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No. 410984

Confess to your deepest sins.

Let it all out.

No. 410987

My boyfriend is a pedo. It took about 2 years into our relationship to find out when I found an old hard drive from my first computer build and laughed finding my folder of leeds I took as a kid. I never distributed them, I took them because my family had porn addicts so I saw things I shouldn't at my age.

Anyway, I found my old hard drive with those files and told him the long story about it. Partly because I wanted to vent out some trauma. His response was… Intense interest and the constant insistence that he see the images. So I showed him cause like…it's me, and I took a lot of pictures and videos for pretty much all of my years from 10-14.

So it clicked to me that he was way too interested and he was watching these videos in full with an expression I never really see him have…so against my better judgement I made a joke about little me turning him on and he nervous laughed. So I just played more videos and images while giving him a hand job. We haven't discussed anything about it and I'm not sure how to feel about it either. But I do know he had a much longer and larger orgasm than normal. It's been about a week and we've had sex multiple times a day as if we were just dating again. But every time, I had my laptop beside me with my CP on screen. I don't know how I feel about this tbh.

It's a very complicated feeling. I don't know if I like it and feel kinda numb. I didn't even vent my trauma to him because I felt like I shouldn't ruin this for him. He understands that I obviously understand but both of us are too scared to outright say what's going on. He's imagining fucking the 10 year old me on the screen, while fucking 23 year old me.

I don't know how to feel. I don't know why I'm making this post.

No. 410994

>>410987
You’re straight up encouraging his pedo tendencies by rewarding him with sex.. what the actual fuck anon.

No. 410995

>>410987
Why a week later do you still have cp on your computer open for both you and your bf to view? You're encouraging thus and getting him off while he's engaged with looking at material of an actual child idgaf if the child is you it's still disgusting.

No. 410996

>>410987
Your post made me want to kill myself and I am not even in your situation.
Delete the CP and run as far as you can from the sick fuck. I would tip the police but maybe it's not possible without incriminating yourself.

No. 410997

>>410987
>I knowingly showed my bf CP, knew it turned him on and gave him a handjob, continued to have sex with him after that multiple times with CP on the screen next to us
You're just as culpable as he is.

No. 410998

>>410994
>>410995
I know… But he's still the same person. Outside of bed he acts no differently but in bed we have an unspoken rule now that I should throw on a video or image for him during foreplay. He gets much more into it and it feels more emotional for me. And I don't know why and it makes me want to cry. Am I enjoy this too?

No. 410999

>>410987
I would go as far to say you both are gross pedophiles what the fuck anon get help

No. 411001

>>410998
I'm not enjoying the CP for clarification but the feeling of him being more passionate and rough. Like he isn't holding back from just melting I to the moment. I still love him and it's like I'm just ignoring the discovery that he's a pedo because aside from that he's so good to me.

Sorry I'm just confused. I need to see a professional.

No. 411002

>>410987
>But every time, I had my laptop beside me with my CP on screen
What the fuck? What the fuck is wrong with both of you?

No. 411003

>>410987
Unironically KYS.

No. 411004

>>411001
So he can only melt into the moment if there is sexual images of a child or or a child doing sexual acts. Would he melt into the moment if you in real life turned off the monitor and with your adult body did these things? Please be objective you're projecting his disgusting desires for his desire for you when you have to use a prop to get him to satisfy you sexually. Do you not understand how gross this is? Break up with him before he starts fantasing about other horny kids.

No. 411005

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>>411001
I really hope this isn't real.

Anyway, you realize if you do stay with this brain ball of a man, he's likely going to abuse your children and other people's children down the road. Also, you will soon be very unattractive to him if you aren't already. Even though it feels good to be his object of desire now while he fantasizes about someone else while violently fucking you, he is going to leave you for a younger woman soon.

No. 411008

>>410987

this is some paul bernardo/karla homolka shit, you need help anon

No. 411009

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No. 411010

My lord, that anon with the pedo boyfriend.

I can hardly tolerate it when a man has a different preference of women than me but pedophilia? How can yoi truly love and bond with a man who desires prepubescent children and gets more sexually aroused to them than your full adult body? How can you emotionally and romantically connect with someone like that so devoid of being able to enjoy your body and see it as near perfect? Not to mention the pathetic moral aspect of it….

Yes no1curr and autism but fuck this is a dumpster fire

No. 411011

>>410987
Rate this as worst post ever on lolcow

>>410998
Or this one?

Jesus, anon. You're descending a dark rabbit hole here. Get out now, while you can still save yourself. And from what I'm understanding the images anon is talking about is her own CP not another child's. Distributing and sharing your own child pornography is still probably a crime, anon. Delete. Dump. Seek professional help.

No. 411014

>>410987

You mentioned that you wanted to vent some trauma. Was the trauma related to the images or that time of your life? Do you think that you engaged in this activity as a subconscious way of reclaiming power?

You're going to have to talk to him to find out if he has used CP before or if this was his first time and decide if it's a deal breaker.

Look for a therapist who deals with sexual trauma.

No. 411019

>>411014
Trama related to the images and videos. Never distributed them but was also told by someone I trusted that if I ever deleted them they would end up online because deleted things go straight to the dark web.

I'm not comfortable in elaborating. But probably has to do with what you said. This all happened a week ago but this week feels like it flew by and it kinda all hit me this morning. Like I've been ignoring these thoughts.

No. 411024

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>>411019
>deleted things go straight to the dark web.

No. 411026

>>411024
I was a kid. I know it isn't true now but it scared me back then. Sorry if I made that confusing.

No. 411029

>>411026
that still doesn't explain why you kept the hard drive

No. 411033

>>411019
also this shit is a huge example of why the internet was a fucking mistake.

and anon, why tf are you even in a relationship considering the state you're in. you need to be in intense fucking therapy.

No. 411036

I hate so many people. If it were possible I would torture and then kill them.

No. 411037

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>>411036
Edgy.

In a similar line of thought, I confess that through the Avengers series I have always agreed with Thanos. The Avengers are all largely idealistic which doesn't help their case either.

Thanos did exactly what he said he was going to do and then retired to his nice little farm planet and then they immediately go after him and chop his head off. The entire theater collectively went "YES" when this happened and it made me laugh because it just goes to show how humans think.

Thanos did nothing wrong.

No. 411047

>>410998
Hahaha you're getting cucked by your own self

No. 411050

>>411037
GOD when will the superhero trend die already

No. 411051

>>411050
It's all Raimi shitty movie fault goddamn

No. 411055

>>411047
hahaha … wtf? She is, isn't she? Cucked by her own youth.

No. 411062

My own unpopular opinion related to that: I liked the MCU a lot more at the beginning, it was more "grounded" and the stakes where high but more realistic than alien invasions.

>>411037
Thanos was stupid as fuck, he should have wished for infinite resources or at least more resources available instead of his shitty temporary solution.

>>411050
As someone who enjoy watching action movies and superhero movies, I hope it'll be soon. I like the MCU movies but I don't really know what to think about how Endgame ended. The problem is that now that there are so many movies and there are problems with which company own which rights for which characters, the new ones will most likely be boring and repetitive.

No. 411065

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>>411062
>there are problems with which company own which rights for which characters

Disney just got a whole bunch of Marvel character rights like a month or two ago with the Fox deal. They own the movie rights to Xmen, Fantastic Four, Deadpool, etc. and are buying more stuff. And with the next Spiderman confirming that there are now multiverse shenanigans going on, it means they could easily do things like pull Ryan Renolds in as Deadpool on a multiverse adventure or something.

I agree with you that they should stop soon though. But I also see that there's a lot more fuel for the tank and Disney didn't buy out Fox around the time that they're closing up this phase and starting the next by coincidence.

No. 411067

I have a bf of two years and our sex has been fucking great lately.

But last night I had a dream that I fucked my guy friend who’s a virgin and it honestly kind of turns me on to be someone’s first. I feel guilty for even feeling horny about it because I’ve had dreams where I cheated or fucked someone else and I was disgusted afterward. But this dude has had a crush on me before, I think he’s cute although I don’t think I would date him tbh, my boyfriend is basically perfect for me and I want to get married asap after college.

But fuck I still think it’s kinda hot. Esp because my friend is a religious dude…wtf is wrong with me ugh

No. 411070

>>411067
Nothing is wrong with you. Society has brainwashed us to feel guilty for what's natural. Stop beating yourself up, you're human. It's natural for you to think of the possibilities outside of your status quo, add some longing due to the fear of missing out, etc. It's the very core of what we understand as midlife crisis, but we're bound to go through multiple "mini" episodes like that through our lives.

Liking someone else is normal. You're a sexually active young human, you'll eventually have times where you think of people other than your partner. Just understand that they're usually fleeting, heat of the moment, and aren't worth ruining what you have. How we handle our feelings and the actions we take while under their influence is what determines your character. Don't feel guilty for having those feelings as long as you aren't acting on them. Try not to get lost in them, but the more you fight it the more you'll make yourself uncertain. Accept that you have sexual feelings for your friend, accept that it's normal, accept that it isn't worth ruining your relationship for, and accept that at most maybe you should masturbate a few times to the thought of the experience so that you can "get it out your system" faster.

Good luck, anon. I think many people in their 20's reach this point. We're so set on assuming it's vile to even think of someone else, but the reality is that it'd be more worrisome if you never liked anyone but a single person your entire life.

No. 411071

>>410987
Now THIS is one for the kinkshaming thread…and the police.

No. 411072

I masturbate to the thought of my bf being raped (but ending up liking it) by a sexy guy OR him cheating on me with a hot MILF.
Idk what's wrong with me, I don't want to be a cuckquean, I just like to imagine him in different scenarios.

No. 411073

>>411067
I can relate. I love my bf, but I can't stop thinking about how much I miss having sex with women. I make jokes about it a lot but I know I shouldn't because eventually he's going to get that I actually mean it. We're in a LDR and I know I could easily go out and find some women to fuck without him ever finding out, but I couldn't live with myself if I actually did that. I would love to have a gf as well as him, but he's not open to polyamory.

No. 411074

>>411065
I heard about Disney buying Fox a long time ago but even if the deal is sealed now I think it's a bit too late given that some of the characters were treated differently by both companies and the whole deal with Wanda and Pietro not being mutants and not being Magneto's children. I'm just saying this because I wish this would have happened earlier since I don't really plan on watching the new Marvel movies anyway, except maybe the one that'll come out about Black Widow.

No. 411078

>>411072
the rape one is just disturbing

No. 411081

>>411073
Well I haven’t had sex with anyone aside from my Bf except for fooling around (bj) with a nice guy who coerced me into it after he guilted me into dating him until he broke up w me after I said I wouldnt have PIV with him until I was ready.

So my bf is my first and only PIV, but my bf has also had sex with two other girls before me.

I also should add a worse confession to this post so here it goes:
I have a fake instagram that I made to look like a bot, and followed my bf’s first gf in high school who he lost his vcard to. I wanted to see if there were any pics of them left on there. Honestly there was only prom pics and he’s blocked her since then so i don’t see any comments from him. I’m not even jealous anymore bc all of her followers are bots, she’s clearly very dumb, ugly, annoying, etc. But I’m still following her on this fake acc for the laughs and my bf doesn’t know. The other day i saw that she “became a business partner” of someone in an MLM scheme, I thought it was so fucking hilarious. I wanted to tell my bf but then he’d be weirded out. I know it’s unhealthy too but I’m bored also of this ex and I want to stalk his other ex from high school now.

We’re 21 and in a relationship of 2+ years. We wanna get married after school so our relationship is much more serious and yet I just find it interesting to follow and stalk these girls despite knowing that we’re a better couple. I feel like I’ve overcome my insecurity mostly but I cannot tell my bf about this or else he’ll def be weirded out (for good reason). What is wrong with me?!

Sorry for grammatical errors btw, I’m on my phone!

No. 411084

>>411072
I have a fantasy of watching a male partner being convinced to take it up the ass by a male friend and enjoying it, without any previous anal experiences or doubts about his sexuality, even cumming hands free while he doesn't know I'm watching.

No. 411088

>>411081
This is stupid. Stop stalking his ex girlfriends to make yourself feel better about yourself and your relationship, that's not self esteem. How would you feel if you broke up with him and he got a new girlfriend and she would stalk you to make herself feel better?

No. 411106

>>411081
>she’s clearly very dumb, ugly, annoying, etc.
>I just find it interesting to follow and stalk these girls despite knowing that we’re a better couple.

You realize you are doing these things because you believe the exact opposite, right? Even if you don't know why you're doing it, that's the real reason. You are in fact deeply insecure because insecurity leads us to do the things you are describing. Does that make you a bad person? No, but you need to be aware of this part of yourself and STOP these behaviors if you want to change it. It's normal to be curious about our partner's ex's, but it is not healthy to do the things you are describing. If they really were not a threat in your mind you would not be ruminating on them or feeling any sort of emotion towards them at all, really.

Now that you are aware of it, you can make the choice to change. A good first step would be deleting that account.

No. 411119

>>411106
Anon people hate follow many cows without actually being jealous of them. This is odd behaviour but when I was younger I was guilty of doing the same and thinking 'wew what is with these cows I'm so much better lolol' etc, it's immature yes and leads to nothing productive. If you start obsessively checking their shit you clearly do have some esteem issues going on because you're trying to gain some form of validation from people that have probably checked out of the entire situation.

No. 411121

>>411072
>>411084
I smell fujoshis! Granted I am not insulting you, well aside from the rape.

No. 411122

>>411062
>>411065
These stories are so stupid, specially when they try to make them serious and "realistic", not to mention the oversauration of it.
Why is it still going?

No. 411123

>>411121
I don't like anime, but nice try.

No. 411142

>>411123
You're still a rotten women who likes gay sex.

No. 411160

Receiving oral sex isn't that good for me but I never talked about it with my partners. When other women talk about how it drives them nuts with pleasure I just can't relate. I wouldn't miss it if I never got any. I have a bigger than average clit and someone other than me applying direct stimulation to it fucking sucks, it's overwhelming and I don't feel much. It's much better to rub myself on the guy's body when I'm on top or have him over me, the indirect rubbing is heavenly.

No. 411163

>>411142
Hmm… she doesn't sound like a lesbian.

No. 411173

>>411160
Oral sex has only ever really been great for me with other women, I know some men can be good at it too, but I've never come across any.

No. 411183

>>411122
Because it sells and people who go watch these movies or buy DVDs and blu-rays either don't think the stories are stupid or they know they're stupid but they don't mind it or even like that in these movies. I think superhero movies lead to a lot of merchandises that sell very well and I've heard about design choices and characters' appearances in specific movies and franchises where changed or removed because they don't appeal to kids, and they want to sell a bunch of toys to kids. It's really quantity over quality. In my case I like action movies and sci-fi and I grew attached to some characters back when Spider Man and the X-Men movies were popular just because they looked cool.

No. 411275

>>411142
And what do you think of men who fetishize lesbians?

Scrote-sounding faggot.

No. 411278

>>411275
Fujoshits are gross, but at least they're usually voyeurs. Actually most fujos are obsessed with the idea that gay men will never be interested in women. That's why they kill female characters in their fics, etc.

Lesbian fetishizing scrots are the exact opposite. They're obsessed with the idea that lesbians secretly want to sleep with men, or that the scrot in question is the only male a lesbian finds irresistible. Most scrotal lesbian fetishism either involves corrective rape or The Exceptional Scrot trope.

No. 411300

>>410987
>>410998
>>411001
>I didn't even vent my trauma to him because I felt like I shouldn't ruin this for him.
First, I said "Bitch what the fuck" reading this, and then I got to this point and then I felt sick because I know this exact feeling from being groomed and knowing the very few people I've talked to about it have probably enjoyed the thought of my trauma. I haven't been in this specific situation, but this anxiety and emptiness and fear blended into a numb jelly of complacency. I know it well.

I know this feels trapping. Almost nobody actually listens to this when they hear/read it after talking about their unhealthy relationship, but don't walk, fucking run. I know you have the capacity to do so, even if it doesn't feel that way right now. I know it feels like his love is the best thing in your life, but he is feeding on your childhood pain. This is not right, even if you feel like it might be okay, and it can't end well for you.
Know that when you leave, you will be completely justified in doing so. There is no deeper nuance to this whole situation. You are not "just as bad as him", he is not the one for you with a "fatal flaw", you will not be ruining anything. Know that when you're out, you did the right thing.

And all the anons saying she is just as bad as him, I know this shit is alarming and horrifying, but you need to stop. That will just reinforce the notion that she might as well stay with him so they can be trash together. And if they do stay together, and even have kids, you know exactly what could happen. The idea that she is "the same" as him, therefore she has no reason to stop it will carry over, and then more trauma will arise.

OP is not the same. She didn't get off to it, she just foolishly encouraged it in a bid to satisfy him and feel more loved. This is absolutely one of the more terrible, but possible things that can happen when you are groomed as a child and don't get the correct help or a good enough grip on yourself. The trauma carries over into adulthood, and you end up with an abnormal mindset and quietly accepting it if you end up dating someone who wants to take advantage of that.

What needs to happen is that anon deletes the content of herself and gets the fuck out of that relationship. If possible, before leaving, find out if he has a CP stash of his own, and if so, submit an anonymous tip to the police so his ass will get v&. He is not the wonderful, sweet human he presented himself as up until this point. It hurts to believe this, but it was all lies. All of it.

No. 411315

>>411275
She just said she doesn't watch anime but it doesn't matter.
That's just what the word means. Fujoshi 腐女子 Rotten Woman.

No. 411317

>>410987
Where is pedo chan to scare away the pedos? We need her!

Is she too busy defending drawings of anime teens rn?

No. 411324

I've always identified as bi but I'm starting to realize I might actually be a lesbian. Problem is, I'm in a long term relationship with a man.

We started dating when we were both 20, and we took each other virginities, so I've never been intimate with anyone other than him. We've been together for 6 years now, but we haven't had sex in 3 years because I'm just not into it. It always felt like a chore and like I had to do it to please him or to "be normal" because that's what you do in a committed relationship, right?
At first I blamed my mental issues and the fact that I have post-SSRI sexual dysfunction but I'm slowly starting to realize that it's not just that, it's because I'm gay.

I love and adore my bf but I don't find him attractive sexually, and I also can't connect with him in the way that I can connect with women. Because he's just… a man.
But we live together, we have pets together, we're financially pretty dependent on each other, we have trips coming up that we booked and paid for together, so I feel pretty trapped to be honest. If we were to break up, it'd completely change both of our lives and I'm not sure it would be for the better, even. I'm pretty content with our lifestyle and he respects my boundaries so he doesn't even try to initiate sex anymore. I know he's sexually unsatisfied/frustrated but he said that he'd rather be unsatisfied than force me into doing something I don't enjoy.

So I don't know. I'm sorry this got so long, I just had to get it off my chest.

No. 411328

>>411300
This definitely is the most sensible comment on the subject. While I agree that >>410987 is one of the worst posts ever on lolcow as someone else said, the author sounds deeply troubled and it’s clear that she has an "abnormal mindset". Not because she is pedo herself, but because she is a victim of grooming and desperate for her bf’s attention and affirmation. Anon, I hope you can find the strength to leave him and maybe even report him to the police. I think you could also benefit a lot from therapy.

No. 411330

>>411324
It's a hard one. Have you tried talking to him about it? Thgought about dipping your toes in a threesome to see if it's really floating your boat before uprooting your whole life?

I know it's hard to think about restarting it all but you're both going to end up resenting each other if he's frustrated/you force yourself once in a while. Those financial and pet ties will be worse in 3 or 5 years. I wouldn't let it fester longer: you risk a bitter break-up or resent never exploring something that could have lead you to a healthy happy sex life.

No. 411334

>>411324
Anon you need to let him go. You may care for him but you're doing him ill like this and you're only hurting him in the long run by not speaking up. 3 years of no sex is miserable and I don't know how this hasn't cracked either of you yet over that. Start working on disentangling your finances and brace yourself for a breakup, its the right thing to do.

No. 411336

I’ll probably come across jealous or something saying this, but I’d love to date a guy that hasn’t dated. Imagine how sweet it’d be him not having an ex to deal with or getting to be his first. Just makes it seem more special to me.

No. 411367

>>411336
Yeah, it sounds nice, but it actually kind of sucks because they feel inadequate/jealous if you're not the same and it becomes a huge deal.

No. 411401

>>411367
thats why I wanna be the one to teach him
tfw you will never have a cute innocent virgin bf who never watches porn

No. 411428

I already know that this is toxic and horrible but I love watching my personal lolcow's life go downhill. She used to be a huge shit talker and bully as well as constantly acted like she was better than our friend group. Now that everyone in the group has gone their own ways and are successful (younger, prettier, the life jobs she wanted and so on) shes just left with her bitter pathetic self. It makes me feel so good. To see all her friends dump her aside or talk shit about her behind her back. While shes just trying to grasp for any attention or 'fame' she can get while failing horribly and going back to her shitty job or trying to skin walk someone in order to get male attention. Karma is real and I'm enjoying every bit of it.

No. 411476

>>411401
I had a “sweet Virgin bf” coming into college but it meant his expectation for women was completely fucked, (ofc he did watch porn which contributed to his being into like, horribly demeaning sex when he didn’t even deserve to get his dick sucked in the first place) but having no idea of how relationships worked meant he never took me out on dates, wouldn’t let me hang out with his friends, would yell at me in public, took me to a party where I knew no one and he knew everyone and didn’t introduce me to anyone and got mad at me for “following him around”. Basically people who have never dated have never dated for a reason, unfortunately it took me 5 months to realize that.

No. 411483

>>411476
>people who have never dated have never dated for a reason
nta but god, it's amazing how it seems men can't emotionally develop on their own. I'm old-ish (21) and haven't dated because I'm unironically introverted (I know it's a meme but it best describes the situation, since I'm not truly "shy") and no men I've approached have been a good fit. But I think outside of some anxiety about being cheated on and falling for someone shitty accidentally, my views when it comes to a relationship are pretty healthy. I want to give everything and devote myself for as long as possible, you know? And just expect to not be treated horribly in return.

I'd like a partner who is similarly inexperienced and open to learning and figuring things out together, but it seems most virgin men are as you described and only have expectations they refuse to compromise on. And I feel like the reverse, an experienced man, would also hold it over my head and treat me like an immature babby which is also not what I want. No winning. I don't want to lie about the virginity either because lying bad.

What level of experience for men would you say produces the best ones? 1 or 2 LTRs?

No. 411501

>>411483
>21 is old
Geez, you sound like you're gonna have a meltdown in a few years lmfao.

No. 411505

>>411501
I mean, it seems on the older end to still be a khv. Young in the grand scheme though.

No. 411522

>>411483
I'm the anon you replied to, and I can't really speak for "similarly inexperienced" because the virgin bf was the third guy I had been with, and the guys I had been with before (and since) have all been experienced guys 2-4 years older than me. I don't really know what advice to give you other than that other than special cases your first few relationships probably will suck, but its really important to find out what you need and what you like in a person! So i dont think experience is necessarily the end all be all on if they're gonna be a good partner or what, I think dating around and finding someone you really vibe with in multiple aspects of your life is the way to go, who knows, a virgin might surprise you by being a fantastic boyfriend, or a guy who's had multiple relationships! Good luck anon, I'm sure you'll find someone right for you :)

No. 411546

I hate making out for some reason. It’s very strange since I get aroused watching other people do it but I myself can’t do it with another person. It’s frustrating. Just the thought of doing it stresses me out. Not sure if maybe it would just be better with a woman or something.

