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No. 755729

Previous thread: >>>/ot/726714
The thread equivalent of a shoulder you can cry on.

No. 755742

damn I hate being a crazy bitch

No. 755746

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starting off the second post grim by letting you know my dog was put down this morning. her syndrome took a turn for the worst in literally 24 hours.
her organs were failing and the seizures left her paralyzed that after she got a bit of initial treatment we decided to put her down so she wouldn't be in pain. she was only 9 and a half, so I always imagined she would live until like 12 easily and comfortably. I cried as soon as I saw her sad eyes over facetime since I'm in a different province. Nothing about her looks old, she had beautiful fur, an adorable face, perky ears and all her teeth. This is my first pet loss since my parents moved around and travelled too much to have one before. Thanks for reading this if you did.

No. 755750

>>755746
i'm sorry for your loss, i hope you can feel better soon nonny sad face

>>755742
its okay anon, me too, i love you

No. 755756

>>755746
Omg I'm so sorry for your loss. My previous dog was put down because she had breast cancer so I know exactly how you feel. Dogs are such precious, beautiful souls, they should not suffer

No. 755757

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I'm not going to launch into a vent about how disappointingly stupid zoomers are especially for the unprecedented amount of access they have to all the information in the world, instead I will simply say this: I hate it here. Pic very related

No. 755761

Previous thread link is wrong
>>>/ot/747017

No. 755767

I'm so fucking annoyed because reading my psychiatric file reads that I have GAD PTSD and pre-schizophrenic symptoms because I don't trust the medical fields and pharmacies. I def think my doctor is planning something against me. I am not even kidding, and it's OKAY to think about these things, because it has proven, and I honestly believe that any farmers than think other wise has been brainwashed.

I hate everything.

No. 755769

>>755746
I'm so sorry anon. I hope doggy heaven exists, and I hope she's up there making friends and frolicking pain free. The angels pick up her poop and bring her fresh water and good food, she passes every day with friends and naps, until she can see you again. Thank you for giving her a home here on Earth. I'm sure that even if it was a short while, this place was heaven for her because of you and your family.

I dread the day I'll have to say goodbye to my own dog. Pets are so precious and bring so much love and joy into our lives, it's terribly cruel that they don't live for even half of our lifetimes. I hope that in the future, if you are ever feeling up to it, that you'll be able to welcome another dog into your life.

No. 755778

>>755746
I'm so sorry, anon. She's not in pain anymore, and I'm sure she has so many happy memories of you with her. She loved you, and she knew you loved her, and that's what matters the most.
It's so unfair how short our pets' lives often are, but I think if we can show them love, care and give them joyful experiences where we can, it's all worth it in the end. You don't have to live long to be happy.

No. 755790

I hate the tranny craze in media and for the stupidest fucking reason:
I'm a female with defined features, strong jaw/cheek bones and a deeper voice. Before all this I'd get compliments on these things; saying I looked like a model or whatever. Now people think or ask if I'm a fucking tranny all the time and it's tanked my self esteem. Even when I used to use dating sites or apps I'd get guys asking last minute "just to be sure" wtf. I had one dude panic when we were about to have a one night stand because he thought I might be a man. I'm short and have an obviously womanly figure - small hands/feet etc, nothing super special but not something a mtf could ever have, but because of the tranny catfishing retards seem to think it's possible. I am so fucking insecure about this, it's stupid.

I don't even think I have a serious case of man face or anything, like troons would probably cry with joy if their FFS could make them look anything like me - even if I'm probably an average at best cis woman. God I can't wait for this to blow up more so the general populace can see what real trannys are like and leave cis women out of the bullshit. I know it's petty af but I shouldn't have to catch gripe for their retarded mental illness, and I don't blame the dudes paranoid about sleeping with trannys because even though they're fucking retards for not recognizing my features as perfectly cis, I wouldn't want to risk sleeping with one either.

/sperg

No. 755792

Bf gets a little sensitive whenever I talk about dudes he really likes turning out to be creeps/sex pests.

I was reading this dossier on Bald and Brankrupt. Apparently this guy might spend so much time in foreign countries to tax evade. He's said to be a creep for the sexual comments he's made against foreign women–and tbh I think it's no coincidence that he often films with young, attractive women who seem to gush over him in some videos. His videos are interesting but I admit I always got uneasy vibes from him so nothing in the dossier surprised me. I'm not shocked that he's a redpill either. I mean you'd kinda have to be to feel at ease next to devastating poverty, and women as second class in these countries. He's arrogant, which I can see how that easily attracts or repels certain people.

Bf got kinda mad about it. "Where's the proof?! That's all opinion! I could make an account and pose as someone saying all sorts of nasty stuff too." I really hope this is just my bf getting defensive because he feels criticized when figures he likes turn out to be not good people, or that he disagrees with the accuracy of cancel culture. I was literally just reading what people had commented and he was reacting as if I had personally wrote it. One of his favorite musicians almost got canceled too for the same creep/sex pest reasons. Idk, I don't think he's projecting but he is quite sensitive about men facing accountability for these issues too. I'm not sure if every guy feels that way deep down.

No. 755795

>>755790
Damn anon ngl you sound like you're really hot. It's always so annoying to see any woman with slightly sharper-than-average facial features to be compared to men. There's no one way to look feminine.

No. 755797

>>755792
I want to believe it's a combination of that he's just scared of being wrongfully accused of something himself, and that he is conflating accusations against someone he really likes as a slight against him/his opinions.

Or at least, that's the only way I can delude myself to believe there are men out there who aren't secretly sexist pedo perverts or something. You know him better than I ever will, though, anon. I hope it improves or you guys are able to talk it out - chances are he doesn't fully understand why he's so defensive about it either and it's more of a kneejerk reaction.

No. 755798

>>755792
Ok but what countries does the bald bankrupt guy go to

No. 755806

My eleven year old cousin got her first phone recently, and I'm scared of what shit she'll inevitably find, and what shit heads are going to find her, especially since this gotta be her only real interaction with the internet she's ever had due to not having a computer or similar at home all her life. The only consolation I have is that she doesn't really speak English yet, so she's still shielded from the probably largest part of the net. On the other hand, my English abilities skyrocketed after I discovered tumblr with twelve, too… Honestly, even if I wasn't 95% childfree leaning from the get-go, the fear of not being able to protect my child from the bad side of the world would be my number one reason to be.

No. 755816

>>755795
Thanks anon, I appreciate the support. Woman really are lovely in many different ways and I wish it wasn't being undermined by this loud minority.

(Ignore my continued sperg, didn't want to make a new post)
:
I know we gripe on cows here all the time and say they look like troons and shit too and I hate it, because even if we're usually just being factious against them as cows, it perpetuates this false belief trannys would look anything like that.

I don't even fucking hate the quiet trannys who keep to themselves and are just doing what they can to "pass" as the opposite sex and don't expect everyone to cater to them. It's still mental illness, but if it's not like the mtf troon thread examples, what the hell do I care what they do with themselves? Same shit as furries or whatever, keep it to yourself and away from vulnerable demographics and I don't care. But it's a blatant fallacy that even with oodles of plastic surgery and hormones they'll be that much like a cis woman. It's still just a caricature of one. Medical science isn't that far along and it seems so fucking insulting to me and woman as a whole to pretend these uncanny valley cosplays could be one.

I even got in an argument with one of my closest friends because his friend's girlfriend is a tranny sympathizer and assistant to a plastic surgeon at a world renowned clinic. She claims they do bottom surgery that you couldn't tell apart from cis. I argued that's not possible for a thousand reasons and she's deluding herself if she truly believes that, but my friend believed her because "she's obviously a medical professional at an amazing clinic so knows what she's talking about". That is, until his other friend hooked up with a tranny who had, had bottom surgery and reported back the details. Now he believes me. It's just another long winded example of even people who MUST know better catering to these lies that lead back to the issues I'm having. It's ridiculous. Why lie? Why pretend? Is that the only way they can accept trannys, by deluding themselves? Why can't they exist without stretching the truth and overshadowing actual women?!

Sorry rant thread, I know I'm getting into "terf thread" rage territory. I'm just so frustrated with this and want to, well, vent it out.

No. 755874

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I moved out right before COVID and I still had no chance to find IRL friends because of how fucked things are.

I can't even find a job and it's been a full year because I am an immigrant and the whole country started hating my nation now… I see so much shittalk about my nation everywhere on the news and social media. I can't even truly learn the language yet because everything around is closed, so I am doing my best to learn it alone.

On top of that right before I moved a lot of friends whom I thought were friends ended up doing nothing but using silly me: I would help them out with anything, spend all of my time and energy listening to them just for them to end up turning their back on me the second it became possible. And my closest duo were talking shit about me the whole time and laughing at my problems.

Finding friends on internet turned into nothing but a disaster because it'd mostly be thristy scrotes who would be interested in you only if you are single, or would still hit on you even if you are taken. Or just people who can't handle conversation well, or huge timezone differences.

To make things short, I am out there feeling miserable because of the dumbest thing: my partner's friend kicked me out of his server where he would stream his movies and I didn't notice until that happened, but friend thinks it's nbd because I am with my partner IRL and we are not too close, but here I am, feeling like a complete shit and just wanting to do nothing but cry and go to sleep. I feel so stupid for feeling so sensitive over such thing.

I thought today would be good, but it started like shit. Went to a huge store so I could finally get limited edition ice cream, just to see that it got sold out and there are won't be any until next year. I also had to take care of my partner's panic attack because there were a lot of people.

I sound super whiny, but I also appreciate my old friends who are still with me and I cherish them, but their irl lives are very busy now, so they barely spend any time on social media so I can't spend time with them.

I just feel so lonely.

No. 755884

I absolutely have to go out and do errands today but I have an upset stomach and Im scared there’s not going to be many bathrooms where I am. The anxiety about it is making my stomach ache so much worse too.

No. 755886

>>755806
Maybe tell her parents to install one of those kid-monitoring apps on her phone (I forgot the term but I think you know what I mean) so they know what she's doing on the internet.

No. 755892

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>>755778
>>755750
>>755769
>>755756

This means a lot anons, thank you. Such sweet words helps, especially since I feel sort of uncomfortable talking about it to my friends/social media. I'm a pretty private person so being able to come here and be comforted has been very nice.

Ordered ramen because I needed to go grocery shopping but don't want to do anything today. It still feels unreal a bit that she's gone but yeah. thank u again

No. 755898

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what the fuck is this. the anime girl on the box says "don't look at my giant girldick" btw

No. 755908

>>755898
Meanwhile folks shit their pants about things like flavored vaping liquid possibly pandering to kids.

No. 755916

I wanna fucking scream. This guy I was dating a few months back who treated me like shit, used me, manipulated me and borderline raped me is constantly posting in a groupchat I’m in. And i don’t wanna leave but I also don’t want to hear anything from him ever again. He isn’t even really part of the group. Why does he keep posting there?! It’s triggering the living shit out of me. I just saw another post of his and i want leave this planet. Fuck him, fuck him, fuck him. Why is he still a part of my life? Why can’t I have this? I blocked him everywhere I could and now I still have to read his shit.

No. 755917

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>>755790
I'm a tomboy with masculine, chiseled facial features and used to get compliments for being stylish and attractive and people constantly were going on about how hot of a soft butch I make, now I'm side-eyed a ton because I haven't transitioned. Butches really went out of style and being a GNC woman is now considered a terf dogwhistle (I mean I am one but that's beside the point), unless you're a DDLG e-girl or an instathot you apparently don't deserve to be a woman and have to put at least they/them on your profile.

No. 755922

>>755917
I know this sounds gross but you sound hot, anon!

No. 755928

>>755917
You sound based af. I've always had tomboyish interests/attitude but could never pull off the look, I respect people who can.

No. 755935

>>755917
It makes me sad people want you to transition and side eye you just for living your existence as a gnc woman. Dark times

No. 755936

every platforms that allows users to block other users should disclose to the blocked user that they've been blocked. Not doing so is like, ghosting

No. 755943

I miss you dad

No. 755945

>>755943
…you good?

No. 755947

>>755945
No I'm crying cause I miss my dad lol

No. 755948

>>755947
Sorry about your dad, lost mine a year ago and that sadness shit do be coming in waves

No. 755949

>>755947
Oh shit im sorry anon. I thought this was the unpopular opinions thread and was wondering why that post was there. I'm sorry about your dad! Hope your doing ok

No. 755950

>>755948
I lost mine in 2016, and I feel exactly the same. I hope you're doing good from time to time, it's complicated isn't it? Sending you love fam

No. 755952

>>755949
Thank you!

No. 755966

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Oral sex increases the risk of mouth cancer. PIV increases the risk of cervical cancer. The risk of getting cervical cancer is close to zero when you're a virgin. I'm attracted to men but I'm paranoid about getting cancer so I guess I will never touch one. It annoys me how most people seem to ignore how dangerous straight sex is to women, aside from all the behavioral fuckery of men, pregnancy risk etc. Shit's crazy

No. 755967

>>755966
Get yourself the anti sex cancer vaccine before having intercourse (I forgot the name, but it is a thing!)

No. 755972

>>755967
are you talking about hpv?

No. 755981

>>755966
>It annoys me how most people seem to ignore how dangerous straight sex is to women,
It's cause we get horny, and at the end of the day sometimes people are gonna do shit that is bad for them. That other anon is right though, even virgins should get their HPV shots

No. 755982

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Got high with my best friend tonight and she propositioned me to make out despite us both having boyfriends. She wasn’t joking. I said no because that would obviously be cheating and very messy, but my pussy was tingling as she talked about it akdjdhsjslk. She agreed and everything was chill, but wtf anons help

No. 755983

>>755982
Don't do it, cheating is bad. If you both end up single though, then go for it

No. 755984

>>755982
Both of you leave your boyfriends and run away with each other

No. 755987

>>755950
It's just a mess and with pandemic time warp, it feels like it was 616527 years ago yet like it was yesterday, but I think the missing changes shape, some day it will be less sad I hope

No. 755988

>>755982
Do it, your pussy deserves to be treated nice by your friend!
-not trolling-

No. 755989

>>755982
A bit of pussy action between friends is nothing, just keep it secret. It's fine fam

No. 755991

>>755966
You could just stick to using your hands

No. 755993

>>755989
It is something if they're both in relationships, anon

No. 755994

>>755792
>I really hope this is just my bf getting defensive because he feels criticized when figures he likes turn out to be not good people, or that he disagrees with the accuracy of cancel culture.
I hope it’s that benign too. My ex was like this (super defensive of men because “lack of proof” and against cancel culture). Turned out he was into pedo shit (drawn but still) and took advantage of a drunk woman about a decade ago. Nowadays I’m immediately “The scrote doth protest too much, methinks” whenever a guy speaks up for these freaks, but hopefully it’s just basic bro defensiveness for some. Sucks that so many men are simply irredeemable degenerates.

No. 755996

I have no vent currently. Just wanted to say that’s a based Thurston thread image. Love that fuzzy little goblin.

No. 755998

>>755982
cheating on males is fine actually

No. 756005

>>755898
To be honest I'd pay a premium for my birth control to come in some cute Hatsune Miku ass shit.

No. 756006

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>>755982
Yes,it would be cheating. I'm glad you stopped yourself from doing that, anon! That being said all men are coomers and probably wouldn't view it as cheating, they'd just think it's hot because they don't view other women as a threat to take you away from them.

No. 756013

wish my coworker would get fired already. fucken hate this bitch.

No. 756017

Ever just get fucking horrified at how fragile pets are? like my foot was on top of my bunny's foot for a second by accident but I feel like a monster that needs to die, even though she seems perfectly fine and I'm keeping an eye on her

No. 756036

I never really developed an art practice and I feel like something is missing from my life because of it. I've always experimented with different art activities, but never persisted long enough to refine my skills or develop work that I can share with people. It's kind of weird because art, music and aesthetics in general play an important role in pretty much every of aspect of my life. I could have cultivated a small portfolio by now if I had the discipline and direction to stick with one thing for long enough, sometimes it feels like it's too late for me

No. 756037

>>756017
yes! it just feels so wrong that animals who are too helpless and unintelligent to deserve suffering are capable of experiencing it

No. 756039

I hate being short cuz no matter how old I get no one treats me seriously and aaawe at me like a puppy. I get it, hard to look up at me when you're lookin down.
As stupid as it sounds I will only be okay with it if I get a partner who actually finds me attractive and doesn't use me as a replacement for a loli.

No. 756040

>>756017
I get this. My dog suddenly passed last month. She was 8 but was in good health and then just gone. I don't regret having her however.

No. 756046

I am miserable

No. 756054

>>756046
I will hug you
-hugs-

No. 756056

My friend becamew an onlyfans cow that lightens her skin and streams shit videogames on facebook
I don't want her as a friend anymore

Now elaborating on that though, she only ever wants to talk to me when she needs something, and like, idk her onlyfans shit is so cringe idk I can't stop thinking about it

I wanted to ghost her forever but she's a bit of a miserable narcissist and I feel so bad

No. 756063

Why are pokemon cards so fucking expensive I've been collecting since I was in elementary school. I have every English promo card outside of like 10, and every set complete up until 3 years ago. I know I can sell a lot of it and be rich rn or buy what I'm missing but these people have ruined my life. Fuck Logan Paul for trending

No. 756086

The OP picture reminds me of a fling I had with a disgusting scrote because he would always send me pics and videos of Thurston (the cat in the pic) and it triggers me every time. Is there a way to hide the pic but still see the thread?

No. 756087

>>756086
Look at the top left right above the photo, it'll say file(hide)

No. 756090

>>756087
Thank you anon you're a lifesaver!

No. 756095

>>756037
summarized perfectly. I just have such anxiety of her getting hurt that I know I wont sleep well tonight, even though I know she's fine. It's so weird and shitty.

>>756040
I'm sorry for your loss. Pets are just too precious for this world, but the way they can touch our hearts is kinda shocking

No. 756100

My partner of 4 1/2 years just broke up with me tonight. Saying that they fell out of love with me some time ago but didn’t have the courage to say it until tonight and I feel like the most unlovable piece of shit rn. All my life plans revolved around them now I don’t know what to do. Where’s my end goal? Where’s my purpose low? I considered texting a suicide hotline just to talk to anyone but that makes me feel pathetic. I feel so aimless and lost and that nothing matters anymore . I feel like I’ll never find that connection ever again.

No. 756101

>>755917
Ugh, reminds me of a thread somewhere, I think it was /cgl/, where someone brought up that they like wearing oversize or bulky clothing, don't remember the context though, and someone was trying to tell her that it means that she is trans because she is trying to hide her body and she tried to explain that she just enjoys comfy clothing and that she is more than fine with her body and identity but the other person just wouldn't give up.

It's been years since I saw this conversation and it's still etched into my memory because it pissed me off so bad. Just like the other anon I don't mind trannies that stays in their lane, but this hysteria is damaging all the work feminism put in to remove gender roles just for them to come back ten times stronger - now if you don't act or look like your assigned gender that means you're trans whether you like it or not. I don't see this kind of pressure be put on men, it's just women getting the short end of the stick AGAIN

I'm so done with woke culture. I'm waiting for the next step to be woke about woke culture so the wokes gets called out by the ultra-wokes about how damaging they actually are and take each other out.

No. 756106

I deserve to be yelled at
I deserve to be called stupid
I deserve to be called crazy
I deserve to be called overly sensitive
I fuck up everything I deserve to die

No. 756111

>>756106
>I deserve to die
I don't, but I'm still gonna

No. 756115

i love it when a woman does some typical male thing and does it better. its sexy more pls

No. 756121

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I'm a fujo; I get annoyed by men in fujospaces. They're even worse then they're "men" (FtMs) and you can't do shit without sitting down and listening to them rattle off a list of nonsense rules for you to follow so you aren't fetishizing and objectifying homos or whatever.

I wish they'd realize we're all thinking of cute anime boys and not their fugly asses.

No. 756137

The covid vaccine (the J&J one shot) fucked me up anons. I feel like a train hit me. I still have to work with a pounding headache, full body aches and I cannot get warm. KMP.

No. 756138

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Cheating of my ex has ruined me, I've found out he cheated pretty much every time when he went out with his friends for the evening without me present; I'm dating a different person for 3 years now, he's always been patient and 100% transparent so I have no reason to be worried but it still eats away at me. Today he met up with his colleagues to watch some sport event, I thought I'm ok with that but I've just woke up from a nightmare of him cheating on me so realistic I'm about to vomit from the stress of it. I hate not being able to live normally, I'm seeing a therapist but it's still far from dealt with.

No. 756139

entitled vent incoming
I know im incredibly lucky that covid didnt fuck with my life, and that my husband and i didnt lose our jobs. I dont have to worry about money like so many of my friends.
but its really frustrating i dont have any friends i can relate to now because of it.
Everyone is either struggling or if theyre not struggling theyre single so i have to tip toe around them about what i say.
I just want to casually chat about things we did before like hoping to travel or trying new trendy cafes without them feeling like im attacking them.
My area been on lock down the past three months so the only real place to spend money has been at the grocery store, which means i have a quite a bit of disposable income.
If i try to even strike up conversations about wanting new clothes, as i recently changed work and no longer wear a uniform. im met with their money problems.

Cant make new friends because things havent reopened yet to get out and meet people in public and just staying outside is a bit weird and way to cold.
I can't even vent that my new job actually pays slightly less than my old one and i didnt notice before. It dont regret it because now i work a 9-5 office job vs food service with varying hours which kept me exhaused all the time with horrible management and working conditions.
I still like my friends nad i know theyre all just struggling right now. I just wish the US would handle their shit better and that covid will stop ruining their lives.

No. 756142

>>755966
everything increases the risk of cancer.

No. 756144

>>756138
I'm sorry anon, people who cheat deserve to die alone or at least be hit by a truck.

Hope therapy will help, sending you some good vibes

No. 756145

>>756144
Thank you, and totally

No. 756152

>>756101
So after Superstraights we get Superwokes? I'd be down

No. 756157

>>756139
I feel this/am kinda in the same boat, anon. It does suck, wish we could hang for now kek.

No. 756161

>>756121
At first I was like "there are men in fujo spaces?" but then read the rest of your post to realize you were referring to the self-hating women attempting to larp as gay men and validate their self-declared identity by attacking other women.

>>756101
I was almost tricked into trooning out by all of this "Are you SURE you're not trans?? you like masculine fashion!!" crap but peaked just in time. It's a cult and they're recruiting, so many of my female friends who were struggling with their sexuality to accept being gay were sidetracked by the "nonbinary to transman" pipeline.

No. 756197

My insurance made "fee adjustments" to the therapy sessions I've already had so now instead of my $40 copay I was told it would be, they tacked on $85 on top of that. I paid less for therapy when I didn't even have insurance ffs. So I suddenly had $300 withdrawn from my account that I wasn't expecting and since it's Sunday I can't call anyone to figure this shit out. I hate living in America sometimes, it seems like I'm drowning in medical debt and it's not like I can stop being ill. I was going to go grocery shopping for the week today but now I can't even do that since this bill nearly wiped me out.

No. 756215

>>756121
**when they're, not then they're.
also sauce to the pic is best friends, no clue if anyone cares.

>>756161
i think there are cis guys too. i don't grieve them for wanting to see gay relationships, power to them, it's just a minor annoyance to have them in circles where i anticipate 100% women (i'm like an unironic misandrist in private).

No. 756216

>>756215
**best friends on mangadex. abo yuri manga. christ

No. 756227

i hate that my dad constantly makes me feel like a disappointment. every time i interact with him i can just feel that he wishes that i was different (more outgoing, attractive etc) i can't wait until i can cut him off and never speak to him again.

No. 756229

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What would you guys do if someone came over to your house to get their laundry but they put your clothes all over the floor? This person is a relative btw and you hate each other but they keep doing stupid subtle shit to piss you off even though youre not on talking terms. They threatened you (theyre a guy) to attack you if you keep messaging them in the past so you generally left them alone but this set it off. anyways, since we dont speak the same language and he left the house should I message this headass to tell him off about putting my clothes on the floor or just leave him alone? I really dont know if I should ignore this disrespectful scrote completely or stand up for myself even if that means possibly causing more drama

No. 756231

>>756229
Do you live alone or is this someone else that lives there that allowed him in? If there's another person, then I would try to ask them to talk to the guy. Don't talk to him directly cause he sounds a little dangerous

No. 756249

>>756229
I'd report it to the police if you have the thread black on white.

No. 756251

>>756249
>if you have the thread black on white.
What does that even mean

No. 756262

My friend and I talked about my inability to flirt and she, after pondering for a bit, pointed out that it might be because I don't do vain small talk and actually make attempts at learning to know them, which a lot might find unattractive because they're after a quick lay. Idk how any guys would know that before I even open my mouth, since they tend to roll their eyes or cluck their tongue before I even finish my first couple of sentences or question. Maybe I just give out those aspie vibes, I tend to be pretty normal so a lot of people can't tell (from what I've learned from others they get really surprised when they hear either from me or someone else that I have a aspie diagnosis) but I guess I still haven't figured out that part.

Not like I want any stranger's attention, I can be physically attracted to you but I grow bored immediately if we don't have anything in common, and if I'm gonna be sexualized I'd prefer it's because you find my personality sexy and not <only> because you find me attractive on the outside.

No. 756271

>>756251
The threat in written form or whatever rather than verbally. Something to proof he threatened her.

No. 756272

>>756231
Yeah, theres another person who keeps letting him in even though we all have strained relationships with him. This other person already yelled at him for doing this so I guess ill let it go but I fear I will just have to explode at that guy one day

No. 756273

>>756249
more like white on black haha

No. 756294


No. 756359

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Found an old photo album (my siblings and I got one each that, while also having a lot of family photos as well, mainly featured us) and reading the comments mom had written on the comments back when I was just a baby made me extremely emotional. Those excited comments on the photos making up narrative on what might be going on our heads or reciting quotes or situations of what was going on when the pictures were taken. All of them written with mom's old quirks and wits from before she had her breakdown from all the stress that came from being a single mother of 3 kids with different troubles of their own, pressure to make at least a little bit of a career, and on top of it getting raped twice.

She hasn't been the same mom since then. She is a lot better now but she was heavily unstable for more than 10 years and sadly took it out on me as the youngest one since my siblings had moved out. I hate the pressure that women have to be successful while still dealing with the home life and kids on her own, I hate it when idiots claim rape doesn't ruin families, I hate it. I love my mom as she is now and proud of how far she has come with her recovery, I still loved her during the abuse because I knew she was suffering, but I still miss who she used to be.

No. 756365

>>756161
happened to my sister, she came out as lesbian in late highschool, went to a women's college…and while there followed her group of "queer" friends down the nb->ftm hole. She was only ever even vaguely gnc really, no more so than the average woman who like, sometimes wears a baseball cap. And much less of an "actual tomboy" than some of my friends. She was always coming home begging for stuff like polly pocket, littlest pet shop, etc in elementary school, stuff my parents found disturbingly pinkwashed/gendernormative but obliged in to be nice. We had that horrible barbie rapunzel movie on vhs and she basically tried to watch it literally every night until my parents said it got lost and hid it (for being terrible brain rot more than anything else). Nothing wrong with her interests obviously, but "I've always been a man inside" I think not.

the killer thing is that our mom is & has always been ironclad og 70s feminist straight butch (she wore a suit to her straight wedding, only "feminine" thing I've ever seen her wear is kooky halloween earrings & willie nelson braids when her hair is long, my dad complains the only thing he can get her as a gift is more plaid shirts). My sister has never been even close to as "gnc" as my mom is on a daily basis (also people usually assume my mom is a man on the phone and frequently irl due to her voice/manner). This has literally never bothered my mom in the slightest, if anything i feel like she likes to be the "least feminine" woman in any situation as an example to other women that they dont need to dress up/do shit for men. My mom has refused to call my sister he or by her new male name and whenever she tried to "come out" my mom would just be like "ok but…why cant a woman have those feelings/do those things as a woman?" and she had to start angrily silent treatmenting my mom as a "protest" to cope, because theres no answer to that question…

The reason my sister felt "socially alternative" was never being gnc, but rather that she was/is just kinda uncool, geeky, and judgmental, which is all fine (and true of myself as well) but I feel like people dont accept "geeky and weird girl" as an identity anymore, they go trans as a sort of "nuh-uh I'm not uncool, and me & my friends aren't geeks, we're actually Queer and so much cooler than all you normies." Its a much more convenient self-explanatuon for why you weren't friends with cool normal people than "I'm weird and my friends are the other weird people." Instead they get to call themselves "The LGBTQ Community". This often goes hand in hand with trying to recreate normie experiences they feel like they missed out on (for mtf troons the nasty sleepovers obviously, and for ftm it's like "we're crazy boys, we're gonna do vodka shots, play beer pong and rip dabs"). Hilarious when she used to be a judgmental teetotaler and rant about people in her HS/college classes drinking/smoking weed.

I've personally seen a ton of geek/nerdy spaces get taken over by troons, and since they need to aggressively extract asspats from everyone in any space they enter, everyone who doesnt want to deal with constant discordtroon nastytalk on a daily basis gradually stops coming. And then geeky/nerdy spaces are just filled with nasty troons to any outside observer, so no one else wants to call themselves geeky/nerdy because people will think you're a troon, and also the troons will see it as a bat signal to come seek asspats.

This of course pales in importance compared to troonsanity making the rest of the LGB community look like crazy people by association. This Super stuff is a godsend, might remake my tinder now that I can accurately describe myself as superbi. Didn't even used to be but went on 3 dates with trans people, one mtf was classic deranged agp, both ftms were classic boring aydens. Not gonna waste my time again. They're literally all the same type of person.

No. 756423

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Almost got my phone pickpocketed today, I was looking at books outide a shop and I could hear my music. But suddently I feel that a guy is way to close, I had to take the phone out of his hands. I'm way more angry at myself that I'm at the guy. I feel so dumb right now, I would have been in so much shit if he took it.

No. 756438

Quitting social media has made me feel like shit. I don't have any good reasons to hate it, I want to participate, I just have unreal levels of soical anxiety

No. 756439

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Me watching other people’s art get more attention than my awful unfinished shit, this is so childish to be mad about but who would even like my art anyways, it doesn’t even catch anyone’s attention at all. why am I so bad and awful and why do people manage to get more love and attention I literally do the same thing they do, can’t people just appreciate my caveman doodles? fuck this gay earth

No. 756441

>>756438
social*

No. 756442

>>756439
Lmao finish your stuff anon

No. 756445

Reading some of the threads in /snow/ gives me whiplash.

No. 756450

>>756438
I deleted all my social media in like 2013 and feel the same way. I feel like I want to be involved but whenever I start again it just gives me such extreme levels of social anxiety.

No. 756451

I'm not like """aromantic""" but what the majority of people seem to consider a desirable and healthy relationship is not desirable or healthy to me for whatever reason and I do not feel like I would ever want or be able to be in a romantic relationship in the way they are for most people.

No. 756455

>>756451
That's fair. I considered myself aromantic at one point for the same reason. The conventional idea of a romantic relationship just didn't seem like it'd be in the cards for me because the thought of being "lovey dovey" got on my nerves and I like keeping people at a distance. My relationship now is still unconventional in a lot of ways, but we make it work because my boyfriend understands that I have boundaries. If you ever find yourself open to a romantic relationship in the future, always make sure it fits your parameters, not the popular opinion.

No. 756456

>>756451
What kind of romantic relationship would you find ideal anon?

No. 756459

>>756450
>>756438
i relate, anons. i feel like such a worse version of myself when i spend too much time on social media and when i take breaks i feel much better. it's kinda hard in the sense that i want to stay connected to certain people, but at the same time i easily get sucked in with certain habits or mindsets. it happens to me too when i browse nd post on lolcow too often (like rn, mods are probably a post away from banning me for my own good), i become… darker? i guess? too prone to saying explosionary, mean-spirited shit bc i know this is the only place i can say some of the things i'm really thinking.

i probably just need another long, big break from the few sm i still use and need to focus on myself and the things i like to do outside the internet, or i need to start using social media more positively (talking about the things i like an find comfort in, rather than ranting or hatewatching).

>>756365
anon, your mother sounds cool as hell and i wanna be her. also i love the barbie rapunzel movie what's wrong with it (if i could put a sad face emoji here i would)

No. 756461

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I'm so jealous of my friends and acquaintances who are able to get their college/car/apartment/etc funded by their parents, the fact that my mom is moving away this year for her boyfie and my dad doesn't want to take me in and having to start everything by myself scares the shit out of me. Driving anxiety is a bitch and I'm trying to get my first job.. when I was younger I applied for a ton but never got accepted so I hope I'm not much as a failure like I was when I was like 16. It's disgusting though how my friends and even some scrotes I talk to are like, "durrr just do onlyfans it's easy money it'll be so fun duhhh," it makes me so fucking angry. Oh yeah! Let me just ruin my entire life for 84 cents a month, that would be AMAZING!! I think I would literally rather die on the streets than objectify myself for nothing all because I'm old enough to do porn and it's normalized. Eugh.

One of my friends is going through a very similar situation at the moment so it's good not to be alone, hopefully we can find some place together. Some of my friends are planning on staying with their parents for a longer time and maybe I can convince them to let me rent a room or something? I don't know, I'm just so stressed right now. also the fact that one of my friends worst problems right now is finding a relationship and getting a weed card.. god i wish that was me.

No. 756465

A huge loud family moved in across the street from mine, can't go on walks at night anymore because their dog flips out and their kids constantly play all over the streets and sidewalks and have not been taught basic vehicle safety so I have to back out of the driveway extremely fucking carefully when I need to go to work. I'm not saying they can't play outside but there's a sizeable portion of street that isn't right in front of our driveway smh…

No. 756469

>>756439
How have you tried to promote your account? Engagement and tags are important

No. 756488

>>756459
theres nothing really wrong with barbie rapunzel lol but kids just get obsessed with a movie sometimes and will watch it literally every day if you let them, so you have to intervene a little…for me it was dumbo which is to be clear awful.

No. 756518

I should have let their food burn in the oven, it's what they deserve for leaving it in their when no one else was at the house

No. 756576

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I'm pretty sure a friend of mine hasn't introduced me to his friend group because I'm borderline socially retarded.
Tragic to realize. I met one for five minutes and it must have gone over horribly because it hasn't happened since. He even made an effort to avoid letting me interact with one of them that we ran into when we were hanging out last fall.

Way back last summer he said "it isn't u it's them because they r wild and it is embarrassing to me" but I'm sure it's the other way around. Fuck this existence.

It isn't even that I want friends (currently ghosting 4 people for no reason so I'm not without options, just avoidant), but my ego is wounded. I don't even fucking talk to him much anymore…but he should have offered.

I may also be assblasted partially because two of his friends are qt and I know one of those women is gay. It's mostly the ego…but definitely this, too.

No. 756577

I've given up on the whole therapy thing for a while but its starting to look pretty enticing ngl
I don't wanna talk about my problems or resolve anything I just want to know why my mom thinks I'm such a cruel and evil person when she raised me which I know the answer to but it'll be nice having a professional remind me once a week

No. 756596

We got a letter from the fucking building LAWYER threatening legal action against my family and my dad is saying he's going to ignore it. We've already decided on hiring our own exterminator because the one the building hired is useless. The end of the lawyer's letter says "Please give us the contact information of the exterminator you want to use" so that the board can review whether they think they will do a good job or not. My dad REFUSES. He literally says "YOU DON'T GET IT! They will make me pay for the treatment and then say it's not up to their standards." I told him "We give the lawyer the information they want, ask that we get a written statement from the board stating their approval, and then we move on with it" and he just keeps saying "you don't get it, you don't get it."

NO YOU DONT GET IT!!! I would rather pay $1000 for the treatment than THOUSANDS to hire a fucking lawyer to fight this. Regardless of whether the board has a grudge against you or not, we're in this now because you didn't want to report the first bedbugs OVER A YEAR AGO! You kept saying that it's fine. No it's NOT FINE!! I'm so fucking stressed. All my nightmares of being kicked out and my family going homeless keep coming closer and closer to reality, first because of covid and now this. Anons I'm so stressed. I want to comply with the lawyer, I'm okay with paying for the exterminator, but my dad INSISTS on ignoring the lawyer. He wants to fight it and says he'll hire his own lawyer meanwhile he's thousands of dollars in debt already but still spends money freely. My mom is stressed financially. I'm debt free but I still feel the stress too. I don't know what to do anons.

No. 756600

>>756596
I haven't cut myself in two years but I'm so overwhelmed with anxiety because my dad is a fucking retard. I feel like I can barely turn to any of my friends because I'm so ashamed of having fucking bedbugs and thank god I've barely seen anyone otherwise I know they would (rightfully) treat me like I'm diseased because they don't want to get bedbugs from me (which is reasonable).

No. 756614

>>756600
Anon that sucks so bad, your dad is acting stupid as fuck. Can you convince your mom to override him at all? I understand you feel gross about it but keep in mind that even rich and tidy people get bedbugs. They're not a symptom of being dirty, just really unlucky. I hope you can get it resolved soon, plz no cut.

No. 756621

>>756614
samefagging to also point out that you're not going to spread bedbugs to other places if you take basic precautions. Can you keep your clothes, shoes, and purses in sealed plastic tubs or bags? They don't ride around on your skin like a flea or tick, they want to hide in little crevices and wait until something is laying down nearby. People usually spread bedbugs via luggage that sat around on a hotel carpet for days. You're not diseased, seriously.

No. 756624

>>756614
Thank you anon. I only made a few shallow cuts and it feels like the only thing to bring me down from being so high strung. Unfortunately my mom can't convince him to do anything, because he'll just scream the same things at her. I don't think she really understands the gravity of the situation either, since she only hears his side of the story and I'm trying my best to be critical of both sides.

I can't contact the lawyer myself because he will inevitably find out and then he'll scream at me for going behind his back and ~*~*foiling his plans*~*~. I texted my aunt (his older sister) because I feel like she's the only person I can talk to about this and who will not back down from telling him he's being stupid. My uncle used to also be on the board years ago. I also feel bad that I was going over to my aunt's apartment when she would tell me to come over for food while knowing I had bedbugs (I did my best to shake them off any potential clothes before going over) but when I went over to pick something up, we just chatted at the door, both knowing I could potentially spread bedbugs to her. I don't think she's gotten any from me thankfully.

I feel so trapped. I don't think my dad is a bad person, but his positive and negative qualities really sit at the far end of each spectrum. I think he has valid complaints about the board going after our family and our family specifically (we are not the only ones in the building with this issue but we are the only ones having the lawyer sicced on us) but maybe I'm just a pushover bitch but I would much rather just comply. I spoke with many exterminators, found one I really like and trust, and even have my own complaints with how the board and their exterminator handled things, but I don't think ignoring a lawyer's letter will do any of us good.

No. 756640

WHY AM BORN INVERTED TRIANGLE, IT HURTS SO MUCH. I NORMALLY LOVE MYSELF OR AT LEAST TOLERATE IT BUT NOW IM FUCKING YELLING INTO THE VOID ABOUT MY SHAPE.

No. 756645

My mom nags me 24/7 about the same things. I'm so tired of listening to her. She randomly comes at me just to nag me at least 4x per day. It's so unbearable and she can take like 30 mins of just nagging and bothering and screaming. This feels like verbal abuse at times.

No. 756672

>>756596
I'm sorry I don't know where else to vent anymore. I feel like a burden even after talking to my best friend and my aunt. Hearing from my aunt that my cousin, the one I grew up with and the closest person to a sister that I will ever have, hates my dad (for valid reasons) and doesn't want my aunt ever inviting him over for it. It makes me wonder if she hates me, by extension. I feel so hopeless. My aunt feels like she can't even speak to him because she can't get through to him either. What else can I do when the eldest, the most respected one in his family can't get through to him?

It's been years since I've felt like this. I'm sitting underneath my loft bed, there's an area I'm small enough to crawl into. I want to take a tie and tie it to the wood above and hang myself. I feel like there's no way out, I feel like the odds are stacked against me. I feel like as much as I try to live a life worth living, as much as I try to love myself and live unapologetically, I feel like I'm unworthy in the end. If I'm not being fucked over for being young and stupid and messing with men, I'm fucked over like this. I'm fucked over with the prospect of my family having to go to court and being saddled with even more debt, whether we win or lose.

My aunt says to get the exterminator in, to jump start the process of getting the paperwork in order, but at the same time I fear my dad finding out and screaming at me. I hate it when he gets mad about something and then I just have to live with the silent treatment for months on end. I feel like it just fuels my self hatred and all intrusive thoughts that I worked for years to get over and silence. I don't know what to do anymore. Even thinking about hanging myself, all I can think about is "How are my parents supposed to cover the funeral fees? Do I have enough in my accounts to cover my own funeral?"

I don't want to die anons, but I feel so hopeless. I don't know why I try anymore. I love my parents so, so much, but I hate that they don't seem to love me enough to listen to me.

No. 756677

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>>756640
So is Madonna's daughter and she is still super hot. I hope you can focus on the features you love the most anon

No. 756683

>>756677
Her septum piercing looks like a huge booger.
I fucking love the cami though. It's the perfect low-key sexy/causal look for a hot summer day.

No. 756690

>>756672
I am sorry for my meltdown and continuous posting. I called the national suicide hotline and now I feel better but my head hurts a little from crying for so long. I'm going to go to bed. Goodnight anons, thank you for reading my dumb posts.

No. 756695

>>756690
that's what the vent thread is about, you're okay for posting. I'm glad you're feeling better and good on you for using resources for help.
I'm sorry you're going through all that, I can't imagine how difficult it is. Please keep yourself as safe as possible and while I have to tell this to myself a lot too, just keep going, no matter what difficulties you're facing. Do things every day you like to do or are good for you. I'm on the sleep meds so idk if this is legible but I just really feel for you anon. goodnight!

No. 756706

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>be me
>come home from nice short outing with female family
>lays on bed feeling relaxed
>being a retard goes on social media
>sees pretty people
>my decaying 18 y.o old face looking 40 years older due to stress and depression
>female
>2021
>being a female in 2021

I should be killed lol

No. 756708

I couldn't sleep so I ended up on some random YouTube vids about sigma/alpha males and dating advice… Which just triggered a bunch of memories of an ex treating me like absolute shit for no discernable reason. I'm now wondering if he actually planned it out that way. Guess I'm just not sleeping tonight lol

Lots of guys taking delight in using and upsetting gfs.. Why do I even look at this stuff? I'm happy to remain single indefinitely. I've no reason to even be looking at the shit men say in their weirdly hateful hugboxes

No. 756710

>>756706
I thought this was you in the pic for a sec and was about to lecture you on posting your face on here lmao

No. 756714

>>756710
No u absolute baka

No. 756728

I gained so much weight in the past year that none of my clothes even fit me properly anymore and I feel disgusting and hate going out in public at all any more. I didn't even realize for a while because I rarely can even leave the house anymore and don't have to put on tight clothes for work/going out because I'm wfh. I have been trying to work out and eat healthy but I honestly don't have the will to. My office is going back from wfh soon and I'm dreading it because everyone will see me like this

No. 756730

I understand it all. I understand how I fucked up our relationship and I just wish I could apologize but we mutually blocked each other. I don't actually want to reconcile, I think. it's just that I feel genuinely sorry for putting them through what I did. but then again, they were a piece of shit. I have such conflicting feelings but that's just how they wanted it. fucking juvenile bitch

No. 756732

Fuck you, trying to make me feel guilty for not getting my hamster through a breeder. There aren't even any hamster breeders in my state, bitch, and the only one at my local shelter is over two years old, I don't want an ELDERLY HAMSTER I want a CUTE BABY and I'm going to BUY ONE FROM A PET STORE

No. 756736

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Afraid I'm bordering on abusive with my boyfriend. Is this PTSD from my abusive ex? Possibly. Do I need to let out my physical aggression in some other way… absolutely. I'm just afraid that if I do kickboxing or something I might actually feel more inclined to kick his head off or something lol.

I don't punch or do anything with him. I just pinched his cheek earlier, in partial jokey way, but then I kept doing it harder as I got mad at him. And he said "Ow that actually hurt!" and I said "Yeah I actually meant it". What's wrong with me… I need to calm down.

No. 756737

>>756736
Maybe you should uh…take a break. I know you said you don't punch or hit him, but that could spiral into more if you don't find a better way of dealing with that anger

No. 756741

>>756737
Yeah, you're right. I think I'll try and deal with the stress I'm going through now before it gets more physical. We live together so it might be hard not to take it out on him.

No. 756742

Pretty sure I'm getting rejected by the younger guy I was kinda pursuing. Kinda sad about it, I wanted to explore it.
Meh, I think I'll just hide him and not deal with it. Why did I even bother? This is way too much energy expanded for so little return.
That's what you get for robbing the craddle, I guess.

No. 756750

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My fucking head hurts from crying. I've been chugging water trying to deal with it, but It's not helping at all. I'm so tired of myself.

No. 756765

>>756736
>I don't punch or do anything with him. I just pinched his cheek earlier, in partial jokey way, but then I kept doing it harder as I got mad at him.

With all due respect anon the image you painted here sent my sides to outer space, idk why. I empathize with you though. Try not to lose sight of the fact that any destructive behaviours you might have internalized from past relationships can be unlearned. Reach out for help in anyway you can. You're capable of developing better coping mechanisms, it's a constant work in progress but it will pay off in the long run.

No. 756773

>>756750
I had one yesterday so I held a coke can out the fridge on it and it helped

No. 756822

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This is very stupid feeling, but I kinda have to write it down somewhere and this site is the only place I feel comfortable sharing my stupidity.

I'm so tired of trying to be part of a community.

There was a point of my life where I wanted to be someone known in a community. I do art, so I wanted to be a cartoonist, create an animation on Adult Swim or something, share all my stories with people and create a lot of original things. Maybe opening a few social media accounts and interacting with people, making friends and other things. But as time went on, I began to hate the animation industry, I hate how they treat their workers, I hate how many succesful people had come out as awful and I hate how much they try to appeal to people who just won't appreciate anything.

So, I decided to become a comic artist and self-publish my things, maybe going to Youtube and be part of that community, and just talking about different things I'd like to share, I even decided to spend more time with English speakers to make my ESL-ness not so evident in the future; but then I began to hate that too. I'm so tired of dramas, I'm so tired about Muh Art Style theft, and I'm so tired about the Holier than you act that many people in the animation/art community have shown. I even tried to avoid the Art salt thread for a while for this, but they never stopped.

My last effort ended when I actually managed to make a small group of friends, but it all ended when one of the few people I gave enough trust to become my friend regressed into a Twitter kid and began to avoid me, and so did the others. I knew that despite my efforts to be with them, they still trash-talked me. Only one person stayed with me, he got trash-talked worse than me, and he suffered a lot too, so I guess I stopped caring about everything. He was the only person who still cared about me despite how badly eveyone was treating him and that was my breaking point, and I just stopped interacting with any other non-niche community altogether, I stayed with him when he needed it, and to this day, he matters to me a lot.

Today, I think I'm done with trying to be part of something. I now pretend to make my comic on my native language and don't have much of a presence. My friend still gives me hope about becoming a cartoonist or an animator, but I just don't feel any sort of excitement about sharing my personal passion proyects just to be cancelled by a bunch of kids on Twitter.

It may sound like a humblebragging, but I didn't even wanted fame or money, I just wanted friends and sharing with people, I used to make scenarios on my head about meeting the people I used to look up to, but I just don't feel any sort of excitement anymore.

I'm sorry if this is stupid, but seeing anons using completely seriously as an insult "FrEaKs" in the art salt thread made me think a lot. I still love this site, so that's why I feel somewhat okay with posting my apathy ramblings, but I just feel somewhat empty, that's all.

No. 756828

>>756822
Oh girl. I understand you, let me try to give you some advice.

If you're doing things to be a part of a community, you already failed.
Do things because you want to have fun with them.

> I'm so tired of dramas, I'm so tired about Muh Art Style theft, and I'm so tired about the Holier than you act that many people in the animation/art community have shown. I even tried to avoid the Art salt thread for a while for this, but they never stopped.

I understand this. You should avoid these things while maintaining a profile online. It's easy, but you have to know how. Keep things pro and away from these people.

>I knew that despite my efforts to be with them, they still trash-talked me. Only one person stayed with me, he got trash-talked worse than me, and he suffered a lot too

Bzzz, first error: don't make artist friends, make connections. Professional connections. There's a difference. Stop sharing your life with these retards.

