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Jillian Vessey is a DID (Dissociative Personality Disorder) LARPer who trivializes mental health and sugar coats every single bad trait of hers while hyping up a dubious diagnostic impression that she paid copious amounts of bucks for.
She happily accepted her ~life changing~ diagnostic impression (NOT a real diagnosis!) with a "coming out as DID" celebratory cake, but struggled to maintain the LARP. The number of alters keep piling up and she doesn’t seem to stop anytime soon.
>Early Years:>began her lolcow run as a "pansexual" lolita lifestyle who dropped from the community due to LACE and "restrictive rules">gained fame for the creation of the J-fashion-inspired "Party Kei" fashion, a fashion she no longer wears nor backs>known lurker>formerly covered fashion and magical girl anime in her videos, was a pivotal figure in the LACE drama prior to her transition to the Party Kei years>has a running track record of inconsistent uploaded despite pushing a "full-time Youtuber" career; used barely-productive incentives for support on Patreon; both have plateaued if not decreased in income entirely following recent events>previously spent money frivolously (either from YT profit or from parents), like on wasteful plastic or fast fashion, and also claimed to make enough from YT and at the same time complain of demonetization>has prior history of severe mental illness in the forms of ED and self-harm>often inflates her skills and knowledge in various subjects, leading to a very narcissistic view of herself
>Current relevant info:>loves the idea of toying with the idea of having multiple mental illnesses; her main target is currently DID due to a diagnostic impression, and claims up to 9 alters right now with very shaky substance as to her alters' creation and the origin of her trauma which caused the DID; despite this, she has taken root in the DID community and has been involved or tried to insert herself into DID-related videos as an "expert" despite carrying the diagnostic impression for at least a year or more now>is still extremely thin-skinned; has history of deleting comments critical to her and has preached getting along with people while also blasting critics and concern in a very rude and passive-aggressive manner; has gotten into pissfights online as of late with users that have spoken out of concern for her or wanting to help or talk in some degree>her sexuality has been a sliding scale, from pansexual to queer to lesbian to back to currently pansexual (and nonbinary due to alters); current partner is Steven Clarke, who has enabled her delusions and has racked up his own questionable reputation; has a long history of drama with relationships, claiming abuse to some degree in most of them>formerly had a fashion brand called Five Petal Flower before graduating from her college fashion class, but seems to be no longer active if not just slowly dying; has also gotten into drag with a persona known as Villany Swells; has cancelled two drag gigs so far and claims an online person is stalking her due to a publically-filmed video of a drag show being linked in a previous>has a shaky history of substance misuse regarding her meds; now takes in various degrees of alcohol and weed leading to possible clashes in medication or mental/physical state;
MEET THE ALTERS:
>Jillian: Actual person, but calls herself an alter for the heck of it. Hates being called “Jilly”. Says she can't hear her "brain folk" when she's experiencing trauma, Jillian is the only one who fronts in those situations, defeating the whole purpose of having alters and having DID.>Jerrick: 13-16 year old emo guy, who has supposedly been around for 12 years, conveniently holds all her bad bpd traits. Signs off with a snake emoji.>Veronica: Horny alter, 20 years old, calls herself a lesbian (even though she’s dating a man), she is a “protector of sexual trauma”, says she had to become a fuckable bimbo because she was “raped for months”. Signs off with a flame emoji.>Berry (Nicknamed “Babby Smalls”): Talks and acts like a baby. Proof that Jillian is into age regression. Is always “co-fronting” in some way. Had its name previously withheld for “safety reasons”. Signs off with a strawberry.>Cliffe: 35 year old old man. Her "homosexual assistant" A mix between her dad and Sasha Velour. Looks like Mr. Bruce. Somehow too old for social media, but responsible enough to come out when she does taxes. The emoji is a club. >Flora: A “fragment” slowly morphing into a real alter, and a carbon copy of cure flora / other positive precure characters. She is a blonde sweet lolita. Sign off emoji is a cherry blossom. >Jax: 19 year old “character salad” that speaks and types with a Brooklyn accent. She's a fictive of Harley Quinn (Batman), Jinx (Arcane), and Spinel (Steven Universe). Apparently was born from watching arcane while having major trauma. Jillian called her “hypersexual”. Signs with a test tube emoji. >sandwich emoji: Cat alter, represents how lost she felt moving to a new city. Not much else is currently known about it.>Amanda: Sneakingly revealed in a vlog. Jillian has bracelets and necklaces with the names of her alters, and this name appeared alongside them in a row of alter names. Note that Jillian’s second name is actually Amanda. Turned out to be the other “far away” age regression alter that uses the piano emoji.
**Note: The DID saga officially starts in >>>/w/176591
Last thread:>We start off with some pics from Jill's last drag show. The crowd does not look amused. >>261723, >>261732, >>261735, >>261764>Jill tells us about her "special interests" >>262517>Halloween special featuring The Incredible Impending Troonie is posted >>262996>Steve takes a social media break >>263187>Jill is trans according to Jill >>264256>Jill celebrated her one-year diagnostic impression anniversary >>264405, >>264406>Jill is still complaining about that one therapist who didn't totally coddle/enable her >>264618>Patreon livestream >>264619 and summary >>264637>Jill makes her mental illness her entire personality >>264895>Bobo calls out Jillybean (you go girl) >>265482>Stevie comments on Vangelina's twitter >>265648 guess we won't be getting that callout vid>Jill… uh Jerrick claims ptsd flashbacks due to allegedly being assaulted in her childhood bedroom >>265692>Jill but with glasses AKA Cliffe makes an appearance >>265855>"THE PEE PEE SHADOW" >>266575>Jerrick has tampon trauma >>266634>Jill can't believe she got backlash for the DID cake >>266745 Nor can Steve >>266891>Due to her crippling alcoholism, Jill has likely drank broken glass >>266821>Mommy buys the super oppressed and underprivileged Jill a new computer >>266967>Jill interacts with creepy DDLG DID woman >>267326>DID & Relationships Q&A video is released- this full fat milk puts on full display Jill's wild BPD tendencies. Steve is not having it. His body language says he is no longer buying the LARP and overall sick of her shit. If you haven't seen it, I fully recommend giving it a watch >>267595
Previous threads:>>>/pt/108478 >>>/snow/25169>>>/snow/93376 >>>/snow/154765>>>/snow/215023>>>/snow/258245>>>/snow/271275>>>/snow/285759>>>/snow/303929>>>/snow/318441>>>/snow/338259>>>/snow/358781>>>/snow/375960>>>/snow/393066>>>/snow/408269>>>/snow/428929>>>/snow/445432>>>/snow/455122>>>/snow/477079>>>/snow/490876>>>/snow/515612>>>/snow/531526>>>/snow/540457>>>/snow/558614>>>/snow/582890>>>/snow/616989>>>/snow/646275>>>/snow/679806>>>/snow/720365>>>/snow/739688>>>/w/3116>>>/w/33281>>>/w/42916>>>/w/59471>>>/w/74104>>>/w/87679>>>/w/99779>>>/w/127283>>>/w/143253>>>/w/154731>>>/w/164089>>>/w/176591>>>/w/182427>>>/w/185184>>>/w/188928>>>/w/192544>>>/w/197246>>>/w/215574>>>/w/223174>>>/w/229290>>>/w/234970>>>/w/241369>>>/w/245171>>>/w/249612>>>/w/252849 >>>/w/255155>>>/w/257065
Last thread, #61:>>>/w/260969
At 17:20 onwards on the video they discuss the possibility, that a child alter would switch out during sex and both shake violently and keep denying it, going even so far to say it would make no sense. But if one would be a victim
of childhood sexual abuse, as is often stated with cases of DID this would be kinda understandable problem. The sexual encounter in adulthood would trigger
sexual trauma and bring forth the child-part who was abused and as such got stuck in this personality limbo.
I think this line was kinda telling about her supposed trauma. She says in the same video, that she was kicking about in her sleep, when she slept with her mother in the same bed as a 5-year old, but completely denies this kind of connection.
Once again Jill has successfully avoided an awkward, disordered part of her supposed disorder she's larping.
reposting some of the responses at the end of the last thread:>>267595
fucking kek at Jill pretending to have a panic attack when Steve was having chest pains at 8:16.
The mental visual of these two screaming at each other with Jill giving up half way when she realized she couldn't make it about her is a gift. She truly can't not be the center of attention even to other's detriment.
Steve gave the most half assed yes when Jill asked if Cliff the Accountant helped him through it.
He seems incredibly stifled throughout that entire segment. He looks like he's dying to say something, he keeps covering his mouth and laughing in disbelief. Wonder if he's going to break this year>>267796
idk he seems miserable unless they're reciting some meme they both enjoy.
He looks so flat and disappointed when she cuts him off or makes those half truth half joke comments.
Jill just looks around impatiently when he has anything to say, she rarely actually looks at him while he speaks. Just waiting for her turn to blab again like a 5 year old. If you compare old videos with Steve it's night and day.
She said something like "sometimes I love you sometimes I hate you" and Steve makes this shocked face and Jill says "not you" in this terrible baby voice. This guy is probably getting thrown around emotionally every day if we saw all that in the span of 40 minutes. Her whole house, social media "brand", relationship is about her and her string of diagnoses. I'm exhausted just watching it >>267802
she also said she can't fully "dissociate" if she has stimulus (which can be another person according to her) keeping her preoccupied in the room at night. Why the fuck would she self-induce dissociation at night? You mean sleep Jill? She has no idea what that word means
More from the last thread:>>267595
Just watching his body language and visual clues tells you a lot>completely opposite fashion, dark clothes and covered hair>Nods and shakes his head a lot>presses his lips together a lot which is a classic "holding back response/words" expression>not a lot of eye contact, gazes at the floor or elsewhere a lot, even when she's looking at him he's staring at the floor
He's checked out and just sorta biding his time like other anons say. The body language is so nervous and awkward for a couple, they act like classmates who met yesterday for the first time. I do think trooning out is on the horizon with the excessively covered up clothing (uwu i hate my boy body) the long nails and hair, and the look directly at the camera at the question about borrowing his "masc" clothing. Anons noticed he likes troonshit on twitter too.>>267875
sage for tinfoil, i honestly think he's staying because the alternative is going back home where he will be more restricted. being in jill's home, there's a little more freedom but she very badly wants him to integrate into her lifestyle. i just rewatched their valentine's day q&a last night and it seemed like he didn't necessarily mind doing matching outfits for occasions, but she has a habit of constantly asking him to incorporate something of hers into his outfit as well, which he often declines.
i think that he probably expected more freedom moving in with jill, but ended up in another constricting environment – and with that, in this new video, he's wearing the entirely black outfit as his own subtle rebellion against the rainbow vomit house. he could leave, yes. but where to? at least here he's sharing rent in a decent sized unit. i think he'd rather be patient through this until he can find a place where he's better off to express himself fully without jill's influence (and inane screeching + cutting him off + attention hogging)>>267869
When Colin dumped her she spoke poorly of him on her social media which has a following, she has become even more unhinged since then. The level of things she is willing to lie about is off the charts at this point. I would honestly be worried about slander and what are you supposed to do when she has created this perfect shield, how could he fight that. He is witnessing her first hand invent CSA and indirectly accuse someone she used to date of rape. If she took it poorly which she definitely would she could ruin his life. That might sound excessive but her whole DID ark is her inventing these fake abusive
situations and assigning people she knew as abusers retroactively.
I've never done a recap before but I have time to start working on one now, it'll take a bit because it's a 45 fucking minute video and I'm not watching 45 minutes of spastic narcissistic clownery sober.
