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No. 2601319
A thread for venting about difficult, weird, or stupid stuff going on in your life.
Previous vent thread:
>>>/ot/2592932Follow all the /ot/ board rules & do not reply to bait.
Please, do not come to this thread to make fun of anons' vents, to demean them, or to try and be funny with some shit snark reply. It's annoying. If you do not have anything nice to say, don't say it at all. No. 2601351
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I am begging for someone to bully me into drawing. I want to draw. I know what I will draw. I have my references for drawing. But I can’t take the final step and just do it for some reason
No. 2601356
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>>2601351You should draw pictures of nice things with ethereal dreamy colours and interesting freehand linework…Or else
No. 2601386
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The fact that someone would sell something like this on the Internet is vile. This is absolutely disgusting and disrespectful, why would anyone buy this??? This same website sells real human bones from mummies too (another way to get cursed for life) no sane or rational person would buy any of this especially something as a human baby fetus. It may be something for medical purposes yes but putting something like this for sale online doesn't sit right with me at all. Warning don't unspoiler if you are sensitive to this.
No. 2601404
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I'm going to kiss a woodchipper. My kitchen has flour mites, they're everywhere! All over my bread, wraps, buns and the celebratory cupcakes my mom had gotten me. They're in cupboards that click shut too, with my tinned food and packet meals. I feel so disgusted I have no idea how long they've been there, but it must've been a while with how many there are. I am so nauseous I think I lost my appetite for a few weeks.
No. 2601414
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Truly what is the point of being alive if I can't have him (he's fictional)
No. 2601424
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I don't fucking want to watch talladega nights let me out of this hell
No. 2601436
>>2601427That’s interesting. Kind of reminds me of cremation but I can’t really describe why? I consider that to be
super fucked up
No. 2601596
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Watching smallvile for the hottie. Man I love good looking men, we should have more eye candy around. I don’t get why scrotes are so ugly.
No. 2601652
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im using my ex boyfriend for money bc he is rich and can afford it also he lied to me our WHOLE relationship. but GOD he is so fucking autistic i cannot stand him and i cringe everytime we speak. feels like he is putting on a persona and it's so gross. the constant love bombing is annoying like we broke up SIX MONTHS ago!!!!!! i cant wait to be well enough to work so i can block this pathetic loser and live my life in peace
No. 2601660
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I wanna post in the rpf thread but its pretty much just full of the oasis incest couple and I feel like I'm intruding on someone's conversation lmao. Good for them though, I'm just jealous
No. 2601686
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i'm doing so bad right now. self harmed for the first time in 3 1/2 years. pushing my bf away. he won't let me come to his place anymore because i self harmed so i'm stuck at my abusive mothers house. she literally hit me yesterday. bf can't come visit me cuz he's been working a lot and having car troubles and we live 45 mins apart. my dog lives at his place so i haven't seen my dog in two weeks. putting distance between us and forcing me to stay at my moms is just making me act out more, i'm on lolcow and tumblr all day dwelling on how horrible my life is, and abusing substances every day. fighting with my mom and my brother because they're crazy. i want to self harm more but that would make my bf even more upset so i can't. i am already self harming in the form of drinking and drug abuse so it doesn't matter. hopefully today can be a good day but i'm already starting out with negative thoughts. whatever.
No. 2601817
>>2601791That's hard to do, anon. I realized once i hit my early 30s, I was exactly like my father. Both the good and bad. We are who we become and we can get out of those habits. At the end, decluttering to only have the stuff that makes you really happy (ala Marie Kondo style) really does help.
Also, my condolences for your loss, anon.
No. 2601822
>>2601782The bad news is, people will always talk about you no matter what. You could try and contort yourself into being the most normal, well-adjusted and unremarkable person on the planet and they would still hold your old self against you. No matter how much you’ve changed, someone out there is probably going to remember some thing you said or did like 5 years ago and act as if you’re still that exact same person, even if they don’t even know you or you don’t talk anymore.
The good news is, you don’t have to give a shit. I know that’s easier said than done, but quite frankly, just let them have their retard opinions. They are discussing a person that doesn’t exist anymore.
Also, no offense but you and these other people sound extremely young still. You and everyone involved will continue to change in ways you don’t even know about yet. One day all of these is going to seem completely meaningless and inconsequential because it kind of
is. (No offense.)
No. 2601861
>>2601338Nonna you need to put your foot down and make some people very upset that you're not being a doormat. Be very clear that childcare is expected when someone is imposing on your time.
It's better to make enemies than desperately try to stay friends with people who regularly use you for entertainment purposes only, even if these people are your family. Focus on yourself and your son, everyone else can go fuck off.
No. 2601869
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It makes me so mad that children aren't learning Internet safety in schools anymore because it's anti-LGBT. However, this can't be explicitly stated, only phased out without explanation. I realised this when the Roblox bot that banned pedos was shut down for targeting primarily "marginalised groups" and I knew immediately that was a softcore way of saying it was finding a lot of gay men and troons. The more I thought about it, the more it clicked with me:
>don't talk to adults who want to discuss sexual stuff with you
(LGBT are obsessed with doing this)
>don't talk to adults who are in children's spaces
(Overwhelming amount of genderspecials playing online children's games and discussing children's shows)
>say no to adults who make you uncomfortable
(Immediately causes them to harass you for being a bigot)
No. 2601906
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Starting today I am no longer going to be policing other women, that includes tifs. Women policing and nitpicking other women is a taught socialized behavior that directly stems from the patriarchy as a survival tactic to be more appealing to both men and other women. This is a women's only problem. I have seen pedophile moids forgiven with open arms but women canceled by other women for less. It does not matter if I see a women both in person or online saying or doing something I disagree with, I will simply stay in my own lane as it does not fucking matter, it is not my problem and neither is it anyone elses. And by choosing to not say anything, I will graduate to not thinking anything, eventually I will be free of this patriarchal mindset as an individual. So long as they aren't extremes like rapists, murderers, or actual pedophiles, it does not fucking matter what women say or do, it is not my business nor anyone elses.
No. 2601915
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>>2601906Unfathomably based, good for you nonna! I'm going to work hard and mind my own beeswax so that one day I can be this enlightened too.
No. 2601931
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this isn't really a vent I just wanted to yap about how I love being such a fucking retard. I don't know what it is about me, if its truly just the autism, but I love not caring about social repercussions. I think this is because I know I will always do my best to act in a morally just way and all things I exude come from a place of good intentions. So I allow myself to be freely silly and whimsical. I just spammed half of my course groupchats with Start Diggin In Yo Butt Twin. Every time classmates start arguing I butt in and go "anyone else jerry riggin they johnson crazy style right now?" and it either confuses them into a ceasefire, or they start acting silly too. I love emailing my professors when I'm bored to yap about random shit related to my degree, or ones I'm not even taking anymore. sometimes I drop a random thought experiment like the trolley dilemma the night an assignment is due to watch them debate for an hour. Last night I spammed another groupchat with chinese cockroach torturing videos.
I love being joyous and whimsical. I love being fucking stupid. Classmate just had a mental breakdown over not being able to find the hidden key in a hexdump and the class average is like 40%? Here's a photo of what our professor would look like as a cat. I feel like I'm frolicking in Arkham Asylum
No. 2601933
>>2601907always struggled at school, had to repeat a year because of too much absence (because of both physical and mental illness) and being unable to catch up on material from math and physics despite trying, failed to get into art university (passed the practical part of exam but failed the oral one because despite knowing what to say I got paralyzed with anxiety and couldn't even introduce myself), diagnosed with autism and adhd (again, genetic retardation amplified by neglectful and
abusive childhood), failed to get into another university (again, despite learning, just not being able to mentally handle the pressure), being almost fired from my job a couple of times because I was bad at communication (if I asked too many questions because I wanted to understand something better - to them I was being too nagging. If I didn't talk enough - to them I wasn't showing enough interest with the job), endured bullying at work and being compared to forrest gump (kek literally) and because someone noticed I often take things literally so they were baiting me with things that weren't true (like my manager calling me because I supposedly made a mistake, even though she didn't call me at all and there was no mistake), trying to make friends and relationships but always failing because I wasn't able to spend enough time with them due to being overwhelmed so often and needing more alone time to recover. so you see I try but it'a never enough and it's been like this for over 20 years already, despite many various meds and therapists and psychiatrists
No. 2601943
>>2601934i wish there was a useful use of Ai like if i ask please find this very specific cat picture , i need it because its perfect reaction image for my post but i don't know the filename and i have 40000 images in my folder and i don't know how to look for it on google. just go into the folder and find the stupid pic for me and save me two hours of autistically going over all of my retarded unlabeled memes.
but no, its just a shitty glorified google search that always talks condescendingly like redditor imitating Marvel movies
No. 2601956
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I want to post my makeup for feedback on Reddit or even ig/tiktok but a moid has been stalking me for years
No. 2601991
>>2601713you’re pathetic as fuck and nobody gives a shit about your self loathing based on some ludicrous hierarchy that you’ve constructed in your own head. go outside or something
>>2601804no it’s not just you this “vent” is actually the apogee of retard
(bait) No. 2602043
>>2602036he kept his fetish private until after they broke up to which she asked "how come you never got jealous whenever men leered at my ass?", and thats when he confessed to being a cuck. in an attempt to get her back he offered her money to indulge in his fetish. i think the idea he had in his mind was that shed find some black guy off tinder KEK
men are soooooooooooo pathetic this is the gender that tries to larp as superior to us
No. 2602094
I hate when people get in my business and try to cover it behind being worried about me.
Recently I broke up with my partner in an amicable way. She was one of my best friends for so many years and even when our love has changed, I don’t think it’s fair for me to hate her or expect her to hate me. It’s fine, it’s cool. We’re not ever getting back together and we’re sure of it, there’s no mixed feelings, only respect for each other and it’s simple as that.
When I tried to explain it to my friend group, they had some questions about our feelings (and I guess that’s fair, tbh), so I did my best to be assertive and transparent about it. I didn’t tell them any troubles or arguments we had because truly, there were none. The feelings just changed, the routine became boring and too much and we decided it was the best to continue in separate ways.
I feel like they can’t understand it because they weren’t in the relationship. They keep telling me I’ll find someone better, that I deserve someone better and all the things I already know because my ex is my ex for a reason. What they don’t understand is that I don’t need any of that: it would have mattered if I insisted on being with her or if I would have wanted her to be my partner, but now? Now it doesn’t make sense.
It almost seems like they want me to be resentful or hateful towards her and it’s not going to happen. It seems like childish to me.
What pisses me the most is that they always accuse me of not speaking enough about what I feel and think and when I do, they just don’t want to understand my point.
No. 2602127
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well for some reason I show up on russian dating sites. disturbing.
No. 2602155
>>2602136yes, they were sites specializing in single BBW for sure.
>>2602139it's hard to tell because I tried to go to the actual domain it redirected to something that seemed very scammy but still dating-orientated? there was also much more than one.
No. 2602214
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>>2602200I hope so
nonny, my back hasn’t been acne free for years and I am so ready to put this behind me. Thank you for the kind words and encouragement
No. 2602302
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I know I'm such a bad friend for this but…
I feel like I only have energy for certain people, social bandwidth- like, my best friend, my mum, my sister- even if I'm tired, I can listen, hang out, mostly because I want them to feel loved and know what's happening with them.
But bro. This friend is so draining. Like we were out yesterday, and none of us were high, but she just had to take strong edibles in public and drink lots, so she was trashed, and exaggerating how trashed she was for attention, so we couldn't even talk to her, we just had to babysit her, and keep complaining that her shirt was falling down and trying to get people to look at her boobs. She always has some shit going on, I'm so tired of listening. Why is she always in relationships with terrible people? Why is she so addicted to sex with the most random people? Why is she surrounded by drama? Why do I have to listen?
Bro, stop drinking so much and texting me about it, yes sometimes you need to process pain, but this is different. It's like she doesn't want a solutions, she loves her drama, her problems, and keeps texting me about how drunk she's getting at 10am, I've bought grocceries with her, tried to help, but she just acts up and wants my constant attention and sympathy. Girl I'm tired. I've just had exams. I don't want to hear about your kinks, your hookups, your terrible exes, babysit your drunk self, how hot you look, how much you hate yourself. I feel like an audience to her life. Like I'm just there to give her attention, she would never engage in proper conversation unless it vaguely revolved around herself or sex.
I blocked her on everything after she got really weird about involving me with her current (at the time) relationship. And she found the one random platform I hadn't blocked her on after a while to 'get back in touch' and I felt like I had to comply because she said she had some suicidal thoughts. But then in person, she laughs and arranges dates constantly and complains about being completely broke but buys clothes and games and whatever instead of saving to move out or buying proper food. I don't know. I really don't know if she's actually suicidal, she says she's getting a friend to call the police on her so she can get help. Clearly she does need it. And I want her to get better, really. But being her friend is draining. I'm only doing it because I'm scared her words are real, even if it looks like yet another attention grab. So I guess I'll be there for her until she goes to hospital. I've lost patience as our friendship goes on. I feel drained after being with her.
Long story short- being the friend of someone who constantly ruins their life and constantly wants attention and an ear for it is exhausting. You don't 'love' me. You don't even know me. You love my attention.
No. 2602314
>>2602304 The same exact people who were behind the comic bubble in the 90s funnily enough are the same ones running the auction houses and grading companies that caused the retro market prices to artificially go insane.
Influencers and speculators ruin everything.
No. 2602321
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When I lose a little more weight I’ll make gaming and baking and adventure videos. I owe this to my little self, and it would encourage me to continue allowing myself to enjoy life if I feel there is some purpose i.e. making a fun video of it. I am just so nervous because I lack confidence. I could begin now but it is probably best to wait until I am skinnier again so if anyone sees them they are kind. Or maybe it doesn’t matter. But do I show my authentic autistic self or curate things and tell white lies? Fuck.
No. 2602397
>>2602391You're operating on insane hard mode, 3 under 3 including twins is truly unimaginably difficult for most people. But it HAS to get easier, they will eventually be able to communicate and be more independent and you'll have kids who love you while your ex won't. Have you tried joining fb groups for single mothers or parents of multiples? Maybe talking to people in similar situations would help.
But yeah I completely agree with you on hating men for that. It's unbelievably unfair and ofc society rewards them for it with minimal consequences. I honestly don't think men are naturally supposed to be involved in child rearing, it's too easy for them to abandon their kids without giving a single fuck whereas that would feel impossible for most mothers. There's something very wrong and broken in men.
No. 2602411
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Last year, for our anniversary, my bf took us to a luxury spa and hotel in a castle. After our spa treatment, we went for a fancy dinner inside the castle. As an anniversary present, I bought and customised a Tamagotchi Uni for him. I spent over a week taking it apart, sanding down the shell, priming and painting it, as well as adding custom designs. He was thrilled to get it, and loved it right away. I also got myself a Tamagotchi Uni, and we both started them on our hotel trip.
Well yesterday we got into an argument, I complained its hard to feel romantic as he doesn't set the mood when he takes me to these romantic settings. He then called me out for ruining the romantic atmosphere at the castle last year because I was "playing on my tamagotchi the whole time." Yes, I was caring for my tamagotchi through our dinner, because we both had our tamagotchis out and I just assumed it was a cute thing for us to both be doing.
