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I've had enough. vent here anon
previous thread: >>>/ot/654901
My parents are very good, I love them and they love me. But when they talk to me, I get so annoyed. I wish we could have more meaningful conversations.
My mom is obsessed with Nikola Tesla and always just talks about some radical new science ideas, today she told me about tesla's waves and that they are scalar waves (?? so are there vector waves too?) and how they are non-hertz waves (???) and tesla's frequency, how it is the most perfect frequency, and how we are connected through the aether and she can FEEL the aether, and it's like she is in some weird religious cult except it's not about religion but pseudoscience, and it all makes me angry because I am studying to be a physicist, and she tells me I need to open my mind because otherwise I will never discover anything… I try to explain things to her, but I can't even get her to understand the simple things, so I can't argue with her.
At least, I can talk to her about other things, but with my dad, I can't communicate. It's like talking to a wall. When he speaks, he either: 1) repeats the same unfunny jokes we've heard 500 times from him 2) complains about how everyone is treating him unfairly 3) asks inane questions when I am concentrating on something else 4) argues with my mother 5) pesters me to do something that has absolutely no impact on him, like put on a jacket or add some pepper to my food or sit in a "better" spot or whatever, because his way is the "better" way to do it.
It's like talking to an Animal Crossing character, always the same scripted speech, never an original thought, just 2 words randomly picked and put in a randomly picked template. And I know that he isn't stupid and knows many things. Sometimes, rarely I can talk to him a bit, and that's only when I am the one telling him about something, or when we are working on something together.
Worst of all, he has started to forget things really bad, and I mean like asking me two hours after lunch whether he ate lunch that day. I wish he would stop drinking
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I miss having a friend and hanging out around women IRL ever since I moved out. I miss going to cute cafes, or sitting at home, voicechatting with them and discussing things. I miss making cute gifts for friends.
I tried befriending my bf's sister who turned out to be a weirdly insecure womanhater who desperately tries to get any kind of men's attention on internet while spregging that she can't find someone only because she's fat and that 'clock' exists, along with that talking a lot of shit about fit or skinny women. She didn't like me so much to a point where she tried making up dramas, started talking shit about me to his and her mutual friends on purpose (knowing that I really want to find friends) and even tried turning dad's family side against me for whatever reason. She is always pissed when I am happy.
The good thing is that I seemingly found new female friends on internet, one is a nice 30 years old woman who enjoys cooking, roleplaying and drawing. She is also a cute tech nerd! The other one, her friend, is 25. Very energetic, loud and hardworking professional artist. I really enjoy spending time around them, even though I do not talk to them too much because of timezones, but I am thankful I gotten to know them.
Gives me hope and makes me want to message to my closest e-fem friend who is also a very charming woman. We thought of meeting eachother this year but COVID fucked things up.
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I've put on weight this year because covid has seen all gyms shut since june. They're reopening soon and I can't bear the thought of going anymore because I feel like I look horrific. I don't want to go out on walks or anything, I just try to do exercise inside at home when nobody is around but I know it's not enough. I bought myself some new clothes because nothing fits me but I made sure they were all cheap, terrible clothes so that I am motivated to lose weight to fit into my normal wardrobe again. My partner and friends are so excited to go out and go to bars and dinner together again but I can't bear the thought of it because of how I look. I try to eat well but get lazy on the weekends and my partner wants to order junk food all the time even though I offer to cook a variety of healthy meals 5x a week. I look at old photos of myself and cry because of all the wonderful clothes that looked good on me last year. It's really wearing me down and I pray so hard that I can lose this weight again fast. I feel so fucking stupid.
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my roommates cat is in heat and it's been the most annoying week of my life. I love the stupid lil fucker but she keeps crying and I just want to shake her to make her stop. its also extra annoying when I'm the only one that gives the cat any attention so she stops crying but I'm the only one in the house in college and can't keep taking time out of my day to pay attention to a cat that isn't even mine. I hope this nightmare ends soon
This girl I went to college with is like this and her only form of "beauty" is frying her hair off with box dye. She brags about not buying new clothes or wearing makeup because she's not a "basic bitch whose life revolves around fashion and makeup". Yeah, we can tell you don't even try because you look like a crackhead 24/7. >>662913
CICO might help you if you don't want to work out. It'll only make you skinnyfat vs. if you worked out alongside eating better, but it's worth a shot. A girl I know through cosplay has lost 50 lbs from a year of CICO and went from overweight to skinny for her height.
Eat sugar maybe or generally eat sth. For me drinking some water or coffee helps for me
Hope you feel better anon!
I'm disappointed too, I love Positions the song but nothing else sticks out as something I'd listen to again. The lyrics are overly crude in some songs but I wouldn't care if they were actually bops. She usually includes at least a few catchy, upbeat songs in her albums along with the bland, boring rnb but not this time.
I'd kill for another Into You tier song tbh.
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My art is genuinely making me depressed, I feel like I haven't improved in drawing over the 5 years or so, I hate everything I draw and I feel like a talentless fuck who can't grasp anatomy or line art basics, it feels like i've capped everything I could learn and since I have no talent for art whatsoever I can't get better and become an actually decent artist.
>>663194>I love him but I feel like I'm no match for him
Moids are never good enough for women>I want to lose weight but I keep eating out of self hate
Eat popcorn or something else that snacky but low calorie, or take a walk, drink water, that kind of stuff>I'm crying lol
Hugs anon, you'll be fine.
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I don't really know anyone who does art more than twitter hobbyist level but maybe I should look for some professional advice, thanks.>>663193
I mean that's what is making me depressed/stressed with doing art, I try to make something and I just get angry at myself for it looking bad.>>663210
Yeah but I also don't see any difference between my art of a few years ago and now, it felt good back then because I was a teenager but it feels now that my art SHOULD be better because of my age and how long I have been drawing.
Pic related is a doodle of mine.
>>663218>I don't really know anyone who does art more than twitter hobbyist level but maybe I should look for some professional advice, thanks.
