/g/ - girl talk

>>445843
Good (or bad) for her then
>>443925
Congrats, and good luck in your future endeavours

https://www.hindustantimes.com/trending/onlyfans-star-who-cried-after-having-sex-with-100-men-now-wants-to-sleep-with-1-000-more-101733914870858.html
Sleeping with those she didn't truly like drained her soul

Tiktok has actually been so bad for glamorizing sex work; there’s so so many young girls flooding into some facet of the industry without doing any prior research, not even market rates or basic screening and they compromise their own and everyone else’s safety by being retarded

>>450556
Them and the clients wanting bare for 75 bucks will learn when they gets HIV and other incurable STDs. I love laughing at stupid scrotes on forums that pressured someone into bare/SA'd them and is shocked when they got something

I've been selling erotica in many forms since I was in high school and I've only recently stopped. If I'm honest, it started when I was a kid and was paid a substantial amount of gold in World of Warcraft to be smuggled into a bar in Stormwind to roleplay as a stripper for Alliance players. Being actually financially valued for something innate I have, and knowing that I could cultivate it further for greater profit, was incredibly alluring and became erotic for me at a time when I was just developing a concept of sexuality. It started in earnest when a guy I met on a 4chan vent server offered me money for a lewd ASMR and, being a dirt poor kid, I was hooked. $10 for a minute of whispering grew to voice-acting sex scenes, then selling my own erotic fiction, and eventually selling images and video of me. It took some time and an evolution of my business, but I built an online persona of a fictional character in an established fictional universe and would make erotic roleplay material with the characters of paying customers.

At no point did I make above minimum wage, but I was also only working for about an hour a day, which let me study while earning what I could while working shifts at a local store.

It definitely made me feel empowered when I was younger and treated it more like a passion project, but back then it was also sexual for me as the constant attention from men was something I fetishised. Eventually it became a job and I put barriers between myself and my clients/audience, making it just a bit disgusting in the end.

Ultimately it ruined me sexually and I have to practice "mindfulness" to try to retrain my brain away from deeply unhealthy turn-ons. It also ruined my perceptions of and feelings towards men.

There were so many times throughout my "career" where I was offered money, security, legitimacy etc. in exchange for my creative freedom, which equated to how much of myself I was willing to sell. Each and every offer turned out be poisoned apples offered by degenerate whoremongers. If this industry is going to exist, it needs to be regulated to the point where there are protections in place to set firm boundaries around standard and fair practice.

I like woody but slightly sweet smells on males

I got this for my Nigel on our anniversary, it really smells nice, it’s not super potent nor too delicate, it’s just right, it’s flowery and of sandalwood I think, very autumnal.

Oh God, ok, well-
>i dont actually mean musk or sweat
Oh…well I guess wood and earthy spices or whatever.

>>454242
Fr I clicked for the drawing. What is this?

>>454242
>>454316
DA but it's in the filename.
>__sunday_honkai_and_1_more_drawn_by_calendulamew__sample

sorry nonnas, this is probably gonna be a bit of a long rant. this thread is kinda dead anyway but i need to get it off my chest

i finally admitted to myself that i'm addicted to cocaine and realised just how fucking common it is in my country if you're young and live in a big city. pretty much all of my friends (not even just close friends - colleagues, acquaintances, my bf's social circle) have at least tried 'hard' drugs, if not use them semi-regularly/recreationally, and it makes it so difficult to try and have a social life that doesn't involve a drug of some description. it's not even a case of poor judgement in making friends or intentionally choosing to keep that company; i went on a night out with my coworkers for the first time and every single one was on class A's, my managers included, and as much as i enjoy party drugs (unfortunately) i hate how normalised they are here.

