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Worst day of my life
No. 2289969
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It's 7 pm, I have a midterm tomorrow that I didn't study for at all and I'm having crazy and painful diarrhea on the toilet
No. 2290074
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Submitted my complaints about my old employers to the department of labor and it’s been 4 months with no response REEEEEEE just let me know if I’m gonna get money or not
No. 2290157
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There's this guy in one of my classes who I think has taken an interest in me, he seems a few years older since he's a veteran and I have had him stare at me or stand next to me when I'm doing work to watch what Im looking at. Today he came by to talk to me and look at my project and even complimented it when it was literally dismantled and I don't know why but I get such a strange (bad) feeling when I think of the idea of going out with him, he's pretty attractive but the idea makes me uncomfortable and I have some interest in this girl I work with but I don't think she really wants to be involved in that sort of thing. I also feel like a relationship with him would be a bad dynamic for some reason, plus I have no experience dating and I'm trying to get my shit together for school. My friend told me to be polite but short towards him but I don't know what I would do if he asked me for my contact info. Maybe I'm seeing it wrong and being kinda egotistical to think he likes me in that way.
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Woke up to my phone having this stupid green line, but only one and right in the centre unlike pic
I use my phone mostly at night and the line is so bright right now compared to my low brightness
If only it gave me a pink line instead, woulda been less obnoxious
No. 2290703
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>Read a post from a woman, who recently got diagnosed with ADHD/autism, outlining all of her symptoms
>I have like over half of the symptoms
I don't think I have ADHD or autism, but damn.
No. 2291057
>>2291040Know you didn’t ask and it doesn’t make a massive difference but caffeine eye cream helped me a little bit on days where it seemed worse than usual kek. Just don’t get any injectables under them
nonny.
No. 2291082
>>2291040Do people really find dark spots under eyes unattractive? Are you sure you're not psyching yourself out like the hip dip weirdos? This probably doesn't mean much coming from a lesbian if you're straight, but I feel like eyebags on a woman are just a feature, like a big nose or narrow eyes. I think they're cute.
Eyebags can also be caused by not drinking enough water or being deficient in certain vitamins, so try seeing if those are the problem before falling down the makeup well!
No. 2291083
>>2291057i might look into that, thanks
>>2291060haha im glad at least someone likes them, idk if i have the type of face that pulls it off, though
No. 2291140
>>2291129For me it's because I like to make myself harder to keep track of online. I also sometimes try to message people to strike up a friendship with them, but after a few minutes of awkward conversation I change my mind and delete the entire account.
Basically, it's a bit like trying to recreate a semi-anonymity on account-based websites.
No. 2291232
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This have gone completely downhill with this moid I was interested in but I know its for the best. He’s very charming and talks to a lot of people but it always seemed to be right on the edge of flirting. I think he just needs a fuckton of validation. I let my guard down because we genuinely seemed to have a lot in common but he fucked it up. We were getting along for awhile but then he randomly pulled away and got really nervous and couldn’t approach me anymore. He’d say hi but in a very awkward way. Then he blatantly flirted with some girl in front of me and I got so pissed I just stopped acknowledging him. Now that I’ve snubbed him he’s been actively avoiding this girl and steals glances at me. He also will hang around where I’m at and then just abruptly exit if I don’t acknowledge him. He used to bounce around and stay the entire day at school but now he’s leaving early. Maybe it’s in my head but I really think he’s not used to women not chasing him once he starts his shit. I hope I’ve gotten under his skin. I know it’s good he showed his true colors before any real attachment happened but we do really have a lot of common and good chemistry and I’m disappointed he’s just another manipulative loser.
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I have this friend group who a couple of years ago started a "inspiration group" since a couple of them are fairly successful webcomic artists and they wanted to encourage the rest of us to start our own projects while also getting some feedback on their upcoming projects. I told them at the start that I'm not quite sure what I'm doing in there since while I have a few story ideas I don't have the time to draw or write because of my fulltime studies (I'm extremely self-critical so it was very hard balancing studies with picking up an artform that has been lost to me for 10+ years, I can barely even draw stick figures anymore), but everyone encouraged me and said I can take my own time and that my feedback is valuable too.
Lately I've been feeling the pressure; the others are well on their ways to release their projects soon, while I have only written down the characters, story beats and ideas for arcs. I feel more useless in the group than ever, and I've voiced my thoughts about leaving the group but still hanging out whenever it's not art related because I feel like I'm just the useless group mascot that sometimes brings homemade pastries at this point. I don't bring anything to the table. But I still get asked to stay and take my time. However, one of them have started getting…I wouldn't say passive aggressive, but there is this tone to her voice when she says "so anon, when are you starting your projects? We're waiting. Of course, not to put any pressure on you - I know you're busy" . I know her well enough to know she doesn't mean any harm, but it really put a lot more pressure on me and now I get anxious whenever anyone asks for feedback in the chatgroup now or plans for another "inspo meetup" comes up. I don't know what to do, I've even looked for a cheap private art tutor that might help me get up to speed so I can start with something because I'm feeling like a failure.
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I hate my group in this class, they are all dumbasses who can’t do their work on time, write worth a shit, or be able to read directions. They’re so lazy and so stupid that I am appalled they have gotten this far in the program. If this is the quality of new grads no wonder they can’t find any jobs, they’re garbage students and most likely would be garbage employees. Not everyone should go to college and those who do shouldn’t automatically get degrees. Ugh.
No. 2291464
>>2291441I've never been into hard drugs but my friends who are, are always doing something. They're still functional addicts at this point so they don't have to hustle to buy drugs so they're in the sweet spot of having a good job and then benders every weekend. They have people around them constantly and it's a completely different social system than the straight world. Someone can steal from them and a few months later they'll be partying together again, when just mere social faux pas for normies will have people holding grudges against you for months. It's fascinating to be close to as someone who's not participating in a lot of the drugs they're doing.
I'm glad you've recovered and I wish you well, your perspective on this is very interesting.
No. 2291480
>>2291464yeah i've been deeper than that, like not just weekend party use but i've known people who inject themselves in public toilets and shit, i personally never went to that ven if my drug use was more than just the functional party addicts type of thing.
like the life is nothing to miss, it is horrible, like these kind of personal laws and shit about how once me and my friend got beaten up by one person and then my friends went and beat that person up as a revenge and after that we were pals and used together like that kind of thing but still i miss it even if i know it is a horrible life and back then in those fucked up situations i kept thinking about how i just want a normal life
No. 2291516
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A male friend of mine (the closest thing I'd consider to having a scrote as a 'best friend'), just informed me that he's a transwoman now, and that he and his girlfriend are still going to stay happily together.
I don't know his girlfriend super well but holy shit I wonder what she thinks of this. We've never talked politics before but I know she's on the "woke"/PC side, she might be a handmaiden. I wish I could tell her to run, kek.
I personally know 2 other scrotes who trooned out since 2021 (and I already expected it from both of them - both Aspie, anime-obsessed "gamer" types), but I literally never, ever would have seen this coming from this particular man. He has never been creepy or weird, he's not terminally online, this is all so bizarre to me and I feel weirdly sad that I basically lost a friend now. I'm just so fucking tired of this shit.
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>>2291455Happy birthday
nonnie ♥
No. 2291566
My ex broke up with me because we were long distance, his family didn't like me much because I'm quiet and he was basically broke with a super busy schedule being in the army and maybe, yeah, this is reasonable and I can understand why dating me would be difficult but I feel like he just didn't try enough to save our relationship. I think it's his family that ruined everything, they're country bumpkins and kinda weird in some aspects (his older sister smokes and has tattoos and she's hiding it from them for instance) and I feel like they pressured him to go in the army to basically escape poverty. He's not into nerdy stuff or business oriented so other than hard labour this was the only option for him. I'm just mad because we had chemistry, we matched so well, shared the same values, had the same interests, even our bodies felt like they were made for each other, but in the end he chose his career and family over me. Even though he didn't even have to make this choice, I feel like he simply didn't love me enough but I'll never forget how frustrated and angry he was the day after he talked with his family about me. He was so pissed about them not liking me, but still didn't want to defend me, claimed instead he just had other expectations and it's pretty much my fault that I fucked up and wasn't likable enough. If them not liking me makes you so angry, then fight for your relationship you dumbass instead of throwing a tantrum and getting rid of me like a piece of garbage.
No. 2291588
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I'm like, asexual - not in the "identity" sense, idk if I really believe in that, but in the sense that I have some combination of low sex drive + psychological issues that make sex seem beyond impossible – and it makes me feel like I can never have a relationship. I'm into women so maybe I could be with a pillow princess, but idk, I can't imagine being with someone who doesn't want to get naked is fulfilling for any normal person. I crave a romantic relationship and I feel so defective and weird. Being able to be sexually normal would be such a weight off my shoulders.
No. 2291687
>>2291623Then leave him? Go find someone who matches your level and the lifestyle you want.
I genuinely don't understand why you think someone can afford jewelry on 45k a year though, assuming you are speaking about high jewelry. You seem a little spoiled and out of touch and this is coming from someone who doesn't need to ever work kek.
No. 2291744
>>2291623Not to be that person but what do you do in the relationship or are you just there to look hot? Why do you deserve that rich husband? If you come from money yourself I guess I get being accustomed to a lifestyle
aka spoiled as fuck but to just think you deserve such lavishness simply for existing is retarded. Calling his fam white trash prob won’t get you any closer to any of their funds either kek just dump him and go hunting for your big game catch if he’s out there for u
No. 2291747
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Nobody's following this but i'll post it anyways. Im picrel and my mom made an appointment with a psychiatrist that she didn't tell me about, because she and i need "help navigating the situation" and i need to "try a different medication". No amount of pills is going to me make less depressed retard, im not going to zombify myself so whats going on around me doesn't phase me anymore. But overall she wants help navigating this situation psychologically, financially, legally… with a male psychiatrist. Im worried the scrote is just going to side with my father or tell us how to tiptoe around him to not make things worse. Im killing myself soon atp.
No. 2291762
>>2291588Honestly
nonnie being scared to get undressed in front of others is normal, a lot of people have sex with the lights off or when it's dim, and there is a huge lead up before getting naked that will make you more comfortable doing it.
No. 2291792
>>2291747holy shit. When I read that your mom made an appointment with a psychiatrist, I initially thought you meant it was for your dad. I say this from the bottom of my heart, YOU'RE NOT THE ONE WHO NEEDS IT. It's not normal for a grown adult to mop up their own pee with a bathrobe and leave it, and walk around in pee-boxers, none of that is normal.I really hope everything goes well with the psychiatrist if you end up going, if your mom isn't in the room with you then tell them about the living environment that you're in, if they're worth their salt at all then that will be a huge red flag and they'll know it's not you that's the problem.
I promise you if you ever get the chance to move out, you'll feel so much better. As someone who was constantly depressed and feeling hopeless and suicidal while living at home with my parents and their mental issues, once I moved out with my partner it was like I could finally breathe and
surprise, it turns out I don't need to take depression meds anymore. Please don't kill yourself nona, I'm putting it out there to the universe that you'll find a safe and happy place to thrive sooner rather than later. We believe in you!
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Are happy vents allowed? I can't find a positive one. Here's a greentext either way
>Be me. developer of anxiety
>Used to be super social me but something went fucky with me two years ago.
>Every time I'm nervous I'm on the verge of puking or peeing and if there's people around me even if I haven't eaten or drank I just need to go somewhere away to be by myself and be alone and calm.
>That's a lovely feedback loop of my own anxiety building up the potential results of my anxiety to make it worse.
>I don't leave my house much (blessed are you wfh).
>I call myself the 15 min nonna because if I'm that far away from a safe place I can hide and puke or pee I can't do that.
>It's my friend's bday so I make the effort to leave my isolation.
>Today made a walk (4 mins), train (30 mins with bathrooms (remember bathrooms this will be important later)), walk (5 mins) to bar.
>Drink drink drink social fun.
>They want to move on but I really can't leave my complex map of places to hide in
>Bathroom, then train home.
>Train doesn't have a toilet and it's my worst fear. Cart overcrowded by people, can't sit down, can barely standup. I can't jump out the window because it's moving too fast, bathroom is broken (even thought I paid extra for one on the train you mfers)
>Breath calm, do my 333s, don't hair pull, still vibrating, get off, dry vomit in the first ally I see, nothing
That last bit sounds sad but I couldn't do a long train ride like that before and once I was home my urge to vomm and pee went away. It's not probably a lot for you but it's a ton for me. I'm gonna work on it and get better.
I'm clawing back myself. Google Maps says I made about 70km while being friendly and fun with my friends and I'm happy for that.
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It looks like some tranny moid is spamming porn images with links again, so I'm here to vent about how much I hate them. Here's an image to help bump that crap off the front page.
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I hate math so much I'm either gonna retake trig or finish with a 70% and everyone keeps asking me if I like math because of my major, like no bitch I just like creating real world things. It moves way too quickly for me and my backup plan was accounting but I can't even calculate compound interest anymore when I learned it last year for a different course.
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>watching youtube video of woman showing off her notebook and notes
>Cool
>talks about books she's reading and talks about an author she didn't want to quote because she's a TERF
Girl, you're going for a PHD and you're falling for tranny rhetoric? Jeez.
No. 2291877
>>2291872bet the author isn't even a
terf. she'll buy/read the books but can't say the boogymans name? kek. they're all so tiring
No. 2291948
Earlier in the day, mom insisted at the last minute that we go to the dump and throw garbage out, since she would never ask her favorite, my brother, to do it. "[Brother] shouldn't have to do everything!" is what mom always says, despite him not even cleaning the dog shit or sorting out his own trash.
So, when helping, I stupidly held some cloth garbage bag that I didnt know was wet, and some garbage smell seeped through onto my coat (that I made from scratch) and my clothes.
Went to do my own laundry and mom cuts me off and says she has to do my brothers laundry first. Notice king shit (my brother) doesnt have to do his own laundry despite being near 40, nor lug it downstairs like I have to. Mom knows Ive been having back issues and depression.
So now I have to wait to do my own clothes, which will possibly permanently stink like garbage, while shithead brother gets his done for him FIRST, for no reason other than he's a male. Oh, and ironed, of course.
I hate boymoms. Wish my mom wasnt a misogynist with double standards. What would it be like to have a mom that actually loves me, instead of putting males including stranger males before her own daughter?
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A 60 year old woman is attractive. And it makes moid angry? Why?
https://x.com/AuxGod_/status/1864382263477325856 No. 2291985
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My last appointment with my psychologist is 2 weeks from now and then he's retiring. I'm so fucking heartbroken over it, he's the only person in my life I feel close too in any way and can actually open up too without being judged or lectured. He says he wants to keep in touch with me and meet up for coffee or something but I'm still so terrified I'll never see him again, or he'll change his mind about keeping in touch. He's become like a father figure to me and I wish I could see him all the time. He said that he feels invested in my life the way a father or grandfather would be but I just keep second guessing everything. And I'm scared I'm not going to make any progress in my life still and disappoint him. I just feel so scared of losing him or letting him down in some way, he's been such an important part of my life for the past 7 years, he's the only man in my life who hasn't disappointed me in a significant way.