I love coming back and re-reading the Nemu thread from time to time. While she is a fucking awful person, her content was disgusting, and her friends/orbiters would clog the thread, it’s a fascinating read. Even her friend circle was insane and entertaining to read about.

I’ve had dreams where I fucc my ex best friend’s ex-bf. He’s kinda cute, fit, and low key into me but I’d obviously never date him, since he isn’t doing much with his life and my ex best friend still has feelings for him kek. Feel kinda guilty knowing I’d probably act on it if the time was right tho, he’d be an easy lay.

No. 411648

I am super scared of having sex. Whenever I think about it I think of my birth control and condom failing and ending up pregnant with an unwanted baby with no legal means or money for an abortion.

No. 411655

>>411648
That's how I feel too anon. I'm afraid I'm going to somehow end up pregnant and have no resources / support to abort and it's terrifying

No. 411665

I bought a dakimakura at a con out of impulse some months ago and just used it as back/neck support during the day but the past few nights I started cuddling it and using it as my actual pillow and ive really never slept better. I am afraid of being walked in on in my sleep spooning an anime girl but wow it feels so soft and nice because I splurged on the expensive soft fabric.

I feel like an incel scrote weeb but I don't care.

No. 411666

>>411665
lmao do you feel that way because you are an incel scrot weeb?

No. 411668

>>411666
God I know it really sounds that way, but fact is that holding a long pillow as you sleep just hugs the body comfortably even without a cringey anime pillowcase over it, lmao. I 100% recommend grabbing a $10 body pillow from your local Target and disregarding the daki waifu thing.

No. 411674

>>411665
man fuck feeling like a incel scrote weeb. body pillows r gr8 either way. i almost bought a daki cover for my body pillow just cuz i thought it would be funny

No. 411684

>>411665
I own 24 daki covers of anime boys, probably have spent like 1.5k USD total on them? I have no shame in my private life, lolcow can think of me as a loser if they want but I unironically like them.

No. 411693

>>411684
24 different boys? That's a big harem.

No. 411707

>>411693
Anon up there is living the dream. I wish I had that kind of money to splurge on a cuddly anime boy harem for my bed…

No. 411811

>>411119

Anon I feel like those are still two different things. I mean, I follow info on cows but I don't think to myself that I'm better than them. It's more of a "who the fuck in their right mind would think that's a good idea" sort of thing. But if you sit there and actively stalk someone because you think you'd be so much better with the other person just sounds completely different. That's beyond having self esteem issues.

No. 411859

>>411684
Honestly, I envy those with that level of passion for 2d men. I wish I were the same way but all my husbandos are from dead or obscure series.

No. 412009

>>411428
Karma isn’t real at all. But consequence is. I have a personal cow like this though! I don’t get a creepy satisfaction out of it, but I do occasionally feel glad she’s gotten what was coming to her.

Does your cow try to be a social media whore too? That’s always fun to watch

No. 412102

>>411665
Ever since i recieved an anime body pillow in my teens, I seriously cant ever sleep without something huge to wrap my legs around. Its lifechanging. I stopped using anime body pillows though because i felt like a loser and it was a pain to hide whenever guests came over and switched to a giant dog stuffed animal body pillow. You can still wash it in the machine.

No. 412104

>>412102
I could never get into body pillows because I’m not a weeb, but I have purchased several large stuffed animals just for this reason. I just feel cozy cuddling with my legs wrapped around something soft, but I’m not huge on doing that with people, I feel bad for my future SO lmao

No. 413344

>>412009
Haha ok fine you're right. I know her current situation is a result of all of her past and current actions, choices, and being a overall horrible human being under her fake nice girl persona but it's so easy to use karma.

She tries so hard get that social media clout as well as try to appease famous e-celebs but not a single person gives her the time of day esp. after they see her real face under all the Photoshop she uses. I die whenever I see a candid/unshooped/video of her right next to one of her shops.

No. 413375

This site made me a feminist. I never realised how much of a handmaid I was. It opend my eyes on how much I used to change and agree to shit that made me uncomfortable just to please my exes. Before I would have agreed with 4chan pol on women but now I truly see how pathethic and wrong they are. I cant believe I used to be like that. It makes me angry. This site truely helped me to see how women are treated and how I should not settle for that.

No. 413385

I don't love my partner anymore and I'm only sticking together with him for a residence permit.

No. 413386

>>413375
Did you just used to read /pol/ as your go-to internet community? It's so strange how women are just hangs around what is basically male propaganda hangouts.

No. 413387

>>413375
Did you just used to read /pol/ as your go-to internet community? It's so strange how women are just hangs around what is basically male propaganda hangouts.

No. 413390

>>413375
That makes me really happy, anon. Welcome x

No. 413391

>>413386
Not her but used to I spend way too much time on /r9k/ (pre /pol/ exploding but peak >tfw no gf era). I didn't go full handmaid but I forced myself to consider their perspective just in case they were right. It just made me more feminist in the end and opened my eyes to reality, now I know what men really think of us and how they speak about us behind our banks.

No. 413428

Listening to annons bitch about not studding for finals has given me inspiration to study

No. 413439

>>413375
Same, anon. It's kind of a double-edged sword though because now I realize how blatantly misogynistic a lot of male-dominated online spaces are.

No. 413457

>>413375
This site made me gay. lol.

jokes aside it helped me realize how much of a cool girl i used to be, and how that was really tied to internalized homophobia. i also avoided a lot of lgbt stuff because of how sjw it became, and lcf was kinda the first site to be serious about lgbt stuff without being sjw about it. so thanks guys. my quality of life has improved immensely.

No. 413493

>>413457
>>413375
I am happy for you, anons.

No. 413546

I'm afraid to read through the threads that are critical of transgenderism because I have so many friends who are transgender. While I am already skeptical I try to push my personal feelings to the side so I can support them, so I am afraid if I read the threads here it's affect my behavior towards my friends.
Likewise, I am scared of reading the threads who are critical of men because I already feel doubt against men and I don't want to become extreme.

No. 413550

>>413546
Personally the gencrit threads haven't affected me (forbidden on lolcow, I know). If anything the discussions about SRS just made me more sympathetic. But the manhate threads have ruined me and fucked with my mental health over the past year. But that may just be personal because I'm anxious and very romantically interested in men, so I used it as an outlet to make myself feel like shit.

If you're at all sensitive like that, be careful.

No. 413551

>>413546
Everything in moderation. Take your information from many sources and always question the reasons for an echo chamber. I read the GC thread but it hasn't stopped me from supporting my trans friends because unlike the scary caricatures in that thread, they are real people with emotions that just want to live their lives. I don't read the redpill thread every single day because I don't want to be consumed with that, I already encounter the patriarchy sucking every day, so I just read it occasionally and try to talk about those issues with a male friend when I can.

Like >>413550 says, be careful. I avoid any body nitpicking threads myself because it makes me hypercritical.

No. 413554

When I was 16 11 years ago till around 20ish I was interested in shotas. Not really the sexual aspect; I just thought they were cute. Watched too much anime, and I really normalized loli and shota for myself. I’m really ashamed and disgusted of myself for it. I used to think I was really cool when I was younger.

No. 413555

>>413546
The GC Reddit is a bit more measured, people there are screaming tranny every other post. Also it's just a general radfem subreddit so it's not all about trans people. I think if you understand the fundamental views of radical feminism you'd understand why they're critical. Just as everyone else said just take it in small doses, you can still support your trans friends while being critical (I'm in a similar position)

No. 413556

>>413555
*Aren't (sorry didn't want to retype on tablet)

No. 413558

Sometimes I think about calling myself non binary so people won't suspect I have gender critical leanings.

I don't think I would actually do it but the fear of being outed is so real

No. 413560

>>413554
I like lolis too anon, I like lolis too.


Theres no reason to be ashamed imo, as long as you didnt rape a child nobody was hurt, so who gives a fuck.

No. 413561

>>413554
If it's any comfort, I was a shotafag from 13-15 myself. And it was the sexual side.
I realized later it was just me developing my sexual interests through what was available to me, but I regret it horribly and am not into it at 21.
But why are you ashamed if it was never sexual? Nothing is inherently wrong with kid characters.

No. 413586

I don't like the way my boyfriend looks as much anymore, he used to be my idea of perfect. I can't even fully put my finger on it but he doesn't take care of himself that well anymore physical. He's in his final of med school so I feel bad because he genuinely is very busy but come on, surely he should especially know how important looking after your skin /hair etc is. I do even know how I would bring it up because it just seems mean.

No. 413587

>>413586
*physically
*I don't even

No. 413614

>>413546
If you're afraid of being so easily influenced maybe you don't hold your convictions as strongly as you think. There's nothing wrong with exposing yourself to new information and different opinions. It's possible to be GC and disagree with TRAs about issues such as women's bathrooms without hating trans people. I browse the pink pill thread, that doesn't mean I hate all men. I recognise that they have flaws and some of them do bad things to women.

No. 413625

I used to be into traps and cross-dressing men and it was due to looking at too much internet and tumblr bullshit. It’s something I’m seriously embarrassed about now because I’m only interested in normal-looking men nowadays. The internet really affected my sexuality in seriously cringy and embarrassing ways.

No. 413652

>>413561
Because I would say how much I loved shotas and how cute they were. Just cringy

No. 413666

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I like it when anas reblog or like my pictures. I'm actually a healthy weight now and fit/somewhat muscular so it feels weird to see my own picture among all the thinspo.

or maybe they do it to trigger themselves idk

No. 413673

>>413546
Why are you frightened, anon? Is it because you actually already agree with them?

Do you get frightened when you hear flat earthers talk about their beliefs? Probably not, because you know it's nonsense.

No. 413680

>>413546
You can hide threads, you don't have to see them if you don't want to, that's what the feature exists for

No. 413692

>>413673
nta but a lot of anons who hold those views are shitty on other threads.

No. 413700

I don't give a damn about pigs, chickens and cows being killed for meat. It's not morally wrong to want to consume flesh. I don't want them to be tortured while they're alive and I wish they had better living conditions but I'll never, ever stop consuming animal products because of "empathy" reasons. Unless something as good as milk, meat and cheese comes along, that's a no for me.
The only argument which convinces me to stop is because it's bad for environmental reasons but my sacrifice doesn't stop what's going on in the world so I feel no motivation whatsoever - the companies selling those vegan substitutes (that I hardly come by in my shitty place) are just as bad as any other. I eat a lot of vegetables that I buy locally in my small town and that's it. (I'm not american)

No. 413702

>>413692
nta but I agree, I think they shouldn't seep too much out of their own threads

they often leaks into other portions of ot and it tends to turn into infighting or them circlejerking one another, and all I want to do is post shit unrelated to that in those ot threads because I block them for a reason

oh and kink anons, please stfu kink anons nobody wants to hear about your domme sex lives

No. 413707

>>413700
TBH to each their own but if you know the livestock industries are shitty and bad for the environment, why continue to support them? Vegans have a point. If you care at all about that stuff it's a simple matter of supply and demand. You're giving money to the companies who are actively destroying our planet.

No. 413716

>>410987
>Everything about this post
I am sick to my stomach and my head is throbbing unable to process that this is possible.
How the hell do you farmers find these fucked up men and and how can you be so fucked up to end up with them and stay with them?
This is not normal.

No. 413754

>>413700
I have a similar opinion. I care about animals and think factory farming is barbaric but I also recognise that humans need to eat meat. I buy all my meat from an independent butcher. The meat is sourced from local farms where the animals are left to graze in open pasture. I understand that this is something not everyone can afford to do. I live deep in the countryside where it's all readily available, someone living in a city would probably have to pay a premium.

I don't see how veganism is sustainable in the long term. A lot of the popular new burger products are made from soy and growing it on a large scale is hugely damaging to the environment. Animals like cows, pigs and sheep are an important part of land management because they replenish soil through manure. A farmer will not grow the same crop in the same field, they rotate between different crops and pasture so they do not deplete the soil.

No. 413763

>>413707
Because if I stop supporting them nothing changes in the world. They'll continue to exist and do what they do. So I better keep eating in an omnivore way.
Just like I know a lot of products I buy are from brands that use slave work. I mean, is it even possible to escape this in 2019?

No. 413764

My boyfriend’s lazy eye kind of bothers me. I met one of his older family members and her’s was way worse. I think his is gonna get worse and worse over time. It’s such a small & petty thing and it doesn’t effect the way I treat him and I’m not necessarily outwardly embarrassed but admittedly I don’t like it and I really really don’t want it to get worse.

No. 413767

>>413764
Can't it be fixed with eye training?

No. 413771

>>413754
A lot of vegan products also contain palm oil which is single handedly making orangutans go extinct, alongside many other species.

I think vegans are really dumb when they chimp out about "but muh poor cows!!!" when I see them routinely do a lot more environmentally damaging shit. If it's a weight loss choice I get it though.

I think we should definitely cut down a lot on meat and milk, especially New Worlders who seem to eat it every day in some form, but completely eliminating all animal products is bonkers, many people need meat to keep their iron levels stable and get enough nutrients. I agree that some farming methods are disgusting and cruel though, which is why I try to make sure I buy meat from a good source, preferably hunted, but not everyone has that luxury.

Fwiw I tried Alpro's chocolate almond milk yesterday and it's damn good so there's that.

No. 413774

>>413754
I mean tbh if you want to get into numbers, soy is already grown primarily to feed to livestock. It's just way more efficient to grow the soy to eat ourselves instead of feeding it to pigs and cows. Eating plants will always be less harmful because of simple food chain energy conversion, you have to feed the livestock something.

No. 413785

My work has a little shower room for employees who cycle to work and recently I've started cycling in more days so I can use the showerhead there to masturbate because 1) the pressure is better and b) my employer is paying for all the water I use. Knowing that the company is paying for my orgasm satisfies my desire for vengeance as a wagecuck. I've now started getting horny as soon as I step in the shower room like my body knows what it's time for like some kind of cursed feedback loop.

No. 413789

I have a really horrible "nostalgic" feeling towards porn because I found it and enjoyed it in at least 4th or 5th grade (US) and it also made me interested in women. But all of that just makes me feel gross and horrible and like I was manipulated into being gay as well as having good feelings towards porn because its nostalgic. The porn hate thread just packed on more hatred for myself and I still watch porn, making me hate myself more. The human mind is fucking dumb.

No. 413790

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>>413785
anon that is devious, you are my hero

t. fellow wagecuck

No. 413818

>>413771

I agree with your other points but I honestly don't understand it when it's a weight loss choice, and am so confused that people think this to be true. Nutritious plant foods are really calorie dense.. avocado, nuts, seeds, beans, rice etc. So many calories. Like, unless these people are just eating vegetables and nothing else, I don't understand how they lose weight.

No. 413827

>>413789
Can women be memed into a fetish/sexuality like men can? I think I saw a post on here saying it wasn't likely, but idk.

anyway, i'm of the view that if you're only attracted to the top 1% of super hot stacies, all thotted up, then you're probably not gay. but if you get attracted to your neighbor lady or the cute cashier chick, then you're probably bi/gay.

No. 413831

I went from being incredibly in love with my partner to not being able to relax if im in the same room as him. I found out he was covering up his erectile dysfunction with viagra. He told me that he had ED because of performance anxiety but it was a lie to cover up his masturbation and porn dependence. I finally thought that I found a guy that could watch porn AND have a healthy sex drive for me too. I was so wrong and now im stuck with a pornosexual again while being 4 months pregnant. I am so mad and disgusted. Why cant modern men just stop breaking their dicks and have a normal sex drive for me?

we are moving into a new apartment next month and I dont know if I can keep it together because I am just so disgusted by how pathetic he is. He is a great partner in every other way but hes broken sexually because of his own porno problem.

He wants to fix it but I know that he never can because I've been through this with two men already. Men who have been exposed to porn since childhood cannot change, their sexuality is changed forever. I thought he only watched porn and masturbated once or twice a week but I discovered that its nearly every day. I really wish he didn't lie to me because I would have never put myself through this again.

I am going to have to spend a few years putting up with him to finish my education in nursing. I will probably end up leaving him because I just cant stand that he can get it up for women online but not for women in real life, including me. It all makes me so sad because I thought we had something real.

No. 413832

>>410987
doesn't it make you deeply upset that he is more attracted to how you looked at 10 years old compared to how you look now? You are going to keep aging and one day he will never be attracted to you again because of his pedo tendencies. If his fucked up sexuality doesn't scare you away the fact that his attraction for you has an expiration date should.

No. 413836

>>413832
please don't respond to that anons 7 day old post/bait post. she disappeared from the thread after essentially outting herself as baiting or being clinically retarded.

No. 413839

>>413831
no offense but everything you said is wrong. you're basically asking him to quit smoking essentially. the brain will get over it. he's not damaged or broken, and none of the men who you were with were because of porn either.

No. 413841

>>413839
>everything you said about your relationship is wrong

bitch what the fuck? i’m not the anon you’re replying to but come the fuck on, stop pretending you know all about anon’s relationship from one post. also porn sick men with broken dicks are 100% a thing, do you even know where the fuck you are rn?

No. 413846

I've been experimenting with choking myself. It feels good, specially when I'm sad. But it would be hard to explain a strangulation bruise to people who live with me and people at work so I can never indulge as much…

No. 413848

>>413839
oh please. I know what I'm talking about. there are men out there whos sexualities are completely shaped by porn addiction. For example, my ex would spend almost my entire shift at work looking at porn. He didn't have any energy left for me but could continue looking at porn after I fell asleep. He hated himself for this and wanted to change but just could not change his behavior. I tried to help him for years but we ended up separating even though we had a child together. He did not watch porn regularly the first two years we were together but his entire sexuality changed when he could afford to purchase his first personal computer. There are tons of men just like my ex who can no longer function for real life sex but can masturbate to porn for hours just fine. I unfortunately ended up with ANOTHER man just like him and I am just finding this out. I wish something like this was as easy as quitting smoking but it is just not.

No. 413867

>>413848
In what world is quitting smoking easy

No. 413870

>>413785
you are the true hero of the working class, i salute you comrade! but also am sad we don't get provided with showers

No. 413871

>>413841
her whining about how porn addiction is impossible to fix is retarded. it's not a disease, it's an addiction and it's only a physiological one at that. don't be a fucking drama queen.

>>413848
lmao, again, it's not impossible and hopeless. and you're really annoying with your whiny attitude about it.

No. 413877

>>413871
is right.

death grip and porn addiction are reversible. if your partner won't change for you, move the fuck on.

No. 413880

>>413848
KEK
nicotine withdrawal:
>literal physical withdrawal including nausea, chronic severe headache, sore throat, extremity tingling, irritability, restlessness, anxiety, weight gain

porn withdrawal:
>my peepee is sooo sad :(

this guy sounds like a faggot and so was your ex. they don't want to stop, they just don't want to tell you that porn is their priority, not a healthy relationship.

No. 413895

>>413558
Goddamn me too anon, it's always the same with these people, it's almost like witch hunting, one strike and you're out. I have been thinking about calling myself non-binary so people won't assume shit from me based on my gender tho.

No. 413903

>>413673
I'm easily influenced and believe almost everything people tell me. If I surround myself with shitty behaviour then I adapt to it very easily. It's a weakness.

No. 413924

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I am secretly happy that I can't see my LDR bf these holidays because it means I can fast more.

No. 413929

>>413903
That explains why you have trans friends.

No. 413931

>>413929
LOL, they became trans after we made friends.

No. 413954

>>413827
By your standard, I'm gay, but I still feel meme'd into it from my experience and just how the entire media around me is so catered to male gaze and everything is titty women

Actually I wonder if thats how gay men get meme'd into feeling straight. Glad that they suffer too.

No. 413962

>>413954
Anon, you most likely are just gay. Women in porn would not appeal to you if you were straight lmao. There are tons of women not turned on by women despite our society being like this.

Maybe if you were also bi I could see it affecting your preference, but you just said "gay" so I'm assuming you're a lesbian (?). Really it sounds like you just don't want to be, which is kind of sad, anon. I think it's also sad you were introduced to porn so early, not because I think it determined your sexuality but because it's not healthy and clearly has made it hard for you to stop.

idk for a while I felt like this myself, like a fake since I'm a degen bisexual. I saw a cleavage on magazines when I was little so that must be the culprit! It was the bikinis in archie comics! I had a porn addiction in middle school that was it! But truly, it would have had no appeal if I was actually straight. I would've stuck to my yaois. And the diversity in taste like other anon mentioned is also indicative of it being "real," as well as ability to form romantic feelings for them.

"Do you want to date and romance women?" Is probably the question you should ask yourself.

No. 414186

>>413831
Tell him to quit or break up. Men addicted to porn are weaklings and don't deserve relationships. If he quits then he actually gives a shit enough about you.

No. 414187

>>414186
Oh, I just read you will probably leave him anyway. My bad anon.

No. 414211

>>410984
I have been picking and eating scans on my head for years.

No. 414215


No. 414216

>>414211
I meant to say scabs

No. 414220

I sent anon hate to a friend of mine on Tumblr because she has a weird ego over being a "BNF" in some fandom, and spends way too much time arguing with people many years younger than her about discourse. I called her out for being way too old to act the way she's acting. I didn't have the guts to say it to her face, but I had to say it somehow and hopefully make her wake up.

She's 30 for anyone wondering.

No. 414221

>>413954
>>413962
You can have sexual masturbatory fantasies about the same gender and not be gay. You are only gay or bi if you want to have sex with and/or date the same gender IRL. You might be curious which is the cause of those fantasies, but it's up to you to choose what you want to label yourself, if anything. Don't let anyone tell you what you are.

No. 414222

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Since visiting Hungary I've become obsessed and finally understand what it's like to be a rootless weeb but for a different culture

Someone please relate to me

No. 414224

>>414221
I'd agree with this if most people didn't laugh their asses off if a man tries to identify as straight despite fantasizing about other men. Why are the rules different?
This is kind of tinfoil, but I feel like there's some kind of vested interest in women being convinced that they're straight above all by default. I don't see any reason not to experiment or question oneself.

No. 414225

>>414221
>sexual masturbatory fantasies about the same gender
>you want to have sex with and/or date the same gender IRL.

wtf is this arbitrary distinction. If you specifically masturbate to thoughts of the same gender you're obviously attracted to them. There are many things that can hold you back from wanting to act on that attraction irl but none of them are being straight.

No. 414227

>>414224
I never said they can’t experiment or anything what even.

>>414225
Some people masturbate to cartoon ponies. Do you think they want to fuck horses IRL? Fap fodder isn’t always real life desire, but like I said, that anon can decide for themselves. No one should dictate another persons sexuality or even care that much.

No. 414228

>>414227
>Do you think they want to fuck horses IRL?
I mean, there's a lot of crossover.

No. 414229

>>414227
Cartoon ponies do not exist irl. The same sex does. There is a difference between fantasy and real life but if you are regularly enjoying fantasies of something that is a realistic representation of irl, whether it's a certain body type, hair/skin/eye colour, age or, yes, gender, you're not fooling anyone. It's not what you are necessarily going to seek out or indulge irl but it is absolutely something you are attracted to.

No. 414233

>>413871
>>413877
>>413880
you three have obviously never been with someone who has porno problems. I do think the dependence on it is bullshit and no replacement for intimacy in a relationship, but too many guys do not give a fuck about a womans needs or wants in a relationship to stop their bad porn habits. Wanking way too much to that shit does change their behavior and makes them less empathetic towards their partners, so that is why it is hard to quit. I'd rather have a partner be addicted to smoking than porn any day.