i dabbled in coke at parties or on nights out because i liked that it masked my social anxiety, gave me confidence in myself and kept the feeling that everyone secretly dislikes my company at bay, and let me be unapologetically myself with people instead of thinking i was too weird or that the 'tism showed too much. then i started picking up myself and realised that i don't get wired on coke, i just get really productive and motivated and i'm able to focus, prioritise, and organise my thoughts, which is a very very welcome feeling when chronic depression keeps me from doing shit that needs to be done. realised that this is actually a very common experience for those with undiagnosed ADHD, because essentially you're just self-medicating with a different kind of stimulant that has the same effect as adderall. went to my GP after doing more research (but tactically left out the coke habit part in case they assumed i was just fishing for stimulants), they said that they were also fairly certain that i have ADHD based on my symptoms and assessment, but a formal diagnosis will take years to get because the waiting lists are so long now.

which means that now i'm stuck as a high-functioning cocaine addict at 23. i have a fast-paced management role, i maintain a good standard of living in the city centre, i have a very large friend circle now and an active social life - but if i didn't use coke, i likely wouldn't be able to keep up with all of this and risk being so fucking depressed that i lose everything and get sectioned. i feePost too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>403021
Never tried drugs, but I also live somewhere with a major coke problem. Pretty much everyone under the age of like 40 seems to be on it. Not just the stereotypical coke users like young hard partying women with rich parents or lawyers trying to unwind from stress or whoever, but seemingly conventional, nice, normal middle class people are commonly on it. There are lots of people living otherwise normal lives, who after finishing their normal jobs on a Friday evening go to the bar after work, keep passing by you every five minutes because they're going into the bathroom to do more bumps, and then go home to their normal homes where their normal spouses and kids are. They're functional, sure, but the question is how long can they stay functional with regular drug use?
You're so right about how it limits socialising if you're not interested in taking coke. I'm basically a recluse at this point because I avoid parties and peer pressure and just hang out with my one friend whose also clean-living. I've drifted apart from people I used to be close to because I'm good at saying no. It's just really crazy how if you're in the younger generation and don't want to do a substance that could ruin your life, you're the weird one.
I really feel for you nona, I hope you get the help you need. Is it possible for you to ask your parents for a loan for the private diagnosis?
I don't have the solution to drug dependency of course, but I would suggest reading Mackenzie Phillips' biography High on Arrival for motivation. She's the daughter of Papa John Phillips of the Mamas and the Papas (famous hippy group) and her father gave her drugs from a young age. Started off with weed and acid and was on coke by the time she was in her teens. She was a functional coke user for quite a while when she was starring on a sitcom until she got arrested, and then her addiction spiralled out of control. But she got clean after hitting rock bottom on multiple occasions and has been sober for over a decade now. I think if someone like her, who was literally raised to be an addict can get clean and stay clean, then anyone can.

An update after I've managed to stop smoking any weed for about two weeks now. I feel so much better overall and my self-esteem has significantly gone up since. Not gonna lie, the mood swings are way worse than I would've anticipated. I can handle being overly emotional, but having such a short-temper when you're in a relationship is hard to deal with. I haven't been this snappy and angry since the worst phase of my teens, but I feel so grateful to finally feel my emotions, really feel them and be in touch with myself. This emotional rollercoaster phase is supposed to last for the first 2-4 weeks, so I'm excited to be past that point. Besides that, I'm starting to slowly build an appetite back. I didn't have much trouble with sleeping since I didn't quit cold turkey.

This is it for the negative side effects and the positives already outweigh them easily. I didn't have much relapsing thoughts, I knew my mind was set to it when I decided to stop. When I did, it was easy to blow them away since I've written down all the reasons I had to stop and all the positives I'm feeling. Reading what I wrote and keeping that in mind was the most motivating thing, and I'm excited to write a new journal entry at the 1 month mark to keep myself motivated. Telling people I stopped also helped me staying accountable. Now the hardest thing is realizing that even though it had taken such a big place in my life, it is not my only issue and weed wasn't the cause of all my problems. I might have had that mindset beforehand and thought this would be a miracle cure-all, but it obviously isn't. But it's way easier to face my problems now that I'm not held back.

Sending lots of positive thoughts and strength to nonas struggling. A lot of you itt are past the denial stage, already know why you're abusing drugs and what sets you back from stopping, so you have all the cards in your hands to make that change.

