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No. 1124546
the cat is screaming, why aren't you? edition
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>>>/ot/1114751 No. 1124589
>>1124561Yep. This goes for TRAs too. It’s why they have no other friends and look like a herd of walking red flags. It’s a cult.
I cut off a lot of friends that trooned out or drank the tranny koolaid because all they wanted to talk about was the current discourse on Twitter, or how “sPesHuL” they are. I’ve also noticed that trannies let their freak flags fly once they’re “out”, as if that’s an excuse to start posting degenerate shit and nudes on the internet.
>>1124564This makes a lot of sense.
No. 1124667
>>1124662Yeah I'm using dilators but I'm still struggling with "normal"
dick sized ones. I've been told that I just need to be more patient but it frustrates me that I don't know how long it's gonna take me to size up and some days it's easier than on others.
No. 1124712
>>1124687Yes I am. Thank you anyway nonna.
>>1124708I wouldn't know what though. No SA that I'm aware of, no specific trauma and nothing health-related but I don't know.
Kek I might try the goddess thing. Thanks!
Maybe it's because sometimes force myself to do it even when I had a stressful day, but I'm supposed to dilate for 10-25 minutes a day, 5-6 times a week. And I notice that it gets more uncomfortable when it's been a while since I dilated (when I'm on my period for example:
No. 1124718
>>1124712It could be a subconscious thing about sexuality in general in society. Like shits weird these days and the expectations. I don't think you need to have been traumatised specifically to have a lot of negative views towards sex these days.
Very rarely is sex every spoken in terms of love and devotion and passion. Shit is hardcore these days, very little chance of romance. And I think romance is such a big part of female sexuality.
No. 1124726
>>1124712Have you tried a muscle relaxant suppository ? Apparently you can get baclofen or diazepam ones to put in your vagina.
I have no idea how effective they are but I just googled to see if there was such a thing as a vaginal muscle relaxer and apparently there is.
No. 1124767
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Slowly coming to terms with the fact I was emotionally abused by pretty much everyone from the time I was a young child and grew up in an extremely chaotic & unstable household that terrorized me. I always thought I was just born crazy and that's why from the time I was like 7 years old I would have extreme emotional breakdowns and anxiety attacks and first started thinking about seriously killing myself starting in the 4th grade. Literally spent my entire life in denial and just thought I was crazy, I'm still having a hard time coming to terms with it.
No. 1124776
>>1124758No job, no money, no car, no friends. I'm seriously mentally ill (breakdown level) and stuck with
abusive people. I've been trying to get healthier for years but I always fall back down.
No. 1124778
>>1124767I realized in my mid late teens. First it was when my mom attempted to strangle me, and then it was when she almost let me die of severe bronchitis. I can't believe I still talk to that cunt or live near my family members, the
toxic dependency they've created has been so corrosive to my mentality. If I don't leave this place just their presence and the history of knowing what scum they are and how they deceived and blamed me for the mental problems their abuse caused will kill me
No. 1124779
>>1124776Could you do a workaway holiday?
In the UK you can go stay with a family, sometimes in your own lodge or caravan and help them out with farming/building/gardening/watching kids/cooking/dog sitting and you get paid for it and often don't need a car for it, some places allow you to take your dog too (lots of these places involve working with animals in the UK).
I'm not sure if there's something similar where you are but it's typically called a workaway holiday or work exchange if you google it.
Good way to escape a shitty home situation even if you can't afford to travel to another country.
No. 1124876
>>1124845He sounds like a dick, that's not your fault, like yeah it's frustrating but it's not like you knew they would have lost it.
That would make me anxious too because he's kinda making you feel like it's your fault they didn't have it when it's not, it's almost gas-lighty
>>1124874Panic attacks suck so much, I'm sorry you are struggling with them. Have you been to the doctor regarding them? Sometimes medication can be very helpful when you are suffering that frequently with them
No. 1124907
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i want to learn how to draw, but i have about ten million things i need to do. and when i do get the time to practice, i feel so terrible about being absolute shite that i give up after a few scribbles. art is one of the few things i want to do, outside of work and living my life in stability. i don't have any friends (i've never been good at keeping them), i don't have any interest in music, i don't WANT to pick up "another craft" like knitting or "adult coloring books" or something – i want to draw.
but the only way to get good at art is to fucking do it though. and yet, i'm so hateful and scared of my lack of skill. does not help when i come across a like, 16 y/o who's an amazing artist. in my mind i go, "what the hell is the point? you are 25 already. give it up."
i hate this mental barrier.
No. 1124913
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Cons: 21 with no job, car, $600 to my name, $100 was wasted on vidya and $40 on shitty resin gifts, stay-at-home daughter neet for almost 4 years,almost always go to bed at 12-1am, 40 pounds overweight, don't fit into most of my clothes, verbally abused by male parent narcissist, have no real fashion sense, bad social skills, descendant of child bride baby factory, no friends, cynical and can't believe compliments without ulterior motives, not in college, sensitive and easy to cry, nervous and paranoid when outside, possibly slightly insane, on my period rn.
Pros:
I'm only 21 with about 70 years left if I'm lucky, virgin, don't waste money on makeup, never fell for grooming tactics and "friends" girlfriendzoning me, haven't gotten pregnant within 5 months of meeting a moid, haven't accepted a marriage proposal after 4, live in new house with bigger room, property, and garden space, not kicked out at 18 or will ever be, can lose 40 pounds by October, feminist and radfem-aligned, can enter CC in the fall, haven't spent hundreds on college applications only to switch, know some Spanish and Japanese/hiragana, learning Chinese, reformed weeb, have a cat, on my period on crescent moon, bisexual, have laptop powerful enough to learn 3d modelling, coding, animation, run games on good graphics and fps, drawing more thanks to the drawing board, can sell junk for money, goth.
The bad outweighs the good for now. I need a purpose so bad.
No. 1124917
>>1124910have you tried speaking to a psychologist (maybe one on campus)/family member about your stress? it helps to talk things out with someone you trust. maybe they could even offer you coping strategies.
also
>the sheer amount of information makes me think you're going for something difficult. if it were easy, then everyone would do it. don't beat yourself up, just be sure you finish your degree. hope that helps.
No. 1124929
>>1124917I haven't tried talking to anyone yet, I don't think anyone would care since I'm sure everone else has similar problems. The thing is that I don't even know if you could call it stress, I've struggled with everything my entire life and it doesn't feel right when things are easy. So I don't know if I'm just making stuff up to purposefully feel worse to in turn feel like I'm doing something right.
I'm in a law field and while it might sound difficult it really isn't. You just need to know a lot about how to apply certain laws to different cases and also need to be able to keep a lot of things in mind while doing so. But thank you for the reply, I'll try my best to just finish somehow, maybe things will work out in the end
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>>1124907You can start learning now and be really good by the time you're 30 or you can let this comparison discourage you and when you're 30 you'll realize you could have 5 years of experience behind you already. Forget about others, draw as often as you can everything you like and it will pay off!
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is this supposed to be funny or useful? it just made me seethe if anything. how is infantilising grown fucking men to this level at all amusing? i'm sorry you were so retarded to marry a retard that can't even go grocery shopping like a normal person
No. 1124947
>>1124945I wish they realised men aren't dumb(well yes they are but not in that way), they just pretend to be to avoid tasks. They purposely act retarded and fuck up to get out of doing things.
My ex would cry and whine and use baby voice to try to make me do his laundry, pretended like he didn't know how. Told him no way in hell am I doing it, guess you'll have to reuse your dirty socks. Guess who did his laundry perfectly well after that?
No. 1124971
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Slowly crawling out of 5 months long depressive episode and I struggle with feeling overwhelmed with everything again. I have a few hobbies that are important to me but coming back to them after such a long break feels like I've undone any progress that happened in the past; and I know that even with the meds another episode is bound to happen again in the future. My entire life feels like Sisyphus myth and it's so frustrating. What's the point of anything if any step forward is bound to be undone by being mentally ill?
No. 1125027
>>1124907That's funny because I have been drawing since I was a teen but poorly. When I was 25 I decided to get serious because I love art, that was two years ago and now I'm in art school and actually pretty skilled at drawing.
If you want to do it, just do it.
No. 1125055
>>1125030Of course it's normal! In fact I'd say you're doing well. It took me over a year to really feel over my ex, and even now I still have moments of "well maybe he wasn't so bad" (which I quickly slap myself out of because yes, he was). Point being everyone heals at their own pace. Some people are fine just a few weeks or months afterwards, for others it takes a long time. Depends on personality, outlook, resiliency, time together, all sorts of factors.
>I deleted all our pictures/conversations & blocked him everywhere the first week we broke up & have been no contact since.Great. This is such a huge thing that a lot of people don't do and really set themselves back for it.
>it’s hard to hold out hope when all my past determination and passion have just gone.I had a period of numbness like this too. It's normal. My suggestion is to push yourself forward as best you can. Do things you normally enjoy, try new activities you're interested in, learn a new skill, spend time with family or friends or meet new people. I'll be honest, sometimes it's still going to feel bland or pointless, but the more you stick with it the more it'll start chipping away at that barrier and the faster you'll be able to have fun again. Also, stay busy. Not low key "I guess I have a few responsibilities I can get around to" but things that require your complete attention like rock climbing, an important work deadline, volunteering to teach kids a class at a community center, entering a competition for something. I'm not saying to totally ignore the pain regarding your relationship, but the more you're forced to redirect your attention to things centered around you and your life rather than your past with him, the more you realize how important it is to enjoy the present instead. You can do this.
No. 1125065
>>1125030>Is it normal to still think about your ex a lot three months after breaking up?Of course
nonnie. There's a saying in my country that the max estimate of how long it'll take to fully get over your relationship is the time you were together with your ex times three. You're going through a process of grief and there's no "too fast" or "too slow" in dealing with these things.
I'm glad that you were able to cut off contact and delete reminders of him. In my opinion this prevents you from "relapsing" as you move on. Adding to that, your sentiments remind me of this psychology talk about how your brain treats heartbreak similarly to withdrawals. I don't know if it's your cup of tea but it might be helpful.
You'll be okay
nonnie. It really stings at first but it gets easier with time.
No. 1125080
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relapsed so hard on my anachan shit this past year. the possibility of moving to my family’s home country which prioritizes thin women to the point of contracting idols based on weight and working a 60+ hour work week definitely made my brain crave the control it gave me in my youth. i’ve reached a point where it no longer brings me any joy and only shame from the self inflicted silent lonely pain. no one knows about it in my personal life here, only about 2 people i know have questioned about my appearance in a concerned way. i don’t know if i can make it through recovery again. stay healthy nonas
No. 1125088
I am currently physically disabled from falling off the roof of an SUV while moving (moving house, the car was parked), I was trying to help my narc ex-housemate not do something stupid to my car (she started attaching huge furniture barely secured to the roof without my consent) and she verbally abused me in the process, catching me off guard and causing me to fall.
I shattered my tibia and had 3 plates and 25+ screws surgically implanted. After a full year of healing I was finally able to walk with a cane. However I was still having complications and had to have further surgery to repair a torn LCL ligament, and am now back to not being able to walk, having excruciating pain, doing the whole damn thing over. Also according to my surgeon, more work may need to be done if my recovery continues to be so difficult.
I am fucking pissed at her obviously. When I asked for space from her after the accident she full on rage texted me about how horrible I was full of DARVO shit and blowing tiny things (me asking her to clean up after herself etc) out of proportion and made herself the victim while I was laying in bed in the worst pain of my life unable to literally go to the bathroom without my boyfriend carrying me or using an actual bed pan.
I never got to defend myself or tell her to fuck off like I wanted too, because after that rage text I blocked her and went no contact.
I was fired from my job and fucked out of my healthcare and last year along ended up spending $20,000 on healthcare, and that’s WITH insurance (has to move onto my boyfriends plan). I blew through all my savings between that and rent and now have zero money. I got disability for one year but don’t qualify for federal because I don’t have enough “work credits”. I now have to find a part time fully remote job even though my mental and physical health is the worst it has ever been all because that fucking bitch.
I want to die and also break her legs with a baseball bat.
No. 1125096
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i'm so horny its unreal. i refuse to download dating apps of any kind. i love my cat so much. acrylic nails make me feel whimsical. i am trying to reverse my social isolation and agoraphobia and it is going well so far. i will never die.
No. 1125103
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Hate my body and I’m thinking of starving myself but I keep thinking how I’ll just gain back all the weight anyways if I do it,I just want to be thinner and the only way I can vent about my frustrations is cutting.I feel so fucking stuck.
No. 1125104
>>1125101who cares about being altruistic? you clearly don't since you don't even know me and you're wishing something awful onto me. this performative shit is pathetic. she was on top of a car, putting herself at risk, but she
chose to do that. it's not noble just because she got injured, it's fucking stupid.
No. 1125108
>>1125105i realize it was her car that she let an idiot use in the first place. let the bitch move her own damn furniture off the car. it's not as if her roommate suddenly became some dumb
abusive cunt that day, she sounds like a frustrating retard all around. but OP put her own self into that situation. whether she wanted to help or felt obligated or whatever, it was her decision, and her decision to was let some idiot fuck around with her car and then herself get on top of it.
No. 1125110
>>1125103You probably wanna be thin to feel pretty. Why go through the trouble of cutting if itll take away from your idealised self?
Diets don't change much. Just get a women safe workout schedule and eat normal meals 3 times a day.
No. 1125117
>>1125108I didn’t let her use my car. I was inside the house we were moving out of (cleaning up after her with my other housemate so we could get our deposit back) and looked out the window and saw her trying to balance a heavy 6-8 seater dining room table on top of my car with a ratchet strap barely attached. I ran out to say, “woah hold on this isn’t ok, let’s get it down or adjust it” I didn’t want it to smash my wind shield out or something. So I climbed up to help (I am an art teacher and my automatic instinct is to help people do things like this securely, so I guess in that respect fuck me for trying to not get my own car smashed) She then started verbally berating me (which yes she had previously been awful, but rarely just balls to the wall verbal abuse, also I have been a
victim of home abuse/violence and have PTSD and at this point I was completely emotionally drained and not looking to have a huge blow out fight, just try to finish moving and cut ties) so I turned to get off the car/remove myself from the situation while being yelled at and in my confusion/anger slipped and fell all my weight onto my right leg. I screamed absolute bloody murder and fell the worst pain of my life. This bitch then stood over me as I am sobbing and crying and said in her dumbass Jersey vocal fry “how did that even happen?” Hope that’s enough context for you now please do us all a solid and shut the actual fuck up.
>>1125106>>1125105>>1125102>>1125101>>1125098>>1125092Thank you nonas for the kind words, I honestly didn’t expect anyone to reply anything, I just needed to vent.
No. 1125137
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i love him so much and i know he loves me back so why do i have to self-sabotage every time?? why do i have to think he deserves better why am i like this i just want to be loved
No. 1125170
>>1125125ikr same
I have almost perfect symmetry but my nose messes it up
No. 1125190
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Anons I'm so fucking angry, just arrived to work to find out a person who is responsible for mobbing my colleague and pushing her to multiple breakdowns got promoted, and to a position of a fucking culture manager no less; i know multiple people who left the company brough his unacceptable behavior to HR but OF COURSE it didnt matter since he's friend with the CEO. I was planning to add to these voices anyway but now I see it doesn't matter whatsoever
No. 1125246
>>1125237You're right but tbh I hate that we need peaking material in the first place. I wish they could just touch some grass and just see how stupid this all is and how their stupid identity fades when nobody's there to look at it. It's what peaked me as an ex-TIF, just facing the fact that this is all useless dumb shit that nobody needs. Just idiotic cope for weak people who cling onto the idea of body/soul dichotomy because they can't stand the perception other people have of them.
But the brainwash is so damn deep. They're like flat earthers. I "came out" as GC a while ago and said I would state my reasons to anyone curious (it was actually a subtle call to see if anybody else in my surroundings was GC too) and someone actually did DM me about it… But I still don't know what to say. Because the fact that someone would genuinely not understand why I don't believe in trans identities just sounds so ridiculously dumb, I don't know where to start my explanation. I still haven't replied to the DM…
No. 1125253
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Why are gay moids so fucking dramatic and unable to keep their personal lives personal? There is this guy in a small roleplaying community discord I'm in with my friends and he is always just so fucking open about his life it's actually annoying. I vented about him being obnoxious with wealth a few months ago but he will not stop. He brags and posts about things he has bought like buying a 2k keyboard for no fucking reason, but now he's just doing shit that is against the rules of the community and he can just get away with it.
He's invited his boyfriend to the community and they argue/fall out so much they barely attend events or really any RP or they will just disappear halfway through. Everytime they argue they always have to post some sort of woe is me absence like "um. im going through some personal issues right now and im suffering. idk when ill be back." stop being dramatic we know its because you argued with your weird LDR autist boyfriend for the 10th time this month.
To make this even worse he invited a fucking 17 year old to the community despite the rule being 21+ only because we don't want immature or young people there. It's annoying as fuck and they just let him bend rules all the time. Whenever we build stuff for roleplay, he constantly fucking spams and swamps areas in thousands of stuff making the fps terrible. I called him out on this and I said "you know I posted a guide for how to fix this" and he was like "omg did you sksksks" holy shit you're a dumb faggot honestly. Gay moids expect things to go their way all the fucking time without any consequences then they start crying when they encounter even the most minor issue.
No. 1125257
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>>1125253I mean your in a 21+ roleplaying discord, WTF do you expect
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I haven't felt alive or happy since 2015. I don't even think I'm mentally unwell or anything, I think it's just not possible to be happy after 25. Or maybe the world is irretrievably shit now.
No. 1125273
>>1125246If a trans person/handmaiden didn't understand I'd ask them about the contradictions. For example things like
1. Do you think trans women have the exact same experience as a cis woman?
2. Is dysphoria required to be trans?
- If no, can trans people be fully happy with their unchanged body and still be trans? (not non-binary, but mtf and ftm)
3. Should a trans woman who is perfectly happy with having no hormones or surgeries, and happy with having a dick be allowed to be in women's changing rooms?
4. Are people like this (insert some screenshot of AGP admitting to only do it for sexual reasons) fully
valid trans people? The trans community says they are.
5. Do you think trans men ever face misogyny? Do they have male privilege? Do they have male privilege if they don't pass? Why?
6. Do you think a trans woman who hasn't and her egg cracked, and is currently fully presenting male profits of male privilege? Or does "she" face misogyny?
7. Can a trans woman have a period? A physical uterus shedding bloody period. No irrelevant PMS symptoms. If not, why are so many of them claiming to have it? Are they lying or do they really think they have it?
No. 1125274
>>1125257When I say 21+ I don't mean kink discord roleplay anon, I just mean creating characters and going on adventures with them on WoW without under 21 faggots crying about their personal lives or just generally causing issues. But yeah you're right, it's almost impossible to find people who aren't terminally online and also want to roleplay cool stuff. This is my punishment for still enjoying World of Warcraft I guess kek.
>>1125258My bad, I meant keyboard piano, he buys very expensive stuff like that all the time despite the fact this fag is unemployed but he simply gets paid so much because he's a scandinavian scrote from a rich family. He will constantly buy shit like that "on impulse" and also made a joke regarding the fact my country has shit minimum wage whereas his is the equivalent of 20 dollars an hour. Maybe I'm wrong for this but I personally couldn't care less about his cringe LDR when most people I know are struggling to even pay rent and get food. I just find his constant posting about it very telling but maybe I'm bitter because alas I am a "poorfag" and was unlucky enough to be born on a council estate.
