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No. 2266222
shout it out
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>>>/ot/2251560 No. 2266235
>>2266233Happy birthday
nonnie. I wish away your worry woes.
No. 2266282
>>2266254i don't know who that is but that's not me, google says it's some kind of k-pop group.
>>2266235>>2266248>>2266267thank you nonnas
No. 2266291
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I’m so fucking tired of how much my almost 30 year old autistic older brother who doesn’t even live with us is fucking coddled by my mother. So fucking tired. I have to give extra money because he’s like 400lbs and eats the entire house even though he’s had a job for YEARS, owns a house that was given to
him by his grandmother and has so much fucking money that he can afford to buy every new video game and console with 0 worries. Why can’t he fucking chip in? Why do we have to pay for gas because he can’t drive to visit us and my mom does. Why do we have to pay extra for so much extra food? Why do we have to plan everything around him? Fucking why? I’m also autistic and I’ve never had this level of coddling. It’s not fucking fair.
Also, he’s so fucking THANKLESS. My mother bends her back and he always yells and talks to her with such attitude when she doesn’t understand something or is genuinely trying to help. I’m gonna lose it and if I talk to my mom about this I’m going to get guilted.
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>>2263872can't even make a light hearted trailer park boys joke on lolcow. feels bad.
i just didn't wanna say muh suicide attempt cause it sounds so dramatic. come on you mean bitches it sucks to be called your bf's ex's name 3 times in a row let me vent…
No. 2266339
>>2266334finding a good therapist itself can be hard. i would say try it if you have the money but don't expect things to instantly work out.
>Theres nothing wrong with my life currently. My past was shit but its the past i should be over it by now.it's when getting out of tough situations we often struggle with mental suffering, because our brains can now process what we went through and isn't in a panic state. it can take time to process the past and maybe someone can help you.
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>ask mom for ideas for a Christmas present for my grandma
>she says "how about a domino set?"
>decide to buy a nice and fancy one, show my mom to get her opinion
>she says it's nice
>next day she buys a $2 set and mocks me about how much money I'm spending when they can be so cheap
I'm not giving my grandma a $2 present what the fuck is this really something to mock me for? Does she want me to not buy it? I won't buy it if she thinks it's dumb.
No. 2266407
>>2266381I'm sorry anon but
>>his whole dick was on display like a faggotis making me laugh so much, i don't even understand was he in leggings or something kek
No. 2266424
>>2266418I have a perchant for agreeing to date men because they won't leave me alone and it makes my mom happy that I look Normal by dating men and not like some lesbian. Gets me into stupid situations all the fucking time. At least anons can laugh
>>2266420I sat in the kitchen to mald and he's over here now staring at me not saying anything like a weird flex. I will throw out the leggings later probably.
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>>2266411KEKKKK this almost made me fall over like an autist. You can’t make this shit up, nigelfags never disappoint.
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I'm off my medication for a couple months
I Just cried my eyes out because I don't have milk and my sister got goat milk. Then I started laughing manically because I'm literally crying over milk. Help
No. 2266504
>>2266502Steal milk I don't even want? Sounds crazy
I'm doing it right now.
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i feel like a freak because im literally not interested in having sex at all but it feels like its the only thing SO many people care about. i feel content just being an autistic virgin forever who masturbates to her fictional husbands sometimes. (picrel i think theyre sexy)
No. 2266662
>>2266591I can't afford rehab but I keep thinking about going to one for my various addictions including
self harm the only problem is it's hard to tell around here what mental inpatient hospitals are shit and I'm going to assume it's most of them, and who wants to get fired from her job just for needing help and having a side of her life where she breaks down in private but when someone's covertly hiding scars under her arms all the damn time and dosing herself in various other addictions to deter the pain… albeit not traditional or consistent addictions… maybe she needs it
No. 2266670
>>2266596NO LOL but i used to lurk her tumblr blog back when she was active, kinda like a trainwreck you cant turn away from
>>2266622mwah
No. 2266686
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i'm so mad at this ugly autistic scrote irl right now it's been making my cortisol spike all day. i genuinely want to break something i want him to die. i can't calm down it's genuinely ruining my day.
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Reminder that it was a kike who popularized and normalized violent pornography and these were his views on women. This faggots bloodline should’ve been eradicated in the Holocaust long ago. Ban me for racebaiting, this is fucking repugnant.(global rule #7)
No. 2266722
>>2266686I'm mad at you using nazi cock ball gargling woman's art as reaction pic but here we are. God imagine sucking a scrote's cock who is an actual nazi and trying to frame yourself as the
victim. You know she went bleblebleble in those balls like a scrote in boobs and she wants us to have sympathy? Aww the scrote you put all your eggs into that you knew was a pos was SUDDENLY a pos to you? Wow so shocking wow I have no sympathy sorry
(infighting ) No. 2266738
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>>2266731It's not moralfagging it's hatred.
No. 2266783
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My work colleagues talking about their sex life and calling me a prude for not joining in is annoying the shit out of me.
>Uh you're so boring anon, I guess you must have a shitty sex life. I'm young and healthy and I love to have sex with my boyfriend, and I'm proud of it !
Good for you dumbass I still don't wanna hear about your ugly balding scrote getting his dick sucked in the bowling alley's restroom or you getting fucked in a public park on the ping pong table… I DON'T CARE I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT MY SEX LIFE WITH YOU I DON'T WANNA KNOW ABOUT YOUR SEX LIFE EITHER YOUR SCROTE IS UGLY, and right near an ugly middle aged scrote too, mind you this woman is 24 yrs old, why the hell is she sharing her intimate life with her overweight 40 yrs old moid work colleague ??? Almost forgot but while she talked about her sex life he keept saying little things like "oh you're a naughty one, aren't you ?" "hmmm sexy" "woaw my wife would never…"
No. 2266929
>>2266886I don't know how these things work but if you report it, it's noted only in the company or can a future employer get to the information somehow? Because if they could he could have more difficult time finding his next job, or if he already has one they would know he's
sus. That's like a positive outcome i think, for you and for other people who would work with him. If it's only information within the company since he's leaving i wouldn't bother.
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i live with my boyfriend and a mutual friend right now in a sharehouse situation, mutual friend/retard housemate is doing my fucking head in. i genuinely hate him. i'm only in this situation right now because of uni, interning and the housing and rental crisis making moving anywhere else almost impossible.
retard housemate's thought processes throughout the day are basically just:
>ME DON'T LIKE DOING CHORES, IF I DO THE LAWN REALLY FAST I CAN GO PLAY VIDEO GAME!!!
broke the fucking lawnmower, the third one he's broken, we're on our second weedwacker too because of him.
>IF I TURN TAP ON REAL HARD AND WASH DISH FAST, ME CAN GO PLAY VIDEO GAME!!!
mfw he's chipped plates, put smashed glasses back into the draws, fucked up a cast iron utensil, and 9/10 times will get water all over the floor of the kitchen.
>UH OHHH, ME RAN OUT OF MUH 13 IN ONE!!!
proceeds to use my unopened bottle of 40 dollar shampoo, i now have to hide it in my room.
>GUYS, DO WE NEED ANYTHING FROM THE SUPERMARKET??
asks this when we have a constantly updated shopping list on the fridge.
>OOOH, IT'S A HOT SUNNY DAY? I NEED TO USE THE DRYER NOW!!! NOT THE CLOTHESLINE!!!
i then gaslight him into paying more of the electric bill.
>I NEED TO WASH 3 SOCKS IN ONE LOAD, SO I'M JUST GONNA DO 3 SEPARATE LOADS OF WASHING TODAY INSTEAD OF ONE FULL LOAD!!
everyone tells me the same thing - "just tell him not to do xyz!!" as if i'm not doing that already! he's a retarded fucking weed smoker, the second you tell him something, he'll go smoke a cone and forget about it. he's also a frantic liar and will deny, deny, deny if you catch him out. I wanted to kick him out but my boyfriend won't let me because they're friends.
I have a lockbox in the fridge where my expensive stuff goes because he can't keep his grubby, shitty hands off of it.
Living with men means you can't have any nice shit, he's fucked up my pans, he breaks gardening equipment because he just yanks the electric mower around like a fuckwit so hard that he breaks the handles that turn it on, he clearly doesn't like using my ceramic egg tray and would rather just lazily shove a carton of eggs into the fridge. He uses so much fucking toilet paper you'd think he was eating that shit.
the second i'm able to finish uni next year and get a proper job with a good income, i'm moving out and getting a two-bedroom place with my boyfriend and leaving this lazy fuckhead to fend for himself. i am so sick of how stupid men are, he genuinely belongs in disability housing where he's living with a tard wrangler despite the fact that he isn't profoundly disabled.
I hate men and i hate them even more when they smoke weed.
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if we don't get the dumbass shit thread back i'm going to START LOSING IT. I FUCKING SWEAR
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>>2266722ayrt here. for someone who claims to hate men you sure do hate women who are their
victims. i think you need this rn.
No. 2266961
>>2266943I miss her too,
nonnie.
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Why is management so incompetent when it comes to training? I’ve been at my job for 2 years now and they started to shift my duties to another area about 3 months ago and in that time I’ve gotten a half hour meeting where they essentially told me what buttons to push and click then sent a bunch of PDFs that are so vague and sometimes outdated I have to wonder how anyone gets shit done here. Why is the responsibility on me to train myself? I can only reach out to my team so many times a day before it gets annoying and even then I get a “oh idk how to do that go ask this person” rinse and repeat. It’s not like it’s inconsequential work either as you can only mess up so many times before some overpaid government goon steps in and tells you the account is fucked. My boss makes a big fuss and consistently emails us everyday about our late bills and accounts but maybe we would work more efficiently if we knew what the fuck was going on. Like if our numbers have been fucked for years maybe it’s time to take a step back and look at reorganizing operations but I guess that would hurt her ego too much to know that she’s just as retarded as the rest of us. At this point I’m just clocking in, trying my best, fucking with my productivity reports then clocking out.
No. 2267113
>>2267105Ok. Sorry for the misunderstanding. You sound like you need sleep. Rest well
nonnie.
No. 2267189
>>2267183Checks out. I had a lot of issues following through with uni and work when I was 18, and instead of tackling the issues I've had with my
abusive family and self-esteem, my therapist was more of a go-getter and she wanted me to just "work harder." Looking back on it now, I realized I was really struggling emotionally and needed help and understanding, not to shove my emotions down and work harder.
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My desktop is running SO FUCKING SLOW REEEE
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I sent my friend this image and he said "please don't send me pictures like this" lmfao
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Nonnas, my company is closing in a few months and I hate it so much ffs. I've been working there for over ten years and I swear I will never get such chill and comfy job ever again. Yeah, the payment was all right but it had so many aspects that I loved about it and so many colleagues that became friends and family and soon I won't see them on a daily basis. This shit breaks my heart more than I want to admin. I just got a flat not far away from work, so the location, working times etc were perfect but it will end soon. It makes me sad to go to work now, knowing it won't be around anymore. I also can't plan shit for next year because I have no idea how things will go so this annoys me as well. I thought I will never have to search for a job again because the place has been around since the 1920s. Annoying shit, I hate this timeline.
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i don't want to be popular but seeing retarded people be popular and well-liked annoys me
No. 2267715
I'm so tired of being flat broke and I know it's my fault. my card declined for the first time ever while buying cat food and I had to transfer my last amount from savings over.
It's just embarrassing. I had thousands of dollars in savings but my piece of shit brother in law and his wife dumped their cats on us under the guise of "petsitting" and these cats completely drained my savings the first year I had them. I didn't qualify for reduced cost spay so I had to pay $500 for the male who ended up getting the female pregnant anyways, but something went wrong and she needed surgery before she went septic. That was $1000 and that's when they ghosted us.
The cats developed various random illnesses and I spent another 1k+ over the course of the year for vet bills. The girl has anxiety, probably from her previous dogshit owners letting the male be a sexpest and torment her for an entire year while their brat daughter kept grabbing at her, so she's on special prebiotics that cost about 50/mo. Their food is expensive, it's sort of a trade off to me. I feed them high quality food for less vet visits, I spent probably 60 bucks every 2 weeks on wet food for then.
I love the cats to death and they're so much happier and healthier with us, but I hate those in laws for dumping them on us. I refused to put them down, I can't do it. Couldn't let them die or rehome them because all our shelters are maxed out to the point where we ship animals to other counties or states to make room. Everyone here loves dogs so you know, it would just be extremely difficult for cats that are already traumatized.
I can't keep up with the grocery bills and the rent. I can't work more because my job implemented a new system that cut everyone's hours. I would get 35/wk now I get 21/wk. I help other departments and locations to atleast bring it up to 28. It's the holidays now so I'm finally getting atleast 32/week. I also go to school full time.
I received financial aid but that was pissed away to help my husband pay for his semester because FAFSA claimed his info was wrong, and the school claimed it was FAFSA's fault, etc etc. basically bullshit to try and fuck us over but it finally went through. Then his mom's car battery died and she called me crying because no one else was picking up and she was stranded (she is an angel and always helps us. my husband didn't have the money because he already pays a majority of the bills). So I sent her a good chunk of that aid.
It's my fault because I accrued a decent amount of credit card debt which I now dropped to $400 out of a $2500 limit. I put 400 in it this month which is also why I'm broke as shit.
I get paid tomorrow so I will be OK, it just sucks. It's my fault most definitely, but I still wanted to vent. Things will be okay, I know they will be.
No. 2267717
>>2267715That sucks anon, I would have put the septic cat down. I also can't believe you were charged 500 for a neuter, I believe you were overcharged and ripped off.
You need to stop paying other people's bills and fixing their problems. Learn to say no. If you had the money to help it would be different, you're ruining your own life taking care of your husband's family.
No. 2267773
>>2267717Thank you
nonnie you're completely right. My husband has also been putting his foot down and telling his family to basically fuck off bc 99% of the time they ask him, his mom rarely asks me as well which is why I was willing. The entire family bullied the loser brother in law for fucking me over if that helps. That was quickly overshadowed by his other antics bc hes a failure in general tho.
$500 is the standard here unfortunately. I had to call a bunch of places recently for my friend who has never owned a cat before so I said I'd get quotes from places for her. Nothing was under $500. Luckily her zipcode qualified for reduced spay & neuter so she didn't have to pay as much as I did.
A lot of vets in my city are ripping people off you are def right. I think it's been a thing since covid. What is specifically happening is corporations have been investing in pet care because of the pandemic pets situation and increased popularity in "pet parent" shit. They buy up a bunch of small vet places then raise the prices.
The enthusia was not an option to me I am autistically obsessed with cats and didnt have the heart. The year before that i had to put down my childhood cat and i couldnt go through that again.
>>2267726I did!! The wife was even texting me some shit like "OK between all of us that's only like 250 so not bad" and I was like "fym all of us, you're gonna pay me back no?" and that's when she started acting weird. They didn't have the money to pay me back asap so I said they could do a little bit every month like 50-100 bucks atleast.
Thank you tho I needed to hear this.
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I got my comfort album CD stuck in my car's CD player and I've tried everything and it won't come out
No. 2267833
>>2267822Oh, nona… you'll never be the waste of space most moids are. You shouldn't feel bad for hanging out while you're here, idk who told you that kek.
>>2267826Have you tried banging your fist on top of the dash, right above where the CD player is? Sometimes the plastics kind of overlap each other and they need to be physically unstuck.
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god, i probably don't deserve to even vent because i really brought this on myself.
>in poor health in general, getting fit had 0 impact, and deathly tired constantly, and also develop scary, painful and often TMI digestive issues in the past month or so
>find out maybe i ate a contaminated, recalled product and just telling myself that maybe my stomach just got temporarily fucked up…at least it's been okish for the past two days?
>finally have an appointment and end up too tired, panicked, and torn up on what to say to doc
>retardedly turn down a referral to a specialist, a nagging voice in my head kept saying the problem was nothing and it's over with
holy shit. if there is something wrong (again I don't believe there is but still) I deserve it tbh.
also found out that I lost, like…8 pounds in the past month in spite of eating my usual quantity of food - a ton - and not being overweight. i thought i did because i look much skinnier, but it is a bit scary…
No. 2267984
Today I got off work, and some days my boss will have me take the deposit to the bank's night drop off box. I do this a lot, and so I'm quite used to this.
Well today, I parked on the street and got ready to walk up to the front of the bank, when I hear some loud glass breaking, and basically other stuff being broken and thrown. It was across the street, and I glance that way, and it was four teenage boys breaking shit in they alleyway across from the bank. I was already weirded out, but then one of them shouted, 'Hey lady', and I was the only person around, and he started to cross the street towards me and all his friends came with.
Now luckily, the bank was still open (just barely at five) and so I ran in there and stood in there until I saw that the workers were getting ready to leave. I put my stuff in the night deposit box and left when a group of the bank people were walking to the parking lot, I walked kind of close to them so I could get back to my car.
When I was getting in my car, however, I saw the same group of boys surrounding a minivan in the bank parking lot shouting at whoever was inside.
WTF was that?? I can't even make sense of it. Even before the boy started making his way toward me, I wanted to get out my pepper spray. I might have had to, had I not been able to get inside the bank. The boys weren't super old- maybe only fourteen-ish, but why the hell did they call out to me and start running towards me? After they were breaking some shit… It gave me a horrid feeling. I feel like I just nearly missed something bad happen to me.
