talk in some degree>her sexuality has been a sliding scale, from pansexual to queer to lesbian to back to currently pansexual (and nonbinary due to alters); current partner is Steven Clarke, who has enabled her delusions and has racked up his own questionable reputation; has a long history of drama with relationships, claiming abuse to some degree in most of them>formerly had a fashion brand called Five Petal Flower before graduating from her college fashion class, but seems to be no longer active if not just slowly dying; has also gotten into drag with a persona known as Villany Swells; has cancelled two drag gigs so far and claims an online person is stalking her due to a publically-filmed video of a drag show being linked in a previous>has a shaky history of substance misuse regarding her meds; now takes in various degrees of alcohol and weed leading to possible clashes in medication or mental/physical state
MEET THE ALTERS:
>Pixie: The collective name of all the alters. Is a "genderfluid they/them".>Jillian: Rainbow emoji. 25, but "age slides" from 4-25. This is actually just herself, but she herself is both an alter and the host. Desperately wants to have autism.>Jerrick: Snake emoji. 14-16 year old emo trans guy. "He mentioned feeling 17." Was labeled as being a co-host. Conveniently holds all her BPD traits. Entire personality is being angry and liking green. Like all the alters, is into drag.>Veronica: Flame emoji. 21 year old horny alter. She is a “protector of sexual trauma”. Says she had to become a "fuckable plaything" because she was “raped for months”. Was going to be intersex, but Jill didn't want to deal with the backlash and decided against it.>Berry: Strawberry emoji. 4-6 year old. Talks and acts like a baby. Is always “co-fronting” in some way. Had her name previously withheld for “safety reasons”. Is for some reason triggered out by positive things like holidays and presents and is "trauma-free".>Cliffe: Club emoji. 35 year old old man. Her "homosexual assistant". A mix between her dad and Sasha Velour. Looks like Mr. Bruce. Somehow too old for social media, but responsible enough to come out when she does taxes.>Flora: Cherry blossom emoji. 18 year old fictive. Used to be a fragment, but became a full alter. She is supposed to be Cure Flora and all the pink PreCures. She is a blonde, sweet lolita.>Jax: Test tube emoji. 19 year old “character salad” that speaks and types with a Brooklyn accent. She's a fictive of Harley Quinn (Batman), Jinx (Arcane), and Spinel (Steven Universe). Apparently was born from watching Arcane while having major trauma. Jillian called her “hypersexual”.>Sandwich: Sandwich emoji. Cat alter. Represents how lost she felt moving to a new city. Not much else is currently known about it.>Amanda: Not much has been said about her. Note that Jillian’s middle name is actually Amanda.>Ramona: An alter that was only announced after she fused with Jillian. After doing so, Jillian suddenly wanted to start playing the piano again.>Sunny: Shooting star emoji. 14. She's "energetic" and positive in a way that's "crazy". A protector that likes yellow. Basically just Flora, but hyper.>Amber: Partly cloudy emoji. 25. She's edgy and has freckles. Also a protector that likes yellow. Formed at the same time as Sunny in response to the McLean video drama. Supposed to look the most normal.
Jill and Steve both show their moms episodes of Bluey>>294786
Teases a new video and a graphic featuring new alter Sunny. Nonnies note that on her Instagram post she doesn't advertise her DID as much >>294832>>294828
Very into kindness and sweetness lately>>294928
Life update video where she discusses Sunny and Amber, recaps >>294933
Updated alter list, with pronouns, ages, and emojis. Also mentions Sandwich >>295253>>295612
Brags about her dresses that are "absolutely massacred with blood stains" from sh to prove she is mentally ill>>296091
Getting off Seroquil to switch to Wellbutrin>>296243
May Patreon livestream with recap >>296386
New video, "Why everyone hates Karl Lagerfeld">>296548
Jill goes outside after being too scared to be percieved IRL>>296594
"There are so many reasons why someone may wholeheartedly believe they have DID or OSDD when they do not. BPD identity issues, ADHD forgetfulness, OCD intrusive thoughts… eeeek">>297132
Still friendly with Sof>>297217
Jill is worried about making/selling clothing because if it's ripped off she can't easily fight it and her "sense of justice is overwhelming">>297337
Telling Drew Monson about her new prescription>>297471
Trisha Paytas fucked up the DID community in a way Jill cannot even describe>>297581
Meet the Alter: Berry video, with recap >>297597
and proof via bad handwriting >>297628
compared to her actual childhood art >>297706>>297748
A few clips taken from Berry video start here, featuring ageplay, difference between little alters and other alters, and other child alters she has, continued here >>297846
Berry's role in the system, what part Berry is, nicknames and interests, mother/big sister relationship, clothes she likes, tells that Berry is out>>298343
Pushes a Facebook post from 6 years ago as proof she has always had DID, claims the picture is of Berry >>298378
Pushes other posts too >>299138>>298361
Makes a person's doxxing about herself, but can't talk more about it because it would be ~unsafe for her>>298540
Jill's skinwalker complains that she keeps getting compared to Jill, later admits she's just a skinwalker and doesn't have DID >>299356>>298635
New photoshoot pic, claims Sunny's splitting makes her want to relive her weeb era >>298740>>299122
Was supposed to do an interview for an article and had a meltdown instead, blames on PTSD >>299173>>299240
Loves Oshi no Ko because she can relate to all the internet harrassment>>299925
Repurposes the cherrybombica account to @pixie_petals for the "sweetie icons" of her DID>>300195
New video about her rainby house
Social Media & Other Links:
Instagram 2: https://www.instagram.com/villainyswells/
(used to be @pixieespam)
Twitter (Main): https://twitter.com/pixieeelocks/
Twitter #2 (“Jerrick” alter): https://twitter.com/villainyswells
Twitter #3 (“Sweetie” alters, previously @xcherrybombica): https://twitter.com/pixie_petals
Current Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@multipetalpixie
Second Current Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@pixieelocks
(Past) TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@pixieelocksCosplay
(Past) Second Tiktok for her alters: https://www.tiktok.com/@pixieeesystem
Facebook Page #1: https://www.facebook.com/pixielockss/
Facebook Page #2: https://facebook.com/cosplaypixie/
Moonmist Girls Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/moonmistgirls/
Moonmist Girls Facebook Page: https://www.facebook.com/moonmistgirls/
Old Deviantart: https://www.deviantart.com/xhellodecemberx/journal/
Old Blog: http://pixie-locks.blogspot.com
Drag Facebook page: https://facebook.com/pixieandvillainy/
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This is the second time jill has brought up her doctor ignoring her DID and PTSD larp, lol she's really pressed about this
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Thank you nona for the new thread! Jill going off on The Crowded Room.
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Jill and Steve's anniversary
Steve looks exactly like my grandma did in the 80s. It’s uncanny.
He probably got her that bike so she’ll get up off her ass and leave the house more often, but we all know she won’t. She’ll go out for one or two flower picking photoshoots and then come up with excuses to stay cooped up inside for the rest of the summer. Prove me wrong, Jill.
thank you dedicated nonnas for the thread and the livestream.>>300557
did she force him to wear black so they can be kawiwee and goth or is he a pretentious dark academia autist
i cant wait for the wedding
kek, first thought was she's never going to use that for anything other than photoshoots>>300563
she wants to be neurodivergent so bad, it kills her she hasn't gotten that autism dx yet. her biggest fear is being normal
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Jill freaking out over beanie babies at thrift store tt
Her ego was bruised pretty badly by her old family doctor. She won't let it go because the narc in her is mad that the doctor didn't fall all over her and give her asspats. The way Jill throws the word PTSD around as if to instantly garner attention or to shut someone down is vile. Sit down and shut up, Jillian. >>300566
She's so creepy how fixated she is on being neurodivergent. It won't magically give you a personality. She's such a loser.
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Here's Jill's progress on her cosplay of Cure Sky.
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Talks about the seroquel weaning, that morning she woke up with bad mentals, did not have citalopram because she did not get it refilled before hand, "brain zaps" without it, felt she was falling down a well, Stevie left at 9:30 to get her meds but wasn't open until noon, and thought she was going to die.
Alright time for a timestamp guide: Will put personal thoughts in *
NEW WELLBUTRIN LORE DROP: Officially started day of June patron stream
0:00: Giving FatvegFemme Phoebe energy (come on Jill her crown is there for the taking)
0:30: Jill still doesn't have her streaming set up sorted and is mumbling/making stupid noises & faces. Tin foil but I reckon she does this as ND breadcrumbs for her fans and knows she's "ON"
2:20: Story about med change starts…had last crumb~ of seroquel last night.
3:06: stated she didn't take her citalopram (SSRI) last night either "because we are bad at planning things & stevie worked yesterday so they couldn't go out and get it"
Completely medless and "oh my god did I ever have a large mental health episode this morning bro" SureJan.jpg
Jill states a lot of crying, a lot of rocking back and forth, a lot of like weird scary mental health thoughts
"when your thoughts are mental health coded"…
BUT I REALLY DIDN'T WANT TO CANCEL THE STREAM ALSO
4:10 Stevie went out and got it for me…
4:40 Discussing withdrawal symptoms and physical feels of not having the citalopram. Essentially she feels like shit but some how over stimulated and hyper aroused at the same time but in a very anxiety way. Pour one out for my brain
"I just need to drink this coffee and I'll feel better"
5:10 Wellbutrin talk "so here's to a new era…" states she's on Wellbutrin & citalopram.
"Supposed to help with a lot of stuff…" trails off but states that's also a stimulant.
6:08 "one thing I learnt this morning is that you can't drink on Wellbutrin like at all, Umm…and you're also not supposed to drink on Seroquel…umm but the risk with drinking on Seroquel is that like your mental health symptoms will get worse…but the risk with drinking on Wellbutrin is a 50% increase that you'll have a fucking seizure."
6:38 States that she's not going to fuck with that time will tell and no mention if she's going to reduce or increase her weed usage
6:46 "I hope it helps me to be able to answer emails and uh not scream" Louise is probably hoping the same thing
7:07 "I've been trying to stay strong"
8:07 Discussing weather with her chat and wild fires people_are_dying_Kim.gif
10:00 Still discussing with her stream that her energy is going to be lower due to medication
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Thank you for the timestamp guide! Here's the wellbutrin clip
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10:00: Con gossip and cosplay talk. some anon can review her skills
She's going to be a guest and judge at a cosplay masquerade next year.
11:44: conflicts of interest with it being a small area and people on the judging being friends with someone competing.
Doing the cosplay with her best friend Soph (?). Cosplaying the lead duo from the new precure (Cure sky & prism)
12:18: Assures people she could judge completely bias free as long as no-one is better, more special or more individual than our precious-wecious Jilly-bean as I'm sure her nacr-BPD ass won't power trip at all
13:37 "let me judge your cosplay contest"
"Not only am I a fashion designer who knows how to sew but I'm a big ol' weeb"
Will be vloggign the con
15:08 Drew Monson just tweeted so stop everything
15:28 Neo-pronouns talk on twitter
16:12 watched anime Hirogaru Sky to get out of her brain explosion.
Everytime a new person joins the chat she explains her zagged-meddy brain
18:07 Accepted into the garage sale at the con (?) she explains that it's like limited-time artist ally meets second hand weeby belongings. Card capture sakaura, pusheen & other junk
20:14 excited to play SMASH at the con, really pushing the stim factor and then
20:53 "Stevie gets over stimulated by it so we'll go through periods where like I ask pretty much every day…and they were like 'I need a break and I'm stressed out and it just riles me up' but like I need to be riled up and that's where the Wellbutrin comes in"
21:22 "I'm going to waltz in with my custom pastel Pro Controller and I'm gonna sit down and I'm going to school them" *I can't wait for Jill to fail in the first round and I hope the con streams the smash competition as SMASH Comp autists are a unreachable level for Jill.
21:50 Dance, dance revolution gaming discussion and "trigger warning
for uh exercising so hard that you get ill"
22:09 screen shot for anons to use for thread pic
24:45 DDR & gaming talk stops when someone mentions a monkey 'slow loris' to which Jill looks up and insults
25:57 Back to mental health talking about weather impacting her
26:37 Someone mentions weddings in the chat and Jill just looks beyond the camera and mumbles "I love wedding, I love wedding, I want to get married…" run stevie before she decides to make your Misery (1990) permanent
"I'm so like…pause…I'm so in my um… bouquet catching era… RUN STEVIE BEFORE SHE PROPOSES TO YOU
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"Positive con gossip" clip. I had to laugh when she talked about her professional seamstress skills
The pic name in the last post is a joke on April fools day as the youtube caption reads 'so there's nothing wrong with me'. It occurred to me that some ESL anons may thinking it's from an April stream so sorry for any confusion.
26:55 AX con talk from a few years ago, para-para contest
27:30 back to blaming her brain for her lack of concentration. not because her brain is doing the best it can on a dino-nuggie fuel diet
28:10 Anime talk prepara special interest
28:40 "Where are the meow-meows? I want to capture a meow and snuggle
-walking through the house looking for meow-meow
Guest appearance of the underside of her bed and a cat hiding underneath it
30:00 Took one of her cats (Nene?) out onto the deck while she was having her morning melt down
31:20 Keeps looking at her tablet and saying that people are liking her drew monson tweet. Keeps getting distracted over notifications
32:00 Pride emotes on youtube chats and discussing pride and corporations using the rainbow during pride month
34:47 discussing performative activism and shitting on conservative voices
35:39 doesn't know how to finish conversation or change topic about so she just tilts her head back and says "I don't know"
36:05 back to discussing Wellbutrin and alcohol.
