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tw for dumb shit ahead.
im so stupid… i cut myself a month ago and the scar is so ugly and deep and red. i was clean from self harm for a long time before this i guess thats why i misjudged the amount of pressure i should put on the blade
i was really happy that my old scars are almost unclockable but this shit is gross… why am i such an idiot makes me want to go fuck it and ruin my arm even further but thats some childish shit and im a professional adult now ugh.
I’m not from a wasp family. My family is made up of immigrant professionals. Lol I don’t have access to a ton of money yet. I do regularly donate money to charity on the reg right now. I could do more but I realize I’m a weak willed person and a hypocrite. I don’t hold myself up to be better than most people.
Not really sure why you are so keen to suck these people’s cocks especially when a lot of them are actual wasps unlike me.
I understand some people are going to be more famous than others. But I wish they would be honest.
Also I hate how a lot of these people claim to love immigrants but would never invite people like my parents into their circle because they aren’t classy enough. Like you can’t claim to love immigrants and shit on people for not liking the right types of wine.
I guess I am privileged lol? These people are even more privileged than me and acting so high and mighty. I guess you can ignore that and continue worshipping these people though.>>491750
You were accusing me of playing both sides. And yeah I guess it sucks that your parents couldn’t pay you. Though I did earn a full scholarship to at least one school but my parents preferred I didn’t go there even though they had to pay.
What about my story made you so hurt hurt?
I’m not even that rich lmao. It doesn’t take that much money to live comfortably in America
dude, this anon>>491750
even complimented you and said that must be nice, they didn't even shit on you? Wtf is your problem?
Ok great, you have more money than me. I said I wasn’t that rich lol. >>491798
Yeah I bet your life is awesome. Why is that so? Tell me about how great it is.>>491796
Being passive aggressive isn’t the same as being nice. Wtf is wrong with you?
I agree with the other anon, make sure you're getting in your nutrients! Eat your protein, get in iron and B vitamins, and take supplements if you must.
And if you start lifting weights you can eat a bit more and that cheesy pasta will help you get strong.
I carry my weight eating "normal" for me kind of chubby/curvy. I had really bad untreated stomach issues and basically ended up on a liquid diet and got super small. People were nicer to me everywhere I went it was surreal. I think the culture on lc wants to pretend everyone's "healthy weight" is looking slim and fantastic when that's just not the case for everyone. Your build/genetics matter.
I wish you the best anon that's a confusing place. This is probably not helpful but I've put on weight again and ran into a classmate recently. One of the first things he said to me was that I look so much healthier/happier and he was really worried about me but didn't want to say anything when it was happening. (at my lowest weight I still had a lower end normal bmi. I never looked skelly.)
So like idk I feel like all I got was being skinny was jerks flirting with me more but actual people who liked my personality never cared for a second if I was like 6 inches larger or whatever. They just want to talk to me without me feeling like I'm going to pass out.
I'm actually going to look into ED treatment for myself now because with my stomach issues I've developed so many bad habits I want to unlearn and have similar damage now as someone with bulimia. I never had the "ana-chan" mindset but at my worst I was legitimately terrified of certain foods because eating hurt and so did not eating.
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just dont anon. I've done this and it was not worth it. He had a huge dick but it hurt a lot but goddamn was i proud of being with an asshole with a huge dick.
he doesn't value you as a human and you're babies will probably all be dumb and sad with him as a father.
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If you're being honest I apologize, but I'm thinking this story is just being posted over and over by some /pol/tard who desperately wants to convince us that he's not a virgin. We get a couple retarded confessions exactly like this each thread like clockwork. I think of read some permutation of "I'm dating a /pol/tard/neckbeard" about fifteen times and I'm sick of it.
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I think about TV head a lot.
Sometimes I wish I too could become a friendly neighborhood cryptid.
I dislike Asperger's males, yet know a couple of women with it who are fine. The guys have no filter so all the disgusting thoughts they have around sex and women just come out of their mouths all casual
A quote from an autistic guy who teamed up with me in a class "I love having an orgasm right before sleep, don't you too?" Totally random after just meeting him
I knew a circumcised autist who at 30 years old wouldn't shut up about how he was probably missing out on extra sensation. He had it done at 10/11 when he had a tight foreskin so it was necessary and we were certainly not close enough for him to be talking about his penis to me.
I mean plenty of women have a hard time getting off but we don't tell everyone about it like it's a hardship. Autism or not he seemed ok in lots of areas of life so I don't think autism gives him a pass. He also took pics of me one day without telling me and refused to delete them cos 'we were in a public space so he's legally allowed to take photos of me without consent' I'm pretty sure he jerked to them
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>>492031>ever since our relationship started
What? So you started cheating on him immediately after you got together? Why the fuck even get into a relationship if you're looking to fuck other people?
Your boyfriend deserves better than you. He's going to find out and dump you eventually. Might as well stop being a lying little coward and tell him now. Even if he doesn't dump you, he'll never trust you again, and probably cheat on you because he figures you're doing the same.
Have a nice day.
I could never imagine going into work and being like "yeah, I'm having so much trouble having an orgasm from masturbating because of xyz". The thought makes me cringe.
Ok, but….is low spectrum mental illness irl (so not on paper) even real? To me it doesn't make sense since autistic people seem to be everywhere with and without a diagnosis, I'd say they're the overwhelming majority if we'd include pdd nos (which is the chaddest autism type I heard?) and so many symptoms overlap with different illnesses, why isn't autism then a personality disorder for example and why couldn't bpd not be autism? And aren't Asians (focusing on Indians and Japanese) the most autistic people on the planet? What is autism even?
and how does it distinguish from being an introverted awkward piece of shit?
toilet thoughts, but it's weird how I'm not being diagnosed with autism yet the people in this video >>492082
who seem normal but awkward to me are.
sage for autism, but pls answer me
not bait, I just have a lot of mental health issues. he kept tabs on me after my first public meltdown (asking to be hit by strangers kinda meltdown he witnessed)
NTA but I hate how the characteristics of autism are so vague. Like anyone can think they have autism these days based off some random personality traits. I've even read that liking poetry is a symptom of autism in women.
Here's what I would say are some features of autism:
>constantly talking and ignoring other people's attention>not being able to ride a bike>sensitivity to different foods>having vocal freakouts when things don't go as planned
Lol, why that one short autistic 30 year old manchild and not the millions of others?>>492336
It's delayed/impaired motor development in general. Biking, swimming, driving, throwing, writing, drawing, dancing, running, multitasking talking with paying attention… all skill sets controlled by the same parts of the brain, so all skill sets affected.
On the same name note, sensitivity to taste goes hand in hand with a sensitivity to noise, light, and touch. They experience sensory overload, which severely affect their ability to function, so they learn to block all inputs with massive freak out sessions as a coping mechanism.
ah ok, i can see it now that you've expanded upon it. just plenty of people i know who def aren't near the spectrum yet cannot ride bikes so it really caught me off guard lol. conversely, i also personally know autists that can drive, even chris-chan can drive and he's def autistic. it's often about access to things/local culture really.
i'd say over-explaining (esp obvious things) or having weird speech patterns in general can also be indicative.
>>492094>Ok, but….is low spectrum mental illness irl (so not on paper) even real?
Depends on how low it is, and how much it affects you.
>To me it doesn't make sense since autistic people seem to be everywhere with and without a diagnosis
If they don't have a diagnosis there's a good chance they don't actually have autism (or whatever they're claiming to have). People love to self diagnose and probably a lot of people who claim to have OCD and other things don't have it either, because they read half of the wikipedia summary of it and decided they have it.
>and so many symptoms overlap with different illnesses, why isn't autism then a personality disorder for example and why couldn't bpd not be autism?
Two symptoms can look the same on the on the surface but be completely different underneath and have different causes. For example, someone could be walking with a limp, and in constant pain, but it's caused by arthritis. Someone else could have the same symptoms, but for them it's caused by MS. My cousin had arthritis and was misdiagnosed with MS. Same thing can happen too with mental conditions.
A lot of symptoms of autism look like symptoms of PD's, but when you really dig you find out the causation is very different. For example someone with BPD and an autist might both have trouble maintaining relationships, but with BPD it's because of abuse, trauma, neglect etc that stopped that person's brain from forming properly, and with the autist it's because of the way their brain was when they were born. Autism isn't considered a PD because it's considered a cognitive disability and PD's are not. You have to be an adult to be diagnosed with most PD's (I think) but children can have autism.
>And aren't Asians (focusing on Indians and Japanese) the most autistic people on the planet?
I'm not sure what you mean here, are there actually higher rates of autism in those countries? Or are you using the pop culture definition of autism like "I like anime and computers, I'm so autistic lol" because in that cause they're probably not the most autistic people on the planet.
>What is autism even? and how does it distinguish from being an introverted awkward piece of shit?
I can't really answer that. But if you think you have autism, it's diagnosed with a test. It's a long test I believe. I'm not sure what country you're in, but if you're in the US you might have to pay for it and I think it costs like a thousand dollars. Bring it up to your GP or who ever you're seeing that you think you might have it and they should direct you to where you need to go.
Sorry this was so long, I couldn't answer all your questions but I hope it clarified a few things.>>492335>I've even read that liking poetry is a symptom of autism in women.
Yeah that sounds kind of ridiculous. I'm guessing who ever said that was talking about the "obsessive interests" symptom of autism. Autistic boys often have obsessions with things like trains and computers (or those are the stereotypes at least) but girls tend to have different obsessions. I've heard some people say fantasy novels as well.
>sensitivity to different foods
This is one of the sensory issues with autism. Sensory overload is a common symptom of autism. Being super sensitive to sound, light and smell are also included. Not everyone with autism has that though.
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It's Jahans isn't it?
I understand this anon…maybe for a different reason.
My ideal sex life would involve rarely getting touched at all, which I know reads as pathetic and pick me but I imagine it would feel so freeing and empowering.
Maybe your sex drive is also just very focused on other people? Like a service top or whatever.
>>492336>earnest question, why is bike riding on this list/ and why specifically bike riding, why not like swimming or driving a car or something?
I have pretty bad motor skills and I can still ride a bike. Not well, but enough where I can bike for a mile on flat terrain. I would say that bike riding is a pretty common skill that is not so hard to learn. I would say that riding a skateboard or alpine skiing are much harder.
The reason I put it on is that I was listening to an autistic guy talk about how he couldn't ride a bike and it struck me as weird. I'm pretty sure my autistic best friend in elementary school couldn't ride one either, though she might have learned when she got older. I think it's more concrete as opposed to "Omg I'm so klutzy, I must have autism."
i mean, choosing not to engage with people that have those disabilities is completely alright, you never should be forced to put yourself in situations that make you feel uncomfortable.
but if you're sitting in your room alone just thinking about how you hate them (and i'm not saying you're doing this) sounds like more of an issue with you. you know those people don't choose to be like that, right?
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It's Britbong/Dominic Vanner.
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If you are reading this it's because I know you hate letters, and for once in my life I didnt know what to say. I still dont. I dont know how you fix things like this without time. I cant look at your face without shaking. It's always been an act. One day I'll get the courage to say what I want to say. I'm sorry people were mean to you, I'm sorry I was too. I should have told you you were awesome without taking advantage of you.
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Love yourself anon.
tbqh, people like you, who claim to want to be mothers but really only give a shit about nursing their narcissistic streaks, are so gross. if you cared so much about being a parent, or about children, the length of time wouldn't matter (if you foster, adoption is free in the US). besides, you're either infertile or practically infertile anyways (unless your husband isn't particularly virile) so shit is already lengthy and complicated for you at this point, yet you keep trying for biological children instead because it's what you want, not what's best for children, and not what's less complicated, either. at least if you went the route of adoption, it'd be a fairly sure thing so long as you guys were committing yourself to helping kids in need, not just going the private adoption route or something. your wanting to be a parent is only an extension of your narcissism.
you can act like family and parenthood is just a condiment choice, but you're talking about the deliberate choice to create new life because you want a "new" child that has your eyes, and you act like there's no ethical weighing to this and that they're both the same, just different? not at all. just because you want it doesn't mean that yours isn't objectively less ethical, not to mention the fact that your children will have to contend with climate disaster. nothing you say has has anything to do with the beauty of family, something that has nothing do with shared genes (as we know plenty of biological families abuse, rape, murder their family members) and helping the next generation. you're purposely creating more people whose suffering is guaranteed (you can't guarantee happiness, but you can guarantee your child will face some kind of misery at some point, or possibly, much misery), when we know there are millions of kids out there that are suffering endlessly, with no hope. i'm not creating more people knowing i have no control over the circumstances they might face, and there are plenty of unfavorable circumstances that as a parent, you can't even avoid for your child. >>492713
lmao, of course, god forbid someone should adopt a child that's more than a few mos old. but sure, this is all about "having a family". can't help a 5 year old in need and wait for a baby, god no. you guys seriously sound like kids who won't be satisfied until they get a purebred puppy. it's not about family at all.
uhh, where? to my knowledge, there's no such board
anon you sound like you have a severe savior complex, and if anyone here is being narcissistic its you.