I was honestly caught so off guard by him bringing up me being on my tamagotchi at the dinner that it almost shook me to the core and made me see myself in a really hateful light. I hate being autistic and clueless, I hate being childish, but I also hate feeling like I can't be truly happy or truly express myself. I can't win, I'll always be retarded and fuck everything up, to the point people keep it bottled inside for years after. I'll go through my whole life just embarrassing myself and others, and have no clue until its too late. I really wish I wasn't fucking autistic. The new Tamagotchi is coming out (around our anniversary, again) and I just get upset seeing it, after finding out about last year. I told my bf already I won't take my tamagotchi to our anniversary this year. He then acted upset at that, and said I'm not being true to myself. I just can't do anything fucking right. I never thought a fucking Tamagotchi would turn into this
No. 2602421
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>>2602414I don't understand why he couldn't tell me at the time that he didn't want me fussing over my Tama at the dinner. Instead he just set a platonic atmosphere, to the point when we walked back to the hotel room I told him I didn't want him to touch me and I just went straight to sleep. I rushed after our spa treatment to get all dressed up for him, and he didn't say much beyond "you look nice." This year we're going away for our anniversary a month late because he didn't book our trip in time (he pays for everything in our house, everything when we go away, just everything overall, so I can't be too pissed about it) and it pissed me off a bit, I said I don't want a repeat of last year, then he decides to drop the Tamagotchi nuke on me. It honestly left me speechless. One year of quietly seething over a Tamagotchi. I told him yesterday not to worry, my Tamagotchi won't come this year, and he got pissy saying I'm overreacting. I asked him to tell me explicitly where the line is with the Tamagotchis (I'm literally autistic) and he said "I don't know" It's just been made into this huge deal now, and if I don't take my Tamagotchi he'll yap that I'm being overly dramatic, but if I do take it he'll potentially silently seethe over it for 12 months before letting me know it pissed him off
No. 2602428
>>2602420We didn't have sex because he pissed me off so bad, I just said in my other reply. He was being so platonic with me, barely complimented me after I spent over an hour getting ready, barely touched me outside of holding my hand walking to the dinner. We got back to our hotel room after eating, and he just puts on the tv immediately and lays at the other side of the bed. I was so pissed I got into my pajamas and ready to sleep. He tried to put his hands on me and I told him to just fuck off, that although I loved him taking me to such a beautiful place, he's ruining it by acting like we are just friends on a trip or something. It's only a full year after he says this stuff about the Tamagotchi being the reason for that, which makes zero sense, as he loved his Tamagotchi and we took a lot of cute photos of them around the castle gardens. But he equated feeding the Tamagotchi (who was a baby, so was quite demanding) to being on my phone. Truthfully at the time if he told me he'd like me to put my Tamagotchi away I'd have said no problem. It's the fact he lets me continue for a full year thinking back "what a nice dinner we had, with our little tamagotchis" only to find out no, he was seeing me as being very rude to him!
No. 2602429
>>2602421>>2602420 here, looks like I was right that it was actually about sex considering
>I told him I didn't want him to touch me and I just went straight to sleepHe wouldn't give a fuck about the tamagotchi or the atmosphere of your dinner if you fucked him afterwards, I promise you that. When men talk about romance, they mean sex and if it was your anniversary he 1000% expected it. He can't outright blame you for not wanting to have sex because that's rapey so he's blaming it on the tamagotchi.
No. 2602436
>>2602427That's true, maybe that's why he's been so evasive when I ask him to tell me directly where the line is crossed when it comes to Tamagotchis. I genuinely want to do right by him, and if he sees a baby tama being fed the same as me being on my phone, I can understand that and will factor that in. But he won't come out and say it, and when I push him to tell me where the line is he just tells me to be true to myself, when I was being true to myself the entire time and apparently it pissed him off
>>2602434He makes really good money, pays for everything in the house, anything I want, and is helping me start my own business. He is also an amazing and patient cat dad. So I'm going to be tolerant of shit like this, he was ironically a good father to his own tamagotchi. That's why this stuff was so shocking for me to hear, I really believed we were both just having tamagotchis together. I'm not sure how to navigate this year's anniversary. Do I really test him with my tamagotchis, or send a message by not bringing it and make him feel guilty about it?
No. 2602525
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Just got a lil' crush for a guy with a girlfriend and I need this feeling to go away now.
No. 2602528
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I recently met this girl and I have a weird feeling about the whole situation. Like we’re meant to have a deeper connection, or there’s something karmic about the whole relationship, but there’s this glass wall between us. There’s nothing romantic/sexual about it, it’s just a weird feeling.
The thing is, she’s in a relationship that appears to be pretty unhealthy and her girlfriend is the jealous type. She never, and I mean NEVER goes anywhere without this chick. At this point I’m wondering if it’s really her choice. I’ve never got the opportunity to hang out with her one-on-one and they seem so attached to each other that I would feel weird even asking. But without hanging out with her one-on-one I can’t get to know her more, and I always get this feeling that there’s something she’s not telling me. Like she’s silently screaming.
Lots of weird coincidences happening. She told me she keeps having this reoccurring dream where she tries to hang out with me but she gets lost or kidnapped along the way. Us having the exact same tattoo. She told my house looks exactly like her childhood best friend’s house.
No. 2602531
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i dont think the hole in my heart from being unloved by my mother will ever heal
No. 2602578
>>2602552it's interesting talking to women in unhealthy relationships because when defending their man, they often project their feelings of doubts and anger towards him onto you. and so they can go back to status quo and defend him. nothing in my post implied i thought he was playing "4D chess", i was saying he sounds like average shitty male who won't uphold his end of the relationship. it sounds like you may be scared of him manipulating you with his money.
> I think he was just being lazy and didn’t care if I was upset about it, which isn’t good at all obviously but that’s males for youonly you can decide how much disrespect you can tolerate but this is sad. if your anniversary is important to you, it should be to him. it sounds like he didn't try to make up by making you feel good on your actual anniversary to make up for this. if males suck you don't have to date them, or be emotionally invested.
No. 2602677
>>2602283I just feel terrible about it. Why am I wasting my time talking about others? I wouldn’t dream of ever saying the things I’ve said on here in real life, I was taught my whole life that it’s wrong, it goes against everything I strive to be and it’s so
toxic and horrible. I cannot look back at all the work I’ve done to improve myself and to have a a good mindset without knowing that I wasted a good chunk of my time deliberately going after others on here in ways that I would never forgive someone else for doing, yet here I am doing it myself. It’s shameful and disgusting and I should not have done it but now that I have, it’s nobody’s fault but my own.
No. 2602680
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>>2602658Your boyfriend is a piece of shit break up with him. Do what is right for your cat and get him the help he needs. It could be kidney related. Is there anyone else that can help take you to the vet when it opens? If there are any emergency vets that are a bit of a drive out, it's worth it to make the journey. I'm sorry you and your cat are going through this nona, I hope everything is okay. I know how hard it is. You're not overreacting and it's better to get this checked out sooner rather than later.
No. 2602705
>>2602699This vent was due to the fact that a retard was arguing that misogyny stems from the perception of gender, hence why trans women actually live through great heights of misogyny and oppression. Someone replied by saying that femicide doesn’t happen due to perceived gender and used china and their one child policy as an example on how female infants were killed. The retard couldn’t argue and just spammed genshin impact pics.
I hate them.
No. 2602776
>>2602774yes i do, i use a vaginal ring. wait until you find out no bc method is 100% safe!
>>2602775thank you, i'm 24
No. 2602801
The slutty/whore like girls always get the actual quality men. And a lot of men always say they want good women, but go for the exact opposite. I keep seeing this happen.
No, you are not "empowered" because you had sex with men who your relationship with lasted 1-2 months and who you KNEW you were gonna dump. That's called being a stupid bitch. But it's ok, you got the rare good guy, fell for an even better good guy, then started finding any small reason to eventually break up with him and immediately hook up with the new guy, while still posing as a victim that your previous relationship did not work. Girl, I may be nodding but I see through all of this. You're lucky this dude doesn't care about body count because no man coming from a 9 year old relationship would have a good opinion if he knew you slept with 3 guys in less than half a year
Yes,moids are shit and all that, they aren't a prize to be won,but seeing these kind of women get their way every single fucking time makes me tired.
No. 2602814
>>2602677No offense nonna but you're not that big a deal. This is an anonymous imageboard where we go to be retarded and nitpick and shit on the stupidest things on the planet. No matter what unforgivable things you've said, someone has said worse, and we've all moved on.
If you're obsessing about your posts and your actions to this extent you genuinely need therapy. Being brought up to always be kind will make you go mad at some point since you're not 'allowed' to be negative in any way, no wonder you're a nitpicky bitch on anon. Calm down, it really isn't that deep, but definitely look into therapy for your issues around being in any way negative about others because that's obviously fucking you up.
No. 2602821
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i cant sleep im irritable and i want to binge eat
No. 2602824
>>2602801I mean it's easy to get a scrote every weekend and get him in a relationship if you offer sex immediately, that's how men operate as much as they proclaim they want a "pure" woman.
I don't even believe that that is the right formula anyway, you can be as freaked out as you want, even accept having threesomes in your relationship, but you'll still get cheated on if the scrote so much desires so, men's selfishness and greed is like that. Romance doesn’t really exist and it’s a psyop made to keep women complacent.
l'd rather remain alone if the price of getting a good man, who isn't even good in the first place, is just sleeping around, it's not my character and it will never be.
I have a friend who is like that, she broke up with her boyfriend and is now sleeping around with 4 men in rotation, even twice in the same day and hearing her geek about what are essentially mediocre experiences (one of them doesn't even do foreplay, but goes straight into penetration) is kind of bleak and depressing and just enforces my own ideas about hook up culture.
No. 2602860
>>2602854We'll be here when you wake up
nonnie, the next few hours are the quietest so you may as well get some sleep ♥
No. 2602878
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>>2602854hush little nona don't say a word
mama's gonna buy you a big cow turd
and if that big cow turd don't stink
mama's gonna buy you a milky drink
No. 2603049
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>feel really stressed out because of a lot of shit coming up
>always get blisters or peeling skin on my fingers when I'm stressed
>last night it felt like something was stuck in my hair like hair product or dried face wash
>turned out to be a psoriasis(?) clump behind my ear, and I scratched off a bunch of skin chunks with a decent amount of strands of my hair attached to them
Now I feel even worse, I barely have to start the process of getting a derm referral and I'm already supposed to have an appointment with an ear nose dr next week because I get super dizzy from store lighting. On top of all this my car will be at the garage for a couple days and I go back to work on Thursday but now my scalp might be fucked up too aaaaaaaaaaaa
No. 2603054
>>2603049I know this isn’t advice thread but I feel you and I had similar issues with hair and head and shoulders cured it. If you haven’t give it a try love you
nonnie stay strong
No. 2603070
>>2602969This, you simply can’t have a normal conversation with them going retard brained.
I just remembered that I had a very nice dress with a v neck on and while I was vibing to the music at a concert, my friend told me that the scrote who did the filming had the camera on my cleavage and I honestly wanted to kms due to shame lmfao.
I also live in oversized clothing, but I sometimes like to wear cute stuff sometimes kek.
No. 2603089
>>2603082This is generally a good thing no?
>>2603078I hope youre in therapy nona…
No. 2603103
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>having fun being im my little imaginary world and talking to imaginary people
>genuinely getting excited and giddy imagining us hanging out and having having inside jokes and unique philsophical perspectives on life that nobody else understand
>suddenly hit with the realization that none of this shit is real or ever be real
>"good god i am a fucking loser"
>i lock myself in my room and smoke until i forget that this is my reality and can retreat back into my autistic paracosm
and to clarify these fanatsies can go on for hours and happen everyday at random, its not a "teehee me when i imagibe scenarios before bed" thing this shit is genuinely maladaptive and delusional, but like i dont want to get rid of it because its the only thing in my life that makes me feel any semblance of comfort if you exclude drugs and alcohol, which probably sounds sad and pathetic but it is what it is
No. 2603120
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>>2603108>We are real anondoubt
No. 2603126
>>2603109I think that’s all of us tbf kek, every single users post histories would rival a Shakespeare play.
>>2603117The world is built on validation, tit for tat, and most of the time it’s unfair attention economy where people get the most attention whoring rewards while others get nothing. When people say they don’t want it they’re coping and lying.
No. 2603132
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>>2603120I don't see a problem with your perspective, each person is an interesting and unique snowflake with it's own special patterns. Instead of melting yourself to change into others, why not just enjoy being the main character in your story anon
grammar/psychosis-triggering gif No. 2603139
>>2603123>instead of melting yourself to change others, why not just enjoy being the main character in your story anon?i feel like the only story i coukld be the main character of is like one of those weird arthouse movies about the mc slolwy going insane.
>>2603126>every single users post histories would rival a Shakespeare play.i keep having schizo fears aboit being identified on here or having my ppst history leaked. genuinely terrifying.
No. 2603149
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>>2603141i do make art. likr music and paintings and sculptures and such but i keep most of it to myself with filtered exceptions that i consider "safe enough" to post online. my aunt has been budging me to like start seelling prints or whatever because i guess my oueuvre IS impressive but in like "what teh fuck is going imside of her head" way. I really like making abstarct/psychosexua;l art and experimental poems related to my characters and autobiography. maybe some day ill stop being a pussy
No. 2603171
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I made the mistake of commenting how lolicon is pedophilia in some random comment chain on a photo of a barely clothes saba (vtuber) cardboard cutout on instagram and now I have moids DMing me calling me all types of horrible names all because I criticized their animu child drawings. I just ignore it but it's scary to me how angry males get when you criticize their coom, how does that warrant a paragraph sent to me privately telling me I'm fat retarded and should kill myself? Males genuinely scare me.
No. 2603177
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>>2603154>It's so easy to become deeply disillusioned with life and the world around you when the fantasy is so much more pleasantik im not unique in that but i wouldnt call my fanatsies pleasant, at least not in the conventional sense. most of them also feature insane levels of phychological dread that i experience in day to day life, but like, amplified. i think the psychology behind this is that its easier to cope with my shitty sad life if theres a guy inside of my head whos also having a shitty sad life or a life thats even more pitiful than my own. i think this feeling of having subject someone to unimaginable suffering in order to feel less alone or like your life is somehow not as bad cuz its better than theirs is what motivates a lot of irl abusers, except im better cuz i do it to fictional faggots and not thinking breathing human beings.
>Do things for your imaginary people.thank you nona i promise to keep their water bowls clean and provide them cromulent levels of enrichm,ent
>>2603155>We've reached peak embarrassment on the internet, no one really cares anymoretrue, im just extremely vigilant due to past trauma, and mental ilness, prpobably. thanks for your support and the kind words, its becoming a rarity on this website
No. 2603227
>>2601351DO IT
DO IT NOOOWW
GET INTO DE CHOPPAAAAA
No. 2603350
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Same anon as
>>2600300>Sunday night>Tomorrow morning I can call the doctors and get antibiotics for my ear infection.>Get period unexpectedly>Take pain killers because I know what's coming>Too late>Combination of ear pain and period pain cause my arms and legs to go numb and my vision to black out>I fall on the hallway floor like Snow White after taking a bite of the poisoned apple>Wake up>Pain.>Rocking myself back and forth hoping the pain subsides>At some point the adrenaline becomes so strong I am shivering and barely feel the pain anymore>Go to bed>Monday morning >Feel too lethargic to use phone, barely swallow pain reliever pill>Miss opportunity for morning on-the-day appointments>In and out of sleep>Finally call in the afternoon on the house phone. Hope it won't be too long because it's expensive as it's charged by the minute.>"Appointment desk closed after 2pm, please fill out online form. You are currently: 7th in the queue" >Hang up after 10 minutes>Fill out online form in detail (30 minute time limit)>Submit it with 2 minutes left>Online form says it will call me on mobile number>Turn volume all the way up to make sure I don't miss it >Get call>Do not disturb function automatically rejects it.>Killing myself.>Top up phone credit>Call back>"You are currently: 6th in the queue.">Killing myself why did I leave it on do not disturb mode>"You are currently: 5th in the queue.">I should have just stayed on the call from the start>"You are currently: 3rd in the queue.">Why did I forget to take it off do not disturb FML FML FML>"You are currently: 2nd in the queue.">Fml FML fml >"Hello, medical centre calling.">HELLO—YES, YOU CALLED ME JUST NOW BUT I MISSED IT>"Date of birth?">Gives date of birth>"Name?">Gives name>"You said you were called by us?">Yes.>"We do not have any record that we called you.">(FMLLLLLLLLL)>I see. If I am not called tonight should I call tomorrow for an on-the-day appointment?>"No. You will be called within 72 hours.">Right.>"If the pain worsens tonight you may go to A&E.">Thank you.>"Thank you. Take care.">Take care.>Hang up>Could have been taking antibiotics right now if my period hadn't FUCKING INTERFERED No. 2603370
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How can I break free and start being a normal? I'm so addicted to my phone an online spaces. I used to be so active and now I can't motivate myself to do it. Every waking hour of the day I'm distracted.
No. 2603399
>>2603370Delete the addictive apps from your phone and only access social media on laptop or desktop. If you don't have an actual computer, charge your phone in a different room so you don't scroll first and last thing of the day. Read before bed to unwind instead of looking at the screen.
