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No. 984336

Pour your heart out, ladies.

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No. 984343

I think I am getting better and improving and then I get some time completely alone with not much to do and I feel terrible and start actually crying and feeling…odd. I don't think I can stand to be alone, like someone's gotta be in the other room at least so I have another soul around me. Hard to accept this, but it's the truth.

No. 984379

>past month at work
>slow af
>looking for things to do or train on, departments have all the time in the world to do it
>everyone acting like they're working but not really
>people out on vacation etc
>all I've been doing is tedious admin catch up shit because no one is using the opportunity to offer training to showing how anything works
>decide to use PTO to take today off since I had bad morning
>work messenger app suddenly blowing up with shit to do and things they wanna show people for training when the messenger app has been fucking dead
>my department group chat announces I took PTO
>colleague who never entertains when I call out heart reacts and says "Good for her" while she bemoans some kind of sudden workload she has on her plate

I work for a startup so it could be a shitty coincidence or it could be a "fuck you." It all feels really passive aggressive.

No. 984423

I finally made enough money to have some fun and buy shit I want and my fucking water heater breaks arghhh

No. 984424

A few folks got promotions today and that reminded me that I'm not sure in this current position I'm doing would even give me any opportunities for growth. And now they released promos, it feels too late for me to bring that up without them being like "Oh she just wants a promo". Honestly a little annoyed. This one girl that got promoted with me to the same position in June got promoted AGAIN in December. Granted, she deserved it.

At the same time, it's like an internal conflict. I really DO slack off and miss things, late to meetings, fail to turn my camera on and present myself properly to clients, social network etc etc. Just because I "work hard" doesn't mean I'm showing my best effort. But to be honest it's really hard to show my best when I'm doing borderline clerical work. "Can you put together this powerpoint?" "Can you take notes?" etc etc. Like, if I had a more meaningful job, I'd understand doing those little tasks along the way. But this genuinely feels like I'm doing absolutely nothing. There's no challenge. I mean when I was writing automation scripts I at least felt like what I was doing was worth something. But I messed THAT up too somehow because I really felt disrespected by the guy that was doing the stuff. I didn't like him, he was rude and I absolutely hated how he talked to me and treated me so I didn't really feel like doing anything with him/for him or even communicating with him for that matter. So now I'm not even involved in the project that I was the frontrunner for. I'm split between teams and I feel like even if I weren't there, they'd be better off. It's frustrating.

I know I can be an excellent worker, but the current shit I'm doing is bullshit to me. And the clients are all assholes and finnicky.

No. 984438

>>984424
If it makes you feel any better then most promotions are handed out based on how good of a relationship you have with the managers more than how hard you work. At my previous place of work the colleagues I saw getting promoted were doing the bare minimum but they rubbed shoulders with the right people while the hardworking ones had to prove their worth for ages before getting a raise.

I understand your frustration with not feeling like you're doing things that are worth anything though. In all honesty I suggest just getting a new job that motivates you enough to do your best and develop even better. It eats you up inside and makes you bitter and cynical to watch others be fulfilled by something you're struggling with. Do it now before you find yourself being stuck in the same position for the 8th year in a row.

No. 984441

im gonna call out on sunday. my boss can choke

No. 984442

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>>984438
Wow. Thank you so much nonny. This is legit excellent advice and I didn't expect anyone to even reply. I think you're right. My next priority is to get some certifications so my resume is bulked out. Ty again.

No. 984443

>>984442
Any time nonny, glad you found it helpful. Having been in a very similar situation I just hunted for a new job and found my passion for my work again.

No. 984498

My desperation for friends and social interaction vs rejecting invites from my coursemates due to anxiety
I wish I didn’t feel like vomiting the second anyone lays eyes on me

No. 984506

i've been trying to lose weight for the past almost 4 years with no success. i lost 40 lbs and became my thinnest ever in 2017 but gained all of those and a lot more back due to my horrible food addiction. it has consumed my life and affected all parts of it. i've never dated or done any normal young adult things because i am so insecure about my body. i've never been clubbing, never been to a bar, never had my first love, never had my first kiss, never been asked out on a date… i don't wear the clothes i want to wear because they don't look good on me. i want to be girly and feminine yet i feel the need to wear oversized hoodies and shirts to cover myself up. i can't look at pictures of myself because it ruins my whole day. i have a hard time keeping eye contact because i don't like the idea of people looking at my face too closely. all of this due to one thing that is in theory so easy to fix: weight loss. but as the people who struggle with their weight know, it's a lot easier said than done.
i know this isn't a thing exclusive to overweight people but my weight has affected my confidence tremendously. i've already wasted so many years of my life that were supposed to be the best years of my life pitying myself and believing i'm not good enough for anyone or anything because of my weight. i've said "i'll start tomorrow" "i'll start on monday" a billion times and over. this ends now. i will not allow myself to continue living like this because i only get to live once and i need to start living it the way i want to.

No. 984518

I just want someone to love me. I just want to have someone give me Christmas presents. I want a nice warm person. Fuck covid and making it impossible to find someone out in the city when all the bars and clubs have to be closed at 10. Tinder is full of absolute trash. I'm gonna die alone.

No. 984520

>>984379
Sounds passive aggressive af. You should shit in her coffee. Assert dominance.

No. 984521

>>984506
Anon, I've been 250+ for most of my adult life. I used to have that exact mindset. You don't need to wait, the more you put pressure on yourself to lose weight, the more stressed you get, the more you stress eat. I totally get it (having gained about 80 pounds since graduating college) because I wanted to "lose weight" before doing so many things! But I did go clubbing, I did find love, I did so many things that I was "afraid" to do because of my weight. That's bullshit! You can do it now.

You cannot limit your life because of how you look. I understand that that can be a toxic mindset in the HAES community and you think "Well if I do XYZ NOW I'll never have motivation to lose weight!" That's not true. You need to find the motivation to lose weight after you fix your relationship with food and then, you can decide for yourself when you're ready. Being insecure, alone, stuck inside all day or not doing the things you want will cause that hunger to grow. Believe me, I know.

No. 984525

>>984506
>i've never dated or done any normal young adult things because i am so insecure about my body. i've never been clubbing, never been to a bar, never had my first love, never had my first kiss, never been asked out on a date
i relate to all of this and im underweight. the reality is being a certain size won't necessarily make you happy but even so i hope losing weight works for you.

No. 984532

>>984506
Hey anon, seconding what >>984521 said, don't wait to be "normal" to start living your life.
I can tell you right now that folks of every size can find dates, go out in public, and buy flattering clothes. What's holding you back is solely the insecurity and low opinion you have of yourself.

No. 984537

I'm sad because I saw two stray kittens running around in the busy street on my way home and when I turned around to go get them they ran behind someone's house. I hope they are pets and not strays but they looked very skinny. I might go back tomorrow and see if I can find them it's getting so cold out it makes me so sad. Poor babies

No. 984541

>>984521
>being insecure, alone, stuck inside all day
nta but how do you fix this? my self esteem is so bad and I'm afraid of talking to people. I do some hobbies like drawing/painting and video games but nothing social. I just feel inadequate compared to everyone else.

No. 984551

>>984541
I started out by working on my social anxiety first. Joined a bunch of ONLINE D&D groups and roleplaying groups. This will at least give you the opportunity to share a common interest/hobby with a group of people and then you develop little inside jokes, and then you have a group of people you're laughing and joking with. Yes some of them can be annoying moids but I joined a session with 3 out of 5 of us being female. It was super fun and I actually met my spouse this way when one of the players brought her brother in for a session since we lost a player.

As for getting out and not being insecure… there are still days when I feel that way. Really you have to start with doing things for yourself. Going to see movies by yourself, going to restaurants by yourself. You may feel that it looks bad yourself, but it really doesn't! After a while of being independent, I started to find groups of people (using meetup.com) that had the same hobbies as me. Groups that did weekly restaurant things or had weekend movie nights. Yes some of the groups are kinda ass as well, just don't return to those events.

I'll be quite honest with you. I recently started taking medication like a month ago for depression and must say that I'm definitely more eager to leave the house and be more adventurous! I recently had to go to a work event and was actually pretty social. The med I take is bupropion.

No. 984554

I had to start using Discord for college group work and I'm starting to understand the appeal when you're not surrounded by trannies. Too bad I don't have friends to chill in a room with while screen sharing or doing something together. The voice chat feature is much more convenient than writing and removes the awkwardness of video calling.

No. 984558

>>984379
I heard that startups are some of the shittiest places to work at

No. 984563

>>984537
It’s a good idea to check up on them. They are very likely to be strays, or at least neglected, if they’re skinny looking and running around outdoors alone at such a young age. No harm in giving them a bit of food at least.

No. 984564

Just dropped my History degree. There's no point anymore. I'm a fucking clown for clinging to stupid ideals like this. I need to get out of this cursed fucking country

No. 984567

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>>981208
Every time I feel like he's not interested he suddenly calls me and we chat for almost an hour at work about non-work related stuff and it gives me hope. It's killing me that I don't know his intentions. I can't fucking stop thinking about him. I want him to think about me as much as I do, I want to know what he smells like, I want to kiss him, I want to suck his dick. I'm in fucking agony when we don't have a chat. His voice. Fucking kill me I cannot stand this

No. 984568

What's the thread pic from??

No. 984571

>>984564
Do you have a plan anon or was it out of frustration

No. 984580

The people on r/collapse just annoy me so much. I don’t know if I’m just way too optimistic but them convincing themselves that civilization is going to just completely unwind in their lifetime seems so retarded. Obviously civilization isn’t going to last forever but it’s not going to end in the next 100 years and I don’t think even in the next 300.

No. 984584

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omfg
O GMY AKDLJASKDLASJDASJD OH MY GOD NOOO NO NO NO NO NONONONNONONONONONONONONON ONOOOO. OH FUCKING NO.

No. 984598

>>984584
update: Actually I was wrong, everything is okay!

No. 984613

>>984598
youre welcome

No. 984626

I fucked around and found out lol
So just now, there was an old suitcase I found that my mom kept and it had normal cute family photos but then I came across the most gut-wrenching 15 page letter my dad wrote from like twenty years ago when they were on a break.
My parents’ marriage is far far from perfect, I have no idea how they’re still married but holy shit the things my father wrote to my mother were vile and horrifying. He was degrading her and calling her stupid and “an animal” and that he was much more educated and she doesn’t deserve him and just really awful things and stuff that happened between them (mind you my mom was only 20 at that time lol just regular middle eastern things)
Anyways I read the entire gaslighting, detailed and insulting letter from my father and then read my mom’s reply which was really just sad she was defending herself and yet apologizing and saying all she wants is to be a good wife.
Now I’m sad and feel like shit that my mom had to go through that alone and I don’t know how to look at my parents the same knowing how fucked their relationship was especially how emotionally abusive my father was to my mom. I’m just writing it here to speak into the void since I can’t share it with anyone irl
(Btw I really love reading this thread I relate to so many of you it’s like group therapy but without the dread)

No. 984628

>>984580
There's end of the world spergs in every age, they freak me out bc it's 1 step away from forming a sewerslide cult. Reality is unless the whole world gets bomb'd then it'll be fine. Just survive long enough to make it to another country.

No. 984631

>>984521
>>984532
thank you anons i hope i feel like this at some point. i'm happy you're able to live your life to the fullest no matter what weight you are. thank you for the kind words (unironically i hope i'm not sounding sarcastic kek)

No. 984633

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get so annoyed by people in roleplay spaces complaining about ~mlm~ relationships.

they try to dress it up by claiming people who enjoy writing gayshit above all else are ACKSHUALLY misogynistic for not wanting to write straight romances (nevermind that these are spaces primarily populated by women!), or ~fetishizing mlm~, but i know the truth. you are bitter and mad that your girls aren't getting attention. you don't care about ""protecting gay men from the evil fujoshi >:(."" you insist that women characters in rp spaces need more love, but make no effort to plot or thread with other female characters outside of "girl talk xD" threads where you simp for some random moid's oc. so annoying lmao.

just make a female character that's interesting. have you considered people aren't approaching you for rp NOT because they hate women, but because you're writing a shitty character?

like i'm not entirely sure how to put this into words, but when you, as a woman, write a female character that's like…built off of tropes that would appeal to moids (pixie dream girls, doe-eyed damsels in distress – straight up sluts and whores) what makes you think other women are going to wanna write with you?

phew feels good to get all this out

No. 984634

>>984626
my dad was the exact same way. I wish I didn't avoid the discomfort and took the time to look him in the eye and let him know how much he disgusted me. I wish I let him feel some ramifications for the hell he put her through. Its too late for me but if you can, make him feel some shame, if he is even capable. Its the least he deserves.

No. 984635

>>984525
thank you. i wish i could believe this fully but unfortunately my life was better when i was underweight kek i got treated better by people and i felt overall more like a respected woman if that makes sense. you get treated like shit by people, men especially when you're an overweight woman. but i brought it on myself so it's not like i can complain when it's an entirely avoidable issue.
i hope i don't sound like i'm invalidating your feelings though, i know insecurities cause these issues at any weights. i guess we all also wish to be what we're not at times.

No. 984642

>>984626
I think a lot of us have had a moment like this where we realize our dads, uncles, grandfathers, etc were not the people we thought they were. It's sad and upsetting. Personally I can not and will not ever look at or treat my dad or grandfather the same way after learning how they treat(ed) my female relatives and I think that's what they deserve. I of course have not called them out on it bc it's pointless, but I'm never showing them the same respect I used to.

No. 984644

>>984626
>>984634
>>984642
Yep. My birth dad was abusive, possessive and a stalker. My step dad was a liar and a fucking cheater.

No. 984650

usually i never waste much time on stupid people, but this (fairly well known instagram makeup girl) i follow has posted 56765456764 stories of her cat getting beat up, taken to the vet with cuts and serious issues, all because her retard ass throws it outside every night to free roam and she laughs about it like it's a big funny haha my cat gets beat up and i've had to take him to the vet 5 times already from the harm he suffers when i essentially kick him out for infinite hours! and i called her out on it because why not. bitch instantly replies "i don't need a stranger on the internet telling me how to take care of my cats cya!" with her little retarded cunt emojis and i'm like well it'd be nice if you'd use fucking google instead of caking your face indoors daily while your cat gets almost brutally killed. imagine your pet comes back to your house every day or even after weeks missing and they are so cut up and hurt you need to visit the vet all the time yet you still believe you're the smartest best owner ever and big meanie stranger on instagram is somehow wrong. brainless moronic bitch. either move to the country where you have tons of open space with no cars and other cats and people etc or use facts and logic and keep your animal indoors.

No. 984652

>>984650
People with outdoor cats honestly think letting the cat have "freedom and happiness" is more important than safety. She will shrug and buy a new kitten when her cat dies. They don't care about cats

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>>984642
You’re completely right. It’s heartbreaking to realize how even the close relative males in our lives dehumanize us and treat us like objects to project their anger/frustration onto
It reminds of this quote I saw once on tumblr

No. 984655

>>984650
thank you for calling her out, the more emojis the more bothered she is. Unfortunately shes probably not gonna change anything but at least she second guesses her cunty snickering at her cat's shitty life

No. 984659

>>984633
I know it's such an age-old meme to call homophobia on them but honestly that's what it is for most of the time no matter how they attempt to wokeify it for their defense. If it walks like a duck, if it quacks like a duck.
>you are bitter and mad that your girls aren't getting attention.
kek years ago I used to be in an rp group with a manic pixie girl like this and she was so fucking salty that everyone was just making gay ships with attractive male characters and ignoring her tropey dream waifus. She thankfully didn't do the full muh internalized misogyny/fetishizing ~mlm~ spiel but she did make sneery remarks about it.

No. 984667

>>984650
Don't be shy, post the @

No. 984669

Rapists all stank and are all smelly. Please call me a crazy for thinking this?!

No. 984679

My moron of a sister who has always been so fucking mean to me about being a lesbian, who literally carved dyke into my car after an argument last year, just came out as “queer” because her idiot husband is trooning out. I genuinely don’t know whether to laugh or cry

No. 984680

>>984679
Please let this be a fake post, I want to refuse to believe that this shit actually happens because it's literally making me want to kys myself. In all seriousness I'm so sorry for you nona and fuck your piece of shit sister, this is absolutely something mine would do

No. 984681

>>984679
Laugh at her, don’t let any decent memories with her turn you into a handmaiden of hers. I would honestly cut any contact, of course, if she goes to your house crying because she got hit with a bloody dilator, help her out. But don’t support her unless things get actually terrifying.

No. 984688

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Of course my old friend who drank the theymie kool-aid cosplayed that fake troon from project sekai, muh dysphoria but I feel totally myself when I present myself as female without being one uwu f-off you're just taking the easy path I hate bïtches like that.

Uninteresting petty rant yaddy yadda.

No. 984693

I have no problems with my race but I dislike the country I'm from. We hardly have unique culture, signature clothing or signature dishes. I'm surrounded by people from other places and they can talk about these interesting things but I have nothing to say out side of "We eat rice and lamb on special occasions". Our language is just half borrowed from other languages. There is potential for the country to evolve and develop but the scrotes doing all the work are lazy and greedy, even if you try to go back there and help build it up using 1st world education they reject you. They are also constantly high on Qat.

No. 984696

>>984688
>Akiyama Mizuki
are they actually a troon or is it just a crossdresser? anime fandoms always claiming gnc dudes/traps as some form of genderspecial id

No. 984697

>>984659
>it's homophobic not to constantly think about men fucking
What is this. I get their characters could be tropey (as if male characters aren't all the fucking time, but you're attracted to them so you don't find it cheesy) or they themselves annoying but how about it's boring if it's just a yaoi fuckfest too. Or maybe I just don't get RP and only did it when I was 14 vaguely.

No. 984701

>>984696
Officially the gender they put in the character bio is "Unknown", always thought it was a girl but apparently that's a crossdresser(? don't care about the story/game tho)

No. 984705

>>984697
Nobody cares anon

No. 984706

i hate that fucking lesbian domestic violence statistic moids bring up to slander lesbian relationships. or joking about lesbian relationships being "the most abusive" like how do they say that and don't immediately recognize it as a lie.

No. 984711

>>984705
Ok officer of the sri lankan carving wood enthusiast forum

No. 984712

i dont want to be your friend because you dont care about anything other than yourself and your own drama. you've brought so many awful people into my life, i dont like the people youre trying to bring into my life right now and you dont care. you dont respect my boundaries- i told you i dont want to be around those people anymore and you KNOW why but you insist on talking about them constantly, guilt tripping me for not coming to events with them and even invited one of them round when i was there without telling me. you never give back but you expect me to jeapordise my life for you!? why do i have to convince you to let me stay safe. being friends with you is so fucking exhausting. its just HARD and i dont get anything in return.

how have i only just realised that all these bad people have come into my life, caused drama, made me feel shitty and uncomfortable, fucked up my mental health and even put me in danger because of YOU. people kept saying you were strange and i should be wary of you- i defended you because i know your mental health is shitty and i feel so bad for leaving because you always complain that everyone leaves but this is why. i cant do it anymore.

please tell me im not a bad person.

No. 984714

I think I want to end my almost 6 year relationship. I should have done it the first couple years when we were nonstop fighting. Managed to work through it but I don't know if I want to do this with him everyday despite caring very deeply for him I'm not sure if I love him like I use to. I appreciate him being able to give me a home with space to do everything I want and more, he fixes my vehicles and has helped me greatly with learning to live outside of parent's home among other things. But I can't deal with how he is and I know full well he'll never change. He's not there for me emotionally like I need, he is always in his own head, has to do things his way every time, he doesn't flirt or make me feel wanted, and sex isn't exactly interesting anymore when we do have it maybe once a month. He's like the only person I have in my life but I don't even feel loved by him and he never tells me he does unless I pick at him about never saying it which I don't feel is genuine. On top of that he never takes care of the house unless I get pissed off about it, he doesn't pay attention at all to the daily needs of the animals or chores, he doesn't pay for groceries or whenever we go out to eat, he's use to me buying things for "us" because he's in debt or just doesn't wanna spend the money.

I'm just so fucking tired of coming home after working 10 hours and having to spend my weekend cleaning the house, the dishes, the wash, taking care of the animals needs, while he fucks off on his phone obessing over whatever his current fixation is for some stupid projects he'll do half of then quit like he always does. People I work with spend more time talking to me and being interested in what I have to say meanwhile he barley pays attention when I speak. I was barley 20 years old when I met him, just finished dating an emotionally abusive pos, barley any life experience but wanted to not live at home. I don't know. It's extremely scary to change my whole life and no longer have the only person I'm close to but I can't spend the rest of my life daydreaming about what my life could have been if I wasn't with him.

No. 984728

>>984697
>as if male characters aren't all the fucking time, but you're attracted to them so you don't find it cheesy

you're semi-right. male characters can be trope-y and one-dimensional too, and i know this intimately as someone who's written shitty-flat dudes before.

however, if these dudes didn't get attention, i did not cry over it. i didn't insist other people were "homophobic" or "misandrist" (idk) for not wanting to write with them, whereas you see it all the time from people who primarily write women.

i also want to say that male tropes normally have some form of agency. male tropes are generally like, "all-loving hero" or "noble knight" female tropes tend to place somewhere on the whore-madonna spectrum, or directly relate to a guy (like being a "girlfriend" is a common trope, just being an accessory to a dude)

No. 984733

My internship stresses me out because I have such imposter syndrome and really don't feel like I'm doing a good job. I know this sounds stupid, but I think about killing myself a lot just because then I wouldn't have to do this internship anymore lol. I keep telling myself this is temporary and that I just need to complete this to graduate, but it stresses me out so much it makes me wonder if I'm even fit to get a job in this field after all…

No. 984740

I broke the yolk, I'm very sad.

No. 984741

>>984712
you're not a bad person for having boundaries, anon.
your boundaries aren't being respected. let that person go. block and delete, and mean it.
in the end, it's you and only you. i know that's kind of depressing, but it can also be empowering depending on how you look at it: always put yourself first, because other people aren't gonna do it.

No. 984750

>>984728
Mhm I guess there are aspects to it one couldn't know unless you're in the scene a lot. My other thought is that maybe women don't RP as women often in the first place, so maybe the ones that do (and are young too I'd think) just copy the moids LARPing and you get the cringe factor in, AND because the comunity is dominated by women rp'ing as male characters it's harder to find a group with the same interests to grow organically in and learn how to write women in a non male gaze influenced way, so they may unwind on you lot.
I consider it just a fandom discourse really. When I was more involved I wanted to read fan works focused on the female characters' point of view and I'd find nothing (or even worse porn and porn only)- then have to read posts about the shallow writing of said female characters, as if fandom headcanons haven't always in a way or another influenced the way a character is perceived. Not much can be done if women don't want to write about women though, and I don't think it's necessarly misogynistic, at least there's good real books.

No. 984758

Mom got a call from work that said "someone" potentially exposed the workplace to Covid. I wasn't stressed at first, but after talking to my dad about it: I'm stressed. Even if she's vaccinated. I'm scared.
Dad didn't even say anything suspect. There's no telling if the "someone" was a person she worked alongside, or just someone in another department who knew someone she knows. She hasn't been tested yet (she's going in on Monday) so there's no telling if she even HAS it, actually, but God. I hate this.
I hate that my mind keeps jumping to the worst scenario. Why is my brain like this?

No. 984762

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literally had to reject someone who was interested in me and who i was really interested in because he was in an open relationship and there was literally no way for the two of them to break up, so i didn't even attempt to join that shitshow. it's so annoying too because we shared a bunch of niche interests and we clicked so well
send me some love nonnas

No. 984765

>>984762
it's fucky right now but you've saved yourself hurt in the long term, i'm proud of you for choosing the future over instant gratification!! ily

No. 984770

>>984762
Any guy in an open relationship isn't worth getting into something with anyway, even if he ever broke up with the other girl he would probably still eventually want you or whoever else he got with next to be open as well. If guys are into that you'll usually never be able to get them to commit, even if they leave their current open relationships. You did the right thing for yourself by rejecting him, you'll find someone for who respects their partners more than that.

No. 984773

>>984762
You made the right choice and they are missing out on a comfortable drama free relationship with someone cool.

No. 984774

nonnies it hurts so much knowing you have so much milk on a cow but it came from old 1 on 1 messages so they would know it's you posting them

No. 984775

>>984714
Leave him. He sounds like a fucking loser. There’s no reason for you to be his mother. You need a partner, not a manchild.

No. 984779

>>984774
Kek, I've always wondered seeing screenshots. Like do you think cows/farmers go to the cow/farmer than posted their convo and confront them? I can't blame you, I wouldn't do it either esp if you know the person irl. It hurts not to spill.

No. 984781

>>984779
i knew her online but she's a known sperg who will obsess over anyone who wrongs her for months smh

No. 984782

>>984774
I hope you work up the courage to post them, nonita. Are you talking about Aeniayh?

No. 984786

anons obsessing over lucinda is weird

No. 984788

>>984786
i think it's mostly ironic, it was a good little success arch and nice to see her response to everything. a good change from how cows normally are

No. 984795

>>984765
>>984773
awww nonnies you're so adorable thank you!! yes it hurts like a bitch and i've been sobbing for the past few days but i'm sure good things will come my way one day.
>>984770
not to play the devil's advocate but the girlfriend was the one who asked to open the relationship, not him. i won't give more details but he didn't seem like he was having the greatest time in that relationship, but maybe that's just me being petty

No. 984800

>>984786
I still think half of it is just her selfposting from the beginning

No. 984805

I absolutely loathe this world, I literally have no hope for the future of humanity. Since I finished my education and started working, I have been pre-occupied with making a lot of money so that one day I can just move to some place where I'm safe and far away form all the bullshit in the world. That is, if such a place still exists by that time. God I feel like absolute shit right now. It also doesn't help that I have only one IRL friend but she lives far away so I only see her a couple of times a year. I wish I could surround myself with a bunch of like-minded friends to make my life worth the trouble. But I'm a turbo autist so that's probably not gonna happen. I'm happy I at least find great joy in creating and ejoying art. If I didn't have that passion I would have probably tried to kms at some point in my life

No. 984810

>>984680
Afraid not, unfortunately I saw it coming a mile away because he got that retarded haircut that almost every scrote who troons out gets. She’s a shithead and I truly believe it’ll bite her in the ass before long.
>>984681
Don’t worry I barely speak to her to begin with. She’s genuinely the worst person I’ve ever known so part of me is elated that she has to deal with it. The other part of me is humiliated because I now have a troon in the family. She’s never supported me through anything in my life so tbh I hope she comes crying to me so I can tell her to eat shit

No. 984828

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signed onto twitter, which i have taken a 2 month break from, to wish everyone happy holidays and hope they're doing well even if i haven't been around because i still care about them

utter crickets and silence

i'm not super pressed because i have friends outside of socials and all, but damn it kinda stung to apparently not be cared about at all since i've been absent from giving them those sweet likes ig. oh well.

No. 984831

>>984828
Delete Twitter you dumbie

No. 984835

>>984831
yeah im probably not gonna login again. just kinda sucks to get confirmation no one cares about you on socials beyond being another number to add to their engagement lol

No. 984840

>>984633
>>984728
i make most of my female characters smug edgelords, is that bad? though I've never roleplayed before, but thought about doing it but still probably won't cause it seems too hectic from lurking. i feel like mine would get accused of being "nlogs" or "men with tits", another reason why i'll never share them. even though people say female characters should be written the same as men, at the same time seem to dislike it if they are, it's confusing

No. 984848

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All of my IRL female friends and friendly acquaintances are becoming nonbinary. I've always hung out with lesbian/tomboy/nerdy types, and it's gotten to point where I have 4 female friends and 9 nonbinary "friends".

The idea that men and women can have any personality/interests and be feminine or masculine has always been hugely important to me.

I tried talking to a therapist about it. I figured she'd say some shit like "you're a problematic meanie but here's how you can start to cope and become woke" but then she basically said "If they're not forcing YOU to become nonbinary, then literally what is your problem?" and completely dismissed me.

>>984828
Are you me? I deleted twitter several months ago because I couldn't handle the down with cis bullshit and it's like everyone forgot I existed the second I stopped liking their posts.

>>977686

My condolences to you as well.

No. 984851

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Lolcow is literally always right about men, but goddamit, I don't want you guys to be. I met some guy at a party, and have been talking to him the past few days. He had some red flags, things that would get him slammed as an idiot moid if he posted here, but my mind said "That's just his crude sense of humor. You're not going to listen to an imageboard your whole life, are you?". Today, I found out some fucked up shit about him. Spanning years. He told me bits and pieces about himself regarding some of these things, but now I wonder if he only did that as some kind of pre-emptive damage control. There's just so much that he couldn't possibly have hidden it forever

I feel disappointed in myself for opening up at all. At least I never had sexual relations with him or made anything "official". I think I'd actually have felt less cheated if he had only wanted sex, but he actually didn't go for any of that. He acted like he wanted an actual connection with me. Apparently, he does this to every girl he fucks over. Why? He could easily get sex, and I know for a fact he doesn't respect women and "want to look into our hearts and souls" or whatever. What does he hope to gain in pretending to be some sensitive person? "BTFOing the femoids" since 2017, what a fucking waste of time

There's a tiny inkling in my heart that keeps saying dumb bitch things like "Ok but he might have actually changed, you don't know" or "Wait a bit, calm down, and then ask him about it". Since he is a scrote, I already know he'll just feed me lies and do the standard "All my exes were just crazy" thing. Oh fucking well, bullet dodged before things got serious. I guess any man who wants to tell you about his life, warts and all, must be fucking evil and insane

No. 984855

>>984679
I am so fucking sorry that this is happening to you. Stay strong.

No. 984860

>>984712
Have been in a similar situation before. You’re better off just cutting them loose. And you’re not a bad person for it.

No. 984861

>>984188
It really doesn't sink in until you experience it yourself. I'm 31 and the harassment stopped at around 25. It's less about the "fertile ovaries" and being attracted to neotenous features and more about knowing that a young girl is probably impressionable and easier to manipulate, since you could look absolutely the same at 28 as you did at 20 and be hit on, but dropped immediately once they learn you're almost in your 30's. It's disgusting and pure blackpill to realize how obsessed men are with having power over women.

No. 984864

>>984848
Technically your therapist is right, but also I get it. I get a little upset because it seems like the idea that women aren't a stereotype of femininity is disappearing. Now if you aren't feminine you must be non-bi or masculine or whatever, which also reaffirms that there's some kind of definition of femininity. I wish we could just get rid of the gender lens all together. Like being a man or woman doesn't mean anything or decide what you dress or like, we're just all humans. But now that's a dead ideal. We need 1000 genders to parse through before we can identify ourselves as one. Wtf why? Destroy gender stereotypes by rejecting them and being yourself. Also I don't get the she/they pronouns like what does that even mean? What's the difference to she/her? The gender special stuff makes me frustraited to no end.

No. 984865

my childhood friend got diagnosed with a brain tumor a few years ago. she got treatment to slow the growth, but they can't remove it. over the past 6 months, her personality has changed so bad. I don't know if I can remain her friend as much as it hurts to distance myself, but she has become dangerous to be around. she gets sooo angry about the smallest things and it's impossible to talk her down.

last time I saw her, I made the mistake of telling her she was confused about something and she tried to attack me over it. I left her house immediately and she called the police. obviously they couldn't do anything for her, and I don't want to press charges against her or anything either but that was a real what the fuck moment. Our friendship is negatively effecting my mental health at this point. I care so much about her, but this tumor has changed my friend. It feels cruel to abandon her, but she attacked me. Brain tumors fucking suck.

No. 984866

>>984864

You listened to me nonny, and acknowledged that it hurts, which is more meaningful than what the therapist did.

I know that at the end of the day, I just have to suck it up and deal with the fact that the world is changing and there are much bigger problems out there.

No. 984872

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fuck rare toy collectors. i really want a certain variant that isnt made anymore and im looking at galleries of bitches who snatch them up fast on ebay and then post pictures of their hoards and haughtily talk about refusing to sell them. greedy ass mfs

No. 984875

i feel really sad but you didnt mean to make me feel sad so it's okay

No. 984880

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i wish i didn't care about my mom's approval so much.
basically i'm trying to change my degree and did my country's equivalent of the SAT idk how it works but i scored 129 out of 180 questions, considering that i was working part time and attending some college classes online. i didn't study for this test at all
i'm very pleased with myself but my mom only replied with "huh, i wonder if it'll be enough".
this was enough to trigger my hamster wheel anxiety thoughts that she thinks i'm too old to do this shit (i'm 22), that i'm only sucking her dry, that i'm a parasite, a lazy waste of money.
i already told her that if it doesn't work out, i'll take next year off to study. i have more than 10k in savings from my job so if i want to buy anything for myself, i can.
idk if it makes any sense but goddamn mom you always complained that you were never enough for my grandpa. now you do the same thing with me and it hurts

No. 984881

>>984872
Troll them by saying they're fake/their pics are shooped

No. 984892

I’m a BPDfag recovering anachan with a bit of a self harm problem and just now tore an impressive few handfuls of hair out because I was sperging so hard about food. There’s a huge noticeable bald patch and I’ve already lost a shitload of hair because I was starving myself. I genuinely look like I’m going bald.

No. 984914

>>984892
I’m sorry that happened to you anon it’s tough but it’s only hair trust me it grows back eventually you’re not going bald
Take your supplements and focus on your recovery

No. 984925

I had an emotional breakdown last night thinking about my relationship with math. I never got a good grasp of it growing up even though I excel in other subjects. I had a really rocky time in school growing up because of my home life. I already have an AA in art but I'm not interested in it anymore, and I want to study science. I'm at a crossroads in choosing what to pursue. Not understanding math is one of my biggest insecurities deep down and I feel like it holds me back from having a well rounded mind. I know I could avoid ever learning it and be fine, but I feel like its something I've been hiding from for a long time and I need to face it to let myself grow. I also think it could help me overcome and let go some of the pain I hold onto from being behind in school as a child.

No. 984936

>>984892
>>984914
not to be the bearer of bad news but sometimes you do go bald… sometimes for no reason at all.

t.balding heavily as a 22 year old female

No. 984939

I have no idea if this is all a coincidence or if this is actually a recent belief some people have but I feel so crazy. Within the last 2 weeks I’ve seen and heard multiple people bring up mandatory birth control as means to combat overpopulation in the future + climate control. It just sounds so retarded and it makes me so mad. It’s also always been moids that bring it up. If this did get implemented it would of course only be mandatory for women, as if taking BC is nothing.

No. 984943


No. 984950

I recently got introduced to probably the worst boss of all time. Basically my job I started a little over two weeks ago has this batshit insane Turkish guy running it. Despite the job paying minimum wage the dude automatically expects me to
>know how to use photoshop
which I do, but then I was introduced to their ancient ass edition of photoshop which is pretty borderline impossible to use on the slowest computer I’ve ever used that freezes whenever you click on something
>embroidery machine
Something I have no familiarity with outside of knowing how to sew somewhat
>two engraving machines
Something that I really doubt anyone besides professionals know how to use
Among many many other things, like heat pressers and laminating machines, did I mention that this job pays minimum wage?
Now this would be fine, I’m even able to deal with that it pays once a month (which is a major pain in the ass) but dear lord the owner is insane.
The second I met him after being shown around by his super lovey and kind wife (I have no idea how they’re married) the dude instantly glares at me and assumes I don’t know how to use photoshop properly to the point where I was considering not taking the job if offered. Despite that much to my regret now I did take it when I was for some reason offered it and now any time he is in I get verbally lashed at for little to no reason.
Lashings include
>him saying ‘you should be paying me’ when asked how much I’m getting paid since he had never disclosed that till today
>whining about how he should have overcharged my mom when she commissioned him
>after that saying that every mistake I make on the commission even if his fault is now my fault (keep in mind he was training me on how to use a machine I’ve never used)
>yelling at me that I have to nag at co worker to train me (which isn’t even my fault since he was the one assigned to do it)
>saying that I shouldn’t be friendly with said co worker (dude is leaving in a month btw)
>saying he’ll fire me for basically no reason (which I really don’t care about at this point)
>saying that my mom kicked me out of the house for some reason because I wanted to work a job with longer hours so I applied to this one?
>yelling ‘I’M NEVER OKAY’ when I asked if he was okay because he was coughing a fuck ton
>onto that, dude probably has covid because he never wears his mask
>Constant bitching if I ask a question
>Constant bitching if I don’t ask a question
and my personal favorite
>Constantly whining about how intense Christmas is going to be even though like, 10 people come to the store a day on average and he’s better off just selling only to companies at a private business because walk ins are so rare
>Yelling that I don’t care about him (I had known him for like, 2 days and he pretty much only yelled at me) because I asked if he wanted to continue the engraving process tomorrow as it was the end of my shift
Also I don’t get breaks or lunch.

Sorry for the long post, the ‘you should be paying me’ shit he said today just pissed me off to no end especially since I’ve never insulted him or been remotely rude to him, if anything I don’t talk much at all.

No. 984951

>>984943
it's just a thing sometimes. It's called female pattern baldness and it usually strikes after menopause, but sometimes it happens to young women too. A lot of times it'll get triggered by going on/off birth control bc I guess the messing with hormones kicks off the process early. I've never been on birth control though so that wasn't the case for me.
Not to blogpost but I:
>have never had issues with my weight
>got a full blood panel including thyroid and all came back good
>not on any medications
>no family history of female pattern baldness
>dermatologist confirmed I'm just balding early
>tried rogaine & spiro and neither worked
>on track to be bald on top by 30
>am already ugly, so this was one final slap in the face from god

No. 984953

>>984951
samefag but if you're balding due to medical or emotional stress, that usually goes away but can also unfortunately sometimes kick off female pattern baldness for some reason so be careful and take care of yourself.

No. 984983

Just watched a video of some woman with perfect oranges, big, juicy, thin rind great color.
Someone comments about the shit oranges we have in the grocery stores in the states:
"That's because these oranges are organic natural wild grown oranges"
How out of touch can someone fucking be? I'm so tired of people glorifying organic/natural shit. It's so obvious those oranges are gmo, and there's no way they'd be able to grow so pristine if they were organic. And the trees were literally LOADED with fruit. Wild orange trees wouldn't be so loaded down with fruit. They aren't fucking wild organic orange trees lady.

No. 984985

>>984950
You haven't even been there a month and it's this bad. Just quit

No. 984991

>>984983
Isn't that just because the oranges were fresh?

No. 984995

>>984892
Bite the bullet and get rogaine. One of my childhood friends had Ed and she basically just had to shave her head and wear wigs bc it never grew back.

No. 984996

>>984774
Which cow?

No. 984997

>>984983
The thin rind piece makes me believe they could be organic.
It blew my mind when I found out that oranges were engineered to have thick rinds. Otherwise how would they not get smooshed by other oranges while being transported in a truck.

No. 985002

>>984997
I dont disagree with this bc I know the oranges here are shit for that reason but I also cant completely agree. These oranges were fucking huge and juicy as hell. I cant see them as being non gmo with how big they were. I mean I know there's a lot of technical advances now, and organic shit can exist far easier than it did in the past but these oranges looked the opposite of organic.

No. 985003

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Nothing enrages me more than a stem scrote who sniffs his own farts. He's been put into stem camps, programs, special stem highschool, bought stem toys, and just literally groomed from birth to be a stem major, yet acts like he's a fucking genius because his tutor taught him uni math in highschool. Get electrocuted by your electric pocket pussy, dangly bits.

No. 985004

>>984939
Oh of fucking course, they just can't leave women's wombs alone can they. Well vac is mandatory in lots of places now, and period tracking app data is sold to companies so they can fire a pregnant woman bc maternity leave is ~inconvenient~. It could happen in the future. But how about mwn just get their balls and penis chopped, that would solve more than just overpopulation.

No. 985005

File: 1638592936928.jpg (2.9 MB, 2121x1414, Mandarins.jpg)

goddamn all this orange talk is making me crave mandarin oranges, i think theyre just now in season too. every winter i eat an ungodly amount of those things

No. 985015

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>>984997
Okay well looking back at the video I can honestly see them being organic now that my Reid rage is gone.
I'm just sick and tired of people over glorifying organic shit. Not all organic shit is going to look perfect, and that's a foolish assumption to make.

No. 985016

>>985015
"Ried" rage fucking seriously?

No. 985020

>>985005
one time I ate too many of these in a day and had horrible leg cramps all night kek

No. 985023

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I can't seem to be able to enjoy the old music I loved when I was younger and is all because every single song has like 250M views each and I can't comprehend how the fuck that happened. I remember finding music organically on youtube (back when it wasn't pure algorithm/watch time bullshit) and I would find amazing songs with at much 10k views and to me back then those were a lot of views.
Now I can't go back and listen to then without seeing the view counts and it fills me with disgust for some strange reason. Do I have hipster aids or some shit? help nonnies

No. 985033

Once in a blue moon I get these IBS "flare-ups" that hurt worse than when I had advanced appendicitis. I take two hyoscyamine and in 30 minutes it goes away, but I'm only five minutes in and I'm writhing.

No. 985040

>>985020
one time I ate too many of these at my grandma's house and missed thanksgiving dinner because I was shitting my guts out in liquid form from 5pm-8pm. We are sisters!

No. 985045

>>984828
Don't feel too bad anon, with the way twitter's algorithm is, there's a good chance no one even saw your posts for better or for worse. I also stepped back from twitter, unfortunately I can't delete mine because I need to promote myself but god do I wish everyday I could leave forever. Social media brings nothing but pain. I hope you feel better and find people who care about you.

No. 985068

I’m never rude to those who were nice or humane to me. However, I’ve noticed I can bear heavy grudges to people that harmed me or hurt me in any way. I’m that good gal with anger issues that’s misunderstood as a result of endless bullying and severe mistreatment.
I was thinking of changing my style of rage and mellow it more aka completely suppress it to avoid problems and conflicts in my life, but after observing how in general all people are manipulative pieces of sick shits, I just can’t help but feel to want to put this resolution for the new year on a hold. The inner demon in whisper me with “So what if it makes me having less chances of getting friends or getting a job. I’m not on this earth to be a tampon that will deal with everyone’s crap and toxicity.”

How can you nonnies even be nice to absolute pieces of shits instead of saying what’s on your mind? If I didn’t have a knack for surviving skills I’d be no better than a hobo schizo and I wouldn’t have even been able to type this on my useless iPhone. If I were a chill and assertive person, I’d be so much more liked.

Since my bizarre almost comical rage is the only thing that unironically makes me stand out from other normal people, if anyone can give me their input or even personal blogs since it means you can relate to me, it would be greatly appreciated and I’ll give to you all of what I have, my reddit gold that is.

No. 985071

I hate being sick with the flu. I have loss of taste and smell. Eating is so weird. I want to punch something but I have no energy. I hate everything.

No. 985073

>>985071
Same anon that posted, I also have my period too. I swear the universe is laughing at me.

No. 985077

>>985073
If i were your dog i’d lick your paw and get you some pain killers. No i’m not a furry.

No. 985092

I've always been averse to dating seriously and I've always had a low/non-existent libido but now that I've finally found a scrote who doesn't want anything beyond casual dating and isn't interested in sex, I want to fuck him and be his gf. Why does my brain work like this? Is it just because I want to have what I can't have or do I just want him to want me so that I can feel superior to him and refuse his advances? I hate this.

No. 985097

>>985092
Can't help you there but I also always found that unavailable men boost my libido like nothing else

No. 985101

I miss having a best friend. I don’t feel excited about anyone or anything. I have a bunch of people that I meet up with whenever I have free time, but most conversations I have with them feel so boring. I don’t have a “connection” with anyone. And I don’t even know how to fix this because it’s not like I don’t know how to make friends. You can’t force anyone to be your best friend. I guess I just have to wait for the “right” person to come into my life. But for now, I feel bored af with life and miserable.

No. 985107

>>984697
Look anon, the reason why they're called homophobic isn't because they "don't constantly think about men fucking". It's not even because they don't like the ~hot yaoez~. It's because these people have no problem with a roleplaying community being full of heterosexual couples being played but whenever the ratio gets skewed towards more gay characters they suddenly think it's "boring" and "uninteresting" to have only one sexuality being so overrepresented. Naturally this isn't a very good look for them and does sound aggressively homophobic even if it's less about them hating those nasty homo folks and more about "less straight male characters means less simps for my self-insert Mary Sues". Either way it's annoying, especially in a situation where they're the only straight girl in a large lesbian/bi community.

