kek, turns out he had a secret girlfriend for the past 10 months and has been cheating on her with me for their entire relationship.
my friends told her, and she was gonna break up with him, but she decided not to and theyre still together. i cant imagine WHAT he told her to convince her to stay.
now they're moving cities alone together. he was planning on telling me the day that he moved, like a fucking coward and a sociopath. probably just to avoid the potential emotional repercussions while he was still in town, under the guise of trying to protect my feelings. i feel really bad for her, honestly, and him, too. i hope she has a thick skin, because he gets seriously fucking mean and takes all of his feelings out on whoevers around him.
we would literally start to fuck and have to stop because i would start crying because i was so sad about us not being together. this happened multiple times. he would literally lie to my face and say shit like "i havent kissed anybody since we broke up." he had every opportunity to think about what he was doing to both of us and kept doing it anyway.
is this just what i get for not cutting him off sooner, and letting him just string me along? he kept telling me that we could get back together some day, and we'd still fantasize about our future together. i just feel like shit. hes been my best friend for almost 10 years now and he blocked me like it was nothing.