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No. 686925

Continued support of less anime threadpics

previous thread: >>>/ot/679774

No. 686940

fuck i lost my copypaste

one of my troon mtf friends wants to open an only fans and i think that it's a really bad idea for his mental health and body image

i can't say anything coz he won't listen anyway, i used to care for him but now i just don't have the energy to look out for him

it's tiring keeping everything to yourself because it's empowering to show your ass on the internet

i hope we look back at this in 5-10 years and be glad we've moved on but maybe i'm in the wrong and it won't get any better

No. 686941

>>686890
They’re careful about what they say in writing around me and have a groupchat without me to talk about god knows what. Even the director is a known creep. I’m just stuck here dealing with this shit until I find another job. I’m feeling so upset, I fucking hate pervy men.

No. 686945

Holy shit it must be exhausting to live with the distorted worldview some people have. So focused on non-issues based on unsubstantiated claims. Believing they're under attack when they're not. They're miserable. They cry at night worried about something that's not going to come true, only to wake up the next day worried about the same thing.

No. 686947

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>work as an inspector
>bf tells me he had a really bad dream
>ask him
>says he dreamt that I "audited" our relationship just to make him sweat
>then I went to flirt with a black neighbor and sang duets over synth keyboards with country music
Idk why but kek. Men.

No. 686956

Why, WHY am I seen as such a doormat at work? Why is my beta aura so strong? I don't trip over myself to volunteer to others and take every burden, but also I'll help out if I have the time. Like I thought that's what being a good team player is all about. I'm not friends with any of them, but I'm not a social pariah and we exchange niceties like coworkers do.

And yet I have 3 out of my 5 coworkers trying to keep pushing work onto me when they don't do it to anyone else, and it's like this dumb stupid power game constantly trying to do only my equal share. Like today, I have to input something and someone else needs to verify it, both of those have a set of subtasks. So I ask a coworker to verify my stuff, and he does the BARE MINIMUM then tells me "you can do the other tasks", and I'm like…what? And he caught me off guard but he was explaining why it could technically be me who does it then walks off saying he needs to go in 15 minutes (the tasks take literally 2 minutes). And so I was left with these tasks that for the months I've worked there, were clearly defined as something HE should do along with verification.

And it's like that over and over. There are processes that need 2 people, with clearly defined subtasks, yet I'm almost always asked if I did what THEY are supposed to be doing, and when I say "…no?" They act disappointed and surprised?

And I was even TRAINED this way. So if two people have 3 tasks each, my initial training involved me doing 5 of those tasks and someone else doing 1. Two people started alongside me, yet somehow I was the only one conditioned to be the fucking workhorse without even knowing it. And it's just pushing and questioning if I've done extra work constantly, as if doing only my share is lazy. And just always suggesting I can do this or that even though I've done more than any of them that day.

It kind of feels like a small gripe, I could just say no over and over, and sometimes get stealthed into doing my unfair share like the above anecdote. But it's exhausting and makes me bitter as fuck to all my coworkers.

Sorry for the anon in the all moid workplace though, I need to count my blessings.

No. 686961

I've been crushing on my boss for like 3 or 4 months at my new job (the worst kind of crush because he is way older, married and have children). He just told me today that he got a job offer and will be leaving in a few months basically. And I feel so fucking stupid being sad over this.

No. 686969

I finally got an anti-depressant drug prescribed bcuz I realised my weird mood swings are more than circumstantial but I've been feeling better the past few days so I believe it's kinda pointless that I did that.But I guess it's similar to all the other times I thought I was fine then felt like shit again.At least the drug wont be anything extreme since I don't think I need something like this but I can't help but think it is a waste of money(not much tho) and messing up with more drugs.Time will tell

No. 686970

>>686956
>"…no?"
Maybe you're not assertive enough? From how you put it it seems you give a bit of a weak answer. Have you tried giving a firm "No, that's your task." as an answer and look them in the eye while saying it?

No. 686972

Why does it feel like every man I interact with wants to do the exact opposite of what I want?

I want to cuddle? They dont like cuddling after sex
I dont want a relationship? Suddenly they want one
I want a relationship? They dont want one
I dont text them?suddenly they are angry I didnt text
I want to text?suddenly they're busy and I'm annoying

It's the same shit with every dude lol its like they're being difficult on purpose.

No. 686996

>>686941
Don't ever use the bathroom there or wear skirts.

No. 687000

>>686972
Not to be a dick, but if this is a pattern for you, the only way of fixing it is by really delving into your own psyche and figure out what it is about you that's attracting people like this.

No. 687004

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I ordered a bunch of cute fabric masks and I'm so excited to get them aaaaa.
I love wearing masks.

No. 687011

Whenever I seek out female companionship, it disappoints me. And I will fully admit it’s my own fault. I over-idealize what I want the interaction to be like and then I’m let down when the person doesn’t meet my expectations. I go through these cycles where I desperately crave a friend, seek one out, then go back into hiding.

No. 687012

>>687004
Aw cute!! What do they look like, anon?

No. 687014

>>687011
What are you looking for out of female friendships, exactly? No judgement, just wondering what parts end up disappointing. I'm sorry that's been your experience, and I hope you find some amazing female friends someday! It's very special.

No. 687016

>>687011
Most people in general are disappointing.

No. 687026

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Been pullen out my hair for days i’m crazy ooogo booogo

No. 687027

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>>687012
Yesss, they look like this! I got them all off etsy. Some are gifts and I'm excited to give them aaaaa

No. 687028

>>687014
I’m not sure and maybe that’s the issue. I primarily want someone to do things with that I normally do alone. Like going to festivals, shopping, all that corny stuff. Ironically I always worry about how the other person is perceiving me despite judging them heavily.

No. 687033

I'm not going to be graphic about it but reading up on the fistulas developed from severe damage to the vagina after rape in that news thread…I hate men, I really do.

The youngest being TWELVE MONTHS OLD I fucking hate men. And the fact that those horrific acts is used more as a way to harm the soldiers…it's so dehumanising.

Why is rape so so prevalent in wars? Men. And the most annoying thing is I can't say that in polite society, I can't say I hate men because i've never heard of a group of women gangraping a kitten. I can dance around it and say ohh oh WAR makes people do horrible things. Yes, awful how RELIGION drives people to believe this is justified. Yes yes of course, it's not like men are inherently less empathetic, particularly to women and often behave like literal animals without the constraints of law and order. I cant just say "it's men, I mean do you see women doing anything like this? No? Right, because it's men".

Funny enough men in general, it's like…they don't seem to truly feel disgust at these acts? It's like their main priority is making sure that I know that NOT ALL men are like that. They don't feel ashamed, hell usually their first reaction isn't pure disgust at what actually happened. Just oh those are awful men, must be because they're uneducated, ignorant, religious extremists.

No. 687034

>>687027
These are SO cute! I have a friend or two plus my sister that would love masks like this, I'll search them up on Etsy too! Thanks for sharing, excellent taste anon. Enjoy your masks, I'm sure your friends will as well!

No. 687038

>>687028
That makes sense. Maybe you just need to find the right person or different people for different occasions. I know that my friend I go antiquing with isn't the same one I go to metal shows with, but they're both still beautiful female friendships. In any case, you'll find someone you can be yourself and enjoy things around, it just takes time. I didn't have any close girl friends until I was in my 20s. Cut them some slack, and I'm sure you'll find yourself feeling better and less worried about how your perceived yourself too. Good luck, anon!

No. 687039

>>687033
most people are like that though, people generally don't really care that much about things that far from their lives. even listen to people gossip about deaths in their neighborhood. many people act like you are mentally ill for reacting more than just "oh wow!". i honestly think men are worse because they are in a position to do so but people are disgusting in general.

No. 687040

>>686970
The issue is that the lines are blurred on whose tasks are whose. Like I said I was trained to do more than my fair share of tasks before realising that's not how it works. Really we can exchange all tasks, one can feel generous and do more, or if the other has software issues someone else can take it on. So the task list isn't set in stone, it's just what's done. So best I can say is "isn't that usually your area if you do X?".

My "no"? to me isn't uncertainty, moreso confusion that why would they think i'd do that in the first place, and I think that's my tone too. But yeah, it just seems to be this common assumption I'll do more than is fair, maybe they're all dickbags and think that because I don't know the system they can take advantage, but it doesn't explain only me being taken advantage of vs. the other new starts.

No. 687047

my boyfriend is working nights because of stupid corona so we are only really talking once a week and he's been coming over and staying up all night so it's been almost a month since i saw him last since it was a huge hassle last time. this is so fucking hard.

No. 687051

>>686996
Nta, not using the bathroom I get, but why no skirts?

No. 687060

>>687047
Hi it's me Corona, I got your man "working late" every night, coming home with raised body temperature and unable to catch his breath. Hehehe.

No. 687066

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I just can't stop fucking crying every single day

No. 687068

>>687066
Crying is healthy. Keep doing that. Bottling it up will make things worse.

No. 687069

>>687026
may i ask who drew the picture anon? i love the art style

No. 687076

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My only close friends have turned into really cringy "alt" people like the ones on tik-tok. They un-ironically kin fictional characters and wear extreme fashion or cosplay on regular days out in public. I feel bad for them when they get made fun of for "looking weird" and I honestly just think people should just mind their own business but GOD DAMN.

No. 687079

My friend confessed me today. I have rejected him 6 years ago, I rejected him again. I thought we were over this, I thought we were bros. It felt manipulative because I took him out to have some nice time after he told me his grandpa died.

After I rejected him he got frustrated and asked what I wanted (in a guy). He left without looking at me. It felt fucking awkward because I thought we were over this and this was supposed to be me being there for him during a hardship. This stings because now it feels like everythig we did together stemmed from wanting more than friendship when I thought I've made a good lifelong friend. His handling of rejection was awful too.

I just hate getting love confessions from men who think I'm their dream gf because I play videogames and I'm not ugly. But with them our personalities are not compatible at all. I hate it when they get frustrated because "what more can I want". I hate men who only think what THEY want matters with no considerations that I might want specific things in my ideal partner too.

No. 687085

>>687079
Straight men usually dont befriend women they arent wanting to fuck at some point. Women they arent attracted to usually dont exist to them.

No. 687086

i genuinely think my boyfriend is manipulating me or something. almost dating for 2 years we’re both 17 so i understand we’re kids. it’s just gotten so weird lately i feel so confused with how i feel and what’s happening. We will be fine and then he suddenly starts going off on me about things that happened before and gives me shit for things he also does. he gets upset when i do things with my friends it confuses me because i don’t thing this is normal. i think he hates me but doesn’t want anyone to be with me? he constantly breaks me down but feeds me small compliments and i end up feeling so attached to him. one day he completely loves me and the next day it’s like he hates me and wants to leave me. i end up feeling confused and overwhelmed whenever i’m with him. i have to be carful with what i say because anything can have him bitching. whenever i go over to his house as soon as we lay in the bed he starts touching me. multiple times he tries to put it where i tell him not to and it upsets me so much because he doesn’t seem to genuinely understand why that’s wrong. his mind is so closed to only what he thinks and it’s set in that. i know i should leave him i’m planning to but what i feel after is so overwhelming it’s so hard to handle it feels like everything can set me off into a puddle of self hate.(underage b&)

No. 687088

>>687076
>mind their own business
bullying is how retards learn to behave

No. 687094

>>687086
you want me to bully my boyfriend? hahaa

No. 687099

I need a new friend circle so fucking badly. My current one acts insanely begrudging and jealous towards me whenever I share any positive news or successes. Despite me always stanning for them, offering to help when they're down, getting them thoughtful gifts, being happy for them when they prevail, etc. Then of course any boundaries I put up so I'm not completely taken advantage of is me being a bitch or playing keepaway. They hate me so much they see whatever I do as a brag. It's just so obvious how they resent me for shit that's not my fault, and worse yet they feel like they're entitled to shit I earn like my jobs and things I buy cause the truth is they see me as less than them. So they wonder why shouldn't they be getting the same things I get, when in reality they simply haven't done dick to earn it.
They're backhanded, they belittle whatever I do, and then they want to drag me beneath their level to feel better about themselves for lagging in their maturity. Fuck this.

No. 687100

>>687088
I guess in a way, only that I would also get shit for just being around them despite being probably the most bland normal-looking person ever. Also the fact that the people going after us are always ugly scrotes too so I have no respect for them. Like it's bold of them to bully someone for how they look when they themselves look (and smell) like they just crawled out of a sewer.

No. 687105

>>687060
fuck you, you coV-2 whore.

No. 687106

fuck you stupid idiot dumb dumb loser ass microwave and air fryer for not always heating my food all the way through you're a disgrace and i wish you nothing but misfortune how dare you fucking idiot i want to a-log you so bad you cant do anything right

No. 687108

>>687086
Break up with him anon

No. 687111

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When I remember this girl I liked, I'm sad we don't talk anymore. We only did because of uni but I left. She was so cute and had a pretty name. I actually had a chance I think because she liked girls and left me small gifts of candy twice. There is no reason to contact her anymore but we had fun working together. Life really grants me zero luck to take it all away

No. 687113

>>687086
If you're seriously 17 just break up with him. You're gonna have so many more opportunities at better and more fun men. It's fucking silly to waste your energy on a practice boyfriend who statistically isn't likely to be your foreverman anyway. You're way too young for emotional abuse.

No. 687117

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I recently joined a discord server for my uni course and there's this one girl who I used to know in college who keeps making semi-hurtful comments, but she always downplays them or makes them sound like a joke.
One time we were talking about children while waiting for our lecture to start, and she just goes "yea I don't think you'd make a great mother", without explaining why when I asked her what she meant by it.
Here's just a few more examples: "makes sense that ____ does her work in lessons, as she only cares about sleeping when at home(I have the top marks in our group), and while the tutor was going over the word limit and his expectations for our report she points to me, and in front of the entire class goes "knowing ___, I bet it will be difficult for her to adhere to the word limit, since she always writes so much". Like, was that really needed?

It's gotten to the point where she's so casual about it that I'm not even sure if she's trying to be mean or if that's just how she behaves.

>>687111
Ah, sadly I know this feel. I still think about her and it's been years, although after stalking her social media I found out that she's hetero and our interests don't align at all nowadays. Good luck on finding someone else who fits you.

These lyrics from the scissor sisters (mostly the remix) always remind me of her:
"It can't come quickly enough
And now you've spent your life
Waiting for this moment
And when you finally saw it come
It passed you by and left you so defeated"

No. 687119

>>687086
Please break up with him. You don’t deserve to be treated like this.

No. 687122

>>687117
She likely just does this as her normal, but it’s still not acceptable. Maybe call her out?

No. 687125

I can’t tell if I’m relapsing with my ed again. Time to be silly!

No. 687162

That locked thread just made me realise that my mom did't prepare me in the least for dealing with scrotes. Would have been nice if she'd at least told me how horrible males can be, even if she wasn't aware of what I was exposed to online she should have at least told me how to protect myself irl, spot red flags, etc. She just fucking let me figure it all out on my own and gave me no information on boys (except for the profoundly fucked up "if they're mean to you it means they like you" ofc) let alone creepy older men. I don't think she even told me not to let a stranger touch my secret square as a child, I only heard it in those lessons at school.

No. 687163

This year is gonna be my first Christmas without my family/alone. I was kicked out by my abusive mother and made homeless just short of a year ago, got a job and place and I'm pretty settled now. Yet I'm dreading this year knowing I'm going to be alone while everyone is enjoying themselves. In return I feel like I'm being a moody cow to those I know when they mention how excited they are. My bfs parents invited me, but I know that's purely out of pity. I know Christmas is just a commercial holiday these days but fuck, I just wanna feel normal for once.

No. 687173

>>687162
To give your mom (and our parents in general) benefit of the doubt; the knowledge how bad men actually are were probably not so widespread in the pre-internet era. Like, I'm sure everyone would meet a few bad men but without being exposed to the inside of male brain pouring out on chans and reddit you just cannot know how bad it really can be.

No. 687174

>>687163
Dude no, your complaints are legit ok, I feel the same. Just go with your bfs parents, you'll have a good time I promise.

No. 687175

>>687117
Sounds annoying, smack her

No. 687176

>>687111
just talk to her again, thats enough reason

No. 687209

i'm pretty sure my boyfriend isn't attracted to me.

No. 687210

>>687209
Why do you think that?

No. 687214

>>687210
he never actually verbally lets me know if he is… he doesn't compliment me on my physical traits or anything like that. he has said stuff about my body parts (ie my breasts) but he has never complimented my face or anything like that. it's already hard enough living in my skin and not being able to look at myself, it's another thing having your own boyfriend think the same thing. i'm so disgusted from myself

No. 687221

>>687214
Break up. Let him die.

No. 687226

File: 1607058839059.png (2.14 MB, 2336x2048, wrgwgwggr.png)

Did you know using serifs is now ableist?
As someone with ADHD and a bit of dislexia who is also a graphic designer, this pisses me off SO MUCH.

No. 687228

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this is so fucking disgusting. i want all men to die. Please die. die die die.

No. 687230

>>687226
do these people not realize that you can change the font to a specific default font on your browser?

No. 687232

My favorite part of going on road trips as a kid was being able to look at the night sky in rural areas and see the stars.

From what I learned about spacex starlinks, the sky is going to be filled with hundreds of linear lights and we will barely be able to see stars. You won't be able to escape light pollution anymore. I know that I could have been born at a worse time but it just makes me so sad that my potential future children might not even know what stars look like or that in my life time I won't be able to see the stars anymore.

No. 687234

>>687232
Samefag but hundreds is an understatement. 12,000 what was approved to be launched, but space x is looking into 30,000 more. Other companies are looking to do so as well. Either way the entire night sky would be obstructed.

No. 687239

>>687234
>>687232
thanks this is just another reason to off myself today, was already on edge on other threads but this makes me want to pull the trigger so fucking bad

No. 687243

You would think working from home and spending all my time in doors would help me save money but it's worse. I pretty much blew 1k in a week on dumb shit. I'm going broke becuz of covid.

No. 687254

So 2 days ago,I got a terrible grade on a test, and I felt really really bad about it. Decided to vent to a friend, he said he would listen to me so he told me to get into a League game with him and other friends so they could listen to me vent and give me advice/comfoert, during some point I started sort of crying/tearing up because the test was really important and I studied really hard and he just kept on laughing at me? Later on, the other friend texted me saying that he didn't get what I was crying about and he like I was getting worked up over nothing and just wanted attention. I got really mad at him and blocked him and I feel like I overreacted (but honestly we're not that close), I also started my period on said day I failed that exam, but at the same time I'm not sure if I'm in the wrong because at the same time, i feel like I should unblock him and apologize to him. I think I learnt that maybe that I shouldn't vent to men at all.

No. 687270

Fuck Ive really screwed myself over with wuarantine fuuuck
I was already a neet but for legit reasons, health and not just mental, but now I'm better and ready to change that. The problem is I've spent this whole pandemic indoors pretty much. I am scared to go out. It's also a choice because I have high risk family, that is my biggest concern. It seems unpredictable what covid will do to you and I can't lose my sibling who gives my life meaning. How can I be sure I won't catch it and give it to him. Also with my health history I'm nervous enough for myself.
I feel like it's never gonna end though. When I think about going out there for anything that's not brief, I just can't. How could I ever make friends again? Or provide for myself? I can't see it happening everyone is distanced and I'm scared, to be honest even though I want these things. I need friends and I need to do something . I need a life and to have responsibility. I'm not ill anymore but what if covid happens and is 1000x worse than the hell I went through. Sorry I'm whining like a baby, I know people are out there because they need to, and have it worse than me. when can this end so we can all be free??

No. 687272

>>687254
You shouldn't vent to men, but he sounds like a dick. If the other friend texted you later to tell you that, I would bet good money that they were talking shit about you after you left. Not worth apologizing to.

No. 687305

>>687254
>i feel like I should unblock him and apologize to him
Don't do that. He doesn't respect you and now you're going to lower yourself even more?

No. 687321

>>687011
Same. I'm not blaming my potential friends, since I'm probably part of a problem for being a weirdo and wanting someone as much weird as me… but everyone I tried to connect with bores me. And when I find someone I could talk for hours, they live on the other side of the world. Sucks to be me!

No. 687340

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i'm really fucking embarrassed of how psychotic i've been acting these past several months, and of how delusional i've been about my mental state these past few years

No. 687350

>>687162
Maybe her mom didn't tell her either and she has no idea either

No. 687351

>>687226
Please try to avoid them. They are just idiots on a social media website. Delete your twitter account, delete the app and never look back.

No. 687352

idk but even tho im not as suicidal i was a few years back,i REALLY dont give a shit about learning anything new either it be about education (which i need) or for entertainment.i believe that if i had the ability to do so,i could spend my whole day looking at the wall. sometimes doing things is hard or stressful or just…empty.i dont actually feel compelled to read,play games,watch videos learn something new etc. i used to force myself in a somewhat compulsive way to do things but i dont feel like it anymore as i realised it made me feel negative stuff.and it's not even like i feel TOTALLY empty inside,it's a hollow pleasant feeling but i dont feel like doing anything.im not looking forward to anything.i dont even find a proper reason to go on here even tho it's one of the few sites that i like being on.i feel like i keep wasting days and not improving anywhere but i dont feel a reason to.i dont want to be a burden on my family or others and must learn things on my own but when there's not the feeling of a "goal" or at least some internal positive reinforcement to keep me going,well,whats the point?there are times i can't sleep at night but i dont feel like picking up anything to busy my mind with till i feel sleepy.and when i dont feel like that,i feel…bad.
what would only make me act on improving stuff is avoiding specific negative situations but again,i dont have the mental energy to use this as a driving force.couldn't i be a tree in the middle of nowhere or some shit?i feel i'd have more of a purpose than i have now

No. 687354

>>687340
embarrassment is the first step towards improvement anon. you can do it

No. 687355

>>687226
> ableist
Okay Sherlock honeypot-emoji open bracket art raffle yellow-artist-emoji paint-palette-emoji close-bracket, AKA Fuck the Blind.

The problem with being offended by everything is that you’ll inevitably fuck up, too.

No. 687361

>>687254
drop this dick

No. 687385

i am never ever satisfied with anything i create and it's driving me insane. i spend literally 12 months straight on the same oc donut steel every single time. everything looks so ugly no matter how many times i change it even if i give them conventionally attractive traits. i feel like my eyesight is going weak. and then there's those days/weeks where i can't even remember what my own characters look like even if i draw them dozens of times. my brain is dying.

No. 687386

My childhood online friend stopped replying a year ago and I just assumed they were busy. Out of curiosity I googled their irl name and they passed away from a rare disease recently(not vid). They never told our other friends their real name and I don’t know if it’s right of me to tell them.

I wish I met them once in person instead of being chicken shit. We were adults, we had money, there was literally nothing stopping us.

No. 687392

>>687386
I guess it doesn't matter now if they're dead, as long as your friends aren't total retards who'll bother their family or something.

No. 687395

This is such a petty vent but this is the second time I wore knee high socks and after my mom did laundry they’re just gone. I don’t get it. All of my other socks came out just fine with everyone else’s socks but this is the second time my knee high socks are missing. I just want to be able to wear knee highs this winter without fearing that I can only wear them once before they get sucked into the void of nothingness. My mom and I split the house chores so she does laundry and I clean the floors but I guess I might as well just do laundry too so I can actually get my socks back like what the fuck.

No. 687397

>>687395
ask her if she's seen them?

No. 687398

>>687395
Maybe I'm just projecting my own passive-aggressive mother onto yours, but isn't it possible that she didn't like the socks and secretly threw them out?

No. 687399

>>687397
She’s asleep right now and I was just looking for them to get dressed for work so I’ll ask when I get home, but the first pair she lost is probably gone forever (we searched together before).

>>687398
Nah if she doesn’t like something I own she just says it to me to my face lmao

No. 687400

I was talking with a friend the other day on discord and mentioned how I can't wear certain shoes because of a foot injury and he starts talking out of nowhere about his foot fetish. I don't get how this is acceptable, it was just a normal conversation about shoes. When did it become okay to steer any conversation towards your kinks?

No. 687407

>>687400
>on discord
there's your problem

No. 687410

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>>687395
buy some mesh laundry bags to wash your socks in so you won't lose any more

No. 687412

>>687409
Yeah, it's anxiety, it can come out of nowhere like this even if you were a pretty calm person before. And i'm really sorry about your family situation, your brother needs to be sent to the mines.

Maybe your family is what is causing you anxiety, a bad home life can build up and cause this but the good news is that even if you can't escape them right now meds and therapy do help, you don't have to keep feeling it so much or have constant panic atacks, try to go to a psychiatrist and see your options for treatment until you can leave your stressors.

It's scary but it will work out anon, it's a normal response to being so stressed in your own home all the time.

No. 687415

>>687407
Exactly this!

No. 687417

Ok so I've watching my boyfriends older sisters dog a few days a week. I help out her in a busy time and I get some money so it's a pretty sweet deal. But this dog is a lil weirdo. Even when the weather is pretty nice she hardly wants to walk. Sometimes I have to just pick her up and carry her a distance away to give her some motivation to walk around the block at least. And even then she'll just stand there for 2-3 minutes sometimes, looking around.. looking up at me like she's feeling sorry for herself before she starts walking. I was kind of looking forward to actual walks with this dog but she's a lazy one clearly. Most of the time I'm here she's just napping or sleeping. She clearly enjoys my company though because she does get sad when I leave
Also today in particular she hasn't even gone for a shit. I've been here for three hours now which is already lowkey more than I need to and taken her out twice but still she's not taken a shit. I'm exhausted physically this week and just want to get some good food, pick up a package and get home now lol.

No. 687419

>Be me
>age 11, in mid/late 2000s
>family literally just moved from Eastern Europe to the UK
>school has compulsory music classes
>didn’t mind much at first as my school back at home had them as well, music class was mostly learning how to sing short folk songs
>the British music teacher fucking hated me for some reason though
>most of the lessons consisted of her playing British pop music from the 1980s on the piano and expecting the class to sing along
>I knew fuck all about British pop music from the 1980s
>couldn’t sing along because I didn’t know the fucking words
>she repeatedly stopped the class to tell me off and call me lazy and stupid for not singing
>“reeeee anon everyone knows these songs, how can you not know the words?!?! You’re lying!!!”
>always gave me shit grades
>still can’t listen to Last Christmas without getting triggered

No. 687423

>>687419
rip I remember when I was 12 in choir and we had to sing jinglebells but I didn't know the words and nobody believed me

No. 687426

I'm absolutely fucked by the discovery of "russian trash streams" (the most recent examples are the scrote breaking a model's jaw and the other one killing his pregnant girlfriend)
This is extremely dark and accesible for everyone, before, if you were a psychopath interested in that you'd go to the Deep Web. Now, you can do it easier on a fucking streaming platform
Aside from all the misogynist psychopaths who take part on this crimes and the misogynist police that didn't do anything, I just can't wrap my head around the scrotes trying to blame the victim
It's so horrible being a woman in this present, i'm fucking depressed and I don't know how to go on with my day

No. 687428

>>687412
Thank you for replying, I felt weird typing my vent out. I guess I have felt stressed and stuck ever since the pandemic. Always being here with my family really has made me feel pure despair. They're not the easiest to be around with. Again thank you for your compassion anon.

No. 687432

>>687419
I hate that teacher. How much of a fuck up do you have to be that your work is teaching a child a Christmas song but she bullied them instead?
It's not even a fun song for kids to sing.

No. 687438

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Im so scared to go to the orthodontist. Since age 10 to now (im 19 rn) i haven't wore any braces. My family wasn't well off with money, we were basically kind of poor and had to live on welfare. My parents do have a stable job and do earn quite a bit, but they have to pay bills and for my sisters education. This is the first time my mom made an appointment for the orthodontist and im really scared to go, im really insecure about my teeth because they are all crooked and just looks weird. I really want to have straight teeth but im just too scared that the orthodontist will ask me why i haven't gone sooner for braces and it just makes me feel insecure as fuck.

I don't really wanna blame my parents for anything, since it isn't really their fault that we had little to no money, i do appreciate tho that they gathered enough for some braces for me, which i couldn't pay for since i do not earn that much. I just want to feel more confident while eating in public or just smiling in general.

No. 687443

>>687438
Anon, they will definitely not judge you. If they do, walk out of there. You can definitely find an ortho who's chill. There are plenty of people who get their braces later in life because of finances, everyone knows braces are expensive as fuck.

I was lucky enough to have braces as a kid, and it definitely helped me. I had super crowded teeth on the bottom, and weirdly spaced out teeth on the top (one of my front teeth was basically sideways somehow). Be prepared for the pain when the wires first go in, it was unbearable for me. I was still self conscious throughout middle school with them, but it was a small price to pay. You deserve to feel confident smiling, and I hope everything goes well during your appointment!

No. 687444

>>687443
If anything the ortho is gonna be happy you chose to do it now and with them.

No. 687446

>>687438
>im just too scared that the orthodontist will ask me why i haven't gone sooner for braces
If they ask just say you didn't have the money/budget for it, there's no shame in that. The ortho knows braces are expensive AS FUCK and they aren't oblivious to the fact that not everyone grows up in a financial situation where they can afford braces.

No. 687449

>>687438
They won't ask you that, anon! They know braces are expensive and not available for everyone easily at any given time. Like other anons said, they'll be happy you're choosing to work with them now. Both my mom and dad have had adult braces, and at different times, and they had great experiences, just as my sister and I did as kids. It's not that odd, I promise.

No. 687455

I guess me moving back at my mum's house has helped me become ana again, and it feels fucking good. Fucking insects in the kitchen has made me paranoid to leave the bedroom. Our neighbour is a fucking hoarder and it seeps into here. I want to burn this place down. Haven't eaten anything in days other than a few candy I got.

No. 687488

>>687340
I completely feel for you anon, I never thought id become this delusional and honestly ive never felt so unsure of myself

No. 687490

>>687027
aaa these r the cutest !! hope u like them and get many compliments ^__^ cheered me up a bit ^^

No. 687525

>>687490
Don't write like that.

No. 687539

>>687490
East Asian anons be like

No. 687556

>>687490
go back to twitter

No. 687558

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It's my last day at this half forsaken office where I was chronically underpaid and undervalued. I'm trying to look busy while I fiddle on my phone, I mean they did give away most of my duties already. I really don't want to finish the work I do have, even though I've done a good majority of it already. I want to just give what I completed to the sup and tell her best-o-luck like how they treated me when they told me I'd be losing this job during covid. A weird part of me also wants to complete it though and send the email because it would grate me that someone else would take credit for what I completed, even though they don't care and it really doesn't matter. I guess it's the principle?
Fuck. Oh well, feels good to know I'm being paid on their time to take a giant lunch break, use the bathroom, and play on my phone cause they don't give a fuck about me. Last week I showed up to the building for 30 minutes while everyone else got a paid holiday off, but I wound up claiming the whole shift anyway on my timecard and got away with it. Exploit me and I will exploit you too. Mwuah!

No. 687564

My friend is seriously considering transing out, the reason being "Straight men", no matter what I say they won't listen. I tell them about how most the men into him will probably just be gay/bisexual men (he does not look like a woman) he does not believe me, I tell him he'll just be dating closet cases who will hide him, he won't believe me.
and this all started because he was dating a "trans chaser" who told him "plenty of straight men are into trans women" and I really feel like he's been groomed. How the fuck are you dating a "Straight" man as a "gay man" and you can't see whats right in front of you?

Like he's saying word for word troon shit. All this to chase "straight" dick thats really bisexual/gay. I don't get it. But I think i'm about done, I've been through so much with this person, I'm done.

No. 687570

>>687564
>I tell them about how most the men into him

No. 687572

>>687564
Wow that's really sad anon but you've done your part in warning him. Sounds like a really hard lesson he will have to learn himself, I just hope if he does manage to trick a straight guy into thinking he's a real woman that the dude won't try to fucking kill him. Straight men are the biggest perps when it comes to violence against trans.
I hate that the world fed this delusion.

No. 687574

>>687558
My mom thinks and did something like this on her job recently, are u my mom anon?

No. 687577

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>>687574
For you anon, I could be.

No. 687585

>>687004
>>687012
>>687034
>>687490
I swear this is the same person pretending to be two people lol

No. 687586

If this period pain lasts another hour more i am going to off nyself i can't handle it these meds don't do shit i feel like im bout to pass out

No. 687588

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>>687586
What pain meds do you take anon? I take these ones and they are great. I am from the uk, but they probably sell them everywhere

No. 687592

The Cartoon Network's official twitter feed is like browsing a parody account. Are they bleeding money or why are they buying into the zoomer twitter woke shit? It's great that they're doing work for diversity but the way they're doing it is tacky and ungodly cringey, like those shitty Steven Universe PSA animated shorts. It's like subtlety doesn't exist anymore.

No. 687596

>>687305
>>687272
You're right anons! Thank you, I'm not gonna talk to them anymore and I'll keep the other guy blocked, thank you. I told my girl friends about this and they understood more, I realllly shouldn't have even vented to men even if they told me it was okay. Lesson learnt.

No. 687598

>>687585
Kek oh no! I can confirm that I'm not OP but was >>687012
and >>687034 at least. Not autistic east Asian anon, though, I'm South Asian tyvm

No. 687600

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>>687079
Girl, as you already know… men cannot be friends with women. Hetero ones specifically. It sucks and it’s hard. And I’m sorry to hear that someone who you considered your friend, has ruined your trust. Hope he doesn’t contact you again.

No. 687601

>>687588
I take strong ass prescribed ones and theytake 2hr to do anything if even that when its the first days i know its gonna stop by sunday night but i feel so fucking bad i just wanna pass out

No. 687610

>>687117
I’ve found the only way to stop shit like this is to call them out when it happens, because it really catches people off guard when you stand up for yourself. She might not even perceive what she’s saying as potentially hurtful but you shouldn’t put up with it.

Next time she says some toxic ass shit, question her about it. She probably won’t even know how to respond and I bet she’ll never do it again

No. 687628

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I wanted to move abroad after finishing college but I'm scared that people will judge me badly because of my nationality and the stereotypes based on it. My government is already fucking me up, I don't want to be treated like a second class citizen because of some fuckwits.

No. 687630

>>687004
I love wearing masks too. I sew, so I've been making my own all this time. Been having a lot of fun matching outfits and using cute prints.

No. 687632

>>687027
All of these are super cute. Good job anon!

No. 687634

>>687628
just do it who cares about ppl, fuck em

No. 687635

>>687628
you'll regret it years later when you realize you cared more about people's stupid opinions than your own happiness

No. 687644

>>687117
All you have to do in this case is say
'wow ___, that's a rude thing to say to me.'
'___, that's a really unnecessary personal comment you made about me. It's pretty rude'
'___, please stop making comments about my work. It's not appropriate for class'
Other people are probably picking up on it too so she'll probably go silent, there's no way she can downplay it if you call her right out. You have to be really direct with these sneaky sidemouth bitches. Is she only targeting you?

No. 687658

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>>687079
Anon im happy u are smart enough to realize his bs,i send u good vibes and obviously dont feel bad for him u can't control others delusions.I think is better if he goes away but that's up to u

No. 687680

Tbh, even if I seek therapy, it will not work because anyone who wants to become a therapist has a certain personality and I don't trust them. Talking to them can only make me feel worse.

No. 687684

I love my boyfriend and we're great together, but I don't want kids and he does. Kind of kills me knowing that we'll likely break up over this eventually.

No. 687696

>>687117
You need to grey rock her. I had this exact scenario but in person with a uni classmate. I wanted to make friends and she always was down to hangout or study. But each time I left feeling like crap. It's these casual comments she dropped regularly. "Your drawing is dumb" "your sense of humor is weird" stuff like that. I don't know why someone would do that, but I think she didn't realize or thought it was playful?
Basically I put my foot down and started replying things like "That's kind of hurtful" or looking displeased. She apologized but I had had enough and avoided her after. Any time she spoke to me I was a grey rock, aka bland short uninteresting answers and no eye contact. I think she got the message since I did speak up. Since it's discord, you can say something mild in opposition but mostly ignore her and don't engage. This is what I recommend. You can hope that she will lose this habit and grow better, but don't count on it in your time with her. habits are hard to unstick. kinda wonder if it's the same person lol

No. 687715

>>687163
You'll get there, anon, normalcy is just around the corner, I promise!

No. 687716

I really want to know what the vetting process is for mods on this board, because I have a sneaking suspicion that some of them are moids.

No. 687717

People on this site:
>posting in the vent thread: ok
>posting in the vent thread but the post bothers you: "reee"

No. 687719

>>687716
> I have a sneaking suspicion that some of them are moids
I wouldn't be surprised if some of them were but what made you suspicious? Was it something recent that happened?

No. 687720


No. 687722

>>687719
Nothing in particular recently. I'm just eternally suspicious that men are secretly infiltrating every female space, especially an image board, which is a culture that they think they own apparently. I've made peace with the fact that there probably male regulars on here, but mods I can't deal with.

No. 687793

My previous experience in online dating was the usual, couples for threesomes, bisexuals looking for experimenting, "lesbians", dudes, and occasional tranny. But now not only do I get that but I also get asked by genuine women (or so I think) to start creating Only Fans content together and this happened several times in a short span even though my profile is 100% tame and I never went near that site. I'd report them but I gave up on everything. Single life it is.

No. 687821

It's only 8:30 on a Friday night and my bf is asleep beside me.
I'm so bored. He says he's tired but really all he did was wake up for a 9-5 shift at his retail job like what I do for my office one everyday. I was even up before him this morning. I know we're both older but holy shit, he still sleeps in anyway and that's the kicker.
Can't watch tv cause he's sleeping. Can't watch tv in living room cause roommate permanently occupies it and won't want to watch anything I want to.
Can't do anything late night outdoors cause it's cold.
I wish covid weren't a thing cause I'd honestly just go somewhere.

I feel like going to the kitchen and eating cause I'm so fucking bored. All I can do is be on my phone, and what do I even do with it really? Post on lolcow, scroll through social media watching people lead more interesting lives, or look at random internet shit with volume turned off I guess.
If I go to sleep now I am guaranteed to be up at 2 or 3am.

No. 687830

>>687821
Wait so you don't have headphones?

No. 687837

I hate how much less pleasurable sex is with condoms. I would never subject myself to other forms of birth control but damn… It's a shame for both partners. I think it's even worse for guys because they can barely even feel anything through the condom?

No. 687841

>>687837
Make your man use the ribbed ones? I've never heard another girl complain about not feeling as much with condoms but that should help. Also, from what I've heard from men who weren't whining to hit it raw, the difference for them is minimal.

No. 687845

>>687837
Try the lambskin ones,rubber feels gross

No. 687848

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I’m having a big depression. I’ve been isolated from everyone the majority of the year thanks to pandemic. I feel like an utter femcel and have been driven to use dating apps in hope of some social interaction but that only brings more depression with the absolute scrotes who use those sites (1. men who are unattractive 2. men with bad personalities and/or issues 3. combination of 1&2) which brings my self esteem down even more. It also almost feels every girl around me is involved in sex work of some sort. Sex work doesn’t match my current morals but I can’t help but feel a mix of undesirable and poor af, busting my ass off in a job that will never pay as high a year as these girls earn getting their vag out on the internet. Feel I’m becoming a big ball of negi toxic energy.

I just feel little to no happiness this whole year and starting to just think what’s the point anymore. (Plz don’t state the obvious to kms kek)

No. 687852

>>687848
Most sex workers dont make as much as they claim. It's a cope.

I relate to you with dating sites. The men are so gross I have just given up.

No. 687856

>>686940
why you even friends with an mtf? he's going to try to drag you into this shit

No. 687878

I have my shit together, and I hate how my peers expect me to magically be able to get their shit together. I have my shit together because I've always had my shit together. I did good in school, got a good first job after uni, got a better second job, and now I have an amazing third job. I can't pull a career out of no where for you if there's nothing to build off of. It's hard because these are my friends, I love em, you know? I just can't do anything for you if you haven't done anything for yourself. It's so frustrating. I could go on about specifics forever but I just wanted to vent in general about this.

No. 687890

>>687848
dating apps are designed to not actually get you to meet up with anyone. they're a horrid platform and it took me years to figure it out. all they want you to do is get hooked on the dopamine rush of matching. they make a "game" out of picking people and it becomes similar to a slot machine. your convos either go nowhere or when you meet up the chemistry isn't there. then you feel frustrated and think, well, maybe i should buy a membership to get all these other perks? maybe that'll help?

they're just designed like a game because they want your money. beyond that, there's a constant "what if there's someone better?" when using apps. a conversation falls flat so you just start swiping again because there's so many people, right? there's no sense of permanence or commitment. and there's no way to catch interest in the same way you could be drawn to someone organically in real life. dating apps are scum. get rid of them.

No. 687893

I will never get over this day. I am so thankful for kind people in the world. I see you and you are loved.
A customer at work today lost her absolute mind because one of her drinks was made wrong. She asked me if it was the right drink and I said yes (because that's what was on the ticket). Why are you yelling at me when all I do is bring the order out to you? I fucking told her she was right, it was the wrong drink after hearing what she actually wanted. But that wasn't good enough for her. I told her I'll be right back with her drink and she said "Yeah and bring your manager out here because you're about as dumb as rocks". Thank the heavens I held the composure to simply say "Actually, I'll give you the manager's contact and you will not be serviced here today". The interaction was still embarrassing, there were other customers around hearing this lady tear into me while I just repeatedly tell her she was right. So each person I serviced afterwards asked me if I was okay and I had to say yes through a stream of pathetic tears. But one lady called me over, ensured me that "some people are just dickheads" and gave me a tip. I thanked her then walked away and examined it. She had given me $105. I was shaking, I couldn't even believe it. I had to go back to her and clarify. She confirmed she meant to give it to me and I just let out all the tears I had built up. She got up and hugged me in freezing weather. She overheard the lady belittle me telling me I only make $2 an hour and I won't be getting a tip from her (which doesn't mean much, I don't receieve tips most days anyway). I still can't believe this. I hope the kind woman who did this for me has a blessed and amazing life. Thank you so much for your kind words. Thank you so much for not only the incredible tip, but for hugging me and showing me you care. My heart is full because of you. You gave me the strength to finish my shift. I will be grateful for you forever. I'm crying again just thinking about it.

No. 687896

>>687586
It lasted for seven hours, got ok enough for me to fall asleep with a few melatonin and now it's back I am gonna fucking cry I needed to do shit today, I already have chronic pain and feel like a fucking bummer on regular basis and now this. I know I have friends who have it so much worse, some bleed like crazy but I'd rather bleed more if it meant less pain I feel like i am going insane

No. 687900

>>687890
I don't know what dating apps you use, but I don't just single in on one person. I talk to a bunch then whittle them down to who I actually want to meet. They can fancy the platform and add as many perks as they want the end result is there's a person on the other side and if they're shit it's hardly the apps fault or someone better is behind a paywall. People are dumb

No. 687904

I just want to stab myself over and over and over again and scream. I don't like pain and I also don't physically self-harm, and I don't even feel especially suical I think, but yet here I am, with that weirdass impulse. All I feel is trapped.

