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No. 2278154

And relax
previous: >>2266222

No. 2278159

Just got a massive tube shoved up both my nostrols

No. 2278164

>>2272303
what exactly is retarded about using the word "anonymously"?

No. 2278168

I hate night anxiety I hate night anxiety I hate night anxiety I hate night anxiety I hate night anxiety sooooooo fucking much, I just want to SLEEP IN PEACE and not stay up all night because my body randomly goes into panic mode for hours for no reason

No. 2278201

I’ve actually been offline for a bit and the farmhands haven’t been that annoying lately (probs because of Thanksgiving fever of they’re burgerfats like me) but if they misbehave I wish to serve all of them 100 jerk chickens with ghost pepper on them.

No. 2278205

I HATE MEN. I HATE MEN. I HATE MEN.

I swiped right on a guy and we talked for DAYS until I eventually asked him if we could facetime. He said he couldn't, and so I asked him again another day and he made another excuse.

Eventually I was like I feel like you're avoiding facetiming me? There's no way you're this busy, especially when you've been messaging me all day.

He proceeds to tell me he's not comfortable because he's gained a lot of weight since he took the photos he posted on the app.

I was like there's no way you look that different and that I think he's just being hard on himself, and he's like no I've gained a lot of weight.

I told him , "This is awkward because I need to know how you look. If it was the other way around you'd be mad"

He goes ,"I thought looks don't matter" and this is when I get bitchy cause I can't deal with stupid. I go ,"I NEVER said that. You know they do, let's be real. I think it's deceitful to post outdated pictures" He tells me he wasn't being deceiving and that those were just the pictures he had posted at the time of making the account. I told him he needed to update them then, and he said something along the lines of "just leave me alone". So I sent a voice message and was like I don't appreciate you vilifying me. I didn't do or say anything wrong. I'm not vain and I think it's fucking weird to go into a situationship hoping I fall in love with you through texts alone, that way when you reveal your looks , I won't care because I'm so in love". He tells me my language is vulgar and that I'm a rude and nasty person, and basically says to piss off. And I go "gladly"

I ended up feeling really bad and messaged him one last time saying I'm sorry if I hurt him and that I got a little carried away in the end. He goes "I respect the apology. We're not a good match. Best of luck"…

…… so you still think what you did was okay?

No. 2278209

>>2278205
Some of you are young because if you seriously don’t know this is how men act at this point then idk what to tell you kek

No. 2278215

>>2278205
You've put too much thought into this situation and you don't even know what the fat shit looks like. I wouldn't worry about it

No. 2278216

>>2278205
You should have been even worse to him, he’s an immature victim complex loser who will die alone and it’ll be his fault. Good riddance. Sorry for the waste of your time though. But it’s never wrong to flat out dump men over stuff like this or whatever isn’t meeting your relationship standards, otherwise women end up bowing to them and scrambling all over to please and appease them and their stupid egos and personal problems forever.

No. 2278223

>>2278205
Honestly I wouldn't even assume the pics he used are him at all. Sounds like a complete catfish using a random person's photos.

No. 2278231

>>2278223
It was because we spoke mostly on instagram, where all his photos were also from a while back.

He was really boring. He also always got offended when I was in no way trying to offend?

During the discussion I unfollowed him on accident and he asked why. I joked that it was an accident but that it's not like im missing out considering he doesn't look like his photos. He goes , "If you think that hurt my feelings then you failed miserably". I was like…. no? I wasn't trying to hurt your feelings. I'm literally just saying those photos aren't how you look so I don't care to see them.

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>>2278205
>I ended up feeling really bad and messaged him one last time saying I'm sorry if I hurt him and that I got a little carried away in the end.
I'm not gonna call you a dumbass, but I will say this. Women have got to learn to not give a fuck about how men feel. Because caring too much about men being sad is exactly how women stay in shit relationships, or come crawling back to their exes because they genuinely believe that their moids will kill themselves for being dumped. Ehatever heartbreak a woman feels about a relationship, a man feels only half of that if anything at all. If a man is ever more devastated at a relationship ending than the woman is, chances are he's fucked up in the head and either wants to kill the woman, or is already on his plan to do so.

No. 2278241

>>2278235
One time I told a guy during a breakup that he was going to die alone and that all egyptian men are scumbags. I said this because he kept talking about other hot women even though I told him it's not funny (He claims that's why he did it. To tease me)… my dumb retarded ass sent an apology text saying I was too harsh and he left on READ. That's what my dumbass deserved and I will never do that again. I also will never explode on a guy again.. because that shows how bothered I am. I'd rather casually cut it off and humiliate him with me not giving a fuck.

No. 2278243

>>2278205
Did you reverse image search the pictures that you were able to see of him?

No. 2278246

>>2278243
It was him. It wasn't a model kek and I had him on instagram where the account was 100% real, with friends tagged in photos and everything.

I think some people are just that retarded.

No. 2278251

CAN WOMEN PLEASE STOP BEING FUCKING AWFUL TO ONE ANOTHER? My friend gor her period and stained her pants and a bunch of women were laughing at her. I'm so disgusted. Thankfully one lady saw her crying and helped her out.

No. 2278264

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>Know guy for a while now
>A decent person to me
>I soon develop a crush on him over a 3 month period
>We both go out on a get together I planned and confess to him afterwards at his place.
>He gives me a look after I confess that still makes me feel like shit.
>Says he doesn't see me that way back, I suddenly want to cry.
>I end up crying thinking I put him on the spot making this awkward and He tries his best to comfort me
>He tell me he is flattered but isn't looking to date anyone
I wish I could die. the drive home was killing me every second I was in the car with him. We have good chemistry. I know I fucked up and I hate how he was nice about it. I need him to ghost me. I need him to leave me. I don't want to see him anymore. I hate it. I think i should kill him so he doesn't tell anyone I know.

No. 2278265

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>>2278241
>I also will never explode on a guy again.. because that shows how bothered I am. I'd rather casually cut it off and humiliate him with me not giving a fuck
Yes, that's what you should start doing. If your intuition and intelligence is telling you that a scrote isn't worth it, don't let it hurt you. Tell yourself that he was a poor investment and move on, like you just lost a game at Chuck E. Cheese's yet you still have a bunch of coins left. If you ever do find yourself in your feelings and deeply emotional or even sorry about it, never ever let the moid see it. Treat them like how children of cut off narcissist parents do, and "gray rock" him. If a moid values YOU and wants to be alongside YOU, he will come to YOU and prove that to YOU, and he will only prove it by being useful, dedicated and as unretarded as possible. Note, most moids fail to prove their redemption.

No. 2278267

>>2278251
that's terrible. i don't know why it has to be like this. it's so tiring and i'll never understand it.

No. 2278285

I was only born because my parents wanted someone to take care of them

No. 2278290

>>2278251
this is genuinely upsetting, I am curious the ages of the women who laughed and hoping they were like teenagers or something…

No. 2278291

I have such a nice outfit but I'm too fat to look good in it right now and even if I wasn't, I have absolutely nowhere to wear it because I'm a fucking loser with no friends.

Nonnas goodbye I'm gonna jump off the balcony

No. 2278292

>>2278285
I would imagine a lot of parents have kids for this reason, selfish assholes

No. 2278295

>>2278291
I have a lot of cute outfits and basically no social life. I don’t know what the point is, but it is what it is. Just wear it for yourself and don’t jump

No. 2278302

my job is making me wanna kill myself and they’re taking too long to transfer me to a different department even though that department is desperately in need what the fuck i don’t think i can handle it much longer especially since it’s retail slop

No. 2278303

>>2278295
It's such a skinny girl outfit though I def have to starve at least. Then I can take a pic in it and post it online. Only to change back into my pajamas and cry kek.

No. 2278320

>>2278205
girl HE catfished you and you apologized to him? You did nothing wrong. You didn’t need to apologize at all, he made his own dumb choices and you don’t owe shit to this stranger scrote

No. 2278327

I need to block Reddit and hide the hate thread, it is way too rage inducing. I want to stick my head in the sand and never come back out. The idiocracy is unbearable

No. 2278341

i hate cumbrains who cry about receipts when you say their beloved moid is a predator, especially when hes a social media retard/"influencer". your life is worthless just like his

No. 2278393

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I just hate working.
I hate having to go to a miserable job and I miss my cat every time I have to travel for work.
My job pays me well and I work semi remotely so I should be grateful and I know I’m luckier than most rn but all I can think of is that I’m wasting days of my life away from my cat so I can pay for Israeli citizens healthcare. I hate this country sm.

No. 2278454

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i feel such a terrible sadness and im heavily considering doing ketamine and coke in my bedroom again. ive come really far and im going to graduate soon but i think my medicine stopped working and i feel stuck, unable to create or be happy or feel like im getting anywhere. pathetic

No. 2278461

I want my crush so bad… he's super hot but also just moves and conducts himself in a way that's incredibly attractive. He's got a bad personality though, so theres not much to be done. I don't even necessarily wanna have sex with him… I just wanna observe him or something. I don't think he'd be interested in me though, I get the feeling he would nitpick women. I still keep feeling insecure about my skin and looks and find myself getting make up and skincare, even though it doesn't lead anywhere. I wish there was a way to get closer though, but I'm not really sure in what way I want to be closer exactly.

No. 2278465

Planning a wedding and it's genuinely the most stressful thing I've ever done. My family/in-laws have become absolute demons with their demands. small ceremony turns into invite everyone we know and then we need the BEST decor and cake and venue and music. You need bridesmaids and ring bearers and flower girls, bridal shower, bachelorette party, honeymoon, minimoon? rehearsal, reception! of course I'm still paying for and planning all of this (my aunt suggested I take out a loan, "that's how I did it!") but if my wedding isn't a lavish multi-day affair my mom will hate me and my cousins will think I'm poor… my mom is acting like the entire reputation of our family name is on my back and maybe it is idk the older ladies do love their wedding gossip. I should've just fucking eloped.

No. 2278478

My dad works like a dog from 4:30 am to 10:30 pm daily. I'm sick of this. I fucking hate this world and how unfair it is to people who are hardworking and just have shitty cards dealt to them. My dad comes home exhausted but forces himself to stay up because if he doesn't he would go days without enjoying any tv or time with family.

I also feel like such a piece of shit because I complain about my extremely easy job that isn't from dawn till dusk. I'm so lazy.

No. 2278487

being 27 feels like being in purgatory no wonder so many musicians killed themselves at 27

No. 2278498

>>2278454
I was addicted to k for a while when I was graduating. You shouldn't do it, at least smoke weed or something to the fill the void so you can focus on exams. Doing more is just temporary happiness. Sure, I know the little happiness is good and all but you should at least wait until you got some school stuff sorted to become a ket demon.
Also I hate coke so that combo sounds like a nightmare kek

No. 2278508

>>2278478
Male bodies are meant to be worked like dogs, its literally what they’re built for. He also probably watches teen porn so who cares

No. 2278512

>>2278508
Ragebait.

No. 2278517

>>2278508
we get it you were molested(bait)

No. 2278538

Thread pic is literally me. I'm back from my shift (it's early morning where i am)

Also I'm geographically illiterate and I had a small awkward moment at work ugh

No. 2278574

>>2278487
I'm 26 and I get the feeling. I don't feel like I've aged that much beyond the 18-21 bracket but also my thinking process definitely feels more mature and less brash. Old enough that younger people will start thinking you're cringe for enjoying your hobbies but still young enough that older adults don't take anything you say seriously. I finally understand why some people just stop saying how old they are. Life is meant to be lived, who cares.

No. 2278599

Asked why men are so weird on Instagram and immediately had my comment removed for hate speech.

No. 2278775

There's a huge spider in my room, this isn't Australia why the fuck is it here? We've had several huge spiders in my room, and sometimes in other parts of the building and I know they're not harmless because one of them bit my mother when she slept like 2 years ago and she went to the hospital because she couldn't breathe well anymore. We're in Western Europe so it makes no sense. I saw it a few centimeters away from my face in the middle of a meeting when working from home I bet everyone noticed I looked like I was about to have a heart attack.

No. 2278799

>>2278264
>go on a get together
Idk nona was it just the 2 of you on this get together? Maybe this is a blessing in disguise. To me, it sounds like he was stringing you along or just enjoyed the attention you have gave him.

No. 2278822

My stomach is upset again, just drank some water first thing in the morning to calm it down. I feel better and less gassy, but still uneasy

No. 2278824

I have to do things that remind me I exist in this world and it makes me want to die. I don't want to tell anyone my name, I don't want to get pictures taken and I don't want to talk to anyone about my life

No. 2278827

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i know i've gained a shit ton of weight in a month cause last time i wore these panties they were loose as fuck, so loose i was considering throwing them away but now they are really tight on my inner thighs. i don't even want to weigh myself cause i'll end up having a melt down. i simply can't stop eating lately and i don't know what's going on. i'm typing this as i'm eating kneaded bread

No. 2278828

It's been around 7 years since my childhood cat died and I still have nightmares about it. Just last night I woke up crying after I dreamt that she was dying and I couldn't be with her during her last moments, that used to be such a big fear of mine before she passed.
I really wonder if I'll ever get over it, I had such a deep bond with her I literally felt like a part of me was ripped out when I lost her. It sounds silly when you remember I'm talking about a cat, but she was all I had since the age of 2 to 17.

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I'm tired of losing friends. Sure, these friendships started when I was younger, and we just happened to grow into completely different people than before. We spent so much time together, and now I have to let it all go because they happen to be immature and irresponsible, and non-responsive to my tries to discuss and salvage our shit. I'll be much better without them. But goddamn.

No. 2278878

>parents dead
>no close friends
>remaining family hardly checks up on me
>took solace in art
>got popular
>fake friends didn’t like that so they spread rumors i like kids by saying i was an adult for things i did as a teenager a decade ago
>begin to hate opening social media
>husband doesn’t comfort me anymore
>he never compliments me
>realize there was an incident of dubiously consensual sex a few months ago (i don’t blame him, i should’ve put my foot down more)
>i ask him to be more compassionate towards me and nothing ever changes
>realize i might never be actually happy

i want to die so bad. why is this happening to me? i miss my mom

No. 2278889

>>2278878
Well first you sound like a child inside of an adult’s body. Stomping your feet about why the most emotionally unintelligent sex on the planet isn’t giving you affection isn’t going to solve anything because males are not females and heterosexual females who keep going into het relationships completely clueless about this reality need to get a grip. Divorce his ass, take his money, make sure your name is on the house when it’s being sold and move on with your life. Now for the internet thing, kek, prove those fuckers wrong? Block every single one of them, report them, and make a megapost debunking every single one of their claims because they have zero credibility. Your mom is dead and she’s not coming back, stop wallowing like a little girl and defend yourself.

No. 2278893

>>2278889
You really honed in on the Nigel thing and not much else. Embarrassing girlboss larp. I bet youd be upset if you were in the same situation

No. 2278899

a friend of 4 years up and left and I feel horrible. Sometimes I just want to leave all my friends for their own good. I always inevitably upset them so it would just be better for everyone. I'm not sure what to do with myself now.

No. 2278904

>>2278893
I wouldn’t be upset at all if I was in a similar position because I would never place myself in that situation, ever. Don’t try to drag me down to your level bitch kek

No. 2278905

>>2278878
i wanted to come delete this post because i felt bad i accused him of such a horrible thing when it was literally just a communication problem but it was 1 minute after the deadline, i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm so sorry he's not a bad person, he doesn't hurt me, he would never intend to hurt me, i just didn't say no clear enough and i told him to just hurry and finish, that was me consenting, he's a good person, he's not a bad person at all, i'm sorry, i didn't mean it that way, i feel so guilty, the guilt is eating me up inside, i'm sorry i love him so much i'm so sorry he doesn't deserve that i'm sorry

No. 2278910

>>2278905
I seriously want to know these types of women survive in this world kek

No. 2278913

>>2278905
>>2278878
I never understood the type of women who could crypost this way about their men and I found them frankly annoying at best and infuriating at worst, because of their lack of backbone and naivety. But now I'm realizing they do sound like little girls on a woman's body, that may explain the sheer retardation(baiting)

No. 2278917

>>2278913
They’re deadass so annoying, I think the thing that almost made me crack the fuck up is when they mentioned “husband”, like seriously?? Underdeveloped girlhood arrested women get into marriages and relationships because it’s like going from one household to another, they’re searching for a new mommy and daddy through love instead of developing themselves kek

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No. 2278938

K this will probably be my last post identifying myself as an anon who went thru Hurricane Helene. Just wanted to say that I left the toxic brother in law's place and moved into an airBnB that a really nice landlord put up for people whose lives got fucked by the hurricane. I'm living with another hurricane person in a house that would normally be rented for over $1000 a week for $600 a month, all utilities and wifi included. It's great, the biggest house I've ever lived in. The rent is really cheap, albeit for only 4 months, but that gives me enough time to find a permanent place. My town has drinkable water again but a lot of people don't trust it. I'm on well water here.

This is the vent thread, so my only complaint is that this house is out in East Jesus Bumfuck and it's a bit of a commute to get to my job, and sometimes the cell signal here is terrible. So there's a vent. Mostly I'm glad that my personal hurricane drama is over.

My friends who lived out of their cars in a parking lot for a whole month moved home with their families for now, in different states. So we won't see each other for a while until (if) they decide to move back. I've mostly gotten over my hardships, but there are still a lot of people living in tents, even a lot of single moms with kids, and if I think about it too hard it makes me sad as hell. I started crying in a Ross when I was out buying socks yesterday, and had to leave. I'm not normally a person who cries, and never in public. It's getting cold here and there are constantly people online in facebook groups begging for a vehicle so they can take their kids to school/get to work and asking for tent heaters. It's still so fucked up.

No. 2278975

Tried to do something nice for my friend but I'm pretty sure it backfired and now I've probably messed stuff up permanently, I'm sure she'll hate me after this. Ughhh I'm so anxious waiting for her reply

No. 2278979

>>2278498
its just shameful to do that stuff again when im getting my bachelors, im closer to my mid 20s than early at this point. but im in a lot of internal pain. thank you though nonnie i should stay away from that good feeling. wish i could smoke weed but i get paranoid and for some reason im scared of not having control of myself kek (yet ket seems to be a more comforting idea to me? pfft) nicotine used to help me with exams but i dont want to get addicted again. i guess im fucked, nothing helps this depression and im going to fail these classes. maybe my medication can get bumped up. childish i am, child child, i have it so good

No. 2278995

>>2278904
Watch out guys we got a real Stacy here

No. 2279005

>>2278995
Nta but is that farfetched that some women do actually got brains? Not every woman is susceptible to this type of circumstances because they simply wouldn't be attracted to individuals that could cause them

No. 2279014

>>2279005
so you can't be young and naive now? you're either born a stacy? kek, it reeks of male

No. 2279047

been away from this site for a minute. but i need to be around females and fem energy. oh my god i drowned in men and male energy bc my austic ass is scared of girls (again) but now i got accused of sleeping around and my virgin ass is like oh shit male and female relationships are complex if ur an adult. because of societal shit idk if im coherent i legit got out of the hospital a couple days ago. im adjusting to real life but like idk man i want a girl bestie..one who isnt obssesed with race and politics and gender bs. i just want to be cringe,free, and contently happy. maybe i should try the friend finder here. i hate life rn but also love it bc i aint depressed just all over the place with this med im taking. i just want to talk freely u know and say the most retarded shit ever. but like irl only certain guys allow that and its hard to find women who do as well. god i just had to complexify everything hmm. ok rant vent over. for now lol.

No. 2279053

I haven't looked in the "news stories that fuck you up" thread in over a year because I know it's awful but I went and did it anyway today ffs
Life is so much better when I stay out of the depressing threads on this site, I wish there was a way to put a filter over the site to weed out all the moid and trans stuff too

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>>2278878
I wish I could give you a piece of advice that would bring immediate relief but it sounds like you might be in your head too much and letting the grief and anxiety dictate you. I hate therapyfags but you’re someone who might benefit from talking to a therapist and building some self esteem. Take a break from the internet and go volunteer somewhere or take long walks when you can. I’m so sorry about your mom and idk how spiritual you are but I like to believe that the ones we love never leave us and instead show up in different forms when we need them most.

No. 2279064

>>2279014
>not retarded means you're a man
you'd fit right in with /r9k scrotes

No. 2279067

>>2278938
Thank you for the update anon me I'm sure others are wishing the best for you. Remember you can only do so much, when you have some money to spare you can help others with it but right now the most important thing is to focus on your own situation

No. 2279068

I messed up my Thanksgiving banana and now I could cry. It tastes fantastic but the bananas went brown since I made it last night. I'm probably be the only one who eats it. I guess i can redeem myself with the other sides.

No. 2279071

I’m an alcoholic and it’s so embarassing. I am literally powerless to alcohol and we always have it in the house because my brother is a whiskey guy who can actually moderate his intake. I quit drinking for 3 months this summer and it felt so good but now I’m back to drinking 4 nights a week. I’m stupid and I keep worrying that I’m going to die, if not now then I’m definitely doing damage to my body in the long run. I was a stoner for 8 years and now I can’t afford weed so I drink all the time. I literally fucking hate myself and last week I was looking at going to an AA meeting while my boyfriend was out of town but 36 hrs later I was at a party having 3 drinks when I said I’d only have 2, etc. I can never say no if someone offers me alcohol. I quit cigarettes cold turkey after the death of a family friend almost 2 years ago but I don’t know what could make me stop drinking for good short of someone I know dying (which doesn’t seem that far fetched, I have some friends who are very far gone). I hate my life and myself and I’m so jealous of anyone who can just have one or two drinks socially or can keep alcohol in the house without having a constant nagging to drink it.

No. 2279074

>>2278905
Why are you sorry what random people on the internet think about some man? You should be more sorry to yourself, learn bodily autonomy and how to say no. Talk to your husband, if you can't have an adult conversation about how he isn't supporting you and how you don't feel secure enough to say when you don't want to have sex then you two shouldn't be having sex. Learn to communicate with each other, marriage is a partnership, you wouldn't want him to be scared of telling you how he feels either.
I'm sorry about your family anon, you have a lot to recover from and hopefully time will help you but I agree with the other anon who suggested you get some professional support. You do need friends that you can trust but you could also look into seeking grief support networks, or even self help books if you can't find one or afford professional support.

No. 2279079

>>2278878
>"I'm all alone and no one cares about me"
>Has a husband
Why do people always say they're totally alone when they have a husband/wife (that they swear is good) and a fairly successful life (bullies on the internet don't count, they literally don't exist in your life)?

>>2278905
Then why did you write that in the first place if you're so guilty??

No. 2279099

>>2279079
You could be surrounded by people you love all the time and still feel lonely. I’m not gonna armchair dx the op but depression can cause someone to think like this. She also mentioned feeling disconnected from her husband so put two and two together, it’s not hard to imagine.

No. 2279100

I said fuck it, I'm in a foul mood. Let's have junk food for the first time in like over a year. I ate an entire can of Pringles. Oh my god is this what organ failure is like? I've never been hungover but I imagine this is similar. My eyelids are swollen from sodium, I look like I drank all night long. Can't stop sweating. My usual snack before bedtime is fruit so my body must be so confused like a child struck for no reason. This is hell. It's like I ate a pack of cigarettes before bed. I can feel the chips under my skin moving like bugs. Not really but goddamn I'm never doing this again. Holy shit. If I had to work today or drive anywhere I'd probably cancel.

No. 2279123

>>2279099
Well what I'm not going to do is diagnose anon with depression over the internet on lolcow. She didn't mention anything about depression, and there are people who will cry about being lonely while they have several people in their lives who coddle them 24/7 so who knows.

No. 2279137

>>2279064
there's nothing more MALE than pretending to be born a Chad/Stacy whatever, specially when you know these types were bullied to death in highschool but cope by pretending nothing ever happened and playing Regina George/Patrick Bateman on a fucking imageboard

No. 2279141

>>2279137
I know this is off topic but now I'm trying to imagine how the children of Regina George and Patrick Bateman would turn out

No. 2279143

I wish I made another female friend into the same scrotish hobbies I was into. Having guys friends like that is just not the same. I thought we vibed well together, and she ghosted me…

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No. 2279147

>>2279143
Me too except I never had one to ghost me

No. 2279157

>>2279143
It's just a small pool when too few women are into it. I really didn't vibe with the few women I met through rowing which is mostly a male passtime. In my quad boat, one was a nationalist, one was a cop, one was a scary anachan.
But I met a lot of fascinating and interesting women through bridge which is played mostly by women, and my bridge partner became one of my best friends.

No. 2279175

>>2279123
they're not getting what they need from the people around them so they still feel lonely, it's not that hard to understand. I empathize with >>2278878 because i'm in a very similar situation. I'd be your friend nona!

No. 2279197

This year has completely shattered me and I have no idea how to deal with it. Lost my friend group and I have no idea what caused it because no one will tell me. I knew things were getting rocky between one friend and I because she broke my trust, I just couldn't address it otherwise it would make things worse for me. Got diagnosed with a mental disorder that makes me question literally every decision I've made, and my therapist told me that she could no longer work with me because she didn't have the means to help like I needed. At least she was honest but now I have no one in my life I can talk to about things and I just feel like a terrible person who's unfixable and unbearable to be around…I can't fucking live like this.

No. 2279224

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Seeing a mother or father with their teenage daughter always makes me tear up. I miss my parents so much, but at least I can call my dad. Sometimes I look in the mirror and I see just how much my own face resembles my mom's and it makes me sob. I wish I had spent more time having conversations with her instead of wasting my time being an annoying teenager!!

No. 2279256

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>>2279224
I’m sorry for your loss nonny. My dad passed away unexpectedly last year so I understand the regret you feel, not making the most of the time you had together. If I could go back and do it over again I would but I try to give myself some grace that I was a shitty kid doing shitty kid things. And despite that my parents loved me anyways. I try to view it as a testament of their love for me rather than a deficiency of my character.

No. 2279258

>>2279068
Samefag, but i meant to write 'banana pudding" and now I'm realizing how silly this post looks kek.

No. 2279286

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i miss my mom so much. she's had dementia for 10 years (since i was 18) and has just rapidly regressed since then. i live in a different country now and its so hard to communicate with someone who has lost their ability to speak the same language as you.
my childhood was very traumatic, some part due to her but i can't hold it against her. she came from a war-torn country and i speculate that her family's ill health is a consequence of that and being exposed to chemical warfare. growing up, she worked full time and did 99% of all the housework and child rearing. i can't even do all the housework with no kids. i also fucking hate my dad for it. i would still have my mom if he were a better husband and father. i would love to tell him what i really think of him someday but he's my only immediate family that i speak to so that'll have to wait.
there's so much i would want to talk to her about. my childhood, my siblings, people we knew, etc. and i no longer can. i feel so much regret not asking these questions but at the same her dementia came VERY early at the craziest time for our family. i feel if i were older at the time, i would have handled it much better.
i always find myself crying before holidays and family occasions probably in part because i know so many people who still are able to talk to their 60+ y/o mom and have a relationship with that when my mom isn't even 60 yet. i didn't get to have a mom like that for 20 years. so many people are able to improve their relationships with their parents as an adult but i didn't even get a chance with mom.

No. 2279334

>>2279286
This post made me cry. I really hope you find peace with your situation and I hope all goes well for you.

No. 2279337

It's funny when an anon acts unhinged towards me and someone else responds to her too educating her on why she's a weird freak. Sometimes I feel targeted on here and I realize schizophrenia isn't personal lots of anons are just sick and see special meaning in shit that isn't there and their aggression towards me is just a reflection of their own inner suffering. Must suck to suck

No. 2279354

>>2279100
Do you have celiac disease this isn't normal

No. 2279360

I'm getting my eyes checked because my sight has recently gotten a lot worse, I've always hated glasses because I have a huge nose and look stupid in them… It's so silly but I feel so depressed knowing I'm gonna undoubtedly have to get them soon. Just another insecurity to add to how I look

No. 2279367

>>2279286
Oh nona, I am so sorry.

No. 2279380

>>2279071
Don't be embarrassed anon. I have an ED and am addicted to sugar and it's super pathetic. It's literally JUST sugar and I still can't go a single day without eating it. It's terrifying to feel so powerless to something so stupid as a food item, especially something we happily give to kids because it's so "harmless".

No. 2279444

>>2278205
>apologizing to a moid

No. 2279473

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So im painstakingly reviewing and deleting photos and videos one by one from my iphone that span from 2017-2024, and holy shit, i was so fucking annoying and cringe as a teenager. I peaked in awfulness at 15(in 2020).
I used to think my peers were so cruel for avoiding and bullying me, but i understand it now. I want to beat the shit out of 15 year old me. I was also a huge bitch to my sister for no reason?
I have no right using lolcow with a history like this. I can't believe i forgot i was like this. should go ahead and make a thread on myself kekkkkk.

No. 2279488

>>2279286
Oh my god anon i'm so sorry. Im tearing up. Your mom sounds like she was a very strong person. It's so fucked up that someone as strong as her had this happen. I wish you and her peace.

No. 2279513

I'm so bored of being ugly

No. 2279522

>>2279473
my vent is that i'm old enough to be your mother

No. 2279526

>>2279473
>should go ahead and make a thread on myself kekkkkk.
I agree! Please do!

No. 2279528

I didn't even realize tomorrow was Thanksgiving, holy shit, I've been in such a dissociative state that nothing feels real. I don't know what to do when I feel like this, I can' t feel anything

No. 2279529

>>2279473
>15 in 2020
Jesus Christ

No. 2279530

>>2279528
Tomorrow isn't Thanksgiving? I think you're dissociating still.

No. 2279531

>>2279526
setting nona up for failure

No. 2279532

>>2279473
You're still young enough to save yourself, you know?

No. 2279535

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Didn't even FUCKING know Thanksgiving was tomorrow, time is going by so fast and it is surreal, I mean it seems like March was a week ago, Jesus. I have done nothing in that time but get worse. Feels like I'm losing control and I can't feel anything most time, just feels like empty and disorienting. I don't really know how to describe it, sad and scared? But also apathetic and I just want to sleep all day.

No. 2279545

>>2279535
I know. It feels like 2024 was barely here, man. I already gotta think about what to do for my next New Year's Resolution.

No. 2279555

>>2279532
No I'm fine now since I'm an adult done with puberty shit, but man I can't believe i used to be like that since im mostly normal now.

No. 2279560

>>2279529
I feel the same way. 2020 was so fucking crazy that i forgot that 2021-2023 happened so it feels like 2020 was last year.

No. 2279567

Everything feels evil

No. 2279571

i wish i could stop hanging onto the mistakes and regrets that past teenager me did

No. 2279581

Nonnas, I’m going to buy a gun and shoot myself in the temporal lobe.

I was talking to by 65 year old grizzly but handsome neighbor about his dogs and thanksgiving, and he didn’t want to stop talking to me which I enjoyed very much. But because we talked so long I forgot the part where he said he’s allergic to poultry and not all meat. So he mentioned something about gelatin and I was like , “you can’t eat gelatin though!” And he’s like “what..?” And I was like it’s made from pork bones. He goes “But I can eat pork and beef…” and I was like “ohhhhhh I forgot sorry , I’m just really tired”. He was like “yeah I was really confused why you said that haha”Anyway he continued speaking to me for like 15 more minutes so it clearly wasn’t that big of a deal to him, but I feel like a fucking retard. I hate having ADHD and social anxiety, I forgot shit so easily and am too focused on what I should say next.

Let me share some more social reasons I hate myself:

* I cut people off without meaning to and until someone eventually tells me to stop cutting them off. I’m just trying to be an active listener and also say what I need to before the conversation develops into another topic and it’s too late to bring up whatever I wanted to say.

* I randomly get really loud when I talk and I had a hot guy tell me to lower my voice once cause I was like screaming…

* I get so anxious over small conversations, but only before I begin. I went to ring the doorbell of one of my neighbors to offer to walk their dogs since I walk daily (they never walk their dogs… ever), and the ANTICIPATION of waiting for them to open the door was unbearable. When they opened it I was completely fine.

* I just assume everyone hates me and thinks I’m weird. A self fulfilling prophecy.

No. 2279582

How? How can I see myself one day and think I’m gorgeous, and then the next day look at the same photo or video and think I’m disgusting? What kind of disorder is this? I can’t take this. Some days I refer to a list a made of all the surgeries I need to get done, then the next I think I’m damn near perfect. I wish I can post a picture of myself and have everyone tell me if I’m pretty or not, and what work I need. Some men think I’m gorgeous and literally became obsessed (they’re handsome and successful) and sometimes they refuse to look my way. Same with girls. I’ve never been told I’m pretty, but if I say something about my looks (not even compliment fishing, just a passing comment) they tell me I’m gorgeous. I really don’t know how I look. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I need this to stop or I’m going to fucking kill myself.

No. 2279584

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its really hard to let go of lc because its a mindless habit and because i have no "community" online or in real life. but i think its made me scroll more, consume posts and have no unique thoughts, and im no saint but the gossip aspect feels so evil, like its tainting me. but i guess i feel that way about most things lately. i wonder if i should make a neocities, or tumblr, i could encourage myself to create things again, and id have a place to share them. for some reason i cant work on things i love if im too alone, i fall into bad habits. i feel so negative and lost. maybe its performative but it just feels nice to think of making my own blog, to do things and share them for something outside of myself. i feel like im getting retarded is all and it needs to end, but getting back to being a more positive, creative person doesnt happen as quickly as id like. i feel AHHHH

No. 2279588

>>2279581
i cut people off unintentionally too, nonnie. its really hard, because the thought slips our minds and then it comes our turn to speak and we're stood there all deer-in-headlights. i have a recommendation i myself have been trying to employ, and you will look autistic doing it, too, but pick your battles i guess.
aside from being patient and just keeping your input to yourself as someone switches the topic (because i assume if they wanted your input, theyd circle back to it or not switch?) you can try to keep a notepad and write down your points. this only works in certain scenarios i know, but it avoids people getting annoyed

No. 2279589

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i want to quit my job because they denied all the days off that i asked for. i told them i only wanted to work a certain amount of hours and they agreed, but they haven't respected that.
i hate working retail, i miss all the fun my friends have. technically, i don't have to work because i am provided for, but i would be living like a peasant if i quit with no money to go out for food, to have hobbies, to even enjoy things.

my hours clash with all the fun things my friends want to do, and my work won't let me take any of the time off. i didn't even ask for full days off, i asked to not work after 4pm, but they want me to stay until 9pm. my friends have Christmas parties, secret santa gift exchange, light viewing nights, and i literally can't even go with them because i'm the only wagie moron working retail. i just want to quit this shit job. maybe living like a peasant will be better for me.
fuck this gay earth

No. 2279595

My ex dumped me bc he is the avoidant type and cant commit to a relationship right now. Im pissed off at him cause i was nothing but good to him. Yea i was depressed but i was honest and communicated it well unlike him. he didnt want to try to make it work cause hes a stupid boy

I have so much love to give nonnies, it hurts when the wrong person gets it.

No. 2279623

I think I might break up with my boyfriend, I love him very much but he is leaving me unfulfilled. He makes me feel annoyed more often than not and keeps changing his mind about things. I feel unhappy.

No. 2279629

I can't wait to quit this shit job, I'm so tired, but I also want them to pay me the second part if this month so I can leave with all the money I have to get paid for my service.
I honestly deserve so much more, they should unironically pay me for the wasted time I had to spend there, but whatever, I'm also already half-assing this work now because I'm sick of everything.

No. 2279630

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I realize this website is completely shit now yet I keep coming back for more. I’m so hopelessly retarded and desperate, I really wish there was another female-oriented website like this that doesn’t have a bunch of retarded women on it.

No. 2279635

>>2279630
one if you bitches needs to bite the bullet and make one already

No. 2279639

>>2279635
Is there an equivalent of AOL chatrooms in current day I feel like shit posters would thrive on something like that

No. 2279641

>>2278154
>>2279588
nonna I'm dying of laughter at the thought of writing in a notepad as my friend is speaking. I honestly admire your willingness to do so but I could never.

No. 2279643

>>2279635
Takes too much time, money, plus women rather stick with what they know and rather stay around males than actually go where there isn’t constant AI porn and scrotum. Also it would be subject too many cyber attacks from jobless trannies, I’m surprised this website isn’t subject to it with the amount of (correct) tranny hatred.

No. 2279649

>>2279643
Kpoptards and fujochan managed to do it…I don't think they get overwhelmed by scrote posters. But we'd have to follow their lead and make it specifically about a topic that's male repellent or at worst attracts a few stray gay moids.

No. 2279650

>>2279630
Same, nona. Idk if this is what bothers you, but for me, the infighting is getting to be too much. Some anons come here just to start shit and it's so exhausting. Imageboards have always been a place to blow off some steam and troll a bit, but the vitriol is reaching a whole other level.

No. 2279651

>>2279286
Oh nona I’m so sorry. You and your family were dealt a shitty hand and it would be a difficult situation even if you were a few years older during the onset of your mom’s condition. Mourning the time you will never have and the relationship that could have been is entirely understandable. I’m sure that’s complicated by the fact your mom is still alive but inaccessible to you. It’s okay to be upset about things and be bitter that others have what you don’t. You’re in a unique situation that many people, especially in your age range, can’t really fathom or cope with. It’s even more isolating I bet because of that. You’re doing great despite it all, your mom sounds like an amazing lady and I hope you can find some way to connect with her and at least your memory of her.

No. 2279654

I had to go to the ER twice in the past 7 days to get vaccines (both methotrexate). I have an ectopic pregnancy my HCG isnt declining & both times the nurses were so rude and mean and passive aggressive…like I chose to really be there for fun. I want to fill out a complaint. Being there in pain was torture&I thought abt it—I wasnt rude at all. Not even once. So idk why they decided to let out their work frustration on me

No. 2279655

>>2279649
That’s what drives a lot of women away, if men aren’t the main topic (which that kpoop ib is pretty much filled with) they won’t want to use it.

No. 2279656

>>2278799
It was.
He's not the type for attention seeking, maybe we are JUST friends after all.
I don't hate that but I'm still feeling shitty from it.

No. 2279660

>>2279630
Crystal.cafe

No. 2279661

>>2279660
Funny joke.

No. 2279662

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No. 2279666

>>2279655
Fuck you're so annoying. This is why this place sucks. The only one bringing up men is you, the only one who constantly thinks of men is you. Lolcow sucks.

No. 2279668

>>2279630
Is this ai?

No. 2279676

>>2279666
I mean NTA but objectively is that not true? Women are more likely to congregate with the common interest of attraction to men. It’s just heterosexual behaviour. The women who don’t have that interest are more likely to just be ok with sharing spaces with men.
Spaces like lolcow manifesting are incredibly rare (and even then the % of males is definitely higher than fc and hkc)

No. 2279685

my speech has degraded so much because i basically never talk to anyone. now i barely sound native in my native language lol, i have to try extremely hard for anyone to understand me.

No. 2279693

I don't want to try anymore I'm so tired the universe is constantly scheming against me I can't win.

No. 2279699

>>2279685
same kek I thought I was the only one with this problem. when I speak my accent also changes spontaneously

No. 2279741

Wish I weren’t so mentally ill. Every time I see her or think about someone with her I want to cut every inch of my skin. I feel so much painful feeling inside and there’s nowhere for it to go. The sad thing is this isn’t even an ex or an irl, just someone I’m obsessed with

No. 2279744

>>2279741
how do you see her then if she's not an irl sorry i'm retarded

No. 2279763

>>2279744
When she/her friends post

No. 2279766

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i'm genuinely reconsidering my friendship with my close friend because i just can't handle his bpd-chan behaviour.

he bases his entire self-worth, happiness and well-being on this idea that he needs a partner/best friend that he does EVERYTHING with, like he NEEDS someone to latch onto to be there for him at his beck and call to play games with him and VC with him and hang out etc etc. not sex, not intimacy. just flirting at best and nothing more.

he said, verbatim - "I want someone to obsess over me and wanna do everything with me." not only is this unrealistic but fucking insane.

He’s jealous that i have a partner that i get to hang out with, because he’s under the assumption that him and i are like that, but in complete honesty my boyfriend and i DO live together, but we’re not hanging off of each other 24/7, it’d drive us both fucking insane.

over the past year and a half he's latched onto specific people who he either inevitably drives away because of his clinginess, or are too depressed or busy to be as social and enthusiastic for the standard he expects. and he crashes hard over it. like SUPER hard, he gets inconsolably depressed and then he just starts acting extremely petulant and sulky for weeks.

it doesn't profoundly affect my life but it just seeps into conversations between us and our other friends. and i love him like a brother, i don't like seeing him be depressed and shit.

i feel bad for him solely in the sense that this is entirely preventable, I've POLITELY but firmly mentioned to him that his goal isn't realistic and his response was "i knooow but i just want it."

If this was a one-off incident where he was just at his lowest point, i’d disregard it and move on but this shit is cyclical.

he’s a fun guy and he’s cultivated an entire group of friends who like him, but he doesn’t seem to care beyond pursuing the idea of that ONE best friend/partner. and it just feels like such a big fuck you to all of us and that none of us are enough for him. He always has nitpicky complaints about everyone because he can't handle someone NOT being completely ideal and perfect.

we ARE his friends, we hang out with him and chat to him, but because we aren’t attached to his hip and fawning over him, apparently we mean less? He’s even said he’s not content with people just liking him, he wants to be loved.

It completely devalues my efforts as a friend and i just feel like i shouldn’t bother because he’s too fixated on this stupid idea than valuing the friends he HAS. I give up.

No. 2279838

The only way to repent from all my wrongs is to kms. But doing that would also be a sin. It would hurt the people I love. So I'm not sure what to do anymore.

No. 2279845

I do love my mom a lot, I want her to be okay, she's sweet and smart too. She deserved better in life and I wish I could offer her more than what I can offer her now. I'm scared of losing her.

No. 2279847

I don't know what to do with my life other than completely disappearing

No. 2279849

Guys I really don't understand. I posted a few days ago that my best friend never sent me the address or time for the photoshoot she was doing for her company (that she said she wanted me to come to).

It was two days ago, and she just texted me asking how I've been.

???? What do I even say..

No. 2279862

How exactly am I meant to deal with the unfairness of life? It's so fucking unfair. I can't just accept it. I need to get off this planet.

No. 2279865

My COUSIN kissed me and grabbed my breasts without any consent. I was in so much shock because I never expected him of all people to do that to me. My dumbass was too worried about making the situation awkward for HIM (I'm insane. I'm actually insane) and so I pushed him away and said something like "We can't. Family gatherings would be really awkward". I didn't immediately leave his house either cause I didn't want to make it awkward. I fucking hate myself. I despise myself.

I've seen him once since at a family gathering and the way everyone loves him and admires him makes me sick. What makes me even more sick is if I ever told any of them, they would either not believe me or belittle what happened because they think so highly of him.

I'm not going to go to thanksgiving dinner tomorrow. I'm just going to lock myself in my room and cry. My life is fucking horrible and this was the last thing I needed.

No. 2279874

Another year, another major surgery. Why does new health problems keep happening to me?

No. 2279927

>>2279849
I didn’t see your original post so disregard if not relevant. But I would probably say “Good but confused, I thought your photoshoot was on XX day? How did it go?”

No. 2279933

the fag obsession on lc is starting to annoy me. i don't mean discussing actual literal fags but bringing them up randomly when someone posts some random model or whoever they're attracted to in situations that have nothing to do with them. is there any man who ISN'T gay to farmers or what? or like "you can't enjoy that because a fag might jerk off to it" when men jerk off to literally everything. men create fetishes over knees for fucks sakes. it's like every single thing in the world belongs to fags and women can't have anything, might as well not enjoy anything at all because faggots breathe oxygen too. you cannot let homosexuals control your brains like this nonnies

No. 2279962

>>2279933
Dude the skinny faggot you posted on /g/ is not hot. He's hideous. And I'm not even the anon who called him gay kek

No. 2279965

>>2279962
i didn't post that, i'm talking about a thing that occurs in multiple threads throughout the site for the past few weeks.

No. 2280061

If you see a distressed stranger and ask "are you ok?" you have to be prepared to actually help them.
I had a panic attack and was still in shock crying in public, a gendie looking girl decided to ask if I was ok and I sobbed out "no" and she went "o-oh.. good luck" and fucked off because she clearly had no interest in actually helping. It just made me feel worse and more abandoned.

No. 2280069

Was reading my country's tranny subreddit for a laugh and there are so many American trannies wanting to move here kekkk. They're so fucking dramatic and think they're the most oppressed group ever

No. 2280161

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I've been soooo infatuated (I would say it's even limerence) with a fucking internet personality for a full year now and I hate it. I've never had "romantic feelings" towards someone before, not even for this guy. He was always there, existing; but I guess the planets aligned and made everything fall into place so I could become their clown to laugh at. For real, there's been ZERO days where I do not think of him or fantasize about meeting each other,connecting with just a gaze and having our short summer romance. I pretty aware that I'm mostly idealizing him sinceI don't really know him and he's mostly an impossible, but even that HE IS THE ONLY ONE I WANT, HE IS THE ONLY ONE THAT CAN MAKE ME HAPPY. I got this feeling that I will never feel this for anyone again, and it makes me kinda sad realize that I might living all my life longing for someone that doesn't really exist. I'm going insane, I wanna pull my eyeballs off and kill myself,this is so humilliating.

