sage for word vomit but oh my god i'm so fucking annoyed. i just aged out of my fam's insurance so it was going to be expensive no matter what but man i really did my research finding the best possible resources in my area so i could finally get a proper ADHD diagnosis, the place i went with had great reviews and were even CHADD recommended. one appointment with the psychiatrist was a few hundred even with sliding scale and at the time I thought it went really well because she was nice and confirmed that I have it, but this particular doctor doesn't "believe" in prescribing stimulants for any reason, she put me on a mixture of meds including effexor instead, which (didn't know at the time) can be an extreme med to be on and especially hard to withdraw from. it's not even traditionally FOR adhd so there wasn't a guarantee it would help the most important thing i need help with. the last couple weeks have been a huge waste of time and energy. i was heavily fatigued, nauseous, more stuck than usual and also developed intense, empty, heavy depression which i haven't struggled with much since like 2019. it GAVE me depression and made my adhd worse, my anxiety was only gona because i stopped caring about anything. i told them i was quitting their plan because i physically can't take being on effexor and only a couple weeks later i'm finally feeling good again on my regular meds, the withdrawals took forever and i was only on the lowest dose. i just recently made the connection that the reason my doctor has a stigma against stimulant meds is prob because their treatment center doubles as a rehab facility so they're like, anal about anything thought of as "addictive". i don't have an addictive personality and adderall works for my mom and cousins and ADHD is ruining my life way more than anxiety/ depression but they don't care, they're not budging on it and it's so discouraging because it took me a LOT of effort just to call and get treated after months of putting it off, only for my own doctor to have the same stigma/ misunderstanding of ADHD treatment that so much of the public does.
it's fine though. i don't have time to go back to them and risk them trying to put me on even more antidepressants because i'm going on a trip next week so i just looked into those Ahead/ Done companies and set up a quick online appointment in a couple days, it's cheaper and more ADHD focused so hopefully they'll be more understanding this time. i'm just frustrated that i wPost too long. Click here to view the full text.