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Jillian Vessey is a DID (Dissociative Personality Disorder) LARPer who trivializes mental health and sugar coats things while hyping up a fake/manipulated diagnosis that she paid for.
She accepted her ~life changing~ diagnosis with a smile and celebrated with a "coming out as DID" cake.
>Began her lolcow run as a "pansexual" lolita lifestyler who quit due to LACE drama and ~muh restrictive rules~>Is most well known as creator of the Party-Kei style, a weeaboo style she no longer personally wears, she now looks like an overweight clown.>Known lurker.>History of ED, mental illness, and self-harm.>Has a youtube channel with an insonsitent schedule that went from doing fashion related videos to mostly "mental illness" content, alienating her fans.
General info:>Loves toying with the idea of multiple mental illnesses, will google all of them and see which criteria she fills in the most / makes her look more special.>Frivolously spends money (including the money she receives from her parents) on “ethical” -take it with a grain of salt- shit, including clothes, makeup and junk shit for her trends.>Claims she makes enough money from Youtube despite complaining about demonetization on her videos; will often post/tell the cost of items to show off how much she had spent. >Is an extreme narcissist; regularly thinks of herself to be the best/have superior skills in many aspects like fandom and fashion designing despite her skills, knowledge, and results of projects proving otherwise>Refuses to get a real job and relies on video monetization and Patreon donations to keep her afloat despite offering poor incentives for supporting her. Heavily pushes her "full-time Youtuber" title even though she fails to keep up a consistent upload schedule and keep solid engaging content beyond hauls and bullshit vlogs full of ramblings. Continues to post mental health related content, alienating her previous fans.>Opts for "self-care" rather than working on her videos and other projects; defines self-care as doing nothing but taking baths with Lush bathbombs and laying in bed all day. She will take meds without even verifying she needs them or not, or stop them without futher medical advice.>Thinks having a counselor = actual therapy. Continues to fake all kinds of symptoms and illnesses to prove she’s sick, making her into a full-blown munchie. Believes her own lies so much that she thinks she’s knowledgeable enough to advise others on the matter.>Claims to be ethically responsible about her purchases, yet still buys in ridiculous amounts from overseas and doesn’t care if the items come from problematic sites and sellers>Extremely thin-skinned and defensive of herself, will either delete comments, videos, or tweets under fire or act passive-aggressive in tweets and videos likely alluding to criticism and what she has seen in her threads.>Has kept a total of five past relationships in her life, all ending in drama; tends to use partners as accessories when beneficial to her image, even claiming her mayor trauma comes from a short lived DeviantArt ex-girlfriend.>Formerly referred to herself as pansexual, then queer, then claimed to be “too into dick to be a lesbian” while dating a woman; currently lives inside her rainbow house with her boyfriend Stephen Clarke. Now both Stephen and Jillian identify as nonbinary and pansexual. It is worth mentioning one of her exes also became nonbinary and pansexual shortly after dating her.>Relies too much on other people, including her mother, her partners, and other content creators (in a creepy way).>Claims to be family-friendly, but makes poor attempts to censor herself, has made sexual innuendo in her videos and social media despite knowing she has a largely underage audience.>Jill started her own brand, 5 petal flower. She isn’t personally selling anything yet, but plans to sell badly put together Lazy Oaf knock offs. Had a collaboration with a small brand that mostly resells chinese aliexpress items.>Nearly killed her cat by having tinsel on the ground where cat can eat it. Still keeps tinsel up where the same cat can reach it for years after the fact.>She tries to prove she’s mentally ill in any way possible, including always mentioning her stims, dissociation, posting edgy lyrics, and pretending she can only eat one type of food.>After frivolously celebrating her “life changing” dissociative identity disorder diagnosis with a cake, she swears there’s 5 different alters living inside her head, making her a real life “five petal flower”. She identifies every personality with an emoji, some of them are: a 13 year old emo boy named Jerrick, and a 6 year old that talks with a lisp.
(Summary updated 11/15/2021)
On the previous thread:>Her DID teasing before the grand reveal >>181386>The infamous DID "coming out" cake >>181714>She says she has many mental diagnoses including BPD, PTSD, DID, and EDNOS >>181730>Explanation of the emoji for each alter >>181753>She's planning a neurodivergent new years party >>180488>Posts a picture while pissing >>180862>She makes a shitty infographic with a flower surrounded of angry words that her "therapist" ~adored~ >>181251>Prescribes CBD to someone who has an 9 year old alter >>180355>Her incestuous youtube crush Drew Monson makes a video >>180077 where Jillian writes a comment and receives incredible backlash due to lacking self awareness >>180213 urges Drew to interact. She ends up deleting it. Continues trying to receive attention from Drew afterwards >>181544>Calls out a brand for being doing a "lazy ethical attempt" while forgetting she's the same >>182192>Her "coming out as DID" tik tok is the only video of hers with 90k+ views on the platform >>182106>Bwaby Jwillian talks with a lispuwu >>182246 pretends she's her "6 year old alter" while mommy is visiting her>Mommy Louise Vessey doesn't seem to care >>181879>Her edgy emo 13 year old boy Villainy Swells "alter" is called Jerrick now >>181740 even though this was supposed to be her bio drag queen persona.>and more. Last thread was milky as hell.
Social Media & Other Links:
Instagram 2: https://www.instagram.com/pixieespam/
Twitter 2: https://twitter.com/villainyswells
Facebook Page: https://www.facebook.com/pixielockss/?ref=py_c
Facebook Page: https://anony.link/https://facebook.com/cosplaypixie/
Moonmist Girls Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/moonmistgirls/
Moonmist Girls Facebook Page: https://www.facebook.com/moonmistgirls/
Old Deviantart: https://anony.link/https://www.deviantart.com/xhellodecemberx/journal/
Old Blog: http://pixie-locks.blogspot.com/
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for the new thread. Anyway, here’s my contribution to the new thread. I’m 90% sure this wasn’t posted in the last thread. Has this always been the name for whatever account this was of hers?
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i love how she channels all of her true bitchy character into a less popular side account for her "alter" just so she doesn't get called out and run away crying on main as pixielocks
>>182436>explanation of this bullshit? ♥
Holy fuck calm down retard.
That fan did ask a question, she's overreacting and being rude on purpose. Funny. She isn't the ~beacon of peace~ she pretends she is. So fucking funny.
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sliding into peoples dms just to talk about herself, good god
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for some reason I thought I also read “system” so that’s why I didn’t check further back in the threads, I thought I had some good tea. So her system conveniently goes with her abandoned “fashion brand.” >>182436
Picrel. Apparently Jill—I mean, Jerrick—sent the Twitter user nasty dms.
omg I just watched for the first time. I love the people in this thread. Thanks to the anon who made this. I have a feeling we will be able to make so much new Jill content now. I'm so repulsed and disgusted by Jill, especially the fake 6yo alter. This is all so blatantly fake, I can't believe people humor her.
The closed flower seems to be the 35yo, btw
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kek wish I could just be an incredibly rude obnoxious person and then blame it on an edgy teenage boy living inside my head so no one could be mad at me
do you think 'Jerrick' gets triggered
by the weeb thigh tattoo?
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samefag but I think this one is better
There isn't anyone talking about her on Twitter by name without censoring it so that it doesn't come up in searches. There aren't "Several Tweets" calling her out for her faking unless she is digging very, very hard for them.
There especially are not any tweets calling it LARPing. She completely blew her cover in using terminology that's pretty exclusive to here. I assume that she always has her thread open and is never not lurking.
I'd suggest not doing that, Jill.
She lurking af, I'm guessing she's not happy with the new thread summary. Reminds me of every cow when they get pressed about their own thread and start flinging shit, they always drop the uwu act and show their bitchy side. Notice how neither the LARP tweet (a term only we use here) and the one with her throwing a shitfit at some polite commenter are posted as Pixie, no emoji to signify her "character" and talking in context as Pixie reflecting on her own content, not a 14 year old who has never posted on Youtube. >my content will still include…>as it always has
Posted from Villainy's account. This is falling apart quicker than I thought it would.
Best plot twist would be her doctors reappearing after appraising her online content to remove the diagnosis and give her a new one for munchausen and npd.
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Cant tell if this is staged or not but she left this comment on a random fans tiktok. They’ve made a call out tiktok for it as well.
She's really decided to Jekyll and Hyde this whole thing>Finally I can be an asshole in public>Sorry I can't remember, my alter did it
Even better that she's blatantly writing as herself regardless of which account she uses.
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Bitch really wants the drama! I can't wait until she starts shit with the wrong folks lol. This DID fakery will be milky af. I'm so here for it to see on which emoji she tries to to blame it when the time comes kek >I-it was the sandwich emoji that was mean to you, not me! double sad face
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chuunipup's 1st response video
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chuunipup's 2nd response video, showing she even owns one of the badges Jill made years back
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It's this one which is… so random of a comment to have made? I honestly don't understand why she did this unless it was on her FYP and she just got a hair across her ass that this girl was just being silly and having fun without having to pretend she's got a laundry list of mental illnesses. She doesn't even have that many views or comments, so this girl was no threat.
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the comment is still up, here's the link so you can check it yourself: https://www.tiktok.com/@chuunipup/video/7023368812800052485
What does this video have to do with Jillian that made Jillian lash out at this girl? I don't get it? Is this a "it wasn't me it was my alter!!!!" moment???
Like I don't understand why she would comment this.
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it was in response to the fan calling her out on her DID diagnosis tiktok
She's losing it because this yellow teeth girl is cuter than she ever was even when she was thin. This chick might be just another cringe tiktok cosplayer with no actual skills, but at least she isn't Jillian Vessey.>>182507
Where is the fucking lie lmao
Imagine thinking her responding to a fan like this is a good PR move. First, she should just fucking ignore it. Second, I think there's 10 reasons already including this behaivor that make her an obese hypocrite no brand should collab with again.
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btw the tiktok kids got the pixie receipts from lolcow but they feel personally attacked by the fat shaming uwu
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kek guess that's why she was upset about the larper stuff too
See this is why I think a calling out is inevitable, and I would love to see it covered by a big youtube. But I'm just going to sit quietly and enjoy the milk, I bet it'll only get worse and creepier from now on.>>182511
oh boo fucking hoo, bet these zoomers are fat too.
Day 1 of having her diagnosis>WE ARE A SYSTEM OF 5, YES, JUST LIKE MY BRAND. NO I DIDNT MAKE IT UP!>WE ALL USE EMOJIS HEHEHE YES THEY ALL CHOSE THEM THEMSELVES!!!>IM BWABY UWU>IM A FUCKING RUDE EMO BOY, LOOK HOW MANY RUDE WORDS I CAN PRONOUNCE! I AM RUDE ON PURPOSE IN FACT I CAN SWITCH IN AND OUT WHENEVER I WANT!
this is so fake I can't… kek
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This is spiraling downwards already and it's been, what, a week? Since her "coming out"?
i see, thanks nonnie
. i still don't really understand how/if it's possible to create a side of yourself that's ten years older than you. i would understand "oh, i have mature protector alter", but having someone inside your head who is 10 years older and has wealth of experience just doesn't seem physically possible. is it like modeled after someone?
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get off the cross, we need the wood
funny cause she's the only one being unkind
even if she is really truly getting upset that people are calling her out there is absolutely no need to reply to people with the straight up mean and rude comments shes been making. it's not even like she's going on lolcow and calling us all losers either, she's replying directly to people who have made reasonable comments towards her.
it's just very jarring because she has always projected this uwu kind persona but it's very obvious under the surface how dramatic and unempathetic she is
She's the one pretending to be a victim
when she's doing all this rude shit? hypocrite>>182534>it's very obvious under the surface how dramatic and unempathetic she is
She has always had these weird little moments of her true rude and unempathetic self coming through, but she's going all out now that the cover is lifted and has an excuse for such behaivor.>>182535
She has always been the same girl. But now she's suddenly 5 different people… lol. She's such an idiot.
Also, for someone that loves uwu mental illness content and to "spread love", she surely loves to be a bitch!
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the negative comments seem to be getting lots of likes
chuunipup's narcissist comment is the second most-liked one, it shows up on top. i bet she's seething about it
But she knows the fancy words and has many DID friends anon! She even got diagnosed! Just because the switching doesn’t make sense and she’s never demonstrated these characters prior to her diagnoses doesn’t mean she’s faking! And if you think it does well why does she know all the words and have did friends and the doctor diagnosed her!
She really thinks that she’s above doubt with this, so if the switching is awkward now that’s ok because all the other pieces are in place, just give her time. With practice she’ll be a natural and she’ll be as believable as all the other did personalities online.
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she's dropped the uwu positive façade so fast
she's not sutle about using the mmental illness card as an excuse to be a cunt
Is she even still getting treated for her BPD??
Out of her DID, PTSD, GAD, BPD & EDNOS, which ones is she getting therapy for, which ones is she taking medication for?
I'm assuming that with a diagnosis list like this, she would be getting prescribed a bunch of stuff? She has been taking mental health related meds almost for more than half of her life at this point, I assume it's only gotten more as time went on.
She's always been careless with it too, mixing them with weed and alcohol, what a mess.
Considering she didnt know what ednos was until last month or something, that itself is just a holdover from her teen years. Probably had a conversation with the DID doctor about her medical history and they told her that she did officially get that label then.
BPD is very similar in how crazy someone acts, and that was at least what she was actually going to therapy/taking meds for. I would say that DID would overwrite the BPD diagnosis as now her "extreme emotions" are "alters". PTSD was (I thought she said it was Cptsd years ago..)connected to the bpd but since DID is trauma related she would still have that, she has been doing some sort of therapy for this in the past year or 2. IIRC GAD she had as a kid sometime, but she has never talked about that being treated.
No doctor gave her all 5 of them at once, she had them given to her at different times. She just like collecting the labels.
that last comment. SM personalities really do need to shut up about their socially contagious diagnoses. Just let kids be kids, having different interests and feeling different things doesn’t make you 20 different people.
She really wanted to find something that puts her out of reach for criticism and accountability. Now anytime anything goes wrong or she’s horrible to someone she can just claim it was an alter or the alters were messing her up or some bs.
ayrt, I've just read before that BPD is actually quite manageable if it's treated well, it would seem pretty counterproductive if she wasn't receiving any treatment for that anymore because her BPD symptoms are attributed to her DID now.
I don't have any firsthand experience with either so I really wouldn't know how similar treatment for BPD and DID are, if she's only receiving active treatment for her made up DID now instead of anything else I feel like she'll just keep getting worse.
Samefag, it's a "trauma disorder" when she wants sympathy but it's also something to celebrate with a "Happy DID Diagnosis" cake.
Make it make sense. I would say she'll become a lolcow like Trisha but Trisha seems to have a genuinely kind side which Jillian sorely lacks.
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Picrel is how I picture Jill in her dusty ass rainbew house while reading the totemo mean comments KEK. >>182553
Prob the best thing happening since her japan trip with her mum.
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you called it, nonnas
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jillian is claiming she doesn’t know what cause her childhood trauma cuz muh alters protected me!!!!
Which step of the narcissists prayer is this again.
Just full mask off. She wants to be mentally ill so she can excuse her shitty behavior. That always seems to be the trajectory of her diagnosis and “coming out”, it was all to deflect criticism and get attention. When she said she was bpd and turned into an instant asshole, when she got a girlfriend for qweer points and views. Surely she can see the patterns in her behavior.