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>forced to lend my mother's husband my bike since I didn’t use it anymore after finishing school and having to commute hours to uni
>fast forward several years, he uses it a handful of times
>feel like biking for fun again, go pick up bike
>the seat is literally ripped open from his fat ass, handles are disgustingly grimy/sticky and have browm dried sweat between its pattern, several scuffs and two dents on the metal, the gear shift isn't working properly, bike is cracking loudly when using it
>ask him about it
>he says it wasn't him
I hate moids so much it's unreal. You're lucky I still have responsibilitirs, otherwise I'd just slit your throat you disgusting fat pig. This bike was my youth, it was dear to me even when I didn't use it anymore. It's not yours.
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tranny rapist at it again, trying to subtle DM me by using this app options for encrypting chats. leave me alone, your pickme gf has done everything to look like the alt girls you like, yet you are still pestering me? radio silence does really triggers bpd-kuns this much kek
No. 2268541
>>2267863ayrt
Sorry nonna that It happened to you too. Losing a Job sucks big time, but it sucks even more when you worked there for such a long with people that you really liked. I don't know what to do either when everything will be over. Yeah, there are Jobs out there but it's not this job anymore.I thought I will do this forever and never had a plan after this. Feel hugged for being in the same shit Situation like me.
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Why is there a tranny in the Harry Potter game?????
No. 2268584
>>2268497Listen to
>>2268564Instead of being grateful for all that you've done for him, he takes it out on you and loses respect for you. He is not a good person. You'll find that most moids act like this. You find out a man's true personality during times when he's dependent on you, or when you need to be dependent on him. Almost 99% of the time men will use these situations to emotionally abuse their girlfriends/wives (or physically, in the worst case scenario). Send him back home.
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Just found out this woman from that weird SJW/Anti SJW hysteria like 8 years ago is doing porn now. She's so autistic it truly seems exploitative, and she used to say she was asexual. I'm really starting to think retards shouldn't be allowed to use the internet, for their own sake.
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>>2266733Nonna, unfortunately you dying won’t save any kid that has cancer or any other terminal illness, it doesn’t work like that.
I know it sounds corny, but time actually heals stuff and I can confirm this, I wanted to end it all before 15 (I’m 25 now) and said a good chunk of the words you wrote in this post, even thought of donating my organs to people in need. And I know for sure you’re not wasting resources, there are scrotes who are worse than you, living a cushy ass life in prison, all that on taxpayer money, I think they are a bigger waste of resources and oxygen, you’re good.
I see what you mean with factors that set you up for a shitty start in life, but it ain’t your fault, and you aren’t retarded, you sound very compassionate. If you were genuinely retarded you couldn’t put these words together, think about it.
What worked for me was getting angry and starting to live out of spite for a couple of years until I started to like life. Also, think about the cow threads and shitposting from this website you’d miss if you were to kys.
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Maybe I have gotten too old for internet drama, but I don't enjoy coming to lc as much nowadays. I find most /snow/ threads kinda boring and milkless. Whenever I come around I just shitpost on /ot/ and contribute nothing of value.
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I don't use this word lightly but if another bitch leaves the rest stop bathroom without washing her hands I am going to throw hands. I stopped in there for less than five minutes and two different ladies didn't wash. Imagine the state of their nails. Or don't.
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>>2268593If it makes you nonnies feel better she hasn't really been active online in months and updated her of bio to this. Hopefully she's woken up and won't continue in the future.
I checked her thread on the moidfarms sometimes and it seemed like she was slowly feeling out femininity again so hopefully she drops all the enby shit and gets therapy. No. 2268754
>>2268744Yes but I’m not going to bother telling you about it because I’ll immediately get dogpiled by rabid
femcels for talking about muh nigel. Kek
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even my incel brother pulls and i don't, this discovery has been extremely upsetting to me, as it confirms how undesirable i am, and how most women have no standards.
i legit thought he had made that girl up, like when you're in middle school and some guy says ''yeah, i have a girlfriend but she doesn't go here teheee''. she's not even from here, she TRAVELLED to see him. insane shit. he is ugly, doesn't shower, face full of blackheads and refuses to remove them because muh face hurts, he has never had any type of job and relies on my parents to give him some shekels, he never cleans his room and it smells like fucking balls and smelly armpits in there. he has nothing to offer and she's an engineer from the best university in our country and won a national chess championship too, just fucking lol. why would a woman like that pay attention to him? maybe he fakes a good personality in front of her? he has no redeeming qualities whatsoever, i just can't wrap my mind around it.
i wil never, ever in my life again take serious an alleged incel and his grievances, because this has shown me that if my disgraceful brother can get a non-loser woman, any moid can do it.
No. 2268781
>>22687551.) I don't have a boyfriend.
2.) Your fingers stink.
No. 2268812
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>>2268804KEKK these are the nonnas who sperg about
femcels. Enjoy your weaponized incompetence Nigel
(infight bait) No. 2268813
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I was dumped over discord at the start of the year, I thought I’d never get over him and I was really depressed and it’s kind of nuts how much my life has changed since then
I got a job, I made tons of friends, I went out more, I flirted with guys just for fun and I’m learning to drive
So to frank, thanks faggot, you did me a favor
No. 2268818
>>2268812not me, i'm not retarded enough to blame the stinky jealous
femcels!! about the stupid decisions i take, and i'd never defend my boyfriend of not being like the other moids™, that's being way too delusional and retarded for the sake of being attached to a glorified neanderthal. i just hate being born a natural man hater and not being able to pretend they are god's given gift to earth
No. 2268821
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>>2268809Oh he's going to. And he's going to ACTUALLY clean what I tell him to this time instead of half-assing it like last time. It's days like this where I question if Nigels stay Nigels or if they're even real….
>>2268812Not me girl, I hate men and fully support women leaving their shitty boyfriends. It's just harder for me to enact it in my own life especially when I thought I had someone good. I know I shouldn't complain but hey this is the vent thread.
No. 2268829
>>2268812imagine using the word
femcel unironically on lolcow
No. 2268830
>>2268824I wasn’t talking to
you specifically, but for real just fucking break up if you’re not happy to be in the relationship. You’re clearly not compatible, even if he does all the “right” things. I can’t fathom staying with someone I can’t stand.
No. 2268834
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there’s a pissed off shirtless woman walking in circles around the dunkin donuts I’m in and I need to leave but I don’t want to run into her and her bare breasts in the parking lot
No. 2268843
>>2268812Nah the anons who call us evil bitter lesbian
femcels are the ones who have a perfect relationship with their nigels, they'd never complain about them.
No. 2268845
>>2268843Anyone who says the word
femcel is fucking cringe
No. 2268859
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My mom has a history of overfeeding cats to the point where they are obese. Like, super morbidly obese. My parents have a cat right now who is morbidly obese and won't listen to me when I tell them he is way too fat. My mom gets offended and sensitive because she really loves the cat. She also started feeding the him three treats a night as a ""bedtime ritual"" and it makes me so mad. JFK my parents are also both fat themselves and terrible at dieting or determining portion control themselves. I really don't want to let my mom have a cat when she's older.
No. 2268908
>>2268888Just add more shit to your post before re posting
Real life hack hours
No. 2268940
>>2268909stop over analyzing your body and just live. like the
nonny above me says, at least you have shoulders that work to move your arms around, that is their function, they don't need a certain appearance, accept yourself
No. 2268969
>>2268876I second this honestly. But even bothering to find a scrote to fuck is still annoying though.
I wanted to do that and put on an app but they somehow lack even any seductiveness kek. I think that I also put an app that isn’t very much used where I live , few were from my place and most were far (I’m an eurofag)
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I fucking hate people who pretend to be stupid and feign incompetence. And now I have coworker who acts this way every day at work. "Hurr what do you mean you want me to sweep the floor, I don't understand durr"
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Why the fuck do I have to read and annotate this for an English class?
No. 2269056
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>>2269048Respectfully asking as a whitey, what the FUCK does "raced-white" mean?
No. 2269058
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>>2269048You should just edit it like picrel and/or talk about how all this world salad is unnecessary. I would hate to be a student in these times, I left college right as stating your pronouns in an academic setting began. I feel for you
No. 2269064
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>>2269056>>2269058Nonnies I'm crying I looked up the guy who wrote this piece and this is his banner. I cannot take this seriously at all. This is an upper level course that has nothing to do with gender studies.
No. 2269069
>>2269064>literally just a man in a wigwhew
i go to community college and its not too bad, but one time my algebra teacher said "latinx" and i was just sitting there shocked.
No. 2269129
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i just feel incredibly sad about my art. i dont think ill ever get popular or recognized. and you could say "oh that doesnt matter" and yeah it doesnt really, i draw for myself foremost, but it would be nice to have my talent recognized. i see accounts with 10s of thousands of followers who literally just post cartoony 10 minute doodles and i dont get it. is that what people want?
No. 2269142
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How nice of America to give back the money it stole from those countries back to them. How could we ever survive without the generosity of America who destroyed my country with its retarded proxy wars
No. 2269150
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>goes online
>clicks lolcow.farm link
>tries to start convo
>no replies
>other replies talking right over my posts
>sad and a little bit disheartened
>realizes the entire website has now been taken over by zoomers and young people
am I getting too old for the internet? dead internet theory is getting too real. when i decide to give to others everybody lined up to use me, dry me, throw me away but when i want to talk to somebody no one replies or I come across a bot-like “person” telling me i’m retarded for saying “hi” wrong or something. i’m so exhausted and lonely, it’s like every time i try to shine it’s always dimmed. whenever I want some kind of hope or peace it’s always ripped away from me, i’m in a decent mood and then i’m ignored and then i’m not longer in that mood. pleasure and happiness is fleeting and borderline nonexistent while suffering is just cold hard reality always waiting for you when the emotions are all gone
No. 2269326
>>2269150I'll talk to you
nonny, whats on your mind?
No. 2269383
I am only now realising how messed up my mother was when I was a child and I have no idea how to have a relationship with her. She cheated on my father when I was 8 and he was living in a different country (he was physically abusive to her before I was born so I can see why she thought he deserved it but I only found out about this when I was a lot older). Because she had few friends at the time, she started treating me like her best friend and showing me texts with her "boyfriend" when I was 9. Completely broke my view of our family and my parents' relationship. I began to treat her more like my child, making sure she ate properly (lifelong ED) and didn't lie in bed all day (depression) etc. Then my parents got divorced and she got super mad at him when she found out he had been cheating on her too. She made me take her side and help her get divorced. Ruined my relationship with my father (which was already bad anyways so not a huge loss at the time). After the divorce, I start doing therapy which is often focused on disentangling me from my mother (can't change her, shouldn't try etc). I realise how difficult she is as a person (but I compensated for a bad father with a surface level better mother) and suspect she has NPD or narcissistic traits from being so traumatised by my father. She refuses to do anything about her mental health and so we grow further apart because I can't deal with her trying to manipulate me now that I am aware of what she's doing. 5 years later, I start talking to my father again and talk to my mother infrequently. I don't view either of them as parents, more like cousins or something. My mother clearly notices that I have grown distant and is using my father to try to manipulate me into seeing her/speaking to her more. Problem is on top of all of this, she never actually wants to talk about anything but herself and her interests and never initiates contact anyways. I just don't care about her anymore - she doesn't take an interest in my life at all, doesn't ask me any questions ever, and expects me to want a closer relationship. I find her draining, I feel like she's always on edge around me and definitely talking about me behind her back to her (new) boyfriend. I have no idea where to go from here because less of her in my life is better for me (as long as she refuses to see someone for her mental health). On the other hand, I appreciate that she will die one day and I don't really want our relationship to be like this forever. I kind of hope she lives to old age so that I can at least have a relationship with her when she realises her own mortality and chills out a bit. But I don't know if that will happen either.
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Damn is anyone else just having a really shitty week?
No. 2269475
The Thanksgiving posts are once again making me wish I had a big, jovial family to visit for the holidays instead of returning home as an only child in a cold, stilted household with parents who hate each other. I want big group holiday shenanigans with cringey cousins and wine aunts and weirdo siblings. Anything other than opening the door to my childhood home to find my BPD mom screaming and crying while trying to clean and decorate the house to look like an Architectural Digest magazine photo (that literally just 4 people will see - myself, my husband, and my mom and dad). And then the shrieking and cursing that "NOBODY EVER HELPS!!!", and then the 4 of us sitting at the dinner table in awkward silence other than our forks clinking against our plates while we collectively try to ignore my mom silently seething and and starting to cry because someone hurt her feelings by making the wrong face or something.
No. 2269487
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>>2269401Yeah I am and it sucks. I can't wait to get out of this place and just be on my own away from all the bullshit. Even though it feels like I'm repeating all the same old mistakes, I know in the end this is just part of my journey towards a higher level of being. I hope your week gets better soon nona.
No. 2269490
>>2269177this is so insensitive kek
>>i feel so sad for all you losers who were unlucky in the lottery, but at least I'm happy with my perfect easy nigel!!!My nigel was also easy and close and told me we were soulmates, he still cheated
No. 2269492
To the anon who just complained about her BPD mother, this isn't about you, I don't doubt that she's awful, it's just an unfortunate coincidence that I was already coming here to complain about this.
Mother hate is something that bothers me in society. You don't see fathers being criticized half as much for being deadbeats and basically a second child that the mother has to raise. Even the most present fathers don't do half of the process of raising a child, but the bar for men is basically in hell in every aspect, so they get passes on every situation. The bar for women however is the opposite, it's unclearable. The most perfect mother will always be hated because she's the one who scolded you, corrected your behavior, and inevitable made mistakes when raising you. Fathers are only there for the good times: playing, eating at restaurants, going to parks. I wish people would be more discerning about the role of a mother and the cruelty of judging them in ways they would never judge a father simply because he's a man and men don't have to do anything to be admired and loved but women have to earn it every step of the way and will never be forgiven for their mistakes.
No. 2269501
>>2269318>>2269479I can relate to ayrt. Sometimes you're in a funk and anything just brings you down even more. I've had days where I just wanted to interact with people online, no one responded, and I felt ignored and unseen.
>>2269150I'll chat with you too nona.
No. 2269537
>>2269401YES
it feels like purgatory
No. 2269549
I have this codependent toxic but fond relationship with my ex bf. We broke up over a year ago. Shortly after the breakup, he sexually assaulted me. I went down an awful depression spiral costing me thousands in student loan debt due to repeating the year got really suicidal and self harming; in turn he ended up confessing to his friends and he fell out with all of them, had to move out of shared student apartment, got depressed etc. We had tumultuous daily contact where one day I'm telling him how much I hate him and how terrible he is for what he did and the next I'm telling him how I know he's a good person at heart, how much I appreciate him being there for me. He kind of cows, very apologetic and self hating about how he treated me. I'm lonely and addicted to the drama, I guess.
>Was I abusing him? He says his therapists thinks I was being very manipulative during this time period.
FF current day, we talk on and off. He's objectively a loser now, without going into too much detail. Lately he's less in love with me (up until the past few months he believed himself to still have feelings for me) and into this girl he is dating. I think he is well skilled at using muh wounded male mental health to get other bippie women to see him regularly and get their attention and acceptance to sustain him where his social life is otherwise severely lacking, but hey, maybe I'm just bitter my rapist-kun doesn't like me anymore. I wonder why? And then he offered her what I offered him, stay exclusive until one of us graduates and leaves first, for company and understanding otherwise not found elsewhere. This offended me because the offer only works because I know what he did - he is frightened of telling her and hasn't yet - and accept him wholly regardless, who better to say this than the victim of all people??? He told me there are a couple dates who found out what happened through female mutual social circles at college and ghosted him. I feel bad for kind of ruining his life and yet also want him to myself, at least he's an international student so he can return to a normal life in his home country, I just want him while he is here. Why do I do this? Am I the abuser be honest anons.
No. 2269577
>>2269549>I wonder why?Defense mechanism I guess. Feeling like he assaulted you because he just loves you so much is less painful than admitting that the assault is the main aspect of this issue, not his feelings for you.
>I feel bad for kind of ruining his lifeYou didn't. It hurts but you have to accept that you're a
victim. It's sucks to feel like you have no agency, but in that moment you truly didn't.
>yet also want him to myselfFocus on the rational side, look at the facts: He hurt you, he assaulted you, he was
toxic towards you after that. Your emotional side is trying to justify and spin a narrative in your mind, in order to override this you need to retrain it by focusing on your rational side.
No. 2269583
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I have a job and I work like a dog, but unless I find a better paying job I would really struggle to move out of my parents house. I search for a new job every other day, and I apply pretty indiscriminately but I still suffer for my sins of being alive. Haha…
No. 2269585
>>2269569 >>2269580
Obviously I can't give you the full play by play of everything but there is nothing I'm leaving out that I can logically reasonably say makes this my fault. I just feel that way. Oh but he did plant this seed, now that I think of it. He told me his
female therapist thinks its suspicious or odd that no authority, not the police or his university council, took my allegations seriously. As if that is my fault. But he said it so delicately, so ingenious (at least to my retard brain) he said, "probably has more to do with them than you though, she thinks" as if it has ANYTHING to do with me, but it got me thinking that some rational, objective, trained observer thinks I'm some liar. Talking about this is igniting my anger, thanks nona. I'm too ashamed to even tell my therapist about any of this.
>>2269575Ly nona, would love elaboration because I truly feel so strung out by everything that I can't think straight, I want to think myself out of this.
>>2269577Nona ily. You might be right.
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>>2269549>”women have the time to develop themselves and be in a relationship”>ok>reads this vent >picrel reaction Oh nonna… idk where to start with you but you’re just a goddamn mess. Hope you fix yourself up, nothing good comes when a scrote gets in the way of your education and success.
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>>2269605>fucckkkkkk I love sour candy Ily. What’s your favorite candy
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>>2269401I'm glad i'm not alone with this. I'm working hard to get myself back on my feet though. Today was relatively good after bringing myself back from a depressive episode.
