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The vent thread now with 100% less anime threadpics.
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FUCK YES OP
I was just looking at those creepy accurate biblical angels holy fuck
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Nice new thread ban anime
Somehow I want to vent atm. I fucking hate to be in my highly sensitive flesh of body. Feels dissociating and soaked in hundreds of bugs with their tiny legs. Feel like rotting. On top of that, can't get a call from nurse today so guess I'll hang around lc.
I see, thank you for reporting it anon. i think I'm going to go pet my dog for a while.>>679821
Thinking about it you really don't see a lot of women doing that shit.
Who wants to bet it's the same guy furiously switching IPs each time he gets banned for making a blatant seething scrote post?>>679817>>679826
Sorry you had to see that, anon. Try not to look at the home page or /w/ for awhile, I think this retard's going to keep trying to raid for a few days. I'll report the posts whenever I see them too.
It really seems to be a moid thing. They love posting gore and disgusting shit. They do it every time they try to “raid” kek.
So pathetic that the scrote did for some fucking vtuber LMAO
I would try making a really dense stew with lentils, beans, a lot of leafy greens like spinach or kale/chard, and red meat.
If you're vegan, just swap the red meat for more beans.
You can eat Pumpkin seeds, roasted chickpeas, sunflower seeds, top everything with sesame.
A go to lunch for me was:
1 serving of cottage cheese, handful of shredded spinach, 1 small tomato, some cucumber and tuna with spices. It's a good amount of protein and boosts in iron.
Have your doctors run tests on your kidneys if you can't find any other things wrong that's causing the anemia, and see if you can't find some supplements at the local shop/pharmacy if your doctor is a lazy dick about filling scripts.
Best of luck, my advice is from personal so ymmv.
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Just why the fuck can’t anyone work properly? Why is it so difficult to set some fucking boundaries? Like this stupid varlet asshole, why the fuck does he have to act like some sort of master hero?
Like yeah, the “kid” a guy in his 20’s who somehow is ripped, is a lazy neet piece of shit, of course he will get shat on a lot by his father if he won’t even help at the fields. But no, the asshole has to whiteknight his ass because “h-he’s a kid with issues!!11!1” Nah, fuck off, he’s a grown ass adult that should stop fucking around and start doing something to bring money to the table, specially with the many economic issues there are.
Now we have to keep the guy from going too often to check out the crops, because
Fuck this shit, this was a huge investment and because of some fagass’ feefees we have to go on a slower pace than what we projected before.
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I want to start doing my makeup again, like only eye makeup but I'm so unmotivated in the morning I just don't feel like it. Then when I go out or use public transport I feel kind of crappy looking at all those women with their pretty makeup. I don't think I'm ugly without it but I know it makes me look a lot better, especially since I have small eyes.
Might make this my new years resolution or some shit.
Eh, I've been treated like shit back then (bullying in small town's schools are absolutely the worst, because you can't even change the environment) and I have no fucking idea, what should I do with myself at this point. It's hard when my abusive
ex is thriving while I had to cut a lot of people from my toxic
circle and failed a first year at my college. Nothing works in my favour, even if I try so hard.
anon that's bullshit speak, you're letting your previous experiences change your mind and create your identity. That's toxic
and you'll be regressing any future progress you made subconsciously. You need to take the shit that's hurt you in the past and slowly learn to throw it all away. Create a new life if you have to run away from that environment. No excuses. You always have time to restart your life. Breakdowns suck, but what sucks more is letting your breakdown and letting your shit shape possibilities of thriving. you're asking an anonymous image board for what you should do when I bet you already know what you should do. no, don't kill yourself dummy- restart and gain autonomy again duh
It's gonna be hard at first. But that's the main point of growth. Good luck and don't try to let this weird cesspool become an addiction to you. love u
Hang in there anon. Keep chatting with us! I know it won't provide much comfort but many others know how you feel. Find solidarity with them, even though you don't personally know them, you know struggle and sadness. I had a huge breakdown myself a few years back, I was well into my 20s. I was in the hospital for a couple weeks. It took time but I tried to kind to myself.
Maybe try to think of someone, even a pet, whom you care for deeply. Think of the love and warmth you have for that person or animal. Then extend that same kindness and love to yourself. You deserve it!
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i'm so tired of my parents' bs. they're bickering and fighting 24/7 and when called out (because they make everyone in the family uncomfortable) they start shitting on you instead. at least my dad is tolerable, but holy shit i can't stand my mom, who also is a cheater, who knew!!. wowie, i wonder why i turned out so fucked and why all of my relationships are failures.
i wish i could move out already but i'm poor so i gotta rely on them, can't wait to live alone in silence.
Exactly, it's the boredom getting to me. I went on an aimless drive after posting and I feel much more clearheaded. But that hunger to touch and hold someone is still so strong. It sucks that intimacy is really only in established relationships and not random fucks. Wish I could just find a guy to cuddle without the burden and stresses of dating. >>680047>>679982
It's a shame because the anonymity of imageboards is something special. You can slip in and out of discussions without anyone noticing or caring, and if you make an embarrassing post, it doesn't hang over you the way posts on Reddit or Instagram do. There's also no self-curation, since there's no incentive to commodify yourself. Really, being associated with imageboards actively drags down your social capital, so the less recognizable you are the better.
But the kids/teens/people with no sense of self get fucked up by imageboards because without an identity, they grasp at anything to individuate themselves and get radicalized into thinking being depraved is better than a normie/NPC.
This. I think people think we're supposed to be okay with it, especially since how so many people in our community look up to rappers who only
call women bitches and hoes, then the female rappers are doing it as well.
I told a friend not to call me a bitch in a friendly way and they got mad at me like i'm being senstitive, No don't call me a bitch.
I've even had to call gay men out on this, do they think we just okay with being called bitch every five mintues?
ANONS… THIS >>668180
WAS ME AND UPDATE- WE’RE TOGETHER NOW!! I’M SORRY FOR CAPS AND MAYBE WRONG THREAD BUT IDC I’M SO HAPPY
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I have reason to suspect that I have ADD, and after waiting several months I finally had an assessment over the phone with a doctor that asked me in depth about my mental health history, it lasted about an hour. They asked me to come into the office and see the doctor next week so he can either prescribe me medication or an alternative treatment plan or both. I do everything I can to optimize my ability to concentrate and I think medication would make a huge difference, I'm really hoping to get a prescription. If they ask me to come into the office just so the doctor can give me some pamphlets or make another referral to a different doctor I'm going to be fucking pissed off. I don't really see the need to travel across town to a doctor's office for that, especially during a pandemic lockdown. On the one hand there's the risk of exposure to the virus, but it also takes time and money get there, and I'm stretched for both right now. I really hope it doesn't end up being a waste of my time.
In case you care to hear some suggestions - >Hey I'm going to x movie this weekend, I know you mentioned you're interested in [genre/topic/actor], would you possibly have the time and interest to come? If not no big deal.>Have you heard about this new place that opened up in the neighborhood? It seems cute and I think it'd be fun to hang if you have the time, want to check it out? >Remember when we were talking about x the other day? Well, I found out there's a place where you can do x close by! I'm thinking of giving it a shot, would you maybe be interested in coming?
Obviously you have to get to know them a bit and set some groundwork beforehand so you can talk about things or activities they might be interested in, and in the COVID times this is a bit harder, but you can still get people's numbers and such to ask for "class/homework" help then engage with them regarding more casual things now and then too.
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I keep having this intrusive memory of when I was 13 and I can't stop just feeling a disgusting amount of embarrassment about it. I was 13 and staying at extended relatives house and unfortunately at my peak puberty sex drive. At that age all I could think about was sex, when I could next masturbate, etc, it was like a disease and Im so glad that isnt how it is anymore. Anyway I waited until like 1 or 2 am to get out my laptop and masturbate on cam with someone on omegle (I had a guest room to myself)My judgement was fucked in every single way because why would you do this at all at 13 let alone at a family's house for holiday but alas, I was retardation. Im on cam for some stranger for maybe 10 minutes and I guess I was making noise, though I dont recall, because my mom bursts into the room completely furious. Im naked and I can see out into the living room directly that she and two other family members are directly in my line of sight watching a movie on the couch, so it occurs to me that they probably could just hear me the whole time and my mom had to eventually come stop me.She rips the laptop away from me and I have to beg for her to let me close omegle and delete my search history though at that point it didnt really matter. I had never seen her that mad and disgusted and disappointed in me like that moment. Neither of us have mentioned it again for the last near decade but the worst part is the more distant family that had to witness that depravity. I hate seeing them every year because I know they must remember vividly. I wish being a teenager was a part of life I could have skipped and functioned normally at. Im pretty sure this contributed heavily to why my mom sent me to rehab.
I'm probably alone here on this, but does anyone else here get exhausted in their friend group because you're always helping your friends but your friends don't really help you?
It goes beyond emotional labor for me. Just recently me and a bunch of my friends all found ourselves unemployed due to covid reasons. As soon as I found out, I dove right into researching and looking up the latest ways to make my resume competitive. Once I even paid beaucoup for a professional resume redo to make it stand out. The form to get it redone was nuts and was like filling out an application in itself. I'm not exaggerating when I say I've applied to more than 100 places with tailor-made resumes and cover letters within the past two and a half weeks. Because of that I got two offers in my related field so thankfully I won't be unemployed by December.
My friends couldn't have helped me. Instead they want me to help them. I admit their resumes are super poor and rudimentary. I already made redline edits to one and sent it back to one friend. I wasn't mean but I think she was a bit upset or overwhelmed to see all the markings. Yet she desperately needed it, she got really bad/outdated advice from someone. Like even though she had several years of retail and even supervisor roles, her formatting and lack of details made her look like a kid fresh out of high school. I could see why employers were binning it the second they laid eyes on it, so I gave lots of advice on how to fix the issues. Later she sent me an obvious job scam to ask if it was legit, and when I softly told her no she played it off like she already knew to save face "Oh yeah, I'm not stupid." Then why did you ask me at all? It was obvious. The other friends haven't sent me theirs yet. I think they either don't have a working document for me to even review, or they're nervous about being seen in a way after I see it.
I would never make them feel bad or deride them, but they need to be willing to put in the work and think.
I wish so badly that I had a friend to fall back on during these times myself. Someone to ping ideas off of, but my friends are still tripping themselves up on Nigerian prince email scams complete with broken English. It's like they expected me to hand over my resume that I worked really hard on for them to just copy. No. 1. That won't help them in the long-term because otherwise they will never understand how they need to write their resumes, 2. That's not fucking fair to me after all the work I did, 3. I don't get paid, this is just volunteer on the basis of being pals, and 4. None of them will have any meaningful input to give me in return on mine they're struggling with the basics.
This isn't a humblebrag or putdown, it's just genuinely feeling frustrated and having friends not able to support me in the way I need them to at the moment.
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When I was a kid there weren't any children being so poisonous towards older people (in their 20s, 40s, seniors, whatever) and young girls insulting even older girls in their late teens for being old and used up (my sister started crying when she turned 18 last year, some younger enby-type girls were calling her 'leftovers' for years apparently).
It feels like teenagers place too much value on their youth now and it scares me to think how they'll cope with getting older. I also wonder why this is happening? Some pedo shit online? Are zoomer guys just more misogynistic? It's scary to think about.
I'm starting to see it more and more even on lolcow, and it's started to be imported into my country as well. Men here are known for wanting to fuck everything that moves so we never had the 'wall' shit until recently, and it's exclusively teenagers and early 20-somethings talking about it, not even the ancient misogynists of yore crawl out of their senior crack dens to do it.
coming from a zoomer myself the way a lot of us view aging is pretty horrible and i'm definitely not immune to it myself considering i've felt ancient ever since i stopped being a minor
i often see girls on social media who turn 19/20 and start calling themselves hags or talking about how they want to kill themselves because they're worried men won't want them anymore
They should start by not maxing out their mom's credit card on mobile games and plastic crap from Wish.>>680386
That's really depressing. Don't they have a hobby or something that doesn't revolve around men? Join a convent or something, damn. Anything is better than thirsting for males, especially since they still get treated like shit after all that pretending to like kinky sex, ahegao and making him lunch while he's streaming.
My boyfriends fuckin loser friends can go get aids and die.
Plan a weekend barbecue to have some drinks and play around with gel blasters cause we’re immature and it was bfs birthday.
One dickhead mate brings his kid along without mentioning it and I’m stuck babysitting this little turd who trashed my sewing room, tells me to make a doll and a full wardrobe for it and hovers over me until I humour him and cut up some fabric, plugs in and unplugs random appliances, drinks sauce from the damn bottle, and is generally up my ass and going through my house while his dad does nothing but get shitty when I tell him to make his sons lunch while I’m making it for everyone else. No thanks for babysitting five hours for free, he got pissy about having to keep an eye on him af the r the kid drank sauce in front of him. Never even said thanks for hosting and feeding them.
Another dude gets blind, pukes in my garden, and passes out on the yard. Doesn’t thank me for getting him water and a blanket, just gets up and leaves.