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>>2291982Yes. Look at the comments.
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>>2292005this is textbook bpd actually
No. 2292053
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I just saw top left tweet asking why women fetishize criminals. Under it I saw another tweet. The comments were men simping for a criminal.
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If I have to deal with one more arsehole this week, deciding to take a phone call at the exit to a cafe/shop, I'm going to get back inside, buy a knife and do society a favour by stabbing them.
I don't know what it is but it's happened three times this week.
It know it's raining so you don't want to go outside. It always fucking rains this isn't a new development. Take your call literally anywhere else and don't side eye me when I brush past. I'll learn necromancy and kill you twice.
No. 2292124
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Yesterday afternoon my liberal faggot of a brother unrioncally tried to strike up a conversation about how pedophiles just need help and understanding and therapy and that feeling the innate biological disgust towards them that makes you okay with murder or suicide regarding pedophiles is 'reactionary political thinking' that was used against blacks, gays, and trannies which is why it's wrong. He says this being a black homosexual, to a black lesbian. I genuinely am worried that he's going deeper and deeper into liberal political brain rot because holy shit I genuinely wanted to call him retarded point blank for this but considering he lost his shit and hyperventilated to tears over fucking pronouns I held my tongue.
No. 2292130
>>2292036>>2292043ayrt.. lol nah I don't think I have bpd.
>Unstable self image Not really? I only feel guilty or ashamed when I don't work hard enough or I feel lazy or greedy. Or when I'm feeling self-conscious, so I guess yes, sometimes.
>Dramatic changesI've had dramatic changes but only really during my teens and early adulthood when it's pretty normal to change heaps while trying to find yourself? Y'know?
>Incoherence Well, sure, maybe, but life is full of grey areas and nuances so my values and beliefs will vary sometimes? But that's normal I think?
>Over identification…okay, yes, but I like knowing terms for things? It's fascinating to learn about subsections of lives and the names for all the niche groups?
>Difficulty committing Nah I'm pretty fucking solid at commitment
>Chamelon-likeOkay, yes, no excuse for that one.
But I still don't think I have BPD. These all seem like pretty normal things? Just, taken out of context it COULD look like BPD?
No. 2292239
>>2292124look him in the eye and ask him why he feels more empathy towards the rapists than to his
victims. because that’s what this line of thinking comes down to. people don’t give a fuck about rape
victims and this is just the politically correct mental gymnastics way of saying you don’t care about
victims while trying to make yourself look like a good person. it’s always mostly men (and yes some male aligned pick mes) for some reason who are sympathetic to pedophiles i wonder why that is. do it in front of a tv so you can pop on audrie & daisy if he tries to spin it around back to people saying they should die. ask him who told him that offenders have a higher rate of suicide than their
victims. both of those girls have passed away by their own hand at this point. i still remember breaking down during quarantine when daisy decided to leave too. ask him if he has so much compassion why doesn’t he talk about that. why doesn’t he care and cry for and advocate for the
victims of pedophiles and rapists. act stupid even and ask him to explain what he means when he tries to wiggle out of it.
No. 2292319
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I have been doing a massive school project with a tif for a month or so and I'm the only one who knows she's a tif. It's insane how much the older women in my group coddle this stumpy ass lispy loser, one keeps giving her compliments on the huge workload she has done, getting defensive as fuck when I say all of that needed to be redone and it slowed us down. Without her we could have been done at least a week ago, maybe even two. It's kind of insane to see how much she gets away with, she joined a zoom meant for co-writing, on her phone. Whilst she was traveling, first she was on a bus, then the metro, then another bus, zero writing she did. Once she got off early from the zoom today, I went off and asked how is this shit fair, I would never act like this, none of you would ever let me act like this. I promised everyone weeks ago to act civil and just keep my mouth shut whenever I get angry, but how is this okay? It's also way too late to let any school faculty know, but I kept having to mute my mic just to not hate crime her ass today. My vent is that these 40yo pickmes will defend someone they think is a scrote even if it fucks up their grades, tragic. I'm actually going to email my professors right now, fuck this shit, she doesn't deserve the credits and grades, the little she did write is gibberish and not sourced, she just pulled it out of her testosterone riddled pimply ass, happy holidays to that slackjawed fuckhead.
No. 2292343
>>2292124Most pedophiles aren't people who deeply suffer from their attraction and fight it
Most pedophiles are selfish self absorbed cunts who think "eh whatever why not do it if i can get away with it" with no regard for the pain they cause
No. 2292376
>>2292344I dislike most vegetables too, though I hate fast food just as much. I've been trying to force myself to eat more of the ones I don't like so I get your struggle.
>>2292364A lot of them still taste like shit to me no matter how much I grew up
No. 2292396
My dad's wife's sister has a 1.5 year old baby and my dad and his wife are taking care of her for a while. I've been visiting him more lately just because, and I've been a bit disturbed by the way they take care of the baby. They're following the mother's instructions, so this is the normal way they treat her. The father, from what I heard, is a deadbeat.
Anyway, they put this child in front of the tv for like 10 hours straight. Her brain is so fried that she'll wake up and ask for someone to turn on the tv. She doesn't seem interested in playing with toys, drawing, or anything really. She jumps up and down and squeals when someone goes to turn on the tv. This part is unfortunately common nowadays, but it still disturbs me.
What really gets me, though, is that they give her melatonin every day. She was brought over to my father's by car in a 5 hour drive. They gave her melatonin for the whole trip, and they give it to her every night. I doubt they're portioning the pill for her weight, they're most likely giving her the whole pill. i know melatonin isn't a hard drug, but it still can't be good for a developing brain to be flooded with so much of a chemical that it should be learning to produce on its own.
No. 2292406
>>2291989It’s stupid because if she
did have kids, they’d be complaining that a mother/grandmother shouldn’t be trying to look sexy.
No. 2292442
>>2292423
>planet's done
You realize that a mass-extinction event would just be a karmic reset, right? When we're all killed by viruses, or war, or societal collapse, or famine, or purges, we don't really go anywhere. Here is all there is. There is no other place. We will all be reborn as flowers and trees. We will live and die in silence and stillness. We will root, blossom, bear fruit, and die, lifetime after lifetime, and in each lifetime our karma will improve. Then, when the age of blossoming is finished and that beautiful era has passed, we will become song and dance. All endings are illusory.
No. 2292445
>>2292400Eco fascism might be the only way we survive the climate collapse. Supreme power away from any corporations to ensure humanity lives. I'll probably die and everyone I know will but like it's the only way humans will still exist.
FEMA have a Climate Resilience plan
https://www.fema.gov/emergency-managers/risk-management/climate-resilienceThe idea that the US is planning for that says a lot.
I'll probably hear some plan of action called Climate Survival, Climate Control etc.
Funnily enough my little island is one of the few places set to get colder. See ya in a few years in the work camps
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>>2292452Fine. I have two of these things in my room and I still get mold. Also I can't keep heat in at all. I can't run a dehumidifier because it's really expensive on the electricity bill
No. 2292524
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>>2292509I’m having this issue too, nonna. I have carpet and now my whole apartment smells like mold
No. 2292557
>>2292524Carpet is the worst especially is you have pets. Even if you get it shampooed smells just lock in. If I ever get a place I'd like to get laminated wood so it's easy to clean and I can slide everywhere
>>2292532First poster here, I appreciate your advice but alas we don't have strong renting laws like that. If I complained the landlord would boot me out over some bs renovations and up the rent. I've tried to make a complaint in the past and all I got from the Residential Tenancies Board was a piece of paper saying they owed me that much and taking them to civil court to enforce it would cost more than my lawyers fees.
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My mom is still falling for stupid scams. She's trying to get me to buy glucooptimizer for her. She's convinced we all have parasites in us and this will somehow get rid of the parasites. The biggest joke is that it doesn't say anything about parasites on the bottle just energy support, healthy blood levels, and wellness support with asterisks on each one ofc. She never learns.
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>>2292524At least you guys aren’t stuck in yours
No. 2293430
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my self-confidence has been eroded by months of no work and no school and isolation atp. feeling very misanthropic and pissed off lately. i am embarrassed to admit at my big age that i am not in full control of my emotions insofar as being able to get out of depressive ruts. i feel good when i feel good and thats basically that. my energy and motivation fluctuates so often. what do i do to get in control of this bullshit, i hate being so inconsistent
No. 2293431
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>anon details how people in her city are getting fucked over because of jew money
>"haha seethe more i love seeing innocent americans suffer im a totally normal person btw"
Remind me why I'm not supposed to be an anti semite again when Jews are some of the most hateful, mean-spirited people on Earth to anyone that isn't them?(/pol/sperging)
No. 2293452
>>2293449Someone criticizes any other minority group on here
>yeah fairSomeone here criticizes jews
>u-um actually it has nothing to do with their religion and uhh uhh you're prejudiced and racist! No. 2293457
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>Goes out for an after work with the girls in my uni class
>I'm a lightweight and get a bit tipsy in no time
>Everyone are also really tired so we finish up early
>Still feeling like we didn't really get time to really hang out
>I end up promising to hold a potluck at my place the week after next
>Everyone gets really excited
>Regret everything the moment I get home
Every time
No. 2293498
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>shitty tourist event in my city that attracts retarded tourists from all over the country right now
>weekend completely ruined, have to stay home instead of doing anything outside so the police doesn't prevents me from going back home with barriers because muh safety
>cousin I hate, his wife and their baby barge in our family's home at the last minute because they couldn't find a hotel room
>it's nearly midnight and the baby won't stfu
>the same cousin once also barged in here months ago, stole my room and his retarded boymom made me sleep in the noisy as hell living room even though I was overworked and sleep depraved
>everyone calls me a selfish piece of shit for not enjoying the current situation because "his mom (my aunt) always let us sleep at her place when we visited the family abroad every summer! we should be grateful and help everyone as well!"
>sudden flashbacks of all my summers ruined until I became a legal adult because we all went to their shitty hot as fuck third world country, often during ramadan, had to sleep on the dirty floor for a month straight with my female cousins and giant cockroaches while that one male cousin had his own room, and the toilet in their apartment was inside the kitchen and only separated from the cooking appliance and food with a plastic shower curtain yes everyone always barged in and dramatically opened the curtain when I was taking a shit or vomiting in there I'm still traumatized
>sudden flashbacks about the later years when my aunt tried to miraculously make us steal the neighbor's wifi password from a whole different house but it was impossible so we spent entire months watching tv in a language we didn't understand at all
>sudden flashbacks of how that hospitality landed me and my sisters in the hospital many times with explosive diarrhea at best
>suddenly feeling even worse about the screaming baby right next to my room right now
No. 2293623
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I absolutely loathe seeing my own childhood pictures and how I looked as a kid. I feel sort of alone in this sentiment because everyone else I know finds themselves cute as a kid, but I only feel disgust with myself.
The only time in my life I can recall another person who felt disgust at their own childhood photos was this tanning addicted girl from some 2000s documentary who hated her childhood pictures because she was pale. My reasoning has nothing to do with tanning, but it was the only time I saw someone else who also hates their childhood photos.
No. 2293651
>>2293623Not just you! I also hate seeing myself as a child. I was meant to go through family photos and organize them, but I opened the first album and got nauseous. I had to stop when I got too upset because I didn't want to ruin the pictures.
>>2293636I didn't realize I was thinking similarly to you until I read your post. It's less "weak" and more retarded. Frustrated with how everything went and knowing I was the cause of it. I feel like I can see the autism physically manifesting in the photos kek
No. 2293886
>>2293878Yes! Do as other nonna said and bring it to the police. If you don't have the letter anymore, wait until he sends another.
And don't kill yourself. He's a piece of shit who is getting off on taunting you. But he seems violent and unstable, and extremely retarded to boot. He will eventually land himself in prison and karma will see him right.
No. 2293888
>>2293878don't do anything
nonnie. you are still whole and he's the one that's disgusting. you can and will heal, while he can just rot.
No. 2293895
honestly i've realized that i handled things in the wrong way and i could have been more mature about it but it was my first time breaking up with someone and i didn't realize how much it hurt for you. at the same time i dont regret it because you're an awful person, at least to me. I've thought about apologizing recently and decided that it was too far gone and it would have only made it worse for the both of us. plus it was confirmed of how much hate we actually have for each other. if i didn't hate you before i certainly do now. no reason for me to write this other than the fact that i can use it as a way to get it out of my mind. while i'm here might as well get it all out, so i never have to think about it again. i only ever thought i loved you, but i dont think i ever truly did. i didn't know what love was until i realized i loved
someone else. you treated me well and we had a good relationship but there was just something between us that never felt right. i think we were too different to the point where it was just never going to work out. i never lied to you, even though i know you think i did. it may not have seemed it, but it was hard for me too. am completely over you which is why its weird that all this has been in my head for a few days.
I feel like i just left so much unsaid at the break up cause i didn't know how to say it and i just wanted it to be over with as quick as possible. obviously i know you dont have any care in the world for it at this point, and i dont necessarily care for you to know, which is why i'm writing it here and not telling it to you. i'm glad we not together anymore, but i wish i had ended things sooner, before it got to the point where it was even more painful for you. i thought i was doing the right thing by waiting it out, because i didn't want to hurt you, but now i know the way i did it was awful. i never meant to hurt you in the ways that i did. now that i have written this, hopefully i never think of you again, not that i really did anyways.
this is what he wrote. it isn’t a good enough confession. i’m a terrible person and he hates me more than he realized i guess because he worked with kids at a traveling animal entertainment show and i told his boss he raped me and then dated an underage girl and he can’t be around children with his history. doing that years later apparently means i deserved to be raped.
No. 2293908
>>2293901Oh, sorry, anon. I thought he was saying he didn't regret breaking up with you because he also said he didn't want or mean to hurt you at the end of the letter, and then also said he's glad you weren't together anymore.
I'm sorry he sent you this letter because he really shouldn't have. Moids are retarded and think every thought passing through their heads is worth something. I'm assuming he texted or emailed it to you, and you should block him. Leave his messages unread and move on bc he isn't worth your time or stress. I also hope you can find someone to talk to about this to help you heal.
No. 2293912
>>2293904Make sure you are using soft bristle toothbrushes! You can also wear your enamel down by brushing too hard, so buy an enamel restorative toothpaste. See if increasing flossing will help bc apparently that reduces cavities more. I don't think you're dumb or anything, but apparently lots of dentists are lazy when teaching people how to floss, so try looking up how to floss to make sure you're doing it efficiently.
Dental care should be free and current events should propel us towards this in the future!
