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No. 3463

How long has it been since your last confession?
Get it off your chest, farmers.

No. 3465

See a therapist and stop being such a drama queen.

Liking loli doesn't make you a pedo, contrary to what most people would think.If it's just a small fetish you have, it doesn't have to consume you. Just try to wean yourself off it.

No. 3467

I have so much stuff to do, yet I here, on my laptop browsing shit and I haven't went outside in two days.

No. 3468

there's apps that will lock the internet for you, like quostidio

No. 3485

I'm crawling further and further into a bottle because I can't seem to meet any guys who don't have severe emotional problems. I'm so depressed, I haven't had sex in 4 fucking years. I even tried to just hook up, but every time I try I get whiny broke dick losers. What the fuckkkkk ugh

No. 3497


have you tried dating sites anon?

No. 3503

lower your standards when it comes to looks

mediocre/ugly looking guys have some of the greatest personalities and they'll be all over you if you're "not in their league"

start thinking along the lines of
-is this guy a good provider if I ever have kids?
-is this guy emotionally mature enough for me?
-is this guy likely to cheat?
-can I envision this guy being a father

etc. etc.
pretty boys are just not worth it anon too much drama and effort

No. 3511


I don't really have high standards for looks, I'm not into prettyboys or the usual 'attractive' guy, tbh faces don't matter to me as long as a guy is clean shaven, doesn't smell bad and his clothes are clean and not wrinked or worn out. It's just, every guy I talk to is so damaged like wtf. Case in point- I was talking to a really well rounded older guy I met in a coffee shop, but last week out of nowhere he asked if I was a virgin (I'm 26, wtf?) and when I ofc said no, he went all crazy on me suddenly and started asking how many guys I've been with, how big they were, the last time I had sex, how many times in my life I've had sex…. like what the fuck is that? We were talking about goddamn hiking and he came out of nowhere with it. I just…. whaaaat the fuck man.

I haven't tried any free ones, and I just had to have surgery so my budget is pretty tight right now for paid ones, but no I teally haven't. I always thought dating sites were aimed at people looking for more long term stuff/marriage, and honestly I just want something simple right now.

No. 3525

At least u dodged a bullet there damn

No. 3528

i misgender my shitty ex bc i know it'll cause her grief and i doubt she's actually trans or w/e she claims to be. one of my friends who's now closer to her is telling me to stop being a piece of shit but geez my ex jumped on that transtrender shit fast that i don't buy it at all.

i'm still filled with hatred and blame her for me becoming so emotionally fucked up even tho our break up was mutual and she was still v nice to me when we met up for our mutual friends bc i'm a fuckin piece of shit who cant take responsibility for my own shitty emotions

you can try tinder? i have it for shits and giggles but ive seen some people meet and date over it.

No. 3532


yeah like the other anon said try tinder and okcupid. there will be some idiots but it's kinda fun to look thru people's profiles and stuff

No. 3533


it's really hard to take responsibility for your own feelings sometimes but that's also like, the hardest part. if you can realize your responsibility then it's much easier for you to realize that you have the power to change them

No. 3544

thanks anon :'( i've been reevaluating my life here and there when it comes to it and sometimes i really want to get over myself and talk to her but i wonder if it would really do me any good since previous attempts always end w me cutting off the friendship hhaahha……..

No. 64246

I'll die as a cat lady or dog lady alone

Or I'll become a cheap dumb prostitute

No. 112875

Seems to be the newest confession thread in the catalog so I'll necro it. Hopefully it won't go to shit.

I've inadvertently overheard a conversation between my 16 year old stepdaughter and a boy about him taking her to a concert this weekend. They're planning on doing this in secret, under the guise of her sleeping over at her best friend's house. The boy is actually a pretty decent kid considering. Gets good grades, is polite, and doesn't treat her like shit. I'm actually considering playing along with the BS because I haven't had a Saturday to myself in forever. Her dad's crew is scheduled to work this weekend so he'll be gone too.

Do I call her on her BS or just roll with it and settle in for a night of beer and vidya?

No. 112876

Call her on her bs, say gtfo, then drink. Youll be boss af

No. 112877

Hey, it's just a concert. Should be fine. But you should talk to her about lying afterwards.

No. 112879

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I quit my job at McDs two weeks ago because it was brutal as fuck but I instantly regretted it because now I'm back home being a NEET with no money

>Its pathetic but debating going back to see if I can reapply/get my job back

>it paid decently,only had to work 3 days out of the week and was close to my house which was a plus since i dont have a car

I'm hoping I can get at least a seasonal retail job before the year ends

No. 112880

Can you explain why they dont have breakfast bowls in every mcdonalds yet? I can only get them back home.

Also, good luck with the job hunt. You definitely can get one in retail with the holidays coming up they always need hires

No. 112881

I keep going back to square one after months of working on improving myself, I think a part of me likes being miserable. My self esteem is so low I cringe when daydream about being with someone.

No. 112901


Called her out on the BS and warned her about lying. She got so embarrassed she was laughing crying heh. I asked for concert details and am letting her sweat a bit as to my answer, but will probably let her go. Fuck yeah, I'm gonna stock up on soom booze for the weekend.

No. 112909

i used to treat my best friend like dirt because she was really angry and bitchy all the time (she had home stuff going on though) and never really stopped, i still ignore her sometimes and resent hanging out with her. but the minute she gets new friends or doesn't have time to hang out with me i get so annoyed, i am everything i hate in a friend.

also i'm mega entitled, like i really wanted a career in academia so i've worked myself up to an ma course at my dream uni but now that i'm here i'm so unhappy. wish i could just enjoy it and make the most of it but instead i'm procrastinating on a confession thread and i haven't left the flat in three days.

good luck anon, keep your feet moving

No. 112912

I feed my neighbor's indoor/outdoor cat treats because she started hanging out in my yard. she is getting a little bit fat.

she knows to come to the door before I leave for work at this point and will paw at the door knob.

I feel weird buying cat treats because I don't actually have any pets.

No. 112930

Sometimes when I get super stressed out at work I go to the bathroom and masturbate. Thank god I'm the only female in my office. I've been thinking of getting a silent vibe just to make it quicker.

No. 112953

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when i'm stressed i make these weird 'collages' where I pretend i have a certain challenge to spend XX amount of money on clothes at a certain shop and XX amount of money to spend on makeup/skincare. Then I go through seasons/weeks, like "Spring/Week 1" and think of different outfits/makeup that I would buy. It's more of just a fancy way of sorting out things I want to buy and checking out new stores/whats new in stock I guess.

It's so tedious and stupid, but damn its relaxing.

Pic related, apparently I added a category of Fukuoka omiyage (Japan fag here) because this was right before my trip down there.

No. 112959

Ooh that seems super comfy anon. I'm going to try that our myself.

No. 112970

this sounds interesting. what are your pictured things?

No. 112971

how do you make these?? so cute!

No. 113032

just copying and pasting onto paint…super basic!

The clothes and accessories are from a shop I saw advertised at my favorite shopping mall…Make up is 2 blush colors, a great powder by canmake, a lipgloss, and a lip product that prevents your regular lipstick from smearing or coming off! Really recommend all of the makeup items as I've collected them all now :) Stuff on the bottom is all ideas for snacks/souvenirs from Hakata to give to friends/bf/coworker/etc.

No. 114563

This makes me a horrible person.

I had a "best friend"… we were friends for a very long time. From second grade all the way through her first year of college. She was always super rude to me and to everyone else. Could not go a sentence without swearing, calling someone a name, or ranting. Did not handle her problems like an adult and would simply ignore people until she needed them. We hung out a lot during her first year of college because our schedules matched nicely since I was still in high school, senior year, and therefore had a shit load of time. I began to resent her shitty attitude, though.

We hung out enough that she wanted me to meet her shitty, cheating boyfriend again after 3 years because we didn't get along the first time due to him hating every single one of her friends for no reason. We planned a night to get together. We all (me, friend, boyfriend, boyfriend's buddy) went out to a lounge and her boyfriend and I were getting along, surprisingly enough. We were having a good time. Drinking, joking around, smoking. My friend has a tendency to get moody when the attention is not entirely on her, so I was sitting next to her and snuggled up to her but she was still moody because her boyfriend wouldn't climb all over her in front of everyone. Then, girl boyfriend cheated on her with comes into the lounge. My friend storms out and we leave her be. She eventually comes back. We eventually leave, go back to her house. She goes to bed, her boyfriend and drunk me stay up to watch a movie. I'm on a bed, he's on the floor. We flirt a lot. Exchange numbers.

We begin texting, then hanging out without her. Never hooked up, though. Kissed. Get a call one day from his other girlfriend. He's living with another girl and paying all her bills. Friend is upset, swears him off, other girl didn't out me to friend. I have anxiety the whole time. Cheater sends obsessive emails every 10 minutes to friend until she finally relents and begins answering him after two weeks. I'm (possibly) assaulted around this time. She's there for me, I feel like this is my karma. Life happens, I move on. She becomes best friends with Cheater's side girl, thinking she'll win boyfriend back once their lease is up (he could've left at any time. his credit is already ruined.). She won't listen to reason. Everyone is at fault but the Cheater. One day, get invited to go to the lounge again with friend and cheater by cheater. All I answer is "sure". Suddenly, next day, getting asked by friend when I was going to tell her I was hanging out with Cheater without her after she posts cryptic Snapchats about me. Tell her I thought we were all going out. She tells me to go have fun.

Then she showed up at my house the next day. Told me side girl told her I had "a thing" with Cheater and that's why she freaked out. I deny hard. She says she's going to delete Snapchat and to text her because she's tired of drama. She ultimately took side girl's side and never bothered to formally end our friendship, after treating me like shit in favor of side girl for a week prior to this. I blocked her on social media when I got the courage to re-open everything after closing it due to the assault.

Now… I'm in community college for two semesters until I transfer. Still don't have a close friend and don't really go out. I did it to myself and I probably don't deserve to have friends. I want to believe I'm a better person. It wasn't worth it. I'm not sad that I got caught. I felt better that I didn't have to lie anymore. I'm upset that I could be that kind of vile person at all.
I will never do that to someone again.

I really needed that off my chest.

No. 114567

Fwiw you're all horrible people

No. 114568


I wouldn't say the ex-friend is necessarily a horrible person. I believe she just has poor judgment and social skills. She does have other problems to work through too and even though she is an adult now, years of living a certain way can have an effect on someone.

No. 114650

I feel like my confession is shit now due to the previous confession, but I made a private tumblr where I made a character sheet for my ideal self and ive been adding shit to it (similar to the collage anon up the thread.), I also made an ideal income and I made myself an apartment,a perfect boyfriend and a bucket list but I know its never going to happen, yet I still indulge because its nice to feel like I have control

No. 114678

That's actually kind of cool. I don't think you need to feel bad about it. I don't think it's any different than goal boards or guided meditation for self-improvement.

No. 114686

I'm addicted to heroin

Let me preface this by saying this mostly just hurts me- I have NEVER stolen from friends or put them in compromising situations because of this in any way. I've also never stolen. Just ended up pawning a lot of my items and taking some family money under false pretenses (which I paid a decent amount back) before finally telling them the truth.

Anyways, it sucks because when it first started I thought I could trust a few of my friends to know the horrible truth by not judging me. I told them when I was leaving for rehab. So it wasn't like hey, I do heroin now, deal with it. Even tho I was clear abt getting help, reactions were mixed. One remained a loyal friend but her perception of me forever changed, I could tell.

The other friend got really freaked out and I suspect she told some people, because that entire group basically stopped talking to me and inviting me out around the same time. My entire college group of friends that I LOVED. And it's even more fucked up because I kept all of her secrets, especially about her std…I was there for her 100% and never told or mutual friend that she hooked up with, because he would've freaked out. Obviously.

When I tried to confront her about our drifting apart last year she made the whole fucking thing about her. Saying that me going through this and changing put her in a situation that she is "struggling with" because thinking about me in any way causes her so much pain. Bitch really?

So I'm faced with too shitty conclusions. Either "my friend" was always a fair weather friend to begin with who only really thinks of herself, or my actions were really that shitty. But my whole drug addiction stems from a trauma I would've hoped she understood…it didn't just come from nowhere.

So yeah. It sucks losing all of your college friends.

No. 114687

Anon, do you fear dying in an overdose?

No. 114688

Thanks for actually reading through my thread. I wasn't sure if I'd get any replies.

So that's a hard question. My boyfriend and I both use and I fear for his OD more than mine, and we have both had to revive each other before. Oddly, we revived each other with suboxone somehow and haven't had it yet to the point of needing to call someone. We both worry about that and try our best to practice safe usage and do test shots. But of course anything can happen. We also have a dealer we trust who has been consistent with his product since day 1.

The day I had to revive him was the scariest of my life. Thinking about that it the biggest motivating factor to get clean. We are down to using about once a week.

If I OD, sadly I think, well, at least is bullshit and pain is over. But of he ODs…I mean he and my family are my primary motivators to get clean. I couldn't live with that. I'd rather die myself.

We also stay on suboxone on our off days, so I hope it helps keep our tolerance up.

No. 114689

It's always scary, obviously I would prefer it not to happen at all. But there have been a lot of moments for each of us.

I just wanted to ad that I am taking suboxone and hope to get clean for the holidays. Every week is always "the last" but it needs to happen now. I really hope we can do it and think we can.

TBH it makes more sense to me that we have gradually lessened our use instead of abruptly stopping with rehab.

No. 114699

Never thought I'd make a /pol/ type confession but here it goes. I'm a retard and posted this in the old confessions thread and my browser didn't load a password so I can't delete that old post.

I'm only attracted to white guys. (I'm not white btw) But I've never been approached by a white guy for anything more than a hookup. (And I do flirt with/talk to them so it's not like I don't make an effort.) Sometimes it turned into dating but the point is that the guys I like have never actively pursued me for anything serious.

On the other hand, for some reason everyone who has asked me out on an actual date or shown interest in me beyond hopping into bed has been black or South Asian, which I'm butthurt about. (lol) Awkwardness as I have to decline politely.

I thought it might be a cultural/forwardness thing, but if that were true then I don't think I'd get asked out by Indians ever.

No. 114703


I hope you manage to live happily without heroin someday, life is great and all, it's good being alive. I'm not gonna be hypocrite and say you should live without drugs. But at least try to keep your shit together. I wish the best for you and your bf.

No. 114731

Indians are persistent as fuck.

No. 114739

They sound like some fairweather friends to me anon. I work with drug users and this is unfortunately really common. You came to them as a friend, said 'hey I have this really hard thing to deal with but I am also doing this to change it' and they fucked off.
the only thing that changed was they knew heroin was involved and they left.

Good luck with rehab, when it seems unbearable remind yourself of all the reasons you went in the first place.

No. 115259

Thanks anon :) It's nice to get a genuine response on here regarding all this bulkshit I/we have been going to. I feel very lucky to have a partner during all of this and not be alone, because that would make it so much worse.

We also just found out today that one of our old dealers that always fronted us is back, so there's that. Obviously deleting/blocking all numbers would go a long way but that is just such a huge step that I'm just not ready for right now. Idk if I could ever do that TBH. Even after I quit for good, you just never know if some serious shit is going to go down and you might just need to relapse for a day, you know?

But honestly, like I said earlier, just going from using every day and constantly trying to find ways/money to use as much as possible, to going down to using once or twice a week is such a huge step. Only someone that's really been there can realize how something that seemingly sounds so small/still bad took a lot to get to. So the next step is definitely stopping, and we both want to. I say this every week, but I genuinely feel that this will be it for a while, because I would like to not have marks on my arms for Thanakgiving/the holidays. So here we go!

No. 115261

Well these are 2nd gen American guys of Indian descent, and as far as I can tell, asking women out is not the easiest thing for them. Same story as Asian guys in general.

Goddammit I just want a hot white guy to ask me out for once.

No. 115268

No. 115273

Ummm, are you a chick tho or some mysogynisyic robot?

But ya, if the answer is (1), I know what you mean. I fucking hate women, but alas, I am one. Why can't everyone just chill the fuck out and be cool? I don't think I've had a single female friend that can keep up in that sense. They all think they're ~super cool~ and ~different~ lol ~girl gamerz~ or whatever. Especially the ones that are so chill about causal sex but end up being the most fucking emo ppl ever.

My last "BFF" that I recently lost (as a friend, not death) because she's a fucking emotional train wreck with genital herpes to match was like that. Fucking bitch.

But of course I can't just chill with guys like I used to. I'm in a serious, long-term relationship now and that shit is weird. I'm in my late twenties now and ppl are either married or coupled up, and that shit is just weird and inappropriate now, unfortunately :/

But hey, my boyfriend is the best friend I could ever have, on top of everything else, so it's worth the trade-off. Just a weird social rule I've noticed since college.

No. 115276

Lol. I'm not even hating because at least you're on /b/ and you're not fucking broadcasting that you're OMG A GUY!!!! On this site until I asked.

lol I have rape fantasies. But consensual ones, if that makes sense. Honestly I only think other girls can truly understand what we mean by that.

Not to generalize and make things worse for us gals but I think most girls do. Especially the loud SJWs out there.

Obviously that doesn't mean we all want to get raped. No one does. But I mean, you know what I mean. Lol.

ANYWAYS, moving on. Curious; what draws guys to this site? Or more specifically, you? And how'd you hear about it?!

No. 115277

These are all from actual Indians though, not Americans who have Indian parents/families. Who are completely different.

God it's hilarious when a dude from that type of society discovers the internet and thinks it's his personal harem of easy western women who will bend over for his stankass tiny dick.

No. 115278

I'd call them seduction fantasies where the man is really sexy and desirable and the woman gets off on the fact that he wants her so badly, he'll take her right there.

No. 115279

Yes, this exactly. Aw fuck, now I want to masturbate. Hitachi….

Too bad it takes me fucking forever to cum even with the hitachi. Plus I'm high, so add another 45 minutes to that. Damn you -_-

No. 115281

Sure but IME when men hear the phrase rape fantasy they're thinking about something far more violent and coercive than what women actually fantasize about.

Assault and leave bleeding on the ground? Uhh, no. Pin down and touch me in the right places while I pretend to be a good little virgin who doesn't want it? Yeah that's the stuff.

No. 115282

>I primarily come here to learn more about how female brains work and better understand things from their perspective

All right, that's my autism quota for the day and cue to gtfo off lolcow.

No. 115283

Makes sense. Do you have a gf that you're trying to better understand, or are you younger/in late HS maybe college & single and trying to improve your game? Lol. What threads here seem to tell you the most about how girls think?

Yes, this. Exactly. Well said OP. Boy above, take notes!

No. 115284

Lmao. Hey, at least he admits it and hasn't been sperging up the place as far as we know.

Samefag as above, I'm curious exactly why he's doing it if he has a gf or is young and needs help in that department. That'll best determine the autism quota here.

Also curious if you consider yourself attractive, male OP?

Sage of samefag and getting OT here.

No. 115285

Fucking samefag #3 but why is this all making me horny? Fucking rape fantasies and shit and I just spent like 10 Minutes writing about my clit in /g/. But I just cannot put forth the effort to masturbate right now. Even with the hitachi, that's just 45 minutes I don't feel like spending right now. Plus, there's no garuntee I'll even get there since I'm on dope. The ultimate orgasm killer, for men and women! <sup>TM</sup>

No. 115286

Aw damn, my superscript thing didn't work :( Can you not do those kinds of text edits on here?

No. 115288

>On most imageboards (including 4chan) there is very few or literally no girls.
You are literally retarded if you think that's actually the case.

No. 115291

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#1 Maybe you understand it, or think you do, but unfortunately most men don't.

#2 Maybe I wasn't totally clear, but still, just curious why you need such a feminine change of pace like this. Because it's such a niche site that is mainly dedicated to nitpicking and discussing other chicks that barely qualify as d-list wannabes. So do you follow some of these girls, or do you come here for the /b/ and /g/ content? And either way, these boards aren't nearly as fast as 4chan.
And agreed, so don't tell them! Lol

#3 lmao, humble brah much? Not even, that was aggressive. Don't worry, I'm not asking you to post a pic. Typical /fit/izen response though, lolz.

#4 You do dope? Speaking of which, time for my cotton shot! First wash, too! Yay! Too bad my rigs are old as shit. ( ° ʖ °)

Ehhh…idk, anon. See >>115289 below.

Aight idk if this is just me and OP male, but it looks like someone else joined in above me. It's good we are sage-ing, but we should seriously wrap this up soon before we totally derail this thread lol. But OP Male, respond to my last questions above first! Lol because I really am curious abt why you come here. Thanks!

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Aight, that makes sense. I am satisfied with that answer.
Okay, last question. I must know what you jerked off to. I mean, doesn't need to be exact content, but I am just miffed what a guy would jack off to on this site. Most of the lolcows on here are fucking train wrecks, with the few attractive exceptions, but still, they look mad young so ew.

I'm not gunna sage this one, because it looks like we have come to a confession after all, namely, what is it is you're jerking off to on here.
( °( ° ʖ( ° ʖ °)ʖ °) °)

No. 115295

I'm also kind of glad this buried my earlier confession about dope. Speaking of which, time for that cotton shot…

I look forward to your confession when I'm done and lit ;)

No. 115332

Um, oh. Idk make anon, I don't think I like you as much anymore, lol. A lot of girls on this site think that this is pretty much a haven for us girls, and most certainly aren't writing hoping some "creep" is reading, sorry to burst your bubble…ugh. That's exactly the type of thinking we girls hate. Not to sound like an SJW, but even us reasonable girls hate how guys seem to have that sort of mentality about everything we do. It's fucking disgusting and is almost certainly a factor in extreme cases where men who rape think the girl was "asking for it." I'm not going to act like some SJW an accuse you of being like that because it's totally a false equivalency and we are just on a stupid image board, but come on.

Girls here don't even like it when guys post in /g/, and I'm not sure if it actually is, but I'm willing to guess a lot think it's actually a bannable offense. I mean, I'm not sure if you're the guy who posted on the "Friend Finder General" thread, but if you are, you got that longtime /g/ thread moved to /b/ just because of that reply :/

No. 115334

And to add, anyone who really did want to post for some creep would just go to /b/ or /r9k/ on 4chan and scream about how they are a girl, lol.

No. 115335

>I suspect that a few of them probably write these posts intentionally knowing that some """creep""" is gonna get turned on reading it.


No. 115337


It is so self centered to read something here and this k "oh man, I'm reading between the lines, and this post is for me".

Like, sometimes people post their true thoughts on an anonymous board. Why would they be writing it with the subliminal need to arouse our dear anon, when there are things like tinder? Or fetlife? Or those dirty pen pal subreddits?

No. 115339

It's almost funny, but more creepy TBH :( I don't like it, and I've posted a lot about my vagina today, lol. I mean fuck "safe space" bullshit. Like I said, I'm not a fucking SJW and this is the internet, the farthest from whatever the fuck a "safe space" possible, but this site was made for girls. I know the previous admin was a guy, but from what I heard about him/saw, he seemed very professional and stayed out of a lot of the girlies shit on here, besides providing ample
milk outing self posters! Lol. Plus, I got the impression he wasn't in to running this site at all, especially towards the end there. Hence why he gave this site away. Lastly, AFAIK, he tried to hide the fact he was a man for as long as possible for this exact type of reason. People were uncomfortable with a guy running a site like this. Until, of course it was finally revealed, and by then everyone knew what a badass and professional admin he had been, so it didn't rly matter.

Hmmm, a lot of my above reply was meant for you, too. But y thoughts exactly. It's fucking creepy. The one time I'm ready to give some guy on here who is proudly proclaiming he is male a free pass, and there he goes saying the most stereotypic shit here that most of us fear.

Like thank GAWD I've never posted a pic of myself on any of the friend finder type threads or if there's some like, idk, "show your mug" thread, because this creep could be fucking beating off to it. AGAIN, obviously no site is totally safe, but it took me a while to find this site. I feel like it's a pretty small community AFAIK. The traffic is nothing like 4chan. Idk how many unique users there are, but who would even want to come to a site like this unless you are a very specific type of girl.

Honestly, with all that's been said by male anon, you seem like the typical creepy robot. You're probably 17 because all of your responses seem pretty immature. You probably don't even know what this site is really about and don't know who anyone on /pt/ or /snow/ is. You literally read "girl" one day and just decided to be a total creep…ick. It's like, I almost want to watch what I post now because I read this after posting some very personal sexual shit on other threads. Ugh. It people like you who ruin shit for everyone else. Just GTFO, no one wants you here. You could have been cool and maybe even welcomed, but you completely have instead succeeded in creeping everyone else on this 95% female board.

Gah, I don't even want to know what the extreme SJW tumblrinas who I know come around here think. I suspect you'll really get reamed out later, because I feel like I was pretty tame.

I was worried abt derailing earlier, but you ended up posting a pretty embarrassing confession after all. W2G!

No. 115340

Top fucking kek, as if we don't assume this place is all women and come here specifically to post without men around.

No. 115349

I don't think anyone is giving male-anon a hard time because of "safe spaces".

I think it is more the fact that he actually thinks some posters here are writing shit to specifically turn on creeps, is hilarious. It is such a stretch of the imagination, and it reminds me of guys I know who will be like "omg this girl on the bus has been flirting with me so hard! She always looks at me and touches her hair!" And I'm always like "looking at you means nothing. I look at shit all day. I touch my hair for a million reasons. It isn't a secret message. It is just hair."

Or it reminds me of guys who think baristas are flirting with them, instead of basic customer service.

It just makes me want to shake them and be like "you aren't the center of the universe! Not everything is about you!"

No. 115350

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Seriously. That's why what he said was so fucking creepy/weird. And also why I strongly suspect he is underage…I mean who seriously thinks like that?

No. 115364

He might just be really immature and inexperienced. He sounds sheltered.

Lbr he's probably jacking it to these posts right now.

No. 115378

literally no one on here cares about your 'sexuality' go fap to hentai or something

No. 115379

Literally no one here cares about you not caring about "my" sexuality.

Pro-tip: It's not "my" sexuality, almost all the guys you've met in real life are just as "creepy".

No. 115380

At the very least I can say that I don't get aroused by poorly written posts on an imageboard that is in all likelihood mainly frequented by ugly women, though you are right in principle that women tend to have a very toned down idea of male sexuality

No. 115382

>I could pull out a few specific posts where I'm almost sure they're intentionally writing something arousing.

Please do so we can laugh at you together.

>You call me immature and sheltered, but women never grow out of that "ewww creepy" middle-school attitude about men/sex.

From the guy who came here to learn about women because he's trying to find a gf, and ended up fapping to posts that he thinks are written for him…ya, I'm going to listen to him about women.

What subliminal sex messages am I sending to your boner with this post?

No. 115383

We basically all don't care about you, or your sexuality.

(PS please don't jerk off to this post. I am not sending you any secret messages)

No. 115384

If creep-anon doesn't respond to your post on 5 minutes, it is undeniable proof that he is too busy fapping.

No. 115385

Do you post in /r/incels?

No. 115386

>because he's trying to find a gf

I'm not, I even said that before. It's not like reading posts here would help with that anyway.

>ya, I'm going to listen to him about women.

Regardless of whether or not you listen it's still true. What about my comments on men?

You stupid women have no clue how men think, especially regarding sexuality. Most men are mentally operating on a level far above women. They put on fake personas around you, and question whether they're too transparent, but then they remember how stupid and gullible women are.

Don't worry, I wrote this post with one hand.

No. 115387

Why does it matter though? I'm just trying to figure out in what way could I possibly give a shit if someone on the internet read a post I made and fapped to it. I barely ever posted pictures of myself to one site or another (certainly not imageboards) but if anything I'd just be slightly happy if someone fapped to them, in that at least that one person thought I was hot enough, but again ultimately I don't see any reason to give a shit. It just doesn't affect you personally in any way whatsoever unless you willingly let it affect you by consciously deciding that it actually bothers you.
The reason one doesn't post their pictures on imageboards is because you realistically don't want people you know IRL to know that you also browse these websites, not that some "creep" may end up masturbating to them.

No. 115388

It is just hilarious that you are so delusional that you think some people came here to write posts, with the intent of arousing "creeps".

It shows an inability to think beyond your perspective, and put yourself in another person's shoes. What would even be the goal of doing that? How would we know about the creeps, unless they tell us that they're jerking off to our posts? What's to gain?

THEN you get your feelings hurt, so you post about how women really don't know anything about men's sexuality, despite that not being the topic of conversation, and the fact that you obviously have no experience with relationships so no one cares what you think about sexuality at all.

So, to boil it all down: it matters because you had a chance to blend in and participate here, but you fucked it up, and now we're mocking you.

Do you fall in love with every store clerk who says "hello?" No? Then don't be a dum-dum who thinks posts on an anonymous message board are there just to titilate creeps like him.

No. 115389

I wouldn't listen to you about men or wokmen, because you clearly have some delusions about women, and this entire board.

No. 115390

>Most men are mentally operating on a level far above women.

Lol does that include you? Please share your wisdoms with us, divine oracle.

No. 115391

I'm not him, I'm just wondering, mostly about the earlier part of this discussion, where a lot of people seem to care.

No. 115392

>if anything I'd just be slightly happy if someone fapped to them, in that at least that one person thought I was hot enough

a) just because you'd be happy doesn't mean everyone would be
b) you're fapping to texts posts here. So I doubt it has anything to do with hotness
c) you sound desperate and inexperienced so of course you'd like to be fapped to

No. 115393


No. 115394

Its probably for similar reasons. The guy is delusional.

No. 115395

Christ, it's obvious from posting times, he's not going to have posted both >>115386 and >>115387 within one second, but you even go at it a good time after I post >>115391 and then comes this >>115393 retard that not only failed to notice the 1 second time difference between posts, not only failed to notice that the first guy never pretended to be someone else in the entire discussion and has a different tone to his posts, but even tries to damage control despite all that

No. 115396

Did you even read that girl's post? It's obviously not me. How did you even mistake her for me? You must have not read any of it.

>It shows an inability to think beyond your perspective, and put yourself in another person's shoes.

If you were able to do this we wouldn't be talking about this right now.

>What would even be the goal of doing that? How would we know about the creeps, unless they tell us that they're jerking off to our posts? What's to gain?

You are not every single woman that posts here. I did not say every single post a women writes here about sex is trying to arouse male/lesbian lurkers.

Do you really think that no female here has ever written a post intentionally meant to be arousing? No, that thought doesn't form in your mind, you tunnel-vision in on the thought of "he jacked off to MY posts".

This same exact female mentality happens can be exemplified from the current US election. "Trump insulted one individual woman? OMG Trump hates all women".

Yes it does.

Proof of female stupidity, they don't even read/understand posts to the point where they can actually mistake a very clearly different poster for another.

No. 115398

Please explain the election to me, I'm just a girl!

No. 115399

Go back to /r/incels pls

No. 115400

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No. 115401

The US election is never anything but a farce to distract the population, the results don't actually matter at all
t. expert

No. 115402

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Naw, you're the same person. I backtraced your IP.

No. 115403

What does "farce" mean? Pls respond I am just a girl with a she-brain.

No. 115404

My father must secretly be a shitposter then

No. 115405

But what would be the goal? What's to gain by posting specifically to arouse creeps?

No. 115406


No. 115407

I doubt that they do it just for the sake of arousing creeps.
Maybe it is just subconcious.

No. 115408


a comic dramatic work using buffoonery and horseplay and typically including crude characterization and ludicrously improbable situations.
synonyms: slapstick comedy, slapstick, burlesque, vaudeville, buffoonery
"the stories approach farce"

the genre of farce.

an absurd event.
"the debate turned into a drunken farce"
synonyms: mockery, travesty, absurdity, sham, pretense, masquerade, charade, joke, waste of time; informalshambles
"the trial was a farce"

t. linguistics expert

No. 115409


What's that? I'm stupid.

No. 115410

So they subconsciously want creeps too fap to them?

No. 115411

I don't understand. My boob hurts from thinking too hard.

No. 115412

ill teach u with my dick girlll ;))))

No. 115413

Maybe? You inplied that they do it mainly for that reason.

No. 115414

I'm sorry. I can't understand the complexities of male sexuality.

No. 115415

No, I said that there would be no way to even know that the creeps were fapping to posts on an anonymous image board, so I questioned the goal of posting for creepers.

No. 115416

Typical female, does not understand why someone would ever do something that doesn't benefit themselves.

Why would someone give money/food to homeless people? What is there to gain?
Why would someone ever donate anonymously? What is there to gain?
Why would someone spend time dumping images on /c/ for other people? What is there to gain?

In this case however there is a mutual gain, believe it or not, there is some people (even girls!) who get satisfaction from sexually arousing other people. If you go on /soc/ you'll find plenty of female camwhores, and they're not getting paid to do that, why would they do that?

No. 115417

By this isn't /soc/

TIL posting fap fodder is a selfless act like feeding the homeless

No. 115418

You obviously don't understand the demographics of this board. It isn't /soc/ and it isn't for camwhoring.

No. 115419

I am not >>115416
but yes its selfless.
Maybe not as helpful but yeah selfless… There is no personal gain.

No. 115420

I never said you were that other poster.

And that is so pathetic, I have no words.

>pouring one out for all the incels who didn't see a pity boob today or whatever the fuck

No. 115421

>tfw all selfless acts are actually not selfless because if there wasn't personal gain, nobody would do it

No. 115422

I think I'm developing real feelings for a teacher of mine, I'm at film school and we have so many similar interests, we talk after class just about our lives in general and it's a nice escape from my depressing home life, I'll never act on it for fear of rejection and him losing his job but my mind wonders and I do fantasise about the life we would have together.

No. 115423

Lol I would never post my shit for creeps unless I'm getting something out of it, bud.

No. 115424

>a selfless act like feeding the homeless

You would never feed a homeless person without taking a picture and posting it on social media.

"So when you give to the needy, do not announce it with trumpets, as the hypocrites do in the synagogues and on the streets, to be honored by others. Truly I tell you, they have received their reward in full. But when you give to the needy, do not let your left hand know what your right hand is doing, so that your giving may be in secret. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you."

I do understand the majority-female demographics of this board. Is there anyone here that isn't aware there is also males and lesbians though?

No. 115425

>press 1 to pay respects to all the robots who got to pity-fap today

No. 115426

actually I don't respect them, just fap to 2D, fucking casuals

No. 115427

>a fucking bible quote

Bud, I know lesbians and men exist, I'm just saying that any guy who thinks people post here to send them arousing messages to fap to, is a moron.

No. 115428

Is this a teacher in school or college?

No. 115431

>Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you.
It really defeats the purpose of preaching about selflessness when you add "if you manage to keep it to yourself, the creator of the whole universe will give you brownie points! Isn't that great!?"

No. 115432

College, I'm 19 so I'm not underage or anything

No. 115433

>a fucking bible quote

Yes because it perfectly explains people like you who literally don't understand why someone would ever do something that they don't benefit from.