Third dickhead is incapable of following a few basic requests, please don’t shoot in the landing, the carport, or at the beehives. This man over thirty then immediately shoots at my beehives and throws a fucking tantrum when he’s told to quit it before I hit him with the butt of his toy gun. Tells my big I should just stay the fuck inside my own home so he can play how he wants and somehow thinks he deserves respect but I don’t.
I’m so fucking over it. Any of them come back to my house and I’m bringing out the real fuckin rifles and chasing them into the dam. Absolute most pathetic little crybaby wankers disrespecting me because I’m a woman but cant see how pathetic they are.
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I know that Flash getting disabled isn't new news but there's something I found out a few days ago.
I have spend many months/years playing Flipline Studio games, I have worked so many hours on my restaurants and now they are going to be gone, I stopped playing just because I got busy this year but I don't want to loose all that progress. I feel so angry, I worked so hard on all those games. I just hope that the site manages to save the games without Flash but I don't think it's possible.
Please get help anon. If you don't like the idea of seeing someone in person then there is online therapy as well. I know BetterHelp has gotten some shit before but I actually have used it myself and it was fine. Just know that you can easily change therapists if the first (or second or third) isn't working for you. Give them a chance but get a legit trained therapist, not some fucking "reiki energy worker" which I have seen on there as well.
Alternately look into self help books that describe how to do cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT) with exercises you can do on your own time. It's literally the same sort of thing a therapist would work with you on. It does help to have someone to go back and forth with but for me doing CBT on my own was extremely beneficial. Please hang in there and know you deserve love. Whatever reason(s) you hate yourself - I'm certain they're based on false information and bad logic that's been fed to you in some way or another. You owe it to yourself to figure out where things got mixed up and tell the negative voice in your head to fuck off.
Hosting the others, cooking, helping me with the kid, and telling his mates to speak to me properly or fuck off.
They’ve also been told by him that if they care to collect the things they left here they can come by and apologise to me if they want them back, I’ll sell them and keep the money as babysitting comp.
Sounds like they’ve also been pretty shitlisted at work (they all work together) because the work crew all know me. Last night BFF told me he overheard the rudest one being told by a old guy there that ‘you’d kick someone’s head in if they disrespected your mrs like that, so be thankful you’re getting better than what you deserve’
I’m just so mad that these duck heads think they’re alright to be so disgusting because I’m a woman.
I’m well supported and all that but it’s still so frustrating to know that no matter what these little retards will always think they’re important or special or worth a damn when they’re really just blacktown trash.
They genuinely deserve to hate themselves and to never feel anything but shame.
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My father had a heart attack a month ago and after his 2 week work leave he ended up getting fired and now I can't think about anything else other how the fuck we will pay for his medical expenses now and will he be ok and how christmas will suck even though I have an assignment for uni due tomorrow I need to finish. This end of the year is being absolute hell someone help
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I wish I still had the energy to be furious, but at this point I'm just depressed that my vile ex has proven my hopes of believing in a true love fated for me, who would let nothing stand in the way of us being together, were just a crock of shit. I always knew it was unrealistic and tried to approach our relationship in a mature way, but there was a tiny part of me that still dreamed, you know? I gave so much of myself and got nothing but spite back. Now it's over and I suppose this gives me the chance to fall in love with myself this time, and I understand I deserve my own love. It's a good thing and better than relying on another person for your happiness but terribly bittersweet to give up something you've been quietly yearning for your whole life.
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This is this month's vogue cover in Poland. For those who dont know, the polish government has made abortion illegal even if the fetus is heavily damaged and wont survive after being born, or if it kills the woman. So, all the libs are going crazy with "yes girl slay" -ing but I just fucking hate how sexualized it feels. Apparently Anja Rubik designed and selected this photo, so it is "empowering" and all that crap and you should not complain cause you are restricting her bodily freedom etc, but holy fucking shit, it just shows how politics are aesthetic for the privileged. Vogue knows that the people that support the abortion ban do not buy vogue, so they were just playing it to their target demographic so they can score some points. You are a fashion magazine, vogue, and targeted for rich people no less, not a revolutionary zine.
I'll try looking into cbt. I think I understand my own thought processes very well, but all I have really done to try and manage them is avoiding triggers
, which isn't always possible. I don't think I would feel ready to talk to a therapist because I don't even feel fully comfortable talking about that kind of stuff with friends irl or online. I don't know whether I'm actually that bad, I'm just being whiny and oversensitive tbqh. I just feel very stupid and want to be able to pull myself together.
her left arm looks like a head of a black baby that she is nursing. wtf
i also hate that this eMpOwErInG cover still portrays an enslaved woman. I hate corporate feminism.
Isn’t Vogue dying anyway?
This is stupid as hell and I don’t give a shit if it’s supposed to be “empowering”. There’s nothing empowering about using a woman’s naked body as a palatable ‘artistic’ medium to convey the fact women are not allowed to be empowered enough to make choices about their bodies, even if it means risking their lives. Fucking stupid.
I’m sorry that your government is shit anon, I hope by some miracle this is overturned before too much damage is done.
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My boyfriend doesn't normally do drugs or drink until he gets around one of our mutual friends. That friend is moving out of state, so we went to party with him. I just had a few drinks, but my boyfriend did a bunch of key bumps of molly and coke (that I highly suspect was heavily cut with meth).
Now he's being fucking annoying and going off about death and energy in the universe. Everything he's going off about is a word salad. And bugging me to cuddle. He will literally not shut up and it's annoying the piss out of me.
"the sin of my genetic is being white washed". Like shut up. I get he doesn't like being half white, but please, shut up. He's racebaiting me irl. I gave him some of my klonopin so he can go the fuck to sleep. Uhg.
Thanks for taking interest, anon. From what I can see rape in the criminal code is defined as an forcing someone through violence, threat, or deception to have sex (and can be sentenced from 2 to 12 years in jail), additionally if someone uses the same techniques to get perform other sexual activity (I am assuming masturbaring in front of someone without actually doing penetrative sex) can go to jail from 6 months to 8 years. Recently, they made the punishments for the rape steeper, but the issue in Poland is that rape is only considered rape if someone attacked you in a dark alley etc. Prostitution is legal but it is illegal to force someone to prostitute themselves, maximum sentence is 5 years, unless the prostitute is underage and then the maximum is 10 years. Incest is illegal, with similar punishments for pimping. Additonally, all of those laws were established in 1932, so maybe they are quite outdated. I am not a law specialist, so excuse me if this is not what you asked, but Poland is hugely fucked in all ways.
Same anon. I feel like the "bad seed" in a group of young kids. Like, the ones that are only "fun" because they do bad things. The girlfriend that is only around when there's gossip to be talked about or to tell drama to. Of course I have always been the one to spout drama to my friends because I feel boring and there's always something going on with me so I think that is the reason why I don't really have close friends because I've pushed them all away by talking about this "crazy thing" that happened all the time.
I also don't keep up conversation well with people. I feel like an awful person, I can't be bothered to call or visit grandparents. I just feel ashamed of myself.
I had a phone interview scheduled with the recruiter of a rental car company. It honestly didn't matter to me anymore because I already have a job offer elsewhere and a second interview of a different job that's actually relevant to my field today. This company was a desperation application in case I couldn't get anything else a few weeks ago, and tbh I have no true desire to work 50 hours a week. I just figure it's good to interview to have options. Anyways, my phone call was meant to be at 9:30. I had a tight schedule because I was wrapping up HR paperwork of the company with whom I had to offer, and I had to try to get to my current job quickly after. I planned on taking the 9:30 call in my parked car before I started to drive. Well time came and went so I thought rental car company had ghosted, I started to drive to my job.
She calls me several minutes after the scheduled time. My car Bluetooth decided not to work and it was an awkward exchange. She asked if it was a good time and I stupidly agreed to continue anyway. I should have said no, sorry, but you called me late and I'm busy so we'll have to reschedule. But no, I'm fucking beta as fuck. I made myself sound nervous and unprepared trying to answer her questions with a phone near my face and trying to pay attention to traffic while thinking of good answers to her insipid little questions.
When I finally made it to my work parking lot I could actually start to concentrate and was asking her questions about the job itself. Towards the end she was fucking antsy with me, and especially when I asked her for feedback on my resume and if she felt I was a good fit for the position but apparently she "wasn't at liberty to discuss my resume" because it was just a phone interview and oh the call had been 15 minutes which is 5 over 10 minutes so she had other people to interview. Of course I was polite and thanked her for her time, but what a fucking bitch. First of all, she was LATE. Second of all, she never told me I had a 10 minute limit to be able to talk and ask her questions. Whatever. Idgaf. Sounds like a shitshow company to work for where I'd have to deal with these bitch ass people and get overworked for it in return.
I wish I was better at saying "no" or not extending myself to people I don't care for that much. I hang out with this one person, who I do consider a friend, a lot because she gets very lonely and bored and I feel bad for her. But she's extremely draining emotionally and mentally, and I probably would only hang out with her a couple times a month if she didn't ask to see me multiple times a week. I've managed to pare it down to maybe once a week only, but it's still too much for me. I dread even texting her much and have been trying to pull away. She's not a bad person, I just don't have the time or energy for that kind of friendship, especially for someone that I don't feel as close to as she does to me. I feel like an asshole for all of this, but recently, I've realized she kind of takes advantage of me financially, whether she realizes it or not, and it's thinned my patience.
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Dryers are bad for all your clothes, anon. Join us wet-clothes shanty town folk.
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Getting dressed is soul-sucking, I feel worse about my body the longer I look in the mirror (even though weight is fine, I just feel something's wrong looking) and most my clothes suck. stupidest of all I'm scared to dress certain ways. I'm 21 but since I live with my mom I am scared of her judgment, so stupid but I am terrified. Not even wanting to dress revealing its like if I wear all black. I can't be sure the extent of her unhingedness I recall from my childhood. kms I ruin my whole day's mood by simply getting ready in the morning
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“Women” is transphobic reeee
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You would think.
I'm kidding, that is what it's for, but still. Women isn't a dirty word, and I wish it wasn't treated like one more and more.
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any androgynous looking anons here? how do you deal with it? irl people assume I'm just a kid but when someone sees my photos they make tranny jokes and it fucks me up so bad, it makes my body dysmorphia way worse, sometimes I just don't want to go outside
Sure she is, there are a few GNC anons that might be helpful or have advice? >>680919
Sorry anon, I'm not one of them, but is there anything you do to make yourself appear more feminine or anything you're willing to do? Or what would you prefer? Obviously I don't think you should troon out or try to be an enby, but it's okay to not fit the mold of what society thinks it means to be a woman in order to be one either.
I hangdry my clothes outside every spring and summer and have never gotten bugs in them.>>680888
Why do you need your clothes to be warm? That lasts like 0.5 seconds.
not always. but if it's clean and dry how is it gross?>>680928
because it's comfy. and the warmth lasts longer than that ime.
I have long hair, I buy clothes in the women's department but I dress tomboyish (like flannels, oversized sweaters etc.,). I think it's purely about my facial features and my hands. People joke I look like a 12 year old and my best male friend once told me that I look like a "femininine scandinavian boy" (he was also making sexual remarks towards me, we are not friends anymore). Online people think I'm a trap and I guess my hands look masculine on photos for some reason, even though they're small and thin IRL, but online I often get tranny comments regarding them. I just don't get what's so masculine about them. I tried wearing meake up and more femininine clothes but I just can't stomach it, I'm autistic and I can't stand the feeling of having something on my face and wearing tight fitting clothes literally gives me anxiety. I'm really scared about getting older, people tolerate it when you're in your early or mid 20s but I think they will treat me like shit if I continue to present myself this way when I'm in my 30s or 40s >>680931
Thank you for kind words anon, I admire women who can embrace it and feel good with themselves. I wish I knew some gnc girls irl
Thank you anon. I think it was just the whole fantasy of it, you know? The thought that I could be ~destined~ for someone and we'd meet at this point in our lives where we both feeling alone in the world, but we'd understand one another and "save" each other through the power of our love. I know I still have a chance for love, but realizing it's not going to look the way I thought, and how so much of the world tries to convince us it should be, makes me a bit sad. I have to be complete on my own before ever meeting someone else. They can't heal me and I can't do any saving myself. But you're right, my ex didn't know how to love and there are far better people out there, some of whom may be interested in me. Romance won't look the way I thought it should, but there's no point in mourning too much, because the reality could end up being even better.>>680569
Hugs and well wishes to you anon. Here's hoping we both heal on our own time, and maybe find more deserving partners someday if it's right for us.
Ugh, that sucks, anon. I'm so sorry. I just don't understand the cognitive dissonance between>all liberals are heartless>should be round up and shot>implying [you]
as though he/other Republicans have the moral high ground after saying this? You're his own daughter? I just don't get it. Are you seeing your family this year or using COVID as a (very valid
and proper) excuse to stay away? I wouldn't blame you. Big hugs and happy holidays regardless, anon. They can be really stressful and hard.
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I’m so done with polyamory being all over the place.