But if another anon beats me to it, thats fine too
First ever recap. Part 1. Strap in because it's so messy, sorry. I really tried to keep it coherent but the video is all over the place and so much happens…
>"hello confetti club this is Jill and Steevie again" Jill does obnoxious jazz-hands while Steevie sarcastically repeats "again" but then awkwardly tries to turn it into a joke>Jill takes over talking and gives us the basic intro of what the video is going to be about. ie. Twitter QnA DID couple edition>I'm 30 seconds in and Steevie looks fucking done already, awkward sipping of yellowish thick drink, kinda looks like he's trying not to roll his eyes every time he looks at Jill but I might be reading into it>Jill continues "…wanted to do some questions and stuff and get some perspective from someone who, like, isn't me, about my brain" more jazz hands around her face (Steevie gives a quick look at the camera, pulls his lips together and kind of like, raises a quick eyebrow at the camera… I'm definitely not reading into it, I think these little weird passive aggressive looks are going to happen a lot from Steevie so I wont go into details, but I'll mention it every time it happens, but it's basically the same look I'd give a friend when I want someone we both hate to shut the fuck up and stop talking. It doesn't look good)>40 seconds in, Jill starts talking in a weird voice saying she wishes people would take her seriously, another weird look from Steevie>Jill introduces Steevie as "the roommate" before quickly correcting herself>1st question, TLDR version: "does Steevie's role change depending on who's fronting?">Steevie answers "Yes the role does change. If Jill is fronting thats my PARTNER. If Berry is fronting, thats a child and I AVOID" (no mention of other alters)>Steevie mentions he checks out whenever the baby is fronting. Jill corrects him and says he doesn't "check out". Steevie jumps back in and says he just co-exists near her (I know anons think he is into DDLG but this seems like he wants nothing to do with BabyBerry's bullshit imo)>Steevie says Jill is perfectly capable of taking care of herself. lmao.>Jill goes on a rant to say how they are like any other nurodivergent/nurotypical couple. "One of you might have a bad day but you know, you, like, take turns" (another weird look from steevie) "Sometimes I feel like I am taking care of you" (Another weird look)>Steevie chimes in "if I get back from like, a 12 hour shoot, and I can't do anything, yes you generally help me out" >Jill interrupts him by saying "Yes. I make suppie… I bring you little foot baths sometimes… I make you coffee" Steevie is just shrugging and awkwardly repeating "yeah" in a high voice.>2nd question TLDR: Did Steevie know you had DID before you did?">Steevie says "yes, super early on." Jill goes back and fourth in SHOCK saying "yes" "no" and "what" and he just dismissively says "Yeah I've told you this before" >He continues "we would have subject matters… of great importance… the subject matters of which you would then forget" and glares at her while she does this shit-eating "whoopsie" face. (yikes.)>He continues by saying they would have arguments while Jill giggles and flails around next to him. He continues with "The tea. what tea. people finding out we have arguments" Jill keeps flailing around and screaming NOOO while Steevie makes fun of… Jills fans? By putting on a sarcastic sad voice and saying "BUT THEY'RE SO PERFECT TOGETHER">They both wind it back and try to explain how Jill would be upset over something, and Steevie says "Jill we talked about this, then you would be like evil voice with scrunched fists NO WE DIDN'T" (another yikes. he clearly has a lot of great opinions about her)>3rd Question, TLDR: "does steevie tend to act differently with each part" (steebie already has a shit-eating grin before the question is even finished being said)>Jill answers and says he doesn't change. He corrects her and says he changes some things. She backtracks for a bit then and Steevie sadly says "Jerric doesn't like affection" (that was actually really sad to listen to) then he says he "stays as far away as possible from him haha just kidding" >They both go back and fourth a bit on this one. Jill puts on a bunch of dumb voices and answers on behalf of Steevie a lot and he mostly stays quiet and nods and doesn't look at her. Its uncomfortable. >4th question, TLDR: "What was Steevie's initial reaction">Jill answers again and asks him if it was when Jerr was out this one specific time, he corrects her and says the first formal introduction was Cliffe. She says "oh yeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh.. that was…" Steevie interrupts and says "unpleasant." >Jill explains it was an emergency and not an ideal situation to be meeting Cliffe. They both look very uncomfortable. >Steeve explains he "was having a medical crisis and then Jill had a panic attack because I was having a medical crisis and then Cliffe swapped in and then you suddenly weren't having a panic attack and I was like…. interesting….">Jill goes into great detail about Steevie's medical crisis and how Steevie was screaming which triggered Jill's PTSD and she started screaming. Then Cliffe swapped in after about 2 minutes of her screaming>She asks if Cliffe helped, and he shrugged and said "yeah? i think so?">5th Question: do Jerr and Cliffe steal Steevie's clothes" >Jill is bobbing up and down and clicking around her head while Steevie deadpans the camera and says "yes.">Jill tries to say how "they borrow each other's clothes and it's symbiotic as opposed to…" Steevie interrupts and says "parasitic" and she starts screetching and flapping her hands>There's some back and fourth about each other's style choices and interesting tidbit is Jill mentioning Steevie's "awesome haircut" that he's teasing the audience with and he goes REAL quiet and says he isn't ready for that yet, and she says "thats valid" (troon hinting?)>6th question to steevie "how have you grown in your journey of self expression since dating pixie" >His journey isn't intertwined with hers but he mentions how living alone has allowed him to express himself more because living at home he did not have freedom to express himself. "So now I'm able to dress the way I wanted to dress in high school and be who I wanted to be. B.A.R.B.I.E" Jill looks like a fat, smug grandma and keeps bobbing her head around all over the place then screetches like a bird>Jill says "BE WHO YOU WANNA BE BARBIE THEM" then they both passively aggressively talk shit about Steevie's family and how "individuals" will say that Steevie is going to get infected by the kawaii>Jill interrupts "INFECTED BY MY FASHION" >He says he has been wearing what he wants for 5 years now and that Jill doesn't control his aesthetic in any way. Jill interrupts again and screams "I TRY… SLASH J. SLASH… SLASH J. SLASH H J" >She screams and giggles and flails a bit while trying to say how she just tries to help and he tries to say in between her outbursts that he "stand up for himself" (the irony is comical at best and just sad at worst)>7th question "does steevie have any advice/tips on supporting someone with DID?">Jill answers again and goes on a huge rant about how to treat someone with DID. Steevie looks bored and doesn't look at her the entire time she answers for him.>She asks him what he thinks, then keeps talking for another minute over him. He still looks bored. >Steevie finally gets to talk and mentions something about boundaries and remembering boundaries for each personality. And something about speed signs in school zones. (idk I've been listening to this shit for 16 minutes)>Jill goes on another minute long rant, basically repeating herself.>8th question "What happens when you're fucking and the alter switches from Jill to Berry" >they both make a grossed-out face and make fun of the question. Then say that has never happened and probably never would and that intimacy would stop if it ever did happen. >Steevie says that any kind of switching during intimate moments almost never happens and that they have a very healthy and intimate relationship>Jill says she had a PTSD flashback during sex once and they stopped and talked it out>9th question "How do headmates feel about sharing a room with steevie" >When Jerr and Berry were revealed, Steevie stopped sleeping in the same room as Jill full-time. But he says he got his own room before that because he has a sleep disorder that makes it hard to sleep in the same bed as someone else…. "depending on circumstances." (Jill gives him a weird look this time)>When Jill is out, they cuddle before bed then go to their own rooms. >They cope and seethe about how "actually having your own room is actually so good for a relationship">Text above Jill's head says that she is losing grip on fronting (tinfoil but maybe because this is the longest she has gone all video without screetching and actually having to listen to him talk, so she now just checks out when it's not about her?)>She fully checks out and starts talking about the cats and eggs and bacon. >Jill fronts again "i was going to say a whole thing… where did it go">"OKAY YEA YEA YEA…. i like to breakdance in my sleep" (ngl, this one got me. I laughed so hard at that)>Jill talks about herself for another minute. Something about being a squirmy baby and nightime is best time for her system. And another human next to her doesn't allow her to communicate with herself properly. >Steevie says interrupting Jill at night would be like interrupting an AA meeting. >Jill says her mind is like a projector playing the sims when the "round table" talk is going on in her brain.
I don't know girls. I'm only halfway through. I'm trying. If this recap seems all over the place it's because the video is all over the place… part 2 coming soon
>>267965>i think that he probably expected more freedom moving in with jill, but ended up in another constricting environment – and with that, in this new video, he's wearing the entirely black outfit as his own subtle rebellion against the rainbow vomit house. he could leave, yes. but where to?
i thought the same thing when i first watched them, very well put nonnie
part 2. fuck me dead… where was I?
>Oh yea. More coping about how great having individual bedrooms are. The first time they slept together Jill punched a wall in her sleep. >They go back and fourth a bit more about sleeping and bedrooms, more screetching from her, he "sees weird stuff in the walls">question 10: What tells does each alter have that gives away to Steevie about who is fronting>Jill answers again and says he can't tell. Steeve scoffs at this. >Jill backtracks and says he can tell when it's Jerr and he can tell when it's Berry. "But the thing about Berry is that when she is out, I'm not as co-con" (wait what? doesn't this go against everything she's ever said about Berry fronting?)>Steeve answers he can tell when it's Jerr because "it's very void of tone". He looks very awkward and uncomfortable. >They talk about how Steeve doesn't want to be the friend that is always asking if Jill is okay. Then they talk about Jill's ex BF and how he would always ask her if she's okay? And about Jill's mum not realising her daughter is switching in and out all the time>They have things set up for if she's non-verbal. >Gibberish for 2 minutes about how she can't talk when she's too blendy and co-con.>(It's still going. fuck me. she never shuts up. I've been here for 3 minutes waiting to type something new)>Jill questions Steeve about "how can you tell when it's Ronnie/How can you tell when it's Cliffy">Steeve moves away from her when she mentions Veronica. He also says Cliffe turns into Velma and suddenly can't see without glasses (So Jill pretends to be blind whenever she is Cliffe?) >Jills talks about Cliffe's personality for another 2 minutes. Steevie says "think Spock". He looks bored (me too buddy)>Jill asks "How can you tell if it's Jax">Steevie gets a pained expression on his face and says he can't tell whenever Jax is out. >Jills says she thinks Jax is very different from her but says that everyone around her tells her otherwise>"In my head she has a very specific accent and voice and I assumed thats what she sounded like when she was out and talking">Jill says she was mortified at the idea of having people hear her talk like Harley Quinn so she kept Jax hidden for so long>Steevie says "it's an interesting one… it's like a combination of a lot of…. traits">Jill talks about Jax being a protector for Jerric and says that Jerric doesn't understand that he can't be monotone when he talks to people and that "Jerr doesn't mask very well" (Jerric has autism apparently. So Jax takes over for Jerric when Jerric is being too autistic)>Steeve looks done. >Jill mentions something along the lines of people think Jill is just pissed off whnever Jerric is fronting. And that people don't understand the way Jerric communicates (i can't stand this anymore)>Jax split off after someone accused Jerric of being rude earlier this year (but didn't she just say she was hiding Jax for a long time? I can't keep anything straight)>She keeps talking about Jax being "devil emoji" evil as opposed to "gun and bomb emoji" evil. "She is like wine glass emoji and car emoji… NOT LIKE DRINKING AND DRIVING BUT UHHH" (insert joke about Jill crashing her car here)>Steeve mentions that she didn't talk about Berry's tells. Jill replies "goo goo ga ga" and does her screetchie laugh>Jill says she isn't goo goo ga ga, but that "berry will do this thing where her hands are like, up here" and she tucks her hands under her chin and rubs them together like an evil villain and burps a lot>question 11, full unedited question this time: !!! do different alters have different ways of bonding with steevie? just curious from one system to the next, esp since we have a hard time with letting different alters than our host front when around our friends" >Jills says she feels the commenter on that, and says even though her friends are so lovely and give her multiple gifts for each alter, that her parts are still too shy to say anything back to them. >Jill puts on a bunch of funny voices and rants about how she isn't comfortable announcing to her friends whenever someone new is fronting>Except Cliffe, Jax and Veronica >Steevie still looks bored. Hasn't said much in a while. >Jill talks about bonding with Stevie, and how she hates movies while movies are his whole personality and his entire life. "Especially Star Wars, Marvel, Action, Classics. Classics. Maybe that's why Cliffe formed to survive functioning as an adult and living with you">They mention DnD and Stevie says he is the best dungeon master. And to follow his podcast "thats not real yet….. yet" (New Stevie podcast coming soon)>Stevie says he enjoys watching movies with Cliffe, playing Smash Brothers with Jill, and the occasional story reading to Berry.>Jill acts a little weird/young and says "YEAHSS story time is the best" in a baby voice and smiles creepily at the camera while Steevie talks and Jill just keeps batting her eyes at the lens and curling in on herself. It's very bizarre.>I didn't hear a single word Stevie said. Jill was scaring me for a whole 2 minutes. >Stevie says he likes drinking with Veronica. >They talk about Veronica being a sexual party girl and imply that they do weird non-consensual sexual shit together whenever she's out>Jill breaks character to say in a singsong voice "OH Spongebob. Spongebob. Patrick. Patrick" This is unprompted. Idk. She says Babysmall and Jill love spongebob the most.
oh this got weird. >Stevie says in a VERY soft and gentle voice "do you wanna do one more?" >Jill replies back like a baby "YEAA lets do one more last one!">Jill says "THIS ONE'S PERRFEECCT" (like Rarity from my little pony?) and looks shocked at the camera like she didn't know what happened. >Question 12. "Whats the funniest interaction Stevie has had with one of the alters">Jill answers and asks if he is thinking what she is thinking because it brings her great shame.>Jill says something about Jax and the ginger incident. Stevie deadpans the camera again>Stevie is in the kitchen cooking happily, tries to tell the story>Jill interrupts him to describe in detail the ingredients that goes into nachos>Stevie goes back to the story. It takes fucking ages for him to say he was about to put spices in the beef when "Jax emerges, completely unprompted as usual" >Jill's screeching laughter erupts again>Jax asks to help. Stevie tells Jax to tend to the beef while he does something else. When Stevie turns around Jax is fucking up the meal by adding a huge scoop of ginger to the pan>Steevie ends with "Going back to the other question, Jax's tell is not taking any responsibility">Jill and Stevie go back and fourth with this for a long while like it's the funniest shit anyone has ever heard. >They had to dump out the dinner and Stevie cried. >They end the video by featuring a confetti club member called Boobigoblin on twitter who drew art of PixieDaydreams and VillainySwells. It looks about how you'd expect. >They thank each other for being the crabbiest of patties and Stevie calls Jill gelatinous.
Thanks for reading. I'm never doing that again.
Oh you brave, brave soul. Go rest your weary ears and recharge over some peeps tea.
Thank you for the summary Nona, I might have to watch it to see the body language between the two.
thank you, it was rough and I am so tired >>267986
at first i would have disagreed with you but he was bringing up Berry even when she didn’t and the way he acted towards her near the end has me seriously reconsidering my first take of “i think he wants nothing to do with the berry bs”
I think you’re right. That first display he showed slipped pretty quick. If he can’t even pretend to dislike/not care about an alter for 45 minutes, imagine what actually goes on when there’s no cameras
Steevie was screaming which triggered
Why would that trigger
Jill’s ptsd? She was supposedly SA’d as a kid, just wasn’t in a war zone or held up at gun point, nor does she have any medical trauma >Steevie says that any kind of switching during intimate moments almost never happens and that they have a very healthy and intimate relationship
This makes absolutely no sense as someone who has supposed sexual trauma! What do you even have alters for then?!
rants about how she isn't comfortable announcing to her friends whenever someone new is fronting>Except Cliffe, Jax and Veronica
Except that a while ago Jerrick was gushing about how great it was to make friends and hang out with Jill’s friends…
It really does sound like Steebie has contempt for Jill at this point, which is the ultimate sign that a relationship has run its course. And who could blame him - even reading this summary (ty nonnie
) is exhausting. Imagine having to come home from a 12-hour workday and have to deal with this shit. May as well just stay at work.
methinks Jill is actually crazy insecure about the possibility of Steve cheating. The little alters may have been her way of spicing up their relationship but, it ended up backfiring and only further pushed them away from each other because while Steve gets his little alters he still has to deal with the other alters who're just Jill's BPD personified. Adding onto the exhausting performance of dealing with the DID shit, Jill knows there's a strong possibility that she's gonna have to downgrade from the place she's in or move back home, but instead of looking for a real job she still wants to play influencer… Leading to Steve having to work 12 hours a day as the sole breadwinner, she's not consistent enough with her upload schedule for me to believe it can cover their basic needs. I'm not trying to WK Steve, but having a munchie BPD gf who doesn't do shit around the house and might have you become homeless or shack up at her parents' because she refuses to be an adult and get a job just sounds shitty. I think the death knell for their relationship'll be when their lease is up rather than the trooning out saga.>>267991
Jill going the "some SA victims
become hypersexual" route, if her lie were true their sex-life would be an absolute mess. She keeps trying to have her cake and eat it too, either you have debilitating trauma and your life is difficult because of it, or you don't Jill. I hate this, "Well sometimes stuffs hard but for the most part my life is sunshine and rainbows despite my twauma uwu"
Damn anon you deserve an award for that kek
I apologize for the shitty screenshots in the thread pic I didn’t think it would be used but I am honored.>>268000
The logic of her never fronting during sex when she alluded to sexual abuse and supposedly dissociates when Steve asks her a mild question about their sleeping habits doesn’t make sense at all.