No. 985113

>>985040
NTA but omg I had the same problem once lmao except I was in uni accommodation it was traumatic

No. 985144

I’m going to commit suicide.

No. 985146

>>985144
https://ct.counseling.org/2016/08/counseling-unlikeable-clients/
Same anon. It’s Not because of this article, but I’ll just say it is, because man, this is so dreadful to read.(samefag)

No. 985154

>>985146
what the hell, are you trying to push them over the edge?

No. 985161

I like to lurk certain corners of Twitter. I kind of want to make an account to make friends and stuff there, but you have to give Twitter your phone number, and that's literally the most cucked, least ""esoteric"" cool person thing you could ever do lol

No. 985163

>>985154
it's the same anon, she literally said

No. 985164

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>>985144
>>985146
let's send each other cute cat memes instead. no but fr nona we can talk if you need

No. 985165

>>984848
Your therapist is stupid. Not sure how you explained this all to her but really it is like your friends joining a new religion and have been indoctrinated. Regardless of the fact they're not directly pressuring you to join, humans are social animals and influenced by each other. If other women decide they cannot call themselves women anymore for X reason and you are close or similar to them, that will make you uncomfortable. It's called a social contagion for a reason, none of these labels are innate and it spreads through social circles.

No. 985169

I hate it when liberals bring argument "99.9 percent muslims are moderate that just want to live their lives"
Maybe moderate in their own muslim communities but no where on this planet moderate islam is moderate, their values are far right in many countries amd their behaviour is still not better than their not so moderate counterparts
Most 0f these moderate ones look the other way when other muslims do something or blame the women/victim

No. 985170

It's like my mother has only two moods which are ignoring that I exist and shit on every word I say.
Sometimes I wish I cloud throw it it her face that one of the big reasons I don't want to have children is her. Even a 1% chance of ending up like her as a parent is too much of a risk to fuck up a kid. She never should've had a second child or children at all.

No. 985173

>>985170
are you me ?
my mother is the main reason I never be anyone's parent, I don't want any child to suffer from an insecure narc who makes everything about themselves even when it's about their child's sexual abuse or their insecurities, its always about them somehow
"yup mom, all my failures in life are just an elaborate plot to personally embarrass you"

No. 985178

I stayed at an airbnb for 2 nights and barely got any sleep. The bed was hard and sinking in the middle. Some hobos were screaming all night until 3am. All I wanted to do was stay home for 3 days in my own room, play games and not work but my wife insisted we go out into the city for the weekend. Im exhausted. I hate 'vacations' because im not home with all my shit and always forget something important. This bed is so hard. I got no sleep. Help me, nonnies

No. 985196

>>984925
Same, had As everywhere except maths. Some weeks ago I started doing Khan Academy courses from around the time I couldn't keep up in class anymore (8th grade…) and it helps. Maybe you could try it too? Like you, I don't have to learn it, but the thought of not being able to do simple math stuff 14 year olds have no problem solving in their head kinda hurts lol.

No. 985205

>>985165

Thank you. It hurts seeing the people I relate to, the people who made me proud to be a woman, drinking the kool-aid and saying things like "I don't to get pregnant, so I can't be a cis woman."

They don't understand that they're making the definition of woman smaller and more restrictive.

I might try explaining it to the therapist again, but I was really disappointed in her reaction.

No. 985208

My mother's scrote gave away all of her clothing and makeup while she is studying for her master's degree in a nearby country (that's two hours away!!). I can't believe it. What a fucking monster. She doesn't have any money and no one can travel because of COVID.

No. 985213

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>>985204
Are you in an immigrant family anon? Similar situation, eldest sisters are just seen as convenient therapists and housemaids. Idk what you can do other than go low contact and not go over when they "need" you. You don't have any responsibility to treat them with more than distant respect, if they want to invest way more in their other kids compared to you than let your siblings take care of them.

No. 985244

>>984840
I don't think that's bad. RP and making OCs is just for fun, and if it makes you happy to write these edgy girls, then go for it.

No. 985260

I'm friends with a soyboy scrote whose wife has gone TIF.

At first she was female, then nonbinary, and now she's full transmasc, taking T, growing a beard, calling her and her husband a gay couple etc.

As far as I know, this guy has always been heterosexual and is now being forced into becoming a gay man. He's acting like this is all completely normal and he has no issues with it.

I want to reach out to him and tell him that if he's ever uncomfortable in any way and wants to vent, he can talk to me without fear of being labeled as "transphobic" or "homophobic", but I haven't because I'm afraid that he's in so deep that he'll get angry with me for even suggesting that he could possibly be unhappy. I'm probably just paranoid, but I'm nervous that it'll tear our whole friend group apart if I say the wrong thing.

What do?

No. 985268

>>985260
Do nothing. If he wants to be a pretend faggot then let him.

No. 985270

>>985260
don't get into it imo. in cases of male partners in het relationsgips transitioning there's higher chance of all kinds of abuse and fucked up dynamics, here he may be overwhelmed or unsure what to do. But if he isn't outwardly acting like there are problems then maybe it genuinely doesn't bother him as much (possibly low libido) or he cares more about maintaining his relationship. It might be less innocent and he still benefits in ways, monetarily or she still does more housework. At the end of the day regardless of all the labels his partner may want to put on the relationship, she's still a woman and sure transition changes bodies but it doesn't change everything.

No. 985271

>>985260
I know a guy whose in a similar relationship, he's not at all soyboy, but he's a well meaning liberal guy
He doesn't call himself gay but begrudgingly says he's in a queer relationship, I mean not much has even changed in their relationship except his wife dressing like a lesbian

They seem happy I guess

No. 985273

Yet again I succumbed to avoidance and didn't go to the Meetup I signed up for. I literally have no friends and the only social interaction I get is from my colleagues at my workplace

No. 985274

>>985260
Don't do anything. Men should be willing to stick with women even when things don't go perfectly. Let her enjoy her pretend yaoi BS or whatever.

No. 985292

>>985268
>>985270
>>985271
>>985274

Alright, I won't get involved.

No. 985296

i'm such a doomer in terms of relationships and love. i have never been in a relationship but i have seen a lot of it around me (my friends, family) and from what i've seen it's hopeless. don't get me wrong, i want to be in a relationship, i do think having a boyfriend would be sweet, but i really don't want to be cheated on or heartbroken. i'm a really insecure person and i'm scared of letting myself get attached to people. the friends i have right now, we've known each other for years but i am not emotionally attached to them so if i lost them i would probably get over it relatively quickly.
i know in order to have a healthy relationship you need to fall in love with the person, but i seriously don't want to do that. i don't want to be completely devoted to a person only to get cheated on or heartbroken and then feel devastated and fall into depression.
every longterm relationship that i've seen in my life hasn't been something i'd like to go through. my parents are still together but my dad is strange. he flirts with other women in front of my mom and though she's used to it and doesn't find it weird i know i wouldn't be okay with that. my grandpa from my mom's side cheated on his wife and my mom has a half sister that we've never met because of that. my grandpa from my dad's side had anger issues and emotionally abused his wife and kids.
i don't think i'll ever be able to completely devote myself to a man. i can see myself getting into couple week long relationships in a years time when i move out of country just to see what it's like but i don't know if i'll ever be prepared to actually fall in love and risk getting hurt, which seems to be a very high risk

No. 985323

I had forgotten how much heartbreak sucks. It has been a very reasonable breakup. I think we both handled it pretty maturely, better sooner than latter, yada yada. But it hurts. It hurts…

No. 985338

I hate it that I'm so affected by such a turn of events that weren't such a big deal. I've had way worse things happen to me. I was driving home very late after a 7-8 hour tattoo appointment (2-3am) and I got caught in such heavy fog that I could not see in front of my car at all. My defogger did not work at all. I was in a highway and I had to use the reflective lights near the center divider to see anything. I tried pulling over and calling my bf and texting him multiple times, but no answer. I tried to drive again but I had to stop because I knew it was too dangerous. Eventually some strangers tried to help me so I drove behind them while they flashed their emergency lights to where they were staying since it was kind of near where I live. I hate that I was in that situation where I did not know what else to do so I had little choice. I didn't want to stay pulled over for the night as the area where the fog was is in a neighborhood of a bunch of registered sex offenders. I go to this mansion where the stranger explains she recently divorced her husband a week ago so she is staying with her friend. The juxtaposition of this person who clearly had no money in this nice house was weird. Ashtrays were everywhere even though 3 small kids lived there. She gave me a tour of the place (while the original owners were in the house asleep) and kept on offering me food. Eventually she and her partner offer me weed and I decline and they leave me alone in a weird room that doesn't match the rest of the house (fucked up carpet, door, etc.) I also felt weird knowing they thought I was young because they thought I had to wait for my parents (I'm 24) and I tried to explain that it wasn't an issue and they explained how they thought I was in high school. I felt humiliated, ashamed, and gross. I stayed alone in there for like 15-30 minutes then left to get home and the fog had cleared up to where I could at least see the road.

I feel traumatized for no legitimate reason. No one hurt me. I feel embarrassed I was in that situation at all. I could have prevented my situation by rescheduling my tattoo appointment. I hate feeling like I'm a little girl, I feel helpless now and sick, like something is wrong with me and I feel like I'll never attain adulthood. This is stupid because I have been raped, conscious, unconscious, filmed, sodomized, etc. and none of that bothered me the way this does. I just accepted those events. But I want to run away from this event as far as possible. I want to forget it. It felt like a fever dream. I took pictures at the mansion because of how fake it felt and I wanted to be sure I wasn't dreaming.

No. 985345

WHY does my mother do things that are obviously invasive and annoying?? Why does she have to open the shower door when I'm showering, why does she decide to let air in while I'm changing and it's fucking freezing outside, why doesn't she let me nap at certain hours, why does she fucking forbid people to go to the bathroom and take showers when "she doesn't feel like it"??? She makes my blood boil, I can't take it anymore. Sometimes I can't tell if she's really mentally ill or not.

No. 985348

>>985260
Don't get involved, under no circumstances start doing emotional labor for the moid. If you do and he becomes comfortable enough with you, you'll have to endure some of the worst hidden misogynistic thoughts he has. He'll break up eventually, they always do. Just observe from afar but don't get involved. These men usually stay for the ride in hopes of it being just a phase but once the surgeries start being involved they fuck right off.

No. 985361

>>985323
I’m sorry anon. Just take things one day at a time, and know that the pain will go away. I hope you feel better soon.

No. 985430

>>985345
Ugh, just like my mom. Some parents - and I feel like it really is mothers specifically - just refuse to acknowledge that children are separate human beings and act like they're property with no boundaries of their own. I dont think theres a way of fixing it, just move out as soon as you can.

No. 985439

>>985338
That is pretty freaky. Glad nothing worse happened to you, but I can totally see why you'd be shaken by it.

No. 985444

I was just feeling like a creep because it's been all of 3 years and I just googled one of my exes usernames.. then I came across something.

He uploaded a 10 hour live video of our living room one night back when we were living together. It was pointed at the cage of our pet who did nothing for the whole video anyway. Now I was never made aware he was doing this at the time. You can tell it was filmed overnight but with lights left on. I used to have a habit of staying up much later than him and hanging in the living room so I upped the volume to make sure I wasn't talking or playing videos in the background. Its 10 fucking hours long though. Why??

No. 985456

I recently realized my friend just doesn't think about me at all. In every conversation with him I've always had to bring up what's going on in my life. I never minded it really because once we started talking about my day, plans, etc, he would seem engaged enough and start asking me questions, but recently I've been secretly testing him and it's pissing me off. We'll hang out and talk for 3-4 hours and I'll purposefully never change the subject to anything regarding my life, and he'll just never ask me a single question or even ask how I've been. It's all about him, his feelings, everything he's planning, etc. If he brought up something last week about a crappy class he's taking my natural care and curiosity for his life and well-being will bring me to naturally ask him about it the next time we see, you know, like a friend. But even if I'm literally applying for jobs or doing something quite big in the next few days like traveling abroad, it's extremely evident he had given it no thought. I always brace for the painful moment where I see the surprise on his face as he suddenly remembers my existence, coming out of his self-centered fugue of thinking about only himself, and finally asks how I've been in an embarrassed tone as he realizes how he's been talking about only himself for the last several hours.

No. 985465

>>985456
You barely realized now that befriending men who have no emotional intelligence was a bad thing?

No. 985476

>>985444
That's kind of creepy. Does he have other videos? My only guess as to what he could have been doing is maybe recording your pet overnight so he could check on them from another room? I really don't know why that would be uploaded though, or kept up for that matter.

No. 985481

>>985465
It's not about emotional intelligence. It's about her almost realizing that her friend is extremely self-centered, self-involved, and obnoxious. He has main character syndrome. Prolly thinks that nonny is an NPC.

No. 985489

>>985476
It's on YouTube but unlisted. He posted the link to it on a message board announcing that it was live.

Like ffs I hung out there in my pjs every night (sometimes just a long t shirt) so I'm likely there but just off cam with earphones in watching stuff on my laptop. If I went near the cage I could've been filmed exposed. Cage is down on the floor.. me in just a long shirt most nights. Ngl I'd had nagging worries about him and cameras.

No. 985490

>>985338

Oh, man. I know it sucks. It feels embarrassing because you think you would have known what to do, what to say, how to act like a True Twenty-Four year old, but instead you feel small and dumb helpless. Which is shameful, because who wants to feel or be treated as helpless? Where's the dignity in that?

The thing is, anon, you attain adulthood through trial and error. People know what to do in unexpected situations because they've been in other unexpected and weird situations before. You keep an animal out of its environment and it'll start adapting and preparing for surprises. And that's what you're doing right now, you're learning. Now you know to hesitate and pause next time, evaluate for the best decision possible. Look into self-defense or gun ownership if you live in the US. Everybody has to be a little retarded before they become competent.

No. 985498

>>985465
>befriending men
Rookie mistake

No. 985512

Sick of men dominating every old-timey nerd hobby. Thinking lately about getting into amateur radio and every club is dominated by 70 year old white men one fall away from a hip replacement.

No. 985517

>>985481
What you said has everything to do with emotional intelligence, though… It doesn't only deal with one's own personal feelings, but also with them understanding the feelings and needs of others as well as being able to read the room.

No. 985522

>>985512
Then just push them off of the stairs? It’s not that hard anon.

No. 985532

>>985456
Why are you even friends with this moid? What does he provide in a friendship if he doesn’t even care about you enough to ask questions, stop wasting your time

No. 985535

>>985512
Honestly I'd take that over my current situation, my hobby is dominated by Gender queers and women who are very straight but give themselves labels and say their Queer(It makes me wanna die)

No. 985541

>>985535
out of curiosity, what hobby is that?

No. 985556

>>985456
>moid "friend"
Every time

No. 985580

>>985535
Ok. Here are my guesses:

1-Art
2-Rollerskating
3-Crochet
5-Music production
6-Fashion

It’s not CS/coding or something like robotics and microcontrollers, because then you would have included autistic men and trans people. So what is, anon?

No. 985581

>>985535

Same. I like art and comics and i'm exhausted of having to interact with "She/They Demisexual Polyamorous Kinkster" types who's only personality is collecting labels to pretend to be gay. I'm becoming so thankful for the random normie women at my work, and I've even started talking to some about the books they're reading. Maybe there's hope to share hobbies with people who aren't morons.

No. 985587

>>985161
>I like to lurk certain corners of Twitter. I kind of want to make an account to make friends and stuff there
why. which part of twitter could possibly be good or worth making friends there

No. 985595

>>985498
tbh women should be cautious when befriending anyone in general. Because i befriended someone exactly like that and they are were a woman too.

No. 985606

>>985161
Make a protonmail and use the “use email” option instead. I have a locked account that I use to keep track of news and crypto and other stuff. What corners do you lurk? Maybe we have stuff in common kek.

No. 985624

Ffs. I have to force myself to have hobbies because I would be otherwise just mindlessly scrolling the Internet doing fuckall

No. 985626

>>985624
Me…still trying to find something I can call a hobby

No. 985627

I was ready to hate this video based on the title but it was a completely different take than I expected and somewhat depressing.

No. 985644

>>985627
Is this a guy who's famous for claiming that he's a self-aware narcissist? I wouldn't listen to anything what he says

No. 985648

I'm going to have a nervous breakdown if customers keep trying to talk to me

No. 985652


No. 985663

This was gonna go in the bisexual thread since it's technically on topic but also way too spergy. Since this is the vent thread I'm gonna add more stuff.

I feel a little guilty for calling myself bisexual despite never being with a girl before, but then I remember
1. Im young
2. I spent my whole life denying that I like girls
3. Most gay girls at my school are genderspecials
4. Cute girls make me nervous

I don't want to get lumped in with the obvious fakers but I may as well be one myself until I get my shit together and talk to the girl I like. There's practically no difference between my dating history and a straight girl's dating history, except straight girls don't dream about girls day and night. Oh well

No. 985668

I absolutely hate driving but I also don't want to depend on others driving me around and public transportation here is almost non existent. I always feel so anxious after I get out of the car and it takes my nerves a while to settle down. I hate feeling like this.

No. 985716

>>985668
You're literally risking your life every time you drive it's normal to feel scared. No matter how much I practice I still get scared. I don't get how ppl just treat it so casually.

No. 985724

>>985716
Same, this is a totally rational fear. Use the adrenaline to stay aware of your surroundings, people check the fuck out when they drive. I notice everyone around me thinks the red light means it's time to text, too. Can it not wait??

While we're at it–people with ridiculously bright night driving lights. Why the fuck does anyone need that bright of a light for driving in the city??? I understand for country driving, but isn't that what high beams are for? I feel like I'm being interrogated when these fuckers roll up behind me and their lights get reflected into my face from my sideview mirrors.

No. 985725

>>985663
Anon same. I feel like I'm no better than those cringey girls on tiktok that say they are sooo gay but only date men. I have almost dated girls a few times but I always chicken out and sabotage it. Part of me feels like I'm not good enough to date girls so I settle for mediocre scrotes. Sometimes I think I'll go my whole life not ever dating a girl because I can't get over my internalized homophobia.

No. 985749

I hate upper middle class parents white suburb autists (also mixed race had a /pol/ phase ‘I was too x for the y kids too y for the x kids blah blah blah’ suburb autists) so much. For all the 4chan talk of normies or npcs or fluoride stare or whatever I’ve never felt that I’m closer to something truly Unhuman than when I have gazed into the abyss that is the dead eyes of a mouth breathing white suburb autist. The once sweet sonic the hedgehog child of some statins dad and benzo mom who will now ruin their lives when he inevitably becomes autistically fixated on either overcompensating for his sterile sheltered upbringing with try hard edgelordism and/or driving himself to actual psychosis trying to rationalize the fact he has literally never experienced hardship but (correctly) identifies that despite this he is still the most deeply miserable, fundamentally unloveable ‘human’ being on earth. Both types doomed to become yet another worthless waste of space snivelling puddle of snot tfw no 9 year old housewife gf to Pair Bond with and/or We Need To Talk About Men’s Health tfw no 7 foot mommy gf boo hoo tendy nuggy cozy goo goo ga ga

No. 985756

Found out some childhood friends of mine who ended up getting together died. Murder-suicide. Apparently it was because she wanted to take a break and he shot her. It's fucked up because he was praised as a good man of the community. Worked with children, had a good education, lots of charity work, his family loved him. I thought he was a good man. Last time I saw him he made me feel so happy and good about myself. You just can't know and it scares me.

No. 985760

>>985522
this is why I am here, you all inspire me
>>985535
>>985581
yeah I can't imagine my teenage whims of going into animation becoming a reality with the rebecca sugarites of the world

No. 985762

>>985749
feel this one despite being somewhat one of the same

No. 985765

Turkish guys are so cute and I'm sad I can never marry one without having to become a fucking muslim

No. 985771

American economic mobility is a fucking lie. I work my ass off for years, worked all the way through high school and college and for fucking what? I'm worth 10 dollars an hour. I get rave reviews at work , had a good gpa from an R1 but no one lets me into anything better than destroying my body for scraps. I interview well and still get rejected. I have never struggled with self image or identity but I wonder if I've been lied to. If everyone who has been nice to me at work has been lying. "I'll be happy to give you a great reference!" "You're so smart you'll definitely get hired there!" "With a brain like that you can go anywhere" How about my brains on the fucking wall ? I should have known my place. I grew up with nothing and I'll die with nothing. I bet they were laughing at me in college for thinking it would get me anything better. Networking! Yeah, all that networking and I get offered jobs I can't even afford to move to take. My field was good when I entered college, but it was a fucking bait and switch. 10 dollars an hour is all I'm worth now, less than my fucking high school job lol

No. 985772

>>985756
Holy shit that is horrifying.

No. 985778

I don’t like fighting with my mom. She went through far too much horrible shit in her life to not have some peace in her later years. I love her but she’s so fucking negative towards me, a boymom and sees me as a disgusting failure so I can’t help but argue with her. To some extent she’s right and I did fail to meet expectations I was capable of but shitting on me doesn’t motivate me to improve. I need positive influence. I’m so fucking needy for love. I seem dramatic when we fight but she doesn’t realize this is all an accumulation of me ignoring the mean comments she makes when I was younger. Younger me was so wrong… it wont get better when you get older. I wish I could go back and guide my younger self properly all she fucking wanted was a proper older influence. My older brothers were all useless rebels who don’t get half the flack I do.

No. 985779

>>985756
My condolences, nona. It's going to be a mindfuck because now you're questioning all your memories. Unfortunately people are good at hiding and deceiving. You can't truly know what someone is thinking even if you live with them. It's scary.

No. 985781

My entire life is just pretending to be normal & agree with people. I don't have any more energy for it. I will never feel fulfilled because if I drop the act it will make literally everyone mad at me, and therefore my life even harder. I don't have any friends anymore because when we moved into new stages of our lives I didn't take them up on maintaining the relationship since I honestly don't like them enough to keep it going. The type of life people aim for is unachievable for me. I don't see any point in continuing to put the effort in to live every day. I'm not depressed and I don't hate myself, so that's not the problem. If I hated myself my life would be easier because then I might try to change myself to fit in better, but I like myself the way I am. I've just recognized that my personality and beliefs are incompatible with human society. The thing that is making me most angry lately is knowing I'll have to wait to die until my parents die so they don't have to get upset about it. It's so fucking annoying because that means at least 20 or 30 more years of this shit. 20 or 30 more years!!!!! How am I going to keep doing this for 20 or 30 more years!!! 20 or 30 more years of having to feed myself and house myself and go out and work to get money just to feed & house myself, which I don't even want to do anyway! WTF is this shit? Being alive is like Chinese water torture but every drip is me having to do a daily task.

No. 985782

I have 80 pounds to lose and I do not want loose skin. I’m young and my genetics aren’t bad but I’m scared. I wish I would have NEVER let myself get so fat.

No. 985794

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Does anyone know what’s up with egirls using graphic lolicon on their profile and claiming to be against it? Picrel, granted the anon is a retarded twitterfag but still, I don’t get it.

No. 985799

>>985794
Egirls are groomed pickmes and they want to be edgy weebs

No. 985800

I wrote a rant replying to an anon from the news stories that fuck with you thread, figured this would be a better place to put it. Anon was saying that narcs and sociopaths should just be shot and I thought I'd share my own hot take.

>>775374
That last idea you have is a tough one for me. Blogpost but I work with youth in addiction treatment. Some have committed rape/sexual assault, consumed child porn, horrific stuff. They tend to have all sorts of defence mechanisms that prevent them from admitting responsibility, especially when they first come to treatment–in other words, they can't tolerate any perceived injustice towards themselves, they take being told "no" to anything as if it were a death threat. The ones who are more successful in treatment are the ones who are willing to admit what they've done in active addiction and are horrified by it. Most times they've kept using drugs to numb themselves from the truth of their selfishness. If they can understand that their disgust at their past self's actions is actually a healthy response, there's opportunity to flesh out a prosocial moral code they can take into their future relationships. In all cases I've witnessed so far, education on healthy relationships, consent, STIs, and reproduction is fucking scant, and don't get me started on the lack of prosocial adults in these youths' lives. Furthermore, it pisses me off to hear how the justice system punishes people who've committed crimes, especially when they're imo heinous crimes. For example, how does solitary confinement prevent a rapist from raping again once they've served their time? Either give them an earnest attempt at treatment or give them a bullet. There's really no half-assing it without devastating impacts on society. What's the point in torturing a criminal if they're just going to be released back into the community? Do you want recidivism? Cause that's how you get recidivism.

No. 985804

>>985799
There was a lot of e-drama a few months ago because she called some highschooler a pedo though

No. 985835

Finally confirmed to my mom that her 11-years-dead husband aka my father was cheating on her.

Nonnies, was this the right move? I wanted to give her closure as we were already having a very rare convo on how shitty the man was for over an hour and it just worked its way out (at last). But also it's been over a decade and I feel crappy unveiling this so long after, literally digging up old dirt. She says she already knew in her heart and isn't hurt, but I'm sure she hasn't fully processed yet…

I need a few days to process myself tbh, that I finally said it and to parse how I'm feeling, but yeah. Was telling my mom wise?

No. 985841

Retarded flatmate CAN'T keep her voice low when she comes home in the middle of the night and neither can't her friend who's staying in her room for who nows how many days and who showers for 15 mins straight with the open tab. Tonight they were chatting in a regular daylight tone of voice, as usual, until they started messing around with a broom because of course my flatmate wants to shower at 5 am in the morning and she's NOT dealing with a cockroach but I DO have to hear them. How about you don't shower at 5 am, sweetie? Then she proceeded to lock herself in the bathroom and talk on the phone, you guessed, in a totally regular tone of voice! Another flatmate who's bedroom is very far from there came and shushed her and naturally she was much more sorry about that than at the moment I confronted her friend with the broom. Her friend is the most unpleasant piece of shit. I didn't want to be unfriendly but I realised that asking politely through whatsapp is basically being a dormat. I am resisting my urge to beat them next time. I really want to do that. It's just so fucking tiring to wake up in the middle of the night knowing that people have zero respect on you. I want to comfront them today as calm as I can but I feel that it's not worth it, that they would probably pretend it's not such a big deal. But if I do talk to them and they respond so unpolitely I promise myself that next time I will go batshit crazy and beat them up.

No. 985865

>>985800
Rapists should be punished. They already get more rehabilitation than their victims so just lock them up in hell forever. They deserve to feel constant misery.

No. 985878

I'm so fucking annoyed at my ma for giving me a cold. I've had 3 days off work trying to feel better and no. Just not happening. I've had pcr tests to check for covid and it's just a bitch norovirus. I was suppose to do Christmas shopping this weekend and have barely been able to stand. I'm so mad.

No. 985879

>mom always whines how much tea we have
>I finish a box, second one is also almost empty
>tell her jokingly about it
>she insults me

What is WRONG with you? I know she resents me but jesus fuck she's seriously starting to go over the line. I only said I almost finished two boxes in a cheerful tone wtf.
If I was a leeching off of her I'd get it but I'm the one who pays the bills and food and everything else. Hope I'll eventually find a job that pays enough so I can move out and live alone.

No. 985893

>>985835
Personally I don't think I'd want to know if it had already been that long. It would make a possible decade long grief feel so bitter like maybe I could have saved myself a certain type of heartbreak. I hope you're both ok, especially your mom. As for the right move? I don't think there's any way for us to answer that.

No. 985894

I am so tired of existing lately. I was so highly anxious the last week I made myself sick. One of my teeth broke and its obvious the root/nerve is exposed now but my dentist appoint I had to get this fucker ripped out of me; they cancelled it and never called to let me know and everywhere is just booked up and I can't afford to go to an emergency dentist (and I don't know if I trust some of them due to bad experiences with previous dentists.) The one dentist I go to and made the appointment with is amazing; I had to get four teeth pulled in a day (major depression for years suuuckks) and I had no pain a couple of days after; didn't even need the pain pills they prescribed to me; which is a major reason why I made the appointment with them. I have to call tomorrow and rebook I guess and hope they'll see me in a couple of days.


On top of that my mom has to go back to the doctors/hospital to get an ultrasound done since they saw a mass in her mammogram and I'm trying to be positive about it but I'm having weird feelings about it. My mom and I don't have a good relationship.

No. 985895

>>985835
If her instinct told her he was a cheater maybe it's a good thing that you gave her a confirmation. I feel like we wouldn't be able to guess if you made the right decision without knowing your family very well first so I'm just giving my own personal opinion here.

No. 985926

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I've got one online friend who just has to be right all the time. And I have to be right all the time. It's like Thunderdome, but neither of us ever dies.

No. 985943

I don't really go on /pt/ and /snow/ anymore at all and I just did for a bit and I feel really bad. I never laughed at cows even before but now I feel especially bad and I don't think any of them are that bad. Luna, Moo and other female cows. The male cows are the worst. Sometimes I imagine that there's like 4 BPD vendetta chans posting in each of the girl's threads and I think it's a form of either self projection or lack of empathy.

No. 985952

idk why but this pissed me off maybe im just in a bitter mood. But i saw this random video on my youtube trending page i guess about a japanese newscaster changing her expression to talk about an earthquake after joking about shogi. And everyone in the comments is like "she's such a professional" "wow look at how rapidly her face expression changes from happy to serious" like duh she's a fucking newscaster talking about an earthquake im sure you can find thousands of videos of other local newscasters doing the same shit because…ITS THEIR JOB. i dont know why this pissed me off. I think its because its so transparent that its a bunch of weebs praising the fuck out of her because she's japanese. I bet if it was an american woman of any race the comments would be "its her job who cares" and probably call her a slut or something. idk im just annoyed by the transparency of how a lot of people online view japanese people as deitys its freaky. Shes cute so i know that plays a part. But i saw after she went viral the comapny she works for had her doing "anime poses" to attract more western audiences. Why do people view japanese people as nothing but anime characters irl its fucked and disturbng. Im also probably just hungry and need to eat breakfast. dont mind me.

No. 985954

>>985952
>Why do people view japanese people as nothing but anime characters irl
eh tbf if her company (I assume it's Japanese) made her do anime poses than it's the Japanese company exploiting that, not the western audience. The western audience just sees a super cute girl/woman, I think the cute factor plays a far larger part than the Japanese part does. If this was an ugly or even just an average Japanese woman, no one would've cared.

No. 985955

>>985952
Just viewed the video and I don't blame you anon. Weebs are so subhuman…so disgusting that their view of Japanese people is so warped due to it. They deserve to be hanged.

No. 985956

>>985943
i know what you mean! i dont like reading snow or pt either. I rememebr i used to read momokun's page back when she was still known for being thick samus. All i got was that yeah she is annoying, lacks boundaries, and is cringey, but do we really need to document every inch of her life and study it. Its fucked up. A lot of the people they are going after seem to just be no name sex workers to the point where im like what do a lot of you watch in your free time to even FIND these people enough to document every pube on their vaginas. I only go on snow now to read about frenemies because everyone is just shitting on ethan. And it feels nice to see at least one man be put in his place. I used to love reading about shane and voldemort too but tbh i forgot about them. THere needs to be more men in snow/pt I know a lot of you ladies were once pick mes who watched scrote content why not re-visit and call out the misogyny? its pretty simple though a lot of women on here do center men and hate women whether they realize it or not. Anyone that is documenting every lip fold of a random sex worker hates women just as much as any scrote imo

No. 985958

>>985952
Holy shit Nona you took the words out of my mouth, I remember thinking the same thing when I saw that video. She just changes her tone to match the story and the comments are like "wow look at that she can EMOTE what a queen" as if she's a dog or a child or something. It's so pandering and creepy, but you're right, it's cause she's cute/pretty. It's depressing how that seems to be the only thing that matters nowadays. Have a good breakfast though lol

No. 985961

>>985952
>after she went viral the company she works for had her doing "anime poses" to attract more western audiences
This makes me deep frown

No. 985967

>>985952
Not just Asian, they do this with foreign woman generally. I'm not a burger, but I've noticed it. Everywhere I've seen this vid posted has men saying how wonderful South American women are. If vidrel were a white North American woman they'd call her a vapid, attention seeking whore.

No. 985997

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I'm so stupid, nonnies. I wish I had a female friend again. I haven't had one in years after only having female close friends my whole life, and I miss it. Last night I stayed up till 5 am to plan out a handwritten letter with custom stickers and meaningful trinkets to cheer someone up. I wrote my final draft and I put a lot of thought into what I was saying, I ordered some adorable decorative paper to write it down on, I sketched out the stickers to finalize and print out later etc. but then he started acting in a way which made me change my mind. He doesn't deserve my cute letter or my effort. I need to tattoo 'don't be kind to scrotes' on my forehead, because I keep making this mistake, but I'm just really desperate for a good friend…
At least I really enjoyed planning the letter out. Makes me wish I had someone to use snail mail with

No. 986005

>>985893
>>985895

Thanks nonnies. I guess for more context: they were married for 20 years, but in the last 5 he purposely took jobs way out of town so that he could live separately from my mom and cheat on her. When he was home he was constantly angry and swearing and put the fear of god into me and my brother. When my mom tried to communicate with him he would shut her down and say things like 'it's all your fault' and so on. My mum openly said that if she hadn't had kids with him she already would have left him at this point, and when he died she mostly felt relief and grief for us.

However, the first decade they were married, and the decade prior to that where they were dating, he was incredibly sweet and thoughtful. The sort of man with upstanding character everyone praises. It was only when he settled down and had kids that things started going awry- he initially helped with the child-raising and all this, but by the time I started school he had checked out and a few years later he moved away and the cheating and drinking began, etc.

Before settling they lived very outgoing lives, travelling a lot, etc. My mom admitted to me that she believed he came to realize he did not want children or to be tied down by responsibility in that way, but was too much of a selfish coward to address anything.

Despite all this background, my mum has essentially lived a "frozen" life for lack of better words, holding a torch for the man he initially was in their marriage and living as a widow this whole time- rarely acknowledging the man he came to be and how he has hurt us all deeply with his actions. How can you move forward without facing the full truth? She has not dated (which is fine honestly, men are.. men), has not made any friends (all their friends were just my dad's friends back in the day), same house with the same decor, the same pictures on the walls, the same routine, etc. I don't know how else to explain but everything has been preserved in pristine in the same exact state. She is mid 50s but lives like an 80 year old almost. She is very dependent on me and my brother- she acts like her entire life boils down to being our mother and being a widow to her husband. She rejects almost everything modern, saying the past was better. It really feels like she justs wants to live several decades in the past perpetually. I could go on.

I have tried to get her to therapists (she won't go), I have tried building support networks for her outside of us children (she won't maintain them), I have tried changing things in the house, the routine, etc. (she won't engage) and I just. I just feel like she was incredibly hurt by my dad and would rather live in a delusion of an idealized past with him to cope with that- rather than confronting this and fully processing it and growing from it and letting go and moving on? Where she doesn't have to figure out who she is outside of the roles she fulfilled to her husband and children?

I just want her to be her own person and live a fulfilling life in the present, not what is being lived right now in this house that is just a tomb of past memories both good and bad.

I just really hope that confirming to her what she already knew gives her the key to actually acknowledging the full truth and move forward… I am sure in the short term it is going to get worse but in the longer term I hope this "unsticks" things and I can move her towards therapy finally…

I don't know nonnas I've really tried to do the best by my mom. And what she's doing isn't healthy. But I really don't know what to do anymore about it. I thought it would pass with time but it's been a whole decade now and it's still the same… I hope she can find better closure with the truth.

This turned into a whole novel, sorry about that.

No. 986011

>>985997
Be my penpal, nonnie! I've already started a correspondence with another gal on LC and I'd love another. If you're interested lemme know and I'll give you a throwaway email. I love snail mail and I put a lot of effort into mine as well!

No. 986014

>>985997
That's the cutest looking mail I've seen in my life, omg

No. 986021

>>985943
isabella janke doesn't deserve a single drop of empathy and is basically on the same level as male cows. and ambrose's drama is hilarious.

No. 986024

Trauma dumping and venting based off this post >>985975. Just didn't want to rain on anon's parade over there.
I hate that this movie exists. It was coincidentally released several months after I had an abortion when I was in high school. This movie made me feel like shit about it even though it was the best decision for me.
It really surprises me that farmers enjoy this movie, for a multitude of reasons. Like the scrotes in it suffer no ostracization nor consequences for their actions whatsoever. Okay, maybe we're just conditioned that teenage boys will always socially escape this matter–even my ex who got me pregnant went on to still be liked at school and knocked up a different girl the next year meanwhile I was bullied. The part that gets me is the adoptive scrote having a mid life crisis and divorcing his wife. He's not only betraying his wife, but fundamentally betraying Juno because she wanted her baby to be raised by a happy couple. We never hear about him again.
Not to mention the twee anti-choice protestor girl convincing her to change her mind to have an abortion cause fingernails. Seriously? Besides that, antis are never young, matter of fact and sweet like that. I know because I volunteered security at a clinic that offered abortions. Nope, these protestors are often old churchfuck bitches and intimidating men holding up their graphic signs and shouting what horrid murderers everyone who steps foot in the clinics are. The only time young people show up to protest at clinics is on weekends at 9am for three hours because their congregation forced them to go. They don't give a fuck about babies.

Of course the part about childbirth is completely glossed over in the movie as well. Spinal tap and shit's golden, easy peasy. Page's character goes back to her normal life with no healing or aftercare mentioned and her and the Cerascrote get another chance to work it out. Because that's totally how traumatic events are processed in a movie that attempts to hipsterize a serious issue while writing the mc as a quirky coolgirl to soften things. I hate, hate, haaaate this shit.

No. 986032

I hate that i study hard, get good grades, but then 1 bad quiz or lab work makes my letter grade drop. I fucking hate my major and i still force myself to have 6-8 hour study sessions. Why did i choose engineering i fucking hate it so much.

No. 986033

>>986032
>Why did i choose engineering i fucking hate it so much
Said every engineer I've ever met. I'm sorry anon. I admire how hard you work!

No. 986043

>>985997
This is wholesome, I hope you find a gal pal.

No. 986048

It was a year today that I was found and put in the coma. Nobody remembered, not that I expected them to. I'm in a reflective mood.
People like to say, "just hang on! Things will get better, I promise!"
But when are they supposed to get better? I survived and everything just continued to get worse. I lost my scholarship and my lectureship. I was crippled and I'm still on thirty tablets a day to manage the resulting pain. I was sexually assaulted in hospital. I'm completely broke. My body looks disgusting, absolutely torn to bits - my lithium nurse openly wept when she last saw the state of my body and then called an ambulance.

The last time posted in /ot/ was back in August after I took a colossal overdose and wrote "DNR SORRY MUM" on my chest. I made a bet that if I survived an overdose of three times the lethal dose then I would accept that I'm in the timeline where I'm not fated to die yet. I had been getting spam emails which said strange things about a message from the other side and I took it as a desperate message from my forgotten soulmate in another version of reality that I needed to jump timelines which is what triggered the OD. Either I'd meet my soulmate or I'd learn I was fated to stay here. As it happens, it's the latter and I feel so fucking lonely.

I got booted off my therapy programme for being too difficult and the other week I got escorted out of the mental health outpatients for threatening behaviour. I don't think I did anything bad, I begged her to tell me what the future looks like for somebody like me. I'm so desperate for something to change or improve but I'm just here and alive for no reason, weighing everybody down yet unable to die. They've put me on lithium and the only thing it's done is make me violently and copiously vomit in public.

Everything is so ridiculously fucked. The only thing that calms me down are my husbando audios and fanarts, but the absolute shame of relying on fujoshit to cope makes me want to commit sudoku all over again. I think about how my mum imagined my future when I was born; it probably wasn't living at home aged 29, crippled and NEET, spending my days looking for pornographic drawings of fictional men and cutting myself unconscious. I'm human garbage. I should have died I should be dead

No. 986052

>>986024
im sorry you went through that. I like Juno but I've never thought about it like that, so thank you for sharing.
I dont have children but sometimes I feel there's a conspiracy to convince women childbirth isn't actually a horrific, painful, traumatic mess. I read the body releases crazy hormones after birth that makes you forget the worst parts because otherwise no woman would have another child. I've also heard women in labor screaming about "why the fuck they would do this again", so I agree with you about the labor/aftermath.

No. 986056

>>986024
I totally agree with you anon. I hate how any time there’s an unexpected pregnancy in movies, the story always makes it clear that the characters support abortion, but the pregnant character ~would never do it uwu~ and then goes on to have a perfect pregnancy. Things like career/education setbacks or serious adverse effects/healing time of pregnancy are glossed over or barely mentioned. Knocked Up was another big movie at the time and it was so infuriating.

>even my ex who got me pregnant went on to still be liked at school and knocked up a different girl the next year meanwhile I was bullied.

You’re not alone here. I haven’t been pregnant, but I knew other girls at that age who were (shitty ultra religious small town with zero sex education) and nobody ever held the dads responsible. The girls all kept their babies and still got shittalked for being slutty.

No. 986058

>>986032
Idk about you but my highschool basically brainwashed the girls to apply to stem

No. 986062

>>986048
I cannot hope to relate to your situation as there is such a vast gulf between us in experience. But I am thinking of you, anon, and I pray that things will improve for you. Fujoshit is blessed to you and if that's what is allowing you to see beauty in life, I say pursue it. I am proud of you.

No. 986065

>>986058
fuck off retard

No. 986068

>>986048
I wish I could just hold you and never let go.

No. 986070

>>986048
i just want to say that this only happened a year ago so you are still most likely traumatized by your experience and your trauma is probably convincing you that you should die. Its going to take your body a long time to heal and I know its hard but you have to be patient with it. YOu dont have to listen to me because i havent experienced what you have. I just don't think you are a waste of space or whatever you said. Its horrible that your life got upended and honestly its fucked that you lost your scholarship. But I feel like if they had knowledge on what you experienced i am pretty sure they would re-instate it. Also im pretty sure your mother would rather have her daughter watching fujoshit in the safety of her own home then have to lose you again and permanently. She doesnt think you are a failure. You experienced something most people may never its a lonely experience so its understandable that you feel lonely. I cant tell you when it gets better and im sorry that i dont have the answers but all i can say is maybe whenever something makes you laugh, smile, or feel like life is worth living even for a little bit i hope you can internalize it. No matter how angry, sad or depressed you get something throughout the day is bound to put a smile on your face and i hope you relish those moments. You can curse me out if what im saying is corny bullshit that does nothing for you. I just don't think you were meant to die feeling lonely and unloved. I wish you the best nona~

No. 986071

>>986058
just because you weren't smart enough for a STEM degree it doesn't mean that's why anon is struggling and that girls should ignore stem or something.

No. 986087

I see people in my cohort hang out without me all the time and I’m tired of thinking about what I’m doing wrong that they don’t invite me or if I should even care because half the time I don’t and sometimes I do. Anyway gonna take a hike and try to forget about it lol.

No. 986091

>>986087
Ok now I’m looking at everyone’s Instagram stories and it really does look like almost everyone was invited to this get together and I had no idea of it? I see how it is lol

No. 986112

>>986091
Honestly you’re probably better off without them anon. These type of people most likely don’t even like each other and have feuds all the time within their group it’s exhausting
You’ll find better genuine friends just learn to enjoy your own company Idk if it’s because Im a schizoid but your hike seems more fun than going to a party full of these people

No. 986139

Why couldn't I have had dad issues like everyone else I just want my mom to fucking love me

No. 986140

>>986087
My best friend and I have always experienced this, individually and as a pair. We've been friendly with many, many people over the years, but whenever they do the planned hangouts we are the only two who go uninvited. We're definitely not annoying or anything lol, so idk maybe people just don't 'click' with us? Don't sweat it. Hope you enjoyed your hike ♥

No. 986141

I just really wanna know how do you guys cope knowing that you’re going through the lowest point in your life? Like when even small things has been going wrong and work/school/family all piling up on you for months, how do you stop yourself from going insane?
Last night, I pulled a muscle on my neck because I was so stressed and angry from work and my deteriorating grades also inconsiderate parents that make it so much worse, every time they see me they ask me to do so many things for them it’s so incredibly draining
So all I need to know is if someone has been in a similar situation where their life went to shit for months, how do you get through it? I can’t talk to anyone about it

No. 986142

>>986005
She needs to get her shit together by herself, taking her to a therapist without her wanting to actively improve her situation won't work, unfortunately. How old are you? What about your brother? Do you think your mother would start changing for the best if you two left and decided to live by yourselves somewhere else or would it make her even more lonely?

No. 986144

I've made so much efforts, I've tried so hard to change my life/myself but it's not getting better at all. In fact it's even worse than before. I'm so deceived and tired. I hurt so bad that I think about kms almost everyday. I consider it more seriously every week.

