/ot/ - off-topic

When I was a teen,no told myself I'd end it all before I hit 30 years old I things we're still bad. I have myself a timeline to bypass the cliche response of "oh, this pain is only temporary" or "if you tried getting help things would be better" or whatever. Here I am getting close to 30 and my life feels like it's progressed since then but I definitely fight against the same emotional struggles.

I want to go back to college but I'm too anxious of the thought of getting overworked by doing it part time with my full time job. I feel like I'm not the right person for my job either.

I kinda wish I didn't have an SO right now because it would make suicide much easier. St least that's one thing I have that my teen self would be surprised about considering I always thought I'd be alone….and I was up until 2 years ago….what a pathetic age to have a first relationship.

I feel like at this point I've experienced all that I really have to experience from life. Like…where do I go from here? Nothing interests me, nothing motivates me, I'm just walking forward because I'm currently living but I don't really want to live and have no destination I'm walking to…

No goals, no aspirations, no dreams (that are obtainable realistically anyway), no motivations,and no excitement. I feel like by this point if I don't like life, why bother continuing? Like, if you sit through a quarter of a long book and still don't like it, why the fuck would you keep reading? By that point you've already read enough to get a good feel of what to expect from the rest of the book, and given it more than a fair chance to impress you, and if it hadn't by that point then I think most of us would put it down I guess the difference is that we always have other books to try to entice us, but imagine you didn't. You get to see everyone else with much more interesting books in their hands, and you're stuck with your crummy one. They want to read their stories to the end, because they're exciting and fun. You have no choice but to read your shitty book, and if you throw it out you'll never have another book again….but is it worth it putting up with the shitty book? I'd rather have no book at all. I should end this story soon. Before anyone asks - yup I've seeked professional help. That's what makes it more enticing to just end things. I feel like by this point, I have a right to say "I've tried everything I could and life still sucks. Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>400838
>>400838
Also I made this huge rambling first thing in the morning while phone posting before I even put my contact lenses in. It probably showsfrom all my typos, but I think it's patbetic that the first thing I think every morning is "boy, is sure wish I didn't wake up today…." Why can't we donate our remaining life spans to people who actually wanna live?

>>400617
I'm in the same situation.
You're not too old lol you're only 20, what's the rush for?
There are people in their 30s who start college, you certainly won't be the only one who's "older". And you're not gonna be too old for boyfriends either anon.
Come on, it's no big deal.
Don't compare your situation to that of others and DO YOU.
You got this.

>>389677
Life is majorly influenced by luck. Things can POSSIBLY get better if everything aligns in your favor.

How does one refrain from constantly envying a close friend?
How do you guys deal with that?
I just can't help but feel so bad for myself to the point of feeling sick when I see the contrast in our lives.
She's in med school in some European country, having the time of her life, meeting new people and everything while I'm stuck at home feeling like there's nothing for me to do in this word anymore.
I'm gonna waste all my youth away like that.
>>400838
That anon's last paragraph put my thoughts so perfectly into words; i couldn't have expressed myself any better if I wanted to.

>>400797
What are you mixing with it? I've never thought to try it but it sounds yum

I was so drunk at this party but O met this guy and when he saw me leaving with my friends he stopped the car for my number aaaaa

He texted me asking me out and I'm so stoned and drunk so that's my 4/20

i was very very drunk last night and lost my phone at the club

i'm so upset because it had my id, debit card, and student id on it

i cried the entire uber ride home but my boyfriend tracked it and found that it's still at the club so pray for me ladies

>>400827
good luck!! I lost my wallet while trashed at a concert last year and it was a headache replacing everything but hey, at least those things are replaceable. I lost about $80 worth of different gift cards tho. :( Just make sure to freeze the debit card.

Even if it's not there, maybe a nice stranger will mail it back to you :)

>>400805
Just vodka or rum, nothing special! I want to experiment with it more though!

Worried about my prospects while climbing out of NEET status. I fucked up so much. I had a good job with interesting career paths and I just quit and stayed in my house for a few years instead. That gap looks so bad on my resume. Guess I am willing to settle on whatever at this point though.

My livelihood is fine but goddamn I want my dignity back.