And it’s ridiculous that she would be embarrassed to tell her friends who’s fronting, the only people directly interacting with her in person, but she has no problem telling the whole internet every time she has a little blendy
Pretty sure everyone would have an issue sleeping in the same room as someone they don't like
What I want to know is if he feels slightly threatened by her. As anons have said, her BPD can make her vindictive and unstable and there's also her using past people in her life as excuses of trauma. I wonder if he doesn't trust being in the same room with her for whatever reason, especially if she uses alters to get away with shit
(Not that he didn't bring this upon himself)
Thanks so much for this excellent and detailed recap anon, I like how you went into the body language and interaction in your descriptions, since there is definitely a lot going on in that video>He continues by saying they would have arguments while Jill giggles and flails around next to him. He continues with "The tea. what tea. people finding out we have arguments" Jill keeps flailing around and screaming NOOO while Steevie makes fun of… Jills fans? By putting on a sarcastic sad voice and saying "BUT THEY'RE SO PERFECT TOGETHER"
Holy crap…the resentment
>>267982>The first time they slept together Jill punched a wall in her sleep.
Haha holy shit>and says even though her friends are so lovely and give her multiple gifts for each alter
The dudley comparison is holding up strong>Jill talks about bonding with Stevie, and how she hates movies while movies are his whole personality and his entire life. "Especially Star Wars, Marvel, Action, Classics. Classics. Maybe that's why Cliffe formed to survive functioning as an adult and living with you"
The resentment part two. >They talk about Veronica being a sexual party girl and imply that they do weird non-consensual sexual shit together whenever she's out
Wow sounds very healthy and normal>oh this got weird. >Stevie says in a VERY soft and gentle voice "do you wanna do one more?" >Jill replies back like a baby "YEAA lets do one more last one!"
God this is creepy af
>Thanks for reading. I'm never doing that again.
Thank you for your service anon, that was very enjoyable
recap anon back again after a good sleep, I'm glad you all enjoyed the greentext and it wasn't too incoherent.>>268006
said it perfectly, if you are going to watch any of Jill's videos, let it be this one. I know it's so long but it is the perfect video that so accurately represents Jill and her personality and gives such an in-depth look into the grim reality that is living with her. I'm so shocked she uploaded it.
Give yourself 45 minutes this weekend to watch it before she realises how repulsive and awful it is and takes it down
i honestly think he just doesn't like what he did to it. what's the point of covering it with a hat if you don't tuck it all in? look at the thread pic, some of it is still left out. it's probably the top part that came out fucked somehow>>268053
anon, i was refreshed that stevie went to school for journalism, so i really doubt he's genuinely 100% sure jill has DID. i think a part of him wants this to be true because he genuinely loved her in the beginning, but as more time goes by there's no way he's not observing her behaviour, mentally taking note and asking himself questions which could explain his body language and passive aggressiveness in the video.
he's a weirdo for sure but i don't think he's entirely lobotomised.
100%. This video is a perfect example of a relationship where one person is bpd as absolute fuck, and the other is walking on eggshells. No wk tho, he's still creepy.
Jill is so bloody excited and enthusiastic whenever she talks about her adorable mental illness because she thinks she has finally
found a way to avoid any accountability for anything, ever.
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im really trying to get through it but steebe is just coming off so agressive and angry and like another anon said the berry stuff is so forced. he literally sounds annoyed and says like its been practiced >so when jill is fronting, thats my partner … if berry is fronting … thats a child.
i also feel like im being solicited by a couple whos about to tell me their poly now. whole thing is just off vibes. they both are talking about all of this with so much copium it's legitimately weird. she just said suppy.
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It's not bpd. This is my DID mature adult man alter and not me litteraly stealing the personality of everyone around me
He’s purposely trying to hide his hair for a bit so it would make sense for that anon to think he should of tucked all his greasy hair into the beanie.
By the way it looks it’s probably a butchered mullet.
He desperately needs friends
To show him how normal people act and him going from strick christian household to flamboyant queer is not him overcoming his past religious trauma but actually putting himself in the same environment with a different theme.
He made a mistake outing himself as a good little Christian boy who will wholeheartedly beileve in whatever anyone tells him. He's the perfect combination of victim
and enabler for manipulators like jill
i figured i’d leave out the parts that a lot of other anons already covered in other comments but you’re right, it’s fucking golden. so many milky moments I couldn’t capture in words were left out, i was either laughing my ass off or staring at the screen with utter contempt. the video has to be experienced first hand to truly appreciate it>>268094
big true. i keep going back at fourth between loathing him and feeling sorry for him. He is the perfect recipe to be a lifelong victim
and I feel bad for that, but he’s also a commie sympathising grown-ass man who has the ability to see fact from fiction and get real help but just doesn’t.
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She hasn’t replied to this or any other comments that aren’t overwhelmingly positive yet.
Good point on this person's behalf that these idiots faking this shit ignore– people who have to live with those who suffer from SMI suffer as well
It's not fucking roses but you wouldn't believe that looking at how Jill portrays herself she couldn't even get him to the doctor without making it about herself
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In the video when Jill is speaking for steebie and recounting his panic attack at 8:27 and explains how it triggered a "PTSD flashback", and as a result Jill is also screaming and crying, she says "I realize this is not working" then quickly corrects herself and says "or we realize this is not functioning, we can't both be in crisis" and gestures in a way that implies she actively switched to Cliffe. Just thought that was interesting…
Not every concerned person on the internet is a farmer
Or everyone who dares to criticize Jill on their public account is a cow tipper.
I'm referring to other >omg stop cow tipping posts made here
It's rediculous to imagine every non delusional person came from here. It's something alot of you anons have in common with Jill is thinking every meanie is out to get her.
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Sorry, could you show me where? Everything I'm pulling up says the opposite
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I am embarrassed to take this obvious bait, but the manic we describe in BPD is not the same thing as a "mania" you see in bipolar. If you 've ever known a BPD person, then you know this state well. "Manic" is not the clinical term for it, but it's probably the best description we've got.
BPD people "turn." You can see the change in their entire demeanor. They become testy, irritable, extremely excitable, exaggerated, and over the top. They are also very agitated and sensitive and fixated on the words and emotions of others.
Jill displayed all of that in this video. I think it comes from a place of extreme anxiety in her, and it comes out in a performative nature.
So don't get it twisted. We are not describing bipolar mania as you know it. It's just a good description of whatever that state is. That state is very similar to a bipolar mania.
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Dw anon they went overboard @ you and it's not common knowledge
you can still call it mania the DSMV is a lil wonky with the criteria you're fine
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At about the 12 minute mark he scratched the side of his head and it looks like the side of his head is shaved. I’m guessing since Steve is from a conservative upbringing he’s probably a bit insecure regarding attention grabbing ‘extreme’ looks so possibly doesn’t want Jill’s fans/us judging his hair.
I wonder how much him getting clued into these threads thanks to Jill has affected how he is on camera. His “I’m ready for my interrogation” line at the start was telling
30mins in Jills talking about Jerrick and Steve looks like he’s about to start crying. He seems legit hurt that she’s so dismissive of him and that a part of her hates him. As much as she wants to pretend the parts aren’t her, they are.
What did he do that she’s so resentful of him for, that he thinks he deserves her ire like that?
And jerrick is just her but without the YouTuber personality. Like she wants us to really believe she’s that keyed up ALL the time? No Jilly, it’s ok to be emotionally exhausted and just check out and take a breather. Being a positive hyperactive clown is an exhausting act to keep up constantly and it’s not necessary. You can be your stupid loud and goofy self without apologizing for moments where you just couldn’t give less of a shit.
This is sad because they’re both struggling with their identities in a bubble. Get off the internet and find activities that actually reflect your values and goals as a goddam fully realized person! Steve you can be a man that likes dresses and long hair, man and woman are objective words; liking dresses doesn’t make you a woman, you are a man that likes dresses (Or insert whatever asinine sexist stereotype you think it is that makes you not a full male).
And finally, fetishes are a choice! At any moment you can both disengage from fetish practices that don’t align with your values or are harmful to the relationship or self, this includes porn consumption!
It was really weird to watch this, Jill is so caught up in looking at herself in the viewfinder half the time it’s like she forgets steve is even there. It must be an exhausting living situation, no wonder he’s working twelve hour days. Works probably a joy in comparison.
The weeds definitely not helping either of them either, especially with Jill’s balance of mind seeming so directly related to her making videos. It’s like the only way she can relate to herself and the lack of motivation from the weed has probably destroyed that linchpin for her, I wonder how well this DID reveal lines up with her weed and abandonment of interests. She just sounds deeply depressed and unmoored from reality.
That’s what it pinged me as too. When did her mom do chemo and all that? It seems like maybe during some formative growth period she was left alone to deal with her emotions and just couldn’t work it out. Maybe that’s why her brother seems so well adjusted but Jill struggles? She needs someone to tell her up front to cut shit out. She’d benefit so much if she just took the criticisms of her loved ones seriously and tried to change and stop hurting them.>>268186
Ouch, yeah that was awful. She couldn’t even just eat something else if she had no interest? What’s the bet when Steve got angry she was like “fuck you! I was just trying to help!”? Sounds like there’s a lot of eggshells in the pixielocks household.
People who don't think about the price do this kinda shit
Shows how spoiled rotten jill really is
I honestly feel bad for him. And I'm sure he's only staying to be her caretaker and support because he hasn't come to terms yet with the fact that this is all a big show to her.
Thinking that if he leaves she would get worse and he'd feel the guilt of not only that but Jill would turn and probably be awful to him and blame anything bad that happens to her on him.
Because that's what she does. It's what she always does and still does. She can't go 2 minutes without go >Muh PTSD
I think in reality she would probably get better on her own. The times she made the best content and was better put together and doing well for herself were the times she was most alone.
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He uploaded a tiktok that shows what his hair looks like under the hat (sorry, i don’t know how to upload webms)
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Oh he's def trooning. This isn't just a breadcrumb, it's the whole loaf
>>268204>change the gender of your voice
Sure, get surgery and years of vocal training and then you have a tiny chance to sound natural>>268206
I think it's the other way, maybe they are doing it to provoke her or not be attractive to her
I got the impression that a lot of anons were giving him the benefit of the doubt and treating his ‘condition’ like a real medical issue, plus blaming Jill. No doubt Jill is insufferable to be around at all times but Steve strikes me as the kind of coombrained moid who’d rather watch tranny
porn than be intimate with his girlfriend, and IIRC the porn addiction was a factor at the beginning (or even before?) their relationship, long before Jill devolved into the insane clown blob we see now. I wouldn’t be surprised if Steve preferring porn to Jill was a catalyst in this whole DID debacle.
i'm fairly sure it's this video posted on his own channel: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ywgIFKIQZYE
sorry i don't have time to post the clip right now, but maybe another nona can
Astrology would be even better. Jill please show us your natal chart and become an astrology witch lady.
I hope a new pagan witch alter is “discovered” cause that would be truly entertaining.
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i gotcha: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CqUKEtEAwF0&t=473s
about ~8:03 she talks about her altar. she says she follows the "reclaiming religion or practice of witchcraft". i do remember her saying she was pagan at some point but she doesn't say it here.
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I'm working on the rest of the clips but here is a couple. Thank you to all nonnies for posting recaps and timestamping.
After watching this, at the risk of sounding white knitey:
If Steevie troons out, it will honestly be the most logical, understandable troon-out ever. Getting to grade 6 thinking that everyone had a penis? That seems like the most perfect recipe for a future troon ever. He really does seem like he is one. And you know what? I'd totally accept that.