No. 2293923
>>2293915I think you are probably the only one who could understand his motives as you know him and we are anons. But it could be so many things, including what you mentioned thinking his motive was. He could have written it to make you think of him again, or because he was offloading his emotional stress onto you instead of finding a therapist, or to feel out if you wanted to get back together (scum), or because he is retarded. I'm telling you from experience that trying to understand his motive will drive you insane because you will never get a real answer. It will probably be more productive to distract yourself from thinking about him until you're far enough away from the situation to consider it a little more objectively, which could take more than a few years!
Some people will never feel bad for the things they did and we have to accept that and remember that to help ourselves move on. It's not fair, but like other anons said, people will receive what they put out in the world.
No. 2294130
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Booked a generic trip to another country because I actually do want to see all those unique things even if it's considered touristy, now I keep getting recommended posts and shorts about how totally overrated those places are and how you shouldn't go to them.
Yeah sure Mr Local Person of course you who grew up seeing those things on the daily don't think they're that special but my country literally has nothing like it so it will still be fun for me. It seems so stupid to me to go to like Rome because you love history and say "Did I see the colosseum and pantheon? Eww no, cringe and too many tourists, I instead went to a restaurant, did some modern shopping and looked at some cattle in the countryside like a true native".
I don't even mind crowds being there, I think it's cute kind of being in a group from all over the world and we're all there for the same thing and get this experience together. I once took a trip in Europe and kept running into a Japanese couple who didn't speak English so we couldn't even communicate, but every time we saw each other we'd do a little smile and wave as if we were friends. I treasure those little moments!
No. 2294134
>>2294130Anon this is such a sweet way of looking at things and has helped some of my anxiety about traveling. My best friends want to travel, and I'll do it for them, but I feel nervous about it for dumb reasons. One of them being getting in the way of other tourists?! But it's really cute there's some solidarity. I'm sure that couple remembers you fondly as well!
I hope you have lots of fun on your trip!
No. 2294182
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I've always had a bad relationship with money. I always get nervous when it comes to big purchases. Today I wanted to buy a pair of ice skates, something at a beginner level, nothing too pretentious. I walked into a shop, ended up placing an order for about 200 euros. I know it's around the expected price for something that isn't cheap garbage, but for me it's still such a high amount of money. It makes me want to cry and throw up. I'm now at the coping stage, trying to tell myself that it's not a big deal and that I've seen people who waste far more in a single month, but it's not helping (probably because my brain is aware that this is cope). Worst part is that I'm not even sure if I'm being reasonable or if it's some sort of mental illness talking. It's not like this will put me in debt or anything, I can cover the price easily, and it's not like I make these kinds of purchases often. But I also know that I lowkey fucked up because sure, I ice skate sometimes, but it's not like I'm taking a course or anything. I did plan to, but I had nothing concrete lined up. Now I'm feeling a deep sense of panic, like I just ruined my finances forever, and I have to scramble for a way to justify the price of this purchase to my brain right fucking NOW. I hate buying, I hate spending, I hate this gay earth. I hate myself for freaking out whenever I make a non-essential purchase that costs more than 30 euros. I want to dig a hole and jump in it
No. 2294346
>>2294130Those shorts are so dumb. Of course some things are gonna be touristy, it's because they're worth seeing and guess what, I'm a tourist so I'm gonna do touristy things on my vacation.
I don't pay to go to Italy just so I can work in a factory for min wage and live in the suburbs for 10 days to get "the local experience".
I also hate people who worry about looking "like a tourist" while on their backpacking vacation. You're gonna look like one no matter what because you are one? And that's ok. It's not like locals will carry a huge backpack or camera on them, or wear sensible walking shoes to go to the store and back home. Just enjoy your time and stop worrying about fitting in.
No. 2294355
>>2293068I just don't see why they care so much.
It's not like Adriana Lima or Zendaya will personally come to their village and tell them sorry queen I'll shave my head and kill myself now because you find me unattractive I'm sorry. Some posters really need to eat some fiber and read a book or something, maybe they'll feel better about themselves.
No. 2294369
>>2294338>that anon is not responsible for your seizure disorder, like get realwhere in my post does it say “that anon is responsible for my seizure disorder”? i said that after the posts she made and the pathetically falsified story she told us about one of her “lesbian classmates defending her rapist the hardest”, it made me think about my rape, and it resulted in me suffering from seizures. thats not
blaming it on her, it’s blaming it on her behavior.
No. 2294384
>>2294338We've been getting an influx of it in multiple threads in /ot/, and in /meta/ as well. I'm hoping it's just the one anon, but from the sperging and post styles I'm afraid it's at least three. The way they argue gives them away every time.
Do you know which thread the infight was in? This is like the third thread I've seen her bring it up in, I want to read it for myself.
No. 2294428
>>2294384It was the unpopular opinions thread before the newest one. It's absolutely some retarded trolling troupe from tumblr. Zomg your anecdote gave me SEIZURES because you mentioned RAPE,
TRIGGER WARNING MUCH? It's just the most retarded kind of bait.
No. 2294496
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What a beautiful gift santa is bringing me this year kek
No. 2294617
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>tfw when im lurking a infight thread gathering info on both sides to make a funni meme
No. 2294701
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Haven’t blocked my ex but have had him silenced since I need to get my stuff still. Went to text him about picking it up only to see he has messaged me 10+ times in the past week despite being the one to initiate the breakup months ago. How fucking pathetic.
No. 2294815
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I started a YouTube channel for fun and it gained a lot of traction unexpectedly. And I fucking hate it. I talk a lot about social issues and of course I have to mince my words to avoid attracting retarded idpol discourse and cancellation, but people are offended by even my most lukewarm takes. Every day I wake up to someone accusing me of some form of -ism or -phobia, telling me to kill myself, calling me ugly, or talking about how grating my voice is. Mind you, the most radical opinion I’ve ever expressed on my channel is that sex work and makeup isn’t empowering. The worst part is that I just moved and don’t have a job so this is currently my only source of income. I had someone write up a whole paragraph in my comments calling me ableist because I mentioned that a sadistic paraphile had narcissistic personality disorder. It would be funny if it wasn’t all so bleak
No. 2294830
>>2294815Just do you nonna, retards will keep being retarded all the same. Stick to your truth and be unapologetic (in a smart way though, you just have to make things more palatable). I follow these YouTuber who I pretty much agree on with many topics , like hookup culture, social media etc. Anything gets labeled a phobia now, I assure you that even if you were handmaiden n1 retards would still find a way to complain , there are clearly people who like listening to you, so don’t worry.
What’s your opinions on troons by the way?
No. 2294968
>>2294870Based
nonnie, wish I could find your YouTube and watch your content! But don’t put yourself on lolcow though kek.
No. 2295365
>>2295360Yeah, that's what I said. But cum is grosser because it's someone else's bodily fluid, and men usually have terrible diets which makes their cum more like
toxic waste. But cum on face is considered normal which is what pisses me off. I want people to be as disgusted by cum as they are by period blood
No. 2295444
>>2295432gonna spoiler because i really don't want this to upset anyone or reawaken the infight but
yesterday afternoon there was an infight where the topic at hand was rape, and this morning an anon who apparently was also a rape victim came into the vent thread this morning complaining about how the discussion resulted in her PTSD from rape giving her seizures because the conversation they were having made her think of it, and her posts were redtexted as baiting and trolling which made me kind of anxious for a second because…what if shes being serious? i hate,
hate thinking about anons getting sick or let alone having a seizure which could potentially kill them.
No. 2295452
>>2295444Was anon asking for
trigger warnings or some shit? ( also it should be a no brainer not to visit the vent thread If you literally have seizures from words) Or perhaps the farmhand noticed the post history and thus concluded it was a troll
No. 2295603
>>2295584the easter bunny is made up, anon. rape
victims suffering from ptsd induced seizures is a very real phenomenon.
(trying to revive an old infight) No. 2295770
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the company that was going to revive my fav childhood series and make it into a full movie got liquidated
No. 2295779
Struggling to stay sober from alcohol and weed. I suffer from really severe hyperarousal, because of CPTSD (dysfunctional parents that hated each other and themselves and always struggling with money, and took it out on me as the oldest physically/mentally/financially). I've also been diagnosed with ADHD and Autism (more like aspergers but I digress) and the possibility of OCD is there, but honestly a part of me is leaning towards it all just stemming from my brain developing under stress constantly, I don't know. I would cry myself before bed regularly, and we lived in a cycle of maybe one or two days would be okay, and then some terrible screaming match fight would happen and it would just repeat over and over.
I haven't lived with them for a few years now, so I'm not currently under stress now. But I recently had a long drawn out falling out with one of my closest friends, and then I alienated my whole friend group because I peaked and couldn't take it anymore. I don't regret speaking up for myself, but that + other instances after has made me incredibly angry/frustrated with the world and I hate how miserable I am. I don't like the kind of hateful person I've become, but it feels justified. I feel like so many people are dishonest, either to other people or themself, and there's no loyalty or actual connection with anyone. Everyone around me comes off as a vapid husk except for one family member. I'm so desperate for interaction with other people but I can't stomach the thought of becoming friends with someone and being betrayed by them, and since I've peaked I'm alienated from most of my peers too since I don't want to compromise my political views.
By using weed and alcohol, my brain is finally quiet, and I feel so happy/at ease. But I really don't enjoy how my body reacts to alcohol the next day (very fast heartbeat that kind of freaks me out/makes me worry I'll have a heart attack), and weed just makes me feel very sluggish the next day when I want to be productive (I struggle with self discipline already). My psychiatrist has suggested SSRIs before, and I declined because even though I'm miserable a lot of the time I still want to be able to savour when I do feel happy. But I'm starting to rethink it. Has anyone here dealt with antidepressants, or learning how to cope without succumbing to the big happiness boost alcohol/weed gives? I'm scared that my brain has grown deformed and permaneantly biased towards negative thought, it feels like it's actively sabotaging me and it just won't shut up. I've been in therapy for a year now and it's helped in some ways, but I'm just scared I won't be happy unless it's artificially induced. It feels like my brain is never satisfied.
No. 2295791
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My mom is making menudo and it smells delicious, I can't have any tho because I'm on a cut REEEEE
No. 2296017
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>>2295920Well, this is embarrassing but the book is
the Vampire Lestat by Anne Rice. I’ll post the relevant three pages for you.
(1/3)
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>>2295920>>2296017(3/3)
I don’t know how other people will read this, but the unhinged anxiety and all consuming questioning reminded me of how I was before getting medicated.
No. 2296105
>>2296097She didn't say that… anon said she had been diagnosed with OCD, has been on a treatment plan specifically for OCD, and the text reminded her of the feelings she had while her OCD was untreated. She mentioned the writer also had OCD and found the text more interesting because of this fact. That's it.
You should try reading the full context of conversations before extrapolating shit nobody ever said.
No. 2296106
>>2296017Can't really speak to the OCD connection, as that was never my diagnosis, but I remember having a nearly identical conversation with a concerned family member around age 20 in the midst of a dark couple of years, having read too much Emil Cioran. Like
>>2296097says, I think a lot of people have been there.
Glad medication worked for you though. Never did much for me.
No. 2296209
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I watched a documentary (2016) on this chess champion with my parents (it was just on tv, nobody actually chose it) and they kept showing newspapers and interviews in which the writer/tv-host would try to gaslight us into thinking he's attractive, saying things like "he's got the brains and the looks", "this young handsome chess champion…" but he's so fugly. Like actually straight up ugly, not even average looking. He's like mid 20s in this pic btw, he looks like a giant caveman toddler!
I'm also Scandinavian like him so I'm not being racist kek. It just got so ridiculous, just because he's good at something doesn't automatically make his face better, like what the fuck?! We have eyes!!!
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>>2296209He looks like thwomp.
No. 2296254
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Third power outage in three days. It's driving fucking me crazy.
No. 2296321
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IM SO FUCKING TIRED OF THE DICKSUCKING PICKME HANDMAIDENS IN THE NIKKI DISCORD GTFO OUT OF MIRALAND "SAYING WHY WE GATEKEEPING NIKKI NOW??" bitch
No. 2296349
>>2295779>>i'm scared i won't be happy unless it's artificially induced, it feels like my brain is never satisfiedby artifically induced are you talking about the potential SSRI medications or the substances you're using?
If you're admittedly self medicating with substances that you would rather be sober from, I don't see what's the harm in trying a medication that could possibly be helpful.
No. 2296472
>>2296349I mean the alcohol and weed, yeah. My understanding is that anti-depressants dont make you actively happy, they just dull your emotions. My problem is because I'm so carefree/confident/laidback on weed and alcohol, that even when I try to do things I enjoy without them I'll be thinking about how much more fun they'd be with them (mainly in the evening, since that's when I would get drunk or high, and also when my emotions/thoughts tend to be worse than usual). Or if I have a really stressful night I'll start itching for one to just forget about everything.
I guess it's more worrying that if I go on anti-depressants or not I'll never be able to feel organically happy as much as I am on substances because my brain is physically unable to or stunted by the way I grew up. And if I do go on anti-depressants that I'll just feel numb, which I suppose is better than being miserable 90% of the time but I do enjoy the moments of happiness I do get.
No. 2296752
>>2296097Here are some articles that talk about Existential OCD and how it manifests.
https://iocdf.org/expert-opinions/to-be-or-not-to-be-that-is-the-obsession-existential-and-philosophical-ocd/https://www.healthline.com/health/mental-health/my-existential-crises-were-symptom-of-ocdAs
>>2296106 said these thought patterns can occur outside of OCD. Given the context that both the author had OCD and heavily identified with this character, as well as my own experience with the disorder, I don’t believe it’s a leap to say that it’s representative of those thought patterns.
No. 2297097
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I hate myself for not going to college but I'm self-aware enough to know that I would never have the motivation or intelligence to get a degree. When I look at former classmates from my elementary/high school, I feel pathetic. They've all gone to college/university and finished their degrees by now and have a successful career. I just don't understand how they do it. I don't have anything I'm passionate about so I guess my life's purpose is working dead-end minimum wage jobs until the day I die.
No. 2297213
I moved out of home, and am living with my friend. It is both of our first times living away from home, we attend the same University, pay the same rent and use the bins. However, within our two months of living together, she has taken the bin out one fucking time. I have to do it at least twice a week, our ratio is probably something like 20:1 for our fucking general area fucking bin. I give her ample opportunity to prove herself as a competent adult, I will leave the bin there days after it needs to be emptied to see if she will do it and she fucking wont she will start stacking things on top of it.
However, the worst part of all is that I discovered that she has had a bin in her room this whole time (the apartment came furnished), while I didn't. Rather than emptying this bin once it filled, as well as the general one if it needs it, I discovered she had been fucking emptying her personal bedroom bin, she has the luxury of, into the kitchen bin, which she then expects me to empty.