No. 687906

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I'm really glad I lost weight, being fat was a horrible fate. I feel so sad when people make images like this.
I'm happy to be able to walk up a flight of stairs without perishing. I'm happy I will live longer. Eating upwards of 2500 calories a day, having no logic or rules around what I place into my body and calling it "intuitive eating" and "treating yourself" is slow death.
In fact, all the things on the right were far worse when I didn't think seriously about my health and body.

No. 687915

>>687906
Lots of the things on the right have been true for me while losing weight… and it's still 100% worth it. Everything is better when you feel physically comfortable in your body.

No. 687938

>>687893
This is so lovely. Sorry you had to put up with that lady and I'm glad most people were looking out for you.

No. 687941

My sister's bf was tested positive for covid and now we all have to get a fucking test. Since I heard, I've felt like I had a cold coming on and I can't decide whether I'm just imagining things, actually have a cold or it's the first signs of covid. Uuuuuuugh whyyyyyy.

No. 687979

I had some friends online two of which started dating and there's some drama with one of them cheating and my friend and I were chatting about it. I still have a tumblr blog but just use it as a kind of online journal and I kinda ranted about how people I knew were doing shitty things to other people..and one of the people involved apparently stalked me and found the post and replied that they were angry with me and honestly the whole thing is so weird and embarassing. I don't want to worry about it because it's all just dumb but I wish I had never posted anything and that hadn't happened I feel like an idiot

No. 688008

>>687722
It's a save bet that there are many moids here. Some troon, some not.

No. 688011

I hate how everything I say I regret. I have these moments where I'm 100% sure that what I say is right and what I feel. But then a day later I realize that I hurt people with it and I regret being an asshole. Can I please become a full asshole that doesn't care, or stop acting like an asshole without realizing?


Disclaimer: "everything" is not meant literally

No. 688015

Waah waah everything's closed again, I just wanna sit in a beautiful cafe garden with my friends and drink hot mulled wine and chat cozily wrapped in blankets, whineee whineee I can't even go see a show, can't partake in my hobbies and sports, waa- eh fuck it, it's going for a walk and then playing Sims again for me today, had to get this out of my system. Also, I will get drunk.

No. 688032

>>687852
I guess it is a cope and they do exaggerate, but even doing the mental gymnastics of how many subs they have times their fees it kind of makes me feel like a pauper. I try remind myself that at least I somewhat have my dignity and am not prostituting myself online for a bit of cash but the struggle at times is real.

>>687890
Yeah I agree so so much, funnily enough I was watching a youtube video about this yesterday by Ordinary Things. I always end up deleting the app in a ragequit because every match convo fizzles out in a week where I image their eye has wandered elsewhere, and if it hasn’t fizzled out the guy is usually a pestering nut job messaging 24-7 and I distance myself because it’s a bit red flag. Then weeks later I end up back again out of boredom and loneliness. The app I use I only stick to the section of people who have already liked me to avoid wasting my time swiping, so have never felt the addiction of swiping but I can’t speak for the people on the other end who probably are. How can anyone meet anyone during all this covid shit?

No. 688057

>>688015
that sounds really nice I mean the playing sims and getting drunk. Have a nice day

No. 688065

I truly don't understand my mom's obsession over my hair. We're asian and naturally have very dark and thick hair, but my mom has been dying my hair blonde ever since I was a baby and tries to pass me off as a white girl. Her reasoning is that I look "plain" with dark hair and don't stand out, and that being blonde matches my personality (I'm an introvert aspie…. so that makes zero sense) and makes me more "attractive". My hair has been breaking off rapidly in the past seven months and I'm not sure how to salvage it without pissing my mother off. The bald jokes my friends make about me are absolutely hilarious and make me feel slightly better kek

No. 688067

>>688065
That sounds like your mom has some serious internalized racism that she's projecting onto you. Why doesn't she dye her own hair? I say don't salvage it and let her enjoy the fruits of her insane logic

No. 688072

>>688067
That's crazy. Anon, please don't wreck your hair.

>>688065
How old are you? Why is she still dictating what you do with your appearance?

No. 688076

>>688065
I don't even know your mother and I genuinely hate her kek.

No. 688084

>>688065
This is so weird to me since I'm Asian and have always personally wanted to bleach my hair blonde but my parents (especially my dad) is vehemently against it because we're Asian and I'm meant to have jet black hair. Anyway, I hope you can speak to your mom about it because soon you might not have any hair to bleach if she keeps frying it for you.

No. 688086

I cant tell if I'm being emotionally abused or if I'm just too sensitive.

No. 688089

>>688065
I assume you're an adult since you're posting here, why are you even allowing her to force you to bleach your hair?

No. 688091

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i work part time as a student assistant at a university library and a new sa got hired recently. i had my first shift with him last week (we are always 2 ppl working together at the same time) and jesus christ this guy has the most annoying personality and will not stfu!!!! he literally kept talking non-stop for the entire 6.5 hour shift.

i can't imagine having another shift with him without repeatedly bashing my head into a wall. he acted overly familiar with me and tried sooo hard to get me to like him. at one point he would ask me questions like "what's the craziest travel experience you've had" and "what is your favorite food" and i was just thinking wtf is this a first date. he was so intense and would constantly make these bad sarcastic jokes.

he would show vague signs of self reflection by saying shit like "ahaha sorry here i am annoying you again!" and i wouldn't respond i would just look at him. his non-stop talking prevents students who need our help from approaching us because we look busy/they don't want to disrupt our convo.

my boss told me to be welcoming towards him because i have a "warm" personality and he is new. she is a very sweet and non-confrontational person so i don't want to go to her about this minor "issue". i gave obvious signs of not wanting to have these long ass convos with him, but he didn't pick up on any of them. i guess i was too polite, smh.

No. 688092

God has a special place in hell for me

No. 688093

>>688072
>>688089
I live with her and have nowhere else to go. She's the type of person who will kick me out over trivial things.

No. 688094

I have a hard time believing reality is real

No. 688106

>>688093
Bait her into buying you a blonde wig under the pretense that it looks more realistic (or whatever) so you can stop killing your hair and you can take it off when you're at uni/work/around friends etc.

No. 688122

>>688106
If she's that controlling, she won't let her wear a wig and avoid bleaching her hair for long, not enough to repair damage. If her hair is falling out, she needs to stop.

I can believe she has a psycho mom, but is she truly dependent on her and as an adult? If so, that's what really needs fixing… but she's probs an underage poster, and won't admit it kek.

No. 688125

>>688094
Do you think you might be disassociating?

Symptoms of a dissociative disorder:

-feeling disconnected from yourself and the world around you.
-forgetting about certain time periods, events and personal information.
-feeling uncertain about who you are.
-having multiple distinct identities.
-feeling little or no physical pain.

No. 688130

I have never met a decent man. Men have been ruining my life since day one. Started with me dad busting my two front teeth out and my brother molesting me. Then when I started dating them and they were all shit. Is it possible to find a cute guy who isnt a piece of shit?I keep looking for it but I havent found it in 30 years so I dont think its gonna happen. My dream man probably doesnt exist.

No. 688134

>>688130
It feels so hopeless anon. I like to believe there are some great men out there but men, at least the ones near me, have continued to behave in a disappointing and male way. My hope and light gets squashed each day, I feel I might never be familiar with a sweet, hardworking, kind man. That he only exists in my dreamworld.

No. 688135

>>688130
They're a pain in the ass, but yes, they're out there. Holy shit, busting your teeth out is truly something. I assume that they didn't do fuckall about your brother.

No. 688136

>>688135
To this day I still have to wear dentures lol also I dont think anyone knew about the molesting becuz I never told anyone.

No. 688138

>>688125
Unlikely she has that.

No. 688147

One of my earliest memories is in my first year of primary school and older boy pupil came into the girls toilets while I was sitting in a stall, kicked the door opened and then kicked me in vagina. It was bleeding and I had to go tell the teacher and I don't even know if I could have even identified the boy. I still have issues with going to the bathroom if anyone I don't feel comfortable with is about. It's obviously a self conscious hang up. I remember I was at an exes house before and when I went to his bathroom I locked the door and he actually shouted "don't lock the door I'm not going to hurt you…" or something like that and it just made my panic worse. I am so envious of people that can shit so easily in front of others, I can't even calmly do it when others are on the other side of the door.

No. 688157

imsad my mom started screaming and cursing at me for doing something she ask me to do "wrong" i calmly say why she didn't do it herself and show me what i did so horribly wrong so i can fix it and she responded with more insults like a manic person,i hate where i live fuck corona fuck parents fuck my life everytime she gets mad it makes me cuestion my existence i didnt ask her to give me life i dont think is my fault she couldn't go to uni and be succesful if i could kill myself and give her the future she wanted i would.I feel like my whole being is just a problem for the people who is supposed to care for me.Since i was 5 i have memories of my mom telling im a usseles piece of shit,i always try to make her happy and proud just yesterday we were talking about skincare and everything was okay but 12 hours passed and nice mom is gone.Can someone please tell me how to ignore this anguish.

No. 688169

>>688147
>went to his bathroom I locked the door and he actually shouted "don't lock the door I'm not going to hurt you…"

This is very weird and would panic me, and I haven't experienced any random attacks like you did. Why question why someone wants privacy when pissing?

No. 688178

>>688169
He later did break my nose so it probably was a red flag.

No. 688182

Every time I eat something that I think of as unhealthy, I get really anxious and scared. It's not a physical condition because some of them are pretty innocuous foods, like pasta and bananas, but I start panicking because I feel as though I can feel the fat clotting or that my heart is going super fast because it's so unhealthy I'm going to have a heart attack. For example, both yesterday and today I had fried tofu and both times I tried to get rid of the anxiety by pacing around for an hour and then showering. The other day I ran five miles in the morning (unrelated to these thoughts) after not doing much activity throughout quarantine and today my legs are sore, predictably, but I can't help but be more aware of it after having that meal and I feel like it's immobility from obesity, even though I'm a normal weight. It just makes me feel so dirty and gross, but I don't think it's an eating disorder because I eat pretty normally regardless of these feelings, it just causes me a lot of stress when I do so it's more like an extension of my anxiety. It just sucks because I don't have much money for groceries at the moment so I'm just having our basics, like rice, pasta, frozen fruit, canned beans, etc. but it's driving me really crazy, combined with being mostly sedentary because I work from home. I did gain weight during quarantine so maybe that's why, but I feel like I get really scared when I "enjoy" a food too much, I'd rather just have a diet of bland foods that provides all my nutritional needs even if it doesn't taste good.

No. 688185

>>688178
Holy fuck, I am so sorry. Fuck that bitch.

No. 688197

>>688182
Anon, you don't have to be severely underweight to have an eating disorder. Overly exercising and feeling dirty because you eat something tasty is definitely not healthy at all. I don't know if I am able to give you a good advice since I am still struggling with that myself, but the first step is to admit that you have an eating disorder even if it's atypical. You punish yourself for eating and that isn't a way to go. Food inherently is not good or bad, it just there to provide nutrition. I hope you can overcome your struggles anon.

No. 688198

>>688182
Maybe you're leaning towards orthorexia? Not saying you have an ed but anxiety of eating something unhealthy and a fixation on meating nutrional needs are symptoms.

No. 688258

I HATE how people make a big fuss over wearing masks. Asian countries have been wearing them for years, but for some reason everyone here thinks it’s some kinda conspiracy and all the tinfoilers come out full force. Fuck, it’s literally just so you don’t spread your disgusting germs all over the place. Because most of you can’t even cover your mouths when you cough. UGH

No. 688260

>>688182
>pasta and bananas
>fried tofu
this isn't even unhealthy anon. there are people that recook and sell McDonald's leftovers to survive. the human body is amazing and capable and can survive so much and you're definitely not mistreating it with your current lifestyle. you aren't inactive, you move, you do chores or go for walks and you feed yourself. you'll be fine and you're healthy. you seem to be emotionally unwell though and I wish you the best for that

No. 688262

>>688260
I don't think how healthy her fear foods are really matters considering the context of obvious orthorexic tendencies. Disordered eating doesn't follow logic.

No. 688284

>>688106
>>688122
No, I'm 18, I'm going off to uni next August. My mom won't even let me get a job, and I feel really pitiful about it knowing how much my friends have made over the past two years working.

The funny thing is, my mom wears wigs too but she lost her hair after getting a thyroid removed. I'll try convincing her to wear a wig while my hair tries to recover. Thanks, anons!

No. 688289

I would do anything, ANYTHING at all for even one friend who I could spend my time with and truly connect with. I'm perfectly alone and I realized this a week ago when I tried contacting some people to talk or hang out, only to be blown off by all of them. And this is a consistent pattern; I reach out, but people are always "busy" or have some excuse to not talk with me. It's like, absolutely everyone I meet has someone better to talk to at all times, and people only talk to me when they themselves have no one. I just don't get it. I'm friendly, outgoing, and positive, but not overly obnoxious or weird to warrant people to stay away from me or to drop contact. I've been trying to rationalize what move I could even make now; fuck, I'd even pay for someone to spend time with me, that's how desperate I am. I can't even believe my 19th birthday is later this month and that… nobody cares. Not even one person. It hurts so bad, and I don't know what more I could do than what I've already tried.

No. 688291

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i put my head through my door today cause my CPTSD flashbacks were too much for my morning brain to handle. every day i wake up seething knowing that had men not existed, i would not be broken like this. i would have been so full of light and life. i've been reduced to fractions of a person by the hands of men i just genuinely loved and wanted to be around. i know this sounds so edgy and retarded but i just daydream about going full Aileen Wuornos mode until I die just to try and even the score. this hate consumes me and i have no idea where to put it. i hope one day i will not hurt like this. so much is inflicted upon us in every direction, i wish divine intervention was real and that something out there would spare us from this violence and sickness. i think we all deserve better than we have been given. if you somehow can't relate to any of this then i am genuinely brought some peace to hear that, that its possible, even if only for a few people to not have to ever feel this. i want to feel like that. i think i would trade everything to feel that. saged because i'm genuinely embarrassed for being this raw on an imageboard, fuck

No. 688293

Apologies for the autistic sperg but every entitled asshole who I have had to deal with at work today can go buy themselves a first class ticket to hell.

Like nigga, you are getting $200 back on your credit card but then want to cuss me out over the $12 (free) gift card we HAVE to give you because YOU paid with a reward partially on your transaction.

No, I cannot override your 90 day return, we have had this policy for a year, screaming won’t help. Yes, please call the manager who will tell you the same thing I have said. Yes, please complain, because corporate doesn’t give two shits and will just laugh in your face.

And please why is it my fault or my coworker’s that we cannot magically find your card that you know we need to make a return without a receipt? Why is it so hard to tell me how you paid for your returns so I can properly give you your money back?

Fuck I am so sorry guys you have to read my bullshit but I had a cry at work because I am getting yelled at by customers over the dumbest shit.

No. 688317

I could honestly really do with talking properly to my friend group from back in 6th form, who are still mostly my closest friends, over Zoom. I'm not a gamer at all but I don't mind playing some basic online games like Among Us and Spies with them, because it's what they're mostly into. But recently one girl who I'm not particularly close with has started inviting her 7 year old brother onto the calls. I just haven't been turning up recently because it's so awkward! It's not like they're both at home together and he weasels his way onto the call - she's at university in a different city, he's at their family home, and he gets given a link every week to go on the zoom call that should be for our friend group. We're all 19 or 20 and in our second year of uni, it's so weird to me. We can't swear or play games that aren't child friendly when he's on (our irl gatherings were usually full of innuendo, it's lame but a big part of our friendship) and I'd feel so weird discussing any part of my personal life in front of him - obviously we're all young adults so that would involve some love/sex/emotion discussion.

I really want to raise this with them because it's preventing me from having a social life, but I know it would hurt her, I'm fairly sure she's slightly autistic and she's also really into kids media (like Disney shows and tween lit) and quite religious while being asexual as well. I fear she's just using her brother to avoid hearing us talk about sex stuff. I'm worried our other friends will side with her and accuse me of having a vendetta - they can't really enjoy this gathering of 5 female university students and 1 young boy, can they? It was cute for about 10 minutes once, but now he's on every call, twice a week. Anons does this sound weird and what would you do?

No. 688372

Well I'm a retard who just wasted months and months of not relapsing and relapsed my self harm habit, after weeks of having to deal with a new coworker I can't stand, severe family abuse and neglect, overwhelming sexual frustration I can't cope with having to do with someone I can't be with. I spent the entirety of quarantine after having a relapse in January 2020 pre covid not self harming even though I wanted to except for a couple cigarette burns and I just drew a fucking crosshatched pattern all over my thighs with a knife. I'm so disgusted by myself right now. I held it together for such a long time despite all the bullshit I put up with and the additional mental stressors put on by isolation, I coped so hard with it when I wanted to double down and relapse. And now I did. I'm such a fucking retard.

No. 688380

I miss my abusive ex and I know he was a shit and that it would never be a good idea to be with him and I burned bridges there anyway and even though I've been dating and have a date tomorrow I cannot get my ex out of my head. I want him. I miss him. I hate him. I can't even get excited about this dude I'm seeing tomorrow. He's just not him.

No. 688386

>>688291
just want you to know that while i don't have cptsd from men i also fantasize about going on a rampage and just killing a bunch of males. so many men have harmed so many women. so many male spree killers targeted women… i want to make up for it. i want men to feel the same fear and pain we do. but of course, i won't do that… while i don't think it's healthy i also think it's normal to cope with trauma from shitty men by feeling this way. you aren't' alone.

No. 688401

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>>688291
I hope it gets better for you anon. Scrotes ain't shit

No. 688405

>>688291
Aileen did nothing wrong

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>>688291
You are correct, let it out. Sorry that you feel this way anon, it’s not uncommon.
>>688405
Based

No. 688441

>>688258
viruses aren't germs.
>hey look at this retarded country over there lets all do that because they've been doing it for years
Yeah lets all look at africa and put discs in our lips because they're so smart for jumping on a retarded bandwagon

No. 688448

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>>687228


Daga Kotowaru!

No. 688452

The place I grew up in is so depressing. 2 old classmates of mine have froze to death this year because they passed out drunk in some field trying to get trying to get to a party. There has been 4 murders in the past 3 years and the population of the community is under 1000 people. The graduating class the year before covid was 2 out of 10 kids. It was pretty bad when I lived there but fuck. I need to stop checking up on the place. Sometimes I think about getting into some sort of career that could do some good for the community, as shitty as it could be I have a lot of good memories.

No. 688453

>>688452
eskimo land?

No. 688456

>>688441
Do you genuinely think all of Africa puts disc in their lips, anon?

No. 688458

>>688456
No, and neither does all of Asia wear masks everywhere for no reason, but even if they did it wouldn't be a reason to do it, which was the point I was making. Herb behavior is for dumb animals, so dumb nature had to invent predators to cull their retarded asses

No. 688460


No. 688462

>>688458
>for no reason
Wasn’t the point of >>688258 that they wear masks to reduce disease transmission?

No. 688464

>>688458
Also viruses are germs, they're pathogens. I see the point you're trying to make but I was under the impression plenty of east asian countries wear have been wearing masks when they are sick for years. A quick Google search tells me it's a reaction to the SARS outbreak that happened in those areas. It's hardly for no reason.

No. 688466

>>688462
People in the middle ages had plague doctors wear bird like beaks filled with flowers because they thought it prevented the catching of diseases. There are no studies that show they actually work, especially not with how most use them like using the same for too long they become germ catching nets that make you more likely to catch one. Washing hands is effective, mask fascism is pure retardation(keep covid talk in the covid thread)

No. 688489

>>688462
Honestly, don't argue with them. They're one of those people, so it really doesn't matter what you say.

No. 688510

Does my mom really gotta come all the way downstairs at 11 pm and shove my door open to tell me that the kimchi I ate stinks? I even took it to my room before I opened it. One day she's gonna barge into my room when I'm masturbating and she'll probably get all mad about it

No. 688535

I can hear my neighbor sweeping up all the glass from the floor of her apartment after throwing what sounded like an entire collection of glasses/dishware at the wall while screaming at her man on the phone. It's been going on for a while but tonight was by far the worst. I don't know the details but I feel really sorry for her. I think he might be cheating or something based on what bits I managed to make out.

No. 688545

I feel like I’m going to drop out of college and my parents will be super disappointed in me… I just wanted to help them out after they retire and I can’t even finish this shitty computer science degree. I feel so awful for letting them down and not studying enough. I just want to end my life without looking back and ending this lasting pain

No. 688547

>>688372
I'm sorry for replying in the vent thread, but I really want you to know that you didn't waste anything. Consider how many days you succeeded vs how many you didn't - you're definitely moving in the right direction. No one is perfect, don't let this event spiral you backwards.

No. 688552

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my dad died six months ago from covid and my drinking has been bad but i've been attempting to get it under control. i started working out two weeks ago and i'm starting to feel the results. have no one else to tell

No. 688558

People think I’m still skinny because of genetics or whatever but I know it mainly because I’ve fucked up my metabolism so much that what I ate at around 4pm is still what I throw up now when I get drunk at midnight.

Like. I have basically have a maintained eating disorder. It’s the right level of messed up that I cannot talk to people about it but also at the point where people notice I’m at a questionable weight

No. 688564

I love my boyfriend, but he is the worst musician I have ever heard. I'd never tell him but I cannot even describe to you how disturbingly bad he is at both playing instruments and singing. He does neither of these outside of our home (thank god) because it is downright shameful. In five years I haven't seen him improve even slightly despite always playing fucking music, he just keeps fucking around horribly between "Blackbird" by the Beatles (a song he learned 12+ years ago) and the fucking Simpsons intro. I can't begin to describe how much I would trade my blood for silence. I'd never tell him, I actually try to encourage practicing from a book or teacher but then he fingers between "Blackbird" and "The Simpsons Intro Theme" ad nauseam. He has such a poor ear for music that he can't tune a guitar with the aid of a fucking tuner. I would rather listen to streetcats having sex. A lot of the instruments he plays are mine and I've debated accidentally breaking some of them while cleaning to escape for a bit. It's like he hears silence and every fibre in his body feels the need to extinguish it like a fire. I envy the deaf. I genuinely do not understand how someone can't tell that they naturally blow ass at something and feel zero drive to improve despite "loving music". He records himself, hears it played back, and is like "that was pretty great, honestly!" without so much as a flinch. Every single note is wrong. He has no idea what the notches on the fretboard are for or where you're supposed to press. He couldn't strike a G-chord if a gun were placed to his head- and he has been playing for at least 15 years.

Genuinely baffled. I'm currently sitting in silence but it feels like I have shellshock and I'm just waiting for the next noise to hit.

My dad went deaf early and sometimes I wish the same for me despite loving music, myself.

No. 688566

>>688552
good on you anon. keep taking care of yourself, i hope you feel better soon.

No. 688570

>>688566
thank you <3 i'm climbing out of my black hole and it feels good to

No. 688571

>>688564
> I would rather listen to streetcats having sex.
BAHAHA.

he sounds insufferable and either dumb as a box of rocks or really narcissistic…

No. 688577

>>688453
yeah, close enough.

No. 688584

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>>688564
> My dad went deaf early and sometimes I wish the same for me despite loving music, myself.
Anon I laughed throughout your whole post, and this was a perfect cherry on top. Oh my god you’re a good supportive gf. Let it all out.

No. 688604

>>688547
ayrt it means a lot to me for someone to tell me that. I've only told my friends who've also self harmed about it (aside from here) and they were very accepting but it's very difficult to tell or explain to anyone who's never done it and to me there's something so humiliating and shameful that I can't even tell one of my best friends every time I do it because she's never been a self harmer. It takes me months to admit it to people who don't self harm if I ever tell them, and I never tell my family because they're shitheads who'll blame and shame me and try and institutionalize me without understanding that self harm doesn't equate to suicide attempt

I am glad that I managed to make it this far without a massive episode. I feel selfish ranting about me alone knowing a lot of people are suffering now, but I hope things go back to normal sooner rather than later. this year has been me trying to test my spirituality just to see how long my hope in futile and silly obsessions and my waning faith would take me before I hurt myself again and over six months is pretty good. I guess I'll take that. I'm not a positive person by default and I beat myself up when this happens but the good thing is that my pent up anger won't be so prominent now and hopefully it will be a long time before this happens again

No. 688610

>>688564
I'm imagining the Simpsons intro plucked off-key on a guitar and I can't fucking handle it anon I'm dead. Thank you for writing this, hoping you achieve peace one day lmao.

No. 688625

Reading the news about that poor woman who got killed by being left out in the cold by the russian streamer and in the comments an idiot from my country was saying that he felt so bad for THE FETUS because it can't ask for help but he isn't sorry about the woman.

Every day i want to believe there is some hope when the right wing propaganda dies out but it's getting hard.

No. 688632

I swear to God I am a genetic anomaly and my parents genes just fucked me up. There's just so much weird shit about me. I have double jointed fingers, I can bend my thumbs back, and I have a weird gil thing on my ear, I am hyper mobile and get extremely suicidal on my period. I also have OCD and I just? What went wrong when I was in the womb? I am cursed

No. 688641

uterus prolapse is the scariest thing I’ve read today. I didn’t even know that thing could prolapse.

No. 688649

>>688632
>gil thing on my ear
you know I need more info than that, fam

No. 688651

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I genuinely can't remember the last time I had a good friend.

It all started going downhill once I was in high school. All of my friends from middle school went to a different high school and no one kept in touch with me at all. I didn't have the courage to contact my middle school friends so I never saw them again. My other friend who ended up attending the same school as me was away for a good chunk of the time (they even dropped out at one point) . But I already had issues with her. She had obnoxious tendencies. Every time we went out I'd get embarrassed because of how loud and offensive she was at times. And if I tried to tell her how offensive she was being she'd say I was acting lame. She also could NEVER take no for an answer. If I declined to do something she'd keep on pushing me until I caved in and said yes. When I came over to her house she'd almost always be arguing with her mom which made things awkward and uncomfortable. And it often was over the stupidest things ever. I sympathized for her mom because she really was too much to handle. She once made me participate in this elaborate scheme where she pretended to meet up with an older guy off facebook to make her parents worry as revenge for being mad at them. Like what the fuck? What kind of diabolical person do you have to be where you want to make others suffer just because you're mad at them. I could never understand her thought process. I could write more things I hated about her but I'd go past the character limit. I really wanted to stop being friends with her but didn't know how to end things. However shortly after her dad passed away in 2017. I felt really awful trying to end our friendship after right she lost her dad so I continued to be friends with her. She has mellowed down since dad's death so things haven't been that bad. But now I'm starting to realize that we never had much in common. Sometimes I find myself being a little too bored when we hang out, if we ever do. We went from hanging out every other day to seeing each other 2-3 times a year. I guess part of that is because we're older now and have more responsibilities. But I also think it might be because we're naturally drifting apart. If that's the case then I welcome it. I did enjoy some of the times I had with her and I definitely leaned a lot about myself while we were together. But I think I outgrew her and our friendship and it's time I moved on to the next phase of my life.

No. 688662

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>>688545
I feel you it's been really hard for me to do school at home ever since the pandemic. I'm going to have to drop out of all my classes since I haven't done any of my assignments. It sucks hard but hey what can you do. If computer science is something you really want to do I say keep pushing. Sometimes you have to fail a million times in order to succeed. Retake your classes next semester if you need to and try again. You got this anon I believe in you.

No. 688675

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>>688649
I'm a retard who spelled gill wrong but this thing. It's disgusting and needs to be clean out

No. 688677

>>688675
….what thing? The hole? Isn't that just a piercing?

No. 688683

>>688675
>preauricular sinus
it doesn't
you can't flex it at all, can you?

No. 688694

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>>688677
>>688683
Here's a better idea of what it looks. Some evolutionary biologist thinks they are remnant of gills but it's just a birth defect lmao. I wish I could do cool shit with it but it just gets gunk build up.

No. 688708

This quarantine has made me clearly see that no one in my life gives a ahit about me. I will live my life selfishly now.

No. 688709

>>688694
Looks cute, pity about the gunk.

No. 688738

My parents have neglected me all my childhood. I neglected myself afterwards. Now I'm almost in my 30s, I have nothing, my body is grotesque, most people are fed up with my shit etc. etc.

Why continue? How could I ever not regret wasting the first 30 years of my life? How can I ever catch up?

No. 688747

I'm in a relationship for the second time in my life (after some nice trauma from the first one years ago) and this time around I refuse to shave my vagina and my asshole. I hated shaving my vagina (though I did it willingly), and I was literally forced into shaving my asshole before. Why should I have to? I don't mind having hair there. It doesn't do any harm. Yeah I'll snip it if it gets too long but that's about it. Why should I have to feel like my pussy and ass need to be bald eagles to be attractive?

No. 688752

i had a horrific, long dream about getting an abortion. i don't understand why our brains torment us like this. i thought it was real, i was in there for hours. my mother was guilt-tripping me as i told her. i had to drive up to the clinic and there were anti-abortion protestors. i just don't get it. i NEVER have good dreams, i either don't remember them or i have nightmares like this.

No. 688754

Run into a scrote blog
>lots of bitching about how men are supposedly always the bad ones, while he can never meet an irl princess as all women are whores with mental issues and complicated lives
>'That was a good day. There was sex, there was an paycheck, now there is beer'.
I don't know why, but it made me barf. The way he talks about sex the same way you might talk about taking a giant shit. Like there was no other person involved and it's just this pleasurable thing that happened to you.
>constant stream of 'I love women!!! they are so beautiful and sexy and they have titties and vaginas and you can sex them!!!'
>uwu nobody ever tells me that I am special :( unless it's cause I fucked them that good.
>reeee how dare you friendzone me when I jumped through the hoops for you and didn't compare you to my perfect ex
I wish people like him would just shut the fuck up. They're insufferable

No. 688755

>>688754
males have brain damage from being raised to think their entitlement is valid

No. 688762

>>688755
you are completely right.
he was bitching in another post how dare the woman didn't want to fuck him when he saw a fellow human being in her first and a piece of meat only later on, after some time.
I hate men like this yet I cannot stop myself from witnessing their idiocy. Why am I like this.
My only consolation is that they are never happy, always whining about women not doing whatever they want them to do, not getting enough asspats and not having where to stick their dick in.

No. 688770

>>688747
Wtf anon why you shaved your asshole

No. 688772

>>688770
Because my ex was obsessed with anal and he wanted no hair there.

No. 688785

I kind of miss when the unconventionally attractive male threads was still called “Men you’re ashamed to say you’d fuck”. I know a lot of the guys who get posted there now are conventionally attractive but every crush I get is on a male celebrity and every male celebrity I get a crush on is some mediocre looking guy with a weird ridiculous ass personality that makes me genuinely embarrassed whenever I fawn over them but I can’t help it. But I also feel this way about any crush. It wasn’t always this way. I used to have more normal crushes. I just feel so ugly and so deeply uncomfortable with everything about myself that I can’t really imagine myself in any romantic scenario without this overwhelming feeling of humiliation. It feels wrong. Not only do I feel like no guy would ever want to be that way with me but if he did he would be degrading himself by doing so. I really really wish I could just enjoy these stupid self insert fanfics I play in my head but I just become super uncomfortable whenever it happens. Even though I’m ugly I still want affection like anyone else but I don’t think I deserve to even WANT it. I’m gangly and I’m gross and I’m weird and I can’t believe that I’m still stuck in this fucking 14 year old mentality well into adulthood. I’m pretty much an incel, it’s so pathetic. I wish I was brave enough to commit suicide. I’m not doing anything with my life anyway. I’ve been a shut-in loser since way before covid.

No. 688790

>>688770
ngl it feels good to. the days following though..
sorry to intervene, continue

No. 688793

>>688790
how does putting a razor near your asshole feel good

No. 688796

>>688793
you obviously dont cut yourself..

No. 688800

>>688770
nta but I shave around my asshole too. tmi but I'm pretty hairy overall so I do it once in a while if it gets too long. Cutting it shorter gives the hair sharp edges and it's itchy

No. 688804

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My mom heard me masturbating while I thought she wasn't home and texted me, "Are you crying?"
I wasn't then, but I am now.
I'm going to fucking die of embarrassment.

No. 688805

>>688804
omfg tell her you were watching a sad commercial compilation or something

No. 688806

I wish she would stop messaging me, she bores me to death at this point.

No. 688813

>>688804
Anon just lie to her if you have the chance
My mom once literally caught me humping a pillow kek

No. 688827

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>>688793
>how does putting a razor near your asshole feel good
>>688796
>you obviously dont cut yourself..

No. 688828

>>688804
Eh that's not so bad.
I never had a door that closed when I lived at home so my mom could always peak in. One time when I was a young teen I was experimenting by trying to masturbate with a plastic carnival toy sword, which was certainly a step down from my usual rubber-ribbed hairbrush handle. My mom must have caught a peekaroo into my room cause the next thing I heard her yell was "DON'T STICK THINGS IN YOUR VAGINA!"

No. 688862

The fuck? Why is the pay in Edinburgh so.. Scottish?

No. 688863

>asks my mom to wait for me to make the Christmas tree because it's the last time we can do it together
>comes home from work
>ofc the Christmas tree is done
I swear to God she never fucking listens to me, I don't think she even remembers when I told her I was bisexual, and then she wonders why I never want to talk to her and participate in family events.

No. 688872

i want to have sex with my bf so bad but it's impossible because of covid. we haven't done it yet and whenever we spend time together we get so horny and it can't actually lead anywhere. can this nightmare just end already

No. 688873

>>688738
you've got all the time from now until you die of old age, anon. 30 isn't even half the average lifespan. I hope you learn to value your life, you deserve it despite being neglected.

No. 688885

>>688662
thank you anon! you got this too

No. 688890

Anons….I feel so stupid for staying with my bf. I know its cliche, but I love him.
The issue is he gets in these weird angry-depressive moods and ignores me for days on end. He never tells me what triggers them, just alludes to them being my fault but gets VERY mad when I ask.
When he's not like this the relationship is fabulous. I just can't deal with the emotional whiplash any more. I don't know what to do and it's eating me up. We've been together for 9 years. 9 years of this…patience is my fatal flaw it seems

No. 688893

>>688872
are you saying you're actually keeping 1,5m distance the entire time you're with your bf?

No. 688894

>>688890
Anon, this was me a year ago. The only thing that will help your boyfriend is therapy and him needing to realize his problems are internal and nothing to do with you. BTW last time a boyfriend treated me like this, he was seeing his ex-girlfriend. highly recommend you get him to admit wtf is going on in his head or you should leave. No one deserves to be treated that way.

No. 688898

>>688890
emotional abuse*

No. 688901

>>688894
Thank you anon. He is in therapy but its a slow road. He has told me a few things that seem to set him off, namely 'not being attracted to me anymore'. He's just left, I've heard the front door close. No idea where he has gone, afraid to ask because he's in one of his moods again.
I'm so fucking stupid. I should leave but I've had a bit of a shit decade, and he became my family basically for a long time.

No. 688916

>>688901
Anon, your situation sounds very close to my sister's since the last time she and I spoke. I'm sorry that you're dealing with this. The fact that he straight up said something about having problems being attracted to you is dort of a red flag though. You deserve someone who actually appreciates all of you and shows desire instead of being a pissant every time some little thing sets him off. Find a way out of your current situation and try to work on healing up from his shitty treatment before trying to meet men again.

No. 688917

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>>688901
Anon……you know what to do, I can’t even touch what you’ve said here without exploding honestly.

No. 688962

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>>687696
Sheesh, that sounds exhausting. Glad you put a foot down and stood up for yourself. I might have to do this as well, seeing as how our interests don't really match up for me to justify putting in a lot of effort into getting chummy with her. I'll call her out the next time she does it and then just distance myself from her, while still being on semi-friendly terms with her.

> I had this exact scenario but in person with a uni classmate.

We still had to go in a couple of days each week, meaning that most of the scenarios I listed happened irl. Thankfully from this week onwards we're doing online teaching only, which should give me enough time to sort it out before we have to meet up again.

>>687644
Thanks for giving me the examples! I usually just tend to downplay it, seeing as how casual it all seems, but these are perfect.
>Is she only targeting you?
From what I've noticed, yeah. That might be partially because I'm the person she knows the best, seeing as how we hung out at college before meeting up again at uni. And I usually don't tend to mind being the "funnyman" of the group, as long as it's not mean-spirited.
Unrelated but: she's also one of THOSE vegans, where she will outwardly judge you and imply that you don't care about animals or that you have no discipline if you eat meat.

>>687122
>>687610
Thanks for the advice! Glad I posted in this thread.

>>687175
LOL

No. 688984

How the fuck am I supposed to lose weight without relapsing into ED? I’m at the last “acceptable” weight before I push into the “slightly overweight” BMI (160 lbs currently). I already walk at least 2 miles a day (super physically demanding job), work out as much as I can manage, eat an okay vegan diet (lots of veg, only a few processed things), watch my sugar intake. I’ve weighed the same consistently for like two years now, since my last relapse, and prior to that relapse I weighed this much too. Is this just my fucking body shape? Am I doomed to forever be a size goddamned 12? I can’t count calories, I’ve tried. That’s how I relapsed last time and lost like 20 pounds in three months. The second I go back to eating normally, even eating the same foods in the same portions, it feels like I just balloon back up. If I get any fatter, I would literally kill myself. I can’t be fat.
But I don’t wanna relapse because it’s not sustainable. I was never happy with my weight even when I was like 115lbs, I couldn’t even enjoy being almost my perfect goal weight. What am I supposed to do? Trigger myself into a relapse, lose a ton, slowly gain it back over two years, repeat this cycle until I die?

No. 688986

A person I don't know but have some mutual friends with posted earlier this week about their younger sister going missing. Today the girl was found dead, her boyfriend admitted to being the murderer. To make it worse they got the news on the day when you are supposed to exchange gifts with your family. Fuck scrotes.

No. 688988

>>688984
> eat an okay vegan diet (lots of veg, only a few processed things), watch my sugar intake.
You're on the right track, just cut off the amount you're eating!
It's as simple as calories going in and out.
I myself also got too into counting the calories, so what I did was just eat what I normally eat, just reduce the size of the portions without knowing what the numbers were.
I also got rid of the scales in my bathroom and just went off on how I myself feel about my body.
Growing up around most family members being overweight and getting told that I need to eat a "healthy portion" really fucked me over, but over time I got used to the new portion sizes.

Also 20 pounds in 3 months isn't anything bad, as long as you feel mentally well. 1.5 pounds per week seems normal if you're on a diet.

No. 688989

>>688890
>>688901
You really need to work out a way to leave, anon. I’ve been there too, staying with an abusive guy because I “loved” him, for fucking years. Like yours, my life was shitty in other ways and he sometimes provided a little comfort. But abusers want you to think like that, so they can stick around and suck you dry. At first leaving is difficult but you’re probably underestimating just how much he’s draining you - just because other shit has hurt you, doesn’t mean this isn’t having an impact.

If he’s saying he’s not attracted to you anymore, isn’t that the nail in the coffin of even the most fucked up relationship? He doesn’t want you to feel attractive because that gives you power. Fuck him. You’re cute, get out of there and work on recovering from this. Take that misplaced kindness towards him and aim it at yourself.

No. 688996

>>688984
>>688988

Also vegan, it helps if you eat meals high in protein too. I still eat lots of veg but prioritize proteins and whole grains a little more now.

No. 689042

>>688984
BMI can be pretty inaccurate, and muscle weighs more than fat so that may be why yours seems so high. I think it is possible that it's your build, you sound like you might be a little taller than average too with the numbers you've given. In general, I've found the best way to keep healthy without relapsing myself is to not focus on the numbers, but the way your clothes fit and how your body works and feels. If you can work out just fine and do the things you want to do, you probably aren't anywhere near fat.

No. 689079

When I walk into a room I INSTANTLY feel like the least liked. I feel out of place, even if let's say, I'm with a group of people I know and a newcomer comes in. I immediately think they have more standing than me despite having closer ties to the people in the room. I hate it. I don't even know what this means about me? Surely this isn't just a normal level of low-self-esteem? I want to walk into a room and for once feel like people are excited to see me.

No. 689100

Winter blues and an art block?fuck no.summer needs to come back NOW

No. 689113

I literally want to an hero. I live by myself and have self isolated pretty much all year and working from home so I see no one. I have tried to die but always chicken out which makes me feel even more pathetic and even more of a failure kek. I don’t even know what I can do to fix this because of the pandemic it’s not like I can be socially proactive. I’ve been trying to watch new shows, do DIY and other things to keep me occupied but it’s like trying to fill a square hole with a circle object. My “friends” don’t really help either, insert 1 of 2 responses - sad face or “same… so anyway—”

No. 689115

>>689079
This is the definition of low self-esteem. It sounds like you have no actual evidence to suggest that everyone in any given room you walk into is of a higher social standing than you.

No. 689119

>>689113
>>689113
I'm going through the same thing. You not alone.

No. 689121

>>688893
no, i meant we have nowhere to do it. he can't come over to mine and i can't go over to his for obvious reasons (we live with our parents).
I JUST WANNA HAVE SEX WITH THIS MAN AAAAAAAAAAA. a hotel is not an option because those shits are way too risky in regards to COVID… god knows who has been there

No. 689130

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I've been getting into the Hart family car crash (where two white lesbian moms committed murder-suicide on their six black children after years of abuse) and it makes me mad how many people are willing to vouch for these two pieces of shit. Is it because they were both attractive and good at taking pictures? I don't get it.

No. 689134

>>688785
Late but anon are you me? I feel this exact same way about relationships and I also feel like I'm undeserving of even the slightest bit of affection or attention. I could have written your post myself, I relate so much. Tbh, the best thing you can do is go to therapy for this kind of issue, and if you have racing bad thoughts that bring you into a spiral, try to do cognitive behavioral therapy to recognize those thoughts are irrational and damaging in the moment and then to change them. I've terrorized so many of my own good relationships because of this exact thinking so please, try to get help if you can and remember that you do deserve to be loved. Everybody deserves a chance at love as long as they aren't irredeemably evil or some shit, and I doubt you are. Wishing you the best!

No. 689141

>>689130
This case makes me so sad. A lot of people were aware the children were being abused and yet they weren't taken away from the parents.

No. 689151

>>689130
You know exactly why some people would defend them.
Just a sad and fucked up case all around.

No. 689156

>>689151
Just curious, why do you think people would defend them?

The couple didn't seem to have a lot of close friends, but they went to a lot of music festivals. A lot of their music festival friends seem fine with what happened or they're definitely not willing to condemn such vile shit. My idea is that people turn a blind eye to others in their own "tribe" because their identity can't handle it. Like when people say that someone couldn't be a murderer because they went to church all the time. These women were part of a different religion, just one full of hippies.

No. 689158

>>689141
What baffles me is that three of the kids had an aunt who wanted to adopt them but the kids were given to the Harts instead. A lot of time it's not so obvious what's best for the kids (because a lot of foster care really sucks) but part of this tragedy could have been easily avoided.