No. 2280170

>>2279933
This is how everyone sees men:
Well groomed scrote with fitting haircut: gay
Hairy roided ape with ugly haircut: straight
And i hate it, this is all mens fault for pushing this shit on each other, now they don't even wash their ass on fear of being gay.

No. 2280179

>>2280161
Is it jerma

No. 2280236

Im such a fucking failure piece of shit im gonna kill myself i just did everything wrong

No. 2280258

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>>2280236
No you're not

No. 2280264

>>2280236
What happened

No. 2280269

I left the door open, my results arent in yet and im already in turn for my hospital consult, im a mess

No. 2280290

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i'll stop being in denial actually i'm addicted to weed yup. i used to be an alcoholic so this is way better, but i want to stop. not that i'm all day high but the damage is there, sometimes i confuse words when i'm talking and that didn't happened to me before. but i need to get a fucking JOB and i apply to everything and still i get nothing. i hate my lazy life please give me a job i'm descending into NEET madness

No. 2280300

>>2280290
How the hell do you afford weed when you're neeting. I swear I'm an aussie and I can't imagine how many americans just sit there and have the weed delievered. Is it almost free? Sorry for sperg, but you can do it nonnie

No. 2280310

I’ll never forget the look on my mother’s face when she realised I might be gay. I know she’s deep in denial now but it’s terrifying. She looked at me like she didn’t recognise me. I’m dependent on her right now and desperately trying to stop being so (mental health issue) but I honestly am just afraid of losing my relationship with my mother. People talking about cutting off homophobic family like it’s so easy.

No. 2280315

>>2280300
i'm not american and there's weed crops all over this shit country, so much of them that it's black market price has went down over the years despite being illegal (and cops don't give a fuck about weed and it's dealers), doesn't help that it's cheap and you get more as the more you pay. i buy it with my savings but they're starting to get low now too kek

No. 2280412

>decide to get pc to play games bc my macbook keeps cucking me
>nothing fancy, refurbished laptop from a few years ago
>download skyrim, have a blast playing it, a little slow but no real issues (aside from usual bethesda bugs)
>decide to buy detroit: become human on sale (story seems cool, plus the twinky robot is super cute)
>takes forever to buy bc new debit card and in a different country
>time to download, 50 GB (sidenote: when did games get so fucking big???)
>takes six hours on my slowass cell data
>next day, super excited to play, took so long to get here
>game can't run because i don't have the right graphics card (at no point in the process was i informed of this)
>now have to try and get refund
>turns out i'll probably have this same problem with lots of other games

I'm really upset because I don't even care about shit like resolution and framerate, I just want to explore the story. If there was a mod that replaced everything with clipart and stick figures I'd gladly take it. But now every game needs to separate itself from the others by making everything as big and complicated as possible. Gotta get those sweet sweet Kotaku hype articles, so let's throw in whatever we can think of. That said, I understand now why gamers get so pissed about glitches and bugs. If I'd shelled out $900 for the poopenfarten ultraxxx mountaindew graphix card, I'd be pretty mad if the textures didn't load in.

Sorry for blog

No. 2280445

I owe money that I can no longer afford to pay. My bank keeps calling me, but I am going through so much anxiety picking up the phone from their calls. I will eventually have to pick up, but Jesus, I feel like killing myself, lmao!

No. 2280450

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its been a month since my pet died. sometimes im still in denial, ill look at the spots he used to lay in and i cant believe that someone so important to me for so long is gone forever. its the forever part that is still really tough because it was recent enough i can still remember exactly what he was like, how his paws felt, etc. but eventually more time will pass and it will have been even longer since the last time i held him. i wish i could have spent forever in that final week with him, but that time is already gone. i used to acknowledge how lucky i was to own 3 wonderful animals, i knew it was a blessing that couldnt last forever. i just have such a hard time accepting that that joy is over, that decade of my life is over, and that my sweetest baby had to go first.

No. 2280452

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I've had nightmares before where I'd wake up one day to find a thread about me on LC where all my personal information got doxxed and nonnies are writing greentexts about my cowish behaviour while nitpicking my appearances. I don't even have any social media that would cause me to get doxxed but seeing all that happen to YP is honestly kinda surreal.

No. 2280456

>>2280452
Kekkk I’m just imagining anons doxxing me and putting a face to all the mentally deranged sexual fantasies I’ve posted on /g/

No. 2280462

>>2280452
Honestly I am curious to see what anons can dig up about me. I would like to think my digital footprint from when I was younger and didnt practice security is mostly gone but sometimes nonas find unexpected shit

No. 2280463

>>2280450
oh nonnie…i really wish i could hug you because no words would be enough and i guess neither would a hug. im so sorry for your loss

No. 2280466

>>2280452
Same here, I had dreams about it today, I don't know what to feel about it

No. 2280491

>>2280466
All it takes is one LC lurker out there to snip out your posting style. Maybe from an instagram or Reddit comment. Put all the pieces together and dox your personal info…crazy

No. 2280499

>>2280491
I'd rather kms

No. 2280505

>>2280491
Do anons here really type the same as here elsewhere? Kek. I changed my typing style to integrate, there is no way I type the same on literally any other website.
That being said, even if you did that doesn’t seem identifiable to me. YP is a specific case who has very specific spergouts she apparently does not contain to one social media site.

No. 2280512

>>2280463
ill take your hug in spirit, thanks nonna

No. 2280514

>>2280491
Anons would roast me if I ever typed the same way I do anywhere else. I'm forced to larp a humorless, pragmatic autist in here

No. 2280518

>>2280491
I dont use other social media or my full name online in the public but I think its time to ditch my lowercase typing for grammar and capitals. I’m going undercover nonnies. I’m becoming a new person. Maybe this will give me experience when I start writing with a pseudonym.

No. 2280520

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i don’t want to go to thanksgiving dinner

No. 2280526

>>2280520
Pretend to be sick. Eat a LOT of chili, just a LOT and then spend about 40 minutes audibly shitting and crying in the bathroom. This will spare you.

No. 2280528

>>2280452
Tbh Im such a narc I would probably love the attention. But nonas can be brutal, some comments would probably make me also consider suicide.

No. 2280531

>>2280526
that’s a funny idea, but for politeness’s sake, i will simply suck it up and do the bare minimum (eat the food and sit with my relatives while not speaking)

No. 2280538

>>2280491
That's why I'm wary of posting art or any identifiable thing on here. But I think a lot of nonnas already did, and now I wonder if that would really make a curious anon do it you know?

No. 2280542

>>2280531
You're such a good person, anon. I am ready to fight tooth and nail so I don't have to go spend Thanskgiving with my stepmom's family because I simply would rather stay home. I will think of your inner strength and use it to be a better person. Next year. I'm still not going to go this year.

No. 2280544

>>2280505
>>2280514
>>2280518
It's not just typing style too. If you drop an opinion outside of here that seems too based, like it can only come from a farmer, it's possible that someone insane enough can put the pieces together. Plus anons here tend to overshare very personal info on the off topic boards.

Like, I've managed to dox a personal lolcow before, based on the information I know about him, and this guy was a terminally online autist who never left the house. Many people don't realize how easy it is to find your personal information out there.

No. 2280554

>>2280544
oh yeah then whats my first name

No. 2280562

>>2280554
it starts with the letter a

No. 2280663

i hate my stupid,misogynist grandpa. he treats and talks to my grandma so horribly. trying to not go off on him this holiday season pls lord

No. 2280672

I had no idea who Lisa was until she started showing up in my feed(s) because of that VS event.
Are you telling me this average plastic surgery'd woman is who everyone goes nuts for? kek wtf

No. 2280675

>>2280452
Honestly the fact it hasn't happened yet baffles me, I was a careless sperg as a teenager and even today I still walk on the wild side. My PL is so high I glow.

No. 2280695

Whenever I get texts from random phone numbers I get so scared. Especially when they don't respond to me

No. 2280713

I tried to offer my hand to my pet today and he bit my nail. It was right after I fed him so I thought he would be used to my hand. I feel pretty bad because not only did I clearly make him mad, but I also kind of freaked out because I didn't expect him to lunge at me. I wish I could tell him sorry, but I'll just leave him alone.

No. 2280729

I'm very mentally ill but treatment worked beautifully me so I can function normally now. It took 10 years of hard work and therapy and during this time I slowly conquered things I wanted: anxiety doesn't dominate my life anymore, I have decent self esteem, I have a sense of self, I have a career, I have friends. I'm even able to host parties, which is something I always dreamed of.

My latest achievement was being able to have a relationship. I'm dating a man now, and it's light and fun. Most importantly, I know that if we break up, I'll be able to move on and find another man if I want to. This is insane to me, 30 year old me would never have thought this was even possible.

I'm 33 now. My ideal life always had a child in it, even though I knew it was basically impossible. Even though part of me feels happy and acomplished with my evolution, another part of me hates myself for taking this long. I don't see myself having a baby with my current moid. I don't have the time to search for a man who wants children and with whom I would also like to have a child. I fought and worked hard but it wasn't enough. It's too late. Part of me is celebrating, but another part is mourning.

No. 2280755

going to be completely emotionless while cooking and eating thanksgiving dinner today because my family takes any kind of emotion i have as either me being hysterical or me being fake. i want to kill myself but i have to do thanksgiving. they love me but i don't think they realize how much they hurt me. i'm going through a 6 year relationship break up right now too, starting yesterday, so yes, i might be a little down but my god i wish they would realize it's not all about them. just a little "i'm thankful for you" or "are you feeling ok today?" would make a world of difference. i mean, we are close and they know what im going through. but instead they get mad at me as soon as they see me because i had to borrow scissors from grandma for 1 minute to open packages. if i raise my voice even a little to try to talk over the running water in the sink, they freak out and ask me why i'm yelling, and when i can't take it anymore and walk away because i already felt like shit before even seeing them, they say "and happy thanksgiving to you too" in the most snarky tone. i just want to die i don't want to cook i don't want to see anybody

No. 2280756

Was I too harsh for my bestie?

I have this female best friend and I consider her as one of closest people in my life. She started dating her boyfriend for about one and half years ago and I started new job that consumes my time and energy so we don't see each other that often nowadays. It's fine, most friendships have inactive periods.

We haven't really spend time for a long time so she invited herself to visit my parents with me. My parents are generous hosts and my mom is a great cook and we have big social circle so my parents are hosting guest every other week.
I wasn't super thrilled about my friend inviting herself because she's a vegan and it means extra work for my mom, who is old and has some health issues so she does not have limitless energy. But I agreed that she can come to visit us. I thought, why not, we are best friends, after all.

Well, today she asked if it's okay that she goes to her friend's birthday party. She got invited in the last minute.
I told her that my mother will probably be disappointed because we already started planning recipes that we are going to make her.
My friend said fine, I can come.

Later I realised that I don't really want her to visit my parents. I told her that she does not have to come but I don't want to host her any other time during holidays. I don't want her to see my parent's place as a bed and breakfast she just can book whenever it suits her, and when she does not have anything better to do.

My friend is very dear to me and she has been very good friend to me but I've feel that I have not been appreciated or prioritised as a friend lately.

No. 2280759

>>2280756
sorry for confusing ESL rambling: the party my bestie got invite to is in the same day as we planned to visit my parents.

No. 2280783

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My mom's bf looked at my ass or crotch when I was in normal clothes.

Obviously I can't tell her because her relationship makes her happy and she's had a hard life, if I move out soon instead of doing uni whilst living at home, it won't even matter anyway. But this guy has a daughter, so I feel like he can't be a creep, my mom says he's so nice, and does nice things, so I feel like I'm making it up, even though, especially when my mom's not there, I've caught his eyes moving downwards or pretending to look at something else. However, he does drive me to places sometimes, and is nice to my mom. Otherwise he talks to be seen talking, the embodiment of a walking r/lookatmyhalo, if I'm making sense- says very obvious things in a self important voice as if it's profound wisdom, and is performatively nice and fake. I feel like he's almost smug that I'm uncomfortable. My sister said he did the same before she moved out too, even when she was 14/15, she said he groaned and looked at her weird- his eyes FOLLOW you across the room in a weird way. She's quite calm and composed, so hearing her say she felt homocidal towards him was a shock.
My mom adores him and harps on about nice things he may have done five to ten years ago. I don't know…he is nice, in a performative, smug way, but I still know he looked at me that way, and seems to enjoy my discomfort without making it obvious. Still, the way my mom worships him, I feel like I'm making this up. A part of my head wants to say 'you're making this up, you're looking for attention' but I wouldn't do that, I really would want my mom to be happy. Am I a POS for focusing on his flaws and not appreciating the nice things he does? (chores for my mom or picking me up from work) I feel terrible, because I'm making my mom said by running upstairs when he's here, she thinks I'm being difficult and bitchy because I can't tell her the truth. Maybe I am dramatic and ungrateful

No. 2280798

>>2280729
35 is the age when your fertility declines, so unless you're from a particularly barren family you've probably got at leave 5 years to find a decent moid if you take a home grown baby
After that, there's always IVF and adoption. You don't have to have a baby, but if you want one there's still time.
I'm going to foster in my late 40s, depending on how that goes I could realistically adopt at that age, still. Good luck.

No. 2280807

>>2280755
That sounds absolutely exhausting, how can they be so obnoxious towards you? I hope you get to be away from them soon, you shouldn't at all have to endure being treated like that!

No. 2280812

Just found out my 50 year old, married dad has been seeing an escort for years without telling my mom or any of us. He has four kids and has been married for 20 something years. At the end of the day, I guess forgot my dad was still a man.

No. 2280817

>>2280812
>At the end of the day, I guess forgot my dad was still a man.
Nonna this is heartbreaking… I'm so sorry

No. 2280818

>>2280812
Thats disgusting nonny, I apologize for your dads idiocy

No. 2280832

>>2280783
He's likely to cheat with an underage girl or be into gross "teen" and stepdaughter porn so I think that he may end up hurting your mother eventually. Your mom is just another cover for his degeneracy so he can deflect and maybe even gaslight if others catch on. Like the people who say a moid can't be a pedo if he's also into adult women because their views are very black and white without nuance; everything has to fit a very strict definition for them and two things can't be true at once, so they forget that men's sexual preferences can be a spectrum since they only care about what feels good on their dick whether it be a microwaved grapefruit, a donkey, or some poor groomed child/teen. The problem isn't you, it's him, and I hope you can someday work up the courage to voice your concerns. Maybe you and your sister can approach her together so you have backup and don't feel alone and alienated.

No. 2280851

>>2280783
~1/7 girls with stepfathers are sexually abused by them, there's a real chance he's with your mom to get to possible victims. if he's appearing nice it's to sink his teeth even more into her. tell her he's a creep. he is affecting you relationship with your mother and do you really want this man in your life long term, who knows what other family members he would be sexually abusing?

No. 2280853

My dad is my best friend but I can’t be around him anymore. I think he’s becoming senile.

Cuts me off
Finishes my sentences incorrectly
Talks about things that I beg him not to because it’s gross (told him I got harassed by an old man and he used the word horny. Told him that’s a gross word to use around me and he kept saying it)
He’s always mad at my tone even when I don’t have one .

It’s easier to not speak to anyone it seems

No. 2280866

I made plans with some friends and I immediately regret it. I'm so scared of what can go wrong but it'd be insane to cancel now

No. 2280872

im not a man but sometimes i feel like i mansplain to people
someone will ask for support znd ill start detailing practical solutions they probably already thought about and rejected
i hate myself

No. 2280882

>>2280832
He's been with my mom for over ten years, so I don't think he's going to leave her now, or cheat, he seems to just take the opportunity to 'peek' whilst staying with my mom. But yes- that is true, being into an adult woman doesn't stop you from being a peedo, although I'm not a minor now, we both were recently, and if my sister saw that at 14, I believe her. I wouldn't shatter my mom and make her lonely by telling her though, she should have someone who loves her to spend her aging years with.
>>2280851
Again- he's been with us for so long, after the sister he creeped on moved out. I think he genuinely loves my mom, but that doesn't make him a good person or not a creep. There's no other young girls in the family after I move out- I feel my mom might as well have good company as she gets older, he makes her happy, since she's been so good to us and given so much. But it still makes me sad to have this secret between me and my mom, to not be able to be myself at home anymore.

No. 2280897

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Do you know this fat feeling when you order a piece of clothing online and you look at it and thik to yourself 'fuck this is huge, I need to return it and order smaller size' and then you try it on and it fits perfectly

No. 2280898

My boyfriend is an extreme neat freak and it reminds me of the lectures my mom (also a neat freak) used to give me when I was a child. I am not a super messy person just normal with a very demanding job so sometimes I am just glad when I have the time to do the laundry or go grocery shopping. In his apartment everything is always spotless and I am often afraid that I mess something up or am not up to his standards in terms of cleanliness. One time I came over after a 12 hour shift, had a cup of tea and accidentally put the teabag in the wrong trash can. He freaked out about it and I felt really ashamed about it. Or one time I put the plates in the wrong spot in the dishwasher.

No. 2280905

I know my nan loves me but there are times where her old hatred comes out and I remember thinking how I didn't know what the fuck I did wrong when she would treat me like this. Now I know she just has some resentment against my mother since she's not as fortunate or stable as my uncle or aunt but I don't know why she has to project that shit onto ME. Both grandparents have done this to me all my life and it took nan's beloved sister confronting her about her treatment to get her to stop treating us that way. To this day she still has some pre-established belief that we will break and steal the stuff that we borrow even though we NEVER HAVE, EVER. Unlike mentioned aunty and uncle, who have harmed her more. What the fuck did I do? Or my mother? I love nan but there is still barely any trust and it worsens as she ages but I feel obligated to visit her in her old age.

No. 2280908

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I was just going to make a chocolate cake from scratch but of course my sister uses one of the cake pans so I just will make it after thanksgiving. I dont even fuck with this shitty booty holiday anyway I just wanted to bake a cake and say I put my blood sweat and tears into it and really mean it. But of all the pans we have why would you use the cake pan to make your shitty jiffy cornbread!?

No. 2280912

Just pissed that my brother is going to marry a MAGA pick me ho and she’s at my parents house right now for Thanksgiving acting holier than thou as usual. Lord grant me the strength not to throw wine at her.

No. 2280913

Years ago there was some retarded religious event in my town and my dad made me attend. He made me pose with his friend's daughters to have a picture taken for the local newspaper. It's online too. I want that picture removed. It's the only picture of me online and I fucking hate it. I need it nuked from this earth

No. 2280918

>>2280505
Yeah, I pretty much talk the same way here as I do in real life. I barely ever comment/post anywhere else.
>>2280514
Kek, I'm curious, how do you type normally?

No. 2280931

>>2280913
You can contact the paper and request for it to be removed. Most smaller newspapers have some policy on the right to be forgotten.

No. 2280935

>>2280908
kek this makes me wanna watch Matilda

No. 2280938

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>>2280935
Miss Trunchbull is unironically such a fucking delightful character kek

No. 2280956

>>2280755
I’m so sorry nona this is the worst I absolutely hate family members that cannot handle other people having emotions simply because they were never comfortable with their own. I’m dealing with the same shit right now with my dad and I want to explode

No. 2280962

>>2280938
The older I get the more I understand her. A lot of kids DO need to be put in the chokie and the only things that brings me joy are in fact sweets.

No. 2280965

>>2280514
i have the opposite problem where i have to force myself to type like an excited toddler outside of here with 100 emojis and exclamation points or else people think i'm weird and rude

No. 2280969

i'm done eating thanksgiving and am ready for the guests to LEAVE.

No. 2280976

>>2280938
>>2280962
Omg thank god you weren't my p6 teacher who noticed me having a melt down because my mum decided to give me a sex 101 introduction before school drop off so she could better explain to me what an affair was and my dad was fucking a whore and destroying a family. My teacher gave me extra care and attention without making a scene. My mum started to become physically abusive towards her kids to cope with her marriage and all being hit did to me was make me sneaky with bad behaviour and anxious

No. 2280977

>>2280520
update: this thanksgiving was quite fun, most likely due to me being tipsy for most of the duration. my grinchiness was unwarranted

No. 2280990

>>2280965
Me too, but I stopped doing it this past year because I don't care anymore, they can think what they want. I do use some emoticons ironically though sometimes kek

No. 2280996

Was looking forward to eating thanksgiving dinner but now that's ruined because after eating only a small amount I got too bloated with a stomach ache and nausea, probably period related since normally I'm able to eat more than this

No. 2281000

I hate having to interact with people, the only thing stopping me from going back to being a hikineet is not knowing how to explain the gap in my resumée once I inevitabely run out of savings. Probably a stupid idea but it's tempting to just claim I tried to freelance and just failed because the market is shit or whatever.

No. 2281013

I hate this stupid house. I hate this stupid fucking house. My dad:
>everytime i go into the kitchen, he follows me there, to go "look" into the fridge, to sip coffee he leaves in the kitchen, to take out his food, to go into the terrace to move something, or to put his cup so that he drinks later. Even when im preparing food, he goes into the terrace to smoke. He watches movies all day and the moment i go into the kitchen, he stops the movie and does all of these things. And then has the audacity to ask me "why do you always stop when i come?"
>when im in the terrace listening to music, he sneaks his head and when i turn to see him he goes away. Or he sits down and starts smoking, or goes to move something.
>he is geriatric and alcoholic, so he has urinal incontinence. I used to sit in the living past 12:00pm so i could finally be alone since i my mom and i share a room. No i can't sit there because it reeks of piss. He also cleans his piss with the bathrobe behind the door, so the bathroom always reeks of piss. He also doesn't wash his hands after and walks around in just boxers. The whole house reeks of piss.
>even when he goes to the bathroom he loudly breaths, sighs, grunts, coughs, i can't even not hear him. I even hear him sometimes when doing anything in the kitchen all the way to my room.
> his teeth are rotten and worn out so he can't chew anything other than soft foods. What does he eat? He mixes chicken and chops up rice, salmon, and mixes it with water, then he eats half of it and freezes it, he next day he chops up more food and mixes that with what he froze yesterday, then its half of it again, and freezes the rest, so none of his food actually fresh and has his saliva mixed in. he has like four containers of this in his freezer. But im the crazy one for constantly washing my hands for wanting as little contact as possible.
>he rinses his mouth in the sink and leaves all of the residue to dry in the sink. So everytime i want to wash my hands in the bathroom i have to scrub the sink, and i can't do it after 8:00pm because the water gets cut off at that hour.
>i have to wash my hands after touching almost anything in the kitchen because no matter how much i clean there is food residue in the fridge door, the counters, the microwave and even the soap bottle.

I do have OCD, but am i seriously crazy if im grossed out? The only way i can temporarily overcome it to get through the day is to make my mindset "nothing matters, the house is filthy but it doesn't matter" and try to become as apathetic as possible but it just pisses me off and makes me not want to live. Im gonna kill myself.

No. 2281023

I think I'm quite normal by every metric that matters and even fairly attractive but I've been so lonely my whole life it drives me insane like god has definitely shadow banned me. I'm 22 now which I understand is still young at uni the second time somewhere new and it's still friendless suffering the only thing that takes my mind off it is my hobbies and weed. Idk just kill me I have no patience left for myself.

No. 2281024

Perhaps during this Thanksgiving Americans can have a think about giving the States back to the natives and if not then shut the fuck up about colonialism

No. 2281027

I've been sleeping terribly having constant nightmares after moving to my new flat and I just found out it was built on top of an old graveyard. Leave me tf alone ghosts do not play with me I am not the one

No. 2281030

>>2281013
you're not crazy, that's foul

No. 2281032

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The thing with Emilie Autumn and the AI art stuff is that she genuinely thought it'd work because of all the time she spent bullshitting throughout her career. It's a uniquely millenial "old hat" conceit. She saw people call her out, so instead of backing down, she doubled down with that old sketch, thinking "Everyone loves a great story". She didn't realize it'd make her look worse, and now she's kind of stuck with a massive L. It may have worked in 2005, it's like she has "can't teach an old dog new tricks" syndrome. In general, she doesn't seem to want to create anymore. No good/fun merch, no new music, no new books. That's what's so scary about getting older. I don't want to reach a certain age and just stop evolving mentally or give up on what I want to make. It happens to so many people.

No. 2281043

Why tf do they not make circle lenses in + prescriptions?? I don't buy the bullshit that there isn't a market for it since practically every cosplayer/Jfashion influencer utilizes them. I used to be able to wear non prescription circle lenses just fine until my eyesight gradually deteriorated (I used to wear glasses as a child, stopped wearing them as a teen, and I guess it all reverted) and now I can't see too well without at least a pair of readers on. I wear regular prescription lenses 98% of the time now but I just want to be able to have fun playing around with different colors and styles like I used to because circle lenses really make a look pop. I'll never be able to afford laser eye surgery to fix the issue permanently so I guess i'm stuck missing out on all the fun. Goddammit.

No. 2281046

>>2281024
The states never actually "belonged" to anyone the Indians who'd migrated there first were just living there before the Europeans and Anglos settled there and claimed it as theirs

No. 2281052

>>2281046
>well technically you found this house, you didn't build it. no one's like, a thief or an intruder or anything just because they brought disease, killed half your family and sequestered you to the attic
>get over it lol, the house doesn't belong to anyone
nta but kekkk

No. 2281053

>>2281052
But there was no house built on the land in America that Indians/Asians initially inhabited? Because nobody owned anything

No. 2281054

>>2281052
Ntayrt but are you really crying about something that happened almost 400 years ago

No. 2281056

>>2281023
me too. even the age. but my family never sent me to a university idk why. we probably couldve afforded it. just taking community college classes in my bumfuck town

No. 2281058

I feel abnormal for not being all that interested in dating moids. I feel like the whole 4B movement thing would be my natural route without pressure and influence from society. By society's standards, Im weird and broken for just not finding moids interesting/beneficial. So now I have to stress myself out over winding up with a moid someday so I can be "normal". I just want to go back to not caring about this shit, like how I used to be.

No. 2281060

Why speaking takes so much energy aaa
I wish I could communicating by whispers or signs, speaking makes everything difficult for me because one of my ears often "explodes" internally when I speak and I have no idea how to describe this sensation better. I also hate people who talk too loudly for the same reason. I don't even like asmr type of stuff but I wish we could communicate in less noisy ways, my ears feel like they're not made for listening…

No. 2281061

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>>2281054
ahem, 403 years ago

No. 2281062

>>2281053
this is such a weak way of trying to tiptoe around genocide and subjugation. stop being a pussy.

>>2281054
me to turks, armenians, first world women, jewish people, black people, white people, south koreans, the japanese, indians, china, russians, and everyone else

No. 2281065

>>2281062
Hows that being a pussy though, the Indians never tried to make America a country of their own they just sort of squatted there

No. 2281067

>>2281062
yeah! lets get over shit and sing kumbaya! that is literally what Thanksgiving is all about

No. 2281068

>>2281024
how is this even a vent and also what a dumbass idea. i mean they can and do run for political positions sometimes? you just want every politician to step down and give the positions to random natives in bumfuck montana?

No. 2281069

>>2281065
you thinking the society they built wasn't good enough doesn't justify them being killed/raped and infected with european diseases, sorry

No. 2281070

>>2281024
>Shut the fuck up about colonialism
colonialism hasn’t been a thing since the 1700’s though nonnie. this is why non burgers shouldn’t comment on American culture kek

No. 2281071

>>2281067
too bad that'll never happen and america invests itself in taking advantage of history to create a present that serves the wealthy. keep sucking that fat national cock nonny

No. 2281072

>>2281069
Ok well do you want me to kneel over their graves and apologize on behalf of the pilgrims?(bait)

No. 2281077

>>2281058
>So now I have to stress myself out over winding up with a moid someday so I can be "normal".
No you don't. Especially if you don't plan to give birth to children. Don't ever do something just to fit others' standards and expectations. You're not abnormal just because you don't fit what current society dictates as a norm. Are you simply not interested in relationships period? Do you prefer your own company, other women, pets? Live true to yourself. The feeling of inner peace and being comfortable in your own skin is unmatched. Besides that, finding a decent moid is hard enough for women who actually like men and want their company. You have the freedom to live unbothered by any of that.

No. 2281078

>>2281053
You're either 13 or you were homeschooled. This is a "Earth is flat" level of incorrect statement.

No. 2281089

>>2281058
god i feel the same lately. have never dated anyone or had any romantic or sexual experiences and honestly dont want to. people treat sex and romance like it has the most value of anything ever but i honestly dont care. men seem very selfish and boring anyways

No. 2281090

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>>2281072
is that your fetish or something? a certain subset of people are very weird about this, it's always
>this bad thing happened
>no it didn't/it was actually ok
>yes it did/no it wasn't, what the fuck
>ok WELL do you want me to kneel down and beg for mercy and lick their feet, go to different parts of the country in chains with my buddies, wear a sign on my neck reading "so sorry" and let these people FUCK MY WIFE as REPARATIONS??? is that what you want???
try just being normal or something, only narcs center everything about how much they hate themselves or how they totally dindu nuffin. maybe look to political organizations that represent whatever people are being talked about and listening to them kek

No. 2281094

>>2280179
I WISH IT WAS JERMA. It would make sense being attracted to him since he is quirky and funny enough, but no. I'm not that lucky.

No. 2281108

>>2281090
Nta but can you shut up like stuff some corn bread in your mouth please(infighting)

No. 2281111

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I'm starting to like a guy and I really hate it, because the way I like people isn't healthy at all. I become obsessive and dependent on his attention and have a lot of bad thoughts. My self-esteem is destroyed. Fuck, I was feeling so peaceful not caring about anyone. Why is it happening again?

No. 2281113

>>2281108
if you don't want someone to keep posting about something, the absolute best thing you can do is not reply things like "omg shut uppp". if you do reply, it's basically just bait to try and drag it on. just a tip for the future, nonna.

No. 2281115

she is my personal fucking evil succubus demon haunting my mind it literally feels like a curse this just isn't normal this is demonic ic ould really believe that if i was religious because it is actually sucking the life out of me and so out of left field to all of the rest of my past until her. i want her banished from my mind palace but also i want to disappear into these soul-overtaking fantasies. see that's the demon curse talking. is what i would say if i believed in demons.

No. 2281116

>>2280996
Welp it was explosive diarrhea happy shitsgiving everyone

No. 2281117

>>2281113
I think i’d venture to say that foreigners having a shitfit about Thanksgiving events of 499 years ago are baiting more than me for saying ‘please shut up’

No. 2281118

>>2281078
Nope I went to public school and thats what they taught me nona

No. 2281119

>>2281117
why do you assume everyone's a foreigner, and why do you do so while using french quotation marks? are you a larper? kekkkkk

No. 2281121

>>2281119
What is french about not using “ “ ? Also the original post was obviously a non burger complaining about Thanksgiving keek

No. 2281122

>>2281119
ntayrt but what the heck are french quotes

No. 2281123

>>2281119
It's not possible to LARP as American because technically anyone can be American

No. 2281124

>>2281122
french and other non burger users tend to use ‘ rather than ' or "

>>2281121
i thought it was pretty clear that more people than the OP were discussing the subject, lmao

No. 2281125

>>2281124
this might be a big shock to you but in America we believe in freedom, which means we have the freedom to use both ' and " interchangably

No. 2281127

>>2281124
Well the big long paragraph crying about how much you hate Americans who don’t give a shit about crimes committed by our ancestors (i.e. , crimes we did not commit) kind of sounds like it was written by an angsty non burger who makes their hatred for Americans their whole personality

No. 2281130

>>2281125
sorry, i just don't buy that you're an american. you're gonna have to post a photo of your passport and your social security number, or just give up here and stop larping. it doesn't have to be this way, just immigrate (legally!) and you're home-free, friend.

No. 2281133

>>2281130
Millennials aren’t very funny

No. 2281134

>>2281127
what "big long paragraph"? are you ESL or something? and where exactly is the hatred toward americans, kek?

No. 2281136

>>2281133
>what do americans think about?
>ummm zoomers and millenials
sad

No. 2281137

>>2281131
Did you actually read the posts you were responding to? Anon, this post >>2281108 (which you responded to here >>2281113 )
is in response to this post >>2281090

No. 2281138

>>2281134
ntayrt but scroll up and read the original post, we're not your babysitter and its not our job to spoonfeed you

No. 2281139

>>2281136
That post doesn’t say “what do Americans think of this” though

No. 2281140

>>2281137
>>2281138
that's not a big long paragraph, it's 4 lines of greentext, and it doesn't mention americans. do you think it's only (or even mainly) americans that act that way or something? the people in that image are british. maybe work on your reading comprehension.

No. 2281141

>>2281134
Nta but Op's comment is one of those edgelordian
>Americans need to think about what they've done!!
posts, when all of the Americans who actually did commit atrocities against Natives are already dead

No. 2281145

>>2281140
The conversation we're having is about Americans and Thanksgiving (you know, an American holiday) though nona. also how am I supposed to telepathically know that they're not American though? I'm obviously going to assume we're talking about Americans, because thats the topic of discussion.

No. 2281148

>>2281140
nta but the post was responding to a comment that was about the american/indian dynamic

No. 2281149

>>2281145
it's pretty clearly aimed at >>2281072 and people that act that way in particular ("a certain subset of people"), not all americans. and idk, those photos have been floating around for years, and google is always available.

No. 2281152

>>2281121
I'm OP. All you Americans are retarded I was having an argument with a faggot burger on Reddit and he kept calling me a coloniser cause I'm British kek

No. 2281154

>>2281149
>google is always available
What does this even mean? You expect me to do research on weird white people slave line pictures in the middle of a lolcow conversation about thanksgiving lmao?

No. 2281155

>>2281152
That doesn't make any sense at all? How would british people be colonizing anything if they're still british and never became American

No. 2281156

>>2281154
you're seething and misreading posts on lolcow, so i think you have time for that, yeah kekkk

No. 2281157

>>2281139
that's not what was implied?

No. 2281158

>>2281155
Idk what is confusing you so much. I wrote a vent after some moid kept calling me a coloniser just because I'm British. Not the first time I've heard an American online use that as an insult.

No. 2281160

>>2281156
It's not really seething to not know that the people in the picture were british

No. 2281162

>>2281160
you seem pretty flustered about it

No. 2281164

>>2281141
not all americans are retarded or in support of what happened, though? that much is clear.

No. 2281165

>>2281162
Where exactly, anon? We're having a conversation about Americans on thanksgiving

No. 2281167

>>2281164
Americans who are alive now didn't have any power over what was happening at the time though so our opinions on the events of the 1620's don't matter

No. 2281169

>>2281165
here: >>2281154 and >>2281137
i think you should calm down, you just misinterpreted the post and got weirdly hung up on the british thing. shit happens lol

No. 2281170

>>2281167
i think everyone who learns about history and politics disagrees with you. homeschooling is not good nonny.

No. 2281171

>>2281169
I don't really see anyone whos not being civil right now anon

No. 2281172

>>2281169
>>2281162
>you seem pretty flustered
>you need to calm down
nta but this doesn’t even really read as an infight to me right now just a mildly aspergian disagreement

No. 2281173

>>2281171
then you can relax, it's okay

No. 2281174

>>2281170
Who's been talking about home schooling? We're talking about Thanksgiving

No. 2281175

>>2281174
a previous anon mentioned it, scroll up.

No. 2281176

>>2281174
Oh but nona we're not talking about thanksgiving. We're talking about the poor treatment of the indigenous population of the Americas by settlers who always insert themselves into global politics but would struggle to point most countries out on a map

No. 2281177

>>2281173
Nona I am relaxed about this discussion, I'm just stating my opinion that you can't really expect people to give a shit about things that we had no power over

No. 2281179

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i will never have this

No. 2281180

>>2281176
No actually the original post is about how people think Americans should think about what happened to the Indians on Thanksgiving, if you scroll up

No. 2281181

>>2281177
you didn't state that, though. are you posting in multiple threads?

No. 2281182

>>2281180
Anon I wrote the first post after I had an argument with a moid. You're actually very slow and possibly retarded

No. 2281183

>>2281180
NTA but you sound mildly autistic, i'm not convinced this is the right conversation for you.

No. 2281185

>>2281181
Here, let me help you out:
>>2281046
>>2281053
>>2281061
>>2281065
>>2281072

>>2281182
I don't know why you're calling me slow when the post authored verbatim says
>Perhaps during this Thanksgiving Americans can have a think about giving the States back to the natives and if not then shut the fuck up about Colonialism

No. 2281186

>>2281183
They're either the most boring troll alive and/or autistic

No. 2281189

>>2281183
>>2281186
Why does everyone slap the word autism on literally everything these days? That's not what autism is. Autism is a neurological disability. Me reading a post about thanksgiving and being capable of reading the words on the screen is actually not a sign of autism.

No. 2281191

>>2281185
Yeah. It just so happens a yank had a go at me on their turkey hallmark holiday of thanking the natives for rolling over to militia warfare and disease. A funny coincidence

No. 2281192

>>2281185
that was you? that just means you got a reply here >>2281090 and just yelled "reeee shut up!!!" because you couldn't actually argue with the suggestion given or the observation made, and now you're trying to pretend your dumb posts represent all americans. this is embarrassing, kek.

No. 2281193

>>2281189
Nta but a lot of people think a mild misunderstanding or miscommunication = autism now

No. 2281194

>>2281189
Your reading comprehension isn't good at all for an adult perhaps you should be tested

No. 2281195

>>2281189
find a carer

No. 2281196

>>2281192
Actually the shut up comment wasn't mine, you must be new here if you don't know what the acronym NTA stands for kek

No. 2281197

>>2281193
No it's the over fixation of a small detail in a bigger picture and lack of reading comprehension you would expect from an adult

No. 2281198

>>2281194
I think my reading comprehension is perfectly fine, considering that the post is implying that Americans should "think about what we've done" on thanksgiving. I'm not sure how you'd expect me to inuit that OP got into a fight with a man and was letting off steam via that post, anon.

No. 2281199

>>2281196
my bad, i forgot that post read "NTA". what i meant was, you yelled "well it's big long paragraph about hating americans!!!" because you couldn't actually argue with the suggestion given or the observation made, and now you're trying to pretend your dumb posts represent all americans. this is embarrassing, kek.

No. 2281200

>>2281197
NTA but what small detail was I fixating on? Could you please maybe tag those posts for me?

No. 2281201

>>2281200
>NTA but what small detail was I fixating on?
KEK, busted

No. 2281202

>>2281199
When did I claim or pretend that I speak for all Americans? I stated my personal opinion.

No. 2281203

>>2281201
I'm asking kindly, what detail do you think I was fixated on? Because I read the post and responded accordingly based off what the post verbatim states..

No. 2281205

none of you can possibly care this much about indians. go eat some pecan pie or something oh my god let it go

No. 2281206

>>2281202
when you pretended >>2281090 was aimed at americans in general, not just yourself and other strange individuals, including those from britain.

No. 2281209

>>2281203
IMO, it's not very kind to pretend to be a different anon for the sake of an argument.

No. 2281210

>>2281206
What post did I make claiming that that was targeted at all Americans?

No. 2281211

>>2281198
America is a country founded by immigrants desecrating the native populations. I wrote the original post. I know what the intent of the words mean. They were aimed at retards like the one I encountered that uses the word coloniser as a slur against brits. How ironic on this day that faggot had the gall. I'm sure the irony is lost on him because the American public school system seems fucking atrocious

No. 2281212

>>2281209
Anon, the mods can see our post histories. It's impossible to pretend to be multiple anons at once because you'd just get redtexted or all of your posts would be deleted.

No. 2281213

I had a pretty retarded holiday. I realized that my family is kind of abhorrent. Which means by extension I am in my own way. I've been trying to "grow up" and not focus on the negatives and instead try and focus on gratitude for family members. But then we all got together and
my little brother is an abusive piece of shit to his girlfriend, inheriting the verbal abuse my mom threw at both of us when we were young and my father's lack of empathy. He wanted to break up with her because of some mistrust about cheating (he's cheated in a past relationship and now he's wigging out about her possibly cheating) and they break up and get back together and blah blah it's a whole mess and long story short I have no sympathy for him and a lot for her.
Also my mother randomly blurted out that it should be her right as a homeowner to only choose to rent to white people. We were having a hypothetical discussion about renting to people and she just blurted it out. My mom is a boomer but has never said anything so water-on-the-brain retarded in a long time. Perfect timing for the political party in power that wants to uproot every regulation and policy we have and throw it into a blender. maybe my mother will fulfill her hypothetical dream of becoming the ultimate racist landlord. My dad just sucks period, I can't even get into it here. Fuck my life.

And the worst part is if I call them out aggressively instead of what I did (basically "uhhh mom that's illegal you know. you can't do that." and started talking over her when she started chuckling like it was a silly little comment) my parents would basically act like I'm ruining thanksgiving by not putting up with the stupid shit coming out of their mouths. I'm ashamed of them.

No. 2281214


No. 2281215

ok it’s time to go back to venting let’s wrap it the fuck up

No. 2281216

>>2281212
so why did you try to do that?

No. 2281218

>>2281214
In neither of those posts do I say the words "this post is targeted at Americans", I assumed we were discussing Americans because the conversation we were having was about Americans and the comment was also responding to Americans and the topic of an American holiday
>>2281216
Do you wanna tag what posts that you think are all the same person?

No. 2281219

mods dead confirmed

No. 2281220

>>2281218
this was probably the lamest baiting ever. do better next time (and get tested for autism), nonny.

No. 2281221

>>2281220
Is this a new form of bait? Accusing other anons of baiting when they write a coherent, well thought out response to you?

No. 2281222

>>2281218
>>2281200
>NTA but what small detail was I fixating on?

Holy fuck I'm not that anon (NTA) you replied too, but in the green text you wrote, "Not that anon (NTA), but what detail was I

You're either a retard, a retard trying to samefag or a retard

No. 2281224

i can’t put my arms down!!!

No. 2281225

>>2281222
nta but nona you might wanna at least finish writing your post before hitting reply

No. 2281226

>>2281221
reply again if you think you're in love with me

No. 2281227

>>2281224
High-five!

No. 2281228

>>2281221
just report and ignore mommy

No. 2281229

>>2281225
Repetition is used for emphasis

No. 2281230

>>2281228
M…mommy?

No. 2281236

I genuinely hate living in an apartment so much, the stress and sleep deprivation from having annoying inconsiderate neighbors is negatively impacting me. last apartment I lived in I had a schizophrenic scrote living below me who would scream and yell (usually with all his windows open of course) and he would sometimes blast music. there were also a group of drug dealing asshole scrotes living above me that would constantly party and do drugs and blast annoying music daily at all hours of the night. now I'm living in a different place but still in an apartment and the jobless shitstain scrotes above me blast music, stomp around, drag furniture across their floor, yell and basically make noise 24/7 plus the obese unkempt hobbyless loser next door blasts her tv constantly. I wish I could win some money in a lottery or something, I just want to be able to afford a small house without any attached neighbors in a quiet safe neighborhood. I can't live the rest of my life hearing constant disturbing loud noise because I'm forced to share walls and ceilings/floors with the dregs of society.

No. 2281239

I hate holidays bro leave me out of all of them. I dont even care for Halloween anymore. Everyone puts on this fake facade when they know deep down they hate this shit too. Like why is it 11pm and no one has said grace or did any of this kumbaya bullshit. But if I just go to bed IM the asshole

No. 2281243

>>2280969
the guests left and we're done cleaning. we have so much leftover. turkey as always is so dry.

No. 2281274

I was never a very smart or studious person which is basically a death sentence in our society. I am unable to concentrate for long periods of time and am especially bad at math or logical thinking. I am a very quiet person so I befriended the quiet, smart and studious girls in my school. Oral performance is 50% at schools in my country so teachers usually assumed that I was somewhere in the range of my friends who were always perfect. I cheated on almost all of my exams. I did it because I know that doing well in school means getting into university. And getting into university means landing a better job. Sounds edgy af but for me it was about survival. I am now getting a degree and still cheating on all of the exams. I am not a very bright student and a lot of the topics give me headaches. But we are allowed to use a law book in all of our exams and I basically became really good at art forgery. I still have another year to go. I fucking hate school and studying. But if you want to be successful you either are an extrovert that knows how to connect with people or be smart and good at math so you can get a stem degree. I suck at both so I have to find a different way.

No. 2281275

Been officially dating this guy for one day and asked him what life would look like if we were married , just as a hypothetical. He says he expects me to do everything around the house because he would let me live with him “rent free”. Sorry but wtf do you mean rent free? Who refers to their wife as living with them rent free . That’s the bare minimum. I know some people here are going to say that’s a fair thing for him to say and that often couples go 50 50 but not in my culture and also rent free is a crazy way of putting it

No. 2281276

>>2281239
agreeeeee

No. 2281277

>>2281274
You’re not going to believe me but everything about this is me to a T. The last month of my masters I emailed my professor and pretended I was hospitalized to get out of doing a major project . No, I was just burnt out and severely depressed and too dumb to do it.

No. 2281295

>>2281275
>I know some people here are going to say that’s a fair thing for him to say and that often couples go 50 50
i doubt any farmers would, he sounds vile. if he thinks he's got cash he can pay for a cleaning service.