>I'm so EtHiCal cuz I would NeVeR make a baby, I would adopt one!1>can't help a 5 year old in need and wait for a baby, god no. you guys seriously sound like kids who won't be satisfied until they get a purebred puppy
Also your argument is all over the place and your writing makes it really hard to understand you. Try being a little more articulate.
>you can act like family and parenthood is just a condiment choice
Yes hello Mcdonalds, I'll take a cheeseburger with extra parenthood on the side, oh and no mustard please.
she's married to a fat dude leagues below her. he better be a gem of a human, but lbr he probably jerks off to the opposite of her and is probably average at best, emotionally. i once stalked his facebook profile and he's not particularly intelligent. definitely not as smart as she is. pretty sure she's dating down sooo hard and doesn't realize it.
that having been said, i don't like reptile people or exotic pet people because they hype up owning snakes or other edgy animals (no you dont need to bring up how cute hognose snakes are or anything, they're still pets for "not like the other pet owners") too much and 90% of snake owners are impulsive retards. they should be advocating NOT owning snakes, like, ever, because most people who own them are terrible. the type of people that are naturally drawn to snakes tend to be shallow and concerned with "collecting cool animals". plus, reptile ppl, including emily, focus too much on the looks of these animals and morphs etc. it's uncool imo. i'm glad she rescues them though. i just wish reptile people would focus less on looks and the animals being "cool" bc theyre not a golden retriever
>>492789>because if they don't and you got it because its cute, youre a hypocrite
no, i own/rescue pets to save them from a lifetime of disease, predation, etc. that's my primary motivation. if i have room and resources to rescue animals, i put it towards rescues. that's the basis people should be operating on, not getting a "cool" animal (who shouldn't be pets in the first place, tbh, and imo, this goes for cats and dogs, even, but there are many of them here already). rescuing exotic pets is admirable, and i'm so glad she does rescue some animals.
i can understand some breeders doing so to prevent wild capture or improper breeding, but exotic pet ownership should be heavily discouraged and warned against as much as possible, because people often overestimate themselves. 75% of reptile pets die within a year. js, i think there's a weird culture around animal ownership and the idea that kids and people in general need to own an animal to maintain an interest in it or respect or care for them. we see so many releases of these animals because people overestimate their interest or ability, they love novelty first and foremost, etc, and we know so many invasive species that have decimated native populations of animals are owed to the actions of exotic pet owners. how they look doesn't come into the equation being that there are so many pets that need homes.
he just got raided by the police
love yourself more you deserve better
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Im not sure I was ever attracted to men. I got in relationships with them to satisfy their want n avoid awkwardness. I always broke up with them before sex happened because I didnt want it to. The relationships I had with other women felt so much more fulfilling. They only ended when I got cheated on or mutually ended it. I didnt call myself a lesbian because I didnt care for the idea of sex that way n figured it was a big part. Ive never really understood when other girls pointed out a male celebrity was so hot shed screw him. I just dont see people in the light of 'I want to have sex with them' at a glance. Idk if Im bisexual or lesbian, I think Im too scared to call myself lesbian from the high amount of transbians. At least with bisexual I wasnt such a target for those pricks. I always saw myself alone with a good career or maybe marrying another woman if we really clicked.
>>493229>shitting on adoptive parents
No, we are shitting on you because you obviously have autism/savior complex that you can't possibly contain to your Holier than Thou self.
O' mighty, ethical and pure ~kween~ tell us more about the commandments of shitting on women who want their own spawn!
sad that you have to resort to insults, and>No, we are shitting on you
you were implying it
You're just another adoption-chan, coincidentally typing exactly like the other one. Go to the radfem thread and act like an aspergers kid if you really need an outlet.
Sad that you have to take anons observation about one person and try and turn it into >shitting on adoptive -parents-
As if we aren't all just shitting on -you-
why are you still bothered?
>Go to the radfem thread and act like an aspergers kid if you really need an outlet.
you're the one losing your shit and insulting people lol. die mad
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My childhood bully’s life has turned to shit and I’m all for it.
From first grade up until about mid 11th grade a girl in my school bullied me relentlessly. She would pretend to be my friend, and then assault me (kick me until my knees and legs bruised), follow me home to ambush me with her friends and mock me, steal things from my home, copy my homework and claim it at her own… make up lies to get me in school, ect. She constantly insulted me, acted like she was better than me, and made my life harder. She would catfish people, tell lies about me… all sorts of things.
She got pregnant in hs and dropped out. Had a kid, boyfriend left (obviously). Hadn’t heard from her since.
About a year ago, she got pregnant again. Miscarried late in the pregnancy, got super sick. She has a bunch of health problems now. She’s fat, and she literally looks like she’s 60 years old. Her hair is aged and dry/dead and her skin is bad, swollen, and wrinkled. Whenever I see photos of her and show people, they’re always shocked when I tell them she’s actually a year younger than me.
I know it’s bad, and gross, but it gives me some satisfaction to know how horrible her life is. It honestly made me kind of disgusted when I saw people complimenting and sympathizing with her during her hard times, she’s a bad person and I think she deserves whatever happens to her. I would never interject or say it though. But I have to wonder if people knew how she treated me if they would still comment on photos of her, bloated, in her crappy wigs, telling her she’s beautiful.
I know it’s a horrible thing to feel, or say. But I don’t feel sorry. She gave me a miserable childhood and I’m glad her adulthood is going horribly.
One of my childhood bullies ended up on the Jeremy Kyle show, behaving like a screeching autist. Another one just got really fat, and another is a camgirl. Makes me feel better seeing as I’m a total fucking loser, but I at least look my age and haven’t publicly humiliated myself for all the world to see.
I know kids can be cruel but I wonder about the boys and girls who went totally out of their way to make me miserable, I never ever did that to anyone, no matter what awful things happened at home or school.this way I don’t feel bad for revelling in their self imposed misery.
I'm thinking you're based. Karma acts in wonderful ways sometimes.
I had a bully who would relentlessly bully me in middle school, and in one case he kicked my face in a crowded bus. HARD. The school didn't even want to punish him for it (he's too young wahhh excuse) until my dad took them to court. And you know what? I'm still sore about it. I would love for him to get his shit kicked in. That kind of shit you just don't forget.
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I miss my shitty ex bf. he was a foot fag and i miss the way he sucked and licked my feet. It felt so fucking good. If a good foot fag ever touches your feet you'll never fucking forget it when the fucker does it right.
Nta but>You're so fucked up for being happy about a sociopath's life going to shit lmao
You moralfagging spergs remind me of people who used to be bullies/sociopaths and just got "woke" in the recent 2-3 years
Oh shut the fuck up, I'm a social loser and have always been. Don't be such an Elliot Rodger holy shit, you're ruining it for us wholesome autists who just wanna live and strive.
A miscarriage goes too damn far, she'd have deserved it only if I'm missing some more details that she did to her but so far I find it sick and it's really fucking ironic you're calling me a sociopath when you have such a vengeful mindset. Save it for fucking people that weren't kids, jesus christ.
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Went to a new doctor yesterday and he's like thirty years older than me and SO HOT. We flirted so much yesterday and today I had to go back to his office for a prescription and flirted even more (so much that his secretary even asked if I was a family friend or something lmfao). He's married and I'm taken but dude, if I was single I would hit it.
I just googled him and found his flickr account, where he posts pics of his cats and some stuff from a video game convention around here and I'm not even sure if he has kids. He even likes porn on there because boomer don't know other people can see what you mark as a favourite kek
My bf is a really jealous person by nature and I hope he never finds out I flirted this much with someone else
Also the "flirting" with you is probably just him being nice.
Flirted with my doctor too! He was so hot and I felt like such a creep for enjoying him asking me to take my top off and when he was close to me. Usually it would be unprofessional the way we talked to eachother.
I am taken and would never act on any impulses though. Also poor doctors constantly being harassed etc… Wouldn't want to be that patient.
Are you american or no? Cause I've never encountered doctor telling anyone to take their top off. Usually a nurse comes in and gives you a gown to change into, in which all tests can be conducted without creep doctor making anyone strip.>taken
here, He’s my eye doctor, he's never seen me without a top on and I’m definitely not sexually harassing him kek.
What a cope
disagree on the idea that young male doctors are so professional and admirably benevolent, like they're unfailingly pious nuns or something, but it's cringe all around regardless, worse yet knowing both anons are with other people tbh. it's possible they were flirting with anons too, but i think it's really creepy either way for medical professionals to be anything but appropriately kind/accommodating. even if i found a doctor attractive, the minute he was anything but professional with me, i'd be turned off completely, just because that doesn't suit what a doctor should be, so any respectability or admiration that comes with them being a doctor is almost wiped away? especially irks me because my dad is in medical and he is so inappropriate with female patients, non-stop flirting, making 'jokes' and asking them out, etc.
idk if people in the medical field can't restrain themselves enough to maintain professionalism and maintain frame separate from their dicks, they shouldn't be in that field.
This is so fucking pathetic.
I just now realized that during my youth, most of the time, I didn't even enjoy anything sexual with other people.
I just did it for some twisted validation, typically from people who didn't really give a shit about me.
It was never "I want to be choked", it was actually "I want someone to tell me I look sexy when I can't breathe. I want someone awful to obsess over me, because I am awful and I deserve it, but if they tell me I'm pretty and they like abusing me, I serve some purpose, and I'm worth caring about". None of it was natural, it was all some disgusting affect that pandered to existing self-hatred. It started from excessive exposure to pornography from an age too young to properly process it, was encouraged by groomers and pedophiles, and was bolstered by shitty fucking internet blogs as I started going through puberty. I barely even got turned on, it was just mental self-harm.
I thankfully don't do that anymore. My interest in sex is very rare, though, possibly from overexposure. The problem is, whenever I actually try to get myself into a sexual mood, the thoughts of wanting to be validated through abuse pop up instead of anything that might actually feel good.
I don't know how to fix this, I just wanted to confess.
I'm sorry to hear that anon.
Ideally society should do everything it can to make sure children aren't accidentally exposed to porn.
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I end up ghosting a lot of people when i take a break from socializing. I'll often just quit from social media for a few days and then come back, or selectively talk in places where i feel comfortable. Then i come back, and i don't know how to explain to people that. Isn't it kind of weird to have a somewhat stranger come back to you and go "sorry i was tired and didn't feel like replying" except multiply that by 2 weeks or maybe even months, because i get stuck in a loop and then i just end up permanently ghosting someone out of shame even when i really liked talking to them? I feel two-faced as fuck. I wish my social battery didn't run out so fast. I must have some sort of terminal autism to be able to really like someone and still not be able to talk to them regularly
t. ditched a bunch of japanese language learning buddies on hinative who are likely going to be pissed when i come back from a 3 month hiatus
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Wow, I can relate completely. Feels bad because I want to get closer with my online friends but I just get burnt out quickly.
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I worked a lot to get into this prestigious university, it was my dream for so many years and I made it ! My parents are poor and working their asses off to pay my studies but it's worth it according to them: "You're the pride of the family".
But since I've been there, I've never been so unhappy. I feel out of place. After a painful year there, I started to skip more and more classes to the point where I failed my second year 2 times and I'm on my way to fail it a 3rd time and get expelled. The thing is… My parents still don't know it.