No. 2269672
>>2269401This whole year has been a dumpster fire for me,just when I thought it couldn't get worse than 2023.
Please tell me I'm not the only one.
No. 2269678
>>2269490That sounds really traumatizing, Im sorry
nonny>>2269535Well actually our relationship is only so magical because he's the one who puts me on a pedestal KEK
No. 2269723
>>2269549you’ve been trauma bonded to a person using your attachment to him to manipulate you to believe he has already suffered enough internally and socially and romantically that you think he now deserves to move to a new country and live a new life after he literally raped you. he’s been manipulating you since he SA’d you.
>>2269585if he’s telling the truth, she’s terrible and a pickme for saying something so out of pocket. he might be manipulating you though. trying to make it out like he really did nothing wrong but is such a nice guy he believes you, even if authorities and his therapist don’t. he’s going to tell a really different version of these events someday.
No. 2269746
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a man will really spend his resources to fly all the way to your country for a week after months of convincing you to give him a chance just to give you the most underwhelming 2-minute sex of your life without even looking at you once and then tell you hes still 'numb' from his bpd ex and so he cant give you the affection you deserve (my ex literally killed our animals and tried to kill me for 3 years and i still got past that somehow to let you in my house but ok) and then after ALL that while im crying cus wtaf he'll be like 'its like my body put up this wall to protect itself…but behind that wall…is big love' i told him to shut up literally how dare he insert himself with such persistence into my life during a heavy transitional period just to go 'numb' the Literal Minute he got his dick wet and then like push me off him to shower afterwards and then tell me he was hung up on his ex
literally the 2nd man ive ever slept with other than my rapist ex btw horrific streak so far & im genuinely considering just cloistering myself
No. 2269780
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nonas i have the worst most throbbing toothache ever i dont think im gonna survive this
No. 2269802
>>2269672I’m in the boat with you nona
Someone pray for us
No. 2269878
>>2269841oh my god, any open wound in your mouth, especially any tooth with a hole in it, will introduce the alcohol
directly into your blood stream fuck you moron
No. 2270068
I feel ill all the time. My back and joints hurt, I feel dizzy, I have frequent stomach issues. I feel uncomfortable and unwell all the time. I'm very young (21) and thin (around 88lbs), although physically inactive. I don't know how to explain it but I have no energy to even try to exercise in order to help my pain/tiredness. I eat a lot, and I indulge on junk food often, so I'm not starving myself at all, even if I'm not the healthiest. I want to go to a doctor but they never take me seriously, even at the ER. I've gone to the ER thrice this year: once due to an hemorrhage (they didn't give a shit, I was put on birth control and told to get a blood transplant), another one because I was strangled by my abusive ex (just gave me some more pills and not much else), and the last time because I had bronchitis (they gave me an injection… and some pills.) Honestly, if they won't treat my near death experiences at the ER, why even bother making an appointment? Who would give a damn about some joint pain and headaches? I hate being a woman. They make me feel like a munchie even when I leave the waiting room covered in blood.
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I really wish you would just knock it off.
I can’t make you feel the way you want. I can’t be a man, nor be your father. You’re not gay, so stop flirting with me just to blow off steam. Just buy a vibrator at this point.
No. 2270240
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>>2270068I'm so sorry to hear how they've treated you Nonna… What you described sounds like your body has become so stressed your body is attacking itself like an autoimmune condition. I suggest having a blood test done for an autoantibody screen.
No. 2270329
>>2270282Kek I agree with you. Was it all cringe? Yep. But the tagging system was very nice. I'm still amazed they crippled it in recent years. I see a lot of "everyone knows the search on tumblr sucks" but it didn't used to be like that! Tumblr blogs are much easier to snoop than any other socmed, too. And of course the shift means customizing your tumblr theme has died out. (Did you know they lock your ability to use js? You must message staff with your blog, a copy of the code, and an explanation of what you want to do. For every single individual sideblog.)
The porn ban was so sad. Say what you will about tumblr autists, at least you could scroll an nsfw tag and have a great time beholding sped made horrors.
I did make a neocities because of the frustration kek. It was a good way to redirect the energy. Hope to see you in the smallweb thread soon, anon!
No. 2270456
>>2270068You should definitely try taking a multivitamin, vit D, and some iron and see if that helps. Believe it or not, but having vitamin deficiencies can make your body literally fall apart. I was having intense heart palpitations and my hair was falling out in chunks at one point. There was an anon a while back whose fingernails were coming apart because she was only eating bread.
Keep us updated, I hope you feel better soon
No. 2270466
>>2270456She should start eating actual food that has the necessary micro and macro nutrients
Sure, supplements are a welcome crutch, but if she keeps having a shit diet she will keep feeling like shit
No. 2270473
>>2270466Anon, she says she indulges on junk food, not that she only eats junk food. She was clearly establishing that she is not anachan
>I eat a lot, and I indulge on junk food often, so I'm not starving myself at allI think you are being aggressive and a bit rude to her. She needs help, not you judging her eating habits we have only passing info on.
No. 2270488
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>>2257492finally took my id photo, i stood outside from 7 am and was the first one standing in line. no more excuses for these lazy ass workers saying that it's too late or that the system isn't reflecting the change cause i know that it is. i was prepared to chimp out but it wasn't needed this time.
i also look quite good in the photo, i expected worse, since i look like a hemifacial microsomia
victim. i feel positive
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>>2270496kekkk i laughed at school shooter mugshot, i wish passports were cheaper so you could change your photo easily. and i'm not photogenic either, i practiced in the mirror like a retard for the entire week to at least register as human. i looked like picrel on my last one
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Oh my fucking god, I hate late people. People that are a few minutes late are okay, but this doordash tard is straight up twenty fucking minutes late with what's supposed to be my brunch for my break at work. My break is about to end in fifteen minutes, and this bitch is still nowhere near my fucking job. I fucking hate late bitches. I hate doordash drivers.
No. 2270752
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I'm so tired all the time. It doesn't matter if I sleep 6, 8, or 14 hours, I still wake up tired and have to force myself to get up.
Fuck this sleepy life I hate it.
No. 2270802
>>2270752i feel you, idgaf about doing anything else but sleeping. That being said, I dont think im depressed.
We both should maybe get a blood test done lol
No. 2270870
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I overheard guy that I like talking shit about me and making fun of me with together with another woman
i was nothing but nice to both of them
No. 2270884
>>2270870I had this happen to me too so I told them to fuck off and never talk to me again even though it was "just a joke". People are assholes no matter, sorry
nonnie you experinced that
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Why do people on Discord get so pissed when I leave their server? I'll leave a server because I'm bored with it, but there's no point in me announcing to everyone that I'm bored with their discussions (or lack thereof)
We aren't automatically friends because I was in your server for a couple weeks, I have told you nothing about my personal life, I avoided VC even when I was online, I never go out of my way to communicate beyond a casual level, what else is there to say? Do I have to outright tell people that I just because I'm not mean to them, that doesn't make us friends? Do they want me to be harsh like that so they can vilify me instead of wondering why I left? I've tried out telling people that I left their server because I didn't feel motivated to chat in it anymore (phrased just like that) and of course, they always went apeshit over it
It's not that I dislike people, or that I cut ties like that with actual friends, but I don't see the purpose in rationalizing anything I do to pixels on a screen from strangers I will never meet irl
Someone tried to pull the "it's the least you could do to explain why you left" Uhhh actually, the least I could do is just leave, it's your problem if you feel driven to psychoanalyze me over it
It's not being fake, it's Discord users projecting friendship onto me just because I give everyone a fundamental level of respect, and it gives me creepy cult vibes the way people I don't even know act out over a public server
I'm neurotypical btw
>>2270951That sucks, I hope that you don't have to toss your lotion
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i have really bad anxiety rn
No. 2271189
>>2270240Thanks nonna, I appreciate it. I asked my mom for support and she said she'd help me out if they don't take me seriously.
>>2270395>>2270456>>2270466>>2270473>>2270485I eat real food too, it's not like I only eat junk. And by junk food I mean crackers with cheese, a slice of cake, an occasional candy bar. Nothing too insane or excessive. I just meant to illustrate that I eat a treat a day, even though I have stomach issues/unusual weight loss. My nails and hair are perfectly fine, my skin looks okay, too, thankfully.
I should probably eat more meat and avoid crackers with cheese, they're just so nice… Like I'm not saying I eat perfectly, I should probably spend more time cooking balanced meals instead of a classic tuna rice, egg omelette, or quick salad.
>>2270505Aren't you a ray of sunshine?
I obviously meant near death experience when I was a
victim of attempted homicide, nonna.
I used the ER because I had emergencies, such a murder attempt. It's not like my ex and I scheduled.
And I meant that I didn't get proper treatment in the sense that they gave me pills but no proper treatment for the harm I got from strangling (which can be a lot to deal with, especially since I couldn't swallow!) and that they never diagnosed the cause of my hemorrhages or addressed the anemia caused by it, even during follow up visits.
No. 2271244
>>2271214ilikeitlots on pornhub
hes using a doll though i have yet to find a female gaze porn channel that actually features a female actress with the male actor
No. 2271300
>>2269129>>2270723I feel this. It sucks to know someone else can just draw something shitty or low effort and get all that attention so easily. I had some posts get slightly more likes than others and it always just feels totally random and hard to predict. It annoys me how people who are shit at anatomy and make the most retarded proportions can get tons of attention on their stuff too if they just render it well enough or something. And how popular really badly drawn coomslop is.
>>2269150I actually don't mind when people don't reply to me on this site (usually it's just to start infights anyway) but I can see where you're coming from because I also just feel like people use me for whatever they want to talk about and then don't give a shit when I want to talk about my own stuff or engage with it at all. I relate on being ignored ruining my mood too, even when it's something small. It does feel like life is just 99% feeling bad like you described with barely any happy feelings that always get randomly and inevitably trampled. To the point that whenever I'm feeling "happy" in the slightest I'm already expecting it to be ruined soon after and get scared of how I'm just going to go back to feeling like shit.
No. 2271304
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I miss being able to enjoy things. Nothing I used to enjoy gives me the same child-like wonder and excitement that it used to. I literally don't feel anything about anything that I used to be into. Late stage depression + adulthood sucks.
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>>2271304Me too. I used to be super into anime and lots of other media and be so excited for them and look forward to things coming out and it would help me get through my days, but now I barely care and take forever to read/watch things. Cute Kasumi picture btw, didn't expect to see her here.
No. 2271319
>>2271274Could be something simple like a pinched nerve or sciatica. Could also be something more serious. But you're doing the best thing you can do at this moment, which is get it looked at so you can work on it as fast as possible. You're not ignoring the problem, and that's already positive.
I hope it's something simple nona, but even if it's not, try to focus on the fact that you're treating it as early as you can.
No. 2271357
>>2271317With anime, I haven't really been into any in years to be honest. My main interest has been VNs, since I like to read. But I've been dropping even those left and right nowadays due to severe anhedonia. Well, there is food. It is probably one of the last things I can still enjoy. I've become some kind of foodie recently as I often watch food videos and constantly want to eat out.
>Cute Kasumi picture btw, didn't expect to see her here.Thank you, she is my favorite MLA character!
No. 2271414
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I’m crying because this world sucks. Whenever you have something it wants to rip everything away from you. It wants almost nobody to succeed but those who already come from rich families. I’m practically dealing with all of my problems alone. It really is just me vs the world. I have nobody. There is no lessons to learn from this, this just feels like cruel and unusual punishment. People who do shit way worse than me get everything in the world and when I want to rebel against retardation I am punished. I don’t have boyfriend problems and I’m not a mother or a wife therefore I barely exist as a woman, my problems aren’t considered and only seen through my selfishness. Being a single woman is worse than being a mother.
No. 2271419
>>2271414i hear you. i do want to gently perhaps offer you some advice, and to me it sounds like you are going through a depression of some sort. please realize that you have worth in this world even if you don't have a romantic partner. i understand that it seems like the world hates single women, but i promise you that it also hates partnered up women too. there are men who beat their gfs and cheat on their wives and everyone pardons the man while blaming the
victim. the world is hostile to you because sadly, this is still a man's world.
No. 2271429
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I keep pacing around, my mind keeps racing, and I'm not eating. I've blocked phone numbers and deleted social media accounts because I don't want anyone to reach out to me. I hate feeling scared and guilty for no reason, all day long. But then there's the what if I actually do deserve to feel this way. I sound so self-involved. I know the answer is less caffeine and internet, and obviously not pushing people away. I wish the sun didn't set at fucking 4pm.
No. 2271441
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I won't truly be happy until I see the day when animal abusers are sent to detention camps. I'm not kidding when I say I want some (many) people to die for what they've been doing.
Forever praying for mass graves until we can successfully cleanse humanity of zoosadists and rapists. Maybe they can be used for vivisection instead of animals.
No. 2271443
>>2271424the reasons are more complicated than that, i'm afraid. people might mistreat you because they themselves have some kind of issue with themselves. but instead of reflecting on what the fuck's wrong with them, they target you and make themselves feel better by making you miserable. its a tale as old as time tbh. the happiest people i've known never put other people down, if anything, they enjoy uplifting people and make people feel good.
i used to have thoughts about myself like you do with yourself right now, but i recognize that it becomes an addiction with seeing myself with such a harsh way. misery can feel almost too good to quit, but it has to be done. and you deserve to be happy, nonita.
No. 2271460
>>2271443thank you so much for your replies anon, it really made feel a little bit better and less alone. ♥ i wish we could be friends
>>2271453sadly a lot of those people have supportive families, especially if they are male. males get the ultimate passes for being shitty useless parasites because he may be an asshole but hey, at least he brings money to the table for these people which sucks. your value as a woman is how much shit you can produce, breed, and how passive and compassionate you can be. daughter-mom relationships have absolutely eaten up my entire soul… i don’t think therapy (which ive gone to during high school) can even fix it.. your first enemy and first betrayal happens with your own mom. and then if you have a sister you’re very close with you eventually lose her when she moves away and it makes me sad. i just want a close connection with someone, someone to actually make me feel alive.. i’ve felt like an animatronic my entire life. dissociated and excluded from everything. a literal phantom being everywhere i go… ive even delved into spirituality to fill in the gap but there’s nothing there too, these gods and spirits don’t care either. it makes me really sad
No. 2271471
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I'm in hospital for suspected pelvic inflammatory disease and I think I have aminoglycoside induced hearing loss, which is permanent. I'm waiting for the doctor to come to my room so I can ask what kind of antibiotics they gave me. If I end up losing my hearing I genuinely think I will kill myself. To whoever is reading this, never ever let a doctor prescribe you this shit.
No. 2271502
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The astrological report I bought just arrived and fuck, it's negative on marriage and relationships. At best, friendship is the trend. But no marriage, no anything. I want love.
I am depressed again, anger rising.
No. 2271506
>>2271502Samefag
The thought of others getting to experience what I can't. Most marriages are shit and nothing but I still want something good
No. 2271690
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The more I shop for makeup, the more I hate it because 99% of the "before" pictures look better than the "after" pictures.
No. 2271702
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>>2271683Sitting target
Sitting, praying
God is saying
Nothing
Nothing
No. 2271770
>>2271659Fandom discourse thread (#25). It's because the yume weirdos keep reigniting the goddamn infight since asshurt anons can't stop themselves from taking fucking bait. The thread got a warning from a farmhand kek
>>>/ot/2270782It's been 14 hours, but I guess everything is still locked down.
Wanted to let anon know that one of the writers was voicing the love interest in a podcast, and it was meant to be temporary until there was an available VA bc the character wasn't prominently featured yet anyways. It wasn't a case of being forced into "woke casting" by sperg fans like anon assumed. No. 2271781
Total and complete dumb rant bullshit incoming.
My boyfriend is making me want to rip my face off. Yes, annoying, I am aware. I try to share his interests. Anger. I try to be sober. Anger. Job. Anger. No job, anger. Drink with him? Anger. Sex seems to be a big issue, but it doesn’t solve anything, he’s still mad. Clean, mad. Not clean, mad. Hang with people? Mad. Isolate? Mad. Sleep next to him at night, mad I’m looking at my phone. Sit in living room while he sleeps; oh he’s mad. Nothing fixes anything. Like really, seriously, what do they want. I see all this bullshit from everyone everywhere say this and that about men. Really at this point what the fuck is wrong with them. Am I supposed to be a mindless doll. Anything about being a normal human seems to piss him off. At this point I barely remember how to work this website, I just don’t a single fucking person to talk to because I’m too fucking old to anymore to be a dramatic whining bitch. And there’s no one that would even listen in my personal life anyways.
(This still feels like an abyss, with maybe some angry ass woman that will tell me to stfu, which is welcomed)
Who’s care, this is literally such annoying garbage bullshit. I wish I had anything else to do with my life but it’s currently filled with making sure some 26 year old dick picker had something for dinner every night. And the catch is! I can’t get myself to not care.
Somebody fucking shoot me.
No. 2271805
>>2271800I know he's still abusing her even if he isn't hitting her, but wouldn't it be more practical for her to save up money and try to achieve financial independence so she can get her own home? Instead of going to a woman's shelter and dealing with all those difficulties + troons? It's much easier to job hunt and persist from a warm bed and stable housing with meals. She can move out once she finds something sustainable.
>>2271784Other anon is correct, you should really be trying to leave asap. It will be a nightmare if he decides he wants to get you pregnant.
No. 2271815
>>2271768no sorry
nonnie im in central north island :( im actually graduating next week!