"So that's what the pharmacist told Stevie an then Stevie told me"So if anything goes wrong she'll just blame Stevie for not telling her and not because she doesn't have the self-efficacy to take control of her own fate
37:03 "I have been seeking out anecdotal…um vibes and typing it on reddit & tiktock but even they say don't do it so when their not enabling you…you know you shouldn't…"
38:30 Discussing meds with her chat and side effects.
39:30 states she's never had a seizure
42:10 First mention of DID in the whole stream. Up till now she's discussed brain coding(?) but no alters or anything.
42:15 "But yesterday you said that you hated your life and it's like that wasn't me though so… clearly parts of me are in a happy little bubble" Of course Jill, you have a new toy to play and those DID ones are SO last season
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Smash and DDR talk clip.>>300607
Lol messed up the quote it's actually professional seamstress knowledge
>>300608>39:30 states she's never had a seizure
my sides. the internet remembers that you pretended otherwise jill.>>300609
you kind of always have to adapt your timing whenever you play a new song on DDR, what is she even talking about. also she probably got sick because she played until getting hypoglycemia, nothing to see there.
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Talking about Wellbutrin and alcohol, what the pharmacist told Steve, and how even reddit won't enable people.
Last push before my brain exits my skull to do something else.
If you watch any of the stream let it be the last bit.
Jill is getting narc-ragey
42:35 Previous attempt at coming off Seroquel. Explaining that she wants to stay on the citalopram but wanted off the seroquel due to all the side effects. Only views Seroquel as a anti-psychosis drug and "the psychosis is not my primary issue"
Jill then explains that she only experiences psychosis in a really specific way and only in intense BPD episodes.
43:30 "But I don't think I needed it for anything"
44:37 Someone in the chat mentions BPD and asks if she has the quiet BPD or the "normal/more commonly known
44:45 BPD discussion. She has different parts for different BPD traits. 45:20 Sings that "Gerald doesn't want me talking about his business and that's valid
45:30 "I feel like because of our DID it can't really fit the quadrant or the quiet or loud thing"
"I feel like it used to be a lot worse, like trusting and like jealousy like how much time my partner is spending with me versus my friends"
46:20 Realises that the chat is moving & not discussing her so she scrolls back to realise that someone got engaged
46:23-46:25 quietly dies on the inside before congratulating her fan
"That's so exciting freaking congrats"
46:37 Moves on quickly to another fan discussing moving out after a divorce and decorating
47:05 In chat, account named serenediipity states " I as the host have quiet bpd and our co-host has the more stereotypical, obvious symptoms.
47:07 Confirms that Jer is main BPD outlet. He doesn't get the jealousy trust issues cause Stevie isn't his favourite person. Stevie is Jills favourite person.
47:35 Petulant, discouraged, impulsive, self-distructive. Jill identifies with the self-distructive.
47:54 States that BPD and PTSD is most painful to live with.
Talks about how hard having PTSD and DID and BPD is
48:43 chat talk about a throuple &tick bites. This section is a mixture of wild fire anxiety, emergency plans and then jumps into BPD depending on the comments in the chat. I've kept more of the BPD answers but another canada anon can go through an give better insight to the wild fire situation & locality.
49:06 BPD and impulsivity
49:29 Chat fan getting autism diagnosed and Jill discusses the test and hopes the fan gets the result they wants.
51:02 Chat fan went to psych to talk about quiet BPD. "Did they give you the BPD test?"
55:56 Chat fan is in Sweden and mentions that BPD exists but not 'quiet BPD'
56:10 Jill in all her wisdom explains that when she got her BPD diagnosed "he didn't like physically give me the thing he asked it sneakily"
56:46 "They should know what quiet BPD is unless their like general practitioners"
56:50 Dunking on her past GP regarding her nasal spray usage, not knowing what DID is, how unprofessional she was
1:00:06 PTSD talk with previous GP "I've literally been seeing you since I was a baby, WHY do you hate me…?"
1:00:37 Jill is still angry she got dumped by her previous GP.
1:00:55 Was concerned what the doc was going to say something about how she looked because she hadn't seen her in many years.
"And I was like is she going to call me obese…cause I will cry…Not that it's bad or anything…but I would panic is she said something like horrible and fatphobic about my weight."
1:01:22 Nasal spray
1:01:49 Her rainbow tendrils are iconic. They are so dry and yet so greasy at the same time-no wonder Jill loves them
1:01:50 Sunny braided them the other day which she though was really fun.
1:02:05 More GP bashing about how they don't care and how long it took for her to seek mental health help
1:02:25 NEW HISTORIAN LORE DROP: Started at 11 because of her mother and doing things an 11year old shouldn't be doing
1:02:48 Mom found her suicide note and got her help
1:03:03 "so I've been in and out of care ever since I was 11, I had a couple of years of like a dry spell because I didn't have any care because I moved here"
"And then I got a really awesome therapist here and then he moved…and….I don't ahve a family doctor any more…"
1:03:47 "So I was put into help by my mom when I was 11"
1:03:56 "…and then stevie actually set me up with the therapist"
1:04:05 "…OK so you're telling me you're different people can you please go see a therapist"
1:04:40 "it's like test me, it's like give me a psych eval or don't just dis it bothers me when health professionals just dismiss things without actually testing them or asking the proper questions"
1:06:05 Starts to wrap up the stream thanking her chat fans and bouncing between happy and heavy anxitey talk about how she handles her guilt about cancelling last minute.
1:07:32 EASTER EGG: Board in background has what looks like video ideas but it's funny as all you can see is "Really have DID?'
1:07:40 Costume close ups
1:08:20 Time of death for this anon.
Quiet BPD is a unofficial term and has been increasing used in unprofessional online mental health spaces since 2021
>>300601>states that's also a stimulant.
6:08 "one thing I learnt this morning is that you can't drink on Wellbutrin like at all, Umm…and you're also not supposed to drink on Seroquel…umm but the risk with drinking on Seroquel is that like your mental health symptoms will get worse…but the risk with drinking on Wellbutrin is a 50% increase that you'll have a fucking seizure."
How did she not know this beforehand? Didn't the doctor tell her? Substance abuse is kinda common issue with mental health patients, shouldn't her doctor have told her thay she can't drink on it… But even without a drinking problem giving alcohol up completely can be a big lifestyle change to anyone, like say goodbye to drinkiya glass of wine with dinner or with your friends. Didn't she do any research beyond "it's a stimulant and might cause weight loss"? (Obviously she didn't but Jesus Christ on a bicycle)
Also the problem with Seroquel and alcohol is that alcohol possibly enhancing the tiring effect of the medication, not just the general "don't self-medicate your mental health issues with alcohol". I have never heard that alcohol and Seroquel together had some magic effect of worsening your symptoms, it's just that alcohol doesn't mix well with MH issues. She was on Seroquel for quite a many years and yet she didn't understand that.
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Jill talking about never having a seizure before clip. >>300614
Thank you for your work nonnie
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Jill talking about citalopram and DID clip. I'm taking a break.
>>300605>26:37 Someone mentions weddings in the chat and Jill just looks beyond the camera and mumbles "I love wedding, I love wedding, I want to get married
ngl this is very sad, I feel bad for her. She has been getting worse in various ways but it also sucks to hit your 5 year anniversary and your baby troon is just trooning out instead of marrying you, especially when she makes it this
obvious by frequently mentioning how much she loves weddings and marriage, and discussing rings. Like take the hint dude. They are both becoming such freaks they will never find another partner imo so may as well get married and be the spicy straight couple of their dreams
It’s kind of baffling how she just doesn’t improve. Like it has to be laziness. Just a hobby sewer at home would show some kind of improvement from learning as they go but here she is post “school” which was a joke sure but you would think she would be even a tiny bit improved. Even someone untalented could improve with effort. >>300623
This looks better than hers and I wonder how she will take that. Previously in her group cosplays they all looked trash like Kelsey or whatever her name was looked terrible and didn’t know the dances so Jilly looked better by comparison. She very much seems like one of those girls who if she got married (tough luck on that one kek) she would want the bridesmaids to look uglier than her.
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Tbh I don’t think her family takes the DID seriously as an excuse for her failure to launch any kind of career. She’s barely even trying with YouTube. Maybe she thinks she can get them with the autism? It’s a better excuse and one she can have that doesn’t paint her family as horrible neglectful abusers.
Yet at the same time she has also so badly coveted having the neurodivergence label. Like when she got yelled at by her audience by claiming it for having it with Bpd she has made it her life’s mission to try to find a way to be considered neurodivergent.
yeah jill doesn't have delicate features but she'd need to be just a tad more obese to look like a troon>>300650
i agree with >>300656
she's afraid an unsavory tweet will resurface, maybe she also wants to get away with saying new shit and not facing consequences thanks to her autism, jill would be thrilled to have this kind of power.
also the autism gives her a possible out for the DID (teehee i was just autistic with a big imagination), as well as an excuse to recategorize her drew monson creepiness or skinwalking and idea theft of better rainby infuencers as a "special interest"
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Could be a stress eater. It's clear Jill adds stress considering the causal remark she made about playing smash. Or simply fell into bad eating habits living with Jill and it's catching up with him.>>300594
My thoughts too. She'd look so much better if she'd just accept her size. Too bad she thinks wellbutrin will be the magic pill. >>300633
It would look like such a nightmare wedding. Her dress and then the rainby coloured bridesmaids dresses would be such an eyesore. Would Stevie wear a monstrosity of a suit or just be forced to wear a rainby tie? So many questions.>>300636
I want to know too. If she didn't get him anything, how sad that she never thinks of anyone else especially because Stevie is supposed to be the love of her life
Her fans are just emotional tissues to her.
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>>300647>Fucking Flora and Cliffe emoji
Kek she remembered Cliffe
Holy shit what a dumb bitch. Wellbutrin is known to make anxiety way worse in many people. And exacerbate rage and anger. I hope this ruins her life, she deserves it. >>300654
Jill has this figured out, dump your narcissism and lies on people for attention and get paid by them.
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Cliffe like Drew's music too!
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cant find the thread but i remember nona once saying her old cosplays were actually made by her grandmother and jill just lied and took ALL credit when she did very little. like how her ok piano playing became "piano prodigy" or her being trillingual back in the day.
now shes far from mommy and making shit like that… and the fake wedding dress…
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Why Jill is weaning off seroquel yet staying on citalopram clip
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Bpd discussion, Jerrick's issues so not going to talk about his issues, talks about how she use to be
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More talk about bpd, talking more about Jerrick's bpd, talks about her bpd and being self-destructive, bpd and ptsd painful to live with
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BPD and impulsivity
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Did they give you the BPD test
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Sneakily given bpd test, dunks on old gp, and talks nasal spray
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Still mad she was dumped by gp, had not seen gp in years, scared of fatphobic comments, more nasal spray talk
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Started mental health at 11, talks about mental health, Stevie setting her up with a therapist
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Another close up of cosplay, the piping.
>>300737>I don't have BPD attacks why am I taking seroquel
you dumb bitch you dont have the attacks because the seroquel was doing its' job because you've been taking it for years. I can't wait for her future BPD attacks.>uuuhhhhhh I feel more… alert…..
you look high, jillian.
Nah, she wants a quick fix. She is too lazy to actually work on her mental health and too narc to get a new therapist because she can’t find another one that will just yass queen her.>>300746
Does that say “intergration” is she going to kill someone off and make a video? Place your bets. I know she reduced the flora appearances but I don’t see her getting rid of the precure alter. Maybe it’s about “Amanda” who was around for like two weeks kek and managed to come and go without any involvement from a therapist magically.
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I’m fully on board with this tinfoil. This cosplay isn’t amazing but it’s much better than what she produced at fashion school and miles above that atrocious wedding dress, which looked like it was made by someone who’d never sewn anything more complex than a pillow case. It’s one thing to procrastinate and then cut corners because you’re in a rush but that dress wasn’t just a rush job, it was a mess of bad decisions and amateurish mistakes made at every single step. She can blame her cousin for the bad fabric choice but not for the bizarre pattern drafting decisions. I’m still not over those “sleeves”.
So not only did she apparently learn nothing at school, she got significantly worse
. Unless she was always terrible and someone else made those cosplays.
Samefag coming back to add that I bet she had a lot of hands-on help in school as well, because her school projects (while still pretty bad) were not all completely awful. It’s only when she has to sew something all by herself without supervision that it turns into a dumpster fire like the wedding dress or that green dress with the flowers.
If she ever does get married it wouldn’t surprise me if she commissioned a dress from a professional seamstress because “mental health UnU”. Deep down she must know she’s not good at this.
God she must be exhausting to live with. Imagine coming home from your actual full time job, after running around doing the household errands because your shut in lump of a girlfriend can’t possibly leave the house to get her own medication, and just wanting to relax for a while before having to cook dinner for the both of you, and being relentlessly pestered to play fucking smash bros every single day.
Steve has always seemed pompous to me, but Christ what a miserable home life
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Can’t wait for her to have a meltdown mid convention because someone points a camera slightly in her direction. What’s her plan on stopping people from taking photos during the cosplay competition exactly? Is she going to beg staff to ban it?
Ya, it’s etiquette to ask for a picture of a cosplayer, but everyone knows that lots of people don’t, and a lot of times it’s not about being a creeper/stalker etc., it’s people who are new to cons/don’t know etiquette or are shy. Even if someone asks for a picture, it can end up being unflattering if the lighting is bad, it’s a bad angle, they snap before you’re ready etc.
