/g/ - girl talk

You do know that you're going to hell for this photo right?
You fucking sinning whore(USER HAS BEEN PUT OUT TO PASTURE)

this is super fucked thinking back but i think i'm over it at this point and being able to talk about this stuff anonymously helps because i still dont feel comfortable opening up about it to my irl friends
>What caused your sexual repression?
I dont remember when and how I discovered masturbation but I know the first time my mom caught me it was before elemantary school, I dont think I even knew what sex was at that point I randomly discovered rubbing on pillows felt good and I would do it secretly sometimes(tbh i suspect if i was molested very early on in life just erased it from my memory because i never did it in front of my parents so the fact that i knew it had to be hidden is suspicious but i dont want to dig too deep into it because i dont want to find out something that'd hurt me) anyways one day my mom caught me by peeping through the key hole then had a talk with me it was the most embarassing moment of my life to this date i felt sick, first question she asked was if i had put a pencil inside and she was so relieved when i said no, she literally only cared if i was still a "virgin" or not which traumatized me for life im still terrified of penetrative sex. Then she told this incident to my aunt and she would jokingly insuniate stuff around me which made me even more ashamed then one day my cousin when we had a sleepover after a family dinner put on a porn channel on tv(ones where you had to enter a password to enter) and he would watch and laugh as i was doing stuff under my blanket, never touched me or anything but like there are countless events like this spanning years until hs(i got better at hiding) because i never stopped and my mom never stopped punishing me over dumb shit like taking my pillows away, calling me names and ignoring me for weeks which irreversibly impaired my perception of sex and masturbation yet i'm still trying to recover, i wish it was because of religion or culture so i could channel my resentment towards that stuff instead of her but she's not religious at all and she never implied it was a sin she'd just shame and ignore me just because she's a dumb cunt who should've never had a daughter. Like the way she handled my sexual development which was very innocent vs my brother who actually did some concerning weird shit that required a serious talk at least is infuriating to me but i dont want to dwell further or its going to turn into a mommy issues rant. I masturbate and consume pPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

Good thread! Looking back, I'm not sure where it came from, I never had any sort of trauma and didn't even have a religious upbringing. All it was my mother projecting her own sexual insecurities and neurosis (also, I suspect, her unconscious fear of men) onto me I think.
Every time we'd be watching a movie for instance and there was a sex scene my mom made remarks like 'Ew' or 'Gross' and she would switch channels. She was also visibly uncomfortable about the topic of dating and relationship, even when it was just about how my dad and her met. She never had a relationship after she had me. Also, whenever she heard a shocking story about a rape on the news she would tell me in the most detailed way possible and I never understood why (still don't). She would also compare me favorably to my cousin who started dating early and therefore fell behind in her studies because 'all she could think about is boys'. So I had this 'SEX IS BAD' mindset planted early on and I knew that if I wanted to be a good, moral person, and wanted to be loved by my mother, I had to avoid it at all costs. It also didn't help that teenage boys are obviously fucking vile and they made me super uncomfortable with their sexual remarks. I actually felt sorry for all those girls who were dating because in my head, a relationship was synonymous with the guy using and humiliating the girl for sex and I did not understand why anyone would want that. But at the same time I had sexual and romantic fantasies about guys (I had a huge crush on Spike from Buffy lmao). Even when I had the chance to have a relationship with a decent guy who was actually kind, I shied away from it because of my old thought patterns and also because I guess I was used to being alone

>What has your journey been like?
Went from being not interested in sex at all to being hypersexual but feeling very ashamed for it to being sexual repressed and easily triggered by all kind of sexual content
>What caused your sexual repression?
In retrospect I see now that no sexual thing I ever did was by my choice but to please others
>How do you deal with the loss of virginity when it was such a defining part of your personality your entire life?
I try not to think about it because it feels like something precious was stolen from me
>How do you shamelessly enjoy being sexual?
In my fantasy. But sometimes I dream of being taken advantage of and it feels good in that moment but afterwards I'm ashamed
>Which media negatively impacted your sexual development?
Normal tv shows, seeing women always being hypersexual I thought that's our job. To be fuckable and to please men
I have no idea where to start. I'm ashamed of my past and there is nothing what I do not regret. I'm jealous of women who are able to enjoy those things. All I am able to do is start to cry when seeing a sex scene in movies. I feel like a child. When I think about being forever alone it comforts me, like an old friend. I do feel like this old friend isn't good for me though. It's a deep sadness to know you will never have such a very human experience.

