No. 473173
>>472216ntayrt but this is interesting to think about. I had helicopter parents and I wasn’t allowed to do whatever I wanted, and my childhood/teen/young adult years were so busy and action-packed with stuff that I rarely had a moment to rest. Even during most summer “breaks” my parents enrolled me in summer classes, performing arts and extracurriculars, and I’ve experienced more things in my life up to my 30s than many people do in a lifetime.
Now that I’m here in my late 30s, it’s like…okay, what now? It’s like my brain is burnt out or something and nothing feels fun or interesting anymore.
My Nigel grew up with a much slower pace and he was a latchkey kid. He still thinks the most random and mundane things are like an adventure. He’ll get excited about a new restaurant opening, or a new video game, or we’ll go to the most low-key hangout, and afterwards he’ll say “Oh that was SO much fun” and I’m like “but didn’t even do anything”? kek. I wish I could see the world through that lens again.
No. 473249
>>473204Same. I was basically hypersexual through my teens and 20s and I remember hearing that some women have another sexual phase in their 30s where their libido kicks up again, but my experience has been the opposite. I used to wonder if I simply burned through my lifetime’s libido in a short period of time instead kek.
I feel like I would have been more successful and productive in life if I wasn’t constantly distracted by my horniness when I was younger, it’s like I don’t know what to do with myself now!
No. 473314
I'm a few months from 30 and I feel suicidal because I'm a failure. I'm still a kissless virgin with absolutely no friends and only distant family because all my close relatives are either dead or simply absent. I had huge dreams when I was a kid, I wanted to be an actor, couldn't pass the exams for acting school because my anxiety and autism kicked in and I had a meltdown in front on a big group of people, and the thought of this degradation still haunts me and makes me suicidal years after. I didn't go to college, I just started a physical job I do to this day and I hate it, because it ruins my health and my coworkers are toxic, and I'm too afraid to change it because I can't do anything else. After work I'm too tired to do anything besides sleeping. People used to tell me I had potential for this and that, they wanted me to go this school, blah blah. An art professor also offered me a job as an art tutor, but I couldn't take it because I wasn't social enough to teach others… And I squandered it all. My current job sucks the life out of me, I can't even draw anymore, and that used to be the only thing that made me happy. I just consume movies and I think to myself "that should've been me, if I weren't so fucked up I could actually have the chance to be there, to make movies, or at least create art, to make something out of myself". Meanwhile I have no artistic achievements, I'm not even a normie with normal life, I'm a total failure struggling with basic tasks. People are more forgiving towards weirdos if they're young. As I age, I will have less and less chances for a normal life or even a normal job. It's harder to make friends too, I don't even dare to think about a relationship because all decent guys my age are already taken. But I'm not even decent myself anyway. And I don't go anywhere to meet people. I would feel too stupid and pathetic to even talk to people who graduated from college, I just feel so dumb. When I was 18 I was sure I will die or just kill myself before I'm 30, and yet I'm still here, just as lost as I was at 25, 20, 15..