I find him attractive as well but never wanted to admit it kek
Gay or not he could do much better than jill
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New video tomorrow
Samefag, also find his smile revolting for some reason, I think it's those creepy online male vibes coming out. When he troons out and starts posting weird shit on Twiter you will all see. Guy is a freak, no normal guy would sit back and smile while his girlfriend fabricates 7 personalities from thin air including a child and a cat. He humors her bullshit to a concerning level and that gives away some degeneracy in him. Like a feeder or something, it's really creepy
tl;dr love yourself anons
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Recap by:>>267978>6th question to steevie "how have you grown in your journey of self expression since dating pixie" >His journey isn't intertwined with hers but he mentions how living alone has allowed him to express himself more because living at home he did not have freedom to express himself. "So now I'm able to dress the way I wanted to dress in high school and be who I wanted to be. B.A.R.B.I.E" Jill looks like a fat, smug grandma and keeps bobbing her head around all over the place then screetches like a bird>Jill says "BE WHO YOU WANNA BE BARBIE THEM" then they both passively aggressively talk shit about Steevie's family and how "individuals" will say that Steevie is going to get infected by the kawaii>Jill interrupts "INFECTED BY MY FASHION" >He says he has been wearing what he wants for 5 years now and that Jill doesn't control his aesthetic in any way. Jill interrupts again and screams "I TRY… SLASH J. SLASH… SLASH J. SLASH H J" >She screams and giggles and flails a bit while trying to say how she just tries to help and he tries to say in between her outbursts that he "stand up for himself" (the irony is comical at best and just sad at worst)
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Next 3 will be heavily compressed due to length, sorry for the crappy quality.>question 10: What tells does each alter have that gives away to Steevie about who is fronting>Jill answers again and says he can't tell. Steeve scoffs at this. >Jill backtracks and says he can tell when it's Jerr and he can tell when it's Berry. "But the thing about Berry is that when she is out, I'm not as co-con" (wait what? doesn't this go against everything she's ever said about Berry fronting?)>Steeve answers he can tell when it's Jerr because "it's very void of tone". He looks very awkward and uncomfortable. >They talk about how Steeve doesn't want to be the friend that is always asking if Jill is okay. Then they talk about Jill's ex BF and how he would always ask her if she's okay? And about Jill's mum not realising her daughter is switching in and out all the time>They have things set up for if she's non-verbal. >Gibberish for 2 minutes about how she can't talk when she's too blendy and co-con.>(It's still going. fuck me. she never shuts up. I've been here for 3 minutes waiting to type something new)>Jill questions Steeve about "how can you tell when it's Ronnie/How can you tell when it's Cliffy">Steeve moves away from her when she mentions Veronica. He also says Cliffe turns into Velma and suddenly can't see without glasses (So Jill pretends to be blind whenever she is Cliffe?) >Jills talks about Cliffe's personality for another 2 minutes. Steevie says "think Spock". He looks bored (me too buddy)>Jill asks "How can you tell if it's Jax">Steevie gets a pained expression on his face and says he can't tell whenever Jax is out. >Jills says she thinks Jax is very different from her but says that everyone around her tells her otherwise>"In my head she has a very specific accent and voice and I assumed thats what she sounded like when she was out and talking">Jill says she was mortified at the idea of having people hear her talk like Harley Quinn so she kept Jax hidden for so long>Steevie says "it's an interesting one… it's like a combination of a lot of…. traits">Jill talks about Jax being a protector for Jerric and says that Jerric doesn't understand that he can't be monotone when he talks to people and that "Jerr doesn't mask very well" (Jerric has autism apparently. So Jax takes over for Jerric when Jerric is being too autistic)>Steeve looks done. >Jill mentions something along the lines of people think Jill is just pissed off whnever Jerric is fronting. And that people don't understand the way Jerric communicates (i can't stand this anymore)>Jax split off after someone accused Jerric of being rude earlier this year (but didn't she just say she was hiding Jax for a long time? I can't keep anything straight)>She keeps talking about Jax being "devil emoji" evil as opposed to "gun and bomb emoji" evil. "She is like wine glass emoji and car emoji… NOT LIKE DRINKING AND DRIVING BUT UHHH" (insert joke about Jill crashing her car here)>Steeve mentions that she didn't talk about Berry's tells. Jill replies "goo goo ga ga" and does her screetchie laugh>Jill says she isn't goo goo ga ga, but that "berry will do this thing where her hands are like, up here" and she tucks her hands under her chin and rubs them together like an evil villain and burps a lot
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Last one>Question 12. "Whats the funniest interaction Stevie has had with one of the alters">Jill answers and asks if he is thinking what she is thinking because it brings her great shame.>Jill says something about Jax and the ginger incident. Stevie deadpans the camera again>Stevie is in the kitchen cooking happily, tries to tell the story
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Does she flash her underwear in this? Jeez, wash your hair
> States being waitlisted for a "couple months" for evaluation.
> Really big stressful "multi hour, multi worksheet psychological evaluation"
> personally suspected OSDD and PTSD
> "Didn't expect DID diagnosis" Despite reporting it in her diagnostic impression, and referred to her alters with sophisticated detail and terms referring to DID. (youtube did)
> Doesn't state the diagnostic tests administered.
> Wasn't "just stamped with DID", November of 2021 received all of the results back for DID, PTSD and "all of the old diagnosis that were re-instated, borderline, GAD, ED."
> "Having the information that you have DID is live changing, there is no way for it not to be."
> Mentions the journals and how it changes the way she saw her life.
> posted it on her facebook first.
> describes the guilt for "feeling two faced" and that posting it on Facebook helped that guilt.
> "A lot of psychologists heavily suggested me to get tested for autism."
> They ruled out ADHD but suggest autism, apparently they had a DID specialist but not an autism specialist.
> "People took issue with the fact that I got a cake."
> She goes into her personal branding with parties and cake and that it's her brand, so it was fine for her to get a cake.
10 minutes out.
> Begins Defense. "We were extremely overwhelmed with the world and me … know(ing)!"
> "Not celebrating the disorder, the ptsd, I am not glad that I have DID, But going through your life not knowing, … danger, it was dangerous for me not knowing." on and on.
> Relieved it wasn't "schizophrenia."
> Mentions wanting to live with DID efficiently but "Not in a final fusion way."
> Mentions that BPD was not something that described her symptoms, then showing a diagram displaying that BPD can develop into PTSD, then DID.
We're all aware that DID has an age range for developing, right? Anyone else find some research referring to this sudden BPD to DID pipeline? Something tells me it's a trend of malingering. just a hunch.
> "This diagnostic interview was not free" Mentions that in Canada the free healthcare didn't extend to this, and it was thousands of dollars. The autism one is more expensive. "Diagnosis is a privilege"
imagine going through a doctorates for someone to say that
> Mentions the interview and diagnostic process involved going through trauma on scales.
Most of these diagnostic tests have scales to heavily detect malingering, though some more than others.
> Mentions someone might've known, and the journal entries of her saying she had "multiple personalities" but that's also common language for people struggling with BPD.
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Stevie came to give his support.
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She's preparing for getting rid of couple of alters when the need comes. This just shows how she's planning these kinds of moves before hand.
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She's personally policing the comments with Stevie answering within minutes to slight disagreements.
Kek I just hate her so much thanks to this
Did she show a screen cap of her "diagnosis"? Or does she know an impression is bullshit and was smart enough not to show it again
Fuck celebrating something like this people who have a real example of DID suffer
and would not celebrate but Jill wouldn't know that she has perfect DId where everyone is happy and gets along and functions fuck you Jill just fuck you
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I appreciate your input anon, but she posted this bill, she paid for some lenghty test privately
You have a timeline here: >>235144
I can confirm. & also from nb
I was taken away by force by the system at 6. And since then everything has been paid for me. Weekly therapy sessions. EDMR sessions. Meds. Official diagnosis.
I stress just thinking about that amount she's paying. I honestly thought healthcare was completely free here but ig not?
>>268500> "Having the information that you have DID is live changing, there is no way for it not to be.”
It can be live changing for people with autism because they could’ve been stuck thinking they’re only a little different, wondering why they dont fit in.
You don’t just write off a bunch of separate identities, huge memory gaps, becoming a cat, faux seizures; if that was truly your life the diagnosis wouldn't be the changing shit
For the record: she did not bake a cake. No one baked it for her or anything. She herself went straight to Superstore and purchased the cake and SHE HERSELF had the Superstore staff add the writing to it.
Somehow it just makes is so much sadder.
Yeah, this arc of "addressing the haters" is so weird. The only thing she's really doing is proving to anyone sane, that she's sheltered, has 0 concept of money, shame, and how healthcare works especially when it comes to mental health. Jill you paid for all this out of pocket for no reason
, most people who want a diagnosis want it for 3 things: it's debilitating enough that they need some form of help, for work reasons, or attention. Getting an official diagnosis, that is legally recognized, comes with a lot of headaches and sacrfice she doesn't realize because twitter brainrot has her believe it "legitimizes" her larp.
Actually she bought it from the store, filmed a tiktok buying it, bought tube icing and added the congratulations message in herself. Anons did some analysis at the time, and that store doesn't use that kind of icing on their cakes, plus the handwriting matches hers.
Sad either way, but for anons who watch this thread less avidly there's the facts
It's possible that since you were a minor that needed to be removed by the state they gave you the therapy for free. They do that here in the states for kids in the foster care system that were removed due to abuse. >>268593
To be fair reddit and fake claiming call out videos also posted about her.
Genuine fax. The shared experience of trauma with fellow fans or randos should be more relatable than "meet my alters" videos that completely goes against the point of the condition??? How is Jerrick protecting you if everyone "knows" him?????
If she wanted to share her OCs, she could have kept it simple and been like "I have a handful, a boy, a girl, older man, young girl, etc, but you know what? That's not the important part, it is what happened to me & how I am growing from it."
But this is Jill's fanfic and her MarySue-ness is more important than relatability.
nb fag & psyc major. psych evals are usually 10+ hours, over multiple sessions in private practice. the bill from Jill's tweet looks like it's from a private practice, I've never persoanlly seen anything like that in the public system for mental health, not a bill, certainly not one that expensive.
I also believe in a past video somewhere she mentioned her family doctor is still in PEI? Either way in you're in NB you're aware of the medical crsis we are in and it wouldn't be easy for Jill to get a family doctor or referral from one in this province. Paying is the way to go if you want a diagnosis quickly (still months of waiting tho).
Oh that's fucking hilarious>>268551>if I’ve ever been mean to you, manipulated you, lied to you, or pretended not to remember mean things I’ve said to you, then it’s not my fault.
This is literally all she wants to fill her diagnosis-dex for, she wants to be able to do whatever she wants at the expense of others and be shielded from any criticism forever.
>>268500>Relieved it wasn't "schizophrenia."
Wow. Way to go being a mental health advocate, buttercup! Fuck her so much. Is schizophrenia too scawy for her? Not cute enough? Too stigmatized? Can't play with shitty person cosplays and flounce around with zero accountability and blame on herself?
I may be a schizo, but at least I am not Jillian. Thank god.
Some sufferers do legit want a specific disorder
and will be upset if they don't get it and that's normally a symptom of something in its own right like in this case Jill's BPD
She was trying to match the symptoms she'd read for DID and was hoping the practitioner wouldn't think it's one of the many other things her fake symptoms could match up to
What boggles my mind is that even if DID is real, it is also heavily stigmatized and life-ruining. Possibly more difficult to manage than schizophrenia as well, because there is no apparent cure for it. At least psychosis you can numb down with meds, what the fuck do you do when you're a different person suddenly? It seems so much scarier to me (if it's real) than my own diagnosis. But of course Jill would want something like that.
Glad she found a trendy area to put on her grift. Glad she can now larp her ocs and never have consequences for any of her actions.
Besides, having schizophrenia would have meant she'd need to give up her precious weed and she can't do that
If I sound bitter, it's because I am. I don't think I ever hated her more than for that one little comment.
Go buy yourself another cake to stuff down your gullet, you absolute disgrace of an advocate.
She’s happy because
there’s no conventional treatment or medication for it. Who wants to run the risk of being put in some facility or being prescribed antipsychotics just for some social media trendhopping? Schizophrenia is real and devastating. DID as she “experiences” it isn’t. Getting a fake diagnosis of a fake disorder by a bunch of quacks who don’t care about the patient beyond seeing that their check clears was by far the safest option. She was dropping schizophrenia breadcrumbs before settling on DID (“auditory hallucinations”) so I’m sure she did some rudimentary research on it, saw the potential ramifications of a diagnosis and noped the hell out of there.>>268738
I doubt this is relevant, but in Shining Nikki (dress-up mobile game suitable also for adults, it has adult themes), there is one designer named Jax who is apparently sharing a brain (in a DID way) with another designer, Yuka. Jax is punky, tough, and likes metal, garage band stuff, while Yuka is soft and shy, preferring cute clothes and lighter colors.
I personally thought she and Yuka were girlfriends/soulmates, but a little digging suggests that isn't canon. Since I found out, I can't stop wondering if Jill stole the name from this fictional character. It's spelled exactly the same, and Shining Nikki is a pretty popular mobile game for people interested in fashion or just kawaii stuff. The plot is rather crazy, I think the writing is actually good & at times sophisticated.(derailing)
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this is Jax cuddling Yuka.
idk I like them better as wlw girlfriends, so I just ignore the DID suggestions
I mean, could be that she's heard of this while browsing stuff to watch on Youtube about DID, but I think she'd mention the game, if she was a fan of it.
What she's shown us as depitctions of Jax, she's more like copy of Jinx from League of Legends-universe.
Oh yeah I remember reading "Jax" and thinking of the character.
Conveniently Yuka (did she change it to a western name to avoid the cultural appropriation shit, or because it'd have been too obvious?) is all shy and wears soft/cosy pastely stuff too.
(I too like them better as girlfriends kek nonna)
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Apparently Veronica and Jill "talked" about onlyfans
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This is the video that it autoplayed to after that one: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eoZ4lA_nG44
I feel like this is a really interesting one to listen to after that. I also feel like all of my theories about Jill's relationship with her mom can be fully seen here. SO fucking interesting. DID and PTSD my mother fucking goddamn ass, Jill, you fucking psycho.
Back to this video (because it autoplayer there): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hA7Ds0T8MDw
At 4 minutes in, in the words of DISSOCIADID herself, in Jill's own video: "if repeated trauma happens before the ages of 7 to 9, and there is not a very healthy attachment to the primary care-giver
, amnesic walls can go up between these parts…"
Fucking WHERE Jill? F A K E R.
Jillian Vessey is a DID FAKER.
If having memories her brought up by weed has somehow convinced her she has other people living in her head that take over causing her to essentially black out but still walk around and interact in ways that don't fit who she thinks she is
then she should probably go back to that schizophrenia diagnosis
She doesn't think she has did. If she did, she would have to be also fucking brain dead because this isn't a disorder you can mistake having. DID doesn't come out of nowhere and it always has negative connotations. She's a liar. Don't cope for her.
I doubt it, and it's purely by virtue of >>268500
via this bit:> She goes into her personal branding with parties and cake and that it's her brand, so it was fine for her to get a cake.
I avoided this yesterday, but it's the excuse of justifying it as being her "brand" that makes it even more ridiculous. Sure, she's glad to have a name for the mental illness you're dealing with, that's great! But imagine someone legitimately suffering with the experience of having DID or bipolar OR schizophrenia getting the full diagnosis and someone else goes "I brought you a cake! Happy Diagnosis Day!". Everyone knows a colorfully decorated cake implies celebration, which Jill acknowledges via her "brand", but refuses to accept that there's dissonance between her intent and what the public immediately sees. I could see >>268501
as her acknowledging in a way that not everyone would view her cake with the same intent as she did, but considering that >>268506
shows her and Stevie actively disregarding someone's honest disagreement with eyeball emotes… she doesn't mind being an ass about it.