No. 414256

>>414233

my words come from experience. if they love you, care about the relationship and respect themselves, they will try and do something about it. if not, don't bother anymore.

No. 414309

>>414227
>Some people masturbate to cartoon ponies. Do you think they want to fuck horses IRL?
Are you asking if furries want to actually fuck animals?

No. 414320

>>414309
Bronies are disgusting but not all of them are furries. More of them are just maladjusted pedo-leaning guys who'd prefer to date a teen girl because they are terrified of adult peers.

No. 414403

I like dating slightly ugly guys or at least uglier than me. My time with a handsome, popular and confident man was terrible because I knew other women were trying to get him and and he turned out to be a cheater too.

No. 414637

>>414233
my partner is still addicted to porn, i actually split up with him over a time about it.
this isn't my advice but if I'm going to be honest I gave up. my antidepressants ruined my sex drive anyway. I stopped saying "save it for me" and literally just let him do whatever the fuck he wants.
probs gonna kill myself soon though so whatever. only put up with that shit if you're dead inside. I gave up.

No. 414744

>>414309
They absolutely fucking do. Furry is just diet bestiality and plenty of them fuck their family dogs.

No. 414803

My friend and I have a pact that if both of us don't find a guy by 30, then we will both accept our destiny of being crazy cat ladies and live together.

We've known each other since we were wee lasses and I'm looking forward to that future. She's the only person I can trust and vice versa. I've rejected so many dates with our pact in mind but I've also been sabotaging hers in return without her knowing of course. I just love her so much.

No. 414804

I don't see anything wrong with the current US prison system aside from wrongful convictions or imprisoning for minor possession like weed.

If you're a rapist or murderer or you go out and choose to hurt people in any way, you deserve to suffer. You deserve to feel threatened by other inmates. You deserve to go insane in solitary confinement. I'm so fucking sick of people who go "b-but an eye for an eye! We need to be better than them and rehabilitate them!" Why? Why does no one think about the fucking victims of the crimes?

No. 414819

>>414804
I would agree with you if it wasn't for the fact that drug offenses make up almost half of US prison sentences. Violent criminals do deserve it, though.

No. 414824

>>414803
>I've rejected so many dates with our pact in mind but I've also been sabotaging hers in return without her knowing of course. I just love her so much.
What lesbian yandere anime/manga is this

No. 414826

>>414803
>boycotting my loved best friend's chance to have a happy life she desires.

Just tell her.. You can't force it, if it's not mutual.

No. 414834

>>414804
The problem is most of those violent offenders are released with worse behavior and locked up with the 86% of prisoners who are in there for victimless crimes making their behavior worse too. And since the US population has the highest per capita prison population on the planet that leads to shit loads more social problems and this is all done on purpose to make more money for private prisons. If you care about victims you should want the opposite of the US prison system since it just causes more people outside and inside to get victimized.

Also the funny thing is the most violent criminals do the best in US prisons since they can just intimidate and abuse the less dangerous prisoners as much as they want.

No. 414835

>>414824
Ha, I actually thought of making one loosely inspired by this. Unfortunately, she's not a lesbian but I'd be happy to just live as friends.

>>414826
Nope. Besides, I've been doing her favours and if she knew, she'd probably thank me. I'm not boycotting her happy life, it's the exact opposite. Most men are either abusive, cheaters, or just want a cleaning maid or a combination of those. And the reason why we made that pact is that she likes the idea. She often jokes that our plan z (what we call our pact) is so good that she wishes that it becomes plan a. I'm still feeling a tad bit guilty about the whole thing. I also fear that I won't be able to sabotage her every (potential) date so… I may burn in Hell but if we get to live together it's going to be worth it.

No. 414902

I was in a toxic situation in my last workplace where one of my bosses started deliberately setting me up to fail (micromanaging, throwing away written instructions just to berate me for having followed those written instructions, lying about things that were easily proven false). My parents have no faith in my work ethic and assumed that I was at fault for what was happening. Not having many other people to ask for advice, I ended up listening to them, which meant I never stuck up for myself or mentioned any of this behavior to any of my other bosses or coworkers.

I got let go from that job last week, but I haven't told my parents yet. All they know about is the emotional distress I was going through. I'm thinking of asking them to wire me money for "therapy", but I would actually just use it to take classes to change my career while I collect unemployment for a month or two. I would feel bad for lying, and for basically collecting an allowance from my parents in my late 20s, but I'm just pissed that I lost this opportunity and that they didn't believe me when I was telling them my boss was flat out lying to get me terminated. Feels stupid to blame my parents for this situation, too, but wah wah, mommy and daddy fucked me up.

No. 414905

>>414637
Don't kill yourself, just leave the bad shitty man that is ignoring your wishes and is so fucking dumb he prefers a screen over an irl sexy woman (you)

No. 414924

>>414403
Kind of same, I like frumpy dorky guys and that's one reason.
But they also come off as vulnerable which is so much more attractive than confidence.

No. 414945

>>414803
>by 30
>destiny of being crazy cat ladies

what is with you people thinking that your life ends at 30, wtf

No. 414949

>>414945
no woman is pretty after 30 obviously!!!

like literally there are so many women that are like 35 that i think are 22 so this is ridiculous. it's literally just age obsession and age fetishism on the part of men when they cannot even fucking tell how old most women are

No. 414978

>>414945

ikr, i'd be more inclined to say 40-50 lol

No. 415008

>>413375
Imagine having your ideology dictated by a bunch of losers on laotian basket weaving forums.

No. 415010

>>413700
>I don't give a damn about pigs, chickens and cows being killed for meat.
I have a hard time believing anyone raised in a comfortable 1st world environment actually saying this sincerely. How do you feel about working in a slaughterhouse, or even just as a butcher/meatpacker?

>>413754
>that humans need to eat meat
Vegetarians have existed for over 1000 years. I know vegans aren't always logically sound but why can't meat eaters even get the most basic facts straight?

No. 415037

>>415010
Id like to point out that eating, and more importantly cooking, meat is what has given us our big brains - big enough to now question the ethics of eating meat, don’t pretend that eating meat isn’t a human trait

No. 415038

When I was 13, I forced Brian Sella of The Front Bottoms to tell me I was beautiful. I don't fucking know why it just came out, it's the most embarrassing thing I've ever done.

No. 415045

>>415038
That's hilarious. How did you force him to do it? What an odd request.

No. 415064

>>414945
This site is filled with underage b8 who still have highschool mindsets, to them mid 20s is middle age

No. 415066

>>415037
>Eating meat is what gave us our big brains
<Citation Needed>
But seriously, no one is arguing against humans being innate omnivores. Of course we can eat meat, but the question is, is it sustainable to eat it on as wide of a scale as we're doing now? Adopting a plant-based diet is probably the best thing any 'environmentalist' can do short of straight up nuking people.

No. 415072

>>415066
Plant based diet only cannot give a human all the amino acids they need for proper cell production and function that's why vegans need to be taken a lot of supplements to actually be able to metabolise the nutrients they need.

Nutrition research is growing very quickly at the moment with metagenomics and we're starting to understand what we put in our body has a lot more impact than we realise and cooking and eating meat has been implicated in our intelligence.

No. 415075

>>415066
Literally a google away, mate

No. 415078

>>415072
>https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/19562864
>It is the position of the American Dietetic Association that appropriately planned vegetarian diets, including total vegetarian or vegan diets, are healthful, nutritionally adequate, and may provide health benefits in the prevention and treatment of certain diseases. Well-planned vegetarian diets are appropriate for individuals during all stages of the life cycle, including pregnancy, lactation, infancy, childhood, and adolescence, and for athletes.

The only supplement you would need to take on a properly planned vegan diet is B12, and even then this is only because livestock are fed B12 supplements. 90% of B12 supplements are fed to livestock.

Also plant-based populations have the longest lifespans. See the adventists studies in which adventists who eat primarily plant-based diet live 4-7 years longer than their peers.

No. 415083

>>415078
That's cool, but all food is broken down to its monomers in digestion and amino acids are the monomers of protein and humans have essential amino acids they need and some of those can only come from meat. So B12 won't help that.

I will agree that the farming industry is unsustainable and I'd love it to get over hauled and farmers crying about their livelihoods need to understand the majority comes before their wage. Over production is mental in diary arable and meat farming. Obesity is happening because corporations need to shill their products that their adding addictive shit to keep people hooked.

People need to practice eating in moderation and it needs to be made easier for consumers to discern were a product comes from and how much energy went into making it. I think that would be interesting to see on labels so consumers can actually be more informed

No. 415086

>>415083
This. Eating meat isn’t the issue, it’s the sheer excessiveness of it. Farming should’ve never been so industrialised, it has done nothing but rape our earth and create shortages of much needed resources, not to mention large scale meat/dairy/egg farming is highly unethical

No. 415087

>>415083
Not true though, soy/tofu/tempeh/soya/whatever is a complete protein and contains all essential aminoacids. There are others as well if you're on the anti-soy train. Just google 'complete plant proteins'. It's a myth that you can't get all the amino acids from plants. On other regards, I agree with you. The ideal human society would still eat animal products but in moderation. I just think we need to stop with this 'we need to eat meat everyday in every meal' propaganda.

No. 415148

>>415087
I don't think that statement holds true worldwide. When I first heard of the term "Meatless Mondays" it sounded very silly, in my country we usually eat meat twice a week, maybe three times. The rest of the time we eat either wholegrain wheat-based foods (pasta, savoury filo pastry with cheese, etc) or legumes (beans, peas, lentils) for lunch. We do consume a lot of dairy, pancetta and spicy sausages though, but those are products you buy once and eat over the course of several weeks on a slice of bread or something.

It's super easy to avoid meat, it's healthier, and it's so much cheaper. Don't know why so many people depend on it as if it's the only source of protein.

No. 415152

>>415148
The whole "meat in every single meal" thing is definitely just an American thing.

No. 415154

>>415152
Definitely. I'm not even American but my country is very Americanized due to proximity and people eat meat in every meal here. Vegetarian options don't exist anywhere.

No. 415188

I met my BF in an 18+ erotic Discord community but it somehow became long-term and now we lie to everyone(including his family) and tell everyone we met in a video game.

No. 415203

>>415152
Nah come to Germany. Meat all the time

No. 415204

>>415083
You can combine rice and beans (or other similar foods) to create complete proteins. Also your body makes 11 out of the 20 you require.

No. 415221

Horrible emotional ramble, but here goes. I don't want children. Ever. Seeing kids make me so bitter to be honest, I know it's not nice but I had a traumatic childhood my dad sexually abused me, was an alcoholic, sadistic piece of shit sociopath, you know, the usual /s and I still suffer from it, I'm in therapy, I'm a neet, holy fuck do I really seem like mom material? And my boyfriend, knowing all of this bullshit, got mad when I said this. I'm "selfish" for not wanting kids when I didn't have a childhood and wasted 20+ years of my life either suicidally depressed or dissociating my ass off. I want a life of my own, I've barely started living and now I need to sacrifice myself again to not be "selfish" and "childish". Like… you would fucking be "childish" too if you had my life, I did not have a chance to "grow up" while my whole psyche was being destroyed with abuse. "Nice" knowing that men really do just want either a fucktoy to rape or a babymaker to enslave. I'm a walking vagina and nothing more. Very cool. Guess I'll go back to being alone, like all my life until now. I am done.

No. 415235

>>415221
Also had a mentally fucked up childhood too and imo it's totally normal if you don't want to have children because of that. I'll never see myself as mother material because my own mother is a piece of shit and her mother was a piece of shit and so on, my family is rife with mental problems, and I don't want to accidentally impart mistakes onto anyone. I hope I don't ever change my mind, I'm afraid of long term relationships because the idea of being betrayed/left/abused haunts me and I've not had a good or stable long term relationship thus far, I feel like I have a horrible proclivity towards abusive men without even meaning to because I have no semblance of what a healthy relationship looks like, my parents were assholes to one another, assholes to me, and assholes to my sister in many ways. I'm shocked my sister ever wants to have kids and I lowkey hope she changes her mind, she's way too control freakish like my abusive mother, she's mean to me, and unless she can tone that down I don't think she should ever have kids. Its totally understandable if you were abused as a kid that the trauma resulting from it would make you not want to have kids and that's a personal choice I respect. I mentally remind myself all the time that Ill feel like I'll never be stable enough to have kids and that I spent my entire life letting people walk all over me and therefore I shouldn't reproduce at all and that's probably the better way for me to live since I'm emotionally/financially unstable by myself, I question if I should even get into real relationships at all bc I just feel like the other person is going to hate and abuse me and maybe in retaliation I'll fight back against them and feel like the abuser myself, I don't want to be in an unhealthy cycle, half the time I feel like I'd rather be alone. Why couldn't I just have a happy normal childhood, I'm tired of my shitty sister saying "it wasn't that bad" as justification for shit when she didn't undergo half the abuse I did, even if she was still abused, no, nobody's parents are perfect but my childhood was kinda damn shitty and I've suppressed a shitton of it now because I don't want to remember, I don't want to ever have a baby and end up hurting them like my parents hurt me

No. 415237

>>415221
Men just want to be the devil's advocate. If you wanted kids then he'd be offended and say he didn't want them. What happened to you is not "usual" and I'm sorry he is trying to diminish the effect of abusive childhood had on you.

I'm in the "actually want kids" camp but I have never mentioned that to guys because I know they think you're a bunny boiler psycho for actually expressing your wishes in any direction.

Basically he's a dick. It's not about your choices being "wrong", it's him choosing to disrespect your wishes regardless of what they are.

No. 415244

>>415221
Please dump your boyfriend. Holy fuck what a piece of shit he is. There's nothing wrong with not wanting kids, especially when your life has been taken from you and you've had to grow up with abuse. No offense but I legit hate your boyfriend. That's a level of callousness that shouldn't be legal. You're entitled to feel however the fuck way you want seeing as how you're probably still coping with the effects of childhood abuse. What an absolute assbaby he is.

No. 415257

>>415237
>want a child
>reee she wants to trap me!!! she wants my alimony money! I get nervous, I'll lose my freedom!
>don't want a child
>reee why are you so selfish? What about muh wall? Who will change your diaper when you're old?

No. 415329

Ever since I was a kid, I always thought white people shat red while the rest of society shat brown because you know: red nipples = red shit.

I’ve always known that wasn’t true at all yet I let that thought linger.

No. 415331

>>415329
I laughed irl, anon. Red poops…
Pretty sure some white people have brown nips though.

No. 415334

>>415329
Thank you anon, gave me a good laugh. On one hand what the actual fuck and yet on the other I can see where you’re coming from, kids are retards.

No. 415351

>>415329
I remember hearing a white teacher say that when a black student cut their arm badly she was surprised to see under their black skin was pink muscle, like this grown woman thought black people were 100% black inside their body too.

No. 415364

>>415351
Sounds like racism, like she thinks people with different skintones are a different species.

My dumb thing is when I was a kid I had a vague idea that before TV was in color, the whole world irl was in black and white too. It's not something I thought about much, like I was also not 100% on whether realistic puppets of humans were people or not in a certain tv show. I was basically aware I didn't know for sure. Being a kid is like being high on drugs all the time. (gender crit: This is why trans kids are not a thing! Reality and fiction are blurred with kids)

No. 415372

>>415329
Reminds me of my friend thinking that black guys have white penises since their palms and their soles can be pale.

No. 415373

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>>415334
Calvin must have been your Spirit Animal.

No. 415399

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i feel deregulated as shit lately. my body feels swollen and out of whack since my very recent menstrual cycle, can't sleep, went on a camping trip and got hammered multiple nights in a row, but I was feeling shitty before that, very bloated and very deregulated, loss of energy, I have no idea what's wrong with me and I've never had a cycle knock me this out of whack before. now that I've returned from my hangover hell I don't feel much better. why the fuck is my life like this

No. 415436

>>415364
That's pretty funny.
Personally I used to think that people in the TV could also see us and so there are certain things I wouldn't do in front of the TV like undressing myself to put my pajamas on or picking my nose.
Like you it wasn't something I thought about much, I just wasn't sure if they could see me or not so I was cautious.
I definitely agree that being a kid is like being high on drugs.

No. 415574

I posted some famous girl from Instagram to a thread because I thought it was funny, but now I feel guilty and wish I could delete the post.
I'm not cut out for this site

No. 415626

Since a young age, I have compulsively scratched scabs into my head. I also eat them.

I am an otherwise normal person. Attended college, have a good job & fiancé. I did talk about it lightly with my therapist but this is largely my best kept and most embarrassing secret. I don't know how to stop, either. Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night doing it.

No. 415627

I was watching a series on cults, where tan FLDS woman was interviewed. She was indirectly gaslighting children who were raped by their father, because he was the prophet and could do no wrong. FLDS live without connection to the outside world (such as internet and TV) because they believe that living in a strict manner will grant them a peaceful afterlife that there is no evidence for.

All I could think was, most people are like this to some degree, ignoring reality to perceive their own truths (I know I am guilty, but I find most people take this to the extreme). I am then reminded 80% of this America identifies with some belief in the Abrahamic God. A majority of the world follows Islam, similar to the cultishness of the LDS. A majority of the world is religious, and among the few atheists, are hard to find good ones, because they defend the religious, stating that it is a culture. As if this makes a difference. I feel like I'm surrounded by complete morons. We could fix climate change and improve the quality of life, but low IQ people are respawning at high rates and pushing their tribalism to every corner which affects politics and production. Not to mention, the high rate of birth defects that could be stopped by separating inbred communities, and controlling the population. I don't care what others say about "ethics," it's unethical to drag people into such a chaotic state. I wish the world's population could be cut down to less than a million, and that only those with superior genes would be allowed to exist in said society.

No. 415633

>>415626
same, anon. i've mostly managed to get rid of this habit by taking care of my scalp and keeping it moisturized, it's harder to scratch it if it's not dry.

No. 415696

>>415627
On the bright side there probably will be a massive population cull thanks to global warming.

No. 415697

>>415627
I mean, I don't think your concerns are wrong. To care about the distant future is absolutely a virtue. Just it might be that your conclusions are. There's ways to solve these issues that don't involve mass genocide. Like maybe look at what's driving the massive population increases within low-IQ populations. The historical norm was formerly for high IQ to have the most kids, and for low IQ people to have few to none so something has definitely shifted within the last few decades.

No. 415706

>>415697
Pretty much every child survives now thanks to healthcare, and it was more so a disparity between wealth and survival before not IQ. Wealthier children didn’t have to take part in manual labour, always had food available, clothing suitable for the weather, and some would also have access to education (didn’t do anything for their survival but it meant they had something to pass on other than lived experiences)

Poor people are still likely to have more children than someone wealthy, sex is a (mostly) free activity

No. 415853

For a couple years now, I've been feeling "an impending sense of doom" I think. It's the only way to describe it. It doesn't interfere with my life, but I feel like I'm going to be murdered or something. I know it's ridiculous so I ignore it. I haven't told anyone.

No. 415855

>>415697
True. I know so many educated, mentally stable, financially stable people who don't want to have kids, and so many poor, uneducated people from broken homes spawning litters of kids like crazy. I take it as the world's sign that we need to fuck off, but maybe I'm just negative.

No. 415868

>>415627
>We could fix climate change and improve the quality of life
>I wish the world's population could be cut down to less than a million
Are you joking? This would probably fix climate change, but it'd lower the quality of life for everyone.

No. 415884

>>415706
Samefag but I’d like to also point out that low functioning disabled children now survive well into adulthood when before they would have died soon after birth, so that would also have a big impact on the average IQ/EQ of the global population

No. 415972

I only don't kill myself because the people around me would be sad. Apart from that I have no desire to live anymore.
I hurt myself because it's the closest thing to death I can experience and I hate how pathetic and emo I've become! I sound like an edgy teen!

No. 415981

>>415972
People experience mental illness and self harm at all ages. Anyone who calls you childish for it is absolute garbage, lacks empathy, and doesn't understand hardship.

No. 416041

I finally left a toxic discord server I was a part of for months and months even if it meant giving up my pride in leaving it. I had friends there but chat was overwhelmingly filled with toxic people who treated others like shit rather than my friends and I decided that it wasn't worth interacting with those scumfucks lmao. Good riddance. Hopefully the main hypocrite bitch who's toxic to everyone there and literally tore the preceding server apart that everyone was a part of gets what's coming to her, she's nasty as hell.

No. 416045

>>416041
Unpopular opinion but 90% of people who are in Discord chats are toxic gross people

No. 416065

>>416045
eh you really have to find a server that's small but not too small and at least a few people who aren't shit

I met most of them through another site and we formed a discord community around being members of that site, and things were civil for awhile

then the server mod invited some random bitch he met in an online game and she was the main source of toxicity who made the entire server into her spergfest and went out of her way to harass users to the point where the server died and almost everyone split up into new servers when it disbanded, almost all of which she was not invited to except one server that was soon overrun with new toxic ppl who became sympathizers to bitchy girl, and a lack of moderation, somehow there were still ppl from the old server, albeit very few, who gave her second chances after that, they're fucking retarded for doing it.

she's some crazed drug dealer bitch irl who think she has it made because she used to be a foster kid and puts her poor poor pitiful me self on a pedestal, she's very irresponsible and petty… complained abt her problems a shitton, yet she was always a rude bitch who invalidated everyone else and expected them to somehow validate her back, she's honestly fucking crazed and I don't see why anyone ever let her back into any one of those split up circles because most people fuckin hated her. if she'd never been invited to the community server in the first place or been kicked out and been forced to stay out the first time she was kicked and the mods didn't let everything fall into shambles the server probably wouldn't have gone to shit, this is why you mod your fucking servers correctly.

I think it's very rare that u find servers that don't eventually become toxic due to infighting drama and bad moderation. larger servers are the worst bc the mods are often unwilling to deal with shit there, and small servers can fall prey to bad moderation as well, you really need wary modding and a willingness to reprimand and kick idiots if u want a fuckin civil server, saying that as someone who owns my own server

No. 416317

I had a dream that I was fucking Sam Hyde and now I’m just like “wtf.” Dude is a gross creep and I don’t even really follow his work. Reason why I’m confessing this is because it was kind of enjoyable and sex dreams for me are extraordinarily rare. I think this is the third one I’ve had ever.

No. 416345

I want Dan Schiedner to fuck me

No. 416347

>>416345
You probably wouldn’t qualify for getting banged by his stinky meat pole unless you’re under 16 years old. RIP your dream, anon.

No. 416360

>>416045
Discord is absolutely cancerous

No. 416361

>>416360
Thank you. I think it might be making people worse.

No. 416362

I love to shit on anachans but I've relapsed recently and honestly love it.

No. 416404

>>411070

Just wanted to say I really needed this even though it's 14 days late. I'm engaged and am having fantasies about a guy friend. I keep telling myself "he would text you more if he liked you like you like him" and it's kinda keeping me sane but when I see him it's all heart eye emojis and trying not to flirt. Sigh. I feel like I'm back in middle school.

No. 416412

415627 I m not religious but I believe in the Father of all things, his son and his holly spirit of love,I have higher than average iq (130) I think religion îs a worlwide cult(including Christian denominations) that actually drive you away from true faith.
Please don t generalize.
Also the bible(even though messed with by translation) holds fundamental truths if you are a believer and your eyes are opened.
The problematic verses from the old Testament were just traditions of ancient jews, spoilers, the majority of them were not perfect but far away from that.

No. 416413

>>416412
Couldn’t put some of that supposedly IQ to use to fix up your grammar lmao

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No. 416425

>>416412
>thinking IQ means shit these days

Everyone and their grandma say they have “higher than average intelligence”. Every person I’ve seen brag about how smart they are end up being the biggest idiots.