If you have money you can pay for portfolio review, but there are a lot of pros willing to help just like that; it wouldn't hurt to try to reach out to someone you look up to and just ask if they could offer you a little advice, on twitter, or by mail if they have their mail public.
If you are on facebook i really recommend a group called Level up (https://www.facebook.com/groups/levelup.livestream
), people often offer very good advice there too, especially if you come with a specific question, not just vague "critique please".when it comes to the basics I could guide you a bit if you want, hit me up on discord: wendthy#7642
not this anon but to further lament ig bimbos; in my area the amount of women who are getting botox/filler/etc is increasing and they're all going for that same faux LA model look.
i guess i didnt really mind at first but seeing hordes of women with really shitty extensions/nails/filler just sort of makes me sad. and its being promoted as some sort of beauty standard but a lot of these girls looked a lot prettier with their natural hair colors and original lips (cause like 90% of people cant afford kylie jenner tier plastic morphing)
and seeing my friends start to go down this route kinda sucks because I know at some point they're going to start pushing it on me. i mean thats how they got started too, friends pushing it on them or they saw it a lot more in their community, etc. and i dont want to be the bitch thats like "haha SLUT with your FAKE LIPS and your BOUGHT BEAUTY" but i dont really want to become part of this weird new money california look or deal with the pressures of not being that
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>>663279>cause like 90% of people cant afford kylie jenner tier plastic morphing
Not the point of your post, but honestly, even Kylie looks like absolute dogshit with her plastic surgery. Not even "not natural uwu," she looks old and frozen. Her new features only look good when they're accentuated properly by makeup and softened by facetune.
Ntayrt but one of my friends already pushes botox onto me and always sends me groupon shit. She doesn't look "overdone" but she's the type that wants to be an IG famous cosplayer/lolita 5ever even though she's in her mid 30s, and is much too insecure about keeping up her looks.
I'm in my 20s, and while I don't take it personally her tipping me off to botox kinda tells me she thinks I could use some work too lmao. I just don't care, I'm my own special kind of dump and I'd rather spend my money on other things.
It seems debatable. Responsible plastic surgeons/injectors seem to think you should only get it when you actually have wrinkles, not as a preventative measure: https://www.livescience.com/14900-experts-frown-botox-young-adults.html
Personally I'll be skipping it and relying more on microneedling, retin-a, sunscreen and light acid peels rather than injecting drugs in my face. I'm in my 30s and still don't have wrinkles so knock on wood.
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I really can't stand the meme that women have unrealistically high standards because of Disney movies and expect a "Prince Charming". Never mind that the bar for men is as low as ever, who the FUCK has ever put the bland, irrelevant NPC princes in Disney movies on a pedestal and let it dictate their taste in men? Is there a woman in existence who simps for the prince from Snow White, Cinderella or Sleeping Beauty, or even remembers a thing about them? They have zero personality and are as forgettable as it comes. And love interests in later movies are not exactly charming or not even princes, and all of them are flawed rather than perfect and unreachable.
The selling point of Disney has always been the princesses themselves, that's why they're the face of the brand and on all the merch. I can't even find an official illustration of all the princes together. Women don't grow up wanting to marry princes, they grow up wanting to BE a princess. The (early) princesses are valued for their beauty, youth and kindness, and naturally the evil villains are often ugly/old women who are jealous of that beauty and youth. The message women receive from Disney is unrealistic standards for us, not men.
Anyway this is a dumb rant I came up with while half asleep and I'll finish by saying the only one I'd thirst after is Shang.
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My dad has been put on one of those ventilation things for covid and he's already very ill. He was supposed to be at home this week and I think I wrote about it in the last thread idk. I know life isn't fair but I feel like losing him at 25 is too soon and not fair at all, I still wanted to hang out with him and we were supposed to play Cyberpunk together and now that might never happen. I fucking hate this year.
My brain is still in 100% denial and I'm going to bed before it cathes up and I start bawling.
I generally agree with you anon, in that I don't think the Disney princes cause girls to have high standards. Imo they still diminish the princess' roles though, because even as bland and unmemorable as the princes are, their mere existence is often the impetus for the princesses to do things/center their lives around. The more egregious examples:
Ariel - Wants legs and to live on land so she can be with prince
Belle - Stockholm syndrome, saving some asshole from a curse via "love"
Pocahontas - Falls for a guy whose people are destroying her tribe/lands
Characters like Sleeping Beauty and Snow White don't really do anything except live in idyllic forests then pass out until the prince rescues them (so the men perform all the heroic actions). Mulan is by far the most proactive and the story actually centers around her rather than her circumstances, but then, she's not a princess.
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For the anon who wrote this in the last vent thread>I can't stop thinking about suicide.
Anon, I read everything you said. I hope everything will get better. Sending tight hugs.>I really really really really want to understand how people wake up every single day, go about their every day life and still manage to muster up joy and positivity and warmth and a drive to do things and enjoy life.
I think the answer is connections. Close family, close friends. Having people who love you in your life to bring you happiness.
I'm pretty much friendless for the time being, but my family loves me very much, because of them I feel secure, I don't really mind the world being so bad. We have each other. Because of you saying this>I always grow completely dependent on my therapists
It seems to me that you need a friend that won't make you insecure in your relationship with them.>I think normal people have an ability to be able to soothe themselves in negative situations when they are alone
Most people really don't. Unless they are hardcore schizoid. Even thick-skinned people have emotional safe harbors, we usually just don't know about them.
I really hope that you can find people who will make you feel secure, and that you can recognize those who are already there with you. Be safe.
