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No. 2502439
A thread for venting about difficult, weird, or stupid stuff going on in your life.
Previous vent thread:
>>>/ot/2491489Follow all the /ot/ board rules & do not reply to bait.
Please, do not come to this thread to make fun of anons' vents, to demean them, or to try and be funny with some shit snark reply. It's annoying. If you do not have anything nice to say, don't say it at all. No. 2502446
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I'm sure it's been said on here many times before, but it's so sad to see a post on here and think that maybe that nonny and I would make great friends. It's not fair how moids can be as degen as they want, wherever they want, without a care in the world, and can easily find others like them, but being a weird and thought-criminal / scrote-hating woman just results in loneliness.
No. 2502456
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>Driving home from work after night shift
>Have radio station on because I work too short of a drive to bother with setting up my bluetooth
>Obnoxious trash talk show starts suddenly with prolonged fucking POLICE SIRENS in their intro
>freak out cause I'm literally driving home from a 12 hr nightshift and looking for sirens I can't find
>sirens stop and some man children who like The Offspring and talk about boobs like their 12 yr olds going through puberty come on instead
I consider myself pretty anti-censorship, but I strongly believe that emergency sirens and car honking sounds should not be allowed on the radio. It's a literal safety hazard.
And what's with dudes whose humor never evolved since they were in college in 2005 that still think making jokes about loving beer and boobs is the funniest thing ever? Makes me think of picrel
No. 2502498
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Feeling so shite after wishing my aunt a happy birthday. I see in our text threads the last birthday text from last year. I can't even give her a call I'm too pathetic, I always mean to do better, to send a card and drawing every year for my family but never end up doing it. It's always some personal life tragedy happening and I deal with life so badly. I work 7 days in a row have two days left before a day off, while my "nigel" and I nearly breaking up during this time too, I couldn't make a card happen. She sends me some pictures of ducklings she saw and has "love you and miss you…" at the end of her text, I'm about to sob. I feel like the worst niece in the world. At least this will motivate me I hope to send out drawings and letters but I feel so ashamed. I wish all my relatives didn't live in different states I miss them all so much.
No. 2502519
>>2502507Nuclear families are the biggest psyop, raising children with your female relatives has got to be the most natural and ideal way to do it, even if it's just to minimize the risk of sex abuse and parental conflict.
I decided that I want to have a baby on my own because my sister had a baby and I get so much joy from being just with my parents and them, I realized a partner is totally optional for me. And in fact my biggest fears and concerns about having a child revolve around the father so it feels like a lifehack that I can exclude men from the process.
No. 2502533
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>>2502456 Your friend passes out at a party from drinkin' too much OxyClean. What do you do, take him to the hospital? GAAA-ayy! I got an idea. Sharpen a toothbrush into a knife, stab him in the neck with it, then start chugging his blood! It's got free OxyClean in it, am I right? I just pooped Ragú. Never mind the fact that 90% of the wealth in the world is owned by less than 1% of the population… we got rare audio of North American grizzly bears farting that we're gonna play over stock footage of mammograms. I just dick-queefed, MANSWERS!
No. 2502551
>>2502530I promise I'm not dumb enough to make life decisions based on something being cute. It was more like, I realized I'm extremely family oriented and there's nothing I value more than being with my immediate family. I've spent years lurking on forums and subreddits about parenting, motherhood, childfree life etc to ensure I make the right choice, and because of all the horror stories about men I assumed it wasn't for me. But as soon as I took that out of the equation, it became something I could really want.
I should be ok financially, I own my own home and have 6 figure savings in the bank. I'm not american so I'd get mat leave and subsidized childcare too.
No. 2502560
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I wanted to look for a cute sticker of an animal but it's all pride shit, said animal wearing a "save the dolls" or whatever shirt, or "resist" or anti-tariff messaging, like fuck OFF I just want a SIMPLE STICKER of a SPECIFIC ANIMAL either with a cute style or cooler realistic not this constant clown world shit everywhere all the time everything is so GAY and RETARDED all the god damn time
No. 2502614
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Yet another story about being a Nona in fandom
>be artist for fandom
>contribute lots to specific niche ship
>become moderately popular within that niche
>be close friends with a moid that also draws it for about two years
>moid and me get harassed by fandom retards
>openly defend him and shit on teenagers because I’m a ride or die type
>get harassed by two infamous community trannies
>terf out, lose a lot of people
>disappear for months
>moid sticks around
>stop being a total doormat appeasing fandom retards upon returning
>moid is extremely conflict averse, to an allergic degree, one of those uwu soft boy types
>moid increasingly unhappy with me being spicy to fandom retards
>too pussy to call me a bitch and tell me to fuck off, tries to control my words and “tone” instead
>so pussy I have to tell him to take distance from me, think this solves problem because he’s been demoted to casual acquaintance
>I am once more spicy in a fandom corner when someone whines about misgendering a fictional character, retards everywhere cry and shit about it
>hours long meltdown that I miss out on because I was just grocery shopping and having a chill afternoon while all of these idiots were throwing tantrums
>learn from second moid friend that moid #1 is talking about me elsewhere where I am not, waxing poetic about “separating art from the artist”and how “nonny’s behavior can’t be excused just because she is such a backbone of the community for our ship” in an extended testerical wall of text that goes in circles
>moid #2 tells me that to his annoyance moid #1 told him to be wary of me
>moid #1 was talking to me normally less than 5 days ago, all of this took place entirely behind my back
I blocked him without explanation and feel like the past two years and even the effort to keep him an acquaintance rather than cutting him off outright was a waste. I know it would be the inappropriate thing to do, so I didn’t do it, but I wish I told him he was a massive pussy before I blocked him. Moids can be so fucking ungrateful, I should have let the annoying kids and hysterical trannies tear him limb from limb since he was too much of a wimp to do it himself
No. 2502653
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I'm usually a moderately serious person, but when something bad happens to me, I always make a genuinely retarded joke about it. The jokes are never funny, but I do it anyway. I don't know what that psychological issue is, since I'm not a "joking" person in real life–or even online. I laugh at others' jokes, but I usually take things seriously, so I don't know where it's coming from. I was, by legal definitions, raped on Thursday and have been making jokes about it at my own expense and at his own behavior before it happened (because I am a petty bitch), but I'm still making rape jokes, which is fucked. I contacted three therapists on Friday and I'm hoping to get it resolved, but I hate having parts of myself that seem to have no logical sense (outside of "oowoo you're stressed"—please don't ban me, mods, I spelled it out instead). I don't really think about myself too much outside of what I need or want to do, and I feel like I have a good understanding of how I fit into what I do, so I hate having the more "mental" stuff. I wish I was a rock, or an ant, or something. I hate full consciousness. I am drunk and all of this is word vomit, so please forgive me.
No. 2502686
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>>2502351This one's on me.
No. 2502691
>>2502686youll
always be there for her. how sweet
No. 2502707
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Gonna see a dermatologist today. I'm really nervous.
Gonna ask them about some hyperpigmented zones on my face and maybe hair eval bc of my thrichotilomania. I'm worried they'll shit on me for having it.
But maybe I can at least fix my face.
No. 2502754
>>2502735The irony. Working "friend" but wants to be a neet. You, someone who can't work despite wanting to.
I don't think this is the first time she's done something shitty if she was soo rent free about saying that. I'm sorry for what happened nona, keep doing your best either way. You've definitely overcame and achieved more than she'll ever with that shit mentality.
No. 2502780
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Why is it so fucking hard to find petite clothing that's a little bit alternative in style. I either have to choose between something my grandma would wear or something insanely revealing for the club. It's like every clothing website said "oh you're under 5'3? here, you can have 3 dresses and most of them will still be too long for you and look like shit." Fuck off.
No. 2502803
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>"I can't believe this is how badly you treat your friends"
written in the 50th letter from the scrote who's literally been stalking me for 2+ years and still won't leave me the fuck alone
No. 2502822
>>2502812>who or where to callthe general clinic you're registered at (if that's how your country works; like a GP in the UK, family doctor in some other countries). Find the appointment info on their website, or ask your mom where she called last time. If your issue is too specific for them, it's their job to tell you who to talk to next.
>what to sayyou say you want an appointment, they'll likely then ask for the reason, you give a short summary (so for you, blood in your stool is probably the most pressing issue), they offer a date, you agree to it.
>it's not his area at all???if he's not able to prescribe tests himself (but for most things, he should be), you ask him to refer you to a specialist. If he refuses to (which would be weird, but some doctors are assholes), you need an appointment with another generalist doctor for a second opinion (if you can choose, a woman may take your issues a bit more seriously).
It's scary but us women often have to fight to actually get tests and help, that's been my experience at least.
No. 2502860
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MY GAME IS STILL UNDER MAINTENANCE I'M GOING TO LOSE MY FUCKING LOGIN STREAK
No. 2502868
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>>2502860kek relax its going to end in like 10 hours
No. 2503008
>>2502462i feel you
nonny, i'm in the exact same boat and just slowly getting into it, despite not wanting to be perceived and having zero female guidance. what's helping is trying on lots of clothes, buying from thrift stores (it's cheap and i dont worry about wasting stuff if it doesn't fit), and watching Youtube tutorials. try on different styles, silhouettes, fabrics etc until you find stuff you like the look of / that suits you, and go from there! i also have an awkward body type which makes fast fashion a no-go unless i want to look weird, but i discovered vintage cuts/styles and it's helped a lot!
No. 2503017
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I'm madly in love with a 35 year old man with a wife and 2 young kids and I don't know how to stop thinking about him. The only reason I like him is because he is kind and stares at me a lot
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>>2503017Tell us about your relationship with your father.
No. 2503037
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my friend invited two people into our small friend group's discord server and i've been too uncomfortable to talk in there ever since. it's a really stupid reaction for a grown woman to have but i can't help it… i don't often use discord servers in the first place because i hate the platform, but now i can't even use the one my friends are all in. makes me sad
No. 2503051
>>2503021I don't think I'm his type at all, I don't know what his wife looks like but his kids are blonde and I have black hair and dark skin
>>2503025He is skinny with a full head of hair.
