>>263947that's something I though about as well, I don't want to put the focus on past issues. Guess I will just wear short sleeves whenever I'm ready.
>>263950maybe I notice them on other people all the time because I'm so used to mine, I will see the smallest scar on another persons body. You are probably right and most people just don't notice and care.
>>263967I don't think I want to cover them anymore and even light fabric is too warm for my liking, everything above 18°C isn't cold enough for me, kek and I couldn't even think straight last week while wearing covering clothes at 30°C. Sadly, I can't stand the feeling of linen on my skin, but I will get some very light viscose or cotton shirts to put over when people on the bus are just too much to handle.
>>263968sad that you health care system is as fucked up as the German one by now. Don't let them push you away, you obviously need help and you deserve it. I have the feeling we both self harm for very similar reasons, everything you wrote is something I could have written myself. Especially the part that it's something that no one can take away from you, it took my years to understand where this feeling came from and why I felt that self harm is the only thing that I can control and that it's the only thing that no one can take away from me. If you feel like relapsing or just need to vent, come back here and write, I understand that you don't want to bother your friends with that and I fear that finding a therapist might take some more time.