I wasn't sexually assaulted, but was put in a very unfortunate position when I was a young child. My little sister and I were staying over at a grandparents house and shared a big double bed. I woke up in the night and my uncle was in the bed, except he was naked. I remember feeling repulsed and felt sick, and dragged my sister out of the bed and we sat on the floor in the corner of the room too scared to sleep. I don't think anything sexual happened, but for years I convinced myself it was a nightmare. It didn't feel real. I actually convinced myself it was a dream, until I finally plucked up the courage to ask my sister about it because it had been playing on my mind again. She told me that yes it did happen, it wasn't a dream, but he was for some reason in our bed, fast asleep and naked. I burst into tears when she told me. I will never know why, but I am beyond upset and angry still that was allowed to happen to 2 small girls. I must only have been 6, my sister 4. I want to bring it up with my mum but I don't want her to fall out with her brother. It's tricky. Since then, I have experienced being raped, sexually abused and harassed by men, so my attitude towards them is fucked up. My uncle probably forgot about it by now but I remember it so vividly. Maybe one day I will tell her.
So anon, do what you feel is best for you. Talk to someone if you feel it will help. If it did happen, I am so terribly sorry, but I am also sorry that if it was a dream, that it is bothering you so much. That can't be nice to be carrying those feelings around. Look after yourself.
lol im weirdly attracted to him too
hes hot for a junkie
Americans don't realize that the Muslims in Europe aren't "moderates" like in USA, but they come from their shit tier scrote culture and they will never change. They keep teaching that shit to their children which hurts especially the girls who don't have much support from anyone.
Nothing made me hate Muslim men more than the time I spent working as an assistant at school with lot of immigrant students, at the home EC class the Muslim boys refused to do any laundry or cooking because they didn't have to do those things at home either. I asked what will they do once they move out and their parents aren't serving them anymore, they said it's the girlfriend's job. God I hope all of them end up as pathetic single losers who then end up attacking someone in their incel rage and then woke idiots once again say we need to "understand" them.
Meanwhile you had a girl who could have so much potential to learn and improve herself, but she couldn't do her homework properly because he was demanded to do everything at home. I still think about her from time to time, did she manage to break free from that shit or did she end up as nothing but a womb for that shitty religion.
This is so infuriating, what an absolute sack of shit. I don't know how you had the patience.
The only way to stop these behaviours is by punishing them, not pretending to be understanding with that 'it's their cultureee' bullshit excuse. Some cultures suck and they shouldn't exist anymore.
i'd buy it if it even was their culture, but yanks are too dumb and woke to realize that islam is not 'a culture' but a global organized religion that comes in more flavors than fanta and people are free to interpret it however the fuck it suits them just like christianity.
clearly if people from my white, european country can be muslim without being retards about it, then the issue is in whatever sect of islam arabs are being taught at home.
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>>663718>clearly if people from my white, european country can be muslim without being retards about it
Well, that depends…
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I think a lot about this one recent male post from /cgl/ an anon posted here related to why men raid female spaces. Like I simply can't understand this level of insane entitlement and autism.
>We just love bullying women because it's sooo fun seeing you mad and giving us attention!!
>anyway we totally want more women in male spaces so they can mommy us and give us headpats and brownie points BUT you're on your own bitch because we aint gonna protect you
>so all in all you can't make your own female spaces because m-men n-need your soft mommy milkers but you should come over to ours to be abused, harassed and ridiculed
Are these men literal toddlers? I have a hard time wrapping my mind around someone being a diaper shitter like this. Incel logic is just the product of an amplified pre-teen mindset.
I remember men like this when I still bothered going to this anime group on Discord. I said men because they weren't teenagers, they were grown men in their late 20s or even older yet they still enjoyed doing that to girls much younger than them. I left the group ages ago and I heard many other women did as well, now it's full sausage party with a few pathetic pickmes.
At least he admits that men are assholes just because, there's no real reason for that, they just are born that way and they will never change. The only way to deal with an obnoxious scrote is to not talk to him, not even notice his existence. Ever since I stopped talking to men completely my mental state has been so much better.
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I used to enjoy parties as a kid. Sweets, activities and cake always made it fun. Then teenager parties hit and things just turn into large social gatherings and with alcohol and awkwardly trying to talk to people you don't know with a stressed out voice box.
I've been going to these parties for 10 years from 16-26 and i've finally decided that i just don't enjoy them and I have never enjoyed them.
What is the party experience anyway. Loud music and a lot of people i don't know and can't even talk to due to everything being so loud. I used to be so insecure about when i wasn't invited to a party but after 10 years i finally feel like i'm not missing out by not being invited.
I guess i went because it felt validating to be invited to a party, a reminder that some people actually like me enough to consider inviting me as i remember feeling hurt by not being invited to many just being the tag along friend for the final 2 years of school. But i think back of the parties i went to from 16-26 and i don't remember enjoying a single one of them, even with people i like.
Anyway i've finally kinda accepted that parties are not my thing and that if i get invited i shouldn't go for them unless they are a close friend and i know it would hurt them if i didn't come. Instead i'm just going to focus on my 4-6 people get togethers, with an actual activity because i like doing stuff other than talking.
It's a nice freeing thought, that there is one more social standard i feel comfortable not conforming to.
At least she cares, my mom hates
that I'm depressed because she thinks it makes her look bad and doesn't want anyone to know, especially my dad(they are divorced), she mocks me if I say I'm depressed or anxious and when I have suicidal thoughts she thinks I'm a coward, she even wants my to tell a therapist an exact script of how I feel so I don't mention her and how her shitty attitude affects me, she also became some brainwashed after watching too many Alt right rethoric and conspiracy videos and I can't stand her anymore, she is such a dumbfuck
It's easier explained when you realize it's autism. Autistic males are mommied af too which explains that 'cater me while I abuse you' attitude. >>663766
Anon if he took her back then he made up bad stories about her in order to get your sympathy while he waited for another opportunity with her. If he's not a liar, then at best he's got oneitis cause he's willing to go back to the woman who humiliated him, and even if he picked you he still would've had feelings for her. >>663805
Which is why you've got nothing to lose by becoming a bitch and setting the bar high. Don't settle sis.
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I’m so sorry anon. That’s awful. Big big hugs to you.