Of course in this case it's something God probably wouldn't approve.

>I'm just saying that any guy who thinks people post here to send them arousing messages to fap to, is a moron.

Let me go back to this point:

You are not every single woman that posts here. I did not say every single post a women writes here about sex is trying to arouse male/lesbian lurkers.

Do you really think that no female here has ever written a post intentionally meant to be arousing?

Yeah you're kind of right. It's not selfless if you're just doing it so you get rewards in the afterlife.

No. 115436

Why double-post this?

No. 115437

I've posted here for over a year, and I've never seen a post that read like it was deliberately meant to be fap fodder.

I've seen posts from robots pretending to be women.

I've seen posts talking about sexual topics (sex toys, relationship advice, health, etc), but talking about those things doesn't mean that the conversation is meant to be arousing.

No. 115438

Misquoted the post.

It took longer than I thought to delete and re-post.


Here's an example, go ahead and argue this post totally had no intentional meaning to be arousing. The Miku picture was for no reason too, just a random unrelated pic of course.

No. 115439

W-what? That turns you on? The pic is spoilered, so its not exactly in-your-face.

And it isn't even a sexy post. She's talking about anal, just like everyone else in the thread. It isn't even descriptive. It is like "here's how anal was introduced in my relationships."

What part of it got you all excited?

No. 115441

Are you really sexually repressed or something?

Talking about sex doesn't mean the post is meant to be arousing. That's on you, but it is hardly a secret sex message.

No. 115442

I don't understand how you could claim a post simply describing how anal was introduced to their relationships, in a thread about anal, to be intentionally trying to be fap bait, sex and sexual things can be spoke about normally without intending to turn others on.
By this logic sex education classes are meant to turn people on.

No. 115443

>What part of it got you all excited?

You're a real bitch you know that?

I knew I would get responses denying it, I just think you're silly.

No. 115444

you should've linked the Pinkie Pie one

No. 115445

>you're a real bitch

What are you going to do? Fap about it?

No. 115446

Did you get turned on by the foot fetish mention? Or was it the period sex?

Pls respond.

No. 115447

I think you're just sexually repressed so you get turned on by random shit.

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No. 115449


No. 115453

I got chubby during a bad depressed period and it escalated when i got on ADs. Now i''m bouncing between puking and starving. I fucking hate being chubby and i need to see a nutritionist.

No. 115457

>eat normally

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No, it's in no way a failure to understand your libido. It's the douchebag entitled attitude you have about reading posts by girls, for girls and treating it like it's written for you, as if it's lesbian porn.

LOL anon, sick burn. Because you know he's totally a neckbeard who's in to hentai. I gathered his much from his "lol yeah I'm totes attractive" posts.

No. 115471

My father sexually abused me as a child. I didn't like what he did to me and how he hurt me or really anything about the situation, but I did eventually start to feel pleasure from the sex. One time when I was 12 I sat on his lap and basically started grinding on him. I was basically asking for it. I feel like such a disgusting person. I probably am.

No. 115472

Omg nothing about that makes you disgusting. You were a child. You didn't ask to be abused, or to have a natural bodily reaction.

No. 115473

I'd agree with you, but there were moments like when I sat on his lap. I was basically asking him to have sex with me, even though I didn't like the situation I was in or how he treated me. I don't know. There's so many emotions to that time period. I just feel a lot of shame.

No. 115474

Sexual abuse is very confusing to kids. I mean, we train kids to listen to adults, so they are really easy to manipulate.

Everything you're feeling is totally normal. Have you ever talked to somebody about this?

No. 115476

>>I could pull out a few specific posts where I'm almost sure they're intentionally writing something arousing

Lmfao, oh god, if you haven't gotten banned yet, please do. I'm just waiting to see where this goes…

Lmfao my sides anon…r/incels. You totally beat me to it. And it's funny because you know it's true. Gawd, I just discovered that pathetic community yesterday. The fucking worship that school shooter guy…like wtf? As if he's some sort of God for killing girls that rejected him and all of the so called "Chad" type guys, absolutely disgusting.

>Most men are mentally operating on a level far above women
Top kek anon, do you post in r/IAmVerySmart too?! Jfc. Your replies are making you look even more pathetic TBH. But it looks like you got banned, so there ya go.

No. 115479

You were a child who had been taught that sexualised encounters with him were normal and you had just started sexually developing. It's normal for children to masturbate at that age when they haven't been raised experiencing abuse as the norm. What you did wasn't asking to be abused, what you did was respond in a way you were likely specifically groomed to respond.

I hope you can reach a point where you don't blame yourself for experiencing abuse anon. You were a child. Your father was the pervert not you.

No. 115492

I've confided in a few people about my past history but never that I got satisfaction from it or ever teased my father sexually. I dont want people to think I'm disgusting or slutty. I'm actually very prudish and reserved and not very sexual, but when I was younger, I dunno. I was over sexual in a really bad situation and it makes me feel ashamed.

No. 115501

You should talk to a therapist or something about those feelings. You really have nothing to be ashamed of. But talking to someone could help sort out those thoughts.

No. 115504

Is it really okay that I talk about it IRL? I've talked about my father sexually abusing me but I've never said that I started to enjoy the sexual pleasure or incited him for it. I always imagine people will just say that I deserved the abuse and that it's my fault, and maybe it is or it isn't, I'm not sure. Thanks for the kind words though, it means a lot.

No. 115517

Of course you can talk about it, especially with a therapist. That's what they're for!

Honestly, your feelings are very common. But, please don't be so hard on yourself. You didn't do anything wrong, your father did.

No. 115547

Just want to let you know that I was in the same boat as a kid. I don't even fully understand why I did those things, and obviously I feel gross and weird about that, but I know it's not my fault and that I did nothing "wrong".

Please talk to a therapist about it. There'll be no judgement on their end because that's their job and they've most likely heard it all.

No. 181173

I'm thinking of leaving my husband. I've been taking care of his kids while he just sits in the background for too long now. I always seem to be the one who has to deal with major disciplinary issues and his crazy ex and her family's harassment. I stuck around because I love him but he takes me for granted and gets pissy with me when he gets stressed out about the ex and the kids. I'm sick of being unappreciated.

No. 181174

I'm afraid that I'm less valid in my sexuality because I've never been with a woman. I'm definitely romantically and sexually attracted to girls, but I've just…never had an opportunity. I've been in a committed relationship for 3 years now and he's definitely the man I want to marry, but I can't help but look back on my recent teenage years and wonder if I missed out on anything.

I'd never cheat or leave him (I DO love him with all of my heart), but I'm just…conflicted.

No. 181177

I've know this guy for I little over a year now and I'll admit I do have feelings for him. But he gets on my nerves cause he doesn't answer my texts and that's like the only communication we have rn. It sounds silly but I allow him more than a day to reply but I get nothing. I don't text him a lot because of this reason. It gives me the impression he doesn't want to talk to me but he says that's not true. He's shy but still he left me hanging about 10 times now and tired of it. I'll just wait to see him in person -.-

No. 181178

Anon, the idea of 'missing out on something' will only get worse if you dwell on it as you get older. My friend did the same - she eventually cheated after complaining that she'd only been with two men, lost her longterm bf and is now just a wreck of a person at 30. Best to just admire and find attraction with women in a casual sort of way rather than agonize over what will be.

Plus, not having the experience doesn't make you any less legit as a bisexual person.

No. 181185

you would be amazed how many dudes would die just to hear about/watch you with another woman. i had more prior relationships with women than you, but just telling my dude 'yo i would still like to be with chicks sometimes' actually worked. i can be with girls totally on my own, no involvement from him, and he's cool with it as long as i tell him in detail later.

you can absolutely love someone with all of your heart and still be physically attracted to other people. if your partner is cool with you expressing that physical attraction and is comfortable/confident enough to know you love them and only them, who cares?

or go with what >>181178 said and suffer your whole life not knowing, ymmv

No. 181202

I don't think about it every day, just often enough to warrant a confession I guess. I'm definitely trying to move on from it. Thank you for your reassuring words, though, it means a lot.

I know there are guys like that, but I don't think my boyfriend is one of them. In the best case scenario he agrees that it's super hot and would love to watch me/hear about my adventures with women. In the worst case scenario (which, having known him for 7 years, is more likely), he says 'absolutely not' and now he knows that I've thought about being with other women, whether it's romantically or sexually.

That's just not a risk I'm willing to make with him, I love him too much.

Thank you both for your perspectives!

No. 181204

I'm really naive and easily talked/guilted into just about anything if you've got a good angle. I'm very aware of it and hate it with every fibre of my being.
Growing up I was extremely sheltered and had the old Catholic guilt instilled in me very early on. I was always told to be 'good' and hard working, and so I was, but it's never brought me anything but trouble. Instead of being liked for being nice and polite I'm a total pushover and people used to take the piss behind my back because I'm extremely trusting and gullible. I'm not stupid, but I'm not very streetwise at all.

I hate it and want to become more normal but every single time someone says something bad to/about me I always wonder what have I done wrong even if I was perfectly sweet the whole time. I usually cop on after a while but I don't think I deserve to suffer and wonder what's wrong with me just because some minger decided to be pissy at me that particular day. I also hate that people treat me like I'm some spaz who doesn't know left from right just because I can't tell if someone is telling the truth.

No. 181207


You are aware and you will grow to learn new behaviors. You might fail at being more assertive/confident at first but before you know it you will have a spine and sass. You can still be hard working and good, but now you need to learn how to be the boss of your life. I know I sound corny but I come from a similar background.

No. 181220

You know your partner better than anyone and if you think the second scenario is more likely, then, yeah, don't bring it up because you can't put that cat back in the bag. It'll pass, honestly.

No. 181237

I got busted for yaoi when I was a teenager (lol) after my parents went through my internet history and now I'm permanently paranoid about covering my tracks when I do… everything. Even the normal daily life stuff, like I'll shred my shopping receipts before throwing them away.

No. 181246

My mom used to go through all my stuff and even my journals from when I was 8-9 and to this day I still inspect my entire apartment for cameras she might have installed here.

I have my own place, and I still don't feel comfortable anywhere, I'm always checking to see whether she's following or watching me. I left my keys with her when I traveled so she could care for my pets and I'm so fucking sure she made a copy of my keys and will drop by anytime to see what I'm up to. Or maybe she bugged my room and can hear everything that goes on.

It really fucked me up.

No. 181250

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My boyfriend is 30 years older than me. People assume he's going through a midlife crisis and I'm a golddigger. If I'm not, then I must have daddy issues.

Maybe that's true, but I'm in love with him too.

No. 181265

30 years? Dang anon, how old are you and is he rich?

No. 181269

I'm in love with someone 30 years older than me as well. He likes men though, so I don't have any hope. I hope everything works out for you anon.

No. 181270

I'm in my mid-20s. He's a tenured professor at a top research university, and previously taught at two Ivy League schools. So I'm not sure about "rich," but he has money.

No. 181271

Damn, I'm sorry anon. I hope someday (soon!) you'll fall in love with someone who will love you too.

No. 181290

tbh I judge older men who date younger women super hard, but not the women themselves. It's like what's wrong with women your own age?

No. 181294

Same. One of my dad's friends was a teacher who always dated women who were in their twenties. It creeped me out. Like, honestly, their lives are at two different points.

No. 181354

Thanks for answering anon. I would only date someone 15-20 years older than me, but I'm always interested in hearing about larger age gap relationships. As other anons said, do you feel it's odd he's dating someone so much younger, or is this like his first huge age gap relationship and it just happened?

No. 181367

I'm >>181250. I typed up a reply this morning, but I guess I closed the tab before it actually posted. So:

tbh me too~

Our lives are definitely at different points, but so far this hasn't been much of an issue. We have so much else in common that the differences are rarely noticeable, and never a problem. It helps that I'm following a similar trajectory as his, so while we're at different points, we're on the same path, if that makes sense. It's so nice to be with someone who knows what they're doing from experience, especially when I don't.

I would find it to be a huge red flag if he were specifically pursuing younger women, especially women less than half his age. It's hypercritical, but I generally don't agree with age gaps this large. There are exceptions, but typically there is an obvious imbalance in power and resources, to the point of being exploitative to one or both parties (usually the younger, particularly with a larger age gap).

Initially my age gave him pause, and we agonized over this one issue for months before we decided to just go for it. We knew we would be fine, but we were still worried about what everyone else would think. Still are, to some extent. It doesn't change my feelings about our relationship, but we do get a lot of quizzical or judgy looks when we're in public together.

He was previously married for ~10 years to a woman who is a couple of years older than he is, and then he was in a relationship for ~5 years with a woman ~10 years younger. Neither of us has experience with an age gap like this. So maybe I'm just being hopeful or naive, but I don't think my age itself was a factor here.

No. 181368


Sage for dumb typo.

No. 181369

JFC nevermind.

No. 181372

Funny. I, for one, love to play along with people in public. Me and my spouse french kiss obnoxiously, eat ice cream like it's a spectacle, make lewd comments to each other, touch each other/hold each other… I guess we are THAT couple. I look hard at people who appear to be negatively judging us. I have asked them if they want to take a picture. There is a difference between staring and gawking. My spouse and I are about the same age difference apart as you and your bf.

No. 181375

I have no problem with age gaps but that's just gross
Getting off on excessive PDA in public is just as bad as bringing sexual furry petplay out to Wallmart. Hold hands and visibly be a defiant couple, sure, but nobody wants to be made into participants for your exhibitionist fetish

How do you feel about older women dating younger men, anon?

No. 181402

Hmmm yes, I remember what it was like to be 16 and celebrating a three month anniversary too.

No. 181413

>our age isn't the problem
>older man gradually trading in his partners for younger and younger models
>not suspicious at all
At first I thought it was a coincidence but now it seems like he won't stop until he ends up with a toddler

No. 181414

When I was 10 years old and had my first real friend who came over for play dates and stuff (I was sheltered as hell), she eventually told me that my dad made her mom "uncomfortable" whenever they ended up talking. My dad is loud and boisterous but not creepy. Not everyone's cup of tea but not a bad person.

I've been REALLY self-conscious about this since. I'm 25 now and literally have not introduced any of my friends/boyfriends to my parents. I know that if someone doesn't like my family then it wouldn't work out anyway but still :/

No. 181416

Those people are probably gawking and staring because you're deliberately making a spectacle of your relationship. If you weren't making out in front of the yogurt aisle far fewer people would care about you and gramps being a couple.

No. 181445

nasty hick bitch.

No. 181533

One of my old friends from primary school had a baby recently. I'm really happy for her and her husband obviously. But they're really type A people, both hold doctorates in sciences, and so is her family, so when I see a photo of the child come up with the caption "you can be any kind of doctor you want" I can't help but hope that he grows up to become a bin man just to spite his family. It would still be a decent career with a good living, and he'd be able to live well, but it won't have near the level of prestige they probably want for him.

No. 181548

>I'm the middle friend between people who love to hate each other, let's call them Lana and Jake.
>we are friends but Lana just loves to troll, tease and sometimes just be a bitch to Jake
>and sometimes Jake acts so stupid like he's a living meme that I can't not agree with her
>so we have a group chat - me, Lana and her bf, who also knows Jake, where we basically roast him
>it's so mean sometimes that I feel guilty
>Lana is roasting him openly, but I'm in shadows
>she thinks it's super funny that I'm with them in her roasting chat but when she says something mean to Jake, he comes to me to whine
>I screenshot my talks with Jake or when he whines or just stupid funny things and post it in Lana's chat, I have no idea why I do that, I think it's wrong, but it's like some dark secret and a guilty pleasure
>I'm The Ultime Fake Bad Friend

No. 181554

>I have no idea why I do that
because you're a bad person

No. 181564

You're a bigger bitch than Lana tbh

No. 181565

I feel bad for that kid already.

No. 181604

At least you feel bad for it.

No. 181606

oh man, this shit is for sure going to piss some people off

>i once got angry at my mother (in her 50s) and pushed her to the ground for making fun of me. she cried but i was too mad to care.

>i got my best friend in middle school expelled because i was angry that she made fun of my hair.
>i adopted a cat because i started to think that cats were cute. my cat isn't cute and i wish i hadn't adopted him. cats are fucking lame and i don't care for them. i know this now, but its kinda late i guess.
>i jerked off to the chicken scene in Pink Flamingos. i don't give a shit. boo hoo dead chicken.

No. 181608


>falling in love with a gay guy

why do girls hate themselves this much, i swear there's one of you in every 5 girls i meet. how oblivious can you be

No. 181609


>like he's a living meme

>so we have a group chat
>where we basically roast him
>roasting chat

holy shit anon you're 16 and your confession is not amusing at all. high school is like that its really not that big of a deal, the fuck are you even ashamed of.

No. 181614

Men fall for lesbos all the time though, not exactly something they can help lol. Not everyone's a flamboyant stereotype.

Sometimes I fantasize about attacking my mom when she pisses me off tbh but she wouldn't cry she'd just fucking kick my ass.

No. 181653

you can laugh at me but I don't completely not believe in magic.

>my cat that I loved like crazy was sick. They suspected FIP. If you don't know, it's lethal

>they weren't sure, so we had hope and didn't want to put him to sleep yet
>he was getting worse and worse
>I decided to try healing spell… yeah… don't laugh.
>i did all steps
>in few days it was obvious he's dying. he had hours left
>it took him whole day to go… he fought it so much…
>the vet said it's incredible how well he was in his last days, and that he had very strong healthy heart
>before when he was still in good health the vet said to be careful with him because of his very poor heart????
>i googled the spell again and it was actually for heart diseases…
>sometimes i thought that… maybe it's my fault for how long he suffered his last day
>but those are just some intruding thoughts, it's not like i 100% believe i cast magic.
anyway… yeah. Maybe it sounds a bit silly, bare with me. I've never told this to anyone

No. 181655

>being so desperate to help your pet you try magic

I honestly wouldn't say that's silly and I know it's not the point of the post but yeah

No. 181673

I love my boyfriend so much but hes so religious and im not and its so hard for me not to burst out laughing or roll my eyes whenever he talks about how "celeberties are devil worshipers" "the world might end soon" "everything that happens is part of gods plan"

Hes actually a very intelligent guy whose well educated with a good job but these wacko conspiracies are too much sometimes

No. 181681

I'm laughing but I also feel bad for you. You didn't prolong the cats suffering by playing Harry Potter anon. It's sad but magic isn't a thing and there's literally no evidence of it ever existing in any form. It's lovely to imagine that we can influence the world with our will but realistically, there's nothing out there that even suggests possibility whilst plenty of sciencetific research indicates that it's impossible in every way.

It's appealing to think crystals do anything, or that we have those metaphysical froo-froo wonders like auras and spirits and chakras but there's literal mountains of evidence showing that every case of supposed magic is deft trickery, or simply people choosing to take coincidence and bias as proof. Don't go feeling like you made your cat suffer. You just wanted to help it feel better in its last hours. He died with your kindness and love and that's the closest thing we can get to magic.

No. 181684

I don't believe in magic but I don't blame you for holding onto that feeling of "could be". Once when I was little I was in my backyard and the wind was blowing pretty hard and I quietly told it to stop and it just…did. Completely died down. I did it two more times successfully. A coincidence obviously but it was still kinda special.

>He died with your kindness and love and that's the closest thing we can get to magic.

No. 181696

after going from thinking i was asexual to getting into 2 serious relationships, i totally get why sexuality is a problem for people. i've dated my boyfriend for around 1.5 years. recently i got to know someone that also TAs a chem class that i do. we've been talking almost every day for almost a week and jesus christ he's hot. tall, thin, boyish looks, glasses, almost exactly my type. he also has the same type of humor as i do, intelligent, and likes to help people.

my bf hasn't really been up to much and he's kind of let himself go…so i've been finding myself fantasizing about the other guy, either dating or sex. i wouldn't do anything with him until we broke up and i know i would end up really missing my bf if we did. but i find myself staring at the other guy when we hang out and overcome with the urge to picture what he would look like moaning under me. fuuuck too bad i couldn't ever get even a threesome. he apparently dated + had sex with a 5/10 trashy girl in our major so i have a chance to be honest…but then again i wouldn't want to ruin my friendship if we started dating because i'm crazy and things can go south.

fuck you for being hot dude.

No. 181697

>fuck you for being hot dude
How misogynists and misandrists are born tbh kek

But aanyway, totally a normal thing. People who act like it's sinful to ever have a crush whilst you're in a relationship are either uncommon or deluded hypocrites. Take this time to evaluate your relationship though, nothing wrong with doing the math to see if it's still worth it for both of you but just remember that infatuation and love are different beasts

You do you anon, if a placebo creates a false positive then it doesn't matter if it's 'false' does it? Many people are superstitious even if they say magic is crazy

No. 181722

Well, you know. It's really normal to fall in love with someone else while in a relationship. See, you're still young and no one expects you to be forever with your current bf.

I think you should make it clear to your bf though. Just talk about it, it's really the fairest thing to do. See, you would also find it better that your bf tells you if he falls for someone else right? I don't think he would hold a grudge against you. Sure, it will hurt him because that is not something you wish for, but in the end he will be thankful that you were completely honest with him. So in the end, the breakup itself will be much better for him that way. So well, maybe in the end you will be able to even keep being friends with him.

And regarding the hot dude, I think you should really give it a shot. Life is too short to miss out on a guy that makes your head spin.

No. 181724

Let's say magic is real and that was proof that it is real. (What I kind of believe, but still unsure) so I think even if it was just the wrong spell it didn't prolong his suffer. I think it was rather a wave of positive energy that he sensed came from you. Hell, maybe he was completely aware that you were giving your best to help him. And in his last moments he knew that you were 100% there for him and giving your love.

No. 181726

The only that kind of triggered me was the one about the cat. But as long as you care well for him, I think it is kind of okay.

Maybe try to find a friend that loves animals and has the ressources to care for a cat and find a new home? Might be a win-win for both of you.

And how did you get your friend expelled?

No. 183976

Whenever I see a fat girl sperging on how "curvez ar bettah" while putting down thin/normal weight girls I hope she's insulted as much as possible. You can't complain about "fatshaming" while saying that only dumb men go for a non-overweight girl and stuff like that.

No. 183985

I'm really unlikable without giving people a reason for disliking me (to my knowledge).

I've never been mean to anyone but for some reason people just don't like me. Some do, but they're usually in the minority. I don't know if that's normal but it makes me feel bad.

Whenever I talk, the people I'm talking to seem irritable (even if I only say stuff like 'No thanks' or 'have a nice day' or whatever). Sometimes some of them look vaguely disgusted. I'm normal by all means and I shower etc regularly, and I'm not repulsive (or fat) either, something about me just rubs people the wrong way.

People tend to talk over me and boss me around, and some genuinely think I'm stupid even though I have the best grades in my uni year. When I do voice my opinion, people mostly react with 'oh god, shut the fuck up'. I rarely say anything polarizing, it's usually shit like 'I don't think we should do this because x'.

I get that I'm a doormat but the moment I stand up for myself I get treated even worse (by unrelated people). I tried 'faking it till I make it' but failed.

I know it's a common belief that these things can be 'unlearned' but I don't think so.

There's nothing wrong with me mentally or physically and I actually don't hate myself, but I don't know why this happens even with people I've never met before. It's like I have 'kick me' tattooed on my forehead.

No. 183998

I so relate to this except most people DO like me for that reason because I'm a doormat. So I have no reason to change except for all the shit that comes with being unable to say no/stand up for myself.

Are you or have you ever been in customer service by any chance? I used to be ridiculously shy and working in that domain helped a lot but all the social skills I learned involved being a doormat.

No. 184052

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My prescribed psych medication isn't working and I have punched both my mom and dad to the point where they have bruised and bled. I'm such a fuck up.

No. 184071

Why the fuck are you posting with a name you newfag?

No. 184075

obviously because meds stopped working

No. 184089

I have a lot of milk on a snowflake but I'll never post it because I like the person and have no vendetta, plus the info I have would out who I am.

No. 184093

can you give us a hint on who it is? or the nature of what info you got?

No. 184101

they could be happy if only you'd off yourself

No. 184154

It pisses me off whenever I see some of my friends hang out with other people. I don't know why but it does. I just saw a snap of my friend hanging out with her friends and having a blast.

I get upset too whenever I see pictures of other friends having a good time without me in it.

I sometimes want them to be miserable like me just to see how it feels.

I know I shouldn't feel this way and it's my fault for looking in the first place, I just don't know why…

No. 184162

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I do this too. It's clinginess. I do my absolute best to suppress it, because I know it's unhealthy and I'd drive my friends away if I ever acted on it.

Just remind yourself that these feelings are totally irrational. Your friends still like you, even if they're hanging out with someone else.

Or else you'll end up like how I was in grade 8.

No. 184171


Ah, so that's what it is? I've had friends leave me due to my clinginess as well. It was really painful.

I guess there is something as being "too close.

No. 184217

My depression is exhausting me. It's eating me alive.

Aside from go to school full time I do nothing but lie around, to the extent that I've been neglecting my self care. I'm starting to feel disgusting but I literally can't stop retreating into my comfort zone aka my bed and mindlessly browsing the internet. I get so tired if I do literally anything else.

Makes me feel guilty and shitty.

No. 184218

Have you seen a doctor or a psychiatrist about it?

No. 184316

I'm so fucking done with everyone in my life right now but I pretend to give a shit and care because I don't want to come off as too bitchy. If it weren't for the fact that I have a stable job with benefits I would just run away to somewhere else and start over. Unfortunately, I don't have a specialization in anything so it would be hard to find another job now.

No. 184969

STORY TIME! so i have an online bf and we do sexual stuff of course. my bf used to do it to me sleeping because he has a fetish for that so recently i faked making noises and pretending im dreaming of him fucking me every night. now he waits for me to sleep and makes me keep my webcam on until i hear him say "i love you" again to check if i'll respond "in my sleep" so he can start stuff. recently he started making up fantasies that i respond to while im "sleeping". he will project rape fantasies (which isnt bad i guess he still wants me to know its him but just pretends to be forceful) and pretends we have to work on a project and i have to come over his house and teaches me how to touch him (strange i know but we dont know each other irl or anything). im not sure if its bad that im lying to him but he believes it and really thinks im sleeping

No. 184972

Doesn't that make going to bed annoying for you? I mean some nights you seem up to play along, but what about when you actually just want to sleep and you know he's creeping

No. 184973

i have a hard time falling asleep to begin with sadly so i stay up anyway

No. 184977

I'm a terriable person and I'm not saying this for sympathy I know what I am.

My ex is so in love with me he continues to give me money, knowing full well that we most likely won't be together because "being by my side is enough for him".

By money I don't mean meager amounts I mean he has paid for my rent in full on two occasions. I'm a college student out of state from no support from my mother, not because she doesn't support me but that she literally can't help me for she helps my other two sisters. So for the longest time I was in a relationship with him that lead me to eventually be unhappy but I stayed because school supplies and textbooks aren't cheap and FAonly gives me so much.

This week I was given 1200 via PayPal from him and a 600 money gram (since PayPal has a cap for each month of what you can withdraw)

Part of it went towards rent and food, while the other part was shopping. He isn't the only one too, I have another guy who gives me money or things I want, not to the level of my ex but still.

I game to in order to relax after studying, I don't pay for the subscription because the guys in the discord group pays for it and any other game related things I need. I would like to say it bothers me how I can get all of this stuff for basically doing nothing but I don't feel much of anything.

I don't have to work ontop of studying (besides work study which doesn't really count I just resheleve books all day and put new ones into the school library system) and anything I want within reason I can just simply ask for the funds for, I don't tell my mother because she worries and I know she wouldn't want this but I don't want her to stress about helping me for getting by out here.

No. 184980

You sound pretty proud of yourself in a sick way ngl

No. 184981


I wouldn't say proud, I don't feel much of anything beside relief if anything? If that make sense. I don't have to kill myself trying to keep my scholarship and work an insane amount which is what I feared going in.

But the process of just being given all of this, it has changed me that I don't feel anything. I don't know what to feel at this point.

No. 184984

You already admitted you're a bad person for taking advantage of these people so you DO know what the right thing would be to do, you really came here hoping someone would tell you it's okay or even awesome to be doing it.

It's not. It's shitty and selfish and all that. Don't look to others to justify your ickiness. Either accept that you're a half step above a thief or scammer and move on or stop and don't expect sympathy for not having video games.

It's not even something important dude,
It's games. Tragic.

No. 184986

You're a horrid person and I hope you change your ways before you grow up to take advantage of more people.

Also, 'boohoo, working with a scholarship. I managed to do my full four years with scholarships and work enough to support myself. Nobody paid for my university. Same with my best friend who went on to do her masters. Stop placing the fact you're lazy on why you have to steal money from someone who has given it to you in good faith.

Awful. Grow up.

No. 184987


I'm ugly so this type of shit is unimaginable to me, but honestly milk that shit as long as you can. If men want to be so be so pathetic and stupid, let them.

No. 184989

sounds really annoying and weird

No. 184991

i think that the anons shitting on you for this are probably jealous tbh.

lots of girls do this. lots of girls have BFs just for the perks.

it's not that big of a deal imo? if he knows you wont be together probably but still wants to throw money at you thats his prerogative.

No. 184992

As long as you're not stringing him along and giving him false hope, let him do as he pleases. Enjoy it while you can, anon.

No. 184996

How is is selfish if some losers want to pay for her to feel good? As long as she isn't lying to them about her situatiom I don't see what the problem is.

No. 185033

Because it's knowingly and deliberately taking advantage of someone in order to sit around and play video games like a pampered little kid. It's not even the moral issue, it's what it says about them as a person. Selfishness, laziness, and willingness to use others don't exactly make up a great personality or set of personal values. Imagine if someone like this was training to be a therapist for vulnerable people. Selfishness isn't something to brag about, it's ugly.

No. 185045


It takes a special kind of autism to type this up.

>Anon going to school with a scholarship

>Anon does work study
>Anon says her mother can't help her/him.
>Anon's Ex knows his place but still want to help her/him out.
>You sperg out saying they plays video games all day when it clearly seems they trying to get a career

You don't know the situation, you don't know what they are studying or where they are living. Not everyone has mommy and daddy to give them money, not everyone can work while in college because it really depends on what they are even studying in the first place, and it's pretty obvious loans were out of the question since anon didn't go that route. I'll go on a hunch and say the scholarship is GPA related, keeping up that GPA while working isn't easy, and only gets worse

It's not selfish, nobody forced the guys to give her stuff of finance her school/living. What is sounds like, at least as far as the ex is concerned, they know what they are doing. They are all grown, if they feel bubbly for helping anon, or if the ex feels he still wants to help her than that their decision.

Like everyone above already said, if they know they aren't getting anything out of it than let the losers give her money. Anon will just laugh at this a few years later when they graduates debt free and able to use every cent they earn right off the bat to live comfortably.

It's a goddamn confession thread, anon clearly wasn't looking for a pat on the back, they came to confess christ.

You sound like those autist that coddle males who donate hundreds of dollars to grill gamerz about how they are being swindled.

No. 185048


Sorry, I'm assuming anon is a girl for some sentences but there is a lot of males on this site as of late. If you're still reading the thread anon screw em, they literally are just jealous.

No. 185067

I don't like STEM majors. Most of them have this hoity toity attitude about themselves, especially "pre-meds".

No. 185071

Me neither, STEM girls act like special snowflakes and usually jerk each other's cocks about feminism and how everyone mistreats them, whereas STEM guys (especially CS majors) never shut up about their future '1 gorillion starting' paychecks and how all the women that rejected them are going to pay (because guys like that are an absolute prize, apparently).

I don't like finance majors because they're all annoying wannabe bros only there for the money and 'stock trading LOL', accountants are OK though. I don't mind other business majors except marketers, they should all collectively sudoku.

No. 185073

The money part is what annoys me the most, especially when they put down my degree (in the humanities) because it's 'useless', like they're going to make six figures with just their bachelors. I met a "premed" today who was acting like she had already made it in, and she was only in her first year. Most of them don't really seem to care about science either, they're in it for the money they think they'll make. I ask them why they want to do X and they almost never mention that they like their field. I can understand being pragmatic, but there has to be a way of finding something that doesn't destroy your soul and pays the bills.

Marketing majors are absolute cancer, I agree kek. Every accounting major I've met has been extremely boring.

No. 185082

Most accountants I've met have been a lot like Cyril Figgis from Archer (minus the adultery), surprisingly. Sweet, kind of awkward people just trucking on and living their lives without much else interesting going on. Recently there's been an influx of financefags switching to accounting because finance is saturated and people are finally realizing they can't be Leo DiCaprio in Wolf of Wall Street. You can always tell which ones they are, too.

No. 185083

>autistic for not wanting to take advantage of people

Kay. Enjoy your moral bankruptcy. Also you don't know she's not leading them on, either, nor the circumstances of why they're giving her money (as in, she might have asked for it firstly) But enjoy your crossjerk that every person who thinks that's shitty behavior is some sort of asshole man or a girl who's jealous.

No. 185109

I'm honestly jelly right now.
>the guys in the discord group
How did you find them?

No. 185120


When I was interning one summer I got close with my coworker because we both found out we like to play games and other geeky things. She invited me into her boyfriends discord group so we could all play mobs together and pathfinder.

The best way to find groups like this would probably be forums or join groups when invited in multiplayer games. A lot of the new people who join the group were found by one of us playing something on console game or mmo and think they were chill enough to join.

No. 185122

I'm sick of being called a man just because I dont think it's okay to suck up someone's money for selfish kid shit.

No. 185125



That sounds like a pretty fun group, good luck with school btw anon. You do you.

No. 185126

I'm a dude who stumbled here from a link on another board

I'd say that I hope some maniac kicks down your door and cuts your head off with a machete but I'd probably do the same if I had some millionaire cougar gf. On another note, guys who do this shit are ultimate betas, walking doormats and are looked down by every guy who isn't a pussy.

No. 185128


>Hurdur, male here. Hurrrduuuuuuurrrrrr my male opinion matters here because I have god boy points

and who in the fuck asked you

No. 185129

I don't need to be asked you fat, dumbshit cow

Just for saying that, prepare to have your shit board spammed all over 4chan and being made aware of

No. 185130

Oh no! Not 4chan.
a weepy robot is gonna bring his personal army, and spam some more robot tears. Batten the hatches it's anonymous!

No. 185131

4chan isn't your personal army either, kiddo. Lurk your own damn chan more.

No. 185133


You're a faggot lol

No. 185138

Good luck. They're going to laugh at your obviously triggered autism.

No. 185154

>adopt basic bitch standards
ugh no thanks

No. 185280

I used to be a very openly pro-trans ally but in the past few years after all the shit thats happening now I am no longer.

I haven't gone the complete opposite way (like hate them) but I do not support the cause anymore for several reasons. Is there anyone else in the same boat?