Do the bare minimum of exercise you like to start (like going for a 20 minute walk or doing a short exercise video). It doesn't have to be intense, just something consistent.
You'll probably have to force yourself to do these things at first to disrupt your habits. Look into dopamine detox. Work in some boring tasks every day (like folding laundry or sitting in silence for five minutes). It can take time, but it's possible with continued effort. Don't quit or beat yourself up if you slip up. Just keep it moving. You'll get there.
No. 2603449
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>>2603333You and me nonna, let's be each other's favorite.
No. 2603456
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I cannot for the life of me find a double vanity that is 19” deep for my bathroom renovation.
No. 2603480
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I miss when nights felt long.
No. 2603564
>>2603333>>2603484The best explanation I can come up with is that being almost anyone's best friend or being a fully accepted member of any group requires a level of buy-in that some of us just can't manage. Most people do it automatically without even having to think about it, your friends' enemies are your enemies, you love what they love and hate what they hate. Humans have really finely tuned social instincts and are able to pick up if you're not 'one of the group' very easily, they might not even be able to explain the feeling but they keep you at a certain distance even if they like you.
The good news is that you're probably a individual with a strongly defined sense of self and ethics, the bad news is that the price you pay for being an individual is a certain level of background loneliness. Kek, pardon the pseudo-intellectual word vomit.
No. 2603576
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>>2603540Idk nonna, I have a friend who is exactly like
>>2603333And it's like. I love her to hell and back, I only go to sleep if I'm sure she went to sleep, I only can't answer to her text messages immediately if I'm working or busy with something really important, I even make in-depth analyses of her text messages so I can take my time and respond to her properly when she vents to me.
Yet she still says that she's no one's favorite and that no one cares about her.
This is something I wish I could tell to her, mostly, but I know I couldn't because that would make her crash out.
But maybe you need to think about what type of responses are you getting, sometimes people are braindead like myself and all I can say at the moment is
>damn that sucksOr send a picture or something to try to cheer up the venting person because psychologists cost money and they can't be your friends or family so getting a "good" response to a vent will never be possible, specially from a friend.
And that doesn't mean the person doesn't care about you, it just means you're like a too clever hamster who needs to get tricky as fuck puzzles to keep your too smart mind entertained or you will eat your own legs out of boredom.
So like, at this point I don't know what's true loneliness, I'm also particularly a loner to some extent, so I don't necessarily vent to people or talk too much in general, so I seriously don't understand what feeling unloved feels like because I got all the love I needed from my family and never craved for the love of friends. I just know how to give what love seems to be to me.
No. 2603588
>>2603085hey yeah it’s still me.
Honestly it’s normal for scalps to peel, it’s skin after all. I think H&S is very effective for this long term because it restores the microbalance of your scalp, which then in turn can produce oils and shed normally. Styling products, heat, perfume can all disturb that very moist and poorly circulated area if you think about it like that.
the derm appt is still a very good idea. Maybe it is something H&S can’t help, but it rarely hurts to try.
I got a rid of my scalp flakes by brushing my hair with a very fine soft bristle brush and using H&S as my first shampoo
I have ultra fine wavy hair though so ymmv
No. 2603592
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>>2603576It sounds like the way you guys live and deal with people will result in permanent coping with how "wrong" the world is. Like every day will be a challenge in making things feel okay, bc you've created an insulated fake environment where you aren't becoming calloused to bullshit that doesn't matter or able to be comfortable being on your own. You kind of have to take a fledgling approach with this kind of person or just submit to being their replacement parent for the rest of your lives
No. 2603709
>>2603350Hopd you get better soon.
>>2603359It's fine, it can be fun sometimes.
>>2603406Same. I have millions of ideas but I never start or do any of them, or I do then I drop it and never pick it up again.
No. 2603737
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work is a stupid thing and i hate that humanity has been forced into it to survive but god i appreciate it for forcing me out of the house. i fucked up my sleep schedule and am just sitting around feeling miserable, i almost called out, but i'm actually happy to go to work now just to take my mind off how gross i feel and get some fresh air
No. 2603789
>>2603737I enjoy my job for the most part, it keeps me active and allows me to see a fair bit of country. One day I'll make enough money to own a few acres and dedicate myself full time to my real passion though, digging holes.
>>2603775Kek, you do you, sounds like you've built a good life for yourself. Maybe spray your nigel down with the garden hose and get him to go run around in the yard from time to time though.
No. 2603792
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I am very open about my hate of "friendslop" i.e. low quality games made for playing with friends. But really I just feel very alone and isolated and would like to have a friend group to play slop with.
No. 2603831
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When can we admit that some of these nice, smiling, "progressive" women, actually just hate other women? Nearly every story I've seen like this has a female judge making excuses for the raping scrotes
No. 2603839
>>2603778Yes! I was exaggerating a bit though, we cook together but I hate touching raw meat or wet food so he handles that. He only does the laundry because he's worried I'll see a cockroach or get scared of the dark in the basement. Obviously I pay for everything other than the bills, I'm just forgetful so he pays them because…well because I forget to.
>>2603789Kek noted, will do.
No. 2603855
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Why do men like to meme about women reading dirty stories as if that's comparable in any way to the porn industry? You could read about being bummed by Bigfoot and friends on the daily and it wouldn't be as damaging as witnessing a drugged-up, serially abused young woman squealing and crying on camera for change. Men are fucking nasty.
No. 2603889
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>>2603886I'm with you anon
No. 2603992
>>2603975Your feelings are definitely
valid, anon. Maybe talk to your father and tell him that you are feeling left out. Communication really is key in a lot of these situations
No. 2603998
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i’m really panicking over finding a fulltime job once i graduate because i am in my mid-20s and i’ll have a humanities degree soon (no debt). so many people in my family are telling me i need a full time job (i haven’t even graduated yet) but none of them are perfect either, some live off their husbands or are deep in debt. i have been crying over finding the perfect “career” since highschool and have a lot of experience across different jobs but feel like i really fucked up because i can’t do these part-time jobs forever, despite how well they pay. i figure i can go for a phd in a couple of years, and maybe learn a separate skill upon graduation while i work and apply to jobs with my degree. but i am debating on taking loans to go into some stem field. what does anyone do for work these days? i either meet people who are 21 with a real estate or law career (helped by parents) or my age working normal jobs or supported by their boyfriend. do i need a different career to make it or can i just find a job willing to take me on, and if not, make a fulltime job myself with one of my skills? or just go to grad school? i feel so fucking retarded, my days are miserable because i sit ruminating and researching wtf to do.
No. 2604037
>>2603992>>2603994>>2604010I do tell them and imply it as well but I guess I need to be more assertive about it? Like i havent went to my dad and told him directly that it feels hurtful and neglectful but I guess thats what I need to do. I just feel ungrateful because he financially helps me get my education and lets me live here without rent so I feel like im being a brat for asking for anything more. I have a friend who's parents made her homeless as soon as she turned 18 and I just think of how much worse it could be.
>>2604014It wouldnt bother me as bad if both my parents didnt do this. My dad is a lot better than my mom is with her ex-husband that she's still pathetically obsessed with but. still.>>2604021I mean.. Two things can be bad at the same time. Im sorry to hear that.
No. 2604153
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>>2603709(1sr ayrt) thank you nonna for your kind words, have some bunny boys as a show of my gratitude. I am definitely going to book a new appointment tomorrow.
No. 2604259
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I know it's likely a done to death subject here, but I genuinely feel so miserable with how commonplace female objectification is. I used to not really think about it, when I was more of a pickmeisha I was able to just dismiss it as sexual freedom or free speech or art or whatever. But now that I've realized how deviant and heartless men truly are, seeing how prevalent this sort of shit is it just revolts me to no end.
I'm a fan of slightly older Japanese films (mostly 70s-80s), but whenever I try browsing around to find something new to watch, just witnessing the amount of sexplotation flicks that exist (or roman porno or pinku or whatever the fuck it's called) where it's just about women suffering and being sexually exploited is vile. Hundreds upon hundreds of titles called shit like 'Rape Hell', and 'Angel Guts' just casually existing and no one ever batting an eye makes me feel sick. The only thing that makes it worse is knowing that there's men in this modern day and age who still actively enjoy watching these movies. They will put all their damn effort into waxing poetic about how "oh this is actually such an artful piece of media and it's actually so tragic and beautiful!!" is truly what makes me feel sick to my stomach. These fucks aren't enjoying their torture porn for the 'plot' they just like seeing women agree to being degraded for their own sick pleasure and entertainment.
It truly sucks the life out of me and drains me of any motivation to even try doing anything. Older Japanese media is such a particular passion of mine, but just fully realizing how much of it is manufactured by porn sick men makes me feel so sad. I used to enjoy all this stuff so much before I became more informed, and now that I am, I'm engaging with it less and less and I just feel sad that I'm slipping away from an interest I used to really value and love.
(And yes I know this isn't an issue exclusive to Japan, but I'm a weeb so that's what I'm focusing on okkkk)
No. 2604280
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My favourite artists deleting and moving accounts or DFE and never returning has really made me indifferent to digital art. Genuinely started to become interested in physical art lately. I'm primarily into anime stuff for the fanart and fanfic.
Since gendies have ruined fanfic, I turned to Asian artists. But then the Asian artists kept acting like spergs so I've just stopped becoming interested in anime stuff.
No. 2604333
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>Sleep for over 14 hours today for unknown reasons
>Start getting ready for bed tonight
>Realize I took a full dose of the as needed sleep med I’m prescribed, rather than my normal nightly med
>Sleep schedule is now fucked up and I have to get up early tomorrow
What’s the point of it all nonnies
No. 2604344
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>>2604333See you in the morning anon, sweet dreams!
No. 2604362
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i was working on a drawing at work whenever i had some free time between customers and it was turning out pretty good. i hid the drawing under the printer and left for the weekend. came in today and checked under the printer first thing in the morning - it's gone. checked all the drawers and it's nowhere to be seen. i know i shouldn't have left it there but still.. i'll ask my coworker if she's seen it. i hope she just hid it somewhere
No. 2604373
>>2603039it is a hormonal contraceptive which uses both estrogen and progestin like a pill would, which is shaped like a ring and inserted in your vagina. just as safe as other hormonal birth control
you should really educate yourself better nona kek
No. 2604391
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i want her so bad. im too shy to talk to her now. too inexperienced to ever please her. too aware, knowing it could never happen. but fuck if i cant stop thinking about her. i cant deny it anymore.
No. 2604457
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Just broke off a decade-long friendship with my only female close friend, because she is too male-centric. She was on one of her rambles about how all women are mean and mentally abuse her, and how she prefers to hangout with "the boys" and hates when they bring their girlfriends around. I honestly feel bad not because I will miss her, I just feel stupid for wasting so much time on that friendship.
No. 2604467
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I really dearly miss my internet friend. She was the only person I've ever known in the whole world that truly felt like my kindred spirit. She's the first person I've met who shared every single last one of my interests and actually knew and cared about them deeply. It still makes me smile to think of the first time we met in person, when we both freaked out because she recognized everything on my bookshelf and we talked for hours all night. It felt like I could bring up any topic that popped into my head and she would be several steps ahead of me, having already formed a thoughtful and informed opinion on it. I was so grateful for how she would patiently teach me about her more niche areas of interest and generally let me into her world. From my perspective it feels stupid that our friendship had to be cut so short because of some drama and misunderstandings, but I know that I don't know the full story. It's neither in my hands nor hers, I think, so all I can do is hope she someday reaches out. I still have her bracelet with her name on it, she asked me to mail it back to her but I could't bring myself to do it. I don't think she would ever browse here, but I know she's out there somewhere and I hope she knows how much I genuinely miss her and wish her well.
No. 2604489
>>2603358update for myself since nobody gives a fuck about me:
>hand swollen so fucking much it can barely be moved >dumb fucking family member (my mom) who couldn’t even help me go to the URGENT CARE but ordered stupid expensive food to eat >goes to the emergency room where now even when I have health insurance they still charge me for money and I still have $900 to “pay” which i’m not paying >it’s cellulitis not some fucking basic ass insect bitesso if I just stayed there and sucked it up I would’ve lost my hand or would’ve been hospitalized. i’m really surrounded by sociopaths, every single fucking human being is a sociopath
No. 2604509
>>2604497Ty nonna. No idea but I’ve been sleeping in a shitty ass hotel kek probably the reason or my immune system was just in overdrive from the stress it decided to reactive heavily to something
>>2604498Ty so much as well nonna ♥ hope you’re doing good right now
No. 2604518
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I really feel like theres something inherently wrong with me that just makes me unlovable. Because why does everybody I love and care about treat me like im worthless lmao. Even my family.
No. 2604546
>>2604539I will never say “you’re going to be fine!” because the world is predictable with its shittiness and misfortune but if you have that in mind it’s probably probing something deeper in your life and your mind you’re likely overlooking, and it could just be a simple existential crisis. There’s alarming rates of younger people like us getting a bunch of cancers and becoming crippled, sick, almost mutated, but you have to live your life unfortunately with the harsh idea that life doesn’t have any impermanence, that people don’t often get applauses or support for their suffering (especially when they do get cancer and other debilitating sicknesses), and that you’re really going to have to be your own internal and emotional support network. This is just retarded advice you didn’t ask for but honestly this is what the world is, it gives humans fucking cancer and loves to destroy lives, but it banks on your reaction because this world is fueled and energized by your justified worrying and suffering. Stoicism is retarded, self-help is retarded, but the most normie advice of acceptance and neutrality is the best course of action for you and your sanity. I’m done yapping, tl;dr nonna you are having an existential crisis
No. 2604562
>>2604555I have always been weird honestly , the stuff I have is not worrying
>had a random thyroid cyst pop in a single day. It was 3cm>my stomach burned for a whole week this month. I couldn’t eat anything >I have a constant high eosinophil cells>I sometimes loose blood and mucus from my stool >sometimes my legs hurt>I have bad cramps during my period. I think there is something wrong with my vagina too because I can’t put anything. I have went for my doctor regarding the blood and she told me that it’s probably hemorrhoids and to come back again if it still happens. I have to do checkups for my thyroid, but it’s okay now. My gyno told me that there isn’t anything wrong too.
No. 2604571
>>2604562Do you have a family history of cancer? If you do, you can use it to push for a colonoscopy or mammogram or something earlier than the usual age they recommend starting at (40s). If you don’t already have a general practitioner, you should get one and describe your general symptoms to them and they can recommend next steps.
More and more young people are getting diagnosed with cancer, so they shouldn’t put up much resistance. But if they do you’ve just got to be insistent.
No. 2604594
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I seriously can't deal with how insanely ugly most guys are. A few days ago, this dude I’d been chatting with decided to send me shirtless pics right after he found out who my husbando is (a total 10/10 whose pecs I'm absolutely obsessed with). I can't even describe how grossed out I was when I saw the guy basically has gynecomastia and a torso that looks like it was thrown together with zero visual coordination. And the worst part? He's not the first dude who's had the nerve to show me his body. Years ago, some guy with the saddest, flattest butt in the world, boobs bigger than most girls', and a beard that looked like pubes actually told me my boobs were saggy. Then this other man, late 20s, who was balding and looked like a troon told me I should be grateful he was talking to me? Kek.
I honestly don't get how there are women out there spending thousands of dollars and hundreds of hours trying to look perfect for these deformed gremlins.
No. 2604620
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>>2604594Reminder they deliberately tried to shill this ugly thing as a magical warlock moid that most of humanity worships instead of just accepting the real one was supposed to be a handsome elf. Ugly moid proliferation is a serious problem that needs to be dealt with
No. 2604625
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>>2604594Do you heavily filter, angle or shoop your pics? A lot of moids are functionally disabled now and will compare your actual image to instagram fails and feel convinced you don't measure up. Even if they see both women irl, they still go home and compare pics. The other option is the classic incel neg
No. 2604640
>>2604625I don't even post pics online kek. I met all of them irl (the moobs moid was the only one I met online). So there's no way they are comparing me to photoshopped pics of me.
>>2604601Agree, I really hate how they could get fit and look way better than with their deformed bodies.
Men being so ugly shouldn't be normalized, especially with the egos they have.
