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Let the steam out.
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I don't know which thread to use, I guess I will use this one because it's older.
but anyway, I'm a delivery driver and I ran a red light at work today. I don't know why. I wasn't drunk, looking at my phone or even tired. I just… was being absent minded. as soon as I realized cars were driving across the intersection I slammed on my brakes. I didn't hit anyone but I still drove past the crosswalk which legally counts as running a red light. I feel so embarrassed and ashamed, I'm just glad I didn't hurt anyone. I've been working here over a year and nothing like that has ever happened. my boss wasn't there but I felt the need to tell my manager incase someone called the store to tell them. she didn't seem concerned and was just like "it happens sometimes". I have seen other drivers blatantly break traffic laws but this is different because people actually saw me and I could have hit someone. I hate myself but also hope I don't get fired, if they do fire me though I will understand. I have just been really out of it and distracted ever since someone tried to break into my house the other night
Don't beat yourself up, it happens and if you drive all the time the likelihood goes up. I've had a few stupid driving moments where I've just had a mind blank or a moment of confusion and done something I'd never do usually, it always freaks me out and embarrasses me but if there's no harm done you just have to move on.
Driving is weird though, half the time I feel like it's just muscle memory and instinct rather than being conscious of every aspect of traffic no matter how hard I'm concentrating.
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Before covid started I didn't have a single stretch mark on my body, now 25 pounds heavier I am covered neck to knees with stretchmarks. My breasts, my butt, my knees, my stomach, my arms ,my elbows,my armpits, the bottom of my neck. The stretch marks are so vicious I look like a stab victim I'm a few months away from turning 20, The stretch mark creams I use have fragrance (which gives sensitive skin acne) So I also have painful Pimples all over my body from the creams. I've never dated anyone but I know no one would ever want to look at my naked body. I regret not taking care of my body every single day. I don't shower much anymore because looking at my naked body makes me nauseous (random photo off google looks similar to my stretch marks)
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i have a cold and now i have painful sores on the tip of my tongue. i never had something like that related to a simple cold. why won't they go away already, it's been four days.
a girlboss move
i would give them a money envelope except when they open it it's just full of farts and then they die
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I’m sick of my bf too and it’s only been a matter of months. I just want to be single. He’s such a whiny little bitch, wanting me to help with his sOcIaL aNxIeTy by ordering shit for him because he’s scared of fucking cashiers and waiters. The stupid fuck is 6 years older than me!!!! Sometimes when he gives me oral he literally sucks my pussy and when I told him I didn’t like this he threw a fucking tantrum. Scrotes are fucking worthless.
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I don't trust male psychiatrists and therapists. Not only they don't listen to me as much as female ones, but they also want to push on me some personality disorders, like schizoid or schizotypal, while female specialists tend to be open to the idea I'm autistic and they admit that female autism is harder to diagnose than male autism, especially in our country. I feel like males just don't believe that a semi-functional female can be autistic. Male psychiatrists are also more expensive. I spent so much money on them I honestly hate myself for it. I will never get that money back. My last one wanted 500 for the first appointment, and every control visit was supposed to be 250, but he just recently changed it to 300. This is too much for me, I'm so angry at myself, I wish I could go back in time and take that money back
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Why do hetero, risk literal death. You could always pull a "I now have pcos and have (((moodswings)))" then cuss him out and cry until he fucks off naturally. Get creative.
You can talk in groups, you just don't know it and so, you will talk in the next groupthing at your workplace. Just imagine that every single person sitting around is one cow from here and no matter what they think or might say, it doesn't matter, because they are cows and cows are only useful while eating grass. And imagine the look on their faces when you finally talk.
I've been like you and now you can't shut me up when there is something to say and I think the others are just wasting air with their stupidity.
You can speak up, I believe in you, nonna.
I only had one male therapist. He was one of the worst. I, of course, was having trouble opening up to a fat old scrote so instead of idk making me feel more comfortable, this stupid piece of shit starts telling me about his fucking problems. Like the first 15 of my sessions were him talking about himself. Fucking useless. Hurts too because if I would have gone to a good therapist back then, I wouldn't have been as fucked up now and wouldn't have gotten into abusive
nta but >I don't know why they won't heal properly
This is definitely why:>I take them out like once every two or three days to get the dried stuff off
Use a q-tip to get the dried stuff off after you shower when it's soft and when you clean it with solution. You're not supposed to take the jewelry out at all
until it's fully healed. 6-8 weeks or more. Good luck!
Write them shitty reviews across all their business/ professional online pages if that's possible.
Put forward a complaint perhaps? You're not satisfied and they didn't help, can you claim a refund?
I'm so sorry anon. Just remember that not getting the grant doesn't mean that your application was weak or that you're not worthy - every art grant gets like a million applicants, and at the end of the day they never have the funding to award a grant to everyone who deserves one. Try to stay positive and definitely keep applying for stuff, you'll break through eventually.
It's not exactly in the same domain, but for perspective my dad is a highly-cited professor with a decades long career, and he's told me that his applications for grants get rejected about 7 out of 8 times. Getting turned down is never fun, but it's a realistic part of the process even if you're well established and respected.
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I'm so damn anxious about my uni courses because there are waaaaay too many people who've applied for the ones I applied for and honestly idk how my uni is going to manage that and how everyone is supposed to get in????????? This semester we have "hybrid" courses, so one group has to come to campus for a week and the other does it online and then they switch but they have to make everything online if there are too many people applying, right?RIGHT!??!?
Like, most courses this semester only take 50 people max but then I see that over 400 people applied for each of them? I'm so scared that I won't be able to get in and I'm on the edge for another two weeks because that's how long it'll take until registration period is over waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
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I look back at my old posts here and I want to kill myself I'm such a hateful little sperg faggot I need more anxiety meds and to get clocked LMAO
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Hell yeah, me too.
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gj anon. you deserve the best
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I watched this glitter horse toy commercial and it actually made me extremely sentimental, I was the target demographic when MLP FiM came out and creepy moids ruined one of the favorite shows for little girl me with finding fucking weird fetish porn of my favorite characters and getting groomed on the internet.
Men ruin everything, and a part of me really wants to reclaim this dumb show aimed a little girls, i want to draw some dumb ass little horses and just enjoy something nice and wholesome about friendship.
I feel this so hard. When the fandom first started up it was so wholesome and it felt like a real girls gang, and me and my friends at school would spend lunch drawing our favorite ponies or drawing characters from other shows as ponies. Then shit got weeeeird. I have a lot of awesome memories though. I still remember the day the Hearts and Hooves Day episode was leaked and how excited me and my friends were.
You've gotten me in the mood to draw some ponies!!
i want to avoid double posting, but i hate being ugly. i've had so many people i've met over mmo's and stuff fall for my voice and personality but when i send a selfie, the budding romance just fizzles out. we're still close but it's obvious they no longer hold a crush on me, and it stings.
posting about this NOW because it's recently happened with a sweet guy. why did god make me ugly>>921821
im not saying you shouldn't break up with him, but will you talk out the reasons for leaving him before you do?
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I would reccomend watching the G5 movie then nonnie
, it feels very much so like a fresh beggining, i hope the series attracts more female fans.>>922397
Im only 20 so FiM came out when I was 11 lol, its so weird that so much time has passed right?
Nta but I was also in high school, I’m kind of salty because I didn’t have friends during that time and I might’ve liked having something cute to be obsessed with instead of anime.
I remember trying to watch it, I don’t even remember why because I’ve always hated watching series on my own, I felt guilty watching it since it’s shown on a kid’s channel, I ended up not liking it.
I love the character designs though, they’re cute.
>>922391>i don't want to potentially ruin our weekend
Are you genuinely retarded? What do you care more about “ruining” the weekend?Your alcoholic
scrote is drinking alcohol.
This motherfucker is actively on the path to ruining his health, his life and eventually your life too, if you don’t grow a fucking brain and find a spine.
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ask if he's into puppy play and pour one out into his doggy dish
Sorry for using your post to sperg but this reminded me of something kind of related that I've been wanting to bitch about.
I keep seeing clips where it's like 'My dad and the dog he said he didn't want' and then they show the dad doting over a puppy. What you described is what I actually picture whenever I see that caption on a clip. Such a shortsighted thing to think bringing an animal into a house where the 'man of the house' doesn't want it there is bound to just work out anyway. Like good luck when it stops being cute and has a health problem that daddy might not be so keen to dote on. I hate teens spreading the message to just get a dog anyway and your dad will forever be a soppy mess babying it.
Men in homes with pets who are less than perfect or have an inconvenient illness.. terible combination ime. Sorry you're living amongst all that.
YES are we talking about the new movie
I've never been part of "fandoms" so thankfully the g4 brony fandom never got to me, never went to any pony cons though
but I LOVED g4, used to draw a bunch of art for it, it stayed wholesome for me beginning to end
Sadly I think cg is the future, but I actually really enjoyed this movie. they are some CLEAR personality channelings (like izzy gives off some very strong pinkie vibes, zipp with dash)
I like this new crew, and I hope noone ruins it lmao
bronies have moved on, I think.
>>923025>i hate that my boyfriend refuses to even feed her a bottle to help me out bc he "might do it wrong!!!"
Don't accept this cop out from him anon, you didn't pop out of the womb knowing how to take care of another human either. The fact is you made the effort to learn, and yes sometimes made mistakes in order to be a bit better.
He needs to man up and be a father. Btw I'm not trying to shade you, but women in general need to get away from this "help" language when it comes to domestic responsibilities. You're telling him to do his part as a parent, so saying he needs to "help" you implies that you're the default parent and he's only there to occasionally assist. Bullshit. That attitude needs to die and you need to recuperate. Is he dangerously incompetent? If he's just making excuses so he doesn't have to do anything to go relax or funsies, here's what you do: Drop the baby off on his lap, and say you need to go do something. Leave him with the baby. If he bitches about being ignorant then assure him he can figure it out. Leave.
However, if you think he might be capable of being so stupid and vindictive that he might actually hurt or kill the baby by himself…well obviously don't pull this. However I would have to ask why you'd even stay with a man like that if that's the case? If he's dead weight anon then you might as well be single.
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I hate myself so much.
I know that when one feels this way, self-improvement is the way to go, but it all seems so tiresome. I feel like I'd be paving a road that leads to nowhere but more shitty land.
Why can't I just hit a button and be rewarded with a good work ethic, a mind clear of mental illness, and a body + face that do not disgust or hurt me (or other people).
Why couldn't I have inherited the good parts of my parents rather than their dregs? They were chads in their twenties but I'm here crying on LC with a perma pot belly despite being like, 140 pounds and 5'5. I hate this
people like you are like proof that there needs to be some sort of test would-be parents take, so they know how much work raising up a child actually is.
do you think you'd be happier with like a dog or something op? why did you and your husband have a kid?
speaking of your husband: do what other anons are saying and put his stupid ass to work. he knocked you up, he married you, he should be helping out.
nta but>Realistically you should cut him out of the kids life, and go back to your mom's so you can have some help raising the kid. Or give up the baby for adoption.
what kind of shit advice is this lmao
Nta but I grew up in a household where my parents both seperately talked about gays being perverts or sickos at different times… over the years they went on to say they don't actually mind gays but some of those lines really stuck with me and kept me in hiding.