I'm generally of the opinion that you should reign the "look at all these wealthy things I have" mindset in when you know you are in communities with people who are barely scraping by. I like people showing off their hard work, but he's unemployed and his only merit is having a rich dad.
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>>1125274>on WoWI want to play with you nonna
No. 1125283
>>1125273>1. Do you think trans women have the exact same experience as a cis woman?no
>2. Is dysphoria required to be trans?Yes
>- If no, can trans people be fully happy with their unchanged body and still be trans? (not non-binary, but mtf and ftm)N/A
>3. Should a trans woman who is perfectly happy with having no hormones or surgeries, and happy with having a dick be allowed to be in women's changing rooms?I feel like that could only happen if I said yes to 2, since they would lack gender dysphoria
>4. Are people like this (insert some screenshot of AGP admitting to only do it for sexual reasons) fully valid trans people? The trans community says they are.No because it's pursued for pleasure, not to alleviate dysphoria. Also the number of "
valid" trans people in the trans community is extremely close to 0
>5. Do you think trans men ever face misogyny? Misogyny is depended upon the interpertation of the person by the one being misogynist, so if the person interpereted them as a female and discriminated against them based on it, they would be experiencing misogyny. Same if they interpereted a cis male as a female tbh.
>Do they have male privilege? Do they have male privilege if they don't pass? Why?same concept as above, if a person interperets them as a male and treats them better as a result, then yes
>6. Do you think a trans woman who hasn't and her egg cracked, and is currently fully presenting male profits of male privilege? Or does "she" face misogyny?Concept applies here too for both
>7. Can a trans woman have a period? A physical uterus shedding bloody period. No irrelevant PMS symptoms. If not, why are so many of them claiming to have it? Are they lying or do they really think they have it?No, mainly due to AGP, if I had to guess Id say they want to believe they do so they interperet anything as a sign and/or placebo effect
Howd I do?
No. 1125305
>>1125117I'm really sorry this happened to you. I can understand what that other anon was saying though. I personally would have flipped the fuck out on her for touching my car without my permission, not try and help her, but you're a teacher so you definitely have a lot more patience and reserve than me.
I also hope you can take legal action against her. She should have to suffer the consequences of her stupidity and narcissism, just like you're suffering from your kindness and good will. Actually, she should have to suffer worse some how. Hindsight is 20/20 but if she had taken your car without permission and fucked it up, that scenario would have actually worked out in your favor. Put you out of a car for a few months though.
Please don't interpret this post as trying to blame you. You did nothing wrong, but even kind actions have consequences unfortunately. Wishing you as much comfort and the fastest possible recovery ####
(emoji) No. 1125307
>>1125273ayrt, thanks for your help nona but these really only work for people who are already on the fence/not really exposed to TRAs. Most "true" handmaidens have faced all of these questions at least once, TRAs and trannies are used to them and have a variety of answers prepared. Asking basic stuff like that will just get you mocked as some poor uneducated peasant ignorant of the subtleties of human genders.
I should probably stay focused on my own belief that transgenderism is rooted in the idea of a separated soul and body, which is by nature religious and not rooted in science whatsoever. Or write something focused on the "organization" of the trans community, starting with how it's controlled by AMAB individuals and especially AGPs and how AFAB individuals are belittled, used and treated like crap by them. I don't think the girl who DM'd me is peakable, I think she just wants to know if she should be disappointed in me lmao
No. 1125391
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Why the fuck does body dysmorphia have to exist. I went years without any weird feelings about my body but all of a sudden I'm finding flaws again. Not too long ago I was making plans to go to the gym and gain some weight because I wanted to look more "womanly" (pls no bully, I know I'm stupid for thinking this way) but now I can't stop thinking about how "fat" I am even though I am at a low weight. Everyone was enjoying the sun today and I was the only idiot in jeans and a jacket. I hate it but I feel so self-conscious to the point where I wish I could just crawl out of my skin. It doesn't make sense to me. I haven't eaten the entire day because I feel so shit. Can someone just fucking slap me and tell me to get my shit together??
No. 1125393
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I want to be a hoe and get many dicks but I hate moids and find their existence repulsive
No. 1125394
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Dissociating at work wooooh.
No. 1125444
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I forgot the email for one of my pinterest accounts
No. 1125476
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I'm sick of having a mental illness. I try every way to get better and there are still days I'm out of my damn mind. I want out of this body. Out I tell you! Curse you family genetics!
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i didnt realize the repair guy needed to enter my room and my sex toys were all over the place FUUUUUUUCK
No. 1125590
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have a '''10/10 himbo''' NON STOP SPAMMING ME for the last fucking 12 years to fuck and I can't even vent to my friends about it because they're all like 'ooo he's so hot' blah blah because he works out a lot and takes care of himself and looks like the stereotypical chad but I literally could care less about how hot he is because he is a disgusting skeeze and I've blocked him and told him over multiple times on several accounts.
BUT I recently found out he's got a girlfriend and lies to her all the time to sleep with other women. The poor girl, I don't think she has any idea… I have no way to find out who his gf is but I really want to so I can find a way to show her the screenshots of him messaging me and not only trying to sleep with me but telling me what he does to lie to his gf. God I hate men I swear, they assume because they're rich or fit suddenly that means all women want to fuck them so long they flaunt w.e bullshit 'asset' they have. I honestly cannot wait for the day to find out who his gf is so I can send her all this evidence. Men are a plague I swear. Cheaters deserve death, I don't care.
No. 1125600
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I don't know if my attention span has been ruined by the internet (not a zoomer) or if I genuinely have ADHD, but fuck I can't read this article or watch this video, I keep switching tabs when I need to study aaagghh I legit need a routine or else I just fall into this weird mode where nothing gets done
No. 1125613
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>first time in about a month I get some quiet time to relax and browse /ot/
>nearly every thread on this board is either infighting about men or accusing other posters of being men
No. 1125616
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>>1125593I wonder if there is really anywhere truly safe to be a woman at any part of the world. Japan seems safe compared to my own country, but I am a thirdie. But alas, these "safe" statistics are almost always solely about men, unless specified otherwise.
I guess our only hope is that men are slowly but surely dying, I pray that by 2200 70% or more of the world's population will be women.
No. 1125622
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Why are business owners allowed to be so rude in yelp replies? How are you allowed to stay in business after calling your clients a "failure" and "a joke" after they objectively state what happened to them at your business with no attacks or ad homs? It doesn't even make sense because it costs you nothing to just apologize and give a generic statement about how you will learn from the experience and take their feedback into consideration.
No. 1125625
>>1125567Thanks for the advice
nonny, but it was at a train station and I would've felt weird asking strangers for money or to buy me coffee.
No. 1125659
>>1125651Does your cat have a bright collar with a bell on it?
Helps quite a bit at giving the birds a pre warning
No. 1125665
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>>1125619Maybe you could use the japanese thread for practice with other nonas? Me included. I think that would be okay, and even fun.
>>>/ot/993025It's been years since I last used it, but there was also lang8, kinda like a diary that you write in japanese and natives come to correct your mistakes and comment on it.
I hope you can go back to learning, anon!
No. 1125684
>>1125659What kind do you recommend? I had one that was supposedly breakaway but she ended up choking badly.
>>1125667Wow. My cat does the same thing your kitty did (sorry for the loss). She brought in a roach last summer as well as a bunch of praying mantis. Kek.
>>1125668I could try that. I'd have to do it around sunset because of all the dogs around me. Typically people don't walk the dogs around that time.
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>>1125684This is the one I use on my cat who loves hunting (we also have like 12 bird feeders in our garden so protecting the birds was super important). It-s a hunter brand reflective collar.
Another thing I do is go stand next to her if I see her either sitting in a place waiting on birds or if she's actively getting ready to pounce on a bird, I will follow her around (just walking slowly close to her) until she gets bored and stops hunting the birds, this seems to have deterred her from hunting birds somewhat and she hasn't brought one in for ages since I started the following her around technique even though obviously I'm not there all the time to do so.
She still kills loads of mice and voles which we just let her do since she typically doesn't catch them in the garden anyway.
No. 1125697
>>1125644Why do people like this have kids? The best you can do is stay in touch. hope the kids are old enough to leave soon. Sounds
toxic af
No. 1125734
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I don't think I will ever stop seething about the way polyvore got shut down. If I was rich, I would pay hackers to non-stop DDoS the website who devoured it and spam negative reviews until the shitty brand goes bankrupt.
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Idk where to put this, I don’t really think it belongs in Relationship Advice so I chose here… do any other non-single anons miss certain aspects of being single? There’s a lot I don’t miss and of course the stability and security of a relationship and so much else is great…. but I get into these phases where I miss the unknown and potential that comes with being single. I miss having frivolous crushes and dreaming I could make someone fall in love with me lol.
It’s so stupid because my boyfriend loves me more than anyone ever has and I’m extremely lucky to have him but sometimes I just miss the more romantic aspects of single life. I think I’m just in love with the idea/fantasy of love so I miss entertaining those thoughts. I just want to kms when I get like this because I feel so guilty and cruel…
No. 1125743
>>1125575>I have so many terrible things to say about my boyfriends ex but it all boils down to me feeling so much guilt over the way she treated himWow… Do girls actually fall for the "
toxic ex" lie? Of a guy's telling you about his evil
toxic ex, he'll talk about you in the same way with the next woman he fucks.
No. 1125752
>>1125743This, seriously. Of course you feel guilty for another woman’s alleged actions, that’s what he MEANT for you to feel so that you feel obligated to do whatever he wants to “make up for” the
toxic ex.
No. 1125947
>>1125934you know, at least that would make some sense. we're both atheistic first worlders and he has no reason to act like this. i'm so tired of the begging to marry me for years now only to continue to commit the same offenses against me, totally unrepentant and unremorseful. just no sympathy at all for my suffering. i hope he loses his legs and dies alone.
i can't even say that i'm hurt without him chimping out and focusing on my tone after i've been extremely hurt. absolutely no introspection, no "what did i say that you felt hurt by? and how can we avoid this in future? i don't want to hurt you", nothing. so fuck off with the rings, fuck off with the begging. i've told this dumbfuck to stop contacting me for forever unless he changes and without fail he bombards me with messages, calls, emails, saying he will do "everything you need or want, everything will be exactly as you need. i just don't want to lose you and i just wants to be close", only to pull the exact same shit 3 days later. at least i have some of his money i guess for all my suffering.
No. 1125977
>>1125956are you the tumor
nonny from yesterday? I was thinking about you today and was about to post a screaming cat gif and type "WHERE IS TUMOR
NONNY I NEED TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENED"
you should contact your previous docs and tell them what youre going through. so many that dismiss dangerous symptoms never see what damage they did or learn what happened; the patients go elsewhere eventually and the docs stay ignorant
No. 1126039
>>1126014People would have only reason to call you
problematic if you were dating a child despite not being one yourself.
No. 1126041
>>1126030>>1126034KEK god sorry this wasn't clear. I met my wife at 14, she was 15. We got married when gay marriage became legal here (in our 20s). But we've been in a relationship since we were young. Apparently this is
problematic to a lot of people though.
No. 1126050
>>1126041They should have a problem with all preteen-teen sweethearts that married at only 17-19 then. Of course the religious nut ones who usually meet in school, marry at legal age, have kids by 24, and probably divorce by 25-30 arent
problematic though.
No. 1126076
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>>112605210am CEST!
btw need to vent some more. How come other people swallow strange objects, scrotes put weird stuff up their bum and they're fine, meanwhile my intestines are retarded and try to eat themselves? I'm part of the 10% who actually gets enough fiber, don't drink, exercise regularly etc., it's not fair.
No. 1126095
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I am feeling a lot of existential dread concerning my turning 25 this year. Idgaf about hitting the wall because I know it's bullshit – I'm worried that I wasted my teens and early 20s and haven't done, experienced, or accomplished "enough". Especially the thought that my brain is supposed to "finish developing" soon is kind of disturbing. I don't feel much more mature than I did a couple years ago. Not having any friends definitely doesn't help but part of me irrationally feels that I'll never make friends. I hope I can make myself proud this year and ease my own fears, but I'm not feeling hopeful.
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>>1126095No, anon that's not true kek
No. 1126106
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Istg I will NEVER fucking eat takeout again this is the SECOND TIME within a year that I got food poisoning from it, FROM TWO DIFFERENT SERVICES, and I eat takeout like 5-8 times a year. What the fuck are they doing with the food they sell? Why is this allowed? Fuck these assholes, I'm going to contact the public health department as soon as I get better.
No. 1126115
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I am so sick of my sister in law that tries whining about her country and making any opportunity to say something negative about it (which is always taken out of thin air). Bitch always sits at home without any job or education at age of 28 on her own ass, forcing her own mother to have two jobs, so she could take care of the bills and grandmother. They always make food for her, never ask to clean, they even make her own clothing. Oh, I remember how you threatned your mother suicide if she won't give you money for weight loss surgery which made no difference at all. What was the point of that?
You are such a fucking whiney person. Now going as far as calling your language dead language when you know that's not true, all of your neighborhood countries know how to speak and understand it so shut your fucking ass, a lot of people speak it too. You don't know what a dead language is. Then when war started she started making it all about herself over how much she hates her own country when it will never be attacked and her existence is not related nor will be affected by war at all unlike me. You don't know what it's like spending years trying to move out of a corrupted dictated country where everyone hates women and finds domestic abuse so normal that they remove the law against it altogether, you don't know what it's like always having to run away from drunk men, you don't know what it's like having men try preying on you and all you can do is hope that there's a huge store nearby through 2nd exit of which you can safely leave. You don't know what it's like watching your grandparents having to always sell their jewelry because their pension is 100€ a month which is a lot less than their renting bills. You have always been a priveleged cunt that wanted to have as much attention as possible, hence why you started throwing hysterical fits and always claiming how much you want to be me (for no reason, while then spending 5 minutes talking about how much of a victim you are. I am always polite to you yet you keep trying to turn stepbrother against me, because he doesn't live with you and he's a fucking teen). I wonder if you whine so much not only to groom a 23yo porn-addicted gamer kid onto trying to live with him in other country or you are still a "right wing and a traditional woman" Nazi. Get a fucking job so your mother will have to stop crying that she has to work till 12pm. You are such an ungrateful cunt, bragging how you wake up late to not talk to her because all she wants is to know if you will get a job because the bills and food prices are increasing.
No. 1126120
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I had a remote customer service job last year that required me to be sitting at the phone/computer all day AND HOLY SHIT I GAINED SO MUCH WEIGHT IN 6 MONTHS. I went from being an active person, always on my feet to being sedentary and FUCK I GOT FAT.
I finally got fired for being late (which was my fault, I procrastinated logging in since I hated the job anyway) so I have all the time in the world to work out now, but god damn it IM STILL FUCKING FAT and my self-esteem is tanked.
I always hope I don’t run into anyone I know in public. Fuck.
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I hate the fact that weed is working much much better than my antidepressants. Like idk, it gives me pleasure in doing things that i had lost with depression, even a few days after the initial high, not horribly overthink anything also.
Antidepressants just makes me not want to kill myself and that's pretty much it.
And that fact alone makes me wonder if my life is actually worth living kek, cause, if i can't be not depressed with antidepressants (and therapy) and that only an illegal substance can make me happy is it really worth it?
Idk sorry for rambling
No. 1126122
Ages ago, on the stupid questions thread, I talked about my friend who thinks bags are a social construct. Well, now he keeps saying stuff that rubs me the wrong way. We were discussing prostitution once. I said I don't agree with it because it exploits people, and he basically implied I'm a hypocrite because I use electricity which exploits miners. Even though we don't use mining to get electricity in England?? Some things he does upsets me quite a bit. There was one time we had some cocktails before going to a gig, and he got kicked out 'cause he threw up after drinking too much, so we had to leave. We're walking through the streets late at night, and he keeps running off talking to strangers. At one point, some guy tries to drag me away by the hand, and my friend is busy talking to someone and does nothing. Later on, that same guy forcibly kissed me and my friend is next to me and literally is standing still and not helping me. The next day, I tell friendo that a guy dragged me way and he didnt help and ALL HE SAYS IS "I WAS DRUNK". NOT EVEN AN APOLOGY.
No. 1126142
I fucking HATE my coursemates. I hate them so much they are so horrible. most of our class is over 35 and were convinced they could take one single programming course and be able to change their career, and now when reality sets in that you need a lot more than one year of beginner HTML to become a programmer, they're acting like adult babies.
Our teacher/professor/whatever is a very young woman, so they treat her like shit as a result. were studying programming, and she came out with the unis suggestion for a new course plan for the next two terms. This whole year everyone has been critiquing the course, especially the course plan for not being able to be met. So the uni made a change. Now there are a bunch of older men screaming at a fresh graduate about a course plan she has no actual say in. it's so fucking horrible to watch and I can hear her crying through the mic. I had to leave the lesson because I felt so sick listening to it. I hope these people get reprimanded for this tantrum, but I'm almost certain they won't, given my teacher is almost convinced this is her fault.
As a bit of background, she was brought in recently to pick up the mess we had last year when we had an overconfident, underqualified and very lazy teacher who made a fucked up course plan and followed none of it. Shes essentially became the bastards in the class punching bag for their frustrations about that previous teacher.
I'm trying to be a bit of support for my teacher, I wrote my feedback on the course plan and thanked her for the very tolling task of trying to fix a very broken term. I want her to know at least one person is in her corner on this one, because being a female programming teacher is probably isolating enough, without having to wrangle a bunch of entitled babies for students.
No. 1126167
>>1126158if it's legally your flat shouldn't you be able to kick him out? Talk to a lawyer if needed, if possible have a family member/friend stay over too in case he would get violent when you're alone.
Or if you have male friends, tell them what's up and grab a few and make them come help you to force him to leave right then and there. He can go live with his parents or a friend, that's his problem.
No. 1126171
>>1126136Yep, got 3 different meds in 4 years with different doses too, at best they make me feel just not suicidal at worst they make me psychotic soooo, can't really say i haven't tried haha
>>1126120Same nonna, my desk job has got me gaining almost 10 kg aaaa
No. 1126198
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I'm triggered by almost everything. I live in fear knowing that any little thing I come by, both irl and on the internet, may remind me of some past painful events and I'll end up being unable to escape the pain of these thoughts for the rest of the day and it may even push me back into a depressive episode. At any time, no matter how good I feel, it can be so easily destroyed. I'm seeing a therapist, doing breathing exercises, practicing meditation and all the shit but so far I can't see any big improvement. It's exhausting, I want to be free but way too often it feels like death is the only real way out if it. I wish there was anything more I could do to help myself…
No. 1126204
>>1125956They even do that for very common illnesses so I'm not surprised at all. Once I passed out, woke up and threw up and felt so week I had to go to the doctor a few days later only by myself. The bitch insisted for 30min that me, a kissless virgin woman, was just pregnant and experiencing morning weakness (to the point I couldn't eat for nearly a week btw) and she wanted to throw me out of her office and force me to go back to work. I insisted, she got angry and tested me for some stomach virus and guess what? I was actually sick. She was like "ugh, I guess you're not pregnant then…. pff…" yeah fuck you too stupid, stupid bitch. And she yelled at me when I stayed in the waiting room because my sister was going to pick me up after her own appointment because I could barely walk.
Doctors also told my mother with some chronic physical health issues that are very painful that it's all in her head, she just has depression, and years later after getting a bunch of tests and having suicide ideation due to the physical pain they finally found out that her spine is completely fucked up. Fuck them too. The worst a condition is the harder it is to get a proper diagnosis, these people are doing the exact opposite of their jobs.
