>>2618007ok in that case:
I fall back on anger as a default emotional response after a long time of getting my boundaries over-ridden with my family and so being angry feels like I'm protecting myself or motivating myself to act. Exercising helps but journalling or contemplative analysis doesn't, I need to channel it into feeling active in some other way.
It's still difficult though because if I'm getting angry over past wrongs that I can't do anything about or even anything similar, ragecleaning or going for a run aren't similar enough on an emotional level to feeling like I'm righting the wrong so it doesn't help as much as it should in those situations.