On the topic of DID, I searched DID symptoms yesterday because I was interested in the similarities with how celebrities have different personas at different times (aside from Hollywood and the ones who probably have
DID due to actual repeated CPTSD) anyway this was an interesting article.https://www.cambridge.org/core/journals/the-british-journal-of-psychiatry/article/dissociative-identity-disorder-out-of-the-shadows-at-last/8E2884FA8669A9A64790E5C47AD72DC7
In short, there are two theories about DID. One that it's basically a munchie thing made up by fantasists, and secondly that it's real and of course as a result of very severe childhood trauma and or sexual abuse. Every article about DID mentions that as the cause, and the article posits that DID may be present in 1.5% of the UK population at some point in their lives, and therefore should be a more commonly recognised mental disorder. It emphasises heavily the link between childhood trauma and DID throughout the article.
It also makes the point that people who have DID usually have a differently formed brain due to their CPTSD. So it can actually be proved
as real by a brain scan since all DID patients have this differently formed brain.>Jilly gets a brain scan>It's perfect(medfagging)
Don't get this thread started on if DID is real because it's ridiculously easy to argue that it ISNT real based entirely on the fabrication of these alters and if these alters are actually genuinely different "people" or just personality disassociating etc etc etc
Don't fall down the rabbit hole because it's endless and this thread gets derailed easily
Jill is faking and we don't need a brain scan to know that. The diagnostic impression is damning enough kek
I'm actually inclined to believe it is
real but is not displayed in the way online attentionseekers do it, which is just LARPing their ocs. It's a matter of compartmentalising your feelings and memories, and is usually concealed by the person as this article states, I was thinking about personas and how people might view past experiences differently based on which mood/persona they are adopting at that moment. So you might get two or three very different versions of the same event due to how people compartmentalise memories and feelings. And of course this type of compartmentalising is going to be very common in people with a complex trauma history.
But in summary: childhood trauma can actually be proven with a brain scan, not that we need one to know Jill is full of shit.
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tinfoil but, is our little bird finally leaving the nest? he looks like he's growing some very characteristically male mosquito bites from taking estrogen. steeby "science is heckin awesome" boobs saga when?>>268370
you called it nona>>268395
steven absolutely has those vibes. every man who enables batshit behavior from a woman is doing it to fulfill a fetish. no matter how "fem" steven presents, he will always be a limpdicked coomer obsessed with controlling women or having the illusion of it. this reminds me of a pseudo-incel i knew that did ageplay and BDSM shit with his super emaciated girlfriend publicly in high school. poorly trying to be "dominant" and "attentive" to her needs, way too much PDA, calling her princess (barf), constantly giving her drugs. she was very obviously unwell and high 24/7. also, she carried around a ratty stuffed animal, daily, to every single class. he was a dealer and i bought weed from her for a year until i moved away. kek
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Here I'll have the addressing criticism clips soon
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First clip and using recaps from >>268500
so you all know what's on the clip.> States being waitlisted for a "couple months" for evaluation.> Really big stressful "multi hour, multi worksheet psychological evaluation"> personally suspected OSDD and PTSD> "Didn't expect DID diagnosis" Despite reporting it in her diagnostic impression, and referred to her alters with sophisticated detail and terms referring to DID. (youtube did)> Doesn't state the diagnostic tests administered.> Wasn't "just stamped with DID", November of 2021 received all of the results back for DID, PTSD and "all of the old diagnosis that were re-instated, borderline, GAD, ED."> "Having the information that you have DID is live changing, there is no way for it not to be."> Mentions the journals and how it changes the way she saw her life.
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>>268959> Begins Defense. "We were extremely overwhelmed with the world and me … know(ing)!" > "Not celebrating the disorder, the ptsd, I am not glad that I have DID, But going through your life not knowing, … danger, it was dangerous for me not knowing." on and on.> Relieved it wasn't "schizophrenia."> Mentions wanting to live with DID efficiently but "Not in a final fusion way."> Mentions that BPD was not something that described her symptoms, then showing a diagram displaying that BPD can develop into PTSD, then DID.
I'll have the last clip out in a little bit. Just taking a short break.
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Guys, have I fully lost it or is she saying YUP total shock and then NOPE not a shock at all totes knew put myself on the wait-list? It wouldn't surprise me if losing my mind is my punishment for trying to sit through a video of hers again… might have missed it being talked about, but I really got thrown for a loop here
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There's one more after this one, miscalculated.> Mentions the interview and diagnostic process involved going through trauma on scales. > Mentions someone might've known, and the journal entries of her saying she had "multiple personalities" but that's also common language for people struggling with BPD.
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Final clip>She's commonly criticized for and it's been a point that has been used against her in many ways saying she's romanticizing, glamourizing, and celebrating having a really severe form of PTSD>She feels like being in her 20s is it's like she's a baby adult, she's been an adult for like 5 years and feels like a 5-year-old adult>Just trying to learn to communicate and work through life and make content and be accepted and be allowed to exist
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Hearing voices is way more schizophrenia than how people report DID. Auditory hallucinations aren't actually in the criteria and are a strong sign of other dangerous disorders.
What pisses me off the most is picrel. This is how DID affects people. It's not a fun and quirky room, you're not buddies with all your alters. It's distressing and terrible and autonomy robbing.
She would have had these things happen to her. I've been rereading threads and not ONCE does she ever even slightly mention someone being unfamiliar or these disassociations. Two whole weeks in Tokyo, a foreign and stressful environment, and nothing? Fucking liar.
The whole thing about different alters being these seperate characters with each possessing a consistent sense of self is such bullshit. It's literally only present in the stories of these fakers. Sibyl being the starting point of this fad and it now continuing through social media.
The scientific material on this disease talks about individuals shattered personality, that the patient is unable to encompass fully and as such may feel weirded out by some parts of their own thoughts and feelings.
It's not about different people living inside your head. It's just you and your thoughts and your inability to recognize them as your own.
Reminder that she only showed the diagnostic impression
. And even then, doctors would avoid diagnosing a young person with DID after so little time- what if it impacts their drivers license or job? Schizophrenia is a different story since it needs to be treated asap and is better researched.
Nta but adding that Jillian purposefully
only showed the section of the diagnostic impression with what she reported
and censored out the actual findings. I honestly find it amusing she thinks that no one has ever seen a diagnostic impression or even written one. Fyi Jillian, I don't care about the actual findings, just find it hilarious you cherry pick health information to show to the world yet screech you don't have to prove anything. >>268999
Fucking cake. Why am I slightly disappointed she didn't bake it or have an alter bake it?
>>269011>I just can't wait to see the level of cringe Stevie feels inside once he finally escapes this bullshit.
The man is trooning out, he posted a tiktok duet about troon voice changing and may even have tiddies already >>268928
So like… out of the frying pan into the fire for this man. The troon cult is far more depraved and insidious than the mento health munchie crowd Jillian is part of.
No doubt if her DID were real, Cliffe and Jerrick would either try to kill themselves or constantly flipping their shit inadvertantly harming Jill in the process. You cannot tell me a male especially a teenage boy would just be comfortable suddenly finding themselves inside an adult female's body. Steve himself would look a lot more distressed and tired if he had to deal with Jill constantly blacking out and shifting into actual different people while working 12+ hours, this whole saga would be a lot darker than she realizes if it were real
instead of the depressing larp it is.
Sage for blog (my apologies nonnies plz don't ban me) but I can understand that an official diagnosis can be life changing. I'm a CPTSD-chan, and my diagnosis brought me a lot of clarity and it was comforting to know I wasn't losing my mind completely at the time. But it was NOT something I would ever celebrate with a cake, for fucks sake. It was either get help, or die.
I find it so disturbing and so blatantly FAKE that Jill can celebrate this debilitating disorder in any way. DID takes severe, repeated abuse over time to develop. She has TikTok DID, cosplaying her OC's and manipulating her mostly child audience. She is vile through and through.
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I used to be an anon that though Jill would do well in graphic design and i want to formally retract my statement.
We all know Jill has shit taste in clothes and a complete lack of understanding when it comes to coordinating something that isn't an eyesore, but I also know that there are plenty of people that share her views on rainbow vomit. I can see people buying some of the items she's made here and potentially rake in some income but she smokes like a chimney and thus lacks any and all motivation, hard work, and discipline.
Keep fucking it up Jill.
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Damn does she still lurk? Cause we've been going off on her supporting will wood after that controversy lol
Also fuck that rupaul unpopular opinion the show is shit as is "cis" women are smart enough not to apply because they know the whole show exists to mock female bodies and femininity fuck off jill
Who deemed him not the bad guy and where? Was it himself, the predatory man? I feel bad for Steve she said she shuffles his music every night. It’s like Guantanamo bay only you don’t get to listen to Metallica you have to bear this shit kek. >>269204
Only Afab person? There was literally a trans dude in it. Does she actually watch this show or is it just another thing she lies about being interested in for some bizzare reason.
S O A P - C H A N
Prepared to drop him my ass. She was bending over backwards in Twitter to come up with a reason over why he couldn’t possibly be as bad as the ‘victim
’ claimed. I read the accusations and they were garbage, but for someone who is in the performative woke Twitter-sphere like Jill it should’ve been enough that there was any accusation. If it was someone she wasn’t a stan off she’d have used it to demonize them. Fucking hypocrite.
There weren’t women on drag race because it was always a gay male space originally before the fag hags invaded and decided to commodify drag. Strangely enough a cis woman competing in a female illusion competition might just have an unfair advantage
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Why is she trying to pick a fight with this person? Victoria is
a cis woman, she’s not non-binary. Besides, Jill has repeatedly referred to her friends as “AFAB non-binary,” so she’s kinda throwing stones in glass houses with that tweet
FRUiTS would never
for real though nonnies, my eyes hurt. brb fabricating blind alter
She's only concerned about the persona and not the person underneath. I had to look it up (I'm not a RPDR watcher, don't bite me) and apparently this Victoria has in-drag they/them pronouns along with she/her, while outside
of drag it's only she/her.
It’s offensive for a woman to dress up as a misogynistic caricature of a woman because when she takes off the costume she’s… still a woman?>>269330
All her local drag friends and organisers of the events she’s performed at are women. It would be hilarious if she pissed off the local male drag queens but I think it’s more likely she spends too much time in online drag spaces and keeps running into misogyny there. Her audience is practically 100% female too so maybe they secretly see she has a point, even if they have to twist themselves into pretzels to talk about it. I’m surprised Steve is putting up with this heretical denial of “afab privilege”.
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i know that's hypocritical of me to say this, as i spend too much time online myself, but does she even do anything on the internet other than read tweets all day? god what a nightmare>>269460
i wouldn't raise my hopes up if i were you, nonna
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almost like gasp
she doesn't have it and is faking the whole thing and didn't even do any research?
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She doesn't even like Sanrio!
It annoys me that she has a lot of nice individual pieces but has no idea how to style any of them
I know jfashion is often ott but there has to be some kind of cohesion, she looks like she rolled around the floor of a Claires covered in glue
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Influencer? Who are you influencing? With your tiny little plastic home stuff sponsor?
Also you can stop this any time Jill, just get a 9-5 job, nobody is forcing you to be a low profit youtuber.
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Can a nonnie
who knows how to crochet well give a breakdown for those of us with no knowledge of it? Was her advice good or correct?
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God its as awful as you can imagine..
It takes ages to get to each step, halfway in and shes finally starting the second row
70% just her talking about irrelevant things and herself (gonna need recap anon for that, too much bs for me)
Shows how to do a slip-stitch, the chain, single crochet & a double crochet before unraveling it all
She made a circle too but it was just quickly glossed over
she really liked the twin stars fit
she looks so fucking deranged in this
I had to watch it on 1.5 speed, but she made two major mistakes: first at 10:02 by telling people to do an extra chain stitch IN THE BASE CHAIN for turning before they start their first single crochet stitch, and then at 13:06 she basically made it seem like turning chains were optional (“for double crochet I’ll often add two… I think it creates a little bit of a nicer square edge over here.”). If you’re free handing something, then yeah that’s fine to add a turning chain in the base chain, but that’s gonna screw you over big time if you’re working from a pattern. The turning chain is already going to be built into the number of chains the pattern requires, so if people read a pattern that says “chain 15, single crochet in second chain from hook” and they add an extra chain like Jill says to, it’s gonna throw off the number of stitches per row.
Besides those two glaring mistakes, the rest of the tutorial was mediocre at best. She didn’t show how to increase or decrease, nor did she show an actual pattern (most patterns don’t use those symbols she posted). She explained every stitch by saying “yarn over, pull through” which wasn’t very helpful. If I were a complete beginner, I’d have to rewatch the double crochet part multiple times to see what loops she was pulling through since she didn’t tell the audience to yarn over and pull through just the first two loops before yarning over again to pull through the last two loops.
Also the Magic Circle superiority bothered me. Crocheting in the round without using the Magic Circle technique isn’t incorrect like she made it out to be. Depending on what you’re making, NOT using a Magic Circle could be a better choice since the Magic Circle technique leaves a visible seam.
I’d give the tutorial a 5 out of 10.
Very much comes across as a beginner not fully understanding what she's talking about.
One thing that stood out to me is that she said she feels her background gives her some knowledge on different yarns, but then lists some pretty basic information as if it's special (what will melt, what will pill).
She also starts out the video saying you basically only need single and double crochet to do most things (not a crocheter, so not sure if that is accurate) but then in the middle of the video introduced a third stitch, and showed how to do it, which seemed odd and unplanned.
I don't hate the idea of Jill doing something like this (I actually feel her cutesie language, and style pairs well with something like this), but like most things she does it's sloppy, and half-assed. She could have looked up the names for things like turning chain beforehand, instead she edits it in via text after, which again comes across as low effort.