It’s sending me that she didn’t even last a whole-ass week without fucking up her tenses and pronouns, good job there Jill!
Also isn’t it a funny coincidence that Jill and Jerrick have indistinguishable speech patterns when typing. I’m sure there’s nothing to that at all
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Satanic ritual abuse saga Jill incoming! Where do they hide the bodies, Jill? Was there a tunnel? Where were the animal sacrifices performed???
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She replied this to the same comment, the raging continues
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She replied approvingly to this so I think you nailed it. She's gonna hide behind "neurodivergency" even though she did a full psych eval and came out with 0 Autism or ADHD, and that will be the excuse to be an unbearable bitch to everyone forevermore.
Length of larp will depend on how much positive attention she gets. She’s super lazy but her diagnosis reveal TikTok got a lot of attention, so she might commit for 6months.
Spot on though that she’ll claim her kinnies merged to get out of continuing it.
>>182543>this has been a years long process
BITCH WHEN???? YOU FUCKING STARTED WANTING THIS DIAGNOSIS EARLIER THIS YEAR. IM FUCKING MAD>The "cosplayer"
Yes, Jillian, she actually cosplays unlike you do. Fatass>human being that left me a putrid comment
And you didn't left a "putrid comment" for her too? You're the gross one.
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This is from the /r/fakedisordercringe post about her and people were talking about this comment last thread with no caps and the Reddit mods deleted it but I found it. Just wanted to make sure it was posted here. https://www.reveddit.com/v/fakedisordercringe/comments/qu7epe/i_dont_think_you_need_to_come_out_with_did_also/https://www.reddit.com/user/ssstephanieee
I read it in her voice and it was freaking funny, since she usually tries to appear "UWU HIGH PITCHED MAGICAL GIRL~ LOVE AND PEACE I LOVE YOU ALL UWU"
Speaking of, how would her crush Drew Monson react if he saw all of this? How would Sebastian Masuda / the NHK crew react after seeing her rage? What about the other content creators that follow her? What about the brands she gets sponsors from?
I'm mentioning this because it's funny seeing her mask off.
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2021 really is year of the cow
at first I was pissed about her diagnosis but I'm glad that even a bunch of her former fans are calling her out on it now, she's really done more damage than good with this DID arc
her channel/patreon was already dying before, she was probably hoping to rebrand as a successful mental health youtuber but doesn't seem to be going well so far kek
>>182599>Imagine doing this shit all day and making it your complete personality instead of working on things you said you’d work on. I guess since fashion didn’t work out for her this is going to be her new grift.
Yeah, she can't sew. She doesn't get enough views. She isn't the kawaii quirky weeaboo girl anymore.
She's fat, ugly, a disgrace that copes with alcohol and weed. All she has now is her DID larp.
This is sad because she could always change for the better… she won't. Lol
>>182624>she was probably hoping to rebrand as a successful mental health youtuber but doesn't seem to be going well so far kek
Oh god that would be awful lmao
So she'll never put a video about her fashion shit ever again, or once in a blue moon… and just ramble and ramble about her mwental iwllness… man. Sad shite.
Thanks for posting it. I honestly think Jill's issues literally all stem from being BPD / an "attention whore" to the highest order. I literally think that's the source of all - ALL - of her issues, and I'm not even entirely saying that in a bitchy manner. Take a look at her aunt, Louise's sister. She has all the same mannerisms, is a special snowflake of the highest order, but she has the work ethic to boot. I imagine her aunt has received endless attention and related accolades her / their whole lives. Louise is also artistic and probably tried very hard to put Jillian on the same path when she was young. Considering they are from a small place on the island, I think these women / girls received a LOT of attention their whole lives, publicly and amongst friends and family. It's very clear that getting awards and attention for their artistic endeavors is a huge thing for them.
I again go back to - when Jill's mom had cancer, I imagine that all the focus became on her and I'd be willing to bet that time is the source of Jill's "trauma." She'd likely identify it as a time of neglect and rejection for her - when the attention had to be given to her mother's illness, and not her own accomplishments and personality. It's interesting that Jill doesn't talk about this time, but it was revealed in a very matter-of-fact way by her mother in the tattoo video - as though it was a very important and significant time for Louise (obviously) but a detail obviously neglected by Jillian (because it's a source of resentment for her).
I don't know why Jillian chose to go the mental illness route for her source of stolen valor instead of just hammering away at art and entertainment, something she is honestly good at. Like, yes, succeeding at those things is fucking HARD and it might never fully pay off, but we HAVE to admit that she was doing well at it and making a name for herself and even getting paid for it. IT all seems to have fallen apart at the college / COVID point.
I myself love marijuana but if I were her therapist I'd tell her to put a stop to that right fucking now because it can EASILY induce disassociative episodes - that I have experienced many times in my many years. I am damn near certain that weed-related anxiety attacks that present as dissasosiation are the source of this whole fucking campaign. But UNFORTUNATELY for Jillian, she is fucking surrounded by "yes men" and doormats that give in rather than give it to her straight.
You know what? I hope she IS reading this. I wish I - or someone competent - were her therapist, because someone could actually fucking help her, instead of shepherding her down this munchie path of destruction.
I am getting all of this from everything she's ever posted, along with her Mom and Aunt's social media posting. It's all out there for us to see and analyze and it's all very, very fucking obvious to us. This girl does NOT have childhood trauma. She had a difficult young teenage-hood triggered
by her mother's illness and having BPD by the time she was like 12 years old - because she was raised like a princess, treated as one, celebrated as one, and what would have been normal events in other people's lives turned into "trauma" for her.
SAGE for the fucking novel. Jill can fucking lie and vague post about some horrible traumatic event and past in her childhood but the evidence is ALL THERE. When you lived your entire life publicly, and your immediate family is also entirely public, it's pretty easy to analyze everything.
So - tell me again how ALMOST losing a pet was the worst thing you've ever gone through?
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>>182630>I don't know why Jillian chose to go the mental illness route for her source of stolen valor instead of just hammering away at art and entertainment, something she is honestly good at.
The thing is, even though she's good at certain things, she was never a master of any. She has always been unfocused and her life has always been hopping from trend to trend.
Hell, even the things she's good at she doesn't particularly excel in. Like, she could had picked up illustration, photography (and gotten help from her mom), music, or developed actual sewing skills / fashion sense… but no. She just went for the most attention grabbing path.
>>182633>oldest male part
The 35 year old?
again, her "jerrick" account was supposed to just be a drag king/queen persona lmaoooo and for her to experiment with darker looks…
I know anons will roll their eyes but I think it could be argued that she was a "master" of what she was doing with YouTube - with fashion and being a personality. But the fact is, it's fucking hard as shit to take all that to the next level - to make a real full time career and create new opportunities for oneself. I'm thinking she shouldn't have gone to college, and just stuck to what she was doing, because it was working. Now neither things appear to be working. I mean hey, 23 is hard, you have to kind of pick a path and stick with it, and you kind of have to find a way to make some money, otherwise you are back with your parents, or they continue to pay for you to be away from them. The next year of this saga is going to be interesting as fuck, because it seems she has chosen to go the self destructive route instead, for no real observable reason.
TikTok and COVID isolation and being away from her NORMAL family and NORMAL PEOPLE have done fucked this girl right up.
She's learning what every young person learns when they graduate from college, especially when it comes to the arts: no one is there just waiting to give you a dream career. You aren't automatically going to be a famous fashion designer, these things don't just happen out of thin air. This is the point at which you seek internships and opportunities and market the ever-loving-fuck out of yourself and your work. Jillian could absolutely do that. I won't say that I love her work or anything, but she's far from horrible at it, she has an aesthetic that can be marketed - she even has a piece commercially available for God's sake. So this is where you pick a direction and run with it. She is NOT hard done by. But it IS fucking hard. Life is H A R D. Some of us HAVE had to suffer through extreme (seriously fucking EXTREME in my case) levels of trauma and tragedy and still soldier on - privately, unmedicated, and without financial support.
I just don't fucking get what Jill is doing, other than looking for a way to make it easier. "If I'm neurodivergant, if I have a crazy mental illness, I'll get more clout points, making it easier to achieve my goals."
Maybe? And I could totally see where she gets that from in today's fucking backwards society. BUT YOU STILL NEED TO DO THE WORK. So let's see if she does the work?
What a fucking confusing situation.
the selfie must have been the one in the drag club. so jerrick is the kid and villainy is the 35 year old?
guess we cant accuse her of taking a minor to a drag club anymore
>>182657>This is the point at which you seek internships and opportunities and market the ever-loving-fuck out of yourself and your work. Jillian could absolutely do that. I won't say that I love her work or anything, but she's far from horrible at it, she has an aesthetic that can be marketed - she even has a piece commercially available for God's sake. So this is where you pick a direction and run with it.
As someone with an art degree that recently graduated I 100% understand your point. However.
She's done for. She's already done so many things that blemish her "brand", her "persona", and herself. I'm not just talking about 5petalflower or whatever… it's anything associated with her. These rage induced posts are making things worse, she already had threads documenting her life previously to this as well.
I think she could still save herself some face, if she somehow apologized, stopped this bullcrap, or entirely remade and became a better person. But it won't happen anon. It's better to not think of the "what ifs" when it comes to her, because she just continues proving how much worse she can get.
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Anon I tried to look for the aunt you mention on Louise's profile, and I checked every Vessey and Alcock (her family name) that I could find and I have no idea which one it is. But I did found this picture of actual baby Jillian. I doubt she talked with a lisp kek
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This is her aunt, Louise's sister.(don't post family members)
So you mean this quacko called "Serenity Sam"? Louise's dad is Giles Alcock (public) and I saw her commenting under his (public) facebook posts calling him dad too.
Coincidentally, she also has a youtube channel. She describes herself as a "Self employed Law of Attraction Teacher".
This is fucking funny. Please everyone enjoy Jillian's Aunt newest hit posted only 7 months ago, "The Vortex Song" by Serenity Sam/ The Law Of Attraction Music".
So we now know where the fuck Jillian got it from KEK delusion runs in the family
I'm so fucking sorry for posting her aunt videos but this is so fucking funny I swear it's a breath of fresh air between all the shitty drama she has caused
It's like a boomer version of Jillian. Please check out this it even has "happy" sound effects lmao
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Kekkk this lady. Who's fashion sense is better do you think, hers or Jill?
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Holy SHIT thank you anon for posting this find
Jillian's aunt > Jillian
We stan an unhinged queen
Also her obsession with positivity and happiness is even bigger than Jill's kek
Song lyrics>I feel happy and content x ∞
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This beat got me like
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is this the “nasty family member” that she ceased contact and wanted to email?
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she's actually happy and content and living her best life, looking great for her age and having fun. Unlike Jill, the bitter asshole.
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Was trying to find who that could be, but found this instead… uhhh… she's a relative of Pixie and also has rainbow bangs?
Her name is Johanna Vessey, this is a public profilehttps://www.facebook.com/werlilly
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Dude she’s dope as fuck.
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It's like an alternate, cuter version of Jillian lol
She's also into music and witchy shit
Don’t forget her aunt is in recovery so it is possible that Jillian has some awful memories of her or her mom has a band opinion of her that Jill is aware of.
My bet is on it being about jealousy though.
lmaooo ty nonnie
, i was about to say this
So it’s the “protector” 35 year old that’s replying to the comments.
except people in their 30s don’t care about online drama jill. her idea of being an adult is so messed up.
made one, check the banner thread!
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samefag made one for the cake too
samefag and sage for sperg but also, for those who understandably may not get the 'logic' of DID, the model that most psychiatrists believe causes DID is called 'structural dissociation theory' where a child experiences trauma so intense that they develop amnesia walls to protect from the debilitating trauma so they don't become a PTSD-ridden shut in unable to function. It's why DID patients don't remember traumatic events.
The alters are formed as a perspective thing. What the 'host' would consider needed. If you were neglected as a child, you might form an alter that's 30 years old (this might seem 'old' to the child), uses long words and drives a red car because you think this is the epitome of what being a safe adult is.
Child alters are usually splits formed from specific moments. Extreme traumatic event - a 'freeze frame' from the 'happy' before.
Its psychodynamic bullshit that Freud would have loved, cos you can make up a reason for any alter. Animal alter? Your child self considered dogs the ultimate protectors. Got a sentient croc alter? Crocs were all you had for company when locked in the gulag.
Jilly loves it because she can make up anything and have it validated
Yea I was thinking the same thing, it sounds like a tinfoil but the more I read about it the more it makes sense. Evidently her therapist was so shit at helping her with common BPD symptoms, like dissociating, mood swing, etc., that he pushed a whole ass incurable disorder to explain his failure. We've been following her for years and never seen symptoms of DID, which yes, aren't obvious to the person who has it, but are pretty fucking apparent to onlookers Even despite Jill being under professional care so many times before nobody noticed those obvious symptoms? Not even her overbearing mom or any of her bfs? This shit is just so fucking grim when you think about it, there are many cases of specifically people who have BPD getting "induced" DID-like mental illness because of their therapists, there's some evil shit going on here. Jill changed so much since she started therapy with that particular guy. If you google "iatrogenic DID" there are endless articles about it.
This is peak campy and I love it. Bless auntie Sam.
This Jerrick freakout is hilarious, don't worry ladies, Stevie will be there to save the day and knock some sense into him!
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sage for absolute retardation on my part, but if you are a fan of cow-merging conspiracy, you might appreciate this reference to shay. not only do they look alike at this point.
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she keeps responding to the haterz, because of course that's the smart thing to do. thanks for the plentiful milk, jillian
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You could, the social blade is out therehttps://socialblade.com/youtube/c/pixielocks
She keeps losing subs with every new vid
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Checking patreon toohttps://graphtreon.com/creator/pixielocks
Honestly these should be included in the next OP for everyone's access tbh
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BITCH REALLY THINKS THIS SHIT IS YUGIOH BRO LMAOOOOOO
Oh my god I'm dying this is literally fucking yugioh
'no that wasn't me it was yami jill'
KEK(USER HAS BEEN PUT OUT TO PASTURE)
I felt the same. If this person was a cow-tipping anon, their typing would probably read a little more LC-ish than it does.
I can imagine an influx of people finding this board due to Jill's very public implosion, though. Looking forward to walls of red-texted posts for the next few weeks….
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This is so gross kek her mannerisms are all over the place, is this her drag persona? KEKKKKK>OH MY GOSH I AM SUCH A NERD
I couldn't finish watching it sorry. Thats why I turned it into a gif looooooool this is too much
She seriously thinks acting like a retard on camera is proof of mental illness, when it just proves she's faking it in front of people lolllllll…
LMAO, her views vs subscriptions. She's going to get hate bombed since DID is such a divisive topic. Just in time for YouTube to remove the number of dislikes for public viewing.>>182836
Not to WK but that's just how people act on TikTok. What irks me about that video though is that she's not lip syncing properly she's just flapping her mouth around like a fish hoping it fits.
To be honest I'm amazed that she hasn't suicide baited since that's common for "DID" kids to do when people call them fakes.
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Steve tucks her in apparently
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our kind queen
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didn’t get anymore screenshots and when i checked back it was deleted it, but more passive aggressive comments towards what seems like an actual fan who just doesn’t buy the did diagnosis
>>182842>Not to WK but that's just how people act on TikTok.
Just because deranged people on tiktok do it doesn't mean it should be considered normal.
She got way worse after using tiktok.
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Ayrt, meant alcohol and weed.
