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>Began her lolcow run as a "pansexual" lolita lifestyler who quit due to LACE drama and ~muh restrictive rules~>Is most well known as creator of the Party-Kei style, a style she no longer personally wears>Known lurker>History of ED, mental illness, and self-harm
General info:>Frivolously spends her parents' or her own money on once-worn clothes, makeup and junk shit for her trends; claims she makes enough from Youtube despite previously complaining about demonetization on her videos; will often post/tell the cost of items to show off how much she had spent; now relies on video monetization and Patreon donations to keep her afloat despite offering poor incentives for supporting her>Is an extreme narcissist; regularly claims herself to be the best/have superior skills in many aspects like fandom and fashion designing despite her skills, knowledge, and results of projects proving otherwise>Heavily pushes her "full-time Youtuber" title even though she fails to keep up a consistent upload schedule and keep solid engaging content beyond hauls and bullshit vlogs of her ramblings>Opts for "self-care" rather than working on her videos and other projects; defines self-care as doing nothing but taking baths with Lush bathbombs and laying in bed all day>Claims to be ethically responsible about her purchases, yet still buys in ridiculous amounts from problematic sites and sellers>Extremely thin-skinned and defensive of herself, will either delete comments or posts under fire or act passive-aggressive in tweets and videos likely alluding to what she has seen in the threads>Has been highly dependent on her mother, friends, or partner in social events and blows minor issues way out of proportion>Has kept a total of five past relationships in her life, all ending in drama; tends to use partners as accessories when beneficial to her image>Formerly referred to herself as queer rather than bi, lesbian, or pansexual; currently with her live-in partner Stephen Clarke and both came out as bisexual, but now Stephen is nonbinary and pansexual - the same fate as one of her other exes who became nonbinary after dating her…>Claims to be family-friendly, but makes poor attempts to censor herself, has made sexual innuendo despite knowing she has a largely underage audience; will often remove or put herself from/on said medications regardless of whether she needs them or not>Jill started her own brand, 5 petal flower. She isn’t selling anything yet, but plans to sell bad Lazy Oaf knock offs>Nearly killed her cat by having tinsel on the ground where cat can eat it. Still keeps tinsel up where the same cat can reach it for years after the fact.>She won’t stfu about her stims and super scary ‘restrictive’ eating disorder
In the last thread:>Still gaining weight from consuming a steady diet of "safe foods" >Going to therapy every week with a "specialist" that encourages her histrionic behavior >>164720 >>166605>Claims to have auditory hallucinations >>164730>Admitted to chewing on Steve's arm for sensory reasons >>165058>Customers started recieving their dresses from Jill's collab and the material and quality were terrible >>165345>Started wearing a binder >>166616>Has been smoking weed and drinking heavily, even though it's ill-advised for people on SSRI's >>167141>Claims autisitic people's brains don't develop at the same rate as ND people's brains >>167533>Says she "completely loses control of" her limbs at her therapy appointments >>169832>Did an interview with a small website about how she is "destigmatizing mental health" >>170648>Steadily losing patrons >>171606>Still hasn't done a video on her final school runway collection >>172187>Been doing absolutely horrendous makeup >>172283>Did a poor review of the Met Gala outfits, didn't know who Marsha P. Johnson was >>173809>Admits to burn out >>174105
Had some sort of psychology-related appointent >>175651
Said her childhood piano teacher was a pedophile, as always made other people's trauma about herself >>175857>Said she was going to email her "abuser", said her life was stolen from her >>176080
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She is watering her fucking plants with a peri bottle- what is used to clean your ass or other private parts after surgery, childbirth, etc
I fucking CANNOT ANYMORE
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I mean yes, it could be used for that, but those style of bottles can have many uses. Just search "plant watering bottle" on amazon and you get a ton of relevant results.
This is kind of unsettling. Bobo is one of the DID YouTubers who was taken advantage of by DissociaDID. She has 15k subscribers and says in the unboxing video that she’s a big fan of Jill. Jill goes through friends like toilet paper, and here she just started talking to Bobo and sent her this huge gift, with a note that she asked Bobo not to read on camera. (Hmm, whatever could she have written? /s) Even if you think DID isn’t a real disorder, Bobo really seems to be genuinely mentally ill and it’s fucked up that Jill is already transparently kissing her ass and digging her claws in so she’ll have some kind of street cred when she unveils her own DID diagnosis. For someone supposedly so well-versed in ~twauma~, wtf is with this imbalance of power move, Jill?