No. 2281337

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All i want is a decently looking boyfriend that is kind and sweet and not some insane right leaning extremely misogynistic dude. Men like this are so hard to find in the country i live in unless they are gay, everyone is so radicalized here the only guys who hit on me were all weird conservatives, please free me from this shithole.

No. 2281345

i just took 2.1g of mushrooms and everything was a lot…. like too much. i feel like the weight of the world is in my chest.

No. 2281346

also, i feel like a stupid baby

No. 2281348

I fucking hate my ex so fucking much I hope he suffers through the entitled bullshit he put me through.

Literally tried having sex with an unconcious women yet still walks around thinking nothing wrong of this? even though he claims to be such a feminist, and LGBTQ too! he's just a chimp, waiting for his satisfaction unnable to do anything that doesn't give dopamine immediately. I've always worked hard for what I have, due to my poor upbringing, and this motherfucker told me he had it similar even though he's 21 living at home with NO job and NO future school, literally sitting at home playing pokemon and other shitty online games all day. He's a balding alcoholic but if you dare bring this up he will cry. Motherfucker NOTHING bad has happened in your life yet you act like such a fucking victim, get a grip, I hope he suicides as he will never put in the effort to improve, at least he won't harass women anymore

No. 2281351

>>2281345
How are you feeling nonnie?

No. 2281359

In a small server with a moid who I can't fucking stand, he's such a gross pervert and obnoxious leech, tries to make everything into a sex joke and tries so hard to be funny or accepted. It's my close friend's server and I guess he's kind of her online friend, she also said point-blank that he's annoying and doesn't like him yet still entertains his pathetic attempts for validation. He posted a vent about being suicidal and I so badly want to suicide-bait him from an alt account but my conscious keeps telling me it's a bad idea. It's hypocritical of me since I'm also suicidal and have probably thought/posted very similarly to his vents so it would probably just backfire on me, but god I wish he would actually go through with it.

No. 2281361

>>2281359
Discord scrotes are sex pests

No. 2281365

>>2281345
Everything will be okay and if it's scary just remember time passes and it will get better. Try and enjoy yourself though! Do something you enjoy.

No. 2281384

I want to leave America but I know I have nothing to offer another country.

No. 2281385

I called in sick for a uni seminar but Im not but I have a presentation today I dont want to do. Now everyone will be dissapointed in me

No. 2281391

>>2281277
I wish I could do that but they require proof.

No. 2281413

My mom abandonned me six month ago, can you imagine how much of a piece of shit you have to be for your own mother to cut you off from her life ? I wish it didn't hurt me as bad but it really does.

No. 2281419

>>2278154
My dad is a fucking moron who couldnt stop breeding and had me at 43 and now I have a fucked up genetic disorder that no doctor has ever heard of because his geriatric sperm was riddled with mutations. I have so many issues with basically every part of my body and I will probably die of cancer. I don't know why anyone would willingly do this to a child. The man has 8 fucking toes and 9 fingers and he didnt stop for one second to think hmmm maybe I shouldnt reproduce

No. 2281433

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still not over fumbling the 6ft+ wasian with nice hands and dimples.

No. 2281496

God I hate working in a male dominated field and as if it is not stressful enough, when there is finally another woman around turns out she is a hardcore PICKME and fucks you over more than a moid. As if men aren't sociopathic towards women enough, a good number of women support that shit because they think what? Men are suddenly gonna have empathy towards them?

I am turning misanthropic

No. 2281499

Going to the employment center today after avoiding it for a bit (I was working before but recently became unemployed). Last time I went the woman there straight up told me I shouldn't have any anxiety and be better off in life at my age (I'm in my mid 20s) and acted really mean and condescending for no reason. Like sure I know I'm a failure and should have a steady job by now and not still be looking but I was literally there because I'm trying to do something with my life kek? Like why react like this when I'm just trying to go out and get a job again. Plus I was in college and already had a job before so it's not like I wasn't doing anything, so it just felt totally uncalled for. So now I just feel anxious about going again, doesn't help that last time I went they barely even helped me out.

No. 2281500

>>2281499
Anon ignore her you’re taking control of your life and doing something about it and she’s a dumb bitch. Going to the Jobcentre is hard as fuck and people who’ve never done it don’t realise how difficult it is to lay your cards out and do something about your life and anon you’re doing it and I love you

No. 2281505

>>2281499
You're doing an amazing job and fuck whatever anyone else says. It's not easy to take accountability for the things that happen in your life, hence why most people continue to be shit instead of improving and seeking out help. I'm proud of you nonna, you have nothing to be ashamed or embarrassed of.

No. 2281516

Nonas I’m scared my tampon broke my hymen. Usually I can feel the wall that the tampon stops at/pokes but this month I cant and I remember feeling a sharp pain when I was pulling it out on the first day of my period this month. My family is religious which is why this scares me, I only recently switched to tampons since they’re much easier to walk around in

No. 2281518

Another year, another holiday season of wanting to end my life.
I can’t do it anymore, not for another year. I think I’ll very much do it once I secure a carer for my cats.

No. 2281530

>>2281499
I've never seen anyone working in an employment center who didn't have a negative IQ, so don't listen to that woman and cheer up.

No. 2281546

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>>2281516
The hymen never leaves the body, anon. There's typically a hole inside it. If you had no hole there (or a very tiny hole/small holes), you'd most likely have to get surgery to prevent complications with menstruation and/or sex.
The hole can stretch a bit wider and/or thin out, but it grows back over time. Just be careful when you insert/remove tampons.

No. 2281548

>>2281499
She probably tells herself that shit when she looks in the mirror because she's older than you and ended up working at an employment center. It's bitterness, and likely envy. Don't take any of it to heart, you're doing great nonny.

No. 2281550

Incels shouldn't even be a thing. What do you mean involuntary celibate? Somehow I see cute girls with the most ugly, hairy, fat, disgusting old men in the world. Just go on /g/ and see the unconventional men thread. And the worst part is that they feel GENUINE love for these creatures. Males shouldn't call themselves incels. I'm the real involuntary celibate. I'm the one who will never be loved. I will never find a girlfriend because SSA women are already pretty rare. Some are in relationships. And I don't trust a lot of people because of one girl I knew who swore she was lesbian but got a boyfriend anyway. Other support trannies. And I'm an undesirable ethnicity on top of that. KEK. "Incels" have it so easy

No. 2281577

>>2281550
I don't get it either, the ones who are crying about being an incel the most don't even want change because then they won't receive male validation. I don't think you're an incel though maybe involuntarily single

No. 2281606

>>2281550
>undesirable ethnicity
I expect all sorts of insults for this but in the creative queer lefty scene, if you are not white and make yourself known as being SSA you will have all the pussy thrown at you that you can handle. The only problem will be navigating who is just looking for a fetishistic queer PoC experience uwu and who is actually looking for a relationship.

No. 2281628

>>2281606
Yeah, I can't stand kweerios. I'd like someone who doesn't give a fuck about the TQ+ and gendie shit. I also don't want them to feel like they have to get with me because of muh diversity or some forced woke shit. I just want to have a normal relationship like anyone else

No. 2281716

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Rejection from women feel so fucking awful. Been trying to reach out to get more normie friends, or at the very least non-spergy nerd friends. The only normie people I get along with are moids, but I want a stronger feminine circle but I always end up finding out I'm either the pet oddball or the only one in the group that isn't a part of their group chats despite me being the one that is pushed to arrange get-togethers at my place.
I always work hard to contain my power level, I'm pretty sure I'm not weird and I always try to meet people where they are mentally and personality-wise. But still, that is not enough. Every time I get hurt like this I just want to die.
I have a small circle I've had for many years, I love them but they are handmaidens and a bit spergy. I want to have a wider circle of people around me so I can always ask for opinions from people from a completely different point of view, and experience different types of people so I can constantly evolve as a person. But I guess I'm too much of a loser for people to bother with.

No. 2281719

I have no energy I feel so heavy and sluggish like Kiersten dunst with chains around her legs in melancholia. I can’t tell if I’m just depressed or my body is actually exhausted.

No. 2281733

>>2281716
samefag, thinking about it now I've realized it has kind escalated my social anxiety, which probably makes me a bit off-putting. I've developed a slight stutter and stumble on my words more nowadays because I'm so scared of being judged and hurt that I look like even more of a fucking loser. No wonder people don't like me.

No. 2281739

>>2281733
Nona don't beat yourself up. Normies kind of suck to be honest, no offense to them but they're so sensitive to anything even slightly out of the norm. Like you could be wearing the wrong brand of shoes and they'd have something to say about it. If you stutter a bit and they don't like it, imagine how you'd feel if you did manage to befriend them and they then went on to trash talk a different girl for stuttering or something else equally harmless. I know you'll find friends it just takes a while and can be awkward and scary sometimes

No. 2281750

i think im actually retarded. i always think "oh yeah this is it" but when i say it, it eventually falls flat. i can never read the room well. its kind of keekky how i put so much effort into my own thoughts to try and keep up with a conversation, i feel like an alien pretending to be a human.

No. 2281762

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yesterday I wore really tight shoes, which caused blisters on both feet. Today I wore different shoes because I had another busy day and while the one on my right feet looks as it did yesterday, the one on my left feet (between two toes) got so much bigger. It now has the size of a damn pea (or even bigger than that) and not only is it uncomfortable, but it also looks super disgusting. I've read that you are not allowed to pop those things. fuck.

No. 2281777

>>2281628
That's understandable but also makes you a volcel, not an incel

No. 2281787

>>2281712
>AI is a free psychologist
I do this out of desperation and I'd say it's about as close to a psychologist as reading a well tailored self help book is. It's better than nothing, and probably better than a bad untrained counsellor, but at the end of the day you know you're just talking to an interactive book. It can't actually pass judgement and advise you, you are alone and you have 0 accountability if you decide to ignore what it tells you to do because you're there only person in the conversation.

No. 2281796

I wish i had whatever normie women have that makes them find fullfillment in male validation and being a martyr

No. 2281813

>>2281787
>It can't actually pass judgement and advise you, you are alone and you have 0 accountability if you decide to ignore what it tells you to do
Unfortunately a lot of psychologists are like this too, they only help you with resources to calm yourself down and never give real advice, you make your own choices

No. 2281817

does it freak anyone else out that thyroid cancer is on the rise in young adults?

No. 2281823

Omg the new audio girl is so annoying and loud, she's always trying to be the center of attention at all times. She's never quiet, she has to sing or say something or laugh loudly when everyone is trying to work. I try to ignore it but sometimes it's too much. Maybe I'm not entirely normal myself but fuuuckk I'm currently at the before waiting for my headache to get better.

No. 2281824

>>2281817
No I actually feel really optimistic about cancer in general
With the rapid advancements in medicine I'm almost completely sure it will be easily curable very soon

No. 2281826

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>>2281236
been using earmuffs 24/7 for years now, even and especially while trying to sleep
my face skin is starting to peel from constant irritation

No. 2281828

>>2281824
Idk nonna sometimes I get freaked out because I’ve heard so many stories about chemotherapy and radiation therapy making cancer worse or causing it to spread. And it just makes me cringe internally, the idea of really young adults and teenagers being diagnosed with cancer

No. 2281835

>>2281828
I really encourage you to follow medical news, it will shift your entire worldview away from a doomer perspective. We are making giant strides

No. 2281843

>>2281835
they're never gonna cure cancer it makes a lot of money

No. 2281844

>>2281843
literally exactly this!! why would they cure cancer when they can keep sucking people dry?

No. 2281847

>>2281844
even more money if it causes side effects and the doctors assisting you quemo dont do anything or give you any help so you have to go to another doctor to fix your problems

No. 2281850

I had a fight(?) with my neighbors and now feel uncomfortable at home lol. It's a young couple, so I hope they'll just get pregnant soon and then move out again because I know for a fact realistically their apartment is too small to raise a child there.

No. 2281868

>>2281847
>>2281844
>>2281843
1) "They" and their loved ones are gonna get cancer just like everyone else
2) I know some "they's" doing medical research in Big Pharma
Keep that shit in the tinfoil thread

No. 2281898

I hate that being a bald woman with piercings seems to make people think I'm very confident and makes them want to approach me. I'm retarded and agoraphobic so I always forget to smile and speak in a monotone voice like a freak. If I'm relaxed I love talking to women about being bald and my piercings, but it's rare for me to be in that headspace outside. I've been shaving my head since I was a teenager and I can't recognize myself (and feel ugly kek) without my piercings so I cope since I'm most likely never going to change up my look. I just wish it didn't make people stare at me like I'm an alien or approach me for seemingly no reason.

No. 2281907

I hope my dad drops dead

No. 2281923

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>>2281907
same with my dad, nonna!

No. 2281965

Going to a new restaurant in the city alone, what’s new. If I don’t do things alone,
I’ll never do them. No friends, no one.

No. 2282065

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My TiM brother is here for thanksgiving. If any nonas remember me, I’m the one with the troon brother who got massive bolt-ons as part of his gender affirming surgery or whatever the fuck. While here he has brought up bras and how hard it is to find a bra no less than five times. He keeps showing me shitty comics that are suppose to be relatable about how hard bras are to shop for. He’s complained how he has called multiple stores asking if they accept TiM clients for a fitting and they have all said no. He obviously wanted me to volunteer to measure him or give advice but I just have a flat “oh wow” when he was complaining about not being catered to.

I’ve literally never talked about bras or bra fittings with any of my actual female friends as much as he is forcing it on me. If it’s that important to him he can figure it out himself like 99% of women are forced to do. I refuse to be forced into a handmaiden role by default because we are related. I hope his cone tits make him sick.

No. 2282084

>>2281817
not particularly, there's some preliminary research suggesting there could be a link between thyroid cancer and vaping. between a lot of cancers and vaping, actually. i would caution vaping anything except for weed. but weed also is concerning due to contaminants… but there are contaminants in literally everything now.
>>2281828
i know a lot of people in radiation oncology. radiation therapy should not make cancer spread. it consists of precisely hitting the tumors with a strong dose of radiation. what can make cancer worse or spread is not adhering to your treatment plan. the centers will reschedule patients who don't take their treatments ASAP, even working over time because patients show up 5 hours late to their appointments. there are some cases where people will develop cancer after successfully being treated with radiation but that is VERY rare. i would say having cancer twice is better than dying from cancer once but circumstances definitely vary.
chemo is far from perfect but it's saved countless lives in the decades its been used. immunotherapy is going to replace chemotherapy eventually and it's VERY promising. if you have someone you love with cancer, please ask their oncologist about immunotherapy to find if it is an option for them.
i know someone who had an aggressive kind of kidney cancer that couldn't be treated with radiation or chemo. he was able to have experimental immunotherapy almost a decade ago and is still alive to this day. he also isn't frail or visibly weakened from it.
>>2281843
this is not true. if you live in the US being blackpilled about the healthcare industry is understandable but understand that the US isn't the whole world. also some cancers are already 'curable' and the vast majority of ones are treatable with existing and new treatments.

No. 2282088

>>2281965
Good, go alone and have fun instead of just waiting for others to agree to follow you and then try to change your plans to your liking.

No. 2282135

>>2282065
that's super creepy, good on you for grey rocking and not giving in.

No. 2282147

i have a myomectomy major surgery scheduled for next friday. im freaking out bad right now. i could staight up die nonas. its basically the same recovery as a c-section as they'll be cutting me open and through my stomach muscles to pull out my uterus and remove a large fibroid. this whole thing has been so stressful with arranging to be off work and get short term disability cause my surgeon says i should take 6 weeks off work to recover. i didnt work out or eat well and didnt cut back on weed likei should have an now theres only a week and im afraid im gonna bleed out on the table and am shaking yall. plus my last internet bill didnt go through so i had to ask my mom for $100 until i get paid and just realizing they'll want more money on dec 1st which i dont have. everything is fucked and im scared.

No. 2282183

My life is a big fat joke and everything is always stolen from me. What even am I anymore.

No. 2282185

I’ve vented about feeling hated by cashiers before, but this time I’m really not reading into things. There’s this one middle aged woman who always wishes everyone in line a nice day except for me. I’ve been avoiding her because of this, but today she was the only one working so I had to go to her register. This time not only did she not greet me, but when I asked for the receipt, she threw it in the trash. I just stood there assuming she was going to print out a new one, but then she started scanning the next person’s items. Honestly I’m not resilient enough to handle situations like this over and over, it’s not making me stronger or helping my anxiety, it’s making me hate myself more. I feel like a disgusting subhuman, disrespected and hated by everyone.

No. 2282192

>>2282147
I'm sorry to read that you're in such stressful situation, anon. Focus on your health and don't worry about asking for money, your mother should understand, and if she doesn't ask her anyway. Try to stick to the pre-surgery protocol as much as you can. If you don't have any weird prexisting blood conditions you'll be fine, but stick to the rules just for 1 week so you feel more relaxed before the surgery. I think it's much more important that you take care of yourself AFTER the surgery. Everything will go well ♥

No. 2282208

I'm getting real sick and tired of one of my friends constantly talking about how she's "attracted to all women and maybe 2 men" and yet you can guess who she exclusively dates and cries to me about. I'm not even a lesbian but no wonder lesbians despise this bihet behavior kek

No. 2282212

>>2282185
If I were you I would disguise myself as someone else very convingcingly (fake voice included) and buy some stuff, then I'd be nice to her and, just if she's actually nice to me like she's to everyone else, then I would unmask myself right in front of her and see her reaction. Or you could go to her register with another person (relative, friend, whatever) and proceed to be nice to her, see what she does if you have another person by your side. If she remains a sour bitch I say you should stalk her and mess with her in minecraft. Anon you don't deserve to deal with any of that.

No. 2282213

>>2282065
I have a former HS friend who whines all the time about his boobs hurting now that he's on HRT. Ew, moobs.

No. 2282225

>>2282208
I'm bisexual but I hate bisexuals because of this

No. 2282228

Copied my entire personality, fine. But now my accent too? Bitch you're a fucking bong that speaks like a roadman, why have you stolen my accent now too?

No. 2282230

>>2282208
Samefag I hate the "all women" shit. No you're not attracted to all women, let's be realistic in terminology. This just sounds like aesthetic attraction at best and so you look nlog or something like that at worst. If she was younger and on tiktok she would definitely post shit like "uwu imagine if we were both girls and held hands and wore strawberry dresses". Barf.

No. 2282235

>>2282192
thank you. i think if i have one week of being as healthy as i can it'll help, even if just mentally.

No. 2282238

holy fucking shit i hate criminals and i hate women who defend them and talk about muh muh human rights. are you fucking retarded? what about OUR human rights that they keep on violating but the justice system does nothing about it? i believe criminals and women who defend them MUST be sentenced to death and nothing of value will be lost. how are you a woman defending a fucking rapist, you utterly low iq scum? god, i hate her, she’s a fucking cunt, a pick me, a fucking maid.

i live in a quiet suburb but our neighborhood has been plagued by crime this past year, there have been multiple rapes, car thefts and home invasions with assault rifles and MACHINE GUNS, like what the fuck is this shit? it’s to the point that you can’t sleep in peace at night and living this paranoid is so tiring, my sleep pattern is completely fucked up. whenever i hear or think i see something from the corner of my eye, i panic.

last night, a disgraceful vandal, thug, criminal, hoodlum, etc. tried to break into a neighbors house with a gun and a big ass knife and she sent an audio crying asking for help, it was about 12 am so everyone went outside to help her, kicked the criminal and someone beat the disgrace with a bat (deserved, but a bullet would’ve been better) and then this BITCH that lives in the neighborhood too, who has a home restaurant and feeds criminal looking males comes crying and screaming, making a big deal out of it, starts recording us and talks about ‘his human rights’ and how he is a ‘defenseless man’ AND THREATENS US. what’s wrong with this retard? i legit hope he breaks into her house, and i don’t care if he kills her, if she ever asks for help, we decided that we won’t be helping her. she’s so retarded and thinks she can defend herself, yeah good luck defending yourself from criminals with guns and knives with peace and love, kekkkkkk. she loves defending criminals and it’s probably one of the hoodlums she’s fucking.

i will call the department of health on her stupid ass a thousand times, i’m pretty sure her food permit isn’t up to date because that shit looks unhygienic as FUCK, she has been living here for two years max and came out of nowhere. that home restaurant used to have another name and owner (they dated), and the food was actually great but now she changed the name, the quality changed and the clientele too, it's mostly dodgy-looking moids and truckers. sometimes you can even see RATS outside like who the fuck allows this shit restaurant to stay open? it’s all so bleak, no one knows where the previous owner went, they could’ve killed him for all we know. this sounds bad but i can only hope that someone kills her in hope of this shit ending, because before her arrival we never had break-ins and actually had peace.

i hate living in latin america, i hate living in fear, i hate knowing that i’ll probably never be able to leave this shit continent permanently at least in a legal way, i hate how this country has turned into a shithole so quickly, i hate how a moid can assault, rape and kill, walk free and have a hundred maids caping for his subhuman ass and his human rights. i hate our justice system. what a fucking joke. i hate this and i want to die

No. 2282297

>>2281500
>>2281505
>>2281530
>>2281548
Thanks nonnas, I appreciate your encouraging words a lot. I went by now and everything was okay, turns out today it was a different person working there so I felt relieved I didn't have to deal with the other woman that was rude to me, I was treated just fine this time around. I'm hoping it leads to me finding employment again soon, I hate how anxious I get about these things but I'm trying to power through.

No. 2282315

>>2282065
He can measure his goddamn self. What a creep.

No. 2282322

It's post holiday cleaning day and I'm having an autoimmune flare up. If I can post here with swollen hands I can certainly vacuum and do dishes too but still, I hate this shit kek

No. 2282351

My family pisses me the hell off. I wish i could legally disown them all. They never speak to me unless they want something, usually money!

The delusional bitches were poor their whole lives and think i owe them because they “took care of me”. Yeah, you also made me the sole bread winner as a teenager, took all my money, tried to discourage me from moving out so i could keep working. Then when i moved away, demonized me to anyone who’d listen.

I’m no contact but these bitches pop up like roaches every few months. Sending me photos of bills and their empty fridge. God just leave me the hell alone!!!

No. 2282355

I've became antisemitic in the past week and it's legitimately made me super fucking depressed when you realize Jews control everything. Overrepresented in medicine, entertainment, law, tech, etc. They are the CEOs of every industry and pushed for institutionalized segregation in the form of suburbs. Not only that but they popularized and legalized pornography in the US and eventually worldwide. Jews are why Americans send billions to Israel every year that could be used for our citizens. They also have all the benefits of white privilege while still being considered an "oppressed minority" in the modern day. How the fuck am I supposed to be happy with this information? Should I just kill myself? What can someone like me even do?(/pol/ tard)

No. 2282364

>>2282355
Move on from things way outside your control? You're doing the same to the impending doom of climate change and war and various other things.

No. 2282365

>>2282355
Why does the part that they're jewish bother you though? They're a small number of jewish elites who don't represent the larger group any more than US billionaires represent you or your values. And what about all the shit heads in charge and positions of power who aren't jewish, do they get off for free because they happen to not be jewish?

No. 2282378

>>2282355
is /pol/ open on your other tab? kek what the fuck

No. 2282380

>>2282364
And do what? Be a wage slave to a Jewish CEO who steals my profits?
>>2282365
Jews are 2% of the population and make up a high percentage of noble prize winners, CEOs, billionaires, etc. It's not like non-Jewish white people who make up the majority of the US population. It's fucking alarming. Hollywood is 60% Jewish. They actively want to ruin western society specifically in America, which is why they push degeneracy like sexual deviancy and violence that actively contribute to disenfranchisement of groups like black Americans. I'm white but it still disgusts me.
>>2282378
Jesus fucking christ, no one can criticize you people without one of you waltzing in screeching about pol or anti semitism for pointing out simple facts. Most of this site likely agrees that black people are overrepresented in crime statistics, trannies are overrepresented in suicide rates, so why can't we agree that Jews are overrepresented in positions of power? I've never even used /pol/ either.(racebait)

No. 2282382

>>2282355
So do christian child molesters. Get off the internet

No. 2282394

>>2282382
I don't like Christians, but last time I checked they haven't founded and run hedge funds that harm America like Blackrock. They don't control the housing market which has impoverished Americans of all races besides their own kind. My county with a large black minority is currently sending 16 million to Israel. Our major city is majorly black, and also majorly lower class, but they instead to help the thriving Jewish upper class in a country thousands of miles away.

No. 2282402

>>2282238
i know this is horrible for you and one situation probably doesn’t give you much hope. but honestly knowing that one woman was able to cry for help and people actually cared and came has me in tears. bless the people who protected her and fuck pick me bitches who would rather women be raped and killed in silence than a single man face a single consequence.

No. 2282408

I'm choking on my own saliva because of anxiety. You may think it's retarded but it's actually quite uncomfortable, I feel like I'm chocking and gasping for air

No. 2282409

I am a fucking failure.

No. 2282422

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If there was ever a presidential candidate that would be prone to terfing out I feel like it would be her.

No. 2282428

>>2282402
i agree, nonny. i'm really glad that she was able to send an audio, and that most of our neighbors were awake and everyone could run to help her because this could've ended terribly. whenever i'm mad and fatalistic about this crime wave, i think that at least i live around decent people who still care and you can count on

No. 2282431

>>2282422
Doubt. She was hard hard core pro-tranny. I'm as much for the next female pres as the next nonnie but she was not based

No. 2282434

I miss my body, I still cannot get used to this new form, it's so uncanny and painful. I've lost count on how many times I wished to heal, there's clothes sitting at my wardrobe, new and unworn, because they don't fit me anymore. It's starting to feel like a pipedream, a fantasy. I'll never get outta this situation, am I? I'm never getting my body back, I'm staying this thing forever, it'll take a miracle at this point. It's been so long, nobody should be in such situation for this long, I'm rotting and going crazy, please help me, I can't do this alone, I swear i didn't do this on purpose, i want to be normal too

No. 2282441

>>2282422
i hate the meme from coping amerifags that harris was le based girl boss terf, she lost because she was a handmaiden

No. 2282442

>>2282438
Pointing out that it's mostly jews in positions of power is not "/pol/ babble". I'm not a moid but notice how you' make no effort to refute my claims? Because they're true.(/pol/ tard)

No. 2282460

>>2282441
This has to be bait because in what way was she a handmaiden?? Do you even know what that means?

No. 2282463

>>2282454
>hates kikes
>doesn't acknowledge that they control america
And through nepotism, now America is basically run by Jews and those industries favor other Jews which bars any non-Jewish white person from getting into them. In the banking industry, a non-Jewish white practically has no chance of getting into that field.(/pol/ tard)

No. 2282467

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>Driving home from work today on the deathtrap that is the motorway
>Bus tries to merge into my lane while I'm in front of a massive truck that's right up my ass
>Indicate and merge into free lane, seconds before I'm crushed
>Asshole doesn't see I was about to be a bus truck sandwich with me filling.
>Proceeds to slam on the horn and flash lights at me for the next couple kilometers
While I was on the way back I saw some completely destroyed car on a tow truck with ambulance and fire brigade around. That is my future, I'm going to die on this road going to my shit job.
Diagram provided because I'm not good at dem describing words.

No. 2282471

>>2282441
The support for trannies, the libfem dick sucking podcast and the allegations against her husband all indicate that she was. However the opinion that she was still better than Trump is perfectly valid.

No. 2282501

>>2282470
Nta but really? You just used racist terms yourself. How are you any better

No. 2282583

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why does my ex who abused me and treated me like shit get to have a better life than me? its unhealthy but i have a bad problem with stalking his socials and when i look through his posts its all him happy with tons of friends. he actually has twice the amount of friends i have and i believe a lot of them know what he did to me or at least his nature towards the women hes dated (i saw one joking about him being abusive). why does he get to be out there living a happy life while i face the consequences of his actions? people say karma is real but when i look at him and his life i dont believe it

No. 2282591

>>2282583
Nobody puts their worst moments on social media and he probably anticipate that you'd stalk him so he's doubling down on the things he knows will make you feel insecure. Put your phone down and go outside whenever you feel the need to check on his life. It's more productive than dancing to his tune.

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>>2282583
I’m sorry nona, it’s never easy and even when our abusers face negative consequences it feels like it’s never enough compared to our pain. I’ve been reading picrel in an attempt to heal personally. It’s been somewhat painful seeing my relationship written out but I also think it’s necessary for me to move on. Here’s a Google drive link to the pdf if you’re interested
https://drive.google.com/file/d/1Md0FpbmuXhdhpoFF_Ip4ijpiowHZNf3D/view

No. 2282676

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>Go to job interview at a higher end restaurant
>Wanted to work in the backlines, but interviewer liked my personality
>She said she'd rather me be a hostess
>Asks me questions, me and her click really fast
>Tells me that she'll let me know if I have to apply again to the position
>Shakes my hand and welcomes me to their team
>Says we can squeeze you in the next training and to bring my documents
>Get a call by the hiring manager saying that I do have to reapply and you don't have to re-submit your resume, then call back
>Reapplies and calls back but it's a different person and they just take my name and tell me we'll get back to you
>Get an email 2ish hours later saying that they're going to pursue other applicants for this position
This is just a generated message right…. Right…. I'm going to call back again tomorrow because they said I have a job???

No. 2282682

>>2282648
thank you nona, i’ll make sure to give it a read ♥

No. 2282722

I hate my roommate. Every time he comes back home from a short trip my mood drops. He's perpetually cranky, i can't discuss or muse about anything without him chiming in with a disdainful tone, trying to outsmart me when i'm more of a knowledge sharer. He chimps out, he can be extremely dramatic and attention seeking, it's not even conscious. He's got a former gifted kid complex and grew up around people who enabled his thirst for attention since forever. He shouts and punches things because of chores but doesn't let anyone come close to them. Everyone here is tense because of him. I don't do much anymore when it comes to cleaning because i don't want to be in proximity of a massive male shouting and punching the air. He used to think he was autistic (kek) but i suspect he thinks less of me because i actually am one (snide remarks, always followed by passive retreat). I know i'm not the best roommate myself but i simply refuse to be around agressive people, ffs you're 30, why are you acting like a teenage BPDfag. I wish i could entierely ignore him but every time i'm in the same room as him (usually around dinner) he thinks every grunt, stare and gesture is directed at him. He doesn't react with chimpouts or pathetic displays like your usual BPDtard but you can tell he's extremely alert. Moids are so damn solipsistic, i do not care about your sorry ass. It's fucking exhausting, i didn't leave an abusive home with BPDemons to deal with this BS again. I'm going to try and move out ASAP, i can't take it anymore. I accepted this because of extra low rent + he's related to my nigel and there's a family obligation between them. But i'm not related to him, i'm grateful for his family's treatment of me but that doesn't mean i should put up with his retardation. I've tried to confront him but he always backs out right before it happens, like he tests people with passive agressive gestures (slamming doors in your face, moving your stuff, the list goes on) but if i text him or talk to him to put things to rest he goes 'nothing is wrong' and submissively nods. My god, what a retard. What an absolute retard. To hell with him, i'm done with trying to see the whole picture. I was grateful for the fact he does 90% of chores but i'd rather live in a pigsty, completely alone, than deal with a bitchy male. Life is too short to tolerate living with people you can't stand.
Edit to add context (yeah, it's really long already kekkk): another layer to my annoyance is how my nigel has to placate him all the time. It's always been like this, he wants to break out but he's been ordered to stay around him like he's a nurse or something (if you couldn't tell, the roommate is ill). He was neglected in favor of my retarded roommate because he was muh high IQ sensitive flower who needs to have a constant adult presence to feel alright. He told me about a core memory from his childhood was laying down in silence, listening to my roommate's histrionics and the adults tending to him while he was alone, as usual. I don't know why it upsets me so much but living with them, i can feel the weight of this memory, the fact someone can be this coddled to the detriment of others. This is completely alien to how i was raised with my siblings so i have very little patience for this 'best boy' complex shit. Both me and my roommate are the oldest and i would have never, ever gotten away with what he does and gets.

No. 2282742

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I am just feeling very very hurt about my ex cheating, I mean I feel stupid. He went on tinder and swiped right on everyone, he admitted, he tried fucking troons and actual obese ball shaped women. He was like literally ferally horny for anything that moved, and I AM THE ONE WHO LIVED WITH HIM AND ALMOST MARRIED HIM. My pride is totally hurt. I cannot believe I used to beg for him to pay attention to me. I also cn't believe I used to think we were making love. I was just another thing, this sounds shitty of me to say, but like, why did he cheat on me with such fugly girls? My ego is crushed.

No. 2282743

>>2282742
and the troons? Does this mean I am manly or sometihng?

No. 2282745

>>2282676
Ugh, I'm sorry nona. Yeah, might as well call back. Also the person you talked to could've been fired. for a while I was convinced I had some weird curse following where every time I got a job somewhere the hiring manager would be gone within 2 weeks of hiring me for reasons people didn't want to talk about, so shit happens, especially in restaurant world

No. 2282756

>>2282742
he wasn't paying attention when he watched The Perks Of Being A Wallflower

No. 2282787

>>2282583
i'm sorry. i do think karma is real and like the other poster said, his social media is a highlight reel, he's not going to post about his problems. also sometimes karma isn't instant. maybe his is still on its way, just when he thinks he's doing great maybe his world will fall apart. maybe he's got a nasty disease coming someday. try to stop focusing on him and stalking him. move on and focus on your own healing and how you can improve your own circumstances. this is how your life will get better. universe will handle him when you stop obsessing.

No. 2282811

>>2282742
Im really sorry, getting cheated on by someone who you thought was making love to you is gutting. i had a million questions too like you and that feeling like a fool. i have come to the conclusion it will probably never make sense to us. something is broken in their brain when they do these things. we probably will not be able to make sense of it because our brains are normal and we understand what it means to love someone. but yeah it's confusing and fucked up. i feel your pain.

No. 2282963

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I hate when people try to "figure [me] out". Makes me feel like I have an obligation to be more interesting when there's nothing much to me besides just wanting to enjoy my time here on this earth doing things I like. The curse of being nice and not minding being social every now and then…

No. 2283030

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I took a week break from drawing (because I don't like drawing or doing anything much at all on my period) and now I feel like I just can't draw anything good. I feel like I was not only doing better a week ago, but also having more fun. Now I'm getting anxious and heart beating a little fast when working on new drawing, what the hell.

No. 2283067

I don’t want to lose my virginity before marriage.This guy knew that . We had been talking for an entire year when suddenly he kept asking to fuck to which I said no. He became an asshole overnight. Talking about all his past fucks through text , talking about his celebrity crushes in detail. I told him to fuck if and he said “don’t have to ask me twice”

Yeah, im never finding love. Every man I’ve met has always turned out to be a sex obsessed porn sick piece of fucking shit who just wastes time.

No. 2283108

I just got done cleaning the kitchen, it was disgusting. I live with an elderly family member but I had a chronic condition for a year and couldn't do much. Dead roaches and their shit everywhere. Threw away 5 bags worth of crap. I wish I could say I feel accomplished but it's still a kitchen I can't cook in. I don't even have my kettle anymore because it got infested and I had to throw it away. I miss cooking. All I want is my own place where I can cook my own meals, decorate how I want, and not have to clean up after anyone else but everyone guilts me if I mention wanting to leave because he hasn't lived on his own in 40 years but it's not like I can afford it anyway. The kitchen is clean now but tomorrow morning it'll be wrecked again. Sigh.

No. 2283131

>>2282408
You're not retarded nonna, anxiety is a full body nightmare. Sometimes I get so worked up I get that choking feeling and severe chest pain. If you can manage it try making a nice cup of hot tea (non caffeinated). Sometimes small sips of a hot drink can relieve it a bit. If you don't have any tea some hot water and honey can have the same effect.

No. 2283206

>>2283131
When I get anxious (mostly social), my vision starts to blur. It’s the worst

No. 2283215

Nothing worse than being so broke you can’t even afford going to fucking Taco Bell.

I’ve spent 1000s on such dumb shit over the last 5 years. So many restaurants, so many clothing items that I never wear, so much room decor. It’s crazy what severe depression will make you do in hopes that these things will somehow fix your life and fill the crippling void in your heart

No. 2283217

>>2283206
I get that too, it's so jarring. I wear glasses and my vision is shit so sometimes I just take them off for a sec so the wonky vision is less obvious and doesn't further exacerbate my anxiety. If you find yourself in a social situation where you're getting overwhelmed try finding a quiet spot (bathrooms are good for this) and just closing or covering your eyes for a bit while you take deep breaths. I hope things get better for you nonna, anxiety is exhausting

No. 2283228

I opened up an Etsy art shop with a bunch of paintings on wooden slabs. I sold stickers too. People who have only met me once bought from me, and my own best friend didn’t. She didn’t even post my announcement on her story. The stickers cost 15 at most including shipping, which she wouldn’t even need to pay because I would just drop it off to her.

Fuck her. Fuck everyone in my life who never manages to show me no love or support. I’m honestly about to just end my life. I have no reason to be here .

No. 2283231

My parents are visiting for Thanksgiving and are both still here, they were hungry and didn't want the leftovers so I went out and got subs. They didn't have what my dad wanted so I got him turkey sub. Came back, said what happened. Dad took a bite, then shook his head and put it down and slammed his fist, said "how could you get me turkey, we JUST HAD TURKEY" and then I asked if it was bad, and he just shook his head and didn't respond, i asked again, he said "my appetite is ruined" and rolled the sandwich up back in it's wrapper. Mum got involved, which made him more pissed and he stormed off, then my mother began doting and asked if I had childhood trauma from him, which I do not but it made me a bit uncomfortable. I love them but jfc it's retarded, it was literally a turkey sub, he didn't even pay for it. My socially battery is done and I have to spend a week with in-laws once they leave.

No. 2283259

Everyday men give out about how unfair and skewed dating apps are. It is not women's fault they're like 80% men and 20% women. Women are warned against strange men so to online date and actually meet feels very unwise. Then you have a lot of men that have no idea how to show respect towards a woman and after enough of those men you will avoid the apps. Then there are men that are in relationships using them to sext and cheat. Men need to honestly learn to integrate with society it's embarrassing

No. 2283261

>>2283231
why do grown men throw temper tantrums like this, how are they not embarrassed by their own behavior, literally acting like a 5 year old

No. 2283296

>>2283261
Because it gets them what they want. When they're not consistent with their reactions it puts everyone around them on pins and needles, trying to read their mood and mind so they won't blow up. It's a form of control. It also means that because they're always catered to, they're disused to dealing with the negative emotions of being denied.

No. 2283335

>>2283231
Wtf is this normie ass shit

No. 2283357

and this is exactly why i will never, ever go back to teaching in physical schools again and stick to online teaching for as long as i possibly can. being a teacher is literally one of the worst and most draining jobs on the planet. i am so grateful i don't have to physically be around children, staff, faculty, and parents anymore. the video is meant to be light hearted but that is just the reality, and it's not funny at all. you go home a grumpy overworked zombie every single day and your life is basically over.

No. 2283374

>>2283357
Girl please give me advice on online teaching. I’ve been applying to jobs like crazy and no one is hiring. I’m a licensed high school English teacher with a masters and an endorsement in ESL

No. 2283380

My parent's bought their house for $70,000 thirty years ago. I still live with them because my mom's health is really bad and for some reason the housing market got astronomically fucked. I just saw a listing online for a house a couple away from mine, being sold for $3,000,000. I really honestly thought growing up I would be able to live close to my parents, that was my dream. The exact house that is going for that much, I remember telling my parent's as a young girl that it was my dream home and I was going to live there one day. I really can not believe how away from reality that has become so recently. I'm heartbroken that owning a home is going to mean moving very very far away from here, from my parents. I don't even know if I can afford the whole state now, the housing here is that fucked. How did my neighborhood get this way? We are still the same class, yet our neighbors are slowly becoming the upper class. Why did they all move here? Why do they even want to be here around us? I'm just upset nonas. Apologies if anyone saw me post this in the wrong thread, I accidentally thought I was in the vent thread when I did that

No. 2283383

>>2283374
no worries nonna, just try to breathe. i work for a private online high school for an institution in canada, essentially teenagers and adults that didn't finish high school for one reason or another and now they're doing online high school to get their high school diploma. there's tons of these online schools that hire teachers from the usa and canada, but i also know people that are very happy with online tutoring, and there's literally an endless amount of jobs online for tutoring, especially if you apply to schools or companies from all around the world. since you're an english teacher i would highly looking into both of these options! there's also private tutoring on sites that let you set your own rates and produce your own teaching material, though it can take a while to build a rapport and get students. and of course there's always brick and mortar schools that offer remote-only positions, but those positions are the most competitive and elusive i think.

No. 2283461

I wish someone would rape my dad, it's the type of humiliation he deserves

No. 2283481

I know I work customer service but I am so tired of having to be nice to retarded people. People who come in after closing and expect me to smile and be so happy. I want inconsiderate people to feel bad and to feel my anger and sadness that I can’t go home because your retarded ass rolled up with a cart $700 worth of toys 15 minutes before close. You don’t deserve respect. Not at all.

No. 2283489

Waiting for my stomach to get hungry, it's been 7 hours, dude c'mon, wake up, we gotta eat something you idiot

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No. 2283520

Nonas I have to see my dad tomorrow and I only found out a few hours ago- he lives abroad and I try to keep my distance because he treated me kind of shitty for a long time. Every time I see him I feel really nervous and depressed and unloved and I have to act. Just feel lonely and not okay.

No. 2283526

>>2283520
Does he still say and do shitty things to you? Has he ever apologized? Do you actually HAVE to see him?

No. 2283529

I have been really struggling with self harm urges lately. I have acted on them twice but it’s not enough. I’m to the point where I want to do something drastic like go to hospital level. I know that’s stupid and I shouldn’t but my brain is SCREAMING about it. Constantly. Randomly. All the time. It’s so passive and consistent that the pathetic baby shit I have done to give in and stop it is.. doing jack squat. I hate how this is a problem for me at my big age. Birthday is next month and in officially in my mid twenties. I’m so anxious lately too. My girlfriend says it’s okay if I wake her up if I’m awake and really anxious. It’s the weekend so she’s off work which makes me feel sorta better about the idea. Yet at the same time it makes me feel so bad thinking about it. Idk what to do. I already feel bad for cutting in general. I shouldn’t be relapsing like this. We have talked about them but I haven’t really admitted to the “I am constantly passive thinking about it” because it’s so embarrassing. My scars are bad but they aren’t horrible. I’m at least not the level of some of the girls that show up in the proana threads that have gored themselves but.. I do think about that. I have a therapist and one of the things we plan on working on is this but.. idk. I need to be seeing her more but insurance crap not helping. Medicaid is being so weird rn due to the election and the holidays that it’s been a bitch. I hate being disabled but that’s another rant for another day. I just wish this brain worm would go away. Before I actually do something retarded like goring myself.

No. 2283531

My mom is being so mean to me and assuming that I'm stupid and lazy and never doing what I'm supposed to when I ALWAYS AM. I'm so sick of it

No. 2283533

my uncle tried to rape me and i want to report it but ive bought drugs from him so i cant. i want to kms

No. 2283535

I hate how I make the same mistakes over and over again. I have a consumption issue, and every time it lands me in a horrible situation, I tell myself never again. I KNOW that the meal I just ordered isn't worth the amount of money it set me back. I KNOW I'm going to regret it, and yet I will probably do it again. I don't learn.

No. 2283538

>>2283533
So? He has absolutely no proof of that if he wanted to use it against you. You're not in possession of them right now. You don't have any drugs in your system. It's literally your word against his. Ruin his life.

No. 2283540

>>2283538
he does have proof in digital communications unfortunately. I have audio recordings and texts of him admitting everything though and i believe i otherwise would have a slam dunk case but i don’t want my life to get fucked too. idk i guess i’ll talk to a lawyer

No. 2283541

>>2283526
Yes he still does, I'm an exmuslim and he's religious and it's one of our major tensions and he makes me feel small and shitty about it sometimes. I also have to see him because he pays my tuition now in return of me staying in his life and I was jobless with no opportunity, help or work experience before which was awful.

No. 2283548

Sometimes I wish I could wake up and just magically become a moid. Life finally on easy mode. I'd barely be sentient. I could be actually fucking ugly with a horrible personality and still find some poor woman to love me unconditionally and coddle me for life.

No. 2283549

>>2283540
>>2283533
Am I missing something? Dealing drugs is a more serious crime than buying drugs. Why would he incriminate himself?

No. 2283555

>>2271853
Yeah it can be a lot easier said than done. It’s not always omg he cheated! I’m leaving! Sometimes you’re old, no job, and really you’re there and you’re stuck. The economy sucks ass, jobs suck ass, job market sucks ass, and you (as in me) are lazy and suck ass. Family sucks, no friends, and realistically, woman don’t make money compared to men. Unless we outdo them 10 fold. It’s just shitty because I know I’m in a social structure that puts me in this place, I put myself in this place, and I’m not a strong women that’s super smart and can get myself anywhere. I never thought I would be in this place either. My only saving grace, is that I refuse to reproduce. But yeah, I was just bitching. But also, it’s kind of hard to find a way out. Catch 22, I guess.