(integrate) No. 2271853
>>2271781I’ll never get women like you, you’re supposed to always love yourself more than a scrote. Men have no qualms in leaving immediately at the first sign of difficulty, you shall do the same kek. If a man isn’t bettering your life and if removing them from your life is actually better you do that with hesitation.
>He cheats? You leave
>He’s always mad? You leave
>he’s dirty?You leave
>he doesn’t eat your pussy?You leave
>he doesn’t have a job or loses his job?You leave
>but I love him nonna!Love passes, time makes you forget anything.
I’m straight too so I’m not saying this from a different pov.
No. 2271924
>>2266940your bf won't let you kick out a guy who breaks your stuff and does things that make you uncomfortable? i hate to say it
nonny but you should dump him, if he's ok with his friend's retarded and dangerous behaviour there's a high chance he'll end up like that himself.
No. 2271925
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You know, if men didn't exist, I doubt sex would be as demonized as it is in our society. Look at picrel, it's almost like moids know either consciously or unconsciously that their sexuality is inherently corrupted as it permeates their every thought with ill intent, then they project this corruption onto us and the very act of sex, they've portrayed women as these "succubus" and evil beings for millennia, even though they statistically and historically have been the ones with warped views on sex, to the point they fuck corpses, animals and kids, they're the sexually degenerate demons, they're the incubus, not us. Sex could be more than just corruption, shame and violence, most women want and seek sex not only for pleasure, but also for intimacy and connection, which are healthy concepts, moids are literally unable to do the same thing and they know they're inhuman for this very fact, that's why they blame us for "corrupting them" when their internal thought process is nefarious to begin with
No. 2271926
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I've bouts of neetdom although through out of my life but I've had phases of ultimate normiedom too.i dont like being a neet but my life circumstances has forced me too..I want to join the real world again because even online I cant assimilate I dont make friends delete accounts that get popular and get burnt out quickly…I feel like all my aspirations are dying and my willpower too everyone tells me I'm still young so I can make something of myself but I feel so old and obsolete..I've gotten job offers one would only dream of but I've squandered it…I know I have adhd but is life really supposed to be this hard with it? Why do I feel theres some major thing missing that I cant take the step to be finally a successful person? Am I doomed to be a neet? Did burying all that mental and physical trauma did the opposite for me and made me shut down? I dont know anymore and I'm tired so fucking tired of trying again and again
No. 2271928
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>>2271925>Pregnant women don't bleed, but women who haven't been insemnated DO! COINCIDENCE?!Nobody tell him. This level of actual unironic retardation is hysterical. I hope he schizo's himself into never reproducing.
No. 2271936
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TODAY is the concert of a band that I want to see since 2019 but every DAMN TIME there is something that stopped me or them to make it happen. So I was hype that today I would finally see them live because it the fourth or fifth attempt to see them in concert, even got my day off today to have chill day and what happens? A huge train accident happens this night on the railroad line, which means that almost all trains are cancelled for a few days. I have no car, nobody to drive me there, all busses to this town are of course booked, so are other options of people who offer a ride to the town LIKE FUCK THIS I'm so upset and mad about it reeeeeeeeee
I have currently a shitty time and looking forward towards this concert was the only thing that kept me going.
No. 2271946
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I read horror stories about bed bugs and now I'm so fucking paranoid that I will finally clean my whole apartment.
No. 2271973
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in that state where i need to get shit done but im too anxious to starting doing it so i procrastinate which makes it worst.
No. 2272020
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my partner is great except the fact they snore. it isn't just snoring, it's cartoonishly loud, wall rattling snoring partnered with violently tossing and turning and sleep talking. i would do anything for a good nights sleep cuddling with my beloved
No. 2272136
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I bumped into some guy's truck and broke my dad's sideview mirror. the guy let me go but I still have to pay for the mirror. I have not gotten any interviews or offers from the wagie jobs I applied to. And I got a cold. And I'm getting discharged from the army. Probably a good thing but it's the only thing that's given me a chance (and a paycheck) despite my retardation (evidenced my lack of ability to even get a fucking retail job, PLEASE give me an offer what the fuck) I have to wait months until I can reenlist. home depot please call me back
No. 2272176
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>>2271925KEK oh my fucking god
No. 2272412
>>2272320ty nona, I'll keep trying not to take it personally and ignore the mean girls
>>2272295no
No. 2272413
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I wish there was a human remote control to completely mute and silence another human being. That fat tard right across me yaps like a fucking chihuahua on his shitbox vidya machine like it’s a job while being jobless, broke and disgusting. I absolutely hate males with all of my life and I wish for them to all be eradicated, I have to prevent myself from crashing into that room and smashing that stupid fucking tv/scrotebox/scrotecomputer whatever the fuck it is into unrecognizable pieces of scrap metal and slam his stupid face into the ground. I do desperately want a fucking war and obligatory draft for males only. All of my problems could be fixed by committing a crime honestly.
No. 2272447
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>>2270536This reminds me of like 2 weeks ago when I ordered my usual patented Chipotle bowl. I order doordashed Chipotle religiously from the same Chipotle that's a few blocks away/in the next neighborhood over. I'm like a "phantom regular", I don't go inside but my name must pop up on the order request screen or whatever so often they have to know me right?? I get the same fucking bowl every time. Last time I ordered the same thing and they gave a me a fucking burrito/wrap. I almost threw up on the spot and got it refunded but I went on a personal little strike from it for these past weeks (which made me realize that's the #1 thing i get from doordash and that i should start cooking at home and now i have more money so actually a win) but the fact that it happened pissed me off and I even texted the driver afterwards. Though I assume they didn't know because they didn't look in the bag/tamper with my food so I guess I can't be mad.
To this day I assume it was some kind of dig against me specifically and that it was some kind of warning/telling me not to order from them anymore because they don't like me sending them an order or something (???). It can't be that hard to make a white rice, steak, cheese, lettuce, pico/tomato, bowl with literally nothing else. No drink or chips or anything. some fucking retarded imbecile put it in a burrito instead and honestly i still plan to schedule a pick up instead of a delivery one day for the location so I can walk in and say my name and see who reacts the most
(and if I'm their personal microcelebrity) and end them.
No. 2272504
>>2272493Sorry, I should have put it behind a spoiler. Like I said, some people like it, maybe you won't find it as gross as I do.
>>2272496The moid I'm currently sleeping with does drink a LOT of soda which probably contributes to the smell, but otoh some people are probably just more sensitive to it.
The texture though, even if that can be changed with diet, I don't think I'll ever be able to withstand it.
No. 2272505
>>2272469Ewww, I remember when my ex would cum it would separate into a white part and a clear part. One time I tried to clean it off of him with a tissue I wanted to gag because of the way it was separating as it dripped down his torso. I stopped after the first time because it made me queasy.
>>2272496Yeah if a man is healthy is very neutral and maybe a bit salty, much like how vaginal discharge is. If a man's cum smells maybe it's time to break up. So nasty.
No. 2272574
TW this is really gross
>>2272540Jesus christ, I never had the cum-in-eye experience but just the though of little sperm cells swimming around on my eye is nightmarish. Actually the concept of sperm cells is also so fucking disgusting. Imagine them writhing around in your mouth, in contact with yout tongue.
(integrate) No. 2272616
>>2271853didnt read the other post but how do you expect your relationship to last with this kind of mindsey where any mistake is a killer?
honest question, please try to answer honestly, because i do think men are awful to date for the most part and i'm actually wondering how you draw the line without being too abrasive
No. 2272636
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>>2272584Imagine almond skins with a slightly metallic aftertaste, but mixed with the smell of Elmer's glue and a similar texture.
No. 2272665
>>2272493being a virgin is actually based
i should never have lost my virginity, sex fucking sucks, i had it like twice then never again and never wanted it because fapping is much better
that's how bad it sucks
No. 2272688
>>2272665Being a virgin is only based if you want to be one. Otherwise it's just neutral. If good looking men with decent personalities existed and if I weren't terrified of an unwanted pregnancy or STDs or my insane religious family finding out somehow that I had sex I would have had sex already at that point, I'm still a virgin because I don't want to lower my expectation just to say I'm not a virgin anymore with all the risks associated to it.
>because fapping is much betterI barely feel anything these past few years, no clue why.
No. 2272726
>>2272540Ew, in order to taste like a normal person you just need a proper diet. I’ve only given bjs twice and both of them had impeccable taste as in it tasted like nothing, I don’t think anyone has genitals that taste yummy anyway , neutrality is what you shall aspire.
If you entertain scrotes who play video games 24/7, who only drink monster drinks , who smoke and have a gut it’s on you if you get battery acid on your tongue kek.
No. 2272727
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>goes outside
>decides to go and walk to the store like I always do
>stupid fucking cracked out scrote with his piece of shit dogs in the way just standing in one of the pathways
>curses at me because I clearly said “keep your dogs away from me” because they were growling and getting near me despite me walking around them
>stupid fucking scrote yells at me saying “hey don’t walk around that way on the grass because there’s dog shit littered all over that place”
>this is a place where you’re required to use those green baggies to use pick up after your dog’s shit
>ofc they didn’t do that
>he calls me a bitch
>and I yell at him back
>I get all up in his face
>so close to throwing hands on that stupid annoying retard
>just terrible and shitty experience
I risked my life yelling at a scrote while already having a shitty day enough as it is. That stupid thing already looked cracked and doped out with his stupid tiny chihuahuas so who knows what fucking weapons he could’ve had, scrotes are so annoying and dangerous and I seriously hate them all. And now I’m crying after all of that yelling, I seriously hate this world.
No. 2272744
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>>2272738>Being a virgin for a man means nothing I disagree. If sex feels better for a man than for a woman, then it shows even greater character to be willing to turn down sex. Of course, this doesn't apply to incels who want to have sex but can't.
No. 2272745
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>>2272717Those asshole shocks are always deadly. They get me like this each time.
No. 2272754
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I MISS YOU I MISS YOU I MISS YOU I MISS YOU I MISS YOU. i try to be okay with how things are now but it sucks. you suck.
No. 2272822
>>2272801When I had braces I liked the pain it gave me kek. I was always excited when I would go to the dentist to tighten them.
Not in the sexual way though , I want to clarify that.
No. 2272824
>>2272807Some people can only afford braces once they’re older, classic or invasilign. It’s actually a privilege to have your braces paid by your parents.
My mom paid for mine and it was 3K euro, I kept them for 5 years.
No. 2272830
>>2272822i could really use being a little masochistic kek
>>2272825wish i had gotten them younger tbh. being broke and a burgerfag without healthcare is the worst
No. 2272838
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I am trying to use the 333 technique to calm and ground myself and stop flying off the handle. I'm a calm and normal woman in typically typical situations. In an atypical situation why should I be forced to calm myself and not get crazy on some dickhead. I'm doing my best here to not bite out your jugular through your neck and you give me no such curtesy. However I'm the bad guy if I respond to you're rudeness in kind.
Fuck scrotes, fuck trams, double fuck taxis run by scrotes etc.
I'm drunk and pissed off fuck them all
No. 2272881
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Today my moid texted me asking me when we will live together, and I cried because I really don't want to.
He's good (by scrote standards) and he says he loves me, yet I feel trapped inside the relationship. I feel like I can only tolerate him in small doses. Usually I go visit him for the weekend and then go home. I absolutely dread the thought of living with him, of coming home to him every afternoon, of spending too much time with him. He's asked to visit me many times, and I made up every excuse in the book (my parents are visiting, I have ants in my kitchen, i have to renovate first, my home is disorganized) to try to stop him from coming over for the weekend, because my space is Mine. I need my own space and I don't want to share it with anyone, even for a night. But he thinks I must be hiding something or probably live with another guy because I only let him visit for a few hours max.
I know this relationship is bad for my mental health but I hate the thought of being alone. But maybe I was meant to be alone. Maybe being alone is better than being stressed, unhappy, and slowly dying on the inside.
This is my first "real" relationship, and it taught me that I probably can't handle being in relationships after all. I'm 26 years old and somewhat of a late bloomer. My only previous "relationship" was with a obese abusive scrote twice my age who never loved me and was only using me for sex. This guy I'm dating now is conventionally attractive, age appropriate, and actually seems to care about me, and he's probably the best I'm going to get, because I'm plain faced, slightly chubby, and socially awkward, so I can't let him go because I may never find another. I'm autistic too, which makes dating really hard because I don't really understand things like appropriate amounts of affection to show, or how to "act feminine"/relationship gender roles. Plus, masking and trying to act like a normie is wearing me down a lot, but if I ever let my guard down and acted too autistic, I'd be ridiculed. Which is why I think I'm not cut out for relationships after all, I should just embrace the loneliness and enjoy my sperg hobbies: woodworking, model trains, vintage computers, 70s outlaw country music, Nascar, and math.
In conclusion I think I need to break up with my scrote, but sometimes I think that maybe I can put up with it. I'll never be able to live with someone else because I need my own space. Masking 24/7 would become too taxing on me. I love him but I just can't do it anymore. But maybe pain is the price of not being lonely….
No. 2272889
>>2272845you're right and yeah thank god i don't have to get crowns. that shit sounds painful from what i've heard
>>2272859>>2272875thanks
nonny. i guess i'll just have to get used to them and good thing i don't really eat curry kek
No. 2272949
>>2272940It's been down:
>>1529567Join us.
No. 2272954
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I fucking hate my roommates so much. I also hate how my past friendgroup is. My roommates are two fat disgusting moids. It used to be myself, one fat ugly moid, and my female friend. The fat ugly moid is her close friend and I didn't mind living with him at first even though he is kind of embarrassing. He is a D&D and Magic the Gathering player and is basically the epitome of ugly Reddit scrote. living with him was tolerable at first but it's now become a fucking nightmare. she moved out and his best friend moved in, two fat ugly gangly moids. they are dirty, barely do dishes or clean. i do most of the vacuuming even though his retarded cat destroys everything including our furniture, but my cat is the only one who is registered on the lease so i will get the flack for it even though she does not scratch furniture. they are both passive aggressive towards me for asking them to do basic shit but all they do is get high and sit on their fat asses all day. as for my friend group, i've come to realize as i'm maturing that they are all fucking retarded. the female friend in question i was living with is genuinely tiktok brain rotted and intolerable as is her retarded philosophyfag boyfriend. i fucking hate them all so goddamn much. there's so much more but i hate all of them, and they keep letting coomer faggots into their friendgroup. i left their discord server i used to play games on because they invited a fucking strip club manager. i literally hope they all die so bad
No. 2272959
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I hate artificial HEATERS it’s 45 degrees outside it’s perfect. I hate the heater in the car. I’m so hot. I wanna roll the window down and put my face out like a dog. I was so hot I took my shoes and socks off and my pants. If I could take my shirt off I would. I want an ice pack. It’s like 60 degrees in this car and the artificial heat makes me feel like it’s 80 in here. Why is artificial heat so disgusting? Why are people pussies? 45 degrees is beautiful. I keep putting my face and hands against the cold window cause I can’t roll it down cause my bf is all cold and shit. I think I have hyperthyroid cause I’m burning up and feeling heat sickness. I hate heaters!!!!! Just wear clothes!!!! It’s not even freezing outside it’s 45!!! I keep being like plz let me roll the window down for a breath. I’m so hot and uncomfortable. I hate this!!!! I hope the heater breaks!!!
>inb4 ur fat
I’m actually clinically underweight! My bf is the cold pussy and he’s overweight! LET ME BE AN ICE QUEEN the furnace burns inside me!!’
No. 2272968
>>2272800Hey
nonnie, I'm really sorry to hear you are struggling. Have you ever talked to her about this? What did she say if you did? Some people like to pick on the visibly weaker friends of the group, whether that's socially or emotionally. When more than one person gets like this, they pick a friend to collectively shit on "jokingly". This happened to me and other anons on this site.
But it sounds like you have a few friends in this group who support you and have even tried to give you advice. The first thing I'd recommend is putting time aside to hang out with them one on one. We should always strive to cultivate better relationships in our lives.
There are a number of ways we can try to fix things with your problem friend, but you mentioned that you really like her and it hurts when she doesn't like you in return. Sometimes, there will be people in our lives who we should be friends with, they've done nothing wrong, and they like us. But for some reason we just can't make ourselves like them. And that's okay. Nobody on this earth was made for each other and that's what makes us all unique. So don't worry about it if friendship with her doesn't work out. You should let people out of your life if they don't fit in it, and welcome people in who do.
No. 2272977
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I’m so tired. I worked so hard this week but I had to submit an assignment 25 minutes past the deadline so I am getting a deduction. I had the day mostly free but I was so exhausted I slept for about 14 hours and could bring myself to do nothing until 9pm. If I had started an hour or even 30 minutes earlier I would have submitted it in time. I’m tired of always disappointing myself but I am exhausted on a foundational level and cannot being myself to do literally anything. I’m only hurting myself and the opportunities others have fought to give me. Maybe if it was just me I wouldn’t feel as bad but I hate that I am hurting them too.