Link to the vid in case embedding doesn’t work (new at this).
Anon has a point about Jill going through friendships very quickly (one of the only things that makes her bpd diagnosis valid
, but Jill will never admit to it because it makes her look like an asshole. I wouldn’t be surprised if Jill drops her as soon as she gets her DID diagnosis or is using Bobo’s experiences to make it seem like she has legit DID. Also wouldn’t be surprised if Jill drops her because she finds her too unnerving and mentally ill for her liking, and tries to befriend another DID personality who she likes better
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Has anyone thought about how Jillian seems more histrionic than bpd/npd? it checks out. Especially because she's becoming more sexual/flirty.
Histrionic personality disorder is basically like "chronic attention whore syndrome", they compulsively will do anything and everything for attention from people, even negative attention. They are very shallow & gullible people, prone to lacking self esteem and a sense of self and have very shallow relationships that they exaggerate.
Like they'll make a new friend and immediately be like 'OMG BESTIEEE I LOVE U SO MUCH UR MY BFF 4EVAAAA' and we are seeing this happening in real time.
I feel like Histrionic people come across as more extremely immature and self destructive (in their desire for attention), whereas narcs are like these evil black holes who actively suck people dry and move onto the next victim. Jillian doesn't have that extremely over inflated ego, but a chronic need for attention and praise from others.
She reminds me more of someone with Munchausen's syndrome, just this unquenchable thirst for attention for it to always be about 'memememememememe focus on ME, MY needs, MY wants, I'M the one HURTING, I'm the one who NEEDS your love and attention, ME".(armchair)
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Samefag, here's more about HPD.(armchairing )
i really dont think so. shes not that extreme.
can we move on from hpd now. this is fucking stupid
Has anyone noticed how after the backlash from the "neurodivergence" video she made (and never apologized from) she's now doubling down on having mental illnesses and she's trying to prove it with an expensive brain scan?
It's like, she wants that scan so no one tells her she isn't neurodivergent anymore… instead of learning from her mistakes and apologizing>>176683
I don't know, if people can talk about how much NPD she is or BPD or autistic, then maybe she could also be HPD. As long as she doesn't go to a real therapist no one will really know
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Jill you are a straight female clown
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Your screencap is hard to read so I condensed it. Idk what it means though.
NPD is more extreme than HPD for the reasons anon mentioned. I honestly would not rule it out, she does lack empathy but she doesn't seem to be using people or abusing them on purpose. Jillian is just an attentionwhore but I doubt she has bad intentions.
Someone like Lori Cerda seems more NPD than Jillian tbh, she uses people and moves from victim
. Who knows.
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Old school lolita judging Jillybean.
Jill has been my favorite cow for years, up until this neurodivergent larp. I don't think I can hate watch her anymore either. I turned off this newest video when she was making baby babble noises to herself while looking at scrunchies and talked to the seller in a ~fUnNy VoIce~ when buying the pink camisole. I am surprised she wasn't also forcing herself to flap her hands for show but I guess she had to hold her camera.
I think she is determined to show everyone in public that yes, she actually IS a retarded toddler. Her coddling Jill is partly to blame, but I wonder what her mom thinks about all of this shit.
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Are people really making alters out of Jill? Also kek "I'm flattered".
noone is out there making alters based on you jill, but if there is you should really question the kind of fanbase you've cultivated that are happy to model their fake alter egos after you, nevermind the fact that they're mimicking a real person.
who am i kidding though she probably loves this shit because it feeds her insane ego
OK, help me understand this.
If a person has DID, they 'split' into these different 'personalities'. These 'personalities' are different facets of the person.
How can one 'split' into another person's personality? Am I overthinking this? is it just mental illness loves?
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So all the gross stuff about having a UTI a d being weirdly sexual is okay on your main account for your online(arguably real life self), but not your emo larp acc? Ok Jill
>>176767>is it just mental illness loves
yeah pretty much
some people claim to have fictives, ie alters that are literally a fictional character. a lot of ex tumblr types heavily relate to certain characters i guess so instead of saying 'oh i love [x character]' they decide that they literally are that character, and they'll make an alter of them.
although frankly i have no clue what an introject is, reading too much into DID lore & terminology makes my brain hurt
Been saying this for months now. And it gets hilarious the longer it goes on.>>176760
I'm so glad I don't know wtf any of this shit means.
thank you for making a gif of that part, it really cracked me up.
that whole part of the vlog was awkward, it's so strange to see Jill interact with (semi) normal people.
if I was selling my clothes there and Jill commented on stuff in that weird frog/elderly person(?) voice, and then started jumping around like that… oof
she sure makes an effort to appear special needs these days.