No. 986155

It's coming up to the anniversary of my abortion and I can feel myself getting more and more unstable as it gets closer. When it happened I felt absolutely nothing except relief, the situation I was in didn't allow me to process it at all, and I genuinely thought I would be unaffected by it forever. But the more time passes the worse I feel about it. I know it was the right choice; if I had had the baby we would have been trapped in a very bad situation. I'm not a christian but I do feel like I'm going to hell. It feels horrible knowing that the vast majority of people would judge me and be disgusted if they knew about it. Everyone I've told says that I did the right thing and I believe that too, but I still feel awful.

No. 986175

>>986048
Sorry anon but a woman who finds peace and happiness in fujoshit is a unironically a based fucking queen so when it all feels like shit just keep in mind that I wish you happiness with your husbandos. I'm pretty sure the creators of those characters would be happy to hear that something they made brings some joy to someone in your situation.

No. 986187

I'm trying to do this practice paper and I'm literally blanking on the most simple questions that I should definitely know

I fucking hate exam anxiety so much how am I supposed to progress in life like this

No. 986202

>>986024
First of all, a lot of hugs to you anon.
I never liked the movie for the reasons you mentioned. Plus it's just a super average teen movie, even taking the abortion issues aside. It's not that good.
Fuck Diablo Cody for making us suffer Juno and Jennifer's Body (Young Adult was okay AFAIR, didn't see Tully).

No. 986211

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I don't know why it is, but the slightest thing can put me off the mood when it comes to sexual stuff. Even through fucking text. I was trying to get all erotic while chatting with a guy and then he told me he's short on time and to hurry it up, and I not only did I instantly lose all sexual tension but I also broke down crying from the frustration. I don't know what's wrong with me. The only way I can enjoy sex is if the man never says anything off-putting or complete gives the lead to me anymore, since they really be trusted with the former. Why can't we live in a world where men are as sensual and gentle as women and aren't completely ruined by porn even before they reach the age of maturity?

No. 986222

I didn't do anything fucking wrong and yet I'm ignored again. I didn't do anything wrong, what the fuck is wrong with everyone??? I've been nothing but fucking nice and fucking helpful.

No. 986225

>>986202
>In light of Georgia’s anti-abortion law, she has stated that she has regretted writing Juno as it has been perceived as an "anti-choice" film.
A bit of a redemption kek

No. 986256

>>986142
My brother is 29 and moved to a different city within a few months of my father's death (at 18). I am 22, moved out (but remained in the same city) when I was 19 three years ago. She got worse when I moved out and she had to adjust. I am pretty sure she is lonely though she never acknowledges it. She has the house to herself generally. She holds a job part time for the last 7 years, which is her more reliable social interaction- along with the occasional chat with the neighbours. Right now I visit one weekend a month and she calls me every Sunday. My brother visits and calls a couple times a year.

I am considering moving further away when I am done my studies, but I'm not sure how she will manage without someone to rely on / to enable her. But, it's hard for me mentally to live in this city tbh. And I know I have to look out for myself as well, not just her.

I know I can't sort out her issues for her but it just makes me really sad to see her do this. I don't super understand how it happened but I am somewhat her caretaker I guess even though I am not really all that good at it. I wish she would genuinely get help and other support, and then I could leave without as many concerns knowing she's in a better head space with a fuller life. I do feel selfish saying it like this though.

Thanks for listening nonnie. I am going to discuss all this with my therapist in a few weeks but I appreciate the feedback. I don't usually discuss this stuff online tbh

No. 986328

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female-only imageboards (or ibs aimed towards being women only) are always so damn fun to browse, and honestly a breath of fresh air after being on 4chan for so long. like after browsing places like choachan and crystal.cafe and lolcow it's so tough to return to 4chan for anything. i hope these types of websites continue being made (and i especially hope the "fujochan" or whatever actually happens)

that being said i am never going to understand why men have to post on these sites. like i stg i LURK wizchan but i do not actually post there, and i never have. men are so obsessed with women while hating them enough to spam cp and gore and it's hilarious and sad

No. 986332

>>986328
>IBS
lol

No. 986350

>>986328
I went on wizchan maybe a month or two back cause I was curious and it was so cringe kek. I remember there was a skincare thread made and there were the typical "get out of here femoid!!" replies. This is why no one likes you nasty losers, because you think washing your face is a female hobby. They also call women succubi irc, but I doubt any women really want them at all to warrant being called that.

No. 986352

>>986332
HOW DARE YOU LAUGH AT POOP JOKES YOU FETISHIST

No. 986357

My mom constantly shames me and I’ve had enough of it. Sometimes it’s passive things like “I could never let my leg/armpit hair get that long. How do you stand it?”. Other times it’s just flat out in your face shaming followed by “it’s concerning”. Never about anything that actually matters though. Oh no, actual issues get brushed off with “go talk to someone else about it what can I do?”. I’m done with it all; the shaming, the questioning, the lying. I’m going to double down on making enough money to get out of here even if it means selling off things that have meaning to me.

No. 986358

>>986350
>This is why no one likes you nasty losers, because you think washing your face is a female hobby.
Men really do it to themselves.

No. 986362

>>986328
Yeah I stopped using 4ch frequently since. I only visit to go on the (hopefully majority) female generals I have watched.

No. 986376

>>986328
I would actually pay the server bill for fujochan out of my own pocket if it ever happened, anything to get a place where I can anonymously be a degen fujo piece of shit without underage twitterfags shaming me for problematic content or spergy antifujos chimping out for making their husbando gay

Either way I agree, Lolcow really helped me get over my pickmeism years ago and realize the importance of female-only spaces. I probably would've ended up trooning out if it wasn't for the farms.

No. 986378

>>986376
hard agree. i would've been a they/them enby if it weren't for farmers drilling in how stupid a concept that was

No. 986382

A childhood friend of mine has converted to Catholicism since her fiance's parents are that… Like why… She was Christian before so moving to a stricter, more misogynistic religion makes me wonder how much you have to not respect yourself to do that.

No. 986390

>>986328
>>986376
>>986378

Love you, queens

No. 986394

I wish my parents pushed me to pursue stem like my brother instead of art. Until I figure out what type of job that makes money I can do full-time (without going insane), I am stuck in minimum wage jobs. I am so tired of working with the general public, every interaction feels so forced and I hate being insincere.

No. 986395

>>986350
a lot of it is cringe, yeah. i only go there for a few /dep/ threads (the one concerning wageslavery especially)

No. 986396

You are literally too stupid for it to be healthy for anyone to consider what you have to say about anything. You produce nothing of value, so kindly shut up.

No. 986403

>>986382
Catholics are Christians though, what do you mean?

No. 986405

I wish I could just lay in bed and do drugs all day for the rest of my life. Can't wait to get my own place some day. Whenever I take benzos I just feel like everything is allright. I got 2 good friends, a loving family, cool coworkers and a cute guy started talking to me! I'm happy. I wish I could always be happy. Chill is the day! sage for autism

No. 986406

>>986403
That's true, but what I mean that she was the type of Christian that went to Hillsong concerts. Anyway, the point is that she was enough of a pushover to convert into Catholicism which is full of pedos etc.

No. 986409

I'm so stressed out about my weight. I recently broke up with my ex boyfriend and moved back to my hometown after being away from my family for two years. Last year before we broke up, my boyfriend expressed concern that I was gaining weight rapidly and that he worried about my health. When I returned, my family and friends commented that I'm skinnier now than before I moved away. I never weigh myself and I always wear oversized clothes due to body issues, so I can't really measure what's true and what's not. I really want to work on myself, but I'm going mad having people comment on my weight and having different views on it. I never ask for these comments or invite them by talking about my diet etc. I wish people would just leave me alone, because I truly can't tell by myself and I'm feeling like I can't trust what I see in the mirror anymore.

No. 986411

my dad is such a fucking scrote when it comes to emotions, every time he's mad about something he completely lets him overcome him to the point where even trying to calmly and softly reason with him earns you little more than a grunt IF YOU'RE LUCKY, because you can talk to him in the nicest, calmest way possible and he won't even have the human courtesy to reply to you until you prod him multiple times. he's a good dad overall but this is such a retarded, scrotey aspect of his personality it makes me mad; i get being upset but you're a full adult with full control of your actions; if i can learn to breathe and walk away from the situation that upsets me or use my words then so can you, bitch

No. 986413

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Spent the entirety of last week crying at everything and anything, and now that my period has officially started, I’ve been seething with anger. Menstrual cycles are an absolute blast hahahahahahaaaaaaA how do i keep myself from self-destructing

No. 986430

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I havent eaten in 4 days,i havent bathed in over a week, i havent brushed my teeth in over a month, and my latest suicide attempt failed again because i purged the pills at the last second.I have no ambitions in life and no job.

No. 986433

>>986430
pls brush your teeth anon

No. 986435

>>986430
is this the toothbrush anon form discord?

No. 986436

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Suicide apartments

No. 986437

>>986409
Weigh yourself and figure out your BMI. If you’re in the healthy range, don’t worry about it. Repeat once a year or whatever.

No. 986439

>>986406
Idk, I feel like catholic people tend to be the most ambivalent-about-religion of the Christians.

No. 986441

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Just cried because I got disconnected from Final Fantasy after waiting 3 hours to get into the game today because queue times are unbelievable.

No. 986448

>>986441
I don't play that game, is there another server bc that sounds insane

No. 986452

>>986448
All of the servers are like that if not worse :/ They just had a new expansion so everyone and their mom are trying to play.(:/)

No. 986453

>>986328
Who knew, not having to be exposed to your kind being degraded and treated as nonhumans means a better browsing experience.
>i LURK wizchan but i do not actually post there
They have some interesting obscure stuff from time to time, so slow though. I read that they have only a few participating ppl, yet 1000's of lurkers.

No. 986454

>>986350
You have to agree though it's like the mildest least offensive shit, talking extensively about women is banned, so it's bearable to lurk.

No. 986455

>>986411
Some ppl like to be left alone when they're angry? I'd honestly prefer your dad to mine, who seethes and then prowls around the house screaming and ordering everyone.

No. 986467

Am I okay? Am I stupid? Am I too fat? Am I too thin? Is this the best haircut for my face shape? Does this feel normal? Is this right? Do I talk too much? Should I switch fields? Should I stop lying about my salary? Should I lie harder about my salary? Am I holding myself back? If not, then who is?

No. 986473

I feel ugly. Especially because of my face freckles. I paid for laser to get them removed but the clinic scammed me for all these extra treatments I didn’t really want but agreed to because I’m a weak pushover. So I ended up spending thousands and the freckles are still there.

No. 986477

>>986473
Is it really a scam if you knew what they were doing

No. 986479

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>>986473
Hada Labo Premium Whitening Lotion. Also wear sunscreen.

No. 986480

>>986479
I am not gonna whiten myself. Are you a self hating SEA?

No. 986482

Dealing with depression induced stupidity and slowness is so fucking annoying. Nothing like making ppl think I'm a retard to make me want to go back to being a neet.

No. 986483

>>986480
It fades age spots and freckles, not the actual skin. This isn't bleach.

No. 986484

>>986480
Whitening in Asian cosmetics refers to fading blemishes you presumptive bitch

No. 986486

>>986439
Nah. You haven't met devout Catholics…

No. 986487


No. 986489

i remember why i dont take adderall now! i picked my face for 3 hours and fucked up all my progress. i was supposed to clean my room and do schoolwork. im gonna try to clean still but god i cant even look at myself its so depressing im really sad now

No. 986490

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I feel like I want to sperate myself from who I am or where I am from because of the sexual and physical abuse I endured. I can't relate to the people or culture I feel. Nobody did anything when shit like that would happen. People love the guy who did this to me. I also believe this is where my disdain for excessive religiosity derives from; people view the family who did what he did to me as a man of faith. It is a all a lie. I sometimes wonder how or why people can lie to themselves so egregiously. I can never understand blind faith in what is torn to tatters after a few seconds of thought. I feel like I can never see the good in people because of this. I have been called a liar so many times, enough times to just shut the fuck up about my life or who I am. This just incentivizes me to distance myself further from what I am. I believe it is for the better if I manage to distance myself from such a deluded community.

No. 986501

i have to wake up early to cook dinner in the morning so that i can study for the whole day uninterrupted when there are 2 lazy moids at home doing fuck all. fucking hate this family.

No. 986503

>>986501
Laxative in their drinks

No. 986507

>>986501
>>986501
slowcooker meals are your friend.

No. 986510

tired of "redditspacing" i've never been to reddit outside of asking quick questions or reading product reviews, i do not know the culture of that site, when i place a line break between my thoughts it's just that: a line break. a paragraph break. the separation of one thought from the other so the text is easier to read.

shut the fuck up about it

No. 986514

>>986510
A single sentence is not a paragraph and it's actually more difficult to read.

No. 986515

>>986514
Samefag also it makes the post stand out from everyone's.

No. 986518

>>986514
>>986515
https://www.google.com/search?client=firefox-b-1-d&q=can+a+paragraph+be+a+single+sentence
it only stands out because of retards who quote these posts with "GUHUHUHUUH REDDIT SPACING DOOUHHHOOOOOY XDDDD"

No. 986519

Am I crazy for thinking it’s weird af that my boyfriend’s neighbor waited outside to see his dog that has been sick? He made a post asking for prayers on Facebook. She commented on the post, then went outside to wait for him to walk his dog. He avoided her while he was outside, then she sent him a message on fb saying she wanted to see his dog and asking what was wrong with the dog. I told him not to reply to her that’s he already publicly commented what was wrong and if she cared she would have just read his post.

No. 986536

my friend of damn near 5 yrs went ftm during the pandemic (i think? honestly haven’t seen her irl in a long time but we still keep up with each other relatively frequently…but kinda just showed up as a manlet one day) and i completely played into it because she’s my friend and i do love her and wish her well. recently i think she’s de-tranning since she’s been posting more feminine looking and is growing her hair back out. however, she did claim to be a gay trans male so i honestly have no idea what the hell is going on anymore and i did use masc pronouns for her and i feel weird bc it seems like she’s detransitioning ? normally wouldn’t gaf but like i said she’s been my friend for a while and she’s pretty cool past all this chaos. i do want to ask cause i honestly can’t keep up with the attention whoring but it’s just so awkward some people are weird about that stuff and people asking questions.

No. 986565

I don't usually talk about my mental illness or be that open even in my private social media accounts. I always feel bad reaching out to friends even when they offer to do so. Finally snapped and just poured my heart out on the timeline (it's basically a group chat since there's only like 10 people and we all follow each other) and now i feel so shitty again. I feel like i'm suicidebaiting or attention whoring my friends. Maybe that's what i'm doing. Saged because idk if this counts as a vent really kek

No. 986567

I'm so sick of libfem bullshit and them worrying about men all the fucking time. This fad of men coming out with beauty companies (MGK, Harry Styles) and caling $60 nail polish ~~gender neutral~~ like the Ulta rep would machine gun you down if you tried to purchase OPI polish as a moid or some shit.
A site I go to has a post up about it and the comments are talking about how ~~hard~~ it is for men to wear makeup because they get called faggots in some countries. Boo fucking hoo? If a man can't wear eyeliner in a country without fearing violence what kind of conditions are the women living in? Even as American women living in a country where they're trying to outlaw abortion, do you seriously have nothing better to fucking worry about than the fact sometimes if a man wears eyeshadow he'll get made fun of?
It's not that I don't understand you can worry about multiple issues at once but this is such a non-fucking issue. Women still can't talk about feeling pressured to wear makeup without moids and libfems saying "it's a choice" but I'm meant to feel bad because David the non-binary lesbian got laughed at when he went to shake shack in full beat? and I do love the way they're making it a LGBT issue by acting like gay/bi men have a divine right to wear makeup.
Men's issues are a fucking laughable joke. If anything we need less men in makeup. James Charles, Jeffree Star, Nickie Tutorials and Manny MUA are responsible for convincing women they need full drag makeup to go to work everyday.

No. 986575

>>986567
Mens issues are caused by men. They only bring up mens issues as a way to imply womens issues should be ignored since 'both have it bad', when womens bad is rape and domestic violence, while mens is they don't get what they want all the time and they feel inferior.

No. 986578

my husband came back from a month-long work trip weighing like 10-15lbs less than when he left (he was already slim/fit to begin with) and he's currently in the mind set that he needs to be cutting back on anything sugar or carb heavy despite his lowered weight. ive been finally rid of my ED behaviors for a little over a year now and i dont want to be manipulative or make this all about me but its still so hard to see someone significantly fitter than you act like they need to lose weight. i see my husband as so hot, and me as so frumpy, i cant help but feel not good enough if even he isn't living up to his own standards. my husband has literally never said anything negative about my body so its nothing he's doing intentionally, but when you already think youre gross and flabby after years of starving yourself this sort of talk cuts right to the center of you. and the shitty part is, is that i dont want him to stop talking this way or to gain the weight back, and i dont want to tell him how its making me feel (that strikes me as using my history to manipulate him), i just …… want to lose weight again.

No. 986579

>>986565
as someone who's lost touch with nearly everyone in their life because i didnt want to burden them with my mental health issues and occasional instability, you are absolutely not attention whoring for reaching your limit on painful silence

No. 986584

>>986141
i journaled on my phone pretty much every day during my lowest point, the most depressing and self-deprecating suicidal thoughts ive never been able to say to anyone. it was a small relief to have someplace where i could organize my thoughts and be 100% open since i had not a single other outlet or person i could unload on. the journaling helped me from making any actual attempts on my life, but nothing started to get even remotely better until i got back on antidepressants. if youve been miserable with absolutely no relief for months, i would persue them as an option, even here in the US i was able to go to a community mental health office that had financial assistance

No. 986585

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i feel bad for being a woman in a stem field who's more or less only in it to get some easy job coding up databases or coding websites. i'm not going to make any real breakthroughs in this field (i hate to admit it, but i don't have the smarts, and i don't have the love for it either) and it hurts me. i feel as though i should be creating a new language or building programs to help us reach new planets or something grand and important like that; but i'm not.

i just want to be a simple office worker. have a stable, decently paying job, and enjoy my personal hobbies and form some strong friendships. apologies to every woman that's ever come before me who doesn't have my opportunities (and every woman period who does not)

No. 986590

I'll most likely end up spending New Years at home, watching the pets since they're afraid of loud noises, while my brother and mother will be out celebrating. The pets also all belong to my brother. Can't wait to be stressed as shit the whole day and then get some more shit thrown my way once they come home. Wonderful

No. 986594

>>986585
idgi, why do you feel bad? people have jobs to have a roof above their heads and something to eat, that's exactly what you're doing no?

No. 986617

I want to run away and live under a completely different identity so i dont have to deal with accidentally seeing my friends hanging out and having fun without inviting or asking me even though we live nearby. Im at my limit im about to an hero because of a fucking instagram post feeds kek. I feel like im hitting rock bottom mental-health wise and i have to hit a reset button somehow. I fucked up nonnas

No. 986624

>>986585
This is true for everyone, men included. Very, very few make breakthroughs or even contribute anything of significance. So really you should be comforted by the fact you're not delusional.

No. 986636

>>986514
>more difficult to read
How? I have astigmatism and I can't read posts more than 4 lines long if there's no line breaks, I get confused which line I'm on so I don't even try to read them.

No. 986640

>>986590
So just don't do it? They're not your responsibility. I get wanting to prevent them being stressed from loud bangs and noises but that's how you end up getting used. The pets will survive a day of stress.

No. 986643

>>986585
Why the hell should you feel bad, nona? I'm a woman in STEM too and I'm a programmer, I'm just in it for the paycheck. Always been and will always be. It's relatively cozy work for a good pay and that's my number one reason to be doing it. I stopped caring about being the quintessential female STEM idol a long time ago when I realized that it's not worth it to keep attempting to prove yourself as 99.99% of moids work IT simply to get money, not to create technological breakthroughs. It's my god given right to be nothing more than a 9 to 5 worker waiting for the weekend, the savants who make the significant changes are either extremely lucky or blessed with opportunities.

No. 986652

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Being in love with someone so beautiful who is indifferent to my presence makes me feel so ugly, just a loser taking up space in a crowded world.

No. 986674

>>986652
even the ugliest woman in the world will always look better then a man, remember that nonnie

No. 986676

>>986674
what? this is retarded

No. 986683

>>986676
it's a retard pink piller, take no notice.

No. 986690

>>986676
Nayrt but makeup and fashion exist for a reason. I don't think anyone can be ugly if they do it well

No. 986698

I was super excited to finally try and practice using an empty barbell at the gym since ive been using my dumbbells at home for a year now. The program im following requires me to go warm up using a an empty barbell so i go in and do that and then i asked for help how to adjust the spotter arms on a squat rack and then one of the trainers go tell me to go practice my form using dumbbells instead and warm up and i just went ok. I know they mean well but it sorta ruined my mood and i went home early and did half of the program i was following. I wanna cancel my gym membership and look for another gym but they charge so much for a fucking cancellation fee kek

No. 986705

>>986683
>>986690
I'm not a pink-piller, In fact I like pretty boys but I hate seeing girls who demean themselves and their femininity for so called "beautiful men" especially kpopoys and drag queen with comments like

>"oh he's so much prettier then me"

>"why is he a better looking then girl I am :("
>"not worthy of standing near him, he's falwless"
or this entire comment section

I always find this shit so fucking offensive and pathetic, TIMs and "femboys" are a perfect example that even the most beautiful males on the planet can never even pass as even ugly women

No. 986708

>>986617
cut them off

No. 986711

>>986705
I sometimes wonder about the motivation and psychology behind women swooning over these men, demeaning themselves and talking about how the crossdressing man looks so much prettier than their hideous ugly bio woman asses. Is it because they are desperate for men to be a bit more in touch with their feminine side so that they wouldn't be violent brutes all the time? Or are they relieved that men are finally doing their part in performing femininity so that they don't have to anymore? Because it can't be just pure virtue signaling handmaidenism, this shit existed pre-current wave of the trans trend. Someone should write a paper about this.

No. 986712

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>>986011
Wow anon, yes, please let me be your penpal! I didn't expect that answer. I've never done this but I'd love to try, and it makes me so excited!
I'll wait for your throwaway then

No. 986734

Work at vets, new hire we get is a guy. First night with him I explain that the blankets we have for the dog kennel are to be folded and organized by size and where to put them. Come back after being off weekend and nothing is folded and there’s just pile of blankets piled onto the back sink and shoved into shelves.

Why are me like this. Folding blankets takes literally three seconds but I guess his mommy does his laundry for him because bitch boy don’t know how to put away something as simple as a sheet of cloth.

No. 986736

>>986674
Ayrt. Thank you nonnie

No. 986738

I have so much trouble falling asleep, but then getting out of bed is even worse. I've been awake for three hours and I've run out of things to browse on my phone, my back is starting to hurt too. Time to start my stupid day way too late I guess. I'm so tired all the time, I think I could sleep forever

No. 986739

>>986712
Yaaaay! Here it is nona!

No. 986744

>>986711
I think they’re projecting. They know what they are saying isn’t true but they are so humble and woke for saying it

No. 986747

>>986585
>>986643
Is tech really that chill? I'm deciding between actuary/accounting and honestly dreading the further exams I have to take once I graduate just to be properly qualified

No. 986748

Not LC but fucking sick of being banned for unfair lengths just because mods don't like what is said. It's a circlejerk. If you don't have the exact same tastes and opinons as the mods & their minions then they watch you like a hawk to find a reason to ban you. Fucking losers.

No. 986750

>>986739
Nonnie, did you forget to add it to the mail field on accident? I added mine in case I missed yours

No. 986757

An abusive scrote from my childhood just tried to contact me on social media, and liking one billion photos. Im in no contact with the moid and he was a bullying, misogynistic rapey bastard. Here he is trying to act like nothing happened. How fucking dare he! How. Fucking. Dare. He. FUCK OFF

No. 986761

I hate leaving to go to work every day, I wish I could stay home and work on art more and be in my pajamas all day except for when I need to get groceries or something. If it wasn't for the fact that a lot of them are embarrassing as fuck and are fully dependent on their parents, I'd want to be a NEET. I'm not antisocial or anything, I just really hate that I have to leave my house at all.

No. 986798

>>986757
Time to block him !

No. 986818

Ladies I don't know who needs to hear this but you need to live each day of your life as if every moid you know is secretly a serial killer/serial rapist and wants to cause you harm. You shouldn't live in "fear", just always be vigilant and don't trust any moids ever (obviously family SHOULDN'T count but unfortunately, men are so fucking stupid, you might as well include family members as well)

No. 986845

>>986798
Yea he is blocked now sis. I blocked him before yet he has made a new account so I needed to do it again.

No. 986847

>>986818
Wrong thread, and absolutely retarded. I'm not living in fear of some boogeyman who I can incapacitate with a kick to the groin. You don't have to be on guard if you don't interact with men outside of what's necessary (work, one family get together).

No. 986849

>>986847
lol. Okay, I'm sure all the other women that have been raped and murdered also tried to "kick them in the groin" too. Newsflash, just because you don't choose to interact with moids doesn't mean they won't choose to interact with you.

No. 986850

>>986847
>I can incapacitate with a kick to the groin
If only

No. 986852

>>986847
I think >>986847 was being a bit too paranoid but you should be a little on guard men, unless your a genetic freak or a roided up female bodybuilder an average man can overpower you and it might seem hard to believe but kicking a man to the groin is fairly difficult, I've done Krav Maga where the instructor was wearing pad and 9/10 times my instructor would catch me and then throw me to the mat
kicking a man to the groin requires getting near them, which is the latest thing you wanna do against an attacker

No. 986856

>>986849
>women that have been raped and murdered
Vast majority of these were done in by husbands bfs exes and male family, so if you
>don't interact with men outside of what's necessary (work, one family get together)
Then your chances of this stuff happening drastically goes down. They also usually only go after weak targets (children, weak looking women, doormats). I'm not blaming women for getting raped and murdered but once I learned how to act confident and got abit of muscle they leave me alone. Stop acting like they're some supreme power. Unless you're in a third world shithole they can easily be deterred.

No. 986858

>>986852
Is it?? Maybe I'm a freak of nature then, I'd usually get a hit when fighting with male cousins.

No. 986868

That it'll be lonely this Christmas song came on this morning and I nearly cried at work. 2 Christmases ago I got cheated on by my boyfriend of 5 years. He was cheating the last 2 or more years and stopped hiding his addiction issues and 2 years on I should be over him but I am not. We had a fling at the start of lockdown because idk we thought it was the end of the world he couldn't score with all the bars closed and I was lonely and have abandonment issues. That lasted until August 2020 and then I went no contact and u can't even remember what the final straw was, but I'm still not over him even though he was an absolute bastard
He hit me
He humiliated me in front of friends
Plus cheated. So why do I still think of him when I hear love songs. I just want to get over him. I've dated two other men since him and there's just no passion or spark like there was with my ex. I hate that I still miss him and idk if its because my period is due or the holidays but I keep daydreaming about showing up to his house and just seeing what happens (usually sex). He could even have a gf I honestly have made a point to not keep up with him. I hate me.

No. 986882

>>986856
So if a vast majority of attacks happen by family and exes, how does not interacting with strange moids lower my chances?

No. 986896

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No. 986898

>>986896
Maybe what you said is just retarded.

No. 986900

>>986896
NTA but it's funny, you mention reading comprehension but I'm pretty sure I included family members in my original post.
>(obviously family SHOULDN'T count but unfortunately, men are so fucking stupid, you might as well include family members as well)

No. 986907

>>986856
I've honestly noticed this. After spending most of my adolescence getting beat by my parents and being picked on in school I finally found drugs and spirituality in adulthood and have learnt to fake confidence. Im also smart and come off well so as an adult with men I get acquainted with they're always so courteous and polite. I still don't know how but I even managed to not get car jacked by standing my ground against two cars of joyriders. Yes I've let boyfriends hit me but that's me having mental issues from being abused as a child. I've noticed men that don't break down your emotional support walls lol are easily intimidated or something. So I wish I wasn't straight also because if I could just be happy without men I'd be untouchable actually. I literally think I walked into my most recent job because the supervisor fancied me during the interview. And I will never sleep with him.

No. 986908

>>986856
>Unless you're in a third world shithole they can easily be deterred.
"Don't interact with men outside of what's necessary". A lot of women are raped and murdered by the moids they know personally and moids they HAVE to interact with at school and at work, so like I said in my original post, treat them all like rapists/murderers and don't trust them. I never said be afraid of them, retard.
>You shouldn't live in "fear",
I literally said watch out and just don't trust them.

No. 986911

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Overhearing my (dark skin) brother brag to my mom about the light skin girls he's dating and will eventually bring home to meet her while she's encouraging him to aim for light skin women. This shit is just disheartening to hear in your own home. Remember farmers to not think a scrote is "better" just because he was raised by a single mom.

No. 986914

>>986911
> Remember farmers to not think a scrote is "better" just because he was raised by a single mom.
UHHH this is absolutely not a thing that anyone thinks. They're always worse off. Spoiled, entitled, the list goes on.

No. 986917

It's stupidly hard to get a doctors appt in my area so when I started getting uti symptoms over the weekend I used a service I'd used years ago. It's an online consultation where they can prescribe you antibiotics for simple urinary infections. I filled out the form and paid the fee and today I was waiting for the email back to say when to go pick up my prescription. Instead I got an email back saying they can't go ahead with it because it could be an sti instead.

The only symptom I have is smelly urine, I had this exact same thing 3 years ago and it was a uti which I got treated using this same service with the same set of answers? I haven't even had sex in those 3 years either, not that they asked. I just hate how they tell you to treat UTIs as quickly as possible, to take them seriously from the start but.. my gp won't see me quickly, all pharmacies in my county shut on sundays and this service only delayed me rather than taking the workload off my gp or making it handier. Like I'm trying here. I used to ignore health shit for too long and now I'm getting better at it but I live in a rural area where shit just shuts shop and there's no walk in option. You ring the doc on a monday morn and he might be booked for the whole week ahead already.

No. 986921

>>986911
That's actually a thing? I thought it wasn't something men would explicitely brag about, more something subconscious or whatever. The only time I see people being explicitely colorist is outside of a romantic context, like for actresses and singers or beauty pageant contestants.

No. 986922

>>986818
> Ladies I don't know who needs to hear this but you need to
>>986911
> Remember farmers to not think a scrote is "better" just because he
Are we on twitter? Did we ask for this advice? lol

No. 986926

>>986914
I've seen so many anons here and other female circles when asking for "green flags" in a guy and that comes up. It's so true that they're almost always spoiled though, the mom usually uses them as a replacement for male validation.

No. 986927

>>986922
shut the hell up, it's lolcow. nobody asks for anything. we didn't ask for your criticism either but here you are

No. 986930

>>986927
Calm down, I'm just laughing at it sounding twitterish.

No. 986932

>>986921
Maybe because he's dark skin its something he's insecure about and projecting

No. 986942

>>986911
>>986932
I don't understand men who are like that, and I have light skin. Imagine being a dark skinned man, and you go on to be with a light skinned woman. What color do you think your kids will come out if you get her pregnant? They're going to be dark like you and all the women you verbally abused lmfao. Maybe a single shade lighter, if you're lucky. Get a vasectomy and stop running around darkening women's bloodlines if light skin is so important

No. 986945

>>986900
Your original post was psychotic fearmongering, and then you continued to derail the thread with your autism.

No. 986946

>>986896
I think some anons are actually illiterate.

No. 986948

Sick of my grandmother and her toxic bullshit. She's just a miserable old cunt who honestly needs to get out more, stop judging others, stop judging what my mother does or what I do. Sulks like a fucking 2 year old and ignores you until it suits her and she starts talking to you again. But until then you're made to feel like the bad guy. I can't wait to get out of his city, this house, I can't afford to and I'm saving up. Fucking hell, Covid needs to piss off. I wanted to work abroad and can't do that now. Especially with this new variant bullshit which is no doubt fake. AGAIN.

No. 986952

>>986900
>>986856
>Vast majority of these were done in by husbands bfs exes and male family
>>986917
I've seriously started thinking about just learning herb medicine bc the medical system might as well not be there at all, for how long you have to wait to get help. Fuck this "you have to go to the Dr to get permission for meds" shit.
>>986948
Some ppl never grow up. I get visceral disgust at these types, like how much of a charmed life must they have led to think it was ok to act like this?

No. 986953

>>986922
It's just some victimhood libfem ignore them

No. 986959

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FFXIV's story has promise, but it's execusion is absolute garbage. You can't discuss anything negative about it without people acting like anything constructive is invalid/it's the best story to grace a gaming platform. If it wasn't a MMORPG, it wouldn't get this reception.

No. 986960

I'm at a new workplace and I'm being polite to other newcomers. I strike conversations and one person said I looked uninterested while she is talking which I've never heard before. Like yeah I'm not clapping along and being my usual self, I'm professional and friendly. I assured her that isn't the case which is true. Today in the morning I said good morning and asked what she was doing, she started explaining but stopped and said "I cannot take this anymore, you look awful, don't ask me any more questions." Like bitch, it's okay if you don't want to talk, just say that, why the fuck are you insulting me? Literally no one else thinks this way about me including other coworkers? If I wasn't in a work environment I'd rip her face off. She is 10+ years older than me and had a fucking anxiety attack over nothing and left during one of the trainings. She was also insulting me left and right, telling me she was surprised I was smart because "I didn't look like it" and shit but I was trying to tolerate her because she was getting used to our language. I tried to give her the benefit of the doubt, thinking she didn't quite get the language quirks yet. She's privileged as fuck and comes to insult me for no reason. It's petty but I hope something bad happens to her in her social life.

No. 986972

>>986970
But I did want to talk as I mentioned before. I was interested. Even if I didn't she still had no rights insulting me like telling me I didn't look intelligent etc.

No. 986975

>>986959
i did the trial for ffxiv up to like level 15 and i just dont get the appeal

why would i want to play an MMO like it's a fucking single player game

was playing with my husband and we had to sit through our individual story cut scenes it was such a drag

No. 986976

all the country threads are stupid, this is becoming like reddit

No. 986979

I miss so badly when I was a teenager and had a close group of friends. We could have fun and be silly. And it's so special to have a best friend, or one person who you feel so in sync with. I've erased my presence on social media long ago, I moved several times, burned many bridges so I have only one friend now in a different state. I just want to sleep over at a friend's and watch stupid movies or stay up and play video games. I'm about to move again and I keep beating myself up over not having friends. The older I get, the harder it will be to fix my social anxiety. I'm pressuring myself to figure out ways to make friends in my new city. I want to try to have online friends again because that should be less nervewracking but I still get worried that I'm too boring or clingy and end up ghosting.

No. 986992

>>986941
Hope it's nothing too major and that your cat will be well soon, anon

No. 986994

>>986960
Stop being a doormat and throw it back in her face, "I look awful? You need to review how to act at work manual, boomer"

No. 986999

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>>986976
Agreed, it's just sperging about food and regional differences, which can be done on reddit or other int chans.

No. 987005

>>986999
Why would you subject yourself to a male online space

No. 987006

>>986976
Agreed its so annoying and clogging up the first page

No. 987008

>>987005
It's the exact same scrotey behavior in these threads so you shouldn't mind. "Hurr food sucks this isn't real pizza, ree immigrants, fuck Quebec" etc. Literally no difference

No. 987015

>>986976
I don't know about the other country threads but the Finnish thread has a lot of local milk and chill Finns shooting the shit about it

No. 987021

>>987005
Exactly. My country's reddit is full of sexist scrotes making porn jokes.

No. 987030

>>987006
>>987008
Just minimize the threads then? In Canada you get autobanned for saying anything bad about minorities on big media sites. Let Canadian anons vent.

No. 987031

I've come across a few videos on tiktok where people were like "stop demonizing npd!" "Npd acceptance!" "Calling people sociopaths is ableist towards people with aspd!" Npd being narcissistic personality disorder and aspd being antisocial personality disorder, aka sociopathy.
Am I on crazy pills? Why the fuck would I want to accept narcissists and sociopaths let alone care about hurting their fee fees? These people should be demonized. Most of these people actively hurt and abuse others and don't give a fuck about it. How the fuck are people dense.

No. 987037

>>986976
>>987006
there's a minimizing option, use it. I've got a shitload of threads minimized.

No. 987039

>>987031
Not sure about ASPD, but a feature of NPD is that they're extremely sensitive and easily hurt despite how horrible they are to people. That's why they're begging to be coddled.

No. 987047

>>986976
I hate them too, I don't even want to participate in my own country's thread. I've hid all of them though, so it's not a big deal.

No. 987050

>>987037
Can't do that on the catalog

No. 987053

>>987050
So? Just ctrl+f the thread you want.

No. 987056

>>987039
>>987031
The ppl peddling it have mental illness and young impressionable dumb kids lap it up and spread it across the internet.

No. 987070

I lost my virginity to a 23 year old at 15 who I had been "dating" since I was 13 I will never ever be loved really glad I fucking ruined myself I want to die

No. 987072

>>987070
What do you mean you will never be loved? Because you're not a virgin?

No. 987073

>>987072
yeah and the fact the sex was so degrading and violent

No. 987076

>>987031
There's something like this popping up lately in true crime communities. People extending way too much empathy towards the criminal and not towards the victim or their family. The criminal becomes 'the poor underdog' in their eyes because everyone hates him.. well yeah they hate him for good reason. People are hated for much less than the shit these fuckers do.

No. 987077

>>987073
Nta but please tell me the scrote is dead or rotting in a shithole or jobless or homeless now

No. 987079

>>987073
I'm so sorry you went through that. You not being a virgin doesn't mean you won't be loved though, the only men who care about virginity are pedophiles and perverts. If you can find a way to cope with what you went through I am absolutely sure that you will find love. You didn't ruin yourself either. You don't have to take responsibility for what he did to you, it's on him you were literally a child.

No. 987085

I hate loud noises I hate noises overall I hate when you grunt and snort and do all the fucking noises possible please leave me the fuck alone please please please please I'm so tired of your noise

No. 987087

At this point I wonder if I have noise sensitivity because its fucking annoying

No. 987101

sank my heart into an OC for an rp guild for some MMO i like to play for over three months only to have it crash and burn today.

here's to hoping the next one has nicer folks, fellas.

No. 987111

>>986960
She sounds like a freak bitch. I had an encounter with a bitch like this when I was in my early 20s. She is most likely mental and the less you take in of her the better

No. 987120

>>986960
What a disgusting bitch. I can't wait til I'm older and I can be sweet and reassuring to younger women, this shit just makes me mad.

No. 987125

>>986960
reminds me of when a chronically miserable older female coworker kept insulting me bc I wore makeup, would walk up to my cubicle and have coughing fits around me because of my "perfume", kept implying I was too dressed up, etc. It was my first real job after being an agoraphobic neet and I really wanted to never work around others again. And I bought a bunch of stylish office wear bc I thought it would help me fit in kek

No. 987128

>>986960
>had a fucking anxiety attack over nothing and left during one of the trainings.
Well let's see what happens first- her getting the boot or throwing it in herself. Don't mind the cunt anon, some people are just nasty for nasty's sake.

No. 987132

I never thought I would meet someone who acted like a cow in one of my circles. An annoying blonde e girl who's only personality trait is being loud and sex. Complains about her parents who let her move back in so she can have more time to stalk a guy who finds her creepy. Will also show off new iphone and air pods her "abusive" parents bought her. Mid 20's. Kicker
will tell you a sob story about how she was bullied in high school for being so nerdy and pretty. In actuality she was the school bully.
Obviously buys twitter likes cuz most of her content will have 10 likes but then random posts will have 2k but no comments

No. 987138

I am the anon that broke up with her bf because he waches porn and I am here to report that it is fucking hard. I oscillate between crying, reading a ton of shit about pornography to make sure it was the right decision, get horrified and sad that he chose porn over me, think that I shoud have tried harder to convince him… And everything is closing down around me due to fucking covid, my studies do not distract me in the slightest now that they are online. Fuck everything. I am crying now.

No. 987140

>>987138
And I want to know how he feels so much… Does he regret it? Does he think that I am crazy? Does he know or care that I was so stringent because I could see myself spending years, or even my life with him?

No. 987148

>>987138
Most guys watch porn once in a while (And some girls as well)
As long as they don't get porn sick over it. If you saw yourself getting married to him, was he really all that bad?

This reminds me of the guys who dump their girlfriends when they find out they still have dildos and use it instead of the guy.

No. 987153

>>987148
PICKME SCUM A GUY I WAS JUST FUCKING THREATENED TO MELT MY BAD DRAGON DILDOS WITH A DAB TORCH NOW TELL ME THAT'S FEMINISM(https://lolcow.farm/info)

No. 987156

When I didn't live with my boyfriend I never thought about him cheating on me but now that I do live with him I think about that all the time? I wish I weren't so insecure. I have BPD so I feel like he will just move on and be with someone unproblematic.

No. 987157

>>987153
I don't know why this was the funniest thing I read today. I need to get off the internet for today

No. 987158

>>987148
she has her standards, let her have them

>>987140
who cares what he thinks, he is a literal monkey, keep dating and vetting heavily, men are like busses and trains: theres always another one coming

No. 987159

>>987148
Sure anon, watching women get raped/abused in porn is totally the same as having a dildo.

No. 987162

>>987159
Right kek what kind of retarded comparison

No. 987165

>>987148
I watch porn, I own a dildo.. I only feel shit about one of those habits. Its not the dildo.

No. 987171

>>987157
Same, kek

No. 987172

>>987148
I don't feel like it's the same at all. I am against porn for ethical reasons and because it warps expectations for sex. I am completely ok with masturbation.

>>987158
I feel like maybe I should take some time to myself. I'm realizing that I need to actually do something about my sexuality. I recognized it's been destroyed by porn a long time ago but I haven't really made steps to recover except to become abstinent. I am a doormat sexually, I try to please all the time and try to conform so I didn't feel comfortable doing it with him because there were clear signs that some of the stuff he liked was because of porn (wanting to try anal, folding me in half, lots of spanking, always putting his hands around my throat. Never got a clear answer on whether he wanted to choke me or not). My sex life is all fucked up because of porn…

No. 987175

>>987159
There's some porn without the rape and abuse of women though, some that don't involve women at all.

No. 987177

>>987175
>moving goalposts
Because her boyfriend was totally watching gay porn right? Dumb bitch

No. 987180

>>987175
Anon please, it's literally impossible to know if the woman isn't being coerced or trafficked behind the scenes.

No. 987181

>>987175
Would you rather your moid watch gay scrotes being raped then?

No. 987183

>>987172
nta but i hope you experience romantic loving sex one day nona i'm sorry about your ex

No. 987184

>>987172
You sound like me anon, I hope things get better

No. 987186

>>987181
>>987180
>>987177
lol you stupid bitches are assuming I'm strictly talking about anons boyfriend when it's clear that the conversation moved away from that point when users started talking about THEMSELVES and their OWN porn habits. fucking retards.(calm down)

No. 987190

>>987138
you have standards, and if porn is a deal breaker for you then you did the right thing.

porn is a deal breaker to me too. when I told my bf I wasn't comfortable with him looking at porn, he stopped. I told him the porn industry is evil, it rots your brain, and porn feels like cheating to me.
he agreed the porn industry is evil. he only looked at solo amateur bc of this, but he cried a bit when I told him it felt like cheating because he felt so bad.
he said if I were looking at porn of men, he'd feel the same way. he said he understood and never wanted to make me feel that way again because he loves me and wants a future with me.

it is possible to find a man like this. you did the right thing nonna.

No. 987200

>>986643
>the quintessential female STEM idol
you put it into words. i keep thinking i NEED to be the woman who inspires younger women into taking up tech, and it sucks

>>986747
no idea, i'm still a student

No. 987201

>>987186
>when it's clear that the conversation moved away from that point
No it didn't. Your reply was to the one person that pointed out your retarded comparison. Seethe more in your stupidity.

No. 987204

>>987184
Where should we start?

No. 987209

>>987153
Can you even ruin a silicone dildo with a flame?

No. 987222

>>986624
i'm still a student and i am retarded but i hope i contribute anything even if its miniscule significance

No. 987227

>>987204
Fuck if I know. I try to fantasize more about pleasant/vanilla things, hopefully it causes the connection with bad things to go away with time

No. 987230

>>987079
Thank you, this makes me feel better about it

No. 987236

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I don’t see a tiktok/instagram hate thread so I’ll put this here wtf is wrong with people? I’m already put off by people using their kids for internet clout but what the fuck, is this bitch trying to throw her daughter to pedos?