>I now pretend to make my comic on my native language

You don't have to, translating it to english is the best idea. English is more convenient.

>I just don't feel any sort of excitement about sharing my personal passion proyects just to be cancelled by a bunch of kids on Twitter.

Then don't share it among those twitter retards. Maintain a high profile. You don't have to stop making your passion projects if they make you happy.

>My friend still gives me hope about becoming a cartoonist or an animator

And you still 100% can

>but seeing anons using completely seriously as an insult "FrEaKs" in the art salt thread made me think a lot.

Ah, so you're a freaky artist that feels paranoid of lolcow too? welcome to the club.

No. 756832

>>756828
God bless your heart of gold, anon-chan. I actually was pretty scared of posting this.

Thank you a lot for the advice! ♥

No. 756834

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>>756822
I’m sorry, anon, I hope you get to find some good friends.
Artist friends are even more rare nowadays than regular friends because there’s always jealousy, specially online with so many retards that are not getting bullied enough at school to get some fucking self-awareness.
Don’t mind those low-lives, you deserve to enjoy receiving feedback and being able to publish your art.

No. 756856

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just got my covid test. turns out it was positive. what a devastating feeling when you've tried your best to stay home and avoid any social meetings, then you get the virus as the virus cases are rising up. i think it might be uk variant cuz it's spreading like hellfire where i live.

at the moment i feel fine(runny nose and sneezing)and praying that my mental health wouldn't be collapsing from all this anxiety and fear of ending up in hospital if symptoms get worse. but gotta stay positive.

No. 756859

>>756856
>but gotta stay positive
I'm sorry anon but was this intentional?

No. 756869

Fuck you Punnett squares!!!

No. 756872

I've started amassing a small following on social media and with every new follower I gain, I feel more and more terrified that someone is going to find out that I'm a terf and start a witch hunt against me. My fragile mental health wouldn't be able to take it. Maybe I should delete all of my accounts, kek.

No. 756873

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I think I'm too retarded to code in any language.

Like I'm trying to make a simple browser dice game and keep failing or wasting hours on basic shit that should take a minute. Maybe I'm just not practicing enough idk.

I just want a job that won't make me want to kill myself, that's kind of interesting and that I can live off of without having to be scarsd of missing a bill. Fuuuuuck

No. 756889

My fucking parents increased my rent again and added another bill on top of those that I already pay. Honestly, I'm looking to move out at this point because other places look cheaper while I'm in an expensive area. God, why couldn't covid just take them.

No. 756896

I’m pretty sure i developed an eating disorder over the last few months trying to cope with covid fucking up everyone’s lives… i’ve got a psych appointment this week to talk about this and i’m freaking out

No. 756909

>>756872
Same boat, anon. I've been on edge all day because of the #superstraight stuff. Just remind yourself that no matter how high that follower count gets, not one of them observes you nearly as closely as you think. You'll be fine as long you don't say anything obvious outright. Also, I love to revel in the fact that these he/theys following me don't know they're ~supporting a transphobe kek

No. 756917

I'm a couple of years out of a really messed up relationship. The more time passes the more my eyes are opened to just how bad it was. There were warning signs in the beginning, his ex was obsessively texting him some nights and he showed me her sad drunken rage texts like it was all just proof she was crazy…but she was accusing him of fucking with her head. I should've payed more attention when he shared that shit with me and he laughed at it. If I had less self control I would currently be raging at him in texts too. I get flashback memories and want to scream at him. I refuse to have his current girl shown my abuse for laughs though. I see that's his pattern now.

I wish that growing up my parents had thought to have some sort of relationship based conversations with me. I've learnt things the hard way but I think about the dodgy sexual stuff I got mixed up in when I was younger and then that emotionally abusive relationship..who has a daughter and doesn't cover this stuff?? I had lots of lectures telling ME to treat people right but no talk about holding standards for myself in return. No warning of what men can be like or things to look out for.

No. 756926

>>756695
Hi anon, thank you for your reply, I saw it before I went to bed and it really made me feel better. I helped my dad send out the email to the lawyers last night and hopefully they approve of the exterminators I want to use soon and this nightmare can be over with. I'm gonna watch fun videos at work and take things easy today. Thank you again anon! I wish I could hug you.

No. 756967

I fucking hate UPS. I was supposed to get a heavy painting home delivered by them 4 weeks ago, but they never showed up or even called. Didn't even see nor hear the truck.
I have slight rheumatism and don't have a car, and no one I knew really had time or were healthy enough at the time to help me so I had to go pick it up myself.
I admit I overestimated how much I would be able to handle trying to drag such a heavy package the usually 15 minute walk home in the snow, but I've been in pain ever since. I'm currently doing some exercises every morning and night, while it's doing some difference it still hurts, especially in my heel tendons.

No. 756979

>>756889
lmao, dark

No. 757018

My bf wound up agreeing with me but I'm glad I stood my ground on an issue.
We were talking in the car. We tend to have many talks about the values we'd want to teach our theoretical children. The topic came up about if we had a daughter and how we'd react if she was a sexually active teen.

Well I, for one, wouldn't condone it but I'm also not naive. I'd rather model what a healthy relationship is, and hope there are no deficits in how much love she feels, so that she isn't intentionally trying to chase down love from horny male teens in the form of sexual favors. However, I told him, we shouldn't shame or guilt her like our parents did and make sure she feels like she has parents to come to for support and guidance. Repressing teens is how we get teen moms and stds.

Anyway bf was taken aback. For someone reason he wanted to discourage her from sex until 18 (lmao because this is a magic number, after all). And furthermore he was somewhat shook when I told him I had sex with my high school boyfriends. I told him I would have avoided a lot of trouble back then if my (divorced and constantly feuding) parents could have been assed to model healthy relationship behaviors, not be hypocrites, allow me to talk to them without religious stigma, have educated me about reproductive choices, and have just loved me so I wouldn't seek it out from boys in vain.
Bf agreed with me after I spelled it out. I asked him if he had sex before 18 and he said no, which I actually believe, although he wanted to. We both grew up in strict Catholic homes and we are non-religious adults. He's big into wanting "evidence" to believe things, so I'm really proud that I drove those points home. I really wish people would stop purity shaming girls.

No. 757039

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More often than not my boyfriend only speak to me when I'm the one starting the conversation. I've confronted him about it but he just gets mad at the "accusations". It's tiring sometimes

No. 757041

>>757039
This is why I'm against pursuing men, lmao. If you're always the one to initiate, they'll go along with it even if they don't particularly like you or care for you because they just enjoy female attention.

No. 757047

>>757039
duuuump him
he should willingly start the conversations, otherwise he just wants your pussy.

No. 757052

I'm so frustrated trying to figure out what to do for school to get a better job, I grew up in a middle of nowhere town with parents that never went to college and have worked at the same jobs for 30+ years. Just looking at the state college's site and all the different degrees/certificates is making me feel overwhelmed because I have no idea what I want to do.

No. 757056

>>757052
try a career aptitude test

No. 757057

>>757052
Well anon, tell me, what do you like?
What are your hobbies?
What are you good at?
What values do you prioritize?

I can help you out I guess

No. 757075

>>757052
Made a thread for you and anyone with this problem
>>>/ot/757074

No. 757080

A 'woman' I was talking to and getting very emotionally attached with is actually a MTF scrote that was pretending to be a TERF bio woman. I actually feel fucking sick and I hate scrotes with every inch of my body

No. 757095

Dear Lord, give me the strength to not jump my best friends boyfriend the moment I see him next time, I swear with every new story I hear about him my wish for them to break up grows. And please give her the strength to not troon out even though the circles she's running in are pushing her into it. Amen.

No. 757097

>>757080
Why the fuck did he do that, do his delusions run that deep or is was he doing it on purpose? I’m sorry anon fuck trannies

No. 757106

I miss cutting myself but I would never do it again. I used to like the rush it gave me. When I had visible cuts it made everyone around me sad, I don't want to make anyone feel that way again, especially my bf.

No. 757110

I'm so sick of British people saying Americans aren't allowed to have negative opinions on the monarchy and say it should be abolished.

One of them raped one of our citizens in our country and his status as a member of the royal family protected him from even getting investigated. He wasn't even a member anyone gave a shit about, but he still got away with child rape because he came out of Lizzie's vag. They protect the CHILD RAPIST, yet they investigate Meghan Markle for BULLYING STAFF???

Regardless one's opinion on whether or not to abolish the monarchy, or MM/Harry vs. The Royal Family, you have to admit that it's stupid to say Americans should keep our mouths shut as if this doesn't impact us at all.

No. 757117

>>757097
IDFK, He came to me pretending he was a woman with gender dysphoria that wanted to transition to male, telling me ''she had a long time battle with gender issues and still had gender dysphoria but wanted to celebrate what others told her were her masculine features''
The terfy act was really on point considering this story, those women who were pushed into transition because of masculine features are the ones who peak instantly. But while I'm still into radfem this dude seemed overly fixated in it. I can't make sense out of this at all, must be severe mental illness on top of any fetish he has. I blocked him out of all my social media the moment I learned about this.

No. 757142

>>756967
ups are a bag of dicks. They would misdeliver or fail to deliver about 1 in 4 packages to my building. Small packages, single articles of clothing. The last straw was having to spend multiple hours on the phone on several consecutive days to get them to admit they'd misdelivered a package - they kept saying the driver was getting the package back, but eventually admitted that that hadnt happened due to "driver noncompliance", ie their guy wouldnt do his fucking job and I had to waste hours on the phone to get them to admit it before they'd pay out insurance. Had to get a PO box just so the local UPS goons would deliver shit to one place reliably. They have a contractor system of some kind where the individual truck drivers own their trucks & routes in some way (not sure exactly) so if your local UPS guy/subcontractor is just shitty, you're kinda stuck with him unless he causes enough losses for ups that they do something (not likely). In your case his laziness didn't even lose them money so unless you write a complaint or some shit, he's off scot-free. You might have been able to harangue your local ups branch into redelivering it while you were waiting, but no guarantee they'd have actually done it…Ridiculous that they act like "delivery" includes "maybe you come pick it up if we dont feel like doing it" like that's at all reasonable.

Aside, but I saw some thing a while ago about how because the brown UPS socks they make contractors buy are so shitty and wear out so fast, a lot of contractors cut the logo cuffs off the socks and wear them like ankle bracelets over other better socks. I cant stop thinking about this every time I see a ups man now.

No. 757166

Dear new guy in the flatshare,

Why do you think you're the exception? You see that everybody washes their dishes, so why do you see fit to just leave yours for DAYS? There's even a fucking dishwasher there, ready for you to put your unwashed dishes in instead of clogging up the sink and countertops.
And why use my towel? Huh? I've kept my towel in the bathroom for months. When someone new came in, their towel was in the bathroom on the same day. I didn't see your towel, however I did see that someone had heinously wiped their mouth on MY TOWEL the day you moved in. My towel that I thought was safe. My towel that I really wouldnt have minded maybe drying your hands on if you were caught short without one because you just moved. But WIPING YOUR MOUTH? YOU FUCKING REPROBATE. I now need to keep it in my room like some kind of fugitive.

And it's always a particular type of male that has the habit of pissing directly in the centre of the toilet to make that cacophonous pissing sound that reverbrates through the flat. You can aim, why do that? Do you have a need to let everyone know that you're pissing or do you just not care that nobody wants to hear you piss?

Christ, appearances really are decieving (which tbh is my bad). When the tradesman moved in first, I recoiled at what I first saw, the dirt caked boots, and figured he'd be a mess. Nope. He gets up at 5am and is so quiet to not wake anyone else. Stays clean and cleans after himself, just super considerate all around. But YOU, mr fancy fucking phd with a job with normal hours. You don't care at all huh? Just smashing your way around the kitchen early, chatting til all hours. Fuck you.

No. 757168

I’m in an abusive relationship. I told no one about it and when I say no one, it’s no one (not even my parents or my best friend who’s basically like a sister to me).
He calls me retard weekly when he gets mad at me, tells me all the horrible things about me and why I’m always alone, remarking that he doesn’t want to be with me because he basically hates me. He’s so used to scream at me I’m not even surprised at this point but I still cry every time (of course he uses this against me, as expected).
He asked me the same question over and over again those last three days, telling me that I could answer him honestly and he wouldn’t get mad. I told him the same thing over and over again but he doesn’t believe me. The moment I changed slightly my answer he went crazy as per usual, telling me again that he thinks I’m fake and a liar, that he doesn’t ever want to be with me.
It’s pretty ironic because I’m always giving advice to people about their relationship and people always tells me how lucky I am to have a healthy relationship like the one I have, with someone who makes my life so easy and is very supportive.
I always start to tremble when people tell me these things because I know deep inside if he ever leaves me, I would tell them it was mutual, of course I wouldn’t tell about these horrible things.
He even once left me for 20 minutes in a foreign country without telling me anything just because I didn’t took a photo like he wanted. The same day, he went full on silent when I got upset until I stopped being sad about it.
Once we were both at a party drinking (not too much) and he decided it was time to go home, so I had to leave my friends and of course follow him. He then got upset because he thought I was ruining the night by going home and started to scream at me in the street. Part of me wanted people to notice, wanted someone to tell him something, but nobody did anything, no one noticed.

No. 757170

>>757168
Please tell somebody anon. He sounds dangerous, and his behavior could spiral into something even worse. The fact he's already left you alone in a foreign country already shows that he has no real regard for your safety. Please just tell someone about his behavior. It is not safe for you to be in that situation alone

No. 757183

>>757168
Since you've acknowledged it, is there any plan of action to leave or?

It's easy to advise leaving, especially when you're not in the thick of it.

No. 757186

my bf cooked food today and it was so gross. and i know it happens and i know he was tired from work but i have cooked in much worse states plus i have also been to work and now im sitting with my late night studies hungry as fuck because he just had to watch youtube while cooking instead of just focus and at least try to make it tasty its small shit like this that drive me crazy

No. 757189

Burnt my frozen pizza a little. All because of my stupid broken oven

No. 757197

I just got my COVID vaccine appointment and I asked my bf if he got his. I asked him WEEKS ago to fill out the initial form and he still hasn’t signed up, so now it’s looking like it’ll be more weeks before he gets his shot. This isn't the first time he’s fucked himself over cause he couldn’t be timely, he’s visiting his folks atm and right now I’m tempted to tell him to just stay there

>please god let me be patient in the face of this dumbassery

No. 757200

>>757170
>>757183
I just don't know how to start. People never saw us arguing, I never told anyone about a single problem. We have been together for more than six years now, no one suspects about what’s happening.
I just feel so ashamed and embarrassed, I wish I talked when it was happening at first. Now I don’t know how to look people in the eyes and tell them I endured insults and humiliations for half a decade. I know they’ll feel hurt and betrayed because they will probably think I didn’t trust them enough to confine my secrets. And the worst is that I did it to protect him, because I didn’t want them to think bad about him. It’s surreal.

No. 757203

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I am literally so alone, living in a strange new city in a house where nobody speaks the same language as me. I don’t know what I’m doing and I feel like I’m going to die. I didn’t know that it would be this hard and uncertain.

No. 757204

>>757200
I know it seems scary and embarrassing, but you really should tell someone anon. It's never ever too late, but I'm sure your bff won't judge you for confiding in her about something like this. Honestly, I can't tell you exactly how to approach telling someone about that. Maybe, "we've been having issues for a while now" would be a good start?
>they will probably think I didn’t trust them enough to confine my secrets
At the end of the day, you have to put your safety over how other people may feel. Trust me, they can deal with whatever "betrayal" they may feel. How they feel about him especially does not matter. He deserves whatever judgement and hate he gets. Wishing you luck and sending virtual hugs ♥

No. 757205

>>757200
If youre nervous start slowly with the milder stuff. I get not wanting to paint your partner in a bad light, but if your intention is to leave him, that shouldn't matter so much. Just maybe start a dialogue when you're upset about something regarding him, and ask for your friends advice on wether you're justified or not.

And it absolutely sucks that people have the strongest tendency to isolate when things are actually the worst. All I can say is I'm sure they won't have hard feelings against you. Almost everyone hides the bad parts of their relationship to others, but when taken to extremes that can be really dangerous.

No. 757208

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my mom always found ways to twist my interests into something horrible whenever i told her about them (e.g. anime was pedophilia, a webcomic i loved was satanic, and i was fucking stupid [her words] for caring about people hating me in middle school, so you can imagine i stopped telling her about what was happening in my life pretty early on lol), most of our communication was one-sided and artificial (even now, it's always her venting about the most mundane internal bullshit to me because whenever i seriously open up i need to "get over it" or it's "always my fault" – so all i ever talk to her about are politics and junk) and…idk it's funny that she wants to act like she's a beacon of comfort for me, in my twenties, because i kind of can't stand her kek.

like i love her, but she is supremely irritating, stressful to deal with and is the source of most (if not all) of my childhood trauma. hate whenever she comes to visit because she's so desperate to do typical mother-daughter crap like do my hair and nails…? it's absolutely bizarre.

i want to make enough money to leave the state and just never fucking see her again. sorry mom i get that being a single parent is tough and all but you have an ugly personality. and i'm not one of the braindead moids that's been circling you for my entire life (and i'm your child besides lol) so you can't seduce me into pretending i care

No. 757221

>>757205
>ask for your friends advice on wether you're justified or not.
I know you're trying to be helpful anon, but OP does not need anyone else to "justify" her feelings at this point. The dude is abusive, no question about it. Better path is to simply explain that the relationship is unhealthy and she needs support in leaving, whether that's emotionally or having a temporary place to stay. Most important thing is getting away from the guy and disengaging so the trauma bonds can start to weaken.

No. 757233

AO3 sucks. I was looking for some lesbian stories and found some ddlg and underage shit. I knew the site was filled with degenerates but I never really saw that much cause I stick to readings fanfics of one anime. I guess I'll stay in the fanfic tags instead of original works next time lmao I was able to find some really nice stories though

No. 757247

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Sometimes, I really wish misandry was as bad as misogyny. Then, maybe some truly fucked up men would get a taste of retribution. There are so many rapists, abusers and other scum who need to be removed from the earth.

No. 757274

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If I see one more troon on the international women's day tag saying something akin to "suck my dick" I swear to god, I'm going to commit a hate crime. So fucking sick of men ruining everything for women in any possible way they can. When will it end?

No. 757275

Apparently I must make my romantic partners feel inferior because many of them imply they somehow work harder than me when–no offense to them–but they objectively don't.

Like right now I adore my boyfriend to pieces but he has this whiny way of implying he drives longer to work (he doesn't, Google maps agrees) and the traffic is worse when he comes and goes (it isn't). I wake up consistently every morning at 7am to get to work and I often don't get home until 5/6pm. Bf works closing shifts (where he often avoids peak traffic), but on the days where he's scheduled a mid shift (reporting at a whopping 10am to 6pm) he moans as if he were the only person to ever have had to wake so early at 8am. I feel like telling him to shut up whenever he whines about having to be up "early" because it isn't to me and it feels like a slap in the face. We both go to bed at the same times even when he works a closing shift, so his sleep schedule is fine and in no way deprived. He gets more sleep than me. And oh my god, the weather. Heaven forbid there's a forecast of rain because he'll rev up the dramatics and act like he just drove through a typhoon even when I just got done driving in the same conditions. What do you call it when someone exaggerates their struggles to be the center of attention?

As far as responsibilities go, I'd say both our jobs carry unique stressors, but he's convinced he deals with more bullshit than I do on account that he's customer service and I work office. As if my "customers" aren't just internal clients and vendors who are just as annoying as the public because they think they can do whatever and don't have to report to me. Even so I've worked retail and did three years at a call center for a major travel agency so I know what it is to cry before shifts and have to take psychiatric drugs in order to do my job. Bf's customers can be shitty but he has enough power as a supervisor and doesn't work in that much of a toxic work environment so he's fine with it almost every day which is why he's worked there for over a decade. He's bored most the time and his bosses give him treats like candy boxes. He's fucking fine.

Anyway, petty vent but damn.

No. 757314

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I cannot explain the embarrassment I felt when I realized my whole right titty was out while getting an ultrasound today

No. 757318

I think I'm one of those people who has multiple sets of wisdom teeth. I was so relieved when I got the first ones out but now the pain is back again. I can't go through it again anons.

No. 757319

my sister in law came to visit from out of state. we were just supposed to go shopping us two today, but she took us to a bar

some scrote called me weird because of how i was dressed (just a simple a-line gray checked dress–i wasn't expecting to go to a bar >:( ), then while we were playing pool another scrote came up behind me and did that thing where they touch you to try and teach you how to play.

i excused myself to the bathroom and sobbed because after being raped i have panic attacks when anyone touches me ever. had to pull myself together because i didn't want to ruin her good time. but now i'm home and i'm a fucking mess and i hate men and i just want to be alone and cry and fuck this. i know im a stupid special snowflake

No. 757321

My stomach hurts for whatever reason and I pooped already but it stills hurts and now I can’t poop! And I have that slight pain you get with a uti!! Fuckkk!!!!!!

No. 757323

Deluded myself into happily caring for a man baby for the last decade. My life is so pathetic now, and I hate myself for it more than I resent him lmao.

No. 757328

>>757323

samefag to continue on like fuck ya equality ya, I don't need no man to support me financially - this scrub ass motherfucker has gotten away with the bare minimum contributions while I slave away at full time minimum wage, paying for all luxuries just so our lives aren't shittier. But he's just gotten a free ride off it.Works 2 days a week. Quit a decent career to go back to school AKA take half a course-load and fuck around mon-fri. I'm so furious. But then my medication will kick in and tomorrow I'll be stoned and complacent again.

No. 757329

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>>757323
at least you're free now

No. 757331

>>757328
dump him its not too late

No. 757349

>>757321
ok well now my stomach doesnt hurt but I have like liquid diarrhea and its almost impossible to tell when its gonna come, I got so lucky just now as I was at my bathroom sink washing up so I could immediately get on the toilet when I realized my fart wasn’t gonna be a fart. fml at least the stomach pain is over but what the fuck body

No. 757350

>>757329
>>757331

I love you Gals and I know this is the way to go. Only typing more as a warning to any younger readers but like a complete idiot I allowed myself to totally pack in my social life outside of our relationship and it felt so good and cozy to my inner hermit, but like now I am fucked. He is truly a good man, as far as men go, and has some really nice qualities. But he was raised to be doted on, and I just can't fix these loserish tendencies no matter how much I tried. So even though he is my best and only friend, and fits so nicely into my family, I am stuck between a rock (lame relationship) and a hard-place (losing BFF and being truly socially isolated). But like I am completely denying myself any potential keeping on like this. Maybe when the pandemic eases I'll take all my savings and just up and leave.

No. 757385

>>756100
time will heal you anon, just do what you can to distract yourself for now, and reach out to friends you can talk to. believe me you have so much still to look forward to and single life can be amazing i promise

No. 757422

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nonnies i don't know how to help my friend in an abusive household and it makes me really upset. she's 18 so she's legally allowed to leave but doesn't have any money or place to go due to her abusive family, i always tell her she is welcome to my apartment but she has an underage sister who lives in that household and she tells me she can't leave her yet because of the abuse/her sister can't leave their household except for school. it pains me because she lives 35ish miles away and i can't travel that far all the time (i also don't trust myself to drive that long all the time because my job tires me out) but i'm hoping that i can be able to teach her how to drive and help her get a job. i don't know how i'm going to help get her a job in the first place because she isn't allowed to leave much so she has no way of paying for her own things, like a full circle of bad things, but i'll try to figure out a way. i just want her to focus on her studies and be happy.

it's so easy to tell her just to leave especially because she's literally allowed to at any time but there are so many variables. at some point in time i might just call the police if it gets worse but that might put her sibling in a ton of danger because i personally know first hand how law enforcement/social services can make family life worse in these situations, at least for me when i was younger. i just want to cry, this is my best friend and i care so much for her. i know it's not my responsibility but she breaks down and begs the world in front of me because of all the stress. seeing someone you've known since you were a teenager go through this.. i just don't know. it's fucked.

No. 757426

>>757422
Looks like the little sister is the core of the problem. Your friend won't leave here alone in this situation. I'd say a tip to CPS might help. Not sure it will, but it's better than nothing.

No. 757427

my dad groped me when i was 11 and when that happened i told my mom she screamed at him and today i accidentally told a friend because i wasnt sure if it was sexual assault, it's been 7 years anyways and he never touched me again since my mom lashed out at him and i have a good relationship with him and i dont know i just i didnt mean to tell her. my dad is a good person and i think i just i dont know i fucked up

No. 757444

I hate myself and I can’t stop crying and I just want to hug my mom and pet my cat and go to sleep.

No. 757446

>>757444
then pet your cat and hug your mom and go to sleep. you are worthy of love and peace and you will find it in time. remember that everything is temporary.

No. 757454

>>757427
He isn’t a good person, he deserves to die and that will never change no matter how much he pretends to be normal.

No. 757459

>>757080
I know how you feel. I joined a new discord server and I thought I made a new female friend and it turns out the person was a guy I blocked a few months ago. He made a new account and was pretending to be somebody else to get close to me and confessed it to me in pm. I'm not mad just sad

No. 757466

I just want to lay with a bed full of junk food and binge while watching comforting videos. Fuck. I can't get enough of food. AAAAH!!! I wanna cry. I want some chick fil a and ramen and hot chips and curly fries and horchata and :') why can't i be normal. I'm too broke to eat like this as much as I'd like to and I just realized how unhealthy and distressing this habit is and I want to cry… Also im horny but i cant fuck any of the guys i wanna fuck because of a little thing called living at home.. Fuckkkk meeeeeee Im gonna go out and buy chick fil a tomorrow even if i have to take the nasty bus and go to the nasty mall its located at godammnit!!

No. 757473

>>757314
Pshhh that's nothing, I somehow managed to drop my pants halfway down while getting a covid shot in the arm. (?!?!) I didn't even notice until the nurse told me "you should dress yourself, it's cold".

No. 757476

>>757200
It sounds like the type that'll will end up strangling you anon. And tell you it's your own fault.
He knows what he is doing. He knows how to control himself enough in front of others for all these years because he knows it would look bad.
Get the fuck out nonnie please, he's only going to escalate until you leave or he kills you.
You've been abused for too long anon. What your friends will think doesn't matter. At this point, either they don't care enough even though they're seeing something or he's a sociopath.
You being happy and alive does matter.

No. 757477

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anytime my bf comforts me i feel like he's following a script. is it because he has a psych degree? bad soft skills? i don't know. imagine these phrases, said very flatly:

>"it is ok"

>"yes, let it out"
>"it must be very hard for you"

i know it's not his style but when something upsetting happens (i don't get upset often so it's usually a huge deal to me) i just want to be LOVEBOMBED like i do for him. like cradling and petting and warmth and "come here baby let me love on you im so sorry." yes people express their love/concern differently but damn give me something. it makes me feel so alone and like i'm bothering him when i already feel like shit. like right now lmao

No. 757478

>>757200
Please leave him. I’m begging you. You don’t have to tell anyone anything, just dump him.

No. 757492

>>757477
I totally get you. Come here nona let me smooch you ♥

No. 757494

>>757477
I also struggle with how men and other people in general express their love, I just try to trust my moid and think that's how he expresses himself. But I understand you so well, when I feel bad I want so much more lol, makes me miss dating women. Anyways, if he doesn't make you happy, dump him OR try to understand his love language and talk to him about this, take a love language test together

No. 757500

>>757477
I really don't mean to be condescending but have you told him specifically to lovebomb you? I have had the same problem and "I need you to smother me with love right now please" has worked before/

No. 757513

I think the guy i’ve been very very into and serious about has ghosted me. I am actually going to ruin his life.

No. 757517

>>757513
Tear him apart!

No. 757518

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>>757513
Do it queen

No. 757522

>>757517
>>757518
He just texted me back but I’m still going to make him feel bad for not prioritising me. Men smh my head.

No. 757535

>>757513
Tell us how you're planning to do that, I'd love to know

No. 757536

>>757319
You're not a special snowflake for suffering a completely understandable trauma response, but you do need to advocate for yourself.
Maybe you don't feel confident telling men to leave you alone but one day you will have to learn, for now work on being able to tell women who care about you that you aren't comfortable around random men and that you were looking forward to a day of just talking to her. It's not selfish or snowflakey to tell people your expectations and what you don't like, nobody who cares about you would want you to lie about that stuff.

No. 757549

Happy international women's day indeed, my company released a networking event for "female and nonbinary" people. It's called women's day, not the mental illness awareness day.

No. 757557

>>757549
Fucking lol anon

No. 757562

>>757549
Oh you're so lucky they said "female and nonbinary". At my company, they just straight up changed it to "Womxn". Not gonna be attending anymore of those meetings because I swear to god if i hear a man talking, I'll lose it.

No. 757580

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It's almost been a year since my ex dumped me, and seeing facebook memories of how I started spiraling mentally because of how selfish and egotistical he got after the honeymoon phase was over really makes me upset, he made me feel like something was wrong with me for wanting straight communication and always turned issues around to be my fault which made me feel like something was wrong with me. It really hits me hard remembering all those nights where I cried until I had a headache and even started self-harming again. Like it genuinely hurts and I woke up with anxiety a couple of nights ago after I had a really realistic dream where his narcissism was cranked up to unreal levels.
He wasn't abusive or straight up mean, just very selfish and used to getting his way. I don't miss him, hell I haven't even thought about him for months, rather I'm really angry. I was the anon that a couple of weeks ago that had a little bit of a breakdown and felt vulnerable after having to deal with one creep to many when I usually shrug them off, and now when I've had my ex on my mind the question of if I could have had confined in him if this had happened while we were still together crossed my mind… and sadly my answer to myself was a "kinda", he would hug me if I talked about while were hanging out but never bring it up again, he most likely wouldn't check up on how I was doing. Hell, he just gave me an half-assed reply when I texted him and told him I saw someone jump down the train tracks (luckily the guy was pulled up right before he entered the tunnel and just seconds before the train came, and yes I enclosed those details to him as well in the text) and was pretty shaky with my head filled with "what if"s. Even people that I barely know nor talked to for years checked up on me for days afterwards when I wrote about it on FB some time later. Not him.
I shouldn't let him affect me like this, but I'm just so incredibly mad. I don't want to hate anyone, but I feel like I hate him. Fuck scrotes.

No. 757590

>>757275
You adore him to pieces but he's constantly trying to one-up you, kek. You probably have it more together than he does, and it makes him feel inferior and want to compete over who has it worse (scrotes are the logical sex, my foot). Your bf is a little bitch boy, hopefully he gets over it soon or he won't keep you for long.

>>757477
You shouldn't have to communicate for him to comfort you. It's such a basic thing, it's as ridiculous as telling your partner to respect and care about you. He doesn't give a shit anon, if he wanted to comfort you he would.

No. 757635

Am I a bad person for not wanting to be around a family members homophobic boyfriend because I'm bisexual?

No. 757676

>>757477
I get this completely anon, I don't know if it's your bf's psych degree because mine is similar. maybe it's that whole "men don't form emotional relationships are often as women" idea - men hardly express themselves as it is, so they don't get many opportunities to learn how to comfort others/how they want to be comforted. not to make excuses for them, because it's still shitty.
I had to straight up tell me bf "when I'm upset, I want to be comforted - you don't have to give me advice, I just want to be reassured that I'm okay, that I'm not crazy for feeling like this, that I'm loved". because before he would just say "talk to me, tell me why you're upset" and then would just sit in silence lmao

No. 757684

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My mom made me crossdress
She is extremely unwell, it's not her fault, she was abused horrifically growing up and she won't get help because she's sure that she'll be locked away forever in an oldtimey insane asylum.
No matter how hard I try to help her, she just doesn't want it.
But now I'm fucked up too.
She told me every single day, "People want to murder you. Do you understand what that means?"
And then I had to explain that it meant I would be tortured and raped and dead forever and leave her all alone.
She moved us away from my family and to the middle of nowhere in a tiny, surprisingly un-condemned house
With her new husband.
He is a very angry, violent man.
My mom spent the first seven years of my life telling me I could never let anyone near me, especially men, because they were going to hurt me.
And then she watched him do exactly that every single day starting the day we moved in.
And I tried to ask her why was she letting him do it?She told me my whole life this was going to happen and how terrified she was of it, so why was she letting it happen now?
And that's when she started telling me about her childhood abuse, and that if I think this is abuse, I'm fucking stupid and selfish and greedy.
And so that became an every day thing too, everyone wants to kill you, me and your stepdad are the only people who could ever love you, and I was beaten almost to death every single day for five years.
She made me wear boys clothes from walmart and buzzed my hair off and started pronouncing my name wrong, I don't want to dox myself, but my name has two different pronunciations, one is feminine, one is masculine, she started pronouncing it masculine
When I told her I had been being molested at school she panicked and said, "No no, don't say that. Don't say that. No you didn't, you're okay."
That was first grade, before we moved, so it was technically over, but I was still having nightmares.
The teacher in that class was very strange and hated crybabies, which I was. The school was on military post in Missouri. Corporal punishment was allowed.
There was this enormously tall retarded boy in my class, in first grade, he said he was twelve. His mom gave permission for the teachers to spank him, but my mom didn't. She was outwardly very scared of people hurting me.
This teacher hated me for crying so much. And she would punish the retarded boy for what I did wrong.
She would tell me I had been talking when I hadn't, she would tell me I had been jumping up and disrupting class and all kinds of things, when I was trying so hard to become a statue in her class because I was so afraid, I was always quiet and as still as humanly possible, until she made me cry.
And then she would take the retarded boy into the coat closet, and leave the door open, and beat him with a wooden spoon all up and down his legs and back, and he would be wailing, and she would make eye contact with a few different kids in the class while she did it.
And then she would either tell me or the other crybaby, who I won't dox but i remember his name too, she would come up behind one of us and hiss, "That should have been you. It's your fault, he got spanked for you."
And I would try not to cry when she said it so she wouldn't beat him more, and I hated myself so much.
And then another boy in class started molesting me.
He did it in kindergarten too, and obviously as an adult I understand that this child was clearly being molested at home and he's the actual victim here.
But I would be lying if I said it didn't effect me, even now.
He would tell me that his dad would send people through my window at night to kill me if I ever told, and I was already very scared that everyone wanted to kill me, so I believed it. I was also six, to be fair to me.
I tried everything I could to stay away form him, but there was no way.
When we had to line up to go to recess or lunch or gym or whatever, I would try so hard to be the last person in line so the teacher's aid would be behind me and the boy couldn't.
But the teacher started making us line up by desk clump, and he was always in my desk clump.
And I would try to get behind him over and over again, but he always just got back behind me and we would circle each other.
And the teacher would scream at me "JUST LET HIM"
And then I noticed, she was watching.
She would watch him stick his hand into my underwear and insert his fingers into my anus.
And she watched.
She would have us stand in line for so much longer than we needed to.
She was watching him do it and told me to let him do it.
And I was scared of her and scared of him and so I let it happen for a long time.
I eventually started bed wetting and shitting my pants at home.
My mom didn't think anything of it, she kind of seemed to like it, she has always loved anything that infantalize me
But eventually I just refused to go back to school, I just puked and screamed until she gave up trying to send me.
Then I was was homeschooled until we moved in with my stepdad.
And then when I told her it had happened, she told me it didn't.
Many years later, she wanted me to start birth control early, because she was so afraid of me getting raped, she took me in to get an IUD when I was 15
And when I tried to tell her I was raped by my gynecologist, she told me it didn't happen.
It did. It did fucking happen.
She was allowing me to wear girls clothes and grow my hair out then though, and I didn't want her to take that away again, so I let it go.
I let everything go, and I can barely sleep, and when I do sleep, it's only in daylight with all the lights in the apartment on, and I have endless fucking nightmares.
I know it's not her fault, she was sure to tell me nothing could ever be her fault, she suffered too much to be responsible for anything.
So now I'm fucked up and it's all my fault and I don't want to fucking live like this anymore.
I avoided therapy for such a long time becasue my mom always made sure to watch Dr. Phil with me and laugh meanly at everyone who said they were traumatized by there parents for any reason, so that I would never believe I had been abused.
And she told me she never got therapy for the heinous evil that happened to her, so how could I possibly ever think I needed therapy when nothing even happened to me to begin with.
Well, now I'm trying, and my doctor has given me referrals to all four psychiatric health facilities my insurance will cover, and they're all so booked up from covid, they aren't even putting names in the rolodex at this point. Each one says to just keep calling back every day at a different time, and eventually someone will have called to cancel right before I call to ask, and then I can get in.
I think I would rather just be fucking dead.
I don't want to fucking live, it is worthless.
I can't bond with anyone and I am so fucking lonely my brain hurts.
I can't sleep and I can't work because I'm so fucking scared that my coworkers will kill me or I'll kill them.
I know it wasn't true and realistically as an adult now, I understand that it was all insane bullshit and I should just be the fuck over all of it.
I don't know, I guess some shit just fucking stays with you, I guess if you get told something every day, it just poisons your brain and stays in there forever.
I was raised to point and laugh at the idiocy of disney prince saves you and takes care of you nonsense bullshit, but that is exactly what I want to happen.
I can't imagine a decent life for myself.
I can't imagine ever not feeling sick to my stomach.
I just want it all to fucking end because it's never going to get better.

No. 757702

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I adopted a cat in October. about a month later, I had to go out of town for around five days at the last minute. I would have preferred not to suddenly leave my cat so soon into getting her, but wasn't given much choice. my brother offered to watch her though. I figured it'd be fine - she had been pretty low-maintenance so far, not super high anxiety, was pretty social. my brother and I also used to take care of our neighbor's cats when we were a bit younger. I wrote him a full list of instructions and just asked, specifically, that he try to keep his bedroom door shut so she's just limited to the bathroom and living room and has less hiding spots.

when I dropped her off though I got crazy anxious. she got stressed during the ride, so once I let her out at his place she stayed under the kitchen table. I figured she'd come out soon just like she had for me - I told my brother just leave her alone, she'll come out when she wants. leave her out some treats and put some familiar toys around and she'll start poking around.
but I still felt guilty leaving her - I could tell she was stressed and honestly, I was worried about my brother. he's usually pretty together, his apartment's usually pretty nice. but when I walked in it just felt wrong, I can't explain it anons. like, there were dried spills from making food on all the cabinets, stains on the walls in the bathroom, just… everything was gross, like he hadn't cleaned throughout all of quarantine. it was just off, and I felt so bad for leaving her in a dirty environment, I was close to tears the whole drive to the airport. but I tried to relax and trusted my brother to follow my list.

when I picked her up, of course, she was in my brother's bedroom, hiding under the bed. he said she had "run in the minute he opened the door", which I didn't believe - she was not and still isn't much of a "bolter", especially when she's stressed. I knew he had just forgotten to close the door. so of course my next twenty minutes is trying to coax her out from under his bed - when I get on the floor, there's a ripped open condom wrapper near me. disgusting. I have to ignore that and end up having to push her out with a broom. I felt so terrible and so guilty, but I just wanted to get her out, and be out of that apartment.
as I'm carrying out her litterbox, my brother goes "yeah that was in the bathroom, I never saw her go so I don't know if she went?" which I found out later that she had, thankfully, but my instructions were to sift through the box everyday?? just check, it takes like thirty seconds how fucking hard is it. so of course, that means for five days he didn't sift the box once. what the fuck, like you've taken care of cats before how do you not know this? why are you being so lazy when I've trusted my pet to you??

luckily as soon as I got her home she relaxed, she's been comfortable and sweet since then - I was so worried she might get some sort of anxiety as I wasn't sure of what her situation was before I adopted her. I'm just pissed, I was pissed then and I'm pissed now and genuinely this has dampened my relationship with my brother. maybe it's a small thing to stress over, it's just that before this we were so close and I had always been someone my brother came to and ranted to and trusted, and I ask for one thing in return and hardly get the bare minimum. I'm trying my best for this cat and she's relying on me and you can't bother to scoop her fucking litterbox.

No. 757704


No. 757705

>>757477
>>757676
theres also possibly cultural or just family differences, if I was crying/otherwise emotional over the age of 10ish i just kinda got left alone until i stopped. I mean i was allowed to stay home from school etc, my parents are nice just not open in that way. so I dont really know what to do when adults are emotional other than give space and ask if theres anything I can get them, but I feel like that comes off as kinda cold/distant, and I've definitely upset people in the past due to this. I usually rather be alone or take a walk if I'm upset so I dont think its hypocritical, but if I had a partner who was more tender/emotionally-open type of person i think there would be friction in both directions…so I guess the question is, is he from a different culture/family environment to you and might not know or be comfortable, or is he just cold to you? Like if his parents hugging/kissing him when he grew up, then he should give the same love to you.

No. 757711

>>757168
>>757200
I'm not saying you should kill him, but I am saying that if that were to happen to him, he's earned it
Realistically though, make an urgent doctor's appointment, one that you can get to alone, gynecology ideally
When you get in to the actual office, tell them what's going on and that you need help getting away from him
You have doctor-patient confidentiality there, and most doctors got into medicine to help people

No. 757725

>>757275
People usually like to feel like their job is super hard and tiring and stressful, because it makes them feel more accomplished if they think of it as a hard day's toil rather than a pretty normal average workday. It also gives them more of an excuse to themselves to laze around after work/de-stress/eat comfort food or w/e they like to do. When I used to work at a cafe I would come home and talk my partners ear off about shitty customers etc until she was like "that sucks but also you're kinda ranting about the same thing for two hours every day, pls stop" lol. So you might be able to say something like "i know you're stressed and your job is hard, but when we're at home let's both try to talk about work less so we can both relax and not think about it."

No. 757739

I am extremely bored with life. I dont care about going out to party. I dont care about clothes/shopping/appearance. I dont care about food. I dont find any excitement in relationships because 99% of scrotes are unattractive to me and the 1% I'm attracted to wouldnt want me. I'm bored of people getting their panties in a twist about dumb shit like race/gender. I dont listen to music. I dont care about movies or shows. I dont care about talking to friends or people I date. I've just even stopped eating. When im having sex I feel nothing. I'm bored and bo one else around me gets it.

Every day I log out of my computer and just stare at a wall because I dont care.

No. 757756

>>756873
Coding is like riding a bicycle…kinda…tricky to learn and you still fuck up a lot…and really really difficult to self-teach. Do keep in mind that even for professional programmers 90%+ of time often is spent on fixing bugs/"making it work the way you wanted" so if you're annoyed at ypurself that you cant stop making stupid little mistakes… that's kinda just how it be for everyone. Keep plugging and dont worry if you feel like a slow learner or w/e, getting there, doing it right & with understanding is much more important than being fast. The sky's the limit if you can get started on a career in a coding field, college computer science majors outside of the very top schools aren't worth a thin slice of dick, so companies basically are willing to train anyone who demonstrates reasonable competency.

No. 757760

Had a dream that I asked my abuser if he really did it and he said yes but that I was okay now. I sat down and started to cry then my younger self came out of nowhere and hugged me.

I woke up thinking it was real for a split second but then I realized it was a dream. I have no fucking clue why my dream was so cheesy because that kind of shit only happens in movies.

No. 757775

>>757756
i agree with everything else you said and i know you're just encouraging that anon, but

>college computer science majors outside of the very top schools aren't worth a thin slice of dick


just isn't true. companies will undoubtedly prefer hiring somebody with a degree and people with cs degrees will make significantly more starting pay than those who have to be trained and handheld through the job. it IS true that you absolutely do not have to have a cs degree to succeed in this field, but you need to bust your ass a whole lot harder

example: my bf got a psych degree instead of a cs degree. he had to teach himself everything over the course of 3-4 years post-university, and his starting salary at a consultancy was only ~50k.

i got a cs degree, and my entry level salary at the same company was 75 even though i'm way younger. my only point is that the fancy piece of paper DOES get you places

No. 757777

>>757702
only tangentially related but I feel like a lot of men in particular have let their personal hygiene and living standards go to shit during covid, like if they aren't having people over or going to work they're content to stew in their own filth basically forever. I feel like i see about half as many men as women out doing stuff as I used to, and even when I do they're fatter and nastier than ever. Its as if 50% of men (or maybe 90% of single men) fell into deep coomhole during the strict quarantine, and they may never come out unless forced to by needing to go to work again.

No. 757782

>>757635
Nothing wrong with that, I don't like my extended family either because they are obnoxiously right wing and I just don't like spending time with them. My mom and her sisters all married military men and we all know how progressive and open-minded the army is, the less I deal with them the better I feel.

No. 757802

>>757782
Thanks anon, I feel a little more validated in my hatred towards him. He's also pretty right wing from what I've heard and overall extremely annoying.

No. 757803

I 100% get kinkshaming
But saying you think bdsm is so cringe you would rather date a nazi is… kinda cringey in itself.

No. 757807

>>757775
Yeah I was being a little hyperbolic maybe lol. Self teaching anything is really really difficult to stick with and even just for that reason, for me, taking courses is much better because it forces me to actually do it. I know i wouldn't have ever gotten started without taking cs courses in college. There are a lot of schools though, tends to be larger & state schools, that have kind of a tacked-on "cs" degree that's actually a full philosophy degree plus some relatively basic coding, which is better than a non-cs degree ofc, but it's very program dependent based on what I've heard (which is to be clear mostly from one family member that hires in CS and has said that they have to train everyone from near-scratch regardless of where they went to to school. but said person is kind of an autismo dick so I should take some grains of salt I guess).

No. 757810

I have milia on my eyelid and Google said go to a derm don't cut it out yourself so I went and told them I have milia but they book me for a skin lesion check anyway and lo and behold it's milia and they won't cut it out because it's right over my eye so now I can pay them for nothing (bad insurance)

No. 757811

>>757810
I'm no med professional, but don't they just squeeze out the millia?

No. 757818

>>757810
The only time I had milia (also on the eyelid) I scratched it away with my nail and it healed perfectly fine. You can't tell anything was there.

No. 757824

>>757811
Its basically near ish to the inner corner of my eye and the pa said it wasn't clear enough to get the amount of pressure to squeeze it out but ngl they could have just been too lazy since they told me to just wait it out. Kinda pissed at myself because I get a bit neurotic over health stuff and I just wanted it gone

No. 757855

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Petty as shit but I am sick of seeing people on ig making posts about how traumatizing and wild it was to pop by a hospital for the vaccine or for some routine visit during the pandemic AND they get so many asspats from people I know? One of my friends told me how she was being brave because it's so scary in the hospitals with the restrictions, bitch she went in to get a bloodtest so she can get a refill on some medicine,fucking one time during the entirety of the pandemic? I go once a month for bloodtests, scans and exams because they suspect I have cervical cancer that has spread every fucking goddamn where and I just got told that it's different because I have gotten used to it. You fucking cunt I haven't, it's scary to go alone because I can't take anyone with me, there are people not wearing masks for some reason and bitches who have been partying and acting stupid all this time go get one little poke get endless "so brave" comments and I have to be understanding? I don't want to hear how fucking selfish I am, how petty I am or how I should dump this friend, she is sweet but thinks I am some fucking superhero who doesn't ever get upset, I am so positive even though I am sick, I am not afraid of anything!!! Bitch I AM.

No. 757876

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My brother is a cryptofag and has gotten my parents and even my 11y/o brother into crypto recently. Now he's trying to convince me to make NFT's because I draw.

No. 757877

I want my boyfriend's ex to die. She's so ugly and has a big face. I wish she was either dead or far away from me.

No. 757885

>>757877
What dick does to a motherfucker. Idk if this makes sense, but why do I feel like posts like these will become the new neetlita

No. 757913

Boss at my job asking me if I can do a morning shift from 6:15 to 13:00, I have never done morning before and I honest to God don't want to. I forgot to turn off iMessage read so he saw that I read it, so I don't know what to do. I've turned down all of his shifts asking to extra days/hours when I've told him 500 I only work 3 times a week.