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She looks so scary, jesus.
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Jill you litterally shopped for a pushover super woke therapist who’s only had a year on practice and has done nothing but enable your delusions instead of challenging you to become a better person
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I have never seen a Youtuber with this amount of asspats for doing literally nothing of value and acting so fake and transparent, but maybe I just don't follow enough retard influencers kek
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Samefag, forgot to attach the screenshot like a dumbass
This is absolutely so cringe.
Of course therapy would had not "worked" for her because whenever she was told about her faults or things she should reflect on, she got offended and told them off. Like that one therapist who told her to think why she had the need to dress like she does. I think that therapist had good intentions for her to self reflect.
But this bitch just wants ass pats, and that's exactly what she gets from her disgusting ass 1-year practice councelor now. I bet she manipulates him and he just enables her. Disgusting.
>>176868>you are a celeb
narcissism levels went up I bet
she honestly seems deranged, who is supposed to believe that shit?
if she just didn't want to see nsfw stuff (for any reason) it should be the same for both accounts, like is she seriously trying to imply that the black clothes account is a different 'version' of her?
especially since she's still also calling herself a "baby drag human" on that account, isn't this just supposed to be her 'drag king persona'?
I have no clue about these multiply personality larper freaks on Twitter, is it normal to have one of your 'alters' also be your drag personality (not like Jill even does drag anyway…)?
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It was a school phycologist that diagnosed her and she was seeing a school counselor for a while afterwards. She was also talking about how much she loved that councelor and how amazing they were.
One look at her socials shows that she's developing inappropriate relationships with her councilors since she views them as close friends rather than a professional she's seeing to fix her mental health. She needs a real therapist if she ever wants to get better.
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looks like we gotta wait another 2-3 weeks for the DID reveal
That part is believable to me. Sorry to blog a little but when I was getting a diagnosis I didn't hear back from my neuropsych until nearly a month after I went in for testing.
I'm guessing it has more to do with doctors having tons of other shit to do and not a, omg my twisted mind is so traumatized and complex that it takes weeks to understand, thing.
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if she keeps going down this path I feel like I'm gonna have to stop reading her threads despite following her lolcow antics for years.
all this mental health clownery is just rotting my brain, this has got to be the most pathetic bunch of adults I've ever witnessed…
aren't you supposed to grow out of having imaginary friends when you're 8 years old or something? how is Jill so much more immature now than when she first started doing Youtube?
People who put DNIs in their bios are complete fucking idiots and are opening them selves up to be triggered
by people who hate them.>>176928
I'm curious to what the rest of the comments are. If the bottom one is any indecator Jill seems to be the only person giving ass pats while everyone one else is rightfully sceptical since munchies tend to be narcs with extra steps. >>176995
If she struggles with depersonalization so much and so often why not get off all social media that uses her corporal form as a selling point? i did that and it helped significantly will all aspects of my mental health especially the depersonalization.
She really just needs to step off-line for a while and find a real therapist
She’ll never leave the internet because it’s her only source of income it seems like, and she also needs it to run her “brand” I’d imagine. Also, she’s extremely self obsessed and I doubt she’d be able to handle it. She thrives off the attention of literal strangers, most of which are munchie spergs. >>176995
god the cringey tone indicators are the icing on the cake
"Similar to a fictive, a factive is an introject based on a real person, either historical or currently living. It is another word for a factual introject."
basically these people are pretending that they have DID/multiple personalities, and one of those personalities happens to be based on a real person
it's just an unfortunate evolution of tumblr kinnie culture and finding internet 'celeb' randos #relatable tbh
>>177133>I am pretty well-versed on system stuff
Imagine her, sitting on her dirty couch full of cat fur and mcnuggie crumbles, full clown makeup´and histrionic outfit, saying this with a straight face to some rando on twitter. All while knowing the only """degree""" she has is a shitty diploma she got from a half-assed, badly sewn collection of bargain-tin clothes at an arts and crafts sewing club class for losers. Imagine thinking she has any say on a field where people spend literal years studying, doing research and writting papers on the matter.
She needs to quit larping. Enough is enough. But she won't. She will get worse. This DID fandom saga is ridiculous, imagine being part of a fandom where the thing you must do is roleplay as a severe mentally ill person. But she believes these delusions herself. This is so fucking sad.