She has stopped doing this since, rather, taking the route of when her personal bin is full fucking taking it and placing it on a chair next to the general bin and door (we live in 30square m apartment) and waiting for me to take it out. Our grocery bags were moved from these chairs to the fucking floor, so she could put her RUBBISH that you put in the fucking RUBBISH BIN on it.
I know I just need to talk to her about it but we were friends before roommates (albeit not the closest) so it is really uncomfortable for me to act like her mother.
No. 2297259
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Where do these barbarians come from?
No. 2297265
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>>2297259I fucking hate the way these subhuman zoomers talk.
No. 2297310
>>2297265ugh
>>2297282agree, feels like it's out of control lately
No. 2297434
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I wish I had eyebrows.
No. 2297494
>>2297447Ayrt, really? Can I ask how you used them? And were they off-brand? Not trying to shill, but I've only used Crest and heard different ones will have different results.
Did you try asking your dentist about it? Maybe they will have advice. I don't know if they charge for this, but they have a little cup they fill with gel and have you bite down into and hold in your mouth for like 5 minutes, too.
No. 2297556
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I fucking radiate severe autism. I'm not even trying to be funny, it's so bad, even online. There is nothing I can do about it, I'm just stuck like this forever.
No. 2297621
>>2297595thank you nona i'm kind of used to it at this point
>>2297603i hate you
No. 2297689
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I'm going to brain myself if one more retard responds to another anon saying they don't want to have sex with a man or that they're gross and disgusting with "Maybe you're a lesbian or asexual uwu." DUMB FUCKS being a lesbian means being attracted to women not not being attracted to men and having a low libido or being completely turned off by how vile men are isn't a sexuality it's either (justifiable) anxiety and fear or a medical issue.
No. 2298276
>>2298251In my case it's because they took too long, but it depends on the person too.
Like a girl I talked to a few times in school contacted me years later, almost a decade later and I had so much fun talking with her.
But a supposed "best friend" I had in high-school has been trying really hard to connect with me again after a decade too and it feels obnoxious because she was supposed to be my best friend and she didn't try contacting me until she had a baby, then she was invasive as fuck because she texted my mom so she forced me to talk with the girl when I'm actively ignoring her.
It really depends on many things, I honestly don't really like to see people from my past trying to connect with me because I don't have too many good memories about the past in general, so I just want to forget them and only focus on the good things and the present.
No. 2298300
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i have an extreme desire to stop being "good" i want to fuck things up. i want to go to work and do my job and come home and be a menace. i'm ovulating. thats probably why. i should really be allowed to have fun in my own stupid way like one week out of the month cmon now. does anyone ever have actual fun nowadays im seriously asking
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There are so many things I want to do that are entirely achievable but I can’t bring myself to do them. Why am I like this nonas?
No. 2298356
>>2298349Nonas is “anon” backwards and its a term of endearment for your lolcow coworkers, same with
nonny, nonners, nonishka
No. 2298362
>>2298349It's just a variation of
nonnie, which comes from tumblr. It's a nickname for anonymous.
No. 2298431
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>>2298349With the purest of love in my heart, please lurk more. I recommend looking at very old, locked threads.
No. 2298439
>>2298362nonnie comes from
tumblr???
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nobody likes me, i know that it's probably my fault somehow, I can't put my finger on what is wrong with me and what needs fixing
No. 2298485
>>2298362>>2298439nonnie is older than tumblr, some anon communities used it back on livejournal and dreamwidth.
nona has also been used on some of these comms (sfd_anon/hms_anon) since like 2009.
No. 2298519
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Went to a friend's house yesterday, relaxed and suffered by trying 2x spicy Buldak ramen noodles together. Before that, we ate waffles from a hary potter fest stall. I couldn't poop yesterday, so I was really worried if I'm about to get constipated again. Good news, I pooped about half an hour ago.It's 10:59 am and I'm desperately trying to list out and focus on the good things that are happening to me. Because the next 2 days are very important for preparing for the quizzes and completing assignments. I cannot dwell on my horrible midterm performances. Last night, cse320 mid result was published and I did sooooo bad. I got 20.5 out of 30. That means I've already lost 9.5 marks. That also means I'm not going to be able to pull off A in this course. Very disappointing because cse320 is an easy one. I got 19.25 out of 25 in Bio101. Cse221 and cse250 marks aren't even out yet. And I know I did really bad in these 2. Trying my best to not let these results put me into a depressive episode.I have to focus on moving forward. I can to do better on the upcoming quizzes and finals. I must put my best foot forward to finish this semester strong with at least A-s.
No. 2298523
i always struggle around girls even in online circles because i dont conform and it was the same as a young girl. id only have the rare female friend over my life but itd be inconsistent because they are similarly different/to themselves or they get boyfriends. im an adult and feel retarded and stunted but my education and well paying job are both online. the places i go to volunteer or do lessons sometimes are filled with old people and if i want a friend my age idhave eto go to a bar. i tried a fucking bumble friend app and its all pot, sex, rap music, children? im not unique but i cant ascribe to that. i want a craft buddy, someone to birdwatch with, do yoga with, but its hard. i sometimes feel sad but if i tell myself i love myself, and i have animals to love and things to create, i think itll be okay, that it doesnt make me less than and i can have adventures on my own at any time. i think itd be nice to go to a bar with a female friend established, but to go alone and just meet someone? and i just feel like i dont have anything else to do but hike or volunteer. i sound infantile
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I actually hate being a virgin so much.I don’t even care about relationships anymore ,especially since no one else does either.I don’t even know why I tried looking for one for so long,I’m thinking of just getting rid of my card and being done with it.I hate relationship searching everyone is so disingenuous it makes me want to slam my head against a wall.
No. 2298563
>>2298548This has happened to me a lot of times. It can be a lot of things, but you should learn how to check your breasts for lumps if you don't already know how.
One thing's for sure: if you have cancer and DON'T go to the doctor, you will die from it. Make the appointment.
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i want to read an article so bad but sci-hub doesn't have it and it's relatively new. LET ME IN
No. 2298797
I don't even know how to word this since it sounds retarded typing it out, but it's grossing me out that my best friend's weird moid randomly lies about his life on Twitter of all fucking places, and throws in things that I've done instead. I've come to this realization like today. There's a high chance everything that isn't about me is about other people he knows too. Shit like, I recently moved to an apartment in a specific district that I was happy I could afford, he somehow claims he got one himself in the same place. He doesn't. They live together in hers. He makes bullshit comments about life advice and how to get a job, and it's a straight-up retelling of how I interviewed for mine. He has a better job than I do, he has no reason to lie about it. He repeats bits of advice I've only told to HER, not him. It makes sense my friend talks to him, no shit, but what's the fucking point. Why do that. I'm going to send her everything anyway but what the fuck. I didn't even have a problem with him before, I find him autistic and kindof dumb, but he's reasonably social. Is this some serial killer shit though? At least he's telling his bs to people that don't know him at all, so there's no way to disprove it, but still.
No. 2298843
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So which post is she referring to?
No. 2298897
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>Meet a moid, many years ago
>He's nice, funny, cute
>He tells me that he recently broke up with his gf because she has anorexia or some shit and he couldn't put up with such a terrible mental disease
>Kinda understand him, that shit sucks and I don't like to be around crazies either
>After we "officially" got together, he claims that his gf wants back his support
>I'm nosy so I look her up: she indeed posts ed shit so I believe him
>He falls down a heavy depression
>Support him, he starts treating me like shit and then says "Sorry, I'm very stressed!"
>Keeps treating me like shit, I gather my patience, thinking that eventually this girl had to go away
>I find out after a year that none of this shit was true, the girl is indeed sick but never texted him, he's just really really unstable and doesn't want accountability, nope the fuck out of it, he starts pestering and slandering me online, I keep silent because what the fuck
>Meet a new guy, he's nice, cool, my current nigel.
>This fucker textes him that I'm a bitch and I'm sick to the head, low empathy narc (his words) for leaving him at his lowest
>Tell him to fuck off and that he's a massive hypocrite for leaving his previous gf due to an ed and then telling me that I'm the asshole for leaving him
>The slander keeps on, I get basically shat on but I keep on with my life. Go to therapy.
>Realize what actually happened, realize that I also got abused (he molested me at night and then said that it was my fault for trusting him enough to sleep with him….), speak about it, factually. I talk about facts and never use bad words, in a support group, I don't say shit like "HE's a molester and he needs to die", I say stuff like "This and this happened and now I'm recovering" without ever naming him
>This is years later, he stalked me all of these years, he sent her new gf after me, like he did with me, he told me to check out his first gf posts to look out who hurt him, but I didn't do stuff because I didn't fucking care to contact this girl. His new gf screencaps all my posts
>Now I'm the stalker because I still talk about him after all of these years. Happened once.
>After I block his gf, which I didn't know that she was because she doesn't have any posts about him and I also remembered that he didn't want a picture together for reasons, because he didn't want to be seen online, he texts my fucking new nigel
>"Hello I think you know me, your gf is making me suffer, I understand she's angry but I'm sick, can you tell her to stop?"
>Told my nigel to block him
Sometimes I wonder how moids think that shit like this works? How can they make up stories about their past and themselves then feeling no shame when their lies get exposed? How they expected to be believed? I know that this type of people usually go after sensitive/kind people and take advantage to me but even at my worst version, I couldn't think about fabricating an entire web of lies just to get a gram of attention. I honestly pity both his old gf, which yea she was sick but it's not like she was that crazy and his new gf that probably thinks that she's helping him and doesn't know yet his antics. This stuff never works and yet they cannot understand why? Do they think that they can keep up? I know that's part of a mental illness but I never saw a woman act like this.
Yes I've been thinking about legal action, that is a whole different argument, I'm talking about a more psychological/sociological effect, why the fuck does this happen. I think that if he doesn't stop, I'll text his ex so we can connect the pieces.
No. 2298917
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>mfw I'm a esl neet whose whole family is now immigrating and I'll have to relearn how to be a different human and their customs so I can earn a living and assimilate and I'm going to go live in the most expensive city in the world and I have to do all this in just 6 months..
No. 2298939
>>2298917you can do it if you at least try
nonnie, i didn't want to try as a young brat moving back to my home country after being raised from birth in the USA, and now every joke about me in my friend group is my shit language and my friends have to help me with words like i'm a tard in special ed. if you don't try, you'll spend your days in that country wishing you had tried. assimilating a little bit is better than not assimilating at all.
No. 2298995
>>2298979I probably don't have anything that feels especially comforting to say, but you shouldn't kill yourself. Everything feels hard and unbearable because you've had a terrible life. Your family is unsupportive and
abusive. But the further away you get from them, the less terrible your life becomes. How are you going to have a chance to leave them behind if you kill yourself?
I know getting dumped hurts, but your boyfriend sounds like a loser. You should try being glad the trash took itself out, and don't let him convince you to get back with him.
Who cares about how old you are. Some people don't pick themselves up until their 50s. I wouldn't tell an older woman who was trapped with an
abusive husband for decades to kill herself because she wasted her whole life and can't do anything else with it. It's not over until you're dead.
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>>2299037…..
pizza rat city im hoping we can later on move to a more livable state.. No. 2299143
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Life is pain
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>>2299234Hi
nonny, I’m so sorry you’re going through this. It sounds like you have a lot on your plate and just one of the things you listed is difficult to manage, much less all of them. I lost my dad unexpectedly a bit over a year ago. I don’t have the answers you probably want, but I will tell what I wish I could have done if I had known it was coming. I would ask my dad a lot of questions about his life, what he thought about my current life path, what he hoped for me in the future, and whatever he wanted to share. I would have told him how much I loved him and how thankful I was for what he had done for me. And that I would always love him and look for him even when he was gone. Spending time together is the best thing you can do right now. Get some recordings of his voice as well if you don’t already have them. It’s surprising how quickly we forget how our loved ones sounded.
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It's kind of crazy how many weird racist spergs there are. I'm not even talking about the overt ones (who at least can be funny, like the sped in the back of the class), but the ones who try to make snide comments and (poorly) attempt to gaslight about it, and how angry they get when it doesn't work out like they thought it would. It must be some kind of inferiority complex blended with female(?) socialization. They have these weird urges to be nasty to others, but know they lack any real social power, so they try to maintain a veneer of politeness so they can cry wolf if someone addresses them directly. What they don't get is how low IQ they look trying to have it both ways, and how embarrassing it all is. You're supposed to grow out of being a crybully by like, 11.
Tbh I can play the passive aggressive Mean Girls game too, but I've never felt the urge to randomly throw race or skin color based insults toward another woman, much less hide my hands and throw a tantrum when I get an expected reply. The way they try to snipe at others and start burbling and gurgling when you cut to the chase just seems so cowardly and pathetic. Like, if you want to be edgy, at least stand on it instead of crying fat tears when your baby version doesn't pass through.
No. 2299527
>>2299248Haven't talked to any trans artists but I keep getting them as followers and it gives me similar emotions
>>2299352Some people here always assume the reason you don't have female friends must be solely because you're some type of pick me who deserves it and it's really obnoxious. I feel the same way as you and I also haven't been able to make close female friends so I don't have any advice sadly
No. 2299633
>>2299432Protein yoghurt, greek yoghurt and cottage cheese are based sources of protein, as is any whey product that essentially gives you a somewhat healthy alternative to candy bar or milkshake.
I eat meat but usually only one meal a day, it becomes gross at a certain point. If I could only pick one I'd pick dairy for sure.
No. 2299757
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I looked at a sex offender registry map and found out a kidnapper attempted rapist only lives a block away from me
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>>2299757You know what you must do.
No. 2299771
>>2299762What the fuck is that reaction pic. The guy in the photo is likelier to be a rapist himself than a
victim.
No. 2300056
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I'm tired of getting into drama by association with my best friend.
She attracts actual psychopaths who then pick me as their target. I've had people spread rumors about me as well as insult me to my face just because. I'm never mean to them, I never do anything to do them.
Then they go and claim that I'm controlling of her and that I'm stealing her (?) from them. This has happened like three times over the course of three years and tonight I cried because I felt like my friend wasn't doing enough to defend me when this moid spread blatant lies about me that she was aware were complete bs.
I know it's not her fault it's happening but she never turns those people down and even teases them sometimes but in the end I'm the one who gets blamed for it.
So it felt like shit when she barely stood up for me tonight. Just because she comes across as shy and has a soft demeanor people treat her like she's victimized by me because I'm the opposite.
I'm extroverted and direct but I'm still nice to people. I just don't get it, why do people treat me like some sort of cartoon villain?
I don't even have anyone in my life who could understand how I feel because all my friends are either introverts or otherwise very have very "feminine" (for the lack of a better word) personalities.
I'm starting to feel so much disdain towards self proclaimed sensitive people and their witch hunts. You have no reason to claim I'm secretly mean and plotting against you because I'm fucking not! And worst of all I can only fall back on myself.
