>>2525817Tbh, she kind of told me so, that all she feels is sadness whenever she talks with me. But when we meet irl, I think we get along just right? I feel so retarded and sad, since talking to me feels like self harm at this point, I should stop responding to her, I don't want her to feel sad.
I should've stopped this when I began going to uni, I just can't have friends, or friends with a deeper connection, it's like what my parents said, that friendships as an adult just aren't deep, they're based on favors and influence.
Like I have "friends" They're just people I can hangout with and talk about Fandom stuff or whatever, but we don't really talk about deep stuff like whenever I try to talk with my friend. That was such a fucking mistake, I'm not fit for being a deep thinker.