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the persons new names for their jillian alter.
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heres them as "pixie"
Surely it should be super uwu ~triggering
~ that they dared to ask for ‘fem’ name suggestions for their Jillian role play, since she’s totes an enby now and it’s bullying to call her a she.
She can’t even keep her own story straight
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Picrew in question
I thought the Confetti Club was an incredibly cringy fanbase that Jill must be embarrassed of but this is at another level, and the worst part is that she’s actively pandering
to them. Imagine when conventions start back up and she runs into one of these loons in real life.
What in the actual fuck
Please this is getting out of control, very horrorcow-esque now
Like imagine wanting to larp as Jillian, a fucking clown loser, and then Jillian being like "OMG CUTE -emoji emoji emoji- I SUPPORT" like this shouldn't be real, she's obviously being fake nice holy shit?
Get off the internet!
These people spend way too much time online and not enough in the real world.
We're definitely hitting creepy/horrorcow levels now, there's something very odd about someone larping as you right in front of you and talking to you while doing it?? Just stalkery and odd. And she isn't even an official DID loon yet, there will be more of them.
Surely cultivating a desirable audience is integral to being an influencer or celebrity of any kind? Why cultivate this
hot take: what if this person is just an elaborate troll?
Like think about it, creating an insulting alter of her because she can't say no because that'd be ableist. She also can't say anything bad about it because it'd come off as ableist/hypocritical. I mean their PFP is a literal clown.
Sage for dumb tinfoil.
Honestly this is so easy. Having normal, well-adjusted fans would call her out on her shit (and some have, in the past). But now she's surrounding herself with yes men who enable her delusions. A lot of these people don't have any concept of boundaries, so that could be potentially dangerous if she meets one irl, but right now they're all seperated by screens and may continue to be for awhile. I genuinely do not believe that Jill is very smart, so I don't think that this is some grand plan that she's devised, I just think that she's spiralling and is genuinely mentally ill (just not in the kawaii way that she thinks she is)>>177205
Ngl That would be hilarious if it were the case, but after reading the confetti club threads and seeing the freaks that have been following her for all these years I doubt it
As much as that would be hilarious, after reading through this persons account I don’t think it is. They also claim to have an ‘introject’ of Olivia Rodrigo.
The funny thing is, that person has ‘endos DNI’ in their bio. After googling wtf that meant, I realize it was referring to “endogenic systems” ie. people who claim to split later in life not due to childhood trauma. Even though Jill is currently shopping for enough childhood trauma to justify her bs, it’s funny to me that she’s exactly what most of the DID community shuns as being fake (as if 99% of all of them aren’t)
Sage for DID sperg
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poor jillian. it must be so hard having your family call you by your birth name instead of pixie.
she has it so easy at home. I wish she knew what true trauma is. Imagine being called Jillian and seething about it. Gross human being, gross beyond words.>>177214
So Jillian is "endogenic" or whatever, but like… if that fan person is larping as jill, does it mean it also has jillian's second personality or whatever? god this goes deep into the retard rabbit hole
That's the issue with the internet it's really hard to tell when some one is being genuine or deeply rooted in irony that it just comes off as genuinely unhinged. But this person comes off as genuine with the correct use of the tone indecators and the weird rambling.>>177215
She acts as if she's not femme presenting 90%. I hope her parents see just how much she's gone down hill or they just pretend to be blind to how gross she's become.
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picrel is what she said just a few months ago when she first announced she wanted to be called Pixie now.
either she doesn't care that much what she actually gets called and she just plays this up for pity/oppression olympics or she is just getting increasingly unwell if it suddenly makes her that uncomfortable.
her "sweet baby angel uwu" therapist sure has been helping a lot either way.
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Ma'am…uh, isn't this whole persona devoted to the days she's too exhausted to be
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She's been posting a lot of shit like this lately. Do you think people in her personal life are rightfully questioning her or do you think she's just coming on to here to see us talk shit about her?
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Pixie ghost wrote this(don't post irrelevant content)
KEK this is pretty irrelevant but I can imagine her "coming out" as something problematic
after she's completed building her narrative
We've hit peak "using unrelated illness as excuse for being a shithead" and I can't even tell if this is satire.
I can imagine Jill using her alters and imagined trauma as an excuse, should any callout videos appear.
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How did she not know that she was diagnosed with that??