No. 2283558

>>2279047
i wanna be your friend anon you sound fun and enthusiastic

No. 2283584

>>2283541
I'm muslim (still). Trust me I know how tense father daughter relationships can be in our world (even though me and my dad are friendly). I'm sorry you don't feel loved by him nonna. Can I ask what exactly he did that was shitty to you? Did he ever abuse you? Or did you leave islam and that set him off? My cousin and her dad have the same issue, and her dad disowned her for it. Her dad (my uncle) tells me he's so hostile because he doesn't want to endorse leaving the religion. To him, her leaving is a one way ticket to hell, and he doesn't want her to go to hell.

That's no excuse to be an ass to your daughter (though in their case she was also an ass to him). I'm just trying to offer a different perspective. Maybe he loves you so much more than he lets on, but is just mad at your choices and or doesn't want you to think you leaving the religion is okay. I would just give him the shortest answers possible and find reasons to leave the room often. Say you're not feeling well and need to lie down. Stay safe and be happy

No. 2283587

>>2278154
>>2283540
Nonna, the DA has a budget. They are not going to use that budget to investigate and press charges on you. If anything you can report him for rape AND drug dealing. You can even make a deal. Say in return for ratting someone dealing you need to be protected from conviction of having bought from them in the past.

No. 2283596

>>2283584
He always was very strict, hit me as a child up until about like 16 mostly he puts me down verbally like shouting and belittling etc. he did things like bully me into wearing hijab when I was 12 calling me names, beating me for not reading/memorising Quran, throwing my ‘non halal’ books in the rubbish, beating me for having anything to do with boys, forcing me to go to some retarded Islamic girls school and denied me from going to Oxford when I originally finished school though I had the grades as he has to control his daughters. he does love me a lot but he can’t help putting this aggressive face forward to make me ‘strong’. He likes to bring things up I’ve done against me but mostly now it’s just pressure to be Muslim. I’m also quite sensitive though as I’ve gone through a lot the past couple years involving and not involving family just trying to grow up and be an adult so I understand I’m kind of a pussy when it comes to my family and life in general but I’m just a bit tired I suppose.

No. 2283604

>>2283596
Yeah you just described half of the muslim dad population I would say. Just be civil. Don't even give him a reason to let religion related topics to get brought up. Lie if you have to. If you're not interested in mending your relationship with him, just do what you need to do to get through the night with him. If you do what some sort of relationship, just be mentally prepared to never get it, because leaving Islam is something muslim parents do not forgive or brush under the rug. I'm surprised he even wants to see you. Many say to come back when you've reverted, and until then, sayonara.

No. 2283619

>>2283604
I’m North African living in Europe though and my country only really got crazy religious in the past couple of decades people were more into superstitions, and ‘folk’ Islam before and it was normal for a woman to not wear hijab as an adult etc but now it’s a uber religious hellhole wiping out our culture for nothing in return. My parents are both educated people with careers so they’re a bit more open and forgiving than a lot of Muslims but they obviously have a limit and it’s extremely difficult for them to keep me in their lives still. I want to work on the relationship and it’s going slowly but it’s also overwhelming having to deal with my dad and I think our relationship would benefit from a couple years apart for me to deal with it and figure things out in my own terms but I don’t think he’d understand that and I don’t want to lose my dad or anyone in my family forever as much as it’s hard to be around him. Most stressful part of it all is that I’m gonna be in the car with him for 5 hours- I managed to convince him that we should stay with my sister so I don’t feel uncomfortable with him alone but the car ride is concerning me.

No. 2283621

>>2283604
Hey anon, just out of curiosity what appeals to you about Islam? Sorry maybe that’s the wrong way to word it I mean if out of genuine curiosity. What kind of Islam do you practice?

No. 2283628

>>2283529
Update; it keeps getting worse. I am about to like find something semi similar to do. I have been wanting to cut my hair for a while and I’m about to do it cuz everything else isn’t working. I don’t wanna wake her up but I’m losing my shit lowkey internally. I’m trying to avoid cutting and avoid waking her up. All my stuff is in the lock box in the closet if I just give up and I’m so close to it. I should just wake her up I dunno. We are slowly just building up to self harm ideation to suicide idk what my brain is doing. Stress has been so bad lately that here I am I guess

No. 2283637

>>2283621
I would be willing to answer if it wasn't for the inevitable reeing that would erupt from nonnas. I'm just going to leave it at I believe in a God and it's the most believable religion to me. My heart doesn't melt over it, I literally just think it's true. Doesn't mean I have a good relationship with god or agree with all of Islam.

No. 2283673

Guys I messaged my ex asking if we could keep in touch (he cheated on me and I'm a dumb piece of shit with no self respect and I have attachment issues) and he left me on read..

No. 2283677

>>2283673
Anon I want you to know, as bad as that is, you are not as embarrassing as me. I almost typed out the entire thing but I realized I am not going to post such an embarrassing mess even when anonymous because it's just that bad. You are good, just don't do it again kek. Block him.

No. 2283686

>>2283628
Please get medicated as soon as you can. It sounds like you got OCD with how you relieve your repetitive thoughts with cutting. I wish I could give you a Xanax right now tbh. Wake your gf up it’s nowhere near as horrible as you think. Waking up the next day to your partner’s aftermath of a mental breakdown is even worse.

No. 2283693

I don’t think I’ll ever get to marry my nigel… maybe he doesn’t want to anymore. I always think he doesn’t like me anymore. I feel like I just frustrate him. It’s been a hard couple years for me… my friends left me, both of my cats died… financial hardship… he’s been with me through it all and I feel so bad. I’m not perfect but I try. He always asks me what’s wrong but I feel like I annoy him all the time. He doesn’t insult me or neglect me or other horrible things but it just feels different. He lives with me too. He wants to visit his family far away soon with me and he seems very very excited about it but I don’t know. What if we don’t make it to that point? Maybe I should
grant him the ultimate gift and get him a one way and a round trip for myself and leave him with his family. He wouldn’t have to deal with me anymore. He shouldn’t have to. I hate myself so much. He deserves better than me. I cry a lot, I’m always so emotional. That must be so exhausting to deal with.

No. 2283695

>>2283693
If he stuck with you through all of that then why do you want to leave him? I think it’s best to talk this out with him and tell him how you feel

No. 2283701

>>2283693
Anon you are projecting your own negative thoughts about yourself onto him, thinking he thinks the same way about yourself that you do. He doesn't, if he did why would he stay with you and want to take you to see his family? All of the negativity is just in your head. I deal with the same problem. Be easier on yourself, hopefully one day you will see yourself the way he sees you.

No. 2283703

Nothing in my life is going right, for months it's been just one setback after another and last night I snapped and threw away food, cosmetics and other stuff I thought I didn't deserve. I hate myself even more than I did before.

No. 2283716

I swear every time I like a ship it's always the ship that is disliked by the rest of the fandom and seen as problematic.

No. 2283721

I cannot access picrew, it's giving me a "request blocked", wtf

No. 2283741

>>2283721
use incognito mode

No. 2283749

>>2283673
youll get over him in time

No. 2283754

I hate being on the recieving end on such treatment but I just ghosted and quietly unfriended a moid from uni who kept bringing up 'milf tiddies' and other such filth in conversation casually without saying anything to him, I did the right thing yes?

No. 2283757

>>2283754
you did the right thing

No. 2283758

>>2283754
Forget "dodged a bullet", reading that felt like you caught the bullet and then gently crushed it

No. 2283779

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One of my aunts has slowly transformed from just messy into a delusional hoarder with a shopping addiction. It hurts to watch. Her home is 1200 square feet of wall to wall junk with goat trails, only 1 available chair in the whole house. She recently complained about how she bought a full size artificial Christmas tree, but my uncle wouldn't let her set it up. He isn't preventing anything. There's literally no place to put a Christmas tree. There was no reason to buy a tree with her house in its current state. I also have lifetime depression and fatigue, so I know that is probably part of the problem, but why be buying shit like that? It just makes your life worse. The boxed tree is just 6 square feet more shit that her family has to dodge every single day.

No. 2283781

why no one love me

No. 2283782

I hate myself so much. I know my issues are completely in my head. It doesn't matter if someone compliments me, I'll think that person is wrong they don't know the truth. That I'm useless, worthless, waste of space. I felt like this even as a kid and my life has been years and years of trying to hide it and pretend things are fine. They're not fine, I dont know what to anymore and I'm scared everyone will find out. I don't see any worth on what I do, no matter if people praise it or not. I'm disgusted by myself.

I wished I could be a sentient uncorporal being, without shape and form. That I could do all the things I love doing without the crushing reality they were made by me. When I'm just learning and creating, things feel good, it's when it hits me that it was made by me, that I resent it. I always wipe everything, delete accounts, delete emails. As soon as there's a shape of myself forming I want to die, I'm embarrassed and disgusted. Even this post makes me angry and I'm sorry for even posting this.

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I had a sinus infection recently and I think it's turned into bronchitis

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i don't think i'll ever recover from the supposed love of my life cheating on me while i was grieving the loss of my dad who'd passed two months prior, the best and only safe parent i had, my literal best friend.

it just makes me feel miserable. because i've done a lot of good in my life, i've not been perfect, but i try my best put good back into the world. even when i grieved i kept it private and kept it together to avoid dumping shit onto my friends and loved ones.

unfortunately my stupidity and naivete will always bite me in the ass because i'm a fucking idiot who assumes the best of people until they show me otherwise.

i hate it. i wish i could be jaded and protect myself better. i need to smarten the fuck up. i self-sacrifice to the point of detriment and i'm too trusting.

No. 2283796

I hate how I have decent vocal control and all the like but I can't sing because of my tone. I have a very ethnic tone/timbre if that's the right word and it just doesn't sound feminine at all. I've had "nonbinary" tifs envy my deeper tone but I hate how I don't sound either male or female like a fucking retard.

No. 2283797

stop oversharing stop oversharing stop oversharing. WHY DO I TALK SO MUCH?? I have no fucking fucking filter.

No. 2283805

>>2283797
I feel you so much nonnie

No. 2283808

>>2283797
Same. But if it makes you feel better, I like listening to people.

No. 2283816

I hate how it's so hard to talk about female-on-female abuse in supposedly radfem spaces because they think in the extreme that one should be supporting all women. No I will absolutely not be supporting some woman who pimped out her toddlers to pedophiles for money or a christfaggot who blames a child's rape on "it was god's plan". It's like a dirty little secret if your abuser/s were primarily female, especially if it's on the grounds of CSA

No. 2283820

>>2283797
i love people who overshare

No. 2283823

it's so hard to study on the weekend when im comfy at home

No. 2283825

>>2283816
Are any radfems defending women who pimp out their toddlers? Fr?

No. 2283830

>>2283825
I'm talking about those spaces online that claim to be radfem but are just a retarded echo chamber for god knows what. Female abusers often get defended by them because "they were probably just influenced by men" as if that nullifies the trauma they caused. I don't even know what radfem means anymore because it can range from anons on this site all the way to twitter 13yos who think "femcel" is the new aesthetic

No. 2283848

>sisters boyfriend suddenly comes to stay with us
>no explanation given for a whole week
>didnt speak to anyone
>made my mom do all his laundry
>turns out a few days ago he came over because he has scabies
>didnt want to infect his family

so he came over and infected us instead. fucking males.

No. 2283850

>>2283848
Your sister is the real demon in this situation wtf

No. 2283851

>>2283848
Unironically, people get murdered for doing way less heinous things than this.

No. 2283867

>>2283848
You need to beat up your sister for letting him do this.

No. 2283873

>>2283848
He needs to be castrated

No. 2283934

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My online friend isn't online. I am so bored.

No. 2283948

I hate having my birthday in winter and idk why I even bother holding a party when half the people cancel last minute because of illnesses or impromptu pre-Christmas overseas trip to escape the cold for a bit.
Also upset that I’ve barely heard from my best friend since she moved in with her girlfriend. She now never replies to my messages and when she finally picks up the phone she keeps the conversation brief, I get that her life is different now and it’s not that I expect to have hour long calls like we used to now but the only time she finally bothered to call me on her own since August is to tell me she got into the education she was aiming for and that she can’t celebrate new years with me like we previously planned. We’ve been best friends for 17 years and she couldn’t even bother sending me a happy birthday yesterday. What sucks is that I can’t tell her that her behaviour lately is being a bit hurtful because she can’t handle that type of criticism.

No. 2283951

>>2283596
so just curious, is there any reason you still have to see him? he was literally abusive to you anon…is it not possible to not have a relationship with him anymore?

No. 2283953

>>2283628
have you tried seeking professional help, like talking to a therapist, or doctor about trying medication? it sounds like you need more help than you can give yourself right now.

No. 2283954

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My best friend is both a sore loser and a sore winner and it makes me not want to play with him anymore. He actually sulked the one time I beat him in a race on this farming game and gets downright insufferable if the computer beats him at anything. The rest of the time he's actually fine, almost decent on moid standards, but competition makes testosterone flood his dumbass brain.

No. 2283955

I’m not sure where my relationship of almost two years with my boyfriend is heading. I love him and his family and he is really patient and kind and Im thankful for him but I feel like Im just not as exited as I used to be, I’m getting annoyed a lot easier, I struggle to have any real deep conversations with him, and we have different ideas about the future. I want to move out of this state soon and he said he is content to stay here for the next ten years. We are both college freshmen (I am very young I know) and got together in high school. I guess Im not sure if I can see us getting married and living together until death but also just the thought of breaking up hurts. Thank you to anyone who read this through it helps just speaking into the void. Thats the other issue, he is my only friend and I dont have any close female friendships, Im working on building those though.

No. 2283959

I am so unbelievably annoyed. I bought a PS5 that was on sale for Black Friday and Hogwarts Legacy, got it all set up and was excited to play, only to find out that the fucking controller was apparently built for GIANTS and I CANT FUCKING USE IT!!!!! I do have very small hands (have to buy children's gloves because small women's are too long in the palms) but I literally only played for 20 minutes last night and my wrists hurt all the way down to my elbows this morning. There aren't ANY controllers compatible with PS5 games small enough, so basically all I can fucking do is play games I could've played on my PS4 without wasting hundreds on a new console, I'm actually enraged. And of course the little faggots at Sony don't have a corporate email so I can't tell them how much I want to beat their asses. I can't even find a PS5 compatible one that's any significantly smaller it's FUCKING SO STUPID THEY DIDNT BOTHER FUCKING MAKING A SMALLER CONTROLLER FOR WOMEN FUCK SONY FUCKING LIMP DICKED LITTLE JAP MEN

No. 2283960

>>2283693
sounds like anxious attachment or maybe you have depression

No. 2283963

I'm thinking about an ex friend who used to call herself a misandrist, call men moids and iirc complained about shows where the men were goofballs and the women were serious and called them misogynistic, all while she would talk on end about her misogyny and rape kink and repost porn drawn by moids of women being abused. Genuinely, wtf was her logic on that? I haven't talked to her in a while, I hope she realized how dumb and pickme-ish that is, but it wouldn't surprise me at all if she didn't. I wonder if she's on here kek

No. 2283964

>>2283754
how is this even a question. obviously

No. 2283968

>>2283782
why do you hate yourself so much?
you're the only one you're gonna be with for life so you should try to learn to love yourself. you deserve to take up space just as much as anyone else does, others are not more special than you for whatever reason, they all have flaws and low self esteem too probably.

No. 2283972

>>2283848
holy fucking shit, i would be homicidal over this

No. 2283973

>>2283963
Kek did we have the same ex friend? Mine would listen to music by discord groomer type moids talking about how they want to abuse their gfs and mental illness 100 and perpetuate that as an aesthetic

No. 2283980

>>2283973
nah her music taste wasn't out of the ordinary at all, the pickme stuff was only visible in her weird taste in cartoon/anime porn and ships, even though I haven't talked to her in years I bet I could guess her current OTPs with like 80% accuracy, honestly thinking about that makes me sad, I wonder if I could change her mind by talking it out with her

No. 2283989

>>2283963
This is blackpilling as fuck. She's crazy

No. 2283997

>>2283790
Wish I could be there for you anon, I feel you so hard

No. 2283999

>>2283968
I understand and I've been trying to stop this unhealthy way of thinking, and I would say the same things you're saying to anyone else. I just always felt like this and it's almost a mantra in my head. I fed into it and I don't know where I got this idea from my early childhood. It could be that my sa contributed to it. I don't yet know a way to cope and deflect these feelings successfully. Self love is hard to build sometimes. But thank you, you're right. I need to try keeping things in a broader perspective instead of losing myself in my head.

No. 2284001

>>2283790
You didn't deserve to be cheated at all, much less in such a fragile moment in your life. I hope you get to meet people you feel comfortable sharing and counting on, you should try trusting some of them with your worries, you're not dumping anything on them, it's part of true friendship to be there for the people we love. You're not stupid, you just need to find trusting connections.

No. 2284054

Every day I pray that the TIMs in my personal circle will get posted to the TIM thread on /snow/, every day I hope and pray SOMEONE in my huge circle of friends and acquaintances feels the same as me.
Also, the stereotype of women hyping up trannies like they're cute little dogs or small children is so true, especially when they're drunk. It's funny to me and also gratifying because it's clear the only reason they talk like that is because troons aren't women. Yes it's libfem retardation and an even lower on the totem pole version of faghaggotry, but God it makes me so fucking happy.
>Oh there's [Troon], and she's dressed sOoOOOOooO pretty today oh yes I looooove that skirt!
Meanwhile with real women it's
>that dress is gorgeous you look so good omfg
There is a level of authenticity that is clearly not present in the compliment paid to the tranny. Kek, get fucked retarded scrotes.

No. 2284073

some animals like rats or something are living in the (crawl space sized) attic and they're scratching around loud as fuck. There's nothing I can do about it because I'm home alone for weeks while my parents are out of town

No. 2284077

>>2284054
>Every day I pray that the TIMs in my personal circle will get posted to the TIM thread on /snow/,
Do it yourself nona. I felt the same for ages, never daring to post the troon out of fear that they'd figure out it was me. But they don't go on lc, and if they do they wouldn't say it out loud kek so I just got the fun of him being roasted on lc and nobody ever caught on!

No. 2284080

I got a job, it's minimum wage cause I need to earn some money while I'm studying and the assistant manager keeps fucking over me just cause I'm apparently "too slow" and "too scared". 4 days in and he calls me to tell me to quit cause I'm not fit for this role and they're searching for individuals who are more competent. I call the actual manager, who was on a vacation and couldn't even see my performance and he told me to not quit and to not listen to the assistant. This shit is bothering me to hell cause the assistant basically attempted to force me to quit and I don't think that's even legal?? And he was acting kinda creepy, he did not sexually harrass me or anything of the sort, but he was watching my every move and kept pestering me constantly, touched my hands multiple times to "show me how to do it", told me multiple times that I look scared. I ignored him everytime and just tried to do my job, and now this fucker is telling me to quit after only 4 days of work. I think he wanted to bring someone else at this job but I was hired first and got in the way of his plan and now he's putting pressure on me to make me quit….

No. 2284086

>>2283963
Lowkey how I feel about a fujo friend who loves violent rape porn (just men raping men, but still). She'll rant about men being degenerate sexual freaks and rape-apes, but that is the literal content she seeks out herself and gets off to… It's way less creepy and gross than if she (or a male) was into females being raped of course, but it's still a thin line between the two and so much of what she says about men being bad is a reflection of her own actions. I can't help but feel it's a bit hypocritical.

No. 2284091

>>2283959
I'm pretty sure I have average sized female hands and I only play on my nintendo switch (in handheld mode at that) because every time I've played using a console it's been super uncomfortable and I can't even reach everything properly… they should really make a range of smaller sizes.

No. 2284092

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Went to boyfriends house for thanksgiving, his sister reeked so bad I couldn’t finish dinner. I tell him this the day after and he tells me he told her to shower and I guess she didn’t.
No she’s not disabled or 12, she’s a 30 year old stoner

No. 2284102

>>2283954
Refuse to play anything competitive with him and let him know why. He should be made aware that him acting like that is making others not want to play with him, males lack self-awareness so at least then he has the option to work on himself if he wants to.

No. 2284114

>>2283848
He intentionally risked and infected you guys against your knowledge, that's illegal in many places. I understand if you don't want to go full legal on his ass but at the very least you should make him pay for everything the treatments include, including gas used to go to the store and time taken off work etc. He is responsible for it, and if he refuses he's no longer welcome to ever stay with you. Oh and of course make him pay rent for staying there and for the groceries of the food he's eaten. He doesn't live there, anything he's taken is legally stealing.
If you can get him admitting to it written in text as proof that could be held against him in court or as a threat of taking it to court. Also make sure to go cough directly on him any time you're sick.

No. 2284125

>>2284086
But it's based and feminist if a fujo likes violent gay rape porn and cringe if a woman likes violent het rape porn.

No. 2284127

>>2284086
>>2284125
Easy. Fujos do this because they know moids are subhuman and deserve no sympathy unlike us.

No. 2284135

I’m really behind in an art class and I’m having a hard time finding the drive to complete the work. My art is really bad compared to what my classmates make, so even though we’re almost done I’m really dreading the last two classes

No. 2284136

>>2284127
Both are exploring their violent maledom rape fantasies either way. At least hetfags are honest about it but fujos are hiding behind layers of shame, denial, and delusion. It's no wonder they end up trooning out.

No. 2284138

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>>2284136
Not again.

No. 2284152

>>2284086
Idk, maybe she has had a problem with men so she takes out her feelings on drawings?
I think it's not as much of an issue if it's completely fictional, unless she abuses the men in her life maybe?

No. 2284190

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I hate my male housemates so much. They're noisy, they slam doors, they leave their beard hair on the sink, they blow their noses and piss in the shower. My room is right next to the kitchen and right now one of my housemates has a few male guests, they sit and drink in the kitchen, and they talk and laugh so loudly. Why are men so loud? Why do they think they're so important everyone has to listen to them? And one of them, who has a room above mine, often wakes me up with his loud music, with bass blasting so loud my walls shake (he was a nuisance for other people too so he was already warned by the landlord to tone it down, so lets see how long it will take for him to blast this shit again). If it wasn't for the housing crisis in my country I would be fucking moving out immedietely. I'm an autist and I can't sleep if I don't have total silence. Living in almost constant noise for 3 years and being woken up so often basically traumatized me. Everytime when I can sleep somewhere else, like at my aunt's house, even though it's objectivelly quiet, I'm afraid to go to sleep because I have this subconscious fear that something will wake me up. I've been sleeping only 5 hours per day for the last 3 weeks and I feel like a zombie. Sometimes I break down and cry at random moments because my brain is so tired

No. 2284194

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I think my aunt posts here, I fell in love with my best friend and have no idea how to confess or if I should even attempt to in the first place, and now I only have a day to memorize 10 pages of lines for a play because I'm such a fucking idiot procrastinator

No. 2284197

>>2284152
Nta but men should be abused sometimes.

No. 2284213

>>2283963
Some women's manhate is really just misanthropy, mental illness and frustration.
>wtf was her logic on that?
I'm really guessing there but my tinfoil is they resent men for their perceived superiority while joining on woman-hate because they're envious of their position. It's not really out of feminism or concern for women
>>2284086
It's not hypocritical, it's very human.

No. 2284221

I don't want to go shopping.
I don't want to go out.
I don't want to spend money.

No. 2284224

>>2284221
Start stealing

No. 2284230

i hate working in healthcare. its too much responsibility and i feel like i dont know what im doing. i always feel so anxious that im gonna mess something up and ruin someones health. so far i havent made any mistakes but i always feel like im looking over my shoulder waiting for some big disaster. i started psych meds to help me but i still feel this way. im gonna quit my job. i cant handle it anymore. im just gonna wait and see when a good time would be.

No. 2284233

>>2284224
shush fed

No. 2284236

>>2284230
As long as you're not being actively malicious, you'll be fine. I've worked in the medical field a long time and some of these people are inhuman in their active cruelty. They'll let people die just because they can't stand the sound of them crying from pain at night.

No. 2284254

>>2283790
Don't beat yourself up over it, it sucks that it has to be this way because of how horrible people can be to others but it's not your fault that others can't act right. Unfortunately a lot of people nowadays unironically believe they don't owe others anything, much less feel bad for their awful actions or give a fuck about anyone else, it's just natural to them. Your kindness and desire to be good to others are valuable qualities yet people will just try to take advantage of you and betray you, it's tragic really. You just have to protect yourself while trying to not become as bad as they are to other people, and attempt to find people who are less shitty who will be there for you, as difficult as it can be sometimes.

No. 2284261

I should never have gotten a cat holy shit. She's so annoying. She won't let me sleep. She keeps doing everything she can to piss me off, and now I have to worry about her on top of myself. If you're reading this, do not get a pet, it's not worth it.

No. 2284277

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I wanna really finish playing some vidya but I've been so burnt out lately and I'm too tired to even have fun

No. 2284293

I'm trying so hard not to freak myself out panicking about it, but I'm so scared my dog is going to die soon. I just lent my mom 740 dollars for her rent and she's not going to be paying it back for fucking months. I don't want her to die soon, I don't want to be stuck at home alone again while one of my childhood pets die. I'm trying not to think about it and cry, but I'm about to fucking lose it. It feels like she's all I have sometimes. I don't think I can handle having pets emotionally. Knowing that one day they're just going to be fucking gone forever is too fucking much for my stupid heart to take. I wish my family didn't push both of these babies onto me when I moved out. I love them so much so of course I took them, but fuck. This shit fucking sucks.

No. 2284294

just saw the tiniest sweetest toddler ever pushing her fatass beluga sized mother on the swing

No. 2284297

turns out my problem all along has been inflated expectations
including towards myself

No. 2284300

>>2284261
last time I tried keeping one of the family cats inside my bedroom overnight, it peed all over the sheets
never made that mistake again

No. 2284303

>>2284294
That means the baby will grow up to be very pretty AND very strong.

No. 2284306

My pure ocd has been causing what I think are delusions throughout my entire life. It’s scarier than like bipolar or even shizo delusions, because ocd delusions are related to very realistic things, so it’s hard to snap out of it sometimes , no matter how ridiculous it disturbing. Only once did I actually fully believe a delusion, the other times I just had paranoia and thoughts of whatever it was being possible (and trying to find out if it was really happening). Mine (and well as my intrusive thoughts and images) are all sexual in theme and it’s disgusting and super upsetting. I’m an amazing person with a disgusting mind.

No. 2284312

I finally decided to go to a mall where there are a lot of good shops, but the only tram that goes there is absolutely horrendous, every time. I guess because it goes through a bad area. I get on and it's packed, to be expected. But on the side of my seat a guy was standing there gesticulating wildly that he really could've elbowed me in the head, I use dmy backpack as a sort of buffer between us. Then the guy sitting next to me answered his phone (talking super loud ofc) and I realised he had BAD breath. I was fully covering my mouth and nose with my hand, then eventually my jacket collar because it smelled like straight up shit. Unfortunately I couldn't lean away from him because of the guy moving unpredictably on the other side of me. Some people get off so I move to stand near the door, I look back and I see the gesticulating guy is full blown mental illness having a fight with an imaginary person, punching the air and everything. What. The Fuck.

Then on the way back there was a teen girl who was playing with matches ON THE TRAM and an adult man started arguing with her to stop, so then she started getting loud and confrontational. What the fuck ghetto shit is that? Who, WHO is playing with matches of all things in this day and age??? Her phone was right there, why the fuck was she playing with matches oh my godddddd I'm never doing it again. It's not worth it.

No. 2284321

Going through all my junk and deciding what to throw and now everything I own feels like something I have to throw and I'm in elimination mode thinking things like my washing machine takes up too much space I should sell it. I need to get out of this mindset before i go crazy. Everything is clutter. I could sit in a white room and still feel my head spin at the sight of my own skin.

No. 2284327

>>2284312
Average day on the trams istg. I have to use them pretty often and it's like being stuck inside a portable zoo enclosure.

No. 2284331

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I'm pretty sure people I work with think I'm thick because of my accent. It's 2024 and I have a masters ffs.

No. 2284333

>>2281337
Are you sure you're not just paying attention to politics a bit too much? Although, I don't know what the situation is wherever you live.

No. 2284336

>>2281516
>My family is religious which is why this scares me
Why would that matter? It's not like they check for that, is it? Please tell me it isn't.

No. 2284352

>>2281516
What are they gonna do, have you open your legs in front of them so they can check you still have a hymen the night before you marry?

No. 2284353

>>2283067
Keeping them waiting seems like a good choice. If he sees you as nothing but a sex object, sooner or later he's going to give up if he sees he can't use your body.
Sucks that you had to waste time on him when you could've looked for someone else, though.

No. 2284356

>>2281516
Your hymen can break from falling off monkey bars. Men don’t feel the hymen breaking. The hymen breaking causing bleeding is a myth. Tampons aren’t wide enough for a guy to even think you’ve been fucked prior. You’re fine , and any guy that would lose his shit because of a tampon is not a guy you want to be with.

No. 2284358

>>2284352
If she's from one of those hyper religious places, if she doesn't bleed during her first time with her husband her family will disown her. The fact that she's worried about that might make me think she's from there.

No. 2284360

>>2283067
It sounds like he, in typical narc scrote fashion, wanted to be your ~exception~ so he could feel special. Take solace in the fact the trash took itself out. Also, waiting is a good thing, but if you DO find the right person make sure you do your research and have an open discussion about sex beforehand!

No. 2284361

>>2284358
I’ve from a hyper religious culture , and not once have a I heard of a scandal where a woman didn’t bleed and everyone lost their shit. I know it’s a thing, but I think people are more educated on bleeding not being a sign of virginity nowadays.

No. 2284373

>>2284361
Apologies nonna, I was being a bit racist and ignorant there.

No. 2284378

>>2284373
You weren’t it’s fine kek. I’m just letting you know I don’t think it’s an issue anymore, unless nonnas family is from the stone ages or is clinically uneducated.

No. 2284380

>>2281817
I do, especially because these weight loss injections have a warning about developing thyroid cancer. I can't imagine fucking your thyroid unintentionally while taking a medication to lose weight, lose all the weight you want, and then have to get all or parts of your thyroid removed and be low energy and hormonally fucked for the rest of your life.

No. 2284383

>>2282722
>the fact someone can be this coddled to the detriment of others
Will you stand up to the plate and put this little bitch boy in his place? You may be the only one, hell, the first one to do this in this piece of shit's entire life. Do it nona. I swear to god it will make you feel weird but then it will feel good. Tell that piece of shit how fucking annoying he is. Get on his level. Do insane shit like throw ham slices at him. If he ramps up the misbehavior ramp it up ten fold. Make him scared of you. I fucking hate people like this. Make them afraid to treat you like shit.

No. 2284385

>>2283215
you've got this nona. I am in the same place slowly digging myself out. For different reasons (not depression related) but surprisingly, a LOT of people go through this same cycle of debt -> surplus over and over again. You CAN get yourself out of this. It's so common and yet so shamed in our society.

No. 2284386

>>2283231
Your father deserves to be physically attacked for that childish outburst. More people should be slapped to put them in their place when they do this shit to people. And your mom is an idiot, "did u have trauma from him?" bitch you married him what do you think?

No. 2284387

This is my last fucking straw. I went onto Tumblr again to see if anyone makes cute fanart of my husbando and the first post I see is some faggot's retarded headcanon
>husbando gets fat
>weird description of his flabby arm fat
>disgusting description of how another character fucks his arm fat
I'm done. I'm killing myself tonight. I can't take this anymore

No. 2284395

>>2281817
Colon cancer as well. It’s not known exactly why although the theory is it’s due to a number of factors but a major component is probably all the processed food, basically shitty diets that are all garbage that is awful on your digestion, no fiber and very little fresh food.

No. 2284396

>>2282722
point out everything he does like that towards your boyfriend until he brings up something the roommate is doing to you, then be like well i guess i also noticed he’s like this towards me… i thought i was gonna agree with the other nona and i still do on the principle of it. but don’t let the principle ruin your relationship and living situation and everything you have going with his family. you can’t be the one with the problem. it has to be your boyfriend who has the problem and confronts him. otherwise his whole family is going to see you as the problem and whiny and “a bad woman” for not being submissive enough.

No. 2284408

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there are white tourists in my small town trying to pickup women….its so fucking over i want these sexpests out of here

No. 2284410

>>2282722
>former gifted kid complex
Kek that explains it all. Local child scores third highest in his class in arithmetic then spends entire life shitting self because he’s not actually Einstein.

No. 2284413

>>2283959
>only to find out that the fucking controller was apparently built for GIANTS and I CANT FUCKING USE IT!!!!!
Playing FF16 with the giant PS5 controller was torture, I was shocked too when I bought the console.

No. 2284415

>>2284395
I think it gets detected sooner too. I just had my first colonoscopy because something seemed "off" and colon cancer runs in my family, turns out I had polyps already (thankfully noncancerous).

No. 2284418

My mom just slapped me across my face

No. 2284419

>>2284418
Is this also you?
>>2284416

No. 2284422

>>2284413
I remember reading an article about how gaming controllers are made for men’s hands and it makes it more difficult for women to get into gaming.

No. 2284430

>>2284422
I swear to god this new Dualsense is purposefully exclusionary towards women. My moid can palm a basketball and it sits perfectly comfortable on his hands, meanwhile it's literally the entire length of my hand. Sony has recently really been going "anti-woke" and they obviously don't want women playing their games or buying any of their shit. I swear to God they're trying to make it an exclusive boys club. I'm thinking about returning the PS5 because I straight up feel like I got ripped off.

No. 2284435

>>2284419
No. But I agree. If my mom slaps me in my face because I told her she can get her point across without screaming and demeaning people, I should be able to slap her back. But I didn’t.

No. 2284460

>>2283959
It's weird how they started increasing in size from PS4 onwards. If you include the PSX one with analogue sticks, then they stayed the same size for three generations.
I always preferred PS ones over Xbox's because of their smaller size. But Dualsense is about the same size as Xbox ones.
I guess this is to cram more technology inside, but it's weird they made it that much bigger.

No. 2284465

>>2284422
I thought that PS ones being smaller might've had something to do with Americans being bigger than the average Japanese.

No. 2284480

Are latinos and spaniards all mentally ill, retarded, or generally less intelligent than other races? They are consistently the only group of people who, arriving at a hotel, will just speak in spanish. "Hello, welcome!" - "hola!". "What's the name of your reservation?" - "tenemos una reserva-…." listen bitch. Are you aware I'm speaking to you in a different language? Are you not grasping that I don't speak spanish? I don't care that you don't speak english, we'll use a translator, it's not a problem. But why do you confidently just start speaking in spanish? Wouldn't it make more sense to start with "hablas espanol?" "No ablo ingles". Wouldn't that be more logical?
My wet dream is to just answer in latvian and keep speaking in it to them until they gain consciousness and think "hold on! We are having a communication issue here!"
Fucking RETARDS! It's only them, too. only, EXCLUSIVELY them. Blacks, whites, asians, indians will either speak in english or apologize / use a translator / ask if i speak their language first. Two years working in different hotels, it's just them. Why? I don't even care why I'm just here to vent. What if I just kept talking in English until they asked to use a translator instead of me doing it directly? I want to make them uncomfortable. It feels so arrogant. How can you go to a foreign country where spanish is NOT spoken and expect people there to speak it? B-but muricans do it all the time!! Yeah that's because nearly every breathing creature speaks english, and it is required to know to work at reception. But why is it only them is my question. Why only them? Shoutout to the korean cuties who always have google translate ready. Higher iq i guess.(racebait)

No. 2284490

I cannot find my glasses

No. 2284491

I miss being able to stay with my cats, staying in bed the whole day didn't feel that awful. Fuck my decisions.

No. 2284498

>>2284490
Bedroom, car, last place you had to look down and take them off because they'd fall off and bathroom. That's my process. Hasn't let me down yet fellow blind nonna.

No. 2284509

i've been feeling very ugly even though i get told im pretty. when i visited japan, i saw how nice everyone dressed and it exacerbated my already low selfesteem. im an introverted american who drives everywhere so i don't have an incentive to dress up or do my makeup. im not a teenager either so its not just being insecure. i just feel like a very ugly woman. ive never really felt beautiful. i hate pictures because im not photogenic either, i look like a tranny in pictures kek. idk, maybe my hormones are acting up.

No. 2284510

I’m a fat bitch so I need to lose weight. I go to work out and then I get sharp knee pains because my heavy load is too much on my genetically weak knees. What the fuck am I supposed to do? I earnestly want to get fit at this point in my life, but every time I start I enter a cycle of
>start working out, its going great
>feel a funny stiffness in my knees
>that stiffness turns into small brief sharp pains
>have to pause cardio until my knees feel normal again after 2 months
Even walking 10k steps does a number on my knees. I need to melt this fucking fat off but my body is actively working against me

No. 2284513

>>2284510
Lose weight through eating better before forcing your body through workouts it can't handle

No. 2284521

just found out my daughter has celiac’s and honestly even thinking about cooking an entirely gluten free diet has me stressing the fuck out. obviously i’m gonna do it bc i love her but damn… no soy sauce??

No. 2284526

>>2284521
They make gluten free soy sauces, mom anon! Good luck and wishing your daughter good health

No. 2284550

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>>2284521
Please don't fret. It looks intimidating but it's not so bad. It's just a lot of info to take in at first. I'm glad you found out while she's young. Some advice: check your labels even if the box claims it's gluten free. Some places use the same equipment that gluten was on so possible cross contamination. Spices can contain gluten too so just double check. As for soy sauce, I use picrel. Just take it a day at a time. You got this.

No. 2284553

>>2284510
You don't have to exercise to lose weight. It all comes down to burning more calories than you absorb. If you eat very little, you're naturally going to burn more calories than you eat and thus lose weight.
It's best to eat low calories yet very satiating food so you don't feel hungry all the time.

I think tofu is good for weight loss. It's low in calories, if you cook it well, it tastes almost like chicken, and you won't feel hungry for quite a while after making a dish with it. Sometimes I'd fry a brick of it with some veggies and would not feel hungry for most of the day.

No. 2284555

>>2284521
What >>2284550 said, and over time it'll become second nature to you to know what she can and can't have through looking at enough labels. I was in the same situation as your daughter and diagnosed young and now I just know if I can have something or not without really needing to check the label. One thing I can suggest is that you just start cooking gluten free for everyone in the house (don't know what the rest of your family is like), it doesn't make much sense to cook separate meals for her unless you have to.

No. 2284560

>>2284510
I went from chubby chub chub to anachan by eating buldak ramen, a salad, and coffee daily . Some days I would eat avocado toast with a poached egg instead of the ramen.

It was honestly very enjoyable after the first week of hell (cause I have a food addiction) I’m not Anachan skinny anymore (because I realized how ugly I looked at that weight), but I’ve kept the weight off for a year now.

No. 2284564

one of my friends is faking an illness and it's so annoying but i know there is NO ONE ELSE paying any mind. i don't want to make them feel abandoned, but i also wish they would knock it off already. even talking to my other friend group doesn't help because they have no compassion for the severely mentally ill and i can't vent at all without them wanting me to drop my friend.

No. 2284583

I wish I could get into discord but its too weird for me. Getting into “the right” discord group and then trying to fit in via a group chat system… and also giving people easy access to message you anytime is just a bit too much for me. But the idea of streaming your screen with friends and chilling on call sounds so cool. Really wish I was just normal.

No. 2284621

>>2284510
the title and thumbnail are stupid but this video (along with other videos) give advice on weight loss. majority comes down to weight, not exercise. so focus on eating better and then exercise when it hurts less.

No. 2284626

>>2284564
The people you hang around says a lot about you, if you hang around attention seekers then you’re likely to be one yourself, you even type and give off the vibe of one. You’re only around your friend because you get the sick satisfaction of knowing that you are on the same level of shittiness as your friend but you’ll never stoop so low to do such cowish behavior like she’s doing so you’re using it to feel superior. You’re just as pathetic as her, damn

No. 2284628

>>2284626
Ntayrt but you sound like you're projecting your own experiences onto her.

No. 2284637

>>2284628
I’m not projecting anything, that’s just the truth and that’s how human beings act, have you ever been around one, hm bot? So many bots around trying to act like they’re human posters KEK

No. 2284642

>>2284583
I found some group by a complete accident, and still it took me months to even start talking to anyone.
I really wish I wasn't living my life on hard mode. I feel like things that come naturally to everyone are often impossible tasks to me.

No. 2284647

>>2284637
>bot
Ohhh so you are projecting your own experiences on account of the schizophrenia.

No. 2284652

I really don't appreciate and don't enjoy anons who write posts just to get angry at anons who respond to them, or just pretend to be stupid instead of having a real conversation

No. 2284659

>>2284647
Ohhh someone’s deciding to be a cunt who thinks they can do what I can kek, you can’t. Try again

No. 2284731

It honestly does make me upset to the point of tears when I go on facebook and see my father supporting the children he has with his wife in ways he has never and will never do for me. I just saw a post where his wife talked about how he was such a great father and she and their kids love him so much, then another about how he fixed the toilet in his daughters apartment ASAP. It's just not fair. I so badly want to message him and tell him to kill himself, but I'm learning to not give people emotional reactions and what would be the point? He still won't care about me. I don't think about my father much because the trauma my mother caused me was much worse, but it does hurt me a lot. I feels like I didn't have either of my parents, I'm practically an orphan. I'm lucky to have my grandmother and other relatives that have cared for me in the absence of my parents.

No. 2284774

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I just want to go to sleep and not wake up tomorrow. I dont enjoy anything in life anymore and it feels painful to exist. I always feel so tired and have nothing to hope for. I am so deeply miserable and it feels like nothing good or beneficial ever drifts my way. I'm tired of fighting and trying to force something that was never working out for me anyways. I just want to die.

No. 2284837

The lack of sunlight combined with a few night shifts has never ruined me this hard. I can't sleep at night, only during daylight for some reason now and I'm barely functional during hours when I'm awake. It's impossible, holy shit. I thought I'm getting better, but now I'm worse than I've ever been.
It doesn't help that I have lots of stress going on and I'm generally depressed all the time. I wish I could sleep through this whole month and I actually need to sleep, I just can't do it

No. 2284865

>>2283959
I bought one on sale just to use with my PC, and realized it was way too big to use. I don't even know how actual kids use them.

No. 2284949

Nonnas im not even exaggerating,
Nostalgia is beating my ass tonight. I feel my heart physically aching thinking about my childhood. I feel paralyzed and I can’t stop staring into space. I can’t stop thinking about the early 2000s, about my uncles house , about playing on the Nintendo 64. I actually really really can’t handle this pain.

No. 2284953

I'm crying again. I wish Prozac would just sap all the emotion from my body.

No. 2284954

>>2284953
It’ll be okay. Crying is cathartic. It hurts now, but will feel better after. Maybe try a hot shower

No. 2284958

Watching interior design youtube videos were at first fascinating and inspiring, then little by little I got pissed off when I realize that nearly all of it is impossible to achieve. Im working and saving up, so Im living with family for the foreseeable future, and my unemployed older brother (Ill call him B) lives here too.

Walk out into the hallway? Theres tons of B's clothes hanging up. Watch out a random coat hanger doesn't poke you when you wake up for work in the early mornings! The hall cabinet is filled with B's underwear and socks. There's "no room" in his pigsty den that he won't sort through. Of course, mommy does his laundry for him on demand, and hangs it up there. Mom sees nothing wrong with this clutter, and Im a meeeean person for wanting a clear hallway.

B stacks empty soap and toothpaste boxes in the bathroom (he used to save empty shaving cans in his closet, until mom had to tell him to stop, due to a fire hazard). After mom or I move his empty boxes into the recycling, B slowly starts this habit again. The bathroom has a hole in the floor, part of the wall was taken down for "renovations" that never happen, but there are slats of wood still up so not exposed. Mom had to cut a large garbage bag and duct tape it to block the water damage/mold that would happen, B was too useless to even do that! B and mom think our senior Dad, who works full time 7 days a week, is supposed to do the renovations, not B. They trash talk Dad behind his back about it. I worry about B seeing me piss or shower due to these small nail holes on the bathroom wall against his room's wall, but I remember that his wall is covered in clutter, so probably can't see me anyway.

Walk into the living/dining area? There's stacks of boxes to the ceiling, large metal cabinets B likes to slam at all hours of the day/night, truck parts, stuff you'd find in a garage. B thinks Dad should build him a garage, and has been waiting for 10+ years instead of making one himself. Meantime, B built a giant ugly truck canopy that shades out a large portion of our garden. I wanted to paint this room, HAH! That would require king shit (B) to move his stuff, and that's meeean according to him and mom.

B also wears shoes that he wears outside throughout the house, so if I were to indulge and enjoy the cleanliness of SOMETHING ie. the floors, B will spread more filth by walking with his shoes all over the freshly cleaned floors. Is it worth it? Last time, B impatiently expected me to lift the floor steaming machine to move out of HIS way, then he walked on top of the freshly cleaned area.