Picrel is her daughter imitating where her mom shaves (hint: it wasn’t her legs)… what the actual fuck

No. 987237

I think I'm ruining my boyfriend's life by being codependent and having anxiety. I'm scared that something will happen to him when we're apart that I just don't let him go anywhere that's more than 30 miles alone without me.

I'm scared something'll happen to me or something'll happen to him, I get very bad feelings in my gut.

He wants to visit his cousins in Florida (a few states away) and I'm thinking of every possible scenario that could happen and it makes me sick to my stomach and makes me cry.

No. 987238

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>>987236
2/2
…and imitating her using a tampon.

What a dumbass bitch of a mom, I swear to god all content featuring children just needs to be banned from the internet.

No. 987246

>>987238
Why does this have so many likes? I don't use TikTok, can you see who's liking it? Wonder if it's a bunch of scrotes and if anyone's calling it out in the comments

No. 987247

>>987237
Forgot to add that going with him is not an option we can afford at the moment.

No. 987252

I FUCKING HATE WORK HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO DO THIS BULLSHIT FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE AND I ONLY FUCKING WORK 15 HOURS A WEEK I CANT TAKE THIS BULLSHIT(lolcow.farm/info)

No. 987263

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whenever i see the male and female forms depicted side by side like this i automatically think my body looks more like the man one than the woman one. i want to fucking kill myself

No. 987264

>>987246
The screenshots are from Instagram but this mom got her fame on tiktok so I’m sure this is posted there as well. Regardless, I scrolled through the likes briefly and most accounts seem to be women. I’ve seen enough creeps sexualizing 100% non-suggestive, innocent photos of kids so I can only imagine they’d be all over something like this though.

No. 987268

>>987252
wait why were they redtexted

No. 987272

>>987265
what does this even mean?

No. 987274

>>987252
Did anon use emojis or something?

No. 987275

File: 1638832766116.png (Spoiler Image, 311.1 KB, 640x804, yz77buwghb181.png)

>look at r/egg_irl because some non-binary/sort of mtf guys I know in real life told me they find the stuff on there funny and that it's totally not a creepy fetish subreddit
>picrel has thousands of upvotes.

I want to a-log so badly, I can't take this shit anymore.

No. 987277

>>987265
This is the worst sentence I've read today wtf does this mean

No. 987278

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why am I such a fucking retard, I can't even respond to a completely positive friendly message anymore without reworking it 339093284234982 times, KILL ME

No. 987279

>>987265
>“We cannot afford” you don’t make his financial decisions if you don’t contribute nothing.
What

No. 987282

>>987272
>>987277
I assume >>987265 is a moid assuming that >>987247's bf is the sole source of income so she can't say "we can't afford it" when it's "his money" kek
demented that is the first thing they jump to

No. 987286

>>987274
>>987272
>>987268
Did you guys even go to lolcow.farm/info or do you just like asking stupid questions? if it's the latter, >>>/ot/974552

No. 987291

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Sorry this is gonna be a long one

>be me, early twenties, unemployed and looking for work

>needed to quit school to be carer for mum until she died so I have barely any qualifications
>finally get job at well known secondhand game and tech store in the uk
>think there will be a lot of gross incels and misogynistic tech bros but I can handle it. If I have to get a shitty retail job at least I can sell stuff I like and know something about
>10 men and only 3 women including me working there
>get told by store manager that i am on probation but not to worry as they cant be bothered to train new staff so everyone passes.
> store manager is a fucking rude, lazy neckbeard with no social skills who spends most of his time doing fuck all but talking about dnd, smells disgusting.
> bullies his male subordinates, calls one of them a virgin incel (pot calling the fucking kettle black but ok)
>only female manager is a pick me with no life outside of work, spends her free time stalking her coworkers at other stores to sneer at how untidy their merchandise is.
>neckbeard manager has terrible gaming channel with creepy coworker
>even has hoodie with their shitty game gumps rip off logo printed on it
>forced to rely on coworker who's only been working there for a month and a teenager to show me how to do my job as management are useless.
>overhear creepy coworker making sexual jokes about kids who come into store around me, really sick stuff.
>learn his nickname is nonce and it’s treated as a joke. Pick me manager even labels it on his drink once.
>head of marketing for entire company makes surprise visit to store, neckbeard manager promptly shits himself lmao
>marketing guy’s kids are with him, I talk to one kid about pokemon when he notices badge on my lanyard.
>pedo coworker makes joke about molesting this guy’s kid’s under his breath while kid and marketing guy are standing a couple of feet away.
>escalates during closing when he talks about strangling the same kid with a lanyard, all said in front of neckbeard manager and other coworkers and no one says anything.
>wish I was making this shit up
>go home, have minor mental breakdown and cry
>think about quitting but need money
> warn people I know with kids not to come into store.
>write official complaint and have meeting with manager the next day
>learn neckbeard manager is buddies with pedo guy and known him long time, he is even in dnd group with pedo and other neckbeards coworkers
>also learn pedo is one of three guys in the store who can actually test the tech we buy in.
>manager makes bizarre excuses pedo guy (brings up the fact he was rejected by a girl??? And implies he is autistic) says he is harmless but will talk to him for me so he doesn’t make any more gross comments.
>ask if he will inform marketing guy about sexual comments and threats made about his kid >get told since store is a franchise head office is separate they won’t do that.
>think they just don't want me to escalate complaint but ok
>few weeks go by no more comments are made by pedo guy so I assume he’s been scared into behaving.
> get into work, neckbeard manager nowhere to be found, neckbeard’s boss is in, older guy, brings me in for a meeting tells me my feedback isn't good and I am too slow performing tasks.
>I start crying, tell him I have barely been trained and I wasn't warned or told there was any problem with my work performance prior to this, I have really bad adhd (that I made sure to inform everyone about the fact that I struggle with hyperfocus and time blindless).
> seems to feel sorry for me but tells me there’s nothing he can do and then tells me this is the most bizarre place he has worked at in all his years of retail and the staff behave like teenagers
> I tell him that’s not a good fucking excuse to let this shit slide
>let out of back door, still crying
>no word fromany of my coworkers, just get deleted from work group chat
>neckbeard manager too much of a coward to fire me himself
>feel like a fucking joke, was worried adhd would fuck me over at work and feels like nightmare come to life.
>later realise neckbeard and rest of management were probably looking for an excuse to fire me because I made a complaint about his pedo buddy.
>still have marketing guy's name, kid's name, his linked in profile and all the details about what was said and on what date.
>wanna complain to head office and put these disgusting fuckers out of their jobs but don't know if the stress is worth it, I live in a small town and don’t want any more bullshit.
>ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

No. 987292

>I bet you complain about your jaw hurting after 15 seconds of head

and? and what? are you just not supposed to complain during an uncomfortable act?

No. 987294

>>987252
>>987153
MODS ARE SO RETARDED I WANT TO SHIT ON THEIR FACES AND MAKE THEM CRY BUT IT'S NOT REALLY A FETISH. IT'S JUST BECAUSE THEY'RE SUCH DUMB LITTLE BABIES WHO DON'T REALIZE THEY KEEP BANNING OLD USERS TELLING THEM TO INTEGRATE AND THAT THEY HAVE SHIT FETISHES. BANNING FOR LITERAL SHIT POSTS AND VENT POSTS IN THE VENT THREAD. DIE MODS DIE

No. 987295

>>987291
just report them

No. 987297

>>987286
If it's the all caps, I honestly don't think I've ever seen an anon get banned for that so it didn't cross my mind. It's just one post in the vent thread anyway.

No. 987298

ALLCAPS SHIT FETISH MOD BASHERS RISE UP

No. 987299

>>987297
IT'S MORE THAN ONE POST. AND IT WAS TWO DIFFERENT PEOPLE

No. 987300

FUCK MODS FUCK TRANNIES FUCK JANNIES AND FUCK PICKMES I WILL TYPE HOW I PLEASE AND SHIT IN MY HAND AND SQUISH IT ON YOUR FACE MODDERINOS

No. 987301

>>987299
Ok, well now you're acting like a retard so you deserved it.

No. 987302

POOPS I POSTED AGAIN. ABOUT FECAL MATTER. GOT BANNED ON LOLCOW. OH BABY BABY(hi scat-chan)

No. 987303

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I hate that now that Im an adult and a total poverty-chan that the Christmas season is represented by stress about money and sadness over not being able to take part in fun holiday activities that cost money (which is sadly a lot of them.) I try to enjoy what I can and not totally lose my joy this time of year but sometimes it just really blows and makes me yearn for my childhood Christmases to the point it hurts.

No. 987304

>>987291
Please definetely them about the pedo guy, this isn't okay at all. Also have you look up onto a call center job? they don't usually require you to have experience

No. 987308

Lolcow feels empty everyday even on weekends and weekdays its the same

No. 987314

>>987302
lmao. i'm rooting for you caps-chan

No. 987317

>>987291
nonna I think they fired you because they were afraid you'd make a big shit storm and get them in trouble.

contact the head office or head of marketing and tell him what happened. say you were suspect you were fired because of it. if you have proof that you filed a complaint, even better

No. 987331

>>987291

Report them anon, get yourself on Indeed.com and some therapy too. That bastard sounds sick as fuck and they all back each other up these creepy cunts. The manager doing nothing isn't a surprise, all the pedos protect one another. I mean for fuck sake they're trying to normalise MAPS now.

No. 987342

>>987282
They really do show so quick they think of women as property. Idk how any woman still stays with her shit bf. It's right in their face.

No. 987348

>>987303

I'm broke too this xmas, well I have some savings but I don't want to blow them on crap. Christmas experiences are nice and all but they're not worth it when you have bills to pay. Try not to think too hard on it all anon, one year you'll be able to have some fun.

No. 987349

I hate how my grandmother who's 66 and mother 46 think it's easy to just get a job out of thin air these days.

No. 987353

>>987291
Please report them. I guessed how this was going to end as soon as I read that pedo and neckbeard are actually friends.

No. 987354

>>987303
Don't worry anon. I'm broke this Christmas too but money is not what matters, it's about spending time with people you love. You can just pick up some cheap hot coco mix and microwave popcorn and watch pirated Christmas movies, either by yourself or with others.

No. 987357

I'm going to a concert by myself this weekend. I've gone to a few shows by myself in the past, but they were metal shows and I feel that showing up alone to those probably isn't a big deal. This time I'm going to a hyperpop show so I feel like the vibe is going to be different and I'm afraid of looking like a loser just standing there by myself lol. Anyone gone to pop/electronic shows on their own and any advice? I'm thinking of showing up a bit late so I don't have to stand through the opener and wait for the set to change with no one to talk to… Also thinking of getting high beforehand but I'm worried that might just make my social anxiety worse lol.

No. 987358

>>987349
Your mom should be young enough to realize how bad our economy is right now. We're literally in a third recession

No. 987360

>>987308
True but it feels worse on the weekends

No. 987362

>>987357
Do whatever you can to ease yourself beforehand, but don’t worry. People go alone at all types of shoes, from rock to rap to classical. You can use this opportunity to chat up people and just be plain deranged. It’s hyperpop, anon, everyone is going to be deranged. It’ll be a new experience and you can always terrorize everyone. Plus I’m sure there will be of a couple lone goers as well. I always see them gathering together to share drinks/drugs after shows and chatting.

No. 987365

>>987303
xmas is all about capitalism anyway. Dont fall into the trap

No. 987390

>>987358

She's aware, reminds me every single day. But she makes out how her life is awful and she has had some total back luck this year. But she's made her life the way it is because that's all on her.

And she popped off at me because I didn't want to learn to drive. I have always had anxiety and driving isn't something I want to do. At all. The British roads are mental, pricing are going up, electric cars will be expensive to run, pot holes in the roads and diversions are something I do not want to deal with on a day to day basis. I live in a city buses are fine, trains are fine. I just don't want to deal with the headache of owning a car.

No. 987425

I am so tired of this, another one of my friends has turned into an insane stalker. I don't even know why I attract these people or maybe I just turn them into this.

I just don't know how to socialise correctly, I mimic what I think is proper socialisation and people only see mirrors of themselves in me. I don't know why two women now in the past 5 years have started telling people how we are secretly in a relationship together (I have dated and married one guy in my whole life!)

I'm so scared anons, the last time I cut off a stalker I had to get a restraining order and she ended up drugging a girl at a party a few months later and raping her. I don't know what this one will do.

No. 987437

>>987425
Sounds like you're just so irresistibly beautiful and captivating. But maybe get some pepper spray.

No. 987438

>>987425
is this some tranny bpd tumblr self insert. good for you anon truly.

No. 987440

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Why the fuck is this so expensive??? I've waited years to finally read Assia Wevill's poetry and diaries and now I cannot afford the book. Is there any other reason for it to be so fucking expensive beyond the authors being greedy bastards?
If anyone has any tip for me on how to cheat the system, I will be thankful. Book is unavailable on libgen, didn't check on IRC yet but doubt since it's so niche. I feel like the authors are gatekeeping because there is no other book on the topic. I am seething!!!

No. 987443

>>987425
Anon maybe it's not you, but it's the place you look for friends and stuff. Like if you meet people on some weird discord server or something, of course you'll end up attracting some shady friends. Maybe start reading up on red flags in friendships and as soon as you see a person exhibit a few, slowly stop talking to them. Also make sure to get some pepperspray like the other anon suggested.

No. 987457

>>987440
try irc anyway

No. 987458

>>987457
The book isn't there. I think they may not even have Lover of Unreason, which is available at b-ok.cc (or libgen, I don't remember which). Fuckkk

No. 987462

>>987458
2nd hand?

No. 987464

>>987462
It's too new I think and I'm living in Europe (that's why it's even more expensive to me than if I was an amerifag).
I guess I will either have to wait for it to pop up on libgen or suck it up and buy it in future.

No. 987468

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Can the Cookie Run fandom stop bitching about the NFTs? All the 14 year olds are terribly annoying.
>Why are you still making fanart? Don't you know that you are giving the game free publicity?
>Why aren't you protesting? We should all boycott the company!
>Why do non americans don't help us with the protest? Do non americans don't care about the world?
Just shut up, I don't care about the NFTs anymore, I don't even believe that Devsis is going to make them anyways after the backlash, just leave me and my art alone, I already got dogpiled by telling people to.

No. 987469

I'm going to get a fucking kidney infection

No. 987500

as a biological woman who has to dilate, the trans craze has made everything about it so so much fucking worse. the word itself is a meme, every product is now aimed at them. i used to be more open about it but now i feel like if i talk about it with an acquaintance they'll think i'm a man with a wound. it was so hard to get anyone to care about my pain but theirs is so important the market opened right up. fuck

No. 987538

>>987500
You have vaginismus or something similar? Seems horrible enough by itself. I do remember when I thought dilating was a thing only women with specific conditions were told to do but that was like 15 years ago.

No. 987540

i feel like i only have certain friends because theyve been grandfathered in from before i peaked, and i hate that they just assume i support trans shit still. the amount of times i bite my tongue irl just drives me insane. i wish i had at least a single peaked friend to bitch to about things.
i just reconnected with this really old friend of mine, i mentioned i was reading richard dawkins and his only response was to inform me that hes "cancelled" (which im assuming he was referring to him supporting womens rights). wtf is even the point in telling someone that the author they're reading is "canceled", its fucking annoying. i'm reading a book, get over it. keep seething and scroll through your precious twitter you pathetic misogynistic loser. woke men piss me off to no end. if another man tells me how to be a good feminist im going to lose it i swear.

No. 987545

>>987540
I relate to this so much.

No. 987549

I really want to kms. I'm an alcoholic and I have immediate access to morphine, hydrocodone and other depressants. I want to do it soon but I'm scared of someone using narcan on me (I live with other ppl and they know where it is). I'm nearly 30 and going to be in perpetual physical pain and will be forever useless. I just want to go now. not going to do anything rn, just venting… but fuck. I hate life so much.

No. 987553

>no car
>middle of nowhere
>recurrent throat infection
>no way to get help for 8 more hours
>left tonsil pad and uvula continue to swell
>please just wait until morning please
>swelling continues
>breathing now difficult
>Uber wouldn't arrive for almost two hours and would cost over $100
>can't afford ambulance
>please God just hold out, just seven hours left now
>six hours to go
>breathing severely obstructed
>swelling abruptly quickens pace
>no options left, bitch, call 911
>dial
>"911, what's the nature of your emergency?"
>"Hhhhhhhck"
>realize I literally cannot talk
>panick starting to get really fucking real now not gonna lie
>operator trying to get me to say my name or address or something
>"HHHHHHCK HHHHHHAAAAAUUUG"
>start praying this bitch can tell I can't breathe so she'll just send the God damn fucking ambulance already
>can't even tell what she's saying now, full fuck panic
>sprint to computer
>put phone on speaker
>text to speech my address, cannot breathe, young female
>"So you need an ambulance?"
>"HHHEEEEEEEEEEEEE"
>"Okay ma'am we've got people comin"
WELL WHERE THE FUCK ARE THEY
IT'S BEEN 15 MINUTES
I'M GONNA DIE POSTING ON FUCKING LOLCOW

No. 987556


No. 987559

>>987553
Anon I hope you’re okay! Also try to see if you can chug any kind of hot liquid, I had alot of throat infections before and thanks to them I can no longer swallow and breathe properly. Next time you have that infection please drink hot lemon water, gargle olive oil, and gargle salt water. These helped with keeping the swelling down for a bit and cleaning the area.

No. 987607

>>987549
sell all the morphine, hydrocodone etc and use the money to go to therapy

No. 987627

i think i have a kidney infection. i just finished a course of antibiotics for my uti but ive had a fever and chills since saturday, headache, zero appetite, back ache. i thought it might get better with the antibiotics but no. i should go to the hospital

No. 987629

i’m in a bad place right now. and by that i mean finland

No. 987637

>>987629
i'm so sorry, nonny. stay safe!

No. 987642

>>987637
thank you sweet anon

No. 987667

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>>987629
But you could go to Moomin house and get pancakes!

No. 987668

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I don't know if this is the most appropriate thread to post this on but I can't get the image out of my head. This was posted on a local reptile group, I didn't even know this was something that could happen to tortoises, how can you watch this happen to your pet and not realize it needs medical intervention?? It's literally rotting away, this did not happen overnight, and the most you can think to do is make a post on a mostly inactive Facebook group? I don't want to believe this is real

No. 987678

>>987629
I wish I was born in finland

No. 987682

>>987668
I know nothing of tortoises and even reading your post I can't tell that there's something wrong with it, this person clearly didnt educate themselves at all as the owner (definitely not an excuse, opposite of it actually, how can you have an exotic pet and know nothing of it?)

No. 987690

>>987553
Please post to let me know if you survive. Be well.

No. 987691

i feel so fucking guilty after being rude to someone. i wish i could be nice all the time. i feel like a piece of shit

No. 987692

God i want to move out of this fucking house so bad, whenever i stay at my family's house i always get coddled and treated like a literal baby i'm not even allowed to do anything because they (outright says that) i would fuck it up. Well how the fuck am i supposed to live if you insist i'm a retarded toddler? I honestly learned more things during the few years i moved out to a college dorm than the previous 18 years of living with my parents, i'm not blaming them honestly, i know they're humans with faulty reasoning too but i wish i wasn't born into such a pathetic and poorly managed household. Having proper parenting is a fucking privilege

No. 987693

>>987692
Samefag, it's like my family never taught me anything aside from the bare minimum chores and expect me to be a fully functioning adult as soon as i turned 18. I was the one who brought up college, thoughts about my career, my mental issues, what do i have to do when they eventually pass away, i just wish i had parents who talked to me and didn't feel like weird landlords kek

No. 987696

>>987553
Oh my god, I hope your okay!!!! Please post again soon!

No. 987698

>>987553
It's been 5 hours. i'm still praying for you, asphyxiatedchan.

No. 987702

When I was a kid I just trusted that the world worked and made sense. No one tells you that the world is broken and that most people are twisted and selfish. I become more disillusioned every day. Nothing makes sense. No one prepares children for the way the world actually is.

No. 987703

I'm going to admit myself into a ward soon. Waiting to go to a show with my sibling this week and then admitting myself after.
I refuse to live in this waking world. I cannot wait to be put on sleeping pills so I can sleep literal days. I'll get to lose weight too because those meds kill my appetite.
Sleeping all day only to be awakened to eat (which I can refuse)
I don't think I would want to be admitted back out into the real world once I go in again. Being alive is involuntary. Romance is a meme that once used to motivate me to do stuff to improve myself but I now see through the facade that it really is. I'd rather read fictional relationships and live vicariously through said fictional relationships. I have truly ascended. I'M A GOD NOW.
See ya Nonna's.

No. 987711

Fuck I have been vomiting for upwards of six years now and doctors can't figure out why. I'm so sick of waking up to puke even though I barely eat. I feel like I'm losing more life every day, and I look like I've aged ten years. Just so tired. I'm puking between typing this, I wish I didn't have a stomach. I'm so fucking tired

No. 987721

>>987703
Wish I cpuld run away from life into a ward too

No. 987743

As someone who has had actual neglectful and shitty parents, I can't stand hearing troons talk about their "abusive" families. Most of the time they had fine upbringings, but ever since coming out, their parents are having trouble coming to terms with using their neo-pronouns, or trying to cope with the fact they won't have grandchildren. It's never them abusing them or outright hating them for being a troon, it's just them slipping up with pronouns or thinking it's a bit strange. Even more when they cry about their families enjoying media they find offensive or not bending their political beliefs to suit them. The troon hivemind always activates and they have a bunch of people agreeing it's abuse.
No. You have no fucking idea what abuse or neglect is. Get the fuck over it. I hate troons so much it's unreal

No. 987759

>>987743
I had a neglectful upbringing with a weird gender divide in my family, my parents weren't divorced or anything but my dad seems to view women as aliens or something. Views us as hysterical. My mom essentially was my parent growing up and my dad was my brothers parent with my mom on board too. It was odd. Then my mom died when I was barely an adult. In therapy I mentioned some of my feelings around gender and in hindsight it all makes sense given the weird family dynamic and my recent loss… my therapist led me down the tran path and it so soon after losing my mom I was ready to go along with anything.

My dad actually reacted really badly to it and tbh that's the least shit thing, it's so low down on the list of things he's ever done. I was on hormones for a while, I passed as male to strangers and one day while visiting him his neighbour was like "oh 'anons dad' I didn't know you had 2 sons!" I'm not even a tran anymore but he has given me shit for everything I've ever done. Looked down on me no matter what I'm doing so that moment of her reading me as a son after he had screamed at me the night before about it.. I will never stop being satisfied at the memory of that. I'm a woman but that just was a moment for me. My dad awkwardly biting his tongue and being put in an awkward position was beautiful after everything he did over the years. Almost worth it for that moment alone kek.

It's so retarded that I only have one memory of the tables being turned and him being put in a painfully awkward position where he couldn't speak up.. and it has to be tran related of all things.

No. 987762

>>987759
Silver linings I guess, no judgment here for trooning out anon. I'm sorry you had such a shitty family dynamic growing up too

No. 987765

>>987693
Yes! Never taught anything, most they talked to me was to yell at me to do homework or tell me to do a chore. Wasn't even allowed to go anywhere other than school. Then they acted shocked when I became neet for years. Like what the fuck did you think was going to happen??

No. 987767

I'm so tired of spending all my money on rent, bills and other living expenses. It's been like 2 years since I bought myself something nice since I just can't afford it. I know money won't buy me happiness but at least I won't be wearing the same outfits to school every day and feel like shit about it. I just hate being a poor student.

No. 987771

Hoooooowww to break away from internet / screen dependency? The pandemic has made everything mostly online, it was becoming alright for a while but now my country is planning another semi-lockdown for the new variant. I mostly get money from online freelance design/art gigs but i'm starting to get tired of it. I should just fuck off and start planning to become a normie

No. 987781

My world is so small, the only thing I can compare things to in my mind is how my siblings saw something like “oh X saw that” “oh Y rants about this” I grew up fucking sheltered because my scrote brother who had to act as our guardian wanted to prevent me from becoming a slut like the girls he knows or whatever the fuck that means. Apparently being a slut means you’re not allowed to express an opinion against him or wear any form of feminine clothing or paint your nails or listen to whichever famous pop singer exists right now.

I have to run away from here I know absolutely nothing about the world outside of this tiny home and what was drilled into me since childhood. But I fear disobeying authority. I’m mentally stunted at 23. I have exams so I can’t look for a part time job yet but even so I’ve always been told a woman living alone is dangerous and risky so where the fuck would I move to if I eventually save enough money and I should probably learn how to drive before all of this. If I could just meet one person in my life who will save me and guide me properly from my mental hell I would get on my knees and pray to them every night

No. 987784

>>987743
I feel you anon, not just about troons but anyone who had really supportive parents but thinks they were awful for simply not giving them every single thing they want or being too "problematic" for them. It just annoys me so much when people take for granted parents who really give a shit

No. 987796

>>987781
>I’ve always been told a woman living alone is dangerous and risky
Where do you live? Plenty of young, single women I know live on their own and they're alright. I've lived on my own before as a young woman and I was just fine. If you're in a safe country in the West you're probably OK living on your own. Alternatively, you could live with housemates. Plenty of students and young professionals are forced to live with housemates because of the housing shortage nowadays.

No. 987808

>>987796
UK. Every time the idea of moving out was brought up even as a joke I’d be told its very dangerous to live alone. I would also only want to live with other women only so to my family that’s still “dangerous”. I guess it’s just instilled in me to believe that too because my brain keeps coming up with the worst possible scenarios.

No. 987811

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>turned 20
>virgin
>no friends
>severe social anxiety to the point i can't watch people in the eyes or talk through the phone
>from shitty third world country
>covid won't go away
holy shit, what a terrible time to be in my 20's. I can't do anything, every cool store is obviously closing and the future only gets grimmer and grimmer. What am I supposed to look forward to? I don't wanna marry or have kids, every movie or hobby I used to like became shitty and politicized and it's either full of troons or incels. I just wish I had a close group of friends to hang out, play board games, or watch movies with but everyone I have met so far is a leftist troon or an incel libertarian. I guess I will just focus on my autistic loner hobbies like building models and painting cute anime guys.

No. 987812

>>987811
What type of models are you building, anon? I want to know more.

No. 987815

finally escaped neetism but cant stop feeling the immense crushing pressure of life and the void… literally working my dream job and making cash in hand but im so stressed and cant stop worrying about losing the job despite the fact theres no chance that will happen right now… only my second job ever and im 22 and i quit my first one after two weeks…. this will be my second week and its sure to be amazing im just feeling anxiety in my days off and its the dumb holiday season which i hate…. i also am broken up with my first boyfriend ever who i was with two years and we're in a complicated kinda thing right now and do see eachother but i havent had sex in so long and i get so horny its painful and i bawl cry because i just want to be held so bad…. wish i could've found a new boyfriend before winter but its too late… i also fucked another guy who was much better endowed over the summer but cant really see him again so sex isnt as good with my ex anymore …. but really life is blessed mostly right now i dont really have many friends but working is getting me out of the house and socializing at least !!! and in the sunlight ! fuck you SAD!!! i just need to get a vibrator and focus on my video game collecting and injesting information and my lolcows and maybe pick up some
more new hobbies this winter… thanks to you nonas and the farms for all the keks too they help so much

No. 987821

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>>987812
I like Aircraft models but i would like to get some mechas when i have the money

No. 987824

Contact dermatitis is such a bitch

No. 987832

>>987808
I don't know why living alone would be dangerous, nobody breaks into apartments to assault someone. You're probably safer in an apartment than in a house because there's always people within yelling distance, and even if they won't help you, whoever thinks about committing a crime can't be sure of that.

No. 987842

>>987808
Anon the UK's fine to live alone as a woman. I would've believed your family if you lived in some poor ass third world muslim country but you live in a safe, civilized Western country. Your family is telling you lies to keep you dependent on them.

Get your driver's permit. Do research on renting (maybe social housing?) in the UK, you've got the internet and all the information you could possibly need at your fingertips. You said you're doing exams so I assume you're in education, ask your peer students who've moved out about their living situations and how they're planning to live after they graduate. That should give you an idea of what is normal for a women and people in general who're your age.

No. 987843

>>987808
Since I moved out at like 18 I've lived alone, I've lived with housemates and I've lived with partners. I've never had anything happen during my alone times.

I've had bad times with a live-in bf and I've had a male housemate make moves on me in a weird arse way. IME the real issue is living with scrotes, moving in too soon with a guy or trusting one and then he turns shitty down the line. I'm way more concerned about that than outside scotes breaking in to harm me. Apartments in particular always felt safe to me.

No. 987854

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>take initiative to rake all the leaves in our yard
>put them into two piles
>got calluses on my hands and it took a couple of hours
>ask husband to buy bags and put the leaves in it
>I leave for work
>blows up my phone about how it's a two person job, harder than taking, and it could easily take him 6 hours
>really? for just putting leaves into a bag? asked him to explain what the fuck
>replies that he started using an Amazon box to scoop them into which is making it easier
>I respond by letting him know most people just use the end of the rake or something flat like a garbage can lid to scoop up the leaves using their other hand
>he stops responding
This motherfucker was out there grabbing fistfuls of leaves at a time and wondering why it was taking him so long holy fucking shit LMAO

No. 987866

>>987854
I agree with your husband, its a two person job. One can do it alone, but the thought how much simpler and faster it could be if someone would just hold the bag would fill me with rage while doing it alone.

No. 987869

>>987866
She raked the leaves alone though? Definitely the more difficult job.

No. 987870

>>987866
Whew do I have a long letter to write to my parents for making me bag leaves by myself when I was a teenager. Raking can be a two person job too but most women just do it without bitching because they know it won't get done otherwise. Don't let men weaponize their incompetence anon, clearly he didn't have a technique which is why he was angry and then shut up when he realized he was doing it the hardest way possible.

No. 987872

>>987854
This reminds me of when I was moving apartments with my ex. When he was at work I'd get a good chunk of stuff done and line it up for him to then finish. Then I'd go to work and he'd be messaging me about not being able to do it til I came back to help him… dude I'm half your size and I sweated my backside off pushing myself to make a good dent in the workload. I should've paid more attention to the dynamic we took on mid-move.. hindsight lol

No. 987874

>>987854
>im bad at thiss!!!! and angery
>please mommymaid dont ask me to do chores ever again

most men's thought process

No. 987877

>>987869
I don't think its more difficult at all, but its his own fault for not setting up that trap before his enemy did, he might get revenge by being first one to rake next year.

No. 987878

>>987877
Nta, she literally got calluses on her hands and it took hours. He's shoving leaves into a bag. Why are you defending a childish scrote?

No. 987881

>>987878
I like raking leaves and i hate putting them in bags.

No. 987885

>>987854
>>987866
literally >>987874 this. Don't be fooled

No. 987887

>>987698
>>987696
>>987690
>>987559
>>987556
thank you guys
it took a fucking hour for the ambulance to get to my place, I literally cannot express to you how swollen closed my throat was at that point, literally my uvula was massive and resting forward on top of my tongue, they epi-penned me or something when they finally got here even though it wasn't an allergic reaction, I had written a note to give to them to briefly explain, but I don't think anyone read it, it was a pretty dire looking situation to be fair
At the ER they gave me a massive steroid shot and either they knocked me out or I fell asleep somehow, and now I'm awake in a private room, so I'm pretty sure I'm about to get like an emergency tonsillectomy or something, which, tbh, doesn't sound bad right now
What a fuckin night/day

No. 987894

>>987887
Holy sweet fucking jesus what an awful experience. I'm so glad you're alive anon!

No. 987899

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I wish scrotes would understand that if you want your wife to remain hot you need to give her the right conditions and support to do so. I knew one couple where he wouldn't even watch the kids properly while she showered. How the FUCK are you supposed to keep yourself together if you can't have time to yourself to work out, keep stress down, get your hair done, etc. There's a reason trophy wives stay fit. Their man allows them the condition to go to pilates 4 times a week and take time to themselves. If he won't contribute time or money to that, yet whines about it, he better promptly shut the fuck up, and appreciate anyone even wanted to give birth to his spawn.

No. 987901

>>987899
Men want the status of being with a high-maintenance woman without the maintenance and the money a woman like that requires. They want something for nothing, as usual.

No. 987919

>>987899
literally just kill all men

No. 987922

I can't stop vomiting but I CRAVE eating a whole cucumber in a big bowl of vinegar and oil. Even thinking about how it would feel makes me retch but I am so fucking hungry, it would taste so good.

No. 987924

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When you get covid tested and pray for a positive result to get 10 days of home isolation. Or even better, the sweet, sweet release of death by big coof.

I'm 32 today nonnie. I'm feeling numb and empty.

No. 987928

>>987553
>"So you need an ambulance?"
>"HHHEEEEEEEEEEEEE"
Crying irl

No. 987930

>>987924
Happy Birthday nonna!!! Order a cake for yourself. And I'm sorry you feel the way you do, wish I could make it better

No. 987932

Im certain my teacher (continuation school, so it's ages 16-18 but theres a couple 19 year olds) is a pedophile, it's mostly older teens here but we have a 16 year old boy who he lets lift weights for classes that arent health related at all, brings in a scale to weigh him every week, always comments how skinny he is. That's not the fucking worst part. He has disgusting poems online with his full name attached about "tiny flopping cocks" and gay teen boy romance erotica. He's like 60 and single aswell and takes a yearly trip to thailand. Oh yeah he has a site where he charges 10k to attend "private parties" with a note that "twinks get a discount"
Nonnas am I crazy or is this literal pedo behavior

No. 987947

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>>987932
Expose him

No. 987956

On my city's ask subreddit, a gay male couple was looking around for surrogates and I hate it. No one's entitled to a fucking baby, and someone made a comparison to live organ donation but that's not the fucking same thing. You actually need a new organ to survive; you can survive without a baby. In my country, compensated surrogacy is illegal but compassionate surrogacy is legal. This probably means that they only get some expenses paid for, but nothing above that compensates for the hardships the woman can face during and after delivery. I pointed out that adoption is something they should consider and that they're just exploiting poor women, but obviously people see women as just objects to use. Fuck this dumb ass world.

No. 987976

ive had a drivers test scheduled for months and when I went to the appointment today they immediately turned me down because my car is a little dirty on the outside. we just had a major snowfall yesterday and the roads are filthy and the majority haven’t been plowed yet. I had to drive 30 minutes on the highway to my appointment, no shit my cars going to be dirty on the outside!! all my windows were clear and I wiped my mirrors before going in. what a bullshit excuse, I’m frustrated.

No. 987978

>>987932
100000% pedo, collect proof and expose. Maybe get parents involved if you want support

No. 987979

>>987956
I think surrogacy is evil even when straight couples pay for it, it's disgusting how accepted it's become I think films like baby mama were made to groom people to accept it more

No. 987980

>>987979
I don't think TV and films are brainwashing or "grooming" people I think that directors and writer have their own opinions they push.

No. 987983

>>987979
Ayrt. Yup. It's fucked that so many people are defending the couple, but even more fucked that there are a lot of women defending it too. Even if it was heavily regulated and a strict system was implemented, there could be so many things that go wrong. What happens if the couple wants the woman to abort but she doesn't? What if the baby is less healthy than expected (apparently surrogate babies are less healthy than non-surrogates)? Do the women get compensated for this? Most likely not, no. It's akin to sex work in the sense you're literally putting your body on the line. Bring on the downvotes, I say. Fuck everyone who defends surrogacy.

No. 987985

>>987956
The sad part is that some woman will be poor and desperate enough to take them up on that.

No. 987988

>>987887
Thank you for getting back to us, godspeed nonnie.

No. 987989

>>987956
Your country made paid surrogacy illegal? That actually gives me a lot of hope.

I was thinking recently, it's insane that people are allowed to just pay for someone's womb like that. We don't allow people to sell themselves into slavery, nor do most places in my country the US allow prostitution, nor do we allow people to sell their kidneys or other organs. So… why do we allow people to sell their wombs for money?

As you said, it's not like people need a kid to live. Buying a woman's womb is basically enslaving them to your demands for 9 months, or it's at best like indentured servitude.

People who feel the need to do this over adopting… the modt charitable I can be is that they are basically irredeemable narcissists. You would have to be, to do something that inhuman & mercenary because you think your own genes are so superior to any kid you would adopt. Or such a sociopath that you only want a kid to "continue your bloodline" or some male shit like that, vs help another human grow. Not a surprise it's always men paying for gross selfish shit like this.

The deal should be, if gay men couples want a kid, they have to tolerate a fujo in their life. Like none of this $50k and you have no parental rights shit… the gay men can be allowed to both have parental rights, but the mom has to have parental rights also. Otherwise it's genuinely womb slavery imo.

No. 987992

>>987956
Barely related but I never get a chance to sperg about this so sorry but it's a cope to me when people get surrogates and still claim the child is "really" theirs
Once the baby is raised in the other woman's womb, carried to term for 9 months, no matter how much she tries to detach as a mother, the child will ALWAYS feel a certain disconnect from his/her "official" parents (aka the DNA donors). The mother is the mother. Sorry

No. 988001

>>987992
No, anon, that's a really interesting point you brought up. I read a quick comment online saying that mothers can recognize their own children even if they aren't biological and it seems even more cruel to do that. It's a more ""emotional"" argument that a bunch of people would shut down because 'emotions' but it really adds to the ethical components against surrogacy.

No. 988004

>>987992
>>988001
Idk how I feel about surrogacy but your dna is your dna it has fuck all to do with the vessel you were sustained in.

No. 988015

>>988004
The concept of the womb you were raised in as a detached vessel under any circumstance is a modern, female-objectifying cope. You're still entering life surrounded and nourished by the tissue and DNA of your actual mother, even if your own DNA is not the same as hers. It's her heartbeat and general being sustaining yours for the long process until you can (somewhat) survive on your own in the world. Denying this is just a way to avoid complicated questions for surrogacy supporters

No. 988031

>>988015
the body isn't some deep, spiritual place, it's a machine.

No. 988037

>>988031
If you think a fetus in a womb is magically cut off from that womb, all its biological processes and the natural links that form because someone signed some papers and exchanged some money, you're basically just plugging your ears and denying reality. It's only kind of different from tranners thinking that fucking with their hormones enough and chopping off their organs and writing down "This is now a vagina" or "This is now a penis" on documents for personal comfort/convenience changes the truth
Like, yes, you've successfully circumvented "the rules" and gotten yourself a variation of what exists, but that's all it is: A variation (and an artificial one, at that). I don't get why scientists delude themselves that they're gods lol

No. 988051

Maybe we should just accept some women hold sentimentality over their biological processes while others do not. To the latter, it may seem these women are bordering on mysticism while the women in question think reducing the womb to a vessel is clinical erasure/objectification.

No. 988055

>>988051
It's not even sentimentality really, it's been documented that a fetus and a mother form a connection. It's part of the whole process, and part of the reason why abortions can be so stressful/traumatic when not done as early as possible (and why pregnancy from rape is so fucked up and not the same as consensual pregnancy). The body is indeed a machine, and the reactions stemming from the brain/heart have always been part of it, as much as some people want to shy away from that. See: epigenetics, physical manifestations of PTSD/fear/stress/etc. This isn't some woo-woo spiritual thing

No. 988057

I hate coming to this site please ban me i am trying to be productive and this place is making me again bitter and sad

No. 988079

>>988057
Just use some addon to block the website from your browser and take responsibility.

No. 988083

>>987629
voi voi. oisko leivänpaahdinkylpy mitään?

No. 988088

>getting moids to talk about their fantasies about dominant women with no pegging or tranny shit mentioned
Nice

No. 988089

My mom is constantly pushing me to meet with people and it's so annoying. I mention a coworker with whom I casually talk with sometimes and she immediately goes 'Why don't you invite him over? Or maybe you could go do X together!!'

No. 988094

my mom is over at me and my dad's place. issue with this is that – while she is "fully vaxxed" – her workplace told her she may have come into contact with covid very recently. she went in to get tested yesterday and hasn't gotten her results back yet but she's still over here for some reason. it just pisses me off.

it's like she's being retarded and doesn't realize those that aren't vaxxed can still catch it from those that are. if we both die from covid idc i'm cursing her

No. 988097

I hate men more each day. I know this is basically a general thing we have to accept, but would it kill men to actually read personals before sending me messages? "We have a lot to talk about." No, we don't, I specifically said I wanted women and not men. Fuck off.

No. 988101

>>988055
Sometimes, yes, not all the time. Let's not bring anti-choice bullshit here.

No. 988102

>>988101
It's not anti-choice in the least, it's the reason why abortions need to be available. It's a mindfuck to carry a child you don't want and to be constantly aware of its presence and dependence on you, one of the cruelest things imaginable. Think logically, anon. You don't need to do the "We are just bugs baby is insect I am human incubator nothing matters" to justify pro-choice if you have an IQ above 60, promise

No. 988108

>>988102
Obviously.

No. 988117

>>987924
Happy Birthday Nona, hope you get some time off soon (coof or no coof)

No. 988120

>>988057
Coldturkey is a good free program, and you can lock it so it won't let you do certain things for a period of time

No. 988122

>>987549

Please, I'm an alcoholic too. Pay me in pills or cash and I'll be your judgment free therapist.

No. 988133

I (as usual) procrastinated to the very last minute and am freaking out rn. I have to give a short presentation tomorrow on a paper I should have been well into by now but I have only done general research on it so far. idk how I am going to be able to present anything tomorrow

No. 988137

A few years ago my stepdad's nieces were ready to give a police statement on my behalf for his behaviour toward me and then both of them ghosted me. Found out today they were both given money to not do it by my stepdad's mom. He's dead now and no formal charges ever happened so I don't know what to do with this information but I feel betrayed.

No. 988141

I talked to my ex who I'm meant to be no-contact with and I got so emotional and angry that I punched myself and a wall. Now my hand is all fucked up and swollen with these weird lumps on it and it feels numb in places. Way too embarrassed to go to a doctor about it unless it gets worse. I'm so disappointed in myself. I hadn't hurt myself for weeks before this. I knew that talking to him wouldn't end well, but he can get whatever he wants from me because he knows I worry about him. If he says anything that makes it sound like hes upset or unwell he knows I'll do whatever he wants. I'm pathetic and childish and easy to manipulate.

No. 988142

>>988083
leivänpaahdin sauna ehkä

No. 988159

>>988137
I am so sorry that happened to you. I hope you’re well.

No. 988191

I hate everyone

No. 988198

I hate how fucking stupid my mom is
Fatass lard lady

No. 988199

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Why do I have such a hard time expressing my feelings where I can be easily understood?

No. 988204

>>988133
good luck

No. 988226

kek every time i have a conversation with someone my brain convinces me that i behaved like a total sperg the whole time and that whoever i talked to only did so out of politeness. then because i get so nervous that no one actually wants to talk to me, i try not to initiate conversation with people, but then i get anxious that i’m coming off like i don’t care about anyone and thus the vicious cycle continues. i hate that i can’t just talk to people like a normal person without overthinking anything… or at least not care about how people perceive me.

No. 988232

I wish I could enjoy being online freely like I did as a teenager. It feels like there's never an appropriate place to post what i want and when I do post freely (ootds, cosplay, random pics, stuff I like ect) it makes my feeds a mess and people lose interest. I don't really want a following just some likeminded friends… even when I end up in a community I feel like I enjoy it always get poisoned by lunatics or weirdos. Shit feels so sad. I want to enjoy being online again like I did when I was 13 and just did whatever I wanted.

No. 988233

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I just had a nightmare where Jenny Nicholson became a camgirl

No. 988238

>>988232
If you’re on Fb or Instagram, you can make it just so certain friends can see certain things instead of throwing stuff out there for the public.

No. 988245

>>988238
NTA but does instagram have a more complicated privacy settings now then going private and having only friends see everything? I feel the same as OP, I hate that Tumblr and probably other social media normalized having themed accounts instead of expressing yourself how you want (like on old blogs). We have the current aesthetic mess thanks to that too. It's all about showing a very small and selected figment of your personality, pandering to followers and so on… I agonize and stress about such things even though I don't have any proper social media yet.

No. 988249

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This Saturday will be a year since my junkie lowlife uncle sold off almost my entire record collection and I’m still heartbroken about it. There was about 350 vinyls spanning from the late 50s to early 90s that I’ve collected myself/inherited over the years. I loved my collection and was looking forward to expanding it. Now I have nothing but modern releases and have no where near the time, money, or effort needed to recollect everything I once had.