Sure, I do believe there are SOME people who are poly but I definitely think it’s far from as common as internet is trying to project it being. I’m pretty damn convinced most people claiming they’re poly are either:
A) too immature to differentiate between feelings and attractions
B) greedy, using it as an acceptable form of being a player
C) bored of their current partner but too comfortable to get out
Also rolling my eyes at how the number of super likes I’ve gotten on tinder have been cut in half since I added that I’m not interested in poly
Polyamory and casual sex/FWB have both been memed into being somehow more moral/healthy/easy than functional relationships.
Polyamory is especially annoying bc of the "this is how humans evolved to function" but a lot of humans' brain power comes from disabling a woman during pregnancy/childbirth and children for their early years to an extent that a strong family unit is imperative for that to happen.
The only way I can see polyamory working is with shit like trouples or old-school swinger parties, back when people didn't spin it as something progressive, once you add an uwu kweer twist in your lifestyle, you know it's going to collapse.>>681058
I don't really see how being bi correlates with polyamory, being in a relationship with a woman won't make me crave dick and want to go poly. Sounds like a cheater's justification.
That makes no sense. A bisexual person doesn't need
to experience sex with both males and females for the rest of their lives to be happy any more than a straight man needs to continue having sex with women other than his partner because she's not a redhead or Chinese or whatever other special trait he also likes.
>>681047>California basically made it legal to spread aids and I'm not playing this shitty game.
Not at all, I just find them both annoying.
>>681055> "this is how humans evolved to function"
I hate when people use that argument for ANYTHING, humans today are so far removed from our ancestors that it makes that argument null and void. It’s like comparing chihuahuas with the common wolf. What is considered “natural” does not compare with humans of today.
And to continue the fact that there are people claiming poly is more natural than mono is such bullshit, there are several species in the animal kingdom that keep themselves to one partner for life.
thank you anon <3
sry for double posting idk if that matters in /ot/
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Some Americans are so fucking retarded regarding ancestry. I cannot handle this level of cringe.
You are fucking american.
If I was Irish I would be genuinely weirded out about american’s obsession with it all,
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A bitch got diagnosed with severe OCD today. She also suspects I got some social anxiety and GAD thrown into the mix. I am officially a snowflake.
You’re very strong anon. We sound similar, I got out of a 7 year marriage after beginning a relationship as a teenager with a man in his 30s. You’re absolutely doing the right thing, there’s no doubt about that. I was flooded with relief after I finally left, I got my life back and was able to live for myself again for the first time in what felt like an age. Things are going to get so much better for you from here. (Also I hope your ex gets sent to prison and tortured every day of his miserable, useless life.)
A quick word of advice, which you may not need - don’t rush into dating again until you do a lot of self care. I waited about a year after my divorce and ended up idealizing the first guy I was intrigued by, especially since he returned my affections/intensity. Ended up in an even worse abusive
relationship, although we were within a couple years of age that time so that was something I guess. Be careful, love yourself, make some female friends and reach out to family members if there are any you can trust. Be happy with you and the life you build before seeing if a man is worthy of attempting to add to it.
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Some lazy scrote in my class plagiarized one of my assignments and I can't get over it.
I know it's a stupid thing to be upset about but I'm actually retarded and it takes me hours and hours to write these things cohesively / in a way that isn't clunky, choppy, word salad. It's so unfair that some normal asshole can just steal my work like that, and a scrote no less. Scrotes have no shame.
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I might get kicked out of my major/college, 4 years down the drain and no degree to show for it. I don't know where to go from here. Honestly I'm really scared.
that… sounds intense, tf it's just one class…
so sorry anon.
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Really love how my family is unsupportive of me going back to school and treats me like I'm a mentally unstable jackass.
Thanks. I have the final left and I’m going to try and stay positive. I found out I can appeal for a 4th try but it’s nearly impossible to get approved.>>681270
I’m just retarded. First time I struggled with the material, second time the adjustment to online learning was difficult and I almost passed. I was prescribed meds for my adhd (diagnosed years ago) to help with this semester and for the past few months I ended up having psychotic episodes as a side effect from Adderall. I talked to my Psych and now I’m on something else, but yeah the damage is done.>>681272
I wish you the best too, anon we’re gonna make it ;-;
That sucks anon, it’s not your fault. Keep in mind that you’re unwell, it’s possible to get better and maybe then you can return to studies. Idk how it works where you are, can you keep the credits and finish your degree later? If so it’s not a waste.
I hope everything works out eventually anon.
That does not sound like a lot at all. I work in admin, not even a call centre, and I could handle way more calls than that while also making a tonne of outbound calls and doing all my own work. People won't necessarily be irate either, normal and nice customers do exist.
You should just give it a go if the only issue is potentially struggling with call volumes, don't expect the worst and freak yourself out but if it sucks you can just quit. It's not like you'd owe fucking Amazon any loyalty as an employee for $16 bucks an hr.
It is a lot for a 5hrs night shift, I had a similar job with an average of 10 calls in 8hrs so we did admin work as well.
Don't worry OP, most people aren't assholes. I don't know your company's policy but most of those jobs allow you to hang on the customer if he starts insulting or screaming at you.
>>680571>but all I have really done to try and manage them is avoiding triggers
That is a self sabotaging cope.
> I just feel very stupid and want to be able to pull myself together.
I know the feel, but look where isolating and "finally pulling yourself together" brought you. I really suggest you to look into therapy.
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I’m a zoomer neet who is about to spent all of my savings (bit over 1k) to build a pc for my brother so he can give me his old one.
this is a stupid awful idea but there is no talking me out of it. i have bad anxiety so getting a job for me is harder than it already is
My professor sent me an email saying “it was unfortunate that you decided to turn in a paper you wrote for another class. I have to give you a zero and report you”
It’s funny bc in my psychology paper I wrote that video games do not cause violence, but in my English paper I argued that they do. My “Hook” was the same, but my thesis is literally so fucking different. Like lol. The criteria of the papers were different, too. My sources and the conclusions are literally the direct opposite.
My guess is it got flagged in the computer bc we have to submit all of our work to this database, but if she read the papers she would see they are different and even if they were the same its my own original thoughts anyway so why does it matter????? Like it’s straight up bullshit, why did I even bother to do any work at all?
What the fuck? Don't let it pass. Argue with them and tell them to compare the two papers, the sources, literally everything.
They can't just give you a zero because you used the same topic, and that's obviously not the same as "turning in a paper you wrote for another class". Fuck that teacher.
Contact your professor to clear it up. If you can, directly call them or videocall them. (Assuming you can't see them directly in person rn) I've done that before and it's the most effective way. If not, report it higher up. I don't know how it works in school systems abroad but I'd contact the examination board.
Definitely don't allow this to pass.
Also, can you technically even plagiarize yourself? lolol
>>681391>while he sobs
Lol, he's so manipulative. Bet he wasn't crying while he cheated on you. Some men can just never own being the bad guy, they gotta empathy bait women to get let off from their bullshit easier.
Let me guess, if you choose not to comfort him and don't coddle forgive him cause he's weally sowwy
you will suddenly be the bad guy? Pft. Use this time of numbness to your advantage, look at this bullshit objectively and logically and make the decision accordingly. Save your emotions for a person who's worth it.
Sorry to hear that anon, hope you follow >>681405
advice because that fucker doesn’t deserve your pity. >>681409
Wtf anon please leave, you don’t need a dramatic reason to. You’re not feeling it, and that’s a perfectly valid
Also I believe in ‘once a cheater, always a cheater’. Most men will cheat again, they’ll just become better at hiding.
Get out there and go find yourself someone who treasures you.
Anon, I'm so sorry. Please do not stay with him. Drunkness is no excuse. Sadness, not an excuse. "You were being cold towards me" no excuse.
I'm so sorry.
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Good for you, anon!! You are 100% correct. I'm really happy that you dropped that dead weight loser that had the audacity to do that to you and cwy about it. You really are better off and will be feeling much better before you know it. ♥
Self-plagiarism is dumb af and I never would have known about it if we hadn't had a presentation on it in one of my uni classes (and then burned it into my mind by bitching abt how dumb it is).
If you really did change it so much and use different sources, it's something you should be able to fight. Say you're passionate about the subject and wanted to explore it from a literary (or w/e) angle after your interest was piqued.
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Seconding requesting an update when you have one because your professor doesn’t know the definition of plagiarism lol. I want to see you get justice.
>>681378>Yes, academic institutions believe you can.
But doesn't that go against the definition of plagiarism; to take someone else's work specifically and pass it off as your own. Someone else's, not your own.
Although I guess there's nothing you can do if the people who have the ultimate decision believe it's plagiarism.>>681419
Stay strong! From the little you've written about it here I think you've made the right decision.
Just because you're each others' first doesn't mean you have to be each others' last, and maybe he's your only/closest friend because he's the only one that's been allowed to be? That's had the opportunity to be, ya know?>he treats me better than I treat him
Is that due to resentment, you not liking him as much, something else? I think it's important to ask yourself if this relationship and how you're feeling is something you want or are willing to do for the rest of your life and if you'll be happy with it. If the answer is no, then it's better to cut if off and start to heal and seek new life sooner than later. That's what I learned when I left my bf when he cheated, even though I thought he was the love of my entire life. I'm much, MUCH happier now and have much more respect for myself in general and in my relationships now. You and every other woman deserve that, anon. I wish you the best of luck in whatever you feel is right for you to do.
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proud of you anon, shit will hurt for some time but just remember you're so much better off now <3
He wasn't listening to me. He already decided to stop seeing me. Like I said, he only visited me on my birthday. Literally made no attempt at contact any other time of the year.
Basically on for my 10th/11th birthday he came over I think like 2 days after my actual bday
and gave me gifts. At the time I was super socially awkward and not confident at all. I didn't show a lot of enthusiasm, even though I was happy, and said "thank you" very quietly, which was my fault. I guess he didn't hear me and told my mother he wouldn't come over anymore out of anger(?). He didn't come the next year. Didn't even call me. All the years after that I basically just said I didn't want to see him because I felt like he already decided he didn't want to see me at all. I think if he apologized I would have still wanted him to visit, but I felt like he was trying to wiggle back in after hurting me.
It's not about you, it's your mentally ill mother that he wants nothing to do with. You are the extension/reminder of her. It isn't fair, but that's what men think.
It sucks anon but I've dealt with this shit all my life and trust me when I say men are just cavemen with base instincts.
My biological dad abandoned his visitation and parental rights with me when I was a preteen because I fought with him over how he was neglecting me. His excuse was that I had been brainwashed and coached by my mom to be difficult. The reality was I thought about it on my own, and recognized I was being mistreated and missing out on my childhood. Even if I was too inexperienced and loyal to properly articulate exactly how. I haven't seen that man since and he's never bothered to reach out to me after that day again.
Decades later as an adult, my mentally unhinged mother who should have never married has had her third divorce with my stepdad for his physical and financial infidelity.
The ways I am now actively being betrayed by my stepdad who I idolized for years–from what was once our seemingly great relationship–is astounding.
I went to rent with my stepdad after I broke up with my boyfriend and not wanting to live with my actively batshit mother.
My stepdad is constantly making idiotic financial choices despite earning double what I make (I'm paying half the rent on an income as poor as mine) and squeezes me for money constantly because he wants to save even more money for selfish reasons like his new girlfriend. He's also a lazy bum. Comes home and plops after work and doesn't do shit besides smoke and watch tv. I'm expected to do all the chores aside from his laundry, and he audibly bitches when he feels his hand is forced to clean because I refuse to be my mom and maid it up all the time.
When he gets real mad at me for some shit, he'll verbally abuse me with sayings "YOU'RE JUST LIKE YOUR MOTHER." If I wasn't useful to him right now, most surely his contact would be minimal with me.
I'm nothing like my mother, but I look like her. I don't act like her, but I get in his way sometimes just the same. It isn't fair, but we are totems of women they want nothing to do with anymore.
My advice is don't pin it on yourself, it's their deficiency as men and lacking capability to be decent human beings.
Nta but I think it really is just the way men think too. I didn't have a situation like that, just my parents never got along after they had me. They're most likely both mentally ill, and I know my father really resents my mother because he has some regrets, and no matter how much I try to talk to my him he treats me like he treats my mother, even if I'm nothing like her. If by chance I have the same opinion on something as my mother he'll say I'm brainwashed and I'm just like her. He talks to me like he talks to her, if he's angry at her he's angry to me as well. He's good to my older brother though, maybe because he's a man?
But anyway it's better to get people like that out of your life, even if it's painful. They'll never act like you want them to.
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I flinch, recoil and tense up when I'm with people one on one. Sometimes it's not noticable and sometimes it's extreme.
When my ex (that I'm on good terms with, just haven't seen him in a year) hugged I tensed up and started shaking a bit. When he tried to put his hand on my shoulder I flinched. Stuff like that. He was never ever abusive and it also happens with other people but I usually freez and tense up.
I was beaten and verbally harassed during most of my school time but could it really have an effect like that? I'm 25 and feel like I'm too old for this shit. I just want to be fucking normal and stop flinching and pullibg away, especially since I'm touch starved.
>>681555> My boyfriend sometimes stutters when talking to others and I often have to interject to finish his sentence otherwise it would lead to a lot of awkward pauses.