B also changes his shoes every time before he goes into his room, putting on other shoes for his own room, as if his own pigsty shouldn't be subjected to the same grossness he spreads throughout the house. B changes his shoes right near the bathroom door, which is jarring as he does this quite often. There's no point in the day I can comfortably pee or shower without the sound of rushed stomping (B) going closer to the bathroom door, and him changing shoes, right near the door. B used to really enjoy harassing me everytime I used the bathroom, pointing out to everyone that I'm in there again and he needs in there, when there was an empty one available (but that one is "too cold" for B).

So, I get pissed off imagining what could be a B-free space, and the added stress that most men (not Dad, he's helpful) bring to a home.

No. 2284961

>>2284958

To add:

While heating up lunch, I set my plate out. Big mistake. B just HAD to enter the kitchen after he spent hours doing nothing hanging around. B deliberately stood near/over my plate, so his hairy arms are over top of my plate, laughs/talks with spit coming out and scratches his head.

B starts telling Mom & I about a comment section being full of stupid people, ie. who don't share his views. B said someone warned another person about a sexual predator, and laughed loud as if it was funny and called it stupid as if it's not true (he is sexist against women, thinks males are always innocent). I can't bear to listen to B. I changed plates, now I worry he'll whine to mommy about it because I'm meeeean for thinking he's gross, and I'll have to defend my actions which would be ridiculous. (Once, I made a pizza from scratch, and B found a flea on his sock, and held it away from himself, over top of my pizza like "Eww mom what do I do?" Mom and B made me out to be a big meanie weanie hurting his feelings, shaming me, because I asked him not to put fleas near my pizza I was making from scratch!)

Then B tells a REALLY FUNNY dream that he was going to wash the bathroom wall, and just stood there laughing for no reason like Peter Griffin. B said this was caused by watching so much Family Guy the day before. Cue forced laughter! I'm no super genius, but I could feel my IQ drop.

This was all just from 1 interaction, with my food prep to intentionally shorten the amount of time I'd be stuck being around B.

No. 2284994

>>2284949
I'm sorry nona, I really don't know what can you do because I feel like that too very often. But the feeling of having wasted the 2010s starts to haunt me more that my idealisation of the 2000s and we're almost in 2025 so maybe it's not a bad idea to let it all go and try to enjoy the present.

No. 2284995

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>>2284958
sorry anon. i'm also an adult living at home to save, and i also have a useless brother living here too (younger in my case) who is absolutely disgusting and babied by my parents. I was going to be set to move out in about two years, but due to government budget cuts, I lost my government contract job and can't find anything that pays as well. I don't know how long I will have to stay here but it looks like i will be near 30 unfortunately. I really sit and wonder sometimes what even is the point of living when this is my life, and all i have to look forward to is the cheapest possible town home with no windows that i will only be able to scrape together the money for by the time i'm 30. If you are single and don't have dual income, you can't afford anything in life around here. When I'm not working my free time melts away since i have nothing to do other than sleep through it. I have moments where i think, what would my child self think if she knew that this was what life was going to be? If it weren't for my parents i would self destruct gleefully, i'm held hostage in life by the people who created me. gotta perform my little ant farm tasks to please them.

No. 2285005

Jeffree Star there is a place in hell for you perfectly tailored to your eternal discomfort in a nightmarish purgatory of which you will never escape what a pompous bumpkin mean girl wannabe you are

No. 2285010

>>2285005
Context ?

No. 2285037

>>2285010
Just saw some clips of him bullying Eugenia Cooney and talking about sewing breast implants to her ass.

No. 2285039

>>2285037
I thought they were besties

No. 2285053

>>2285039
Every clip you see of them interacting is him just trying to humiliate her knowing damn well her body has already eaten half of her brain. Evil cunt.

No. 2285057

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Having one of those nights where the only thing keeping me here is knowing that I can’t have my nephews only know me as the auntie who topped herself. They always say it’ll get better but they never say when.

No. 2285067

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How do some people manage to look attractive all their lives? Not just when they are 20 but when they are 60 too? It cannot be surgeries and such, because then every boomer would be able to?

No. 2285081

>>2285057
struggle on, nonnie. whatever suffering you have had to bear up to this point is already past, it can only act on you in the present through memory. any future suffering yet to be borne can only act on you in the present through your anticipation of it. if you can carve out for yourself a place of pure base existence in the present— consciousness without thought—like the moment between wakefulness and sleep, may you find solace there.

No. 2285094

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Welp, I've been fired. Don't come back, just drop the laptop in and sayonara. I expected it to happen but I was hoping to stick it out till January.
I don't really care, it's been in the post for a while, but I feel bad for HR having to work on a Sunday to email me.

No. 2285099

It's my sister's birthday so I thought I could chill at home today until she's done with work and we could celebrate with my other siblings and our parents. My parents decided to invite that one uncle as well and nobody else. Why? "Because he's lonely" except the reason why he feels lonely is because he's a violent alcoholic who abused his ex wife and his kids, who ran away as soon as they could, he's greedy and tries to steal food and drinks from everyone all the time or doesn't participate during events, other relatives caught him taking things from trash cans in public several times as if he didn't have money, and the last time I had the misfortune of interacting with him he asked me to check why his phone had glitches and it turned out he was watching porn on it when I wanted to delete his search history. Fuck my parents and fuck this guy in particular. I would have left for the day if I knew he'd come.

No. 2285110

>>2285067
Money: Personal trainers, excellent food made by person chefs, stylists, makeup artists etc. these people have access to the best of the best and don't spend their lives slaving away for a handful of coins. Good genes also play a role of course.

No. 2285116

>>2284560
How long did it take you to lose the weight?

No. 2285121

Stalking old friends I might have had a crush and I always end up seeing with their boyfriends it makes me cry throw up

No. 2285142

i fucking hate trannies and how they've ruined every fandom space i can't even escape them on imageboards

No. 2285153

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It's not so much I think I'm a lesbian, but I genuinely think I would only feel truly emotionally, sexually and mentally fulfilled by being with a woman and it kills me inside to think about. Every time I try to cuddle up and love a man I feel like I'm trying to feel something that just isn't there

No. 2285156

ocd is the worst most painful disorder ever I wish I was schizophrenic instead

No. 2285157

>>2284510
I feel this nonna, I love walking and going on walks but after two or three weeks of it I always got sick for some reason. I now have a waking pad so I can just walk at home without catching any bacteria/viruses. can you swim/do you feel comfortable in a swimsuit? then I suggest swimming, it's very easy on the joints and a killer workout. unfortunately I can't swim and have a phobia of pools because I almost drowned several times, otherwise I'd do it too. also seconding what other anons said, fix your food habits first. if you're lucky, you only have shit habits and no weird emotional hangups around food (like me). you can do this!!!

No. 2285158

so depressed because i have acne now and i gained weight. i never had acne before until 2 years ago, it suddenly started back then. im gonna stop eating processed foods and ill be super healthy from now on especially next year, i cant keep living like this anymore.

No. 2285159

>>2285153
idk nona you sound like a lesbian to me what's wrong with that

No. 2285160

>>2285153
do you live in an homphobic contry ?

No. 2285182

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Backing up my old photos so they can live forever in the cloud and jfc what was I thinking? I can't believe I went out like that with zero self awareness.
I'm also coming to terms that me in a few years is going to look back on me now and feel the same level of cringeness. Don't do it bitch, I'll start smoking and give us both lung cancer.

No. 2285192

I think a lot of girls on here don't understand that a bf who encourages you to cut or starve or indulge in drug-use is abusive & will hinder your happiness in life

No. 2285193

/ot/ is turning into a cesspool of vitriol right before our eyes. I've seen nonas insult nonas in ways inches and groypers could only ever dream of, all while still insisting they're the most feminist of all. I wonder if it's men trying to sew discord among us? Or maybe I'm coping hard by thinking that.

No. 2285196

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I’ve already cut them off but I’m embarrassed to realize that all of my friends were either colorist or just straight up racist. I’m so triggered because I cut them off nicely when I should’ve rained hellfire. I think I was just in denial about how blatant racism is. But it’s so obvious looking back they all looked down on me as their mono racial token. Even my black girl bestie looked down on me because she looked racially ambiguous and I didn’t . The nonblacks were just straight up racist towards the end. That’s so creepy to have people look down on you and then call you their best friend. Weirdos. The gag is I’ve always considered myself to be my very best friend. I’m just mad because I gave those people great resources and advice when it came to fashion, music and just the arts in general. But because my skin tone didn’t match my hobbies they gaslighted me into calling them strange while stealing my personality years later kek. It’s fine I’ll have the last laugh. I always do

No. 2285199

>>2285193
*incels and groypers

No. 2285201

I just remembered this family member from my mom’s side I don’t even talk to called me to tell me since I don’t have any kid yet and I don’t pay school fees, why don’t I pay for one of her kids. Stupid woman.

No. 2285202

>>2285182
Style changes though maybe you're just on trend for certain periods. I got bullied for being emo and my long skirt twee phase got me called Amish kek

No. 2285204

>>2285196
insecure people are extremely fucking racist, don't let them fool you. any reason to feel superior over someone else is good reason.

they suffer more than you think.

No. 2285207

>>2285196
I'm sorry that happened to you, anon. Just stay mysterious. When you're actually unique and authentic/creative, it's typical to have copycats and fakes try to take advantage of you (especially while negging you). Race is the easiest thing for them to try and drag you down to their level over, it's pathetic.

No. 2285208

>>2285201
Are you African nonna? I am and it’s crazy how entitled relatives all are when one lives abroad especially.
My mom paid for my cousin’s schools fees because my aunt was a retard who was busy chasing men and shitting kids she couldn’t take care of (she even got with a scrote who has HIV). My mom stopped paying and only told her she was only paying for this one girl , not the other children (who are still small) and the bitch acted ungrateful and stopped speaking to my mom kek.

No. 2285209

>>2285196
cutting off friends can be so hard, I hope you find better friends with whom you can be your true self who will support you

No. 2285212

I just hoped I could connect with people with similar interests online but because one person thought I was creepy, they leaked my chats and never said anything while still replying to me. First a friend blocked me and then I found out through her calling me a stalker. I was a little retardly excited to talk but I made sure they weren't uncomfortable. Now I lost someone else I trusted enough to call with ( recovering hikki ) because they value the accuser more.

No. 2285215

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Fanny/Null_backdoorho used to be one of my favorite cows but after being exposed to even more misogyny from the internet, real life and even ex friends, I can't stomach even her "normal" sfw art anymore. Her and other women's pickmeism disgusts and upsets me too much. Ah well, I'll just go on hoping one day she gets exposed as the racist pickme she is and then her supporters start waking p to how retarded her beliefs are.

No. 2285216

>>2285209
>>2285207
>>2285204
Thank you girls for your kind words. I was planning on deleting this post since I find it cringe but my phone died kek. But thank you guys I don’t have friends currently but I hope to change it in the new year. Much love

No. 2285222

This NYE will be the first one I'll spend at home with my family since 10 years ago. I usually spend it with friends, and it was fun most of the time but my group of friends have been more and more divided because some of them moved to other cities or countries, some just stopped caring about the rest of us as much as before, some are too busy with work or other personal things, and this year one of them will go somewhere else to celebrate the new year with her family because she can't spend as much time with them as she would like to. It's making me feel like an old fart.

No. 2285233

I binged on an entire family size bag of chips last night and everyone wonders why I never have snacks in my house. I feel like shit from all of the sodium, and after I ate the bag I felt so horrible I just started drinking to try to block it out and I ended up having to lay down on my living room floor because I thought I was going to pass out. I’m so pathetic I’m so fucking tired of being an alcoholic I can’t keep doing this. The only way I can take it is to wake up and immediately start taking stimulants, which I have to make breakfast before I can take and the last thing I want to think about right now is food. I actually hate myself so much, why can’t I do basic fucking tasks and why am I such a fucking addict all the time.

No. 2285241

>>2285094
what was the reason?

No. 2285282

I wanna fucking kill myself. No one has ever been as retarded as me.

No. 2285303

My ocd has started to give me false memories as intrusive thoughts and I want to scream and genuinely kill myself. They're all about CSA, I keep getting false, vivid mental images that I somehow was the aggressor/rapist even though I was fucking seven. I straight up "remember" a false POV of assaulting grown adults. Sounds fucking ridiculous, well that's ocd for ya, absolutely irrational. I know it's nonsensical but ocd also is a plague. I haven't felt like I "deserved" anything yet but that's probably the next theme shift, woohoo!

No. 2285329

i ask my sister to drop me off 10 minutes from my house with like a 5 minutes notice and this is what drives my family into a screaming match, and then when dropping me off she screams at me at not immediately responding because i'm not completely sure where it is. it's my fault for running late and not simply driving myself, but damn the way things escalate is fucking insane. i'm supposed to have a nice time with my friend i wish i'd simply cancelled.

No. 2285343

>>2285282
>No one has ever been as retarded as me.
You wish

No. 2285368

>>2285241
Nothing confirmed as the reason but I took mdma at the work xmas party on Friday and got really messy. I've been spiralling since early summer though so it might be a cumulative thing.
Actions meet consequences

No. 2285420

I am going into treatment for my ED after moving and I'm now located in a very, uh, influencer-friendly area. I didn't want to move here, but the move was the right decision for reasons irrelevant to this post. My old treatment center was also in a major US city, but it was full of really chill and friendly people (the other clients, not necessarily the medical professionals). Everyone was friendly and genuinely cared for one another; there wasn't that weird, cringe ass competitive nature to it. Only one woman exhibited cow behavior but she got kicked out, kek.

I have so many fears about this new program

- what if the people at this place are fake and competitive af?
- what if there are some cows there who try to post about me or some shit on their cringe social media?
- are the vibes going to be completely different than my previous program?
- am I going to be able to remain successful in my career after taking more months off for treatment?
- obviously I don't want to gain weight but whatever I'm retarded so
- I had such a large friend group in my previous city and now I'm worried I'm never going to meet cool people because I'll be locked in anorexia jail for god knows how long

holy shit I hate having this stupid ass disorder

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No. 2285439

>>2285431
AYRT– I hope the food they give me is even half that delicious kek

No. 2285457

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You can always tell when my mother is in a bad mood because she starts giving out the most passive aggressive and backhanded "compliments" out of nowhere lmao. She has a good reason to be mad but still, like, is that necessary

No. 2285501

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long distance talking stage scrote joked about me coming to his house and cooking him food. who the fuck do you think you are. you're supposed to cook for your guests not vice versa. i'll kill you

No. 2285514

>>2285501
and you’ll still cuck yourself for him despite the red flags

No. 2285521

>>2285514
nta but read the thread rules

No. 2285533

>>2285046
I'm genuinely proud to have zero sexual experience with moids and I'm osa.

No. 2285539

I'm falling into suicidal ideation again. My whole life I knew I would be a failure and here I am. A whole, complete failure. I should have died when I was a child. I should have committed suicide when I first developed the desire to. I was never supposed to be born. The reason why I feel this way is that my birth was not supposed to happen, and for over 20 years now the universe has been trying to rectify this mistake by taking me out. Every second I spend alive, I fuck up the timeline more and more. The right thing for me to do would be to die. I'm a cancer in reality.

But I'm so scared of pain. I'm so scared of dying.

No. 2285562

>>2285193
Lolcow was never a feminist imageboard it was made to document and laugh at cows first and foremost, ofc most people here are gonna be rude and judgemental towards other women, /ot/ in general is filled with rude people who sound like they had a bad day

No. 2285570

went on a nice trip with awesome and cool mostly lesbian couples but like one of the one guys there assaulted me by groping me a bunch and ruined the whole trip. This was supposed to be the small getaway to destress too but now im so much more stressed. I just want to not feel bad and feel normal at work tomorrow.

No. 2285573

>>2285570
That's horrible. Are you able to report this somehow?

No. 2285606

I think I'm bordering on psychosis again and I'm having some very scary and concerning thoughts

No. 2285620

>>2285046
Yeah, it's really stupid. A woman not having sexual experience isn't really a shameful thing at all because you could get sex from a male anytime you want even if you're ugly, fat, old, whatever. If you're making a conscious choice to not want to have sex with men (which you must be since again, it's easy to get sex with them if you really wanted to), I don't see why that would be an epic own or whatever to say you're a virgin as an insult. It only works for men since their lives and sense of self worth revolve around sex and trying hard to get picked by women.

No. 2285623

>>2285514
i'm not falling for this anon

No. 2285640

>>2285368
that's obviously the reason? why would you do that?

No. 2285651

My brother is an RA at his college and has just been informed that a 22 year old student is bragging about dating underage girls and keeps bringing a 16 year old on campus. I told him that he should do what he can to get him kicked out, but he's insisting he can't because he needs his job and that no one would listen. I understand his perspective, but come the fuck on man. He only doesn't want to risk his job because he's irresponsible with money and has no back up plans ever. And I would've risked my job to get this pedophilic scrote off campus, or at least kick up a fuss about it on social media if they chose to expell me over the self admitted pedophile. Its ridiculous how he would choose his shifty RA job that pays $100 a month and housing (which by the way he already is fucking up by getting professionally warned for keeping someone in his dorm room because he felt lonely) over trying to kick out this loser moid. I just don't understand how men can have morals like this and pretend that they actually care about victims.

No. 2285662

>>2284564
how do you know she is faking?

No. 2285663

>>2284731
Same fag, coming back to vent more. I also do wonder how his wife can tolerate publicly praising a man who's a complete deadbeat (apparently just to me but another woman as well). Even their daughter is only a year older than me because my father was playing both her and my mother at the same time. I don't feel like she owes me anything or whatever, I just want to understand the mentality.

No. 2285669

Sometimes I wonder if I just want a daughter so I can give a girl the life, attention and love I didn't have. Maybe it's selfish.

No. 2285672

Watching my friend fall apart. Not sure what's going on in her personal life outside the net since we're long distance friends. She's going schizo at mere reference that men exist. Yeah, we both hate them considerably but she's taking it to a paranoid degree. Everyone is an old male pedophile now, even people she has never seen before. I want to have conversations about why men suck on a level that is more nuanced or some shit but holy crap.
It's like she's drugged when we get into VC with how paranoid she is. "There's sperm in the water" type of rampage. I love her dearly like a sister but this has got to stop. I wish I was over in her country to slap some sense into her? But I just can't even stand being in VC with her. One minute she is afraid of every man, the next she's sending me in-jokes she has with the guys she befriends?????? What side is she even on.
Worst part is if I do have a moid friend, she instantly starts talking about how he's gonna rape me and I'm going to come to realization that he's a creep. Even if they're gay. Like dude? Might be the case sure but why does she have literally no other female friend but me, while also surrounding herself with men?
I'm so fucking confused.

No. 2285676

>>2285673
Call the police and report this shit if you arent living with them, you dont deserve this nona fuck that bitch I hope your alright now

No. 2285682

>>2285673
Anon, I am really sorry that happened tp you.They sound like assholes, just stop talking to them, I know it's hard but I had to stop talking to some of my family too. They don't deserve to see you

No. 2285694

>>2285196
Give me your strength. My friends of 8+ years made fun of me when I wore my hair in micro braids. They mocked how my scalp was visible between braids and that I looked ugly.

I truly loved how it looked, but cut my hair off to appease them. They mocked the texture afterwards. I'm desperate for affection and they've stuck around lingest, calling me "based but black". I suck at socializing offline. This is all I have and I'm afraid to move on.

No. 2285695

>>2285640
>that's obviously the reason?
Eh I've done other stuff, that's why I'm not sure it's exactly this. I've shown up to work tipsy a few times. I got the mdma from some grads and I don't think it was just that otherwise they'd be dropped too especially since they're on recent hire probation. I think I might've took a swing at someone but you don't usually black out on mdma so I'm not sure.
>why would you do that?
I can list off excuses but in reality I'm a very sad fuck up. Top to bottom. Sad jobless nonna, not a bit of serotonin in her brain, drinking wine and being sad. Saying she's sad for sympathy. Mentioning she wants sympathy so she doesn't get it, because she shouldn't

No. 2285696

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i am such a retard fml. my dad needed money so i sent him 50 without realizing i wouldn't get my paycheck the normal day bc of the holidays. fortunately i should be able to hold off my meds for a week and am fine with food & other stuff, but reeeeeee why am i so fucking retarded. also my dog got into my friend's cat food when i was with her for thanksgiving and yacked on my bed

No. 2285700

I seriously need my meds, any meds will suffice. I need to clock in ASAP

No. 2285703

>>2285662
it is an illness that has no external signs or symptoms, but the mechanisms and timeline of healing are well-understood. even if she did have this illness for real, she is WAY past-due for her recovery.

i think she is stressed about school, and the illness is her explanation for why she isn't achieving at the level she expected. i try to talk to her about school, her goals, her recovery, and she spergs out. i haven't found the right way to tackle the subjects yet.

my other friends are telling me to just drop her if she acts like this, but i just want to shout into the sky about my friend being a dumbass for 20 minutes before i go back and try again. even typing this out made me feel better. ty anon.

No. 2285707

My roommate's really nice but she has a tendency to buy food and keep it way past the expiration date. She gave me a bag of granola that she wasn't eating and it was two months past its expiration date, and she said I could have the tahini in the fridge and that expired almost a year ago. I know some stuff isn't bad past the date but I was hospitalized with e. coli a couple years ago so I get paranoid about food safety

No. 2285726

>have friend I'm close with and have been friends for years
>she calls me the online friend she's known the longest
>starts treating me bad, ignoring and excluding me
>apparently it's because I was mean to her when I was 13
>it gets to the point her behavior causes me a mental breakdown
>finally we talk and I apologize for what I said and she promises she'll improve
>she goes back to ghosting me after like 3 days so I block her
I still miss her so much after all this time. I regret doing it because it's been fucking years on end and I still can't get over her at all. I wish she could just reach out again and talk to me. I don't know why this particular friend affected my mental state this badly, can any nona help me out with finally getting over her? Please

No. 2285727

It always cracks me up when a picture of a trans person appears on the welcome page of Lolcow. It's so easy to tell which threads the pictures are posted in. They really are clowing us with the whole 'passing' myth.(not a vent/wrong thread)

No. 2285731

>>2285727
Not really a vent, nonna

No. 2285741

When people say that shit about how anorexic women are just autopedophilic whores pandering to men I want to go into a fucking rage. There's no point trying to explain it to them how many women are trying to starve the breasts from their bodies in response to being abused or sexualised, or that it's actually fucking retarded to base your understanding of a mental illness on the type of people who post on social media.
If you get mad, the dumb cunts win, I know, and get to sit smugly back at how unbothered they are compared to you.

No. 2285757

>>2285731
Yes, even on Lolcow, people talk about passing day and night. And I hate it.

No. 2285761

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sigh. when will it end. it only gets worse.

No. 2285778

>>2285761
Sometimes anons get so caught up in hating moids that they end up hating women.

No. 2285782

>>2285778
do you not realize how retarded and circular it is to support "sex workers" just because you hate the men that go to them? what do you hate more, the drug or the drug dealer? this should be interesting.

No. 2285783

I miss you as in I miss the person you used to be. I miss you when you were taller and cooler and always a bit ahead of me. I miss the times when we felt the same way about each other and I miss the times when we read each other's minds. I want you back. Please give me a sign if you want me back as well.

No. 2285786

>>2285761
I'm glad these women are at least getting some security but this just leads to normalising prostitution and treat it as if it was an actual job.

No. 2285793

>>2285782
NTAYRT It isn't as black as white like that. While its bad that prostitution is starting to get the regulations as if it is an ethical and "real" job, its still a benefit to the women already trapped in the system who would otherwise be screwed over if they were to have a baby. I can only hope that the maternity leave/pension benefits can be used as crutch to get out of prostitution for a better life/job but thats thinking optimistically.

No. 2285795

>>2285741
there's never a "right" way to have anorexia. anons on here will say you're an autopedophilic whore, an attention seeker, too fat to actually have AN, and/or a faker. Don't get me wrong: there are plenty of pro-ana cows that deserve to be laughed at, but it's startling to come to the realization that other women truly don't understand that the illness is most often rooted in something far deeper than vanity or moid-pandering.

No. 2285800

>>2285782
>this should be interesting.
this made me cringe

No. 2285813

>>2285800
I’m dying nonna

No. 2285837

>Go out to eat
>Ask boyfriend to take photos of me
>My breasts are so fucking huge they look so out of place
>Large body frame and wide shoulders on top of that
Holy shit can I fucking die. This sucks so much. I'm not even fat, just unfortunate frame.

No. 2285844

>>2285694
Fuck those people, nonna. They wouldn't know culture or taste if it bit them in the ass.

No. 2285855

>>2285837
are you sure you're not fat?

No. 2285866

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It makes me sad that I will never date a pretty boy. Moids are pretty only in their teens and early 20s, then it's never the same. As a teen and early 20s woman I was an extremely insecure NEET virgin and I was never as dolled up as the girls those boys used to date. I didn't go out, I didn't exist. And now, when I can finally afford all the stuff I need to be pretty and I'm not as afraid to go outside, I'm too old. I'm not 30 yet, but close. Sure, some women date younger men but I never saw them with those tik tok kind of pretty boys. And even if, those boys usually only use older women for sex and they don't form long term monogamic relationships with them. That's what I think at least. I'm just extremely bitter that I never went through that teen/early 20s puppy love phase with a very cute boy. I will never have this. It ended before it began.

No. 2285880

>>2285866
First off, you aren't even 30 yet, shut the fuck up, touch grass and go get your zoomie boytoy instead of basing your judgement on what you see on social media. There are quite a lot of women even in previous generations whose husband are decade younger than them.

No. 2285885

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No. 2285887

>>2285855
I promise you, I am not fat. I just have case of inverted triangle and unfortunate genetics. My mum's has breast reduction, and my doctor has put me on the government list for breast reduction. I just feel sexualised and awful for looking this way.

No. 2285889

>>2285885
Both my mother and my grandmother's husbands are literally 10 years younger. My grandma met him when she was 33.

No. 2285892

>>2285866
Nah you can always get it if you're in shape. I met my ex when he was 21 and I was 33 and we stayed together for 2 years. Best dick ever highly recommended

No. 2285898

I played overwatch after like 6 years and I'm so bad and silver 5…It's usually not my fault, but I'm used to games that don't really depend on one person's actions and this is so stressful wtf. I'm going to still play this shit because I like hurting I guess

No. 2285904

i hate normies because im an antisocial loser weirdo and wish i was like them

No. 2285909

>>2285904
same its killing me how do they do it?

No. 2285911

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I’m not going to have a future. I’m probably going to work mediocre jobs for the rest of my life. I’m still unemployed and nobody is hiring. Prices keep rising. I seriously want to die, this isn’t a plea for help because I know nobody can help me and nobody wants to. I’m not going to beat the impossible or triumph over this, I just wish for once in people’s lives to actually provide me decent advice and that advice is on how to kill myself with minimal pain and the body can be easily found and disposed of. I don’t really want my guts blown on a wall or my decaying body fused inside of furniture so I was wondering if it would be possible to do it outside? If anyone even care sneaking to read or respond to this do not try to talk me out of this, there’s nothing that can be rationally done because my life has been over before it’s begin and I’m not going to go through more struggling, stress and health problems just for some possible “betterment” that could happen in my life, it’s not rational to base your ideas off wishful thinking. I need some good suicide links now, there used to be a good website for this but it unfortunately got taken down sanctioned-suicide.org but please provide any links you have, I know you don’t want to get banned if you share them but I’m tired of this and I can’t live anymore.

No. 2285927

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>have nausea and feel bloated
>don't anything for a day
>try to eat a small thing next day just to stop the hunger
>instant diarrhea

No. 2285930

>>2285904
i am a normie and i'm still an antisocial weirdo

No. 2285931

>>2285911
I don't have much advice to offer you because I'm more or less in the same situation, had a real, real bad panic attack last night and wondered if it was really worth living like this, but you aren't alone, if that's of any comfort. There's a way out of this and it doesn't involve suicide.

No. 2285932

My dad is so disgusting its unbelieveable. He keeps moaning, sighing and grunting so loudly it makes me deeply umcomfortable i wish he would fall down the stairs or get decapitated.

No. 2285945

i dont wanna go to work i hate my fucking job i hate my coworkers i never wanna go back again i hate it thereeeeeeeee i hate it i hate it i hate it

No. 2285957

Low-key I wish I was challenged more by my major in college. I so do not see myself going into teaching sociology or into academia, and the workload that my course has is a joke and my profs suck. Besides, all the terminology and concepts just seem so fake and people are still arguing over what sociologists should study. Im only 21 and like 2 years into the course but I still feel like it's too late to take up something radically different.
I know I can study hard. If I know it's not wibbly wobbly abstract stuff, I know I'll bust my ass learning something useful and fun. But idk, getting a chemistry degree as a second one seems so dumb. Ugh.

>>2285930
Being on here automatically exempts you from normie status.

No. 2285963

>>2285931
Nonna pleaseeeee

No. 2285968

>>2285866
That depends on an individual. I'm convinced that some people just age faster. Some guys start balding in their teens and have the skin condition of a 60-year-old, while some get asked for ID well into their late 30s.
In high school, I knew one guy who looked like George Costanza.
>I was an extremely insecure NEET virgin
Well, I'm still here. Although I haven't been a neet for long.
>I'm just extremely bitter that I never went through that teen/early 20s puppy love phase
On one hand, I feel the same way, but on the other, It seems that this whole teen love thing is overrated.
From what I remember, people at that age would go through like 8 relationships in one month. Teen "love" seems empty and meaningless

No. 2285974

>>2285963
It's highly generic and unhelpful advice I know, I just always found comfort in knowing there's other people in the "there's no way out of this" stage of depression.

No. 2285975

>>2281013
>>2285932
samefag. My mom keeps telling me that living back home is bad and that she cant even buy us a month of food and honestly i just wish i was never born. I don't have anything im passionate about, im not a normie never been and never have assimilated despite my attempts to do so. Latam has a hypersexual culture and im starting to realize my mom lives in a bubble herself and thinks "yeah just go out and make friends!" like im interested in the current climate of talking and taking part in being the subject of degradation and having to interact with fat ugly dysgenic moids. I dont want to go to art shit because its either full of sleazy junkies and pickmes or neets and their designated pickmes. Even if i manage to get a place for myself only and neetmaxx as an artist for geek vidya and anime shit i have to be surrounded and its impossible to avoid tranny or coomershit since i don't have deep interest in yaoi or bl stuff so i can't be part of these communities anyway, and its off-putting how they always shit on femake characters while excusing amd praising the same traits on male characters. So i dont care about normies and having to see hairy ugly fat moids irl, i dont care about neet shit because its full of pickmes and coomshit, i dont have any interests and i have tried but theyre all pointless and i just dont give a shit. I wish i died back when i had cancer before i became dysfunctional or my mom never gave birth to me. Now i cant even wash my hands in peace.

No. 2285983

>>2285945
i like my job but hate my coworkers. i just want to go in, do my 8 hours in silence listening to podcasts and go home. im waiting for an overnight position to open up so i can take it and never interact with anyone again.

No. 2286006

>>2285904
Same. At least, I think It's good that we understand the reason behind it.
>>2285909
That's the thing. They don't "do" anything, they just are.

No. 2286015

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i wish i could quit my shitty wagie job and be a full time student, but i dont get govt benefits and need the money. it's so thankless and draining and i can't find anything better. i hate my shitty fat cunt of a manager and i hate my coworkers, everyone who was good quit and now we have a bunch of new hires who dont speak the language and don't speak english and don't know what to do because no one can really train them thanks to the language barrier. and our manager thinks yelling "learn [insert language]!!" is changing anything. bitch why did you fucking hire them then. i wanna kms. this takes away too much of the time i need to study and is just making me drag this degree out. i'm so jealous of the students who get funded by their parents. i'm so tired. and now this job is giving me health problems too and i just feel like i can't do this any longer.

also our new boss said we're not getting a christmas party this year because "he doesn't celebrate christmas". half of your employees are muslims and they still go to the christmas party because it's fun and FREE FOOD, that's the entire point, don't tell us these shitty excuses and just say you're cheap!!!

No. 2286023

I started to meet with my mother after three years of no contact, and I'm weirded out in how I see her more as my cute friend than as a mother. And when I say cute friend I mean that kind of friend which you have a little crush going on. She's so magnetic in top of that.

No. 2286025

>>2286023
how old is your mom

No. 2286026

>>2285974
Thank you nonna for trying at least lol

No. 2286038

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Missed the Punxnkisses drop. I'm so sad. At least I get to save the money on the items + shipping, I guess.

No. 2286044

>>2286025
She's 51, why?

No. 2286047

>>2281013
Horrible, horrible. You can't move?

No. 2286053

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I love animals, I just can't have ones like geckos showing up in my house free-roaming and uninvited. It's giving me heart attacks. I can't touch them, I can't go near them. I'd never hurt one, but I want nothing to do with them. Please stop showing up, I can't live with you running around and popping up out of nowhere. I can't live in this country. I'm sorry so many of you were killed, and I'm sorry I'm so frightened, but please. Don't come here. Just stay outside. Maybe find a human who adores reptiles and wants pet geckos, and live happily in their house, don't sneak around mine. I just can't take it anymore. My home isn't a safe space for every single species. The castle doctrine stays. I'm begging.

No. 2286062

>>2286053
omg a filo nona?! i have the same fears but with frogs, i can hardly go out during rainy season because they are EVERYWHERE. luckily they dont sneak inside like geckos do, but i dont mind them much so im able to shoo them away. I remember being unable to enter the doorway of my house one time because a line of frogs were perched on the house steps. one thing I certainly dont miss about living in the philippines

No. 2286065

>>2286053
aww there's geckos in my city but they never get close to the homes, i'd love to trade with you. i always try to catch one but never manage. sorry you're suffering though, i feel the same way about spiders. it sucks

No. 2286069

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I feel like such an asshole right now because of my anger towards my suicidal friend. I know this anger comes from fear and helplessness and confusion but still. I'm pissed off and don't know what to say or do. Like do I need to call a wellness check? People get so upset when you take their threats seriously. I know, I've been the bitch suibaiting so hard it gets my ass sectioned. I dont want to do that to my friend because the hospitals in her area are dogshit and will only make her worse (according to her). But if that's the difference between her living and dying then wtf else am i supposed to do? All her problems have solutions. She's just having a tough week. Honestly a tough life overall but she's survived this far, what's a little more??? But the other issue is that I actually am death positive and pro suicide or whatever. So I think it's her right to die when she wants to. But does she ACTUALLY want to? I'm not convinced. If she's ODing right now and im sending loving and inspiring messages into the void, then idk. I feel like an idiot. I just want her to be happy and reach her potential. Why is that so hard? I want to have more faith. I need to pray or something. I need God to tell me when it's time to call the police because I just really don't know. I'm so scared.

No. 2286075

>>2286069
If you feel like you should call, then you should probably call

No. 2286083

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Found out my relatives long term “boyfriend” (a tif she met in college and has been in a lesbian bed death “relationship” spiral for about a decade now) has gotten bottom surgery and I’m seeing red. They are engaged and have talks of buying a house together and wedding bells and all that. I cannot fucking believe I am going to be dealing with “him” and his bullshit for the foreseeable future.

No. 2286085

>>2286083
If she had bottom surgery, she won't be around for much longer. Take solace in knowing it'll all be over soon.

No. 2286090

>>2286075
I know… but I'm not sure. I have a bad habit of overexaggerating things (my friend tells me I do this) and worrying too much. I don't trust my own intuition and that's why I want a sign from God or something. I think she would try to erase all proof of her existence before a serious attempt and so far all her socials still exist. I just dont want to jump the gun and make things worse. She's been messed up by hospitals before. I worry that it will ruin her trust in me and demoralise her further. I'm sorry anon. Thank you for replying. Am I an asshole if I don't want to be friends with mentally ill people anymore? She doesn't have anyone else so I can't just leave her but Christ I hate this drama. I know I'm gonna stay but I wish it wasn't like this every other week.

No. 2286098

>>2286083
You don't need to fuck them and apparently neither does your friend so just do yourself a favour and get over it(bait)

No. 2286099

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>>2286085
When it comes to this person she’s unironically one of those trans people that’s alive out of spite, and is too autistic to reject the abject horror that would come with mutilating your genitals. This isn’t ending without some sort of extreme damage to our extended family, which I still love even if they are severely misguided. This tranny is trying to leave an imprint of their sucky existence on my bloodline and I cannot let it happen

No. 2286104

>>2286098
How about you trade places with my little sister and deep throat “his” makeshift tranny cock instead since you love sucking them off so much. puta

No. 2286106

>>2286090
When my friend was like this I called an ambulance. It's their own fault for giving you a suicide threat if something does happen to them. What else are you supposed to do? If they don't see how you would call someone in this situation then it's a lost cause.
>Am I an asshole if I don't want to be friends with mentally ill people anymore?
It depends more on whether the person knows they're ill and how they choose to involve you with it. Like personally I don't mind a sperg out every now and then if they are ill, but if they try to bait you with suicide threats and then don't reply to you, guilt tripping etc 24/7 then it's not worth it

No. 2286108

i have a hole inside of me, and i continue to come here for answers, for a remedy, but i think i am just too cowardly to face the fact that i need to live and create again. i think you have to have some degree of courage to live. im too content coming on here. emotions can make one sound SO dramatic! but its true. i feel so alone and depressed. this lolcow fortune cookie is a dud

No. 2286109

>>2286090
>Am I an asshole if I don't want to be friends with mentally ill people anymore?
At a certain point the question becomes "is it worth it to be friends with people that constantly bring you down?" Everyone struggles, but sometimes with these types of people it gets to the point where you stop being their "friend" and start becoming their "caregiver," and there's nothing worse than feeling responsible for another person that isn't even related to you. I dropped all my extremely mentally ill acquaintances when I entered my early 20s, eventually it's not cute or quirky anymore and it just ends up being a hassle. I don't want to deal with other people's bullshit just because they're too chickenshit to deal with it on their own. I got tired of being suicide baited and negged by people that were supposed to be my "friend," but their friendship extended only to manipulating me so that they could have my attention.

No. 2286117

i don't understand where this meme that if you're over 120 pounds then you're fat even comes from. maybe if you're a womanlet? i'm about 5'7 and even my current weight of 148lbs looks good on me, though i'm going to drop back down to 125-130 solely because i gained 20lbs in 2 years and if i do that again 2 years from now then i will ACTUALLY be fat.

No. 2286125

>>2286106
>>2286109
Thank you anons for your insight. It sounds like you've both been through really hard times and im sorry others mistreated you. it was brave to leave those people behind. In any difficult relationship i gotta weigh my options and see if it's worth it. Right now i know that this friendship takes its toll on me. I've already given her an ultimatum about getting professional help. She finally agreed to try for it but nothing has happened yet. Idk if something went wrong and she gave up again or what. She's actually very helpful and kind when she's not having breakdowns which is why i feel like such an asshole for second guessing our friendship. She wouldnt think twice about me when im having problems… I wish i was healthy enough to handle her. I wish she had other people helping her. It's just so hard anons. I dont think she's in danger tonight so I've calmed down but ugh it just sucks. Thanks again for helping me

No. 2286130

>>2286117
I'm about 5'7 and a half and 121lbs it's a good weight ime. I like that we can gain a couple of pounds without much difference

No. 2286138

>>2286130
ayrt, i mean, 120lbs isn't really a good weight for 5'7. it's on the cusp of being underweight, literally, it's less than bmi 18.5 which would make you underweight. 125 is more reasonable and since there's always a non-controlling 2kg (4.5lbs) of fluctuation happening inside your body anyway, chances are some days you're even less than 120lbs.

No. 2286140

>>2286125
>I've already given her an ultimatum about getting professional help. She finally agreed to try for it but nothing has happened yet. Idk if something went wrong and she gave up again or what.
It doesn't happen overnight, it's good if she is seeing someone and trying to take control of it
>She wouldnt think twice about me when im having problems…
Not so good

No. 2286153

>>2286140
I feel like i should argue that im not even half as needy as she is and dont cause as many problems, therefore it makes sense that im overwhelmed by her and she's not by me. But that seems like the asshole thing to do. Pretty sure i am an asshole kek. But yeah youre right that nothing will happen instantly. All i can do atp is wait and hope. I try hard for her every day and im not giving up yet. I just really hope it gets easier soon. I cant handle her by myself. When i think about how much this sucks for me, i know it has to be even harder on her. It's very sad. I'll keep praying.

No. 2286201

>>2286138
So with the fluctuations I'm dancing around normal. The nurse complimented my bmi last time I was in and while she was making notes said she wish more people were like that. I was beaming lol

No. 2286242

My living situation is a bit unique so I don’t want to go into details, I just need to commiserate about irresponsible roommates. Anybody else have experience with a roommate who just expects “someone else” to do it?
>puts dishes in sink and leaves them there, I’m always the one to load and unload the dishwasher or wash things by hand as needed
>takes out trash but doesn’t put a bag back in, lets trash pile up next to it until “someone else” puts in a new bag
>never rotates laundry, let’s laundry sit in washing machine for entire day, leaving me to rotate it for her when I need to do my own load
>doesn’t throw away empty bottles of detergent (we use different ones) but instead let’s them stack up on the washing machine
>doesn’t put clothes in hamper but leaves them all over the floor. Even when I put them in the hamper for her, the situation is back not too long after. I’m serious that there is a perpetual mountain of dirty clothes next to the washer
>dog is untrained and always harassing my pet/drinking their water. I love her dog but he’s her responsibility. I’d adopt him from her but she doesn’t want that. She neglects her animals but you can’t tell her that, she’ll start whining
>I pay a very very low rent so I try not to complain, but she does not have to pay anything at all (her family owns the house)
>leaves crumbs on table and counter, doesn’t wipe them off ever
>uses the vacuum but doesn’t put it back, leaves it in the middle of the hallway until “someone else” puts it away
>huffs and puffs when I’m cleaning the kitchen after work because the noise of the dishes is interfering with her show
>says she’s fine with me turning on the temperature after I ask her if she’d be okay with it, then she talks crap about it behind my back and keeps lowering the thermostat behind my back as well
I could keep going but it’s just driving me nuts. Please someone share your experiences because I think I’m going to explode but I’m so apprehensive to approach her about this because of her emotional response to any sort of confrontation. She also has her whole family on her side and she already badmouths me in a way, so I just don’t want to risk anything but I think I’m reaching my limit.

No. 2286246

>>2286117
if you look good then don't worry about the numbers. lots of different things influence that. boob size, water weight, muscle weight. it's not just all excess fat.

No. 2286247

>>2286242
This is called being a doormat for lazy forever-children. You sound like a people-pleaser that doesn't know how to stand up for herself, no offense. She sounds like an entitled and irresponsible brat. Unfortunately, you don't have the power to change her: she's always gonna be a lazy loser. The best course of action is to move out as soon as possible, until then, stop doing everything. Focus only on your own room, keep that clean, but let the common areas go to shit. You're being taken advantage of, but you're either too nice, or too naïve, to recognize that. Please, for your own sake and your own dignity, look for other places to live and leave this shit show behind you.
>I pay a very very low rent so I try not to complain, but she does not have to pay anything at all (her family owns the house)
YOU are paying HER to be HER maid. Let that sink in.

No. 2286301

>>2286117
120 pounds is skinny for an average 5'6 woman, wtf.

No. 2286339

>Some people may need to break things into smaller steps, such as:
>getting up
>using the bathroom
>getting dressed
>having breakfast
kek I'm really at the lowest level this is pathetic

No. 2286362

My immigrant parents can be so retarded

No. 2286368

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this is how i feel when i pirate and find cool shit using the internet and reserve image searching, maybe i am le hacker

No. 2286374

>>2286368
Me whenever my internet is fucking up and I run CMD and type ipconfig /release, not actually knowing if it does anything but feeling like Mr Robot

No. 2286379

>>2286117
>maybe if you're a womanlet?
Not even. It's still a normal and healthy weight. You'd have to medically be a midget by under an inch for it to barely be considered overweight.

No. 2286385

The way an elderly relative of mine that I live with speaks about people's physical looks has really been getting to me, especially the comments regarding girls/women. I can't even watch TV with her anymore because she has a rude comment for every other person on screen. It was especially bad the other day during the Macy's Thanksgiving parade. I told her the comments she was making about teenage girls was inappropriate but she continued on like I hadn't said anything. The worst, though, is when she gets on the phone with her "friends". Oh my god I don't think this woman has said anything positive about other women's looks in her life. The most positive I've heard is along the lines of "she's okay" which is followed by "but she needs [to lose weight] [a nose job] [a breast reduction]". She makes comments about my body as well, though she's more careful with her words. I've gained a little weight that will very easily come off in the new year but I know she's dying to say something to me despite her being obese. I'm dreading the day I overhear her talking about me on the phone.

No. 2286432

>>2286385
Respond to her by suggesting she get on Ozempic and fitted for a chin implant.

No. 2286524

>>2286385
Watch some old movies from the time she was growing up and copy the way the women act and speak. Then tell her that only the ugliest and most unwanted women talk like that about others.
If you tell her to fuck off in modern terms she'll gloat over triggering you. If you copy the way she was spoken to when she was younger, she'll take it to heart, even if she's still a spiteful bitch about it. I guarantee that she grew up with a self loathing mom and was criticized 24/7 growing up, throwing those barbs back in her face might make her shut up for a bit.