No. 416472

416413 I m a foreigner… So sorry for the bad grammar at a language I learned by myself

No. 416473

416425 There was already a conversation going about iq on here, I didn t "brag". 130 îs not even that high…and for the record it was an official test I got în highschool(my country does that), I didn t take it on google to use it în arguments.
I don t care about iq, I care about kindness, generalizing that the majority of people Who have faith are stupid and comparing them to crazy cult people is not right..

No. 416475

i finally got into the financial place where i could some dental work done. had some cavities and a broken off tooth, but no pain.
and now i am in pain constantly, my teeth just hurt the fuck out of me, and im out of a lot of money. i know its probably better for me in the long run, but fuck, i wish i had kept my money and non-hurting teeth instead.

No. 416480

>>416475
Did you get your cavities filled with composite? These fillings tend to hurt for a couple of weeks because they use some pretty aggressive stuff in the adhesive.

No. 416528

The only thing stopping me of killing myself is knowing I'd break my grandmother's heart.

No. 416529

>>416472
>>416473
A lot of people here are ESL and please learn how to properly quote a post…

No. 416534

>>415626
Oh god me too. But I also eat other peoples scabs (only from the scalp). I have always scratched my families head and I would hide them and eat them too. What the fuck is wrong with me

No. 416556

I'm a straight woman, but I've had intense sexual fantasies for YEARS about being a man who gets passed around and anally raped by a group of men. Not even necessarily a prison type sitch, but more so like a frat house deal. Like being drugged or forced to drink to excess. It's gotten to the point I can only get off if I watch men being raped by other men, especially if the porno itself is shot in a way that's believable. I have no interest towards anal sex in reality, so why am I into this this intensely?

No. 416560

this is onision related but i didnt wanna put it in the main thread bc blogposting.

knowing onision has a daughter makes me feel so ill. my father was a pedophile, although he never actually molested me, it was pretty clear to myself and my sibling that he was, just from the way he treated our female friends and the way he looked at young girls.
growing up around him has fucked me up to the point i'm not sure i'd even be able to trust my husband if we had a daughter. my father would constantly walk in on me showering to the point i would go days without cleaning myself because i had to wait until he was out at work (he worked part time) to feel safe, he would walk in on me changing, he would ask me uncomfortable questions about my friends, he would ask me what sex acts i'd done with my then boyfriend under the guise of being a 'concerned father'. luckily he ended up getting arrested for cp and i haven't heard from him since.

i have no doubt onision would repeat this behaviour with his own daughter and i'm terrified for her.

No. 416576

I masturbate to this one girl's IG pictures. I absolutely fucking hate her.

No. 416577

>>416556
Because you keep feeding it by watching porn.

No. 416581

i have a hate-watching compulsion. throughout the day, i look up girls' social media. some i'm secretly jealous of, some who likely have worse lives than me.

this manifested in me finding a girl's instagram from the airport. she aggressively tried to cut in front of me at tsa, and i said i thought i was there before her. she mumbled "go" and i caught a glimpse of her boarding pass once we got through.

probably sounds about right for someone on lolcow, but that's my confession. is that way too crazy?

No. 416582

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>>416534
anon stop inoculating yourself with ppls germs like that. ew

No. 416591

>>416581
i do the same with my ex, for an example i cannot stop checking all her social medias to see if she's talking about me or copying me even though i hate her guts so much.
back to topic: it's unhealthy behavior at its finest but i don't really think it's that crazy. people do worse stuff

No. 416608

i tried one of those monster energy drinks because i need to stay awake to study, and its absolutely disgusting. it tastes like the medicine i had to take when i had an infection when i was 5 that i always ended up throwing up.

No. 416617

>>416608
Just the thought of energy drinks makes me feel sick. Partly because I exclusively drank it as a mixer when I was young and associate it with alcohol, partly because every time I've seen/spoken to someone who drinks it regularly they are gross about it. Like drinking it early in the morning, or drinking it instead of water, or drinking multiple cans a day. I don't even find the taste that bad, there's just something about energy drinks that is instinctively repulsive to me.

No. 416636

I eat my boogers and have been doing so since I was a toddler. I’ve tried to stop several times in my life and also had the help of family as a child (using “brute force”) but I couldn’t stop.

Sometimes I would eat my scabs once they were healed but sometimes I would eat them fresh which can be painful, I also lick the blood once they’re open to consumption. I forgot to mention that I also eat the scabs on my head.

I tend to chew my fingernails and toenails a lot too, though I don’t eat them and have recently taken up eating the dead skin off my soles of my bottom feet.

I don’t know what is wrong with me and why I like eating this shit but lately I haven’t made an effort to stop. I have a feeling this might be the “pica” I’m experiencing due to anemia.

No. 416638

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I like this type of aesthetic in anime characters (mostly when the story is about battling and going on adventures). I wish the sexualization and sexism were erased, though.
The more tryhard the design is, the more I like it, lol.

No. 416651

>>416638
Do you mean the sexualization coming from the fans because of how she's designed? I personally don't care about a character's design, I focus more on how unfairly sexualized they are by other characters, but the design is nothing to me. I love her ridiculously long hair, like that'll definitely get wrapped up and torn out during a real fight, but in an anime/video game, it's POSSIBLE.

No. 416653

>>416651
>Do you mean the sexualization coming from the fans because of how she's designed?
I mean, and also the sexualization coming from the ballon tits the illustrator gave her…

No. 416654

Am I cursed or something? 2 days before I go to my family's easter party there was a shooting. I needed an extension on an assignment? My teachers grandparents died. I'm going to the beach in 2 days and woop dee do a beach shooting, not at the beach I'm going to. I know it's my mind making up connections, but I feel like a bastion of death right now.

No. 416664

I accidentally killed a blue jay with my car. Just flew right into it, with a loud thunk. Saw it's body get flung off to the other side of the road. I feel bad. Blue Jays are such pretty birds. I hope it died instantly. Sorry little guy. RIP

No. 416669

>>416581
It's not rare and it's not crazy. Enjoy the misery of others/the joy of hatred. Just don't do something that directly harms them or don't take it too far. You're fine spectating and getting a kick out of their shitty social media.

No. 416675

>>416651
how can you not focus on the design of the character? it's one thing just being big breasted but she's not wearing any clothes…

No. 416686

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I've been so lonely I've been reading erotic RLM fanfic.


i want 2 dead

No. 416701

The emotional bond between me and my partner is so strong that we're getting into "disgusting" stuff but in a truly non-disgusting way that's somehow completely innocent and kind. It's completely wholesome and I really love it. The concepts don't turn me on themselves and he has never been into them, but the increasing intimacy and breaking down of boundaries and knowing the intimacy turns him on that much is just so hot.

I still feel like a degenerate and feel embarrassed tho.

No. 416702

>>416701
Did you piss on him or smth?

No. 416716

>>416702
>>416701
I'm gonna bet on period sex

No. 416719

>>416716
Nah, he finally ate anon out

No. 416725

>>416719
My guess is hand holding, the most degenerate of all activities

No. 416727

>>416701
My partner always farts next to me, but for some reason I don’t find this "increasing intimacy and breaking down of boundaries" so hot.

No. 416728

>>416473

>>416425 Here
I’ll just assume it’s a misunderstanding since your English isn’t great. The way you worded it came off as bragging. IQ does not measure intelligence that well which is why I said it.
As for the religion thing I don’t have anything to say about lol

No. 416731

>>416727
well duh it's not gonna be hot unless there's a blanket covering you both ala dutch oven

No. 416757

I started reading smutty fanfiction when I was 12 and even wrote some. And yes, they were godawful.

No. 416806

>>416725
Autism.

No. 416821

As a lesbian, I've always avoided Chick-fil-a. I don't like their anti-lgbt stances and donations to anti-lgbt organizations, so I just don't spend my money there. It's just a quiet, personal boycott. But I won't lie that I've always been curious about their food since people constantly rave on about just how fucking great it tastes.

The other day we got coupons in the mail for free food at Chick-fil-a and my stupid ass went and used one to try a sandwich. I know it's just a small thing, and I didn't even pay for it since it was for a free sandwich, but part of me just feels bad. I feel like I've betrayed a part of myself. It's stupid.

(Also, it's not like I wanted to hate the food but I thought it was pretty subpar. At least I've killed that curiosity now)

No. 416825

>>416821
Oh same, I was curious about the Chick Fil A hype and whatever I had was soggy. Never going back there again. The one I went to had gay employees so I just told myself I'm helping them from being sent home early. A lot of other places do donate to anti-gay organizations, I know Wendy's does it too but honestly I just tell myself I'm helping the employees get paid.

No. 416827

I have nowhere else to talk about this but I'm the girl who's engaged but having major crush issues on a friend. This morning I went to talk to him and he said he's been talking to this girl for like a month and showed me pictures of them and I was. So. Relieved. But then we kept talking and the conversation turned into one of those deep 4am conversations and we both went into some things that lend to our PTSD and stuff. We also kinda talked about how we're unhappy in our relationships and all that. It was a really good conversation and it kind of reinforced that I think he's a great friend but it gave me all these mixed feelings. I should probably push those down and keep strengthening our friendship. I don't even know if he's flirting with me cause it seems like he is but also not. I am so drawn to him as a person. I don't know what to do.

No. 416828

>>416827
Break off your engagement

No. 416830

>>416828
Easier said than done. If I had my choice I'd take the dog and leave him the house and call it a day. Everything we do is intertwined and I know I have a track record for being impulsive and dropping people too quickly. So I guess I'm trying to see if it'll change and go back to how we were. Had issues before the crush but this definitely doesn't help it.

No. 416834

>>416830
Yeah how old are you? Liking someone else isn’t a good sign

No. 416849

>>416825
>>416821

From my experience Chick Fil A treats their employees very well compared to other fast food restaurants and pays them better wages (at least in my area). I know that in my area employees can have their education paid for, not sure if that's company wide or just something the franchise owner does. Their employees definitely seem less miserable than at places like McDonalds where the employees act personally offended by your presence. The franchises are often actively involved in helping local communities, too - I remember after the gay nightclub shooting in Orlando they opened on a Sunday and provided food for people waiting in line to donate blood. I think that, in the grand scheme of things, Chick Fil A is a better choice than a lot of fast food restaurants because they treat their employees better.

You would be hard pressed to not interact with a company on any given day that does not support anti-LGBT organizations in some way. For example, AT&T, Google, Fed Ex, UPS, and Target all have partnerships with the Salvation Army, which has a long history of discriminating against LGBT. Not saying it's dumb to not go to CFA because of personal beliefs, especially since you don't like their food, but I don't think it's something to feel guilty about!

No. 416856

>>416849
>Salvation Army

what… That's like the only donation my family has supported for years.

Now I feel bad

No. 416882

>>416821
As another lesbian, I love chick fil and will continue to eat there until I get stoned at the door

No. 416884

>>416856
Me too, anon, they used to do donations outside my old workplace and I had no idea about their homophobic and evangelist leanings.

No. 416949

>>416636
Not that it'll interest anyone except the terminally pedantic like myself, but this is more dermatillomania (skin-picking) and dermophagia (skin-eating) than pica. I do all of these behaviours, especially with scabs, but it's my compulsion to eat paper that is more properly termed "pica".

Ask me about my favourite flavours of notebook paper.

No. 416965

>>416675
It honestly doesn't bother me because the rest of her design is really balanced. Her big sword, flowy hair, and boot cuffs take away that distraction. Also the fact the lighting makes her skin blend in with some of the white out of outfit. The coloring is well done.
IDK maybe I'm that desensitized from anime character designs, but I can clearly point out disgusting lolishit.

No. 417008

>>416949

ur so quirky!

No. 417336

It's hard for me to not be a handmaiden that compulsively white knight for scrotes when I love my dad and boyfriend.

No. 417354

>>417336
Why? You have to realize that you like them because, if they're good, they're uncommon in society. Society encourages sociopathy in males. This is obvious to anyone with eyeballs. I don't get people that have to compulsively defend groups of people over a (true) stereotype all because they know one or two people who allegedly defy it.

No. 417356

>>417354
I dunno, it's just an impulse. When someone says "men" what I hear is "all men", and then I need to focus hard on not losing my temper.

No. 417363

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>>417336
>tfw this is how I thought of my stepdad up until a month ago when he confessed to cheating on my mom with a woman who's close to my age

Not trying to imply anything, I just hurt that another part of my innocence and faith in some men was lost again.

No. 417373

>>417363
I'm sorry to hear that, anon. She deserves a better husband, and you a better male role model.

No. 417374

>>417336
Same except it's because I do most of the shit that men get criticised for on here so I get the urge to reply "that's not that bad" or "women do that too" but catch myself that no I'm just deranged.

No. 417385

>>417356
>When someone says "men" what I hear is "all men", and then I need to focus hard on not losing my temper.
Lol, no offense, but this level of caping, like, even if you don't act on it, is pitiable bc nearly 0 men would feel the urge to cape for you, kek. Like, you need to get anger management or learn to prioritize your emotions because they overwhelmingly prove to be shit and women are justified in saying and feeling the things they say and feel. Even if they say "all men", like… who cares? Take a xanny, anon.

No. 417407

>>416949
Eating ice would be my pica then, not sure about the boogers

No. 417482


No. 417489

>>417407

you're anemic

No. 417522

As much as I don't like Halsey, she's ridiculously hot in her new(ish) music video.
Like, more than she has the right to be. I don't even like the song, I feel like I'm being baited.

No. 417525

>>417522
Wow, what a cringy music video.

No. 417532

>>417525
Different strokes, I guess. I liked the black and white scenes and the suits.

No. 417548

I don't like the ""new"" pride flag some people are trying to push on others, the o e with the black and brown stripes.

No. 417554

>>417548
why did they feel the need to change the old flag anyway?

No. 417557

>>417554
To be more inclusive to poc

Nothing wrong with that, but it's kind of dumb, poc were already included.

No. 417580

>>417548
Went to go check it out and of course it was created by a white guy as a money grab, the majority of the backers are from the US/Canada and anyone who isn't is from a white af Europen country (meaning actually "POCs" probably don't give a flying fuck). Wow hastag woke.

No. 417581

>>417580
HA that's fucking hilarious. i knew no fucking non-white person had to complain about the LGBT flag not being inclusive enough for non-whites, at least in the first place. what's with these people making assumptions about our feelings? are they the same retards who think "If you are homophobic that also means you're RACIST because LGBT rights were saved by black lesbians!" people gotta stop falling for these stupid narratives about POC not even created by POC.

No. 417582

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even tho my ex from 2 years ago treated me like shit and accused me of cheating and flirting with people 24/7 (despite me only talking to my normal friends and no one else) i still kinda miss her and looking at her selfies never fails to make my heart skip a beat.
i already know i shouldn't be feeling this, i've been in a relationship longer than a year now, but i seriously can't help it. i already feel extremely guilty by just writing this.
i sometimes completely forget about her, but then there are days i do nothing but think about her and wonder what she's doing and who she's making miserable this time and then i think about all the things i could've done to prevent our break up and why i hadn't done any of that. i really miss her when she wasn't such an abusive asshole to deal with, we got along really well despite all that drama and hard times we've been through.
but we ended on really bad terms and she dragged my name through mud and dirt, making me out to be the abusive one and turning so many people against me, and now she's out there, living her best life and being pretty and having a big following on her instagram (she literally looks like those random edgy e-girls you see everywhere) and i am stuck with an overly sensitive boyfriend in an apartment who wants me to take care of himself when i cannot even take care of myself and throws a fit when i do not pay attention to him.

No. 417583

>>416849
That's actually really cool and great that they treat their employees well! I noticed that they closed all their stores on Sunday so people could have a day off (and worship if they wanted) which I think is nice. A lot of the Chick-fil-a workers at mine were young students, and I can't knock them down for at least just earning an honest wage. You're completely right about having a hard time not interacting with companies that support anti-lgbt organizations in one form or another (I didn't know all those companies had partnerships with the Salvation Army!).

In the grand scheme of things, as long as I'm not personally handing my money straight to the bigots themselves, there isn't much I can do, I guess. Thank you for that anon, I feel better! I won't be going back just because it wasn't my favorite, but it's nice to know everyone's a little guilty of indirectly supporting causes they don't believe in, buying chick-fil-a or not.

No. 417587

I just recently moved to a new area not too far from where I used to live, and there are so many fucking churches everywhere it makes me a bit uncomfortable. I'm used to living in areas with a lot of churches, but this place has so many it's insane! I feel this is what living in the Bible Belt must feel like lol. Even my dad who is religious found it weird.

No. 417591

id never admit to this irl to anyone and im drunk rn so
i sympathize with cheaters. i have problems with lust and i always have but id never tell any friends or my boyfriend that i secretly understand why people cheat. i will end up cheating i think.

cheaters have a complex where they want more attention and affection than they deserve. and so i know im gonna cheat on my bf one day because i crave male attention really badly and know guys that want me and i want to have fun with them sometimes. is it wrong? absolutely. but do cheaters do it anyway? hell yes.

i deserve to die alone probably

No. 417600

>>417591
>i deserve to die alone probably
You got that right. Your poor boyfriend.

No. 417601

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>>417600
damn ok understandable

No. 417602

>>417591
Cheaters should be fucking hanged at public squares.

No. 417605

>>417602
fair enough anon.
is the tendency to cheat just inherent in some people? or can it be avoided, like something a lot of people just have to choose to do?
i dont really know how to fix myself.

No. 417623

>>417605
It's called impulse control. Get therapy.

No. 417635

I'm a terrible person and I hate my my mother, am jealous of my best friend's happy life, and I resent my boyfriend for being submissive even though he tries his best to make me happy. I only keep contact with them because being alone is worse than being around them.

No. 417661

>>417635
>being alone is worse than being with them

Being alone isn't bad at all compared to torturing yourself with people you can't stand.

No. 417665

>>417591
that's awful and i hope you feel bad. why not just break up with him?

No. 417672

>>417635
ill take your submissive bf from you. you're lucky

No. 417678

>>417602
lmaoo what

I actually dont see cheating as such a huge problem. Like yea, I would be mad and feel betrayed and would probably break up but its so low on the list of things your partner can do to hurt you. Idk, I really just dont care about it that much.

Also before someone accuse me of it, no, I never cheated on anyone and I hate poly couples.

No. 417684

>>417635
>submissive bf
Yuck, the worst shit ever romantically AND in bed. I'm sorry anon.

No. 417686

>>417665
i still love him and no one would put up with me the way he does…

i love him, but i would have much more excitement if i fucked around with guys i fantasize about and would never, ever date seriously.

my bf is the kind of guy my parents are happy for me to be with. but i feel like there's no passion sometimes. when i try talking to him about it he reassures me that we're good at he just doesn't show emotions a lot.

i just want fun with other guys sometimes but im too scared to approach men anyway so who knows if i'll ever even cheat. i know it's bad but cheaters cheat because we're attention loving.

No. 417720

>>417591
No judgement, just a question: If that's the sort of person you are then why live a lie by playing the role of the monogamous girlfriend at all? Letting him off the hook before you actually cross that line will not only free you up to suck up all the cock and male attention you crave, it will also free him up to find a woman that's better suited for him.

I mean, if the shoe were on the other foot you'd want to know that too, right? You'd think a boyfriend that told you early on he was thinking of other women and fighting the urge to cheat was infinitely preferable to waking up one day with some other skank's STD.

No. 417739

>>417678
Whether it's a rational hatred or not it's still one that's pretty much hardwired into us.
When a man cheats on a woman, and gets another pregnant he's obliged to split his resources, which can lead to gene death.
When a woman cheats on a man, and gets pregnant to another, he misses out on his own, which can lead to gene death.
None of us alive want to be cheated on. We're all descended from those were able to guard their mates. Some of us might also want to cheat ourselves, and in the past that strategy could have made us slightly more and slightly healthier kids. Thing is though, the tribes where they developed reciprocal ethics, and where cheating was more looked down on as a whole would have developed higher trust and done better on the whole. This would have eventually lead to where we are now, with most people finding it utterly contemptible, almost worse than even murder, and just a few other opportunistic parasites existing on the periphery. Coz I also guess the less that cheating is suspected the easier it is to get away it.

None of this has any data to back it all up of course. It's speculative anthropology that I just like as a matter of faith.

No. 417802

>>417739
I don't really care about monogamy beyond practical concerns like stds and such so when people like that worry about cheating my first idea is "just ask your partner if they'll let you?" but then I remember most people go mental at the thought of their partner fucking someone else.

No. 417838

>>417684
Not to shill femdom or anything but the few submissive guys I've been with are usually pretty good at oral.

No. 417867

>>417591
I am absolutely judging you, you shouldn't even be in a monogamous relationship if you can't commit. Just be single and fuck a bunch of dudes or get in a poly relationship, all you're doing is possibly ruining one of the few good monogamous men out there for the rest of us.

No. 417868

Ever since I started dating my boyfriend I've developed a much bigger interest in Asian men, to the point where I can actually look at some kpop stars or guys on the street and think "wow they're really cute". Idk if this is a fetish or not? I've never dated a (half) Asian man and this probably sounds retarded but I feel a bit guilty now for paying more attention to them than in previous years.

No. 417869

>>417867
NTA, but I don't really understand why cheating is considered as bad as it is. I myself have no desire to cheat and am in a monogamous relationship but my reasoning is that it's possible to separate sex from emotion. Men are inherently sexual deviants. If my partner cheated on me sexually but was still unchanged emotionally and financially etc and apologized legitimately, I feel like I would forgive him and we could work things through. But maybe that's just handmaiden brain speaking.

No. 417874

>>417591
Why can't you just be open about who you are? Find another insecure person who needs a lot of attention like you and be non monogamous together.

No. 417877

>>417869
Because it's a conscious decision to go behind your partners back, lie and disrespect them?

Men are capable to keep thier dick in their pants, it's really not that hard. Literally anyone that can't keep their dick in their pants or legs together just shouldn't be in a relationship, it's really that simple.

No. 417878

>>417869
I agree to a certain extent. I wouldn't leave my husband for cheating on me unless it was a frequent occurence or resulted in a baby. Likewise, my husband applies the same rules to me. It doesn't mean we're free to cheat on each other, it would still be a huge deal and really hurt the other if we did. However, being more lienient about it causes a lot less anxiety around the possibility as well as more confidence the other will actually admit to it. I couldn't imagine being one of those girls that's in constant fear her SO is gonna cheat.

No. 417879

>>417869
It's about honoring commitments. If you make a commitment to someone to be in a monogamous relationship, to cheat is to betray that person's trust and loyalty. For the record, I don't think cheating is as bad as most people make it out to be and there are definitely much worse things that can happen in a relationship, but it's still a deal breaker for me. If I had a partner who cheated on me I know I wouldn't be able to see him the same way, and I don't want to be in a relationship with someone who I don't respect as a person.

>maybe that's just handmaiden brain speaking.

Yeah, it is. Do you honestly believe a man would do the same for you?

No. 417880

>>417877
>Literally anyone that can't keep their dick in their pants or legs together just shouldn't be in a relationship, it's really that simple.
Or maybe they should just avoid being with people who have a zero tolerance policy for cheating? Not everyone considers the ocassional fuck up to be dealbreaker worthy.

No. 417881

>>417880
>ocassional fuck up

How is cheating a fuck up? You have to make a bunch of deliberate choices before ending up cheating on someone. People don't just fall over and mistakenly end up ball deep into their coworker's vagina.