>>2503029We are not close at all
No. 2503056
>>2503017because hes kind and stares at you?
isnt that kind of easy to find in moids?…
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Broke two of my toes by stubbing them in a doorframe and I have a trip to Spain in a few weeks that I’ve been looking forward to for months
No. 2503120
I'm apparently such a socially aloof sperg that I get ghosted all the time, even in mid conversations by aquaintances
even online, I can make dozens of posts in an active thread, and get exactly zero replies, it's like I spend hours a day trying to socialize online, wait for the next day to check back on it, just to realize that no one gave a single fuck
you may thing it's an exaggeration but I can spend weeks, making hundreds of high effort posts, in dozens of threads, asking for follow-ups, and get absolutely zero interaction out of it, while the thread keeps flying with low effort posts
am I'm not talking about here specifically, it's everywhere
I hit up "old friends" on social media, they reply, I write-up something I thought they'd find relevant, 2 weeks later and still on read
it's like a constant fuck you thrown in my face, not even the decency to tell me wtf is wrong with me
sorry if I don't want to spend my life cheaply baiting for attention, I just want to get have conversations that I find interesting but that apparently no one else ever does
it's just tiresome and the painful realization that I'll never deserve friends no matter how hard I try
No. 2503125
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When I was a teenager I was friends with a girl that was tough but really sweet, she was the type to always have your back and had no problem calling out bullshit. A real larger-than-life character in her own right. She wasn't faring very well at home (I don't know all the details, but one of the things was that the parents would "accidentally" lock her outside for hours on end, among other things. According to my mom it was pretty bad), so she was always talking about becoming famous so they would regret their treatment of her - no matter the price.
During the really early 2010's, when blogging was the big thing on the internet, she made a post on her facebook saying that she was going to do an experiment: she is going to create two blogs - one for her art (she's always been an amazing artist), and one where she's pretending to be this dumb bimbo, and she was going to see which one would be more successful. Of course, the latter one was the one that went super viral in our country. She was trolling the shit out of our country by playing this character and manufacturing scandals, she was on the news a lot and even ended up in a season of Big Brother.
After a couple of years she got tired of the whole charade, went completely mask-off in a final post on her blog about the truth, and silently deleted the blog a short while after. She was completely silent for a while, until she one day - completely out of the blue - wrote to me. Just simply checking in. We hadn't spoken in maybe 5 years at that point, but I was happy to hear from her. She was living in Berlin, focusing on her art and apparently mingling with a few celebrities. When I checked out a couple of the names she dropped I asked if she was fine hanging out with men that were so much older, even if they were celebrities, (we were roughly 24-25 at the time, and the men were in their 40's) she just made a couple of raunchy jokes and said it was fine because was "having fun and getting contacts", and I didn't question it; she had always been the headstrong and sexually liberated type that would make raunchy jokes every 15 minutes when we were teens, and I figured some people never change since she seemed to be doing well. But suddenly during the conversation she drops "I wonder if I had been happier if I had focused more on enjoying manga and going to conventions with you back in the day", which left my autistic head spinning - wasn't she fine? She sounded happy with her choices right before this? What prompted this? Everyone I know from the convention scene are currently involved with a bunch of drama right now, and I knew several women - including myself - that have gotten sexually abused by moids connected to the convention scenes, so it's not exactly sunshine and rainbows. Would she really have been happier? Would she have been smart enough to avoid trouble if she had gone with me? Where would she have been today? I had all these questions and mixed feelings, so I didn't know what to say so I left it unanswered. I figured that maybe if I gave it a couple of hours I could perhaps come back with a well-worded answer. But I never did.
But she has always been on my mind, and I've always felt bad for not returning to her about it. It's been almost 10 years or so since. But I decided a couple of weeks ago to check in on her socials for some reason, and I discovered that she has recently released a book… called "To all my pimps", and my heart fucking sunk when I read the synopsis. Her art wasn't doing so well in Berlin, and she ended up doing sex work. The timeframe fits perfectly with the time she wrote to me. It was a call for help and my self-absorbed ass didn't catch up on it. She wasn't on her way to "party" with those crusty moids, they were her johns.
I feel so fucking awful about it, and I want to reach out and apologise to her for not picking up on it. She deserves an apology for being left dry like that. But I don't know how to word it, and I don't know if I should buy and read her book before or after - but I feel like it's the least I can do. I know I couldn't have known, but I still feel like an awful person and my heart aches for what she must have gone through. Dear friend, I am so, so sorry for leaving you like I did. I should have asked more questions. I should have checked in more. I am so sorry for not picking up the signs.
No. 2503143
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I really hate that I have bpdemon tendencies. I wasn't diagnosed with it so I won't claim it of course but this behavior of mine really isn't normal. I want to trust my gut feels and see things as obvious signs that these people do not actually want me as a friend and are only being nice, but it also feels really silly. It's little things like ignoring what I say and hearting every reply but mine. I'll just take the hint and fade away.
No. 2503180
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I was raped and reported it, and while I know it was the right thing to do, I wish I didn’t. I’m already tired and it’s only been five days. I’m trying to focus on how it helps other women and girls, but I hate all of this, and I just want to sleep but can’t, because my brain hates me. Fuck my stupid gay life.
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>>2503188Damn , sleep with one eye open.
No. 2503281
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>stalking situation couldn't possibly get worse
>second anonymous handwritten letter left under my front door
>just a bunch of dry openers you'd expect from the average /soc/poster
>doesn't even help me pinpoint who it could possibly be
a good reminder never to post about yourself online
No. 2503326
>>2503120This has happened to me too, on here a lot of the time it's either being ignored, or getting replies with people just misunderstanding what I wrote because they're unintelligent and jump to conclusions, or just them being shitty towards me for no real reason. Sometimes there are still good replies in there, but still. For people I know personally I've been ghosted as well, I used to think it was all my fault and I must be a huge offputting sperg for them to be doing this, but even after actively changing my behavior, improving my looks, becoming more self aware, observing others to make sure I don't bother anyone, making my messages easy to reply to, not messaging them first, not that much actually changed. Which led me to believe it isn't actually about what I do and my actions as much as it is about other people and how they react to me. I could spend my time trying to make myself palleteable to others and it still wouldn't be good enough for everyone because on a whim they can just decide to ignore me or not feel like replying to me at all for their own reasons. Plus a lot of them didn't just ignore me specifically, they did this with other people too, so I just stopped seeing it as my fault. Lots of people are just assholes or simply don't care that much about online interactions, and I've been told as much by a few when I actually asked. They would always excuse themselves by saying this is just how they are even if they like me. So it's not necessarily about you everytime this happens, as much as it can feel that way after experiencing this multiple times. I thought I also didn't deserve friends and that something must be inherently wrong with me but even when people actively like me more than I do them they would still do this shit or simply treat me worse than I treated them. You can't teach people basic decency and manners and a lot of them will just treat you poorly because that's all they know how to do and their standards for interactions are low, especially online. They'll see your message and not even hate you but still not really reply to you out of laziness for example. I even had this happen when the other person was the one who initiated talking first, they would message me then leave me on read once I replied to what they said, even though my reply was totally normal and short. It made me stop really initiating interactions over time and engaging less when people talk to me because I was so sick of getting ignored or misunderstood by others when I did put effort into replying. And at this point, I pretty much see it in the opposite way, it's not that I'm uniquely terrible and that I don't deserve friends, it's that others aren't usually good enough for me and I've been really unlucky when it comes to making friends. Too many people are lazy, bad at communication, stupid, avoidant, and just generally shitty.
No. 2503391
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This stupid brand came out with vagina masks and it irritates me to no end. They promote it as something to rebuild your flora, to use after sports to freshen up , for menopausal women, after menstruations or after sex.
You have to wear this stuff over your underwear for twenty minutes. There’s already a bidet for that and the vagina self cleans already, what’s the point?!
I hate this clean wars on women, men can just let their stinky smegma balls marinate while women are told to always smell good , who cares if they risk their health anyway , because who knows if this stuff doesn’t actually fuck up your flora. I sperged on my friend and she told me that I’m exaggerating and it’s not a big deal, why are some women so fucking retarded and blind ughhhh.
No. 2503415
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>>2503405>over the underwear Yes, you read that right nonna, It’s what I wondered too nonna. This is crazy to me.
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>>2503502it's google translated
here's the original
No. 2503555
>>2503547might be, last letter looked like this
>>2486038but since it's been nearly a year since we last saw each other I'm not even sure
No. 2503568
>>2503548Damn that makes me feel bad lol
But don't you think a lot of these were justified? Like,
>shes preventing me from sleeping after i had one hour of sleep becaus ehs ekeeps moving, do i just not sleep? >should i just not have any ice cream>should i do the dishes for the 10th time while i already handled sweeping and cooking all day? >should we miss the bus so she pets a random cat for 2 minutes? Chess one is the only one I feel was unjustified
I don't know if it's just personality differences and we can agree to disagree, or if I really am a hard ass and should learn to be more agreeable. It's a tough balance between being a doormat and being a hard ass..
No. 2503582
>>2503571We're leaving tomorrow so I'll ask her if she thought I was too harsh and apologize for it.
But to be honest I think most of these were understandable. Maybe I wasn't very good at expressing myself but I don't get why I'm the bad guy for trying to get us to catch the bus on time or have her clean the dishes just once (I did the dishes every single other time).
I mostly feel bad because I sense she might feel bad, but deep down I don't really get why it's worse to ask someone to do the dishes when it's their turn than to not do the dishes when it's your turn ; or worse to tell someone they are preventing you from sleeping than them not letting you sleep in the first place.
Then again maybe I did some unnerving things too that she didn't speak out about.
If you have a way to help me understand tell me.
No. 2503584
>>2503579It just annoyede because we went to an aquarium I didn't really want to go to (because it was too expensive kek), so I felt her not even wanting to make the effort of accompanying me to that one FREE thing she could leave anytime if it was no fun was a bit.. unreciprocal?
I don't know. I'll apologize to try and salvage the friendship but for another big trip I'll go with someone else probably.
No. 2503590
Fucking pissed… I just don't have enough freetime. I've got a baby so that eats up a lot of freetime. My dad visited this weekend and I spent the entire weekend, plus Friday and Monday entertaining him, not really any time to myself. My mother is visiting next weekend so that's a wash and immediately after we are flying out to visit my husband's sister for a week. I should be greatful to be surrounded by people but I don't really know my husband's sister. In fact my whole husband's family is kind of a huge chore and he booked an airbnb in a couple months to spend two weeks in a house with them… just between all this obligations there's nothing left for me. I literally don't have a minute in the day to myself. My parents are getting older too, and my dad is beginning to make ominous remarks about the cruelty of putting parents in nursing homes… he's been a good father too so it would be cruel. But between his frequent visits, my mother, my sister always wants to hang out, my baby, and now my husband wants another baby, ideally I would want two but the first baby isn't even at an idependant stage. There's NOTHING, I don't have freetime. I haven't played video games in years. I think about when I was a teen and during weekends sometimes I would wake up, spend an entire day watching movies and playing video games, then go to bed and wake up and do it again. I thought i would have more freedom as an adult since I would have money and wouldn't have schoolwork but I was really wrong. Between groceries, housechores, family, baby, there's nothing left and I feel like I am grappling for an identity because it's been so long since I had anything to myself. Its difficult. I just want space. I am in my physical prime but I am just buried under obligations to others. I don't even really have friends because I don't have time to meet anyone. I don't know what to do there's no room to make space.