No. 185282

I'm the same way, I used to be super supportive of them and now I just don't give a fuck about any of their issues

No. 186234

Sometimes I fantasize about how my boyfriend would react if I did something awful to him, like cheating.
I would never actually want to see him like that but there's something morbidly exiting when I think about it.

No. 186264


Yes, I feel you.
It was a handful of factors that changed me, but I think one in particular was this "transgirl" I know that is one of the worst persons I've ever met, totally personal cow. She transitioned to get more attention for her narc ass and she lied about her Lattes, her name, where she's from… And talks everyday about the "struggles of being a trans woman but succeeding academically" when guess what - all her "success" was achivied when she was still a man. So groundbreaking, right? >muh hardships
Ah, also, she used to make fun of trans people before transitioning. And made fun about lesbians too. And she used to call me "man-face" all the time, yeah, much for "breaking gender stigma", right?

Also, I started thinking, isn't cotton ceiling totally against the thought that "woman like butch lesbians because they are women, not 'fake men'"? Did we regress? Why can't you be a dude that is super into dresses? Even if you want a pair of tits, why can't you still be a dude? Gender (and therefore gender-roles) abolitionism is the answer, I guess.

Sorry, I digressed a bit.

Worst part is that I can't even express any of that openly, many people I know would demonize me and shit. Sucks.

No. 186265


Samefag but, with that being said, I probably would never ""missgender"" someone because I still don't like making people uncomfortable and stuff, and I do care about real trans problems like high suicide rates and prostitution and stuff, but damn, I really wish they would stop. Kids are getting the most shit out of all this.


No. 186268

i'd fuck mystery's psycho ex-bf. idc if he's a little piece of shit, i need to release sexual tension on some ok-looking guy and then dispose of him

No. 187110

i called my boyfriend daddy in bed and it's kind of hot…we've been jokingly calling each other it for weeks as a way to mock the online trend (e.g. me: "i'm going to kill you" him: "yes daddy") since we both agree DDLG is pretty gross. i have no idea where the urge came from, but i felt i like it was right in the moment, and now we've both said it a few times unironically during foreplay/sex. i clarified i still didn't like any part of a DDLG relationship and daddy still feels wrong to say. or maybe now it's just more taboo.

our dynamic is one where he regularly dominates me, and saying "babe" or his name doesn't capture that and master just feels weird lol. he's younger than me (we're barely out of teenagehood), very slim, and kind of a bishounen so definitely not what a typical "daddy" is. i really just want a way to express submission.

so yeah anons let me know if you have alternatives to daddy please help me be less of a degenerate

No. 187137

try sir/master? same dynamic, less gross

No. 187147

I just ruined a semi-friendship by telling them their relationship is never going to workout, because you cheated on your bf and he's going to resent you forever for it. No regrets.

No. 187177

why is it gross though? Yeah dd/lg is pretty gross but people say babe/baby all the time so what's wrong with daddy?

No. 187234

i'm not going to argue with you, original anon i replied to thinks it's gross and quite a few other anons would agree. you do you, gf.

No. 187427

Not sure if this is better for the vent thread or what but I've been getting panic attacks lately about death. I had a dream a couple of weeks ago where I was dying, the dream was peaceful enough but my dreaming mind realized that if I died I would cease to exist. Where would my conciousness go? I woke up from it in a panic and major anxiety and now I keep getting intrusive thoughts about the inevitability of dying and and how I will cease to be. It's been scaring the hell out of me and now I'm getting full blown panic attacks because of it. I'm not religious so I can't find comfort in an after life, I just keep thinking about how some day I won't be thinking anymore. I'll just be gone.

No. 187442

i don't believe that all fat people are fat because they're lazy and that their weight doesn't define their worth, but my best friend is such a stereotypically lazy, gluttonous fatty that it makes me cringe sometimes.

No. 187444

My grandmother died last August.
She used to beat me and turn my mother against me.
I'm happy she's dead and I'm scared I'm a sociopath or something.

No. 187445


I would be happy too. Abusive family sucks. -hugs-

No. 187508

Anon, what you're feeling is normal. You're not a sociopath. My father was abusive and is sitting in prison now for molesting a kid. I know I'll be damn happy when he finally dies.

No. 187666

I don't know what I want to major in college or what I want to do with the rest of my life.

No. 187669

So frustrated with myself. At this point I just want to work a field that doesn't make me want to kill myself.

No. 188026

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I'm simultaneously jealous of and frustrated with this jfashion blogger. Every since she wrote this post: https://emiiichan.blogspot.com/2016/12/thetruthis-7-assumptions-truths.html I've been irritated about the part where she's says she's not rich and is just middle class.

What frustrates me is watching spend tons of money every month ordering somewhat expensive clothes(mostly liz lisa) from Japan on top taking 2 trips to Japan this year. It seems like she's spending a ridiculous amount of money despite only being middle class. I'm also annoyed that she mostly buys Liz Lisa when there are so many awesome brands she could spend it on. I also wish she had more variety in her blog posts, other then hauls and japan posts. She's got the money to post cool stuff but she focuses mostly on posting the same boring Liz Lisa coords(I do like Liz Lisa but their clothing can be repetitive).

I know it's her money to spend how she wants and I don't dislike her for it. I understand this jealously is irrational and stupid but for the past year I've been jealous of people I follow on social media since my financial situation has been shitty the past year and I've been regretting how much time I've wasted on school. Luckily I'm graduating this semester and can start working on my career and be satisfied with my life.

No. 188036

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I was already in love with my boyfriend, but now that I know how much is in one of his savings accounts, I want him to impregnate me ASAP. So now I'm worried I'm a gold digger.

No. 188052

Not necessarily a good digger but at least 80% likely to be an especially terrible parent if you want a baby to keep a man with money around.

Don't get knocked up anon. Like, ever. It's a human being not a tether to an income.

No. 188070

Pretty sure she lives with her parents anon so she probably doesn't pay rent and can spend her money however she wants. Even someone with a low paying job can afford such a lifestyle if they don't have bills

No. 188072

In my opinion that's not really gold digging behavior, I mean, financial security is nice

No. 188074

I'm fat again and it's grossing me out. All the bad food has been making me sick and I'm lazy, sluggish and tired because of it. I need to get off my ass, get healthy and lose weight yet again. I've been so fit many times but when something really stressful happens I just stop caring about being fit. How do I stop doing that?

No. 188075


Lol wat. that's not even gold digging? this bitch just hit the jackpot because she was already in love with this dude and THEN she found out he had money? damn girl you lucky

No. 188076

Financial security is nice but using a child as a tether to is is fucked up. If that seems like a good reason to have a baby it's a sign to never ever have a kid.

No. 188086

I don't actually see a baby as a tether, lol. I mean, dude already wants to marry me. The impreg thing was kinda tongue-in-cheek, I'm just like, weirdly turned on by the thought of his bank account/financial security. I grew up poor as shit, and if we get married someday, I will literally be a millionaire. Or at least the wife of a millionaire.

No. 188130

Oh, I didn't know that. Her spending makes much more sense then. For some reason I thought she was living with her boyfriend in her own place. Reading back through the post I linked, I saw that her grandparents paid her college tuition so she doesn't have debt to worry about either.

No. 188133

Good for you anon! I was hoping something like that would happen for me actually. There's love, there's money, jackpot.

No. 188141

a year ago i found out my (ex) boyfriend cheated on me and we broke up. i wanted revenge but i didn't do it then because it wouldn't been obvious
im over it now ofc, moved on but i still wanted my revenge because I'm petty and he was a shitty person
my friends wanted to dent or soraypaint his car but i had a better idea

last night we spray painted the Supreme box logo on the side of his car (so it looks like he's tacky and put it on there himself), kek.

No. 188142

*it would've been obvious

No. 188186

Wow an entire year later you're trashing his car? What a bitch. Hope he has CCTV where he parks and you get caught tbh. A fucking year ago…

No. 188204

haha i knew someone would get pissy. to be fair, you don't know the whole story- he was horrible (he never hit me but he hit his mom), was a 'former' druggie (i believed in giving people second chances, when we met he swore he would quit, turned out he was stealing my money and he pawned my purse which was the ending point tbh). also we don't have cctv here, kek.

i never got caught and i'm moving states away for medical school so it doesn't matter anyway. maybe he should've thought before he pawned off my stuff :^)

No. 188205

He sounds like a scumbag but your revenge makes you seem as mature as a 13 year old tbh. There were way better ways to handle it, and petty vandalism is still petty vandalism regardless of your reasoning. Grow up.

No. 188206

If he's a lying, stealing cheater who gives a shit about him or his car ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ you get that revenge, girl

No. 188239

Sounds like a complete cunt, but what you did kind of says that you guys suited each other honestly.

It's been a fucking year and instead of getting the fuck over it like an adult, you decided to go out of your way to spraypaint his car.

You both sound like shitty people, and I hope you realise how retarded it is to be looking for a new career in medicine and then go do stupid shit like that over a year old grudge.

No. 188243

Done in the heat of the moment would have been understandable. But at least you admit being petty.

>shooting a fleeing person in the back is no longer self defence

No. 189052

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I'm 27 and I just cut again after a 3 year break. I am already thinking about buying an exacto knife so I can do it more.

No. 189088

At this point, all I want to do is beta orbit a sad qt and give her advice and emotional support. It satisfies my codependency issues by making me feel needed and I can thrive off of the events of her social life to supplement my own boring, isolated existence. I know this is pathetic but I don't know if it's necessarily wrong or not.

No. 189094

It is pathetic but it can be hard to fight. You're not alone really, in most LDR's (that aren't LDR where there was an actual real life relationship and then they were seperated) at least one person is doing exactly that and you'd be surprised how much it's the girl.

No. 190608

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Don't. Better a momentary lapse than a full-on relapse.

No. 191191

I lactated for the first time last night. Self-induced, of course. I am definately not pregnant. It was only a few drops each side, but hopefully there'll be more milk if I keep at it. I'm pretty excited, but it's certainly not something I can tell anyone in real life.

No. 191234


As another girl with a lactation fetish, I have to say that this is amazing. Thank you for sharing.

No. 191236

Wth? How did you induce that?

No. 191238

you gotta mess with your tits alot

No. 191259


Stimulate your nipples. A lot.

No. 191277

How do you do it? I really wanna lactate, would foods/drinks made for nursing help?

No. 191279

Fenugreek increases milk supply although I'm not sure if it only works on an established supply.

I'm a new mom and I'm actually using it right now. Pediatrician says fenugreek increased hers by 30% when she used it. I was told taks 3 capsules 3x a day. Theyre kinda big but the tea is less effective. I recommend taking them after meals.

No. 191359

Well, the night before I slept topless, with a fan on (So my nips were hard), spooning a pillow. The next day, I played a lot of sexy flash games, but never finished myself off, if you know what I'm saying. That night I was playing with my boobs as I was trying to sleep and felt a little wetness. I turned on the light and, low and behold, there were tiny droplets of milk coming from my nipple. To make sure it was a fluke or, I don't know cancer, I tried with the other side and succeeded getting milk from that one too. I wasn't stimulating the nipple exclusively, but kind of massaging the whole thing feom top to bottom. You know how deeper down, there are those harder spots in the tits? The ducts or whatever, well I was massaging those the same way I would rub a muscle cramp, trying to work out the knots. I made more progress with massaging on the lower half, below the nipples, in an upward motion, towards the areola. After rubbing them for a while, I squeezed around my nipple in, well, a milking motion. I'm not even busty, I'm only a large A-cup, but lacation has always been a fantasy of mine, so I'm pretty happy.
Go for the ducts underneath before you start squeezing your nips. As for meds, I am on a birth control patch, and I've recently started taking Biotin. Dunno if that has anything to do with it though.

No. 191465

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My boyfriend is perfect but there's just one thing
>His female best friend
I can't help but feel jealous over her
She's slightly pretty but other than that there's no red flags
They don't even hang out often & she has a bf
But I feel like maybe my boyfriend had a crush on her before or maybe there was even a thing between them. I don't know what makes me think that other than that she's not ugly.
I will never ask him about his past with her because I'm too scared but I do feel like I'm jealous over nothing.
I never dated a guy that had a female best friend so I just can't help but feel extremely jealous
She even wanted to hang out with me but I'm too autistic and don't want to :(
How do I cope with my jealousy?

No. 191467

Jealousy is a valid feeling, just like envy, despite both being the most taboo feelings in modern society. If they weren't serving an important purpose, they would never have evolved. Jealousy helps motivate you to keep something you consider valuable that you have, envy helps you obtain something you consider valuable that you don't have.

They're only bad if they spiral out of control. So be jealous. Just don't act on it irrationally, use it as your warning signal, that's what it's there for.

No. 191472

My best friend is male, but I would dump him if the relationship got really serious (engaged) and my significant other had a difficult time accepting him. It would take a very serious relationship though, and speaking for myself, we have fooled around, but aren't actually attracted to one another and wouldn't do anything if one or both of us were in a relationship.

Obviously I can't speak for everyone, but I'd just suggest speaking with your boyfriend. I can't imagine he would get angry over you sharing your feelings on this subject. It's OK to be jealous, but try to keep in mind the reason they are best friends and not lovers is because obviously they have no interest in taking the relationship to that level.

No. 191487

Ugh, my husband has an ex who he's still friendly with. If the girl wasn't a depressed ball of darkness, I would have put my foot down a long time ago. Her saving grace is the depression makes her a shit friend, so all their plans always falls through. So they just share dog memes from Reddit half the time.

>tfw you can't say shit, or you're an asshole

No. 191489


I'm still friendly with an ex of mine since he's a pretty chill dude. No desire to actually do anything with him other than by weed and share anime memes.

I don't think I'd care if my boyfriend had a friend like that since I've dated guys who still talk to an ex, but idk, maybe it's rude.

No. 191490

No. 191491

I'm in my mid 20s and I don't have a life. I never had a bf or gf and I stopped having friends around age 20 and don't even miss them. I live with my parents. I never went to college and have very little work experience. I feel like I'm still 15. I don't go outside for months and I have no desire to do anything most of the time.

Every now and then I admire someone and try to emulate them because I'm jealous of their life but then I fall back into doing nothing. Sometimes I just cry or stare at the wall for an hour. When I go outside men look at me and it kind of just scares me. I know I act like a kid and people can tell.

No. 191495

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Imo it's weird to have a female best friend when you have a girlfriend… Shouldn't your girlfriend be your female best friend?

No. 191497

it's called depression, anon.
get help.

No. 191505

Dude I know I'm depressed but there is no help. I tried all the usual stuff, went to therapy for 2 years, did shrooms, weed, do sports regularly, it never goes away. I know it's always going to be around. People keep saying you can cure depression but at this point it just annoys me. Mine isn't going anywhere, I keep slipping in and out of it.

No. 191506

I'm really unhappy that my bf is circumcised. I've always been uncomfortable with circumcision since I know what it should be like normally. It's so gross and dried out and the scarring, it's weird and unnatural, it's supposed to be an internal organ. The fact that he's missing the most sensitive part of his sex organ and ruining the remaining part is slowly being ruined is scary to me. I'm from a country where it's common but I still feel it's terrible. The worst thing is that he is from a country that doesn't do it and he had it done for a fake medical reason that his mom bought into cause she's stupid. They just did it to take their money.

It's made me so depressed knowing that he'll never be able to have sex normally, knowing he's like this forever and that he'll slowly enjoy sex less and less. It's making me want to be missing parts of -my- body or something, and it's making me want to leave my backwards country. It's just made me question so many things…I'm so depressed every day over it, I feel sick now just thinking about it…

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in my experience guys like that are either players or babies. their "girl friends" are just girls they want to hook up with, or girls that coddle them and act like their mom. but maybe the men around here just suck.

reading your post anon reminded me of myself a few months ago. hell i think i even posted something really similar in the venting thread. i've been depressed my whole life (well, since I was like 13/14 maybe) and it really affected how i turned out- also in my mid-20s, never had a serious relationship, don't have close friends anymore, don't talk to anyone besides my parents. On and off so many antidepressants and nothing worked. Honestly, it wasn't until very recently that I started taking antipsychotics that my depression went away. I was so scared to start them because i thought, i'm not psychotic, i don't have delusions or mania or anything like that, and the side effects scared me. but i was about ready to kill myself because my life was so dumb and pointless so i figured nothing could be worse. and for the first time in my life, i'm not depressed. im still sad and weird, and don't have friends. but i don't wake up every day wishing i was dead, or feeling like some combination of a ghost, and alien, and an infant completely unable to relate to anyone my age.

But its hard because I remember being in the place it sounds like you're at, and there's really nothing anyone could have said to make me feel like it would get better. it's hard when you have no proof of things ever changing to feel like they will. i don't even honestly know why i stuck it out long enough to get here. luck i guess. but its been almost a month now and i've had no suicidal thoughts, for the first time in my life i'm just not depressed. it sounds insincere but it really is possible there is something out there that could help you that you havent tried yet. even if you feel like you've tried everything, it might just be something that hasn't even been offered yet and you just have to find it.

No. 191513


it can go both ways I think. Like you can have a best opposite sex friend while dating someone because sometimes that's just how life is.

Just don't let them overstep any boundaries.

No. 191516

I'm currently receiving social security because I'm a retarded sperg piece of shit who couldn't even handle something as simple as a retail job.

No. 191518


Why does everyone always assume that everything is just depression/mental illness? Why does everyone assume that the default is to have friends and people who like you and a partner and a good job?

Some people just lead shitty lives. Sometimes it's not the depression causing the lack of friends and motivation, it's that everything goes wrong and having no social outlet causes the depression.

No. 191536

After dealing with social anxiety, I finally got my first job however I wasn't paid the first month and two weeks. When I was finally paid, I was paid 50$ less of what I should've received. So the only way I had to try and make a little is hope that someone would give tips and bless their souls, some do. Now my manager has given me no work for two weeks now and I'm planning on going on vacation at the beginning of June but I fear that my manager might use that opportunity to fire me and I don't know what to do. My mom thinks I'm fine but I've been crying myself to sleep and I just can't eat because I don't want to waste money. I took a semester off just so that I can work a little more but lmao I haven't gotten a single day of work since. I know people would probably say that I should go find a new job but if you don't have any connections to anybody your chance of getting the Job is 6%. ive applied for many jobs and still no luck. I don't know what to do now, I've finally gotten over my anxiety but now it's creeping up on me again and I honestly feel like I'm a good for nothing piece of shit. Sorry for the rant-

No. 191558

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my (actually normie) bf plays dnd over skype with a bunch of robot-tier losers once a week, and i go out of my way to act like the perfect waifu in the background because i know they can hear me and it makes them jealous. i'll always cook a nice semi-fancy dinner with dessert so bf brags about what he's having to them - bf just thinks i'm bored hehe. one of them in particular is a salty little fuck who has openly stated how jealous he is of my bf and i low-key hate the guy (he creeps on me and my friends), so hearing him whine in jealousy is so satisfying. pleases me to hear them whinging about 'tfw no gf' while they eat frozen meals in their mom's houses.

No. 191561

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I do this too.

No. 191562

did you even read either of the posts you're replying to? the anon said that they know they are depressed and have tried treatment.

>everything goes wrong and having no social outlet causes the depression.

that's literally exactly what I said

No. 191564

I've been sad and crying on and off for two days because some characters in a TV show I watch died. I don't even like the show much anymore, and I feel so stupid. It's not even real. But I get sick to my stomach and so sad whenever I think about it, I want to slap myself lmfao. Why do I get so sad?

No. 191576

This is A+, anon.

No. 191582

this is really stupid. trust me, as terrible as circumcision is, he's not crippled and he'll continue to get off just fine.

No. 191592

I fear I'm going to lose my bf if I don't pop him a baby.
He has always been telling me he didn't want one but lately he's been low-key talking about marriage and stuff. I'm not sure if he's just joking or trying to freak me out.
I don't want to pop a kid but I'm starting to feel like I have to.
I'm failing at being a productive adult and having nothing to show for it at almost 30 makes me ashamed.

No. 191596


marriage doesn't equal babies, anon. Unless he's including future kids in his plans. You need to make it clear that you don't want a kid, you can't compromise on a child (if you have one and you don't want one, you'll resent it and him, as a child from that situation I can say that kids know when they weren't wanted no matter how much you try and force yourself to love it).

No. 191600

>marriage doesn't equal babies
I'm married and childless, but you'd be surprised how many people think it does. I got married to my then-bf in my early 20s (to get away from my nutso mother, inb4 hurr Venus) and neither of us want kids ever, but every single time I tell people that I'm married I get bombarded with questions like
>ooh, are you pregnant?
>did you get married because you got pregnant?
>when are you going to get pregnant?
>ooh so you're planning on expanding the family, hee hee
>when are you going to get kids?
>it's good to be a young mum, your body will bounce back!
>but you're still in college!
>how are you going to study and take care of baby at the same time?
Ad nauseam, and I never even mention children.

For a lot of people marriage is just something you do when you get pregnant because you don't want a bastard in the family. Those vows about love in sickness and in health just don't count anymore, apparently.

No. 191601

im emotionally numbed for month. i dont feel a thing. I forgot how it feels to have emotions.

No. 191607

I've been both with uncircumcised and circumcised and the circumcised guy was so much better tbh he seemed like he enjoyed sex more he would cum faster too (which I prefer) but other people may have had other experiences idk
…i honestly miss the sex we had with /vent

No. 191608

I am viscerally disgusted by fat people and that disgust has been turning into a resentment that's bordering on outright hatred. I certainly hate that society has normalized it to the point that some fat fuck can feed his fat children McDonald's three times a day and I can't report him for child abuse. No one even talks about the brain damage it causes. People just walk around every day like this is normal and okay, but it's not.

No. 191610

i didn't mention but his penis is actually damaged from it, it wasn't done properly. i'm more upset about the medical malpractice, and the fact that his messed up dick hurts to have sex with.

No. 191615

Had a dream my boyfriend's old bandmates gangbanged me.

I feel like shit for sort of liking it, what the fuck is wrong with me.

No. 191630

That's nothing compared to the degenerate shit men fap to (and feel no guilt about). Just look at the front page of Pornhub. Don't worry about it tbh

No. 191736

i lurked for 3 months on this site until i hit 18 to post, my most truthful confession.

No. 191771

i am super attracted to a guy that comes into my work regularly. i think he is married so im not going to even try to hook up with him. but i get so embarrassed around him because i think about him a lot when i masturbate.

No. 191790

:3 that's cute

i remember i once hit a button to "fax my parents" about joining a forum or something when i was 12. it was like a choice "i'm over 18 let me register" / "fax my fucking parents why don't ya"

No. 191900

I mentioned to my boyfriend that I was unsure about marriage, since all my coworkers at my job are engaged

He started talking about how he thought marriage would be great and what kind of ring he would get me, and while I pretended to be okay and joked with him about it, I got seriously nauseous and threw up after he left because the idea terrifies me on so many levels

No. 191962

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I've been slowly distancing myself from people that I don't want to associate with anymore and I don't feel bad when they catch on. It's more of a relief than anything, knowing that I don't have to pretend that I genuinely enjoy their company and have to hang out with them.

No. 191963

I'm moving in with my boyfriend in three weeks and I think I want to break up with him. It's too late to back out now (I'm actually moving away from where I am now, have a new job, already have a place) so I can't tell whether this is just nerves or not. He's catching on to my weird moods and thinks it's down to stress/me wanting to finish my current job and just move already, but I don't really know.
Thank god for this thread ;_;

No. 191975

Why is it too late to back out anon? Are you unable to find a place to live on your own?

No. 191980

already signed a 6 month contract, paid deposit etc

No. 191984

Ah you're moving somewhere new together, that sucks. At least it's only a six month contract. Maybe it won't be so bad to hold off for a bit. You might even discover you want to stay with him afterall.

No. 191986

yeah we're moving into a new place, it looks so nice as well ;_; thanks for listening and trying to help, I'm sure it'll be fine and it's just nerves but urgh

No. 192037

I hated my art so much that I spent +500$ on art books. My grandmother is going to fucking kill me.

No. 192070

I've been lowkey stalking our new priest for a few days. We've never had one under 50 and I have a huge priest kink. I know where he lives and I've watched him through his window. Wish I was kidding.

No. 192113

Most suitable post for confessions thread, love it.
It would be even better if you confess it to him, lol

No. 192133

I caaan't, I'm not even in the church. Who wants to pay their retarded taxes? I'm actually really against organised religion and don't want to support these fuckers but my kink is strong. I even attended service a few times somewhere in the back row. I don't like what he says but I like how he says it and the chasuble is a major turn on. I need help.

No. 192145

You need to be more in your body, exercise isn't a meme, but any movement helps.
Also try to get angry about being depressed (which is pretty hard to do but sometimes it works, express anger with your whole body)

No. 192153

I recently got involved with a guy who lives abroad, and I'm graduating HS soon.
There was this senior party where a bunch of girls in my class slutted it up with a guy I've had a semi-crush on for years, but was too scared to actually approach. It was ridiculously easy for them to push themselves onto him, too. I low-key wish I got to fuck him as well, and now I've missed my chance. I'd never be unfaithful to my boyfriend, so I feel pretty guilty about these feelings.

No. 192157

I'm confused. You recently got a long distance boyfriend but wanted to fuck some guy in your class?


No. 192159

Pretty much, yeah. I liked the guy from my class before I met the guy I'm with now.

No. 192175

LDRs aren't real. you lack the type of interactions needed to form a real relationship. it's also easier to make up your own impressions about someone.

No. 192176

I'm not so sure about that, anon. I know long-term couples who met online at first, and their relationship only strengthened when they met in real life.
It's definitely not for everyone, but that doesn't make them completely invalid IMO. Plus, with the advent of Skype, FaceTime, etc, it's a lot easier for people to interact more closely (and harder for them to form inaccurate impressions of each other).

No. 192177

she's in high school though anon. for the bulk of people relationships formed online over a long period of time fail. between independent adults, if it's like a few months or a year online and then IRL it could be different but the stuff OP is talking about isn't going to develop that quickly.

No. 192178

I'm the high school anon. I understand what you're saying, but I also feel like you're being a bit presumptuous. A lot of LDRs don't work, sure, but they're not impossible or anything. If there are actual feelings on both sides at play, and both parties understand each other + are willing to make it work, is there really that much that makes them any less "real" than if they had met IRL?

No. 192182

You don't know anything about relationships yet. Plus, you clearly aren't in any 'real' relationship by the sound of your post.

No. 192183

If the distance is only temporary they can work but I tend to agree with the other anon that they're just not real. The only way they work is when the distance closes.

No. 192186

I'm not sure how or why you came to that conclusion (except based on your own personal experiences, which don't necessarily dictate the whole of reality), but alright, I guess. You're entitled to your opinion.

Eh, we're going to meet in September and possibly live together further down the line. We've also been together for almost a year now. I just think it's a bit silly to write off relationships that don't begin in the most traditional sense as "not real".

No. 192191

>almost a year now
>meet in September

Just stop please. My fiance is from the other side of the world and every time he goes to visit for even just 2 weeks I remember how easy it is to get disillusioned by the distance. I've lived with him for over a year now but I still find I have to remind myself that I'm too idealistic when he's far away. I also have been in a few LDRs when I was younger and they ended once I met them. People see what they want, people also show what they want you to see. It's much harder to notice that online, since you're usually interacting one-on-one and you can't see how they are with family, friends, or in public in general. Just take a step back and really think about this stuff.

No. 192193

i have to agree with other anons here, one year is far too long to keep something like this going. i was thinking a few months, tops. you're still really young and likely don't have much experience with people in general, let alone relationships. this guy is probably hiding alot of his personality, but chances are you don't even get a chance to really interact with him. 1 on 1 interactions don't really count for shit unless you're really close with the person, so chances are this guy is totally different around anyone else.

No. 192230

To LDR anon: I'm in one, it's been about a year since I last saw him in person, and will be a few months until I move closer to him.

It is different from a real irl relationship, and one year is a really long time to go if you haven't even met the person yet. Just be careful with your feelings and don't believe you are ~so in love~ until you meet in person. Also, be mindful that the first meet might just be good behavior. With my bf when we met we were basically stuck in his apartment for the entire 3 weeks. Plenty of time and opportunity for the facade to break and reveal our true feelings, but we were fine. Maybe a little sick of each other from the constant face time but it's not like irl is being stuck together in an apartment forever either. So we were ok.

If you're regretting passing up a very real opportunity to fuck another guy (v different from thinking about it or fantasizing) then you're probs not gonna make it.

I'm ok bc my irl life has no time for a real bf so the LDR is pretty convenient and if we weren't together i'd be single anyway.

No. 192238

Honestly, in many ways I do like being depressed. I think my view of myself and the world is more accurate, and I like my personality and reactions more when I am depressed. I just wish it wasn't so consuming and overwhelming, and it wouldn't keep my from being happy even when I should be.

No. 192259

You sound like you really need help.

No. 192323

>I think my view of myself and the world is more accurate
You should be striving to better yourself and have a positive impact on the world, that's what non-depressed people do. Instead you are proud of passively mirroring the current situation. Not good.

No. 192324

No. 192385

As someone who was in almost the exact same boat:

Depression never goes away. You have to just learn to live with it. It sucks but eventually with trial and error you learn ways to deal with it. Some days are worse than others.

Starting with making small goals and working your way up is the only thing that helps. Keep track of them, you will feel better about yourself.

A part time job would do you wonders and expect yourself to make mistakes, sperg, whatever. You can always quit and try a new place.

No. 192388

Not that anon nor do I share their opinion on the world (I'm cynical but I still see a lot of positivity in existence), but I genuinely think my presence is a leech on the world. I've been trying to make myself a better person (on a grant, getting good grades, trying to be more positive), but I still feel like everything good that happens to me is wasted and should go to another person.

I have a weird relationship with my depression and my sense of self. Sometimes I'm ridiculously adamant that my tastes or beliefs are superior, while in the next moment I'm lower than human garbage.

Wish I could just exist as an omniscient being who can watch tv and listen to conversations instead of having to participate, tbh.

No. 192407

So I struggle a lot with my confidence especially when it comes to my body. I used to be a little overweight and unfortunately with the birth control pills I take to help with my periods have caused me to gain a little more weight but luckily I am now on a nice,comfortable exercise and meal schedule. However due to my weight gain I have gained stretch marks and I hate them but my boyfriend calls them tiger strips and always calls me his feisty little tiger. I swear this dork is so cheesy and just a huge ass sweetheart, sometimes I have to make sure I'm not being delusional and show myself he's not a part of my imagination. Sometimes it even freaks me out because of how much of a gentleman and cheesy person he is and how in the fucking hell I happened to be the person he fell in love with. I respect him so much and honestly I'll give him the world if he asks for it

But you see because of how much of a kind hearted and cutie pie he is, I have realized how much of a pervert I am because it comes to the point where, I want to take his used boxers and do stuff. I want to humiliate him a little (in a sexual way) and then baby him and tell him that he's done a good job. I want to dominate and control him and make it so that he knows the drill of greeting me at the door while wearing only the tight underwear that I'll choose for him and many more things.

I am extremely disappointed in myself because I was never like this until he came along. I didn't even know I had kinks until we would talk dirty with each other.
I feel like I'm no good for him Since it makes me feel like I only want him to statisfy my sexual needs because it has kinda escalated and now I can't stop doing my business when I look at his selfies or his voice recordings ffs

Saged cause I feel like an idiot
Sorry anons-

No. 192408

Same fag but

youre probably allowing yourself to come to terms with how life actually is rather than having the comfort of hope around but anon, if it really is overwhelming and making you unable to be happy, you should seek help.
That sort of mindset will eventually break you down and your view of everything will become so warped, you'll feel like it's crystal clear when really it isn't and it will possibly make it so that you can't even leave your house and you'll be nothing more than a neet

Have you found anything else that enables you to experience the same view and understanding of the world just like when you're depressed?

No. 192426

Maybe you should play it cool for now and reassess your feelings in 6 months then. You might just be getting cold feet.

No. 192466

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My boyfriend's brother is the most awful human being I have the displeasure the be forced into contact with. I hope I outlive him. I want to be at his funeral sometime in the future (hopefully soon) with a smile on my face.

No. 192483

i have 33 dollars on my account

No. 192486

Less introspection, more action. What you do should be a much bigger focus than who you think you are.

First, there is no such thing as an objective view of yourself. Other people will always perceive you through the lens of their own experiences, plus different people value different things, so you will be judged differently on the same thing.

How you will view yourself is hence just a matter of choice, and should be utilitarian - choose that view which helps you grow the most and hinders you the least, and change it up as needed to fit that goal. It should be fluid, not set in stone, so that you can change and grow.

And it should be secondary to your actions. Think of all those self-proclaimed geniuses who never amount to anything because they never put in any effort. As long as you do the best you can and strive to follow your own values, that's enough. THAT'S what shapes who you are objectively, and that's what will make you into the person you want to be - the best version of yourself.

No. 192488

What's the norm for you? If you have no expenses, who cares

No. 192492

I almost passed out again today from lack of food.

No. 192494

I constantly worry if i have low libido after my 4 month nofap.

No. 192498

Disorder or lazy? A good thing to do is meal prep, whenever you feel especially energetic.

No. 192504

A mixture of both. I do have a problem but I rarely try to starve myself. I was out today and didn't realize the only thing I've had was coffee.

It was scary, I had to drop my clothes in the dressing room and go to the food court. I felt so stupid.

No. 192505

It's actually surprisingly common, people forget stuff like that all the time, don't worry. A good idea is to set an alarm or something around lunchtime if it happens consistently. Just keep at it and you'll push through, i believe in you.

No. 192506

I like watching end of life and death videos on Youtube because I feel marginally better that at least right now I'm not dying a horrible death or putting my family in pain.
And well, 'save it for another day' I guess. For as long as possible.

I sonder at how death is going to come for us all and really how most of us will be forgotten in three generations or less.

No. 192511

i keep thinking about booze. i'm about 4 months sober and it's all i think about. i never had a huge problem, but one was developing.
i want to get that fuzzy headspace, drown out my mental illnesses.

i want to drink, but i've done so well and i don't want to disappoint my family, or myself.

No. 192512

You can do it dude. Go for a walk, get to some places where booze is unavailable every time you feel the urge. You can do it.

No. 192532

I really hate the lbgtq " community " on tumblr. It's full of heterosexual teenagers using labels to make their boring ass personality and identity more " interesting ". What bothers me the most is that underage kids are using these labels without a care and put their sexuality on their pages. It scares me because apparently the whole world forgot what homophobic people did to queer people? Do " trans " kids understand that people want them dead? Do " lesbian " girls realize its only okay to be lesbian if you allow yourself to be a fetish to straight guys? I don't take anyone under 25 who identifies as something out of the straight spectrum seriously. I could go on, but seriously I'll take attention whoring scene kids over lgbtq so called activist with 400 pages of triggers and kins.