No. 988254

>>988245
Not with posts yet, but at least with stories you can create a curated list of “approved” friends and set each story to only show them. They disappear after 24 hrs tho

No. 988257

>>987832
as an avid fan of forensic files i have to disagree lol. maybe its overrepresented in the show but theres more than a few episodes about weirdo guys stalking single females to rape and or murder them. it's really terrifying but at the same time anon shouldnt let it get in the way of living her life and being happy. sadly women are always at risk either way. just be as safe as you can and decide how you feel comfortable protecting yourself i would say. whether that means owning a firearm, etc

No. 988319

>>988097
He probably did it on purpose, moids love ignoring lesbians' preferences. Just blank them all next time.

No. 988343

I think I fucked up badly in picking my degree. I didn't expect myself to enjoy the math in my course as I am now but my current path only leads me to accounting/econ which will only be partly math-based. I sort of want to switch to the computing/mathematics course to let me study math full time but the modules are so different that I don't know if they'll let me transfer the credits I get this semester over…I don't know shit about computing I just want to be allowed to progress onto the maths course…fuck fuck fuck I already dropped out of university once and I'm paying cash upfront this year as a result so every decision I make it crucial. How do I manage to fuck up EVERY time.

No. 988345

>>988343
If you want to switch to something math heavy but not accounting then electrical engineering is overwhelmingly applied math, and you'd be ahead of most engineering students by knowing and enjoying math. Learning how electronics work is a great skill to have and you get to avoid business people

No. 988351

>>988346
Retards are everywhere

No. 988356

>>988345
I'm only limited to my current two routes unless I can poof another 9k to pay for an extra year unfortunately, I appreciate the advice though. There are so many routes I'd have open to me if I just picked correctly from the start lol

No. 988495

This is not even remotely relevant to my life now but I can’t stop thinking about it -

I’m bi and have been with 2 women seriously and both of them at some point said they felt like a man/ maybe wanted to transition. I don’t believe in tranny shit at all and especially think that TiFs are just self hating women/ lesbians with internal homophobia and my experiences definitely feed that narrative. I am no longer in contact with either one so don’t know if they ever actually went through with it.

But I can’t help but doubt myself when both the women I’ve been seriously involved in have said that shit/ is lesbians opting out of womanhood really that popular ?

No. 988496

I moved in with my female coworker, we're not that close or anything, we're just colleagues, but she told me her boyfriend literally started crying when she told him about me moving in, because he thought now she will have less time for him. Like, I know he's supposedly on autism spectrum, and maybe that's a normal reaction for an autistic man, but I'm also autistic and it seems manipulative and pathetic to me

No. 988501

>>988031
You're right it's not deep nor spiritual, but the body forms strong chemical bonds, and a fetus and a mother is no different. Like, the parasitic male fetus literally leaves its DNA in its mother, and pregnant women generally lose the grey matter in their brains. That's why mothers are usually retarded, especially mothers of sons

No. 988520

My mom failed me so bad when it came to my anatomy, it's a wonder that I didn't troon out, I really nearly did with my DIY bob and wearing men's dress shirts. I was desperate to escape being female, I felt like a failed one since birth. My mom had an image of me and I always failed to meet it. She wanted a girly girl and I'm not it. It became a point of contention for me to reject girly stuff and I felt punished for it. She even shamed me and acted weird about periods. I hid my period from her for almost a year. It was like she was taunting me, haha this is your reality and you are going to have a period and DEAL WITH IT, you have to go to the gynecologist and DEAL, she seemed to relish in my discomfort and only met it with disdain at my immaturity. For a woman that claims that she's so sensitive, it's funny how she couldn't squelch any out for her only daughter

No. 988522

I swear some people read shit wrong on purpose. It's right there in front of you retard. It's not moving, it's not changing, it's right there in front of your face. And you still got it wrong. What a fucking loser.

No. 988531

I have never felt too good. I don’t have many friends. Who's gonna save me after all?

No. 988541

Holy shit i wish ironic meme culture never became this normalized on the internet why can't we talk about history or literature or movies without having to resort to le funny relatable memes due to the weird zoomer urge to avoid being critical and take things seriously as much as possible?
It's like newer generations either talk really pretentiously and have to do a critical deep-dive into everything or they only retain culture through ironic memes.

No. 988543

>>988522
Feeling this so hard. I fucking hate having to repeat instructions or introductions because people have zero literacy skills. Just read properly retards

No. 988571

Im tired of people saying life is easier for pretty women. Being a pretty girl does have its advantages if you are smart and understand the game, unfortunately most women are not smart in that way. What usually happens is they end up getting love bombed by scrotes and bled dry until they are old/unattractive. If you are just average looking or ugly and men dont really "value" you, they will immediately try to use you for sex and treat you like shit from day one so you can get out of bad situations faster. I'm not going to lie and say it's not nice to have guys do sweet things for you, say nice things to you and always get any man you want but the issue is pretty women actually believe scrotes lies because they're used to being love bombed. With ugly or average girls a guy is going to call you pretty and be nice to you for a few hours or a week but once he realizes hes not going to get anything from you, hes gonna show his true colors or ghost you…with pretty women scrotes can go on lying for years. Even if they are able to achieve famous/status they are always glued to some scrote who looks worse than them, cheats on them and they're miserable. I think being pretty only has an advantage if you were ugly/fat most of your life then became pretty and you've seen both sides to know its bullshit. This all sounds like a huge cope but that's just how I see it.

No. 988574

>>988543
And also when people spell something wrong when it's literally on the paper in front of them, I just want to drop kick em

No. 988598

>>988571
I get you. This reminded me of how that spergy poster a couple days back kept arguing that women with big breasts get 'quality men' and are treated better and how one of the biggest factors in getting good scrotes or having a good life just handed to you is your cup size.

Flat or busty, pretty or average or plain.. every type of woman can be preyed upon or chewed up and spat out by just how shit some men are. I would argue that educating young girls on 'signs to watch out for' does more good than anything else. I remember when I was at my peak in terms of looks, I seemed to attract nothing but men with a host of weird fetishes.

No. 988621

truly found out who my real family and friends are after almost being homeless. people came up with the biggest bull shit excuses even if i was willing to help pay the bills while living with them shortly. one of them straight up said good luck on finding a room mate to avoid the conversation. im sick of this world only giving a shit for middle to upper class yet continuing to expect people to serve them at shitty jobs. im jealous of NEETs who can live with their parents when they get a job to build up money. having a form of shelter and food security sounds so nice. im not even an addict or alcoholic it was a combination of my health forcing me into the hospital and current roommate wanting to ditch me.

No. 988629

I have a job interview for a shit call center but the pay is pretty good. I'm not looking forward to this at all but I need the stupid money.

No. 988677

I just love when my mom says shit like "I'm gonna be dead within spring" to vent out her frustrations.
You really going to sit here as my only close family member and say shit like that casually.
Really helps my struggle with various mental health issues.
It's a lot of fun.

No. 988775

>>988621
I feel you anon. I am in a similar spot and my own family did not want to step in. My situation is health related too. What's funny too is these people will virtue signal and act high and mighty for caring about other people, but when it comes down to someone close, they just avoid it. Really telling if you ask me.

No. 988779

Why am I so Damm horny all the time!!! To the point where it's distracting my daily life and during such inconvenient moments too. It doesn't help that my boyfriend has a very low libido and can go weeks without having sex. Fml

No. 988853

I'm 23 and I want to be a young mom but my smal business I recently opened needs to do well first. Nervous but hopeful

No. 988881

>>988629
I'm sorry anon, call centers are total shit. Hopefully you will be able to make a nice amount of money with it though so if or when you burn out it'll be easier and less stressful for you to move on to a better job.

No. 988889

I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIIIIIM

No. 988901

i'm missing out on going out w/friends today because of uni and i'm seething so fkn hard about it. it's for a shitty assignment they sprung on us last minute. wish i could a-log my professors rn

No. 988938

My blood iron level is 5, I feel like a child with a high fever 24/7. If I did a pound of methamphetamines I'd finally have the energy level of a senior citizen for maybe 20 minutes.

No. 989047

The people who work in the leasing office in my building are so fucking unprofessional. Stop losing checks and answer your fucking emails

No. 989092

My boyfriend proudly takes cute pictures of me, loves me, wants to spend time with me so badly he visits me often when I am too tired or busy to visit him, introduces me as his girlfriend to others and is eager to show me off, is tremendously handsome and smart, supports my goals and wishes unconditionally, faithfully believes in me, is proud of my intelligence and talent, acknowledges I am sensitive and takes his time with me, respects my boundaries, broke his social media absence by posting me to his account, making it the first time he ever posted a girlfriend on social media, buys me thoughtful gifts and puts in the effort to spoil me, introduces me to his parents via video call because they live abroad but he takes us so seriously he deemed it time they meet me, wants to take me on holiday and will do so when the time is right (covid, work, uni), offers to visit me when I'm abroad for a few months and otherwise wants to wait for me, is willing to be faithful to me since he believes in our relationship and doesn't want to break up, will remain loyal to me if I want him to. I'm the first girlfriend he told he loves, he tells me he loves me constantly in a healthy manner, he can see himself spending the rest of his life with me and would be happy to marry me. My boyfriend comes from an extremely stable household and healthy family, he has always wanted children and believes in a big family but doesn't care about traditional gender roles, he has a stable job he enjoys, he goes to the gym and is conscious about his health. My boyfriend is open-minded to ideas I have that might differ from his, has been surrounded by so many healthy rolemodels for the entriety of his life that he never considered divorce an option since he is so unaccustomed to it, is so used to healthy marriages he is excited about marriage and respectful in relationships, has a lot of friends and spends plenty of time with them. My boyfriend has slightly right-wing/controversial views I share without being a /pol/ idiot or douchebag, is not a misogynist and is very respectful towards women, says some of the smartest people he knows are women, believes in me and supports all of my ambitions. He calls me cute petnames, remembers the things I like, prioritises my pleasure and comfort, fucks me so good and doesn't want any other girl but me. Just writing this here because I desperately needed to blogpost but I think my friends aren't waiting for a list like this kek

No. 989104

>>989092
I was reading and reading this, and just waiting for the twist like "but sometimes he shits on the carpet in the living room and I step into it, which is annoying. But otherwise he's great!". Now that it didn't come I feel the same like when they build up the drop that never comes in songs.

No. 989106

>>988495
Yes, unfortunately.

No. 989143

>>989092
Wow, did I write this? I'm glad you've found someone who actively loves you. It feels like bliss

No. 989151

I want to message the girl my ex cheated on me with. or call her maybe. I literally just want to say hi.

No. 989170

Whenever I finish a call after doing our assignment with my classmates I have this buzz afterwards. I think it’s because it’s the only time I socialize with people outside of my immediate family? Since the camera is off I can just speak casually without feeling too awkward.

Anyway I always thought I was perfectly fine being alone 24/7 because I got used to it and find comfort in being alone, but now I wonder how I would feel if I always had friends I could talk with. The idea is completely ruined when I remember how avoidant and stomach lurching anxious I get with every single person I meet. Online classes are both a blessing and a curse. I honestly think I’ll die alone.

No. 989172

>>989092
dont forget that they still lie and cheat despite all that

No. 989185

>>989092
I'm confused why did you write this in the vent thread?

No. 989191

>>989185
>Just writing this here because I desperately needed to blogpost but I think my friends aren't waiting for a list like this kek

No. 989195

>>989191
So how long have you been dating and where did you guys meet? Someone like that sounds rare

No. 989223

>>989195
We've been dating for a few months by now and met on Tinder… I wasn't planning on developing anything romantic from that app, I swiped on him primarily due to his interests. I was actually really surprised by how well things went.

No. 989233

>>989223
>few months
bye, sis

No. 989234

I’ve had a rough week. Had a very mild UTI, left it untreated for a few weeks (honestly I didn’t even notice at the time, just that I was peeing more than usual, typically when I have a UTI I have more symptoms), then when the weather got cold my bladder really started to become an issue so I went to the doctor. Started taking antibiotics, all was well, a few days later I went out in the cold without a scarf for 30 minutes, my body really did not like that. Next day I wake up with a fever and chills, back pain etc. I didn’t make the connection at first that it could be UTI related, especially since I was on antibiotics. But my UTI symptoms got worse. And then on Tuesday morning I woke up covered in sweat, high fever, heart pounding, heavy breathing, parts of my body were going numb, I was like fuck ok hospital time. At the hospital they gave me IV fluids and antibiotics, ran a bunch of tests, and apparently it was just a bad UTI? So they sent me home with some powerful antibiotics. These little shits make me so nauseous though even if I take them with food. Which, by the way, I’ve barely eaten. My last real meal was on Friday night, I’ve been sustaining on fruits, yogurts and the occasional small soup/broth. I just had my first “real” meal of a small salad, if that counts. At least it has some fat and protein in it. I am just so tired, and I live alone with cats so I have to do everything myself, my apartment is a fucking disaster. I just want to be cared for. I wish my grandma was here to comfort me and feed me nourishing foods.

No. 989240

>>989234
I feel for you anon, hope you stay cosy and take care

No. 989247

how do I learn how to monetize my work? How do I begin to start trusting myself and wanting the best for myself?

No. 989249

>>988133
how'd it go

No. 989254

>>989247
Anon are you me?

No. 989264

Haven't seen my family in three years due to COVID. Their health is doing rough and I am terrified for them, while knowing I can't help them. Every time December approaches, I start feeling lonely. I am so far away from them and I am thankfully doing better than them, just not mentally.
I am so worried for my little brothers, because my mother never takes care of them, and now my grandmother is telling me the news that he is already getting in trouble around his classmates because of his nation, he already got his phone stolen and a teacher only shrugged it off.

No. 989265

Nice to a lolcow a year ish ago because she seemed okay at least to me but kept a distance, unfriended her because she started getting really creepy and sexual towards me
Cant post anything anywhere without her finding it, have to have my social media locked with messages off at all times, if I don’t my messages get bombarded with violent threats from either her or her army of scrotes

Never befriend a cow, nonnies, will probably never be able to use the internet publicly again, i was never mean to her when i cut things off, just said what she did made me really uncomfortable and unadded her once she started begging.

No. 989267

>>989265
>>989265
bitch stop talking about me before I expose you

No. 989268

>I feel so fucking pressured to buy gifts for people this year but no one knows I'm really pressed for money because I never complain about finances and have major credit so most people think I'm well off so fuck me dead cause I'd look cheap and selfish if I didn't

No. 989270

>>989268
Homemade gift time, nonna. Warm fresh bread is a good Christmas gift and costs like 50 cents per loaf.

No. 989271

>>989267
i cant tell if youre a schizo who genuinely thinks this is you or just trolling

No. 989272

>>989271
I know anon who is posting about me and calling me cow worthy when she is the one. She thought she could ruin my life but post it then

No. 989273

>>989272
no ones posting you nonna relax

No. 989274

I'm tired of always ending up feeling meh about the person I'm dating. At first I get so excited and I'm so in love and all that but I grow tired so quickly and before I know it I'm watching their sleeping face thinking "is this the person I'm going to have to stare at for the rest of my life? What about that time they said X or Y thing to me?"
That's not to say I date mediocre people, in fact my friends and family are always surprised at how I have such good luck with romantic partners (both in terms of their looks/career/etc as well as their capacity to be faithful and loving) so I don't understand what it is about me that just can never be satisfied. I don't think the right person for me exists. I am probably a closet narc and the more my confidence grows as a result of maturing/my career progressing, the more I'll find it easy to kick love interests to the curb. I hate this. I feel like a psychopath

No. 989275

>>989273
The dms say otherwise

No. 989286

>>989274
Maybe they're not passionate enough? I've dated a few guys that seemed perfect on paper but they didn't dote on me and I got extremely bored

No. 989287

>>989185
Can you not happily vent..?

No. 989288

I just took my sisters kids off her and there’s an intervention order starting so she can’t see them again. She hit them, she doesn’t fuckin deserve them, no regrets. Moving to a bigger house and will keep them sage til they are grown. Fuck that crazy bitch she does T deserve a second chance after she hit them

No. 989289

>>989172
NTA but fuck off

No. 989290

>>989287
that's the opposite of a vent

No. 989292

>>989275
no one is dming you, take your meds.

No. 989299

I want to date but I'm poor as shit. I am also questioning if I am even bisexual because I got so fat and unhappy in all my relationships with men. As I have gotten older, the more I have become unattracted to them. Growing up, I had no crushes on celebrity men but was drawn to actresses like Ellen Paige (rip) and Emma Stone. But I worry no lesbian or bisexual would even take me seriously since I have not had sex with a woman yet. Maybe I will get my shit together and meet a cute fujo at a con or something someday.

No. 989303

>>989288
Absolutely based, ily anon

No. 989310

>>989288
Your the sister I wish I could be. Pushing myself a little harder tonight because of your post. Take care nonnie

No. 989315

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I miss my old best friend so much
I wish we didn't grow apart
I just miss her presence in my life
It didn't matter what we were talking about, I just loved being with her
I adore the person she is, I always have and always will but I think we've grown too far apart and it breaks my heart a little each time I think of it
I'll never meet anyone like her again
I selfishly hope she misses me too, but I think she's already moved on
I really do love my boyfriend, and he is my best friend, but the desire for a female best friend who I was as close as I was with her is still strong
But there'll never be another her
She feels like home and I feel homesick, I want to run into her arms and be hugged tight by her and hug her just as tight back
I want to hear all about what she's been doing, I want to make her feel better when she's down, I want to buy each other's Christmas gifts
Our last Christmas together I couldn't get her anything due to money issues but I wanted to get her a Sailor Moon makeup set
Now whenever I see Sailor Moon I think of her
I regret every single time I've ever hurt her
She doesn't deserve me, she deserves better
I hope she's well, but I have no way of knowing
We'll probably never speak again and it'll probably be for the best.

No. 989321

I need a haircut but I'm a pathetic baby bitch. I don't feel that I should be lectured for several minutes because I dye my hair at home and not the salon, just cut my hair please. I know I have split and damaged ends and I'm a retard for cutting my own bangs. ​Please just cut my hair.

No. 989322

My mental health issues are killing my relationship and my ability to maintain friendships and nothing is working. I've been in and out of therapy for years but I'm too stupid to apply what I learn in it to my daily life. I want to just dip out and start a new life somewhere else.

No. 989328

Im so nervous anons, im about to apply for an internship but i dont know what to put in my cv. The fucking rona nuked all my chances to get any kind of work-related experience, other than that im just a painfully average college student. I really hope i can get this internship anons, my anxiety is through the roof with this one.

No. 989352

>>989328
Good luck to you anon!!! It's normal to be nervous and in my country at least new interns aren't really expected to know much from the get go

No. 989354

My mom keeps touching my boobs or pinch my ass as a joke, i know she still sees me as a cute little kid or something but yesterday she went for my pussy as a joke too i guess??? I felt super disturbed and told her off but she just played it off as a weird and quirky habit
I feel so weird right now. Maybe i should move out (there's only two of us in this apartment)

No. 989359

>>984568
Late reply but the artist is called Chris Day. It's not from a manga or anything, just an art piece.

No. 989361

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>>989354
No one touches their daughters tits and pussy as a joke. I'd say go to the police because she's legally sexually assaulting you but I know most of you don't have the ovaries too. Seriously get out of there before you get hurt

No. 989362

>>989354
Are you the kissing my mom's boobs anon?

No. 989371

>>989362
What kissing my mom's boobs anon?

No. 989373

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>>989315
Reading this made me think of an old highschool friend who helped me when I was struggling at home. I hope you get to patch things up in the future or atleast get some closure with a nice goodbye, anon!

No. 989378

>>989315
Sadly I relate to this so much, nona. A few hours ago, I just had a dream about this ex-friend of mine. I want to believe that someday we will find someone as good for us again. Especially since our friends were able to do so. Don't give up hope

No. 989381

I'm not sure how to cope with the fact that someones life got much better after they left me. We didn't have a bad relationship and I don't think I "held them back", but him being so much happier with someone normal, someone who has friends, a family etc… shit hurts and makes me feel like I'm seriously damaged. Don't get me wrong, I don't want to be back in his life or anything and I know I shouldn't care but man…

No. 989384

>>989371
an anon with a weird relationship with her mother

>>989299
ngl money helps but you don't need much money to date.

>>989288
good job anon, I'm sure they will appreciate it when they are older

No. 989388

>>989384
She obviously doesn't like the assault and wants to distance herself from her mum. Don't you think you're a bit messed up in the head for assuming an anon who's been sexually assaulted by her mother regularly is the same anon who encourages incest?

No. 989389

>>989384
Honestly even if they don’t appreciate it idc. I kind of want them to have a bit of that normal adolescent entitlement, just as proof they’re secure enough to worry about something like the colour of their rooms or something small and dumb.


They’re children and they deserve better than violence and emotional abuse day in day out. They’re meant to worry about starting highschool and going to camp and tests and I’m about ready to fuckin eat anyone who dares cause them stress or pain that is not part of healthy normal growing up. Nobody has the right to terrorise a kid and i just want them to grow up okay. I want them to cry over a shit school picture or a mean friend or any normal thing not their own mum calling them cunts and slapping their faces and threatening suicide to a nine year old. The kids are out of her house so now she can an hero tbh. The kids are gonna have dinner together with us every night and go to the same school and never be called a mistake or a burden or a slut. I could kill my sister for how she’s hurt them and made herself out to be some poor little martyr.

Holy shit though I’m getting an entire family for Christmas! Time to start setting up bedrooms and digging them their own garden plots and making room for their stupid little dog.

No. 989400

>>989388
I wasn't making the comparison they were just asking who that other person is. That other person is also a victim of covert incest.

>>989389
don't go digging anything up just yet, they're going to want stability and will have a lot on their plate. They might not have the emotional bandwidth to care for a garden anytime soon.

No. 989401

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>>989388
Nta, but the anon who had that relationship with their mom wasn't encouraging incest either. Picrel, she says she's uncomfortable but puts up with it, and made a follow up post here >>>/ot/935178 where she says she realizes it's not normal. I don't mean to be defensive, but I don't know how you can see this as encouraging incest when anon's mom is pushing her boundaries to have this covertly incestous relationship.

No. 989404

>>989401
That's still a horrible way to react to someone who is being sexually assaulted by her mom wtf. This is also the site that mocked an anon for stripping to pay her sisters medical bills so idk what I expected. My own fault for thinking some of you had some sort of empathy

No. 989405

>>989401
I wonder how often the moid who posted this shitty bait and then made this ebin screencap spammed it on other imageboards.

No. 989410

>>989404
I usually defend venting anons, and I'm not the one who asked in the first placeI honestly think it was a genuine question, although a little callous. I just don't understand why you had to say that anon is encouraging incest when they're also being assaulted if you have so much empathy.

No. 989412

2 set of interviews and it was a basic job where you reply to customer emails and DM. Literally the job I've been doing for years. Got the rejection email just rn. I had an interview today but I know they aren't going to go with me. 3 months now and nothing. I hate it

No. 989413

>>989410
Why not worry about that later? Why is your first reaction to hear about someone getting sexually assaulted is to ask if they're another anon (which could possibly be bringing up their trauma if it is them because they're obviously trying to escape from the situation)

No. 989414

>>989354
My mom still slaps my ass and used to grab it all the time when I was a kid. I get angry and yell at her every but she just brushes it off like it's a joke and never listens to me. Why do retarded parents feel entitled to cross their children's boundaries.

No. 989416

>>989413
I didn't ask. Like I said, I only responded because I didn't understand why you would try to say that anon is encouraging incest.

No. 989417

>>989400
Yeah I’m getting a bit excited but the youngest is super into gardening. She’s already growing carrots and stuff at my house lol. Mostly I’m just gonna make sure they have a bedroom here that is theirs and make sure they know my home is theirs if they want or need that. If they wanna go be with their nan or dad then that’s the best thing for them to do that. Anything as long as it’s stable and safe and they choose it. It’s a few days off school holidays and I’m glad they’ll have some time off school to just kinda process everything and less pressure to choose where they wanna go. Feels like giving them some sort of control is really important rn. Don’t want them thinking they’re just gonna be tossed wherever and nobody cares what they think.

They’re such tough kids but it’s gotta be so frightening for them to have such a sudden and massive change.

No. 989420

Seeing absolutely retarded antivaxxer takes makes me want to fucking kys, I'm not going to die of the vaccine I'm going to die of pure cringe and second hand embarrassment these people cause me

No. 989422

>>989420
Please do

No. 989427

>>989414
My mom does this too. Seriously gets on my nerves but she gets upset when I tell her it's legitimately annoying. There's no winning.

No. 989437

This is seriously pathetic but man I look so old for my age and it bums me out. I've always been told I look a lot older, even as a kid. I thought that maybe, once I grow into my features I'll start looking my age but that doesn't seem to be happening. To top it off, I went from chubby to skinny recently and all of the fat in my face vanished. Youth doesn't matter and I don't 'feel' old or dread ageing but when people assume I'm 10 years older than I actually am it hurts.

No. 989438

I get to sell telekom shit to Germans starting next year. I want to kms but I need to survive the job for at least 4-6 months to get enough money to pay for a web dev course. Fucking shit fuck. I'm tired of shit jobs and all of this.

I also have to brush up my language skills, ugh..

No. 989439

>>989420
stay in your containment

No. 989448

>>989439
Ntayrt but shut the fuck up. People are allowed to post whatever they want in the vent thread. Seethe more.

No. 989452

I miss the 2010s so much. To an unhealthy degree. Like its not like it was the time of my life i was miserable throughout but i still somehow miss it. Maybe i miss being a teenager? Idk theres something more genuine and fun about the early 2010s that i felt died the moment we entered 2020

No. 989456

>>989448
They're right though, trying to continue infights outside of a thread it was for is unnecessary and annoying and abuses the vent thread

No. 989459

>>989456
How do you find the critical (x)(x) board

No. 989462

>>989461
Do u know how to find the gender critical (x)(x) board it’s hidden

No. 989465

>>989459
Why do you keep spamming this? It makes you sound like a scrote, it's not that hard to find

No. 989468

>>989465
Because I wanted a answer. I don’t see it on the top. I’m on mobile btw. I was just curious when it popped up because I’m newer and didn’t see this board

No. 989479

>>989456
nta but in that case the infighter wouldnt be that anon but the retard antivaxxer that responds. you can vent about anything in the thread and if there's seething autists responding to your venting that's no longer your problem

No. 989482

>>989456
It’s almost like the threads they would post in are overrun by nutjobs that keep screaming about being antivaxx and would rather not invite their vitriol. It was an off comment and Anon could’ve ignored it instead of bitching immediately and in turn proceeding to do the very thing they didn’t want to happen. Vent thread is for whatever people want to vent about.

No. 989492

>>989479
>telling an anon to take their sperging to the matching thread makes one an antivaxxer
lmao okay

>>989448
there's only one person seething here and it isn't me

No. 989494

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Half the time I believe I'm a failure and a mess and not five seconds later I feel like a God.

I'm constantly torn by the competing desire to stick around or just Gone Girl the fuck out of here.

I'm too old to be this bpd.

No. 989498

>>989492
i wasnt calling you an antivaxxer…. i was saying that you shouldnt expect people to censor themselves just because there's a possibility that autists are gonna come here and start seething at them.

No. 989500

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Holy FUCK why can't I sleep this week. I have class at 9 am so fuck it I'll just stay up. I'm not trying to get 2 hours of sleep like I did yesterday it fucked me up even worse.

No. 989530

My bf hit me and anons online decided i deserve to be hit more, imma kms

No. 989537

>>989500
I've also been having troubles sleeping at normal times. I wish I could go back to getting sleepy at 8pm, now it's 3am when I have class at 8. Maybe you could try sleepyti.me? It shows you what time you should go to bed to get up when you need to and it has actually helped me. My sleep cycle is still fucked, but at least I know what time to set the alarm to to ensure I will get up. I also never go back to sleep after waking up now

No. 989543

>>989500
I dreamed someone was breaking into my house and then I couldn't sleep either, also is that gaben

No. 989547

>>989352
Thank you kind anon, i really hope it goes well for me. I'll report back if i can.

No. 989557

>>989361
Ayrt, thanks anon, i would probably talk about it more but the legal enforcement in my country barely even cares about violent rape cases, i think they'd just laugh at me talking about my mom. I'll just try to run away for now

No. 989560

>>989530
You don’t deserve to be hit, nonna

No. 989563

>>989414
Something something ppl feel entitled to womens bodies, even other women. Nta but my mom and little brother would slap my ass "as a joke" and only stopped when I started physically retaliating. But sometimes my mom does it anyway, still. And it's not like she's just touchy, she keeps her distance except the butt thing. I swear it's a control thing. Whenever I go hide somewhere in the house to be left alone for an hour she prowls around to find me and then screams at me. I'm not allowed to have any boundaries I guess, can't wait to get out of this shithole. I'd help her mentally if she didn't take her mental illness out on me, but that's how it's always been, her dumping her fears and insecurities on anyone below her (ofc not on her pwecious fucking son, though, just her daughter).

No. 989566

>>989498
There's literally a rule to keep covid shit in their own threads, go post there, muh freedom

No. 989571

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i charged my airpods and put them in my stupid bag only for them to fall out in my sisters car when i get ready for work. I hate that my spidey senses were tingling throughout the car ride to make sure my airpods were where i put them. BUT OF COURSE i didnt listen. Im so mad because i dont want to listen to my coworkers talk all day i hate them. Their voices grind my gears. It doesnt help that im literally the only black person/minority in this bitch. I will literally go into the bathroom and slit my wrists. This is the worst timeline.

No. 989608

i’m stuck in a foreign country thousands of miles away from my home country, with no money and no help from anyone, i seriously want to kill myself
i was working here for a while and the company refuses to pay me, i’ve tried getting help but nobody cares so i’m fucked
i ruined my life

No. 989617

why does everything cost money? i need to get so much shit fixed but i don't have the money. miserable.

No. 989623

all those lockdowns and 24/7 together in my flat are grinding away all my feelings for my bf of 2 years. I don't want to do do stuff with him, I don't want to be intimate with him, I get angry when he tells me how to do stuff or explains shit. I just want to be alone. he also forgot my birthday. that cunt.

No. 989630

>>989623
Lock him out of the house, male family/bfs during this pandemic have gone insane I swear, they can't handle any stress or inconvenience. I hope cheap VR comes soon so they can stop hassling everyone.

No. 989632

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I hate having roommates so much. I live with 3 other girls around my age. 2 of them are best friends and dominate the household. The other one keeps to herself for the most part, but is super passive aggressive and never cleans up. The 2 best friends constantly have people over (4-5x a week at least) and play instruments super loud. I told them that I was going to have a small gathering with some friends to cook and eat dinner a week in advance and they STILL could not give us space- they had a party. They contribute nothing to the household chores at all, and I just don't have the energy anymore to parent them and ask them to pick up after themselves, so I end up doing it myself. I tried in the beginning of our lease to set some ground rules (do your dishes within a day or so, don't leave your personal belongings spread along the house, wipe up when you spill something) and anytime I ask them to do one of these things it's always muh anxiety!! excuse. 1 of them right now has been sleeping on the couch with her partner all morning. I went in the kitchen (right next to the living room), made as much noise as I possibly could, and 3 hrs later they are still sound asleep, meaning I can't use that space to work unless I want to sit next to them while they're sleeping. This isn't an uncommon occurence, either. Sometimes I'll come home and start making dinner and I won't notice she's sleeping on the couch until like 30 minutes later. It's disturbing to me how much they act like children, they genuinely remind me of my kid cousins. When I have tried to be friendly with them/hang out with them they just make me cringe so bad- and they always pull out their phones to take videos of whats going on which makes me super uncomfortable. I have ~5 more months of living in this house, and I just can't wait until I can move out and never have immature goon roommates again.

No. 989634

>>989623
I feel you nonnie. I don't live with my bf right now but I did during the initial lockdown in March. It was so stressful, both of us were out of jobs and we absolutely hated each other for that time. If it makes you feel better, we ended up getting separate apartments, our jobs/daily lives back, and our relationship has gotten so much better.

No. 989641

>>989634
I always tell him that I want separate apartments but he refuses, although he has a high paying job and minimal expenses. In the end we will just break up because he values saving some money more than my sanity and I just can't take it anymore.

No. 989649

>>989641
are you able to move out on your own accord? it seems like your environment & he is making you very unhappy.

No. 989681

My work crush is alcoholic and it fucking breaks my heart

No. 989682

>>989641
Please don't tell me you're paying half of the rent. Anon.

No. 989685

>>989649
I don't want to tbh. He crashed into my apartment, it's my family's place so I'm saving a bit on rent and I don't want to spend money or energy on a place that I will leave in 2-3 years due to my upcoming universit/job situation

>>989682
I'm paying a bit more than half but earn significantly less. also, I do all the cleaning, cooking and grocery shopping (we split this bill in half also)

No. 989687

I feel deeply uncomfortable and i have no one i'm ready to this about with but my brother has become a social outcast. He's a total neet and incel and refuses to even finish high school, despite resitting twice. We live in the middle east and my family isn't really religious or anything but still extremely misogynistic. My parents let him say and do whatever he wants because they failed to raise him and now they're scared of him. Just now when i was in the middle of studying i heard him tell them how he wants to "fuck a whore" if he could, saying they aren't humans. I told my parents many times that as their only daughter i'm deeply uncomfortable with some of the things that's been said in this household but it gets ignored every time and i'm getting told i'm overreacting or i should ignore it. Every day i have to endure extremely misogynistic bullshit as the only female child in this house, even from my own mom. I feel like this house will drive me insane i have actual tears in my eyes rn.

No. 989690

>>989687
That sounds horrid, anon, I'm sorry. Is there any way you could move out?

No. 989693

>>989681
are you the same anon who kissed their work crush and I think went on a date? I'm sorry either way

No. 989694

>>989687
I'm so sorry anon. That sounds horrible. I hate hearing situations like this, where the son of the house can get away with anything.

No. 989701

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>>989687
and you know the most fucked up part, like an Incel in the west, men like your brother will find a wife
your parents will arrange a marriage with a poor village girl whom your brother will abuse and rape

No. 989702

>>989681
I had a meeting with him today where he was slurring his words and was disoriented. It literally made me cry afterwards

No. 989704

>>989693
No that was another anon, I'll never get to kiss him, we work in separate offices, we only interact through the work chat

No. 989705

>>989687
Avoid him as much as possible, engaging him might tick him off and he sounds like the type eager to abuse. He is not your problem to solve, your parents, especially your father, have failed you. Prioritize liberating yourself if at all possible. A good brother is one of the only pure relationships you can ever have with a male, it is so disappointing that so very few have the character for it.

No. 989716

I'm starving, but 3-4 days a week I can't keep anything down. Been like this for 7 years now and doctors don't know why. I cannot express to you how hungry I am, how much I would love to eat something horrifyingly disgusting like chinese food or something with an unnaturally coloured sauce on it. I would love to eat nachos with every topping, I wish I could eat a gigantic pierogie in sour cream. I ate plain rice two days ago and I'm still retching from it being in my system. If my doctor can't figure this out, I'm gonna end it. I have no energy, I don't leave the house anymore, my hair and nails are broken and dull. Watching My 600lb Life makes me SO FUCKING JEALOUS. I would literally remove my fingers with bolt-cutters to eat one of their meals. Holy shit, at dinner last night I couldn't eat due to nausea but I was so hungry I just started crying. My CBC is fucked up, but I can't keep food down to fix it and need blood transfusions. But that's like a bandaid treatment because it'll all deplete when they can't figure out why I'm so sick. Anyways, I'm so hungry that seeing a 700+lb neckbeard eat Chinese food for breakfast actually made me drool and THAT is the sickest symptom.

No. 989726

The really fun thing about job hunting in a rural area is the fact that the only listings I can find are for CDL programs and gas stations 3 towns away.

No. 989728

haven't showered in 3 days, haven't changed my clothes in 2 days. been sleeping in the same outfit.

My self esteem is shot.

No. 989731

I know this semi belongs in the Troon thread but holy fuck is it ever true. Whenever I come across any "Transwomen" they're always attempting to be some pink cutesy kawaii kind of bullshit. I can think of only one from college that wore normal clothes but then again they were so fucked in the head and made super uncomfortable sexual comments all the time. The last time I was close to one was work and they're honestly the worst person. WHY DO MOST OF YOU ACT SO SHITTY

No. 989733

>>989731
Because they're scrotes who are living their fetish.

No. 989744

>>989716
Have you done all the proper exams? Things like endoscopies, MRI and ultrasounds? Do you have allergies? You have to rule out everything physical first to make sure your organs work properly.
I used to have a similar issue, could barely eat for two/three years and lost a lot of weight. However the issue was mostly due to a cocktail of severe anxiety and depression and after some time (and a lot of exams and tests) I was able to get it under control (with a lot of help from medication). Also how are you able to get regular blood transfusions without a diagnosis? I assume you're also underweight, don't doctors try to admit you to a hospital?

No. 989751

>>989744
Every single test imaginable. The most recent one is genetic testing because they suspect that I have a disorder where I can't digest protein, plus suspected Marfans/loeys-dietz. And just waiting on an echo. I look like a rail, but I'm nearly 6' tall which doesn't help. The hospitals only admit me long enough to rehydrate me if I've been unable to keep down water, but I stopped going near the beginning of the pandemic. The transfusions are for iron, I'm not sure I needed a hard diagnosis for that treatment though beyond blood tests. Anemic I guess? And fuck I wish hospitals admitted me to somehow keep food down or something but that's not exactly an ER scenario here. When I've gone to the ER they've only given me like 8mg of ondansetron through IV and rehydrated. I look like a crackhead, or someone with an eating disorder or something. I feel hideous.
The geneticist should be calling back within the next 2-3 weeks so we'll either have an answer or do further testing. She diagnosed me with a hyperkinetic movement disorder and that answered quite a bit at least. I'm just tired. And fucking hungry

No. 989760

>>989751
I see, I hope something comes out of the genetic testing. Would be better if you didn't have anything to begin with, but at least you'll know what to do once you find out what you have. It's good that at least the ER gives you iron and fluids without too much trouble. In the meantime, are there any foods you feel like you digest better?
I had constant nausea for a lot of time and I've come to realize that it's one of the most terrible feelings. I used to think it was straight up torture. I wish you well anon.

No. 989805

Sometimes I genuinely wonder how anyone could enjoy or even tolerate exisiting. Do I just want everyone to be as miserable as me? Sadness loves company, as they say. Then again I'm really glad people are happy and they're content with their lives. In fact usually I can't stand being around mopey gloomy people, maybe it's cause I'm not comfortable with the way they remind me of how I can be when I'm at my absolute lowest. Nothing I do or feel makes any sense

No. 989808

>>989687
i'm op..thank you for the replies, guys. I ended up confronting them about it and telling them that they're enablers and that they have no respect for me etc. My mom was apologetic but both still defended him saying its normal at his age and that we have free speech in this house. i knew i was gonna get the same gaslighting responses but at least i let it out. I really think it'll be a matter of time before i off myself cause that's the only way to escape. There's no life worth living as a woman where i'm from unless you have extremely progressive liberal parents.

No. 989829

>>989716
Is it some kind of autoimmune or gut disorder?

No. 989834

>>989716
sounds like cyclical vomitting syndrome or smth

No. 989835

>>989751
>suspected Marfans
RIP I hope that's not it, but at this point you could try CBD oil lots of ppl with gut disorders use it to lessen symptoms. Bland organic food, too.

No. 989841

>>989805
Most ppl just cope with kids alcohol drugs sex food etc. Only a few ppl are genuinely happy.

No. 989852

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My shitty downstairs neighbors got their cat back from the humane society after I took it there because they left it outside all weekend while they were away from home and it's COLD outside. This is is sweetest cat ever and they put it outside and leave like it's nothing. No food, water, bed, or anything. There's a busy road nearby, people constantly speed down our street/intersection, and there's a river nearby so there's RACCOONS!! This is after she was "lost" for a while too. If you can't keep track of your cat, don't fucking put them outside. I've been trying very very hard to work on my anxiety and paranoia but this damn cat has been on my mind so much. I know I'm a nosy neighbor but I just can't stand seeing stupid shit like not taking care of your cat. I felt so relieved after I took her to the humane society because I knew she would at least have a warm bed and access to clean water and food. I feel like that's all been taken away and I'm stressed and scared again. I don't need another crisis, but Winter makes me feel so depressed and crazy. I've been spending more time with my own cat and telling her how much I love her to try to feel better. I hope the neighbors don't leave that sweet kitty outside again because it's starting to rain and snow more now…

No. 989863

>>989852
You already know what to do, anon. They're probably too negligent and shitty to even care

No. 989871

i got kicked off a project i started because my partner was an asshole and now it's featured in rolling stone.

No. 989878

>>989852
take it to a humane society/no kill shelter in a different town

No. 989890

i don't understand how my boyfriend (future husband) is attracted to me with my fridge waist? i actually want to kill myself, i can't even look at that entire part of my body. even when i was anorexic weight i still had a fridge waist so it's definitely just a bone structure thing. i want to die

No. 989894

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This is a not so subtle example of how porn effects boys at a young age. He assumes that a teenage girl would be a porn-esque caricature of a woman, similar to shit you’d see in ‘teen’ porn because his brain has been rotted by porn to the point where his reference point for girls his age is built around porn, instead of his own real life experience with girls in age (like in school) ,in contrast to the reality that she’s just a kid


https://youtube.com/shorts/pQTske4SEXg?feature=share

No. 989897

>missed call from bf this morning
>called him back 5 minutes later
>call 3 times
>start having bpd thoughts that he's punishing me and mad at me for missing his call
>10 minutes later he calls me back
>think about ignoring it to get back at him
>remember I'm being crazy and picks up
>get upset at him, he apologized and said he didn't know I called
>I break down crying
>he said there's no negative feelings between us, it was just an accident
>

No. 989898

>>989894
this has nothing to do with porn, it's clearly ripping at the weird sense of style.

No. 989899

>>989894
gross this is so disturbing. men need the guillotine STAT

No. 989901

>>989897
girl take a nap and eat a snickers.

No. 989902

>>989899
jesus christ get a grip, stop seeing things where there are none.

No. 989903

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>>989897
(accidentally posted without finishing because I'm mobile posting please don't ban me mods)
>I tell him about my bpd thoughts that he's trying to punish me
>he reassures me that he loves me and he would never do anything like that
>says he doesn't judge me for having thoughts like that and understands its because I was abused in the past
>tells me he loves me and asks me to draw something today and make a cup of tea to make myself feel better
>he hangs up and goes to work
>I remember I'm crazy and grateful for having such a patient and loving boyfriend for the first time in my life

No. 989908

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Can anyone spare some advice? I'm a woman in my early 20's that's dreadful of girls my age. I was bullied in the past for being quiet, dumb, etc. I became a femcel for a couple years until I decided to become a proper person and move on. I have made several female friends but none I would actually want to be really close to. Recently, my best friend (also a girl) spread rumors about me and completely destroyed my self esteem. It's been a year since then, and my gynophobia has only worsened. I befriended a girl who seems very nice and someone I'm actually glad to be friends with, but the past clings to me and I'm actually paranoid that one day I'll be either bullied or gossiped about again. How do I get over my fear of women? I just want to make female friends like a normal girl, but it's actually really scary for me.

No. 989921

men are allowed on the lolcow discord yikes

No. 989925

>>989921
they always have been

No. 989927

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I have never wished harm on my ex but jesus christ I want to slap him until he cries.

I managed to keep things civil even after finding out he cheated on his gf with me (didn't tell me about her and we were fwb, didn't have ig and his profile was private. I messaged her but she didn't even want to talk or believe me, acted like a bitch so I guess they deserve each other). I asked him today when the phone contract is ending since he took in on my number. Instead of just FUCKING answering me he's been ghosting or is waiting for a weekend. I know he saw the dm because he can't even take a piss without his phone in his hand. I need a simple yes/no answer so I can know when to get a new plan since I'm starting a new job at the same time. I don't want to call the company, explain everything, be put on hold and similar shit, JUST ANSWER YES OR NO YOU DICKBAG.

No. 989928

>>989908
Try to not befriend women who try to pander to an audience and thrive off attention and gossiping. Make sure they have their own hobbies because only people with strong senses of identities wouldn't pick on people who are struggling socially. Good luck anon, I've been in your position before and I befriended women who liked caring for plants, crocheting, and coding.