I guess we can add DID meds to the list soon
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>>182876>gay dragon clown
I need to draw this kek
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This is so disgusting, pathetic and embarrassing, I really can't think of any other way to describe it.
How do you expect anyone to take your ~trauma disorder~ seriously when you are admitting that your 'alters' are just uwu softboy OCs that have a gay fanfiction romance going on?
Also:>factive of an old comfort YouTuber
Is one of Jill's alters going to be one of those two she keeps tagging?
I feel sorry for anyone that gets dragged into this, imagine having some sweaty lying dweeb pretend that you are quite literally living inside of their head.
It makes me think of these fetishists that get off on involving unwilling participants in their sex pest shit.
Jill pretending that she is this 6 year old girl gives me the same vibes, like she's just doing DDLG roleplay and basically making anyone she interacts with a participant, gross.
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found the precure oc
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omfg that first tweet lmao "barwey" how is she following every prediction
But if the alter is 6, then she's violating twitter T&Cs because you need to be 13 to use twitter right? And she's really gonna be enticing the pedos! Disgusting
I know she'll say she's co-fronting but to me that just confirms that it's a fucking mood change. Guess I have DID as well seeing as I act different around my wife, as I do my mother and my work colleagues. Guess I'm gonna give them all different names and twitters and aesthetics now. Can I join the DID party? What a load of bull!
this is not how 6 year old types>>182912
I agree. This is just her having different ~aesthetics~ because somehow you are not allowed to be just one, but complex person? you can have difficult life and a lot of interests, but some people need to feel super special.
If anything, I suspect a lot of these "DID" people just don't have any idea who they are or who they want to be. Which is perfectly normal for teens and young adults.
Please god let this be satire.
The whole "age 6, body age 23" is such an ageplayer/ddlg red flag.
>>182854>it was a learning curve for sure
What learning curve??? You've been diagnosed for less than a week. How does she have "soooo many" stories about how Steve has been so good to her alters? She can't even reign herself in the slightest bit, she's just way too fucking excited.
Also I noticed that she made a tweet on Jerrik saying that "mom and Jill" made soup, even thought the soup tweet was tagged with the strawberry six year old emoji. I don't get
co-fronting. That's not an actual thing, is it? It doesn't even make sense. How can you be a 23 year old and a 6 year old simultaneously without having major confusion and distress? This shit is so stupid.
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Looking at her likes is worrying. All this romanticization, downplaying and yay fun!, takes about something that sounds incredibly debilitating.
Wonder if any of her fans will decide they have DID when they see the positive attention/representation jill is putting out there.
Even if she does say she’s co-fronting, won’t this come back as negligence on her part and ostracise her from the DID community since these child alters aren’t supposed to be doing anything a real 6 year old shouldn’t do? Surely that would mean no driving, no nightclubs, no Twitter until you felt you had it “under control” enough to carry on?
Whether or not this is real or fake, because I assume this is exactly how it’s gonna go down either way.
>>182896>It makes me think of these fetishists that get off on involving unwilling participants in their sex pest shit
Kek the fact that one of the “systems” that Jill openly admitted to looking up to in the Trisha vid was literally caught doing exactly that >>182896>Is one of Jill's alters going to be one of those two she keeps tagging?
That was my first thought too, but Drew is only 26. I’m betting it’s a ‘fictive’ of her kawiwi queer icon therapist
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I got the full response to this before it was taken down
Ew the attempted guilt tripping, she really is laying it on thick isn’t she
Everytime I see her bios saying ‘professionally diagnosed DID’ like she had to get that in because she damn well knew people wouldn’t believe it. It’s also so gross because she’s not like all those other
social media DID accounts guys, she could afford to pay for her diagnosis unlike the rest of the peasants
Yikes, Jilly, you sound a bit… Dare I say… privileged
. Is self diagnosis not good anymore? And it's only until after you have a professional diagnose you, you start the roleplaying. Hmmm. >>182908
Who's the single follower?
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idk thumbnail made me think of this …
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This is the strawberry account's only follower. I'm gonna call bullshit. Fake milk ain't milk, gals!
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she changed the pronouns on her main to just she/they. eyeroll
It’s stuff like this that makes her seem so fake and performative. She seems to think it’s all breadcrumbs clearly pointing to her being DID instead of recognizing them as things she either did in response to deep diving and consuming so much DID content or simply retroactively framing them as DID. If I didn’t think she was just stupid and easily led, I’d think it was all intentional to get her audience to go along with her diagnosis and be more accepting of it.
Honestly some of her actions are giving me serious creeper vibes. It reminds me TRA rhetoric “I reject your reality and substitute mine and if you don’t like it or play along that’s violence and I get to lash out and treat you however I want in response.”
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weird as this person is a bit of a cow in the precure Twitter community, posting leaks and information publicly when they’ve been told countless times by Japanese fans to not do so. Cap from their old account that they got into some trouble for as well, this along with stealing/reposting images.
They’ve conversed with Jill a fair bit over Precure so not sure as to why their following the 6 year old.
The test she's talking about (Multidimensional Inventory of Dissociation) is a self-report test, and it looks like everything is available on their website, including the test itself and what looks like a manual for clinicians to score it.
She may have just done her homework and studied all this so that she'd get the diagnosis she was hoping for. It look all of 5 seconds to find this via Google.
Good catch, nonnies. Honestly there's more brand consistency in her mental illness LARP than there ever was in her channel or "fashion line.">>182973
Do we think this person is the strawberry account creator, or did they come from here?
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I tried to grab screenshots for those who can't download. Spoiler because I'm not sure if the photo will be huge.
DING DING DING
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Sorry, these are taking forever to upload and I need to space them out a little. Regardless, I'm ticking a bunch of these boxes myself and I have no mental instability that I know of? Some of these are just credited to day-to-day blues or forgetfulness due to poor sleep schedule. It would be so easy to exaggerate here given it's a self-inventory!
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6/6 fin! Enjoy digging through these and seeing if you're a super special neurodivergent DID main character like our Jilly! The questions relating feeling disoriented in your house are cracking me up because anyone would feel disoriented in the rainbow vomit townhouse from kawiwi hell.
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I love how her insult is not having followers despite her being a has been.
Why is the full questionnaire online available to download if you don't have a license to give it? Phycologists treat DID as a massive joke.
Also there are so many cross overs with other mental illnesses/nondivergent disabilities. Because according to this I must
have DID even though I've been DX'ed for other things. >>183023
I love hw she was trying to prepare people by constantly posting "Be nice to every one especially me!" images and now she's acting like a bitch to everyone that isn't licking her ass.
>>182936>If she's crazy she's easier to control and cheat on
Something women of the past know all too well (gestures at that historical list of reasons to institutionalize women which included things like "reading books"
) and is why most women spend the entirety of their life trying not
to look crazy even when it requires substantially more effort than the average man puts into his day (e.g. always looking neat and presentable/photo-ready, restraining emotions, taking on excess personal/emotional baggage of family/friends, and workloads in order to prove you can handle it, doing all the household chores, childcare, finances, and so on, on top of their normal jobs, keeping abuses and traumas a secret in order to keep the face up, moderating interests and behaviors in order to "fit in") and then you have these tiktok girls trying
to look crazy as if there aren't perfectly good reasons women avoid this. Like your family or partner throwing you in an institution, controlling your health, finances and choices like Britney had to endure for over a decade simply because she, uh, shaved her head and acted aggressive towards a paparazzi.
Back to the anon's point, on a smaller scale men choose "crazy" (eso prior abuse victims
) women specifically because they can abuse them and they lack the faculties to be believed or even describe the abuse correctly. I do think Steve is just a cuck though and has no ill intent, similar to her mom. Just an enabler.
I can't imagine having this candy coated life with two people who treat you like a princess, and an online gang of kawaii uwu kids, and still needing more
Like this bitch is fucking greedy.
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she wasnt gorgeous but damn. remember when
How the fuck is he not grossed out by tucking this obese clown into bed??? How could anyone entretain her bullshit?
Is he into this? does it get him hard to tuck her into bed? This is absolutely gross, I wonder if her mom would tuck her into bed still if she lived with her lol
It's just the snow, reflects light & smooths skin. Everyone looks better in the snow.
Jill has potential. Even in her current bloated, +10 years of aging state, she looks decent enough when she's not wearing any makeup. If she took better care of her health and skin, and stopped dressing like a clown, she'd be fine.
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Jesus Christ if I were Louise I'd be really pissed right now. You can only have DID from significant trauma during your childhood. Not adolescence, not teenage years but only your CHILDHOOD.
There are cope larpers out there that say you can be diagnosed for trauma in your later years but that's bullshit that's even more debated than the existence of DID itself.
Unless she was brutally sexually assaulted by a family member during her childhood I highly doubt she qualifies. (Obviously the trauma doesn't have to occur within the family but Louise was a helicopter parent who never let Jill out of her sight and legit threw a tantrum when her daughter got an edgy haircut.)
Louise accepting her daughter's diagnosis would be admitting to being a negligent parent lmao.
Also what happened to her trich diagnosis?
And y'all remember when she thought she could loophole the DID diagnosis criteria by pretending to be retarded?
Funny how she didn't need to but there's clear evidence that she was trying to.
>>183059>This is probably one of the first real "No"s she's ever heard. She's completely beside herself that others for once arent simply nodding their head and going along with everything she's saying like she expected them to. She can't guilt them, she can't threaten them-all she can do is throw out a lazy "w-well!! you have way less followers than me!!" she's getting backed against a wall and lashing out like a wounded animal. She thought itd be SO easy to take over and become the new most prominent face in the DID community
This is the same shit that happened with lolita for her. She thought she could spend the most money to buy AP and it would make everyone love her and accept her as an authority. People saw through her and called out her BS then so she made a big scene over leaving the fashion. Same shit is happening here. She spent a grand on getting the trendiest diagnosis so she could brag about it to a bunch of underage tiktokers who arent 'privileged' enough to afford therapy let alone a thousand dollar evaluation. It makes her as if she is above them as an authority figure once again. Once again people call her BS out and she lashes out. She never learns.
Surprised she hasn't been called out more for bragging about her privilege of even affording a diagnosis. Surely for a bunch of her poor, self diagnosed fans a diagnosis cake is her showing off her privilege?
Same, and I’m pretty sure that DID needs the child to not have a parental figure they can rely on (think foster kids that are abandoned in a closet and beaten up daily)
Even if she was assaulted as a kid, which is terrible ngl, it wouldn’t be enough to break her psyche and create alters. You need repeated abuse with no parental help at a very young age, which kind of implies that neither her parents were watching over her during her toddler/young child years and she was repeated abused in a horrific manner. Like ok Jill. That totally happened!
That’s why I don’t believe none of these DIDtubers either. They all pretty much still live at home and seem to have a cordial relationship with their parents. I’d be mad pissed if my kid was pretending to have been abused under my watch for a while with no parental support.
"Please go get a hobby now"
Feels bold coming from her. What's jills hobbies? as far as we know she hasn't done music in a long time. She stopped cosplaying in 2019. The only sewing she's done in years was for school. Her haul videos have basically stopped, her clothing/fashion videos have basically stopped. Does anyone remember the old crafty videos she would do like the Christmas ornaments or cat house? The best we get out of her now is a lazy day paint job on some furniture… she used to post a lot about watching anime (precure) too and that's also stopped, same with when she would play the sims.
Her only hobby now is what? Dedicating all her time to thinking about how sick and ill she is? Even her "d&d" is just glorified escapism, played with one of her enablers. Sure she has makeup but she's only using that to hide how gross and bloated her face has gotten, it's just another cope. I never thought I'd say it but I miss old Jillian a lot. At least in the old videos she seemed happy and was getting up and doing stuff a bit. This stuff now is just plain morbid.
I don't think anyone's pointed out either but her recent Twitter/tiktok flare ups all seem to be happening past 10-11pm local time. Thinking she's sitting there at night, getting furious on her phone nightly is just plain sad. I wonder what her sleeping is like? I also can't help but wonder if this is lining up with Stevie's bedtime.
Exactly this. And even when people do suffer prolonged childhood trauma, they’re not always going to end up with DID. They make develop another dissociative disorder, and those generally are comorbid with anxiety, depression, bipolar and borderline.
These chronically online DID fakers think acting different in front of different people means you’re different alters when it’s literally just being a person. Even with CPTSD it could just be them fawning or people pleasing which causes people to chameleon their personality in social situations. These people just want to be “special” and have a terrible disorder on their record for life lmao.
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this account is fake
She's a little and does ageplay. This is her starting to ease her 'fans' into it.
It’s too late for Jillybean, there’s no way she can come back from this.>>183149
Nawh, I think she’s hot too. I wish I was confident like her.
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I thought the handwriting on the cake looked familiar. She did the lettering herself.
It’s one thing to be pathetic enough to have someone else put this on a cake, but to do it yourself, congratulating yourself on your fucking fake diagnosis, is next level.
Couldn’t be assed to scroll through the threads for more examples of her cursive, but it’s pretty obvious by the way she does her s’s and n’s that she wrote this herself.
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You anons aren't the only ones to be honest I'm amazed she hasn't been posted in the unconventionally attractive woman thread yet. >>183158
I'm glad I'm not the only one who noticed this, most grocery store bakeries don't use piping gel since it doesn't have any integrity to be sitting in an open fridge all day. But the fact that it most likely means that the lady at the counter told her to fuck off makes me kek.
Imagine thinking having followers means jack shit
It doesn't mean you're smart, or have integrity, and it for sure doesn't mean someone is right
This is a typical Narcissistic response
"WELL, everyone LOVES ME, and they don't LOVE YOU, so guess who's wrong???"
"WELL, I lovebomb everyone into staying, making them think I'm a good and kind person, when I'm actually a rotten asshole inside, so I win because more people believe ME thanks to my manipulation"
>>183059>She thought itd be SO easy to take over and become the new most prominent face in the DID community-probably daydreamed for months now about how she'll finally get to score some interviews with that Anthony Padilla guy since he skipped over her for the BPD one.
This is EXACTLY what I thought too!
She always wanted to be a prominent voice in any community. She fucked up in the lolita community and couldn't coord to save her life. She got a lot of backlash for making up "MUH NEW JAPANESE FASHION STYLE!!!". She knows she isn't the biggest precure fan ever even if she pretends she is (There's males on 4chan who have massive collections of this crap. Jill doesn't compare at all).
Now she did have a voice in the alt fashion community, in the kawaii community, and the community she made for herself, the Conffetti Cult. She even got the Kawaii Leader title by sheer popularity. But NHK Kawaii is dead, and she needed more attention. She's really becoming a has-been in the pursue to be the loudest and most obnoxious. Seriously, wasn't she satisfied? I thought she just wanted to live a quiet seamstress life and sell "cute" clothes to idiots. Did she figure out that wasn't enough? She's embarassing ugh
This whole DID ordeal isn't going to look good if she truly wants a future in fashion… I honestly think this might be impossible now that she's done this. Too much backlash, people think she's crazy now.
She spent a grand on expensive angelic pretty dresses that she couldn't color coordinate at all, and thought she could be a voice in the community
She spent a grand on a manipulated diagnosis with obvious fake sings and lying, and she thinks she could be a voice in the DID community, even saying "CAN I BE PART OF THE CLUB NOW WINK WINK"
She has never learnt
She will never learn
It could had been prevented- in fact she could still change for the better
But she's just staring into the void and will not stop until it is too late
If she's a bit like her aunt I hope she eventually grows out of it and battles her addiction just like her auntie does. I'm pretty sure all her family are prone to addiction. Jillian had something similar to a shopping addiction before, but now that she's fully drinking and smoking weed, I think she doesn't realize the true danger she's in.