I was about to stay that I'm pretty sure you're just tearing down his confidence and increasing the rate of him stuttering by doing that. Just have patience and let him finish talking, a bit of stuttering or an awkward silence here or there is honestly not a big deal.
but then I read this:>having to give directions to a grown ass adult to his own goddamn house from the supermarket five blocks down the street.
I mean what the fuck? Is he mentally ill? Why are you enabling this behaviour? I would've been long gone if I had to mommy a man like that.
Update: I peed at the gas station and then went to go get him but he wasn't there anymore. Texted me and told me he got a Lyft. I just got back home and did apologize to him, for yelling and for leaving him.
Yes I feel like an absolute stupid piece of shit. I should never have screeched at him like that, regardless of how I felt.
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fuuuck it said there were 3 seeders I just want to watch Twisted Tales of Felix
I need to quit my job. I'm officially in love with my co-worker and being around this person some days absolutely destroys me, knowing there's no chance. It's causing my depression to come back, which is absolutely pathetic, so leaving the establishment is the only logical solution.
But holy hell, it hurts. I thought when this started last year it would go away eventually, or that while spending time together I could find flaws and get over it – NOPE. But if you play stupid games, you win stupid prizes. I feel like the biggest clown alive after pretending everything was ok. It's suddenly not anymore, especially after becoming close friends.
I'm a very loving, affectionate person and hiding that from the person I love the most is creating a supernova of feelings. I'm going to implode
I know it's not that bad and it'll pass but WEW LAD. Can't stop crying over the fact that I have to leave a job that I love, in a field I'm very proficient in, with the best co-workers ever for something very stupid like this.
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This is hilarious. I'm picturing a velociraptor girlfriend letting out a giant REEEE as she Sparta kicks the boyfriend from the vehicle for not fetching her the chamberpot to piss in.
Are you broke anon? You should have gotten your boyfriend to buy you something to count as a "customer" in one of those restaurants while you went to pee.
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Im 19 and almost 20 years old and i still haven't gotten therapy nor can i afford it or the medicine i probably need when diagnosed. I've always had untreated depression and social anxiety and i probably even have some undiangosed illnesses from past mistreatment and abuse.
My mother never wanted to get me a therapist just because we had one therapist once that was being unprofessional and downright rude to me. Im just mentally fucked and i just want to get the help i need, im doing small things for myself from time to time but sometimes i just feel like wanting to get actual help.
I don't wanna admit to my mom that im mentally not alright, shes very judgemental towards me even the time i self harmed due to having a very depressive episode where i felt like absolute fucking garbage. It's making me even more scared to tell her because she always has to tell everyone in my family whats going on, even things i tell her. Both her and my dad and family members are judgemental.
I only have trusted my smaller sister and my older brother with my struggles because they also are going through some hard things, but i cannot constantly rely on them to help. I really do not know what to do, should i just get my shit together and tell my parents? even if its scary for me considering they are judgemental as shit?
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I'm tired of the monotony of online university. There's only 10 days left but I just can't take it anymore.
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I hate when Instagram account ask when to post NOBODY CARES
I moved to a new city at 20, I feel like my actual life started there, started drinking, made friends, did stuff, work, school all that. My dad is from that city so I already spent a lot of time there and I spoke like I was from there due to my dad's dialect, so everyone always thought I was from there. At the start of the pandemic, I kinda been living in my hometown 96% of the time and my mom keeps joking how I am not really a my new home city-ian because I am from here. Bitch, I never did shit here, I have no idea what to tell people to do here, I have no friends and I don't even talk like the people here, it's a cute town but I truly did most of my actual growing up as a person in that other city and just feel like I am from there, I've lived there almost 10 years for fucks sake. She seems almost offended whenever I tell someone I am from the other city, like ffs I LIVE THERE, I am legally from there, I speak like I am from there. Of course I will always be the usual "lol yea I'm from this place but I grew up in this town yay", this is so dumb but it almost feels like my mom is jealous because she never left this town. I am not better or worse if I am from either but jESUS CHRIST IT'S RETARDED TO GO "ANON, NEVER GONNA BE THAT CITY-AN" TELL THAT TO MY ADRESS THEN, WOMAN.
Did you talk with your boyfriend about this? In my experience there are times in longterm relationships when you are in doubt, especially if you are in a bad place mentally. It is normal and understandable that you feel stressed. Don't be so harsh with yourself and try to change one little thing, like starting to fix your sleep schedule by going to bed 30 minutes earlier than usual maybe?
Regardless of the relationship, the most important thing is your wellbeing.
I was writing a long ass post and I lost it
Thank you tho anon, it's making me hopeful. I know some couples go through actual hard stuff so I can do it too.
The thing is, this is an intrusive thought that's hard to get rid of. I told him how I felt today and he said he didn't realize how bad I was feeling.
I'm still a bit angry at him because he refused a job opportunity where I could be relocated with him to the other side of the globe. He was afraid of committing to the job and doing paperwork so he chose a 3-month internship next year. I don't know how i will deal with the time difference,it's only three months so there's worse…
Lots of love to you anon, first lockdown was easy as we were together but the second one is making me lose it. I know I'm not alone, we're stronger than that!
Sorry for samefag but I'm a boomer on mobile,takes forever to type.
We've talked and he's really concerned about me and trying to make me feel better.
As for my lifestyle, I'm trying to get better but I have the will of a sad looking rag. I have a really hard time sticking to good habits.
Today I bought tea to stop binging on sugary food tho.
I'd like to have a 15 minutes sport session at least every other day, there's a video routine I really like on YouTube so no excuse.
I would also like to try meditating, or stuff like that. And yeah, sleep before 3am.
I'm not sleepy because I'm really stressed and I don't do any exercise, so it's just anxious thought after anxious thought every night.
I know what I need to do i just don't do it because I'm too lazy.
hi anon, it's >>681184
. I don't know if you're still around but i just want to let you know that I did it! it was really hard but your comment brought me a lot of peace, so thank you again.
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his pc isnt bad, he just wants to upgrade. this is gonna sound autistic but me and my twin share a pc he built for us a year or two ago so instead of just upgrading his old parts hes gonna make a new one so we dont have to share.
he plays way more video games than i do and its kinda paying back? so im not too pressed about it. i’m not going to live past 30 anyways so whatever
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Thinkin about how all my formative sexual encounters in adolescence were borderline non-consensual and traumatic as my bf plays video games next to me
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I fucking hate left Anglo twitter. Maradona died and he was a fucking pedophile rapist and everyone is sucking his balls on Twitter. They fucking know nothing about the femicides and violence against women that are rampant in Latin America, they're not comrades, they're dumb idiots that don't give a fuck about how things really are here fuck theeeem
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Not having a soul must be really hard and stressful.
Correct, I have never paid property tax. I’ve also never hoarded a basic commodity and exploited people in order to boost my own wealth, all while whining that it’s soooooo hard for me. >>681968
I’m guessing the housing crisis hasn’t reached the rock you’re living under.
you give them money, they give you housing. sounds fair to me. if it doesn't for you, or if your particular landlord is an asshole, work hard and buy your own home.>>681976>>681972
you sound mad.
>>681983> work hard and buy your own home.
Work hard to buy a home while giving a landlord a large share of my paycheck, which will enable him or her to continue buying properties, which in turn raises house prices and will mean I will have to keep working hard to afford my own house while giving the landlord a large share of my paycheck which they will use to buy more properties therefore raising house prices again…
Do some mental gymnastics to prove how that’s fair. I want to see, kek.
Poster here but honestly, I don’t take this personally… I’ve dealt with people like you as tenants too lmao
Talk to me when you’ve dealt with tenants who: >refuse to pay rent for months>utterly destroy the unit, cover it in literal shit, break walls, and windows, and appliances when they get evicted for it >have had someone literally spit in your face because you try to explain to them calmly the maintenance man can’t be there until the day after tomorrow, but you can move them temporarily for the night to a vacant unit if they wish >have had a manager steal 50k of rent and run off >have had managers over charge tenants on deposits
…honestly I could go on. I like to think I’m very reasonable. I am calm, do my best to get people situated and accommodated to the best of my ability
And if you’re just like everyone else who can’t see the struggles of others, locked in your own hate, fine. but that’s the kind of mind set that keeps keeping like you from making well over 100k a year lmao
This is exactly why I should have never posted my vent post honestly
I donate to charities, use my money to commission many artists who very unknown, support friends…and so on. I don’t buy expensive cars, clothes, dinners, and all that it usually goes to other people yet somehow I am the bad guy in all this haha
Remind me to never post here ever again :x
Landlord anon here but I definitely agree renters have struggles, everyone does
It’s just not fair to say only one side can suffer, and the other has a very perfect life. There are always two sides to a problem
>>682010> It’s just not fair to say only one side can suffer, and the other has a very perfect life. There are always two sides to a problem
Of course there are, if you’re also >>681994
then I understand that it can be hard. The difference between the two sides suffering is that the renter is there out of necessity. They have no choice but to deal with extortionate rent prices, bad landlords, below standard or unsafe conditions, housing insecurity. The only way of opting out of the system is homelessness, and that means resigning yourself to poverty and that’s not winning.
A landlord is there out of choice. They’re doing it for an additional income stream. If it’s that awful, they could (and should) sell their property/properties and would never have to deal with it again. That’s the difference.
Yes I am the same anon and I definitely agree! That’s why I try not to raise rent, excuse late rent to trustful people, and during covid I have allowed tenants to pay 30% of rent if they can’t manage any more
Though I am definitely curious , this isn’t a question out of malice or anything of the sort, but as someone from “the other side”, how do you propose to solve the rent crisis of such situations?
I personally as a landlord see this more as a useful thing. The tenant does not pay for repairs, gardening, and in some cases water and electricity, other extra fees that may come with owning a home. If their window breaks or sink breaks, they don’t have to pay it, unlike someone who owns their property..and so forth. I see it more so as a symbiotic relationship but of course I am more than willing to hear what you may have to see on it
Haha don’t bother with her honestly
They’re just picking a fight to fight it..probably bored and has nothing else better to do
Hey man it still sounds like a chill time and you seem very kind to do that shift in their stead
Not every year, and every holiday will be as great as we imagine it but that’s all the more reason to look forward to other occasions later on down the road
I just think everything needs to be regulated more to avoid the landlord/tenant relationship becoming exploitative. You sound like a decent landlord but at least in my country there’s not much that would either force or encourage you to be that way. That might be improving since COVID as evictions were banned here for a while, but generally the government wants to encourage landlordism to move away from reliance on social housing. So often tenants will have to deal with broken shit as the landlord isn’t forced to do anything about it, and they don’t care about the state of their property because they know it’s guaranteed to have a tenant anyway due to lack of other options. Better protection for tenants would ease the situation, including limiting rent prices so people don’t end up paying extortionate prices for tiny apartments. Also having the option of buying a house made more achievable somehow so people who work hard are able to afford this as was possible a few decades ago.
I believe in Germany the situation is better, maybe German anons will disagree but my German anti-landlord friend doesn’t mind renting. Apparently the tenants have better protections and it’s not as lucrative as some places, so it doesn’t attract people looking to exploit others need for housing for big bucks. People who fundamentally disagree with landlordism still wouldn’t agree with it obviously but it sounds like making the best of a bad situation.
I can see that renting could be good if the situation was better.
Not in a country with thanksgiving but I've spent the last 6/7 Christmas days alone (including 3 of those years where I had a live in partner and he went to his parents and left me at home?) it feels depressing af the first one or two years and then it just starts feeling like a normal day
I have dead parents and a job that moves me around too much to make deep friendships.
Thanks dude, I don't know if I'm really all that nice but I figured I'd rather know someone is enjoying their holiday. I might be all bitter now but things have to look up eventually, right?>>682031
I can't imagine having a live in partner just leave me behind for the holidays like that. I'm glad it's not as hard as the first couple years, but I hope things get better for you.
>>681419 anon and my ex is now suicide baiting me. Even as far as asking me to help him. Yesterday he did drugs and went apeshit. Today, seems scarier. I'm not sure what to do, but he's putting the blame on me for not taking him back, hence saying he will kill himself now. Wtf are men? This is my first boyfriend too. I was willing to help him make the break up easier, but no. He resorts to be being dramatically selfish. I'm the one who got cheated on tf.
Oh shit, even though it's textbook behaviour, it's a very hard situation.
Try your best not to give in at all. I know it's hard, but this dude is playing games. Let him play single player.
kind ot from another polanon, I hate how some people over there 'support' women's strike, but won't hesitate to defend a fucking sex offender with a criminal record.
Like for fucks sake - you're not supporting women's rights, but you're doing it for woke points.
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i phoned the mental health hotline and it went to answerphone
what did you want to talk about nonny
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being tall is great doe
I called another anon crazy on a different thread but after seeing your post I realise her post wasn't negative or harmful in any way so I removed my reply to it.
You should stay away from men, for both yours and their sake. Even if you never plan to actually hurt anyone, someone might report you to police or retaliate at you first in self defense.