No. 689160

>>689156
>My idea is that people turn a blind eye to others in their own "tribe" because their identity can't handle it
This, but also on a wider scale. Two privileged women take in a bunch of kids that can easily be perceived as "ghetto".
No matter what happens, no matter how evil the two might be behind closed doors, there will be a subset of people ready to insist they were more good than harm for those children.

No. 689166

The actress in the thread pic is so fucking weird looking in a bad way and I hate when people try to insist that she's attractive.

No. 689170

>>689166
I hereby banish all Shelley Duval slander to the shadow realm!

No. 689173

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>>689166
Liar. She does have a "weirdness" about her face, but it's a beautiful weird. Like those unconventional models that only have one thing off, but the rest of their face is beautiful. She had the perfect face to be in a horror movie.

No. 689187

Man, fuck work. Fuck my boss and coworkers. Might type up my resignation letter today after talking to my parents and bf about it. I don’t need to take male harassment like this.

No. 689191

>>689173
>She had the perfect face to be in a horror movie.
I mean true but she still doesn't look attractive

No. 689234

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finally met a guy that wants to get to know me properly, supports me & pushes me in the right direction, is nothing but honest and open. sadly we met online, i know what he looks like, and have interacted with his irl friends
through online games. i really want to be able to meet him because im into him. its so cringy that i like someone i met online but i wanna chase after this, he makes me happy.

No. 689237

I have 2 roommates and one of them is such a thoughtless, inconsiderate slob that it’s taking a huge toll on my mental health and honestly making me suicidal. My lease ends in about half a year and I’m going to be moving out but I feel so at my wits end. I’m extremely non confrontational but me and my other roommate have tried so many times having nice uwu talks with the slob roommate and she always tries to pin it on her ADHD + mental health to make us feel bad. Aside from uwu nice talks we have also countless (like once a week for last year) called her out in person and in group text for being a slob and asking her not to do certain things/clean up after herself. She never fucking will change. And it’s extra bad because of quarantine because we all live together. My other roommate has a lot of building tension with the slob one and it’s such a stressful situation to live in. The slob roommate left out Japanese take out on the kitchen counter and my other roommates cat got into it and literally got STUCK in the plastic takeout container and now my roommate is rightfully pissed off. I know I’m being dramatic for having suicidal ideation but this mixed with a lot of other tough things from this year are making me feel crazy.

No. 689245

i don’t think i can ever move forward from the fact that my boyfriend implied to his ex (who actually raped him) that i raped him to make her feel better.

it’s been 2 years since it happened and he told me he didn’t mean it they way, but all i want is for him is to clear it up with her.

it just makes me blind with absolute fucking rage.

No. 689248

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>>689234
>meeting online is so cringggeyyyy
who gives a shit. that's how most people meet nowadays. meet up as soon as you can (and as safely as possible) and see where things go.

No. 689249

>>689234
How far away does he live?

No. 689250

>>689248
thank you, im sorry. i definitely plan on it.
>>689249
he lives in north dakota, im in missouri.

No. 689251

>>689250
Hmm anon it’s your choice and you do what you wanna do. But keep in mind that when you start a relationship already long distance it’s really easy to hide the shitty parts of your personality, keep on the lookout for red flags

No. 689252

>>689251
im honestly not the best with red flags but he communicates really well. i think im gonna go for it 100% and hope for the best

No. 689253

>>689251
>>689250

True!! And tbh, you never truly know a person until you start living with them. That's the tricky part over LDRs.

No. 689262

The way certain leftists dehumanize people really sits wrong with me. I understand not caring about the wealthy in the capitalist context, but I've been genuinely put off by the extent. When it comes to mental health or any life problem, I've seen leftists act like it's impossible for them to have. As if they're exaggerating or should suck it up since they ""should"" be better. Yes, I know they have many advantages but idk… Even for middle class people (which ironically most of the leftists I've seen are), their empathy goes out the window. I know no one's owed emotional labor but something strikes me as really wrong. Maybe it's because I have mentally disabled family, so I've known families across the classes with disabled kids and I can only think of that and feel very very sick.

No. 689278

>>689262
They've learned to LARP that they're the oppressed lower class when they're really the selfish, pissy middle class mad that they don't have as many privileges as the upper class.
I honestly think they have even less empathy than the upper class, because while the latter might donate a bit and be ignorant otherwise, these ones will tell you "I'm basically broke myself! Stop holding me responsible for anything! By the way, you should actually stop virtue signalling and donate to me so I can buy a new console. Just existing rn is labor for me as an autistic queer nonbinary femme, talk less of using my valuable time to educate you online".

No. 689280

>>689237
Wow I'm glad I don't live with someone that has pets that get fucked just cuz I left some food out

No. 689281

>>689245
Men can't get raped sis

No. 689283

>>689245
Are you the stripper-anon that blogposted about this alleged female rapist ex (you already know he cheated on you with her, end of) and how hurt you are that your boyfriend still talks to her (and that he might even go back to her), posted your face here, admitted to stalking her on social media and later LARPed as the ex here while insisting you're a wealthy sex worker who buys him trips abroad and video games?
If so, how long will you humiliate yourself like this? He's not going to change. Either accept polyamory into your life or walk.

No. 689285

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found rat shit in my dirty apartment i want to kms sometimes

No. 689287

>>689285
Ik you're just venting, but your reaction is supposed to be to want to kill the pest, not to want to kill yourself.

No. 689290

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>>689262
A lot of vocal leftists (especially on Twitter) are middle class and fucking up people’s perception of the movement. It’s just a rebellious fad to them so they don’t care about the damage their Twitter ‘activism’ causes. I have a personal cow who is notorious for this, as a minor celebrity she has ended up accidentally supporting right wing views then getting mad about it.

Pic rel explains the way I think a lot of WC people think of it. Not so much thinking wealthier people “should” be better but that they have much more opportunity to get better or at least to live a more comfortable life than otherwise. It still sucks, but it sucks much less than being in the same situation with little money.

> As if they're exaggerating or should suck it up

Funnily enough I’ve heard the same things said about working class ill/disabled people, especially wrt claiming disability benefits.

Context for pic rel is an article about the former U.K. PM whose government screwed over disabled people despite him having a severely disabled son who required 24 hour care.

No. 689291

>>689191
She does tho.

No. 689292

>>689281
can you please shut up

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No. 689294

>>689293
I said what I said. Fix your life and stop getting cucked, anon, this shit's cringy.

No. 689295

>>689292
It's the truth. They are rotten beings that have only one goal: to coom "Raping" them is helping them

No. 689296

>>689294
ur response to me is schizo tinfoil

No. 689297

>>689296
It's literally not, though. Everyone was laughing about this shit months ago, and screencaps were posted.

No. 689298


No. 689299

>>689298
Hope things get better

No. 689301

God bless therapists. I have so much stuff on my mind that I NEED to discuss. But it's a very hard topic for me so I act really really unreasonable while talking about it. So much that I can't burden my loved ones with it. But the therapist? They are payed to take my shit! They won't take it personal at all!

No. 689302

>>689301
Is that your experience? I've heard a lot of horror stories abut therapists being dicks, or just deciding they don't like people.

No. 689303

>>689302
I guess I got lucky with mine

No. 689305

What is it with Americans who love calling themselves Irish or another nationality? Why do the cling to their European ‘heritage’ despite being born and raised in America, and also most likely never leaving there, and their parents too!! People from Ireland call them plastic paddy’s. So annoying.

No. 689306

>>689295
And what if they don't "coom" from it?

No. 689308

>>689305
because american heritage is multicultural and not exactly a monolith. every holiday has essentially been copied from other older countries, the defacto language is also copied, same with cuisine. there is nothing original except extreme capitalism so people cling to defining themselves as unique or different against their peers in order to feel superior.

No. 689309

>>689305
I agree with >>689308, but as far as specifically Ireland goes, isn't there something about a US born citizen being able to acquire Irish citizenship or go through Irish naturalization if they have an Irish-descendent parent/grandparent, or a family member with Irish citizenship? Maybe that's why Irish heritage is claimed more often than other heritages.

No. 689317

>>689308
Nta and I agree with this but find it bizarre how superficial it is. Ime of Americans who call themselves “Irish” or whatever heritage nationality, they never seem to learn the language or engage with the culture in a deeper way than a tourist would. Which is weird as they seem proud and doing that would genuinely set them apart from their peers.

>>689309
Yes it goes back to Irish-born grandparents but not beyond that, so potato-famine immigrant descendants don’t have a right to citizenship.

I thought claiming Irish ancestry was a white American meme, just like the Native American great-great-grandma who was a princess.

No. 689321

>>689317
>I thought claiming Irish ancestry was a white American meme, just like the Native American great-great-grandma who was a princess.
It probably is for the majority of Americans who claim it, though I'm sure there are some who legitimately descended from Irish immigrants. The "Native American great-great-grandma" thing is completely true, though. I have older relatives who claim that, even one who claimed she had a Cherokee great-great-great-grandmother but didn't know her name or how she was related (along with constantly talking about her various English/Irish/German/Greek/Whatever ancestry) only to be visibly bothered when she took a DNA test and the results showed absolutely no indication of indigenous American ancestry. It's much more likely for an American to have European ancestry of some kind than any detectable amount of indigenous American ancestry, and even then, most Americans don't identify with any culture outside of "American".

No. 689322

>>689285
>>689287
the suicidal ideation is a more general issue that is just compounded by the rodent shitting up my place, obv im gonna kill it first

No. 689323

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No. 689324

>>689290
I was ready to be mad reading pic but it makes sense. I understand what you're saying and agree, but there's something very sickening about types like you mentioned.
I know that being wealthy grants them better resources and care, but even that has many flaws. Which speaks to how bad it is for the lower classes, for sure. Disabled people are much more likely to be abused, and I was thinking of a case in a wealthy family my mom knew where the son was violently assaulted by a well-paid "caregiver." For middle class families (like mine) we can afford a decent amount of care but even that has been a huge nightmare! People have no idea how bad it is, so I honestly can't imagine the upper class resources being that great. They throw money around but even then things will go wrong from what I've heard.
Sorry for the spergout, anyway I agree though. It's significantly easier for the rich, while not being great (I think), so for the poor it's a nightmare. I still feel uncomfortable using the word "easy" because I hate to describe people's serious struggles that way. I guess that is why I am bothered easily, but I understand the heart of the matter. Just wish people weren't so devoid of empathy at all

No. 689325

Sexuality in general and as a concept is so fucking disgusting to me, it genuinely pisses me off. That goes for "normal" common shit too, not just fetishes. I don't give a FUCK if it's ~*natural*~ it's fucking gross. Why couldn't I've been born a rock or something?

No. 689326

i hate living in this shithole. all my mom does it talk on the phone and be obnoxious. you have nothing to say you fucking retard. go mumble more bullshit you don't understand and pray to your retarded god who hates you and wants you to suffer.

No. 689329

>>689305
My guess is because american history is so ugly, it's difficult to find anything to be proud of.

No. 689331

>>689326
of course. she fucking comes in here to turn off the fan. what else am i supposed to do to cover up the noise because you can't shut the fuck up? at least she's off the phone, though i probably won't be getting any more sleep.

No. 689332

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I’m starting to get kinda chubby

No. 689335

>>689329
I know this isn’t what you meant but I’ve occasionally seen white burgers defend themselves by saying “I’m Irish, we were oppressed too!” in an attempt to distance themselves from American history. Interesting.

No. 689336

I just remembered this horrible thing from when I was 14 years old. My parents forced me to get ballroom dancing lessons (it is a thing in my country around this age) even tho I never wanted to. My self esteem was already really low because I was getting bullied at school for being nerdy, quiet and having a lot of acne & frizzy hair. So, I went to the first lesson and they made the girls stand on one side and the boys on the other. The boys should now each pick one of the girls to dance with. We were 20 girls & 17 boys, so naturally there were 3 leftover girls. I was one of those leftover girls, together with two other girls.
They made us sit in a corner of the room while the others all learned to dance. It felt absolutely horrible and I was convinced that no one will ever like me and no group of friends will ever accept me. I never went there again.

Fast forward 10 years later:

+

I am the only one of my class who went to university

I am in a stable relationship (5 years now) with a guy my age

My acne went away

I am going to therapy

Last year one of my old bullies got stabbed, bc he was involved in criminal activity, which made me happy


-

I have self-esteem issues & suffer from a panic disorder due to the bullying

I am still unable to make friends, even tho I deepy wish for it

No. 689337

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I have online troon friends because I used to be younger and dumber. There's only one I want to remain friends with, an enby who matters to me a lot. The others make me feel that I'm betraying my morals, since one of them is becoming a fakeboi. I can't caution her or I'll lose the friend that matters. So I'm thinking I'll leave the group chat and only keep that person.
The others barely talk with me anyways so it should go smoothly. I still feel bad about lying to my nb friend by pretending not to disagree. Well, the topic hardly comes up for us and they aren't unhinged about themselves, so I can handle it. There is a sense of guilt, you know? I can't change how I think especially not after my own experience. It's not an ideal situation these days.

No. 689338

>>689336
Damn it’s not every day that people actually get to experience their bullies getting some sort of come-uppance, unironically glad you have that kek. You’ve accomplished a lot and I hope you’re proud of yourself, anon. I wish we could be friends.

No. 689339

>>689337
think of it as religious beliefs, which it really is. the concept of gendered souls? absolutely is. you don't have to agree but don't have to harp on about it. good luck anon.

No. 689342

>>689339
Thanks much, that's good to keep in mind. Most of the time I don't know how to act, but that clears it up as a comparison. I think it is possible to do it this way

No. 689346

>>689325
>Why couldn't I've been born a rock or something?

I think you did

No. 689347

>>689325
don't worry anon you have an advantage to the rest of us if you look at it that way

No. 689353

my uncle got covid while staying at the hospital after a heavy surgery and now he's on the verge of death

No. 689358

I went on 4chan's /tv/ and I hate myself for doing it. Not only do they barely discuss anything film related but the site is even worse than /pt/ and /snow/ combined.
One thread is particularly viscious and I wish I could unsee it. I hate men, I hate them so much.

No. 689359

>>689346
Yeah but I wanna live in a society full of them. No humans at all.

No. 689360

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>>689358
I'm sorry anon, I hope you can remember this image next time.

No. 689361

Someone, or maybe more than one person (probably from my underage hoe phase) keeps messaging me on my number from like so many different numbers, I'm getting so anxious. Where is this person getting my number from? I'm gonna have a panic attack, I can feel it coming. I messaged one number back 'who's this?' just in case it's something innocous.

No. 689363

>>689360
Thanks, I know. I should have known better but I really wanted to discuss movies. I'll try to find some forums that might have some active userbase. Anything is better than /tv/ even r/TrueFilm/.

No. 689364

>>689361
could your number have been written/posted somewhere? I'm sorry anon that sounds scary

No. 689369

>>689364
Yeah, I can imagine some man still bitter from years back sharing my number with other men, but I don't even know who it could be. There's been like 5 fucking numbers constantly calling and messaging, on my number and on whatsapp, the one I messaged back answered 'rich boii from [insert neighbourhood]' so I blocked him. What the fuck man, I'm just not allowed peace. I wanna cry.

No. 689370

>>689364
Holy fuck, samefag fuck what if some dude posted cp of ke on some facebook page along with my number which is why i'm getting these messages? Fuck, anon, i hope that's not the case what should i do?

No. 689374

>>689370
Could you get your number changed? I'm so sorry I've never had this happen to me, but here is an article I found and there's likely more,
https://www.abc.net.au/life/what-to-do-when-private-information-photos-are-leaked-online/10846108
you could also try looking up your name or phone number in quotes and see what comes up?
Hopefully this isn't the case!! Maybe there is another explanation. Someone could've given a fake number that ended up being yours or something, or maybe it's spam? You could try blocking all of them and wait for it to blow over

No. 689378

>>689374
I am the same anon, I just saw the rich boii thing and yeah that sounds off. I want to hug you anon, this would freak me out too. I'm so sorry with what happened in your past, maybe you can find other people online who had this happen and have experience. They are definitely out there.
If you want you should try and find the source, then report it to the site or to police, but anyways I am really hoping for you it's something else. Please if you can contact a friend or someone you trust to help calm you, even if you don't tell them what's going on. Only if/when you feel you can of course. I want to hurt anyone who did stuff to you tbh but I know Im just some random anon

No. 689380

Someone threw away a big plushie of a Heffalump and Idk what to do. It breaks my heart to see him lying there among the trash, but he has a big dirty spot on his head and I'm not sure how safe it would be to take him home and give him a wash.
I'm crying thinking about how once someone cherished the toy, and yet in the end they threw it away like nothing. yes I know I'm projecting, it doesn't change anything

No. 689382

my professors are so fucking annoying. just fucking present what we need to know, no need to act like the peanut gallery.

No. 689385

>>689378
Thank you for being so nice anon, I wish I knew what is actually going on, not even sure if someone has posted my number online/shared with people. I search for my name and number almost every week, just checked now and I didn't find anything, but it could also be on some private chat or group. I also check some popular pornsites every month with my country tagged, all to the end of the pages. Maybe it's nothing and I'm being paranoid. I've blocked all five numbers just in case. I would talk to someone, but I don't have anyone. You take care anon, thank you for the link and the kind words.

No. 689390

>>689380
i donated a bunch of old plushies and toys to a thrift store (an actual one, not some hipster bs imitation) and i spoke to them as i put them in the bag, telling them that even though i loved them i knew they would make someone else a lot more happy. some child was going to take them and have so much fun.
i can't bear to get rid of my REALLY old ones that i've had since i was a child myself though, for some reason.
anyway, maybe you could clean him up and donate him?

No. 689392

>>689326
Sadly I can relate, my mother is always on her phone, which is mostly set on speaker mode(unless she's in public).
She can't be normal about it either, she constantly has to shout and when she laughs she does it in an exaggerated and shrill manner, even in the middle of the night.
It is quite often embarrassing, as she does it in public too. + we're immigrants so she doesn't mind doing it in russian either.
Makes me feel straight up homicidal

No. 689396

>>689385
I really hope it was nothing. please know if you ever do need to talk there are many people out there who would care and want to help. That sounds really bad so I understand why you take all these measures. Anyway no problem and please take care yourself!

No. 689405

my house is infested with mice. they're so loud that sometimes they wake me up at night. I just saw one running around under my bed. I feel so disgusted rn. gonna have to start using mouse traps but I'm afraid of having to touch the mice's dead bodies…

No. 689411

>>689405
There are plenty of non-interactive mouse traps. I watch mousetrap monday a lot because I like his autism also I'm interested in what it takes to catch a mice.
If you truly want to catch them and be done with them, the best trap for you is to buy a big bucket, add some peanut oil to the bottom. Find a way for them to climb up the bucket and inside. You want to make it so they can't get back out. You DON'T have to kill them (just make sure the oil isn't a high enough level to kill them, the oil is so that they are attracted to it and get slippery so they can't climb back out). By the next morning, you will definitely have a ton of mice. Then you can drive miles away or go really far away and dump the bucket.


Definitely check for his other stuff too.

No. 689414

>>689363
Imageboards are always a bad idea when it comes to discussion. Either it's a circle jerk or everyone pissing violently on everyone.

No. 689416

You so you know, I couldn’t care less when you act all offended because of my disinterest, you were the one who always kept pushing me away. Ffs why I have to be asking all the time what’s your problem, if you won’t change a single thing even when you can, just because it’s easy for you to use the “depression” card? It has been years of putting up with your shit, you should feel grateful about the fact that I’m still talking to you or even wanting to meet up with you, because you don’t give me anything positive to my life right now, you’re just wasting my time.

No. 689426

>>689416
Why you still want to meet up with them?

No. 689429

>>689416
I feel like a ghost wrote this. So exhausted by this friendship. It's also clear she has no interest in my life, and probably turns around and complains to her other friend about how I'm "bragging" about my achievements again. I am tired of "depressed" people who do nothing for themselves. Complain about their self imposed problems. I have another mentally ill friend who actually sought therapy and when we do talk about our problems its to help build each other up and remind each other of the good aspects of our lives and the shit we are thankful for. I mean not always, she gets low too but she doesn't put all the endless dreariness and inconsolable woe on me so when she does talk earnestly about being low I feel like i truly really care. That's such a good feeling but when I try to demonstrate it for depressed friend she jokes about those tone deaf "just don't be depressed" memes. It's so fucking miserable but I would feel guilty cutting her off.

No. 689434

>>689411
Lol they look so worn out by the end. If only this worked for cats, I could get mine to exercise.

No. 689500

jfc my boyfriend insinuates he's not religious in the slightest but anytime something inconveniences him, he says, "It's because God hates me." he goes off on tangents about religions almost every week and I just want him to shut up, I'm not religious like that. I don't blame luck or bad luck on God. It's just unfortunate circumstances and people being retarded. Idk like I don't understand.

No. 689513

>>689500
you're the one who's hated by god bc your bf sucks.

No. 689525

i put this in dumbass shit thread but its def more fitting here.

i was going through insurance claims to see if my psych had sent one for me. while i was scrolling i saw an $11,000 bill for a mental institution under my sister's name. this institution has barely a 2 star rating, it's really fucked up and i never even knew she was going through this. the date for the claim was in august and i never found out, and would not have found out about it because my family is so closed off, we don't talk about anything. for example: my parents got divorced and i didnt find out about it until it was finalized, i didnt find out about my mom's alcoholism until she went to rehab, etc.

not really sure what to say to my sister, i'm trying to draft a text right now. i'm probably the only one who really understands. but we are not open emotionally so it's difficult.

No. 689531

>>689525
Just be brutally honest about how you found it. Your parents might not have wanted you to know because of how personal and even embarrassing those experiences can be to live with.

No. 689533

This girlboss isn’t doing too good.

No. 689556

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I recently started working at a new workplace and I quickly realized that it is extremely toxic. It is a small company owned and run by a narcissistic couple, both of whom seem to be addicted to plastic surgery and have no sense of boundaries. They both constantly namedrop influential celebrities and politicians they know and brag about the expensive stuff they own. On the job interview, one of the first questions they asked me was if I want children in the future and if yes, how soon and expressed their relief when I said not anytime soon, but they also noted that the woman whom I'm replacing and who is having a child is 'fulfilling the task that every woman should fulfill - giving birth'. Working overtime is encouraged and the manager's assistant (also friend and gym-buddy ) told me that she once or twice stayed at the office until 9 fucking pm. Working hours officially end at 4:30 pm but the managers regularly start meetings and discussions after 5 pm and expect everyone to stay as long as they last. If someone dares and leaves at 4:30 there's this weird tension in the air. They only let a few employees work from home (the graphic designers and programmers) but the female manager is really not happy about it and once I heard her screaming from her office that the graphic designers must be sleeping instead of working because of the shitty job they are doing and she's going to take back their 'home office privileges'. Her mood swings fucking terrify me and every time I hear her voice I get knots in my stomach

No. 689599

>>689556
Do we work at the same office? Kek.

I also got the child question which caught me off guard because I thought it was illegal to ask personal questions like that, but turns out it's actually a gray area. Technically, they're not "allowed" to make hiring decisions based off if you have/want children or not, but they can ask and then officially not hire you for some other legal reason. It's kinda insane how easy it is for companies to get around anti-discrimination laws.

No. 689605

>>689533
It'll get better soon, sis

No. 689615

My friend texts me about something and I reply but it’s kinda annoying that she leaves me on read a lot. Like she asked me where something was, and she didn’t say thanks, and today, she texted me about some dumbass shit and I reacted, but she didn’t reply again. This is probably a nitpick, but idk she’s kinda getting on my nerves with this shit. Makes me not wanna talk to her.

No. 689624

I am pissed that what I want to do is out of reach for me and what is achievable doesn't interest me. It's not a problem of putting in the work - I would try my best - but of lack of the qualities I need. I'm just not meant for it.

No. 689647

>>689426
Because I'm actually their only friend, they have no one else apart from me to hang out with.
>>689429
Thank you for replying, that’s exactly how I’m feeling. Even with the “bragging” thing. I can’t share anything good that’s happening to me because I see their face change, even their mood. They’re not being subtle about it either, they just stop talking at this moment. They even snapped at me when I was commenting something about another friend I have like “I don’t know who she is and you know it”, ffs I know but it wasn’t important. They always act pissy because they’re envious of my friends, job, relationship and all that because they won’t ever have a functional relationship.
It’s hard to write this but it took me a long time to realise they’re treating me like shit just because they can’t have what I have (I don’t know if that makes sense?)…also they project a lot over me because of other people’s mistakes, i.e. one day they told me they couldn’t meet up with my best friend because they were afraid they would be replaced like some girl replaced them in third grade???? It hurt me because I got really offended but of course I couldn’t say anything because ~depression~ and loneliness…oh well.

No. 689648

my mom is mean to me and yells and makes me feel bad and my parents are fighting and making sure I know and I'm about to freak

No. 689653

I sent 150€ worth of books to an online library and was supposed to get an email or text as soon as I left my parcels at that one post office competitor to have a proof in case something gets lost or just to get my tracking number but I never received anything. I asked the employee there if I had to give her my phone number, email address or if I needed to sign something but she said no, it's all automatic, she scanned the stick I put on the parcels right in front of me so I should have received something on Saturday. I hope I can just get my money fast, I don't know who I should contact for any of this and it's stressful. Fuck, they used to give you a sticker with you tracking number like two years ago, fuck that company and fuck the regular post office for being trash in general.

No. 689660

>>689648
The argument is probably not about you. Sometimes people argue loudly just to hear their own voices and get the adrenaline rush of anger out. If it is about you, what did you do to get on her shitlist? Just put on some headphones or something.

No. 689662

I have been diagnosed with cancer and had surgery. That's not even the bad part. The worst is that my abusive parents have absolutely nothing nice to say to me, no sympathy. I know they're fucked up but it still hurts. I have like one friend who is emotionally mature enough that she can handle me telling her about my health issues. So many are real fair weather friends.

No. 689667

>>689660
it's not about me my parents are just obnoxious cunts. I'm scared though because my moms at the store trying to switch over my phone service to my dad and if there are any problems she's gonna call me and scream at me to fix it

No. 689671

I can't believe they're STILL together after all that shit.

No. 689697

>>688466
Anon what the fuck, the black plague was spread by fleas that carried the plague bacterium, not an airborne virus. People didn't know that, that's why it got spread so bad. I'm not even arguing about masks or their efficiency or covid or anything but this is peak retardation.

No. 689721

I hate it I can't relate to anyone

No. 689728

>>689662
That fucking sucks anon, I don't know if my tumors are cancerous before surgery because my bloodwork keeps coming so-so yet I get you on the friends part. Funnily enough, I think they still would expect me to be there for them even after just replying lol, yikes or nothing to my health related messages. Have you done the thing where you don't even actually talk about your feelings about health, just giving the most barebone "this is what i have, i am gonna get this done to me, then this will happen" and even that seems to be too much? It's wild how uncomfortable people get, the only friend I have managed to talk like adults is someone who's mom has cancer and other one istfg is just autistic enough to keep too much hysterics out of it. Hope you can get through this despite your shit parents and shit friends, hope to have you here for a little longer anon.

No. 689735

>>689721
me too. at least i relate to this sentiment, we can find minimal comfort in sharing this feeling anon

No. 689740

The retarded shitpost thread is the only good thread on /ot/. All other threads are bummers

No. 689762

>>689740
Go there then.

No. 689771

>>689740
>>689762

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No. 689772

>>689728
Nta but why the hell is this a thing? I had a friend barely respond when I was in hospital and another who despite being almost 30 felt too squeamish to talk about anything related to it. The older friend also had an extremely dangerous surgery so I thought we could sort of relate. Instead I was in pain feeling lonely since my own family thought it was a drag to visit me.

No. 689778

>>689772
At the risk of sounding like a high maintenance bitch: these people either don't give a shit or are absolutely scared of real shit, they suddenly realise anyone can get hurt or sick and that freaks them out and their feelings of upset trump yours, even though you already have filed it down so much it's basically the least they can know about your situation without knowing anything. I would understand a very hysterical health anxiety fits sans warning or reason but I am talking "Yea, they found x and it's x" and they just won't reply till it's about them or just spiral. I know it can trigger people, but if you wanna be friends with someone, they should be able to give you at least some health related updates. Lame shit.

No. 689783

My bf is being pissy because I didn't tidy the bedroom like he asked. I had bad period cramps and was gonna wait them out first but dude came home with a new bedframe/mattress. Like if he told me that's what he wanted it tidied for I would have sucked it up through the pain to get the room ready lol. He always wants to surprise me but it's always with big things like this I would like to have a say in!!

No. 689787

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Why is getting your first job so hard?
I've been throwing curriculums left and right and not even one opportunity showed up, I keep getting ghosted by stupid HR cunts who say they will contact me to schedule and interview and never do.
The bills in my household are starting to pile up after some medical emergencies and im fucking panicking.

No. 689788

It's so weird and scary how people can be so efficient and at the same time such degenerates

No. 689795

>>689787
Do you have a degree, anon?

No. 689796

I was in a random group chat and a scrote asked me for nudes but I am not in the mood so I just said later and ghosted him and he removed after three years of being e-friends lmao. Guess I my only value is my body then. Good riddance

No. 689813

>>689795
Im on my last year of my graphic design major, yeah kiinda of a bad choice but I didn't have anything else to do.

No. 689816

>>689740
the hotpinkpill

No. 689823

venting here because I dont know who else to talk to and the wound is still fresh.

long story short, my boyfriend has a dog, which was his before we started dating and moved in together. After being with him a while, i've noticed that all he ever does with his dog is yell at him, keep him in the kennel, and hit him. Maybe once or twice a week he'll actually give the guy love. And he always gets yelled at when he leaves his little corner for anything. He also never takes this dog out for walks, he only gets to go outside for the bathroom (mind you, this dog is a 2yr boardercollie).

I am the primary person who takes him on walks, plays catch with him and gives him love. I've grown to love this guy a lot and I feel so fucking guilty every time my boyfriend hits him. I am supposed to protect this guy, love him and keep him safe.

So, about 20 minutes ago I brought it up to my boyfriend. Granted, I didnt bring it up the best way. I started out with "I think we should get rid of the dog" so he could just have a clean slate with a new family. Forget about all of this. My boyfriend got super mad, though. He started talking about how he fought for that dog and would never give him up. I was like okay, well you need to change how youre disciplining him. You only yell at him, never give him love, and I want you to stop hitting him. He basically went "well okay, everytime he does something bad, I'll let you take care of it" which is. you know. I'm a psych 2nd major and i;ve tried explainging to him that there are other ways to condition the dog to be good, but I dont think he ever listens…? I just feel so bad for him. I need to help our dog. I feel sick to my stomach because I dont think I got anything done and now my boyfriend is mad at me and I did nothing for our dog.

No. 689829

>>689823
When you take the dog and run, let us know how it goes, anon.

No. 689835

>>689823
Boyfriend sounds like shit, and a violent scrote. I hope you scoop that dog up and make a run for it.

No. 689839

>>689823
Border collies are extremely intelligent and energetic dogs they need a lot of exercise and attention. The dog is suffering if you don't want to be responsible for it and he clearly isn't the dog needs rehomed. It's cruel so you should feel bad witnessing it. Like I had an ex that begged to get a dog and he had no patience for it. Would hit it and scream as if the dog is going to understand he was being fucking disciplined. It needed basic training which I did with it and when I ended the relationship I got the dog a new home with a family that would dote on it.

No. 689840

>>689823
Anon anyone who is hitting animals is an animal abuser, and probably a human abuser too. It doesn't matter if the dog is undisciplined, there are better ways to train animals. There is no "clean slate" for him. Once he's dog with the dog he'll move on to someone else. I suggest you gather some proof and take it to the police. He's not technically your dog, so if you steal him he could report you.

No. 689842

>>689823
I'm just going to assume the best of your boyfriend and I may very well be wrong but a border collie is a difficult dog, especially for a new dog owner. He likely got this dog having no idea how intelligent and driven it is, so when it demonstrates its breeding he is punishing it. I absolutely think rehoming the dog is the best option but your boyfriend obviously values it even if he mistreat it. Do you have the ability or desire to train the dog?

No. 689843

>>689823
your bf genuinely sounds like a disgusting asshole and i'd be afraid that he would abuse you later on if his reaction to an animal doing something "bad" (that it doesn't even understand) is to hit and yell at it like a caveman

No. 689848

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>>689823
fucking hell just get the pup out somehow, tell your bf he ran away when you walked him or whatever, he's being abused.

I don't know your story friend but I'm also wondering how tf you can stay with such a person. Like living with him, sharing your life, being all intimate and cuddly with some useless fucker who hits dogs. Not even gonna speculate how likely it is that he takes his aggression out on you eventually, even if that never happened I just don't understand how him hitting and isolating a living feeling pet, who he should provide with a happy cozy life, doesn't kill your attraction dead in an instant.

No. 689851

>>689848
>tell your bf he ran away when you walked him or whatever, he's being abused
Anon that's a horrible idea. First of all, where will the dog stay? Second of all, anons bf already got angry at her for suggesting he get rid of the dog. God knows what he would do if he "ran away" because of her.

No. 689862

>>689851
obviously only after getting someone to look after the dog for a while. As for the second point, yeah, I wouldn't recommend anon to stay with the bf after that, that's a no-brainer. She should have her ducks in a row re moving somewhere else, break the news in a public place, then dump him. Claiming he ran away is just because then the bf can't really prove to the police she's lying.

I don't know, probably there are better ways to help the dog, but he's likely suffering terribly so I would devise some dumbass plan in this ballpark if I had to.

No. 689864

>>689823
what you could do is post about this toward some animal rescue group of some kind, then they could take the dog away while you make up an excuse like he got off the leash and went after a squirrel or something. might be difficult to find a group to do that if they're afraid of your bf pressing charges or something but as long as they rehome the dog someplace away it's not like he'll ever find it. idk. he might start asking around online or putting up lost dog posters though… this is a tough one. you could try to record the abuse/neglect and show it to whatever equivalent of aspca you have, but that'd very blatantly put you in conflict with him.
ask yourself this: do you value a relationship with a man who hits animals more than the well-being of a defenseless animal?

No. 689871

>>689862
I feel like this also might not work cause if anon comes home without the dog then there's gonna be some questions. Unless anon arranges some kind of date but she's like "I'm gonna walk the dog first don't wait up for me". Idk. I'm not trying to be argumentative about this, I just hope op anon doesn't make a decision that could fuck her up

No. 689874

>>689823
op here-

ive calmed down. Hes just an animal abuser(but only with dogs…?), not a people abuser(as far as I know), but its still bad. I just talked to a dog trainer friend about taking him, then I would try convincing my bf to give him up while the dog was gone. I'm on a lease with him and work for his mom so im kind of in a bind in terms of breaking up. For now, at least. thanks for listening to my misery.

>>689864 yeah, worst case scenario I can take the dog to a shelter a town or two over and say he ran away. I'm waiting to see if he's willing to give it to dog trainer friend first

No. 689882

Fucking hate it when women speak of their own power and men find that this is just way too much. To tone it down or better yet, try and connect us back to men when we are trying to depart from everything about him. I don’t know how to move past this. Just shut the fuck up for once and let women appreciate themselves. Fuck you for trying to rob us to your level.

No. 689886

>>689874
get the hell away from him as soon as it's financially feasible. someone who lacks empathy with any animal is dangerous. good luck with the dog

No. 689920

So I decided to tell a friend about a stalker-ish man who wouldn't leave me alone even after a year, I don't ever 'vent' or talk about my problems with anyone but I was so frustrated yesterday that I thought to talk to her because she always told me that she wouldn't mind listening to me. But while I was discussing it with her, I felt she was barely listening to me and was just telling me soulless words. Like I was saying how angry I was and she was like 'this is not your fault' when did I ever imply it was? And was like 'i really proud of you for blocking him' and it just baffled me, felt like she was just regurgitating some mental health quotes or something to hone her therapy skills or whatever and was barely listening to me and then left me on read mid way and posted online about taking care of her mental health or whatever and watching b99. Never telling anyone about anything again.

No. 689925

>>689874
>just an animal abuser, not a people abuser
Just?! He's just abusing an innocent being that can't defend itself and is completely dependant on him. People would be more capable of defending themselves and not as dependant on him. Animal abusers are on the same level as child abusers, preying on the innocent, defenceless, dependant. He may not attack other people, but if he attacks animals, he's a huge threat to children. RUN!

No. 689942

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Again with my old ways…

No. 689947

>>689728
Thank you anon, I'm sorry that you're in a similar situation and wishing you luck with the surgery. I'm glad to hear from someone who understands though.

>Have you done the thing where you don't even actually talk about your feelings about health, just giving the most barebone "this is what i have, i am gonna get this done to me, then this will happen" and even that seems to be too much?


Yes. My dad even told me he forgot that I have cancer when I told him about my further appointments. I think they simply can't handle it, very immature. Like if you don't think or talk about something it's not happening.

No. 689965

We got tested for COVID at work, and the IT guy who works a few steps away from me tested positive but managment told everyone to ignore the results, because 'one of the lines were blurry on the test cassette'… Goodbye, it was nice knowing y'all

No. 689968

>>689796
He sounds like absolute trash, but I'd delete anyone that ghosts me too

No. 689988

My mother is a full munchie that projects it on my father and I. My old man doesn't know any better and doesn't do anything besides shake his head and agree because the alternative is her screaming and throwing shit and threatening to commit suicide anytime we do anything less than kiss the ground she walks on.

She's diagnosed me with a gluten allergy, dyspraxia, ehlers-danlos, celiac, PTSD, autism (when I was a child. she "prayed" it out of me by faith healthing. which is to say, I was a perfectly normal child), PTSD, and being a "highly sensitive person". My dad being an old man, has plenty of vague issues related to being old and the gazillion fucking magic internet vitamins and supplements she feeds him against his doctor's instructions. he ""has"" leaky gut, gastroparesis, the inability to digest lettuce, a gluten allergy, and kidney disease. she doesn't get anymore specific than saying kidney disease, and the actual nephrologist says my dad just needs to lay off all the laxatives (guess who makes him take those). She believes in colloidal silver, holy basil, more alt med things than I can list.

Her personal medical conditions are never diagnosed by a doctor and never receive follow up and seem to magically get worse or better depending on how she feels like getting an ass kissing that day. she has been "anemic" as far back as I can remember into my childhood. She doesn't see a doctor regularly for blood work and just buys iron pills/gummies/patches that she takes maybe twice and forgets again. I had to explain to her how they screen for anemics during the blood donation process and she didn't know what hemoglobin is. She sees a "weight doctor" that does nothing but write a continuous prescription for speed. she is not overweight and at most tries to do trend diets for a few days, like keto and "fasting" which she then uses as an excuse to throw more screeching toddler fits because she hasn't ate in several hours.

What really makes me rip out my fucking hair is that I have PCOS she never cared about or did anything more than call me a slut for missing periods or telling me she has it worse when my periods were heavy, unusually long, and were irregular for years. I almost got into legal trouble in high school because my periods caused me to miss so many days of class. now she has PCOS "a little" and she "had it when I was your age too". I get this adult woman screaming and throwing fits because I take metformin, as prescribed by my doctor because she read on Facebook metformin is actually the devil and the worst, most intolerable drug to exist. I don't experience any side effects, she does not have PCOS and is actually healthy.

Her sciatica, anemia, arthritis, little pretend "cancers", and thyroid issues are not real. she complains to me about forgetting to take her handfuls of magical herbal internet vitamins when I genuinely have to take my antidepressant, birth control, and metformin daily to function. She also buys pain killers online and has lied to me and my brother repeatedly how that's not illegal and they're really not any stronger than Tylenol. She loves to pop those tramadol and has got my old man addicted too. He had a total knee replacement and was in agony after knee surgery because he'd developed a tolerance to that low dosage of opioids. His kid from another marriage is a nurse and was very concerned after hearing about this. of course batshit crazy munchie bitch was deeply, profoundly offended at a nurse saying prescription drug abuse is what's happening and that it is bad. I don't really know or care what to do about this. I'm in trade school to save money and move out and never speak to her ever again. It's just a relief to write all this out and begin to try to understand it. I think my mother qualifies to be a cow. I live in backwards reverse fantasy land where nothing make sense and the only thing that matters is making sure the narc munchie gets her praise and free range to treat us like shit as much as she wants. I gave up trying to do anything more than process what factually happened long ago.

No. 689992

I have a friend who makes little games and has asked me to participate as an artist, but then changes his mind every time and says that he has found someone else. Why did you ask me then? If you like another artist's style better then why did you ask me first and not them directly? I get it, you don't like my style and that's fine, you don't have to include me out of pity and then change your mind. It's the second time he asked me and the first project was dropped, and it's always an unpaid position because he has no budget.

No. 690012

My father just told me to eat kill myself and eat shit because I told him that he shouldn't use rusty and dirty old metal tools to touch meat he intends to eat.

No. 690020

I've been trying my best to feel christmassy and festive trying to get in the best mood I can while spending my first christmas away from family just with my boyfriend. I bought and decorated the tree, got all the wrapping paper, been TRYING to organise what to eat for christmas dinner but he either gives me joke answers or flat out refuses to suggest anything while shutting down all mine. He already spoiled my gift because he wanted to ask me if I was willing to buy the other essential parts that go with it. Now he brought through my gift which looks like he wrapped it as badly as possible. I know he spent less than 3 minutes or something doing it because I was the one who brought him the tape. Then he flipped out on me when I said "wow it looks like you didnt even try at all."

Am I stupid for getting hung up on something so materialistic? I dont think he likes Christmas very much because he's spent a lot of them alone and has a bad relationship with some of his family. I don't even care about Christmas that much but I want to put some effort in to make it special and something worth remembering to break up the fucking monotony of working and staying inside all the time. To me this just screams "I don't care enough about you to pull myself off the computer for more than 3 minutes." It's not the first time i've been disappointed, on my birthday we had a big talk about expectations and effort and all this shit after he disappointed me then too.

No. 690026

>>690020
>Am I stupid for getting hung up on something so materialistic?
No, I don't think so. I mean, when you want your gifts nicely wrapped it's not about the wrapping itself, is it? It's about the effort and thought that went into it for someone you love.

I get not being much of a Christmas fan, I feel the same way about Christmas for similiar reasons as your bf, but that's no reason to behave shitty when your gf tries her hardest to make in an enjoyable time. Maybe he feels resentment towards christmas and/or those who enjoy it? Have you tried talking about it to him?

No. 690032

I called one of my exes today to catch up because of extreme loneliness and also he texted me a few weeks ago asking if I ever wanted to hook up again ( I said no). During our convo we were talking about dating general, and he started ranting about "Old exes" from years ago hitting him up because of covid and how he thought it was super lame, with zero self-awarness that he was currently talking to an ex. Like okay, you think I'm just wasting your time but you choose to talk to me anyway, at least be polite and keep your mean opinion to yourself. Total downer. Ive been a NEET on and off for most of my life, I can entertian myself and find thing to do at home, the only thing I can't deal with rn with this corona shit is total isolation and loneliness. All I want is a cute bf to sleep over with and watch movies and cuddle and take care and make soup for, why is this so hard in my shitty city to find. All my exes are either nutcases that I blocked long time ago, don't want to see me because "it's not you, it's me, I'm not really sure where my life is going rn" covid edition, or are interested in me but live on the other side if the fucking atlantic.