For a long time I didn't get that they were likely talking about men buttfucking strangers and nothing that the average lesbo does. I just heard 'gays' and 'sicko perverts' and took that in thinking my virgin self was a sicko lol
and like if he's scared about "messing up somewhere !! XD" >>923025
this is 2021
. we have the internet. show him youtube videos or something, i hope he isn't so retarded as to not be capable of learning. >>923090
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I hate codependency I hate codependency I hate codependency best regards daughter of a narcissistic father recovering from codependency
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is it abuse if your parent does things to make you uncomfy? was looking thru my old e-diary tumblr and found this. it's making me wonder if i was just whining or what
you need to be 18 to post here
, don’t listen to the other anons, I can help you understand.
Just post your credit card information, or even better, post your mom’s credit card information.
Then I will tell you all the stuff you need to know.
i'm twenty-two now, but this is from < ~16 y/o me.
even in the current day tho, she'll always try to guilt me with stuff i did when i was like, 14 or younger, it's just odd as hell to me
is this normal parent behavior? i mean her love of senselessly getting on my nerves was a big source of strife for us (me) growing up
Could you fuck off and eat shit? I don't use discord.
This was very important to me. My dad blamed me for his suicide since I were a toddler. I'm really tired of shitheads.
I agree that it's not abuse, but I don't think it's normal either. It sucks when people (especially relatives) bring up old shit to try and guilt trip you. My mother was abusive
and she did the same thing sometimes, I think it was to deflect from her actions. Like a "Well I did this, but you did this!" kind of thing. Idk if that's similar to your mother.
sorry your post had the same unhinged energy. good for you though>>923146
suicide attempt clearly.
Anyways i've noticed some of you in vent threads are really rude about serious vents when they're not about petty stuff.
we had the same issue at my office, where the indian interns we had were bringing curry into the computer lab and it constantly smelled so they had to ban ALL food from the lab - of course you can't just ban the only pungent food being consumed bc racist. you must ban everyone from eating for equality!
we also had to have a segment at our staff meeting devoted to personal hygiene bc their body odor was overwhelming and distracting. but nooo you can't just tell the people who fucking stink, you have to waste the time of the rest of us who already know what a shower and deodorant is
Imagine being the op (me) the person who went through all those human emotions. And yet I'm still alive, try to be a good person and never hurt anyone that badly except a fucking selfie doxx and telling a rapists' circle what she did to me.
How the fuck haven't I become an avenging serial killer or something with all the pain I endured?
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I'm not the OP, I'm just adding that banning food around computers, especially communal computers is common sense and not racist.
Cry and try not to overtink it. We don't choose how or when we die.
He didn't and neither will you. And you will die too.
Don't burden yourself or your offspring any more than we're all already burdened with by being here and having to die.
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I'm convinced my dad WANTS me to stay an antisocial neet. Just constant putdowns and demoralizing quips, for no fucking reason. And whenever I call him out hes "oh it's just a joke" FUCK YOU. He doesn't do it to anyone else, its not a joke. Daddy issues is an over used trope but literally the main reason I can't stand scrotes is because they all pull the same shit as my dad, as eachother, literal copies of the same putrid vermin.
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I never get to enjoy the autumn weather for more than a week before the seasonal affective disorder hits. It's just an early sunset, I'm going to slap the shit out of my brain if it keeps making me think about my parents getting older and dying for no reason.
Grey rock method.
Let them stew in their own misery when they can't get a rise out of you.
kek i'm not white and roughly half of the employees at my company are non-white, but yes, muh tasteless white meme>>923200
there wasn't an issue with employees eating pungent european food, tho. if there were dozens of interns eating [insert any other fragrant food here] daily it would have also been an issue, and if they were white i'm sure the issue would have been taken up with them directly rather than skirted around for the sake of political correctness. imo it's more embarrassing to have a company-wide email issued not-so-vaguely calling you out than to just be confronted directly but, maybe that's just me >>923205
you're replying to someone who isn't me, but how is discussing the specific food being eaten pejorative? interns were, in the past, allowed to eat snacks in the computer lab but had their privileges taken away because of this. the proper action to take would have been for a manager to ask the specific people eating these foods to not, but because they are terrified of being called racist, they had to issue a blanket statement. i have nothing against curry, i enjoy it myself and i think it's tasty (though i prefer thai curries myself), but i think it's understandable to not want to have to smell it all day every day.
If he ever finds a potential wife (and if she is a nice woman), please, tell her how he is in real life. We all want to meet those sisters that keep us save from their stupid, useless brothers.
And for you, one day they will be gone and you will be free and won't have to run away.
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is it really that common to touch your vagina during sex? i've literally never done it in my life. the thought of it made me feel like i was in a porno. as if i needed another reason to be boring during bed
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am i weird for not wanting to tell people my major? i tell them i'm uni, but would rather not talk about my major because folks get weird misconceptions about me whenever they hear it.
is that odd? idk. does anyone have a better way to phrase it?
major's computer science, btw
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i'm so fucken done with my period bypassing my tampon and leaking. i JUST changed you, why you doing this to me bod? (i know. i gotta get a bigger size. just shocking how the blood still bypasses what i thought was a total blockage to just streak the side and continue to come out i want a refund)
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I'm sorry for everything you're going through right now anon. I hope that better days will come your way.
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who the fuck shoots fireworks at 1 a.m. near the end of september
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Was at a party last night where the subject of Chris chan came up with a couple of friends and of course they were super quick at correcting me about his pronouns and the subject went to how TERFS are going to use him as an excuse to demonize all mtfs and I'm just sitting there screaming on the inside all AREN'T WE FORGETTING SOMETHING HERE
Yeah she's an old jealous fatty bomblatty and totes not at her wit's end thinking a stranger is riling up one of her several obnoxious children who's going to be annoying af on the drive home.
This ought to teach you to grow out of overhyped theme parks.
My mom and dad are like this and it was really embarrassing growing up. I had no idea what was up with them but they thought everyone younger than them is basically a kid and needs to be told off for mildly inconveniencing them. >>923618>>923620
Hope you never get old, nonnies! Oh wait.
It was contextualised you old fart.
ie. how a small girl can come off as a danger
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Parents think that everybody by themselves is a pedo
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I studied for hours every day for a week only to receive a 68% on the test. Being this retarded is a talent
people always comment on how and what you eat, they just won't stop. I have to go through that every time I'm around people for the whole day, yes, I don't eat before evening, no, I'm not sick, no, I don't have a problem with food, I'm just not hungry.
Try to ignore them, you know why you eat how you eat and if this is the way your body functions the best it's the right way. They will always comment on your eating behaviours, even if you would eat like them.
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I want to write but after a certain point, I stop, then when I revisit the ideas I wrote down weeks later they sound so stupid and trite and I just give up.
Fuck those clients and your troon brother. You were a saint to even want to be nice to him
And boomer clients are always eager to bitch and criticize.
Those clients are idiots and honestly, fuck them for being shit to you. I haven't been to a hairdresser in over 15 years, because I don't trust them and bullying from my past, but you sound like such a nice person and it seems like you are really into what you are doing, so, I would choose you as my hairdresser if I had the chance.
And please, try to get away from the weed, it might help you with eating and stuff like that, but it hinders your biggest passion and I can imagine that your mental health will get a little bit better if you can get back into painting.
And for your depression, hope you find some way to treat it without having to spend that amount of money or win the lottery so money won't be a problem anymore.>>924115
I'm in my 30s and when I want to buy a plush I will buy a plush, it's that simple. And buying plushies is normal among the people I know.
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A few thoughts I'd like to get off my chest.
First of all, I'VE BEEN DRIVING FOR OVER A DECADE AND THAT MOMENT OF THE LIGHT SUDDENLY TURNING YELLOW AND HAVING THAT BRIEF MOMENT OF ANXIETY TO GUN IT OR SLOWN DOWN NEVER GETS BETTER AHHHHH!
Second of all, my friend keeps posting really awful candids of me at my bday party from awhile ago in the group chat and they're a wee embarrassing in that they make me look terrible. She didn't tell me she was taking this many…in fact never told me at all so I could at least pose for a few without my eyes being half open, slack jawwed mid sentence, thumb neck, etc. At the end of the day it's all petty. I just find it ironic that she always excludes herself from posed group photos because she's so mortified of having an ugly pic herself. With that said, I wouldn't do this to her. But oh well.
Husband copped an attitude with me when I got home from picking up my meds and going shopping today. It was petty and over a vacuum. I just mentioned that the vacuum got stuck, and he kept asking me over and over with like some attitude in his voice "Stuck on what?! After the third time I finally raised my voice and said "LOOK IT WAS JUST STUCK, DO I REALLY HAVE TO SPECIFY THE THING?" I mean jfc I was fumbling trying to get it un-stuck while answering to the third degree interrogation. Talk about annoying. I went upstairs to angry-put laundry away and later he came upstairs twice–thrice–to try to horse around with me cause he knows I got irritated. Third time he "hurt" himself coming up the stairs and was making fake whines to have me come look. He said he was grumpy because his favorite football team lost another game. Males are such confused unga bungas.
I dated someone before who thought it was great that I liked plush and wasn't into jewelery/perfume/flowers. Plush were easier to pick out and not such an investment. He gifted me small things like that and often. Everyone was happy.. and then when cracks appeared between us he called me babyish for having a plush collection. Dude you gladly bought me them and said it was great that I was so easy to buy for. You randomly presented me with them all the fucking time without being asked. It was weird.
His current gf has a house that is no joke.. like a shrine to Sonic. I don't doubt that he's showering her with sonic gifts right now and then one day he'll turn on her and call her a tard for liking sonic kek
I know that, tell that the guys that think I play video games and drink beer to be around men>>924163
plush snakes attract men? Hm, I must have been doing it wrong, I only have plush penguins, kek
What did he give you?
My last relationship ended with the guy cheating so I got tested afterwards to be safe. I was then ready to kinda rebound by fooling around with someone I'd met but he wouldn't provide proof of just going to a local free clinic. I wasn't looking for PIV so he kept saying we'd be fine but I stuck to my guns and cut contact. I don't know why some feel so burdened by a test.
samefag to add>But it’s annoying af. I’m not dumb. I can detect your lies.
I understand exactly what you mean. For a while in high school this girl was always mad at me and turned our other friend against me because she said I "was always contradicting her" but it was literally just me questioning her when she lied in front of other people, bc I'd known her longer than anyone and I knew when she was making shit up lmao. In her case it was insecurity + almost pathological need for everyone's approval at all times. She's also the type of person to completely change her personality depending on who she's interacting with
Don’t worry, nonnie
, it’s okay to commit mistakes, I once put salt in my coffee, I tried to save it by putting sugar in it and it tasted so horribly that I had to throw it away.