No. 2273018
old lady that works where i did my internship texted me yesterday and i refuse to open the message. maybe my anger is misdirected but i don't care. i hate that these people still try to keep in contact with me. they said they would call me to offer me a job back in june and that never happened kek. during my almost four months there i did a shit ton of stuff, i even had to teach this old lady how to send a fucking email or use excel but she has a job and i don't because of her political affiliations? what a fucking joke. im not opening her shit message, she'll probably ask me to go visit them, or try to set me up with her compsci piece of shit son, go to hell.
i had a feeling they wouldn't call me after an argument with the boss, so when i left i stole some gel pens and hardcover notebooks as payback.
there's this other 39 year old suicidal fat bug eyed moid who still texts me but i ignore him. i'm convinced he liked me and was trying to groom me. can you get groomed as a young adult? that's what it felt like. you are weird and your daughter is four years younger than me. he would act so weird and buy me linzer cookies everyday cause they're my favorites, bought me a the smiths shirt out of nowhere and invited me to a morrissey concert which ended up being canceled like 20 days after meeting eachother. he was asphyxiating. whatever, now he texts me trying to talk about conspiracy theories kek. fuck you, you utter subhuman. you were not being kind, i know what you were trying to do and you're creepy as fuck. im glad i told him he was norwood 3 and created a new insecurity for him
whatever, point is: i want people from that place to stop speaking to me, if you're not going to give me a job then what's the point of keeping contact? i am broke and every souce of income i had has been stripped away from me and you want me not to be hateful? i don't want to be friends i want MONEY. YOU ARE CREEPY LEAVE ME ALONE LEAVE ME ALONE LEAVE ME ALONE
my mom thinks im being weird for not wanting to speak to them, especially to the latter but it's because she doesn't know how weird he was
No. 2273057
>>2272881I'm in exactly the same boat as you nonna. I grew up in an
abusive home where I wasn't allowed to even have a door and now that I finally got my own place at age 25 the last thing I want is for someone to come into My Space. Maybe for other people who've had their autonomy and their space respected their entire lives they're ready by their 20s to give that up and share it with another person. I'm not. My moid is very understanding of it but he is also autistic and if it bothered him, he would never tell me. I also need to break up with him but he's the only one who respects my history of abuse and is ok with me being completely celibate. All of this to say there are men out there who will respect your need for your own space, maybe some who even like having their own space too. Relationships are contracts for mutual aid and support and aren't meant to completely invade your life if you don't want them to, that's the advantage of female sexual liberation.
No. 2273136
>>2273121With my female coworkers, he only talks abt lab-related work with them but he said some pretty misogynistic stuff to an undergrad who had come for the summer. Before she left
she had told me that he said to her face that women were lesser than men because they're weak and emotional and followed it up with but don't get mad at me those are just the facts. He keeps it work-related with my male coworkers too, but I guess it's because I'm new??
No. 2273139
>>2273136It's because you didn't set professional boundaries and keep engaging with his retarded debates
>I need to talk to himYeah, about work
No. 2273205
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>>2272881Relatable, this is why I don't date, an anon was sad because she wanted to see her bf more than once a week and I couldn't help but think "that's already too much for me". I also have this weird shit where I need to compartmentalize every relationship in my life and the perspective that a partner would have to meet my parents or my friends makes me panic.
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I had a happy dream about my old best friend in which we were having fun like we used to and talking with each other about anything and everything. She was being very loving and nice to me. I was so sad when I woke up and realised it was just a dream. I really want another female best friend like her, someone I'm that close with again, but I've never managed to have a friendship like that again even though I desperately want it. I'm afraid that I'll never be able to get over her.
When we last spoke, she told me that even though she has and will always love me, that she doesn't "need" me anymore and it hurt so fucking much. Meanwhile I feel like I still "need" her. I've never been able to connect and be that close with anyone else again, even though I've been trying and I'd like to.
That being said, months ago now I saw that she randomly sent me a friend request on steam. But steam also shows that she hasn't been online since then (and I don't think steam told me when she even sent that). I feel like I'm always waiting for someone that won't even arrive. We haven't spoken in years. At the very least it means she thought of me.
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>struggled all my life with finding a style where I feel like I look good
>feel like a poser in most types of outfits and aesthetics
>one day I just happened to put together my only pair of "boyfriend sized" jeans and oversize t-shirt when I was lounging around at home
>stares at myself in the mirror
>dang, out of everything I'm one of those women that REALLY pulls off the oversized outfit style
>I'm almost 2m tall, finding anything that keeps it oversize or long fit on me that isn't something super basic is close to impossible
>fml
No. 2273243
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I've been staring in the mirror and things feel off. Like really staring, I can count the pores on my nose level of staring. I've tripped before and it's kinda like that but not quite.
I think I'm getting jamais vu. I'm happy to get a new experience but I hope this is a temporary thing and it doesn't mean I've fully lost it.
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>>2273248A kinder world made of chocolate?
No. 2273255
>>2272688you only want sex because youre a virgin
if fapping doesnt make you feel much, having sex will make you feel even less
i remember how bad i wanted to try and have sex back wheni was a virgin (and didn't go through for the same reasons as you), because i thought the "real thing" was going to be 10x better, turns out it's 10x worse (without even accounting for the risks)
No. 2273265
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>tfw trannies ruin everything
My beloved Ulala, even these dickwounds couldn’t keep their grubby little moid hands away from you.. I’m sorry
No. 2273279
>>2273275And that's totally fine, great even, I just hate to see women who haven't experience sex at all be told it's worthless because some anons have slept with people who didn't care enough about them to make them feel loved and satisfied.
>>2273276They're right - sex with strangers will be terrible, do not do it. Don't rush it, you've got your entire life to experience sex and whoever your future man might be, if you know he cares about you, no doubt you'll have a good time.
>>2273277You felt no arousal? Stop sleeping with ugly men.
No. 2273392
>>2273377none! itll just hurt a lot and you'll get permanent damage and not even die. im sorry that you feel like you want to do that and i hope the feeling passes soon for you…
>>2273381genuinely the only thing shitty parents are good for is giving you money, soo i would take the offer personally. and housing is so expensive rn. you could always just block or ignore her later
No. 2273402
>>2270994that is the truth.
its everyones birthright to talk shit on the internet, but we wuold be damned if we take it for face value.
just remember what those did during the rona, drinking bleach, snorting baking powder with basil, buying magnetic finger rings off facebook to "redirect" the virus. the internet is the marketplace in mediavel times. anyone can hop on a soap box and claim their chickepox have been cured by eating sox. who in their right minds follow the recipe.
>>2270883that is covering the top 2 of my living, breathing nightmare fuel. last workplace was that exploitative and im not going to sign for a sweatshop no more.
No. 2273414
>>2273381>forever I have news for you, people die
In all seriousness, in whose name is the apartment going to be? If it's in yours, hell yeah.
If it's in her name, you can still accept and move if things between you become too sour.
If it's split property, uh-oh. If you own part of an apartment you need the permission of the other owner to sell or do anything with it. It ties you up together in a legal way and
No. 2273434
>>2273414I know girl I'm worried she will string me along until she's sick and I'll have to be a caretaker. She's hinted at it before
I think her name would have to be on it
No. 2273449
>>2273381It depends, in whose name will the apartment be?
If in yours, hell yeah
If in hers, you can still move out anytime
If it's joint property, uh-oh. If you own a part of an apartment you will need approval from the other owner of you want to sell or do literally anything with your part, like rent out or upgrade. It ties you together legally and you can end up in long drawn out expensive court battles if you end up disagreeing.
At least this is the case in my country, I strongly advise you to look up local property laws if you are financing it together
No. 2273561
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>waiting on street to be picked up
>heavy foot traffic
>car full of uggo moids drives past
>they open a window and scream "HOW MUCH?" at me repeatedly
>Everyone near me laughs
>Mfw
No. 2273686
sewing patterns overlap. so you got to follow your own size, but the more sizes, the more challenging it becomes to follow your unique pattern. and lets say you can trace your own line, once you realize those other lines are not arbitrary, you can not blend them out easily. everything is made of patterns.
>>2271072if my heart gets broken, can you pls take him?
No. 2273775
>>2273560baby you don’t need to do any of that shit. there’s a problem in your life and it isn’t you. i didn’t believe i could live a good life and i am living a better life than i could have ever imagined. and i regret trying to kill myself when i was young. it was incredibly traumatic to live through and you can’t tell anyone you know that because you did it to yourself and it makes you feel stupid and like everything is all your fault. i recommend figuring out what in your life you need to escape from and escaping it. i wasn’t trying to end my life i was trying to escape my life and i thought that was the only way and it wasn’t. it was the worst way. i could have been happier years sooner. cut out every single person who has ever hurt you. you need to get a place of your own and it seems impossible and it took me years but you can. make those two things your singular focus and you’ll be standing in a clean space where you can relax and breathe cos no one is hurting you in like two months flat with enough determination. you can do it. you’re literally thinking you can put a gun to your head and pull the
trigger, you can absolutely get a job and work it long enough to get a place. that’s so much easier than blowing your own brains out. can you imagine how disturbing your head will look? seriously imagine the bodily trauma. you don’t wanna do that. you want to relax in a nice soft spot in your own space with your things and a cute pet and some take out and watch a movie. you want to smoke weed and look at the stars and moon. you want to cuddle with someone and tell them everything you had to do to survive long enough to be in their arms and for them to tell you that you didn’t deserve any of that but they’re so glad you’re still there and didn’t take away their soulmate. you won’t get to get stoned and eat food ever again if you kill yourself. don’t get to go to the ocean. please just stay. it’ll be better soon.
No. 2273819
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>Only use IG for eye-candy
>Come across a seemingly attractive e-boy who also streams/posts vods
>Decides to check it out
>Obvious egregious content
>Click on one of them
>He looks and speaks more like a chimpanzee than Hasan
I audibly said "What the fuck" out loud and this straight up ruined my fucking day WTF
No. 2273825
>>2273779i love you and remember what joan of arc said: you say you are my judge, but i don’t believe you are. seriously do not let
abusive people tell ANY of you ANYTHING and do not leave this world to these abusers and scumbags and rapists.
No. 2273922
>>2270951Update:
I immediately stopped using the face lotion and the acne is calming down. I'm gonna wait another two weeks and then I'm giving it one more shot. I will be in shock if it really is the face lotion.
No. 2273951
>>2273936I'm so sorry nonna that you went through that I think I was very lucky to never seen that part of the internet for myself
because I saw my mums medical autopsy books instead so I wasnt exposed to that kind of cruelty. I hope you dont relapse again stay strong nona! You can crub this morbid addiction
No. 2273960
>>2271357Late reply but I prefer VNs to anime as well. I didn't know the word anhedonia (I'm ESL) but it kinda feels similar to me too now that I've looked it up. I don't like food very much nowadays, used to use it as comfort in the past but I stopped enjoying it. Nice that you still have that though.
>Thank you, she is my favorite MLA character!Same here, she's adorable.
No. 2274061
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Went to gym. Been having an off week. Go onto stairmaster and while putting my shit onto the little trays on the machine, manage to drop my keys INTO the machine. Have to go up front and bother the guy at the counter the help get my keys out. He's nice enough (probably super annoyed with me internally) and him and another guy manage to lift up the machine so I can get my keys from under it. I apologize to them and start working out on the same machine. The lady next to me keeps making rude comments like "I should have got my flashlight on my phone out for them sooner to see under the machine" and how she was "shaking her head" at me. Before she left she said, "have a good day. You seem to be having a good one, keep it up". Like she might have been joking with me or something. But most people would understand Im having a minor embarrassing situation going on, so fuck off and don't bother me about it. Im practically a recluse outside of work and small shit like this makes me wonder why I ever try going out anywhere else. Why do random people bother me out of nowhere. Like I cant have a positive interaction.
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>Meet moid
>Very cute, my type
>Younger than me
>Same humor
>Have really good chemistry and banter
>Remembers things about me and asks me questions
>Same interests
>Like being around him but gut feeling tells me something is off
>Realize he’s pulling away and being nervous around me but flirting with every other girl
>Has tons of female friends yet has been single for awhile
Disappointed but not surprised. He was too good to be true. Really weird that he acts all shy and reserved around me after some good conversations but whatever. One woman is never good enough for these types of moids, they’re just too insecure.
No. 2274085
>>2272968Unfortunately one time I tried to ask her about if she wanted me to see her less and she was evasive and told me that it's not that deep, so I don't want to try talking to her about it again even though others have confirmed it's not all in my head. I will try your other suggestions.
Thank you for writing such kindly considerate but also constructive things anon, it really helped to read. I have been feeling so low about it all that it meant a lot that someone would take the time to write a response like that, I wish you the best.
No. 2274104
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Why are they always so proud of their moids being gross, lazy and disappointing? What's the goal?
No. 2274168
>>2274061I feel like that lady was trying? to interact with you in a somewhat positive way, but clearly was too retarded to say something normal like "I hope your day is better than it has been" or "oh no, that's the worst situation to deal with when you're trying to work out!" and instead was like "i should have helped" and "shake mah damn head" lol
>>2274122LOL
Okay so… why do I feel like I am trapped in habits? I know that if I really, really wanted to, I could pile ten different layers of clothing on me, run out into the night screaming, and try and live off the land for as long as possible. But I also know how stupid that would be considering I have bills to pay and a cat to feed. But why do I still feel so trapped knowing that there is a spectrum of behavior from the most servile (following social norms and job requirements) to the most chaotic and insane? (acting on my every impulse, living in the woods until someone ousts me, driving to the edge of the state and staring into the ocean)
I just wish I wasn't such a little scaredy cat. My sibling travels all over the country for work. I'm older than him and I've been in the same state my entire life. Why can't I cut loose and just get my roommate to take care of my cat? What is my fucking damage?
No. 2274254
>>2274168You’re not damaged, it’s called having responsibilities. To yourself, to your cat, your roommate, your work. Your life won’t necessarily always be so mundane, eventually you might hit a point where things are chaotic and you long for these days of rote responsibilities.
Maybe the next time an opportunity presents itself to do something outside your comfort zone you should try it? Or seek it out? Maybe you’d benefit from just romanticizing your life and stopping to smell the roses? Maybe you just need a hobby nonna?
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I just want to quit just kill me already I hate this fucking job. But I also don't want to be a bitch and leave unprompted like the moids that used to work here too, I don't want the coordinator to feel like shit just because I feel like shit.
But I also am so sick of these fucking idiots that I just want to tell the coordinator that I'm done and give her all of the shit I've been scoring.
I'm so sick of committing retarded mistakes and being humiliated because of that, I'm tired.
No. 2274331
>>2274328*WASN'T a problem
i'm not going to repost sorry mods but this is an emergency
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>>2274328>but they all mess up my heart ratenonna tachy/bradycardia and shortness of breath are fucking serious medication reactions holy shit ER
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i'm reading fics for the first time in months and i'm crying a little, ok yes the canon is sad but it's mostly because i really relate to this character. some of the writers manage to capture the mindset and feelings i have that i thought almost no one else understood. they probably only like him because he's a male character so he's allowed to be awkward and unlikable but maybe they write him so well because they relate to him too. or maybe they find the shittiness endearing and maybe they'd think mine is also endearing, idk.
No. 2274422
>>2274328You NEED to go to a doctor to discuss this. If you can't get to an ER at least consider calling 911.
In the future talk to your doctor about going on anti-spasmodic medication if regular OTC pain meds like advil/tylenol etc aren't enough.
No. 2274516
I know everyone here is autistic and that's like, normal. But I'm seriously worried I might be actually autistic for real. I'm too much of a failure at several things: I'm a kissless virgin at 24, no friends, awful social skills, too sensitive to noises and sounds to the point I get enraged and lash out or cover up my ears, I'm similarly sensitive to food, i eat a variation of the same meal every damn day, at the same hour and the same exact portion. Don't get me started on clothes, it's nightmarish, I gotta always wear something stretchy or I may get stressed. I just feel so…raw, so so raw, like my senses are at edge at all times. Despite being very bubbly, people have been mean to me, called me immature or juvenile, like a female MJ
No. 2274548
>>2274516Yeah, if we're measuring you against a baseline normie, everything you've mentioned is abnormal. Are you upset about realizing you're autistic?
Wrt to your senses being raw, try turning the lights off in your living area or at least dimming them. Get f.lux for your pc and try to get "highest" possible setting eventually (there is a similar setting on your phone called eye comfort shield). I also recommend trying a weighted blanket out. These things might help mitigate your problems in the way getting a night's sleep will refresh your energy in the morning.
No. 2274628
>>2274548Wow I wasn't expecting an actual reply, thank you anon!
>Are you upset about realizing you're autistic?I'm not mad, moreso worried because damn it's been so long, I thought I would've grown out of these issues by now but they didn't go away. I struggle heavily with stuff that should be just…normal at my age, I got referred to a psychiatrist for young adults a week ago because I'm starting to lose control in my ability to regulate my feelings when overstimulated and it's ruining my personal life
>Wrt to your senses being raw, try turning the lights off in your living area or at least dimming themThat explains why I feel better at night or why I prefer eating with the lights off. When I go out, everything seems so bright and loud I start clenching my hands out of frustration, it literally hurts
>Get f.lux for your pc and try to get "highest" possible setting eventually (there is a similar setting on your phone called eye comfort shield)Lol I already got that one installed! And I'm always using my phone at low brightness, I thought it was something normal
>I also recommend trying a weighted blanket outI hope I can actually find one of these, it seems like a rare item
No. 2274639
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I don't know if I can keep doing this.
No. 2274663
>>2274628Of course! I'm glad I saw your message and that I could maybe help a little bit.
I ended up writing a lot, so I answered in the Autism/ADHD thread. I hope you don't mind! I know this thread technically has no rules, but I don't want us to get slapped with derail/shitting up the thread redtexts kek
>>>/ot/2274662 No. 2274676
>>2274666Well you are definitely damaging your esophagus, mouth, and teeth. Good lord, anon, every week?
I don't know your situation, but the repeated fasting and binging is putting untold amounts of stress on your body and it will show itself soon. And I don't mean in a "you will look ugly" way, I mean you're going to have some kind of breakdown or serious health issue soon. Why are you doing this to yourself?