No. 757919

so unprepared for one of my mid terms but at the same time i'm just soooo ridiculously apathetic

No. 757922

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i wanted to bake my mom cinnamon rolls because she's been going on an on about one recipe and it all went to shit. my yeast didn't activate, i put too much butter on accident, they didn't rise and in the end i burned them. i just wanted to do something nice

No. 757926

Hi /ot/, I'm 30 and absolutely tired of life. This pandemic was a real fucking wake up call to how much people don't need me and how I've made it this far yet my being is absolutely unnecessary. Literally only my mom would miss me if I was to die tomorrow. I'm always that friend who you message when nobody else is available or when you need something from me. I'm the person people struggle to say anything about because they don't care about me enough. I'm not even a NEET, I've worked my ass off to make something of myself, networked a lot, put myself out there and all roads lead to the same outcome. My existence serves absolutely no purpose and it hurts. It really hurts to watch people around me brag about their efforts being recognized at work, talk about their loving SOs, outings with friends, milestones etc. Meanwhile I'm taking my millionth chance hoping that this will be the one that changes my life and validates my existence only to end up in the same spot like the fucking clown that I am. I should just learn my lesson and stop trying.

Thanks for reading, I've written this again and again and decided not to post for such a long time. Maybe someone relates to it, I don't know.

No. 757928

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my only friend that lives close is being weirdly distant. it's been bugging me for a week now. i don't know what the fuck to do about it. i hope she's just being an ass and watching anime and not going through something or getting sick of me.

No. 757937

>>757926
I felt every word of this

No. 757950

I love not offering help to men who don't deserve it just to watch them struggle.
>men of today
>routinely research games, hobbies, sports, etc to find out all the little details and cheats of shit they do for fun
>routinely act helpless and like women naturally have all the answers for shit they don't do for fun, and what they refuse to bother to learn about like cleaning and cooking

>bf had today off and volunteers easy chores to do while I'm at work

>"Ok bf, and how about dinner?"
>decides on chicken breast and frozen bag veg, easymode of all easymodes
>doesn't start dinner until I get home
>I know where this is going
>"Anooooon is this thawed yet?"
>It's frozen towards the middle because you didn't separate it half way through thawing, but close enough.
>"Anooooon how I cook this???????"
>well if you're gonna fry chicken, pound it flatter so it cooks even
>half assed attempt to flatten chicken
>"Anooooooon the chicken turned a weird color coooooooking!"
>Yes, you fried it. It fried uneven so now the heavy end is fried more and the ends that didn't touch the pan are pale because they were steamed.
>"Anoooooon how do I tell when the chicken is cooked?"
>Cut it open and look.
>"Anoooooon the middle isn't cooking. What do?!?!?!"
>Idk, put it in the oven.
>"Anon what temp and for how long?"
>Idk look it up.
>"Anoooooooooon where are the oven mits?
>Idk, look around.
Lmao so pathetic. I don't care. I learned how to do this shit from trial and error and from looking shit up if I didn't know how to do something. I didn't jump out of the womb knowing how to cook.

No. 757955

>>757950
just break up with him? this is unhealthy and he sounds like a spoiled manchild

No. 757957

>>757950
what a healthy relationship

No. 757959

>>757955
He's learning how to cook without his hand being held, it's fine.

No. 757967

I just unfollowed an artist I used to like on twitter. She regularly e-begs for groceries, rent, medication, medical emergencies etc

Now she suddenly posted about her incredibly expensive collection of anime merchandise. I started digging and it seems that over time she has regularly posted about getting a new figurine or a plushie.

Jesus fucking christ no wonder she can't afford anything if she spends all her money on this bullshit. Or she's a dirty scammer who lies about her living situation to get her followers to fund her frivolous hobby.

I can't believe no one has called her out on it. Her pinned post is literally a sob story about her being poor and some link to where you can donate money.

She's not the only one I've seen do this. Most e-beggars seem to have some sob stories about being a mentally ill, bordering on homeless, chronically ill troon who needs money yet always seems to have enough to buy expensive cosmetics, clothes or electronics.
I fucking hate these people and the idiots who fund them

No. 757970

>>757950
Send him back to his parents because they clearly did a bad job at educating him about the basics of life. Not your job.

No. 757971

I hate it when I share something negative that happened to me with someone and for some reason they feel the need to top me so they try and say something even worse that happened to them and the whole conversation becomes a giant complaint-fest. Like…I just thought I'd share information with you and you turned it into a contest of who's more miserable

No. 757976

>>757950
lmao I had a roommate like this 2nd year of college, one time he bought sausages for some reason and goes to cook them, asks me if I think they're done and I go look. hes barely browned the outside in a frying pan. I cut it and it's 95% pink raw. and hes like "so is it done do you think?" This guy was just super sheltered but it's scary, how can people really not tell if food is cooked? Dont they like, eat food? I feel like he would have just eaten it raw had I not been there.

No. 757977

>>757971
Yeah that shit fucking sucks. Feeling bad is not a competition. It is as if they do not even acknowledge what you just said because they cannot stand "losing" to anyone in any way. The same thing goes for people who make it a competition of how busy they are. Blegh

No. 757982

my boyfriend is currently getting drunk with another girl. she has a boyfriend too, but i feel so fucking sick and i haven't stopped thinking about it all evening. i'm literally crying i feel so overly clingy

No. 757983

samefag i'm going to get drunk

No. 757985

>>757982
I don't usually like to say this to anons here but, break up with him. They're drinking alone and hanging out alone? Kind of weird.

No. 757989

>>757985
i know youre right anon which is whats making this so hard

No. 757990

>>757977
Right? And I always end up feeling guilty because I feel like I'm responsible for this situation because I started it

No. 757993

Anons I desperately need a friend to watch together a Golden Girls marathon with. We would be on a sofa with cats, a lot of pillows, some comfort food and poppin just a little bit of benzos. The friend I imagine doing this with is living in a different country and I really miss her. I miss that warm feeling of female friendship

No. 757997

>>757993
Same. I really want a female friend. A best friend since I never had one.

I hope you will be able to visit your friend once this covid nightmare is over.

No. 757998

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I'm kind of annoyed.

I bought my dad lunch, but when it arrived he didn't say thank you. Which is weird because he falls all over himself to say thank you to his evil sister when she buys him like, fries, or gives him food she's ordered that she no longer wants – said evil sister is grossly fat, to the point of breaking his toilet seat, and she still hasn't paid him back for that but I digress.

I didn't even mind the above too much though, but a few hours later he noticed that something was missing from his table…a corkscrew or whatever, and got all bitchy at me over it "not being where he left it". I was house-sitting for him, but I didn't touch his damn table. And the last time I accidentally threw something out (a knife he "received from a departed friend" – never-mind that this knife was covered in grime and beneath like ten million sauce packets), I fessed up pretty quick when he asked. I also replace shit when I break it. I don't understand why he's acting like I'm untrustworthy.

I also don't get why he's so certain of himself, and that he didn't move the damned thing elsewhere in the house. You're a fucking drunk, you drink all the goddamn time, and you always claim to "not remember shit" after you go on a binge. Why the hell are you so testy? Even if it hadn't been moved in months…your drunk ass probably picked it up and forgot where you put it. Christ.

No. 758000

>>757990
You are not guilty, you just wanted someone to confide in. The other person is at fault for making it a competition. You can either confront the person about it or avoid them and talk to someone who really cares about you and your well being. In a friendship you listen to each other there is no competition on who "has it worse". People who make it a competition are to obsessed with themselves they have no space for others.

No. 758001

My period is absolutely debilitating and it fucks with my life so much. I got put on this new medication and all it did was make my period even heavier to the point where I bled through 3 pairs of pants I hate this shit so much, even two days in agony is too much.

No. 758002

adobe illustrate is the devil

No. 758003

>>757982
anon I know the feeling, I don't have anything more helpful to say I guess but this kind of stuff kinda makes it less painful to be single

No. 758006

>>757997
Thank you anon.It won't be possible for half a year at least and to be fair she could even not like GG but in my fantasy she would, lol. By the way I really understand you since thus is the only real deep friendship I have. It can be lonely and difficoult but sometimes coming here and sperging or reading threads in OT does really help. I can feel a little bit of that warmness.

No. 758008

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>>757926
I turned 30 last year. I broke up with my boyfriend of several years because he was abusive, even though I genuinely loved him and gave 150% in the relationship in the hopes we could be happy and healthy together. I don't have any close friends, and in fact I fell out of touch with the one person who really meant something to me due to being isolated during the relationship. I work at an okay job that pays the bills but is ultimately unfulfilling on a personal level. I'm not sharing this to say I have it worse or invalidate how you're feeling, just to express that my life similarly sucks right now.

But it also kind of doesn't? All that being said, I'm trying to appreciate myself more and take pleasure in the little things. I'm trying to find joy in having a place to call my own. In dancing to a song I like. In reading a good book or seeing a pretty garden during a walk around my neighborhood. In exercising and feeling proud of myself when I can hold a difficult position for a few more seconds than before. I'm going back to school to finish my degree so I can move overseas to a country I've always wanted to explore. Ultimately we come into this world alone and we're going to leave it the same way, no matter how many relationships we cultivate in the process. I read your post and see someone who needs other people to validate her and give her permission to be happy. You don't need other people for that. You only need to give yourself permission, then it won't matter who acknowledges you or not because you're too busy enjoying life to care. Easier said than done I know, but you shouldn't be reliant on other people for your happiness. It's just you and the world, and you can change how you want to interact with it at any point in time.

No. 758010

>>758002
Adobe Photoshop is the superior

No. 758053

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I'm so irked right now. I finally started using swagbucks to earn some money on the side, and as soon as I find a game that I can make fast progress in, the game decides I will no longer be able to progress because of some stupid block on the board. I haven't been able get rid of it no matter what I do and I'm a little pissed about it

No. 758080

I need to talk to someone, please? I need a bit of distraction, please. Sorry if I come across silly.

No. 758085

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>>758080
Let's talk binch

No. 758093

What do you do when you have a bad day on your day off? Like the day starts out bad?

I’ve been looking forward to today and tomorrow (my two days off) for a week now and was so excited because it was warm out today for once.
But I barely slept because I’ve had a bad stomach ache and then I had someone treat me really meanly in the morning which just broken me down. Couldn’t shake it off. I’m afraid tomorrow I’ll feel the same .

No. 758098

>>758093
I usually just distract myself with useless bullshit I like. Especially after bad interactions.
So just do something you like; read, watch tv, bake or something

No. 758101

I wanna kms. The headphones I got just a couple months ago aren't charging because something in the little hole is broken. This is like my 5th pair. Why do I break electronics so easily?

No. 758114

>>758093
It's easier said than done, but brush it off and move on. There's still the rest of the day! I used to think one good/bad thing in the morning meant it would set the tone for the rest of my day but I try my best now to make the rest of the day a good one as much as possible, especially if it's my day off! It's hard to ignore the negatives, but don't let it take up more space than it already has in your day! Maybe take a walk outside to enjoy the warm weather, then come back in and take a short little nap.

No. 758134

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i hate being a lazy depressed sack of shit so much but i dont know how to stop at this point. im 22 and ive never had a job and im nowhere near close to graduating college, i legit think my dad dying when i was 9 and the depression must have stunted my growth or some shit and now i play world of warcraft for like 7 hours a day

No. 758138

I have to talk to my dad about some shit and it's giving me anxiety because I know he's either going to talk down to me like I'm a child who doesn't understand anything or he's going to scream at me but choosing to not talk to him is just going to make the entire situation worse so it's not like there's any good outcome anyway. Guess I'll risk being talked down to/screamed at so I can check it off my to do list and then head off to bed. I hate this shit so much.

No. 758156

I’m glad there are communities online where I don’t feel like a crazy person for having gender critical views, but I wish I could make that connection with people irl without fear of being completely ostracized. It feels like everyone I know has drunk the gender theory koolaid, including my closest friends, so I just keep my doubts to myself.

I’m super sorry if this is a banned topic and I don’t want to start some dumb fucking argument here but god, it makes you feel weird after a while when everyone you know is insisting that 2+2 is 5 and implies they hate you/want to hurt you if you’re not convinced

No. 758161

>>758138
I talked to him (I'm bedbug anon who had a meltdown a few posts above lmao) and asked him why the fuck he called the management's pest company to come back for the second treatment. My aunt texted me last night saying that she's found out that he doesn't want to pay for our own exterminator but I've said MULTIPLE TIMES that I will pay for our own exterminator. I will pay for him to treat our apartment, to treat our storage unit, AND for the follow up treatments that I want him to do!! I am ok with paying this money, I can afford to do so without struggling, and I want to do this to get the board to fuck off with their lawyer, and get these fucking bugs out of here because I found a guy (actually TWO) who can treat with minimal prep because my dad is a stubborn retarded hoarder. I have found someone who can work with us throughout this whole process.

I asked my dad why he's having them come back when I said I would pay for our own exterminator after the board approves of one I've picked and he only says "you don't get it" like he's been repeating non stop like a fucking broken toy. What? What don't I get? Because I already know when they come for their second treatment, we are just going to get ANOTHER letter from the property manager or even just straight up from the lawyer this time saying that AGAIN we were not prepared enough because my dad won't move any more shit out. I honestly think the 10'x10' storage unit we bought because of this whole ordeal is full because my family has accumulated so much god damn shit and insists on putting it in the storage unit instead of just keeping essentials in there and chucking out the rest of it. At best we are going to be back in square one, at worst (and more likely) we will be in even deeper shit because this will really solidify the "you are wasting the building's money so we are going to make you pay for it for your apartment AND the whole building because we have been trying to shift the entire blame onto you anyway" because refusing to cooperate by moving out more shit is just adding fuel to the fucking fire!!!!

No. 758164

I feel like I let my mother down being ugly, I honestly feel like no matter what I accomplish being unattractive means I’m a terrible daughter. That’s why I’m investing in fixing my looks in the coming months, I feel so horrible for looking the way I do that I sometimes just hide my face when in the presence of my family. I feel so much shame for my appearance, I feel bad for even saying I’m the ethnicity I’m from because I don’t want people to know that such revolting people can exist from my country. At the end of the day I am privileged as evident by the brutality others endure on the daily, I just wish I could more closely ascribe to the beauty standards women are held to so I didn’t feel like a failure in that regard.

No. 758219

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I fucking hate how scrotes have the nerve to confront me and complain when I don't reply back to their messages right away but then go MIA when it's their turn to reply…

No. 758220

>>758219
They love sending "?" when you don't immediately respond.

No. 758250

> joins a female-assigned-at-birth discord server
> one of the staff membs is a trannie ~ lesbian ~
What the fuck.

No. 758257

>>758250
The more clearly you state that a space it is for biological women, the more intent men are on invading it. Make it a 'brodudes doing guy stuff' discord and you may be able to avoid trannies actively seeking any specifically female group to infiltrate and leech validation from.

No. 758268

>>758008
Thank you for the great and positive post, I was very sad and I feel much better now!
You put a smile on my face, I really needed it!

No. 758282

The way asos takes pictures is so annoying, too often there's just NOT a picture that properly shows the front without a weird pose obscuring most of the garment

No. 758293

I just want a casual, temporary relationship with a dude where we fuck and occasionally hang and he cares for me as a fellow human. I will not pursue this though as the thought of wading back into the sewer slime of OLD apps and sorting past balding/hideous or hot-but-fuckboy options to find someone sane is overwhelming. By the time I narrowed it down I’d likely be moving out of this pace anyway. Scrotes really gotta fuck it up for themselves by being miserable vile degenerates. Goddamn it

No. 758297

I think my dealer is looking to make a move on me. Some of his extended family from overseas are requesting to add me on social media and he has been very attentive to me lately outside of buying drugs. I don't want to ruin a good thing lol

No. 758305

>>758297
The extended family thing is a bit odd, I hope he's not trying to traffick you anon (I may be being biased as to the character of a dealer here and he's a perfectly ordinary guy, it's a bit strange though)

No. 758324

>>758305
I did think this too lol… I think we just get on in a strange way and have a lot in common. Honestly if he wasn't a dealer I would introduce him to my mum.

No. 758352

Kinda would rather kill myself than go through another recovery, that shit hurts and is so scary and for what

No. 758355

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I feel like this person continually tries to one-up everyone and then this while discussing ghosting

Consistently too graphic and isn't aware I socialise in the same group her partner does so when she posts about how great her partner is taking them in a family holiday but he is home online not aware he is binding with his family while visiting NZ it really gets on my tits.

No. 758383

>>758355
How does one shove a fist in someone’s ass without asking when my bf starts doing weird shit I literally hook my fingers in his nose and pull him away

No. 758415

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being a research assistant at uni sucks ASS. professors are eternally 2 busy 4 you. i go a week without hearing shit, bouncing on my heels because i'm not getting paid if i don't get an assignment; then i get a frantic email that something needs to be done that's entirely beyond my scope/paygrade and it needs to be done within a couple of hours.

rinse and repeat.

also i basically work for 2 profs in the same department so whatever assignments i do need both of their approval, but they constantly disagree. i'm in the middle of an academic tug of war between two crusty computer science men

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No. 758463

>>758383
> I literally hook my fingers in his nose
I don't know why but that's so ewww
Don't get me wrong, I'm glad you set your limits but can't you poke his eyes out instead? The thought of boogers on my fingers makes me gag. Ewww again.

No. 758467

I have no friends and because of how slow the world is right now I am barely working. It is making me so incredibly lazy I don't know how I am going to cope with the "real world" when I have to go back to a normal job and dress like a human being again.

No. 758489

I'm tired of unleashed/escaped dogs. I've had a few unleashed/escaped dogs with no owner around run up to mine. One growled at my small dog (got distracted by multiple dogs in a yard thank god). The worst experience was when my little dog was attacked by a big dog. He lived luckily but now everytime it's time for walks I get overrun with emotion and my brain tells me to turn back. Anything from leaves rustling or a certain gust of wind to remind me of that day will send me into a panic. I was alone when he was attacked no matter how much I screamed or yelled for help no one came till after I had it controlled. I still remember getting my dog to safety and collapsing from the exhaustion of defusing the situation. I couldn't move at all and couldn't check his injuries till a little time afterwards. The amount of fear of him dying in that moment has been the worst feeling I've ever experienced. I remember so much vividly and I hate it.
Since it took place in a small town and the man who drove by directly after could see what had happened, he filed a complaint. The owner was fined and warned that his dog was not to be unleashed or unsupervised outdoors.
I know who the owner is and his dogs behavior hasn't become better. He was bred with another dog and his son is even more violent than him and feral. Fuck his carelessness.

No. 758529

People are just enjoying ripping my heart out and shitting on it this week I guess.

No. 758534

>>757446
Really late but thank you for that.

No. 758554

>get a new job installing garage doors
>boss kicks a customers dog out of rage two days into the job
>quit that day

I can't be assed typing down the myriad of other things this clown did. But it's kafkaesque how people so unstable and delusional are able to run functional businesses. The rest of his staff are old depressed men that are profusely apologizing to him, his wife is weirdly nice and self aware. It's just strange.

No. 758569

Fuck people that put the fucking spoiler in the trailer's comment section and the dumb assess that upvote it. I know it's my fault for checking out the comment section but fuck, fuck fuck.

No. 758574

>>758569
What's the thing you got spoiled?

No. 758585

Why am I so bad at everything

No. 758587

i am very overwhelmed, i can’t balance school and work. i also thought my mood would improve with the new weather (somewhat true) but i caught my reflection in the mirror and stayed home for the rest of the day. i’m too old to have body insecurities like this

No. 758596

just had a fight with my friend since he took a 'joke' way too far and it ended being uncomfortable for me (the joke was basically that he is a top and i am his submissive bottom which is very fucking weird since we are just friends?)
he started and it was immediately fucking weird and creepy and i was obviously mad and expressed that its fucking weird and creepy what he is doing
he then started to call himself dumb, apologizing the whole time and even started punching and hurting himself
so in the end i had to comfort him that things happen and that he shouldnt think about it too much
is that a manipulative thing for him to do? and what should i do now since its fucking weird?

No. 758604

>>758596
That is psychotic manipulation, fucking get away from this dude, anon,

No. 758605

>>758596
Jesus Christ, I'm really sorry, but you should just not talk to him again
Self harming in front of another person is like the hugest redflag there is, I'm saying this as a violent bipolar, there's worse shit in there if he's capable of that

No. 758610

>>758596
I've said it a hundred times before and I'll say it again: The vast majority of scrotes that are your "friends" are still low key holding out hope you will fuck them one day. You should never be surprised when they try to make a conversation sexual because they are degenerates. Doesn't mean they can't do nice shit occassionally too, but you should never trust them. And if they can't respect your boundaries then they're not even worth your time.

And yes, his reaction is very typical abusive scrote behavior. They start moaning and crying about how horrible they are so the attention is deflected away from their creeper behavior and the victim (you) stops rightfully blaming them, but even comforting them. Don't fall into that trap. Just be like "Yeah bro you do suck. I'm out." My recommendation is to cut him off, he is showing you he is unstable and manipulative.

No. 758651

my boyfriend is still friends with a dude who molested me at his birthday like.. 2 years ago

apparently he didnt know the full story (uh-huh) but yeah the molestor guy called me up crying saying he was gonna kill himself i have to forgive him type thing so i was like, its cool its cool

anyway i retold the story to bf like last week in detail (he came up and grabbed my titties and squeezed them multiple times in front of a bunch of people, said a crude comment about my boyfriend) at least one other person also saw this but apparently said nothing. I ended up crying at the bathroom and then went home.

even after telling boyfriend this he continued to stay friends with and talk to this guy without even bringing it up and ive only realized today it makes me fucking ANGRY

and it makes me angry ill be the bad guy if it ruins the friendship

but im worth more so i dont care. he can fucking say something and get some goddamn dignity or hes out

No. 758661

>>758651
i'm sorry anon, but it also looks like your boyfriend made a choice. he is completely okay with sexual harassment and assault. on top of that, he doesn't even care about 'his woman' being assaulted. you really can't be with people like this

No. 758662

I inherited a bunch of weird shit and am gonna get major surgery soon so I have to get a will made, I love being under fucking 30 years old doing shit like this. Fuck this shit world.

No. 758663

>>758651
Does your boyfriend do drugs? I ask because I had an ex that had a friend molest me in the same way at a bar and nothing happened. I was constantly made to welcome this person because he was the one who got the coke. Know your worth, you deserve respect.

No. 758666

My mother has been nitpicking my weight and eating habits almost daily over the course of last year, to the point where my craving to self-harm has returned. She's always been obsessed even about her own weight and calls herself fat because at size S she doesn't fit into her XS clothes anymore.

I've started fantasizing about slicing myself right in front of her any time she feels the need to comment about my body.

No. 758670

>>758663
>>758661
I dunno what the move is guys do I make him confront the friend? thats what i wanna do, but i also kind of want to just leave because hes a coward who didnt even feel strongly enough to say something to his molestor friend or even fuckin unadd him on social media

No. 758671

>>758663
no. the molester guy was drunk and has autism and i acted like it was fine and they have been friends for ages but he doesnt deal drugs or offer anything exceptional to my bf

No. 758672

>>758671
Is he like really autistic? Weird no one would call him out since it's completely unacceptable. Sorry that happened to you

No. 758675

>>758651
I don't care if people say this old-fashioned, but your bf is supposed to protect you. Literally his one job and he couldn't even do that right. He should feel ashamed.

No. 758676

>>758671
fucking kill them all, jesus christ

No. 758685

I'm not that overweight, but I feel so uncomfortable and heavy in my body right now. I thought I would still be confident if I ever got fat, but here I am. Being short is all fun and games until you get chub

No. 758707

>>758651
related update but this whole ideal just reminded me that my parental guardian used to talk about me being raped as a child during her sex chats with strange men on the internet and her boyfriend she brought over when i was 11 who i think touched me but ive blocked out but he was a convicted pedo and we had.. tickle fights.. and shit… yknow im pretty sure thats whats up and its just like WOOohhOooooowweeeeeE

No. 758708

>>758707
i was like 9 years old and i saw her messages just discussing me being raped with these random guys and idk if i was or how she would know or what the fuck was even happening but yknow i dont know what the fuck is happening now either

No. 758710

The plague between my teeth has hardened and I'll have to wait until May so that I can go to the dentist and get it cleaned

No. 758721

>>758670
Just leave. Your boyfriend is prioritizing a guy who sexually assaulted his girlfriend over the woman he "loves." There's something wrong with that picture. Seems his feelings are stronger for his male friend. Cool, they can go fuck each other instead of putting their hands on you.

I'm sorry anon but your self esteem is in the dumps if you're willing to stay with a scrote who you have to fucking beg and convince to stand up to someone who molested you. Please get away from garbage men (all of them) and spend some time caring for yourself and building yourself up.

No. 758726

rant incoming, sorry.

my male cousin, a proud NEET, has been telling me how he hates being a man and all the expectations that come with it, and just wants to be a girl. to him woman = skirts and makeup and giggling. he sent me a story he wrote about becoming a woman and it was so delusional, seriously, it was insulting to see him describe womanhood as something so vapid, full of sexist stereotypes (women have it so easy!!), it felt so fetish-y (mentioning panties and shit like that unnecessarily, literally NO woman focuses on her fucking panties so much!), i'm like 100% sure he's an AGP but obviously that's not something i want to confront him with, he's super sensitive and i honestly do care for him, but jesus, i don't get why he can't just be a gnc man. he even sent my fucking MOM the story bc she's like the only liberal boomer in our family…

No. 758727

I lowkey think I'm developing the same medical condition that killed my uncle at only like 54 but my GP is genuinely incompetent and he's the only one I can go to, I'd rather just let it get me than talk to that man I don't even understand how he has a medical degree.

No. 758732

I only got to have Taco Bell nacho fries ONCE and now they're fucking gone again. I was so happy to end my work day and settle down with some nacho fries but fucking now I can't. Hate myself.

No. 758734

>>758732
They've wiped them like twice now AND they got rid of the caramel apple empanadas. I'm fucking sick of tacobell at this point.

No. 758735

>>758734
they got rid of the potatos and the shredded chicken, the only tasty shit left on the menu is chalupas and cheesy bean and rice burritos, and the burritos are technically gone now too, but they'll still make them for you because they still have the ingredients
taco bell sucks now

No. 758737

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Me almost crying because realistically you’re just talking to a void, hundreds of more obnoxious loud voices talking over you and get more attention. I don’t even think I’m real anymore, it’s like I have no effect on the current time, I don’t even blend in I’m not even there to begin with .

Sometimes when I wake up, I always think that I’m dead even though my heartbeat says otherwise. There’s apart of me that desires attention, friendship, joy, fame, and even love but another part of me doesn’t want to search for the mountaintops for some kind of meaning, I just want time to stop, I want everything to stop, I want myself to be removed from my painful shell of a body, I want to be free, I want complete freedom. But again I don’t exist in this confinement of time anymore, I’m not even there. I’m not real

No. 758738

>>758734
They also got rid of the taco salads which were actually tasty, wanna kms

No. 758739

>>758737
vraylar helped me with that feeling; I hope shit improves for you

No. 758742

i hate that gender expectations lead women into self-doubting themselves like in chess. https://www.chess.com/news/view/women-vs-men-chess-performance-study

No. 758743

I'm really overwhelmed with work shit and I can't vent to anybody. All I hear is "well my job is harder" or they just make it all about them. I have a really shitty circle of people and I feel alone.

No. 758749

>>758742
We can only continue to improve past that!

No. 758755

>>758737
You've already been there before you were born, anon. Just try whatever this is for how long it lasts, you have nothing to lose. There will always be an eternity of non-existence in front of you.

No. 758758

>>758574
Metalhead, the entire plot basically.

No. 758759

>>758134
I'm 21 and also never had a job and am a lazy dysfunctional person. Every day I feel guilty for being such a leech. I know 21 is young but I feel like it's already too late for me to change. Sorry to hear about your dad anon.

No. 758769

>>758726
You laughed at him right anon? He's testing the water to see how much he can get away with being a degenerate openly without getting scorned by you. He may be "sensitive" but suddenly he's gonna be holding your entire family emotionally hostage to play along with his sissy fantasy.

No. 758774

>>758771
Get better medication

No. 758776

>>758774
as if anyone cares what I say

No. 758785

Every time I read about a woman having issues about her SO liking instagram influencer's pictures, following them, jacking off to them, i wish i was her so so bad just so i could follow ripped guys on instagram with chiseled faces and see what their reaction would be. I wish every woan would do it to see how they'd like it reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

No. 758792

My mum wants me to like engage with her new boyfriend but it's national women's month so I'm not engaging with males and she just doesn't understand

No. 758793

>>758792
I understand and support you

No. 758815

>>758792
based farmer
don’t even let scrotes breathe the same air as you this month

No. 758828

Wish this person would pay for the item they bought from me on eBay. It’s been 5 days, PAY ME BITCH!

Also been having a rough time recently, whenever I get my period I fall off my diet and start to spiral a bit. Plus my skin is so bad right now. Feels bad ladies.

No. 758835

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this sinatraa drama has gotten my physically sick, i fucking hate gamers, i actually want to quit the game and thinking about quitting the game. people really defended this prick, and there was proof, im so fuckijg sick its hitting so close to home, i understand exactly wtf cleo's talking about.
i really hope all male gamers (and female pick mes defending this shit) a very nice die.

No. 758860

>sure anon I’ll take you off Thursday evenings for that class
>but you’ll have to do a midshift at 9am
>actually it’ll be from 6:30 because the opener needs help
>also you’re doing a ten hour shift the day after, you’re still working Saturdays and I added an extra hour on Monday
I’m such a clown for thinking something good was going to happen!

No. 758861

>>758792
be a good daughrer and listen to your mother you fucking whore(USER HAS BEEN PUT OUT TO PASTURE)

No. 758862

>>758861
t. that anon's mom

No. 758873

Ugh my cat stepped on the power bar and shut all my stuff off and now the fans in my PC won't budge at all

No. 758896

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I don't know why I can't fucking control my emotions better especially over small shit like this.it was a week ago but it all started when I was joking with my grandma about having 5 jobs im not certain why she snapped like this but she literally humiliated me in front of my uncle,niece and aunt about a shitty time I had abroad when I was 18,all because I fucked up badly over there (I lost 3 jobs in less than a year, pathetic I know)and how she claimed I misbehaved so badly at my jobs that I got fired from it (it was because I was so lost and confused and irresponsible too)I became red and quiet,as soon as they dropped me off at home I began sobbing uncontrollably.i mean was it necessary to say crap like that?most of it was true but damn we were just joking a minute ago.I know I should have ignored her and move on but I didn't,I shouldn't have cried for stupid crap like this,especially from her.but damn those times truly sucked for me.

No. 758901

God my dad is such a stubborn fucking idiot and thinks letting the management's pest company come a second time is complying before we can hire our own exterminator. No, it's not! They will come and they still still say we are not complying because we have too much shit here (which is what they said the first time and what prompted this whole mess)! We have already been given the option to hire and pay for our own exterminator as long as the board approves and is satisfied, but he still thinks that even if they say that we won't be complying/they will go back on their word. I told him to ask for a written and signed statement of approval so they couldn't go back on their word. Also, how would we not be complying if the letter says "you are free to retain your own exterminator"??? He still thinks they can't do anything legally to us but they absolutely can!! We haven't prepared enough by their standards and it's hindering their ability to work. The management has done their legal duty to hire an exterminator and pay for it, even if it's a shitty one.

I saw his text messages to my aunt that our storage unit is full already, and so he won't get rid of anymore of his shit! So I already know we're fucking screwed! On top of that, the pest company the management wants will only come on days that he isn't off (and I'm not off either, can't really trust my mom or cousin who's living with us to deal with them).

This idiot has like zero fucking comprehension issues and then calls me stubborn when he's the one being stubborn when he first refused to reply to the lawyer, still refuses to move more shit out of the apartment, and continues thinking they have no legal grounds to come at us when they do. UGH. He has the audacity to text my aunt saying "I'm the victim" just because his hoarding tendencies are biting him in the ass and myself and everyone around him is telling him to throw out useless shit that he doesn't want to.

No. 758912

I'm having some kind of eczema breakout and it fucking sucks ughhh. Theres a huge patch on my thigh, and a little on my fingers. I had eczema on my thighs when I was younger, but it went away and rarely comes back so I don't even have any cream, bleghh
>>758896
That's not stupid to cry over anon! I understand why someone making fun of a bad experience you had in foreign country might hurt a lot. Maybe you could try ask your grandma to not do that?

No. 758928

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I am listening to a video on bonnie and clyde and hearing about Clyde's temper, I remembered this dude from school. I'll preface this by saying this behavior ended abruptly somewhere around high school but this dude was a lunatic, he would smash his own head against poles, every recess during the winter, the snow would be actually splattered with blood for weeks. He threw these ice balls or snowballs with stones in them at other kids, he would get screaming tantrums and yea we had other bullies and troubled kids but this lil dude was actually disturbed, but also from a religious as shit family. I think people here would call it a cult, they weren't allowed to listen to music, watch tv, dance and so on but every other day or so, his mom had to come pick him up midday because this dude was acting posessed as fuck, we were actually afraid of this kid. I don't think I ever saw him hold a normal conversation until 7th or 8th grade when he was suddenly so polite, so nice, was hella smart and in high school he had befriended people close to me and acted like we went way back. This kid genuinely tried to murder us during recess, tried to stab teachers multiple times, I saw him try to break his own bones and give himself multiple bloody noses and then this sudden switcharoo? What the fuck happened. My mom says that this kid's dad came off super off and my tinfoil is that something really sinister went on in that family, these families tend to have loads of kids so wouldn't be weird to slip through the cracks but this dude is now such a lanky chill dork. Works at my local grocery, his mom still nods at me at the shops, what the fuck, did they switch the boy? Shit annoys me, I fucking hate these kind of religious fucks, thank god they aren't all too common.

No. 758931

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One of the two records I’ve been wanting for over 2 years has been sold out on Amazon for months and now I have to buy a used cd copy and pay a shit amount in shipping but it feels like it’s selling out fast because zoomers caught wind of it or something I don’t fucking know but I’m so fucking upset and choking up because it’s my own fault I wasn’t fast enough to order it last year when I had a chance. Now I’m scared I’ll lose the second one so I’m buying it as soon as I see it. As soon as my used copy arrives I’m downloading the files to 3 flashdrives for future use because cds are actual shit and putting it on youtube. I hope no one has to go through this bullshit like I did.

No. 758951

I'm so miserable, I hate my life so much right now. I'm not in a place I want to be at all. I hate my job too, it's barely above minimum wage and no one respects me or listens to me even though with my line of work they're supposed to but because I'm a young woman they never will. I am subject to sexual harassment a lot here and they do nothing but make me write down what happaned, I'm sure they just throw it away after. I want to quit my job so badly and start school again but my bf keeps begging me not to go to school yet and wait until he can get a job so we can move in together. I just am so depressed/anxious that I do not care anymore. I don't want to wait anymore. Gosh I want to die.

No. 758955

I am so grateful that some of my family took me out of a shitty situation. They granted me experiences that would have been impossible otherwise. But I wish they wouldn't hold it against me that even though they gave me safety and unique experiences I still have a lot of issues. I'm not ungrateful because I'm depressed and struggle with agoraphobia but they treat me like I don't appreciate any sacrifices they made. I don't rely on them for money but they let me know I am still letting them down.

No. 758961

I honestly never want to hear about how much no one talks about or cares about “alienated boys” and “disaffected white men” ever again. People literally talk about it all the time. They dominate all discussion on depression, loneliness, disenfranchisement. People act as if they are the only group facing economic hardship and atomization.

No. 758968

I feel stressed when I think about putting my 2 weeks in for a job I started 2 months ago, but my old job wants me back anyway so I do have another option if I quit. I feel bad because the manager is obviously stressed, and yeah they did spend some time training me (kinda), but the pay is just slightly over minimum wage and the work is twice as stressful as my old job. I did warn them I'd probably leave in April before they hired me, but I still feel shitty about it. I wish I had a job that I was passionate about…Honestly might just be a lazy fuck and not work for a month since I don't need the money rn anyway.

No. 758969

I wish more people knew about dog reactivity rather than instantly screeching that the animal needs to be put down. (not including pit breeds)

There are cases where the animal really is too far gone but sometimes they just went through shit, have anxiety or are reacting out of fear, not because they just happen to want to rip your leg out. They're difficult to work with and it can take years to train them, it's often expensive and what not and I really wish more people would understand instead of instantly judging you as a bad owner.

No. 758976

I went from not working much, like, doing 15 hours a week at most, to suddenly working 30 hours. I'm so fucking drained. It drains me completely, I work a very fast paced job where I'm talking nonstop, and added onto that, my mental health is tanking bad, my eating disorder has come back into full force. I had a breakdown so bad where I was trying to purge up a bunch of food and got nothing up, instead shredded my throat and was spitting up blood; The worst of all is the sheer guilt I feel because I just do NOT have the energy to keep up with my friends, I'll watch them all get into voice calls together and I'll just sit there wanting to join in but knowing that I absolutely don't have the energy for it, or I will join in, and just get so burnt out after thirty minutes of trying to talk. I feel like they all hate me for it and think of me as an awful person for it, even though I've made it pretty clear about how bad my mental health / life strain has been, the guilt is just eating away at me.

No. 758988

My cat is acting kinda weird and distant and I don't know why or what to do
It's 4:30AM right now so I can't even do much
The last time I went to the vet with her it was just a scare, but damn
She's 15 and I am scared

No. 759014

>>758968
Anon don't feel shitty about it, they would dump you like a rock in a pond just as easily if it benefitted them. Hope you can find something you're passionate about!

No. 759037

Moids get offended at EVERYTHING
they have such small bad tempers
Fuck scrotes!

No. 759040

I hate anxiety so much omg. I want to die, I can't take it. I can't eat, I can't sleep, I feel so uncomfortable all the time. It's so debilitating.

No. 759057

>>755729
So i have this cousin right, always appeared like a normal and well adjusted person.
Anyway, she is married with 2 kids. Thing is, after they had their first child, she got really sick with lupus and is basically no longer able to work anymore, leaving her husband to be the the only breadwinner. He is a warehouse manager and made like 40k with car debt and a mortgage. Since they were tight on finances, we helped them with crib, toys, clothes for both the kid and mom, and plenty of other things in a span of years right.

Badda bing bada boom she popped out another kid after that. Knowing full well that she's jeopardizing her and her future kid's well being. Her mom, my aunt told us before that they were advised from having more children and yet they went with it still. Well what do you know, her health got worse, is bedridden most of the time and one healthbar away from becoming stephen hawking. Then my aunt launched this sob story of how they are barely scraping with welfares, food coupons and having their eldest kid, a 5 year old took on the role of mother to her younger sibling and got bullied for having hand me downs. That last part is just practically begging now. Honestly they are a nice bunch of a family but maybe a little nutty on the religion side which leads me to believe why they have been trying to breed more.

Well, the reason why i'm ranting all this shit is because they just announced that she had just delivered a new baby.

No. 759058

I thought I was doing perfectly fine moving on from this guy that ghosted me (dated for 5 years ish) but today, 2 months after the official ghosting, I finally cried over it.

I was proud of myself for coping so well but I guess my period mixed with new meds broke me. And now I wanna try to contact him again. It's been a month since my last text to him, which he left on read. I hate this dude so fucking much but at the same time I'm scared something happened to him. I just want to know why he did it or what I did wrong.

This is what I get for giving men a shot, I guess. Back to being female exclusive.

No. 759110

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really didn't need to see some ugly fat quasimodo-looking mongoloid's dirty pussy and asshole, where are jannies ffs

No. 759114

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>>759110
Pictures like the ones that get spammed here, of dicks of asses and the sorts, are what really makes me wish the internet got shut down globally so the attention whores cease their existence.
Truly, why do people even request nudes? How can anyone get turned on by the crusty pictures of a rando that has no connection whatsoever with them?

No. 759115

>>759110
they need to open up the fucking farmhand applications again because clearly they need more help but can’t admit that kek

No. 759118

>>759110
> fat
Is she really that fat? Like how much weight do you think she needs to lose?

No. 759120

>>759057
What country? Depending on your answer I'm going to call bullshit on the welfare not being enough and that they'd rather beg from family so they can get newer and more specific things they want for less effort. An unemployed, disabled mother with with litter of kids would qualify for major welfare, especially since the dad isn't pulling much more than $20/hr which isn't much already without a family that size.

No. 759124

>>759118
who cares
what, are you looking for suggestions?

No. 759125

>>759124
Yeah.
Unfortunately I have body similar to hers and while I know I need to lose weight I didn't think it was that bad either. I'm still grabbing a pizza with extra cheese but I'm going to eat it with guilt now. I wish I saw the thread later.

No. 759126

I dont know why but lately I'm just so fucking over speaking to men aside from my roommate and one of my uni friends.

Just in general I can look at my other friends and see them typing and just instantly be fucking annoyed by them because I know they're gonna say something stupid or annoying, or some fucking "without me?" joke.
Just fuck off.

No. 759128

>>759125
You're fine. I hid the thread when I first saw it but she looked average/mildly chubby. Enjoy your pizza in peace.

No. 759130

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>>759128
T-thanks. I didn't mean to sperg about her weight it's just that I might be more lax when it comes to classifying someone as fat, I was kind of surprised to see everyone bringing that up. I'm still going to try to lose weight but after this weekend. I need my pizza first lol.

No. 759135

My boyfriend is a wonderful and sweet person, but sometimes talking to him drives me up the wall. He's the type of person to say whatever dumb thing comes to mind to fill the silence or hum or whistle if we don't say anything for a couple of seconds. It's especially bad if we're playing or watching something together, and he's constantly talking over it for minutes at a time while somehow communicating absolutely nothing. I can't focus at all. Sometimes I feel so drained I just fake laugh at what he says instead of trying to continue the conversation. I love you, but damn, please let me hear myself think. The next time it happens I'm going to tell him I need to concentrate on whatever we're doing because I'm getting frustrated.

No. 759138

people are dumb and I'm cringe should I fucking off myself

No. 759139

>>759138
nah, there's always the chance that people might become less dumb and you might become less cringe if you just stick it out

No. 759149

My best friend is so unsympathetic to my problems. I'm in a very tight situation and struggling financially and when I tried to vent to her she got overly mean and stopped talking to me for a while. Now whenever she chats with me she doesn't even ask how I'm doing or mentions anything my situation. She just praises herself. Only talks about herself. She constantly brings up past stuff I did that seemingly bothered her which makes her feel so bitter. Always talking behind people's backs and spilling their secrets (no guarantee she kept my private conversations with her "private") and constantly putting down my interests. The only normal conversations that are enjoyable are about stuff we both show interest in. It feels so exhausting but we have been friends since we were practically babies, she didn't use to be like this but something changed in her when she got a high paying job with her new house and her life on track. I want to drop her but part of me still wants to believe that she is the same old girl from back in the day, but alas her ego has grown so huge that she cannot handle other people. Even her boyfriend cannot handle her.

No. 759153

>>758951

Sending hugs anon. If it barely pays above min wage, would you consider another min wage job? Maybe have a talk with your boyfriend too, since it is your life first and foremost and your desires for yourself matter the most.

No. 759154

I hate men I can't deal with this anymore
I was betrayed in a very painful way in the past and have trust issues because of the way I was raised, my current boyfriend was always so nice and kind and promising he will never hurt me; i've told him many times how important it is to me to not be lied to and today i find out he was fucking lying to me, I can't take it anymore I'm tired I just want to be loved and respected but every fucking person has to end up being a self obsessed liar, this sucks so bad I'm in so much pain

No. 759155

>>759138
The realization of cringe is the beginning of wisdom, anon. I'm going through the same, it gets easier.

No. 759159

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>>757739
Really relatable

No. 759165

>>759149
I was going to say, how is this person your best friend until getting down to the end. That sucks, anon, but sometimes people are just at different places in life and aren’t compatible anymore, even if they’ve been friends for a long time. I’m sorry. Try not to hang around someone that doesn’t care about you or makes you feel bad about yourself. You can probably keep a more casual friendship for now if you want to, at least, but don’t hurt yourself trying to maintain things.

No. 759169

>>759159
I miss the old dA site design, it was easier on my laptop and better to use.

No. 759170

Idk if this is just me, but I personally would not feel proud and/or comfortable with being known as a bigot.

No. 759172

>>759170
I think that's a lot of people, it's definitely not just you

No. 759173

>>759170
It’s definitely just you, anon.

No. 759179

I literally can't stop binging on sweet stuff. First it was just milk chocolate. Then I thought I would switch to something healthier, so I started eating dark chocolate, but I couldn't stop myself from eating several bars a day and developed constipation. The other day I bought a giant mochi collection and ate the whole thing (15 pieces) in one sitting. I literally have no self discipline

No. 759182

>>759179
Don’t worry, anon, it takes lots of ups and downs to be able to control yourself.
I went back to binge eating during quarantine after being able to keep sweets around me without the need to eat them.
But after getting busy with anything else, I reduced my binge eating, so you might want to try finding something to keep yourself occupied, like a game, going out if possible, chores, anything.
If you can’t think of food, you can’t feel the need to eat anything other than the necessary.

No. 759183

>>759170
Bigot lost It’s meaning like many other words.

No. 759188

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One of my favorite fanfics of a niche-ish pairing was deleted by the author and I can’t find it anywhere and never downloaded it. Why live?

No. 759190

A friend of mine has relied on me for emotional support for months and months now. He refuses to admit that he's the source of all his problems, he externalizes everything to the point that when fixing superficial shit unsurprisingly does jack shit for his depression he just takes it as a sign that he should just give up and kys rather than, idk, fucking work on his mental health. I finally had enough of his whiny bullshit and went off on him, I told him to man the fuck up and stop wallowing in self pity. It's been several days since then and he still hasn't answered, kek. I should've known better than to be friends with a scrote. I'm so done doing emotional labor for him. He's too much of a loser to actually kill himself anyway.

No. 759195

>>759188
Same, let's wallow together

No. 759208

>>759188
no chance to dig it up in web archive?

No. 759214

>>759188
I cannot stand the girl/fakeboy in this photo- It's been 10 years since I've even spoken to her and the sight of her still makes my blood boil. You figure I'd be over it by now but nope!

No. 759221

>>759214
What happened?

No. 759225

>>759188
If it still shows up for you in Google (but leads to a dead page), you could try it with opening it in cache, saved my ass a few times

No. 759238

>>759214
spill anon. I thought she got over that fakeboi phase

No. 759240

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>>759214
Kek I have no idea who they are they were in a masterpost of cosplayers drinking/smoking like but I’m sorry anon
>>759208
>>759225
I’ll give this a try! I had actually messaged her, and she gave me a link to some old fics she’d deleted but still liked, but my fave wasn’t one of them rip

No. 759255

The only thing stopping me from jumping off a balcony is that my online friend does not know where I live and I'm afraid he'd never know that I died.

No. 759260

This tranny shit hits different when I am seeing an gynoncologist and thinking about how troons will compare their hormone OD induced diarrhea to an actual woman's issues.

No. 759262

I think I’ve grown up in that I realise now there’s no safety net anymore and I could fall hard and no one would save me.

No. 759264

>>759262
Same, shit is scary. I have a younger sister who looks up to me and relies on me. I don't think I could ever be a parent. I can't imagine the enormous responsability the parent feels for their child. The world is so uncertain and I have no idea how I'd manage if I turned seriously ill, had an accident that wrecked my body or something similar. Hug me anon.

No. 759290

I never talk about my past sexual experiences with boyfriends because of how easily jealous and butthurt they get over the fact that women have had more sex than them and heaven forbid have had better sex with other people.
I don't say shit. When asked, I play demure and like I've only ever had a few serious boyfriends and a few shitty dates. I've had a fuckton of sex though, been in many relationships, and have certainly fucked with bigger dick.
In short–I do this to prevent hurt feelings all around by not bringing up irrelevant sexual exploits. I think it's the right thing to do especially when you care about someone.

And yet my current boyfriend, who is a massive dork, has to keep telling me repeat stories of the (whopping several excluding his last marriage that lasted over a decade) women he's slept with. I feel like he does it to be less insecure or something or to be perceived as desirable.
Because otherwise, I don't give a shit about these bitches, and heaven knows why he brings up these stories to me as if he thinks I'll care. We could be talking about the most mundane shit and yet it might lead to a sex story. I do my best to convey that he's attractive to me but I guess his insecurities persist.