No. 417883

>>417879
I guess it stems from me not seeing sex as a huge deal. Like is sex his commitment to me or is it his time and emotional support? I consider him as a life partner and not necessarily a sexual one, though we do have sex. I do understand that most of the time, cheating comes with emotional baggage and shifty shit but just the sex alone doesn't seem like a breach of commitment to me. Just cheating alone wouldn't bother me, he'd have to neglect me in some other way.
I know that sounds ridiculous but it's just how I see things. God, I should go reevaluate my self-worth.

No. 417884

>>417881
"Fuck up" can mean "bad decision", anon. Literal accidents are not the only context it's used in.

No. 417885

>>417883
I don't think you really need to reevaluate your self-worth for having that stance. People have different boundaries and things they're willing to forgive and there's nothing wrong with that.

No. 417887

>>417883
Why would you want to be with someone who respect you so little he would let himself develop feelings for someone else and go behind your back to fuck that person.

No. 417888

>>417884
nta, but as the anon said, it's a bunch of choices, so I guess it should be "fuck ups", which again, doesn't make it better.

No. 417910

>>417883
Yeah, but the buildup to sex usually includes those other things you mentioned. Unless the person is going out, getting hammered and going home with someone they met at a bar, there's no good reason to wind up in a stranger's bed. Usually they're talking to someone at work, engaging with them behind the scenes… sex doesn't just "HAPPEN", and if it does, that's a warning sign in its own right.

No. 417925

>>417910
I feel as though a lot of people are able to separate sex from emotion, because how else would prostitutes, one-night stands etc exist. I understand your point though, I'd probably think less of my partner if he told me he fucked a prostitute randomly or had a one-off drunken affair.

No. 417948

>>417867
u cant have my good monogamous bf anon, sorry

No. 417949

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I feel guilty and ashamed for this, because it essentially means that I have the mind of a gold-digging bimbo, but I think I would be the happiest if I was just filthy rich.

I was a very good student, very motivated and hopeful for the future, I consider myself a feminist, I always wanted to be childless, independent and sucessful, but lately I just wish I was hot enough to get a rich husband (or be born rich). I don't have any desire to work, I just want to have fun and spend money mindlessly.

Today I read that Jia from Miss A (a kpop idol) is dating this singaporean multimillionaire and god I'm so jealous lol He's young and good looking too.
I always get this surge of envy when I see that some model bags a rich guy, I want that too…

No. 417953

>>417949
Sometimes I'm really exhausted cleaning up after my family every single day and I wish I was a rich jerk who just told a maid what to do all day. It would feel like god's compensation for basically owning the two children that are my mother and brother.

Also a mcmansion with space. Ugh.

No. 417960

>>417887
Nta and I probably wouldnt stay with my partner if they cheated on me but I don't think cheating is such a huge disrespect. I think that if, for instance, your partner is a huge child who is just looking for a mommy in the relationship and lets you do all the housework (or worse : expects you to do all the housework) or who is actively leeching off your money or who constantly demeans your interests and think of themselves as so much better than you etc… those are all wayyy worse disrespects than cheating in my book but they're viewed as much more acceptable by society.

I know so many women who get emotionally abused by their husbands or who are killing themselves at work while their husbands watch tv while drinking beer all day or who gamble away their common money or are violent in bed (not talking about "consensual kink") and they just endure it but if their husband cheated that would be a dealbreaker.

No. 417962

>>417949
>>417953

Idk why it's so taboo to say that you'd be happier if you were rich. I know there's the whole "money =/= happiness" thing but financial security goes a long way . Like who would rather be poor lmao

No. 417968

>>417962
It's not just financial security though. I wish I was rich enough to fly around the world and spend my day eating at fancy places and posting questionable brand outfits to instagram.

No. 417975

I fucking hate my ex because he's going to become a doctor and he's a stupid misogynistic shit that has no idea how medicine works but he's studying a shitty med school in eastern europe because his parents have a lot of money and are very influencial. He's literally at the shittiest med school in the country and even the best one is shit according to international standards but his parents still had to pay to get him in. I wish I could be a doctor, I have a lot of medical knowledge because I literally spent my teenage years with extreme health anxiety and I also know a lot about psychiatry and would like to help those that are truly suffering

No. 417977

>>417962
The only people who would rather be poor were never poor to begin with.

But some people just want for too much and find temporary pleasure in material things and it's a miserable rat race, this I do agree with.

No. 417992

>>417977
people here are not anti-poor, they are just materialistic and lazy. Like why the fuck do you need a bunch of outfits and stay on IG all day long?

No. 417996

>>417802
Well yeah. I only ever want to be with my boyfriend, and only ever want him to be with me as well.

No. 418008

>>417885
Yeah, some people are fine with being flagrantly disrespected by their partners, but there's no point in sugarcoating it. Might as well call a spade a spade.

No. 418180

>>417869
TBH men cheat for the exact same emotionally insecure reasons women do which is why they leave for the other woman or keep doing it over and over again.

No. 418182

>>417878
That's really sad.

No. 418197

>>418180
Ha, nice try in attempting to humanize those demons. Rarely is that actually the case. Men are just impulsive, pathetic retards that think they should be entitled to a harem.

No. 418215

>>418197
I know this is meant to be an empowering thing for you to say but it's the opposite since most women who think like that end up like who I'm replying to, putting up with it because she thinks its inevitable and never learns how to avoid those types of men. And it's not even an epic insult on cheating men either, that's what those men tell themselves, it's just male nature, as an excuse to avoid the reality that they're needy sad broken people. Maybe you think I'm excusing that behavoir by comparing it to why women cheat. I'm not, they're also dysfunctional losers avoiding their problems.

No. 418219

>>418215
Wow, you literally just made up a whole bunch of shit I never said. I never said it was impossible for them to stop, nor did I say it was an inborn trait and I definitely didn't say it was inevitable. I said they're impulsive and pathetic, and feel entitled to a harem. Never said anything about it being biologically determined or fixed. It is empowering to distance yourself from men, and that's the best thing to do, should you think it's inevitable, but I never said that, either. You're absolutely excusing them by trying to compare them to women, who genuinely have a hard time being in relationships in society because they're treated as disposable and they're frequently disrespected by men. It's nowhere near the same thing and their motivations are generally not at all the same.

No. 418268

>>417868
No, I don’t think it’s fetishizing- if anything it’s quite sweet. You like HIM so much, you find yourself attracted to people who even look somewhat like him.

Similar things have happened with me on both ends. I’m half black, and my boyfriend found himself noticing black girls way way more than he used to. Same happened when I fell for an Indian guy, I began noticing them more.

No. 418303

>>417868
I'm the same way anon. My boyfriend is an asian guy and since I've started dating him, I find myself staring at anyone who looks like him. No one else is even remotely attractive. I even tried to watch porn a few nights ago and looked for cute asian male pornstars(turns out, there aren't many of those).

No. 418311

I love my dog so, so much. She's my entire world, the light of my life, the apple of my eye.

But holy fucking shit there are so many days where she just annoys the fuck out of me. We've had her since she was 2 months old, for 15 years now. Every morning my parents (and then later me, when I became an adult and came home from college) walk her at 9 in the morning. Every morning. That's our routine. But fuck routine, right? This fucking little asshole wakes up at 7, sometimes 6, sometimes even 5 in the fucking morning! It's been 15 years! You know what time you're walked!

When I quit my job and was in job hunting limbo, I would wake up at 7. Fine, it's around the time my dog wakes up at for some fucking reason, should solve the problem since I can walk and feed her at the time she wants. Well get fucked me, because once she realized this, she woke up consistently EVEN EARLIER!! AT 6 IN THE MORNING!! My family fed her one meal a day, all of her calories at once. She's old and lazy, so she doesn't really use up that much energy in a day. We figured maybe we'll split her one meal into two, and she'll wake up a bit later since she won't be so hungry. Nope. Asshole still wakes up early.

I love her so, so much. I really, truly do. I spend so much time cuddling her, and she loves to come and sit near me and underneath my legs. But holy fucking shit she pisses me off when she keeps waking up so damn early. I have these horrible thoughts of kicking her (and she's a small dog, maybe about 8lbs) and it would obviously send her flying, but my head plays out the scene and she yelps and cries, then would obviously run off with her tail down and fear in her eyes and it makes me want to fucking cry because I love her so much and would never want to hurt her or break her trust. Sometimes when we cuddle, she stares up at me and I look into her eyes and see her cute face, and I want to cry over thinking that I would want to hurt her.

Recently she's been very quiet, not barking in the mornings and not having a lot of zoomies and I thought the calmness was nice. Turns out she's been having an upset tummy and that's why she's so calm, we switched her food and she's back to her normal, annoying self. I feel awful that I was appreciating her calmness because it came at the cost of her feeling sick and uncomfortable.

I feel awful for having mean thoughts or getting so frustrated at her- she's a dog, she doesn't know what's going on. It's only the morning time too. She has so much energy in the morning but she gets it all out in the morning time and the rest of the day is chill and full of cuddles and a little playtime.

No. 418314

>>418311
Lol dog people.

No. 418330

>>418311
she's a dog. you have to instill a hierarchy and routine. my dog has no problem waking up just in time for his morning walk, or staying quiet until then because we treat him like a dog and not a baby.

No. 418333

>>418330
Since I got a job again, I wake up at 6am and walk/feed/play with her then and it's a bit easier since this is the time she wants to wake up at, but she still barks sometimes.

I used to work retail so my schedule was never consistent, so obviously it was rough on her, but I've started working on trying to be consistent with her.

No. 418334

>>418311
She's an old lady. 15 is quite old for a dog. It doesn't matter if you walk her at nine, she is waking up early because she has to go. Older dogs pee more.

And just like old humans she's getting energy spikes in the morning after rest. Irregardless of the mammal there's something about being old and restless.

No. 418338

>>418334
I'm trying to appreciate the morning zoomies since I don't know how much longer it'll be a part of my life.

She does do that thing where she won't go to the bathroom and just wants to sniff around when we go outside, but whatever she wants, I guess.

No. 418569

Although black myself, I don’t find myself dating or really attracted to black men. I’ve been trying to figure out why, because I don’t think I am self-hating.


I’ve been incredibly boy-crazy since elementary school, for any and every cute guy. Being a weird nerdy black girl wasn’t an aesthetic yet, and black guys definitely rejected and shunned me up until college. I feel as if they conditioned me to not be interested?

Additionally there’s the entire ordeal of black men of status getting the white women as a “prize,” making black women feel inferior. I’m attracted to being wanted, so any hint of disinterest from someone, in disinterested as fuck too. On top of that, black and Hispanic men generally seem to have a culture of being waited on and mommy-ed more, something I wholly object to.

I’m curious to hear thoughts?

No. 418570

>>418569
>On top of that, black and Hispanic men generally seem to have a culture of being waited on and mommy-ed more, something I wholly object to.

Idk about this. Every white dude I've been with has arguably been worse than POC in terms of needing to be mommied and guided around like a lost sheep. I'm half-black and don't find black men attractive either though, so dunno.

No. 418572

>>418569
It may be the psychological reasons you stated, especially if you've been attracted to them in the past ("any and every cute guy").
I developed similar feelings for white men. I'm half-Native (and not very white passing, most assume I'm mixed Latina/half-SEA) and developed some complex where I believe a white man would see me as a lesser being. I've seen the term "conquered pussy" used in raceplay fetish discussion and it scares me shitless.
So I just don't find white guys sexually attractive at all now. I think that sort of thing can definitely affect sexuality, especially in formative years.

No. 418575

>>418569
Hate to break it to you but every man regardless of race/ethnicity comes from a culture where they’re pampered their entire lives by their mums and end up being helpless, even households with non traditional roles

No. 418577

>>418569
I mean, yeah, probably black men rejecting you in your formative years influenced you to feel disinterested from them.. but here's the thing.

You mention there's a lot of black men who want white women as a prize, and while this is a huge problem, a lot of black men choose to fetishize light skinned black women/mulatto women/latina women first before they choose to do it with a white woman. Social media and IG, and music videos, ect, will show you that. Secondly, men of other races, like Latinos, Arabs, and god especially Indians, and other South Asians, fetishize white women and see them as prizes at a far higher rate than black men do. Black people, out of all the non-white groups, tend to have the most racial pride and least colorstruck tendencies.

Thirdly, believe it or not, despite what also autistic non blacks like to push as well, is that black men mostly prefer black women, than other races of men do. Black men never stopped being attracted to black women. Many non AA black men appreciate Afrocentric features and natural hair more too. Still, there's plenty of AA black men who love black women.

I had the same experience with black guys growing up and I think intraracial tension will always be worse than interracial tension due to familiarity and promixiation. If you were a white girl you'd likely find white guys assholes too

No. 418578

>>418570
>>418575
That’s a fair point; I guess all men are wanting bang-maids, just in different capacities (ugh).

When I tell people I’m a career woman with no ability to cook and suck at domestic stuff, the POC guys are the ones typically pitching a fit. I feel like white men want more emotional labor and ass-wiping, if that makes sense.

Also I think >>418577 maybe really hit the nail on the head- if I were white, id probably be fucking sick of white dudes and their bullshit, haha. Really thoughtful comments. I definitely think the “white woman prize” shit is overblown, and you’re right about the light-skinned thing too. Don’t even get me started on the toxic shit that is colorism. I’m very light myself, and I am absolutely disgusted when someone says I got “good hair” or the babies would be “pretty”. Absolutely disgusts me.


>>418572
Fuck anon, so strange we ended up on different sides of that despite kind of similar experiences. For some reason white men who see me as lesser (and there’s plenty) don’t even phase me because I’m already rolling my eyes at them, if that makes sense. I hope you never are ‘conquered pussy’ to someone, fucking ew

No. 418579

>>418578
I think you're onto something. In Latin cultures in particular, the bangmaid stuff seems to be the worst. It extends back to European countries like Italy too. But white men tend to be huge crybabies about having their emotions carried by women or do NEET shit. Interestingly, with the "white prize" access, at least with black and maybe Latino men, the white women they tend to prize often have stereotypically "black" features. Despite the trope about blonde women with black men, I've noticed black men tend to go for curvier women, and although it's a stereotype, it seems like black women are curvier than white women on average. It's extra obvious now that media has fetishized traditionally black and Latina features on white women, including stuff that used to be mocked.

No. 418580

>>418579
I agree, since theres a lot of mulatto or african descended latinos, or triracial latinos, or many mestizo and white latinos influenced by black latino culture

a lot of people ignore this online idk why but i think its because they talk from their own perspective all the time

No. 418635

Seeing my friends cry about people 'objectifying' menzz just makes me want to do it more.

No. 418673

>>418635
You totes should do it anyway, tbh. They always say they'd love to be catcalled in admiration so put it to the test.

No. 418680

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>>418575
We should have listened

No. 418685

>>418680
i would love to know what this poster says.

No. 418687

>>418685
do not raise "spoilt rich boys"

No. 418689

>>418687
wow that's based. thank you.

No. 418728

My best friends body dsymorphia irritates the shit out of me.

We’re both 5’8 and 120lbs, pretty small people. She wears a size 2, yet she bitches about how she’s a whale. It’s so retarded it makes me want to slap her. Logically, HOW. You see the jeans we both wear. You see the scale we stand on, yet you say I’m perfect and you’re disgusting. If she said she was ugly that’d be understandable because it’s not MEASURABLE, but her saying she’s fat is infuriating

Also if you’re so disgusting, why do you wear a bikini? I know if I were a whale I wouldn’t be caught dead in one. And why do picky about the men you date? If you’re so gross, shouldn’t you take what you can get?

No. 418753

>>418728
>Logically, HOW?
uhh you said it yourself, she has BDD? she’s mentally ill fam, why not encourage her to go to therapy?

No. 418760

>>418728
>can't BELIEVE my mentally ill friend isn't logical!! sewww annoying!

No. 418764

>>418569
Watch Chrissie on youtube

No. 418809

>>418753
>>418760
Maybe OP didn't mean it in a literal way but instead hates her attention whoring. Some just humble brag. In fact everyone does it.

No. 418828

>>418753
>>418760
Hey, it’s supposed to be confessions, right? Like I said, I’d understand if she thought her body looked disgusting despite being small, or she was ugly- but the fact she literally thinks she’s large but has tangible proof that’s not the case boggles me. She’s in therapy, but she needs some shit that’s much more severe. She’s made no progress and been in therapy a long time.

>>418809
Honestly, idk what is wrong with her diagnosis-wise. I didn’t think people with BDD ran around in bikinis and little dresses?? I have another friend that’s formally diagnosed, and the way they behave makes more sense to me, although they do see their body in an altered way.

No. 418829

>>418828
To add- people who actually struggle with their weight or that are just larger than her want to yeet her ass into the sun when she’s outwardly talking or joking about how fat and disgusting she is. I try to tell her she’s going to piss people off, since she’s indirectly insulting them.

No. 418843

>>418828
BDD differs from person to person. While I agree on the clothing, I disagree with you on the bikini and the pickiness with partners. Even ugly people are allowed to have standards, so even if she was ugly she wouldnt just "take whats offered". Also was the bikini at the beach? What was she supposed to do? Swim in woolen jumper ? Maybe by wearing a bikini she was trying to fight her BDD.


But I do feel for you, I have so many attention seeking friends and friends with legit mental health problems but who refuse to actually work on them.

No. 418845

>>418728
I have a pretty bad mental illness but not so far deep in that I am completely detached from reality like this. How does the mental illness get bad you lose complete footing of anything real?

That's my confession

No. 418856

>>418829
Yeah, that bitch is just humble bragging. If she really thought she was this disgusting and fat she wouldn't even leave the house.

No. 418871

>>418843
I agree people are allowed to have standards, I guess I should’ve specified hers are particularly shallow. I don’t think any of my past boyfriend meet her ‘must haves’. Personally if I viewed myself as so gross (and also saw myself as an awful person as well), a really hot nice guy would make me feel even worse/insecure and I would see myself as undeserving.
As far as the bikini goes, I guess I’m surprised it’s not a onepeice or rash guard, which is what my other self-conscious friends wear.

>>418845
I feel bad venting about it, but yes, the detachment from reality is frustrating.

>>418856
I think something is genuinely wrong, I just don’t know what. She’s always very kind and supportive to me, but she really hurts people with her comments. I don’t think it’s on purpose or necessarily humble bragging, but it just doesn’t make sense to me.

No. 418875

I keep having dreams of being a blaire white orbiter. straight up just want her to fuck me so bAd

No. 418882

>>418871
That's the sign of a bad ED incoming. I am by all means underweight but fail to see myself as such. There's a constant crushing, gnawing, prickly feeling in me that says I am "disgusting, horrible, etc". It's hard to explain but the feeling is real, just like hunger, anger, etc.

Then there's facts that conflict with the feelings. Logically, I know that I am not any of those things. But the feelings are real, and they can be hard to bear, especially if someone isn't emotionally stable to begin with. Your friend might be experiencing what I do and sometimes the feelings are so much that you just have to blurt them out. I stopped doing this awhile ago because it is hurtful to other people. It goes to show how much she is struggling inside even if it seems like narcissistic babbling. She needs to learn how to manage it though because it's emotionally abusive to spill it on other people.

Not trying to defend or condone her actions, but hopefully my experience will give you some insight as to why she is doing it.

No. 418897

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>>418875
Bruh…

No. 418898

>>418875
>her
he has a tiny dick, btw. he says so. also, you should probably leave. you sound male or like you came here from tunglr.

No. 418912

Just learnt that the neighborhood I live in has been having another series of attempted break ins. This isn't even a bad neighborhood socioeconomically, why the increased rate in sporadic crime? We're not exactly rich enough to steal from, the fags who are doing it should try the gated neighborhood next door instead. I'm a dumb bitch who forgets to lock my doors whenever I walk the dog so this has made me paranoid that I'm going to start locking it, forget one day, and get my shit stolen. Fuck.

No. 418940

>>418871
Eh, irw bikinis : I'm slightly overweight and quite self conscious about it but most one-pieces tend to look worse on my body type than bikinis.
But that argument doesnt make sense because your friend isnt actually fat.

I do get you though. My best friend has BDD and her big focus is her face (she feels deformed and hates her acne) but everything she does is absolutely counter-productive to help her get better skin. Like she will straight up put ACETONE on her bare face or 90° alcohol. I know its because of her OCD and that thats a method of self harm but it kills me that everytime after she does that I'm the one who has to help take care of her. She also asks every 10min "Do I look monstruous? Tell me!! Do I look like an absolute garbage human being with a MONSTRUOUS face?" and like… she wont take "no" for an answer but what does she excpect me to do? Say "yes you look absolutely disfigured" ? And I 100% get that she's mentally ill but she's visibly not willing to make any effort to work towards recovery as she mixes her meds with binge drinking and drugs and considering her therapist is the kind that just gently nods and smiles while listening to her and never challenges her.

No. 418961

>>418940
>She also asks every 10min "Do I look monstruous? Tell me!! Do I look like an absolute garbage human being with a MONSTRUOUS face?"
This is ridiculous to the point of social retardation and you have every right to seriously tell her to shut the fuck up and get therapy instead of bothering you.

No. 418976

>>418940
>>418882
That’s so fucked. Geez.
I will try to be more patient, this does not sound like a fun way to feel. And fortunately I don’t take offense to being called a whale by proxy (lol), so the comments don’t actually hurt me. I appreciate both of your inputs anons

No. 418978

I work with two other people in a very small office. Sometimes, I have very busy days but most days I just sit here idly. I've gotten back into some games I used to play as a kid and it's making me feel guilty, like I am regressing or something. I just don't know what else to do.

No. 418979

>>418978
Wtf is your job, anon?? Have you expressed you have no work to do? If so, that’s on them. Use the free time to study or go back to school online or get some certifications lmao

No. 418980

>>418979
I'm a "director" role but because our firm is so small I do not really have anything to direct. Apparently, we will be hiring more people in the narrow future who will replace my role and allow me to move directly into the role I am supposed to be in. That's what I was told when I was hired, anyway. I am looking into taking some classes, I think that would help me to feel more productive.

No. 419025

I’m a very tall, skinny woman who’s fairly pretty and young. I accentuate my height by wearing very tall high heels, and I dress really nice for work. I like making men feel inferior and intimidated. I can tell they’re uncomfortable when I loom over them.


…But I’m starting to wonder if they’re uncomfortable because they think I’m a tranny. Until recently I had no clue how absolutely clockable MtFs are irl. Thanks to filters, photoshop and angles I thought they could blend in fairly seamlessly. Men are dumb and probably think this too. I have all the earmarks- tall, broad shoulders, long arms, narrow hips. I think I might… LIKE being mistaken for a mtf. I like that they are possibly 1) literally physically intimidated by my tranny strength and 2) probably feeling weird about any attraction they have toward me.


I know this is ridiculous, I just had to tell someone.

No. 419036

>>419025
lmao anon I understand. I get mistaken for a manlet or maybe a trans man sometimes and I don't always mind it. People treat me differently and sometimes better, especially if I'm wearing dressy clothes. Maybe they think I'm butch but no one has ever harassed me about it and my stag bi friend gets harassed all the time, so that makes me think otherwise.

No. 419050

>>419036
>get mistaken for a manlet
lol, I used to get this often when I was gnc. Customers at my old job would call me "sir" and thought I was a young teen boy. Usually by older men because of their horrible facial recognition (I also actually sound like a teen boy, which is sad now as a feminine woman rip).
But likewise I didn't really care, idk if I necessarily was treated better though.