No. 2274690
>>2274676Oh no that really scares me. I've noticed that I can't do saunas anymore without my body feeling like shutting down and I used to do sauna everyday. Maybe it's too harsh on my already stressed body.
I don't even now why… always had weight problems but I mostly grew up from my eating problems. I'm medically and relatively skinny now, I think I do this because my life is boring..no job, no friends. If I starve Monday to Friday it gives me something to look forward to, the binge eating on sat and sun. I guess it just keeps me going from week to week.
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>>2274666Hey there miachan, picrel is the approximate shade of my teeth as a long term bulimic. Best time to stop was when you started, second best time is now!
No. 2274735
>>2274698It's
literally mental illness, anon, a brain with a legitimate ED can't think rationally about weight.
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I've never met or even seen my moid neighbor, but he's so fucking loud in their bathroom in the morning. I keep forgetting to bring my headphones with me so I'm stuck shitting and hearing him. The woman who lives there is so quiet in comparison! I can hear when they're talking in the bathroom and she is never as loud as him. The only time he was quieter was after I started blasting grindcore like? So, you clearly know I can hear you cause you heard that? Shut up! He's always in their bathroom when I have to shit it's so annoying.
No. 2274763
>>2274666This is the most fucking retarded shit I've ever read in my whole life
1) 70 kg is fucking fat, I don't know your height but unless youre 180 cm you're a fucking fat pig
2) It's so fucking stupid to starve yourself then binge like a retard on the MOST CALORIC SHIT ever (ALCOHOL???) hoping you'll… vomit enough of what you ingested???
Eat 2000-2500 kcal of NORMAL FOOD throughout the whole week and stop being such a fucking stupid retarded slob, I swear to god I'm so fucking infuriated by how fucking retarded this is, I can't believe an actual adult human being with a brain functional enough to type sentences came up with that "plan" and thinks it's "decent"
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>>2274763NTA but calm down nonna jeez
No. 2274780
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>>2274763>70 kg is fucking fat, I don't know your height but unless youre 180 cm you're a fucking fat pigFirst of all this is like the complete opposite way to get an anachan or miachan to listen to you. Secondly (spoilers for body image talk)
I just googled what 70kg looks like and based on the results it seems to range from perfectly fine average weight to kinda chubby? Hardly "fat pig" territory. No. 2274787
>>2274780Please learn about BMIs, at above average female height (165cm), 70 kg puts you in the "overweight" range which is enough to be a risk factor for cardiovascular, orthopedic, rhumatismal, gynecologic, respiratory issues among others
Fuck this "be empathetic" shit, sometimes people need to seriously stop being retarded, if it was just a compulsory thing I wouldn't be so infuriated but I fucking hate reading people coming up with intellectualization of their stupid behaviour like they're planning it or something.
You're not planning anything, you're a retard, everything about your "plan" is stupid as fuck.
(weightsperging derail) No. 2274807
>>2274780Depends on the height of the person. If you’re 10-15 kg over your height you’re overweight, there is no sugarcoating it kek.
If you’re 150cm and weight 70 kg you’re fat, if you’re 160 cm or 165cm you’re chubby. But if you’re 170 your BMI is on the normal range already.
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I wanna get drunk and high and do some degen shit but I have work tomorrow and responsibilities now. It's not fair that when I have money to get really unhinged I can't abuse it
No. 2274851
>>2274787>>2274763Woah woah. I know what I'm doing is stupid. I'm 5'8" and 70kg. I'm in a normal BMI range. I could be skinner but I wouldn't call myself a fat slob. I can post a picture of my arm to prove that.
I don't have bulimia. I never intend to vomit. It naturally happens as a consequence of eating large amounts.
No. 2274855
>>2274763ngl this
triggered me
No. 2274858
>>2274841i thought latam had some active radfem movements
>Should i become a sociopath and stem-maxx and try my hardest to become super smart and gain as much money and accomplishments as possibleyou don't have to be a sociopath to stem-maxx. you should make money for yourself to survive.
No. 2274865
>>2274855Why does it
trigger you? They are clearly insane. Randoms shouldn't effect you. I'm the anon they were talking to and I'm not
triggered.
No. 2274866
>>2274841>what will i do when i get older?Anything you want. World's your oyster. Obviously you have to get something to care about first. But if you don't want to get a husband or kids, whos going to stop you? You will have to be careful esp if where you live has high rates of femicides. Emigration is a good idea.
Not exactly what you're thinking of becoming, but my mom used to leave me at home when i was like 8-14 and party in clubs til the early morning and make tons of friends - she was in her late 30, early 40s. I was on the internet and doing homework and didnt really care, so it wasn't like she was neglecting me. Whether you think this is good parenting or not, the point is, if you have a lust for life or any sort of desire to be adventurous, or want to live by your own rules, if you truly want it, you'll find a way. It's never too late to live how you wanna live.
Find some hobby communities that are made of women, for example fiber arts and fashion (esp thread spinning and vintage fashion) have a ton of weirdo women in them. So just try everything. Pick up a weird book, take a pottery course, visit a different city, fuck it, do your research and try some psychedelics. Just try SOMETHING. That way you'll know what you like to do, or at least you'll find something to care about.
No. 2274879
>>2274851if you’re vomiting consistently then it’s probably still considered bulimia nona. binge and purging repeatedly has a ton of negative effects even if your weight is stable and your teeth are being taken care of. it really fucked up my insulin regulation and now I have to be super careful about diabetes even at a normal bmi.
This may not be good advice but have you tried adding a complete fast day to your schedule? It helps reset your insulin and glucose levels so your hunger is better regulated as well as freeing up calories for the rest of your week. The one thing that finally broke me out of a yearslong b/p cycle was fasting for two whole days per week and binging (without purging) on Friday.
No. 2274930
>>2274879>This may not be good advice but have you tried adding a complete fast day to your schedule? Don't do that
Just. Fucking. Eat. Normally.
No. 2274966
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God…. once again I'm going to be fired from my job because my sperg brain refuses to let me live a normal life. I get paid peanuts and it's garbage but I'm terrified about being unemployed again. This was my chance, I had professional exams to do, I could finally have a chance at earning a living wage, but no, my shitty retard brain had to go and ruin it. Failed two exams and failed the resits, and I can't explain to my manager that it was all my autism because I'm still on the waiting list for a diagnosis. Not sure what to do and my usual go-getter resilience has faded into depression. I can't get up, I can't eat properly, this job is so boring and dumb and the managers watch everything I do so they can report it to the higher-ups. I want out but if I don't stay in I'll be so poor I can barely afford rent, and will let my loved ones down. For the first time since HS i just want to die. Can't stand this socially awkward, retard life where people hate me on sight and I can't even pass a basic exam. The fact it's only going to get worse from here, and I might end up like my failure of a dad, makes me want to end it all. If I wasn't such a pussy I'd hang myself.
No. 2274984
>>2274960A genius like Mozart will spawn every 100 years max
Women have had the pill, the right to open bank accounts, the right to abort for like 50 years ; not to mention, the burden of child-raising is still predominantly female which will slow down a career
There's already been great females that made leading scientific discoveries
I'm in biology so I'd name Marie Curie, Emmanuelle Charpentier for example ;
I'm less well versed in music but surely there are a bunch of female musical geniuses, nowadays the music is more pop-music or rap and many of the worldwide known artists are female ; for more "noble" references I'll let my music-loving nonnas help
Anyways he's a stupid cunt
No. 2274988
>>2274960I mean, there's many things stopping women nowadays and many things that are making women go unrecognized.
First off, we're alienated from each other by the not like other girls phenomenon.
Second, we're always put aside when there's any boys in the family, so we're still supposed to sacrifice our interests and to be quiet and not bother others.
Thirdly, when achieving something, we're told that we're not that special and that some other moid or younger woman or even some child did something better, so many women stop recognizing their own talents.
There are plenty of amazing women out there, but if he stopped consooming porn and retarded shit, maybe he could be able to see their achievements.
Also, another issue is that nowadays everything and everyone moves on so quickly, that any amazing achievement only has like 2 days of fame at best in niche communities, people don't really watch the news anymore and everything is so curated that you won't know anything about the new paintings in a museum if you don't actively look for the content that talks about museums.
If anything, he showed you how fucking retarded and useless he is by showing how much of an ignorant beast he is.
Also,
>what's stopping youWell think about it, do you live in a first world country? Did you get to have a high quality education but also a supportive family since the very beginning? Did your family push you to hone your skills and enjoy your hobbies alike? Did they ever tell you to explore and be creative?
If most of them are no, then of course you won't be the next mozart this year, if most of them are yes, then think about what you could do to become the next Mozart before the year ends.
No. 2274997
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I am starting to think settling with a rich moid is the only way to achieve my goals. I just want to draw and have an easy going life without worrying about money, but i have so many health problems and a shitty family. I want to girlboss my way out of poverty but i am too retarded and weak. I wish i was born into a better family on a better country.
No. 2275009
>>2275006Thank you
nonny! I will try my hardest.
No. 2275046
>>2274960that’s always such a shifty and dishonest argument. ask him to name a mozart or da vinci of either gender from the latter half of the 20th century and onwards. they never can because culture broadly shifted toward things like non-representational art/atonal music around that time, creating a distinct break from earlier artistic traditions. it was only around then that women started having any sizable presence in the institutional arts, and since then there have been plenty of notable female artists and composers, albeit less traditional ones.
mozarts and da vincis stopped being produced long before women got rights. there are modern female geniuses, but they aren’t mozart or da vinci because no one is anymore. the premise of the question is retarded and lazy current day moids with no cultural eduction have no greater claim to mozart’s output than any woman does.
No. 2275072
insane things happening in the family this weekend nonas. my sister has a family of her own and she studied and started a new career, I would hate to live her life but she does have it all seemingly together. Yeah she drinks and we both have daddy issues but on paper, I am the sister who almost died due to a few illnesses and just started studying my bachelors at 31. I've always felt like I was an academic failure, but both my sister and I have studied trades after high school, neither of us was some university grad or a bookworm so it doesn't really matter but for me, I found myself lame for it. She has had a steady career in her field before this new one, the kids, the house yano. This weekend we were at my moms and I have been crocheting christmas presents all weekend, just simple plushies I have jazzed up a bit to personalise them. No one in my family is a crafty person, I'm the only one who can sew and crochet, do art and that stuff, so no one hS ever even really brought it up other than the occasional "Anon, I have no idea how you have the energy to do that, that is so tidious" "Anon, that's cute" but I don't bring it up, I just watch tv with the and crochet away. I was bringing a new finished plushie into my tote I keep all the finished presents in and she suddenly says something along the lines of "Great, I look like a fucking idiot buying that shit, it's not fair I don't know how to do that shit, no one ever taught me!".
My autistic ass just told her that I learned this year on YouTube and that you can always learn new shit, just like with us studying in our adulthood but not everyone has to do crafts. She seemed so fucking angry, I guess she wants to do it all but she went on this weird ass "it's easy to just be good at that stuff, I can't even make socks" and as I told her I don't knit either and that everyone has to learn it, she went on to basically yell how grandma never taught her anything and I yelled back laughing how she never taught me none of this shit either. I think she is under a lot of pressure but the fact that she would look at my fell-behind-life-almost-died-still-in-school ass and she still has to make it into some weird competition? Eventually she just shut up and my mom didn't really say shit other than that she would never learn that stuff but she appreciated it, fucking weird.
No. 2275101
I’m super hurt and confused. My best friend of 8 years, who literally sent me a meme just a few days ago completely quietly uninvited me from her photo shoot for her clothing line coming out. I sleep over at her place all the time, and I was the one who found the studio for her to rent. She said she wanted me to model as well as help make stickers to ship out with the clothes. She said she wanted me to be there and everything. I knew it was today, but she didn’t message me yesterday to let me know what time to be there, what the address was, and what to wear. I checked her location and she’s in the city , at the studio with a bunch of other people.
I don’t understand. I’m such a fucking loner that I don’t want to even confront her because I’m scared she’ll cut me off or something. She’s my only friend. We’ve travelled , we tell each other everything; I’m so hurt.
I’m dealing with severe depression and have been dealing with really intense health issues for the past 5 years. Her friendship is the only thing that helps ease the pain , even if it’s just a little.
This always happens to me. I think I’m close to someone, I think someone would never do something to me, and they always leave or do something to blindside me. Maybe I’m being dramatic..
No. 2275217
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Thinking about how my mom never loved me and my dad let her do all that fucked up stuff to me and did absolutely nothing but give himself wet brain with alcohol
No. 2275228
>>2275175genuinely screaming that someone else is also going through this. if i were you, i'd show up anyway and just ignore her stupid ass. she doesn't get to dictate when, where or if you want to spend time with your own family members like wtf that's insane kek. i don't know what my brother's girlfriend's mental issue is but she's been going around causing drama with my immediate family, including my poor mother. she will set up situations that will either hurt you emotionally, endanger you with her shitbulls, or just outright insult you and then play it off as a joke. she acts holier than everyone around her and would literally cut you off mid-sentence if she deems you stupider than her, which the bar on that is low anyway since she's quite religious and tried to refuse to get vaccinated during the pandemic. i'm thinking she might be cluster b but i just don't know which kind. anyway
nonnie i'm so sorry you're going through this.
No. 2275234
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I want to have sex so bad but not with my boyfriend, he’s become fat and physically unattractive to me kek
No. 2275272
>>2275253he‘s a quite nice and funny guy and I used to be sexually attracted to him but now he doesn’t take care of his looks and his health (especially the weight gain and acne (he says seeing a dermatologist is gay kek))
So yeah he’s a great person but doesn’t put any effort into looking good. This might sound superficial as fuck but I take care of myself so I expect my partner to do that as well
No. 2275282
Idk if this is a problem of mentos illness or some anxious shit but I'm afraid of getting people dirty if I touch them. Even if they're my friends, I don't like when they touch me not because I dislike them, in fact quite the opposite, but I think that they're going to get dirty if they touch me. I have no idea from where this comes from. I was never bullied for being "smelly" or "dirty", in fact I was a nice, clean kid and my long hair was always nice, my clothes were nice (not high end clothes but as in clean and nicely fitting to my body) and I had a basic normal hygiene, nothing over the top as doing a 10-step everything shower everyday but yes, normal. In particular, I liked and still like perfumes and shit like that but I don't know. I feel dirty by existing.
Now that I'm a grown up, in fact people compliment me, I kept the nice long hair and it's well kept, I wash it with the right products and take care of it so it's long, I shower with care and also exfoliate (dry skin) and I like to do my makeup in yes, some outdated japanese fashion style so I might look "out of fashion" but I'm…pretty okay on the outside, I know I'm not a monster or anything like that, I look like your standard 20something girl that follows some alt fashion rules but that's it. And yet I'm dirty. Something tells me that people shouldn't touch/be near me. It's everything my mind thinks when I go out. I might need to be checked by someone but it's tiring and it makes me feel so overwhelmed I sometimes break down. Make it stop. It's so burned in my brain that I would rather people tell me that I'm dirty so I can confirm some sort of delusions and I feel that all the compliments are lies. Why am I like this, why must I live with this worm in my brain.
No. 2275293
>>2275272Nyart but is he putting any effort in? If he's forgoing basic things like shaving (above and below) it might be a sign of depression.
However calling seeing a dermatologist gay would make me think you're better off without him
No. 2275313
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I'm never performing CPR on a man who's not my dad. Ever. Let them drop like flies. I'm not trying to catch a sexual assault charge bro!
No. 2275336
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I dont WANNA do my sociology paper FUCCCCCCKKKKKKK
No. 2275356
>>2275351I’m a woman
nonnie lol just Australian
No. 2275357
>>2275336I'm curious anon, what's the paper about?
I'm a sociology major so I gotta know
No. 2275366
>>2275343That is a male
>>2275356The anon you're replying to is letting you know that the Redditor is male, not you.
No. 2275367
>>2275254>in my small town This is your #1 issue. You can have the best stuff and the best prices, but if you don't have a wide audience it won't work. I know it can be really frustrating working booths, especially when we don't get our money back. Sorry if this is advice you didn't ask for or anything but I just wanted to throw it out there for future reference - it's super cheap to buy a domain (like 10 dollars for a year), and there are lot's of free website builders now too. I always suggest that if you're going to a booth to sell, have a QR code visibly posted that links back to a personal site where you advertise your merchandise for sale. Only bring out the best of your wares to a booth, like the BEST items you have that you strongly suspect people will buy. Have the rest listed for sale on your website and direct customers to check it out (I usually do this by offering 20% off on things bought through my site - but ofc since I make the prices myself, really I just
say it's 10% off because people love a bargain). Having a site makes it so that you when you get to a convention, not only are you showing your wares off to the con-goers, but you're also giving them the ability to "come back" to shop more even once the con is over, plus they can share your website with their friends ("hey X, I saw this super cute dress at a con yesterday that I thought you'd like! I took a picture of the seller's website for you!"). Keep your chin up though nona! Not every con is a success, there have been times when I've come back from cons with a full wallet and other times when I've come back from them with a maxed out credit card. Part of selling is learning to roll with the punches and adapt. Don't give up! Especially if you know your wares are valuable and can earn you money!
No. 2275438
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I hate my anxiety, I'm on my second attempt of anti anxieties but amitriptyline and diazepam doesn't bring me back to myself. Valium is in the cards, maybe that can fix me. I was fine, I was ok, I could go out and do stuff but something flipped a year and a half ago and now I can't do anything. I want to get back to where I was.
>Hey nonna you want to go to a music festival with loads of people tomorrow?