GODD THAT'S PATHETIC!
Imagine her getting a random undecorated cake and then writing for herself
"HAPPY DID DIAGNOSIS"
Pretending someone else made it for her KEK god the implications here are so fucking depressing to think about
Of course she faked it, she's facking fucking everything
Also, even ghetto ass bakeries in hicktowns have better writting like that. I know because I worked at one myself not too long ago. It's obvious she did it herself
So, I kind of think she might have done it herself (because of the gel icing), but not at all based on the handwriting. I study older types of handwriting as part of my degree (really - I'm not only an autist on the internet, but irl too), and see very little resemblance between the examples of her writing and the cake writing. The cursive s is how most people write cursive s. The n is different. Look at which letters are looped and which aren't. The slant of the writing is different.
The large differences can be explained by different writing utensils, though. It's hard to write with a gel squeeze thing. My signature when I have to sign with my finger looks nothing like the way I sign my name with a pen. Etc.
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the babytalk is getting worse. ddlg saga when
10 minute video just about what she got for christmas
very trauma much abuse
>>183205>But bakery’s NEVER use that Betty Crocker gel icing lmao it’s not even up to debate. It don’t need handwriting analysis…
Exactly, that anon's 'tism isn't warranted when this alone proves it
Plus her "I'm a professional identifying handwritting uwu" could be a lie lol just saying>>183207
ddgl saga NOW
Not to wk but it looks like she went to a supermarket bakery and,speaking from experience, they will literally put someone in the department who was never trained to do anything there, just to have someone working behind the counter. It's possible an untrained bakery clerk did it.
But it is true that it wouldn't be that gel icing regardless. Most supermarket bakeries either use whipped or buttercream for cake writing, so either way, Jill did it herself most likely kek
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No bakery, including supermaket ones, even shit ones, would actually waste their time and money using a new tube of gel icing every damn time if they already have big batches of buttercream and whipped cream ready to color and use.
And trust me even if there's some untrained individual in there they would still not do such sloppy job as hers. If they aren't trained and the product ends up as shitty as hers, the client will get assmad and tell them to redo it. Do you think they really want to lose money like that?
First thing you learn to do in a cake decorating business is to "stencil" whatever word the cake needs to have and then use small dollops of buttercream on top to write the name. You don't start handwritting it freestyle just out of nowhere. The other option is to use pre-made letters and numbers, but not every bakery does it. Other ways: printing on edible paper (trust me it's easier and even shitty bakeries know how to do this), or cutting each word using fondant.
Training someone to write on a cake isn't that hard either. It requires practice sure but it isn't as hard as you might think. You need a constant setup of an angle, pressure, and movement. My boss even said she still shakes when writing the names on cakes, but she has found a consistent way to do it and look good (she has been baking for more than 20 years).
Judging by the mess she made, the angle is all wrong. And it just REALLY looks like her fucking handwriting, when I first saw the cake I immediately recognized it.
Also, writing changes with age and the intention/style you use to write.
Stop fucking wk her
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from her redbubble
Don't be daft, Jillian probably interacted with a PoC
for the first time as an adult. Her lily white self was protected from such horrors.
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Maybe use this cake from her end card about a year or two ago as reference. The cake decorator there could just be shit, but this one
does look like a different icing (I'm not a professional, just using my eyes) however the did cake, if you look at her tiktok, the icing is kinda red so maybe the glaze looks fucked because she edited it to be pink.
But can we please stop talking about the writing, she probably just CBA to film doing it herself and already had the clip pre cake decorator rejection.
It's an old American thing, and from what I gather it's recognised more in some states than others
t. euro that keeps getting called racist online because of connotations only Americans have
Anon, did you read a word I said? lmao
Slight blog but I was placed in a store bakery without training and my writing on cakes looked no better and no one cared. Stores and customers don't care as much as you'd think. You don't learn to stencil shit. If you're thrown over there, you get no training at all.
I also agreed that supermarket bakeries don't use the gel icing so it had to be Jill. The handwriting certainly lines up, but this is getting OT
Either way, we agree Jill is pathetic.(stop derailing about cakes)
ayrt and I also worked at a bakery.
Sorry your job sucked and mine didn't
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It wasn't her after all, though we knew that already. Surprised that she didn't get triggered over it though
Supermarket bakeries are absolutely nothing like actual bakeries. It's a job even Jill could do. >>183247
Watch her get called out for it and try to use it for pity points with baby talk begging kek "I'm soweee!! I didn't knowe!! Pweese forgive meee!! plead emoji plead emoji"
I kinda assumed everyone also thought she wrote it herself
Like, that's next level sloppy and at least in my area, you have to call ahead to get a customized message. I'm wondering if she was too embarrassed to ask someone though lol
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i hope her liking this isnt her insinuating this is what her trauma was
>>183264>everyday things like doing chores, sitting on the couch, having a shower are triggering
Is she implying she's too ~mentally ill~ to do all of those?
as long as she doesn't freaking off herself
But I've got this feeling too. What do you think she'll do?
I worry about her offing herself as well, but I think it'd be more likely that one of her "alters" would attempt and she'd be hospitalised and then farm online pity points and go "see I told you I'm mentally ill!"
I wish someone with a big platform would be willing to take the risk of calling her out, ultimately I'd really like to see her move out of this part of her life, but I worry she's fucked herself over too much.
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"not age play or anything weird", riiiight. Pretending to have a 6 year old living in your head is totally normal.
Jill's cooking up some repressed memory of childhood abuse, her recent reply REEEing about how people don't remember their abuse, duh >>182573
hinted at this as well as this like. Extremely shitty for her family, to start insinuating abuse that didn't happen to account for her DID.
As we've seen on this thread her likes and implied commemts unfortunately always do
end up leading to the thing they appear to be leading to. She's probably deepdiving childhood abuse stories on Youtube right now to see what she can "suddenly uncover" later on in therapy with her quack.
Samefag, this is a particularly horrifying thing for this pampered baby to "like" since OP Tweeter mentions taking a shower as a triggering
location, implying (sexual) abuse in the shower ..for God's sake. Jill's mom must be necking back the vodka right now since this is a lot to handle from your npd munchie child.
I like how this commenter is like this is weird, alter age 6 real age 23
meanwhile tagging villainyswells which has age 14-16 body age 23
in the bio.
Ageplay and agregression are virtually the same thing. Can't wait til more and more of her fans drop like flies, and she just has munchie systems in her replies like that Alexandria system who wks her does.
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Samefag, I can't type today so apologies for typos, but here's a sc of the Alexandrite system backing up the concept of only being a "system" for 6 months before diagnosis. All Alexandrite's replies are from people referring to themselves as "we" and I suspect this is Jill's future if she keeps alienating semi-normal people like this.
The way alexandrite worded it makes sense though if the DID is real (and he hasn't had any online presents before to contradict his diagnosis) knowing 6 months before being diagnosed sounds probable because it means that he's probably had people tell him that he should seek therapy because he's acting insane.
In Jill's case it's bad because she has video evidence that she's lying because she used to have full upload schedules and had the same demeanor throughout. She only recently "discovered" her trauma and has been on a steady decline after Anthony uploaded his DID video. Which are major red flags of someone diagnosis fishing.
I think that's one of the most damning parts is that she's recorded/vlogged/tweeted for the past several years, no signs of any real issues up until she starting this whole uwu mental illness parade, and even then there really wasn't anything actually substantial aside from her "my councilor/dr agreed, so there!"
Anyone else would probably understand why people are doubting this diagnosis, especially with such a catalog of online history, BUT NOT OUR JILLIAN!
>>183299>She only recently "discovered" her trauma and has been on a steady decline after Anthony uploaded his DID video.
What if this was the moment she decided to be a DID-tuber, after rejection from Anthony as the voice of BPD. We were laughing at her over-reaction at the time but then this
happened so it could be connected.
If she was smarter about this whole "I've been deeply traumatized this whole time" she would really take down old videos.
>17 years old and runs blog, YouTube channel, in school, has a part time job and bf.>Expensive lolita wardrobe (with at least 5 brand main pieces gifted by her mom, easily $1k) and has not yet burned bridges with the lolita community, considers herself somewhat of a figurehead labeling all of her videos lolita.>Plans to go to Ryerson after graduation and anticipates moving out within a year.>Says she wants to be a fashion designer and have her own shop.
She was so much more functional and well adjusted like 5 years ago. If anything fucked her up it was leaving home. Moving out into a rainbow prison and playing house with your codependent deviant boyfriend while drinking and smoking for years will really do a number on a person, but that's not DID.
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If people are interested in the MID excel score sheet, here is how to find it.
If Jillian actually managed to find this (a three year old could do it), it would have been so incredibly easy to manipulate the real test to get the diagnosis.
In the "MID Report" section, it even tells you if your answers seem sketchy, and you can see which questions this concerns. If you studied this for a couple of hours you could EASILY get the diagnosis 100% of the time during the real test.
Keep in mind, anytime she uses the sobbing
emoji, she's mad. I can't unsee it lol.
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don’t know if anyone posted this reply yet, but apparently she did got tested for attention whore disorder and factitious ds too
i just… i don't get it honestly. even assuming she is telling the truth and she got a legit diagnosis from all these actual real professionals - - all that means is that she has a very serious condition and probably requires much more professional support than her current shitty unqualified therapist? i can't really see where she's gonna take things from here but if she's planning to make the usual DID youtuber content, it just seems a bit weird that professionals would be okay with that? you're really telling us that you just got your DID diagnosis and the next steps are… What, carrying on like normal except now youre signing off your twitter posts with different names
why did this all present only after she'd finished school, she showed us no signs of any of this throughoit her whole youtube career despite this being something that would surely not just magically manifest one day in her mid 20s.
and the fact is that she could clear a lot of this up if she sat down and made an honest video talking about her diagnosis and stuff but she's literally just been parading around in twitter and tiktok comments yelling at random people lmao. sorry for the wall of text she's just completely baffling
Giving away that she researched the test beforehand, I love how much she tells on herself. The questions like do you do x for attention?
are easy to spot and give a low answer to, that proves nothing when her entire online portfolio suggests otherwise.
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Yeah, but the biggest thing with dissociative disorders and DID is the amnesia, so even if people around him said he was being weird, it could be from so many other mental illness first before DID.
My best friend had spent years in psych wards and met only one person that could have possibly had DID. They had one alter and most of the time it wasn’t noticeable when the alter came out.
People seem to gloss over the diagnostic for this mental illness and just see you get fun alters and that you have different personalities and they latch on like the uncreative leeches that they are. They definitely have mental illness but it’s not DID.
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So she reported that account and Twitter got back to her and denied her.
But couldn’t this account be someone else’s alter or fictive or fractive or whatever. Given people dissociate could this not be someone else who has a part of themselves that identifies as pixielocks id (read a part of someone’s psyche not identification) and they just don’t realize it’s happening.
You know, be kind jill. Could just be someone else with DID.
lmfao even she can’t stay consistent whether she is a “me” or a “we”, she’s so lazy she can’t even be bothered keeping the act up half the time.
I wonder how long it will take for her to get bored of this LARP, maybe like a year tops? I can’t see how someone who can’t stick to anything else in her life would stick to this one thing, she’ll get tired and give up eventually.
This is what gets me too, I know she’ll just blame it on ‘adjusting to being multiple in public’ or some shit, but if you truly felt like multiple people in one body, then the most natural way to referring to yourself would be ‘we’, not I or my like she keeps saying.
She called the villainy account gets, and Jerrick called the pixie videos his. That’s not how even the fakest of fake DID Twitter yards do it, she’s already half-adding her own story.
This is why no one believes you Jill, you can’t even keep your own story straight
Uma (the dA gf) needs to step up to this point
Jillian is using her fame and all her platforms to diss her and it could eventually lead to legal problems
I think this is what Louise Vessey thinks:
"I love my daughter so much, that it doesn't matter what happens, or what weird trend she gets into, she'll always be my baby and she'll always be my girl. It doesn't mean I'm okay with whatever she's into nowadays, but as long as she remains my little daughter girl, anything else doesn't matter"
When she commented on Jillian's "coming out as DID" facebook post, it really did sound like that.
Like, she's the type of mom that loves her kids but doesn't really care what new thing they get into, because -in jill's case- she thinks they'll eventually get out of it somehow. Remember how in one of their vlogs together she said something like "you get into trends very easily and then hop onto another sweetheart"? I don't remember the exact words, but she knows anything to do with Jillian is never that serious. Or so she thinks. This is why she's not stepping up and telling her to stop, it's another one of those weird rebelious fads Jill gets into.
There's some infantilization involved. She'll never be anything else but her little Jilly Bean. That's why it looks like her mom won't step up, it's just another one of those cute and stupid mean toddler moments for her.
Do you girls think her being on lolcow accelerated her craziness? Or she was always deemed to be some kind of attention whore larper?
Sometimes I wonder if having a lolcow thread is what makes every single lolcow on this site spiral into a worse version of themselves, a nurture vs nature kinda thing. I'm not complaining, but if she really wanted to, she could cite "being bullied on lolcow" -kek- as a mayor trauma factor>>183315
Don't give her ideas! we need those videos up kek, when she was at least a bit normal and less stupid and no signs of "DID" were present.
But yeah, if she was so ~twamatized~ as a teen how come she seemed mentally stable back then? and making normal posts on her blog too
>>183315>Plans to go to Ryerson after graduation and anticipates moving out within a year.>Says she wants to be a fashion designer and have her own shop.
this is so fucking sad>>183321>and to think we made fun of her back then, little did we know the absolute shit show we would be witnessing now. She could have had so much potential with just a little work but instead chose the path of attention seeking.
Even back then she was an attention whore, and had tendencies to think she was the best and number one at everything.
However, really putting it then vs now, I think the things we nitpicked could had been solved and she could had been gone beyond our expectations and actually become a functional human.
I think it all went down when she met Steve + starting drinking alcohol and doing weed
KEK she's just using her true colors over there>>183341
Someone who has a degree =/= someone who is professional, and she could be lying anyways
She should really be tested for Munchausen/Fictitious Disorder though>>183358>Giving away that she researched the test beforehand, I love how much she tells on herself.
KEK good catch>>183370>This part. Shouldn't she be getting intensive treatment and being discouraged from monetizing her mental illness on a public platform? Why would her vague medical team cosign her sitting around at home shit posting online all day
Because they need her rich parents money, they don't care about her actual well being, and she can't have a no for an awnser.>>183389>She posted pictures of the $1000 bill, but nothing officially proving that she got the diagnosis.
It's always the same with her, she always posts bills and tags and brags about how much she spent. I guess she thought the fucking cake she wrote by herself was enough "proof" of having DID LOL>>183511
You know what's sad? Infantilization might be the only "abuse" she might had experienced. But she doesn't see it, she's comfortable with it, even talking like a bwaby when her mom hangs out and getting tuck into bed like an ageplayer (ewuuhghh). She loves being babied.
"tWittEr doesnt uNDerSTand pLurAlitY"
cringe as fuck
>>183420>and we knew it was Meadow.
What the fuck? loool what does this mean
is this bitch already diagnosing her kids with DID too? this is gross
>My best friend had spent years in psych wards and met only one person that could have possibly had DID. They had one alter and most of the time it wasn’t noticeable when the alter came out.