No. 2286528

I am tired of people using Bob Bryar’s passing away as another way to promote troon rights

No. 2286537

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i'm so thankful i DON'T have the time to play MMOs with my friend anymore because of work and college.

i love her to bits, i've known her for years, but she's so fucking weirdly insecure and it's grating.

she will constantly, and i mean CONSTANTLY, when we're in game, talk about how petite and cute her character is and how the race she plays as is superior because they're small and skinny.
I regret to inform that she is neither small or skinny in person, but i'm not gonna nitpick that because that doesn't make me any better.

she acts like my character is some kind of ugly butch fuck because she isn't a tiny elf. literal constant barrage of nitpicky, catty comments about how my character is dressed. my character's outfit is completely fine and i get a lot of compliments for it.

but again, it's not a big deal to me. because it's a game. these are in-game avatars. this behaviour is insane.

I don't take the game seriously. i spend about an hour or two a week on it collectively at this point.
I logged on today for the first time in months and she's immediately nitpicking me to hell so i logged off.

she's also extremely hung up about people copying her looks in a game that has a relatively limited amount of items you can wear if you're trying to dress 'sexy.' and it's so fucking weird how seriously she takes it. I don't get it.

she's in a server with me and some other girls, i used to post my eye makeup and shit, like everyone else, and whenever i posted she'd just start with "oh my god you're soooo prettyyyy. i'm so uglyyyyy." OVER AND OVER even though i'd ask her to stop because it's pitymongering and weird. I eventually stopped entirely because it made me that uncomfortable.

i love her but she takes the game way too seriously, she's insanely insecure and it's just grating to be around her so i rarely talk to her and avoid her entirely if i'm online.
I think I've outgrown her as a friend and i just need to pull the plug.

No. 2286544

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>I regret to inform that she is neither small or skinny in person, but i'm not gonna nitpick that because that doesn't make me any better
Kekkkk anon. MMOfags are either the most chill or weird individuals ever, there's no in-between.

No. 2286548

>>2286537
It sounds like you understand your own feelings, but before you pull the plug you should ask her why she's so obsessed with roleplaying as a Disney Mean Girl character in a fantasy game, and maybe directly log off after saying it.
Such a strange internalisation of a system that will never accept her

No. 2286564

Sometimes I feel suffocated by my boyfriend. He says "I love you" to me over 100 times a day. Whenever we spend time together, he always gives me really flowery over-the-top expressions of love every 5 minutes and I have to stop to listen to him and respond. I feel I have to put as much effort as well so I also return a flowery romantic speech. It goes back and forth, it NEVER ends. Yesterday we were trying to casually watch a show and I had to pause 10 times in one episode because he needed to convey another long-winded declaration of love for the 1000th time that day. We live a couple hours apart so maybe he just feels like he needs to make up for the physical distance.

I refuse to talk to him about it because literally every man I've met has been standoffish, aloof, and emotionally dead inside, and I can't stand to make him feel hurt for opening up to me and being emotionally vulnerable and open with me. He could handle it for sure, but I just don't want to take the risk of him closing himself off from me, even a little. He is a very warm and sentimental person, even if he does overdo it sometimes. We've been together for almost 8 months and I'm his first partner, so I think it's an actual part of his personality and not just a new relationship energy kind of thing.

No. 2286568

>>2286528
Are people really doing this? wtf

No. 2286573

>>2286568
yeah he had made a post somewhere with the word tranny in it and people are using that as a warning to others that death is deserved if you use such slurs. TRAs are already vile as is, and its telling when they go completely mask off with their hatred.

No. 2286586

I was exercising and fell on my face fuck this shit my nose hurts so bad and I even don't have anyone to comfort me

No. 2286602

why are there so many trashy single mothers who post the lewdest photos of themselves on social media alongside photos of their sons who are always named aiden

No. 2286607

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I have had it up to here. I just want to relax

No. 2286609

I want to have sex and I am losing my mind

No. 2286624

>jokingly ask nigel when he’s gonna propose
>he says he has the date planned but not the year
>jokes about it being in 2030
>he says in this decade
>gets a little sad
>he just tells me to have faith in him
So it’s never going to happen, is it? Our second year anniversary is this month. It’s probably genuinely over.

No. 2286627

>>2286624
two years of dating is not that long of a time imo. if you continue to pressure him, it’s only going to push him away.

No. 2286629

>>2286627
I just don’t want to become one of those people who are just boyfriend and girlfriend for years, like my parents were before they finally split up. I truly don’t want to pressure him but I already feel like he doesn’t like me much anymore and him just not having any semblance of a plan just hurts.

No. 2286631

>>2286624
The timeline shouldn't be a surprise it's marriage? 2 years is shit or get off the pot territory if you are dating to start a family. Within this decade is so disrespectful

No. 2286632

>>2286624
What the fuck is the issue with people wanting to get married so soon in a relationship? Do you want to get stuck with someone you don’t really know and might end up hating? Are you even living together? For how long?

No. 2286645

>>2286573
These are the same people going after JKR, aren't they? Insane

No. 2286646

>>2286602
This is oddly specific and yet, you're right. There are a ton of trashy single moms who post themselves on social media being trashy. Worse are they kids are being raised by social media, so you know they will turn out 'great'

No. 2286653

>>2286632
I’m not asking to get married now, just engaged. I would be okay with engagement for a year or two. Living together for a year now.

No. 2286661

>>2286624
Nonna you have to clearly communicate with him that you want marriage soon or else you are not a match. Please stop being such a doormat, joking about your disappointment and wishes etc. Even when he's your nigel, he's still a man. He's going to take advantage of you and your hopes if you let him.

No. 2286667

Tfw it’s already a horrible time in your life and you decide to go on lolcow.farm and the farmhands find your posts and redtext it, everything already feels like shit, your body is always tired, and then your VPN just starts automatically banning itself off the website for no reason. Then someone wants to make you an atrocious pig meal to eat out of full spite. Zero money in the bank and they’re already trying to steal invisible money I don’t have. Somebody end me fucking please just kill me I beg of you

No. 2286669

Why the fuck does my mom feel the need to tear me down every chance she gets? She resents me for being lazy but whenever I take any kind of initiative to start working again or pursue anything at all she's the first in line to tell me I either won't be able to do it anyway so it's better not to try or it's not for me according to her, yet when I ask her what would be considered "for me" she doesn't have an answer. It's like living with a school bully, I'm never good enough. I'm starting a new job and all she can do is be snarky about it instead of happy for me or at least for herself that there's a chance I'll get out of her hair eventually. I'm slowly becoming Erika Kohut, fuck me anons. Why does she not want me to succeed in anything?

No. 2286673

>>2286653
Why do you think that's gonna make a difference? Then he's just gonna keep you engaged for a decade and you'll still be whining about how you're never getting married. If you're already saying he doesn't seem to like you that much anymore, you only wanna marry him because of sunk cost kek

No. 2286678

>>2286629
>I already feel like he doesn’t like me much anymore
Actually disregard my previous post. Dump his pussyfooting ass. You seem like a considerate and gentle person and he's a pig stinging you along for convenience. You deserve someone who actually loves you. You think a man who is head over heels for you would give an answer like that? "uhhh maybe within this decade just trust me bro"?? DUMP HIM. When you're going to find your actual nigel, he'll be eager to bind you to him as soon as possible. You deserve better.

No. 2286680

>>2286632
2 years is a long time and long enough if you want to get married. I know a couple that got married within a year, a baby within two and they have been happily together for 7 years now. If a man acts hesitant about marriage after years it means he wants a better option. The only reason I didn't get married in my last relationship is because I kept saying no when he brought it up (I was waiting for a better option)

No. 2286690

>>2286624
Propose to him instead

No. 2286712

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>Try to talk to more people in my classes
>Naturally, I "click" with weird women, luckily I'm in classes that attract people into nerdy shit
>The people I get along with usually end up being fakebois on T or have some other nonbinary gendie thing going on
>Fun to talk about shared interests but most of them randomly spout dumb political shit and moralfag over nothing
>Realize most of the interesting/funny girls trooned out and are all reading from the same Tumblr Morals handbook
>Realize gendies have me walking on eggshells and self-censoring so it's not even really fun to talk to them for long periods of time let alone form a real friendship outside of classroom chats
Being friendless is literally less annoying

No. 2286733

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I chipped the blade of my favourite axe while cutting firewood.

No. 2286734

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I just can't stand this motherfucker. He's OLD and FAT and obsessed with me, literally in what world does he think he has a chance? I feel disrespected that he really thinks he could pull it off. He is literally the human embodiment of picrel and it disgusts me.

No. 2286735

>>2285695
eh anon I get you. I somehow got through college filled to the gills with illicit drugs. I almost got kicked out after falling asleep during an important morning class because the xanax I took the night before hadn't worn off. I took MDMA in an art history for women class. College is different though, I get it, but the point of me sharing is that sometimes we fuck up and do stupid fucked up things and the world still spins. I know you "deserve" no sympathy but I'm giving it to you because I know what it's like to play with fire and get burned. I hope you can forgive yourself from this and move on, because this is not the end of the world!

No. 2286738

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>There's a hole in the world like a great black pit
>And the shitty people of the world inhabit it
>And it goes by the name of London
Hate London, hate everyone here, hate my job and I hate myself for choosing a career beholden to shitty city life. I wish I could go back in time and slap myself for picking this career but here I am.

No. 2286796

>>2286733
I need to buy an axe guess I won't be going with a fiskars

No. 2286828

I got home from work only to find out that the electricity in my complex has been out for probably 12 hours. They have now been out for at least 15. All of my food in the fridge and freezer have gone bad. All of that fucking money spent on groceries gone like a fart in the wind. My phone has 25% battery left and I have to be up in 9 hours, so if my battery runs out while I sleep, I won't be able to wake up to my alarm. It's dark as shit here because it's winter and evening. I called the company that does maintenance and other things for this building, and they told me that the electricity should come back soon. That was three hours ago. Fuck.

No. 2286831

>>2286712
God, Hitoshi-san is so sexy. Look at his ripped physique and stylish hair. Why can't moids be like him in real life? I guess the only good scrotes exist in anime. I wish life was anime.

No. 2286834

>>2286796
Fiskars are good if you're going camping or hiking. They're light weight, well balanced and have a sharp edge. The problem is that the blade is hard and brittle. While this keeps it sharp, this means that if you accidentally hit a stone, a nail or anything other than wood, the blade will chip.

No. 2286846

>>2286586
I'll e-comfort you nonnie. It's been 4 hours. Does it still hurt? If so, I hope you get better soon ♥ Be careful next time, and don't let this put you off of exercising.

No. 2286884

i hate having a roommate at college. besides her having her partner over more than i'd like, I've started to grow annoyed with her for just about everything. last semester we worked better and were better friends, but im so busy this semester I hate coming home and having her be there. or doing something in my room and having her walk in and interupt it. i think the chances of me switching to a single next semester are low but god idk what to do anymore. shes not a bad person I JUST NEED TO BE ALONE.

No. 2286887

I need to start being more selfish, rude and self-serving. Being nice gets you no where in life, not even with your own family. Being an unlikeable cunt is clearly the only way to succeed in life.

No. 2286889

>>2286712
i'm having the same problem at my "women's" university, though if you called it that the fakebois and gendies would throw a fit.

No. 2286911

I said I will never contact him anymore but I miss him every single day. I even got hired at a shitty place just to focus on dumb drama and being yelled at work to maybe forget about him. But I simply can't, I just loved him so much and he abandoned me. I did everything I could, and I want him back. I don't know how to bring him back, I'm doing no contact for 2 months already and it hurts like hell, nothing is working in my favour. Please come back, I beg you, please come back to me. Please don't forget me, please come back I need you

No. 2286927

>>2286846
Thanks so much, it still hurts. I don't think it's broken but a bruise started to show up now kek

No. 2286931

My grandpa just called me telling me that my mom is dead, but she isn't dead. She's perfectly fine. Now she's telling me that when she was younger he'd always kill her pets, that he's very manipulative and that whole side of the family is.
At first I had just assumed his mental was starting to deteriorate. He's had a number of strokes and he's pretty old.
But my mom says that he's said similar things before when she didn't answer the phone right away decades ago.

So now I'm not sure if it him trying to emotionally manipulate me for whatever reason. Or if he's just overdramatic and panicky. My mother is trying to completely cut off contact from him, I don't know the full details. I feel stuck in the middle and unsure of what to do. I'm pretty confused.
He also told me he's randomly coming over to my house and wants to take me out to eat with my aunt, and I don't know whether to go with him or tell him to fuck off. I just wanted to relax and draw in bed today.
It's a world I don't exactly want to deal with.
Should I be pissed?
Should I feel concerned for the mental degradation of the elderly?

No. 2286935

>>2286931
I say fuck old people they are evil. If your mom says he was evil in the past just believe her, it's all karma

No. 2286936

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I don't understand, I still have nightmares about dating my ex. I don't even get these intense nightmares about my ex that abused and raped me. But apparently my brain is really hung up on him, I don't even think about him consciously because I want to forget about how worthless and awful he made me feel about myself during the entire relationship. And every time I've had a nightmare about him a lot of the hurt he caused me comes back. It's been 4,5 years there is nothing to ruminate about and I don't want anything to do with him. So why do I have nightmares where we are dating again? Because even in those dreams I'm looking for a way out. It doesn't make sense.

No. 2286938

>>2286738
I feel you anon. If I had the foresight I had now I would have chosen a career that would allow me to wfh. Living in the city sucks and if I can work from anywhere I'd already be able to buy a house and not be stuck in a shitty shoebox 30m2 apartment

No. 2286939

>>2285968
I had relationships when I was a teen and it was just a trainwreck at worst and okay at best. Most women at that age aren't even dating pretty boys either, they usually end up with some mid or ugly teen boy that treats them like shit. Most of them also seem to just be in it to explore and say they've done it more than anything else (not my case, but I knew a lot other kids like this) rather than actually experiencing an amazing love story or something.

No. 2286942

I am sick of delivery men ringing my bell all the time when it's not for me. It happens 3 to 4 times a day every day. I never open the door. The bell is loud as fuck and I never hear them ringing my next door neighbor (the person whom orders most of these packages). My bell button is not even the first one. It is so annoying. I hate living in a complex, I miss having my own entry.

No. 2286988

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today i woke up and my dad told me they called him from the hospital? and they were looking for me, he told them i was in another country (i was asleep kek) because it was time for my "yearly checkup" with a cardiologist, which is weird as fuck cause i haven't seen one since i was maybe six. i'm so scared of checkups and i've avoided them my whole life. where the fuck did they get my dad's number? it doesn't make any sense. they should've called me, i stopped being a minor almost seven years ago.
whatever, i have an appointment on the 10th and i was wondering if it's possible to exaggerate my pectus symptoms more to get free pectus carinatum surgery and put an end to one of my biggest insecurities. now i'm paranoid and feel like throwing up about them seeing me naked which is ridiculous, they have to assess the degree of my DEFORMITY. i get stressed over the dumbest shit. this is a step towards getting the surgery for free, i should be happy

No. 2287008

>>2286988
pectus carinatum and excavatum is a /fit/ meme and most people don't give a shit. I feel like surgery should only be done to save your life not for dumb shit like center of chest being too bumpy. I was insecure about rib flare last year and had to stop looking at that crap online. All surgery risks death your paranoia and feeling like throwing up is your survival instinct screaming at you

No. 2287010

>>2286942
Can you put a sticker or a label on the doorbells or something? Like DONT RING or something kek

No. 2287011

>>2286988
girl why you would ever willingly put yourself under the knife for a non-fatal deformity or condition is beyond me

No. 2287012

>>2286942
Need a sign that says please do not ring bell. It tends to work.

No. 2287014

>>2286884
college dorm living was one of the most depressing times of my life because of this simple fact. When and where can you EVER be alone??? Also woke me up to the fact that I was an introvert and needed alone time to survive. I hope you can get your own space next time, remember it’s temporary at least.

No. 2287029

>>2286632
I agree with you and I don’t think two years is even long enough to really know someone. I think more people should wait even longer to get engaged or married and I don’t blame people for waiting years.

No. 2287036

>>2286602
my theory is they feel shamed by society for being a single mom. So they lean into pick me ism and trying to ramp up their sex appeal to feel some validation from wherever they can get it. Idk

No. 2287042

My favorite local restaurant has shut down. I loved that place, I ate there so much they knew me. I’m gutted and feel guilty about considering to eat at the new restaurant that has replaced it but it’s not their fault the old one closed down.

No. 2287045

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I’ve been feeling kinda suicidal this year and especially lately and I honestly don’t want to talk about that with anyone from irl. I don’t wanna worry my parents and annoy my friends.
Although, I don’t want to commit suicide tbh, I’m scared of the pain that comes with and I think I don’t really want to die, suicidal ideation isn’t as strong as it was when I had my last attempt 5 years ago. It’s just that I sometimes don’t see anything going for me anymore - same shit, different day kind of thing, I feel so stuck and behind. I’m scared to make a change, I know that I will fail and feel worse, like the other times. I’m scared to make a decision, I’m a perfectionist (sort of, I’m insulting actual perfectionists that do things right, idk what other word I should use). My health kinda felt off too this year, my hair keeps falling off too and feel tired all the time. I want a long break, not suicide, if I really think about it.
I hope I won’t do something reckless until next week when I have blood test appointment, that gives me some hope to keep going kek.

No. 2287048

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>>2287008
>>2287011
i agree that it's retarded, they'll probably say it's not that terrible and send me home anyway or i'll back out last minute so it's just mental masturbation atp. i went from not caring that much, to it completely consuming my every thought and thinking that dying on the table doesn't sound that bad which is again, retarded.
i feel like most people's pectus isn't that noticeable though but i really feel like mine is, i can't even wear certain shirts or bikini tops cause mine legit looks like picrel.
whatever, lookism.net (rip) and /fit/ rotted my brain so >>2287008 you're right

No. 2287050

I want to get therapy for OCD but I'm terrified they'll think I'm actually my thoughts and think I'm a criminal or some shit. I have respect for the mental fortitude of people with worse subtypes like P-OCD as a result, I could never ever speak up about it. Hell, even other OCDers have thought my thoughts were congruous with what I wanted to do.

No. 2287058

I just realised I have a night shift on the day I have an early morning doctor's appointment. I'll have to either stay awake for god knows how many hours or will take a nap and then go. I bet both will feel like shit plus I'm about to get my period too. I asked in the work chat for someone to change with me but it's not likely. I hate my dumbass for not noticing sooner

No. 2287059

>>2287011
Read between the lines here. She saw a cardiologist when she was 6, and the condition she listed can be comorbid with heart defects. She "hates checkups" but wants to get a ~free~ surgery, something that historically requires many "checkups" both to evaluate for surgery, and to monitor any potential complications. She wants "free surgery". She's not well.
>>2287048
>mental masturbation
Oh it's you kek

No. 2287062

>>2287045
Nona check your thyroid hormone

No. 2287066

>>2287058
How many hours are between the appointment and your night shift, nonna?

No. 2287069

>>2287066
Four. And I was planning to go on foot because there's traffic around the hospital at this time. The shift is chill but unless I manage to take a nap before I go, I'll feel tired nonetheless

No. 2287084

It happened. For the first time it happened to me. A man saw me from a distance, went to hide behind a wall. When i walked past, he was masturbating furiously and trying to call my attention. I am desensitized.

No. 2287086

>>2287059
yeah i have bdd, more news at 11. and what do you mean about "it's you" i've never used that word here before

No. 2287089

jesus fukcing christ i literally just had the worst period cramps, no, the worst pain of my whole life for like an hour. it was sweating, throwing up bile, diarrhea, shaking on the floor, almost passing out ype of pain. i took one of my geanmdas morphines because it hurt so bad i literally feel traumatized

No. 2287095

God damn I wish I could feel the same confidence I feel during my ovulation week, but all month. Is that what being a scrote must feel like? Just experiencing blind, unearned confidence every day? Last week was fucking amazing and I felt so confident and sexy, I wanted to ride that high as long as I could and now that my period is about to start again my brain is back to the same old fatigued, uninspired, self-conscious bullshit. Rinse and repeat. I'm sick of hormones dictating my life.

No. 2287096

>>2287084
I don't know if I'm just incredibly sheltered or retarded or what, but even knowing this happens it still sounds insane to me. Can you say what country? Also that's disgusting and I'm sorry you had to experience it

No. 2287097

>>2287096
ntayrt but this shit happens all of the time in California

No. 2287099

It's times like these where I wish I didn't fuck up my college years by being a mentally ill recluse.

No. 2287106

>>2287096
Thank you.
Look i know you won't believe this but it happened in Florence, Italy. I'm probably going to get banned for racebait but the man was definitely NOT italian. The thing is, my friends, young and older, all have similar experiences. There is nothing we can do. Nothing we can do. Nothing at all. Do you know what else i had to witness? I was going to work. I turn the corner and there's a full adult man shitting on the ground. Out in the open. Yea, in Florence! Yes, in Leonardo Da Vinci's Florence, THAT ONE! He wasn't italian either, but thay goes without saying.
Wait what else? Oh yeah! There's non italians walking into the post office non stop asking each individual person in there for 20€. Yes they just enter the post office, walk up to people one by one, hold their hand out and say "can i get 20€?". They don't just walk into post offices though, sometimes they stand outside. Sometimes they stand next to you as you withdraw your money from the ATM. Can you imagine a 6'2ft tall foreign man standing next to an older italian lady at the ATM silently? She gives the money because what if he acts up if she doesn't? She'll have a broken jaw and he won't even get arrested.
Wait there's actually more. They installed screens next to kindergardens because…you guessed it! Foreign men would stand next to the windows of classrooms and just stare inside. 20 years ago me and my friends would do so from a distance to wave at our younger siblings. Can't have that anymore. Playgrounds have 0 children in them and 59 foreign men just sitting in them chatting. The occasional woman in a full burqa and her four kids.
Hold on! There's more. In supermarkets you will have homeless foreign men walk around with their bare feet, again, going up to people one by one asking for money. I actually witnessed a woman telling the workers at the shop "i'm scared! Why do you allow this! His bare feet are next to the vegetables out in the open!" And what do the workers do? They follow him (from a distance) and with a wide smile and a voice and cadence as if they're speaking to a child and not an adult male say "come on, now, you can't walk barefoot next to the food! Hehe, come on now, leave these people alone, you have to go". Do you know what would happen if an italian adult did the same? They'd call the cops on him.
Nonnie i'm sorry for dumping all of this on you. I am scared in my own city. I cannot go certain places anymore. When i have my night shift i have to take a different route to return home because past 6pm, there's 100 of them just sitting there, gathered up, chatting. Doing nothing. My friends have a shop near the station and they vent everyday about how scared they are / about the men catcalling them. Oh! One even grabbed my arm once! See i had blocked that out because this is the new normal.
In the historical city of Florence, this is the new normal. What is the solution? Other than leaving and never looking back, nonas, please tell me, what is the solution? What do i do?
My current plan is to save as much as possible and flee Europe ASAP. I cannot take this any longer and belieeeeeeeeve me. I am not the only one. Well. European nonnies know. I wish life could go back to how it was before 2015. My goodness this never used to be part of my life. It took less than 10 years for this happen. Less than 10 years. What's tomorrow? Guess what i do not care because I WONT BE HERE!

No. 2287113

It makes me feel so dumb when I go to a therapist and ask for help and she says
>Well nonnie I don’t think I’m equipped for you

No. 2287121

>>2287113
what did you say to her?

No. 2287122

>>2287113
wow what a shitty therapist

No. 2287125

>>2287121
>>2287122
We were talking about my complex ptsd, when she told me that I just let her know that I appreciated her candor and that it was better for her to tell me the truth about how she felt instead of biting off more than she could chew

No. 2287127

>Open CC
>Picture of huge slimey turd on homepage
>Most recent post is a moid saying "REE GO BACK AND WORK IN KITCHEN BITCH!"

I wish Snail would just end it and give the website to someone who actually cares about it. Why does she hold onto it when she hates it so much? Why do moids save pictures of human feces and upload them on the web? I wish a nuclear holocaust happened so I wouldn't have to deal with this, I'd be dead but that would be worth it if it meant all moids were dead too.

No. 2287129

>>2287062
My doctor also prescribed that for when I will get my blood test done, I hope I’m not doomed for life if I’ve got issues with thyroid.

No. 2287130

>>2287125
it seems like you unfortunately have bad experiences with therapists in the past im sorry nona but its for the best in the end to be frank from the start than to keep lying..but still there couldve been a better way the therapist couldve told you that

No. 2287150

>>2287125
that's better than being milked for money for months by someone who can't help you or even makes you worse, speaking from personal experience
also therapy only works for people who are already okay-ish and want to have a better life. If you have serious mental health problems, the current form of therapy that is widespread doesn't help at all.

No. 2287170

why is it so fucking hard to find nuanced and level headed video game criticism. i just want somewhere to talk about how bad some of these new releases are without women being blamed for everything. i understand that the decline of quality is attributable to some leftist weirdos, but rightoids making games also dispense slop too, its like no ones remembers the 90s-2000s.

No. 2287175

in the mood for cheating… monogamy is a prison

No. 2287181

Fucking tranny acquaintance tried to grope my friend's chest and tried to make her touch his neovag through his clothes to prove he does not have a dick. He waited until I left and was alone with my friend to do it. This is so fucking disgusting. My friend also has a husband who is very pissed and does not want her to be near him again. This cements the fact that he is an AGP and not an HSTS to me.

No. 2287188

>>2287181
>and not an HSTS to me.
All troons are agps nona,I'm sorry that shit happened to your friend i hope she reports him, fucking gross moid.

No. 2287192

>>2287175
Is he underperforming or did you settle

No. 2287193

>>2287188
>all troons are agps
This is not true, but that tranny was an AGP.

No. 2287203

>>2287188
Honestly just gonna assume every tranny is a sexual deviant and not just another faggot from now on. No exceptions.

No. 2287233

>>2287181
Ewwww what a creep. Make sure to tell everyone you know this guy is a sex pest who sexually harasses women, protect all women from him

No. 2287243

i’m a failure by all standards. social, professional, etc. i graduated and an unable to get a job despite trying, have no friends, no money of my own. i’m so ashamed and so broken down by how life seems to come easily to people. they’re socially successful, they don’t have to try. i feel so defective and ashamed and i dont even know where to start

No. 2287247

>>2287203
Yeah just look at it like this: what's more common, that an already statistically rare gay man (estimated to be maybe 3% of the population) happens to also believe he's trans?
OR
that a straight man is sexually harassing and harming women any way he can think of that he can get away with?

Given the amount of sexual violence from men towards females happening on the daily, we already know the answer. So why wouldn't he just say he's trans so he can get free access to women to abuse? Even if you're woke as fuck, why would you think "faking" trans would be where that kind of man draws the line when it comes to morally bad things to do?

No. 2287250

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Why the fuck did I just see a screenshot of a hornypost I made six months ago in a /g/ thread on Tumblr while browsing the subject of the post's tag?

No. 2287258

>>2287250
kek! Take solace in the fact that another farmer agreed with your thirstposting enough to repost it on tumblr

No. 2287261

>>2287243
Pretend that you're a scrote and just assume you're the main character and deserve everything the world has to offer, that's how they skate by

No. 2287277

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i'm too retarded to finish college yet alone hold a job

No. 2287281

>>2287261
what kind of main character is jobless has no friends and has spent most of their free time alone. i need to know what my next arc is

No. 2287282

>>2287277
Not to kick you when you're down nonnie, but the phrase is "LET alone"

No. 2287286

>>2287282
fuck my stupid esl life..

No. 2287290

>>2287281
>what kind of main character is jobless has no friends and has spent most of their free time alone
have you ever seen an isekai anime

No. 2287294

>>2287277
You and me both. 25 and still in college

No. 2287295

>>2287069
Ugh nonna I'm so sorry, that really sucks. Try to get some sleep before the appointment if you can. The key to trying to cram sleep is to do it in multiples of 1.5hrs (90min), because that's the average sleep cycle. So even if you need to walk, that's about 2.5 hours to get ready and arrive if you only nap 1.5 hours before your night shift.
If you try napping and find you can't sleep, just closing your eyes and laying quietly in the dark can have a restorative effect. It can seem so wasteful, but I promise there is a WORLD of difference between sleep deprived, and sleep deprived but you rested with your eyes closed for an hour and a half.
So sorry I fell asleep on you btw, I got too warm in my bed with fresh sheets. I hope this advice reaches you on time and is maybe helpful!! Good luck!

No. 2287296

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I blush super easily when I'm nervous/embarrassed (so every time I talk to someone) and it ruins my life. Do you know how many times stupid fucking moids think I like them because I'm bright red when really idgaf about them???

No. 2287299

>>2287089
im still to nauseous to eat and i also needed to finish my final paper for a class today but i cant do anything. im just gonna beg for an extension
>>2287296
i used to do that when i was younger and had really bad social anxiety

No. 2287301

>>2287243
Nothing is effortless; those people are just putting on a show. Like Martha Stewart throwing stuff in a bowl, putting it in the oven, and pulling out the finished product from under the counter. Why can't you cook like her?

Don't be too hard on yourself, adult life is weird. Just get a bunch of shitty temp jobs until you either get hired on or you get inspired. You have to see it through though; dont quit because a shitty job turns out to be shitty. Growth only comes from pain and suffering.

No. 2287303

>>2287089
How much were you bleeding? I know everyone likes to pretend cramping is meant to be super painful, but that level of cramping can be really serious. Is it still happening?

No. 2287314

>>2287303
not much bleeding, my periods are pretty normal-light now that im an adult. it wasnt a weird consistency or anything either. uterus was just mad as fuck i guess? im not in agony anymore just feeling a bit dizzy and nauseous still

No. 2287329

Sometimes I get high and think about how healthcare is so expensive in America and so cucked by religion, there are women dying from pregnancy complications because a doctor won't touch her for fear of punishment. People killing themselves because they can't afford chemotherapy, people dying from not being able to afford insulin! Do you know how cheap insulin is! It costs them like 4 dollars to make and they sell it for 700 dollars! It's something everyone has, and needs to live and we're dangling that carrot over the heads of UNLUCKY people, waiting to see how high they're willing to jump to earn a profit. It's disgusting. I just think it's insane how there haven't been mass riots about American healthcare, like massive full scale riots and straight up guerilla warfare homicide over this. How is nobody dying in a pit of fire over this? No matter what you're fucked. I hate America. We could do it, it could be free but we have to be evil retards.

No. 2287341

If I was a doctor, I wouldn't go to sleep at night knowing I was exploiting people's needs for money. I would have to say something. If I was manufacturing such goods as insulin, I couldn't look at myself if I created a monopoly and then price gouged it to screw over the needy. That makes you an indirect murderer. I can't believe it either nonnie

No. 2287350

>>2287314
tbh you might have ruptured an ovarian cyst

No. 2287357

>>2287314
Ugh, I almost want to tell you to ask your obgyn what the fuck is going on, but they can be so useless. I'd say do it anyways but be prepared for a useless answer.
You checked to make sure it wasn't your appendix, right?

No. 2287360

>>2287350
wtf i hope not, wouldnt it still be hurting??
>>2287357
i have a checkup in a couple days so im planning to bring it up then. and yeah im pretty sure its just my womb i mean its in the same spot my cramps always are

No. 2287373

I experienced sleep paralysis for the first time in my life today and now I’m scared kek. I was just taking a midday nap and I went through paralysis three times in an hour, thinking there was an intruder in my room. I think I might need to get tested for sleep apnea at this point because my nigel says I also casually stop breathing if I’m sleeping on my back.

No. 2287386

>>2287360
For future reference, if you press down on a painful area in your abdomen, and it hurts more when you STOP applying pressure, that's an appendix burst, go to the ER scenario.
Also there are different kinds of ovarian cysts. Some don't hurt after rupturing, or so I hear. I think other anon is more knowledgeable about it than me.

No. 2287395

>>2287314
That does sound like a ruptured cyst, which can be pretty serious, especially if it's super painful like that. If you're sexually active it could also be indicative of an ectopic pregnancy, but I figure you'd've said something if that was possible. Whatever it was, that kind of pain shouldn't go unchecked, especially if it's not normal for you. Definitely bring it up at your checkup nona, & good luck!

No. 2287396

>>2287373
Idk if you already know this, but when you're experiencing sleep paralysis, wiggle your pinky. It will feel like you can't, but concentrate on moving it as much as you can. You'll feel it twitching very little, then you'll be able to bend it, then mobility will begin returning to the rest of your hand. After a little bit, you'll snap out of the episode, like waking up very suddenly. Some instances take longer to resolve than others, but this has never failed me.
You also want to try ONLY focusing on moving your pinky with as much effort as you can. When your mind wanders is when your brain starts thinking shit up to fuck with you, including some stuff I'm not going to mention because even just knowing about it makes you think about it and then it affects you when you're experiencing an episode of sleep paralysis. Unfortunately, your brain is in a weird place during sleep paralysis episodes so it is very responsive to your passing thoughts.

No. 2287403

I fucking hate celebricows retards and I hate jannies even more for completely giving up on moderating the thread and letting twitter/tiktokfags and gays run rampant. Thread is about to hit post limit and I know damn well none of these newfags are working on a new one and they're still wasting replies with non contributions like
>"Kek"
>"Nonnie you're killing meee (in reply to the least funny post oat)"
>Straight up repost from literal years ago or something that was already posted in this same thread
My god shut the fuck up none of you are funny or witty. And don't even get me started on the Ariana and Lana wks.

No. 2287415

>>2287403
Uh oh, talking about jannies being retards???? Time for you to be banned!!!!! You should have taken this to META! Not here… Not on our sacred /ot/… You need to learn to be happy with the jannies, just because they have shit for brains doesn't mean you get to complain about them!

No. 2287451

>>2287341
I blame the insurance companies most of all

No. 2287459

>>2287329

The patent for insulin was sold to the University of Toronto for $1 specifically to make it accessible. There is some good in the world:

> As solutions to the insulin-cost crisis are being considered,” a new New England Journal of Medicine editorial argues, “there is value in remembering that when the patent for insulin was first drafted in 1923, Banting and Macleod declined to be named on it. Both felt that insulin belonged to the public. Now, nearly 100 years later, insulin is inaccessible to thousands of Americans because of its high cost.


However:

> I just think it's insane how there haven't been mass riots about American healthcare, like massive full scale riots and straight up guerilla warfare homicide over this. How is nobody dying in a pit of fire over this?


The demographic responsible for the price gouging would find your call to arms antisemitic. The last time people stood up against Big Anything (Occupy Wall Street), the elites weaponized queer theory against the world and empowered every fringe antisocial element to sow chaos with NGO support. The state of the world we have now is the result. We spay and neuter our own children, brought men into women's bathrooms, sports, and prisons, and import violent "refugees" by the boatload.

Big Pharma lobbied a decade ago to repeal the requirement that they justify any price increases to Medicaid administrators to remain eligible for reimbursement in the program, so they keep raising the price on insulin and epi-pens and other life-saving drugs because nothing stops them– insurance just keeps paying for it and the feds print more funny money to keep pace with the inflation. The whole thing is a racket.

Our entire economy runs on fraud and queer theory. It is literally fake and gay.

No. 2287465

I'M SO NOT TRYING TO ALOG, BUT I DO NOT WANT HEATHER TO BE PREGNANT, SHE WILL FUCKING RUIN THAT CHILDS LIFE. NO FUCK.

No. 2287483

>>2287403
i agree, so much whiteknighting on the thread lately. i report every retard i see. i started making the recap for the next one about an hour ago so as soon as it hits post limit i'll have it ready kek

No. 2287484

>>2287386
yeah it didnt hurt like that but thank you for telling me this
>>2287395
eek this sounds scary but yes ill ask my doctor. and no im a virgin so its nothing to do with pregnancy

No. 2287496

>>2287465
it's so bad it makes me feel bad for the autistic moid. he didn't have a chance

No. 2287497

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My depression is back and its only good for mental decay, I feel like each episode leaves me more retarded than the last. I did good for many months! I hate this manifestation of it because I lose joy for everything. I thought it may be the stress of exams, but they are almost over. I don't feel as excited as I typically do, just empty. I cannot even cry. I want a remedy, but I can spend all day obsessing over a solution and nothing works. It began two weeks ago and keeps bugging me. I take vitamins. I eat healthy. I go outside. I can usually keep myself happy and busy in my own little world so I don't mind being alone. I just feel empty now. I need to be selfless but now that feels like a chore, too. I miss my excitement. I want it back. Sometimes I'd like to blame my medicine, but thats too easy a solution.

No. 2287503

>>2287497
You might need to switch meds, nona! Ask your doctor for an increase in dosage, and if this doesn't work, let her know it is no longer effective and you need to try a different anti-depressant.

No. 2287505

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>>2287483
Nonnie I love you. Please marry me.

No. 2287508

>>2287503
She already increased another unrelated medication I am on, but I can't even pick that up to try for another two weeks, the I go out of town for a month after that, and she then wants to monitor the first med before increasing the other medication, but she told me that I'll still get episodes at some point and higher doses are for intensely bipolar patients, kek. You're so kind, just knowing someone cares enough to reply makes me thankful. Maybe one day I'll have to try a new medication, but I've tried so many, and this is the first to work but its a mood stab. Blah blah blah!

No. 2287515

>>2287243
the people you assume are socially successful without having to try are probably all trying extremely hard. People make so many assumptions about the lives of others but you don’t really know how well they are doing, they could all be masking and feeling like shit too

No. 2287521

>>2287258
nta but those dumbasses reposting things from here are not true farmers

No. 2287533

>>2287403
it might be time for you to take a break

No. 2287537

>>2287508
Of course, nonna. A lot of anons are really anti-med or know very little about it, so I try to be helpful when I can. Unfortunately, I mostly have a lot of knowledge on run of the mill depression, anxiety, and ADHD, so I'm sorry I can't be more helpful to you. And I'm also sorry you're tweaking your meds right now, that's always the worst. The good thing is they are always making and testing new things, so even if something doesn't work for us now, there may be something in the future. I've always wondered if they will eventually be able to treat psychiatric related disorders with gene editing, you know?
Wishing you well, and hoping you find the right combination soon.

No. 2287590

>>2287533
it sounds like the same sperg who's freaking out in the lolcow caps thread about them not being funny enough. i suspect they want more tumblr-level jokes.

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No. 2287607

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>>2287505
I now pronounce us wife and wife. I just finished the recap

No. 2287627

>>2286712
nona I had this EXACT issue at university recently and it SUCKED. the shared interests and stuff only stretched so far.

Their idea of friendship is extremely performative and political, nothing about it is organic or normal. it's so exhausting.

I ended up blocking almost all of them after I graduated because I knew that any semblance of friendship I had with them would blow up eventually, because it always will.

No. 2287637

>>2287483
>>2287505
you make sure to let me know when to rent the tux for the wedding ok nonnies?

No. 2287638

i get paranoid whenever my neocities site counter goes up by a lot, so i immediately check the thread here to see if i got posted or something. probably i got posted on some discord circlejerk for like the 23843249832 time and these people still don't get that i don't care, i'm autistic and most of the time proud of it

No. 2287645

>>2279865
your cousin is repulsive and I loathe that you went through this anon. I hope that you can forgive yourself for the way you reacted in the moment, and I hope you can eventually get the strength to tell anyone you think is necessary. I would also spit in his face.

No. 2287651

>masturbation doesn't make me happy or dull the pain anymore
Well now I have nothing

No. 2287655

>>2280898
nonnie, read this over again when you think about what you deserve in a relationship.

No. 2287661

>>2286889
what's it called then? AFAB university?

No. 2287664

>>2287497
this dress is so amazing I need it

No. 2287665

>>2286609
>I want to have sex and I am losing my mind
Is it that difficult

No. 2287672

I miss my cat so much. I took care of him when he got sick for so long now that he's not here anymore my life feels empty. I wish I could warm the dirt that wraps around his body. I don't believe in souls or an afterlife but i'll make both so I could take care of him after I die. My arms feel so empty.

No. 2287695

I’m so tired of living in a place that doesn’t get winter. We have had temperatures well into 80 degrees (fahrenheit obv) in november.
Today the high was 76 and the humidity makes it warmer. I just want to wear a cute sweater or a jacket and drink a hot coffee on the porch.
It is getting hotter every year too, It hasn’t always been this hot in the winter time where I live. It is seriously depressing me I need to move somewhere with seasons asap. It is so joyless here. Barely any nature. Garbage everywhere. Hot as hell. I am so tired of it

No. 2287700

>>2287695
move to PNW

No. 2287716

I'm cold and tired and I just want to sleep for another 6 hours fuuuck

No. 2287720

The MtF thread is so milky and hilarious but it makes me feel really nauseous if I read it for too long.
It makes me almost anxious about indulging in any online-hobbies because I know online spaces are basically tranny nesting grounds at this point. Which is such a shame because video games and online chat rooms can be so fun! But it's just not worth it to me anymore

Partaking in normal, physical, outdoor hobbies has been so good for my peace of mind and sense of security.
Losing some weight, getting fit, and make myself as attractive and normal-looking as possible has been the best life hack ever. troons now give me the widest fucking berth I could possibly ask for, I've never felt safer.

No. 2287721

i saw something on reddit that really pissed me off. it was a twitter screenshot of a woman saying “sex with men is rarely enjoyable” and there was a moid that responded to the tweet saying “gay dudes seem to be having a blast so maybe it’s not a men problem”. it was on r/rareinsults i believe and it had 117k upvotes. like wtf. ofc reddit scrotes liked it, they’re all a bunch of misogynistic faggoty men.

No. 2287722

>>2287695
Trade with me. Seeing snow makes me want to kms

No. 2287727

>>2287720
Sometimes it's good to take reality check and remind yourself that it's only ~0.6% of the population, like 1.4% max in highest sub population. Only ~3.8% are any form of LGBTQ

No. 2287740

i hate how 9-5 lifestyle does not give me the luxury of sleeping 12 hours a day

No. 2287748

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Im currently using that duolicious app even though I know it's not going to result in anything good. I'm just so lonely and other dating apps aren't working either. Im just afraid of being alone and feeling more awful about myself. I just want a cute friend that I can go to the movies and makeup store with. But I can't make friends with other girls easily at all, so I try companionship with moids, and it always leads to bad things. I just don't feel well anymore. Im crying more often now.

No. 2287752

>>2287748
Girl please don't, I don't know where you live but you're better off doing some normie IRL meetup shit. You can aim for stuff that will skew more heavily female, stuff involving the arts, certain kinds of volunteer work, whatever is locally relevant. I don't even live in a big city but was able to find a sewing workshop with a free open house type session where you could bring pieces you were working on. I can't even sew but met some nice people.

Maybe you can't sperg out about animu but it's better than fucking duolicious

No. 2287756

I have unfixed childhood trauma that I've been dealing for over a decade now, and I still have no idea what to do about it
I've been having renewed nightmares recently
waking me up in sweat in the middle of the night
it's always the same which I've been having thousands of times already
I just wish I could move on with my life

No. 2287757

I want to create my own family. I want to find a proper attractive nigel I love and who loves me back. I want to raise kids with him and grow old with him. This has always been my biggest dream in life, the one thing I desire the most but moids don't want to commit these days, especially not handsome moids cause they have too many options. I'm stuck with a lonely life, doing jobs I hate and feeling constantly unfulfilled. I seriously want to kill myself

No. 2287760

I feel like I'm too soft for the internet and Imageboards in general, so not too sure why I'm here. I've been here since 2015 but still everytime I see something mean or unfair posted on this website it makes me kind of sad kek I'm such a crybaby. I would probably be better off somewhere more sanitized but I also hate updoot male culture like on Reddit

No. 2287763

Ugh, god, please give me the strength through this shitty rest of the semester. Why the fuck did we get THE most irresponsible profs who decided to just shove their classes at the very tail end of the year. I just hope I can finish and submit my course work on time in between the worst class schedule ever.

No. 2287781

>>2286931
Well he never ended up coming, thankfully. He probably forgot all about it as soon as he ended the call. I know it's cruel, but a part of me thinks things will be easier for my mother and I when he passes away. I wonder how soon that will be.

No. 2287790

My back hurts so much I'm only 29 wtf it's so over for me

No. 2287791

I don't want to sound whiny or emo but I swear whenever I'm working on an important uni assignment the imagery and feeling of killing myself via firearm just plays over and over in my head repeatedly. I can literally feel all the tactile sensations involved, like the shotgun rocking against the floor while its in my mouth or resistance of the trigger as I pull it.
I know how exactly much of a problem it is I just need to put it somewhere in the hopes of getting my mind off of it. Look, brain, everyone knows how much you actually hate your life, etc, now stop forcing this shit into my fucking thoughts and let me work.

No. 2287837

>>2287790
Would you like some help with your back pain, nonna? I have a lot of tips and solutions for this! If you tell me where the pain is, how it hurts, and if anything caused it, I'm sure I would have advice for you!