>No problem, I don't mind let me through some extra pairs of socks in the wash in case it's rainy.
I went to crazy busy events no bother and now I need to psych myself up to go to fucking Tesco. Tesco. Fucking Tesco is my Mount Everest.
My job is getting strict on ending WFH so now I'm going to lose that and my private health insurance and I'm going to have to wait ages to get more treatment and I'm going to lose everything. I don't know what happened. I have friends who endured actual trauma and they were ok but my brain just decided to flip one day. My problems are legitimately insulting to them. I'm not ok and I want to know what the fucking cause was. I just want to re-enage with life without getting myself high enough that I'm just shy of kissing a k-hole.
No. 2275449
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my brother believes in aliens now. what the fuck. he genuinely believes that aliens somehow went to ancient egypt (and only egypt??) to show the egyptians their cool tech n shit just to fly away again. i had the most mindnumbing discussion with him about it until i realized that it's no use and just stopped engaging.
it's not his biggest issue but i'm still flabbergasted. this guy has a college degree and instead of doing anything with it he's picking up shitty min wage jobs and watching youtube videos about aliens and conspiracy theories.
i'm so ashamed that we share blood. now i have to get a good degree and get my life together to support our mom in retirement one day. because my brother is a fucking retard. i hate this
No. 2275480
>>2275450Your daughter will thrive if you do the right thing
for you.
No. 2275511
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I've been into manga for a fairly long time, and I saw the boom in South Korea's popularity kind of take off over the years. It kind of puzzled me, but I gave it a chance, and I was disappointed. Taking another look at it, I'm disappointed again.
My question is: Why have South Koreans consistently failed to make anything that compares to Japanese manga, as far as "deep" or dark subjects go? Movies like Parasite aren't bad or anything, so it's not necessarily that they somehow lack depth as a people (IMO). So, what's going on?
I remember trying to read manwha as a kid before I had any biases about either culture, and it was just horrible. Nowadays, webtoons are the big thing, and they're mostly bad too. Very shallow. Even the art in both tend to be subpar.
Don't get me wrong. Japan has its share of pure slop too (just look at isekai and harem garbage), but it's not difficult to find the decent stuff.
Where are the South Korean equivalents to someone like Shuzo Oshimi, Ching Nakamura, Go Nagai or Inio Asano? None of those people are gods or anything (there are scrotey themes in some of the male one's works that piss me off), but switching from their work to literally any of the well-known manwha or webtoons is like night and day. Media-wise, what sets these two cultures apart so drastically that there's such a huge gap in their creative output? Do Koreans just hit their kids more or something so they don't think outside the box as much? I don't get it.
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>>2275511Manhwa industry didn't have a foundation for darker/serious/mature subjects like manga did, these types of manga got published in horror or indie magazines (picrel is monthly ikki) in the 70s-00s and reached further than their initial niche due do quality.
Korean comics are confined to online webtoon publishing which isn't a good environment for stories that are extremely complex in terms of art and/or story, so those themes tend to be relegated to traditionally published novels and film.
No. 2275608
>>2275505Many men lack self-awareness to a ridiculous degree. It CAN help if you bring their attention to it with faked concern asking "why do you always sigh/grunt/cough SO loudly all the time, maybe you should have that looked at by a doctor?".
You can't just go "shut the fuck up stop doing that all the time" because they'll get defensive or think it's funny that you're annoyed and do it even more on purpose. You have to socially embarrass them without starting a fight, they have to think "oh shit do I do that?" and try to correct it on their own.
No. 2275632
>>2275613honestly unhinged to get that mad about a poor woman who was murdered by her husband alongside her kids this many years after the fact, you never see male
victims get this treatment. shut the fuck up and go back to reddit
No. 2275634
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ngl my boyfriend is related to some extremely retarded individuals.
his 30-year-old cousin and his aunt have cracked the shits with me because my boyfriend and his mother are going to my birthday lunch with my family which was planned two weeks before his cousin's event.
The cousin in question is a cunt.
She has tried on multiple occasions to make group chats that exclude me, my boyfriend, his mother, his sister's fiance and anyone who isn't her mother, grandmother, wife and her wife's family. They never end up working because the rest of the family don't appreciate it and tell her to knock it off.
She still tries to exclude my boyfriend and his mother from events because of a falling out that happened almost FIVE YEARS AGO between his mother and her mother/boyfriend's aunt.
which was RESOLVED and didn't involve anyone BUT those two and my boyfriend's grandmother, she still holds onto it to this day even though it had absolutely nothing to do with her.
Her wife had a baby a year and a bit ago and i respect her right as a parent and a mother, but she's had some really weird moments where she's seen the baby smiling and walking towards family members, wanting to be picked up or play on her OWN volition, and she's just launched up and yanked the baby away from them because it's 'her' baby and not 'theirs'.
She also had the audacity to say "you can play with babies when my sister (who's basically infertile and struggling to conceive and is incredibly depressed about it) has one, don't touch mine." don't bring your baby to family events if you don't want her interacting with anyone then?? fucking weirdo.
my family lunch still would've allowed us to come down to see her in time, but because 4 out of 10+ people couldn't make it RIGHT ON TIME, she cracked it and just cancelled the whole thing.
I don't even know why i got invited, i've literally never spoken to her.
I've tried, she ignores me completely or doesn't acknowledge me in group conversations. I don't really care about it but it just astounds me how cunty and bitter some people are and how other people are so willing to get mad and defensive on their behalf. I genuinely think there'd be less drama in their family if she wasn't so fixated on dragging it on and then trying to make people take sides.
No. 2275650
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Saw people talking shit about how anime girls and women in japan have such horrific bowlegs and hows its extremely ugly and makes people think of rickets, now im self concious because i do have pretty extreme bowlegs that i didnt think were an issue because i grew up in a city with a very sizeable japanese population so a lot of other girls looked like that.
My legs look like picrel for reference, does it look diseased/defornmed?
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>>2275650it’s usually not very noticeable irl
nonnie. while asians do tend to have slightly more bowed legs, the way women pose for photos (feet together, toes pointed in, knees locked and pushed out) really exaggerates it. standing like picrel with one knee bent pretty much eliminates the issue.
No. 2275721
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>Be into hobbies and interests dominated by men
>Actively repelled from interacting with interests by the massive amount of fat, disgusting, balding, Norwood 5, greasy pube faced men on all sides
Happens every time
No. 2275760
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Got excommunicated from my online friend group. Moved to a new city, no IRL friends. It's so beyond over.
No. 2275790
>>2275292It is that easy dumbass. It’s always the same things with you nigelfags
>you don’t understand! It’s so hard to breakup >I love him! Don’t shit on the plate you willingly and lovingly eat then kek
No. 2275802
>>2275760So beyond over? You're crazy, anon! If I were you I'd comb over all my accounts for personal information, delete it, then terminate the accounts. New city, new accounts, more experience when it comes to relationships? That's a brand new start.
I'm sorry everything feels terrible right now. I know what it's like to lose an entire friend group. But I promise it gets better as it moves forward, and in a few years you'll find it hard to remember how over everything felt.
Good luck! Try checking out your local library to find something to do!
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Chris Chan got somebody pregnant.
No. 2275841
>>2266222>>2275758Lmao I really don't know it's on the news if you want to go find it. They say I was floating for like 15 minutes but I promise it was like 25 because it definitely took 10 minutes for the guy who called the cops to show up (it was 5:00 am and he was the only person around. He was on a run). Anyway I really don't know because I promise you I cannot swim or float. The waves weren't crazy even though I was very far into the lake, but the current was strong enough to take me far from the pier (dock? whatever). The police officer who jumped in was a very skilled swimmer and said in the interview that she was getting super tired getting to me , so that is super weird. I'm guessing cause she was fighting the current it was super hard, but I feel like if she gave up she would have also started floating? I really don't know.
Everyone in the EMT said the fact that I floated that long was insane. I believe in God and keep trying to find scientific reasons that I'm still here, but maybe it really was a miracle lmao.
No. 2275843
>>2275841Every EMT in the ambulance. Sorry I'm half awake.
Also don't do it please. Life is literal ass and if you're dealing with clinical depression and it's not just life issues, try lamotrigine. I've been on 12 antidepressants, did ECT, TMS, and ketamine; Lamotrigine is the only thing that is remotely helping. Life is literal shit so I don't blame you. but give it another year at least.
No. 2275848
>>2275841>>2275843That's definitely a miracle. People fall into that lake by accident all the time and die. Were you harmed at all? Did they keep you in the psychiatric ward after? I hope you're feeling at least a bit better in your life now. Unfortunately I'm riddled with PTSD from 20 years of abuse by a moid so popping some pills isn't going to help me for squat.
>tfw we're connected via lolcow and thoughts of suiciding in lake michiganWhy is this so specific kek
No. 2275852
>>2275848I'm not harmed at all. They made me stay in the hospital for 3 days (which is fucking crazy, I literally jumped in a lake and that's all they kept me for) and it was lowkey fun. The hospital had a view of the city and I got my own room. Didn't do shit to help me though.
It was mixed gender and over 18, so I just enjoyed everyone hitting on me. A guy liked me over another girl and that girl lost her shit (I literally didn't like the guy or any guy for that matter. It's a fucking psych ward. The loml is not in there). She got booty juiced cause she started slamming her head on the wall.
I kept fighting with this miserable jewish lady cause she kept talking about Palestine (I'm Palestinian). That was really fun (not being sarcastic. I was talking civilly and she just kept screaming back because I had good points and she didn't).
The first thing someone said to me in there though was that I should have tied myself to a cinderblock kek.
Also there was a homicidal guy in there who fell in love with me. He was in there because we wrote his therapist a letter saying he loved her, but that fantasized about killing her. He went into detail in the letter of how he would do it. The next therapy session he walked into the office and was immediately arrested and sent to the hospital. She got a restraining order against him lol.
I gave him my number and even met with him after my stay because I had no fucking idea at that point what had happened with the therapist.
I told him I moved and that I wanted to cut off anyone from the hospital because of "trauma". He got really butthurt but kind of accepted defeat. haven't heard from him since. Hope he isn't reading this or else my initial dream of dying is probably going to come true.
Sorry this because an autobiography. I just realized how fucking bizarre that stay was.
No. 2275854
>>2275852I'm a fucking retard.
*Sorry, this became an autobiography
No. 2275877
>>2275872I honest to god don't remember because it wasn't a big celebrity. His dad and his dad's dad are entrepreneurs owned factories across the midwest. Also fun fact his parents are gay men (now divorced) who adopted him from a crack addict.
Very interesting lore I'll give him that. Stopped talking to him because he was a piece of shit spoiled brat who kept posting pictures of us to his instagram when I said not to. He also choked me once while we were making out, without my consent. Crazy part is he wasn't even manic when he did that he's just an asshole.
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I’m never going to find true love and even though I’ve been alone for awhile it’s still hard to accept it.
No. 2275945
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WHY. ARE. MY. TEETH. SO. SHITTY. I don't eat sweets, I don't have sugar in my drinks, I eat more veggies than fruit so it can't even be the acid in those, and I brush them, but one of my molars STILL somehow managed to get cavities and an infection. IT'S NOT FAIR.
No. 2275959
>>2275955But if that tranny sonnychu retard found some one then all hope isn’t lost either I guess?
It’s strange in a way because I see shitty people , ugly people, useless people finding others.
I’m not perfect, but I’m not bad either, I’ve been told that I’m good looking often , been asked out, I have a good future ahead of me too, so I don’t really understand.
No. 2276015
>>2276013a. it's not hers, it's from another woman in our family
b. there are other countries besides the usa
No. 2276142
>>2276088>>2276100I used to go to the gym and jog/run most days but I stopped after the COVID pandemic and gained 60 lbs and I don't care anymore
Help
No. 2276177
>>2276112>>2276153>>2276113Im happy nonnies can manifest their desired life, instead of feeling trapped in schizo
victim galaxy. i know most i cannot have, so i am happy it exist somewhere, for someone else.
because willpower and hope are sometimes really not that enough. and i doubt forced delusions ends up well.
though i very much understand the deep dissatisfaction, the knee-jerk outburst that still keeps it somewhat covered, or the confessional shitposting, the all facing urge for a breakthrough, but id rather happily face my own shortcomings on my own, than manifesting at the expense of other people.
and i dont think it has to be self-reliant vs. universe, sometimes its a mix or neither or just what it is.
>>2276112it works for me, but not in terms of desired life, its a weird thing.
No. 2276210
>>2275449im going apeshit over here. i grow a decent overbite and hairy feet. whhhat.thheffuuugg. OF CURSE the egyptian had alien magicc!!!1 they knew it all. the pyramids are a depiction of the stars, they moved the stones via gravity machine and they carved their statues with lasers. they had extensive knowledge about life after death and they had deep understanding of the occult, that was not mean or obscure, but trying to bowtie the universe with the visible manifestations. they were kind and their colours were vibrant, lifely, full of lush harvest for the eyes. and no, they didnt just fly away, they have given their technology further, but being actual time travelers (because that is what aliens really are) they can only use a part of it. and they have accidently caused a global reset. That is in short what the egyptians achieved. and their statues are so beautiful, graceful and domestic, they depict daily life with such an apreciation. because everything had meaning. it should not matter he chooses waggie, obv he is happy with a unicellular life to expand his conciousness over. gawd. he is an expert. but i wish him much money to take care of you three.
No. 2276258
>>2276112>do any of you believe in law of attraction/manifestation or subliminals ?See the problem is that… no, it's bullshit. They do not work, there is no mistake there.
HOWEVER rumination in bad thoughts does make you worse mentally and physically, and positive thinking can genuinely make you more physically healthy and even more likely to survive and recover from disease. Placebo (and the opposite nocebo) is a real documented thing that exists. Even though most of our body works subconsciously our conscious thoughts affect it. As cringe as it may seem positive thinking really is more healthy for you.
No. 2276267
>>2276257I love that thread I just hate that specific phrase "maladaptive daydreaming"
Doesn't it sound unnatural to you? It doesn't exactly roll of the tongue. It didn't even exist as a concept until very recently
No. 2276268
TW sex with men, bodily fluids
>>2275297This may come as a surprise but consensual sex is pleasurable, orgasms are fun, and if you're heterosexual, you will only have pleasurable sex with men. Believe me, I have tried to enjoy pussy but some people just aren't built like that.
Sex is give and take: you suck dick, he eats you out, you starfish for a bit, you ride him for a bit. He can't help the fact that he produces something I find disgusting when he comes, so we came to an agreement regarding that. It's just how life is.
(3rd time posting a trigger warning) No. 2276284
>>2276243It's ok baby, you just have an eating disorder but you know and admit to it which is step one. Work with a professional in eating disorders - you only have one body and one life, doesn't matter what it costs because this is literally the most important investment you could make for yourself!
It's going to take time, and you'll have ups and downs like everyone else, but it's worth it and you can do it. People HAVE beaten eating disorders, it's possible for you too! You're not weak or a failure, you are a person as good as any other person. You're worthy of all the same good things. Of course you have to "want it" and be ready for change. But I think you are ready! The cost of a new life is your current life - and if you're unhappy with your current life that's an amazingly good deal!
I recommend watching some of jordanshrinks videos on youtube, she used to be obese but lost weight and kept it off. She struggled with a binge eating disorder and has a lot of weight loss tips. See if you can find other youtubers too and realize you are so far from alone in this! Wish I could be your personal cheerleader, but ultimately you will become your own cheerleader when you understand your worth and your strength.
No. 2276290
>>2275719I hope you're still with us
nonnie.
No. 2276302
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I'm tired of not having a job. It's hard to find work where I live, and it's getting me down. I feel aimless, I can't afford to do anything. All I want is to work and have my own income.
No. 2276312
>>2276268This
TW shit needs to be nipped in the fucking bud. I dont know if its just 1 anon or a new hoard of newfags but fuck off
No. 2276313
>>2276312it's the same anon, she used the same
TW last time.
No. 2276348
>>2275438Don’t feel embarrassed
nonny, Tesco is an exhausting experience especially at rush hour kek
No. 2276374
I'm a good person who loves their parents to a degree where any time I make good money, all I want to do is spend it on them, and to give them the life they've never had. I take them out to eat, I took my mom to an expensive afternoon tea, I took her to turkey, etc. The second I fall into a severe depression that just gets worse and worse, my mom isn't there for me whatsoever and for some reason starts giving me the cold shoulder? Not once has she hugged me , or told me it is going to be okay, or anything. She's made comments to me like, "some of us have work in the morning, if you're going to sob go do it where you won't wake any of us up". She doesn't even see me as human. I made a comment like "considering how much love and gratitude I've shown you, I would have expected a little better treatment than this." She became telling me that I don't get to throw everything I've done for her in her face, and that if I'm going to then she doesn't want any of it. I wasn't even throwing it in her face, or at least I wasn't trying to. I just hated how she was villainizing me when I've done so much more than her other kids who she doesn't villainize.
It's like she resents me for not being financially stable, married with kids, etc. It's not my fault I'm really ill right now.
No. 2276404
>>2276374I have a mom like this too. It will be ok. Become your biggest supporter and tell yourself what you need to hear when your down, hug your pillow when you need a hug.. love yourself the way your mom never could. Treat yourself out. You can do this, you sound sweet
nonnie.
No. 2276408
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The only thing I look forward to doing everyday is smoking weed and masturbating
No. 2276420
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Am I retarded that I can't get over my online friend group calling me toxic and ditching me? It was over a year ago. After they fact they called me twansphobic and a terf just to make sure I was properly burned even though the issue wasn't even about that in the first place lmao. Am I stupid that I still miss them? I knew some of them for over a decade, we sent each other Christmas gifts every year and drew pictures for each other's birthdays and stuff.