Short, concise, videos with big yarn/hooks to clearly see everything is popular for a reason. You tend to watch these videos over and over again as you're practicing. A longer video means more difficult to get back to the section you wanted to rewatch.
If any anons are looking for good tutorial videos, check out bella coco instead.
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Nonna, the magic circle doesn't leave a seam as long as you work in the round instead of ch1 slst to join rows. It's the same for the other methods, the main difference between them is how tight you can make the hole at the top. The method she shows is not the best way to do magic circle imo, it's easier but you can't make the hole super small if you're working tight like for amigurumi (her tension is super loose).
Overall, the video shows she's not really that knowledgeable about crochet and it would be pretty useless for a beginner since she doesn't show how to follow a pattern or where to find good patterns. She doesn't even demonstrate a small project a beginner could do (a flower coaster would have made sense). She says she's not really good at teaching, so then, why make a tutorial?
I don't think the extra chain was an error, because she's not working from a pattern, but she doesn't mention this like anon said and also importantly she doesn't mention which stitch to work into after the turning chain. She's leaving things out that she thinks are obvious, but that aren't obvious to a 'total beginner'. She talks about liquid-stitch but she doesn't show the product or demonstrate how to use it.
The explanation she gives for blocking makes me think that she doesn't check her gauge before making garments. Basically you need to wash a swatch of your yarn/pattern so that you can make sure it will fit accurately. Because yarn relaxes in the wash so the fit will be different after washing (or does she not wash her clothes…). She doesn't mention this at all, she only says it's to make pieces (like coasters) lay flat.
She talks about a lot of projects she's made, but she doesn't show most of them. And why the fuck does she pronounce gyaru like "djeearu"?? At 25:43.
She does mention DID at 14:55, she says frogging (unravelling) is useful for when parts take over to try to help and their tension is all wrong. Hopefully clip-anon can post this part (and the "djeearu" kek).
Hm all the patterns I’ve followed that used Magic Circle had the slip stitch seam, so I just assumed that was standard. Good to know.
I still stand by my statement that Jill was wrong to say Magic Circle was the “correct” method, though. I know Magic Circle vs Slip Knot is one of the great crochet debates, and if she only wants to show Magic Circle because that’s what works for her, that’s fine. But for Jill to say the Magic Circle the correct way to crochet in the round is just a straight up lie. There is no correct way, it’s personal preference (I know a lot of amigurumi artists who hate the Magic Circle). I know this might seem stupid to non-crocheters, but she’s spreading misinformation while trying to act as an authority figure to teach others, and that should be highlighted
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She’s so obsessed with herself. And not in a self empowering way, in a totally lacking in awareness narcissist brat way.
Agreed, and the DID has increased the self obsession tenfold. She treats the alters as different people, but even if we play devil’s advocate and say her DID is
legit, all the alters are still just different parts of Jill. Obsession over Jerrick is still self obsession. Pre-DID she was self obsessed to a somewhat unhealthy level, but now it’s completely spiraled and is starting to move into worrisome territory. I know she won’t, but she really needs to seek help
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kek anon, idk how you saw it like that but now I can't unsee it>>270216
I forgot to say this in my post but tension really only gets messed up if you're e.g. particularly anxious (it gets tighter), or even more likely in this case if you're drunk/high, one could wake up the next day and notice how fucked up last night's crochet was. Or she could be using the wrong hook size partway through (if you're lazy and don't keep note of what you used, that can happen) and ofc it's play-pretend that it was the alters all along. Her video was incredibly lazy, just talking about things and not showing them (she couldn't even be bothered to do picture inserts for 99% of what she talked about), it was really bad.
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here's an early video of the same altar. If you told me this was someone explaining their DND lore I would believe you
I heard self aware and professionally diagnosed narcissists say therapy does not cure their narcissism simply because therapists are not supposed to tell you you're wrong. They can help rationalize situations for you, but in therapy, you are essentially a victim
of your mental illness. Telling your narcissistic abuser to go to therapy can sometimes make narcissistic abuse worse, because they'll use their therapist's words on the persons they are abusing.
Any time the negative symptoms of her BPD appear she calls it Jerrick fronting or co-fronting, she has even confirmed this herself saying that Jill has basically no BPD downsides and Jerrick has them. So when she experiences BPD splitting and decides she hates Steebie or acts like a piece of shit to him she now says it’s just because her alter ego hates him.
No wonder Steve is so obviously unhappy (besides his poorly concealed interest in being her DDLG caregiver as seen by him saying he avoids Berry, then later in the same video starts sweet talking and coddling Jill when she begins acting like a small child). Imagine having such an extreme BPD trainwreck girlfriend who goes from telling you to get off her because she hates you, then starts giggling and baby talking like it didn’t happen and pretending she’s 5 and should immediately be forgiven and spoiled like a baby, then proclaims she’s a sexy drag queen, then says she hates you again, all on the same day.
I don't think that's the main issue. There are plenty of cases where therapists can point out flawed thinking, irrational behavior, and even damaging behavior in the person.
For example, there is therapy that can be done for borderline personality disorder (also a cluster B, like narcissistic personality disorder) that centers around correcting thought patterns and reducing self destructive and problematic
behavior, as well as increasing empathy and understanding other people's experiences (instead of creating your own internal - often incorrect - reality).
The issue with narcissism (and really any issue people face) is that in order to change you have to understand your behavior is harmful (either to yourself or others or just your goals generally), be willing to change, want to change, and put the actual effort in.
Borderline personality can be managed, and symptoms lessened, but it takes a level of self awareness and effort plus a lot of time.
Narcissists just aren't interested in this, and are so wrapped up in themselves and their own ego it would utterly destroy everything they've built to even admit that they might need to change.
They are far more likely to blame absolutely everyone around them, rather than consider for a single second that they're the actual issue. There are a couple of cases of narcissists who actually wanted to change and were able to get therapy to do so but it's so rare it's not even worth considering a possibility because in 99.99% of narcissists it will never happen.
And, if they're a malignant narcissist then therapy may just arm them with terminology to invalidate and gaslight their victims
. Successful therapy is the result of the patient coming forward with knowledge that something is wrong and needs to change - try forcing anyone into therapy and see how successful it is.
Therapists can help guide you and point out where you might be off base or may benefit from thinking of things in a different way (even if they don't necessarily tell you you're 'wrong'), but it's a two party exercise. When one is unwilling to change, it won't do anything and may just make them worse if they have malicious intent.
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Jill retweeting this from the townhouse her mom pays for is hilarious
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Lol, I love how people are tired of her bs
Why is she being all snarky and taking this personally? Idk what show or game op was talking about, but it clearly had nothing to do with Jill in the slightest. Just because Jill likes monochrome that doesn’t mean every critique of a monochrome color palette is an attack on her. And the other posters are right, making everything and everyone in hell red is
visually straining and it does
show a lack of creativity
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Meanwhile I've got my dog treat advent calendar from Costco die jealous Jill
Fr tho how much money does she waste literally every day it's insane
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Why did instagram explore jumpscare me with Steve's mug and why is he on a "crypto groyper" page
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Full on troon face tbh, barf major. It’s really only a matter of time.
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moving away from your super supportive, loving and understanding family at your own pace is totally awful. wouldn't wish it on anyone, really /s
it could be genuinely upsetting to move away from your mom if she's your best friend bu calling it a genuinely traumatic experience, as in big T Trauma instead of little t trauma, is a big fucking slap in the face for people who have it way worse off.
I've been feeling the same way anon. Too many times I see blatantly wrong shit here and anons just running with it. Jillian is embarrassing enough on her own kek we don't need to create soy milk. The reading comprehension ITT is so unbearably low. I also notice certain summary anons adding in stuff she didn't actually say and its getting annoying. That's why it's so important to write up direct quotes from her. She can't whine about us making fanfiction if the retarded shit is word for word from her kek we don't need to give her any excuses to discredit us.>>270481
She would have a hard time handling her family fawning over a baby and wouldn't be able to accept no longer being the "baby of the family". She'd cry trauma and abandonment issues; she'd have a whole fucking tantrum over it.>>270578
I hate middle class kids and their need to be a victim
when they can't even take care of themselves. All over tiktok and before, on tumblr. Real traumatized and/or impoverished kids are forced to be grown up very young, some of us even had to take care of our parents as a child. Fuck Jill and her rich, coddled upbringing.
>>270591>She would have a hard time handling her family fawning over a baby and wouldn't be able to accept no longer being the "baby of the family". She'd cry trauma and abandonment issues; she'd have a whole fucking tantrum over it.
I honestly feel like her even bringing that up is the start of a tantrum over it. I know this is hardcore tinfoil and I realize that she has stated the opposite, but I really do think that deep inside, Jill probably does want to be a mother, considering that family is the one thing that actually seems to matter to her. I believe she says the opposite because I am imagine Stevie has said "no kids" and it wouldn't be possible with him anyway, so she doesn't allow herself to dream of it. But, I dunno. I think the fact that she has even brought up her brother wanting kids, and the post the other day about "gen z women not having kids" is kinda telling.
Again, hardcore tinfoil but the next few years will be interesting to observe.
By “he formed when we moved out on our own” she means… she sometimes had to act like an adult and do standard adult shit like make phone calls and go grocery shopping kek. Wow what unique DID trauma splitting alter fronting that almost no one else on earth goes through or understands. My god she is totally full of herself and has zero empathy for other people whatsoever. Literally every human being on earth has things like a worksona or the cringey millennial idea of “adulting” or whatever, all words for how everyone has to fucking suck it up and go through the motions of independent adult life and coping with boring and tedious tasks.
Her problems are just narcissism, being sheltered and spoiled and overemotional. In typical BPD form she’s dramatizing completely normal human experiences like being multifaceted, having phases, and having to put on radically different sides of yourself to deal with life.
God it's just too fucking much. You can summarize this whole video with, "lookit me, lookit how adorable I am! I am just so fucking adorable! Can you believe? I'm just SO ADORABLE."
That's it. That's the video.
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Glasses over nose
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I did the same shit I was one of those lucky weirdos that got As without trying I don't wanna say Jill is the same level but I have and also know tons of other people (particularly during uni) who literally ignored certain projects they didn't want to fuck with solely cause their grades could afford the hit
Even community college would be a lot more difficult than the arts and crafts bs she did, weve all seen the work she did (or lack there off) and how much better the rest of her class was
It’s the equivalent of bragging about cooking an egg but jill ofc sees it as some scholarly achievement
>>270748>She can’t even be bothered for her supposed dream job and life, she puts no effort into any part of her life.
That's the thing though, does she even need to put effort into her life? With the enablers she's surrounded with she probably has it all in her mind. I mean, she's got: 1: her dream house (even if paid for by mom and dad), 2: a live-in boyfriend (regardless of if he's staying by choice or not), and 3: her career as an influencer/"fashion designer" (even if she can barely make anything and her fans are dwindling).
Somewhere deep down though, she's probably self aware enough to see it's all fake, and that's where the seething comes from.
In a previous thread (27) there was a post from her mom saying Jill was going to pay for it by herself. And an anon said they looked up the listing and it was just under 1k a month at the time. (a reminder, while she keeps calling it a town house, its basically an apartment on the cheap side of town, she shares at least one wall with a neighbour)
The rent has probably gone up a bit, and her patron has dropped from $1700 to $600 (not including youtube/sponsorships), but it's technically still possible to afford it if she split with Steevie who probably has a full time job. She doesn't buy as much expensive plastic/clothes as she used to.
, please. Her Patreon money is not enough to split rent and pay for daily weed and booze consumption on top of basics like utilities, food, streaming services, etc. Like maaaybe that could be possible for a responsible person on a strict budget, but we're talking about Jill here.
Even if she isn't posting huge plastic hauls, she always ends up exposing her spending habits usually through some offhand tweet. If she has knowledge of, for example, the bougie ass dollhouse her mom bought her last year, she's obviously shopping for pricey crap online on a regular basis.
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Can't wait for the altar Jill forms from the trauma of people refusing to call her pixie
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I'm amazed that Jill hasn't just fully self diagnosed herself with autism.
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Alright, sorry this is a mess. Looks like this whole argument transpired over Jill's friend getting her twitter account penalized >>270873
and her friend calling Jill Jill/Jillian and Jill getting angry over being called Jill/Jillian.
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Why the fuck would you tweet about what you assume is a recent suicide? Why would you think out loud that its a suicide at all? God, she is so gross. Jill, get a fucking diary.
And that "I'm sorry you had to witness that", all she witnessed were police cars, surprising that didn't trigger
her totally real car crash PTSD.
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>>270856>You hurt me by calling me Jill instead of Pixie
I'm absolutely begging this girl to pull her head out of her own ass, get a personality that is not self-victimisation, and learn some empathy for others.
Classic troon move of sending rapey threats, on a post about remembering women who were victims
She expects people to buy gifts for her made up personas, oh my god she is so entitled and spoiled.
Steve be like "I bought a double mastectomy for Jerrick so he can be his true self, and a suitcase for Cliffe where he can carry his adult bills and receipts. Cat food for Sandwich of course, it's minced up dead mice, enjoy babe. And here's a pacifier for Berry so I can watch her suc- I mean so she can self-sooth while playing with crayons"
Jill's major trauma this week:
>not being called pixie
>seeing police searching for someone who might have committed suicide
How does she ever survive such a painful existence?
>>271046>Considering her latest sperg out with why do people always call us Jill when they argue with us, I'm going to guess she's pissed at her parents
I'm sure her family, having watched her literally since birth know the DID larp is 100% bullshit. Part of her Tweet rant mentioned only calling her Jill if you "know" it's Jill and not OC #17 so it does imply she's possibly angry her family see through her shit and know it's all
Gtfo with the suspected tism jill, this is the most obvious bpd sperg it baffels me she’s still trying to pretend she doesnt have any bad bpd traits
Can’t even accept how bitchy she’s being, it wasn't her intention after all the other person just got mad over jill saying lol. Her entire apology is deflection and “it wasnt my fault”
Poor Jill, not getting enough attention. She really thought she’d done something with this DID shit but maybe she’s realizing that other people aren’t willing to play pretend with her.