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I just learned today that the weird guy on a discord server who simps me despite the very few interactions together is indian. I guess that explains something
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>bf wants to go to middle of nowhere for craft brewery
>I want to do a farmer's market before we go there
>volunteer to drive my car
>drive 30 minutes to the busy farmer's market
>find a good parking spot despite the traffic
>bf waits until I turn off the car to realize he doesn't have a fucking mask
>now have to do a half hour side quest to find someplace else that will sell him a mask
>forfeit my awesome parking spot which I will not be lucky to get a second time
Holy shit why are scrotes so fucking dumb? You bring a mask whenever you go someplace public now. I know switching up cars threw him off cause he keeps his in his car but holy fuck. Before we left I was literally pawing through my pile of masks to pick to wear and he slept I guess. God this is so annoying, he apologized but I'm salty af cause it's such a waste of time. It's not the first time he's forgotten his mask but this is a time when I didn't have an extra in my purse. Not a good start to my day at all.
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Yet another male I know has begun to troon out. He seemed normal. Will it ever end?
Ok? Those are your friends who still think they have a shot with you. Men online, especially anon spaces, know it's next to impossible that they'll get poosy, also they don't know if you're not hot aryan or petite asian. Men may want to fuck and THUS be nice to individual girls but they hate women as a group, an entity, a concept.
It is exactly as anon said. Most women don't bother coming into male spaces because they're disgusting. Women just make their own space because we can, we have done it for every single thing throughout history, instead of men's tendency to just colonize from others. Why the fuck would we subject ourselves to this>"we won't protect u, this is the wild west and you have to protect urself uwuwuwuwuw"
bullshit, when we get nothing out of it except creepy stalkers and harassment. That was specifically coded to spur that "are you game? are you a cool girl who can hang?" feeling in insecure girls.
The few pickmes who do wade the swamp all get the "show tits" or "roasties gtfo" treatment EVEN IF they were being nice and helpful to these retards. The moment the girls start talking about THEMSELVES and their problems (boyfriends), the mask fully comes off. HOT virgin gf fantasy ruined reeeee.
Tldr Men are specifically mad that women would rather be on their own dead sites and forums than dirtying their feet with coom-poisoned incel waters.
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You know what book to read
My room is insane and i literally dont know where to begin. I heard making a list of smalls tasks to do first usually helps, but i just want to just throw everything away at this point.>>663942
I do really like a lot of her advice.
same anon my problem is mostly the fact that I've amassed a large amount of clothes over the years and I don't know which ones to get rid of, and I got rid of quite a few earlier this year but I don't know what to do with the remainder. clothes aren't even gross compared to food and other shit but they still make me feel insecure and disgusting when they're piled in baskets in my room
you messy room anons make me feel a little bit better about my difficulty cleaning up
Definitely clean a little at a time. It's overwhelming when you have a lot to clean and feel like you need to do it all in one go.
Also, start by throwing away garbage like old papers, bottles, etc. I have a huge problem with letting things accumulate, like empty boxes or containers. My brain doesn't see it as a necessity unless it's something gross that I need to take care of immediately (like food) so I wind up with tons of empty empty containers.
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I cry almost every night because of how bad a state my teeth are in. I was and still am an ana-chan and it's been going on since I was in the 8th grade. My teeth have been decaying because of malnutrition and me being too depressed to care for my teeth the right way. I wish I could go back in time before my body got royally fucked by this mentally illness. I'm a poorfag so getting dental implants or even consistent dental care is a pipe dream.
Anons please love yourselves and if you are in the early stages of developing an eating disorder please seek help as soon as you can. Being bone-thin isn't worth all the pain and suffering you'll endure.
Set yourself strict criteria for the clothes you keep. Start by throwing out obvious things, like items that don’t fit or you haven’t worn in a year. If you still have too much then go further. A Small Wardrobe on YouTube made a video about her wardrobe manifesto which was insanely detailed, only allowing certain necklines and her pants to be hemmed in a particular way, BUT that works and also will stop you accumulating so much
The easiest way to cope with mess is to limit your possessions so you don’t have enough to make much mess. Not saying minimalism is the only way but even getting rid of some crap will help
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I’m too shy to interact at parties and meet new people unless I drink
And when I drink it only takes a little to get me acting like a drunk jackass and embarrassing myself.
God I’m lonely.
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The awkward moment when you think that your period is over but it actually isn't smh …
As an American I am also tired of self-absorbed Americans online.
I am also tired of non-Americans never shutting up about how much they hate Americans. It’s like the song that never ends here.
They're very hypocritical with that woke bullshit and won't wait to call someone out on it despite their country being a plague on this world for years. Even my third world shithole somehow manages to treat its own citizens better and I feel sorry for the people who have to grow up in poor areas there, but I hate it when they attempt to "educate" me on things they themselves don't understand.
I especially hate it when they force their own issues on everyone else, my country was bombed by
the US not one year apart from 9/11 yet whenever I tell that to an American they act surprised and say they didn't know, yet 9/11 memorials are forced down my throat every year and I'm called mean and heartless when I say they fully deserved it and I hope it happens again. Which I do, kids in my country still get cancer from whatever they dropped on our crop fields back then.
Anon, maybe you can get better, I mean it wasn't always like this. Also, don't apologise, you are allowed to vent! Let yourself enjoy a treat of some kind tonight.>>664131
that's the spirit i enjoy seeing
>>664117>I will never forget the ridiculousness of social pressure that happened where if you don’t tweet about BLM you are racist
This bullshit was the last straw for me and I pretty much detoxed off social media. These fucks could not care less about the oppression happening right now
around the world, slavery is still a thing in quite a few places, minorities are being oppressed but you don't see hashtags about them trending. I live on the opposite side of the world, I don't speak English as my first language, I have never even been to America, my country is like 99% white. But bitches be expecting us to know all the nuances and connotations of American identity politics and memorize 200 years worth of their history to even interact. They attempted a cancellation on an internet famous Italian guy because he didn't tweet about BLM.
The most annoying thing though is that the American activists don't even realize that it's a manufactured effort at keeping the lower class population from unifying to demand better living conditions to everyone. If people stopped rioting and fighting each other all the time and focused on something else than crabbing each other they could have universal and affordable health care available for each citizen.