No. 419051

had a wet dream of a friend kissing me (who i was ~curious about for a while), it felt really good, woke up horny. yesterday i was still going back and forth about going back to my ex. i guess i was just really horny lmao.

No. 419055

>>419025
I don't see a problem with that, but why are you wearing very tall heels to work? Seems dangerous and I think sets a bad precedent for other women in the office/your work environment.

No. 419068

>>419025
That's pretty awesome actually. I wish I could tower over men.

>>419055
? That's silly. I never wear heals regardless of what other women are wearing. It's free choice.

No. 419070

Even though I'm gender critical I'm still highly critical of people who've taken a stance against TRA. I'm ok with this sight and other GC places being against TRA, but out of those places a lot of anti-TRA are just plain old conservatives. I just feel like a lot of GC people will cheer on any popular anti-TRA, remember that annon who wanted to vote republican because they hated TRA that much, no matter how heinous their other political views are

No. 419072

>>419068
NTA but while you yourself might not wear heels regardless another woman wearing excessively high heels does set the tone of the workplace, not so much with the women as the men who will then begin expecting it of their underlings/coworkers- not necessarily the height but heels in general

Don’t see the point of wear high heels to work in the first place, let alone very tall ones, you’re there to work not break a leg

No. 419079

>>419072
>>419055
I work in an office in midtown NYC, I don’t look unprofessional, they’re not clubbing heels. Honestly if it sets a precedent, I don’t really give a shit. I don’t do stuff that’s actually harmful to my fellow women, imo. Besides, they’ll find SOMETHING to discount you for as a woman if they’re that kind of person in the first place.

>>419068
Thanks! It’s very fun. If you’re small, you can pop out of tiny places and scare them that way too.

No. 419088

>>419079
> Besides, they’ll find SOMETHING to discount you for as a woman if they’re that kind of person in the first place.
I don't think you're following. Normalizing, of your own volition, super high heels, changes mens expectations for other women. Men are unreasonable, but they're not typically asking for women to wear super high heels at work. They're way less likely to request that people wear super high heels unless they idea is normalized to them by real life experience. There are always going to be porny freaks, but normalizing it irl, without even being asked, is really dumb and I think this is less subversive than you think it is. Wearing heels in general as a tall woman is subversive, but wearing super tall high heels to work is just unnecessary, dangerous, and feeds into the porn fantasy of "professional women are actually secret bimbos that WANT TO BE OBJECTIFIED!".

Plenty of offices request that women wear heels, (which is already ridiculous) but most women choose more comfortable, sensible heels, if they have to.

>>419072
A lot of offices already do require that women wear heels, but going out of your way to wear super tall ones is a bit crazy imo. It's already a ridiculous expectation, why up the ante for their benefit, basically?

No. 419089

>>419050
Anytime I’m on voice chat for games I get told “GO TO BED LITTLE BOY” ask shit like that. I never correct them, it’s funnier that way.

>>419036
Hah, glad to know I’m not alone.

Odd you mentioned not getting harassed- I’m an attractive young woman and I never experience the harassment my friends do, even when dressed ‘slutty.’ There was a documentary that showed both regular men and convicted rapists a video of multiple women walking by, and made them pick which one they would choose to attack. They all chose the same few girls. SOMETHING about my general demeanor has been shielding me from the worst of it. Maybe they can tell I’m itching for a good excuse to snap out on someone.

No. 419090

>>419089
link to the vid?

No. 419093

>>419088
Insanely high heels would be unprofessional, and I don’t look unprofessional. They’re very tall heels for me because I’m already tall as it is.

I think women should pretty much wear what they want, and I want to be a giant. I like wearing them, so… soz.

No. 419096

I believe that I'm too stupid to drive a car and I can't believe that in the US all I have to do is pass a test and I'm trusted with a huge dangerous car. I just hate it and I don't think I understand the rules of the road even though I can't imagine a situation where I don't know the law… I just believe I shouldn't be trusted with anything. I'm 22. I'm very afraid of cars and traffic and this weird cringey situation feels so overwhelming and embarrassing.

No. 419097

>>419093
How high a heel are we talking?

No. 419099

>>419096
Was just watching a stream of someone play Eurotruck Simulator. On top of it being incredibly relaxing it also struck me that it wouldn't be the worst way for someone to get their driving confidence up.

No. 419101


No. 419102

>>419079
>If you’re small, you can pop out of tiny places and scare them that way too.
unfortunately men seem to enjoy that (since bc they don't see you at first, they get much closer than usual). tall women have given me especially dirty looks, though, for being unexpectedly short and suddenly in their field of vision.

No. 419103

>>419079
>>419102
samefag, but I DID make a male coworker literally yelp out loud like a tiny dog because i was coming out of a door he was going into + being very short.

No. 419104

>>419103
Short women are ninjas, confirmed.

No. 419109

>>419102
>>419103
Hah, he can never take that yelp back. It’s there, in the air, forever.

>>419097
You’re killin me here- I don’t know? 3 inches? 4? Tbh I’m bad at judging distances, I’d been wildly wrong about dick sizes for years. I’m not sure I even know what an inch looks like. They’re boring round toe block heels so I don’t snap them off in the grates on the street. “How high of a heel is too high for feminism?!” sounds like a Buzzfeed article lol

We’ll just agree to disagree anon, it’s all good.

No. 419113

>>419096
You’re not wrong, it’s absolutely wild. Even scarier, I can go right now and get a giant moving truck, which requires NO special licensing, and take that bitch out on the highway. What the literal fuck.

The fact you’re even concerned puts you ahead of the curve though, people are retards. You’ll be alright.

No. 419116

>>419093
Idk, some women in Asia probably enjoy footbinding too if they think it makes them more attractive, but that doesn't negate the negative effects of it. Habitually wearing heels carries a lot of possible negative effects on women's health.

No. 419121

>>419109
>I’m not sure I even know what an inch looks like.
I still go by the thumb tip to the first joint rule = roughly an inch method.

No. 419123

>>419109
I was asking how tall it is because you keep flip flopping between it being a tall heel but apparently also not actually being tall. Jfc you come off as a bit of a sped. And I really doubt you actually intimidate your male coworkers tbh, oh no a tall woman what ever will the poor men do

This is a weird thing to toot your own horn over and I’m not sure why actually feel so much pride in something so insignificant

No. 419125

>>419123
Get over it.
She's wearing heels. Don't have to be rude about it.

No. 419126

>>419088
>>419123

Who the hell cares, you sound miserable. Is this "every woman who works at my office is an annoying immature bitch" anon again? Most non-autistic adult women are able to make their own footwear decisions, and no employer in the United States would require women to wear "super high heels," that's a discrimination lawsuit waiting to happen.

No. 419131

>>419123
I didn’t flipflop- They’re tall, but not outrageously so. Idk what you want me to say, you don’t need to be a dick about it.

It’s a silly small thing I privately enjoy, which is why I called it ridiculous to begin with. I’m lucky to be well liked and respected at work, and the few who don’t, well, at least I can (literally) look down on em.

No. 419134

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>>419131
>They’re tall, but not outrageously so. Idk what you want me to say, you don’t need to be a dick about it.
nta. but just post a picture lol. I would consider both pic related to be pretty tall for the average office setting (average office, not some weird sex in the city glam office lifestyle) but one gives a more porny vibe than the other (and I'm assuming the pornyness is what the other anons are harping about)

No. 419139

>>419126
Those two posts aren’t the same anon

No. 419161

>>419096
hey anon, i feel ya. i'm not a US fag so idk but did you take driving lessons? if you can afford them, maybe take some private lessons where you would drive in traffic. in my country taking lessons are obligatory before the exam and if you fail the test you have to take them again. also, people in big cities (those who can afford to) take extra private lessons.

i was also really afraid before i started driving and thought exactly the same as you. i was so intimidated by the size of a car and it didn't make sense in my head how i'd be able to go around not hitting stuff. in my first lesson with me driving literally for the first time in my life, my teacher took me out to traffic, i was sure we were gonna die. we didn't! you'll make it anon!

No. 419193

>>419134
I don't believe that you're "nta". The whole time it's always only been one person harping about it and wanting to know how high they are exactly, the others were reasonable and let the argument go when she said that she doesn't wear stripper heels.

It seems as if you don't have a problem with the heels, but with her being tall.
>Wearing heels in general as a tall woman is subversive.
>you come off as a bit of a sped. And I really doubt you actually intimidate your male coworkers tbh, oh no a tall woman what ever will the poor men do

No. 419199

>>419193
It has been at least two anons, I know this for a fact because I’m the one who called her a sped - and I stand by that because she’s acting like she’s being attacked because I had just asked her how tall they are and I really don’t believe men would be intimidated just because a woman is taller than them. The other pair you quoted is a different anon

Literally just wanted to know how tall these heels are since she kept going back and forth between them being tall and then saying they’re not, like another anon pointed out it’s not hard to post a pic of a similar size or even just measure them

No. 419201

>>419199
Samefag but asking how tall they are was also only my second post on the matter, I’m not even the one who instigated. But go off assuming who posts what on an anonymous imageboard when you have no way of knowing

No. 419202

>>410984
I can't believe I'm about to type this, but I think I'm obsessed with one of the incels.co mods. It started from curiosity and slight disgust and turned into… I don't know, crush? I have read every post of his over 4000 posts. I am so ashamed of myself, I am honestly on the verge of contacting him.

No. 419214

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>>419199
>she kept going back and forth
Except she did not
>she’s acting like she’s being attacked
She did stay calm the whole time, sped lol

>I accentuate my height by wearing very tall high heels

>I don’t look unprofessional, they’re not clubbing heels
>Insanely high heels would be unprofessional, and I don’t look unprofessional. They’re very tall heels for me because I’m already tall as it is.
>I don’t know? 3 inches? 4?
>They’re tall, but not outrageously so.
Where's the flip flopping?

I couldn't care less because I hate heels myself, but getting this riled up by one anon saying she likes to wear them is fucking strange…

And also (you can ask them themselves if you don't believe this) but men frequently give "because I am intimidated by them" as a reason for dsiliking tall women. So if a tall woman additionally wears heels that only adds to this.

She said 3 or 4 inches, pic related would be already 4. That's definitely not too much.

No. 419218

>>419202
If you contact him, it either goes two ways. The first being that you're in a shit online relationship with a man that hates women and you obey his every command and miraculously be his bangmaid mommy forever whilst he cries to you about his wrist circumference.
The other more likely way is that his horrendous views on women lead you to break it off, whether that's in your first few messages or even years into the future, and then he uses you of an example of why women are evil and heartless.
Don't even bother anon. People convince themselves into infatuation with a romanticised idea of people all the time, it's just a fantasy and reality never matches up.

No. 419219

>>419025
I highly doubt they think you're trans. There's way more to it than just being tall and broad shouldered (the majority of models have that look). You don't have an Adam's apple, a male hairline, giant hands/feet, protruding veins, a big male skull etc. But your goal of intimidating seems to be working so congrats lol, I'm jealous.

No. 419234

>>419202
Kinda want to see this guy's posts now. What's so great about them?

No. 419239

>>419202
lmfao anon please don't message him. even if he turns out to be a decent person who you could get into a relationship with (highly unlikely), remember he's socially retarded and won't be able to interact with you in a normal way. Plus with his shitty views towards women and inexperience, I'd say it would be a failure anyways.

ngl I kinda relate to that tho…I spent a lot of time hate reading that forum and kinda felt for certain anons on there, idk I probably just relate and feel bad for other NEETs lmaO

No. 419241

>>419202
Hahahahahahhahaha.

Seriously, don't though.

No. 419250

>>419121
You've just made me realise I call my bfs dick small when it's not. My ex bf must have had a massive dick I feel spoilt shocked and guilty.

No. 419257

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>>419134
>>419193
>>419199
>>419201
>>419214
lol look what I caused during the night- surprised there hasn’t been a riot at my office yet. Pic related is similar.
I’m arriving at the office now, but I’m in oxfords. All my powers are gone.

>>419219
A (very sheltered) guy delicately asked one of my coworkers if I’d “always been” a lady haha. I always thought I was mannish until I saw what mtfs ACTUALLY look like- even the beautiful ones are… unfortunate.

>>419250
I’ve been doing the opposite- I had no idea how wrong I was until I was at a sex shop and saw a 7in dildo and it looked absolutely jaw-dropping MASSIVE to me. I bet men are just as terrible at eyeballing size and give themselves a few inches.

No. 419262

im getting obsessed with columbine ngl

No. 419267

>>419262
as long as you are not interested in it for the wrong reasons and it's not taking over your life, you are fine imho. have you already read Sue klebold's book? I highly recommend it.

No. 419271

>>419234
I don't know, there's just something alluring about him. He isn't a woman-hater, he seems like a really chill, sweet person, he is very funny, we have similar interests, etc. He has incredibly low self-esteem unfortunately, but that is to be expected. I guess I could type which mod I have in mind, but maybe that would seem like a self-posting.

>>419218
You are completely right anon, thank you for your thoughtful reply. It's just that I'm never really infatuated with people, it takes me a really long time to like someone, so I just feel like a dumb teenager right now.

>>419239
Wow, I didn't expect to hear from someone who is in similar situation to myself. To be honest, I find all the other users to be deplorable pos, especially pedos.

>>419241
Ik girl lol

No. 419275

>>419271
Actually, I don't know now. It will obviously be the worst idea in the world to get romantically involved with him, but maybe if you still wanted to do something nice and sweet you could write him out an anonymous letter or something. One that lists out what you find attractive about him(that he isn't a woman hater and tells great jokes, etc) and your hopes for his future. Signed, Your Secret Admirer. In a perfect world a little extra shove like that might be really all he needs to get motivated again. Again though, I have to stress: do not get entangled. Accept hid thanks if it's given, and move on. There's another girl I know that tried dating an incel and he almost destroyed her life for it.

No. 419287

>>419275
Can we hear the story of your friend? It's always good to learn about what to avoid

No. 419290

>>419096
I feel you, anon. I'm 24 and haven't gotten a license yet, I don't feel confident enough to drive tbh. On my last year of highschool two classmates of mine died in a car accident while they were going back home from a night out, and it's like it left me scared of driving.

No. 419292

>>419287
I'd really rather not share. It's not my story to tell. The point of it however is that the shy, funny, quirky, genuinely nice person he appears on the surface is most likely the tip of the iceberg. He wouldn't be an incel surrounded by worse misogynists if he didn't have a mountain's worth of problems underneath. Imagine how crazy even normal guys can be and then multiply that by fifty.

No. 419341

>>419271
I'm married to someone who I met online years ago, and our circle of friends was pretty vile and inceltier. They weren't full-out INCELS as it was before the "movement"(?) really started and the label did not exist. He had some pretty vicious things to say about everyone, regardless of gender, but definitely hated women pretty much uniformly. Hate to say it but I saw that as kinda a challenge seeing how he treated the other girls in our circle. He was also extremely intelligent (graduated early, high iq, jeopardy player, extremely motivated career-wise) but still had some more emotional, more romantic/idealized views, which I found endearing. This is what really drew me to him, as I had not found someone THAT smart in-real-life.

In your case, I'd be more concerned about seeing that he has not only LABELED himself incel but that he is actually a moderator in the community. That shows how tangled up he is in that kind of thinking.

Anyway, some things I've learned from my partner which are pretty much token with these types of men. Some of these are totally "DUH" but just want to fill you in if you do choose to persue him.

1.) Insecure - Doesn't matter how much you love them, they will doubt it and sometimes exhibit controlling/abusive behaviors
2.) Poor domestic skills - Mommy usually does everything for them, so you will find yourself in this role if you do not set boundaries.
3.) Prone to negative thinking - Behind every "date-able" incel, there's a deeper, darker internal pit from early childhood that cannot be quelled with female partnership.
4.) Their views might not change - It doesn't matter if you are the smartest, prettiest, most intelligent woman, a jaded man will always find ways to devalue you, especially if he is feeling badly. If you have the emotional resolve to deal with this and understand that it isn't personal, then it's liveable. If not, don't even try it.
5.) His views MIGHT change - The most fulfilling thing about my relationship is that I have seen a very "put down" person live up to their potential. There have been some bumps in the road but my relationship is a lot healthier than MOST people I know, but it took some serious work to get there.

No. 419349

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I feel like my boyfriend holds me back with my wanting to improve myself. Whenever I bring up wanting to change our diet and exercise habits he tells me it's unnecessary and that he loves my 'softness.' What I don't like is that I want to get healthier in order to improve my chances of having a baby after a diagnosis that essentially gives me less than 50% of a chance to carry a baby to term. Even if we don't end up having children together, I still want to have the ability available on top of looking good for myself.

I just wish he'd be more understanding that I'm not wanting to change for anyone but my own self and my future- not to fuel whatever insecurity he has about me becoming more physically appealing.

No. 419352

>>419341
has your partner actually changed though? does he still blindly hate women, still put others down at every chance?

cause if he's just the same as before then theres really no point in that anon wasting her time either. im of the opinion no one can really change, a shitty person will always be a shitty person but they'll just learn to hide it better, thats just me though.

No. 419357

>>419199
>I really don’t believe men would be intimidated just because a woman is taller than them.

dumbass spring chicken you are, then. ntayrt, but jesus, how sheltered can you be? tons of men have massive insecurities around their height and project it into women who are taller than them. i’ve seen it happen countless times to others and i’ve literally been told to my face by some men that i intimidated them with my height too. it shouldn’t be news to you that men are intimidated by women in general anytime we outperform them regardless of how big or small it is

No. 419360

>>419357
or you know it's cause other men are shitty about height and create deep seeded insecurities in their peers.

No. 419371

>>419357
Since when is being tall outperforming people lmao

No. 419372

I used to wear high heels all the time. Almost every day for years. A few months ago I moved, and was on my feet for most of the day, moving boxes and cleaning, so I wore tennis shoes. My achilles tendon on both legs hurt so bad the next day I couldn't get out of bed. For days after I had to hobble around like a cripple for how bad they hurt. I really damaged my achilles tendons by always wearing high heels. I decided to throw them all out and haven't worn any in months. Seeing anons argue about high heels made me want to give my personal experience with wearing them all the time and how I damaged my body because of it. High heels are cute and I miss wearing them, but it's not worth the pain, and damage to my body.

No. 419373

>>419372
My mother and MIL both have said that they are now uncomfortable not wearing high heels and need to wear something with at least a bit of heel otherwise it hurts, and tbh that’s something that solidified my decision to not wear them. I don’t want to be in my 50s+ and still be having to wear heels purely because I fucked up my feet and legs beyond repair in my youth by wearing the damn things, I don’t even find them that cute

No. 419374

>>419371
because stupidity. have you seen some incel forums whining about how women hate men with thin necks. when is the last time you even paid attention to a guy's neck?

i swear, men creating insecurities in other men is a fucking curse.

No. 419384

>>419352
He doesn't do those things anymore to the extent that he did. He was very radical in a lot of beliefs – which have all since changed. He's a lot more accepting, tolerant… but I chalk that up to him becoming "normalized" through work and homelife. Before, he spent a lot of his time online (we both did) and I think that alone causes a person to withdraw from real-life and other people. The only thing he really hasn't changed with is the "mommying" aspect but I kinda enable it.

No. 419385

>>419371
ha, i wasn’t saying being tall is some sort of marvellous achievement. >>419374 this anon worded my point about that a lot better than i did, its literally some stupid shit men made up that taller = more powerful and therefore taller women make insecure men intimidated.

No. 419388

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I have never had anal sex but I have almost always masturbated with a finger in my butt. The sensation with clit stimulation feels like an actual g-spot, which I never get vaginally.

No. 419401

>>419373
Good idea, however please remember a small "heel" of a few centimeters is actually advised to reduce back and feet problems. Completely flat shoes are bad too, it also plays to pay attention to the width of your shoes.
The problems old people have with their feet is nothing compared to what our generation will have, with our cheap flimsy canvas trainers and plastic stilettos.

No. 419415

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There's a massive PRIDE festival happening this weekend right behind my apartment and I am fucking dreading it. Mind you, I dread all festivals that majorly inconvenience my daily life, but this one in particular I am dreading because it's going to be very boozy, loud, and long. My SO and I have already arranged to get all of our groceries for the weekend tonight so we don't have to leave at all this weekend. All the connecting roads to my apartment will be "soft-closed" (which means you have to honk at the guards to move the barriers) and we just don't want to deal with it. Why can't it just be one day? The shit starts tonight and ends Sunday. Not to mention I have to walk my cute ass sheepdog and I'm going to have to push through the crowd while people beg to pet him.

I just hate festival culture in general but this PRIDE festival has really been marketed as an OTT celebration with trannies out in crop tops and spandex and it's gonna be so fucking rotten.

No. 419417

>>419275
My guess is that the guy would just think it was a joke and someone trying to get close to him and break his heart. Plenty of men have zero self-esteem and can't even imagine a woman liking them.
>>419287
>It's always good to learn about what to avoid
The sad truth is that they all can be horrible people, you need luck to find a good one. I knew an incel who seemed to be very down to earth, he defended women when his incel friends were shitting on them and would present counterpoints to typical incel hate. Eventually he found his first girlfriend and treated her like complete garbage. She did everything for him, but it wasn't enough because she was a little bit overweight and had a country girl accent.
I know a million stories like this.

No. 419426

>>419341
>and sometimes exhibit controlling/abusive behaviors
can you write some examples of these controlling/abusive behaviors?

No. 419433

>>419415
Are you in dc? Let’s hang lol!

No. 419446

>>419415
We'll get them back for at Straight Pride Parade by being quiet and respectful.

No. 419452

My brother sexually abused me when I was 12 and I blame myself. He told me to strip as part of a "game" and I listened. I hated it and santed ig to end but overall I did it. I planned on shamefully hiding the experience for the rest of my life but then my sister told me she ahd been molested since she was a child and my world has shattered since. I struggle to this day, and my sister has had it much worse so I don't care much about what he's done to me. People say "you were just a child" but for some reason it means nothing to me and doesn't relieve the guilt I feel for what happened to my sister. Maybe if I told someone about what he did to me.. she would have been protected.

No. 419453

>>419446
fuck off with your dumbass straight pride bullshit

No. 419455


No. 419458

I’m head over heels in love with my bf, but I’m still actively attracted to and pine for my ex. My relationship with my ex wasn’t healthy and he’s a very damaged person but I never really got to have the closure I wanted. It ended abruptly and badly, and I just wanted one last weekend together to actually say goodbye and get out all our strange sex stuff. I didn’t think I’d still feel this way a year later… will it ever stop? I didn’t think it was possible to be really truly into 2 people at once, but here I am…. I’m wracked with guilt and I just wish I could have a harem

No. 419465

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I love the dumb bitch memes thread.

No. 419470

There's this dude from my class, who, I thought, was hitting on me or at least trying to flirt. I was always very nice to him (even would have liked him as a friend) but not attracted to him one bit. He's really ugly but he could be at least 50% less ugly if he groomed himself what so ever.

Anyway, I still liked that he flirted with me because, while I'm popular with men generally in my life, 90% of my classe's men hate me because I'm a loud feminist etc.

Last week I bumped on him at a party and was very drunk and he was flirting with another girl and she was flirting back and she was really pretty.

And I know it's bad or whatever but it really makes me frustrated or even mad when I see ugly men get pretty girls. Like if they're ugly but unbelievably charming ok whatever but thats not this dude's case.
And I'm not jealous, I'm doing ok in the men department when I want to. But I hate how women lower their standards and give chance to ugly men. Thats how so many of my beautiful, kind, charming and smart female friends end up with mediocre and ugly boyfriends.