Like yesterday we were showering together and somehow queefing got brought up. He said how he's never heard me queef. Well, inside my mind I know I've never queefed unless the guy has a massive cock and is pushing air inside me. Combined with the fact that I get more stretched out when I'm routinely fucking with a large penis. Bf is average and doesn't have me doing acrobatics, but I can't say that. So I just tell him that I don't queef because no air is getting inside me and I'm not that loose. In response he just HAS to inform me that he slept with an older woman who had kids and she never queefed either, so.
Omfg. Does it matter? Jfc.

No. 759292

This is going to sound real cringy emo but I'm scared of having a positive outlook because the risk of things going wrong like always is really big if not inevitable.

No. 759296

>>759292
I feel ya, i think it's human

No. 759299

>>759290
Girl please start telling him your stories I promise he’ll shut up and if he doesn’t then tell him you don’t want to hear that from him either

No. 759307

>>759290
Wait, queefing means you have a loose vagina ?

No. 759308

>>759307
No, it doesn't. I'm not really sure what that anon meant tbh

No. 759309

>>759307
Not necessarily, but air does have to get in there somehow to produce a queef. If air got into everyone's vagina as easily then we'd all be queefing just by standing up and walking around.

No. 759310

>>759307
nyart– no, but if you're relaxed it can allow air to slip in. so maybe that's what anon meant.

Queefing can be hilarious if you have a good partner tho. I have a tilted uterus so if my partner pulls up while he's pulling out, or I shift up during doggy it'll hit a wall and allow a gap to form and air will get sucked in.
Queefing is very common but doesn't happen to every woman because it just has to be the right circumstances for it to happen.

Think about putting a trashbag in a can, it's like that. sometimes it makes a vacuum, sometimes it doesn't.

No. 759314

>>759307
Yes, if you have ever queefed, even just once in your lifetime, it means that you do not have a vagina; you have a flesh cavern. Even if you were to be involved with a man with a penis thicker than your thigh, your droopy queef-hole would be far too loose, and you would feel nothing as he entered, while he would experience nothing but a gentle breeze wafting through his pubes.

No. 759323

My meds cause chronic vaginitis and painful, irregular periods but I literally can't function without them so I just have to put up with it. It's so frustrating. They're so fucking expensive too but I can't not take them. Fml.

No. 759324

I don’t have BPD but I almost feel like I’m experiencing “splitting” with my bf right now. I have bipolar II and think I’m going through hypomania, and am aware that some symptoms can overlap, but I don’t think that’s one of them? I have no idea how else to describe it, though, it’s driving me nuts and turning me into a bitch

No. 759338

>>759324
I have pretty regular hypo, I think I may know what you mean if you want to specify a bit?

No. 759380

My boyfriend is irritating me more and more every day that goes by and he doesn't look for a job or do anything around the house. He acts like I have no reason to not want to have sex or be affectionate but who would want to be loving towards a man who literally sits in bed and watches twitch or games all day. He wasn't much better before he lost his job due to the pandemic but at least he worked like 18 hours a week. I guess I stuck around so long because I did see potential in him but he's devolved into a man child more and more the longer we've been together. If we break up I have nowhere to go, my family is extremely toxic, I've distanced myself from all of my local friends & rent in the area is extremely ridiculous for one person. My only escape is going to live with a friend who lives on an island on the other side of the country. She has the room for me and she doesn't mind me taking my time to settle and find a job, it just feels like such a big move after being in a 9 year relationship. I love him but I'm not in love anymore and I'm getting very resentful working and wasting my life doing nothing because he isn't into what I like and sees a lot of what I like as a waste of money even though he doesn't make any.
I'm bored, I'm resentful, and I want to leave. But I'm scared because I'm comfortable so I use weed and large amounts of kratom to just deal with it.

No. 759384

>>759380
LEAVE!!!! GET TO THE ISLAND YOU SILLY GIRL AND LEAVE! DUMP HIM AND FLUSH.

No. 759393

File: 1615497703019.jpg (22.54 KB, 269x217, 1429917712660.jpg)

>call off work because I'm literally so fatigued that talking tires me out, can't really move my arms much
>Boyfriend knows this yet decides today he wants to completely redo our room and keeps asking me to come and help move shit around and gets annoyed when I try and say I literally cannot
Dude. What the fuck.

No. 759395

>>759393
dump that mf

No. 759396

>>759393
My bf does shit like this. He always seems to need to stomp up and down the stairs and play his guitar loudly when I have a migraine and am nauseous from the pain. I love him, but men just don't think of anyone or anything outside of their bubble. They get stupid selfish schemes into their head and go on with it regardless of how it may impact others. Whenever he is ill, I am quiet and leave him alone. His newest one is waking up before me and lifting weights in the garage below my bedroom and grunting loudly. He got annoyed when I told him he woke me up at 7:30am on my day off because of all the banging. Sorry for hijacking your vent anon, but I feel your pain.

No. 759397

>>755757
just remember that you're only seeing the retard zoomers that actually post on tiktok anon, for the most part the zoomers i know in real life are good kids. every generation has braindead attention seeking morons. there is hope for the future!

No. 759398

I know I'm in the wrong but I still want to bitch about him, fuck him, he's literally retarded, seriously fuck you

No. 759400

>>755729
this is thread #69 and STILL nobody has made a nice joke about it? disappointed

No. 759401

>>759393
>>759396
How do you love someone who can't muster up basic consideration for you? Do you just not realize until later?

No. 759402

>Thread #69
haha sex number

No. 759405

File: 1615498878572.jpg (16.83 KB, 480x360, cg.jpg)

I'm so sick and tired of friends who date absolute dirtbags with known issues and get hurt as a result then come to me crying about how he couldn't be changed. I'm sorry you got hurt but everyone told you the asshole is an asshole. Don't dunk your hand in scalding water and cry when you get burned.

No. 759406

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My moid e-boyfriend has anorectal problems for a week now, he started bleeding from his anus and he got really scared because he's not used to seeing blood down there and he's a total weenie. I tried to tell him what to do and tried to calm him down. He literally had anxiety because his anus is destroyed, and didn't go to work. He was on the verge of crying I presume. I told him to eat more fiber to stop being so constipated. This guy doesn't know how to cook, he calls two
pieces of stale bread and 1 slice of ham a meal. No, he doesn't even put mayo on it. After the doctor put a finger inside his little asshole and beamed a laser on his hemorroids, he felt better. But then he got diarrhea because his entire system is not used to eating fiber. And guess what? He got anxiety because he was pooping two times a day.

Then this motherfucker tells me "I don't want to talk about my medical ailments anymore because it gives me anxiety". shut the fuck up.

I know I'm an asshole but is it normal to be angry at him? Yes I respect the boundary that he doesn't want to talk about it anymore. But somehow it makes me so FUCKING ANGRY, I don't want to talk to him for a couple of days because of how upset I am. Is this abusive on my part? Legit asking.

No. 759407

>>759393
>>759396

They know. Men know. They just don't care about you and are feeding off your energy (and expect you to put up with it).

You both know you don't need this in your life, right? This is what you are choosing voluntarily -for some reason. Why don't you protect yourselves from this?

No. 759409

>>759407
You can change bf but then you only change the problems he brings

No. 759414

>>759409
Very inspired post thanks for posting

No. 759417

>>759380

you're using drugs to anesthetize yourself from your life with this man… I think you already know what to do. Do not waste yourself away for only 9 years out of your whole life! there is so much for you to experience. Do not accept this in your life anymore.
Every second of this is a second wasted that could be spent building something you actually love and care for.

No. 759430

>>759396
Honestly he sounds pretty shitty nonny. My ex was a fucking knob and he still tiptoed and was as quiet as possible when I got a migraine and left glasses of water for me, that should honestly be a minimum.

No. 759444

Has anyone else been severely burned this year by sellers with false advertising and shady business practices or is it just me?

Sorry, I'm just really frustrated. Maybe I'm only noticing because I'm buying online more now than I ever have before, but it seems like for every 3-4ish things I order online I deal with some bullshit by the 4th or 5th item.

No. 759496

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I made picrel for dinner tonight. It's really good for a veggie roast but bf didn't like it. I even tried to spruce it up with a brown sugar butter glaze. He ate two slices and then graciously offered me the rest to take to work for lunch tomorrow. Cause he doesn't like it.

Idk, he sends mixed signals. One week he's complaining about his belly and wants to switch up our diets. Then the next he's wanting to pound back burgers, tendies, pasta, etc. I make salad and he doesn't touch it. I'll make something gourmet like cast iron skillet brussel sprouts with bacon and parm and he'll say he likes it and eats a serving but will never touch the leftovers again.
When he does feel in the mood for a vegetable, he cooks something gross like serving cold frozen broccoli he heated up in the air fryer with a shower of garlic powder on top. He's not the pickiest man I've known, my friend's husbands are pickier but still.

No. 759504

Does anyone else get a migraine instantly at the rare once a year family dinner/ reunion where your (insert relative) makes passive aggressive comments or looks at you disgustingly for no apparent reason when you talk? It drives me mad because for me specifically it’s my elderly aunt who’s son and I have had a falling out because he’s an asshole?? Like I literally keep my distance so much and idk if she’s jealous of me or something becuase I’m smarter than her son AND she’s always hated my dad? I’ve just literally done nothing to her and one time she disowned me publicly and then apologized literally because her son was being rude to me in a totally uncalled for manner and I called him out (privately) lmfao. I hate boomers and gen x so…… much . Saged bc I’m sperging out

No. 759507

>>759496
Dude has ed lol

No. 759513

I'm trying my best to stay positive since I only have a few more months at this apartment, but I really can't stand my one housemate. The only thing we share is a living room and kitchen, but we should all be conscious about chores to keep the place tidy. Like she already knows we've suffered from a mouse problem (which makes her incredibly anxious to the point of parallelization….)but has had dirty dishes on her floor for the past month. I've had to ask her to help with trash since me and another housemate were the only ones doing it and the other girl has a baby so she can't be doing it all the time and I have school. So out of all of us she has the most free time, but still does goddamn nothing. Like at first I thought it was because she was having dating issues that caused her a lot of anxiety and depression, but now she's seeing someone completely new, is all happy again, but still hasn't taken care of her surroundings or done anything to help out with the house. It's so fucking irritating since she's my age but I swore she was like 21 because of immature she acts since her free time revolves around watching TV/movies or obsessing over her dating life. Also minor nitpick but she threw away an entire carton of oat milk, still full, without checking to see if it was bad (it wasn't) but still bought a new one anyway???

No. 759515

I'm on day 2 of my diet, but there's a hot pizza sitting on my kitchen right now. What do I do? I want a slice so fucking bad, but I'm a greedy bitch so 1 slice would not just be 1 slice

No. 759516

>>759496
Tell him eating is not for pleasure, it's for sustenance. Little bitch

No. 759518

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My dad is trying to help me apply to scholarships, but he's a boomer that doesn't get how anything works and just makes things harder. Why do you need my tax returns again after filling out fafsa? Why can't you just get a full ride scholarship? Have you checked out the scholarship emails my friend sent me? (He got the email in 2019, sent it 2021, and they're just internship opportunities).
I think the worst for me as that I started late into the year, this month, and I'm nothing, but an average student. He thinks I'm some perfect student and scholarships grow on tree's, but thats both wrong. I don't wanna talk to him in a few months explaining how I got zero scholarships or aid, applied to the college to late for scholarships and he makes to much for grants.

No. 759520

>>759515
2 slices won't be the end of the world but maybe pair it with a small side of veggies if you think you'll still be hungry.

No. 759521

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I just wish my mom would drop dead. I honestly feel no love or connection for her and she obviously doesn’t give a single shit about my feelings. I want her to finally fucking drop dead and stop breathing in her sleep, I’m so tired of her and everything and suppressing my feelings. I can’t stand being at my house, I can’t stand the constant fluctuation from excitement to pure feeling nothing and apathy. I’m so tired and I want to rest forever. I want her to finally drop dead from her pathetic, emotionally negligent, obese life. I can’t stand parents who have the “if I didn’t have a good childhood or life, then you can’t” mentality, it’s like I’m not able to live my life or feel anything. I literally just got out of my house and walked 30 minutes and the night sky was beautiful, this is what my negative feelings have been hiding from me, a beautiful world inhabited by shitty people you have to unfortunately deal with, blood or not. And not a single close family member asked where I went or were worried when I stormed out and they simply don’t care if I committed suicide, was kidnapped, or died. I saw a white van drive past me in the near pitch walkway and I felt danger and fun, joking in my head that some human traffickers are going after me but the van thankfully passed.

No. 759535

>>759444
Not this year, but definitely last year before I wised up. A HUGE number of online shops especially the ones advertised on Facebook and Instagram are drop-shippers with shitty business practices and misleading product photos. Before buying anything, search for Trustpilot or Better Business Bureau reviews, and search their name on instagram- People post negative reviews/callouts and tag shitty businesses. Also, if you see an item you like that's really kitschy and expensive but the website doesn't have its origin or materials listed, take a screenshot of the product photo and crop it down to the item. Download Aliexpress, the Chinese shopping app, and use the photo upload search function- A large majority of the time, you'll find the stolen product photos and can get the item directly from the manufacturer and underpaid factory child laborers for 10% of what an instagram dropshipper is selling the item for.

I don't mean to scare you off or anything by saying that, but it just is what it is and if I'm going to buy some dumbass thing I'd rather pay the factory directly than some exploitative Shopify page. I hope that helps!

No. 759538

My boyfriend just bitched with me about how people overuse escapism as a coping mechanism, and then he played GTA online for hours. I could scream, kek

No. 759540

>>759535
One specific instance was from an Etsy seller but I get what you mean.

No. 759542

>>759540
Ooooh Etsy and Depop sellers are some of the biggest dropshipping offenders, so much 'handmade jewelry' is from Aliexpress and Taobao for $0.01

Sorry I just get super mad about predatory practices like that, last January I ordered a "handmade bridal crown" from an etsy seller for like $45 and 2 months later found the EXACT SAME ONE at Michael's for $12. I'm done ranting lol. I hope your shopping experiences get better!

No. 759552

I feel so fucking insane. A few weeks back I went to get a new ID card at the DMV for a new state i’m living in. I just got my official ID in the mail and my fucking sex on it says male. I’m not a troon and all the personal records I provided them say female and I also checked female on the application it seems someone just made an oopsy inputting all the information. I’m so so so so so so annoyed because dealing with DMV stuff is such a pain i’m not even sure what to do other than try to contact customer service and hope they fix it for free. Is this karma for being a terf?

No. 759554

>>759552
That sucks but take it as how easily you can change the sex on it yet troons have to fight for it kek

No. 759557

>>759406
the diarrhea could also be contributed to by anxiety so not talking about it is probably a good idea

No. 759558

>>759542
Etsy has kinda given up on that front with jewelry/accessories especially, they frequently feature obvious crap on their frontpage that it takes 2 seconds of searching to find the aliexpress listing for, as other anon said. Basically if they dont have a picture of them making the thing they probably didn't. Shitty cause actual handmade stuff is nicer but more expensive, but people see it next to cheap imports and buy the cheap option, so the aliexpress stuff gets bestseller featured status instead of the nice stuff. Etsy gets about the same fee either way so they dgaf apparently, and now you've got to check people's instagrams etc to see if they actually make stuff, and even then they might make a few things and import most. You can test a seller by asking if theyll do a custom size or minor alteration of the item you want, something small that they should be fine with if they do actually make the stuff… like asking for no salt fries at mcdonalds.

No. 759563

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Why the fuck is this a meme?

No. 759567

>>758912
Thanks anon,I just need to be thick skinned around her rather than being a sensitive crybaby
It was unusual from her though and uncalled for

No. 759588

>>759384
>>759417
Thanks for encouraging me nonnies. I have terrible luck in life so I'm trying to build my savings to a point that I'll feel comfortable leaving and handling whatever other issues life may throw at me in the process. I'm aiming to be gone by summertime.

No. 759592

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How is it that despite waking up hours earlier than my boyfriend every morning, working a longer shift, and then coming home to do more things before I even start to feel drowsy around 11pm that he still has the need to go to sleep at fucking 9pm? I'm so fucking bored fam. I came out to the kitchen to be on my laptop because there's no point laying like a sardine in my bed trying to be careful not to wake him while watching something on tv that's at a whisper volume. Can't even watch tv in my living room because roommate is hogging it, per usual. I get that boyfriend is a tad older than me but I wonder if he's not depressed or something. He sleeps like crazy and never seems to want to do anything besides plop in my bed when he gets home and watch some brainless–self-admitted–movies like superhero shit which I hate. When it's finally my turn for a night to pick something to watch, he complains about whatever I choose as either requiring "too much think" or "too silly" for his tastes. He's bored of whatever I pick and drops within 30 minutes of putting it on.

Sorry, I don't want to watch The Dark Knight.
Sorry, I don't want to watch The Secretary.
You've seen these movies already anyway.
Can we watch engaging and thoughtful movies that don't involve overpowered narcissist worship, or damaged yet hot women clowning themselves?

I'm going to have to get a hobby that doesn't involve him or I'm going to go fucking crazy. This boredom has me upset about watching fucking tv.

No. 759603

>>759515
I just ate two slices and I feel like a fucking failure. I also have cheesecake mousse in the fridge. I just feel fat and disappointed in myself right now honestly .

No. 759611

HOLY FUCK I frequently come here to release steam when my boyfriend "practices" instruments. He is the WORST musician that I have ever heard, and even after six years of owning goddamn every single instrument as a personality, he's somehow gotten significantly worse. Imagine someone who was a bad painter to begin with slowly losing their eyesight. His music wants to make me anonymously report him for noise despite it being relatively quiet. It makes me envy the deaf and HoH community. It makes me "accidentally" get rid of all of my own instruments while we're moving under the guise that I no longer play them. I have never wished for someone to just give up so hard in my life. I wish he liked cars or beer for fucks sake, this whole pretending to be a sophisticated jazz musician while not knowing how off tune you are is poisonous. The air is thick with noise pollution and I wish I had passed out from it. Imagine the worst music you have ever heard, and imagine that person living with you and playing random instruments nearly every day for six years. I love him so I've never said shit but it makes me wish I was dying. He has the same idea of how to strike a piano as an autistic 4 y/o in music therapy class, except those classes are at most 55 minutes long. He hits notes at near-perfect random, he could seriously make a random number generator jealous. I beg him to paint. They suck too, and he blows money on canvases (he literally has over 60 paintings in a garbage bag I just discovered) but at least it's a fucking silent activity. His singing is awful not only for the fact that every note is missed entirely but for the fact that he sings with such gusto, as if he's doing the world a favour by singing even more loudly than he normally would. He thinks he rocks. If he had social media or ever shared his "body of work" I'd be the first to leave and share it to lolcow. It's bad enough to sustain a thread alone. I have no idea why he's such a cocky "artist" when he's such a meek individual. I suffer for my own silence by not telling him to shut the fuck up every fucking day. Men are a disease. Men are sick. Art is dead. I fucking hate music now. He's like having bedbugs but in your ears. He just stopped so I'm gonna go pretend to sleep so he hopefully won't continue.

I can't describe to you how bad. I've filmed it to show my mom and holy fuck. It's like he's never heard a song before, it makes my mom flinch. Horrific. Horrible. Please kill me.

No. 759620

>>759611
why have you never told him he's bad? are you scared of how he'll react?

No. 759621

>>759611
im dying. does he like, record it and play it back to himself ever even? If he does that and still thinks it sounds ok then idk maybe hes genuinely tone deaf. It's a deep pit though since to admit to himself hes awful hed have to admit he wasted years and years of his life. a lot of people would rather go to their grave than admit that to themselves so idk probably a lost cause

No. 759624

>>759611
kekkkkkk this is so freaking funny lmao
also, dump him

No. 759625

File: 1615523884959.gif (2 MB, 200x200, canteven.gif)

>>759611
> I suffer for my own silence by not telling him to shut the fuck up every fucking day. Men are a disease. Men are sick. Art is dead. I fucking hate music now.

oh my god my sides

No. 759627

>>759620
He sulks like a baby if you tell him that his shoes stink and need to be washed, if I told him he sucked asshole at music in the nicest words possible he'd bring it up bitterly for a year. I just can't, that'd be the only thing worse than his music tbh.
>>759621
He is genuinely tone deaf. He records himself often just for "practice" reasons but thankfully hasn't posted it anywhere. A lost cause would be putting it nicely.
>>759624
I'll probably have to just to remain sane.

No. 759628

>>759611
oh my god this is the best fucking post in this entire godforsaken website. I'm laughing at every sentence. Bless you and fuck scrotes KEK

No. 759629

>>759627
>He sulks like a baby if you tell him that his shoes stink and need to be washed, if I told him he sucked asshole at music in the nicest words possible he'd bring it up bitterly for a year. I just can't, that'd be the only thing worse than his music tbh.

I'm sorry you have to torture yourself like this

No. 759640

>>759611
Haven't you posted about him before? Why are you still with him nonny

No. 759655

>>759611
>Imagine someone who was a bad painter to begin with slowly losing their eyesight.
lmaoooo
>Men are a disease. Men are sick. Art is dead. I fucking hate music now. He's like having bedbugs but in your ears.
>It's like he's never heard a song before
I love you anon

No. 759667

>>759611
You should secretly record his noise so we can bully and have a good laugh. It might make you feel better too.

No. 759668

I feel so sad and broken because I'm with someone that loves me but I don't feel like I can completely love them back due to past trauma. I don't know if I'll ever be able to function and love like a proper human being, but so much of me has been broken and destroyed already that I can't let myself be a real person. And I want to, but I can't.

No. 759683

I'm an ESLfag and in my country nothing ever gets dubbed sans maybe kids' cartoons so there's your cultural context, but jesus I actually despise Americans who demand dubs for everything. What absolute brainlet do you have to be in order to be unable to play a nip game due to "not understanding what the characters say"? Read the dialogue texts and subtitles, what the fuck. Or are you illiterate? Never in my life has "having to" actually read the text bothered me and it's ultimately brainboggling to see people who say this shit. And then they get ridiculously defensive over it and start saying things like "s-seethe weeb, jpdubs are cringe!!!!" like I was missing out on their shitty D-list voice actor experience. Lmao at least my favourite jpVAs aren't on Twitter sperging about retarded idpol and fandom discourse. And stop with the "it only bothers you because you realize how cringe anime sounds in English" cope, the dialogue always gets localized and butchered to hell in the dub.

I'm sperging but honestly this is something that never ceases to piss me off. Your dubs are shit to everyone outside of America, accept it. I have never, ever met an ESL who didn't think the English dubs sound like ear murder.

No. 759685

My boyfriend is making me feel really weird and bad because I only have interest in one specific video game as of late. He keeps acting like I have an obsession with it because I talk about it a lot and I play it for hours on my two days off of work. I didn't even think it was that bad, I just finally found something I enjoyed again. I mean it's the first time in years that I've actually had genuine interest in something and now I feel like a freak for having this now. And he keeps making comments how I don't play anything else and how he's super disappointed he can't do anything else with me… But like, I told him I'm not even opposed to trying something else, he just is going to have to find that something else because I have no idea what to play in the genre he likes. Then he just tells me there's no point because I won't even like it anyway… I don't even know why he says that, the last things we played together, he was the one who didn't like it and made us stop playing. I feel like he's just projecting on me because then he also complains that I'm too picky but the last things we played I did enjoy it and said I did but then he acts like I'm lying and gets all sulky. I just wish he could stop blaming me for the lack of diversity in what we play together and stop making me feel bad that I have something I really enjoy…

No. 759690

>>759611
Lmao are you sure you love him?

No. 759691

do you ever just kind of have a moment where you sit and think and realize maybe you were actually the one projecting things during fights in your last relationship
not much to be done about it now but yea I got some shit to work through

No. 759697

>>759683
Girl I get you. Not murrican but my country has a huge worship culture for dubbing shit as well and I grew up in another one which had everything subbed. I'd rather watch shit in the original version, doesn't matter if it's in English, Japanese, German or whatever and idgaf about people watching dubbed stuff yet they're the one screeching "elitist" at me when I state my preferences like the insecure cunts they are. And then they wonder why they can only speak one language kek.

No. 759698

Urgh it's my time of the month and feeling really moody. I work with all guys so no one understands and they just think I'm a raging bitch today.
I just want to snap at everyone with no consequences.

No. 759702

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I’ve explained multiple times to my SO that his using of his phone while he’s driving makes me uncomfortable and I’d prefer it if he did it less. Today we kinda started fighting over it and his excuse is that he’s an experienced driver and only do it when he has “control”. It just makes me so upset because out of all things he could defend its using his phone while driving. He just thinks I’m silly and overreacting, I don’t know what to tell him to make him understand.

No. 759713

>>759702
Isn't that illegal in most places? Only takes half a second not to see some kid running across the road to end up in prison for manslaughter because his dumbass had his eyes on a funny cat meme.

No. 759718

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I finally got a psychiatrist to take my issues with my extremely shitty self-confidence. I've been asking for help with it for YEARS because nothing I do to raise it helps ("fake it til you make it", try to find good things about my looks in the mirror every day even if it's minor, etc) and it really affects my every day life to the point that I occasionally actually want to die so I had suspicions that something might be really wrong with me.
At first she didn't really know what to make of it, like most other professionals I've seen, but it seemed like she did some thinking between our last session and this. I had a complete breakdown while talking about it last week, which is fairly rare because I'm usually fairly put-together exception from a wee bit of occasional crying, seems to check out with a type of body dysmorphia. I've had suspicions about it before but I didn't really want to think about it, I don't want another diagnosis on my already existing pile of issues and I'm scared that it means I will never be happy with myself of my brain being permanently wacky.
But on the other hand I'm also happy to have it finally getting taken seriously.

No. 759726

I wish I had someone here with me to rub and pat my back. I feel like I need to cry for no discernible reason. I hate when I get random spurts of emptiness like this.

No. 759730

I confined in my friend about my feelings of fragmented identity and lack of a sense of self and he just basically replied something like "lol I can't see it, you seem consistently like you to me." Like he just completely denied me having an issue. He's usually really understanding about mental health issues so it's completely baffling to me that he'd react like that. Wtf. I want to spam him with articles about identity disturbances, dissociation and depersonalization. Just because you can't "see" it doesn't mean I don't struggle with it. Fuck all the way off.

No. 759731

>>759702
I would refuse to sit in a car who's driver goes on his phone. You really need to do something about it for the sake of your own safety. Maybe show him stats of death by phone-use while driving or a couple of news articles reporting on such stupid deaths. He can risk driving himself into a tree if he feels like it but he shouldn't be passing that involuntary risk on to you. He's literally putting your life at stake here, that's not an exaggeration.

No. 759753

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I'm breaking up with my boyfriend of 1+ year this weekend.

No. 759755

When I was little my mother was sick in the hospital (my dad stayed with my mom there) so me and my younger sister had to spend the easter holidays at my aunts house so we could play with our two cousins. On easter morning my aunt revealed at breakfast that she, my uncle and our cousins would pack their things today to drive all the way to france to go to disneyland the next week and that they would drop me and my sister off at our grandmas house on the way. She said that she planned the trip a few weeks ago and that she wanted it to be her kids easter present. I remember my little sister crying and my aunt looking smug while my cousins were super happy and talking about packing their bathing suits since they would be staying at a 5 star hotel with pool. That was the worst easter holiday ever. I still kind of resent my aunt for it.

No. 759758

>>759718
I'm happy for you anon. I know it's all a lot to handle and of course body dysmorphia and whatever causes it sucks to deal with, but I know how liberating it feels to finally be understood and taken seriously. Road might be long and tough but there's hope, now you know what you're working with and you'll be good someday in the future.

No. 759764

just remembering my face is enough to completely destroy my mood, or catching myself in a mirror, i hate my ugly mug so much, it seriously makes me rage. i have a good enough body, it's not bad at all but my ugly fucking face ruins everything. why am i so fucking ugly. i hate talking to people or socializing because of it, because i know im such an ugly bum who would want to talk to me. i know i sound so whiny but god, i would do anything to change my face.

No. 759765

>>759758
I hope so! One of the goals we set when we started the therapy was to help me be able to think positive thoughts about myself, so with this maybe she'll figure out a good approach to it as well.
Though I wish I could talk to people around me about it, I always felt like a whiny fuck whenever I talked about how much I hate myself but at lest there is an explanation to it now, but I don't wanna have to explain that I'm not gonna troon out due to the association lol

No. 759777

I'll soon be living alone, at least two hours away from every single person I know. I've been looking into self defense courses in the city I'll be moving to, because I'm scared shitless of stranger men, and while I have no idea how effective it'll be in a serious situation, I figured it wouldn't hurt to know some basics. Someone please tell me why every course is either not seperated by sex or, if it is, it's tranny inclusive reeeee.
Bonus vent: I thought I saw this trans stuff pushed so much where I live because we're so close to the capital, aka the idpol hot spot of our country, but seeing this makes me realize it's probably all over the country already.

No. 759779

A family in my building has a special needs kid that has a screaming meltdown every morning. I would kill myself if I had to deal with that every day, and every day until I died of old age

No. 759802

First world problems, but my mom is insanely bad at giving gifts because she can't get out of her headspace. She's gave someone a video game to a console they don't own, her MLM 'anti cancer' meds to a child, and a toy so annoying for a child their family begged for us to take it back. Most of these also happened when the person explicitly stated to her they wanted X, but she ignored them because "I'm good at reading people". She even has the gall to mock my gifts when a child asked her for a pokemon card set and she got them a scam "phone disease blocker" sticker.
The worst part is she get's insanely angry when someone says 'Thats not a good gift idea' or gets disappointed when a 10 year old is disappointed with vegan jerky. My main problem is I have a birthday coming up with a child who I know will be dispointed by her gifts. I'm going to have to explain to them why they have to fake being happy for the rest of the day to avoid my mothers wrath.

No. 759806

Just accept that you are ugly and move on to improve your other assets.
Some people are just ugly, nothing to do about it, no bargain will change it, that bullshit that "everyone is beautiful in someway" is a lie, so just face it and be the best ugly bitch you can be!

No. 759807

>>759806
Meant to respond to >>759764

No. 759809

>>759777
If you are taking a self defense class you are better off being in a mixed class, those classes are mostly all women anyway but learning exclusively how to defend yourself against women isn't going to be much help

No. 759901

>>759807
knowing that i'm ugly just makes me not want to improve anything else. not like i don't have hobbies etc, but more like, i hate interacting with people and want to be alone, forever, at the same time, i want someone to find me tolerable, despite my ugly face and annoying as fuck personality. god, i'm doomed.

No. 759924

I hate it when westerners try to force their ideals on other countries, especially when it comes to japan because I'm a fucking weeb.
It's ridiculous when people flip tables and get triggered by contents in an anime/manga, like the whole "AoT is fascist" debacle or whatever is going on. The animation studio is not going to give a shit about your opinions or feefees. You are not the main audience, especially not if you are downloading or using illegal streaming services to catch the latest episodes/chapters asap after it's released.
And also people that claim fatshaming on asian sizes not fitting them, the clothes are accommodated to asian body types and are not really that comparable to western sizing system (which also can vary from country to country). It sucks that you can't fit in the cute dress or pants that you really like, but that's how it is. The. World. Does. Not. Revolve. Around. You. Or. Your. Feelings.

No. 759925

>>759611
I remember you. Just dump him or you'll be suffering for the rest of your life.

No. 759927

>>759901
Well I for one hate how "Westerners" call themselves that because they conveniently leave out all the fucking South Western world because they are too important to be mixed with poop latin americans and Africans.
Fuck the "West" I wish people would use geographic words correctly, not as a way to explain their fucking neocolonial mindset.

No. 759934

>>759683
I've never understood why dubs are still so shitty, I feel like any random high school drama club would do a better job, or at least it would be more engaging than the same old flat-affect boring as hell VAs. By the way, you are correct that people who complain about having to read subs are not fully literate. More people than you would expect actually have to "actively read", like they can read but it's not effortless. They're not like sounding it out or anything, its subtle. When I was a barista, it was scary how many adults would slightly or totally misread manu items. Whenever you see someone implying that reading takes effort as opposed to being unthinkingly automatic, that person is just not fully, fluently literate. Also, a large percent of the population has genuine dyslexia and for them reading will always be more work, and a lot of people actually have dyslexia and dont know it. It's sad because they dont even know how relatively hard it is for them vs other people, and idk if it's that fixable once someone is grown.

Also love "brainboggled", will be using

No. 759937

>>759702
Like others said, if someone started phoning while driving I would go off immediately, its retard behavior. I scream at phonedrivers when I see them as a pedestrian. I mean literally suddenly scream at the top of my lungs HEY RETARD PUT THE PHONE DOWN right in their side window, I end up doing this about 2-3x a month. Youve got to give a fucker a shock or they wont learn a damn thing. I had a coworker drive me somewhere one time, it was only like 10 minutes but he set up his fucking phone on the dash like a GPS, and he started watching fucking yputube videos while driving. Unbelievable. I never spoke to him again. I would drop that guy, it's literally as retarded as trying to excuse drunk driving and tells you hes an unfixable shithead. And even if he stops doing it around you he wont when hes alone. Just a classic sbithead douchebag tell.

No. 759940

I fucking hate when people do the whole boohoo i have no friends thing just because they’re not being paid attention to 24/7. I actually have no friends or family and they will never get how actually soul crushing it is.

No. 759955

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I've failed so bad at female socialization, and socialization in general. I've always felt so disconnected with both girls and guys. I was an ugly duckling tomboy when I was younger, so I had a hard time making friends of either gender. For some reason girls were grossed out by me just like guys which always struck me as weird.

I've tried so many things to try and fix it, so many years of therapy (along with other issues), exercise/self improvement, meditation, reading books, reaching out and taking initiative with people. I have one friend who lives in another state now, she is a nice person but we aren't as emotionally close as I want.

I've had so many bad experiences with men after giving them countless chances that I feel comfortable saying yes, all men are like that, and it just proves itself to be true. It doesn't matter if they're sexually attracted to you or not, single or taken, they behave in really gross ways and I don't feel emotionally connected to them.

I want to be closer to women but I am kind of afraid of them since I was bullied a lot as a teenager mostly by girls. I was even bullied and targeted by women in college, whereas when men didn't like me they would just avoid me.

I just came to terms with being a lesbian but I still hold a shred of doubt in me that maybe 1/1,000,000,000 guys in the world will actually be good. So my sexuality also complicates my attempts to be close to women, because I feel creepy

No. 759957

>>759924
'Westerners' is such a dumb term, there like hundreds of western cultures, most of them don't give a shit about SJW culture, if you mean Americans, say Americans.

Also, yeah, being triggered by sizes is dumb, 'fashism' in anime too.
But what a dumb ass argument is that you shouldn't ever criticise media that you aren't target audience for. Or criticise someone's culture.

I can criticise Saudi because it's fucking horrible to women. I can criticise America because of its SJW identity bullshit. I can criticise Japan because of its disgusting pedo culture.

Just because you're a weeb japanophile doesn't mean people can't touch your favourite country.

No. 759982

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My vent is that it's annoying when anons refuse to take a single look at the board and its culture, reddit spacing and double posting like no tomorrow. Why the fuck not just read the fucking rules so I don't need to see 586787 lines of "paragraphs" that are actually just sentences. Goddamit, same goes for the lack of sage, namefagging and so on but for some reason the way some anons just reddit space and take so much space just because they don't care to take a tiny little look before typing the fuck away, fuck off hemmingway ass.

No. 759988

>>759982
It's annoying, some anons have a really distinct way of formatting their posts that makes them stand out across threads. Is it just me or has this been happening a lot more recently?

No. 759989

>>759988
I would say it's been more prominent lately or maybe I am just more intolerant of it these days, it sticks out so much.

No. 760031

>>759955
i'm the same way with women no matter how hard i try to 'integrate' socially, i feel judged when i try to do back and forth with them or rarely get replies

i have slightly more luck online because i can fake being normal at first

all in all it's pointless to try to be normal

No. 760040

>>760031
Is the spacing here trolling, anon?

No. 760055

>>760040
i didn't read the replies above me until after i posted i'm retarded

No. 760104

I ended a 12-year relationship and went back to my hometown. And although I suffered a lot in that relationship because I spent years being treated half the time as a decorative plant and the other half as a mother, now I feel guilty because he was alone in the city, he has no friends and not even a good relationship with the family and I know that he is suffering a lot from the breakup. And I feel even more guilty for being so relieved that it's all over. I just want to have a less miserable life

No. 760141

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>>760104
Nah fuck that anon
He had 12 years, over an entire decade to realize what he had and take care to keep it. Sounds Iike you’re both grown grown, like closer to 30 than 20 grown.

Him not having friends is also his choice. You just work on getting that less miserable life for yourself.

No. 760153

I sometimes wish I could "run away" and maybe just die somewhere without my family knowing. Thinking about my future past 50 feels lonely and makes what I'm doing now feel pointless. I love my family but I'm childless and alone besides them so when they're all gone I won't have anyone anyway.

No. 760188

>>760153
Same. I don’t have any kids and probably won’t get married, I seriously panic every time I see sad older women working at like Walmart checkout stands or living alone in crappy apartments as crazy cat aunties because I can see myself hurtling that way at Mach speed.

Single women without families become more invisible and isolated every year past a certain age, I want to try and find someone before then but I’m feeling completely hopeless.

No. 760194

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I'm not suicidal, but I do want to kill myself sometimes. I know I should keep going, but life has been so draining and hard since childhood.

No. 760197

I come to lolcow to break away from the stresses of my real life.
The influx of shitty posts from teenagers trying to find dirt on their friends or people they admire has started to annoy me more than anything.
I miss the days where kaka was self posting, where we would have townhall chats and share what we found funny and why.
It feels like internet culture has changed and like the site has been taken over by spergs.
Everyone edits, it's only milky when they lie and look incredibly different irl.
Everyone did stupid things when they were young, I don't care about shoeonhead saying the n word a decade ago.

Show me real milk, damnit. I miss scammers and egregious liars, and actually awful people who deserve these threads.

No. 760200

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I feel like I have a ridiculously contrary personality and I’ve got a bad temper on top of it. I always have to disagree with the majority, or hate what’s popular (movies, celebrities / public figures, fandoms and ships) so I can barely enjoy anything.

Like a hipster on steroids, I ALWAYS end up loving something way less popular and then getting spiteful that my favorite isn’t getting as much attention.

Everything also sets me off (adderal is amplifying it now, too) I’m a miserable angry bitch 24/7 why the fuck am I like this ??? AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH

No. 760203

I'm really fucking angry and bitter about people who aren't essential workers getting the vaccine because of their BMI- in particular those individuals who are all about HAES/"BMI isn't real" who are so smug about getting it. It's hard to not be bitter when you're at a healthy bmi and working a job that deals with bodily fluids and you can't find available appointments anywhere (and your coworkers are apparently also having difficulties).

No. 760205

>>760194
… That is being suicidal though

No. 760207

>>760205
don’t make laugh

No. 760212

>>760203
thats what you get for being fatphobic

No. 760214

>>760205
Nah. I don't really wanna go into detail but, I only feel that way because I feel like it's easier sometimes, and usually when I have those thoughts it feels more like a childish response to being very upset, if that makes sense. Plus, I'm scared of dying lmao.

No. 760217

>>760194
I think I understand you anon, I'm not suicidal and I would definitely not kill myself but I really want to die sometimes. Life is so hard to deal with sometimes if someone offered me an option to just pass away peacefully right here and right now I think I'd do it.

No. 760218

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I'm going CRACY in lockdown and everything, I have no friends man I need a life…My brains disintegrating as we speak. How can I make friends… nobody seemed to want to put in the effort of friendship even before all this

No. 760243

>>760188
I turn 30 this year so its just hitting hard. I know kids and a partner are no guarantee either… my grandma's friend is old and alone despite having had a husband and several children. She's sick and can't drive and falls down in the street and shit with no one to help her except strangers. All the single older women I know live in poverty…

No. 760245

My piece of shit apartment building has the nerve to charge $300 extra for rent when my lease renews. They're also cutting the amenities fee down from $500 to $250 despite the fact that the pool, rooftop, game room, and office room have been closed the entire time I've been here.

No. 760259

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I'm sick and tired of myself. It's my first year in uni but I'm staying with a family member since covid happened and so I had to move really far temporarily. My episodes are becoming more frequent because I miss everyone including boyfriend, and I really like calling him so I feel like I have company but for some reason my episodes always end up happening on a thrusday or Friday and he has DnD those days so I cant call him. I have no one else to talk to but I don't want to be a bitch and force him to listen to me whine and tell him how much I miss him instead of hanging with his friends since they don't see each other often but goddamn. I've never been isolated and disconnected from anyone before and its really starting to fuck me up since he's the only person I have that will listen to me when I'm upset. Not even my best friend is available when I'm like this even though I've always been available for them and it kind of hurts. I just want to talk to him so badly whenever I feel like this. I always feel myself get so mad when I know that our conversation will be cut short just for that day but I don't want to take that out on him. But most of all I'm mad at myself for somehow creating this dependency instead of working through my emotions like I've done in the past. Fuck you DnD, you took my psychologist.

No. 760261

I've severed ties with two past love interests. I'll now try to make my life fulfilling without chasing some dudes who can only send mixed signals and toy with me.
I will stop numbing myself with xanax and just fill my time with healthy activities and very little down time until all of this goes away.
It's my pledge, nonnie. I can't keep like this, my mental health is tanking. My shrink told me to rest and to make new friends.
Except I'm now feeling like a lazy shit and I'll always to try to solve others problems and be there for them rather to better myself like I should.
I'll be productive. I just wish I could turn my feeling off, like men (well except anger, but at least you can channel anger into things)

No. 760286

My roommate is fucking annoying and I wanna live alone so bad but Southern California is so fucking expensive

No. 760287

I'm mad at my boyfriend, so I'm going to fill his work shoes with ice in the middle of the night.

No. 760292

>>760287

Spray water on them then put them in a freezer, just light enough to get icy but not so much it's visible

I froze a workmates boots and toolbox in a trough of water after they were a cunt on a Friday

No. 760296

>>760243
Not trying to be mean but I think the wealthier older single people tend to live in or near cities just for convenience, fun and quality of life, since being old and single in the sticks seems like hell. My mom is about retirement age and actually has been seeing a lot more of her friends from college that stayed single/childless in the city near us, since she has the free time now compared to when she had young kids. Shes been leaving my dour ol dad behind for retired professionals wine lunch and it seems fun lol. Shes talked about how she thought she could keep up friendships after moving out of the city just to a close suburb but it really didn't work, so i think she kinda wished she'd stayed on the city. Closer urban environments help you stay more in touch with people I think, and it's easier to meet friends & companions in a city where theres more older single people around. Also I think, as a single person, you can move up in careers way faster in the city, because theres jist more opportunities, and also it's not considered weird to be older & single like it is in more suburban/rural places. I guess you didn't say you weren't in a city, but either way you kinda gotta have money if you dont want to rely on people.

No. 760298

I hate my sister and i wish she would just fuck off already.

No. 760303

You ignore me all fucking day and then blow up my phone when you want to bang. Dick.

No. 760304

>>760188
idk why you would assume they have no family, it's not like being single and childfree was common in their generation. Chances are those older ladies work at walmart because divorce impoverishes women at a far higher rate than it does men.

I'm gonna avoid marriage and kids specifically because I want to be financially secure in my old age and so I can retire early. Nothing's going to disrupt my career or fuck with my earning potential, I'll have no financial liabilities (a husband who gambles, drinks, screws me in divorce court etc) and I won't need to spend my money on anyone but myself. I'll have to prepare for aging by getting a legal advocate etc but I think facilities for single elders will improve as the number of single elders increases.

No. 760308

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Is it possible to be in your mid-20s and already feel like technology and society are leaving you behind? I barely understand NFTs, I'm a little scared of them even, but they're talked about like they're life-altering and alarming and I don't know if I should be changing the way I share art or use social media or whatever. To be honest anything that involves cryptocurrency intimidates the fuck out of me. I think I'm developing technophobia. I used to find cottagecore people kind of twee and idealistic but now all I can fantasize about is completely unplugging from the internet and living somewhere where none of that shit matters.

No. 760309

Fell for a dude again and he got himself a femboy boyfriend and I hate him with my guts and I hate the way he emulates so many feminine mannerism and gets all the praise while I have done that all my life and I never got an applause
This has happened to me a couple of times already, falling for dudes only because I'm clearly not their interest and their love for me is genuine/desinterested/platonic
The only difference is that this one occassion made me casually homophobic

No. 760310

please god help me

No. 760312

>>760304
Plus there's no reason why those women don't have a family. Most of my older female coworkers at my retail job are married/divorced with kids and either work there as a second job or they're bored homemakers whose kids finally left the nest.

No. 760314

My mento illness xx want me to pick fights with everyone I love lmao kill me

No. 760316

I'm on the last maybe hour total of work left on this clothing pattern I've made, and my dumbass is slacking so hard. Once it's done, I can move onto photos and estimating the amount of fabric needed et voilà! I can sell the pattern to people eager to see this pattern I've taken way too long on. I have no idea why the last and sometimes easiest bit of work left takes me the longest. I am retarded. Also I made a steaming hot tea right as my boyfriend fell asleep and now I'm chatty.

No. 760317

>>760316
As someone who can't draft for shit and just happily follows patterns made by other people, I salute you. You can do it babes

No. 760322

>>760308
dont worry about the nft/blockchain stuff lol it's not that complicated or special. A blockchain is simply a record of transaction history that's kept by all involved parties (like if everyone had access to a global record of every time a dollar bill changed hands). Most journalists still dont know the difference between "a blockchain" in general, and Bitcoin which is one specific blockchain. There was a frontpage kotaku article about blockchain like yesterday where the guy blatantly had no fuckin clue what he was talking about, even the comment section roasted him.

NFTs are just specific blockchains created by companies so theres a record of "we sold this to this one guy and this proves hes the true owner of these pixels" and it cant ver duplicated or forged. Its just a way for redditors and autists to have something new to collect, and even better, something that they are the "sole owner" of. It's no coincidence that this is happening right after the reddit game stop Robin hood saga - the demographic of redditors and dickheads that spent the last 4 years donating to trump & bernie now has nothing to do but invest in stupid shit for memes, and then the redditors on the losing end of it get salty and write salty doomer thinkpieces. Literally and I'm 0% kidding, disregard everything you read clamoring about the danger or unfairness of NFT or whatever the fuck, people have literally no idea what they are talking about, like genuinely none, and media is being really irresponsible letting clueless people write so much unchecked drivel about it. Could NFTs be worth something in the future? Maybe, but it's literally impossible to tell if it'll be like beanie babies or baseball cards, and either way its autists taking money from other turbo autists so who tf cares, better its this than them funding ron paul again or w/e the fuck they latch onto. Fools and their money, etc.

No. 760325

Got to my parents house for the weekend, and the first thing my dad does is say something about my hair and whether I’ve lost weight. Gonna be a long one, girls.

No. 760326

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I'm on the pill, have an IUD, always use condoms, and I'm still scared I'm pregnant
and I'm realizing my doctor is probably right that I have bipolar disorder

No. 760334

>>760322
Ha, this made me laugh and also made me feel a little better. Your brief history on it helped me put things into perspective. I'll just take a break from reading about it and see if it's even a topic by next week. Thanks, anon

No. 760363

>>760326
Can you do both the pill and an IUD? I'm guessing you mean the copper one

I'm so paranoid about pregnancy that I just stopped having sex a few years ago. The last guy I dated had a vasectomy which was cool but then the sex was so one sided and crappy that I couldn't even make the most of that deal anyway. Sex just doesn't feel worth it.

No. 760369

i just want to die. why was underage me such a godd*mn whore, now adult-me has to deal with the consequences of it. it's been so long yet i still fucking get messages from pedo scrotes from way back then. i have no online presence yet they still find a way to contact me, i just JUST want peace. fuck teen me, hate that thot bitch.

No. 760372

>>760369
I was watching a youtube vid yesterday (think it was about some youtuber sexting an underage girl, the usual lol) It was pointed out in the vid that underage girls more often become sexual for validation rather than actually being horny. oh my.. the painful memories that line brought back. The pervs I entertained even when I had no sex drive or true desire in me. I purely wanted to be told I had some value and in my underage mind being attractive was the only way a girl could be valuable. I've had alot of sex and sexual interactions for someone who honestly isn't that sexual of a person.

