apologies in advance
I'm smoking weed and I feel nostalgia. Tw
When I was 11-12 I belonged to a community of The Lion King fans. We were all incredibly autistic, making lion OCs on deviantart and writing fanfiction. At one point I had The Lion King x Naruto fanfic and it was literally one of the most autistic and cringe things I can think of. Also, I pretended to be a boy because I struggled with my attraction to girls and I thought that in order to hit on other girls I had to be a boy (later on I started to "identify" as a boy anyway), and, not gonna lie, I enjoyed the attention girls were giving me; there were only 3 guys among us; one is an openly gay man now, the other I know nothing about except "he" had a cringe japanese name, and the third "guy" was me. I was the most popular and my OC, which I drew myself, was the sexiest (btw the quality of our art was quite good, sure, we were no OmegaLioness or DolphyDolphiana, but for a bunch of 11-14 year olds drawing in MS Paint and PS we were quite good). At my peak I had like 14 different girls crushing on me. There was this girl who was older than me, she was the biggest Stacy in our community; she had the best art, the most popular fanfic and OC, the biggest amount of friends. She "dated" the guy with a cringe japanese name. But then we started exchanging personal messages and she fell for me. At first we were a couple only in rp, but then it turned into an actual internet relationship. I felt like an asshole for lying to her about being a boy irl, but I couldn't help it, I had a crush on her, I wrote her poems, I thought about her every day at school and I couldn't wait to talk to her again. It lasted almost a year. I was retarded enough to have two accounts on the messaging platform we were all using, one for actual me, and one for my male self, and before all that male-larping started, I interacted with community as a girl for a while, and she happened to have my first account on her contact list. So one day I accidentally put a status that was associated with my male OC on my orginal account, and she saw that before I managed to delete it. She then checked my IP and of course she found out both accounts have the same one. So she writes to me and screams what the fuck. I start to panic and I tell her I have a sister who's also roleplaying and we use the same pc and I just opened her account by accidPost too long. Click here to view the full text.