Is anyone else getting narc rage vibes? she angry people won’t do what she wants so tries to frame it with the troon argument of “deadnaming” without calling it that because as we all know deadnaming troons causes them to spontaneously combust and anyone that does such a thing should be publicly flogged. Maybe she thinks “deadnaming“ her should have been met with more defense and reverence.
Then she sees emergency services on a bridge searching for what looks like a jumper, was it the same bridge she said she was contemplating committing suicide from? Was it a little teehee attempt to remind those close to her that it could’ve been her and they need to do more to protect her fragile identity?
>>270848>blames being a self-centered dickhead on undiagnosed autism instead of her already diagnosed cluster B personality disorder, BPD, which is an official way of saying she has such a disastrously terrible personality and is so moody, full of herself, and quick to point fingers and perceive others’ actions as attacks and then retaliate destructively to those imaginary attacks, that she needs to be medically sedated to keep her in line
Her coming up with autism as a new additional way to make herself look like a perpetual victim
and absolve herself of responsibility or any negative personality traits or blame is also BPD behavior.
Autists would be more likely to take statements at face value and accept the basic logic presented in them, instead of trying to read secret emotions between the lines like she is doing and blaming on autism for no good reason.
I think you're reaching way too much. The original account is the premier of the province they're in, so a very public figure/account that he either follows, or the post was recommended to him (they live in the same city). Steve is just attempting to troll the triggered
anti-troon guy (honestly, one of his better jokes).
>>271082>was it the same bridge she said she was contemplating committing suicide from? Was it a little teehee attempt to remind those close to her that it could’ve been her and they need to do more to protect her fragile identity?
I was thinking about that too. Her posting that is actually triggering
content. That's why the news doesn't talk about completed suicides because there's an uptick when they do. Jill probably posted that as a way to make her family feel bad but all it does it makes her audience worry.>>271099
Funny how she also doesn't have the negative autism traits, she only has the "cute" ones that make her quirky.
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Currently she's doubling down hard on the DID larp
>>270880>Instead of factual
As in her >suspected tism
she only every responds to anything extremely emotionally and defensive. Which is what got her in this situation and she knows she fucked up so it's at the other emotionally manipulative end of love bombing
"uwu ur my only friend pls don't hate me after I hurt you. Don't forget I only did it because you hurt me in the first place I'm the real victim
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Someone tried to let Jill know that posting about a potential suicide was a shitty thing to do.
God I fuckin hate this fat bitch and I'm praying for the day she pisses off someone IRL with her DiD larp and gets the clown makeup smacked off her smug face.
I'll take my a-log ban but Christ on a cracker girl, read the fucking room. If my loved one killed themselves and I went on Twitter and saw jellybean tweeting about how ~traumatized~ she
is, I'd lose it. She's such a narcissist little shit, I'm glad her downfall is going to be slow and painful.
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They've 'tried this same reach before' but she still hasn't learned from it. She is so reactive that she can't step back from any critique and judge its worth independently. If you see a random suicide it's not really your place to be 'grieving,' that term isn't really applicable to a random nobody that you know nothing about (in fact she was the only one who mentioned a suicide, for all we know it could have been a drowning rescue-case but then she couldn't get the sad trauma points for something like that). She dramatizes everything in her life, even experiences that aren't her's.
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Video is 01:01 long.
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More tweets stemming off the journaling tweet.
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Steve replying to a tweet from Vangelina.
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My retardedly optimistic tinfoil is that Vangelina and Steebanie talk shit about Jill together. Wishful thinking, I'm sure.
Very disappointed that Vangelina didn't make that video, anyway.
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Decided to look at how her videos are faring. She needs to add drama into her lousy DID larp if she wants views. Not very exciting that all of her
OCs alters get along and protect each other. Jill waited way too long to release the meet the alter videos. She's so bad at doing her supposed job/s. Can't produce videos consistently and isn't trying to book drag shows to promote herself even if the shows are just sign up events. Her grandiose view of herself is what's holding her back. You got to start somewhere and at the bottom before you get to the top. She's delusional. The recent tweets of her whinging over calling her Jill not Pixie is middle school tier embarrassing. I also have a feeling Cliffe is going to talk about the haters in some way. Wonder how she'll top the Flora video in terms of throwing her parents under the bus.
It's funny how she's always trying to put the blame on Jerrick when she wants to be mean in public. "Wasn't me, it was my evil second personality!!!"
But ok then, let's tinfoil and say this isn't Jill at all and she is all sweet and bubbly all the time and would never lash out like this. Why would she then not freak out when she sees Jerrick acted like a cunt to her followers and valid
criticism? At the very least it's damaging HER, not Jerrick's, brand. Why doesn't she apologise to people? Or at lest get her adult persona Cliffe to do it for her?
Kek I had forgotten about the totes real stalker, seems this stalker is just as lazy as Jilly bean funny that.>>271288
It’s also funny because she was slagging media that depicts DID that way so hard and now is doing exactly the same thing. Are evil alters not a thing and those shows are bad Jilly or is Jerrick the uwu tortured villain Hyde to your Jekyll, can’t have it both ways.
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Jill what happened? I thought we cover those eco/environmentally friendly plastic, party decor. Did not one of your cats almost die because of them, and you cover them for that reason. I guess aesthetics won over the life of one of your many accessories.
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Only Jill would put a kitschy plastic door-bead-thing on a flat wall and call it interior design.>>271242
That Ichigo weeb is probably closer to a stalker than Jill realizes. Jill's more concerned about her fat performance photos posted here than of a psycho follower that dressed up as her with excessive gore for Halloween and copies her every move. Now that's creepy.>>271287
Her views have fallen drastically over the past two years; she used to average 60k+ views per video, some big ticket videos like home renovation and decor would get more than 100k. I wonder how her views would turn around if she released more videos about decoration and remodelling. Especially since her house is in desperate need of new paint. A renovation series could be a good way to turn her failing career around.
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Jill really does hate being perceived as anything that's not a cis woman.
>>271195>Work from home
Jill, you film one video a month. Go outside for 15 minutes instead of carrying a disco ball to each room. >>271343
It's a compliant to be called a tranny? Kek
it’s amazing she hasn’t moved past the over cluttered crap with a million different colors on her wall after her designer arc. Most people her age have moved past that stage either through maturity or with the popularity of minimalism in 2022. I find it bizarre she claims to have some eye for design that’s worth purchasing or paying attention to when she’s had zero growth, uniqueness, or at the very least “aesthetic” house or wardrobe to admire like most influencers. It’s all a bunch of plastic bright color toys or tacky easter egg clothes.
I know people are allowed to like ugly things and still be likable influencers, but at least they have the self awareness that it’s not cute it’s just personal preference. But Jill truly thinks her style is praise worthy and that she’ll be a well renowned artist riddled with mental illness. I can’t wait for someone to knock her off her pedestal
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What those lips do?
My favorite game whenever anons repost her tiktoks. Check her eyeliner. It's almost never
filled in or the lines are wonky as shit, it's so bad you can even notice in literal potato quality.
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Nice misogyny from the person she's replying to with the shane dawson's ex from ten years ago
like she has no personality of her own, even a whole decade later.
Pixie and Stevie interact in such an internet poisoned way it's impossible to tell the difference between them, she's one manic fit away from simply spamming suck my weiner
100 times on the jerrick account
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>>271342>>271343>>271363>"I'm not bothered">Spergs on twitter>Proceeds to talk about the dumb twitter slapfight on facebook
Jfc Jillian how much fucking attention do you need?
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>>271500>14 likes on twitter>despite being verified and having how many followers?>7 comments on "muh FB drag account">4 shared it>30 likes
Bleak. She really has the audacity to wonder why her YT numbers are low when her engagement on other SM accounts is equally shit.
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>>271502>Most of them are her malding over drama, the DIDb larp and occasionally the fashion videos people subscribed for in the first place
She literally thinks she's god's greatest gift to humanity and therefore people should just give praise, attention, money, and gifts because she exists. It's frustrating how she had an audience but throw that away just to play stoner munchie and whinge over the most trivial things. She has to be very insufferable to be around since she constantly changes how you need to interact with her. I don't know how anyone has the energy to be around her for more than a few hours, if even, at a time.
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I think it really bothers her because lately she's been referring to herself as an "influencer" more. Vlogs and lifestyle generally dropped off on youtube and people are only interested in the lives of hot rich people on Instagram. Right now the most popular content online are tiktok spectacles and crazy stunts, video game/hobby essays, outrageous bait titles (like mr beast) that actually happen in the video etc.
She doesn't do anything entertaining, she just talks about herself.
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Steve is definitely a gay troon. We knew this, yes, but further confirmation.
Top pic is from his likes. Bottom is just an example of Steve's current inspiration/taste in men kek
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That red hair statistic is literally some bullshit that DissociaDID made up, and hasn’t ever actually been proven. Solid proof that these DID ‘influencers’ are actively doing harm and spreading misinformation. >>271661
That doesn’t even make sense to her larp? Why would her ultra fem slutty alter love someone saying she openly looks like a man dressed as a woman? I swear Jill would yass queen any assumption about her alters as long as it was affirming her diagnosis
>>271661>[Veronica pegging Steve tinfoil intensifies]>>271669
It would be great if the ridiculously stereotyped bimbo alter that sexually harasses people turns out to be a transwoman, and the type who loves having a girldick at that. Jill please please
make this happen, it will get tons of views I swear. Just look at Dylan Mulvaney! You can call Veronica’s strap-on a Barbie rod or something, totally on brand.>>271670
She does seem to affirm every weird headcanon her followers have about her alters no matter what. Has she ever said “no actually so-and-so wouldn’t like that”? I know it’s all one big attention grab but surely her followers get things wrong about her OCs sometimes?
Damn she’s gotten FAT. What happened to losing 30lbs? She put her scale on the carpet when she weighed herself cause goddamn she so portly she has no neck and chipmunk cheeks.
Also why is that the only outfit she’s been wearing lately besides her other alters’ “uniforms”?
>>270449>is drinking water, coffee and orange juice (orange juice because she hasn’t eaten all day)>asks if it’s okay for her to talk about Christmas since some people have ‘literal trauma from looking at a Christmas tree’>her friend group has 8 people and they are doing secret Santa. The only people she is buying gifts for are stevie, her mom, her secret Santa. She is making gifts for the rest by crocheting and sewing >mad arm warmers for an internet friend because they were going through something (similar situation to bobo perhaps)>talked about stevie’s niece (who she calls her niece) and how she has a rainbow haired doll who she called Jillian >had a ‘mental illness moment’ when she saw peeps nail polish and also said she forgot to add peeps to her special interests chart>Jennifer needs a wash (the large yellow peep hasn’t been washed since she moved in)>jump cut at 26.42 ??>said that flora said that she is very productive on short days because she stays in the room where the sun is and organises her day around that>video plan list: digitising her wardrobe (like in clueless but she hasn’t seen it and she didn’t know the main character is called Cher)>says her fashion content does worse than her personal content but she will keep making both >other video ideas: do I really have DID? (But then says she wants to cool it on controversial videos), Cliffe meet the alter>Jerrick comes out when there are problems with technology>her computer was too old to redownload photoshop so she had to get a new one but LUCKILY stevie was selling his old MacBook on Facebook marketplace so she just got that (did not say if she bought it from him or just took it)>other video ideas: ‘is lazy oaf fast fashion?’ (Since they updated their sustainability and ethics page), the art of mending, Christmas cookie competition with Stevie, system update and recent integration (Amanda has integrated already??) >will be doing a pompompurin look>shows covers of her old sketchbooks, in one there is a poem that starts with ‘my sweet androgynous love’ kek >another video idea is painting a mural in her house>talks about Jax’s accent and someone in chat says ‘maybe you’re just bad at doing the accent’ KEK>Cliffe has a little bit of a British accent >someone said ‘my voice sounds different in my head’ and then Jillian goes ‘are you plural or are you singular because maybe that’s just a thing, maybe that’s a neurotypical thing too’>talks about how she’s a bad actor and mentioned that people say she is larping when she can’t even role play in dnd>’jerrick just sounds like me in my head… his voice sounds like the body’s voice, that’s what I mean by that’>says she needs to go because her tummy sent her a ‘you need to eat warning’
>>271691>she forgot to add peeps to her special interests
She is so bad at larping autism she forgot her own "special interest", aka the thing that is on an autists mind 24/7, is all they want to do and talk about, that they intensely like and care about. She "forgot" about it? Girl please.>talks about how she’s a bad actor and mentioned that people say she is larping when she can’t even role play in dnd
Yes Jill and that's why we know you're faking it, because you are truly a bad actor.
And she’s already shamelessly using autism terms for herself even though she says she just “suspects” autism. If she did get an assessment at this point I would doubt it just like her self-reported DID.
She thinks every single thing she likes is a special interest even though a lot of her phases, if they were in line with any medical term, would be more like hyperfixations. She had a short lived obsessive peeps phase and then it died down into something more normal. That hyperfocused “this is my new identity now” consumerist style hopping is the type of thing that’s seen really often in BPD, too, which is clearly the core issue here.
Her having a chart of a dozen hobbies, styles, and products she’s liked throughout her life isn’t really anything like an autistic special interest. It’s just her interests.
>>271691>asks if it’s okay for her to talk about Christmas since some people have ‘literal trauma from looking at a Christmas tree’
Ofc christmas is too triggering
but no problems with speculating and bringing up suicide every chance she gets
She was called out on it ages ago, before even the DID diagnostic impression IIRC? First she tried to say that BPD counts as neurodivergence, then she claimed she has trichotillomania which apparently counts, somehow. After getting too much pushback she removed it from her bio but clearly she’s never stopped coveting the label for herself. If anyone were to call her out now she’d reply that she suspects she has autism and self-diagnosis is valid
Jill hyping up Demi Lovato, who has diagnosed bipolar disorder yet refuses to treat or accept it, is insanely ignorant to me.
Demi Lovato also just partnered with and promoted Gaia, a company that promotes anti-semitic conspiracy theories about lizard people by David Ike. David Ike is a notorious racist & bigot who claimed to be a God.