Here are some examples of it but obviously there are more things which fall under that umbrella term, I'm pretty sure a medical professional would have an extensive discussion with her about this if she was diagnosed with one of those?
This is hilariously sad.
I feel that it was inappropriate for the phycologist to tell her all the things she was (possibly) diagnosed with with out going in to what about her meets the criteria. It makes sense that that's her ED diagnosis since she went from "spoopy" ana to over eating calorically dense foods. Now she wants the excuse of eating like shit by saying she has texture issues when most people who genuinely have texture issues are under weight since eating food grosses them out.
Do you anons think that she'll make a video about her mental health assessment she paid money for or will she just push it under a rug because she didn't get the diagnosis she wanted?
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Jillian be like
so like her retarded ass didn't understand the diagnosis that her doctor gave her, but still milked it to no end, saying she was a poor uwuskinny anachan and always mentioning how much she suffered from her ED but like, she never dared to ask for clarification? until now that she can actually milk it for being "uwu special eating disorder" type? godddddd she's disgusting.
Also>I thought the doctors were just saying "I don't know"
jillian doctors are not as retarded as you think they are
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I guess?? But good job everyone, you really found the guy
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Preferred pronouns out of drag are He/Him, Pixie, can't believe you'd disrespect someone like this /s
(Seriously though her therapist is male so why is she comparing them to a drag persona? Risky!)
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she photoshopped herself anorexic. she was never underweight>neck flexing>obvious and bad shoop
dont forget her look book still exists https://lookbook.nu/user/2934982-Jillian-V/looks
In all seriousness though, although ED can be diagnosed in any size, she was the one to say that she was so uwuskinny back then when honestly most of the shit she posted was photoshoped as hell. Check some of the first threads, you'll see.
>>177663>god her relationship/obsession with her therapist is beyond disturbing.
it is. No professional counselor goes this far and personal.
Now if she only knew she's being groomed, now she would have actual proof of why she's fucked up, not via imaginary abuse.
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Recent news story relevant to Pixie, doctors are finding people with no previous Tourettes are developing it suddenly after watching TikTokers with it (or pretending to have it)
Her psychologist should be considering the fact she is an influencer with heavy use of social media, and may be affected by social contagion, but they must just prefer the paypacket they're getting from her frequent "affirming" sessions with her "angel therapist"
This is the oldest video on her channel. Look at her just wasting away, so smol, so thin and fragile.
Obviously you can have EDNOS without being underweight, but she looks like a completely average teenager. She doesn't look sickly in any way, her skin is fine, I'm sure her hair looked as healthy as it could when it wasn't dyed. There are ways to appear sick, especially with an ED/restricted eating without literally just being skinny and she looks completely healthy and average. Though I'm not sure of her timeline with dating Tristan and at what point he magically cured her with male attention.
This is probably fueled by narcissism but I think it's possible Jill (and other munchies) have actual issues wrong that they don't want to admit or get treated. Maybe because of the social stigma (such as narcissism or BPD). They know they're sick tho, or at least that their life sucks as a result of being sick even if they won't admit that's why, so they adapt to more accepted mental illness instead to project there's something wrong with them & treat that to feel good, rather than the real issue, maybe.
I think a big part of it is control tho. Especially with Jill. She's always been sensitive to critiques and now she's latching into mental illnesses that can "excuse" her flaws. We've definitely entered an age where not tip toeing around someone's mental illness is considered a bad thing, and even worse if you suggest they try and work on it and get better. She's protecting herself.
She is also attempting to project how good a person she is by bending over backwards and being a doormat to the whims of these lunatics by never explicitly saying anything is bad or good. She won't outright say that kinning her is annoying and disgusting, she'll only hint at it in a kind way that makes her appear unthreatening. The same behavior she now expects from others around her, because she is mentally ill and as thus cannot be hurt, or you are a bad person.
Jill is pretty particular about how people view her. To the point of making a second Twitter to showcase and separate something that anyone else would just see as a normal part of a whole person, not a separate personality. She exposes a lot of personal things online as well and really seems to tie her self esteem to how she presents herself to others. I think she would benefit a lot from being removed from the internet and taught not to value how she's perceived, not in a "I don't care what other people think" way, but more of a "I don't need to be seen at all" way. She needs to not value attention. She should focus on her own personality & her relationship with her bf and family, and stay as far away from parasocial relationships as possible. Start dressing normal and lose the clown makeup as well. She's spiraling so quickly.
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I could give her makeup a pass if she stopped doing that fugly clown mouth and the white on her nose.
