I cannot believe it's been almost a year since I wrote this. My big goals have almost been fully accomplished. I can eat leftovers now, to an extent. I also got a new job where I'm walking at least a mile a day and I'm driving half of the time.
One of the biggest things that's helped me throughout all this is exercise. It's so, so crucial even though my job requires walking. Skipping going once a week to the gym can seriously affect my mood and how well I handle the sensations. I don't even do much, I just go on the elliptical for about 15 minutes and then fuck around in the weight room lifting 10-35 pounds on different machines. Feeling excused from exercising gives the anxiety less power. I'm considering going to Zumba classes, which are free with my membership, but they're usually during times I'm probably sleeping.
Anyway, I'm still going to therapy, I see her about once a month now and she says I'm doing an excellent job and can see such an improvement.
My next goal is to start brushing my teeth again using toothpaste, and doing it consistently. The minty sensation and bitter taste triggers
PTSD and I know this is one battle that needs to be accomplished. Water flossing and just using a wet toothbrush with nothing on it can only do so much. I do worry about my dental health. So, that's next on the list. Time to challenge myself and I know for sure it's the right time to start.