I know it's a stupid lie because they'll find out but I don't have the guts to tell them yet. I'm so ashamed of being such a retard and wasting my parents money.
The more you skip, the more you feel guilty and alienated and it negatively affects your mental health which in turn fulfills the prophecy of you skipping until you fail.
Remember, mental illness is particularly bad, but feeling extremely stressed and out of place in college is a normal experience. College students go through dozens and dozens of breakdowns. You are not alone in this and I mean it in the best way as someone who went through what you are going through to the point I didn't even want to be alive anymore: you can always start a new chapter. You can overcome anything. You can be the person you want to be. You will graduate. You are stronger than you know. There is hope for you.
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I wanna fuck Tim Rogers so badly. Jesus fuck he's exactly the kind of twig boy i love. I don't care if it turns out he's a creep or a jerk I just wanna ride his dick until he can't come anymore.
get the cat that makes you happy. the cat that was bred was already born, and already alive.
you are one single person your choices don't matter in the long run when it comes to societal change.
whether or not you buy the cat someone else will therefore revoking your choice in not purchasing it.
kind of like how you vote and someone you know voted for the opposite candidate and says "I cancelled out your vote" even though that line of logic would work both ways.
donate money to no kill shelters and support groups that want to advocate for laws that make pet breeding illegal, if you still feel guilty.
stupid, poorly thought out line of thought. whether or not she makes a difference in discouraging breeding doesn't matter. what DOES make a difference is her being able to literally adopt a cat that will be put down, or is at risk of being put down. that's a very real difference. that decision creates a huge impact on the animal that is saved from fear and anxiety.
the bred cat won't be killed or abandoned.
No offense taken lol but we really don’t see the world through a different lens. He’s pretty open minded and isn’t bothered by me being bisexual or slutty. He does drugs and has sex with me so it really isn’t a point of contention. Also I am a very spiritual person so I don’t judge him for having faith in something I just wish it wasn’t christianity. I honestly believe he uses it to cope with trauma so I just kind of feel bad for him. >>495656
please say sike rn lol But seriously we get along so well and we’re so similar in so many ways and he has just been so much more mature and treated me better than any other guy, so as long as he isn’t a douche about it it should be fine. Right???
I don’t fully subscribe to any one set belief system but I fuck with a lot of what hinduism and buddhism teach: karma, chakra, reincarnation, etc. >Why y’all like this?
Like what exactly?
Why do you think you're better than Christians or other practitioners of organized religion when there's nothing to indicate that you're better? Is it because you're vaguely spiritual and non-committal instead?
It just seems like you're some dumbass trendy American who think that Hinduism/Buddhism are so cool while knowing jack shit.
Abrahamic religions have it so ingrained in their belief systems that they're superior to non-believers, that they see it as an affront to their superiority when an outsider doesn't want to play. So much that they project the outsider is being the condescending one for merely disagreeing.
t. ex Catholic
I recognize a lot of copes.
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I wanna join a cult. Something about being tight knit, niche, and a tad persecuted really appeals to me. Is there even any cult that isn't infested with scrote-shit? Imagine if lc was a cult, damn wistful thinking.
Ugh me too. I'm so terrified of (sexual) abuse though, which is inevitable in male-lead cults and the reason I want to depart from society in the first place.>>496780
I'm sorry anon, they probably did it because they felt estranged from society. Never worth it in every instance I've heard of.
Cults need a charismatic leader AKA total Stacies therefore the lolcow cult can never be because Stacies probably aren’t posting here.
Maybe we could try worshipping a cardboard cutout of Farmer-tan.
go down on her, report back.
really tho bless you based lesbian anon, enjoy your new freedom.
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Beautiful painting, I love the shine of the woman's clothes and her hairstyle is so cool. I love the edit so much too
Most male cult leaders are not attractive men, and the few times when there's female cult leaders they're often not attractive women either. That they start off as being incredibly insecure when it comes to appearances is a part of what motivates them to take extreme measures, and what later plays in to them being abusive
It's a phrase used to generalize the shit out of "normie" women but it pretty much extends to any woman who has standards.
"Stacies" are man-chasing whores who only date chads and ignore the clearly superior beanpole, unhygienic, moron incels. You can use the term Stacy if you want, but take into account that you pretty much also qualify as a Stacy on the merit of being born a woman that an incel thinks is unattainable based on their subjective, fucked up views.
NTA but instathots yes, libfems no. They have the reputation of being ugly fat feminazis.
Being a Stacey has nothing to do with being a handmaid, it's just about being extremely conventionally attractive and having an active social/romantic life. I don't think it's bad and I disagree with anon that they are man chasing, they get chased by men. The best example is any of the pretty blonde popular girls you see in a teen movie, like Regina George or whoever.
I feel you, anon.
I do support self-publishing because it makes way for a bigger variety of stories out there that are more about entertainment than money, but I've yet to meet a self published author who isn't obnoxious about it and forcing their friends and family to buy and read their mediocre book to show their support.
Thank you all, I feel a lot better/more valid
after reading your replies
What makes you say you're with the wrong person? No one is perfect for you and no one will ever be. I honestly think you might
have the right attitude, just overthinking things? Sorry, I have no info to go on.
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I love it when artists draw him in straight/bisexual situations
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I'm endorsing these forbidden pairings and no one is gonna stop me.
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I have this complex where I get extremely anxious about my boyfriend interacting with my friends/family and saying something cringy to make them dislike him. He's made edgy jokes in the past that have put my friends off and its so fucking frustrating because he never makes those kinds of jokes when we're alone. I think he gets in this performative mindset when he's anxious and around new people. One of my closest friends once said the polite version of "I don't like him/get along with him" and has admitted to being straight up rude to him because of it which makes me feel just terrific.
I've spoken with him about this before and he was very understanding and admitted he's had problems with this in the past and it upsets him a lot. He has many nice, normal friends and I always feel at ease hanging out with them since he acts like his normal self. I know I need to just stop worrying about what other people think, but the damage has been done and now I just kinda avoid hanging out with my friends and my boyfriend together.
So I haven’t been on here for a while, and I don’t really know how to start this.
I’m currently in Africa (long story) and I’ve been here for over a year and a half. North african culture is a little weird as in cousin marriages are supppeer common. I’m actually extremely lucky bc my parents are from two entirely different tribes and so are their parents. I mean, at least i’m not inbred? That being said cousin marriages are still common and encouraged in our tribes. Since i’ve came here i’ve kinda just made it known i dont fuck with my blood. Out of all the people, why go for your cousins?
So fast forwas to July, i was at this wedding until some guy came up to greet me and a family member. We started talking and really hit it off. This country is super islamic and conservative so to find an open minded guy and all was really fucking refreshing. It’s been almost two years since i’ve last been in a relationship so when he asked for my number i thought fuck it, why not? We’ve been talking for a few months and he’s honestly the sweetest guy i’ve met but there’s one issue.
See i’m from X tribe, bc of my dad. My mom is from Y tribe. Tribes in this country all have a stereotype. So i asked my mom what his tribe’s, Tribe Z, stereotype was like and we got to talking about our family tree. Apparently, my great great grandma is from the same tribe as his, and he actually may be my second/third cousin. I don’t know how the fuck to react to that and it’s put me in a really fucking weird position.
Out of all the guys I could meet in this shithole country, why did it have to be my cousin? I haven’t told him or anyone for that matter about this and honestly it’s been a almost a week since i’ve had a proper conversation with him and he’s noticed i’ve been off when talking to him. It’s just so weird to talk to him now when all I could think is “haha ur my cousin.”
I really like this guy too fuck. I don’t know what to do, i mean i should break up with him but how? “Your my cousin sorry bro i dont fuck with that.” Fuck man. It’s like some kind of cruel joke.
Based and redpilled
Wish i saw this tho, I think I've blocked every promare artist that came on my dash lol. I need to find more good het artists on twitter already desu
I don't have any strong hope that future generations will be better. But I definitely don't buy into the innocent sweet gran who was good to her kids all their lives got dumped in the home by ungrateful family
trope. Some old fucks are rightfully in there to rot and it's more upsetting to me that the employees aren't paid enough to deal with their literal shit.
My mom is a CNA at a nursing home. We're Mexican and she tells me similar stories about how some of the patients call her a wetback and tell her to go back to Mexico. Idk how but she doesn't get bothered by it at all.
A lot of old people are absolutely shameless when they're senile. Tbh I still feel bad for them though because they do get taken advantage of, and elder abuse often gets sweeped under the rug.
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I know I have like 200 followers at best but i have nothing for them on Christmas. In fact i have posted nothing over 6 months. This giant ass artblock is kicking my ass and i can't even go on my art blog to at least tell anyone anything. I just leave my fans on hold and make them think I'm dead.
Realistically there's probably only a very small percentage of those 200 followers that would consider themselves fans and are actually awaiting new content. Most people just see a blog, like it, follow it and forget about it until next time a post of said blog appears on their dashboard. This goes for anyone with some sort of following.
Merry Christmas anon, chill and don't worry
Everyone in my life has started to notice I have an extreme, almost exclusive preference for very "feminine" type guys. I've only dated a few people, but each one is more physically frail and effeminate than the last. I feel like it might even be some kind of fetish, this is super degenerate to me but I've enjoyed having past bfs put on my underwear (I usually wait for them to offer, so as not to force them)
It's gotten worse lately with my current bf. He has very feminine aspects/mannerisms (full lips and lashes, the way he talks, posture, etc) but is also generally a bookish/sensitive type, and for this his friends will always make weird jokes when I'm around (like "showing me who the real alpha male is" by beating him in a game) and his family will try to make him seem like a fussy baby to make me laugh. I usually hug him and remind him I love him, but the thing is, this has started to kind of turn me on. Sometimes we jokingly rp out loud and one time I said to him, "you're my sickly little Victorian boy, you're going to die soon" and we both seemed a little too into it. Am I a fucking closet pedo or something
lmfao, wow. i get the effeminate thing, but i never understand the panties or making them perform femininity. i don't get that, and i really think it makes them susceptible to trooning out. also >tfw your bf is prettier than you, naturally
that's the thing i hate about dating effeminate guys. the sickly little victorian boy thing is weird for sure but whatever floats your boat. i'd just be careful because at the end of the day, he's still a guy and is probably pretty malleable and once you send him down a certain path, men have no self control or self awareness, so…
Effeminate guys are the most attractive IMO, but I'm sorry anon>"you're my sickly little Victorian boy, you're going to die soon"
This made me giggle, lmao
Nothing wrong with dating pretty guys. But this: >"you're my sickly little Victorian boy, you're going to die soon"
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I asked for a kinda pricey Lazy Oaf skirt for Christmas because I wanted something that was similar but much nicer quality than one of my favorite skirts. My mom got me a really cheapy Amazon version that's an even worse quality of the one I already have, I got paid today so I just bought the one I originally wanted instead.
I'm laughing too now, actually that sounds so ridiculous typed out. I swear it was a joke though! By "too into it," I meant that he found it really funny and sweet and cuddled into me like a child. Maybe I just like feeling motherly>>498181
Thanks anon, you made some really good points and this was kind of the warning response I was looking for. I don't think I'd care if he decided to be a girl on his own, but I definitely really don't want to push him or guide him in any direction. I'm really afraid of that because he had a crazy gender-special ex who would make him paint his nails and project gender/sexuality issues on him and he really seemed to hate that. I'll be careful
Different anon here but I have the same tastes as you and it never turned my bf trans just to reassure you, however I stopped putting him in girls pants after a guy friend of mine transitioned. Even though I'm ok with trans people I can't indulge in that fun kink anymore without thinking about social politics and getting turned off.
Make the most of it whilst you can, also because as we get older men get less feminine.>"you're my sickly little Victorian boy, you're going to die soon"
I'm going to think of this and laugh everytime I hear tuberculosis mentioned in a period drama now
Ah thank you, this is good to hear. Sometimes I get an irrational worry that I really am subconsciously trying to influence his identity or something. >social politics
I hate thinking about this too. Sort of related, my parents are a bit judgmental about all this, and they've said stuff about my current bf like that he "dresses European" which in my culture definitely means "looks skinny and gay." I hate thinking about how he's perceived to others, then again, it doesn't affect our relationship. And as you said, the look will fade with age.>>498219>>498221
omg, I'm happy that everyone's getting a kick out of this. I want to tell my bf but I don't want him to look for the posts lol
If they've been sitting in boxes for six months and you haven't used them or even really thought about them, consider donating them. someone else has room for them and might actually need
more clothes/books. Trash the makeup.
you've been living there long enough that anything that hasn't made it out of the box by now isn't an essential. Downsize.