No. 690033

>>690032
My ex did this shit at the start of lockdown with me but then from other friends I found out he was also meeting with other exes lol. He's been calling me the past two weeks but I've been ignoring him and "someone" has also been blocking their number and calling me and hanging up during the night. Men really do feel entitled to access pussy. Remember he's an ex for a reason he's just coming around to use you.

No. 690036

>>690020
Idk, your boyfriend is acting like a petulant man child by not helping you pick something to eat but people who obsess over wrapping are beyond me. That shit gets ripped and thrown out, is it that deep?

No. 690042

>>690026

Thanks anon, we have discussed something similar in the vein of gift giving and material celebrations after my birthday last year. I think we came to a good understanding that although he isn't bothered about gift giving and celebrating much, he knows its important to me - not because of the cost of things but rather the time and thought put into them. I think I need to manage my expectations and have a talk about this BEFORE christmas, expecting him to read my mind and know this is about more than wrapping paper is stupid

>>690036
You're right, the wrapping paper in itself is not a big deal. I should get over that.

No. 690053

my boss is allowing an autistic man to adopt two cats from the shelter i work at and lemme tell you, that guy has an outburst every fucking time he comes in, so i’m considerably pissed.

No. 690063

Ahhhhh I can't take this shit anymore. I'm not fit to be part of this society. Not in a Joker way, I'm just actually damaged to my brain.

I wish everyone could stop perceiving me and all my obligations would disappear. I just want to start new and fresh.

No. 690078

the boy i was talking to ghosted me one day before meeting and now blocked me and i don't know why. Fuck, i hate 3D men. Anime boys aren't this mean.

No. 690082

>>690042
>I think I need to manage my expectations
this isn't limited to just the christmas stuff you talked about but i feel like expectations can worsen or sometimes even ruin a relationship. you can't really expect another person to fulfill all your needs perfectly, especially if you're dating a person who doesn't put much effort in relationships to begin with. people won't magically change their lifestyle and habits because you expect them to. doesn't mean you can't have any standards for your partners but if for example you began dating a computer nerd and who can't bother to dedicate a few minutes of his day to his gf, there's a 98% chance he'll stay the same for the rest of his life and no amount of arguing or trying to change him will work. that's how he is and how he behaves in relationship. the more unrealistic expectations you put on him the more stressed and unfulfilled you'll feel. so you can either lower your expectations or instead date someone who puts in as much effort as you do

No. 690096

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Every once in a blue moon (usually after a beer or two) I have the horrible desire to "rehabilitate" someone who I know is awful. Both to prove to them that they can change their path, and because it makes me feel good to help and change their minds in a selfish sort of way. That led to me contacting a person who is completely irredeemable as a person. He isn't as bad as some would make him out to be (he's an online presence), but I think the trait that disgusts me the absolute most in a person is an inability to introspect and a lack of desire to change their situation, even when they're in constant distress and there's an easy way out, and that's the kind of person he is, someone with no desire to self improve. It really annoys me that I waste my time on things like this but I do it every once in an while regardless and it consistently is a plague on my life.

No. 690098

>>690096
Not me last night literally trying to tell the guy I'm seeing about how he needs to brainwash himself into having a CEO mindset to gain self-confidence because he keeps threatening to drop out of college… I relate to this pic hard. I love my fellow emotionally effective girlbosses, such a curse that god made us this empathetic and scrotes dont even care

No. 690099

>>690096
>>690098
Give this attention to men who actually care and appreciate it only. I've helped my boyfriend become a real person and in a sick way, I love his gratitude towards me. It makes me feel warm but also powerful since he says he would be nowhere near where he is now without me.

No. 690103

>>690096
>>690098
is it actually bad to not want to change?

No. 690106

>>690103
It's not bad. But if you have other people in your life that are affected by you not changing then you should not be surprised to end up alone.

No. 690112

>>690103
I mean it also depends on what it is. I’m the second anon you responded to and like, I often get all therapist mode on guys cause they come to me FIRST complaining. I really cannot stand when guys just want to vent about how they have no future or no self confidence, I used to be very unconfident but put a lot of effort into myself to get where I am now so it just personally bugs me when people vent to me about changeable things and just want to say like “you seem to have it all together, you’re so well adjusted”. Cause like, I tried! If you don’t want to change just don’t make it anyone else’s problem.

No. 690122

Fine, avoid me.

No. 690127

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Sorry for the long reply but I guess this is the vent thread…

>>690098
That image is too real and I am sorry you are cursed with a big heart. Truly it is a curse and I have had that same conversation with a boy but they just cannot attain that girlboss mindset in the end. They just don't understand basically anything and I find myself spoonfeeding men on how to be normal, empathetic, and kind to one's self and others, and it is invariably a lost cause. And yet I keep finding myself in this situation! Help!
(In my experience, the scrotes do care, but only in retrospect, pic related)

>>690099
I need to work on that. Sounds silly from an anon but I'm proud of you for putting that had work in and that it paid off. It is a powerful feeling, but I expend that warm energy on the wrong people historically.

>>690103
I guess it isn't bad, but, without revealing too much about myself, I had a a long period of time where I was just depressed, and even though I wanted to feel better, I didn't really make any real effort to change my situation. But my circumstances changed rapidly and I had to adapt and make major efforts to fix myself, because it was a sink or swim situation. Looking back, I feel a lot of regret for not having made those changes sooner, as I now feel like I wasted a lot of really valuable time in my life. So I guess it's not "bad" but it's detrimental to your own health, and like >>690106 said, people really won't stick around if you won't change and your upset is affecting others and upsetting them by proxy.

>>690112
Relate heavily to this! Actually basically what I said to the person above. I think I am particularly disgusted and peeved by people who prefer not to help themselves and don't want to change and prefer complaining whining in an endless loop because, in all honesty, I was sort of there at one point. But, like you, I also put in major effort to get stronger and that's why people approach me for help. And as unappealing as that trait is to me, I feel a deep need to help, because I know if I was capable of change, most people I know are too, and yet they choose not to, and they make it everyone else's burden to bear. (I am also proud of you for making such great strides in your life)

No. 690129

I'm about to leave for work and I rather be doing anything else.
Normally, I work in a hotel restaurant that's fully self-serve and the clientele is mostly tour groups. All I do is collect plates (systematically, I go around the section, smile, and take away their plates), clean, and serve tea and coffee. For a waitressing job it's fairly easy because there's no actual order taking and serving involved and I can just about manage it with my social anxiety.

We never reopened in the spring this year because covid meant no tourists, but the owners own multiple hotels in the area and one of the nicer non touristy ones is open, which is where I am now (starting now because I got a new temporary job during the summer which was totally non social).
It's a proper waitressing job which I've never had and I'm freaking out. I started there yesterday and all I did was observe, I don't know how I'm going to approach people or make small talk because there was almost none of that at my old job and it's been so long since I even did that.
And to make things worse, some guy my age who works there immediately started hitting on me (not at all a brag, I think he's one of those men that goes for weak looking girls) and in my nervousness I just smiled and went along with it and I don't like him at all and I can't just tell him to fuck off because we're going to be working togetehr for months and then at my original workplace when it opens because that's where he originally got hired and he's also only here on a temporary basis. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

No. 690152

Parents emotionally neglected me my whole life and kicked me out as soon as I turned 18 and are surprised I suffered in life because of it and get mad when I don't want to talk to them. Its like throwing someone who doesn't know how to swim in the deep end and getting mad because they drowned. I want to cut them off so badly, but as long as im in the same goddamn city as them I have no chance. Its just really bothering me now of all times and makes me go from happy to suicidal in 0.1 secs.

No. 690173

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>checking on artist I used to love to see if they’ve been up to anything
>all of their accounts are scrubbed and the last post they left was about being sick of drawing

No. 690183

"you just gonna let your dog walk close to me like that?"
On a public sidewalk?? Where I live? Yeah I am, useless crackhead. I'm gonna kill the next man that talks to me

No. 690195

My dad is in the hospital right now, I don't know if he will be alive any longer. This is the second time he had a stroke, add to that is a minor brain hemorrhage because of that he can't even move or sober enough to answer our call. Covid is starting to appear again where I came from and they only allow one caretaker per patient, my mom has to stay there for him. I just wish this would end, why is my happiness so short and almost non-existence…Just when I was happy and boom, this shit happens and i have to be all sad again. I hate this, i really hated this, there is no one i can share this information with because im scared they will pity me. I just wanna cry but some reason i cant, i have to be strong for my family, i have to get through this, this is not the end.

No. 690201

>>690173
>artists that hate drawing
this pisses me off. just give me your brain and your hands and your skill since you hate it so much you little bitch

No. 690216

reading reviews on cyberpunks and seeing the chasers and woke reviewers bring up trans shit and watching gamers tell them to fuck off is the only time I'll stand with gamers.
"They are fetishizing trans women!" says the trans woman with a only fans, a twitter where they scream about their girl dick and loving girl dick. Says the men who wack it to tranny porn and only see them as a fantasy & only aknowledge the blow up doll ones with big dicks.
Shut the hell up, you only have a issue because it's not a trans person fetishizing trans shit.

No. 690219

>>690216
like polygon's review which i went intoo wanting to actually see what the game was about, no lie has like a five paragraph fucking rant about trans shit.

No. 690221

>>688510
How old are you?

No. 690225

Food in my area is getting so fucking expensive. Why are my small potatoes literally $1 each???? Ahhhhhhhh

No. 690239

>>690127
Last anon you replied to, I'm proud of you too!! But I think like you said, complaining and whining is so disgusting cause we were all there at one point, but I think its a maturity thing that you definitely grow out of. Everyone was definitely like that in their teens, but after that?? We all learn and grow!!

Related, but the guy I was talking about in >>690096 just texted me opening a conversation with complaining, and when I said "sorry I'm in a class right now so I'll hit you back afterwards, just had a nightmarish presentation" ALL HE SAID was "F". I spend so much time checking in on him, talking him through shit, and I can't even get a "oh shit, good luck on your final". just fucking "F". Litcherally fucking fuming babes, I got with him thinking he was a well-adjusted chad but he's just a depressive eeyore-like gamer with early onset erectile dysfunction. why are scrotes so cute but so absolutely fucking useless???

No. 690262

>>690219
It's probably the same retard who shat up the ff7 remake review with Deep Tranny Thoughts

No. 690263

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I posted a while ago about how my husband got a puppy I kept saying I didn't want and I hated it because it kept destroying all my shit. The puppy is six months old now and is still an absolute nightmare, she pisses and shits in the house every day, destroys everything she can get her mouth around, is way too rough with my cats to the point where they basically live in our bedroom now so she can't get to them, has the most irritating high-pitched bark on earth, is difficult to walk because she yanks the leash the entire time, and is just generally a real asshole. Positive reinforcement hasn't worked, negative reinforcement hasn't worked…I don't know what the hell this dog's problem is, I have never had a pet that is so impossible to train. Our older dog was better behaved than her when he was like, half her age. Just today I left her alone in the kitchen for five minutes only to return to her having already eaten half a box of crackers she somehow got off the top of a shelf. I don't know wtf to do, nothing seems to get through to her and the whole situation is making me become a dog hater.

No. 690266

>>690216
It's also funny how trans women (somehow i'm not hearing trans men in this dispute ever) want to be considered real women but they don't relate to real women at all, it has to be about their transness. Supposedly game is not going indepth about a "struggle of being transgender"… well, maybe in the future of prosthetics it's not a struggle at all anymore? I thought this is what they want?

Also, there's actually a trans character in the game, some other reviews mention it, but Polygon reviewer forgot they have to play sidequests to discover stuff apparently.

No. 690269

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>>690239
God are you me? Or are we just walking the same sad path of dealing with scrotes who can never understand our emotional depth? lol. I dated a guy who sounds exactly like that, good looking, seemed well adjusted, but it was a facade, and behind the scenes he was a goddamn nightmare and I had to teach him basic social cues, not because he was autistic or anything, but because he'd never faced any real hardship in his life, so the smallest things seemed insurmountable and foreign to him. And getting him to understand that he could only become happy if he made an effort was impossible…. and he also literally said "F" to me as well. I am so sorry and I stand in unfortunate solidarity with you in liking cute boys who end up being fucking stupid. Wishing all the best for you!

No. 690339

Went to the vet today and unfortunately the older man before me had to euthanize his cat. However, the way the owner did it pissed me off so much, he didn't even stay with it until the end. He literally left, the door swung open and I could see the poor thing meowing pitifully as he left. When the assistant helped him out, he said in a sad tone "Well.. I guess I have to get a new cat now". I know people can say dumb stuff when they are in shock or grief, but still. Why wouldn't he stay with it, even if it's painful to watch? It looked old too and must have been his companion for longer than a decade. They set the needle only after he left and when the door swung open again, the assistant carried away its body. Like imagine leaving your pet to die alone and confused, not knowing what's going on and maybe even leaving it to feel fearful or wondering what it did wrong to deserve this in the last minutes of its life. Selfish asshole.

No. 690391

Please newfags, stop creating new threads when the old one is not even locked yet, there's no need to freak out when you see the 1100 posts alert, we still have a few more posts to go.

No. 690394

>>690339
cats don't think like that bro. it's a fucking animal. a dog maybe. but i doubt the cat registered whether the owner was there or not. and i can understand not wanting to see that, the owner was probably in pain over it.

No. 690397

>>690394
Sure anon, cats don't have emotions, but dogs do.

No. 690398

>>690397
did you miss the part where it's a fucking animal. it probably had brainrot at that age and didn't even know what the fuck was going on, let alone that it was about to die or that his owner wasn't there to comfort it during these distressful times kek. nice try at trying to turn this into another dog vs. cat infight tho

No. 690403

>>690394
Cats can register when their owners are there or not, and being around someone they trust is more comforting than only being surrounded by strangers when they’re upset or scared…

No. 690406

>>690398
I'm not trying to turn anything into an infight. You're the one that brought up dogs. If you think animals don't can't think about stuff like that, then why would a dog be magically be able to care about whether or not his owner is there? Your logic just doesn't make any sense. It seemed like one of those "cats are evil emotionless creatures!" kind of posts, but maybe that's just me.

No. 690415

>>690403
I came in to say the same thing.
I genuinely don't understand people who think this "Animals dumb, they don't notice presence in or out of an area, or anything at all, they are like machines haha" way. It just seems like a massive cope, or some kind of weird, near-Grug sort of thinking. Most animals, especially cats, are very intuitive, observant and feeling.
You'd think more humans would be more in tune with and sensitive to animals that have been our companions for literally hundreds of years.
I kind of wonder how those people rationalize things like droves of stray animals showing up at people's funerals after they die if they fed/were kind to them, dogs and cats somehow knowing when a guy is bad news and being protective of their female owners off the bat, dogs leading firefighters to burning houses, etc.

No. 690434

The couple across from me live in a studio that's less than 200 sqft with a dog and they just had a fucking baby and I hate them so much they are so fucking stupid WHY WOULD YOU CHOOSE TO HAVE A CHILD IN THESE CONDITIONS

No. 690445

Sometimes I wonder why nobody told me anything about how comon it is for the very few kids who grew up with my very rare physical health to suffer from chronic fatigue, chronic depression and memory loss. That explains so much about my teenage years. I couldn't even remember the vast majority of people's names and faces in my middle school and high school to the point I couldn't socialize normally. I couldn't study as much as I used to and my grades dropped because I couldn't remembee shit. My gynecologist just very vaguely mentioned something about how the reason why I'm taking a vitamin D capsule every winter is because of my condition while my GP prescibed it to me only a few years ago said it was just because of fatigue and the seasonal depression.

My mother also said I'm a drama queen when talking about it just to get information and didn't technically need to take my hormone treatment for years everyday because what I have isn't that bad. Even though the endocrinologist I had when I was a minor, the one who monitored everything, said if not for my treatment I'd be 1.30 tall at the very best now and wouldn't have went through puberty. Imagine being an adult that looks like a literal sick child while trying to get a normal job, a normal social life and a normal love life. She's so dumb.

No. 690446

>>690394
>>690398
Nice try Sociopath-chan, how is life in prison treating you?

No. 690450

>>690339
>wondering what it did wrong to deserve this in the last minutes of its life.
it's a cat, it doesn't wonder.

I agree with other posters that the cat would've probably benefitted from having his owner around but at the end of the day, it's still an animal. It doesn't think like we do.

I guess it's my unpopular opinion but people should stop humanizing animals.

No. 690452

>>690445
>chronic fatigue, chronic depression and memory loss
To be fair, there's about a million other conditions that can also cause this, many of which aren't physical.

No. 690463

>>690450
Wondering literally just means questioning or being curious about things. You think cats never do that, especially about humans they've spent their lives with? Or that they never consider right and wrong (aka good and bad behaviors, being punished by owners, etc)? Are you sure?
If animals were as retarded as you think, they wouldn't be able to survive in the wild, care for their own offspring, cohabit with humans, etc.

No. 690466

>>690452
True but apparently it's a very common symptom for people with my condition so it's the type of things that should probably come up at some point during consultations with the endocrinologist and I had dozens of them for a decade. It never came up. She and my mother were too busy trying to see if I were so insecure over my small breasts (also caused by that condition I guess?) I'd need plastic surgery paid by insurance.I thought being tired all the time and forgetting a lot of things all the time was normal since it's hard to compare yourself to others when it comes to that. Now I'm doing much better but still.

No. 690467

>>690450
What? Yes they do. Animals can have human traits, just like humans are animals. They throw hissy fits when being abandoned or left alone for too long and react to scolding if you aren't a shit owner. There are various degrees of questioning their own actions upon pets but a lot do.
This reminds me of my philosophy teacher, who never even had a pet, claiming cat's aren't concious because they don't recognize themselves in the mirror like children at a certain age, when there are actual cases of that documented already.

No. 690470

>>690450
It's not humanizing animals if that's how they naturally act. I know it sounds crazy, but other species can feel things.

No. 690472

>>690463
Anon it's a cat, a cat, it has no concept of what 'good' is or what 'bad' is. How do you think it could ponder good or bad? Are you for real? It only knows what behaviour gets it something it wants, and what behaviour gets it something it doesnt wants after experiencing so. That doesn't mean it can actually think about good or bad or right and wrong.

>If animals were as retarded as you think, they wouldn't be able to survive in the wild, care for their own offspring, cohabit with humans, etc.

I don't think animals are retarded at all, those are your words. They act on instinct, that's how they do the things you mention, that's not the same as humans.

No. 690473

>>690470
I never denied that animals can feel things. I'm just saying they don't feel and think in the same way and on the same level as humans do.

No. 690479

>>690472
>>690473
If they are raised properly, cats know fully well when they do things that will annoy their owner or will make them mad. They also know when they do things that will please their owner and understand when they are praised. They are aware of consequences and effects of their actions and constantly contemplate if what they want to do is worth the outcome but are also capable of doing things that may seem like a loss on their part in order to protect their owner (yes, that's not something exclusive to dogs) or when they notice the owner isin bad health. They can have similar thinking patterns to humans, just more simplified.

No. 690489

>>690472
"Good" or "bad" are obviously in regard to punishment/bad behavior vs good behavior. Context.
>It's a cat
I really hope you're not a pet owner. This is near autist level lack of understanding of body language, expression, etc.
What do you think instinct means, and what it entails?

No. 690490

>>690415
I don’t particularly get it either. The vet said my cat has some anxiety issues, she wanders around doing those really loud sad meows for five to ten minutes after I leave (or whenever she thinks I’ve left lol). She’s memorized my work schedule, sits I’m the window sill where she can see the front door for about fifteen minutes before I usually get home, runs to the door when she sees me walking up. She runs to me when something loud spooks her or when my roommate brings strangers over. When she needs something, she’ll jump specifically on the counter I never let her walk on to get my attention. I know it’s not hard science but, even if she doesn’t have the full emotional range of a human, it’s just inaccurate to say she wouldn’t be able to recognize something as basic as whether I was there or not. I think the other anon might have said something without thinking and feels a little too dogpiled to back down from it now.

No. 690497

I don't know if this is the right thread for this but I don't know how to feel right now and I just need to say it so I can try to work through it.
>armchair doctors always telling me I should have my thyroid checked because I'm constantly cold, bruise easily, shed like a housecat, and my weight has fluctuated pretty heavily over the last 5ish years
>always assert that I bruise easily because I'm pale as hell (not anemia either), I'm cold because my standard body temp is just lower than "normal" (which is actually pretty common), my weight fluctuates due to my own voluntary poor eating habits, and everyone in my family sheds but I'm not balding over time, my hair just seems to have a fast life cycle where it grows fast and sheds
>get fed up and decide to ask my doctor to check just to confirm
>they say they don't think I have a thyroid problem either but understand my desire to put the question to rest and order bloodwork
>go in to the lab last week to give blood, doctor's appointment to discuss scheduled for this Friday
>through the double-edged-sword of technology, I get an early notification on my phone that the test results are starting to come in
>first notification is my metabolic panel, everything is smack in the middle of the normal range
>more results coming in over the weekend, everything fi-
>positive for Hep C antibodies
>immediate message from doctor, "don't panic the antibody test doesn't mean you have it, it's not unheard-of to come up positive for antibodies and negative when we look further, I ordered more tests"
>notification
>viral load: 155k
>call from doctor: "um, can you go back to the lab again before Friday."
>my mom got Hep C from a medical mistake before they knew it was a thing, but everyone told me I had been tested multiple times as a kid and there's only a 5% chance of mother passing it to child
>there is no reaction image suitable to express how I'm feeling, because I'm not feeling anything
>I don't know how to respond
>still desperately hoping this was some mistake and I'm going to go in on Friday and they're going to laugh and say it was a fluke and everything's fine
>know that they aren't going to
>the only thing I can feel is that I'm sorry for my husband to be stuck with me already
If I was still single and living alone I'd be planning my suicide attempt. I don't know how to deal with this. The one person who could possibly understand is my mom but I'm scared to even tell her because I don't want to feel like it's her fault.

No. 690512

>>690497
That’s an awful situation to be in anon, but I’m glad you have your husband and I hope you find some additional support too. Your mom may feel guilty, but is this really the kind of thing she’d want you to keep secret from her? I think you could both benefit from having someone else who understands. I think hep c is curable now, right? I hope everything turns out okay for you.

No. 690530

>>690512
The "cure" starts at about $1000 a pill and ranges up to about $8000 per. Ordinarily I'd say I have pretty good insurance, but I don't think it was that good. My mom had the most resistant type and only got the 95k-for-12-weeks one (Harvoni) because she volunteered to be part of the study before they approved it.

No. 690668

I hate how dumb and inconsiderate my upstairs are. They keep using our trash cans, our washing and dryer when they have their own. they also for some reason recently decided that our mailbox was there's??? And they started to take our mail out and putting it in their mailbox and also addressing things to our address(we live in the same house but they gave us two different numbers to the address so mail and stuff doesn't get mixed up.) They also will block my roommates car in the drive way so my roommate started to block them in and then they started to scream at us and bang out our doors in the middle of the night demanding we move it even though they do the same shit to us. We've left notes telling them and they'll stop for like a couple weeks and then start doing the dumb ass shit again.

No. 690669

A food truck that I almost exclusively ordered from because their food is the best just changed location to move into the city so now I’m out of range to have anything delivered and I have no way to drive. I just found out because I pumped myself up into deciding to treat myself to a burrito.

No. 690670

Fucking hate relying on busses. I checked the website in advance and i get to the stop it says “not in use”. Just a message in which street the other station is obviously not close enough to make it in time. Now I’m stuck waiting for a train in the cold and it’s not even seven fml

No. 690685

I'm still mad about when a childhood friend (who always had a crush on me I should have known better) said he was thinking about coming to visit my part of the country and asked if I wanted to hang out. I said yes because I thought we would hang out and get drinks one night. Nope turns out he planned his whole trip to see me. He assumed he was staying at my house, he assumed I would be feeding him. Like wtf? At the time I felt bad like I unintentionally led him on and even gave him $250 to help cover hotel fees because like hell he was staying at my place. He ended up talking a lot of shit about me, saying because of me he wasted $1000+, that I am cold and heartless etc etc. I had just started dating my current bf at the time and was with childhood friend when he quickly dropped off something for my work I left at his apartment and childhood friend literally wrapped his arm around my waist the moment my bf got out of his vehicle which of course caused some issues. It was such a retarded situation and probably the last time I was too nice to my own detriment.

No. 690739

Fuck essays. Fuck school. Fuck people. Fuck the people I knew. Fuck my past self. Fuck my pet. Fuck my bad habits. And fuck you.

No. 690752

I honestly don't care about you anymore.

No. 690753

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Whenever I sleep in my sisters bed (ex when she’s away from home of something because her bed’s comfier than mine) I get these bad nightmares(?), like opening my eyes and thinking I saw a huge bug or whatever and literally jumping out of bed, every time. Its so embarrassing.. I think the fact that her room/bed is right next to a large window (on the other side is the front of the house) has to do with it?
Sorry if I dont make sense or sound insane, I just woke up and needed to vent

No. 690756

Still so fucking salty about not getting into University. I applied beginning of this year for a program to get into university without having the needed pre-education for it (idk the international equivalent). I wanted to study Japanese and east asian culture. I had to do two assignments online and both got the workst grade for it. The problem was it was ridiculous topics, okey the first assignment was about economics in general and the second about some specific happenings in Japanese history. I was supposed to do them all without the internet (we all know that’s not gonna happen) and i had like 4 hours time for each. HOW the fuck am I supposed to know all this without studying it?? If I had to sit in a room and write the tests I would’ve given them two empty sheets of paper. I feel like they gave people extra hard questions so that they don’t have to accept them. This kind of field doesn’t even require any specific grades to get it’s not that i tried to be a doctor

No. 690767

I thought I'd resist temptation and just sell a bunch of books to only keep the manga I have that like the most, but now I'm buying entire shojo manga series I always want to read when I was a teenager because I finally have a full time job. I'm so bad at saving money.

No. 690772

>>690753
Oh, that happens to me when I'm camping or if I had to get rid of a big spider myself that day. I'll be half awake and feel a tickle (probably imagined) and freak out.

No. 690773

>>690756
Sorry to bug you but where are you from anon

No. 690776

Not sure if I'm looking to vent or for advice but I'm having huge trust issues with my boyfriend right now and don't know if I even want to continue the relationship because it feels like we will break up eventually anyway. But I don't want to break up and I'm not even sure if he is actually lying or if it is just in my head. All I want is to talk to my best friend or my grandma about this but if we stay together I don't want them to think bad about him for no reason.

No. 690777

>>690773
Germany

No. 690778

Got banned from a discord server I joined a day or two ago. All I did was completely normal interaction. Got no warnings or messages from the mods. I am so confused and kinda pissed

No. 690779

college wants me to read Deirdre McCloskey and….why everyone talks about him like hes some progressive ground breaking author? a male that thinks capitalism is great and is an agp how rare, fuck off i would rather read actual female right wingers philosophers than this. Guess im just pissed cause even if i didnt agree with "her" views seeing a female author being talked in class was geniunly exciting and then finding it was a man…

No. 690780

>>690739
Fuck me?! Fuck YOU.

>>690776
My dumb ass in my first relationship thought you didn't need trust for a healthy partnership, but I've since found out its the most important factor by a long shot. More than love, more than anything. Are the trust issues unfounded or what? Even if its a gut feeling its not a good place to be. What happened?

No. 690785

>>690773
Is there any way to talk it out with your Boyfriend?

No. 690791

>>690779
Today, instead of Ayn Rand, we would have Aiden Rand

No. 690792

>>690780
I caught him looking at sexual pictures online and he said he knew he shouldn't do this and it was a mistake, apologized and said it wouldn't happen again. I am pretty insecure so that hurt alot but I figured it could be worse and if he stops I will get over it. Since then I have walked in on him twice quickly closing browser tabs and then acting guilty and apologetic. The first time he had an excuse that I accepted but now that it happened again I just feel stupid. He swears he wasn't doing anything but I can't believe him. I know that's not a dealbraker for everyone but he knows I was absolutely crushed for days every time. If it was the other way round I could never consider doing anything that I know hurts him. So if he can, clearly he doesn't love me that much.
Assuming that he is actually lying but there is no way for him to prove he isn't.

No. 690793

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I didn't get ANY fucking sleep last night cause my period is making me pee every 2 minutes

No. 690794

>>690792
Check his browser history

No. 690803

>>690792
Your boyfriend sucks and you yourself sound like a manipulation bingo too.

Break up.

No. 690808

>>690792
Leave him, he's going to keep doing it behind your back anyways. I had a boyfriend who would do the same, but with video porn. He said he would never do it again, quite some time later he admitted to me he has an addiction for it. So I tried to help him sort out his issues, it was good for months. After I told him about my trauma relating to being abused because a relative of mine wanted to recreate sexual abuse from porn when I was a child, days later, he told me he watched porn again. If a man does it once, you can forgive him if YOU want to. If he does it twice, leave him. He doesn't care that his actions make you feel miserable. Everybody has guilty pleasures, however his is clearly breaking a boundary you are not okay with. Respect yourself because he doesn't respect your standards. You can find another boyfriend. I found one who never watches porn, he worships me to the ground, and has empathy. He's even a strong advocate agaisnt porn because he agrees that it hurts vulnerable women even before I existed into his life. You can do better anon, trust me, don't hold back on what feels safe right now. Your emotions matter.

No. 690810

my boyfriend is so insecure it's becoming tiring. i can't even give him a simple compliment (like how he's being kind) without him saying he thinks i will be disappointed in him eventually. i am trying to be sensitive with him but it's like damn i am not going to leave you, just stop being so self destructive.

No. 690819

What is up with men oversharing? I've known this guy for maybe 2 hours and the most he knows about me is my major. Meanwhile he told me how he used to abuse drugs, his step dad is an alcoholic, his siblings all have different fathers, and how he's the product of rape. What the actual fuck.

No. 690826

>>690819
he probably just wants some kind of attention or something. i have known men and women(usually pickmes) who do this and they don't realize how off-putting they are. it's hard to disengage with them, especially men doing it, because they get mad you're not reacting. ugh.

No. 690828

>>690819
Uhhhh did he seem earnest about it? Not to discredit any of that if it's true, but my question is what's stopping him from lying since you don't him all that well? His life sounds like Oprah's memoir, tbh.

No. 690842

>>690839
Your mom is a stupid bitch that is inlove with the idea of being a mom and none of the practicality that goes with it.

No. 690848

my boyfriend makes more than double what I do and his living costs aren't much more than mine and he never spends any of his money on me.

I know I'm not entitled to any of his money but it would be nice if he would maybe treat me occasionally, being that I can count the times he's made me orgasm on one hand.

No. 690859

I'm losing my mind with our collaborative company's HR secretary. I don't think I've ever seen a person that unqualified for their job, she can't even use a basic things like e-mail. I've sent her information she needs three times now, as clearly as possible, and today she asked for the fourth time that she needs that information.

Seriously, how do boomers like this manage in their life? How can a person like this be responsible for hundreds of people's contracts in a massive organization? I'm not the only one who's having these issues with her and I heard it's basically a sinecure for her. The hell, sinecure shouldn't be something like that!

No. 690869

God I wish I could just not spend so much money on stuff. My guy makes as much as I do and he has so much money saved cause all he spends money on is food and bills. I buy body care shit, house stuff like tablecloths and a shoe rack, I just bought a bidet– like I don't neeed this shit (I could just keep my shoes on the floor and just wipe my butt like a regular person lol) but I feel like it's stuff that would be annoying if I don't have them.

I went on a No Buy earlier this year and then Covid happened, so that was out the window. I think I need to get into that mindset again.

No. 690872

>>690848
I mean otherwise the money thing could just be benign dumbassery, as in men don't always realize there are things that would make you happy… that they could trivially easily get you… with money?? Or they might feel weird about it, like they're bribing you, at least in the high gender equality parts of Europe.

But anon… if he isn't that invested in making you cum, how is he worth staying with? It's not even directly about the orgasms even though that's already a reason to leave, like on a character level, why does he care so little about bringing you pleasure

No. 690879

I’ve been seeking help for a health issue for the past 18 months. From day one surgery was recommended, but the consultant kept saying it’s not that bad, let’s wait and see if it improves. I trusted them because the doctor knows best, right?

Fast forward to today, I had my first appointment in almost a year due to COVID. I get examined and immediately told this is not going to get better without surgery and that I must be in a lot of pain (well, yeah). The consultant and department board (I don’t know the proper phrase) still need to agree to surgery. Which they’ve rejected a couple times already.

I’m so grateful to live in a country with universal healthcare, but it’s such a fucking mess if you want anything more than a simple prescription. I don’t know what the point is anymore.

No. 690885

>>690848
>>690872

In all honesty I've been considering breaking up with him for a while. I guess because there's been nothing thats really pushed me to do it. He's better than the other men I've dated (though thats not saying much). I'm not conventionally attractive and where I live there's not that much choice in terms of men that are my age that aren't married or whatever, so I guess its just been my loneliness stopping me from ending it. He does have good qualities, he's not a porn addict, he cooks for me, he's sweet (at least on a surface level), same interests. but his lack of caring about my orgasm and him being so selfish really does grind my gears.

No. 690891

>>690885
Out of curiosity, are either of these things that you've talked to him about? Men shouldn't have to be coddled or talked/walked through this shit, but they are very stupid or will play stupid until it's put in front of them. As for the money thing, it could also be a matter of a different love language since he does things like cook for you–though sweet on a surface level concerns me, what does that mean?

No. 690897

>>690891
Based anon. What's glaringly obvious to people with emotional intelligence is completely foreign to even the best men.

No. 690898

>>690891
I've always been honest about whether or not I've orgasmed after sex and I don't fake orgasms, but I've never brought it up as its own topic. I guess I hoped he would hear 'no I didn't orgasm' and then want to change that lol. I've never asked him to spend more money on me/buy me presents/take me out (under non-COVID circumstances) because I fear I would just come across as whiney or entitled.

ah my apologies, I meant he's 'sweet on a surface level' like him doing things like cooking for me, but not so sweet he takes time/care to make me orgasm haha

No. 690902

>>690828
yeah he seemed pretty earnest about it. Tbh he does look like he abused drugs so I'm inclined to believe him.

No. 690908

>>690898
If he’s asking after sex (as in after he’s finished) then it sounds like he’s concerned/interested to some extent, but perceives the “sex” to be over and that’s why he doesn’t go back and try to help you finish. I think if it was a standalone conversation and you told him what you want in bed, it would be a more effective conversation. Just going off of what you’re saying and thinking best case scenario, he doesn’t seem to be dismissive, just…dumb about it. Maybe even take control for yourself and guide him into doing things that pleasure you. You guys are partners, it’s okay to give and take.
As for the money thing, I dunno, that could be a love language thing and might be based on how you split finances anyways. My bf and I take turns paying when we go out to normal places, but if it’s expensive, he always insists on paying bc he makes more money than me, and I let him. We both buy each other random gifts if we see something the other will like, but when it comes to asking for things, it’s only during holidays/birthdays. Is there anything in particular you’d like him to treat you with financially, or how is that split? Is it something you can just talk to him about as well? Again, men are dumb, anon. If he’s generally very sweet and earnest and not a POS, try communicating, but if it’s pure callousness or selfishness, then eh, not worth it.

No. 690916

>>690828
What the fuck is wrong with you?

No. 690918

>>690848
>being that I can count the times he's made me orgasm on one hand.

You two have way more issues than money. Talk it out or break up.

No. 690969

my boyfriend expects me to be a full time maid simply because he's the only one working. Except that he didn't do that for me when I was the only one working, I can count the amount of times he's done my laundry on one hand in five years. And by maid, I don't mean basic tidying, I mean putting away the food he leaves out and cleaning up full spills that he "didn't notice". Like he full on left a cheese grater full of cheese in our living room (?) overnight.
He texted me today all snarky because this place is trashed and since I got to "sleep in" until 7am, I should be cleaning until 7pm.

He has no idea he's gonna walk into a messy house with me on a large amount of drugs because I simply refuse to do anything else today. Fuck mutual respect and behaving today. Fuck literally chipping cheese out of an appliance today. I have officially logged out. I might do laundry though.

No. 690977

>>690969
May I ask why you two are together? Not saying you're in the wrong, you both just don't sound happy and he in particularly sounds like an absolute load of moid ass.

No. 690979

>>690977
We have so much in common, and I earnestly have fun with him. Just his texts today sent me on a total tirade and a lot of it has to do with my frustration at myself for not bringing it up in a mature way that I don't like this new behaviour from him. Every time I want to say "hey that's incredibly sexist and unfair" it turns into me REEEEEing and then cooling off in a separate room.
Just sooo extra pissed off at finding a hunk of cheese in my livingroom, too.

No. 690988

I live in a hoarding house with my parents. piles of clutter and trash everywhere. and now we are beginning to have a mouse problem.

my cat just caught a mouse. whenever she does that, my dad tries to get her to go outside with the mouse in her mouth. well he tried to pick her up to bring her outside but she dropped the mouse and it went running off into a pile of clutter. then he started whining about how are cat is stupid. (yes, it's the cat who's to blame here)

also my mom loves to complain about how cluttered our house is when it's 100% her fault it is the way it is. she is the one who hoards, she's the one who won't let us get rid of stuff. I remember times when I tried to clean certain areas and she chewed me out for it.

I want to move out, but I don't make enough money at my wageslave job. it's hard to get an education because I don't have a high school diploma (they never sent me to school for religious reasons). I can technically go to college but I struggle to do that and work full time, plus I can only take 1 or 2 classes at a time because it's all I can afford. I'm not eligible for funding.

oh yeah, and I probably just lost my job. because I was a delivery driver, and my car got stolen. fml

No. 690997

>>690979
That makes sense, it happens. I mean, you both are adults–I do think it makes sense that if one person in a relationship is working while the other isn't, the person at home should pick up around the home, but that doesn't mean the other forgets how to be an adult. Like hello?? Not picking up spills, messes he made, and things like that is incredibly unacceptable. You can help do his laundry, sure, but he can still put it in the hamper. You can do the load the dishwasher and put them away, you have the time, why not, but he can clear his plate and take it to the sink. And if he cooks something that's just for himself, then he should clean up his own mess imo, but that may be for you guys to decide on. Maybe put it to him like that? You aren't and shouldn't be a maid. That's ridiculous.
Also
>should be cleaning until 7 PM
Oh fuck off, it doesn't take that long and shouldn't just to punish you/make up for a work day. I hope you enjoy your day, anon. Do what you feel like doing.

No. 690999

>>690988
Anon go back to college, do it. Or even go back to get a high school diploma first. It's a long, expensive and tough road but ultimately it's going to be worth it if that means with a degree you'll no longer have to be an underpaid wageslave.

No. 691006

last time i went to get a pap smear done it felt like someone was tearing a new hole down there, the gyno used the smallest instrument she had but it still wouldnt work. i wish i was normal

No. 691011

What's with so many anons complaining about "having" to do emotional labor for scrotes? Like I get if it's your bf, but I have such a hard time having sympathy for people who do this under any other circumstance because literally nobody is forcing you to. You choose to do this even though I'm sure most of you realize that it's pointless. Why is it so hard to just tell these retards to fuck off and hire a therapist? God damn anons please have some self-respect.

No. 691018

>>690988
Start looking into the trades industry.
There are a lot of places who will pay for your apprenticeship, given that you stay with the company during it. You can become highly skilled and get paid for it.
Horticulture and carpentry are very desirable skills right now. It's important to know how to grow your own food/have basic animal husbandry or be able to build structures.

Keep your head high and you will get out of there.

No. 691031

I was accepted for the JET Program and we were told we could depart in January, now it's delayed again. I kinda don't care anymore because I'm irrationally angry with the placement they gave me. Another cunt in our group got the exact placement I wanted in the town where my boyfriend is. She didn't even request anything. All I wanted was to be somewhat near him, and now I'm on another fucking island a plane ride away. I'm seriously upset even though rule #1 of applying to this weeb job is to not expect to get your placement request. Fuck me. The pay is still better than my current job and I get to the leave the US, but I'm still bitter.

No. 691079

Was having a migraine and really bad cramps, cramps got worse but migraine went away. Cramps eventually die down and migraine comes back 100% worse. Just put me out of my misery anons

No. 691085

>>691006
It do be like that sometimes. I'd suggest you take painkillers beforehand the next time you go!

No. 691108

>>690988 things will get better anon they will. Once covid fucks off try to get your GED and look into becoming a cremator (they only need a hs diploma) and save up cash to go to a community college. Trade jobs are another great place to look into don't lose hope and I'm sorry you're in such a tough situation.

No. 691122

Ughh I hate those attention whores who go out of their way to mention their height/weight in some unrelated subject. So shamelessly attention hungry, it's annoying. Like 'Omg I'm afraid of dogs because I'm soo small I'm only 90 pounds'
Bitch nobody asked

No. 691125

the ideia of getting into a relationship with a man terrifies me. i don't want to deal with men anymore. i don't wanna die alone and i doubt i'm gonna find a woman who's gonna love me, but just the thought of marrying a man… no, just no.

No. 691179

Being off antidepressants means I actually care enough about my life to make consistent, positive changes. Its working! But I'm also dealing with a non stop feeling of huge impending doom and it's so exhausting. Idk how to deal with it

No. 691197

I want to be an influencer so badly, but I'm afraid of being "called out" for "copying" when I inevitably do something some other girl did that wasn't an original idea to begin with.

No. 691198

>>691125
sucks, doesn't it? men are horrible in every way and it's so rare to find a decent one that it makes you not even want to try. being straight is the worst.

No. 691204

I don't want to go to sleep because then I'll have to get up and work, but I know by doing this I'm making it worse for myself, but I just wish the world would fucking stop for a week and let me breathe. It's bullshit that during covid so many people got a break whilst so many of are drowning in stress.
Even as I write this though I realise I can't even compare my situation to that of someone working in a hospital. I hope all you health workers make it through this.

Everyone who has been given time off should go ask their working friends how they can help them smh

No. 691224

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my mom was watching softcore tranny porn with me when I was 9 years old but I wasn't allowed to watch spongebob
she told me all of my friends at school were being molested at home and that's why I was never allowed to see anyone outside school, and they weren't allowed to come over because she hated our house and was embarrassed of it
she told me every time I went outside I was going to be kidnapped and murdered, even if I was with my dad, who she also hated and told me didn't love me
I wish I was dead every single day and hate myself for being too much of a coward to end it myself
Eventually, I'm going to start walking into traffic

No. 691230

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I may come off as a raging ingrate but oh well.my mother paid $160 for a keratin treatment that barely changed my hair,I can't help but feel like shit.she kept insisting and insisting but I reluctantly accepted it anyway and now I'm not too happy with it because there's barely anything that changed,other than the hair color.I can't help but feel terrible even though it was her choice to change my "look"I now look more plain and uglier.I literally said no a billion times but she kept insisting.

