I am so glad someone could relate! To be honest, I only came to this conclusion about myself recently, when thinking why, as a teen, I was okay being same-sex attracted, even though there were no positive influences, and why I hate myself so much for it now.>>174095>I would just say I was bi because that felt safer
Me af. I remember having a mental breakdown the first time I started considering that I'm actually a lesbian. before that, even when desperate for women, there was always "oh well, i'll just wait for a man to come along, everything is fine". Calling yourself a bisexual and genuinely believing in it was such a safe, warm blanket>>174092>yet I'm still not done deprogramming myself and I'm not sure if I ever will be
Seeing other gays talking about overcoming their internalized homophobia always looks so unreal for me, but it just means that it is possible!
Hugs to everyone. Sometimes what helps is remembering that we have always existed and as bad things seem now, at least we have a shot at having decent life for once in history.