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My dad tried to kill himself and got sectioned at the hospital, they haven't taken him off sedation yet and we genuinely don't know how long he will be institutionalized (he has substance abuse issues and depression), I have my finals approaching and a fuckton of shit to deliver (my teachers grade on essays and actual work done, not tests, art university shit) but I will also probably have to take charge at his business because my mom can't do it all by herself, im just hoping the people on my group will be understanding so I can two time the individual work at the office.
Its not that im not sad but I just don't have the time or brain skills to process my emotions right now because I have to take the responsabilities of a 50 year old business owner as a barely out of highchool girl.
I genuinely dont even know how to cope right now.
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I'm writing an essay that's due in 2 hours and I only have 1 pragragraph. Granted, I had like many other hours today and I procrasinated and napped throughout this entire day because I was just so tired from the other essays and projects, I just can't handle it anymore. I really should've done this yesterday.
Just saw something on my ex's facebook that made me wince. I am only reminded of him because he likes my facebook posts, like he did with the one of me and my bf today. So I opened his profile.
He proposed to his gf of 2 years and there's an engagement status on his fb. Happened a few days ago, zuck algorithm just never showed it to me.
I'm plenty over him. But it just goes to show that if a man WANTS to marry you, he will and he won't make excuses! I was with that fucker for 4 years of my life. And we weren't babies, we were adults in our mid 20s so immaturity wasn't the issue. I gave up when I'd bring up marital commitment and his excuses were that we weren't "traditional" and that he couldn't afford a ring. Even when I took that bastard to Japan (the perfect proposal opportunity hello and one of my friends even showed him ideas of rings I loved beforehand HELLO) nothing happened, and he treated me like a prick on that trip which was the main factor in why I left him a couple weeks after that. The final nail so to speak.
How fucking dare scrotes? I mean I was a naive dumbass but I didn't deserve that, I genuinely had good intentions and loved him. People told me I was too good for him but I shrugged them off like a blind pickme until I realized he was never gonna change and treat me in the way I deserved.
Anyways, he didn't get a lot of likes on his status which is surprising cause he's normally mister popularity. Most of the attention is coming from the woman's side as her friends are happy for her. Whereas I'm sure my ex's lvm friends are all reeling at the prospect of not stringing a woman along for longer…or maybe, just maybe, they remember from not so long ago a certain someone like me he lived with for years who stuck with him when he was at his worst who he completely fucked over. AND THANK FUCK. I can't imagine how much sadder my miserable life would have gotten with him had he actually proposed, considering he was already emotionally affairing around which is how he moved in and got a job with his current only after 2 months post-breakup. I guess she gave him his dream job and that's something I just fell short of offering the manchild.
Oop, spoke too soon suddenly other people are liking his status so lol.
But anyways, I'm not entirely mad because my boyfriend who I've been dating for a few months has basically told me he wants to marry me and wants a family with me, which is something I was upfront about wanting too. I'm wary of moving too fast, but at the same time I kinda like that he's being forward and honest about what he wants with me. I don't get the string along vibes from him like I did with my ex. Again, just evidence that men who want to do for you will make it known, and then fucking will do it!!!
Should I just delete my ex off my fb? We don't talk and he literally only likes my statuses every now and then, and I feel like this is an unspoken slap in the face enough to warrant never having to see this asshole again. We broke up "civil" but the obvious makes me resentful. Like, we all knew, right? It's just proof positive that he didn't take me seriously, I feel like it's enough. Do I have your blessing, lolcow?
Sorry for the rant, these are just complicated emotions to process.
girls are constantly being sexualized growing up, many girls are victims
of sexual abuse/ assault or online grooming and so sex work (similarly to sleeping around or dressing in revealing clothing) gives you a false sense of control over it
Can’t wait a few years down the line when the tides turned and all these sheltered first world bitches start acting like they were traumatized on the level of human trafficking victims
because they regret getting into online sw, as if they didn’t actively reject advise against it in the first place.
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I'm begining to suspect that I was sexualy abused when I was like 5 years old, but my memory blocked it, on the same way I am begining to suspect that I might be hipersexual.
When I was that age, I moved into a new school, I had no friends because while not a tomboy, my classmates made fun of me for being too boyish, actually as time went on and they found out about sex, they thought I was a lesbian and their treatment towards me got worse. But at that time, a girl on my class got into a fight with her friend, so she started to hang out with me, I liked to have a girl as a friend, but one day something just happened.
She wanted to go to the bathroom, but she insisted that I should go with her because that's what girl friends do, so I followed her. I don't fully remember what happened next aside from her taking off her skirt and forcing me to watch her because "that's what girl friends do", her rule is that every time one of us had to go to the bathroom, the other had to go too. I can't tell how many times I did it, I don't remember many things about that time, but I remember that for that I started to become more and more angry about her, until we stopped hanging out.
Years later, she got expelled from the school, the teacher didn't tell us, but I found out that she got expelled for pretty much trying to rape a guy with a glue bottle. I know it's weird, but I began to panic.
I seriously cannot remember spending time with her, but I know I did, I know that she dragged me into the bathroom and asked me to take off my skirt and underwear, I remember being told that even if I was a girl I look a lot like a boy, but I don't remember anything inside the bathroom.
I also know that I am weirdly into a lot of crossdressing fetish stuff, I watch porn regulary but I don't feel comfortable with my female body, at some point when I was younger I thought that I might be trans, but it's not the same, because I don't feel "more comfortable" or "In the right body" when I forced myself to wear male clothing, I just wanted to have sex.
I am writting this because I got as a final assigment on psychology to write an essay about a mental disorder, I choose hipersexuality, and realized that I fit into a lot of the characteristics there, but hipersexuality is something that happens with abuse victims.
I don't want to say that I am a victim or that I actually have hipersexuality, because I am not sure, but a lot of things are begining to make sence when I connected all the dots together.
I'm scared. I just want to feel normal, but I feel nasty and sick, just like when my dad called me a bimbo slut for my clothings when, again, I was 5 years old.
I guess I need treatment, but I feel disgusting talking about this, I know I am going to be call a slut again if I talk about my possible hipersexuality.