I agree. I wonder if it might be cptsd that she has, it's often misdiagnosed as bpd. People with abusive
narcissistic parents often end up with "narc fleas" even if they aren't narcs themselves. Margo was the only consistent person in her life until a few years ago, it would be impossible for anyone to come out of that situation and be mentally healthy.
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I’ve been venting to myself and myself only for almost three years now and I would strongly recommend it. 5990 tweets and counting…
When something piss me off, instead of passive aggressive texting or replying mad, I just go there and start saying EVERYTHING I want to say, no limits. At first I felt kind of dumb but now it reduces my anxiety because I’m always tired of having to project a good image and there I can the 100% honest with all I feel.
You're not. Don't feel bad about it if it makes you feel better anon.
I know that feeling too well. I haven't hugged anyone for years.
not pathetic – at my loneliest I would pretend someone was touching me, even just standing by me, in a weird little fantasy world that was super comforting
all you are is human nonnie
and it's ok
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legit would brush your hair, braid it badly and even help you dye it or something. I feel you, anon. Love, finn anon #2
I’ve been feeling insecure about it but I really like wearing pastel children’s clothes and only that. I only wear children’s shoes, socks, shirts, dresses, skirts, hats, pajamas, hair accessories, everything. I don’t really fit into adult women’s clothing and find it so boring.. the cute pink and pastel of children’s clothes just hits home with me. I’m very short and thin and have an embarrassing baby face (always have) and even when I’m dressed normally I get mistaken for a young teenager (typically 12-14). I actually wish I looked more mature so maybe I could look beautiful in elegant gothic clothing or something but instead I’m just too cutesy for it. It’s not some weird pedo shit either, sexually I’m not into dressing that way at all or acting like a child in any way. I just love kids clothing. I bought the cutest pink and rainbow sparkly shoes at the mall with little charms on it and they’re absolutely adorable, but part of me feels like I’m just some sort of freak. I used to be into more adult fashion like lolita but I lost interest in it after a few years (but I can’t part with my wardrobe…). I also love children’s television and toys and all of that. I had a very very bad childhood, I had to mature extremely quickly as a child and was neglected by my mother (and I didn’t have a father) so maybe my brain is just fucked up enough to find peace in children’s things. It’s difficult to not even have a community to go to for this. The closest thing is “SFW” age regression but I’m not a regressor. I refuse to associate with kinksters like DDLG and ABDL. The best community I can find is Japanese girls who are as weird as I am but my Japanese isn’t that good. I guess I’m destined to be some kind of weird freak forever or something, I don’t know. It makes me feel really guilty and I think people associate me with DDLG.
just buy japanese clothes like the rest of us. i agree with >>499357
you sound perverted.
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I'm actually trying to get over a similar issue, but my obsession with wearing children's clothes had to do with my past ED so it's been easier for me to work on a real problem. That being said, I do think there is a real issue with exclusively buying childrens' clothes no matter how well they suit you. Unless you plan to be a neet forever, it's not exactly the best way to present your best self to the world. That and I'm pretty worried I'll flip out when I start showing signs of aging and don't suit the clothes anymore, idk about you.
What I've done so far to transition out of the cutesy stuff is get more into girly/elegant k-fashion (lots of layering, skirts and pinafore style dresses) and work in the cutesy elements via color palette and hair accessories (bows, big novelty clips). I still buy from the kids' section because it fits well, but I make sure it's more neutral pieces that I can work into my wardrobe, like plain sweaters, skirts, and babydoll dresses. Most people can't even tell and it's a funny conversation piece if someone asks where I got it, instead of me walking around looking like the Baby Gap incarnate.
Good luck, anon. Ultimately, you should do what makes you happy. If dressing any other way is going to take a toll on your comfort or happiness, just be confident and learn to be okay with the fact that you're doing something out of the norm. Don't psychoanalyze it too hard.
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I really want to be somewhat famous and well known,I know its legit one of the most retarded dreams someone could have but damn im dreading living life is as simpleton nobody, its just so boring and uneventful.
I hate routine, I absolutely dread having to work a 5 to 9 office job, I don't want to live like that.
I know it makes me a moron clout chaser but i've had a taste of the regular everyday joe life after taking a break from college (switching majors) and I just want to shove my head into an oven from how bored and unfulfilled I am.
>>499515>I know its legit one of the most retarded dreams someone could have
Don’t be so hard on yourself anon, tons of people wish for fame.
If it helps, think of how prevalent cancel culture is nowadays and how much of each celebrity’s dirty laundry is aired to everyone. everyone’s so desperate to dig up old internet posts or dirt from middle school on celebs. It makes me want to live as quiet of a life as possible, and I’m a complete average joe myself.
Maybe you’re stuck living in a boring area. I know I am (Amerifag college students know out of state tuition isn’t cheap!) Try preparing to get a job somewhere interesting after graduating college when you go back.
You're not alone! I was basically mute during middle school and had so much trouble with my voice when talking. If I could say something, the tone would be off and my voice would croak. People still barely hear me, and I'm monotone and somewhat deep-voiced, but it's better from giving less fucks…
I have mild autism, some people think it's a meme diagnosis tho
I feel you, anon. I used to be very social, confident and talkative as a kid, now I'm tendencially shy, quiet and I drain my social batteries very fast.
I became quiet during the end of elementary school because of trauma and abuse, even the teachers commented on how strange and sudden the change was. Was the weird quiet kid throughout all of middle school until high school. Then I started working on myself to change and try to slowly revert to my old real self, because I know that I want to be like that again. Now I just feel like I can't remember how to, sometimes it's really hard because it feels like there's something stopping me, but I've been slowly improving.
I'm sure there are many people that can understand your struggles, maybe you could help each other out. I'd befriend someone like you for sure.
I'm not OP of >>499740
but I'm pretty much in the same boat. Is it fine to post in the NEET thread if you are a trainwreck that is employed?
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My 6th grade teacher still has her site up and even has a page for old students. I still think about her from time to time and want to message her, but what am I supposed to say? I’m a neet now, sorry for being a weird anxious fuck who probably looked like I hated you and having panic attacks in your class?
This may be totally retarded but you could
come clean to her, get a new one and get it engraved with something nice?
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I know I'm gatekeeping but I really wish the witcher wasn't so popular as it is becoming now. Been a fan since the first game and the books since they were translated to English and available in my country. But seeing the fans from the show slowly killing the small cozy fandom with their shipping, complaining about the racism, sexism etc is making me sad because they don't get what the world and story are about.
I know it's stupid to bitch about it, but it makes me sad.
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You're not alone, anon. The series is very close to my heart and seeing the casual GoT fans watch the Netflix show is painful. On one hand, I like that Sapkowski and CD Projekt Red are profiting from it, but I also just really hate all the memes being thrown around by people who only know the show. Now we won't have our smaller, passionate community to ourselves. We have to share our space with casuals.
>>501740>He has also stopped listening to me when I use our safe word.
Why the fuck are you still with him for?
nayrt but… gotta agree there. He's really something.>>501736
Like the other anon said, smaller fandoms are cozier, filled with people who are passionate and deep into it. Now I know what pre-GoT ASOIAF fans felt like.
I think it’s more the fact that there are people out there so fucking autistic that they make these stupid videos. The way these Koreans do things like give cartoony voices to insects and going out of their way to make insanely stupid and elaborate ways to kill a tiny insect is just hilarious to me. I think that’s the biggest reason why I find them funny tbh. There is a full-grown adult behind this juvenile autism. For fuck’s sake, they even made kawaii mascots for one channel.
Plus, I have no empathy toward mosquitoes since I’ve lived in countries infested with them and my sister even got sent to the hospital over a bad mosquito bite before. Those things can seriously fuck you up and I just see them as unfeeling insects that exist to cause pain and suffering.
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I’m just gonna say it. I think my boyfriend’s major and interest in Russian is DUMB as hell. I think it’s fucking stupid that he’s blowing 2000 dollars on a trip abroad to Russia this summer for two months when he’s not even Orthodox or Russian. Great, won’t get to see him or hardly talk with him for two whole months when I already only see him once a week because he goes to school in a different city. He dated a couple Russian girls before me so i’m certain he has some kind of fetish. I hate it so fucking much and i’m sure he’s just going to just gawk at the girls there and get drunk. I found his VK account and it always says he’s online at certain points in the day and i’m thinking he’s probably talking to some girls or something. He knows i don’t like this shit due to my reaction whenever he talks about it but i never say anything disrespectful about it to his face. It’s the one thing I’d change about him. I love him besides this but still, it pisses me off.
I've known I have a drinking problem for years, but it's only now that it's actually starting to fuck up my life. I used to always live alone from 16 on, or with my ex who was also an alcoholic, and I had no friends and was a NEET, so I only ever effected myself or posted dumb shit on IRC. But since fleeing my ex earlier this year, I'm now living with my sister and adult nephew, and I'm starting to mess up my relationship with them. I have a job now too, and I'm starting to fuck up with that as well.
I stopped drinking liquor two months ago after I drank 3/4 handle of gin and woke them up at 2 AM apparently stark naked and pinned against the wall banging my head against the wall. I don't remember any of this and was confused why she was mad at me the following morning. Two weeks later I blacked out and woke up with my lip busted to shit, bleeding, with a big bruise, and 45 minutes late to work. I told them I hit myself with a filing cabinet and I don't think they believed me. I only drink without them knowing so it was weird for them I'm sure.
Switched back to beer and was still blacking out every night, but functional in the mornings to go to work, although not really ever showering. Then a big snowstorm hit and I was off work for about a week, which turned into the worst bender of my life. Since then, for the last two months it has been completely out of control. I started drinking on my lunch break and then for the last three weeks I've been drinking in the mornings before work. Today I managed to get so hammered at 9 AM I had to call in sick. I faked losing my voice and I think family bought it, but I don't really remember what I said to them.
To make it worse, I visited my mom after Christmas and got so drunk at the airport and layover on the way back I left my bag on the plane and did some other shit apparently. My sister picked me up and yelled at me that I just stunk of beer and some other things. I don't remember getting on or off the plane or pretty much anything from that night. So she got on me for drinking then, and then my mom texted me saying she knew I had a problem and needed to cut back. Thankfully neither of them have commented anything further.
My life has just become a constant blackout. I'm literally not a person anymore, just existing to drink and I don't enjoy anything, films and reddit are just things that entertain me while I'm drunk. I don't remember practically anything about my life and my cognition is at zero. I don't care about my appearance at all and look like shit every day when I always used to be incredibly vain. I used to have a fucking eating disorder and alcohol has managed to subsume it totally.
None of this matters to me enough to stop. I can't even remember what it's like to not drink every day. I just at this stage need to control myself to not drink before work. But to do that I think I need to just stop drinking totally. I can't moderate myself and the last time I tried I got a day sober before feeling fucking withdrawal symptoms, idk how bad it would have got.
I have some leftover beer in my drawer and it's fucking spooking me to think I might forget this and start drinking as soon as I wake up again.
Please go to a doctor because if you keep on like this you could die. Alcohol is no joke. You need professionals to help you out with this. Even going to an AA group would be a good start.
Even though I don't drink every day I do sometimes have a problem with moderating my drinking. I know how it feels to black out. One of my best friends had a beer one night, doesn't even know what happened next but when she came to herself she was missing most of her front teeth. She's in treatment and currently sober. I really hope you seek out help, anon.
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I understand, the series is good but the fandom is so cringe
If I see another "toss a coin to your witcher" joke again, I'm gonna scream.
dude please go to a dr or AA.
I was at this point and it just gets worse trust me. you can do it, please try and stop
i'm 5 days sober and its already lifechanging. please get some help my friend dont throw yourself away, you deserve better
so you expect your visitors to parade around their used pads while going from the toilet to the kitchen? this is only fine in your own home or parents place.
also, tossing your used pads in your kitchen garbage collector sounds disgusting.