No. 1126221
>>1126041that's literally retarded. why would that be
problematic? it's the literal definition of childhood sweethearts and straight people who knew each other/started dating as kids marry all the time. pay them no mind nona they just sound homophobic
No. 1126261
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I hate hate when feminist authors make a really good point about misogyny and then immediately add a bunch of "intersectional" caveats without explaining why. I skimmed this book in a bookshop and read this passage
>to paraphrase the noted medieval theologians Radiohead, men have the perfect bodies and the perfect souls.
which is so true and something I think about often, how one of the core premises of centuries of human (male) philosophical thought is that men are perfectly rational and pure beings and vice is externalised and attributed to something "other" (women), rather than it being inherently possible in all humans. but then it goes
>(Well, cisgender white men without disabilities who have never had sex with other men, anyway—once you propose a biological elite, the definitions tend to keep getting more and more elitist.)
?????????? such a massive over-simplification and for what? you think if aristotle lost a leg he'd change him mind on the nature of women? you think elagabalous (proto-tranny roman emperor) was seen as a woman? No, the romans saw him, like every deviant, as a man corrupted by the feminine. The man is male, the vice is female, that's literally the whole fucking point hello?????
same book talks about periods a lot then goes "by the way not all women have periods and not everyone who has a period is a woman!!! also parents should trans their kids" my nemesis in christ this whole book is about women, but those women actually aren't women, or maybe they are who knows, and the men talking about them might not even be men because those are made up concepts so what the fuck is even the point? what is a woman???? God i hate it here so fucking much nonnies. picrel is the book, I want to add that the edition in my language has a different title and a completely different cover which made it look like a normal essay about women in mithology and folklore not this libfem garbage
No. 1126294
>>1126270I cut myself a half week ago and wonder how I can continue to function. Like my thighs and my entire body are covered in relapses worth of endurance and pain and all I can wonder is why don't they develop gangrene and fall off, or something terrible happen to me. The last year and a half I've battered my form to the point of no return, I've never felt so empty. Combined pills with alcohol the night of the last relapse and swore the next morning the tingles would kill me, they never do. Far worse has happened, I'm pretty sure I just give myself brain damage. Does a woman who's done this to herself deserve to live? If God exists then why is he incessant about torturing me? I wanted something unattainable and far far out of my reaches and now that I know, I know I can't have it, I want to die. The fact that he continues to keep me living when I have half a brain, a shredded body, and worse, a broken arrhythmic heart, kills me more than someone killing me would. I have lost all will to live and I lied about it time and again. My false prayers it would improve, it hasn't. Rock bottom has a basement, I'm below it. I'm sorry nona, I wish I could say it gets better, it hasn't
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>>1126261My stupid phone won’t let me screenshot the whole thing, but there’s this to your last question.
No. 1126299
>>1126270>I'm seeing a film in the cinema tomorrowAnon, that's a great step right there!! I did the same thing recently, went to the cinema alone and it was great. I ran a little late (always had trouble getting ready) but I only missed the ads before the film. I had a lot of room for myself because there were only a few people there and I was very comfortable. You'll be just fine, if there are going to be a lot of people there, you can just blend in. Just check the cinema's address before going so go to the right place.
What happened to us is that we reduced our comfort zone by avoiding challenging things (going out, meeting people, etc) and now even smaller things give us anxiety. Try and focus on the film when you're there instead of your anxiety (I know, it's easier said than done, but at least try)
No. 1126318
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I'm going to try and word this as clear as possible but I'll probably fuck it up anyway:
We (as a society) messed up when we said men should be allowed to freely become unhinged and 'express their emotions and not have to feel masculine!' at every opportunity. For fuck sake, women aren't even allowed or encouraged to express themselves or assert boundaries yet I still see so much pick-me shit about how men should be able to cry at random and just spout their thoughts and feelings to everyone. Am I living in a fucking fever dream? Yes okay I think everyone should be able to express their worries but there's a time and a place for it and so many men are jumping on this "muh mens mental health" bandwagon as an excuse to just pull the victim card at every fucking opportunity. It's honestly pathetic. If you're lucky enough to not have to subject being sperged at by some porn-addicted autistic moid who feels it necessary to narrate his entire life manifesto and the lore of final fantasy to you, you're instead being subjected to constant fucking whining and gaslighting from men who think there's some sort of 'deep, emotional reason' as to why they 'can't' find a job while sitting and playing video games all day and not even doing any housework.
I'm not condoning moids of the past, but at least in the past men were typically required to have jobs, work and provide for themselves and their families or else they were (rightfully so) seen as worthless. Even the most stupid males were still in employment to at least contribute something to society. Nowadays men will feel like it's perfectly acceptable to sit at home with their hands on their dicks jerking off to exploited women, spending all their money on weed and shit food, and listing off a novel of reasons as to why they "can't get a job" meanwhile gaslighting and using their girlfriends/wives as bangmaids.
I just find it so ironic how these men are just free to do this meanwhile I can't even speak up for myself in a medical, professional or even sometimes personal environment without being portrayed as dramatic or bossy. I see so many people preaching about men's mental health and men expressing xyz but meanwhile no one gives a fuck about the numerous smaller ways women are gaslit and made to feel silenced in our everyday lives…unless of course you're a "transwoman" in which case you'll have the benefit of every crusty moid suddenly listening to your every fucked up whim and desire. They'll even carve a gaping hole for you within a short time of deciding you'd like to identify as a pervert, meanwhile women all over the world are getting their legitimate health issues dismissed because everyone seems to think we're just dramatic hypochondriacs.
No. 1126355
>>1126322I wonder if part of this is down to the idea of women just being a form of a 'lesser' man. Throughout history the existence of women has always been debated or what they 'truly are', if we are even worthy to be equal to men, are we just meant to lead men astray, etc. Even in biblical contexts it was Adam who existed first - Eve merely spawned from his rib as just a secondary person. Many female figures were always just seen as a tag-along for a higher male power, a muse, a mistress and so on.
Obviously a lot of people don't directly use biblical or religious references now compared to many years ago, but I think now it's just manifested in a different form under the guise of gender identity and trans bullshit. I agree with you btw, not once has anyone ever discussed or challenged what a man is, I feel like this is down to men still being seen as the 'default' human state, or the first inhabitors of the earth.
I also feel like this is a very intentional calculated move, obviously. When you reduce the female sex, and women, down to just an abstract idea or heavily link us to mythology, philosophy etc…you disconnect us from reality and our sex-based reality, leaving the door open to ridiculous shit like transgenderism and gender identity taking priority over material biological sex, and the rights that come with that for women. It's far far easier for them to oppress and discriminate against us when we are reduced down to a string of thoughts, an idea, a flimsy little feeling or some sort of abstract identity which every moid can just take on or off as they see fit.
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I’m really sick of my parents bitching at me when I’m already in a bad mood. It is so bizarre to me that they don’t understand why I’m miserable when
>I can’t take a shower in their house unless it’s in the morning, because they uninstalled the shower pieces in the main bathroom over a decade ago and never fixed them
>can’t do any of my homework at their house because the internet connection is worse than dial-up, it can’t even load google docs
>I leave for work by 7am, have classes after work three days a week and spend the other two days doing my homework at the school, so I’m usually not home until 7pm
>have no friends at college, never have time to participate in college activities and all the classes I’m interested are unavailable because they’re during hours when I’m working
This rant probably makes me sound like a bitch too but I’m so tired. There is nothing good about being in the US, being poor and working yourself to dust trying to “make it”
No. 1126403
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I live with my parents in a retirement village that's an hour away from the nearest city. Before I was living alone in a city completely isolated and never left my apartment. Now I am surrounded by people who are 2-3x my age. They tend to be very friendly, maybe because I'm the only young person, but they always say hello and make conversation when I walk by them on the street. Versus when I try to talk to people my age it is very awkward and I don't know how to connect with them. I have visited the nearest city a few times by myself but I didn't talk to anyone, I felt so stupid wandering around alone is what I have always had to do because I don't have friends. I also am wary of making online friends because I've done that before and had my feelings hurt by people I never met in person. I just want my high school best friend back. Just one person like that I could take on the world with, I don't care if I don't have a dozen friends, just a true one
No. 1126454
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EVERYTHING is getting more and more expensive, it's ridiculous. Heating, electricity, food etc. My landlord also just called me to tell me that heating prices will go up by 60% and holy fuck I don't know how I'm gonna feed myself this month. I earn an okay of money but my expenses are insane because of all of this. I also had to go to two private doctors this month because there are fewer and fewer doctors who are covered by health insurance, especially dermatologists and gynecologists.
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I'm afraid I'm turning into my mother.
I grew up with angry, controlling, "helicopter" parents who yelled and cursed every day and micromanaged my every move. I used to be so sad whenever my mom would get upset about something and go on a screaming spree, swearing and throwing things and going completely off-topic to rant about everything else she's upset about. I always swore that I would break the cycle and never become a 'yeller' as long as I lived.
Now I'm an adult and living with my very calm and sweet boyfriend. Right now, I'm very stressed about being unemployed and finances in general, meanwhile my boyfriend is helping me and pays for our rent/food etc. I feel like my emotions are on a hair trigger and I've blown up at my him for no reason. Last night I was cooking dinner and got upset because I felt like I wasn't cooking the fish properly and I cried and yelled that I was frustrated, hated my life, everything was terrible, etc etc.
He calmed me down and afterwards I felt so embarrassed. I don't want to cry and yell and curse like my parents do. I don't want to be an angry wife or parent someday that my family is afraid of.
I'm currently taking medication for depression, but I can't afford therapy right now and I don't know what to do.
No. 1126613
>>1124554coming back to say it isn't getting better
i have to go to the city to visit an art museum and i might have to go alone, I am afraid something is going to kill me if I go alone. make it stop. make the paranoia stop
No. 1126638
>>1126606a year, maybe a bit more. before that I had lost and gained weight rapidly during adolescence, I'm sure that didn't help. but I think the binding is what really killed the elasticity.
I want a breast lift. how was your reduction? how much was it, are there payment plans? how long was the healing process? did you need to take a long time off of work? how did you find a surgeon?
No. 1126688
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i voluntarily listened to the beatles for the first time ever last night and i actually enjoyed it fuck fuck fuck this isn’t me…
No. 1126699
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I'm a tad tired of this colleague of mine. We go to college together everyday and we talk a lot on our way there. I do like him, but I'm getting fed up with his constant gender driven TEDTalk. I reckon it's important to him since he's NB, but the thing is idgaf about gender matters. Also, I always feel like I'm walking over eggshells when talking to him because he's an ultra sensitive SJW and I'm just autistic as fuck. I don't mean to disrespect him or anything because he is a nice person, but it sucks having to overthink absolutely everything so he won't wound up offended by some sperg shit I could unintentionally say. Like, yesterday he was telling me that his mom bashes him for wearing make up and so on. I told him I didn't claim to understand since it's a pretty tough situation, but tried comforting him saying I deal with something similar for my family laughs at my clothes whenever I'm about to leave the house. Then he said his mom ain't laughing at his clothes but rather at who he is. See what I mean? Whenever I try to be nice and empathetic, he says shit like that. I didn't even say I go to through the exact same stuff he does. This causes me to avoid him 'cause I feel so spent having to deal with that overly complex shit. Idk what to do, nonnas.
No. 1126715
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I'm truly depressed about the state of the world, esp for women, I literally can't read anything on the news about Ukraine or any other way torn country. I can't fucking take it I'm feeling suicidal about it and it isn't even about my own life it's because of everything else. My life isn't even that bad rn I just think about all the people suffering that can't be helped it just makes me want to die. I already cried today about this but I have to go to work later so I need to pull myself out of the slump
How do people cope with knowing about all the horrible shit going on and still live everyday?
No. 1126735
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holy fuck I can't cope with the fact that moids think they're are LEGITIMATELY funny. how is that possible? is beyond subhuman. Males cannot be funny, they just can't, they're incapable of comedy and poetry. I hate that their ape brains go "DUUHuuuuhhh shIT FaRT fuNNy!!!" how can you look at your reflection on your monitor and not want to immediately kermit? How can your parents deal with the fact that they've begotten such a fetid failure? Death can't come soon enough
No. 1126743
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>>1126735Doo doo cock AAAA HAHAHAHA
But get this:
HENTAI PUSSY uhhhh FEMOID MOMENT FEMALE MOMENT FEMININE MOMENT FOID MOMENT
No. 1126747
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>>1126721
No. 1126756
>>1126643I spoke to my talk therapist but she can't prescribe me meds. It's the psychiatrist I don't want to go back to who could. If I weren't worried about money and longevity I would have resumed my meds again, but in bugerland there's few options if you no longer have insurance or dun want to pay the piper for psychiatrist appointments.
Talk therapist says and knows I have other outlets, I just need to unlock the willingness to do them without falling out of love every time I do. She can't force me to make my own decisions. As it stands I want to sleep 24 hours a day and sink into the ground i walk upon. I don't want to fear people I don't think can hurt me anymore. I want to stop associating my trauma with them. I want to leave this place most of all. It'll be six months till I can, so I have to suffice, and I have to find other outlets. It's just so damn hard. Eerie things have happened to reinforce my paranoia. I can no longer stand to be alone. The illusion I've created is that of an entity who aims to pillage me, or force me into insanity, and even knowing it's not real, he presides over me. He has the power and the money to bring a civilian to insanity. In my mind if he killed me, he'd use my own paranoia as an agent of reason to pose my death as suicide. my oblivious family none the wiser, everyone would assume I just died by my own hand. Hypothetically nobody would ever know why or how or what the truth was, and it sounds like such a horrible death if I was to be proven right all along. I'm tired of this insanity.
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It's coming
No. 1126776
I’m
>>1126705>>1126742How is scarring for you anon?
No. 1126791
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So fucking tired of my 30 year old sister acting like a teenager and copying everything I do. I’m nearly a decade younger and I’ve had no self esteem for years due the treatment I got for being the “uglier one”, and now that I’m actually trying and noticeably “glowing up” as they say, she starts this shit.
She buys the same clothes I have even though she doesn’t even like them, when I stayed over at her place she even tried my clothes on while I was asleep. I cut my hair short last year and a few days after I visited and her husband complimented it she got the exact same haircut. I commented I’d like to dye my hair a certain color later that year, and a month later she got that color done (which everyone complimented and called original. Lol). On social media, which she’s addicted to, she’ll pretend to be into whatever games she sees me or my brothers play, even though she hasn’t touched a single game in years
After I casually mentioned something about my bisexuality (which I don’t make a big deal of and most people don’t even know cause it’s irrelevant), she “came out” as bi and started tweeting about how hot Beyoncé is and how much she wants a gf, despite being married (to a coomer, but still). I outright asked her if she’s sexually attracted to women, and she said she wouldn’t have sex with a woman, but she finds women like Doja Cat beautiful.
Last time we went on a holiday she asked me to send her the landscape photos I took. I told her not to post any, and she said it’d be just to show her husband. Lo and behold, she posted them everywhere pretending to have taken them, and because I don’t have social media, I only found out when her husband mentioned it. I called her out and she was like “Jesus Christ, it’s only some photos, I didn’t commit a crime, god you just ruined the mood” and was passive aggressive for the rest of the day.
Last week she saw me with a certain type of earrings and, despite her not having worn earrings for years, she just showed me a pair she ordered that look just like mine. Worst part is I think she doesn’t even realize and complains to me about her friend copying her. Of course she’ll have a meltdown at the slightest hint of criticism, and aside from my siblings who have also gone through some of this shit, she’ll get everyone’s pity.
It’s petty as hell but god I’m so annoyed and tired
No. 1126886
>>1126843That bitch can't hurt you anymore and whatever happened before, cannot happen again. Softblock her though.
>>1126882You will see these mediocre scrotes pitching the stalest sketches and people lose their minds and women get told "is that too politic though"
No. 1126894
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>get a crush on a guy in class
>he's polish and significantly better looking that most of the guys in my school
>we've seen eachother in class for 7 months but never talked
>get the courage to ask for his number
>he happily gives it to me
>a few days later message him
>I can't send him images for no reason
>he asks for my discord
>say yes and hastily make a discord account
>'wow we're really getting closer' I think
>accept his friend request and click on his profile
>see his banner
>it's a gif version of pic rel
He's still technically a teenager, so I shouldn't be surprised. Little disappointed though. I'll still try to talk to him though
No. 1126909
>>1126894Kek. He's a discord coomer so don't expect much but
>>1126900 is right and you can talk to him for validation.
No. 1126936
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I'll never find a good match for me. It's always only either looks, interests or good attitude towards me. There's never an overlap.
Ideally I have a very specific type and I'll never find him.
>dark nice messy hair
>attractive to me
>introverted and calm
>likes games
>exercises a bit
>romantic and caring
>nonsmoker, not drinking every few days
>doesn't have anxiety (male anxiety drains me)
>is over his ex
I am all these things and I also have many hobbies, moderately social, creative, good career. I'm asking for someone at least on my level. I try to lower my standards but it seems to me the under-average guys have even shittier attitude. Dating is such a pain in the ass.
No. 1126959
Went for a routine skin tags and so checkup to a dermatologist (skin cancer history in the family), new place because I've just moved cities, picked a clinic with a lot of positive reviews only, dermatologist did what she was supposed to do and then went like
>haha, how old are you really? you have a skin like an old woman here and here!
>your face looks pretty bad, you should book this treatment asap
>you want to treat x? nah, thats pointless, but you should fix y instead! (sth I don't even care about)
Except for the last, I didn't ask her for any of this, and my face looks actually pretty good these days; I've never met any dermatologist so eager to make so many mean comments completely unprompted. I'd understand if any of this was a possible threat to my health but it was all purely aesthetics. Went to make sure I don't have cancer, left with several new things to feel insecure about. I bet she's a farmer.
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I'm so sick of creators I follow pandering to trannies! I used to follow this lesbian couple for their costumes and wigs but here we are. I cant escape this. Why can't they shut up about bullshit and dangerous gender politics? These men wouldn't do the same for women.
No. 1126994
>>1126984He was somewhat feminine for a man? Which sucks because I’m attracted gnc and effeminate men, and you don’t know who will troon out.
But I think the troon cult got to him (he was a liberal). He used to be somewhat normal, but nerdy. Would cook and was nice. But then he met a guy online that was “non-binary she/they” and all of a sudden he wanted to be a “bimbo” and a “goth gf like I was”. He started taking hormones, which ruined the sex, and then he cheated on me.
So I guess the safest thing to do is be cautious of any guy that’s supportive of trannies in any way.
No. 1127059
>>1127040Similar case here, anon. A friend of mine genuinely asked if I was a "sex-repulsed asexual" because I was bitching about the normalization of degeneracy nowadays. Like…no, I like sex, I just hate the oversexualizing/pornification of every piece of media.
I was actually coming to lc to bitch about this specific thing. I'm so fucking sick and tired of everyone seeing a female character and immediately going STEP ON ME MOMMY or some other comment about their horniness for the character. Like please shut the fuck up. It's gotten so much worse the past few years and it's driving me insane, not at all helped by the fucking game devs that sex up the character designs. I just wanna scream. Even if I do like the design of a new female character, a pit forms in my stomach because I just know men are going to be gross coomers over it.