Back to crying alone in my room I guess
No. 2300130
>>2300028I would say it took me almost two years until I could think about my life with hope again and remember my pet dying without having a complete breakdown. She died in a sudden gruesome way partly due to medical malpractice so it was extremely traumatic for me. It still feels like part of my heart is turning to ash from pain and sorrow when I remember those moments. But I did learn to live again and to smile again. I want to bring other animals the kind of joy she shared with me when she was well, to be able to give that kind of happiness to other precious innocent beings. For me that’s a reason I can live on.
This is probably less helpful, but for me I also see the past as something that doesn’t fade from existence once we experience the future. Time is a plane on which the past still exists. To me, that means that all the perfect, crystalline moments during which we were happy together are still real. In an eternal past we are alive together and I’m holding her in my arms. Grief stole my ability to see her clearly in my mind beyond the pain and loss for a long time. But sometimes I feel like I can look through a little glass window and see that other world where we’re still fast asleep in bed on a winter morning, breathing slowly, and warm. I don’t know if that will mean anything to you. But I do see you and I care and I hope that you find a way to live again.
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>>2300163use the search within results bar in the filters and look at the guide in the “?” symbol. filtering out keywords is a game changer
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I have two long ass papers due tonight and I haven't even started them
No. 2300275
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I'm in my 30s and I'm feeling the worst I've ever felt in my life. It makes my stressful teenage years feel like a cakewalk. I keep seeing people say things like
>It gets better!
>Now I'm a #girlboss and I look even better and feel sexier than I EVER did in my 20s!
None of this applies to me. I try to make changes, I try to keep a positive attitude but everything just gets worse and feels dreadful and hopeless. It feels like this is so taboo to talk about, too. If you don't say getting older is wonderful and beautiful and your 30s are the prime of your life, there's something wrong with you. All I can think is how I’m nowhere where I want to be, and now I’m worried about how fast time goes and I’m still in the same place. In my 20s, sure, I was poor but at least I had time, energy, and a sense of optimism. I never dreaded adulthood as a kid, I was always excited about being a mature adult and looking forward to the future and now I hate getting older. I'm so jaded and pessimistic. I miss being naive and hopeful about life.
No. 2300523
>>2300446Nta anon but after escaping an
abusive household in my 20s I stupidly fell
victim to different moids who physically abused me as well, but I also somehow struggled to get my degrees and masters. Before that I was working white collar jobs and supporting myself and an ex fiance who refused to work and then became aggressive. So he got dumped and a year into getting a degree I met another moid who was well put together with a great job but hid his addiction problems. He broke my nose, fucked my car and ruined my confidence and yet somehow I still graduated. My friends who I was bridesmaids for all moved country and ended up divorcing their moids and not coming back. Other friends I made at uni became cocaine addicts like the ex that broke my nose so I stopped hanging around them. Covid happened and I got a shitty graduate job for less pay than the jobs I was working with no degree. Now I've been stuck up in a part of the country I have no family or friends. I'm in between jobs because I was getting dicked around. Sometimes life just sucks and you're set up for failure. I tried therapy before and the therapist was friends of an ex of the moid who broke my nose and she would embellish and lie about shit I was talking about in therapy to her friend who in turn would fb message my ex about it because he dumped her when he found out she was a cheater and pregnant with some other man's kid. That man luckily killed himself than have to deal with that bitch so she wanted her ex back but was mad he was dating me. Fuck my 30s. It's hard to make friends at this age because everyone else is usually established with families, routine and friends they struggle to see in between work and family. Some of us are destined to be left behind and it's shit.
No. 2300642
>>2300523I'm so sorry to hear that nona, that sounds so rough.
>It's hard to make friends at this age because everyone else is usually established with families, routine and friends they struggle to see in between work and family.This is the bitch of it too, isn't it? I moved to a shitty desert city for work and it's so fucking hard to find and make new friends my age here, especially women. It seems like every woman around my age here is married with several kids and bogged down with their own family life. Our downtown area to go out anywhere is rundown and crime-ridden, the "meetup" groups and book clubs I found online are abandoned. I have hobbies that I enjoy, but nobody to share them with besides this little internet world. I manage to visit some friends when I go out of town and have to drive a few hours, but I wish I had a group of women to hang out with here.
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i hate myself for how much i hate myself because it affects other people so badly. i hate everything about how i dress, act, listen to music, do my hobbies, watch movies, and all i have are normie friends and they do that but they comfort me genuinely (i think) but also denigrate themselves. i have autism and can work but cannot socialize with others genuinely, and i know they're likely doing that in a joking way, but it upsets me because even with their flaws, i find them to be so wonderful and i am so grateful for them. and i know that people can say, "well, give that to yourself" but i cannot. i'm an awful person. i am so focused on aligning with my morals, yet i never can, never will. i have all these "morals", yet i constantly fuck things up and say the wrong thing, DO the wrong thing, causing a horrific butterfly effect where everyone always ends up hurt. i know this is an annoying ramble, but i just have had such a difficult time living with myself since i was eleven, and i know it's more selfish and irreparable to kill myself, but it gets so, so tempting sometimes, because my life is absolutely meaningless to fixing things or doing better.
No. 2301561
>>2301555Why did you go after a useless degree when you already left behind another useless one? The trade off wasn’t there at all. If you’re going to completely abandon your passion you pick something worth it. Now you’re sad and with an useless degree that you don’t even like.
But there’s still hope, you can draw and develop your skills as a hobby. You can still go after the degree too or you can hope to find a steady job too.
No. 2301682
Petty vent but for the past few days I've been trying to find a good female-only discord server that doesn't let moids in. My feelings are a bit hurt because I stumbled across a very promising one, went through the steps, including the voice message, the owner didn't respond for awhile so I headed to bed, when I woke up and checked the messages her and two admins were mocking my voice and claiming I was using a voice changer to try to get me to send a video recording. I understand the risk of a voice changer, but it feels like they were just making fun of me to make fun of me which really made me sad. It sounded genuine to me but I guess I can't hear my own voice correctly. I feel as if I'm just being sensitive, I'd rather them mock a scrote using a voice changer than let him in, but I know my natural voice can't resemble a voice changer that much. I'll get over it in a few days, just made me a bit sad, I was excited for that server, I just want female friends.
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A cute worker at a pizza place smiled at me and looked straight into my eyes for a while and I wanted to punch him. I just hate men so bad that even if they're good looking I don't want them to interfere with my existence in any way. I feel like a wild beast - if a moid is looking straight into my eyes, it means he's challenging me and I'm prepared to use violence. I think "shut the fuck up" before he even opens his mouths and says anything to me. "That will be 15.99 tee hee" he said. And I imagined myself bodyslamming him across the table. I want to speak to women only.
No. 2301741
>>2300056My former best friend attracted emotionally
abusive scrotes and they'd act aggressive towards me before they'd start abusing her, too. Like getting in my face and yelling at me for a completely inconsequential, stupid disagreement; while she watched and laughed about it. She'd then defend them for being "misanthropes" who just don't get along with people, and she'd tell me all the awful shit her moids said about me all while also defending them.
I don't know if your friend is like this, but in retrospect, my friend clearly enjoyed the drama and feeling like people were fighting over her, and also liked to make me feel bad about myself. I think a real friend would go out of her way to deny the rumours about you and to cut off the people spreading them, even if she's "soft". It doesn't take confidence and directness to block the people who make lies up about her best friend. At best, she's a pussy who cares more about remaining out of conflict than about your feelings, at worst, she enjoys the drama and is probably contributing to the rumours.
No. 2301878
>>2301716You're mentally ill, see a therapist.
>>2300275What's making getting older difficult? I'm in my late 20s and the passage of time is starting to feel scary, you're right about how depressing it is when you can feel the opportunities begin to recede. I think it must be a common feeling though, I watched a YouTuber at a similar age to me who does self-improvement content talk about how he's beginning to feel how the possibilities narrow as you age, despite him having accomplished a lot. Personally I'm trying to cope with it by working on a couple hobbies and skills everyday, I figure at the very least when I turn 40 or 60 it will make the coping easier because I can think "well at least I've done x/ am good at y"
No. 2302037
>>2301753your hormones affect weight distribution also just might be your body type. wear just above the knee length or shorter skirts. you can play with silhouettes and it’ll depend on how long your legs/torso are and how much weight you have what will look most flattering. at the worst it could be, you can tuck a black top or wear a black bodysuit under a skirt and then do a layer over the top like a flowy “kimono” type robe or an oversized cardigan. when it goes down a little, i like to do a black mock neck or turtleneck. show off the thinner parts and use black and layering/tucking in to create better proportions for yourself through styling.
>>2302025i think i had a knee jerk reaction from seeing my own abusers yell and freak out and deny it at people they claimed deserved it tbh. that’s probably where the projection came from.
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I hate it sm when someone says "all girls are pretty" or similar statements. As an uggo, it only makes me feel worse because you can say "all", but I KNOW that it doesn't apply to me. Even decent-looking guys are more attractive than I am, so it only makes me feel like a failure when people basically say "woman=pretty".
No. 2302384
22 days until i can break up with my moid. 12 without my vacation, where i still need him to look after my chickens and cats. 12 days of fucking Christmas that is. He failed another exam today since starting a school for a different occupatiom and honestly he deserved it. The past few days he's only been smoking and gaming. Of course you won't learn shit if you're stoned. So he came back here even tho its 1 1/2 hrs and i tried calming him down. Didnt even kiss me, i tried hugging him, he froze, started throwing shit in the kitchen— little things like an empty can and only to the recycling, still made me flinch twice.. then i said I'd give him some time and went to the living room. He came eventually, kept complaining loudly and angrily, talking over me, in the end i just stayed silent to let him vent but then I was wrong for being quiet. Its been five hours and it's just shit since. The same arguments over and over and I've apologised so many times. Not just "sorry" but "im sorry it felt like i invalidated your feelings, i didnt meant to sigh at that point, etc etc" "Please let's say "you hurt my feelings, doing this" and give the other a chance, we dont have to go in circles examining each point of the argument when who said what" i tried so hard and he wouldn't stop and had a tone and anger with me. And he did realise he was just using me as a Punching bag right now.. apologise half heartedly.. and then would go right back to it. I'm so tired it would all be easier if i wasnt here. Or at least not in this situation. Why did i ever believe i needed him. Why am i tolerating this shit, why am I the one crying when he wont stop then calls me hysterical and that it's impossible to talk to me rn.. this feels like abuse, like he's driving me crazy but i cant say how. I'm in my own house but too scsred to be in the living room bc he might come through and start over again.. it's my very own house and i left to the bedroom. Then he'd come, eventually pick it up again, then berate me from the door while I'm just sitting on the bed not even looking at him. And i know i don't always say the right things at the right times but I'm just human and not some game npc
12 days of fucking Christmas, huh?
No. 2302447
>>2302384I was in the exact same position as you Nona. I’m no longer in that relationship and happier because of it and I know you will be too. I’ve been in therapy trying to process everything that happened, but if that option isn’t available to you may I recommend some books? Men who Hate Woman and the Women who Love Them by Dr Susan Forward, as well as Why Does He Do That? by Lundy Bancroft have helped me a lot. Below are links to free pdfs of each.
https://drive.google.com/file/d/1Md0FpbmuXhdhpoFF_Ip4ijpiowHZNf3D/view?usp=drive_openhttps://drive.google.com/file/d/1HplLFeXDZuhytvpEQRrs008GGrq0icZg/viewCome back after you breakup please and let us know you’re doing okay. I’ll think about you until then.
No. 2302468
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I've never been able to outgrow the teenage desire to be unique and different. I'm incredibly insecure about being generic and uninteresting in almost every way to the point where I don't even like talking to people or making friends because I'm not worth getting to know. I wouldn't go as far as lying about myself or faking any identity for attention, but I wish I didn't feel so painfully insecure about my entire existence.
No. 2302525
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My vagina has been itchy for almost two months now. A month ago I went to the gyno and she gave me some cream. It didn't work, and now she can only see me again in January. I'm avoiding pants bc they make me itch worse and I don't wanna scratch myself like a moid.
No. 2302561
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I hate having rosacea. I think I have nice bone structure but I don’t feel pretty without makeup because of how red and blotchy my face gets. It’s crazy just how much color can change your face. When I’m red it really brings out my jowls and makes my dark circles look so intense. The only time I’m not flushed is right after I wake up and I look good but no matter what I do I get a flare up every single day. The only base makeup I do is foundation and blush and it’s crazy just how differently people treat me when I’m wearing makeup vs not.
No. 2302713
Please please tell my why do I feel contempt for basically everything and everyone? What mental illness is it? Even when I force myself to think more positively about others I cricle back to feeling disgust, hatred, disdain. According to my psych I'm AuHD and depressed, but imo that doesn't expain those feelings and doesn't justify them. I feel so ashamed of them I don't even talk about them to my therapist. I was even afraid I'm a narcissist or something, because I just don't feel like I care for anyone, I can't connect with people, I also have so much disdain for people, both those whom I know and total strangers. I never target anyone and I just try to stay as far from everyone as possible, only talking to people at work when my work requires it. That's my whole contact with human race. So idk if I could be a narc? I was a victim of narcissistic abuse before and I read a lot about it (like basically every mental disorder) and I know that narcissistic people usually look for human "supplies". But I don't want any relationships with any humans ever, I want to stay away from everyone, despite feeling lonely sometimes. So I don't think I'm a narc? I'm seething with negativity all the time. I just can't change. I just want to know what is wrong with me. Am I schizotypal or schizoid or something, I just don't get it. I wish I didn't have to go outside at all and never talk to anyone ever. But I also wish to know why I'm like this
No. 2302811
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>>2302779samefag
another thing it's not guaranteed that you have autism since this rigid way of thinking is one of the results of the abuse. You could even not have ADHD or autism, just have similar symptoms that are caused by the trauma that will be resolved when you work on dealing with the trauma.
There is no guarantee a therapist will help you since the way therapy is used these days is not useful for people who have serious issues, unfortunately.
Some other things to consider: daily breathwork (you can find channels on youtube), daily exercise like yoga or weight lifting, daily journaling, picrel
Also try copy pasting your message into chatgpt and read what it responds with, it's quite useful
No. 2302819
>>2302811>>2302779Damn anon thank you, I will check it out. I think deep down I might not be able to accept the fact I was abused and I wasn't strong enough to not let it affect me? Especially that the only time I actually opened up about the abuse to someone (besides my therapist) they basically denied it or downplayed it, so I thought to myself "maybe I really make a big deal out of nothing? I'm just being weak". I hate myself too for being so sensitive about it
Unfortunately I'm most likely an autist because I had autistic traits and lacked the ability to socialize with other children even before the abuse. I was diagnosed. My "odd" behavior as a child was what caused severe bullying which in return made me even less open to other people, and my family didn't accept me too, my mom abused me both physically and mentally. I refused to go outside for a few months when I was 12 and at 11 I already had severe panic attacks that looked like epileptic seizures
No. 2302856
>>2302819ayrt I feel for you nonna, I had a very similar experience. I can tell you there is space for improvement, even if you are autistic, way beyond what you can imagine right now because I did it myself and I'm still improving day by day. It just takes work, time and patience. Don't give up on yourself or a good life. Healing journey is very rewarding
Also dancing helps. A lot. Try dancing to some aggressive music until you're in a puddle of sweat and out of breath. I really recommend it
No. 2302861
>>2302816Men in sillypoo comments: "I totally agree with you and I'm glad women share my worldviews!" Shut the fuck up you vile scrotes and can you leave us the fuck alone. We women hate troons for
valid reasons while you hate them because you hate everything including us too.