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i wish i had the willpower to learn the things i want, but my brain wants to kill itself at this point
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Today is my birthday and my bf was telling me about all the sweet things he was gunna do for me after work… for a god damn week. Came home, he's still on the computer. Walk over, he's acting like it's a normal day. It's past dinner, at night. I'm beyond pissed cuz this mother fucker forgot. I'm half tempted to go fuck my goth friend but I'm too much of a pussy to do so. I'm just seething at my dumbass now while eating the birthday cake my co workers got me.
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Me too, there’s so many things I want to do but that my brain is like “nah, these are all the excuses why you can’t do that”. I’m sick of it but I don’t know where to start even.
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I recently reconnected with an old boyfriend, I missed him so much, but all he wants is nudes
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My best friend forgot that today is my birthday but I didn’t want to remind her because she’s constantly stressed and surely depressed because of her living situation.
It would’ve probably made her feel embarrassed or even more stressed, I just want her to be happy.
And yeah, it kind of makes me feel sad but I’m kind of used to people not remembering my birthday, It’s not like the day in itself is that important and I had a good time with my family anyways.
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Just found out my fiancée (who I live with and share finances with) spent all our savings this summer “on us” (on extravagant dates and outings mostly) and didn’t tell me. I had assumed the money was coming from working overtime. Pray for my relationship and my sanity nonnies I literally feel like my mind is breaking rn how am I not supposed to be mad at being totally blindsided like that
you're definitely entitled to be mad, if you can't trust someone about shared finances it's a huge dealbreaker. i hope you can have a serious talk with your SO.
best of luck, anon
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I want to kill myself and I want my mom and dad to suffer knowing I did it because of them and how they have never been there for me and I want them to know how much they failed as parents and people and I want them to forever be haunted by that, I want them to regret every decision they ever made in their life knowing they have irreparably fucked me up and drove me to this, I hope they never feel peace, I want them to wish they were better parents who actually gave a shit about people who weren’t themselves, they have never cared and they most likely won’t care about me when I’m dead, they will just cry for the,selves, poor them, poor feeble them, always them, fuck them, I fucking hate them, I hope they know in their bones I hate them and will never forgive them ever, I don’t care how childish and immature I’m being, I fucking hate them and I want them to know they failed, they keep convincing themselves I’ll fix myself eventually and then they can say they weren’t all that bad after all because I came out okay or whatever, but fuck them, they don’t deserve that, I hope they know my teeth are rotting in my skull because they didn’t do enough for me, that my brain is cannibalizing itself because they didn’t feed it enough, fuck them, I want them to live and I want to die and I want them to suffer with that
ew. what a faggot lmao
who gives a fuck what this disgusting subhuman thinks of you
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Here's to another 2 years in a university and city I hate. I can't afford to move out on my own and I don't want to put my parents in debt. I know I'm making a bad decision by staying, and I can't do anything about it.
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I had to go to the doctor because I'm having some flu symptoms and the doctor was so unnecessarily mean when I had to get my chest checked/do the breathing thing. She went off at me asking if I'd ever been to a doctor before because I didn't pull up my top enough. I don't even remember the last time I went to the doctor let alone how much of my back and chest you want exposed (I wasn't wearing a bra on top of it lol) why couldn't she just tell me normally to lift my up my top completely?
That's what anon is saying though. They're not going to care about the reasons why she'd killed herself because then they'd have to acknowledge their shortcomings and sit with guilt and shame. Instead what tends to happen are outsiders centering their sympathy around the parents while assuming they did nothing wrong and must be emotionally suffering. If the parents are indeed mostly concerned for themselves, they soak up the narrative that they are actually the victims
and claim platitudes like how they couldn't have ever possibly saw it coming and lie about the status of their relationship. It's not like dead people can defend themselves or set the record straight. >>924524
Nah anon, don't do that. Shit seems impossible but with time and effort you can find a solution to tribulations like a mouth of rotten teeth and so on.
Parents like yours and mine purposefully didn't raise us well to make us co-dependent on their scraps. The real victory is overcoming their lack of care on our own volitions and not giving them any credit. Cut them off and show them you're capable of surviving without them.
Not your fault anon, if she suspected you hadn't been to a doctor ever or in awhile then that should have been a point for empathy instead of frustration. Some people working as doctors are socially stunted autists with no bedside manner and covid hasn't helped their indignant attitudes.
Just remember that there are very few medical professionals, the rest are just wearing the costume.
I had a rude stand-in doctor about a decade ago and I'll never forget how bitter I felt in the reception afterwards paying 80 fucking euro for the pleasure of seeing her. The receptionist then asked me if I was okay cause even she overheard the doc getting all pissy lol
Maybe she was annoyed as she was already judging you thinking you should've gone to a covid testing centre first? Still, a decent bedside manner goes a long way when trying to explain these thngs.
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I want to stop wishing everyone liked me and wanted to be my bestest friend. Every time somebody hangs out with me, no matter how different or shallow the frienship is, I want it to be more. It's so pathetic. I used to be fine with not having a best friend. Now I rarely hang out with anyone because I moved and covid fucked up everything. I hang out with my relatives' and their few friends who don't want to connect and get to know me more but there is nobody else. I hang out with scrotes who then become more interested in befriending my boyfriend than I regardless of how much they have in common. Fuck this, I need to talk to women my age. As soon as this corona shit is over I am going out to meet women.
I do agree, but that is a destination far away from me still. For now, I'm trying these things to avoid getting myself into dangerous situations again. It's a big and good step for me to recognise that this attitude of mine can be dangerous and that I have to be mindful of how I behave. I'm not trying to victim
blame at all, but I know that certain traits of mine enable my inability to set boundaries. I need to consciously force myself to not think nor act like someone who is insecure and vulnerable, but this doesn't mean going along with what men who enjoy confident girls like either. Sorry for how weird this sounds. I understand exactly what you're saying but I'm still in the early phases of this growth. I have a long way to go until I am truly confident and capable of setting boundaries whilst still being my authentic self.
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I got a job offer for a company that's way too good to be true and imposter syndrom is also kicking in because the job/employe/customers and everything is in a foreing language (that I speak fluent but still).
I have no idea if I should accept it or not because I'm not hurting for money right now and am waiting to see if I get into a course that would allow me to get my "dream" job. But the chances to get in are 50/50. And the offer pays a fucking lot, might even allow me to move out for the first time. Or buy a brand new car with cash if I manage to stay for 2-3 years.
Jesus fuck, what is the catch? I can't be that lucky for once?? Is it finally getting better??
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I'm the anon who constantly vents about her new workplace. I feel like I'm fucked. This is it. I know it. I made too many mistakes and literally everyone thinks I'm an idiot so I have been recently put on a training together with a coworker who's essentially completely new. I feel like any day I'm gonna get called in and fired (after one month). I literally feel like I'm incompetent at everything I do and even if I did everything perfectly I have zero social skills and cannot present myself as a confident and skillful person because I radiate anxiety and doubt. I also misinterpret things that people say or write to me and I always realize these things only in retrospect. Also, if they indeed fire me, I'm not going to have any jobs for this year that lasted for more than a few months, which is obviously a huge red flag.
I feel like I'm stuck in a car that's gonna crash and I cannot do anything to get out for fuck's sake
This is what my mother is going through and I wish I could do anything to help. Especially because, and I'm sure this goes for you too and perhaps you're too hard on yourself, she is skilled
and has a lot of passion. But she gets in her own way. Her own self doubt is what causes her misinterpretations, it's what causes her anxiety and leads to fuck ups. If I could only help her feel more secure in herself, she would be doing amazing. But how can you feel secure when you can't hold a job? It's like a cycle. I really hope you find a work environment that fits for you, anon, one that gives you a feeling of calm and acceptance. It took years for my own self to find it.
No no no, I have been places where they behaved like that and the management was narcissistic, so I recognize it, but this is different, here people are actually very nice and helpful and sweet but I am the one at fault>>924817
I'm in a dark place right now so I feel like I'm never going to find a place like that, but thank you anyway for your kind words
If my life doesn't improve by the time that I'm 40, I swear that I'll fucking kill myself. Fuck everything about my life. Everything was a fucking huge mistake and my biggest regret is that I should have successfully ended myself years ago. No real job, high school diploma in a very competitive city (phds galore), ugly, fiance is sweet, but he's a pussy and emotionally weaker than me, poor, I hate everyone in this city, shitty social skills, etc. Why do I even try any more? I have no energy, I'm tired, I hate everyone and everything.
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>>924945>But I'm hot for my age and could pull 20 something year old men like THAT. literally anyone could. In fact. The real challenge is landing a successful 30 something year old man and the type of man I mean doesn't go for younger woman, because they annoy them! They go for the put together women. The women that look like the women of friends at their pick. The Lorelei Gilmores of the world. Women that have world experience and are respected
I can’t believe ESL wine aunt is basing their attractiveness off of getting incredibly misguided and young horny 20 year old men who definitely aren’t ready for independence yet. That’s exactly why they go for naive and insecure older women, for financial security and mommying, definitely not for love. You can have them, but it will probably take them hours to pull off your big ballon granny knickers, you bag of wrinkles.
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you forgot to post this on r/femaledatingstrategy, leave >>924960
You’re old when you hit 30 years old, it’s not an inbetween thing you aren’t an immature 20 year old anymore. You become even more old when you hit 40, and when you get to 50 years old you become Michael Jackson or Whitney Houston or drink yourself slowly to death on wine(bait)
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I know no1curr but my best friend remembered my birthday and sent me a cute picture. I love her so much.
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sure granny, you’re definitely going to beat the bootstraps and rugged individualism into me that’s for sure, just like the old days, can’t wait girlboss >>924980
yes, that’s the only way for population control
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>>924960>30 years old is not young
One of these actresses is in her mid 30s, the rest are in their late 20s. Can you tell which one without googling?
Sorry about your shit genes but we aren't the same.
It’s definitely the brt
sh fatty on the far right
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I'm gonna hold you to that anon, see you in a couple years babe
This keeps happening to me lately despite being in my early 20s. People look surprised and say “I thought your were [14-17]!” and say how lucky I am. I don’t thank them, I give them a dirty look.
I can’t tell if this is supposed to be some kind of compliment that everyone has just decided to start doling out lately or if they’re serious. But if they are, it’s fucking disturbing that they can’t tell a baby-faced teen from a whole ass adult.
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>Going to pay almost 2k for dental surgery and retainers, not sure how I will be able to recover financially when a NEET sibling asks mommy for weight loss surgery because she's a lazy 27yo that never gets out of her PC
I fucking hate everything. I'm so tired, anons.
>>925011 >People say I should be grateful and I am, especially since I don't feel ready to be an adult yet
I've always had this going on and years ago I didn't mind it because mentally I felt slightly behind my peers anyway. Then by 30 I was viewing a house thinking about buying it and my ex came along to the viewing with me.. where he was mistaken for my dad. It was such an awkward mistake that we didn't even correct the guy. We viewed the house. I actually did buy it in the end but I just remember the drive home with my ex laughing at how months earlier we'd been lovers and now he's my da.