I'm not lying.
I'm serious about this.
I'm sorry if this come out as such, I'm really sorry, but I have nowhere else to talk about this.
I thought the same, but my classmates did, it wasn't the only thing they, they talked a lot about sex back then, a few boys tried to look down my skirt and girls gropped me a few times and I don't know why if we were so young. I know it sounds made up, but it isn't.
I'm really sorry if my post is stupid.
I'm sorry, I'm really sorry. I just felt like if I need help.
Thank you so much, it really means a lot.
I will try to look up for therapy, I still don't know how, but I hope to find a way.
anon I'm so sorry. What country are you from if you feel comfortable sharing? I wish some of the fucking AMERICA GREATEST EVUR fucks I know could get a dose of reality and face the people whose lives were destroyed by our country's government. I disagree that we need a second 9/11 though, Americans would just further bury their heads in the sand and become even more bigoted and blind to our country's evil than ever.>>664140>The most annoying thing though is that the American activists don't even realize that it's a manufactured effort at keeping the lower class population from unifying to demand better living conditions to everyone.
YES I hate how fucking blind everyone is to this shit
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Why is it so cool to hate on pregnant women for some reason? I swear I used to see this meme (or something like it) reposted all the time. I live in an area with a lot of public transportation and some people get so pissy that they're expected to give up their seat for a pregnant woman, or complain that pregnant women at their workplace get easier workloads. "Nobody told them to have a baby!"
I've never been pregnant, but fuck dude it's called empathy and it don't cost you nothing.
This. I see it online too, if you look around in the comments on Reddit or IG, there’s bound to be a few “you don’t deserve special treatment for getting a cream pie” type comments.
It kinda seems like they’re jealous in a way? Like pregnant women are somehow living on easy street because they get (maybe) given a seat on the bus kek.
It’s the same in the UK. There are designated seats for pregnant women on public transport but people sit in them anyway and won’t move even for a heavily pregnant woman
Funny thing is people almost always give up their seat for disabled people, even though their disability could be their fault (I know a guy who lost a leg due to riding too fast on a motorbike). It’s perfectly acceptable to disrespect pregnant women, but sickening behaviour to disrespect a disabled person
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Seeing this is making me legit want to cry, I can't take it anymore. I can't, I hate this fucking world, this is so fucking wrong I'm so done with this shit
just read this bullshit please this is not okay
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>>664320>mfw seeing multiple pickme e-thots talk about getting hentai lewd crest tattoos
Please I'd rather you get tramp stamps and face tats
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People IRL get them too and in hentai I've seen that they can be permanent as well, it means you need male cum to be filled inside your womb to function and obey and I find this so utterly disgusting>>664337
There's so much fucked up in this chart but the worst for me is thinking how some random men gazing upon you will make you submit to them and you'll cum from men looking at you when I personally don't want any men looking at me
The "cum that liquifies fetuses if you're pregnant and you orgasm from that" and "you lay eggs and if someone crushes them you become submissive" are also big NOPES
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kek happy halloween to you too
>>664366>Some things are best left in your embarrassing cartoon porn.
I agree, there are some stuff that shouldn't left porn.
Pretty much how I feel about ahegao, is fine on a hentai but when real girls do it, is not cute or attractive, it looks ugly and kind of trashy.
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Alright, I'll allow it. I just hate that it's made to resemble a uterus. A decidedly female symbol gets used as a mark of degenerate submission.
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Wtf is this I can’t even take it seriously it’s so fucking dumb
>>664314> he is giving them two nights to let him know and he will ask for a lesser punishment for those who confess.
Meaning he doesn't know shit.
Plus in your case it's only about one question that could potentionally look like you got it from google, right? If there's students who probably copied the whole test from Chegg while your answer to the question is in line with the rest of your test and how you perform in general, then there should be no problem? I assume the answer to the question on Chegg was correct, that basically means that everyone who studied well and answered correctly can be accused of cheating, that makes no sense.
The man knows nothing and has no proof.
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I googled to see what you were talking about, and this is disgusting, lmao. He looks like a full-on drag queen. Ru Paul shit.
Any man who's aroused by this is barely even attracted to women (if at all), so they shouldn't worry about being heterosexual anymore. They are pornosexual.
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Speaking of porn shit that always leaves me feeling like shit, I always accidentaly stumble upon this kind of weird coomer art with so much explanation on that it's imposible to not assume the person who drew it and the scrotes that enjoy it are fucking schizos and I would rather run if I saw it.
I once saw one that was basically saying how a perfect woman should be, with very exaggerated features saying and text same as >>664320
with impossible bodily functions and a big enphasis on cum. I couldn't find it and honestly I'm not gonna go find it, but I found a very similar one to illustrate what I'm trying to say. I fucking hate this and it makes me so uncomfortable to think maybe more men than what I would had liked to think are into this crap
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Why do scrotes always have to shame womens bodies so much? god i fucking hate it, i seriously hate it. I had body image issues once and it really fucking messed me up so badly, i would constantly wear very big sweaters even in summer just to hide my skinny wrist and how i look overall. I would be constantly called a skeleton or anorexic and told to eat a burger. It ruined my self esteem so much, i binge ate until i felt sick, it was so unhealthy for me.
Also, melanie martinez one of my favorite artists and who still inspires me to this day put out a music video, where she showed off her body and danced and just expressed herself, and scrotes had the nerve to body shame her and tell her to put clothes on and tell her that she looks disgusting, and even joked about her being pregnant just because she had a small bump on her tummy which every woman has.