No. 419503

>>419470
>but it really makes me frustrated or even mad when I see ugly men get pretty girls
This busts my ass too anon, but shamefully for the jealousy reason.
Basically I'm doomed to never find anyone because men can all end up with beautiful amazing women. Of course I hate when the shittier men mistreat girls, but I'm also bitter for this stupid as fuck reason.

My confession is I'm an incel tbh.

No. 419504

>>419470
>but it really makes me frustrated or even mad when I see ugly men get pretty girls
This busts my ass too anon, but shamefully for the jealousy reason.
Basically I'm doomed to never find anyone because men can all end up with beautiful amazing women. Of course I hate when the shittier men mistreat girls, but I'm also bitter for this stupid as fuck reason.

My confession is I'm an incel tbh.

No. 419518

My biggest confession is that I'm glad I no longer live like I did in the past, I'd have many secrets and sins back then, but ever since I live a healthy but simple life I no longer need to lie or hide.
>>419504
>mfw femcel reddit is no longer public because the men asked the femcels out
That is actually hilarious if you ask me

No. 419522

>>419518
>femcel reddit is no longer public because the men asked the femcels out
Huh? r/Trufemcels is still up for me to see. Also who's to say those men aren't planning on pumping and dumping/using the femcels as practice gfs? That's an equally as shitty fate.

I was half-joking about my femceldom anyway, I know I can get laid if I wanted to lose my card. I'm just unlovable.
Also sorry for that double post, my internet disconnected while posting and I closed the browser. Didn't set a personalized password so now it's stuck. Clearly the real reason I'm a femcel is because I'm big stupid.

No. 419523

>>419522
>>419518
/foreveralonewomen/ is the private sub. They went private because they were being harassed by incels, not because men were asking them out.
imo the whole femcel thing shouldn't even exist to be honest.

No. 419532

>>419522
Tbh nobody is a true incel, I just said it to let you know that even femcels can get asked out.
>>419523
Are you in it? Like could you confirm if that femcel that got married meme everyone spams was real? I'm gonna join it since I'm virgin anyways and incels fascinate me.

No. 419536

>>419532
Yes I'm in from the time I was single about 3 years ago. The thing about the femcel subs is that they are (or were) very inclusive. Many women who struggle with relationships would end up there even though they weren't really FA. I remember a few older married women in /foreveralonewomen/

No. 419546

Every thing I dislike about my boyfriend stems from him being poor and I really really really hate that about myself. He's 21 and rents a townhouse with his grandmother, he just bought an 11 year old car three months ago thats broken down 3 times since he got it, and is the assistant manager at a grocery store deli and has literally no aspiration for anything more challenging than that. I absolutely adore him as a person, our interests/humor match so well, but these three things always create so much goddamn stress for me. I refuse to fuck at his house so I literally haven't had sex for over a month cause all I do is give blowjobs because we mostly hang out at his place as I'm home from college for the summer and therefore living with my parents, we had to cancel the one time he was driving down to see me in the past 3 weeks because his car broke down, and I feel so fucking guilty that he doesn't let me pay for dinner or anything when I know he has more important things to be spending his money on.


TL;DR As someone who never "cared about money", and isn't materialistic, everything I dislike about my boyfriend stems from him being poor.

No. 419548

I'm so sick of transgender shit. I want trannies to go the fuck away, so I can stop hearing about them everywhere online and irl. I don't care if they all detransiton, or kill themselves or just go underground and be quiet and out of the public eye like they used to be. But I want them to leave! I can't even buy period underwear without the stupid website saying it's for people with periods. Fuck off! Only women get periods. Including delusional self hating women who call themselves men, but who will always be women even after they die.

No. 419559

>>419548
You have to realize you're obsessed. Go outside or something

No. 419561

>>419446
Can't wait for this, they're going to look really ugly in the limelight kek

No. 419570

>>419536
So the memes were true.

No. 419582

>>419546
Being financially literate and sensible with money is more important than a high salary. Eg, does he budget? Does he waste money or is he frugal? Does he understand investing even if he can't afford it yet? Does he actively try to save for an emergency fund or a house, better car, etc? His choice to live with his grandma and buy a cheap car are an inconvenience but much smarter than spending beyond his means.

You can lack career ambition but still be ambitious with your money. If he doesn't want a more stressful job (I can relate so I wont say he's wrong about that), it's not the end of the world finance wise. But if he's not seriously thinking about how he will save money you need to talk to him. It's not shallow to acknowledge he cant be a long term partner if he cant contribute to a deposit on a house, or split rent in a place up to your standards, or afford a kid, or whatever your life plans are. If he wants to keep his shit job he needs to double down on managing his money.

No. 419588

>>419561
You get me.

No. 419592

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Before I write this out, shame on me for knowing better but choosing to look at one of the most vitriolic threads on lolcow just out of recent curiosity.

But I did. I read the Moo thread.
And something a farmer said has stuck with me since. To paraphrase
>Moo can only ever be cute and get attention on the internet because she's grotesque irl.
I'd like to continue believing that farmer said it because Moo shoops a lot of her pictures like in her cosplay sets. But farmers say this sort of stuff in response to when Moo attempts to take ordinary selfies that don't betray her double chin. Or that goofy turtle grin that happens with her upper lip if she's not mindful. Or even if she chooses to post a more flattering body shot than usual rather than going with a candid that reveals a brutal honesty about her day to day body in unsavory moments.
It's not just when she's blatantly catfishing.

It may be unpopular to think, but imo it's not rooted in malignant deceit for someone to want to portray their best presentations on the internet. Pictures are reposted and will be around for as long as the internet exists to be ruminated upon and examined over and over and over again. I just can't blame someone for not wanting to be portrayed as hideous online if that's all they can do in the now.
Is it insecure? Maybe.

It makes me feel bad because I always thought of the internet as a place where I could put my best foot forward, so to speak. Where the sex I'm attracted to would be able to notice my personality, interests, or that keen and playful gaze I have when I'm pictured just so.
Things to note at least before they notice I have a hideous ass body and an acne problem that I constantly battle and feel undesirable for. It may be hokey and sentimental yet the internet was always the place to know before one judged instead of vice versa.

I know the farmer likely said what she said because it's Moo, and Moo is plenty a shitty person regardless of how she looks. But I can't deny that this isn't an issue I've faced.
I have a date off Tinder tomorrow and I'm scared shitless because, for once since I ended my last ltr, I've met a guy that has talked for hours with me and has been respectful. I don't want to blow it. But I feel like I may have already pre-destined myself for rejection. Because men are just too stupid to know that I'm posting the one selfie out of a set of several that was my best pose with a filter on. Even on cam and facetime I still have the benefit of lighting and angles.
He was polite enough to insist that based on our conversations that there was practically no chance how I'd look would affect his opinion of me. But what that farmer said echoes in my head, because I have met men on dates before who became not into me once they witnessed me in action.

I wish I had the grapes to say fuck it and post the most ghastly pictures of me online just to beat most of these dudes to the punch. And genuinely attract only men who like me at my worst. Yet I know it wouldn't make me happy either knowing ugly, or I guess 'everyday' candid typicals of me were online forever.
I feel stupid for feeling so conflicted and a part of me thinks I should just stay single and alone if it means not getting hurt in this way.

No. 419595

>>419592
This is why I hate online dating, at least IRL people get to see the entirety of you and they can decide right away if they're into it or not.

No. 419597

>>419595
I'm really nervous…

When it did happen in the past it was easy for me to not take it personally because I had not socially invested so much. But because this guy has been so atypical and nice, such as chatting with me for over 3 hours on the phone today, I would truly feel low. Like a worthless maggot. Especially knowing that someone thought so highly of me personality wise, yet my looks just weren't up to snuff and couldn't save me from myself.

No. 419616

i dated a 32 year old man when i was 17 for a few months and cheated on him with at least 5 different men and 1 woman during that time. after we broke up, i got to know a 40 year old (married) dom online and would meet up with him secretly for half a year. his wife never found out as far as i know.
actually, i cheated on pretty much every boyfriend i've had from the age of 17 to 19 (and i've had like 15 of them during those 2 years). the worst thing is i don't feel a single ounce of shame over it.

No. 419621

>>419616
Well you should.
Recently had a 3 year old relationship ruined, because my partner cheated on me behind my back with my friend and I’d like to say that all cheaters deserve to die. Thanks.

No. 419625

>>419616
Hot as fuck tbh. You need to get in porn and sell yourself.

No. 419631

>>419625
Oh great so i get the robot sign even though "she" sounded more like a robot. I didn't ban evade on purpose btw.(uh-huh)

No. 419633

>>419631
i love /ot/ mods, you girls are the best. so quick and effective.

No. 419634

>>419633
Except I'm not a fucking guy, jesus. I was mostly just joking because it was kinda a funny post. But whatever I guess, never expected the text to go inverted after a scrote-ban, pretty funny. Ok last post bleh, needed a life anyways.(ban evasion)

No. 419639

>>419349

Anon, your bf is probably lazy and not willing to do make changes rn. But you SHOULD do changes you want in your life, and the best you can do is start it yourself. Change your diet, do more exercise and maybe he will be inspired and follow you. But more importantly take control of your life girl, you are your own responsibility. Do it and he can follow if he wants.

No. 419648

>>419616
>>419621
she shouldnt feel guilty lmao. What were these geriatric creeps doing with a teenager ?

I feel not one ounce of sympathy for a 40year old "dom" dating a teen, not only it's good he got cheated on but he should also get his penis chopped off.

No. 419670

>>419648
This. It baffles me how the first anon focused on the cheating rather than a man in his 30's and another in his 40's dating a minor. They are the ones who should die, if anything

No. 419771

Last night I dreamt that I found a stash of pics of me naked (or almost naked) in my father's things and then I showed them as proof to my mom. It wasnt the only thing happening in my dream, in fact it was only a detail (my dream was set in a sort of night festival with designer clothes and Carla Bruni was there ??) but its also not the first time I dream of my father in a sexual context.

I hate it I fucking hate it.
I always hated ddlg shit, it doesnt arrouse me in the slightest and I only wake up with shame, disgust and a fucked up head for the weeks to come.

My father never sexually abused me but he is an alcoholic who seems to forget people boundaries when he's drunk (like putting his hand on my knee or smth). He lives in a different country and I see him 3 times a year.

No. 419813

>>419771
holy shit this hits close to home anon. my father was an alcoholic and was just overall emotionally abusive to myself and my mother as a child after he had already moved on and found a new wife/kids. ever since I started taking antidepressants (sertraline) I noticed an increase in nightmares where he's hurting me or running us off a road in car. it really made me think about my relationship with him and the creepy weird boundary crossing shit he would do to me or my step sisters. I was a kinda smart kid so I would always be confused at why my stepsisters would act out in gross sexual ways towards each other but now it makes sense that he was probably hurting them too. I never wanted to relate to those fucked up lolcows who blame CSA on their garbage mental health/relationship problems but yeah the weird touching/aggressiveness him and his wife would put onto me damaged me a fuck ton that I'm even considering going into therapy to possibly see if I have PTSD considering how paralyzing these memories are for me. it sucks because as a kid I never understood how deep this trauma would extend or that it was anything other than "oh my dad's just shitty" so I never told my mom.

but yeah I agree ddlg makes me physically ill especially the dolly mattel diaper changing porn she used to make.

No. 419869

I don’t want to live my entire life without having sex with a woman.
I fantasize about giving or receiving oral from a woman, especially during masturbation. I have little interest in women romantically or irl, so I don’t really feel comfortable calling myself bi, it seems almost disrespectful. I don’t feel an attraction or interest irl like I do with men but I still I want a feminine woman to sexually experiment with, and then be able to just remove myself entirely afterward. I don’t want to hurt anyone so I’ve never acted on these urges, and I don’t really know what to do.

No. 419883

>>419869
Maybe try dating apps with a clear indication that all you want is casual sex? A lot of lesbians would take you up on that, they're not as clingy and likely to catch feelings as the media portrays them. Just be honest with people from the start.

No. 419917

I feel like my anachan tendencies might be coming back. I'm subconsciously feeling like I've gained weight even though I'm the fucking near same according to the scale give or take 1-2 lbs my weight feels like it's redistributed, heaving, and ugly, and I'm just fucking uncomfortable. My thighs feel like they've gotten fatter and now touch more than usual, my midsection feels flabby…. I'm not doing anything… that's how I feel and how I feel it looks, and to everyone else there's apparently 0 change… now I'm panicking, want to reduce my portions/eat more at home in order to lose this phantom weight that's barely been fucking gained.

I hate it so much I can't even begin to describe it. Maybe I never lost the anachan tendencies. Only gained a small amount of weight without trying after that phase of my life bc I ate normally again, now I feel fatter and uglier than ever. I have felt like an ugly and bloated mess around my period the last couple times I've had it, I'm wondering if it's just a PMS precursor, either way it is awful and I don't want to feel this way, I don't want to unbury those tendencies to where they become harmful to me. I'm frustrated with myself for not having the ability to differentiate or even tell whether it's phantom weight/bDD or hormones causing this, like it really fucking matters.

No. 419927

>>419813
I feel you… When I look objectivly at how my father acts, its disgusting. He can get aggressive, has beaten up my mother a couple times, he's a NEET living with his mother and generally ruined so much shit that could have gone so well… But I've somehow "closed" any emotions towards that. I don't think of it on a daily basis and when I see him drunk, I sigh and walk away

No. 419964

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I never want to be famous or a public figure in any way for the sole reason of what embarrassing things from the past could be revealed… I was never a school booli or internet edgelord, but some people somewhere probably have stuff on me I wouldn't be too proud of.

No. 419967

>>419964
same, literally any little dumb thing you ever said can be blown out of proportion

I always think of this one thing that happened when I was like a freshman in high school. I was competing in this national math competition and for whatever reason international students from china were allowed to come and participate (no other foreign countries were allowed to send a delegation tho) and they won like 75% of the categories. I made a post on facebook afterwards and was like "why were the chinese people even allowed to participate it's called NATIONAL [math competition] not INTERNATIONAL [math competition]!!!" and everyone thought I was talking about chinese-american people instead of chinese nationals, I had to write an apology letter to every chinese-american person at my school it was embarrassing as fuck lol. so i'm sure I would 100% be called a racist bc of that

No. 419968

>>419964
same… everyone around me tells me I should get into politics but I already know all the shit they'll dig out on me and thats not even like the half of the stuff they'll dig out on me.

I dislike Beto O'Rourke but that hacking thing and fanfic about running over children is something that… so many people have done and if it's something you did as a teen it shouldnt have a consequence on your political carreer.

>>419869
It tottally happens to only have a sexual interest in women but not want to date them and there are plenty of bi and lesbian women out there for casual sex.
However, have you consider you're not romantically interested in women because lesbian romance is only ever depicted through the male gaze? Like, you've had so many exemples of what hetero romance looks like growing up that you know what it is, but there are almost no actual representation of what actually loving a woman as a woman looks like so you're brain can't comprehend it somehow? A form of compulsory heterosexuality, if you will.

No. 419978

>>419968
>compulsory romantic heterosexuality
nta but I have suffered from this (and still do). I know it's because I'm a neurotic person with no interest in spontaneity who goes into most interpersonal interactions with expectations rather than genuine interest. So growing up I always just took up the "oh yeah, of course I'll romance a man" and now I have this "role" burned into my soul that must be filled by a male of a specific type. Meanwhile I'm interested in a larger variety of women than men and I know I'm more compatible with women. Haha rip.

Anyway if anon has a similar sort of disposition this could definitely be the case.

No. 419996

>>419968
What do you do when you're interested in romance with a woman but not sex? I even had a girlfriend and I loved everything about being in a lesbian relationship but I never felt like having sex. Maybe it was just her. Maybe I'll meet a woman who turns me on in the future… I don't know. Sometimes I think I feel this way because I have only been with men. When I used to watch porn, vaginas would turn me on. It's just hard to picture me having sex with a girl.

No. 420005

I hope this doesn't become some weird autistic meme like the one guy on 4chan that got off on tile patterns. Anyway, here goes. I can spin for hours in a swivel chair. Yes, just sit in it and spin for hours. I'm highly imaginative and so when I spin, I play different ideas in my head. Comic ideas, characters I think about, etc. I just spin in my chair and play a movie in my head. It gives me such a strange rush when I spin really fast and then tilt my head. I feel 100% like I'm in a completely different place. It's so strange that I forget that it's something I even do everyday. if I go too long without doing it, I'll get really depressed and unstable. I wouldn't be surprised if I had a mild form of autism and if this was a sign. I tried to look up several times on the internet if other people do this too,but I've never found anyone else. I can't imagine living without doing this. I've been doing it since I was like 8. I guess it's strange? I've never told anyone about it and only my parents know I do it.

No. 420009

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>>419968
>However, have you consider you're not romantically interested in women because lesbian romance is only ever depicted through the male gaze?

nta but holy fuck I've never realized

No. 420010

>>420005
You prompted me to see if there are automatic chair spinners. Disappointingly it doesn't seem to be a thing. There isn't anything wrong with enjoying to sensation of dizziness. People destroy their bodies with drink and drugs in the pursuit of a similar feeling.

No. 420014

>>420005
I have something similarly worse, I like to run around the house and also body slam into my bed while thinking of ideas, characters, potential situations, ect.

No. 420016

>>420005
The feeling might just be soothing for you, like babies enjoy being rocked or adults like swing chairs etc. But it is weird to sit in a chair imagining things for hours every day, whether you're spinning or not. Surely you have better shit to do, even if it's just doing something creative with those thoughts.

No. 420021

>>420016
it is soothing actually. it soothes me and gives me a rush at the same time. i find that im really only happy these days during/for a little while after i spin. my job is depressing and I'm stuck going to school for a really difficult career that I don't want to do (but I'm 7 years in and it's too late to back out now). I think I'm depressed most if not all of the time until I spin. I feel like I've escaped for a few hours, then back to being depressed. I used to be more involved in creative activities like drawing, but that's depressing for me now too.

No. 420030

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>>420005
Sounds like light maladaptive day dreaming (MDD) Annon. People can become addicted to day dreaming to the point it negatively affects their life.
>it is soothing actually. it soothes me and gives me a rush at the same time. i find that im really only happy these days during/for a little while after i spin. my job is depressing and I'm stuck going to school for a really difficult career that I don't want to do
People can use daydreaming as a form of escapeism from their crappy life and that seems what you're doing. The spinning around thing you do is actually pretty big among people with MDD. People pace, rock back and forth, or even spin in chairs to zone off and trigger their daydreams. This might sound kind of like a 'uwu so special' tumblr disese, but MMD can become a debilitating addiction.

https://www.healthline.com/health/mental-health/maladaptive-daydreaming#symptoms

No. 420038

Sometimes, I shoplift.

I don't feel incredibly guilty about it, since I never stole something worth more than $10, from big stores. But I know at this point that it is a fucked up coping mechanism, and I know I should stop.

I never really decided to begin. When I am very anxious, depressed or particularly distressed is when I feel the most compelled to do it. I don't plan on it either, it just happens, when I see the opportunity. It's just so easy.

I feel this nice thrill when I succeed to get some nail polish for free but later I feel horrified at the possibility of getting caught. I feel ashamed about my lack of self control, because I would never see myself as someone that steals.

I've read about it and this behavior is linked to depression and anxiety. I should deal with it.

No. 420040

>>420014
>>420005
same here anons! I'm so glad to find others who do this. I have an exercise ball I just bounce up and down on for this reason, the repetitive motion, and if I'm away I resort to just walking around. I daydream while doing it too.
>>420030
I think I have MDD. But honestly, I don't feel compelled to take action about it. I daydream a lot out of loneliness and as an escape from mundane life, but since it's not affecting my physical health or career… I'll let it be my vice.

No. 420042

>>420038
I don't mean to enable but there truly aren't enough thieves to make retail theft a severe loss for a major company. Shrink is so common it's a predicted variable.
If shrink starts to become a problem, they install cameras and bring in undercovers a la Wal Mart style. Security tags too. I worked retail for a long time and it never bothered me to know that the small shit got lifted, because thieves weren't the true reason why my wages and hours weren't higher. It was a greedy CEO thieving the lives away of us little people working for pennies while the higher ups made millions. Not to mention the theft and rape of the foreign labor and land to produce these cheap goods.
I'll never feel sorry for corporate crocodile tears whining about some lost merch when a lot of it actually gets damaged from mishaps and transportation.

It doesn't mean you should do it because it's not worth fucking up your life for a nail polish. And for shame if you ever do this at a brick and mortar shop where actually a few items stolen do make a difference to their bottom lines.

No. 420058

>>420038
… why are there so many girls that get away with shoplifting? There must be a common denominator…

No. 420059

Not really a sin, but I kinda think I'm in love. The feeling is getting worse every day, but I'm so happy.

No. 420069

i’ve been ridiculously horny since like, february and i’ve only been with one guy. problem is he’s in another state now and i just want to have fun with a few guys and suck some nice cock but i’m too nervous to approach guys irl that i know would be into me out of fear of scaring them or like, making a tinder because i just feel like i’m gonna be really disappointed. i’m hot, 20, and want to have fun but still feel stuck and unable to enjoy life or really figure out my sexuality. i kind of need advice i guess. is fetlife really just filled with creeps? i want to have some non-serious fun with kinky guys but i’m afraid they’ll all be ugly lol.

No. 420071

>>420069
You're scared of tinder but want to join fetlife? lmao what

Everyone has tinder nowadays. Depending on where you live, you might encounter some cool people there.

No. 420074

>>420069
>too nervous to approach guys irl that i know would be into me out of fear of scaring them
Lmao take my word for it there should be no fear of this, doubly so if you do it in a club/bar scene where it's expected.
I've cold approached men much tinier than me at fucking university and have only frightened one (who seems anxious anyway).
No advice on dating apps because ironically I'm scared of those.

No. 420076

>>420071
should have clarified, any sites like that make me nervous, period. i’m afraid of people from high school seeing me on there mostly lol. i have friends who use tinder and they will run into some people on there sometimes.

No. 420078

>>420076
Tinder usually doesnt show you your facebook friends even if does happen sometimes (but rarely). And if they run into you it just means they're on tinder too?
When I run onto my friends on tinder, we "like" (swipe right) on each other not because we want to fuck but as a joke.

Sorry, I legit don't understand why it makes you nervous but to each their own.

No. 420085

>>420069
I think you should just socialize more.

No. 420088

>>420085
i don’t get nervous when guys approach me first, but it’s terrifying when they’re quiet and i have to make the first move… for example there’s only one guy in a class i’ve been taking this summer and he’s actually been in a class with me before but we’ve never really talked. i don’t know if he’s into alternative looking girls but in my experience most guys find it pretty hot. i still am too much of a coward to approach him though. i’m afraid of looking desperate or coming on too strong i guess?

No. 420089

Tinder is fucking trash. Why do people even waste their time with this?

No. 420091

>>420088
Well I just mean that I think it's good advice to do things like… clubs, sports, parties… Like, I'm not really qualified to give advice: I'm basically a shut-in. But when I was in college I didn't have a problem hooking up and it's cause I had a relatively big social circle at the time. So that's basically all I have to contribute.

As for the guy in your class - maybe just ask him to lunch? I think that should be enough a hint that he can take it from there. ?

No. 420094

I’ve taken up reading Yu-Gi-Oh fan fiction again and it’s mostly about the tabloidshipping pair. I feel disgusted with myself yet I sometimes enjoy reading the stories.

