>>584951I relate to some of this. Early on, I had crushes on both. I liked a male celebrity in my teens (but in my wet dreams he had a pussy.) I'm sure I'm bisexual with a preference for women. I'll only ever date women, will lose my virginity to a woman. I'm as sure of this as water is wet and the sky is blue. Women are sexier, prettier, understand me on a deeper level, my life would just fit so well with another woman. I imagined marrying my very close friend
that I had a crush on but got over but didn't have domestic fantasies about men. We all know how shit they are too, which for me is just another reason not to be intimate with them. When a guy I befriended at work started to crush on me I got the biggest ick, felt sick when he went in for a hug and didn't let him lol.
Which is why I don't even want them as friends anymore. All this to say, I'm still bisexual. There's a retarded idea of all sexuality being fluid in mainstream culture now, which justifies bisexuals labeling themselves as lesbian due to "compulsive heterosexuality." It's also saying in a round-about way that bisexuals must be 50/50 and if you swing heavily in either direction but have an exception, you're simply "straight or gay with an exception," when you're just bisexual. The only orientation that experiences fluidity or "bicycling," the only one that has exceptions, is bisexuality. This includes if you had a history of liking one sex but then only stay lusting/loving/pursuing the other till you die. People might call you a lesbian or that you'll go back to men. Still, I communicate my sexuality on dating apps or to others that ask simply by saying "bisexual only interested in other women." I'd say febfem too, if it wasn't attached to politics. Remember that even though our experience might look similar to lesbians, they never had crushes on men, or got attached to male celebrities, or felt that nervous/happy feeling from those fantasies. Once you realize this, you won't get so confused or have to fixate on it. And you can continue lusting after other women and dating them and not have doubts about your orientation anymore. Free yourself from ruminating on this and accept yourself as the kinsey 5 you are.