I never measure myself. At the doctor it’s been both 5’9 and 5’10. One time I got measured with a tape measure and it said I was 5’11 and a half which wouldn’t be surprising considering how everyone straight up treats me like a socially inept teenage boy but I doubt that’s accurate considering how far off it is from 5’9. I’m probably really 5’9.5, 5’9.75 but who fucking knows? Lmao>>682228
If you’re a bulldyke or an athlete or one of those femdom girls sure but me? I’m a dainty little flower on the inside yet I look like a gigantic skeleton monster so nobody sees it.
Then stop fucking them already. It's like going into a fast food restaurant and chimping out because they serve burgers and fries.
Also, funny how you think you have to either be rich or leech off someone in order to get therapy. The sliding scale exists.
fwiw you're not even that tall, especially not for a woman your age. my entire female friend group is between 5'7"-6'0" and they look great, well proportioned and a visible bone structure. many feminine models are your exact build, in fact.
when you get into your mid-twenties life generally feels a bit easier and more comfortable in regard to your relationship to your body - even if it sounds like a meme. i bet you're attractive, just giving off anxious/tense vibes bc of your self-image. also male attention is soooo not the gauge to mark your self worth by. put some weight on and take care of yourself please nonny
, you won't look like an amazon immediately, just a bit softer.
Learn to love yourself anon. You're severely underweight and should focus on having a healthier body image. You don't have to love your height, but you can accept it.
I'm 6'0 with a large bone structure. While I don't love it all the time, looking back I'm so thankful for my body type. I hate saying it but I definitely think it's one of the reasons why I haven't experienced a lot of negative attention or sexual harassment from scrotes.
Plus, a lot of how you are perceived is how you carry yourself. Confidence can make or break a look, imo. Fake confidence until you actually get confidence. Stand tall, know you are worthwhile, and understand your physical appearance does not define you as a person - that happens only when you make it so.
Didn't wanna shit up the positivity thread so I'll post it here. This pic >>681886
makes me so sad.
It sounds like a massive cope by someone whose husband isn't very grateful for all the things his wife does for him and his kids and won't lift a finger to help.
My mom didn't have to be grateful for "early wake ups" and "dirty dishes" because my dad wasn't a manchild and took over the household chores so she could sleep longer.
I wish women like whoever made that pic would wake the fuck up and realize that if they don't respect themselves and their time, nobody will respect them. Pickmes always get crumbs of attention because crumbs is all they were bullied into asking for.
Don't even have my own kids but having dated someone with a teen son and having experienced the expectation that after working a 60 hour week I'd somehow be happy to pick up his mess out of sheer love and feminine kindness… There needs to be both an age limit on this and a percentage of that joy that the kids father has to lovingly experience for himself lol
The last point is particularly depressing.. I'm in pain but I'm not dead!
Let them know about all the things they could be doing, and if they turn it into an issue bring up the fact you do most of the work. Don't bring up the spreadsheet or whatever you made unless they ask for proof you do the most work. That could make you look crazy if you just have it on hand.
Also respectfully tell your co-worker to knock it off. You're not a child who needs to be told how to do your work. And assuming you're equals, he's not in a position to tell you what you need to be doing anyway.
Im close to 35 so looked into it lately and women in my country reported that you need 3 kids minimum and even then docs can just choose not to refer you, which they often do to women aged over 35 with the 3 necessary kids and all.. So we've strict enough rules and docs are still given the power to block you just because they feel like it.
I know it varies a lot but fuck my country for being like this, you could tell your doc you're trans and get a full hysto without being overruled by your docs opinion..so give me the right to sign a paper saying its my own informed choice and if I regret it I'll live with it.
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Why do I always seem to make friends with people who take awful photos of me. Whenever I see popular IG girls rather than look at the subject in question and think how pretty she is, I always think “wow… that person has really good friends”. Every friend I make seems to take unflattering photos at bad angles, sometimes not even focused, bad lighting, gives no sense of direction, random shit that shouldn’t be in the photo in shot, half the time I don’t even think they look at the image they are taking just
>Is she in the photo?
>Here you go :)))))))
It really annoys me because I spend so long putting makeup, hair and outfits together and I come home with a photo like poot. I always make sure I take really good photos of my friends and have seen other girl friends crouching, standing at different angles trying to get a great shot for their besties. I lowkey think my girl ‘friends’ are hating on me as guy friends I’ve had take considerably better photos but I rarely see them. Am I the only person this happens to lol?
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I feel like this second lockdown has completely fried my brain, I haven't spoken to any friend in a month, borderline ghosting some of them, and I haven't managed to get productive at all, everytime I wanted to start something I got some mental block. I don't even really feel like myself anymore, I don't recognize my reflection in the mirror (despite nothing having changed) and I feel like I've lost parts of my identity. I'm supposedly going to start working again very soon but I have no idea how I'll manage to do that, my sleeping schedule is fucked and I feel like I don't know how to talk to people anymore.
>>682406 >Having friends >Wearing make up >Taking photos
What is this shit?
..Crawls back into my cave of isolation
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I'm growing more and more bitter by the day and I'm starting to hate everything.:) So, I play in an orchestra (french horn, hehe) but after every time I leave I just feel like not coming back. It sucks because playing music with people is the only thing that makes me feel kinda normal and like I belong somewhere but it makes me kinda sad when no one even remembers your name and the atmosphere there is so draining.
On a whole different note. GOD I FEEL SO DAMN LONELY! Last time anyone reached out and asked me to hang out was in like 2018. And most times when I ask my friends they decline or cancel. What is wrong with me? I feel like an outcast freak I just wish I was normal.
my man was like "yeah i don't want kids either, sure i'll get a vasectomy, let me look into freezing my sperm"
so you're telling me you're not sure you don't want kids so you're gonna leave me in 15 years to have a baby with some 20 year old HUH
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Boyfriend is a good soul but an absolute fool when it comes to being suckered by branding. He falls for marketing like it's no one's business and gets super set in his ways so much that he won't even look at reviews contrary to his brand.
All his shit has gotta be Apple.
He's gotta buy his groceries from Whole Foods.
Et cetera. Money sinks in most cases.
The biggest point of annoyance is hearing him go on about these half-forsaken 'purple' mattresses and pillows that he believes are grand. He insists we get one when we move into our place in the summer. It's multi-thousands of dollars! The reviews, when inspected closely, are so terrible! Out of 1 million purchases, only 50,000 thought it was a 5-star mattress…that's 5%. No one thinks this mattress is great except shills who evidently have no need for their spines. This brand tried to advertise for Black Friday on fb and their "discount" wasn't even good and was bullshit because you had to buy extraneous products before you even got that. Underneath the ads were real people bitching about the shit quality of these mattresses and that they would never buy them again. They basically warp within a couple years which is absurd.
I on the other hand bought a memory foam mattress worth a few hundred when I was in grad school and several years later it has yet to form a divet.
He has a couple hundred-dollar pillows by them but I swear to you that they are uncomfortable and stupid yet he thinks they're grand. He has a purple mattress at home but wants to 'upgrade' to the king version which is like $3k.
Jfc I need firepower to stop this train wreck. I wonder if there's a youtuber who bashes the fuck out of this dumbass brand so I can show it to bf and scare him out of it.
Why does he care about a mattress brand though? I understand some people just really like Apple products and they’re a status symbol. Even the Whole Foods thing, okay a bit weird but many people have a favorite grocery store. But who gives a fuck about mattress brand, no one else sees it?!
If he’s super insistent on it then I would let him buy it with his own money (you could buy something else for your new place so it’s fair). When it turns out to be shit, maybe he will finally learn a lesson.
Let her spurge on the spergs, nonnie
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I can’t sleep I’m too busy thinking about the guy I like. Help anons I’m falling in love.
My mum is treating me weird and cold because my sister got an interview to Oxford. I'm applying to do my 2nd master's.
She hasn't even gotten in and my Mum came into my room screaming about how I wasn't happy for her (even though I congratulated her warmly) and that I only care about myself.
My GRADUATION wasn't even celebrated like this.
Even though I kept showing her irrefutable screenshots of me congratulating her (As well as in person), she kept screaming at me and calling me selfish.
I just cried and hyperventilated for 2 hours and she came in again twice to provoke me and tell me again that I only care about myself because I didn't answer some question about a key I know nothing about.
My sister and i have both told her she's wrong. She will not apologise or back down and continues to terrorise me over this interview.
he watches porn every other day and will never be good enough for you. he thinks women who he appeases in any way owe him, including you, for the time he spends on you even if he’s half-assing it. for your sake I hope he doesn’t like anime or kpop. he thinks his traumas merely existing means that he’s excused for any shitty behavior. he doesn’t care to cook or clean, nor does he want to. you will never be his girlfriend because you’re too busy being his emotional sandbag, the concept of a “significant other” is lost to him because the moment you showed interest in him he didn’t see you as an equal. if you’re better than him you wouldn’t be talking to him, and if you look forward to speaking to him then he must be in a league higher than you. he likes to believe he must be valuable to you. he’ll crave the moments you open up emotionally because your vulnerability and willingness to connect with him are appealing as they’re proof that you were never greater than he is, and he wants to keep it that way. that’s how he sees it.
I hope this vent benefited you as much as it benefited me. I’m fucking stupid and maladaptive daydreaming about a guy who will eventually get a girlfriend and when he tells me it will make me feel like shit because all the little make believe dates I’ve had with him in my head have to come to an end. I’d never even date him in real life. But all of my scenarios involve me confessing and him accepting and we LDR because I’m some sort of idiot who likes dreaming about a guy I’d be repulsed to be physical with irl. This isn’t a winning game and you’re better off remembering he wouldn’t be worth shit if you were the best version of yourself from another dimension. So quit wasting your time on him and start spending time becoming that version of yourself.
Looks like she's so thirsty for drama she's trying to create it out if thin air.
Maybe you should hand her some age appropriate gossip magazine as an healthier outlet.
I'm sorry anon, that sucks. I know what it's like to be the black sheep and have a sister who's the golden child. The only thing you can do is to concentrate on yourself, be happy for your sister and leave home like >>682693
said once you have the means to do so.
i know he doesn't i'm not actually that retarded although i see why you might assume that>>682726
i don't know. i think i want to be with him so badly because he's so emotionally distant and it reminds me of my dad
Anon, I wish I could hug you right now. I’m sorry, I’m so sorry. Just know that she knows you love her, always will.
And fuck your shitty ex, don’t worry about him, I’m sorry he made you feel even worse.
I wish everything will be fine for you and your family.
I'm sorry anon. I watched a relative go downhill like this with pneumonia and late stage cancer. Don't let your ex further stress you out given these are days you'll remember years into the future. Exes that act like that should be cut off entirely.
Take care of yourself
Your plan won't work. You'll just do terrible damage to your body, mental health, and all your remaining relationships. If you're in a country without subsidized healthcare like the USA, it will also cost you a shit-ton financially. It's not worth it at all. Like >>682270
said, it's not too late for you. Please seek help while you still can.
Thank you anons, it means a lot to me that you responded.
It honestly makes me sob like a little baby because she didn't want anyone to tell me about the cancer until they were sure so I wouldn't be worried for her. I'm her favorite grandchild and right before I moved for college, I sat down and recorded her oral history and looked at old family photographs with her and I listen back to the recordings and just break all over again.
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Can everyone or at least half of you stop saying "living rent free in [someone]'s mind" please
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Same. Except I just left my asshole ex who was basically my sole friend in the world (although he was never actually very "friendly") and I didn't have any other people to hang with before him so now I'm totally alone again. I just want some nice girlfriends that I can chat about our lives and hobbies and do fun casual stuff together. I know I can work on that, just… I'm so stressed right now and wondering what the point even is. I keep having to interact with customers for my job and I'll go in one room smiling and in service mode then step into the bathroom or my office to quietly bawl my eyes out then clean up and go back out for round 85. Fuck's sake just let me die quietly in a pit
2020 culture is this phrase mixed with getting triggered
by the stupidest shit. I wish people would make up their minds about whether they are cold-hearted bad asses or super-sensitive little snowflakes.
thank you for taking the time to reply, anon. sorry that i didn't see this earlier, i hope you see this.
i'm sorry you've gone through the same thing, but glad to hear you're starting to see improvements.
you're kind to say it's not too late, and that i deserve to feel better. nobody's said that before to me. i just can't shake the feeling it's over for me. how did you do it?>>682869
i don't want to sound dramatic but what other choice is there? i'm uk and the mental health services can't take me any further because i'm not the worst of the worst. i tried going it alone. i worked hard, i built a life, i'm a lecturer, but i still never stop feeling like i want to die. i don't feel happiness just fear for what's coming next. i was abused badly as a child and teenager and i just feel like there's no way to undo that and be functional. nobody owes me anything. i am entitled to nothing. all i want is to be allowed to drift off in peace and i don't understand why we're not allowed to make that choice for ourselves. i'm sorry if this reads as a whiny rant directed at you, i appreciate you taking the time to reply to me i'm just crytyping like an idiot rn. i just don't know what to do.