I guess I shouldve mentioned there is a big stigma where I live about being seen with anything period related (that includes unused pads that are not in a tiny bag or something)
it mostly happens in public toilets where there are no bins, at a close friends house it's fine to ask where their bin is.
Your friends house does sound disgusting, I always make sure there is a (near) empty bin available for my guests
>You hopefully wash your hands after the bathroom too
I always wash my hands after bathroom, people who don't are disgusting
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sorry im just really thirsty for a warboy bf
This totally crushes my soul. I am always so scared of getting close to women unless it's autists like me and who don't care about sex or having a bf/gf.
In the past it always ended up with them developing crushes on me if lesbian/bisexual and the few straight girls I happen to befriend cut me off immediately because I am not-cool-enought for them, tomboyish as I am.
It also happened that a girl I thought my bestfriend started flirting with my bf and I cut her off because if I can't trust someone on this, how I could trust her in other situations? I later discovered she was talking trash on me, too. Yikes. I felt like shit and guilty of cutting off a friendship for a guy at first, but honestly fuck her for wanting to mess with her "bff"'s bf.
You sound like an extremely toxic
person if you unironically believe the shit you just wrote. That's so insulting. It's a good thing no girl wants to be your friend. Go back to your 'no drama'-males and fellow women-hating dykes.
Lesbians always complain about straight women supposedly only thinking about men, when they themselves spend way too much time making up theories of how we actually work and why we're inferior to you. You're like trannies, instead of using your energy to go against the ones who actually insult or even hurt you (men), you pick the easiest target.
You're straight up a misogynist.
don't you guys know, the only women you're allowed to complain about on the site now are narc moms!
also the irony that >>502818
sounds like she'd call someone a pick me but then bitches when people complain about women exhibiting pick me behavior…
Well, you have the female socialization to thank for that. No woman is born an evil bitch who drops her friends the moment a hot guy walks in. We're taught that our purpose in life is to serve the needs of men and dedicate our very beings to them, we're marinated in the idea that "a woman's worst enemy is another woman" and that women are "too catty and dramatic" to ever function together. This ends up with a lot of women believing it and acting upon it. The only way to fight it is to realize that it's a learned behavior model and raise awareness about it. The "omfg other women are such cunts I can't handle it" sperging does nothing to help. >>502825>a very, very small handful of those friendships didn't end due to the other girl going awol as soon as she got a boyfriend/romantic interest
Honestly this tends to happen with guys as well, it's not only limited to women.
What part of "shut the fuck up" do you not understand? You're just a straighty mad that people here vent about straight women worshipping the cock at all costs. Nobody here cares about your personal feelings. Let people vent without falling into an autistic fit about how we're all uwu toxic
Nta but do you even know any males? There's tons of guys who cut back on their interaction with their male friends. Have you seriously never heard the male bitterness when a man chooses his significant other over his bros? >HAHA UR SO WHIPPED
That's what they say! They get extra mad when their guy isn't about "bros before hoes." Men are incredibly jealous and petty when they think a woman is "stealing" away their friend.
You sound like a male. Get the fuck out and never come back here again. I couldn't care less about male "problems".
And if you are a female for some reason, I genuinely pity you. Stop stanning and defending a group of people who see every one of us as worthless subhumans.
>>502895>pointing out that men do the same shitty behavior people are accusing straight women of only doing >STOP DEFENDING MEN YOU LARPING SCROTE
…………….? I mean…you're kind of the one defending men more by implying they don't ever abandon each other because they're just oh so loyal. When the original argument is about bitchy jelly female straights.
You're really, really off base with this one lol.
Lmao, men are the exact same of women and unleash their bitterness by gossiping, ghosting and insulting each other. Many of my former male friends have a story of ghosting all other friends just because they got a girlfriend. If two men like the same girl they pretend to be friend and be there for each other, but the moment the other is looking the other way they go all the way to "steal the girl".
Just because they don't do that in front of you doesn't mean it won't happen.
>>502899>People were specifically talking about women doing it to each other and you come in with "think of the menz.
No I didn't you liar. YOU were the one going off here >>502890
about how men "never abandon their friendships," and when I came along to correct you, you're having yourself a shit fit because you wanna sperg out about how straight women don't want to be friends with you. If you didn't want derailment then maybe you shouldn't have said too much where other people were tempted to reply to your stupidity.
You sound like a nightmare, as a straight woman I would avoid you too. The second someone disagrees with you, they're on the chopping block. Red flag alert!
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Stay friendless and mad about it? You couldn't possibly be the problem.
Maybe your luck is shit and the other anon is a clingy jealous psycho who no one wants to be around.
There's tons of women who have friendships with other women. So you encountered some shitty people, it happens. Friendships are a lot like relationships where you might have to go through some shit before you find compatible people.
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My confession is that I'm always the one who ruins great friendships, though not because of boyfriends but because I'm a coward (in the true sense of the word, not in the self-pitying way) who goes the easiest way when facing problems and don't want to pull friends down with my misery and lack of development, so I ghost em sooner or later because I can't cope with not being able to keep up with them.
Tbh everyone who loses friends who act like I did is better off without them.
Men gleefully murder other men over income inquality and other bullshit, but yeah it's the wimminz who are too immature to be friends.>>502779
Women who complain that "women hate other women" are ALWAYS the women who hate other women. At least in my experience.
>>503028>Women who complain that "women hate other women" are ALWAYS the women who hate other women
Have you wondered why? Women first start treating other women like shit for male attention, or because a man convinced them, the women that were treated badly have enough and react
to that. You started it.
I find Jennie pretty when she's dolled up but anyway, I have this friend who is below average in terms of looks (there were a couple of instances where my other friends have insinuated this and she never gets attention from male strangers when other girls with her do.) but she's a real narcissist and talks about how so many guys are dying to get her. She's also extremely confident and extroverted so when she approaches guys they actually find themselves drawn to her. She just knows how to make herself more interesting although it's oftentimes an exaggerated, more ideal version of herself.
So I'd say, most of the times, if you're really confident and radiate that, despite not being that attractive, many people will be interested in you…just what I've noticed though.
I've been diagnosed with bpd and ptsd for literally years and I'm pretty much a vip gold card holder at my local psychiatric clinic. I wanted to get assessed for npd too but apparently I don't fit most of the criteria but I still suspect a slight npd/bpd co-morbitity. I guess you're right about autism and I was mostly loosing myself in unhinged venting. I know how complicated that spectrum actually is and I'm actually sorry if I offended anyone with autism with my overgeneralization. I might still have some form of aspergers though because apart from not knowing how to act like a human at all and not being able to relate to literally anyone, I'm also extremely sensitive to noise to the point where I self harm when a trigger
noise persists for too long. I'm not even saying all of this to be edgy because I do sound like a serious edge-chan but all this stuff is seriously unbearable. I don't think you can imagine how much constant anger and disgusts actually hurts if you haven't experienced it yourself.
You should probably just isolate yourself from society, or really, anyone at all ever.
If you have all of this recognition as to how you're a bad person yet appear to do nothing about it, you need to be quarantined or put down.
this is a weird post but i don't understand why everyone is shitting on you. if you were raped as an infant, uh, yeah, you're going to turn into a massive mess full of problems. it's FAR more unlikely that you turn out to be a functional, emotionally healthy human considering. i don't believe you're beyond help. your development and path has just been severely set off course. i don't think you sound so bad tbh, but anons love to bandwagon on here. it's obnoxious. psychologists are such a crapshoot, so it's difficult finding one that can help, but maybe meds for impulse control and a competent one can help? what about trying something like ketamine? you sound absolutely miserable and it really seems like you need all the help you can get to prevent yourself from hurting yourself and others. maybe it's possible that being depressed has dampened any emotions you once had, outside of anger. i get that. i am almost always anhedonic save for the very occasional periods of intense anxiety and some (though reasonable) anger. sometimes it zaps all of our positive emotions and unfortunately still sticks us with all of the negatives.>>503198
maybe, but even if she is just a tardy edgelord, i can't see how someone who was raped as an infant wouldn't be. what's her worst crime? she wants to fuck her therapist and can't control her anger? i think her phrasing made the content of her posts seem a lot worse. as far as the actual offenses go, doesn't seem too strange for her circumstances. her phrasing really makes the actual content seem a lot worse. i dont get the "i wanna be fucked up" impression as strongly as you guys are getting it.
Everyone is shitting on me and telling me I need to be put down because I come across as extremely obnoxious and unapologetic in my original post. The truth is I actually hate being like this and I literally said that being like this causes me extreme emotional pain every day. I also have been actively seeking therapy for literally years at this point. I know how edgy and cringe I come across in my post and I don't blame people for telling me to die and whatnot because this is an imageboard and also because I've heard the exact same thing several times irl too but I'm still suprised by the vitriol of some of the people here.
I was raped at 3 years old by two male family members and the rape persisted over several years until my fathers death. Thats why I'm the way I am. This shit happens all the time. Watch the docu "Child of Rage". Thats basically how I was too as a toddler. I mean I'm not bothered by being called a fucked up retard who should kill herself because I think this about myself but just for the record, no I don't like being this way. I literally don't. Even the child rapes didn't hurt as much as feeling like this every waking minute.
i also have a similar thought about a psycho ex i would never go back to, because the reason i put up with his crazy was his pierced tongue + big dick + ability to go 3+ times a day lol. my current partner is totally satisfying and kinky etc but i still wish i could go back in like a dream just once or twice kek>>503259
don't lose hope anon, you can find the big dick goth bf of your dreams
i always hoped that was just some av thing but yes, weird and off putting>>503314
oh pecks i can deal with, i should've been more precise! I genuinely just don't get why people enjoy it, but to each their own.
If I can act like an armchair physoholigist for a second - I read once that having sex with someone in a dream is usually about merging some mental aspect of what the person represents in your mind with yourself. Maybe your friend's bf has a quality you admire and want to emmulate or maybe he displays something you find unacceptable and haven't assimilated yet or something you're missing.
I used to have constant sex dreams about a coworker I disliked in waking life. For a second I wondered if maybe I'm secretly attracted to him but then I realized I "envied" his outspokenness and courage to enagege in confrontation since I'm more timid and people-pleasing. I also disliked him because of his abrasive attitude to everyone including me. When I left that job and didn't interact with him again I never had dreams with him again.
You're probably "attracted" to something in your bff's boyfriend but not in the conventional romantic way you're scared of.
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Sorry, I meant armchair psychologist
Yeah, fuck you. Having something horrible happen to you doesn't mean you get to be a literal blight on society, especially when you understand you have trauma and you know you're acting like a maladaptive fuck.
Both of you should be gassed. No sense of community or something greater than your pathetic sense of individual desires.
if ur in college this may help: idk if other schools do this, but my school has a program and major/minor for video game stuff. even links you with connections. if you're not in college, a college w/o that program, or have graduated, etc., learning it on your own could be very difficult.
with one google search, i found there are trade schools for it. best of luck!
Did you even read her post?
>its so bad that I can turn monstrously abusive towards my family for absolutely no reason>I'm very casually cruel towards others to the point of wishing death on my coworkers because they critizise me>Especially the constant aggression and hatred for everyone and everything
It's like you purposely skipped everything or something because you also want pity.
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The more posts I see about how anons here are diagnosed with actual mental issues, the more I want to stop coming here. Would probably be better for my own mental health too.
I've been using this site less and less and I feel like my mental state has improved. But then again that is sort of a chicken vs the egg situation, like, is it the site that's negatively affecting our mental health, or are we coming here because
of our mental health problems? I'm not sure. But I do think that the internet and social media in general are more bad than good for us. This site does have positive aspects though, like those of us that don't have friends or have things we need to vent about that we can't say to anyone irl. Ultimately I am thankful for this site, but I think it's better used in moderation.
apparenly I replied to the wrong anon but i hope you see this
if ur in college this may help: idk if other schools do this, but my school has a program and major/minor for video game stuff. even links you with connections. if you're not in college, a college w/o that program, or have graduated, etc., learning it on your own could be very difficult.
with one google search, i found there are trade schools for it. best of luck!