No. 2604653
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>>2604640>I don't even post pics online keBased nona. I thought you might have met them online and they thought you were less attractive without doe ears or w/e. I don't think many moids talk to women irl
No. 2604682
Today started well, I randomly found 20 bucks outside, bought myself a cake, had a nice walk but then got followed by a creep. Ruined my whole day. I'm so over being a woman sometimes, it's too scary, too stressful. I just wanna have a fucking walk and enjoy my day without having to worry a creep will grab my arm without my consent and force me to talk to him. It's not gonna happen bitch, get out of my fucking way before I stab you in the ass. But that's the thing, even if I feel like talking back or fight, I still get angry at the end of the day, it's still a negative emotion, I get anxious and nervous, and it ruins my whole day
No. 2604734
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Ever since I've divorced I feel like something has been broken in me and my personality has been changing in unpredictable ways. Things that I used to not notice or be even a little bothered by get under my skin in a way they never used to, when I'm alone I'll sometimes start crying over ridiculous shit and I never used to cry even in extreme circumstances. For fuck's sake I was balling my retarded eyes out last week feeling guilty about all the splattered bugs on my work truck while I was at the wash. Feeling any desire to share my feelings or post in a thread like this is also new to me, quite odd.
I don't really miss my husband or pine for the past but the day I hit my limit and definitively ended things does seem to mark a fucked up turning point at which it suddenly became harder to coast through life on neutral. For the most part I'm still pretty well my normal self and hardly a lacrimose puddle but I revile this state of constant siege from an advancing and very much unwelcome sentimentality and really do hope that it stops soon.
No. 2604816
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>>2602621(replying to unpopular opinions here because it's a vent not an unpopular opinion)
As a woman with a somewhat even-sexed group of friends (3 men 2 women), I feel deeply alone hanging out with male friends most of the time. My current roommate is male and although he is a childhood friend, that doesn't really mean… anything. IDK if he even has the same conception of friends as I do. But on the surface it seems like a reasonable friendship, yet I still feel paranoid about it. It didn't help that as a kid, I have some kind of rejection wound for trying to play with the boys when I was like 4 and taking off my shirt (to be like them) and having them all scream at me and make gross noises. Or then having a cousin that used me (yeah) and then got too old to hang out with me and only contacted me again to see if I wanted to talk about the fucked up shit he did as a kid. And then having a dad who decided it was better to wait to treat his kids like equal humans until they were moved out and gone. I grew up with a weird idea of how I could get people to be my friends, and I figured the men that rejected me would have been my friends if I acted more boyish. I never thought "I need to be a man" but "I need to stop being a woman so they don't act weird around me" because I just wanted friends.
It's pathetic and sad and I really hope to one day have a strong female friend that's more like a partner. I think that's what I'm really looking for. Someone who likes me for me and doesn't use me. This has tainted all of my relationships because I am a doormat that searches hard for reasons that I'm the problem and changes myself accordingly, I attract (as a result) people who take advantage of others, I create what I fear, I react to it, rinse repeat.
I woke up this morning wanting to live by myself on a hill with my cat. There has to be a way to break this cycle, right? Has anyone had this experience and then found someone that proved your anxieties wrong?
No. 2604952
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I STILL need him and he's STILL fictional
(Picrel is not him just the dynamic we'd have)
No. 2605061
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One of those "none my business but I can't look away" situations.
A friend-of-a-friend is dealing with the classic abusive stalker-ex situation. Threatens her regularly, posted RP of her to facebook, has parked his car in a parking lot near my friends house while she was there. (How I learned about all this) She is legitimately scared senseless of this faggot to the point she won't even talk to a lawyer. "He has a gun again" as if that means anything. And also has the false impression he will eventually get bored because "he's seeing someone else now anyway"
Want to crack at least one knee. Probably could I have reach on the guy. Don't want prison.
Angry.
No. 2605086
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You'd think after weeks of taking them you'd get used to it but I still have to work myself up to swallow my magnesium supplements every single day.
No. 2605088
>>2605084The legal way doesn’t work. They’ll literally wait for the woman to be killed before they do something and a piece of paper won’t stop a deranged psycho
Seriously , she should hire a couple of scrotes to beat him up. That’s the only way men learn, by being beaten.
No. 2605122
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>>2604707>when you care about health and looks is so fucking hard. You clearly don’t though?
No. 2605178
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>>2604769I'm sure it's normal for others but it's definitely not normal for me, I'll probably just have to accept that it's taking me longer to get back to normal than I'd like. Thanks for your reply, I'll see about trying to get through it without turning into a snapcase. Crying in private over roadkill and splattered insects is probably a relatively inoffensive outlet, just annoying not feeling under control.
No. 2605202
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The YouTuber I have a weird autistic crush on just did a face reveal, and he's ugly.
No. 2605279
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>>2605270Ha-Ha!
my condolences nonna. it jumpscared me too. No. 2605298
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I've spent a good portion of my life looking from afar at cool communities and wishing very hard I was part of them, but I have no idea how. I've been asked a few times at concerts if I was a musician for some reason and I'm not, I'm not an artist, nor a writer, I'm not a creator at all, just a consumer who has nothing to bring to any community.
No. 2605411
>>2605375>Maybe you can give it away if you live in a social neighborhood, like an elderly person or someone on a tight budget might very well appreciate a home cooked meali live in an esatern european commieblock and dont talk to any of my neighbours. also a lot of them think that im a batshit crazy schizo drug addict which is partially the truth but thats still not a good reputation to have
>>2605393>Come on she just wants to care for you. Why not put it in the freezer and eat when you get sick or something.because this isnt about the food anymore, its her repeteadly and persistently ignoring my wishes and then getting upset at me for the food going bad despite me warning her that its what going to happen
>My mom didnt even cook for me when I was a kidmine didnt either, and when she did i would get stomach infections from her food. i think this is partly why im so upset like she never tried to take care of em like that when i was still a child and now its too late and she doesnt even realize that
No. 2605416
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how the hell am i supposed to accept being a woman? i hate this so much. women here talk about womb envy and inherent reproductive value like its a good thing. everywhere you go, people have their eyes on you. youre walking around carrying something everyone wants control over. i wish i could be free. an outlaw, with no meaning or purpose or demands from a society that looks at me like im cattle. i want to brood aimlessly, and take walks to nowhere, and live a life i can drop at any minute that will never hold any value. i want to be a drifter, but no one will ever leave me alone, and all men outside of society's restrictions would try to hurt me because they want something from me. im never a neutral entity to them.
No. 2605420
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My coworker has been asking me to cover her shifts, and at first I don't really care but she's been asking me with less and less time. She's literally asking me to come in less than an hour. I don't know how to politely say no because I'm a total doormat but she seriously treats me like I can come in at any time. I just do it so I can get payed more.
No. 2605443
>>2605420>love this picrel, I want to pat this kitty’s belly and pawsNonna she is specifically targeting you because she sees you as a doormat. Refuse , explicitly, get even annoyed if you need to. It’s time to stand up for yourself, because no one will otherwise. If she comes again I want you to say
>look X, I am not available for exchanging shifts this month, my schedule is tight.And don’t you dare apologize either. GO!
No. 2605447
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>>2605445I’m venting that my tummy hurts, so keep it down thanks.
No. 2605468
>>2605450Kek I think so. This was probably the last day where it was edible. Eggs go bad easily.
But I’d rather the stomach ache than share with my retarded roommate (who by the way hasn’t cleaned shit despite it being his turn). I’ll have t o remind this 30 year old Notredame Hunchman that I’m not his maid for the nth time.
No. 2605681
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>>2605532You could always love you despite how imperfect you are.
No. 2605792
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Sometimes I feel bad that I won’t be making my mother a grandmother. I’m sorry, but this life is mine. I love her so much but I am free. I will not chain myself to another being forever. I hardly respect other mothers who choose to have a child on this shit earth, especially if you live in the US or a third world. She probably won’t be getting anything from my older brother too, we’re both autistic.
No. 2605842
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wish i could've spent my early twenties going to weird underground raves and clubs instead of struggling to pay for uni and pass and struggling through covid and dealing with the aftermath of all that holy shit…i can't be 30 in the underground club it's so over
No. 2605879
>>2605842Don’t be a pussy anon
>>2605854 is right
No. 2605900
>>2605867yes that's called an eating disorder and it's possible to recover from it. Completely unrelated but
>>2605822 I disagree, many of us, perhaps even dozens, are really well-adjusted.
No. 2605983
>>2605979I'm 30s and I get bullied by women like this who are in their 50s or older. When I was a teen and early 20s I thought maybe it was just a generational difference but no, it has never gotten better because these women are insecure as fuck and my mere presence makes them feel diminished and threatened so they just gotta attack my dress cause they cannot come for my work.
And the fact that they go over me to my male boss instead of talking to me directly, the manager, because they are such passive aggressive chicken shits. Ugh.
No. 2606029
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>>2606003Therapy only works if you want to be there. If you went as a preteen and couldn't actually engage in the session because you were too in your head or self-conscious of course it wouldn't benefit you.
I also found that it depends on the therapist. For me, someone closer in age to me, but a bit older and obviously a female, made me much more comfortable to open up. I also think of it differently. I'm able to tell things to my therapist I wouldn't normally tell people because they're professionals, kind of like if I was sick and telling my symptoms to a doctor. It just got to a point where I couldn't keep it all in and I didn't care anymore. I didn't feel judged and getting it off my chest really helped. That gradually chipped away at the shame I was harboring and that already made a significant difference in how I function day-to-day, which was my goal for therapy. To be able to live with myself as I am and not be burdened with shame given to me in childhood. It also gave me an awareness of what was going on in my body (like trauma responses) and how that was linked to attachment issues. That awareness helped me understand what was going on when I I was experiencing those responses and that, along with breathing techniques and pivoting to different activities, helped me cope. A lot of my therapy is reparenting myself. You need a goal in therapy, a reason to be there for yourself and not just because people are telling you to go, which is too vague and will just feel like you're forcing yourself to go to please others. Also, if your problem is you have no friends and you want them, in my experience, problems with socializing and interpersonal connections can't be healed on your own. You need to connect with another person, talk to another person, to improve. All the best nona, sorry for the wall of text, I guess I'm passionate about it because I truly saw a difference in my life and became less uncomfortable and suicidal as a result of therapy.
No. 2606050
>>2606038First AYRT, I got exposed really early on before I hit puberty and thought it was an escape from all the shitty things that come along with being a woman (spoiler, you already know it doesn't). The people in my life at the time were also indoctrinated from early ages and struggled as weird maladjusted preteens/teenage girls, so we were all in an echo chamber and never heard differing opinions or the "ugly" parts of transitioning. Also worth noting "detransing" was a huge no-no, you'd immediately become le ebil terv this way, it's really disturbing looking back on it. I never wanted bottom surgery because
trauma down there made me afraid of people being close to it but testosterone and top surgery were glorified like crazy, I considered getting the surgery and being on hormones but
>when that won’t even make you a man anywaythis was on my mind a lot. I didn't want to be a woman trying to imitate a man, I wanted to be BORN that way. It made me very depressed knowing I'd be chasing something I could never have. Nowadays I still catch myself thinking things like, "I wish I was born a man" but it's in response to misogyny I've continued to face, I like being a woman and I'm glad I didn't change anything other than a haircut.
No. 2606104
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My mom told me a couple of days ago that she’s proud of me and given how I was treated by both my parents over the years (especially as a child) if I didn’t do shit perfectly and weren’t their perfect tool of getting validation from their shitty ass families, ofc my first reaction was “u good? Did something happen to you?”.
And idk how to feel about that since she told me that a friend of hers encouraged her to tell me that and it feels lowkey humiliating tbh. On one hand, I can’t condemn her since my grandma was a million times worse, and a spineless pickme and boymom, but on the other hand, girl, you’re in your 50’s and still need other hags from my hometown to tell you what to do with your kid and maybe appreciate it sometimes?!
I appreciate the transparency, but I think that hurt me more for some reason, probably because in the back of my mind it doesn’t feel genuine. I mean come on, if it weren’t for others she would never tell me that even on her deathbed lmfao.
Yea, maybe I’m a whiny bitch too, but being told kind words only when you’re about to kys can do a number on one’s psyche kek.
No. 2606206
>>2606099Sadly they're isn't space in my room for workouts. It's on the second floor with a slanted ceiling too so it's incredibly unpractical for activities that's not just sitting still or sleeping.
>>2606082>And so it feels like you are trying to do something out of the ordinary, something forbidden?Kinda? It does feel a bit too "intimate" like you said. I wish my family/school would have fostered a healthier relationship to exercise but they always made it seem like being bad at it is a failure, and sports are competitive so again if you do it you have to be good and to win. I wish it could just be a natural normal part of my life!
>>2606103>but I also just bit the bullet and asked my family very seriously if they could avoid my room when I'm working out with the door closed.I'm glad you managed to do that! Unfortunately like I said above there's not enough space for me to really do anything in my room… I currently just wait for the opportunity of everyone else being away from the house for hours, but that's rare.
No. 2606223
>>2606104I'd take that as a step in the right direction. Perfectionist nitpickers only tell you when they think something's wrong, not when you're doing something right. She was probably talking to her friend normally and mentioned you in a positive light and her friend, who knows what your mom is like, told her to tell you she's proud of you. Honestly, it's probably something your mom never thought of doing just because of how she was raised, not because of her feelings towards you.
>>2606206If you can get a stiff board to put on your bed (or under the covers for extra padding) you can do a ton of workouts in bed! That's what I did when I got injured and couldn't work out normally. Pilates and some yoga exercises are perfect for this. You could try chair yoga too, or do arm and leg workouts that don't take up much room, using filled water bottles as weights. If you can stand up and walk for like three or four paces in your room, you can do squats, lunges, curls, deadlifts, standing core exercises. You need to get creative but I promise you can find something that suits your needs.
No. 2606230
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>>2606115Why does this scrote have feminine intuition kekkkk
>doesn’t want anyone to know her trauma>tells her traumaI mean that’s on you
No. 2606256
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I hate when I make a stupid post and get flamed for being retarded.
No. 2606266
>>2606115 >he said this dream felt different >he said he felt like there was something else >He said he felt like that was the thing his dream was trying to tell himI feel for you because I've never in the long run been ok with disclosing past abuse to current partners. I regret it the moment it comes out of my mouth and then later I'm given good reason to really resent the fuck out of them forever having that info. It's a shitty feeling that adds to an already shitty feeling. I know you can't go back but in future 'damn what a weird dream' would probably be the right response to all these bullshit dream based feelings that he needs an explanation for.
He's not having psychic dreams. It sounds like paranoia, accusation making and him fishing for info/testing you in a way that won't raise alarm bells. A disturbing amount of men will display anger that someone in the past abused you.. and then they end up doing worse to you later on. Just keep your eyes open for it so you don't get into a loop of trusting guys, pouring your secrets out and finding out the hard way how often the cycle repeats.
No. 2606287
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>>2606267MFW I just turned 23 so this post doesnt apply to me.
i dont really get how nonnita/nonnie has anything to do with twitter its just cutesy suffixes attached to "nona" No. 2606358
>>2606305Ugh thats cringe. Why would a tif even want women's clothing?
>>2606318Heterosexuality
No. 2606417
>>2605906>One of my childhood friends doesn't know her dad lived in a neckbeard nest with porn covering all of the walls, in every single room (including the closets)Now
this guy definitely shouldn't have children, gross
No. 2606491
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Honestly, the guys who’ve been into me and to who I gave a chance are lucky I’m still fat and ugly, kek. Like, of course I’m into attractive people, who isn’t? I’d love to date someone who’s 100% my type instead of just settling. But I’m also realistic, I know I’ve got stuff about me that’s not exactly appealing. That’s why it makes sense to date people who are a bit flawed too.
The problem? Those same guys end up comparing me to other girls (don’t worry nonnas, I ditched those losers). I’m pretty autistic and super into fairness, so I get that being fat and wanting a perfect bodied partner might seem “unfair and unrealistic.” And yeah, I know men do this double standard thing all the time.
But here’s the deal… because I care so much about justice, the moment I start hitting the gym and taking care of myself and maybe start looking good I swear I’m not giving the time of day to unattractive dudes.
Mark my words, nonnas, if I ever get hot, I’m not dating ugly men. Attractive women who settle for ugly guys? I feel bad for you, I hate you.