>>403278
thank you for this nonnie. 'casual' coke use is commonplace where i'm from too (might as well just say it: the UK) and what you've said about conventional middle-class people using on weekends with a spouse and kids at home is par for the course here too. it's probably less common in small towns, and i know that being a graduate in a city where nearly half of the population are under 40 means i have far more exposure to it. but in saying that, when i lived with my parents in a smaller town about an hour from a major city, i was still working with people my age who'd talk about their habitual weekend drug use, even when the local bars/clubs/pubs would only be open until around midnight.

slight tangent, but it's also standard to start going to festivals and parties at around 14/15/16 here - so naturally, when teens are away from parents for a weekend in a big field, sharing a tent with 10 mates and as much booze as their car can carry, they're going to be heavy and irresponsible with their drug use, and this is just accepted as a regular teenage experience. i'd probably be a hypocrite if i complained about the normalisation of it (as someone who partakes, largely enabled by the ease of being able to access drugs), but being able to source drugs at 16 for leeds fest should absolutely not be standard.

my parents wouldn't be able to lend me that amount of money unfortunately, and even though i have a great relationship with them and am open about my mental health, i'm not sure they'd consider a private diagnosis 'worth it' unless i told them about the coke addiction and it being the reason i need the medication. i'm fairly sure they know i've tried hard drugs on nights out and are kinda on a 'don't ask, don't tell' basis with me. they're cool with weed but confessing to being a cokehead is going to cause far bigger issues than i can handle honestly.

thank you for the recommendation, i love reading about success stories/watching intervention because it kinda humbles me when i start thinking things can't get any worse kek it might sound bad but it's genuinely really good for putting things in perspective and motivating yourself to make those changes.

>>403344
two weeks is good going, congrats! your laPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

Very important for addicts: go to 31:36 for tips about consequences of drinking too much alcohol/doing substances and some remedies to fight addiction

>>446904
See a doctor, I’ve heard of this happening with various medications

I'm very concerned. I can feel this hard spot on my left breast just bit above my nipple, but can't quite tell if it's a lump or not. Yesterday it only hurt when I press down on it, but now it's a consistent dull pain in that area. When I touch the underside of my breasts and the outer sides it also hurts but they're still squishy and soft unlike that particular spot.

It's not period pain, but on my last period, which ended a week ago, my breasts hurt more than they ever have in the past, like a stinging stabbing pain. I cried all night last night because I'm afraid of the worst. My family has a history of cancer. What's making me panic now is when I came home from work I noticed a faint redness around my left nipple. I am so, so sad.

i lost weight and my boobs are a little saggy, i don't mind but the texture is wrinkly, can i fix the skin somehow at least?

>>454059
Maybe tretinoin?

>>452859
I'm so sorry, this must be incredibly scary. You should check it out as soon as you can. The sooner the better, if it's nothing then you'll be relieved sooner, if it's the worst you have a better chance to treat it in less invasive ways. I'll be praying that it's nothing serious.

I am begging anyone who has gotten over binge eating for advice, I can't stop even though I live with my mother who will always comment on it which is so awful and humiliating but apparently not enough to stop me. Please can someone help, I have been dealing with the binge / restrict cycle for so many years and nothing works. I try to give myself mental permission to eat anything I want so I don't feel the need to binge (since it initially started when I was severely restricting and underweight) but I always have to restrict around my mother because every time I get food she makes a comment or starts an argument, then as soon as she is out of the house and I can eat freely I binge again, then she notices the food is gone and makes a massive deal about it, repeat ad nauseam. I know this sounds so stupid but I do not know what to do.

>>453173
Move out of your mothers house.

I just don't understand how I'm so eager to eat again right after having a large nutritionally dense dinner. Had cod with mashed potatoes, broccoli and kale. An hour later I've already devoured two rounds of toast and two massive cookies I baked earlier. Has anyone ever got their thyroid or levels checked to make sure their binging isn't driven by deficiencies cause I feel like I'm doing everything right with my meals. But still just want to shovel more in.