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When I'm uncertain about the outcome with a crush/new job/new situation, sometimes I go on the divination thread on /x/ and ask for a (free) reading. It gives me peace of mind somehow, and even though I'm not a believer, many times I've been genuinely surprised of how on point anon's reading was.
Last time I did it was yesterday, reader anon nailed it even though I didn't give much info. I know it's most likely because it's just a common situation, but it's what I wanted to hear from someone and I'm a bit more in peace.
Men don't cheat on their spouses because their lays are irresistibly hot or desirable, it's because they wanted a hole with no strings attached and women like you would just happen to give them the opportunity like charity.
It's a confession, but in case you ever get "flattered" with the opportunity, know what you're actually getting and what he's actually saying about you.
I don't think you stand to gain as many net positives with feedback from anonymous. They don't really know you and thus can't really discern what works for you aesthetically with all other factors that make up who you are, like your personality and mannerisms combined.
I guess it would work out if you're up to meeting superficial standards from a mix of strangers, who may have conflicting opinions. It just seems like you lose a bit of yourself in the process. /2c >>504139>>504209
Agreed. Even if you're conventionally hot, it's just a boost to the cheating man's ego. He doesn't actually care about you or what it does for your validation. All that matters is his needs. Cheating men are selfish.
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I really want a quality Baby Yoda doll.
My dumb ass is literally in therapy for being a pos consoomer (and some other things).
I still love the photo in pic related tho. It makes me happy to look at it. Wish I could find the source.
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Thanks for replying anons, never heard of the term limerence but it rings true. I’ve struggled with it my whole life, my intensity actually puts off people im interested in who show t he slightest interest back. It affects my decision making, my ambitions, everything. I simply can’t bear it, the worst is how I just cant accept
that they don’t feel the same way, no matter what I have
to do mental gymnastics to make it seem like they do. Thank god I’m shy af otherwise I’d embarrass myself even more. Thank you so much anons, soon I won’t be so closely tied in to this person so it won’t hurt so much. The worst is falling for a colleague or neighbour who you can’t get away from.
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I found this awesome piece of advice today regarding the subject. It’s reduced my anxiety immediately to do this, I imagine my object of limerence bringing home his new girlfriend and her and I have a conversation and get along, then i find a new place to live and never see them again. The end. Still feel in a state of near constant anxiety but it is lessening.
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Im really thinking about trying to get custody of my nephew from my sister, she's super neglectful and a POS who blames all her problems on him despite him being 11 and I have always been the one cleaning up her messes and taking care of him, he's such a sweet boy and she doesn't deserve him, but I know my chances of winning custody are almost null and that If I try I will never get to see him again
I have been sorta dating this famous musician for a couple months and he just showed up the other day with all his shit and I guess (??) has unofficially moved into my house.
It’s weird because back in the day, in his heyday, I was a huge fan. I’d go to all his shows and stand in the front, so I could watch him play. I was very young then, and so was he, but a bit older than me. He used to smash his guitars and once threw one to me. It’s so crazy to wake up and look over and see him laying next to me. I don’t even have words to describe the experience.
He’s not like famous famous, not anymore. Maybe he was once upon a time. But to me, he was a big part of my young adult years. And I had no idea what a cool fun and hilarious person he really was.
Anyways I guess the confession is that I was a fan, because I don’t think he knows. He recognized me these many years later and I tried to tell him he knew me from concerts but I don’t think he believes it or if he does, he doesn’t know how into the band I was back then. It’s embarrassing actually, how into them I was. So I am trying to avoid having to really be straight about it. And I can’t really tell any of my friends because they will freak out, as they are fans too.
Everyone thinks he’s currently in rehab or doing drugs on the streets but really he’s hanging in my house watching cartoons with me, lol. Sober, mostly, if you don’t count weed. I harbor the same stupid delusions every woman has - I will fix him and he’ll play again. I know it’s so stupid and unlikely but some part of me just feels like if someone can really love him, the real him, not the public image, then he can get back his career.
I know it’s stupid, but that’s my confession.
>>504719>I wouldn’t be so sure, do you have other relatives on your side of proof of unhinged behaviour
most people in my family would agree that she's a asshole but I doubt they'd be willing to testify against her in a custody battle >he’ll be old enough to walk to your house on his home soon, so maybe it’s better to just be a respite for him, you’ll make a huge difference in his life. Thank you anon, you’re a good person.
He already does, she's barely ever at home, so either im babysitting him or he ends up staying at my house for the day. I take care of him and I love him as if he was my own son
anon will never tell. I would love some kind of a hint at least.
hope it's not someone larping as the girl dating the Johnny asshole from the TND thread (don't really follow it, dunno if it matches or not)
That is so cute, anon! I'm not even into Star Wars but I still love baby yoda.
Idk if it's the same but I found this site that sells action figures and such https://www.dorksidetoys.com/The-Mandalorian-The-Child-Baby-Yoda-11-Plush-PRE-p/mtgwd85.htm
Who matters is the kid, and I'm sure the he is quite happy to have a maternal figure who spoils him and treats him right. When I was a kid in between custody of my batshit parents, I always appreciated kindness from adults because it gave me a break from chaos. Wish it had been other members of my family though, they all stood by and watched me be neglected. >>504711
You're a good auntie.
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I downloaded this dumb otome app again (Love 365) and I'm having so much fun with it. I feel 16 again.
The guys are just so hot and I genuinely appreciate the effort put into them, lol.
You're an outcome of social media tunnel vision where you idealize the small percentage of people who post solely good things in their life while not realizing a lot of it is exaggerated and cherrypicked. You ignore the average person who wakes up and goes to work since they're not on your radar from blasting their ordinary lives on the internet all day.
Most people are average and that's okay.
I get what you mean, anon but I'm not the type to get jealous by stalking people's insta's or snapchat.
I'm very close to her, we talk almost every day, and she's the one telling me how happy she is with everything; i don't even check her social media for my own sake.
I would not complain if i had an average life but my life is far from that.
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Someone I know who's an awful, miserable person fell for the genderspecial tumblr meme, has the classic shitty pixie cut and asks people to call her they/them, the whole works, whatever. As of late she's been talking more and more about her sooper special transness and being an "MLM" and I think she's laying the groundwork for being a fullblown fakeboi now. Part of me secretly really wants to see her actually transition and go on T and fuck up her body (although I don't think she would do it since she's a coward who just wants attention without any of the potential repercussions).
I know I should stop being a petty bitch who loves schadenfreude but watching her take T and turn herself into a pimply, hairy, squeaky-voiced Aiden instead of the perfect anime prince boy she's deluded herself into thinking she is would be so delicious.
how fuckin sheltered are you? it’s creepy
that someone wants to actually properly care for a child whose needs aren’t being met? what is wrong with you
they're sisters, idiot it's her nephew
. are you like the black sheep of your family, anon?
nta but the actual mother of the child is neglectful. That anon has every reason to be concerned and care about her own nephew. It'd be worrying if anon wasn't
concerned about the child's well being.
You’re right, I will never tell. I can’t. I’m like madly stupid in love with the dude, lol. BUT - it isn’t “the Johnny asshole from the TND thread.”
I will give a hint: if you’re into shitty goth / industrial bands, you prob know him and are a fan of the band he played in for awhile. He also was famous for things other than music. If that helps.
>>504948>I got sick of being treated as some sort of living encyclopedia at times.
I kek'd because this exactly what I tell my mom when she puts me on a pedestal for being smarter than her, even to the point of getting angry at me if I don't have all of the answers to her questions.
Anyway it's easier to just cut things off cleanly by offering a simple explanation for why things aren't working out if ghosting makes you feel guilty. You also aren't obligated to spend time with someone just because they are nice if that's what you feel guilty about. You're allowed to surround yourself with people because you enjoy their company and personality too.
There's nothing wrong with that, anon.
I pray in times of comfort myself. As long as you know it's not 100% foolproof, I think you're good.
isn't he still famous? and he's known only for his music, I think (and music for movies that he made).
Anons, what are other industrial/goth bands with infamous lead singers/characters? The band might still be going without the guy in question or have broken up.
I think of Skinny Puppy but that's cause I don't know that many industrial bands. Need to google lol.
Don't think it's him.
He's just had another child, hasn't he?
i made a fake instagram to creep on my boyfriend's ex gf because he unblocked her a while ago and am torn between getting a sense of satisfaction from feeling prettier than her (yes i know this is mean)
and being upset that they're still on good terms and he watches her stories and likes some of her photos. i would say the sadness outweighs any potential confidence boost i get so i'm trying to stop being creepy.
Isn’t that guy old?
Can we have a timeline, musician banging anon!? Like if we guess it’s nbd we anonymous! I just want that tea lol
I have bipolar disorder, with a major symptom being manic hypersexuality. Hypersexuality is far beyond just being horny, I obsess over sex constantly, will make inappropriate comments to people, and have to masturbate in work toilets to keep myself under control. As such I've never managed to stay faithful to partners. I was formally diagnosed and treated 7 years ago, but unfortunately not before I cheated on my then-partner. I've been with my current partner for 4 years and have managed to stay faithful. However, the strain of trying to keep my hypersexuality under control is driving me literally crazy - I'm fixating on random guys, usually ones I work with because I don't have much of a social circle, and it's destroying my sexual inclination to my partner. He's the love of my life, I still find him attractive and he is by far the best lover I've ever had. But bipolar is a serious illness and the urge to fuck my life up is so strong recently. I'm scared that one day I'll lose control and do something I regret. Aside from this I am quite sexually messed up and get aroused by odd things, so I tend to seek out inexperienced guys who are easy to manipulate for my own benefit. Starting to wonder if my fiancé just deserves better than me, tbh.
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I've done that too! Sent it to my bf when we were first dating/long distance and it would make him crazy. He thought it was super hot.
I don't think it's that weird tbh. Better than actually filming yourself imo.
Not that weird, thats the reason I used to send nudes at all, specifically cause I thought it was hot that I was getting someone off by doing basically nothing. I also used to think abt sabotaging my ex but it wasn't worth it compared to wanting to make my current relationship work (which sending lewd shit to your ex would definitely screw up).
We were long distance & now live together. He prefers hearing me now than when I would send him recordings
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I was brought to tears after reading fanfic of the Greek Gods in whcih meducsa falls in love with a handsome kindhearted blind young man, I just want someone like that
NTA but COF is not goth or industrial despite being constantly labelled goth. They have goth influence in their music I guess but their genre is extreme metal.
/saged for music sperging
and the band that seemed to be popular but cringey/cheesy so maybe it was popular with teens? Manson would fit here but it's most likely not him.
Anon also mentioned the guy having some other succesful venture than music. https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_industrial_music_bands
can anyone that knows more about industrial than me browse the wiki list and see if anything fits? I do listen to some bands but not enough to be much of use.
Scared? Are you sure it's fear?
Never, ever, ever, underestimate fear. It's the most powerful emotion of all. It's the first emotion babies experience. It's the first emotion that evolved in living beings. It's the one emotion survival depends on. That makes it the most useful emotion.
That's why I'm asking you to carefully consider what exactly you feel.
If it's fear, that means something of great value, something of critical important for your life, is jeopardized. Might it be freedom? Might it be choice? Might it be new experience? Those are important. If you're really afraid your relationship will endanger any of those, listen to the fear. It's there for a reason. It's there to help you set priorities for survival. And that means the relationship has to fall to the back burner.
But maybe it's not. Maybe you've just worded it too harshly, or haven't thought about it much and just used a common phrase. In that case, try to name the exact thing you feel. It will tell you how you should act. That's what feelings have evolved for - guiding actions.
I know that. Hence why I said the idea of actually doing it is repulsive. I wouldn't give the opportunity even if I was hot.
it's a fantasy. Not reality. I can seperate the two, jfc. Chill.
What the actual fuck that isn't cool at all
I gotta agree that most dog owners shouldn't own dogs at this point, myself included because I dont have enough time to walk my dog more often
Sounds like a grade A fuckboy who doesn't give a shit about other living things, including his potential hookups and friends.
Whenever I meet someone new I always look at how coldly they treat their animals. An animal is a dependent yet innocent being (aka 'needy'), a position that you yourself could occupy if you get in a long term relationship someday. You'd have to remember to expect to be treated about as good, or as badly, as his animals. They're like the canary in the coal mine for empathy and devotion.