Today's rant is brought to you by Clawroline from the new Kirby game. What the fuck, Nintendo/HAL? No. 1127083
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I was going to put this in confessions thread but it almost feels just so ridiculous and humiliating I guess I'll vent about it instead!
For quite a long time, due to health issues both mental and physical, my boyfriend and I haven't had sex - if we do it's painful for me. He's chill with it and doesn't expect me to rush into things that cause me pain so w/e. It sucks as I have a high sex drive but I just have to wait for my condition to get better. Anyway, I've noticed that since being unable to have it/falling out of a sex life routine I have these insanely impulsive thoughts about fucking literally any sort of male friend I have, some more than others, if they are even remotely good-looking, which unfortunately most of them are kek. They pop up in my dreams, they invade my thoughts when I'm chilling or working etc. I don't know what to do and it's fucking annoying, I don't have a crush on these friends so I don't know why I'm suddenly getting frequent and fast thoughts about doing sexual things with them. I suffer with OCD tendencies and the thoughts almost feel similar to that.
I feel like it could be coming from sheer sexual frustration and gradually seeing my own boyfriend as less of a "sexual partner" over time. I would never cheat, but I still honestly can't help these intrusive thoughts I'm having. It makes me feel gross.
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>>1126912nta but I’m guessing that validation of having an attractive guy talk to you
No. 1127092
>>1127087probably frustrated about how long it takes with BF, and a new guy with ‘excitement’ attached seems more exciting. the heart wants what it wants even if it doesn’t make sense. don’t cheat on your bf though
nonny, focusing on easy and pleasurable alternatives could perhaps re-engage your brain
No. 1127097
I hate how women are expected to be 'nice'. I'm polite, nothing more. My old coworkers constantly whined at me that my voice was too flat, I didn't smile enough, didn't suck everyone's ass, fucking whatever. I don't even feel the need to change, I know I have far more qualities than to play nice. But people constantly berate me about having a boring voice, assume I'm this and that solely because of how I talk, the way I make facial expressions and the fact that I don't kiss everyone's ass. Men can do this shit and are seen as cool, but when a woman does it no no! I know I have valuable qualities, but just because I'm not overly nice people dismiss me as a bitch. Yes I don't take shit from people, I keep my cool but I don't take people insulting me to my face or gossiping about me (or any of my other coworkers back then. I know how stupid this sounds on a gossip forum, but in a workspace you just don't talk shit about others unless you're the big boss, they're actually fucking up bad and you need to discuss it). I don't want to be 'nice'. I care about others but I'm not going to anything more than polite to you if I don't even know you. 'Oh you're a woman and you're standing up for yourself? Well that's not any way to act.' I hate double standards. Hate them.
>>1127084I'm so sorry nonna. Fuck them. Seriously, the easiest way to dismiss someone you don't understand is to ridicule them for the smallest of things. They don't know you, so their opinion about you does not matter. You're not doing anything wrong, they're just too retarded to understand not everyone is exactly like them. Hang in there nona, stand up for yourself. If you ask them why they're making up rumors about you they'll probably go silent. These types of people don't like confrontation, anything that's not completely in line with their way of thinking they can't even try to understand. This is a whole manifesto but seriously, don't take it personally. It's them, not you.
No. 1127157
Got broken up with a few months ago, my ex was clinically depressed and I think he went through a self-sabotage moment and thought dumping me would be the magic cure to his sadness (even though I was the only one who loved him regardless and encouraged him to improve/leave his house for anything other than work) But he made it quite clear he had lost feelings and could never love me again. I’m an extremely loyal person but I’ll never beg for someone who could treat me like that, so it ended.
Anyway, I was heartbroken over it all, but a couple months after the break, one of my ex’s only friends starts snapchatting me. I had literally never spoken to the guy before privately, but he wanted to know how I was doing. I felt petty and kept texting him, but now it’s a couple more months down the line and this guy is obviously really into me. He compliments me all the time and says he didn’t know what was going through my ex’s mind when he dumped me, and is now pushing for us to meet privately.
I’m not attracted to this guy and I’m not over my ex yet, so nothing’s going to come from it, but how fucking sad. He’s passively told me that my ex is going through a rough time right now and ‘hasn’t been right since we broke up’ - yet instead of being there for his friend, he’s pursuing his friends ex-girlfriend. The audacity of scrotes. This guy is considered one of my ex’s best friends - I just couldn’t imagine ever pursuing my best friends ex-boyfriend like this.
I know I was having a toxic moment to keep texting my ex’s friend back but I just thought I’m the free agent in this situation. This whole situation has probably stunted my healing process, so probably will block him soon.
No. 1127161
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> be me, cringe greentext schizo-chan
> decide to get help. find female psychiatrist that specialises in schizo-chan brand cringe
> need referral from doctor
> find scrote doctor. ask for referral bc constantly thinking about suicide and general schizo-chan symptoms
> history of schizo-channess heavily documented, all other doctors give me whatever meds or referrals i ask for since it's a medical marvel i'm not in jail or dead
> scrote doctor reads out his psych eval for the referral. says i have good eye contact and took a shower so i'm not severely depressed
> "constant thoughts of suicide and nearly daily cutting isn't severe depression?"
> "lolno, you're clean and not catatonic. that's severe depression"
> mfw might get rejected from schizo-chan treatment because i bathed before talking to a man
No. 1127201
For context, I've been visiting family in my home country for the past month, and am soon to rejoin my husband in the country where I live.
Apparently over the last three weeks a strange Russian-sounding man has been coming over and repeatedly trying to gain entrance to our flat, and no matter how aggressive and unfriendly my husband has been to him (now to the point of grabbing him to take photos and threatening violence), he keeps trying to get in for some unknown reason, and now has started ringing other people in the building in an attempt to have them let him in, presumably to harass husband more. Husband has filed it with the police and the landlord, and although they seem to be taking it seriously, there's no telling what will come of it or how quickly they will act.
I'm bizarrely worried about this to the point where for two nights in a row I have dreamed a reddit mode soyboy fantasy dream of me opening the door of the flat, Russian waiting with a knife, me executing a perfect block-punch combo and spin-kicking him down the stairs, him falling on the knife and dying, and having to defend myself in an epic and unrealistic court battle. I'm worried he's going to stalk husband and catch him with a weapon of some kind, and although I have no doubt he can defend himself, I'm bothered that it's something he has to think about or potentially deal with.
Strangest thing, and the aspect which makes my paranoia tick the most, is there's no telling what he wants. He has refused to answer any questions or say much of anything at all. He seems completely terrified of husband to the point of literally running away while crying 'sorry, sorry, sorry' when he caught him on the doorstep. Why keep going back time after time? Is he a bailiff with the wrong address and crippling social anxiety? What if he's after me, for some reason? I can't remember ever seeing anyone who looks like him around, but I've had men develop strange fixations on me in the past. The guy seems like he's just insane, which makes the prospect of him committing a random act of violence even more likely.
Just concerned and hoping that the guy dies or something so we don't have to worry about it anymore, preferably within the next week.
No. 1127212
>>1127197like i know she is insane and i should feel more for her but there is also how she has taken all the experiences i have had and claimed them as her own, i was sexually abused as a child, she goes and tells everyone she suffered the things i did, i was bullied, she says it was her, i was isolated from my family, she claims it was her, every shit thing that has happened to me she claims it was her like always from me losing my tou dog at age 5 she copies that too, everything??
and i just gotta be here and support her for the shit that actually happened to me but pretend it was her molestation her bullying or whatever or she will kill herself
No. 1127226
>>1127202I'm not there now, although I'm due to go back in about a week. The post contents are what I've been informed of secondhand as it's been happening.
I'm not really worried enough about it to not go back, but it's definitely something that's bothering me. I certainly won't ever be picking up the intercom or going outside alone until it's resolved one way or another.
No. 1127237
>>1127224and one problem comes from like while my sister has pulled the multiple personality shit in real life too but mostly she catalogs all this shit and what her new doctor says to her "secret blog" which i know, but i don't want her to know i know her blog since she is psychotic and paranoid because that might make her even more paranoid if she realized her family knew about her "secret blog" so i don't know who to go to, who i should complain with the evidence of weird shit (well according to my sister maybe the doctor didn't say the things my sister said she said) without my sister knowing it is from her "secret" blog? because i am afraid that would just
trigger her paranoia and psychosis just more
No. 1127274
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a moid told me that i look like her. what does it mean?
No. 1127282
>>1127274that you physically look like her? or maybe he was trying to lowkey vilify you. if he was an online male it was quite possibly a neg
>>1127278KEK but for real she just started shooting at kids and killed them and it isn't cool
No. 1127293
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>>1127059Tbh the character design itself seems porny…
No. 1127294
>>1127278im not surprised since somehow sub men always show some interest in me
>>1127282i met him days ago so it mean phisically i think?
No. 1127302
>>1127294where did u meet him?
>>1127293it is objectively porny and ridiculous. i hate that her sclera is yellow too. it makes her look like a jaundice sufferer
No. 1127343
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>be me
>be in College and required to take Philosophy
>Having 90% in Class
>Tonight I decide to try really hard on my Assignment to get my grade higher
>I get caught up in reading different material
>I realize the deadline is soon (it's 11:59) so I proofread my paper and corrected the grammar
>I submit it (at 12:00)… It's a minute late
>it says in bold " ACCESS DENIED"
>I did all the hard work and it can't be a minute fucking late what the fuck
>Read his policies, "NO LATE WORK"
>my grade went from A to a low C in one assignment that I did do.
>Highest grade I can even get is a fucking 76% if I ACE everything else…
I wanna kill myself I can't even cry because I feel so stupid
No. 1127347
>>1127346I commented on the assignment saying at 12:02
I did not realized it would lock exactly a second after 11:59
No. 1127348
>>1126715The women of Ukraine are literally allowed to get up and leave while the men are forced to stay and fight and die. How you can make the women the
victims in this scenario is beyond me. Obviously every Ukrainian is suffering, but the women are literally the ones in the privileged condition in this one. They are stopping 17 year old boys from leaving with their mothers for Christ's sake.
No. 1127353
>>1127348A 17 year old boy can fight. Those women and girls can't, they're useless for the military because none of them are trained, you can't just pick up a gun you need training.
Though those women and girls can get raped and they do, which is only used for propoganda and strengthens Russia as a psyop. The soldiers are less likely to be able to fight when they're thinking about how their wife, mother and even children are getting raped at the moment, the Ukrainian men also want to protect their families and would defend them being sent off to somewhere safe.
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Sometimes I get nightmares about that popular rich kid from high school (he even had his own fan-club irl) that kept sexually assaulting me in school (as in, whenever I sit alone he would come and grope me, get his hands under my sweater, etc even if id tell to stop) and tried to sleep with me the last time we crossed paths. He kept saying that there is no point in filing a complaint to school because his parents would take care of me instead. I was also so stupid to truly think that we are going to his place that's next to school just to pick up his math books. I am happy I managed to make something up and run back then, but it all felt so disgusting. I still can't believe how naive I was.
The worst part about it is that he went for a philosophy major and is currently working as a school teacher.
No. 1127430
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i've been struggling a lot lately with my interests not interesting me… like, i still care about them, but thinking about them sort of makes me start to feel like shit. it's also like pulling teeth to talk to people and make an effort in my relationships, which i've been really working on lately by reaching out and trying to make friends, but it's like it just makes me feel worse to go through the whole song and dance of getting to know someone again. i don't know how to stop feeling like this, i just want to be able to do what used to make me happy and have fun talking to people again without wanting to slither back into my bed and lay there (which also makes me feel like shit since i'm not doing anything). i really hope some of you feel like this too, anything to make me feel less alone.
No. 1127435
>>1127357The overwhelming amount of ukrainian casualties, even excluding military ones, are men. I never said women don;t suffer, I said so in my post inf act. But the primary
victims here are men, you are pulling an "all lives matter" bullshit.
No. 1127444
>>1125600Try watching the video you need in tiny snippets or read a paragraph and reward yourself after each one with something small. A little work is better than no work
https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLvq9Tp5JZ8oBflcp2x2NsR8R6sgyDMZxq.
Also, maybe try seeing if one of the videos in this playlist helps, I love this channel
No. 1127456
>>1127308I did similar thing just last week, the breakup wasn't even
that bad. Reached out afterwards with a nice message and he sent me an insulting nasty message back. It's not worth it, mark my word
nonnie. Once they know the breakup is final they'll try to cope (sour grapes way) and make you a terrible bitch in their mind that they want to hurt and insult. There are mature guys but I wouldn't risk it.
No. 1127479
>>1127473Yeah, I know a few friends and family who cannot fast because of their health issues but there's nothing like that going on with me. I'm just going to cook even more unhealthy meals now eheh
>>1127466Why didn't I think of this… Good idea nona, could work, thank you!
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>>1127083I feel you, nonna! My Nigel is cute and I love him, but I’ve been dreaming with another guy that goes to the same uni as me. This other guy has a darn long, silky hair that drives me crazy as I’ve appreciated long haired dudes since forever. He isn’t particularly cute, it’s all about his hair. I feel disgusted by myself because even though I would never cheat, I sometimes catch myself thinking about him. Ugh, I hate myself for that.
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I'm not going to go half on bills/rent with you. You earn more money than me, you get to afford weed, fast food and buying a new PC with your wage. Yes, you work hard for your money and you work more hours than me, but you also said I should focus on this bookkeeping career - because I genuinely want to and I will take over your parents business when they retire.
So you accept the fact I earn less than you, and my work is less consistent than a regular 9-5 job given that I'm essentially self-employed. But you still want me to go exactly 50% on the bills despite me being unable to purchase anything nice for myself apart from gym membership and gym clothes every half a year? No, fuck you. You don't get to win. This is your punishment, and it's only fair. You lied to me about things in the past and begged for my forgiveness - fine, now it's my turn. And I don't regret it one bit, because you're too fucking dumb to keep up on what bills cost what and how this house runs. That's unpaid labour on my part, and you deserve to pay more for this shit.
The difference between me and you is that you lied to me because you were in denial of addiction and thought I would roll over and put up with you watching porn behind my back, I'm lying to you because you don't think it's fair to pay bills proportionate to income. I don't give a single fuck, I'm done feeling like I'm a bad person for these little white lies that keep me from going broke or feeling unequal in a relationship. And don't say I didn't try to talk to you about this earlier - I proposed a 40-60% bill split due to the slight difference in income. You claimed it was unfair. You want to see unfair? There is a reason why every bill, the rent, every single expense for this household is in my name - because you will never get to win. You will never ever see me ask you for help again, assistance with anything financial, you will never have control of me the way I see men control women financially every day. You're a fucking loser for the most part, I had to take over your job role as bookkeeper for your parents because you couldn't even be assed to do the work.
Now that you do have a job you like, you think that we should all just forget the way you used to be. Maybe everyone else has, but I haven't. I know what subtle things you're capable of, and if you ever try to fuck me over again I will absolutely make sure to meticulously and carefully destroy your life one day at a time. The funny thing is, you're just like any other moid in the sense that you will never realise until it's too late. Don't ever, ever assume I've forgotten about the shit that you hid from me, the way none of those women you watched looked like me, and the way you didn't even have the guts to confess that you had relapsed. I had to find that shit out for myself and it made me ashamed of my body shape, my looks, my race. This is absolutely what you deserve. You will never get to win.
No. 1127639
>>1127608Yeah to your face if people think you're weird or laughable they'll just stare vaguely for more than one second, but after that they can definitely shit talk you behind your back. That's the best case scenario, some people are crazy enough to film others without their consent and post their pics and videos everywhere to laugh at them. My sister showed me a youtuber who films people's reaction in the street and public transport while he's yelling in their general direction or doing stupid shit, and it's not like these candid camera shows where these tricked people can probably say afterwards that they don't want to be on TV, once that happens to you you're on youtube and people can shit talk you all they want in the comments. Another type of cases is when you're in school or you work and classmates or coworkers will act all cordial and shit while trying to ruin things for you just because. I had my internship's manager who gave me a bad grade for my last semester in uni just because she thought I was weird. Why? Because I had the misfortune of not really having anything to day during small talk whenever the topic of kids came up, when I once said I watched horror movies during Halloween on Netflix (yes she thought it was super fucking weird), because she mistakenly thought I was muslim and was confused I wanted to have a paid day off she already accepted to celebrate new year eves with my family (don't ask me what was up with that it's a weird story), she thought it was scandalous that I wouldn't do unpaid hours of work after 5pm despite me being paid way less than minimum wage since it was an internship, etc. Yeah she didn't say anything until and pretended to be nice and polite until she graded my work for uni, left on maternity leave, and shit talked me on the phone for not being open and talkative enough. So even the people you see on a daily basis and who can directly shape your future can do that shit.
No. 1127656
>>1127653Idk it wouldn't really make sense for either to be seeking anything out that resembled their partner, unless maybe they had a really destitute sex life or something
>>1127654its not like you cant watch it without paying or giving ad revenue
No. 1127665
>>1127640You're correct nonna I work for his parents, thank you for speaking sense. It's very easy for people to sit from a comfortable spot and say "just leave lol".
>>1127633 My mother is emotionally
abusive and previously locked me out of the house after trying to stand up for myself, I literally don't have anywhere else to go and trying to find a place on your own where I live is almost impossible, especially thanks to rising living costs.
Fortunately, his parents are actually good, supportive people and like I said the business is mine once his dad retires. If I was in a position where I could just dip, afford a place on my own and move on with life, I would, but unfortunately I'm not, and I come from a poor rural background. I'm not going to feel like a bad person for making the best out of my situation. Thanks for your criticism though, I'm sure the countless other women who have been in my spot throughout history will take it on board because surely they haven't considered it before, right?
>>1127650>>1127656I'm sensitive about porn from a feminist perspective and a personal one. First, it exploits women and second I was sexually exploited by a porn addict in my teens, who is still exploiting his partners to this day despite me trying to warn them about it. I don't think you need to do the maths on that one to figure out why I'm so "
triggered" by it.
No. 1127680
>>1127638Literally got ganged up on by female coworkers when I didn't chat inbetween customers. Maybe I'm jut fucking tired?? Fuck them don't regret quitting with a text.
It's like even if they're tired if they have to hide it till they go crazy, then they expect you to hide it too an go crazy too. Literal insanity.
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I just tested positive for covid and I might have infected my parents.
No. 1127695
>>1127594I can't help but feel like
somehow being dishonest with bills will end up hurting you, but maybe I'm just too cautious
No. 1127701
>>1127693>>1127694I hope you're right, my symptoms aren't severe but I still feel like shit rn
At least I haven't lost my smell/taste for some reason
No. 1127721
>>1127293ayrt and yeah, it absolutely does. Like
>>1127624 said, it doesn't even fit into the Kirby universe. She really stands out because all the other bosses are huge and she's maybe a couple heads taller than Kirby. There are maybe two other female characters in other games that are a little ehh design-wise, but are still done up in such a way that it's clearly "Kirby game", you know? God, I hate looking at Clawroline. Sorry for game sperging
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>>1127091>>1127125this Pinterest photographer took these pictures I think. Their art gives off a very nostalgic vibe
https://www.pinterest.co.uk/anynndamm/_created/ No. 1127886
>>1127873Samefag but like if you have brains don't hide it in order to not feel "pretentious". If you think people would treat you as such then its possible they ate intimidated by you and lowkey hate on you. Be strong and choose your battles
nonnie!