No. 192536

related, but i hate how trans and queer are lumped in with lgb, they are not sexualities. they don't determine who you are sexually attracted to at all. they need to be separate.

No. 192653

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For years I've had a crush on my brother, it probably happened because we didn't grow up together and I was always so happy when we finally got to see each other.
He's handsome and funny and thus has a gf, obviously I am not seriously hoping for anything. I'm fine with living through terrible fake incest-"sister found step-brother JERKING IT and SUCKS HIM OFF"-porn, and whenever I watch a new series/anime I immediately ship the pair of siblings.
To me he's the perfect guy but I'd never act on it in real life.

I can't tell this to anyone ever, feels good to finally get it off my chest

No. 192675

I've low-key been thinking about going to young adult church groups recently to meet people my age because I'm lonely and the only interaction I get is at work. I don't really have any friends near me because we all have graduated college and kind of moved on (aside from the occasional video chat here and there) and there aren't any bars or clubs around here (Podunk, Texas life RIP)

My biggest problem with this is that I'm not religious in the slightest… I just want to meet people, but I am kind of really bad at it.

No. 192681

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I'm in a shitty, abusive living situation and only three people including my therapist know. I tell all of them that I'm saving up money to move out on my own but in reality I am not at all. Every time my paycheck comes around, I spend it on stupid frivolous shit like clothing or makeup or hair products. Things that make me feel better for a brief moment. I keep it a secret because I know I should be saving my money and leaving is the most important thing but I also struggle with mental health and a lot of days I start to think…what's the point. If it ever gets so bad I could just kill myself and I end up going for whatever will make me the most instantly happy, instead of what will make me happy in the long run. I'm worried I'm too weak. I've never lived on my own before. Even though I know right now is not good, it's all I've known.

I just feel stuck, and embarrassed. All of my money should go into savings but I just waste it to feel brief happiness.

Even now, I'm sitting here trying to talk myself out of buying a $12 hairbrush after spending $50 on cosmetics this week. a HAIRBRUSH. I have like 3 hairbrushes already. You can get them at the dollar store. But I still feel like I /need/ this specific one to be happy. It's all so…stupid. Why am I this stupid.

No. 192700

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I had an ex best friend who treated me horribly in high school. She would force me to make costumes for her, transport her to cons, and pay for her hotel rooms (all for free, of course). She constantly guilt tripped me into doing things for her because we were "best friends" but really she was an emotionally abusive peice of shit towards me and her many romantic partners. She would make fun of my size (I had a really bad thyroid problem where no matter what I did I could never lose weight), say that the things I made her for free were shit, make fun of what shows I liked, and constantly told me that I would never get a good job because I wasn't in the same program as her in high school. Also, she once tried to physically hold me down and beat me when I tried to leave her house early to go buy snacks because she wanted me to watch some shitty old anime. She was a terrible person and she made me doubt myself and my therapist thinks she's the reason why I developed and eating disorder and ptsd.

She was (and still is) a social climber in the cosplay community. She's only into "old school anime" and she tries to make that a selling point. Every costume that I made for her, she tried to pass it off as her making it herself, and she became sort of popular because of it. She tries to be besties with every popular cosplayer in my country and she would oftentimes blow me off to hang with her more popular friends (despite them hating her lol). One super popular cosplayer endded up falling for her shit, and they two became best friends. We kind of drifted apart after high school, but she still tried to remain super close because I still agreed to make her things.

Flash forward to one year later. One day I found out that she (my friend) refused to pay a sewist for a costume and claimed that she made the outfit herself. I decided at that point to stop being friends with her because I did not want to be part of that nonsense anymore, so I soft blocked her on every social media. Seconds after I softlocker her, she texted me with a " :( " and demanded to know what was going on. I explained to her that I did not want to deal with her bullshit anymore. The problem with that is that she freaked out and convinced everyone in our com that I'm an asshole (despite never having problems with anyone before) and that I'm transphobic because I accidentally misgendered the sewist that she stole from (I did not know the gender of the person who made her outfit; I'm kinda of an sjw so I feel bad misgendering people and I never try to do that on purpose). I no longer cosplay because I just never want to see her again (my therapist said that it's for the best and that I should not expose myself to her for my safety and sanity).

So flash forward to another year later, I find a thread on anonib where both my ex friend and her famous cosplay bff's nudes and full names are posted. I feel like I'm obligated to tell them that their nudes and full names are online for all to see, but both my ex friend treated me horribly and her bff is also a shit so idk what I do. I kinda want her to suffer because she put me through a living hell but then again getting doxed is awful so I'm not sure what to do. I want to be a good person and do the right thing but I don't want this person back in my life.

No. 192758

i told my abusive ex-boyfriend off for good but i'm sad as fuck because i still miss the early stages of our relationship. even though he fucked me and every mutual friend over, i seriously considered being friends with him. i miss him. i made the right choice but it pains me.

No. 192795

Sometimes I want to go through my old internet posts and screencap all the really heavy shit I've said (mostly in blogposts about myself).

It makes me sound like a narc, but sometimes I like recalling the way I worded or recounted certain things. Really puts things into perspective sometimes too.
I regret knowing I'm probably going to forget about them.
Shoot, I don't even think I could recall a specific post from a few years ago. The other day I was going through a chan archive for posts made around 2011, and I got the worst deja vu because I could've sworn some of the posts were written by me.

No. 192804

Man that sounds horrible.
I'm sorry about that. Like damn wtf is wrong with her.
Do you have some mutual friends ?
You could tell them so they can tell them?
Or does your ex bestfriend have a tumblr or smth ? If you make a fake acc and tell them on there.
By doing that you want have them back.
Anyways I sincerely hope you feel better nowadays and gained some good friends.

No. 192810

Be strong! Look at all the things you have. Do you use them? Unbookmark all the shopping sites you frequent. Delete your browsing history. Put some money in your savings account right now, even a dollar a day will make a difference. You can do it, and then when you move out, you can buy all the stuff you want (after rent of course).

Next time you consider buying something unnecessary, ask yourself if you value independence more than that object. You need to get into the habit of assessing the worth of things. Good luck!

No. 192814

Don't deprive yourself completely anon.
The $50 purchase may have been inappropriate, but I feel bad that you can't order a $12 brush without financial conflict like that.
You could always lower the amount you're putting in your savings, and use it to give your frivolities budget a lil boost. At least that way you're not spending too recklessly, but you're not constantly miserable.

To be extremely honest with you anon, having come from an abusive family myself, I'm in my third year of not living with family and my budgeting is the strictest it's ever been. My wage is entry level and there's so many bills that at least when I lived in my family situation I didn't have to worry about as much.
Some of my superficial friends have stopped coming to me for clothing or other fashion discussions because I haven't bought anything j-fash related since…September?

I won't sugarcoat this. Or pretend that things will be great the first year. It sucks.
But if you train yourself to budget now you'll be happier and won't make mistakes that could land you back with the abuse again once you do move out.

No. 192856

Start a journal anon! Emotional memory is really weird and I find it super unreliable. I downloaded the contents of a private tumblr i had for just this reason. 19 year old me apparently had a lot more feels than I do

No. 192922

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I'm 30 and I'm still a fangirl. I daydream about what are probably ridiculous cliché scenes and ofcourse a lot of hurt-comfort (actually mostly hurt-comfort)
Except it's not really fandom but it's the closest I can compare it to. It's just some characters I made up in a fantasy setting and a story I made up, I've been having these characters in my head for more than 10 years. (the characters and the story evolve and change as I get older)

I'm actually thinking about writing some stories and post them somewhere anonymously.

No. 192983


>tfw no overly clingy friend to get jealous of me

No. 193027

i feel like my depression is getting in the way of me and my fiance's relationship, but he doesn't want to say anything because he just wants me to be happy. i want him to be happy too, it isn't fair for me to deprive him of affection but right now, i just don't want it…

No. 193028


me too

No. 193029

That's great to hear that I'm not the only one! Would you like to tell more?

No. 193037

I'm a hoarder. Only in my bedroom. I'm so completely ashamed of it, because now it's gotten so bad my husband won't sleep in there with me. It's not an excuse, but I know it's a depression thing with me. I look at it every day, and I hate myself for it. Yet I can't do anything I just look at it and cry. It's terrible and I'm so damn ashamed of it. The rest of our house is fine - you would not know this about me. I just don't know why it's like this. And it's not something that has to do with our relationship. It actually kills me. It's not just a "get help" thing either. I'm on meds, I've been in therapy, I've tried all sorts of organization shit, even went to a fucking class on organizing. I'm just a fucking mess. Not looking for shit drama, just needed to confess.

No. 193045

I love to fart. I love to go on public transport and let the rip without people hearing them …the looks of disgust and confusion trying to suss out the culprit give me an intense sense of evil pleasure hahaha

No. 193172

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I had a bad falling out with a roommate last year. I called her out for causing a ton of drama by sleeping with other girls' boyfriends, dumping them after a few months, and being a shit friend in general. Everything was always about her and I got tired her wounded princess act so I moved out. Lots of people in our circle got on my case for being a bitch to her. Prior to this we were really close and even shared Facebook, tumblr, and Instagram account info.

>mfw she never changed any of her passwords

>mfw I've been reading all her DM's
>mfw she's burning bridges with everyone in our circle
>mfw the only people who want to hang out with her are new guys she's fucking
>mfw even they're starting to get tired of her shit

Schadenfreude is a wonderful thing.

No. 193203

I have a huge crush on my boss. Nothing will come of it, he's getting married in a month, but I miss him when I'm not at work and I can't help but fantasize about him.

No. 193215

that is so fucking delicious, anon

No. 193218

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>tfw no blood fetish gf

No. 193231

I despise my coworker. He is a nice person but he is so dumb.

No. 193236

I recognize my own narcissistic behavior at times and I'm not sure if I caught fleas from my narc husband or this is who I am.

No. 193259

I have something called conversion disorder along with major depression with psychotic features. It popped up in freshmen year after our school suffered a spree of student suicides and general tragedy like a car crash. Four kids died in one year it was terrible and stress inducing, for months (as terrible as it sounds) most of the school was essentially waiting to see 'who was next' and bracing ourselves for another round of grief.

But thats another story.

In my case conversion disorder basically means instead of having panic attacks I used to have non-epileptic seizures, or odd twitching episodes or even hitting episodes. Think exorcism horror movie scenes or a particularly mentally disabled person who kinda giggles and fidgets to themselves. talking nonesense and essentially like an oversized toddler.

It was awful, not just for me but my family who witnessed me going from normal person to staring suspiciously and muttering at invisible shadow men with convulsing arms or having to help me when I collapsed on the floor contorting for an hour and then right back to a normal person who happened to be very very sore.

Medicine helped, time helped. Four years later I havent had an episode in eight months. The future is bright and I am happy for it. But now that I have my mind back I can recall the things that I didn't comprehend back then.

The school essentially kept me locked in a side room with only a small window on the door for the final three months of the year. They would peak in at me and whisper like I was an animal even if I was having a good day and didn't need to be hidden away from other students. I didn't do any school work, no one bothered reaching out to me to tell me what assignments I had. I just stared at the wall and the clock waiting to go home.

One day a teacher found me in the bathroom obsessively washing my hands. They brought me to the side room and I remember them getting the principal who called my mother and told her I was a liability. The next time I had an episode they took me to the ER where I mostly sat on the bed staring at the floor.
The principle sat next to me and asked what I was looking at. I told him there was a hand coming out of the floor. He didn't ask any more questions.

My extended family didn't treat me the same. Even on excellent days when I was myself, they avoided having the long conversation we'd always had. Politics religion science history… Hours and hours sometimes until dawn. When I tried to happily bring up our usual debate subjects they were brushed aside and they instead treated me as if I were near brain dead if they even spoke to me at all.

But the very worst was when I was actually hospitalized. There was this one nurse who disliked me and thought I was a hoax and tried convincing other nurses I was as well.

I'd had to go to homeschooling by that point, several ER visits, Brain scans, neurologists, shrinks, docs. Two years worth of proof by that point not to mention the series of videos my parents recorded to help doctors decide if I was epileptic or something else entirely. My parents tried to show the nurse in question these videos but she only watched a few seconds before getting annoyed and ushering them away.

She was always annoyed.

I remember having a convulsion/mild psychotic episode there in the hospital. I remember the nurse; chunky, mid twenties, blonde ponytail, shitty 'I want to talk to the manager' makeup, her arms were crossed as she looked down at me. I think I was on my bathrooms floor.

Her brows furrowed and she was scowling looking really annoyed because I had called for help. I vaguely remember her huffing at me and rolling her eyes before she turned and left me there by myself when I knew I needed someone to watch over for my own safety.

She came back later to see that I'd started scratching at imaginary dirt on my arms in her absence and was mildly bleeding. She was still annoyed and the next day had one of the doctors interrogate me and ask if I was doing it for attention.

I was too out of it to be annoyed back. I told them I appreciated the care the hospital offered me and the other kids there but that I really just wanted my hand sanitizer back because there was still 'dirt' on my arms.

I hope that nurse reevaluated her job.

Another girl had hurt themselves much more severely under her watch while I was there. A snapped tooth brush and the shards of an eyeshadow compact mirror that she'd shattered in the absence of the nurse. She looked like she'd been mauled by a tiger. And said girl was met with the same annoyance.

I hope that girl is doing better now like I am.

No. 193281

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I have a crush on some ugly (but hes ugly cute to me) tumblr guy who will never notice me and seems pretentious as fuck but I check his tumblr every day just to see what he posted. I don't even know why I'm attracted to him because we probably don't have anything in common and he seems like a dick.

I kind of want to hit him up just to see if he's cool or not but my soshul anusziety is holding me back. Sigh… tfw I'll never have an ugly-cute pretentious twink boyfriend.

No. 193283

i'm afraid i'm going to develop an ED. all my life i've been skinny (5'7' and 98lbs) and hated it. recently my life spiraled out of control and for some reason, i keep focusing on my weight and appearance. i'll look in the mirror and think my arms and stomach look so fat, despite losing 3lbs and being at the lowest i've been in awhile. i never ate that much in the first place, but now im consciously what i eat and checking how many calories i've burned off in a day. i'm afraid of getting fat and my clothes no longer fitting (although they don't fit now because they're getting too big). i know i could gain 20lbs and be at a normal weight, and it used to be my dream, but now i'm afraid of even gaining a pound.

No. 193285

Surprise! You already have an ED.

No. 193293

>I don't even know why I'm attracted to him because we probably don't have anything in common and he seems like a dick
it's probably because you find him interesting in a weird, fascinating way. i have a tendency to develop crushes like this as well. i say go for it, roll the dice and see if he'll bite. better to try and see where things go than regretfully waste time obsessing and observing from afar.

No. 193325

you're right. im also intimidated because he seems like he has a very nihilistic view on life and is always posting about politics which is something I don't have any sort of interest in anymore. his political posts consist of buzzwords that i dont even care to look up the definition for so i dont want to come off as a dumbass who doesn't know what he's talking about if the conversation ever got that deep. i feel like a retard

No. 193365

Hunbun, you ain't supposed to weight 98 pounds at 5 foot 7. You're 20 pounds underweight.

20 pounds.

No. 193379

I'm 98 lbs too… but I'm 5'3". You have to get help asap

No. 193389


the thing is, ive always been this skinny. my parents were equally as skinny when they were younger so i assumed it was poor genetics. i used to eat really fatty foods all the time and the heaviest i've ever weighed was around 109. i used to actively try to gain weight too because i hated being so thin, but i never could put on the pounds. i'm getting older and i'm afraid my metabolism is starting to slow, and now i don't want to gain the weight i once wanted.

No. 193395

>i'm getting older and i'm afraid
Here are the keywords.

It's normal to be scared shitless of time. Death. Strength and beauty waning. Goals and dreams unfulfilled.

But nothing will turn back the clock. You can strive to have the shape of a younger you all you want, it won't do shit.

You can't control it. Not time. And controlling your weight will not help you control time.

No. 193593

same you should work out though if you don't already. Being thin and being fit are of course two separate things. I recommend strength training as you can gain weight through muscle and not worry about getting fat from trying to gain weight through just eating.

No. 193667

When someone I don't find attractive tells me they like me, rather than turn them down, I start acting crazy. I tell them I love them right away and start writing them weird sex stories and being super needy and a bunch of other little shit. They soon find excuses to stop seeing me. It's never failed yet and I like to think it leaves their ego a little more intact. I know it's playing with fire though because one day this is going to backfire on me big time.

No. 193803

god this made me laugh

No. 194020

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No. 194079

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If I was your brother and I knew about this I would file a restraining order asap would move to the the side of the world. How does it feel to wanna suck your brother's dick anon?

No. 194104

I'd like to hear more anon…

No. 194123

I'm in a similar position just it's not sexual at all and more in the sense that I want to spend the rest of my life with him. He feels the same so we are roommates and life's perfect like that. I would like to have kids on the other hand, not sure how that will work out.

No. 194124


If it makes you feel better this isn't uncommon with siblings that don't grow up together. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Westermarck_effect

No. 194127

Ask him for a kid lol

No. 194136

I'm secretly glad my best friend has no self-control about food and is pretty fat because she's already prettier than me and I can tell she has a really great body shape hiding under the chub and no one would ever look at me twice. I was always the ugly friend growing up and it's nice being at least on-par with my friends.

No. 194142

I'm close to people who are very involved/supportive of trans rights. I definitely am too, but there are some things that really trigger me and if people who knew me knew that I sided with rad fems on certain issues, then I'd probably be burnt at the stake..

No. 194148

By a lot of standards, I'm conventionally attractive. I'm fit and have a good body. I have a good degree and a well-paying job. I have a few solid friends who I know would do anything for me.

But I'm so depressed and miserable. Nothing provides me with a sense of happiness. No one knows this either. I can only envision myself dying old and alone and with my life having no meaning.

No. 194188

I kinda wish my boyfriend got his ears pierced because I find it hot as fuck.

No. 194195


depression is also a chemical disorder anon. some people just have it due to genetics and hormonal imbalance. have your bloodwork done and run it by an endocrinologist see if you're lacking anything, sometimes it turns out that the world does not suck, you're just low on magnesium or iron or some shit. if not, using anti-depressants is not shameful. it's just a chronic disease really.

No. 194199

Why the fucking fuck would you want to stay close to people who'd burn you at the stake if you show your true self?!

Silent people like you cowering before intolerant people like them is what made Nazi's gassing Jews possible.

No. 194242

I was sexually abused on and off through ages 8-14 by my stepdad at the time. We were already the town's "poor family" and my mom and stepdad were alcoholics and constantly getting into domestic shit to the point cops were called. Everyone knew our business. I kept quiet because I didn't want another bad thing added to the list of how people perceived me. Even now when I speak with anyone from my past it's like they can't believe I am sober with no kids.

I recently reported the abuse for my own sake and I almost wish I didn't. It has brought up so much anger and anxiety in me. Everything I shoved down is just constantly spilling everywhere. I called out my mom on everything and she refuses to talk to me about it but she still continues to post "inspirational" memes about her being a survivor of an abusive relationship when she herself was extremely emotionally abusive and neglectful. She treated me like she was jealous when I was a kid. When we finally got out of the situation, my stepdad sent me a letter telling me we could go anywhere together and that he loved me. I showed my mom the letter, she destroyed it and never did anything about it.

I wish the people who were supposed to protect me tried harder. I wish I spoke up when I was a kid. And lol I wish he was dead

No. 194244

I can't offer you any real practical advice here or empathise with your individual situation, I just wanted to comment and say you're seriously awesome for surviving all of that and not allowing it to turn you into your parents.

As for your emotions spilling everywhere, I can empathise with that. I had a difficult childhood due to being mentally ill, a stepdad who constantly humiliated and isolated me from the family, being bullied at school, and loads of other traumashit. That culminated in being gang-raped aged 17 and finally becoming a homeless drug addict. When I finally diagnosed with bipolar aged 20 and put into therapy/given meds… the emotional overspill of facing my past was a huge shock. So I get where you're at.

Basically all I want to say is: feel it. Feel every last bit. Say what you need to say, cry when you need to, go to a field and scream, put pillows in a pile and punch the fuck out of them. Do it all. You'll make it out the other side one day and it'll all be worth it. Strength to you, farmer.

No. 194304

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i have a fantasy of becoming a neet in my own little dark studio apt… breaking up with my boyfriend, cutting off ties with everyone but a few friends, and just not giving a fuck anymore. in this fantasy, i still go to work as a normie, though…

sometimes when i'm stressing out, i envision my neet self doodling weeb shit on a tablet or eating instant ramen contentedly by myself, and it makes me feel better.

i think this is because i realized a little while ago that i probably have npd due to my parents, and sometimes the combination of being mad at everyone + knowing i need to change these thought patterns overwhelms me…

No. 194577

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I'm really really into nonsexual ageplay and have been for over a decade. Before tumblr it was so hard to find anything about it, I remember I knew exactly two people over the internet that were also interested and I found them through livejournal. Now it's all over the place, it's almost mainstream. But I think that people who are into it for sexual or fetish reasons are gross and perverted.

I know it's taboo to think that considering I am into it in a nonsexual way and so have no room to judge other people and yet I do. Shitting and diapers and pseudo-pedophilia (dd/lg or lolita/nymphette stuff) disgusts me if it's a woman and infuriates me if its a man. I wonder if there are more people who are the same, but just feel they can't talk about it.

It's already such an embarrassing and strange interest, and I hate that its kind of unsaid you have to just lump everyone together…the people who get off on pretending to fuck kids are somehow equal to the people who like to color and be cuddled/babied. It seems worlds apart to me but I'm sure to society its all just the same weird/gross baby stuff. I don't blame people for thinking that way, I mean if you aren't into it why would you even bother with the nuances. It would all just seem stupid and gross.

I don't know why it appeals to me when it's not even a fetish. I kind of hate myself for it and wish I didn't like it most of the time. I wish I could erase it from my brain.

No. 194580

>I wonder if there are more people who are the same, but just feel they can't talk about it.
You should look into the Chire (short for childhood regression) community on Tumblr. That's how a lot of them feel.

No. 194587

I feel like a huge loser for living with my parents. I'm 22 and in college, but I really just want to drop out and move somewhere far far away.
My friends who are the same age arent any better off than me, but I still really feel behind.
Also I hate my job and I want to quit, but I dont want to settle for a lower paying job.

No. 194593

I'm 25 and I can't imagine ever wanting to move out. Being a loser and having less freedom and privacy (for the sex I'm not having anyway, I guess?) is a small price to pay for no bills or chores, basically just no responsibilities outside going to work. I bought property and still have over a year's salary in the bank, the thought of having to spend my money on rent or groceries is so fucking unappealing when right now I spend it on anything I want, still manage to save heaps, and never have to worry about being able to afford things. My parents are fine with it so I'm just gonna have to force myself to leave when I hit 28 or something.

No. 194600


i moved out around 28 as well and i'm in way over my head with chores and responsibilities. i like the independence living alone affords me but i keep thinking about all the money i might have saved and used towards more permanent things like a car or buying a house via mortgage. unfortunately, while my parents were very suffocating and against me living on my own in the beginning, recently i lost my job and half-seriously asedk them if i could move back in and they were like "uhhmmm, how about we just pay your rent instead?" lol.

No. 194641

I lived by myself for a while and it was the best time of my life, just having the freedom to buy the food I want, live wherever I want, and not have to answer to anyone. I miss it a lot. I value that kind of freedom more than I value material things, but that's just me.

No. 194654

Sometimes when I have a free day and nothing to do I start watching those 24/7 family guy streams on Youtube.
Normally I do avoid the comment sections of the stream (they are full of racists, bots, people begging for followers and cunts who are advertising their scamwebsites) but on this special day, I had a really bad day, because I got into a huge argument with my boyfriend. So I got into the comment section and started triggering some bitch who whined about her daddy issues and bragged for instagram followers and some racist fucktard. It was a great feeling to let my anger flow freely at them, and soon I ganged up with some people and bullied them off the stream. That was a great feeling.
An hour later, my boyfriend and I sorted things out - our realtionship is now better than ever and so is the relationship to my coworkers and boss, since I am bullying people in livestreams to let my anger out.
I know that it is wrong and immature for a 23 year old, but it honestly makes me feel so good.

No. 194656

I'm such an ungrateful bitch. I've been meaning to learn how to ride a bike for forever and found a bike I'm super in love with (cute color/shape, no logos, the right size for me) and I wanted to learn how to ride with it. My dad just randomly picked up my boyfriend and I two random bikes he got for cheap and I just kinda went inside and cried. It's blue and yellow and covered in logos and it doesn't fit me but I'm being expected to ride it anyway. I don't want to touch it. But now I'm an ungrateful bitch because of it. This is such a first world problem but I really wanted to pick out and get my own first bike for myself and have it be something I really liked, not something that my dad chose for me that doesn't even fit me…

No. 194657

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bikes arent usually cute and dont have to be. unless you want to look like a toddler riding a trike. just get on the fucking bike, anon.

No. 194658

im advising against this. theres no other community with more drama than the teenietots/kidheart/whateverthefuck side of tumblr. bunch of bratty retards.

No. 194661

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This is the one I want. It says it's a women's cruiser soooo. It's pretty damn cute. I'm not riding a men's bike that's too big for me.

No. 194663

yeah no, that looks cheap and tacky.

you'd look better cruising down the street in a random bxm or mountain bike honestly. now go have a good time and ride in what ur dad got u

No. 194665

Are you twelve or something? It's a fucking bike, learn how to ride it and save up and buy the one you want when you can if it's so important to you, life isn't a perfect fairytale you spoiled brat. Your dad gave you a bike as a gift, be grateful that you have a kind and caring father.

No. 194666

Be mature about it and explain it to tour dad. I think it's really sweet of him to do that for you.

That bike is super cute but you might want to try learning on a different one because there will be a lot of falling and you don't want to risk damaging it.

No. 194667

Holy shit anon lol my dad bought me a bike too (I ask for it) and he bought me almost that exact bike, color and all. I was gonna buy a secondhand plain beater for like 15 bucks, too.

No. 194669

That is really cute but it's ok to have an average (even if kinda ugly) practical bike for now too! Practice on the one you have for now and then if you really enjoy it you can save up for a cute one if it still feels worth it. I have a dingy old mountain bike and then one cute bike that I saved up for.

No. 194671

You sound like a salty ungreateful 12 year old..Are you sure your old enough to use this website if you cant even ride a bike lol. Your dad bought you a gift fucking appreciate it you spoilt brat. That bike you want is ugly af anyway.

No. 194681

Having a parent force something onto you that you didn't want, even if it was a 'thoughtful' gift, is an annoying pain in the ass. It doesn't make you ungrateful just because you want something more specific.

I think >>194661 is a cute bike, but be cautious about those cruisers because they often don't come with gear switches and so riding up hills and steep inclines becomes a tough task. You can always save up for half and sell the bike your parent got you when you get close to the goal.

I plan to do the same with the washer and dryer my parents got me. I wanted to save up for a nice duo, but they decided to get me really cheap models. The washer doesn't agitate my clothes, and the lint catcher on the dryer basically catches nothing and so my clothes and laundry room are always super linty.
I've noticed this go-cheap behavior in many white baby boomers around my parent's age. Buying cheap worked back in their day because they could get something quality for low price, but that's not the case today. It's not that I'm not grateful for them thinking about me (probably why other anons with not-so-nice parents are lashing out at you), but I want to save for something specific and to my liking. Nothing wrong with that.

No. 194702

No Im 'lashing out' cause I come from a poor family of four kids with a single mother so Im not a spoilt brat and can actually appreciate the effort and though that goes into a present.

No. 194703

>I come from a poor family of four kids with a single mother

This doesn't disprove anything I've said.
Like I was saying, you're lashing out because you come from a not-so-nice and unfortunate living situation and so you cannot fathom having the opposite problem of parents forcing stuff onto you.
I'm sure you'd love it if your mom so much as gave you a $15 bike from the dump. So of course you'd think someone else is acting spoiled for complaining about something they don't want.
It's all relative, and I feel bad for you.

No. 194705

I dated a professor when I was in college—I was 22, he was 36. He was nice and respected the fact that I wasn't all that affectionate and didn't try to push me into having sex or anything… but that's why I broke it off with him: because he was the touchy-feely type and that didn't work for me and because I didn't think it was fair to him that I wouldn't be inclined to reciprocate it… that, and he was surprisingly needy.

Anyways, the only reason I bring this up is because one of my friends messaged me and told me that he has a new girl friend now–another student. Same age as I was when I dated him… except he's 39 now, almost 40… and it makes me wonder if he's capable of getting a girlfriend his own age or preys on younger girls.

(it should be worth noting that I didn't have him as a professor, but he was a professor in my field of study… he was also incredibly shy and a lot of students didn't like him that well. However, during/after I dated him, he opened up a lot more and he got along with students better. So I guess I sort of helped him break out of his shell?)

No. 194707

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Yes you are ungrateful bitch, take what you are given and shut up… You don't even know how to ride it anyways.

You seem like a person who needs a fucking good slap…Just saying

No. 194708

>If he's capable of getting a girlfriend his own age or preys on younger girls

Sorry you got used, anon. That blows. I bet he plays 'coy, broken professy' just so he can lure in caring students like you. There was a power dynamic situation there and he abused it.

No. 194710

I don't think he used me entirely. I got a copy of a past final exam for one of my classes from him that was about 90% the same as the one I ended up taking.

So it wasn't a total loss.

No. 194711

Anon you let him touch you in exchange for exam answers. He used his position as a prof to use you.

Hell, my professors didn't even let me shut the god damn door in their office. Your prof should be fired.

No. 194712

We didn't do a lot of 'touching'. We kissed maybe twice? No sex, no fondling.

But yeah, it was skeevy. What's bad is that the department head said that our relationship was okay (Yes, we actually went through the proper protocol in the handbook, which involves letting the dept. head know if it could be a conflict of interest).

No. 194725

Those types of bikes aren't very good for learning on anyway.

No. 194932

Bf left his cheap shit chromebook on the floor like he usually does last night. Even though that's asking for fucking trouble.
For whatever reason my foot accidentally landed on the corner of it.

Apparently that busted the upper corner of the screen. The laptop is still functional, it just has an ugly corner now.
Bf is upset about it and doesn't know how it happened.

I won't be telling him what actually happened because he'll blame me even though it's his own god damn fault for leaving his shit (clothes, pens, trinkets) on the floor all the damn time. Wish I could say lesson learned, but he probably thinks it happened spontaneously and it's a bit too late for me to confess I stepped on the fucker. Whatever.

No. 194941

Sounds like you and your bf need to have a little chit-chat about adult responsibilities and cleaning up after yourself.

No. 194943

He's a guy. I've had numerous conversations about picking up but it never sticks. Most men are just imbeciles when it comes to possessions, though I don't know of too many who keep valuable objects loaded on the floor.

No. 194946

That condescending feminist attitude is the opposite of adult/mature.

When females tell their side of a story, it's almost always very biased. When they imitate the other person's voice they make them sound "evil" or "nasty". They change the tone or story in a way that best reflects them, they drop lies or exaggerations everywhere.

Other females of course are too stupid to see this, they are swayed by the emotional rant of the other female, and they will almost always agree with them no matter what they actually say.

They don't critically analyze anything, they just respond to the tone of voice like an animal, their brains don't work based on logic.

No. 194947


I'm sorry a woman hurt you

No. 194950

>When females tell their side of a story, it's almost always very biased.
Yeah because men never fucking do this, gtfo robot

No. 194951

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i wish i could thank my mom one more time and really mean it for being a drugged up asshole when i was younger. she died years go in my early twenties and now that im clean and older and wiser(?) i regret more and more the time i could have spent with her that could have been more meaningful.

i try to be strong about it and act like since it has been years that im over it, but honestly it eats me up so much. she tried so hard with a big family and little money with little things. crafts and hugs and special dinners when we could do it. anything to make her family feel loved. my step father was a physically abusive drunk idiot and no matter what shit he put her or us through, her children were always first.

i feel so weak admitting that i get so choked up but i loved her and miss her so much

No. 194952

Your mom sounds like a great lady, she'd be so happy to see you clean now

My mom recently died and I often find myself imagining her 'looking down on me from heaven' or talking to me as a ghost or something when I remember stuff she told me. It's pretty silly, and I have a logical atheism-influenced part of me that knows it's probably meaningless, but do it anyway since it brings me comfort.

No. 194953

>When females tell their side of a story, it's almost always very biased

Tell me what the fuck is biased about someone leaving a laptop on the floor and another person accidentally stepping on it? Stupid cock.

No. 194954

i do the same thing though. i like to imagine that she could at least see the better parts of my life. she died pretty soon after my daughter was born and i hold on to the baby blanket she made for her and try to put my thoughts into it like she can get them.

im really sorry youre dealing with that loss too anon.

No. 194955

I haven't been hurt by any woman ever, basically because they can't hurt me.

I wish a female would hit me, their uncoordinated weak bodies can do no harm to me. Your punches are like hitting me with a wet noodle. It would give me an excuse to show them "equality".

Being an incel hurts but that's indirect.

Men do this when there's an actual reason to, like when they're being arrested. They also do it much better than women.

Females do this in a very specific way, and they do it all the time. They do it for completely stupid reasons, sometimes reasons they imagined. For example, when a female is imitating something her enemy said, she will preform the voice in the most nasty, snippy, exaggerated way possible, even if the person did not sound like that.

You don't have the intelligence to properly read my post or understand what I'm talking about.(Domo arigato Mr Roboto)

No. 194959

>You don't have the intelligence to properly read my post or understand what I'm talking about.

You're going on a rant about feminism based on a reply telling the original anon to have a talk with her bf about having the responsibility to not put his belongings on the floor anymore.

Are you fucking stoned? Stupid? Just trying to hamfist a tirade against womminz this evening? Fuck off dumbshit.

No. 194960

Eh, I'm still pretty much a freak but at least I'm self-aware

>I would file a restraining order asap would move to the the side of the world
Reasonable. And it's not really that sexual, a little like >>194123 said. I do not support incest marriage or reproduction in any way. Just want him for myself, be the only woman in his life I guess.

No. 194961

pls anon dont feed into that

No. 194977

Now it all makes sense.

No. 194981

My brother is emotionally abusive and destructive to pretty much everything. He's even tried to hurt my dog but waits until I'm not home since he knows I'll fight him. I can't even be in the same room as him. He's 30 years old, works 20 hr weeks in retail and comes home to sing at the top of his lungs or smoke pot. My parents are afraid of him and won't let me put an order of protection against him to protect my dog or my mental health.
I'm moving out next year thank god but it's not soon enough. I've never hated someone as much as I hate him.

Recently, I've started gardening and my parents joined in. Of course he had to join in too and started planting then gets mad because no one waters his plants. I'm upset because it's like he's invading the one thing I have that's going well with my parents. So I've started killing his plants by the roots it's not obvious. I hate that I have to kill plants, but I can't find any other way to funnel this anger I have towards him. I'm just afraid he'll catch me and attack my dog as retaliation.

