/ot/ - off-topic

I hate when (male) youtubers try to make videos about the communities they used to be in and claim they were crazy and full of pedos. Like hello, pot calling the kettle black, friendly fire is not tolerated.

>>2315507
Don't know why but people assuming I'm in a relationship just because I'm in my mid-twenties pisse me off like nothing else, they could actually insult me and I wouldn't mind that bad.

>>2316531
I feel like I have the reverse problem where people assume I haven't had sex or been in a relationship just because I like cutesy things, not that tall, keep my relationships mostly private and openly dislike goonshit, so they basically treat me like this pure child and assume I must be asexual even though I've had multiple relationships and am nearing my 30s.

>>2316617
Kek I have the exact opposite problem, I'm a turbo autistic virgin but people assume I'm some kind of sultry dominatrix because I'm alternative and somewhat cold and assertive. People in general can't even fathom someone in their 30s still being a virgin unless they are an ugly moid, when I explained the concept of husbandofags to one coworker she had a hard time believing I was one because she only pictured greasy nerds with a waifu dakimakura.

>>2316624
I think people judge by appearances a lot so this ends up happening, men always think if you're more alternative that you must be more sexual for sure, I see them do that all the time with any woman who is mildly goth-y or even just if she has curves, big boobs, or whatever other trait they associate with that, it's annoying. I think for me I'd prefer it if the reason they thought I'm a virgin is just because I'm an unnatractive greasy nerd since at least then they would just leave me alone, but this usually comes from weird guys who are trying to hit on me and it seems more like they're idealizing me into this sort of "pure" woman or something just because of how I look, and how I don't talk about sex or my relationships, how I'm actively very anti porn (which always makes them say I'm asexual), and so on. It's like their brain can't compute that someone like me who hates porn could enjoy sex and have a libido in general, since a lot of them associate sex with porn pretty heavily. I do agree that people mostly associate virgins with weird male nerds or incels though, which is why it baffles me that this even happens to me.

>>2252459
Kek that was mistype but I’m definitely keeping it(learn 2 delete)

>>2252459
Mods ban this pick me

I'm so fucking tired of being a bippie. I don't want this. I'm so sick of the constant dramatic life changes, burning of briges etc insane behavior yet I always end up doing it anyway. I don't mean to, but in those moments I genuinely believe my actions are the correct ones to do because I don't know better. And they always end up doing more harm than good.

Anyone find out that their intense BPD symptoms may have been due to insane overuse of marijuana? I finally am gettin clean and have noticed a dramatic drop in my BPD behaviors and I’ve been able to keep calm about things that a month ago had me crying for an hour. I try not to bother the most important people in my life when I’m having symptoms, but it does occasionally spill over. I’m hopeful though that with my therapy and new sobriety I can really get a handle on it once and for all

Fucked up my life after being stable for 3 years. I hate myself. I am a pathetic loser that will never actually succeed. I should come clean about my recent fuck ups but I am too ashamed. I have been spending my days hiding and doing nothing except have lot of sex with anyone that gives me attention cause that's what I do when I let my impulses go wild and feel like shit. I miss working and having a normal boring life. I believed I could act normal, there is no hope.

Had a weird dream that my friends took me to a talent show that ended up being a premiere of a new Beatles film and then halfway through the film it turned into a zombie film and suddenly I was in the film running around with Paul and John and yes Yoko was obviously a zombie chasing us and then I got scared and was back to me being in the audience and I left the the theatre without telling anyway because I was so scared and then I couldn't remember where I parked my car so in my dream I thought I can't be fucking bothered with this shit anymore so I woke up lol

>>2313966
New surreal "horror" french movie idea

I never have dreams but if I do they’re very abstract with people who don’t exist or people who I don’t know irl. Well lately my dreams have changed completely and have shifted to being about this specific guy who is interested in me. It feels like he hijacked my sleep & dreams because every night I meet him in my sleep. It’s so fucking weird. I used to dream about pigs at gas stations and other weird stuff and now I’m literally meeting someone irl in my dreams. Has this ever happened to anyone else?

Someone very close to me died recently and I keep dreaming about him. The weirdest part is that I had a dream about him the day I found out he died, right before I got the news I had just woken up from a dream about him leading me to a rose garden.

Recently I also dreamt that I was able to hold my (also dead) best friend, but he was a child in the dream, and I held him so close and wanted nothing more than to protect him. In the dream he looked me in the eyes and told me it was a sign. Then I woke up.

Hard not to read too much into some of these things even if I'm not the most religious person. I wish I could fully believe in some kind of afterlife or spiritual presence without feeling like I'm crazy.