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What the fuck did you just fucking say about me, you little singlet? I’ll have you know I graduated top of my class in being the most traumatized person ever , and I’ve been involved in numerous secret childhood traumas, and I have over 300 confirmed alters.
I am trained in emotional warfare and I’m the top system in the entire mental illness community. You are nothing to me but just another target. I will wipe you the fuck out with precision the likes of which has never been seen before on this Twitter thread, mark my fucking words.
You think you can get away with saying that shit to me over the Internet? Think again, fucker. As we speak I am contacting my secret network of systems across the internet and your IP is being traced right now so you better prepare for the storm, singlet. The storm that wipes out the pathetic little thing you call your own personal identity. You’re fucking Split, kid. I can be anywhere, anytime, because of all my alters, and I can gaslight you in over seven hundred ways, and that’s just with my host.
Not only am I extensively trained in clinical malingering, but I have access to the entire arsenal of attention deprived teenagers. I will use them to their full extent to wipe your miserable singlet ass off the face of the continent, you little shit. If only you could have known what unholy retribution your little “clever” comment was about to bring down upon you, maybe you would have held your fucking tongue.
But you couldn’t, you didn’t, and now you’re paying the price, you goddamn idiot. I will gaslight all over you and you will drown in it.
You’re fucking dead, singlet.
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LMAO my sides
god that picture of her in the pink wig is ugly, she looks so crusty with that makeup
It's easier to lie about trauma to professionals, since they didn't observe her entire life on the internet. Twitter did (sorry)
But lying about the diagnosis is also possible. She can even justify it thinking that it's only a matter of time before clinicians recognize their error, she's basically already diagnosed!
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I feel so sad for Jillian because even in her own family there's people more succesful than her. Auntie Sam might be a bit cuckoo but she actively paints, plays various instruments, does all kinds of shenanigans, makes dumb videos and lives her best life. Jillian could do so many things too, like drawing and playing the piano. But Jillian just rather be mentally ill……..
It's so strange how someone with such a wonderful and supportive family wants to claim that she was traumatized so bad. I know a lot of people who would give anything to have a family half as supportive as hers. Her parents put up with so much bullshit and still support her, she really is a spoiled bitch.
She really has nothing to complain about, so she just has to invent a bunch of things instead. If she just pulled her head in, deleted her tik tok and twitter, and actually thought about something constructive to do with her life she could still be somewhat successful but we all know she'd never do that.
The internet really is poison for some…
Samefag, but if I remember well she also chose that dumb school she graduated from because she wanted to have some knowledge in fashion before continuing her studies.
But after moving in with Steve (remember he edits her videos and probably gets a cut from it, plus stays at her house basically for free) she suddenly decided to not futher her studies for "mental health reasons" even though she is completely capable of continuing.
Something must have happened there. Remember Stevie is the one who recommended her the "therapist" too. I just don't strust scrotes.
Yeah I think you might be on to something there anon, I know there are a lot of guys out there who are really into "broken" girls. Even if its not an intentional thing, he's definitely encouraging and enabling her worse behaviors.
I would imagine she doesn't get much socialization aside from him, to be honest I don't think her world really includes anyone other than herself. She genuinely just doesn't seem to understand how her actions come off towards others.
seriously, I remember when I was a kid going over to other peoples houses or hearing about their home life and realising for the first time that I was incredibly lucky with how my parents treated me. I had friends who were more asset rich than me but their parents neglected or, in the case of one friends dad, would outright verbally abuse them. Jill is lucky enough that she never struggled for money or her parent’s affection, but she’s throwing her privileges back in her parents face by pretending to have experienced so much abuse that it literally shattered her mind.
Anons always (rightly) point out that she can’t just be a fan of something, she has to be the biggest and best fan, despite not knowing as much as others. I think having a DID diagnosis, and a laundry list of others, is just her mental health warrior manifestation of that compulsion. Really, she’s just a garden variety narc.
Thirding, I think Stevie is encouraging all this too. Think about it. He gets to isolate her which is huge considering she's extremely noticeable. Well right now she looks like shit, but maybe 2 years ago she was pretty cute with her little outfits, rainbow hair, and quirky sense of humor. It probably stressed him out when she'd leave because he knew other ugly nerds like himself would probably meet her and want to get with her. So, now he has her so anxious she can't even like leave their porch + she has all these "diagnosed" illnesses, which miiight mean (if they play their cards right) they could live off disability. and even if that couldnt work, she still has her social media for them to mootch off of.
He's not motivated and he doesnt want her to be either. He probably just wants them both to stay at home all day in their eyesore funky musty stinky townhouse-but I'll admit I still don't fully see why since they don't seem like the type to have a lot of sex. Is it all money? Something about that boy has just always been off. and I say boy intentionally because he just perpetually seems like a whiney 16 year old somehow.
Yeah, remember how he ditched Maggie to be with her too?
Also, doubt many sane guys would be into her (the rainbow aesthetic puts people off), and I think only weird guys like Steve would be into her. Guys who know she's vulnerable… plus let's be real, she's quite vulnerable AND famous, perfect for any scrote to control.
The pandemic has done no good to her, she's isolated and her only human contact is Steve, who is also a weird guy who can't clean his penis right (constant UTIs, anyone?) and like, come on, he's with her, that makes him weird already.
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She used to be so cute, I feel bad because of how much she was nitpicked in the past, but look at her right here: Still quirky but with nice natural makeup, looking happy and bright eyed, on her channel's prime…
Does anyone else know what I'm saying?
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she didn't deserve all the constant nitpicking, she wasn't ready to leave her mom's side, I'm sorry she might had been annoying but I actually miss her and how happy she was back then. She has no shine in her eyes now
It’s fair to say that anything could have happened in her life and we’d of course never really know.
That said the way jill attempts to monetize her trauma and put a romantic lens on it (omg cake! Cute emojis for my alters! Hehe my brand IS a five petal flower, I didn’t notice!) is gross no matter how you cut it. On top of that the fact she openly admits to deep diving and consuming a lot of DID content is a massive red flag, it seems more likely she has some sort of mental illness but is masking it by claiming DID either because it’s trendier or because she doesn’t want to face the truth of her diagnosis.
>>183514>Do you girls think her being on lolcow accelerated her craziness?
Normal people who receive critique ponder on it and work on improving themselves, lolcows double down and get even worse.
Some redeem themselves, improve, mellow out, and graduate out from cow status.
I know when I receive critique or run into problems on or offline I immediately consider what I'm doing to cause the issue, and change. We all have potential to be lolcows, we've all done cringey or cow behavior ourselves at some point, what makes a true cow is the doubling down and refusal to listen, learn, change, make improvements and avoid those problems occurring.
As we've seen in the last week when Jill has listened to 0% of what people had to say and taken everything as a personal attack, even from concerned mutuals.
oh come off it nonnies, she might have been “cute” (to you) but she’s never not
been a huge attention whore. I’d be happy too if mommy indulged my every fart.
The thing everyone seems to be glossing over, including her, is that she has bpd. Assuming a new personality and overhauling your self identity to mimick those around you (/all the media she’s admitted to binging) is textbook bpd behavior. I have no doubt she’s absolutely convinced herself that she does have DID, because she’s already prone to attention whoring, and to having an unstable sense of self, add into that lacking any life structure now that she’s out of school and has no real responsibilities, it’s a recipe for a bpd breakdown. All her/Steve’s friends are genderfucks, Steve included, and likely ~mentally iwll~ in a cool and quirky way, and as others have said she likes to make herself the public spokes person for whatever her personality is revolving around at the time, so it’s no wonder she’s gone done this road. Because she can’t convince herself she’s trans, because then she’d have to permanently ditch her feminine aesthetic, so this is the best of both worlds.
I really wouldn’t be surprised if her supposed DID is psychosomatic and she’s fully convinced herself. It’s something that her therapist should be picking up on, given her bpd history
honestly yes, she's had threads about her on here and /cgl/ since she was a high schooler, I doubt having such consistent comments on your appearance and behavior would really be good for you.
I think the LACE situation was another one that probably really stirred her, and I still am shocked her and Kate are friends when it really looks like in retrospect that an adult used a teenage peer who happened to have a youtube audience to take all the heat from a dumb online situation
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same. Just look at her go, happy and doing her best. No pretentious shit, no fakeness, she's pure unhinged and she enjoys every second of it
She's the wholesome version of Jillian
I think Jillian really needs a talk with her
She has such youthful energy and happiness.>>183619
Genuinely agree, she seems like she'd be a good mentor for Jill.
I'm going to do a wild move and say
Jillian move with your Aunt to the UK
I don't blame them tbh. I know someone who has Did. Like they blackout and don't remember much the next day, doesn't have any apparent alters either. Long history of abuse, BPD mom.
So naturally I let them know a YouTuber I was following announced they had Did but I also mentioned that I think she's faking. They (my friend) at first was like 'We shouldn't gatekeep' then I mentioned she now has 2 different Twitter accounts for her alters. They quickly turned and was like "That's not how that works, wtf??"
Did is a debilitating illness so I could see why anons are stanning the aunt. Like who the fuck would want to labeled as such?
I think you misunderstood my post, I wasn't trying to suggest we on lolcow are all anonposting useful advice, but I've been reading the Jill thread for a while now and there's often a lot of good advice posted. Many anons admit to being fans beforehand, even tiktok anon who bought an a confetti club pin, or the anon earlier who wished they could be friends irl (past tense)
Take the Shay thread and it's all salty (literal) whores who are also huge cows themselves. But a thread like this or Kelly Eden's definitely contains actual ex fans or current followers, and a lot of what is said would be genuinely useful for Jill.
Her own mutuals were trying to advise her this week and she deflected it with "this makes me sad, I liked you lol" and the only therapist she liked having was this current abomination who yas kween's
all her nonsense instead of helping her, to the degree she's taken a huge nosedive since starting therapy with him.
So to clarify it was more a reflection on how possibly-redeemable cows like Jill remain cows due to their stoic attitude (in general) toward critique and potential to improve. I mean critique she most certainly gets from family, friends, mutuals, not just this board.
Not to be all "muh zoomers", but this is actually a thing I noticed about people who use Tik Tok on a regular basis. They have the same vacant stare and hair-trigger
temper. The climate of the internet has gotten so much worse over the past few years so it makes sense that someone who is permanently online like Jill would find themselves getting more and more miserable along with it.
Yeah they seem to forget that its a Disorder. I.E its supposed to cause significant problems in your life and any normal person would want to be rid of it. If it was so special and fun to have multiple identities doctors wouldnt need to diagnose and treat it.
It makes me so sick to see these girls treating life changing illnesses like a quirky trait that makes them stand out as if it was the same as having a unique hair colour. And the irony is that in making it their personality it makes them the exact same as all the other snowflakes who claim DID.
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It’s (shockingly) not her anon
Eh I don’t think there’s an issue with driving, because on paper DID is literally supposed to be your brain’s way of coping and continuing with everyday life whilst blocking out your trauma. So if the host can drive, likely the ‘alters’ can too, because they’d need to.
I have an anxiety disorder that prevented me from learning to drive until I was 18, but when you live in a small/rural town, it’s a usually a necessity that you just have to get used to. Plus not some things make people anxious, and some don’t. It’s really a non-issue, because she’s not nearly as dysfunctional as she tries to make out. Plus she has no job and has finished school, she doesn’t need to go anywhere if she doesn’t want to
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Drew has 100% muted her at this point
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because you look insane and they're afraid you're going to set fire to an ex's house
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Well, which is it? The liquor store simultaneously thinks she's over 30 but also 6, apparently lmao
If you ever needed any proof she's a liar…
women like Jill annoy me so much
most people working at those places would just rather be safe than sorry, some teenagers look like adults and some adults look like teenagers, it doesn't mean you're some special youthful beauty lmao
yes the reason they don't ID her there is probably just be that they know her because she goes there regularly
Yeah in my country you can actually lose your job if you aren't careful with IDing people and selling such items to minors, it's safer to just ID anyone who doesn't clearly look like a middle aged person.
I know it must be impossible to imagine for someone like Jill tho that some people actually have to work for a living and don't want to lose their job whew.
Better to just humblebrag on social media about how someone IDed you, that must mean that you are incredibly ~young and cute looking uwu~.
Two obvious ddlg-ers showing off their pathetic claims to looking younger>>183682
If she truly dissociated then this is what her villainy account would feel like to her, she'd wake up all embarrassed to see villainy had been demanding people suck zer's cock and trolling them.
So yes, it is creepy when things representing you do things you don't remember, it's the cornerstone of your "disorder" and a truly mind-fucked DID person wouldn't be entirely sure it wasn't her alter's account in the first place.
god damn this is literally such a roseanne barr moment for her….. she's literally shaping up to say her dad abused her i cannot with this. her dad has always been super caring, buying her super helpful and nice gifts, he even helped her with her final project by 3d printing her those ugly flower rings for a dress!!! really, fuck her for this. actual csa and incest victims
would spit in her face.
Ignore the scrote spam above
I don't get your point. I live in the city so I don't need to drive, but what I'm getting from your post is you agree that anxiety disorders hinder your ability to drive but not everyone has a choice to opt out? I'm sure plenty of people on the road absolutely hate it, everyone I've ever been in a car with hated driving, with good reason. It's pretty dangerous and people (e.g. the other drivers you hope don't run you off the road) are morons. Your parents shouldn't have forced you but that's aside anon's point that some health conditions means some people shouldn't
Like if someone truly was switching personalities on a dime and turning into a child alter (who obviously cannot drive) like all these DID morons claim to, they very fucking much should not be driving.
If someone forces them to that's beside the point, logically a lot of people shouldn't be driving and people should make their own call about whether they can handle it. (I know I couldn't)
Also lets not forget also she claims to actively “dissociate” alot and has screeds of tweets relating to “muh bpd” among others where she details(lies about) being immobile or simply mentally vacant (sometimes insisting she has gone catatonic even though we know she doesnt understand wtf that means) >I am like SOOO mentally ill its debilitating and I have severe symptoms>buts its ok for me to be behind the wheel of a vehicle & be licensed to do so uwu
Its like letting dementia patients retain their licenses because they experience moments of clarity
You got into a car accident, which I can only assume you caused with your mental illness, and are now bitter that some people make the (correct) decision to not learn to drive if they know they’ll be a danger to others? Newsflash, some people would prefer not to potentially kill somebody and instead take the bus. Imagine admitting to causing an accident to own a autistic rainbow clown.
OT but what’s with the porn spam? raids?
Not to defend her but even parents who are nice and give gifts could be abusive
That said, I doubt that's the case. I just do.
I’m with you. Abusers are often kind and caring to “make up” for the abuse. CSA and incest is very hidden and people on the outside looking in usually won’t see it.
I just purely don’t believe Jill has ever faced this trauma because there’s no way she wouldn’t have blabbed about it on her dA (or anywhere on the internet).
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Nah I don't think so, Giles and Jillian have a very supportive family. He moved out recently too, notice how his house is smaller and more normal than Jill's. Also kek the mom is so desperate for attention lol
(this picture is PUBLIC on a PUBLIC profile)
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Something I noticed is everyone in her family circle gets comments from other family members, but if you go to Jillian's facebook… she only ever gets comments from her mom. Not her dad, aunt, grandparents, or brother… she gets a lot of comments from other people though.