It just makes me sick anons, why can't scrotes shut the fuck up for once and let women be themseldes for just one fucking minute, why can't we just be ourselfes without some coomer scrote telling us that our body is wrong? it's just making me so frustrated, i just wanna punch a wall.
ok just have to get this off my chest bc i can't spread this info irl/it's not my place to
tl;dr my friend's boyfriend is murdered and accomplices flee the county
someone i was friend's w was dating this guy, he was 29 she was 21. off the bat i was like, friend (we'll call her cara), this doesn't seem right. she becomes isolated from our friend group and overall it seems very toxic. turns out he raped/sexually assaulted a lot of people, including a friend. cara apparently knew this but she didn't believe it. i told her i couldn't continue being her friend, that she was being manipulated and she knows she shouldn't be doing this. i'll be there for her in that regard of navigating this abusive man, but i couldn't associate with her because her bf (we'll call him ryan) sexually assaulted a lot of people. she framed it as a he said/she said bc apparently a lot of his (male) friends were vouching for him. i understand kinda? what it's like to be in love with someone and not wanting to believe what they've done. though that's so frustrating and very very wrong and i've explained that to her a lot.
a few days after meeting him (where he showed up uninvited to my other friend's apartment w cara), he goes missing. it turned into days, weeks, months. i think it's been four or five months now. his motorcycle was found in in a middle of nowhere with the plates taken off and that's all the info (mostly) everybody knew
yesterday, i was with friends and one leaves the room bc he's getting a phone call from his brother. granted, him and his brother apparently deal drugs and associate heavily in that "culture", and so did ryan. his disappearance definitely had to be due to that. it's suspected he was dealing laced coke also).
anyhow, the friend i was w yesterday gets off the phone and comes back in the room and says he knows exactly what happened to ryan. keep in mind they were strongly affiliated and weren't making this up
so the friend tells us ryan had been basically bludgeoned to death by these two people with a tire iron in the middle of the nowhere and thrown into a body of water and the two accomplices fled to a different country. i'm so shocked but have an okay time knowing he won't be around to hurt anyone else but my friend is still madly in love w him. last night turned into me consoling her for hours, not really knowing what to say because she's talking about how much she loves him when like, he sexually assaulted my friend and it feel very immoral and uncomfortable to be associating with her. she's very unstable rn..it's very complicated and i don't really know how to handle this situation
lastly, the police and FBI are on the case and know what happened, they just aren't sharing details. i've never witnessed something like this. apparently the FBI found his phone? and have def seen my texts me and my friends sent him at like 5 am kinda making fun of him via voice messages. i think it would be funny if i was implicated
but yeah, this man was bludgeoned to death and dead as fuck
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i'm 20 and my bottom row of teeth gums are receding so badly that the gums skin is translucent..before you ask i had an illness that caused frequent vomiting, fuck i'm too poor to fix this i am so depressed that i'm going to lose my fucking teeth so young
Honestly Discorcd is the worst except as a communication tool between close friends, there will always be some snowflake who gets to make special rules because something is too triggering
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I went to bed last night depressed and woke up still feeling pretty depressed. It almost came outta nowhere, and it was the works: Feeling like a failed and phony person, feeling like no one really likes me and the few that do only like me for utility, wishing I could just not wake up, feeling rejected by friends, etc.
I feel too old to still feel this way. I'm 29. I hate that this never gets better and it always comes back around to stab me in the ass. I don't even know if any of it is actually true or not.
This is so fucking true. I got hung drawn and quartered on a server I was on because I dared to post mature fanfic in the 18+ fic room, complete with noting potential triggers
. This person didnt dm me about it but instead the owner called me out in front of everyone, made me feel awful for doing nothing wrong and then she dm'd me in private apologising for having to do that to please someone.
Some doctors get butthurt when you tell them you don't feel they're listening to a word you say, but take you a little more seriously for a while.
Depending where you are it's easier said than done, but can you find another doctor?
I've been to about 5 different doctors for various things and its always the same. They all himt at me just faking it and now I'm going crazy thinking they are right. Like I'm in serious pain but also having a break down because what if I'm a psycho who is actually faking and even lying to myself.
I'm in shit hole country America so I end up spending hundreds an appointment for a doctor to do absolutely nothing and gaslight me so he never has to actually do his job.
I feel you anon. Also amerifat and I've switched doctors several times to try to find one who takes what I say seriously, but I've pretty much given up.
My last doctor definitely made me feel like he thought I was faking it too, it was such a weird feeling because I had already taken tests that confirmed what I was experiencing. There was tangible proof of what I was saying, but he still made these kind of snarky comments like "wow anon, you're here again, you must love going to the doctor," no bitch I hate it here, each visit is $100, diagnose me already for the love of fuck.
Not to make it about me but god I'm so envious that her low effort scrote is a piece of shit throughout, and that you stan for your friend.
My low effort scrote, while a terrible and inconsiderate asshole who only was with me out of convenience, is a beloved and charismatic friend to everyone so much that even my own friends and family still interact with him.
I hate it. And because I didn't meltdown after I ended things no one even realizes the shit he put me through, and of course if I bring it up now I'll look like a jealous psycho trying to retcon what was to most outsiders a mediocre relationship that was probably my fault being that I'm the woman. I'm hurt cause my close friends who I even vented to during his worse shit against me wound up liking his social media statuses when he announced he was engaged. Fucking ugh.
All this to say you sound like a good friend anon, she'll need you more than you think.
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I am thinking about something that you are anon but I won't be the one getting a ban for it, anon.
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My new pet peeve is people who advertise their clothes and stuff on ebay and depop with thirst trap pictures. Great bodies but I just wanna see good photos of the clothes tbh.
>Pic related: the top is for sale and this is the only picture the seller uploaded
Ayrt, and I'm really sorry you had to go through that. It's really shitty when you're unable to explain to other people how severely someone has wronged you in the past. Especially when they're charming to everyone else. Even if you've mostly moved past them, the harm they've caused may always linger. I hope you're doing better for the most part now. I also hope you find some friends who know how to treat you and your experiences better ♥
My friend's ex actually is pretty well-respected by the general population because he knows how to maintain appearances outside of the people he interacts with on a day-to-day basis. He's very accomplished and attends one of the most prestigious schools in our country. Under the surface though, he's really detached from those closest to him and liked to play games of cat and mouse where he shifted from "get away from me" to "I know! I'm shitty but I want to get better" and then never did. Toward the end, my friend was still convinced they might get back together in 5 year's time. She only just now getting over him and realizing she's worth more than that.