No. 989932

Gee I sure wish my boyfriend wouldn't stonewall me whenever he perceives that I'm hiding something from him or if he thinks I'm thinking about other guys. His jealousy issues really tear me to shreds and they seem to happen for the littlest reasons. This is after I deleted a message because I was trying to keep a secret for a Christmas present. But he likes to open my packages anyway so I figured I'd just wait for it to be delivered.
But nope. Me deleting those messages meant I was hiding something from him. And now he refuses to communicate. Fuck me. I don't need this right now.
Yeah. I know what you're all gonna say.

No. 989933

>>989863
Right??? I'm going to call the humane society next time they put her in a similar situation to see if they can take her and prevent them from getting her back. I'd take her in myself but I live right above them and my cat doesn't like other animals.
>>989878
This might be my next move if nothing else works. There aren't too many shelters around her so I would be hoping that they wouldn't look for her that hard. I'm surprised they picked her up from the pound in the first place.

No. 989934

>>989921
what? how? wasn't the voice verification supposed to combat that?

No. 989935

>>989925
then what is voice verification for? is it a different server?

No. 989936

>>989935
the verified section is hidden from the public section

No. 989937

>>989921
the site is overrun with them now

No. 989938

>>989934
Men can be in the public channels because it's a public server.
Voice verification is for access to the private channels of the server.

No. 989942

>>989908
Hey, anon! Idk if this helps but I've been in your situation before, being hurt by women, having the people closest to me betray me, traumatizing experiences affecting my life in general. I know it's difficult to move on from the past, I can't say that my past doesn't come back and haunt me like it used to before but it certainly has improved.
My advice to you is (although it can sound very cliche) but you need to believe that there are good people out there, making friends as an adult can be difficult but not impossible I would say. If the people are shitty they will show their true colors and trust me, no matter how nice they used to be you don't owe them anything and you really don't want another snake in your life.
Learn to come to terms with your traumas, talk to a professional if you can, avoid unhealthy coping mechanisms like drugs or alcohol, and remember to built your self-esteem too. I hope this helps anon! good luck.

No. 989952

>>989928
>>989942
Thank you anons, I really appreciate the advice. I must admit I actually cried reading this. I have never opened up about any of this until now to a bunch of strangers in an anonymous imageboard, I didn't expect people would actually give me advice and expected to be made fun of instead. When I befriended this new girl recently, I was ecstatic because I looked up to her but then I started breaking down into tears thinking things will inevitably go horribly wrong and it just damaged me a lot. I will try to believe there are genuinely kind people out there, it will be hard but I'll try not to let my trauma hold me down. I'll probably go see a shrink too since I'm actually considering it. Thank you again anons.

No. 989956

>>989937
Are they still accepting mods bc I swear no one has a scrote sensor, I'll do it myself

No. 990001

>>989938
How many voice verified anons are there? I'm wondering if it's worth joining

No. 990006

>>990001
over 20 nonnas

No. 990014

>>990006
Cool! How does one get voice verifies? Do I send a dm to the owner? I don't see a specific voice verification channel

No. 990017

My friend had a baby and she didn't really have a support system so me and her boyfriend helped organize a baby shower for her, and some bitch who is her mom's daughters friend (who has known my friend for a month ) is claiming she was the one who organized the baby shower and it's so annoying idk
also this bitch always is YELLING nonstop and talking about how serial killers are so hot and bragging about how she knows how to hide a body (not in a future killer way, in an overgrown preteen of an adult woman who thinks shes edgy way)
She also shit talks my friend's pregnancy and says she "doesnt get along with her baby daddy" when she doesn't even know him

No. 990020

>>990014
you wait til a discord mod is online then ping them to go in the vc

No. 990021

>>990014
You ask a server mod to verify you. Kino chat is where the voice verification is.

No. 990036

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My cat is in the ICU with renal disease nonnies. I just called them this morning for an update and her kidney stone is passing slowly, which is good, but I'm mentally preparing for the worst. They seem positive about her but I can't help being pessimistic as I had another cat pass away really suddenly a couple years back which is why I have this one.

She's my favourite thing in the world, I live alone and she's my company. She's literally always there for me and I don't know how I'd cope without her. I cried into my bfs chest last night and barely got any sleep. I'm not even religious but I was praying, really praying that she makes it out ok. She's young though, and has a lot of fight in her, so I really believe she can get through it.

No. 990042

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I'm starting to notice that my memory seems to be going to shit and it really scares me. I used to always have a great memory, but over the past year or so, most notably the last few months, my memory has started to fail me more and more often. There's been a bunch of times where I was talking to someone and they say I told them those exact things a couple weeks ago, while I had zero memory of that. Or I'd ask a (pretty specific and/or personal) question only to find out I've apparently asked that same question before, but I don't remember what the answer was at all.

I really don't want to fuck up my memory and I know it's probably related to my drinking habits. Which I'm working on, but struggle with a lot.
Has anyone here had a similar experience and was it permanent? Or did your memory regain its previous functionality over time?

No. 990046

>>990036
I am focusing every ounce of energy I have into your baby's successful recovery, she will be the only thing in my heart for the next 24 hours.

No. 990055

>>990036
I'm so sorry about your sweet kitten. I saw many owners struggle with their kitty's kidney issues when I worked at a vet clinic. Renal disease is a bitch. I'm glad her kidney stone is passing! I'm going to pray for your cat tonight too, if that is ok.

No. 990100

>>990046
>>990055
This is so lovely, thank you so much. I will come back with an update, let's hope she's safe and well.

No. 990105

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I had to substitute teach five classes today because there’s a shortage of actual substitute teachers. My job started out pretty enjoyable but if this becomes a regular occurrence I’m going to burn out. I can’t imagine wanting to be a teacher after experiencing what they have to do on the daily

No. 990110

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I'm currently in an extremely stressful week with a shit ton of really important work to do for school and I just learned that a teacher wants me to remake one of my animation work. I'm so pissed because it's the second time that it's happening, and every time I lost so much time. What's worse is that is that I have to animate the ugliest puppet on after effects ( the teacher designed it lol it's so bad, half of the mouths are wrong and useless ) and I won't even be able to keep this animation for my portfolio. I also absolutely hate this teacher, he never does his work correctly and is constantly making weirdly innapropriate jokes ( always about women's body of course ). Knowing that I will have to loose time right now is so stressful, I want to scream. I've always had really good grade in animation so I'm lowkey starting to think that he has something against me. Wish me luck nonnies, I need power and strenght.

No. 990112

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>>990036
Sending prayers and well wishes your way. Hoping your baby will pull through. If it's slowly passing, that's definitely news to be hopeful about.

No. 990123

My bf pronounces my name slightly wrong. He corrects himself immediately after but I'm wondering why the wrong pronunciation is just engrained in him. It's not a common name at all so I doubt it's from someone he knows in the past.

No. 990127

>>989685
>he has a high paying job
>I'm paying a bit more than half but earn significantly less. also, I do all the cleaning, cooking and grocery shopping (we split this bill in half also)
The absolute state

No. 990128

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Stressed again. I want to ask my mum for monetary help to pay my pills and bills but god does she making me feel like shit whenever I go ask for help.
I want to cry. Guess I'll sell feet pics again.

No. 990130

My old friend group and I are growing apart. They leave me out of group events, don't try to initiate conversations with me, etc. It really hurts because I poured a lot of love, time, money, and effort into being their friends, but apparently that meant so little to them that they won't even try to reciprocate. We used to run in the same hobby groups, but their focus shifted to another that I have 0 interest in.

I'm just really sad, nonas, and kind of bitter. How hard is it to reach out to a friend now and again? Just really selfish of them. I don't think going forward I will ever pour love, time, or money into a relationship unless the other person tries to bridge that gap first.

No. 990131

I can't wait for the weekend. I need more free time, I'm sick of working 40h a week, taking 2 hours to commute everyday, and to use my PTO to go to doctors' appointments to make sure I don't have a cancerous breast tumor instead of actually planning fun or relaxing things.

No. 990146

sometimes my boyfriend calls me by his half sisters name by accident but i audibly gasped when he called his mother by my name while i was sitting at the same table. that was awksies

No. 990150

Why did my mom have to marry my fugly ass dad? She has all the gorgeous features (that my sister mostly inherited) while my dad passed down the oblong head shape, gap teeth and thick dark hair. Ugly motherfucker.

No. 990155

>>990123
Is your name from a different language than his native one?

No. 990160

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I live with my elderly mother and all I want to do is move the fuck away, but she's too emotionally (and increasingly physically) dependent on me.

In her mind, none of my problems ever compare to her's. I work forty five hour weeks and make minimum wage? Well, she worked forty hours (at a high paying job!) for forty years to support the children she CHOSE to have and the lazy fuck she CHOSE to marry, so nothing the happens to me ever matters. I'm not allowed to be sad or tired because she was sad and tired for longer than me. Guess I'm a bitch for not having a time machine, or suffering in some kind of way that's equivalent to wasting forty years of my life. Nevermind that it fucking sucks to work nine hours a day and come home to two people who've been sitting around watching TV all afternoon and be nagged about a bunch of inane bullshit that doesn't matter.

She acts like giving birth to me and raising me is something I'm indebted to her for, even though she desperately wanted to be a mother before I was born. Parent-child relationships are transactional to her. MY brother and I are now required to be her therapists, take care of her, and give her what little money we make. She doesn't even need the fucking money, she just wants to suck us dry of anything that makes us happy because we "owe" her for raising us. Worse yet, I'm stuck with repaying this "debt" on my own because my brother moved to the opposite end of the country after promising for years that he would stay with my parents and take care of them. I feel trapped. My relationship with my mom used to be really good, but the longer I live with her, the more I hate her. All the men in my life keep telling me "lol just ignore her feelings and move away," but I don't have that fucking option because that's what my fuckhead brother chose to do.

She also wants to be push me out of my childhood bedroom and make me live in the fucking basement because she wants to make my room into a home gym. I can't wait to sleep in a cold, windowless basement after slaving away at work and caring for a couple of emotional vampires! I hate this so much. I feel like an asshole for hating it, y'know, cause it's a "free" place to live. I might not be paying with money, but I feel like I'm paying with something else, like each day I spend here I'm a little more miserable.

No. 990168

Fuck those instagram face filters. I stopped taking selfies like two years ago. Like, just outright stopped taking them because I would spend at least 30 minutes taking selfies, looking for my absolute best angles, and even then after taking the "perfect" selfie, I would find things to hate. Even while using stuff like face filters! So I just stopped taking them.

I still use instagram regularly solely for browsing sending reels and posts back and forth with friends, but my profile is empty and I will only occasionally post on my story (but it is never a selfie). It's helped my self esteem so much. When friends take photos I do big cheesy smiles that I used to fucking hate and now I look at myself and I think I look so cute in all of my happy glory. I saw a hair color filter today so I went to try it and it also included instahoe make up and it… made me feel so fucked up looking at myself?! I'm glad I'm so desensitized to these filters now, because they fuck up your face so much in ways I was never able to see before. Don't change my eyecolor. Don't slim down my chin. Don't plump up my lips. I looked fucking fine before, now I look like an alien who got beat the fuck up and left to decompose in a ditch for three days. I hate these things so much. I hate how they used to make me feel beautiful and then inadequate when I didn't have them on, and I hate knowing there are young girls, or really any women! who used to be in my position and used to look at themselves with these filters that would ~*~make them look their best~*~.

No. 990177

I want to die

No. 990179

I don't want to be at work for two more hours. My head is killing me. Feels like a series of recurring mini seizures. I'm on the verge of crying but don't even have the mental capacity to form tears to cry. I cant stand this job and I'm verging on quitting having been here for four years. No Christmas has been this blue before. I'm fed up with the world, and I don't even know why

No. 990190

i'm so sick of how i'm supposed to tolerate and work with all of the ESL (second language is an overstatement, most can barely string a simple sentence together) people at my job. I swear to god they're obsessed with hiring them for diversity quota but christ is it really that difficult to find non-white people with some english proficiency? on multiple occasions now projects that I work on with non-native speakers have gotten fucked up because of the language barrier. I hate when people say shit like "this is america speak english" but if you're working in the corporate world I feel like being able to communicate should be an important prerequisite. i'm constantly having to dumb down what I write in emails to a grade school level and check that they understand what I am saying so that they don't fuck up the project. plus, there are so many cultural differences that no one at my company can say anything about for fear of coming across as racist (mainly hygiene and being on time to things and other social cues, also blatant sexism from men - like one of the men laughs when any woman speaks). in response to concerns from the team my manager has encouraged us to take time outside of work to learn hindi, korean, japanese, mandarin, etc. what the fuck.

No. 990195

>>990042
Yeah mines been worse, so many ppl I know are having memory issues not just elderly, and it's scary. Tinfoil but maybe it's 5g/vac/etc. This isn't natural.
>>990160
You're her little bitch, that's how you're paying. I'd try to reduce the amount of time you spend around her, and try your best to not give her any money. She's the type of parasitic person that's dead inside and needs an energy source to leech the life out of. Don't react to her bait, always keep a bored tone, pretend to be dead inside.

No. 990197

>>990160
Gonna say it anyway: move away.
What you gonna do, suffer till she dies? Put yourself first if you and your mother can't live in a way that's balanced and healthy for both of you.

No. 990198

>>990160
your mom is a narcissist and the healthiest thing you can do for yourself is moving out and severing ties with her as soon as possible
this will never end and only make your life increasingly more stressful and miserable
as soon as I got away from my mom, my mental health improved so much

try checking Craigslist or Facebook Marketplace for roommate wanted ads, there's always ones where it's females-only

No. 990201

>>990160
Anon why don't you move into the basement, just spend all your time down there and she won't bother you. Put some things to slip on on the stairs too kek.

No. 990204

>>990190
God I fucking hate this. You know what, keep pestering them, let the project fail, and then they'll have a paper trail on why it failed.

No. 990209

>>990160
Stop treating your mom like she's a child. She's not. She's a grown woman.
She will manage without you because she is a grown woman. You do not owe her anything for raising you. SHE chose to give birth to you.
You need to stop with this weird Stockholm syndrome you have in your head where you act like you have literally no choice but to stay there. You do have a choice, your mom just convinced you that you don't.
She's manipulated you. You will feel better if you leave. Stop writing off leaving like it isn't an option when it's the only option you have.
Her forcing you out of your bedroom seems like the universe telling you to pack your shit and get the fuck out of there.

No. 990210

Apparently there's a new music genre and its called "dariacore", i would post this in a music thread or whatever but there's something about all of this that is really distressing to me: why is zoomer music so…soulless? first hyperpop, now this, why can't they drag a guitar/daw and make a nice, warm song? why the "sound of the future" has to be so fucking sterile? maybe i'm overreacting, but it makes me feel hollow and sad, i do appreciate sad songs and electronica, but these just sound so…wrong, i hope it doesn't catch on and dies like hyperpop did

No. 990221

>>990210
this is literally just noise mashed together. let me make a patreon

No. 990235

I got invisalign about two weeks ago and holy fuck I didn't expect it to be so annoying. The pressure on my gums and teeth drives me insane and I constantly want to bite down on something to relieve it. At least I only have to wear it for 5 more months but I wish I needed braces when I was a teen and not now that I'm an adult and have to pay out of my own pocket.

No. 990239

I'm tired of living with large babies that think only about themselves. That cry and complain about everything little thing but steal from me and dont give a shit. I'm stressed and feel like shit constantly but nobody cares about that. But they'll make a whole drama about themselves because some stupid little inconvenience happens.

No. 990241

>>990239
Ungrateful bastards

No. 990245

I’m so fucking sad…I don’t think I got the job I interviewed for a few days ago. They aren’t calling back. Not even to say no. They told me they’d tell me the day of…..oh man I’m sad

No. 990250

>>990245
sorry nonnie, they usually never call.
next time you should call them the next day and say you're still interested and ask if they've made a decision.
if they're on the fence between you and a few others, they'll usually give you the job because you showed initiative

No. 990252

>>990250
>>990245
You should do what this anon said and give them a call.
I once got a job this way, kind of fucked up but originally they gave the job to someone else but he hadn’t started yet, because I called them it showed initiative and they took the job away from him and gave it to me…
That sounds terrible but it was pretty low level work, he didn’t miss out on much

No. 990254

>>990245
Call them back. Someone convinced me to call back when I had a similar situation and I got the job. They had a lot of applications so the boss said it took longer than usual to get back to everyone after the interviews

No. 990262

About to be my birthday in a few hours and I'm spending it taking my final and going in to my stupid job. Wanted to do something with friends but one gc member had a narc freakout and now chat is tense. Hate that I've been in misery the last few months, and was looking forward to maybe doing something for myself but now nothing. Don't mean to be selfish but nothing ever falls in my favor, and I'm sick of just being the person that has to be pushed down. Maybe one day I'll be happy lol happy bday to me ig

No. 990267

>>990239
Preach sis. Dealing with this right now

No. 990268

>>990177
Samesies

No. 990310

It’s been a little more than 6 months and he hasn’t told me he loves me. I let it slip once a month ago and I said “I’m sorry” and he said “what would you be sorry for?” but he didn’t say it back. Is he leading me on. Is this normal at all.

No. 990330

Have been waking up at 4 am for the third day in a row now. RIP my neighbors who have to listen to me packing into the dishwasher and do random cleaning around the house at such an ungodly hour

No. 990364

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I hate working so much my nonnies.
The happiest times of my life have been when I've been either jobless/between jobs or working very part-time.

No. 990379

>>990310
i don't think you should spend time on him anymore

No. 990380

>>990364
This is why I quit my job every 6-8 months

No. 990382

>>990310
If he loved you, you'd know it

Confusion is always a bad sign

No. 990383

>>990380
I think it's the best option for me too nonnie. Although I can't afford to permanently quit work or even work part-time forever, at least if I have an extended break between jobs to look forward to I won't rope.

No. 990391

>>989274
anon i feel like im the same way. the beginning of the relationship and getting to know someone is exciting but i end up feeling bored and trapped quickly and it becomes impossible to ignore so i break up with them out of guilt i think. i get terrified thinking i have to pick one person and thats the person im expected to live the entire rest of my life with forever.

No. 990395

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I hate living with a hoarder I hate it I hate it
There's nothing I can do for now. I'll hopefully be moving out sometime next year and it can't come soon enough. I'm desperate. I hate doing anything outside of my room, which is the only clean room in the house.
I'm hungry but there's so many boxes lined up in the kitchen that I can't even make food. It's late so I can't make sound or my hoarder dad will get angry.
I hate bathing because of how disgusting the bathroom is but anyone who's lived with a hoarder will know that cleaning after their messes is pointless, not to mention unfair.
It'll always get dirty again. I really resent my dad because of his hoarding and unhygienic habits.
I just want to be a normal girl who can actually leave her bedroom without being disgusted or tripping over dozens of boxes.
I want to be able to cook actual food like a normal person. I want to bathe and not feel disgusted doing so.
Your living environment has such a big impact on your mental state. I can't live like this forever. I want to cry because of how hungry I am. I want to leave and never speak to my dad again because of all the built up resentment.
I don't care what anyone says, hoarders who live with other people are fucking selfish. No one should live like this, I shouldn't be forced to live like this because of someone else's laziness.
I feel so miserable. I genuinely feel like crying every time I leave my bedroom. He should have never been a father.
I wish I could just do everything in my bedroom but I need to eat, bathe and brush my teeth obviously. I really need to move out but that's not something that can be done overnight.
I want to abandon him. Leave him to rot in the mess he created and forced me to live through for 18 years. I want this all to be a distant memory. It's hard to be happy when you're hungry.
I am disgusting and underweight. I wish I could be healthy and normal. At the very least I wish I had a clean house.

No. 990398

>>989274
>I feel like a psychopath
Me too, anon. Maybe we just haven't found the "right" one. At least that's what I'm hoping it is…

No. 990400

>>990235
nona i just got invisalign too about a month ago! it was awful the first few weeks but now i weirdly love the way it feels on my teeth and look forward to new aligners lol. the pressure feels so snug and comforting now. i hope our results make the cost worth it… its chewing gum i miss the most

No. 990404

>>990395
I gotta say, if I were in your shoes anon I would be so tempted to light a match to the shitpit.
I don't know how they would ever prove arson when hoarder homes are known hazards and tinderboxes.
Your dad deserves to be punished for subjecting another human to that.

No. 990406

>>990160
You aren't trapped, literally just leave. Can't believe your scrote brother realized that before you did.

No. 990407

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Guy I was trying to get with called me up to tell me he's going to ask out my friend. So it's going great.

No. 990409

>>990407
Warn your friend that he's a douche.

No. 990415

>>990262
Happy birthday nona. I hope that something lucky and uplifting happens for you today

No. 990424

Decided to listen to some local ballads to decide which one is my favourite. Ended up crying like a little bitch at one, that's the winner.

No. 990491

I’m in the process of fixing my nightcrawler ways but how the fuck can any of you stand the sun? I’m legitimately getting pissed off with how bright it is. It’s also super cold now and I hate when anyone talks so chirpily early in the morning. Is there a way to make mornings more enjoyable?

No. 990495

I did it, I unfollowed my ex after like 2 years. I seriously started hating his gust the last few months so it's for the best.

No. 990497

>>990491
Light sunglasses. I have some that only shade a little, some cheap heart shaped sunglasses and I even wear them inside when I have a migraine. Allow yourself some time in the morning, maybe watching some comedy while getting up? Water straight up in the morning helps me too.
>>990495
Well done, nonnie!

No. 990501

I cringe so much when I hear zoomers talk. If I hear girls screaming 'bestie' or 'main character vibe' one more time, I'm gonna break someone's neck. 13-19 year old zoomers are so retarded, not sure if I'm just old if their brains are fried by being born into social media era.

No. 990503

I'm scared to start studying for my upcoming tests because I've been slacking a lot these past months and I've convinced myself that if I start now I will have to face how far behind I really am, while if I don't do anything I can have some sense of safety in my blissful ignorance. I've never been this afraid of exams during highschool, I have no idea how to deal with the stress. I will try to go through the stuff the best I can, but it's a lot and at this point I can't imagine anything but failure

No. 990505

>>990501
thats how boomers feel about millenials

No. 990506

>>990155
Yeah we’re from different backgrounds. But it’s a name that’s fairly easy to pronounce without an accent anyway? We were both raised here so idk

No. 990507

>>990505
Well millenials from my country didn't have many specific phrases or words like now zoomers have because we didn't have access to Internet as much. Boomers and millenials speak pretty much the same. Zoomers basically stole this bestie shit from English internet, translated it into this language and it just grates my ears because it doesn't sound natural at all.

No. 990511

>>990507
TBH I saw a video "zoomer humor explained" and was triggered since it was what I knew as Tumblr humor back in 2013 or so. Mostly curated by millennials, if not only by them. Zoomers didn't invent this specific type of absurd and casually suicidal memes

No. 990515

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>>990507
It's true there's much more new lingo for the generation born online, and words and phrases become "passe" much faster, but millenials had their own lingo too; picrel is just an example for english speaking people but I remember in my country sometimes you'd see in the magazines in early 00s these little explainers for parents "understand what your child is talking about" with new phrases and words the parent wouldn't know accompanied with "translation" to how should the parent generation understand these, so it's definitely not zoomer specific.

No. 990516

Here a firefighter murdered his two children and wife before burning the house down with himself inside…and people are feeling sorry for him. Saying he must have been a troubled man with difficult struggles uwu.

He was a fucked up selfish piece of shit ego scrote who wouldn't let his family be happy without him.

No. 990520

About this time time five years ago was the last time I hung out with a friend. It was also when my last friendship crashed and burned over… honestly I don’t know. Five. Years. I haven’t had meaningful contact with anyone outside of my family for five years. I’ve done everything by myself or with my mom. This is not how a person should live. It’s great to be alone but not when it’s your only option. I don’t even know how to integrate back into society at this point.

No. 990522

>>990516
Every time people bring up male suicide rates as a way to prove how much "harder" moids have it I wonder how many of those suicides are actually narcissistic murder-suicides like this.

No. 990525

>>990516
>>990522
I guess its the novelty of the act, not that he killed his wife and kids but that a FIREFIGHTER killed his family and burned himself alive
Its one of those things if ever happened in a film or tv series you think would be over dramatic or unrealistic

No. 990526

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i want a laptop or pc just to play sims 2, i don't care about ANY other game, i just want something to play my most favorite game ever on, but i'm too poor to just buy a 2nd laptop. people keep saying to buy an older machine with win7, but even that stuff is expensive. i just wanna play ts2!!!!

No. 990531

>>990526
>the sims 2
that game is so old you can just run it on mac using the mac edition of the game or run it through emulating windows on mac

No. 990535

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>>990531
>mac
what part of poor do you not understand, nonna. obviously i don't have a fucking mac or any apple product. and i'm looking specifically for a laptop only for ts2 because ts2 already fried my graphics card on my previous laptop. it's old but still somewhat demanding.

No. 990540

>>990042
Same, my memory is absolute shit and seems to be getting worse all the time this year. I feel like I need to start taking notes during normal conversations so I remember when people ask me to do things

No. 990581

I hate how random IBS is, one day i'm constipated and with hemorrhoids, then the other i'm shitting and farting non-stop, is so stressful. I'm on my period so that doesn't help

No. 990586

I wish I could meet people I feel excited to meet up with I know that makes me sound like a cunt but fuck sake I'm mentally ill and need a funny friend. I hated growing up being the funny friend. I want someone to perform for me. This clown is tired.

No. 990589

>>990586
Same, i'm always the clown and i like it, but i wish i could find someone who could clown with me and be retarded

No. 990602

>>990586
That doesn't make you sound like a cunt at all. There's no point in having a friend if you're not at least a bit happy to see them.

No. 990625

I really like occasionally going out with some friends I made at my old job but I hate how we always have to go to expensive restaurants because they're vegan so the selection is very limited and usually very pricey. I'm not vegan but I'm also not a picky eater so it's not the food that bothers me, it's just that the price you pay for the portions you get… ugh. It's a good thing I only see them once every month or so but fuck.

No. 990630

I'm tired of interacting jealous pick me older sisters and aunts telling me to lower my standards

No. 990645

I wish spot reduction was real, I literally just want slimmer calves. They're practically as big as my thighs and I hate it!!!!

No. 990654

>>990645
Could you try some exercises and stretches to tone them?

No. 990658

>>990645
If they're unusually chunkier than the rest of you it's probably muscle
Work out your thighs and ass for a better balance

No. 990713

I hate sex. It ruins every relationship.
I don't dislike having sex, at all. I just hate what it makes of relationships, I wish we all didn't have sexual desires, I wish sex didn't even exist. I hate, hate, hate it.

No. 990722

>>990713
I feel the same way. I don't know how I could ever go about broaching the action of sex with a future partner. I enjoy it but it really messed with my self esteem and body image issues when I was a young adult who just started fooling around. I feel like introducing sex in any of my relationships is a sign of the beginning of the end.

No. 990724

>>990645
I thought calves were the hardest place to develop, flex your calves at Dorito male gym goers.

No. 990726

My mother wants me to start talking to my grandmother again, but my grandmother obviously doesn't like me so I don't know what to do. She (my mother) even wants me to make a gift for her (I can embroider a little and apparently my grandma likes those things) and I am willing to do it if it can make my mother feel better but I can just feel that my grandma is either going to say something along the lines of "oh ok" or "what the fuck is this, why aren't you doing something more useful?" and it's going to fucking kill me, especially if I present her with something I took the time to make. Like I get it, she's old and sad most of the time but it's not like she doesn't know what she's saying, she's in her right mind and just chooses to insult people. She has called me stupid and ugly a few times in the past and always acted weirded out by me, so I'm not ever sure my presence will "cheer her up" like my mother says. I don't know what to do, I know I should be the better person but then again should her attitude be ignored just because she's old?

No. 990737

Came back to lolcow for fun/boredom after a year of no visits…. and 5 minutes in the anachans ruin it in the celebricow thread.
Making fun of other peoples bodies does not ever change the fact you’ll hate your own for life.
Imagine if you took all that effort to hate on celebrities you will never personally know and instead put it that same energy into you’re own glow up. Book a therapy session, do yoga, Address your insecurities, etc.
Bitter salty bitches are ugly no matter what size.
Ok, I’m not coming back again, goodbye vent anons, you are the real mvps. Hope you all have a better year in 2022!

No. 990742

>>990726
Why the fuck is your grandma so rude to you?

No. 990754

I hate being sober. I'm not even fully sober because I still occasionally smoke cigarettes. But I hate it. My life is "good", I'm in a leadership position at work, my career prospects look great, my relationship looks great, everything is fucking great, but I feel miserable and I miss the confidence being drunk gave me.

No. 990761

>>990742
It's just the way she is anon, she's rude to people she doesn't like.

No. 990773

Not slouching is so difficult

No. 990780

>>990754
Yeah I miss it too but we don’t need it. I’m so happy that you have good things going on right now! You did that.

No. 990791

>>990773
It's a whole ass struggle for me

No. 990802

today is my birthday i had a therapy appointment and cried while talking about being exposed to CP at age 9 and now I’m drinking tea and trying to calm down. sending love to you all

No. 990814

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>>990802
Love you, I also got molested around the time
Trauma is still there but I can look past it now, I'm happy and I'm sure you'll be happy too one day

No. 990821

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>>990802
Good job on processing some heavy stuff, you’re healing. I wish death upon that pedophile. Treat yourself to a good gift anon ♥

No. 990855

>>990814
cute pic

No. 990860

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The only happiness I have in my life is through maladaptive daydreaming. I'm so invested in it that I have been in love with someone who doesn't exist for years. Sometimes I have to remind myself that this person doesn't exist, and that I'm not like the person I'm in my dreams. It's pretty crazy when I realize that none of this actually happened, IRL I'm just a useless shut in. Ha ha, I'm so pathetic…

No. 990863

>>990860
Do you mean based?

No. 990868

>>990860
In the exact same boat, anon. Except, I'm in medschool. I've built such a highly specific perfect man in my daydreams and no man can actually top him, as I've cultivated my Ultimate Man with years of effort, he grew up with me really. It's logically impossible to compete with him. I'm completely out of the dating world, content with my hours of useless daydreams everyday. Although, the self-insert in my daydreaming motivates me to get better, she's like the ideal me and I strive to be her. Anyways, nun' wrong with having with good ol' maladaptive daydreaming, it's what makes life spicy. I love getting free time to continue my scenes. I'm actually in the middle of a good plot point, very excited to finish a few assignments to get back to it, hehe. Sorry for hijacking your post like this, anon.

No. 990873

>>990860
Same. The guys don't know I exist and that I'm a whole autist who filters my emotions through them because I'm bad at coping

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No. 990879

i have exams next week and i haven't done any of the work. also everyone in my group project is ignoring the chat messages and its so annoying. i cant stop binge eating as procrastination

No. 990889

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>>990868
The fact that I'll never be able to be with him is very frustrating

No. 990920

Why do moids rape, sexually assault, groom and then call it a mistake? The fuck you chose to do those things well aware they are wrong. I fucking hate moids, I hope they go extinct soon

No. 990921

ESLs who aren’t very fluent need to be banned from teaching in English. Especially at college level. Fucking hell this is a nightmare.

No. 990926

I was highly isolated in my teen years due to bullying, never had friends and only played vidya, read books and lived in my own fantasy world. Now that I am in uni it feels like I woke up from a really long dream since I barely remember like 8 years of my life. I am also super far behind my peers in terms of social skills and communication. I think I developed a slight stutter. I am also really bad in telling people the things I want, voicing my own opinion making friends and keeping in contact n shit. How do I fix this

No. 990930

>>990860
i feel this, except, i also talk to myself (when alone). like while assuming the various "people" i'm interacting with. it's still such an odd vibe to come out of my conversations with all the emotion i felt while in them and remember there's nobody in the room but me.

No. 990932

>>990380
>>990383
How does this work?
t. uni student, never had a job

No. 990936

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I’m so sick of this fucking world. I’m sick of being constantly bullied for my autism or my looks/failing to perform femininity. I’m sick of being a total social retard with no friends on a college course full of instagram bitches. Being an easy target and the butt of everyone’s jokes for years totally eradicated any confidence I had. I look in the mirror and just see a fucking joke. I can’t even fathom someone finding me attractive let alone sexy or wanting to marry and spend a life with me. Maybe I was just put on this earth as an object of torment for other people to laugh at.

No. 990944

I hate working I wish I didn't have to work. Working sucks and it doesn't matter which job it is.

No. 990945

>>990926
Try reading out loud bodies of text of your choice with your chest rather than your throat. That helped me get rid of my stutter.

No. 990952

>>990926
Same exact thing happened to me when I was 18. (Unfortunately) the only way to get over it is to push yourself out of your comfort zone, little by little. You'll start to see that people aren't judging your every move and eventually you'll hit a point where having everyone like you won't be the most important thing in your life, because you'll be comfortable with yourself. As awful as socializing is, starting conversations are, and asking for things can be, you'll feel much better if you start taking those initiatives yourself.

No. 990955

>>990921
And here i am with my English/languages degree but i can't get out of this shithole, ironic
>>990936
I wish i could be your friend anon, i used to be in the same position as you, i wasn't a bad person nor created drama but other women treated me badly for my looks/autism. I never wished harm upon them, i wasn't even jealous of their beauty, i just wanted to be left alone. You deserve dignity too, not everything is about looks.

No. 990967

Everyday i wake up and i regret not killing myself. It never gets better nonnies. Just temporary lapses of excitement, a glimpse into a normal life if you will. But i will never get better. There is only one solution!!!

No. 990969

I haven't felt attractive in a while, friends aren't texting me back, I'm losing my hair, every day feels like the same demented theatre production, etc. I'm going insane. I feel like I'm getting cabin fever or something. I need something to break the monotony. About to start peeling the wallpaper or something I swear to god.

No. 990986

>>990936
>>990955
Nonnas, are you me? Same exact experience. I'm too old now and I still feel this way

No. 991015

I'm slowly coming to the realisation that i don't have to have to feel bad for putting myself first, instead of constantly invalidating my experiences because my parents had shitty lives and are depressed. I was always taught to not complain because of the horrible things they (especially my dad) went through. Now i'm realising that it is ok to hold them accountable for the shit they did to ME. I'm simply too resentful to prioritise their feelings over my own. Sure they went through things that were outside their control but they also made plenty of terrible life choices, some of which have affected me, and it's not my fault. I refuse to spare them of accountability and i don't care if they are hurt by it. I have to be more selfish if i wanna become a better person for myself.

No. 991020

>>987070
>>987073
I didn't want to say this in the post because I didn't want to get attacked but I am still with him, I want to leave him but I can't imagine ever being without him, my entire worldview is skewed by him and I don't know what else to do besides kill myself, I'm 18 now and have no friends because every friend I've made he has made me block, and never talk to or hang out with again. I've lost so many great potential friends because of him, I just stopped trying when I was 16 and I've been so fucking isolated from everyone else since then. I just want to be free, it fucking hurts so bad knowing I spent my entire youth being raped and beaten by him in motels when he came to visit. It hurt when my dad asked why I suddenly started flinching whenever a man in our family goes in for a hug
I've always wanted to get married and have kids, but no one would ever want me because of this, I can't imagine any man being okay with his girlfriend having had the shit done to her thats been to me. I wouldn't care if he was nice to me when he wasn't hurting me physically, I just space out and pretend I'm somewhere else. He will insult me and when I get upset he'll say how mentally ill I am, and that all I do is hurt him and ignore me for a few days then make me apologize.
I don't know what's wrong with me, if there is anything wrong with me or if it's him just saying it
If I kill myself and leave a note with everything he's done will he get arrested? He has videos of me at 15 being raped by him
Sorry if this makes no sense I have literally never told a single person this (lol so I fucking tell lolcow)

No. 991030

>>990967
I am just a stranger on the internet and I don't know your life circumstances, but I can only hope that one day those "glimses into a normal life" become your day to day life. I hope things may look up for you.

No. 991036

>>991020
If you know he has those videos then you should just go to the police, you have evidence. If not the police at least be honest with your family. You need to get away from him, stop dragging yourself down. You're not worth less than before because of what he's doing to you anon. I don't even know what more I can say. Stop telling yourself the things he wants you to think, you're better than that and I know that you know it. Put yourself first. Tell someone you're close to and get help, please.

No. 991073

>>991020
anon i really hope you dump this shitbag of a person and press charges against this rapist piece of shit and i hope your life gets better. you deserve a good life even if you think this absolute scum excuse of a person ruined it, he might've tarnished your relationships so far but you're still young and have so much ahead of you, please reconsider going to the police with proof of your rape

No. 991083

>>991015
Good for you for having that breakthrough, anon. I had a really similar relationship with my family growing up, and it's hard to not compare yourself to their experiences when it's basically been the norm your whole life. Good for you and I hope you are able to have a better time putting yourself first when you need to from here on out.

No. 991092

Just read a bunch of comments from men being aggro as fuck that women don't want a game about raping native American women come out. I hate men so much. Rape is just a fun sexy thing to them even though it absolutely ruins women and they know it. Most men would rape if they could.

No. 991095

>>991015
I need to do this but it’s a hard thing to get yourself in the mindset of

No. 991107

>>991092
Wtf what game?

No. 991116

living takes so much effort lol. i'm struggling with it and i don't even have any real responsibilities outside of keeping the house clean and university
even so i long for a stable life working some boring office job. i just want to survive well

No. 991120

>>990860
Same I literally waste hours and hours doing it and when I come out of it I realize none of that was real but it felt so real and it makes me so sad. I’m at a point now where I just do it automatically while doing anything like cutting vegetables my brain will start something.

No. 991121

Men literally think all women are dumb. This guy hits me up on insta out of the blue going on about how I could "give him a run on cooking". Like fuck you dude, don't compare yourself to me. I'm not in competition with you. I tell him outright I'm not interested or looking for anything and he's going on about how he doesn't want a relationship, hates hookup culture, just wants to chill with me because I seem chill. lmao sure dude. I replied that he wasn't being honest about his intentions and no thank you.
My point is I get scrotes trying this same game with me weekly. I tell them I'm not interested in a relationship and suddenly they want to be friends and just hang. Then of course if I allowed that they would bide their time and hit on me. Then I have to kick them to the curb and all that time is wasted.
I just hate that men assume you're stupid enough to fall for their shit and get so upset when you call them on it. They really think their shit is unique. You don't want to be my friend. You want to fuck me.

No. 991124

My mom is suicide baiting again and in an ironic twist it makes me want to join the heavens gate away team. Thanks mom.

No. 991145

I feel so dizzy, tired and angry, like i want to punch something, dad cooked me a burger but i can't even enjoy it because i'm too nauseous, i'm still on my period but it never felt this bad

No. 991153

>>991130
me too im bored as fuck rn.

No. 991164

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IM SO FUCKING HUNGRY FOR SOME TAKE-OUT BUT I AM POOR AS FUCK I CANT AFFORD IT AAHHHH

No. 991166

>>990967
i feel this. earlier this year i managed to make a few real friends but we've since drifted apart. it felt like i was breathing an entirely new type of air and now i'm back to being alone.

even so, i haven't given up hope. there will come a day when i have people outside of my parents (who i love very much but you know) who i can speak with regularly and go places with. praying for us both.

No. 991169

>>991164
I wish i could give you my burger, do you like pickles? this burger has pickles

No. 991174

>>991169
I love pickles nonny, pls email it to me asap

No. 991189

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My loser father invited his 10+ years-younger-than-him scrote caravan over to daydrink right while I was taking a final. I've been stuck in my room for 7 hours because they won't fucking go home. Strange drunk men in the home isn't fucking okay, especially when my mom comes home from an 8 hour shift and is greeted by a bunch of trashy losers wrecking her kitchen.

No. 991192

>>990526
my fellow ts2 enjoyer i wish i could send you one of mine. could you ask for a second hand laptop for christmas?

No. 991197

>>990625
Do you have to go out to eat with them every time? Could you just ask to hang and get some drinks together

No. 991205

>>990036
I'm this anon, and to give you all an update she's doing well. She's stable now, but chronic kidney disease might be something she has to live with. It's sort of bitter sweet, as I'm not sure what stage she's in, or how long she'll survive after this. It's killing me inside that she's only 4 and I might only have a couple years left with her.

But, I'm getting her back from the hospital in the next day or so, they're waiting for her renal enzymes to lower as they don't seem to be budging. If there's any vet anons here who can offer me some advice or consolation I'd really appreciate it.

No. 991213

>>991205
I'm glad your girl is doing ok so far! I'm praying she makes a complete recovery.

No. 991216

>>990802
>>990814
Sending lots of strength to you nonnas!

Anyway, I wish other gossip boards were stil as "cruel" as lc. I frequent one that's primarily aboout various celebs and once in a while there's that one pseudo mother theresa complaining about how it's not nice to comment on someone's looks in a negative way and have them say that you're the one who needs to "re-evaluate yourself" ..the absolute nerve. Can't say anything back without their weak ass mods blocking people either.

No. 991226

i'm 5'4 and cannot get below 120 lbs without feeling like shit. i'm still annoyed but whatever. 120 lbs is fine

No. 991227

>>991121
>> he's going on about how he doesn't want a relationship, hates hookup culture, just wants to chill with me because I seem chill.

Ahh yes, I've heard that one too many times as well. That shit is so see trough too. It's one of the reasons why I deactivated my IG like two years ago. Always some dumb scrote sliding into the DMs. Women literally can't just exist without some dumb idiot hitting on them.

No. 991265

I'm just really lonely. I only talk to my SO every day, I've drifted away from all my friends.
It's been a really hard year. My SO and I don't live together and we both work a lot, so seeing each other can be difficult sometimes. I've been so fucking depressed. I don't want to do anything and I don't have the motivation or want to pull myself out of it.

No. 991280

There was a male I was talking to for a few days that I used to know online. We recognized each other’s identities and long story short we did speak even though he was pretty mysterious but it was not out of character for him. At some point as I always do with talking to people I fuck it all up and spammed immaturely for him to go and die and telling him to block me just because he didn’t want to add me to his close friends story. I haven’t even talked to him in like a year or so and it’s not like we were eve close friends but something about it really bothered me. He just kept saying “What?” every time I sent an aggressive reply and then he just stopped even replying afterwards when I sent the last reply. My brain is still trying to process it but it feels like deja vu where any desperate or sparse connection with someone even if it was just a dumb insignificant online interaction just seems to slip from my fingers because I’m incapable of maintaining or even having friendships that are worth a shit to begin with. I have no friends, I stay inside most of the time because I have zero energy and motivation especially since the only thing that is keeping me “alive” is enslavement (aka college). Tl;dr it feels like my mind has been frozen, I can’t even genuinely react anymore I’m just so used to this by now and it was ridiculous of me to ever think that someone would really to care about me. There are just going to be some people in this world that will be repeatedly excluded and left behind and unfortunately I was born into that fate and there is no way out.

No. 991288

>>991226
That’s on the low end of healthy BMI, why would you be upset about that.

No. 991291

>>991280
From one BPD chan to another, please seek help. There are meaningful friendships out there but you have to work on yourself and recognize your patterns. And a lot of the time it means keeping things surface level just to be safe

No. 991297

>>991290
i never considered myself as someone who didn't have a life, but i always find myself here on friday nights… maybe i'll have to reconsider. it does feel like this site has been getting a lot slower than it used to be, but maybe i also check it more often.

No. 991307

>>991290
I’m just busy playing vidya alone anon I have no life I promise

No. 991308

>>991290
this post actually inspired me to close this tab now and go outside kek. Thanks anon

No. 991313

>>991290
I think a lot of the older users have left, the fun and chaos of imageboards are kind of burning out especially since you’ll get banned for the vaguest shit now kek

No. 991314

>>991291
Thank you anon, I‘ll consider your advice.

No. 991321

>>991189
how old are you out of pure curiosity

No. 991347

I hate living in the city without a car, taking the bus to get groceries is such an ordeal, it always takes me 2.5 hours and I can't buy that much because I have to carry it all back so I eat most of it in 4 days then I'm back to getting by on rice alone. I hate poor people struggle food none of it's filling to me. I am meant to be a big fat fatty. I'm going to the mall tomorrow to eat at the food court and I can't sleep waiting for it. I'm so hungry.