No. 2287838

>>2287790
look up the McGill Big 5, it's exercises that are supposed to help

No. 2287841

>>2287837
Any suggestions would be great. The main pain I get is lower back pain when I do menial chores that require slight bending like laundry, washing dishes, mopping/sweeping. But I also get this new pain in between my shoulder blades lately that hurts more when I turn my head
>>2287838
I'll check it out thank you nonna

No. 2287843

turns out psychosis was my best friend all along. i will never try to shoo you away again, i promise.

No. 2287850

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I wish someone would do something against the hippie men. I sometimes have to take the train and I kid you not there is always some hippie scum that smells like shit, mumbling to himself while searching through the trash cans. Always with greasy hair and those wide batik etsy pants. Fucking hippie scumbags at least take a shower before bothering the rest of us with your disgusting smell

No. 2287853

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depression legit made me retarded. i used to love drawing, i could do it for hours, now i get tired after ~20 minutes and it's really inconvenient because i MUST draw NOW to get my fucking college degree. i feel alright thanks to antidepressants but my productivity is like 10% of what it used to be. what's worse is i live with my mother and depend on her financially and i feel like i'm just wasting her money on meds. i feel ok but what's the point if i'm still practically useless? my internet addiction combined with lack of discipline is definetly at fault here too
i need to do 3 months of work in ~20 days now or i'm getting expelled. i'm fucked

No. 2287855

this might sound pathetic but the amount of misogyny from men nowadays and how often i see it is honestly starting to mentally affect me. it’s seriously causing me to be more depressed and feel more lonely, and it just makes me feel unlovable, unwanted and worthless, feelings that i have already been struggling with throughout my whole life. im too scared to even be in a relationship with men, and i have never been in a relationship with one before. it seems like there’s too many cons and very little pros. the male race just looks so fucking bleak.

No. 2287858

>>2287841
Okay, so there are a couple of things you can try here. My first suggestion is always buying an electric heat pad. It plugs in to the wall, and it will have a controller with different heat settings. Start at the lowest and slowly work your way up as you adjust to the heat. Most will suggest not to lay on them because it can "burn" you, so once you get used to the settings you can experiment with that. It will definitely increase the amount of heat applied and it can feel better because you're pressing into it harder. Most of them also have a 2 hour auto shutoff! The nice thing about these is they are great for period cramps as well. You can also try icing your back to see if this helps! I find this typically works more for physical injuries, but if it works for you, most people suggest alternating heat and ice.
Two, many times lower back pain can be exacerbated because there's another nearby muscle pulling on your lower back muscles. Get a massage oil (think the massage bars at lush) and try seeing which groups of muscles make you feel better when massaged. It can be things you wouldn't expect! I've found the muscles at the top of my thighs are a common cause. I thought to try these because I know I have hip problems, so think about if you have anything that could point towards a certain group of muscles being overextended. And of course, just feel around in the area, wherever there are bones, there is muscle. Massage oil will help your fingers get past the skin and fat layers you have, which lotion has a harder time doing, but can still be a substitute in a pinch! You can also put a tennis ball between your back and a wall, and roll it across your muscles that are hard to reach. Make sure to drink a good amount of water after massaging any muscles.
Third, you will want to strengthen your core! Other anon suggested the McGill 3, and these are core exercises. Try tightening up your core whenever you bend over to pick up clothes, or when you sneeze and cough. This will stop your back muscles from straining themselves so much. Planks are always a good place to start if you can't do much else. If they are too hard for you at first, modify them by starting from a higher place. Put your hands on a countertop or bench for the plank instead of the ground. You should try having a mirror next to you to check your posture. Most people start to raise their hips or butts without realizing, because their instinct is to engage their back muscles to help their core! You want your back to be as flat and straight as possible. Even if you can only do 3 seconds at first, that's great! Your goal is to increase the amount of time you can remain in perfect plank position. There are modifications you can look up if you decide this is your new hobby and it gets too easy for you kek.
Fourth, a lot of people don't realise this, but their hips can be rotated when they first lay down to sleep on their backs. I briefly bring each knee to my chest in order to get my hips laying correctly. You should definitely get a firm pillow to place under your knees, it will help your back stay in the correct position. If you're a side sleeper, get a firm pillow to place between your knees.
Fifth, if you know you're going to be doing a lot of work, then take the ibuprofen BEFORE symptoms start. That way the inflammation is stopped before it has a chance to set in and make you hurt. Try upping your dose a little if you feel it isn't working well (my max is 800). Remember ibuprofen is processed through the kidneys, so be sure to drink a lot of water. And if you feel you have to take it constantly, it may be time to stop and look into other forms of medication or treatment options.

These things above can apply to your shoulderblade pain, but my advice for this is posture! Try working on strengthening your shoulders (planks can work for this too, they are the first step to pushups) because you need shoulder strengh to work on your posture. Stretches also help. Roll your shoulders backwards in circles 20 times and you should feel them loosen up. Also do chin tucks.

I hope some of this works for you!

No. 2287864

>>2287855
It is kind of pathetic because why do you care what people who don’t even know how to clean their poopy butt holes think, to the point it effects your life

No. 2287868

My joints hurt more each year and I don't know why and I'm scared it's just going to keep getting worse. My knees have felt like there are pieces of glass in them on and off since I was 20 and kinda fat. 2 years later my hips started to hurt (at this point I was over 100kg so I feel like that's the cause) but in the last 2 years I've lost 40kg and and they're still getting worse. sometimes I can barely walk my hips and knees hurt so much and in the last couple of months my ankles have started to hurt too, almost like a growing pain. I'm a healthy weight, I'm active, I stretch every day. Doctors did my bloods and nothing inflammatory is showing up so it's nothing like arthritis or an autoimmune disease, but the pain is on both sides of my body which they said is weird if it's not something in my blood. I can manage it for now but what if it keeps getting worse? I don't want to be 30 with a fucking walking stick.

No. 2287870

>>2287864
atayrt but you’re actually right kek. im just typically a very sensitive and emotional person that’s easily affected by shit, but yeah i should not give a fuck what scrotes think and say and try not to let it get it to me so much.

No. 2287909

>>2287790
>>2287841

try ab wheel, literally zero back pain since I've started using it

No. 2287912

>>2287864
NTA but I feel depressed every time I go on Facebook (once in a blue moon) only to accidentally stumble upon extremely misogynistic shit and crypto-Nazi anti-feminist propaganda. All of the young people liking and sharing those posts and commenting on them, making woman-hating """jokes""", will all of them snap out of it at a certain age, or will it only get worse for us from now on in real life? I'm scared. I swear to god Facebook in my country has become /pol/ lite and the worst part is that it's a normie site so all that shit gets more exposure than it would on 4chan.

No. 2287931


No. 2287937

>>2287868
Doctors don't know their ass from a hole in the wall. You should get a Synovial fluid analysis to test for subclinical gout. Also, start keeping a food diary and your pain level on that day. There may be a connection between a food that causing joint pain due to a reaction between your body and that particular food. Tumeric is the world's best anti-inflammatory so start taking that and you'll see positive results within thirty days.

No. 2287945

I've been worried about the effects of aging for the past few months and have been obsessively monitoring the sides of my mouth for growing nasolabial folds and my eyes have become increasingly sunken and I feel like I've aged exponentially this past year. People would normally assume I was teenaged but now when I wear my outfits I feel like a look like a crackwhore trying to look younger. I saw online that it might just be dehydration though, which I genuinely think might be the case as my hands feel dehydrated (you know that dry, stringy feeling in your hands? i have that) and my lips have been constantly chapped and bleeding. I drink nothing but zero sugar soda so maybe I'm just retarded, gonna try and drink some more water and hope that helps, I bought some women's vitamins too

No. 2287958

I have to go to therapy today but last time I saw my therapist he was hounding me over who I was going to vote for and who I voted for, instead of letting me talk about the things that are bothering me that aren't even election related, so I don't really want to talk to him again. But I need someone to go to because if not then I sperg the fuck out on lolcow kek. Maybe I'll just pretend I have a stomach bug

No. 2287970

>>2287958
Sounds like a shitty therapist, has this guy helped you a lot in the past? I once saw a therapist who spent the entire session yapping about himself and I dissociated through the whole thing, thinking about video games kek. I didn't go back

No. 2287971

>>2287970
He's new and hasn't helped with shit not gonna lie, if I had to go I was definitely going to ask to switch me to a different therapist in the clinic. I've also had many sessions like that kek

No. 2287977

>>2287651
that was a poor coping skill anyway. now you can be free.

No. 2287982

>>2287958
fire him, useless trash waste of money egotist

No. 2287983

>>2287971
>>I've had many sessions like that
girl what are you doing, get rid of him and see someone else.

No. 2287986

>>2287983
women should only see women therapists imo, there's just too many things a moid couldn't understand

No. 2287993

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I’m so sad and anxious about the future for my sister but at the same time I’m just angry at her and her BPD bullshit. She’s ready to lose her job and apartment because she can’t keep her shit together and instead of taking accountability she will scream, cry, and hyperventilate about how we all hate her and wish she was gone. My mom went over to visit recently and said my sister is skelly thin and her dog seems terrified of her. I don’t know how to tell her to seek help without her lashing out and cutting everyone off. I’m scared of her doing something impulsive and stupid but I’m also over it. I can’t deal with the emotional manipulation anymore.

No. 2287997

>>2287983
I meant outside of this guy but yeah
>>2287986
It's worse, I asked specifically for a woman therapist due to sexual trauma and they gave me a gay moid like that'd fix me or something. I wish clinics fucking respected the clients wishes. It's the only one in town that takes my insurance too. Whole system is dicks

No. 2288000

A question, but idk where else this fits. Can someone have ocd from birth? Because I distinctly remember having awful intrusive thoughts from the age of five and that was way before anything traumatic happened to me.

No. 2288002

>>2287945
samefag, ive drank like 3 bottles of water since i posted this and idk how else to describe it but it feels like my brain is healing, it's like that throbbing sensation you get after you have an injury and the initial pain is over and it doesn't hurt anymore but it's still raw, you know what i mean? Does that mean I was just dangerously dehydrated?

No. 2288003

>>2288000
You can be genetically predisposed to developing certain illnesses, but also being that young it's possible you just don't remember trauma or what you were experiencing was just so normal to you you don't count it as trauma. When I was 5 I had a habit of maladaptive daydreaming and I would often stay up late in my bedroom walking around thinking of scenarios where I became ill and suddenly everyone gave me more attention than people who were mean to me. My sister was a type 1 diabetic and was hospitalized constantly and my father was physically abusive, but my mom would shield me so I didn't realize how bad it was, but that kind of thing still just gets absorbed into your psyche.

No. 2288005

>>2288003
No I remember my parents and people around me being genuinely good and loving at the time, the former showered me in love but I also remember shit like getting the mental image/intrusive thought of being rude to them, hitting them and stuff. Weird shit. My parents became anxiety freaks after shit befell our family when I was around 7 though. I wonder if anxiety/ocd predisposition ran in their blood and multiplied when they bred to have me.

No. 2288008

not to be retarded. but im so lonely and afraid and i feel like God doesn't like me anymore.

No. 2288021

>>2288008
if it helps at all I think God is a trickster who only derives pleasure from our mixed suffering. God is with us all as the most unsupportive class clown. As another lonely anon I salute thee, please exist in spite of God and make him loathe that he created you

No. 2288025

>>2288008
Let's be rejected by Gods grace together nonna

No. 2288059

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I hate when my friend sends me pictures of the moidlets she's babysitting and I have to pretend they're cute. I do not care, can we talk about something else?

No. 2288101

I've always been an anxiety ridden creature since childhood but back then I was super confrontational and aggressive as a way of coping with it and now I'm quiet and overly fearful. I miss who I used to be. Realistically it's no better since I got myself into a lot of retarded interpersonal drama as a result when younger but I hate this new meekness shit I'm in.

No. 2288143

Every time I stop coming here for a while like during the holidays, traveling, etc. I always feel better day to day in general, but inevitably I keep coming back to gaze into the river of garbage. And maybe 1 out of 10 times I’ll pull something funny or insightful or interesting out of the river, but mostly it’s just a bunch of unfunny sperging and retardation. Is this a form of self-harm?

No. 2288157

>>2288143
Yes, and we're all doing it too

No. 2288167

You fucking retard, if you're going to claim I have a million mental disorders then at least get your facts right about them. Nobody is going to take your bullshit seriously if you're saying I have super introverted hermit loner schizoid disorder and then saying a symptom of being super introverted hermit loner schizoid disorder is going out on the street and acting slutty and annoying looking for everyone's attention. Which is also a blatant lie, I almost want to see what you come up with next. Some things contradict for a reason.

No. 2288175

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aww geez..

No. 2288177

This might seem silly but I’m never able to get over friendship rejection from other women. It haunts me. It makes me feel defective. Especially when I’m excluded, like I can’t help but wonder what sets me apart as some kind of freak. And it has happened multiple times and I’ve tried. Something like that for a normal personal wouldn’t be a big deal because you’ve already got so much going on but when you’ve never really had friends and this has been happening since you were a kid the rejections become almost existential.

No. 2288180

>>2288177
It makes me feel like I'm 6 again and wondering why I just can't fit in.

No. 2288181

>>2288175
It doesn't look bad at all, but it doesn't look anywhere near $125 dollars good kek. $25 is a decent price, maybe $40. What's with burgers wanting to charge over a hundred dollars for anything?

No. 2288186

>>2288181
Because I made it?

No. 2288187

>>2288177
Join us nonnny
>>>/g/420991

No. 2288190

>>2288177
Getting rejected from other girls as "the weird girl" does so much damage to your psyche and nobody talks about it.

No. 2288192

>>2288186
don't listen to them, handmade clothes come at a high price. don't underprice the things you make.

No. 2288193

>>2288186
So? Everything you buy is made by someone. That doesn't mean you'll pay over a hundred dollars for any piece of garbage when you can get the same product for a decent price kek do you think you're the only person handmaking dresses?

No. 2288196

>>2288190
I hate how some anons attack you for trying to open up about this, like no this doesn't make you an nlog if you want to fit in.

No. 2288199

Holy fuck he is THE most insufferable moid. Everyday it's a new made up story. In the majority of his stories he tries to frame himself as this hero and savior to all women but ends up just making himself out to be a massive fucking creep. A few he told me recently:
>Threw a party in 6th grade, every single 12 year old girl in school came and got black out drunk, he decided to lock all the girls in a room together "so no creeps could get them" and slowly took them all home in taxis one by one

>Randomly found a drunk teenage girl in a bush one night, threw her over his shoulder and walked her home. her dad was extremely grateful when this hulking man carrying his intoxicated teenager daughter showed up at his front door in the middle of the night saying "i found her in a bush"


>Was jumped by a group of 40 people but single handedly fought them all off


>Saved his ex from being kidnapped in the subway station not once, not twice, but three separate times

(He told me this one after I had said I was going to take the subway to the mall after work, he also was sure to let me know that she looked just like me and it all happened at the exact same subway station I was at. I'm pretty certain he was trying to scare me out of going because he wanted to hang out that night while we were on a work trip)

>Was dating a model tier russian girl who would turn heads everywhere she went

(That one was just funny because he's short, fat and bald. Keep fucking dreaming buddy)

No. 2288202

>>2288175
Hi nonny, just a word of advice that getting a fair price for the materials and labor you put in to handmade clothes is an uphill battle. You will be lucky to break even in most cases. Lolita inspired items like this can be especially challenging to sell as many who would be interested probably also have sewing skills. What really makes them move are the fabric and design choices. You can try to sell it of course, but don’t take the lack of offers as an indication of your skill level. It’s a niche and challenging market, especially when you’re just starting out.

No. 2288203

>>2288193
Handmade by a single person ≠ mass-produced on a factory assembly line run by 100 people.
Go buy your shit off Wish or Temu and enjoy the quality.

No. 2288207

>>2288199
>>Was jumped by a group of 40 people but single handedly fought them all off
Kek

No. 2288208

>>2288202
Yeah, I was just trying stuff out, I guess. I'm an experienced seamstress, but there's no way I could actually make things that people would actively want.
I appreciate it. Thank you.

No. 2288209

>>2288203
Implying >>2288175 isn't already Temu quality with the uneven bottom part and ugly print KEK. Don't worry, I will buy online and so will everyone else and it'll still be better quality than something made by an autistic neet in her basement with a YouTube tutorial. Enjoy making no money since you can't take basic criticism even when you ask for it!(infighting)

No. 2288210

>>2288209
Nta but calm down

No. 2288213

I fucking hate men.

No. 2288217

>>2288209
That’s a little much there anon, maybe go take your meds.

No. 2288218

>>2288208
>but there's no way I could actually make things that people would actively want.
You have it all mixed up. It would be better for you to work on a commission-heavy basis. I.e., you can still make clothes for purchase by anyone, but the main bulk of your business & the main way you make money should be through custom orders. It takes longer to build up a clientele this way, but if you persevere, you can make it work. People aren't gonna pay $125 for a generic sunflower dress, but they would pay that much for clothing custom-made for them. You have to understand the market, not just understand the sewing machine.

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>>2288208
Didn’t you make this for yourself originally? I remember you posting it in the mundane thread. Don’t be so hard on yourself, making clothes and selling clothes are two entirely different skill sets. If you designed and made this with yourself in mind then it’s not surprising it doesn’t have mass appeal. That’s not a bad thing, it just means your approach should be a bit different next time you make something to sell. It’s a skill you have to develop just like sewing, it isn’t a failure of your character or abilities.

No. 2288224

>>2288208
Omw to commission something from you then, drop your contact details somewhere, delete the post 5 seconds later maybe. I genuinely would kek.

No. 2288243

>>2288210
>>2288217
No, I don't give a fuck. Stop policing how other people online talk to each other, I don't have to lie to her and tell her everyone will totes buy her ugly dress for $125 when even nicer anons are saying it's not worth that(infighting)

No. 2288268

Therapy cancelled due to weather anyway
>>2288196
They attack because they know they exclude other women for bullshot reasons and they want to keep excluding

No. 2288301

>>2288223
Yeah, I'm used to making bags and stuffed animals. This was one of the first times I tried a full-on dress.
I really liked the fabric, but there was less than 2 yards, so I had to work REALLY carefully to complete it with only scraps to spare.

My plan was to go more complicated once I got a basic pattern down (I drafted it myself), but if folks don't like the basics, I'm not sure about continuing with something more complicated.

But I think you're right. I know it's not really a "personal failing", as it were. It is what it is. I'm bad at selling, marketing, and taking photos in general, though, so maybe it's just not meant to be. I just have to reevaluate and think on it, I guess.

Anyone who's been constructive and/or kind, I appreciate it. I've tried to scroll to see everything, even if I haven't replied. Just kind of defeated rn.
Thank you for your nice comments and support, even if my work might kinda suck.

No. 2288320

Aaaand I was just rejected from a job at a local upholstery shop I'd been waiting to hear back from.
Damn. Not a great day.

No. 2288343

>spend a decent chunk of change for stuff so my gecko can have a perfect basking spot
>gecko stays in one hide all day
>literally haven't seen him bask once, not even cryptic bask
>maybe he doesn't like where everything is..
>re-arrange basking spot and hide
>still no difference
>Google "why isn't my gecko basking"
>"geckos actually don't bask that much, it's only a time-to-time thing"
Wtf????? I still would've bought everything I did because it's clutter for his enclosure + the lighting is important for a geckos health, but darn. I thought he was gonna spend at least like 20 mins in his light everyday. Granted, geckos are mainly active duting the nkght, but it just sucks that I put so much effort in giving him a nice home and he just stays in one hide. I have the most unexplorative gecko ever. That's OK though, I will still continue to improve his enclosure.

No. 2288348

>>2288008
start blackmailing God. it fucking works

No. 2288360

>>2288355
Would he not support you?

No. 2288390

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>>2288301
Oh nona don’t be so defeatist. I think if you made this same exact dress in a baby blue cotton sateen or nice poplin you could sell it easily. It’s impressive you were able to make it with only 2 yards, I really do think your sewing skills are good. If you want to talk more about this and spitball ideas why not come talk to us in the sewing thread?
>>>/g/180491
I promise I won’t hugbox but will give you feedback if you want. I really don’t think you should give up on this yet.

No. 2288397

>>2288268
True. A woman could say "I couldn't really relate to girls as a child and they'd exclude me" and you'd have anons schizo tinfoiling about how she was probably just an ugly pickme bitch as a child. Sound logic.

No. 2288404

>>2288390
Lots happened today. I just need a break from thinking about it rn, is all.
Didn't realize there was a sewing thread. I'd be happy to contribute knowledge.
Appreciate it. Thank you.

No. 2288437

I keep getting those "thieves caught" or "creepy people at your door" videos recommended on youtube, and the latest one was clearly just people at the wrong house. One girl was dressed up a little and looked embarrassed. I fucking blocked the memory but this happened to me like 6 months ago, I went to the wrong house really late at night and some old guy and his dad were confused. I was mortified and peeled out down the street, it was an east vs north st. situation. If I end up in one of those compilations I will be so mad why is everything recorded now

No. 2288459

Speaking of not fitting in I’m really sad that the girls in my uni group are all friends and talking about going out together for drinks etc and they all just ignore me. I made friends with a Chinese international student though and she’s very nice though doesn’t speak fluent English but it’s a start.

No. 2288469

I just can't have nice things can i? I'm interested in a piece of media? It attracts the most retarded people imaginable, even if most people enjoy things I like in said piece of media, they like it in a completely different way and they shit on different opinions. I hate fandoms, but my friends can't live without it and this was the time I was genuinely interested in something. Okay, well, I will try to enjoy something else… No. I get permabanned for a thing that is normal and was specifically stated to not be a bannable offence, but I cannot appeal as they have changed my ticket on that to solved without hearing my side of things. Literally everyone does it there, streamers stream themselves doing that, but when I do it, it is permabannable! And I wasted some money on it (like a fucking loser).
I have done so much today, today was the day a feared the most for a few years, but I did it and I really wanted to celebrate it, but no. Nothing good can happen in my life, whenever I start feeling at least something better than apathy, something happens that ruins it and makes everything worse. I don't even try to hope for anything more than simple things to make me happier. This sucks. I'm going to sleep for 16 hours now, cannot take it anymore.

No. 2288492

>>2288469
I don't mean this to be rude, and it clearly sounds like you're experiencing depression if you're this irritable and citing apathy but these sound like extremely first world issues that could be solved by logging off, or at least changing the crowd you hang out in.

No. 2288508

i feel incredibly disconnected from humanity by how little i care about romance and dating and sex. i literally just dont care. i think i might have some hormonal inbalance and im worried i have endometriosis too because ive had insane pain and i posted on here and a lot of people said it sounded like ovarian cysts.. i dont know whats wrong with my body and mind and its messing me up

No. 2288513

>>2288508
Oh, I saw those posts the other day. Honestly, it didn't read as ovarian cysts to me. You should go to the doctor regardless, just to be sure, but you shouldn't be super worried about it. Don't let anonymous nobodies online put all these crazy thoughts and worries in your head.

No. 2288516

Why do I keep getting left behind when a friend gets a nigel? It makes me want to quit investing in friendships or making new friends if this is going to be the outcome every single time.

No. 2288527

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>>2288513
it was this post >>2287089 and i did some research and it does sound like thats whats been happening… of course it could be just cysts and not endo, or something else, i dont know and i wont until about 2 weeks from now when i see the doctor, im just anxious about it and my health in general now. and wondering if its connected to my really low sexual drive and motivation in general lately

No. 2288553

>>2288175
I'm sorry nonnie, that was mean and unnecessary of them. I agree that 125 may be a little overpriced but I disagree that your dress looks bad. Don't let them get in your head.

No. 2288557

>>2288209
does it make you feel good to make others feel bad

No. 2288569

>>2288508
>>2288516
I wish i could find friends like this IRL, I don't care about nigels and romance either. I just want a cool friend group to have fun with.

No. 2288576

>>2288569
i wish we could hang out nonnie. im lucky to have one good best friend irl whos also a girl but shes always hanging out with her boyfriend the past year so we havent been seeing eachother much

No. 2288621

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it's so annoying when i get mad at someone and pretend to be busy so i don't have to talk to them and they believe it instead of magically reading my mind and picking up on me actually being upset.

No. 2288629

>>2288621
This just made me remember our American Dad! stanfag era kek, Franny remains superior tho

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No. 2288636

A nona was rude to me today and it touched a nerve, and now I'm sad. Wish I could type a frowny face without getting redtexted.

No. 2288638

>>2288636
Well I am sending you a hug nonnie

No. 2288644

>>2288175
>>2288301
It needs a lot more details for $125. The skirt looks like it's too low on the mannequin and the bodice is definitely too high, it makes the torso look weird. The placket and hem look uneven. The bow looks all lost and lonely floating on the waistband like that. The little blue bows on the hem are too small, and there aren't enough ruffles, it looks sad.
My suggestions: Fix all the uneven parts, lower the neckline of the bodice by a lot, add a ton more ruffles to the hem, get rid of the satin bows, add waist ties, add more ruffles and lace to the placket, and add lace and ruffles to the neckline of the bodice and the straps. I can't tell if there are buttons on the placket, but if there aren't, add some nice pearl ones.
I'm sure it looks nice when worn as part of a full coord but when it's displayed alone like this it looks awkward and sad. Lolita is all about the details, stick to a cohesive color scheme and go all out with the trim. The pattern you drafted is mostly fine, the bodice is the only really awkward part.
Personally I'm not a fan of the print, but you said you suck at photography, so it could be that the colors in the pic are totally off and the print looks very different in person. If you're not very good at displaying things that could be why the dress looks a bit crooked too, if you work on those skills I'm sure you'll be able to market your stuff better! Clothing is a very different beast to bags and stuffed animals. Please don't feel down, you did a great job for your first time making a whole dress.

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>>2288636
Don't worry about it.

No. 2288648

>>2288636
Me too. I'm trying not to be sensitive but I also feel like typing a frowny face so I'm commisserating with you.

No. 2288649

>>2288638
>>2288645
Thank you both ♥
>>2288648
Idk what it is about colon parenthesis that makes it kind of relieving to type.

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>>2288648
>>2288649
here nonnies

No. 2288653

>>2288636
I think some anons come on here and just decide to be aggro for no reason. I will post that I like daisies and somebody will go, "sounds like something a bpd snaggletooth with cookie monster pajamas in a walmart would say"

No. 2288659

>>2288636
Was it the Nona in the autism thread because that post saying “im not your nonners” hurt my feelings too and it wasn’t even aimed at me kek

No. 2288660

White euros becoming a minority in their own countries is upsetting

No. 2288661

There is a woman at my practice that is getting bullied by most of the people there. They're now making stickers out of her pictures and it's getting out of hand. What can I do? I don't want to directly involve myself because I would become a target too but this is cruel.

No. 2288664

>>2288661
Holy shit, that's awful! Herd mentality can get out of hand really quickly and once someone is othered, it's almost impossible to to be accepted again. Do you have an HR department you can talk to?

Other than that, the only thing you can do that I can see is to indeed get involved. Just saying "This is getting out of hand" or "I'm not gonna participate in this" might be enough to snap some people out of it. But like you said, it may bring some heat onto you and I don't blame you for not wanting that.

No. 2288666

>>2288634
don't worry anon i forced myself to communicate right after making that post and the issue was resolved. i'm retarded but self-aware

No. 2288669

>>2288653
KEK this is so accurate

No. 2288673

im so sick of applying to jobs and constantly getting rejected. i came home and finished my study almost half a year ago and i've had so many interviews but no success with anything at all. im so tired

No. 2288678

>>2288664
I'm gonna message her from a burner phone with evidence of the bullying and talk to our practice supervisor tomorrow. This shit is heinous and she has done nothing to deserve this. Being fat and wearing heavy makeup everyday does not justify their actions.

No. 2288681

I don't believe or stand for anything anymore, I don't care what happens to me or the world. Everything is evil. I want out.

No. 2288684

Imagine feeling mogged by a socially anxious retard. Hi it's me the socially anxious retard with good cheekbones. Personally I'd love to have such miniscule problems that i imagine the autist living alone (me) too scared to go grocery shopping today is riding all around her and definitely doesn't skip meals because she was too nervous to go shopping but not too nervous to hop on any dick going. Heeeey! Seriously. Use your fucking brains

No. 2288696

I think I've been on my antidepressants since late August or early Septemeber and at first it was annoying to adjust then they felt good, but now I'm starting to get that brain fog I had when I was on a different anti depressant a few years ago. I'm a britbong and maybe going to get a medicinal cannabis appointment because I can remember so many things from when I first started smoking and it never masked memories, happy or sad but I couldn't even fucking give you an accurate run down of my day at times. Like I literally have a hazy memory and I'm not smoking haze. I've got generalised anxiety and clinical depression so I reckon I'll be a good candidate. What's the point in my mood being stabilised if I can't recall things from earlier in the day it's mental

No. 2288698

My friend jumpscared me with a picture of her ex boyfriend's dick. I am not overly prudish but I did not care for that whatsoever. Lord please grant me patience.

No. 2288706

3 days ago my pet was scrawny and now he's chubby. I feel like a terrible fucking owner.

No. 2288707

Accidentally knit one sock in 2.25mm and the other in 2.75mm. I could keel over and die right now, I got past the heel on the second one before noticing. I am so retarded. I think I'll finish it and complete whichever set looks best. Jesus christ I am so fucking stupid.

No. 2288781

Ugh. The last 2 years. Shit. Terrible. Don't want to discuss it. Not even because of romance or dating but a death. Unemployment. Stagnation. Depression. Anxiety. Court. Bullshit. Ill health. Money issues. Debt. A load of bollocks and just prior to it I met someone and we began dating. However there's a bit of an age gap and difference in activity levels. I think he started to resent me not working too which is fair, but on an interpersonal level he was very closed up and not affectionate and a bit insecure at times like I didn't realise he had a hair transplant and one day he shaved it all off. He accused me of cheating when I was grieving. He never was abusive or violent or anything but he was very cold and like this quiet anger I was nervous of invoking. Anyway it's been slowly fizzling out and I've been sleepless the past few nights thinking about the future and he doesn't fit. So since we haven't saw each other in over a week and texts are slowing down i asked when should we see each other and he suggested this weekend and then had a go at me for having plans tomorrow even though if I never mentioned plans he wouldn't have even cared to ask what I'm up too. So I asked what his problem was and he said it feels like a chore. So I broke up with him. Honestly. I probably needed to do this a few weeks ago but his grandmother was in hospital and passed away. I only meet most of his family at the funeral after 2 years of dating cause he never made a point to introduce me which I always thought was sus and now we're breaking up after his mum hugging me for the first time a few weeks ago. Like I'll realistically never see these people again but it's just weird. I can't even remember the first time we did it

No. 2288784

i was cleaning up my photos and stumbled upon screenshots of conversations with one of my rapist. it upset me so, so bad. i didn’t delete them. i don’t know if his number is still the same and if it is i’m wondering what can i do with it. i’m also wondering if i should tell the story of my group rape on here or anywhere online. there’s a very real possibility this group of evil fucking men still exists and they go around abusing women thinking they’ll never face any consequences. i’m so sick just thinking about it. maybe i can warn someone by sharing everything i know about them online.

No. 2288785

Was too chatty in my teams chat today and now the guy who I don't want to talk to personally messaged
me about something I posted publicly for all of the coworkers to respond to. I already subtlety rejected you, and you don't even know what I look like! Leave me the hail alone!

No. 2288787

>>2288784
expose them.

No. 2288789

>>2288784
There are apps you can expose cheaters and men who sexually assault women locally

No. 2288815

Group therapy is the only therapy that can do anything for me, but i'm not paying and wasting my time to be criticized and misunderstood. I just go home or go to work if i want that.
I'm not paying to have a therapist cleary disturbed with the shit i'm saying (and bitch, i didnt even start). How can you be a therapist if you cant deal with sick people? I hate those bitches that become therapist just to solve normal problems of normal people.
And im definitely not paying and wasting my time to get criticised by a dumb cunt with ~panic attacks~ and have none of the fucking mediators intervene or support me. Only the autistic guy understood my pov, fucking useless therapists.

No. 2288992

i hate my coworker and he pisses me off. sometimes he doesnt even do things that are that bad but i just dislike him and like every little thing makes me annoyed. my boss had him train me when i got hired and that turned into me doing his entire job in the name of "training." it felt degrading. dude gets paid way more than me so day by day it felt more and more exploitative. and then when i said i didnt wanna do that anymore he basically kicked me out of his office. and he doesnt see any consequences to his actions because hes been working their for so long and our boss likes him. the worst is that hes really friendly and nice and everyone likes him so i feel like i cant really say anything about it to anyone. i really dont get paid enough to be some loser bald guy's assistant on top of doing my regular job duties. he didnt even train me well he kinda just had me sit there doing nothing. and the funny part is that he still gets comfortable dumping his work onto me because he thinks im gonna be his replacement, but im planning on quitting because i cant stand him or my boss. he can stay there for another 10 years without me to help because im sick of being treated like that. but i blame my boss too because he couldnt care less what happens in his department.

No. 2289019

I think my teeth will always be my biggest insecurity. It doesn't matter how pretty I get, or how much my skin improves, or how much I lose weight, or how much I brush my teeth. I will always have yellow teeth from years of bad dental hygiene. People think I'm nasty. Someone could be in love with me but think I'm disgusting because of my teeth.

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sometimes i get nostalgic and feel inklings of wanting to get back into anime but i can’t, after the first cringe waifu booby joke or a panty shot i just pause the video, quit the browser, go do something else and never come back to it again. i literally never get past episode 1 this way. no luck with even supposedly family friendly animes. what the fuck is wrong with that shitty ass country

No. 2289026

Why the fuck can't tumblr get their bot problem under control? It's been years. There was a bot in my husbando's tag that stole the post of someone I follow and disguised their spam link as a "read more" link and I clicked it. It was a retard mistake on my part, but it's like tumblr does nothing about the spam and bot accounts.

No. 2289031

I hate how some cowish anons are distinct enough to notice but not enough to accurately label them as a personalityfag yet, and it's hard to properly describe the reason while reporting them. They derail fandom related threads with bullshit low effort posts that serve to do nothing but ruin productive convos and have no fandom etiquette. They are also good at playing the victim - either acting like the most moral person ever(tm) and calling others perverts and pedophiles over nothing, or the other extreme, casually tossing out overtly sexual/violent/gross words where they're irrelevant and calling others "pearl clutching prudes repressing women's sexuality!!" for not liking that. Their posts tend to be mostly infight bs, but it's just barely enough on-topic that I've found reporting them for derailing makes mods do nothing. Engaging with them sometimes gets normal anons scolded for responding to bait instead, so the clowns just end up having free reign while everyone else shuts up and the convo dies. It's fucking irritating.

No. 2289037

Why can I only meet handmaidens or anti-sjws who turn out to be actual racists in this hobby space? Where are the normal women at? Goddamn.

No. 2289038

>>2289019
Whitening strips. My parents would have me leave them on long past the actual amount of time suggested on the box. Idk if this is bad or whatever, but it definitely made my teeth super white. People at school would comment on it.

No. 2289062

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So I went to Ulta beauty today and I just wanted to ask; How come every time I go into ANY makeup store I am treated like a disgusting ogre or something? I get it to a degree, I'm never really "made up" because I don't wear make up because it feels weird and I'm not fashionable because I can't afford to be. I'm sorry I'm not wearing the latest trends from temu, straight off of tiktok shop. I didn't know that made me some kind of freak. I never have these problems in ANY OTHER STORE holy shit it's always makeup stores which makes me feel so shitty because a majority of the employees are women and I'm a woman and I really, really want to have girlfriends because all of my friends keep being dudes AND I'M SICK OF IT. I hate it I feel like if I was born prettier and less retarded this wouldn't be as much of a problem. I want to fix it. I wasn't even buying makeup I was buying a skincare starter box for my mom's christmas gift. I was trying to be nice, when the employee looked me up and down and gave me a weird sheepish smile I smiled back and even poked a bit of fun at myself I said "Yeah, I'm probably not the kind of person you're used to seeing here." and she just laughed and nodded. I thought I was doing a good job getting around my social anxiety. I asked her how much the box I picked up is because there was no price on it. She said it was 35 bucks which was out of my budget. I blew most of my gift budget on getting my mom these really expensive shoes (the skincare stuff is just supposed to be a stocking stuffer) So I asked if there was anything under 19 dollars because that's all of the christmas budget that was left. These women give each other a look then looked back at me like they were in utter disbelief. I got really anxious but I stood my ground and said "It's okay if you don't have anything in my price range, sorry if it's a big ask" and she just stopped and said "No, it's okay, this is why I've got the app." She looks down at her phone and just starts kinda talking passively. She says something like "Yeah this is tough because you know skincare is usually…well" and I chimed in with "Expensive" Im joking, of course. Im wearing my BEST "Im joking" face. She says "No not expensive if you're..Well" she looks at the employee standing next to her and that employee made a really weird face at me? She pursed her lips looking at me, then away towards the wall (side eyeing the wall), then the other employee kinda made a sneer. I get it, Im not the most well dressed. I get my clothes from Ross and these women can tell. They can make fun of me all they want I just wish they waited until I left. The main employee lady found a product in my price range really quickly and I thanked her a lot. Then she was like "No problem I didn't know we had a bargain bin. so it all worked out." I didn't mind it at the time but I do mind it now because my sister's reaction when I repeated that to her was to get really mad. I quickly went up to the counter to buy the box and the girl at the counter asked me if I wanted to put in my phone number for discounts and stuff but I don't come there often so I said "No thank you" and pressed the skip. It came up again so I skipped it…Then it came up again and she said "You can just put in the number of someone you know, it doesn't have to even be your number" I said "No thanks, I don't really buy makeup very often but thank you for offering." Then she got pissed and covered the screen with her hand, saying "We need your number to process the transaction, you cant buy it unless you enter your number" And I was just kind of suprised but I complied and apologized because I didn't realize it was required. But looking back she never even told me it was required or anything she just kept making it seem like an optional thing for returning customers. I wasn't even out of the door yet when I heard her coworker loudly ask "Why do you always get the most annoying customers." I got out of the store and just sat in the car for a minute. Am I even a woman, why do other women seem to be so pissed off at me all of the time. It's been this way since elementary school. I don't feel like I'm particularly offensive, I'm well groomed so I don't smell. I can only imagine it's because I'm kind of or maybe even really frumpy or homely. But I missed out on learning how to be a pretty girl that people wanna be around because I always had stupid fucking interests like Yugioh and Sonic. I should've gotten it together when the other girls in my class started watching pretty little liars but NO i wanted to watch Fairy Tail and be NLOG so never got over my sensory issues with makeup one of the main things I have to do. I can't shake the feeling I should give up and go back to being a shut in. I never felt this bad when I just didn't go outside.

No. 2289070

>>2289062
She was trying to subtly hint to you that she would give you the discount regardless of whether or not you gave her a real phone number or not. That's why she "forced" you to do it, so that she could give you the discount. Did you check your receipt to make sure it was applied?

No. 2289074

>>2289070
Oh, no it was exactly as much as it was labeled to be on the box plus tax. A different lady rung me up from the ones who helped me on the floor. I know she probably was just tired, maybe her manager makes her get numbers. the comment afterwards just made me feel shitty.

No. 2289076

>>2289074
Leave a shitty google review then. Next time you go into stores, be aware of the names of the people helping you so that you can complain about them online afterwards.

No. 2289079

>>2289062
Leaving your phone number is not a requirement…?

No. 2289084

>>2289079
Thats what I thought but she was really really pushy. I just typed it out quick and got the hell out of there.

No. 2289087

>>2289076
I wish I'd gotten names but I was just feeling terrible about the whole thing. Maybe I should leave one star but idk if that really does anything.

No. 2289093

>>2289037
Most "normal women" ARE handmaidens, unfortunately.

No. 2289095

>>2288787
i will, nonnie, thank you
>>2288789
dunno if that’s a thing in my country, but i’ll check it out! i’m from a post-soviet country

No. 2289103

>>2289062
okay so where you went wrong in this interaction was deciding to make a self deprecating awkward comment “i’m not normally the type of person you see in here.” like what does that even mean. they get men coming in to hit on them or to buy gifts who act awkward as fuck all the time, they don’t care. but it makes people uncomfortable to be forced to try and compliment a person making a self deprecating remark. it must be exhausting to get paid like shit to do more than a lot of retail jobs like color matching and makeup tutorials. next time just pull up the app yourself and don’t make weird comments. the phone number thing can sometimes be you literally can’t move to the next screen on their POS system without inputing every field.

No. 2289110

>>2289076
Jeez anon idk Im not great at reading people, i wasnt fishing for a compliment I used to make comments a lot in highschool because it usually made people more comfortable to talk to me more casually and usually worked out. maybe its a form of masking or self defense idk? Im really not good at reading social cues so maybe i missed something.

No. 2289112

>>2288492
I know those are basically first world problems and the solution is to log off. It's just that there is so much bullshit happening in my life, and I'm trying to escape, at least for a little bit, with common things like interesting pieces of media and games, and even then everything sucks because people are retarded. I don't have mental strength to improve my overall situation, wanted to do something to recharge at the very least, but it seems even escapism is not possible anymore ree

No. 2289117

>>2289103
I read anon's post you responded to and I disagree with your take on what happened. She was a socially awkward girl who clearly indicated she was a poorfag trying to Christmas shop, and established a budget. She said she was polite and by saying she doesn't usually go to the store or buy makeup, she signalled she would need more help than the average customer.
These women are getting paid to help and anon wasn't even being a bitch or difficult. Sorry she's an autist, but she is nowhere near the level of moids who come in to harass women who are on the clock. They didn't have to be rude to her and covering the screen with her hand to talk down to anon was insane. If you feel their comments were justified, I think you're part of the problem.
>>2289062
Stop going to beauty stores if you aren't participating in beauty stuff. As you can see, people can be really strange about women who don't participate in the culture. And I understand you are despairing at the general interaction, but your response being "I just need to go back to being a shut in!" to this bad experience can come off as begging for attention/asspats. I recommend looking for female companionship related hobbies you actually enjoy, like the shows you mentioned watching.
I also want to let you know I can see from your posts that you're a newfag who hasn't integrated because of your typing style. Stuff like integrating or mirroring other people when you enter their environments will help them feel more like you're participating with them, instead of demanding they do a lot of work to handhold or coddle you.

No. 2289125

>>2289112
Kek I'm sorry your day sucked, ree away, you're in the vent thread. You should follow anon up on looking into getting your depression treated. Saying you don't have the "mental strength" to help yourself is a really self-defeating attitude, and I think if you change your thoughts to "I am trying to have the mental strength to help myself" your outlook will improve.
Try making different friends who aren't dependent on fandom stuff, or get into something new that you can be by yourself with. Learning how to sit with yourself and not need to interact with other people about things can be hard because being lonely is painful, but it's a good skill to have.
I don't know if this suggestion is helpful, but maybe you can try watching some movies you haven't seen before. You can take this a step further by writing something down in the style of a blog post to externalize your thoughts. Maybe you can even start a casual blog this way, just something for yourself. Try to pick something that you will have a lot of thoughts, like a movie from a genre that interests you or that you've heard a lot about. You definitely need a hobby like knitting or hiking so you can have somewhere else to put that restless or frustrated energy.
I hope you feel better soon!

No. 2289126

>>2289117
I'll take your advice anon

No. 2289130

>>2289117
Ntayrt and maybe I'm retarded but nothing about her typing style really stands out

No. 2289138

>>2289126
You are going to be okay, anon. Just keep trying and learn from any mistakes you make. Each failure is a stepping stone to your success. At some point you will find friends that work out and like you, and it will be a combination of finding people who are a good fit and your own personal growth. Just remember it takes two to make a friendship, and you can't give in to despair!
>>2289130
In her initial post she was not as obvious, but in her responses to people's replies you can see more of a typing style. One of the most notable indicators is how she left all her apostrophes out of contracted words.

No. 2289156

>>2289062
She forced you to give your phone number because stores get money everytime they sign someone new up for their rewards programs. Those sales girls probably get an incentive to sign people up.

No. 2289161

anybody else who had disordered eating see a pic of themselves at their lowest weight and feel ill? i dont even think i was actually underweight but i was miserable and suicidal and eating only one shitty microwave meal every day. seeing that pic kinda hurt. im just glad im healthier now

No. 2289162

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No. 2289219

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>Apply at a gas station
>"We don't think you're the right candidate"
I didn't want it that bad but I feel so defeated kek

No. 2289225

I know I'm going to get too attached to this moid I'm seeing even though we have no future

No. 2289237

I am fucking useless. I am completly talentless.

No. 2289281

I feel very passionately about physical, mental, and otherwise extremely debilitating disabilities. I fucking HATE the munchie crowd who cries "ableism" as soon as someone makes fun of narcissists or DID malingering bippies. Disability rights are some of the most overlooked social movements, like we can't even let cripples get married because the government benefits would actually be BENEFICIAL to them. Fuck that. And fuck every munchie appropriating the oppression physically & mentally disabled people face fucking daily. What a joke.

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Left my bubble tea on the table to take a quick shower and when I got back, the ants already got to it. Fuck my stupid baka life. At least I finished most of it I guess.