Video Summary:>talks about the virtues of secondhand furniture>says its hard to find furniture that fits her aesthetic>oftentimes she's bored and paints, says it's therapeutic and comforting>"upcycling" her brother's nightstand for her office>says her anxiety is so bad that she doesn't even want to go onto her porch to sand her nightstand>interrupts her boring video to do a function of beauty advert>says function of beauty has been the only thing to fix her hair, even though her hair looks frizzy and damaged, laughable>also keeps smacking her lips during the advert >says she wants to paint the drawer psychedelic 70's inspired>says she turned this "leisure project" into work by filming it, calls it girlbossing, "they/them bossing">puts a purple ceramic flower-shaped handle for the drawer>does a desk tour>stevie bought her a kid's toy that's shaped like a rainbow, for stimming/decor (don't worry though its sustainable!!!)>talks about how she likes a lot of lights on>says she'll light a candle (but she says the candle she has by the desk hasn't been lit yet?) to keep herself working (on what Jill? Your fake diagnoses?)
One thing that struck me in how she contradicts herself is right after she said she was 'too anxious to be on her porch' she follows it up with saying she's 'so shy' also her function of beauty sponsor, like every other time she's done it, she's basically brushing the very end of her actual hair and then the extensions she wear
Her repaint of the dresser drawer reminded me of those corkboards she painted for college
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She looks like a wood puppet with a broken blinking eye mechanism.
When she said that she was doing a "water marble" i was expecting something like this, the drawer just looks messy. I'm glad she's doing more diy things but damn she needs to practice.
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Is anyone else noticing Jill’s double chin coming in? I wonder is she’s stress eating for her “anxiety”. I hope she gets well soon.
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Is she trying to get Steve to buy this big fuck off candle for her? What happened to being a boss babe who was totally paying for her town house? Also this candle is like $60-$80
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sad shit. Could be worse though
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squid game looking house
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If I close my eyes I think of 2015 jillian. But then I open them, and see this double chin fatso
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please someone help her put the fork down
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I'm going to post these two gifs side to side… note how she's not only heavier, but also looks uncomfortable with her body
Even her hands are chunky now, the shoulders and hands in this versus the old clip really are telling. She looks like moving is uncomfortable for her.
This is what happens when you are surrounded by enablers.
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stop acting like she wasnt unbearable back then too. she was >bullied out of lolita
for a reason
rainbow bangs doki doki kawaii ambassador confetti club fb group was her best era (lolcowing included)
im sitting and waiting for her to give in and go full 600lb autism DID munchies soon.
no wonder she's too """shy""" to even go out on her own porch now, anyone would be embarrassed to go out like that…
she straight up says "my anxiety is literally so bad that I don't want to be perceived on my porch", yet she goes on about how much therapy is helping her??? she seems worse than ever before
also her solution to this seems to be… just moving to a place that isn't a townhouse? is she just planning on becoming a giant rainbow toddler hermit?
I think that's one of those spice houses/storage containers she was talking about in her like thrifting/spend the day with me vlog; I would love to know how much Stevie/behind the scenes shopping she does, a shopping addiction like she probably has doesn't just go away on its own, especially if it's tied to her mental health, which barely seems there at the moment>>177842
I was watching back her thrift flip video (when she was still living with her parents) and I wonder if the stress of being away from her mom so long is what's making her lose it, she knows she 'needs' to be an adult, her brother is probably successful/on his own and (major tinfoil coming up) I could see her dad putting his foot down that once she's moved out she shouldn't move back home unless she has to, and lousie coddling jill as her 'precious baby girl' in jills mind if she gets 'sick enough' she could go back, hence her making comments about her anxiety and not being in a townhouse anymore and diagnosis shopping
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wonder how the rest of her family feels about this lol
lmao what? how dare someone you personally dislike decided to spend xmas with their own family am i right
pretty sure most people have members of their family that they don't get on with but the whole point of christmas is that its only once a year so you grin and bear it
I’m assuming that this is Christmas at her parents’ house (can you picture Jill hosting a family Christmas party at her nightmare clownhouse?) and they invited this “nasty” family member themselves, since she didn’t mention anything about them being unwelcome. Do her parents not know that making her interact with this relative is detrimental to Jill’s mental health?
I bet it’s an aunt or uncle who once made fun of her fashion sense or something.