No. 691258

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I started a new salaried office job and I'm anxious as hell. This is my first week. I feel like I make real good first impressions with people but I can never keep it up, which I credit in no small thanks to my resting bitch face and standoffishness when I'm hyper focusing on new material. Thank FUCK for facemasks so I can hide my bitchface and just smile with my eyes while I force a perky tone.
And I'm dead fucking scared that I won't learn all the damn training cause it's regulatory and super complicated, like terms and abbreviations that make no fucking sense to me. I even bunged up a spreadsheet today that's already loaded with formula errors that make inputs a nightmare. While the trainer who I report to is understanding so far, she's not going to be that way forever if I don't straighten out. They're going to migrate to an actual electronic system next quarter but I have to keep my head above water with this dumb spreadsheet business until then.

Just yesterday they were talking about a different employee in a different albeit similar regulation role, he was fired. They said that although he was very nice, he was just too inconsistent and made too many errors. I pray that I'll smarten up but holy fuck am I overwhelmed, and of course since the company is new the training is flying by the seat of their pants and it's very hard to ask for individual attention for anything since everyone is so busy with their own roles. The irony? They expect ME to be onboard training new employees by the start of January….yeeeeeeeah. I might be so fucked lolcow, I couldn't live with myself if I blew this job. The benefits are amazing even if the pay isn't.

No. 691262

My friend's ex is fucking annoying and I hate him. I was nice to him out of pity (issues unrelated to my friend) until I realized how trash he is.

He needs to the hint and leave me alone before I actually hurt his feelings lol

No. 691267

>>691204
get a better job then

No. 691288

I'm scared my life will never have a reason to try, I'm doing nothing right now and mostly feeling ok, what if that's the reason I'm ok. because I'm not trying so hard to be exhausted. I'm scared once I stop being a NEET I'm gonna drain myself and go full depression again. Because I lack energy and life meaning. idk if this makes sense but I'm afraid

No. 691292

>>691288
samefag. it's just here I have been thinking going to school or getting a job would make me feel better. what if it only takes away what energy and joy I have right now. I'm not sure if I'm actually doing better or if doing nothing has restored my bare minimum energy

No. 691299

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>>690221
twenty five….

No. 691306

>>691299
anon…

No. 691312

>>691306
Is it really so shameful for her to live at home? look at the state of the world rn, but Im a bit younger so what do I know

No. 691315

>>691312
honestly it isn’t, i was just being an ass and forgot i was in the vent thread lol. i stayed home during college for a few years so i get it

No. 691317

>>691299
tbf I did live on my own until covid

No. 691320

>>691312
It's not shameful if your parents are happy to have you and you get along well with them. The stigma against living at home in your 20s seems to mostly be a retarded American thing, but it's dumb af to handicap yourself financially just to avoid being embarrassed over nothing.

No. 691322

>>691320
or if they financially controlled you and wouldn't let you leave under threat of self-harm and you're currently working on your escape plan still
more common than you'd hope

No. 691326

Oh my gosh I need to stop being an insecure dumb bitch. I really just got my feelings hurt because my bf was playing that cyberpunk game and picked the female character and while he was customizing her I kept thinking about how he's just creating his ideal girl and that he must think I'm ugly as fuck because he didn't pick the larger areolas for her. I know that's not even rational, kill meee

No. 691327

>>691326
Why is your scrote even choosing a female character in an all customizable game in the first place? He’s basically making his own eye candy in game. Also why be with a scrote if you’re that insecure?

No. 691329

>>691327
it's totally common for guys to play female characters in video games though

No. 691333

>>691326
I doubt nipples are as big a deal as you think, and why would someone pick just one "ideal girl"? I'm of the belief humans can appreciate different features at once and find multiple people attractive. It's likely he is creating her to be appealing to him, but most people have more than one type they find appealing. Does this make sense? If his game crashed and he had to start over, he'd probably make a totally different character, not replicate that girl I gotta have with the tiny little areolas specifically (lol)
tl;dr it's not that deep.
Also as others will tell you, it'd help to improve your self-esteem. Don't let the opinions of a scrote, even if it's your bf define you. Then you can never be happy, seriously

No. 691336

>>691326
Think on how he'd react if the tables were turned.
Stan some attractive fictional dude in his presence. Then, you will know.

No. 691366

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I just got yelled at by a woman for not weraing a mask outside (they're not mandatory outside, we're in europe and the closes people around us were on the other side of the road) and I'm so burt out I almost started crying.

I'm stressed as fuck since a close family member died and my brother and mother are useless shits. All financial stuff is on me now, so is cleaning and taking care of the 4 pets we have. I'm tired. No one asked if I wanted any of this shit or if I need help. Wish I could at least have a restful sleep but no, I'm the fucking worst.

No. 691376

>>691011
I have noticed that many farmers are painfully passive in their lives

No. 691437

>>691326
>because he didn't pick the larger areolas for her
I'm sorry but is there actually a video game that customizes female characters all the way down to their nipple sizes? For what fucking purpose?

No. 691439

>>691366
Hey, I understand you. I'm in the same spot except my brother would help but he can't and we have only 2 pets. I really hate when people use whatever excuse under the pretense of having a higher moral ground to bully someone and ruin their day. I'm also from a european country and the amount of people that either live near me or are family members that have died from covid-19 has been expanding at a rapid rate so covid-19 feels very real to me.
I wish I could hug you and tell you that it's going to be okay with masks and gloves on of course.
You're doing your best and you're not alone in this. You're not the worst, you're the best anon.

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No. 691646

My teeth are rotting and I need dental care but I can't see any point in the forseeable future that I can get it.

I used to go to my home country where the prices are stupid cheap because from a certain amount up it's covered. But here a filing costs hundreds. Hundreds! And my insurance covers UP TO a ceratin amount. So it'd cost me thousands I don't have to fix up.

Over a year ago I visited family and every single day I went to the dentist. 10 cavities that needed filling, I think around 2 of them were permanently filled, and the rest were cleaned of active decay and given temporary fillings (could only get short appointments). They said the fillings would hold for a couple of months. It's now been over a year, and when I run my tongue over a particular one, I feel the massive dent that's been created and the edge of my real tooth that the filling is supposed to cover. It makes me so anxious to know that I NEED some medical assistance but I can't see a realistic way to get it, and it's like i'm biding my time, hoping that'll it'll stay in place until…covid goes down? I take a holiday to my home country without having to quarantine for a fortnight?

I'm brushing and flossing daily but that's not 100% foolproof is it? I feel like I was never taught the importance of dental hygiene, but for a while it's been all on me and i'm just an idiot. I won't get my fuckign teeth back just by explaining to my mouth that i'm sorry, I didn't realise the consequences. Like they're already damaged and not becoming undamaged any time soon!

No. 691654

A couple years ago I had a procedure done for an issue and I assumed this was a permanent solution. Stupidly, I randomly decided to look up this procedure today and learned that it is not a permanent solution. I don't know how I'm going to live with knowing this now.
I already feel the anxiety and sickness creeping up and I'm afraid. I'm going to be afraid for the rest of my life that this thing will come back and there is no permanent solution. God I'm never leaving my house again or doing anything.

No. 691667

>>691437
Nayrt but yes. You can even choose to not have any nipples at all. You can also freely choose your genitalia and preferred pronouns. It's all just super shallow pandering to woke crowds and dickgirl fetishists.

No. 691670

I'm so tired of everything. I want to go to sleep, wake up and knowing that I'll be healthy and free from pain. I want to cry in someone's arms and not being told that it's my fault that I'm sick, unloved and pathetic. I want to say to them that I want to go back to when I was a child full of energy and dreams, to when I had friends and hopes. Fuck, why did things have to turn out this way? Now I wake up without knowing what to do with my future, feeling like it's already the end of the road and obsessively doing things all day so that I can't feel or think anything.

No. 691687

Swear to fucking god, I am going to relapse into my eating disorder, I legit dont care anymore. I cried after looking at myself at a photo and everything in my life is going to shit. Nothing gives me a release. If im going to give myself pain, it better make me thinner in the end at least.

No. 691697

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Why does the media and modern day libtards cape for black criminal men so hard. Not good black men, but thugs. He and his friends locked an innocent couple in the boot of their own car, his friend shot them in the head and then Brandon set the car doused in lighter fluid on fire. It was found the woman died of smoke inhalation but
>oh noesss he’s a nice guy and that was a long time ago, let him off REEEE

makes me sick to think of those being the last moments of my life burning to death in the boot of a car with my dead husband and how terrifying and painful that would have been. He’s getting a better death than he deserves, good riddance I say

>inb4 he was a minor

I too was once a minor, and I with the majority of the population never murdered someone nor would I have participated if my friends did.

No. 691700

>>691697
Honestly I don't think he deserve the death penalty, but not because he's innocent/was a minor, but because, like you said, it's a better death than what he put his victims through. Wtf just let him rot in prison.

No. 691701

>>691697
>inb4 he was a minor
Agree that’s such a weird defense. Mistakes as a minor are shit like dressing questionably or getting involved in petty drama, not fucking murdering people.

No. 691702

>>691697
What does Trump has to do with any of this? If the crime happened 20 years ago I guess he was sentenced before Trump was president. And lol, who gives a shit about Kim's opinion on the matter? Anyway, your description of the crime is reminding me of a tweet I've seen thanks to lsa, about a teenage girl asking for her dad to not be executed because she wants him to be there for her graduation day, except everyone told her to fuck off because he was sentenced for locking two or three people in a truck, torturing them and setting it on fire.

No. 691707

>>691646
anon you should make a gofundme and shill it on twitter, this will only continue to get worse and may cause more serious health issues. It's not fun to ask for help but there are a lot of people (especially right now, during the holidays and covid) who are willing to help out with medical bills. if you can write a compelling case for why you need it and ask people to signal boost then you'll get donations for it.

>>691702
are you for real? it's a federal execution and the president is the only one able to stay it

No. 691711

>>691707
I'm not American so I don't know everything about American law. But that means Trump was just passively letting the guy be executed, right? As incompetent as Trump can be I can't really say I feel sorry for a guy who got directly involved in two murders.

No. 691719

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>breaks my heart man. i cry

>>691707
I don’t think the president can get involved if the court has already decided a verdict and punishment, and even then, why would anyone want to halt it. Just because the guy is a “nice” dude since and has a pic or 2 smiling doesn’t bring them back, they are dead and gone forever now in an awful way.

No. 691720

>>691702
This is the same case I believe, thats the daughter of this guy

No. 691721

>>691697
then Kim's bitch ass had the nerve to post a picture of the dude as a child, post a picture of his victims too.

No. 691740

>>691720
I'll have to check this out, I don't remember if the girl or the other twitter users mentioned the guy's name.

No. 691744

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I masturbated to degenerate stuff and now I feel fucking gross and I want to scream. I also get very avoidant of my bf every time I masturbate to that stuff and now I want nothing to do with him. Why do I always do that. Fuck fuck fuck.
I need to just delete that app, I get like this every time.

No. 691745

I miss going to concerts, man.

No. 691790

>>691744
I'm curious what was it?

No. 691792

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I gave one of my cats up for adoption, I've gone through so many people and I'm hoping I chose right but I;m so stressed and anxious I gave myself a panic attack and diarrhea, the person is nice but I can't help but have bad thoughts and now I've been listening to music and crying for over an hour I'm so fucking sad I miss her so much why is life so cruel why can't I have so many cats.

No. 691798

>>691697
five out of nine of the former jurors on that case said that it was wrongly decided

No. 691800

>>691792
samefag, nobody asked but here is one song I'm having on repeat rn, it feels like whatever song plays is about her it is breaking me.

No. 691817

My fiance's dad encourages him to cheat on me and justifies it by claiming we're young (early 20s) and it shouldn't matter, then later tried to justify encouraging him to dump me in the middle of the woods on a camping trip and claimed I was bringing him down even though I've got him several good paying jobs, scholarships, and admissions to college, then later claimed I wasn't a good fit for him because I have high functioning autism (only because my parents have a large age gap, I'm very successful and autism is barely a bother to me outside of the fact I'm shy and don't like loud noises and fall into eating patterns) and he thinks I'm going to give his grandkids autism even though my fiance has torrents and everyone else is allowed to have mental problems except me I have to be perfect mentally in order to be good enough I guess



What to do anons?

No. 691822

>>691817
have you spoken to your fiance about this? what's his take on it? if he isn't defending you against his dad then i think you already know what to do…

No. 691823

>>691798
Meaning?

No. 691825

>>691822
He's defending me against his dad most definitely and has talked about it with him several times. It definitely hurts both of us and my fiance is having a hard time to accept someone that he looked up to is being so cruel towards someone he loves

No. 691826

>>691825
this situation sounds very tough for the both of you. again, i think that there's not much for you to do in the situation, because going hostile mode toward parents, 90% of the time, is going to be overstepping boundaries. has your fiance considered giving his father an ultimatum? either be civilized toward his son's fiance, or barely ever see his son.

No. 691854

>>691817
Is your man marrying you or his daddy? Tell him to grow a pair and stop trying to reason with a toxic man who's trying to justify cheating. Time for him to go no contact with daddy until daddy can learn to behave.

It's honestly sus that your fiance feels the need to tell you these hurtful things the man says about you instead of just telling him to shut up. That's gonna be your FIL anon, if you don't establish respect now it will NEVER happen.

No. 691857

>>691826
That's what has been happening currently, his parents are the typical self righteous Republicans that believe that they're never wrong. His dad his a major psychopath and has a history of abusing animals as well, the biggest problem is trying to unbrainwash my fiance of his bullshit

No. 691879

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>>691798
>covers car in lighter fuel and sets a car alight after friend shot innocent couple in the head
>jury wrongly decided because good boy now
>bust a nut in a woman b4 so a daddy, don’t kill the murdering daddy! think of the child!
>was only 18 at the time and 18 year old brains are the size of a pea and run on autopilot sims mode with no autonomy obvs
>he did not shoot, only burn

Guilty. Fucking frazzle him. Hasta la vista.

No. 691887

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having sex is almost fucking not worth it because of all the pain it causes me afterwards. my bf has a large dick unfortunately and i feel like after i visit him i need to be in bed for three days because im sore as fuck, have a surprise UTI, burning, etc. i feel like sobbing right now because i know the pain is going to keep me up all night yet again and i have work in the morning. i feel like this is god punishing me for being a fornicator. even though sex feels good in the moment i wish i just had a microdick bf instead so i don't have to feel this horrible. but again its my fault because i am really shy and i dont know how to discuss sex issues with him, we just kind of do it and then dont talk about it. id feel so embarrassed saying something or stupid if i brought lube which is totally irrational but still. FUCK.

No. 691899

>>691887
You really gonna suffer like this over some man you can't even properly open up to? Girl.

No. 691901

>>691887
Anon you already know that if you're too shy to talk about sex directly you probably shouldn't be doing it, you need to get over that or your sex life will suck forever. Just send him a message if you have to.

UTIs are more commonly caused by bacteria on his dick or hands, not enough lube, not peeing before and after sex or going at it for too long. It would definitely be good if you bought the lube, you can also look up positions specifically for when the dick is too big and try doing it after a shared shower.

No. 691903

>>691879
Come on anon, it was an mistake. Who of us wasn’t aiding and abetting murder and burning people alive at 18? He wasn’t the one that pulled the trigger. He thought they were dead before burning the car! Why on earth would he be the one to check when he saw them get shot with his own eyes? He’s done his time and so deserves a second chance.

No. 691904

>>691887
I feel guilty for laughing but this post sounds like such a over the top humble brag about your bf
>my bf's dick is so BIG and he FUCKS me so GOOD I feel like i need a HOSPITAL. honestly I wish he had a MICROPENIS

No. 691905

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I have court in less than 9 hours fuckkkkk this, my ~social anxiety~ is gonna fuck me over. I can't handle talking in large groups especially when the focus is all on me aaaaaa. Why they fuck did that retarded alchey scrote destroy my work and make rape threats. Fuck this. He's done this shit before but the court just let him off with home arrest or send him to the psych ward so what's even the point.

No. 691911

I don’t want to derail Shayna’s thread any further and I also feel bad about bringing it here but holy fuck, I hate e-whores. Whores in general who choose to partake in it, really. They’re so disgusting, and anyone pro sex worker has worms in their fucking brains. There is no excuse to choose a profession or platform that facilitates human trafficking, including children, distributing child porn, rape/rape on rape, revenge porn, etc, yet muh money and freedom when they have the freedom to get a job anywhere else. Or hell, still work for themselves by developing a skill. Absolutely abysmal state of the world.

No. 691915


No. 691918

>>691887
anon if you're too afraid to be talking about sex with your partner you shouldn't be having sex. We're not saying this to hate on you but it's more for your health and safety, such as if you were to catch an STI from him you need to be able to have that uncomfortable conversation with him.

>>691905
Good luck anon I wish you the best and I hope everything goes your way.

No. 691936

>>691879
I just saw one of my wokefag mutuals on instagram share something about how people should call and advocate to prevent his execution, and I genuinely wonder if she/anyone else who shares these things looks into the background or case before sharing them.
>inb4 infighting about recent police killings/brutality
Field officers are not judge, jury, and executioner regardless of whether or not someone is a criminal.

No. 691940

>>691911
lol my favorite thing is when they flex their money because you know they're not saving or investing a single cent of it and will be totally fucked once their fans find a younger and hotter girl to jerk off to. but yes girl you're so much smarter than the women who have actual careers with benefits and retirement plans because disgusting old men will send you tips until their wives find out. girl power

No. 691959

I get extremely sad whenever I see old people working minimum wage jobs. Why do they (we) have to work all their lives just to end up struggling anyway. I'd be so upset if that was my grandma.

No. 691963

>>691959
I feel the same. I also get a bit angry.

No. 691973

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i want enough money to never have to worry about anything ever again. who doesn't though.

stg if i won the lottery i would do absolutely nothing for an entire month. i would play all the games i want to play but can't because i lack the $$$ and time.

and you know what? i'd be altruistic as fuck. i'd invest 1mil and donate the cash i made from that investment. don't fuck with me

No. 691974

>>691959
i used to be friends with an old grocery store cashier and i felt so bad she had to work all the time. before i moved i bought her some nice alcohol cause she always talked about getting fucked up after work. she was cool af.

No. 691980

Someone I considered a best friend dropped all communication with me and the few people she cared about while she lived in the us when she moved back to Japan. I miss her but I don’t think she misses me. And if she does she sure as hell doesn’t show it. It’s been over a year since she’s even tried to call or talk to me. I don’t even know what she looks like anymore. Her hair or how she styles herself….I’ve known her for almost 18 years….it shouldn’t hurt this bad but it really does. It’s fine if someone wants to move on or whatever but the common decency to just say hey maybe we’ll talk again some day or something Idk it just makes me sad and stuff. I don’t want our memories to be all tainted and gross but I feel pretty disgusted with the whole thing. I’ll never know if I did something. Oh well I guess

No. 691983

I'm so tired of dealing with narcs. I know I shouldn't play into their games, but I can't help but get mad when they bait me into a argument. I don't want to argue but they will continue to berate me when I want to stop and make up lies about me and then get mad at me when I cry. I just want to be left alone. Why do you have to ruin every moment I'm happy? At this point I'm either going to kill myself or kill them.

No. 691999

>>691792
im sorry anon, i cant imagine. your cat is still alive and still loves you. i love you anon i hope you feel better soon :(

No. 692009

I really hope at least one person knows what the fuck is wrong with me or can at least resonate with this, because even typing it out makes me hate myself for it.

My brain has a habit of thinking about things that I know are WRONG and that I don't believe. Like I will be out and about and I will picture something gross or fucked up and think "what the fuck.. why is this in my head". I'll give an example. I was born and raised around African Americans. My friends are black, my classmates were black, and I STRONGLY care about the black lives matter movement to the point where what happened these last few months brought me to tears and made me donate despite not having a lot of money.

With that being said, It's almost like the recent denouncement of racism is causing racist terms and thoughts to pop up in my head, even if I can honestly say I don't believe or feel that way. For example, I was watching a show and my favorite character, who is black, popped up on my screen and in my head I just thought "N*". It came out of nowhere and for no reason. It's almost like everything I am strongly against, starts to ruminate in my mind. It constantly feels like my mind is infested with fucked up shit that I would never act out on or believe in. I hate it. I feel like I have no control.

No. 692014

>>691959
old people sometimes just genuinely like to be active and social and have something to keep them busy. old people have a different work ethic. i know of people from previous jobs who used to have managerial roles then years later become a lower paid cashier/receptionist/etc, often i used to wonder why, but i guess the less money sometimes the less stress.

No. 692020

>>692009
Intrusive thoughts Anton, i get them too

No. 692023

>>692009
Yeah, like the anon above me said, intrusive thoughts. You should look it up and see other people's experiences and what works for them. I have them for time to time, especially if I'm exposed to fucked up shit in the Internet (racists, misogynists, all that) and aside from not reading that shit anymore, meditation made it easier

No. 692026

>>692009
Just adding to above anons, it might be useful for you to research pure OCD.

No. 692027

Lmao I tried looking up advice for how to be liked at my office job and this one article under their second bullet point that was 'Be the person you'd want to be friends with' it went on further
>"I like to think of this step as channeling your inner Ellen DeGeneres. After all, when was the last time you heard anyone say they hate Ellen? Answer: never."
LMAO. I mean yes she's popular enough to have a show but I don't remember her being a national treasure even pre-cancel culture. Lots of people disliked her since the beginning.

No. 692029

>>692009
Yep these types of thoughts are pretty normal, everyone gets them. What matters is how much distress they cause you because that could be indicative of something else going on like an anxiety disorder or OCD.

I was recently diagnosed with OCD because I struggle with a wide arrange of intrusive thoughts. It's not easy to identify your compulsions when you struggle with "pure OCD" but you probably have a lot of mental ones that you don't know about if you have it. Thinks like researching, checking your body, checking past memories, ruminating, repeating certain phrases in your head, all count.

You should check out Imp of the Mind by Lee Baer.

No. 692032

>>692029
Samefag but some of the stuff I have struggled with is fear that I would say slurs, or that fears I was attracted to my family members like my dad or brother. I would get really horrific intrusive images/thoughts about them that I would need to do certain things to help relieve my anxiety, like knocking on wood or researching on google the difference between actual wants and OCD lmao. So definitely not alone anon.

No. 692080

>>692032
Wait this is me. I literally have impulsive thoughts about my house blowing up or people dying immediately if I don't tell them I love them. Thoughts like "If I don't make it to this green light my boyfriend doesn't love me" and if my boyfriend says "Ugh, I'm gonna diiiie" I make him knock on wood and get extremely pissed if he doesn't…

I'll check it out, thank you anon.

No. 692083

My boyfriend basically told me he has a NSFW twitter, which I don't follow, nor can see, when he knows I have severe bpd and get intensely uncomfortable over him talking about watching porn and shit.

I know I'm entirely in the wrong for even caring. I hate having stupid fucking bpd and I know like, it's controlling. But now I'm just …??? I have no fucking clue what he does on there, what he RTs and interacts with. Porn in general makes me so uncomfortable. I kinda stormed out of the room and cut our conversation short from that and now I'm just stewing in my own uncomfort.

No. 692095

I hate animal people so much. They don't care if someone gets attacked by a shark because iT's ThEiR hOmE. The lack of emapthy is awful. The News can't even report a shark sighting to warn beach goers without a million people in the comments yelling about LEAVE THEM ALONE and ITS THEIR HOME. Um.. It's just a warning. Calm down. Every summer they start this bullshit and it's a large majority of people. They will protest and protest the government culling dangerous sharks but will go eat their death burgers from Mcdonalds.

No. 692101

>>692095
Shark attacks are pretty rare nowadays and are mostly caused by dumb people going to swim off limits despite having been warned about the presence of sharks. I don't really care when people die by their own stupid mistakes, but if it's a genuine accident it's totally different.

No. 692113

>>692095
>protest the government culling dangerous sharks
they aren't dangerous if you stay out of their home

No. 692114

>>692113
I hope they cull as many sharks as possible. I want a record this summer. I want to see them hung and displayed in town as a warning to the other sharks. Then I want to eat them. Shark fin soup, anyone?

No. 692115

>>692083
The problem with bpd patients is that their shit self-esteem and identity issues can make them overly self-critical. Even more so in cases like yours, when you’re additionally self-loathing for having this illness and desperate not to come across as a bpdfag.

Don’t fall into that trap. You need to work on your emotions and behaviours, definitely, but the goal is not to be a robot. Setting that as the aim - even subconsciously - is going to fuck you up because you WILL fail. You have a mental illness characterised by extreme emotions and responses. A completely mentally healthy person has things that make them feel negatively, so you have no chance.

You’re allowed to be anti-porn and express that. Plenty of women are. I’d say in this case, the cause of your feelings doesn’t matter if the end result is the same, but I understand it feels different to you. Maybe you could analyse WHY you have these feelings. Is it because you don’t want him looking at other women (understandable, but possibly bpd feelings)? Because you’re genuinely afraid he’ll run off with some Only Fans girl (unlikely, probably bpd)? Or does porn disgust you because it’s exploitative and so on (not bpd)?

Figure out the reasons and go from there. You have bpd and it makes these things difficult, but that’s not the beginning and end of you. Recovery is possible (even if partial), and completely normal people experience emotions too, even unreasonable ones at times. You just have to learn to be critical and control your responses.

No. 692116

>>692083
You're not in the wrong for caring. Porn is degenerate. Watching random videos once a week to jerk off is one thing (altho with how hardcore every porn on the internet has become, even that isnt normal anymore) but going out of his way to make his little collection on twitter, interact with porn artists/porn actresses, discussing it with other weirdo is on a whole other level. This is not normal and it's natural for you to be hurt.

No. 692117

I watched an episode and a half of euphoria today for the first time with the guy I’m seeing cause he likes it (i told him I only know the basic premise and he said “oh well it’s Skins for zoomers” like what the fuck 21 year old guy knows skins? I keked) but anyway I know it’s not necessarily for teens but like really, how many adults can stand it? but fuck some of that shit was a lot, just such a bleak depressing show and constantly seeing all those naked girls with really nice tits & the part where it talks in detail about how the guy likes the one girl cause she had 0 body hair was lowkey just making me insecure and like, fuck I’m not even a 16 year old watching this. Like it sounds so stupid but I genuinely felt insecure seeing all those naked girls just cause it was so gratuitous!!

No. 692120

i'm having a dentist appointment next week and i want to die~~ it's just the routine every-six-months-thing (though i wasn't there in a year) but i'm still shaking and panic sweating even now and have the suspicion that i'll faint there again~~~ if i throw myself off the stairs or infront of a car i might die and don't have to worry about these stupid exposed bones~~~~ maybe i should do it~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ no suicide bait, i'm just dramatic and really really scared of dentists

No. 692121

Four Years of lurking this Site and I’m breaking it bc I dreamed about Lolcow and Eric Cartman from South Park. He was raiding the site and I wanted to annoy him so I shitposted smth that I knew would make him react. I checked to see if he took the bait and I realised that I accidentally namefagged, which made me panic bc I didn’t want him or other Anons to shame me for it and use that to ignore my super awesome and smart bait. Why am I dreaming shit like that, I don’t even watch South Park .

No. 692123

>>692120
What scares you about them?

No. 692125

>>692117
I kind of like the show but I agree with you on that part, even more so since I haven't shaved my legs in like 5 years lmao

No. 692131

I stopped drinking one month ago and I'm more depressed than I've been in my life. I feel like I can't remember anything that has happened in my entire life, like I materialised in my room a week ago and have only ever known going to work and then laying in bed waiting to sleep. I don't have the energy to read or do scarcely anything.

Muted awe to think about the sheer emptiness of my life, and the feeling that I have never cared about anyone or enjoyed a single thing I have ever done, none of which I can even fathom except as a story told to me about someone else. Just me in this room, forever.

I used to mourn the idea of the girl I used to be, the notion of my intelligence and charisma, grow angry at the things I had lost, but now it's as alienated to me as a character in a book. I simply can't fathom my own existence as a 'self.' Nothing at all feels grounded or real.

I would say I can't go on like this, but I know I will, because it is just the furthest line of the degradation of my spirit I have passed through. There's never a bottom to the depths you can sink to.

No. 692132

>>692116
I'm pretty anti-porn in general, but it would definitely freak me out if someone I was dating had a NSFW twitter. It's one thing to casually browse, but having a whole twitter to follow/RT/comment on that shit goes way beyond casual viewing. Anon is right to be upset, BPD or not.

No. 692134

>>692116
Hardcore porn is not anything new, anon. It's literally been around for years.

No. 692142

>>692134
NTA, but I think that anon was referring to how gross mainstream porn has gotten. Pretty much every video on the front page of pornhub is something like "hot asian teen first time step-brother anal, watch her scream in agony" or some other similar title.

No. 692145

>>692142
The front page of pornhub is populated by an algorythm based on your history on the site. :^)

No. 692147

>>692142
I still feel like that's not new though? I feel like that's been a thing since porn sites have existed. Maybe it's just me though.

No. 692148

>>692145
… but if you never visit it and go there once, you see those things. nta but it's literally right there, from the start. also I think those are in the most popular categories of porn

No. 692150

>>692145
Kek what? Almost every site has popular/recent content on the front page, it doesn't need your viewing history to suggest them.

No. 692151

>>692083
If you think about it, it's surreal how many girls and women have been manipulated into thinking that she's "entirely in the wrong" for caring/not wanting her partner to watch porn.

Like we've been forced on a large scale to just silently accept that men in a relationship jerk off to naked women on screen, otherwise we're whiny, controlling bitches. And that's just the emotionally cheating aspect of it, don't get me started on the disgusting industry that porn is. It's truly surreal, I have no other words for it.

Anon if you take anything away from this post, let it be that you're not at all "entirely wrong for even caring" and that it's reasonable not to be okay with your boyfriend's porn habits.

No. 692152

>>692149
it's voyeurism with less consequences. people will say "oh but there was never a chance they'd fuck those girls" but does that really matter? do they really need to look at porn in their life? all it's brought is sexual dysfunction and insecurities

No. 692154

>>692147
>>692134
Well yeah, it's just that porn sites have existed for a very very short time. The magazines and vhs tapes that came before them were nothing like internet porn, they were far more normal. This was just like yesterday for us older anons. I don't see hard-core porn as a given like you, it didn't use to be until very recently.

No. 692155

>>692154
>existed for a very very short time
Like 15 years?

No. 692156

>>692121
Lol anon I'm glad you broke lurking status to post this because this was hilarious.

No. 692157

>>692134
Ok but it's mainstream now. I accessed to hardcore sites when I was young and impressionnable, I know it has always existed, but now you don't need to go to an obscure site to find it, it right here on the front page of all most popular sites.
Plus this doesn't change anything to the original point. Anon is right to be upset, it has nothing to do with mental illness. Her bf is a shitty coomer.

No. 692159

>>692155
Yup, it's literally a blink of an eye as soon as you put it in perspective. It's not some well established phenomenon, it's totally new.

No. 692160

>>692157
It's probably just me then. I don't feel like porn has changed that much.
>Plus this doesn't change anything to the original point. Anon is right to be upset, it has nothing to do with mental illness. Her bf is a shitty coomer.
I didn't say it did?

No. 692163

>>692083
It's extra fucking weird you can't see it. Who knows what kind of degenerate shit he's following?

No. 692201

Hospitals and laboratories in my country keep making appeals in both the regular media and social media about how desperate they are for laboratory analysts to process COVID tests. I have all the necessary qualifications, yet every time I apply to a position or even respond to a call for volunteers I get the same “thanks for your interest but we currently have no position for you” reply. One place I replied to even said they’d take kids who haven’t finished their schooling and are technically unqualified because they’re that desperate for people. Still they apparently have no need for me, a fully qualified analyst with several years of relevant experience. I have no idea how I’m going to explain the year-long COVID-shaped gap on my resume to potential employers because I genuinely don’t understand why it’s there.

No. 692213

I obsessively plucked out too many of my eyebrow hairs a month ago when I was insecure because I wanted the bottom of it to be straighter and match but now there’s sparse stripes while the hair is growing in and it makes me even more annoyed because I keep telling myself to let them grow back and not touch it but I keep noticing and trying to fix it by positioning the hair in the right place. Just want them back

No. 692219

Ahhhhhh I wanna dissapear so baaaad

No. 692231

>>692121
Kek I am so glad you shared this

No. 692234

>>691817
>even though my fiance has torrents
tell him to seed haha

No. 692258

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>it's another 'anon gets liquid shits on her period' episode

No. 692266

I’m so enraged right now. I’m thinking of my first relationship and realizing how abusive it was. I was only 14-16 so I didn’t realize at the time. So many lies, so much gaslighting, so much fear. He told me if I left him that his family would kill me. I wish I could confront him and tell him that he’s a fucking piece of shit. I seriously wish him the worst and hope to god he doesn’t do to other women what he did to me. Fuck you Charlie.

No. 692277

>>692266
Same here, anon. My first ex stole my virginity, abused and controlled me, and emotionally manipulated me into staying with him via suicide threats if I ever left him. We were 15. Idk how old you are, but I'm 26 now and as sad as I am for myself for ever having gone through that, I'm fine. Much better off without that loser, and I know he's still as insecure and pathetic as he was then. You got out of it, you'll continue to grow, and it's okay to be angry at him, but he doesn't deserve to hear from you, even if it's to tell him what a pathetic piece of shit he is. Fuck Charlie, and fuck Chris.

No. 692280

My boyfriend's coworkers suck and he has to redo their work 99% of the time. It's been stressing him out, he's been working extremely long hours, and he's been pretty melancholic and frustrated about it in general lately, but he won't. Fucking. Tell them. He'll send an e-mail back with "corrections they'll see," but they obviously don't care and are taking advantage of the fact that he's better at and cares more about the quality of work than they do. I comfort him, and I really am proud of him for being good at his job and caring, but also, it pisses me off so much that he won't grow a fucking spine and delegate the work with instructions and expectations for how it should be done. It's gotten to the point where these bitches are asking him for input for things OUTSIDE OF WORK because "he's just so creative/better at these things!" yet he still won't tell them off. Most annoying part is that when I get mad, he "feels attacked," even though it's more misdirected frustration than anything, but still. Swear, I'm going to steal his laptop and tell these bitches to stop being so bad at their jobs. Not really, obviously.

No. 692281

I have therapy in an 2 hours and I have not slepttt. I want to take a nap but if I sleep then I will not wake up, and if I don't show up I will be billed 100 dollars or something. I start exposure therapy today and I am not only ill prepared mentally but now physically as well. I am going to cry, why do I do this to myself.

No. 692287

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I'm emotionally maturing and developing very quickly at the moment. Life is currently testing this new-found maturity through health concerns and responsibility I have towards the health of others. I'm absolutely terrified at the moment but at the same time, I'm the maturest and most responsible I have ever been, so that's something to cherish

No. 692316

God I'm glad I didn't pre order Cyberpunk 2077. This game looks like it needs at least another fucking year of development.

No. 692324

>>692316
that's most games these days.

No. 692328

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> SIL starts copying me from hairstyle to my personal interests and typing style
> She jokingly "anonymusly confessed " on her gc that she wishes she was me, also mentioning the fact that I am her brothers partner (being a reason to that). And our only together convos we had always involved her saying how much she WANTS to be me.
> randomly starts dating a kid whose birthday is close to her brothers birthday and personalities are almost the same

Anons…? Am i being paranoid or…That's fucked up…Isn't it…?

No. 692359

>>692287
I’m going to send this to my mother. I’m sure she will hit me with her shoe.

No. 692373

>>692328
you stole her brother, she's gonna steal your life

No. 692382

i have no idea how to feel. last night my boyfriend fucked me after i had smoked (medicinal marijuana, i rarely use it,) i was really out of it, i don't even remember much aside from asking him why, and that i needed to sleep, and him telling me he needed to touch me, me telling him to wait and he'd stop for a moment before picking back up. i didn't, like, hate it. it's not like he didn't make me feel good, but i feel extremely weird about it.

No. 692384

My mom had a shitty boyfriend for a couple years when I was a kid and things he did/said still kind of affect me. It's like he was always suspicious of me and my brothers hanging out? If I was in the basement playing video games with them he would burst though the door trying to catch us fucking or something is what it seemed like. I was playing my DS on the couch and my brother was leaning over it watching me do some boss fight or something and my mom's bf saw that and told my mom we were perverted for being so close. Another time he lost it at my brother for taking my 6 year old sister at the time to the pool for lessons because he was holding her hand while she was in a bathing suit. He made it like every normal sibling interaction we had was fucked up and wrong. Even years later I feel uncomfortable and guilty if I sit too close to my brothers.

No. 692386

I kind of wish I was born a young, tall and attractive straight man. I notice women admire and fawn over those men. Meanwhile if you are an attractive woman you're just a whore or a manic pixie dream girl that men feel entitled to.
If a woman gets a man way more attractive than her she will appreciate him and do the best she can to keep him. Men just get a confidence boost and think they can get a hotter woman.

I noticed that attractive men are actually looked at by straight women with love and care.

No. 692387

>>692382
Your boyfriend assaulted you. Sorry, anon. Tell him to keep his gross hands off you when you say no, especially when you’re under the influence. Maybe make a hard rule, while sober, that you do not want to have sex/be touched when high so he can’t twist it next time. Men are disgusting.

No. 692394

>>692382
here's the hard truth: no consent = rape

No. 692401

It still amazes me how normalized rape is in straight relationships. Germaine Greer was right.

No. 692403

>>692386
Why do you wish such incredible pain upon your mother?

No. 692414

>>692277
>I know he's still as insecure and pathetic as he was then.
Yep, earlier this year he called me at midnight after years of no contact and he told me it was “accidental” and “forgot to delete my number.” It just made me feel bad for him even though he was awful. Thank you anon. FUCK Chris!

No. 692421

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The intersection of liberal feminism and muslim women produces the most retarded takes. Being an Arab woman is just constant blackpill.
>Soon after “Ladies First” was screened, I met these Saudi students in Washington Square Park in New York. Hend, on the left, had watched the documentary and criticized it for portraying her country as a place that oppresses women. “We don’t need to abolish male guardianship,” she said. “We need to teach men how to be better guardians.”

No. 692427

>>692401
Most guys think if you are their gf or wife your body is theirs.

No. 692440

>>692421
They’ve been brainwashed for so long that they’re extreme pickmes and they will never change their ways.

No. 692441

Sometimes I watch movies with good father and mother figures and I just can't cope with the fact I will never have good parents. It's just something I could never ever possibly have. It's gone. I was very detached as a teenager and I thought it won't affect me but now at 24 it makes me so angry. I seethe when I hear other people my age talking about their parents, talking to them on the phone etc. The parents in my family are pretty shit in general, but mine were especially shit. Having good parents seems surreal. Reliable adults seem surreal. I hated all adults and I still hate them, despite being one. I was diagnosed with reactive attachment disorder, which came as no surprise to me, I was actually expecting this diagnosis. The therapy didn't really help me with my problems. I'm pissed at the world all the time, I just can't let go

No. 692446

>>692421
As much as I hate conservatards, they have a point when they say that western feminists will criticize the most inane shit in Western society but completely ignore all the horrible misogyny that goes on in the Middle East. I wish you could criticize the misogyny of Islamic society without being accused of being ~*Islamphobic.

No. 692447

>>692421
My saudi friends who live in saudi drink, smoke and are very gay but that's only possible due to their dads being very chill/dead, even then that place sucks ass for women. It's absolutely bizarre to see people caping for the men there.

No. 692471

I swear to god every couple i know is getting pregnant right now and i do NOT want to be surrounded by that shit in 9 months when im trying to enjoy life

No. 692496

i keep having impulsive thoughts about shaving my head. Help, how do I stop this

No. 692504

>>692496
just actually shave your head

No. 692510

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I can't bear the word 'yikes' and it's used here constantly. Every other post is like picrel. No contribution, just Y I K E S I N G. Shut the fuck up!!

No. 692511

>>692510
Agree
It’s always said over some trivial shit too

No. 692514

>>692510
Life must be hard for you

No. 692516

>>692382
Anon… That's rape. Especially if you kept telling him you're unsure, and he didn't seem to stop and even ask if you wanted to..

No. 692518

>>692510
What do you usually say when something makes you uncomfortable or caught off guard? "Mama mia!"? "Ruh roh Raggy!"?

No. 692519

>>692514
sage dipshit.
>>692518
Blimey! I'm a britbong.

No. 692520

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>>692504
Nta but not everyone has the skull shape to rock this look. I would love to shave my head but I know I would look like absolute shit. I'm super jealous of girls who look good with shaved heads or buzzcuts

No. 692525

>>692382
Genuinely rape, anon.

No. 692537

>>692496
DO IT! I SHAVED MY HEAD AND NEVER REGRETTED IT!!!!!

No. 692544

>>692496
I think you should shave your head

No. 692562

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My sex drive diminishes to the point of near non-existence in relationships. Like, I won't even feel like masturbating or fantasizing, which I tend to do a lot of if I'm not seeing anyone. I don't think it has anything to do with the men I'm dating because it will occasionally come back an I can have great sex with them, regardless of whether their a piece of shit person or not. I don't know why I'm like this but I fucking hate it.

No. 692564

>>692496
Shave it, every woman needs to feel the liberation of being bald at least once.

No. 692565

>>692421
If they like it there so much they should go back there and rot. Muslim pickmes are a particular brand of militant and aggressive for some reason.

No. 692574

Hello I cannot stop avoiding or outright sabotaging any opportunity to improve my life.

No. 692575

I’m getting SO sick of YouTube, and there’s only like a handful of people I can actually stand to watch. But it’s the adverts, I can’t fucking stand them. Double 5-10 Second Unskippable ads, numerous ads scattered throughout the videos, the YouTuber begging you to buy their merch or use their promo link, it’s like FUCK. OFF. This is the exact thing that made me SICK of tv. YouTube felt like a far more genuine thing years ago, when not everyone came to the platform to make money. Especially that YouTube ad that is advertising YouTube premium to stop getting ads. Social Media in general is just hellish now.

Also I only use YouTube on my phone/tablet. I don’t know how to get ad block or anything.

No. 692577

My boyfriend's dad is pissing me off. My boyfriend doesn't have his license and his dad literally drives out everyday twice a day to take my bf to work and bring him home. My bf promised me he'd learn to drive. He mostly knows how but keeps making excuses not to take the test. Today he said again but but how is he going to take the test without a car? Turns out his dad has been telling him all along that he needs to buy a car first. Bf keeps saying he doesn't think he'll pass anyway.. so why the fuck would we buy a car right now if neither one of us can drive it? (I can't drive either so yes it's hypocritical.) I'm getting so angry having this conversation over and over just for the dad to keep discouraging him from taking the test. I'm not wealthy, I can't buy a god damn car and pay for the insurance just to have it sit in the parking lot unused until the battery dies. I tried explaining this so much and bf keeps saying his dad and I both have good points. No. His dad does not have a good point. He's deliberately trying to keep bf in child mode for some reason. I only know one person who bought a car before they got their license and it was some rich girl from high school who's daddy bought the car as a present. Like you can't even register a vehicle without a licensed driver's name on the form. Someone else would have partial ownership of the car, probably his dad would have to sign. This is so dumb. I'm so pissed.