No. 2503606
>>2503595>“hey do you mind doing those today since I washed them last time? I’m worried about roaches” or with the ice cream you could just ask her to save some for you instead. Maybe I worded myself wrong because that's kind of what I said.
Exactly I said :
"You didn't do the dishes?" (normal voice)
"No, I'm tiredddd"
"I get that, if we didn't have roaches I wouldn't ask you to but we do.." and I did thank her afterwards
for the ice cream I just told her in a joking manner not to eat it all trying to make fun of how huge her spoonfuls were
Maybe now I sound like I'm freaking out about nothing. Maybe I'm just not used to resolving conflict with friends (it's like my 3rd trip without my family and I'm usually the one being pushed to do stuff) so just that felt like I was being a hard ass.
Maybe the sleeping situation couldve been handled better, like "could you move less please?" but to be honest there's no way to ask that doesn't sound snappy. Maybe I shouldve just left and slept on the couch but that felt kind of cucked to me, like why should I leave whe' shes the one moving.
Sorry for sperging so much about this, I'm just trying to learn how I could navigate these situations better. Idk if my lack of comunication and compromise skills ruined the trip or not, I wouldn't want that to happen again.
No. 2503618
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>Go on social media to check up on old friends
>Instant regret
>Feel bad about my life
I don’t even think I’m doing anything outside the norm. I hang out with friends, I do work, I take care of myself. I know everything posted is fake and is a summary of what everyone has been doing in the past culmination of weeks but I don’t know. Maybe this is a sign I need to take my meds
No. 2503628
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Oh, I am so fucking lonely! I am alone! I have no one to talk to nor turn to! Oh, woe is fucking me over right now! I've been dealing with some heavy things lately, and I'd kill for someone to talk to about it, but the thing is I'm not gonna go and meet new people with the intent of eventually venting to them. I'm a pretty private person and it takes me a bit to crack at those walls around someone. I've lost a lot of my most meaningful friendships to inevitable "we're going out of state for college" time and distance, so the people I'm closest with now are all pretty new friends. I'm not gonna dump my years-long childhood trauma fucking with your adult life mess on them. Posting my problems anonymously sounds comforting in the short-term, but nothing's gonna cure loneliness better than having a trusted friend who knows all of your most complicated shit and just… existing in your general vicinity, as your friend, who knows your shit. Woe is me. I'm lonely. I'm gonna go buy a chocolate.
No. 2503653
>>2503651i wonder
nonnie, would you tell younger you the same things? encourage her to kill herself and call her a burden? it really sounds like you need her and she needs you in this moment
No. 2503667
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>>2503648I'm really sorry your parents fucked you up like this. I want to believe you can still carve connections out with others, if that is what would help you hang on, but that is easy to say and hard to do and I am sure it is not for lack of trying.
No. 2503681
>>2503667I have tried my whole life. I have masked, I have unmasked, I have done everything between them. The only connection I can reliably maintain is with a male that can have sex with me. I have been with my bf for two years and begged him to tell me honestly what it is about me that people hate so deeply, he will not tell me. He will tell me why he loves me, and that every normal person has faults, and its not my fault. But I know for a fucking fact this is lies, but he will not tell me. I have tried carving connections with every type of person you can imagine, normie women, leftist women who preach equality, autistic women, very autistic women,
femcel women, pick me women, every single one has hated me even if they will not admit it. My """Best friend""" of 15 years ghosted me when my cat, who is my rock and I will die without him (that is not an exaggeration) almost died of a urinary blockage (if any of you have cats you'll know how traumatic that is for everyone involved) then walked back into my life 3 years later saying she just had "mental health issues" while still maintaining friendships wtih every other friend she has, even the one that she did nothing but bad talk about to me. I have tried it all, I am literally meant to be outcasted from society, I can't fix it and i will never even understand what it is I'm doing wrong. If I just had family I woudl still be happy, if I can't have family I would be happy to have SOME type of connections that don't involve letting a male cum inside me, but I must live without either. I have been homeless twice and my own sister ghosted me when I texted her about it
>>2503668I would agree if what my parents told me wasn't echoed through every single situation in my life also
No. 2503710
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sometimes i feel so overwhelmed by how much evil, hatred and perversion there is in the world. im so scared of people, especially men, that its not even funny. ive never had a partner but i feel like i never will because im so scared to trust people. i feel so alone and sometimes i just want to die so i can stop feeling tainted by living in such an ugly and miserable world. the only thing that makes me feel better is being kind and helpful to the people close to me, making art that i love, and living in my own world mentally
No. 2503719
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>Finally load up retarded game after maintenance
>Game takes me to CHOOSE AN IDOL TO PRODUCE screen and won't let me log in
Why this.
No. 2503746
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OKAY I'M IN. WTF. I picked an idol but now everything is different. Crazy. Happy Element really went all out with this update.
My vent:
>I got scared I'd lost my account because the new update took me to the "new account? Choose an idol!" screen
>I was so prepared to delete the "new" account to get back into my old account
>However I'm glad I didn't because I would have been deleting my actual original account.
Screams gently into my pillow at my potential actions.(integrate)
No. 2503819
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I love when women shit on me for not being in "tech" because I work as a cashier instead of a engineering role or similar. They completely ignore the fact that my job makes me work with hardware, needing to be constantly be on top of the newest shit because people come in asking for advice, not just to buy shit. I assemble pcs and often have to troubleshoot peoblems with customers. I work with pc components, laptops, phones, consoles and network related stuff. Jack of all trades master of none as they say, but yea, because I don't have a degree I'm not in tech. Nope, not at all.
No. 2503838
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Fucking zoom meetings, do I have to be reminded of my ugly, fat, pink pig face when talking with a psychologist about my low self-esteem?
No. 2503950
everyone besides me appears perfect to me
by the simple virtue of me, having no expectations for them
they might be stupid, they might be cringe, they might be annoying even, but that's just how it is
me, I'm all of that, but furthermore, and above all, I've disappointed myself
is this really what it means to have low self-esteem? because to be that sounds exactly like the opposite
me, me, me, that's just how imbued with myself I am
"get over yourself", but what else is there really?
No. 2504012
>>2503281>"what scares you?">"do you hate me?"Eww creepy. My stalker came from meeting him irl so it's not even just online moids… I'm
>>2502803 so I really feel you nona. You can save it for future proof, but do not in any way acknowledge the letters in public. If they get ANY sense they got your attention they will get more spurred on. Tell your friends, family and work that you have a stalker and tell them to not give away any information about you if someone asks. Especially your work, they should know that if someone asks "hey does Anon work here?" they should deny it or say you quit recently.
No. 2504046
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Every time my period comes around I get super constipated it’s so fucking annoying. “Don’t force it you’ll hurt yourself” sometimes you have to just get it out I can’t stand the feeling of having to shit.
No. 2504153
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>>2504046Have you tried elevating your legs when you poop? There are some plastic stools for propping up your feet just enough to align your rectum and the poop just slides out with no effort.
Picrel is 40 fucking dollars for some reason but you can find some for 10 or less.
No. 2504172
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Nothing I hate more than troons who omit the fact that they’re troons in fandom spaces. No, adding ‘she/her’ to your profile without the tranny flag doesnt make you a woman. No, you are nothing like any of these characters. You’re a mentally ill moid obsessed with Precure and porn VNs. Join the statistics.
No. 2504228
>>2504170The things I need to do are normal adult things, work stuff, college stuff (it's not college it's like a half-college thing for people who work so it's a way lighter load), socialize, take care of my living space, misc responsibilities. I usually stay on top of them but I've been letting it all pile up these past few days and it feels horrible.
Other than that, I'm really lucky in life. I have money saved up, parents have enough money to help me if I ever need it, my friends are nice. I don't think eliminating any of those would be good, I just need some kind of reset so I can get back to my normal state of being a somewhat productive adult.
What's your life like? What's stressing you?
No. 2504240
I'm learning to drive and holy fuck it's so scary. I thought in movies they played up the whole stop go stop thing when it comes to new drivers but it's actually so real. It's like the car is stuttering and it freaks me out even though I'm the one causing it with my shitty driving. Everyone on the road must think I'm retarded.
>>2504210Best of luck
nonnie and I hope it goes well. It'll be so worth it even if you're dreading it now.
No. 2504290
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My 2 only friends almost never reply to my messages on time and our friendship feels so shallow. Whenever I ask to hang out with one, she doesn't reply or makes some half assed excuse. Should I just leave them behind and try to make friends with less lazy people?
No. 2504334
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>>2504172>estelleI hate the amount of troons I've seen named after her. She's homophobic, what makes you think she wouldn't hate trannies?
No. 2504368
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>>2504346I feel bad because her game is legitimately good and it's one of my personal favorites, but because it has a female protagonist of course it attracts a lot of troons and yurifags. I block any troon on sight who tries to sully my homophobic diva's name.
Also if it's any consolation I met a tranny who named himself after the fairy loli from Bravely Default, which is probably worse kek.
No. 2504386
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Nonas I am so tired of my mom using me as her free therapist/emotional dumpster. She had a rough childhood and the way she grew up, venting to your kid about how hard your life is because of said kid is normal to her. So if I try to disengage she gets pissed off like I don't love her enough to listen to her, as if she's just my friend that's venting.
Does anyone have any advice for this situation? Like I obviously feel really bad and want to help my mom, I love her so much and she really has gone through hell and back, but I just can't continue to listen to this shit all the time!!
No. 2504411
I like love on the spectrum but I’m legitimately jealous of some of the speds on there. Madison especially. Her family is filthy fucking rich and just so accepting or their retarded daughter. There’s no way she makes enough money to support herself with her little craft jobby, I doubt she even makes enough to buy more supplies. Her apartment is minimum $1600 a month, like bare fucking minimum, probably more around $2k+. Sounds like she was just allowed to be a fucking goblin and never was shamed or made to feel like any sort of a burden. It’s almost like loving accepting family can make all the difference, add in them being extremely wealthy and voila, you get a happy well adjusted individual. I’m really jealous of anyone with a rich generous family. My life could not be that much worse tbh. It’s only just barely acceptable enough that I haven’t killed myself, and even that’s a monthly struggle. If it was worse or if it gets worse I’ll definitely off myself. I’m able to escape most of the time because movies, tv, video games, and sleep exist. When I vent here on LC I’m mostly disconnected from my vent. I cant think too hard about my life cause I just sob at how good it could have been. The first episode of the new season of Black Mirror, Common People, hit way too close to home for me.