No. 2276449
>>2276431Had some conflict with a 35 year old NEET in our shared server, who flipped her shit and left the server right after. It led to server mod (who I had known since we were 14) kicking me out to get her back in after a few months. I tried saying sorry but she basically told me to go fuck myself. I went MIA after that so they started digging through my xitter likes and found some slight terfy tweets I had liked and then sent me asks asking why there was transphobia in my likes in a sad attempt to milk me, which I ignored. The friends not involved in this story all blocked me after this even though I tried to reach out to them beforehand to try to salvage some form of relationship, but I guess being an evil
terf was too much. I wasn't perfect in this story but I sincerely tried to apologize.
No. 2276560
>>2276521This made me think about my own experience.
I was actually playing sex games on the computer behind my mom’s back. I fortunately didn’t watch real life porn, just hentai and played those POV games. I was 8.
My mom found out and gave me a talk and also removed the computer and placed in a locked drawer whenever she couldn’t supervise me.
So overall I’m glad I got found out and didn’t become a porn addict.
No. 2276563
>>2275367Much appreciated. I do feel a bit better about it. Still sucks, but I just gotta find an audience instead of trying to lure in local staunch normies who think that just wearing a normal nice dress is "weird".
This place is legitimately a cultural void. Folks here consider American Chinese food "exotic". But I digress.
I do appreciate your reply a lot. Much love to you, nonna.
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my depression is back and i cant get anything done i think id rather be dead because its futile living for no reason, with no joy, no compassion for myself let alone others. i really need to do school work and i really want to create again but i cant. i need more medicine
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It's 2 am right now and I want to take a shower but I can't because my city area has no water (according to the internet). Now it says that it will be back at around 3 am but I'm tired and do not want to wait so long bc I'm tired but I also do not want to go to bed without showering, you know. What do I do?
No. 2276882
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i moved to a big city and people only want to fuck, women included. like i will think i’m hitting it off with a woman and can potentially make a friend, but 4 times in as many months the woman was actually fishing for a unicorn. then i don’t really want to be friends, because i feel gross and objectified and i know her boyfriend wants to bed us together.
it hurts more when a woman does it… just be my friend wtf??? is this an everywhere problem? i want to move away.
No. 2276919
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tw: so, so gross. I'm going to post this in parts because I don't want this to be a wall of text.
I got diagnosed with endometriosis 2 years ago and since lost an ovary. This week my gyno asked me to do an MRI scan for endometriosis specifically. On Saturday I could only eat liquid food and graham crackers, she also asked me to drink lots of waters and before sleeping to take some laxatives. I did all that to a T, without knowing this was only the beginning to my suffering.
I woke up, went to the bathroom and was relieved: the laxatives had acted in time. I got to the hospital and I was nervous, insanely hungry, and fasting for 12 hours, like they asked. They had to get venous access, but just before the intern punctured my vein I felt uncomfortable and ran to the bathroom. It was gross but now I knew the laxative was done acting, great! He punctured my vein and started flushing it with saline solution just to make sure it was in. I started feeling dizzy because of the pressure in my veins and I kept saying "My blood pressure is low", "I need to lay down", and the guy just smiled nervously. I laid down on the chair, still felt feeble. I thought, well this guy is not going to help me at all, saw a bed just 5 meters away got up from the chair and decided to lay me down myself. Took two steps. Black. I passed out.
Now I only know this because my mom works at the hospital, a woman said to her husband "there's something going on, you need to check" the husband saw me and ran, my mom was curious and ran too and there her daughter was on her knees unconscious while the helpless nurse intern was holding the upper part of my limp body. She said the intern looked like he was going to pass out himself. So the guy held me up, my mom held me by the legs and they took me to the bed that I had tried to lay down on. I woke up with my mom calling my name and saying I should've yelled at her for help. I could only feel the cold sweat on my face. Anyway I felt better and then I felt weird. My buttcheeks felt wet. I panicked. I called my mom, turn my butt to her and asked if it my hospital gown pants was dirty. She said it was. The laxative was NOT done with me. Luckily I was starving and in a liquid diet for so long that it only looked like I peed myself. My mom asked the clueless intern for new pants for me, helped me to get up and walked behind me so nobody could see the suspicious transparent stain on my butt until I got to the bathroom. I threw my disgraced panties in the trash bin and my mom, at my big age (I'm on my late twenties, mind you) helped me clean off and look less miserable.
No. 2276926
>>2276919Just when I thought my humiliation was over a nurse knocked on the bathroom door and said "Mom, daughter! I'm ready!" I left the bathroom and she guided me behind blue curtains where she told me to lay down on my back and open my legs. I did so and she shoved a tube up my precious parts to fill my vagina canal up to the brim with ultrasound gel. I squirmed when she first shoved that thing in and she asked me if I was sexually active, I said yes but I knew my sexual life was done after that Sunday. Okay, was ready, now I only had to wait to get into the MRI scan machine, right? WRONG! The nurse said "now lay down on your side, with your butt facing me". I wanted to kill myself. I mooned that poor underpaid girl, she shoved the tube up my butt and filled my rectum with ultrasound gel, she kept saying calmly "don't push, don't push" and I could only think that poor girl really didn't want to have ultrasound gel with poop all over her hands. She asked me to put my pants back up, and asked me where were my panties. We fell silence. She wheeled me to the MRI scan room, they gave me cramps medicine so my body wouldn't just shit out all that gel while I laid in that machine for one hour. When the exam was done I got up to go to the bathroom, gel dripping from my pants, asked for a pad, changed into my normal clothes and stuck the pad to my shorts since gel was going to keep leaking for a while, and went home completely humiliated and dejected. I will never be the same.
No. 2277020
nothing enrages me more than when women are told that if they're so sick and tired of being harassed, stalked, or raped/killed, that they should just stay home. as a professional social retard for the longest time, i have a high threshold for being able to stay home for weeks and weeks at a time; but even i have to eventually go out, catch some fresh air, enjoy nature, talk to people like a regular person, look at stores or head out to an event, because this keeps people sane at the end of the day. if you force someone to stay indoors 24/7/365, all in the name of safety, they will soon go fucking insane from the solitary confinement. like for fuck's sake, that's how they torture people in prison. why do women have to live like prisoners their entire lives? women can't even feel safe in their own homes if they happen to live with a male (family or otherwise), or even just to go to an online space to find friends because inevitably scrotes will find her and harass her there too. what is the end goal here? that all women end up friendless, completely isolated, no hobbies, no going out ever, no job, etc? why would the world want that holy fuck
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I am so fucking pissed off nonas. I was just talking to my coworker who told me my boss actually SAID MY NAME to her when describing what he’s looking for in a wife, and apparently that’s not the first time he’s said that to other coworkers but it’s the first I’m hearing of it. I’ve always had a feeling that he has a bit of a crush on me because he is overly friendly and always suggesting we do things together outside of work hours but still making sure it’s under the guise of work. Like “we should go for dinner and chat about your position” kind of thing. Now I have to go on an overnight work trip with him later this week and I am FUCKING DREADING it. I already know he’s going to try and take me out for dinner and make it as date night-y as possible because he’s fucking lonely and he knows he can use his position over me. I’m going to take notes and if he makes ANY inappropriate comments I’m going directly to HR. I don’t even want to show my face at work tomorrow I’m so pissed off. To top it all off he KNOWS I’m in a relationship. He has literally met my boyfriend multiple times at work parties.
No. 2277041
>>2277031Maybe. Today's my 28th birthday and I'm just on here cause I'm fucking miserable and lolcow makes me laugh kek. Haven't been on here in years.
20 years since I was 8. Damn.
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>>2277041nayrt but happy birthday anon
No. 2277069
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>>2277041Happy birthday Bitch!!!!!!
No. 2277089
>>2277084oh god this is really ..really relatable. I spoke to a guy for a whole year who I think is my soulmate.. but for reasons I won't share I just knew we could never be a thing. Even though I knew that , and made that clear to him, we just continued talking because we were obsessed with each other. Thankfully he ended up doing something super fucking fucked up and that ended things, but if that didn't happen, I basically just told him that we could just talk as friends with benefits until one of us finds someone. (Even though if he found someone I would have been distraught).
I would say if the reason you feel the need to cut it off completely is because you don't want to get their hopes up, I would just come up with some bullshit about how you're not doing well and need to take a break from dating completely. Literally just ask to be friends and keep in touch if you like talking to them.
If it's because it's too hurtful to talk to someone you really like but can't be with… I have no advice because that was my problem. Talking to them knowing it could never be was better than cutting them off completely.
I guess I don't really have advice kek. Again it only ended for me because he pissed me off.
No. 2277104
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>>2277041Happy Birthday, kid.
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I hate being this late on my period. 9 whole days sometimes I want to ask my uterus imagine if I was 9 days late to class or 9 days late to work girl I would be fired. But she dgaf. This isn't even the latest I've been, once it was 10 days once it was 12. I took a pregnancy test and it's negative thank GOD but I know false negatives happen. This happens when I'm really stressed typically (and I have been) but I wish my body would just work normally. Being scared about being pregnant just makes me more stressed
No. 2277185
>>2276362if you have a weak jaw, chin lipo and buccal fat won't help. if you only have a weak chin (it almost never is the case), then genioplasty can help. if not, double jaw surgery will actually fix it and if it's fucked and you exaggerate your symptoms, insurance or NHS will cover it.
spending your money on other shit when you have to fix the underlying problem is just throwing money away
No. 2277378
>>2277369Just keep getting your macros in, maybe introduce some daily vitamins and specific mental clarity focused vitamins. Take up meditation, maintain good sleep hygiene, read a bit of a book every day if you can.
How long ago was the anorexia? It's probably just a waiting game atp, but I bet you're still not getting your macros in a day.
No. 2277387
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I just got fired yesterday. Someone who wasnt in direct contact with me told HR they over heard mem using bad language (profanity) at 9am. The entire day, I was told to do menial tasks. By 1pm, I was told I was no longer needed. I'm heart broken. Like, right before the holidays. I was going to get paid more money for volunteering to work through thanksgiving weekend. I hope the man who went straight to HR instead of my actual boss dies horrible. I hate men so much. Now I'm filing for unemployment. Wish me luck, nonnies
No. 2277394
>>2277387Immediate dismissal over a swear word?
Really? I could understand it if you screamed profanities at customers or something but that seems like huge overkill. I'm very sorry nonna, good luck with the holidays.
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There is something the fuck wrong with me physically, and I have known for a while now that my body is not functioning properly, but I haven't been able to tell anyone at length or get myself to the doctor because I've narrowed it down to cystic fibrosis or ASS CANCER!!!! What if I go to the fucking doctor and he tells me I have FUCKING ASS CANCER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
No. 2277436
>>2275357the assignment is to do a sociological biography about yourself analyzing 3 topics we learned about this semester like socialization, religion, gender identity etc.
an update for anynonnie who cares is that I went to walk-in tutoring yesterday and formed a game plan with a tutor and I am probably gonna go back today and keep working. proud of myself.
No. 2277487
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I am terrified of becoming pregnant. I think at this point it's become an actual phobia, it keeps me up at night and prevents me from falling asleep. I just sit there and panic even though I've only had sex twice recently, both times with a condom and I have an IUD. I'm mostly nervous today because I haven't gotten my period, although I have had very irregular periods all my life. With how cautious I have been, the chances of me actually being pregnant are almost zero, yet I'm still scared regardless. I've considered getting my tubes tied, but I hesitate because I am aware that there is the tiniest chance of me changing my mind later. At this point in my life I am a half-baked person. At the same time, I've never really desired to be a mother so I'm conflicted. I don't have anyone to talk to about this because I'm unfortunately an autist with mostly male friends and they would not be able to really truly get the very real body-horror nightmare that is pregnancy and birth. My boyfriend does his best to comfort and listen when I talk to him about this, but like my friends, he's a man. The fear can be heard but it can't be understood by them as they lack the ability for this to happen to their bodies. I wish I had girlfriends to talk to about this, I miss having a big group of other women that I could converse and relate to on a more personal level. I feel very hollow thinking about this, like I don't belong where I am right now. Overall I'm just sad and scared. And very, very lonely. I know I'm screaming into the void and that this is probably very messy, but if you took the time to read this, thank you. I hope whatever troubles you have pass sooner rather than later.
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Mfw some rude, snobby Ukrainian asks me what I'm doing in my own fucking country that I was born and raised in when they're an immigrant that only arrived here 2 years ago. Fucking kek, where do they find the audacity?
No. 2277667
>>2266886I reported it, and interestingly both the manager and co-workers who witnessed one incident hypothesised he was possessive or jealous because I was nice to other people (particularly men) in the office but not him anymore.
It probably went about as well as it could've considering EVERYONE involved besides me is male. But I hate that it can quite honestly only come to a head, maybe with a big argument or further accusations etc. I'm glad I didn't report earlier incidents because I had too much other shit going on, because this is low key stressful despite the support.
On one hand I'm glad to have grown enough to know when I SHOULD report. But I wonder if I'm really as outspoken as I think I am if I let it reach such levels that my male co-workers are urging me to please report it before I actually acted. I was shaking with nerves too.
It was like that time I had a full breakdown and had to leave work early just telling a ex co-worker "those comments weren't appropriate" when he was making sexist remarks. It's honestly embarrassing that such small acts have a profound physical effect on me. On one hand I'm proud because it was DIFFICULT, clearly. On the other it's like…get a grip.
No. 2277671
>>2277583Thank you, anon. That really means a lot. Unfortunately, I need them for reference otherwise I'd have already walked out tbh. The job is a shitty fast food place, but it was the only place that would take me when I really needed one. it's not worth all the mental gymnastics though.
>>2277609I'm sorry that you're going through the same situation, anon. Feel you on the shit pay, and I hope that something better comes across your path so you can leave that place. Thank you for your encouragement, I'm feeling a bit better about leaving when I'm able.
No. 2277700
>>2277563Kek, good idea nona.
>>2277589No, I'm Irish
No. 2277701
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I was abandoned by my dad as a child and was raised by my bipolar narc mom and narc grandma who exchanged me like a hot potato throughout my life. Nobody taught me anything and I had to basically raise myself. My grandma liked fattening me up to spite my mom so whenever my mom remembered me she would lose her shit and make me starve myself. Because of them I moved countries over twenty times before I turned 16. My dad pretends I don't exist and I haven't talked to him in 15 years. I wish I had just been an orphan.
No. 2277708
>>2277343Ayrt, I hear what you're saying, and it's up to you. From what it sounds like, she's really immature and doesn't care about how it affects other people because the consequences haven't outweighed the benefits she gets from attention whoring. She knows she shouldn't be telling people at a party she was just cutting in the shower.
Option one is to be direct with her. When she does it again, tell her that you understand she suffers from mental illness, but she's still making remarks you've asked her not to many times. You no longer want to speak about this topic with her.
If she continues her behavior, or she's too big a cow for this to go well, move into option two, which is creating intentional distance. Slowly, at a pace she won't notice, start becoming busier and take more time to answer her texts. Focus on activities you'd like to spend more time on, or join a group or volunteer opportunity to start taking up the time you typically spend with her. If she asks, you can use the excuse that you're being needed more often at work or by family. This way she can't be invited along.
I know you feel guilty because you've known her for so long, but sometimes we outgrow friends. She doesn't seem to be the best option for a friend if you're recovering from an ED, or if you have a career where weight fluctuations are the norm. And of course I suggest focusing on becoming more comfortable with yourself and your body, but you already knew that kek.
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I'm buying Christmas gifts for my family and I'm really trying to buy stuff they'll all like and use, but I just know that none of them are going to give me anything back. The one that actually does try admitted he's just going to give me a gift card.
Honestly, I know they don't like me that much and me buying Christmas presents is just kind of a sad motion to go "hey, I'm not that bad right?" but I feel pretty pathetic all the same.
No. 2277756
>>2277721I guess he figured my reaction because he just came back with a lava lamp ha (I've been eyeing them for a good while now).
>>2277723Yeah, honestly my parents are the type to passively bring it up a lot if I don't, honestly though I think it's more of a problem with me.
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Just had some pathetic moid flash his gun at me while driving because he didn't want me to merge in front of him. I grabbed his license and called the police to report him, but it'd turn into a whole thing where I'd have to stop and talk to an officer and I really didn't and don't feel like doing that. Gonna see if I can file a police report online, otherwise I'm considering paying for a license lookup to find out his identity and if he has a job tell them about this and try and ruin his life at least a little bit. I'm so unbelievably angry right now. Mainly because I had to let this fucking coward go ahead of me and suck up my pride. Took everything in me to not roll down my window to scream at him, lest I fucking die over it. UGHHHHHHHHHH!
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>bedridden from period
>horny over husbando
>janitor.ai down
No. 2277876
>>2277865Ntayrt
they're screwing with you on purpose, ask for a detailed paystub and demand your pay with a breakdown and report them if you can. this is terrible. don't feel stupid. I had an employer do the same thing.
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that schoolboy9 retard triggers muh ocd and i still keep seeing him literally everywhere on the internet. fml
No. 2277887
>>2277819I used to be in similar situations all the time so I really hope things get better for you. Once you're able to live alone life will be so nice so just keep going.
Weird that they bought your sisters cars but didn't get you one, did you ever ask why that is?
Asking because my younger siblings would always bitch and moan about me getting better things than them but then they got the same ones once they reached whatever age I was and you sound very immature kek No. 2277888
>>2277878Your ocd for what? How would he
trigger it?