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It's one thing to be an obnoxious rainby weirdo, it's another thing entirely to be this and
suddenly gaining weight like Phoebe Tickner. Simplest solution: pick one, Rainbow clothes/hair or big and bodyposi. Clearly she can't handle being looked at for both anymore.
She's copying Emilia Fart who basically did the same thing.
Don't be surprised if her future videos will switch to doing outlandish rainby things in public places and vlogging about her every thought like YT is her therapy diary.
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Kek I was just about to post that she’s copying Emilia. Right down to the center part and hilarious makeup. I think she’ll start covering her double chin soon with a scarf.
>>177940>she straight up says "my anxiety is literally so bad that I don't want to be perceived on my porch", yet she goes on about how much therapy is helping her??? she seems worse than ever before
Unrelated but I once met a /div/ reader on 4chan who was a schizo and she would read tarot with sakura card captor cards. She was admitted to a psych ward more than once.
I feel like her parents spent so much money on her, for her to have her own house, that if she moves back they'll be upset at her.
Plus she just likes being able to fuck stewie whenever she wants to, do you think she would give that away? I'm just waiting for when she moves out into a smaller place or something. She'll freak the fuck out and it'll be really sad, to move away from her "dream house". But honestly she can't continue paying that rent without her parents, and her parents could potentially pull the plug anytime.
This sounds so entitled
I bet she's an eyesore for that person too.
me me me me fuckin me me me me ME it's all about ME, how dare someone have to interact with ME maybe I'M the fucking disgrace in this family, trying to rule with all my fee fees.
God, imagine having Jillian infecting your family connections.
>>178002>It's an instant gratification thing too. Weight loss takes a lot of time and effort, but doing crazy shit to your hair/makeup/clothes (body mods too, eg Charms) is immediate.
I was thinking this yesterday. Adding more glitter to her increasing bodysize and paying thousands for enabling therapists, and brain tests, rather than simply eating less, moving more and not absorbing up 100% mental illness, drag and trans content online, and then wondering why you think you're a trans drag mentally ill person.
It's actually so simple - so much more than all this shit - to work on her physical health and self help with her (what are actually mostly) minor issues. She went the worst, most convoluted path away from fixing the problem which is clearly bad habits, overeating, and internet addiction.
Imagine getting an angry email from your clown relative because you dared to accept the invitation Jill's mom/dad sent for them to attend Christmas dinner.
Narcissism off the charts. This is the second "angry email" she's Tweeted about recently, previously suggesting she's going to email her ""abuser"" aka deviantart girl she briefly dated at 13. Her shitass therapist clearly suggested this in some way or another and it's a truly terrible idea.>solve problems by sending poison pen letters
Imagine Jill waddling up to you at 1pm or whenever she usually wakes up: it's time for fucky wuckies!
and you trying as hard as possible to think of more attractive people, while getting it over with as soon as possible
Feebs is a munchie icon. Jill simply can't compete.>>178029
tinfoil but yeah, it wouldn't be surprising if she's keeping it vague so that her audience connects the dots between her relative and >muh trauma.
God I miss her. Phobes please come back so we can laugh at you.>>178027
Doesn’t she always use the ‘I’m so bad at sending emails it gives me anxiety’ excuse for why she’s so shitty at replying to professional opportunities. She can’t shoot back a simple email to a business but she can write an insane person rant to send to a relative she’s gonna see in person.
This is very ironic too because not to long ago Jill was saying how anxiety inducing receiving and replying to emails is to her. Is she sending out these emails never expecting people to rightfully send her an angry or upset email back? She's so self absorbed that she doesn't even realize that her actions effect more people than just herself. >>178029>>178031
It's shitty if she is doing that because she keeps wanting to co-opt other people's traumas or just make up traumas so she feels justified for being a bitch.
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i was just thinking the same thing. there is no way in hell steebie is still attracted to her in any way, shape or form. she's changed so much and for the worse in every aspect.
picrel what he got vs what he is now stuck with kek
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bitch lookin like a budgie nowadays
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Not invited by her parents and Jills bff mom is a-okaying the email…
I would LOVE to have access to Jills emails/letters to these “abusers”.
This has big “my father will hear about this” energy”.
It’s probably just some cousin Jill’s age that she never got along with. Clearly nothing serious, since yknow her mum isn’t stopping her from coming. ‘Emailing my grievances’ is such a fucking weird thing to say/do. Just have a conversation with the person you absolutely nut job
>>178102>emailing my grievances to smooth things over
Yes, writing aggressive emails to people is a great way to "smooth things over" Jill.