Jill wants to be able to control how she looks in every image, which is impossible if you’re having pictures taken by others where you can’t control editing etc. If she wants that much control, she should stick to photoshoots and not cosplay at public events, because there’s not way to completely avoid candid photos. Even if no one takes a picture of her specifically without asking, she could be in the background of other photos looking bad, will she call those creepy stalker pics too?
My tinfoil is the bike is meant to help Jill lose weight. "Less driving more cycling" seems to be a popular way to lose weight in small cities like Fredericton. I don't think Jill is gonna ride the bicycle much. She's too self-conscious and lazy.>>300571
I think Stephen is losing that early-20s metabolism that gave him an edge over Jill in terms of eating poorly. They live in the same house and I doubt Stephen wants to make a different dinner for himself after air-frying Jill her hourly tendies and smile-potatoes. I think by the end of the year he and Jill will collectively weigh 450lbs.>>300614>>"is she going to call me obese…cause I will cry…Not that it's bad or anything…but I would panic is she said something like horrible and fatphobic about my weight"
Jill hates being fat so much it's funny how it comes through.>>300752
I think by the time she made it to the college she was personally finished taking criticism about her work and learning how to improve it. At that point in her life it seemed like she thought every critique was a personal attack and she refused to take any to learn and grow with. I think it's why we see her improvements throughout her earlier projects and then a plateau and finally decline by the time she entered college (where she could effectively control her personal bubble to remove elements that go against her delusions).>>300627
You're sad for her? Lol I'm happy that she's getting played by Stephen. I don't think for a minute that Stephen has ever seriously considered marrying her. Jillian is a psychotic fat loser with no skills or career options. The only reason he stays with her now is because she makes enough money to spoil him and because he can go around and fuck whomever he wants while Jill sits passed out in a cannabis-induced fugue. He's basically living the male fantasy.
Going through old threads (gone through 41) it looks like some nonnies were tinfoiling she had help from someone (her mom, her "con mom" Becky, etc) and most likely lied about the person's involvement (and by extension how much was from help) since Jill has absolutely no shame taking undeserved credit. Tinfoil but it wouldn't surprise me if she had help early on, got a big head, then decided since she was at pro level (in her head) and then did the cosplays herself. She has professional seamstress knowledge y'know.>>300780>She is advertising being at this con which is a public place and she has a following sadly it comes with the territory
It's a public event which means pictures are allowed and people could be very well live streaming the event/videotaping. As you mentioned, this isn't the grocery store or her meandering around town. To call someone taking a picture at this event a stalker is stupid. Rude they didn't ask first? Going by con etiquette yes but it isn't illegal to take a picture of the person walking the con in cosplay. I think she doesn't want to be called out for her unfinished/sloppy work or that she looks bad so she wants specific angles besides just having control issues.>She puts herself out there, no one is taking pictures of her through her windows at her house
This is what drives me insane. Besides someone supposedly calling Stevie's work and the alleged 2 drag incidences, what stalking took place? Jill cannot keep her mouth shut about anything so I'm doubtful about it. The candid shot of her walking to the mailbox was done by her own mother. She blows things way out of proportion and continues to water down actual incidences that people have suffered from.>>300781>If she wants that much control, she should stick to photoshoots and not cosplay at public events, because there’s not way to completely avoid candid photos.
Even if no one takes a picture of her specifically without asking, she could be in the background of other photos looking bad, will she call those creepy stalker pics too?
Exactly about sticking to photoshots. I can see her crying to the con security about someone taking her picture without her consent. I can also see her obsessively checking other people's posted photos to see if there's a glimpse of her in the photos and then throwing a hissy fit at the person/whining on social media to her followers until the person took it down. >>300788>>300778
These could happen. Won't know until the event
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Still whining over DID representation in The Crowded Room.
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Jill talking about her cosplay.
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More wellburtin and symptoms talk. Happy cliffe was able to help yesterday.
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Some more con stuff
not sure the context, but this is the most jill tweet I've ever seen. "I
would've done such a sick magical girl panel tbh at least we have your epic one!!!' the narc really popped out here.
Sis is mad and it shows. If my friend tweeted/said this to me I'd be like… that's not nice.
I wouldn't be surprised if Steve is fucking another girl behind Pixie's back. It must be hell on earth to live with some who has meltdowns every single day, can't do anything for herself, thinks there are several different people living inside her, transforms into a little child at any given moment, screeches loudly, dresses embarrassingly in public and in general, etc. No man would find happiness in that.(sage your shit and integrate)
No, you wouldn't have. You half-ass everything.
She always has to be the best at everything, being her friend must be so exhausting. She can never just compliment someone, it always has to involve her in some way.
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>Cliffe came out the other day and literally did taxes
What is with her obsession with 35 years supposedly loving to do taxes?
She really just made a stereotypical "Functioning Adult" alter so she can larp being a helpless child better the rest of the time, it's pathetic. Jill, teens on tiktok think 25 is just as decrepit as 35.>>300856
Kek she is such a has-been youtuber, she doesn't even know what an influencer is.
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Wow how convenient a main side of effect of a medication that’s an upper is suddenly gone. I’m pretty sure she’s on this pill just stop being fat. She could literally just put the fork down. >>300886
Bigger and bigger every time I see a full shot of her. She shouldn’t pull her back like that it looks horrible for her face shape.
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She retweeted the one tweet on both accounts.
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She just really wants to push this narrative that people with mental illness and DID in particular are uwu soft babies to validate her faking. And sure could you argue that the guy is a victim
of his circumstances in that he didn’t give himself DID and diminished responsibility but he is still the person committing those crimes. I think it’s just beyond her to fathom that these people are so incredibly mentally ill in a way that is so fucked it’s just beyond her. She should be advocating for people like him because if she was legit then it could be her because in reality people with DID don’t have the made up control she has. If there was real better understanding and awareness then maybe they would have caught it before he reached that point but nah she has to fight the hospitals doing that work because god forbid someone think her extreme mind breaking torture victim
mental illness isn’t kawiwi and a party in her head uwu.
On paper her being against the less nuanced portrayals of DID/mental illness in media is a valid
thing to criticize, the issue is that she’s so surface level about it all. She doesn’t know shit about ‘real’ clinical DID cases, other than what she’s seen in YouTube videos, she doesn’t care about the people who are so horrifically traumatized that they are unable to lead normal lives. She only pretends to care because she can virtue signal and attach her name to a cause and act as an authority on it
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Just found out the woman who coined "neurodiverse" is incredibly based. Funny because I'm pretty sure she used to have a more lenient stance about its application, presumably both trannies and faux "neurodiverse" attentionseekers have changed her mind. She posted this also and deleted her Twitter presumably after being barraged by idiots:(derailing)
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Jill at it again
The fact this is the first time she has ever mentioned being overstimulated by all the crap she wears, she has thick makeup and false eyelashes on constantly, wigs and illfitting clothes but sure, Jill
If this was a longrunning tv series people would critique it for poor writing
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This is even more hilarious knowing that there are plenty of actual autists that have no issues wearing jfashion and wearing a lot of makeup, myself included (I know a few former decoras that are autismos as well), because the sensory overload doesn't necessarily have to be touch and sight but rather sound and smell.
She again misses the point that autism is a very varied spectrum and tries to check every box to be as far out on the spectrum as possible without understanding what it means.
You think the anime con will get a threatening email like at the uni drag show event? I so hope she goes because I want to see her clusterfuck of a cosplay in motion. >>300995
She's throwing whole loaves of bread. She ain't slick. I've written this before but I do not get how anyone can stand to be around her. You walk on eggshells to be around her yet she constantly changes how to walk on the eggshells. Is it really worth that crumb of internet relevancy?
Not to mention that kind of posed autism roleplay makes it harder for autistic people to get their needs met for actual over stimulation when it’s framed as this vain self-inflicted problem. An autistic person on the verge of a melt down from over stimulation will never look like a perfectly framed tiktok with you rehearsing a voiceover still wearing the garb that’s making you panic. You’d be ripping off that wig, not sitting down and probably re-recording a video a couple times until it’s perfect, all for useless clout.
At the end of the day she’s probably not even going to go because she’s a flake and does not care about how it effects other people to not show up for a gig. It’s so unbelievably pointless to dress like that and film TikTok’s day in day out for no payoff, much less if those things made you overstimulated. She’s just an attention whore and gets anxiety when people don’t like her online. That’s all this larp ever has been. I can’t stand the faux self pity mental health Olympics, I was hoping it would’ve lost its sparkle by now but here we are. 25 year old adults playing autism lite
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It's mindblowing how brazenly she bites this thread for content lmao. How many times have nonnies stated this exact fact, for how many months now? Nonas itt have predicated all of the sagas with excruciating accuracy. Gynophile Steeb is next ofc. That one will be a doozy. I can see it now: unplucked eyebrows, unpainted toenails, and his pasty skinnyfat moobs disrupting the delicately crafted bodice of an XS Nile Perch archive teddy. I'm disgusted. I could cry for her. Moids are all the fucking same. She should know this. In the back of her mind she knows Steven will never propose (not the way she wants at least) or provide the way she is so used to. And it crushes her. Jillybean exhausts herself LARPing and sitting on her ass so hard, every single day,
but she totes deserves a wedding
and a caretaker
and a hubby, guysss
!!!! Simply knowing the handouts will come to such a bitter end helps me sleep at night. She's wasting her youth, potential, opportunities, and inheritance. Jillian so clearly wants to be nothing more than a quirky normie. Her aspirations will never materialize. She should have realized the extent of her laziness sooner and locked down a worthy contender while she was younger, prettier, and full of life. J was always an NLOG. She wouldn't be caught dead being a tradwife if it's what other people are doing
. Or perhaps she would have, and the Colin debacle drove her off the deep end. Who knows. All that matters is that now she's going to fucking rot. It's what she deserves! This dumb grifting poser will never find a man who measures up to daddy or her super duper sweet big bro with his lined pockets that looks curiously similar to every man she's wanted. Strange! And I'm sure her parents are simply dazzled by her daughter's increasing desire to do absolutely nothing at all with her life. Jill literally hasn't always been like this. She used to work for her money and actively demonstrate a need for independence. Realizing you never want to work again must be nice. She's just too speshul to be a dependa. Mommy dearest will dry up at some point: financially or sympathetically. That lady raised such a spoiled brat. Louise is stupid but not dumb. Her unyielding support on social media and constant validation of her child's repulsive, elementary, dishonest behavior is a sham cover up for some very deep-seated disappointment and shame. It is insipid and beyond obvious. Gentle parenting my fucking ass. She wouldn't know guidance even if it vomited rainbows on her carpet. Louise is the reason J can't take any fucking criticism. We can thank her for bringing such a considerate, thoughtful, and upstanding individual into the community. With achievements such as… um… wearing clothes. Jill is kind of past the cap for what's socially and rationally acceptable as an adult depending on your parents. I pray that once she nears twenty-six, the tap will slow from a trickle to a drip. I don't want to see Jillybean past thirty and 280lbs squeezing into sausage casings like Shaymu and Luna. But I can't stop. It's educational at this point. Through the failures of cows, we learn how to conduct ourselves, how to improve, how to be graceful and rational and not autistic. This thread is better developmentally appropriate parenting advice than Australian children's programming. Either way, nonnies need to gear up for a whole new era of grift. I see onlyfans or Chinese wholesale and manufacturing in her future. J could start by buying clothes in her size (or losing weight to fit into her old stuff, cost effective!), taking care of her hair so it isn't a stringy rainbow rat's nest, actually sending emails, making watchable content like vlogs/reviews/GRWM/lookbooks, and perhaps regaining some of her online relevance by spending mommy's good girl points on inventory/materials for an actual fashion brand. She could make soap and fiber art and totally get in shape again! Kek. But we all know that is never going to happen. She lacks discipline and she lacks drive. I know zero successful mid-20s women who depend on: alcohol, weed, Wellbutrin, Ambien, Bluey, Smash Bros, Twitter, tendies, TikTok, and a scrawny pornsick hobosexual, COLLECTIVELY, to get them up in the morning. Do you know what most of those TikTok stars and successful influencers get up for? COFFEE. Normal people drink fucking coffee Jillian.(learn2integrate and take your meds)
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they hated nonnie
because she sperged the truth
Bless you autistic nonny
. I don't know what a hobosexual is (maybe someone who fucks for a place to stay?) but I like it.
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Went back to look at the comments and found these gems
Look at this beautiful copypasta anon made for us>>301048
Scrambling for a way out for sure, faux-autism won't limit her life the way a DID diagnosis would but she can still act like an idiot for attention, win win
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The tweet before asking Jill/twitter. Also Cherry is deleting tweets. The first three before Jill responds in the original screenshot are now deleted.
so here we have Jill who is undiagnosed yet claiming to be a spokesperson for autism, admitting she just assumed something and did 0 research on it>>301044
wait what is she saying Cliffe, the alter based on her DAD, is also romantically involved with her boyfriend?? jesus that's gross
Yep, as someone who was diagnosed as an adult, it does nothing but give some peace of mind as to how you think etc. I’m sure it’s helpful to get more support etc. if you get diagnosed as a child, but most adults who make it to adulthood without getting diagnosed are good enough at masking to pass as relatively normal, if not a bit odd in social situations.