I had felt great about buying a home all by myself and the milestone that it is.. a whole new level of adult was being unlocked, and then I just felt like a kid again. People always viewing you as that much younger can lead to you having a whole complex around your own competency.
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i went to therapy for the first time in years and they didn't soundproof anything. the receptionist was much nicer to me afterward than she was at the beginning of the appointment, and i thought that was weird. my gf let me know that she could hear everything i said, and that the walls of the office are very thin. i'm going to do telehealth from home next time, but it's so humiliating to know that strangers heard about my mom molesting me when i was assured privacy in a medical setting.
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kek this black girl would always sperg about racism and race issues now she's fighting racism with even more racism and it makes her look so fucking retarded.
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it’s my birthday tomorrow and i’m so sad, i get so sad on my birthday every year. i had a party on saturday and it was fun and i’m going to the spa tomorrow, so i should be happy, but i’m filled with this huge sense of dread. i’m turning 26 and i’m really not happy with my life. i went through pretty horrific childhood abuse and my brain is still so fucked up, i should probably be on meds, also my best friend died two years ago. and now i just feel so far behind all my peers, i find it impossible to focus on anything. im also very lonely, like i have friends but they only really want to hang out if we’re drinking or doing drugs.
long story short, my life just feels really hollow. i don’t know what im doing and i am so scared. i’m scared to actually take my dreams seriously so i keep self sabotaging. i can’t believe im already 26, i remember turning 19 and feeling so much hope and freedom because i just moved out of my abusive parents house. but then my stunted brain development caught up to me. soon im going to be 30, wtf? this shit is going by so fast. i feel like i’m running out of time.
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Wow anon I am so sorry. That's completely unacceptable. Please complain.
oh god. def a violation even though it
s accidental. leave a bad review so others are aware
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No I think she's kind of retarded
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Oh god this is just too funny, someone asked me about how my ex was doing (we were briefly friends after we broke up) and I checked out his twitter out of curiousity.
I knew he'd trooned out but really, this shit is hilarious. He regularly posts shit absolutely seething about cis women, especially bi women (I'm bi lol.) He literally called them reptilians and demons and shit. This is too much!!
I don't wanna be the kind of person who hatestalks someone, especially their ex, but it's the cow factor that's making me react like this, not some sort of insecurity. I don't know. What do you think, nonnies?
I turned 27 recently and I feel the same way. I felt old when I was 20 too which is so stupid, I just continue to feel like life is passing me by
Also stealing this pick as I've never seen a more accurate representation of me
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>go to friend's birthday party
>guy keeps talking to me
>"oh anon, (friend) told me you like vidya too! What's your favorite games?"
>uhm probably the Yakuza series
>moid continues to explain the plot of the games to me
every single fucking time
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anon i'm in the same situation you are, and posted at the same time you did, but reposting to tell you you have my solidarity. you are not useless, the job market is shit. I really hope you find something that gives you enough money and at least a bit of purpose.
euuuuuuuuuuuurgh i'm so mad. my boyfriend had us move in a shithole on the other side of the country because of a job opportunity for him, but there's only tutoring jobs for me here and really few hours a week. I've depleted some of my savings for the move and basically I'm broke.
and i tore some fucking ligaments after carrying boxes and groceries and taking apart some ducts wore them when they were already fragile, and because we just moved we sleep on the floor, his is okay-ish but my mattress is so thin i feel the floor under my back. it's hard as fuck getting up from directly the floor with one leg hurt as opposed to being able to sit on a bed first.
and all i want is a fucking bed and a mattress to go on top, which i would already have bought if i could afford half of it, which i can't because i'm already not rich and going to be jobless in this hellhole, and which i can't buy used because i can't carry heavy stuff. so i don't have any place to ask for anything.
but i'm so mad. i wish he noticed that i'm fucking struggling. this fucker is just waiting for me to heal while my vertebrae scrape the floor all night, so that he can make me carry a used fucking bed up the stairs instead of having one delivered, which he could afford 10 of.
i'm so resentful. i pay half of everything and a LOT of extra stuff to be useful outside of money, i want to sleep on a fucking bed.>>925249
i like the analogy anon.
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I HATE TIME SO MUCH I’M 20 AND I’M PANICKING ABOUT TIME PASSING ME BY WITHOUT MAKING MY DREAMS COME TRUE AHHHHHHHH OR AT LEAST CULTIVATING AN INTERESTING AND FULFILLING LIFE FOR MYSELF AHHHHHHHHHH. It sucks seeing all those younger kids in the media too. 16, 17, all child prodigies. At 16 my parents were telling me to be grateful I have something to eat. And I am! But I fucking hate time, and I hate this loser feeling, like you’re a balloon that someone popped and now you’re all worn empty balloony skin, all weary and already tired. How can I be energetic again? I can’t even be alone by myself for more than one day anymore without getting incredibly depressed. If I stay in I start thinking about time passing me by and me failing to make any of my goals come true and death and AHHHHHHG I HATE TIME
Anyway, gotta move. Can’t give in to the fear EEEEEEEEEREERERRRRR
Don't even think about that shit for even a second anon. You're 20. Who gives a fuck what the youths are doing, this is your
life and your circumstances are completely unique. It is never too late for anything
. My grandma was diagnosed with type 2 diabetes and breast cancer in the same year at 55, and she turned her entire life around. Not only did she beat the diabetes and the cancer, but she became a fitness instructor!! She teaches land and water aerobics. This lady used to eat peanut butter cookies every day before bed, took naps in the middle of the day, and drank like a fish. You have your entire life to become who you want to be, there is no time limit on your dreams. Stop thinking about other people, it's not a race, it's not a competition, they don't matter in a world full of people. You have to focus on your own life and put yourself first. You're so valuable, you're obviously a passionate person, you want this, you GOT THIS. I fucking believe in you.
anon fuck the popular people on social media or in full media. a lot of these kids came from middle to upper class households who probably threw everything into the grocery cart without worry, got what they wanted for christmas, got a car, all their doctor and skincare needs met, their dental paid with vacations on top of it all. women at 20-30 who keep saying they're too old are giving into the idea that women are basically worthless for not being some e-star, wife, or successful business woman already. except women can come from broke, abusive
, druggy families who couldn't or didn't do better. please love yourself more anon I'm sure you didn't have the time or money to focus on being a cookie cutter image of today's woman. my family was the type who had enough for bills but due to medical debt we were never frivolous. it's only after I started working myself that I could buy my own stuff for creative outlets and better skincare. I'm not some rich CEO or large follower count women but it truly isn't too late to just live how you want.
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Everyday it gives me relief that if I die, I won’t have to experience my terrible life anymore and won’t be subjected to this shitty world anymore. If I die, I will finally have the total freedom I never got to have, to have no more obligations, no more unnecessary responsibility, being told where to be, having to deal with family, I will finally go back to the nothingness I came out of.
Dump him, he sounds like a self centred man baby. You need a man protects his woman, not one who whines over needing his little sockiwockies for the cinema because of his big back ouchies uwu. Would this man ever care for you if you get sick, probably not, probably complain he had no clean pantiwanties with no skidmarkiwarkies to wear out with his friends because you haven’t washed his clothes for him and have been too sick to wipe his shitty arse for him uwu. Bin him!
After some conditions that left me basically non-functional as a human being and trouble/false starts entering the job market, I only began to recover at 26 and started to thrive at 28. I know people who only started to thrive in their 30's and people who've pivoted to a new career in their 50's and 60's. It's not too late for either of you to move forward and do great things; I mean think of it this way- when you hit 30 you traditionally have more than the entire life you've so far lived to complete your career. The biggest hurdle is your own mind, especially if you have some open wounds that make it hard for you to cope with criticism, failure, setbacks, etc.
Here's what worked for me:>getting therapy- it doesn't work overnight, but having a good therapist (art therapy surprisingly worked for me) helped my wounds scar over, which in time made me less likely to slip into a dark place, made my lows much less low, helped address some of my physiological symptoms like panic attacks, and even helped me naturally stop relying on alcohol to cope with negative emotions>avoiding social comparison/focusing on milestones- some of your peers may have had a smooth path to however you define success, but chances are that many have not. life is full of setbacks and we all go at our own pace.>setting realistic goals- there are steps towards achieving any real dream. set concrete goals around the steps you can immediately reach and create a 'i can live with this' backup plan.>emotional endurance- if you try to pursue your dreams or at least reach a point of stability again, there are likely going to be many instances in the process where for some reason you feel like shit about yourself. you need to be able to just keep working through these points of self-doubt. over time as your conditions improve you'll likely be able to better distinguish when these feelings are 'all in your head' and stop experiencing them as often, or if they're the result of something like valid criticism or failure, use the situation to learn or improve, or, in the case that a situation isn't your fault (e.g. batshit insane boss) understand that you didn't do anything wrong and let it bounce off of you. being able to identify the source of a negative experience and react appropriately is really important for success>resilience- while you're trying to move forward, you'll probably experience setbacks, sometimes of your own doing, sometimes because of circumstances outside of your control, and often an interaction of both. that's totally okay. if you slip back into a hole, just try to pick up the pieces and keep going. Chances are that you've gained something from your journey, e.g. a new skill, work experience, a connection, that will make it easier to recover.
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She embodies everything I hate about Polish libfems and Polish left. I know there are worse cases out there, but I guess my resentment stems partially from the fact that I had a brief contact with her many years ago and actually liked her back then. I even agree with her on many points, but she's so fucking insufferable, fuck.
Also her art is incredibly mediocre, she had barely evolved over those years and it blows my mind it led her to becoming a minor celebrity for her cold ass libfem takes.
Sadly she's not a cow (or I'm not autistic enough to stalk her SM to check if she is), so there's no point in discussing her anywhere. I just wanted to get it off my chest.
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How annoying, they changed my teacher for the French course I’m taking, I love my other teacher, I don’t know if I will have the same dynamic as before. Then again, I was somehow too advanced for my other group and I was more of a teacher’s helper than a student.
I hope this new group isn’t too advanced either, I’m not that great with hearing comprehension.
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Overhearing boys at my university talk about girls and seeing how some of them talk on the school subreddit makes me want to wear picrel to class every single day. I never want my body to be looked at by a man for the rest of my life
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I got bad news for you.
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I want to fucking die I got long covid neurological problems edition, more and more forgetful by the month, misspel stuff, etc. I was trying my hardest to get out of neetdom again by now? Now what's the fucking point, I can't even retain what I learn. This is torture. I don't know if I should even get medical help because what's the point, brain damage is forever.
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>taking part on a tech related competition with over usd $100k in cash prices
>send a submission
>male with a social media following (40k+) makes something with a loosely similar concept but it's not too similar and his is better so I don't care. I don't have any social media following btw
>he goes on to make other submissions anyway
>then I get a really good idea totally unrelated and so I send a new submission
>same man blatantly copies my concept literally to a T this time and sends a new submission
>people are loving the concept and it's his top submission now, he takes full credit for it
>he definitely saw my submission a couple days before making his, he even gave it a like
>male is currently holding second place at the competition and will win at least usd 20k, I'm not even in the top 200 and I won't win nothing
>I don't want to stir drama and be seen as a salty loser by the community
God I fucking hate men.