No. 194982

You should call the police if he does it again

No. 194999


that fucker absolutely needs a good beating. beat his ass until he relents. did that with my abusive father a couple times and now he's on his tippy toes around me. if he's larger than you just kick his nuts and then use a plastic pipe or garden hose, it hurts like hell but doesn't leave bruises.

No. 195053

Fuck what your parents think. Get an order of protection and get his ass arrested when he inevitably breaks it. He sounds like a fucking sociopath.

I would absolutely beat his ass since he's abusing your dog. I hope you have someone who can keep your dog safe when you're gone from the house and if not see if you can find someplace to take it.

No. 195090

Whenever anyone tells me they are aspiring to be a "stay at home Mom" I feel slightly disappointed if I know them well. It may be because all of the SAHMs I know accomplish literally nothing and whine on Facebook all day about their babies, so I could be jaded.
I just wish people could understand you can have a life outside of your children. And that while raising a child is a difficult feat, it doesn't make you above anyone else and certainly doesn't award you with boundless knowledge.
Personal rant, no hate.

No. 195152

It's really fucking weird, but I'm always been turned on by people who use my stuff. Like, when I was in school, when a guy (or a even girl, even tho I'm hetero) would borrow my pen or my rubber, I would always watch him discretly and It made me feel really good (It would even give me chills sometimes) . Same things when people draw me or doodle on my hand/arms

No. 195162

Hah that reminds me when I was busting my ass in college I was too broke to ever go out so I binge watched Desperate Housewives on Netflix. It really made me fantasize about being a STAHM lol. But then I realized how boring and mundane it must be and snapped out of it

No. 195163

holy shit me too!! When I was ~13, a classmate walked by my desk to hand in his test, realized he didn't put his name on it, took my pencil right out of my hand to write his name on his paper, and then put the pencil back in my hand. it was rude as fuck but I didn't care and even developed a crush on him afterwards lol.

No. 195177

Let me preface this by saying I'm 25. Got a short list here of shit I need to say somewhere.

1. I've never come close to having an orgasm. When I masturbate, it just stops feeling good pretty quickly, and it doesn't really feel great in the first place. On this subject…

2. I've never had sex or even kissed anyone else romantically. I had internet relationships as a teen but never an in person relationship. Part of me doesn't want sex because masturbating is so dull and putting things in my vag kinda hurts, so I just say I'm asexual, but I really wish I was normal.

3. My only fetishes are dudes raping other dudes, related to that. Its really embarrassing and I don't know why it's pretty much JUST that. I usually fantasize about being a guy getting raped. I know rape is a common fetish, but I feel like the added gay sex part of it is something I can never tell anyone.

4. I sometimes wish I was like a twink pretty boy, mostly just a guy though. I'm not trans or anything, but I really hate my boobs and would jump at the chance to have them completely removed. They're way big too, which makes me hate them more. And I'd just prefer male anatomy in general, but I don't hate being female at all.

I'm sure I have more to say but that's enough of a dump for now.

No. 195182

Not sure why anyone would actually WANT to be a stay at home mom. You invest all this time and emotion and work into your kid(s), but then you have nothing when they leave. My mom is like that right now. She's never worked a paid job a day in her life, she was invested in me and my brother. We've both left and she's pretty much going crazy because her only "friends" are her other family and she doesn't even see them often. Or even talk to them much. It seems so sad…

No. 195183

This only speaks about how sad YOU are.
Go see, talk and be there for your mother, you piece of shit.

No. 195186

I'm not even that anon but are you trolling? That's a grown woman who sounds like she needs to develop a hobby, skill, or make friends. Not tie her adult children to her hip because she invested too much in them to worry about her own self development. Besides, you don't know what their relationship is like.

No. 195204

Agreed. My mum is retired and the woman is constantly busy with her many hobbies and friends to the point, she's just as occupied as the rest of the family who work, study etc.

I can't say I agree that being a SAHM would be boring, you just need to be able to entertain yourself if you have free time.

No. 195228

1.) I cheated on my current bf with an 'on again, off again' ex
2.) I'm going to take a bunch of laxatives and throw up because I feel fat
3.) I don't feel bad about cheating, i just want to go home to my bf and cry

No. 195236

Got warts from my rapist months ago, haven't done anything about it, still need him to want me because if I'm nothing to him then I'm nothing at all.

No. 195249

Are you me? Holy fuck, I could have written this a while ago. I am trying to be a decent person now though… I let my bad self esteem, anger and crippling depression make me do stupid shit for way too long, but I didn't really feel too bad back then. I'm still flirting with a couple guys that I was talking with before my relationship got official earlier this month, and I just want to ditch them and focus only on my bf. It's like I need constant attention because I'm needy as fuck. Just figuring out a plan so I can do that without being too rude.

No. 195250

>>195249 forgot to link >>195228

No. 195289

My confession is lame. I always wanted to work in a office in the main city. Inside one of those huge skyscraper buildings. Meanwhile I work in retail and it's hell dealing with these crackheads everyday.

No. 195304

when I was 7 years old, my paternal grandfather molested me. I only told my mother, when I was already an adult, and apparently he also molested my cousin.
Thing is, he already died. And while I'm happy he died from a debilitating illness (cancer), it pains me a lot that part of my family still talks about him as if he was a good man, and that I can't go to his house and torture and murder him.
I had a fucked up childhood, and he helped into making me the lonely, filthy degenerate with disgusting and violent fetishes I am now.

No. 195310

It's gratifying to know I'm not the only one whose experienced this
I've been in a similar situation with the needing attention but wanting to be faithful
I ended up telling my bf that I needed more attention and then tried to make female friends
Idk I hope that helps
Tldr; befriend females

No. 195340

I feel so stuck in my own head in real life.

When I'm online, I feel so much more intelligent because I have time to think about what I want to communicate, and formulate half-decent thoughts. I post quite a few opinions here and publicly on other places, and for the most part they get widespread approval from others (I won't pretend I haven't had a few clunkers tho).
Then–snap back to reality–I'm often not very quick witted in real life as I feel online. I'm not as bold because I don't like making waves. My defense mechanism, whenever I feel someone is being snarky or aggressive, is to act overpolite and nice–just because I don't like confrontation or dealing with the consequences of being judged/upsetting someone. Whereas if someone treated me like that on social media I'd chew out their asses no problem.

Another thing that sucks about saying an opinion or arguing in real life, is that once you've said something there's no taking it back. My WORST memory of this is when I was in high school and I was taking a college course at the local state campus. One day I said something SO IRREVERSIBLY ignorant in front of a class discussion when I hadn't meant it to sound that way, that the entire room couldn't stop laughing at me. Even my professor, who normally praised me for having better grades than the college aged kids, had to lower his head in secondhand embarrassment. Just remembering that moment makes me cringe to this day. Augh.

I just want an irl avatar. That way I could be the person I actually am on the inside and not this meek short woman with low self-esteem.

No. 195386

Cute post anon. i think a lot of us feel this

No. 195567

I sometimes become a fan of youtubers I found through lolcow namely shoe0onhead and pixielocks. The criticism of them is valid but the content is addictive and they have some undeniable charm.

No. 195581

>undeniable charm
I could deny that, easy. Hahahaha

No. 195934

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>tfw i broke up with boyfriend about a month ago
>tfw regret breaking up with him
>tfw never will be together with him again

No. 195942

I'm kinda crushing on a guy at my dorm. I'm in a relationship but I can't help but fantasize about him because I've never felt like this for anyone other than my s/o before.
I need to get my shit together though because cheating would be the most dumb and irresponsible thing I could do.

No. 195946

My life a complete mess and I'm barely holding on.

I think my eating disorder is coming back. I don't even care. I just want to be thin. I just want to be in control again.

No. 195957

Why did you break up?

No. 195963

it was just over some stupid disagreement that got out of hand

No. 195977

Same here…I was happy eating like a pig again but I feel so gross

No. 195979

I'm a college student. I go to the school of my dreams and I adore it, but the small amount of financial aid the school is giving me makes me so nervous about my financial situation in the future that I find myself googling information about different kinds of sex work. I'm not sure if I could ever really do anything hardcore like escorting or stripping, but god is in enticing to think about that money. I have friends who have moved to LA and have sugar daddies and they look like they're living it up, I can't help but be jealous and think about the what ifs.

No. 196183

had the consultation today, starting the first part of my abortion tomorrow. it's all pills. i thought i could be detached but as i get closer to the appointment i'm becoming more emotional about it. i've always been adamant that it's not a human until a certain time has passed / certain features develop but it's still a living organism and i feel bad for it. i don't think i'll ever regret this decision but it still feels wrong to cause the death of this "thing" inside of me.

i was only "pregnant" for about a week - from the time of finding out to the upcoming abortion - but it's been one of the longest i've felt. i don't think i'll come out of this completely whole. i was taking birth control for over three years and it failed this time…i guess i never thought i'd be getting pregnant at 20. it feels like a chapter in my life is closing and i wish i could just go back to being a stupid college kid like before.

i don't really have close girl friends in my life to talk to about this. my parents would kill me if they found out. even with my boyfriend i just feel alone and like he doesn't understand me completely. i know it has to be done and i hate how sad i'm getting about it.

No. 196239

You're going to be okay. I went through the same thing you did but I got the surgery because I could go back to work the next day. Honestly I still get sad about it sometimes. I just let it pass. You will be alright and if you decide to have it that's fine to. Your choice. You're really strong whatever decision you make just know that.

Your boyfriend doesn't understand fully and he never will but that's not his fault I guess.

No. 196240

Every day I day dream about non existence, sometimes I go into a catatonic state and just listen to ambient music while staring at the ceiling for hours and those episodes have gotten more frequent.
I'm becoming more isolated from my fiance and my mother and escapism/day dreaming is the only thing keeping me going right now, I feel so robotic and despaired when I have to interact with other people it is killing me.

No. 196461

I keep getting angry and jealous about my bf because I feel like he enjoys his time with his friends more than with me. We're in a ldr and his online friend is over right now and i feel like he 's more sad about his friend leaving than he was when i left when i went there. i don't know if im wrong but i want to be wanted and missed too and sorry im being dumb jealous

No. 196468

the friend isn't a girl, are they?

No. 196469


No. 196470

Anisa Jomha?

No. 196499

Yeah same here. I think I came to the conclusion as to why it happens to me, not sure about you but I think it may have to do with looks. I'm usually a a 4-5, 6/10 on a really good day.

No. 196501

You know, I find this happens to me too. I'm relatively easy going, I completely mind my own business and try to effect other people as little as possible. I'm shy and awkward and slightly autistic. For some reason, certain personality types HATE me. It's often young women. I don't know why and it makes me sad because I don't know what I'm doing wrong. I'm averageish looking, I can acquire boyfriends but I don't really like dating. I just want good friends! I'm really sorry, it sucks.

No. 196504

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I'm so tired of being a friendless, shut in, shy loser.

>Became a shut-in insecure little shit because of very severe bullying

>Lost all my """friends""" around 10 years ago
>though i would have died before i entered my 20's (i did not) so did not try to reconnect with people
>years pass
>still a friendless depressed anxious alone shut-in in my 20's and regretting all my life choices up to this point

If you saw me in real life you wouldn't think i am as miserable as i am, or that i have no friends, because i always look like i don't care about being alone and actually like it. I take very good care of my appearance, take my hygiene very seriously and don't act awkward or autistic around people, so i seem completely normal and not the what you consider a "loser".
Whenever someone asks me why i am alone i say "i like being alone", because i don't know how to say i don't like it but i am alone and can't do jack shit about it.

I look very confident with it and at peace with the fact that i go by myself most places. But it seriously eats me up inside every single time i remember i basically have no one in life to have fun with or confide and converse with, it is making my life a fucking never ending nightmare.

I don't even remember how to make friends anymore, every single time i try to make acquaintances it doesn't get past a few conversations, then the other person stops completely from talking to me suddenly and i wonder what did i do wrong to fuck up yet another conversation eventhough i was trying to keep the talk going.
I used to be very shy and awkward about interacting with people, but now i try to always be welcoming to people and open up a little more, but i don't know if i seem too over-eager to meet people or i over-share too much and it feels awkward, but it never gets past a few exchanges.

Since i am currently studying at-home and do not have a work, i don't know where i would be able to find strangers on a daily basis that starting a conversation with wouldn't be weird. Tried on-line games, but i always seem less passionate about them that the people i meet, so it never goes anywhere.

At this point i am seriously afraid i will die alone with no one who loves me because i seem to be unable to meet people no matter how hard i try to get over this slump.

It's fucking depressing and sad for a woman in her 20's to be this way, so i always keep it secret but it really sucks.

No. 196505

20 is a perfect age for women to have kids.

Girls start producing more retarded babies at only 25, yet somehow this degenerate society tells girls even that is too young.

Girls should be having kids around 14-24, white people aren't having kids anymore because white women have been encourage to pretend they're men and go to college and focus on a career. (Third-world cultures haven't been effected by feminism like this)

Guys are failing academically and financially, they aren't going to college or focusing on a career anymore because they have no motivation to since women are ruined. All the "good guys" disappeared because the only motivation for them to exist in the first place was the reward of a proper wife/mother.

99% of women have no purpose being in college, the most valuable thing they could do in society is be a good mother and wife.

No. 196506

The fuck are you on about

No. 196507

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This happens to me too, except I find that it's usually white middle-aged women who don't like me. I guess they think I'm stuck-up? I'm just shy.

No. 196509

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I had this female coworker a couple years ago I developed a crush on. We both had boyfriends, and we were both in committed, long term relationships. I felt a little weird about it, since she's literally been the only woman I've ever had a crush on. I didn't let her know about my feelings, because what good would it do? We both had boyfriends, she's straight, and I'm mostly straight, I guess? I just chalked it up to being some dumb little crush. She ended up quitting and worked a string of dead end jobs, only to end up back at my workplace a few months ago. I was elated to have her back. I always look forward to when she is scheduled to work the same shifts as me. Recently her long term boyfriend broke up with her. I'm still in a happy relationship with my boyfriend, but I can't help feeling so fucking jealous every time I see some asshole guy trying to hit on her in her time of weakness/sadness. I just want to protect her from getting hurt again. Every time one of these guys bothers her I fantasize that I stand between them and tell the dude, "She's my girlfriend, go away" or something to that effect. I feel very annoyed with myself that these thoughts have been occupying my mind more often lately.

No. 196515

I'm crushing very hard, bordering on falling in love with a guy that is not only taken for 4 years now, I know his girlfriend, I'm fb friends with her cousin, and my bff who introduced me to the general friend group/circle also used to date this guy a bazillion years ago/introduced him to his current gf.

It's such a clusterfuck of connections and history and here I am pining over a guy who yes, is 11 years older than me, but he's witty, he's smart, he's funny. And I'm not blind to his faults; he's a motormouth, he can derail any conversation like it's no biggie, he is probably too good for me, and yet here I am wasting my time wishing he liked me in secret.

I'm in my late 20s so I'm not a teenager, I should know better. But he's very sweet to me, he's protective, he's kind, and honestly you don't get that a lot. And to top it off, his girlfriend is a good person. She's not the stereotypical toxic bitch that he could sooooo do without, nah they are apparently happy together. She's getting her phd abroad and they are LDRing atm and people make it seem like it's going so swimmingly and amazing and what a totes awesome couple 4 lyfe and marriage and kids and shit. And yeah, everyone always wants to show off their best behaviour, nobody really advertises the bad parts

but like, I keep trying to distance myself. I keep saying to myself don't do it, don't do it, and suddenly there I am, sitting next to him while I stroke his arm absent mindedly (he doesn't object, either), or he strokes my hair as I sit by his legs on the floor, or he pinches my cheeks/says I'm so adorable and cute he could just bite me, he calls me sweet, etc, and I'm just a puddle. Fuck my life.

Even if I get best case scenario aka he goes with me eventually, I'll still be "that person" to a whole community. Cliques are small, people talk, and my name will be mud to everyone.

No. 196522

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Honestly lately I've just been wanting a tall, beautiful gf to hang out and have great sex with
The search continues

No. 196548

I'm really glad demented schizoids like you no longer have the power to control and abuse women with impunity. Men can no longer force women to marry or have sex with them and this makes you mad because there is literally no other way anyone would ever touch your fucking busted ass.

You'll die alone, wanking your shriveled cock in your sad little hand.

No. 196595

>develop a crush on a girl
Come on anon be honest with yourself.

No. 196630

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My confession is that I like licking these things clean

No. 196632

hahaha oh anon. :')

No. 196633

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Same, anon. Also, I've been taking shots of these since I was a kid. I dunno, shit tastes better in little cups.

No. 196652

thank you anon. i went through with the pill and after it passed the next day i felt immediately better. i think the pregnancy was giving me a depressive bout, but overall i'm glad i made the decision i did.

and the most valuable thing you could do for society do is to kill yourself. also in case anyone saw this retardation: 35 is when the rate of issues in children start spiking. the best biological/social age for women to have children is mid-twenties to early thirties. i'm staying in college and graduating, so is boyfriend :)

No. 196664

I still do this. As a kid I took them from diners etc. and got yelled at by my parents
They're so good

No. 196668

If you're so concerned about retarded babies, you should be concerned about men in their 20s, and against teen pregnancies/age gaps.
>* Autism rates were 66 percent higher among children born to dads over 50 years of age than among those born to dads in their 20s. Autism rates were 28 percent higher when dads were in their 40s versus 20s.
>* Autism rates were 18 percent higher among children born to teen moms than among those born to moms in their 20s.
>* Autism rates also rose with widening gaps between two parents’ ages. These rates were highest when dads were between 35 and 44 years old and their partners were 10 or more years younger.
>The higher risk associated with fathers over 50 is consistent with the idea that genetic mutations in sperm increase with a man’s age and that these mutations can contribute to the development of autism.

But you don't actually give a shit about healthy pregnancies, you just want to raise your chances of getting a hotter, younger wife by convincing women to waste their youth on kids they can have later.

No. 196673

I stole oxycodone from a friend and i know that her bf does that too.
Also he makes creep photos of me and asks if we wanna bath together.
Never told her that.

No. 196679

>35 is when the rate of issues in children start spiking.
it's not actually "spiking". thats only what big pharma wants you to believe.
statistics is hard I know.

Ratios that are used in the US a lot are confusing I know. Let's look at it a little shall we?
>Higher Risk of Chromosome Abnormalities
>Chromosome abnormalities, such as Downs Syndrome, are much more prevalently in women who become pregnant after 35. Most studies find that the likelihood of giving birth to a child with a chromosome abnormality after 35 is around 1 in 170. This number dramatically spikes by the time a woman reaches 40, when the chances are around 1 in 60.

the ratio 1 in 170 is the same as 0.59%.
That means it's 59 of 1000 women giving birth. Wow! The number doesnt look as big anymore does it?
with 25 years old the chance of having a baby with down syndrome is 1 in 1,200.
Whats that in percentage? It's 0.08%.

So from 8 women from 1000 women giving birth to 59 women of 1000 women giving birth to a child with down syndrome. That number is increasing, but it's still considerabely low.
Want to know what the risk of a stillbirth is? At 35-39 it's 0.5 to 0.6% Wow! That's exactly the same as for having a child with down syndrome! Weird isnt it?

But now the article goes on saying the number lowers voice for a horrifying tone dramatically spikes when you reach 40. But what is 1 in 60 meaning? Again (1 divided through 60, multiplied by 100) it's only 1.67%. That's only a little over twice as much than with 35. It's 167 women in 1000 women giving birth or finally 1-2 Women of 100 Women giving birth. Too me that number sounds still fucking low.

Nothing "dramatically spikes". It's just bogus for more prenatal testing and that sorts.

No. 196680

from 19 until 35 the chances are 0.4-0.5% btw.
WOW THAT NUMBER SPIKED DIDNT IT … attention, it's irony

No. 196684

So I started dating this guy a couple of months ago. I was told by another close friend that he was asexual, but decided to go for it anyway and told him I had feelings for him and he said he'd be interested to try things out.
Fast forward to now, a few weeks back he revealed to me that he isn't actually asexual but thinks he might be trans. Enjoys sexual stuff (like some really freaky stuff) but is absolutely disgusted by his penis. We've tried doing some sexual stuff that mostly amounted to me getting off while he made out with me and it was pretty cool. I know we gotta go slow but I am a really sexual person and I can't really think of future steps to take.
Because of that, the frustration is getting to me pretty hard. He said we could maybe work towards sex eventually but I am so frustrated. I held back for a while but the fact he doesn't say sexual things about me or put any emphasis on how I look really pushes me. I'm bi so I don't care if he chooses to pursue being trans I just want some fuck.
I'm a popular gamer girl and used to be pretty flirty with guys on my server. Most of them I told that I was in a relationship now but a couple still don't know and I still flirt with a little on the down-low. I don't know if I should cut it all off in case I end up horny and doing more than flirting (I used to exchange pictures and call people while getting off) or if it's just harmless flirting to help me feel better about myself. Some of them give me gifts and stuff but I told them I don't have interest in dating them or doing anything more at least. I don't wanna quit the game but I don't now how to stop opening myself up to getting attention.

No. 196722


>dates guy who is asexual or at least has a very low sex or inexperienced

>"im very horny why won't he fuck me"

you're dating a person who has virtually hardly any sex drive which you knew of beforehand and then complain that he won't hurry up and fuck you? break up then if it matters that much to you. this is your own retarded fault.

No. 196727

25 is the most fertile age, try again. And recommending girls to have kids under 18? You think kids in the middle of puberty with their periods all over the place are fertile? Anything to please your pedo- oops i mean "hebephilistic" worldview.

No. 196728


Ironically rates of autism are highest in children with teenage mothers

No. 196733

Agreed. I knew way too many teenage moms who didn't have hips wide enough to naturally deliver because they just haven't hormonally developed enough at that point. Most I knew got c-sections or had to do the weird vacuum thing.
So many teenage preggers would be dead if not for modern interventions.

No. 196751

Yeah, 14 year old children whose bodies aren't even developed (they were 12 two years ago ffs) are not fully equipped to handle a pregnancy. This bitch wants to justify his pathetic pedophile fantasy.

No. 196763

No I was prepared for that kind of relationship when he was "asexual", but now I've discovered he's not and actually has a decent sex drive I'm frustrated.

No. 196813

i fell for this guy, it didn't work out, now i stalk him online daily. it extended to stalking a girl, whose pictures he keeps liking on instagram. i feel like an asshole because i want him to suffer (nothing serious, just… i want him to be a lonely loser) and i keep calling the girl names (irl to myself, i don't comment on her posts). i know they will never be together i just can't figure out how she's better… she's prettier, i guess. i looked at her twitter one time, she barely uses it anymore but her old tweets (2 years or so old) are still there - she sounds like a complete cunt. i find it hard to imagine that she's a better person now. i've never met her in real life, never spoken to her.

it's easier to hate on him (and her) than to admit to myself that i'm also a shitty person and that i need to change myself. i'm a poor excuse of an adult.

i should see a (psychiatrist? psychologist? therapist?) because i can't keep going like this. the whole thing started from me being lonely and depressed. this last year was shit, there was one time when i didn't drink water for two days because i couldn't find the strength to get out of bed and take a shower, so i could go out and buy water (tap wasn't drinkable at the place i lived at). i'm still alive and that's a fucking miracle about which i'm not sure if i'm grateful for. also now i do this thing where i just stop in the middle of the sentence when i'm speaking and then continue. the pause is long enough to be noticeable but to not be too awkward. it's like i blank on my thoughts.

No. 196816

>i should see a (psychiatrist? psychologist? therapist?) because i can't keep going like this

yes, you really, really should. psychologist is the one you're looking for, psychiatrists are mainly for meds

No. 196826

>she's prettier, i guess
He's a man, how the fuck else do you expect him to gauge the 'better person' when it comes to women?

No. 196831

Oh my god I did the same thing in college. Depression sucks. And it's crazier cuz once you get up and do it you're like, "This is so fucking easy why did it take being dehydrated for a day and a half to get here" and then it starts all over again

Also guys will choose the hotter girl the majority of the time. I think social media and porn wraps their ideals of beauty. And that's fine everyone has a preference. Just gotta wait till you find someone good

No. 196833

Hans.. are we the baddies?

No. 196862

>i just can't figure out how she's better… she's prettier

This is why it's dangerous for women to be raised with so much importance placed on looks. It's not that this isn't what it's actually about (it probably is), but you don't realize that it doesn't exactly matter and being attractive is an arbitrary standard for guys despite their protest to the contrary.
I've seen some guys fuck some ugly women.

>i'm a poor excuse of an adult.

This, right here, is what actually matters. Anon, one day we will all be older and uglier. We're going to be adults looking for qualities like responsibility and career because looks generally don't pay bills or provide food. Looks don't guarantee a partner who is tolerable or responsible.
If you are a better person, you will attract better people who will see value in you beyond looks. And wouldn't that make you feel better, knowing that looks have an expiry date?

See a psychologist and set up little goals to better yourself. Just because one guy seems to have rejected you doesn't make you unsalvageable. You can do it. You are worthy of help and love.

No. 197567

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I've been devising ways of killing squirrels that would probably make me sound evil to most of my friends and strangers who would find out.

Squirrels never used to bother me until they turned out to be destructive dickbags. WORSE than mice or rats, imo.
They shit and piss all over my deck furniture, dig up my plants to bury seeds from my bird feeder, and eat my plants to boot. They knock over the cute shit I put out, like candles and ceramics, and break them.
I bought jalapeño plants over two months ago and haven't gotten a single motherfuckin' pepper because those little bitches gnaw off any pepper or flower that appears. Like, most times they're not even eating the peppers, just taking a bite and tossing it on the ground like it's fun for them to do. I've tried putting bird netting over the plants, but they do find ways to tear the netting off eventually, or just knock over the whole damn plot.

I've never hated an animal so much, if not because they're conscious of the fact that I am a threat and clearly don't want them on my deck, but they test me anyway.

I'm going out today, finding the biggest rat trap I can buy, and modifying it by adding a bunch of nails sticking up like pic related.
I will take so much pleasure from watching these smug bastards finally die. I thought about asking my hick friends for a pellet gun, but being that it's an apartment deck, not a good idea–even though I'd enjoy it.

No. 197573

I'm unbelievably turned on by seeing men in pain and distress. In fact it's nearly the only thing that turns me on sexually. I've always been that way.

This is driving me absolutely mad as I've become a recluse with little human contact and can't see myself venturing out and finding a man to elicit these reactions from.

It seems like people who want to be hurt by others also expect them to have their life in order and be a functioning member of society. Fuck I'm so tortured by my shitty desires.

No. 197842

I "quit" my part time job for the past seven months because my main boss was also quitting (it's awkwardly complicated: the couple I worked for got a divorce, the wife was what held everything together and I didn't want to be around for the shit show that would happen when she left… which, is what happened. Enter revamped ownership, husband gone, wife back in. I show interest in working again and am recruited back). It's typically a weekend gig (a local live music theatre thing) so it doesn't interfere with my fulltime job… but anyways, I worked yesterday and a couple who would frequent the theatre before remembered me and were really happy that I was back at the theatre to help out and, like, they actually missed me and joked about how I can't just leave like that without asking their permission.

I know it's lame confession, but it made me kind of happy that I wasn't only remembered but was also missed? It makes me wonder what sort of people they had working there when I was gone…

No. 197848

>>hick friends
Sounds about right

No. 197849

You're disgusting and I hope your trap gets stuck on your lip or tit. You don't deserve a nice garden when you're an animal abusing sack of tumours. Torture traps just make you an edgy faggot who gets off on mitilated rodents.

No. 197869

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Sorry I triggered you.

If it makes you feel better, I ordered this instead.
>muh humane death
Causes death in under 10 seconds. Get bent. It's a pest animal.

No. 197880

found the vegan

No. 197882

I really love my boyfriend and our sex is great, but I just wish he was a tiny bit bigger, like one inch bigger.

No. 197892

Best way of getting rid of squirrels is just killing yourself.

No. 197950

Tbh you're the edge lord here.

No. 198146

Been thinking a lot lately about how I was raped when I was 17 and I just completely ignored it and never said anything to anyone. Its been 10 years now and i'm not sure why its been bothering me. Not sure if I should try to find a therapist or continue trying to ignore it. Not one person knows and it would just end up upsetting people if I decided to tell them.
Can anyone relate?

No. 198155

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Yeah. I was sexually abused when I was 5, and I honestly felt like it never bothered me up until now, almost 20 years later.
Looking back through my childhood though, I can see how it affected me. It also affected the way that my parents treated me, which added to much of the problem.

Don't ignore it if it's bothering you. Talk to someone, it really helps. Cry about it. Don't bottle it up anymore. It doesn't solve anything, and you'll never just forget about it.
I've been talking about it with a few people I feel close to for a couple of years, and I feel so much more free.

Good luck anon

No. 198161

I can, I've had problems with sexual abuse when I was very young with a pediatrician and a caregiver. I feel like I forgot the memories throughout the year until I was 14 or 15 ish, then it hit me and I finally realized what happened and what they did was wrong
I'm scared to tell anyone about it because the caregiver who did it was drunk when it happened and I believe they forgot, so if I did tell anyone I would come off as some big fat liar faking abuse for attention and the caregiver will find out and think I am just some crazy girl faking abuse for attention

No. 198186

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I have a severe crush on another girls boyfriend.
She happens to be a snowflake on this website and i have been trying to avoid posting anything relating to her even though i read every message posted in that thread.
Because i somehow convinced myself if i do not contribute or shit talk her then it's still ok for me to crush on him from a distance but if i join in on the shit talking i will be utter scum and i don't deserve the kind occasional talks i have with her boyfriend.

But it's so tempting to shit talk her because i hate her for being such a slutty attention whore and giving her boyfriend a bad reputation not to mention the fact he's rather unhappy with the shit she does but he's too sweet to tell her to behave because if he would she'd pull the ''THAT'S SEXIST I CAN DO WHUTEVER I WANT'' card

No. 198187

who is it? is it a legit crush or?
what is she a flake for?

No. 198230

Lmao, is it Ian and Anusa?

No. 198239

I want to know mooooooore

No. 198265


No. 198267

narrow it down more, is she known on twitch? is she known on YT? what race is she? what's her bf do?

No. 198269

updates plz

No. 198341

I'm a female and married to a man, but a lot of times I wish I was with a woman. I don't know what to do. I couldn't share him with another woman, and I couldn't even fathom having an affair. Sometimes I really miss a woman's touch and intimacy.

No. 198387

Legit crush.
She's a flake.
Both Twitch,Youtube,She's white.

I still like him, She's still a whore.
The thing is i don't want to steal him from her or anything i just wish she'd try to be a better girlfriend for him because he deserves it.
Instead he gets his reputation tarnished because she can't stop on getting off on other men's attention.

No. 198406

This is Suzie isn't it?

No. 198689

The Red Pill/Traditionalist side of Twitter irritates the fuck out of me with their constant circlejerking and smugness. I've found the real identities of a few of them. The men that claim to be "real men" and "alphas" are scrawny little manlets and the women that claim to be beautiful are ugly as shit. I'm thiiiis close to replying to their Tweets with the pictures of them I've found, but how illegal is that? I found them very easily, some had their real Pinterest following their secret Pinterest, some had people they know following their Spotify account so I could find them through their Facebook friends list. I know I'm creepy but these people brag about how they look and are perfect and act so untouchable when I know the truth. I feel satisfaction knowing what they look like and that their lives are not as perfect as they like to make it seem.

No. 198696

I feel like I may be losing feelings for my boyfriend of a year and I'm not sure what to do. He's been away for a week, and I found myself not really missing him a ton, not speaking to him a ton all week, and its just now hitting me that things could be different. I could see him again and all those feelings could go away, so I don't want to act or think about it too much rn, but I'm scared of what this could mean.

No. 198703

it's not illegal at all if they publicly posted the picture of themselves and that's all you're revealing (no names, addresses, etc) but do expect it to be blocked and deleted immediately

No. 198719

>dump bf
>fuck chad after a night out at the bar
>regret your actions, but not really
>wonder what could it mean some more

This is the only way.

No. 198730

Anon pls do a dump in the alt right snowflakes thread. It'll be glorious milk

No. 199021

The moderator and founder of the red pill sub is a politician lol. He outed himself cuz he linked his music (1 man band I forget the name) it was pathetic and amazing

No. 199028

>pathetic and amazing
Pick one.

No. 199035


I meant pathetic as in he's a pathetic person but amazing as in the drama that came from that. It even made the news on tv

No. 199044

>someone i disagree with on politics, better shove their selfies in their faces that'll show em

Shut the fuck up.

No. 199074

i don't think that will do anything. those people are confident enough to talk on a site that's not anon. think about that.

No. 199909

I have a boyfriend I live with who loves me, and I love him right back, but it doesn't change the fact that I still want to fuck someone from my past. I still talk to the guy. I just got back from a Walmart parking lot where I dildoed myself with cucumbers while he jacked off. Oh, god. I didn't know where else to confess this or who. I just need to get it off my chest.

No. 199913

>claim to be "real men" and "alphas" are scrawny little manlets and the women that claim to be beautiful are ugly as shit
She definitely said more than just "disagree with on politics". Someone's insecure!

No. 199915

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anon what the fuck

No. 199916

That's pretty fucking trashy, but it makes me feel better about my trash self. Thanks anon.

No. 199924

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This is the type of shit that will get screencapped and posted in a "Best Of Lolcow" image set, or if you ever go full mystery.jpg and all your posts get linked back to you, this will be the one people constantly bring up.

No. 199938

you cheated on your bf

No. 199939

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Holy shit anon.
0-10 in a few seconds.

No. 199940

You'll get a lot of shit for this, but we've all been there. Maybe not in the sense of cucumbers and that sort of weirdness, but in the sense of falling for men other than our boyfriends.

Every girl has had at least one "oh fuck, oh fuck, oh fuck" moment where a guy you adore asks you to go back home with him and you agree or something similar.

No. 199945

um not really, don't try to justify your own behaviour by projecting it onto others

No. 199947

you might as well have fucked him, you missed your chance.

No. 199951

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Bitches at my job are getting greedy.
We all used to pick up each other's shifts for free, but ever since our company allowed shift trades for incentives they all wanna hustle.
I wouldn't mind paying someone $5 extra per hour (assuming they're being paid $15/hr + $5=$20/hr), but they often want minimum $10 extra per hour. If someone is really desperate to give away a shift, hustlers will purposefully wait for that person to raise the offer just so they can profit money.
Often times my company will let people leave on unpaid time off if we're overcount. So if greedymcgee picked up that hour for $10, that's $10 they get to pocket for the time the company offered off.
Another shady thing hustlers will do is that they will pick up shifts from the incentives group, pocket the incentive money, and then go give up the shifts on the FREE trades group to anyone picking up for no charge. Which is bullshit.