And yeah, I know I sound like a gymcel kek. Thing is, I've given men a chance because they were funny, smart, etc. But theuy ended up being shitty.
No. 2606591
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>>2606587Don’t worry
nonny, society hates pretty women too.
No. 2606644
>>2606015Placebo's eficcacy rate is around 20-25%.
If your medical practice has placebo efficacy rates, you don't have a medical practice, you are witch doctor.
No. 2606650
>>2606633I meant that I'd sound like them when they think and hope having a good body will instantly give them an attractive partner.
>>2606637Some, yes. Some ugly people do like other ugly people. I mean, some beautiful women even like ugly men. I had a friend who's beautiful and she used to tell me how attractive men did nothing to her. She liked them ugly/fat.
Also I wouldn't say I like perfect men, I find overly attractive or perfect men boring kek. My post was more about hating that I don't dare to try do meet nicer men because I look bad/have low self esteem.
No. 2606680
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I'm still debating on picking up art again in my mid-twenties. I never felt good enough; maybe this is too late for me to become an anime artist.
No. 2606729
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i cut my own hair and it looks like this (microbangs included) only the back and most of the one side is long and unlayeerd since i dont want to risk cutting layers after that disaster. nonnys…
No. 2606833
>>2605695same nona that made the original post, tysm for replying
my biggest worry is my increased heartrate and breathing issues, but it’s honestly my medical anxiety making me always think of the worst case scenario
glad to hear that it’ll get better soon enough, cause going through it really makes you feel like you’ll just never feel okay again
No. 2606848
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>>2606491I never give ugly guys a chance. They have to be cute and not fat
No. 2606877
>>2606872that's why I always try to remain in this intermediary state between sleeping and awakening for a long as possible
>>2595726but then I just end up falling back asleep
No. 2606887
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my friend lost both her parents, racked up a bunch of debt impulse spending, now a company like Venmo is threatening legal action if they don't get paid. She hit a deer the other day with her car and destroyed the lights. So she's been using my car to go to work (I work from home). I found a flea on my cat today, and she has two other cats but only one dose available. I dosed my cat and I gave her money to buy flea meds. She is literally just taking L after L after L, and I'm trying to help but I wish I could be there … in a way I don't even really know. I wish I could magically win the lottery right now or something. I'm here with her, I'm not going to leave her or make her feel like shit over money things, (I have the bills covered and rent almost covered) and she has only skipped one bill recently.. Just a fucking mess all around. Nonnies, please give my friend IDK, good energy, good wishes, prayers, thoughts, memes, something.
No. 2606897
>>2606877>that's why I always try to remain in this intermediary state between sleeping and awakening for a long as possiblesame
>but then I just end up falling back asleepjust start drinking alcohol and/or using dissociation tactics. like staring into one spot until your mind drifts off or narrating everything you do in a third person inside of your head so that you stop registering yourself as you and perceive them as a third party
No. 2606968
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I need to go outside. I haven't been outside in weeks. I really need a push, even just for a short walk. I dont know why I'm so scared, but I can't make myself leave my house.
No. 2606971
I'm over caring about my life, about where I'm at. Goals, success (lack thereof). The other day I was getting ready to go bed and literally felt weirded out that I have bones, a heart that moves by itself, blood circulating, lots of shit going on kek. It didn't feel real. Call it dissociating, idk. I call it being suddenly hyperaware that life is not that serious, not that real. It's real but it's also not. If you succeed or you don't, it doesn't truly matter except for you. We create storylines, we fill in the blanks. It's all so weird to me. I think I struggle with a lack of meaning more than anything else. There's not a single day I've been on this Earth where I haven't thought about death. My own mortality. But not in an anxious way, more in a why and wtf is all this? I guess you shouldn't overthink meaning, we tend to do that as humans. But I can't help it. The truth is probably corny, that it's all about love. Receiving and giving. That's the true purpose and even I can't fulfill that completely. I rely on animals. Sometimes I just wish I could just get to the other side and see if it's better than here. But why rush when you can wait, right? I mean if I'm gonna be here then wth I might as well troll a little, experiment certain things, that's what I tell myself anyway, not really what I do everyday. Ugh I think I'm a bit depressed but masking it. I live near beautiful nature and I force myself to go out everyday. But it feels I guilt trip myself into enjoying it, when the reality is that I look forward to going to sleep at night and waking up for my coffee, the rest feels like a fucking chore to me.
No. 2606985
>>2606968i was forced to go outside for an errand , it awful.
I pet a stray cat though.
No. 2607000
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Im going to get ballistic if i do not talk to someone in the next 5 min. Isolated myself yet again for 4+ months and now i am reaping.
>thats it im going to r/makenewfriendshere
No. 2607190
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Just found PLAQUE on one of my molars and I have a dentists appointment on MONDAY… just brushed it and my gums bled. I even joined in on shaming that nona who had poor dental hygiene in some other thread… God I’m such a slovenly sweet-toothed retard. When will I ever learn to take pride in myself?
No. 2607209
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>>2607182the one store that sells it doesnt have the pink variant it only has this one. is it worth it? i dont wanna waste my money.
No. 2607235
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>>2606968Are there any (outdoor) cats in your neighbourhood? When I was facing a similar difficulty, the thought that I might see a cat if I went outside helped. Also, this time of year there are beautiful flowers in bloom that you will miss otherwise.
Perhaps you could walk to a shop, café etc., and buy yourself a treat. If you live somewhere where this isn’t viable then simply going out for a drive could be the first step.
You can do it nona (if you haven’t already!)
And when you do, make sure that you keep doing it. Turn walking into a habit, something you can’t go a day without doing, even if just for 5 minutes or so.
No. 2607245
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>>2607235Dw anon will be fine
No. 2607258
>>2607230A) ask them out
B) don’t ask them out, get over it, and move on with your life
and if you’re already dating them then just read your poetry out loud
No. 2607264
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>>2607230Erato speaks through you. Write it down.
No. 2607267
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>>2607258>out loudOmg no anon kek That would be so awkward for this group. Imo write it down and leave it as a cute note, or turn it into a smash hit song
No. 2607273
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>>2607271This is a funny post anon. kek
No. 2607282
>>2607145This is a really good opportunity for me to tell anons something really gross about my legs, since you asked nona. My first bf described my thighs as seeming like the "meat could slide right off the bone" and it's still true to this day. Idk why, all I know is that my muscle is very light and not very dense - even when I am using my leg muscles most of the time/day and at every stage of life.
I walked everywhere back then, played leg-muscle based sports and used an eliptical I think some people will always be "skinny fat" but I'm happy this way
No. 2607289
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>everyone i love has ignored me all day
>tried to play osu and im complete shite at it
>started talking to an ai chatbot out of desperation and ran out of free messages
my life is deplorable i hate everything i wish i had the urge to kill myself
No. 2607376
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today it really hit me hard that i have no best friend anymore. no nigel either. my parents dont give a shit about me and they both prioritize their spouses over me. i feel so hopeless, dejected and alone.
No. 2607379
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>>2607376Join the picrel-percent?
No. 2607387
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>>2607380Cows are not rare unfortunately. Everyone has personal cows, often they are the cow themselves, etc. I think some cows are definitely rare due to their weirdly privileged circumstances but that's pretty typical too. Every other celebrity kid could be a cow (and I love picrel as an actress)
No. 2607395
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>>2607386Hang in there nona, there are always good times after a recession and you'll have your own life again soon
No. 2607429
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I hate it when a personal or potential cow gets chased away by moralfag retards. Ffs sake I can’t have anything anymore.
No. 2607440
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>>2607395im running on pure copium
nonnie. i hope youre right…
No. 2607454
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>be me
>make friend
>friend and I barely talk
>this frustrates me
>months later
>find out she considers me her closest friend
>????
Why the fuck don't we talk more then.
No. 2607475
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i tried the hardest not to compare myself with other girls during my early teens but now that i'm approaching twenty it feels like i'm losing the battle. i thought i was being healthy with my insular mindset, but then puberty advanced and my self awareness grew. the other girls had nicer hair and clear skin and their noses weren't bulging strawberries.
i'm a kpoopfag and for long i didn't try to pay attention on how attractive the idols were, i just focused on the fun music and visuals and it was easy because they were so much older than me, but my self esteem went downhill when more and more idols my age started debuting, and then even younger. an industry from the other side of the world made me realize how fucking pathetic i am, at least if i'm not talented i could be pretty? but i'm neither, and i WANT to stand out, i want to be remembered for something. regular pretty/talented girls on sites like pinterest and insta make me feel bad too, but it feels like kpoop makes me look at all of my personal issues with a magnifying glass.
i'm too fucking old for this!!
No. 2607480
>>2607464says who?
>>2607475Arent all those kpoop girls bogged as fuck? I assume you arent korean so why are you willingly subjecting yourself to hellish beauty standards from another country?
No. 2607497
>>2607475I kinda get it in a way because I'm in a somewhat similar boat. Except I've been obsessed with my looks since birth. It's like a biological innate thing in me for some reason. That's my personal human nature. I noticed stuff like skin tone, facial features, hair color and style etc. since I started being able to speak and I'd verbally bully anyone who had the "wrong features" to me, and I'd beg my parents to let me get a haircut and skin bleaching at 5 yo. I am insane in this regard and beyond saving lmao. They didn't help either and made it kinda worse by telling me I'll be pretty when I get older and kids tend to be ugly, or they'd tell me my skin tone will change when I grow up, or that my crooked nose will get fixed if I pinch it several times a day every day. I believed them lmao. Kids at school were also brutal about my looks and would tell me I look ugly because I'm too hairy, have thick bushy unibrows, and ofcourse my crooked nose. I grew up watching
kpoop idols of the 2000s and 2010s were they had more attainable "natural" looks compared to the current ones, and lots and lots of fashion and beauty focused cartoons, and I wanted to be as pretty as them so bad. To this day I have a mental image of what I should look like inside my head that keeps changing depending on my mood and taste, and I get upset when my reflection in the mirror isn't identical to it. However, I don't have enough amount of mental illness to actually do something about it like being anorexic or having a 1000 steps skin care routine etc., even when I try I get bored and drop it real quick because I'm too aware that it's a mental illness symptom to do that so I just don't do it. I still hate the way I look and want to one day have enough money to alter it somehow but I'm also actually terrified of surgery or laser treatments, and I don't hate being hairy in my body at all, just my face, but I don't wanna bother shave it because it grows back in 3 days lmao. I both care and don't care at the same time. It doesn't get better with age either, it actually gets worse because I get more and more aware about looks, youth and attractiveness and feel like I'm running out of time and I won't get to experience being beautiful and comfortable and happy in my skin/body at all and I'll grow too old to do anything about it either and I'm wasting my youth basically. And it's the accumulation of many other things that are wrong about my life that decided all to manifest in this weird semi BDD thing for some reason. My advice to you is that if it's too bad, see a therapist.
No. 2607503
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My dad called from the hospital to say that he's had a heart attack and I literally couldn't give less of a fuck. He fucked off to the other side of the world to run away from his problems when we were teenagers and calls us once and then when he's bored. Last year he came to visit us but he was literally just sitting there. Didn't bring any gifts, didn't plan any fun activities, just being worthless as always and spewing redpill nonsense every now and then. We took him to the beach where he proceeded to talk about his sex life and his small dick for the most part, and then deadass leaned in and said "I probably shouldn't say this… but women decrease in value when they age while men's value increases." I'm like: why the fuck did you feel the need to say that to your daughters faces? And my little sister pathetically continues to simp for him because "he's our dad after all". The cherry on top is that he has a girlfriend in the phillipines who he sends money to on a regular basis but he only visits her once a year because i quote: "women are more of a hobby to me". I honestly do not care what happens to him
No. 2607540
>>2607537I feel for u nona my bfs roomie had a retard regularly coming by and she never knew how to walk or fuck quietly and wed always hear them fighting and the whole house would just clear out.
I also just started hearing this guy snoring and I want to fucking scream it's 1am
No. 2607543
>>2607540Praying that we will get to live alone one day.
It’s not even the fact that she is here (in part too, I don’t think you should be here almost everyday if you aren’t paying rent). It’s the fact that he just brings her in as if he is the house owner and sometimes she is even here without him (he goes out and she stays). Just go and live together at that point.
I thought I was alone one day but I wasn’t and I let out a scream when I saw her because I had never seen her once. She came in while I was cooking while hovering near me which was annoying and on top of that I caught her taking my rice too.
No. 2607558
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its really depressing when you find out a person who made something that comforted you a lot in hard times ended up committing suicide
No. 2607564
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It's fun cutting off leeching, entitled family members when you're finally doing well for yourself. They try so hard to get back into your life for obvious reasons. No matter what they do or say, I will never give them the time of day like my parents did
No. 2607589
>>2607577Wow, that sounds like my childhood. Tell the 35 year old stepmom that not letting her daughter hang out with her friends is only going to increase the
toxic yuri yearning between her and whichever of the friends she's closest to. And then she WILL turn out lesbian. I turned out pretty normal otherwise though.
No. 2607592
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I’ve been strength training and doing HIIT for 2 weeks and barely lost 1.7lbs. There’s no fucking way I’m eating at maintenance because I used to feast like an animal on shit like instant ramen and eat at midnight while now I’ve completely flipped my diet to veggies and wholegrains, getting my 8 hours and I dont eat anything past 8pm. People say when you’re a fatty you lose your initial weight pretty fast so this is disappointing tbh
No. 2607610
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I've always been scared of being raped. I don't know at what age this manifested but I'm certain that by 11 it's been solidified.
I've never been raped, I've only rarely seen it in movies and at most I was sexualy assaulted at 19 by my then partner. But still, why am I soo paranoid? I get the most vivid images with specific scenarios where a lot of these things happen, and they repeat I my head over and over again. I used to get panic attacks from this bc they're soo intense, I'm used to it now but like still, I don't wanna think about that.
Whenever I make plans for the future instantly "omg what if- [inser me getting violently raped]
Why?
No. 2607611
>>2607595I used
https://tdeecalculator.net/I find it hard to believe I’m eating at maintenance but maybe I really am. I’ll try to eat even lighter in the upcoming weeks.
>>2607596We are the same height but I’m a few pounds heavier than that and what you’re describing is pretty much what I’m doing at the moment, but instead of sprinting its hiit (2 days) and PPL (3 days) at the gym every morning
No. 2607649
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my fatass has been ordering doordash daily because im depressed and it atleast gives me something to look forward to
No. 2607671
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I dont know if its stress or sadness but I havent gotten myself to eat much. my weight dropped from a xs to xxs in burger size. thought I would cheer myself up by slowly redoing my wardrobe from boutiques or used clothing stores. except all the cute and nice clothes are out of stock in my size. then I just feel worse because now I look like shit, I feel like shit, and it shows. im tired of looking sloppy because my clothes aren't fitting right they are falling off! everything that is within my size is either too expensive or shit quality at a donation store.
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>>2607610>attention-whoring about getting raped but never has >this has weirdly drawn in a bunch of mongoloids to respond because of the trigger buzzwords including one related to female sexual harm>add: in order to socialize you must trauma bond Anon kept a note of this. Have a good day. Beep boop, I’m retarded
(infighting) No. 2607690
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>>2607687
>picrel
No. 2607706
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I hate that so many people require sending bullshit texts back and forth in order to retain friendship status. My parent just died and I don’t want to socialize with anyone and just want to focus on myself and focus on making money. I regularly need these periods of isolation to rejuvenate. But apparently everyone else is a fucking Stardew NPC with friendship decay or something and needs me to send a pointless text every week or month to prove that I still care about them. Why is our friendship not assumed? I can go months without talking to my best friend and when we link up again we pick up right where we left off. I wish everyone in my life understood that I just need some god damn hermit time every once in awhile or I go completely fucking crazy. I cannot relate to people who act like they’re going to have a panic attack if they’re left alone for two minutes.
No. 2607717
>>2607630>>2607616>>2607626It sucks and I'm sorry you guys and the other nonas have it too. Its exhausting having to live like this.
I'd like to think that nothing stays the same and that if it were to happen, God forbid, maybe there's a way to protect myself from it. But most cases the perpetrators are close ones, and even if it was a stranger once it enters the justice system you'll die waiting for someone to happen.