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Lol someone said this to me on another thread when fatties came up and I said they should put the same amount of effort into being less than 200lbs that they do into demanding beauty standards change for them. Like… what does that even mean in this context??? It doesn't even make sense.
Anon it’s >>682270
, I’m glad you showed up again, it’s not over for you because you’re still here. I did it (still in the process) by trying everything I guess, the turning point was trying atypical antipsychotics even though I wasn’t psychotic. They just worked and gave me some stability for working on my MH, so any unusual medication choices are worth a go.
Also being in such a bad state attracted bad people and when I had some clarity I got really mad! It sound like you’ve been through similar situations with abuse, I don’t want to throw any cliches at you but maybe even try to think of yourself as a teen or child, wouldn’t you hope you got better because you don’t deserve to suffer for years after? Separate it from yourself if your confidence is too low, make it about someone you care about. Abused teenage Anon deserves to feel better.
Amazing that you’re a lecturer, a great achievement even if you don’t feel it. You must be passionate about a subject, no?
Community mental health should take you on again if you’re honest because you don’t sound well at all. Please communicate with them, tell them everything, I know the MH nhs can be shit at times but doesn’t sound like they should be discharging you. Honesty is the best way, if you call up the crisis team and they say to try having a cup of tea tell them you’re way beyond that point! Being assertive can be difficult but do it for teen Anon, maybe you feel like you don’t deserve it but she does.
Sorry I’m drunk so idk if this makes sense, you’ve not only survived but built an amazing career despite your struggles, please give yourself credit, I really hope you get better Anon, will look out for any updates here x
I know how hard this is. My mother didn’t told us she had only one year left to life until she had two months left, she didn’t want us to worry.
Someone gave a good advice to me…If you ever feel hopeless, remember that she would have wanted you to be happy, even if she’s gone and even if you miss her, just remember that she would have needed you to carry on.
I don't begrudge you for wanting to die, not at all. It's your life so of course it's your choice– but it's also the last choice you will ever make. My main point is that if your plan is to OD on anti depressants then you have not done enough research to justify such a drastic decision. Just as much as I believe in your right to die, I believe in exhausting every avenue possible before giving up.
The other anon replying to you has some really solid ideas, and you may even benefit from other unconventional approaches. Clearly I don't know you well enough to offer concrete advice. Just know that I believe in you. It's not over for you yet. The life that you've worked so hard to build… don't throw it away unless you know exactly what you're doing.
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My significant other of over a year broke up with me over an instagram dm today and I dont know how to feel. I knew it was coming and was planning on it myself anyways once my family isn't quarantining, but I keep going back and forth between sadness of what we had at the beginning and how covid fucked us over so bad, feeling free, anger that they didn't have the courtesy do it irl like i was at least going to do, etc.
I'm at least feeling vindicated that one of their friends agreed that the method was a dick move especially for my first breakup (and when I'm supposed to be working on black fucking friday) and I have no idea how to handle things with them from here as we didn't end on bad terms.
sorry for the run-on style vent, but god this fucking sucks
Its been hours and I didn't even realize that she could have just called
me after work instead if it really wasn't impossible to see me. god damn.
I'm calling with some friends tonight and might see another (safely) tomorrow so I'm just gonna have to distract myself over these next few days. without exaggeration we talked every day since the relationship started and even before so the thought of…not interacting is foreign and i was becoming codependent anyways. distance is definitely the best rn even though I literally felt bad not talking to her today so if anyone has any good tips for keeping it off my mind, I'm all ears.
I definitely can see that being true, especially for men that were raised in more conservative societies (madonna/where complex etc). Anecdotally, my friend was being chased by this one guy for months, he put her on a massive pedestal, granted she is a very well put together woman and definitely what a traditional man would want in a partner (feminine, long hair, doesnt like to show off her body, doesnt swear or drink excessively, she literally was a virgin until 21) and when she finally gave in (I know), he could not get hard with her, but fucked other girls before. We are from a third country shithole.
Are you sick, like diabetes, ashtma, and other chronic diseases? If not, do what is best for your mental health and wear a mask. Covid won't kill you, and you shouldn't wait for this shitshow to end to do what's best for you.
Honestly, shitty families sometimes get better, but it involves distance. Your parents will always have their issues, you will have yours, but since you all won't be togehter all the time, some of the friction will dissipate.
If you live with your family you're just gonna have to stay quiet and listen to what they tell you to do, don't focus on the dumbass shit they expel on you. Try to make money on the side to move out or at least live with friends. When they're yelling at you over some bullshit try to distance yourself from it.
If you don't live with them and they're just making your life a living nightmare by still trying to maintain control just block them, and try to get rid of any connections of them whatsoever if you really feel like it.
Try to go outside nonetheless, and try to take a break from online in general for some periods of time, staying inside isolated and not being able to breathe fresh air makes the most healthy minded people go insane.
To try to help your social skills, try to start commenting on social media posts or YouTube videos. And try to enter groupchats. Maybe start a minor online following so people will try to flock at you without you doing much work.
Also regarding the guy friends who most likely want to fuck you- try to be with the ones who have girlfriends because there's a less chance they'll try to hit on you. Don't be afraid to become a leech and ask them for favors now and then.
You have to wait and let things get better naturally, but if you want to rush the process you have to do some work yourself.
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Today I watched the Queen’s Gambit episode where Alma Wheatley dies and for some reason late at night I started thinking about it and crying? I don’t even know why, I usually don’t cry at movies/shows. I don’t know I’m just depressed and lonely and her character felt really motherly to me.
Yeah you're right. I need distance.>>683339
I'm trying to make money but things are so expensive here. But I'm trying my best to stay positive.
I was thinking about starting an online following but I don't know what it should be about. I'm talentless and I don't like showing my face.
But I like the groupchats thing. Any suggestions where to start?I love you both anons thank you for replying
Usually you can just post work or edits of some things your passionate about, like media and showing your opinions on them.
You can go to other social media places and lurk until you find someone talking about joining a groupchat. I usually find some after a few days. I think it's easier to enter a groupchat in twitter but instagram is perfectly fine as well, though it will be slightly harder to find someone advertising it.
stay positive about earning money anon, take your time and try to do as much as you can. I love you too and good luck
Yeah, Russia isn't doing much
to prevent new cases outside of Moscow. I still go to classes physically, even though probably 5 of my profs have covid currently. Wack.
Where I live, there's a city-wide 11 pm curfew, but at the same time, a well-known pop singer had a concert very recently, where a couple thousand people were smooshed together for a few hours.
I'm afraid this is gonna happen to me too anon, all my jobs have had something to do with being a secretary, i hate the people in this field.
I wish we could just work anonymously over some fake male identity.
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I am so fed up of INTERNET DATING it’s making me so depressed. Guys lose interest in like 3 fucking days then I’ve got to go out and find another one of these assholes to waste my time messaging who’s just going to ghost me eventually anyway. Would it help if I was more proactive? Wanted to talk on the phone or FaceTime more? Because I hate FaceTiming and phone calls and sending pics of myself.
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oh god danganronpa. it has destroyed my life, i am so in love with sdr2. i hope you love it too anon! it gets really good! don't read the next bit because spoilers but i just need to talk about my vision for a future arc.ok so i really really really want an anime or game of hajime et al working with the future foundation to rebuild jabberwock island, towa city, etc. but also coming to terms with their real bodies, the stuff that happened in the neo world program, adjusting to a more stable (boring) life and talking about adulthood. i wanna see nagito come to terms with the fact that not everything comes down to luck and hajime understand that sometimes hard work just isn't enough so they begin to balance each other out. i'd just be happy to see more of nagito's and hajime's dynamic specifically.
or! an elaboration of how hajime restored the class of 77b and the timeline between the events of sdr2 and the future animated arc/nagito's au ova. help me i'm in deep.
picrel best boys
Online dating is still very much looks orientated. Usually if someone is in to your photos they'll keep talking, if people lose interest that fast they've probably found someone else willing to meet up sooner.
The good thing about dating apps is that if you get ghosted before you've even met them it's not exactly a waste. Just a missed opportunity
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How to cope with being completely irrelevant in real life, on the internet, everywhere? I'm so fucking boring, I can't relate to other people and since I was a child I've always felt like everything happened next to me and I was never a part of anything, just an observer, it was like watching a movie
I'm so annoyed by people showing up 2 weeks before the end of the study period of our university, after doing zero class work and having not attended any classes (even though we had all classes online since October) just going "hey, anon! so what do I need to study? what papers do we need to submit? Eow, no way, I need to do ALL THIS in two weeks???!" and crying about how our professors are harsh and unreasonable. One chick wrote into our study messenger group today that X professor is saying he won't let her pass the course "for no reason!!!".
Bitch, we had one assigment to do and had the 3 months for it. I had to bite my tongue, and even helped her, but I probably shouldn't have. Although some white knight will do it for her anyway.
Another one started going on about how Y prof is incompetent because he fucked up an email, and how he must not have two braincells to rub together. I mean, she was somewhat right, as this prof is brilliant, but a fucking lazy asshole. Still, her talking like this when she's easily one (if not) the stupidest person in our programme, I almost told her that he still has more than her.
I'm pretty sure I'll be making some enemies pretty soon.
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Laying down in bed rn thinking of all the cringy shit I said to a guy I'm into these past few months. I think I'm too embarrassed to keep pursuing him…
Damn anon I really want this too now. Write a fanfic anon I will most definitely read it. I've always wondered how they went on with their lives after they woke up again
and it's always been an itch I couldn't scratch.
More like I want more of the characters, but yeah.sdr2 best danganronpa no one can convince me otherwisealso also good taste best boys indeed
I've always wanted to go out and join the danganronpa fandom since it's the only fandom I've actually been interested in for years but I'm scared it's filled with 15 year old fujos rather than 20-something year old fujos
. I really just want an excuse to fangirl about danganronpa all day.
>>683625 > It's winter, it's dark at night very early and I'd love to go out on walks alone but no chance
Maybe this is a weird story but I'm detrans, for about a year of my life strangers took me as being male. I'll never forget the first night when I was walking in the dark with very few people around and I saw a woman cross over the street and I just knew it was to avoid me. I've done that a thousand times when nobody is around but me and one lone male in the dark.
I felt like shit but I understood it and I wondered do men even notice how much we have to do that kind of thing? I was on that other side of things maybe a handful of times and it really fucked with my head to be viewed like that and to know I'm not actually one of them. It kind of played a role in me coming to my senses again. I'm all too aware of what that fear feels like and that for me cemented which side I'm on. I sure felt safer walking in the dark for that year or so.. but god did it make me think.
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I've had pretty horrible high school years (more than the usual femcel schlick, I was physically and sexually abused on top of being bullied) and my early 20s are also going badly, I feel like i've completely wasted my youth being miserable and feel awful that I will never be able to have the wholesome and fun experiences of those times, being an adult fucking sucks, the "freedom" of adulthood is a lie and not worth it at all, I feel like my life I will be garbage until the day I snap and kill myself.
Are you me? Anon you're not alone. Your youth isn't wasted, you're not missing out on anything. What's important is for you to realize that your past abuse doesn't define you and you should work on yourself and see what makes you happy. You'll slowly get the opportunity to experience wholesome things, I promise.
I know it sounds corny as fuck, but trust me anon, there's light at the end of the tunnel. You just gotta stick with it.
I believe in you!!
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Thanks it just feels like i don't fit in the late-twenties world, people my age are getting married, having babies, getting promotions at their jobs etc.
Due to all that crap im genuinely some amount of stunted (im one of those stupid cows who has a pink room full of plushies and flowery bedding) so I struggle even with making friends, as if making friends in your late twenties wasn't hard enough, every time I time dating its even worse, its like I only attract men who want to take advantage of me, I just don't like being alive at all.
My father makes up shit just to be angry at me. I'm really starting to think he just hates me. I've never had any sort of emotional support from him, he never listened when I had troubles, he doesn't listen to me now that I'm ill and in pain. I make the effort not to talk to him too much, but he still finds a way to be angry at me and talk shit about me and I don't even fucking know why. What's funny is how he loves to me a supporting figure to other guys he meets. He would brag to my mother how he met this kid at work and listened to him as he cried, or how he helped the son of a neighbour, or how he offered help to some random drug addict that tried to get into our fucking house. And he really believes he's a good listener and someone people can rely on, but then he ignores his own daughter's problems, wants to fight almost every day, screams at everyone when he's upset on his own. He tells my mother that she's fat (it's not true, and my mother has some self esteem issues too) and needs to be raped, loses his shit and breaks things when he's out of cigarettes because he spent all of his money, and then he goes out and acts like a good wholesome person. Fuck him.
We all saw fucked up crap when we were younger anon, intentionally or not.
Heck I don't even have the guts to go to Rule 34 considering I use to visit there often when I was in grade school
Don't pay attention to other people anon. Most other people your age aren't as strong as you and haven't had to put up with the shit you did. Babies and promotions at work don't really matter, and it's not a race. What matters is you liking you and being okay with yourself.
You sound really sweet. I have a bunch of plushies on my bed too. They're the best.
That's most men anon, don't take it personally.
I hate my life too right now, but I know if I stay positive, one day things will be okay, even if it doesn't seem like it right now.
