>>458423anon I feel for you. I have ideas, but they're ideas that come from an addict's brain (mine lol) so please take them with a grain of salt. I'm currently doing OCD-based therapy. Shopping and collecting, when it's uncontrollable and compulsive, takes some notes from OCD. However, you may benefit from something like CBT or DBT, only because it's designed to pull your thought process out of your brain, put it into words or display it so it's visible, and piece it apart. It's therapy that retrains your brain. And before I go any further.. your brain can ALWAYS be retrained. Don't listen to people that say otherwise (it's been so long, you're a lost cause). We tortured a lot of monkeys to come to the conclusion that neuroplasticity is a thing, and our brain can stop using certain pathways and create new ones.
Right now, I'm taking Exposure Response Prevention therapy. I'm using it partially to retrain myself to not abuse drugs every time I have a moment to myself. I wish you the best, and I'm bumping this in the hopes you see it and more people contribute.
>AddictionsI'm addicted to speed and alcohol. I'm about to run out of speed. I hate myself for this. I hope I can find my way out of the hole that is leaning on powder and liquor to make me feel like life is worth living