No. 2504440
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WHY I TAKE SO FUCKING LONG TO DO ANYTHING IN THE LAB? I'M ALWAYS ONE OF THE LAST TO FINISH THE EXPERIMENT, ALWAYS ONE OF THE LAST TO FINISH CALCULATING IT, I HATE IT.
No. 2504529
>>2504510I don’t think it’s porn addiction. He doesn’t struggle to get hard or lose his erection, he has no fetishes, he doesn’t disappear to the bathroom for hours on end. I mean it’s not impossible since he is a male at the end of the day but I’ve dated a porn addict and I see none of that in him. When I asked him he said it’s because he feels bad he’s not as fit as he used to be and did start working out more after that, but he will just let me do all the pursuing and it makes me feel gross like some kind of female pervert. Sometimes I feel like he gives subtle hints that he’s in the mood but I still have to be the one to act on them. It didn’t use to be like that.
I’m going to stop initiating all together and see what that does but it’s just gonna piss me off so much when he doesn’t respond.
No. 2504542
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I was so excited to eat some cereal but the milk went bad and nobody told me.. It's the middle of the night now so I can't get more
No. 2504573
>>2504561God forbid I want a wedding, planned it out and was about to put a deposit, and I am a little bummed out. You sound like you smell bad.
>>2504567Because he's a really good person. I just don't like that he didn't plan his life out financially. I also think him being the cash cow for his family is affecting him and he's taking it out on me. At the end of the day I care about marrying him than having a wedding. It's the way he came at me over it that was just weird. He wasn't aggressive, he was just super irritated in general.
No. 2504574
>>2504567Yeah exactly
>I was so blindsided. He is so sweet and not cheap at allSounds like he’s generous he just views weddings as a massive waste of money for a lame ass party. Which is exactly what weddings are kek. Nonna should dump him and give him my number he sounds perfect for me.
No. 2504575
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>>250456815k is not expensive for a wedding.
No. 2504584
>>2504582>We've never gotten into an extreme fightThen you're probably not ready. You shouldn't marry someone until after you've had an explosive fight.
>I just don't like that he switched up last minute and didn't even confront me about it in a calm and rational manner.Welcome to your married life.
No. 2504591
>>2504584Don't listen to this anon, not having
abusive retarded screaming matches is normal.
It's annoying if you've planned a wedding and were about to put the deposit down to secure the plans and he's backed out. He should have talked to you about it earlier to see what you can come to agreement about.
Maybe it's the romantic in me, but if you love him and want to marry him maybe postpone a bit until you can agree on something together.
No. 2504594
>>2504582AYRT, please keep your eyes open and don't minimize any shite behavior on his part. Godspeed
nonny, hoping the best for you!
No. 2504597
>>2504584Seconding what
>>2504591 said and ignore anon telling you to be verbally
abusive. Other than that I have no advice to give you sorry anon. You should ask him what's wrong with you showing off on your big day though.
No. 2504606
>>2504604I still have hope for
nonny. she'll pull through
No. 2504618
>>2504602>>2504606Yeah I agree. At least I made it so a moid who would otherwise agree to choke a woman will never do so again, he’s definitely scared straight kek. He was having the worst panic attack ever and saying he’s never choking me or anyone ever again cause of how scary it was. I’ve seen my friends faint and have small seizures many times (not from choking but from random shit which tbh is concerning thinking back on it, why have I seen so many of my friends pass out and have seizures that it’s just something I know how to deal with kek) but he had never seen that happen to someone before. I guess if I’d been in his shoes I’d be terrified too kek, when my friends passed out and seized I was never directly responsible for it.
>>2504610Yeah, but I don’t think it’s any worse than the mild brain damage I’ve gotten from other shit that’s happened to me
>>2504614I’m 30 so I guess I’m a zillennial
No. 2504693
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>>2504661>or become noticeably retarded/impairedi mean youve been voluntarily letting moids choke you so you tell me
No. 2504699
>>2504696Tons of things. Mostly things related to men, transgender nonsense, some instances confirming my suspicions that I was being treated differently due to being a woman, but everyone denied this. I always felt like I was born in the wrong era, because everyone around me IRL and online is either a generation or three older or younger. But then I see how many millennials are here, or people who describe experiences that mirror my own and their similar thoughts are. It's relieving, even amongst the paranoid and the crazy. Seeing people disagree with each other on this site instead of seeing a massive hug box regarding a problem you
know is visible but goes unaddressed, etc. Just really seeing
humans.
No. 2504721
>>2504703I can't leave the house due to problems. Driving is a no-go.
>>2504707I went to a shitty art college and didn't take that class. Sorry, I guess?
No. 2504847
>>2504689Yeah my bf used to be muscular, did MMA and jogging but when he got with me he stopped going and started spending his time fishing instead. He’s constantly moaning and being down on himself for gaining but doesn’t do anything about it. I feel like it’s my fault, I’m not the most active person and I don’t do any more than hikes and swimming occasionally and that seems to be enough to keep me fairly fit. I don’t mind that he’s not so muscly anymore I just miss the sex life we used to have. He’s trying to start running again but he works a lot so it’s hard.
At least he never turns me down and gets hard basically on demand unlike one of my other exes whose penis straight up didn’t fucking work.
No. 2504894
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It's not talked about enough how when you gain weight your clothes don't fit anymore. It seems so obvious, but when I say "I have nothing to wear" I mean it. I can't dress up, I can't look professional for work, a heatwave rolls around and suddenly I do not have any summer clothes to wear, and in winter I'm freezing because my jacket won't close anymore. I can basically wear whatever oversized baggy clothes I already owned and look sloppy as fuck. I can't afford to replace my entire wardrobe either unless maybe I buy the cheapest shein slop. And I didn't gain THAT much, I slowly gained like 15kg, or 33lbs. Don't get me wrong it's still quite a bit, but I didn't even go up to obese and am "just" in the overweight bracket now.
I keep thinking "I'll just eat less and I'll be fine again" but it feels like everyone around is sabotaging me, maybe they even want me to gain more? Telling friends and family "I want to lose weight", "I need to watch what I eat" just seems to trigger them to encourage me to come out and eat MORE with them like the past year they've all been a "treat yo'self"-stereotype buying me all sorts of treats out of the blue. So in the end my weight kept creeping up more instead…
No. 2504930
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Got my white t-shirt dirty with sauce at the canteen because the stupid piece of meat fell from my fork and slapped in the vegetable tomato sauce. I felt like a piglet, why was this so humiliating.
No. 2504931
>>2504924That is not compulsive heterosexuality kek. That is just being bisexual and in denial. That stupid comport made everyone’s brain so retarded.
If you actively seek men and enjoy men and having sex with them you are automatically not a lesbian. Being unhappy with how men are doesn’t make you a lesbian. It’s tiring.
No. 2504941
>>2504931It’s really not hard to label yourself “questioning” or “bisexual” instead of jumping onto the lesbian label. In my opinion it’s extremely disrespectful since the lesbian community gets shitted on constantly, before labeling myself bi I wasn’t going around calling myself lesbian despite the fact that I even questioned whether I even liked men in the first place (turns out I’m just disillusioned with them regarding how society views them and how they behave towards women).
You won’t die if you call yourself bisexual or even if you remain with no specific label as explore your identity kek.
No. 2504942
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>>2504240Me too nona, I hate driving manual so much. I've been learning to drive for a couple of months now and eventhough I've improved a lot, I still get so anxious whenever I have to stop and drive at traffic lights for example kek. It will get easier with practice I guess. Good luck nona, may we both get our driver's license this year.
No. 2504945
>>2504942I am a driving nonna too! I will have my first lesson next week, but I have been practicing with my mom and I can start and stop , change gear, go on the road ecc..but I am still nervous kek. I don’t really like driving so far.
>manualMe too, I’d rather have an automatic, but you’d rather learn to drive with the manual just in case. The car that my mom will hand me down is manual, so it’s pointless for me to drive around with her other car.
No. 2504960
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Why am I retarded and incompetent
No. 2504992
>>2504411I've never seen LotS but I feel the same way in general. Personally having Aspergers and being born into an
abusive home with poor finances is hell. I am so envious of people with supportive parents and lots of money, not only do they get space to safely be themselves but the support extends outside of the house too and they're better equipped to deal with other situations. For example I would beg my mother to let me change schools because of bullying and she wouldn't even consider it. Then I see people whose parents do fucking everything for them, they live in literal luxury, never have to mask at home, free to pursue whatever they want; life is such a lottery. I am also envious of people with Aspergers/autism who are unburdened by an extreme awareness of how different they are.
No. 2505026
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My period came TEN DAYS EARLY. Which means this month I have had a period TWICE. And it is actually heavy this time when it's usually barely ANY blood. REEEEEEEE
No. 2505060
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Doing my anki reps and this example pic pissed me off, of course the girl can only dream about becoming a bride
No. 2505073
>>2504618>>2504623>Age 30>has been choked for 16 yearsEither you are a troll or a CSA
victim that sounds stuck in the maturity level of a 14 year old.
No. 2505135
>>2505090I’m pretty sure I developed a liking for it independently via regular movies that featured violence, since I’ve never been someone who consumes porn. I think it mostly stems from enjoying feeling light headed and enjoying pressure mixed with watching random movies where violence was portrayed in a sexy way. I was the kid who constantly made myself dizzy and wanted death grip hugs from relatives.
>>2505073I am a CSA
victim, got groomed by a proto-incel when I was 13 and raped (I told myself I was simply “coerced” into sex as a cope for a while) when I was 14. Rapist was 18 and out of high school, I hadn’t even started high school. He never choked me but once I got into an age appropriate relationship with another freshman, that’s when I started with the sexual roleplays and asking to be choked.
No. 2505225
>>2505135I am sorry all that happened to you but I think for your physical safety you just need to stay away from men. Yes, even your "concerned and scared" scrote friend. There's a limit with the whole "I was abused that's why I act like this" thing and if you're as old as you claim I think it's time you start looking after yourself instead of using your previous trauma as something to lean on to help enable disgusting violent practices. Because that's what this is, at the end of the day. I'm not even trying to sound mean here, but more so you need a harsh truth because if you carry on this way it's going to end in your death and the moid in question will end up off the hook under some bs "kink" scapegoat.
There isn't a safe way to be choked. Every time you mess around with shit like this you're getting one step closer to not waking up. You are insulting your own self-worth and the hard work your body is doing every day to keep you alive, by just letting some random retard have his hands around your neck. If this truly isn't bait, and you don't stop doing this, you will end up as another statistic.