I went from being overly repulsed by sex for years to being hypersexual and I am kind of lost. I know what I have to do, but I also have zero clue. My hypersexual behavior is self-harm. I'm hurting a lot.

>>196482
my WHR is 0.65 what u gonna do

>>198440
Try this test nona
https://www.quotev.com/quiz/12925213/Kibbe-Types-Quiz

>>196469
i have a BMI of 19 but a WHR of 0.84… don't know what the fuck is wrong with my body

>>198480
there's nothing wrong god damn it anon if your body is working well why would you think it's wrong just because it doesn't fit an arbitrary number some nutjobs decided is "ideal". As if that number isn't completely pulled out of their ass and as if it means anything; why do they even make up such numbers when humans can't change themselves to fit into it

>>198440
Anon try the McJimsey test instead, it's so much better.

>>197737
Omg, I thought I was the only one. I always have a really hard time trying to find nice-looking and affordable boots that don't have a stupid zipper on the side. It just looks so tacky and bad.

>>197912
Hot pink platforms are everything. Platform shoes are beautiful.

>>198349
I unironically like this even if it's from suicide squad

>>197935
>not a psychopath I swear
uhh…are you sure?

On my psych np's orders, I went from 37.5 mg of Effexor to 0, and holy shit. I have been almost completely out of commission for three days now with what is basically the flu combined with a chemically-induced acute depressive episode.
I managed to drag myself to work on thurs and fri, but I was completely unproductive. I have no idea what I'm going to do if I'm not feeling better by Monday. (Being a mental healthlet, I don't currently have any sick days to spare.)
How the fuck are these sort of withdrawal symptoms acceptable in a drug?? If I could stand to be on my feet for more than 5 minutes, I'd be coming for the makers of this drug I s2g

>>198348
they really should educate people more about withdrawing from this stuff. had to stop taking my meds and for days it felt like life was in slow motion and I would fall every time I stopped walking

>>197935
My ex was an extreme BPDfag and could've written this so yeah, you probably are. The self sabotage, weird mix of no self esteem yet still arrogant, pathological lying, risk taking and wanting to fuck people over but also wanting them to like you. All I can say is that you cannot fix your problems by just willing them away. I promise you. You need to follow a system and commit to working on it every. Single. Day. Don't get comfortable or else you will backslide. Ideally get therapy with someone who specializes in BPD, but if that's too intimidating or too expensive, look into DBT workbooks. Dr. Daniel Fox is another good resource, he has a full series of free videos on managing BPD on Youtube.

>>198348
update for anyone that sees this in the future: my symptoms were getting better, but verrry slowly. I decided to get back on the Effexor and resume the taper. 37.5 mg is the smallest dose of the XR version, so I've been opening up the capsules and counting out pellets with a toothpick. I've resumed at 12mg a day, and while I'm still slightly symptomatic (mild headaches, dizziness when walking), I'm no longer incapacitated and I can do my work.
Note: the pellet thing isn't safe for all medications. Check with ur doctor if you're considering doing something similar, blah blah

>Met online, 17 and 18
>1 month of chatting becomes official dating
>We decide that I move in with him, in a foreign country
>Become 18, am big girl
>Within a year of talking I leave my country and move in with him.
>Parents couldn't care less, told them beforehand, not a single thought in their bran came that I could have been murdered or become human trafficked.
>Mediocre and stressful living with him. He loves gathering attention online, the only thing that makes him feel alive. So pathetic. Neglects me during the weekends, that's his only free time.
>2 years in, verbal, physical abuse, lots of arguments have developed. Had enough and become abusive the same. Not to mention the shitty mind games all through out.
>Chats and games for hours, still the same pos. I had enough and return to my country.
>I have learned a lot but gained nothing in life for that amount of time spent. Wasted my energy, trust and care. I'm behind two major things essential to adulthood. I'm mad at my parents, him and everyone else who treated me like shit.
>I'm working on one goal at a time. It's tough being in a place where emotional abuse is rampant and still on-going despite what happened. No one cares.
>Have more anger issues, most likely cpstd, distrust in everyone including my family. Hate everything. No more tears just pure anger.
>To this day, almost a year of the leave, he is still playing that stupid pathetic game he wastes money for.
Fuck everything

my first boyfriend was pretty much the center of our friend group and was such a narcissist he would sperg out whenever he felt as if he wasnt the leader or center of attention. anyway, when we started dating i was underage, he was 18 and really over sexual with me and being uncomfortable i vented to my best friend about it but when we fell out he told all this to a friend of his who told people and it went back to my ex. then he broke up with me because i told people and turned our friend group against me and created a narrative that i was a manipulative evil whore. so that was fun