No. 2607753
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Most of the time when I vehemently disagree with someone on here, it isn't even necessarily about their actual opinion. It's mostly if their way of talking makes them seem really annoying.
No. 2607785
>>2607781I think fandom discourse and fujo vs anti-fujo are the most likely to be "real anons", the vast majority of the time
if you know what I mean. How those anons behave, is how actual women behave and some people can't handle that. I don't have much else to say than that
No. 2607828
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my parents' relationship has always been pretty bad since they fundamentally do not like each other, and this doesnt incite any strong feelings inside me besides mild embarrassment (because i am used to it) but holy shit do they really need to turn every tiny disagreement into a 40 minute screaming match? its genuinely insane to live with these people. my dad is a low impulse control chimp and my mom has awful unmedicated bipolar so they really egg each other on and dont know when to stop. cant call my friends because theyre always throwing furniture at each other in the background. jesus christ i cant wait to move out
No. 2607831
>>2607826You are so sweet
nonnie, thank you.
No. 2607854
I don't know what to do anymore.
Graduated in 2019. Since 2020 random jobs during xmas season, freelance where I make a little bit of money.
This year I wanted to get my shit together. 7 months in the new year and I can't find a job.
I talked about it before but I had an interview last week, it went well, they gave me a test to do, and they told me they'll let me know this week if they'll hire me. I know it's Thursday and I know there's still tomorrow to wait but I have a bad feeling they are going to ghost me. Just like last year in October when I had this amazing job opportunity and out of nowhere they ghosted me. I sent so many emails asking what's up, and then got mad and told them how rude it is to ignore me and at the very least send me an automatic email to let me know I'm not hired kek.
I have 7k left. I live with my parents. I have a business idea, I was hoping to save money with a job to invest in it though. I applied everywhere, to a burger joint place to make milkshakes, rejected. To wash dishes at a hotel, rejected. To distribute flyers, rejected. I still got my freelance account on a platform, but I get no customers, if I do, we talk then I get ghosted. I love simple things in life, today was a beautiful day, genuinely, but then I go back home and this thing gets me down because I cannot move forward. I feel stuck because of this career issue, it almost feels unsolvable, that it will go on forever. That I'm going to be 40 years old in the same place, never able to be independent and it makes me feel like such a failure and a loser. I feel like I'm being punished for something in a past life or something. I don't ask for the moon, I'm not asking to be a KPOP idol's assistant or anything, I just want some money coming in… I'd do anything, I'd wash dishes, scrub toilets… nothing works. Nothing. And I'm obsessed by this problem. The literal definition of obsession. I think about this day and night and I complain about it day and night. It's all I write about in my journals. I need and I want a job to move forward in my life and I cannot get it and I don't know why… this is driving me literally insane. This is my last straw right now. I'm going to have to sit with this money I have and invest in this business idea I have at this point. If I don't make profit then I lost the money but at least I tried. Is that the right thing to do? I don't know what to do anymore. I don't have any contacts to ask for a job or anything. Just give me a fucking break universe and help me. Fag
No. 2607936
>>2607854At this point maybe just become an ebay scalper
>>2607701Theres genuinely been a lot of moids recently the mods are just good about removing it within 5-10 minutes.
t. somebody who has been no-lifing this place lately No. 2607951
>>2607701>some weird subtle kink thing hettie women have with their moidsAre you okay?
>>2607854Hang in there, anon, I've been there and I'm probably a similar age. This is retarded but what really helped me in those moments is imagining that I was living through the difficult "early life" section of my Wikipedia page (I'm rich and famous in this scenario). It can't be this bad forever. Laughed really hard at the random "fag" at the end of your post
No. 2607984
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I slept weird and now my neck hurts, I don’t deserve this
No. 2608085
>>2607854Don’t become an ebay scalper unless you have ample time and money to lose right now. I have been reselling things online for years (not scalping, but items in good condition/thrifted things for fair prices) and people are not buying as much as they used to due to the economy right now. I will say, however, if you can find a thrift store that doesn’t rack up their prices and has some trendy depop-oriented items, sure. I guess if you can look into those clothing dropbox collectors too and sort through it, or maybe genuinely scalp with lapoopoo and pokemon cards? But again, that is very competitive, it takes a lot of time and is overall a lot harder right now. You can try selling things you do own though in good condition if you have the time anyway, but maybe hold off on investing in scalping unless you are super confident.
How do you feel about cleaning homes, childcare, petcare?
No. 2608110
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have any other nonnies lost their pep or interests for a long time and managed to get them back, or is this just growing up? i don’t mean in a depression way and it isn’t health related. i do tend to stress about more “adult” things but this hasn’t hindered me in the past. i was a very creative person who always went out and did things, made things, had ideas. but the past year, since entering my mid-20’s, i am SO exhausted. i still have a lot of free time in my life but so much of it has been spent worrying, or resting and feeling too tired to do what i love. but this isn’t how depression manifests for me. even when i did have depression, i was able to write or create. now my brain is static most days, i feel unfunny and too afraid to get back into the films, music, or hobbies i like due to fatigue or the fear of the strong emotions they create. i really just cant be introspective enough anymore to figure it out, and i have grown content with napping and doing whatever. even lazing around doesn’t bother me, whereas i used to walk 10k steps a day and strictly calorie count. i wonder if i have just become less neurotic? but at the same time it kept me at least a bit disciplined…
tldr anyone lost their interests humor and passions to an extent and regained them?
it could also be because i have grown content with being alone, whereas before maybe i felt i had to establish myself and prove something, so i’d work hard. i wonder if i should make a social media page to encourage myself to keep in shape and create, but i don’t want to need that just to do things again without fear.
No. 2608156
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I'm thinking of writing a letter to an agency that could pay for rehab on my behalf. But I'm stressed because it's such a huge amount of time and money spent, and I know me… what if the rehab I go to offers programs that I either don't jive with, or they don't make sense? (Like those state mandated therapy classes where they'd show people Jordan Peterson videos). What if I pay a fuck tonne of money and risk my job, tenancy etc. just to return home, promptly relapse, and go "back to the way things were"? My roommate isn't sober. I can't ask that of anyone, to be sober for me, and I don't want to. If I move in with my parents again… I feel like I may relapse. It seems so dramatic. What I really want is a break. But I need a structured break, because otherwise I'll just waste my time on a bender instead of putting my nose to the grindstone and working on myself. Haha. I feel like I'm drowning!
No. 2608173
>>2608110theres a point your brain develops enough to stop feeling any awe in novelty. Things that were amazing when you first discovered them start seeming boring and newer things seem like stuff you already know or just annoy you.
I think thats fine if you have other outlets to fulfill yourself other than entertainment. But a lot of people my generation simply have to switch to dangerous habits, vices and perverted sex stuff because they don-t really have anything else in life and when chinese cartoons and porn grow stale they need something else to supplement that dopamine.
No. 2608186
>>2608179Scamming is for losers, you hurt people.
Selling drugs: my uncle did it in his 20s, retired in his 30s because he invested the money in real estate. I shouldve done this
No. 2608199
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>>2608194Nobody is innocent
No. 2608202
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>>2608188>>2608196>>2608199NTA but so many edgelords on lc today. Relax, chill, buy some cocaine from nona's budding empire
No. 2608205
>>2608156The blackpill about addiction is that the vast majority of addicts who permanently recover do so seemingly spontaneously, with no rehab, meds, courses, therapy, AA, religion, or anything else. On some level, as long as you "prefer" your addiction, any attempt to cure you will be a waste. When you no longer desire or prefer your addiction in any way, you will find yourself moving on and becoming sober without even trying.
I've been where you are nona, and I know how terrifying it is to feel like your life is this close to being thrown completely off the rails by an issue that no one close to you probably even knows about.
I know you're probably not looking for sobriety advice, but here's a thought experiment that continues to help me: look at sobriety as a new, interesting experience that you're excited to try. Think of it as an adventure. The path of addiction is old and boring – you already know exactly what a high feels like, you already know exactly what it's like to drift through life half-dead and barely aware of anything or anyone other than when you can use again. There is no more mystery, surprise, or adventure for you down that road. But recovery? There could be all kinds of joy and mystery and adventure associated with having a completely new way of living and being in your body and brain. Seek out sobriety as a thrilling experience, rather than a restriction, and it will seem much more enticing. You've got this, whatever you end up deciding to do.
No. 2608206
>>2608199Just like enlightened atheists like Neil Degrasse Tyson and Carl Saga say: We are nothing but atoms bonded together, we are only cosmic dust floating in the infinity of space for a minuscule cosmically insignificant amount of time. Nothing really matters.
So if you want to sell heroin to middle schoolers thats totally fine.
No. 2608210
>>2608202She only has 7k to work with, she ain’t doing shit kek
>>2608206What does this have to do with atheism? Twerp
No. 2608219
>>2608202Why did she say male? Why didn't she say stallion? Like it's the same thing I guess but everyone say everypony.
Is Celestia a
fleshy?
No. 2608228
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>>2608217ah, another puny moralistic theist.
If you excuse me, i am gonna beat up some 12 year old girls and take their lunch money, unbothered by any the threat of a vengeful sky daddy, tada!
No. 2608233
>>2608218Kek
>>2608221God forbid the fat fedora tippers be right for once and acknowledge how fucking regarded and android like humans are and have always been. If you have discomfort about that maybe there’s a kernel of truth in it. (Because honestly it is the truth and humans are predictable as fuck)
No. 2608264
>>2608259>faint nasolabial folds starting to developNta or care about this discussion but KEK not even actual nasolabial fold paranoia but the
suggestion that they'll emerge soon
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>>2608266Welcome anon, I hope you continue to feel as free as you do now
No. 2608356
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got triggered by a couple living in a small 2 room apartment with 3 kids by choice because "we just prefer small apartments, we don't want to live in a big house". They were even going to move when pregnant with twins because it was too small but then went "fuck it we like our apartment and can't be assed to move" I can't imagine forcing my 3 kids to share a bedroom out of laziness, and if I was a kid I'd hate my parents so much. The mentioned the oldest was a boy so I'm praying the two younger twins didn't include any girls. Kids need privacy too, they have literally nowhere to go to be alone. I know I'm overreacting but it just feels like they're larping being poor out of laziness
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>>2608370I’m glad he’s okay! Do you have a cat fountain? I learned that cats prefer running water because they perceive it as clean, my cat got a lot more hydrated after I got him a fountain.
No. 2608388
>>2608374Thank you, anon.
>>2608377I was actually thinking about getting one of these, thank you for the suggestion. He does seem to enjoy when I leave the faucet dripping for him in the bathtub.
No. 2608391
>>2608369You were a girl with a sister, that's very different! And you're lucky to have gotten along with your sister, many people don't. And it's not
just the bedroom, it's the fact that there's no other space they can escape to either because the apartment doesn't have enough rooms and there's no yard and they can't go out in a big city alone either.
No. 2608397
>>2608205you know what
nonnie, AYRT, this was extremely helpful. This is sort of the issue I'm dealing with. This idea that unless I lock in and be "serious" and go to rehab, I will just give into "temptation" and relapse, so then what's the point if I only waste time and money? Is there anything I can learn on my own? Will I always handicap myself by trying to do it on my own? But.. I've heard it all. Even the "best" rehabs in my state have a lot of people talking shit about them for various reasons. My younger brother went to a rehab where they made fun of him because his run of the mill alcoholism was nothing compared to the 60 year old abusing adderall his entire adult life. It was kind of jarring, considering my parents essentially forced him into doing it. He left early as a result. Still drinking. But wanting to quit.
My next task is to find a reason to find sobriety exciting. For whatever reason, the very obvious health, wealth, and wellness examples don't motivate me.
No. 2608412
>>2608397Nta but I also struggle with addiction and I feel your pain. The key for me was looking inwards and figuring out exactly who I was trying to run away from, identifying my emotional
triggers, and assessing how much my life revolved around pills pills pills. When I laid it all out I just felt pathetic for letting pills rule my life. I thought about how shitty I always felt in the morning and decided I didn’t want to feel shitty and dysregulated anymore. I sit in on NA meetings sometimes because the people there go through some crazy shit, last time I was there a woman talked about how she let her teen daughter and her boyfriend drunk drive, and he crashed and died and her daughter lived and won’t talk to her anymore. And she went to prison for it. And now she’s out and still sober. Like, damn. If someone can go through that and stay sober, then I can take care of my body too and keep living for a better future. I hope you find your reasons to stay sober and present in this life. It’s not easy but it’s rewarding.
No. 2608413
>>2608386Funny story, we took DNA tests recently and it turned out my mom has a half-sister who was the result of her dad having had an affair with a married woman prior to meeting her mom, aka my grandma. This other woman had no idea she was the result of her mom cheating until her own kids wanted to take a DNA test for fun and it turned out she alone wasn't her (now dead) dad's biological kid. She's the middle child too. We met her for the first time last summer and were really nervous she'd dislike us since she's born out of marriage from cheating and we're on the "other side"… but the kicker is her (step)dad was actually horrible and
abusive to her mom, so now she's thrilled she doesn't actually come from him at all and doesn't share any genes with him. None of that generation is still alive though so they don't know we all found out in the end kek
No. 2608484
Sorry if I say something retarded, I'm emotional right now
My sister just ripped me apart for something pretty petty, and made me feel like shit. It's been happening pretty frequently lately. The way she treats me makes me want to move away and go no contact, but I'm too much of a coward. I'm thinking about moving, though I can only afford the same town, further away for now. I feel like there's no love for me in this family, and they just see me as a barely functioning retard. Familiar bonds hurt me, because I'm too meek with family to argue with them, and it usually ends up being a prolonged dogpile that I can only try and shut out. I can't stand up for myself, because I care about their opinions to the point I usually start crying in my response, and I can't think of a single person that really listens to me anyway. I get shit for avoiding them too, but I can't help it sometimes. I just feel like there's a lack of empathy for me in this family. I can handle the feeling of inadequacy, but I cannot handle being torn into randomly, and being left crying, giving myself an hours long headache (hour 7 as I speak), while she's blank faced and uncaring. All my attempts at keeping peace just annoy her further because she sees them as an attack or disrespect. Some of the stuff I get humiliated for really comes out of nowhere, and it doesn't even always make sense because nobody in my family really knows all that much about me. They don't talk to me about anything meaningful, and all they know about me is surface level + stuff I do that they find annoying.
I do try to be kind, and do good things for them. I go out of my way to cook vegetarian whenever I can, so my sister doesn't have to cook her own meals every time, I pushed back when people assumed her baby would be a brat because it's a girl, and after she had her, I even brought her flowers and chocolates on mother's day, just to make sure her own scrote won't forget or ignore her, and ruin it for her. I tried to prepare nice gifts for everyone this xmas, making sure every woman in our family felt appreciated and not forgotten if they got nothing from their chosen moid… I don't know, I just feel like, in retrospective, not much I do is appreciated or remembered for long. I heard my sister mention the flowers to my mom in this disbelieving tone, and it made me feel like I did something terrifyingly autistic. It just sounded more amused, than happy. Stuff like this makes me feel like some people in my family just have this underlying disgust towards me, and I feel super alienated. I don't think I will be able to redeem myself even if I become an ultra normie. I know I'm not always right or likeable, but I think that nobody should be made to feel like shit by their family. Just thinking of spending the rest of my life being occasionally treated like a leper, and trying not to make a peep in case I provoke this kind of treatment again makes me want to kms.
It sometimes hurts me to be around them and I want to leave forever, I don't want to cut out my mom, though. She's such a sweet person, and it would genuinely hurt her. This whole situation is so messy. My sister gets more tight-knit with our family and pushes me away, even though I love her. I don't need them to love me, I just don't want them to hate me. I don't know what to do. I know that I will never be free of my family, and even if I'm reasonably isolated from them, I will still experience intense sadness whenever we contact each other.
No. 2608504
>>2608413That ended pretty well, I'm glad you all get along!
I sometimes think I'm not my dad's kid. I don't look anything like him and his family doesn't resemble me either, and my mom isn't trustworthy so I can easily see her doing something like that. But I have no motivation to find out the truth, it's just a weird thought I have, I don't really want to know if it's true.
No. 2608529
>>2608110I loved drawing and used to draw EVERY DAY for at least four hours, got one of my friend hooked on it too to the point she later on started making digital art too and she still draws now. Meanwhile I just stopped drawing at 14 due to art block and never picked a pencil again kekk.