I don't trust men who are shit to their animals.
11 seems about the age where kids begin to get curious about this stuff. When my brother was that age, he began drawing strange dinosaur-human hybrid sex stuff, because his childhood interests were seeping into these sort of newfound feelings he had. Must be difficult to see as a parent, but I think that it’s kind of normal for that age, with or without autism. Sorry you have to deal with it though, I’m sure it’s stressful to handle.
I know that my first sexual fantasies were about fictional characters from games I played when I was younger. Strange times.
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I wish my art style was more 'pretty'. I've been going after realism the past year so I struggle with being more free in style. My body artwork may have gotten better but loosening those poses I need work. My style isnt where I want it to be even if my technical skill is getting there. I dont want to hate my own art in 1-2 years.
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I like it when artists draw a little hair down there but it makes me feel better about myself when I don't shave
honestly I'm down about 60lbs and I've found I've become so bitter towards people because in the back of my head im like "ok but would you have been into me if I was at the beginning of my weight loss? probably not" and it's making me feel so jaded. I've always been the friend with the good personality, but I was fat, and therefore, the designated 'ugly' friend despite having better hygeine/teeth/hair than any of my friends bc it 'didnt count'
60lbs later, all my guy friends who used to see me as 'one of the guys' now are flirting with me and it's genuinely starting to piss me off. Like what, I wasn't good enough before?
200 >160, 5'4. (A good hunk of it is lean muscle in my thighs/arms/back.)
sage for blogpost
Why are some of you so triggered
He's my childhood friend and blurted it out, that's it jeez.
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Normie guys thinking kpop girls are hot makes me feel like shit.
Sorry, but to me most of them just look (and act) like kids. But if men my age are attracted to them, does this mean they think of me as old? And too fat and too tall? I wouldn't give af if it's neckbeards but I also see more and more totally normal guys going "kpop is shit, but she's hot!"…
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What makes you think that normie guys aren't into that shit either? Plus, idols like jennie are always walking around in outfits like these, so of course guys think it's hot that someone with an "innocent" face wears revealing stuff like that.
Don't have too much faith in men, anon.
sometimes it really isn't deeper than them thinking women in short skirts and tight clothing are hot. it doesn't mean they wouldn't date/hook up with someone who's the opposite of a kpop girl, and it doesn't mean they daydream about dating a short girl who does aegyo or whatever. same with women and their kpop boys.
also, comparing yourself to what people jack off to is never a good idea.
Why are you trying to twist this into an all asians thing? You're not the same. I specifically said female korean idols, and whose look and act a lot younger than a normal korean or other asian woman.>>506116
These women also look ages older than the average idol. >>506112
My friends also like pics of her in normal clothes, so it's not that.
Anon, if you're not surrounded by k-pop idols looking for average/normie boyfriends IRL, you'll be fine. Being jealous of pop stars and models is a waste of time, since being attractive is literally part of their job. They're also unattainable to 99% of men, unsurprisingly.
Also, you can chalk it up to the advent of the internet and recent popularity of k-pop as a whole. Guys just like all sorts of different things (their standards are not actually rigid at all, no matter what they pretend and idealize, they'll take what they're given), and their ideas of "hot" are easily swayed by whatever's new, exotic, socially accepted and popular. K-pop fits all the bills.
It doesn't really mean anything, and I'm sure girls who don't fit into the usual popular western aesthetic (which may or may not be a bit more achievable for you) have felt the same way in their lives.
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I'm disappointed that I could possibly be Japanese. My last name is Japanese but I thought it was Chinese for the longest time. If I were to be Japanese, I would be very angry because I find Japanese people to be rude to Chinese people and I believe that I am Chinese so if I were to be Japanese, I would be disappointed.
I don't even like tempura.
That would be lovely but I've been completely poisoned by men who will literally fight to death over what type of woman is most attractive
One end you have men wishing death on fat women and claiming men only like skinny girls and only skinny girls are worth anything, you have men laughing at women with small chests or ass existing and writing novels about how big breasts are the true center of beauty, you have men at each other's throats over what race of women are more feminine and wife material etc. Hell some men will even blow what types of hair women have insanely out of proportion. Just going on 4chan and starting a thread on a "type" of woman and these idiots will immediately start infighting for days on end defending their waifu and saying insane and disgusting things about women as well as making up false scientific facts. Why are men like this? Why can't attractive women just be attractive and let it be?
>>506132>Cute shouldn't make you horny
Is this bait?
There are different types of cute, platonic (like animals and kids) cute is one thing, but it's possible to find cute adults sexually attractive. It's not mutually exclusive.
Unless me having a preference for cute men to big, masculine ones means I'm a pedo now.
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That 404 thread made me want to start archiving shit like old movies,music , and cartoons. Those "lost media" videos always remind me that not everything stays on the internet forever.
An entire singer's discography that I would listen to when I was a little kid disappeared off the face of the internet and their website was one of those sites where the information was all on JPGs hosted externally by image hosting sites that has since shut down so the wayback can't help me with it either.
This is so funny to me lol
If I'm talking to a guy who ever sends loli/gross porn, I'll send gay shit right back
Ur my inspo now anon
this sounds femcel asf. there are fat fetishists, there are men that find skinny women boyish and ugly, there are men that like plump and 'womanly' women like christina hendricks, there are men that are pedophiles, there are men that are attracted to mature women like gillian anderson, there are men into muscular butch women, there are men into petite 'smol' women. at the end of the day, why do you care exactly? men will always talk and argue among themselves over their preferences on anonymous image boards and also in real life. it's just shooting shit and obnoxious/sexist locker-room talk.
>Why can't attractive women just be attractive and let it be?
do you expect men to never ever talk about women online? that's a bit odd. just like there are threads here about unconventionally attractive people, or 'people shilled as attractive you don't understand." that's just how the internet is. people talk shit. it can hurt sometimes but you need to remember that none of it is very deep.
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There's only two songs uploaded on youtube, one song I was able to find off of someone's computer archive server (or whatever it's called), nothing about them on social media (I suspected it was Bart Baker because with the one picture of the singer, they vaguely look alike, but I tried to contact Baker asking if he was this artist and I got no response, still 50% sure it's him because they had the same style and they look the same even though technically they're not from the same state).
I don't know. I'm a little bit disappointed about it but they weren't really that good anyway. Still, it would be nice to find their stuff.
This is so alien to me. Are they a family? Why would the girl with brown hair wear a bikini if she didn't want to go in the mud? Why is the boy who was in the mud wearing jeans? Why is there a fully dressed guy filming them?
Can someone from this part of America explain any of this to me? I can understand a family going to a sauna together but something about the filming of the girl getting dunked just made me uncomfortable.
did you really just say "im a pale-cel i cant be sexy"? look there's definitely stigma against really pale people but there are also plenty of men who arent retarded enough to care. stop crying over a guy dating a kid and someone who watches fancams to jack off.
blogging but i know a guy who's into older women and is dating a chick older than him but likes a couple of erotic models who look young (his age, rather rather than mature). that shit doesnt matter you baby.
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What the fuck?? Pale and dark haired has always been one of the epitomes of sexy femme fatale.
they aren't family, it's just some rednecks doofing around and filming it to post online because the girls are hot, like homemade porn but not that serious.
>Why would the girl with brown hair wear a bikini if she didn't want to go in the mud?
oh anon you make me lol. you sound like an alien. they're flirting and messing around. it's a game. like dunking someone in the ocean.
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The idea of my boyfriend's ex pisses me off beyond belief. They're a cool popular Japanese tattooist, went to the local pretentious expensive art school, a lot of artists I admire and all of my (few) irl friends follow them on IG. I think even a few have tattoos from them, and I'm not whiny enough to ask everyone I know not to engage with them, but I'm definitely pouting in secret.
I feel like such a baby, but how could I ever compete? My art is dogshit, I'm broke and uncool. I know that my bf clearly is happier with me and all that, this is specifically about me knowing I'm a lesser human being than this stupid rich kid.
I agree with >>506380
He chose you, and he's happier with you! I can really empathise with feeling jealous over a SO's ex, but don't be so hard on yourself, anon. Take his happiness with you as the biggest compliment.
I don't think being a tattoo artist is that admirable. I think you're cooler, anon. She stinks.
…she's just a tattoo artist calm down. You're building her up in your head like she's some mogul with exhibits in several galleries who your bf secretly pines for.
Don't they teach you artists anything about "perspective"?
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Ok here's one. I unironically like Yankee Shota to Otaku Onee-san ok? I think it's hilarious and wholesome and the design is cute. 10/10 would head pat.
I'm pretty sure I'll never be in a relationship, or at least not in a healthy one.
I have tons of issues, being extremely insecure being the one of the less serious ones.
There are a few scenarios in my head when I think of dating someone. Either I'm so happy that someone accepts the unlikable, flawed me that I end up missing or dismissing all the red flags, and I'll end up with a shitty, abusive, manipulate partner because of my own insecurities, or they'll lose interest in me after finding out more about me or see how annoying my personality is, and leave me or cheat on me….or I'll be super jealous and suspicious of him that I'll ruin the relationship.
Either way, I think I'm meant to suffer alone and that would be fine with me if I didn't have to depend on a man for my freedom, and in a place where everyone is married by 24 or so.
I'm in the same headspace insofar as constantly questioning things due to my insecurities.
I would recommend women's dating strategy forums, so at least you'll feel solidarity with other women who are in your shoes too right now. There are women who are on the fence, me included. It's helped me tremendously insofar as reassuring me in my decisions, and rekindling my own self-respect. I think we as women have become too self-critical. How many men honestly worry about burdening us with their disordered personalities and abuses? Nah girl, they sleep!
My mom was a giant trad/pickme/multiple divorcee so I never had a good example of how to be in romantic relationships. She always blamed whatever on me for why I was having difficulties with men. Watched me suffer LTRs while never offering me support, just reprisals for not magically being able to do better on my own as I was taken advantage of by shitty scrotes. So I had no idea how to approach relationships besides being overly pandering and accommodating (as I saw her be) while hoping that these men I was so desperate for wouldn't leave me after sex and still find me useful and fun. It makes me hurt thinking about how harsh I was on myself while letting low effort, flawed, and lazy men walk all over me.
Best bits of advice I've gained so far: >men will fuck anyone
So don't think of it in terms of feeling sad that you didn't meet up to their standards. It's about them meeting your
standards anon, and about you meeting your own internal standards. You are valuable and worthy, so don't let the way these men treat you convince you otherwise. Remember, men benefit from you believing they're special and someone you should kill yourself over.
>dick is abundant
Don't catch feelings or oneitis, save that for a committed relationship. Your emotional bond is to be earned. If a man is foolish enough to treat you poorly or discard you, readjust your crown and move on. Don't give men chances to hurt you again, and don't extend forgiveness when men would never do the same for us. When they hurt or reject you, move on immediately and block. There will be more.
If you act like you don't have options, a man will be more likely to abuse you and push the envelope thinking you'll settle.
If companionship is important to you anon, I think you should chase that dreams but do not put yourself down or chase low men in order to achieve that. Better to be single than in bad company, I can attest.
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I’m in the same situation anon. I’m 21 and ive been an artist since I was probably 12. My boyfriend’s ex is 18 and is a much better artist and it makes me…actually suicidal. she’s prettier than me too and has a cuter style too but her art skills are what really get to me. My bf says my art is his favorite and it’s the best but i don’t believe it. Pic related is a drawing she made of herself and my boyfriend. I hate myself tbh, i could never compare
honestly i don't get it. what is particularly unique or original about this picture? this is why i feel so disconnected from the art community, specifically the online one, since it's so based on praising and acting like fan-based art as derivative as it is is so amazing. i can't stand how this kind of art seems to be larped as some great artistic ability online, i don't get it.
why don't you pick up dancing, or writing? a lot of retards can doodle anything, few people can write something of substance, a lot of people can't dance.
Anon I think you're just looking at the situation with emotional goggles.
