Thanks again, anon. You’re a good egg. I found your posts very helpful to read as well. I didn’t think of the men I had sex with as human since they didn’t think of me that way, but that was also partially a way of ignoring the fact that they did have other women in their lives. Many of them went home to girlfriends or wives or daughters. Some of them, I’m sure, told their friends about it and encouraged them to act the same way. Some of them - like your ex - must have told another women who was hurt by it; some will definitely keep it secret and trick their partners into thinking they aren’t that kind of guy.
My fetish was definitely shaped by the trauma I experienced. At the same time - just like with my alcoholism - I have to take responsibility for choosing to continue that path as long as I did, and for how my choices negatively impacted others. Your posts helped remind me why recovering from my former degeneracy is so important, and I really appreciate that.
Ugh I hate admitting this but I like pee. I want to be watched as I pee, I want to pee on a man. But only after I've drunk a lot of water, of course.
So embarrassing. Can anyone relate or am I gross?