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>>1127922sadly i find this one super attractive. she's still attractive and has been transitioned for like 8 years now. but yeah usually they lose their hair really quickly. i think she kept hers because she went off test on and off and i think is off now again (still identifies as trans) but still looks the same
No. 1127955
>>1127922An artist I follow on twitter just started on T and I'm worried (not rly) about what the end result is going to be. I just really love the look of butch/gnc/masculine women, and I wish it was more common and accepted to like that sort of look and style without equating it to "wow I
must be trans!"
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>>1126760You're not alone! I only consume a new show/movie like 1-3 times a year at this point, and only if its with a friend so it feels less intense. I don't know if this will help you, but what has helped me immensely is practicing reading books, specifically random used books (ones I know will probably appeal to me but not something I've been seeing hyped up a lot). I might read very slowly because it feels very intense, but theres no rules that you cant read 1-2 pages a week at times and it still is practicing exposing myself to new content and ideas at a pace that is comfortable to me and that doesn't feel like the level of pressure I experience watching some big fancy new show/anime/movie because it's just a cozy little book nobody cares about and its just words on a page. even easier might be audiobooks. otherwise i mostly stick to the same familiar shows, tho sometimes i accidentally trick myself into enjoying a new one but distractedly turning on a tv and channel flipping. it helps to not have the intention of getting super into whatever it is, for me at least. I hope this becomes less overwhelming for you, it can feel kind of isolating or frustrating to not be able to consume media like other people can, even if others might be too extreme in the opposite direction kek
No. 1128074
>>1128066i wish i could but i am that fucking touch starved at this point i’d start crying.
>>1128068i am also studying computer science. we are fucked.
No. 1128076
>>1128057There's no arguing with boomers or those types of conservatives (I assume they are), or even bothering engaging in conversation. Everything always comes back to politics and what's wrong with the country. I know gas is expensive, but you're going to suck it up and pay it because you still want to engage in activities that you enjoy doing, why spend your time complaining about it and having Fox news on a drip feed to your brain 24/7, especially when your kind have been the ones banging the war drum to fight the endless wars that drove the prices up to begin with. I know you are angry at having to wait two hours to get your slop served to you at the local family steak and potatoes restaurant, but it's probably because your kind have been bitching about how unskilled workers (like you) have been overpaid since the dawn of time.
It's an exercise in saying 'oh really? that's so interesting,' and leaving as soon as possible. Godspeed to you.
No. 1128126
good to know that you, despite making significantly more money than me and having a regular wage compared to me, still are "unable" to save up a months worth of your side of utilities and rent. but you can still buy mcdonalds multiple times a week and spend 300 fucking pound on drugs per month. this dude is actually retarded, and he has the audacity to say "well part of the reason why i cant save up is because i spend money on you" yes you fucking idiot because we both discussed + agreed to it under the condition you would already have at least 1k in savings? i feel like this man is actually braindead. he has no problem splashing 300 a month on weed yet when i inevitably have to come to him for help regarding paying a bill or how I didn't get paid in time to make rent, he cries on about having to spend money on "stuff".
what stuff, you fucking retard? every single bill comes out MY account, you have NO expenses to worry about or no bills to organise. you send me your fucking pittance every month then you have absolutely no worries for the rest of the month. all you do is work, come home and then let the spare room we have get like a fucking episode of hoarders with mcdonalds bags and cans of coca cola. you are disgusting, you're quick to play the masculine generous bf by buying me cinema tickets, food etc when i ASSUME and tell you you should only do that if you have more than 1k in the bank and if you genuinely want to. you agree, then flip this shit on me when you know for a fact my job is wildly different to yours?
fuck you. you forget the first year we moved in together and i was the only one working and we had to claim benefits, it was me who picked up all the fucking slack. i even arranged job interviews for you like the pickme i was, so funny how you "forgot" about some of them huh you fucking moron. without me, you would literally be nothing. you'd still be in your shitty drug dealer friend group watching porn every morning and night because no self-respecting woman would want to touch you with a bargepole - in hindsight i kind of wish i hadn't too, because you have sexually denied me for months. you'd be stuck in your parents house, unable to do the most basic shit for yourself. when your driving ban got lifted, i let you drive MY car for a chance to redeem yourself and get yourself back on the right track. the amount of patience and mental health i've sacrificed for you only for you to hide shit from me and turn around and act as if YOU need to pay for ME is insane. this is precisely why i will never ask or even approach you for advice or help ever again. it's funny how i have so much fucking dirt on you yet you have none on me - next time you want to play victim and act as if i'm stealing your money or scamming you (despite being your literal girlfriend) i'll be sure to take pictures of the state of the spare room, and get proof of your disgusting moid loser drug habit that leaves you 300 quid worse off every month. you are disgusting, if I had any family left to go to i would be out of here and you'd never hear from me again. you want to call me belittling but guess what bitch, you fucking deserve it. grow up, man up, i had to hear some pretty tough mean shit in my past but it's the only way i could learn. you're not immune from it either you fucking idiot. no self-respecting 24 year old moid needs to be reminded to clean up a spare room, or needs to be reminded that he should save money. you are a lost cause.
No. 1128131
My vent is a bit sad but I was on bed rest for a few weeks and I just noticed there’s this very frizzy and dry spot in the back of my head. I thought it was matted or a knot maube, but it’s just extremely frizzy from the layibg down, I’m so embarrassed and idk what to do about it.
>>1128121Do it
No. 1128140
>>1128135It's ok
nonnie, me too
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>>1128138ily nonita bonita
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Moids talk shit about women liking Harry Potter and romance films all the time, while in the same breath they elevate scrotecore shit and unironically make male escapist fantasies to be a complex work of art. The whole series of 90s corporate critical movies (office space, fight club, falling down) is crybaby garbage only praised by subpar men that can't make it in the world.
Fight Club is especially embarrassing and I have no sympathy for the protagonist. He had a high paying job, people were polite to him at work, he had a nice apartment. He conspicuously had no friends or hobbies, something he had ample time to solve after work. He could've just played sports or joined some club, he seemed to put absolutely no effort into solving his problems before hitting Tyler Durden He didn't have to go cancer support groups and then become a smelly dumb hobo.
I imagine third worlders watching these films as being embarrassed, embarrassed at the utter angst. I watch all of these movies and just think all these men should be thankful about their easy lives with established careers and stability, it annoys me seeing them all throw it away in a tantrum, and the film implying it makes them more successful with women. Yeah no
No. 1128162
>>1128118Oh geez. Unfortunately I live in an apartment, of which the building is surrounded by cockroaches (they love bushes and trees and find their way inside for food) and we've had some unwelcome visitors.
Get some Hot Shot boric acid powder and put it all around the edges of your apartment outside. The roaches will walk in it and it dehydrates them until they die. You can also try Raid's Bug Barrier spray and put it all around the perimeter of your porch or balcony.
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Cockroach nonnie update:
I realized I'm more scared of moids than seeing a tiny gray bug, triple bagged my garbage and threw out all the garbage. I even pulled out my stove and fridge, and checked all corners, I haven't seen any evidence of them despite what I assume is a cockroach.
I appreciate all the reassurance nonnas, I will try out all these tips.
Picrel is evidence, be scared no more for me nonas!
No. 1128191
>>1125956Hi I'm still alive, scrote couldn't find it once he looked inside (despite seeing it on CT scan before), so I'm home already. Will have to get an MRI and have a second go later. I also saw an orthopedic specialist and a rheumatologist look at my files in MyChart and I noticed calcium on my IV bag when I woke up. Just wat, I never complained about my bones? I hate the lack of transparency. Also I'm so bloated from the gas they pumped in to look. My nurse was a sweetheart and the the other female patients I shared the room with for a bit were very nice too. I'm glad to be home though, because they put me next to 2 scrotes in 1 day.
>>1127693I know COVID seems like not a big deal even now, but if anyone has any variant, please wash your hands regularly and wear a mask. I'm not saying this as part of some sort of Bill Gates Great Reset cabal, but in other cultures with more social solidarity people mask up even for flu. There was a COVID outbreak on another ward at the hospital I stayed at today, people don't get their surgery/treatment if they are infected, no matter how 'mild'. Also ill, immunocompromised people exist and want to be able to participate in society too without dying or getting complications from a retard who thinks they are doing them a favor by coughing or sneezing on them. I swear the next scrote who does that gets punched, damn the stitches.
No. 1128201
>>1128182>Bro you're 39>the rest of my 20sWow the old groomer doesn't give a shit about you, what a surprise. He doesn't hate birthdays, he hates you expecting literally the bare minimum of effort.
Dump him ffs why are you wasting your time.
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I was trying to save one of lucis new horror tier bodychecks from her twitter to post in her thread and accidentally airdropped it to my mom in the other room. Should I kill myself now or later? The cringe is so strong I want to die.
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The zoomer trend of pairing a sundress with huge clunky tennis shoes and sometimes even big combat boots is the most awful, fugly thing and I can’t stand it.
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Everytime I ask a question in the stupid questions thread I get ignored.
No. 1128284
>>1128230I wish painful death upon him
>>1128279Which one is it anon? more than likely we just don’t know the answer I promise
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I hate curling wand curls in historical fiction. It looks stupid and cheap.
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>>1128306I’d give them a pass, women have been curling their hair using heated rods for thousands of years.
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>>1128301>>1128310Thanks anons. I use Cerave on my face and like it so it makes sense to try that on my body and I've heard good things about aveeno
No. 1128329
>>1128153I feel bad because a lot of the movies I enjoy are known as
toxic film guy genre like Pulp fiction,
American psycho and Fight club. I think the difference between girls enjoying these films and guys, is that women do exactly that, just enjoy a film whereas guys like to embody the characters.
My favourite thing about fight club is the wardrobe that Brad Pitt wears. His aesthetic is chaotic and I like it. I've never seen another man dress in that style. The colourful printed t shirts and spikey unruly hair.
No. 1128347
>>1128314No pics on me right now, but it's chainmaille. The people I work for do faires and stuff. They send me boxes of metal rings and I do all the boring basic strips and sheets of chainmaille that become belts and headbands and things. It's not a bad side gig. I can put youtube or netflix on and work. But sometimes the communication can be a bit difficult.
I also just hate not knowing what's going on or what to do about certain problems. That's what gives me anxiety. Hopefully they can dig up the tracking number, I can find where it is or intercept the package and make sure to find a better solution for the next package.
No. 1128400
>>1127665You sound like a huge asshole.
You can justify it however you want, the fact is that you're a petty and extremely manipulative person who emotionally manipulates others for personal gain.
No. 1128444
>>1128383anon, this is a little bpd of you, but i get it. sometimes i miss being in relationships with people who were obsessed with me and who i could go to with anything and know they'd accept it and it would just bring us closer. codependency is very comforting like that. now, i feel like i will always like someone more than they like me. it sucks but, in the end, all those extremely
toxic codependencies only felt good in the moment and i grew to want out of them once the magic had worn off. i know both of us are capable of finding someone who reciprocates our love but in a less… explosive way. i would be your healthy bff if i could, i know she's out there for you.
No. 1128470
>>1128467Can you go to your doctor and ask them to refer you to an allergist?
They can desensitize you to allergies
Although its kinda weird if you've been eating it regularly
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Staying temporarily at a friends house, its been forever trying to find my place but the light is at the end of the tunnel. Until one of her rotational men shows up and fucks up my mood worse than the drug addict roommates we had to kick out. Always being overtly sexual, then posturing around her kids, complaining about her and flirting with me. Being a lesbian does not deter this scrote obviously, and today this asshole basically tries to “jokingly” trip and put his crotch in my face. He’s confrontational about everything, then tries to act cute and flirty with me. Men make me sick, I’ve been peaked.
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ALL MEN SHOULD DIE TO ELIMINATE THE MOIDS AND SCROTES WHO POST CP GRRRR
No. 1128725
>>1128714I love you
nonnie, please don't cry. Things will get easier for you, you're very stressed out and overwhelmed right now and food was the easy option, that's ok, and you will be ok! Wipe those tears for me girlie and hold your head up high. We love you here, and you are not a loser or ever will be precious nona
No. 1128795
/g/255346 made eating disorder general thread for any nonnnies who would be helped by one, am retarded so don't know how to link it properly
>>1128714nonny me too just yesterday and i had gone 3 weeks without and it was the grossest fucking food too, my throat bleeds for half an hour after anytime i purge now :(
No. 1128816
>>1128795here's the link my newfag friend
>>>/g/255346 it might get locked though
also read these before posting
https://lolcow.farm/ruleshttps://lolcow.farm/info No. 1128927
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i know this makes me a bad person but i’m disappointed that lana let herself go
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I planned to go to a family outing today with some people but didn't even get the call for the final coordination apparently. I called asap and they were already halfway there, and one of them knew I wanted to go. So I wasted a PTO day on this shit.
I'm so fucking mad I want to cry. fuck them
No. 1128988
>>1128986> it feels like there's still something deep inside that says things like "she's still your mother" ,"you only get one", and that I will live to regret my decision.Societal programming, anon. You have the right to not feel bad for cutting someone who treated you like shit out of your life. You don’t have to accept abuse just because she’s your mom. That’s
toxic messaging from generations before you.
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Everyone at my office is wearing pronoun stickers on their work badges. I hate this. A manager came up to my desk and asked me my pronouns and waited for me to put the sticker on my badge. I want to take it off but everyone is wearing there’s and I don’t want to look like a homophone god I’m so easy to peer pressure.
No. 1129012
>>1129010you are just like me
find something to do
No. 1129029
>>1129025you might not have skills or worth now, but you aren't stuck that way
you can improve at things you enjoy and if you can't you can become knowledgable in the process.
No. 1129040
>>1128986Lost my mom to cancer, watched her go through all that harsh medical treatment.. years after her death I'm still hit with thoughts of her every day. It's not the same though. I'd be an asshole if I couldn't wrap my head around that fact and recognise that there's a whole blessing in having a kind loving parent to grieve for and not a whole messy situation with cancer added in on top. There is obviously a reason why you feel the need to preserve yourself by staying away even under these circumstances. Illnesses don't just cancel out years of abuse. Her illness doesn't mend or cancel out all the emotional wounds.
You staying away makes sense within the full context that you have. If others can't grasp that context then they're jumping the gun to judge you. Sure on a very surface level you could be painted to be uncaring or cold but you know there's more to it than that. Only you know your own full backstory. I empathise with anyone who loses or comes close to losing a parent they don't exactly get along with because the range of opposing emotions that are felt sound just as bad as pure grief. It's all a headfuck either way.
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>>1129100it's like i'm this picture exactly. honestly yes, it's miserable, but i dunno any other way to be
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>>1129115Be thankful you didn't have his children, go full no contact forever including not checking socials, they always end up back at it again and wondering about you. Men are never as happy with their affair partner in an actual relationship as when they were sneaking around. They are FOMO, coom, and dick brained. That's why all emotional male love songs are about the one that got away (aka the one that didn't take his shit anymore).
Ladies, make your future plans revolve around YOU and only you. If a partner happens to come along for the ride, good for them, otherwise you keep working towards becoming the person you always wanted to be.
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IF YOU DRANK ENOUGH TO GIVE YOURSELF A HANGOVER YOU DON'T GET TO CRY ABOUT IT THE NEXT DAY AND ACT LIKE YOU DESERVE PITY!!! OH BOOHOO THE LIGHT HURTS AND YOU'RE NAUSEATED GROW THE FUCK UP!!! DRINK SOME WATER AND TAKE A SHOWER LIKE A FUCKING ADULT. ALCOHOLICS ARE ALL GIANT FUCKING CHILDREN WHO WANT YOU TO PITY THEM FOR THEIR SHITTY FUCKING NAPPIES AAAAAAAHHHHH !!!!!!!!
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I wish I'd had at least one fulfilling romantic relationship instead of just cycling between abusive partners for years and years. As I am now I'm extremely unhealthy and definitely NOT a catch so I can't even say "ughhh I wish I had a gf" because I'm really not worthy of it. I have to heal first and become a better person, and even then I have to do it for myself, not a hypothetical woman whose love I'm hoping to earn. I just feel so pathetic. I'm depressed, I'm embarrassing. I need to clean the house but instead I just laid in bed all day. There's seriously something wrong with me…
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>join discord channels connected to uni to meet more campus friends
>one club related server has this dude that likes vidya games i like
>dude is kinda awkward and bad at social cues (leaves his mic on heavy, loud breathing, playing on his 3ds while we're talking about serious club related stuff in voice calls or interrupts serious convos to talk about vid game stuff, talks to his little server rank bot whenever it "interrupts" him while he's talking about something) but doesn't seem like an actual weirdo
>one day starts raging about how he keeps getting rejected by girls
>WHY ME IM SUCH A GOOD GUY!! I SHOULD BE ENTITLED TO A GIRLFRIEND!! EVERYONE HATES ME!!
>people chime in trying to give him genuine advice
>fuels his rage even more
>girl he hit on once talks about how the way he approaches girls is creepy (apparently he follows girls to class and whines for them to go on a date with him)
>he also asks random girls in his classes to go on dates with him without any prior buildup/only talks friendly with girls in discord servers
>starts going ballistic and calls her rude for not going on a date with him, says he's going to commit seppuku
>banned
>goes on other uni servers
>finds out dude has a routine of sending his incel manifestos in other servers too
>also has sent self harm and said he'd commit multiple times and spergs whenever people offer help
>whenever anyone calls him out on his behavior, dickheads rush to defend him
i'm actually fucking scared of this dude. he gives me legit elliot rodger vibes, and i feel like he'll snap one day and actually hurt someone. i reported him to campus authorities but i don't think that'll do shit.
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>>1128725I know this is late but, thank you so so so much anon, this is the nicest thing anyone's said to me in what feels like a long time. You're a kind soul. I hope only good things happen to you…!
>>1128795I'm so sorry to hear this. 3 weeks is an excellent streak though! I hope with time we'll be able to leave this heinous disorder behind.
No. 1129423
>>1129408as an alcoholic myself (who would respect your house rules), I can only give you this advice. First thing, talk to them, calm, not angered, worried, tell them how you feel and what you fear and why there is this rule in your house. Second thing, if they won't listen, kick them out. People are allowed to make mistakes, but if you have given them a chance and listend to them and they won't change, it's time for them to go. Alcohol isn't easy to get away from and if they won't do it for a roof over their head, they won't do it for anything.
No. 1129434
>>1129423Respectfully, I don't owe her to be calm but I was way calmer than I thought I would be. This is the second time because I found empty cans when I emptied her trash, could've at least recycled that shit. She knows exactly what happened to me and why, I know it's stupid to keep people from drinking but one goddamn rule. If she would've just said it was wine, I'm so sorry that would actually kinda been more tolerable, but to lie to a child of an alcoholic? I learned to differentiate types of booze by smell only by the time I was fucking 4 and you lie? I'm so goddamn numb, everyone likes to scream about
trigger warnings and respect, I don't care if people smell like booze or drink around me as long as my own home is safe, I feel like everyone treats me like a joke. I'm not gonna just kick her out but I am gonna invite her to gtfo asap tomorrow.