If Jill gets a diagnosis I will be shocked because 1. she’s most likely not on the spectrum (I don’t want to say definitely but I’d bet on her not meeting criteria for a formal ASD diagnosis) and 2. it would be a waste of money (I believe she said $2000 at one point?) just to prove it to twitter. Hell, she won’t even try to keep up her DID larp and get a formal diagnosis for that.
As soon as the “woke” fear of pissing people off for telling them to grow the fuck up and stop using self diagnosed disorders goes out of fashion, she’s gonna be in for a rude awakening. That or her parents cutting her off.
Oh my God Jill is so stupid. She really has no idea what she is talking about and still she has to pretend to be some sort of authority in DID. You'd think her overwhelming sense of justice would make her check her facts so that she doesn't accidentally spread misinformation. For someone who claims both DID and autism she is so misinformed on what neurodiversy is.
I still think she should just invent her own disorder at this point. Then she would get to throw every neuro-whatever label in there and have her super speshul brain that's just more prone to natural dissociation u guise! No need to claim trauma - she's once again alluding to childhood trauma here - or your gf raping you for wanting to hold hands or whatever. Symptoms also include suddenly turning into a 4 yo whenever convenient in order to avoid responsibility, severe skill regression, being unable to do anything else than lay at home and smoke weed and automatically being right about everything.
For you to hate her there has to be a personal connection.
You probably see yourself in her or you are envious of the opportunities she had and the fact that she didn't do anything with them. Either way, please get help.
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Oh anon you're so stunning and intelligent, tell me about how everyone has an Oedipus complex next!
Who is “and others”? Which of the other alters are age appropriate or is she purposefully being vague because it is pedo shit. “Others” suggest that it’s multiple other alters aside from the listed too. I do have to say though it kills me how fucking funny it is that Jill is like good news Steve you can fuck a man and it’s just fucking Jilly in a bald cap cosplaying her dad kek. Only Jill is narc enough to be poly but it’s all just her in different outfits kek. >>301069
I don’t think she is going for it because she can lie her way through the self report easily but then there is the hurdle of the third party section. For those who don’t know the majority of countries for an ASD assessment they talk to a third party who knew you as a child and can report on that i.e a parent. So she would have to get mommy on board or find a slimy way around that.
In the simplest terms nonny
it’s something you are born with. So autism is genetic and you are born that way but DID you develop. It’s why some less serious stuff is under the umbrella like dyslexia, you are just built that way. Your brain was “developed” that way essentially so it’s not curable it’s just your state of being so it’s not an illness whereas DID you “catch” hence illness. Both qualify as disability (if you have the real deal not the faker version ofc) because a disability is just something that affects your ability to do things with the same ability as someone non disabled however not all disabilities are permanent. Hope that makes more sense, basically she wants something that isn’t curable and she can claim she is just like that, no work or healing required.
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This bitch could have just made soap.
>>301081>of all things her BPD could skinwalk, it chose to skinwalk being retarded
It’s because she has given up on all her ambitions and wants to be a coddled child forever. If she’s developmentally disabled then her loved ones are obliged to take care of her for the rest of her life and she can’t be held responsible for anything.>>301082
In my experience many people still expect those with high functioning autism to “get therapy and get over it” because they don’t tend to think of something as a proper disability unless it’s really severe. Jill is unlikely to run into people with this attitude, though, because of her carefully curated echo chamber. Which is frustrating because unlike people who actually do
have genuine ASD, Jill can
become fully functional and productive again through a bit of work and some lifestyle changes. If she somehow became passionate about something that gave her financial independence and a sense of fulfilment, I guarantee that her “autism” would miraculously be cured.
Our dear anonymous farmer also got this >>301059
screenshot really fast, only 45 seconds after Cherry posted her final tweet…
Also Cherry deleting her tweets in her own thread on the subject, interesting. >>301062
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This proves (evidence 10836578) that her DID is bullshit since if your meds are helping you focus and sleep and etc then why would they make your DID worse
like clearer, more defined multiple personalities isn't a good thing considering the goal of treating DID is to blend all your OCs into one. She just thinks this seems like a logical effect if it's making her actual life (the first Tweet with all the I
references) easier but since DID is a crippling mental illness, meds that work well would surely not make the voices and switches clearer and more defined.
This shit is why she's only ever had one therapist she got along with. How are you supposed to treat someone who constantly lies about their own state like this.
Right, as always with Jill's OC/DID fan fiction, I am confused. I am a CPTSD-chan and I take Wellbutrin to help with some depressive symptoms, I don't think it is a drug that is used to treat DID, especially on it's own?!
I know it is also prescribed to help people stop binge eating and stop smoking as well. Seems like life and mind altering DID would require way more than a pill that makes it easier to get out of bed in the morning and stop eating your feelings.
If she was actually diagnosed with DID and working with a doctor and a therapist as she claims, wouldn't she know that DID is not considered a neurodevelopmental disorder??! Wouldn't she understand more about DID? She gets all of her sketchy, snake oil mental health info from TikTok.
She tells on herself regularly, it's honestly fucking funny.
As someone that used to get voices in her head during distress, hearing voices inside your head loud and clear sounds HORRIFYING. Considering how many alters she has now and they all seemingly share her chatterbox characteristic it must be really tiring to not have a silent moment in your own fucking mind. And how the fuck are the switching more "fluid" than before? Did they stutter before? Did she start lagging halfway through a switch? Like would she just suddenly freeze for a couple of minutes while eating tendies? How is more fluid switches even a good thing?
That tweet would only imply the meds aren't doing it's job because it would just mean all her symptoms are worse than ever. God she really doesn't think through how everything she says and tweets conflicts with her own lore and how mental health and medication actually works. God I wish she had done it like Kelly Eden and had a real larp phase rather than this.
Sounds like too much weed and wishful thinking on her part.
Getting so sick of these online influencers using their influence to encourage children to engage in unhealthy coping behaviors. Telling impressionable youngsters that a clear sign of mental health issues is actually no biggie is incredibly harmful and treating pretending to hear voices as fine creates an environment where people with actual problems can’t get help or don’t seek it out because well “hearing voices clearly is the goal of treatment duh! Don’t you want to have fun personalities that can do what they want without consequence and wear fun costumes?” She’s such a fucking creep.
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>>301168>she argued that her brain was more "dissociate-y" (to use her words) and she was thus wired to "have DID." But DID is just a psychotic disorder not something one is born with
this quote keeps getting passed around wrong and it annoys me. she meant that she was predisposed to become DID when trauma happened to her, a la TND saying she was predisposed to become a heroin addict because she had a sip of vodka at 16. Basically because her brain had everything set up to become DID, the trauma she experienced caused her to become DID but to any other person it might not happen because their brain didn't have the necessary wiring.
That's her logic.
that's literally what they were implying
It's all made up anyways who cares what "she means"
I mean, I understand your point about not wanting to misquote her nonna, but we know everything Jill says about her Jillociative Identity Disorder is a lie anyways. >>301191
Jill is 100% moving to Wellbutrin to lose weight. Wellbutrin does not treat any form of psychosis, there is no way she is taking it to help with any of her "DID" symptoms.
As another autist/aspie involved in jfashion (gyaru and shironuri, the latter for weeb events only), she really is ticking off all the stereotype/self diagnosis boxes
> kawiwi uguu quirky “special interests”> “stimming is when you move to music/flap your hands/rock back and forth”> “girls with autism present differently so I have to be autistic!” > Sudden sensory issues that are juuuuust bad enough to cause discomfort (but a conspicuous lack of meltdowns)> “awareness” and “pride” instead of trying to live a normal life with some accommodations…because normal people with disabilities don’t want to be infantilized or seen as a weird “other”> able to switch off her symptoms if they aren’t garnering enough sympathy or get in the way of “fun stuff”> mental health knowledge comes from social media and not professionals who know what they’re doing
I can only dread the “watch each alter’s stims!!1” video we’ll probably get someday. Gross.(sage)
>>301162>they still don't think I have BPD
Literally everyone I've gotten close to that has BPD HIDES that because it's personal/vulnerable/embarrassing info that ppl can exploit. Yet here she is, angry that her symptoms are so mild that people don't see her as "impossible to live with" ie actually dysfunctional. Literally ppl suffering with BPD will describe themselves that way too because it's just their reality. Did she even think for a second why this person would need a support worker instead of family caring for them?
Honestly maybe she wants to claim autism so badly so she can explain away how functional she is irl as unconsciously masking.
>>301191>Wellbutrin isn’t even a real stimulant
It literally is. Just because you can’t tweak on it doesn’t make it not a stimulant.>>301212
A general practice doctor can absolutely prescribe it. It’s extremely accessible if you ask for it and have a history of taking SSRIs or other meds for depression/anxiety/etc. without much success.
Lmfao I noticed her claiming Wellbutrin was helping her already too. She’s so bad at lying it is unbelievable. A quick google search says most people see changes in their sleep, appetite, and energy in the first one to two weeks. But it can take four to six weeks to feel significant improvements in mood. The way she’s describing her experience, it’s like her mental health has done a 180. It’s easier for her to get out of bed, she can start tasks, feels happy working, etc. Depressed people don’t just start functioning like a normal person because they’ve taken Wellbutrin for nine days and are cured. I think it’s fair to say she is highly exaggerating and being dramatic as usual.
Blogpost but I know this to be true from personal experience as well as anecdotes from friends who are/were on it. Was also told by my doctor that people start feeling the most benefits around the one month mark before I started taking it. But maybe Jillian is just so super special that it worked instantly for her! Or maybe she’ll backtrack after lurking and post about having a bunch of supey dupey bad head days.
Too bad she can’t be fucked to find a new gp because a doctor would have advised her that it takes more than a week to work. Or wasn’t too lazy to do a two second search before spreading more misinformation. It infuriates me that she can shop around for therapists and medications while so many mentally ill people have to go without. Tinfoiling that we will end up with a serotonin syndrome saga.(blogposting/medfagging)
Eh, not the case for everyone. Doesn’t help me in that department at least. I don’t think ADHD is special enough for her, at least that’s what I’m hoping.
The adderall shortage is bad enough as it is. Neurotypical people abusing it is making the stigma around it horrible so I’m praying Jillian doesn’t contribute to that. Her DID bullshit makes me mad but I feel like most people don’t take it seriously anyways. It’s when she starts sticking her grubby fingers on other diagnoses and claiming fucked up trauma that I really want to a-log.
there's a difference between missing a dose and getting on a new medication.
Jill probably felt good one day as a result of being human and ascribed it to the medication.
sage for blogposting but I take Wellbutrin for depression related to CPTSD, I did feel some physical differences within the first week taking it, such as energy level and ability to get out of bed and participate in life, but mentally I was still an absolute wreck. It took 9 months of weekly EMDR and talk therapy sessions along with medication to get to a point where I felt "better" and I was functioning normally again.
I am really surprised she isn't experiencing insomnia. I don't think I slept more that 2 to 3 hours a night for the first couple weeks taking Wellbutrin. Especially since she is coming off of a heavy antipsychotic like Seroquel, I think insomnia would be her #1 side effect.
I wonder if she will eventually blame the Seroquel/ a misdiagnosis when she back tracks on her DID. If Wellbutrin alone is enough to help her this much there is no freaking way she has DID (WE know this, of course). She overshares to the point that it is impossible for her to maintain this larp for much longer.(not your personal blog)
Just like with TND's special 15% brain claim, even if it was a real thing, when did Jill get any tests to verify that her brain is predisposed to dissociating? It's just something she read online and she immediately went "yup that's me" because in her mind it helps fill some of the gaps in her lies.
wrt the Wellbutrin, what I don't understand is that they let her immediately switch from one med to another without any buffer. Aren't you supposed to take a break in between to know what your baseline is, especially after being on a brain-altering med for 10 years? How would she know that those "improvements" she's feeling are from the Wellbutrin (esp when it's too early for it to be working) and not just from being off the Seroquel? She's just telling on herself even more with this shit.
She did taper off the Seroquel but it seemed pretty fast to me (was it over 12 days or something?), and started taking the Wellbutrin right away after that. All while also being on Citalopram iirc. >>301301
Maybe, imo her docs seem negligent in any case since she apparently didn't have any reevaluations of her need for Seroquel (and the dosage). For something that was prescribed to her as a teen, and considering all the changes in brain chemistry (and hormones) between 15 and 25. On top of that, add all the weed and wine, plus untreated BPD, she has no idea what her baseline is and her docs are not doing their due diligence. Not that she'd want them to, anyway.
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You aren't even supposed to drink coffee when you start taking Wellbutrin, the caffeine will freak you tf out.
Jill is gonna pound two energy drinks?? Cant wait to see how this goes.
Well con weekend has finally arrived. Can't wait for her to upload photos/footage. >>301318
Lol Jill they don't gaf. You're not that important.
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She's been pushing this pretty hard lately. Wonder what's the specific catalyst?
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>>301392>sensory issues with cheese>prepares mc n cheese all of the time
She’s such a liar.
Sage for old milk.
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Sofia is almost done her cosplay. Where’s Jill’s progress pics kek.
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She got one single comment on her crunch time tweet, but because it’s asking if she’s making any kind of content so she ignored it kek. I really doubt she’s filming it since she’s been trying to take attention away from her sewing since graduating.
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She’s about to feel so under the weather that it triggers
out her three different baby alters and five precure alters cocon and she can’t finish the video because she has to put plastic clips in her hair and drink from a sippy cup while watching Bluey.
