>>184460>I'm bi but I pretty much gave up on finding a girl because I'm not very confident in my appeal to women even though I consider myself decent-looking.. and my life is currently too much of a mess to let anyone in. And also, I'd have yet to come out and I dread that
Are you me, anon. This is literally my life right now. A stupid mess and I'm so stuck in the middle of a rut, I can't even imagine being worthy of being in any relationship, so it's better to not try at all, lol.
Though you sound like a chill girl, I-i'd totally be into those fantasies.
I can't even imagine all the retarded comments from everyone if I ever dared to date a girl. I always presented myself as hetero because I never thought it was possible that I might be bi, and surely those crushes are platonic! It sounds retarded, but I just grew up in the mindset that it's simply impossible to be bi for me. Because, that can happen to other people, but certainly not to me, right? It's just a phase, right?
Idk, and now I'm 24 and feel like the window of opportunity has passed. It just feels pathetic to come out now, and I don't know who would even want me. As said, I only recently came to terms that bisexuality exists, and I feel like if I admitted it out loud, everyone would just call me a hypocrite. Not sure if any woman would even want to date me, or if they would just see another desperate bisexual in me. Not that I would know how to properly approach a woman in the first place, ha.
Eh, long story short, life's a mess and not trying is better than ridicule and rejection, I guess