No. 2289297

This is the second time my friend has sent me into a serious ptsd spiral and I can't socially smooth over and pretend it's nbd anymore. Really don't want to talk with her about it but if I end up flashing back this bad again I'm actually going to drive myself over the damn overpass. Genuinely might stop being friends with straight women for awhile, wasn't expecting this kind of minefield when we started hanging out.
>>2289281
Revoking benefits if a disabled person gets married is the dumbest and most sociopathic thing imaginable. Sure, let's take a person who already has less capital than their peers and ensure that they'll end up financially dependent on their spouse. You know, because spouses never ever abuse their low-earning partners or use their financial situation to trap them. Never fucking happens.

No. 2289309

I don't really want to meet my bfs family this weekend. I don't even like my own family. I wish we were both orphans

No. 2289331

>>2289062
you are really projecting your low self esteem on these random store clerks and minor interactions. you went in assuming you are nlog and they are going to judge you and the rest of it played out based on you setting that as a fact in your mind. i think you are focusing way too much on what other people might think of you ("I'm frumpy and homely and don't wear the right clothes") but you don't actually know, you can't read minds. it's like you're judging yourself preemptively because you think others will anyway, so you're going to see every interaction as them judging you, even when they're just trying to do a job (the phone number thing).

No. 2289350

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I think i have made a grave error nonnies. As soon as I hit the one year anniversary mark with my girlfriend, she suddenly starts exhibiting cluster B insanity
I just had to calm her down from a 3 hour long bpd tier meltdown because one of her acquaintances mentioned in passing that they thought i was pretty, which of course means I am far too beautiful for her and I am going to leave her.

>"Your ex was ugly, so you must only like ugly girls. You're only dating me because you like ugly girls"


i wasn't going to leave her but she is acting so batshit insane. I actually thought things might work out
My ex trooned out and my current girlfriend is a cluster B nightmare. I'm so tired nonnies

No. 2289357

Every time this fat fuck waddles in the room it fills me with so much rage. I wish I could quit my job but I can't afford to. I just have to wait for him to be fired, I pray to God it's coming soon because I don't know how much more of this I can handle.

No. 2289361

>>2289350
>calling her "current" and pathologizing her insecurities
Clingy insecure with an avoidant, classic

No. 2289372

Nonnies im so mentally ill and broke im considering doing something retarded like starting a bar fight or overdosing so i can get some free help whats the best course of action here i dont feel like dying

No. 2289378

>>2289281
No it's real, the only places where i'm made to feel like shit are stores like Ulta/Sephora. I'm from a part of the world that's known to be unwelcoming and beauty shop clerks are still more hostile than usual if you look marginally different from them. To be fair they aren't always like this, perfume vendors are super chill but i know what AYRT experienced. It's different from pissed off tired workers who just want their day to be over, it's deliberate, they make it clear you're a rat staining their pretty place. You're right that AYRT takes it too personally and needs to work on her anxiety, but they are definitely less shitty to you if you look like them and do the fake giddy high-pitched saleswoman voice.
>>2289062
>I can't shake the feeling I should give up and go back to being a shut in. I never felt this bad when I just didn't go outside.
These women are shitty to everyone and to themselves, people joke about fashion/beauty shop clerks being nasty all the time. You can take solace in knowing they probably hate each other and make their work life miserable. The more you'll experience these annoying incidents, the better you'll get at handling the loathing that comes with it. The only way out of anxiety is through. Even hyper-feminine women have to LARP to not get shit from these workers kek (my feminine relatives ramp up their mannerisms as soon as they step in), you're not defective for not performing during this specific moment
>>2289350
>she suddenly starts exhibiting cluster B insanity
Really? Think harder, it's likely she displayed those traits before but you didn't notice because you wanted it to work. Whether it's legitimately BPD or regular relationship insecurity, you need to be firm and make it clear you're not falling for her guilt tripping. Women like that think any attempt at distancing or boundaries is evil and makes you emotional Hitler but you need to stand your ground. Honestly if i were you i'd leave, it's up to you to try and see if she's receptive to change/therapy

No. 2289380

This clipchamp software fucking sucks. All I wanted was to quickly split a video into multiple parts, but that's not really possible. What you have to do is split it, delete all other parts, and save only the one that's left. So if you want to split a 10 min video into 5 parts, for part 3 you'll have to make a cut from 4 to 6 mins, delete everything else, and save that part, then for the next part you'll need to reopen the original file, cut 6-8 mins, rinse and repeat. And for saving, there doesn't seem to be an option to save to your computer even when using the desktop app? You have to save to Onedrive, google drive, dropbox, or some other similar service.

I've never done any video editing, is this how it's supposed to work? Why can't I make multiple splits in the same video and export each split as a separate file? And why can't it just open the explorer and let me save the file locally? I hate techonology.

No. 2289385

>>2289350
Of course I could be wrong but I have friend who is fairly normal, only to then go batshit crazy during PMS times maybe 33% of the time. It's like she turns into a different person: clingy, insecure as fuck, depressed, suicidal, gets obsessed with some gross moid, violent thoughts (I haven't seen her act on them at all, but she'll express hate for people with overtly violent descriptions). It's hard to deal with even just as a friend. But- she does get back to normal, and every time she kinda goes "oops my period started, guess it was just PMS again". One you spot the pattern it's easier to deal with. What I'm saying is it IS possible you caught your girlfriend at a bad time.

Wait a few days then ask her "what was that outburst the other day, we need to talk about it" ask her if was PMS related (obviously not in a dismissive way) or if she's stressed over something you hadn't realized. Like maybe her friend when you weren't around to hear it told your gf something like they'd totally bang you if you weren't taken already and she spiraled from that due to some earlier partner cheating on her. You never know. You may end up choosing to end it, but you could at least ask her to see if she's willing to talk it out and work on it.

No. 2289397

>>2289062
>How come every time I go into ANY makeup store I am treated like a disgusting ogre or something?
>I'm never really "made up" because I don't wear make up
That's why. Even girls who love and live for makeup will tell you the treatment is extremely different from staff when they go in with a bare face. The staff thinks if you're not even wearing makeup on a normal day then you're not going to be a good customer, and you're clearly not a regular customer (who needs to refill basics regularly), you're not gonna buy much and if you do it will be some cheap low tier brand. It's like showing up to a fancy dinner party wearing a t-shirt and jeans, they can see that you don't care about the event or service provided.

Of course they're often wrong, but that's the general attitude you get from them. They're often run by young girls/women who aren't very mature who didn't know what else to do with life, so they turned to their hobby of makeup. It's not your fault, it's always them.

No. 2289399

>>2289361
current is literally the correct word, she is my girlfriend right now and i was using it in the context of speaking about my ex
And i have no problem with comforting insecurities, but somehow its always me taking the verbal battering and doing all the comforting in the relationship

>>2289378
You aren't wrong, i have a bad habit of overlooking or excusing weird behavior and now that i think of it, this is not the first time at all. She's very sweet, but the most random thing can set her off and when it does, she's just so mean and aggressive. I feel like I've explained that i refuse to fight and scream, and i just want to have conversations but its like she just never gets it

>>2289385
That's true nonna, I'm a PMS demon myself though not as bad as your friend lol
I really try to give her the benefit of the doubt in random times like this but like the other nonnie said, this isn't the first time so at this point i dont know if im just being a delusional retard being walked all over while i make excuses for her actions

No. 2289402

>>2289397
I don’t think I have ever gone into a makeup/beauty store with makeup on and have never been treated poorly because of it. I’m helped just as much as other customers, if anything I feel like employees are a bit too eager to answer questions or try and help me? I’m not disputing what you or the other nona said because that makes total sense, I just wonder if it may be a regional thing or they might think I am trying to shoplift kek

No. 2289403

Hate it when I get in an argument on lc but drop it because it's not worth it, only to come back and there's 50 new posts still fighting about the thing back and forth

No. 2289406

>>2289402
Just look up "bad (insert makeup store name) experience" on youtube and you'll find a ton of examples

No. 2289407

>>2289372
Go on anti-depressants or try weed. Do not get into a freaking bar fight or commit any other criminal acts, you dweeb.

No. 2289412

>>2289380
I use losslesscut, it lets me do everything you just mentioned.

No. 2289414

>>2289406
Like I said, I don’t doubt it happens. I just wonder if it is partly a regional thing or if I’m just really fucking dense since I haven’t experienced this.

No. 2289415

>>2289372
Make a list of what you CAN do to change your life.
Can you get a job or change the one you have? If not, can you volunteer somewhere a few days a week for free just to get out of the house? Can you find local support groups for people who struggle?
Can you take yourself on a walk and touch grass every day? Can you talk to a friend regularly? Can you feed yourself healthy foods? Can you shower to feel clean? Can you set a small healthy goal and do it every day?
What's the easiest out of all of those - take a shower? Well do that then. Get a healthy meal? Do that then.
And see if the points are connected, if you feel you can't do anything because you're broke then getting a small but stable income is your first priority. Perhaps you're not as mentally ill as you think, but the stress of being broke makes you feel a lot worse. You do not need to wait around for someone to save you, ultimately you will save yourself.
Pretend you're another person than yourself, how would you help that person? What actions do you think would be best for them?
Oh and while social media can indeed be shit and full of lies, go to youtube and look up coping mechanisms for whatever mental illness and anxiety you're dealing with. They're going to be the same as what a therapist tells you, that way you can get a head start and work on yourself for free.

No. 2289420

>>2289414
I don't think "I've personally never had it happen to me" means it doesn't happen in your area nona. I'm sure there are a few equally shitty makeup store employees where you live too. It's also not EVERY makeup store, some chains are known to have lower quality customer service

No. 2289427

>>2289399
(deleted because typo + forgot to sage) Ok, let's assume she's indeed BPD, the reason why she can't calmly discuss the matter and opts for screaming is because she can't emotionally regulate and finds it convenient to not even try. Maybe she was better at it when you first started dating, when she wanted to impress and seduce you, but now she's taking you for granted. Screaming and crying makes you reassure her, which temporarily helps with whatever deep and painful fear is causing her to chimpout in the first place, it's not a bug it's a feature. It's a vicious cycle, her sweetness will never make it okay, the only thing that will help is if she tries to get better for her own sake. But knowing cluster B fags, it's unlikely and you're better off leaving. Sorry nona

No. 2289434

why can't someone create a female imageboard where the only rule is you can't be a male posting or make yourself known as a male? everything else should be open season, obviously other than posting illegal content which can shut down the site. hurt feelings should not be taken into account. "baiting" should not be taken into account. "infighting" should not be taken into account. you should know how to X out of a thread if it bothers you and you are unwilling to shitpost without getting seriously distraught. i don't understand why this is unable to exist in 2024 when males have an endless amount of these types of open-discourse forums and imageboards, even the largest one in existence has been like this for almost two decades now, where the only rules are you can't create off-topic threads inside topic-specific boards. i saw a post on junkchan suggesting a new female imageboard be created and right off the bat it included retarded rules to cater to a certain type of woman: "NO talking about males whatsoever in any thread – unless you're talking about 2D men of course!"
people love yammering on about imageboard culture, except imageboard culture can't be forced, it has to come naturally by allowing the posters to create it themselves.

No. 2289443

>>2289434
>it included retarded rules to cater to a certain type of woman: "NO talking about males whatsoever in any thread – unless you're talking about 2D men of course!"
Wtf based, sign me up

No. 2289444

>>2289434
there were always a set of rules that have to be followed on lc and other imageboards. Even 4chan has rules on behaviour.
The imageboards that you crave for that are no-rules after time become ghost towns because no one wants to visit them anymore because the lack of rules turn them into shitholes. You're probably one of those edgy baiters too who contribute nothing and are moaning over a ban.

No. 2289445

>>2289443
just go to any husbando thread?

No. 2289453

>>2289444
>The imageboards that you crave for that are no-rules after time become ghost towns because no one wants to visit them anymore because the lack of rules turn them into shitholes.
is that why 4chan is as big as it is? because it's a ghost town? imagine needing an anonymous imageboard to adhere to safe space rules. you're also a liar to claim that 4chan polices behavior.

No. 2289456

>>2289453
As shit as 4chan's mods are, they still mod. I've been banned for telling trannies to cut their dicks off on there before.

No. 2289460

>>2289456
i haven't, and i've done that more times than i can count. the mods there are fine, they ban people for actually breaking the rules, like off-topic thread creation and spamming, not calling someone a nigger or a tranny.

No. 2289462

>>2289460
Well he must have been off his meds that day because he did ban me.

No. 2289463

>>2289453
4chan has plenty of rules that you get banned for though, poor example

No. 2289465

>>2289462
maybe
>>2289463
you can try to get yourself banned as much as you can and 99 times out of 100 you will only get banned if you spam or create off-topic threads on boards dedicated to specific topics. hell you can make a vaguely related thread and chances are it will hit bump limit.

No. 2289466

My bf and I skipped buying any gifts for each other this year and booked a vacation instead, it'll be our first time taking a real vacation with just us. I told my friend about it because I was excited and the first thing she did was start looking up flight prices for the same trip. She invited herself and wants to bring her kid along too. I don't know how to tell her she's not invited and it's supposed to be a special trip for us. I already slightly lied about the details and told her we booked an adults only hotel but that didn't stop her at all. I feel bad because I shouldn't have told her, I knew she would try to do something like this. I would still love to take a vacation with her and her kid someday but this is not it. The thing that gets me is that she's so fucking in debt, she's taken out multiple loans to pay rent this month and she STILL wants to go. I want to scream at her like not only is this supposed to be a special trip for me and my bf but you CAN'T FUCKING AFFORD IT! Stop being so impulsive with your money! You have a child to take care of and you're already on the brink of eviction for not paying rent. What the fuck are you thinking even considering taking a vacation right now?!

No. 2289470

Reading about a person in the 1700s, wild how his mom birthed 21 babies - TWENTY ONE - out of which only 8 survived into adulthood (though it's questioned if some were actually miscarriages). I'm sitting here wondering if this is like how humans are "supposed" to live. Are we "supposed" (like from how nature evolved us) to have half of our babies die and to be pregnant and caring for babies non-stop for like 20 years??? I'm terrified of giving birth to even one single baby, doing it 21 times is so unthinkable to me.
And for married people who didn't pump out babies and only had like 2 in total, did they just not really have sex (because jesus is always watching or something)? Or problems conceiving? I've heard a surprisingly high number of women have problems conceiving today, but maybe that's actually a survival tactic because 21 births is 21 times your life is at risk, so the ability to have sex without pregnancy and giving birth at the risk of your own life sounds like a win in past times… I'm rambling lol

No. 2289474

>>2289466
Nona you have to tell her you won't be doing anything on the trip with her. She can waste her money and go if she wants, but you're still busy taking a couples trip with your boyfriend and she can't come along to third-wheel any activity or dinner you two are going to.
>I would still love to take a vacation with her and her kid someday but this is not it.
I don't see why, she's a shit friend who gives zero shits about your feelings and privacy.

No. 2289477

>>2289444
Kek I've seen her complain about this before in the past week. Idk if she's a newfag or just loves fighting but I wouldn't be surprised if this is a new form of bait.

No. 2289480

I wish I hadn’t let my guilt stop me from continuing to create art. I got a “memories” notification of a picture that I took over 10 years ago of these little cute charms I made out of polymer clay and I remember that day well. I had moved back home to live my parents after college while I was working part-time and getting my feet on the ground, and after a long bout of feeling sad and depressed, I felt inspired to make little jewelry charms and ornaments of cats, kittens, and cute little foods like cupcakes, ice creams, and cookies (this was during my “twee” era of the early 2010s, kek). I loved dreaming up new ideas and the cute designs made me happy. I took a picture of my latest batch and shared it wit my friends.

Later, my mother (a former artist that I strongly believe has bipolar disorder, who was also pissed off at my father for ruining our family finances), came home from work and saw me putting together some charms that I had just baked, and absolutely lost her shit. Screaming and wailing and crying at the top of her lungs that “it’s sOoOo nice” that I was able to “play around and follow my dreams and do whatever I want”, and she hopes we’re happy seeing her so miserable because nobody cares about HER dreams and she should just kill herself already!

I felt so incredibly guilty, I cried and put all of my charms away while she screamed at me and I never looked at them again. I never opened that Etsy shop that I wanted. I never made another clay sculpture again because I felt so guilty just looking at the little packs of clay, it just reminded me of what a miserable world my mom lives in and made me feel like I didn’t deserve to enjoy making cute things.

It pisses me off so badly in retrospect. She used to cry all of the time even when I was a kid and blame me and my dad that we “stressed her out so badly that she can’t make art anymore because she can only make it when she’s in a good mood”. As a teenager and college student I tried to encourage her to channel her angry/sad feelings to make art and she always had some excuse that she cAaAant, she can only do it when she’s happy!

Now I’m in my fucking late 30s and I feel so discouraged and I wish I hadn’t let my guilt over my mother stop me. I still have a hard time enjoying life because I feel guilty being happy while my mother back home is so miserable. I know I need to let it go because no matter what, she will probably just languish away and choose to be unhappy until the day she dies. But fuck, man. It’s hard.

No. 2289489

I sleep too much and it’s pissing me off. I feel like all I do is work, waste time online, or sleep. Work isn’t bad, it’s a minimum wage part time job but the customers and manager are pleasant. It’s not even particularly draining. But I still sleep for 9 to 10 hours a day, nearly everyday. I set an alarm on my phone to make me wake up at a reasonable hour but I just ignore it and go back to sleep. I feel guilty for sleeping so much. I want to get back into drawing and learning web design again, but every day I say “tomorrow” when I know that tomorrow should be today. It might be depression, I’ve been depressed before and I’m not the most mentally healthy person I know. Still, I feel like I have nothing to be depressed about. It’s not the severe depression where I’m so nauseous I can’t eat, or like I’m irritable or on edge. It’s just “eh”. Not really anything. It’s hard to describe but I really do need to stop sleeping so much. I’d drink more caffeine but I can’t do that because then my hands start shaking a lot and I get nervous, so I don’t really know what to do. It pisses me off that I waste almost half the day just sleeping.

No. 2289490

>>2289480
I also struggle with doing things I enjoy or want to do without feeling guilt or shame about it. It’s easier said than done, but when I start to feel those emotions I try to identify if they’re really mine or the result of what others have made me feel. And if they’re because others around me are miserable and took it out on me, just telling myself that these aren’t my emotions and aren’t my responsibility. Freeing yourself of the expectation to manage and fix them enables you to instead prioritize yourself and what you want to do.

No. 2289494

>>2289480
From the bottom of my heart, I think you need to learn how to resent your mother more. Reading about what she did that day makes me want to alog and I don't know shit about you kek.
You're older than me so you probably have already done all the introspection on how you need to prioritize yourself over her, etc. But I do hope you open that path back up for yourself. I don't want you to be at the end of your life, filled with regret over letting guilt you shouldn't even be feeling take over. You aren't even close to halfway through your life yet. And even if you were over the halfway mark, you would still have so much time to pursue your interests.
I wish I had your creative impetus, I really do. My parents actively discouraged me from creative expression because they had a vision of me as some high IQ ivy league graduate doctor, and then lost all interest in me when I turned out to be a retarded autist KEK.
I hope you overcome this emotional obstacle, nonna! And also that lightning strikes your mother or whatever.

No. 2289496

>>2289489
I know this is a vent, so sorry if this is unwarranted, but I don't think you should be alarmed because you sleep 10 hours. You know how they always say "oh you need 8 hours of sleep a night," well 8 hours is the average time people should be sleeping. A lot of people sleep for only 6 hours and a lot of people sleep for 10 hours. You could just be one of those people that needs more sleep than the average person. Still, if it bothers you, have you ever tried one of those devices that measures your movement in bed? Sometimes when we set alarms, we unknowingly set them for a time that we'll be in the deepest stage of sleep so it makes it harder to get up. Those movement sensing alarms can detect when you're in a light stage of sleep, so you're easier to awaken.

No. 2289504

>>2289489
Depression can manifest as apathy and anhedonia. Excessive sleep is a sign of depression. If you are seeing the signs of depression within yourself, don't just say "oh, but I don't really have it that bad, what is there to be depressed about" as though depression is some kind of badge god pins onto the most pathetic and unfortunate losers. That's a self-pitying moron move that will cost you so much in the long run, even if you don't realize it right now. You do NOT want to wake up years into this and realize you should have done something at the start.
>>2289496
I'm someone who regularly slept 9+ hours a night, starting in childhood. The other stuff anon was talking about, including being depressed previously, point to something other than needing more sleep than the average person. If she solves her mental/emotional problems and still sleeps 10 hours a day, that's more than fine. But she doesn't want to leave depression untreated because it will slowly make everything worse as time goes on.

No. 2289512

I was feeling bad and then i looked at my first ex and see his hairline is receding like crazy and that made me feel better

No. 2289521

>>2289477
yeah everyone you don't like is new and you're totally not everything wrong with this imageboard.

No. 2289539

>>2289407
Lol nonnies im on antidepressants and have a life and responsibilities it just fucking sucks anyway im violent and Crazy

No. 2289540

Spotify Wrapped was terrible this year, it doesn't even tell you what your top albums or genres are

No. 2289542

please let me scream into the void before i kill myself ty. Bf lost job back in May and since then it's just basically me doing all the bills. We have a car that's a gas guzzler but right now all we have for a 2nd income is his chance to do Uber. (possibly starting a new job soon so thank god for that). But bro every single month he waits until the very last minute to actually uber for the rent or the main bills. /literally/ every single month. I blew up on him in August about this because I told him it was too much to try to keep us a float by myself while also having a fucking zoo in our house that I did not want but was forced to take. Long story short, we have 5 dogs because they're all strays who showed up at our house and refused to leave. Literally. They would run under our house if we tried to scare them away. Wanna know why they didn't leave btw? He felt bad for them and FED them once . Why tf would they leave if they know we can feed them….. idk thought it was common knowledge to not feed a stray because they won't go away. He didn't want to send them to a shelter because the ones around us are kill shelters. And I'm sorry I know it's awful but FIVE dogs (the food alone is like 26$ feels like every week and a half that we have to buy it) is quite INSANE to deal with especially on basically a one person income. I hate them so much. I am so tired of them. I am a broken record when it comes to them because there's really nothing to do other than to either 1) find a shelter that won't kill them, but surprise surprise all those shelters are completely full because my city has a serious stray problem. or 2) find someone who wants dogs. We posted their pictures when we first found them and no one wants them. A year later they're still here and I'm still pissed about it. Sorry maybe I'm just a bitch but I woulda sent them to the shelter if it was just up to me but he's a bleeding heart and was looking at me like a monster when i suggested it but who the fuck wants FIVE dogs. I didn't want ONE but was talked into it just for two months later to have 4 added to the house overnight. I am just so tired….. he was supposed to start a job last week it was going to be weekly pay like 20 something an hour. He did a background check, onboarding, drug test etc even had a potential start date for the job. But then.. for no reason the job was taken away. LIKE THEY LITERALLY TOLD HIM WELL WE THOUGHT WE NEEDED MORE PEOPLE THAN WE DID SORRY. at this point you might as well just hire him! I didn't even know a job could do that, why take all of his information just to just delete it later. This year is so incredibly hard and I just need a break so desperately. Pleaseeeee lets this new job pan out, two seconds away from losing it. Thank you for coming to my ted talk.

No. 2289546

>>2289542
So why don't you just leave? I don't get it.

No. 2289549

>>2289542
Pets are one of those things that both people have to be “hell yes” about, or else it usually ends in disaster. Getting one dog when you already didn’t want a pet is bad enough but five is ridiculous. I think anyone with three or more is insane. I’m sure other nonnys will tell you to breakup so I won’t say it, but I would seriously reconsider my relationship when my boyfriend not only shows an inability to prioritize and manage his time, but also chooses his own happiness over mine so consistently.

No. 2289552

>>2289549
She's too retarded to dump him.(infight bait)

No. 2289557

>>2289542
Fuck this faggot, he is in no position to be this high and mighty about "kill shelters". No-kill shelters are the bane of people who actually care about working with animals.
I'm sorry everything has sucked for so long, nonna. I'm sure you've considered breaking it off, is there a reason you haven't? It sounds like he is taking advantage of you.

No. 2289560

>>2289552
I’ve been a retard before with relationships so I don’t want to be too dismissive of her or her situation. It’s hard to be objective about something when you’re actively living it. I hope she gets a break soon, whatever that ends up being.

No. 2289562

>>2289512
honest to god male pattern baldness is such a gift to women. my cocky ex had to start dating women who are missing teeth when his hair started disappearing in his early mid twenties after claiming he was going to start playing the field when he came home after being dishonorably discharged and was less limited in his dating pool. he made me feel so far below him and then he nose dived, like karma herself wiped my tears away kissed me on the face and said he really thought huh? and shot him dead right in front of me.

No. 2289563

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>>2289557
>is there a reason you haven't?
Picrel(infight bait)

No. 2289567

>>2289542
why would you want to kill his pets instead of just leaving. like honest to god you sound like you’re just as much of a problem lmao. it’s normal to have empathy for animals. idk what you want people to say. just leave.

No. 2289571

>>2289542
Can we please make a dedicated thread for nigelfags to vent about their idiocy in /g/ so we don't have to read their drivel here? I come into this thread to lift up anons who are actually having a hard time, not to hear nigelfags whine about sleeping in the bed that they made for themselves.

No. 2289574

>>2289567
>kill his pets
>his pets
>his
He took in FIVE dirty strays off the street and doesn't even take care of them. How are they "his" if he can't be fucked to pay for them. Idk what you want her to say.

No. 2289581

>>2289542
Usually when you have a parasite in your life, you get rid of it

No. 2289582

>>2289574
he wanted them, he took them in. she didn’t want them and wants to get rid of them. i think she’d agree they aren’t her pets. he will start taking care of them when she leaves and stops being his mommy wife. he’s doing the weaponized incompetence thing because he can. why work or pay for anything when she’s doing it. he’s taking advantage of her and she needs to leave. the animals don’t deserve to be put down because she doesn’t want them. she can leave and leave them out of it because this relationship is fucked and going to end with or without her killing animals for no reason. she can stay in her containment board if she wants to talk like a psychopath about animals.

No. 2289591

omg. apologizes upfront for run-on sentences. so my boyfriend and i were discussing spotify wrapped and i sent him a screenshot from JULY (we've been together for one month, best friends for like a year) of a message from a band member of my #1 band (it was flirty in nature, but NOT dirty) and he absolutely sperged out on me. he sent me paragraphs of how i was disrespecting him and how it made him feel like shit cos he's not big and famous like the band member, and that if i get mad at him, "will you deny them [sex]?"
like, i shouldnt've sent it. fine. but the paragraphs making insane assumptions about me was just…
i just wanted to show him like "babe this famous person thinks i'm hot but i'm yours hehe", and also we were friends for so long that if i sent it to him then, he wouldn't have given a fuck. now he won't talk to me and i just don't know what to say to him once he does. obviously, i am sorry. i wish i hadn't sent it. but to assume the worst of me and send insane parent-like paragraphs over a stupid screenshot was just supremely overboard.

No. 2289594

Forcing happiness is fucking miserable but I'm doing it so I don't drive people away and I've been negative enough. It's nice to see them enjoy this 'vibe', gives me little energy, but overall I'm exhausted and I hate this. I'm not having a great time and it's all my fault

No. 2289606

>>2289560
agreed! this shit sucks. i hope she gets some relief soon. (release the hounds into a field)

No. 2289612

Anon who just deleted your own post, sorry for the therapy speak but you need to decentre men.
Do you know any lesbians or women with strong personal lives focused on their own hobbies and friendships? Spend time with them.

No. 2289616

>>2289606
Yeah, absolute bare minimum she needs to offload the cost of the dogs onto the scrote. If he wanted them then he can take care of them. If he isn’t willing to do that then time to call up all shelters and rescues about a drop off.

No. 2289617

>>2289591
Can you tell us who the celeb is and what they said. Not trying to defend your moid, I am just curious

No. 2289618

>>2289504
Ayrt, now that I’ve thought about it more it’s probably depression like you said. I used to be on meds but that was like two years ago. 25 mg of Zoloft (never upped my dose because my parents managed to convince me to not get a higher dose because they and I quote, “didn’t want me to depend on medication for the rest of my life” so zoloft was useless. Then I was on 10 mg of lexapro for a few months but I gradually stopped taking them because I felt like a completely emotionless husk and that scared me. So I’ve pretty much been rawdogging my depression for years at this point. I have trouble telling if I’m depressed most of the time. My usual comparison point is the about two month long episode I had last year where I was constantly tired, irritable, and hardly ate (both because of just regular loss of appetite and doing it on purpose) but I think I was having an episode for most this past November. I definitely remember crying a bit and just feeling hopeless and vaguely suicidal and I relapsed into self harm but it’s over now. It comes and goes. Part of the reason I got a job is to pay for some sort of meds or therapy since I never got therapy, as well as get me out of the house.

No. 2289623

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why does this always happen? it's a small thing but it annoys me

No. 2289626

>>2289617
he's not even that famous, it's the saxophonist from the band Morphine. he follows my instagram and in july, i was part of a car wash so i posted about it. the convo goes as follows: "my car is dirty" "come make the trip over here haha!" "on my way!" (sorry for double post, didn't sage sorry)

No. 2289632

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>>2289626
Omg nona this guy is so fucking ugly, your moid is 100% just an insecure retard. How can he genuinely feel jealous and take that shit seriously? Kek

No. 2289635

>>2289626
>>2289632
Fucking barf.

No. 2289638

>>2289632
>>2289635
THANK YOU!!! like shit christ now i remember why i haven't been in a relationship for years

No. 2289641

>>2289623
Kek the photo is making me laugh, but I think this happens because "he" is gender neutral third person singular in a lot of language, even English, so people just default to calling animals "he" even if they know it's a girl animal.

No. 2289646

>>2289623
I never posted a picture of my cat with clothes like this or anything, but it reminds me of when I told people I got a female cat and they still kept calling her a he every time I posted any random photos of her, it's definitely annoying.

No. 2289648

>>2289618
I'm sorry your parents pressured you like that. I think what people don't realize is if someone has a naturally occurring chemical deficiency in their brain… then taking away the meds won't stop it from naturally occurring. It's like taking a cripple's crutches away because she shouldn't depend on them for the rest of her life. What, so she should crawl everywhere? Almost every psychiatrist will work with you to see if you can come off the meds once you are stable and thriving. But many times the outcome is "oh shit, the meds were keeping this person stable" kek. When a psych refuses to take someone off meds, they usually cite the patient being extremely unstable as a baseline, but even then switching to a different doctor can usually get you weaned off meds.
I hear what you're saying about the Lexapro. An unfortunate (or maybe beautiful?) part of life is we are all unique and have multitudes that make up a body. So that means our chemical makeup is different and meds will all affect us differently. I was also recently switched to Lexapro for a trial run and it did almost nothing for me even on the highest doses. Worse, since it treated my irritability ONLY, I was left with anhedonia, giving me the sensation of having no emotions. I came off it and went with Cymbalta. So far I've seen a real improvement, but I'm still adjusting to it. You can also try an anti-anxiety medication. For example, I know trazodone is popular for people with anxiety disorders who also have disordered sleep because it makes them drowsy enough to fall asleep and keeps them asleep through the night.
I hope you're able to get a psychiatrist to start trying medications again. Try to stick with it even when it feels really frustrating. There are so many meds out there, and sometimes it takes a LOT of trying before you find one that works. I'm sorry about your relapse, but I'm glad you came out of it and are still with us.
You probably already know this, but having a strict time for bed and waking up will help the oversleeping issue. Your internal clock will adjust and your body will start making you sleepy when it's time to go to bed, and eventually you'll start waking up just before your alarm goes off every morning.

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>>2288660
I agree and we're not allowed to talk about it or we're racist. France doesn't feel like France anymore to me

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>>2288653
Kek. Some people just seem to think because they're on an imageboard they automatically should be assholes for no reason it feels like.

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>>2289490
>>2289494
Thank you so much nonas, I really needed that. I'm going to take your advice and also use your replies as "permission" to take care of myself first and foremost and continue my creative endeavors.

No. 2289676

>>2289649
real, in my town, when im going to places, i see less native residents of the country than newcomers who just want money, none of them can speak to each other or understand each other. i deeply admire some of them, like i know an indian guy who works hard at a shit job and has big dreams and sends money home, loves his mom, but it is also sad and lonely when natives are outnumbered and their faces and cultures aren't carried on, regardless of race, and this doesn't mean anyone is better than anyone, just that maybe a country is more than a piece of land, it's also the people that inhabit it. this is coming from someone with one immigrant parent. also i love france so much that's such a loss.
>>2288653
lol so accurate…the insults are always so asinine yet specific, like people log on to project their issues from irl people only anons

No. 2289680

I know it's been a week but I'm still upset with my boyfriend's mother for ruining his Thanksgiving and interfering with our Thanksgiving break. She's a very kind person, but has issues with smothering other people. She struggles with boundaries and cares so much about being kind that she takes your independence from you. It's hard to describe because it sounds like she's simply being extra nice, but it truly wears you down. She gets upset when you refuse her suffocating kindness. I tried searching around to see if other people have experienced this kind of smothering, but it's all just r*dditors hating their moms and/or way more extreme narcissistic behaviors.
My boyfriend was supposed to stop by Thanksgiving (3:00 pm) and then was going to go to his family's a bit later in the evening (5:00 pm). When he told her this a week ahead, she insisted it was a terrible idea. Day of, he repeats his plan to his family and got bombarded with calls and texts from his sister and mother. His sister begged him to come so that their mom wouldn't ruin Thanksgiving. From what I understand (and have experienced), his mom is the type who would cling on to the idea that the day is somehow ruined because her son would be missing one Thanksgiving out of over two decades worth of celebrations, eg. constantly saying stuff like "I'm sorry you all have to be at my terrible dinner, I know you all want to be somewhere else, hope the food is good enough for you."
He didn't want to go to his family's at all, but was still planning to because he loves them. He ended up going to only his family's because of the drama. Their celebration involved his sister exploding at their mom, his mom getting so upset and threatening to leave, and just an all-round foul mood that happens when someone is so obsessed with playing hostess that they do not consider their guests. He had a bad time and was extremely drained for the three days that followed.
I'm away at university currently, and fly back most weekends. Still, my bf and I are technically long distance and were looking forward to having Thanksgiving together, and more days than just Saturday and half of Sunday to see each other. Because of her theatrics, we lost Thursday and half of Friday. Not that I'm demanding his time, but we were both looking forward to extra time together while I didn't have school hanging over me and he didn't have work. I'm so mad that he had to deal with all that mess, I'm sad I couldn't see him for longer, and I'm so done with his family tolerating this sort of behavior from her.
I want my boyfriend to come over Christmas eve with my mom. It's always just me and her as my dad works Christmas, and I have to take her to the airport at like 4 am on Christmas day. He'd have to miss his family's Christmas eve dinner, but then we can both go to the Christmas day dinner that his family traditionally has with a few other families. I just know that it's going to be more drama if/when I suggest it, but I'd be completely alone for most of Christmas day otherwise. I truly don't hate his mom, but her over-bearing nature draws a deep anger out of me. She's so well-intentioned that it almost comes across as cruel to say no to her, and you wind up in a situation where you have to just accept that you will have no personal boundaries/independence in her house.

No. 2289681

>>2289680
>>2289591
>>2289542
Hmm, maybe I should hop on the trend of making up fake stories to get attention from anons on IBs… stories about nigels seem to work really well!(ban evasion)

No. 2289690

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I feel like I've witnessed my moms love for me decrease since middle school. I've never been that popular, i don't have many friends from middle or high-school left, and the ones i have (2 people) aren't close to me enough to call real friends so i only ever talk to my mom on a regular basis. I'm taking a break year to study and prepare for uni (not usa or european so its normal here idk how it is anywhere else) so i don't have anywhere to be or anyone to talk to, I'm basically a shut-in.
I am extremely close to my mom, we have slept on the same bed until i was 14 and even at the age of 19 she still asks me to sleep with her sometimes, we hug and cuddle and kiss all the time, we joke around and giggle all the time, she is literally the only person that i know and trust ever which makes the truth incomprehensibly devastating for me.
She never used to hit me until once she realised she can she started doing it, she never used to insult me too much during fights until once she realised she can she started doing it, she never damaged my own personal property until once she realised she can, she started doing it.
Our fights have been getting so much more intense and terrifying and i dont know what i did to deserve this.. My whole life ive tried my best to be a good person and i feel like im the type of daughter most people would want, i do all the housework, i was never interested in smoking or drinking, i was always responsible with my money and i never ask her to buy me something unless she suggests it first because i feel guilty, i don't mess around with guys, i always get at least above average grades. But she still treats me like an absolute piece of shit when she's mad…
Our last figth happened last sunday and it completely changed the way i see her. She basically got mad that i wasn't studying enough, even though ive been showing a lot of improvement in the mock exams ive been taking and im performing well above average im going to ignore all that because it is objectively the truth that i am not as disciplined as i need to be. Even if i was at home slacking off all day, i don't think i deserve to be treated this way. She hit me in the head once really fucking hard (it still hurts) slapped me and hit my head a few times more for good measure. Insulted me calling me names for hours, and i means LITERALLY hours, once she starts complaining she literally does not stop for at least an hour. We started fighting at 3pm, she nonstop yelled at me until 5pm, after a short break she kept complaining to me for 4 more hours. The insults she throws are extremely personal and always hits exactly where it hurts (for example saying that im just like my father over and over again because ive specifically told her that it makes me upset). Keep in mind im not saying ANYTHING when she's yelling because literally anything i do will make the situation worse. If i look at her she insults how retarded the way im looking is, if i respond to anything or try to defend myself in any way she gets violent or raises her voice more, sometimes she asks me questions (yk the obviously trap ones where she goes "LIKE what am i supposed to do right now?? huh?? what would you do in my position rigth now??) and she gets mad if i don't answer them and she still gets mad if i answer them, this has happened multiple times i have tried every possible answer nothing is ever rigth she just wants me to say something so she can get more mad. I just stand there for hours as she insults me and keeps yelling and its genuinely so mentally exhausting to keep hearing that waiting it to end. She has also ripped apart one of my books (that i bought with the scholarship that was given to me, which means it was 100% my property) in half and threw it next to the trash. She never used to harm my things but she had recently started doing it (she did it 2 times in the past 5 months when she never did it before) and i'm scared that its gonna become a habit for her. The worst part is, she didn't even apologise for any of this. She ALWAYS used to apologise, but she doesn't even do that anymore she doesn't even fucking apologise anymore.
Around 11pm when i got ready to sleep and told her i was going to sleep she just hugged me and said she loved me? The difference between how she acts is literally day and night, just one hour ago she threw her book and glasses to the other side of the room because of how mad she got that i said i didnt thought she was being fair to me, and now she is hugging and kissing me goodnight telling me that she loves me a lot? She does this after every figth and pretends like it counts as an apology, but what really broke me happened the day after that. She said she took my book out of the thrash and i said i didnt wanted to have it anymore, she asked if i had a copy and i said "no I'm just gonna buy a new one" because no shit, i didnt wanted to even look at that one let alone repair it, but she got mad and told me that i wasn't going to get a new one and "she better not see me wasting her money on that", even though it was my own money that SHE wasted by ripping my book apart, and she said that i needed to "remember what happened that day everytime i looked at that book so i dont act like that again"
I promise this is not ragebait all of this happened and im crying writing this at 12am with my phone at 13% battery because i cant go to sleep anymore, every night ive been thinking about this incident and i cry myself to sleep everytime. I dont know what to do, i dont know what to feel, she acts like everything is normal she keeps kissing me goodnight and joking around to me and telling me funny stories from work like nothing happened but i dont know what to do. How do i live? She is the only person that i have but im really really scared of her, our relationship is extremely complicated that i don't even know if i can or should try to explain the details.
She always used to apologise even when she hit me she never tried to justify it after the fact, but now, she straight up thinks she was rigth to abuse me? what do i do. how do i live. She is my everything why. I just feel like she doesn't love me anymore. I don't know what to do…

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The job I applied for has me on the schedule again.

No. 2289715

i keep on being diagnosed with an infection at the doctor with multiple lab tests over the past months showing them. but it's always in different areas or places where i'm not having any symptoms (sinus, urinary, etc). do i feel like shit most of the time, constantly have a fever, and have for a very long time? sure, but it's just my whole body feeling terrible and some really extreme stomach issues and food reaction that i didn't have years ago, but food allergy tests haven't picked up anything.

i wonder if my body is just retarded or broken or something.

No. 2289721

>>2289652
I love being an asshole

No. 2289743

>>2289715
Do you have an autoimmune condition at all? Have you have an autoantibody screen before?

No. 2289756

oh my god when will it finally end

No. 2289765

>>2289715
Any chance you have straight up blood infection? is the doc testing for bacteria/viruses?

No. 2289770

>>2289715
Is it the same doctor that you've gone to each time? Seriously consider finding another doctor. Not to scare you, but this could be a sign of cancer, and it's worrisome that your doctor keeps throwing pills at you instead of sending you for more intensive testing.

No. 2289778

Watching videos of small business with no prior art career just starting out and being successful ahah…

No. 2289824

>>2289778
maybe that's your sign that you can do it too because I dont stumble accross videos like that but then again I dont really watch art content but still try.

No. 2289838

>>2289778
They're the 1% who got lucky, but then again you could also be in that 1%. Consistency really goes a long way when it comes to content creation, most people just give up right away when they don't go viral immediately

No. 2289842

Sometimes I wonder if Jay Z is with Beyonce because he likes to humiliate her. I finally listened to Cowboy Carter and so much of the content is still centered around what a cheater Jay Z is. Even if it's a metaphor, it's such a personal metaphor to use and there's a point where it just feels cruel to keep on using it.

No. 2289843

>>2289403
i think its kind of funny when this happens, like its nice seeing others argue for your "side" even after you gave up and couldn't be bothered kek

No. 2289847

>>2289466
what the fuck she sounds nuts. definitely speak up and tell her she is not coming on your trip with you, what the hell? don't let her ruin it

No. 2289857

>>2289571
i agree with you that there should be a separate relationship venting thread and i mentioned it as well but no ones listening

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I keep shitting blood. This has gone on for almost three years now. My GP won't do anything to help. A and E won't do anything to help either. They go "yep, that's blood. Stay hydrated xx" I Just get a random stabbing pain in the stomach then shart blood. Then feel fine afterwards, albeit a bit queasy and shaky. I can't afford to go private reeeeeeeeee I fucking hate living in bongland our medical institutions are unbelievably shitty and ran by pedophiles

No. 2289879

new thread >>>/ot/2289875

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>>2289591
was your intention to make him jealous?

No. 2289886

>>2289702
isnt this a good thing?

No. 2291936

>>2289690
nona I am so sorry to hear that you were put through all that abuse. It's not normal for her to sleep in the same bed or kiss you that much either IMO. The cycle of abuse usually has a phase where the abuser is nice to you, to make the abuse part hurt more and make you confused, dependent, and hoping that if you just do/say xyz shell be nice to you again. Try to spend less time at home and study at a library maybe? Personally my mom isnt physical like yours but has thrown out my plant dedicated to my deceased pets in a fit of rage, the morning she had to take me to an appointment. Shes nice sometimes but then she triangulates me with her fave child, her son. Anyway I failed to move out due to a housing crisis where I am and my own agoraphobia, so I cant offer much more advice than that. Sorry this isnt much help. I cant imagine the strength it would take to experience all that physical and mental abuse. Youre a stronger woman than I am.

Just know that despite differences in experiences, know that youre not alone. Hope things turn out better for all of us involved in anything similar.

Im sorry but this is basically like a loss, the death of a relationship. I too realized that my relationship with my mom is dead, after she told me she doesnt believe me that I dont hate her even though Im never rude to her. Just because I cant stand to be around my male sibling who harassed me constantly. My mom basically said I deserved his harassment everytime I went to the bathroom, because he "thinks I dont like him" (gee I wonder why?). So if he raped me or who knows what, mom would take his side, it feels like.

Anyway, nothing you do or say will make your abusive mom change, only she will change, but most abusers dont change their ways. So in any way you can, cut your losses, live your best life you can, and DONT let that bitch break you.

No. 2292123

>>2289862
That sounds serious. Mayo Clinic says to seek emerg medical care. Keep bringing this up, until they find the cause and resolve it.

Im not a Dr, but I briefly did a Google search, as Im sure you probably already have. Not trying to scare you as I have no idea if it's any of these, but results include:
- hemorrhoids,
- proctits,
- anal fissure,
- colon cancer,
- stomach ulcer

Could it be caused by diet, or some kind of kidney stone or something? Just something to consider, as I have no idea.

Is it possible to seek medical care in a different EU country? There are also online medical sites where you can ask (supposed) doctors, like JustAnswer (used once a few years back, it was ok, just get an American VPN, its not free though). Be wary of scams or creeps trying to get your private info though.

Sadly, a lot of women have to keep being persistent in bringing our medical situation to attention, in order to actually get the medical care that we should have received the first time we ever mention our symptoms.

Wishing that things turn out the best they can for you nona. Stay strong.>>2289862



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