Do any cosplay nonnies know, will they be judged together as a pair? This is definitely cleaner work that Jilly is going to produce and I would be pissed if I was Sof and they are judged as a pair and Jill both brings the marks down and benefits from Sof’s nicer work.>>301440
She is so fucking delusional. Improvement where? The wedding dress was one of the worst items she has ever made and it’s her most recent work. If this is actually a “masters” level and the people are half decent if she wins for her work I’m calling hijinks. Imagine though, if it’s better than the wedding dress and obvious she put more effort in (which her narc ass will have) I would be so upset if I was her cousin. Prioritising a cosplay from a little kids anime over a literal wedding dress is just horrible in such a Jilly way I wouldn’t be surprised.
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You'd think she'd be excited to film and show off. I don't get Jill at all. >>301456
Just some tidbits I found about the competition.
The fakers always have “sensory issues” that disappear when it’s convenient for them.>>301456
I wouldn’t be remotely surprised if she put more effort into this cosplay than into the wedding dress, but I’m not sure if we’d be able to notice the difference lmao
Jill is absolutely delusional to think she’s at a master level. Master level typically includes people who are professional costumers , or who have won multiple high level awards at different competitions. IE, people who spend a large amount of time and money on the hobby, not Jill who is con crunching up until the day of the competition. The pic she posted earlier looked novice level. Sofia’s costume is better, but definitely not clean enough to be master level.
Unless there is no real master level competition (which is possible if it’s a very tiny con), she doesn’t stand a chance.
After she did her last cosplay and won, I recall her saying something about her being required/asked to enter in the next level up the next year, but iirc that was purely because she’d had multiple wins, not anything to do with ‘being a YouTube seamstress’ (the word seamstress is doing some fucking heavy lifting lately.
Does any nonnas remember/want to check what level she was entered in during her previously animaritimes? I swear it was the lowest level and that’s why she was suggested to move up
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Sof hasn’t posted any photos of Jill. Aren’t they a pair?
Jill drinking on Wellbutrin will be an absolute shit show..>>301482
I am dying to see a picture of Jill and Sof in costume together. I wonder if Jill has been lurking so she is hesitant to post pics of her own. I would honestly give her props if her costume came out as well as Sof's has, Sof's costume looks pretty nicely done.
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So Jill is at the con but not in cosplay, if that is her in pink in the top picture that she retweeted. I get the feeling there is no cosplay happening for Jill at this con, either she didn't finish her costume, or she saw Sof and realized how shit her own sewing was, kek.
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Looks like she's not cosplaying
Jill be like "managing my then undiagnosed trauma, autism and DID took so much work, I have done so much growing and we are finally living as ourselves thanks to years of therapy and hard work"
Only for her to actually live like shit, struggle to finish anything and even admit things like
"my capacity is so much lower in so many ways boohoo"
This whole larping of mental illness has made her actually worse in so many ways, and it just keeps getting worse the deeper she gets and the more diagnosis she collects like pokemon.
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Digging through Jill's tagged post and I found this. Looks like she was working on the cosplay with sof early june
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guarantee you she's spiraling because she's not getting the attention she normally would in cosplay and is having to see her friends get it instead kek
Honestly I didn't think she would pull out but wow. Figures with how last minute everything she was doing was. Guess it's a miracle she got that """wedding dress""" done for her cousin in time. This should be a wake up call but it won't be. Also does that mean she'll be backing out of the smash bros competition? It's tomorrow. >>300607
I thought they were but I'm basing it off this clip >>301482
from Jill's June livestream.
I have seen autism appear to get worse when an (often undiagnosed) person moves out of their supportive parental home onto a more stressful and demanding adult life. Masking requires a lot of energy and becomes much harder if you don’t have time or opportunity to recuperate so it’s common for autistic people to have great difficulty coping with significant lifestyle changes.
That doesn’t apply to Jill, though. Jill was able to juggle a part time job and a growing YouTube channel while attending high school, and though she’s been going downhill since moving out on her own it’s been very gradual, correlating with a decrease
in her workload. She rarely leaves the house or interacts with anyone other than Steve, doesn’t have a real job, no longer attends school, half-asses her channel and doesn’t even run her own errands. Sitting on your ass scrolling Tiktok all day can’t possibly be more overwhelming than everything she was doing while she still lived with her parents. If anything she is understimulated right now.
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she just added this tweet too
So she had a panic attack since the morning yet still somehow was walking around the con all day (based on the pictures posted earlier)?
Someone having anxiety that bad would have gone back to their hotel room or whatever within 10 minutes.
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99% she is lying showing up to the judging. Sof posted this on her IG ~1pm and no signs of Jill being mentioned on their IG stories.
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I don't think there's gonna be a photo shoot. I don't think there's gonna be a dance cover, nor a con vlog, nor a progress video. She's "telling herself" this stuff but will forget once she hits the bong a few times tonight.>>301534
Yeah I doubt Jill stayed on the con-floor for very long, the way she's dressed and styled (>>301489) it's like she was just going for a quick walk around with no intent to socialize, take photos, etc.. She's so lame because even if she didn't finish the cosplay she could have still put on a cute outfit, styled her hair nicely, and did her weird rainbow clown makeup and could have socialized with her peers and taken fun posed photos. Jill's ego is so strong tho she probably feels embarrassed even being in the con.
Maybe because even after years of 'therapy' she still can't identify her feelings as panic attacks or anxiety attacks. Or maybe it's because after years of living with these outbursts and sought therapy for, she still doesn't have any tools or strategies or plans in how to remedy them. My OG tinfoil is the panic-attack schtick she does is just a munchie LARP when the attention falls off of her.>>301506>>301503
Her friends probably got a compliment on their hard-work and dedication and she had to pass out to show the world the only thing worth recognizing is her own 'struggle.'
for your observation. I hope you're having a fun time at the con. I'm wondering if the caffeine she was downing is messing with her. It was mentioned by another nonnie
itt that it can mess with you while on Wellbutrin. Jill had two monsters delivered to her on Thursday so I wouldn't put it past her to be drinking more of those plus coffee.
Knowing Jill we won't get to see this vlog footage for a few months, kek.
Even if she didn't end up competing she could have posted a pic of her cosplay. She is clearly lying.
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lol speaking of jerrick
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She’s so predictable it’s not even funny at this point.
And the saddest thing is that her obsession with having to be perceived perfectly and never, ever fail at anything has just made her miss out on a fun weekend out with her friends, and she wasted time on a cosplay did didn’t even wear. She needs therapy so bad it’s not funny, but she’s so wrapped up in curating her own bullshit that she can’t even see it.
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I just grabbed the parts where Jill pipes in.
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It just doesn't make any sense that Jill has "finally figured out her mental health issues" and "is getting help" but she has just gotten worse and worse as time has gone on.
Why can't she understand this?
It feels like Jill is clinging on for dear life to her weeb persona because there is a new season of Precure, and she doesn't want Sof to take her self appointed title of Precure Queen away.
She literally tweeted that she would have hosted an incredible Precure panel at the con BUT she was still going to go and enjoy Sof's panel. I would love to see the group chats amongst this friend group.
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Jill posted a tiktok of her cat looking in the mirror and her talking to him. Just grabbed a screenshot because looks like she's pissy aka Jerrick mode. Steve must be thrilled. >>301599
Depressing, her obsession is destroying her. I think she thought she'd get a hero's welcome. >>301601
I don't think she does. I think she only clings to it because it made her "youtube famous" and is too afraid to do anything that isn't giving her the level of attention she thinks she deserves. She phased out the drag queen stuff because she wasn't immediately queen bee and it frustrated her that her shtick didn't excuse her from doing the hard work.>>301613
Always telling on herself.>>301614
Throw a fit/blame the new med in a roundabout way because altering her own diet is unacceptable.
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Wow>Bow attached with a safety pin
she is wide. Also wtf kind of fabric did she use for her skirt?? Right beside Sof it looks oof
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So much wrong with this>wrinkly cosplay>ratty wig> missing accessories >poorly constructed
Sof didn’t go to fashion school and her cosplay looks way better.
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Normally Pixie Milk is funny. But honestly this con milk has just be kind of sad. Jill could have had fun with her friends. Sure her costume isnt amazing, but honestly it isnt bad. Yes she looks fat, but there is many fat cosplayers.
But, her friends know she's fat. She could still have had fun at the con. But, instead she ended up deciding to not even go after the work and effort she put into getting ready. Yes her cosplay isnt wonderful amazing. But, its still a lot of work to put a cosplay together. You see a lot worse at cons.
I was hoping that Jill would have a fun time at the con and there would be a video with her doing stuff at the con. This milk, this milk is just sad. To bad she doesnt have a friend who would pull her out of this nonsense. She's literally ruining fun experiences by doing this stuff.
Though she is likely just using it as an excuse because she realize she wasnt the best looking in her friend group, feeling self conscious for how she looks "less" than her friends but at a con looks dont have to matter. I've seen landwhales happily flopp around dressed up as Harley Quinn at cons. No one cares if a fat person cosplays someone small and skinny.
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Agreed. I grabbed a tweet by Sof about the panel and Sof showed up to the Jfashion meet up. Jill is spiraling and most likely lashing out.
I agree with you. Like she doesn't HAVE to turn this into content. Or have to enter contests, if she feels insecure. She might make me alog at times but I also honestly just want her to realize she can just have fun. Without having to do anything extra. Or pretend to use an alter. Just, normal, basic, fun.
Like honestly I don't give a fuck that she's fat. Who cares. Plenty of people are fat. It's the fact she's pretending or hinting at a multitude of disorders she does not have that angers me.
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did she already cry off some of her makeup before this pic? there’s a weird gap between her lash line and eyeliner, maybe peeled off her fake eyelashes? also woof those choppy ass bangs and giant septum are doing her no favors…
I know she wouldn't be able to keep thigh high socks on but she could have worn tights or something it throws the whole thing off to me.
Embarrassing, It genuinely looks like babys second sewing project or she had two days to make it
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I guess reality can be whatever you want it to be
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lol at her saying it was sewn to a professional level. do professionals bobby-pin their bows on?
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I'll be honest. I don't hate it, it's not amazing, but I also don't think she edited herself more then the average cosplayer would. Sof's cosplay is significantly better but still.>>301662
On the other hand, there's only a 50% chance of even just one of those ever being uploaded.
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The perfect reaction in the background
She conveniently didn’t mention that she just started taking Wellbutrin, which has common side effects of “tremors, sweating, feeling anxious or nervous; fast heartbeats; confusion” (per drugs.com). Because having panic attack symptoms that are just a side effect wouldn’t be special enough for her. >>301639
This looks so much better than her drag clown face.
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are you lost? also kek not the>uwu if you weren’t such meanies jill would be better!
hahaha how the fuck is cyber bullying real haha nigga just walk away from the screen like close your eyes haha(infighting)
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are you lost? also kek not the>uwu if you weren’t such meanies jill would be better!
hahaha how the fuck is cyber bullying real haha nigga just walk away from the screen like close your eyes haha
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she also posted in the animaritime facebook group for asspats
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looks like she confirmed she was crying in the comments of >>301713
literally no one here forced jillian to be the way she is. no one here told her to larp did. no one demanded jill to waste her days smoking alone in her room. you have to remember all these things happened because jill made a choice to. we are not obligated to fix the self-made problems of cows. if she truly wants to get better, she needs to come to terms that not everyone wants congratulate her for the tiniest things. she needs to stop using external validation to be motivated in life.>>301631
I swear that a huge contributing factor to Jill’s projects not looking great is her fabric choices, they always look really cheap and don’t lay right or look wrinkled. I know fabric is expensive as fuck, but when she’s continually
saying things are done at a professional level, that’s a pretty important step to cheap out on
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This con reminded me of the Animaritime 2018 con vlog where she’s crying about not being able to add LEDs to her cosplay. Her dad comes to the rescue and does it for her which was nice, also proves how spoiled she is that she can cry to her parents and they will take time out of their day to fix shit for her. Anyways she had a pity party over text to the girls in her cosplay group and they comforted her. Just like how she’s making Sof console her and give her asspats now. It’s funny that she keeps going on about how much she has changed, but she’s always gotten coddling by acting like a child. Jillian still documents every time she feels upset too, either on camera or twitter. The only thing that has changed is the size of her tantrums.
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Courtesy of twitter>>301714
Number of factors probably played a role but the wellburtin most likely exacerbated things.>>301656
The pose she chose is awful and not at all flattering. Two dumb nitpicks but the hair obviously doesn't have the asymmetrical bangs and the pink hair strand is not curving to the middle (besides the left side, our right side, not having a the longer darker blue bit either). It really bothers me for some reason. The other is the makeup but specifically the eye makeup. The eyelashes and winged eyeliner is just too much. Also is the bottom suppose to look like eyelashes? Wish she chose a simplier eye makeup look personally.
man sofs got traction… kek maybe she really is becoming the next pixielocks? i await the glorious cow thread of this skinwalker as she dethrones jill…
ah that is if she uses her youtube again after all she deleted everything after she got caught for milking jill….
Anon who said she got help is 100% right. Top right is good. The green one isn't bad, chest piece looks kind of awkward though. I'm guessing 30% Jill, 70% and someone else's work. Bottom right is probably mostly Jill, looks amateurish. Somehow her new cosplay is the absolute worst cosplay she's done. The other ones have accurate shapes and details, the new one looks really, really bad and lacks so much of the design. She couldn't even get the arm puffs right, she added tassels out of nowhere, fabric hasn't been ironed so you can see overlapping seams (arm piece), and the flower petal like shapes are hella asymmetrical. Like I am genuinely baffled considering the other cosplays look decent, just made with cheap costume fabric. I'm guessing she's so hyped about it because it's the first cosplay ever done 100% by herself, and you can tell.
