I have a similar body and while I relate to some of the things other anons are saying (I also wish I could come off more androgynous and elegant, and that I didn't feel so stocky and short and… dwarven??? sometimes), I really enjoy the fact that I have nice thick thighs, wide hips, and a small waist. it gives you an automatic nice shape that a lot of women strive for. similarly, I think it's a very feminine body shape, and you can still be slender with it; with a shape like this, as long as you're relatively slim, your shoulders are still small and your wrists and arms are slender and thin. I hope you can feel better about it soon, anon - it really isn't an ugly body type to have, and you're still perfectly capable of having the slender, ethereal, beautiful kind of vibe you want to have.
I'm not ugly anymore since I grew out of puberty, but I make me look bad/frumpy on purpose because, as dumb as it sounds, I can't handle the double standards and how people finally treat me like a valuable human being just for how much I changed, it makes my inner ugly child cry, its not fair and it fills me with sadness. My old self went through a lot for being ugly, i used to get heavily bullied from elementary to highschool, people went sometimes too far just to remind me I wasn't a supposed to love myself, even my parents hated how I used to look so they compared me to other kids, I was also getting beaten by them all the time, is like the whole world wanted me to kill myself. Now that i look good the difference is abysmal, is like everyone but me is happy that "ugly, frumpy and fat" girl died: my parents treat me with respect, they have more patience with me even when I don't deserve it, they barely ground me or punish me anymore and this true to most adults I interact with. People automatically assume I'm competent and stable (the later is far from reality, I'm very unhinged but they just ignore it for some reason), people casually talk to me and don't mock me for being awkward/goofy. My old self was very kind, innocent, less toxic and with good intentions, she deserved this treatment not me, tbh I'm not the best person but people treat me a lot better, is gross and I hate it. To see people that once wanted to destroy your self-esteem praising and loving you like nothing happened is surreal, to be aware of how many nice things you weren't allowed to be and how fast people changed their perception is heartbreaking. We truly live in a society.