I feel the same. I'm so tired of Instagram for art. So much of the engagement is insincere and it doesn't feel like a community, just competing and clout-chasing. And it's crazy how many amazing, innovative art IGs I come across that have maybe 300 followers.
Tumblr and DA may have had a lot of problems and drama, but at least that meant people were genuinely engaged and involved. Even just the thread/forum layouts made it easy to create discussions and meet people, whereas words on Instagram are just an afterthought.
Thank you anon. I also hate that it's accepted so much, it's crazy. My mother can't stand him, but she also seeks his attention. I feel that it's like when women refuse to let go of an abusive
relationship and even end up justifying all sort of things. And of course my brother pretends nothing happens and never confronts him directly, since my father's behaviour doesn't affect him. Same with other family members.
>>683733>Thanks it just feels like i don't fit in the late-twenties world, people my age are getting married, having babies, getting promotions at their jobs etc.
NTA but what's the expression, "Comparison is the thief of joy"?
Don't compare so much, cause like other anon said it isn't a race. As someone who tried real hard to be a normie, I still don't have those things and probably won't until my 30s, maybe even 40s. I don't feel abnormal, it's just my own pace and a matter of luck. Tons of people don't have babies, marriages, or gainful employment until they're older and that's absolutely fine. Everything will be okay, and stressing yourself in the moment will do you no good.
Father God, today I wish to pray on the behalf of another, just as Christ so benevolently did. Lord, please heal this anon. I pray for Your divine intervention in her life. Heal her in whatever you see needs healing. Heal her of whatever might separate her from You. I pray that you lay Your hands gently upon her and heal her through Your love.
Please help her stay on the right path in fellowship with You, dear Lord, and rescue her from her troubles. I pray that You will reach down and touch her right now. Let Your presence fill the room where she is and let her feel Your divine presence.
May the light of Your truth illuminate her path and bring them to a saving knowledge of Your Son. Amen.
Same. lc is very toxic
, but something about it is addictive. Tbh getting myself banned is the only way for me to step away.
>>683751>Even just the thread/forum layouts made it easy to create discussions and meet people
I always found this difficult on tumblr tbh, and is the main reason why I hate the site's layout.>>683803
What if you have endless vpns tho
Idk. It's made me grow a spine and prepare for shitty people and their logic irl, and what to present and hide from those people in order to not make myself a target.
Lolcow has its use.
What's the point in ban-evading, are you guys catching bans that would even make something like that worth it? Weeks or months or perma?
I think the worst I've gotten is like a 72 hour ban but I think I used my time well doing other things and it wasn't a big deal. Even when I catch an 'infight' ban for butthurt it's only like 24 hours, tops.
Not that anon but they already admitted that they're toxic
so why are you getting so defensive lol? This always happens whenever someone criticizes LC. For how many of you act like bad bitches, you sure get booty blasted easily.
If that's not a soft form of emotional abuse, it's manipulative behavior that you absolutely shouldn't have to put up with. Although I'm afraid if you start putting up hard boundaries now, his behavior may get hostile due to the fact that you signaled it was acceptable up to this point on account of letting it go for so long. Does he have redeeming qualities beyond his insecurity and jealousy that would make this uphill battle of trying to fix the relationship worth it to you?
Every relationship I've ever been in with a man who's accused me of cheating or having many men after me, has been very brief. I find that discussions and boundaries rarely help over time as it becomes clear that the issues aren't so much about insecurity as it is their need to feel in control of women.
Being an insecure party in my relationship and having my bf deal with a lot of stupid bullshit, if you care about your boyfriend and want to stay in this relationship, please encourage him to get therapy and be patient - not in a "let him walk all over you" way but be open for a conversation and willing to reassure him when he needs it even if it would be excessive. A lot of people jump to harsh conclusions like >>683831
that this is emotional abuse and premeditated manipulative behavior - which it definitely can be, but not always. In some cases experiencing being cheated on may cause an actual trauma that is just impossible to deal with without professional help, and even though it's not an excuse for hurting a partner, it's not caused by intentional malice so in that way some people could be willing to be more understanding about it.
I'm not saying you should put up with it if you're not willing as recovery is long and not fun, but I wouldn't also say it should be treated as a lost cause right off the bat.
My brother drives me insane. He is almost 30 years old and he still works part time in hospitality, expecting our parents to pick up the slack (which they gladly do, they pay his insurance, his phone, internet and any other extra costs that he cant afford). He constantly changes jobs, I cant even keep up, for dumbass reasons, like "it wasnt well managed" or "the boss is mean"; as if he knew how things should be managed and as if the best choice in that situation were to quit. My parents spoilt him rotten, whatever he wanted, he got. He was doing really badly in school, he barely passed his A levels, but he wanted to be a lawyer, so my parents paid for him to go to this private university to "pursue his calling". To noones suprise, he failed the first year twice and realized that maybe you need to know how to apply yourself if you want to achieve anything in life. At the same time, I was an excellent student with great work ethics, and they barely paid attention to me. I would get first place in like mathsand physics contests, at one point I was in the top ten in my country in maths. For some reason my parents took it as a proof that my brother also is extremely talented (cause the same genes) but he just needs to get over his laziness. He definitely believes that he is a special boy of vast intelligence. He looks down on his old classmates, cause they work in trades, or are already married with children, because, I think in his head, he has achieved enlightenment through reading science fiction books and through pursuing 19 year old girls, cause that is soooooo much more ambitious than whatever he assumes his old classmates are doing. He posts half naked ladies on his Facebook, he loves Karen memes, he calls all women cunts and bitches, and my mum, a liberal feminist extraordinaire, claps her retarded hands at her little precious boy being such a Chad. She constantly says that he should be a model, and how all women want him and how well she raised him. Puke. I cant stand seeing him interact with some people in my family, because they are underprivileged and he blatantly behaves as if they were trash under his boots. He insisted on playing prodigy during a family function once cause he wanted to show off his superior music taste. I am so happy that I wont be going home this holidays.
Tbh I don’t know how they can trust scrotes so easily. There was a herpes outbreak around here not too long ago and it was because of the shitty hook up culture.
Shit is just not worth the risk lmao
NTA but I always wonder if they're either coping or scrotes larping because I can absolutely not imagine hooking up constantly with random men because they're almost always shitty lovers. >>683939
This is awful and one of the reasons why I don't do hook ups. I'd legitimately be devastated if some guy went around my friends telling them how it was fucking me and how my body is.>>683945
Also this, I'd be so paranoid if they're filming this or if they're fucking serial killers or something.
I've tried the Tinder-casual-hookup culture a few years ago, and my experience has been similiar (although I only went on 3-4 "dates"). I also always consumed way too much alcohol just to lower my inhibitions and one time completely blacked out during sex, in the sense that I retained zero memories of it, I just "woke up" sitting on his bed post-coitus. I didn't enjoy any of these nights.
It also made me realize how much my ex bullshitted (or was bullshitted by women) when he was saying how he made all his ONS-s cum, so he's "good at sex" to save his ego, because he couldn't make me climax even once, and he was worse than these guys. I guess most women just lie, or men think every heavy sigh is an orgasm.
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i have been living in this movie for the last 2 years, as the object of another woman’s suffocating jealousy and obsession
i am not even still with the same loser bloke this is over, and she still says god awful things about me online regularly.
it doesn’t bother me but it’s a pity when i have to explain to our mutuals what happened because i’m basically forced to 1) embarrass myself for even being involved in this absurd pantomime and 2) out her as a jealous psychopath who threatened me if i got back together with my ex.
I didn’t watch the movie but read the book. Do you mean you’re the train woman or the new wife? Finding the analogy difficult to understand due to the ending. and the fact I read it years ago lol
I kind of get what you describe though, some people are insane. I’ve had a colleague pull this shit on me, and an ex’s new gf, at first I got sucked into the drama but now just want these psychos to leave me alone.
You shouldn’t feel bad. I think it’s often said when a farmer tries to act morally superior, just to point out that their attitude does not change the fact they too are on this site.
The idea that we’re all nasty is just dumb. Of course there’s a lot of nitpicking and downright nastiness, but there’s also a lot of legitimate criticism of people who attract it. The #bekind brigade argues against even the latter, because being kind should be the goal at all costs even if someone is lying and scamming. Fucking stupid.
I’m like you, irl I know some personal cows but I don’t want to get involved with that. I’m a boring cuck offline but if an anon wants to think I’m deeply nasty, somehow more so than them, I don’t care.
Oh, yeah. Just ignore it, they're being petty. This thread is just an emotional pump and dump station where help isn't even necessarily expected. Women don't have a ton of places to just bitch into the void.
Don't worry about them, they don't know shit about you. A lot of people offering help and advice get satisfaction from it because it's something they can contribute when they can control little else in life.
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Despite never being into glamfur or knowing what it was in its prime, it makes me feel very nostalgic. Never thought I would be so fascinated by furry art kek>>683982
I wouldn't look too much into it unless you act like an awful person IRL. I don't take this site too seriously and we're all anonymous anyway.
Guilt tripping and manipulating you, as if you’re somehow the bad person despite the fact they’re to blame for posting an inaccurate photo. I wonder how they would react if the situation was reversed?
Weight isn’t an issue for me unless they’re obese but this attitude would put me off. Trying to manipulate someone before you’ve even met is a major red flag.
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Collecting vinyl is the most stupid useless hobby you can get into and I wish I never started, I'm paying extra just to own a physical copy of an album I can listen to digitally for free and in better quality like I'm getting absolutely nothing out of this, but would you look at that another record I like is getting reissued, must buy it!
I can't save any money when all my disposable income goees towards buying records. I'm just as bad as a redditor collecting funko pops even if I like to think I'm cooler. And for every person that comes over and is impressed by your stupid stack of shiny black music thingamajigs there's another person who'll rightly call you out on your frivolous wasteful hipster bullshit so there's no point to this whatsoever.
My records sit on their shelf looking down on me, even they know, and they mock me every day for it.
Your standard vinyl isn't going to sound much different than any digital recording, even if you have a good ear. Buuut master tapes (if you can afford get your hands on one, i sure won't be able to) sound waaay better to me than comercially released albums. Audiophiles say that a well-preserved or new LP/EP (or any analog recordings for that matter) sounds different. Personally, even as someone trying to get into sound engineering/mixing i dont see much of a difference if you're not going to splurge on equipment like an audiophile. I guess I agree, but the 13 year old part of my brain is still in her hipster phase and likes having physical ownership of music with all the pretty covers. Plus, I have plenty of inherited soviet records with the covers translated into russian from my dad, which is cool. It has its moments i guess.
Also buying FLAC on disks from electronic artists on bandcamp is a good practice to support local artists.
It'll hurt for a bit, but you'll get over it eventually. At least you're not tortured anymore about how he might feel, you have certainty and now it's just learning to live with the fact that this wasn't the road to take. You'll find someone, I'm sure of it.
You can also take the singlepill and focus on self-improvement and reject guys left and right lol
Any hobby that just involves buying shit for the sake of it feels empty to me. Anyone should do what makes them happy of course. I was raised to be materialistic and have had collections most of my life until one day it occurred to me that I was just shopping and storing stuff.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m far from a minimalist. I just feel more content now my hobbies are more about doing stuff than owning stuff.
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>tfw too degenerate for lc but not degenerate enough for other IBs
They also never partake in life whereby there would be opportunity to receive compliments. Like of course if they come off as asocial, never leave their rooms, don't dress well, never take care of their hygiene, and refuse to develop things that make them interesting, etc. then they're not giving other people anything to work with!
And quite frankly I think they do receive compliments, they just don't remember the ones not given by hot women or who they would otherwise use to validate themselves. Selective memory with a victim
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Why are so many programmers so fucking hostile when it comes to their job?
I'm trying to pull my ass out of poverty by trying to learn coding online and meanwhile hopefully save up for courses or college (it's not THAT expensive in the eu) but so many people start screeching the second I tell them this like… it's the only thing right now I could learn and have a somewhat okay career in, I don't want your high paying job, I just want out of the fucking dead end I'm stuck in right now and want into a field where I'll be able to advance.
I understand that the field is or will become oversaturated but if you're that good and have been in it for years then it shouldn't bother you as much.
Because mastermind 420IQ INTJ CS neckbeards like to brag about their high-paying job as a developer and use it as proof of their superior intellect, so it threatens them when a NEET (doubly so a female NEET) even suggests that she could do the same job but without the degree.
t. Finance grad who became a dev, tech bros are really just lower middle class finance bros in a hoodie
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I'm on this fucking anorgasmic ssri and I'm really horny and keep masturbating with no climax
jesus christ that reaction is accurate
which medication are you on?
Typical gatekeeping and competitive bullshit from people who don't wanna see you succeed for their reasons.
Look closely enough and the same shit happens in any kind of specialized field, even in the arts with the 'progressive' crowd.
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anon i just found this on pixiv and thought of you, hope you likehttps://www.pixiv.net/en/artworks/45977962
saged for sdr2 sperg
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W h o i s s h e
So were you just taking random unidentified drugs. >>684375
Anons clearly on something lmao. Relax.