I'm sorry you went through that, nonnie
I hope his dick falls off.
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i broke up with my ex girlfriend a month ago and lost all my friends. im alone all the time and i literally have nobody now. i put up with her anger issues so long bc i thought it would be worth it but now i just feel retarded lol
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Anon, you better step up and say something.
alternatively, just DM him that you see he's a fan of your work and see the scrote squirm
maybe take advantage of one of those womens visibility hashtags and tell your side of this. Wish I could help you because I cant imagine how frustrating it is.
Thank you anons, but there's nothing I can do. It's difficult to explain without giving away what it's all about but there're no rules against copying, an algorithm determines what submission is best based off of how the user interacts with it.
Of course this means that having a following gives you a huge advantage (you can prompt your followers to use your stuff). However it's still fairly common for people without any following to win these competitions, but you have to rely on having a good idea and having it blow up.
Which is what could
have happened for me had this dude not stolen my concept. I've had some of my works blow up on the platform before and I thought I had a great chance with this one.
Now there's not much of a point in people using my stuff anymore, because his does the same and users will probably find his first. Now my submission is just a similar variation of the same thing, it's not the "go to" for this feature anymore.
I don't think there's anything I can do, but I'm bummed reading the comments praising the main feature of his submission (a literal carbon copy of mine), and seeing people tell him that it's groundbreaking and amazing and stuff. It just sucks.
Also idk how to explain, but this feature will probably start to show up a lot in this medium because it's just so nice of an idea. I was just the first one to do it, doesn't mean that I "own" it.
I just wanted to have my moment with it, get a few followers, get my submission into the top 200 at least. But he's the one having the moment as if he had created it, and that's what's so frustrating. People with big followings do go crazy when someone copies them, but they have an army of supporters and I don't. I'd just be burning bridges.
Thank you so much for your words though, I just wanted to cry and vent, and I needed some kindness.
It hits hard because lately I've had too many cases of "I worked too hard for nothing" back to back lol.
break up w him nonnie
he sounds like a piece of shit, and i'm proud of you.
>>925901>but there's nothing I can do.
You can complain really loudly about it, it won't win the competition but might make him look bad.
Appeal to pathos.
Anon, I'm so happy for you getting better and recovering so well and also not falling for that bullshit the toxic
people in your life try to feed you.
Not many are able to be so strong in a situation like this, so I'm relieved to see that you're able to be your own supporter when you can't rely on anyone else. I hope you keep it up, you deserve to get better.
Also, you already know that, but that fat scrote has zero value. It's time to clean up that moldy moid and live your life.
you guys are right. i talked to him and he's getting us an actual bed today.
as for where his money is going, he simply doesn't spend it on anything. i'm quite frugal too, which is the reason he gave me ("i thought you wanted to heal your leg and then find a used bed"), which doesn't excuse having me sleep on the fucking floor when my ligaments are torn.
i am really mad but money matters are so delicate and i always have trouble depending on someone else or asking for money even when someone owes me.
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Fucking shit like this. Posting pictures post-surgery, then having the energy to cry about follower count. You sell fucking jewelry FFS.
Of course, I proceeded to unfollow.
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I'm really sorry nonnie
, the rules of this competition sounds so unfair. I know it's not helping but please remeber that at the end of the day you are the one who got this 20k idea. the scrote might never get another good idea like that for the rest of his stupid life but you will because it came from you naturally. Let spit alone hold you aloft for a while and try again and agin. You obviously have a lot of potential and I'm afraid that this event will make you reconcider your path, you got this, I believe in you!
Do you think you would be ok ok with using social media in the futur ?
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I just found out I'm 7 weeks pregnant and I have both smoking weed and drinking before I found out. I am so fucked.
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the baby if u keep it
If you don't want it, pennyroyal and lots of vitamin C can help flush it.
If you want it, check in with your doc.
there is a radical feminist I'm subscribed to on youtube. I originally found her through other radfems I was subscribed to, even though I'm not a radfem. I like her videos that are responding to TRAs and stuff like that, and they're usually pretty good and well researched. that being said, she's also a conspiracy theorist and likes to make like 10 or so community posts every day, often times about stuff that isn't even related to radical feminism. she's antivaxx, and even though I'm vaxxed myself I still support people's decisions not to get vaxxed. that being said, I am getting really tired of the fear mongering by antivaxxers, especially because of how much they complain about provaxxers fearmongering. she straight up said that covid isn't even real, and that the whole "scamdemic" is just part of the war on women. she makes a shit ton of community posts every day about how the vaccine was made to decrease population size and shit like that. I'm getting really tired of seeing it, also because when I scroll through my subscriber feed on youtube I do so because I want to see what the channels I'm subscribed to are uploading that day, but all I see is her posting screenshots from articles being like WAKE UP EVERYONE!!!! BILL GATES MADE THE MODERNA VACCINE SO HE COULD KILL US!!!! oh yeah and she always types in all caps, which seems to be a thing with radfems. it's just stressing me out at this point and I feel bad unsubscribing because I've been subscribed to her for so long and she almost feels like a pseudo-friend because we've interacted a lot of times but I am getting so tired of this shit.
I’ve had a migraine since Monday morning and my head hurts, prescribed med aren’t working, nausea. Light sensitivity. Head throbbing. The weed isn’t working. My doc hasn’t called me back.
Someone bash my head in so I can finally be at peace over 48 hours of severe pain
I really hope you can leave soon, nonnie
, i have a friend who is in the same situation as you are and she’s still getting guilt tripped by her family.
I don’t get why people get kids when they can’t take care of them nor even keep at least a few actually hired maids around.
You are so strong though, for standing up for what you need. I hope you give yourself the time and space to heal!
Also, I know therapy isn’t for everyone, but it may help you.
Same anon, sorry to keep going on about this but the fucker just had the nerve to message me asking me how I made my stuff because he just realized that his stuff is only working on Android and not working at all on iPhone, and he doesn't know how to solve it. I obviously ignored him.
Sadly he'll probably figure out the solution eventually, but jfc the absolute lack of shame.
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I hope that you'll continue to thrive. Don't think back on time wasted or what could have been, you are here now and the world is now your oyster. There is so much time ahead of you to enjoy your life and be surrounded and loved by people who truly care for you and will help you succeed. I wish the absolute best for you anon.
if i could give you a big hug or dance with you i would, i’m honestly so happy for you even though you have a lot of grief to process, i just hope that you do it for your younger self and don’t give up on finding someone. your innocence, love, kindness, trust, and vulnerability is what makes you so beautiful and enjoy life so much, like another anon said please do not look back and keep projecting your beauty onto him, and also do not close of your heart or faith in love please. you spent ten years growing and learning about yourself and other people, that’s not wasted time and it saved you from spending one more day with him, and also will save you in the future. don’t let anyone else write your narrative, or try to manipulate you into bringing them into your present tense. i know you’ll be happy, you’re way too good for him and you need to cherish yourself for following what you thought you wanted through, and strengthen your loyalty to yourself first. this is a really good time to do therapy or some workbooks about attachment, assertive communication, self esteem, etc which everyone could use. you’re able to be your best self now and i’m so proud of you.
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I'm so depressed but I have deadlines coming up. Yet I can't do anything, I just wanna curl up in a ball and die, I don't know what I'm doing, I do not wish to be perceived, I do not wish to deal with my problems, and I also know that some of this is just because my mood is fucked because of menstruation. I want to go out and get fucked up and maybe make out with someone but I don't even have good friends I could get a favor from. I don't think there'll be a day where I can become a condifent adult woman, I'm already 29.
God you're an insufferable shitstain, I hate your type who professes to be pro-women but then tears them down for being hurt by men. Hypocrite. Anon was a literal child when she got in the relationship and hoped it would work out like every other person on the planet, yes how foolish. As if she was supposed to exit the womb with all the radblr programming you've carefully curated despite growing up in an emotionally abusive
relationships on top of having an ed
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What's that mental issue called when you take any potential rejection really fucking hard?
Happens to me constantly. I'll ask someone if they're available at the weekend, they say they aren't and I get so mad my first thing is just to repress the urge to lash out, I'll say "ok <3 " real quick before I'm passive aggressive then seethe for the rest of the day, every so often checking their rejection text to refresh that pain.
Today, I had plans but the person asked if it was OK to cancel because they were exhausted. A first for them, but I said that same reason at least 5x before to cancel on them so I shouldn't be mad, right? My hands were shaking as I texted back saying all good and my cheeks were burning I was so, so angry. I thought about cutting them off. I thought about messaging that I'll drop their stuff off to at least imply I'll cut them off. This guy is someone I'm a few months into dating and physically exclusive with, but I spent the last hour on tinder because I figured why not? Like my first reaction is to want to say "fuck you anyway" and cut them out of my life.
Not only do I feel like a toxic mess, but also I'm emotionally PISSED, how DARE HE.
I don't think they're in the wrong though. It's hypocritical to judge someone negatively for doing exactly as I've done, on a higher level I know that it's not personal. On a guttural level they may as well have stabbed me.
Like, putting myself in their shoes, if someone asked me if I was available at the weekend and I already had plans so I say no…if I found out that they were raging, seething at me and pacing around because I said I couldn't see them this weekend I'd think they're a fucking psycho.
I thought I did love myself enough, but maybe not.
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it was such a mistake for me to do a postgraduate degree. I should be finished by now but because of my shitty mental health issues and being just a general useless crybaby nutcase I have had extensions for all of my assignments. I just have my dissertation to finish now but it just feels like an impossible hurdle to surmount. I'm also working part time and I get so upset when I remember that my free time technically still isn't my own and that I should be finishing the assignment, which makes me angry and even less likely to sit down that day and work at it. I just want this to be over so I can enjoy my time again
Don’t worry, anon, I once almost wrote a novel which was like fifty shades of grey but shittier, I’m glad my mom told be that they were too similar before I even started actually writing it.
Sometimes some ideas just happen to be similar because that’s just how it goes, please don’t discard your idea because it’s similar to something that was already made, you could try tweaking it until you feel like it’s only yours again.
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>want to message a friend
>but our last few conversations have been started by me
>and they all petered out with me left on read
>feeling anxious that i'm losing them because we talked every single day for a straight few months
fuck fuck fuck FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK
this is super late but thank you nonny
, this really means a lot! i am slowly healing but i need to trust the process.
it's especially odd because i'm not relying on them for anything but housing + food, and i don't even eat that much (plus i do all the chores and etc.)
i'm getting refund $$$ from my school, and currently have like ~9k just pooling in the bank. these people need to leave me alone
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I seriously need to make some mf friends, my bf turned down an offer from me to hang out because he's playing games online with his friends, he literally TOLD me two days ago that he was going to be doing that today and my dumbass forgot, and I'm still seething unreasonably because I have no fucking friends of my own and rely on him way too much for attention and approval.