I managed to give up 7pm-10pm the other night for $15 as I advertised, but not before some bitch messaged me wanting to do it for $25.
I swear this is gonna get toxic.

No. 199952

Who hurt you guys

No. 199984

Thanks, anon. It's a weird place in life where I want to feel loved, but sometimes the people that love us don't fully satisfy us. I know the other guy couldn't give two shits about me. God. What am I fucking doing?

No. 200009

I've been using "fabric conditioner" to (not)wash my clothes for a month because I thought it was detergent and I've never even heard of fabric conditioner, only softener. WHY THE FUCK is the description of the product in such miniscule type clearly meant for ants?

No. 200018

Conditioner like conditioner for your hair anon. Why would you think conditioner was for cleaning?

No. 200047

As I said, I thought it was detergent when I bought it. Only just now did I notice my clothes aren't really getting clean, so I thoroughly inspected the container and sure enough, in the tiniest print imaginable it said "fabric conditioner." Quite annoying.

No. 200066

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Ahh mini print description and huge adjectives descriptions. Cause you know, what we all really want to know is that it is neroli and ylang-ylang scented but not what it actually is. Much like adjective foods.

No. 201922

I feel low-key Schadenfreude when I see people on sociale media whine about being spoiled by other people's hype. I think they should stop being sensitive bitches and either refrain from reading about it or just stop being affected by spoilers. Like it's not about the goal but the journey that kind of thing.

That being said, I don't actively try to spoil films/shows/books/whatever but I almost want to do it just to spite these people complaining about being spoiled.

No. 201924

I feel you, lmao. Especially the dumbasses that subscribe to the group of tv show X when they're still at season 1 and whine and throw a tantrum when people discuss the latest episodes.
But in any case, people are allowed to discuss on their profiles. It pops up in your feed? Who cares. It's just a movie/show/book/whatever, at the end of the day. I've read JoJo knowing all the characters who would die and other things that were going to happen and I enjoyed it anyway, so it's not like knowing something is going to ruin it all.

No. 202316

Farmers, am I racist?

I believe in equal rights for everyone. I don't think that anyone is different from anyone else. I think we are all human and deserve to be treated as such.

America's history is dark and we have, and continue to, treat minorities in a deplorable way. There's a lot of violence in the world today because of the color of another's skin or the languages they speak or their religion, and I don't agree with any of that. The world is a very complex place and there are not a lot of easy answers as to how to fix everything that's going on. But I think we must treat each other with dignity and compassion, and to learn and connect with each other. There's a lot of people who are doing horrible things out there today, and they are from all different races and creeds. But there's also a whole lot of good people on every corner of the earth. And we should all work together to create a better world for everyone.

I sometimes don't agree with a lot of leftist memes I see posted on Facebook. And I'm afraid that makes me racist or a Nazi sympathizer. I recently said that I don't agree with political witch hunts because they can spiral out of control. I was called a Nazi for this and many of my friends tell me they think I am racist now. I don't know what to do. How do I become less racist?

No. 202322

Are you 12 years old?

No. 202326

If an actual racist gets "witch hunted," and ends up getting harassed or fired from their job they deserve it. Racism isn't a political belief and shouldn't be tolerated, don't be stupid.

No. 202329

Only whites people need to be nice, everyone else can do as they please and blame it on "being oppressed". Everyone knows you'll tolerate it because you're so spineless.

No. 202337

i don't think anon was saying racism is a political belief, i think they were saying they got called a racist for saying people should be allowed political beliefs, which does happen. lots of super left sjws will shoehorn racism into anything they can because it scares people. for instance, i think that trump is a racist moron, but him being republican has little to do with that. But if i were to say that republicans in general are free to be republicans, those leftist sjw types will jump down my throat because they stereotype everyone.

No. 202343

I don't believe racism is a political belief, I guess I just spoke out of turn? I don't know. I don't care if someone gets fired from their job if they go to a Nazi rally or they can't keep themselves from being a /pol/ shiller on Facebook. I think their employer has every right to do that and I wouldn't want a Nazi to be working for me.

I guess I just feel like witch hunts can easily become something where people attack others just to avoid being attacked themselves. But I think that whatever my opinions are, I won't be talking about them anymore. I think I will just have to agree and go with the crowd about it and not pipe up with dissenting thoughts, lest I be eaten alive again.

No. 202344

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anon, stop.

No. 202345

theyre not wrong though.

No. 202371

I'm a compulsive liar and need help

No. 202373

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>I recently said that I don't agree with political witch hunts because they can spiral out of control. I was called a Nazi for this and many of my friends tell me they think I am racist now.
No, you're fucking right and anyone who says otherwise is a god damned retard.


People with passing resemblances to some jackass from that march are being harassed. Mob justice is STUPID and incredibly inaccurate. Reminds me of that antifa that got unmasked and his brothers in arms smashed his skull in a while back because they have no idea what a nazi actually looks like.

No. 203070

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This might sound petty, but I just found this one ~alternative girl~ ho's Facebook profile from middle school who used to shit on me all the time in class, and she got so fat and really blew up. Like, she has cottage cheese legs now and at one point cut her hair to look like a fakeboi according to her old photos. It looks like she's doing terrible and she's still chasing after band guys from shitty emo bands who will never notice her. And there's another girl who looks just as ugly and trashy who did the same shit to me and is stuck doing nothing in that small town. I am fucking flourishing. The people I went to school with really fucked with me bad to the point I had to drop out and get my GED earlier than the legal dropout age in my state so this is such a good feeling. Total hick retards that deserve to stay miserable.

No. 203074

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Iktf. The rich daddy's girl SJW who used to be my best friend before turning around and talking shit about my anxiety and poor parents went to study sociology in the UK and is now back in our country, living in some down the country bogger town (can't afford rent in the capital), working at a call centre for peanuts, complaining about having no friends on twitter and dealing with severe mental issues. All things she used to take the piss out of me for. Loving Every Laugh.

No. 203098

Oh hell, I loooove being petty and relishing in the fact that I'm doing better than people who were mean to me in the past. I mean, I guess it's pretty immature but schadenfreude is one hell of a drug.

Without creeping on social media, I can think of three girls who were super bitchy who are now single moms (at 23-25) and working shitty sports bar jobs and have no life outside their sprogs. I moved abroad to the city of my dreams and have an awesome job, a loving SO, and a cute puppy instead of a baby.


No. 203116

Ditto, but only to family members. Also, I'm lying about having my associate's degree. I'm still one English class short.

No. 203931

My bestfriend and I had a rough period maybe two or three years ago because I was tired of her always judging everything that I did. I had a fling with a boy who she didn't like and things got worse because I didn't want to talk about it with her. I knew she was just jealous but she tried to play the victim card of ''I'm being forgotten! You don't care about me anymore!'' when actually I told her EVERYTHING and every freaking time she got petty and pissed about it.

One day, when all this was happening, I knew she got into my Facebook account because she told me she thought I was lying about something lol as if it was completely normal to do that. She apologized and I let it slip but I was so mad I got into her Twitter account.

Not only I knew she was lying to me (and pretty much everyone she knew in RL) about having a relationship with a boy (who she supposedly ''dumped'', but was still dating), I also knew about her secret account. And by secret account I can say the profile where she put SO much shit on me, I was appalled.

She ''exposed'' our conversations twisting my words to make me sound the bad one here (i.e. when I asked her to meet up three or four times, she quoted the screenshot saying something like ''lol you have no time for me now that you have a boyfriend, nope, I don't wanna meet'' and things like that). Not only she was calling my (still) boyfriend a ''fuck buddy'' when in RL she was asking me to introduce him to herself, but she was doing it in front of people - not a lot though - who we both know and it was…Crazy.

I almost discovered the account by accident (I didn't know she had a secret account in first place) and at first I was so, so hurt. I thought we almost fixed everything between us and then I found that.
So I kept checking her Twitter and her secret account for more than one year. I felt kind of bad but I thought: fuck it, if she can't tell me all those things to my face I can't be bothered with all her fake lies. For a year, I kept asking questions about some things that I read there in a nonchalant way. If she told me something I've already read, I knew just what to say to make her confess more or less. She NEVER noticed what I was doing, she doesn't know to this day.

It came to a point where I had to leave her account because I was becoming paranoid about everything she said to me in RL and what she was going to write in there, and things have become better between us after all. I just didn't want to be like her anymore. I live better now in my ignorance, maybe sometimes I'm a bit anxious about her telling me one thing and actually thinking another but hey, what can I do?

What hurt me the most is that I thought everything was fine with her. If I asked her if something was wrong (even before I entered in her account), she swore everything was fine. Having to found it like that really fucked up my mind and my trust, because nowadays I'm always afraid that people is still lying to me or in reality they think one thing and tell me another. I have to ask for validation that everything's okay almost three or hour times before I convince myself that nothing's wrong and sometimes I myself make it worse just because of my paranoia.

No. 204191

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my boyfriend of 2 years is lying to me about everything and i love him too much to leave him or even cheat on him or anything. i couldn't hurt him like that even though he's lying constantly now. (i have proof too)

No. 204196

>I sometimes wish I was like a twink pretty boy, mostly just a guy though. I'm not trans or anything, but I really hate my boobs and would jump at the chance to have them completely removed. They're way big too, which makes me hate them more. And I'd just prefer male anatomy in general, but I don't hate being female at all.

Interesting, sounds like autoandrophilia to me. The fact that you're relatively asexual outside of those fantasies matches up, too.

No. 204197

I think I am legit going to try and hook up with a stranger while I'm abroad but it will probably lead to nothing and just make me feel worse.
1) I'm pretty ugly 2) I'm only there for a few weeks visiting family 3) I'm still a virgin and not on any BC so I might pussy out because I've been anxious about sex without BC as added protection.

No. 204209

I kinda want to see my bf getting fucked by another man. We're both into pegging which is already awesome but that would just be another level. It will probably never happen and I don't mind, but I'll probably fantasize about it from time to time.

No. 204218

I lead on my ex because I'm lonely but I know at the first chance of finding someone better I will leave him

No. 204234

I know this girl who has a sarahah. She's so goddamned whiny and bitches about how the world is so unfair to her upper-middle class, skinny, white ass. I'm extremely tempted to send her nasty remarks through her sarahah and see if it gets to her. More than likely she'll just use it as another excuse of how the world is against her and get more attention from it.

No. 204259

What is he lying about, anon?

No. 204262

I can only stand to wear loose-fitting pants, t-shirts or sweatshirts, boxers, and boots (preferably steel toe). Anything that is tight on me makes me want to scratch and itch, except oddly the bra. Anything that doesn't support my lower leg or protect my toes from accidentally slamming my door on them or running into things with them will piss me off quite quickly.

For the longest time, I thought it was completely normal to wear a sweatshirt alone. It was only after I was a senior in highschool that I noticed what others had noticed and nonchalantly investigated.

I also don't like to wear deodorant, but I always do for public courtesy. I shower everyday, so it's not as if I don't like hygiene. I just can't stand the sticky feeling under my armpits.

This would be less of an issue if I wasn't in the middle of a relatively cosmopolitan city.

No. 204273

Nothing bad could possibly have happened to make her sad because she is middle class, thin, and white. She couldn't possibly have depression because she isn't brown or fat! She can't be grieving because she's middle class! She can't genuinely find experiences in her life upsetting because she has it a little bit easier than meeeee despite having no frame of reference for what it's like to be poor, not white, and never chose to be a fat slob!!

It must be so oppressive for you anon. She doesn't have a nuanced understanding of circumstances she's never experienced, it's an outrage.

No. 204287

The thing is, I was tested for ASD (Asperger is no longer an official diagnosis) when I was receiving testing for a diagnosis of ADHD, and I did even meet the upper standards of the disorder. The steel-toe boots are a matter of practicality, too.

Either way, looking like a country hick in [metropolis] really doesn't seem like a good flag for socializing in general, yet alone dating. Not that I've ever gotten anywhere close to that…

No. 204369

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When I once read years ago of the fear of blushing in public I remember laughing it off.
Now I have this problem that is blushing randomly in public, and believe me when I say randomly, and I can't control it or even feel it. So people just look at me and say "Anon why are you blushing?" or "Your face is all red, are you embarrassed?" and never believe me when I say that no, I'm not and it really just came out of nowhere.
Now I understand that fear. Let it stop please

No. 204383

I haven't had sex in 10 years and my last boyfriend left a pretty negative opinion on my body, but I want a boyfriend!!
But I decided if I haven't gotten a boyfriend by my birthday.
I am going to start posting nudes on soc.
That my confession

No. 206313

I think I'm going to be mentally stuck at around age 15 forever. I'm in my 20s but I still have high school anime loner-tier interests and no friends.

Often I watch some old AMVs on YouTube, look at the dorky old comments and daydream about being back in high school but having some equally weird anime loner friends to hang out and do dorky stuff with and LARP as our favourite characters. I can act normal but I haven't grown up one bit. It's embarrassing and cringeworthy but I would love to have friends like that.

No. 206324

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>I can act normal but I haven't grown up one bit.
Your teacher thinks this when instructing you. Your boss thinks this when managing you. Your 90 yo neighbour thinks this when greeting you. Your mom thinks this all her life and you are oblivious to it, just like your child will be one day.

No. 206340

Thank you. Exactly. I think the problem is people think that others really feel aligned and 100% competent with their societal roles, when they don't. They've just had enough experience to perform their daily tasks in a way that isn't overwhelming, but they still wonder if they should be doing something else and still have plenty of stress. I'm just sick of this "idk how to adult" trend among actual adults because "adulting" is just fucking doing the work you agreed to do. You don't need to fucking fully identify with whatever the task at hand is. You're not expected to be the best. Ain't nothing to it but to do it. I feel like the way our language is set up makes people think they need to identify with all the tasks they do or they're fakes, when really, you're you and you're just doing shit as a means to an end, and some tasks are more enjoyable than others. That's all.

Sorry for rambling I'm in a goddamn Mood.

No. 206343

I want to get rawed so badly by a good ol dick
I think about it almost every day
But probably never will

No. 206351

what do you think is stopping you

No. 206467

Being in a relationship with a woman
I know we can use a strap on but I want physical flesh touch and him grabbing my thighs
It's been going great but I'm craving

No. 206502

Hey you never know, maybe she would understand or would be open to the idea if it was strictly sex related and not a disinterest in her.

No. 206505

>maybe she would understand or would be open to the idea if it was strictly sex related and not a disinterest in her.
Sounds like you're just trying to get them dumped tbh

No. 206510

im being taken for granted
I know I am
but I continue to shove everything like family, education and friends away for them
why am I so pathetic

No. 206520

lol yeah, better stfu about it. We're not like animals to act on our every sexual urge, if you can't hold it back for someone then stop wasting their time, you're not worth being with them. I hate that trend with being open and getting no strings, no emotions pussy/dick outside. People nowadays can't stand minimal effort.
Polyamory is just people with fear of commitment and egoists. And I hate their holier-than-thou attitude, acting like monogamy is something unnatural and how couples lie to each other etc. Good example is Gaby Dunn, who I like outside of her weird poly superiority.
(I guess it's a confession of my unpopular opinion more than an answer to OP.)

No. 206521

100% agree.

No. 206534

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>tfw you are so depressed that staring at photos of a 2D man makes you happier than dealing with anyone in real life
>even worse because you have a boyfriend

Should I just off myself?

No. 206541

I loathe my boyfriend and don't even feel like I'm in a relationship with him anymore. It actually feels wrong and weird to say we're together. I remember none of our happy memories but all of the bad ones. He doesn't care about me at all. I don't know anything about his life. He might be talking to other girls - I honestly wouldn't know. He's said he's always been faithful to me, but that was then, when we were happy. I'm scared to know the truth now.

I want to break up with him and I think I'd be happier for it, but I don't really know who I'll be without him. I'm scared I'll turn into a complete hoe or just give up and kill myself. I honestly don't know.

I want to talk to other guys because I don't even remember what a normal conversation with a guy feels like, and what I have to look forward to if I date again, but that seems like cheating to me, no matter how miserable I am right now.

No. 206543

You're all over the place there anon. You think you'd be happier but you're also afraid you'll kill yourself? I think you should break up with him based on your first paragraph but maybe you also need to work on your self-image or mental health, or.. I don't know really, but there's a problem there somewhere.

No. 206567

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If you off yourself then I should probably too since I'm in the same boat.

Why can't my husbando just be real?

No. 206573

Suicide pact time?!
But for real, it's disgusting to me because I have feelings for something that doesn't even exist while I have an amazing boyfriend (who even kind of looks a bit like my husbando, pure coincidence), but I don't know what to do lol.
Maybe I should learn how to lucid dream.

No. 206669

Where in my post did I say I don't have feelings for my boyfriend? You're making a pretty big assumption for not actually knowing how my relationship is.

No. 206753

Yeah, it's a pretty fucked situation. I mean, I've known since the start that I'm fucked-up mentally, but he always accepted it and made me feel normal for not being sane. I think I'd be happier without him just because I wouldn't have to suffer having a non-existent relationship anymore, but it would just be a release of the pain and I don't know how I'd cope with that. I feel like I could go in either extreme direction. Either killing myself because I legitimately don't care about life anymore since nothing matters and don't know who I am without him to define me, or living life without him and going crazy with excess just because I can and, again, nothing matters. I don't think I can find any sort of happy medium. I wanted to get mental help at one point, but he wouldn't let me and essentially said I'd be betraying him if I did, so I never did.

I really just want to be released from him. But even now when I think I hate him, I've still given up everything for him. My family, my old life, my morals, everything I was. When I think on our relationship, I wonder if he's been manipulating me from the start and just doesn't care enough to do it anymore. Sometimes I think he's basically Onion with more finesse and intelligence, less emotion, and better looks and then I feel guilty for thinking that way and I don't know if it's because I should feel guilty or because that's how he's trained me to think.

Then there's just the fact that thinking about being with him disgusts me lately. It disgusts me when I remember he told me he'd talked to multiple very underage girls without any sort of feeling of wrongness, and would have dated them without doing anything sexual until they were legal, basically grooming them into his perfect wife in the meantime, and how that was his ideal girl. I was disgusted when he told me that and couldn't imagine a future with someone like that, but he made me feel guilty for being upset with him. "All guys want that. You should be grateful I'm being honest with you," and that sort of thing. Or admitting he would lie to me if he thought it was in my best interest because "daddy knows best", things like that which make me wonder if he's ever lied when he said he was faithful because he doesn't believe I need to know the truth.

I just don't know anymore.

No. 206758

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I don't care if I die bitter and alone and have no female friends. Perhaps I sound like the toxic " hurrdurr am unique gurl xd I dont have female friends because im different!!11!! " but honestly the situation I was in was so shitty and toxic.

I was best friends with this girl for like two years. We were both eerily alike in many things, had some similar interests and backgrounds. I really loved this girl and thought I had some hope that maybe this time I found a female best friend brodie I can rely on and for her to me.

It wasn't until now I realized how envious and resentful she was towards me. Her ex-boyfriend is the admin of a really popular weeb gun page on Facebook, and I liked his posts. It was confusing how she made him block me after they broke up, because I was in no way involved with it. I just tried my best to emotionally support her when he cheated on her with a 15 year old cocaine addict who used to be popular on /k/.

Anyways, it gets worse. The ex-boyfriend doesn't know that I know that towards the end of their relationship she made various fake Facebook accounts to stalk the " homewrecking chick" when she was actually talking to a lot of guys online and was infatuated with them. I stressed to her to just dump him, but she was so stubborn. She stalked the homewrecker girl obsessively for many months.

Anyways, after they finally broke up she met my old "friend" from highschool. They hit it off, and I was happy for them. Until he started to treat me like shit and she was being even more passive aggressive. I never understood why. One day I confronted her and she said nothing was wrong…okay.

The final straw was when she essentially hid that she stayed over at his place and had sex with him and shit two weeks after she broke up with her ex. She still talks with her ex and is with that other guy I used to call my friend, but the ex doesn't know much about the other guy and is under the assumption that they'll get back together. She's using him as a safety net. I warned her about this "friend" because he literally has a harem of women and has a history of being a cheater. Also his ex is eerily alike like her as well.

So she basically lied to her mom saying that shes staying at my place. And that got me angry. I could be liable if anything happened to her. Her mom doesn't even know that she broke up with her ex yet. It's just a toxic situation all around so I told her I was disappointed and blocked both of them.

I'm so tired. I just want an actual female brodie who won't leave me for dick man. I'm already cynical enough as it is… It hurts to lose a best friend but I won't be there for her if she comes crying back after he breaks her heart.

No. 206762

Funny how the most recent confessions are all guy-related.

No. 206767

Would help if you made friends with normal people, and not underage weirdos who browse places like /k/, in the first place before you write off the entirety of the female sex over one immature girl who sounds like she's 17.

No. 206823

She's 23 turning 24 this November.

And I don't mean writing the entire female gender off. I'm just cynical.

No. 206831

>I just don't know anymore
It sounds to me like you very much do know and you really just don't want to be alone. You don't want to be with a child groomer who won't let you get mental help, so save yourself some time and end it sooner than later.

No. 207371

I just ate two pints of Ben & Jerry's and was filled with regret before even finishing. Again. After fasting for nearly 48 hours. Again.

But my disordered eating is the least of my issues.

No. 207374

How about replacing it with Halo Top? Its much lower in calories than traditional ice cream and has pretty much the same texture as normal ice cream.

No. 207376


My disordered eating and accompanying regret is about my lack of control over my life rather than about my diet.

No. 207413

hello me, what's up? it's good here in hell, isn't it

No. 207435


Hiya. Feeling the post-ice cream heartburn but still lying in bed because suffering is safety.

No. 207437

I have a lifetime history of periodically stealing for every reason a person could have for stealing. At present I shoplift small, inexpensive items for both the fleeting thrill and to reinforce my shame and lack of self-worth.

No. 207454

Well, as long as you don't post your hauls on Tumblr in the shoplifting fandom and end up on /snow/…

No. 207458

You need to move past it anon, it's not cute when an adult gets caught shoptlifting dumb stuff. I once witnessed a reasonably well dressed middle aged woman crying as policemen cuffed her for stealing some ready meals from a middle class supermarket.
I still start shaking when I hear alarms go off or use a changing room, but I'm over it because I don't want to be that pathetic woman.

No. 207473


I live in one of the best known cities in the world with a high crime rate and homeless population. Shoplifters and fencers are everywhere. Theft is a misdemeanor here, so most retailers don't even give chase.

No. 207727

I spend a lot of time on r9k and the incels subreddit because I have such a deep hatred for pretty girls. i'm not even that bad looking myself but I grew up fairly ugly and now it makes me happy when a goodlooking girl is mistreated or taken down a peg

No. 207730

You're still obsessing over them just because they're good looking.

No. 207731

yeah I never said that I wasn't?

No. 207732

So, you're basically giving them the same attention they've always had for their looks, and spending time around robots to boot… Not a very good form of revenge lmao

No. 207733

I'm not giving them any attention though, I don't go out of my way to cause them misfortune. I'm very passive about it

Not trying to get "revenge" either, as they haven't really done anything wrong to me.

No. 207736

r9k/incels hate girls in general. Pretty or not.

No. 208424

I know it's not serious like other addictions, but I have a serious food addiction. I'm not morbidly obese, but I am overweight, though I have dropped a significant amount through dieting. Problem is, I cannot resist food that I like and I have now started just giving in and eating whatever I want that doesn't fit into my diet, and purging it all afterwards to avoid the negative effects of eating it. It wasn't a problem when my husband wasn't working because I won't allow myself to eat poorly around him, but now that he works long hours and is always gone, I give in every single day. I feel like a piece of shit every single time I do it because I know I'm the only one who can stop myself from doing this, but right now I don't know how to.

No. 208427

that is not food addiction, that is bulimia. i do encourage you to seek help, your (especially mental) health will only get worse if you don't.

No. 208440


I recognize hat it has turned into bulimia, but before I started purging I just ate all the bullshit and allowed myself to gain the weight from it, so I think there is still an underlying food addiction issue.
I want help to stop it and have been considering reaching out to others with the same problem online to help maybe, but I'm just very recently realizing that I have a problem.

No. 208940

alright I've been trying to find a place to talk about this for a long time so I'm so glad I found this thread.

first a little background: I was a heroin IV addict for 6 years. first I was working and stealing but then I started prostituting instead of stealing and soon after I lost my job. so I became a full time prostitute. I did not have a pimp, I did not go on the street. I made ads on Craigslist saying I was a sugar baby looking for a sugar daddy. I got hundreds of emails every time I made an ad. I barely showered, I didn't shave anything, yet I always made $100-200 per John, plus they often brought me beer to which was nice cause I also needed my keystone ice. I saw up to 5 Johns a day and spent every dollar on heroin, needles, beer, and snacks. the worst part about it is that I'm not attracted to men at all, so having sex with these ugly old guys REALLY fucked with my head and I felt violated hundreds of times. some of the Johns even enjoyed watching me shoot up. I've been to rehab before. tried cold turkey. nothing worked. I tried to commit suicide multiple times but it never worked, I was always found before I died. I got tired of it all and decided I needed help so i went through rehab and a hallway house and now I'm in supportive living. I'm almost 1 year sober and I'm doing pretty good. I sadly got hepatitis c but thankfully it's curable now.

alright here's the story I've wanted to tell for over a year:

so one night a John who I actually went to high school with came over. we had sex and once we got up from the bed I looked at the mattress and saw a brown wet mark. I thought he fucking shit on me!!! I started freaking out yelling at him and demanded he take me to the ATM to get more money. so he gave me $200 for 5 minutes of sex because we both believed he accidentally pooped on me. needless to say I got extremely high that night

so maybe about a week later, I had to pee, so I go to the toilet and after I piss I feel something in my vagina, I push a little and grab it. IT'S A FUCKING TAMPON. it was grey and breaking down and really fucking smelly. I hadn't had my period in almost a month, so it was shoved up in me for 20-30 days. I had mostly unprotected sex with dozens of men and none of them noticed!!! so I figured out that the night we thought that John pooped on me, it was actually old period blood coming out of the rancid tampon.

if you wanna know more about me just let me know

No. 208941

halfway house* not hallway lol

No. 208955

I'm misusing my pain medication because I don't want to admit to my neurologist, and my wife, that I'm getting worse and in more and more pain every day. I have a brain tumour (benign but at a really awkward place, slow growing but inoperable and will eventually kill me), and every day is a fucking agony only barely relieved by having some Actiqs. I should come clean, but I fear that it will mean another brain surgery (fuck no, I still have wonky speech from the last one!), worry my wife silly (as if she needs to be worried even more!) or eventually will lead to the words I know are coming - "there's nothing more we can do for you". I'm 30, I'm way too young to die, and while I probably face a long decline rather than a mercifully swift death, I feel increasingly like my time is approaching, and even though I've been trying to squeeze as much into my life as possible since the first time I saw that big ugly white spot on my MRI aged 9, I just know there's so much I'll never get to do. Most days, I'm thinking about suicide and if it weren't for my wife I would have killed myself. But I can't do that to her. I'm trying to protect her, but at the same time I need someone to get me through this. But nobody can, so the cute little cherry flavored lollipops will have to.

No. 208956

Tell us more about your life anon. That must have not been easy.

No. 208957


Heartless and unrelated question: on a scale of one to ten, how awkward is it, as a prostitute, to have someone you knew in what I presume was your pre-prostitution life as a client?

Maybe I'm seeing everything from my perspective - I dread meeting anyone I used to know as a child who would still think of me as young and promising. I'm scared they would laugh at my decline (mine is physical, but I guess ending up as a prostitute is similar? No judgment here, just trying to understand.). What does it feel like to relate to someone you used to know from school as a john?

No. 208960

I'll tell some more stories tomorrow. I lost my internet and I'm using public wifi right now and I wanna go home soon. I'll be back tomorrow

yeah it was VERY awkward. at first I didn't recognize him. usually I would not do it with someone I knew, so I always got photos beforehand via email to make sure I didn't know them. I had another former classmate email me too and he was all mad that I wouldn't see him or send him photos. anyway so this guy shows up at my place in a new mustang and was already there and knew the deal so it was too late and I just decided to do it because I needed money. REALLY sucks though because like you said I also hate seeing people from my childhood in public in a regular setting, let alone in a fucking sex for money setting. one time he even had the balls to not pay me. that really sucked.

thanks for not judging me. like I said I'll post more stories tomorrow

No. 208986


sorry but that story is the fucking grossest thing i've ever heard

No. 208988

It's been over a month since a guy I was really liked stopped talking to me. I guess part of it was my fault. When I met him, I just got out of a relationship and wasn't too interested in anyone, even though he liked me. His new girlfriend is gross…pretty much a female neckbeard.

I guess he forgot that we were friends at one point, since he stopped replying to my texts. I keep wondering if he'll come back and contact me someday, or if he's gone. I really hate myself for thinking about it.

I'm really sorry. Does your wife know about the tumor? This is just my opinion - you should let her know. You need someone to help you through this, and it's not fair to keep it from your wife. I suggest you try to live life to it's fullest until you can't.

No. 208997


She knows… but she doesn't know that I've been getting worse and that it's the beginning of the end. I wonder if she'd be happier if I went quickly rather than a long, agonizing decline.

No. 209006

Anon. How in the fuck do you not notice a tampon up there for around a month while having unprotected sex with a bunch of men as well?? Truly astonishing. You must have been using a lot of damn drugs to not have noticed because damn that's a mess.

No. 209008

I call bs you would have gone septic. Finding a used condom is one thing but a tampon can put u in a coma

Also bs on not having a pimp. Girl you're getting high on china white you know you had a scrawny ass bf helping you get craigslist bucks

No. 209022

it's not a fucking joke. it was disgusting. seriously the most embarrassing thing that ever happened to me. I wanted a place to talk about it anonymously and found this thread. why would I make any of this up? not everyone gets TSS. it was fucking disgusting and I really don't know how I didn't notice. I was probably high as shit and put another one in, pushing the other one up really far while it was very lubed up from blood. then I took the other one out without realizing there was another still inside. then it got so far up there I couldn't even feel it, seeing as I was high all the time. I could've been getting sick from it but I didn't even notice due to being high

and no I did not have anyone helping me. sorry to break it to you but it's easy as fuck to use Craigslist and find Johns without any help. i only had help the first time I got a sugar daddy, a dealer introduced me to him. after that I did everything on my own. obviously you can't read and grasp that I'm not attracted to men at all. if I had someone helping me I would just say that. I am using this to get shit off my chest and I'm not afraid to tell the truth.

No. 209032


> I had mostly unprotected sex with dozens of men

How often do you get screened for STDs anon?

No. 209035

not often to be totally honest. the only thing I ever got was trichomonaisis which is easy to get rid of with a prescription. I don't have HIV which I was really terrified about, thank goodness. but like I said I did get hepatitis c but that was from being stupid and sharing needles with my step sister because I trusted her :/

No. 209039

I know someone who had this tampon thing happen. Not sure how long it was for but yeah a dangerously long time

No. 209042

how bad did the tampon smell

No. 209043

It's astonishing how more anons are interested in the junkie anon's stinky tampon story than the anon with a brain tumor whose wife doesn't know he's dying soon.

Anyway, my confession is that I just realized I don't really respect my boyfriend. I don't think I've ever really respected a young man in my life. He made me angry yesterday by not keep his word again and I called him an idiot for it and now we're not speaking to each other. It's all very childish and I hate it but I don't have the guts to end it.

No. 209044

it smelled TERRIBLE!!!!! seriously I was so disgusted. this is literally the first time I've ever told anyone about it due to shame.

it's a lot more common than it sounds and most women don't get any adverse effects which surprised me, but I'm very thankful I'm okay now!

No. 209046

I feel really bad about that because I'm just a disgusting waste of human life so…

also no offense but just dump that guy. you can do better I'm sure

No. 209048

I wrote out a response to the brain tumor anon but deleted it because I just couldn't get the right thing to say. It's hard enough to say the right thing to someone going through that in your personal life let alone an anonymous image board

I really do hope tumor anon is on an eat pray love journey and sees the world

No. 209051

lolcow is run by a bunch of fat losers. they delete and ban people for innocent comments, but keep posts that attack people for no reason

No. 209053

>>209048 deleted their own reply, not lolcow admins.

No. 209059

Im tripping balls

No. 209061


BTAnon here. Thank you. I really only came here to get things off my chest, not to get advice. It helped.

Yesterday evening, I confessed everything to my wife. I'll be having an MRI first thing on Monday, then we'll see where we'll go for from there. My neurologist has agreed to talk the results through later same day, and if we really are all out of options, refer me onto palliative care.

It was good to be able to get it off my chest here first, and while we are hoping that we'll be able to win some more time to finish up what's on my bucket list, we both are agreed that I don't want to spend that additional time puking my guts out in a hospital bed, sick from the radiation (chemo doesn't work for benign tumours, but radiation usually does).

I wish all of you all the best, and thank you. Please hug your loved ones. Life is short.

No. 209085

I really hope some kind of miracle happens and the tumor stops growing or it's treatable :(

No. 209135

rancid tampon anon here. another confession I have:

my girlfriend that I love so much, lives very far away from me. we met online and talked for years and I have loved her for so long. we only got to see each other a few times a year sadly. she thought I was doing good and not using, she's never done drugs aside from weed and alcohol, but she's very understanding and supportive. my family even loves her! but she had (and still doesn't) no idea that I was a prostitute. last year she came to stay with me for a few weeks, and I was using again. she's got no clue and I obviously needed money so I wasn't sick. I stole money from her. one night I needed money desperately. so while she was asleep, I snuck a John in through the backdoor and fucked him in the bathroom for $140. I feel so terrible about this and it eats me up inside. after she went home I almost killed myself but I was caught by police before I could do it. I'm glad I didn't die but I still want to hurt myself as punishment for all the terrible shit I did throughout my life.

I'm thinking about starting a tumblr blog for all my stories because I have so many and it's too much to have on here. plus I'd like to have them all together so I can look back on it in the future, like a diary. I think it would help me do my best and not go back to the horrible life I had before

No. 209212

I'm in my mid 20s and I'm still scared as hell to go to the dentist. Everything stresses the fuck out of me and what makes me even worse is the fact that I feel like I'm "too old" to feel this way but damn I have an appointment next week (which I'm a bit proud that I even managed to make one) but I just hope I won't be too stressed bc one time I literally cried when the dentist told me about the then upcoming procedure. I should go there more often but I just CAN'T. I hate this so much and having bad teeth scares me too so I need to make the one thing done to avoid the other.

I just wish I would be one of those people who just go there without being such a mess like me.

No. 209405


Anxiety over dental visits is very common! Discuss it during intake. Perhaps your dentist can administer nitrous oxide to calm your nerves. Some dentists prescribe a small dose or two of an anxiety medication such as ativan for their most anxious regular patients.