Anons in the celebricows thread posted the debut of a new singer. She was called "Sweeper" and they were having an INTENSE fight about whether she was the best or worst vocalist who ever lived. I was reading it like "??? Sweeper?? What kind of name is that" but nobody answered my question. The thread kept switching between a room full of anons as people that I could speak to face-to-face, and just the usual desktop site. Anyway, it didn't take long for Sweeper fever to "sweep" the entirety of lolcow. A containment thread was made but it quickly turned into MANY threads, there were banners made about her, a Sweeper theme was made (it was actually very cute too kek) and even the jannies were telling the haters to kill themselves. Suddenly, the dream changed to a room again and QUEEN SWEEPER HERSELF came storming through the door demanding to know why we were talking shit about her. I was stunned!! All the anons at the table were like "nooo, Sweeper, we love you here!" but she was enraged and started getting into a full-on fisticuffs battle with the haters. I was panicking and desperately trying to stop it. The dream ended just as Sweeper pushed a bunch of anons down the stairs.

I think the funniest part is that she kind of looked like Shayna with bright green hair.

>turns drawings made by children into plushies IRL
but WAS this made by a child? was it really, though?

>>2316583
I've seen kids my sisters age (10) Draw similar things

>>2316583
I love that they did the shade of blue differently

I find it funny when men think they have a comeback with "liberal bad your argument is wrong because you probably have dyed hair and a septum piercing" like idc if those are seen as some bad woke gendie thing, I want dyed hair. Too bad I'd have to destroy it with bleaching beforehand…

I'm so glad my brother has the same sense of humor as me, he finally watched a stupid video I've been obsessing over for the past year and now he can't stop quoting it with me, and it's the kind of dumb internet shit I can't share with anybody else around me.

>>2316596
Yeah, the only thing that annoys me is when they whine about the game's lack of pronouns or hyper specific medical conditions or some shit.

>>2316534
>BG3 is based off of dungeons and dragons, where you're literally meant to play as whoever you want
Assuming the GM and other players are okay with it. So many BG3 players have never actually sat down for a tabletop game and it shows. Most D&D campaigns have some limits on character creation because the party needs to be able to stick together and the GM needs to be able to make suitable adventures for said party. But the whiny representation crowd wouldn't know that because they clearly haven't attended a session zero in their life and don't know how to play nice with others.

>>2316595
Scarabia's manga got announced curious if they'll stick with a 50/50 gender ratio. But pomefiore should have a female mc instead

>>2316611
Since the MC is supposed to be a foil for the character who overblots in the arc, I do think they should save another female Yuu for Pomefiore too. I guess it might work with Jamil, who does seem to struggle with feeling smaller/emasculated by his role under Kalim.

>>2316596
idk, but personally I find role playing games where you play a more specific character with limited customisation (eg Geralt from Witcher) more interesting and engaging than the ones geared towards more blank-slate self-insertion (eg Elder Scrolls games) because there's nothing for me to stick to with how the game's writing ends up catering to that mechanic (it works great in ttrpgs but games have very limited resources so the choices you engage with to express yourself/character are both restrictive and usually dull or have low/no impact on the game at large). I don't mind it when the rpg aspects are mostly mechanical/stats and not narrative like Dark Souls though. Each to their own though.

As for relating to a character, I don't really need them to be anything other than interesting tbh, and I kinda hate the way 'relatability' gets pushed in fiction anyway since it usually just leads to more bland, marketable everyman/woman characters as they need to be palatable and inoffensive to be considered such (this is just a common misunderstanding of decent writing advice, similar to how a character being 'likeable' is often translated into them being generically nice with no real negative traits). I also think that a lot of those generic white straight guy characters aren't actually seen as relatable/representative by men, but as invisible vessels to act out the game through, given just enough traits to have a semblance of marketable personality and for the plot to chug along (similar to how a lot of female protagonists are really just lightly flavoured skins for the reader to inhabit in a lot of YA/romance novels). Some characters are more for function than anything else. Maybe we do need more female generic, shell-person protagonists though, if only to curb the terrible personality and dialogue they keep being given in recent games kek

I do want to see more varied depictions in media like games, don't get me wrong, just not the kind that exists to cater to its audience's narcissistic urge to relate to only themselves. Rather, I want to see the sort that leads to fresh characters, stories, visuals, and ideas being explored in the medium. 'Representation' has become such a poisoned topic, but it does of course have value at the heart of it.

The best thing about being on antidepressants is that I've not cried once this month just been extremely disappointed.

“you are a problem and you will be dealt with. i will stomp on your neck with my boots. you will be jumped for disrespecting me. i want to break every bone in your face and disfigure you. i am in your yard; i am under your window. i want you to get in a car accident where you flip six times and roll over.” this is all harmless because you found a way to be sneaky and indirect about sending it to me. that’s fine though. i came forward about being raped, so you threatening to harm me when i sent a soul crushing letter was justified. so was reading my personal support group posts dealing with suicidal thoughts, harming myself, panic attacks, nightmares, sex being ruined for me forever, being afraid to let people close to me being afraid to date again being afraid i’ll never have a family being afraid i will die young being afraid i will develop cervical cancer because i’m afraid to get a pap smear and nik is a DOG. that’s all okay to mock and threaten me for feeling and even say i’m lying about feeling it. i’ve been a vegetarian since i was ten and if you’ve been doing art for as long as i have, just quit. but i’m empty and fake. unlike the girl who literally became alt for the first time in her life because nik only dates green eyed alternative animal loving artistic nature loving types. every single goddamn girl lmao. we don’t talk about that though we never talk about nik’s behavior at all. no what’s unacceptable is me reacting to your behavior. yeah right okay.