But her family always comments on other family member's stuf. Like for example even this girl>>182695
Which is clearly her cousin gets comments from people inside her family circle. The "she's a fan!!!" tinfoil is not correct since other family members that are Vesseys (that isn't just Louise) reply to her.
Meanwhile Jillian just gets a single "You look like a drag queen!" from mom
I think she either removed herself from her family on purpose, or they dislike each other on the basis that she's an attention whore.
Her echo chamber > her family
its sad to see
I'm wondering if her brother buying his own house has made Jill jealous and thats why she been talking about 'a big house' and suddenly anxious about how close her neighbors are to her townhouse.
I also wonder if she will ever visit his new house and congratulate him? He only seems a few years older, buying a house is a big achievement for someone in their mid twenties. Well done Jill's brother that looks like drew monson.
>>183760>'a big house' and suddenly anxious about how close her neighbors are to her townhouse.
If you go to his profile his house seems to be very far away from neighbors so maybe? I'm not going to post pictures even if it's public but yeah>>183757
If you check Jillian's friend list she has so many special snowflake friends from her area, including some trannies, drag queens and people into jfashion
In fact I saw a tranny girl posing in a picture with the same background as Jillian did when she went out in public as a draw queen
She even gets coddled about her delusions IRL
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This is from 2018 and she didn't look as bad
Her eyebrows are normal too
She had less interactions from troons and special snowflakes back then
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man she needs to go back
Damn, it's been so long since the london trip? Oof
, time flies holy shit.
>>183764>She had less interactions from troons and special snowflakes back then
Do you not remember how out of hand her fan base was that we had to make a separate thread for confetti club with itself has several more threads.
Surprisingly so many fewer snowflakes interact with her than when she was better.
She's so insane that she scared away all the crazy people
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Not sure if this was K8, Louise or Jill herself, but it aged so, so well. From one of her Japan trip thread.
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doesn’t jill claim to pull out her eyebrow hairs (her trich)? her eyebrows never seem to have bald patches. also wtf is this “trans masc” bull shit?
idk how any of this DID stuff works but I assume that if one of your alters is a guy that doesn't automatically make you a tranny? lol
extreme nitpick but every time i see this photo of her it triggers
me bc the way she did her blush and the placement makes it look like extremely large angry whiteheads.
like girl that is not where you put blush
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looks like “jill” and the trans 35 yr old are “cofronting” tonight.
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Welp it looks like we’ve already started the “getting whatever body mods the alters want without second thought of the long lasting consequences” I can’t wait for her to get shitty edgy tattoos and then freak out when she grows out of the DID larp and has to pay for cover ups or laser removal
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wow it sure is convenient that her edgy alter wants to get a piercing like this just when Jill has clearly been developing more of an interest in a darker aesthetic again, such a coincidence!!
she really is lucky that all the 'aesthetics' of her alters just happen to match the aesthetics she already likes
just imagine if her 4 alters were a bunch of cooperate business people who hated dyed hair, body mods and only wore office appropriate clothes, kek>>183826
and this creeps me out so much when she talks about herself in 3rd person, she did it with the soup stuff too
I think someone who has BPD would just get a million times worse by larping DID and literally acting like any trait/characteristic of yours is a completely different person, if she keeps this up she's just going down the path of insanity and will never be able to accept herself as a complex three dimensional person that just happens to enjoy a bunch of different aesthetics
>>183851>she really is lucky that all the 'aesthetics' of her alters just happen to match the aesthetics she already likes
just imagine if her 4 alters were a bunch of cooperate business people who hated dyed hair, body mods and only wore office appropriate clothes, kek
That's because they're OCs, really.
Does the 30 year old also like dyed hair? Or is the 30 year old actually mature?
Also, does the 30 year old come out when she drinks? LOL
>>183851>and will never be able to accept herself as a complex three dimensional person that just happens to enjoy a bunch of different aesthetics
I think it's never too late to figure out yourself, and I hope with some actual therapy she gets better, but who knows
Like, she chose the absolute worst type of therapists, the ones who validate you on everything and make you worse. She should be asking herself questions like>Why do I want this much attention?>Why can't I deal with reject?>Why do I want to be babied?>Do I do things for others or for myself?
>>183800>Do you not remember how out of hand her fan base was that we had to make a separate thread for confetti club
She never cared about her confetti club though, she never hanged out IRL with them, for her they also were yucky and it showed.
She has many interactions with the "woke" "lgbt" special snowflakes IRL now. In and outside school. And don't forget her tiktok too.
She wants to prove them she's the most queer of them all or some bullshit. Always with the "I'M THE NUMBER ONE" shit. Plus her not being accepted in that one BPD video made her fucking furious looooool now she wants to be a voice in the DID community for some fucking weird reason
So she has "come out" as a DID larper for like a week and now she's already painting her walls to match her OCs?
Why is everything she does around her house have to do with whom she is? She's really obsessed with that house, no wonder it was the focus of her last sewing project at school
Maybe she's obsessed with it because it's the ultimate status symbol for her? She's a consumerist and loves to buy rainbow crap so it kinda shows she puts the house above everything. Weird ass thing
>>183856>She wants to prove them she's the most queer of them all or some bullshit
she's incapable of accepting that she's just a straight woman kek
at first it was calling herself pansexual as a teenager, then she started referring to her hetero relationships as queer, afterwards her 'totally a hyper feminine lesbian uwu' phase (using some poor girl for play pretend), then she came out as 'nonbinary' (while still just presenting as a woman in basically every way) and now she's 'trans masc'…
Jill I know tiktok makes you believe otherwise but I promise you it's perfectly fine to just be a woman that likes men>>183854>That's because they're OCs, really
also yeah she's basically putting on a little stage play for us whenever she does the weird account switching roleplaying stuff, how cute
at some point she must start feeling a bit self-conscious about how ridiculous this all is, right?
Yeah, plus smoking weed and drinking while having addiction brain = very bad.
She should go to being addicted to shopping and making hauls, whoever in this thread told her to be sustainable was on a high moral horse. Who cares, that was miles better in retrospect
She was so nitpicked back then holy shit
>>183832>If there's no milk, eventually people will stop posting. Many cows actually do get better and grow up, or keep the milky behavior to themselves.
I agree with this wholeheartedly>So this forum can't be blamed for her becoming unhinged…
Disagree, I've been here for almost 8 years and I've seen the overall website culture change over the years. People ridiculed her for things that could now pass as simple milkless mistakes made by a dumb and annoying quirky girl. Back then she was kinda unique in that regard but now there are a dime a dozen thanks to TikTok.
Imagine her, a coddled spoiled and infantilized teen, being thrown into harsh criticism at such life defining years. Being used for laughs and drama. And then being nitpicked years and years to come.
I'm not saying she didn't deserve it, because she did fuck up at times (even so more recently, because she doesn't seem to give a fuck anymore) and she has weird narc tendencies, plus she doesn't know how to deal with bad comments or people who say no to her.
But people hated on het for… Going to Japan and not eating Japanese food? Yawn that's fucking boring. Or her mom giving her a lot of gifts? Who cares it's her mom's money and it's fine if they want to waste it on bullshit. This milk wasn't as rich as some anons might had thought and it honestly comes up as a bit jealous "LOL SHE DOESNT DESERVE TO GO TO GLORIOUS NIPPON!! SHE DOESN'T DESERVE TO BUY MAGICAL GIRL SHIT!". I also remember anons saying her being into magical girl stuff was something she "copied" but really a lot of girls that age do. At least it was better than being into fucking gross and disgusting drag queens.
Is she an eyesore with no real life skills? Yes. Could she somehow get better? Sure but it would take a lot of mental capacity that she doesn't have. Could she somehow wing it while still being an idiot? To be honest it seemed possible back then, not so much now. But you also have to remember this emotionally unstable person that Jillian is reads her threads and has done very obvious things after said things being recommend here. Like, wanting to not subdue to criticism while also appeasing to lolcow. She really needs better therapy.
What are you talking about. She doesn't have any irl friends anymore. She used to have meet-up and a small friend group of efame wanna be leeches. She used to be active in the confetti club group and has always needed to be the absolute center of attention
Side note and unrelated but her mental health obsession was hundred percent her trying to out mentally ill her bipolar classmate who made her final fashion project about her "bipolar struggles" and Jill got jealous someone had more attention than her. It fits in the time-line when she started acting like this and "seeking help"
They did those fashion projects last year
Which is when she started collecting diegnosis(sage)
ok I’ll bite
I’m not buying this >she was nit picked for milkless things!!!
she had milk. Party-kei, her cats health shitshow, the japan trip revolving around her interests and the fact she didn’t go beyond 2 streets whilst dragging her mother around, the strange power trips over magical girl knowledge she’d have online, the constant hauls and overspending. The difference was the scale of her reach, it was small back then and the “community” around these threads were too. It was mainly people in the jfashion comm because that’s who she advertised herself too and claimed was apart of(even recently which I find odd). It’s in the past few years she’s decided I need to be diagnosed and shopping for new titles to put on Twitter profile, shining a bigger spotlight and bringing more people into this thread who have no idea of her early years. People going back and looking at the old videos declaring them the better Jill and these threads caused this are pretty unaware of just how hands off this thread was of her life.
She's been pretty lucky with the community she built around herself tbh. Even though people were gossiping on here she wasn't really getting confronted with any of it.
There have been online personalities who have been cancelled for far less, but no one has ever really challenged her.
She had a good amount of really dedicated fans who coddled her and were willing to pay for her lifestyle.
E.g. even when she first started Patreon she wasn't offering particularly much on there, yet she was making a really decent amount of money because quite a few people really liked her content and personality.
She deemed even that as too much effort though and has just been alienating all those people with her mental illness bs lately.
Trying to make sense of this larp…
So the “girls” share the pixie account and the “boys” share the jerrick account.
Does the emo trans boy have an alter whose an adult man? (She’s alluded to both accounts having a responsible adult alter present)…
So does this mean the beanie is being made for emo boy and his adult alter (lime green and black)?
She’s calling the adult man alter “love” or was she talking to the boy…
This whole thing makes no sense and the more I think about it the less it makes sense and the more amusing it becomes.
Just make some fucking role play accounts to rp with yourself already Jill! This isn’t sustainable…
Also it’s so very obvious this is happening because she’s lost a lot of interest in keeping up the kawiwi front. She seems to just in general be enjoying the goth aesthetic more lately but because, to her, style = personality she can’t reconcile it her waning interest.
If the 13 year old and 35 year old guy are in the same profile, wouldn't that be distressing to each other? age differences, maturity differences, idk?
Grouping things by female and male sounds so annoying too
>>183917>She's calling the adult man alter "love" or was she talking to the boy
She's replying to fan anon, you can see the @ of the person she's replying to isn't villainy. The anon is jut pointing out that she's using the club suite and rainbow emoji to show that Jill is "co-fronting" >>183920
also really sexist since she views darker alt aesthetics as masculine and brighter aesthetics as feminine. She's a fucking idiot that doesn't realize that just because she's starting to like "spooky" things that doesn't mean she's a different person.
I stopped at "disassociated since I was very very very young and I thought it was normal cause it was all I've ever known" bit.
If a braver soul could summarize, it would be immensely appreciated.
i'm watching this rn and i already fucking cannot>at the start of the pandemic i started to experience age regression
jill, you and millions of other young adults, literally. this has been talked about all over the internet at this point. people who are facing their first major worldwide crisis do not know how to deal with the uncertainty and they revert to behaviours they associate with safety, aka childhood hobbies. you are not unique, or all of us zoomers and millennials have DID apparently?
>>183927>I've had DID since I was three years old
How convenient for her to get traumatized buy what sounds like one occurrence when she couldn't form memories. That definitely
isn't a red flag of false memory implant.
>Jerrick is co-fronting here to help tell the story>"How dare you call me your girlfriend you wish" Jill to Steve
Bitch that's just BPD, you literally just fought with your boyfriend, you split because of that classic black and white thinking.
I really think her councilor is pushing the DID narrative so he can use Jill to get his doctoral degree. It would make sense because why would he automatically go for a disassociate disorder first rather than break everything down to other probable disorders/illnesses. He can get the Dr. clout for treating a patient with diagnosed DID.
The funniest thing is how she claims that she's never been better, mentally.
Who are you even kidding, at this point?
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if she brought one of these (from one of the stalls at her j fashion swap shop) and wears it for her little video, I will vomit.
Kek, after skimming through the vid posted above I went to one of the vids that got recommended from her that are just a few months old (it was the 60s hair style tutorial) and bruh the difference. There was at least some sort of light in her eyes and she seemed more contend with her self as well.
I also think that she will never make the alter ego vid because people in the comment section are asking for this and she likes most comments but the ones who ask to meet the "other ones". Boo, want to see the cringe in action lol
What? Isn't the whole point of DID that you can't remember what your alter is doing? How did Jake just come out for 10 seconds and then leave???
>>183926>also really sexist since she views darker alt aesthetics as masculine and brighter aesthetics as feminine. She's a fucking idiot that doesn't realize that just because she's starting to like "spooky" things that doesn't mean she's a different person.
I blame the whole "internet aesthetic" that was created by Tumblr and TikTok for it. People really think that EVERY SINGLE part of your life has to fit a precise ig feed to make up a "personality".>>183928
I'm not that brave, i couldn't go past the 5 min mark but she already claimed that psychiatrist told her she should get tested for autism and she avoided the whole "explaining how a spoiled privileged girl could have developed trauma" by just stating that she "doesn't own us an explanation". Then just stfu and don't talk about your diagnosis online retard
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The @sweetstrawby troll is getting increasingly less funny. I know it's best not to mention them but just want to give a warning to other lurkers that the "Beast of blood" alt in their replies is full of graphic self harm and shocksite gore. It's pretty clearly someone who grooms teens into becoming anorexic and self harming.
Sorry for my tism' I'm just fucking mad that they're ruining the organic milk.
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Flexed part of her diagnosis paper toward the end
She sure is mentally ill.Oof
. I quite honestly feel ill after watching that.
So according to the text she herself just went ahead and told the people doing the assessment that she has 5 personalities? Idk dick about DID but it sure sounds suspicious that she would be so aware of the exact number of personalities after considering having DID for like… a couple of months?
Also doesn't "diagnostic impression" mean the psychiatrists or whoever are somewhat unsure of the diagnosis?
Somehow this paper that she's so excited to flaunt as proof doesn't really sound all that convincing.
The excitement in her voice at the start is like she's in complete munchie bliss. She's loving this so much>>183956>She was observed to fluidly move amongst these personalities during her clinical interview, changing the pitch/tone of her voice
I am so sad that there will never be a video record of that shit. And the Jillian (Pixie) is just too much.
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skin-walker cousin weighs in.
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Lol at the steep drop on Nov. 1st, call your bets on how many she’ll lose due to her retarded actions when the next pay period is done, I’m gonna say half.
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Pic of "Jerrick" and Jillians friends from the video. Doesn't she think that it's fucking weird for a supposed 14-16 year old to hang out with people in their early/mid 20's?
also just kek at the pick, she looks so dumb
"people seem to think that DID is a trend right now" "I feel like they also called it a trend in the fucking 90s or 80s or whatever fucking year sybil came out"
really weird of her to say this because she's definitely referring to false memory syndrome which was rampant in the 90s due to quacks performing "recovered memory therapy" where they'd convince patients that they had deep rooted trauma and a lot of these women ended up cutting off family members thinking they'd been molested as children
like…if anything these women were victims
. it wasn't considered "a trend" it was a real genuine thing that happened
I believe she said that she was doing that on Twitter. You can't block on Youtube but you can black list words. She probably black listed any thing that's associated with "fake-claiming" >>183979
Sybil came out in the late 70s, around the time where cults were running rampant and so was the satanic panic. A time where cults were using "psychology" to gain followers by doing exactly what you said.