No. 760375

>>760372
oh god, the way this hits, anon. it's so true. now that i'm an adult, i realize how non-sexual i actually am, i barely have a sexdrive. it's such a cliche but the only reason why i got up to what i did as a kid was because i had no dad and got diddled, the need for Older Male Validation was so strong in me. i hope you're doing good nowadays, i can understand your feels, it sucks it had to be this way for us. fuck those men.

No. 760381

I repainted part of my bathroom the other day, did it quite spur of the moment just to deal with a wall that has issues with damp in the winter. Didn't think to wear gloves at first. I ended up having some paint dry on my fingers and when I pulled my fingers apart I took away a good chunk of skin with it. I put plasters on after that and found some washing up gloves to use while finishing the job but holy fuck it's days later and I've been constantly trying not to touch my (dominant) hand off of anything while it's painfully raw.

I needed plasters at first but then realised it also will need to breath a lil to heal. It has pissed down rain and hail everyday since so I'm not keen to go out and buy whatever fancy sprays or breatable plasters that exist for stuff like this. I just want the use of my hand back. The last time something like this happened was when I was removing a lightbulb and it shattered in my hand. I just hate how dumb and preventable this was.

No. 760401

>>760369
Where do moids even find the time to constantly stalk out girls and women even after they've moved on? I've heard this so many times that I wonder where the time and resources come from

No. 760402

>>760372
Kek, I had the same experience. Would rarely and almost never enjoy sex and truthfully rarely had a sex drive but wanted to seek out older male validation. It didn't help I had other teenage girl friends with the same problems normalizing it to me. The lolita culture of the internet and porn sickness was fucking harsh. I didn't start enjoying sex and getting a strong sex drive until I reached 20. I feel like it's the same for most women, somehow.

No. 760410

I'm 26 years old and I still feel like a fucking teenager. I'm panicking, because I'll turn 30 in 4 years and I'm just not ready.

I have a bunch of fucked up life experience but I haven't achieved anything. And I'm 10 kg overweight, been struggling with this for years, always losing and gaining the same amount due to PMDD.

Whenever I see teenagers, especially egirls (since I used to be a scene kid), I get so jealous. Not in a mean way but I mourn my youth every time I see some alternative kids. I know it's stupid but yeah… I have no style anymore. I wish I could be a 16-year-old egirl again. No real responsibilities. All the time in the world. Still so clueless about what a loser I actually am.

I hate being an adult, I want to stop.

No. 760446

i bought caffeine-free bang instead of regular…

No. 760449

lockdown have given me a dump truck ass and I hate it. I had no idea I was fucking pear shaped

No. 760473

>>760410
Who cares about age anon, just take your inner child as a good thing. At least you're not mentally a bitter shriveled auntie, it's better to feel young than old.
And nowadays 30 is the new 20, people are just getting into their adult lives and figuring stuff out because of long colleges, changing majors, no good job opportunities, not having enough money to be independent and so on. I'm 26 too and most people around me are only now slowly getting on track and figuring themselves.
And 26 is still very young anyway, if you were 16, you wouldn't be like 'omg I'm almost 20'.

No. 760478

>>760446
They have that? Where do they sell it? I can't drink bang because I'll have an anxiety attack with explosive diarrhea but some of those flavors taste real good.

No. 760481

>>760478
i got it off of amazon (in the states)

No. 760488

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I wish I can stop having a love/hate relationship with my mum. As I grew older I resent her more and more and I don't know how to stop. I know she tried her best to raise my siblings and I, and I'm forever grateful for that since we turned out okay, but when I look back at my childhood memories, she hurt my feelings quite a lot and neglected me sometimes. I know she had a rough childhood and maybe that's why she turned into a cold and strict mum. When I was a kid, I was always ignored by her. She favours my older sibling and younger sibling (yes, hello middle child syndrome)more. So to get her attention I have to be the unproblematic child, always perform well in school, always be a good child and don't complain, always listen to her and follow her instructions without question. I did all that and I was still ignored by her. I remember I had to learn about puberty and period by myself whereas when my siblings got their period she sat down with them and explained what to do. When I received awards for getting top score for a few subjects at school, she didn't even bother to come to see me accept them. I was so sad because all of my friends' parents came for the event except for my parents. But when my older sibling or younger sibling have school events, she will happily attend them. She always ridicule my hobbies and interests too to the point where I had to lie about my hobbies and interests if she asked. She even ridicules my fashion sense! Whereas, I noticed she never does that to my other siblings. She even forced me to get a degree in a subject which I don't want and now I end up stuck working in a field that I'm not that interested in at all. Now that I live far away from my parents due to work, she ends up doing a 180. Constantly asking me to come home or find work closer to home. Always wanting to call me to chat and even asked me to send her a parcel or two of local foods to her. But if I come home for a visit during the holidays, she always ends up saying hurtful things to me. If I come home, I always have to switch into a fake "good child" mode and pretend to be someone I'm not. I can't even be myself when I'm around her. Now I hate going back home to visit my parents because what's the point of going home if I'll end up getting ridiculed or scolded by my mum? Sometimes I think my mum have issues and is using me as a punching bag. It's sad because I want to have a nice relationship with her before she grows too old and may have Alzheimer since it runs in the family, but as she grows older, she became more and more hurtful person. I just don't know how to handle this at all and I keep thinking about this one Oscar Wilde quote "Children begin by loving their parents; after a time they judge them; rarely, if ever, do they forgive them."

Fuck man, I don't want to resent my mum and end up regretting it when she dies.

No. 760510

>>760488
Anon, I know exactly how you feel. I'm sorry your mother is making you feel lesser. My mum was the exact same to me. Middle child syndrome is very real and I despise any parent who neglects one child over another, it is so abusive and childish for an adult to do.

>Sometimes I think my mum have issues and is using me as a punching bag.

She is, she seems emotionally abusive. Nothing you can or will do to please her will be good enough. Thats how these people work. An emotionally abusive parent always picks the child with the most manipulative or "weakest" defence and breaks it down. They do this because they're deeply insecure in themselves and are taking out their own unresolved trauma on you.

I fixed my relationship with my mum by getting therapy for my trauma, confronting her about her behaviour (even though she's a narcissist and didn't really see why she was in the wrong, it was more for my self healing), forgetting the "good child" persona and being unapolagetically myself. I quit the high-paying job she wanted me to do and that I hated and went back and studied in a field I actually loved with the money from it. I made it known that her opinion means nothing to me and that I value my self worth, and that her reactions to things in my life are not of my concern. This removed her power over me. I now live far away from her and only talk every now and then, and if I visit it is never for long. We now have a really good relationship and I feel for once that she actually loves and cares without the spite.

I'm really sorry she's putting you through the works like this. Just remember healing can be possible if you want to pursue it. It is possible things will remain unresolved but that's not an emotional weight you should carry for the rest of your life. I believe in you, anon.

No. 760524

I'm home alone for the first time in months and instead of having fun and being happy, I have back pain and feel stressed as fuck over nothing at all. I can't relax. It's almost 5pm now and I lost half of the day to nothing.

No. 760531

why do i care so fucking much for you when i literally dont mean anything for you? we literally are friends but since you began to flirt with me and i unfortunaly fell for you. everytime we speak you always tell me that i am only yours and that only you can have me yet you dont actually fucking care for me. its so fucking one sided and it hurts. everytime its only me caring for you and you not caring at fucking all. i truly think that you are just a scrote who wants the feeling of having a 'temporary gf' until the right one comes by. i decided to be as fucking coldhearted as you are and will try my fucking best to treat you like shit and make you feel not cared for just like you do.

No. 760552

>>760510
Thanks kind Anon for sharing your experience. I'm just glad to know that I'm not alone in this. You nailed it with this statement, "nothing you can do or will do to please her will be good enough". This is the worst feeling ever. Knowing you can never measure up to your mum's/parents' expectation. Like you can only receive love from your parents if you perform the "good child" act and make them happy at your expense. I just want the ability to be free from this feeling. Maybe I should consider going to therapy if things get worse. For now, our relationship is slightly bearable since I don't visit her much do to covid. I guess distance is good for our relationship, at least for now. Thanks again anon for your advice. I'm glad you're able to heal and have a better relationship with your mum. You're very brave to quit your high paying job and pave your own way in life. Someday I want the courage to do that as well.

No. 760554

bro i just want to be skinny already jfc

No. 760592

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I think someone took a creepshot of me tonight. I feel so fucking bad. I literally want to stop having a body, I was in a waiting room and this dude in a group of men kept staring at me in the most sleazy way and idk, maybe my brastrap or cleavage or something was showing and I think he took a picture because then he showed his phone to his equally sleazy looking friends and they were all laughing that greasy laugh and looking at me and I just want to die. I covered myself, I wasn't even wearing anything outrageous. I'm overreacting, maybe he showed a funny meme or something but fuck, I want to cry.

No. 760593

>>760592
So sorry anon, i know that shit sucks. I know nothing I say helps right now but remember that it's not your fault.

No. 760599

>>760552
>Like you can only receive love from your parents if you perform the "good child" act and make them happy at your expense.
Ouch, I feel this. Any time I did some hobby or activity that my mom didn’t like, she’d say I was like my abusive dad and make some snide comment like “hope you’re at least a little different from him in other ways.” Sucks to hear that as a kid.

No. 760602

>>760592
I hate when shit like this happens and you can't ever know for sure if it happened or if you're being paranoid. I wear leggings alot and lately I've been tempted to throw them all out or only wear them around the house, I've had a handful of similar situations where men have been acting oddly behind me and I don't know how to read the situations. That uneasy feeling it leaves you with sucks.

No. 760609

>>760602
Exactly! I feel so fucking irrational like maybe he was just an innocent dude but on the other hand, I wouldn't put it past a man to do that. I felt so aware and concious of my body, I just wanted to crawl in a hole and die. I'm being so dramatic. I really hope maybe I'm reading it all wrong.

No. 760612

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Got bad news from my doctors and haven't been able to tell my mom, it's been 4 days of me just avoiding her and crying in my bedroom and she just came to my door to ask if something happened at the doctor. I can't tell her my body fucked up again, I don't know how to tell her, no one tells you what the fuck to say.

No. 760630

I want a hobby where I can create something of my own rather than consume something (rn I read mostly books) but I suck ass at everything I've tried.

No. 760635

>>760363
You can, and it's a hormonal one, Mirena
I'm on both because I have a hormone imbalance and my periods can last for months at a time, runs in my family
You don't have to have that though, they can put you on both for a lot of things, a partial list:
various hormone imbalances, excessive body hair, painful periods, long-lasting periods, sporadic periods, acne, ovarian cysts, family history of uterine/cervical/ovarian cancer
There's a lot of options, and honestly even if you don't have any of that, some doctors will still do it
Obviously it still hasn't stopped my psychotic fear, but it has eased it, I recommend it
Also I don't get acne anymore, so that's cool

No. 760654

>>760612
What's wrong with you anon?
is it cancer?

No. 760656

>>760654
She’s probably pregnant with some deadbeat scrote

No. 760659

>>760656
>again

No. 760660

>>760659
>my body fucked up
>again

No. 760665

I hate feeling guilty for throwing out food. We made chicken a few days ago and my bf decided to pull another small ziplock bag of raw chicken breast out of the freezer to put in the fridge. He said we'd have for the next night. I should have known he'd forget. Well, I didn't want chicken bc I really don't enjoy eating chicken breast every day of my life. So I made food for myself the past couple of days while my bf generally had dinner at work so the chicken was forgotten about.

I remembered it today while I was cleaning. It still looks pink, but the drippings inside the bag seemed slightly viscous. I didn't smell any odor when I opened the bag, but I swear when I put my nose practically against the flesh it smelled faintly of yogurt, but not "sour." Ugh. If I threw it away it would be the second time my bf wasted chicken because he didn't cook it in time. I have it marinating in some vinegar-based garlic dressing, so I'm hoping if it is slightly off that the vinegar will kill the outside bacteria if there is any.

No. 760668


No. 760672

I have just saw a video on a Facebook page for missing pets in my area. A post was shared of a security camera video which showed in the early hours of the morning a car stop in the road and let out a beagle dog and then drive away and abandon it and before they drove off it jumped up at the window and the person actually pushed it back down like to sit and then drove off but the dog chased after the car and was seen on cameras running after the cameras for a long while but they haven't found the poor dog yet, People are looking though but anons I sobbed as I am feeling very sensitive, more than usual. Sorry for sad blog post

No. 760675

>>760668
Shit anon, good luck.
You should tell your mum about it.

No. 760677

>>760668
I had a close relative with cancer, and then secondary cancer and people know that's just the reality of it. Remission is often celebrated with caution for that reason. Why would you hide it?

No. 760680

>>760677
She probably feels bad because cancer treatments tend to be emotionally and financially exhausting endeavors.

No. 760681

>>760677
Honestly? Because I am tired and I don't want to see her hurt again, I need to deal with myself first but it's hard as you can imagine. Lemme vent.

No. 760686

I have to clean today and I REALLY don't want to. It's already the afternoon smdh.

No. 760689

>>760681
I pray for the evisceration of all your cancerous cells anon.

No. 760704

>>760689
Thank you, sis

No. 760730

>>760681
Hope you didn't think I was brushing off your concerns. Vent away.

I had cervical cancer a few years back and didn't tell family. Probably never will. I saw how my relative get a whole lot of support during hers (twice over) but I still chose to just go missing for a while when I got my own diagnosis. I did phone calls but no in person meetings for a long time. I get the desire to hide it or just needing space to process it without wanting an overwhelming fuss on top of that.

Hope everything works out ok for you, it's draining enough even without having to disclose it and then update everyone along the way. If you live with family then it sucks to have that option of some privacy around it essentially taken away.

No. 760758

I don't know if I have genuine sexual trauma going on but I've had bad experiences and I've been sex avoidant for years now because of them. I hate how I'll often be on Insta and I guess I'll like a pic that is non sexual but one of the tags included ends up meaning I get recommended nothing but images bordering on soft porn for ages afterwards. I must've liked something tagged weirdly lately because insta seems to think I'm a stockings fetishist all of a sudden. Great, images that show everything but the actual holes.

Then on youtube I subscribe to podcasts or commentary channels and with the popularity of onlyfans that now pops up alot in my sub box where again I'm not looking for porn related content. I'm not totally anti-porn. I mean I do have my moments where I want to see adult stuff. But I hate seeing it seep into everything to a point where I can't avoid it. Searching out images when you're in the mood is so different to feeling bombarded by them when all you want is to look at cute animal pics or to play a podcast while you do the housework.

No. 760761

>>760686
me too anon. it's nearly 4pm and i feel like shit bcus of covid but my room is looking like a 14yr old virgin's coom cave. like a step away from having a piss drawer. its terrible and i have to fix it

No. 760772

I sure have been mourning a 3-month-long friendship from 2018 that I, myself, ended.
Must be because I'm graduating next year and it was the first contact I ever made.

No. 760777

I'm not worth shit. Easily replaceable trash

No. 760798

>>760777
okay but check those trips, that's gotta be worth something.

No. 760806

I’ll always dream about real and honest love. Deep down I want a loving marriage and to grow old together with someone who feels like my best friend.

But I know mutual lasting love like that is extremely rare, so I will stick with being volcel/never marrying. I hope I die young so I wont be alone for long.

No. 760817

>>760806
I think if you're genuinely so interested in a lasting relationship, you shouldn't give up on it. I'll probably die alone, but I don't really mind it, but you sound like you're really suffering from it.

No. 760822

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I don't know how to move on from my ex. I feel like he's the only person who's ever really 'gotten' me. While we were together I always felt like we had a very deep connection but I didn't fully understand why, but looking back it's almost scary how similar we are. There's the good aspects like passions, career goals, humor. But there's also the really painful things. We both grew up in very abusive homes, in very similar conditions, both from father figures. He never mocked my daddy issues like my last ex did because he just got it. He understood me in a very delicate way and it was so validating, but also so unstable because neither of us had really even begun to process our respective abuse at that time. We both did a lot of bad things to each other that I think now really stemmed from that trauma. Nothing like physical or sexual abuse, but he shut down a lot and I would get really anxious and angry because of that. It's hard breaking those generational curses and while it doesn't excuse him always pushing me away I can't say I don't understand why. We were two very, very broken people trying to heal together.

I miss him but he's moved on. I want to move on but I feel like I can't. My last relationship I tried, and even felt like I had for awhile, but it didn't work and I broke up with him.

No. 760827

I think my friend(?) ghosted me,


Two days ago, I invited her via Snapchat to my sister’s sweet 16 party coming up in April and since she has a kid, I told her that it was also child-friendly as my niece, nephew and other kids will be there. I also told her that masks are optional as our state no longer deems it mandatory to wear.

I saw that she read the message but never replied back in the past few days. Usually whenever we talked, she would reply back but it’s been too days. A simple, “sorry, I can’t make it but have fun!” or “sorry dude, I have other things coming up” would have sufficed. Right now she posted a snap going to her friend’s kid’s birthday party (what I’m assuming because I’m not going to bother, since it’s always bday parties, girls night outs, dat nights with her fiancé - might not be invited to the wedding either and her daughter) and last time, she posted going to a bachelorette party in Austin

I’m not sure what happened, she hasn’t unfriended me from other platforms so far but I’m not sure about irl.

We were friends since high school btw

No. 760833

>>760806
If staying single makes you want to die young then I don't see how dating and dealing with the shitshow that is love and loss could be worse than that. At least you'd feel alive

No. 760836

>>760817
How did you become okay with dying alone? I just think growing old alone while your family slowly passes away or move on with their lives is really miserable.

No. 760840

I think my long term bf will either dump me or trade me in for a younger model within 3 years.
I'm his dependant rn with nowhere to go. I'll have been trying to level up but COVID fucked all my plans.
I give myself 6 month to a year to be able sustain myself financially and be in better mental health.
And I'll do this shit the scrote's way : find something to rage about and putting into work.

No. 760863

>>760836
Nta but I had moment a couple years back (turning 30) where I realised my entire 20s was fairly miserable and that was while dating guys. I had for some reason clung to relationships no matter how miserable I actually was in them. I don't know what underlying issues I have that make me do that but I came to the conclusion that I'd be as happy to just stay single. I could get a bunch of therapy and try again but I don't want that. Too many men have their own mental health issues but will deny them so even if you fix yourself you're looking for an equally healthy guy who'll address his issues and work on himself rather than blaming you..

I had to waste ten years living with guys before I saw it that way though. Just living alone feels amazing after that much time. I do sometimes worry about what'll happen if I get sick later and have nobody but I'm not willing to give up my space or freedom now just because I worry about a potential issue in my old age. I haven't cried or raised my voice or been shouted at in years, that's heaven. That's the life I need.

No. 760877

>>760863
>I haven't cried or raised my voice or been shouted at in years, that's heaven.
I feel you. I haven't so much as had my feelings hurt by a guy in years and years let alone endured any actual abuse or cruelty or a broken heart, being single is SO peaceful. Maybe one day I'll meet a guy I consider worth the risk, but I can't imagine ever being unhappy like this. At absolute worst, it's neutral and a bit boring, but never legitimately bad.

No. 760880

>>760836
I'm pretty much that built that way, I don't feel stressed over being alone and can't really fall for anyone anyway. Of course I'm sad about my parents eventually passing and cried about the idea of losing that "safety", but it is extremely rare to find someone who is fending just as much for your benefit as their own, and looking for a "replacement daddy" so to say feels very calculating and soulless. I tried dating, but borrowing from lesbians it felt like "compulsory normalcy". I didn't like being in relationships, I didn't like who I was in relationships, and while I like the idea of sex with men, the reality of it is disappointing. I also hate the idea of pregnancy and never imagined myself with kids, so not having someone around to pressure me into shouldering birth control with pills or implants is much more comfortable.

No. 760891

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>>760877

Absolutely vibe with this sentiment. I’m coming up on 4 years single, the last two of which have been celibate, and I’ve never been so emotionally stable. It’s glorious! Cheers to my fellow spinsters, we really have got this quality of life thing sussed.

No. 760893

>>760863
>>760877
>>760891
I think I'm getting there too. I'm 30. I had a sex less engagement for about 3 years before finally terminating it, then had a sex full abusive relationship. I'm coming up on a year single and I haven't hooked up with anyone yet and it's funny, I'm never sad sad now. I haven't had an embarrassing angry phone call all my neighbours can hear for a year now. My moods are stable. My weight is stable. I pay more attention to myself which has resulted in better overall health and appearance. It's crazy. A man is very detrimental to me. I have always dreamed of starting a family but I'm actually considering becoming a teacher to satiate my need to be maternal. It's odd. I use to be so relationship focused and be a hollow person, but now I focus on how to be a good a useful person outside of romance and my self esteem is so much better for it.

No. 760898

I feel bad for venting about this but it is upsetting for some reason. I went to a special needs sports event lately (where social distancing was enforced). One of the kids was an ftm I think. The old picture of her was still up when she had long hair. Her new name is of all things fucking aiden. (Who is telling all these kids to pick that name?) I don't know man, how is this not child abuse? I heard that autistic people are more likely to transition, though idk what her condition(s) is/are. I don't mean to look down on this kid, but I'm thinking of her caregivers. This should be considered child abuse but then again you will get called a child abuser if you don't transition your kid. This world is so messed up right now, I just hope that kid is okay.

No. 760940

>>760031
Thanks anon. Its kind of a relief that someone has the same experience. I feel like there's so many unwritten social rules that I don't know about and it fucks me up when I try to talk to women. Also sorry to the other anon about my spacing.

No. 760960

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From ages 5 to 20 I had to bring foo and drink into my room like I was prepping for a miniwar because my dad liked to drink and act insane so I didn't want to leave my room unless I absolutely had to. I am 26 years old and I still find myself doing that from time to time, even at my own house, also the thing where I don't blow my nose properly and loudly while crying or sick because that would make my dad lose his shit. I just now was crying in the bathroom, flushed and while the flushing made its sounds, I did my nose blowing so it would be drowned out. I hate this.

No. 761009

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I’m visiting my childhood home with my entire family, sister included, for the first time in years plus my sister’s baby and it has been so exhausting why are families always so……….

No. 761013

I wish this guy would fuck off and die hes such a social parasite on my friend. Haven't talked to her much because of him and I'm not sure I care anymore because if she can't grow a backbone to tell him to fuck off sometimes then I'm not sure I want to stick around.

No. 761022

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I hate living in Ontario, I feel like the entire province is rapidly going to shit. Especially the southern part. Still better than a lot of other places in the world I will concede though.

No. 761028

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>>761022
I'll commiserate with you anon, it is shit. Incompetent provincial government and unaffordable cost of living. I wanna get out before Ford takes the next election.

No. 761036

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>>761022
Dudes I just wanna leave Alberta but preferably Canada in general.
Kenney is a shithead trying to cancel bigfoot for fuck sakes.

No. 761041

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>>761036
True, he is a malicious little idiot. The praries got it bad rn. Where do you want to move to anon?

No. 761042

I can't do this for 50 more years

No. 761043

>>761042
don't kill yourself please

No. 761045


No. 761046

>>761042
Felt this.

No. 761051

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>>761041
I want to move to the states where my bf lives.

No. 761054

my dumbass bit down on a bottle full of tiny star shaped sequins because I was trying to figure out if it was glass or really hard plastic, and broke the fucking bottle. Now looking back, what the fuck was my thought process? Like, I wasn't trying to break it, but what else did I expect to happen? How would that have even told me what material the bottle is made of. Just dumb all around

No. 761057

I just had a full breakdown? Meltdown? Whatever you want to call it, but I just freaked the fucked out and cried because I couldn’t find the remote to my LED lights. Even after I found them, I still sobbed my eyes out because it was in a super obvious place. Now I want to punish myself somehow for being stupid enough to lose it. All this over a dumb remote. I was going to go into depth into why I would react on strongly to something as minuscule as this, but I just remembered my period should arrive in the next few days, so I guess there’s the answer. I’m still embarrassed though.

No. 761060

>>761054
Please be careful with your chompers in future anon you only have one set!

>>761057
Reading the first sentence I was getting ready to suggest you might be on your period kek

No. 761079

My cat killed a bird and kept it under my bed. I have no idea how long the bird has been under my bed. I'm paranoid now.

No. 761095

I'm so love-starved I dreamed that this dude on discoed who I talked with for a week was telling me he dreamed of me, it's probably my brain feeling bad for always dreaming about him so it made me dream that he dreamed of me too, IDK what this guy even looks like… I'm so done with myself I just want some dick.

No. 761105

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quitting antidepressants has made me completely unhinged while i try to learn how to self-regulate my own emotions again. i'm so tired, i cry at the drop of a hat, and i've literally done nothing of value around the house. also sex is freaking me out and physically difficult now that i'm off them and i don't know why.

bf is probably sick of my shit. i'm absolutely useless rn

No. 761106

>>761079
That dead bird an offering to you - it’s human. It’s your cat’s way of saying “I love you, thank you for taking care of me”, dogs do this too!

No. 761107

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Splurging on takeout and then having it be worse than what I could've made myself is so frustrating. It saved me the trouble of cooking sure but it tasted so bland and shitty I should've just made food myself. Stupid restaurant I hope COVID pushes you out of the biz, I'm not even a good cook and I can do better than that slop

No. 761122

I confronted someone through messages yesterday about how I didn't like how they were treating me and then fell asleep. They responded like five hours ago and now I'm too anxious to check it and I regret standing up for myself because I'm scared that I probably just made them angry and then I'll end up apologizing and back tracking everything I said. I'm just so tempted to delete the message, block them, and then move on. I hate how avoident and timid my anxiety makes me. I can't even avoid it though because it's my friends friend and they keep begging me to check the message because their friend is wondering why I haven't responded in so long. Fuck, why does late night me gotta be so bold because day me just can't deal with this.

No. 761124

>>761122
Don't read it yet. Give it a couple of days unless things seriously depend on you reading that. I do that to my roommate all the time. If they do something shitty, I message them, and they respond like the next day, and then I give it a couple of days.

No one is waiting for you (no not even them), just give it some time.

No. 761126

I live in a shit neighborhood and every night there are gunshots a few blocks away in. Doesn't help we had an awful night a few weeks ago where one car shot at another right outside my place so I hit the floor and waited for an hour or two while shots kept going off randomly really close to my house (the guy they were shooting at ditched their car so they were going around searching for him.) Cops took ages to arrive and by then they were long gone so I'm probably being super paranoid but I start having the start of a panic attack whenever I hear the gunfire now. It's so stupid because I know I live in an awful area but never that happen so close by till now. (also guy who was getting shot at was found at the hospital and refused to cooperate with the police per usual.) I'm trying to get my shit together to get away from this town but I can't really do anything till this whole covid thing is over with. It doesn't help I'm becoming a bit agoraphobic and not wanting to leave the house because I feel like something bad will happen to me. I really need to get into therapy lmao.

No. 761129

I'm upset. I went to my boyfriend's work party and his sleazy coworker hugged me but no one else. I felt like I couldn't say no and now my BF is pissed. I feel super gross because this coworker makes sexual jokes about me at BF's work place and I thought he would hug everyone, not just me but he asked for a hug and just did it before I could say anything. Now my BF is in a mood and it's fucking annoying. I should have said no but at the same time I didn't want to make a scene since it was around 6 other people but I feel like a bad girlfriend even though I know I didn't do anything wrong. Ugh.

No. 761135

>>761107

wtf what a scam

No. 761138

>>761129
Guy makes gross sexual jokes about you, guy is a sleaze and makes the sleaze move of 'let's hug'… And your bf is annoyed at you? Scrotes are fucked. The amount of times I've even heard of girls being sexually assaulted by a guys creepy friend and its the girl that gets blamed and emotionally punished for it. I hate this shit in all its forms

No. 761148

>>761138
AYRT I feel it. I know by boyfriend wants to beat up this guy and he's expressed he doesn't blame me but the pressure is still there. It's lame. Fuck sleaze balls and fuck scrotes

No. 761150

>>761148
you should vent to your bf if you want, it might help him calm down as well

No. 761151

Pouring my heart out right now to my boyfriend over text while he's asleep acknowledging that I know I'm not his type and that it makes me extremely insecure at times.

I hate when he even looks in my fucking direction that's how bad it is. I'm just sad. Physically, I'm not his type but he still is with me,,I feel like he's pressured to stay.

No. 761154

>>761151
That's so manipulative. What's it going to accomplish? You feel inadequate so you want to instill in him the feeling of guilt, as if that's his fault. The only thing you can and are looking to accomplish is making him equally as miserable as you. Your motivation is bad, your results will be bad. Nothing good will come from those messages.

No. 761155

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I'm so fucking tired of this whole trans debacle and how men tries to invade women's spaces. My friend occasionally shows me screenshots when she browses lesbian dating apps and there is a concerning amount of men there that calls themselves trans without not putting literally any effort except wearing a cheap skirt, not even shaving their beards at times, but there is absolutely no sign of said skirt or any implications of them identifying as anything but men (might not have come out yet, but considering how sexualized lesbians are the majority probably are just trying to fulfill their disgusting porn fantasy of "turning" them straight with their "girl dicks").

Hoping for detransitioning to become the new trend.

No. 761169

>>761151
Sounds like you're trying to drive him to break up with you, sabotaging the relationship whether you consciously realise it or not.
Given how miserable you seem with him though.. you could always take initiative and just dump him.

Whoever pulls the trigger, I hope you take a while out from dating and that future relationships are better for you. I stayed in some miserable relationships when I was younger and looking back I wasted years where I would've been a thousand times happier single. Take a long break from dating while your head is this messed up.

No. 761183

Is it okay not to like someone? My friend wants me to be friend with his friend but I simply just don't like her. She has bpd, acts very controlling and like a princess. In general she just has treated me really meanly. She has apologized to me and keeps trying to make it work so we can be friends but I just have no interest in it even if she is changing and becoming a better person. I've only known her for two months and that doesn't seem worth the effort for someone. My friend is very upset with me though and feels like I'm being petty because I refuse to move forward and work in things with her. But like I don't know, I just don't like her ugh.

No. 761184

>horny as fuck
>can't use dildo because my vagina is being weird
Why live.

No. 761187

>>761184
Is your vagina acting out?…how?

No. 761188

>>761183
You don’t owe anyone friendship. It’s weird and controlling of your friend to force you to get close with his friend. Maintain your boundary. Make it clear that it’s nothing personal, friendship just shouldn’t be forced.

No. 761203

>>761187
Maybe she has vaginaxmus or whatever that shit is called. The one that makes the vagina muscles too tight

No. 761204

>>761187
No, I've just had weird discharge for a month and finally decided to go to the pharmacy for some treatment, I don't want to shove anything up there as long as I'm getting treated.

No. 761212

Learned that there's a word for thigh-sex, called intercrural sex, and apparently in some countries it's even popular with straight people, although it mainly seems to be a gay male thing. But I remembered a time when I was so frustrated at my zero talent ex for not even getting me off that I asked to use his body to masturbate, as in taking his thigh between my thighs and humping him like a pillow. And he was totally weirded out. Men that think slapping their dick on women's faces and licking armpits and assholes are peak eroticism feel weird about being the actual sex object for once.

No. 761219

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>>761212
>slapping their dick on women's faces

No. 761220

>>761183
You don't have to be friends with anyone you don't want around you, simple as. I literally came to this thread to talk about how I don't get why so many young women/farmers are friends with people they straight up dislike or lie to constantly just to keep things smooth and then bitch about them here like grow a fucking spine and some boundaries.

No. 761223

>>761219
It's a he saw in porn I think, and thought it was hot or something. I'm sure there's some degradation aspect to it, since that's basically all of mainstream porn.

No. 761225

>>761219
It's pretty common. Not too uncommon that they slap it between your buttcheeks before putting it in the vag because they saw it in a few pornos

No. 761227

I don't want to take the pill because it increases the risk of getting cervical cancer and I don't want to fuck up my hormonal balance for the sake of sex with a man. Ideally, I'd like to find THE right guy, marry him, have one child with him and then him getting a vasectomy so we can still have sex without worrying about pregnancy and contraception. But such a man probably doesn't exist. Even if men state they only want one kid they're strangely protective over their reproductive capabilities, like they want to keep the ability to impregnate other women "just in case". It's truly pathetic women have to take some shitty pills that give you side effects and make it harder to get pregnant later on when vasectomy is safer, has no side effects and in almost all cases is reversible. There will never be a male birth control pill because moids wouldn't want to deal with the side effects.

No. 761229

>>761223
>>761225
ayrt, porn is a disease wtf lmao

No. 761238

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>tell him i love him
>he starts making fun of me for it and doesn't say it back

No. 761239

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>>761238
where is he anon

No. 761242

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I want art friends so bad but I’m an spastic autistic and every artist I know is wayyy younger than me and I can’t really relate to them or talk with them like I would do with a person nearer my age group. I don’t even care about skill or style at all, I just want people to talk to about my hobby who’s not a stuck up bitch or a zoomer child

No. 761247

>>761242
feel u

No. 761269

I have a male aquaintance started to troon out a couple of years ago (after identifying as a "demi girl" for a year or so), and ever since he started identifying as a girl he suddenly got this idea that he got this absolutely awesome sense of fashion and makeup. Luckily he is not one of the male troons that are into bimbofication or those creeps that try to be cutesy, he focuses mainly on fairly normal clothing but BOY does it look bad.
Crusty as fuck eyeliner, poorly fitting clothes, awful colors…
What is it with troons that believes that fashion sense comes with gender identity?

No. 761279

My mother keeps going on and off her meds based on her whims, and when she's not on them she's noticebly harder to be around. She's like a 50 year old doomer meme, and makes the smallest mistakes I make seem like it's some omen that I'll fuck up everything in life (literally shit like accidentally wasting a piece of colored paper). But telling her to get on her meds would be offensive, so I guess I'm stuck with this for a while.

No. 761283

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Fucking migraine since Wednesday. It's so painful, no pain killer is helping me, I'm this close to popping random pills for pain relief. I can't take off since I have two stupid appointments this week and I took off for those.
Please help me before I die.

No. 761300

I'm surrounded by pickmes and handmaidens and I feel as if I'm going to snap. I hate this place. I'm getting more blackpilled with feminism than ever.

No. 761304

I was wearing workout clothes today when I stopped by the local corner store to grab a drink. I'm 32, my neighbours 18 year old kid works there and I've always got weirdly awkward vibes off of him whenever he serves me. He seems 'off' in some way.

Today he stared at me from the time I went in til I left. I passed by the store again after my run…he's outside and there's more intense staring. I used to suspect the awkward vibes were him possibly being aspergers but now I don't know if it's some weird crush that I've just solidified by going in there in non-baggy clothes for once. I'm old, gay and I'm uncomfortable.

No. 761307

>>761269
Solidarity kek. The troon in my life also does GOD-awful makeup and of course loves Drag Race.

No. 761321

I genuinely hate the fact that men are bigger and stronger than women.

No. 761326

>>761321
Me too anon, brit news the past week has me seething. It's such a stupid fault in human evolution to make one sex so capable of hurting the other and it's fucking unfair

No. 761327

I really, really, really, really, really can't stand my best friends moid. I feel like I write this every week but I wouldn't do it if he didn't give me a new reason to do so every week. The only solace I find is that my partner dislikes him just as much, so at least I have someone to rant with.

No. 761328

>>761321
l'arme vainc l'homme

No. 761338

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This is gonna sound silly and maybe a touch pathological but I wish I felt love the way I did in high school, where it made my face warm and my chest hurt and I couldn't think of anything but them. Nowadays dating just feels like "you seem like a decent person with a steady job so let's talk for a bit". Yeah I know a lot of it is the people I choose or the places I hang out at but damn I saw the same 50 people every day for 4 years back then and like 3 of them made my heart explode, why is it so different now

No. 761357

I feel like for years I was tricked into thinking men who care about their own appearance are the biggest dicks, when in reality, male uggos aiming ten leagues above their own (and then whinging about rejection) are the biggest dicks of all.

I moved a few year ago, went from a big city to a really small village, the men I've had approach me here are taking the absolute piss if they think I'm tempted by them. I'm not saying I'm a 10 or that I'm way up there but I know my own general league and the acceptable age range and they're not in it. I miss how in my old city guys were more likely to work on themselves, stay in shape and stay in their own league when approaching a woman. Here they seem to think anything goes. 30 year age gap, big beer belly, nothing in common…sure try me ??

No. 761362

>>761338
Aw I feel you anon, I really miss that feeling of being so infatuated with someone like young puppy love. Now it's so transactional, what can you do for me type of interactions.

No. 761365

I hate my brother. I just hate his vile, smelly and sexist piece of ass. I also hate my mum for the fact that she insists of me being bbfs with him simply because he is my brother. I've overheard him too many times being vocal on how much he hates women and shit likes this and and there is my mum who tries ton convince me that he totemo changed after being in treatment for his BPDfagging because he constantly told my mum he would kill himself if she triggers him too much.

My mum also says that I need to respect that he had a difficult childhood because of our abusive father, but I had also a shit childhood? I had to work hard and get good grades in school while my brother got constantly the pass because he uwu suffers so much. He got so spoiled by my mum because he would throw a tantrum if he didn't get everything I got, I had to share EVERYTHING with him but he would never share things with me as well? He also loved to just grab my shit and declare it as his own and my mother protects this up until day, like it's his stuff anon, you gifted it to him. FUCK this.

No. 761369

Nobody ever cuts me some slack. As soon as I am a bother everyone hates me and cuts me off. Nobody really likes me,everyone just wants to profit off of me. It's not fair. Everybody else gets a pass for their issues, but me I have to pay the full price for my actions every time. I'm so done. I'm so fucking done. I'm gonna kill myself today.

No. 761371

>>755729
my relationship with my mom has been rocky for a decade now and recently, she had a major health emergency that became a big shitty issue I had to deal with. the injury was 100% caused by her own behavior, which she ghosted me to hide from me after i tried to stop her. i got her from the hospital into rehab and she hasn't called or messaged me once in two months to apologize for how she was acting before this happened or for thrusting this emergency on me or for fighting me trying to get her to stay in medical care because she can't even walk. i woke up from a nightmare about her driving us both off a cliff to see that she's been active on facebook messenger recently, again talking to everyone except me. she was the one insistent about repairing our relationship after i estranged myself from my abusive father and almost her for wittingly knowing he was abusing me but refusing to stop it because it would cause drama for her. now she caused all this drama for me and can't even be enough of an adult to extend the olive branch.

No. 761401

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>>761369
Pls no nonnie can’t you reach out to anyone or call someone? We want u to be ok

No. 761402

The fact that I'm no longer in contact with the person who used to give me anxiety whenever I was around her, made me feel terrible and cry whenever I didn't live up to her expectations, stressed me to the point of hives, and poisoned me with her self-destructive and toxic values should be enough for people to accept that I don't want a relationship with her. I shouldn't have to re-traumatize myself by having to recall every nasty thing she did and said in order to justify my decision. I'm tired of defending, arguing, rationalizing, and explaining. And what did I even get after I would? Denial of my perspective and more infantilization while my boundaries got stomped on. These people just want her to be able to do whatever they want to me without my resistance. I'm done. We weren't ever close. Her hugging me in front of people or only after her horrific fights with me used to piss me off because she was never actually affectionate or nurturing as a default. She was a cold bitch to me at home. Or if she hadn't used me as an emotional rag whenever her relationships with her shitty men didn't work out. Her ever having bought me things or supported me was the bare minimum of what she was expected to do, and anything extra was just to add to her good image to outsiders and otherwise leverage used to manipulate me into doing what she wanted me to do for later. She'd rile me up behind closed doors in her fits of rage and hysterics, but later when I'd retaliate when she had an audience to witness how bad I acted 'unprovoked,' she was calm and smug. She's a snake and worse than an actual enemy, this is someone who was supposed to love me and accept me. I hate her. I refuse to believe that I wouldn't love someone genuinely nice, kind, and generous to me if that's how they consistently treated me. There are people like that who I have in my life right now, I don't hate them–that isn't some strange coincidence. Worst of all, her religious looney-ism has got her convinced that she's automatically in the right and I'm in the wrong. Cause the BYBOL says that children must honor their parents no matter what and not doing so is punishable and even justified with murder. Not that it should be questioned if the parents have ever committed shitty acts that in their children's eyes merit dishonor.
>But anon she had a hard life!
She really fucking didn't though?
She grew up in a middle class home with two married parents who stayed in the same area until she was old enough to move out.
I had none of those things.
She was popular and liked in her community, and even won things like prom queen and was a cheerleader because she didn't have crippling issues from her non-shit childhood.
I didn't have that.
Okay, she was molested by a music teacher.
I was molested by a babysitter and chronically exposed to sex by my bio dad and groomed by older men.
Okay, her parents were sexist and racist.
She wasn't better to me for it, she retained those ideals and worse.
The WORST she's done is get repeatedly hitched to shitty men which is her own god damn fault. She had no problem with throwing me to her wolf ex husband so long as he kept paying her child support and taking me for weekends until he became unignorably abusive to me. So fuck her and this fucking sob story narrative that surrounds her. Wish I had siblings to whiteknight my actions but I fucking don't because this bitch obviously never wanted or was prepared for an only child let alone more than me.

No. 761404

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life is so exhausting. relationships? trying to maintain them? trying to gain work? trying to survive? trying to seem normal? how can anyone do this? life is the opposite of a gift, it’s absolute devilish torture. ive heard a theory that this world was not created by god but by some evil spirit called demiurge and I entirely believe it, this world is painful and I want to be released from my body

No. 761405

>>761401
I tried, got absolutely 0 replies on the bread and butter.

No. 761410

My “MIL” comes to visit my kids once a week. She’s the most passive aggressive person on the planet and the most indirect person on the planet. Maybe even the universe. It’s a super power.

Anyways. She comes over once a week always over an hour late. And when she arrives, she always has to take a shit. Literally every single time. I always make her use the upstairs bathroom, but she manages to stink up my entire house because she eats garbage all day long.

I’m almost positive this is her passive aggressive way of “shitting” on me. She dislikes me but showers me with obnoxious positivity and love-bombing comments. It’s all fake and annoying. But my kids love her.

Anyways. I needed to bitch about it. Thanks.

No. 761414

>>761410
I had the pleasure of suspecting a teen (male) relative was purposefully stinking up my house with handily timed shits and no effort to ever fully flush or spray afterwards… the thought of a middle aged woman playing those same games though, Holy fuck. It's frustrating as hell given it can just be deinied to the end of time too. Feel your frustration.

No. 761419

>>761414
>middle-aged
No, this is a 66 year old woman but she emotionally never grew past 13. But the fact that you had a teenage relative do the same thing, just confirms her emotional immaturity to me.

No. 761423

IMMA ABOUT TO LOSE MY MIND! Is anyone else having this issue with Hulu were you click a series, say Hey Arnold! and it plays ONE episode and it either replays that episode but starting in the middle, or goes to another show?
Before it was "Days of Our Life" the SAME episode and I NEVER watched that show. Now it's "this is us".
ALL I WANT TO DO IS WATCH HEY ARNOLD. I've cleared my history and everything. What the fuck?

No. 761425

I haven't got my period ever since I was fired two months ago. My body is ridiculous. Every time something bad happens my period goes whoosh

No. 761428

>>761425
She's scared and doesn't want to bother you

No. 761433

I love my sister dearly but god I wish the bitch could learn to shut the bathroom door. We both moved back in the family home during quarantine and I forgot how non existent her personal space habits are.
She left the bathroom door wide open while inserting a tampon and called me a prude for saying she should shut it. We have a touchy feely hippie dippie family and were raised with virtually no concept of personal space, but now we're adults and that level of weird bodily familiarity doesn't fly anymore, at least in my book. She also straight up sulked at me when I wouldn't let her come in my room while I was changing. Am I insane for having issues with this?

No. 761434

>>761428
haha, this is a cute take. Ily, anon

No. 761468

>been together with my bf for about 4 months
>sort of get into it over something pretty stupid but not really
>it's actually just more of a "serious conversation" and i got sad during but nothing more
>i have trouble voicing my issues because i don't want to come across in a negative way
>i call him later in the day to finish the conversation and come to a conclusion regarding the issue from before so we can move on
>at one point i bring up how i like being affectionate toward him (wanting to always kiss, hug, shit like that) and how he should LIKE that i'm like that and want to do that with me also, and how it's normal for that to occur in a relationship where the people like each other and can't get enough of each other
>(context: today he made some off handed comment about how "all i wanna do is snuggle")
>he agrees and then he says "there's a difference between that and needy though"
>and i said "yeah there is
>…
>i know i'm not like that, but if you're gonna be like that then i'll just turn cold"
>he was like what do you mean
>i said i don't understand what you meant by that
>all of the sudden he just goes "forget about it, forget i said anything, it's nothing" and just agrees
>then he goes on and says how he doesn't like serious conversations and drama and he wants things to be loose
>i say something along the lines of we can't not have serious conversations when there's something that needs to be talked about, obviously i don't like drama and stuff either but i'm not a robot
>he agrees and we just leave it at that
what the fuck? also, he's told me he's scared of serious relationships, but when i told him i loved him he said it back. why the fuck are men so confusing. i don't really wanna meditate on this any longer but holy shit why

No. 761473

it's so hard being a black female

No. 761476

Growing up in a conservative muslim country has ruined me and I don't know if I'll ever recover from it. I was so ridiculously sheltered that I don't think I'll be able to handle myself on my own even if I escape one day

No. 761478

>>761468
you sound like you're dating my ex.
anyway, he said it himself: he's not looking for a serious relationship. he doesn't love you, he likes having sex with you. he doesn't even like being affectionate with you, which is a clear sign.

i know you're not going to dump him because i also made excuses for everything my ex did, but just know the longer this continues, the more time you will waste and he will eventually either dump you himself or cheat on you and then dump you when you find out. he's just going with the flow because it's free sex. you can do better anon.

No. 761480

>>761468
It's really not confusing at all once you realize you're the placeholder gf. He's not all that into you, but keeps you around because he gets easy sex and validation from you. If a guy really loves you and wants to be in a committed relationship with you you there will be no confusion, excuses, or him being "scared."

No. 761483

>>761468
I've had the whole 'you want too many snuggles' thing pop up before but usually waay later into dating. Like living together a while where the sexual spark is even calming down quite a bit. To have snuggles or that be a burden this soon is a pretty bad sign. That and just shutting down communication as if issues don't matter or need to be resolved… I agree with other anons that he's not invested in keeping this going.

No. 761494

>>761468
Sorry to be be blunt but he likes having A girlfriend, he doesn't like having YOU.

No. 761500

>>761468
He don't want you, girl

No. 761502

>>761468
He's not your boyfriend, he's just someone who fucks you.

No. 761503

My bf has no sexual finesse, the way he paws at my boobs feels like a retarded kid. He also does the same robotic tongue licking when he eats me out even when I try to tell him to do it differently. It's because he is unintelligent. I'm dating a stupid person

No. 761506

>>761503
Send him videos of it being done right and tell him to replicate. Tell him to mock it and that it's what you like. I've done it plenty of times and he always follows through.


You've gotta be honest otherwise it'll screw with you and you'll find more reasons to not date him.

No. 761507

>>761506
sanefag but damn why did I space it out so much lmao.

No. 761513

>>761503
>also does the same robotic tongue licking
Alot of them do this shit. I remember I used to have a book I would loan out to men to read. A whole book on how to do it right…because god knows my instuctions never got followed well.

The book was written by a man with long term premature ejeculation issues. He was really passionate about eating pussy to make up for that shortcoming, good for him lol

No. 761516

>>761513
Give us the name!

No. 761519

i need to buy a goddamn car so i can finally find a place and move the fuck out of the house. i'm sick and tired of hearing my mom open her goddamn mouth. just hearing her voice pisses me off. can't have a normal conversation without it turning into a comparison to someone else or an annoying ass lecture about stupid hypothetical shit.

No. 761528

>>761516
I second this!
Also the omg yes videos may be helpful (torrent them if you don't want to pay) but I haven't watched them yet so idk

No. 761529

>>761516
>>761528
She comes first, author Ian Kerner

No. 761531

>>761529
ahhh, this one! Didnt know its actually good. I think he also wrote one for women wanting to please men

No. 761554

>>761506
it sounds good in theory, but if a guy sent me a bj video and told me that's how he wants it's done I'd block him

No. 761558

>>761554
it's her boyfriend. he's not gonna block her.