No. 2302886
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>>2302561I don't have the same condition but my hands and toes are bright fucking pink/red 90% of the time like picrel while the rest of my body is super pale. It looks freaky and it makes me so insecure
No. 2302929
>>2302878Improving relationships was my starting goal but I was forced to do it for myself because everyone in my life turned away from me and I was left all alone. It's a matter of paradigm shift. But you can use any motivation that works for you imo. As long as it helps you get closer to the goal it's fine to hope to create bonds with other people or something else. Also my motivations changed along the way because it takes quite some time to rewire your brain and work through all this crap (I was abused for nearly 30 years). I'm a completely different person than when I started. And I do not hate my past self either thanks to the understanding I have built not only about myself but in general about the human experience. Link is a breathwork practice that I use a lot and highly recommend
fixing typo
No. 2303050
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my dad passed away last august and i despise the holiday season.
my birthday is in 3 days, christmas is coming up, i loathe spending time with my mother and my family to the point of physical pain from how uncomfortable i am.
i feel so ungrateful but i just can't handle it. it's shit. it sucks. i still show up and act casual about it but it's internally unbearable. i miss my dad.
No. 2303152
>>2303089One of the recent ones (and this is going to sound completely ridiculous so just know I'm self-aware this is really stupid) is that I wanted to get a new GPU for my PC because I bought a 4k monitor, but I feel like spending so much money on it is selfish because my current GPU. works okay, and that I'm a bad person for wanting it. I also worry about what I would do with my current GPU if I replaced it, that no one would want to buy it if I tried to sell it, that I'm being unnecessarily consumerist and wasting money and creating more "landfill" or that I'll become a hoarder. I worry a lot about losing my job, or breaking something expensive, or my pets or friends getting hurt. The other day i got worried that my cat would knock my new monitor over and either break it or hurt herself, and I played the entire scenario out in my head for like, two hours straight. Then I worried that if she got seriously hurt I would care more about the broken monitor and felt terrible about myself because I love her and I would never want her to get hurt, but that monitor was fucking expensive lol
I've always been an anxious person, but lately, I feel like my anxieties have taken over my life. In times when I want to relax, I spend more time being anxious and trying to calm myself down, or I try to distract myself with my hobbies but I know subconsciously I know I'm only doing it to not think.
No. 2303205
>>2303158Ah shit. I probably should have figured that out.
>>2303136I actually already do a lot of walking by choice because it does make me feel better!! Happy that it works for you as well.
No. 2303218
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I just found out i was being exposed to abestos dust for years.
It's so over.
No. 2303318
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>>2303183Happy birthday Nonna you are not alone hang in there
No. 2303357
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It feels like I commit some minor infraction of social ettiqute that gives people a bad impression of me every single fucking day and it's beginning to eat away at my soul. This is why I just want to be a hermit forever.
No. 2303575
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I'm in perimenopause at a stupidly young age and I want to die. Hot flashes are miserable, it's impossible to get comfortable. I'm sweaty and angry and everything hurts. This happened to my mother so I was mentally prepared for the possibility of it happening to me but holy fuck is this miserable
No. 2303688
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I'm finally out of my villain era after I stopped being a doormat. I no longer feel the need to violently fight off every person who crosses my boundaries anymore. I feel like I've become a less empathetic person however, as the tradeoff is that I no longer care about other's wellbeing coming before my own. I feel much better overall but in some ways this a concerning development. Now I understand how being too sensitive easily leads people to killing themselves.
No. 2303728
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The fucking reading comprehension of this place is so shit it makes me wanna bash some anons head in with a rock. My sentences can be articulated so clearly and an anon could misread them. Im on here out of pure self harm.
No. 2303866
>>2303861Sorry you’re feeling this way
nonnie, but the best way to get over it is simply just to make new and better friends. I know that’s easier said than done, but it absolutely can be done.
No. 2304474
>>2304446you dump him wtf
nonny he sounds like a shithead
No. 2304482
>>2304477Write down list of pros and cons, make a plan on what to do should you decide to leave, communicate with friends or family and tell them how you are feeling and that you feel like you really might have to end the relationship, rally up support for yourself.
I knew someone who was in an incredibly
toxic eight year relationship. It took her some time but she is mostly over it. Don't expect yourself to operate perfectly after you leave. Baby your emotions, care for them gently and let yourself feel them in full.
No. 2304525
>>2304471As someone from a small town, can confirm that they are absolutely
not the idyllic little villages Hallmark movies make them out to be. Probably run into more assholes there than in the city, I swear…
No. 2304854
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>new video from favourite radfem YouTube channel
>yay
>comments filled with moids and a handmaiden
How the fuck do these retards even end up on these videos?
No. 2304866
>>2304799Fear has evolved to keep us alive
Fear of death is it's primary form
Do not stop it or "get over" it, respect it and use it
No. 2304881
>>2304871Fear is an important motivator
If you aren't afraid of cancer, why would you get yearly breast check-ups
If you aren't afraid of traffic, why wouldn't you walk into it
Fear should be appreciated and used for its intended purpose, not conquered
No. 2305001
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After not talking for years, my childhood best friend and ex-crush/oneitis sent me a friend request randomly. I accepted it and sent her a message. Then she wasn't online for months.
She's been online for a couple days now but hasn't replied to my message. Why would she do this. I feel like I'm always waiting for someone who never arrives and I'm tired of chasing after her. I don't know why she'd send a friend request and then not say anything. I'm sure she doesn't know what simply sending a friend request would do to me so I can't blame her, but it feels like my heart is being toyed with. She doesn't realise how much she means to me, meanwhile I think I'm just another person in her life.
If she had sent me a message I'd respond ASAP. Meanwhile she has no problems ignoring mine. Haha. It hurts. I try to make new friends and I'm managing but I've still never been as close with a girl as I have been with her, I think it's something you can't force, so I think that's why she's so important to me and why she lives in my brain rent free. I feel like I always end up liking other women more than they like me.
Does she not realise the impact she had on my life? I realise I sound pathetic/clingy in this vent, it's just that I'm pretty sad right now. These feelings overall have been bothering me for a while now so I'm letting them out here.
All I want is a female best friend who's similar to me. We will relate to each other and have similar interests. We'll like each other more or less equally and we'll remain best friends for life. We'll open up to each other about anything we want and can be ourselves around each other. We'll talk almost daily. That's all I want.
There's an image I've seen at some point I think here, of a bench with a message in it saying something like "To (female name), you were my best friend. We were girls together." It's really cute but it honestly hurts my heart out of jealousy because I wanted to be like that with her. I want to be close enough with a girl that one of us will make a bench or something like that for the other.
No. 2305035
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Having some health issues but i dont have insurance to check out what it actually may be, i woke up today and its like my entire torso is tensed up internally, the past six months ive been feeling mild to pretty bad constant lower back pain and i had a gnarly uti with peeing blood last month ( I did go to the doctor for that one lol, i was put on a horse dose of antibiotics and it cleared out), i genuinely dont know why, its like my body is giving out on me, i just had sex with my nigel and now im extremely nauseous and it feels like someone is clutching at my spinal coord.
>go to the fucking doctor nonna
i cant afford it and its not like im dying, its just uncomfortable
>what did the doctor say last time you went
their best bet was severe endometriosis but i would need surgery to look at my insides to give me a proper diagnosis, i was going to move to the us in one month so i didnt go through with it because i didnt think it was gonna get worse
I've had covid like four fucking times and i didnt feel this shitty, im not fat, i had a moderately active lifestyle working out twice a week etc whyy whyyy
No. 2305070
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I've been really heartbroken lately over someone and it sucks bc it's finals week but I'm way too sad and unmotivated to study. I can hardly sleep from overthinking, it sucks so much. I just want this to be resolved so I can have peace. I don't want to be hurt, I deserve better, that's what everyone tells me
No. 2305083
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>>2305043I’m so sorry for your loss
nonny. It’s okay to be sad and just want to bed rot right now, you’ll probably feel that way for awhile to be frank. In my experience the grief never really goes away but you learn to manage it somewhat. Until then just try to take care of yourself as best you can.
No. 2305463
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>>2305453They are everywhere on there and all completely insane
No. 2305565
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I spent actual hours last night trying to find the new Netflix Unsolved Mysteries episodes. Almost all pirating sites had a link to the previous season’s episodes in place of the current season’s. I ran out of websites after only watching five episodes. I’m so annoyed.
No. 2305601
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Nonnies I am feeling depressed because every normie online is saying sex with AI robots isn't cheating and it's the same as a sex toy. Even though I don't use those in relationships anyway.
I'm honestly considering becoming religious just so I have an excuse to consider it cheating without them being like "HUM ARE YOU INSECURE OVER A LITERAL SEX TOY?? ITS LITERALLY NOT A HUMAN SO THEREFORE NOT CHEATING."
I don't know why so many people believe cheating is cheating just because a human is involved. I believe cheating is more layered than that.
I hate Redditors and sex positive retarded women. I work with machine learning and know AI can manipulate humans into feeling a deep sexual connection because most people are more retarded than low level AI.
No. 2305637
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>>2305628Sadly relatable with me, but, "it", just screams about not landing a bf. I pray my other friends in the group kick them out.
No. 2305846
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In my first Organic Chemistry II exam I got a 6,2 (my grade went up to 7,0 because our professor made us do a pair work) and now I truly believe I won’t get an 7,0 to pass without doing finals.
The worst? Her exam wasn’t even hard, I just messed up by not knowing how to do the mechanisms for hemiacetalization in alcaline solutions, for SNAr and the order of reactivity of some substances.
I won’t lie, I’m not frustrated for having to do finals, but because I just wanted to do well in a exact sciences subject. Merely an ego thing.
No. 2305890
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I wish plastic surgery videos wouldn't come up on my page on social media. Women paint it as empowering and then show their ultra perfect tiny nose, and everyone in the comments are saying congrats. I've accepted my Dorito nose and actually like it now, but seeing these videos still makes me upset sometimes
No. 2305901
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Do boomers just play up how technologically incapable they are as a way of being cute and quirky? My mom legitimately makes me so mad. She can text and forward Bible verses with sparkles on WhatsApp all day but can't figure out how to click a notification from the app?? And then she asks me if I read the notification like I have magical divine access to her phone. Yes mother I read YOUR private WhatsApp messages even though I am in another country. So I tell her to just read the message for herself even though she missed the notification and she tells me she tried but couldn't figure out how to. How do you not know how to READ A WHATSAPP MESSAGE WHEN YOU ARE CALLING ME ON WHATSAPP RIGHT NOW AHHHHHHHhHhHh
No. 2305963
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I have one of those massive fucking blindspots in my vision right now
No. 2306058
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I rent a room in a house with a couple of other people, basically strangers. Today my landlord entered by room while I was at work, and he left the door open. He forgot to fucking lock it. Basically every male creep from my house could've walked inside if he wanted to, even total strangers could've gotten inside (because my retarded housemates often forget to close back door). I have a gaming laptop, nintendo, iPad, huion tablet, second phone, important documents, anything could've been stolen. I checked my stuff and it seems everything is fine but still, this is fucked up. I'm so pissed and this is the second time this year it happened. I always check the door like 10 times before I leave (I have OCD) plus my landlord said a couple of days ago that he will want to enter my room today to check something, so I'm 100% sure he left it unlocked. I texted him and there's no reply. Also today I ordered food and they didn't deliver it and I lost 20 bucks, I called the bakery and they said there was a mistake and they just "lost" my order somewhere and they told me to call tomorrow if I wanted my money back, because it was already too late that day to "do something". I also had a shitty day at work and I had to listen to people talk behind my back. Overall it was a very shitty day and I'm pissed and sad
No. 2306189
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Two things that are annoying me
1. I'm trying to breed bugs (worms right now, roaches as well in the future) as feeder insects, but no one talks about how hard it actually is and how it actually takes a while for them to even grow up into adult bugs. I guess starting is always the hard part.
2. I want to be a mom so bad, but it's gonna be a long time before I feel comfortable doing so. I just want to hurry up and get my shit together.
No. 2306218
>>2306215i do shit for no fucking reason. NO FUCKING REASON AT ALL. and then you keep guilt tripping me into doing shit for you and i fall for it again and again because … why???? obligation????? i feel fucking obligation fuck you. go eat your shitty fucking fast food now and get fatter dumb bitch. im not cooking for you ever again. and when you go on your trip your gonna be fat as shit and everyone will see how you gained so much weight by eating like shit for the past two years.
so fucking ungrateful and mean and stupid and then you go ahead and get angry at my behavior when you are literally the prototype
No. 2306252
File: 1734058823807.jpg (176.12 KB, 1215x717, Renekton_0.jpg)
>>2306217>You feed them to a lizard or something like thatSomething like that… Picrel is my husbando. The things you do for love, right?
As for what it looks like, right now the worms are just in a regular tupperware container. In a few weeks when they (hopefully) turn into beetles, I'll upgrade to a 3-tiered shelf. The 1 tier will house the adult beetles and have a mesh bottom so that when they lay eggs, they'll automatically fall into the second tier. The third shelf will hold the worms. As for dubia roaches, I believe you just stick them into a big plastic bin with some egg flats. You do have to feed the bugs (both so they can survive and so they will have nutrients for whatever you're feeding them to, this process is called gutloading). I feed mine carrots and broccoli. They have to have water in a gel form so they don't drown themselves, and also cause water gel lasts longer than actual water.
No. 2306254
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>>2306252Samefag, this is what I mean by shelf but it's more like drawers. The worms have to be separated based on life stage cause they are cannibalistic and they could potentially eat eachother.
No. 2306333
>>2306038nope. i have gotten an occasional gift or letter from her though i'm not sure what her address is (i did save one envelope so maybe it's on there? she's many countries away from me). she never talked about family though and seemed to live by herself.
not sure what i could do besides write a letter back.
No. 2306391
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>Filling breaks off my tooth so I now need a crown
fuck
>As Im getting said tooth drilled off they find severe decay under my filling on the tooth right behind it so im gonna need another crown
fuck
>if i hadn't broken my fillings they wouldn't have caught it in time
FUCK
My wisdom teeth pushed all my fucking teeth too close together so I couldn't get in there with fucking floss. They're out now but I should've had this shit done years ago. I'm angry my dumbass parents made no effort to help me get them out while I was still really young and under their insurance jfc.