>>453178
I wish I could for many more reasons than just this one but I can't work

>>453173
I don’t know how helpful this might be to you, but I was able to largely recover from bulimia (i’ve been bp free for a few months now) by addressing other major stressors in my life rather than the ED behaviors. I listed out what was making me feel trapped or “stuck” in life, since that’s my trigger to binge, and started solving easy issues first before moving on to bigger and bigger ones. I didn’t do it on purpose (I had kind of given up on recovery, actually) but the urge to binge just kind of gradually went away. One thing I did have to force myself to do was to stop restricting food groups, since that made me too hungry, which made me fixate on food more. Maybe a way to start for you would be to put aside some money to buy your own foods to binge on, to remove the added stress of your mother knowing?

Can we do a summary this time please for the love of god

>>453353
Oh, my sweet prince… don't cry…

>>453249
Pls no long beard but his stubble is yummy. Also I hope he has lots of body hair because I love body hair I am sorry nonnies I don't shave anything and I wanna rub my hair all over his

Trump says that the shooting was a terrible, cold-blooded thing and that people who admire or like Luigi have a sickness. zzzzzz

>>453366
Only his legs are hairy

i can't believe i wasted so much of my life waiting to take hrt. i feel like "knowing" i was trans at the age of 13 and waiting until the big age of 24 to take hormones is sadder than if i just went on puberty blockers or some shit. i spent my entire adolescence and early adulthood absolutely loathing myself and assuming hrt would fix all of my shit. been off T for a little under a year now after finally realizing i wasted all of that time for nothing. the curse of being a lonely autistic tomboy as a kid lmao. good thing i never "passed" and never got any surgeries, i just have my voice to deal with post-t.

>>453254
I hope you can find like minded people in real life nonna. Acceptance is a long road ahead but it’s honestly the only thing that truly sets you free. Once I detransitioned (and actually went to therapy and talked about my traumas) I started to feel better, in the real sense at least. I still struggle obviously but I can finally understand why I feel this way in a sense.
When I was trans (l started when I was 19 and stopped at 24 and yeah, I even got a mastectomy done too, which greatly affects me now ironically kek) I always felt like I had to somehow prove myself constantly, it was like chasing a goal after goal, I was never satisfied in a way although it also helped me escape in a sense.

Also what did you experience once you stopped? Did your friend group react in a particular way? I got sort of gray rocked by the people who I thought were my friends kek until they stopped talking to me all together.

>>453271
thank you. a pretty prolonged period of therapy as an adult (intensive outpatient/partial hospitalization) as well as getting my eating disorder treated is what made me realize being "trans" was never the issue.

in terms of how people around me reacted… well i pretty unceremoniously detransitioned. i haven't changed my appearance at all (i never really presented as super masc even while pretending to be a boy lol no super femme stuff but i just wear sweats and keep long hair) so my friends haven't really said anything. i just told them i'm going off T for personal reasons and moved on. the only person i really "came out" to is my partner. i can tell i'm being treated as nonbinary just because i think there was some expectation that detransitioning i'd be piling on makeup and wearing dresses and whatnot….

i'm sure if i ever actually voice why i detransitioned and my general criticisms with gendie stuff i would get the terf label slapped on me and very few people would still speak to me. i feel a little embarrassed i'm not ready to face that yet.

I have a theory that detransition is not often talked about and easily dismissed because detrans usually do it quietly and without making a public case, wanting to bury their troon mistake. Is this true?

>>453310
If you're an online/otherwise prominent public person, you reduce your identity to that of an anti-trans activist if you make a big stink about it. You're not going to hear from the quieter, more typical kind of person because they'll be healing in private.

Cute in HSM. Now he looks like a washed up Mexican uncle on Telemundo.

>>448890
I'm guessing that's a tim and they're far from attractive yes but Anok Yai is the definition of someone average shilled as attractive.

>>449294
worst bait ever posted

Crawford

>>453273
lmao I didn't think anyone knew of this guy. I thought he was attractive (I used to follow him on ig) but I also got called an ugly moid lover before, so take that as you will.