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Another pic was posted
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god she’s fucking ballooned, pic from latest tiktok
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I just noticed waist piece is separate from the dress and that’s why it collapsed into itself like that. There are so many beginner’s mistakes on here and I’m baffled she’s trying to show this shitshow on tiktok and photos where she can control what everyone sees and notices. If this is the best Jillian has made then she needs to go back to school.
It can be hard for these sort of things to stay up if they are not at least a little snug.>>301749
Her doing a costume outside of the precure franchise would be a good change. Maybe when she does her next cosplay in another 5 years.
I just can't get over how she literally said she had 'professional seamstress knowledge' literally two weeks ago. >>300609
Cosplay doesn't even have to be some incredible construction most people just do it for fun but the way she talks about everything when she has the skills of a middle schooler is crazy
That first comment HAS to be a nonnie
Who would say this mess fits Jillian well?
Damn, so the skinwalker surpassed her master huh? That's gotta sting, I wonder if Jilly is going to come up with a new alter to cope with this immense pain and stress. Maybe one that can help her with cosplay like cliffe helps with taxes? Name her after sof and have her be a persecutor like Jer. If Jill slacks off on cosplay she'll force front and pull up sof's Instagram to trigger
herself into dieting and completing cosplays/sewing projects.
The McClean dude or whatever made her split into two new alters, maybe the fact that the snake in her ranks is surpassing her will have Jill form like ten new alters. All color coded, of course.
She looks like a meatball>>301768
Because she's stuck up her own ass so badly she can't see anything. As you mentioned, she had
the time to make this cosplay. Sad how she'll always cut corners and wait until the last minute. For someone who supposedly likes to sew, she doesn't show it.
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I can see Jill making a new alter to cope with a bruised ego of Sof getting 2nd in masters and best dance performance.
Its not that she just got overshadowed by Sof tho.. she just got reality checked that she isnt the amazing professional seamstress she prentends to be
DID & her “fashion” is all she has, she cant handle people finding out that her narcissistic view of herself is so far from reality because she cant be honest with herself
confirming this, just went back and watched all the old con vlogs. every single one she talks about being stressed/having anxiety to some degree, but usually its simply around logistics (parking, forgetting some items for selling her stuff, waiting in a long line to perform, waiting for friends to practice their precure dance, being hungover, car trouble, hungry, temp is too hot, etc). very normal things to feel overwhelmed by.
in 2016 she seems extremely well adjusted, and says that it's her fifth year of going to animaritime and that she's bought all there is at the booths and its all very familiar/she has everything she could want, so she ended up spending her money on a puppy surprise instead that year (from the mall, not the con).
if jills claim is "uwu muh autism so overwhelmed by unfamiliar crowds!!" it just doesn't actually seem plausible based on the years of video footage. she's been to animaritime at least 5 previous times, as well as halcon a few times. she'd know her way around, where all the food/bathrooms are, etc. plus, now she lives in fredericton so the stress of the hotel room/driving is completely gone.
tinfoil that she flipped not because of her weight or new meds or sof outshining her, but because she did NOT want to compete in masters because she knew she would not even place. all of the vlogs she's either in novice or the level above novice. even in 2016 i think she's in novice and they placed 2nd for groups. there was one vlog where i think she did not place (or placed sort of low-ish?) and you can tell how much she's bitter and upset about it from what she says. jilly cant handle not being the best and competitions are the ultimate requirement of competence and excellence.
Yeah I think the competition is what did her in, because she’s way out of practice and in a higher skill class. She thrives on being a big fish in a small pond, I think that’s part of the reason she faltered so much in moving from PEI, she was no longer the
If she was so worried about her weight and whatnot (don’t get me wrong, I’m sure it bothers her) she wouldn’t have posted pictures online anyway, like her graduation collection. Her issue is that she’s in a constant back and forth between buying into her own hype, and realising that she’s not as amazing at everything as she claims.
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Who was Jill dating at 19?
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jill just retweeted this on her main. maybe she's subtweeting sof?
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on mobile so sorry if this doesnt work but i can confirm jill has commented on sof placing
I don't think Jill intends the tweet to be something against Collin, I think she just intends to breadcrumb more general relationship trauma or bad experiences for her Twitter sona. A lot of Jill's lies depend on whether or not you remember her past. Collin was the one she would dress up like herself, and they seemed like a happy cringey cute couple. She probably wants to back-track on it to introduce a new alter or something.>>301897
Jill is the best example of a sore loser ever but that's about it.
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big mean girls energy
i only remember because that was around the time when i actually watched her (japan visiting era) which was around when she’d mention collin very excitedly. She just assumes her current viewers won’t remember these details i guess. Just insinuating that someone did something awful to you when there’s absolutely nothing pointing to that having happened. Just like how she insinuates that she had an abusive
childhood/home life without outright saying her parents were abusive
. (which would be a blatant lie and even she knows that)
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Collin. The only thing wrong was he had the gall to dump her fat ass. She cheated on Tristan for him and tried to make a whole romantic thing they were friends for awhile and liked each other the whole time without realizing.
No one has traumatized this fatty but saying no to a narc might as well be considered traumatic for them I guess.
>>301870>she was no longer the anime girlie
not only the anime girlie, she also fell from her throne of everything she held in PEI: she was the MOST different, the MOST talented, the MOST colorful, the MOST special, but specifically: she was the MOST artistic. it's easy to be a superlative in a small town.
art schools have extremely high drop out rates for a reason and it's the same big fish small pond phenomenon: going from being the best artist in your small town to being the worst/mediocre artist in a room of the best artists from EVERY small town in your state/providence is a whole other ballgame.
it's even a miracle she graduated with how little she was going in her last year (but note art schools have tons of accommodation programs to keep their graduation statistics up, since drop out is super high the first year when everyone's getting reality-checked).
nonas here have noted how her starting college was the beginning of the end - her content changed, her speaking changed, and the cope began. and what came next was being the most
mentally ill. its like a fascinating trainwreck in slow motion. none of us can look away.
girl isn't the point of your alters that when you disassociate one comes out to deal with the stressful situation? her did
lore is so confusing
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Projared’s ex is a professional seamstress who also cosplays and her costumes are leagues better than Jill’s. She would be laughed out the office with her piss poor portfolio.
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God her mindset regarding medication is awful. I’ve been in and out of mental health treatment for about eight years now, and any doctor worth their salt will stress that medication is a TOOL, not an insta-cure. You actually still have to put in the work, medication just allows you to get through some of the barriers stopping you from getting to a point that you can work on yourself.
It really is sad just how clearly depressed and desperate she is. She clings to every new thing that might give her a dopamine hit (including playing up her mental health for attention), but is so unwilling to consider the actual root of her issues that she’ll never get better in her current mindset
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Jill looks at every pill like a miracle drug otherwise she'd have to spend a moment to self-reflect, and she's unable to self-reflect because of her massive ego.>>301944
She's fried her dopamine receptors with her daily cannabis consumption to the point where her hobbies don't bring her any joy.
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She didn't go to a real art school. She went to a community college with no admission requirements. She specifically went there so that she could avoid doing real work and she could still be close to mommy dearest. She got upset that she had to do the foundation year bc she thought she was too good for it and that her years of youtube and cosplays should count as equal value and give her admission directly into the fashion design program but they didn't allow her to do that
I went to her school's website to check what they called her program, and I'm pretty sure this is Wendy being featured on their fashion page while none of Jill's work is there lmao
Didn’t she talk a lot about how the school was so pleased to have her because she’s such a well known prodigy? Not in those words but she certainly painted it like they were giving her the red carpet consideration the way she talked about it. Wonder if she ever got pulled up by instructors about skipping work/doing things incorrectly and that’s really what sent her down the heckin bad mental spiral she’s been on? She was already spiraling but like other nonnie
said she’s used to being a big fish. It must have hurt at every turn to realise even at a no name college she wasn’t the biggest fish.
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Exactly. I assume Jill was pushed to complete some sort of post-secondary education by her university-educated parents. She most likely chose the small provincial college for the reasons nonnie
ascribed + her assumption that it would be a quick & easy way to fulfil her post-secondary education.>>301972
Jill doesn't think the school is beneath her, she believes education itself is beneath her.>>302073
IIRC she has a technical diploma, like a community college diploma basically in Canadian jargon. The school she attended is very small and unknown.
her holier than thou mindset that she's the spokesperson for all mentally ill neurodivergent lgbt poc
disabled etc etc communities
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She also posted it on her SWEETIE account. I find it hilarious how she thinks she needs to fragment her followers or give them specific content because:
1. She doesn't post fashion stuff on main
2. She overshares already on main, daily
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Jill talking about the Colleen Ballinger drama. >>302142
She retweeted this to her main account too.
To the nona that speculated Jill was too high at the con and that is why she freaked out, your theory may have been confirmed with this image, kek.
Jill really needs to get actual clinical/therapeutic help, she is spiraling downward, and her mental health just continues to get worse and worse. You can't complain about dissociating uncontrollably while simultaneously blasting your brains off the planet with weed. A lot of us have been there, weed is not a good way to cope.
as someone who smokes this makes me cringe so bad. I hate the fake trigger warning
shit i’m sorry. Like it’s one thing if it’s a needle sticking out of someone’s arm, by all means put a warning on that but i’m sorry you don’t need to content warning on a strawberry weed pipe. Though she shouldn’t be posting about drugs in the first place imo considering her follower base is a bunch of influential depressed young people who are looking for their own dopamine fix. Just feels a bit irresponsible.
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This made me laugh
She pretended to have it so she could put the ND label in her twitter bio. She wants that label sooo bad it's disgusting, Trich is such a terrible disorder for girls, I have a relative that had to wear a bandana everyday and was a csa victim
which Jill also wants to be. Not trying to blog just highlighting how disgusting Jill is. Suprised she didn't wear her disability lanyard to the con. >>302187
She's projecting hard since the internet has screencaps of Steve being super creepy and her ageplay alter being suspicious af. She's so obvious.
If it was all fictional, baseless lies then that’s not a fair comparison right? Why not compare to her video apology for racism where she just deflects lmao?
Also I could totally see Jill getting exposed in a few years for running a group chat where she vents to minors. Her twitter is already exactly that.
Yes you can get addicted to weed and cause a psychological dependency that almost mimics a chemical dependency. Obviously it’s not like heroin where you do it once you’re fucked but she uses almost nonstop and goes through a significant amount daily.
Jillian makes a lot of things into addictions like shopping and social media.
Please no weed sperging if you use daily and aren’t a complete failure like Jillian then all these criticisms aren’t about you. I hate anons that take cow criticisms personally. No one is talking about you.
I just think with how short the stem is thats a huge fucking bowl. I'd get filling the bowl like that if it was her bong or even a longer stem, fine it'd be whatever, but she's hitting that huge bowl in a pipe like that when she's on the go? Imagine the stink that would get in her hair/wig from that being much being burnt so close.>>302177>>302185>>302277
Um it's more about like if she smokes so much why doesn't she just buy a good pipe or a travel bong? I get she likes the cute aesthetic of the strawberry pipe but c'mon look at how shit that pipe is.>>302181>>302182
Ya your double post is embarrassing. Some nonnies live in places where weed is legal and we get to talk about how Jill smokes it and laugh at her and speculate about it. So shut up about it.
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you can see how little she actually cares about that cosplay, because flipping your septum up your nose to hide it is a one-second thing.
she didn't cover her tattoos either. why would a child character have bodmods?
>>302297>we definitely need to up the dose>it's plateaud already1!
Jill. You are not a doctor.
Yes, patients need to communicate their experience and try different doses, but Jill is acting like it's gonna be a miracle drug that will solve all her problems in life.
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It's kinda not even funny and just nauseating anymore.
This person wasn’t even asking for advice or anything, Jill always has to put her 2 cents when nobody asked for it.
Definition of spoiled snowflake with an unwarranted sense of self importance.
Having ton of side effects, but somehow the medication has also plateaued and she needs to increase the dose. How long has it been now, a few weeks at most? Jill is such an idiot, and she clearly is not working closely with a doctor or a therapist.
I think Jill doesn't understand that the euphoria hit she got by starting a new medication is not the new normal. The whole point of a drug like Wellbutrin is to bring you out of a depressive state and get you on an even playing ground again. Yes, you will have more energy to function. No, everyday will not be all sunshine and rainbows. There is no cure for depression and anxiety, no magic pill. You learn coping skills and you take meds as prescribed to MANAGE depression and anxiety. What a freaking dumbass.
This is so insulting to people with actual trauma. Next she's going to say she has PTSD from some guy including a clip she literally uploaded herself in a PowerPoint.
Wouldn't be shocked if she revealed her childhood trauma was scraping a knee or jerrick formed because someone called her an emo loser in the school halls
i want to put them in the same room and force them to fight kek. except you just know she would fold and go '… ok that makes sense' like in >>302085
because she has no backbone
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Funny though what slips out when Jill is larping on the Jerr & Jax account, telling kids who disagree with her to suck her non-existent cock, admitting she isn't always into seeing her supposed "autistic special interests" like sailor moon wands all day long, openly putting pro-ana in her bio and hating her fat body, not being into her bf at all…
It's just so funny and tragic to read it all knowing she's not got DID and these are her true thoughts and feelings she feels she must hide from her Jill persona.