I mean, just because the characters aren’t real doesn’t mean it’s wrong, right?

No. 420108

>>420030
I'm concerned because I do this spinning thing too. Should I be? I do other productive things but I've spun around in like 20-30 minute increments before and done it when I was bored… now I'm freaked out.

No. 420126

>>420108
autism spinning anon here. It freaks me out too knowing it's associated MDD. 20-30 minutes doesn't sound bad, nor really time absorbing. and if you're still productive with your time, I don't think it sounds that bad. I spin for 2 hours straight a day minimum, right after work to avoid being super depressed. on the weekends I'll spin pretty much all day with breaks in between. I have a job and go to school, so I'm productive, but the daydreaming does absorb most of the rest of my time. But I feel like I have to do it now to avoid sinking into a really bad mental space.
How/when did you start doing it? I've been doing it for like 18 years and never met anyone else that does it.

No. 420135

>>420005
I used to swing on swingsets all the time for the same reason. I started getting embarrassed of it as an adult, but it was hard to quit until I started walking as a replacement (which doesn't replace it perfectly).

No. 420144

I'm 22 and have never had a boyfriend, kissed anyone & am a virgin. I feel like I come across as such a prude, when I just literally have no experience in anything and I feel like an awkward freak.

No. 420145

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I feel like I have been faking my relationship since it started. I had never dated before and I took a lot of uncertainty and nerves that I had for so long for that. and now I've been dating for almost 4 years and she doesn't know me very well or really cares too much about me like she says she does but is disinterested and brushes off comments I make about not feeling okay. And I keep telling myself it's me and I need to fix myself and am making everything difficult but I don't feel like myself around her like I CAN'T, I feel stupid and slow and awkward. I don't enjoy spending time with her, and i've tried to break up several times, and every-time i come out of it crying and apologizing for making such a big deal out of how am feeling and dragging her into it. the whole day i spend with her last week i felt a blockage in my throat and couldn't think clearly or make sense and i asked her if i was acting weird, and she said that i wasn't and that i don't need to talk all the time. I do talk a lot, but i do it when im happy and excited, when i hang out with friends besides her we talk rapidly the entire time we hang out, and it's something i love. And her saying she didn't notice that really hurt pared with her saying a couple of times that she is overwhelmed and doesn't like that i talk all the time She has severe depression and has told me im the only thing keeping her alive, or keeping her from cutting herself and i feel so trapped.

No. 420189

>>419964
As soon as millennials run for office that shit will probably not be a big deal anymore since realizing someone has nudes online or posted dumb offensive shit as a teenager will be the norm. Writing an edgy story is only shocking to Gen Xers and up who didn't grow up online where it's the norm to talk about how you could have done 9/11 way better in an AIM chatroom for gore pictures. Never mind when we get to zoomer politicians who put their real name on their youtube videos of them screaming racial slurs at people in Fortnite.

No. 420198

>>420145
Honestly, just dump her. You clearly aren't feeling ok and she cannot just treat you like some uwu imma commit a sudoku if u leaf mi. She doesn't care about you, but you have to care about yourself. I know it's gonna be hard but yousaid you have friends? Worst case scenario, you ask your friends somewhere nearby when you breakup, be it in person or via a message. For support.

No. 420207

>>419964
Every time I see stories like this I'm so glad I outlived my teenager edgelord years before social media ever became a thing. If someone dug up all the shitty cringeworthy dark murder fantasy fanfiction I wrote as a severely depressed 14-15-year old bully victim I would be done. Yikes.

No. 420214

>>420089
It depends on how you use and what kind of people you match with. It sucks in my homecountry, but in the country I live in Tinder is great. I've met a bunch of friends there. Met my former best friend (who turned out to be a back stabbing bitch but we did have 2 years of amazing friendship before that). Met some really cool people for casual short relationships.

Key is to never like people with really boring and basic bios and pictures, block guys who send you basic "ice breaker" puns and pick up lines and unmatch people with whom the discussions run really poorly like "hey / hey/ wyd / nothing wbu" etc…

No. 420234

>>420214
I just had so many negative experiences. I want to believe Tinder is not just thirsty guys, I'd use Tinder even for friends because I'm really in need of some friends. In my small town it sucks, though.

No. 421240

I’m a Jewish person. I grew up constantly hearing about the Holocaust because my Great-Grandmother was liberated from Bergen-Belsen and travelled around the US telling her story. Her sister died next to her. She was separated from her parents and never saw them again. Most of my family perished because of the Nazis, but for some reason I developed a massive nazi fetish in my mid teens. Not sure why this happened, but I got really caught up with neo-nazis and got into a few very selective communities without disclosing my background. I even participated in paint ball events IRL dressed in a field grey German uniform.

Now, I laugh at the Neo-Nazis. They’re pretty pathetic and I recognize that. However, the thought of fucking my husband in an SS uniform is hot.

Not sure why I am drawn so much to an entire movement that tried to eradicate me and everyone I am related to, but that’s probably exactly why…

No. 421265

>>421240
The uniforms were super sharp, ngl. I think if you erased the Nazi from the uniform and labeled it as any other domineering military power that didn't happen to genocide thousands of innocents, you'd probably still be drawn to it.

No. 421319

>>421265
the nazis had an aesthetic with their uniforms and design choices but by god that's never going to make me not hate them, if anything it makes them even worse bc they purposely chose to try and present themselves that way in order to hide their atrocities

No. 421777

>>421240
Almost all fetishes are about sexualizing something that would normally be bad happening to you or others. Even bizarre fetishes like balloon popping or clown porn are sexualizing things you might have been anxious of at a young age.

No. 422988

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Sometimes when I'm at work and there's clients sitting in front of my desk I'll hop on a WPM test and type like a madwoman so they can think I'm doing something really intensive when I'm actually just bullshitting around and improving my game.
>mfw I get paid for this shit

No. 423001

>>422988
The quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog, anon.

No. 423830

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Sometimes I just want to throw everything away and become a professional thot just to see how far I'd get. I'd never do it but I find myself wondering if I have potential. Am I attractive enough to be some rich dude's sugar baby and never work another day in my life? I wonder how hard it would be, how much ass would I have to sell to be comfortable as a professional thot.

No. 423834

>>421240
it's bc it's taboo. same reason incest porn is so popular

No. 423841

>>423830
>become a professional thot just to see how far I'd get

If you do it in that business lego man suit I think you'd get pretty far.

No. 423874

>>421240
I'm Jewish too but my fantasy is cucking Jewish men by fucking Aryan men. I'm sick of the shiksa shit its creepy and gross and my dad told me to never date a German boy. I'm married to one ;)

No. 423880

>>423874
was your family accepting?

No. 423883

i have nothing left, i'll never become anything and i should probably just die, but that would upset some people around so i'd be guilty in the end.

i dumped my bf 2 months ago and i kinda regret it bc i have nothing left right now. he was the cutest, loveliest person and i dumped him bc i was tired of his immaturity but maybe i should've waited more for him to fix it. now i left him all alone and he's never gonna probably trust anyone again because of me and hates me. i still love him, i think.

in my mid 20s, no aspirations, no real hobbies, wasting my days, thought something big was my dream, worked towards it and achieved it, now realizing that it's not actually what i want. but i don't know what else i want.

don't have any real friends. here on lolcow bc i have no-one to talk to.

confession is this i guess: i punch myself sometimes because i truly hate myself and everything that i am.

No. 423898

>>423883
Hey, I hate myself too. I hope you get what is best for you.

Mine: I want someone to kill me quickly, so at least I'm gone.

No. 423900

I was sexually abused as a little kid, and it completely fucked me up sexually for years. As a young girl around 10 years old with old parents who didn't understand the internet, I was preyed on by pedophiles on websites that largely targeted kids.

I was groomed and eventually found myself defending pedophilia, zoophilia, and all sorts of other fucked-up shit to impress my online pedophile buddies. (Because pedophiles are degenerates and can never be into just one thing.) Many websites had sections that allowed for political discussion- and I was on that shit every time, defending "childlove", "pedosexuality", etc., because I believed, wholeheartedly as a young girl, that I was capable of consenting to sexual activity, that the man who abused me was just a "childlover" who thought I was attractive and that he 'loved' me. They told me I was in control, that my abuse was consensual. For several years, I deadass believed my abuse was consensual and that I had initiated it. (I didn't.)

Things got bad when some of my online 'friends' groomed me with anime porn- often times stuff like loli/shota. I guess to normalize sexual abuse and to make it seem 'okay', that 'look! these little cartoon girls are doing it, you can too!'. I was probably 12 or 13 when this was happening. I am ashamed and depressed to say that it went on for years- I think I was 16 or so when I began to realize that what was happening to me was sexual abuse. They pressured me when I was 14 to send naked pictures of myself over a chat, but I didn't. Thank fucking god I didn't. But it didn't matter- I was being groomed into thinking that, at the age of 12-14, I was at my "peak". I believed that pedophilia (ephebophilia) was a completely normal, natural thing. That it was healthy. That kids initiate contact with adutls and everyone is different, guys! Some kids just mature faster than others!

I was told I was so mature, so different, so intellectual, so smart. An old soul. Sexy. Intelligent. Not like other kids. I felt happy to be validated by adults. I thought that being included with them made me cool, made me smart, made me special. But I was just another victim of fucked-up grooming and sexual exploitation. I wasn't smart, I wasn't an old soul- I was just a kid being hurt by adults who had ZERO fucking business having sex talks with a random kid on the internet.

It took years and years for me to feel sexually normal. When I would be touched by a partner, all of those awful feelings of being abused would come back to me. I consumed anime porn with very young-looking characters until I hit my 20s, and now feel depressed about all of my younger years. My colorful past is on the internet for anyone to find- and I worry every single day that someone will find what I used to do and use it against me. It has given me such bad anxiety that I have, in the past, contemplated suicide. Looking forward, I know it could come up again- I've tried to remedy the situation, but there's nothing I can do except accept what happened, and be ready to own up to the horrible stuff I said when I was a kid.

As stupid and corny as this sounds, I feel like this shit happened to me for a reason. Maybe it's just me trying to cope. Maybe not. Maybe I was meant to get the word out that this shit happens to a lot of of kids online, and parents need to keep their kids on a tight fucking leash. It horrifies me when I see people giving kids unfettered access to phones, tablets, what the fuck ever. I think about how things could've been different for me if I had never been abused, or given free range online.

I also want people to know that pedophiles and other freaks recruit kids. This isn't a myth. This happened to me personally. Who knows what would have happened to me, had I kept in those circles of people. I remember other "childlover advocates" from when I was young who were also (supposedly) kids themselves. People didn't believe it- many people thought I was a middle-aged man when I was just 14 years old, but these freaks knew exactly how to find vulnerable kids and turn them into useful mouthpieces for their disgusting degeneracy, and get to sexually abuse them, too. Their tactics are probably different now, but their talking points are remarkably similar to what I heard years prior.

No. 423909

>>423900
I’m really curious- and please don’t think I’m “one of them” (Shit like this makes me wonder if men are capable of not being disgusting degenerates and I lose faith in humanity).

But at the time, did you feel pressured or ashamed? Or did that not come until later? You describe sexual interactions as giving you the same awful feeling from childhood as an adult. WAS it awful as a child? Or did you enjoy it under the guise of not knowing you were being used?

I ask bc I loved attention from creeps online in those years and only later on was I repulsed and disgusted by it. I never felt pressured or badly, just gutted later when I realized I was manipulated. Once you age out’ and all of a sudden no one cares about your ‘interesting personality’ and they throw you away like trash. I guess my point is, I wasn’t so much damaged by the exploitation so much so as the manipulation of it. Hopefully I’m articulating myself well and this isn’t insane ramblings.

No. 423919

>>423909

I remember feeling pretty apprehensive when I first discovered this sort of thing. I didn't know what a "pedophile" was (I was in elementary school), but understood I'd been sexually abused as a little kid and I carried it around as a sort of "shameful secret"- for lack of a better word. I never told anyone, and felt tremendous guild for not doing so- I knew it was wrong, that I wasn't supposed to be hurt like that, but I internalized the blame and thought I was the bad guy for not saying anything to anyone. I was also keenly aware, even at a very young age that my abuser would go to prison if I told anyone, so I kept it a secret until a long while after.

These people made me think they were my friends, and at school I was a very isolated, lonely person with crippling anxiety. I felt really happy that I was being accepted into a group of people- even if they were online. I knew it was not a good idea to give out things like my real name or location, so we just knew each other by online handles. I didn't really think it was weird, because I was being groomed into believing that I was just as capable as any adult to consent to sexual activity- I didn't feel exploited until I was older and realized how fucking wrong what they did was.

To answer your question…it's probably a mix of both. When I was sexually abused, I KNEW something wasn't right. It was weird and definitely wrong, but I was too little to articulate it. Growing up, I realize later that the man who abused me very likely went on to abuse other kids, and I've gone through a lot of stages of grief over not telling authorities. I had a lot of confused feelings because I was sexually 'awakened' (for lack of a good way of putting it) at such a young age. I went through feelings of arousal long before I should have had them, was drawing pornographic pictures by the time I was 8/9, but, again, not fully understanding why, and seeking out more and more adult content by the time I was 10/11. So it was a very confusing time. At the time it was a mixture of all sorts of things. In the present, I look back and feel sad because it was so clear I had been deeply hurt, but everyone missed all of the warning signs. In those moments, though, it was much more complicated and hard to sort because there was so much that just should not have been there.

No. 423931

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>tfw breaking up with bf of 2 years bc I can't give up drinking
>tfw been sober since met him
>tfw I don't care about my life or family or relationships anymor

Heis a sweetheart and he doesn't deserve a selfish bitch like me

No. 423976

>>423931
you really fucked up, but I feel for you because I've been in similar miserable situations with guilt eating me from the inside. I hope you can get back on your feet and take care of yourself, you really do deserve to be healthy and happy.

No. 423991

>>423919
Sorry anon, I didn’t realize it went beyond just online grooming and exploitation. I was very lucky to never experience anything tangible myself.
Ugh, the whole thing makes me feel ill. I’m glad you are able to recognize your feelings and blame and acknowledge you were the victim here. I appreciate your insight.

No. 424027

I find everything related to 'polyamory' absolutely degenerate and disgusting, but I think it's partly because I wish I could kiss and cuddle and even sleep with anyone I want to without consequences. But I know there'd be consequences, I have a bf. So I won't do it. And I know it's shitty to want it more than just in a 'haha you're attractive but we're just friends' way, but at least I'm not pretending to be #woke with a super special sexuality.

No. 424031

I know a lot of fucking perverts, either they perved on me or some other girl around me. But I mostly knew them when I was young. The worst thing about these men or boys is that they always treated me like a little sister, gave me headpats and nicknames. When I see men like this, I feel this weird sense to get their approval, as if they programmed me to like the way they infantilized me. I rarely see them but sometimes I do because they're a part of my family and I still feel that adoration and sense of want for approval and it makes me fucking sick.

I think it's still there because my method of coping with it was to retreat to fantasy world where the characters there are some form of damaged or fucked up man. I run my emotions through them so I don't have to feel anything myself. I fixate on the really screwed up ones so all I do is try to normalize stuff they do or try to make it palatable to deal with it. I despise it, but once I try to step out of my comfort zone, the feeling of reality just fucks me up. So far there's no benefit from coming up for air other than ending up incredibly anxious.

I don't let myself get hurt or put myself in those situations anymore, but I keep thinking this is just a stepping stone and I'm doing their work for them. My therapist knows some of this but not to the full extent. I haven't seen her in a while but now I wonder…

No. 424048

I look down on people who are over 20 and can't cook shit. THIS IS A BASIC THING EVERY ADULT SHOULD KNOW HOW TO DO. You don't need to know how to cook fancy dishes but you should at least know enough to be able to feed yourself properly.
The other day I saw on my Faceobok feed some woman over 25 "bragging" about how she can barely prepare an egg. Bitch, why are you proud of being incompetent? It's not quirky or funny to be a womanchild.

No. 424053

>>424048
i get where you're coming from, but i feel more strongly about people who won't make an effort to cook. my mom can't cook for shit so i had to learn to cook from my grandma, but some people don't have anyone to help them and it's not like you have the drive to learn during college years. but i think if you're 24+ and don't make an attempt to learn it's a problem.

No. 424073

>>424048
Yeah this always cracks me up. And girls/guys in showing off their boxed meals on social media with the caption "wifey/husband material"and tagging their SO's. At least they're trying but you know if that's their idea of "cooking" then they're pretty fucked.

No. 424088

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>>424073
Lmfaoo all these posts remind me of the bone apple teeth memes

No. 424096

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>>424088
>>424073
i love wifey material material

No. 424101

>>424096
Lmao. The spaghetti appears to be takeout too because of the little parmesan container. Jesus

No. 424102

>>424053
I learned just from some YouTube tutorials, I didn't hire a teacher to help me cook. It's not that hard really. You're not going to cook for Gordon Ramsay, a lot of recipes are just a matter of putting shit in a pan and throwing some seasoning in, then waiting until it's ready. Who the fuck can't do this? I'm not arguing if they HAVE TIME TO, but they have to know it.

No. 424113

>>424096
You could have picked a worse one. At least there is some honest effort here

No. 424117

>>424048
I look down on them, too, anon. I moved in with someone who is 27 years old and he doesn't even know how to use a measuring cup or follow instructions on a box. When he tried making eggs I got stuck cleaning the pan for an hour because he did it on the highest heat and they stuck. I can't believe some people go through life letting their parents cook for them and never learning to make something simple like cake from a box. How are these people not completely ashamed of themselves? It's gross.

No. 424130

>>424113
that's what I love about it. the sincerity behind the sad reality that is
>gf made bf little more than a 5 year olds school lunch
>bf is proud of this

No. 424141

>>424048
I know an autistic girl whose abusive parents didn't allow her to cook until she moved out of the house. In that kind of case, it's just sad. But most people don't have that kind of excuse. Most of the people I know who can't or won't cook are lazy weeaboos, have serious mental issues or depression, or eat like shit, stuff like constant frozen and pre-prepared foods and fast food. My ex barely cooked and he had all of this pickiness about foods, that kind of sucked. He basically only eats meat and potatoes. If he gets cancer or malnourished I won't be surprised. He complained about his father's cooking and didn't eat it, but it sounded like his dad made really good food, if he was repetitive, and it was way healthier than what my ex was eating just by virtue of including plenty of vegetables.
I stopped with the joking about being a bad cook after high school. I would rather people joke that I'm learning to cook to keep my husband or talk about what a good wife I am, no matter how annoying it is, than to be incapable of cooking. I cook well and not everyone I know knows I'm a good cook, not sure if it's the stereotype about students and ones in my major in particular or if it's because I'm a "tomboy" that they just assume I'm like teehee quirky womanchild you mentioned.
I get people having legitimate excuses, but eating like shit makes you feel shittier. Why not start by eating a little better, even if it's buying meal kits or precut foods from the supermarket if you have the money? Lots of places have stuff already spiced or chopped that you just cook up. Eat a vegetable. Stop eating so many salty pre-packaged foods and takeout.

No. 424155

>>424048
I remember being in high school and feeling really embarrassed about the fact that I didn't know how to cook to the point of not even understanding how to operate the stove top or oven. This is because my parents never let me do shit growing up - they were weirdly controlling and put it in my head that if I so much as touched anything in the kitchen, I'd set the house ablaze. They were the same way about other household chores, too.

Despite the paranoia instilled in me I managed to teach myself how to cook (and clean, by extension). I beat myself up a lot at first because I seriously didn't know even the simplest of shit, but through perseverance and the help of YouTube videos like >>424102 I'd like to consider myself a pretty decent cook now. I don't think lack of time or lack of a mentor is a valid excuse not to learn. Knowing how to cook and take care of yourself is an essential life skill and you can't keep relying on others to do it for you.

No. 424156

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>>424053
This book is great for people who are too tired/depressed/sick/whatever to cook or plan meals. It's not a cookbook per se but has a lot of ideas for easy, low effort shit that can still be nutritious. It saved my relationship basically because my partner works a high stress job and I have a chronic illness and sometimes we just wouldn't eat which made us even hangrier.

No. 424308

>>424102
>>424155
i didn't have internet guides when i was in high school. of course now it's easy to cook, but eve so, it's easier to have someone there, especially if you fuck up and need help.

No. 424314

>>424048
TBH the most I've ever cooked was a muffin in home economics class a decade ago since I've always just gotten someone else to do it for me.

No. 424315

>>423880
My mom loves my husband because he's really sweet, I met him at a messianic cult when we were kids lol. My dad I haven't talked to in years and probably doesn't even know I'm married, fuck him though.

No. 424331

I masturbate to hentai (of adult characters) and support hentai games because they're nice looking and actually pretty vanilla enough to deescalate my old weird porn addiction. It feels better than supporting the actual human suffering that extends from giving pornhub my traffic.

No. 424391

>>424141
>>424155
Yeah, most people don't have such a bad start at life to justify themselves. Even then, if you are an adult and living on your own it doesn't hurt to learn. Specially because nowadays there's plenty of videos online teaching every little thing. Cooking requires mastering a few basic skills really, once you properly learn how to sauteé, for example, you can do A LOT. It's cheaper and healthier to cook at home too. When I was living on my own I'd make enough food to last for 3-4 days so it wasn't like it was super time consuming.

No. 424793

>>424331
Seconded, hentai is cancer but at least isn't real, if you stay on the vanilla side (without rape/pedophilia and very weird shit) isn't actually that bad. I had a porn addiction too, it's pretty hard to get rid out of it and i know switching to hentai isn't better but at least i'm jerking off with something that doesn't hurt real people (directly), maybe someday i'll leave porn completely and i'm working on it.

No. 425021

My male friend was sexually assaulted while intoxicated(mixture of drugs, alcohol) by a group of girls seeking revenge on him after he had messed around with them, cheated on them with each other, led them on etc. He wants my help but I honestly have no way of helping him and I don't feel bad for him. He tells me he 'hates women' now. I feel guilty but I just want to tell him to seek help from a therapist. I will only tell him horrible shit, he's a horrible person and those girls are horrible too. I just want to wash my hands clean of this.

No. 425051

>>425021
What does that entail? Sticking things up his ass?
Tell him to go to the police, it's literally their job to deal with it.

No. 425058

>>425021
Just tell him to report it to the police and go see a therapist. Chances are he's going to hate you for not being his shoulder to cry on though, kek.

No. 425081

>>425021
What exactly did they do, was it serious?

No. 425087

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I'm the kind of person who shits on astrology all the time, it really makes no sense but, in secret I always read articles on the topics and lately I've started to wonder if they were actually true because my boyfriend and my sister have the same sign (Gemini) and they might not have the same personality but the way I deal with them both is kinda similar, they are both big babies that I baby and it is actually mad.

No. 425090

>>425087
I say I don't believe in it either but it's really fun to read, and honestly odd how accurate it can be.

No. 425101

>>425087
I don't 100% believe in it either but who knows? I like to read for fun too.

No. 425113

>>423931
how have you been sober since you met him, but also have a drinking problem? do i just suck at reading comprehension or..

No. 425114

>>425113
I think anon is saying she has been sober the past 2 years but is now relapsing.

No. 425122

>>425087
honestly I sometimes treat awkward/mysterious people (introverts, really) by their moon sign if I can figure it out, and it seems to work?

No. 425148

>>425021
He's likely lying to you

No. 425152

>>425087
So my insane, tinfoil hat conspiracy with astrology works with simulation theory.

Our birthcharts are like randomized sim characteristcs.



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