>>191052
kek, turns out he had a secret girlfriend for the past 10 months and has been cheating on her with me for their entire relationship.
my friends told her, and she was gonna break up with him, but she decided not to and theyre still together. i cant imagine WHAT he told her to convince her to stay.
now they're moving cities alone together. he was planning on telling me the day that he moved, like a fucking coward and a sociopath. probably just to avoid the potential emotional repercussions while he was still in town, under the guise of trying to protect my feelings. i feel really bad for her, honestly, and him, too. i hope she has a thick skin, because he gets seriously fucking mean and takes all of his feelings out on whoevers around him.
we would literally start to fuck and have to stop because i would start crying because i was so sad about us not being together. this happened multiple times. he would literally lie to my face and say shit like "i havent kissed anybody since we broke up." he had every opportunity to think about what he was doing to both of us and kept doing it anyway.
is this just what i get for not cutting him off sooner, and letting him just string me along? he kept telling me that we could get back together some day, and we'd still fantasize about our future together. i just feel like shit. hes been my best friend for almost 10 years now and he blocked me like it was nothing.

Depressing how few inspiring/achievement based posts are itt. I love older women in community based jobs. So lovely having them around.

>>198292
samefag. I also love seeing older women take up or rediscover hobbies. I don't sew but vids like this are so comfy.

>>195148
Interesting. My mom (not white) has no wrinkles or deep lines but she has so many dark spots and deep hollow cheeks.

Snowpiercer sucks but Jennifer Connelly (50) is so hot in it.

>>195063
>>195148
>>198302
This is a thin (more wrinkles, less sagging) vs thick/heavier skin (fewer wrinkles, more sagging) issue. I'm a white woman with thick skin. Just by looking at my parents I can tell that gravity and scaring, not wrinkling, is going to be my nemesis. I also have way too many dark spots. Ironically, moles are associated with a slower aging overall.
https://www.bbc.com/news/health-11813378

The ideal anti-aging combo would be thick skin with great bone structure to support it.

For some reason I just adored him and then I got older and it all made sense

Elvis in the movie Speedway when I was like 7 (in the year 2000, I’m not THAT much of an oldfag.) I believe this movie is solely responsible for my taste in men. I’ve only ever dated dark haired, blue eyed guys and am currently married to one with said physical traits. Yes, I am aware Elvis dyed his hair. He obviously knew it was a top tier look.

>>198301
Are you Bruce Wayne? Because it is genuinely impossible for me to find boys w black hair and blue eyes just in my daily life

>>198303
I unapologetically have a type and wouldn’t settle for less. Although, I would say I’m not picky about other things. I’ve dated short and tall, skinny and overweight, but they all had black hair and blue eyes.

Old anon here. I was absolutely obsessed with Greg Lee from Where in the World is Carmen Sandiego.

flirting by insulting someone, male or female this behaviour is so pathetic to me

Men who say bro all the time.

>Men who daydream about stupid business schemes, try betting, read stupid self-improvment books, do stuff like crypto ot trading

Just find a real job,lol. Those kind of people are really annoying and I don't know why. I mean, if they are actualy good at it than fine, but most guys like this just think that they can do jackshit all day long and make mad money

>>198264
Basically my best friends ex kek. Glad she ended things with him.

>>198134
nta but that’s brilliant nonita thank you, my long hair gets caught in the clamp it’s annoying as fuck. I’m still learning kek

Have any of you tried dry conditioner? Dry shampoo makes my hair nappy af. Curious about dry conditioner though, right now I just use hair oils.

>>198240
No problem! I did it with my curling iron years ago. Just remember to put the tiny screw back into the barrel or the barrel will move around. I also have super long hair and the clamp always left a seam. Plus the curl pattern just looks nicer / tighter with just the barrel.

>>198109
No that's not it..

The beige combined with her skin tone and skinny fat body type is so unappealing.

>>198235
>skinnyfat
calm down

>>198235
I actually like how everything including her hair color and skintone is kept within that very limited natural palette

>>198235
this is one of the least bad outfits ive seen on reddit… her hair is a little flat/dead though, wish it was more naturally slightly wild/frizzed, would be better with the natural palette imo

>>198235
The belt is ugly and the cut of the shorts could be more flattering, rest looks fine