I don't doubt that anon could
secretly be a man, but if they're actually a woman, I feel like it's weird to be like "Do you just want attention?" if she's on drugs.
Yeah, because it's so much better to enable attention whoring on ot.
The possibility of this being a man posting pics is also very high, stop being naive.
This is enough to get a protective order. They don't even need evidence. They will give you one just based on this story but it will only last either a couple of weeks to a few months, to get it extended you will have to have a trial probably.
Go to the courthouse tomorrow and file for a domestic violence protective order and detail any abuse he's done and what he did today. I have been in the same exact situation.
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I hate my job so much, I feel like I'm about to snap. I hate that I got lured into this job being promised it wasn't a call center, then being expected to do a good job handling cases in between taking incoming calls from customers who are usually angry and testy with me.
"You'll take some calls here and there," they said, "you'll have plenty of time to do your job, so we won't measure the time you spend taking calls as part of your productivity rate."
I have people crying to me on the phone because they're not getting their way. One woman called in while driving her car and told me she was going to make me listen to her die, yet my boss has the nerve to inform me that taking phones is considered the least stressful part of the job, so those of us who didn't cry and whine our way out of doing phone shifts are expected to have the easiest tasks. Fuck them.
My contract ends in February. They haven't told me if I will get more work. I don't have another job lined up, but I'm almost happy to live on savings for a few meager months if it means I can sleep at night and feel alive again.
This almost happened to me at a temp agency too!! They promised me an "administrative assistant" position at some printer company. They said I'd be doing very little interaction on the phone, which was what I was trying to escape as I'd worked a call center job for three years before landing baby's first admin assist job for a few months after that.
I show up to the interview all excited, but then they told me that on top of the administrative duties, I would mainly be doing "dispatch." Dispatch you ask? Fielding inbound customer complaint calls and dispatching service to them! And for the same low wagie price, I'd get to do the administrative work when "it wasn't busy." Fortunately I got another offer and noped the fuck out of customer service for good.
Holy fuck anon, get out of there for your sanity! It's disgusting that they lied to you. What scumbags.
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My cat left this world today, and though I saw it coming because he's old and sick and was there when he passed, I still feel shocked and miss him so much. We were always close since we essentially grew up together and he was there during some stressful times in my youth.
He was really sweet and pretty extroverted, but also never hesitated to engage in mischief to get what he wanted. He was never very physically affectionate but over the past year he started sitting on my lap when I was on the computer and cuddling next to me at night.
I love him. Maybe we'll meet again someday.
To echo what the other anon mentioned in hindsight, I had a few years in my 20s where it felt like a dead end and that I had no one who cared.
You'll have good years, and you'll have bad years. I just give it time and wait for the good to roll around so life can feel worth living again, it's how I ground myself.
Thank you for the condolences, kind anons!
I do follow a few cat instagrams (especially those with disabled cats just touch my heart a certain way) and will probably start interacting more with them now to cope. I'm not emotionally ready to get a new cat, but still need that kitty fix. They're such special creatures.
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warning for gross! usually I do get a bit of intestinal problem side effects from my period, however, this time I have been shitting water for 3 days straight, my a*s is raw because 2 of those days I had to work and the toilet there has the scratchiest 1 ply toilet paper in existence and I am beyond seething!
It can be hard at first, but just try to ignore them. I'm a front-end web developer and going by how people talk online you would think I'm basically a retard. However within the dev team at my workplace I get a decent amount of respect, lots of praise, and a very good salary.
Just keep at it. I could be wrong but I think the people who give you a hard time are just threatened and insecure, possibly because they are also trying to break into the field or because they already tried and failed.
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It's so fucking annoying sorting through product reviews sometimes. I'm searching for a new duvet cover and I can't even tell you how many reviews like picrel there are from people who don't understand what they are ordering. It is insane. Like they really think they are getting that big chunky down comforter in the description pic for $30?? It's funny how product ratings are pulled down just because people can't read.
I'm not one to bitch about such shit but it is just the amount of them that throws me off. I also think reviews that complain about obvious problems from shipping (not the product itself) should be purged since they are completely useless. I feel like there should be a separate review space for products damaged during shipping.
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How the fuck did anyone in previous generations afford to buy a whole goddamn house. How. I went down a youtube rabbithole of house tours (not even those luxury ones, I mean videos taken by local realtors in my actual city) and the price ranges are unreal. I can't even imagine the combined income of a couple affording some of the so-called "starter homes" or "new family homes" I've seen.
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Life feels so tiring lately. When I first started taking art commissions because I couldn't find a job this year after moving out (thanks economic crisis and me having no connections), things seemed fine but now I can't help but feel tired as hell. I am spending my 4th sleepless night drawing one commission because of a rough deadline. At first I wished I could catch a break and draw something relaxing or for myself, but now I am just feeling too burnt out to draw anything but this commission in general. But hey, at least it costs 45$ which is a big money for me. I am also having language lessons and I can't help but feel tired. Also feeling horribly homesick, wishing I could spend Christmas with my family. All I feel is tiredness and loneliness over the past weeks, the only recent thing that brought me joy was that I done well during lectures and downloaded some good visual novels.
I feel too tired to do anything, but its also Christmas season which ill spend with s/os family. I want to do nothing but sleep instead of spending time around people and it makes me worry, thinking I am back to my old "weirdly depressed" self. I wish to get an IRL job soon instead of experiencing life crisis and wrist pain. I want to cheer myself up, but all I think of is my lack of sleep.
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I feel so ugly because of how my ID photo ended up looking! Especially since the one taken 10 years ago was so much better. I feel like a disgusting fat piece of shit. In the photo, my face looks round and weird, my eyebrows are tragic and my eyes tiny. I don't look this bad in the mirror, why can't I have a nice ID photo? I even put effort into it this time, and it's still a disaster.
At least it motivates me to continue losing weight, but it fucking sucks when you are not sure if you really are that ugly or not…
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You are very gorgeous to me, anon!
omg I love you too, anon!>>684720
That's comforting to know! I'm not in denial, I've been slowly losing weight for 2 years now. I am still overweight, but I know that my face is not round like in the photo. I have pronounced cheekbones. It's wild how bad those photos are.
As horribly as my eyebrows look, I'm lucky I have any at all since last month my trich flared up and I picked almost all of them. Wonder what would happen if I sent an ID request with a photo on which I'm lacking eyebrows kek>>684718>>684728
thank you so much for cheering me up, I appreciate that a lot. I hope that you guys have a good day and lots of pretty photos <3
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They’re supposed to be unflattering, anon! The lighting is harsh, you’re not allowed to pose or show off your best angle, probably other factors. Even super attractive people usually have shitty ID photos so don’t worry about it. >>684728
Same for me, I think it just happened to be a good photo. About time I got lucky as all my others have been ugly.
Any anons who are getting photos done for ID, if possible where you are use the photo booths like pic rel. It’s basically like taking a selfie so you can look at yourself and adjust accordingly. Also you get multiple attempts. I would never go back to having someone else take the photo.
Dead relatives that left them nest eggs for a reasonable down payment if not the full value of a house.
There I said it.
I mean not everybody has parents to help them out, so I can see how you talking about it could be seen as bragging and therefore triggering
. People don't need to pretend to be poor to be annoyed by that.
Oh exact same situation anon, I had some input in my flat and I'm finishing it all by myself but it was mostly thanks to my parents help. There's a lot happening when you get a flat / house so I kinda want to talk about it but I just know how it's going to be received so I stay silent. Even in the past when I got a job that doesn't suck and pays okay I feel like telling that to my friends (in a non braggy way, mind you!) made them kinda distance themselves from me, they stopped ever asking about work and life even though I always ask them how they're doing, it's just so weird. And I'm also from a post-soviet country so it's 100% a thing here.
Either way, enjoy the house! It's such a MAJOR quality of life improvement.
No offense but it sounds like you have friends who don't really have your best interests at heart.
Like I was insanely jealous when my friends got houses or had expensive weddings thanks to the help of their parents, but I always made sure I let them know that I was happy for them cause deep down I do care that they don't struggle and are happy. I just wish I had a piece of that pie for myself is all, yet I made sure to keep my emotions in check. Good friends put aside their selfish emotions and won't make you feel terrible about your gains.
Meanwhile same friends acted so incredibly
salty towards me when I'd tell them about new jobs leads and interviews where it was revealed I might make more money than they do. Like heaven forbid me having obtained secondary education and disgusting loan debt for it might have given me some advantage to make a few dollarydoos more than them per hour as if something I had earned on my own merit
was more unfair than what they received through nepotism
. I'm more hesitant to talk about my successes at all because heaven forbid if it comes off as a brag, even if at the end of the day I'm technically struggling worse than them because of the fact that I pay rent and have debt. People suck.
Yeah, I'm aware unfortunately… Since in my case they're both childhood friends and I don't want to lose them, I try to be understanding and hope they'll come around eventually because I do understand not being able to cope with jealousy right away when you're struggling and someone else is thriving.
It's really upsetting though when you can't really enjoy your own success in worry of spoiling your relationships, it's like there's no winning. Such a bad mentality too, if you succeed it's only natural to celebrate and strive for more. Good friends who really like you as a person, not only as someone to share their misery with are so rare.
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why do hard cookies exist
I wish. I feel like they're trying to "challenge me" to work harder to to test my maturity since starting. To be fair, the two people that were promoted definitely did great things. It's just a little hurtful. I've literally done my job so well and received so many compliments from my supervisor. Ugh, this is just hard for me because I am super hard on myself.
Thank you anyway anon, for trying to make me feel better. <3
I read this earlier today and it's pretty much old news to me but intriguing nevertheless, this shit needs to be talked about more. I've seen so many lonely male geeks sink into the sissyfication lifestyle which absolutely ruins them and everyone around them because they just can't shut up about it or keep it in the bedroom. The worst thing is that if they have female friends they try to entangle them in their awful fetish by "innocuously" asking for makeup tips which turns into "could you please pick my makeup and teach me and in fact just come over and dress me up as a perfect sissy doll mommy~". And before you know it they're trooning out and dressing up like a 12-year old cartoon character posting lewds wearing their garters and frilly satin dresses with a shitty dye job for their ratty hair.
What kills me the most though is the "I want to be fucked and degraded, thus I'm a woman because that's how I see them" aspect. Peak misogyny and nobody calls it out for what it is.
I'm a senior level dev and can tell you straight away that IT tends to be a competitive field. Not competitive as in like a lot of fighting for one position, but people are clashing swords endlessly to see who's the developer with the biggest brain and the most efficient code wizard of them all. I've seen coworkers bust their ass with unpaid overtime even when they didn't have to just
so that they can keep their gigantic ego together by delivering in an unnaturally short time. It's dumb as hell and employers naturally exploit it endlessly by betting them against each other. That's why people also like to act like martyrs learning some secret ancient craft with programming. And because most of them are useless scrotes with muh male pride issues.
But also people are trying to, albeit autistically, communicate that the field requires a ton of dedication to get to a point where your career takes off. The people I described above have raised the stales so that junior developers are expected to be at least mid level despite having zero experience. You might have to put a lot of your own time into studying the basics, that's a fact. But keep at it, once you reach the peak of the learning curve it gets much easier.
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My best friend moved abroad and I'm sad how there's a pretty sizable time difference, feels bad anons.
I want to get into coding too, anon. Not to turn it into a job but just for fun, but I don't want to go anywhere near the scene because of creepy 'transgirls' pulling up their 'programmer socks' teehee and all of that bullshit. It felt like walking among skinwalkers. I want to code for specific things which have a lot of discords for resources and support but I find myself running into those types (with their sweaty simps) uncomfortably often (not to mention discord is trash anyway).
Not so related but I've always been a tomboy and thought I would always be 'one of the boys' but the older I get the more different I realise we are and I wouldn't be able to stand it being in a room full of people like >>684214
anon says, it's an autistic dick-measuring sausage fest. Like fucking chill, posing about curly braces vs indents doesn't make you a witty superior being, that mentality just screams 'I was a bullied nerd in school and now I'm overcompensating'. And just putting it out there, when computers first existed a lot of the earliest programmers hired were women because it was considered secretarial work.
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My boss keeps scheduling me outside my availability and i want to quit this job, but i n eed the healthcare until my other job's health care period kicks in. I'm just so fucking done with my boss not respecting my availability. It's not even worth the extra money.
You can meet someone over
discord. It doesn't need to be meeting someone in an autistic discord server. Does that make sense?
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I recreated some photos I took at the beginning of quarantine put them next to each other and I got so horribly depressed about how much weight I gained and how much worse my acne got. I was put on mood stabilizers on top of becoming completely sedentary. Like I knew I gained weight but once I couldn't fit into anything non-sweats for thanksgiving and just seeing exactly how I gained the weight in the images ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I need to go on a diet and start exercising I look like shit
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Anons I'm tired, I worked for 18h yesterday, slept for 5, another overly swamped day ahead of me today… this should all be over in 2-3 weeks but idk how to make it tbh
It’s Virgin River
Does Vikings have a similar plotline? Time to take that off my list.