>>448710
rude and ive been here for years. why is everybody on this website so catty and bitchy damn

>very sweet and caring person in general
>literal cinnamon roll
>cooks dinner for me almost every night
>very generous in bed, eager to please, loves giving oral
>cute blond twink four years younger than me
>doesn't give a shit that I'm older than him, calls me pretty and beautiful all the time
>finishing his master's degree in a STEM field, going into PhD
>drives me around everywhere
>generally pays for everything
>loves cats
>has a very good relationship with his parents and family in general
>patrician taste in music
>plays guitar

Nonnas, I think I'm in love

>>452593
Aahh nona im so jealous of you, I would commit homicide for a younger bf (especially one who is motivated like yours). Whenever i read about the Nigels you guys have i wonder why i never meet guys. Like how do you even find guys like that? Im in stem but all the guys at work are conservatives or incel atheists

>Texts me all day pretty much
>calls me whenever he’s going out and on the way home
>sends voice note good nights every night with funny stories and jokes
>goes to the gym with me five days a week and hangs out after too
>helped me quit weed without being judgy
>pays for everything
>said he loved me first
>goes nuts over anything nice I do for him (in a good way)
>calls me his princess and means it
>its been a year and he’s still as into me as day 1
>took me to my dogs favorite place last weekend to scatter some of her ashes, did not make fun of me for crying but instead held me for all to see.
>many more things I won’t post for brevity’s sake

Nonnas I’m just so happy. We have so much in common and we never run out of things to talk about, and he gives me love exactly the way I need it.

>>448326
Thank you nonnie! Hmm, when I first started sewing I also had the problems of fabric getting caught, it usually happened because of any of the following:
-too short sewing allowance (I started using bigger allowance than needed and trimmed it down afterwards)
-too blunt or too thick needle (best to start a project with a new needle, also pick a thick needle for thick fabric and vice versa)
-incorrect threading (just rethrrading solved the issue)
As for the face embroidering, yes it's always by hand. I use a water soluble topping stabilizer / embroidery film whenever I'm embroidering on plush fabric with long fur, see picrel.
First, I place the transparent embroidery film on either a printed copy of my embroidery design or the digital image I drew on computer monitor/tablet and trace the design with a water or heat erasable pen. Then I place the embroidery film on top of the project fabric, making sure to align the drawing on the film with the fabric properly. Then I secure the fabrics together with basting stitch and start embroidering the face, first stitching along the design on the film using outline/stem stitch (backstitch for tiny parts) and then filling up the pattern with satin or long and short stitch.

Here are some links to purchase the film if you're unfamiliar with them:
https://www.amazon.com/Embroidery-Stabilizer-Soluble-Topping-Transparent/dp/B095P9LJZ8
https://a.aliexpress.com/_oE48el7

>>448331
your hand embroidery is incredible and almost indiscernible from machine embroidery! how do you manage to make the satin stitching look so smooth and flat?

>>448332
Using the embroidery film helps a lot, since it then feels like I'm just emnrodering on a flat furless fabric. The film can be gently torn off after I'm done embroidering. As for the uniformity of the satin stitch, stitching the design outline and then filling it helps with making all the stitches the same length. Using single strands (most cotton embroidery floss had 6 strands twisted into groups, I take out only one) a longer time. Satin stitch also looks a bit weird if the area is big, so I use long and short stitch (the eye in picrel) for those parts.The rest of it is practice~

>>448333
>Using single strands gives a neater result but takes a longer time
Bleh, typo

I’m obsessed with picrel. I’ve used tissue paper and printer paper as tear away stabilizers before, but I always hated the aftermath. I bought the wash away stuff and it’s such a joy in comparison. No tiny bits of paper to tear out of seams, no worries about accidental added bulk, no concerns about a papery mess in your washer.

I originally bought it to stabilize a stretch knit that would have extensive machine applique on it. Worked like a charm. I just used a scrap from that project to help me in finishing the edges of a patch I am making, also by machine satin stitch. It turned out so good compared to my tests without. It looks like I used an embroidery machine or serger for my patch’s edges it turned out so neat and tidy.