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People I know tell me I'm pretty, and I know I can look good if I put effort in my appearance and lose a few pounds, but I'm starting to give up on the idea of dating someone hot because I have adult acne and I feel that ruins any other effort I could make. Sometimes I look at myself in the mirror and I feel so gross, like it doesn't matter if I tried to look pretty because I can't get rid of my pizza face.
Sometimes I'm talking with relatives about anything else and then out of nowhere they'll give me tips for my acne.
Bitch, I have enough common sense not to interrupt your conversation to point out that you're a fat ass and yet you have the nerve to talk to me like I don't look at my face in the mirror every fucking day.
I'll have to settle down I guess. It kills my motivation to even try to lose weight. Fml
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I should never have made up a race of sexy male only aliens. How do I cope knowing I will never fuck them
I don't remember at the moment, lat time I used now was before the pandemic, but one was a soap without perfume and some water that I had to spray on my face.>>926606
I heard about the diet before but I have never tried. It's time to look more into it. Thanks anon!
I've been there with really bad cystic acne anon, I'm so sorry. They're wrong for it. I hate it. I'd get told 'drink more water, never eat chocolate, don't eat red meat' and asked if I washed my face. Fuckers. Meanwhile I was already doing everything I could to make it go away. I ended up having to go to a dermatologist. Prescription oral antibiotics and topical cream helped a bit but not majorly. It wasn't until I went on accutane that it cleared up. Several years have passed since then, and I haven't had a single acne spot come up. It's considered a last ditch effort when other methods aren't working, and I felt like I was dying while on it. Can't say I regret it, but I sincerely hope less extreme treatment helps you and any other anons dealing with this. Or at least that you guys don't have the side effects from it I did.
A lot of people are ignorant and don't understand hormonal or cystic acne. I try to understand that they're trying to help, but some of the shit they'd say was so backhanded and hurtful. Unprompted, too.
I promise you can find someone how you are currently. Hang in there!
I'm the first anon you replied to.
I've had occasional hormonal acne flares up due to PCOS, but it's not as bad as it was before since I've been using benzoyl peroxide. It's not expensive and you can find it with 2.5% or 5% concentration, depends on how bad your acne is. Also, washing my face with salicylic acid made a huge improvement.
Remember to find a proper moisturizer for you skin type because benzoyl peroxide can make your skin a bit dry. Personally, I use grapeseed oil because it's good for acne-prone skin, helps fading scars and evens out your skin tone.
Good luck, nonnie
. Manifesting you having flawless skin. ♥
anon omg no… please drive a state over and take a friend with you to drive you home, it will be hard and exhausting but so is everything involved with having children and bringing them into this world. if you aren’t ready it’s ok, I’m sorry where you are makes it so fucked in the head to access safe and legal care for your health at this time. best of luck regardless of your decision. also, >>925959
this advice seemed interesting, god willing I’ll never have to test this myself as I hate the D but if you take advice related, post updates if it works, I’m now curious.
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Thank you for the sweet replies anons! I'm working toward my dream room now, I got a new job at a bakery and I'm living with my fiance. He really likes the way I decorate and we're excited to save up and get some cute furniture. In the mean time we have some stuff from yard sales and thrift stores that I've painted and even though things don't match, I'm really happy. I've got lots and lots of fairy lights now too! I still hurt a lot when I think about how I was living such a short while ago, but I'm in a new phase of my life and I'm excited to move on from all of that.
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Oh, so you hate yourself? You must also hate me to burden me with that knowledge for no fucking reason.
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The last 3 - 4 years have been a complete hell for me. Every aspect of my life has gone to absolute shit and I have lost complete faith in myself. My family is broken and we're all strangers at this point. College has been rough and the transition from high school to college broke me. Everyday I wake up tired, filled with self-loathing, and extremely low self-esteem. I reached the point where I allowed myself to enter a pretty shitty relationship where the guy either doesn't care or just uses more for emotional supply. I didn't care either way because I just wanted some small scrap of happiness. In the end, I have no idea who I am anymore and I'm essentially a husk.
However, I'm going try to turn this around and start over. I don't see this as some blazing new beginning but simply acceptance. My life is shit and probably was always shit. I just denied it because I thought if I internalized it then I wouldn't have the strength to keep going. I always feared what would happened if my life fell apart like my parents did, now I don't have to imagine.
I'm still here.
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>>926610Hello, fellow Dallas anon.>>926628
I agree. It's road trip time.
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i don't remember the covid thread being as autistic as it's been the past few weeks and i hope whatever boochie juju they cast to uptake the amount of antivax tards wears off soon
essential oils aren't going to save your greasy neet ass becky and retail workers like me don't want to deal with your tantrum throwing so yes all you moronic sludge piles should've remained unfertilized eggs in your mothers wombs. hopefully you never leave your moms basement for more than hours at a time so the real world doesn't have to deal with your delusions. have fun fapping to your ugly anime men
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why can't i watch a single music video without someone in the comments talking about how much their dead mom loved this song
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Indian Parents, a concerning number of Indian parents don't know how basic biology and genetics work. They blame their own kids for being short, ugly and dark skinned despite the fact that we are their own children and we have no control over our features.
They make us eat shit food with no protein content, and are most of the times fat themselves.
Superstitions make things a lot worse for us, parents think exercise shortens peoples height and life span, they talk about Ayurvedic products when the whole Ayurvedic industry is filled with fake products.
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I just hate living in a third world country in general. It just sucks so bad. Thankgod I have a supportive and caring family to make up for this shithole we live in.
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my boyfriend and I have been having some mild problems and last night I dreamt that we bumped into his ex (she had the real name of one of his exes but looked like a combination of all of them) and my boyfriend referred to her as "the love of [his] life", so I ran away and left them to it and nobody came after me. I hate my brain why has this upset me so much
At least you didn't jack off to it
But yea, it's disturbing how these things have become "normal"
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I wasted so much of my 20s just coasting through life because I was so apathetic and nihilistic about the world due to the ridiculous trauma i faced as a child and teen. (parent dying out of the blue, constant homelessness and having to sleep on the floor at friends/family houses most of my life yada yada) So by the time i got to my early 20s i was miserable, depressed and just gave up on myself and the world. It makes me so sad because I wish I was more confident and less depressed. I understand why i was so miserable back then (losing your mom as a teen doesnt stop fucking with you just because you have a 2 in front of your age) but i wish I couldve shaken myself and said "bitch its gonna get better just keep going and try new things" instead i would just go to work and come home for years. Rarely buying myself anything nice because growing up in poverty made me hoard what little earnings i made. Even then i'd just give all my money away to my family so i stopped caring to buy myself things even further. Which is why most of my clothes now are from 6 or 7 years ago some even older lol. Flash forward to 27 year old me. I was able to move to the city i wanted, I have a nice apartment now, and a shitty but painfully easy and decent paying job but i STILL feel like a failure. It also doesnt help the constant pressure people in my life put on me. When i would work and quit jobs because they exacerbated my depression i was told "stop quitting jobs it doesnt look good /you seem lazy and like you dont want to work" NOw that i've been at my current job for 3 years everyone is saying "why do you still work there? isnt it time to move on? why dont you try going back to schoool" But also at the same time I can't quit because they'll say "why did you quit you need another job lined up" But i've applied to about 100 jobs while here and every time they ask for an interview its during work hours or when i m traveling home it sucks!! I've left work early so many times just for the "interview" to be a prelim interview and the REAL interview is at another inconvienent time when i have work. Its just annoying because the goal post literally is ALWAYS shifting when it comes to me. Its frustrating because i never once have gotten to sit back and be proud of myself and how far I came with what little resources and help I had. I literally could find the cure for cancer and im preetty sure someone in my life will say "okay but what about aids?" Like stooop why cant people just be fine with me doing the bare minimum to get by LMAO. Like i had a hard ass life i didnt start feeling like i could relax until 25!!! THAT WAS 2 YEARS AGO! EVEN THEN I COULDNT RELAX because people have been asking me to quit my job and find a career the second i got my first apartment. And DONT get me started on people asking me when im gonna get a car. Like WHO CAN AFFORD A CAR AND RENT IN AMERICA IN ONE OF THE MOST EXPENSIVE CITIES IN THE WORLD IN 2021!! you gotta pick your poison. I do need to quit though but like its easier said than done finding a new job especially when literally most people in america are without work.
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I used to hold off on posting a lot of stuff on here in ot bc I knew my twin sister browsed here and I didn’t want her to worry about me because I knew she’d be able to pick out my posts. She just fucking died yesterday so now I don’t have to worry. I am a wreck but at least I can freely post online.
sorry for your loss! can’t believe we lost a fellow farmer
did you feel her death? ive heard twins can be super close emotionally.
Sorry for your loss
I have a coworker who has their last week this week, but I work with them Saturday and I am desperately trying to switch my shifts around or give the shift away. I can't stand her anymore. She is one of those girls who if you call out, she goes around and tells people you're faking and it's just to fuck with her since she's the supervisor. That type of awful person. She also harasses another coworker of mine and I've reported her, over her asking every day "do you have weed on you??" and it was making the girl super uncomfortable. Not to mention that any manager discussions, she tells the normal coworkers about, when some of the discussions involve bringing up names to let everyone know who has had a corrective issue, so that going forward, if someone needs that same issue corrected again, it's a write-up. Basic fucking shit. She also doesn't do her job and any bad closes she has, she blames on the other coworkers and takes into no account her lack of leading. She got transferred in and we are finally transferring her out. I hope she has a shitty time and that manager at her new store tears her up [they are known for being strict and we've already let him know about how she pretends to not know how to do things, to get away with not doing stuff].
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I’m such a dumb cheesy retard but i can’t believe I told a guy I liked him without being sure and then my brain is actually hurt that he said he had a girlfriend, not sure any of that made sense but I don’t want it to matter but my mind can’t help but being hurt why is this happening it literally doesn’t even matter. I didn’t expect anything to happen but it hurts, why?
i go through the same feelings (like that weight of a super heavy wet blanket on you constantly, helplessness, loss) and every time i go to my obgyn, they tell me it's "normal pms" and that i just have to up my antidepressants.
i hate to be a self-diagnoser or w/e but looking it up and researching it, seems like i have premenstrual dysphoria disorder and it seems like you might too.
Men think they are slick pointing out the flaws of women in society, when it not only doesn't offend me because I know it either doesn't apply to me or isn't a flaw to be ashamed of, but also because it will never amount to the horrendous flaws of men. They can call women whores, sluts, degenerate, fat and ugly, but they can never claim we rape and murder in response to the same issues. They can call us emotionally immature and irrational, but it will never align with reality, in which men respond to inconveniences with violence. They can complain about women being promiscuous, but they cannot deny that the people these women have sex with are willing men. They can complain about women having an OnlyFans, but they cannot deny the consumers of OnlyFans are men. Men either have to approve of rape or admit that rape is a crime essentially exclusively committed by men. Humanity cannot progress until this problem is truly addressed, but this would require a radical shift in societal structures.