Is Jill this clueless or does she just love shouting out and supporting problematic
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she just rephrases what other people said on tiktok
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Sounds like she just greened…
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And what better way to cure it with more weed!
wow she has the most punchable face kek>>271728
did she really need to make that stupid face in the thumbnail? it's also obvious that she made this video just to be relevant. News flash jilly no1curss about this topic anymore. She's the least trustworthy person to talk about art too. Since she's not even an artist.
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Samefag but this got me thinking. I think it’s a valid
criticism that would be well accepted across the internet that it’s not okay to be a self proclaimed “mental health advocate” and not make any clear steps to better yourself as someone with a supposed rare trauma disorder. Everyone and their mom knows what it’s like to be mentally ill to some extent, we don’t need any more awareness online. It’s not beneficial in any way to drone on about your symptoms to your followers who probably follow you for fashion lifestyle content in the first place. If you’re getting sponsored on YouTube, you’re running a business, not a live journal feed. it’s time to edit that shit down. Even if people disagree that it’s oversharing and self-obsessed, it’s agreeable that not trying to integrate your oc’s is not an appropriate recommendation to your followers. Anyone who will successfully recover from mental illness and wants to help others succeed knows you can’t make your illness your online brand for the world to see. If you are not discussing it in a clinical manner, but instead as quirky oc’s that must be validated as real people by your followers (as Jill does), you do not need to be discussing it online. Worse than that, I think she is guilty of advising against recovery to some extent. I know that’s not necessarily what she says, but she has in the past validated non-integration. Not to mention the weed and alcohol consumption without any asterisks around the importance of her doctor giving her the okay. So far, non-recovery seems to be her plan of action for herself. The mysticism she plants about the super crazy voice and mannerism changes
makes it clear she will fuel the shock and praise that DID gets from her followers for as long as possible. For someone who supposedly had DID since childhood, she sure is constantly surprised by her own symptoms like it’s brand new to her. She’s will continue to be in recovery limbo for as long as she can, which includes discussing trauma, dissociation, and suicide casually and frequently. Not to mention signing up your partner to be your forever caregiver who’s clearly depressed themselves.
All that said it’s all a croc of shit and doesn’t really matter, but if Jill were larping any other real illness like suicide idealization/self harm/ depression (you know, the less aesthetic ones) she would be advocating for people to not change their behavior or get treatment they actually need under the guise of mental illness positivity. She might defend that she goes to therapy, but unless they’re actively working on getting rid of these characters or stopping her from dissociating (all lies- I’m speaking as according to her) she’s just paying to talk to someone to fill her narc supply. I’m tired of her pretending like her life isn’t a total bpd circus. But I think her flying monkey followers defending her are even more crazy, how could someone miss that many red flags. There’s some very valid
criticism to be made that I think most people online would agree with unless they’re in whatever Twitter cult Jill’s in.
He tucks her into bed, feeds her, runs baths for her, gets weed for her, apparently manages her medication and after the car crash he was the one who reminded her to put on the “please be patient I have autism” lanyard that she doesn’t need
before interacting with the police. He infantilises and enables her and I have a really hard time feeling sorry for him no matter how badly “Jerrick” treats him. Hell if my boyfriend got off on treating me like a baby and I was already faking multiple personality disorder I’d also come up with an alter to tell the creep to fuck of sometimes.
This is beyond sad>weed makes me normal
Who knows what she thinks is "normal" as a baseline>changing OCs mid-snack is sharing
You are eating and idk? having different feelings while eating which means a second person is?the state of her life. The fact she has money, family, friends, fans online, good health, and is still this self-destructive
Samefag, 133 likes on that one about eating food with yourself is "sharing"
What is there to like about that. It's just incredibly sad and I always think if she is still doing this in 20 years she will be completely alone and unloved, just another crazy lady. She's coasting off the extended teenhood she's currently in (via teenage OCs and general overtly childish behaviour and appearance) but this will start to fall apart in 10 years or less. And at her current rate of self destruction I don't see recovery in her future. She's one of those lolcows who get worse and worse and eventually become horrorcows imo.
Not to mention you don't even feel that shit until you miss it for several days. At least my personal experience with antidepressants is that it takes me ~3 days to realize something is up. She just feels so much like that one girl in school that would just randomly pretend to be "crazy O.o" when she didn't have attention for 0.5 seconds, talk about how she hears voices and missed her "meds" so now her evil side is coming out. She's just fucking BPD but saying she has DID means her shitty behavior can't be changed because it's neurological and not behavioral so she gets a free pass>>272096>Hell if my boyfriend got off on treating me like a baby and I was already faking multiple personality disorder I’d also come up with an alter to tell the creep to fuck of sometimes.
I raise you: Jill saying "Jerrick" hates him to his face
missing one day of effexor can really fuck you up. I tapered carefully and it still fucked me up
very curious what meds she is on though. and what they are for.
If a medication could fuck you up that badly from not taking it for a day it probably wouldn'tve been prescribed in the first place
Serious outcomes normally happen a few days to a week of missed doses once the drug is out of your system is when your system goes into shock.>>272006
Jill is exaggerating and trying to show off how very real and serious her condition is because if she doesn't take her meds her mental illness which is so severe even with meds will get so so much worse. She's trying to prove that she is sick to everyone. Like those kids who show off how many antidepressants they've been on and how high of a dose it is just to prove they are the most mentally ill person in the world
Jill can go back to this tweet to be like: I NEED my meds look what happens when I don't take them.
but you could also say junkies need their street drugs because they suffer withdrawal when they don't get their fix
There's probably many chicks in Jill's highschool graduating year that have kids. Maybe a couple of kids. Husbands. There's chicks pursuing their master's by this age. Chicks that have already succeeded in their careers. Left their province for bigger and greener pastures. Chicks with mortgages and who know how to ride an airplane alone.
Every single aspect of this is about wanting the "extended teenagehood." Every single aspect of this is about wanting to be the "most special" person to ever come from her hometown. It's about not wanting to grow up, not wanting responsibilities. And I ultimately maintain the tinfoil that she simply does not want to become her mom and doesn't respect her mom - because she views being a mom as being a failure, especially in the artistic sense (which is funny because her mom is very successful in the arts and in general - literally living the dream in all respects). I could go on and on about this tinfoil. But Jill's simply looking for a way to eschew responsibility, because that's what it always fucking is, and it's because she doesn't respect her mom, and is also envious of her.
Do we even know what Jill is on? If she’s on something she doesn’t need it’s very possible she’s having issues with a single missed dose. Or the amount could be the issue, even ibuprofen has rebound side effects if you take too much often enough. Hell if she’s not smoking enough weed or over sleeping she could feel exactly what she’s describing.
That’s the problem with Jill’s mental health issues. There probably is a legit reason why she feels like shit but she’ll never work out what it is because it’s masked by so many bad lifestyle choices.
If she truly wanted to get better she’d eat healthier and start exercising, get off the weed and her ass and go outside. She doesn’t want to get better though, as other anons have mentioned, she wants to stay ill so she can be forever babied or alternatively she’s in deep denial about her choices that have led her to this steep health decline.
At any moment she could do something to improve herself but she won’t. She’s going to hit 30 and have big regrets about the negligence she’s treated herself with. At which point she’ll either blame everyone else as per usual or actually take action, which she could do right now by quitting the fucking weed and doing anything else besides fixating on her mental health.
>>272141>If a medication could fuck you up that badly from not taking it for a day it probably wouldn'tve been prescribed in the first place
I'm not gonna blog as to not add more stupidity to this thread, but sometimes the only medication that works has side effects anyway. You and your doctor have to decide if the benefits outweigh them. Then you either deal with it like an adult and do your best to avoid the situations that will trigger
said side effects (for example keeping track of when you took your meds, having a balanced diet, avoiding some other drugs and alcohol etc) or you whine about it like a little bitch to anyone who will listen.
withdrawal from SNRIs after one missed dose can be this severe. But I think SNRI is not typically taken at night. Stevie should not be responsible for reminding her and she is greatly exaggerating the language she's using to talk about it, making it sound like she has schizophrenia or like her meds help her alters communicate, kek "screaming at my body"
She was probably greenin'
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Imagine being stuck at home all day with Jill in a snowstorm, rip stevie
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She has a few tweets about feeling super bad when she misses 1 seroquil so I'm gonna guess it's that
I thought it said "make soap" for a split second kek, sorry kawaii soap nonny
her incessant need to mention every single time she misses her meds for a (1) day
You’d think someone with DID would be used to not keeping up with daily chores..
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'I just love ME'
kek right?>i love being me
I guess Pixie is only an “us” when she’s picking fights.
>>272299>content creator friends
who? the other DIDfags and mental illness larpers?>I love being me
Jfc shut the fuck up narcissist you're obese, do shit for attention, and smoke weed every day to evade the reality of being a nobody.
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Surprised no one’s posted it yet, looks like the Cliffe video will be up soon
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kek what are the ethics of someone with DID having an introject of their partner I wonder
Just seeing this screenshot alone really drives home how fucking stupid this all is. Do you think we're fucking retards, Jill? You really made a grey background for your 35 year old dude OC? I can't even with this. I honestly never wanna hear the term "DID" again because this is so fucking retarded I just… I dunno, it's breaking my brain. Seriously.
Jillian: go join a fucking theatre troupe or something. Do something, anything. Stop being such an idiot.
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Of course Jill wants to do what the child is doing
It's not milky or insane to want to build a snowman because you saw someone else doing it. At most, she's typing like a retarded teen but that's nothing new.
She has so much actually milky behavior, I don't know why people revert to sperging about mild shit like this
Does she not remember she told everyone white walls are a big trigger
for her? When she went back home she said white walls triggered
her and that’s why she painted everything so colorfully in the townhouse to remind herself she “wasn’t there anymore”. So an alter that isn’t a persecutor really picked out the one corner of the house that has white walls to film in, when that’s a known trigger
? And stayed in that stark white place for at least an hour without it causing any ptsd symptoms?
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People are noticing the sus corner staging
do you think people will be pissed at her if she gives him a "gay lisp"? >>272421
a part of her DDLG larp, everyone knows
wanting to have fun in the snow is child behavior.
That's what bothers me about her, she could just go out and take a picture of a snowman she made, that's it, she has the snow, she has the hands and legs, she probably has some tacky scarves laying around for her to put them on the snowman.
Yet she's too baked 24/7 to get up and just do that, it's so easy to just write what you want to do and never do it, and people still follow her online because nobody seems to have any sort of standards, like come on, how entertaining could it be to read whatever this cow writes and retweets all of the time? She's not even funny, all she does is wait for someone to say something sightly negative about her so she can chimp out at them.
so… she just said that she triggered
herself to switch to another alter and that is so quirky and fun? what?
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Whenever I see people online claiming to age slide with DID it's always to a younger age, they never seem to age slide into being middle aged or elderly. Very coincidentally they're usually into ddlg
So the whole thing with stevie trying to defend himself for not having sex with berry means jack shit bc now jill is also soms a 6yo?
Think she’s also aiming for the autism = mentally a child again
If she comes out with a British accent, I am going to laugh my whole way to Fredericton where I'm gonna smack this absolute fucking retard square in her goddamn clown face.
GROW THE FUCK UP, JILLIAN. Jr. Highschool was a long time ago, girl.
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What's this breakdown from, being called Jill instead of pixie again?
Idk where you live nonnie
but you'd be surprised what people put up with in the spirit of minding their own damn business
Any sensible person would take a look at jill, instantly make the deduction she'd create a months long vendetta against any neighbor who reported her for noise, probably record them, harass them, etc and would come to the conclusion that it's probably best to ignore her.
No one wants to deal with that kind of crazy.
And to share such deep traumatic responses
on her Twitter to a bunch of strangers every day like she’s reading a grocery list. Why does everyone need to know?
She seriously LARPs her mental illnesses like she's copying a bad Lifetime movie. Unless you are genuinely in a position where you would be forcibly institutionalized, it's not this constantly dramatic. One of the reasons movies and tv always suck at accurate portrayals of mental illness is because 99% of the time, it's incredibly mundane.
But no, Jill is constantly having flashbacks and screaming and going catatonic and whatever else she can think of to prove that she's so insanely sick but also thriving in her rainby home.
I don't think there's another cow who exhausts me as much as her, I'm almost in awe.
sage for blogposting, but idk, as someone who's also a bpdchan and cptsdchan (i've experienced actual csa, neglect and physical abuse unlike jill tho) i actually am physically unable to move during bad episodes, and my feelings make me want to kill myself every time i experience something slightly negative. that being said, i literally wouldn't be able to tweet about it and i wouldn't want to either. the only case where i would tweet abt it, is if i had absolutely no one to vent to, which jill certainly has. it's really weird for her to have to broadcast every single thing she experiences instead of actually dealing with it. she feels a need to "prove" her mental illness, and by doing so, proves that it's really not as serious as she makes it out to be, because how the hell are you able to be so insanely active online if you're constantly having breakdowns and not being able to move? i might never get an education or a job because my disorders cripple me. meanwhile, jill is living a privileged life and still complains about not being privileged. it comes off as "white guilt", but like, with mental illness instead. obviously she has no "white guilt" considering her racist past kek. she's a failure in life, but she doesn't want to do anything about it or admit to just not being as special as she thinks she is, so instead it HAS to be because of illness caused by someone else, despite her being perfectly able to change things.(unsaged blogpost)
Wanna bet she just smoked weed again, greened out feeling horrible about how pathetic her life is, and just slapped the trauma card on it when she came by
This is why i hate how she’s promoting using weed for her problems. substances can make all those small insignificant sad thoughts feel a lot more intense and you’ll only keep bringing yourself down, espc when you keep telling yourself that more fucking weed will be the solution
I don't think a single person here has denied that mental illness exists or that none of her "symptoms" are things that people actually experience.
In fact, most of the frustration that is being voiced comes from the fact that mental illness is real and serious and people like Jill do real damage to the mentally ill.
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Since no anons have mentioned it yet the Cliffe video is coming out today
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That’s judge doom from Roger Rabbit. Kek