Might have been posted before, just adding picrel as more proof that she is claiming she can't switch on purpose… so she shouldn't be legally allowed to ever drive or work with children because it's not safe. I obviously don't think anyone should cowtip, but if we believed she was honest about it all someone better tell the cops on her to revoke her license becuase she could literally kill someone if she switched when driving.
The thing is that “Jerrick” is her when she’s in a bad mood. “He” can’t voluntarily switch back because Jill can’t just snap her fingers and stop being grumpy whenever she wants. The “littles”, on the other hand, are Jill when she wants to watch cartoons instead of doing chores. They’re not an involuntary mental state in the same way grumpiness is, so she can put them away or be co-conscious when necessary e.g. when Steve isn’t around to make her tendies so she needs to prepare her own food. If anyone actually believed that her DID as she describes it is real then she ought to be under constant supervision, possibly at an inpatient mental health facility. But nobody believes it. Everyone around her knows that the “children living in her brain” are just excuses Jill uses to get away with being childish and self-indulgent and that she has enough of a sense of self-preservation not to crash her car.
I suspect that the reason Jill has been able to get away with this DID nonsense with minimal pushback from her family and friends is because they’re already so accustomed to indulging her whims and phases that they don’t take anything she says too seriously. They’re probably just waiting for this latest phase to blow over. Involving the authorities to revoke her licence isn’t only unnecessary and inconvenient (imagine having to drive her around, on top of everything else!), but it might cause Jill to double down.
I can't do this anymore nonnies, I'm going to alog so hard if she keeps doing this.
The sheer fucking audacity to claim that being mentioned in a niche medical community video caused her enough trauma to get a fictive (which is fake shit anyway). It just proves even more so that she has never experienced anything bad in her life if she thinks that's what trauma is.
it's crazy to me the closest thing to trauma she experienced is a doctor calling her out on her bullshit attention seeking narcissism (in a professional setting, away from her circle, without even naming her, in a vid the fakers had to dig to find), and how she immediately made use of it to turn it into more attention on her and victim
cred. she's so manipulative and calculating, it's sickening.
she also was delighted to use the situation as a means to indulge in her fantasy that she's not only morally superior to this doctor, but also more in the know than a professional that spent years and years specializing in this very subject, thus deluding herself she was not a failure to launch never-was substance addicted fat sow. i'm still not over the mental gymnastics.
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She can’t even put the phone down and get off of twitter for 15 minutes, she’d seemingly rather sit there staring at a blank page until it refreshes. What happened to all that motivation she had to film earlier? Why not just go do that?
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Did anyone catch if she still did the SMASH competition?
I'm scrolling through her feeds and can't see anything
Wow she must be the only person ever to have lost motivation and drive during 2020, it’s definitely due to her totally real and life altering mental illness, and not just what every semi privileged person went through during the fucking pandemic. >>302418
She actually scrolled through over 6000 tweets?! Fuck me, no wonder she’s certifiable, that’d make anyone loose their mind
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Imagine having a fit over not being able to waste away your entire day on twitter bc 6000 posts isnt enough clearly
She took the term chronically online and took it literally
She responded like a textbook narcissist being called out on her lies. She always does. If you grow up with one you learn the signs. >>302453
I hope this cunt pays for this and has nothing but misery for the rest of her life. How much lower can she go? Maybe she will fake having cancer next. Hey Jill if you want to be disabled sooooo bad you can give yourself a traumatic brain injury with a rock. When your loved ones come to the hospital and are horrified you don't know what year it is, they will coddle you and give you sooooo much attention and you won't even have to get a job and nobody will think you are faking this time.(seek help)
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asian clothing sizes are tiny. most of her wardrobe has been fast fashion and the occassional quirky uk brand like lazy oaf.
back when she went to japan she couldn't fit into most clothing and only bought a few pieces that were already ill-fitting then. and she's doubled in size since
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6000 tweets?! god i hope that includes the shit she doesn't read, because that's insane.>>302550
cons are exhausting even for those of us who just go to look around. it's not rocket science nor an autistic thing, especially as you get older (she's not old but she's not 16 anymore either) and you're less willing to deal with walking around all day in a crowded as fuck place.
she can't get uncomfortable ever without making a big deal out of it, jesus.
And what's stopping them exactly? You sound like those boomers who think mental illness is not real and they can beat depression out of children.
90% of what you all say about Jill is nitpicking and speculation, the only "milk" she's ever had is the DID larp. I'll take the ban now.
Laziness, like nonnie
said. You sound young. There’s a certain point where you have to accept your choices are yours to make but Jill doesn’t want to take any blame for her choices so she looks for excuses. It’s not her fault she got super wasted before a con, it was her anxiety. She didn’t choose to get high, she had to! She wants to sew but shes so tired because depressed. She didn’t choose to take a nap, she had to!
Most people suffering from mental illness deal with it because they have to, it’s not that they’re suffering less than jill it’s that they haven’t got a safety net, if they don’t go to work they don’t get to eat. Jill is incredibly privileged because she has all the time in the world to better herself but refuses to, she counts on the charity of others to keep her afloat and empathy like yours to let her get away with making shit choices so she never has to be accountable to herself.
0:00 - 15:00
General bullshit of not knowing if her live is 'ON' and on her second coffee of the day to be "slorped" Blegh.jpg
Says she's had 'Toxic
gossip train' stuck in her head for 3 days.
Topics for July patron: Con gossip, pride month, video schedule, medication update. Pride month is July and apparently the vibes are off that she's been 'queer and conscious of' but of course the next pride will be the renaissance. She doesn't like the laws(?) or the vibes.
No new tattoo plans.
Weather: it's so rainy but she's trying to bloom like a small flower in every crack of sunlight.
07:16 start of medication talk. Apparently just shy of a month of wellbutrin. 'It was really, really good and did what every single lived experience (reddit?) and doctor said and then it plateaus and that's when you up the dose'
Apparently she's in her plateau phase: still waking up with anxiety.
08:20 Convention talk. 'It was crazy' squarking like a fucking cockatoo and smiling manically. 'It went SO worst case scenario'
09:30 Discussing sensory problems with humidity that area solved by putting on her slippers. Because everything is sticky from humidity and not because you haven't properly cleaned your floors in your hoard hovel.
10:30 Convention main section
Apparently vlogged the convention to the best of her ability but states she was barely there. Her badge was comp'd and someone in the chat mentioned Sof first & Sof did amazing
in Jill's opinion. Her 'sweetie magical bestie absolutely slayed' & 'they were so kind and so encouraging'. Now say that facing the camera with your eye's open Jill. Big mean girls energy.
'They didn't make me feel bad for like having a huge like mental health crisis the morning of' (Of course not Jill, It just makes it so much easier for Sof to come through and take your influencer spot. And you know they talked shit whilst Jilly-bean rested). She also would've totally done the competition if they showed any inkling about not wanting to do it alone and would have gotten someone to bring her makeup.
(I dare say Sof knew Jill was going to pull-out and knew what a hot mess Jill's costume looked. Also not wanting to feed the narc in Jill & saying that she couldn't do it without her).
11:57 Morning of con was waking up with anxiety and then jill-splains the science behind morning cortisol. Apparently passing out/ fainting out in the taxi (just fucking greening out from weed usage). She's really enjoying re-telling this story and her excuse is that she's so out of practice of traveling. Say's that this also happened on the trip with her mom to Montreal last fall.
Grateful that no-one is mad at her except for herself.
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15:00 - 30:00 (22:18 Jill possible refers to stevie as her)
Still repeating how horrible it was for her and throwing a big pity party.
Sat down on the floor at the con and cried when realizing that all her hand sewing was for nothing.
16:03 Stevie had no control over the amount of work they had that weekend and 'I did say I was like I think I need you there…um I think I need like a safe person' (sorry jill, stevie recognized which station your hot mess express was going to be pulling into OR he didn't feel like being your personal driver & holding your chicken tendies). Jill stated that she did have her besties there but didn't have control over the travel which made a really big difference. (I think the key word is control and she's being passive aggressive so it's coming across like this is ALL stevies fault for not being available for her.)
Next video is going to have a chunky edit and she states she's so bad at managing her time (well.duh.margesimpson.gif)
18:42 Podcast recommendation: drew monson long patreon videos in the background.
19:15 Back to con shopping and put her legal name on the back of the con badge/tag and showed it to the camera quickly. Front has pixie back has jillan. Someone add it to the ways Jill has doxx'd herself
Been playing around and making co-ordinates. 'Isn't that fun' Just a little rainbow decora moment
Shopping: precure mystery box/ blind box (mini plushies clips-tsum tsum style?) & bead bracelt made for kids.
22:18 We're going shopping after this because Stevie needs to get some stuff for her project. (I listened repeatedly and I really hear 'her' but someone else listen)
More shouting at the camera about pre cure and care bears.
24:50 Asks her chat if they have any other gossip they wanna talk about
25:56 Talks about fireworks being bad or the environment and for people with PTSD but how theres a little baby child inside her that likes them. But doesn't support the Canada day happenings (Jill you would be eaten alive in a commie country)
Wants light shows with drones instead.
Spends the next 5 minutes discussing her upcoming cosplay construction video and showing screen shots on her computer where she's editing it.
I'm not a seamstress or crafter but this looks like a hot mess. I look forward to a more knowledgeable anonette breaking down the video.
I have to go out but will be back later to finish the stream re-cap
cows gonna cow.
Plenty of farmers exhibit lolcow behavior(sage goes in the email field)
Out of practice of travelling? It was in her town lmao
And how did she not have control over travel? She could taxi or bus home at any time
And I think she says "Stevie needs to get stuff for a project" not her
Picking up where I left off
New video coming on Wednesday; either con vlog or cosplay construction
Jill states that she feels very back in her era and general precure talk with chat group.
34:20 'Stevie remarked that our anniversary lines up with the pre-cure anniversary 5 year pattern and suggested that we go to japan for out 10-year anniversary.
35:00 Precure talk about everything she's seen, everything she hasn't. Currently obsessing over a character from pre-chan doesn't say which one.
38:03 First mention of DID fictives Flora & Sunny about how they make her go outside and bask in the sun whenever there's a break in the rain.
44:45 Back onto her previous cosplay plans and showing her planning work. Seems like more work went into the planning then the actual cosplay construction
46:06 Back to precura
48:37 Google getting sued for not placing ad's and Jill is very nervous (oh no poor baby might have to get a job)
51:33 Discusses week 2 wellbutrin positive side effects. Want's to go back to posting weekly on youtube.
54:26 Cat appears and needs a good brush
57:18 Internet gossip about youtubers, kitchen decor plans
I wonder if she's going to do a video about her wellbutrin journey
So Jill needs Steve to come out with her and act as a carer. The way she keeps exaggerating her support needs is so galling. Also imagine being Steve and you work a normal job full time and your adult baby partner wants you to use your precious free time to look after her at a con when she doesn’t need that. I don’t know why he does it, it’s not like they were in a long relationship before she started this nonsense. She so clearly sucks the life out of him and uses the DID as an excuse to be verbally abusive
, he is pretty trapped now though. How do you break up with someone who will definitely slander the shit out of you and acts like she is a poor little victim
with an extreme mental illness. I bet money he uses that key to maggies place to get breathing space. She is definitely using this to guilt trip him because why bring it up and say it like that especially putting it on blast in a live stream.
The dumbest part is she didn’t have to let her mediocre sewing go to waste or whatever. She still could’ve performed with sof or calmed down, cleaned up and hit the con again once she felt a bit better if she really wanted to. Instead she called it quits and cried about it. She didn’t want to do it so she didn’t, what’s there to cry about? Sof didn’t care, her fans were supportive, like no one sounds like they were upset at her, everyone was just understanding.
She’s the kind of person that throws a tantrum and tells everyone she doesn’t want anything from the store but is then upset when no one gets her anything from the store, like she didn’t tell everyone she didn’t want anything.
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Hmm, I think maybe you should try out "shame" sometime.
Also, you have a pretty wild definition of "functional" there, dumbass.
Right!? It's literally part of the adult baby caretaker fetish. Troons love it. Some of them want themselves or their partners to be in infant mode 24/7 because that is how they get off. Even Barnes and Noble sells ageplay fetish books from tranny authors. Steve isn't a victim
at all. He's a creep and she is a pig they are both bad people who deserve eachother.
samefag. ABDL is the same as a feeder fetish. The guy holding the funnel isn't a victim
being forced to take care of an immobile obese person. It's what he gets off to.
I’m watching the vid and I’m only 15 minutes in but I can’t stop thinking about how furious I would be if I was Jill’s friend meeting her at a convention.
No one in this thread is exaggerating, she is the most spoilt, lazy, terrible, manipulative person.
Imagine you work your ass off all year and look forward to maybe a small handful of conventions or fun things where you go all out and make a costume to dress up and see your friends, only for 1 of them to text you before they even get there demanding you meet them at the cab and babysit them all day because they’re crying and fainting and carrying on about every little thing and ruining your con experience. I’d be filthy with her.
Also seperate note, but she keeps saying things like “i’m different now” and mentioning how she would usually be fine with this amount of sewing and cosplaying and socialising in the past but that it’s all different now and “she’s built different now”
but hasn’t she claimed she’s had DID and a whole host of other mental health issues since she was a kid (throwback to her posting old photos of herself and claiming they’re alters) and that she’s always struggled but she’s “not ashamed of it anymore and doesn’t try to hide it now” or something along those lines?
but wouldn’t a person struggle less after knowing what their mental illness diagnosis is and being given the correct medication? how is she struggling more now than before when she has more support and help now than before her diagnosis??
that’s the thing with narcissists and liars, they tell lies that they think sounds correct but without actually experiencing what they’re trying to convince you of, their explanation of their experience just doesn’t add up when you think about it for more than 5 seconds.
you’ve either had these mental health episodes your whole life and it’s not your fault, or you only developed them recently due to your bad life choices and it’s all new and difficult. pick one. not both.
