I've got a teacher fetish because I'm a degenerate whore with daddy issues. When I was a teenager I had this one male teacher and he was so nice, so kind, loved his subject, never raised his voice, empathetic, a bit humble and nerdy. He even worked through his lunchtimes to help me with my work. I wasn't attracted to him then, I crushed on another male teacher (but that's a story for another time).
Anyway I've been annoyed at my husband recently and last night we argued and I guess I was wanting some kindness because I had a dream about the teacher (he was like early 40s in my dream and I'm 20s). I dreamt we were teacher colleagues taking the students on an overnight school trip and we were platonically having a lot of laughter and fun together as we shepherded the kids.
And then we were sharing a room in the hostel and I'm wholly against cheating, but tension was rising and I dreamt we said to each other how much we wanted to have sex… But in the dream I was still married (and he is too) so I said we could cuddle fully clothed on a bed. Because then if questioned we could say 'oh, we only hugged, as friends do'. And I dreamt we were facing each other cuddling in comfortable silence, pressed together from chest to groin and legs intertwined, just sad for not being able to be together and have a life filled with joy and kindness, but enjoying the closeness in the moment. And I felt him get hard and him being embarrassed and apologising but me saying it was okay and not touching him or anything, just lying there together knowing we made each other horny but not doing anything.
I guess my tamest sexual fantasy is just a kind man who will take care of me and never raise his voice or cause me upset. I know that's unrealistic but a bitch with cptsd is gonna dream still