Also would love to see these emails, but I think we can imagine what form they might take based on her Tweets.
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KEK imagine being Jill's relative though:
So you're her aunt or cousin or something and haven't seen that part of your family in a while. You think you might as well take the opportunity since you are visiting your new boyfriend for Christmas anyway and he happens to live in the same town.
Out of nowhere, you get an email from this niece/cousin you barely know. It's a deranged rant talking about how much you hurt her feelings and traumatized her years ago, you probably don't even remember the incident. (I assume that relative either made some comment regarding her fashion choices or maybe her like for magical girl cartoons/weeb stuff, maybe remarking how it seems a bit childish.)
Confused, you end up looking at her Facebook page or easily find her other social media and see that in just the few years since you've last spoken to her she devolved from 'quirky Tumblr weeb girl' to an obese rainbow they/them smurf that whines about how mentally ill she is all day on Twitter.
I mean Jill publicly states that she is too scared to go out on her own porch, that bitch shouldn't be trying to draw attention to herself by sending out cringe emails like that lmao.
You just know that relative is gonna share this around her friend circle and Jill is gonna become their new laughing stock.
If I was the relative I'd be sure to throw shade and make subtle hints at all the stuff that might trigger
Jill when she shows up for Christmas.
I also think Jill takes advantage of the fact that to outsiders everything is vague. I truly believe if Collin breaking up with Jill wasn't so public she would also try to project them as "abusive
" as well.
Listen I get it, I have annoying aunts as well that I resent. But as an adult if they spoke to me now like they spoke to me when I was younger I would just curse them out. Not write a dumbass email telling them how they hurt my feelings when I was 9.
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I think you guys were right about this being her 13 year old "trauma" alter
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I’m no shoop expert but is this image not heavily edited?
Also the comments on it are so cringe
I imagine she probably does. she probably keeps baiting Steve by saying that he's her first non abusive
partner but if they were to break up he would suddenly become a shitty boyfriend. She runs a pattern to where she was always a victim
never a perpetrator. >>178137
She always had a slight Milo Stuart quality to her…>>178144
It might be the ground next to her hips and waist is lighter and smoother than the ground right next to it. It kinda looks like baby's first Photoshop job with how odd and out of place it is.
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this is such a bad photoshop job
also jillian just because you want to act rude and """"masculine"""" it doesn't mean you are a boy lmaoooo
she always knew he was too warm and friendly
what a way to make other people's trauma about yourself, jillian
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this line here makes it obvious she liked her face in one photo and then tried to splice it onto a diff picture but she didn’t line it up right it is so obvious kek
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pixielocks and drew monson
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she has spam accounts on her videos
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I think she changed something with her caption because it now says:>Happy Christmas Birthday Thanksgiving Samhain to me…?????!!!!!
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Oh no she's larping with picrew icons now
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Jill no one was fucking jealous of you, no one wanted to be around you because you threw tantrums when you didn’t get the lead role and your narc mom fed your delusions of being better than everyone. Also fuck off with the whole “the only one whose gotten anywhere” you just larp as a mentally ill nb while dressed like a fat deranged clown because your fashion degree got you no where because you went to a hack school
What Jill considers having her shit together:>A place to live away from parents>Going to therapy>having a YouTube job>Clown makeup
What is actually having her shit together:>A healthy living environment>A therapist that holds you accountable when you want to trigger yourself>a stable job that isn't reliant on other people's disposal income >An understanding that dressing to draw attention is a form of self harm (especially if you claim to have anxiety to the point that you can't leave the house)
Also some one who actually has their shit together wouldn't call it a "villain origin story" only someone who's mentally unhinged would.
Agreed except for this point:
>An understanding that dressing to draw attention is a form of self harm
Head to toe black burglar costume and a balaclava or it's self harm. I think overeating to the point she clearly does combined with clown makeup is self harm though, it depends what you qualify as "attention drawing" fashion/makeup.
Funny. So being an obese clown who larps mental illnesses is now considered succesful?
Let's see, she got ass mad because she didn't get the (main) role she wanted. Out of all these people in this video, who were in her highs school theatre class, which one could be the most succesful? Names are all there. In fact let me list the ones featured on this (publicly available)video.>Alexandra Smith>Aiden Gallant>Emma Doucette>Philip Udaloy
Can someone dig the names and see who's actually more succesful than this rainbow failure? She can't even "go out without feeling anxiety" and she thinks she's hot shit. Lmao