No. 209479

Today I had a dream about the guy I had a crush on 10 years ago. He was cute, and I just dreamt that we hugged and it felt so good, but then my now-husband saw us. I hadn't thought about this guy for at least 7 years, why now? And why can't I find the crush online? (Because I don't remember his last name)

No. 209500

that's totally normal!!! I wouldn't think much about it, the mind is a strange thing. it does stuff that doesn't make sense or really have a point IMHO…I am not one of those people who believes all dreams have some deep meaning. definitely not

No. 209654

I had a dream one of my guy friends came to my house, pushed me against the door and made out with me, and then later asked me to date him. But I don't have a crush on him or anything, and I've never had a dream like that neither have I ever been kissed, but does it mean anything or is that common? lol

No. 209669

its not unheard of. i remember way back in middleschool i had a dream a friend of mine came over to my place and did a strip tease for me and being so young, i didnt understand it and was confused why i would have dreams like that when i wasnt physical with anyone.

if youre curious, look up dream interpretation. its not really supposed to give an exact answer to what symbols mean, take it with a grain of salt. but it is interesting to see how or if the general idea could potentially fit in with your present.

No. 210978

I’m genuinely scared that sex has been ruined for me forever. I had a really fucked-up introduction to sex. Now the only fantasies I have that genuinely excite me are illegal and that makes me feel like a monster in itself, but also the idea of acting them out IRL immediately turns me off. Because of this masturbation is a minefield, and I can’t orgasm from penetration. I hate porn and looking at it illicits no physical/mental response from me at all. I seriously don’t know what to do but it’s making me hate sexual contact - not ideal when I’m in a loving relationship with someone I really fancy! Please help farmers, I’m desperate and don’t know how to fix this.

No. 210983

have you tried therapy?

No. 210997


i’ve been crushing and masturbating to fantasies about my partner’s acquaintance/friend for over a year now. i know i want to marry my partner and be with them forever, but i can’t stop feeling just as in love with my crush as i do my partner. currently looking into polyamory because i want them both. i’ve been attracted to other people in the past, but it was a fleeting thought and i never masturbated to them. i day dream about my partner and crush equally as much. my partner is very open minded and we’re talking about me being poly, but i’m afraid he’ll say no.

No. 211006


dont use poly just as an excuse to fuck someone else. but if you decide to bring it up with him and he says no, try not to get pissed like hes holding you back. just check out some of the poly communities on reddit. the sort of shit they put themselves through is…exceptional

but good luck. i get it, ive been with my bf almost 9 years and ive had periods of fantasizing about other women kind of obsessively. i love him, have kids with him but i do miss having a girlfriend pretty hardcore.

No. 211008

I honestly hope he says no and that he'll find someone else to love him who won't constantly dream of getting porked by some other guy.

No. 211012


i’ve been researching on being poly for a few months and i feel like i can relate to how poly people felt before they found out they were poly. we’re still deciding if it’s right for us now, and if he says no that’s fine. like i said, i know i want to be with him forever and i don’t even know if my crush likes me, it’s not a deal breaker for me. we’re both looking at articles / books atm and he says he wants me to be comfortable and i want him to be comfortable as well.


lol, we’ve both done it before but thanks for making me feel even more like shit i guess?

No. 211019

at least there is dialog between you two about it. jealousy and resentment seem to breed quick in poly relationships if total communication isnt there.

No. 211030

Yes but I’m worried they’re going to make me talk about the fantasies then report me to the police or something. i don’t know how far duty of care goes and I don’t fancy testing it out.

No. 211031

I've felt ugly my whole life and have never had a romantic partner in any way, not even hand holding, but a drunk man forcibly kissed / slathered all over me once, it was dark and I couldn't even see, but I kind of cherish the memory because it makes me feel like at least someone found me attractive in some way.

No. 211032

I am married and while it is really great, I feel like maybe I just never got to explore my sexuality to the extend I should of. I am getting older and older (which to me means, less attractive really) and getting more and more worried I will never experience what I wanted to. I guess it just comes down to what I appreciate and value in this life, not to what I desire and thirst after.

No. 211035

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I don't trust anyone. The first guy I fell for wanted me to cheat on his g/f with him. I said no. My first b/f cheated on me with my friend. My second b/f slept with someone else on the first day of our 'break'. My third b/f make a secret okcupid account and went to house parties without telling me. I caught my fourth b/f secretly sexting others, some I knew. And that's the relationship I'm in now. And that's the best relationship I've ever had.

I've given each of them a piece of me, and I have nothing. I am nothing. Just a warm body nearby while you think of who else to fuck, to fill whatever other emotional void you have. This thread make me think everyone is just like that, I don't belong here.

I used to be optimistic and hopeful, now I don't have friends, I don't do the things I enjoyed, I think of ways of killing myself, places where I could do it. Long enough for it to be over.

Even if I broke up and tried to start over, I have nothing left inside me. One of you might lure them away.

I hate all of you.

No. 211038

Well I mean, if it keeps happening to you you must either have a type that you tend to go for or hang out in social circles where there's a lot of people like that.
I've had a wonderful bf and have met many people who haven't cheated on anyone. I don't know about my current bf since we're kinda long distance but we have an open phone/pc policy which cheaters tend not to do. There's plenty of people who wouldn't cheat.

No. 211042

You'd think so wouldn't you. But my dad has cheated on my mom, my sister cheated on her husband.

I was at a work party and my married collegues show off their fetlife and find out they are in a poly relationship they keep a secret from their family.

It seems all anyone around me, always anyone is doing is fucking or lining up who to fuck next. I'm sure you mean well but it's just my experience speaking.

I don't trust anyone anymore, and I never ever will.

No. 211045

>You'd think so wouldn't you.
Not the anon you've replied to, but I agree.
>But my dad has cheated on my mom, my sister cheated on her husband.
I think you're saying this as a way to prove that there must be something intrinsically untrustworthy about people, even family. Yet what I take from this is that you've witnessed and have been raised in an environment that fosters having poor relationships. Hell, you've maybe even took after your mother subconsciously and go after men that are like your dad without realizing.

Anyway it's just an outsider's perspective and you're gonna think what you want regardless. I just disagree because while I never had anyone cheat on me, I did go for "bad" guy types who broke my trust due to witnessing my mother chose bad partners until she remarried to my stepdad who I love dearly. It wasn't until I realized the people I was choosing were shitty that I was able to bust out and recognized the ones who cared.

No. 211050

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I'm paying people to pick up my entire shift at work, and I haven't worked a single day this week. Bf thinks my company is just offering a copious amount of time off (they've done so in the past), but I can't tell him I've already racked up $200 in paypal credit just for giving away these shifts. it's too pathetic to admit. It's my money but still. My paycheck will be so insignificant too. I plan to go into work tomorrow, but damn do I fucking hate my job.

And you know what? A part of me feels remorseless because I'd rather have the freedom than be forced into talking to shitty people for a living.

Cows like Kelly just remind me of all the entitled customers I handle on a daily basis there. It makes me depressed and anxious.
When I do muster to do into work, I have a pleasant tone and do my best. I'm top rank in sales despite working only about 20-30 hours a week. So far this year I've done $200k in product sales, but I'm not rewarded for it. No matter if I do good or not so good, nothing of consequence happens. I still get paid the same low, hourly rate. Oh, there's "profit-sharing" but it's calculated based on hours worked, not based on my actual sales. So I get fucked there. Nothing I do matters!

The only thing holding me back from quitting is that my CEO gave me free travel to Japan. I need to use it within the next year, and if I'm fired or quit the perk gets thrown out. I recognize that this company gives me a lot of leeway to travel, but it's costing me my sanity because I just hate customers so, so, so, so fucking much. It's not what I went to college for, and I feel so stuck because at this point my only experience is customer service in sales and it sucks.

A part of me feels like it's too late. I want to go a different direction in my life but I just have no real help. My parents are old-school fuddy duddys who think a college degree=automatic hire at a $80k/yr job. Bf is even worse off than I and can't help me since he's worried about himself.

My company says there's upward mobility for degree holders, but not really. Their applications for switching jobs and departments goes by hire seniority and literal age. Which means a less qualified 40 year old bitch will get the position over me because I'm 26. And because I appear so "nice" at work and do good in sales, I'm patronized when I express interest somewhere else because companies want to keep their efficient and compliant workers that make them the most money on the front lines. Which winds up rewarding the lazy, mean coworkers who get promoted out of department because they can't be fired.

It feels like slow drowning.

No. 211057

>A part of me feels like it's too late. I want to go a different direction in my life but I just have no real help.

I see people talking about it being "too late" or how they are "too old" to change careers. I think it's just talk that discourages people.

I was stuck in a low hourly rate career for many years and finally decided I'd had enough. I went back to school and got a degree in computer science and now I'm in a much better place in life, I would say. I know it's anecdotal evidence but I didn't go back to school until I was 27. I didn't graduate until I was almost 30.

I've heard of stories of people much older than me making radical career changes, as well. It definitely is possible you just have to be willing to put in the work.

No. 211065

I have a bachelor's and a master degree in the arts. 40k in debt and I'm too nervous to go back to school to accrue more debt. A lot of people say computer science, but I can see myself being just as miserable and mediocre in that field as well. I think I can put in work anon, I just literally have no idea what else to do with my life at the moment and the security with my current job influences me to not leave out of fear.

No. 211080

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Holy shit lmao @ your life.

Before feminism tricked women into entering the workforce, you could have just been a housewife, your only job in life would be to take care of your kids and husband. Do you even have kids? You can thank feminism if you don't, you've probably spent so much time focusing on capitalism that you're so old your womb is defective and your kids will be retarded.

Your husband would've been able to pay for everything you need/want, since women didn't enter the workforce, doubling the supply of labor, and thus reducing wages by half.

You wouldn't have 40k debt with a useless art degree (you can thank feminism for allowing you to make this dumbass life-ruining decision), you wouldn't have to worry about any job, you would just be a housewife.

Apparently that's oppressive though, but being a wageslave for your boss isn't.

You literally ruined society, you destroyed the family structure.(USER HAS BEEN PUT OUT TO PASTURE)

No. 211081

awful post

No. 211083

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have a nap anon

No. 211092

And where's your wife?
Your children?
Your middle class job?
Your degrees?

Oh right, you probably have nothing and just get off on being a useless, mouthy cunt. Go suck a fat cock and put that big mouth to use, faggot.

No. 211103

prolly sperging out because /r/incels/ finally got banned.

No. 211106

I don't have any of those things because of feminism.

Before feminism I would have just simply got a high-paying job right out of high-school that pays $50,000+ (adjusted for inflation), houses were cheap, and then I could just get a wife and have kids, with little to zero chance of her divorcing or cheating (and taking my kids/house/money in divorce).

That's not possible anymore because of feminism. Even guys who are financially successful are very wary of marrying.

Pretty much all girls in the western world are ruined, they've already been fucked by other guys, have STDs, horrible attitudes, spoiled brats, feminist/SJW beliefs, attention whores, coal burners, single mothers, highly likely to cheat or divorce, been ruined by college, come with $90,00 student loan debt that would instantly become your debt if you got married, etc.

Pretty much impossible to find a good female, and a guy is taking on a HUGE risk if he gets married, or having kids with a woman, she could ruin his entire life in the divorce and take his kids away.

All you dumb cunts wondering why no financially stable guy wants to get married, or have kids with you, and just wants sex from you? Feminism made things that way.

No. 211107

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we get it, r/incel and shit got shut down. now go back to your hugbox little boy and talk to people who will listen to someone bitch more about shit they know nothing of because theyre sad manlet goblins. all your praising of st elliot has still gotten you nowhere.

No. 211109

>I have none of that.
Then who the fuck are you to talk down to me when you're a deluded NEET with a foreveralone complex.

Stupid robot. Stay gone.

No. 211112

>you probably have nothing and just get off on being a useless, mouthy cunt.
That's kinda the internet in general though

No. 211115

>feminism ruined the economy!!!


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No. 211127

Just chan sites.

No. 211176

I'm becoming more self-conscious (or self-aware, take your pick) of my nasolabial folds and it's really pissing me off and making me sad. I know I'm genetically predispositioned to them going by my mom's half of the family, but I was really hoping they wouldn't hit hard until I was at least 30. But I swear it's like they became much more prominent to me after I turned 25 last month and it bothers me so much. Like, every other part of my face looks youthful (no eye bags, crows feet, forehead lines, weird neck lines) aside from those dumbass things framing my goddamn mouth.

Like, I don't know if it's this site's fixation on nasolabial folds on some cows/snowflakes that's made me more aware of my own or what. All I know is that they bother me.

No. 211180

>I don't know if it's this site's fixation on nasolabial folds

its that. i guarantee the majority of the nitpicking is just young women being catty. the more you focus on it, the worse it will feel. not saying that i have any good advice on how to not fixate.. but sometimes it feels good to be validated

No. 211182

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>r/incel got shut down

it's about fucking time

No. 211183

same, I’ve always had them and tbh I have no idea what could even be done about them. My mother has them and got a face lift and gets fillers pretty often and I still see them on her.
Maybe I’m just insane

No. 211184

I have mixed feelings because I'm pretty sure they're going to swarm over the rest of the internet like a wave of shit. On the flipside with Neogaf blowing up maybe they'll cancel each other out?

No. 211186

they already have a new site up to cry about reddit and h8rs

No. 211191

I'm almost nine weeks pregnant and don't want to keep it, but I keep procrastinating even looking up abortion. I'm terrified to call Planned Parenthood because I avoid phone calls. I can't seem to do anything but sit on the couch watching YouTube. Complicating it is that I'm scared my boyfriend would find out. I'd have to take a bus while he's at work and hope that I could make it back home in time. He is abusive and wants to have kids, no chance he'd let me abort, he wouldn't even let me use birth control. I'm scared to find out that I would need to go to the clinic multiple times or something, or stay for hours. Which would be impossible for me to do without him finding out. So I just don't call.

My avoidant tendencies are ruining my life. Have already ruined, actually. I'm just scared of everything, even talking. I hate myself so much. I have known I'm pregnant for over three weeks and I am just procrastinating doing anything and hoping it just goes away. I'm running out of time but I can't take action and I doubt I will. What is my life now that I hope to god he beats me hard enough that miscarry before he ever finds out I was pregnant.

No. 211192

>I hope he beats me hard enough to miscarry

Tapdancing Christ, anon!
I know it's something you already know deep down, but you gotta call and schedule the appointment asap. If you're American you can tell them over the phone that you're trapped in an abusive situation and they can help you further with being discrete.

Don't presume you're only three weeks btw. The gestational age is determined by an ultrasound, and sometimes the fetus has a growth spurt that will put the age higher than you previously thought. My point is, it's going to be easier to abort using a pill (usually a single appointment), than waiting and then having to undergo a D&E abortion which requires another appointment and will take up more of your time.

Don't procrastinate until it's too late. Don't have a baby that will permanently tie you to that horrid man.

No. 211200

Please call and make an appointment, anon! How can we help you? You have the right to have an abortion without your bf knowing about it. If you are 9 weeks, you can still take the abortion pill:

I'll admit this for the first time anywhere: I've taken it. I was about 5 weeks. I hid it from my ex-partner, who is a religious extremist. He never would have permitted an abortion either.

He thought I was having a terrible, heavy period - that's all. It wasn't excruciating for me. The biggest danger was surprise heavy bleeding for about a week afterwards. You can't use tampons so stock up on pads (always infinity is good).

You are not alone. There is a whole community ready to support you, online and irl. I promise.

No. 211201

Can you go visit friends or family and do it then? Is there anywhere you could go without your bf? Lie about a girls' weekend or some shit like that? Job interview?

Happy to help concoct a good story.

No. 211211

I've never had an abortion but you make me sick, you disgusting judgemental slime.

If she's in an abusive relationship, the child will have one of the worst possible upbringings and will probably wish to have never been born at all. Do you want more damaged people such as yourself to be brought into this world?

On top of that, she will be in a shitty position. She still can sort her life out but with a kid it's going to be exceedingly difficult. With abortion she has a chance to turn a new page and hopefully get her senses together.

I hope she does that. I hope she saves herself. I hope you die in a most agonizing way, you miserable pest.

No. 211214

So you wish them ill because none of the female gender wishes to have sex with you?
You harbor visceral hatred towards women just because your sex life is non-existent?

In that case, I hope you reflect on your words one day and that you get judged as harshly as you are now judging them. The act of abortion is a difficult decision to make and the fact that you're on this board, spitting venom at them in a confessions thread, speaks volumes about your character. You're not a nice person, your soul is foul, its stench permeates through your every word.

No. 211215

by your logic, you will lose all value once you can't get it up, gain weight, and lose your hair, lol. you are so out of touch with the real world

go away and get b&, you aren't changing anything by being here, just being something to laugh at and make some people hate your type more

we've seen this bait enough times by now

No. 211217

Please make the call anon. Do it. Don't get trapped with a kid and a POS. It can be the new start to a better life but you need to step out your comfort zone NOW. Whatever the consequence of him potentially learning about it, they won't be worse than having a kid you don't want from an abusive guy. Save yourself when it's still possible.

No. 211227

This won't go away Anon. Go there as soon as possible. Just imagine, if you have that child due to custody you would never find peace from your bf. Your child would have the same fate as you. Is that fair? Do something.

No. 211239

Anon. Please, for your sake, get an abortion. I promise you that avoiding this now will result in a lifetime of things you will never ever be able to avoid even if you tried. Don’t do this to yourself, and please don’t do this to another innocent human (the foetus if carried to term).

Also, leave your cunt boyfriend. You deserve better. You deserve to be free and happy. If any of us anons can help you we will - just let us know how. Wishing you strength!

No. 211242

Does anyone else gets bored really fast ? Or well overwhelmed I guess.
I can't keep in touch with people for too long. Like I someone sends me too many voice messages at once I'll reply a few times and then I just stop. I hate that I do this I'm not even sure why.
My friends know that I'm like this and I have this feeling that's also a reason for why I'm not very close to people in general because I kinda push them away by that behaviour. But it's also too tiring to do otherwise

No. 211243

Those posts were autistic as fuck, the mods just didn't want people to take your shitty bait. Hurry up and get banned again, you disgusting little cockroach.

No. 211269

a lot of introverts are like this. The difference between you and them is other introverts still make effort to keep in touch despite how exhausting it can be to keep up. Maybe you'd be better off alone?

No. 211291

I have the same issue but I just don’t bother keeping in touch with people that aren’t really important to me honestly. I let a lot of fledgling relationships fall by the wayside because I just don’t care. Unless it’s a person I’m dating or do stuff with (work, hobbies) I fall off the radar. I hardly even talk to my own family.

It doesn’t bother me though.

No. 211293

As someone who was born before voice messages, mobiles, and widespread Internet, I am fucking livid about this new norm of being hyper-social.

Fuck them and that. Don't doubt yourself and don't fall for their guilt-trips and judging. Don't seek reasons to excuse or fix yourself, fight against it.

It is not the norm, it is a new thing that emerged like yesterday. And it doesn't have to last. It's up to you to either challenge it or accept it.

No. 211313

I hate sex, everything to do with it. I hate having sex, I hate masturbation, I hate porn, I hate even having a sex drive. All of it is so disgusting and embarrassing.

Camgirls/porn stars do the cringiest things ever and it's all recorded. People commit crimes constantly in the name of self-satisfaction. Being a girl makes it a million times worse because orgasms are so difficult to achieve, so getting aroused is just the beginning of feeling ashamed and disappointed. I wish I could turn off my sexuality and remove my genitals (in a non-surgical way, just for it all to somehow disappear).

No. 211314

I want to lose weight but at the same time I don't. I'm okay with my body and being really fat, but I know it's not healthy. At the same time, I looked pretty ugly when I did lose weight at one point.
I tell people I love my body, but maybe that's only half true

No. 211318

I have the same issue and my insecurities keep me from daring to be social.
The sad thing is i found someone i was really enjoying talking with and i found the guts to send some pictures expecting the worst i was so excited and happily surprised when the response wasn't negative so i felt like ''yeah let's do this! stop feeling like such a coward'' so i added them to facebook and started messaging them more and then.. nothing

I basically got a confirmation saying they felt similar to his anon:
Which honestly is very understandable so i've been kinda like ''Oh..okay..''
I mean i totally understand it as i am a person who has difficulty keeping up with social connections too but it seriously bummed me out because i feel a bit foolish for allowing myself to get so excited over the idea of having a good friend like that again which i already knew i would be shit at.

No. 211320

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Are you literally me? I feel the exact same way.

No. 211323

you have a very unhealthy view of sexuality. is that something you were raised to think or did something happen that made you view sex that way?

i also have feelings of shame and embarrassment associated with sexuality, and especially with thinking that other people see me as a sexual being. like, the thought the someone can imagine me in their brains doing something sexual makes me feel incredibly violated, but there seems to be nothing in my past to make me think this way.

No. 211324

Tbh I’ve done way too much psychoanalysis on this subject, and I think it’s way too big to say “yup that’s what made me feel this way”. The point is that I’ve reached adulthood, I’ve tried really hard with a loving and patient partner to stop feeling like this, and I just can’t change.

I get what you mean. I have that but about people I’ve been intimate with/have seen intimate photos of me/similar. I wish I could erase it all.

No. 211326

Samefag but I realised you might be asking because you’re trying to work out the root of your feelings.

My sexuality kicked in quite early (7/8 YO). Immediately realised I was gay, saw no issue with this thanks to accepting parents, was open about it and bullied horrendously. Found out family history of sexual abuse aged 10/11. Discovered internet porn aged 10/11. Became involved with various older people with deviant sexualities who encouraged me to be the same. Realise I’m bisexual. Was assaulted. Realised people were interested in sexuality, used it for attention. Was raped. Hit adulthood, continued to use sexuality for attention, but now legal to do publicly. Continue to attract people who encourage this. Have now slept with loads of people, nudes of me online, never had an orgasm, hate sex because it’s always been a power thing. In committed relationship with loving and patient guy who knows all of this, but it’s so ingrained I just can’t move on.

Sage for endless blogpost but that’s essentially it, if that helps you at all! My advice would be shake it off ASAP and any way you can. The most minor things can stick and overshadow everything else…

No. 211494

>the thought the someone can imagine me in their brains doing something sexual makes me feel incredibly violated

Oh anon this one never fails to make me feel so disgusting. in high school a guy confessed he liked me and i literally considered changing schools just because of the thought of him possibly seeing me in such light.

A mild confession but i finally feel comfortable admitting to myself that i am a lesbian which in essence i don't mind but i don't think my closest (read: only) friends or mom would take it well because post soviet bloc. I think i'll just keep that to myself.

No. 211559

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I'm trying to memorize a few worksafe jokes hoping that it will help improve my conversations. I feel so boring.
Mfw I realize how pathetic that seems. Bf seems to like them so far though.

No. 211560

I'm not really an introvert tho. Like I have many tendencies sure but once I meet up with people, even strangers, I'm enjoying company.
It's just that I hate to keep in touch with people via phone.

Thanks anon ! Helps a lot I don't feel unnormal anymore.
And yeah I get what you mean. It seems like everyone is online 24/7 and if you're not you are not one of them.
Idk not my world I guess. I would rather meet up with people.

No. 211564

Not pathetic anon, it's a good plan; being able to make people laugh is always a positive association to have.

No. 211567

That's so cute. I'd love it if someone told me some jokes at work honestly, sounds like a nice idea

No. 211619

This sounds like such a nice positive idea, anon. I wish you well, I know I’d like it!

No. 211622

you sound cool, anon!

No. 212202

i hate the tumblr implants that come in and try to convince everyone that men are the most pure evil. fuck you and get out. i had horrible experiences with men growing up but i also have have amazing relationships with men who do no want to have sex with me or rape me. sorry your victim complex gets in the way of rational thinking. just so you know, there are therapists out there who deal with those delusions in general.

plus i also think dogs are disgusting and im sick of people trying to convince me they are wonderful. maybe wash their fur or brush their teeth before you introduce them to me and i might think differently. but i also have a thing for cleanliness and animals signify dirtiness incarnate. and seeing an animal in a restaurant is cause to just walk the fuck out. im not okay with the idea of eating animal fur as you are.

No. 212224

I'm not really sure if it's against the rules for guys to post here, but I'm going to anyway.

I gave my ex HSV-1. I had no idea I had it, and she was the first person I've ever been sexually active with. I suspect I got it from relatives kissing me when I was young, or sharing water bottles back in school. We found out when she asked me to go get an STD test, and it showed that I had HSV-1.

We broke up a while ago and cut contact, but she recently contacted me saying that she got a cold sore, and she was upset at me for giving it to her etc. She kept saying how she couldn't talk to anyone else about it because of the stigma, which is why she reached out to me again. More than anything, she's concerned about what it might mean for future relationships, since she's scared people might not want to be with her after knowing she's got HSV-1.

I personally don't think HSV-1 is a big deal. I've never gotten a cold sore in my life even though I must have had it for a while already, so it really doesn't affect my life in any way. A big proportion of the population has it too. And in any case, if someone doesn't date you because just you have HSV-1, I don't think they were going to date you anyway.

So now we're both sort of friends again, since she can't talk to anyone else about the HSV-1. What a strange situation.

No. 212226

We're cool with you as long as you don't announce that you have a dick in every post.

HSV-1 is not a huge deal. She could easily have gotten it elsewhere and it was dormant, seeing as HSV-1 is not transmitted exclusively genitally. It's not like she had HIV, tell her to calm the fuck down. Unless she makes a huge deal out of no one will fucking care if she has HSV or not.

No. 212232

She’s kinda making a big deal out of nothing. Also, she could have been born with it and it lay dormant until after she met you. I started getting cold sores in my 20s, no idea where I picked it up, and have been with my partner for 2+ years but he’s never had one. She sounds a bit weird tbh.

No. 212561

Not as heavy as other posts in here but I've never really been that attracted to my bf. I said yes when my he asked me out simply because I didn't want to lose him as my only friend. Now I'm constantly fantasizing romantically and sexually about another guy and it's really dawned on me how I never do the same with my bf.

No. 212562

>She’s kinda making a big deal out of nothing
pls b joking

No. 212573

Why would I be joking? Cold sores are nothing, as long as you’re not passing them onto babies. It’s not like he’s given her HIV.

Leave him anon. Not only is it unfair to him, it will get worse to the point of not wanting to speak to him; I know from experience (personal and watching others). You both deserve to be free to find someone truly right for you.

No. 212590

it's more uncommon to not have hsv-1. tell her to calm down jesus christ lol

No. 212606

>Leave him anon. Not only is it unfair to him, it will get worse to the point of not wanting to speak to him; I know from experience (personal and watching others). You both deserve to be free to find someone truly right for you.
r/relationships tier advice, not that I even asked for any advice in the first place.

>Why would I be joking? Cold sores are nothing, as long as you’re not passing them onto babies. It’s not like he’s given her HIV.
>lol why r u getting so upset about that huge scar I gave you? Sure it's gonna stay with you for the rest of your life but it's only gonna inconvenience you every once in while. Calm down lmfao
Consider suicide.

No. 212614

Lmao I’m sorry, I take my wish for you to be happy back, as you sound like a huge cunt and you don’t deserve it. Enjoy your miserable life with your uggo bitchboy, scarface :)

No. 212622

I'm really worried I don't please my boyfriend sexually because his dick is just average sized. NOT saying I'm loose af, but I've had a baby before, so I know it probably doesn't feel the same as if I hadn't have had one. He does please me in certain postions. If I'm too wet though, I don't really feel it at all unless he's banging my cervix in specific positions…

No. 212623

>i hate the tumblr implants that come in and try to convince everyone that men are the most pure evil
Honestly after years on imageboards being shat on for whatever reason doesn't bother me anymore, but

>plus i also think dogs are disgusting

Shit opinion even for a confessions thread.

No. 212625

poor babby can't handle a mean internet comment daaaw

For real though, seriously bitch? On lolcow of all places? What the fuck were you expecting? Maybe you really do need to stay on reddit.

No. 212626


>you don’t deserve it

What did you mean by this

No. 212627

Thank you all for your advice! We've been talking for a while, and I think she's realized that HSV-1 isn't really as big a deal as she makes it out to be. Everything's settled now, thankfully.

No. 212661

I dont know whats wrong with me and i am ashamed to admit this but, i really dislike young parents, its super irrational because they have done absolutely nothing to me and there's nothing wrong with it at all.

Everytime i see an unwashed teen mom or a sloppy dirty early 20 dad i cringe, and it makes no sense, i dont know whats wrong with me..

No. 212667


>unwashed teen mom

>sloppy early 20s dad
I know what your problem is - you’re judging young parents really harshly for stuff most parents do at some point. Maybe stop?

No. 212699

I can kind of relate to this but I really only have it out for teen/young parents who are obviously lazy and irresponsible pieces of shit. I think it's because I was friends with a few of them in high school, and they turned out to be such disappointments and rotten people.

Like this one girl basically faked being sick every day in high school until she dropped out. Shacked up with some other loser and got pregnant. Two kids now. She's 24 and has never worked a day in her life. Said she was too good for McDonald's and quit on day one. Has never followed up with any job that ever set demands and expectations of her. Gets free housing, gets free food, gets free healthcare, and yet she can't even be assed most days to clean her house. Her children live in a dump. Then she has the gall to take ~bodyposi~ fb selfies to improve her self-esteem, when if she just got a job and actually did something with herself she probably wouldn't be so obsessed with her stretched out, fat body.
And I know she's fucking capable, but she's just convinced herself she has some kind of hangup that prevents her from being a functional adult without people handing her everything.


No. 216179

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Sorry to bump a thread, but I've drank a bottle of wine and feel a need to confess that I've had a massive crush on Anderson Cooper for the past, like, 7 years. I know he's gay and out of my league but damn he is so fine.

No. 219972

i've been following the soundclout thread on snow after lil peep's death and i unironically like his trashy emo music, especially save that shit. i've been really down lately and the emo-ness is just soothing lol it makes me feel like a stupid teenager again

No. 219974

same. I love problems

No. 220016

Same anon.
Still true this evening.
I wish I could escape my infatuation with Anderson, but I just can’t. He’s smart, dorky, and a silver fox.

No. 220482

this isn't even a huge confession but my lefty art friends would hate me for it: terry richardson is a disgusting creep, BUT his photography really is superb and he had undeniable talent. he did amazing work and i'm probably going to pick up one of his art books when they all go on sale after he's arrested.

No. 220493

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I am in the mental health field and should be more outraged by Logan Paul's video. On a personal level, I fail to see the big deal. I think laughing about the incident and filming the individual/using it in a thumbnail is sort of tasteless, but I have done worse when I was 22. Overall, it was tasteless, but there's worse content on Youtube.

As for the "THINK OF THE CHILDREN!" When I was a preteen, I would have been like "I want to see a body" and clicked on that shit so fast. Preteens are cunts and probably were more curious than ZOMG traumatized 4 lyfe.

No. 220497

>I have done worse when I was 22
Oh really? But you still had the decency to not film yourself doing such things for the attention, I'd hope.

I don't think anyone who's complaining about him is all that concerned with da chillenz.
What they're angry about is how he said in his apology that he didn't post the video for views. When it's so obviously clear that he did do it for views. Using a still frame of the corpse as a thumbnail and showing the corpse in the video is definite shockbait material. And it's not like he livestreamed the video and had no time to make a decision to not include it, he made a decision to include it while he edited out stuff that could get his video demonetized immediately like the cussing.

It's about him being a ruthless narcissist that he can't have reverence while happening upon a disturbing scene. No remorse. No respect.

No. 220499


Let's just say I am not a good person. But I had/have the common decency to keep most of my less-than-admirable side off social media.

I just read about the video/heard about it from individuals who did see it. I did not know about the monetization and was not really thinking about the fact he needed to edit the video prior to posting. I recline corrected. Thank you for pointing that out to me, anon.

No. 220500

It's fine, I just know that you and the majority of people probably wouldn't do a reaction video of a corpse and then put it on social media for money. There's something very wrong with that guy.

I don't consider myself a great person either and my curiosity has led me to viewing some really fucked up videos online. Yet I know there's a difference between curiosity (maybe even using a camera to disassociate from the trauma of a serious situation), and someone who's clearly not curious but wants to milk a terrible situation for attention/money. He's just an asshole who got called out for being an asshole and now he's sorry.

No. 220509

The individual video itself was demonitized, probably out of respect for the subject matter, why he then decided it to upload it to youtube is another question entirely.

No. 220529

from what I understand they just happened to stumble upon it. I think there would be with anyone a kind of sense of unrealness to the whole situation that would make one act differently.

Either that or it's just a stunt?

No. 220540

Yeah, it's a total happenstance. They totally went to a place dubbed the suicide forest to do anything but stumble on the corpse of some poor soul who wanted to avoid his family having to discover him and recorded it.
Come on. I'm sure they searched for that fucking corpse and perfectly knew what they were doing.
You go to a spooky house if you want to 'see ghost', you don't go to famous jump bridges and suicide forests, that's sickening.

No. 220542

I still think about my ex-girlfriend and I wonder how she is the

No. 220553

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I'm extremely jealous on every 6+/10 girl, especially on really beautiful/cute ones. (I'm like a 4 at my best and there's not much I can do about it besides plastic surgery, which I do not have the financial resources for). Life is so unfair, I wish I was born decent looking, or at least rich to afford going under the knife.

No. 220559

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I think I'm just a fundamentally not good, selfish person. I'm extremely protective of my time and resources because I'm poor, really busy with school/work and fear losing everything (it's happened once before). Because of that, I don't go out with people often, offer to pay for things, etc. I also don't reach out to people who I know are suffering because I fear I'm going to say the wrong thing and make them feel even worse. I've literally donated anonymously to crowdfunding projects for people I was once very close with because of this insecurity. I don't put much effort into keeping friendships once I'm not longer in close contact with that person, even if they do want to stay friends.

I'd made a friend over the summer who I felt like I got really close with, but I fucked up and forgot I'd told her I'd help her move out of her apartment, so I didn't show up the day she'd scheduled. She basically cut me out of her life after it happened, even though I apologized repeatedly and tried to make up for it. We got to the same school and she avoids me or makes up excuses to leave whenever I run into her on campus. I've told a couple of other people about it and they claim she's being unreasonable, but I can't help but feel like I let her down and our ruined friendship is completely my fault.

I can't seem to find a balance in my romantic relationships, either. I was objectively putting in more effort with my last boyfriend, who never took me on dates, never wanted to have sex with me, refused to do any housework and was neglectful to the point of outright telling me that any negative feelings I had towards the relationship were entirely my fault. Now I'm dating someone who dotes on me so much and wants to take on so much responsibility in the relationship that I feel like there's no possible way I could ever measure up, or reciprocate as much. I want to tell him to relax a bit, but at the same time I'm not used to this and it feels good that someone actually cares enough about me to take care of me, so I'm still letting him do all this stuff for me, but I feel bad about it deep down.

tl;dr: I have low self-esteem and feel like I can't deal with or enjoy close relationships because of it.