Yeah they paid up for my last win before suspending me, thank god. I might've gone Rambo at their offices if they didn't. My fiancée is currently drafting up an email taking cue from SJWs and framing this as them unfairly judging an autistic woman and her special interest and threatening to go public with this lmao. I have no such intention of going public ofc but my partner used to work in marketing for a few big companies so she knows how to spin things.>>927220
Most people on these sites are drunken idiots taking wild guesses so when they're dealing with people like me it gets complicated. I've lurked on sports forums for years now and it's actually quite common for bans and suspensions to be handed out if you're too successful. Annoying thing is there probably is some cleverly worded bullshit stating they can do this in the terms and agreements but of course I've never read them kek. Oh well, I have other websites I can use at least.
Weaponized autism. Love to see it, good for you nonnie
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I've read an interview with a local Lil Peep wannabe. That little cunt had the gall to whine how the sexualization of mental illness is a SERIOUS issue… when he realized that cause Lil Peep has fangirls loving him because of his suicidal soft boi thing (cause it makes him relatable). Whiny bitch, I hope all of your scrote idols neck themselves. The sexualization of women's mental illness literally goes centuries back and even nowadays, in the 'therapy is self-care uwu' climate leads to shit like anorectic girls abuse porn. But god forbid some '17 year old' relates to Peep wanting to sudoku (or whatever) more than his ~ironic~ boasts about what big dick he has. That is the real problem in the world!!! Stupid bitches supposedly sexualizing a dead rapper in their thoughts. I swear that faggot was doing a classic misogynist gatekeep under the guise of muh mental health awareness
Thank you nonny
Ah shit, yeah I didn't think about how gambling websites are already seen as trash. Can't believe I never thought about placing losing bets to throw them off the scent though, nonny
you're a genius!
I'm sorry anon. I told mine about the trauma in advance. Due to covid my partner wasn't able to come in and hold my hand during the exam, but a really sweet nurse was instead. If it helps, you could ask for similar.
I wish I had better advice. Please take care.
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I fully expect to get made fun of for this entire confession-vent-whatever, but I have no idea where to cement myself online as a creator.
While I do ascribe to radfem ideology and hate weird gender shit, I'm also into a LOT of weird anime shit that would have me strung up by radfems.
However, I'm finally getting tired of posting my cute femboy doodles or whatever and having like, ten trannies + he/they women in the comments taking it as "representation" or whatever. The only reason why said he/they women aren't on my ass about it all is because I'm going by they/them myself just to avoid "fetishization" accusations.
This post is an absolute mess but I'm – tired. I don't want to lose my audience, but I also want to maybe gain some actual art friends (and just friends in general) to pal around with on twitter. I don't want to have to tip-toe around them either.
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I'm in my late 20's and I've fallen in love for the first time and it's literally the worst pain I have ever endured, including sexual assault, the deaths of people extremely close to me, etc. He loves me too, but he's very literally fucking insane and nightmare mode difficulty. He's got severe mental health issues, unaddressed trauma, and drug problems. We've only been dating since July but he's already been verbally abusive on multiple ocassions and one was particularly scary. Like I almost wondered if he was gonna hit me (he didn't). Despite all this, I'm completely enamoured with him, though. I've never enjoyed someone's company anywhere near this much and I just want to be around him all the time.
>inb4 just dump him
I wish it were that simple and I tried but my heart genuinely couldn't take it. This is only gonna end if he ends it and I'll probably just gonna end up committing suicide. I'm direly pathetic, I know.
It feels like I'm in some kind of prison and I can't take it anymore.
this is more common than you think nonnie
. I'm a creator who feels the exact same and is doing the exact same as you to avoid harassment. I wish we could all find each other somehow
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Fucking addicted to masturbation because I'm so stressed, I was doing good not watching porn but I'm right back on my shit. I did it 4 times today and still thinking about sex. My fuckin pussy stinks from masturbating too many times in a day. I'm scared my roomates can hear me turning n my vibrator every hour but the feeling is overtaken by horny frustration. I'm so ashamed of my self
If there was a Normie Button™ that had appeared during the crossroads moment of my life between me growing up to be a positive, well-adjusted person with typical hobbies and quite a strong interest in other people and their lives, and me being the jaded dirty mopey antisocial shut-in that i am to make the move towards the "normie" lifestyle, i would've smashed that shit with a crowbar so hard. My parents gave me unlimited and unrestricted access to the Internet snce an early age, and my main problem with that now isn't really so much that I saw horrible things that I wish I could unsee (although that's also true), it's that it forced me to create community with people who were as terminally online as i was, like my tribe could only really be people as fucked and loser-ish as i am. As entertaining and funny as l.f and other places can be, I really just wish I wasn't so in my head with my interests and ways in which i think I'm so radically different from people (which are completely made up and in my head).
Now, I would've loved to just be blissfully ignorant of anything happening online. I literally don't have a life elsewhere. But I just don't know how - or even if - i can go back. Because, as I've said, this has been my whole life. I don't know anything else. Like, what the fuck do people do for fun? Can't answer that.
Hopefully one day I'll get so for-real fed up with my own laziness and moroseness that I pull the plug to my router and stop giving a fuck about anything that happens outside of my immediate experienced reality.
Anon I want to assure you that you will not commit suicide, but rather sit in disgust about how much time you wasted on a scrote who doesn't give a damn about you.
Obviously, you're free to your feelings but this guy doesn't give two shits about what happens to you, and like it or not there will come a day where you grow sick of it. I just hope that time comes before this asshole tries to up the ante of his assaults, or before you drive away all your support systems who gave up on saving you.
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so sad that my friends haven't been messaging me (after months of straight talking every day) that i'm contracting a stress headache. this is so dumb
My dad got intoxicated from eating something rotten or something and the whole day has been extremely stressful with doctors coming in and out of the house, but now my stress level is through the roof because apparently my mom has been in direct contact with him\ his feces and also cooking without telling us and now I'm afraid of ending up vomiting too because the idiot couldn't just tell me to cook myself and now she may have infected everything we've been eating, she even washed the dishes ffs. I'm emetophobic and I have OCD, this shit is making me go into a crisis.
I am also on my period, which makes everything even worse, and our washing machine is damaged so everything that he messes with vomit\diarrhea we cannot wash it unless it's by hand, it's also raining so there could be a power outtake at any time. I hate my life and I'm sick of thinking that it will get better, I wish i had the courage to kill myself and escape from whatever curse is ruining my life. I wish God just had a little compassion for me and my family, we have been trough a lot, and i just want to live without thinking someone will die or something fucked is going to happen, I'm sick of pretending the world isn't trying its best to drive me to suicide.
keep it up youre KILLIN it nonny
I've checking lolcow more than usual, every 5 minutes exactly. That really tells you how stressed am I.>>927353
I thought mods banned your ass
I wish I could move out of this apartment sooner. My ex girlfriend and I have been broken up for a while now, and things are just constantly getting worse. 2 days ago I found a used meth pipe in her her jean pocket that she'd left on the bathroom floor, where my kitten could have easily found it. I'm in recovery and she has been relapsing our entire relationship… I'm stupid for thinking she would ,really commit to quitting, she's clearly not ready. We were both clean when we got together, for what it's worth.
Anyway I just found used heroin foils in her purse, and her 2 week script of suboxone that she got 4 days ago is gone. Snooping is shitty yeah but ever since finding that meth pipe I've been losing my mind.
Tried to talk to her about it, and she blatantly lies, tries to shift the blame, and gaslight me.
Yesterday she texted me to let me know that her "friends" AKA dealers were coming over while I was at work. I was furious, but couldn't do anything because I'm terrified of making the situation worse. I'm so worried about her smoking drugs in this house with a fucking KITTEN who is not only inhaling whatever fumes, but gets into EVERYTHING and ex-gf is careless as fuck leaving drugs and paraphernalia where my kitten can totally get to them.
I was homeless for a few years and still trying to build my life back, I don't have a car and have been using hers to work (delivery driver). I have to stay on good terms with her for the next 2 or so months until I save enough money to rent a U-Haul and drive across the country with my belongs and cat (to my only family member's house. God bless her fucking heart). Saving money has been hard lately because somehow she is always short on her half of rent, in spite of working full time. I had suspicions for a while, I guess at least I know I'm not imagining things.
It's going to be a long couple of months. Just hoping nothing happens to my cat, that would be devastating. I've got to get her out of here as soon as fucking possible. Sorry about the retarded rant. Hope all you nonnies are well.
i just wish i had a job, all my uni friends already have their lives sorted out and are working for nice companies and growing in life while i’m here living like a loser, unemployed, with my parents. it’s not like i don’t try, at this point i must have an addiction problem because i keep constantly checking my emails and job hunting websites, i’ve been to several interviews and im always looking for ways to improve my cv and networking, still nothing works. i feel so miserable, there’s nothing worse than having to go through those kinds of interviews that have several steps and it’s all so stressful just for them to tell you that you’re not good enough at the end.
my love life simply doesn’t exist, there’s not one men in my shitty city who i feel interested in, the ones i actually like end up finding someone better than me to settle down after a few dates. and i don’t understand why, i’m not unattractive and as far as i know i have a pleasant personality, and yet i always end being replaced for someone else.
i feel like my life would improve if i started taking care of my physical health, ever since covid started i became extremely skinny because i just stay inside all day and don’t eat much since i barely spend any energy. i want to start working out and exercising but i don’t have enough motivation, i always think “tomorrow i’ll walk a few kilometers” and then when tomorrow comes i just don’t do anything.
Anon I know how you feel. Please don’t compare yourself to your friends, it helps no one and only makes you feel worse. It’s hard not to be jealous, but we are all on different paths in life, and one day you will get to where you need to be and there will be a friend who looks at you and feels the same way. You can only see what others want you to see. Job hunting and interviewing sucks, it absolutely sucks. It’s soul sucking, its moral destroying, it’s just god awful, so there is nothing wrong with you. At this point, I just think it comes down to dumb luck of applying at the right moment for that right person to see it, and the right people to see that you have potential worth investing in.
As for working out, if you can’t bring yourself to leave the house for a walk, why not follow workout videos on youtube? Not the strenuous ones because I find that I get overexcited, too tired, then burnt out, but simple stretching or yoga videos, even just a 5 minute one. I followed easy stretching videos for over a year before I finally started actually working out in the mornings, which was recently. But even now I do very easy workouts! Consistency is key, and you can ease yourself in as slowly as you want.
Keep on moving forward anon. You will get to where you want to be one day. I’m rooting for you!
I mean, unless you’re going to die in the next week, you still got a long way to go. I also had issues with deepening my relationships with others, but I met my current best friend in college and also deepened my relationship with a friend who I didn’t even talked to during our school days.
You might feel comfortable in the future as you talk with different people, specially if you just happen to click with someone, which is something that always happens unexpectedly.
How does anything you just said make sense… you say he's projecting his kinks on you, sounds like he's just being himself and you don't like it. If anything, you're the one who made assumptions, like apparently because he looked cute and tall on tinder (???) he's dominant and should somehow know you're a sub?
bdsmfags really are retarded huh, I guess voluntarily degrading yourself messes with your brain a bit.
Do you speak spanish?