No. 1129448
>>1129441to my knowledge, no. i've been actually compiling evidence to send to dean through a throaway email, but i don't know if i'd get any response that way. hoping for the best. if that doesn't work, i'll just send an email directly through my student email even though this is worst case scenario.
i feel like if i report him without the anonymity and he finds out, he'd actually find me and physically assault me or something
No. 1129470
my (now former) best friend got addicted to heroin a few years ago. She reached out to me around 2019 to make amends with me, and she was going to rehab. It seemed like she did really good but then we lost contact, made contact again last year but she kept evading my offers to take her out to lunch and catch up and she eventually deactivated her Facebook. I periodically try to find her online to see if she's ok, since the last I heard she'd given up trying to get her kids back from the state which didn't sound like sober behavior to me, and I just wanted to make sure she was safe and healthy. Well, last night I found her socials, and I wish I hadn't. she's trying to be a cam girl. She's covered from head to toe in bruises and filth, her arms are covered in track marks, all her clothing is filthy, she has "sexy" photos of her with fresh blood on her arm and obviously high out of her mind. It's Luna Slater tier disgusting and I can't believe someone I know, someone I loved and was so close to is like that. She genuinely looks like a kidnapping victim trapped in an abandoned house in some of her photos. And then another layer of disgust is added when I think of what kind of fucking men get off on images and videos of her living in squalor, covered in dirt and blood, high and barely coherent. I wish I didn't care so much and could just stop wishing she was better, I feel like I can't look away from her downward spiral because I don't want these images of her as my last memories. They are genuinely terrifying and heartbreaking. I want to keep lurking to hopefully see her get better but idk how anyone could sober up and live with themselves knowing there's images of them like this out there forever. I wish I could stop caring, I'm so upset and it feels so stupid.
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I keep having these thoughts that I'm gonna end up alone. I'm late 20s and broken up for a year now. I've had a bunch of short relationships since, last one ended few days ago and I'm just feeling really depressed about it. I mostly do the dumping but it was always for a serious reason.
Wish I could just not need anyone but I genuinely want romantic companionship. I can't even concentrate on studying and working because I keep ruminating about being lonely, about how I could've done and said things differently. It's like I'm an addict and can't get my drug. I'm worried my looks are gonna fade and I won't be able to find anyone not worse than my exes… I don't get why I can't stop thinking about wanting love. I wish I never knew how great it is to be in a good relationship because I miss it so painfully. I am worried I'm never gonna find it again and it feels like I have a hole in my chest that excessive online browsing fills. Wasting my life and youth.
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I spent the whole day trying to learn to shade latex clothing in art, to a point where I ruined my sleeping schedule. It's 2am and I realised I can just download the brushes and call it a day. Oh deer.
No. 1129542
>>1129191I think it's just instinctive territorialness tbh, idk if I'd co sider it to really be objectifying like
>>1129243 said
If he asks about your dating life and gets like that tell "I'll stop dating other people if you stop" or something (assuming you're ok with a relationship)
No. 1129584
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WHY THE FUCK DO PEOPLE KEEP TROONING OUT IN MY DISCORD SERVERS REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE DON'T TALK ABOUT ESTROGEN I'VE SEEN YOU YOU ARE GREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEASSSSSSSSSSSSYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE I JUST WANT TO TALK ABOUT ANIME AND WHAT FOOD WE'RE EATING REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOPST OPST OPST OSTPO STOP STOPST OPST OPST OPST STOP STOPST POST POST PSSTOP STOPST POST FUCK THIS SHIT WOULD NEVER HAPPEN IF MATRIX WAS THE DEFAULT MESSAGING APP TRRRRRREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
No. 1129608
>>1129584It really is ubiquitous in nerdy hobby servers, chilling how the trooning out spreads like a virus amongst greasy neckbeards. All the ones I witnessed barely made an attempt at anything, one just grew his hair long and dyed it neon green because he aspired unironically to be a hawt dommy goth gf uwu.
Wish this shit would end finally, sick of incels going trans to cheat the system and guilt trip lesbians into sex to fulfil their yuri hentai fantasies. One faggot kept on saying in a general channel that his trans goal was to have a penis and a vagina so he could be a "futanari". Just like in his Japanese animes, indeed.
Women's servers are great, I agree with the other anons, however one I was in ended up going under because of a group of malding troons reported it for hate speech. It's all so tiresome, nonnies.
No. 1129654
>>1129640wait am I dumb? this is the closest I could find
https://m.imdb.com/title/tt8929240/but it's in english
No. 1129659
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do not fucking scroll
No. 1129669
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>>1129659Have you seen the pic of it merged with this?
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>>1129671>>1129672found ittttt
(ya nasty) No. 1129688
>>1129672are these the full episodes or are they longer than 7min each?
https://video.telequebec.tv/details/33911-traficdy know if there's english subs for it (in app or otherwise)
No. 1129699
>>1129694>She said I shouldn't tell people what kind of organization I work for.That's really weird unless its a super high profile org or something
Maybe she is ashamed, but I can't really guess why. I wanna say mabey push on her a little bit regarding why, but yeah. Did she have something else she was hoping you'd do?
No. 1129735
>>1129699No, it's not. It's a local organization in a different state that helps with homelessness. And contrary to what a lot of people think, homeless people aren't just bums, they're also regular people who can't afford to make rent for whatever reason.
My mom is a doctor and secretly hoped I would be a doctor too. She thinks it's supposed to below us to work for a charity/non-profit. And I think she hates homeless people too.
>>1129734Yeah my mom is living in her own bubble. She is just super judgmental. Like today she saw me having a brief conversation with an ugly guy and she asked me why I was talking with him. It's not really any of her business.
No. 1129747
>>1129115If it brings you any comfort, neither of them will ever truly be happy. He either cheated because he was horny (in which case he'll be miserable in his relationship because he can't fuck around anymore) or he cheated because he thinks this woman will fill the void in him. Spoiler, she won't, and he'll eventually either cheat on her when another "blessing" of a woman makes him think he's fixed, or he'll dump her because she's "changed" and no longer serves as a substitute for a soul.
As for her, I can promise you she's spent their entire sham of a relationship knowing full well he'll cheat on and leave her at a moments notice, if she's not cheating on him, herself.
Either way, relationships built on shit are always going to be shit. I wish I could take that pain from you, but take solace in knowing you're free to be happy.
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WHY DO MACS HAVE TO DISPLAY IMESSAGE NOTIFICATIONS WHY AM I SO FUCKING STUPID TO NOT REALIZE WHAT I WAS SAYING WASNT PRIVATE AHHHHHHHHHHH
No. 1129838
>>1129834given the turnover rate, I doubt thatd be easy to do
also contract based so its not like theyre employees
No. 1129847
I wish my mom and dad got divorced when I was 15 and my brother was 7.
I sometimes picture an alternate timeline where my mom didn't tolerate his cheating and left immediately. Mom would've applied for citizenship finally, moved out and supported us on her wages. My brother and I would've stepped up doing chores and generally would've matured earlier because we'd be more independent and the oppressive air in the household would be lifted. We'd have been happier, my brother wouldn't have turned into this repressed weirdo. Fuck, maybe I wouldn't be living on the other side of the world right now. My dad would've probably gone on unemployment, sent what little extra he got on gambling and melted back into the seedy world he came from, maybe occasionally gave us presents, I don't care either way. Maybe he woud've actually been humbled and tried to be a good father.
15 years go my heart sank when my mom told me they were staying together after hearing arguing for hours. Even then I knew how fucking stupid that was. Maybe she had her reasons, but it was so damn stupid. Now when I visit them I can see he has no respect for her. She's an anxious wreck, what good did staying do? What good could leaving have done? I've tried to help but she's stuck in her ways. Actually she goes so far as to criticise my thinly veiled disdain for my dad. It's like…she's choosing to be miserable. The kids are gone from the house, she can easily be financially independent, she has family elsewhere happy to take her in…why? It's actually pretty upsetting.
No. 1129876
>>1129846Not bpd but I have avoidant personality and could never explain the weird driving force that I feel when I'm cutting off people and creating a life of isolation for myself. It hurt like hell when the one or two people I still chose to keep around.. were the ones cutting me off instead. Oh how the turn tables.. but it still hurts. Its partly a choice but then no, having a disorder isn't a choice. It's a mindfuck.
Different causes but I relate in a way. I'm struggling the last 4 years and not a soul knows. Half feel sorry for myself at times but then guilt and self blame follows and you don't know which feelings are even
valid to have anymore.
No. 1129949
>>1129937kek i always tried to sort them out of my likes page because my type is cute white guy but trying to find cute white guys in a sea of brown men is almost impossible. the ones i do find are the type that just like every woman on principle. and now i just gave up trying to clear out my likes page and sigh deeply when i get another flood of muslim men liking me.
>>1129939yeah at this point i'm just using it to look at people, i don't expect anything from it anymore. i had like three convos with guys on there yesterday and they were all so boring.
No. 1129970
>>1129939Yeah one guy I was briefly dating told me he had over 1000 matches in 6 months (but only went out with two).
I genuinely immediately said it was weird as hell and that it either means he has absolutely no standards or he spends fuckton of time on tinder and neither sounds good to me. I didn't even know there was this many people on tinder in our city.
To this day I'm not sure if he was bragging or what. Either he was lying (because his photos were average and his bio was pretty shit - talking about being depressed) or he was swiping right on everyone and had paid membership. Men really know how to make you feel special huh?
No. 1130041
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>>1129981Over 200 in a guy is a red flag for fuckboyness but it's still in the 'bragging' territory. Over thousand is weird as fuck, smells of desperation, no standards and something being wrong with you no matter if you're guy or a girl.
Especially when you obviously aren't a hot normie person but a depressed doomer, that's just sus. Genuinely don't get what emotion was he trying to evoke. To be fair he was pretty socially dumb.
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I wish there were more resources for children with autistic parents. There are loads for parents with autism, but none for us poor souls growing up in the hell that is having an autistic parent. I guess thats not pc enough to talk about.
My mom is an undiagnosed autist, and it was hell growing up. Its fucking awful being 5 years old and feeling more mature than my mom, never having a mother, only an overgrown child trying to exert power over you. Autist do not understand nuances, and they don't get that parent get respect by being more mature and stable adults, so instead she demaned respect while acting like an overgrown toddler. And not feeling mother instinct and the importance of close contact and eye contact growing up. Imagine growing up as a baby never having eye contact with your mom and being left alone to cry on the floor because they don't realise socialisation is a need. Luckily we had a dog for the first year of my life, so I did get love and attention while my dad was at work. She also didn't understand boundaries, and lowkey sexually abused me without realising. Showing your child the inside of your vulva to "teach" is fucking traumatising to the kid, I knew that shit was wrong when I was 6. Or constantly barging in on them naked because she was curious of my developing body. Or talking about sex in front of me, but doung it in english so I wouldn't understand, even though I'm bilingual and fluent in english. Not realising children get tired and hungry and that having screaming matches with a 5 year old late at night is immature. And that you have to make children food, you can't just leave a 5 year old to make every meal for themselves except dinner. And then punishing me and screaming at me for not wanting to eat her disgusting concotions, because her way of making food is right, even though it was inedible. Or punishing me for shit I did when I was 4 years old at 14, because they don't get change. I faked being sick once in kindergarten, so I couldn't possible be sick for real in middle school. Or constantly telling me my dad didn't really want to be a parent before having me, because you know, they don't get that you don't tell everyone everything. Or telling me she ws much skinner than me and that she had way more friends than me my entire tween and teen years. I was very skinny and underweight, but I have a smaller bone stucture so my bones weren't as visible as hers were as a child. Or that I had fat feet??? Guess who developed full blown anorexia before 14 as a result? So I got a lot of verbal abuse. Or telling the whole town about all my secrets I quickly learned to never tell her anything. Or never being able to talk about anything, because everything must be about her. I could maybe get one sentence in about myself, before she went on a 3 hour long tirade about herself. Thats fun as a teen girl, having a mom with autism who just doesn't get it. And my dad did his best, but he never stood up to her and hardly stood up for me, just told me that how mom is. So he basically doubled as both my mom and my dad growing up. Having to go bra shopping with your dad at 15 because your mom won't buy you one because when she was growing up bras weren't in fashion and SHE doesn't like to wear one, that fun. Telling a funny joke and being yelled at because its not true, yeah its called a joke, but she has autism so she doesn't get that. And she moved out at 16, so she went most of her life never being corrected and always being right. Imagine 20-30 years of untamed never been told against autism. Its fucking hell growing up in.
My entire childhoodand teens I thought she was a narcissist, but as an adult I realised she is just a fucking sperg. And now I feel conflicted and angry and hurt and just sad. Because she will never get it and there is no way I can explain it, it would be easier to explain it to a fucking monkey. And I can't get angry either, because its a disability uwu and I'm being mean if I feel hurt and sad about losing out on a normal, loving childhood and teens. Being bullied at school for not fitting in due to being groomed into autism rules, and being bullied at home due to not understanding autism rules, I had no space at all where I could relax. I was literally burned out at 10 years old.
And now I am adult with arrested development because I had to be an adult at 5 years old and never got to experience being a child and teen, and now I don't know how to function as an adult. All I wish for is to be able to be a small vulnerable child with a loving mother. To grow up normal. But that can never be. And I cry about it every night.
I just wish I had a mom. I wasn't even allowed to call her mom. O remember being yelled at at like 4 years old because I wanted to call mer mom like all the other kids called their mom, but she only wanted to be called her name.
No. 1130118
>>1130110This sounds like hell on earth, I hate that shit like this is impacting children yet talking about it isn't politically correct enough to be mentioned publicly. Autists shouldn't reproduce, or at the very least they should be legally forbidden from raising kids. This applies to adults with personality disorders and eating disorders as well. You don't seem to have siblings who could understand what you've been through, am I wrong?
>My entire childhoodand teens I thought she was a narcissist, but as an adult I realised she is just a fucking sperg.Fuck, I'm wondering what kind of mental illness or personality disorder my father has (extremely violent, thinks everything is about him, thinks punching and kicked his physically sick young children is funny, spergs hard when he hears loud noises or smells food he doesn't want to eat, etc.), I doubt this could be autism but now that you say this about your mother. I don't know anymore, he seems self-aware enough to hide his degeneracy in public until he goes back home.
No. 1130153
>>1130140Women are put off by overly sexual depictions of women, yes. It's not that weird considering characters are an important part of most video games so if you don't like how characters are being depicted then it's a
valid complaint and criticism depending on the situation.
No. 1130196
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I don't wanna necro the kf thread for this so it's going in the vent thread. I fucking hate the kf user in picrel. Constantly blogposts. Shut the fuck up about being a sped. Shut the fuck up about people treating speds like speds. Shut the fuck about how everyone was so mean to you for being a sped. I can guarantee everyone was mean to this retard for being an annoying sperg who can't pick up on social cues adequately enough to stop talking
I just want to read about medical disasters in peace. Reeeee ect
No. 1130199
>>1130172yes, no one smokes weed while playing video games. i'm saying i can understand the mindset of extreme uncomfortability with the sexualization of characters in media because when i'm less sober i feel it
viscerally as these women say they do.
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I hate how true the saying 'you can't help someone who wont help themself' is. I am trying my best to guide a family member of mine, to help them better themselves but they just wont respond to any kind of approach - not the softly, softly or the cruel to be kind approach. I wish I could throw my hands up and tell them I'm done with them but they're a close family member, a sibling, and I love them. the terriying thought is that years from now, if they don't take my advice, I'm going to be the only person they can turn to and turn to me they will. I didn't birth them, yet I feel the way things are going, I will likely have to take on even more of a motherly role over them once our parents are no longer around. the real frustration lies in how if this person would make the effort now to improve their life, to start facing their fears, challenging themself and taking responsibility it'll help the both of us in the long run. they're likely going to need to rely on me a lot in the years to come, how don't they see that taking small steps now to improve themselves and their life will take the strain off of both of us in the future?
No. 1130203
>>1130196Love you for this anon lol.There's a couple of posters in the deathfat threads that I fuucking hate. One with a sexual pfp and he's everything that you'd expect from a guy on kf with a sexual pfp.
Doesn't know how vaginas work for a start.
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I hate when people have to make everything about weed and getting high all the time. Like no motherfucker, I'm not making edibles. Just let me bake some normal damn treats or is it too boring and outlandish to bring a regular cake?
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in response to all the recent raids (do they count as raids? Idk), I wanted to make anons aware of this userstyle for the stylish addon (probably works with greasemonkey too). it blurs images until you hover over them. after installing just add lolcow.farm under 'applies to URLS on this domain'. I know it isn't ideal
on an imageboard of all places but I thought I'd make nonas aware of it just in case it was something they would be interested in
https://userstyles.org/styles/115856/safe-mode No. 1130302
>>1130235I hate when people make this “argument.”
>mainstream games without sexualized female protagonists LITERALLY don’t exist so we just have to suck it up and play them or be relegated to obscure niche content!Okay what is Horizon: Zero Dawn and its sequel. The Last of Us. Assassin's Creed Syndicate and Odyssey. Hellblade. The newer Lara Crofts that aren’t sexualized like they used to be. Final Fantasy XIII. Like how willfully ignorant are you being? If it weren’t for women complaining about shitty representation it never would’ve gotten to the point it has now which is actually quite
good compared to not even 10 years ago when gamergate was a thing
No. 1130314
>>1130289thank you, anon. you are totally right and if it happens again i'll have to remind her again. i don't want her to feel undesirable or anything but i just genuinely don't want to be sexual with anyone at this time. a lot of youngish people are pretty okay with being sexually open but i hate this situation because i don't like losing female friends and i don't want her to think i think she's unattractive or internalize my rejections.
i think she reads into my behavior and actions a little too much so i think she thinks i'm a basically closeted and that it'll actually make me happy to be with a woman and that i'm unhappy sexually and romantically because i've yet to be with someone that knows the female body like a woman does. i have said some certain things that could make me seem closeted so maybe it's partially my fault but i have said i don't really have the interest in being with women. admittedly irl compared to a lot of people i act anxious and suppressed so i think she thinks it's extending into my sexuality and sexual behavior more than it is, or if we're like talking about like things with our bodies and i show her an example and it's on my boob or something she thinks it means more than me just talking with a female friend about a female health issue and showing her it without any connotations.
i thought we got over that a while ago and it could be done like normal friends without it being misconstrued but i guess she's still taking it certain ways. like if i'm huggy or affectionate or touch her in certain ways she seems to think it means more than it does and brings it up to me later on and i have to explain that i'm just being affectionate and i'm drunk. it usually gets worse the more drunk and/or high she gets so i think that's a large part of it. i think she just gets really horny at the end of the night when she's the most intoxicated tbh.
No. 1130320
>>1130264I just don't see the point of applying ire to images like moids apply sexual desire to them but that's probably just me at this point. I really wish fucking pictures didn't rule our lives like that and we just accepted them as fun breaks with reality or something.
>>1130302Honestly I don't even play mainstream games like that but the audience and interest is still male so you will get coomer babies who complain about female gamers de-sexifying their shitty games. And then we can't even be expected to talk about gameplay and mechanics and artistry because we get blamed for this.
No. 1130354
>>1128062i will hug you, dyke-chan
also what the hell does being "clapped" mean
No. 1130360
>>1129419she should have followed your one rule, especially given your reasoning.
if she wanted to drink, she could go do it at someone else's house. you are in the right.
No. 1130406
>>1130360Thanks, it's very insanity inducing to have done so much work to not be a freak in the world who gets
triggered by something most adults do, drink all you want but not in my fucking house. She's also not understanding how drinking wine in my old goddamn bedroom where I used to had to hide in from the boozey abuse would be extra offensive, it's almost ridiculous.
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I really wish male homosexuals, pedos and troons didn't exist. They are the cause of a lot of evils in this world.
The only gays that are allowed to exist are lesbians and bi women. I love them. I love them.
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>>1130430Anon… sorry because I also hate those. But you sound like this. Let anon vent.