Exactly. He actively encourages this because he likes her helpless and dependent. He’s the one who introduced her to her utterly inexperienced, kweer, trauma-focused angel baby witchcraft counsellor. He’s the one who reminds her to put on her “pls be patient I have autism” lanyard in stressful situations. He plays along when she pretends to be a baby even though there is no way in hell that he actually believes any of this is real. He likes this. If it annoys him that she’s continuing the LARP even when it’s inconvenient for him, tough shit. He helped create this monster.>>302746
I’d feel really bad for her friend if it were anyone other than Sof. Not only has Sof been following Jill for ages, she’s in this thread! She’s probably more familiar with Jill’s track record than most farmers but chooses to hang on anyway. IIRC she organised at least one of the drag shows Jill flaked out on last minute. She must have seen this coming from a mile away.
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A lot of Jills behavior smacks of punishing people for not doing what she wants by being a risk to herself. Societies whole “if they don’t get X they’ll kill themselves so you better give them what they want unless you want them to kill themselves you horribly cruel heartless monster” really works for Jill. Back in my days parents were just like “oh yeah!? Prove it!”>>302781
For real, now she’s posting pics of herself crying to social media? Weird choice, very on brand narc though.
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More like your friend was probably low key calling out the fact that you seem like you do know those people lol
Heads up, she might have a meltdown regarding this healing show soon because the author implied an incest ending between the twins.
She might do an anime hate rant.
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Yeah like >>302804
says, she claims only Jill can sew. Cringe nonetheless
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Presenting my tinfoil timeline for con.
Jill was already in a manic mood because stevie wouldn't take the day off
Called a taxi and smoked a bowl before going into the con so she would be fun high during it
Greened out and then saw how much better sof looked in social media pictures which sent her BPD though the roof prior to the arrival. Was too high and conventions aren't fun when you're too high
Had a 'menty healthy-wealthy' emergency which resulted in her requiring the full attention of everyone around her as soon as she arrived but then everyone else was still trying to enjoy their day and move on from jill's attention seeking narc behaviour.
that really enraged jill and needed to get the attention of sof competing so she took her cosplay off and had a toddler tantrum on the floor. But would have totally gotten back in cosplay and re-done her make-up somehow if sof needed her
Sof did not need her and came second in masters divsion.
Jill exhausted herself with her antics and left early so she could re-coup her energy for when stevie came home so she could give him the full-force BPD narc blame-athon which he totally deserves because al of this happened because he wasn't there.
Did I miss anything?
Jfc the attention seeking is off the charts. Nitpick, I hate the fatass winged eyeliner. Looks stupid especially on a character that doesn't even wear make-up. Her face reminds me of pizza dough that's been sitting out a little too long getting dried out.>>302814
I'd say you're on the nose. Glad Sof didn't give Jill the satisfaction that Jill oh so wanted. The tantrum Jill throw at Stevie when he got home was probably very over the top.
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She has made a Threads account, that's Zuck's new alternative to twitter but FYI it asks for a ton of your data
She talks about switching during her progress vid here >>302692
which definitely implies her alters can sew
She put as much effort into a wedding gown for someone else
as she did for a cosplay for herself
. Let’s be fair here. She’d have half-assed the cosplay too if it were meant for someone else.
I wrote here >>302670
, that if the video is up I will comment it and I went through all of it and wrote my thoughts, I'm sry that it got this long, but I hope you have a litte fun with it.
I watched the video without sound and with forced subtitles because I can't stand her voice and dialect (sry, I'm used to British English), so if I missed something, I'm sorry. I'm also writing along my thoughts while watching her video and posting it here then.
As someone who made an apprenticeship as a dressmaker (seamstress is a little bit less to learn in my country) and made a degree as a pattern maker, her claiming that she is all this because of a fashion school is annoying and insulting as hell. I made my pattern maker degree with people that attended a fashion school (a real one) and they all were way behind with sewing skills because you don't learn stuff an apprentice learns, still they were way better than she is.
First of all, you don't make patterns in Procreate, not even to imagine them, you would use a vector program like Inkscape (if you need it cheap) or, if you have the money, a real CAD program or just use a fucking pencil and a piece of paper. Everyone who sews knows what a fucking notch is, every pattern you buy has notches, because it's what pattern makers do, they make patterns for people with little knowledge so they are able to sew amazing things and that's why there will be notches.
The crushed velvet she used was a horrible choice because no one after the 90s ever used that stuff again and it's nice if you recycle the fabric you have, but if it doesn't fit, it doesn't fit and you should buy something better. And you don't look at the cheap costumes to get inspiration, they use the cheapest shiny polyester fabric you can think of. Seeing the character she wanted to portrait, I would have chosen a simple cotton fabric with satin weave, looks a little bit shiny but not cheap.
I skipped the wig and foam part, because I know nothing about it and it has nothing to do with sewing.
How can your armholes be crazy small if you measure them? Like, you put a tape around your arms and then you know the measurements, there is no "too small" if you measure it right. And her telling that it's too hard to film the pattern because of the brown paper is bullshit, I could see every line very clearly, she just didn't want to show what she did or didn't do. She got the labels right on her pieces, so that's a plus, don't want to only talk shit about her when she does something right and it's nice that she did a mock up, while I still think that she has the tension wrong on her sewing machine and she should start ironing, even muslins you iron for a little bit.
And now, holly shit, how she uses the serger (is this the right word? we call it an overlock). You don't cut the fabric with a serger, you just finish raw seams and stop them from fraying (sry, I lost my ability to speak English), not cut it, what the hell is she doing? She is wasting at least 10cm of fabric like that. And what did she use to mark her fabric with? You either use soap or tailor's chalk, these markers that should disappear with heat will be back again if it's cold enough and sometimes they transfer onto other parts of the clothing. Also, if you need a special distance there are enough tools to achieve that. Oh, and she is doing it again, cutting the fabric with the serger, that's not making a pattern, that's not having a seam allowance, that just lazy and bullshit, you don't cut your fabric like that.
And she is acting like the ruffles were some big project, hard work? Sry love, you just make a stitch that is very loose and then, ruffle it and then you sew it onto another fabric, it's not that hard. There are mathematical formulas to calculate how much fabric you need to use to get the ruffles you want but I don't think she used any of it. Did she iron something along the way, did I miss something?
Hell, her seam allowances at 20:37 don't even match, so much professional, so amazing. She is talking about some bullshit, but what did she do to the fabric to make it look like at 22:36. Why are the seams all wavy, why is everything wavy? Didn't they teach her that "gut gebügelt ist halb genäht?" (well ironed is half sewn), sry, the angry German is making an appearance. And were is the interfacing? You use interfacing for stuff that should stay in place and there are different kinds for different purposes, didn't they teach you that? She is even bad at hand sewing, no even stitch, no even distance. And she had to go to fashion school to learn how to paint faux leather shoes, honey, I have google, I don't need fashion school for that.
I'm at the end of the video, the seam allowances are ironed badly, you can see the inside of the costume on the outside (sry, I'm tired, don't know how else to describe it) and it just looks cheap. The people from fashion school I've been around would make that costume in a week and it would look way better. So, if any nonna out there doubts their abilities to cosplay, you can do it, you are better than her and she is telling bullshit. What she presented wasn't professional, it was a lazy attempt to look like a professional with a lot of words and nothing else.sry it got so long, sry for the spacing, sry for the angry German, sry for some wrong words, kek(USER HAS BEEN PUT OUT TO PASTURE)
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Late, but this show and its 30-something year old doctor having romantic connotations with a 10 year old wasn’t weird enough, I guess.
(Oh wait, that would be a plus for her, wouldn’t it…)
Some of this is a little overboard and I don't think using marker to mark fabric is at all unusual here in the states/Canada so that's not that big of an issue. Same with darts. Everyone uses darts, pro or not.
Not trying to infight, I just think some of this came off haughty/euro-standard. The way you were taught isn't necessarily how everyone is, especially across the pond.
Nitpicking but social media is her career so why is this video so shaky and poorly lit? Why would she pose in front of her dirty cat bowls and ugly kitchen tile instead of laying some fabric down to make a studio space? Wtf is this gross audio, couldn't even pick a viral sound or something related to pretty cure?
Also I can't get over how retarded she looks waving her arms in the beginning lmao.
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I was talking from a professional point of view, I know that many people use these heat-soluble markers, but I have never seen a professional, not even the ones finishing fashion school, using them. The only reason I made my post was because she annoys the hell out of me telling that she is so professional when there are people out there, with no education that get the job done better than her. If you are a professional in that area, you know that you know nothing and that there is still so much to learn and you don't make videos claiming that you are so amazing and now, after attending a school for some years, you know everything. And I wouldn't say that people in America or Canada are taught in a different way, the books I've read show the same things you will learn in Europe.
And yes, I went a little overboard, I know, kek, I'm still sorry for that.
little tinfoil-y but she's been breadcrumbing hard that because she 'took her time' to make this cosplay and 'recorded so many different little clippy-wippies' over that LONG stretch of time… essentially trying to prove that she's been switching alters during the cosplay construction process.
Bet she says that one of the 'yellow-coded' alters is revealed to have been primarily fronting during filming and editing, hence the new voice.
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It's so funny how that doctor got every single thing right, and how Jillian has behaved in every single manner he said since then. Hilarious.
Also, I just spent a week with a high-functioning autistic child, and it's also hilarious how that experience makes me see even more clearly how NOT autistic Jillian is. She is N O T autistic. AS per usual, it's all just classic BPD. That's why she isn't getting psychiatric help at the moment: most therapists (and the like) don't WANT to treat someone with BPD because they are maniacs and liars and are completely resistant to treatment.
There's no medication for what you have, Jillian. You're just a fucking psycho.
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the fact that jill thinks a fashion designer could sew compression gloves, let alone that she could (im assuming thats what the dumbass finger emojis are insinuating) is delusional. that is medical equipment made with specific measurements to ensure equal circulation through the hand, yet jill thinks shes qualified despite the fact that she can barely make a garment that can fit her own body.
I know other nonnies are seeing this post thinking that Jill is offering to sew these for her but I think she was being judgmental about this artist going to a manufacturer (which she sees automatically as unethical/not sustainable/big evil fast fashion stuff) vs. them hiring another small business, which really just shows how ignorant she is about the fashion business as a whole.
It's her stupid/hypocritical "sense of justice" showing when in reality she's just talking over someone with a real business and the actually disabled people they were reaching out to, as per usual.
I'd agree with you nonnie
except she added "fashion designer" because her narc ass can't go without referring to herself with authority
If she wanted to be holier than thou she'd definitely make it obvious this is her begging and it's all the more pathetic with the stupid emoji fingers
Jill just never knows when to stop with every single thing in her life.
Except when it comes to doing any kind of work, then she knows exactly when to “listen to her body”
Maybe, but I genuinely think she said that because she thinks "good" fashion designers sew every single thing they sell, when many aren't expert seamstresses at all. A lot of designers would straight up tell you that they outsource production because they trust them as experts to do a better job and they might just sew the first sample.
I just don't think she knows a single thing about running a fashion business and is being preachy. She's way too lazy to ever complete a production run of anything herself.
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Dumb tangent, but I was watching the 20/20 documentary about the turpin kids and their decades of extreme abuse, you know the thing Jill loves pretending to have gone through. But the mother was diagnosed with histrionic personality disorder and it's way closer to what Jill actually has than all the autism and did bullshit she claims. Any kind of cluster b just fits her so well. >>303023
Seriously why doesn't she just do Fat Acceptance and Fat Liberation content. That movement loves loud nonsensical narcissist. She would be a super star.(Armchairing)
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jill in the thread photo
She is diagnosed with bpd but is trying to retcon it by larping autism, her fear seems to be being seen as evil or manipulative or abusive
like cluster bs so often are, so she has always gone the umbrage technique of covering it with glitter and cuteness.
Aside but the definition of histrionic personality disorder is so vague as to be useless and unfairly applies to women, since we get judged as "provocative and sexual" for existing, as well as our behaviour unfairly seen as "dramatic" for expressing emotion, like what kind of syndrome is "impressionistic speech"
The history of hysteria where doctors thought it could be cured by the doctor administering an orgasm (forreal) is also very fucked, so I would avoid that label and just stick to the ones with more scientific definitions.
I've noticed that type of mentality before: a small business that uses a manu isn't a real small business as if you can just produce certain items on your own.
The thing with Jill is though, you'd think at that course of hers she would have learned how manufacturing works and how it's necessary for anyone that isn't making 3 bespoke items a year.
Sorry, I wasn't trying to imply she had this disorder. It was just ironic that is trying to convince the world she was a terribly abused child like the victims
in the documentary, but in reality she is exactly like the abuser.
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Apologies for anime sperg but how is she this fucking dumb, she literally has Utena which is older next to madoka magica in the grid. Madoka didn’t start the dark magical girl genre nor are these two examples the only ones. She also used to say she hated Utena and didn’t even watch it and is only ret-coning she liked it to look more gay so I guess it makes sense she wouldn’t know what the show is about. I just….how is she faking that this is her autistic special interest when she is so uneducated on it, at least put some effort into the larp Jilly come on.
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