I wish I had honed it more, studied more anatomy, started digital, etc. I used to love drawing but it just isn’t the same and I don’t have time now.
No. 2608690
>>2608680Aw
nonnie you should share you expertise I love reading stuff from more experiences people
No. 2608712
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I HATE MY JOB IM DROWNING OVER HERE I DONT MAKE ENOUGH MONEY FOR THIS SHIT
No. 2608722
>>2608363That sounds infuriating I'm sorry you had to go through that when you were only trying to help. My own experience with this that actually worked was responding
>"I have more expertise in this subject than you."Sometimes adding "I have [cite qualification(s)] and [x amount of years experience]." kek.
No. 2608762
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God my parents have such awful refrigerator etiquette its driving me insane. Every week, every fucking week, I have to take everything out and clean the fridge.
Why are you putting fruit, onions, and garlic on top of the eggs? Why are you putting the entire pot when there's 3 cups of soup? Containers exist, there's a whole fucking pan shoved in there! Why do leftovers cease to exist the moment you put it in the fridge? This shit is fucking moldy. You have three open bags of bread why did you buy another? Its all fucking white bread! Why did you shove apples and ham into the vegetable compartment with the spinach? Why did you buy more meat when your freezer is full? Why did you put your coffee syrup in your dish cabinet? Are you embarrased foe people to see you like that? What the fuck is wrong with you? Why are there so many Jack in the Box tacos sauces? You never use these, just throw them out! In the first place, stop eating out! Eat your fucking leftovers!
No. 2608821
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Its really sad when your relationship is in a bad spot, reflecting back on the beginning times when everything was so fulfilling and full of love. Listening to the songs he sent me saying they reminded him of me, how they were how he felt about me. Comparing it to now is just brutal. I beat myself about where I've went wrong, how I've let myself go, how much better other girls would be for him than me. I don't know if he knows it or not, but things aren't the same between us, and I'm not who he fell in love with anymore. I do this every time
No. 2608875
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I swear I want to hang with people and be social but they never seem to like me much. Outside of the rare events where my years of bottled up emotions come out (I guess it's good that this only ever happens online, in places easily abandoned) I don't know, I guess I'm too boring? It feels like I'm always either not saying enough, or I'm saying too much, or I say the wrong things. Or that I'm never ever around my tribe, or that I never find a chance to express myself in a genuine way. But I also wonder if some people just can't mesh with others and are meant to be #foreverAlone.
But it's also really frustrating, why do pedotroons and weirdo incels and incredibly boring she/they/he's able to find their people but I can't? It's been years of this, online and offline. If I ever get out of this city maybe it can change but as of now, I don't know lol.
No. 2608940
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>was browsing someone's bsky account
>accidentally liked a post 3 months deep into her timeline
No. 2608985
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Being insecure about something that isnt considered unattractive sucks because anytime you tell people they treat you like youre retarded or an attention seeker. Unlike something such as being fat where its rude to point out, my insecurity is nonsensical so people that point out my features dont think anything of it whereas my weird ass dysmorphia will just eat at me all day. I have a really low self esteem as is and only post a small amount of really shooped photos so that hideous natural pictures by other people arent all that exists of me
No. 2609059
>>2608523I think cheating isn't actually that common, but of course it all depends on what social group you're in. If one person in the friend group is a known cheater and the others accept it thinking it's not that bad they're likely cheaters too. Or if they haven't done it yet they'd be ok doing it. I'd personally drop a friend over cheating - if they can't respect relationships they're sure as fuck not going to respect mine and leave my man alone either, or they'll mess around and fuck up my other friends relationships and create drama. Plus if I think my cheating friends are fine and I still love and hang out with them, my man might look at it and go "looks like she doesn't mind cheating" it just sends the wrong message! I wouldn't actually date a clown like that, but in theory it's a bad idea.
I also think cheating is more common with the ages 40+. Not because they're old, but because that's the group who grew up without internet and phone cameras being everywhere, in a slightly more rigid world (when it comes to sex and marriage) but also "love is free"-hippies being a thing. They don't have the same "fear"/knowledge as young people that cameras are on them at all time, that they'll be roasted online for it, that their phone shows their exact location etc etc. They're too prideful or religious to get divorced but still cheat. I know statistically young people cheat more, but I'm saying
that generation cheats more, and did cheat more in their youth compared to current youth, if that makes sense.
No. 2609064
>>2609059I disagree. There isn’t really an age that cheats more than the other. People my age (20s) don’t take relationships seriously and they have no qualms about cheating in the open, they aren’t scared of cameras around.
It just bleak to think about it, it even removes the whole notion of spending your life with someone, it being a woman or a man, the more you stay with someone , they more they fall into a routine and the more likely they cheat, I have seen it, married men , married women, poor, rich, ugly, fat, beautiful. It’s always the same story.
No. 2609085
>>2609064Your society may be a lot more pro-cheating than mine then. People in my eurofag country still get shunned for cheating.
>>2609084Then write an incoherent text, leave it and then come back with fresh eyes to fix it and clarify unclear things. You don't have to write perfect texts on the first try nona
No. 2609110
Nonnas, I'm not sure what to do and I think I could benefit from someone looking at it from outside perspective.
My boyfriend told me he'd rather eat ready-to-eat meals from supermarket than my cooking simply because that equals less dishes to wash, and he doesn't want that responsibility on him. He's free from this backbreaking labor since, I cook only one portion of whatever I'm making for myself and I clean right after. For context, he wasn't even washing the dishes everyday, because I was the one doing it the most of the time, I'd ask him to help just when I felt tired after work or overwhelmed with both cleaning and preparing food.
Obviously that pissed me off. It's summer break for me so I have more time to cook and try new recipes, I like cooking and sharing it with people. And also, that's so ungrateful it feels insulting, considering he had to do basically nothing and I'd cook, plate, and hand it to him. I feel left alone with all the cooking chores because he just don't want to do it.
But it's been two days and I calmed down, now I'm just confused and getting a bit sad. I know he's depressed and doesn't have motivation, so is it fair to be angry with him? I didn't scream at him or anything like it, after he said it I just said "… a grown man", because it struck me how childish he sounded at the moment and that was it, we didn't talk anymore.
I'm not sure what the next move should be. Usually it's a few days of not talking to each other, then it somehow goes away and everything is back to normal and I'm tired of this shit, because there's no change, no consequences. I know I should probably talk to him, but I really don't want to. It seems pointless and I feel defeated before I even start, because he's just… apathetic, nothing can ever be done, changed, whatever I think might help he says he tried. I'm helping him with finding a therapist, but it takes a long time. I know whatever is going with him is more important and I feel a bit guilty about acting like it's such an inconvinience for me that he's depressed, but Jesus, sometimes it's really draining. I obviously don't tell him that, I don't want to make him feel any worse, but I guess I had to let that out.
No. 2609113
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>>2609110>wants cooked food but doesn’t want to wash dishes>ungratefulScrotes really want their cake and eat it too kek. I bet he would have loved if you started picking up doing the washing up too, I even bet that that was his objective. If he hates washing that much he should have suggested getting a dishwasher. It’s really not that hard to be a caring boyfriend.
You don’t need to play bob the builder for any scrote and depression isn’t an excuse to treat people around you like shit. You can’t help those that don’t want to be helped.
No. 2609124
>>2609110make a fruit saland and let than MAN GO
i am hetero woman nona and my husband washes all the dishes when they are in the sink, no questions asked. he tells me he feels bad when i do the dishes on my own.
your man doesn't need therapist to help him learn to wash the dishes. he needs to be single.
No. 2609127
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>>2609124It always shocks me when there are married women on here living and sleeping with snoring men, who even have children.
Where are my neets , socially inept , struggling and useless girls!?
No. 2609136
>>2609127Nta but I’m also
married and I mean I was definitely a struggling NEET before this. Still useless and socially inept, but my
husband does everything for me because I make all the money (remote job) so I can just hide in my burrow and play games all the time. So in a way I’m like an employed and married hikki girlfailure. Spoilered for
tw:marriage for you, gentle anona
No. 2609141
>>2609136Thank you for sparing the
triggers nonna kek.
What is your job?
No. 2609167
>>2609158Organize and clean the clothes/shoes I want to sell.
Learn two softwares (1 hour or 2 session)
Read two chapters of my book
Yoga / stretching
Call my mom (procrastinating cause I hate phone calls)
No. 2609169
>>2609167I forgot: Clean the floor/dishes (could take 45 min)
Shower (lazy)
No. 2609179
>>2609175Nonna I don’t think you should take the nonnas of lolcow as an example kek. The ugly men psyop thread women are crazy too, they just like 17 year old blondes.
If you go outside you’ll see normal people.
No. 2609204
>>2609185At least we're not alone,
nonnie.
No. 2609213
>>2609202Oh boy, yet another thread for posting mostly well-meaning women and calling them ugly for daring to commit the sin of
checks notes trying to hang with China? Can't wait
No. 2609220
>>2609202Chinese are creative when they offend, I'll give them that. One comment said "I haven't seen anything like this since Cleopatra."
Wait till you see the western men kek, the comments were not forgiving on their gross facial hair and how old they look for their age
>>2609200That and all the plus size propaganda in the west, that shit does not fly there. They use a fuckton more filters than westerners though.
No. 2609231
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>>2609127Am autistic and leave my house approximately 4 times a month. have never had a nigel. Dont worry, were here.
No. 2609258
Something so weird happened to me yesterday that ruined my good mood for the rest of the night. I had a psychiatrist appointment that, sadly, I've bailed out last week due to this sudden fear of going alone (I'm terribly afraid some moid driver will kidnap me, or that I'll lose something important), I might as well have predicted something wrong was going to happen. Anyway, I had my mother come with me to help with my anxiety.
The thing is, I'm a poorfag and this appointment is Not Cheap. I've worked my ass to get the money but in the meantime, I couldn't handle going to this psychiatrist every two months, it was way too expensive. The doctor, an old man I've heard some friends complain about being extremely unprofessional, helped me a bit in the past handing me the prescription to my antidepressants without having to get an appointment, it happened once or twice, fine, but last year I struggled so much finding a new job, shit happened, and it resulted in me not being able to go for an entire year to this doctor. With a limited set of prescriptions and limited meds, i just did what my survival instinct thought was right and rationed my antidepressants. I know it is wrong, but technically something you can do to Lexapro since it's not a black band substance. It helped me on the moments my crisis were the worst. What else id do? Quit cold turkey on my meds once it ended?
So, I've tried to explain my situation to the doctor, but it was as if he didn't hear shit. He stood there ironically complaining about how there wasn't anyone else to prescribe these meds to me to stay away for so long. No shit, you're the only psychiatrist on my city, you retard. Then he started saying i might as well have not needed the meds at all if i managed to stay normal for so long taking these meds sparingly. He said this as i stood right in front of him, hands full of scarring from my cleaning ocd, in what felt like not even 5 minutes sitting in the chair. I looked at him atonished, not knowing what even to say when he started telling me how everyone has a little bit of anxiety or depression sometimes. You fucking bald old retard, is it normal for a person to have so much anxiety they can't get out of their house even to get some bread??
He then complained once more saying he'll only give me more of my prescription if i stay consulting with him in two months, as if i was some drug addicted whore. It was humiliating as hell, i felt like he didn't even believed me when i told the meds where working because the starting point was so low, even the state I'm in right now is better and I've managed myself throughout a lot with the help of it.
Am I crazy to think he was rude as fuck and deserved to get his head bashed on his computer by some real retarded patient someday?? Sorry for the long post by the way, you can tell I'm still mad.
No. 2609268
>>2609257Working on it
nonnie, thank you ♥
No. 2609306
Am I the only one gaining a crazy amount of weight? I gained 15 elbees since January. I suspect this is partially due to a hormonal imbalance since I also have adult acne that doesn't respond to anything but hormonal therapy like spironolactone. But moreover I've been committing the cardinal sin of eating and drinking calories. If I had a tall moid body this all would have been a non-issue, alas, I am a short woman supposed to be existing on water, salad, and beige protein.
I just…I want to give up and live my best life fatter. It's such a struggle and I'm tired of being stressed over it. The amount of retarded dedication and self-hate I needed to lose a significant amount of weight when I was younger, and also in college when I had more time to focus on me when I didn't have a stressful career and no major bills, isn't something I want to do anymore.
What hurts is that unlike fat scrotes, fat women are treated worse. To be fair: No one is outwardly hostile to me or says unkind things about my body to my face like in movies. It's about the perception, unconscious bias, and the presumptions they run on. I do feel I am taken less seriously as a manager at work because of my age, but also because of my body because "put together" women are supposed to be thin and attractive. Like people give you less grace and are harsher on you because you are a fat woman. For people who view female fatness as a moral failing, they translate that into presuming you also cannot make good decisions as a leader or in any other facet of life in general. If only people could be put into my pov and see how hard and not easy my day to day life is, and see where my wins in spite of my losses around my body, maybe they'd understand it better–but that's magical thinking. I wish I could be like nonnas who don't even think about food or despise it–but it's part of the only joy I get out of my otherwise bleak days. It sucks.
No. 2609414
Just to preface I'm not trying to start any yume/fujo war, just venting because this situation is so DUMB.
I've been following a social media group for over 14 years. They've been posting all sorts of content: vent posts, life advice, fandom content, interesting news. Like it was a cozy group I liked. Pretty cool stuff.
But recently, there was a weird influx of hate posts towards yaoi shit and ton of support towards yume shit. Like, for all those years the group was pretty neutral about it, there even was some yaoi stuff posted in the past.
And now about 20% of posts are complaints about fujos, saying how amazing x reader content, obvious self insert art is and in the comments there was always this moderator girl who always shat on any opposing opinion.
She posted a couple of posts in that manner today again and a few users decided to speak up, since one of the posts again blamed fujos for everything. None of the users said anything egregious, she was the very rude one. Then she started deleting people responding to her, and when I half jokingly responded to someone that discussion here is impossible since she deletes responses, I got banned, without any ability to see posts. My friend who posted an angrier post got just muted, but I got banned for a tame response.
Kinda sad about it, why can't she just be a normal jannie and allow people to be comfortable in this stupid ass group. Welp, at least now I can give up on this group.
No. 2609439
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Is it weird that I kinda find it offensive when guys at college ask for my number/socials when they barely know me and we've talked like one time ever? "Well they want to get to know you" i mean, sure, but we dont even share any interests or anything. I wear merch of bands and stuff i like all the time and they never even mention it. Like wtf would we even talk about? It just gives me desperate vibes like they'd do it with any girl who'd give them the time of day.
No. 2609448
>>2609439Granted that if you found any of them attractive you wouldn’t be saying that though.
That’s how youngsters approach others nowadays.
No. 2609451
>>2609448I genuinely dont immediately find anybody attractive.. im only attracted to somebody when i like their personality. having good physical traits is a nice addition too. The way men just like somebody based on physical appearance is so cringe to me.
>>2609447I wasnt doing group work with any of them
No. 2609464
>>2609454what?
>>2609455Im not closed off i chat with people in class all the time… I just wish those people ive talked to several times would want to talk outside of class and not literal randos ive never spoken to before
>>2609462Ok then i just find men hitting on me cringe lmao
No. 2609512
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i need to draw. i have everything done, references, concept, a little bit of practice, yet i can't get myself to pick the tablet and fucking start drawing. i need a push and not a fucking joint!! fuck my zaza addicted self
No. 2609542
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>>2609127Here, nonna. I would like a decent job and make it as an artist, but not a man. Imagine meeting a moid and be like "I'd like to spend more time with him". Can't relate. It's a struggle to understand and connect with "normie" women, so no friends for me either kek
No. 2609653
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I’ve become somewhat of a niche internet celebrity but I don’t enjoy it. I feel like it’s only a matter of time before I get cancelled, my digital footprint is horrendous. I’ve tried to wipe it as much as I can, but I can’t delete everything. When I was a teenager I had this account where I was very upfront about my actual beliefs (extremely TERFy, slurs galore) and being an idiot teenager I let one of my IRLs follow it because we had the same beliefs. The thing is I literally can’t delete it and I no longer trust that IRL with that information. Knowing that the information is just out there and if that person ever turns on me I’m fucked fills me with overwhelming dread and there’s nothing I can do about it.