She's not making a strong argument for herself especially since there are multiple psychologists coming out and saying that a lot of people in their early teens and mid twenties are trying to receive diagnosis for things like turrets and DID.>>183981
So much of what she said can be attributed with other conditions. I feel that comorbidities for conditions that are too similar should not exist in phycology. For example if Jill does get the 'tisim test it should nullify her BPD and DID diagnosis since autism brains tend to be in a fantasy land (especially in women, the amount of other autistic women I've met that claimed to have multiple personalities so they can play their favorite OC for a day is way too many.).
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Diagnostic impression literally mean there is a certain degree of uncertainty as in this is not even 100% confirmation she has DID and the “specialists” she has seen still believes it could be something else. This paper literally just shows that this is potential they’re looking at based on the accounts she gave. This is not a diagnosis
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me@this shit show
can't wait for the kawaii age regression vid. give us all that creamy milk jillie!
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japan trip number 3 next year? god i hope so. imagine her 6 year old alter sperging in the precure store.
that part annoyed me so much…
like she's been on YouTube for around 7 years, and for the longest time mental health stuff was NOT part of her content.
even if she mentioned it at times for the most part she did not make full videos about just that.
in recent times her content has been so mental illness centric, not just on YT but all her social media.
it's just so rude towards people who have been following her for a longer time who yes did indeed subscribe for kawaii fashion content, not this mental illness stuff kek. hope she keeps losing more subscribers tbh.
A summary for those who do not want to endure this.
>When covid started, claims she would wake up surrounded by crayons and legos and sticker books with Hello Kitty in her watch history.
Can you picture here waking up from a nugget coma literally surrounded by crayons and legos? Why does she even own legos?
>Her aesthetic "kind of looks like it was designed by a six year old" so she must have a repressed 6 year old inside of her head.
>Says you can be an adult that likes cute things and that doesn't mean you have a dissociative child in you.
>Was disassociating "so hard" things started to happen that could not be explained.
>So triggered by being called girlfriend and Jillian and that was the first sign of Jerrick and considers that a psychotic break.
>Previously referred to her age regression as a "delusion." "Psychotic delusions of BPD"
>Has "not been clean" from cutting, said while smirking.
>Admits to writing off therapy as something that does not work for her.
>Started therapy when mom found first suicide note in grade 5, said in a singsong-y voice. Didn't have a plan to attempt but why did she write that and why did she mean that?
>In therapy for ED treatment and it never worked for her and she never found any coping mechanisms to be helpful.
>Gleefully talks about yaaas queen therapist found by Steebie.
This is just the first 10 minutes
we're going to watch the COMING OUT AS DID video from Pixielocks in a bit if you want to come and watch it together with us!https://cytu.be/r/townnhall
(link is today's townhall)
Safe for OT Japan just resumed up the go-to japan domestic travel thing, and are allowing tourists in for business. If cases remain stagnant or drop these next few months it will determine if they open up again.
Either way I doubt Jill would go again, it seems like she’s just lost all her passion for everything besides being “muh mentally ill”
>Anyone who wants to come at her likes to bully traumatized people for fun.
Hahaha, funny cause as someone with a lifetime of trauma that still fucks me up and keeps me up at night despite all the therapy I do, I'm so tempted to go after her and I'm no bully, just someone sick to death of people like her having fun at my expense.
Jillian, you are a fake and a liar, this blatant mockery of PTSD and other mental issues while playing OC collector DID edition is only going to stigmatise actual sufferers cause you get none of the bad experiences.
Go get some real help, take up the extra tests that your mum can cover for you, have a schedule, get a job and hobby, paint ya fucking clown walls into something neutral and realise that the pandemic fucked everyone equally and helping yourself, not larping, will help make you a better person
I use to like her old content despite being one annoying arse twat but this is just beyond vulgar.
MID isnt the best tool, she was likely given it because she has BPD and its supposed to help tell the difference between BPD and stuff like DID. The most used one is called DES, but the best one is SCID-D-R. The thing is that MID anyone can give you because it has its own software to help you grade it (it uses excel actually), but SCID needs a professional who is familiar with DID to do. Basically she is now going to be on a wait list to go to someone who can give that test.
However what I think Jill doesnt understand mostly is that all of these questionnaires dont actually prove you are this or that, its just a tool for the therapist to use. Usually you would take multiple ones to verify the info of one to the other. There is concerns always about false positives with these tests.
Her saying her head sounds like a crowded cafeteria could literally be any other mental illness. I have ADHD and anxiety and my head is literally multiple streams of thought at all times, and I’m sure even some neurotypical people have that too.
She’s such a liar. She just conveniently started a tiktok around the time DID is trending and suddenly she has DID. Her life is just going to continue getting worse from here. Absolute idiot.
>>183927>You did not sign up to get fashion exclusive, kawaii only, like nothing but hair tutorials and lookbooks >You signed up for a mentally ill human being with a youtube channel >I’m a mentally ill person with a blog
Very convenient rebranding, just tell your core fan base that you were never in it for the reason you created your channel for. No Jill, that’s literally what people signed up for, this is your job. She’s so used to worming her way out of things. Dumbass Insufferable Disorder. >>183995>>183997
I just saw these after I wrote my post, and I have to agree with you anons. Knowing Jill I shouldn’t have been surprised to hear her say that, but it was such a blatant slap in the face to her fans. She can be so condescending. Do your fucking job Jill since this is the road you chose and have been doing for years now. >>184001
is right too, but at least there was more of a semblance of a coherent channel and persona idea. I don’t know why this peaked me so much because I have found everything else Jill has done laughable and I enjoyed eyerolling, but the gall of this arrogance. Upload your fucking video about your college final.
>>184046>You did not sing up for fashion you sing up for mental illness content
I hope she loses followers
Worst timeline possible for her channel
She could had done 10 other better video idea things but she chose to be an attention whore
Abso-fucking-lutely correct, as are the other anons.
Kawaii style is EXACTLY what people signed up for. That’s how she’s branded herself and always branded herself, despite making mental health videos here and there. If she wants to shift her focus that’s obviously her prerogative, but she can’t tell people what they “signed up for,” especially when they were subscribing for the content she has been actively marketing since the creation of her channel.
And yes, YouTube is her job. She has no other source of income. Her subscribers are essentially her customers. If she doesn’t want to give them what they want, the least she could’ve done is explained herself respectfully.
Embedded it for you>>184055
She wants some cult of personality bullshit I guess
Also find it obnoxious how she can't handle criticism, she literally says "omg the comment section will be a jungle" and saying she will block and delete everything etc
Not at all kek
One is a developmental issue, the other is a personality disorder
KEK. seriously, if this was "true" DID, this is proof of it right here. Another tinfoil. Her Jerrick persona is her purposely LARPing to feel a sense of control to the entire thing if
the 6 year old is legit.
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Here comes her snowflakes to defend her
1k views, I noticed the same kind of wishy-washy defenses under the old reupload of her "coming out as queer" video which shows up when you search Pixielocks on Youtube. Nobody ever has a strong line of defense, it's always oh but this is that and this can be miscontrued and she didn't mean this and she's just learning
These people would be terrible lawyers.
Samefag as this one from earlier, one thing I noticed is her viewerbase has never really grown. She should work on maintaining the viewers she had/gained during the cuter, saner kawaii phases rather than doing if you don't adore me at my worst you don't deserve to see my best
There was a certain point where it just became attention-seeking only and she lost self awareness of having an audience of real humans who have specific interests. Becoming more absurd is not the way to appease that existing audience, and also doesn't serve to gain new ones since there is nothing appealing about watching someone talk excitedly about their latest mental health diagnosis.
Lol imagine being one of the poor souls still supporting her with monthly $10 Patreon payments only to be told what you did and didn’t sign up for.>>184081
Yes, doctors are shit at recognizing autism in women (big surprise) and women are fairly regularly misdiagnosed with BPD when in reality they’re autistic.>>184089
I’ve seen something about this in a documentary. A guy had DID (he wasn’t even allowed to drive because of the danger of him switching while driving). They did brain scans and the parts of his brain that “lit up” on the scan would change depending on what personality was “fronting,” the differences apparently much like what you’d expect to see from one person’s scan vs. another’s.
Pixie belongs to an online culture where your credibility and social standing is dictated by how marginalized you are, and 'upper-middle class white woman' is pretty much the lowest on the hierarchy you can be. Her attempt to escape her lot by branding herself as kweer failed miserably, so now she's trying out mental illness instead. And tbf she is clearly mentally ill, just not in the way she wants to be.>>184089
No. Schizophrenia is associated with distinct structural and cognitive abnormalities. If DID were detectable via fMRI or whatever then it wouldn't be so controversial.>>184090> the differences apparently much like what you’d expect to see from one person’s scan vs. another’s.
Everybody's brain works more or less the same* wrt which parts are used for which types of cognition and behavior so this sounds like a gigantic load of crap.
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Suddenly the Austism diagnosis is cropping up, all because she got roasted for her neurodivergent video.
Is she still smoking weed? Isn't that not recommended for mental disorders that involve depersonalization, hallucinations, etc?
DID is just BPD with some fun sprinkles. Don't believe any lies lol.
Also, many women are underdiagnosed with tism since the tism diagnostic criteria are centered around men so who knows
She's about to start collecting things that make her "different" and "interesting" and negatively influence a lot of impressionable zoomers who look up to her as a ~pastel theyqueen~
Has she claimed any physical disabilities yet? I guess those are harder to prove but it wouldn't surprise me.
She'd clearly have gotten diagnosed as autistic before DID, if she'd gone to a competent psych instead of some fly-by-night farce.
Inb4 she gets diagnosed as super duper autistic and can't be given any criticism (even more than now) because she's autistic and therefore unaccountable.
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Down from 243k last week to 239k. She’s losing an average of like 500 subscribers per day to to munchie antics kek
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This has the same vibes as when Venus became a sexworker, this last decade of seeing people rise up and then intentionally steer their brand into a burning heap on the ground has certainly been interesting.
Even people who got famous by being degenerate like Belle still crashed and burned, by forgetting their usp and jumping the shark with some behavior which destroys all the built up fanbases and ideals they created.
Surely if you want to quit being an e-celeb, why not simply stop uploading like Jenna Marbles rather than completely destroying your brand first?
She gleefully calls out anyone who offends her for woke points, but she does it in the most butthurt jarring way. "You're evil! You're vile! You're putrid!"
Mate don't dish it out if you can't take it. Tryna get everyone cancelled all the time, but takes no accountability herself. Everything's black and white with no room for tolerance or even discourse. Gonna backfire spectacularly sooner or later.
Who wants to start a betting pool that Jill's gonna uwu speak for the six year-old "alter"? >>184148
I have a feeling that she's going to say somthing that a a little too "Gatekeeping" for those dumb ass kids that they turn on her. She's already acting holier than thou because a team of therapists wrote on paper that she might
have DID. And from the way it's worded >>183956
>>183986 she was just playing pretend the entire interview.
I also can't help but wonder what did she censor at the bottom of the page. She mentioned HPD in the video I wonder if she's skewing what the Drs think she might have so she can call out people who
rightfully call her out
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You can’t tell me they’re not in a DDLG relationship whenever the 6 year old comes out
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Anon, you called it kek>"he dresses a lot like HE did when we were actually his age"
Idk how this stuff works but as anons said it was actually a preliminary assessment and not
a diagnosis like she claims, the blurred part probably pertains to why they think she doesn't
have DID which would be no good for her premature announcement.
I saw someone in the Youtube comments very gently suggesting that the autism diagnosis, if she gets it would potentially change her other ones so if she's serious about this she should follow up on the autism trail.
She’s size fat nonny
, who cares?>>184174
She talks about her diagnosis like she’s coming out of the closet, it’s so damn weird.
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life is so much better now that jillian can larp as whatever she wants. that piece of paper has worked wonders for her mental health. also i guess both jillian and jerrick are into drag? and they’ll have different stage names? what the fuck
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yup, you were right on the money! she posted throw back pics saying they’re jerrick.
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These pants? This is from a vlog 6 months ago and she's only been getting bigger.
Also it's so jarring to watch videos of Jill before Anthony's video she's always been annoying but she was so much more subdued compared to all of her videos after his DID interviews. I watched her haul where she unboxed the clothes from the company and she seemed so calm and normal (for Jillian standards)
her style is just like the thousands of tumblr girls from the early 2010s, including myself
she's truly insane if she thinks that was her "alter" when it's clearly obvious she was following the trends of that time period
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I cant believe she's going along with this did crap.
I've been reading up on this because it seemed strange to me too.
I still can't take most of this seriously but it definitely sounds like usually people don't have much control or awareness of switching, and that forcing a switch can be really distressing.
Some say you can practice being able to switch at any time but it sounds like takes a lot of time and effort to be able to do that somewhat fluently?
I already have a hard time believing DID exists at all but Jill is overdoing it so much.
So even though supposedly she wasn't aware that she had DID/alters at all until about a year ago, and she's only been having plurality treatment & 'working as a system' for 5 months yet she has perfect control over when and who she switches to so they can all do YT videos? kek ok
the larp would be slightly more believable if she was a bit more lowkey about it but of course she has to be the best and most special of all even when it comes to this
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God no wonder Jill became such a raging narcissist with a mom THAT enabling. If I told my parents out of the blue that I have a 6 years old, a 15 years old and a 35 years old living in my head they would laugh their ass off bc they would see right thru my bs. Also what a vile thing to lie to your own mom that you have such a debilitating illness. And I wonder what Louise thinks of the "trauma at 3 years old" thing?
>>184212>And I wonder what Louise thinks of the "trauma at 3 years old" thing?
Really curious about that too. For most people around 3 years of age is the time where we start forming first memories but even then they are usually more implicit.
For someone to start developing DID at such a young age it would have to be some extremely severe trauma, which even as a 3 year old you'd have to be capable of understanding as 'this is wrong and horrible and I wish to escape from this' - because when we are 3, we don't have a more nuanced understanding of things, such trauma can usually only be formed by direct severe physical abuse, because even as a toddler we feel that physical pain is unpleasant.
There are a lot of people who get physically abused as a young child yet they don't develop DID, though they may develop other issues.
DID is basically a last resort when you experience something so horrible that you don't think you are capable of enduring it anymore, that's why DID is usually only formed in the cases of most extreme ongoing physical & sexual abuse akin to torture.
If something like that really happened her mother must be aware of it. Children who experience horrible things like that are typically really maladjusted, e.g. frequent bedwetting, either avoiding any kind of physical contact or trying to engage in overly close 'promiscuous' activities with other children or adults, obsessive or compulsive behaviors, difficulties in school or inability to get involved with people their age, generally being really withdrawn and lacking self-confidence.
Of course, such things present differently in everyone, but everything that we've seen of Jill when she was younger doesn't fit this.
She was a theater kid, had friends her age, had relationships, worked several jobs, decided to start a YouTube channel where she showed herself and shared her interests with the world, dressed in very extroverted fashion styles.
Sorry for sperging about this. >>184213
I agree, I don't think she understands the severity and implications of it.