No. 761562

>>761554
It's different. She legitimately needs him to do a certain way to get off and he's not listening to her CoMmUniCaTInG. He's probably retarded enough to want to imitate porn, though. Honestly I'd just dump him if I were her.

No. 761582

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>be 23 year old friendless loser living in mom's basement
>decide to fix my life
>move to uni
>my normie roommate immediately gets covid
>mandatory quarantine in a tiny dorm room for 2 weeks

it's like I never left home. I'm so fucking depressed it's not even funny

No. 761586

I’m really sad my mom made my sister a homemade gift for Christmas (as that’s what we were doing for Christmas this 2020 year) and she worked hardest on my sisters to make her a chandelier out of wine bottles. It looked pretty cool and not janky at all but my sister avoided taking it home for months and today told her she wants a pagoda instead or something she won’t be accepting it. Was really sad when I mentioned it to my mom a few weeks ago and asked if sister would be finally taking it and mom looked embarrassed and dissapointed
Also found out same sister had a friend convince her to get Botox today. Sister seemed like she didn’t want it but got talked into it, she has low self esteem

No. 761588

>>761582
This challenge is going to forge you into a person who hates small rooms. Avoid prison.

No. 761608

I don't think I can handle the catcalling anymore. I thought it would get easier with time but it just gets more grating, more tiring, more frustrating. I don't want to leave the house anymore because it means disguising myself into a different person. I brute forced myself to take walks for the last few weeks and it took everything out of me. I probably got harassed/spoken to/honked at at 100 times, and that's not counting all the times I had headphones on and couldn't hear. I'm sick of it. I'm done. I want to move to the mountains away from everyone and live in nature but I cant for many reasons. I feel like today was the day it finally hit me that I actually cannot go outside. I'm not a free person. I used to think I could control it significantly by what I wear by I'm in a trashbag looking parka, you cant see my face, how can you even tell Im a woman? I hate to sound dramatic but I am at a breaking point, if one more guy follows along side me trying to ask me about my social media I might actually lose it and go full retard and tear out his eyeballs in minecraft. It's always the most hideous bum looking mother fuckers too. Youre absolutely disgusting, foul, horrible, ugly ugly please die I beg of you to please die

No. 761611

I just took a few sips of a mcdonalds macchiato and god I feel like my heart is about to explode. If I drink coffee it's only the instant version, so I feel indescribable dinking this shit honestly

No. 761613

>>761611
Those things are pure jet fuel anon, be careful. They have so much sugar I sometimes will just use them as a creamer. Don't drink it all in one go!

No. 761617

my friend told me yesterday that her 16 year old sister is dating a 24 year old guy (aoc is 14 here), she says it's fine because she's "mature", girl going out and doing drugs with you and your 20 yo friends doesn't make her as mature as an adult tf!!. I didn't know what to say bc it's really not my business but what the fuck. Like as a 24 year old man what the hell do you get out of a relationship with a high schooler?? Wtf do you talk about? Math homework? Riverdale? Like arent you ashamed of yourself? I know I'm preaching to the choir here but I need to vent lol. Oh and even our other normier friends looked shocked by this so it's not just me being americanized or whatever

No. 761618

Fuck my hookup for having me pretty much wait 3 and a half fucking hours to come over. He says 7:30, then 8:00, then I ask him at 8:15 where he is, and 8:45 I say it's too late and he says "Another time then."
WHAT THE FUCK WERE YOU DOING THAT YOU HAD TO PUSH YOUR PLANS BACK OR EVEN UPDATE ME THAT YOU"D BE LATER???
I said I was tired, you said this was the only night you were free this week, and I wanted to be nice so I said you could come. I was also fucking starving because I didn't eat all day and I was going to eat after you left. Now it's 9:00 and I am just heating up dinner now.
Fuck him fuck him fuck him. I feel like ending this 5 year hook-up because of this shit.
He better fucking apologize.

No. 761635

Fuck anons on this site that feel emboldened to throw the "retarded" word around at any occasion replying to comments. Seriously fuck them. You don't need to make your newfaggotry so fucking obvious too, especially while making useless comments that you think are hot take but in reality just embarrassing, and also completely wrong assumption. Ffs they give me second hand embarrassment, lucky that's an anon board.

No. 761636

I started working as a front desk agent awhile back just to have a job, and good lord is my hotel a shitshow. The rooms are never ready on time and I kept having to turn away a crowd of guests trying to check in. Like yeah Karen I got your number to call when it's ready, but it doesn't matter because who tf knows when these housekeepers will get their shit together?? There is barely any communication at all and I just suffer on days like this. I hate getting chewed out for a job I don't need a degree for for fuck's sake.

No. 761639

>>761618
That's worthy of a ghost, imo. He doesn't respect your time.

No. 761644

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>powerpoint for class due tomorrow morning
>it’s almost finished but also far from being finished and finalized
>google search methods of suicide

bye anons

No. 761645

>>761618
unacceptable, ghost him 100%

No. 761649

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No. 761652

Full lockdown again likely this week.
I'm so upset I've contemplated really killing myself for the first time in years. I can't get a job, I can't do training. I feel like a bored pet except I can't even enjoy sleeping. Even shitposting feels stale.
Someone get me an exit bag, please.

No. 761657

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my bf added me to his phone plan, went to look at studios apartments with me, offering to help me redo the interiors and shit… and then tried dumping me over text two days later. why? because he is having mental health issues and felt like he needed more space, but decided if he said he needed more alone time I would dump him.

i literally NEVER understand how women are labeled as being emotional and irrational. THIS is one of the most rational men i know and he will tell me he feels numb and like he is "missing feelings" while literally crying.

and no I didn't cut contact, I don't know whats going on with us now but i'm on my period and I'm moving and I don't want to deal with it. I don't mind giving someone space when they COMMUNICATE IT IS WHAT THEY NEED (At least not in cases like this, where its not a "i want to fuck other people" type of space) we have given each other plenty of space in the past and it was fine. I have been slipping back into being co-dependent and my mental health has just been really bad recently because over the summer my grandparents left me at alone for months with my mother while she was in the middle of a psychotic break and I ended up having to call the police on her after she threatened me with a knife multiple times and then started nailing the door shut so I couldn't get into my house, which dredged up a whole bunch of other shit from my awful childhood. that's not an excuse for using another person as a crutch, especially since he has been having a shitty fucking time too, but… if he had said something I was/am still well enough to be more mindful and we would have been a lot better off. So fucking stupid, I wish I could just date a clone of myself instead of having to try to connect with other people.

but… i finally get to move out of this house full of insane people, I have a job that I like, and i am going to go to therapy so i can get fit and enjoy my hobbies again. he can be a part of that if he wants, or not.

No. 761658

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How can you be so scared of life?? I’m only scared of death honestly, and I want to experience what it feels like

To be placed on earth where you came from nothingness and into something that you slowly experience and then possibly will experience something you aren’t prepared for

I just want to peacefully rest, I’m so tired of this world. I’m so tired of getting up and hoping things will change when they won’t. I want to kill myself and I’m not going to fucking “censor” it because it makes you fucks uncomfortable and angry that someone doesn’t want to live anymore. If you’re mad about suicide then fuck off. I don’t know any to live anymore and I’m only 18 and I felt like I lived through 50 years of my life and I’m trapped in a young female adult’s body and I want to finally get out of it. I want to die peacefully and yet I’m too cowardly to do it painfully where I’ll die slowly or unfortunately survive because not many people know how to correctly kill themselves. Don’t moralfag (or snitch) please give me some viable methods if you can. What is a peaceful way to die and how to get rid of death anxiety

No. 761659

sperg alert:
i've been having to take breaks in between visiting the mtf threads because i am peaking so goddamn hard it literally makes me want to kill myself. i am very much a terf and i believe that ftm's are just indoctrinated by the troon ideology. i feel like i cant express these feelings to anyone because of the current climate and also i'm too scared to voice my beliefs because i wouldn't want to put my career at risk. i just wish there were spaces of bio women only so i can make new girl friends that share my views on troons.

No. 761660

>>761657
Honestly, good riddance, you don't need a weird irrational overly emotional dude like that in your life. I'm happy for you and I wish you a nice future!

No. 761666

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>>761658
You’re just 18 years old, anon.

No. 761669

Goddamn female socialization sucks. I'm old enough to know better, yet still feel that need to be overly nice and accommodating to people, usually men. If I want to tell them to fuck off, I get worried they might try to make my life annoying at best, hell at worst.
>>761321
same

No. 761670

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My Mom and I left more like forced my abducted Father a few months ago and I’m in such a complex state of emotions. In a lot of ways I feel exponentially better but in a lot of other ways the past two decades of denying the abuse are suddenly coming at me full force. I’m trying to process 25 years of trauma all at once. I got a new job that’s really great for me career-wise too, but it’s been so busy and stressful as hell. My dumbass also wanted to take an online course to keep myself busy but now the class is almost over and I haven’t turned in half the assignments. I feel like a failure and like I’ve bitten off way more than I can chew. I’ve also learned that I really, actually don’t like doing what I thought I wanted to do and now trying to push through the homework, with everything else going on, is just painful.

I just want to draw for fun and heal right now I can’t handle all this change.

No. 761672

my mom is a narc and its ruining my life and relationship. has already ruined my mental and emotional wellbeing being raised by her

No. 761676

>>761658
>i'm only 18
yeah anon, we can tell by the way you write.
for real though, if you wanna rid yourself of death anxiety (without killing yourself of course) go watch Ask A Mortician, she's a youtuber who's also a mortician (duh) in her real life and she heavily promotes "death positivity" aka desensationalizing death and related topics and encouraging rational, proof-based discussion on death and dying. i shill her a lot bc i love her work and she's given me a different, better outlook on death.

No. 761677

>>761676
>>761658
saged for samefag but this other video might also be useful to you, it's about fear of dying and why we fear death. you're only 18 years old anon, you have a life ahead of you waiting to be lived even if the horizon may seem bleak to you right now. death will come in its own time, as it does everyone, but for now it's best to make your life one worth living.

No. 761685

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I don't want to post this in the actual art salt thread and derail, but I really hope whatever coomer scrote that keeps posting vent art by female artists with comments like "What about this? What do you think of this? Thoughts? How can you defend this?" and insinuating it's the same as the lolicon shit he's also been dumping and most likely jerks off to (which was drawn by an actual pedophile who thirsts on real kids) dies.
Fuck off. Trauma art is not equivalent to porn just because you have the mind of a brainrotted porn-addicted nonce. Tama will never be anything like Shadman or the retarded Spanish faggot. You are a coomer, so you'll never understand. I bet next, that poster's going to whinge and imply it's "female privilege" that no one with a brain sees pic related and thinks it's fap material. I swear it's the exact same faggot from Racist Uncle's Discord who posted his own ugly-ass art trying to "troll" again. Why can't these be the people who die of COVID?
I don't even know why I'm so irritated about this, but I am. Why do 99% of males even think their opinions on anything are valid? Their brains are too empty, all they can do is repeat the same shit like bots. Ejaculators die and take your myopic, porn-coated gaze out of art created by women challenge.

No. 761687

>>761676
>>761677
I watched the videos and it was pretty refreshing to watch (also the woman is super pretty), thanks a lot anon, thinks have been really bleak and I guess I would have to take the “rational” side of trying to preserve my life as much as I can.

No. 761690

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god I wish I could kill all the pedos on 4chan. Those men live among you and they work with your kids.

No. 761694

i think i'm starting to realize i don't want any kind of relationship or tie to my dad and i've made peace with that. his wife (i refuse to call her my stepmom, she's not a mother to me in any way) abused me in several different ways and while my dad doesn't know about all of it, he knew enough, let it happen, and continued to leave me alone with her. the only thing that might make me change my mind is if he divorces her but it's unlikely at this point since they have kids together

No. 761697

Do you think that if you keep postponing something and not really doing it it means you don't want it? I thought it was just my depression but I realized I genuinely don't want to do certain things even if I can. So how can you tell the difference between depression and normal lack of interest?

>>761690
This shit makes me homicidal

No. 761698

My boyfriend and I got in an argument a few days ago because I sent him too many messages while he was playing something. So I've backed off since then and haven't been messaging him when he's playing something and I don't send more than one message even if he doesn't respond for a while and now he's upset because he thinks I'm being distant and wants me to go back to the way I was before. Like then why why the fuck did you blow up at me if you apperently liked me being this way

No. 761700

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>>761685
tama is a fucking saint

No. 761702

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>>761690
How do you cope with that?

No. 761703

>>761690
The fact that they’re allowed to post this and the “moderation” just allows it boggles my mind. We really need a curfew and restrictions on men, not fucking women. Why are we tying women down to the house when men should be trained to be domesticated and controlled? First, they destroy societies by disarming our natural instincts and this is one of them, pedos among us are becoming even more common because we’re told to “rationally” evaluate these people’s actions and that these poor wittle pedos just need counseling and rehabilitation. Not everything needs to be fixed, some things need to be rightfully destroyed which are rapists, pedophiles, and men (sorry straight anons kek). Rehabilitation for drug users but NOT fucking scourges who try to make logically sound arguments for trying to defile an innocent young child, basically taking that child’s right to a healthy long-term lifespan. I’m so sick of fucking scrotes and their ability to post that shit with no repurcussions and really makes me think that the main proponents of free speech are always scrotes. Seriously just fucking die already, all men need to

No. 761704

>>761690
>>761702
i sincerely hope all of these men die violently before they have the chance to traumatize anyone

No. 761705

>>761698
why are men such asses

No. 761706

>>761685
>retarded Spanish faggot
i'm an idiot, which artist are you referring to?

No. 761707

>>761690
This is man is probably just so, so ugly probably big sickly incel-like malnourished big lemon, watermelon field, imax theatre head ass. Just wish it would do us all a favor, pull a rifle and decorate its mom’s basement’s walls.

No. 761711

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>>761700
Based anon

>>761706
Alke A/Alkemanubis, aka Lucas Bustos, posted in >>760981 and >>760914. He also uses photos of real children for his "art".

No. 761715

>>761702
>>761690
So, if this is the nature of men, how the fuck are we supposed to raise children? How is any society meant to function with this many pedophiles running around? And since we already know males are the rape ape demographic, no one better try to hide behind any "non-offending" shit.
Normal people keep insisting sex segregation is not the answer, but it's looking like it's either that, or men need to have their rights severely clamped down on. Like, it's too much.

>>761703
I actually think we should be glad they're the main proponents of free speech. Let's hope they all expose themselves so we know exactly who to castrate or euthanize (in Minecraft, jannie pls no ban) when the time (hopefully) comes.

No. 761721

my boyfriend touched me while I was asleep and I feel disgusting and disgusted I thought he would never try that shit

No. 761722

>>761721
tf did he do? Did it wake you up or did he confess later? Sorry for prying, this is one of my fears.

No. 761729

This is the 3rd time in real life and many times online I've seen a relationship where a gangly lanky man decides to troon out and the woman is always morbidly obese, I sense a correlation but I can't figure out what it is.

No. 761732

I met my boyfriend a few months before covid happened. We want to be engaged this year but I'm disappointed that where I'd ideally like him to propose is mostly shut down because of the virus. The place I had in mind was this cute, cobblestone market street which is in vicinity to where we had our first date and across the street from the park where we had our first kiss. It's gorgeous lit up at night, imo. The actual restaurants on the street are romantic and good but they're only doing food takeouts right now even though the city is permitting dine-ins again. We could have a romantic dinner elsewhere and then hustle to the street, but it would feel less authentic and kinda forced.

I did mention in passing a famous mansion that I like but the thing is that EVERYONE gets their proposals and weddings done there. Even though I love the history, it's basically a "Wooooo rich people lived here!!!" type of atmosphere, which isn't really 'us' at all. Oh, and he's low on funds because of the engagement ring. So we'd be driving 3+ hours to that venue just for him to knee drop, wheedle around the boujee property for a bit, and then leave. His driving stresses me out and the last time we did a day trip like this, was an unenjoyable cluster fuck for me and I did not enjoy his clumsy driving. We wouldn't be able to stay at any of the nearby $$$ suites, we'd have to find some cheap hotel if we wanted to stay in the area. What fun is that really? I'd suggest he book a unique airbnb at least but I don't think he's that kind of abstractly motivated.
It really sucks, covid ruined so many cool opportunities.

No. 761736

>>761729
Maybe scrotes who want to be women are in subconscious competition against them while they try to figure out their sexualities. So they gravitate towards women who validate them and who they can pretend to be better than. Imo it's the same reason why effete gay men tend to surround themselves with frumpy fag hags, because they want to believe they flex femininity better than actual bio women. It all boils down to troons being insecure fucks.

No. 761748

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I hate my wide hips and weird shaped thighs. I'm a little skinnyfat and it hurts a lot when people use that word here, pls no bully. Idk I thought it wasn't that bad because sometimes there's anachans but… My thighs/ass do be wider and meatier than I wish. Some of it's BDD though cause I feel self-conscious to extremes. Anyway, I'm trying to eat a little less but I already skip meals sometimes and I feel sick or get migraines when I don't eat enough. So it's a really hard balance. I'm not fat but I could also use some exercise, it just intimidated me and been struggling with depression. Excuse after excuse I guess, but it sucks when you didn't think you looked that bad only to suddenly read this board and it lands like a bag of bricks. I'm worried my hips won't even be fixable because I can feel the bones there are naturally wider, and if I workout then it might become more pronounced. Took me long enough to accept having (small) tits when I didn't want any at all out of embarrassment. It feels like an "extra" part that people notice. I think this might be another part of that. If I had a bubble butt like is popular I'd be trying to hide it and feeling gross. Fuckin rip

No. 761753

>>761721
My ex used to do stuff to me while I slept. I am an extremely light sleeper. He was porn/sex addicted and he would jerk it while I was sleeping and sometimes ejaculate on my back. I would pretend to be asleep so I didn’t have to engage with him. Shit was awful. I feel for you.
They think because you share a bed then it’s ok to do things without your consent. I should have probably said something but it was just easier to pretend I was asleep so I didn’t piss him off.

No. 761763

The packers resigned Aaron Jones 4 for years. My bf hates football and my family are Bears fans

Last year I said if the packers resigned Aaron Jones I would buy his jersey but idk if I want home or away


I have no friends who are women who understand jersey fits and color schemes in term of both fashion and fan value.

I just want a bitch to watch football with goddammit and tell me if shit green or reflective white is better for my fatass

No. 761766

Also why the fuck does daylight saving exist in the Midwest

Uness you wake up at 6am you don't see a sunrise who the fuck gives a fucking shit

No. 761769

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It's past 1am, I feel ugly, I'm tempted to book a consult again for a face lift and fat graft for my saggy-ass face but don't want to punk out again, and I'm tempted to shill out for a stupid-ass fitness trainer when I already have a fitness book and am too stupid and lazy to read it for the 50th time and still be clueless about where and how to start… AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

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No. 761784

>>761425
>>761428
I got my period today!! You're a period starter, nonnie

No. 761786

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god really gave me a big nose, strong jaw, broad shoulders, AND a wide waist? Couldn't give me one feminine feature you big fuck?? Shoulda given me huge hands while you were at it fuckin prick.

No. 761789

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>>761786
This you standing next to your besties?

No. 761801

I hate so much how my stupid ass ex in high school has given me such a dumb insecurity about the size of my boobs. Like its been seven years and I'm still super insecure about it. He always complained about how I was lacking in the size department even though I was a D cup and pretty skinny. Then a year later after this ex who I dated for a year I had sex with a guy that my ex friend set me up with I guess to bully me because she went on to tell me how pathetically small he told her my tits were. Now I'm not skinny anymore but I'm not fat and have F cup tits now, yet I'm still convinced they're tiny. And like I don't even know why I care, like who the fuck gives a shit about what a dumb scrote thinks but my brain won't stop obsessiving over it. My boyfriend acts like my tits are huge and it's like I can't even believe him because I'm dumb lol. I mean I don't verbalize that to him or anything but yeah. Like dang, I am so pathetic.

No. 761803

>>761801
Samefag, but I regret so much for thinking sex was so important and good to have that I let my body be used by worthless ass scrotes.

No. 761804

>>761801
>>761803
Your boobs are big, they are
There's nothing wrong with your body
I don't know how to help you, fuck scrotes I wish there was a way for you to heal

No. 761805

>>760410
I know I'm late nonnie but this hit so close to home. When I was your age I had the exact same thoughts and finally "settled" with a man I didn't love and suffered for 2 years. Luckily never had kids with him or it would be over. 2 years later noped the fuck out but I still wasn't happy. Then last year I decided to embrace my inner teen while still keeping my job and responsibilities and went out of my way to socialize and discover new things. I am 30 now and I think I'm at the highest point of my life. Hobbies I genuinely enjoy, comfy home parties, friends who appreciate me and financial stability without having to work my ass out. In my free time I dress like a y2k raver and no one bats an eye.
So don't lose hope. Being 30 is not turning into an old hag with 5 kids hanging by her neck, you just need to find what you really want. Wanna dress like an e-girl? Do it. Want to make stupid tiktoks? Bitch no one can judge it. Be who you know you are, not what this numb society expects.

No. 761806

>>761804
Thanks anon, I know realistically they are probably but like even if they weren't I really shouldn't care this much and I hate that I do. It's not even the only insecurity I've developed of them, it's just the main one that gets to me for some reason.

No. 761809

I dont know what to fucking do. I got a psychology degree due to pressure but I hate academia and I'm too fucked up to be a therapist. I feel so useless and I cannot find any jobs

No. 761810

I have this friend that tires me out

I'm not someone to share much about my life or my random thoughts with my tier B friends but she's always talking about herself. She just sends walls and walls of text on "deep thoughts" she has. And I get so goddamn overwhelmed even though I find those things interesting. She drains me out. She keeps talking about trannies and scrotes and while I think it's based to bash on them I get tired. She talks and talks and talks and sometimes I just don't want to talk but then days will pass and she'll continue sending walls of texts, but she's very sensitive so I can't say anything. Sometimes I just mute her and ignore her existence.

No. 761811

>>761809
What do you like about psychology? Is there anything else you might be good at?

No. 761813

Really love how friends try to get closer to me when they have a fight with their other better friends and they feel lonely. And then they make up and barely talk to me again. I'm literally the spare tire.

No. 761814

>>761813
Fuck them, block them, get better friends!!!!!!
If you need to set a tinder profile for friendships! But fuck those people

No. 761829

>>761809
Psychology doesn't mean only being a therapist though. I know someone who got their degree and is working in HR.

No. 761832

>>761809
Psychology degrees can be applied in a lot of areas. I took a "career preparation for psychology" course last year and it really broadened my horizons even though I already know what I want to do with my degree. Don't lose out hope!

No. 761834

>>761789
YES smh…

No. 761847

I'm scared of my grandparents dying. My grandfather has been having some health issues, and realistically speaking - they're old. The death aspect isn't the only one I fear - it's also my family's reaction. I don't know how they will cope.

No. 761852

I'm in the process of buying an apartment with my brother and my bank adviser is so incompetent I want to pull my hair out. He takes ages to answer, he sent me a mail the other day with an attachment we have to sign, but lo and behold he forgot the attachment so that makes more time to wait, and he's been sending mails to my brother to an old ass MSN address he hasn't used in a decade, he has no idea where he got it. Our bank is in another city so it takes more time to do simple operations and we have a deadline to get the loan, if we lose this apartment I'm going to strangle the adviser, as soon as everything's done we are moving our bank accounts near our new place.

No. 761882

>>761769
why not follow workout guides on youtube? easier to stay motivated.

No. 761911

My bf gained a lot of weight during the lockdown and has finally started to diet. On the other side I lost a lot of weight and I'm craving fast food like crazy but I can't order it at home because of him.
Fuck this, I'm getting KFC for lunch today.

No. 761951

>>756869
I remember these in high school. They were fun

No. 761953

>>756889
I'm so glad I'm not white.

No. 761955

I’m in the car as a passenger on a road trip with family and we are 15 minutes out from the closest bathroom and I’m literally about to cry or throw up because I have to pee so bad. I’m about to have to pee on the side of the road or something please pray for me yall

No. 761959

My best friend just found and married a doctor while out traveling one day, and now he just funds her entire life and moved her to Australia. I'm so envious, I wake up feeling like I don't have anything despite having a pretty comfortable life. No amount of talking myself out of it seems to work, either. I'm not bitter, and I tell her how envious I am but damn I wish I didn't feel that way. I constantly compare my life to others.

No. 761965

>>761953
What does that have to do with race lol

No. 761966

My job is driving me fucking crazy.
I'm basically juggling three different kinds of roles in the office. It makes me the fallguy for employee trainings, each department's tool scheduling, and
the electronic and physical copies of companywide documents. But I have other duties which include whatever the fuck some employee requests of me.
It's not stressful in theory, but I'm four months into this job and everyone treats me like I'm an ass because shit that they've neglected for over a year and between a move hasn't been automatically fixed since I showed up. I've had to clean up messes from at least two prior people who tried to fill this role (I'm starting to see why they bailed–I might too if not for the free healthcare) and my manager's golden child employee who was supposed to have been filling this role until I came along. Yet she also neglected it because she got promoted. Whenever I try to ask questions related to this role which would take 10 seconds max, she gets a look like I'm being such a pest and got to the point where she politely said she can't be assed helping me. Can't say shit about the manager's favorite, though. Manager is never at the office and uses covid as the excuse to wfh all but a day or two out of the month so it's not like she's been here to see how bad her favorite let things get. I'm meant to take my questions to manager (as I was encouraged to do) but whenever I type to her my questions she acts like she only read the first sentence, takes me for an idiot, and answers in a basic way that doesn't answer my question.

Well, we're about to have a major audit so I'm expected to quickly try to clean up all the messes, but we're talking about tens of thousands of actions and document catch-ups. And what drives me crazy is that I could be solving tens to hundreds of problems a day but if ONE thing goes wrong, I'm treated with annoyance and the tone is that I'm an imbecile. Since the company is so new we don't have our own electronic systems, so we're stuck using Google Drive for everything. Things like Excel frequently fuck up. I've been accused of not documenting training because the file didn't save, for instance, but clearly I had processed it because the physical copy was in the employee's binder. Or I've been peeved at because the Google Drive lagged and showed I was still in a file when minutes prior I had closed it out, then manager was pissed because she logged into it and thought I was overwriting her work when the file had been closed for awhile on my end.
Employees also like to play a game called 'lose the document and blame me': A few weeks ago they had a video group training and they all needed to sign off on a piece of paper and send it in to me. Naturally they splintered off and I had multiple people turning in their individual signatures for the group page (we're talking 40+ employees) so I made a master list of every employee in the meeting and checked off their name when I got their signature. Obviously people had to be reminded. So I sent out emails and one of the VPs copped an attitude with me whining that he already signed it and reluctantly sent me another. Turns out he signed a physical copy with a few others but the last employee never turned in that copy and had kept it so I never got it to check off the names. How the fuck was I supposed to know? The VP ribbed me in the office later saying "Looks like anon found her document!" as if it were somehow my fault. But this is another honcho already peeved with me because I had the audacity to ask for his signature for the equipment purchase orders when I was supposed to have known to go to someone else for purchase order signatures despite no one giving me a solid point of contact. Aren't I just a dumb dumb?

No. 761968

>>761953
I'm white and my parents have never charged me or my sister rent, its just individual parents.

No. 761971

>>761953
I’m so glad I’m not this anon

No. 761973

I don’t hate dogs but dunking on them is funny

No. 762001

Oh god, anons, I finally got some relief today. I overdrew my account a while back and I wound up being -600 in the hole due to overdraft fees etc. Then I got paid and naturally that all got taken away to cover the fees… well I got approved for a loan today so I can pay my rent. And that means I will still be in good standing with my Landlord for on time payments. She told me if I ever paid past the 15th she would send me an eviction notice, and recently the entire property had been put up for sale so I was really sweating things… so vent with a happy ending. I was feeling kind of suicidal a few days ago because of it….

No. 762013


No. 762018

>>761966
>whenever I type to her my questions she acts like she only read the first sentence, takes me for an idiot, and answers in a basic way that doesn't answer my question.
lmao I just started having to communicate with a couple people at a bigger company mine is contracting with, and they are both exactly like this. Also only like 50% off emails get a response at all. It doesnt seem malevolent, just idk they cant be assed to read more than 10 words a week I guess. Maybe they're really really busy. idk.

Also doesnt google drive work just fine with multiple people working on a document lol?? Like unless you're literally deleting each other input it's fine for both people to have it open. Its not like having a single word doc open in two places where saving one overwrites the other. googdocs auto saves every like 5 seconds and updates both people's open docs with both their changes so its fine. Not much point in bringing it up though cause I feel like it wouldve just slid right off this person.

No. 762019

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>Confused about sexuality
>Think that I'm straight this whole time
>Dreamt that I was kissing a girl and I really enjoyed it
>wake up
>even more confused

No. 762025

i just want a tomboy butch gf.right.now. but all I see here, are aidens and femmes. I lean towards lipstick lez and tomboy in terms of outward appearance and attitude, but that usually attracts more feminine women. Cool, but they're not my type. I guess I'll have to bite and sacrifice my preferences so thaaat I can actually be in a relationship. i hate being a lesbo.

No. 762027

>>762025
chapstick* fml

No. 762045

>>762019
With that logic what did all my me being a murderer dreams mean?

No. 762051

Ughhhh got my period today, shat altogether 8 times and now the pain is beginning to kick in

No. 762052

>>757110
Those British people are the equivalent of American people who think nobody outside of the US should get to say anything bag about Trump. I've never even heard a British person say that but I assure you, they don't speak for all of us.
The monarchy are a relic of our colonialist past, they need to go.

No. 762054

>>762025
pls be my gf. i was super femme but recently im dressing more tomboy which honestly fits my personality better. i feel your struggle lol

No. 762057

Vtuber fans are a very special breed of crazy

No. 762058

>>762051
Edit: make that 9. And it's not the last time, I'm afraid

No. 762066

>>762057
As someone whose friend just started the whole vtuber thing: even the vtubers are a special sort of retards, larping as fucking furries and kids

No. 762073

>>762054
haha im glad you can empathize and that there's more of us. good luck friend ur now my gf btw:'(

No. 762076

My friend who is a big postapocalyptic fiction fan just got told off by a gay dude that she's "appropriating" gay culture because she has a tattoo of the radioactive warning symbol. Apparently gay guys with AIDS get biohazard symbols tattooed in obvious places so that they don't have to tell their partners they have HIV or AIDS, so apparently they lay claim to hazard symbols and straight girls who just like Fallout or zombie movies aren't allowed to get them. Naturally, all the handmaidens came out of the woodwork to accuse her of being "insensitive" when she politely told him why that's stupid and his community doesn't have a copyright on fucking hazard symbols. JFC I hate woke culture.

No. 762077

My older sister and I are estranged and have been for over a decade at this point. I ended up looking at her IG account for photos of my grandparents since they've both passed away now and she posts things nonstop. I stumbled across a post she made whining about how she's tired of trying to make relationships with our mom and with me and she just won't try anymore, and it actually pissed me off so much I wanted to make some public show about how much of a liar she was. She has never reached out to me, I was always the one trying until 4 years ago when I asked for her to apologize for what she'd done to me and she refused and blocked me.
She abused me my whole childhood and even after she left our house continued to abuse me after.
She tried to steal our dad's body when he died, and purposely didn't tell me when our sister passed and I had to see it on facebook with an RIP post.
Our relationship is a mirror of our mom and aunt, and for good fucking reason.
I also found out that my aunt is telling anyone who will listen that my mom paid for me to travel the world and I'm a spoiled princess when I worked my ass off and put myself through uni to get where I am today.
They're both shitty people and I refuse to have any contact with them but it just enrages me that people on the lowest rung try taking hits up and try to drag people down to make themselves feel better. I can't even defend myself since I'm meant to be the bigger person and her post is so old.
But fuck them man.

No. 762079

I have no irl friends where I am now and every time I message anyone I thought I was close friends with in my hometown they ignore me or reply with one word responses. Unless they want like advice or something from me, then of course they're fucking texting me paragraphs and shit.

No. 762082

>>762052
im american but I think one benefit of your royals is that people dont revere your prime ministers the way americans revere presidents from their side. Like, separating the national figurehead role from the more down n dirty political role could be a good thing. But the royals do have an inordinate amount of money/property to be sure…and should try to be less racist although I doubt they're really worse than the average old white person.

Weird idea but I've always wondered why the British royals never tried to marry with Indian royal families when they were trying to keep India british. Might not have done much but you'd think they would have tried? Probably they were too racist to do that I guess.

No. 762083

>>762077
My heart goes out to you. My best friend has a similar relationship dynamic with her estranged brother. He always paints her out to be the source of all the issues, when in reality she was forced to cut him out because he's a toxic barrel of waste, who rewrites history to make himself into a victim and causes serious problems for people to fuel his drama addiction.

No. 762084

>>762076
The retards are fighting!

No. 762088

I will never not hate scrotes. Every time I think about their sad, pathetic existences I want to castrate them all. I want them all to seriously die. I get so angry when I remember crying to my best friend as a teen that our mutual friend assaulted me..and in his jealous rage, he shoved his hand down my pants and did the same goddamn thing. This is why I have trust issues and why I don't have friends irl, but have relied on having a digital social life for over 10 years. And now, I feel like I don't even want that. I posted a picture on my social media of me and my dog…a memorial kind of thing because she was sick and had to be put to sleep. And what do all my guy "friends" point out??? That my cleavage was showing. They read the heartfelt text I put on the photo and…just went straight to commenting about my boobs. Seriously fuck men they are all retarded and deserve death

No. 762092

>>762073
lets get our hands dirty working on the yard so we can have flowers fruits and veggies for spring. I’ll fix and paint the fence while we’re at it

No. 762095

>>762076
almost all tattoos are lame so who cares. but if a biohazard tattoo means you have hiv/aids then shouldn't you like not get that just because in a medical situation you wouldn't want people to be worried you had HIV? Like if you were in a car crash and bleeding and the EMS thought you had HIV that would be bad. Not that likely obviously but why get that specific tattoo…

imo the only cool tattoos are stick n pokes, i never understood why people want some random tattoo shop person to stencil some design onto them quick n cheap when it's going to be there for life. Both my sisters have cheap basic tattoos and I die a little every time…at least pay some artist to make a custom design before you get that shit stabbed into your thigh lol I really dont get it.

No. 762103

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I feel ugly and retarded I posted my pic in selfie thread and it got much less attention/likes than other people around the same time. I don't have social media and rarely take pics but I said fuck it and posted. I should just put a bag on my head and call it quits

No. 762107

>>762103
anon i think you're based for not having social media, i wish i had that much resolve.

No. 762110

Some KF threads are ok but oh my god are the users on there insufferable lmao
The threads get clogged up with so much irrelevant shit

No. 762118

>>762107
thanks, I just kinda stopped posting and realized browsing was not doing anything good for me so I deleted cold turkey, the people who I give a shit about I have their phone numbers and call them. I feel like a boomer sometimes but it's a lot less comparison to others which is good for me. I would recommend it

>>762110
Agree the users can be pretty annoying, they PL way too often and write paragraphs doing armchair psychology. It's not funny, I just go there to laugh at cows I don't want to read an essay lol

No. 762127

Like 200 people a day message me about their shitty art because I'm an art account on instagram, but never ask me about my art personally. I wish there was a word for people like that. Annoying? Selfish? I don't know.

No. 762128

>>762103
I don't think this really means anything, anon. Remember that forum visitors can vary a lot. Idk what forum you're on but I once posted my massive aquiline beak nose in a 4ch thread of some selfposting cute girl, and I received tons of attention even though it was just my nose and it's objectively an ugly nose. Other times I've seen girls literally post their body and feet and shit and get completely ignored.

No. 762129

>>762127
maybe you should disable DMs

No. 762135

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I messeged this woman about her fiance (my friend) cheating and using her pics to bait me (>>>/g/174769) … and I'm fucking scared of the possible backlash. I kind of have stockholm syndrome with my friend, him just getting mad makes me feel beyond shitty and idk. We don't even live in the same town anymore.

It's been 5 hours and I sent her a friend request and a message, no reply yet. If he tells him I messaged her he might make up some shit to defend himself. Idk if I made a mistake or what but at 25 I feel too old for this shit.

No. 762157

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i found out some of my close friends talked behind my back while i'm going through my own personal problems. this has happened all my life and i'm so fucking done, how the hell do i even make cool new friends who share similar interests as me and who aren't extremely childish? it's just so tiring to become friends with people just to find out they have no life but to tell others about your own problems, make fun of you, and befriend people who don't like you. i'm so sorry that i'm fucking retarded and am going through a ton of life problems with my family and mental health. at least i'm getting a job, can drive, and am paying my own bills unlike my "friends" who have received so much from me and do nothing but sit their asses at home and get pampered at their grown age. i literally apologize for things they do because i'm terrified of being alone! god damn it.

No. 762159

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I regret letting him take my photos, I hate being in the male gaze. why why why

No. 762166

>>762135
I remember your story nonny! I know you were put in a really painful and uncomfortable position. What he did was so incredibly shitty. I think you're strong for following up with his fiance though, and I hope you're able to get in touch with her. You're really doing her a kindness.

No. 762167

My 20 year old brother said ''she's gonna be hot when she grows up'' about a 14 year old he used to babysit. We all know what that phrase really means. I know why he said it too - it's because she recently made a TikTok and started posting sexy dance videos. It's all so tiresome, ladies.

No. 762180

>>762167
This is really gross but also I remember saying that without thinking about the boy from The Walking Dead and I've wanted to suicide ever since

No. 762183

>>762157
I'll give you some advice that has helped me: don't make childish friends, from the start

I'm a bit slow and believe a lot in people, so I always tend to ignore the redflags, BUT they're there for sure. Do they love to gossip? do they trash other people specially their friends in front of you? do they have childish immature things about themselves, like stuff they do or things they say/joke about? do they have childish hobbies ONLY? what's their opinion on life, what do they think about trash talking others? Is there something "off" about them? Like, do you feel an "off" vibe, or like they're hiding something, or like they're not true to themselves, or like they're trying to seem like a good person but they aren't?

No. 762197

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I fucking hate this dude

No. 762201

>>762197
God me too. What’s his obsession w lolcow? Go back to chan

No. 762213

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>>755729
I just went down to make dinner and my mum shouted at me for being drunk. I’m 25. Fuck this gay earth. If I can’t drink a bottle of wine to myself in 2 hrs then I don’t want to live.

No. 762214

>>762197
It's just a stupid troll. Don't give him the satisfaction of seeing you riled up like this. Enjoy your day, sweet anon.
I almost feel like it should be a board rule to not vent about those scrote posts (except for complaining about moderation issues on /meta/ or wherever) because it's giving those dickholes exactly what they want. I know it would be kinda revictimizing to forbid anons expressing their emotions, though…

No. 762216

>>762213
Get your shit together. It's fucking Monday.

No. 762219

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I want to drink myself to death

No. 762221

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>>762216
Say that to my fuckin face

No. 762225

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>>762221
Get your shit together, it’s motherfucking Monday.

No. 762227

>>762219
Stop drinking, it will make you more depressed

No. 762234

I'm really bitter that my mom can speak 4 foreign languages fluently because she was a eurofag but she didn't teach me or my sister any of them. I know it was probably because my dad is a burger who only knows english so she only ever spoke another language with her family but idk it hurts. I had a bunch of Spanish-speaking friends growing up and anytime they came over my mom would speak in Spanish with them which would always make me feel like a huge loser or like I was too stupid to be taught another language. It was also really embarrassing when we went to go see my mom's side of the family and they would constantly badger me about only knowing English and ask me why I do not speak anything else. Do any other anons have parents who know a foreign language but they only know the language of the country they live in?

No. 762239

>>762234
I completely understand your frustration. I'm a slav and my mother is french and never bothered to teach me french. I did eventually teach myself but it was stupid that I had to pay for courses and tutors when I had a native speaker right at home. I know I've asked her and begged her to converse with me and help me with lessons but she never put any effort. Just why? My accent is still not on par with the native one and it's eating me on the inside. And the several times I vacationed there wasn't enough to practice it or become near fluent.

No. 762246

>>762221
who's the person on the gif?

No. 762258

>Be extremely depressed, drop out of university
>Living in my room
>Posting on wizchan in 2014
>Get on venlafaxine
>Get qualified in different fields, start working on oil and gas sites making big money
>Own a house
>Have lots of friends
>Even go out on dates
>2017
>Complete normie, everyone loves me

Then
>late 2017
>Want to join the police force
>drop the venlafaxine so I can get through med-free, also was paranoid about long term damage
>Life falls apart
>Depression comes back
>Go through 4 jobs a year
>Lie, scam the government, scam welfare, do everything I can to keep the boat floating
>three years have gone by
>No friends anymore
>Half my family have cut me off for being unstable
>Suicidal multiple times a year
>Try to go back on venlafaxine, doesn't work anymore
>Everyone pushing me to take antipsychotics that literally eat away my brain and make me feel worse
>end up in the mental ward 4 times in two years, each time I go they give me a more horrific cocktail antipsychotic drugs that take time to ween off
>Try to talk to family about how I can't afford to finance my house anymore, how despite all my hustling and scams I'm going back $200 a week and getting into debt
>"NOOOOOO anon, you just need to find a job you like" :)
>"You can't sell your house, you're making X in capital gains every year."
>Family won't let me live with them (I am unstable so this part is perhaps fair enough)
>They're treating me like I'm playing up my sickness and lying

I've tasted the highs and I've tasted the lows, why can't they see that I'm genuinely sick? I literally drag myself out of my depression, get a bullshit job, get praised for my hardwork and dedication, hit a depressive episode, get fired and have to start again. I've exploited welfare like nobody will ever believe, I've sucked up as much as I can from the foodbanks and become an expert shoplifter for groceries.

I literally haven't brought a single thing for myself that wasn't food or alcohol related in two years, I've become known as that person that lies about their mental health to get a job and then sets the company up, so now I'll never again have a job that's not a bullshit labour job. My old work associates from the oil and gas site want me to come back, but I don't have the heart to tell them how I am now.

I just need a little bit of help sorting out the house, packing up my life and getting a small apartment I can finance on welfare. But I try to talk to the old man about it and he just comes at me about how I'll be horrifically bullied and picked on, how I'll be living with meth head nutters and every day I'll sleep scared and miserable and life won't be worth living. I don't know why he fearmongers about this when I know several NEETs in apartments and they're left alone and I don't do drugs so I don't associate with that shit.

No. 762263

>>762258
>>237684
I try to talk to my mum about it and she just believes I'm a liar and I'm playing it up. She doesn't give a fuck that I'm suffering, she just wants me to have a good job so she can brag about me doing well like I was. She doesn't want anyone to know her kid is a now a failure NEET.

Ironically, she lived on welfare for over 20 years, paying off a mortgage herself with the welfare money and living a life more comfortable than working class people because this clown of a country pays single mothers on welfarebuxx absurdly high. I remember her sitting on the couch watching Oprah every day for over a decade, living the most comfortable easy life I can imagine. And she berates me for being sick and wanting to live off $280 a week like I'm reprehensible loser. I'm not going to be a NEET and just roll over, I'll try to get on that "work from home" hustle so nobody can see me cry and be suicidal. I'll always be doing something.

I will literally live a better life on NEETbux than I'm living. Yes, I'm glad I managed to make $200,000 on my house (which I will reinvest into something and not touch) but fuck man I hate this shit.

No. 762264

am i in the wrong for being pissed?
my best friend often does and says some stupid and insensitve shit and when i call him out on that he just says shit like 'omg i am so sorry, that was so horrible, i always make shit worse' etc. and 'promises' to not do or say shit like this but yeah you guessed it he does it over and over again all the fucking time. it has gotten to the point where he asks what he did wrong and i just tell him that he should use his fucking brain for once. he literally makes the same mistake every fucking time and promises to not do it ever again. i am sick of telling him what he is doing wrong like bro just use your fucking brain??? like its probably not the best thing to talk in your baby voice and talk shit about animes when i am crying and you can hear me fucking sobbing right? or is it that hard for males to understand that? he always demands me to tell him what he did wrong instead of just fucking thinking about it?

No. 762268

>>762264
I am sorry but why even be friends with scrotes like this?

No. 762270

>>762246
NTA but it's Brenda Spencer.

No. 762272

>>762082
>why the British royals never tried to marry with Indian royal families
I had never even considered that but like you said they must be too racist for it, maybe they also fear the risk of giving Indian royalty a path to power through the same maneuver? World history would be so much more interesting if there was less incest and racism from ruling families, just imagine the cultural exchange!
Btw even though it's culturally normal to look down on our PMs some old English protestants still see the Queen as chosen by God with the divine right to rule unfortunately, in the same way some American trumptards think god is on his side.

No. 762278

>>762272
>>762082
The Royal family itself probably isn't racist, they were germans at a time when anti-german sentiment was at an all time high, and have often been at odds with the ethno-nationalists on the home isles. The republicans were typically the more racist of the bunch, coming down harder on the Irish.

You would risk a situation like with the Stuart dynasty and Scotland, where the king of a smaller country inherited the throne of a larger one, but the smaller country itself was sucked into the larger one as a result. A half Indian king/queen might've made the move to move the court to the subcontinent, something conceivable when the home isles were under threat like during the world wars. From there it would be less India in England's sphere and more England in India's sphere, especially if India managed to industrialize and develop.

No. 762281

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>>762278
>The Royal family itself probably isn't racist, they were germans
ah yes you can't be racist when you're german

No. 762282

I signed up to be a tutor for middle schoolers this year. It is so frustrating because I didn't expect the students to be so bad at math. I can't believe there are students in middle school who don't understand square roots, basic ratios, or even basic division elementary school students are supposed to learn. I am not really great at math myself but this is a whole new level at awful, and I just find myself frequently losing patience.

No. 762286

>>761722
I woke up to him fingering me and I instantly slapped his hand away, I didn't know what to say I only told him ''Leave me the fuck alone'', I got up and covered myself in a blanket laying on the opposite side of the bed. Cried myself to sleep because I remember how was in a similar situation when I was younger and I accepted to share a bed with a male friend and I woke up to him rubbing his boner against my leg. I don't know why men always do this shit whenever they have the opportunity to do so. He tried to say sorry and told me that he won't do it ever again. It was surprising for me because he was always very careful and attentive when it came to sex so this was a huge, huge disappointment but I guess they are always the same. I feel very sad let down

No. 762287

One of my coworkers always sprays cheap-ass body spray on herself after she goes out and smokes and I cannot stand it. I can tell when she’s been in a room because it just fucking lingers. It’s like there’s a damn trail of that sugary-sweet/alcohol mix of where’s she’s been. She smells like a damn middle school locker room and she’s almost 40. I would fucking rather smell cigarette smoke than that shit. Get a goddamn deodoriser spray if you are that concerned about the scent your habit leaves behind and not some Victoria’s Secret body spray. Make yourself smell like fresh linens like an adult Jesus Christ.

No. 762304

The guy I’ve been seeing for five months is thinking about dropping out of college and moving home and it’s so frustrating cause not only do I have the emotional stake of not wanting him to leave after I got significantly attached to him, but also if he moves home one of his roomates is going to move in with me and my friend by the end of the summer, but I need to know by next month so I know whether to apply for a 2-bedroom or 3-bedroom apartment. I don’t want to push him to make a decision super quick cause I’m worried he’ll decide to move home, but he’s been waffling about dropping out for months now and I need to know ASAP so I can secure where I’ll be living. his parents have been super supportive and given him a bunch of opportunities to drop out and he won’t take them which makes me believe he really doesn’t want to, but it’s so fucking frustrating that I have to prepare for the possibility of fucking up my lease because he won’t commit to his roomate while also dealing with the emotional fallout of him leaving. The only nice thing is that I know if he dropped out of college I’d be 100% over him, right now I’m still in the “I can fix him/make him happy” delusion (fuck me, lmao)

No. 762321

>two weeks with no sugar
>proud of myself
>lady at the drug store gives me a free chocolate bar
nonnies what to do. at first it was really hard for me to eliminate sugar from my diet but I knew that in the long run it will make me feel much better and it did, I had more energy, but now I'm craving this chocolate so bad and I'm scared that I will go back to my shitty habits if I break now

No. 762322

>>762321
Dispose of it, you'll regret it if you eat it.