I think you’re pathetic and all your cool friends must pity you or are so obsessed with themselves they need your constant people-pleasing. Stop posturing yourself to be some sort of “male feminist golden retriever bf” you just come off like a rapist.

god please i really don't want to see him again please don't let him be there

>>2316110
This is an early sign of diabetes.

>>2316110
>>2316121
Kek no way. I'm literally diabetic and my piss smells like that too. Anon… go to the doctor pls.

One time when I was in high school I had such a severe sharp pain in my stomach that wouldn't go away after a couple hours so I begged my mom to come get me and take me home. When I got dropped off at home, I went to my room and let out the biggest fart of my entire life. And just like that, my stomach stopped hurting. Now whenever I need to fart I try to excuse myself to do it somewhere private just in case it builds up again and causes pain kek.

>>2316110
>>2316121
>>2316146
Not to discourage nonnies from seeking medical attention, but piss smelling sweet or like butter isn't necessarily a sign of diabetes. I've had my piss smell like anything from maple syrup to malted milkshakes and yes, popcorn. Because I'm a hypochondriac, I always went to urgent care the next day. Everything was always fine, I'm not diabetic kek. They laughed at me, actually, for wondering if I was. Sometimes the body just doesn't filter things perfectly and your piss can take on different scents depending on what you ate if you have an especially sensitive nose.

Vegan beef jerky and pea protein make my piss smell like vanilla for some reason. And when I'm dehydrated (thankfully very rare) my piss tends to smell like popcorn. Drink coffee? Yep, instant coffee piss and even armpits. Whenever I eat Indian food with a lot of fennel in it my armpits smell like brown sugar too. I've had a lot of tests done because I'm an anxious person and they've always come back perfectly.

>>2316607
Samefag but I just remembered that the reason I first went to the doctor for my piss smelling like food was actually after I had posted about it here and I had like 5 nonnies in a row tell me I needed to go to the doctor ASAP kek. I appreciated it, and it's still worth getting it checked out just in case (as long as you can afford it/have insurance), but unless you're someone who's actually at risk of being diabetic e.g. overweight or genetic predisposition, it's probably nothing.

>>2315744
does it look like she has a huge pinocchio shaped ear to anyone else?

Nonas, do any of you feel insecure about your art? Especially when your fellow artist peers are making meaningful art and I'm over here drawing my ocs & my favorite fictional characters doing dumb shit

>>2316556
yeah a lot more lately. like I don't relate to artists I see irl at all.
I feel like my work is immature compared to everyone else, like I didn't really grow up from liking colorful animals since I was like 6 and feel ashamed for it. things like that

Do any nonas here like to animate? I always thought I was never that interested in animation until this year I've been questioning whether my art really fulfills me emotionally or not. I realized what I truly feel passionate about is just seeing my ideas come alive in art format and I'm thinking about trying to animate something small to see if I find it fulfilling. Should I just trace over an anime gif to try it out? What are your experiences with the emotional/time investment in animating vs just drawing?

>>2316594
There's an animation thread on /m if you're interested

>>2316574
I indeed really liked it as a 12 year old new weeb and one of the characters was my first waifu but yeah, I agree with you about the long-term fans. Magia Record's existence hasn't helped. I do think people have always overstated the ePiC BrUtAlItY of the franchise but it's still pretty moid coded kek

Dance Central >>>> Just Dance

>>2316580
I would have beaten you for this opinion as a kid

>>2316562
Madoka was written by by a moid who also wrote an infamous loli "horror" eroge and the characters were designed by a woman with a creepy high school girl fetish. Madoka is moidgaze, it wasn't made with women in mind. I still love it though, the coomershit is limited to Mami's breasts being kinda big and that one scene in the final episode, even if the designs themselves have major moe/loli undertones but thankfully it doesn't go further than that which is why it originally amassed a huge female audience. I didn't keep up with the franchise and spin-offs after the movie which is probably the case for many of the other women who got into Madoka back then.
I don't know what you mean by "moid coded" though, it literally was made with a male audience in mind, so it's not exactly a secret

>>2316581
Not in Dance Central though

>>2314112
>Go outside you won't see many of them
God I wish that were me

>>2314121
Same i work in stem lol

I'm tempted to switch to LC for online interaction/my daily dose of social media. It's so nice being an anon. Blissfully unknown and happy. I like dumping a post somewhere namelessly with no attachment and not having anxiety about whether it's read/seen which social media apps tell me. Maybe I'm just a detached edgelord but it feels so… cleansing kek

>>2316572
I went a couple years without using the site until this week, honestly just know when to step away because imo the zeitgeist of this place really can be pretty draining despite the comfort in anonymous female community.