No. 991350

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fuck a warm December…god damn it

No. 991351

>>990860
Me too anon, I've gone through like 5 imaginary boyfriends since high school

No. 991365

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I like watching my YouTubers, but whenever they blurt out they spent an x amount of money on something retarded it makes me

No. 991369

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>>991347

just get one of those granny carts to haul more food home

No. 991370

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>write a short angry message to ex how he's a dick for not giving me urgent info for urgent thing
>unfollow him
>it's been 3 days
>see him in my stories
>message unread
>he still follows me
>mfw the cunt has me on the restricted list

Didn't think he was smart enough to even find the feature. Still, what a dick, I really needed that information and we were still talking so wtf you stupid fuckface

No. 991372

'putting a door jam behind your door is impractical, because you don't know the mental state of the person opening the door'

maybe stop fucking slamming my door every fucking time you open it, even though i have repeated multiple times that my anxiety around doors drives me off the walls, you absolute moron. i haven't been okay for a long time because of you but i somehow still manage to not make a ruckus when getting to places

No. 991382

>>990986
I feel this way too nona. How old are you?

No. 991393

>>990936
Maybe unrelated but your vent reminded me of 3 absolute hellhole years of highschool where the only female "friends" i had were two really skinny conventionally attractive girls who makes fatty jokes towards me even when i told them i'm uncomfortable with it. I tried distancing myself from them but they just keep clinging and attaching themselves to me (probably because i'm the only person who can stand talking to their condescending ass). I was just glad i survived that experience but now that i think of it those 3 years definitely set me back mentally kek.

No. 991404

>>991369
You still have to push it so you can't buy anything heavy.

No. 991411

>>991404
don't you pull it? i've not seen anyone push it?

No. 991422

>>991406
I've got shit upper body strength.

>>991411
It's harder to pull when it's heavy, can't do it with one arm and two arms is too awkward.

No. 991426

I think I have PMDD. It's flaring up again and I'm not looking forward to the next week. At its worst I'm so depressed I find it hard to get out of bed and even have suicidal thoughts. My body is out to get me.

No. 991454

I really hate how ocd is so misrepresented and how everyone takes it so lightly. When I told my friends I’ve been suffering from ocd since childhood they 1.made jokes about it 2. Told me they overthink too. I’m in no way one of those chronically online, attention starved freaks who make mental illness their entire personality. In fact, I’m embarrassed about it. But I just wished people didn’t think it was just a quirky thing. For example a few years back I had this stray cat in the neighbourhood that I gave food and petted. One day she seemed really odd and was salivating a lot. Then a few days later I found out she died. I googled about what could’ve caused her death and I found out it could’ve been rabies. From that moment on I was convinced I had it cause she scratched me. My anxiety was so bad that I threw up. I didn’t eat for days and I wasn’t able to go see a doctor so I just suffered for like a month, being absolutely convinced I was gonna die. I used to spent hours doing research on it and trying to find out the probabilities of me having contracted it. It triggered severe hair loss so I even had to cut my hair short. It was only after that month that I calmed down slowly and tried to convince myself she probably got poisoning and that she never bit me so the chances oh me having rabies is low. This is the type of shit I go through that they don’t know.

No. 991458

>>991454
Your anecdote feels very familiar to me. OCD makes me spend hours spiralling about the smallest worries. It's really exhausting and i absolutely hate it, like it legit disturbs my daily life from time to time

No. 991461

I knocked water on my laptop and fucking killed it, I'm so mad at myself. I have had this thing forever, only had two problems with it before that were just due to age, but I was always diligent about having it fixed. It's not going to be a big deal to replace it for me thankfully as I know I can get a good deal the same way I got that one, but in a weird way the computer itself has become sentimental to me. It's been with me through so many moves and so much scrolling and I'm just really pissed I have to part ways with this dinosaur laptop over two seconds of carelessness after all that.

No. 991479

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My family wants me to get a job, and while I’ve been actively looking for a job, they’re asking for me to get one and to experience earning my own money as if I haven’t done so already.
It’s annoying because I think they keep confusing me with my cousin, who actively avoids getting a job.
I do the housework, I study, it’s not my fault I haven’t graduated yet, neither is my fault that getting a job in this goddamn third world country is so difficult, because these bitches want you to have a fucking university degree to teach a language when you see some people who can’t even say fucking “yes” and follow a book made for teaching retards.
I had a job already! I know what is it like to get my own money and losing it quickly because everything is expensive as fuck, I know that with a regular job, I wouldn’t be able to pay for the basic services, that I need to work for as many hours as possible and to have at least two jobs so I could have a less-than-miserable life, because teaching is that kind of career that only people who actually want to teach for a living should study.
I should’ve picked modern languages instead of literature, I would’ve graduated already and I wouldn’t be studying education like a fucking retard.

No. 991484

I’m the lowest common denominator for all my shit relationships and shit partners. Perhaps my partner is telling the truth even while emotionally manipulating me. There is truth to it. I wish I could just disappear.

No. 991489

I really feel like I should dump my bf since I'm so unsatisfied and irritated all the time with this relationship but I don't even know how to start and I hate hurting people. I don't want to feel guilty for leaving him but I know this isnt working.

No. 991492

I hurt my little teethsies and now apple hurt meh

No. 991494

>>991484
Sometimes you have a string of toxic relationships because you're the asshole, other times it's because you have low standards (past trauma, unhealthy dynamics you witnessed in childhood) and that makes you more inclined to settle for assholes.

No. 991518

I forgot to look at drawing tablets during black friday and am buying one now, still on sale, but annoyed I didn't check then.

No. 991519

>>991494
>>991484
Yeah, you should reflect on why you're so attracted to shitty people, or why they seek you out.
Once you understand it, you can start to make better decisions.

Also, it's okay to be single, and certainly better to be single than to be with someone you don't like.

No. 991550

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I was supposed to wake up early to study in the library, I even went to bed early and everything. It's 3pm now and I'm having "breakfast"

No. 991557

>>990250
>>990252
>>990254
Nta but I fucking hate how you have to play these mind games just to land a job

No. 991573

Recently found out a group I'm a part of has a secret group chat to shit talk everyone. I thought I was ok after all these years but I guess everyone just tolerates me. Feels bad man.

No. 991574

>>990254
>>990250
>>990245
NTA but I am shocked, does it really work like this? I've always assumed that if you call yourself due to silence after an interview, no way they will hire you since you are coming off as desperate and unable to take a hint. I guess if they didn't want to hire you anyway, you aren't losing anything (unless you want to give it a shot another time, in which case you are risking them remembering you as a needy retard).

No. 991580

i hate my body so much. i don't understand how my boyfriend is attracted to me. i want to kill myself

No. 991594

>>991573
Damn I know this is a gossip website but that sounds exhausting. I can’t imagine having the need to shit talk so bad that I need to make a separate group chat about it with my friends. Maybe this is the pot calling the kettle black since I use this site, but people who enjoy shit-talking others to that extent aren’t people you want to be close to anyway. I get occasionally riffing on someone or venting, but I think people who shit talk constantly are just looking for negativity and are needlessly judgmental when they could just be more tolerant. I still get it though nona, sucks to feel left out of things regardless of what they are.

No. 991617

Being ugly sucks. I have to stop looking at certain cows threads because in my eyes they look average or mildly attractive, but so many call them ugly constantly. Or when anachans call average weight fat. Meanwhile I'd kill to look even remotely close to them.

No. 991622

>>991617
Just remember they're getting nitpicked because they're rotten people inside, and this is this kind of board culture. Also not like you can say you consider certain cow attractive without getting attacked, so obviously you'll not see this kind of comments.

No. 991623

>>991617
Hop off drama boards anon. Comparing yourself to cows is mental illness. You can’t realize that ugliness is subjective based on how hated a subject is?

No. 991627

>>991617
A large part of why people nitpick them is because they're usually attention whores who plaster pics of themselves everywhere online. If you're not an ass with an inflated ego then people won't have the incentive to rip you apart over your looks being less than perfect.

No. 991656

>>991627
Drama board users mental gymnastics

Glad to be exclusive to /ot/ and /m/

No. 991668

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I don't know what's happening but for the past two or so months I can't really sleep on my stomach anymore. I wake up with either a sprained neck or a sore jaw (don't think it's teeth grinding, I often just fall asleep with my teeth misaligned). I can't sleep at all in any other position since I've been like that for at least the past fifteen years, and if I sleep in any other position I wake up every other hour. I always read stomach sleeping is the unhealthiest sleeping position, but to think that it even has an expiration date…

No. 991673

>>991656
I only post in ot and g myself but when you hate someone enough you tend to start hating every little thing about them. Like them breathing too loud or smiling too much. I don't join in but I get the incentive behind it. That's all I said.

No. 991685

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Fucking hate how at some point professors make an unchangeable opinion about you and decide what marks they would like to give you before even checking your work. I know chemistry much better than I did before and wrote all exams well (at least B), but because my professor decided that I don't deserve anything higher than C+, she keeps giving me exactly this mark, even though my classmates, who had performed somewhat similarly to me and against whom she doesn't have a bias against, were given higher marks for the same shit. The same happened with other tests we've had: I have came to write some tests I've missed one time and she straight up gave me same C mark for them all, despite the fact that I've fucked up only one of them, others were good. Fml

No. 991687

>>991685
That's sickening, I'd be making so much fucking noise about that if I were you. That's not ethical. Loser should be fired.

No. 991690

>>991685
The fuck? Absolutely ask her about this? Request an appointment and insist she explain why you got the mark you did. Is there a dean or anyone you can reach out to?

No. 991774

>>991685
I'm really sorry that is happening. it's the biggest reason I refuse to go back to school. I know it will happen to me

No. 991799

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I made a total retard out of myself at work, again. I work at a warehouse and our department belongs to the second biggest mobile phone company in our country. Today we had an inventarization and we had to count every single item, we had 14 people to work with and it took us like 8 hours overall to count everything. I'm pretty shitty at counting when there's a time pressure, well I'm shitty at everything because I have severe neurosis, but for the whole day my scores seemed to match our numbers in the system and I didn't feel like a retard, at least. But at the very end, when the system was about to get closed and people were about to go home, they gave me one more location to check, I was so stressed, and I count it, all the single pieces and 3 boxes that had 100 pieces each, but it turned out two of these boxes were opened before and they had less than 100 original pieces inside of them (we were told not to open boxes with original tape, because the quantity inside is always the same, and yes, I have to admit I was too tired to take those boxes from the shelf that was pretty high and I was almost sure they were sealed and not opened before). So my numbers obviously didn't match the system and they send me there for the second time and this time my fucking manager himself came with me, there was also my shift leader and my co worker, who pretty always overshadows me in everything she does, and the manager counted it and they've all seen I made a mistake. I felt so fucking bad I wanted to die. They already knew I'm awkward, but now they will think I'm dumb too. I don't want to go there on monday

No. 991809

>>991617
Yeah I just bookmark 2 lolcow threads don't go on that side of lolcow. I kind of look like Shay and it hurt every time anons pick her looks apart.

No. 991811

>>991799
I say this is a loving way; they do not care. You were out of their heads as soon as they got into their mode of transportation to go home. Letting yourself stew in a mistake, which everyone makes, just hurts you.

No. 991820

>>991799
Please dont fret over it. I knew a guy whose fuck-ups cost his firm a couple hundred thousand and you know what? He didn't give a fuck and kept going and getting promoted. I think as women we tend to see our mistakes as a reflection of oursleves while men see it as a reflection of a moment in time. We need to give less of a fuck at work,

No. 991837

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AAAAAAAAAAA WRITE THE FUCKING POST ALREADY YOU COWARD ITS BEEN THREE WEEKS

No. 991847

>>991687
I used to do it too. But trust me in this uni it doesn't work, no one can really stand up for you, so the only thing you can achieve with this is pissing your professor off and making them hate you more.
>>991690
I would rather kms than contact our dean. That man is evil and insane. I have reached to him in the past, worst mistake of my life lol
>>991774
Thanks, i love you, anon…

No. 991861

My aunt whom is also my godmother died yesterday. She apparently had cancer and had been in paliative care for a few weeks. She was young, mid-60s. We didn't know about it. I feel awful cause I don't give a fuck about her dying. She never cared about me and she stole all the inheritance money when my grandmother died and all I got was an ugly cheap cat brooch that my aunt chose. My grandmother had really beautiful and expensive jewelry. She was the only source of drama on that side of the family. The only thing she knew about me was that I love cats.
I do feel awful for my dad and my cousin. My cousin is a very autistic troon that only had her. I don't know what he is gonna do now. I don't feel comfortable hanging out with him, he's very creepy. His mom enabled him his whole life. He was fairly normal when my parents or grandparents were babysitting him but would go back to is antics whenever he would go back home. She knew her husband was sexually abusing their son, yet she kept him in their lives. She failed him.
I will only go to the wake to support my dad and see my grandaunt. She's probably next, she will turn 98 in a few months. I believe she will make it to 100. I love her and will miss her when she's gone. She is a role model to me, she was my first strong feminist figure in my life. She never married, never had kids and went to university in a time when women didn't do that. She fought for our rights in my country and was good friends with prominent feminist activists.

No. 991867

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Sorry for long sperg.
Finally came to terms with how inhumane and disgusting men truly are and the existential dread of when i first became a radfem is hitting 10x as hard. I always knew male humans were naturally sick after my first grade male classmates repeatedly molested me, my first boyfriend raped me freshmen year, and when my male therapist insisted that it was my fault because i could've just fought him off harder.

Why are we born on the same earth as men, why can't they all just die out from a male only disease. I don't know, i don't want to live on a earth with men anymore and no matter how much i pray that god releases me from existing with them i keep waking up everyday having to cope with it. Im still scared of hell (and the rapture sometimes even though it wont actually happen) even though im not that religious anymore but sometimes i just pray i'll randomly die in my sleep so i dont have to hold back puking 24/7 because I have to interact with these vile, inhumane apes that make up the other half of the human population. kam

No. 991868

>>991617
Remember that quote from Mean Girls that was like, I don't hate you because you're fat, you're fat because I hate you? It goes kinda like that
>cows are shitty people
>shitty people deserve bad things
>anons think being fat/ugly is the worst possible thing to happen to a person
>therefore the shitty person deserves be considered fat and ugly no matter what they look like

There are plenty of unattractive cows but there are probably more who are (or were) attractive, that's how they got e-famous in the first place. Ultimately it's a cope, because anons seethe at the idea that someone they don't like gets the luxury of being hot.

No. 991870

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>>991867
We are here for you nona

No. 991875

>>991868
Lol what a cope. Who has an active thread that has the ~luxury~ of being hot?

No. 991877

>>991867
Anon i'm sorry you're feeling such an existential dread, being abused by so many moids should be very scarring. Just remember that you're not alone on this, we all have been there in some way.

No. 991879

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Finally, after weeks of me wiggling myself out of it in therapy, doing a trauma timeline (I know how important it is for me to do it to help tackle some of it, there were just some things I REALLY didn't want to talk about that is necessary for me to open up about), and having to recount stuff and have it all laid out in front of me on a whiteboard really makes me almost a bit fascinated that there are people out there that WANTS shit like this in their life.
I know people are probably really tired of anons reeeing about Jill everywhere, but I wouldn't say I'm as much triggered by her trauma hunting as I find it… baffling? Like, there are people like her out there that romanticize trauma to the point they WISH they had their lives ruined the same way - but of course only in the poetic "beautifully damaged" way you see in movies and not the not so fun part that controls your every day life and sleep.

No. 991883

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Why the fuck did my mom decided to have me when she's poor? I wish I had been fucking aborted. I don't have the energy to study and spend the rest of my life working. Someday I'll just kill myself

No. 991896

>>991867
mood, you can get on SSDI for the if you're in the states btw, I did
ptsd, trauma-based agoraphobia, etc
don't feel bad about taking the money, you're taking it from a system designed to allow males like the ones you've encountered to flourish, not just allow even, but encourage

No. 991905

I'm not going to keep doing this. Stop playing games with me, you mentally ill asshole. Stop blaming me for everything. Stop making everything about you. Stop ruining everything I love.

No. 991908

My mom sometimes likes to play these cd recordings of songs I liked that I sang and played guitar on when I was 13/14 when my boyfriend comes over. I find them so awkward not because I can't sing but you can just hear the teenage insecurity reeking from my recording lol.

No. 991919

>>991908
your mom is cute lmao

No. 991925

I wish I was brave enough to kill myself

No. 991930

>>991925
There are forums that can help you do that

No. 991931

>>991925
There's nothing brave about killing yourself, anon. There's something in your life that makes you stick to it, hope you'll realize what is it and going on will start getting easier.

No. 991934

>>991868
Some of the first cows I ever came across were shayna and pixie when they were both slim and normal looking. Watching them both decline mentally and physcially was something. I didn't even join in with discussions. Just watched, new and really confused.

Then I started following a couple of different deathfats and they got so butthurt about mean comments that half the time they'd scoff down McDs just to give the middle finger to their haters and troll them. They're way more transparent about it. Cows leaning into being gross and fat or whatever else you call them is about the most retarded but common thing they do. Deathfats are willing to basically kill themselves to get one over on meanie commenters.. they helped me understand why some of the smaller cows act gross in their own ways too. Ruining yourself as an act of rebellion is ugly in all its forms. I've rarely seen a cow who doesn't partake in it some form or another. Then they still bitch about the meanie comments that they're clearly egging on with their bpd style reactions to the initual criticism.

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>>991867
Felt. All we can do is find solace among each other. Makes existence a bit easier.

No. 991938

>>991931
Nta but going against your retarded biological programming of self preservation at any costs is kinda brave

No. 991940

>>991938
It really isn’t

No. 991949

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I'm sorry you're a snotty old bitch who hates her life but you can be like that somewhere else. You're really gonna act like I'm lying about the hours I was hired for? Stare at me and smile and tell me you doubt I was hired for those hours? I have worked confused in a different section every day I came in, my first week working here as a fucking SEASONAL HIRE and you think I created a conspiracy to work my specific hours? I don't give a shit you wish you had my hours, I don't give a shit about 2-weeks notice for time off, I don't give a shit about $15 an hour. I'm gonna call out when I feel sick, I'm gonna call and call and when HR doesn't pick up after the 3rd time I'm staying right in my bedroom because they're too lazy to fucking pick up. You over-scheduled me too bitch, max 25 hours not 40. I should've stayed a NEET, the only reasons I haven't killed myself is I actually want to live, hopefully a nice fulfilling life and I don't want my family to suffer. I'm tired of feeling bottled up and depressed and suicidal every time I get stressed out but at least I know those are my real, raw feelings no one can take from me. The day I finally snap and go insane I hope I make my tormentors suffer, for now and for the hope of a good, normal future with my cat I'll slowly and surely work towards my goals without bending backwards for anyone or sacrificing my health. -an ocdchan

No. 991956

>>991940
then why are people scared to die

No. 991960

>>991925
I'm glad you're a pussy anon, stay ♥

No. 991961

>>991937
This picture is so fucking cute. I want a female roommate so bad. Like one I could live with into old age.

No. 991969

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>>991961
>one I could live with into old age
Sameeee. I have folder of pics of women just vibing.

No. 991972

>>991956
Most aren’t scared of actually dying

No. 991973

>>991969
Share more anon!! Maybe in the image thread on /m/?

No. 991976

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>>991961
I'm straight but I'd feel much more secure buying a house with another woman and chilling till the end of days vs marrying a man and hoping he doesn't turn into r/breakingmom material

No. 991994

My ex messages me, “I’m sorry things didn’t work out” gee that’s a funny way to say “sorry I made you feel replaceable because I emotionally cheated on you with another woman for a fucking year. Also sorry you called me out so early that I was with another woman. But I’ll act like you’re over reacting when we finally come out as a couple.”

No. 991998

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No. 992013

>>991969
Anon give us the honey

No. 992027

We have exams next week and there's this smart girl in the gc now going on about "oohhh i'm going to fail bad lolol i'm getting piss drunk the weekend before exams i'm so screwed lmao haven't even cracked open a book yet!" and you just know she's setting this up so when she aces it she'll humblebrag like "oh em gee i didn't even study lol so lucky!!". Just shut the fuck up and take your 100% annoying bitch

No. 992052

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I want to hug all the anons here in need of one

No. 992055

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>>992052
Cute gif, arigato

No. 992056

>>992052
Thank you nonny, is well appreciated.

No. 992059


No. 992060

>>992027
underage or Uni?

No. 992066

A relative me and my boyfriend live with is a lazy, disgusting pig. I try not to talk that way about people very often. We don't have to pay rent (house is old and paid off), just help with taxes and utilities and stuff. We can't afford our own place right now. But this relative literally does nothing but lay in her bed watching tv 24/7. Never goes outside except for the rare fast food run. That part is probably a plus, as she also literally wears the same clothes for months. By the fetid smell, she probably doesn't wash them in as long either. I don't think she bathes or showers. Ever. The smell is the kind that lingers in the air after she's gone. She never does any chores, and ever since I've moved in I've cooked here and there. So she takes that for granted. Every day she will come find me, stinking, to ask "what's for dinner?" I don't use this phrase lightly, but it triggers me. I come from a household where we all had different schedules and made our own meals so it's uncomfortable to be the one who's expected to make dinner every day. I also don't understand how she can be such a gross slob. She does have shaky hands, so complicated stuff is probably hard. But she is still capable of washing herself and making some simple foods for fuck's sake. She also steals our food but that's nothing compared to the hygiene stuff. Maybe she's depressed, but so am I. And I still take care of shit. I can't imagine how mind numbingly boring it would be to sit in bed day in and day out either. My boyfriend agrees with me on these feelings, but we can't afford to move out just yet. We're trying to save up. And, at least we don't have to physically deal with her that much.

No. 992067

While this cy les eriod hasn't been taxing and I managed to avoid being constipated and having the bad period shits, I have had nightmares involving pretty much every male I've ever been sexually involved with or new crushes plus overwhelming feelings of worthlessness and depression. The only funny thing that even my subconscious knows how much I hate my ex fiance that dream him is almost a sitcom character in which bad things always happen too. Still. Hope I don't have a nightmare tonight.

Also. Why is so much Christmas TV or songs so God damn concerned about love and finding love especially at Christmas. Some of us work shit hours and have no chance of a social life. It's Christmas stop making me depressed

No. 992071

>>989404
I'm the one who asked the question because I genuinely can't tell when someone is trolling here, and someone talking about their mom going for their pussy struck me as moid bait. Ngl you seem like you're baiting too with your uwu won't someone think of the victim shit. I don't know you or OP and don't visit this website often enough to care what happens to anyone, I just hate unfunny scrotes trying to attention whore for their incel gayops. >Encouraging incest
Lmao sure.

No. 992077

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I really despise my first boyfriend.
He's a genuinely evil person, and I'm not saying that lightly.
I feel useless because I don't have any proof of the horrid things he has done or said to me.

We started dating when I was 14 and he was 19, he introduced me to R9k of all places when I was only 14 and would 'make' me read the women hate threads there, he 'made' me unironically call him onii-chan and romanticised me being a 'loli', said it wasn't rape if women didn't try their hardest to fight back against the rapist, would record me when I'd cry during our arguments, would slut shame me for wearing shorts (normal ones, not even short shorts!) when we had a heat stroke, he'd get jealous when I'd talk to my own father, so, so many things.
But the worst thing of all is that he'd show me toddlercon doujins and said that if we had a daughter we should start molesting her together when she turns 3

I'm so afraid of him ever having children and I feel absolutely powerless. I know what he's like, and frankly I wish he just wouldn't be alive at all. There's nothing I can do and it tortures me.
I met him at the worst time of my life and he made it 10x worse. I went through so many things for him just because I was so afraid of being alone. Of course, I wish I had never, but I don't blame myself. I was only a child going through a very hard time who happened to fall in the hands of someone who wanted to take advantage of me.
He'll continue living. He simply shouldn't have the right. I hate that I'll have to know him for the rest of my life. I haven't seen nor talked to him in many years, but the wounds are still there and always will be. I would be relieved if he died, because if he was dead he couldn't be around children.
I know two of his exes in the past became friends by initially bonding over how shitty he was to both of them, and now they support one another. Sometimes I wonder if I should contact them to join the "women J has hurt" club, but I never do.
He has caused irreplaceable damage to me. It'll always affect me.

And he had the nerve to try to apologise for it.

No. 992080

>>992071
NTA but if you genuinely don't care at all that an anon is potentially being molested by her mother, you are simply a bad person.

No. 992084

>>992066
>Maybe she's depressed, but so am I. And I still take care of shit. I can't imagine how mind numbingly boring it would be to sit in bed day in and day out either.
Then you only have mild depression and not the real deal.

No. 992091

>>992077
I wish I couldn't read

No. 992102

>>992084
No offense, but that's kind of dismissive imo. I've had on and off depression for over a decade now. I've gotten better at dealing with it over the years (and kicked an eating disorder growing up), but it still flares up and gets the better of me at times and makes me feel worse than dead inside for weeks. Where's the line where it's the "real deal"? Are we gatekeeping it now?

No. 992112

>>992102
I'm just saying there's severe levels of it, that's the kind that results in not getting up or doing anything, but it hardly gets acknowledged when people talk about depression or any kind of mental illness for that matter everyone thinks it's the lighter kind and dismisses people who are truly fucked up and unfixable. The same thing happens when people encounter actual non-online schizos and autists irl.
This other post put it better >>>/ot/983299

No. 992117

There are a thousand lives I want to live… there are so many things I want to do and I don't feel like they can all fit in one lifetime..

1. Surgeon
2. Professional Skater
3. Professional DJ
4. Streamer with easy income
5. Artist with easy income
6. I want to be a mom to like 4 or 5 kids
7. I want to be a CEO girlboss with a penthouse condo
8. I want to be a sugarmama with many lesbian lovers
9. Lolita
10. Absolute weeb
11. Actress
12. Executive Producer
13. Baker with a booming business
14. World Class chef
15. Therapy/Psychiatrist
There are so many things I want to do or be and it all won't fit in one lifetime. I feel so torn. There's nothing I can do about it.

My more immediate concern is this: I work in technology right now and am almost making 6 figures. However, I do want to go abck to school to be a doctor. But I also want kids?? So how can I be a mother, go through school, med school and then be a surgeon or whatever for the rest of my life? I feel like my kids would hate me or always be like "where's mommy??" plus I make good money now! So like what…? I guess I'll pay off my student loans and decide then. I'm only 25 but the pressure to have kids is getting immense (my own pressure, because my mom had me at 28 so I want to kind of match that) but I know it's never too late, she had my younger brother at age 36.

No. 992128

I gave a moid my number and now I have the fear

No. 992130

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>>991205
>>990036
Well nonnies, she's gone. Unfortunately it was too late, she was getting worse and I had to put her down. I hate that I'm so affected by her leaving, but she was really my only friend. The one constant thing in my life that made me feel joy after a day of dealing with this shitty, cruel world.
I only got 3 years with her, but every moment was an absolute joy. Everyone says their cat is the best, but she was never horrible, she loved me from the second we met and it never stopped. Here's a picture of her sitting on my lap, as I'd always pull her on it when she was vying for my attention. She'd chill there, paws resting on my hand, peacefully resting with me.

I didn't know anything could hurt this much. I don't really know what to do, my apartment feels so empty and devoid. But we have to move on, keep going. I'll love another cat someday, but I don't think I could ever love a cat as much as I did her.

No. 992131

>>992102
No it isn't jfc

No. 992134

>>992128
So why did you give it? Stupid

No. 992135


No. 992143

>>992130
I’m sorry for your loss anon. I hope she will enjoy kitty heaven while she waits for the day you’ll reunite. ♥ She sounds like the loveliest cat.

No. 992147

>>992130
My condolences anon, she knows that you loved her and she was so lucky to have you in her final years. Stay strong.

No. 992174

>>992130
sorry to hear this, nona. don't feel bad about being affected by your cat's death. personally, losing a pet is one of my biggest fears because it's inevitable and unfortunately they don't live as long as humans do. my dog is getting old and thinking about the fact that in >4 years i'll just be walking around the house and he won't be anywhere scares me to death. i won't find him in his little bed or on the couch or in the living room ahhhhhhh. your post just made me really sad, i hope there is a heaven for pets, and if there is i know your cat would be there

No. 992181

been having dreams about taking pills again, after not having these dreams for a few years. i haven’t taken pills or done coke in over 2 years so i don’t know why i’m having these dreams now. i’d honestly relapse if i could get some.

No. 992182

>>992174
>>992135
>>992143
>>992147
These posts are going to make me cry more lol. Your support means so much anons, so thank you. To the last one, it's really fucking hard. Pets truly are a gift way too pure for this world.

No. 992191

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>>984336
i hate my dad i hope he gets hit by a car tbh

No. 992204

When I lose weight, it's over for you hoes.

No. 992226

>>992181
Stay strong, I believe in you.

No. 992229

>>992181
sorry for being a tool, but when you say pills what do you mean ? After my friend went to college he kept talking about taking pills at parties, but I never knew what and was afraid to ask. Like ecstasy pills or xanax ? Or oxycodones ?

No. 992236

don't understand why you came to visit today. you abuse everyone, cheat, lie, play victim, and everyone else around you laps it up like a dog because you're so ~misunderstood~. go fuck yourself, you stupid, extra-useless moid.

No. 992251

>>992191
Lmao @ pic, don't expect anyone here to follow Low Tier Cow

No. 992275

my mother knows that i’m uncomfortable with things, but everytime i try to assert a boundary, she immediately tries to find ways to tear it down and gets this pissy attitude if i don’t intend to follow through. she respects all my male family members’ thoughts and boundaries but couldn’t be fucked to do the same for my sister, i, or my grandmother. both my sister and i have severe anxiety and trauma and struggle to even go to parts of the house because of this. fuck this shit. i know it sounds pathetic but oh my FUCKING god i am done

No. 992321

>>992191
I hate your dad too

No. 992334

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i dropped out of university my final semester because of covid and feeling too depressed at home to focus on my classes. i regret it so much. i wish i just pushed through even if it ruined my gpa. i've been applying for so many jobs over the past year and i just can't find anything with my incomplete degree.
i've also been trying to apply for online colleges but every school seems to not want to convert my credits and i'd have to start as a sophomore… i don't want to have to do another 2 years. i need to get a job so i can move out and get away from my famiily.
my mom is so condescending to me and treats me like i'm 10. she can never ever be wrong about anything apparently. my aunt tattles on me despite being in her 50s (she recently told my mom i was saying "rude words" while i was talking to my online friends… i just said "shut up" in a joking way…). my grandma is constantly calling me lazy and useless even though i do a lot of chores for her. if it weren't for my cat and dogs i would have just killed myself. no one in my family has any sense of boundaries. if i try to set some, they just get walked around immediately.
i feel like such a loser in my early 20s. i wish i could just time skip to a time where i'm independent and happy. i know life can get better, but… i feel stuck. i don't know what steps to take. my mental state is in shambles. i can't find the motivation to do anything right now except cry about feeling like i'll be stuck in this house with my oppressive family forever.
sorry this post is all over the place, i just typed as i thought lol

No. 992341

>>992334
no universities or colleges will accept over 60 credit hours to transfer over because thats how they make money.
your only option is getting re-admitted to the university you went to before, have you looked into that? is that at all option for you?
if you haven't looked into that, I'd suggest calling the university tomorrow and talking to them about your situation

No. 992351

>>990501
i’m a zoomer (21 years old) and it irks me too. There have been times where i told myself to stop acting like a fucking weirdo and just go along with it but quickly shut it down cause it makes me cringe. Being raised with a bunch of millennials and not having any zoomer friends might have something to do with it tho

No. 992383

>>991847
I had this happen to me in college, and I actually had to change instructors. I felt 0 guilt about it, either. It was a class that built on a project from a previous class, that took an entire semester. This absolute snake of a professor for the second part got shitty with me about my project and expected me to redo the ENTIRE thing from scratch because it wasn't "complex" enough, in her opinion (instructional design document about makin peach jam). For reference, other classmates projects were things like "mountain biking", "shooting a basketball", and "how to make a suncatcher". The professor insisted jam itself wasn't complex enough and demanded that I create additional types of jam. Which all required videos and pictures, by the way. My total project, with an instructor guide and a participant's guide was hundreds of pages, 30 videos and dozens and dozens of pictures and it went into painstaking detail. This professor was seriously demanding that I replicate an entire semester's worth of work for her class and anything less wasn't acceptable. I was so upset I was sobbing and I dropped that class and retook it with a different instructor that had 0 fucking problem with my design document, she though I did a fantastic job. Fuck that OG professor I honestly think she was being mean to me because she's a dumbass bitch that decided to pick on me to make it harder for the hell of it. Fucking cunt

No. 992390

>>992334
>>992341
Please don't be discouraged by general documents.
Try to talk to an actual person, maybe look for student support organisations. Your situation isn't all that uncommon for people whose job it is to deal with students, so someone will know what you can do and help you do it.

No. 992395

I've been daydreaming about studying in europe for a while now… I daydream about a lot of stuff but this time i ended up actually looking up living fees and tuitions and stuff. I feel like i'm desperate for some sort of "goal" other than to just survive in my home country and now i'm clinging to this idea. I feel bad for wanting to run away kek

No. 992400

I'm meeting a cute boy in a week, but I broke out on my face and my shoulders and I don't think I'll clear up by the time I meet him.
He says he really doesn't mind and I believe him but still feeling self conscious about it.
I'm more insecure about shoulder acne than face acne for some reason. I at least want to not have ugly skin for him.

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>>990936
This anon again and surprise surprise I’m still fucking miserable. I hate conventionally attractive people so much. Nobody takes me seriously because of how I look (or how I talk, for that matter) and all my family does is gaslight me with “but you’re beautiful honey!!!”. Both my parents were attractive, what the fuck happened to me? I’m in my 20s and have my middle aged dad’s face and a babyface simultaneously. I’m a kissless virgin, never even held hands or been on a date, while my peers are getting married. The only men who have ever shown interest in me were creepy indian guys at the supermarket when I was 12. Every day I understand Christine Chubbuck more.

No. 992405

>>992400
>He says he really doesn't mind
Did you pre-warn him that you have spots? Don't do that. Don't lay your insecurity out for a scrote to see. They act sweet at first and use it against you down the line

No. 992422

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Keep getting puppy crushes on twitch bois with cute voices.
Getting a I can fix him manic vibes off of one who is always sad on twitter. I just find it sad how no one watches him and no one replies. He's not even that good looking, I don't know why I had the urge to imagine our life together.
Damn I'm lonely.

No. 992423

I just don't really know what the point is of living. Im not going to kill myself but every day just feels so monotonous and boring. Im working towards nothing and I don't have any passion to try and work towards anything. When I do think of something I just wonder what the point is because at the end of the day it never matters.

No. 992425

>>992422
You desperately want to connect someone and just want a good looking skinny guy who has some nerdy interests

No. 992502

>husband woke up criticizing me for inane (and wrong) bullshit about our dog right out the gate, didn't even say a "good morning" or nothing
>call him out for criticizing me and storm away angry
>whiny ass "Sorry babe" behind me
God forbid there are consequences to treating me like an asshole on my day off. I "slept in" until 9am and he's shitting on me because I didn't take the dog out to pee. Which I usually do at 6 or 7am before I go to work. The dog isn't whining or anything. When I asked him why doesn't he take the dog out to pee then, he responded angrily cause he did it last night…after I badgered him to. I'm usually the one doing late night/early morning pee runs with the pup.
Then he said something to me because I posted a video of our dog "getting his ass kicked" to my social media which was literally just him being on the bottom while playing with a sweet puppy at the dog park????
Fucking idiot is trying to make me feel bad about anything.

No. 992531

>>992502
>When I asked him why doesn't he take the dog out to pee then, he responded angrily cause he did it last night
I hate when men see that a job needs to be done and rather than doing it real quick on the spot like women often do.. nah they track down their partner because they're playing the game of 'it's not my turn so I couldn't possibly just do it' It's petty.

No. 992541

>>992531
Unfortunately you have to constantly gauge a man's generosity and initiative before you get seriously attached to him, lest you get married to a selfish manbaby like OP. OP was probably a nice pickme who assumed he was the same, picked up for him and did everything in the relationship and never got to see his true self until they got married.

No. 992544

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This going to be long but I have to vent somewhere:

My grandma has terminal cancer and it has been already said that she has not much time left. My mum is since the beginning of last month (and overall since the diagnosis last year) the main caretaker of my grandma. She now lives with my grandma for a few weeks now and while I do not downplay the situation of my grandma being deadly sick, it really starts to affect the whole family because since the news broke. I help my mum where I can but she and her two brothers are the ones who are responsible for grandmas well being. The thing is that at this point my mum does the whole work, the one older brother just started to help frequently and the younger one lives in a different country, so he can only help money wise. My mum is clearly done and burned out from all that because of as mentioned, the drama and fights that happen ever since (and especially since she live with her) and of course the whole cancer situation on its own. My mum does get help from the professional medical team each day, but they only come around noon and leave in a few hours. The mood of my grandma has changed a lot in the past days because she got the news that she will mostly likely die this month, but feels good overall with the help of medicine and is able to do daily things on her own. As said my mum lives there and hates it at this point bc she tends to clash with my grandma as well and said in the past weeks many, many times that she would like to take a break or have the older brother to step in and help grandma instead, so she could go home again and go back to work. But of course with the news of my grandma prob dying really soon she said she would feel bad to do this now but at the same time she has no energy to maintain that job any longer. She said that there it the possibility to arrange a help that stays with my grandma 24/7 but she has not spoken to the medical team yet because idk why. It could be easily done, everybody would pay for that but my mum is the one who has to take action in that direction because she is currently the one living with my grandma and the person the team operates with. I get that it is easily said than done but the thing is that at this point it's impossible to talk to my mum because all she talks about is how tired she is and how much she hates everything and everybody. I don't know what to say at this point because you can't even talk about mundane everyday things with her because you get things like "Well, sounds like you had a good time but I do not have a good time right now" and such. She got so bitter that I really feel like not talking to her much because all the conversation do is going into cycles how stressed and tired she is, how little help she gets but also how nothing changed because she did not take any actions to change that and so on. I always listen and try to give some idk idea and offer help when needed but you know, but that's something she has to figure out with herself and my grandma. My grandma already said that she does not care about who there is for her, so idk at this point.

No. 992545

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I found a few tiny black dots on my fingers(needletip size) and I'm freaked out that they might be melanoma. I noticed them a few weeks ago after I was working with metal(and might have got some splinters because I'm a retard who doesn't wear gloves), but they're still there. I'm going to the doctor tomorrow and I'm not gonna stop freaking out about it until(if) I get told it's nothing

No. 992547

>>992502
>he said something to me because I posted a video of our dog "getting his ass kicked" to my social media which was literally just him being on the bottom while playing with a sweet puppy at the dog park????

kek if you're not trolling this man is deranged. do NOT have children with this person. he's already trying to enforce hypermasculine machismo standards on a fucking DOG lmao.

funniest thing is, dogs will often let puppies "win" in playfights just for fun, or to keep the game going. Your dog has more self confidence, maturity & emotional generosity than your husband kek

No. 992554

My best friend is surely pissed at me right now because I can’t visit her the next Saturday, but I’m paranoid about the whole covid thing because my lungs are like two pieces of paper and some family members of mine have died while sick with it.
Her family is huge and they live in a small apartment, her siblings love to stick to us too, and while I was actually looking forward to seeing her, I just can’t go visit her.
I’m sad because I can’t help but think that she thinks that I don’t like visiting her or seeing her face to face, because I always have to make sure everyone in my family is happy, so I always have to cancel anything I plan so they’re all happy and not stressed because of me.
Seriously, I don’t even know why try having friends, even if I could pick a car and visit her, I would be inconveniencing someone and I would get yelled at.

No. 992558

>>992554
how is someone your best friend but does not understand how your family is? being frustrated with you is understandable, seriously it seems like you need to assert yourself more but legitimately pissed off?

No. 992566

>>992558
Well, I get her, I’m always messing up and often unable to meet her, sometimes the reasons sounds like excuses and she’s surely frustrated, because she doesn’t go out nor meet with lots of people, she’s quite the social kind of person even if she gets tired of interacting with others.
I’ve tried being assertive, it only makes my family get more pissed at me for daring to go out after the death of 3 family members… while my cousin and brother go out all of the time.
It’s just overall frustrating, this whole pandemic has made my life a special kind of living hell, lots of minor inconveniences that would’ve been justified with other excuses or reasons so I’m always locked up.

No. 992568

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>>992545
Hey anon, i got benign melanoma removed earlier this year and it actually looks pretty much the opposite, big multicolored moles.

No. 992575

>>992568
Thank you anon, that makes me feel better. But I'll still get them checked out just in case, and cause if I have metal in my skin I should probably get it removed anyway

No. 992576

>>992544
>It's annoying that my granny is dying pf cancer and my mom won't make light hearted small talk with me, keeps burdening me by mentioning that life is pretty shit for her right now, I mean I know her mom has terminal cancer but hey lighten up, shes so bitter
>>992545
>what are these black dots, guess I totes have finger cancer and need to see a doc stat
What the fuck am I reading?

No. 992584

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God I fucking hate living below a family with children.

No. 992588

I watched a documentary about DID and wow I wanna punch Jill so fucking hard, fat disgusting piece of shit larping a mental illness that(if real) comes from horrible abuse. I can't stand her disrespect for absolutely everything that could have hurt these people and for what? Tiktok attention????!

No. 992591

Trying to sell shit in Facebook is so stupid. People who buy are super entitled and want you to do whatever little petty request they have. And then they ghost you

No. 992592

>>992588
Which one? I want to watch too

No. 992640

>>990507
Millenials barely had internet anywhere.
Zoomed were raised on internet, millenials were raised on TV.
Millenials had cringe phrases from TV that boomers hated too.

No. 992656

>>992592
https://youtu.be/ojzZ4L2rmSY I watched this one first and then https://youtu.be/B0LNyXsErb8
To be honest I don't know if the illness is real but the people featuring the documentaries have had hard lives, I'm sad for them, and fucking mad at larpers of any mental illness, what a shameful existence.
Sorry for the text anon I know you only asked for the links but is upsetting

No. 992678

my partner pretty much compulsively gropes me in private and it’s so FUCKING IRRITATING we’ll be cuddling and i’ll be happy and then he’ll just reach his hands down my pants and twiddle my fucking pubes or poke my clit. it makes me want to punch him.

is this even normal?!! would you be as annoyed as i am? like maybe i’m the weird one because i’m just not a very sexual person anyway, but i can’t imagine most people enjoying constantly having their tits grabbed and their vag touched. i know i need to have a serious conversation and he probably will take me seriously, feel bad and stop but i’m just venting about how fucking annoying it is

No. 992687

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WHY THE FUCK IS WALLPAPER SO EXPENSIVE ON ETSY AAAAAAAAAAAHHHH
I already spent too much money and don't have enough to buy enough rolls to cover all the space I need, but there's a sale that's literally ending today aaaaaa!!!

No. 992690

>>992678
My ex was like this and it was a big part of why we broke up. He would randomly grope and touch my breasts and vagina without warning. It got to a point I would flinch and recoil whenever he reached out towards me. I stopped hugging him and cuddling him in fear of the inevitable sexual touch. I told him multiple times, even once yelling NO at the top of my lungs, and he would always apologize and then casually 'forget' next time. He tried to blame it on us not having enough sex and that he just couldn't help himself, but this behaviour was the exact reason I became aversed to sex over time. It's been a year since we broke up and I can't imagine myself in another relationship because I hate the idea of sex so much after the way he disrespected my personal boundaries. Don't let it get to this point. If he doesn't listen when you tell him to quit that bullshit, break up.

No. 992691

>>992678
Do you tell him to stop it when it happens? It's disrespectful behaviour.

No. 992694

>>992678
My ex used to do this, but he only because he knew I had a higher sex drive than him. I only enjoyed it because he would rub my clit or eat me out, without wanting anything in return. It sounds more like he feels entitled to your body like you're an object, or trying to pressure you into having sex with him which is disgusting. Please tell him to stop.

No. 992695

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No. 992696

>>992678
Tell them to knock it tf off? My partner learns very quickly that my body is not accessible 24/7 and it was bold of them to assume that.

No. 992703

I just downloaded tiktok and scrolled through the for you page for the first time and holy shit I want to blow my brains out. Half of the posts are straight up porn. The other half are barely legal girls talking about how much they love to give head. I knew it was bad but I didn’t know the severity of it. I’m 21, so technically a zoomer, but I still cannot understand how widely accepted all of this became in such a short time.

No. 992710

>>992541
>picked up for him and did everything in the relationship and never got to see his true self until they got married
happens all too often

No. 992716

The stretch marks on my legs and thighs are becoming more and more visible everyday and I don't know if I should bother with my diet anymore, I know that I'd relapse into bad eating habit and neglecting exercises when my depression episode comes in, and I'd get fatter as I age and one day I will look at exactly like my obese grandmother. I'm becoming hating my body so much I wish I could just born into a machine with a brain instead of having to take care of this meat prison that's going to be perceived by society.