I can see why the picture you posted would be good and sentimental for her and your ex, but as a standalone piece of art? It's an unremarkable sketch to strangers. That's how you should be looking at this too. There's someone out there for you with your art and your looks. Don't compare.
she has a very cute drawing style but IDK about you being unable to compare since I've never seen your art. It does not seem like insanely skilled person drew it, but maybe you have Chris Chan tier skills. Anyway why do you have this saved? Go draw yourself with your boyfriend instead of obsessing over his ex. >>506726
Anon is already a drawfag so yeah. But as a writer who used to have an inferiority complex toward visual arts - it's nice to hear that words on paper are worth something (and not only animu doodles)
Anon I wouldnt beat yourself up this is average stylized realism. >>506732
Probably due to escaping real life through art media and using hundreds of hours only to be dissatisfied after seeing more technically skilled.
I respect writers more than I do drawn art. It may sound mean but a good art takes maybe a day to draw for someone to look at it for a second, maybe put it in a folder, and then forget about for the rest of their lives while a good story or fanfic will make me think about it for years to come and I will constantly go back to it and reread it in the future.
Though the keyword here is "a good story" because a lot of writers just aren't that good.
yeah but i think a lot of the art people on online art communities love is low in originality or uniqueness. i find this interesting because a lot of people love and praise music and music artists for being original and unique as long as it sounds good, and even original/uniqueness that is experimental and maybe not as catchy as say a generic pop tune is more praised or respected, so why does it seem to be the opposite in the fan art communities? I also see the same with writers; people love original writers ect
but yeah talent is pretty important originality or not but i think what would hurt me is someone being far more creative and artistic than i am like they're on an another dimension and i just can't compete lmao
Do you actually suck dick at art or something to be agonizing over this? >>506732
Lmao anon. Everyone is so sweet to shit on an average piece of art for a fellow farmer though.
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I just spilled all my dramamine because I had my dramamine tube right next to my chapstick and I thought I picked up my chapstick and when I opened it all my dramamine spilled everywhere
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I really regret wasting two years of my teenage life stanning kpop idols. It was easy to fall into since I had just moved and didn't have any friends but that shit is so disturbingly time consuming. I cringe and feel disgusted with myself when I think back on that time, and I find the idols I used to adore and think I'd always love so ugly and boring now. I wish there was a way to go back in time to prevent yourself from going through certain phases
Teenagers obsess over dumb shit. I had my share of obsessing over dumb shit as a teen. >>506799
is right that you'll likely look back on it with fondness. At least you aren't a late-20s adult obsessing over Kpop shit like someone I know lol.
Kind of cute
My ex best friend confessed to me that she made me and her in her sims 4 game and made us live in a lil apartment together, I found it very flattering and endearing
Everyone goes through cringy phases. When I was in hs I loved one direction lol, looking back yeah it's cringy but it made me happy at the time and helped me not be majorly depressed. I mean, if you weren't into kpop you probably would've gotten into something else and also cringe at it.
Look at it this way: better than teenage pregnancy/drug addiction!
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SWIM downloaded over 120+Gigs of music. I like to think I'm doing music artists a favor because most of the stuff I download is just out of compulsion and artist I've never heard of so not only does downloading everything for free advertising to me, I'll also advertise their name to other people who want to listen to stuff of their genre. Technically, I'm a chaotic neutral.
Also, I'm immune to being called out for stealing music because whenever any of the artists I like come to my city, I go to their concerts and buy merch so it's okay.
I was in that age gap where everyone has it. Most of people I know still have.
Guess it's different after a certain age
Why do you people blame the other woman for fucking the baby dad, when your baby dad had an equal if not greater responsibility to not stick his dick in a different woman? If he cared about you and your feelings he wouldn't have.
Do you think he slipped and fell into her, or she said something to trick him into getting hard and forced his dick inside her?
You let this weak man cum inside you and passed his genes, and now you're trying to cope by focusing on the drama of this other batshit woman because your baby dad is a walking piece of shit. And he will still be a piece of shit after her ex rolls her up too.
I mean >>506911
is a loser too, just a different kind
wtf do you think discord is? it's not fucking irc. discord is so heavily steeped in normie gamer bullshit more than imageboards ever had their roots in casual normie culture. literally every 16-24 year old guy alive is on discord. awfully tired of camgirls finding their competitors threads and polluting the site with their boring/trashy ass bullshit like this is LSA, gurugossip or twitter. outcasts have nothing of their own anymore. the old internet was 10000x better for this.>>506972
thank you, exactly. appreciate you, anon.
That anon doesn't belong here
NTA, but I wouldn't even call >>506911
That isn't how normal people live. In a sense, if that anon is also a weeb, I'd say she actually fits in perfectly here. Crazy shit adds spice to threads like this. There's not even any discussion clogging going on here, she just posted her insane confession and then dipped. As long as the site doesn't turn into FB, I don't mind things like this.
Me too. I get disgusted every time i see these males styled like freaks. I'm not part of the LGB community so idk if it's empowering for them and if that's why they celebrate them (or because we celebrate everything men do?)but i don't get that whole ~breaking gender barrier~ and ~showing how ridiculous femininity is~ argument cause it's still only a thing among gays and straight libfem-y type of young women , and straight men (who are the problem) will not watch these clowns and they even if, most of them will not give a shit since they're gay ,or be revolted.
I just think they're an insult to women, especially the way they refer or describe vaginas. I see so many young girls and women emulate them in every way possible, and i find that problematic
Whether gay or straight- men are obsessed with femininity… seriously, if ratio of drag queens and drag kings were reversed, the men would go crazy and attack these women in every way, saying how they have penis-envy or some shit. Not to forget, the trans cult would come for their asses…like immediately. But since men do it we all have to stfu and accept and celebrate it cause it's progressive.
i think some of them are interesting in the way that I like the fashion/makeup they design/wear (think raja from drag race), but i agree a lot of them are revolting. my friends used to watch drag race and i watched it with them, and i thought it was neat tht they know how to sew and design their own fashion, which is a skill most people today dont have. in a way its also a performance art, so i dont really mind the over exhaggarated femininity (depending on who's doing it tho ofc), they are essentially actors playing a character.
at the same time i stopped watching it because of the way some of the men spoke about women in general, and i also hate it when people wear drag makeup irl (eg contouring) because imo its so ugly and jarring and it only really look "good" on stage when performing.
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abby?? who?? >>507076
honestly idec that they're boring to speak to at length, because they can be milky (obv), but it's just so bizarre that a fair part of the board is like, accustomed to a certain type of 'nerdy' outcast subculture and that because of the drama threads, the literal diametric opposite of the original userbase is drawn in, too. it's just so strange to share a site with. like, sharing threads with pic related and shit would be weird. granted, anon isn't anywhere near as bad, but you can just tell she's a mess and likely came here from a sabrina nellie thread.
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I sometimes look at Cracky-chan's old photos. I like the "rough, unprofessional early 2000s weeb/mallgoth" aesthetic in a few of them, I find it oddly inspiring.
It's a shame that she was run off the net by insane incels. If it wasn't for /b/, I could see her just becoming a cool alt girl who's been into self-styled modelling/photography since 2005, sort of like Nana Rapeblossom (minus the drama, internalized misogyny and unironic Nazism).
Sometimes, I have daydreams of taking cool photos like she did, storing them in a private corner of the internet, and amassing a small to medium-sized group of people who enjoy the same things as me. Just the good parts, with none of the psycho neckbeards.
All the weirdly dedicated essays and cult-tier fervor created by the male "fans" do create an intriguing, morbidly fascinating image around her internet presence, though. Looking through the walls of text on different sites feels like going through an ARG.
I sometimes wonder if the same men who stalked and hyperfixated on her are also the ones harassing/orbiting other random girls on the internet to this day, or if it's all just a specific, obsessive incel "culture" that permeates male-dominated imageboards. It's probably a mix of both.
i mean…biological women are pretty much an afterthought in general now even in feminism so its not shocking
the only time people are allowed to be offended by drag queens now is if they use words like tranny(hence why everyone has turned on rupaul despite the fact that he's one of the least problematic
people in the industry and paved the way for the majority of LGBT celebrities to even be considered) and ofc when they say something racist, which obviously should be a called out
but biological women and their identity, their issues and feelings, their sexuality, their safety etc is all considered to be more offensive and ~exclusionary~ than actual transphobia and homophobia now
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I unironically watch Riverdale despite knowing how cringy it is and I love jughead so much
I love the show but it can be genuinely very cringy at times
>you look very DILFY today my Andrews>I dropped out of the 4th grade to sell drugs and support my grandmother>we’re endgame
are all lines actually said in the show with a straightface
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Listening to 80's and 90's music gives me so much nostalgia but I was born in the mid 90's and hardly remember anything til 2010. Wtf is wrong with me
sheesh, you sound miserable as shit. she was what like 16 or 17? why is it your business to know what caused some kid to develop depression? it’s not, and no matter what the reason is, guaranteed you’d say it’s not ~bad enough~ because your depression is the only valid
one. fuck off back to twitter with this ice cold take
Honestly, as someone else said, you sound very elitist here. You can't claim to care passionately about mental health awareness when you get angry at people (especially famous people who live their entire lives trying to hold up a "perfect" image, while receiving criticism and having their privacy violated) not explaining every single facet of their mental health struggles or the factors that may cause them. You should be understanding of the fact that not everyone struggling with their mental health is going to openly share everything about themselves, their past, and their life just to try and "prove" to someone like you that they're "truly" struggling.>>507514
That's, like, incredibly normal, anon. People feel nostalgic over media created during/reminiscent of times they didn't consciously live through, as not living through that time allows one to appreciate what came out of that time while not experiencing the negative aspects of then.
(Also, do you have some kind of memory loss condition or are a child abuse victim
? How do you not remember aspects of the first ~15 years of your life?)
Not saying I'm right about this at all, but felt like confessing the annoyance anyway to get it off my chest. It irks me how sensationalized the article about it was. It felt very attention whorish. Maybe that is why it bothered me as I usually don't have the problem of gatekeeping mental illness. Or maybe it caught me at a bad moment cause I'm too exhausted about everything falling apart to care about some rich celebrity's issues.
I recognize that everything you say is valid
and I am the asshole in this situation. Haven't gotten those irrational feelings for some time, maybe therapy will help me find out why sometimes I am so bitter lmfao. I have nothing against Billie personally and felt bad when I read a review of her record in which author claimed that her depression must be a clever marketing tactic.
I wouldn't post this opinion on twitter as I do not believe it's some hot take lmfao
I’ll be polite but goddamn is she obnoxious. She’s not even a great influence cause she’s hella sexist and still says the stolen generation was just trying to help.
Husbands other grandma legitimately freaked out over her first grandson wearing a onesie that had flowers on it. Kid wasn’t old enough to hold his head up but might catch the dreaded gay.
Old people are really not as precious and wise and people think.
I do Spain sometimes too
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my boyfriend is ten years younger than me omg. i had been chatting with him for a few years before we got together off and on and i had a crush on him for awhile. but i never was close enough to get his age and i didnt want to powerlevel so no name no age location all of that. but we recently started talking more and i fell for him. hes not underage lol he can drink but yikes. i cant really help but feel like onision.
What are your expectations for the relationship long term?
If the plan is only to keep him as a boyfriend so you can have a fling, then not to worry.
If you intend to pursue this as a serious relationship, then I wouldn't get too comfortable or attached. A decade of age difference is a big deal when it comes to a man's maturity and emotional intelligence. It usually doesn't bode, especially if we're talking about a guy in his early 20s.
You might really enjoy this channel, anon.
I used to watch these videos a lot when I was going through a rough spot, they made me relax and it was like a healthy escapism.
Yes!! I love his videos. They're really relaxing too. What I like most about Japan is how clean
it is. Little to no litter is so nice to see.
Still jealous that you had a friend to do that with lol
Not to scare you further but that's exactly what happened to me. I also found out I get ugly and bony at a surprisingly high weight, and that my face doesn't get any smaller so it actually looks even more massive as my body shrinks.
The best thing I can advise is working on your perception of yourself as you lose the weight. Think about nice non-appearance reasons you're doing it (for example, I like being able to lounge around in any kind of clothes, not just stretchy/lounge clothes) and remember that your life and self-worth will definitely not magically change just because your body is smaller. There's lots of things to appreciate, even if you don't like your face.