No. 220560

I bet you're not actually a 4 and just have a touch of body dysmorphia.

No. 220574

I once was in a long distance relationship (opposite sides of the country) with a woman who I wasn't attracted to physically, because I had terrible self esteem and believed I could never achieve better. I met her twice and didn't enjoy spending time with her IRL each time, but since she was fun to talk to online I convinced myself it was the best I could get. Despite this, I had resolved to decline meeting up in person again, and to just stay in this bizarre online-only relationship farce.

Then I stopped being a NEET and enrolled in college for the first time. Within weeks I met someone who was clearly interested in me, and at a party, we both got very drunk and fucked. Wracked with guilt I broke it off with my online girlfriend the next day and have labelled myself a cheater ever since.

However, of late, I've wondered whether I should really be feeling so guilty. I mean, cheating is cheating, right? Even though I was in a relationship with someone I couldn't even stand in person? Who knows.

No. 220681

I feel this way too. I was finally able to afford 1 ps procedure but I would need like 10 more to actually be attractive. I try to make up for it with nice makeup and cute clothes but sometimes I just feel like some idiot on parade that way like "oh look at this ugly troll marching around with false lashes and a girly dress on, how stupid" though I think it does help generally

No. 220751

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I don't even consider that a /pol/ type thing as much as a normal thing, just like some people prefer only bearded/clean shaven guys, but they're not more inclined to believe it's a belief of rationality or one that would compel them to pull more people of a certain group over, or only give some people jobs. (If you said, shit skins are ugly and aren't worth love, that'd be a different story)

No. 220790

Jesus fucking christ you retard.
A proper abortion is too good and safe for you. Get a coat hanger from the closet and be done with it. No child deserves such a worthless parent.

No. 220791

>plus I think dogs are disgusting

Fuck you

No. 220792

Are you fucking kidding me? Go to hell, dude

No. 220793

See you there.

No. 220805

So, I'm going to hell because I don't think a girl in an abusive relationship deserves to die?

No. 220808

Their owners are usually what make them extra disgusting. Dogs need to be properly bathed regularly at the barest minimum and the majority of dog owners don’t even do that so their dogs have that revolting musty stench and many have thick dander. Also when you go to pet them they’re greasy and the grease is thick, sticks to your hand and is musty too. That’s just one reason dogs are disgusting.

No. 221008

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Why do so many VN's want us to like slender and long fingers on hands? It makes me think of yaoi hands. I want masculine, rough hands damnit.

No. 221029

Nah, but youre here. And you know that generally anyone here is garbage.
Especially if youre the type whos gonna whine at a stranger on the internet like theyre supposed to care or feel bad about what they said.(infighting)

No. 221099

I feel you anon.

I used to think I was just ugly as fuck but as I got older I started to suspect I was just ok looking with body dysmorphia. I just hate my face an abnormal amount, I find new flaws every time I look in the mirror, I'm 24 and have never been on a date because I feel like I'm too repulsive for anyone to be attracted to me, even though I've been approached by guys. Whenever other people compliment me I just assume that they're lying. I know there is no way I'm that ugly realistically, and I've made progress thanks to therapy, but it's just unbearable sometimes.

No. 221100

This is something i read a lot on lolcow but simply can't understand: so many claim to be to anxious to go out or do anything at all but are i a relationship…? I could never even look a remotely attractive boy in the eye or talk with him in fear of him being repulsed by me

No. 224162

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I just discovered an old internet archive filled with Bon Jovi slash fanfiction. Now I know what I’ll spend the next few days doing…

I fucking hate myself.

No. 224163


god, same with me anon. i'm 26, never been on a date and i'm trying to come to terms with the fact that i think i'll be single for my whole life if i keep this up. :\ it's just so fucking hard to believe anybody would be interested in me.


kek. it's okay anon. i used to guns n roses and motley crue fanfiction. you're not alone.

No. 224164


god, same with me anon. i'm 26, never been on a date and i'm trying to come to terms with the fact that i think i'll be single for my whole life if i keep this up. :\ it's just so fucking hard to believe anybody would be interested in me.


kek. it's okay anon. i used to guns n roses and motley crue fanfiction. you're not alone.

No. 224383

lately my favorite hobby is getting blazed, reading the shayna thread and wishing i had a stoner blog like her older one.

don't feel bad anon, guys in bon jovi are at least mostly good looking. i used to jerk it to korn fanfics.

No. 224862

I'm in a relationship that's in its dying throes. I think we both know its over but neither of us have the guts to admit it. I think I'm finally getting there though. We've been together a long time and currently live together however so that complicates things.

In the meantime I've finally acknowledged I have feelings for one of my best friends. I doubt things will ever go anywhere with them but we recently traded lewds as a joke and I smiled more then than I have in a long time. Its also solidified that I need to end my relationship soon so that I can move on.

No. 225019

I'm seriously considering ending my best friendship.

I've known her since fucking elementary school and I'm just now understanding how annoying she is. I find myself avoiding her all the time. I'll pretend that school or my job is preventing me from having a social life when in reality some days I would rather not have a social life than hang out with her. All she talks about is tumblrinas and how much she hates BLM. Like I'm no SJW but shit I just want to talk about video games. She's just so uninteresting. I sometimes want to go back to living on campus so that I can make other friends and avoid her I did before, but I'm a hermit besides work and school so if I dump her I'll have nobody.

No. 225023

Someone coined a term similar to "redpilled diarrhea" for this sort of behavior. Someone finds out how shitty SJWs and scam movements like BLM are and they just can't shut up about it for a while. I've had that phase, and some of my friends have had that phase. It's really annoying to listen to someone going on and on about it forever when you just want to talk about something fun and cozy. Just tell her that you're uncomfortable with her going over the same issue over and over again and that you're not interested in the subject. I feel your pain though, one of my friends is exactly like this and switches the subject to politics EVERY time I try to talk about something entertaining and interesting instead.

No. 225185

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Living the comfy lifestyle of a spoiled neet is actually not that bad

I’m completely supported by my boyfriend And he’s the fucking best

He wants me to completely rely on him and it’s crazy to say but he actually enjoys taking care of me in a non creepy way

Being finally loved after years of feeling like a mistake my entire life makes me incredibly happy

It feels like shit to say this but I can’t fight it anymore I’m a happy neet

No. 225197

Do you ever consider using other coping mechanims besides heroin? You can even try another drug that is less dangerous to your body or have less chance to hit the overdose like idk, cannabis. Even LSD. That way you have more time to treat your addiction without constantly worrying to die. People can get addicted to anything, it just happens to you do be someting really poisoning.

No. 225255

anon where did you find him and where do I get one like that

No. 225285

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Our relationship didn’t start like that from the begging.

I met him trough a friend on Facebook that asked me to get rid of his abusive girlfriend

He was struggling with internal issues and some work issues so I helped him out with money (when I had a job) after I quit that job things in his life where stable so he asked me to take a break before looking for any jobs.

It was hard for a couple of months because I felt like I was ruining his life by staying In his house and doing nothing.

It then evolved to me getting art supplies a tablet and anything I wanted so I would be “too busy” to get a job

>but anon you have art and I want you to work on it

>anon do you want anything whilst I’m at work?
>anon do you want food delivered?
>anon do you want animal crossing I’ll buy you everything (I don’t have a DS)

He continued asking this until I was brave enough to ask if he just didn’t want me to work
>”why would you? I got this”

I’m thinking of getting a job soon ish so I can save up for a holiday for the both of us

No. 225289

Got confirmed for cervical cancer today. No idea how bad yet but I'm feeling so much regret. I don't have any friends to tell. Still in first year of college so barely any accomplishments. Nobody is going to even know I was a person that existed. I wasted so much time. I'm just going to let it progress naturally I think

No. 225290

cervical cancer is slow growing anonette you could do fine

No. 225298

anon, I am sincerely sorry that you're going through this. I know I'm just an anon on an image board but I was scrolling through OT and saw this and had to put down my coffee and close my eyes for a second. When will you know "how bad"? The main thing is you don't need to put yourself down. You didn't waste time, you're in your first year of college. You are doing just fine and the work you're doing in college is an accomplishment in itself, I wasn't able to attend college.
Regardless of how insignificant you feel or how cynical we all are, especially on lolcow, we all have real worth and so do you. I hope you and your health will be alright.

No. 225322

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Lately I've been having a lot of sex dreams where I'm cheating on my boyfriend. It's always with guys that seem to be completely made up in my head and I've never known/seen anyone like them in my life. The dreams vary in setting but usually follow the same format. I'm hanging out with the guy as a friend, though there's obvious sexual tension. Eventually we succumb and have sex, they always have huge dicks. Have to try and hide it from my bf, who eventually shows up unexpectedly in my dreams.

I'm not really sure what it means but I always wake up a bit sexually frustrated but have no desire to have sex with my boyfriend.

In case you're wondering, his dick is slightly shorter than average. Maybe I just want a bigger dick?

No. 225332

I'm having an affair, I'm drinking myself stupid quite often, putting myself in dangerous situations by wandering out at night, and donating the majority of my belongings. I thought these were all just separate events (alcoholism, boredom, and cleaning up) but I think I'm subconsciously trying to sabotage myself and get enough motivation and "finality" to kill myself or die from liver failure or get myself killed. I think I need to turn around.

No. 225340

That's pretty funny and I understand you. I love a nice big dick.

Maybe get a dildo? They have some really big ones.

No. 225426

I had a brain tumor when I was 23 and have been lazy about my birth control because chemo renders you infertile. I am 28 now and mainly use birth control for pimples/acne.

I still used condoms with past partners because safety first when being lazy about birth control. My current boyfriend came inside me a few times in the past two weeks when drinking. He does not know that I am 'Eh whatever' about my pills because condoms.

I always knew that if I still had a uterus, I could still get pregnant. I have zero period or first trimester pregnancy symptoms. I never thought I would have to worry about how soon can I take a First Response test without getting a false negative ever again.

I do not want to be pregnant. My boyfriend was over the moon when I discussed the cancer/possible infertility with him because he does not want kids. My mom died when I was 25 and since then, I have been so depressed over the fact I may never have children of my own. I know in the end, I will have an abortion since my laziness is no excuse to drag someone I do love (and who I will be telling about being a lazy bitch to) into something he never wanted.

Really mad at myself right now.

No. 225429


This isn't the advice thread so I apologize, but what if he is gone in two years and you'd rather have had a kid? This sounds like a miracle pregnancy if it happened. Consider the future as well as the now.

No. 225433

I think I have a crush on a guy a lot younger than me

No. 225434


This is depressing. I've been doing the same thing with my possessions and trying very hard not to fall back into alcoholism. Hard seeing it written in words. I hope things turn around for you.

No. 225445

I love twinks and i can't stop drooling over the freshmen in college even though I'm 23. I'm going to get in trouble if I keep thinking with my vagina.

No. 225446

The one thing that makes it less creepy is that people keep thinking I am a freshman for some reason. But I'm afraid everyone is going to find out and people at university will think I am a creeper.

No. 225469

>tfw 28 with 20 y/o bf
>waify thin asian boy

you can do it!

No. 225641


i don't think it's too creepy, you're still basically the same age group. if you were 25+ however, yeah, that would be kinda weird.

No. 233636

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I really want a thread for us to do an /ot/ sings "___" like how there's videos on Youtube of 4chan's /a/ and /v/ singing anime songs. I think it would be really cute to hear everyone's voices clumsily singing and the final product would be a nice memory. Yes, I'm super lame…

No. 233637

This is such a cute idea anon!! Don't know how well it would go though because lolcow in general is a pretty small site. It's actually embarrassing how much I enjoy spending time here and chatting with like-minded people so I'd be in!

No. 233639

I wish I was 23, I'm almost 30 and get unlimited 18 yr old dick, men love older women and the ones who don't are ugly so it doesn't matter

No. 233646

I lied to my boyfriend about how much I make so his ego doesn't get hurt oops

No. 233681


There's a vocaroo thread on crystal.cafe, you could totally do that there. Or even create a new thread just for anime covers. I think people over there are a bit more open to this kinda stuff.

No. 233695

I didn't want to discuss it there because I know it is way more inactive than here and people there are actually a lot more shy. Compare our the length of our vocaroo thread to the one they have. I just wanted to see how many people here would actually be interested before starting a whole new thread.

No. 234358

(deep breath)

so my wonderful fiance and I are not family people. both came from shit families, mine abusive parental situation, his, a shitty narc mother and narc sisters who LIVE for drama. we are generally no contact with them.
we got engaged and one of his sisters sent me (not him!) a horrendous volatile message about how shit I was for not bending over and telling them the news.
at this time, his other sister was also pregnant with her 2nd child.
They all backed each other up on this, so I told them all where they could go and that they shouldn't waste their breath on us when we clearly have never wanted involvement with them.
I distinctly remember thinking, "karma will bite you in the fucking ass".

fast forward to the other day, his mother pops up on my recommended page, I click to block her and notice his sister (with kids) has set up some kind of trendy insta mom inspirational content instagram. i roll my eyes and go to her page to block her, and again i think "karma will get her" and as I think that, I see that she has set up this trendy insta not like the other moms page because her child was born with fucking dwarfism!!!!!! Like legitimate dwarfism!!! I was so shocked I didn't know how to respond so I laughed, like when people awkwardly laugh at funerals. Jesus christ, as insufferable as they all were before you bet they're all on their sympathy train now. i feel bad for the kid being spontaneously born with fucking dwarfism but the whole story is a fucking joke oh my god

No. 234668

sometimes i think i stay with my boyfriend so that i have another place to go whenever my grandparents that i live with die.

while i'm on the topic of the grandparents, there are times that i resent them. i have lived with them since i was 17 and i'm turning 20 this year. i also have a sibling who's 23 and whom had lived with them from ages 6-22. sometimes it really bothers me that my sibling is not the one here taking care of them, as they have no job and do not go to school anymore. i have both a full-time job and go to school part-time, but taking care of our grandparents is solely on me.

my grandmother had a knee replacement done on monday. since then i have just been thinking about how i feel like i will be stuck taking care of them well into my 20s, when i didn't even get to enjoy my teenage years for the last 2 years of high school. i feel like my life is just passing me by.

No. 234676

I hate everything about this girl I manage. She’s also not that good at her job. I act like her friend since it’s just easier to be nice with someone you work closely with, but I’m going to fire her in a couple months when I have more time.

Sometimes I feel guilty laughing and playing along with some of the shit she says, but if I was honest about what a piece of shit she is and she quit on me, it would make my job harder. Meh.

No. 238617

Been dating my boyfriend for about 4 years, in the beginning we talked about kids and marriage and stuffs – neither of us were particularly interested in it.
Well now, those are both things I'm interested in, but he's still not. Our plans for the future are now different and I feel like I should breakup with him, but I love him a lot so I'm at a loss.
He doesn't have many friends and he's not close with his family at all, I'm mostly all he has so I would feel guilty ending it with him, however I don't know if I would be ok with not getting married or having children in the future.

No. 238619

forgot to add that if he had more friend and was close with his family, it would be easier to end it.

No. 238644

That's a convo you two need to have with each other. If he doesn't want kids then nothing anyone says on lolcow will change that. You need to tell him you want a family and kids, and if you really love him and want a family with him then you need to make sure that's what he also wants, and that he isn't just gonna "maybe, one day" you until you wake up in your mid 30's and realize he was leading you on so you wouldn't leave him.

No. 238687

I had a breakup about a year ago with a complete psychopath who would encourage my self deprecation, tell me how much better than me she was and take advantage of my preference to be dominant sexually and then proceeded to get angry at me for not being dominant enough in a social way. She stole my life for an entire year and didn't let me do well academically, messaged me constantly, got angry at me for not coming home early from school/speaking to her everyday, and said it was because I told her I liked yanderes. At some point I gave in and encouraged her to abuse me in hope that it would force me to be less of a NEET.
We were LDR (we had gone to school together in the past and decided to get back together although we couldn't see each other in real life for long periods of time) which makes me hate myself for accepting it even more. Phonecalls, texting, hell, even more stupid methods of communication when her parents grounded her (she was in her late teens at the time, still is, and they would take everything but her 3DS, so she'd make me talk to her through animal crossing)
The whole thing is so depressing because I wasted so much time on someone who left me the instant life intervened and I couldn't speak to her for a while. Turns out she had been emotionally cheating half the time with a mutual friend, lied to me about who he was, all while pretending to be a "trap" and attention whoring on Google plus of all places. She told me I was fat, ugly, and worthless and that I meant nothing
She lied about her weight constantly, claiming to be 68lb despite not having a thigh gap/concaved stomach
She starved herself when I lost a little weight to be skinnier than me (I just wanted to not be overweight anymore, and I've kept it up, I'm about the ideal weight for my height and frame size now) and I used it, and still use it to drive myself to be healthy.
I compare myself to her constantly. Her looks, her weight.
To make myself feel like shit so I don't go back to being an overweight hunk of garbage.
I watch her everyday. I read every tweet she posts. On her roleplay accounts and her real one.
A couple of months ago we spoke briefly (at the time she was attention whoring by sending nudes to Super Smash Brothers players to get popular) and she sent me pictures of her tits while I was in class
I still stare at those pictures, even though she sent them to "make me feel weird in class"
She had a mental breakdown because I posted a selfie and then called me a liar/manipulator and continued to insult me, saying I'm a child who lives off of other people's sympathies, so I lost it on her eventually and told her horrible things
She blocked me
Good riddance, right
But now that she's still in a relationship I can't help but stalk her
She made the guy stop being friends with me, and openly tells everyone I ruined her life for 3 years and sends people to attack me online (her minute smash following) and says I encouraged her to cut herself and am a pathological liar (neither of which are true, although we did when we were children both lie, but that was when we were children) and apparently talks shit about me frequently, all of which are never true
The worst part of this is that I'm such a pathetic NEET that despite it all I still need to see her face to sleep at night and know how she is, need to know if she's happy, and am probably still in love with her in some fucked up way, which I guess is my confession
Bonus fact:
She used to pretend she was Marth and said she was a schizophrenic and that she would speak to magolor and I believed her

No. 238697

I've been telling people that I want to wait a few years before I date again. My asshole ex-fiance broke up with me last August and I wanted to calm this baggage down before bringing it to anybody.

But really, I think I'm ready to put my feet in the water. But he gave me HPV. Tori Kelly's keeping me afloat.

No. 238700

Anon, you need therapy. Bad. You dated a really young woman that abused you and you sound really torn up about it. Not to mention the stalking. How old are you??

No. 238703

Anon mentioned going to school together, so they are most likely a young woman too and not some older creep.
I agree about therapy though

No. 238709

She's eighteen and I'm soon to be the same (young anon but I've been browsing lolcow for years) We went to middle school together and were both "problem kids" so we ended up spending a lot of time together because of it.
The pathetic part is that she left me in the dust for getting my life straight, since unlike her I don't have rich parents to rely on.
It sounds fucked up but I'm almost glad she was around when I was younger because if she hadn't had kept me away from the outside world I would've probably been a lot worse off, given how easy it was to take advantage of me.
My parents know, and so does the rest of my family, since it was sort of how I "came out." They even know about my obsessiveness towards her. When I was 14-16, even when we weren't dating, I used to have panic attacks when she was upset at me for not speaking to her.
To answer a question before it's asked, my parents did confront her once but chose not to get involved further because they saw it as harmless or experimental, and my parents are in a toxic relationship as well (my father behaves similarly towards my mother as my ex did to me).
my soon to be legalness is why I'm so afraid. I lost a lot of valuable time when I should've been preparing for adulthood because of her, a self proclaimed forever child who has wealthy parents to back her up. I couldn't get therapy because I wasn't allowed to over a "petty issue." I'll probably be scheduling an appointment a few weeks from now.

No. 238710

Not to be that guy, but you need to be 18+ to post here.

No. 238712

Ah, well. I'll post again in two days, then, lol.

No. 238713

Anon, you're still very young and it seems like you've been carrying this around for a long time.
1) Your "stalking". This is unhealthy behavior and you need to stop. It's making you unhappy and affecting your quality of life.
2) Your online behaviors. It seems you're pretty invested in roleplaying/internet activities and maybe it'd be good to take a step back from it all. Focus on your IRL friends, your family and school, creating false realities only hinders you in dealing with real life stuff effectively.
3) Your obsessiveness and anxiety. Therapy. Literally always therapy. Glad to hear you're talking to someone soon and don't attempt to make things better by omitting some shit. It sounds harsh but you always regret it because you can't talk freely with the person you're paying to talk freely to.

No. 238764

>been browsing lolcow for years

fucking gross

No. 243406

Not much of a huge confession but recently I realised for certain I have a huge preference for a certain type of guy. For dating or friendship.

For dating he has to be a virgin and preferably no real past partners. I find something very charming about being a guy's first everything and having those memories attached only to me. I also feel disgusted by and can't trust guys who have experience of sleeping around. Thing I find weird is that most girls will call this a red flag or laugh at those traits but they are necessary for me to feel attraction.

I found myself seeking out these kind of lonely guys online too. I like befriending them and supporting their work, especially if they are producing some content online which nobody else is commenting on or looking at. I just like that feeling of being the sole person who brightens someone's day, my intentions are pure but it seems like this is weird and almost shameful.

No. 243411

Actually anon, I'll be the first to say that you are the red flag in this case. You seem to value virginity and purity and hate the idea of your man sleeping with someone for the same reason dudes do. So…good job I guess.

No. 243412

I cheated on my boyfriend and i liked it, also im getting obsessed over this new person. I don't know what to do

No. 243414

Damn anon you live in a red flag factory.
Creepy and possessive, seeking out sad lonely virgins in the hopes you are the one tiny light they will cling to.

Predator wasn’t this predatory.

No. 243415

Let your boyfriend off the hook and admit you aren’t capable of a grownup relationship. Then go sleep with whoever. Cheating is the scummiest thing you can do.

No. 243416

Tell him and break up, it hurts but you better rip it off now and take responsibility for your actions instead of letting the relationship deteriorate which does nothing but hurt both of you
I agree its shitty but cheating isnt the worse thing someone can do, like if I had to choose between getting cheated on vs raped or abused then…

No. 243417

There can always be something worse that can happen, doesn't make it less shitty to do

No. 243423

What previous anons said is true, you're the red flag here.
But I can relate. I don't exactly think being a virgin is an absolute must, but no more than 3 girls and no huge, serious, love-of-my-life relationships either.

I think I got this way after my first boyfriend when I was 15. Guy was 19 and always made sure that I knew that "although he loved me, he was never going to love me as much as he did his first girlfriend" (then he showed me lots of movies and shows where a girl selflessly loved a guy hung up on a previous girl for years until at last he corresponded. yeah.)
He told me all sorts of things about their relationship, and when I had a pregnancy scare he decided it was a good idea to tell me about the time she had a pregnancy scare. On the same day I took the test, he said "you know that if you're pregnant you'll have to abort, right?" right after telling me that when it was her, they were both excited about maybe having a kid.
After a year together I found that girl's profile on a social network and saw that he had been publicly messaging her for well over 10 months, asking questions like "are you still going to be the mother of my kids?" and "are we still getting married someday?", "will you come back to me?".

So yeah. I don't think I ever told anyone about this before lol, but after that I simply refuse to be with any guy who's had a significant relationship before me.

No. 243432

Yeah its shitty but not "omg worse thing ever" shitty there's def more things to label as "the worst thing someone can do" rather than just fucking someone else when you're not supposed to fuck anyone else

No. 243433

That's still incredibly shitty, you sound underage

No. 243437

That's odd, the only time I've ever heard "cheating is the worse thing evr!!!" Is from teens who haven't experienced the real world, like when the shandi from antm thing happened and she got tons of death threats from kids who think the same thing

Yeah its shitty but its getting annoying how overexaggerated it is, especially when there's much more worse shit in the world

No. 243446

This line of logic is weird, should you be glad your bf cheated on you since at least he didn't beat and rape you? WITHIN THE CONTEXT OF A NORMAL RELATIONSHIP, cheating is one of the worse things you can do, how is that.

No. 243447

Sounds like just a shitty guy. Previous serious relationships can be fine if he moved on and has a healthy outlook on it. Guys who have had more than a few non-serious relationships are a bit more of a red flag for me (even three of those could be a little iffy), because it either means he's not good with commitment or something has gone south fast in all of his relationships and it's probably him.

No. 243451

You sound like a cheater, anon.

No. 243476

I got with my ex-boyfriend when he was 21 and I was 17. I was madly in love with him. He was part-Jewish and also bisexual. He turned out to have a legitimate porn addiction and when he met me was having sexual interactions with a pre-hormone tranny (MTF) online. I became deeply insecure in our relationship. He was physically and emotionally abusive, on one incident he slammed a garage door down
on my head causing me to go to hospital. I tried to commit suicide multiple times during the relationship and finally got out of it (having been together almost two years) after he had threatened to kill me one night and I called his mother for help in desperation.

Anyway, the point of all of this is that after the breakup I have come to hate homosexual/bisexual men, Jews and trannies. I can't shake my hatred and anger and only find more and more things to justify said hatred.

No. 243477

>hate homosexual/bisexual men, Jews and trannies
haha your traumatic experience made you a normal decent person

No. 243478

Cheating is a disgusting thing trashy people to do, it can genuinely destroy the person being cheated on's sense of worth, you sound like a serial cheater or something.

No. 243479

I think you need to go and interact with more Jews and gays (trannies I totally get tbh, even though I have met some normal ones over the years).
Like, I don't think it's right to jump at your throat for being bigoted because it's sorta understandable, and I don't think telling you you're a bad person is true or would accomplish much, but at the same time it's really unhealthy to think that way, mostly for you.

There's lots of different people out there that are lovely and you can't be friends with many of them if you keep writing entire groups off as bad based off a negative experience. What if something else bad happens that makes you start hating Mexicans, for example? There are some truths to stereotypes and I don't believe that we should "give everyone a chance~ uwu" (I'm not too fond of Islam but I'd never think ill of someone just because they're Muslim, if that makes sense) but at least make an effort to judge people on an individual basis first and foremost, no matter what you think about them.

No. 243480

>the only time I've ever heard "cheating is the worse thing evr!!!" Is from teens who haven't experienced the real world
Kid, people divorce because of this shit all the time in muh reel world, it's clearly not just teens.
You really do sound like you've got some serious skeletons in your closet.

No. 243483

I'm the same and I admit it's 100% creepy. In fact with me it might be even worse because I exclusively date guys quite younger than me. And yes, they're legal, I'm not a pedo.

No. 243495

Was that what this is about? No, its just not "the worse thing someone can possibly do"
Plain and simple, I don't know why you're going out of your way to twist it to be about something else when I tried to make it clear several times its bad etc etc its just not the worse thing ever
Again, where did I say this? All i said is that its not the worse thing ever
I'm not considering im single, I've actually even been cheated on myself, and I got over it, in fact when I first got cheated on I never even knew I was supposed to be upset about it until I saw how much others got upset over it
Yes its gross etc etc, again, I'm not a cheater or whatever like everyone is insisting, its just not the worse thing ever, yes it ruins relationships and guess what, lots of things ruin relationships like finance and moving jobs and whatnot, doesn't make it the worse thing ever, if someone acts as if they're life is ruined if they got cheated on I'd hate to say it but they're weak and need to find a new aspiration that isn't their life being revolved around a romantic relationship, this is an unpopular opinion thread isnt it? Well apparantly mine is that cheating isnt the worse thing possible

No. 243499

Nobody thinks cheating is worse than murder, stop being contrarian for the sake of it.

No. 243500

Then why label it as the worse thing someone can possibly do ? It's contradictory

No. 243501

>what is a hyperbole

No. 243502

Are you autistic?

No. 243505

You seem to have trouble understanding how people express things.

No. 243506

I mean, claiming something is the worst thing ever in a literal way is pretty powerful words unless its some kid who thinks anything bad happening to them is the "worst thing ever", I just don't think it's as bad as people hype it up do me, its shitty and heart breaking for some but there are people who think cheating is way up there with murder and rape its ridiculous

No. 243507

Oh my bad I thought kids weren't allowed here so people overexaggerating bad life events "but not really meaning it" didn't matter here, that's teenage level stuff, I'm assuming we're all adults here

No. 243509

Eh cheating is maybe not a big deal for the one doing the cheating but for the betrayed partners it can be extremely painful, obviously it's not as bad as murdering or raping someone, it's not as bad as the holocaust either, but plenty of extremely hurtful things are not that big of a deal in the great scheme of things. For some people it is the worst thing that ever happened to them.

No. 243512

Well yeah, its a scale for some people, some people dont care at all some people act like their life is over and get addicted to drugs because of it, imo if someone does overreact that badly they're weak

I also hate to be that person but society and media has a lot to do with why people get hurt extremely badly over it, people see others react extremely badly to it and think thats how they're supposed to react as well, i remember in the 80s and 90s if someone got cheated on it would be a "it sucks, it hurts, drink a few glasses of wine, listen to some sad music, get angry and egg their house and you're over it" nowadays people think their life is ruined over getting cheated on, which I could understand if they've been married and raised kids but its way too overhyped even when its teenagers

No. 243516

>imo if someone does overreact that badly they're weak
Unrelated to the cheating thread but this line of thinking gets on my nerves (the idea that someone is inherently "weak" because of how they feel/react to something). It's so easy to internalize that shit and never improve yourself when you hear shit like that from everyone.

No. 243518

I know everyones different but for me it helped me grow stronger when I heard stuff like that from others, if someone is easily broken up badly just over that they are by defintion weak, no im not saying people cant react to it normally but if someone does react that awfully theres no justifying it and they're weak

No. 243521

Weak is the wrong word/wrong attitude for what you mean. The focus is/should be in not allowing yourself to be a victim of other people's disorders.

The word weak is just…blaming yourself, feeling sorry for yourself. The issue isn't "weakness" but predatory people. The goal is to work on your psychology and choices in order to avoid or not be susceptible to these people. Nobody is weak (read: the fault is with them) for being victimized, but they SHOULD work on ways to understand and avoid those situations. "weak" is defeatist, however I'm glad it worked for you

As the main thing is you get there. To that better position.

No. 243525

Not having emotions doesn't make you cooler or better than anyone else. A normal person who genuinely felt love and put time into a relationship is going to feel betrayed, hurt, feelings of worthlessness or depression for a long time. Your post makes you seem like a sociopath.

No. 243526

Apparently thinking people shouldnt act as if their life is destroyed over being cheated on means im a sociopath now
Yes it hurts, no im not gonna repeat myself
Notice how before when people reacted to cheating, it was still bad but not "oh no my life is ruined im going to be depressed forever" type stuff, only encouraging people and having people think that they need to feel majorly depressed is only going to further do damage and no one realizes that, the same applies for anything else that is often over dramatized and has people think that they need to react and feel a certain way to something

No. 243527

Lets say there's two people,person A and person B, the stimulus is current society and media views on cheating

Person A, as they grow up, they're constantly exposed to people who react in extreme ways over being cheated on as well as books, movies, tv shows that constantly have people reacting in extreme ways over getting cheated on, on top of all that when discussing it everyone tells them "if your partner cheats on you your entire relationship was a lie and they think youre worthless and you werent enough to satisfy them and they betrayed you and how will you ever be able to trust anyone again"
Obviously, in their minds, when they get cheated on, not only are they told it was because they weren't enough but they're also conditioned to where they feel like they HAVE to feel a great sense of remorse, betrayal, worthlessness and sadness for a long period of time, which is why i have a problem with the whole "cheating is the worse thing evar!!!" Stigma
Vs if person B who wasn't exposed to this, while they still maybe hurt but they're more upset and angry at their partner for not remaining faithful and thus person B heals from it quicker and remains less damaged from it

No. 243535

I think I’ve grown out of anime somewhat. Just some of the tropes you see make me want to shoot myself (trapsxDDlolixDimouto:33) which is obviously not in all anime but still. I generally just find a lot of anime fucking retarded along with so many weebs being literal ass cancer
But I probably will pretend I still love it to relate to my friends and whatnot. I have wasted a good amount of time watching it after all.

No. 243537

That's the same problem i have with the way people currently treat rape. I was raped and it didn't scar me for life, and it definitely wasn't the worst thing that ever happened to me, it took a little over a month to get over it. But that was like seven years ago. I think that if it had happened recently I'd be a lot more traumatized simply because people insist that it's the worst thing ever, literally worse than murder, a life destroying event from which women never truly recover.

No. 243539

Well true, it depends though, its definitely overhyped in means of things like getting drunk and violated in your sleep, its horrible and disgusting but I really doubt most people would have been as traumatized by it if society wasn't telling them they have to be traumatized

However I can definitely agree its damaging and traumatizing in say, cases of children being raped by family members, especially in those cases where if people do find out they mark the child as a liar and refuse to believe them, i know its controversial to put sexual assault on a scale like that

But I can agree rape is one of the worst things someone can do especially to children

No. 243557

Did you cheat on someone? You seem desperate to justify it to anyone else as not a big deal. If it isn't a big deal to you then you weren't in love with the person. I've never been cheated on but I know I would be beyond crushed in my confidence and trust if it happened. One of my nightmare situations.

No. 243565

Oh my god Anon, people are going to react to things differently. Good for you for not letting it ruin your life but it doesn’t make you better than someone else who struggled more with it. Same with the anon on cheating, good for you that it hasn’t affected you like it has others but not everyone is going to have the exact same experience. You saying that it’s not as bad as it seems is only downplaying people who have gone through it and aren’t responding like you did.

No. 243566

>people react differently to things
>proceeds to try to shame anon for her reaction

come off it, anon. you can't tell her to sympathize with others and then vilify her.

No. 243567

I think most of it is garbage, too.
I mean you can like things without being in a fandom. It's not a requirement you have to engage in the"community".

No. 243569

I’m not saying that anon can’t feel that way, I’m saying she can’t vilify people for not feeling the same way. I am literally pointing out that when she insinuates it’s ‘weak’ to let these things affect you when it’s not. Letting things hurt you, stewing over them, and then growing from them isn’t a bad thing. Let me repeat, I’m not saying that anon is wrong in the way she’s personally handling it but I am saying she’s wrong to belittle others coping.

No. 243571

it really depends on the person and how serious the relationship is. I've been cheated on in a longterm relationship before and it absolutely crushed my self esteem and still upsets me to think about to this day, but I know people who bounced from similar situations way better than I did. anon not thinking it's the worst thing ever doesn't necessarily make her a cheater.

No. 243576

She didn't, she just said the media makes it out to be the worst thing ever, which the media does. People react more to things when there's tons of people bearing down on you about how horrible it is.

No. 243577

Yeah but that shouldn’t downplay the emotions of people who have these things happen.