No. 692580

>>692575
if you're an android user download YouTube Vanced
if you're an apple user idk. suffer

No. 692581

>>692577
Both of these people sound insufferable tbh.

No. 692589

>>692575
There was an Adblock I used on apple but it was a while ago and I don’t remember it working on safari but there were definitely some free options that worked decent on apps and stuff. I think it was like a stop sign.
Agree with the YouTube thing, I drifted away from practically every personality because reality is theyre just people making videos trying to get as much money as possible and the pursuit of fame is gross. I stick to movie reviews and analysis videos strictly now because those interest me.

No. 692593

I wish spooky scary incest would stop being such a played horror trope.

No. 692595

I'm feeling like shit this week. Had a cold early in the week. Then had a difficult conversation with my boyfriend a few days ago which resulted in me feeling like I'm difficult to love. Also I can't stop binge eating and it sucks because just 6 months ago I lost 25 lbs and legitimately had my dream body. Pretty sure I've gained all that back and then some. Love some good old self-sabotage! And despite feeling fat and disgusting I can't stop myself and I don't know WHY. And ofc being depressed this week I want to eat to cope despite already being at peak self hatred. Ngl definitely having some might-be-better-if-I-just-died sort of thoughts.

On the bright side I got to pet a sloth and a capybara today so that was cool

No. 692600

>>692520
I wanna touch her head …

No. 692614

File: 1607733280870.jpg (127.33 KB, 1080x537, Screenshot_20201211-160018__01…)

I find it ironic that males make fun of girls for having daddy issues when that's men's own fault

No. 692623

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>>692575
Anon it is literally called 'Adblock'. Go to their site or the app store. Wiki says there's a version for Firefox, Chrome, Internet Explorer, Microsoft, Opera, Safari, Yandex, and Android. It's free, downloads quickly and blocks immediately. My mum downloaded a version for ipad safari which has worked well for years. Zero ads.

No. 692629

I applied for a transfer at in my company and they declined my application. I'm so pissed man I've been working with them for so long now

No. 692652

File: 1607736005013.jpg (5.85 KB, 256x256, ccd4469667ba2915b82d48e2870084…)

I hate that I have a fat moonface, literally no facial definition. Why did my fathers genes have to triumph?? If I was a different sperm/egg cell would I have looked different? At this point I'm just gonna get ps. Tired of it.

No. 692653

>>692614
God this pic if infuriating. My father left me right after birth, never paid child support, never cared, and then he suddenly came back and was like "but why don't you wanna spend time with me? I'm literally entitled to your time :("

No. 692655

I am not gonna cry about something this trivial but losing my hair, seeing my hairline slowly turning into some tranny nightmare is just stressing me out so much. Should I just shave it all off, but I am too fucking fat to pull it off goddamit fuck this shit.

No. 692660

Life is fucking horrifying, and it only gets worse as you age lol holy shit

No. 692665

>>692660
I feel the exact opposite of this

No. 692668

>>692655
Have you tried looking into the causes of your hair loss? Any hormonal problems? Stress?

No. 692669

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>>692652
I like round faces (also have one). We live in a looks-obsessed world but I bet you're still beautiful and good the way you are. I bet you have a lot of perks and good traits that make you shine. I bet only looks-obsessed people perceive it as a flaw and that there are people that don't even think about it at all.

No. 692675

>>692660
wish I could help anon

No. 692677

>>692669
NTA but I have the same type of face and this made me feel better, thank you kind anon.

No. 692679

>>692668
Yea my ovary is busted and will be removed next year, the other one is also kinda broken as shit. Sucks.

No. 692684

>>692665
Can you say why? Maybe it’ll help me feel better.
>>692562
I feel you. Not the same situation, but I’ve basically never had a sex drive. I’ve never orgasmed and masturbation does nothing for me. I’m a virgin too but it doesn’t even bother me. I wish I could know what an orgasm feels like though.
>>692421
I’m so tired of liberal feminism. Having the right to degrade yourself for men isn’t empowerment. Letting men into women’s restrooms isn’t empowerment. Being required to have a man with you at all times isn’t empowerment.

No. 692685

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>>692669
Aw, thank you anon! I really do appreciate it. I do think one day I'll "grow into" my face (probably when I'm like 30 or something), but I guess for now I just gotta focus on the good parts.

No. 692689

This is such a random vent but I had how breeders are allowed to intentionally breed sick and deformed animals for the sake of aesthetic. I've always wanted a scottish fold kitten but I would never get one because they have a SHIT ton of issues and literally have a bone deformity. Why subject those little babies to a short and possibly painful life, and never ending vet visits. Just get a british shorthair???

No. 692716

>>692652
Anon, your face is probably very beautiful- imo round faces look way more youthful and pleasing to the eye than "defined/bony" ones. I also find they age very well, as those same defined faces end up looking very sunken and old.

No. 692736

>>692716
cope. moon faces blow up ever bigger and jowls form.

No. 692740

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I have a coworker who is having sex with her on again/off again boyfriend and she doesnt use birth control. She really is fine with using the pull out method and it really disgusts me because this bitch is 30+ really okay with this dirty mofo not using condoms. What's worse is that she doesnt want to get an abortion because it would be too 'emotional draining.' Then why even have sex without bc if you dont want to face the consequences of pregnancy? i dont get it. why is she like this…

No. 692741

>>692716
this. i have very defined cheekbones and i'm kind of worried about aging badly, i wish my cheeks were a little bit rounder/chubbier so i could worry about it less

No. 692746

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>>686925
My girlfriend agrees with these takes and it's making me annoyed (especially with the third one). I told her that it's just reinforcing segregation and she said "babe it's their oppressors, it makes sense" and I said it was dumb, and she said "so you're saying oppressed groups must interact with their oppressors trauma or not?" and now I'm just more mad. I feel dumb because I let this make me angry. I just need to cool down.

No. 692759

>>692741
People with chubby faces are at risk of aging badly too, I once saw someone say there's 3 'types' of aging and it seems accurate imo
>saggers (facial fat getting droopy)
>sinkers (skinny faces that get sunken in and hollow)
>wrinklers (self explanatory)

I don't think many people can escape being one of them.

No. 692761

>>692716
Thank you anon. I know I'll probably be grateful for my face later, I'm just highkey tired of it right now lol
>>692736
This just isn't factual. No ones face gets bigger as they age.

No. 692764

I've been having urges to self harm again and it's so frustrating. I feel like I'm slipping back into the person I was a few years ago and like my brain wants to undo all of the changes I've done to make myself into someone halfway functional. The second I wake up in the morning all that flashes into my head is stuff about slitting my throat or digging into my arms with the same fucking dull blade I used for 2+ years and still keep in a box with the backs of pins. Does the urge ever actually go away? Or will I spend my entire life with self mutilation on the mind? Is it even really 'recovery' if I'm still mentally the same? Fuck.

No. 692765

>>692746
your gf sounds like an idiot lol

No. 692767

>>692387
>>692394
>>692516
>>692525
i just don't know how to.. react? i'm a csa victim and like. i have heavy ptsd from it. it's not like he's abusive or shows anything similar to what happens in our like, daily life, and i recollected me also saying that i couldn't think properly and him telling me to just not think. i have no idea how to like. bring that up with him? and obviously i'm not gonna just dump him. i've been shut off completely all day mentally because of this. fucking hell. once i finally get to see my therapist again, i'll talk to her about it.

No. 692769

i miss my hometown so much. i haven't lived there for several years and i moved quite far away. it's been 3 years since i had the chance to visit. sometimes i try to imagine i'm there again, walking by the harbour or visiting my favourite record store or cafe, i never thought i would feel this way but thinking about it gives me heart wrenching pain

No. 692772

>>692767
> how to like. bring that up with him?
> obviously i'm not gonna just dump him
Anon please be reasanoble. Please. I know you love him but what he did to you was disgusting. WHAT are you going to tell him? What do you expect to hear from him? He's going to gaslight the shit out of you. Like you have delusions, or that you actually consented, or something else. Or even if he apologizes, it doesn't matter how many times he says sorry, he raped you and he can't make up for it!
> it's not like he's abusive or shows anything similar to what happens in our like, daily life
Abuse doesn't have to happen frequently to be abuse. It happened once - it's gonna happen again. It's just beginning. I doubt you're going to go to the police, but you have to run before he does it again.

No. 692774

Hate being a poorfag. I've always been a poorfag, I'm in uni doing a degree I don't really care for (tough fucking STEM degree) in hopes of getting out of this life, and it's fucked that I have no chances of truly freeing myself until I'm like, 23 (that's when I graduate). It isn't fun and I know millions are going through worse but fuck fuck fuck me I just want to be rich.

No. 692784

>>692764
Congrats on the changes you have been able to make for yourself anon. I would absolutely call it recovery. Progress is progress. And progress isn't linear. There are going to be times when you feel like you're going regressing or engaging in old thought processes. But you're doing it with the experience and successes you've built. Parts of you are going to continue forward and parts of you are going to go backwards and parts are going to loop around but as long as, on a whole, you are pushing through and growing, you're recovering. You're having thoughts about self-harm, but you're not doing it. So hell yeah that's recovery!!

As to the permanence of self-harm urges: I've self-harmed for about 12 years now, the last time being a year ago, and while I can't say for certain, I think once it's become such an engrained coping mechanism there will always be a part of you that will think about it when you're in a bad place. I don't mean to say it will always be an unbearable urge you have to fight, especially as more and more time passes from your last incident of self harm, just that when you're feeling shitty it might pop into your head as the automatic go-to, even just as an intrusive passing thought rather than a serious consideration.

Stay well my friend!

No. 692787

I saw some clips of Logan Paul's podcasts with Belle Delphine and Lana Rhoades and I want to die with how mainstream sex workers, porn, onlyfans have become. They were talking about Delphine's tentacles fetish (what the fuck) in front of one these dudes' mother.
We really do live in a society and words can't explain how disgusted I am. I'm afraid for teens right now, growing up with this culture, but for some reason I feel it's people on their mid twenties/early thirties consuming this? I don't know, feel like teenagers are busy with tiktok stars and celebrities, I hope so

No. 692791

>>692421
>“We don’t need to abolish male guardianship,” she said. “We need to teach men how to be better guardians.”

Why not both ma'am? Tell men they need to treat me like a fucking prize while giving me the liberty to do whatever the fuck I want.

No. 692796

>>692614
They want to be fathers without doing any of the actual hard work (ie. changing shitty diapers, comforting crying and whiny kids, helping with homework, fixing meals, etc.) they just want the best of their kids when they become self-reliant adults. Not to mention many of these selfish men are just facing the reality of their mortality and realize that unless they can manipulate their kids into taking care of them, they'll wind up in a nursing home that reeks of piss and geriatric abuse.

No. 692797

I hate people who hit their kids (yes that includes spanking and stuff like that) but will deny and deny that it's abuse. If you have the nerve to hit your children, atleast own up to what you're doing. To me they are just a bunch of cowards.

No. 692806

My parents like to blast the most rage inducing Russian pop music it’s literally the worst electro dance pop auto tune shit sung by old dudes. How do middle aged people listen to that shit? God it’s the worst

No. 692807

>>692787
Have u been to twitter anon? Have you not seen how many girls start onlyfans not even a month after they turn 18?

No. 692808

>>692806
It's not just middle aged people who love it, I do too and you can rip my beloved ruki vverh out of my cold dead hands kek

No. 692809

>>692806
Anon, you have to embrace it.

No. 692811

>>692787
It’s promoting empowerment and money ,which is really the motivation. I almost got sucked into it because I saw this girl talking about how she’s educated but makes bank from onlyfans and as a broke student I was so starstruck by the idea of getting paid thousands per month just for being sexy (which I’m not so I never did it but I started planning it in my head)
I know at least 5 girls who have an onlyfans (all very early 20s and one does actual porn now) it’s funny seeing them post about how it’s their dream and how it’s so natural to them but then they cry and e beg if they don’t get paid enough. Reminds me of an MLM since all the top girls like to sign on new girls under their link so they get 10% of their earnings

No. 692815

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What an incredibly retarded take. If you don’t know the guy on the left is Nikolas Cruz the psycho who carried out the Parkland school shooting. Cruz is still awaiting his trial but because of Covid his court date has been moved indefinitely. He is charged with 17 counts of premeditated murder and will almost certainly get the death penalty (if the state I think Florida still has the death penalty). I think his lawyer is trying to get him an insanity plea but it’s probably going to be thrown out because it’s obvious to most that Cruz is playing up this ~i’m crazy~ thing. This tweet makes it seem as if he is getting off scot free for being a school shooter and committing one of the worst school shootings this nation has ever seen. His trial is also taking so long because there’s so much evidence to build up and there will be many witness testimonials. Cruz has a extensive and problematic online history that is still being combed through.

No. 692820

>>692811
Yeah, but it makes me mad how we only "motivate" girls to sell their bodies (also objectively, their reputation and guess this is more of a personal opinion, but also their dignity). It's so misogynist, so transparent. I know I'm saying the obvious and that many anons have pointed this out but I'm genuinely, just, shocked at all this shit and clearly the podcasts triggered me.
When are people going to understand that "making bank" really isn't everything in life? Having thousands or millions on your account is nice, absolutely, but there's so much more to live a fulfilling life.

No. 692824

>>692815
Is that the black kid that roasted two people in their car? Also the Cruz dude looks like a fucking goblin

No. 692827

>>692807
My blood still fucking boils thinking about that 16 year old girl on Twitter that was encouraged by scrotes to get an onlyfans the minute she turned 18. Predators must be having a fucking field day with onlyfans shit being encouraged amount teens

No. 692838

>>692820
Yep realistically you’re just bending to every whim and want of pornsick creepy dudes just in exchange for some money. That’s not worth it to me and the same girls who have hated men because of negative experiences are all about defending sex work and being fake nice to their customers just because they toss some bucks at her. It’s just so fake and empty, I don’t want to perpetuate the idea that women are just sex objects. If I want to show off my body I’ll do that but there’s no need to squeeze money out of people and desperately market myself to some creepy pedo who wants an uwu innocent girl or whatever the niche can be. I express myself and my sexuality in private and maybe that’s lame and I’m dumb because no one is paying me $3 a month to do so.

No. 692850

>>692820
lbr they aren't actually making bank, or at least not sustainable, long term bank. And I don't even mean the money will run dry when they 'hit the wall' decades in the future, with something like OF it's gonna be months to maybe a few years at best before they're replaced with a newer, younger crop of girls who fit new trend. A male audience is fickle and obsessed with novelty, even popular girls who make money are going to be old news soon enough.

I really, really loathe women who promote doing porn by bragging about their money and lifestyle. They are full of shit and misleading young women in an extremely harmful way, and they're doing it all to save face and make themselves look good. They are absolutely devoid of any integrity and it's straight up dangerous.

No. 692860

Am I wrong for being paranoid that my boyfriend just tolerates me? He told me over text that he actually doesn’t like when we play fight with each other. I just feel so dumb bc when we play fight he laughs and smiles and I always thought we were having so much fun together. Now that I know he feels differently I wonder how much stuff about me he doesn’t like and just tolerates. What if it’s everything about me? Ive been so sad and crying all day over this. I just want to be loved and appreciated.

No. 692868

>>692860
This makes me so sad anon, I know that feeling well and its so painful. Do you mean play fight like wrestling around or fake bickering because I could see how the latter could stress someone out. It's good he's communicating with you directly about how he feels though, that makes it feel like he would bring it up for other things if he wanted to. But communicating is really the only thing you can do. Remember it's ok to just seek reassurance. You can tell him you're feeling paranoid about it but make sure not in a way that makes it feel like he did anything wrong, since he technically didn't. I really relate to you and have been through similar feelings in my relationship but Ive gotten to the point where I just ask "am I being annoying?" and he'll often hug me and make me feel a lot better and reassure me. The fact you feel you have to keep your crying a secret from him is so sad anon it's ok to feel!

No. 692874

>>686925
I'm trying to watch the Epstein documentary and it's so hard. I'm so sick of this world and the fact that men hate us so much and don't give a shit about us.

I saw some people talking about it in r/askreddit on favorite socumentaries and people were talking about an idiot getting eaten by bears more than this. I just have this sinking feeling most acrotes didn't cry with the Epstein one and deep down don't care. They'll never relate to us, its just a meme for them. How do you even shake this feeling anons? I just feel so angry.

And yes I will be deleting reddit because this year I've opened my eyes to how much of a shithole it is. Fuck them.

No. 692878

>>692874
It's probable that maybe not many men actually care about crimes against women, it's kind of like how some people don't care about crimes happening in thirdworld places, they just can't empathize or don't care. You are right to feel angry that many people just don't care, even blame the victim. I try to show support and kindness to kind of counteract the increasing indifference. It all seems less like actual happenings and more like words on a screen, a trend to post about and then forget. Same goes for yemen, uyghur etc.

No. 692912

>>692850
This is the ugly truth about sex work that young women need to know. Easy money is a myth. Men don't want to pay for porn to begin with, who the hell do they think is paying out for every girl who posts softcore selfies? This goes for both OnlyFans and camming. You're competing with hundreds of thousands of girls for chump change. Not to mention, these type of men are not above scamming you, blackmailing you with dox, or reselling your content elsewhere. It also takes a considerable amount of time and effort to advertise yourself, cultivate an audience, stay engaging, etc., you know, actual work.

It's almost like a MLM, women who claim to be making bank from sex work have to make such claims, because to say otherwise would be admitting it isn't worth it. I have plenty more to say on the subject but I'll stop myself here.

No. 692917

>>692912
It’s so sad seeing girls with potential decide to sell themselves as a little present to ugly old bigoted men. I also get those MLM vibes and I’m sick of it being shoved in anyone’s face like oh you need money? Make an onlyfans!!
I think it was Lauren southern that asked for donations for a sick family member and someone was asking her to just make an OF because it would make a lot of money. Fuck that, it’s not a fucking option for everyone and shouldn’t be encouraged. Can you imagine “oh you’re low on rent, just sell your body for 5 dollars” that’s the state of twitter and it fucked up my mind and made me feel like a failure for not taking advantage of catering to the male gaze

No. 692929

>>692860
Stop getting into a narcissistic crisis just cuz he criticized one thing

No. 692943

I’m so fucking pissed off right now. I told my bf I didn’t want to come to his father’s house this weekend, weekends are my free days and I just want to stay at home doing literally anything but he complained as always because he says I don’t ever want to be there and whatnot.
So we came here and my day couldn’t be worse right now, his father’s just asking for us to do all the laundry, to arrange the kitchen, to cook lunch for him because “he’s just so tired”, boy I was working my ass off all week from 6 am to 5 pm just to come here and this unemployed man tells me how to clean a damn table because I’m not doing it like he likes it and istg I’m this close to get out.
Also this fucker I have for a boyfriend just told me he won’t help right now because he has things to do (if he didn’t stay up late until dawn he could have done it yesterday but nooo, he had to sleep until 2 pm and now he complains ).
This is it, today I’m breaking up with him.

No. 692945

>>692943
> unemployed man tells me how to clean a damn table because I’m not doing it like he likes it
There’s a simple solution to that - he can clean his own table.

Good luck with the break up!

No. 692952

>>692912
>It's almost like a MLM, women who claim to be making bank from sex work have to make such claims, because to say otherwise would be admitting it isn't worth it.
This. So much this. The money they earn is literal peanuts and gets pirated for free immediately. Most girls with an OF selling their nudes don't make more than couple of hundred a month at best and then use the "a-at least I'm not flipping burgers or pouring lattes!!!" as a cope. Yeah minimum wage jobs might be thankless and pay little but most of them still pay you more and offer security like insurance and pension payments without having to spread your asshole to a faceless internet crowd. I know plenty of girls who saw Belle Delphine and thought they could do the same thing to earn millions by just putting on a bikini without ever realizing that she has a manager, connections and basically became lightning in a bottle that can't be replicated once it's done.

No. 692953

>>692943
>This is it, today I’m breaking up with him.
Please share an update later.

No. 692982

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I went to my friend's wedding engagement event today and after the event I came home feeling down. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy my friend finally got hitched, it's just that my circle of single friends are getting smaller and smaller each year. I'm actually scared of being the last unmarried person in my group of friends. I'm already in my 30s and I have never dated or fallen in love at all. Thing is, deep down, I don't think I want to get married yet. I just don't like the idea of getting tied down and having to change my current lifestyle. I want to enjoy my hobbies and having a stress free introverted life. But everyone is pressuring me about marriage and giving pitying looks when I say I'm still single. I hate how asian society/culture sees older single women as something to be pitied or think that an unmarried older women must have something wrong with them.

Is there any place on the internet to hang out in for "never ever gonna get married single ladies" out there? I want more single friends to vent and have fun with. The loneliness does gets to me sometimes. I wish I can be alone forever but the idea of being alone in my 60s or 70s is kinda scary, ngl.

No. 692984

>>692982
I live in a place where gays are unable to marry and have children and are still very persecuted. As a childless unmarried middle aged woman, most of my friends are gay men and women. It just naturally turned out that way because we have a similar lifestyle compared to our married hetero aquaintances that mostly socialize around family stuff.
I am not pressured into marriage and kids like you, but that kind of societal pressure is another thing you share with gay people.
Maybe you can meet some nice friends that will fit your lifestyle in gay circles?

No. 692990

I am sitting in my bedroom of my apartment with every door open and there are workmen in but they are ignoring me and I just want to roll a phat joint. They were two hours late, so here I am, at 1pm on a Saturday pretending to be busy on my laptop so I don't have to offer them anything so they can do their job faster so I can get high.

No. 693005

>>692990
They're still here and ignoring me uwu

No. 693028

>>692769
I'm so sorry anon. I hope you can return there in the near future. I'm from nyc and i miss my area so much. i'm several states away now and all i see are so many of my favorite small stores are shutting down because of covid. it's depressing. Stay strong, anon

No. 693033

Isolating yourself won't get you anywhere, you will be alone for the rest of your life at this point

No. 693034

>>692943
>breaking up with him

Please throw his ass to the curb. he sounds like a sexist piece of shit, expecting women to work and do all the house work. Good luck, anon!

No. 693035

>>692784
Thank you a lot anon, I didn't know how to reply yesterday but I've been rereading your message a couple of times and it's really sweet & helpful. The urges always pass & I just have to get used to riding the wave again - perhaps we can wave at each other while surfing. Ily

No. 693048

>>693005
Guys, it's nearly been 4 hours.

No. 693078

I cringe when I think of the times when I used to think having similar music taste and superficial interests like that was the be-all and end-all of relationships. It's such a silly immature way of thinking. How the fuck is both of you liking Arctic Monkeys going to make it a sustainable relationship? It won't idiot

No. 693079

>>693078
Omg this is so similar to an epiphany I had myself. I feel like social media has made a lot of young people think that the single basis for new friendships is whether or not you like the same things/have the same opinions on all arts & culture. And anyone else is not worth your time. The biggest factor to sustainable relationships is shared hardships, even when it's something as common as going through high school together.

No. 693086

>>691980
hi anon that must really suck :( my friend who I've known since kindergarten dropped me in that way too after she moved country. in about a years time she messaged me saying that she didnt want to be friends because she had bad memories associated with the place she came from and that she wasn't doing well mentally. maybe it's a similar thing for your best friend, and maybe its not about you at all but just about her, even if it is really impolite and shitty

No. 693107

>>693048
It took them nearly 6 hours and I missed all of the daylight today. This is why you never make appointments on the weekend.

No. 693147

I live with an alcoholic and people in my family have alc issues so I try to set a good example and be sober. At this point I am so stressed and depressed I just wanna feel something and privately drink wine or something. Sad

No. 693160

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Made zoodles and they're fucking awful, this shit tastes nothing like pasta. I can't find shirataki noodles anywhere in my area and I'm not paying a stupid amount for anachan slim noodles so I guess I just won't be having pasta dishes any time soon. Shame because the avocado pesto I made actually turned out pretty decent.

No. 693161

>>693160
Ok, so try making the zoodles, sauteeing them for a little just to lightly soften then and brown them just a bit. Add your pesto while it's still in the pan and stir fry it in for a minute or two. Post results.

No. 693163

>>693160
Idk why people would think zoodles are going to taste anything like real pasta when they buy them lol. Gotta appreciate them for the heathy, delicious zucchini’s that they are.

No. 693166

>>693160
It's vegetables, anon. Obviously they're not going to taste the exact same as pasta. Pls just use common sense.

No. 693169

>>693160
idk if your if your standards are too high for this, but I get frozen pasta meals and there are plenty of lean cuisine/weight watchers ones that are 300-400 cal. I'm not a big pasta fan but ironically I eat way more of it when I'm dieting because I think it's better in low cal frozen meals than anything with rice.

No. 693185

>>693160
Coming from an ana chan why dont you just eat regular pasta? That's one of my go to meals for restricting

No. 693190

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i hate being depressed.

No. 693192

I just find it annoying that men would rather form like entire communities dedicated to whining about how ‘oppressed’ and ‘blackpilled’ they are for being ugly instead of putting even 1/10 of the time, money and effort the average, normie woman puts into their appearance.

No. 693194

>>693192
They really don't try at all. I used to feel guilty for being shallow and rejecting guys for being ugly but these days I just remind myself that I probably put more thought and effort into my appearance in one single morning than they have their entire lives. If I'm turned off by a feature they can't easily change (like their nose or something), I remind myself that I've seriously considered getting a nosejob on a regular basis for many years even though my nose is fine whereas most men would never even think of plastic surgery as an option. imo hitting the gym + good hair + fashion can make all the difference and most won't even do that much to compensate.

No. 693197

>>693190
which anime is this reaction image from?

No. 693201

>>693194
Nayrt but the contrast between men’s self care regimes vs what they expect of women is crazy. My ex told me to fix my acne in arguments knowing how much time and effort I invested into trying, yet he didn’t even use deodorant. Same guy commented that my style was boring while his own clothes were boring as well as old and holey. I wish he was just trash but so many men seem to consider basic self-care as too much effort.

No. 693202

>>693194
Literally just going to the gym, having a flattering hairstyle, maybe some kind of skincare routine and putting even a small amount of effort into their fashion sense would hugely improve the majority of these guys appearances and still be significantly less effort and money than the average women puts in but they literally won’t even try that before they declare themselves the most oppressed and forsaken human on earth and decide they hate women for not falling over themselves to date some hideous unwashed slob

No. 693232

>>693201
I actually told a male friend of mine this and hus response was "I thought women liked this". They think women think that men who dont give a shit about their apperance are masculine.

No. 693233

This guy I know is always posting pics of his hot wife on his Insta about how she's the love of his life, he's so happy to be with such a beautiful woman.

But I also post on a private forum with him. It is irritating as fuck to me that for every 1 insta post he makes about his gorgeous wife there are 50 he's made on the forum of younger girls that he wants to fuck.

I mean, sure, they're randos he will never meet. It's all just fantasy. But I mean, your wife just had your child. Could you have a little more respect?

No. 693237

I'm angry that I wasted so many years being overweight. So many things I missed out on that I feel too old for now because I didn't have enough confidence.

>>693160
I don't like how zoodles taste when they're cooked. I just use them raw in salads for some interesting texture.

>>693197
NTA but it's from "Oniisama e".

No. 693257

>>693232
They always say this but I don’t get it, like men don’t have a positive view of women who put a lot of effort into their appearance either. They call them vapid, high maintenance, fake etc etc but women still do it and are expected to do it.

No. 693260

>>693233
I hate men, that's so icky. I'm sure if she found out he would try to defend himself like "you can't be upset because I also post about you, see!" sigh

No. 693261

Aghhhhhh fuck How am I going to learn a whole terms worth of java material in 1.5 days for my exam aghhhhhh fuck I’m so stressed i already called in sick today and I think I’m gonna need to do it again tomorrow fuck I hate calling in sick

No. 693262

>>693233
this is why I don't trust men, and why I'm always suspicious of men who post stuff about how much they love their wife/gf. they're trying to hide their desires to cheat.

No. 693264

>>693237
>So many things I missed out on that I feel too old for now because I didn't have enough confidence.
are you dead? no? then you're not too old to do whatever it is that you want to do, and you'll actually be able to enjoy life more now that you're healthier and more confident

No. 693271

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For my new job I’ll be stocking items at a store I used to shoplift from when I was like 15. It was mostly ice cream/junk food and never anything expensive like electronics but I did it for months before being caught and it definitely added up. Never did it again and never will. I’m just scared and don’t want to lose my job or feel like I’m constantly being watched.

No. 693273

>>693261
>How am I going to learn a whole terms worth of java material in 1.5 days
Not by wasting your time on here, for a start! It's about damage control, you've already fucked up but now it's time to increase your chances of success as much as possible. Blacklist time wasting sites and just study as best as you can, make sure to sleep properly so your brain is working, staying up all night to study the night before the test is false economy.
This doesn't sound like advice because it's so obvious, but it's all that you can do at this point so just do it as best as you can. Good luck!

No. 693280

>32 year old friend doesn't know how to drive
>only her husband does
>takes it upon herself to post car and traffic rants all over social media
>with wording ambiguous enough that her distant acquaintances likely assume she can drive
>cause she's embarrassed as hell that she doesn't
Breanna omg if you want to be mad at other drivers this much learn to become one yourself, you're backseat af and it's annoying.

No. 693282

>>693280
Bet breanna knows fuck all about the rules of the road too

No. 693295

>>693160
have you tried coodles (carrots instead of zucchini)?? i like them more because they're more structured and pair better with pasta dishes, they also have that sweet taste.

No. 693343

youtube keeps recommending me videos from this youtuber who puts 'big boobie girl haul' in her title when she's just overweight/plus size. like her boobs might be "big" but she's also big everywhere else too. youtube needs to stop recommending me her videos because her titles annoy the shit out of me.

No. 693346

>>693343
Just click the little dots to tell youtube to stop recommending her

No. 693348

I wish I could look at myself as another person. I just want to know how others see me and perceive me. I think so lowly of my self in personality, looks, etc.

No. 693351

>>693348
actually my self esteem is so low that that is the last thing i would want. i know it would only confirm the things i suspect in myself

No. 693361

My trying to get my life back together but fuck I really just want to drop everything and run away again.

No. 693362

every time i think about married men cheating on their wives i just get sad and livid. what's the point of wanting love and being a romantic if this shit happens? it's not like i've ever seen it in my own family or anything like that either. my parents have been together for 30 years and nothing like that has ever occurred. yet i still see it other places, around me. i just want a faithful husband for fucks sake

No. 693372

If my husband brings up an episode of Cumtown during conversation again, someone's going to have to call the cops

No. 693377

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>>693372
If your husband brings up what again?

No. 693385

>>693372
>being married to someone who watches cumtown
file for divorce

No. 693451

I really want to eat something sweet but a couple days ago my boyfriend grabbed my side boob fat thinking it was my boob. I need to get super serious about weight loss lmao.

No. 693458

realizing i'm having serious feelings for the older man i've been seeing for a year now (not even gonna say the age gap bc i'll be roasted for it, i know i know); feeling stupid and upset. the sex is so good, dare i say addicting that i don't want to break it off with him, and we have fun when we're not fucking, but i don't know what to do with my growing feelings. he's also… poly. yup. he's cringe in a number of ways but nevertheless i have feelings for him, lord help me. it's embarrassing the situation i've gotten myself into, idk what i was expecting. i know i need to tell him how i feel but i'm not sure what i want to happen. ik i'll be extremely horny and frustrated by the lack of sex if i stop seeing him, i feel i've been able to explore my sexuality so wonderfully since we started seeing each other, it fulfills a big need for me. and i also will miss him. but i don't know how comfortable i am navigating non-traditional relationship styles, i err on the side of them not being my thing, though i can see the merits of non monogamy. probably not going to do anything about this now because of the holidays coming up, but i just had a good cry about finally admitting this to myself. much to think about

No. 693463

>>693458
>much to think about
hopefully you thought about getting some self respect because girl what the fuck LMAOOOOOOOOO

No. 693466

>>693458
Ma'am, I know the dick ain't that good. Please come to your senses a bit. It's cool that he's helped you realize some things about yourself, but you aren't chained to him. I wish you luck.

No. 693467

>>693458
>he's also… poly
>he's cringe in a number of ways
I also like older men, but damn atleast pick a good one. Just because he helped you be more free sexually doesn't mean you should like him. Whatever you do, do not pursue a relationship with him. Before you know it he's gonna be asking to bring other women in. No one wants to be a sisterwife.
>ik i'll be extremely horny and frustrated by the lack of sex if i stop seeing him
You're a sexy ass bitch and you will find another, BETTER, man.

No. 693468

>>693467
i mean. there are other reasons why i like him, however clouded by oxytoxin i may be. i don't want to pursue a relationship with him, don't worry, i'm stupid but not that stupid. with the pandemic it's difficult to date, all the apps make me severely suicidal and i'm not meeting anyone in real life. thus i continue down this strange path… thanks anon, you're sexy too <3

No. 693471

>>693469
Is that friend a male? Honestly, if my boyfriend played video games for several hours with another girl in the week, I wouldn’t be happy either tbh.

No. 693473

Why don’t I get this ‘dopamine’ people talk about when people like their posts. It makes me feel so anxious and gives me second hand embarrassment to be reminded of what I said. Every time someone interacts with me or follows me I want to just delete my entire account. I don’t even post anything embarrassing really but for some reason I’m so much more socially anxious on social media than irl and I’m already really anxious irl and it’s annoying because I feel like most people find it easier online. For the past maybe 5 years I’ve been in this cycle of making accounts then deleting them after a couple of weeks and then remaking them like every 6 months because whenever they start to get followers and people start talking to me it stresses me out the point I can’t function during the day like it makes me feel as if I’m never alone.

No. 693506

>>693473
>I’ve been in this cycle of making accounts then deleting them after a couple of weeks and then remaking them like every 6 months
It's nice to see someone else doing the same thing kek. Although I blame paranoia more than embarassment in my case.

No. 693532

I know exactly what you did and I know exactly why you stopped when you did. Manipulative af.

No. 693542

>>693471
But you having male friends is totally fine, right? Either trust your boyfriend or there's no point.

No. 693571

my ex was an extremely woke and oppressed bisexual and it was the worst. Like at least once a week she'd see some hot take on the internet and get super insecure and weird about about it. And I'd have to spend an hour reassuring her that like, I wasn't "that kind of lesbian". And it was always the stupidest shit, stuff that I've never done but she'd interrogate me about it as if I was hiding it.

like she once read some goldstar discourse I guess because she came to bed like "babe you've never been with a guy right? does that mean you're a goldstar? do you wish I was one too :(? Are you sure? Because I would understand if you did feel that way, apparently a lot of lesbians do :(. lesbians are so toxic you know I hate most lesbians I'm so glad you're not like the rest of them.". I ended up basically apologizing about being a dyke and saying "tbh sometimes I get curious and wish I had experimented before coming out!!!" which was the biggest fucking lie I ever told her lol.

I was so retarded in that relationship jesus fuck.

No. 693579

>>693542
Yeah, in a group context. Personally, we avoid same sex friendships because it makes us both feel more at ease. It’s not that I don’t trust him, but most male friends do on some level, want to fuck you.

No. 693580

>>693579
Breaking news, men are so pathetic they catch feelings for basic decency.

No. 693581

i want to stop time so badly
all the things i could do…
>read all my half finished books
>complete unfinished drawings
>practice singing and music
>study for my course work

then i'd unpause and spend the rest of the day exercising, enjoying food, socializing and relaxing

or maybe sleep during time pause and not sleep when the time is rolling again

there is so much to catch up on, coming out of a depressed episode…

No. 693589

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Idk if this counts as racebaiting but the fact that people are defending a guy who killed two people and set them on fire makes me feel ill. I feel the same about people defending the rapist Jacob Blake. It makes me sick that I could get killed or raped and people could defend the person that did it. I’m so fucking disheartened at the state of things and I’m left-leaning.

No. 693590

>>693571
I go back and forth between feeling like dwelling on insecurities is detrimental, but protective in a sense because it keeps you on your toes or just straight up detrimental and not worth it to focus on because it's going to cause some kind of self destructive thought processes and likely hurt the relationships pursued because of possible projection.
Hopefully you find someone that feels more sure in their own skin that doesn't feel the need to talk shit about an entire group you're a part of

No. 693591

>>693571
Reading shit like this makes me so ashamed of being bi, makes me wanna stay in the closet for my entire life kek. I'm so sorry about your ex, I want to say we are not all like that but that would useless, the damage's done.

No. 693603

>>693589
No anon I agree. I think it's sickening that people could somehow compare or associate the execution of that man with actual brutality or abuse by the justice system at all. It should have no association to things that involve actual abuse of poc's by cops. In the case of the murderer and the other guy who allegedly raped a 2 year old, I don't care what the hell their race is, what they did is monstrous and people should not be defending them. I think the death penalty is harsh in some cases and should not be applied, but it's ridiculous to say that it'd be "too harsh" to execute a fucking child rapist or someone who murdered two people by trapping them in a car and setting it on fire

Hell I think it should be noted that while George Floyd had a criminal history it was not tangentially related to his arrest for something he didn't do and the subsequent horrific act of abuse by the cop who killed him. At least in his case he seemed like he had tried to improve himself? and what happened to him was clearly a disgusting abuse of authority by a cop (that video made me sick honesty). For the woke crowd to try and somehow incorporate the execution of literal rapists and murderers into their narrative as somehow being comparable to incidents involving police brutality and black people unfairly being killed by cops for merely walking on the wrong side of the street makes me sick. The murderers and the rapists made their bed. The two aren't comparable.

My question is why the hell the woke crowd never seems to focus on other prison problems, the extremely high incarceration rates and long sentences for small drug offenses as an example. That to me would be far more concerning than some rapist or murderer being put to death. I feel like that gets overlooked a lot, guess it's not "performative" enough

No. 693618

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I’m sick of working hard for nothing! I just want to be with someone I love and raise kids now. Never thought I’d be like this but here I am.
>inb4 raising kids is hard!!! I know.

No. 693625

My cat just jumped up and peed on my bed while I'm laying here in it. Wtf, bitch? I'm not doing laundry at this hour because it will wake someone up.

No. 693626

I literally just posted about simply being a whore and now it’s starting to spiral into how my relationship is with sexual shit even from an early age. Trauma seriously fucks you up in this regard. I wish I never was exposed to it at such a young age, I’ve spent my whole life looking for sexual gratification because it’s simply just the easiest way to achieve it. how incredibly depressing is it that i have little respect for myself sometimes just so i can be liked and wanted artificially? I deserve better than this.

No. 693636

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i recently a tattoo to cover some old self harm scars. i wanted to get a female artist, but ended up with a male one. due to childhood trauma i struggle being around men and don't like them touching me. i know that a lot of men have ppl who look like me as their "type". because of this i've always gotten male attention and it never fails to make me uncomfortable. i get anxious when someone hits on me and hate getting compliments on my body/appearance from men.

surprisingly, the tattoo artist was wonderful. i felt comfortable around him, and when he complimented me it was actually nice. i was like wtf is going on. i'm so annoyed though!! i'm unable to pinpoint exactly what it was that made me trust him and let my guard down. i've never even been properly comfortable around the men i've had crushes on… smh.

i was about to start opening up about my issues w men in therapy earlier this year, but then the pandemic fucked everything up. i just needed to get this off my chest lmao thank u for listening, farmers.

No. 693643

We spend a lot of time with my bf (like 6-8 hours a day texting/on źoom) so i hate acting like he doesnt give me attention. But i hate it when he tells me he'll text me back in 10-20 mins then ends up not texting me for hours because he got caught up watching youtube or playing video games with friends. Like sure, do those, but at least tell me you will do those things so i don't wait for you.

No. 693646

>>693643
Who is "we"? Anon you have to tell the menfolk, they can't read our minds

No. 693678

here i am after a while.
i've seen disturbing dreams of former friendships which i have distanced from, due to being always the second pick for hanging out and stuff. im not important to anyone except to my partner, but still it's not the same.

i can't really embrace these dreams, nor remember my dead friendships with warmth. wish i wasn't so depentant to any friendships.

No. 693683

My stepmother is always oversharing on social media and I wish I could just tell her to shut the fuck up.

No. 693704

I got dumped by a narc a couple months ago and I'm still bitter about it. I've already been through so much horrible shit in my life and I feel like I can't win. I make the dumbest choices when it comes to men; as long as there's some kind of chemistry I'll ignore every red flag that comes my way. I just feel so fucking stupid and betrayed.

No. 693708

>>693683
You can, lol.
Slightly related - I remember my mom wanting to make a public post on social media announcing my very first period. Glad I had that shouting match about it. Really dodged a bullet.

No. 693715

I can't find my favourite dental floss in any shop/drug store, it was the only floss that was actually able to get the shit out of my tightly packed teeth. 1 week without flossing. Reeeeeeee

No. 693722

Just had the BEST fucking tacos of my entire fucking life and they were so reasonably priced and high quality and authentic but the place is FORTY minutes away from where I live!!!

No. 693749

>>693704
It’s not your fault anon, narcs are good at hiding their redflags and looking like there’s so much chemistry between you and them. It will only poison your blood, let it go

No. 693776

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This is a vent but also some sort of cheer up thing.

If you lived a shitty, difficult childhood that extended into your young adulthood, it's no fucking wonder you may be "behind" on some things. Shit like, a relationship, a job, school and so on. Who the fuck made up this shit that makes us think that "yeah, yeah all my life hasn't been what could be called normal by any means but the fucking second I get out of my parents house/turn a certain age I should definitely be at the same place as the 'normal' people who didn't go through life like I have, makes absolute sense!"
It fucking doesn't. No one is saying you cannot achieve great stuff just because you lead a difficult life, I am saying it isn't such a bad, scary shameful thing if you haven't done that at the same speed as others. I fucking spent my early 20s so DEEPLY ASHAMED that I was only then starting a new school and my actual life away from that mess that was my life from ages from the age 4 to 21. Why the fuck, I should have been proud to even be around for that long, I still get ashamed of myself when I compare myself to some people from back home but you know what? I am sure they didn't go through the stuff I did and I am sure they have had their own issues, just like we all. I would not expect anyone to turn 18 or 20 or any age and suddenly be okay after years of abuse and awful shit, no one sane would. It's absolutely never shameful to keep trying or to get tired of constantly trying yet feeling lacking due to not being where "we're supposed to be" at. I hope anons here never fall too deep into the pit of "I am already too old, too tired too this or that to try, look at these people, they are already so good and achieved", never feel embarrassed to try, that never gets you anywhere and if anyone tries to make you feel less than just because you are "too old" or "too late", fuck them, they don't know you or what the fuck you are capable of. Love you anons.

No. 693779

>>693776
Thank you for this anon, I've been feeling so ashamed that I'm not in college after escaping a hellish environment, but you're right.

No. 693782

>>693776
Shit. Thank you for this. I don’t relate to this on a career/financial level but more social. Sometimes I feel like 12 year olds have better social outreach than me despite being in my mid 20s. I’m not insanely weird or anything; I just view myself that way because I haven’t had a lot of opportunities to develop a personality if that makes sense.