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NOOOOOOo I HAVE THE WEIRD 2 INCH LEG SPIDERY MSQUITO THING IN MY ROOM NOOOO WHY DID I DESERVE THIS
No. 1130525
Randomly came across a video on YouTube about a non-offending pedophile and it made me sick. Truthfully I don't care if they've offended or not (although I'm very grateful they have not of course), simply admitting to being attracted to children should be an instant death sentence. If someone fantasised about killing me yet never acted upon it, I would still be uncomfortable around them and would want to be far away from them. Likewise, if someone admits to being attracted to children, even if they never act on that attraction, I don't think they should ever be allowed to be around children.
When I remember that I live in a world full of sick and horrible people like that, that people like that have and always will exist, it just makes me suicidal. Knowing there's nothing I can do about it, that I'm powerless, that I'll always be in a world full of people who fantasise about hurting innocents, nothing depresses me more. And I wonder, what's even the point? How can I be happy knowing people like this will always be around? It makes me want to curl into a ball and never talk to anyone. The CP spams we get here don't help. I don't know how to cope with this single obvious fact: that cruel people will always exist.
If anything, and maybe I'm wrong, but it feels like more cruel people exist than kind and they're only growing in numbers.
I reported one account that was a self admitted pedophile and fantasised about hurting girls, he even mentioned that he was a substitute teacher, but when the report came back I was told there was nothing wrong. Pathetic. Why show these people any form of tolerance? Not like I know what the best method is, of course I don't and of course this is something that makes me very emotional. So many people, especially men, lack paternal care. So many people care about their own pleasure above the happiness and safety of children. No wonder the world is so unhappy. Even though I'll sound like an edgelord, people are truly horrible and the mentally deranged have too much of a platform now.
How do I cope with this? Seriously, how? Do I just teach myself to be ignorant? It feels like I can only be happy when I'm being willfully ignorant. When I force distractions in my face. I wish I could only live in a world full of kind people who care about the safety of others. I will never live in that world, that world will never exist. That's terribly sad.
No. 1130555
I keep seeing videos and posts from people about how they just can't get along with people at work or they end on bad terms at their jobs and I think it's all so retarded and self pitying. "I don't dream of labor" except these people still love ordering take out or getting next day shipping, etc which all requires OTHER people to work. There is zero reason for any job to dislike you for no reason. Everyone is hiring right now so there is zero reason to be hopping jobs every month unless you are the problem. Every job I've had in the last 10 yrs has told me they would welcome me back with open arms. How? Do your job competently, don't broadcast every detail of your life, stay quiet and listen to people, pick your battles carefully because, most times, the person picking a fight will get in trouble if you just disregard their existence and don't engage. Everyone will like you if you listen to them blabber about themselves. Most people are self absorbed. They'll grow to like you a lot because "you're such a good listener". They'll defend you when a rando newbie starts a fight because they want to protect the "quiet, nice coworker". And frankly, why give a shit about being seen as a "goody two shoes" or "simple minded" and whatever? Just because I don't cause problems or talk when not prompted? I don't give a fuck about any job, I'm there to make money and leave so I can do the things I actually enjoy with my life. So why care? My job is not my life, it's a means to an end. Managers only care about their own bubble of problems so if you don't cause them issues and get along with everyone, they find you useful. And then you can get shit out of them, raises and extra hours and getting the days off you want. You can help them keep peace because "everyone likes you" and "you always help, even when you don't have to". It's not hard, I think people just think that they have the right to do whatever they want because "fuck capitalism" and muh individualism instead of using the system for personal gain. I don't plan on staying at this job for the rest of my life, I'm just trying to work my way up to a job where I can get paid a lot without having to bust my ass 60 hours a week. That way I can dedicate my time to my art, my hobbies, going out with friends and family, etc etc. You are not special, you are just a cog in a bigger machine. Even if you own your own business, you are still playing by the rules of the current economic system and are at their mercy. You can't escape it so just make the moves that benefit you. If everyone likes you and you are one of the "good employees", you can basically skip up the ladder. Play the game to circumvent the obstacles by manipulating the other players. It's not hard at all, it's just about swallowing your ego. And at the end of the day, no one can read your mind so everyone just thinks you are just "so pleasant and agreeable". Meanwhile I get put above peers who went to college for the same job. Men get extra salty about it but fuck them. I just want to live, not survive. But yes, Bethany, keep saying it's everyone else's fault you've had "altercations" at all your previous jobs. Because everyone else keeps "trying you". Just so fucking retarded. Also it's okay if you don't agree with me, I'm just sick of it. Rant over, thank you for the vent thread.
No. 1130595
Sorry I keep posting about my driving struggles, I promise I'll shut up when my lessons are done and if I manage to get my license at the end of this month.
I watched a lot of youtube tutorials, and it did help me mentally prepare. I was a lot less nervous when we drove around people, although I did miss a car backing out of a driveway (didn't hit it, my instructor just said "hey look out"). I feel… more mentally prepared but at the same time, emotionally worse. I like driving so far, last week my feelings of frustration were more like "I'm frustrated because I want to become better, I want to improve and I'm excited to drive more" and this week it feels like "I'm frustrated because I'm not doing better already, maybe I should just quit" which I know is a stupid sentiment because today was literally the second ever time in my life I've ever been behind the wheel kek. Can't get better if I don't drive more. I know I'm the type of person who will never be good at anything off the bat, that's just how I've been at every hobby I've ever picked up, and then I end up shooting myself in the foot because I drop whatever hobby or thing I want to learn because I'm upset at myself for not being immediately good and that same exact thing is literally happening again!!!
I wanted to ask my dad to sit with me in the car so I could practice driving more in his car, but maybe after my next few lessons because my instructor says I'm still not that great at turning and I have trouble staying centered in the lane and having my instructor be frustrated at me is one thing, having my dad be angry at me for being a bad driver is another.
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I think is genuinely Taylor R is pretty , but wow the anons in her thread are something else.
/w/ is a shithole
No. 1130619
>>1130555>I don't give a fuck about any job, I'm there to make money and leave so I can do the things I actually enjoy with my life. So why care? My job is not my life, it's a means to an end.Based. I learned this the hard way after I quit my soul crushing retail job. I bumped around a little bit and landed my current job where, even though I earn just a smidge above minimum wage, the work is incredibly easy, my coworkers are very nice, and at the end of the day I leave on time and go home to spend time with friends and family. I also don't plan to stay here long term. I'm staying for as long to take advantage of company benefits (I qualify for language classes in a few months) and then I'm out.
I remember coming home from my retail job one night and being super hungry, but I had about 10 minutes to spare before I had to get ready for bed so I could go to bed and get enough sleep to wake up for my next shift. My dog came to greet me when I came home. I remember having to pick between scarfing down food or spending some quality time with my dog. The memory of it makes me so fucking sad. My dog is old as shit now too, and the thought of giving up precious time with her for a job that didn't care for me was awful.
Due to the nature of my job (news) I've been staying overtime maybe 1-2x a week now, but unless I'm finishing up a last minute assignment for him, I get to go home right on time and he doesn't give me any grief about it. Some people live to work, I work to live. I don't work in this field because it's my passion, I don't give a fuck about pursuing my passions or working in the field I got my degree in. I indulge in my passions in my time outside of work.
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I feel monopolized by living with my family, whenever I have time away from them I just feel scared that someone is going to get angry at me for not helping them more instead. Have no friends or job either, just school which is the only productive thing I can do in my time alone. The rest I am so guilty I waste those periods on escapism and mindlessness
No. 1130688
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>decides to wear tank top that reveals my arms
>no big boobs
>body frame small and boyish
>don’t think you’re a man
>don’t think you’re a man
>don’t think you’re a man
body insecurity be like…
No. 1130729
>>1130661What game are you playing where female mc is a lesbian? I'm a lesbian and we get zero representation. kek
But yes, i love the mass effect and dragon age games so much.
No. 1130752
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I can't believe my dumb ass had this huge all-consuming crush on some bpd moid for like 2 weeks and I've been in a relationship for 4 years. I didn't cheat or anything even remotely similar to that, in fact I was very smart and let this weird short crush ride out and I got over it faster than I thought. But holy shit I was dumb…I thought I was friends with this guy, but looking back on our conversations he (like most other bpd moids) just constantly talked about himself and rarely asked me about stuff unless I specifically explained something was wrong. I don't even think he was a "mean" guy, just someone with too much confidence and not enough self-reflection or introspection. I'm glad this is over and I know it's the bare minimum but I'm glad I didn't do anything stupid. No matter how insecure or silly I get, one thing I always have is self control. Love that for me…what I don't love is how I managed to fancy this dude in the first place. I think I'm just insanely horny and let it cloud my common sense. Nonnies how the fuck did I manage to have a crush on someone named "Fabian"? I'm honestly retarded. Never again will I insult my honour and integrity as a woman by having a crush on someone that sounds like an npc from Fable 2.
No. 1130764
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Watching a movie right now with Katherine Hepburn in it called "Summertime" and it's about a "spinster" woman going to Venice and unexpectedly finding love. I didn't think it would affect me so bad but it has. I've never been in a relationship and I went to Venice 2 years ago. It's fun seeing Venice in a 60+ year old movie but the romance stuff hits me like a gutpunch. I feel like if I had some IRL friends maybe it'd soften the blow but I just hate relating to her character so much, and at the same time not.
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I was worried for Shayna when she moved in with Fupaul, and I'm worried for her now visiting these two crackheads. After over 100 threads why do I still even care?
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Why does every new Star Trek series suck so much? I miss productions like DS9 and TNG, brig it back your fucking cowards WRYYYYYYYYYYYYY I wanna be around when Kurtzman dies just so I get to spit in his grave
No. 1130830
>>1130555Only kind of half-agreed with you until I got to the end
>But yes, Bethany, keep saying it's everyone else's fault you've had "altercations" at all your previous jobs. Because everyone else keeps "trying you".People like this are walking red-flags, especially if they're talking about their coworkers, and they always blame others when they get fired for their own incompetence lol. I work retail but one of my new coworkers was bitching to me about our boss (who I am on good terms with lol), this dude really said "she was side-eying me and shit but all I was doing was looking at Snapchat really quick" like LOL do you think the rest of us are allowed to check Snapchat??? If you are a new hire who has proven to be incompetent already, of course your bosses are going to be unimpressed by you standing around on your phone. I check my phone when nobody is around and also waited to gain my bosses trust first before I started slacking off. People are so bad at using any job to their advantage.
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stalked my abusive ex boyfriends social media and he has a new girlfriend who is much prettier than me. it feels awful. he always wins
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I can't eat meat at the moment. I feel sick every time I try. I've been like this for almost 2 weeks. I am on my period at the moment but never experienced this before. Currently eating fish and eggs for protein. Neither makes me nauseous thankfully. It's weird and I don't like it.
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The only decent "career" jobs that will hire me are phone customer service jobs, which is the only thing my stupid fucking brain is incapable of doing. I struggle with accents, really only a few and when they're very thick, something that's only gotten harder for me after getting covid nerfed my brain. So I'm trying to fucking research how to fix this, because I feel awful not understanding people anyways, and the only advice I see is "check ur biases" like what the fuck is that supposed to mean? I don't understand half my fucking family and it kills me, and I tried to learn other languages so I understand the struggle, so am I just automatically able to fucking just use my brain normally now according to this stupid fucking advice?? Like I'm trying to get better, I'm not blaming others for my lack of understanding.
I feel so fucking useless and angry
No. 1130855
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>>1128700She's a lost cause, horrible men are all she knows and she doesn't know her self worth. She's the type to make excuses for men, despite all the men that she fights for are garbage. The comfort of her children (who have openly expressed to me how tired they are of all these random men) means nothing.
>>1130287Thank you, I can't wait until I get my own place again. I wish to never interact with another man as long as I live, here's hoping this week I can leave. Apartment places please just take my money.
>>1128680Super tempting. He's the worst.
No. 1130901
>>1130885thats agps for you lol
but yeah seriously its gross isk
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>>1130920Who's threatening suicide?
No. 1130934
>>1130932I don't think she's threatening suicide she's just asking for advice
Some people want to end their lives peavefully you know
No. 1130944
>>1130934nonnie, am I being overly paranoid that she's gonna get herself
rapemurdered going to areas with homeless etc. trying to find a plug, esp since she doesbt know what shes doing?
like idk maybe the internets just put me too on edge
No. 1130952
>>1130947yeah but its not really ending it "peacefully" ig
I mean youve seen (or read) how long theyll drag it out, right?
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When I see shit-threads posted after 11pm PST, I know that we're going to get raided and probably spammed with whatever the moids can think of today and it stresses me TF out. At least I am normally asleep when that shit is posted. So, in this case, goodnight nonnies
No. 1131144
>>1131135I feel so pressured to do it because when you're the only one out of many who doesn't disclose, they might out you as a
terf or something or think you're suspicious. Hate this world we live in.
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I finished university more than a year ago, had two grad ceremonies cancelled because of covid and I just got an email from our graduation office that we won't be having a ceremoney and instead will be having an outdoor celebration in the middle of fucking winter. There were days at school where the only thing that kept me going was the thought of being able to cross that stage in my robes and get my degree in front of all my family, and now I can't even do that. Fucking fuck covid and fuck my useless fucking government for being so scared shitless of a disease that 90% of our population are vaccinated against, and fuck the university board for not putting their foot down and fighting for a special allowance to hold graduation. Four years of work and I can't even publically celebrate it.
No. 1131248
>>1131245you've got this babe, EDs are no joke but you can beat it
if i had known you irl i wouldn't have judged you and tried my best to help you overcome it
No. 1131254
>>1131248Thank you
nonnie, I believe you. Right now just struggling trying not to go into a period of heavy restricting only to gain back more weight.
No. 1131285
>>1131258I'm sorry nona but you gotta admit it is kind of hilarious. chill, breathe, dont an hero cause it WILL blow over and you can explain your way out of it, truth or otherwise if they even bother asking.
you got this. and this will be a great anecdote for later, as a treat.
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>>1131209Literally 3 hours after I wrote this she called me to tell me (more like…command me) that she thinks I should send my CV to the UN, the UNESCO as well as the European Union and they will just decide which job I'd be eligible for. 'If you get in their system, your career is pretty much set, and you can keep it until you die'. She also added that her friend is telling me that I should also try jobs 'that are simple', like secretary-type jobs because she 'thinks that I would be good at them'. I fucking cannot with boomer delusions.
Never mind that I'm not interested in working for these organizations. Never mind that I don't have experience as a proper secretary. Never mind that I have ADHD and my last 2 jobs lasted for literal months and also never mind that the one where I had to work with spreadsheets and answer calls (close to a secretary role) I fucked up majorly and was having panic attacks on a daily basis only to be let go after 3 months. I cannot decide whether I'm not the daughter she wants or she just doesn't understand/care what I'm interested in (I tried to explain to her what UX is about but she just kept pushing the concersation towards 'doing something language-related in an organization like the UN, because it's prestigious and people will treat you differently). She just doesn't see me.
No. 1131397
>>1131393she seemed so intelligent and so sweet. i'm so heartbroken for her. i can't believe i'd never heard of her or her suicide until now. like, she seemed remarkably intelligent given her situation. i guess the markers of adultification of a child, but she was clearly not even noticed by her teachers or anything for seeming so composed? it's just heartbreaking the way she was abused by everyone and in every way. i have to wonder what people used to tell her online. did they ever try to help her? it pisses me off that, again, the CPS standards are so piss poor that she slips through the cracks and has to fight off an emotionally and verbally
abusive "stepfather" who tries to routinely rape her. she dealt with so much with like, too much grace. everyone just thought they could pile and pile and pile everything onto her. i'm sure her piece of shit mother and stepfather don't care that she's gone but i hope they're at least suffering without a live-in free babysitter, the pieces of shit. honestly making me so angry. her stepfather and her mother need prison time.
No. 1131422
>>1131411it's sad fuck this world. The world is so cruel, nobody gave her attention or love while she was alive or listened to her cries of help and now everyone gives a fuck that she killed herself and idiot YouTube grifters are making money off her and using her name to get attention when they clearly give no fucks. This world is so cruel and if you are stuck in an
abusive situation nobody gives a fuck and if you have no resources you cannot even get help
No. 1131429
>>1131418unfortunately they're all like that. at least she's not making a sexy/cute face and it's just an unattractive photo where she isn't even acknowledging the camera. you should see the majority of "true crime" youtubers and the photos they put next to the
victim. this is remarkably respectful in comparison.
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I can't to stop thinking about her anons. One sided crushes suck.
I will just try to focus on work.
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he made me feel special and loved and then left
No. 1131484
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>>1131474picrel. sending you my sympathies and praying for something better to come your way soon, anon
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I hate this shit I see the jagged rainbow spikes and I can't fucking read and shitpost as fast REEEE! I'm going to make lunch it better pass soon
No. 1131504
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An acquaintance from several years ago suddenly updated her otherwise inactive facebook today. She has now come out as FtM, and updated her profile pic with the text "I think cis people should also transition so they can stop hating themselves" and I've been whacking my head trying to make that make sense.
Funnily enough, the last few pics of her before she got inactive has been her gaining a significant amount of weight the last few years after having been very petite when we were teens. Obesity claims another woman kek
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>>1131490Yours are spiky rainbows? Interesting, for me it’s more like you cut a hole in my vision and then filled the image by dragging the colors on either side across like picrel. It is kind of sparkly though, like when you stand up too fast and see stars.
No. 1131637
Shout out to
nonnie for this brilliant take from the things we hate thread
>>1131595> 'What's the ugliest part of your body? Is it your nose? Is it your toes? I think it's your mind!'Love it!
This reminded me of when I was a kid freshly hitting puberty and was under the impression that my body hair was the reason I stunk and if I just shaved that’d solve everything and everyone would like me! I was 11.
When I was 19 I had a panic attack in front of my mom because there was hair on my face along with red dots and blood making it very obvious I’d shaved.
I was so fucking embarrassed and ashamed of it but my mom looked at me like I was a lunatic and it was just… both her and my father taught me from 11 that any hair on my body below the eyes is disgusting and means I’m unhygienic! That the only acceptable presentation for me was to be hairless. Something both my female and male peers reminded me of for my whole school life too (no blame, kids are cruel, perspective etc). To have someone who caged me into this understanding look at me like I was the one with the problem still makes my blood boil to think about.
As I’ve gotten older it’s a lot easier to digest and make sense of. Days where I want to dive headfirst into the mirror don’t happen as often and when they do they’re easily sidestepped by reminding myself I’m grateful for the actions I can take, not the passive existence of my body which looks how it looks and is only truly changed by the adornments I choose to gift it with.
Anyway, now whenever my mom starts in on her own appearance or seems to be approaching mine, I shut that shit down. Im an adult and I don’t want to hear how you think your fat or your wrinkles upset you, that’s a you problem. When I couldn’t breath through the shitting hair on my face all you could muster was to tell me it’s not that bad!? It was never that fucking bad but you taught me I was a monster because of it! Instead I say “those lines tell a story”, “I love how the white hairs sparkle in the sun though”, “yeah but you had two kids, that’s pretty amazing!” “That’s genetics, sucks but hey at least we can paint our nails!”
No. 1131638
>>1131594I'm really sorry to hear that. It's not at all selfish, like you said, there's a hole there now and it's going to hurt. You deserve to be understood and to have company and to not be sidelined. And you probably mattered to her if she left you a note, chose to spend her time with you. Let the pain be heard, and when you think you need to move on, stay busy. Go somewhere, visit someone, start a project. You will meet a friend you mesh with one day, but for now you may just need to look after yourself, and find that balance between remembering the woman you cherished and having your own life. I can't imagine the pain you're going through right now but I wish I could be a friend to you and play games with you and sit in your presence.