No. 2306762
My girlfriend is gonna have a really risky heart surgery in a month, and I'm so scared for her. It's so risky, she and I have to fly to a bigger city because only a few surgeons in my country know how to do this. It's so risky, she already had to write a will, because the chance that she won't survive is very, very high. We've been together for almost 10 years, I've known her since I was 16. I can't imagine a life without her. I just want her to be okay, and take all this pain away, but this is something that I have no idea how to help her with. I'm trying so hard to be strong for her, she needs all the support in the world. But I'm scared too, and I don't want her to have to comfort me when she's going through it worse.
No. 2306838
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Am I crazy? This mf is mid at BEST. The dispose deny bullet thing was maybe the sexiest thing he did. His manifesto was high cringe. Reads like a highschool report and you can tell he was trying to copy the unibomber manifesto down to the section titles. But the unibombers was at least well written and you can tell he was schizophrenically obsessed with this line of thought. Luigi's just sounds like he wanted to have something to be "smart" about like the unibomber. I thought he was supposed to be a genius but after reading some of that I'm second guessing, the valedictorian at my school wasn't particularly smart they just studied an insane amount, and his highschool was small, I think it was something similar for him. I'm wondering if his grades weren't shit at college and he was raging + the backpain, but he felt entitled to some level of notoriety via a smart guy complex he got from topping highschool so he attempted to get famous the last way he could. I'm literally more sexually attracted to the unibomber than this faggot. "But the unibomber killed innocent people!" I never claimed to be a moral paragon I am simply stating facts.
No. 2306940
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>ask for birth chart reading on reddit
>"Post deleted, follow the rules!"
>their entire front page is people asking the same shit as me
>time goes by
>ask for tarot reading on reddit
>"Post deleted, follow the rules!
>Their entire front page is people asking the same shit as me
>ask about witchcraft on reddit
>you know what happens
why are reddit mods such cunts? truly
No. 2306949
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I wish it was easier for me to connect with people. I'm not socially inept, I can talk to most different types of people and is pretty good at feeling out their personalities, I'm great at remembering people's likes, allergies, small things they've said that says a lot about their personalities, hobbies, etc. But I just can't really connect, so I always end up like an outsider at most places. I don't know why, it's not like I don't want to I just lack the ability to. I always put it down to me not being pretty enough, but I am fully aware that I'm just using that as an excuse just so I can have something somewhat tangible to blame (I used to hang out with a group of people that slowly turned into wannabe influencer so anyone that didn't match their aesthetics either turned into their bag carriers or constant yesgirl got kicked out or the group). But I know it's just something that is off about me that idk how to work on.
No. 2306955
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>>2306949They make it look so easy, connecting with other people. It’s as if no one told them that it’s the hardest thing you could do.
No. 2306968
>>2306798I’m sorry
nonnie but having a kid I just can’t justify. There doesn’t exist a non selfish reason to bring a kid into this world. I don’t want them to suffer with a life they were forced into, its really sick, like breeding puppies. I’ll probably just adopt.
No. 2307170
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>Tell my sister I will clean the house today before she gets back from work because I have things to do tomorrow and don't want to be bothered
>clean the bathroom, kitchen and tidy up the living room
>she gets back and starts having a go at me (calling me a "dirty liar" and giving me an attitude) because there's a sprinkle of cat sand near the litter box and I didn't hoover the stairs
What the fuck is her problem? Her boyfriend even told her to calm down and pointed out that she just sees red whenever I'm in her vicinity.
A grown adult of 27 and she acts like a teenage bully for no reason.
No. 2307213
really pathetic ngl but it feels fucking frustrating being my age and having controlling parents who still dream about "correcting" me, trying to make me work with the police, military, or any other shitty "demanding and exigent" job. i've done everything they want, i got out of HS and got into college inmediatly, i did get the grade and now i'm looking for a job, my only quirks are smoking marihuana, having a 95% chance of being autistic and dressing like a retard (goth), but they still get wet at the thought of destroying my clothes or me being "corrected" and being normie-lite. they've been like this since i hit puberty and realized i wasn't going to be the stacy bubbly girl because i'm autistic and i'd rather play videogames than socializing and they still don't get that i'm not going to change, at this point DIY, fashion and thrifting are my hobbies, as feminine as they are, but they hate it because i'm not buying shitty polyester at a mall. jesus why people can be this retarded. i went thrifting today and half of the clothes on the stores were shitty and ugly polyester from primark/zara/shein, maybe they will win in the end…
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>>2307209Had a similar experience with my last ex nona. Jokes on us for thinking men are people, therefore capable of basic empathy for their loved ones. May our exes have as many miserable holidays as they made ours.
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>>2307293>irl pullip dollThis thing?
No. 2307377
>>2307368don't starve yourself just east slightly smaller portions, or the same portions just with less calorie dense foods. The weight will come off, just more slowly, and you won't feel like you're starving. I don't understand why everyone acts like losing weight is impossible rocket science like I truly honestly don't get it.
Last year I bought a cool pair of pants too small for me and promised myself i would lose the weight to fit them. Today I wore them out and they are actually a bit big. All I did was one year of the method above. I removed roughly a third or a fourth from every meal I ate. There's no need to be overly strict on yourself so if you're at a celebration with food or you had an unusually long day of running around at work or something, don't worry about the portions (within reason of course don't eat like 12 donuts kek) because in the long run the calorie spike days still average out with the rest of the days over a year as long as it's only like 3 or 4 times a month. Start using smaller plates/bowls, that also helps show your brain that the amount of food isn't that much less.
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Probably already been vented about here but I hate sexualization culture. Like no matter where I go it always follows me. I look up shit about a game, boom, there's some gross child sex mechanic in it for some reason. I read a manga I like, there has to be a panel where a teenage girl has her clothes stripped off for "the plot". I listen to music in a car with my friend, and Pitbull is singing about fucking girls. I go to a bar on halloween, and all the girls are dressed like strippers and the men are dressed in "piping specialist" outfits.
It's also kind of ass because sometimes the media itself has a lot of redeeming qualities, but then it's like, quick, add a half naked woman for the porn addicts. Hell, in my favorite anime, which is watched by a mainly female audience, they added a scene of one of the female characters stripping down "for humor". As you can guess, there is no equivalent sexualization of any of the men in the show.
Total purge now
No. 2307410
My dad’s bullshit fucked up a good chunk of my life and I’m just expected to bounce back because I’m an adult now. My dad cheated on my mom, denied it, gaslight her over it until he was shown proof. When he was shown proof of cheating he blamed my mom for not being affectionate with him. He tried to kill himself twice. Both times he blamed my mom. I had to act as marriage counselor, therapist, and suicide prevention when I was 18. I had to placate this 50 year old man. I watched him have a mental breakdown when I was home alone with him, where I watched him hurt himself in front of me, where I watched the man that was supposed to take care of me become a pathetic animal. He tried to hook up with a prostitute at one point. I lived in a homeless shelter for two months because we left him. It was bad enough we got a protective order taken out against him. I’m 22 now but it was in the past so I guess I should be “over” it now. Despite never getting therapy. Despite never staying on meds because him and my mom didn’t want me to “depend” on meds. But sure, I should be “over” it now. Despite the fact that I’ve refused to cry in front of anyone ever since the day that he barged in my room while I was sobbing over my parent’s fucked up marriage, where instead of comforting me he yelled at me and threatened to hit me so that I’d have a reason to cry. Which probably gave me a complex over never wanting to feel weak and be vulnerable like that ever again.
It’s been over three tears now. I “should” be over it now. My parents say it was in the past. My dad says he’s changed when I know it’s a lie. I found out he still tried to email his mistress this past October. He will never change. He will always make my mother feel like shit while still maintaining the facade of a happy marriage. He will never change. He will still tell me I’m wasting my life. He will still seek out my affection like some dog, even though secretly I resent him the most out of anyone else. He will never change. I used to wish that he’d beat us just so that I’d KNOW what he was doing was wrong. I know that abuse is abuse, but there’s still a voice in my head telling me it wasn’t that bad and that I’m not traumatized. That it’s been long enough now, so I “should” be over it.
My dad says he was mentally ill back then. But I’m fucked in the head too. And whenever I try to speak up he talks about how it was like when he was depressed. It pisses me off to no end. My greatest fear is becoming my dad. Every time he says that we’re alike or that he understands reminds me that I never, ever want to be like him. I’d rather die.
So now I have to fix myself. No one will help me. I gave myself an ultimatum. Either I fix myself and become worthy of still being alive by the time I turn 25 or I try to kill myself. And unlike him I’ll do it right. Unlike him I’ll have the decency to fuck off in the middle of the woods, out of the way, and die without fucking someone else up. I’d rather die than be like him. I’d rather die than threaten suicide for sympathy, expect coddling, and act like my mental illness magically absolves me from any hurt I cause someone else along the way. If I kill myself I’d make it so that no one could find me, at the very least. All this that I’ve typed and I still don’t think I had it that bad.
No. 2307434
>>2307410He sounds like an
abusive demon gosh, people like him should just milk themselves, they hurt you when they’re alive, at least their death gives you peace, but they never kill themselves . Nonna you experienced a very traumatic childhood, give yourself time and grace.
No. 2307442
Food service job i’m 20f
>on shift with a misogynistic coworker that multiple female coworkers have requested not to work with
>always telling me to go in the back to do dishes, always taking my customers mid serving and telling me to do something in the back instead (e.g. i said hello to a little girl, he tells me that he will take over), never lets me say a word and then acts like i’m making it into a big deal and he’s “just playing”. Basically gaslighting
>we argue multiple times during a shift because he’s giving away hella food for free and giving customers the wrong order on purpose to upsell and “surprise the customer”
>i confront him at the end of the shift for bossing me around, he gives me a genuine apology, i believe he’s a good hearted guy and we settled things
>the next day i work with him again, he’s up to the same retarded douchebaggery, i’m pissed
>the owner comes to me to complain about him not taking out the trash, we are having friendly convos, i take the opportunity to report his behavior somewhat lightheartedly and described the arguments we had
>the owner decides that the only thing she cares about is that he’s giving away free food and SCREAMS at his face that he will be fired if he does it again
>he pretty much knows that i snitched on him because of the free food argument we had yesterday, he confronts me at the end of the shift saying “we are coworkers we should stick up for each other” and he’s mad asf bc he’s about to be fired from a second job
>i am so frustrated because i shouldve just reported to the manager instead of the boss and getting tired af that i’ve had to spend 10 hours with this guy that i just break down in tears
>he tries to comfort me and says he’s not mad because it is what it is, i’m glad he’s so kind but NOTHING is being done about his rude behavior and now he may tell people that i’m a snitch and whatever.
I used to not hate men but now i hate men.
No. 2307447
>>2307420This. It's hilarious. Men can't stand the thought of being replaced, it
triggers a primordial jealousy in them. You'd think a man who's set his sights on female sexbots wouldn't care what women do, but bring up male sexbots and they start the mental gymnastics on why it wouldn't work.
No. 2307785
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Ive never had a "born in the wrong generation" phase until I realized my features that are considered ugly now were attractive in the past
No. 2307803
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My mom is bipolar and has NPD and is completely losing it right now. I'm not sure if it's the mania or the depression but she's just exploding like a bomb, and taking it all out on me. I'm relatively insulated to her outbursts thanks to a decade plus of therapy but it's still so fucking exhausting. Being mentally ill is like being possessed by a demon. I feel sorry for her miserable existence.
No. 2307811
>>2307791Ayrt I started school in 2008, and that was also the year I first gained access to the open internet and first saw porn/gore content
>>2307794Sometimes my dad makes me feel that way, I feel like if I release a book about how he and my mother failed as Gen X parents, he’s just going to try to compare my life and what I’ve witnessed to his own life in the 70’s which was obviously dramatically different and bad for its own reasons
>>2307795>>2307797I feel like the answer to our problems is so obvious, the solution is so easy, simply, take technology out of children’s hands. stop setting your child up in front of the computer so they’ll leave you alone. but young/new parents don’t want to do that. they want to shove a laptop in their child’s hands so they can laugh at youtube videos instead of parenting their offspring. it’s only a matter of minutes until that child discovers snuff and pornography.
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i love christmas and giving gifts. if i had a friend i would make her an advent calendar with trinkets, perfume samples based on notes she likes and handmade stuff like soap. and maybe movie tickets. i dont have any friends though because i'm not ready for it so i've never gotten to do any of that.
No. 2307833
>>2307811Remove your father's voice from your brain. From what you say, he will never make an effort to understand your point of view so it's useless to try. Don't write for him, write for yourself and others who went through early internet exposure trauma.
>they want to shove a laptop in their child’s hands so they can laugh at youtube videos instead of parenting their offspringTo be fair, it's difficult to parent your children in current day society when both parents work and don't have support from extended family (thank you nuclear family model). Before iPads it was sitting your child in front of television. Before that it was books. I was personally traumatized by being put in front of the TV without supervision and being given books to read that contained explicit scenes of torture rape and misogynistic content. Most people are not fit to be parents and even those that are don't have the time to pay attention to their child 24/7 because they have to work full-time themselves. We as a generation are mostly raising ourselves through internet access after all.
No. 2307841
>>2307115>Without moderation, male otaku/gamer spaces almost always get overriden by porn and incoherent retarded coomer speak.100%. Every weeb fanbase that's dominated by men ends up being abysmal and when there's more of a mixed sex ratio it helps to tone down that type of disgusting uncontrolled moid behavior. It's suffering liking any type of media that mostly has moid fans or is more aimed at them because of this. A perfect example of what happens when you have a mainly moid fanbase are gacha games like Blue Archive that are aimed at men: you get a bunch of pedophile coomers making porn of every single character while yelling the same retarded ecksdee funny UOOOH cute and funny "memes" 300 times and saying they want to rape the loli characters daily, all while thinking they're comedy geniuses and le based for their retardation and porn brainrot. In general men in anime/manga/gacha fanbases basically just make porn, jerk off, rape and pedophilia jokes, and then turn around and say other fanbases are actually
toxic for "policing" things and theirs isn't because they don't see their own behavior of acting as degenerate and terrible as possible as a problem kek
No. 2307907
>>2307850Wash your hands and masturbate
nonnie. You can only get herpes if the bacteria from your lip goes to your genitals.
No. 2308135
>>2307924thanks nona. yeah. its harder i think because i know for a fact that there is no good response from others, talking to anyone about it is sure to only make it feel worse. especially therapists. i'm getting mad just thinking about it.
but its true, like, ok if something happened then it happened and i'm still me and i gotta keep it moving forward. just sucks to nearly have to question everything and all of my memories. so i'm just not gonna right now. knowing i'm not the only one helps too.