No. 693784

>>693776
Thank you anon. I'm saving this.

No. 693791

Seems like everyone is talking about gaining weight this lockdown and I fucking wish that were me. I wish I didn’t feel guilty about spending money on food and I wish I wasn’t poor and I wish I was shameless enough to just sell myself online or e-beg for things but I don’t get enough woke points for people to care about me on Twitter or anything lol

No. 693799

>>693779
>>693784
I figured others would gain something from hearing it from someone who knows what it feels like, you focus on your journey, who gives a shit you are doing stuff at an older age, you are still doing them!
>>693782
I think I know what you mean, sometimes people simply did not have an enviroment or time to learn or experience stuff that many consider to be "normal" and they just have to do it later on, it's okay. Hope you don't feel too badly about it, it's okay to go at your own pace as an adult.

No. 693856

I thought I would feel better after losing some weight, 10 months ago I weighed 132 pounds (I'm 5'5), now I weigh 112 pounds and I still feel like shit, still bloated, still tired all the time

No. 693865

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>>693776
ily anon

No. 693887

>>693856
have you ruled out food allergies/insensitivities? Turns out peanuts make me feel like absolute shit, but I only realized it after eating a ton of trail mix over a few days. After I tried cutting them out I noticed significant energy/mood changes and my acne even got better.

No. 693891

I wish my narc parents would just die already. Their neurotic and bipolar shit is such a thorn in my side, literally 75% of my life stressors would disappear when they kick the bucket. But alas, assholes always live forever.

No. 693922

>>693856
Wheat has been making me retain water like a motherfucker for a while and fucks my stomach up. I'm noticing a problem with onions too now. I think I might attempt going onto a ketogenic diet again to reset everything and then add big deal carbs like rice and oats as I go. You might need to do something similar, if anything just out of curiosity.

No. 693924

>>693776
i love this thank u anon,i dont have the words to explain what the fuck i feel reading your post is a mix of joy and sadness but in a good way,i think is hope and acceptance,i will save this for my future self when i feel alone and numb.thanks again.

No. 693928

>>693924
bitch i believe in you

No. 693936

i had a bite of raw onion (accidentally) for the first time in months and got horrifically ill. fuck.

No. 693940

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My dad used to beat me and my mom when I was kid and their divorce was really violent. He vaguely apologized to me once when I was a tween but now he pretends like it never happened and it's so frustrating. Sometimes I think I just have false memories or something because no one will acknowledge it and I hardly remember anything from my childhood anyway.

No. 693944

I hate the new trend of Twitter woke kids trying to destigmatize people with cluster b personality disorders, especially people with NPD and ASPD. They (the people with the dissorder) don't see any thing wrong with themselves and feel that they're usually justified in their shitty abusive behaviors. There's a reason why so many serial killers have been diagnosed with those two personality disorders.

No. 693989

>>693944
I agree with this post so much. As someone raised by a mom with bpd they should not have kids. Also when I was younger for some reason I attracted type-b's (to be honest when I was younger I was kinda of a doormat and would put up with there shit and it was like they could sense it) and I'm so glad I've been slowly able to cut them all out of my life now that I'm an adult. Literally every single negative stereotype about them is 100% true.

No. 693990

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>>693776
Thanks anon. You're probs way younger than me but it still helped me.

No. 693997

I guess I left my dryer door open and now it’s beeping. I thought it would stop but it won’t.

No. 694016

>>693997
Did you consider closing it?

No. 694029

Have you ever thought that maybe your child wouldn't have to call you so many and whine so much if you actually didn't ignore him? Or that he wouldn't have accidents if you actually spent time to potty trained him properly instead of spanking him, you retard. You're just another piece a shit that pretends to be a good parent on social media, but are really a lazy bitch who bullshits on the job irl.

No. 694054

>>693940
Sorry to hear what you went through anon. Couldn’t have been easy. I know it’s a cliche but I think the best thing is just to move on and not linger on it. You’ll never get answers for what he did and why, you’ll never get a proper apology and your mom probably has tried to suppressed it to be able to cope or move on. Therapy and talking about it could be good but in my experience this whole “closure” thing is often more wishful thinking that only few people will ever truly get since it requires the person who did you wrong to be able to admit to the wrong doings to at least some extent. Give up on your dad, but not yourself. Talk to people and speak what you feel and what you believe happened. You can’t put your sanity and well-being in the hands of people unable to see or understand the damage they have done. Good luck with everything!

No. 694070

I feel like a large part of my arressted development in the first half of my 20s was due to my antidepressants, I wasn't getting drastically worse but it was so so difficult to make any positive changes.
Now I'm finally off them I've made more personal progress in 6 months than I did in all that time, I'm still clearly mentally ill but I'm actually dealing with it properly, I'm enacting plans for my long-term benefit.
I'm worried my brain is broken though, my sexual and emotional function still hasn't come back and nobody really knows the long-term effects of SSRIs.

No. 694100

There are studies showing that older men who have children are more likely to have kids with schizophrenia and autism yet men still have the gall to say that there's nothing wrong with old farts having kids. What is wrong with men? Science literally says they are wrong, but if it goes against their wishes to fuck young girls, then science is wrong.

No. 694107

>>694054
I was in therapy for years but I felt like I had worked through my issues as much as I could. Maybe I'll try again when the pandemic is over.
You're right though, I need to just accept that there is no closure and move on. Thanks anon.

No. 694119

My social circles are so open minded with their sexual orientation that sometimes I realize the fact that not everyone is bi/lesbian and is in fact disgusted by the thought. And it's so depressing to me. Can't ask a cute girl out just because she could never imagine herself being with a woman and/or thinks lesbians are gross. I like girls so much and it just hurts

No. 694154

Having that one day where I remind myself of my abusive parent and how fucked it was that at the age of 9 or 10 I have been thinking how better it would be for my family if I was never born.

>>693776
Thank you anon!! I kinda relate to career level, because I am so confused right now, but it may be extremly affected by the undiagnosed ADHD that I want to get treated the very next year (I have been described as a "child with ADHD traits" my whole life, but no one has spent so much time on me to get me a diagnosis). Ily too anon!!

No. 694166

This girl I know always goes on about being a massive feminist, but also lies and says she's a virgin who didn't have her first kiss until 25 on social media all the time. She told me of at least one guy she fucked in high school and she said she did other shit with several others. So, either she was lying then or she's lying now. My guess is she is lying now.

I am so confused by this and don't understand it at all. What is there to gain from lying about being a virgin in your mid-20's?

No. 694171

I'm abolutely over trying to make makeup work with my face, every single time I take if off I feel a hundred time more beautiful, especially eye makeup, it makes you look like a drag queen.

No. 694174

>>694016
don't worry anon, i closed it. I just didn't want to get out of bed

No. 694181

>>694166
There's nothing to gain. It sounds like she's insecure and thinks it will make her seem purer or something.

No. 694182

>>694171
Same here anon most makeup looks are so ugly and women look better bare-faced imo. Japanese and Korean makeup is kinda cute through it's more low key and doesn't make the person wearing it look like a drag queen kek.

No. 694189

My country is going into lockdown after today and now there's masses and masses of people shopping and going to the hairdressers to get last minute christmas presents and haircuts.

I've been subjected to shitty online education since March and retards like this who won't just shut up and stay at home when they reasonably can are prolonging it.

Fuck you all.

No. 694194

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Every time someone talks to me I want to cry

No. 694199

I’m watching random news YouTube videos as I am bored, I watched this one about the rescue of a little girl who was kidnapped and taken to a hotel for 8 hours and when the police busted through the door the guy was naked. So many comments like ‘god helped save this girl’ and even in the video people said how god directed them to her. Why didn’t your god stop that perverted scum in the first place? I freaking HATE people who praise and thank the ‘lord’ or Jesus whatever for things like that. Another thing is doctors/surgeons saving people. Fuck your god lmao. Sorry Christian or religious anons, life is too cruel for a god to exist

No. 694205

>>694199
Child abuse, especially child sexual abuse, is the reason why I believe there is no God. How could an all-powerful, loving being/entity allow that to happen?

No. 694208

>>694199
History themed accounts and channels have so many comments like that, especially from American military worshippers. They post things like "A beautiful moment. Peace and light." on photos of US soldiers hanging out in Vietnam or Iraq, and hateful comments on photos of malnourished children of those countries. Jesus would be ashamed if he existed
Reposting because it ended up in the wrong thread somehow

No. 694219

>>694199
Yeah screw those comments.
Omnipotent and omnipresent gods don't get to take credit for all the successes while assigning all the failures to humanity.

If theists really want to believe then: Either we have benevolent gods who have no real power to save the innocent and therefore aren't deserving of worship, OR we have all powerful malevolent gods who choose not to save the innocent and therefore aren't deserving of worship.

Some god who gives a child terminal bone cancer with excruciating death in order to "test" everyone's faith is not a god I'd ever worship even if it did exist. People are fooling themselves.

No. 694226

>>694189
Same here. I’m also really annoyed at the people who continue to throw parties. Practically every week there’s a news item on my regional page about the police breaking up yet another party of 20-30 people. Stores don’t sell alcohol after 8 pm to discourage parties but of course people are just buying the alcohol earlier in the day. Most of the partiers are teenagers and I know teenagers are retarded, but I can’t imagine myself at that age being that much of an asshole. They don’t get punished either, just “spoken to”. And of course the selfish assholes aren’t the ones getting sick, it’s their relatives and other vulnerable people they’re in contact with.

No. 694228

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I've just been put on medication (for a physical problem) that won't let me drink alcohol for a week. I was looking forward to finding a nice white wine this weekend. Sux man

No. 694267

>>694226
Im graduates but still live in a student area and the places around me college students have not stopped partying. Private renters are putting their properties as b+bs and they're constantly being used for house parties. I'm getting sick of the elderly being scapegoated as the spreaders, it's literally college aged people being the worst offenders.

No. 694284

>>694171
Good for you, I never liked makeup either and always hated how it was forced upon us. Now I don't wear makeup at all even for fancy events, only for concerts to look edgier, and nobody told me I looked weird or bad.

No. 694285

>>694267
> I'm getting sick of the elderly being scapegoated as the spreaders, it's literally college aged people being the worst offenders.
Whynotboth.jpeg
I don't know how it is where you are, but where I live students are definitely having illegal parties. I don't agree with it and it's stupid but I can also see why, their classes are all cancelled and they're locked in their student flats with no supervision.
But the elderly? They're literally out in the shops and on the buses using their free bus passes constantly. They never wear masks and you overhear them chatting about how this is all nonsense. They move dangerously close to shop staff to hear them because they're all deaf.

Both groups are as bad as each other but it's the elderly who are going to die from this.

No. 694300

>>694285
Elderly people are hardly walking about in droves and invading people's personal space. It's college students I see walking up to supermarkets realising they forgot their mask, shrugging and walking into the shop wondering why they're getting side eyed. Then they'll go home and make some cringe tiktok about the experience. It's like school children who are too embarrassed to hold a fucking lunchbox, so self concisous that doing a basic thing like wearing a mask causes them anxiety in case they look "weird". It's also young people drinking in the streets and walking about in groups. I share a building with someone who has been renting their place out for parties and the cunts spill out into the shared hallway, spill their drinks, smoke up against your cars, and they don't even fucking move when you have to go past them. I've taken to disinfecting the stairs etc because no one fucking cleans up. Guys down the side of my building pissing on the bricks. No one washing their hands. Old people keep to themselves even when out and about I've noticed. Old women are probably the ones I've seen complying the most.

No. 694312

>>694300
The cultures must just be different to where we both each live then, I'm glad your old ladies are trying to be safe. Can you call the police on the illegal parties where you live? If they don't actually live there you shouldn't have to deal with any danger of the students finding out it's you

No. 694323

>>694312
>Can you call the police on the illegal parties where you live?

Jesus Christ, bootlicker much? Why you encouraging others to be snitches for their tyrannical governments?

No. 694331

>>694323
Fuck off, the pandemic doesn't care about your cringy political views.

No. 694341

i think my sister might be suicidal, and i don't know what to do. she has been saying some pretty cryptic stuff and my parents are useless when it comes to things like these, i tried talking to her but i'm scared she won't come back from work this time

No. 694356

Kinda related to the discussion going on here at the moment, but I needed to vent this anyway.

During a walk with my dog yesterday, an old lady approached wanting to pet my dog. I'm kind of averse to letting people touch my dog during the pandemic, so I usually ask them not to or let the dog sniff their hand without direct contact. People are usually very understanding. Other dog owners just let our dogs say hello while we keep our distance.

This old lady, however, was coughing loudly and then sneezed directly into her hands before reaching out for my dog. I pulled him back and asked her not to touch him, but she just waved me off and insisted on petting him, promising me she just had the flu and that there was nothing to worry about.

Like ew, no. I came off as a huge bitch, but even if it is just the flu, I don't want you rubbing your snotty hand into my dog's fur. She looked really hurt that I kept pulling away from her, so now I just feel bad about the whole thing.

No. 694357

>>694356
what a gross bitch, you did the right thing anon

No. 694362

>>694331
So does the sole taste the nicest to you or the heel?

Fuck this pandemic. At this point, stay inside if your at risk and let everyone else carry on. You’ll be fine and if not, too bad.

No. 694363

>>694362
nta but you're a fucking retard

No. 694364

>>694362
Nta, but not everyone can just stay inside if they're at risk. You're forgetting that not everyone at risk is pregnant or elderly. Some people have illnesses that make them more susceptible to corona. Even pregnant and elderly people may not be apple to stay inside because surprisingly enough, they have jobs, and may not have someone to help them with stuff like errands.

No. 694365

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I can't stand retards who believe the elites want to depopulate the earth, especially here in Europe. People get rewards and handouts from the government for popping out kids, meanwhile childless women can easily end up homeless, even if they're young. A girl must be pregnant or already have a kid in order to be helped by social security services, to give her a room to stay in. You literally don't have to worry about basic human needs like shelter and food if you have a child. You're childless? Well fuck you then, go on the street and starve.

No. 694369

>>694365
Are you a fellow Hunganon by any chance?

No. 694370

>>694365
my parents have alluded that they had me in order to get hella benefits before they became official US citizens lmao
I knew lazy unemployed people who have kids and live off food stamps/assistance programs spending all their free cash on weed meanwhile I was a college student unable to afford housing and food so I had to live in a boyfriends room for a year. Poor people are going to have kids regardless of barriers anyway

No. 694372

>>694369
I'm polish

No. 694377

>>694372
Ah, that would have been my second guess. If it is of any solace, you're not the only Eurofag with a psychopath for a PM

No. 694380

I hate how everything I like gets shit on for not being ~*realistic*~ enough when 90% of those series people complain about clearly aren't going for realism in the first place, some of them are literal children's comedies for fucks sake. One of the reasons why I got into weeb shit is precisely because of the lack of realism. I don't want them to "feel like real people" I want them to be ridiculous and entertaining. Fuck real people tbh. I'm so tired of this no fun allowed, 'make everything gritty' mindset westerners have in general.

No. 694384

>>694362
I get big femcel shut in vibes from you

No. 694405

>>694312
>>694323
I'd rather not phone the police because of the types of people at these parties. i've only called the police out once to a party because a couple of guys were beating this girl and she was crying and screaming, but I was still nervous lol, but the girl seemed so happy a stranger gave a fuck and the police escorted her home.

No. 694409

>>694365
It's so fucking retarded. The whole point of the different classes is so there's a pool of low skilled workers and to balance out the economy. Why would the governments want their subjects who finance their departments to all fucking die. Not to mention how retarded the conspiracies are about tracking people with nano technology. we all have smart phones, national insurance numbers/social security numbers, there's cctv everywhere and people abuse prescription drugs. Like, if the governments were trying to mind control us, they'd use means everyone uses and not hype up a brand new technology like a vaccine that can't even be injected into everyone. So people with certain allergies or immunocompromised people are the ones the governments think should live on while all the healthy people die? People are so fucking retarded.

No. 694420

>>686925
my older brother leaves me on read all the time and it's so annoying, he replies to some stuff and then immediately disappears and leaves you hanging. And he's consistent enough on his replies that you feel like a bitch bringing it up, but he has a pattern of just disappearing from the conversation and uuuughh…

No. 694439

i hate it when my boyfriend doesn't call me for a whole day and at night calls me to say "missed you the whole day even though i wasnt doing anything besides watching gameplays so i couldve just called you if i actually missed you".

No. 694443

I need my mom to go to the dmv for me (car is registered in the state she's in, I am states away) and she literally said "nawh" because she's lazy. She's so abusive lately

No. 694458

I hate that my boyfriend is calling me only one nickname and it’s kinda like a mock. I might start a fight over it

No. 694460

>>694458
Be messy, start a fight

No. 694462

>>694458
or you could just be honest and ask him to stop. if he doesn't then break up with him

No. 694465

>>694462
I tell him. I get angry aswell but he doesn’t get it or doesn’t care and no I’m not gonna dump him for this lol

No. 694472

>>694443
Anon is the car registered under your name? If so if you're a resident fo the state your in (ie you have a proper ID) just renew the license for that state. Or you yourself can do it online, a lot of states are opening up that option due to covid.

No. 694484

My bank tricked me and now I have a -$120 balance until I get paid at the end of the month from my new job.
I got my last paycheck from my old job on Friday. The first thing I did was schedule my car payment which is a loan also through my bank.

Over the weekend it showed me a balance with my car payment already subtracted from it. Which gave me the impression I had money to buy food and gifts.
Well surprise, guess I didn't! Monday evening they reordered my transactions and the car payment in a way that ultimately showed I had a -$64 balance. I wouldn't have known about it had I not received an email warning about my balance suddenly dipping under $25 in over a year. Weird cause it showed I had money with the pending charges subtracted in the daytime. Whatever, so I begged a family member to write me a check for $65 and made the deposit last night.

I woke up and now my balance is -$126 dollars. The check didn't clear, they reordered charges again, and then they charged me overdraft fees on two transactions for $35 each. I specifically don't have overdraft protection so I'm not sure how they got away with that, I don't really give a fuck about a $7 streaming service enough to have paid $35 for it, and even so, if I didn't actually have $18 yesterday for a sandwich and mailing a package at the post office then they should have declined my card and I would have paid with my credit. Those things ought to have declined if I didn't actually have money. But it didn't work that way, because they told me during those times that I still had money!!

I want to call them and bitch them out for charging me overdraft fees, but did those sneaks assign the overdraft fees to the fucking sandwich or postal charge? NOPE. One went to the $7 streaming subscription. The other was assigned to my expensive ass car payment that I scheduled BACK ON FRIDAY WHEN I GOT FUCKING PAID when they reordered that charge to now only show as processed today. Now I fear if I call them to bitch about the overdraft fees that they'll remove my car payment cause there was no "protection" to cover my charge and then I'd have no way to get the money to pay it because it's due before I get paid.

These fuckers are thieves. I need a credit union, just a shame they're so inconvenient.

No. 694488

>>694484
I'm sorry this happened to you, anon. I'd politely ask for the fees to be forgiven, they'd likely do it for you if you show that it was an honest mistake. I've had so many overdrafts remitted this way.

No. 694498

fuck im crytyping but
there are so many lesbian women who just choose to live heterosexual lives because they don't want to bother with homophobia or are too lazy to date other women. it is abysmal already and then a big part of lesbians just choose men over women anyway just because they don't want to be inconvenienced. the same applies to bisexuals who sperg constantly about how much they love women but date only men. and i'm not talking about women from muslim/homophobic countries.
at this point it is obvious that w/w couples are inferior to everyone else.

No. 694515

Men online sperging about Pornhub deleting videos by unverified accounts to help victims of abuse.
>B-but my boner
Zero empathy. People in my country are all about buying organic and meat from happy cows and all that shit, but don't you dare take away their rape porn.

No. 694526

>>694380
Stop caring about what others think of the things you like. Delete that twitter account and never look back.

No. 694528

>>694484
bank of america?

No. 694529

>>694498
>or are too lazy to date other women

Come on, you really believe that?

No. 694536

I fucking hate that the term "Karen" has now become an all-encompassing term for any white woman who isn't a complete doormat with no opinions or standards. It's just become a new way for men to be misogynistic in a socially acceptable way - instead of saying you hate women, you can just say you hate white women. I saw someone on Twitter calling a woman a Karen because she wanted a restaurant to remake or refund her meal that was supposed to be vegetarian but had pork in it. Not even rudely at all. Give me a fucking break.

No. 694549

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>>694526
I don't even have a twitter account, I see this on the internet in general.

No. 694553

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8 page research paper due at midnight and I've been stuck on page 4 for hours because I can't think of or find anything else to add. Why do I always pick the worst project topics?

No. 694558

>>694529
then how do you explain women that spend one month on tinder, don't get their perfect lesbian waifu and then just go back to dating men "because it is easier"? i will admit that it relates more to bisexuals though

No. 694564

>>694488
I'll give it a whirl but I doubt these vampires will care. Worth a shot, thanks anon.

>>694528
Yep.

No. 694565

>>694365
It's not about depopulating its about those conspiratard moids fearing the pollution and drugs is making them infertile, and capitalism giving a chance for women to not be bangmaid broodmares for any moid that wants one. If they wanted to truly depopulate then abortion would be in free drive ins.

No. 694599

>>694553
Find a paper on the same subject online for "inspiration".

No. 694603

>>694549
My post was obviously not about the twitter account, but rather about you stop caring. Why you only reply to the only point that wasn't correct?

No. 694606

>>694558
Nobody considering dating men is a lesbian, anon

No. 694607

>>694100
goddammit that's infuriating, personally this is the first time i read about this maybe because ppl mostly hear how older moms get downie kids etc.
unfortunately it's normal that person who wants to make kids isn't thinking of any risks. mostly it's a bit selfish act to reproduce. i know this wasn't the reason of your vent but had to point that out.
also, makes me really think if my autism was caused by this mutation from paternal side or is my dad really on the spectrum. he was 59 when i was born, now demented so have to figure this out by myself.

No. 694617

>>694380
It's okay to like garbage, it's good to not even bother to argue about it with strangers on the internet. screw those ppl.
I like stupid crap as well and can't link with any people, especially the same gender. I've started to even enjoy being alone after distancing myself from old friends bc of personal issues.
Have an enjoyable me time and enjoy your moe escapism.

No. 694661

>>694617
This. It's usually not worth arguing taste, unless you really want to shoot the shit or something.

No. 694662

>>694606
i understand anon, it is just so discouraging when every single "wlw" space on reddit or tumblr is full of women that swear up and down on how gay they are and how much they love women and then in the same breath talk about how much they love their boyfriends or how they will never leave their beloved husband, even though they are 'totally a lesbian'. there are women that will get fucking triggered if someone mentions that lesbians don't want to hear a thing about men. saying that lesbians don't masturbate while thinking about men will get you labeled as toxic, bigot or terf. and let's not even start talking about trannies and how they get away with constant talking about their penises and 'lesbians' that date them and talk bout how amazing piv sex is.
at times it feels like i am the only one. and it is just a vent. after looking at shit like this i get thoughts like 'no woman is exclusively attracted to women'

No. 694674

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It somehow came up that kids who lack trust and nurture at home tend to seek alone time during distress, like crying over something, scraped knee, upset. And my mom genuinely was amazed and said that it was just handy how i have always ever since i was a small child just went into another room or a closet to cry, changing place and holding in my tears if someone came in. I love my mom but I point blank told her it was 100% they used to laugh at me for crying or just yelled at me to stfu so I read the room and would just gtfo and that i get that they weren't lovey dovey people or liked hugging or some shit but didn't they ever find it weird seeing other kids with their parents? She was just baffled and kept saying how she just thought it was handy and wondered where i learnt it from, but half assedly apologized. It's fucking weird knowingly having done shit like that and then later on realising it's straight out of some psych book, doctor lock me up, i am a fat cliché posting cringe!

No. 694692

i keep thinking how every man i'm ever going to have romantic feelings for is always gonna be thinking about their ex's bodies or comparing me to their ex's and it's making me fucking miserable

No. 694704

I think my friend has schizophrenia.
She was catfished online.
Then instead of admitting that she was catfished she made up a conspiracy theory about an entire race of people who "did it" to her.
She thinks they are talking about her on tv, radio.

Idk wtf her family is thinking because she tells them all her conspiracies and they just accept it. wtf

No. 694705

>>694692
get therapy

No. 694706

>>694692
not gonna happen. men like novelty and they are attracted to like 80% of women. he doesn't have space in his head to keep all the bodies he finds attractive

No. 694708

2 part vent

Pt. 1:
My fucking spider catcher won't do its ONE job of catching fucking spiders. I rent a HOUSE now, not a 2nd floor apartment so I NEED THIS. Thank god the sneaky fucks pretend to be dead if you poke at them enough, so I could brush it into a box and RUN outside just to drop the box prematurely and freak tf out. It initially changed my life to get a spider catcher because it was like boop, 1 minute max between seeing a spider and it being outside, now it's changed back to the shaky 15 minutes trying to throw a tupperware box on it, then sliding paper underneath it, then trying to lift that paper without the spider escaping because you know, paper is floppy and you create gaps, and the risk is SPIDER ON YOUR HAND so it's a slow SLOW precise but still risky process.

Pt. 2:
Why is it that people without arachnophobia don't fucking take it seriously? Even the well meaning say "hm maybe you could work on getting over the phobia". Why don't I hear that suggestion for other phobias? And like I haven't tried. Other people will straight up disregard it. If I need help dealing with a spider in the family house my parents SIGH and roll their eyes. I asked my mom once to keep an eye on the spider while I got a tub and she just didn't and it disappeared. In my bedroom. I couldn't sleep that whole night because it's apparently too difficult for someone to conceptualise being afraid of spiders if they aren't themselves. Like if I have to deal with a spider I'll lose sleep. More than that I'll actually imagine feeling one on me and jump out of bed wiping myself all over to see nothing.

Pt. 2.5:
I do need to do something about it though. When it gets into my head that a spider could be anywhere I can't rest. There could be one on the wall behind me, under my chair, by my foot, right behind any object I see. One could've crawled into my teacup, etc etc.
The only way for me to not be afraid is to just forget spiders exist. But that can't happen if I need to directly confront one. Oh well, once I can afford a therapist to cure all my lifes ills I'll tackle it psychologically.

No. 694713

>>694706
>men like novelty
i know you're only trying to help but now i'm going to think about how he will eventually get bored of me. maybe i really should get therapy

No. 694715

I was in a coma for a week and my body's so fucked up.
They let my hair turn into big matts and I was full of tubes and a catheter, and I never let a doctor near my vulva before so I felt really uncomfortable. I had a weird cable that had been fishooked into my arm and they said I'd signed an agreement but the signature wasn't mine. I kept finding weird stickers all over my body, not ECG ones but like metal nip looking ones. My arms are bruised so horribly and so are my legs. My feet don't work right and I have loads of holes on them from needles and they're badly bruised because apparently a security guard restrained me overzealously when I was disorientated and trying to run.
They got me physio and now I'm on crutches, found out I had lots of deficiencies from bad meds. They took all the tubes out and I'm skinnier and have to use crutches. I look disgusting.
I feel sad. They sectioned me because apparently I put myself in the coma but I don't remember so now I'm in a locked psych ward. I'm not allowed the things that make me feel normal like hairdryer in case I hang myself with them.
I just want to be looked after. I'm really scared and confused

No. 694723

>>694715
Sweetie I hope you'll feel better soon and I know you're gonna indees feel better after physio. Sounds very awful and rough, hope it gets better for you soon,anon.

No. 694728

i hate hate hate how i start shaking whenever i say my opinion on anything or ask for something fuuuuuck i will literally be on verge of crying because i expect everyone to just shit on me and laugh at me at any peep i make. someone can just say 'lol ur stupid' and i will spend the rest of the day thinking about it. i fucking hate it so much i literally never say anything because of it

No. 694738

>>694723
Thank you, anon. All my friends are scared to call or ask how I am so I post here. It made my night much better reading your message. Thank you for understanding.

No. 694739

>>694728
I used to be like this bc of my parents, now I just see most ppl as inferior, so their bad reactions don't matter. Unless I like them I don't tell them anything personal.

No. 694747

>>694715
hey I hope you feel better soon, when you've had physio and a good clean you'll feel a lot better.

No. 694772

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I genuinely have a troon voice, screechy-low and cracks constantly, to the point that even moids accuse me of being a tranny on voice chat and its starting to make me sad, my vocal chords are damaged please stop calling me a troon.

(really ironic that body-wise it would be impossible to mistake me for a man)

No. 694774

>>694772
stop getting in voice calls on discord with random men, anon

No. 694775

>>694772
its sad that troons are so common anyone would even assume that and not immediately assume you were a woman. I'm sorry anon

No. 694776

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in the last two months I've spent over $800 on vagina related costs: $200 for yearly check up,
$85 on a 3 month supply of generic BC, $42 on plan b (just in case), $435 on the abortion pill because the above two methods could not fend off my bf's super sperm, three hours in the waiting room & $52 on medicine for a BV infection probably caused by wearing pads (which i was instructed to wear until i stop heavily bleeding/spotting.) the worst part is my BF is 2200 miles away and I just feel like a pile of shit and I hate having a vagina. he's offered to pay for everything but i asked him to buy me a plane ticket instead.

there is no reason any of this should cost this much.

No. 694778

>>694774
Not discord, I like playing online games so co-op, I would probably still be insulted some other mysoginistic shit but being called a tranny makes me self-conscious and sad.

>>694775
It sucks because there's certain troons, like nikkietutorials that genuinely sound more "real" than I do and im fucking mad to hell and back about it.

No. 694783

>>694738
The same thing has happened to me and a few anons here too, they just get scared for whatever reason and expect you to be the convo starter yet never bring stuff too heavy up. I would love to see you post updates here too, i am really rooting for you! Take it easy on them crutches as well, they can be a bitch especially with bruised legs and arms.

No. 694788

>>694776
lol what kind of shithole charges over $400 for an abortion pill? it's like 50 euros here and barely anyone uses it anyway bc people use condoms…

No. 694789

>>694776
If you're gonna be spending $1k+ on vagina maintenance look into getting an arm implant.
Been there anon.

No more abortion and plan B pills. Never get a period. No more monthly bc costs.

Ask your bf to pay your expenses and get a plane ticket. $562 of those expenses are because he doesn't wear a condom with you.

No. 694791

>>694776
Hold the fuck on, do you not have health insurance? Because a yearly should be covered under routine preventative care.

No. 694794

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>>694599
Just submitted some random crap to get it over with since my grade can take a hit. I don't really have the capacity to care about Zoom University anymore.

No. 694797

>>694791
Because in order for some people to be insured, they have to pay $200-300 premiums per month and then pay a $15-75 co-pay to attend the preventative visit. Can't speak for anon but I imagine premiums being too financially oppressive while not making low enough to qualify for Medicaid is the reason.

When I was a contractor, it was easier for me to cough up the $400 for an obgyn visit once a year than pay close to $200 a month the rest of the time just to get my one annual "free" checkup.
Paying for insurance as a healthy person is clowning yourself in America. Fortunately I'm with an employer who has great insurance coverage for $0 out of my paycheck, but that is extremely rare.

No. 694804

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>>694797
I understand not wanting to pay the premiums. I haven't had it since 2018, and even at that time working for a fucking insurance company I was required to pay a $5600/year deductible. Insurance companies in this country are a fucking joke.
That said, you shouldn't be paying copayment for well-care visits.

No. 694808

I know the uk has its problems but I am so grateful for the nhs and free healthcare. The nhs has problems but people need to be grateful. We seriously take it for granted sometimes. I find it crazy to see Americans and other countries talk about medical bills and not being able to go to the hospital for treatment or therapy because it costs loads and they can’t afford it?? If you don’t pay health insurance? If you don’t have insurance and have a car accident or something and have to call an ambulance could they just leave you on the side of the road or refuse to help you? I don’t really understand so I’m sorry if I sound ignorant

No. 694809

>>694776
Just ask your boyfriend to get a vasectomy? Wtf I don't get straight people, a woman has to constantly worry about that stuff and spend money and a man can have one, reversible intervention and spare her the pain. I can't imagine dating a man an constantly be the one who carries 100% of resposibility.

No. 694810

>>694808
They're obligated to pick you up. We're fucked in that scenario because there's an ambulance fee, then the ER fees, physician fees, and the $20 bandaid they may give you, or $15 ibuprofen. If you're sent to collections for nonpayment,they annihilate your credit score so that you're too fucked to get decent rates on mortgages or personal loans, or hell.. your credit here even affects your ability to get a job in some places.

No. 694817

>>694809
nta but trusting a man to do something that simply doesn't affect a woman's body sounds retarded. they barely use condoms properly.

No. 694818

>>694804
Lol, Murrica. Land of the 'charge you hundreds per month but you can keep your $20 copays.'

No. 694819

>>694817
Stop dating retarded men then.

No. 694822

>>694819
tell that to OP. her bf clearly doesn't give a fuck about her reproductive health.

No. 694850

I've been so tired lately, due to my wacky sleep schedule and eating habits that really wore me down. I miss my friends, I miss talking to them and hanging out w them… I really want to pick up art again but my passion isn't there anymore and with the rise of new and more talented artists is bound to be forgotten. Most of my savings are gone because of the pandemic too so I have to be very careful about what I'm about to spend on. Even though I really want a treat urself day but it is ultimately impossible.

No. 694856

I cant sleep and i just watched a youtube video about a south korean "comfort women" during the war and i just hate the comment section. Its filled with Japanese nationalist saying that south korean just wants more money and that it all happened in the past or some bullshit. Like these bitches dont give a fuck what these women went through and just want to pretend like it never happened. Anyway i hope all rapists die a horrible way and will suffer in hell

No. 694871

>>694856
Its even worse because plenty of those women and their children are still alive, its not like this happened in the 1400s.

No. 694873

>>694822
my bf loves me but he refuses to use condoms

No. 694876

>>694873
Then he doesn't love you.

Caring about your health is a fundamental part of a healthy relationship anon, get the fuck out.

No. 694883

So I helped my friend move from their apartment and they had food they couldn’t take because they were on a plane so I brought home stuff like pasta and bread and snacks and meat and my dad got so mad at me. He asked why I would bring home stuff, asked if I’m a garbage dump, implied my friends food and house were dirty and would bring bugs here, and told me I need to grow up and learn to be more responsible and I shouldn’t take food that could’ve gone to a shelter. This interaction was so bizarre and I’m wondering if he’s a narcissist because there’s no way I can logically understand his reaction.

No. 694886


No. 694894

>>694883
>asked if I’m a garbage dump
honestly, yeah anon it does kind of sound like narc behavior. any other person should be happy they got some free stuff. sounds like the times my gma would get mad at me for inane shit bc she thought I made her look bad
>shouldn’t take food that could’ve gone to a shelter
grasping at straws to blame you for "what you did" sry for armchair, I hope he calms down and apologizes

No. 694906

>>694883
>food has potential for bugs
>suggests you take it to a shelter
Lol ah yes, bugs are good enough for those homeless poors.
I honestly would be freaked out a little myself (I don't really like taking food from friends just due to being particular and wanting to pick out my own things and then needing to make space for shit I don't really want) but your dad sounds like he's more concerned about it being an image or class issue. Like you all look hard up for food if you take your friend's unclaims, hence he asked "Are you a dump?" He just has a tone that it's inherently dirty.

No. 694910

At my job, I had to work with a group of retarded cunts last weekend who completely froze me out, all because I asked them what they wanted to do about covid spacing.

We have 2 desks we work from to make returns (it is a retail job), one being the mobile desk, where we use iPhone registers, and the other being the fixed register by the clothing racks.

I wasn’t rude either, I didn’t demand that they move or anything, I just asked if they were comfortable swapping the register for the mobiles if needed as the iPhones we have are old as fuck and constantly freeze, forcing us to finish a transaction on the register.

Seriously I really hate working with other people sometimes, I wish I had the register to myself or just me and support as I am generally ok alone. I really didn’t want to get yelled at by the managers again for being too close, as we can get in trouble now for being bunched up together. And of course, they spent the entire shift huddled up gossiping, kept logging me out of my account so I couldn’t use the register, making nasty comments within earshot, just dumb petty grade school shit.

I really don’t want to work with them again, and I figured my boomer manager stuck us together because we are all “girls” so of course we are going to kiki and just automatically be best friends, right?

No. 694912

>>694808
UK is actually great and has done a lot internationally for the better but it's controversial to acknowledge. Probably one of the most Liberal democracies on the planet.

No. 694919

Currently crying because my birthday plans have been ruined and being told that I don't deserve anything. Literally the day before my birthday. Gonna go flame my teammates and enemy team in League to feel something again. Atleast I still have my dessert to rely on

No. 694939

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For the first time in my long term relationship, my boyfriend resorted to name calling a “loser” and “fucking bitch” mid argument. Shocked by his immaturity tbh.

No. 694964

my room smells like my boyfriend and i miss him so much!

No. 694972

my scrote is sulky because i have a uti and won't sex him until i'm better. it's really weird how much men feel like they need sex idk

i've always had a low drive though so maybe i'm not being sympathetic enough

No. 694973

>>694939
he called YOU those names or??? idk i know what it's like to fly off the handle and say stuff you don't mean, but there's no excusing calling your partner mean things

No. 694974

>>694972
He probably gave it to you and can’t even wait until you feel better, you’re dating a nasty scrote

No. 694997

>>694939
So when are you going to dump him?

No. 695006

>>694788
lol @ did you miss where i said i was on birth control? and not a eurofag, why do you think i'm venting

No. 695008

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I need to shut up and put a happy smile on my face because no one cares and my depression/paranoia/agoraphobia is starting to stress my fiancé out. I want to die but I’m too much of a coward to do it, but I’m too scared to live. The highlight of my life is shitposting drunk online, fuck me.

No. 695010

>>694789
thanks, i just got onto medicaid so the copper IUD will be free now. we used condoms after the plan b scare, but i was on birth control the whole time.

>>694791
i'm unemployed because of covid. went from really nice salaried job w/ full benefits to state insurance that is spotty at best. i might be able to get some of this refunded, but the paperwork alone is making me want to rip my hair out. mainly i'm upset that i've never had to use my insurance for years and now that i lose my job all this shit pops up.

No. 695011

>>695008
In the exact same boat. If you're drinking tonight too, cheers. This year ruined any and all progress I had made.

No. 695012

>>694939
no one should ever talk to you like that. you are worthwhile and anyone that loves you should never talk to you like that.

No. 695013

>>694972
excuse you what? no one deserves sex. UTI's fucking hurt and you probably got it from him. having sex before your UTI is cleared will agitate your healing body?? does he want you to get a kidney infection? i can't

No. 695015

>>694809
this is so deluded anon. so since the first time in 18 years my birth control did not work, i should blame my supportive boyfriend and force him to have a vasectomy? or i could do the normal thing and move on, get an IUD and not force surgery on someone i love. wtf is wrong with you

No. 695033

>>694783
I'm sorry it's happened to you and others, too, anon. A woman in my dorm just woke me up by calling me a fucking paedophile (it's her thing) and now I'm having to sit in a hot bath to stop my legs hurting so much because I can't get back sleep. If I get covid cleared today or tomorrow I'll be allowed to ask for a referral to use the gym here so maybe I can work on some gentle strength and flexibility stuff while I recover. I used to be muscular but now I'm a sack of white haired saggy skin and bruises.
If anybody has any recs for gentle muscle tone/endurance stuff to get stronger after coma I'd really appreciate it. I think resistance bands look good but I don't know very much, I just used to be a jogger

No. 695039

>>695015
>normal thing
It's normal only in a sexist world. You're deluded. Your bf refuses to wear condoms. He doesn't love you. Sorry.

No. 695040

>>695015
Also condoms are not only important because of pregnancy lmao
Young people just love to pretend that STDs dont exist.

No. 695041

>>695015
grow a spine.

No. 695043

>>695015
I understand not wanting him to get surgery (especially if you're not life partners, I wouldn't ask that of any of my bfs unless we were married), but why can't he wear condoms? Just like how you wouldn't force him to get surgery because you love him, he should wear a condom (even if it's just for this little moment where your bc doesn't work) because he loves you, especially when you are pouring so much money into your sexual health.

You said he has "super sperm", and maybe you were just joking, but if not that's even more reason for him to take protection. BC is not completely foolproof.

No. 695049

Mad no one told me that you can just skip your period for most months by taking a placebo free birth control with no health risks. Of fucking course Im doing this. Why is the standard making women go through false periods? I swear to god society wants us in pain

No. 695051

I was falling asleep after a long day at work completely happy bc I had time do my self-care routine and a roach just crawled all over my naked ass. I wanna die.

No. 695053

>>695049
Yooo this motherfucker speedrunning!

No. 695054

>>695049
I remember asking about this when I was younger and was met with "it's unnatural" from anyone I looked up to. I'm not on BC anymore but sounds like the dream.

No. 695055

>>695039
I hate how it's the standard that women have to pay for/deal with everything regarding pregnancy. Stories like >>694776 are honestly my nightmare.

No. 695058

I want to stream games but I'm so ugly and sick looking on camera. I don't even want to be an e-girl, I just want to look normal, not like I'm dying from a terminal disease. I'd like to stream only with my voice but people rarely care about female streamers who don't show their faces. Men have it so much easier in this department.

No. 695061

>>695058
Are you wanting to stream for attention and money? The fun of it? Making friends?

No. 695066

>>695061
I want to do something that others find interesting/funny and build a small community of people who feel comfortable around each other. Money too, sure, but I have a day job so it won't be my main source of income

No. 695075

>>694856
The online nationalists are top tier retarded conspiracy theorists usually, but unfortunately in this case a large part of the blame in on the Korean government too. The Korean government has accepted funds on multiple occasions and never properly paid it out to the victims. It keeps being swept under the rug because both governments are more interested having a pissing match with each other at the expense of their citizens. It’s factually incorrect to say that Japan has never paid or acknowledged the act though. They just refuse to do it over again after the government changed hands and decided it didn’t like the way it was addressed before because it feels like “losing”.

The Korean government is twiddling their fingers until all the remaining victims die so they never have to cough up the rest of the funds and Japan refuses to acknowledge it anymore because they think that plugging their ears will make it go away. Nobody wants to hear from victims or speak to them directly because the PMs are too busy being passive aggressive with each other to care.