Be upfront about what you're feeling to your friends, I think other people would want to comfort you too if they knew what you were going through. You deserve to be happy.
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I always complain how hard it is for me to find someone I'm interested in but when I do, I chicken out. I'm annoying myself at this point.
No. 1131661
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Jesus fucking christ I hate privileged people who say bullshit like everyone makes their own luck, ignoring the fact they were just handed stuff, and their healthy background made it possible for them to develop social skills that would push them even further. I have this coworker who literally had everything I didn't have, loving mom and dad, financial stability as a child, experienced no abuse at home and school, no mental disorders, she was too lazy to get decent grades at a public school and she liked partying too much so her parents paid for her private school where it was easier for her to graduate (she literally said that, that's not my interpretation). She got a bf who does everything for her. They just found a great apartment for rent, well, actually, he found it, he was in charge of everything, she wasn't even looking for any offerts on the internet, and at the same time was telling me I'm not trying hard enough to find my own apartment for rent. I did more than her just by browsing internet, because she literally did nothing. Now she brags how her parents will buy them stuff for their new place. Meanwhile there's me, abused as a child and too afraid to talk to people, autistic, kissless virgin, growing up poor, with a dead mother and an absent alcoholic father whose brain is so fried now he can barely function on his own. For me, just being able to support a job is an enormous success. Doing groceries, eating, cleaning, taking a bath; all those basic things are hard. She knows about my past and my disorder and sometimes acts sympathetic, but mostly points out my weird behavior, or how clumsy I am (I have poor motoric skills) or how I eat poorly and I'm too slim, she implies that maybe I should drop this job if I can't open up to people more, how it's inappropiate of me to not look at people when they talk to me (even though I literally said a few times that I struggle with maintaining eye contact due to autism), how I speak too quietly and stutter, she sometimes says "WHAT?" in a very obnoxious way and asks me to repeat myself in front of everyone, which is always embarrassing to me and causes me to shut in even more. And of course everyone likes her because she's a social butterfly, outgoing and loud. I'm no worse than her in terms of work performance, and it's not just my opinion, but she's being treated better and our superior loves her and offered her a permanent contract, while mine is still temporary, even though we've been working for the same amount of time, I also haven't skipped a single day of work, unlike her. I was working even when I was sick. I always tried to show this job is important to me, but it means nothing because I'm not social enough and despite working there for almost a year I still can't hold a conversation with my coworkers. She was the only one who talked to me on a regular basis, and now I regret opening up to her. She started to ignore me, probably because I wasn't able to keep up with her and I was too sad too often, and now she moved on to a different female coworker, whom she called a dumb bitch at first, but now it looks like they're BFFs, always together. I'm so tired. I know I sound bitter and jealous, but I AM bitter and jealous. I know this world is not fair, but come on, why do I always have to lose, and someone like her always has to win? Why can't I for once, just once, get what I want, despite trying and struggling? I feel like I was designed to fail.
No. 1131688
>>1131638thank you so much, this really means so much to me. I'm lucky that at least one of my friends spends time with me when she's done with her college classes but we both agreed we want more friends that will talk with us regularly, but I know some nonnies are scared of that. I know I was very special to my friend and now her mother and I text a lot, but it is still one of those things that I think about too much so I start pouring myself into anything I can to not think about it. Sorry I'm rambling but thank you so so so much, it means more to me than I can describe.
>>1131678Hi
nonnie, I'm
>>252488 ! Thank you it really means so much to me. I'll try my best to not be bad at responding or anything if you do want to talk. It means the world to me seriously.
No. 1131689
>>1131661I'm sorry anon. I don't know if this will mean anything to you and I don't mean to come across as pitying, but as someone like your coworker who was fortunate in their upbringing, I really admire people like you who have overcome a difficult past to succeed in life. I know you feel like the basics are hard, but frankly getting to the point you are now is something to be celebrated. And as you said, holding down a stable job is impressive. I know plenty of people who had all the benefits in the world growing up but are wallowing away in positions they don't really enjoy or quitting for no good reason (when they
do have the potential/easy opportunities to do more, but don't make use of them). Frankly, your coworker is just naive, tone-deaf and kind of an asshole. That doesn't mean you won't find a group of people you gel with though. I'm not close with people at my work either, not because they're bad but because we just don't have much in common. I certainly wouldn't want to befriend someone who was shallow, loud and had a tendency to give undesired advice either. I hope you'll keep enjoying the success you've achieved so far. You'll continue to find your own way to make life work for you and find people who better understand you.
No. 1131696
>>1131661feelman.jpg to the point you started to blame your autism for your shyness and fear of being embarrassed
you seem to them like an easy target with
victim mentality
you can still have zero unnecessary conversations and minimum basic interactions with unnecessary people, but being cool about that
if you will be confident in your clumsiness and autism, they would have nothing on you
I mean, idk, but the girl is a bitch, apparently, so you are just playing along to her bitchiness
do you want that? I think no
one always could be politely cold with no consequences
in a “yes, and so what?” way
I have a friend, who becomes very
triggered when I tell about our circle of friends being privileged in this or that way
either they really don’t understand what’s so privileged about their lives, or they think, that regular people’s cases are marginal
also about marginality: when someone telling me, that I’m weird or smth like that, I am usually telling them it’s really not, why would they think so, it’s common and I think it’s actually them, who are weird about that
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Why do you always expect me to read your mind and then get angry when I don't do what you wanted me to do!!!!
No. 1131718
>>1131689No anon it means a lot to me, I barely had people actually acknowledging my struggles, even from my family members it was usually stuff like "get over this", "others have it worse", "you're physically healthy and ungrateful", "you're not autistic/depressed, just shy/lazy" (despite having actual diagnosis) etc. No one was ever like "wow you did this and that even though it was hard for you"
>>1131696I appreciate your post but I'm not sure what would you want me to do. If I become confident in my autism and show my natural behavior, like the way I behave when I'm at home, they will fire me kek. Like there's nothing in between; it's either masking, when people can sense there's something wrong with you and you're constantly on the edge, mentally drained and in the flight or fight mode, or it's being a free autist while making weird noises and movements to release tension or stim yourself. I would have to create an entirely different personality to have some other options and I'm not schizo enough to do it
No. 1131725
>>1131661>why do I always have to lose, and someone like her always has to win?>I feel like I was designed to fail.this is gonna sound cliche and lame but you know that proverb *you can't judge a fish by it's ability to climb a tree" people like her will always win in that game. find a different game? i get that it's not possible for you to change your job right now, but maybe keep that as an option, something that you can work towards? i'm similar to you when it comes to how socially inept i can be, and being depressed at work
my mom also died and im still not over it and my dad is like urs but people i work with are pretty chill, and i don't feel like i need to compete with anyone. i hope you can find that too. i hate people like her kek but we really can't compare. you said she left you alone, that's a good thing, focus on yourself and your work, ignore her
also sorry if this comes off as rude but you are way to invested in her life, i don't know nearly half as much about any coworker's life, yeah she's an oversharing overbearing moron, but you really need to build boundaries with baboons like her, you don't owe anyone to listen to their shit. we only have so much brainpower… please don't tke this the wrong way im a tough love kinda gal, i wish you only the best
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>>1131718Don't pay attention to
>>1131696 nonnie, the post barely makes sense as it is and clearly comes from someone who doesn't have autism or any sort of disorder that requires them to 'mask' things, especially from a female perspective where if we so much as express ourselves outside "normal" boundaries we're either called freaks or just excluded from most social activities. It's not a "
victim mentality" so much as a necessary means of survival in everyday and important social situations. The whole "duhh just be confident in your autism" either comes from obnoxious moids who sperg about their interests and expect everyone to listen 24/7, or just people who have never had an issue fitting in to society.
For what it's worth
nonnie I empathise with you. I also come from a poor background and have had to associate with way more privileged and simply luckier/wealthier people most of my life, and it's fucking exhausting especially as someone with an array of mental health issues stemming from a deep-rooted anxiety problem and emotionally neglectful mother. I understand how it feels to feel like you're trying 10x harder just to scrape by or just to climb impossible mountains that others seem to climb so easily - whether that be mentally or due to things like the environment we live in. I wish I had some wise sage advice for you but unfortunately I don't, just want to let you know you're not alone.
I feel like I may be autistic too, there's some signs towards it especially throughout my childhood but I feel like I've just masked for so long I can't tell what are my real feelings, behaviours or mannerisms anymore, it's often a ticking time bomb before I sperg out in private…rooting for you
nonnie, it's rough as fuck out here.
No. 1131761
I really have no clue if I'll ever be able to be in a romantic relationship. I'm 21 and I've never been on a date, held hands with a guy romantically, been kissed, had sex or anything else to do with dating/love you could imagine. The only thing that came close to it was a guy I had briefly known for a month or two confessing his love for me which then followed by me ghosting him.
For the past 7-8 years, ever since I was 13 pretty much, I've barely had any friends or went out. I generally struggle keeping friendships because a) I often have time periods where I want to isolate and not talk to anyone b) I really hate initiating conversation or plans c) I'm a huge introvert and I dislike going out. Obviously the problem is in me, so I'm not blaming people for me not having friends kek.
A bigger reason as to why I try to stay away from friendships is that I'm just not a good friend in general. I'm often spiteful inside my mind and I have mean thoughts about my friends that I can't control. My first instinct upon my friend doing something stupid or something I disagree with isn't to be sympathetic, I usually get annoyed. I've been actively trying to work on this problem but it's hard, hence why I just decided to not be friends with people because I don't want to be fake and mean to them even if it's inside my head, I wouldn't want someone else to think those things about me as well.
I worry that if I have these problems with my friends, they would just amplify in relationships. Not only do I suck at emotional confrontation and hate expressing my emotion to people, I also have huge trust issues and am a really insecure person. I can't imagine living with someone, it just seems like a nightmare. I need my privacy and my own space, my own bed, my own stuff… I hate venting to people or listening to people vent.
I know I'm still young and that my mindset might change but maybe relationships just aren't for everyone and I'm destined to be single. I hope if it comes down to that that I can accept it and be content with it at some point
No. 1131763
>>1131725it's true we can't compare. But sometimes I wish we could scream this shit in their faces and make them know they will never understand, but they would never understand that they can't understand, and we would seem like even bigger weirdos, so it's pointless. I'm sorry for your parents anon, I wish you luck
>also sorry if this comes off as rude but you are way to invested in her lifeYou're right. That's probably because I never had any friends, I know it's childish and someone in their 20s shouldn't behave like this. It's the same with being a perma virgin. When I see a guy I find cute I giggle like a 12 year old retard because I never had that
phase as an actual 12 year old
>>1131729You put it perfectly anon, it's just hell, and it feels like a constant fight for survival. People often assumed I'm rude when I was a kid when I was also just trying to contain myself because I was hurt from overstimulation etc. Now I'm just considered too aloof I guess, but I think that not looking at people and not responding is also considered rude? So maybe they still think I'm rude but in a non-aggressive way like when I was a kid, idk. I don't know what advice I could give you anon, have you tried therapy? It didn't help me much but there are people who at least got some help this way, and just being able to talk to someone who has a bigger knowledge than an average normie is something
No. 1131785
>>1131735Thank you anon, I'm not really good at expressing gratitude but I'm really happy there's someone who understands and feels the same even though we're so far from each other
Some women are diagnosed in their 30s and 40s after years of masking, you can always try to find out if you feel ready, but I understand it can be scary too. Writing down all my memories and "weird" behaviors from my childhood helped me a lot I think, the process of diagnosis doesn't include just tests but also conversation about your adolescent life etc. and if you portray it honestly I think they can recognize what's "tism" about you and what isn't, but I would advise you to look for someone who puts emphasis on female autism research (in their bio), like I did
No. 1131792
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My sister's stupid fucking boyfriend who not only wants me to babysit him as he downloads an emulator, borrow my whole switch, but he also wants to log into my Steam account to make a character on this game and transfer items. He's like "i'll buy the game for you" but I do not want it and it's too big of a download to realistically play. My sister just expects me to do all of this for him too. This man can be a fucking discord mod on a crypto discord and invest in Ethereum but he can't download a ps2 emulator and he just needs my switch and my steam account for his stupid autistic gaming endeavors. Plus I told my sister I wanted to make lemon bars with her for like a month and she only makes them when her boyfriend wants lemon bars all of a sudden, even though he thought they were cookies, and he ended up getting a bunch too.
Why are men like this
No. 1131802
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I was in a 5-point-something earthquake a few years ago that caused zero damage to me or my house (MMI of like 4), but still to this day I tense up and get a little adrenaline rush when I hear my house creak in the wind. I don’t know if this is because of my general anxiety, the fact that I spent a not-insignificant chunk of my life studying earthquakes, or some combination. I worry that if/when I ever experience an actual major earthquake I’ll be a complete mess forever after. I don’t want to tell anyone about it because I think it’s pretty pathetic and irrational to have mild ptsd symptoms over what essentially amounted to my bed jiggling.
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So recently I've been investigating into something and got reminded of it thanks to the conversation above, that being whether I have autism.
I've always felt "odd" or just like something didn't "slot" into place for me growing up and now even to this day - I've never tried to talk to a doctor about it mostly because so many of them just don't care about women on the spectrum, and also because I was told growing up that I was anxious, depressed, emotional, lazy and scruffy, or just simply smart and weird. The concept of a girl being autistic was just unheard of and I'm only 25 - people just viewed me as very shy, nervous or a lazy introvert I guess.
I guess it never crossed my mind because despite my many strange symptoms and very particular, set-in-stone way of routines and other symptoms, I still managed to stay afloat socially and have things like relationships and friends.
I was just explaining it to my boyfriend, especially the many sensory issues I have both now and as a child; for example, I could never let the tip of my socks touch my toes or I'd feel sick, uncomfortable and sperg out, and also having to flex each side of my arms and legs in a very particular pattern in order to feel comfortable - I really can't explain that one kek, but when my brain thinks of it I HAVE to do it or something just feels "wrong" like the burglar music in the Sims 1 is blaring inside my brain. I thought this was an OCD but the more I'm learning about how autism commonly presents in women the more I'm genuinely starting to think, yeah this is me.
I also get so so overstimulated by even the most simple things, again I thought this was anxiety as people told me I was being stupid or just anxious - the amount of things I've ticked off as anxiety and numerous other convenient mental health issues that could actually just be Aspergers is fucking insane. People have always said I'm weird but it seems like everyone's idea of an autistic person is just some raging, shit-flinging teenage moid who loves mathematics and is hyper-intelligent. I'm really shit at maths, I'm smart but not insanely intelligent so I feel like I don't fit the mold of "autist" so it has been super hard for me to even research this. But honestly, something in my heart and my brain feels like this is it - it makes sense. Having to flex my limbs in a particular pattern isn't normal, being overstimulated and having regular mental breakdowns from feeling like my brain is stuck/lagging isn't normal, having to completely rehearse and picture social scenarios in my head before even getting to it isn't normal.
The funny thing is, my nephew is mildly autistic or Aspergers too and he got tested asap without a problem. I remember saying "he's probably not an autist, just a smart nerd like me" and then he got diagnosed with it immediately and now I'm thinking…fuck. He is like 12 years younger than me but he talks the exact same as I did when I was that age, the very particular and eloquent way of speaking, he had the sperg meltdowns that I did, he loves escapism and it's just like looking into a similar image of me but as a boy although we aren't identical. I don't know why my brain didn't pick up on it sooner, adding up all the small little sensory, physical and emotional/mental symptoms…what are the chances?
I just fucking hate how he got tested for it immediately and everyone gushed over him being some sort of aspy genius but when I was exhibiting very similar symptoms they called me a lazy, unfeminine tomboy "bossy" girl, or just a cold-hearted bitch because I didn't react to some social situations how I should have. Idk, it's possible I am not on the spectrum but I feel like the fact I've invested this much time and how my brain reacts to it, i must be on there somewhere…I just wish I could get a diagnosis without people looking at me like I'm just another hypochondriac silly woman.
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Having to go about my life like there isn’t mass shootings happening every other day, a war going on overseas, and climate change slowly creeping up all over the planet is having a huge toll on me. I am full of doom and the future looks bleak. I know tons of past generations have thought the world was gonna end at any time, but I honestly think this is the start. I feel so helpless but all I can do is worry about my own stupid little life and hope I don’t get caught in the crossfire of another mass shooting or something.
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It seems like every time I try to check a Vanilla Gift card's balance the site won't work. It annoys the heck out of me.
No. 1132144
>>1131258The most shocking thing about this is you edit screenshots in Microsoft fucking Word
Girl MS has a default Images app that you can crop and edit in. I'm dying at this workaround. Would you crop it in Word and then screenshots it again? Would you save the Word file as a JPEG? How can you be in college with these boomer tech skills kek
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Trannies are claiming 'my life as a teenage robot' tv show as their tranny show. God why
No. 1132171
>>1132158Yes. Most men look like shit but go for much more beautiful women that's why I think that anon is wrong. Some ugly women believe they're beautiful and men are intimidated and treat them bad because of it but I've never seen a man treat a beautiful woman bad unless she turned him down.
>>1132160You're ugly and mentally ill. Imagine writing about your looks in such detail because you feel like some ugly women undeserving of it get more attention, kek.
No. 1132187
>>1132171it's not true necessarily. It is also about your personality. If you have an off putting personality as a woman, men will still bully, reject or harass you and would rather approach an less than average in looks woman with a feminine personality. I've seen objectively beautiful women be loners or be bullied or have a hard time dating due to having an odd or out of the ordinary personality. It's not just black and white.
>I've never seen a man treat a beautiful woman badlyoh man…it really ain't all about being pretty
Not to mention men usually hate feeling intellectually inferiorized and they love playing mind games. I said that I am not ugly because you said I must be ugly without being aware of it, which is not true. You literally implied I must be fat and ugly just because I said scrotes give money to ugly pick mes on the internet or you assume I must
be jealous or something. It was an observation.
No. 1132195
have you even see the sort of women scrotes post when they come here? It's always a below average photoshopped woman they simp over and they say "you whores will never be this beautiful" TOP KEK
>>1132194I'm not upset nor jealous. If a woman makes an observation it isn't necessarily out of jealousy. You don't understand life isn't all about being beautiful? A beautiful woman can be bullied or harassed too and not respected. Moids are fucking retarded and will immediately turn on you even if you are beautiful if something about your personality is off to them. Just stop.
No. 1132200
>>1132195If beauty isn't that important why did you rage so hard when unattractive women get attention? You're literally seething that men are paying attention to women you deem unworthy because they're not beautiful enough for your tastes while also saying that beauty doesn't matter much, kek.
You're both ugly and obsessed, stop hanging out in Vindicta or whatever weird circlejerk you hang out in where they taught you to judge a woman's worth by her looks.
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>>1132171>I've never seen a man treat a beautiful woman badSurely you heard of Rihanna having been beaten by Chris Brown…?
No. 1132217
>>1132211Marina is very beautiful just like most women whose pictures were spammed, that's why I think that anon is a looks obsessed vindicta-chan.
I get that scrote raids are annoying but the girls were average basic girls and none of them were ugly. I didn't feel anything towards the raids but it seems like some retarded pickmes like OP got very upset that moids dared to like anyone who isn't as hot as them, which is worrying since OP felt the need to bring it up days later.