No. 2505281
>>2505225I genuinely appreciate you nonna. Honestly I’ve been worried I have permanent damage to my neck arteries or something cause I’ve had slight tinges of pain where his thumbs were/where my arteries are. Also been feeling particularly light headed since the event. Not gonna engage in that brand of dumbass shit anymore.
>>2505245Who are they? Scrotes? Most ime are pretty vanilla and do in fact think you’re some retarded crazy bitch for wanting to be choked. It would be a pretty retarded and fruitless tactic to try to get picked with, even shuwu’s dumbass realized that years ago.
No. 2505283
>>2505135If you were actually smart you would have gone to therapy or at least tried not to retraumatize yourself over and over. Coping mechanisms aren’t good simply because you call them that.
With that being said you can stop bragging here, I’m tired of hearing your stupidity or exposure kink (retards like you also get off by saying the shit they do to unconsenting people). There are other tons of places where abuse play is celebrated, go there and piss off.
No. 2505301
>>2505283I don’t want to celebrate it and I’m sorry if it came off that way. Tbh I think I just wanna be told going to the ER would be a waste of time.
>>2505158Yeah I’m gonna stop. The guilt of possibly grooming a moid into being a killer combined with the anxiety of perceived neck injury is karmic.
No. 2505342
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>>2504998Happy birthday, nona!
No. 2505347
>>2505281Ayrt, you probably do have some damage but hopefully it's nothing serious. I was phrasing it in a harsh but constructive way because I've been there myself where I did similar dumb shit when I was a young pickme and while I did have my "reasons" at the time ig, it doesn't make it any less retarded. We are adult women and can only use previous years abuse as a shield or shell for so long before we just start infantilizing ourselves and thus getting into more dumb shit. Like I said, we have to respect our bodies. They get rid of waste and blood every month to keep us healthy, they carry us to so many places and keep us hydrated and breathing - you don't want to give all that up because some random scrote had his hands on your neck.
Get into a hobby that's away from men and away from the internet, it will do you wonders. Get your body moving and eat well and invest your time into something that isn't harming yourself mentally and physically. I can't fault the anons for calling you retarded, all I can hope for is that you stop doing it and that as a bonus, the scrote who strangled you gets taken out back and shot in the head. Look after yourself, I know you wouldn't want your future daughter in a similar situation.
No. 2505360
>>2505353she wants to be told how cool and avant garde she is by letting herself be abused by males, probably very fat and ugly males on top of it. she hasn't stopped and don't think she will until some
nonnie tells her to keep being the coolest girl to moids!
No. 2505368
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>>2505342Nonna did you know that there’s a cake mix for this? It’s delicious.
No. 2505379
>>2505331Nta but I trained in martial arts and we were taught that
>direct pressure on the windpipe can cause fractures in the trachea and can lead to respiratory failure due to the airway collapsing.This is awesome because it can really subdue your opponent and lead to asphyxiation if applied for more than 6 seconds. You don't need to apply that much pressure either. Also
>applying direct pressure to the sides of the neck delays blood to brain, the harder you apply pressure the more you cut off the blood supply, essentially cutting off oxygen to the brain similar to if your opponent was attempting suicide but instead it's with your hands.The best part is that if you manage to block their oxygen from their brain long enough to the point of knock out it affects them later down the line because they have already experienced brain hemorrhages, this causes cognitive decline because you have essentially given them brain damage. Since it was a self defence focused class I got to practice on the moids there and it was very fun for me, but I was not allowed to knock them out because I could have been sued due to potential injury kek.
No. 2505418
>>2505392That was probably me I keep using this thread to complain about it lol.
>>2505395I should but I guess it's hard to judge when autonomy comes back in an organized way, its more like a very slow process where you gradually havr a little more freetime, and three is around when you feel like your own person again. Having another baby would reset the clock…
>>2505404The scary thing is I can kind of empathize with what your mom is saying. It's not that he's a total deadbeat, he watches the baby for a couple hours before and after work but I usually have to use that time to sleep since I'm on night duty. It ends up only granting me about an hour a day to do anything of my own, which doesn't feel enough at all.
No. 2505455
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I work from home. My boyfriend works third shift and gets home as soon as I wake up. He starts smoking or drinking immediately.
Sometimes he will want to talk- and that's fine- but he'll start goofing and gabbing and sometimes physically prodding me while im trying to solve problems at work. He still makes me laugh, but today, he was doing this for two hours straight- he should have been asleep hours ago.
When I got on my last break, I shut the laptop and started goofing on him. It's not like I was trying to give him a taste of his own medicine, but I had a few free minutes where I could match his energy. I wanted to play around with him. He was laughing at first but then he abruptly stopped, walked over to the bed and crawled underneath it. He stayed that way- a 6 foot man curled up underneath the bed holding a pillow- for fifteen minutes. I went to check on him and he was actually fucking mad. Said that I was yelling in his ear when he needed to sleep.
He had been fucking with me for HOURS and DURING the moment i clocked out for break.
I know this is manchild behavior- he suffers from a lot of childhood trauma he refuses to address because he believes as a man he should fix everything himself. I try to empathize with him and let shit like this go, but oh my GOD. I told him how retarded it was for him to be upset about me playing around for a single minute when he'd been pestering me for hours, and he hid under his victim complex and said "i guess I'm the villian." Oh my GOD.
No. 2505522
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I hate LinkedIn and I hate finding a job. I also hate seeing people I barely know post fake over the top posts about how they have an amazing new job. It makes me feel weird and bad about myself. Do normies actually like this shit and actually believe the bullshit about working hard?
No. 2505527
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I am not fit for human relationships.
>way too irritable. find myself getting annoyed by my friends every time we talk, which makes me feel bad
>dont know how to deal with others feelings, feel awkward/apathetic when people vent or express strong emotions around me.
>generally find social interactions draining and mind numbing
>have to take short breaks from friends/family or else i start detesting them and finding everything they do insufferable
Despite all of these things i still find myself craving human connections because, well… im not a robot kek. But i feel like i should isolate myself for the sake of others. I dont think i can be a good friend/attentive partner/whatever when i find literally everyone i interact with exhausting and obnoxious. According to my friends im a nice and "friendly" girl but they can prolly tell when i dont want to be around them.
No. 2505545
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I hate the fact that I grew up online and made the internet my only source of social interactions, I was very emotionally neglected and found the attention and love I needed from anyone who would embrace me online, which suprisingly tended to be other girls/women. This partially led me to genuinely believe I was a lesbian for almost 10 years (this was supplemented by me falling into a group of blackpilled/4channer lesbians and finding fellowship in them, amongst other events that confused me even further in regards to my sexuality as I was going through puberty).
I fell in love with a male friend I had made, had a giant crisis about my sexuality, made the first move, and am happily engaged to him now, but I felt like I had to drop my friend group because I knew they would be extremely vitriolic towards me if they even got a hint that I was in a relationship, let alone a heterosexual one, but now I feel like a social outcast and lonely in the friends aspect, because that side of the internet was all I knew, and my brain feels too broken to befriend and enjoy being around… for lacks of better words, "normies".
I don't know how to let go of this fear, and enjoy myself in troon-free spaces without falling into the same groups again.
No. 2505583
>>2505545If it's any consolation I e-dated a 4channer lesbian in my early 20s (didn't know she was one at the time we actually met in a videogame) and she was obsessed with porn and I had to explain why that was bad which took several months and by that point I was like "why am I bothering?", so they really are not the type you want to be hanging around with anyway.
People will do anything to fit in, especially when they are young, including adopting internet culture personalities like "blackpill lesbians" (which sounds like an oxymoron to me because it sounds like "all men are shit so I'm lesbian" like okay kek). So congrats on breaking free from your internet clique and finding happiness, I wish the best for you. Even if you fall into the same friend-making patterns where you find yourself swept along by a group and you hide yourself to belong, you will be able to say "hold on this feels familiar…" and since you've already done it once, you can just do it again until you find a new friend and more. Like I had a close male friend irl who I'd known for 6 years, but he started watching camgirls and became coomerfied, so I had to end the friendship but it took me 2 more years to do it because I kept thinking "maybe he'll get better" and trying to explain why it's bad. After realising how long it had been 2 years later I was like "how long have I been wasting my time trying to teach this retard? It's just like before." and ended it shortly after. People won't change unless they have a reason to, so it's better to just take care of yourself first, and you already did that once.
In my experience I've been able to hang out in normie bars (ones with a dress code of normal clothes) that host karaoke because troons actively avoid sociable spaces they can't control. There are a surprising amount of terminally online normies (straight/gay/lesbian/bi) who are aware of gendie stuff but don't participate and will say stuff like "yeah I have/did have a trans friend" at the most and leave it at that kek. There's hope for you nonna lol.
No. 2505597
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>Wake up
>Read lolcorr like morning paper
>Binge & purge
>Nap from exhaustion
>Read lolcorr for an hour or two
>Binge & Purge again
>Sleep
I am so depressed but I don't think it's possible for me to get healthy
No. 2505621
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I realize my body is physically aging faster than other people because of the amount of stress I have.
No. 2505635
>>2505625You might burn out fast
nonnie. A life change built on self-flagellating for human mistakes may cause it to be unsustainable. Not to discourage you but you may need to go slow and steady.
No. 2505638
Just got back from this older couples house, they're in their 70's and newly retired. I knew they were doing extremely well financially but holy fucking shit nonnies, their house is huge and new and beautiful. Pristine condition, everything is clean even their garden is perfect and clean. Their garage is literally so clean you could lick the floor and walls and the neighborhood is so friendly I felt like I had stepped into a movie. I felt so out of place despite how welcoming and kind they are. I'm trying not to be a jealous bitter bitch but it's so hard coming back to my parents house that I still live in cause I'm a 30 year old retard and it's falling apart and filled with garbage and filth cause my dad is a messy mentally ill hoarder and my mom is physically disabled. Their hobbies are like sitting on the computer for 8 hours a day and complaining and fixating on their health issues. It's so jarring, the juxtaposition. And it's fucking brutal because I know I will never have that, a big house, financial stability, the confidence and extraversion to chat it up and befriend everyone in a suburb, the lifelong devoted partner that doesn't cheat or treat me like shit. I'm going to be stuck here until my dad dies then I'm going to have to be a full time caretaker for my mom, so all my finances and time will be put into that until she passes then I'm committing suicide. Even if I didn't have to do that I will never have what they have, money, a partner, stability and contentment. Mentally ill poor people shouldn't be allowed to have kids.
No. 2505688
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Why are scrotes so fucking disgusting. I was out for drinks with my friends and I was in a bad mood already since they didn’t have coke and I didn’t want beer, as they were ordering I felt the hand of someone brushing my butt, it made me feel so fucking gross. When I turned around there was this retard and I yelled at him but he acted as if he didn’t do it on purpose. You don’t accidentally touch a butt in that manner, I’m not stupid.