When you claim to have experienced severe trauma at age 3 of course the first assumptions of anyone will be 'she got physically or sexually abused by a family member' - unless it happened at a daycare or she straight up got abducted, cases like this are extremely likely to have been committed by a male family member.
Jill wants to keep people guessing and is likely never going to explicitly state what her supposed trauma was, but she has to understand that people may just assume that she was sexually abused by one of her family members then.
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In her video she says:>"I've had DID since I was probably around 3 years old and then there was a retraumatization in my very very early like pre-teen years."
Pre-teen age is usually defined as 9-12 years old, so if she says it was early on she probably means around 9 years old.
If she says she had it since she was 3, it strongly suggests the trauma happened at age 3 (since the disassociation/DID starts occurring while the traumatic event actually happens, not later on) and then something retraumatized her at age 9.
I'm not sure why she has a 6 year old alter in that case. Perhaps she does mean to imply that the abuse/traumatic event started occurring at age 3, she developed DID at that point in time and then the abuse/traumatic events went on for a full 3 years till she was 6 and then it also happened again at age 9, I really don't know.
It's possible she has child alters of different age but she should have at least one other child alter that carries the trauma and that you never switch to unless triggered
. It's very suspicious that she doesn't have any trauma alter.
And also why is she so sure that she has exactly 5 alters after just 5 months of DID therapy. Usually people with DID have a few that they know about, and then more that they don't know anything about and also can't even tell an exact number
I know someone who is actually schizophrenic and absolutely had to stop smoking weed because it was triggering
episodes and hallucinations that were extremely distressing. If she spends her days toasted off her gourd, I'm not at all surprised she thinks she's going through some sort of breakdown. If you're already at least somewhat mentally ill (which I suspect Jill is, just not in the way she wishes she was) weed can be really detrimental to your mental health. Weed stans, please don't jump on me I've seen it happen firsthand.
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Really don't mean to blog but the like uwu I found a suicide note stuff is really….like…
I don't have much from my childhood, but I do have a little sanrio diary from like the year after I experienced CSA and it's mostly dumb 9 year old I love my best friend I love Pokemon but there is also a disturbing page of like I hate myself and I'm worthless sentiments in the middle of it. I really don't want to validate this munchie clown, and a lot of things aren't adding up, like was someone physically or sexually abusing her from 3-6? And what happened at 10-11 to make her write a suicide note?
But like idk even my friends at that age had kind of a weird sense of humor and I could see us writing something OTT like good bye cruel world I can't go on without my gameboy type shit. None of us had insane helicopter parents though.
I remember much later on when Death Note was popping off I colored a composition book black and wrote "death note" on it in white out as one does as an edgy teen and my mom was big mad not knowing it was a anime thing. How did her mom find the note? Was she joking or not understanding the gravity of her words as a literal child but saw the attention she got and ran with it?
Maybe I just need to take a step back from this thread. For someone to have so much of the security and comforts and protection I was lacking as a kid to be larping like they're deeply fundamentally broken and like giddy and giggling over it is really fucking me up. When I lay out my life chronologically, it is like an endless trauma fest due to parental death, abuse, and lack of money, and lack of parental attention due to lack of money, and physical abuse, and rape and and poverty and homelessness and more physical and sexual abuse. And like. Guess who is a somewhat functional adult who holds down jobs and doesn't have 12 people in their head and wearing clown paint because I don't relate to my own face whatever the fuck that means? She really doesn't fucking get it.
Maybe she went through something that caused the ED and cutting, or maybe she just wanted attention and didn't know how to cope when or after her mom had cancer. She really is a sick enough individual that if she experienced real abuse she would be hinting at it and parading it 24/7 grinning like a goddamn Cheshire cat talking about her mentow iwwness stwuggles.
The way she goes from somber and somewhat serious in the beginning of the DID video and then ~*~*switching*~*~ to bright, happy, and animated like she's talking about the latest episode of precure and not a mental illness diagnosis. It's fucking infuriating. And nothing will ever come from it. She will continue to lead a cushy, coddled existence only ever having to lift a finger to glue down her eyebrows and put in ratty rainbow extensions.(blog)
I'm a weed stan, and I completely think it's at the center of all of this. In all my many years of marijuana, I have seen and experienced some crazy shit. I have definitely witness a friend realize he had schizophrenia through smoking weed - he would completely disassociate and become like, a violent robot for hours until he would quite literally snap out of it - similar to this "fronting" business. He no longer smokes weed AT ALL and fucking good. I have definitely had disassociative breakdowns from marijuana in my time. It's not something the truly mentally ill should be messing with!! She doesn't have DID - she just has marijuana-induced disassociative anxiety, I am completely 100% fucking sure of it (on top of being so BPD it hurts).
Jill, you gotta stop with the weed. If this shit is really for real for you, then you are doing the ONE THING to trigger
it and make it worse.
How old was Jillian when her mom got cancer? >>184247
Idk if she even got the attention for it lol. Like maybe. But she said he mom found the note when she was in fifth grade (age 10-11) and then that she only had her first psych eval at age 14. I don't know if that mean anything, maybe they don't do evals on younger kids.
But from suicide note to first psych eval, ages 10-14. During these years was her chronically on deviantart right? I remember finding out who she was about 10 years ago when she was pastel gothing and orbiting Joji/Kai the fakeboi, then realised I knew of her when she was our 20inch queen of lolita. Kek.
I absolutely cannot wait for these>>184163>With just Jill at the moment
Is she going to ship him with the 35 year old man? Fucking kek
Exactly, she just looks like your typical Tumblr girl
I think she just resigned to just leave her be and try to be as supportive as she can.
No wonder no one else in her family likes her.
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Ten years ago. Girl bring this energy back kek you don't have alters you have ocs.
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Sf, my timeline was a lil off about when I first found her. Around this time jilly was trying to get into making her own deco crafts. (which gutterface/joji/kai - pictured, had been doing for some time)
Because it's Jill and she has not an original bone in her body, her decoden account was called: guttersweethttps://www.deviantart.com/guttersweet
Honestly if she worked on it a lil more I bet she could have done alright with it. But it's Jillian and why would she hone her skills when she can jump to a new hobby and act like the queen of it.
>>184264>Traumatizing children is criminal in the real world, not just something we talk about on the internet for sympathy.
Really good point. It does make you wonder, if someone inflicted that much distress upon a three year old child that would cause them to develop DID, what happened to that person?
Is her mother aware of who that person supposedly is? Were there any criminal charges?
Jill is caught between a rock and a hard place with this story; she wouldn't want to admit that 'well, the trauma wasn't THAT severe…' because that means she wouldn't have developed DID in the first place. >DID is usually the result of sexual or physical abuse during childhood. Sometimes it develops in response to a natural disaster or other traumatic events like combat.
She can't really blame a natural disaster or being in a warzone or something like that because it's really easy to disprove, so the only other option is "sexual or physical abuse".
If that is what she wants to go with while keeping it as vague as possible, she has to realize that people will question a) who the person was who inflicted the abuse and b) if that person is still in her life.
If the abuse would have actually come to light way back then I'm sure they would have already done a psychological evaluation with Jill when she was a child and they would have noticed signs of DID.
There are so many holes in her story, even if she thinks that being vague will help her out because no one can pin her down on any specific details, she is completely ignoring the implications of all this in the grand scheme.
And got pixie cuts. It’s that or they were boys all along!
Has anyone brought up that the ages jill is describing as being traumatic are also transitive milestones? Like at 6 entering the schooling system and no longer being the center of attention and having to share with others, also getting in trouble for acting out and it can be difficult if you have a learning disability that holds you back from relating or being able to engage with peers. Tweens/teens is also when a lot of young girls experience stress brought on by puberty and the recognition that men won’t and don’t respect boundaries, not to mention all the hormonal upheaval happening physiologically.
She’s grasping for reasons why she feels different and doesn’t relate to those around her or herself. Seems like creating different personas for every interest/aesthetic would be counter productive to grounding herself in reality… this all comes from my arm chair though.
What might be happening is her mom picked keeping contact / friendship with her daughter over being a "parent" in this situation. Given jills new entitled attitude, we've already seen her treat one relative aggressively. It's very possible she has a new "you agree with me or you get removed" attitude. I wouldn't be surprised if her dad hasn't gotten the ass end of this, fathers are usually the ones more adverse to this type of stuff so he may have already spoken "out of line" and been shunned for it, or bullied into silence by both Jill and her mother.
I think it's interesting too how much her mom is suddenly being shown. Texts, tweets about hanging out. Lots of comments under her stuff. I think Jill knew people would look to mother dearest for confirmation this was real, or lurked here and read all the "what does mom think? Mom can't possibly support this," and is now projecting her moms words on purpose. Her mom definitely doesn't have jills best interest at heart right now.
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kek i wish she went with dollylocks…. her and shayna really are the same person.
She’s still an edgy tumblr girl, she never left that phase.
Maybe her “age regression” is actually real since she still hasn’t grown the fuck up
Well said nonnie
, and I hope you don’t catch a ban for blogging.>>184274
It’s crazy how many therapists just suggest smoking weed for things. It’s extremely unprofessional and even dangerous for bpd, bipolar and addictive personality types
Yeah I def agree re: being in school and no longer being center of attention.
Then what her mom got cancer and she wasn't the focus again for a while. How dare she.
Any attention is good attention. Doesn't matter if they're on her page because she has a holier than thou attitude about frilly Nihon dresses. Or if they're on her videos because she's a trainwreck it don't matter because she can delete the meany comments and act like everyone loves her. Her stupid themby boyfriends that she moves in and makes over. She just likes having a thing to control. Does steebie hang out with friends or family out side of Jill? I honestly bet that's the reason it didn't work with the One girl she dated. The girl seemed pretty well adjusted and was close with her family. Couldn't give jilly bean enough attention and got dumpt.
She was lying through her teeth the entire video. You can tell that she feels happy that she was validated, that her "trauma" was enough to warrant a PTSD label. Even more so when the doctors humored her to hear her talk about her "DID" experience. >>184281>The girl seemed pretty well adjusted and was close with her family. Couldn't give jilly bean enough attention and got dumpt.
That and Jill was only using her for gay clout. I imagine the girl wanted to progress the relationship naturally (go beyond holding hands just for sneak shots) actually have a proper WLW romance. Jill just jumped ship before then because she's painfully heterosexual.
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"you could be my unintended/choice to live my life extended/you could be the one I'll always love"
This seems damning
>>184247>Maybe I just need to take a step back from this thread. For someone to have so much of the security and comforts and protection I was lacking as a kid to be larping like they're deeply fundamentally broken and like giddy and giggling over it is really fucking me up.
I'm sorry anon, this is why Jill is a little shit. She's taking people's real life experienced trauma and using it as a costume. I definitely recommend not engaging with this narcissist bitches content if it's triggering
anything for you. You have every right to be offended or upset, this is exactly
what the issue with mental illness larps is. It disregards the seriousness and appropriates something absolutely lifechanging
in a bad way. Even in the video she says lifechanging
giddily then corrects to lifelong
since this is literally just her weed-addled drunken brain making up shit to entertain itself and not a result of any real proven trauma, which is unfortunately too common. ♥
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I'm definitely seeing "plurality" as a natural progression to trangender trending and nonbinary/gender fluid stuff, like it genuinely is the next step for people to dabble in and I've seen two nonbinary/trans cis males I follow bring up DID and dissociation. One even went on a lengthy thread about their male and female persona as if they were two distinct identities. I also ran into a twitter thread of normies reacting to plurality yesterday (picrel). We will probably see the same trans tumblr sexuality people all dabble in plurality as Jill is, for the reasons you suggested. The positive side is it will probably help people peak faster and see it for the social contagion attentionseeking it is.
See here: >>183917
Basically it looks like the boy alters use Jerrick's account and the girl alters use Jill's. The cute little emojis tell you which one typed!
I see what you mean, but teens have always had phases of exploring various identities. This is not me endorsing teens (or a person of any age) to assume or interpret their own behaviour as being a symptom of something.
What makes this very notable and alarming is that Jillian has an official diagnosis. I assume it isn't an easy thing to get. She has committed to having this to a level that feels utterly absurd. Again, I don't know much about DID, but from what I gather, not even people who have spent decades doing serious studies. Gunning for something this enormous feels like sheer lunacy. Even as someone who doesn't know how DID 'works', I have questions around very real restrictions she will have in life now. I'll bring up driving again. How should she be allowed to drive if she even thinks she has this? What bridges will she burn by retconning her life? How can she for instance work again after she convinced herself she has DID? Jillian has had normal retail jobs but what will happen now?
It's like she is determined to amputate herself. She is not doing herself any favours by doing this. If anything, she is setting every milestone she reached on fire.
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No mom it wasn't a phase. It was the teenage boy living inside of me.
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I can't believe it took Jill pretending to be her OC to find out that she's actually okay at drawing. Also this is another red flag for being a fake.
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>>184322>Our little's crayola masterpieces
That’s what I was assuming aswell, ty nonny
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Oh boy, this is going to be a forever excuse. Poor quality? My alters! Being a bitch? My alters. On an on and on.
But wait, I thought Jill said that they’re co-con, but I guess that doesn’t apply to art tho. Kek.
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Sorry for the absolute 'tisim but I read an article about spotting someone faking DID the blue is interesting points the pink is red flags Jill has already shown. What's sad is that she'll continue to get ass pats by other people who are using an illness that destroys lives for fun.https://did-research.org/controversy/malingering/pseudogenic
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She has to know deep down that the DID is a show. I just refuse to think that she's believing her own bs.
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Kek I guess the only way for a white straight woman to win the Oppression Olympics is by pretending that she has a bunch of diverse people living in her head, we can already cross having a trans male off the list.
Makes me wonder, do you think one of her alters will be a POC
Maybe the 6 year old girl is actually Japanese.
Would be a perfect excuse as to why she loves PreCure, if she has a 6 yo Japanese girl inside her head that means she IS the target demographic (& allows her to one up every other PreCure fan since she loves being the biggest fan of anything ever).
Also that makes it totally ok for her to still call herself a 'kawaii Jfashion influencer' even tho she hasn't worn anything from a Japanese brand in years.
Plus perfect excuse to be more consumerist! Of course Jill is environmentally conscious but her little uwu deserves to get lots of plastic toys shipped over from Japan for Christmas!!
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who's the intersex one you think? kek
The 6 year old is intersex?????? Wut
She's just going beyond wanting to be "queer" KEK
Wait, why cis men instead of cis man? Didn't she say there are only 2 'boys' in her system/using the Jerrick account?
So Jerrick is a trans man, and the 35yo is a cis man I assume, but then there is also another cis man in her system? Or was that just a typo??>>184370
Also I hope she means the intersex one is the 21yo alter (don't think she talked about that one yet at all…), having the 6yo be intersex would just make it even more creepy…
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That's what I'm confused about with Jerrick too - if he is a woman wanting to be a man, why not just make him a man in your head?
Like he doesn't really exist, why not just allow your larp OC to be a man then since you do have the power over it?
Unless the alter is supposed to be an embodiment of trauma that she endured because Jill herself wanted to be a man?
I guess that's just me being generally confused by the whole DID thing. But alters don't really age or have any development or such right, you make them up at one point in time and then they just stay that way for the rest of your life?
I mean Jerrick doesn't have a physical body, 'he' dislikes being inside Jill's body because it's a female body and Jerrick wants to be a man. But Jill also has cis men alters, do those not feel uncomfortable being inside a woman's body??