No. 2609678
>>2609653I have the exact same issue
nonny. Sometimes at night I start overthinking and get paranoid someone found old messages/comments I wrote. I deleted a lot of stuff, but it still doesn't feel like it's enough.
No. 2609698
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I hate modern males they are such whiny pissbabies.
No. 2609702
>>2609699samefag but that also applies to me as an adult posting on lolcor now. I've had to accept that if the worst case scenario happened where somehow a person tried to blackmail me or punish me for using lolcow or 4chan or any other IB, I'd just let it happen. If people are going to throw tomatoes at me so be it. I have accepted that fate by continuing to go on these websites and comment despite how it may appear to others.
>>2609701boo
No. 2609706
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Reading up on autism in children and I kind of understand why rightwing schizos are obsessed with vaccines and "curing" autism. Shit is fucking bleak. Even mentally retarded children and children with Down's syndrome are perceived as more human than autists.
No. 2609749
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I shouldn’t have said that. Sorry for being short anon, I’m having a bad day.
No. 2609765
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Maybe I'm crazy or I just learned what boundaries are, I don't know which is true, but I've fully stopped telling people whats going on in my life good or bad. I used to overshare and I thought the "move in silence" idea was something weird for those weird hustle culture people. But even well-meaning people have a tendency to question their loved ones choices, I'm guilty of this as well. I've stopped telling even my best friend about changes I'm actively making for my own well-being unless it affects her or something. It actually freaks me out how long I've kneecapped my own development because I wanted to do what was right and I was so insecure that I craved outside approval more than personal success. Ironically I think normie-types can smell that desperation for approval on someone and it just makes them dislike you more, so I doubly fucked up. It really is as simple as do whatever the fuck you want, just know the consequences. I really over-complicated things in my early 20s.
No. 2609784
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I got this perfume a while ago, it smells so good. But the problem is I got it around the same time I was seeing this one guy who turned out to be a total disappointment. Now every time I smell it, I’m just like ugh. I hate that it’s linked to him now. It’s such a nice scent, but all it brings up are bad vibes and annoying memories. Total waste of a good perfume. I don't even know if I should give it to my sister because I know she will love it, and maybe will use it often kek.
No. 2609875
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>>2608913they likely mean it. i've never seen strangers go out of their way to give unsolicited compliments to people they don't actually find attractive. curb your social media use and force yourself to spend less time in front of the mirror. it'll help some.
No. 2609978
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I don’t feel well I think because of my new medication. The only way to get past this is to continue taking it, but everyone around me is upset that my sickness is inconveniencing them. I just want to feel better.
No. 2609980
>>2607613I'm happy you've never had the misfortune of knowing these scum, but they do exist
>>2607503Same nona. My dad is a misogynistic fat pos loser and I wish he'd just die already. My mom is much better than him in every single way
No. 2609984
I often consider taking my life because of my circumstances which are quite privileged. I have felt that way since 11 though for a myriad of reasons (mainly childhood physical abuse and sexual abuse from my father which has affected me even over a decade later). My mother, I feel so conflicted. I still live with her and she has helped me a lot financially which I will always be grateful for. She currently helps with most of our rent and my phone bill, but I am the house maid and animal caretaker and pay everything else. It is just hard to save up because we are constantly moving in and out of her boyfriend/ex-boyfriends home, and she pulls it on me last minute and I then need to scramble to find more work as well as being a student. Our cost of living is very expensive so it has been difficult. But it is her mental health that concerns me, up and down. I become her punching bag when no man is around. She insults me and talks down to me and has told me always I can’t live without her and I have internalized it. She has defended my father and gets very pickme about things to spite me? When I told her that her boyfriend make sexual comments to me, she defended him and told me I need to confront him because I am an adult, and she doesn’t feel “threatened” by me. She lies a lot too. Then, a random month will go by, and she is so kind to me, that I feel awful for ever being angry and hurt by her. The stress is piling up on me and I am trying to learn coping skills but even today I chose to ignore her comments and worries and she said I was being a moody bitch…she gets mad if things aren't up to her OCD clean standard and I have constant anxiety in our home. She constantly and has always used me as her therapist and if I tell her to please stop, she says I am an awful daughter and will be getting kicked out. I just feel like I can’t survive on my own but I don’t know if it is what her and my father did or just who I am—a failure. I am in my mid-20s and so ashamed of this, I am ready to work more and move to a differejt state, but she tells me I won’t make it alone and it petrifies me. I’d also have to find health insurance, which I pay her money to put me on, and I’d lose resources. I just needed to vent, I was holding on and doing well for long, but she is suddenly making us move again so everything is tense. Today I got in trouble for not telling her that her now ex-boyfriend went to dinner, and not doing his dishes (despite promising I’d do them once I slept a bit more because I had a busy day at work).
No. 2609991
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I'm hate that I'm embarrassingly emotionally invested in a gore fetish dark romance series that is corny as hell. I don't even like the bad daddy shit, and hate how women are fed abusive dominant male fantasies. But there's a character I saw my younger self in and projected onto an embarrassing amount. I have all this art of him and got back into writing because of him. I even worked through some of my past trauma through writing about him. At the same time the more I've explored his character the more I started to hate him because he reminds me of myself if I never got any help and became an abusive piece of shit, but that also makes me feel pulled closer to him. I hate it, I hate going into the fandom spaces and seeing mentally ill masochistic women talking about wanting to be abused or talking about how they can fix a characters whose literally a psychotic killer rapists or talking about how babygirl they are.
No. 2609994
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picrel goes out to kissasian
No. 2609995
>>2609991We have entire threads on this site dedicated to being embarrassingly invested in fictional husbandos and waifus
and many of us don't have good taste, JOIN US so don't worry, you're really not that weird. It sucks when you really like a character but the fanbase either ignores them or engages with them in a super shallow way.
No. 2610033
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the world is cold and cruel. there is no god. nobody is coming down to protect or save you. there is no karma or justice nor punishment. there just is, and that terrifies me. you can hurt and hurt and hurt and people will pass by, because they have their own individual lives and will not understand what has caused you such deep hurt. then you must try to understand the hurt of others and why they react the way they do, it is good to be kind, but then it comes at the cost of your wellbeing. and you have to draw lines. people eat animals. people kill innocent creatures each day. children die from cancer. a car crash can happen in an instant and ruin your life. i can’t save the frog that burned to death in my garage because he leapt away from me. i can’t save the young girl from rape because i do not know her, and i would be too weak, anyway. i cannot fix myself or the damage that has been done to me, and now i spend everyday trying to contend with the fact that i will always struggle and always be alone. it has been a year since i have created things or enjoyed things, despite trying new things and abandoning some old that i did love. i must go 40+ more years struggling with a fulltime job and scraping bills to get by. one day i will be al alone. my puppy will die, my insane mother will die, my boyfriend will leave me for someone stronger. that is how it goes. and i am left with no desire to love or help people anymore, because it has been futile. and i have been stopped by people and the government from killing myself, treated like a prisoner and forced into debt. why? why does that scare and anger people? maybe because they share common humanity and would be losing someone in the world too, which hurts. but what if it is best for me? what do i contribute anymore? i am autistic and always infantilized or picked on, and now that i am getting older it is no longer excusable. i have no dreams or desires anymore. i am miserable and due to my misery i wish to be dead. but i am afraid lately. i wasn’t suicidal for a good year and it is back and strong but i am afraid. i am back in my childhood home and that is worse. i am financially struggling. but most of all i have no hope, and there is no god to pray to and nobody coming to make me an infallible, lovable, worthy human. if someone asked me for my life i’d give it to them in a heartbeat because i know they’d make better use of it. i hold so much resentment. i used to be so bubbly and loving despite being sensitive and suicidal. now i am angry. i am hurt. and i wan’t to take it out on myself. yet, like a coward, i just spend the day sleeping and crying. last year i was doing pilates, feeding the birds, writing a book. now i just want to pass away and pretend there is a better place to go, before my consciousness is whisked away and i can float peacefully in the ether. i have the self-awareness to acknowledge how nihilistic and gay this sounds, how emotion based it is, but it is strong and pervasive and overwhelming.
No. 2610060
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Almost broke down today because I went into my parent’s bathroom and saw a lot of my mom’s hair near the sink. She’s losing her hair because of chemo and seeing it all laying there just hurts a lot
No. 2610086
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I hate being an oversensitive person that cares too much about others so much that sometimes I wish I was just a psychopath. Not being one makes living alone without any friends all the harder. I hate people like CEOs but at the same time am envious how little they can feel because I've always been the exact opposite. I despise having emotions. I wish I could just delete them and be the soulless vegetable I was meant to be.
It's a fact that I will be all alone in life forever because of how dislikeable I am so at the very least I could use the careless confidence that comes from being a psychopath. At least that helps make you financially successful. I could then use my riches to fuck off on a remote island, doing nothing but eating, sleeping, and drinking myself to death. I won't need friends or bitch and moan about being lonely if I am fundamentally incapable of caring about other people. I can simply become a hedonist and never be affected by all the bullshit other people and relationships come with ever again.
No. 2610102
>>2610100I desperately hope this is bait because you sound genuinely demented. You’re talking about
a cat. It can’t insult you. It is a cat.
No. 2610110
>>2610102She insulted me. My relative grabbed her and she was carrying her around, that piece of shit looked happy….my relative likes the cat and the cat likes her. I tried the same after, I get her all cool stuff, she is supposed to be mine. Yet when I grabbed her today, I pick her up and the things starts meowing with anger and hatred and seething at me. I placed her down and lightly kicked her, I mean lightly. Then she wanted to enter my bedroom minutes after, she ruined my bed playing with that but I didn't mind, like below the bed, yeah. I threw something at her to get her to fuck off. I don't like being insulted, being mocked, laughed at.
No. 2610128
>>2610110>>2610083This is probably bait, but I'm going to reply sincerely because I think what I have to say might help any other anons who are experiencing behavioral problems with their cats. Meowing is an adaptation cats acquired to communicate with humans; feral and non-domesticated cats generally only meow as kittens and grow out of it as they mature. This is because cats communicate primarily via body language. We don't always understand cat body language very well, but cats are pretty good at understanding ours.
A lot of animals operate this way, which is why animals are naturally drawn to some people and repelled by others. It's not magic, it's body language. As you've gotten more angry at your cat, your body language has reflected that. She doesn't understand what you're angry about, because animals have a poor theory of mind, but she knows that you're angry and it's making her wary. The cat doesn't know if there's a threat in the environment that's upsetting you, or if it's her, but it's unsettling for the animal. As an aside, this is also why dogs or cats have to be disciplined within five minutes of a bad behavior, otherwise they won't associate the discipline with the infraction.
TL;DR your cat senses that you're disappointed/pissed off and is responding in kind. You will probably have to work to regain her trust before she'll tolerate being handled by you again. Only approach her when you're in a positive mood, and don't do things like kick her or glare at her.
No. 2610131
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>>2610121Fair enough but look at this and tell me you don't see the resemblance
No. 2610132
>>2610126>>2610123It's not bait, I have BPD and chronic depression ever since early teenage years now, I have never been loved and if I was, I never felt like it was honest. I want this piece of shit dead, but not just her, anyone who doesn't like me, that's everyone.
>>2610128I'm not going to accept it's apology, I am prideful and I know my pride. I will not accept an apology of this lesser thing, once insulted I've been mocked by even my cat. I don't want it, here or alive anymore.
(bait) No. 2610143
>>2610135You people pissed me off, my cat has been spoiled, I was buying nice stuff, I've never been loved, romantically. I've never been liked. This cat has been so spoiled, her mother liked me, not her. I got out of my computer and went into my closet, for my favorite jacket and gloves, sitting on the couch as the lazy shit is always doing, in her eyes you can see how spoiled she is, she just learned of her first punch, human punch, strength.
No. 2610144
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Went to my rapist's social media and he's doing amazing 4 years later. I reported him to the police and they didn't do anything. He gets to travel the world on his parent's money and I have to have nightmares once a week about how it felt to be violated. I want him to slit his fucking wrists and die. He's not in a community that gives a fuck about his rapist tendencies. Even if I tried to reach out to the people in his network, I don't think they would care. Men live on easy mode. I want him to die.
No. 2610264
>>2610233Ayrt, I'm glad you were able to respond. Well done for getting through that because it must have felt terrifying.
Does this site help at all? There are info/resources on there. Hope you are able to reach a point of peace nonna.
https://www.hearing-voices.org/voices-visions/#content No. 2610272
>>2610070>Would you eat pussy yes or no? If not then you are simply straight and disappointed in men.
>Would you marry a woman right now, quick! If not and you see women as merely sexual partners while envisioning men as long term partners then you are simply a bisexual who is basically straight. Leave women alone or partner up with other bisexuals like you.
>have you had genuine crushes towards both men and women, are you capable of envisioning long term plans with a woman by your side and in the same way you would with a man? Then you are a normal bisexual
>have you always found yourself uncomfortable with men , even during relationships, and intimacy with them felt like a chore and something you were supposed to have?You might be a lesbian.
No. 2610283
>>2610272ayrt to be clear I'm not confused about what my sexuality is (I am bisexual), I just think the way my sexuality is specifically makes no sense and it
triggers my brain. I feel embarrassed to sperg about it too much because no1currs but it won't stop bothering me
No. 2610294
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>>2610287The nonna didn’t specify what she meant by “confused about sexuality”, so these questions are inherent to the whole discussion.
Sorry you felt called out bihet nonna.
No. 2610302
>>2610290This kek. I would say that so many straight men are only functionally straight but spiritually homosexual, they live their sexuality through their penises so despite being aroused by the female body they center their penis in all of it and when they watch porn they transfer that and fixate over another scrote’s penis. They also live with the objective of impressing other men.
The only true “straight” men are the ones who get called “simps” by other scrotes because they need to keep the competition down.
Only a man who comes solely by eating you out can love you.
No. 2610305
>>2610296>sucking dickWhere did I even talk about sucking dick? I asked about eating pussy retard.
Giving blowjobs isn’t the same, because many straight women are straight despite not doing that. Classic bihet who has dick and balls floating around her brain 24/7.
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No. 2610322
>>2610317America is so dystopian holy hell. Here you could have gone to your doctors who would have sent you to a dermatologist to get it removed and also a biopsy.
Is there no way you can pay it installments or something?
No. 2610327
>>2610318You’re such a sweet person yourself. I’m glad you two found each other.
My current cat was a very unfriendly one who would avoid me like the plague, only coming to my place to steal my food. After months of feeding her and trying my best to befriend her, I asked the homeowner about said cat. And turns our her previous human died, and after being heartbroken, she ran away to the roof, not letting herself be caught, not even by her human’s family members. She was just sad and stressed. Now we sleep hugging each other under the covers every day.
No. 2610329
>>2610324Go back and insist nonna! This is important, it might not be anything but it’s worth checking if it has changed that much in one year. Ithe sooner you get checked the better your outcomes, you might just need cryo to remove it or if it looks strange then you might need a biopsy to confirm it.
That doctor was negligent.
No. 2610349
>>2610327If I didn't already have cats I would absolutely keep her but it doesn't seem fair to the ones we already have (four!) because she isn't nice to them. I'm scoping out leads, she's a very sweet and beautiful cat so I'm sure she can find a good home where she can be the only cat her owners can continue to spoil with attention.
Cats absolutely grieve. I think she's spoiled but also sad and that's partly why she's so needy right now.
No. 2610361
>>2610143Anon, I'm just telling you that this particular cat isn't the right fit for you. You indicated that yourself, when you said you didn't want her anymore. If your pet is causing you more anguish than comfort and it appears not to be bonding with you, then it's time to looking into rehoming her. Look, it happens. I had to re-home a dog once because she didn't get along with our other dogs and she seemed genuinely unhappy.
That said, how bonded is this cat to its mother, who you said you still own? Will one struggle without the other? Sometimes cats will stop eating if they're separated from another cat they're bonded to.
No. 2610380
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me trying to have deep convo with a moid friend after he was vulnerable with me saying i feel like men go through so much trauma that they only feel comfortable sharing with women and he proceeds to tell me our mutual moid friend "lost his virginity at 10" like girl he was a victim of a child sex crime what are you talking about