I hate men.
No. 2505732
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it feels like my life is over tbh. I just feel like shit all the time and I of course try making money to survive, but it's like I have no desire for anything else whatsoever. constant headache and fatigue. I can't talk to people beyond what's necessary. I can barely remember the last time I woke up feeling well. and I don't even want to think about my insecurities about my looks either because the way I look can only be described as diseased and haggard and I have no idea if it's just how I'm supposed to look or not.
I've been working out, eating healthy, etc. no improvements and it's been so many years of new, sometimes embarrassing health issues popping up that I've now realized that things aren't getting better. at least I'm good at disassociating so I'm at least able to get some respite.
No. 2505757
>>2505638boomer housewives literally spend their whole days cleaning up the house, especially once retired
my grandparents houses were exactly the same, not a peck of dust anywhere
No. 2505774
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Wasn't sure if I should put this in here or the /g/ thread but I decided to go to the game night my college was hosting and it wasn't as fun. I signed up for a tournament even though I've never played the game since it's a casual event and I did it for another game there last year. One of these moids these two girls were hanging around got paired to play against me and he kept saying he "felt so bad" cause he played it all the time. One of the girls came over and sat next to him, and basically the whole time they laughed together at me losing to him, which was weird. What was even weirder was that he kept making racially charged comments about her and the character he was playing (Snake from MGS looks a little tan in the game and he said he was playing as someone who had no dad, then said joked that he had to be the father I never had or some shit and beat me.) and she was acting like it was the funniest shit in the world when Im a complete stranger + it was the kind of edgy humor I'd hear in middle school.
Right afterwards she played with him and she didn't entirely know how to play either, so I don't get why they did that, I've had friends who would laugh at me/have darker humor before but it's different when it's random ass people. He also randomly mentioned how his ex girlfriend was half black and some weird raceplay stuff. (He was white)
No. 2505812
>>2505799It's weird because I personally think the art medium of tattooing itself is actually really neat, and I've seen some really amazing looking tattoos before. But people actually having tattoos I honestly think just looks ugly kek.
Also it could just be where I'm from specifically so take this with a grain of salt, but I think people are starting to get tattoos at younger ages. I've seen a good handful of high schoolers who are like 16 or 17 with tattoos on their back or arms, hell I even saw one with a tattoo on their face which is insane to get when you're still a kid. It's all a little surreal to see tbh
No. 2505867
>>2505855sybau im not your cow
>>2505856yeah but the fact it was hundred line makes me cringe on the inside. Why are moids so fucking retarded
(integrate) No. 2505898
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>>2505880sorry for being rude im kinda of spiraling actually now that im thinking about what the fuck is happening. In short he made a stupid comment despite not playing the demo, knows i've been autisticly excited for the game release, and yet he still decided to randomly shit on it when i sent a screenshot of a character making a funny reference to another game that i know he likes. And it just kind of escalated from there, but the main issue is that I'm always accommodating for him and not calling him a retarded gooner dipshit and the one time i decide to take a stand he starts pulling manipulative bullshit on me. It pissed me off so much i just told him i wouldn't speak to him for awhile and now i can see he is linking up with his old friends(including his ex). So retarded
No. 2505919
>>2505757I might be looking at their life with rose colored glasses but it didn't seem that way at all. They have so much free time for hobbies, and they seemed to clean up after themselves like the second they make the tiniest little mess. They're also just not very messy people, I'm a bit like that where I clean as I go, so if I cook something I clean up immediately and if I spill something or drop food I clean it up right away. My dad will literally just leave everything, if he drops food he'll kick it to the side of the room, if he spills something he'll throw a dirty paper towel on it and walk away, just leaving both the spill and the dirty paper towel like marinating on the floor. And it seems like they've divided the labor between the two of them, like his wife does a lot of the cooking and he does the baking and they share the tasks of cleaning and caring for their pets. She cares for the garden and he cares for the produce they grow, it's literally like something out of a movie, like Disney suburbia I'm so jealous kek. They also have enough money to outsource cleaning certain things, so I don't think they wash their car I think they get that done professionally. They could have a housekeeper too I'm not sure.
>>2505766I'm glad I didn't get shit on for this statement kek, after the 30 minutes I was like 'fuck that's too mean.' But yeah it really does fuck the kid up for life, they in turn spend their entire life playing catch up essentially just to reach some level of normalcy.
>they had me youngJealous, my dad was well into his forties when they had me and I think I inherited the majority of their combined mental illnesses.
No. 2505970
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every time i try to be somewhat normal and socialize or make social media accounts to share my art or whatever i end up going into schizo mode and want to immediately withdraw and delete everything and hole myself up in my room for the rest of my life because everyone will know. everyone will know it's me everyone will know how disgusting and degenerate i am and they'll hate me and they'll tell everyone and they'll be so disappointed in me. everyone will know everything about me they'll know its me they'll all know. i cant share anything with anyone because they'll pick it apart and use some random aspect to harrass me about my morals or something they'll know its me they'll shun me and everyone will hate me and i'll just have to kill myself thatll be my only option because they'll always know its me. i don't even know how i ended up like this? i avoided social media for the better part of the last 10 years so i wasnt entrenched in purity culture or whatever the fuck and that's the only thing i could think of that could potentially cause this in my life so none of this line of thinking makes sense. i was too old for that shit by that point anyway. plus ive always been open about liking some "weird" things like idk medical stuff and eroge, typical normie "animecore" shit these days and people have been pretty accepting so what in the hell?
No. 2505998
>>2505620Yeah, pretty much spot on. Thank you
>>2505938Why don't addicts just stop buying drugs? Because it just doesn't work like that, I'd still binge on the lettuce and chicken breast. Thank you anyway
No. 2506065
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Dresses and robes were always the standard! 3000 years ago moids had to invent pants to protect their fucking balls while riding horses. Throughout history, everyone who could, decorated themselves with jewelry, accessories, extra fabric, etc because it showed off their wealth and status. The modern male aesthetic and demeanor was invented in early 1800s Britain to distance the royal party from the ideals that led to the French Revolution.
No. 2506082
>>2506065here's a nice documentary on those pants. also pants weren't the default because they're rather complex compared to slightly more elaborate versions of wrapping yourself in a piece of cloth. i'm not sure you can it reduce to just riding horses.
btw past clothing in general was way more functional and modular than it is today.
No. 2506132
>>2506113Are you by any chance bisexual? I’ll be your discord gf
nonnie. Let’s have cats together
No. 2506159
>>2505936nta Actually, could be fibroids with PMDD. I think the "periods aren't that bad" mentality is
very unhealthy, and gaslights women into assuming something is wrong with them. I want to argue lighter experiences are the true outlier here.
But I had fibroids and PMDD and am bitter as fuck
No. 2506167
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I feel like a massive NLOG and pickmeisha every time I say that I can't be friends with a woman who supports tranny stuff or gender ideology stuff in general. If they're neutral on the matter that's different but I'm in a lot of nerd gaming spaces and so many of them are very full-on with the entire thing and it feels like I'm just on the outside looking in, or like I'm a closet terf.
Well I guess that's true but how the hell am I supposed to form real, genuine friendships with women with the same interests as me, when as soon as I'd talk openly and honestly about my beliefs they'd start an argument? I used to be one of those people where I'd just my personal beliefs separate but I can't do that anymore, because they'd always manage to bring social issues into the conversations at some point. I'm tired of just keeping quiet on it, I didn't think it would be this difficult. I don't want to sound self-pitying either but it's just rough, this website is like the only place where I can openly say what I think and feel and I have other women agree with me and I'm not just instantly shot down by a bunch of retards.
No. 2506219
>>2506190Turn it into spite. No-one of us will go down in any history books— use that. Go batshit insane. Have some fucking fun with it before thinking it's the end. Might as well get the most out of it.
Go insane for a year, become an artist and try to sell it the year after. Just learn what it feels like to say no or fuck off and go off the walls. Might as well, right? What's stopping you? Dying a good girl will get you all the usual and No-one cares. Make it count at least. Have a life before.
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>>2506215He works so he does earn his own money, at least. I don't know how much (probably shouldn't ask anyway) but yes I am in the U.S. and he seems to just be a regular wagie, so far less than me most likely in any case. He is also just a student, so I can understand having a tighter budget from that and wouldn't mine treating him to cheapo places if he's THAT desperate but I hope he would pitch in for something else at least. It seems very inconsiderate to have a guest pay for their whole stay.
He did offer me to stay at his place, so at to not have to pay for hotel or anything, but I don't know him like that yet so am not comfortable with this.
(Polshit) No. 2506253
>>2506179>please tell me you like the countryside >raise chickens and goatsI’m swooning for you over here,
nonnie. Literally my fairytale dream life kek.
If it were feasible, I’d also love a donkey on our little farm. currently daydreaming about our cottagecore dreamland, we could be cuddle and make fun meals from stuff we grew and be cute together. Cringe maybe, but I would wanna do some goofy Christmas photos with the livestock if they were amenable to wearing Santa hats and posing for brief moments. I know we’d always have the cutest Christmas cards that family would look forward to receiving. God, and homes without moids in them are automatically so much cleaner, why is it that 99% of scrotes of all ages don’t fucking pick up after themselves? You have to ask them to do basic shit like picking up/rinsing off their dishes before food crusts to them and even picking up their garbage. They’ll leave it for days and weeks. The only women I know like that are nearly non functional levels of mentally and/or physically ill, but it’s the usual from moids!
No. 2506379
>>2506253I want to marry you very badly right now. I'm into you. Yes, all the Christmas cards and stupid hats. I got some for the chickens rn.
Let's chill at the ass end of nowhere, I'll grow our weed, no money issues ever, let's just take care of animals and love them
No. 2506552
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Fuuuuuck I fucking hate thinking up food for the upcoming week. I'm currently studying from home so it's not like I have to worry about time spent on cooking, but I don't particularly enjoy doing it and I want to have a number of lunch boxes ready to just be thrown into the microwave so I can do my projects and eat at the same time. I have ZERO fucking plans for what to eat next week, and I'm running out of shit in my freezer so I can't think anything up based on what I got in there.
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I really don't understand why I couldn't vibe with my college classes or the professor I had for my senior year. I was able to intern and get employed in our field during my junior year, and at my job I get along with everyone. I love it. My coworkers love me. But at school EVERYONE ignores or does not engage with me, ever. Maybe it's because I'm older or the lack of participating in anything at the campus but I'm really counting down the days because I hate dealing with feeling like an outcast.