No. 762323

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fuck compulsive thoughts
fuck this useless overthinking
fuck this ptsd
fuck this
fuck
f

No. 762324

>>762321
Don’t eat it, or just have a tiny piece and hide it or just give it to someone

No. 762329

>>762321
seems like a better idea to come up with a plan where you can eat sugar without binging and redeveloping poor eating habits rather than treating sugary foods as something you can't be trusted with ever

No. 762335

my boyfriend and i have been dating for months. when he'd ask me about anal, i would say no and tell him why (bad experience from ex trying to force me) and he just backed off the subject completely. due to the level of respect he showed by not pushing my boundaries, and also just feeling good about the relationship, i told him i wanted to try anal with him. now i'm not feeling good about the relationship (i feel like he doesn't want to actually show me much intimacy or love at all) so i don't want to even have sex, let alone do anal. i have never wanted to be one of those women that "withheld sex" but all i want is to love and be loved, and then i can give sex. but not like this. i don't know if i'm wrong about this but i simply just don't want to feel used

No. 762338

>>762335
Personally don't think you're wrong for this. Emotional closeness is important for intimacy, of course you'd be put off of it if you feel unloved.

No. 762339

>>762321
put it in the freezer and eat it as a reward if you go a month or longer without sugar

No. 762342

>>762335
>i have never wanted to be one of those women that "withheld sex"
God, the entire concept of 'withholding sex' is misogynistic, rapey nonsense. Men will baww about how abusive and mean it is but all they care about is getting their nut. 99% of the time it's being ~withheld~ because the guy is such a shit that the woman has lost attraction to him.

You have the right to not fuck someone for any reason at all, even to be petty, even to punish someone, it literally does not matter beyond the fact that you do not want have sex with them. And you have the right to never, ever feel guilty about it. End of story.

No. 762344

>>761658
i understand what u are going thru. you're exiting adolescence..it sucks ik and the earth is shit..but make the next 10 years all about you; enjoy yourself before croaking okay?

No. 762347

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>>761635
what a retarded take nonny

No. 762367

>>762180
He wasn't even a cute kid wth

No. 762369

Every straight white girl I went to high school with is suddenly "she/they". What the fuck?
Also what's the craziest pronoun I can go with? I want talking to me to be extremely difficult, like walking on eggshells. Like "xe/xi/xonself" or someshit

No. 762370

>>761635
you sound retarded and triggered

No. 762372

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I want to scream if I think too long about the fact that when I was 10 years old, in massive period pains, fainting, puking…boys were just playing and being kids? How the fuck is that fair, what the fuck, think about how long they can go on without any actual responsibilities.

No. 762378

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>>762369
Doubleposting to say that I've found the solution.

No. 762390

I watched flavour of love all day instead of confronting the serious issues in my life once again

No. 762394

>>761685
and there's still anons in that thread defending the actual pedo's art

No. 762396

>>762394
nooo but anooon, girls have tough lives! it's absolutely a job for a coomer ass scrote to convey to the world, we should feel thankful!

No. 762397

>>762394
>>762396
I only saw one comment one anon made 23 minutes ago, but they weren't defending it? everyone already moved on, we should all move on.

No. 762400

>>762397
i get to scream in the vent thread all I want, anon. I don't come and shit where you post.

No. 762410

i'm starting nursing school in 2 weeks and i am so stressed. i haven't been in school for 6 years, and due to growing up as a "gifted" with a shit homelife, i never learned academic self-discipline or developed study habits when i had the chance.
i can't fuck up, either. i have to do well and get good grades as soon as i start. really hope i have it in me to do well.

No. 762412

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You will never understand what it feels like to be ugly, unwanted, unloved, to sit in your bed bottling everything up and want to explode but nothing will come out. Ikr going to keep ignoring and feeling the intense pain of being alone, I’m alone in this world. I don’t have dumb fucking irrelevant boyfriend issues, I’m so tired of everything, other women, other people, it’s like the world has taken a host into my body and it’s tearing me apart. I want to destroy my appearance and I don’t even try to because what’s the point? I’ll never be pretty or included in anything, I’m a fucking outcast and always be until I’m finally dead. This world wants to tear you up on the inside until nothing inside of you remains, you will be spiritually dead and no one will believe you and no one will care. Life is truly over. I’m so fucking tired

No. 762417

>>762412
>You will never understand what it feels like to be ugly, unwanted, unloved, to sit in your bed bottling everything up and want to explode but nothing will come out.

But anon that's like 80% of lolcow users

No. 762419

I genuinely think I’ll die of loneliness eventually.

No. 762421

>>762419
You won't, you can still be loved, and love yourself please

No. 762423

>>762400
Alright, I'm sorry for upseting you, I hope you're feeling better now

No. 762426

>>762412
Its called being a woman anon

No. 762431

>>762412
Wish I could hug you, anon. I have these exact same thoughts at my lowest points.

No. 762444

My attention whore plant had me believing it was dead but now it's grown back in full, the fucking cheek I s2g.

No. 762446

>>762180
how do you feel now knowing he grew up to be really plain?

No. 762450

>>762103
When did we have a selfie thread? Anyway, it doesn't mean anything anon. Maybe anons thought you were cute but just didn't have much to say, so they didn't. I do that a lot where I agree or something with a post but I don't say anything cause I don't have anything of value to say

No. 762451

>>762234
Yeah my mom is pacific islander and her island is very small, there's no way to learn the language online via Duolingo or a similar service – she saw no point in teaching me her language because it wouldn't be useful to me at all, which I understand, but I still think it would've been cool to be able to speak to my family in a language other than English. Actually typing that out I just realized she swears in English now. When did that happen lol.

No. 762454

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>>762286
Oh god anon that gave me chills. Fuck this ruins my hope for humanity and desire to ever date. I'm furious for you, I'm sorry you had to go through that.

No. 762463

WHOLE BODY ITCHY! AAAHHH

No. 762471

I found the Facebook account for my deadbeat dad’s mother (technically my grandmother) and I feel nauseated and empty. My dad himself still owes 18k in child support, and hasn’t seen me since I was 2. His mother however, is posting religious bullshit about loving all children. She dotes on my dad as he’s the golden child and believes he could never do no wrong (in this case, conveniently forgetting to tell my mom he was married and cheating on both of them with prostitutes to fulfill his sex addiction).

I feel so sick. I’m way too goddamn old to be mourning my broken family and the childhood I could’ve had, but this fucking hurts.

No. 762475

I’m starting to feel like I peaked at 18/19, those were the best years of my life. I just felt so free, like the world was my oyster, I had so many friends and had a really hot boyfriend who was my first and only love. I had my own apartment, I was going to university, I just had so much fun. I felt like I could do anything. I’m 25 now, and so much shit has happened since then. I’m completely demoralized, like a shell of my former self. Ive gained weight, I’m depressed, my best friend killed herself, I’m so alone. Among other things. I don’t know what the fuck I’m doing with my life, I’ve been chronically unemployed going from gig to gig for three years now. I just feel like everything is getting worse. I’m trying so hard to keep afloat, I exercise every day and try to keep a positive outlook, going to therapy and all that. But I can’t deny the fact that my best years are behind me, and that I’ve lost so much of what brought me joy. I would do anything to go back in time, I had no idea how good I had it and I just let it all slip through my fingers. So fucking bleak.

No. 762476

i’ve been with my BF for six years, he always had a drinking / gambling issue but it has substantially worsened over the last six months. typically binge drink and hit up a casino or strip club and spend too much exclusively on weekends but is now drinking heavily during the week, online poker, etc. he just lost a few hundred and used my credit card for it.
I had to relocate across the country last summer for work (and starting my PhD soon) - he decided to move with me. I understand the big move and COVID has made life difficult, has exacerbated his issues. I try to be understanding and helpful: try to give advice, I pay all the bills currently (in undergrad I didnt pay as much but I helped out + keeping the apartment clean - money is something he’d try to hold over me in the past) but I’m at a fucking loss. He won’t get help, he won’t help himself, he is actively destroying his life and finances and is dragging me down. I don’t need this shit during my PhD. I’m afraid I sound selfish but I have no idea what to do.

No. 762480

>>762476
How do you sound selfish that your boyfriend lost YOUR money??? You sound so smart and successful, im so sorry this is happening to you. You need to cut him off financially ASAP until he can pay you back, that’s unacceptable and I know he’s struggling but what makes this any different than if he was a junkie and stealing your money for his next fix?? He need an ultimatum/intervention ASAP, I know it’s hard to see someone you love struggling but it can’t be at your (literal) expense any longer

No. 762481

>>762476
there's literally 0 point in babying him. he needs actual professional help or rehab or whatever, don't waste your time and you're not selfish for thinking that way. it's better for the both of you

No. 762482

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>>762421

Yeah. Objectively I know this but I made the mistake of downloading dating apps again after I took some really great pictures. Was feeling myself for all of 24 hours and got a rude awakening…I had been avoiding them ever since I turned 30 because I knew it would get drastically worse.

This would be manageable if I had a solid support system but I moved to Orange County and I absolutely hate the culture here. I don’t fit in at all and I’ve made no friends. I just hide in my room, cry and avoid my annoying messy roommate. I’m just at a loss for what to do.

No. 762483

>>762476
Holy shit, you can do SO MUCH BETTER than him

No. 762484

>>762476
I'm just repeating other anons but you seriously don't sound selfish at all. He will drag you down with him if you don't get away or if he doesn't get help. 6 years is a long time, give him an ultimatum and he might realize what he is about to potentially lose. It sounds like you're not even close to being financially dependent on him anymore so if you do end up having to cut him out you are in a good position. A PhD is enough stress for one lifetime so I can't fathom what you're going through having to manage a manchild on top of that.

side note: strip clubs would be an immediate deal breaker from the get go but thats just my opinion, yikes

No. 762487

>>762476
He's a loser wasting your time and using you.
This man doesn't love you. I'm really sorry anon but this won't get better.

No. 762490

>>762476
My god, reread your own fucking post. What advice would you give your female friends or family members? You are being fucked over and used and I cannot fathom why you are allowing it.

It makes me sick that women have been brainwashed into feeling 'selfish' for something like paying all the fucking bills and doing all the emotional labour for their lazy, drinking, gambling, strip club going, financial abusing, bum ass boyfriends.

No. 762492

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>treat myself cause I get paid in like a week
>check account -100$
>some fuck bought something off amazon across the country for 1500$
>the same fucking bank that freaks out whenever I spend over 50$ didn't even blink
FML

No. 762526

>>762476
>My drunkard, strip club-frequenting, gambler boyfriend used my credit card for online poker, doesn't pay the bills or do shit but I'm selfish for thinking he's a slacker ruining my life!
Jesus christ anon. Listen to yourself. You really don't need this loser moid in your life.

No. 762546

>>762095
It's an extremely common tattoo and doesn't mean that outside of the specific world of gay cruisers. Most people who get it don't have AIDs and hardly anyone outside that world even knows it means that unless they hang out with a lot gay sluts.

No. 762578

>>762476
>I understand the big move and COVID has made life difficult

there's so much i could pick apart from your post anon, but i want to highlight this sentence in particular: COVID might not have been within his control, but he 100% decided like the big boy he is to move across the country with you and it's in no way, shape or form a crutch to indulge in his very clear addictions and issues.

overall he sounds worthless as a partner, even if you might love him because you've been with him for over half a decade. either he helps himself or you kick him to the curb; it's not worth it. find someone better, please, you absolutely deserve better.

No. 762595

I saw porn for the first time in weeks and now I want to kill myself

No. 762600

>>762595
Why? How old are you?

No. 762603

> I migrated to a diff country and can't find a job for over a year now, working my ass off on finding clients that would order commissions, of any kind (even furry and worse stuff, I don't care because money) so I could actually help my partner with something and not feel like a huge leech
> I got scammed off repair place. Can't get my laptop for 14 months now nor I can go there because of a fucking lockdown. My current laptop barely works, I can't play videogames at all not I can run strong programs.
> A kid joins a community where I talk to all the time, starts doing nothing but crying about how much of a fragile person they are, and how scared they are of everything and how WOE EOE LIFE IS SOOO SAAAD ( insert any typical problem any women has gone through but make it about them ). Drops a screenshot of their tweet where they made gofundme to get themselves a PC while having a decent laptop. Not giving anything to anyone in return. Spams selfies on said gofundme and adds that they should add more.
> Says I WILL NEVER BEG FOR MONEY @ does thing above and proceeds trying to make sure people know how poor woe me they are while actually living a normal life in a normal house and wasting all of their gofundmoney on shit like an expensive app, aliexpress outfits and Fujo merch, still continues ebegging on twitter and whining in community
> It makes me snap all the time. I had a tough life since the second I was born and I got big health issues, people would always pity me and treat me in a special way cause I am a person with weak health yet I meet people like this…
It really makes me think I should go "fuck it" route and start doing the same thing while showing off my body.

Is it even worth it? I am desperate now.

No. 762605

Am I imposing limits on myself where they shouldn't be? I don't even know.

No. 762607

>>762600
NTA but it's obviously because the porn industry is disgusting and exploits women and children; it has a ton of trafficked women and children being raped on camera, and even the professional ones are exploited and raped. It also toys your brain in general.
How old are you not to know that?

No. 762609

I’d rather be dead than alive and I can contribute a good 55% of that feeling to the actions and misactions of my selfish spoiled asshole roommate. I hate that he’s had a complicated parent situation because all the women around him, myself included for a really long time, saw that as trauma and think maybe he’s nice and soft / gentle because of that. No, beware of men who are soft or gentle in public, once they’re comfortable around you or in private in what they consider to be their space that they’re entitled to, they’ll scream and put holes in the walls and break and kick things, oh and yell at your cats for just being cats because he’s never owned cats and can’t control them like his elderly dog he abandoned with his widowed grandmother, all while in a house with his girlfriend (my sister) and two roommates (me and another woman) who have all survived different forms and levels of physical violence at the hands of men in our lives.
He’s an inconsiderate smelly temperamental irredeemable toad of a human, and I hope something in life knocks him down a peg or makes him at least get a job, or stop eating my food while I sleep (he does this because he knows I can’t replace it after my paycheck, and never replaces it or gives me money despite having constant cash flow, its been almost 2 years of having to hide my food if i want to end up being the one to eat it and not being able to keep things in the fridge), or breaking things that arent his, and otherwise violent behavior because “muh venting and coping”, or getting violent and storming away when confronted with his actions because god forbid there be consequences for “things in the past while I was processing and coping!!1!1!”. I wish my sister would dump him… her dating him AFTER he hit me and was just like this when we dated when we were younger, I can’t even relish in the I-told-you-so feeling I get when he’s terrible because it’s immediately met with the reality that this creep trapped her in a relationship and uses his trust fund and thoroughly plotted guilt trips and violent outbursts to stay in the house and in our lives, I really wish he would take even one step towards trying to improve himself or making our lives easier as 3 working women through the pandemic who have put up with his behavior. Broken men are broken leave them in the bin, fixing them stinks up your house and they have other paths in life they can take without wreaking havoc on yours for the sake of not wanting to let go of someone from the past. Familiarity is not inherently safe or good.

Wall of Text tl;dr shitty man roommate is violent toward my sister/his gf and my roommate and i want to harm myself and others when he is awake and around me because he goes out of his way to make it bad and I hope he dies in his sleep

No. 762613

>>762607
NTA either but if you're a grown adult you should know better than have a reaction like "i want to kms :(" like yeah, shit's bad, but control your emotions at least.

No. 762616

>>762600
I'm 25, and trying to quit porn after being badly addicted. I would often even fap to things that deeply disgust me to my core. Sometimes all I did was fap and sleep, rinse and repeat, because I was depressed and I have some sexual trauma from my childhood / early teens.
I'm trying to take control of my life, and of course, I fucking hate the porn industry. I'm tired of how women are treated like fuck holes. I'm tired. I'm sick of this shit. Women deserve better.

No. 762618

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I think my boyfriend has BPD holy fuck.

We had an argument where honestly i was the one being a little twat, he told me to calm down and sleep on it and then we could talk about it more reasonably when i had cooled off, cool cool very healthy, good advice, I heed to it and go to sleep.

I woke up to a wall of texts begging me not to leave him and how much an incosiderate and narcissistic asshole he is an how he spent the whole night awake basically feeling like the worst person in the world, this 6'5 20-something year old man just broke down like a blue haired e-girl because I got upset he called me out out for being clingy (Which honestly is true, im extremely extroverted and the recent lockdown has gotten me feeling very lonely and depressed so i've been quite annoying)
And then I gave him the basic modicum of reassurance he completely switched to being horny and passionate, showering me with love and care.

Im just, baffled. Really.

No. 762619

>>762613
It's because being addicted to something that obviously sickens you makes you feel even more depressed and it honestly gave me anxiety and needed to vent here. The killing myself part is just a side thing of my diagnosed persistent depression, I didn't meant to sound childish.

No. 762620

>>762618
>I think my boyfriend has BPD holy fuck.
Dump him. Now.

No. 762621

>>762609
>I’d rather be dead than alive
Please don't die, get a better roomate please, if you feel unhappy then please do the right thing for your own mental stability

No. 762623

>>762620
Care to elaborate anon? Do you think he's going to turn abusive and hit me or something? At the very worst he's mildly posessive but I don't have much of an issue with that, it boils down to being bitchy and rude to pretty boys that hit on me at the bar.

No. 762625

>>762083
It's just agonizing because there's no way to defend yourself against it.
I know I should just move on and not let it bother me, but when I visited home I met one of my aunt's ex friends who had a completely twisted view of me and had to be corrected on what I actually did to move away and live my life.
I'm just angry about it because it's two generations of selfish, narc, abusive women abusing more successful younger siblings.

No. 762628

>>762618
>this 6'5 20-something year old man just broke down like a blue haired e-girl
I think it may be taken poorly here because who cares about men but it's honestly uncomfortable to read, it's weird for him he'd be mentally ill because he's 6'5 man??
also IDK if the anon who told you to dump him read that you admit to being a twat in the argument so idk, I guess it would be cool if you bf adressed your issues if it wasn't only one time event.

No. 762631

>>762618
This actually isn’t too abnormal IMO, he was probably putting on a self-assured front for a long time. Guys are actually massive babies when they’re worried they’ll lose you. If they’re not, they’re typically not that serious. Absolute worst case scenario, he’s pretending to be vulnerable to manipulate you.

No. 762636

>>762628
Oh no, I don't meant it like that, more like BPD behavior is more associated with young women, Im pretty sure it has like a 3:1 gender difference so it was just, very unexpected, because it was straight up textbook.

>>762631
The thing it was just silly, he called me clingy and I got sad and angry at him because im in a bad mood, he told to me to sleep on it and we could talk about it tomorrow, we are not going to break up over something stupid like that, it wasn't a big argument or an overlying issue we have to deal with on a daily basis im just moody because i feel like a trapped animal in a zoo.

No. 762637

>>762618
>this 6'5 20-something year old man just broke down like a blue haired e-girl because I got upset
Sorry, but that’s kind of hot.

No. 762640

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I hate when men """"joke"""" around, and then when they are called out, they say """it's my freedom of speech"""" seriously die already

No. 762659

>>762636
Wait so he called you clingy and told you to sleep on it and after said sleep became clingy himself? I suppose you can cling to each other mutually now

No. 762674

Why was I cursed with qanon, anti-vac delulu mother, every day for the past year I've had to internally cringing whenever covid or trump is talked about, like not only we live in a third world so we are kms away from usa, so the trump things is honestly weird, but the worst shit is that you can't try to rationally criticize her as she really has no idea what shes talking about so even if you have info about A topic she suddenly start talking about B topic, the most infuriating thing is her telling me "we dont have to see the same reality, why are you forcing me to see things like you?" Like fuck mom didnt knew you could see beyond our timeline/space

No. 762678

>>762640
"You wanna go on a date? I think you're pretty cute"
"No"
"Hahaha I was just joking anyways.. unless.."
"No"
"Sorry my little brother took my phone haha, you're ugly and fat anyways"

No. 762701

I hate and I really, really HATE when there's a girl in my group who says things like "I'm a feminist but not like those hairy nazi fat dykes who hate men." This is like the third time within a month that a girl says something like this with a different wording but always containing man hating dyke who is also fat and hairy. Why even bother calling yourself a feminist? What's the fucking point. I'm fighting the urge to call them out.

No. 762703

The constant hand washing and sanitizer use has totally fucked up my hands. They're drier than my grandma's cooch on menopause. I already had horrible rash due to stress and now It's continuous because of hand sanitizer I have to use every time I walk my ass grocery shopping.
I can't even use hand lotions because for some reason most lotions just irritate my skin even more. Can this fucking pandemic end already so I'm not obligated to soak my hands into burning chemicals every time I need to buy toilet paper or milk
I used to wash my hands every time I'd come back home with no problem but now when I do it it's just painful and it burns

No. 762707

>>762701
Please call her out, she'll be offended but it might be beneficial long term for her to realize her internalized misogyny.

No. 762708

>>762703
That sucks, would wearing disposable gloves when shopping help? The hands sweat a lot when wearing them though, so I'm not sure if they'd just irritate you further.

No. 762712

>>762707
That's the problem. It's three different girls. I feel like I'm going to be the odd one out. We're not friends, we're acquaintances with common social circles but it makes me mad nonetheless. I will call them out though. It's stronger than me.

No. 762713

>>762637
Can't deny being treated like the second comming of jesus feels good, he also wanted to have sex after but i turned it down because come on, trying to fix-it-up after an argument with sex out of fear of abandoment, woah there the bpd just jumped out sir.
>>762659
That's the thing right, he gives me a sermon on how he needs more alone time and space to enjoy his hobbies and that im being too clingy and insecure and then I wake up to straight up 20+ texts begging me to not break up with him and how he's a horrible narcissistic monster and how he shouldn't treat the best thing in his life this way (no suicide baiting which would be a massive red flag but still VERY MUCH eyebrow raising stuff), but like, dude what?

No. 762714

>>762703
Stop using the sanitizer, it's not like anti-bacterial fluids can kill viruses. Maybe carry a small tin or mini tube of moisturizer with you in your pocket and dab some on after every time you wash your hands.

No. 762716

My bf has got so fucking fat and refuses to do anything about it despite me threatening to break it off. The appearance part is the least of my cares. Hes more lazy, snappy, doesn't want to have sex and even his hygiene is getting worse. But I know deep down I wont break it off, I love him a lot and dont want to be known as the girl who broke up with her bf just because he gained weight as thats all people will see it as.

No. 762720

>>762703
Dry hands are the devil, anon.
In addition to glove suggestion above (I'd say wear thin fabric gloves underneath disposable ones, they are much nicer on the skin), try maybe looking for rosacea/atopic dermatitis/other extra sensitive skin oriented lotions? If your skin is compromised it maybe more sensitive to fragrance or certain ingredients. Also cosider slathering your hands in heavy moisturizer+vaseline at night and sleeping with cotton gloves.

No. 762754

>>762703
Look for handcreams that have at least 5% urea in them

No. 762772

everybody on my mom’s side of the family is so cute/pretty/handsome, but my dad’s side is meh. unfortunately, i inherited more of his genes

No. 762788

I think I will hate figuring out what I'm supposed to do til the day I die. I can't see how I could possibly be successful in not only figuring out what Im meant do to but then actually DOING It? I don't think I have the ability to do that and I definitely don't think I have the energy to do that

No. 762795

>>762716
It makes sense when women gain weight in a relationship, because sharing meals equally with a man tends to make you eat more because the man does. But how does the boyfriend get fatter while you are not? Is he just sitting around pigging out while you don't eat? That's just rude and gross. If hes getting fat off grease, salt, meats and sweets and keeping unhealthy foods around, that's bad for his health and yours.

You could try saying that for your own health you are banning unhealthy foods from the house. Or maybe say you've gained weight yourself, and ask him to be an exercise buddy? So it's not you telling him to do it, which might not be taken well, but more like you asking him for help. Tough to get a fat man off his ass though.

No. 762799

>>762716
Honestly i think you should tell him this. Even if you broke up with him because he got fat I don’t see why that would be a problem? You’re not attracted to him anymore, it’s not like you’re married. Either you break it off and make him realize that he’s making mistakes, or you stay with him and end up living 20 years longer than him cause the unhealthy fatass had a heart attack in his early 50s.

No. 762809

My male subordinate (in a position below me) just tried to boss me around to do some of his work. I’m so fucking sick of guys talking down to me, regardless of what position I’m in. I’m cutting his hours next week, stupid fucker.

No. 762823

>>762716
So tell him he's mean and boring?
Just because he's fat doesn't mean he has to be lazy, snappy, and not have sex with you. He's boring and mean. Being fat isn't an excuse for any of those things.
He sounds like a loser all around. Tell him you don't want a relationship with him unless he gets his shit together.

No. 762824

I miss my friends so much it's killing me

No. 762832

>>762809
hell yeah anon, make all the stupid scrotes who disrespect you suffer lmao

No. 762849

just saw my "friends" complaining about me in a game, they didn't take the time to check if i was online or not lol. i love that all of their complaints are just petty shit that doesn't even affect them one way or another. at least i finally worked up the nerve and just deleted them. one of them tried to contact me and was like "oh no i didnt know you were online! im so so sorry." like what thats not an apology, youre just saying that its okay to talk bad about me as long as im not around.

No. 762854

>>762809
Get his ass anon

No. 762855

>>762809
Fuck him up anon
It’s insane how men think they’re automatically in charge by virtue of being male

No. 762862

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>>761966
More drama: The department directors are currently shitting their pants in a fit because they discovered they have to shock and terror READ THE TRAINING DOCUMENTS! You know, like us pleb employees do. The first phase of the audit is next week and these dumbfucks neglected their training for months and are now shown as behind.
The Marketing director is particularly one entitled fuck. He wanted me to stop by his office to "catch him up with training," because he wants a personal assistant like our CEO has, I guess. He's been here a little over 90 days and still struggles with shit that new employees have down within a week. Or he pretends to. He's been shown how to do this by two people thrice. He doesn't retain it because he thinks he's above the process and believes if he bitches enough he won't have to do it like the rest of everyone else.

So I roll up and he can't even navigate the fucking Google Drive. He hides behind the excuse of being older as to why he can't fucking read folder titles and files. I finally show him the tracker document, the file locations, and the form he needs to fill out and turn in to indicate the training. He wouldn't stop complaining!
>THIS IS INSANE. THIS IS CRAZY. IVE BEEN HERE 90 DAYS AND YOURE TELLING ME I HAVE TO READ THESE 100 DOCUMENTS? OH IM GONNA TELL [CEO NAME] ABOUT THIS.
Lmao. For one thing he definitely didn't have 100 documents, it was less than that. But like…you've been here almost 100 work days dude. You can't read one document a day in exchange for a director's salary? When he was complaining about how insane it was, he was guffawing about the convoluted process, like how in previous jobs they all had electronic systems where he could just press a button to indicate a document has been read. I plainly said that I know how insane it is because I process everyone's training which requires thousands of inputs everyday. He stared at me for like six seconds and we didn't break eye contact. Then he bitched how he "already trained for documents" back in November, because he couldn't understand the concept that they had been revised and he needed to read the updates again.
It's amazing how brainless people get into these positions.

Anyway he was complaining to me like it was my fault the system is how it is. Like if he complained to me enough I could change a system I was given to take charge of and go against what the company required because it inconveniences this new director specifically. Did he think I was going to forge bullshit paperwork for him? He shouldn't have taken this job if he has trouble executing what the lowest paid employees have to do.

No. 762863

I had a dream of my brother in law sexually assaulting me and beating me up it was gross

No. 762898

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>>762135
I got a reply from her. She thought the screenshots are fake, told me I was a weirdo and told HIM to tell me to not message her again.

What a stupid fucking bitch. This is the last time I bother helping someone out like this. Enjoy your shit marrige if it even comes to it due to his cheating.

I feel so fucking stupid right now and even guilty while none of this shit is my fault. Jesus fuck

No. 762901

>>762898
Denial is a bitch. You did right by her anon, and she'll realise that eventually. Well done.

No. 762908

>>762898
Don't worry anon this happened to me several times and stopped because of the same outcome. I'm proud of you but don't put yourself through this again.

No. 762910

>>762898
You did the right thing! I know it feels like you fucked up but trust me, women should really look after each other like this. Too bad she's probably a pickme retard who thinks her scrote can do no wrong.

No. 762911

>>762898
You did the right thing anon, I'm proud of you. Her folly is just on layaway.

No. 762917

>>762901
>>762908
>>762910
>>762911
Thank you anons

It'll take a while for the anger to pass, I'm still shocked by the cold ass reply, but at this point it's not my problem anymore. Guess she might've thought I'm trying to break them up, while I'm not even into men. They've been together and known each other for a bit more than a year now so she's probably still in the honeymoon phase.

No. 762919

>>762898
>>762917
You did nothing wrong, she's coping hard. It will happen again, and she will only have herself to blame for not listening when warned. Good job, anon.

No. 762935

The one time I want to do my makeup I can't find my fucking sponge argghh

No. 762946

>>762898
ANON I was one of these people asking you to message her and thank you so much you did! Yeah she reacted poorly but it was expected and the second she has doubts about him she will remember this and ultimately she will be grateful for sure. I wish I had more women like you around me, people always prefer to comfortably be quiet and stay away instead getting into an uncomfortable confrontation, as important as it wouldn't be. You did the right thing, don't doubt it, be proud of yourself.

Seriously, it gives me back hope there are good people out there. My ex cheated on me, multiple people knew and only after i found out myself few girls messaged me "yeah he hit on me / we made out at some party but i didnt want to meddle in your relationship so I didn't say"… thank you for meddling, ILY

No. 762965

>>762917
Anon I tried to warn someone and she and the worm got engaged a year later and I actually didn't give a shit. You did the right thing and your outrage and guilt will subside before you know it

No. 763007

It's over :)

No. 763009

I'm so fucking annoyed, farmers. I fucking hate selling shit to men on depop. Guy degraded me because I refused to sell an item to him. He said "message me if you ever change your mind" on his stupid lowball deal. He decided to message me anyway, and I ghosted him because I don't want to fucking sell it at the price.
Guy proceeds to block me, report me, degrade me and now I cannot report him because he blocked me.
fuck him, I'll kick his ass next time I see him irl.

No. 763015

>>763009
fuck him, now I'm angry too, I'm sorry for you anon

No. 763016

I get women can be skeeved out by other women talking about their periods but it makes me so mad how quick some women are to call those women "gross" or "inappropriate". Men talk about their dicks/balls/cum/porn CONSTANTLY its almost the only thing their two brain cells can rub together to actually talk about but the moment a woman talks about how much pain she's feeling today or that she ruined a pair of underwear by bleeding randomly through she's saying something taboo. It irritates me so much. Why is blood coming out of a vagina more gross to some women than sperm coming out of a penis. Both bodily fluids, both gross out of context of what their meant for. Only ones been normalized by dudes and the other women keep other women in line when they get too "graphic" about it.

No. 763019

>>763016
The fact that some women call each other gross over that makes my blood boil

No. 763021

There's a "femboy" (troon) I am mutual friends with that is beginning to skinwalk me. It's stressing me out. Any time I talk about something and he's present, it becomes his personality until the next time I talk to him and the cycle repeats. He managed to find out what brands/styles I follow, the games I play, books I read, music I listen to and has now adopted all of it for his own personality. I feel like screaming every time he tries to talk to me about our "common" interests. It's a shame because I initially thought he was a really interesting person but I've now realised he was skinwalking the poor girl he was obsessed with before me.

A plus to this is pretending to be into really disturbing stuff and then listening to him scramble for reasons to pretend to like it, and then people react with revulsion and disgust.

No. 763022

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I am disgusted, I have a pair of shoes on sale on this popular app/website and stated that I don't want no one to come over to try them on because uh it's a fucking pandemic and I am immunocompromised. This based on the name and the fact that they're women's shoes messaged me about the postage and so on, I told her I can get back to her tomorrow (today) and I did. Now she keeps on insisting coming over because she is on some daytrip on the weekend, I told her no 3 times and now I am just gonna block her ass. What is wrong with people??

No. 763024

Every time I attemp to tell or explain something to my mother she just vaguely stares at me, lets me finish whatever I was saying and then proceed to tell me that she didn't listen to me and that I need to repeat everything. You were fucking staring at me, why the fuck didn't you stop me to make me repeat myself earlier instead of saying yes and nodding every once in while and THEN saying that you didn't understand me?? What where you even thinking about?? Is it so hard to give me a little bit of attention when I need to tell you something once every three fucking months? And then she gets upset and whines because she still can't understand shit even after I repeat the thing three times. She makes it about herself and how she's unlucky because she was born dumb and stupid while she's just so narcissistic that she can't stand not having a conversation about herself. I feel miserable and worthless every time I have to interact with her.

No. 763027

I think I'm getting a little paranoid nonnies. I work in court and people here have to have an "unblemished reputation". I want to start streaming, nothing lewd, just art and gaming streams. Still, I'm scared that there will be someone who wants to dox me, I used to be a troll on a certain board and some people from that board and discord can recognize me. I never did anything lewd but I pissed a few people. I'm afraid that if I said anything that could be considered inappropiate on the stream, they might contact my job or something. I could stream without showing my face, but I have a small fanbase on twitter and I'd like them to be able to see me. What do you think? Is it better not to risk it?

No. 763040

My face fucking hurts! I have three huge bumps on my chin a bunch of small clusters under my chin. They usually come when my period comes but now it's been a few days and i KEEP touching them.
I can't stop. They are so big and disgusting. I already have acne scars and I'm making it worse.
I just want to stop.

No. 763044

>>763009
as I have some experience selling on ebay, poshmark, etsy, and depop, i can say with authority that depop is by far the worst just because of its customer base. On other sites you do get the occasional cranky boomer, but depop is filled with pissy shitty kids who try to message and talk to you like you're friends, and then rage when you wont take their low offers. This happened to me 3x in a row on depop with no sales either - in the same time period I sold at least 10 things on other sites with no issues. Depop's userbase is mostly zoomers & younger who have no money and infinite time to hassle you.

No. 763049

Guy I was very very emotionally invested in ghosted me, wish I had friends to watch stupid movies and eat ice cream with right now

No. 763059

>>763027
Tbh yolo. I'm a teacher and I've had students recognize me on tiktok and things like that, haven't gotten doxxed or in trouble yet. If you have nothing to hide, you have nothing to worry about–I would just keep swearing to a minimum and your opinions as neutral as possible to avoid anyone trying to get you fired.

No. 763068

>>763049
He will be back. They always come back.

No. 763081

>>762450
it was on reddit, I know it's a mistake I deleted it already. I had low upvotes compared to the other posts. Tbf I don't update posts either but it kinda hurts

No. 763086

I have been getting either bedbug bites or eczema along my entire body, and it's made the stretchmarks along my thighs, knees, and calfs look so fucking bad. I'm just so fucking annoyed I have to deal with this, and the anti-itch cream I got isn't helping that much either

No. 763093

>>763007
owari da

No. 763123

Few things anger me, but paedophilia among the elite always manages to frustrate me. Especially the fact that for a brief period, Pedowood was ALL OVER THE NEWS! Then Epstein "committed suicide", the denial of it was swiftly brainwashed into a meme and now everybody forgot about it. :) Children continue to be trafficked and raped and victims suffer the horrible trauma of what was done to them, whilst the perpetrators face no consequences and instead remain living their lush, wealthy lives. It's politicians, actors, bankers, all types of public figures. I'm tired of nothing happening to the criminals who hurt innocent people like this. I'm sick and tired of it and I want to make a change.

No. 763131

>>763123
Tbh I think introducing the "elite cult" element is exactly what caused people to stop taking it seriously. It suddenly became seen as this far-out occult thing that only happens in foreign mansions and the spooky dark web, when there's children worldwide being harmed every day in very real and tangible ways–beyond csa there's childhood poverty and neglect, child labor, forced child soldiers and child brides, the infamous kids in cages. Nobody really addresses those when they're on a Pedowood tirade since their issue isn't "children are being hurt," it's "the government is protecting the rich illuminati sex pests!"
Sensationalizing pedos backfired instead of """bringing awareness""" imo

No. 763134

>>763086
If it is eczema, taking biotin every day and using soap without sulfates always helps me, you can see if you can get a cream with a mild steroid in it OTC too.
If you have health care, a doctor can prescribe a stronger steroid cream if the drugstore ones dont work. Personally the prescription cream saved my skin from looking like fucking magma but make sure you use anything with steroids in sparingly.

No. 763136

>>763131
In my personal opinion, these topics are connected, which makes them more relevant than ever. A system like the one we see today in which these crimes can thrive has to have some sort of foundation or leadership that actively supports them. More specifically, I am talking about the Clinton case and how they actively fund human trafficking, or how the shows children watch are produced by paedophiles and largely rely on the work of molested children whilst including innuendo upon innuendo. I wholeheartedly agree that it is important to stay active in protecting and helping child victims of crimes that aren't committed by the elite, but that doesn't make what is committed by highly influential figures who hold an abnormal amount of power over society less important. It is extremely unfortunate that so many people abuse this topic for their own hidden agenda, but that doesn't make what they're ultimately saying false.

No. 763137

>>763123

Anon, it links to the Vatican and the likes of the Rothschild. These people run the world and own and WILL own everything once 2030 hits. Who do you think started this shitty pandemic?

Philip Schneider who was this massive whistle blower ex CIA engineer spoke of Adrenochrome in the 90s ffs

It's been going on yearsssss

No. 763142

>>763137
I KNOW! I always need to detox from these things so I can focus on my every day work, as I other wise become too involved in this topic and can't stop busying myself with it, which is extremely telling on its own. It's quite a shame that there are few quality outlets for discussion of this ilk… It would be nice to have a place where people can (digitally) gather in peace and have quality discussion about this topic with the aim of actually making a difference. I know I am being terribly naive and optimistic making such a claim, and I certainly have no wish to commit suicide, but at the end of the day it is how I feel.

No. 763146

>>763136

Mentioning the Clinton case, who else remembers John Podesta her Chairman?

There's a video of him on Youtube named "Don't Call Me Skippy" its him abusing a kid in a shower shouting "Whats my name! Whats my name!" and the kid is shouting John three times. And at the end he says "Who's your fucking Daddy now!" and it IS the same voice. Definitely him and people even did a comparison.

Plus him and Tony Podesta are on the guest list for that Comet Pizza place. And the showers downstairs are the exact same as in the video this took place. Someone recorded it secretly.

If you do go looking for this video - I'll warn you now you will not sleep properly. I watched it and it is fucking horrible. I wanted to cry. You can't see it but the shadow figures show it all.

And in the video John Podesta even says "I grow stronger and I grow stronger" and someone said that this is from a CP video.

Plus there was another video I saw on some other site in the SAME fucking shower in that Pizza place downstairs and its dark, you see a little bit of the shower open and its some creep telling a kid they have a nice body and shit and the kid is crying and theyre like why are you crying kid?

Someone is filming this shit and trying to out it evidently.

No. 763148

>>763146
What's up with the reddit typing, anon geez

No. 763150

>>763148

I ain't from Reddit

That shit is on Youtube and that other video I came across during the Pizzagate shit.

No. 763152

>>763142

Anon, do not get too into it. I did when I first started looking into it and I couldn't sleep for a week. It knocks you sick to the fucking core.

Not even just that…

The Getty Museum has kids in bunkers under there. That has been recently outed by another whistleblower and it's worse than Epstein.

Kids from poor ass countries and they're deported to the US in ART crates and they aint opened due to some law? I aint America so idk

But now we have that too going on and it makes you wonder what the actual fuck more is happening(USER HAS BEEN PUT OUT TO PASTURE)

No. 763155

>>763146
Do you think you could share the (spoilered) link to this with an archived copy? I think I've seen it before but I'm not sure, and things are often deleted. I'm about to go to bed so I'm not going to watch it now anyway, as I already feel a bit too involved haha

No. 763156

>>763152
>>763150
oh no you are the anon from last time, you still don't know how to format a post and not double post.

No. 763160

>>763152
>>763146
Anon, I agree with what your saying, but please for the love of god format properly. If you want to separate your text then at least do it in paragraphs.

No. 763162

>>763152
You have no idea, I have spent weeks in the library reading about these things and barely sleeping because it is so absolutely eye-opening and astounding. There is no way these things are complete lies considering how intricate and widespread the examples are. Also, do you have references to what you mentioned? I'm going to search it myself tomorrow, but again I'm about to go to bed now so I'm not trying to engage myself too much.

No. 763170

>>763155
NTA, but I've seen the same video, with a comparison to Podesta's voice. Seems like it was scrubbed from YT, but there's this.
Funny, we have so much content on obviously fake/dumb conspiracies (flat earth, chemtrails, etc) untouched and undisturbed, but the "fake" Pizzagate content has a way of disappearing.

No. 763172

>>763123
Anyone remembers how Isaac Kappy accused Tom Hanks of being a pedophile and said he's not suicidal and just a few days later he commited "suicide" by jumping off a bridge? Lol. It's also shocking how easy it is to find CP on the internet. If the goverment wanted to stop it, they actually could, but they don't want to. Mouthy Buddha had a whole series on pedogate, CP being hidden in plain sight and Tom Hanks but his channel got deleted from youtube. It's still on bitchute though and I would recommend watching the whole pedogate series

https://www.bitchute.com/video/SvAUa1FcvDk/(derailing; take it to conspiratard thread)

No. 763173

There is an individual that is posting in Reddit format across /ot/

No. 763185

>>763134
I think it's most likely bed bug bites tbh. I had them a couple months ago and they recently came back so I think my skin is reacting worse, however I do appreciate your response anon! I have eczema on my thighs so if it flares up again I'll remember this, ty!

No. 763187

>>763152
janny please ban the rest of these retarded youtube sleuths.

No. 763197

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I will choke slam my fucking roommate if he burns another fucking meal while staring dead at the fucking food.
I can understand walking away or working on other items, but when you're staring at it directly and it fucking burns…. what the fuck

youd' think after weeks of burning food this motherfucker would learn how to cook some fucking pancakes and eggs.

No. 763224

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>>763172
yeah, I remember there was also a girl on twitter claiming her dad had sold her to Tom Hanks as a 12yr old or something

No. 763237

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Here I fucking go again falling in love with facelesss skinny eboy musician
I'm too old for this reee

No. 763249

I want to move on. Sometimes I hate lurk this bitch that I used to know, but I want to stop completely. I hate that she takes up space in my mind rent free because she has a good job, a loving partner, and people worshiping her because she can play up that 'uwu smol loli costhot' schtick. She wasn't really a big part of my life to begin with but is nasty and conniving and I wish she would just get her comeuppance but I also just want to stop giving a fuck. I quit cosplay, I have basically no mutual friends with her anymore, how good or bad her life goes has no effect on mine.

No. 763250

i want to scream

No. 763252

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>>763185
I rec getting the following anon! I originally bought this because my eczema was getting so bad and it helped a lot, then when I got bed bugs it was one of the only things that helped the itching (sometimes I'll have to reapply it a few times, other times just one layer works to stop it).

No. 763258

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last year i was supposed to get plastic surgery. it was all planned out. i got a job, saved up a few thousand euro, and then the pandemic happened and everything went to shit. i was supposed to get my chin fixed (receding chin) and a nose job. my parents starting badgering me even more about how i don't need it, especially the nose job. now i'm starting to feel horrible about my appearance again and i just don't know what to do anymore. i wish i didn't need plastic surgery. i wish my face was naturally just IN PROPORTION and i didn't look like i have a physical deformity from my side profile, or literally any other view other than deadpan front facing. i don't even wish to be beautiful or anything, i just wish i was born at least average looking without all this weird shit about my face. it's crippling me mentally. i've reached my mid 20s and i'm still struggling with the same insecurities from 10 years ago. it's going to be the same 10 years from now, and then 10 years after that, unless i kill myself or get hit by a bus or something. it's just never going to end because i know OBJECTIVELY that my face is ugly.

No. 763263

>>763258
I don't have any real advice because I too want a nose job, but I promise it'll be ok anon. I genuinely mean it when I say you probably look a lot better than you think, people have a tendency to be hard on themselves especially when it comes to appearance. Your parents probably just want to make sure you won't do anything you'll regret. I hope you're able to get the ps if you still want it in the future

No. 763265

>>763258
Just do it, you'll feel happy after

No. 763272

>>763265
Don't encourage people to get plastic surgery when they can just build up their self esteem.

No. 763336

>>762935
No one cares but, I found it! I haven't done my makeup in a very long time so I'm actually kind of excited to do it again

No. 763342

hate that my mom is defending my brother's obvious cheating during the course of his relationship with his ex. she had the audacity to tell his ex gf that she shouldn't have cheated on him for a man has pride or ego they have to carry and that my brother didn't even bother introducing the other women he has on the side.

the ex gf only cheated once and she did it to finally end the toxic relationship my brother had with her, unlike him who, despite being caught multiple times, still does it.

i hate the bias my mom has for him. she always defends him, cuddle him and literally does not scold him for his wrong doings and him being an absolute slob and lazy. he only dates girls who are his classmates so that they can do his homework and other school related activities. and my mom just jokes about it.

when my brother tells us that his new gf failed "some of his tests and that because she lacks training" i was absolutely disgusted and my mom was nonchalant about it his comment.

my mom, who is a domestic abuse survivor and a victim of being cheated on by her ex husband, my dad, multiple times throughout their marriage, would rather support my brother who shows the same behavior as her abuser (although, i'm glad that my brother hasn't laid a hand on his girlfriends and if he did i will definitely castrate him and cut off his dick). i'm glad that karma is getting to her, i guess. her boyfriend is cheating on her with some girl, someone younger and sexy, and she's been miserable although she tries to hide it off by telling others that she can find someone better.

No. 763381

It's official, after my lease expires my boyfriend is moving me in with his elderly parents. His mother has Alzheimer's.
I'm so uncomfortable with this but I really truly have no choice and neither will bf when his expires shortly after mine. We'll have to live with them until we can secure a home loan–it would be pointless to rent in the meantime & I refuse to go back to renting because this will price us out completely in a few year's time. One bedroom rent is now equal to or greater than the mortgage of a $300k home, unless one wants to sublet a "private room" with several different strangers. I'm already mad at myself for being with my loser ex and not having bought a house myself 5 years ago when I first moved to the area and the prices weren't yikes tier bad yet. Covid actually made the housing market hotter and more competitive.

I guess I ought to be grateful. His folks live in a nice area and have a gorgeous house…except it's buried in hoarding clutter with mean fucking cats. I feel really dirty in there when we visit, so in addition to wanting to clean for my own sake I'm sure it's what they'll half expect of me anyway. As well as cook, no doubt, since they've enjoyed my food I brought over. They won't charge us rent, so it'll be nice to not pay split rent like what I'm doing now by living with my jerk stepdad. I'm estranged from the rest of my family because I went no contact with my mother. She is a emotionally abusive narc who terrorized me every day when I moved back home temporarily after grad school and after my breakup with my ex. The way she badly treated me escalated when her third marriage failed, so I can't live with her, she's awful. And she'd charge me rent so lol I'm not paying her to mistreat me and tapdance on my adult boundaries. Not to mention she wouldn't let my bf (soon to be fiance) live with us while there despite having a big house. God I'm upset typing that out, I wish I could have been born to stable and emotionally available people who wanted to support me instead of punishing me for not living up to their expectations. Anyway…we can save money in this instance.

I just hope his parents don't wind up hating me. His mother seems to like me, although she can't remember my name for her life haha. I just don't want her to develop bad associations like what she has of my bf's ex. She's already convinced there are "women" living on their second floor and stealing her things, so I mean…I just hope that sort of energy doesn't become directed at me. I don't really like his dad but he seems to like me better than his ex and was impressed with my car and job, so it seems if I stay out of his way that matters will be fine.

Pray for me anons. Pray that we can get pre-qualified and find a fucking home before next year so I don't have to keep living on someone else's property for forever.

No. 763386

>>763258
I can't give advice, only life experience and there have been so many people in society/pop culture/history with a "big nose, weak chin" who are loved/desired.


I get we all have our own perception of how we look or want to look and meeting up to our ideals is hard

Unless you are adam driver, that guy's ugly

No. 763397

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I never had a support system but I also never got negative feedback either. Until now.

I'm trying to learn programming on my own and family members are all trying to gently redirect me from it. Or just give me a sad look when I tell them about it.