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>>2308134An oldie and possibly very fake but still extremely entertaining
https://housematehorror.livejournal.com/1451.html No. 2308172
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I'm getting tired of the Luigi bullshit. Look, he did the right thing and all, and I get that you may be attracted to his looks, but to worship him and say he's "based", like you know, totally ignoring the fact his values were and still are patriarchal? Like he thought that Japan would fix its birth rates "problem" if it returned to "traditional values". And that includes strict gender roles (which are STILL pretty strict in japan, especially for women, and also the problem of sexual assault is huge there). So, is the general consensus now that women on lolcow are often pro patriarchy? At least admit you're just physically attracted to him despite the fact he goes against everything you stand for. Just don't call him based and worship him like he was actually "one of the good males", because he is not. And he was just a retard who got spine injury because he was doing some extreme sports like all rich kids and adrenaline junkies do. If it wasn't personal for him, he wouldn't give a shit about your "class struggle". Women need to examine their critical thinking skills
No. 2308204
>>2308192I’m sorry
nonnie.
No. 2308219
>>2308134I had an autistic roommate whose interest of choice was the extended MCU, particularly the Avengers. She would hand write her self-insert fanfics and leave them out in common areas, meaning I read them a number of times trying to figure out whose shit was on the coffee table. In the fanfics she was a skinnier, blonder, not autistic version of herself dating Captain America and Iron Man simultaneously. I am not sure if either character was aware of her two timing nature in these fanfics. I am told this is funny but I have never seen the movies and cannot comment.
She was about 5’3 and easily 180+ lbs. I once counted how many calories she consumed in a day between Starbucks and her cream cheese crock pot casseroles, giving myself a rough estimate of about 3k calories each day. I once had to leave something in her room while she was out, where I was greeted by a weird smell. I found out it was her used menstrual pads that she hoarded in her room despite having an attached, private bathroom. She also ended up at my actual home during thanksgiving break and flirted with my autistic, furry brother the entire time. She did not spend the night and only drove to my home for the meal and then promptly left. She was an odd duck.
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bipolar nonnies help im trying so hard not to relapse into sex with anonymous people help help
No. 2308350
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I ate a lot today, felt like shit. Time to die. There goes my diet.
No. 2308389
>>2308383Nonna this image made me so sad.
>>2308384Well that’s my thing how is she getting people that are literally willing to play caretaker. My only theory is they want clout and want to be financially taken care of. Whatever the reason is it’s definitely exploitative.
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>>2308172But I do genuinely agree with some of his opinions anon
No. 2308432
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>be 2nd child of 2nd marriage
>moms first husband really did a number on her
>met him at 14, married him at 20, mother at 28, was abandoned by him for another woman at 30
>ff 3 years, she marries my dad and they have me
>spend my entire childhood told not to waste my time on boys
>’nonnie you’re not allowed to get married until you’re at least 28’
>get shipped of to girls boarding school so never learn to socialise with men or put up with their bullshit
>ff to today
>be a single working woman under 28
>’seeing any interesting boys nonnie? Gone on any good dates recently?’
>’maybe you’re just not being friendly or approachable enough nonnie.’
>’ehhh emmm looks aren’t everything nonnie! Maybe you’re being too picky! So what if they’re a little bit older as well? It doesn’t matter how much money he makes now, you can build each other up!”
Sometimes I wonder if she has dementia from all that she’s forgotten she said to me growing up. The final straw was when she and my dad came to visit my workplace and for a whole two weeks afterwards were asking about my balding 40yo manlet coworker who had one good conversation with them, and they immediately jumped on his dick and said I should think about asking him out. I get that my mom didn’t have the opportunities I did growing up, but sometimes I wonder if she genuinely resents me and would rather I make the same mistakes she did than see try something new and succeed/fail on my own.
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I will be turning 25 in a couple of months and Im realizing that despite being boy crazy as fuck, being shut in made me never interact with guys or flirt with them. All the boys I find attractive are younger then me now. I will probably never find a guy I'm attracted to becuz I only meet guys at work and engineer men are busted smelly incels.
Like I dreamed of dating a guy who looks like a typical "cutesy college student" for years and now I will never date that guy. I guess Ill just daydream from now on, watching vloggers like picrel and wishing I made a move when I was in college to guys who were my type
No. 2308459
>>2308432They do absolutely have memory blindness, my single mother did this too by telling me from birth that having children would ruin my life and now she has started asking about why she doesn't have grandkids kek
If you can pick a neutral time when she isn't asking about it to talk about it in a "do you remember you used to say x, but now you say y, what made you change your mind?" type of way that might be helpful. But parents are weird, she might still take it as an attack.
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I get that we have different opinions about the film and motivations of certain characters and all that, but goddamn it was so fucking annoying when you kept talking AT both me and your partner about what you thought. Like I said, you have an opinion and we can disagree, and even though you did let me speak. You didn't let me get a word in edgeways you were just straight talking without any breaks, even though both myself and your partner were not even looking at you. In fact I had zoned out multiple times because you just talking AT us was so boring and I didn't want to engage anymore. It doesn't help that I want to date your partner kek but goddamn I really hope they saw what I saw in you in that moment because it was annoying as fuck.
No. 2308484
>>2308482The boiling them is easy, and then you can sit in front of tv to do the final steps
Go eat eggs anon
No. 2308515
>>2308482Boiled eggs are great anon, go for them!! This reminded me that I need to buy eggs btw
>>2308514Makes it easier to peel them
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I've been slowly and steadily slipping back into depression despite having 'it all', a stable relationship, workplace, etc. I have dreams and goals but lately I just have been isolating myself while lying in bed and just scrolling my life away. I know I SHOULD do things, get active, get friends, pick up my hobbies again but I just don't see the point anymore. Have seen countless therapists and it always gets better a bit, then when we terminate, everything goes to shit again
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I will never know love like this
No. 2308620
>>2308611I don't think it's socialization anymore. Those of us who actually hate men are very far and few. If you expressed yourself with a sliver of how women do here they would ocstracize you and lose their minds, even anons here rush to defend and put moids in a pedestal whenever they can because "h-he did one good thing!" and "he went through a hard time
nonny" as if he would do the same
he wouldn't No. 2308666
>>2308620Even on this site I've noticed that lately anons seem to defend males more often. I made fun of a scrote for killing himself and one anon had a whole meltdown over it and called me a
femcel lolcow.
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I just fucked up my UCAS application like a complete idiot. I accidentally clicked "pay centre" instead of the "pay by card" button, and now I can't amend it because it's already been submitted to a supervisor. How do I always manage to make things so needlessly complicated for myself REEEEEE
No. 2308826
>>2308748>Men feel the same way about us, helloNo they don't LMAO. Many men wouldn't give a fuck if a woman was raped and/or killed, and many would even joke about it. An average woman will always have more empathy for men than most men have for women. You hate men in a "uwu I will not have sex with a man for a few weeks, that will show em!" way, while men hate women in a "I hope this retarded bitch with different political views gets raped and I want to rape a 13 year old right now, because my wife is now fat and ugly after giving birth to our child" way. Women are so bluepilled it's unbelievable. You hate men while still humanizing them and wanting to have actual emotional relationships with them. Men hate you and they want you as a piece of meat to fuck and shit out his spawn, clean his room and cook his food. They don't see you as actual human beings.
Once again, Luigi's values are traditional, patriarchal, and any woman who claims he's not like other men is a retard. Go on, have a shit taste and be attracted to him and have threads about how much hot and cute he is to you, just don't claim he's different becsuse he's not lmao
No. 2308865
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Nonnas I'm in a weird position…I've been working at a job for the past 3 months and it has been pretty great overall. The thing is I was kinda crushing on a guy that barely talks and also I didn't have shifts with him but I kinda got over it but I still think he is cute.
Now there's that other guy who is basically one of the supervisors and oldest employees there. He is handsome and we have many things in common like anime, music, videogames and we get along super well and he is also nice and helpful. I mostly have friendly feelings towards him but with his attitude, I was thinking "what if we dated". A few days ago he basically walked me all the way back home(I don't live far from work but he kinda took a detour). He also did cute things for me like writing a cheesecake recipe for my sister that he makes and is in general very nice. And today…happened something pretty romcom to me…he slipped me a note and told me to "read it later" and he emphasised "later". I thought NO FUCKING WAY and went to my car and read it…he basically said that "we've been looking at each other as if we want something more to happen between us" and he basically asked me out to talk and he said I could also refuse…I didn't. I texted him and we agreed to meet in a couple of days. I just want to see what he has to say and clear some stuff. Cause honestly, I don't know how I feel about him. I really like him and have fun with him when we have shifts but…he is also much older than me. Way older than I'd allow myself to date…he is also kinda moidy at times(like the average moid) despite being really nice. Mostly I'm afraid it's going to impact my work and our mentor/student relationship as I'm still learning. And I don't want this job to be ruined for either of us for any reason. I tried to be carefree in my texts but I wonder if he things of this way more than I am…I feel like he likes me more than I do.
I'm also a turbo virgin but I pass as a normie most of the time but I'm still used to my shut-in ways from my anxiety years. I would like him to be my friend for sure but I don't know if he could see me like that. I want to be honest with him but also I don't want to be too vurnerable. Honestly, I don't think anything is going to happen but I just hope that no matter what, we will be on good terms.
Honestly, this is all so confusing. Why can't I have my crush on some celebrity like the good old days and now I'm confused over a guy I'm not sure I even like romantically? UGH
No. 2308901
>>2308886Shut the fuck up. 4channers are subhuman so you want to be subhuman too? Because you desperately want to like some ugly ass male? Good luck.
>>2308885>>2308887Ok pickme, you saying "idk he made sure not to harm anyone else!! Why did he not harm the woman he met before huh?" and pissing youself at people saying he's just a trad guy implies what exactly?
No. 2308914
>>2308901saying that does not imply he's feminist though, just not a literal woman beater
>>2308903it's not about protecting, i genuinely don't see those tweets as extreme and agree with some of it.
No. 2308938
>>2308937Now you’re getting it
nonny. Do not escape the groupthink.
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>>2308937it's because everytime a handful of women does something you personally dislike you retards have to start setting about how all women must be XYZ instead of blaming individuals for their actions. literally this meme. just say you hate luigi fags instead of some cucked boohooing about how being a woman is suffering and how much you hate hetero women
No. 2308948
>>2308928holy fuck you described it pretty well. I don't exactly feel like I HAVE to date him cause I at least know how to say no at this old ripe age. If I'm not feeling it I'm not doing it. I just wanna do it partly for "the experience" and partly to see where he stands and be honest. I hope he isn't let don't so at least we can keep working normally… even though I kinda feel like I fucked up and can't go back now
>Also just a heads up but they never want to remain friends.I know…I just hope…like I'm getting along with almost all moids at work but most of them are either way older and/or married…not that it would actually deter anyone but I don't think anyone would like to risk their job
No. 2308950
>>2308945I don't care what males do, they can die
>>2308947Then don't cry when a moid abuses you.
No. 2308955
>>2308953As if you've
never fantasized about murder
No. 2308957
>>2308949>what is sex based oppresion Kek you know that it doesn't work on a personal level and a moid doesn't have to personally hurt you in order to benefit from the moids who do, and from the entire system right. You get so used to moids being
abusive you appreciate the most mid moid, and the mid moid benefits etc.
No. 2308966
>>2308960Not fucking a murderer learn2read
>>2308962Luigi existing is actually going to probably boost celibacy, he's husbando tier
No. 2308968
>>2308950>>2308962No one's expecting any of this because it's all fantasy
>>2308953We all know he's violent, we just don't care if he directs that towards another man. I don't understand how that's comparable to women with fantasies about violence towards themselves
No. 2308974
>>2308966>a groyper is husbando tierok
>>2308968Fantasizing about an real violent person is in fact women fantasizing about violence towards themselves
No. 2308975
>>2308948You feel like you are going to miss out if you don't go out with him and fear no other guy is going to be interested in you, right? I personally wouldn't do it just on the basis of age and being coworkers.
>like I'm getting along with almost all moids at workI do too, probably because I'm socially perceived as male-lite due to not being naturally feminine and having a somewhat masculine demeanor so I'm always just some kind of pal and not a dating prospect (which is a good thing since I've always avoided creeps).
No. 2308980
>>2308974I don't even know what a groyper is.
>>2308974He was barely even violent, he basically just took out the trash.
>>2308979He isn't even conservative, he's a normie
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>>2308986
Who cares if women can't rape it's called a fantasy for a reason
No. 2308996
>>2308989kek this is why I told the mods they should've kept the vpn ban on /2X/
>>2308994She's leaked on /ot/ tons of times this year (especially in the stupid questions threads), her posts usually get deleted afterwards
No. 2309004
>>2308975not necessarily that, I just wanna go out with a man like that to know how it is so I know what I'm not missing kek.I have started having my doubts but I can't turn back now. I'm going to think carefully about what to say and make my positions clear about how I want to stay at work. Like idk I feel like I NEED to do this because we both would be in the "what if" situation otherwise. Like for my own sake just to move the fuck on. Staying at this job is my nr.1 priority but I feel like I didn't handle it totally "correctly". But I'll see it as a lesson I guess.
>I do too, probably because I'm socially perceived as male-liteon the contrary, I act pretty girly since I need to sound "nice" (I do call center stuff) and I give genuine compliments and I'm not being mean to anyone. But I also "roast" moids and when I can and just don't respond to dumb sexist shit cause it's just draining and I just wanna do my job, have a good time ,take my money and go home.
No. 2309011
>>2308996Didn't know that and I don't care tbh because I don't follow personalityfags
>>2308997>>2309001That's exactly right. And you are proving the point with describing women who willingly separate themselves from men as "
femcels", an equivalent to male incels, while incels don't date because nobody wants them, while separatist
>>2309001women don't date because they make a conscious choice of not including men in their lives. That really helps your cause and totally doesn't make you sound like a pick me and a handmaiden lol
No. 2309014
>>2309011I didn't once use the term
femcel but okay schizo-chan.
No. 2309028
>>2309023Yeah wait till all the Luigifags start crying when he abuses them
>>2309026Like this
No. 2309031
>>2309025if you can't see the blatant psyop by men on this website who develop parasocial relationships with the nonnies who post then I can't help you. no woman is getting this
triggered over other women writing fanfic about a man in jail. they don't do it because of any feminist love of women, it's concern trolling 101. they are doing it because the idea of a woman fucking a man who is not them brings them so much male rage they can't help but post about it and seethe that it's not them
No. 2309034
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>>2309019>choice feminism>>2309031not true at all. is it so insane for you to comprehend why a woman would be so disgusted with women acting like this towards a real life violent scrote?
No. 2309051
>>2309031Ok this
>>2309040 is moidism (jealousy, they want women to want alpha males until it’s a “hero”-type and not Andrew Tate) whereas this
>>2309037 is women being honest and helping you.
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