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I will NOT have a meltie if there's people outside while im trying to mow the lawn i WON'T
No. 2506595
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>>2506586>>2506576Thank you nonnies… I did it and it went okay. Believe in yourself 4evr
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>>2506552I present to you mrs salad rice
No. 2506837
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everyone treats me like i'm a retard and then gets ultra pissed at me when i'm actually confused about something
No. 2506855
>>2506828There are probably more NEETs here than successful, well-adjusted anons. I’m sure there are anons here who would make you look successful in comparison. I hope you feel better though. I’m also a perfectionist, and I can’t handle using any other social media where people flex their “perfect lives.” Maybe these threads will help you feel better:
Losers thread
>>>/ot/238077Cow yourself
>>>/ot/561095Recovering NEETs
>>>/ot/1714003 No. 2506859
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Just came across a twitter community for incels with 10k members. No hope for men. It's like being an incel or adopting their opinions is becoming normal and trendy.
No. 2506863
>>2506828Don't worry
nonnie I'm 28 and have no savings no career no NUTHIN. I don't even wanna be internet famous either so I don't even have a vlog/blog/Tiktok account/social media presence/nothing. The sexual abuse I suffered as a kid basically mentally disabled me so I can only imagine that the most I can see myself in 10 years is working in a low stakes job like a book shop.
No. 2506874
>>2506863thank you for reminding me of common humanity. i have cptsd from childhood sexual/physical abuse so thats my reasoning as well. no social media presence either kek. the only silver lining is my abuser has cancer and may die very soon and leave me with some money, but he is also my “father” and a human being that should not have to keep fighting off cancer and ill still grieve of course.
i love you
nonnie and i hope you get that bookstore job one day. id love to work at a farm or some shit… scooping UP shit i guess…
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>>2506379>>2506875Please don't forget to invite us to the wedding, nonnas. (The cow with the tie is just butch)
No. 2506927
I have lost almost everything since trump took office in January. My job, my only friend, who i only got to know for a couple of months before she announced she is going to have to leave the country to find work since all the science grants and funding are gone here now, my passion, the community i had at my old job, all my hope for the future, all my faith in the people around me. I have a roof over my head and food to eat and a new job (that I hate) that I should be grateful for but every other aspect of my life has collapsed entirely after I just started to get on my feet. I turned 26 yesterday and I could not be more isolated, intellectually under-stimulated, angry, and hopeless. I have no direction I even want to go.
If it weren't for my family that would fall apart themselves if I died, I would be making plans to kill myself as soon as possible. I am distraught that I can't. I don't want to be here anymore. I am utterly done with this world. I don't ave anything more I want to do in this world. I am done.
I am too exhausted being alone while watching everything I care about dying.
No. 2506940
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I'm so fucking bored of everything right now. YouTube sucks, I'm so uninterested in my hobbies, I don't even care about watching my favorite shows. Maybe I could try reading. I'm just so burnt out and I can't exactly just check out because I have a 2 year old who depends on me so I just fucking lock in and deal with it.
No. 2506985
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I’ve been wanting the vivienne Westwood necklace since I was in middle school when I was reading English GLB’s but now they’re trendy with zoomers who only consoom and I don’t want to be swept up with that.
No. 2506993
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I just fucking got my new phone (not actually new, I bought it used), like literally opened it today, and it was working perfectly fine, I copied everything from my old phone and put in the sim card and micro SD and all… And just as I was going to put an alarm for work tomorrow, it's suddenly like picrel. I'm devastated and I don't know what to do. I have literally no idea, it didn't fall, nothing happened to it. Fuck everything.
No. 2506998
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my professor gave me two 0s on short essays because he said they came off as ai-generated but i literally wrote that shit myself. i need those two grades or im gonna fail the fucking class dude
No. 2507062
The thing I hate about gendies and tiktokfags is that they treat niche communities like toys. They take over a space, they shit all over it because they feel cool, and when the space gets inevitably ruined, they go try to find the next shiny thing on their radar. It's never about lurking or integrating, it's always about how they'd subconsciously look cooler among other people within the group, how esoteric their knowledge is, never about actually liking the group their in. It's such a mindless drone style of existence I'd almost feel bad for them, but their deep self loathing does that for me. They want to be anti-normie so bad it makes them even more normie: your aliexpress clothes is not unique, your femcel larp is not unique, you're made on a factory line without any real or original experiences because you voyeuristically process life through other people's eyes. Not even your trauma is unique. You have nothing you can proudly claim as yours and it's pathetic. I wonder what next niche community will be made that they'll try to reach, like some form of cancer, hungry for something that can replace a real personality and real experience. I hope they stay hungry, they deserve it.
No. 2507100
>>2505545I still feel spiritually lesbian as transretarded as it sounds.
I have no sexual interest in women and like doing stuff with cocks, however I suffer immensely and complain all day for not having a girlfriend. Whenever girls notice me I light up, and when they reject me(on any plain of existence) I spend days crying and then remember each instance to the end of my days. My girl bff betraying our friendship when I was 13 literally made 180 turn on my whole personality and I never recovered and I hate that she has basically no social media and I can't even stalk her. I'm 28 btw-
Men can be fun but I will never care about them this much.
No. 2507104
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I love fashion and usually bright prints for spring and summer but right now I'm so sick of it all. I wish I could just wear lose neutral wizard robes 24/7. Best thing I bought recently was a black maxi T-shirt dress that I only wear at home because it looks deeply unflattering on my hourglass body. But fuck it. I just wanna go full unsexy wizard/witch at the moment.
No. 2507116
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Every so often I involuntarily go back to the mindset I had when I was in middle school and it is fucking horrific. I was being actively physically and sexually abused and neglected by my family, basically unschooled and locked in the house, and in a shitty tumblr e-relationship with this girl the same age as me who was horrifically suicidal. Between her telling me she attempted again/was planning a date to kill herself on again or that she cut herself again (not blaming her for doing that, I mimicked her in that aspect and we were both in fucked up situations. plus we were 13 it's been a decade and she's verifiably moved on) and me getting threatened or hit etc. in real life almost every day I don't know how I didn't just go insane, but now I'm stuck with this shit. I can't even listen to the music I listened to back then, a whole genre just completely out of my reach because it makes me spiral and panic and cry and want to hurt myself and others. Sucks because I really still like it and wish I could listen to it again normally. It's been happening more and more lately too though, even without triggering it, and it would still creep up on me when I wasn't mentally crapped out in the last few years. The last relationship I had was almost a direct copy of the one with her, same situations, same mannerisms same everything, it even lasted the same amount of time. I don't know what I'm going to do
No. 2507133
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I have to lock in and revise these three days for my exam, wish me luck nonnas. I wish i wasn’t this stupid sometimes.
How do you deal with procrastination? I can’t keep going on like this. I just can’t gather enough energy to do stuff and everything is so hard and I feel so jaded, like an amoeba. Everything is so boring and useless, but I still need to get that degree.
No. 2507177
>>2507116You need therapy. You might have PTSD from what you went through, that sounds horrendous. I'm glad you're out of that situation.
Usually, people start to spiral when they're out of whatever situation was causing them stress. It's a shitty but normal part of healing. What you're going through isn't unusual in that respect, so you can rest assured that it will get better. But please get therapy so you can get better sooner rather than later.
No. 2507187
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My half brother called my dad after 20 years of no contact. Says he wants to see him.
I've been thinking of him throughout the years, what kind of person he is, what are his hobbies, wether he's still alive or not or if he trooned out. Anything really.
I don't know anything about him besides his name and where he grew up. If it wasn't for my mom telling me stories about him, I wouldn't have known of his existence.
Dad is a jackass, never talked about him, got defensive and agressinve if asked and keeps contact info and past letters from him somewhere hidden not even mom knows, or prob doesn't want to tell me.
That's the short of it. I feel ashamed I didn't dig deeper and find him first…but I don't think he would've wanted to be found.
Say's he'll come sometime in june.
He'll probably think my haircut is stupid, if he even wants to see me…I don't blame him for not talking or looking for us, dad pretty much abandoned him at 12.
I could never be upset with that, even if my grandparents and mom think he still should've visited.
I hope he doesn't break my heart.
No. 2507264
>>2507187Samefag. It won't leave my mind. It makes me sadder and sadder.
I don't think he'll like me
No. 2507269
>>2507255There are funnier things to laugh at, someone's rut isn't one of them.
People don't pay as much attention to you as you think they are.
No. 2507360
>>2507245She has her own toy but forgot it and my mom's been looking for something to leave in the house.
>. I still remember my mum giving this snotty younger kid my favourite bear, surprise surprise the kid puked on it and trashed itThankfully I snatched it from her right away. It was already covered in spit but it should be okay. My mom was like "just leave it to her during the day", no I don't want to sleep with baby snot thanks.
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>>2507115Thank you. I will embrace my inner Gandalf.
No. 2507474
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i’ve been friends w this person i met online in 6th grade and now i’m 20 and she’s 22. we’ve met irl several times but mostly talk online since we live a few states away. i lowkey can’t stand being around her and we have absolutely nothing in common but since she is one of the only people i regularly talk to since i’m an autist femcel with no friends i usually just cope and try to focus on the good stuff. things have gotten worse since she met this moid on an rp site a couple years ago and i honestly feel jealous that he gets all her attention when i have been friends with her for way longer but i guess it’s my fault for not liking animu or being a yellow fever infested otaku. again i don’t have many other options so we’re both stuck in this relationship where we clearly are unhappy but since she is also a lonely retard who constantly antagonizes her irl friends we have no other options.
lately though it has been super bad. she recently had her tumblr mutuals help her to self diagnose with osdd/did and now identifies as being plural. there are a lot of retarded things she does that i’m okay with but this is honestly a line for me. she’s now one of the ppl who thinks she has fictional characters for alters and whatnot, picrel is last night where i guess one of her alters started fronting. on top of all of this she is “””””bigender”””””.
now nonnies i really do want to cut her off and i have tried several times and have failed. i am going to a concert with her in august so im trying to last until then. again we are both friendless spergs and i am equally as mentally ill as she is but the alter did plural shit is genuinely so harmful and retarded that i don’t know how much longer i can take this. please help
No. 2507487
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>>2506985Why are you letting other people dictate what you can and can't wear? Stop being a faggot and just buy it, as long as you're not dressed head to toe in Tiktok fashion nobody will associate you with that.
No. 2507608
>>2507597Tbh if you're getting called a scrote with how fucking lenient everyone is with obvious scroteposts on here you're probably so rotted in the head you might as well leave for 4chan
Never got scrotefoiled when I don't have the most feminist/girl-like opinions at all
No. 2507617
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This website was at least 30% male before 4chan shutdown, now it's at least 60% tbh
Time to leave the scrotes on their own, thankfully I found another imageboard that's naturally gatekept, it's dead but whatever
No. 2507620
>>2507617Check CC. Most 4channers still think of CC as the “female 4chan” ib and went there. Not that we don’t have scrote raiders here (we do), but it’s night and day. I think the fact that this is also a lolcow site puts them off our trail. Also 4chan is back up now btw.