You're just hurting yourself at this point. Cut contact with her. It's like you're punishing yourself. You owe her nothing.
I don't speak Spanish but English isn't my first language, if my post was a bit garbled.
You're right though, all this is doing is hurting myself. I'm always gonna worry about how she's doing, but I have to admit I was in a better head space when we weren't in touch. Not to mention a lot richer without her inventing a new sob story every week.
I get really sad when I see underage girls or even young women you a historic of multiple partners or hookups ( high body count as some say). There is this 19yo I know who claims to have hooked up with 50+ guys and girls, most of those guys were already +18 while she was still a minor ( not a crime tho since the age of consent in my country is like 14). Like, I live in a relatively smalls city were almost everyone either know each other or is 1 or 2 handshakes away from knowing each other. Prior to personally knowing her I have already heard of her past "partners", so basically her fame preceded her. What saddens me is that this girl of only 19 was took advantage by multiple scrotes, and now she has this "easy girl" fame, so almost every guy will approach her like "she is one of those girls". I mean were the fuck her parents are? Didn't she had any friends to help her? She will be treated as disposable by every new partner she will have because no scrote would "officially date the town bicycle", they will only treat her as "one night stand material" and that's it, and the biggest problem is that she doesn't realize that, it seems that her whole identify became this incessant hooking up with new partner each month. I can't say she has any psychological problem,and I'm not a psychologist or learned in the subject, but I don't think this kind of behavior will do any good for her mental health or had already messed her up a bit. Call me prude if you want for "slutshaming" her, but young girls should be more protected from this sort of male predatory behavior.
It’s honestly sad when that happens, I had a friend who was treated like an easy target and even though I talked to her about it and told her that it was bad because men are retarded, she never listened.
Her parents and family would also tell her to take care of herself, they even got her condoms when they just knew it was impossible to change her mind.
She got pregnant anyways and the faggot didn’t want to recognize the kid as his, because he already had 4 kids with his wife who wanted to beat up my friend.
In the end it’s kind of difficult to find a way to make them stop their behavior because they were groomed by multiple men, I don’t even know what kind of psychologists could help, then again, she didn’t have the money for psychological help from a professional.
But still, it’s something that they have to recognize that they were groomed first so they can understand that they need help.
And like, it’s so shitty the whole thing, she wasn’t even trying to fuck random men, they were her boyfriends even if the majority were just grooming her with gifts but at least they asked her to go out with them
for different periods of time, but men would still treat her like shit, calling her a whore and telling other men about fucking her as if she was some sort of trophy.
I hate men and I hope all of the men that messed up with her get erectile disfunction and their balls kicked really hard, but I particularly hope that he man who got her pregnant gets beaten up on a daily basis, fucking bus driver lowlife dirty blood faggot.
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Some fuck from India reopened my facebook. How did I find out? Not from one of those "we noticed you signed in from a new browser!" emails, no, it was from a "welcome back!" email because my facebook has been deactivated for over 2 years (I only keep it for messenger). I remember once when I tried to log in from a new computer it didn't recognize, it forced me to do all these questions where it would pull up tagged friends and shit and make me answer who was who. How do you not flag a login from not only a new browser, but FROM A COUNTRY I'VE NEVER LOGGED IN FROM???
Yeah I know facebook sucks and expecting the bare minimum means disappointment but fuck. I'm not really as much mad as someone hacking in (they only had access for about 2 hours before I woke up and saw the email) as much as I'm mad about the existence of my facebook account and it being reactivated. No one will read my comment but when I deactivated it again I wrote that I only came back in because they failed to stop someone from hacking in, and I was deactivating it again because it's been that way for 2 years and I have zero desire to ever come back to using it.
That sucks anon, I don't think you're dramatic at all. You not only deal with stupid ideology at school but also at home. I feel so bad for your generation having to deal with gender bs in school (well at least for the few ones that are smart enough to see through the bs). I couldn't handle it.
Remember that you can choose who you associate with after school and things will be better. I hope you find some like-minded people soon.
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I am really fucking mad that forums in the balkans have died out. Boomers just stick to facebook and I don't want to make one. Teens stick to instagram, whatsapp and some gamers use discord, all of those are horrible for discussion.
I have almost nobody to talk with about a ridiculous TV show "Catholic Sacred Inquisition - CSI" where a tamagochi falls into a toilet and becomes a mutated monster and a nun fighting ninjas with a guitar has to look for it.
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Seeing people unironically defend this sadistic old fuck online is making me want to a-log so bad. Not only do you have to be sick, but you have to be real fucking stupid to let the critique on poverty and class go over your head. It wasn't even subtle. Fucking retards.
I'm in the same boat nonnie
, except I need to eat something desperately. If you haven't done anything yet let's try to hold each other accountable.
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I don’t really know what to think and if I could help my cousin, but he has been acting terribly weird, my family has always helped him and his older brother because we’re family, duh.
But my cousin keeps disregarding any help we give to him, like, my brother paid some courses for him to do online, but he dropped them because it had boring stuff. And his older brother also paid for another course for him, and he also dropped that course because it had boring stuff.
Like, why can’t he understand that dropping out of a course because it has some stuff that you don’t care about, is fucking idiotic? Just do your thing and then use your knowledge in the future, and maybe it’s not as boring as it seems.
I’m almost done with my career and it had boring stuff too, and stuff that I thought would be boring but that I ended up learning about and caring about because I’m a fucking woman who grew up her teenage idiocy.
And he won’t finish his thesis because it’s boring as well like, what? He’s 26 years old, he’s a fucking adult as well, why won’t he just do what he has to do?
We’re not rich, doesn’t he know that he needs a tittle to get a job? Or is there like some sort of super special club for computer technicians thing something that hires anyone who is decent at programming?
Like, my older cousin even got him a contact from some Microsoft dude who is like a third cousin of them or something like that, and the Microsoft dude told him that it was cool, that my younger cousin could get in if he gets his diploma.
But what did he say?
>I don’t like Microsoft, I prefer insert another software company
Bitch, he’s getting you a fucking job at a recognized company, it’s not a fucking option.
Is there like a way for me to convince him to finish his studies or something? He listens to me for some reason, I don’t know if this would work though.
He’s also addicted to weed, I hate weed and anyone who consumes that shit.
No I've literally seen people say shit like>he just wanted to have fun like he was a kid again! He was living his best life!>b-but he gave them another chance! (who cares if he preyed on financially destitute people who barely had anything to live for)>they consented to the game! (never mind the fact that he killed 200 people in the first game before they knew that being "eliminated" meant dying)
Probably most of them haven't finished the series yet but too many people than I can ignore think the old man dindu nuffin.
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I don't know what my issue is with food lately. I'm proud of myself because I've been exercising regularly for the past several months and can see more muscle even under the fat I have. It's not excessive but I'd like to drop a solid 10 lbs and I'd be at a point where my definition is really noticeable. I have done cuts before and this isn't a huge one. Never had a problem with calorie restricting, hunger pangs would lower about two weeks in, but I've been attempting to lose for 1-1/2 months now and at some point I always end up going overboard with my meals. I've realized I can't have any tempting foods in the house, period. I used to be able to just eat smaller portions but fuck I have no self control anymore. I'm such a hog it has to be salads, protein bars, and dry ass turkey and chicken for the next month until I can allow food that tastes good back into my life.
>>928027>I'm such a hog it has to be salads, protein bars, and dry ass turkey and chicken for the next month until I can allow food that tastes good back into my life.
The trick is to learn how to cook well, replace your snacks with high-quality less unhealthy versions (e.g. I'm a chocoholic so I buy a really good 'no sugar added' version to binge on) and/or buy individual snack bags of the unhealthy snacks so you know when to stop.
Chicken, turkey, and salads can be easy, filling, and delicious if you know how to cook, and red meats and high-cal meals are fine in moderation if you understand what's in a portion. I always smh my head at dieters who try to lose weight with shitty cheats and bland food because they never learn how to eat a healthy diet that actually tastes good and will inevitably blow up as soon as they feel like they lost enough to eat shit again.
So you've been getting all these comments about how you're too skinny, yet the one single comment about bone structure (clearly intended to make an insecure girl feel better) is the one thing you're clinging to as proof of not being seen as skinny…? Please get some perspective, your insecurity is warping it.
I also think you're misunderstanding the comment to begin with tbh. Bigger bone structure is what makes someone look extra skinny, even compared to a smaller framed person who weighs less. It just means your bones stick out more, and if your concern is being 'perceived as skinny' then it will only help.
Boiling water is so fucking tiresome, I can’t believe I’m looking forward to going to kenya so I don’t have to stay in the same apartment as my brother.
I really want a job just to make everyone shut up about his ass being uwu stwessed with work, sometimes I want to kill myself, but with the possibility of looking at my asshat of a brother trying to balance work and home life with the bunch of other shit he does.
If by the time I have a stable job I still get treated as a servant, with the stwess excuse for my brother, I will kill myself, I’m sorry for my family but this is just retarded, I can’t believe I’m the one who has to be in charge of the house when I’m studying and shit while he never even takes the dirty plates to the kitchen.
He goes full retard unhinged when you even tell him that maybe he should clean the toilet that reeks of piss because he’s unable of flushing the fucking toilet and goes
>muh i will make enough money to pay for a maid
Bitch, we’re paying for a maid and she can’t come here every day, what will you do when you don’t have your little sister doing the chores? You fucking retard, just a calculator who plays tennis.
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I keep fantasizing about this really hot male streamer even though I try to ignore their existence, I don’t even care about their e-fame or honestly what they say I keep envisioning very dumb romantic things and I feel so icky and scrotey for fantasizing about someone I know and will never meet.
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Having functional-ish persistent depression sucks because even if you feel cheerful and somewhat active or with enough energy to do stuff, you will always be sick.
Like, things can get better and your life can improve, but your brain chemistry is now cemented in such a way that you can feel sick any other day.
I often feel guilty about this because it's not like I have a """"real reason"""" not to work, sleep all day, not want to talk to people, not being able to do stuff and feel crappy overall. But it's also physically hard to get it over with.
I guess I could compare it to a cold. You can still work when you catch a cold, but you just don't feel optimal and everything is annoying because you feel unwell. And just like a cold, it could come in and out any day of the week and leave some days later.
Still the apathy and feelings of being drained and sad are so dumb. I don't want to feel like this, but I gotta be strong and patient with myself. Scolding myself over something I don't have the full control over just drains me more.
But also I would NEVER want to be like those twitter people who complain about shit and do nothing and never improve. Idk.
this picture made me jump
Also nonna I've talked to you before. As someone who is in a complicated-ish relationship with a streamer (and I started as just a fan as well) I'd say go for it. You have nothing to lose.
He's fairly small. He has an actual job besides streaming. He's more of a co-commentator tbh. He's not well known besides the niche he's in, but he's well regarded.>>928165
He isn't. We are very close and he isn't a player at all. I was the one to contact him in the first place.
damn anon, you sound like me.
what do you do to manage your depression? I'm on the highest dose of lexapro possible and I don't feel suicidal anymore I guess, but I'm also so tired all the time that it's making