No. 695081

I know it’s a common topic both here and other threads that relate but holy shit I have to get it out. I don’t want to hear about your shit boyfriend!! I hate how this one girl I know always complains about him privately and she VENTS. Long rants, massive issues and the dude truly is pathetic but I lost my respect for her as well. It’s been a good couple of months, they are both adults who live separately and I heard from a girl that also knows her that this has been going on since the start of the relationship. What made me snap was that she told me that I’m lucky my boyfriend is so good to me and when I pointed out I’ve always written off men that annoy me even if I like them and that I’m very transparent to my boyfriend that I love him but I want peace, respect and routine in my life and if he disturbs it no matter how much I love him I will leave him. I open up and explain how my mom was in an abusive relationship with my step dad and I saw the damage men can do, that I refuse to rely on them and I refuse be stuck with one that causes me any form of pain. I explain how I’ve come off as a massive man hating bitch and gotten to hear how intimidating I am and so on but it was all worth it to combat my fear of men. I put in work to establish my self, to have self respect, standards and confidence in a culture that tells us as long as a man loves us we should be happy. It doesn’t matter that they don’t respect us, expect us to raise them and “hold them down”. No we should just be oh so happy that we are the chosen woman for their dick. It takes control and lots of love for oneself to break up with someone you love that treats you bad but all that work lead to me now having a boyfriend that hears, respects and values me. It’s not just luck. And what does this woman have the audacity to say??? She fucking goes off about how I’m implying her boyfriend isn’t good enough and that I’m just being a bitch and that all people have flaws and if you love someone you should love them unconditionally. I didn’t respond and today I see she posted on her private Instagram again a rant about her boyfriend. I just blocked her. Can’t stand shit like this anymore.

No. 695084

i want to force my boyfriend to kiss me on the mouth after i give him a blowjob ESPECIALLY if he cums in my mouth because i know he thinks it's gross but i think beyond that it also demeans and dehumanizes him. don't care if i sound like a crazy bitch, if i'm going to do the demeaning acting of sucking his cock and acting like the perfect little giver while i do it then he can taste his own dick after i'm done

No. 695085

>>695084
What the fuck….
This reminds me of men saying they like anal cause they know most women don't like it and feel like its demeaning

No. 695088

Is heterosexual sex entirely about doing things that disgust you/dehumanize you

No. 695093

>>695084
A blowjob isnt inherently demeaning, and you're weird as fuck, but also him not wanting to kiss you after is so weak. Yall are weird

No. 695095

>>695093
>A blowjob isnt inherently demeaning
nta but yes it is

No. 695096

>>695093
i'm not weird at all. i think it's perfectly fine to want to demean him if i am demeaned myself. what is not demeaning about getting mouth fucked? in fact if you want to go even deeper, the act of penetrative sex for a woman is entirely demeaning in itself. you're literally getting fucked.

No. 695097

>>695084
bruh if he doesn't randomly and repeatedly pull you off of his dick to kiss you sloppily, it ain't real
get out of there

No. 695098

>>695095
Also NTA, but does that mean a guy eating you out is demeaning to him?

No. 695099

>>695097
My BF unironically thinks it's gay if he kisses me during/after a blowjob. Men are something else…

No. 695100

>>695099
that's not a man, it's a fucking little gross little loser bitchass

No. 695101

I hate farmers shitty boyfriends and fucking wish they could just not

No. 695102

>>695099
GET OUT

No. 695103

i thought i was closed minded or sheltered for only having female friends before but after trying to be friends with men i'm fucking done. they all catch feelings even when they already have girlfriends, even when i tell them i'm only interested in dating women, and then they get pissed at me for not returning their feelings. they blame me for "making" them fall for me as if it's my fault they can't tell the difference between someone being friendly and someone liking them romantically.

it's genuinely infuriating and i tried, but i've decided it's not worth the trouble trying to be friends with them

No. 695104

>>695100
Lol I don't really think it's a big deal though. If he thinks it's gross I don't see why he should feel pressured into doing it.

No. 695105

>>695104
Dude, it's his dick, that's like if he wouldn't kiss you after you licked his arm
That means his dick is dirty or something

No. 695106

>>695105
Not really, I think it's the bodily fluids (cum) that's considered gross, honestly I wouldn't want my own pussy juice all over my face either.

No. 695107

>>695096
I agree that giving a blowjob is submissive but demeaning means lack of respect & dignity. Men demean themselves by being attracted to anything with a vagina and sticking their dick in literally anything. Consensually sucking a dick can't compare.
>>695106
Giving a blowjob doesnt mean cum is all over your face though, what?

No. 695110

>>695096
Nra, but it IS weird. Imo, most things in sex are only demeaning f you feel like it is, (obviously there are things that are inherently demeaning like collars and shit). If you feel like it's demeaning, then why are so still doing it? It's not normal or ok to want to demean your partner and get off on the fact that they don't enjoy it, but you try to force into it anyway. I like to kiss guys after bj's too, but that's disgusting.

No. 695111

>>695107
I was mostly talking about kissing after cumming in mouth/face

No. 695112

>>695104
>>695099
Why do straight women like humiliating themselves? Like, is it a sickness?
Will you be homeless if you dump him or something? I bet he doesn't wash his asshole because he thinks it's gay to touch it, too.

No. 695113

>>695110
how about you go tell this to men that enjoy anal

No. 695114

>>695113
I made >>695085 so I mean…

However, If a woman genuinely enjoys anal and the dudes not a weirdo, then that's not an issue to me.

No. 695116

>>695112
They're probably afraid their shitty boyfriends will leave them if they refuse to do something. Try to tell a scrote you won't suck his dick. He will bitch about it all the time and cheat on you and leave you lmao.
Dicks are gross and I will never suck one.

No. 695124

I'm so tired of having an existential crisis every single day.
Right now I can't figure out what I should do with my life. I'm failing college and I realized I don't even want this degree and probably wouldn't be good at it anyway.

But I don't know what else I should do. The only things I'm good at is history, art and languages. But all of those things either leave you without a job, pay shit or have over abundance(teachers have difficulties finding work and the pay is shit anyway, anything involving art can't get you a job, archeology pays shit unless you have connections, translating is freelance etc etc). And some interesting degrees you can't even study in my country and I'd have to leave my safety net and therapist.
Everyone tells me "oh just go to a nursing school, they get jobs fast" well I'm shit at math.
"Go be a baker or a cook" I'm shit at that too and can't handle stress due to being a ptsd riddled bipolar freak.
"Well why don't you just do something involving physical labor?" I'm the size of a middle schooler and can't even lift my parents chihuahua without getting sweaty.

Am I doomed to be homeless, poor and a burden to society? Or should I just end it all before it can get to that point?

No. 695125

>>695084
Sorry to hear that anon
I'm just a tourist here but some of us do like it, I was into kissing immediately after oral with the last woman I was dating(male)

No. 695126

>>694365
It's really funny to me when the tinfoils scream about eugenics and killing the poor uwu. If they get rid of the poor who's gonna work? Rich people? HAH.

No. 695130

I have a goddamn fucking fungal infection on my chest it’s so fucking gross, I shower every day how tf did I get this uuuughgggggghh

No. 695133

>>695130
Idk if it helpes but the area is probably really sensitive. After showering you can use a hair dryer to get it really dry. That’s ehat I know my mom does. Afaik things like this can come from a weak immune system but don’t quote me on that

No. 695137

Why are men such ginormous coomers? Go to any place where you can see them communicating like imageboards or discord and all they do is post images of naked or half naked women amidst their discourse.

No. 695139

>>695130
Could it be the poor water quality? Not to freak you out but you could have shitty water, or your water supply/ landlord isn't filtering it right.

No. 695149

>>695137
I wish I knew but it's so fucking depressing

No. 695153

>>695139
Could be, our apartment is shit and they cut corners everywhere they can

>>695133
my doctor said it’s because of the fold between my boobs, I guess like how an armpit can get it from being a damp warm enviro

No. 695164

I feel like my family thinks I'm a huge loser…
>only one not self-employed making huge money
>only one without kids (how dare I as a woman)
>'just' a secretary (i actually do much more such as bookkeeping and hr but they call me secrerary)
>no college diploma (even though I'm studying to get one aside from my full time job)

I feel sad and very low confidence

No. 695166

Black women are the trans-women of women.(racebait)

No. 695168

>>695166
What do you mean?

No. 695169

women are the black people of the world

No. 695184

>>695084
Based. Other anons are weak tbh.

No. 695188

>>695049
>with no health risks

Are you sure about that?

No. 695189

>>695084
>If I do X you have to Y out of principle!

Oh boi, you sure love to play games, dont you? If you don't want to give blowjobs just don't. Nobody benefits from psycho games.

No. 695190

>>695095
>you're literally getting fucked.

?? Why do it then if it's so dehumanizing and bad?

No. 695193

>>695189
it's not about not wanting to give blowjobs, it's about bringing him down to your level.

No. 695194

>>695193
Mta but you clearly have some personal issues to think that you and women who have sex are some lowly beings.

No. 695195

>>695194
*Nta, oops.

No. 695198

>>695194
Nta but it doesn't fucking matter how you see blowjobs, you can see it as empowering or whatever. What matters is how men see it and they see it as an act of dominating you. They may say they don't but they will admit it when they think they're in male-only space. Also, pay attention to our language. People, but especially men, say to someone to suck a dick when they want them to shut up, to dominate them and to show them they're being "owned" in a situation etc. For men it's all about power. You can't compare it to giving oral to a woman (although personally it's as unimportant to me as sucking a dick) because pussy was never a symbol of power of the oppressor class. Not to mention it never caused a man to puke or suffocate or suffer from some kind of pain because you can't choke on a pussy like you can choke on a dick.

No. 695207

>>695198
Not true, I nearly suffocated a guy with my thighs when he was licking me out.

No. 695210

>>695198
you also have issues. sometimes it's okay to enjoy things even if men like them. shocking i know.

No. 695218

>>695198
I completely agree with you anon. Sex of any kind with men is degrading even if you're the "dom" because you're just living out their fetish. There's no winning with men. They don't see women as their equals and never will.

No. 695222

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I have a final exam this morning in a class taught by the meanest professor I've ever had (this is STEM if it matters). She makes the exams needlessly difficult; the final is cumulative over thirty chapters and she did not give a single indication of what we should focus on. It feels like she genuinely wants us to fail.

I've managed to secure a very high average before the final, and I pride myself in my grades and getting all As. I am so fucking pissed that Dr. Satan has made the entire class stressed this semester that I'm tempted to half-ass the final and get just enough points on it to secure, like, a B or something. I'm so angry that she's ruined all of my motivation to the point where I'm venting on lc instead of doing practice problems before the test.

I know this is such a first-world problem but fuck this class has been so draining.

No. 695223

>>695193
Then make him eat you out instead, that's more ""fair""

No. 695224

>>695106
And yet he expects you to get his "gross" cum in your mouth. Do you not see what the problem is?

No. 695226

>>695224
Bullshit games:
IF I HAVE TO HAVE CUM IN MY MOUTH YOU HAVE TO TOO!!!!!

Normal reaction:
"Hey bf, I don't want your cum in my mouth."

No. 695227

>>695226
That's fair but then the anon will either get coerced or dumped. That's men for you.

No. 695230

>>695227
Then anon should dump him first if he is such trash

No. 695232

>>695210
>you have issues
Nice argument. Stay in denial about the way men perceive women. Denial is literally the way of coping for het women.

No. 695233

>>695207
That's… obviously not the same thing. Your thighs are what's choking him, not your pussy.

No. 695234

>>695198
Ayrt, sure that's how a lot of men see it, but it honestly sounds like that's how anon feels herself, not just because of the personal opinions of men. Maybe that's just how I read it though. I think there are better ways for op to go about however she feels or wants to do to her bf.

No. 695253

I am so tired of being shamed for saying I can't breathe with these stupid masks. I've been asthmatic my entire life, bitch! I dont care about your tiktok video where you wear 1000 masks and measure your oxygen levels, you attention-whoring cunt!

No. 695255

>>695232
why don't you stop caring what men think? i will suck my boyfriend's dick every time we have sex. he doesn't even ask me to, i just do it to hear his cute gasps and taste precum.

No. 695256

>>695255
> i just do it to hear his cute gasps and taste precum.
nta I almost vomited. I can't tell whether this is a scrote or not. Why would a woman do this to herself, why.

No. 695259

>>695120
You're not superior for not fucking men

No. 695260

>>695232
> Stay in denial about the way men perceive women.


Maybe you should stop generalizing

No. 695261

>>695255
You better shit in his mouth 19 times so he is down on your level

No. 695264

I hate whenever Billie Eilish does something and I have to hear about it in the celebricow thread, and then there are 50 posts from Lolcow Quantico trying to create her criminal profile

No. 695265

>>695256
>wanting to see your partner feeling good during sex is gross
NTA but this is a hot take.

No. 695267

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>>695255
>actually liking the taste
what the hell

No. 695268

>>695265
nta but
>partner

She obviously doesn't see him as a partner, but rather as "Men"

No. 695270

spent literally hundreds of pounds on my boyfriend's (of two yeaers) flights to and europe so he could fulfil an immigration requirement. i now find out he has no intention of seeing me and has blocked me. fucking fuming

No. 695272

>>695259
Nah, I think she is.

No. 695275

>>695267
Why is it so difficult to accept that some people find something desirable that you don't?

No. 695276

>>695270
Oh shit. You're positive there's not something else going on?

No. 695278

>>695275
That's Femcels for you

No. 695279

>>695270
Wow what the hell
There's gotta be some sort of legal action you can take against him

No. 695281

>>695259
most women's lives would improve if they stopped fucking them tho
>>695260
>#notallmen

No. 695282

>>695278
If femcel means not degrading yourself voluntarily for the pleasures of men then I'll gladly call myself one.

No. 695284

>>695281
Treating your partner with respect is not #notallmen. If you think all men deserve 0 respect then stay mad.

No. 695286

Lol, how many anons in this argument do you guys think are actually men?

No. 695288

>>695233
No one's gagging on a dick unless a dude is forcing it in her and just bite the cunt if he's going to use his entire body weight to get you to choke on a dick.

No. 695289

>>695286
everyone involved lmao they're not even trying to make it less obvious

No. 695290

>>695282
Some women literally don't find it degrading though? Why is it so hard to see that reality is not black and white and people could see the same thing differently? This is baffling

No. 695291

Why are there so many pearl-clutchers on lolcow lately?

>can't suck your bf's dick

>can't post maids on an imageboard that derived from /cgl/
>can't post men in dresses or anything fujo related
>some nerd posting bible verses in random threads
>homophobia everywhere

Did we pick up some tradthot crowd or something?

No. 695296

>>695291
it's most likely scrotes baiting, especially in the case of the bible thumping and homophobia

No. 695297

>>695286
All of them. Nobody but scrotes care this much about dick sucking

No. 695298

>>695286
>>695297
Samefag, but just want to add that if there’s women genuinely arguing about swallowing cum : please love yourself enough to not be so insecure over you boyfriend’s disgusting cum that you need to whiteknight it on a lolcow thread

No. 695302

>>695279
idk but he marched me to an ATM when i dropped him at the airport and demanded i withdraw £80 for him ($100) he claimed his card was brokwn or something.

we've been together for 2 years idk whats happening

dont think hes got me xmas presents either :/

No. 695303

>>695297
I think it's understandable that some women would care since men treat it like an obligation.

No. 695307

>>695303
Then have some respect and don't date men that do.

No. 695309

>Though between 40 and 60% of guys have HPV at any given time, less than 1% will have visible symptoms. What all this means is that oral sex puts you at risk of picking up a cancer-causing virus, not just the host of venereal diseases such as HIV
https://www.news24.com/amp/health24/sex/safe-sex/this-is-why-oral-sex-could-be-really-bad-for-your-health-20180305

Uh oh but sucking dick is cool

No. 695314

The way some people have been acting towards me in a fandom lately has started to affect my love for the series. Why do people prioritize canceling others over the tiniest things instead of idk, maybe being more forgiving?? I hate this.

No. 695316

>>695302
>demanded

Demanded? You might have dodged a (pricey) bullet there sis

No. 695317

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No. 695318

>>695314
Kek. Fanpol twitter is the worst thing. People care more about the rights of fictional characters than they do real life people. The peak era for fandoms was late 00s Tumblr and we're never getting it back.

No. 695319

>>695309
>www.news24.com

Is everyone posting in this thread a retarded turbo virgin?

No. 695322

>>695307
>Then have some respect and don't date men
fixed

No. 695324

>>695309
Well then don't have casual sex and get your boyfriend tested. If he doesn't want to get tested he is not worth it.

No. 695325

>>695319
Is everyone posting in this thread a retarded scrote?

No. 695326

>>695302
Where is he from? Is he coming back (I’m assuming you’re in the UK)?

I’d look into taking legal action against him if possible, or at least reporting him. He sounds psycho.

No. 695348

>>695326
he’s american and i’m british but he’s returning from europe

i could cancel his ticket but i don’t wanna burn our bridges

No. 695353

>>695348
Anon, HE BLOCKED YOU. Burn those bridges to the ground.

No. 695354

>>695348
Anon, please burn those bridges before he gets back. He doesn't deserve you.

No. 695357

>>695348
him blocking you is bizarre. is he schizo or something? he might be thinking you're cheating kek

No. 695363

i had sex with my boyfriend today (we hadn't done it with each other before) and we didn't use a condom and he was so close to fucking up his pull-out, i'm so livid and mad at myself that i got so caught up in the moment i didn't press on him to use protection. i'm such a fucking idiot if i end up pregnant

No. 695365

>>695259
Oh but I am, anon.

No. 695371

>>695363
I am sure you know but you can get pregnant even if he pulled out right before cumming, it's very unlikely but you can get pregnant from just precum. Who the fuck knows just how fertile you guys are.

No. 695376

>>695363
You're both fucking stupid and stupid people shouldn't be raw fucking.

No. 695380

>>695371
yeah i know. i really hope this isn't the case jesus christ
>>695376
>You're both fucking stupid
i know anon i know

No. 695412

>>695363
You can get the morning after pill from a pharmacy if you want to he sure to not get pregnant. Just tell the pharmacist the condom broke.

No. 695431

>>695412
Out of curiosity, what's the longest you can go for without taking it?

No. 695435

>>695270
This reminds me of those 'I met my foreign boyfriend online and he scammed me for money/used me as a drug mule to smuggle coke' type stories. Ditch his ass

No. 695443


No. 695445

>>695255
This post isnt weird, the women on this site just hate sex.

No. 695455

>>695445
Some of us are lesbians and find men disgusting, anon.

No. 695467

>>695455
And yet you could still accept that not everyone is a lesbian

No. 695488

>>695112
>>695116
Yeah seriously, my friend allowed her boyfriend to bareback her every time simply because the boyfriend was whining about how it "doesn't feel as good" with a condom on despite her wanting to stay childless. Way too many women are memed into doing shit that can be straight out harmful to them just because they're afraid of some loser scrote leaving them. Girls if he's dick enough to be demanding you to give blowjobs without returning the favor or pressuring you into anal he's probably already cheating on you.

No. 695493

>>695488
>demanding you to give blowjobs without returning the favor or pressuring you into anal he's probably already cheating on you

Projecting much?

No. 695497

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>>695365
i love u anon

No. 695501

>>695431
It's more effective the sooner you take it. I'd say you'd be safe within 72 hours, but try and get it at least within 2 days.

No. 695502

>>695445
Countless het/bi women like sex but still find dicks disgusting and suck them only because they know their scrotes would've left them if they refused to suck them

No. 695580

>>694972
>>694873
>>695084
>>695099
Why do anons here have such low standards for men? Giving and receiving equally during sex and empathy should be the bare minimum wtf

No. 695622

>>695580
It's not just anons here, it's het women in general

No. 695629

does anyone else go through phases where they’re repulsed by sex? the whole act is animalistic and disgusting. there are so many diseases you can contract from sex. also genitals are weird looking and dealing with bodily secretions is gross

No. 695631

>>695580
I have low standards for the male I own because he's a 5 star himbo. Any anons dating ugly or fat dudes have no business not getting head on demand.

No. 695642

>>695629
I go through something like this and it becomes especially strong after my ovulation ends

No. 695646

>>695642
Seconded, I'm only horny right before my period, the rest of the month I feel nothing.

No. 695651

The comfy forum I was enjoying during quarantine has been taken over by an obnoxious they/them who's keeps bringing up trans shit out of nowhere and calling people terfs over nothing, and her friends who keep harassing everyone. Fuck it I'll just stick to imageboards

No. 695653

>>695631
>5 star himbo
nta but you're living the dream anon. tfw no bf who's beautiful and dumber than a bag of wet sand

No. 695655

>>695629
i don't feel that way about irl sex but i definitely do about porn

No. 695658

>>695629
yes, thanks to ptsd

No. 695659

Sometimes I think the reason why my mother rooted through my room and read any personal things like diaries was to make me averse to documenting my life to reveal how fucked up she treated me. Lucky her, it worked.

No. 695661

>>695651
those people are legitimately inescapable in any normie tier community

No. 695663

>>695653
Hot men who are dumb are the best. No faux-intellectualism. No sudden pointless debates. Just some nice muscles and good cock.

No. 695665

>>695655
watching other people have sex is so unsexy

No. 695673

>>695665
Sort of. I really know I shouldn't watch porn but some male pornstars actually do foreplay and at least try to look like they're giving the woman a good time. It turns me on but after I cum it just makes me frustrated that I couldn't have had hot sex instead of just watching it.

No. 695679

>>695665
in my libfem sex positive phase i got invited to watch a couple fuck once and it was unbelievably boring, even if there was a lot of activity going on. i ended up being on my phone playing idolmaster the whole time

No. 695680

By all accounts I should have been a pickme due to being unattractive and present on the internet since a very young age, but I someone dodged that by feeling disgusted at some point or another of the men I talked to online. So I may be lonely and socially stunted, but hey, I'm not traumatized I guess (except from the boys in middle school saying "i love you anon!" and laughing, from which I'm not sure my self esteem will ever recover, but there's much worse on earth so I got off easy). But I'm still so unable to live and interact normally with people but especially men (there weren't many around in high school though I was friend with all of them). Girls are fine, but I'm not really close with any of my friends. I feel so behind on life.

No. 695685

>screenshooted a bunch of stuff my groomer said to me as he was grooming me
>end up deleting it off my iPad because I was scared of my parents finding out
>years later
> realize how dumb I was. I don't think I can get any of those screenshots back

No. 695688

Every time I think about myself and how I act and how my brain works. I become more convinced I'm autistic. I've always had a half-joke thought of this in my head. Too scared of my brain to see a therapist though. shrug

No. 695699

>>695659
Your mother could be my mother but I started a diary finally!!

No. 695727

>>695629
>phases

No. 695728

Everyone is annoying and I hate them. I can't believe how fucking stupid everyone is. I don't know what to do with this anger of dealing with them daily but channel it into doing better than them at life. Read more books, more articles, be smarter than their ignorant asses. Work out, eat healthy, no be overweight and self loathing like them. Stop abusing substances, no beer gut for me. Work on what I love because they all talk about wishing to be young again after wasting their lives. And do whatever I can to destroy mans religions with idiot dudes saying women ask for it and judging women when they themselves have a tumor of a beer gut, bald, endless anger issues, and a boo hoo poor me attitude. Fuck them.

No. 696659

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My manager is taking three days off during christmas and five around new years eve, meanwhile I'm only getting the 25 and first of january off. I'm so fucking disapointed, this bitch already spends multiple hours everyday on her phone while she locks herself in the bathroom, and she'll be able to see her friends and family for the holidays while I'll be stuck alone in my appartment since my shift ends just 30 mins before the curfew on both days.

No. 696669

I fucking hate my ESL roommate who treats me like a retard even though she can barely speak English. At first, I thought going after her language skills was a low blow but now, after she's been a total cunt even when I tried to extend the olive branch, fuck her. Still can't say how I REALLY feel to her face because it's gonna make me look like an asshole no matter what.

No. 696672

>>695655
Yeah, the concept of sex doesn't really bother me but I have no idea how people get off to porn. It looks so over the top and unsexy. I don't think porn is automatically bad on it's own but the porn industry is so toxic and damaging.

No. 696784

>>696669
How many languages do you speak, bitch?

No. 696995

>>696784
Lol someone’s testy
It doesn’t matter. And I wouldn’t even give a shit if she hardly spoke English if she wasn’t a condescending cunt towards me and when I try to explain myself, she literally doesn’t know what I’m talking about.

No. 697006

I've been home for 2 weeks because I tested positive for covid, and yesterday I had a bad mental health day. My husband said something along the lines of "I think you'll feel better when you go back to work" and I feel so salty remembering it. I know he meant in the sense that it will be good to get out of the house again and not isolated, but part of me just wants to be shitty and fire back "Oh yeah, I'm just counting down the days when I can go back to my wageslave job"

Maybe it annoys me because my breakdown yesterday was over the fact that he didn't help with cleaning while I was sick. But I further spiral into self hate because our home has been looking like a wreck and we both contributed to this, and I just feel lazy even though I've made progress.

No. 697009

I just saw this video of a 19 year old girl crying because people body-shamed her online over having saggy breasts.
Even in the video of her crying, she insisted on wearing a low-cut top, no bra, with her tits just hanging out. I really don't understand why she wants/needs to show them off. I have saggy tits too, and I'm at a young age (I lost a lot of weight, loose skin), so I get the shame and depression. But I just wear a bra, plan for possible plastic surgery and get on with my life. No one but the person I'm fucking even needs to know, ffs.
I'm so tired of these women who act like they'll die if they don't get to do hoe shit. You don't have a porn star body, get over it and stop trying to live like one. If you really want to feel sexy, just bring attention to your other assets. It's not hard.

No. 697012

>>697009
I mean if she wants to show her body, whatever, but she needs to accept it for what it is and that saggy breasts are extremely normal. It's sad that the standard is so pornified and curated that women are fucking crying over it, but I can sympathize. She's young, and she needs to get offline and love herself before anything else. Was she using it as a moment to be body positive, or just upset?

No. 697023

I am probably gonna blog post but fuck I have alot to vent.
My sister is a bitch.
My niece is insufferable.
My patience has run out.
and the worst a child is involved.
I fucking hate that it all falls back to me having to be mother when in fact I'm not ready at all.
It seems that they purposely keep flinging shit around for me to take notice of them.
I am tired . I hate meth addicts, cocaine addicts, and weed smoking people. I tried to care. I tried to not care. I took up legal action It all crumbled because they are cowardly liars and I tend to visually always seem creepy so anything i say is a lie or suspect. I got ruled out of being that childs guardian because her mother still wants her. I want nothing to do with helping my niece anymore she is beyond misguided I have to treat her like a toddler she is 18 now. And my sister I just cant believe her she stays with an abusive man there have been times where she defended that scum over her daughter in an accusation of rape and called her daughters sluts……..even then both of neices want to back to their mother. I just cant. One got married she is 16 she seems to be doing fine but wants to go visit her mom and flaunt her husband……Which is a very bad idea and its like creating a whole other circus show. I am tired . there was a reason i wanted to run from this family because i knew that if i stayed here I would inevitably feel responsible for them . and even whe i dont give a shit my sister comes knocking at my door all methed up crossing a truck full of drugs saying that she told those shady people to come to my address at 2 am and pick up the truck i am livid yet numb. I could give two fucks about the grown woman anymore …but i just cant let that child suffer. and I feel angry that in the end i have to be the selfless one since no one is bothered. I have my own problems too. I was stressed this week but all this is a fucking shit show. ……..It all was and the worse thing is none of it is based on my actions just theirs.

No. 697025

I wish I looked nice with long hair. My hair is the only decent thing I have going on lookswise but I look so dumpy with anything more than shoulder length.

No. 697027

>>696995
I feel you, anon. At work I deal with a lot of customers on the phone who don't speak English or our country's native language well, and the amount of times they start screaming at me for not understanding them is enough to drive me insane. If you're a nice person I'm perfectly fine trying to help you, but being condescending and rude because you didn't bother to learn the main language of the country you live makes you look like a complete dumbass. Can't imagine having a roommate like that.

No. 697036

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Im so retarded. I started retinol too quickly without letting my skin adjust AND kept using my salicylic face wash and got a substantial retinol burn. I'm usually one to do lots of research and take things slowly but for some reason I made a stupid assumption about the retinol cream I used. Now I have red crepe skin and I look permanently hungover for the last week. It legitimately aged me like two years and I can only pray and use normal moisturizer and hope it goes away. I feel so fucking stupid even though I definitely deserve this but god I just want to scream.

No. 697055

>>697036
I feel you, retinoids are harsh. I stupidly used tret daily on body acne without working up to it and got major peeling like I had a bad sunburn. My face is fine with it but my body is not as tough.

The worst part? The body acne was on my butt. My butt is peeling.

No. 697098

I’ve had sleep issues for months now and finally convinced my stepmom to let me sleep on the top bunk in the room I share with my 11 year old sister but now my stepmom says we have to switch off every month because my sister wants to sleep there… I’ve got so much anxiety around sleep and the bottom bunk and I’m so sure my sleep issues are gonna get worse again

No. 697113

I've been living in this bubble with a friend and now that I've popped it by getting a job and interacting with others, yo he's so shitty in these small ways.

Like every single time I try make plans, it's like he wants me to strongarm him into them and have it my way and no other way. I'll directly ask "if that's good for you, if the time/place suits you" etc etc but he's just like "where do I need to meet you, and when". And I will ASK for his input, and if I've led it do a stop in the conversation where he'd HAVE to give his opinion, he just won't.

Oh and he's fine once we meet up, but when I suggest any activity he's like "OK, I'll do it". Or "fine, ok". NO. How about "yeah sounds cool, looking forward to it", or even "hmm, another time/place would suit better". I used to be OK with it because I figured he was shy and I'm fine with calling the shots, but once I found out he'll say OK even when he doesn't want to do something and THEN hold it against me as if he did me a favor that's not OK.

And when I ask him dude, do you actually WANT to? You dont sound like you're into it at all. He'll give some non answer like "I said I'll do it so I will", as if I'm asking him a favor! As if it's some…INCONVENIENCE to have a friend invite you out. Only once I'm like "well we can just not do it then because I don't want to be in your company when you don't actually want to do it. It's miserable.". Only THEN he'll be like uh yeah I want to. This happens a lot. And every. Single. Fucking. Time. I'll use the phrase "if you don't want to do it, then I'll do the thing myself instead of having your reluctant, moody ass as company". And he backtracks. Is he thick? Why won't he learn? Is he trying to do a number on my self esteem?

Either way post christmas I'll just start taking his reluctant answers as a straight up no and not prompting or cajoling him any more to ask how he really feels about it. If that means we stop hanging out that's his loss. We're each others best friend and he has no others. I guess we'll see how it'll be when there are actual consequences each time with no room for interpretation.

No. 697127

>>697113
This is a common thing for gen z males. They have a hard time saying yes ir no. They can only give vague answers.

No. 697150

Is it selfish of me to blame my mom for ruining any chance I have at a quiet chill day to day life? She gets angry at everything and stomps around the house, blames me first every time she or someone else loses something, is just generally really short tempered and honestly kind of a bitch sometimes. I love her but she's always been like this and it just wears on me having to be around someone so selfish and negative

No. 697152

I'm ugly and not white but I still act like a princess who deserves everything and it pisses men off.

This the exact response I got from a scrote yesterday while he was trying to flirt and I said "ew"

"Other girls enjoy compliments and you are no hotter or no classier than them. so are you better than all those girls in your mind?"

No. 697157

>>697152
how does saying ew to someone flirting with you mean you think you're better than other women? How does being white mean your better than anyone? Don't let these guys brainwash you into thinking their flirting is a blessing.

No. 697158

>>697157
Oh nevermind I'm retarded. I thought you said "it pisses me off"

No. 697159

>>697150
No, unless you’re not doing your bit around the house? If you are then she needs to direct her anger at whoever isn’t, or alternatively sort her own shit out.

No. 697160

>>697152
>B-b-but I lowered my standards why arent you worshipping me?????
You are my princess anon

No. 697166

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>>697152
>no classier than them
As if he was the fucking prince of a long lost kingdom or some shit, flirting like a retard with someone who is clearly not interested on his sad ass.
Don’t worry, anon, having standards is a good thing and you should be proud of being able to show your disgust.

No. 697182

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I think I'm a lesbian, or at least like girls, but no matter how much I think about it I feel like I'm being an attention seeking faker even though I've never told anyone/hinted anything about it and I actually did display a lot of signs of it from a young age and I am attracted to women lol

All the stuff out there about it is all from women who realised they were lesbian from the day they were born and never had any doubt. and now that every single zoomer online is a kweer they/them, I can't figure out if my mind has just been warped by the internet or if my disgust/apathy/etc towards men and attraction to women is just common sense, I'm gay, or both

No. 697188

One of my favorite female youtubers just posted a video with a man as her videographer. He was filming the whole time and injecting himself unnecessarily the entire time. It’s her friend or something but he’s annoying as fuck. Men need to shut the fuck up

No. 697194

>>697188
when you said he was injecting himself unnecessarily the entire time my autistic ass thought you meant he was doing heroine or something

No. 697200

>>697182
Think of it this way: what's the worst that could happen if you're wrong? It's not like with trannies where you're making a lasting difference to your body. So long as you say upfront with any woman you fool about with / get into a relationship with that you're still experimenting, it's fine. 70% will have no problem with that. I hope you find yourself soon anon

No. 697220

>>697182
It's ok if you didn't realize it at a young age but can tell in retrospect that a lot of signs were there. Like not all kids care about sexuality and lovey-dovey stuff at all, no matter if they are straight or gay, so please don't feel like a faker if your realization is different from other people. If you are worried that you're actually bisexual but men disgust you, I second >>697200 who cares. I knew some girls that identify as bisexuals only because they are attracted to 2d guys kek, but any real scrote made them repulsed. Just, it's okay to doubt, but you're gonna figure it out eventually anon, I believe in you!

No. 697293

>>697055
praying for your butt to heal anon. let us learn our lesson only once…

No. 697332

There was a nasty exhibitionist man who was arrested near my workplace tonight. I work in a small box almost all female staff store. He was clearly fucked up from the moment he came in. I thought he was just a typical schizoid weirdo drugged up, since we live near a ghetto and occasionally get people like that, who'd go away with eventuality. He came up, asked if we had a public restroom, I told him we don't, and wandered up to me after my coworker had talked to him and she could tell something was off too. He said "someone is trying to kill me, I need protection" to which I said "sir we don't have anything to offer you here" trying to kick him out to the store behind us. I told him the store behind us was a lot larger and he said he left there, which alarmed me. With warning bells going off in my head I told him "you can stay here for a few minutes if you decide to buy something" because I assumed he was just a mentally ill asshole and not a sexually deviant prick, hoping that if he bought something he would then leave. I don't like to assume every person who comes in who seems mentally off is a criminal, because I'm a bpdfag and bipolarfag myself and I understand not every eccentric seeming person is a bad person. his vibes weren't exactly kind, it was clear he was doped up on some kind of drug, I assumed he was an idiotic dopehead. He didn't look homeless so I assumed he wasn't homeless either, just drugged. I didn't care at first if he was a druggie as long as he'd leave. The problem is, he clearly didn't want to leave, we were about to close, and he was the last person in the store.

So I sent him over to my other coworker who showed him where the candy was. A few minutes later my coworker started screaming and pushed the man towards the front, and me and my coworker hadn't seen what he was doing. She starts screaming at him and then screams at me to call the police. She caught him masturbating behind a display near the candy, and I call the cops as she's trying to push him out, and my other coworker is trying to help. The guy isn't being too aggressive but he keeps yelling "someone is trying to kill me" while I'm telling the 911 operator wtf is going on. They push him out near the door and then he pretends to reach out to "thank" my coworker and gropes her breasts. My coworker was just trying to alleviate the situation by offering to "shake his hand" and he took advantage of it to grope her, which was the last ditch effort. we scream at him to get out when he runs to the fast food place across the street. The cops caught him there and then an officer came and said we all had to write witness statements.

Turns out he had prior sex offenses, they can't disclose what they are, and that scares the shit out of me. They said they're taking him to county jail because of his repeat offenses and that he was extremely mentally ill and off his meds. If he weren't so doped up the situation probably would've been worse. Three women probably could've stopped him but he was a pretty tall albeit skinny dude and we've never had an incident like this happen. I was trying not to shake and cry but I ended up crying in front of the cop briefly, and the entire time I held the phone to describe to the 911 operator the situation, I was trembling. Men are so fucking awful. I've been in retail five years, worked the graveyard shift at a grocery store. I've seen a lot of shit, but I've never seen shit like this in five fucking years of retail. I'm so disgusted and I didn't even see his dick myself. I would've protected my coworkers with my own life to stop a man from assaulting them and taken out my damn boxcutter and sliced him to hell and back if given the opp. Ugh

No. 697341

>>686925
I had a final third-round interview for a dream company of mine.

So basically, I was through 4/5 panels and the recruiter told me 'I was coming across like I thought I was too good for the job.' And pressed that they weren't concerned about aptitude (sales role) and that for the final panel the only thing that would matter was demonstrating that I was excited to go work at (x company)

Some background, I'm blonde/look young and often feel like I need to act more confident/assertive (especially when interviewing with men) for people to take me seriously

She basically presses for 10 minutes that all that matters is expressing excitement for the company culture because there is serious concern about me 'not being excited'

I go into the final interview round and perform exactly the way the recruiter told me to, emphasizing how much I like the company culture and trying not to act 'intimidating' to the guy who was interviewing me

It was obvious at the end of the interview by the way he reacted that he didn't take me seriously at all, thought I was a dumb blonde, etc.

Recruiter calls me to tell me he voted no on hiring me, no offer.

I am very upset.

No. 697363

I fucking hate the terraforming feature on Animal Crossing New Horizons. IMO it took the whole point of the game away. It used to be, to me at least, a leisurely chill game. But now it’s a fucking contest on who has the best island, who has the best themes. It’s fucking awful and I hate it and made me lose interest in a game I used to enjoy. I wish it could go back to the game cube days where you’d just do jack shit all day and the only thing you could customize was your house and clothes.

No. 697367

I am at my breaking point. I don't know what else to do to make you like me? I just wanted to get along!

No. 697373

>>697036
Damn. Same. I got retinoid burn because I used a high concentration right away for two or three days in a row. I thought that my face will be fine! I never have breakouts, so that means I'm immune and my face skin is invincible! /s I'm an idiot. Its been a week since I used it last and it's finally stopped hurting so now I'm scared to use it again. Might miz it with my moisturizer next time or something.

No. 697379

>>697332
It's good there were three of you there that's so fucked up. I feel so bad for your coworker(s) that found him jerking off and who got groped, it's horrible to have your workplace turn into such an unsafe place

No. 697385

I’m so tired of wondering what we are. Dating four years but this past year it’s like you had zero interest in me and I’m the only one keeping this relationship going. Any time I ask you you say “I’m fine with things are now” so you’re fine with just drifting away??? We hardly talk anymore! Is that your “cute” way of saying we should just be friends??? Stop stringing me along…

No. 697542

>>697363
Gen z absolutely ruined animal crossing. I have no idea how you can even turn a very casual and cozy game into a sperg fest and contest, but here we are. The terraforming, the raymond fiasco. It's all such a mess. I know New Leaf wasnt perfect, but i would have never ever imagine how bad it got because of NH. It was fun to just decorate your house and be creative. Now people are insane and spend 500+ hours fixing up their towns with the same waterfalls and big statues.

No. 697543

>>697332
Men like this need to be executed. I honestly feel like there's no rehabilitation for men like this. Sex perverts and sex pests wont change until they rape someone and even then, they'll have no remorse. I hate our 'justice' system. I'm glad you guys are okay.. but fuck that's terrifying.

No. 697544

>>697341
Anon never take advice from female HR/recruiters/even female employees. Sad truth is sabotaging between women is rampant in the professional world.

No. 697545

>>697332
This is why I believe men shouldn't have basic rights tbh. If they aren't executed at the first sign of sexual assult then the "good men" aren't actually good.

No. 697601

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Sometimes I fucking hate my IRL "friends" (acquaintances from hobby circles/political groups). I'm absolutely green with envy, their lives are so great and they just dont realize it.

I'm an immigrant living in a very rich country with crazy wealth inequality, most of my friends have really wealthy families and great lives, they can afford to live in one of the most expensive cities in Europe and dont seem to be able to get their fat heads around the fact that other people dont have a life as good as them.
I cannot move to their city because I don't have parents who can pay fucking half million euro mortgages on apartments for me but they keep telling me I should move there like it's somehow an option.

Half of them are right-wing leaning and super scared of crime, they think the country we live in is somehow riddled with extremism, meanwhile, I grew up around fucking bombs and gang rape. If shit did hit the fan here it wouldn't even affect them, they have the money to keep themselves safe. They are so brainwashed by Blogspot news articles that they thought my neighborhood was sort of an insane area where cops can't go, and it's a straight-up lie. I live next to a police station!

They're constantly telling me I'm not like the other "bad" immigrants and I'm a good one, it's so insulting.

And the ones who are not right-wing are all retarded lefties who glorify Mao and all seem to have some fake disability. They're constantly begging for money and shit online while living in central city apartments paid for by parents.
Every problem in their lives feels made up. Most of the lefty half of them ditched me when they learned one of my few actual friends is a "terf". (she talks online a lot about being a victim of female genital mutilation and they canceled her for her "transphobic language" because she said it happens to women from our country a lot).

I am sick of people like this telling me they know how I feel when it comes to economic stress. We manage to live on like 80 euro a month after rent and are thousands in debt because I am the sole provider for my disabled dad + child brother, the government won't support us since we're still in the process of getting our citizenship. I work to support the family and all our medical costs and have no free time.
Half of these fuckers are making 10x that because their parents pay for all their shit. They constantly ask me "oh why not just study" as if I could magically afford that while working full time and looking after my family.


I always thought I would be happy when I moved to this country, and in some senses I am, but I also feel so alone here.

I know this is a nasty, all over the place rant and I likely just look like a bitter cow right now, it's absolutely not the kind of jealousy that I would ever let out IRL/act out on.
I'm thankful for what I do have, just sick of people who have it "easy.

No. 697606

>>697601
I could never talk to people like that, not even as acquaintances. They seem awful, just like I expect from that type of person.

No. 697691

>>697379
I've worked five years in retail and never seen this happen before. I guess I should consider myself fortunate that nothing else happened. Local police should've sent a female cop to interview us but they sent a male one, which I was irked by. Although he was clearly uncomfortable and had to ask us some gross questions about whether my coworkers and I had actually seen the guys dick and whether it was erect or not… I wanted to die.

>>697545
>>697543
At this rate I'm starting to believe we need to bring back the guillotine. Seeing people protest the death penalty irritates me. Am I really wrong for thinking murderers, rapists, and sex offenders who are proven and tried in a court of law should be sentenced to death for their bullshit? Them festering in prison isn't going to make them remorseful, especially if they're repeat offenders

No. 697786

>>697601
Anon, the fact that you're dealing with them as kindly as you are says a lot about your character. It's hard not to resent the fuck out of people when you're struggling with a lot and they can't understand what you're going through, and the things they say are so spoiled and thoughtless.

No. 697801

>>686925
>>697544
any advice anon?

I do have another offer but it would require relocation, massively high enterprise-level quota (i have no experience) and definitely a lower-level company.

idk if saying no in the current job market is a good move though.

I'm moving into another round with a better company as well but they have an infamously intense sales culture, and after that last experience i don't want to get my hopes up for anything

my boyfriend gave me the same advice about female recruiters but i ignored him because 'she seemed so nice' LOL I'm an idiot

No. 699510

I have it all and I still want to end it all. I wish lobotomies were still legal.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RE5_yUu-PuM

No. 699513

>>699510
you have what and why did you post this shit?



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