>>400506
Can't you just come up with some sort of "freelance" work to put on a resume so it fills the gap? Maybe say that you do art on the side and have taken hefty commissions that supported you for that time.

>>400508
I guess that's always possible but it fills me with paranoia to think about the lie coming undone lol. I probably just need to chill out in general tonight. Thanks though anon.

I’m 22 and the only job experience I’ve had is a government summer job ages ago, and 5 months worth of a retail job (that I’m still sticking to). Is there a way to pivot myself into a non-minimum wage job without advancing beyond an associates degree? I know some people can work on charisma alone, but I’m definitely not that type of person.

I dunno if I should look into IT or other tech heavy accrediting programs, since I’d have to compete with people actually interested in those programs and/or have been doing them since they were a 12 year old tech wizard.

>>400506
Anon I had the same problem due to mental illness but still got the really nice office job I have now while I go back to school. If you have a gap and they ask you about it you can say "medical issues" and they won't question you about it. And it's not untrue if you struggle with mental illness. Most companies are very understanding.

The "freelance" idea isn't bad either. You can also say you've done work for a family member's company or something as well if you have someone to back you up. You're definitely not doomed and you'll be able to find something.

>>399324
She's supposed to be a Japanese mythological demon called a kappa. I guess it sounds similar to Kenna.

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>>399259

thanks anon, that's pretty pathetic

>>399277
Even if they were funny, imagine being so obsessed with someone you actually bother fucking illustrating them. I can understand making quick photoshopped pics for a laugh or whatever but drawing and actually colouring comics is insane. It gives me such severe secondhand embarrassment.

one thing ive noticed is how obsessed pull users are with someone not being a "good model". for example >>397308 and those recent pics in the kenna thread. they always come up with so many excuses,

>shes too fat
>she has a rotten personality
>her makeup is bad

etc, even when the model and the pictures look good. why do they have to endlessly nitpick kenna wearing a rainbow hair clip instead discussing actual milk. a lot of people in those threads just seem like theyre seething becase theyre not the ones getting modelling deals in glorious nippon. maybe theres an other reason for why those other girls with a higher following were getting the modelling deals instead kek.

>>400678
This happens if blog posting is allowed (apparently it's against PULL's rules but the mods don't give a fck). It's always about themselves, how pretty and good they are and more deserving than any other girl in this world. Nitpicking will always be a problem on every platform but if narcissistic/jealous people find a way to talk about themselves, this issue will basically explode.

>>384054
Can we use OC’s this time around, I’m sick of the OP pic just being a bad LavenderTowne crop

>>384068
hehe

New thread! First time, sorry if it’s shit

>>>/ot/384143

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>>382721

you won’t get even a fraction of the real leslie by just meeting her at a fanmeet. privately she is just poisonous. always negative, passive aggressive when she doesnt get her way, shit talks other artists regularly and makes fun of people for the most inane shit, like physical appearance. Snotgirl was her self insert in many ways.

she’s sweet to artists she wants to suck up to but outside of that tiny group she hates everyone and everything.

>>360487
Sorry for asking, but do you have details about this? I remember Cyarin telling me her ex gf cheated on her. I honestly get it why, she's getting really stuck up with her temporary instagram fame lol.

ive never heard a woman say looksmaxing and cole sprouse not a chad at all. he's really annoying.

there’s already a shitty thread for this in /g/

>>400633
Looksmaxing is a thing in /trufemcels/ apparently.

I once knew an ultra christian girl that was a fujo, got rejected by her crush for a gay man and started drawing fanart of those 2 kissing and gave it to him for his birthday. It was the deviantart tier overly airbrushed kind of art.

I probably wouldn't have a problem with fujoshits if they wouldn't erase the personalities of my favourite characters and draw them as mentally crippled. Like seriously, show some love for those guys instead of drawing them as helpless and crying about dick.

My problem with fujoshits is that they always try to claim there's something 'more' going on between two male characters who are just clearly deeply platonic. I've seen this in multiple fandoms and no one is allowed to speak up against this without being branded as a homophobe.
It's like these boring bitches have never had a long term best friend that really cared about them before (I can see that) and vice versa. It's really disgusting and propagates disrespectful social issues.

