>>1920511A lot of my manifesto rants tend to revolve around the homophobia and misogyny I experience, it's something I've tried and failed to resolve in therapy. At this point in my life (I'm 33) I don't think it's worth doing any more digging. Not in a defeatist kinda way, but I just think that I need to move on with my life and accept that society is what it is. If I'm journaling about something else like my physical and mental health, my marriage, family and just general day-to-day stress then it does help me to get it out of my system. I just end up sounding like Dworkin on meth if I experience any bigotry that day and I fixate on whatever set me off.
>>1920589Yeah, I'm terrible for overanalysing. Maybe it's my autism, but I'm like a dog with a bone sometimes, I just will not drop it. Today I just did my motherhood journal as the whole point of that is capturing the most beautiful moments in my life, so I feel very positive after doing that. I think I'm gonna try meditating longer in place of my rambling journal for a week or so and see if I feel any different. If I do return to it then maybe I need to establish a list of topics to avoid, I know that's kinda antithetical to journaling, but it's for my own sanity. Thanks to both of you for your input, nonas!