>>2507619NTA, but anons will assume the worst unless you give an example. I’ve gotten called a scrote for dumb shit before too though, like not finding certain moids hot. For every legitimate scrotefoil, there’s about 5 false ones imo.
No. 2507627
>>2507609What is even male brained about it? I would really like to know.
Yes I'm autistic and have been accused of being male brained irl. That doesn't make me not a woman. There are many autistic women with different and male-coded opinions.
I feel some people interpret "not being a seething radfem" as being "male". I've been accused of being a scrote just for saying simple stuff like men aren't that evil.
Maybe I have adopted more male post tendencies to blend in on male dominated sites but I can't be the only one, 4chan has a big female population too.
No. 2507661
>>2507643That make me feel better actually. I also have investing as a hobby, very cool.
This site is really different from anywhere else. I have been an internet user since the early 00s across many, many websites, and nowhere else have I been accused more of being all sorts of stuff that I'm not than here.
No. 2507674
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>>2507657Half the time the "opinions" are just shit like this or denying men's evil behavior like the other anon itt
No. 2507683
>>2507674Random nacho
nonnie in the middle of political shit makes me kek. I hope she liked them.
No. 2507685
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>>2507680Wrong, keep posting here until the culture changes with you and change peoples minds by standing your ground
(Ai outside of containment ) No. 2507688
>>2507674What's supposed to be scrote-like in holding retarded political opinions? That's mostly genderless from my IRL experience
>>2507683Kek
>>2507680My opinion exactly. Like if it happens to yuo randomly in the middle of an infight you're probably fine, but if it's constant there's something wrong with you (esp since the VPN ban where a lot trolls got filtered out). I post borderline shit constantly and I never got scrotefoiled, at most I get called a newfag or a retard
>>2507685Your ground is probably retarded
No. 2507703
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>>2507686>I never said "men aren't evil" I just said "maybe they're not that evil"This is about gender differences in animal cruelty btw
No. 2507739
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>>2507731Such fowl language, on my lolcur?
No. 2507760
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>>2507739You just reminded me that I really liked this part of the Aristocats as a kid kek
No. 2507786
>>2507779I wasn't saying anything about defending scrotes or that it's your problem, no need to be agressive. Just that I get why it'd be hard for her to find somewhere else.
>>2507784Kek what? No one said any spaces had to be changed, just that the current ones that exist can be hard for women like that to fit into. The reading comprehension here really is at an all time low huh
No. 2507788
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>>2507775The OP outright said
>Ironically it's easier for me to just post on regular 4chan and nobody there tinfoils I'm a woman or whatever or even cares.So she does fit in somewhere
No. 2507789
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a girl i've followed on social media since we were teenagers keeps making the most retarded choices and it's killing me. i know it's not my life and she's not me but i can't believe i thought her life was admirable. she says she hates men but she continually gives the most scrote-tier moids the 'benefit of the doubt', hanging with disgusting men but has no female friends. she doesn't seem to realise that men don't care about her in the way a friend would, they just want to fuck her. i find it vile on her behalf but maybe that's me moralfagging.
for example one of her friends is this ancient scrote who hangs around her, has pics of her on his phone, stalks her, makes sexual comments about her and tells her disgusting stories about killing people and being abused by his ex (essentially the cluster b classics).
she's dismissive of his empty lifestyle but keeps hanging around him, dismisses her own awareness of his scrotishness and still thinks he's just a 'friend' when he's clearly trying to seduce her (or worse). she's also oblivious to guys constantly hitting on her and harassing her in inappropriate contexts, like work, all stuff most women would be disgusted by.
i'm not sure if she's stupid (i doubt it) or just so warped by the patriarchy that she thinks all men are genuine and good, but her naivete scares me. every time i read a post of hers it's escalated, and i worry that one day i'll wake up and find she's been raped or murdered (yes, this older guy is that bad). we're the same age but i hate most men and have a very cynical mindset but i know that these guys only want one thing from her. maybe she knows it and enjoys it? but then i ask myself why anyone would want scrotes hounding them like this, especially at work or home when they're trying to be independent. i just don't get how she's aware of how shitty they are but does nothing to dissuade them. if anything happens to her, it's still not her fault, but it's frustrating yknow?
No. 2507792
>>2507788Idk, that just implies she doesn't have to deal with this specific problem over there (being asked about her gender), not that 4chan is perfect for her. I mean if it was she would just stick to that and not even come here to seek a more female dominated imageboard, most likely.
>>2507791No? She should still try to adapt to this site if she's going to keep posting. I just get where she's coming from since there aren't really that many places to go.
No. 2507847
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my dad is pissed and yelling and throwing things around and stomping through the house and i have to go with him to a dual eye exam in half an hour ahhhhh
No. 2507867
>>2507847I’m sorry
nonny, I hate when scrotes chimpout like that it’s always nerve wracking. I hope by the time the eye exam happens he’s gotten it out of his system at least.
No. 2507871
>>2507737>>2507255I bombed the exam and I was feeling super shitty and this made me laugh, thank u nona
>>2507366Can we actually?
No. 2507899
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Being into fashion is depressing because ultimately almost every woman involved at some point ends up being degraded, sexualized and malformed in a way men never are or at the very least obsessed with being beautiful, eye fucking herself in the camera and becoming the focus instead of the clothes.
It especially brings me down when it comes from the woman's own initiative
No. 2507912
>>2507904>why would you get depressed over other people's experience and how they go about itBecause it's rooted in misogyny and only valuing women for their appearance. And I don't necessarily mean women who are interested in fashion and experiment, I also mean male designers who come up with clothes that are meant to highlight how fuckable a model is or contort her body in an extreme way, etc. I don't mean women's personal approach to clothes but the wide scale phenomenon. I'm not trying to shit talk women for doing fashion 'wrong' when they've internalized those values around them.
>>2507907>Women will always be seen as bodies regardless of how great their artistic expression isYeah, that's exactly what's so depressing.
No. 2507995
>>2507947Yes, for most of my life, I hated my mother for being a bystander more than I hated my father for beating me all the time. The way I saw it, you don't expect love or protection from a monster – you know not to expect warmth. The dynamic with the bystander is totally different. There is a sense of betrayal and shock and excruciating pain when you see her staring at you and not lifting a finger even as you call out to her for help. I know she is sorry and she has changed a lot and regrets it, and I don't hate her anymore, but I would be lying if I denied that it broke something in me, probably even worse than my father. I think the emotional trauma of being thrown to the wolves by someone who says they love you, someone you look up to and trust and desperately desire approval from, is honestly worse. At least it was for me. A feeling of "my father doesn't love me" is somewhat simple to accept, but "my mother loves me, but even that is not enough to care what happens to me, so I really have no one in this world," is much, much harder to accept. I am very sorry you experienced this, but you are not alone or wrong. She should have protected you, and she should feel guilty about it.
No. 2508016
>>2507847My dad screamed/screams so loud literally every 30 minutes. I'm genuinely truly surprised no neighbour has ever called the cops on him for his voice being the equivalent of noise pollution.
>>2507995>The way I saw it, you don't expect love or protection from a monster – you know not to expect warmth. The dynamic with the bystander is totally different. There is a sense of betrayal and shock and excruciating pain when you see her staring at you and not lifting a finger even as you call out to her for help.That's a perfect way of putting it, thank you. Yeah, I don't really forgive her. It just feels irrational to be so hung up about something that happened ages ago because hey, I'm alive, so why should I care, that thing. But her claiming she didn't hear or see anything when she saw with her own eyes (we made eye contact) him chasing me with a fucking butcher knife saying he was going to slit my throat (and all because of getting 80% on a test, I couldn't make this up if I tried) a day after the event makes me feel nothing for her
No. 2508057
>>2508038I constantly see anons on here peddling this absolute insane idea that if you have a baby after 20 years old or if the moid you have a baby with is over 18 years old, then your baby is gonna come out fucked up beyond belief and be doomed to a life of retardation and disability. At this point I assume it's all trolling because I refuse to believe some people can genuinely believe that.
>>2508033>Why keep living if I wasted my youth?34 is still youth. You sound like you spend waaaaay too much time online and not enough time outside around people you're own age. Why don't you volunteer a few hours a week at a nursing home and then you can see what being "geriatric" actually looks like? Not even trying to be mean to you but being this upset about being 34 is like really dumb.
No. 2508072
>>2508057>>2508038Thanks, it helps to know that other women had children "late" and they turned out alright.
I swear I'm not trolling, I'm just scared of the future and regretful of my past.
>You sound like you spend waaaaay too much time online and not enough time outside around people you're own age.Maybe that's the issue. Most of my friends are quite young, mid 20s, and it does make me feel old in comparison.
No. 2508184
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I was in a year-long Uni program this year and I just didn’t fully connect with anyone. I’m kind of a sped and an only child and it’s so hard for me to click fully with friends. I’m used to rejection but it’s hard for me to process the grey area of acquaintances who like you but not enough to get closer. There was a group of girls that I liked and they were always pleasant individually but as a group I was never really able to break through and I don’t understand why. Now they’re on a girl’s trip and I wasn’t invited. I can actually be a social butterfly when I’m comfortable but unless I get the right signals from others I can never fully let my guard down.
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i want to meet my soulmate already
No. 2508546
Just heard this obese bitch who used to harass me, spread lies about me, people I care about and so many other people over the years including minors got hospitalized because her abuser Nigel punched her in the face, fractured bones and he was her provider because she had no income aside from social security fraud, now CPS might take her kid if she doesn't leave him. I can't tell you how many times disgusting people I've come across have met similar fates. If you are at all a decent and moral person who is dealing with nasty people who harass you, and you think at one point to get some kind of revenge because you have enough to mess with them but hold back- know you did the right thing. Not just in terms of being the bigger person, but because Karmic retribution is real and these fucking losers always meet their fate. I am lowkey ashamed to think like this, because this is never something to celebrate, but a sadistic part of me can't help but think she deserved it and looking at the pathetic lives of the freaks who've tried and failed to damage mine feels vindictive enough to be satisfying. Take it from someone who has done both if you're ever contemplating revenge, do not waste your energy and in a form or another it will come naturally, you'll have moved on and can enjoy the shitshow from a distance
No. 2508572
>>2508455I dont think Im attracted to women like that (sadly)
>>2508480I will! its just disheartening being the only person I know who's never had any relationship…