I work a shit job that pays less than minimum but gives me time to study but I guess since I'm not officially in school everyone thinks I'm dicking around. The thing that pisses me off the most that no one has ANY suggestions what I should do instead of programming. They are all silent when I ask but they all shit on me anyway.

Truth is, I have no idea what I want to do and how to get there, at least programming is fun. I'm in my mid 20s and feel like I'm running out of time. I know I'm not but I have peers that are already settling down, have careers etc so yea the pressure is there.

No. 763404

I hope that failed suicide anon is ok

No. 763408

I am cold Turkey weaning my 1 year old son off of breastfeeding and he is being the worst.i cant do anything without him crying all I hear is him crying all day.i truly do not like him right now I'm tempted to just leave him with his grandma for a week or something. I haven't been getting much sleep and my thoughts are scarily violent when he just won't sleep. I do not feel any warmth or excitement when I see him wake up I'm simply depleted. Fuck breastfeeding and the nurses who shilled it to me. And fuck my life I guess I simply wasnt meant to sleep because fuck me right

No. 763412

>>763408
Don't have kids but the first 2-3 years are supposed to be the worst so hang in there anon

No. 763414

My mum talks to herself every fucking morning out loud since I was young, and it always wakes me up, and makes me anxious. I hate these paper thin walls.

No. 763415

>>763408
Ah, the sleepless parent vent, tale as old as time. Yeah, leave him with grandma for a bit and recuperate. Child reading is hard labour, you gotta share the load if you don't want to break your back.

No. 763416

>>763414
Hey my mom does that too. She also has the habit of going in and out of rooms just to look out the windows and spy on our neighbors. It’s very obsessive..

>>763408
I hope you can get a break anon. You deserve a good sleep.

No. 763418

My boyfriend and I are fighting so much and I have no energy left

No. 763436

I know something's wrong with my dog but I can't do anything about it because technically she's a family dog and my parents say that she's fine. She barely plays anymore, can't jump like she used to and her eyes are watering so much it looks like she's crying. It's depressing. But of course I'm always too dramatic and my parents are right even though they almost never see her and can't tell the change in behaviour.

No. 763457

I need female attention and companionship so badly… i’ve two female irl friends, but online the only people who’ll speak to me are pornsick troons. I guess it’s because i have kind of masculine interests, but i don’t even know where to go to interact with other, actual women, let alone other lesbians… I know It’s mostly me being clueless, but It still annoys me.

No. 763464

>>763436
take her to the vet anon, you don't need your family's permission to do that. I hope she gets better soon.

No. 763496

2 days ago I went to a mcdonalds to get the shamrock shake, but they didn't have it for some reason, and I'm still a little upset about it. It was gonna be my first time trying one. I don't even like mint that much but I really want to try that drink for whatever fucking reason

No. 763504

>>763457
It be like that…I share ur pain

No. 763508

I just found out of one my best friends died

No. 763514

>>763508
I'm so fucking sorry, anon.

No. 763515

>>763464
I would but, you see… I don't have a license. And the vet's pretty far.

No. 763530

>>763436
>>763436
How old is she? What breed? Is she straining to pee, poo? When was the last time she saw the vet? If she's an older lady she really ought to get a full physical + bloodwork if she hasn't been in a while. Look into pet insurance.

No. 763541

>>763508
Fucking hell, anon. I'm so sorry. Similar happened to me a few years ago. We met online in the early 2000s. Met so many times irl and hung out, but she would sometimes disappear offline for a bit but would always come back. One time she went, and I was constantly looking online for her because something felt wrong. I managed to find an old mutual on fb and she told me she had died a year previous. It is mortifying. I am grief stricken to this day and I found out 3 years ago. Her parents haven't lay her ashes anywhere so I can't go and visit her, but I plan this summer to drive to her town and spend time in the park we used to visit. Sorry for hijacking anon, but I just want to let you know that I can feel your pain. It will never not be a shock. Look after yourself and take as long as you need to come to terms with it.

No. 763550

>>763541
Thank you, and I hear your pain as well and feel it. I think I’ll do the same. We’d been best friends since middle school, and he had a lot of struggles, but was still so warm and wonderful. We didn’t always talk after moving away, but when we did, it was like nothing happened. We talked as recently as last year and chatted about visiting sometime and how much he loved his son and how he had been sober for a while. I don’t know if it was a relapse, accident, or health issue, and I feel like an asshole for not realizing it happened sooner. But I know that doesn’t do any good. I’m just remembering good things today. My parents were strict but LOVED him even though he was always a ruffian. Big hugs to you, anon. This shit sucks. When I pour one out for him today, I’ll keep it going for your friend too.

No. 763552

>>763514
Thank you, I really do appreciate it.

No. 763555

>>763530
She just turned 7 and she's usually the typical border collie that's very active and wants to play a lot. She even knows agility tricks and everything. And I know she's getting old but she went from jumping like half a meter from the ground to being unable to stand on two legs for two seconds and run properly in a day. I was playing with her like three weeks ago, she turned too suddenly and yelped and from then on she has been like this. She eats and poops/pees fine though. She sees the vet once a year for vaccines and pills but she has never had bloodwork or other exams done. Even my brother says that she looks odd but of course my parents always know better, and they probably say so because they're afraid they'll have to pay too much.

No. 763556

>>763550
Thanks mate. It's so hard. My friend was similar. She had a lot of awful things happen to her, and last I knew she was in hospital with stomach pains. She was allowed home, where she died on her own. No one found her for a few days so I always get upset thinking about that image of her being alone. I did offer to stay with her while she was in hospital and make sure she got home okay, but she said she was fine, that her parents would be up soon. No one thought to tell me, though I was apparently mentioned in her funeral. It was weird. Have a drink for us and take care. Will be thinking of you and your friend tonight.

No. 763558

Why do men have to be so ugly? And why did I have to end up straight?
I hate being single in my 30's, all the hot nerds are either taken or have kids (and when I finally find one that doesn't they end up having the personality of plywood).

No. 763559

I know I shouldn't be crying about this because I can afford to have a decent QOL but I am so freaking pissed at myself.

My boyfriend who makes a higher salary than me decided not to file his 2020 taxes yet. My retarded self wanted to get it done as early as possible.

Now he is eligible for the stimulus check because he didn't file taxes yet and I get absolutely nothing because I filed early. I fucking hate myself.

I still am 25,000 deep in student load debt and car debt. I definitely would've used that money to pay off my car. Yet my dumb boyfriend who literally has no college debt and no car debt gets a fucking paycheck for being lazy. Fuck me.

I'm so fucking sad.

No. 763560

>>763559
Samefag, though I am grateful to have a well paying job. I would also be grateful to not pay 200 every month for an old car that I've had for like 4 years.

No. 763561

I'm slightly changing the details since this is more a vent about grammar. So I sent my bf the following text because he was ordering me a salad at a restaurant:

>Salad Toppings - No onions; peppered with dressing.


I sent him a follow up pic of the salad I wanted which showed the dressing I asked for, bf knows already that I don't like onions in salad. I was at work and didn't see his texts in time where he was apparently majorly confused by my sentence.
He knew I didn't want onions, but also didn't pepper and dress my salad! He read it like I had said "no" to not only the onions, but everything after the semicolon too. I was a little mad because it seems clear to me that a semicolon means a pause before a second clause which is a continuation of the main subject. It's not a comma.
He said what I texted was unclear.

Am I off base, or does my text confuse you anons too? If it's pretty clear I'm gonna tell him I asked and the internet said he was wrong. We're both graduate students with concentrations in composition so we're both pretty opinionated.

No. 763564

>>763561
Your text is pretty clear and I got an idea of what it was, even without even reading the second part of your post.

No. 763565

>>763556
This sounds stupid but there's this saying or whatever that as long as someone says outloud a lost loved one's name, they're not forever gone. I also know what it's like to lose people and to have no one find them for days, the thoughts will run wild but it's important you let yourself feel everything, be it sadness, rage or nothing at all. Hugs to you, anon, I'm sure she knew you cared.

No. 763567

>>763561
If i read that, knowing myself, I would understand you didn't want onions but did want the other stuff. Especially if I was doing something else, I know what semicolon means but I would just assume it was a typo tbh.

No. 763573

I'm a bit late with the news around Sarah Everard's murder but I'm sick after reading all the comments. The society is sick. But most of all, I'm sad when I read women talking about educating men. I don't think it's going to solve anything. Men will never care about women's safety. The fact that they do whataboutism in cases such as these is so vile. It shows they only care about themselves.

No. 763578

>>763561
Your boyfriend is dumb. That's forgivable imo, but what makes it terrible is if he blamed you for your text being unclear instead of just apologizing for misunderstanding.

No. 763579

I think a lot of asian people are going to be disappointed to find out that black people don't care about racism, they only care about black people(racebait)

No. 763581

3 days ago i took lsd and i'm still not normal, like i have to take an uber to work because i'm too hazy to drive…

No. 763591

My fucking tax forms were done incorrectly either by my own stupidity or my former employer's and now instead of the nice big tax return I was looking forward to, I owe the government over $1k. I want to cry

No. 763598

>>763591
You can amend it. Look into form 1040-X

No. 763650

>>763598
Well basically they weren't withholding enough for federal income tax the entire year I worked there. Even if I filled out everything correctly and it's their mistake, it looks like I have to cough up the money no matter what unless I can get them to help me pay. But thank you for the suggestion

No. 763665

I'm trying to learn how to draw curly hair types (4C hair in particular) but god, this really is not working out at all. Not only is it not coming out the way I wanted to, the lead on my mechanical pencil keeps breaking cause my heavy-handed ass got a 0.3. Drawing something always seems so easy until you actually try to do it. I'm just gonna give up and try some other styles lmao

No. 763667

I was gonna enjoy my day off but my brother is home and it's making me shake with anger. I dislike him strongly for no real reason, like a visceral repulsion made worse by him always trying to be friendly with me. I wish he'd just leave me alone. Now I'm almost going to cry eating icecream because I think my computer has a virus running in the background that keeps making my window inactive while I'm trying to type this and I'm too lazy to wipe it because I'd have to reinstall all my programs. This is all my brothers fault for being at home making me angry. I definitely have undiagnosed aspergers that makes me into this antisocial spergy mess damn I'm fucked up lol

No. 763670

I was really looking forward to seeing a friend I hadn’t seen in 3 months today to exchange birthday/Christmas/Hanukkah gifts and afterwards I was gonna see my bf and we were gonna get Taco Bell and finish FLCL but my bf woke up with a sore throat, got a covid test and it’s positive soooo now I’m stay put in my apartment until Monday when I can get a test cause I last saw him Sunday. I’m trying to be sweet about it because you can get it anywhere but he cancelled our plans on Saturday to go bar-hopping for st paddy’s with his brother and I can’t help but think that’s has to be where he got it. I’m trying to stay calm but I had to call out of work for the rest of the week and if I do have it I’ll have to miss my dad’s birthday and Easter, I’m so upset. This is my spring break and I’m spending it sat in my apartment scared and alone lol

No. 763671

>>763665
oh wow, quite a challenge you've set there for yourself anon. i think if you want it to be realistic it will a pure, timeconsuming, cruel grind

No. 763682

Why did I think buying a super long wig as my first one was a good idea lol

No. 763697

I don't want to start a "troo bi" debate because I just want to vent but jesus fucking christ I'm so sick of women who claim to be "bi" despite always and only lusting after cock and the men they're attracted to. Fuck you, you're making a fucking mockery out of being gay. I'm so sick of this shit, a girl I follow on twitter pretends to be ~lgbt~ despite being a straight woman desperately chasing after men and openly being horny over them. Literally the straightest bitch on the block, you take that fucking gay label off this instant. Take your hetero card and go, idiot.

No. 763712

I opened my bank account when I was under 18 so they had to be linked to my mom's accounts and my bank won't let me unlink them, I have to completely close and reopen them anew but that's such a fucking inconvenience to reset up my direct deposit and relink my autopays to my bank account ughhh. It hasn't really ever bothered me that she can see how much I have in my accounts, but then again, we haven't ever been in the situation the pandemic has put us in. My parents have a lot of debt because of my dad, and I've paid off my student loans and live rent free with them. I feel like giving her money whenever she asks for some (it's not often) is the least I can do since I don't pay rent, but at the same time I'm suddenly uncomfortable with her seeing that I'm sitting on a lot of money in both my savings and checkings and possibly thinking "my daughter doesn't need all of this money."

My parents aren't skeevy terrible people and my mom has never transferred money out of my account without asking me beforehand, but it's… a little unnerving. I feel unjustified in feeling uncomfortable, but I'm an adult and it's no small sum of money so I have the right to feel uncomfortable, right? Since my account is linked to hers, she doesn't actually need formal permission from me to even transfer money out of my accounts lol, but I do frequently check and have notifications set up (for fraud protection). Maybe I'm just being super paranoid for no reason.

No. 763718

>>763670
sorry but if you go bar hopping during a pandemic, you deserve at least something shitty. sorry about your ruined plans though.

No. 763719

>>763670
man your partner is a dick lol. yeah you can get it anywhere, but also why the hell did he think bar hopping during a holiday in the middle of covid was a good idea? i'm sorry about that anon! that sucks big time.

No. 763734

>>763682
I cut the bangs too fucking short oh my god what do I do?

No. 763736

>>763697
Agreed. I have a friend who does this and references herself as gay/queer all the time, but has never even privately talked about attraction to women with me. It’s always men. But she “hates men” so she calls herself bi kek. She doesn’t even list after celebrity women, and that’s easy to fake.

No. 763739

I got a yeast infection because I eat too much bread and I already cut down on some food because of heart burns, what the fuck is there left for me to eat?

No. 763747

>>763739
vegetables, non-greasy stuff, roots, brown rice and pasta if you must insist eating them.

No. 763763

>>763739
bruh eating foods with yeast doesn't give you a yeast infection. You should see a gynecologist.

No. 763784

>>763763
Nta but white bread is basically sugar and too much sugar can throw your pussy out of balance, tsk.

No. 763788

Months ago, I posted about how a moid customer at my work exposed himself to me and my two coworkers. Yesterday I learned I have to appear in court (albeit via zoom) to testify against this fucking creep. I cannot believe it took this long to get him to court, but I guess that's the legal system. Exhibitionist scrote piece of shit. Groped my coworker, flashed us his junk, and terrified us all? I hope he's been rotting in jail and I hope the court case actually guarantees he stays there.

No. 763789

>>763397
keep learning programmation anon, it will pay in the end !

No. 763792

>>763788
I'm so sorry for that you had to go through this.
I hope you get the justice you deserve

No. 763806

>>763718
Yeah but it was her scrote, not her

No. 763809

>>763806
Where did i imply it was her? Maybe my general "you do this and this might happen to you" wording confused you, i am aware it was the scrote.

No. 763816

>Severe mental health issues
>burn through 4 jobs in a year
>Bills stacking up, will have to sell my house
>one half of the family comes out of the woodwork to shame me and call me a lazy bludging piece of shit that takes off other people
>other half of the family insists I live off their money to fund my mortgage
>They fear monger and tell me if I go live on NEETbux somewhere else I'll be bullied and picked on by other people

I don't know where they get the idea that all NEETs live in fear of other people and are perpetually bullied and assaulted. This isn't a ghetto in India, you get left alone as a NEET here. I've talked to several NEETs and even the ones that live in communal living and are semi-functional go "lol no, wtf, people just keep to themselves".

I'm tired of it, I'm tired of going backwards $130 a week. All in all, I live poorer than the NEETs even, I haven't brought myself a single material possession that wasn't a second hand piece of clothing in over two years. I just need help packing up my life and getting a bullshit living arrangement that's cheap.

I'm thankful for the help I've received hitherto, but they're all operating under the assumption I'm going to have a miracle cure and be well again. I'm seriously thinking of just turning down their current offer and letting everything default, but I don't want to be stuck in a position where I literally can't feed myself.

No. 763824

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my teacher told me I behave like a feral animal but he likes me anyway. it's not the first time he points out my weird behavior and my lack of manners but it's the first time he said he likes me. should I tell him I'm autistic? maybe that will make him stop

No. 763831

>>763827
Idk, after calling me a feral animal he just said "but I like that about you". I didn't respond lol

No. 763833

I'm kinda distraught because I realized my sis turned into the kind of person I dislike. I can't dislike her but I'm disappointed because I was happy she made friends but turns out she told them she's a fakeboi and they are using those pronouns and name. And sound otherwise pretty cow-like tbh from how she described them. Not only that but (like most fakebois) she is addicted to social media still. I still love her but that's why it is so upsetting. I guess it's selfish but I don't know if she can truly be happy feeding into this delusion and being brainwashed on the internet however else and meeting people who might cause her more issues. I just, idk, I even hated what she was saying to me in convo, I wanted to have a sisterly bonding time but I realize it can be hard to deal with. She became this internet-affected person and it's sad like will she grow out of it before things worsen? I can't deal with people like that

No. 763836

God I hate the 14YR olds who borderline harass musicians and band members to "PUT PRONOUNS IN BIO".Just kids telling someone more than twice their age and @ing them in they're tweets to put "HE/HIM"is so fucking stupid.This rant is autistic as hell but seeing kids yelling at dudes like Frank Iero to do this shit sets me off.

No. 763837

>>757473
Literally how does this even happen

No. 763838

>>763833
I've been going through this with my older brother and I find it really hard to communicate exactly what it is about him that's so disappointing, but he is exactly as you described (apart from the fakeboi stuff). He's ten years older than me so we've always been in different stages in our lives, I can't influence him the way you can maybe influence your younger sister. It's a really strange and difficult thing to process, seeing your sibling grow into a person that you feel fundamentally antagonistic to, losing the sense of common ground you shared in the past. I really hope there's a better future for your relationship with your sis. Maybe you need to have a heart to heart with her?

No. 763843

>>763838
Thank you anon you captured it really well, I'm so sorry about your brother being similar. Have you spoken with him? Idk if I can talk to her. I mean I already tried a while back and she seemed to actually be open to some terfy stuff and anti-social media brainrot. But it's emotionally exhausting especially when I don't want to push too far and hurt her. Selfish but I don't even want to talk about it because of the difficulty I have with conflict. Man I'm really sad though, it's exactly as you said. I really hate how she is acting and I hate how it's from outside sources influencing her, it's so sinister since she wouldn't be this way otherwise. Uuugh sorry for all that, thanks again. I wonder if you relate to these parts too. I hope both our siblings grow up out of this I'm scared

No. 763846

im a retard. my mom was basically having a breakdown over me not being able to finish my up and coming last uni deadline on time and just keeps looking at me ashamed and not talking to me. can't focus cause of my retard ADHD brain but felt guilty so i took like 4 more of my one a day pills and im feeling fucking wild and weird.

No. 763848

I really hate that I can’t belong in any circle tbh

No. 763849

>>763848
same; do u wish to elaborating?

No. 763851

>>763849
I just can’t no matter what I do. I’m always seen as some schizo retard that’s ugly, dumb and evil. I’m nobody’s cup of tea. Wbu anon?

No. 763853

lost one of my favorite earrings and it is effecting me emotionally way beyond what it should be. i could maybe reach out to the jeweler and see if she could make me a replacement but its been 3 years and I haven't seen her post any similar pairs since so I could be out of luck . they were only 90$ so its not like losing an invesment piece but I just really loved them and wore them as my defaults.

No. 763855

>>763851
I feel like a jellyfish. Transparent and floating… I can't connect to others. Im sorry you feel that way anon, its the worst

No. 763857

>>763851
Diff anon but I can relate. Even my own family doesn’t like me. I’ve literally been called a skitzo or crazy so many times now it doesn’t phase me. I’m just out there and I cannot be put into any box lol. I also won’t change my opinions, values, interests, or looks to make other people feel more comfortable or at ease enough to ever get anyone to like me (besides my husband-but he is also a freaking weirdo and nobody likes him either) I’m sorry for rambling and interrupting you guys I just really feel dat social rejection strongly haha.

No. 763859

>>763857
it's okay, I empathize
>I also won’t change my opinions, values, interests, or looks to make other people feel more comfortable or at ease enough to ever get anyone to like me

No. 763862

>>763855
NTA but same. I had a dream last night about the feeling of growing apart from a friend because I have nothing interesting to say or do.
I wish I knew how to maintain a friendship, but every time I reach out to people I just go blank of anything to talk about.

No. 763874

>>763843
I sympathize with that anon. I hate conflict too, but if I can offer my perspective: I never confronted my brother in the past because I thought I could ignore it, we live in different cities and we rarely check in with each other. Now we're at the point where he's made important life decisions, he's set in his ways, and I don't think I can convince him to reevaluate. In a way it feels like I lost my sibling. So when I look back, I regret not having the courage to challenge his outlook/choices. Worst case scenario he would have cut contact with me, at least I would have given him something to think about. But the circumstances today are not much better than that because we essentially avoid each other anyway. It sounds like maybe you could benefit from writing down your thoughts, organize them on paper, look at the big picture and weigh the cost-benefits of your options that way. Ime the situation can seem hopeless sometimes but you've always got the power to act and to inform, even if the choices before you are hard. Wishing you good luck.

No. 763875

>>763857
You have a husband? Now I feel even more lonely. I can’t ever find a guy. But good for you fren. I’m happy for you.
>>763855
I feel like a thing that should die tbh.

No. 763888

My boyfriend takes such fucking godawful photos of me, you'd think he hated me or it was some sort of planned sabotage. He only takes photos from a low angle and seemingly only when I'm chewing or talking so I always look like I'm disabled. They turn out so poorly every single time, and when he shows me it literally ruins the rest of my day and most of the next week. It's fucking awful, anons. Seriously. A stranger walking by me could take a better photo. Every other person who photographs me makes me look how I appear. In candids and group photos and surprise photos taken by others, I look human and decent. And then this motherfucker guarantees to make it so I always look like I have a double chin, thin lips that don't close or are pursed together and scoliosis. He makes me look like a hulking fucking monster, as soon as he showed me the photos today I pretty much ran to the car and didn't leave it until we were home. I never feel this fucking ugly, it makes me literally hide. He makes me want plastic surgery even though it would make my family sob. I am quite honestly disgusted and not leaving the house for a good while again. Fuck. I'm just staying up all night now because I'm feeling awful.

No. 763893

>>763888
girl are you me? my husband who is a former fashion/beauty photographer makes me look like the hunchback of notre dame in pictures, while even my arthritic dad with developing cataract in one eye or a rando on the street who will never see me again can take pictures where i am absolutely flawless and glowing.
it used to cut me but i just accepted him taking my pictures is not going to happen. thank god for selfies and kind strangers. also yknow what? just based on how similar your vent is to my own experience, i already know you look like a fucking goddess and no mere dumbass with a camera can truly capture it

No. 763894

>>763888
Did you tell him?
Direct him how to take photos!
You don't need any work done anon you're gorgeous obv he needs to learn how to take a photo

No. 763902

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One day, I ran down to the mail box, and then I just kept running, and now someday, I'm going to keep running and never come back

No. 763904

>>763888
>>763893
Same here. I wish I had a female friend who could take non-retarded pictures of me.

No. 763907

It's so early in the morning and I have headache because I slept late. I'm unemployed and my battery charge is low. I don't know what to do with my life anymore. I need to do something

No. 763911

It sucks liking anime when you’re neither a scrote or fujoscum. I’m so tired.

No. 763912

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I keep masturbating to sexy bitches then I feel bad about my own body. I am retarded

No. 763913

I can feel my stomach acid eating away at my esophagus and stomach, this is terrible.

No. 763936

>>763934
You guys should talk it through. Set boundaries and tell him that if he crosses them it's over

No. 763943

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>>763913
ur gonna get an ulcer

No. 763944

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No. 764023

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Reading Buzzfeed article on some prominent men's right activism figure and god damn, just how fucking pathetic MRAs are. Even if they're somewhat right on some issues (bias torwards women when it comes to parental rights) they refuse to acknowledge it's men's fault all along. That dude being a fucking junkie who abandoned his daugter immediately after birth is a living proof of that.
Literally only thing I ever see MRA do is patting each other's back and hijacking discussions about women's issues with their whataboutism.
the article if anyone is interested in how much of a mess this man is https://www.buzzfeed.com/adamserwer/how-mens-rights-leader-paul-elam-turned-being-a-deadbeat-dad

No. 764025

>>764023
>they refuse to acknowledge it's men's fault all along.
this

No. 764031

Why won't the thoughts fucking stop, I just want to sleep, I am so tired and the rage just won't stop, it's getting so much worse

No. 764036

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why are males such attention whores

No. 764049

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>>764036
They need attention to fill the emptiness inside them

No. 764052

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I just really hate it here. I NEED my quiet cozy cottage and peaceful life in solitude, RIGHT NOW!!!

No. 764053

>>764023
>mra
>deadbeat dad
wow color me shocked kek. I wouldn't be surprised if a lot of militant anti-feminist types were the same. I remember seeing some discussion on 4chan about why there are so many bad fathers, and this guy was saying that it's because men men just aren't meant to raise children, like just say you're a deadbeat dad and go

No. 764055

>>764023
They aren’t even right on the custody bias shit. The reason men don’t get full custody as often is because they rarely even ask for custody. Courts these days in burgerland are set up to try and maximize parental involvement from both parents unless one specifically doesn’t want to pull their weight.

No. 764061

>>764052
What plush is that? I love it.

No. 764062

>>764061
Usakumiya from BTSSB

No. 764099

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watching other people with better talent and honestly just a better life where they don’t have weird nightmares every other night and no friends has me hanging on a thread I’m so exhausted of school and family

i don’t even try to impress people anymore with my stuff I don’t have the energy to do it and I’m just developing a whole host of mental issues from being at home and worrying if I’ll have a bullet through my head, waking up in the middle night, having to do my zoom classes outside because I absolutely can’t stand being in the living room. the mental strain of going from feeling alright and beginning to feel some sort of light in your life hanging around family members you’re starting to not tolerate as much because of your depression and what not and then having that removed from you from the strength of my anhedonia is exhausting. the sun can shine as bright as it wants on me, I still will not recognize its light

god this is so cringey and childish to bitch about but I really have not been myself and yet my family members that I’m really close to think I’m mentally okay when I’m clearly not. do they even really care about me? do they really? or am I just an obligation?

No. 764104

I saw some of the gore pics that were posted yesterday in one of /snow/ threads and I can't get them out of my head. I'll forget about it for a bit and then just get a sudden flash of the images I saw and just…ugh.

No. 764105

Been listening to this song on repeat cause it makes me think of the last time I hung out with my guy “friend” before he assaulted me. I know he’s not the decent person I thought he was before, but I miss that time where it felt like I was finally fitting in and finding somewhere I belonged.

No. 764106

>>764099
You need to stop associating worth with talent and confusing public appereances with what people feel deep inside. Person you perceive as social and skilled may struggle just as much inside, it's coming from a different place.
Impressing people will not make you happy, and ask yourself why do you even think it would? Maybe addressing that will help you moving forward.

No. 764109

Men really are incapable of empathy. I texted my male "friend" and said that I wasn't feeling good because of some arguments I had with my family and this bitch really just said ok and started ranting about his usual bullshit. I get he can be sad too but he vents to me almost every fucking day about the same things, literally. And once in a while I do it and he ignores me to talk about himself again. Not too long ago the same guy told me that he feels like he doesn't care about anyone other than himself while venting for an hour to me. Fuck off. I'm so close to just fucking ghosting him. I can't stand him anymore. Pornsick bastard, reeking piece of shit. Stop wasting my damn time.

No. 764114

My mother works in a daycare and she will always shit on her colleagues and the children there, like saying how stupid they are, when they’re 5 years old or saying how absolutely ugly some little girl is and how she should be glad if a man is wiling to ever touch her later. She also loves telling stories about how a kid will ask her a question, then she replies something along the lines of “there’s no point in answering you, when you’re too dumb to get it anyway” or straight up telling them they’ll never amount to anything. Like wtf, I get venting about work and stuff but that? Thinking about how I grew up, I feel so sorry for them for having to deal with her. She shouldn’t be working around people. What really bothers me, too, is when she points out how hideous a random woman she saw was. I don’t get this kind of behaviour at all, the way she acts is so pathetic and she wonders why none of her kids like her lol

No. 764116

>>764109
a couple of years ago my cousin was raped, i told this my boyfriend and he started making jokes about it.. every now and then i tell him about some heavy stuff that im going through and he just says '' ohh im sorry for that'' and that's it. are all of them like this?

No. 764118

>>764116
I swear they're only truly supportive with other men and that's it. If they talk to women they either don't give a shit or pretend to in hopes they can get laid later, and they still expect you to be their therapist.

No. 764119

>>764116
>and he just says '' oh
im sorry for that''
You expect him to magically fix all your problems?

No. 764122

>>764119
i know that he wont unrape my cousin wtf i just want some compassion, are you ok?

No. 764124

>>764116
How didn't you break up with him after that?

No. 764130

my mom's friend is helping me with finding a new job and her husband made an attempt at a "joke" when we were alone, asking me what I think about marrying a rich older man. why are boomers like this?

No. 764138

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My septuagenarian father just called me on the phone to give me a link to a lesbian porn website. This is the same man who encouraged me to go bar hopping despite the pandemic and smoke weed even though I have a history of psychosis. I can handle the endless lamentation about your four failed marriages and oversharing about your myriad physical ailments (including the catheter and colostomy bag!!!!) but what the fuck is wrong with you? Normal people don't share pornography with their daughters. I feel sick with the realisation that he watched something so explicit and thought of me in any capacity. I need to walk into a deeply forested area and scream at the top of my lungs.

No. 764142

>>764119
What breed of stupid you need to go from saying oh ok lol sorry to fixing all your problems? There is a middleground too, boo.

No. 764143

>>764138
Anon I’m sorry to say but your father sounds like a pornsick scrote. That is really disturbing and creepy. I’m so sorry.

No. 764145

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Trying to trick myself into being masochistic over an empty and hurting stomach.
"ooooo yes i enjoy this pain so much, im sooo hungry"
That way maybe I will have a reason to not eat every time tumby rumble

No. 764153

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I can't tell if I'm bi or just have internalized misogyny

No. 764160

>>764145
take a heart burn medication and do something euphoria inducing like masturbation or music.
>>764153
Please expand?

No. 764161

>>764138
Disgusting anon oh my god I’m so sorry

No. 764180

I'm pissed because I noticed my mother's husband slowly uses arguments I have with my mother/her yelling at me/her having a narc outburst to be passive-aggressive towards me or doubling down on me while further enabling her. Usually he just stayed out of it like he should because it's none of his business and because of what I believed to be empathy since she treats him the same way, but I guess not? For some reason he now thinks he can get cocky. I don't know why this bothers me so much, even my usual ways to calm down don't work.

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>>763902
literally this pic

No. 764194

>>764180
Nvm, I know why it annoys me so much now. It's because I caped for him in those very situations when he's the one on the receiving end and she came stormed in my room to vent or when she shittalked him to me and I tried to give her a different perspective. It's because he does the exact opposite, acting like a brainless parroting servant to get good boy points, all while taking the opportunity to subtly shaft me.

No. 764198

>>764160
tysm nonnie for your tip!

No. 764206

>>762258
Wait are you selling the house? Maybe you could just rent it for the time being and maybe if things are better in a few years and you have the income to support it you can move back in?

No. 764210

i've definitely bitched about this before, but i hate seeing women in their thirties call themselves "hags". shut the fuck up retard you're only 31 that isn't hag age
wish i could bring this up to her face but i know i'd only piss her off

No. 764217

>>763561
your bf is retarded

No. 764225

I'm sad today and cancelled my plans, which actually made me feel worse. Guilty. I am a fool.

No. 764231

>>764210
Why do we take the sme insults that men hurl at us and start hurling them at ourselves like that? every time

No. 764234

>>764231
I think in that context the intent was probably the same as when someone thin says they're "so fat". They're just fishing for someone to tell them they're not.

No. 764240

I just feel so empty all of the time. I have no real sense of identity or belonging and I constantly try to distract myself but I will always be this pathetic non person with no real feelings or ideas or soul. I just feel like a vessel to be used by others.

No. 764244

I feel so tired and I've been snappy because of it and someone is mad at me, rightfully, because I was mean to them but I seriously don't have the energy to make it up to them and I feel so sleepy but I need to stay awake and ugh, I feel bad that I was rude to them but I just don't have the energy right now.

No. 764249

college is exacerbating my slight ana tendencies so much, i've almost stopped eating anything at all im so fucking self sabotaging

No. 764254

For a long while now I've felt like a lot of people who claim to have anxiety and depression online just want to jump on the uwu poor baby with self diagnosed mental issues thing. That's why I'm often kind of critical of people who mention having that combination, but lately I've come to realize that anxiety and depression is exactly what's been going on with me for the past 3 months. I barely manage to leave my bed even in the PMs, I've been socially isolating myself and things that would normally excite me leave me feeling numb. On top of that I randomly have these times where my stomach turns and twists and I feel insecure and panicked and like something is terribly wrong for no tangible reason for hours.
And yet I avoid talking about this to people because I'm afraid of sounding like I'm just whiny and overreacting and not taking responsibility. I feel bad about not taking others seriously about their mental issues in the past, even if they were just strangers on the internet. I guess I know how it feels now.

No. 764262

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I want to start uni but I'm 26 and I'm scared I won't be able to perform well enough, I've been out of education system for 7 years ffs. I was depressed and anti-social for a very long time and I feel like it literally slowed me down. I'm not as bright as before, I don't learn as quickly, I even have memory issues. Is neuroplasticity a meme? Am I still able to improve my cognitive abilities or is it too late for me? What can I do?

No. 764270

>>764254
I've been diagnosed with both since my teens, 20 years later I still deal with it but tbh even I don't understand people who vent about it alot online (outside of anon spaces or throwaway accounts)

No. 764280

>>755729
I'm so fucking tired of people on here calling everyone they disagree with a scrote.

Everyone who is not a libshit is a scrote, everyone who ever criticizes a female celebrity must be a scrote, everyone who doesn't think that every single man on this planet deserves to die is a scrote.

it's so fucking dumb

No. 764292

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I didn't get a job I was gunning for and time is running out and I won't be able to afford to do my masters outside of this shithole town and I won't be able to even study what I like after working my ass off for 4 years in cs and I'll end up living with my mom till one of us dies AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

No. 764308

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I have such a bad case of imposter syndrome

No. 764312

>>764308
no you don't. get off the internet

No. 764315

>>764312
Fuck off. You don't even know what my post is about.

No. 764341

>>764315
I agree, >>764312 should fuck off. Hope you can get past your imposter syndrome, I know how much it sucks.

No. 764345

I know that it’s odd, but I hate that my mom has accepted my neet lifestyle. She always makes sure I don’t lack anything I need, is nice, asks me to spend time with her (I don’t). But the thing that bothers me is that my health and lifestyle are decaying, she knows it and she acts like things are normal, I’m pretty much left to my own devices. She doesn’t care, full stop. But I think it also happens for a number of other reasons. I used to be responsible growing up so she did not have to worry about me, she could count on me to take care of things. Her mental health seems to have deteriorated too over the years, the last time I remember her being normal was… years ago. She is worse than me in certain ways, she is more complacent, because of age I guess, but aside from that she has also made some terrible decisions. Anyways. I wish I had someone that forced me to improve my life or to go outside kek because I’m lonely. And yeah I might be an asshole but I don’t care.

No. 764371

I don't know what nonnie means

No. 764374

>>764371
"anon" but affectionately i think

No. 764377

>>764345
>My mother who's likely become depressed over the years and provides me with necessities so I survive doesn't have the energy to be my personal life coach/drill sergeant/cheerleader, so clearly she no longer cares about me!
Yeah wow how annoying that she's doing her best to be there for you within the parameters of her own emotional capacity but can't also act as your therapist. I try not to get annoyed by the posts here but yeah, you really are an asshole. Maybe you could try being supportive of her for a change since she's clearly not doing well herself, or at least get off your ass long enough to have lunch with her or something. Ever considered that that may be her way of attempting to get you out of the house on occasion? She can't physically force you to be functional, only make requests. If you want someone to dedicate themselves to motivating you 24/7, pay them.

No. 764381

>>764345
fucking leech

No. 764385

>>764345
is this grey gardens??

No. 764387

>>764377
>>764381
>>764385
Damn you really are triggered.

No. 764391

>>764341
Thank you, anon. My imposter syndrome is relating to my sexuality. It's just weird. I wish I just wish I felt more sure about what/who I am
>>764345
Gosh, you're horrible. You're a grown women. Your mom is already providing for you and clearly cares for you despite her own health deteriorating, but you still want her to baby you despite the fact you can't do something as simple as hang out with her. You cannot blame her for the fact that you won't improve your own health. She's already dealing with her own shit. I usually don't reply to these kind of posts because I have an abusive mother and I know what that's like, but you're truly awful. I hope she kicks you the hell out. No wonder you're a neet, you blame all of your issues on other people.

No. 764392

>>764387
Why should she do anything for you though? Lol You admitted your an asshole! You're "lucky" she accepts you being lazy af, and you can't even be bothered to like idk, watch a movie with her?
Hey girl, you wanna be sad your whole life, go for it, but your mom isn't going to be around forever to support your lazy ass.
Really hope you are trolling!

No. 764395

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Crying over a mediocre man not being into me again! free me from this hell !Ashamed that I am using the term 'breadcrumbing' unironically even if it's only in my own mind

No. 764405

>>764345

if you're lonely, why not spend time with her the next time she asks? or be the one to ask her? you say she doesn't care, but what you wrote says otherwise

No. 764407

>>764377
She obviously still cares when she's providing for your lazy ass. Go to therapy and act like an adult.

No. 764431

Very obviously underaged scrotes sexually harassed me today. There is no hope for the xy chromosome if the younger moids are acting like this

No. 764445

>>764431
Sorry that happened fam. It doesn't get better. A scrote is a scrote is a scrote.

No. 764452

>>764345
Meh I can't be as harsh because I've been in a similar spot. You probs sabotaging your relationship with her on purpose, and projecting your own issues. But your mom, like a fool, may not cut you off even if you want her to. Blame her all you want, I know you know that you're still miserable and stagnating at the end of the day whether you think mom suxxx or not.

No. 764458

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>>764187
I get it, everyday I get closer to this

No. 764470

>>764187
I legitimately did this and I still feel awful. Do not recommend.

No. 764479

i have extreme fear of presenting and performing oral exams that i literally shake with my whole body and my voice loses it completly. i have asked my teacher if he could atleast let me present in a smaller group or just infront of him. he replied that i shouldnt behave like this since i already held many presentations in the past and will have to continue if i want to graduate and told me that avoiding it doesnt work.
it has cost me a lot of courage and send this to him. it really breaks my heart that my anxiety problem isnt being taken serious. he wrote it in a really mean way too. what can i do to not panic and be calm while holding my presentation?

No. 764482

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My mom has always known I like and prefer women, never had an issue with that, she is cool but I always thought of myself as a bi. Even when I would never sleep with a man, even though I may find a few male celebs hot, I would say how I wanna tap that, I would never do that irl. Was kinda thinking about it all outloud, saying how I wouldn’t want to call myself a lesbian when real lesbians probably wouldn’t be driverfagging for fun and my mom said that she can look at a woman, think she is hot but not want anything beyond that. “I think you are too scared of the lesbians, anon but you’re in no rush”. What a night, picrel it’s the vibes in our house.

No. 764483

I hate my body so much.

I'm tall. I don't mind being tall per se, because I think long legs are beautiful and I like the way tall thin women look in dresses. that being said, I have terrible proportions. I have a really round, big head. short arms, tiny hands, long torso, and a really intense hip-dip (I have hip dysplasia which can only be corrected by surgery, which costs thousands of dollars and I don't have insurance that would cover it. plus that, hip dysplasia makes it hard/impossible to do certain exercises, like run). so instead of looking tall and elegant I just look like a giant overgrown toddler.

I'm also an "apple shape" which means the fat goes to my stomach area first. yet for some reason I also have fat thighs. and the fat that I have is really saggy. I've seen women who are fatter than me and still look better than me because their muscles seem to hold up their fat better. I also have a saggy fat ass that is really hard to fix and grow muscle thanks to aforemention hip dysplasia. on top of that I have downward pointing breasts that have been that way ever since I got them.

I also have stretch marks. I'm overweight but can hardly find the motivation to lose weight because I know I will still hate the way I look after I lose weight, even if I hate it slightly less.

oh and I also have osgood-schlatter syndrome which means I have a bump of bone that grew out under my knee. it's really sensitive and hurts to bend my knee too much. I'm not even sure if there's a surgery for that.

I just want a normal body, god damn it.

No. 764491

>>764483
Sorry about your knee but everything else is just your mental illness. Literally losing weight WILL make you feel better, stop talking yourself out of it.

No. 764492

>>764491
>everything but your knee sounds like mental illness

um but I also have hip dysplasia

you're probably right though, I really need to lose weight

No. 764495

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I feel like a make one post talking about how I want to be a mother at least once a month, but gosh I really do want to be a mom someday. I wish my brain would cut this babyfever shit out, because I'm not ready for a child and probably won't be for a very long time. I just have to keep living vicariously through women who are mothers lol

No. 764510

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>>764491
Nta, but i too am tall and weirdly proportioned and after losing weight I honestly feel as shitty about my body as I did before. Being skinny somehow further exaggerates my awkward shape. Anon should lose weight for other reasons such as health, fitness goals etc. and not aesthetics.

No. 764515

>>764495
cringe

No. 764517

>>764495
What age did babyfever kick in for you?

I'm old (by lc standards) and have never had it, wondering if I'm out of the woods if I already made it to this age urge-free

No. 764521

>>764515
Sorry? Not sure what your issue is.
>>764517
I guess babyfever might not be the best word to describe it cause it's not really a fleeting desire, but I've wanted kids since I was a teenager (as crazy as that sounds out loud). I'm in my early 20s, so not old, but I still want them. I think a small part of the reason why I want them is because my mother was abusive, so I want to give love that I wasn't given. That's one of the reasons why I want to hold off on kids though. I don't want to project my issues on my children. There's nothing wrong with not wanting children though, anon! I wouldn't stress too much about it. Some people just don't have that desire

No. 764523

I hear this one weird sound in my room several times a week. I don't know when it is (I wanna kick myself in the face for not thinking of writing down the time I hear it earlier than just fucking yesterday, especially since it didn't happen today), I don't know what it is (it sounds weirdly metallish and is a short click), I don't know where it comes from (I think from somewhere around my desk area?) and my dumbass brain makes me think it's some fucker that installed something in my room to either watch or listen to me and I'm back to panicking for hours on end under my blanket, crying my eyes out because I don't feel safe in my own room again. I've been doing so well for the past few years, I'm able to rationalize everything away but since I really can't attribute this sound to anything, it sends me spiraling. First I thought it might be something from my neighbors (you hear it if someone plugs something in the socket) but the sound is too clear, it has to come from my room. I thought it might come from my bag shifting, the flowers in my vase moving, this one decoration on my table slipping, the little shelf under my desk moving by itself, but no matter how I try to move things (I've tried a lot for a long time), the sound isn't the same. I can't help but eye my socket and smoke detector, even though I (hope to) know there isn't anything hidden build-in, I don't want to but that's the only thing I can think of fucking kill me

No. 764526

>>764495
Once a month? You mean each time you're ovulating? lol that's super common, I'm violently childfree but my lizard brain still gets really into the idea of being a mother during that time of the month even though I can't stand children and pregnancy creeps me out

No. 764527

>>764526
No, I just feel like I post about it once a month lmao, I think about it more than that. Obviously it's stronger during ovulation though

No. 764533

>>764521
I'm early thirties and haven't felt it at any point, prob a very good thing as logically I don't want a family either. Interesting thing is the neglect in my own childhood is part of why I don't want kids but similar to you I know women who were determined to have kids and be very loving towards them after a neglectful childhood. Interesting how it affects people differently.

No. 764536

>>764262
You can get back to where you were before! Neuroplasticity is not a meme, you just gotta retrain your brain and you should be able to get back on track.

No. 764537

>>764533
nta but what makes those people with fucked up childhood think that they're going to be better than their parents? They're just going to repeat the vicious circle. Not that it matters, they'll breed selfishly.

No. 764539

>>764537
Stop spamming the threads with this please

No. 764541

>>764539
I'm not the one spamming threads with baby fever cringe posts so fuck off. I know truth hurts but you'll suck as a parent just like your mother did.

No. 764543

>>764533
It is interesting! I think some of it is a little bit of projection. I have heard of other kids with abusive parents say that they had parents who were also abused, and that cycle scares me. I think some parents just take their anger and pent up emotions out onto their children. Some people do suffer from bad childhoods and do end up being good parents though.
>>764537
If you're that anon from the unpopular opinion thread, can I ask why you're dragging your anti-natalist argument into other threads?

No. 764544

>>764543
I'm also an antinatalist but probably not the same anon you're referring to.

No. 764547

>>764541
I'm never having kids, save yourself the energy of lecturing a childfree woman about this kek

No. 764548

>>764510
Skinny & awkward >>> fat &awkward, no exception. Beside it's more likely that being thinner made you hyperaware of things that were blended together by blubber before, you're not actually deformed.

No. 764550

>>764541
That anon is not me lmao. I'm not spamming any threads. I really have to ask, why do you feel so personally offended by my post? Thank you for making fun of me for having an abusive mother though. Keep being a salty bitch, anon.

No. 764551

>>764541
Here's that attention you ordered.

No. 764556

>>764543
>Some people do suffer from bad childhoods and do end up being good parents though.
NTA but those people are in a minority.

No. 764557

>>764523
Could it be a radiator/vent/something outside your window? I’ve hunted down odd noises and I relate, anon

No. 764563

I was on the other farms yesterday and in two different threads men were suggesting that having babies would fix all the cows problems.
Cow 1
Late 30s, had a hysto already, weighs 400 pounds, seems bipolar, has a whole range of health issues and might just eat herself to death very soon, can barely stand up.
>She's eating because of the void from not having kids!
in these guys opinion. A woman who said she never wanted kids and who was always fat anyway…is fat and dying cuz 'childless void'

Cow 2
Onlyfans model, getting a range of body mods lately and ugly tatts, selling whatever porny images, getting plastic surgery, now is suddenly talking about a whole bunch of rapes and sexual assults in her past (customers will love that)
>She should just have a baby! She won't want tatts and whore attention if she just has a baby instead. She's mistaking her feelings and getting tattoos instead of getting pregnant like she should.
The opinions of men. Brilliant.

Then I come on here and it's the opposite spergery but equally retarded lol

No. 764570

I’m so depressed but I’m not suicidal . I wish I was because the misery is so fucking awful.

No. 764575

>>764563
Lmao let me guess, cow 1 is foodie beauty?
That woman can’t even take care of herself. Even Null was spouting the same shit but then again he’s just as retarded as the rest of them.

No. 764581

>>764575
Yep lol. She's been fat since childhood herself. She changes her mind about everything all the time but consistently said she doesn't want kids, now is wombless and dying and null and co are talking about babies?? They honestly think we either sit around bored to death or just get up to awful mischief when we don't have babies to keep us occupied.

Got issues? Must just be that unsatisfied womb making you act mental.

No. 764606

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No. 764668

>>764581
Idk about the others, but Null is just projecting. He believes all his own problems will be solved by having a trad family, so of course he thinks the same is true for most other people.

No. 767181

Just found out I have PCOS and I’m quite upset by it. Me and my husband are wanting to try for a family fairly soon but I’m not really panicked about that.

It’s more there’s next to no solutions to manage my heavy periods, excess hair and tiredness, I have already lost a bunch of weight but my BMI still says ‘over weight’ even after loosing 112 pounds. I’m worried a doctor is just going to turn around and say ‘come back when you’re normal weight’ despite me dieting and running and exercising everyday for 3 years. I reckon the stubborn weight left is a result of PCOS as well… all my family members say ‘it will all change when you get pregnant!’ And ‘you’ll be pregnant in no time!’ And it’s frustrating me more as it’s not what I want hear… it’s almost like no-one cares about how there’s no research or any real support for people with PCOS and there’s no fucking cure. All that matters is just getting pregnant, like my whole existence is to create another life and I’m pretty useless if I can’t. All my GP did was sent me a text to the PCOS section in the NHS website… just feel a bit hopeless right now



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