Hell, I used to be at least proud of my face but now my eye bags are permanent and I look 10+ years than my actual age because of long term depression and stress.

I don't want to die, I just want to stop existing.

No. 992724

my misophonia has been getting progressively worse and not a single day goes by of me not getting pissed off by the smallest things.
I don't think I can take it any longer.

No. 992725

>>992724
Exposure therapy. It really does help, it helped me. After a while, you get used to it and ignore it.

No. 992727

>>992725
samefag but by "exposure therapy" i mean exposing myself to it and just dealing with it. Focusing on what I was doing rather than what I was hearing, and not looking for ways to avoid it.

don't pay for shit.

No. 992728

>>992703
I dated (past tense) a guy who was obsessed with tik tok. He was pushing 30 to boot. I will never download the app, but I've seen some amusing or creative ones shared by friends. But the majority is either lazy content theft or thirst trap trash. Said ex would mindlessly watch tiktoks for literal hours before bed. Or stay in bed for a couple hours before getting up on the weekends. (not to mention the times he'd probably use it on the toilet or on lunch breaks) The times I watched some with him like every other tik tok was some thot. And he would click the heart button while I was right there. Maybe there's a better place for discussion about the ethics of boyfriends liking other girl's posts, but when it's a ton of half naked sexy chicks in lazy cosplay it kinda gets to you. He's an ex for a variety of reasons (i.e. bringing up the open relationship card because he "wanted to have sex with other women", while never even sleeping with me anymore let alone even trying to take care of me even when we did).

No. 992731

>>992728
Women really need to start dumping at the earlier red flags more often instead of waiting until the cross the line. What an absolute garbage older moid.

No. 992756

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Been ghosting my best friend for the past three days because I am so fucking tired of her non-problems. She keeps complaining about how she's bored at work and can't find anyone to hang out with when she's off(I live in another state, thank god)while I'm trying to balance work, uni and family related stuff. I used to feel bad for doing it but now that I've seen how demanding she can be (she immediately texts me and acts like it's sooo urgent when I don't pick up the phone, not considering that I could be busy) and how much of an energy vampire she is, I don't even care anymore.

Funny how she recently mentioned that she feels like her friends are turning their backs on her and I can kind of relate at this point. She used to be so nice, supportive and caring but for the past two years she's been extremely selfish and needy and I'm serioulsy rethinking our friendship.

No. 992760

I hate my boss' jokes. They're borderline sexual harassment and I have to fake laugh at them all over again for another week.

No. 992762

>>992678
Yes it's not normal, but I think answering this is kind of missing the point. Wether or not it's normal doesn't matter. What matters is how YOU feel about it. And if he has any respect for you he'll quit once you make your feelings heard.

No. 992768

>>992762
It's normal if both parties are fine with it

No. 992772

>>992756
My honest two cents. For being your best friend for years, you didn't mention attempting to talk to her about her behavior once. Communication isn't just for romantic relationships you know. People come and go but if she's your best friend, seems lousy on your part to not tell her how you've been feeling. Seems like you both have some faults and you should talk it out. If you can't reconcile, at least you tried, but ghosting people you claim to be friends with is lousy. Sorry you're dealing with a lot Nona, good luck.

No. 992777

I fucking hate how sick scrotes suck up all of the attention. My cousin got diagnosed with cancer the other week and my whole family is obsessing over his diagnosis and how they can support him right now. Who the fuck cares, he's going to die anyways. Meanwhile I'm graduating from college soon and actually being productive, but not one person in my family has reached out to say congratulations like they did with my siblings.
I'm fucking seething rn. Seriously hope all scrotes with cancer die.

No. 992778

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i'm just dumping everything since i have nowhere else to dump it, big ass blog post and tragic backstory incoming

just doing it to feel temporary relief

i'm experiencing the loneliest most isolating period of my life
my biological mom passed away when i was really young and my dad never wanted anything to do with me since he already had another wife by the time i was born. growing up my older sister would consistently come home from his house and relay to me he would tell her i'm not related to him, id tell this to my little half sister who would get upset and claim he would tell her that i was his daughter. he never made contact with me unless i achieved something academically, and then at most he'd ask for a photo of me to put up in his house. i was adopted as an infant by my grandparents and grew up pretty normal until i was 8 and my grandpa passed away and he took a lot of what made my grandma herself with him.
started being a weird kid and became reclusive with germ OCD alongside terrible body dysmorphia. im talking like complete and utter disgust of myself, face and body to the point that i had my first rhinoplasty at 14. if i kept a mirror in my room i'd look at myself with rage for 30 minutes to an hour and end up in tears googling plastic surgeons. my older sister got badly into drugs and has bpd, we're more acquaintances than anything even though we lived in the same house. i drifted away from my little sister, and my adoptive mom would toss me away if it meant she could spend time with her fiancé
i start going in on myself, full on blaming and wondering what my flaws are that make people that used to really like me turn to indifference
i felt somewhat fine until my dad died recently, my older sister was listed in his obituaries but not me
he left her items and trinkets after he passed but not me
she was invited to the funeral and not me
like his wife and himself leaving a last message that he has no care for me at all
i met someone who is unbelievably talented with music, really cute, complex and probably has more depth than i do
we started to date but as months went on the honeymoon phase ended and things flattened out more than i'd hoped. why is it really hard to come to terms with the fact that you can say/do anything but the outcome won't always be what you want. you can say how you feel but it's never guaranteed to change anything. i leaned into them since they were like my support and at the time i thought they wanted what i wanted, while simultaneously shutting out all of my other friends because i have no vigor anymore, as well as when i would try to tell them what was happening in my life the attempt at comfort just struck me more as apathy.
i have no friends, i have no wishes to make any friends right now, i have no energy for anything other than work, no one matches me with my level of care for them, had a habit of carelessly taking big amounts of any medicine that will make me drowsy when i want to avoid being conscious & im starting that up again, anything that goes wrong turns into self blame filtered into a category of 'because i'm ugly/annoying/shallow/immature'

i'm really exhausted, i'm suspecting i have depression but i vehemently deny it because i don't want to be. i don't really feel like what i think a depressed person would feel like, i can be pretty happy usually. but i have nothing i enjoy, and i think of myself as too much of a burden for any social interaction with meaning at all.

i'm super scared of having no one but i have no clue on how to improve and give myself more value

No. 992779


No. 992791

>>992772
Oh I've tried that( I didn't want to make my inital rant about her too long though) but then she'll find 100 reasons why, instead of working towards changing it. It's just that I'm really fed up with her behaviour now, whereas before I just tolerated it, thinking it'd pass eventually.

I've told her multiple times that I can't always pick up because I don't get off work at 12pm every day like she does and hence don't have time for a chat when she's bored. I also told her that I don't have much sympathy for her when she's thinking that the worst thing about her life is being bored, while plenty of people have real problems. I've only been ghosting her for the past few days and it's not something I do on the regular.

I am tired of always having to apologize for being busy because I don't have to justify myself for it. I'm sick of being there for someone who wants advice but won't take it, I'm sick of giving someone a shoulder to cry on but them not asking once how I'm doing. This friendship has felt one-sided for a while now and I always try to go above and beyond to be there for her yet when it comes to me it's always about what I can do for her. I just feel unappreciated.

No. 992818

I used to be an ana-chan. For the last ~7 years I have been restricting my calories in some way or another. I have felt very proud that the thoughts and feelings I had about eating, my body, calories, food, etc. has shifted a lot, into a more logical and not ana-chan way of thinking. I would consider myself to be trying to gain weight lately. But it just does not reflect in the way I eat, and that scares me. I have been struggling to eat 3 meals a day, not because I am trying to lose weight- I either just forget, am not hungry, don't have the ingredients/time, etc. and I end up eating a protein bar or snacks instead of meals pretty often. I'm feeling sad and like I need to vent about this because I have felt so much better about this lately but it just hit me (when I passed out at a friends house) that not eating for 9hrs on a normal day is not healthy for my body! I am not getting enough calories and sometimes I have to correct my brain when I start to feel like thats a good thing. Sorry to post this, it feels pretty embarrassing to be anachan here but although I have been having a hard time getting calories, I feel very good that my brain has stopped registering this as desirable.

No. 992834

>>992777
I know right? It's infuriating. I want to tell my cousin to hurry up and die so he can stop being such a useless burden.

No. 992845

>>992818
Would counting calories help or would that be too triggering?

No. 992850

>>992845
I've tried doing that and I've found it very hard to be consistent. I recently started an ADHD med (also suppressing my appetite), so I should try that again to make sure I am getting my nutrients and calories. Thanks for the suggestion! I feel pretty confident that it should not be triggering for me.

No. 992856

>>992850
Maybe this is a dumb suggestion, but if you're forgetting or struggling to eat, can you incorporate high calorie drinks into your diet?

No. 992858

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>>992778
Why don't you give antidepressant a try anon. Doesn't seem like you have much to lose. I don't have any flowery words, just cliches you've heard before. But you do sound very much trapped inside your sadness, you're inconsolable.
When I was in a similar place, my trick was NEVER having a single thought. I aim to dissociate completely every day.
Take the pills, go to school/work, don't look in the mirror, eat the same 4 meals every day, have a live stream or music playing at all times, never go in the showers or to bed in silence, take the pills. If I get too unbearably lonely I go on lolcow. I basically lived like a ghost, completely isolated and detached. That sounds unhealthy to most ppl but weirdly, the ritualistic repetitive approach to life really helped me. And with the medication, I don't know, one day I just woke up and knew in my heart that I can keep going. It's subtle at first, but I started having thoughts like "I want to try something new, I want to go to the park, I feel ready for a connection", like that.
Not sure how to end the rambling, just yeah, maybe try drugs lul

No. 992859

>>992856
nta but this is a good idea! A venti green tea frappe at starbucks is like 1200 calories or so

No. 992860

I’m almost a month late on my period. But I did have my period a week after I last had sex. And I was on the pill. But I stopped taking the pill after I had that last period. And I took a shower today and noticed my abdomen was bloated where my bladder is. I’ve taken 2 pregnancy tests and they came back negative and I’m still afraid I might be pregnant. I’m going to buy more tests tomorrow but I’m panicking and I’m going to eat a bunch of donuts and cry. I feel so alone.

No. 992872

>>992850
You can be my inspo. I'm coming to the realization my current eating habits are not healthy or sustainable for long term. Eating 1600 calories worth of food seems so overwhelming and hard to do every day unless you're bingeing.

>>992856
>>992859
I do not recommend this!!! Drinks with the majority of their calories coming from sugar are horrible for you. Doing so will sabotage your health and will you could get addicted to sugar. (Maybe I'm biased because I am addicted to sugar though).
I recommend you have calorie dense foods instead. Try nuts and seeds. A small handful of nuts could be about 200-300 calories, and a tablespoon of seeds can be 50-60 calories. Hemp, chia, flax, coconut flakes or shreds are extremely calorie dense as well. They're all easy to incorporate into your food or smoothies. This is the healthiest and easiest way to get calories if you don't feel like eating imo.

No. 992873

>>992872
I wasn't thinking sugary drinks, but protein shakes and stuff. Fresh smoothies with nut butter etc.

No. 992883

>>992859
How is that even possible?? Sauce?

No. 992888

>>992860
Pregnancy bumps dont happen that fast unless you have been previously pregnant in the past. You start to show the soonest at like 12 weeks. About a month in, you should have started having pregnancy spotting. You tend to feel sick without the runny nose too often. Also, your vagina is dry when you're pregnant and you will have more discharge thats really creamy. Sore breasts, headaches, green poop, spotting, peeing more frequently, and loss of energy are all early symptoms. Don't worry anon, you are just late unless you fit in these symptoms. I hope i could help.

No. 992893

I've been working some some free art for someone for a couple of months now. Nothing big, but been very busy so doing it in my free time.

My laptop wouldn't turn on last week. Took it into the shop and got told the next day it's dead. Got kinda pressured into buying a replacement there and then (best choice though, was just super stressed + trying not to cry)

This art is pretty much the only thing I've really lost from that laptop. I was a dumbass and never learnt what onedrive was. The only copies have of it are 500px previews I've send this person. I was so close to finishing that it was pointless sending another preview, since I could finish it next week when I have time off from uni.

Don't want to have to redraw it all over again because that would be agony. Might try doing it from scratch.

On the plus side, shop staff were super kind. I got an almost identical laptop, but with more memory + a huge chunk of cash.

Kinda worried they won't believe me since "laptop broke cant do art" is such a cliche. Seriously considering just giving this person the value of the commission in cash so I don't have to paint it again.

No. 992894

>>992883
>>992859
nvm i'm wrong sorry!

No. 992909

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>>992778
I'm really sorry you didn't get the childhood you deserved. And right away I know that you feel like a burden because you're so scared of expressing yourself, so the real 'you' doesn't come across so easily. This is worsened by having a neglectful childhood, as growing up like that makes it harder to let people in due to 'learning' you're unworthy of love and fearing rejection. But the real you, I'm almost sure, is not boring at all.

So if no one has been there to support you, you need to start supporting yourself. If you're an adult, think about making that sad and desperate kid you proud, and that the pain was worth it. Cut off the guy if he reinforces your negative ideas about yourself, move away, even, if you want a new start (as you don't have many ties to people). You could have your own apartment, or have roommates, and decorate it to make the kid you happy. Like I know a lady obsessed with pandas who comes home happily to an entirely panda themed house every day, for me it's pink stuff.

It's important to look after your body during depression with exercise, good hygiene, and meal prep, just imagine you are your own child to love and look after, and it gets easier. Also, I know zoomers and millennials are the loneliest generations, but you don't have to live like that. I took the gay advice of 'hur DuR JoIn A ClUb' and it's been really positive to get exercise and be surrounded by women. Also, depending on where you live, you could try to find excuses to talk to strangers like 'do you have a tissue' or 'what time is it?' and then build up to having conversations. If you're awkward, you're awkward- it's natural.

But what's important: men probably can't look after your feelings and are emotionally immature. It's better to find emotional support in women. If you feel ugly, try to remember you're a soul in a body having an experience, and your body is working hard to keep you healthy and working, and to derive self worth from what you make and do rather than how you look. Change up your routine, eat breakfast for in the bathtub, paint your room green, learn arabic or get up at 4am and watch the world wake up. Keep the kid in you alive. Don't live by any rules, by kind to yourself, and take risks everyday. I know this isn't the most coherent paragraph but I just felt a little surprised that someone could have such an unfair start in life. I am really proud of you for making it this far, even though you had it difficult for a while- that's very strong. Your path is different, I really hope you end up getting to wherever you need to be.

No. 992911

The void is not even 5% full today.

No. 992920

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>>992858
i basically do that now, i always have my headphones on and i can't do anything without constant sound of someone speaking. i fall asleep to like gaming commentary videos every night, if i can't hear something like that then i have a really hard time sleeping. the person i'm dating is really the only person i speak to right now and i just put all my energy into that, u know? i'd try antidepressants again but the last time i took them i couldn't deal with how suicidal it made me feel on top of not being able to care about anything. being alone is enjoyable to me until i get reminded of why i'm alone, if that makes much sense. ty nonny maybe i'll grow the testicles to try drugs eventually.

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>>992909
i agree with you 100% but my partner isn't a guy, she just has a masculine personality i guess

i did try to invite a coworker out for bubble tea, and it went well as we spent an hour talking before we went home and i downloaded fort nite for her lol
but her boyfriend played with us and i have no chemistry with him at all, and back at work shes just angry shes at work all the time so no amount of joke cracking does anything to relieve the tension

thank you for the advice you're really sweet, don't apologize for the rambling it was enjoyable to read!! even when shit gets extremely rough for me i don't think i could go through with suicide or anything like that, i don't want to scar anyone who lives in my house by finding me after it's done

and i have a sweet clingy anxious cat who loves me more than anyone, it makes me teary to think of just leaving him. even if it's lame

thank you a lot for your feedback, i'm pretty stubborn even when i'm in a lot of pain
i'll just end up trying to sleep it off for maybe a month or two and try to build myself back up being okay if i was to be completely alone

No. 992945

>>992791
In that case Nona, if you tried and she isn't willing to pull her weight in your friendship then you are well within your rights to walk away. Relationships aren't a one way street. Sorry that it's happening to you, I hope things get better for you.

No. 992979

>>992911
stop assessing the void

No. 992986

Holy fuck ladies. So my first relationship was sexually abusive, and most relationships since then also–but they've been steadily getting better, probably because I'm recognizing red flags sooner and valuing myself more. My last boyfriend wasn't a rapist, didn't verbally abuse me, but also lost interest and I was low self esteem enough to throw myself at him. Which of course led to him emotionally detaching and just sticking around for sex. Great. It's been three years since that relationship, a wee bit of dating in between but nothing successful.

Two years ago I met a coworker. We work with teen boys and I've always crushed on him because he just seems like such a great role model. Anyways, I recently told him I had a crush on him for forever (he's no longer my coworker) and we've gone on a few dates. He suggests we go stay overnight somewhere for Christmas. At first, I'm excited. Then he suggests I look at places I might wanna stay and as I look online, I start getting into my head. Who's paying? Will we sleep in the same room? The same bed? Do I go for cheap so two rooms are affordable? Do I say fuck it and go for something that looks nice but is totally geared for couples (one bed, jacuzzi, romantic ambience, etc.). I'd fuck with a bed and breakfast… but then I'd need to have a conversation about sexual boundaries. We only just kissed last night, I explained I tend to get nightmares after first kisses so he was cool with waiting a few dates, asking before if we could kiss on the next one, letting me decide when, that sort of thing (no nightmares, but I did have an awful sleep). So now I'm probably going to explain a watered down version of this: I really like you and am excited to do overnight adventures with you, and I realized while looking for places that this isn't something I'm ready for just yet.

But it's just… for fucks sake, I wish this wasn't my reality. I don't think he'll respond poorly, and if he does oh well another one bites the dust. It's just that dating is so stressful, it's like walking through a minefield (and there's always that nagging part of me that says it knew all along and I should have realized it sooner). I don't like seeming wishy washy, but I also know I need to voice my needs or else I'll repeat the past.

Christ, even worse is I have no girlfriends I can rant to about this or who will be with me along the way. One girl I think is cool but she's busy with the end of semester at uni and I don't really know her well enough to ask her what she thinks. How am I supposed to navigate dating if I don't even have any supportive friends? Do I tell him hey I like you but I need a female friend before we can date? That sounds fucking stupid. Save me from my overthinking, nonas!

No. 993003

>>992986
sorry in advance because i know i wont be very helpful but: damn you have made a lot of progress! i think first and foremost you should at least give yourself a pat on the back for all your strength and perseverance!

aside from that, it sounds like things are going well with this guy so far. i know its tough to think about asking, but i really think you should just be honest and say you do not feel ready just yet. typically overnight stuff takes time anyway, so i think its not strange or a lot to ask to say that. also, definitely i think its better to say it rather than not and then possibly have yourself run into more issues (ex: maybe you go into it and its not ideal because of you not being ready, having to think of some other excuse as to why it cant happen, etc) and from there at least you know you said how you feel and youll even get a better idea of how he feels too (who knows, he may also feel like waiting is the best choice?). its okay, i also have no girlfriends and i think that you have the right idea!

all the best nona, i think youre doing awesome!

No. 993004

>>992986
Wait so have you two defined the relationship?? Are you dating?

No. 993020

>>992986
Idk anon as a general rule I don’t do overnight trips with men I’m not “official” with because it’s either a hotel fuck-marathon that mutually fizzles out once the weekend is over or something goes wrong or weird halfway through. That’s a lot of alone time with a person you don’t really know and what would you do if like two hours in he tells you about his diaper fetish. There’s also the reasonable fear of “this man might literally murder me.” I don’t think it’s unreasonable to say “I’m not really comfortable going on an overnight trip with you without defining boundaries.” That way you can know if you should go at all, if you should get two beds (and a separate room with a lock maybe) or if he intends for it to be romantic.

No. 993034

>>993003
Your kindness was actually really helpful cause yeah, it's not strange that overnight would take more time. I knew I had to be honest about this, ignoring my panicky response would be such a step back for me. And if he's really so wonderful, he'll respond graciously. Just wish I hadn't said yes to even begin with…

>>993004
We've gone out twice, the second time I let him know I'd be open to dating. Since then we've gone on two dates. I think it was our first date that he asked about this? Which looking back was way too early to bring up overnight things imo. No, we haven't spoken about becoming anything official yet.

>>993020
That's another thing, it's a lot of time to spend with each other! I wish I had thought of these things in the moment, I guess I went into people-pleasing mode and ignored my intuition… which sucks but at least I'm paying attention now.

Okay well I sent the message, not too long, threw in a compliment or two, and expressed the overnights isn't something I'm ready for yet. I'll update you ladies how it goes.

No. 993063

>>993034
Good luck babe. I agree that you should know where you stand with each other before doing things like this. I’m not saying this is the case but I’m a cynical bitch so it is almost Christmas time and a lot of men don’t want to spend it alone so they can get more intense and forward without considering afterwards. It’s something to keep in mind. I hope that he’s actually a nice guy and it blossoms into everything you want anon.

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never failed a class in uni before but i feel like i'm going to fail this one and it's making me nervous as hell. how am i going to tell my mother?
i don't even have a good reason for it outside of not leaving myself enough time for this project we have to turn in. god i feel stupid and i'm praying the grading rubric is gentle.

No. 993075

>>993070
Focus on getting done and ask for an extension anon

No. 993087

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>>993075
we're at the end of the semester; i'm not even sure how far he could extend it. and besides: i've already turned it in.

tmi, maybe, but this is the vent thread so: it consists of the program itself, and a report that's meant to walk him through our thought process. i didn't fully meet the specifications for the problem the program was meant to solve (and i'm now anxious that i didn't even [fully] use the components he wanted us to use), but i'm hoping the report is graded independently of that…because i did give some effort.

i don't know. i'm trying not to think on it too hard. there's no point to stressing myself out over it, i think – i'll just pray on it and sleep that the guy is merciful. if he isn't then well, i guess everyone has to fuck up sometimes. pray for me though

No. 993095

>>993092
Hi I see you

No. 993096

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No. 993098

Was at an event tonight and someone brought their stepdaughter. She ended up clinging to me a lot of the night which I thought was a little strange until I found out she was only 13 (she genuinely looked 17-18 and is much taller than me but she's obviously very young once you hear her speak.) Near the end of the night my bf told me some of the men at the party were making jokes and comments about the girl because they thought she was older too (still fucking gross because she's obviously a teenager) and when they found out her age they seriously would not stop going on about it apparently. Most of the men he didn't know, but he did tell them to knock it off and left the group with his buddy at least.

No. 993101

I keep getting these fucking spam texts, I swear I get one every other day. It's like "your bank account has been hacked, click this link to retrieve it". I always report them as spam but I keep fucking getting them. Well this time before reporting it I replied being like "kill yourself". I know the scammer probably wouldn't see it or care but I'm just so tired of these stupid texts.

Then I got a text back from another phone number being like "who is this?" And I was like… Shit. Then I realized the spam message had made a group with my number and a bunch of similar numbers. So apparently I just texted "kill yourself" to a bunch of random people. I texted that one person back and was like "sorry I was replying to a spam message that was apparently a group message". I feel bad now and hope I don't get put on a hit list or something

No. 993113

Damn why is my self-esteem so shit? Whenever I go to public events and I see all of the other women there I always think they look so cute and pretty and feel so fucking self-conscious and unattractive. I know that I am at least average looking objectively and yet I always feel as if I'm the least attractive woman in every room. When I bump into moids or accidentally touch them I worry that I've grossed them out by touching me instead of the other way around. Idgi because I've been hit on before and whatnot (which I know isn't really a good litmus test for attractiveness since men will hit on almost anything) and I don't necessarily think that I'm ugly, but it's like I feel unattractive regardless of how I look if that makes sense… If I was just self-conscious about my appearance then I guess that would be a different story but I don't even know what the fuck this is.

No. 993118

I don't know if I'll ever change nonas, maybe I'm not strong enough

No. 993121

I am so tired of my nephew being mean to my son, he is just an awful kid. I vented about him in >>977585 >>978266 and yeah I get some kids are like that and it’s not their fault.. however his parents barely even paid me after promising to for a month and it was only $120 for watching that kid and having him scream at me and my baby… this is such a shit job. I was pressured to quit my other job too cause it was fast food and I hated it but I hate this even more. I’m so done with that kid, I feel cheated. I’m quitting and checking on applications at some places in the morning. They were taking advantage of me… I’m uneducated and inexperienced I feel dumb. I would rather work in retail or fast food or anywhere else than ever do that again. I’m scared for my baby being stunted because of all the bullying hes experienced from that kid… he’s learning how to be mean from him. It’s sad. It ends now. It’s not my problem to fix that kid, his parents said they shouldn’t pay me that much because I don’t teach him and his brother how to read. But that’s not my responsibility, I fed them , kept them clean and sage, and missed out on working during the day to care for them, also his brother has a severe speech impediment and it’d be hard to teach him. I always feel my stomach drop when his parents from him off. I’m glad it’s over. I’m never falling for something like this again

No. 993122

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I can’t believe I’m experiencing the stages of grief after scaring off a guy with my bpd tendencies and he keeps leaving me on seen fuck that dick-cheese roid toy

No. 993130

found a lump in my breast and been crying all day

No. 993135

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>>993130
Most lumps are benign anon, try not to think of the worst outcome.

No. 993137

My motivation level is shit and I feel awful. I tried to make everyone in my family clothing for Christmas, and now the only person I have left is my lovely ma and I'm worried that I won't finish it in time. And as I type this instead of working on it, I feel bad but not enough to start. I just want to sleep. I regret this decision, I should have started with her clothes first. If I don't make it, it'll look like everyone in my family got something except the one woman who created me. Just so wrong. Doesn't help that I can't work on them when we hang out and we're always hanging out. Like out of 52 weeks a year, I probably spend 25 at her house. I love her, and none of my actions are reflecting that.

Maybe I will work on them until I sleep. REEEEEEE

No. 993138

>>993130
Don't panic anon, I'm sure you'll be alright. Like the anon above said it might be benign, or not even a lump at all. One time I thought I had a lump on my body, but it was nothing.

No. 993140

>>993135
>>993138
thank you, I have no one irl to talk to about it and I've just been going insane by myself.

No. 993148

Ultra religious groups who discourage teaching their children the language of the country they live in disgust me. It’s such a horrible abuse of power and control so they won’t be able to interact with “outsiders” in the case they ever want to leave the cult. Ultra orthodox Hasidic Jews who only let want their kids to know Yiddish in the US and Amish who only want their kids to know PA Dutch.

No. 993177

I don't know what to do in life nonnies. I'm at my final year and writing a final project/thesis but i don't have a clear plan on what to do after college. While all of my friends seem to either have a start up, constantly getting part-time projects, or doing well academically. I literally don't know what to do other than barely surviving with small gigs and jobs. I have no long-term sustainable plan and after a suicide attempt last month i feel like i've given up on one. I don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing, i've stopped overthinking about my future, "everyone walks in their own pace" kind of thing, but i still get a gut feeling that i'm just ruining my future by coping in the present

No. 993218

>>992777
I'm sorry nonna. Here's hoping that your cousin dies of cancer soon

No. 993220

anyone else’s antidepressants making them feel like disappearing into the void or ether or whatever? I’m not anxious anymore and I was never depressed but I can’t tolerate my usual chaotic/stressful life mess. I just want to sleep it away, not in a suicidal way

No. 993221

I feel like shit. Nothing ever works out for me. Fuck life. I wanna be happy.

No. 993222

>>992405
Too paranoid

No. 993224

>>992576
>What the fuck am I reading?
Could it be vents in the vent thread, I wonder

No. 993225

>Try to get driving licence
>can't focus or react properly to situations
>get anxious, making issues worse
>fail
>get a bike
>constantly distracted by daydreaming
>sometimes don't notice other bikers or cars in my way
>scared to have an accident
>anxiety

I don't want to die, but I also want to be independant, how do I escape this.

No. 993229

>>993098
Poor girl

No. 993230

caught my fiance cheating again after two yrs. as in the whole two yrs we dated (actually i found out the first time on our first anniversary but ive found proof he's been doing it longer) ive kept catching him. not physically cheating that i know of but talking to ppl on dating apps. im breaking up with him but ive never been good at prioritizing myself of setting boundaries, especially since i have heavy dissociation issues that are affecting me especially bad right now, so its hard to feel what i know hes done to me and its hard to even keep in my mind that he did this to me. still ive never been strong enough to do this but i am now. he lives in my apartment and has nowhere to go so since we're still "friends" (ive known him all my life so its hard to just cut him clean off straightaway) so ive told him to get his own place. he makes enough he can afford it. he's promising to change and to give up smoking and everything but he should've changed the minute he started dating me, to be honest. i am the love of his life and i have so much less to lose. im working on loving myself (or at least regaining a semblance of ego) and setting hard boundaries but i also still want to cuddle and have sex and everything, but only with him. it's going to be really hard to readjust to my old, alone self. i really dont think ill ever date seriously again, i'd never dated anyone before him, i never intended on getting married but i really fucking loved him. we both loved each other for years before we ever got together but how can a cheater really love. this is so horrible and unreal.

No. 993231

>>993121
I'm happy for you nonnie. He isn't your responsibility, you have to concentrate on both your own baby and yourself first and foremost.

No. 993233

>>993230
i want to add ive tried breaking up w him before but he would gaslight n manipulte me into staying or we would have horrible fights that would drain me emotionally n physically n i would just desperately restore peace, im trying not to repeat this pattern again for my own sake even though instinctively i want to do what makes him okay even though he keeps fucking hurting me,

No. 993236

>>993230
Damn anon, this is so awful, been through something very similar. Really messes up with self esteem and ability to trust to find out someone who is supposed to love you does something behind your back. Make him move out ASAP, and the second he's out, block him everywhere, it will be easier to move on faster. It may feel like you may never date again now, but you'll move on eventually; besides, you don't need a man to be happy and fulfilled. All the best to you, fingers crossed it goes smoothly and he's out of your life very very soon. And forever.

No. 993246

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saw my psych and she commended me on all the progress i made. i cried a lot during the session and hearing her tell me that made me cry even more because i've never had anyone acknowledge my growth.

then i heard that my soulmate is in a relationship now and i feel so heart broken. it hasn't been confirmed yet but i think it's probably true. i wish i lived in the alternate reality where i never fucked things up when we were together. ive improved on the things that tore us apart but it took years. i wish somebody pushed me into therapy sooner. no one pushed me i ended up going there myself but the damage of losing my soulmate was done. how do i cope?

No. 993247

>>993246
why do you feel this person was your soulmate, of curiosity?

No. 993252

I’m getting bullied by absolute ugly ass freaks in my class. It only bothers me when I don’t think of them as ugly ass freaks, but it also scares me I’m just coping in a cluster B way. Is this a healthy cope though? I literally think of them as stupid low mean ugly and fat because that’s what they literally are. The thought they are trying to get to me when they have a comical face just makes me laugh out loud and ignore them and only use them for school tasks/group projects (if they wanna participate with me, at least)
I think I’m stupid and fat but not low mean nor ugly though. Screw my class for being lower than the fungus between my toes.

No. 993255

>>993246
It's never too late for therapy and I'm so proud (and a little envious) of your progress! While it's not super common to meet people we're able to form very close bonds with, it's not like there's only one "soulmate" out there for you. If you believe in destiny, maybe this has been it for you and that person, you were meant to meet and love them to realize something about yourself and begin the journey to become better, and this is where their role ended; it's important to recognize and appreciate as you continue on your new, better path. One day you'll be able to move past this regret.

No. 993256

>>993247

instant attraction when meeting, i've never gotten along with someone so well ever on so many fronts. it's been years since we were together, and we weren't always talking during this period. i've been with three other people and they feel superficial, like a page turn. we had fun together, we had similarities, we connected but it wasn't as strong as it was with my soulmate. even if the relationship lasted longer (which is all of them i think), if you told me to share a highlight of one of my last three relationships, i would need a moment to think. with my soulmate i would need a moment to choose between many. and these memories are still easy to recall even though it's been 4+ years since we dated.

we reconnected recently and it was like opening a time capsule of memories. all of these in-jokes and memories are still there and we still bring them up. although my soulmate has changed a lot due to recent trauma. we're still the same people who dated long ago.

No. 993257

My friends new boyfriend is painfully annoying. He literally thinks any girl on the internet that vaguely resembles her is her, and then doesn't even bother discussing it he just acts moody and distances himself like he's about to cheat or dump her and then she dumps all this on me which is like once or twice a week like are you fucking kidding me? How painfully stupid must you be that you think that your girlfriend is literally everywhere on the internet. He never bothers investigating either because he flipped out on her after accusing her of being some girl posting with a similar username but didn't have the braincells to look at the profile pic which obviously wasn't her. he could have easily avoided a fight by making one click
Men can be un fucking believable

No. 993262

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>>984336
this admin girl at my old work (I work in STEM) used to harrass me constantly to go for a drink with her despite me flat out telling her I wasn't interested. She would be all like "don't tell anyone I'm into girls, I'm not out" etc etc. It was super weird because she was so persistent and completely would not take no for an answer. Anyway I found out yesterday through the grapevine she is having a baby soon. Just made me sad like why bring a kid into your messy life. Working minimum wage, HS drop out, no steady relationship, harrassing another woman who is patently not interested.

No. 993270

>>993262
Tell her that she’s ugly and that you’re a straight boss ass bitch that’s Already engaged to a big cocked rich jerk. No need to thank me.

No. 993271

>>993252
Being mentally ill is objectively worse than being ugly, my condolences.

No. 993274

I wish there was good straight porn with hot guys and male focus so i don't have to resort to fapping to fag shit. Fuck this world

No. 993278

>>993271
They’re autistic too looking like that and acting like that usually means they’re autistic.
I’m not that mentally ill lmfao, what gave you that away?

No. 993288

>>993278
Your whole post babygirl

No. 993289

>>993271
Also hold the fuck up, I just realized that you are responding like a low iq’d motherfucker.

What’s wrong with being mentally ill and getting bullied for no reason over being mean and ugly? I’m getting sexually harassed in class, outcasted, mocked, get called mentally ill just because I’m doing my thing like it’s supposed to be (more like jealousy), way before I decided to be narc and think of them as low creatures, like (you).
I’m in a ghetto class with mostly men and pickmes in it, but I’ll be one of the few to graduate and pass, and they will mostly stay all neets just like you. Kiss my pseudo narc ass retarded cunt.

No. 993293

>>993288
Lmfao. You are crazy.

No. 993297

Had a 10 hour movie marathon with a guy, ended up kinda touching and kissing. Nothing more though.
He gave me flowers when we met that day, I gave him a small gift because he paid for everything on our kinda expensive dates before. But this morning was kinda weird. I felt like he wanted me to go already and we didn't set up next date. But when we were saying goodbye I went for a hug but he went for a kiss. No message from him in these three hours after we said goodbye though. Guess he's having second thoughts. Nothing in my behavior really changed, I wasn't clingy or anything because it's like our 4th date and so far I still think of this as of something casual.
So I guess intimacy he himself initiated spooked him. Or maybe I shouldn't have given him a small gift?
Sucks to be in this position, I wasn't really hoping for a relationship, it was just a nice occasional date or a hangout since he's way too young for me but this atmosphere doesn't feel good at all. From the way he was acting I suspect he might have been very inexperienced or borderline a virgin. He's very cute and has a lot of pretty female friends so I thought he'd be a bit more experienced.
Maybe I'm imagining this bad atmosphere but since things usually work out badly for me, I'm probably not. Well at least I got flowers and a nice evening out of it. Wish men weren't this wishy washy and hot/cold on dating shit. Just be straight with me bro. Tell me what you mean.

No. 993300

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I'm so tired of people calling my politeness fake. That's just how my mom taught me to talk to people. I can't change this. They spread rumors about me, calling me fake etc. I don't get this, should I tell people I've just met off? Or should I act all buddy-buddy immediately and tell them everything? I don't know how to act because I'm an autist, I'm just polite and professional but this bites me in the ass somehow. There is no reason to talk about me or randomly hate me, I'm just a boring person. I don't want anyone to like me, just return the politeness and don't go out of your way to be fucking rude. I will quit solely because of my coworkers. I was so happy in my hermit home office life, I never want to interact with anyone again.

No. 993315

>>993297
The best thing you can do if you like him is SAY NOTHING! Wait for him to message. If it takes too long, text something casual like something funny you saw or whatever. The worst thing you can do is probe into whether he is having second thoughts or ask what was wrong because it could seem desperate, it will give him all the power, and he won't know what to do with it. Probably is inexperienced like you said. Younger guys are like this, you don't want to give them power. Be casual but take charge a little bit. Act like you're not bothered either way but HAPPY and like you have your own life. If you try to dig into whether he stil likes you, you will regret it, any answer he gives will seem fake and upset you. Ive been there. Good luck anon!

No. 993316

I'm realizing how sheltered and lonely I am and I feel so shitty

No. 993318

>>993252
Cope however you can until it's over
They're probably everything bad you say they are because no well adjusted person would bully someone

No. 993320

>>993252
You’re underage fag or something? Have you considered chimping out? As a teenager you can get away with a lot. The school will call your parents but you will establish yourself as actually unhinged.

No. 993322

>>993297
>No message from him in these three hours after we said goodbye
I've gone home before and wondered if I'm gonna get one of those "did you get home ok?" texts soon after. Ngl at times I've been a lil disappointed when I never got one but some guys just don't want to bombard you, he could be scared that a message so soon after you left is too much. You're both probably playing the guessing game right now.

No. 993328

>>993315
this has nothing to do with age and is entirely to do with the guy himself. if he ACTUALLY likes you he won't play games like that, no matter the age. stop giving out this be advice like "younger guys do this and this"… no. guys who don't care about you do that.

No. 993341

>>993315
Yeah I know, I wasn't planning on probing. I almost always wait for him to message me first and he usually does every day. This morning he was a bit weird but I'm not gonna probe, I will give him space. He might be second guessing this but I'd feel bad pushing him into anything especially when I'm older. Thank you for writing out the advice anyway nonny, I appreciate it.

No. 993350

>>993318
Thank you for your answer. I tried to be nice but they just get worse. One of them even asked me if I wanted to have sex with them for money. (Like I give them money)
The worst thing is that they’re all adults (20+) or almost to be adults (17-18 or 18-19).
I’m in trade school btw a ghetto trade school.

I can’t attend a normal class because I’m a poorfag with no HS degree, I’m in that class for study gibs and in whatever spare time I have I study to get my GED. Hopefully next year I’ll attend a real programme and surround myself for once without toxic ass ugly retards. I was bullied all my life and I don’t really care so long I cope. I don’t know why that anon was even butthurt that I look low at my bullies lmfao.
>>993320
I chimped out ONCE when I was underaged and it’s the reason why I have no HS degree, they dropped me out, and I remember one of the bullies’ mother called the police on me for pulling out her daughter’s hair. Lol. I did that because she would post my number on random websites and give them to old men who would constantly ask me to do sexual things with them.

Yes I think about suicide every day. I just wish I were normal.

No. 993353

>>993350
Let me vent some more. She not only posted my number but also forced me to steal booze almost every day thus risked me with becoming a convict. Yet I was the one who got expelled. Honestly I wish I didn’t exist at times.
>>993288
Kys you dumb retard.
Now I feel better and I hope you understand why I look low at people like (you).

No. 993413

i’m 20 with no education because i live in burgerland and it would cost a literal arm and leg. i’ve been trying to avoid going balls deep in debt but what’s the fucking point?
but i’m about to say fuck it and get a cosmetology license, because that’s what i wanna do. it’s that or work minimum wage jobs the rest of my life.
i won’t make much money doing hair but at least it will be something i enjoy.
no point in living my whole life trying to avoid debt, it’s inevitable, might as well rack up as much debt as i possibly can before i die.
fuck ittttt, student loans, medical bills, all that fuck it ima do it

No. 993414

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No. 993429

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I'm so fucking angry and disgusted. I broke up with my boyfriend a few days ago and went to my friend's potluck party to cheer myself up. This disgusting guy attaches himself to me and kept cutting me off from the group conversation to speak one-on-one and because I didn't want to be rude I stupidly listened politely. He then finds out we live near each other and insists I get the same taxi as him and because I was tired and just wanted to go home I agreed but made sure another girl came with me, he spends the ride mansplaining mental health to me (I'm a psych masters student), asked me to hang out with him (I declined) and the next day he messaged me to ask him to go to a 'sensual dance' workshop with him. Real pickup scrote bullshit. To make matters worse he messaged me again today inviting me to his house, so I messaged my friend to tell him that this guy is making me uncomfortable. My friend sends me screenshots of messages this creepy dude has sent him unprompted, where the creep asks for "advice on becoming poly" and says that he is sexually messed up and spent the last 6 years in a mental ward. I am never, ever being polite to a gross man ever again.

No. 993445

>>993429
Fuck men but who the fuck even invited that weirdo in the first place??

No. 993448

One of my higher ups at work got covid, knew about it, still came to work anyways. 5 people are now out with covid. HE still comes to work like he did nothing wrong and didn’t quarantine himself at all and now we’re working with a skeleton crew at the holidays. Good job, limp dick

No. 993453

I wish they could shut their mouths. I'm tired because I had to work all day, I don't want to listen anyone complain about having to do so much when they don’t even have an actual job ffs

No. 993547

>>993256
have you told this person your feelings?
maybe they feel the same way and/or are willing to try things again
if they truly are your soul mate and you truly think this much of them, at least in my opinion, it would be the biggest mistake of your life to at least not try, especially upon finding out they might be with someone else impacts you this deeply

No. 993581

>>993316
Another sheltered person signing in. I've tried coming out of my shell, but ultimately it never really leads anywhere, my relationships still fade away because I don't know how to bridge that awkward gap between casual aquaintance and friend. I have no one to call, no one to cry to. I guess I don't even have much real stuff to cry about since my life is so uneventful.

No. 993591

>>993445
another man, kek. men don't seem to have the internal creep-radar that we develop and pass it off as just being friendly until it reaches batshit level

No. 993592

>>992873
Definitely will do more of this! Smoothies and soylent are my saviors. They help me a lot with micronutrients as well (which i think is part of why i have been fainting). Thanks everyone for the helpful suggestions :)

>>992872
I feel you. I used to have a real big problem with binge eating when I was a kid and could easily take 3000 cals a day. I think that getting out of the starve-binge cycle helped me a lot to curb the desire to binge. Instead of binging, I allow myself to have whatever I desire, and that takes the urge to binge away for me. I hope you can develop more sustainable and healthy habits. What has really helped/motivated me is watching people on youtube who have really healthy and non-restrictive diets. One of my favorites is Emily ewing. We are in this together anon! You can do it :)

No. 993636

>>993328
Not sure I agree with the canard that a guy who truly likes you will show it in a clear and sensible manner. Everyone says this but men are quite incompetent in this area. In my experience being in my mid thirties, autistic guys especially often don't know how to show their interest in a woman, whatever age they may be

No. 993770

>>993634
Schizophrenia usually manifests itself in late adolescence/early adulthood, often "triggered" by some sort of stressful event. It's a term for a grab bag of neurological disorders.
HOWEVER, psychosis can also be a symptom of other disorders, such as depression or bipolar disorder. Perhaps you're having small seizures.

In any case, this is a serious issue that absolutely needs medical attention. Psychotics are a danger to themselves, self harm and self mutilation is pretty common. Even if you don't physically harm yourself, you can fuck up your life in every way imaginable while you're psychotic.

No. 993969

>>993096
can I help you Mary Sue?

No. 993974

>>993230
Sex will make it harder, trust me anon. Plus you don't know where he's been or what he's contracted–and you can't trust him to not fuck anyone else even if you get tested for stis. Kick that motherfucker out with no sympathy.

No. 993987

>>993924
Just communicate yo?

No. 994081

My husband won't stop talking about crypto ever since he got into it 4 months ago. How can someone be so autistically fixated on a subject for all this time. I also invest and it interests me but not to the point I want to spend 90% of my conversations talking about it. I even prefer to remove myself out of the room and leaving him talking to himself because he doesn't seem to realize I'm not interested or enjoying the conversation, and when he's on voice calls with his friends I still end up listening to it since it's all he talks about kek



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