>>400576
yeah like i don't care if they ship two male characters and have their headcanons or whatever but when it gets to the insane "it's 100% DEFINITELY real (creator) keeps them closeted but it's canon homophobe hets can keep denying it but it's obvious" extent it's extremely cringy. the amount of people like this has doubled with the whole fake woke lgbt representation wave.

>>400576
There are lots of anime where guys fight for a girl in a love triangle and they end up being shipped together. Is it a fun idea? Sure, but then you see it become "canon" even if one guy slashes the other with a sword and they express disgust to each other.

I can get fujos on 4chan that do it for the shitposting and pissing homophobic guys off- but you see a character who has legit suffered because of another one and had his health harmed or lost major opportunities in life and tumblr goes on to push them as a healthy canon tsundere ship. Bonus points if both guys have healthier relationships with other men in the story.

The other variant is where the 2 guys have a good relationship, but they never hug, kiss or express romantic interest and a fujo legit told me that I'm too shallow if I need any of that for a romantic pairing, that muh nipponjin fujos are superior because they don't care about the canon and are happy dreaming about it.

>>400578
This shit happens so often it's not even funny. Now people have a high pedestal for this inane complaint too, so you can't blame it on some dumb spergs anymore, so you get both the woke retards and the spergs arguing that the author doesn't love his fanbase.
>pic related, fujos got mad even though ONE (author) later said that he doesn't mind any type of fanart
>>400589
It would be fine with rival shipping so long as fujos didn't try to jam it in everyone's throats. These are somehow usually the most popular ships because fujos can't learn how to not wet themselves when there's two dudes fighting about one murdering the other's entire family or something.

>>344806
I think there will be a "nu" moral crusade, starting with obvious shit like pornography, in the 2020s and a general push toward wholesomeness. We went far and broke convention, now can we rebuild?

I welcome a return to goodness for goodness' sake, but I'm apprehensive. It's too little, too late, and got a false start with the rise of cringeservatives and alt-right.

>>345334
Oof that's pretty bad, tbh i think i just have skepticism that the circle of weird troll friends he has would let him just remain homeless and helpless.

I wouldn't be surprised if we'll see some kind of plan in the works re: borb dying when it happens that they don't talk about rn so weens don't dick it up.

That's just my thoughts though.

>>345358
i like the sound of that anon

shouwus probably going to either leave pregory and go far left or right, or she gets pregnant and he leaves her for another ethot. either way theres no way there relationship is lasting.

>>400551
I 100% think she's going to get pregnant this year

>>394765
this post is so comfy

>>394765
I feel better now.

Alison Goldfrapp, at least by the music industry's standards. She was 33 when Goldfrapp got signed, 34 when their first album came out, and 36 when they got big.

I think that in a way, as we age some skills become easier to pick up.

Because we're mature, have more patience and can look at a problem from different angles and with more experience.

>>399379
Man same age with me. Like 10-11 cause those were my earliest account on websites. But its so fucked up at that age I ran into such wierd shit and it had to my discovery of sexuality. No 10 year old should be looking at those kind of things.
Like the first thing I see and know is the most perverted unusual thing out there so it's almost normal to me but I know its wroung (now).
Thing is that i hate, I still get off to those things and feel shame for it. Like, yeah, it's okay to be into kinky shit. But for me its a whole nuther level, literally a sickness, that I still feed even tho I shouldn't and it'll get worse.

Not sure if this is more anti-porn or more anti-men, but does anyone else find it weird how Kim Jung Gi is married with kids, but still draws a lot of porn? Like how muts it feel to be the wife, with kids, of a man who draws sexy women 24/7. Also in the same interview this picture is from he admits to showing his kids his pornographic drawings.

>>400337
>he admits to showing his kids his pornographic drawings.
For what purpose? Jesus Christ.

>>400337
I saw that picture some time ago and the comment paired with the dynamics in the picture is the perfect example of how gross he is. I keep seeing people fellate his technique, especially on /ic/, but the contents of his drawings are shallow wanking to his own skill more than anything else.

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>>400391
Fucker even drew bestiality and published it in his artbooks. Never liked his artwork at all since like anon said, it’s incredibly shallow. Also, retards on /ic/love porn so of course they love his work.