>>1928549I've struggled with similar things like you nona, especially the dislike or disinterest in all people around me. I'm still on the journey of escaping myself but I can tell you some things that helped me feel more connected to the world and people around me.
First it helps to change your mindset about other people and develop a stonger sense of empathy or general interest - not that you need to befriend everyone around you and find out their story but just respecting the fact that they have deep inner lives and are probably preoccupied with themselves and their troubles in their minds. Just little things like saying hi to your neighbours and being kind to the people you work with could help you see the warmth that exists within people and might make you feel a bit more normal.
Also it seems you've lost your passion for art but I think you can rediscover it. Doing those small gallery shows is a great first step and you shouldn't put your achievements down. Art is a great way to connect with people and give yourself a purpose. You can look at grants or residencies or projects you can do with other people, there's always opportunities like that and usually the more local they are, the easier it is for you to get in. I think choosing a project to do and focusing on it will help you feel more grounded too.
Art events and projects would also make a great way for you to make friends and people who understand you more. I've always had a better time making friends with other people who are somehow weird or also on the sidelines, and they don't all have to share the same weirdness/interests as you. Generally though people like that are more open to your quirks as well and are more willing to connect with you. There's a range of people between terminally online neets and total normies and you can fall somewhere in between and have a great time. Either way good luck nona, I'm rooting for you.