Sounds like we still need "ultra-feminine and women dominated uwu" careers like English teachers for people like you, anon. Bait or not, what a terrible take.
"Why don't people sign up to risk their lives like in the good old days?!?" The 1950s are the other way.
Also when they refer to themselves as MILFS.
I have a really close friend who goes in and out of phases of being kind of irritable with me whenever we hang out/call whatever. It doesn't happen all the time, so whenever it does happen it always catches me offguard. I don't know if it's because I'm being too spergy right now since I've been really fixated on a few topics recently, but I feel like in our friendship we both like to overshare about our fixations and that it's usually fine. My mental health hasn't been great recently (hence the recent fixations) and I had to rant to her a few days ago about my stress and I'm not sure if maybe I said something during the rant that ticked her off or something. I should just give her some space, but it always hurts whenever you can tell that a close friend is openly irritated at you- not even for doing something wrong but for being too much of yourself or something. I can't help but constantly ruminate over what I might have said that ticked her off, if this is a sign that I'm a toxic
friend/annoying person, or if it's even me.
>>664804>I dont want sex.
The culture is over saturated with it. It's always promoted in the mainstream. I think there's a decent balance somewhere but most people it seems are at either extreme.
There are also probably a lot of people who think they're not into sex when they're really just demisexual.
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Entering my late 20s is weird, because I always thought I'd die before I hit my 30s. Like from HS onwards I just kinda lived with this weird countdown in my head. Probably in part because after my suicide attempt at like 15, I decided to try to live until my 30th bday at least. Then I could go. But I don't really want to die anymore.
So the idea of my 30th birthday just being a few years away is weird. Because It's (probably) going to happen. I'm going to wake up on my birthday in the future, be 30 and life is just going to continue the same as it ever was. idk if I'm making any sense, It's just an abstract kind of feel
I was going to kill myself at 25 but something stopped me.
I still feel like I am too old to do pursue my goals and that I should just give up. Do you feel that way?
I try to remember people who are older than me that I admire who achieved greater things at older ages. Like Junji Ito who only started making manga at age 37.
Being older means we know what we want out of life more. If I made decisions when I was younger that decided the direction of the rest of my life I would be trapped in a mindstate I was not proud of.
idk if I'm making sense. I'm probably just rambling. Heh. Sorry. Just talking.
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some extroverts are so exhausting…one of my coworkers gets so salty when people don't hang out with him. One of our other coworkers hangs out with him like every week and he also hangs out with his wife and her friends a lot. I work 40+ hour weeks and have lots of solo hobbies and interests, I like my own company the best. I don't know a way to tell this dude I don't want to hang out and it's not because I hate him, I just don't hang out with ANYONE. I could understand his hurt if I was Plan B-ing him but I'm not.
anon are you me?
I work in a small company with all men unfortunately and one guy is super nice but way too extroverted and i felt bad always shooting him down for stuff but luckily he didn't get too offended by it. Even the boss is obsessed with "going out for a pint", i dont even drink and they make a huge deal out of it as if I've offended them that someone in their early 20s doesn't want to be blackout drunk with a group of older men. Tbh, being very introverted and a woman has pushed me into a corner at this job and im almost always left out or considered last because of it, i might not want to go stuff after work but you could at least include me in normal conversations.
i feel you anon, shits hard.
I'll be 22 tomorrow and I already feel old, in the sense that things are settled now and nothing new in my life is going to happen. It feels that from now on things will always be the same until I die one day.
One of the reasons I think is that when I was younger I thought that in my early to late twenties my life would become initeresting and I'd be able to do things I was never able to before, but in reality I got ill and now I'm nothing like I used to be 5 years ago. And as time goes on, it keeps getting worse. I wanted to die when I was younger, but I was strong and I could bear with those thoughts while working to reach my goals. Now that I want to live I'm plagued by illness and everything is dull. I see my future in my parents and grandparents' suffering from illnesses and depression.
I know I’m a little late, but same. That’s exactly how I feel, completely worthless and lacking any semblance of motivation. All I want to do is lay in bed all day. In the dark. I don’t have a job and I made some very poor life decisions leading to my lack of success. I was a hopeless poly-drug addict and ruined any opportunity (college, jobs, etc.) I was given because of that. I honestly couldn’t wait to finally have a fatal overdose. I had many, but none were fatal. Even before addiction, I had been miserable since age 12, sometimes unable to go to school because I was crying so hard and couldn’t get myself to stop. Everyone was so mean to me, I was being severely bullied (I wore dark clothes at a time when everyone wore Hollister) but I was miserable anyway. I despised everyone and everything, especially all the happy girls at that high school. To this day I dream of getting revenge on those who wronged me, those who bullied me in school, those who sexually assaulted me during my addiction, those who physically abused me, those who took advantage of me, and those who treated me like shit. I had a crazy turn of life events recently and without giving away too much, was gifted something that felt like it gave me joy and purpose. I’m glad I have a sense of those feelings at all now, but it still isn’t coming from within, and it’s still just not enough to drive me to make any improvements. I’m so much happier than I was a couple years ago, but still more miserable than 99% of people I know. Sometimes I think this is as good as it’s going to get, and that really bums me out. I’ve tried so many medications, and so many therapists. Sucks.
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Can't even describe how much I despise my government, instead of preparing for the 2nd wave of rona-chan, they have been shitting on LGBT the whole fucking summer
Now thanks to some lord farquaad looking like pick me women's rights are in serious danger here, rona stats skyrocketed to 20k per day, and people are constantly protesting (which I support wholeheartedly)
I have been in therapy for the first time in my whole life this year but the chaos outside makes me slowly lose my progress and the only thing I can think about is jebac pis
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jesus christ anon, people are not protesting a virus but complete abortion ban and women being forced to give birth to dead/retarded children, no matter what, even if the mother is killed in the process. Read the news
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my birthday is tomorrow
i live in new york
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I wish this site had more discussion about normie influencers, blogsnark is filled with posts like picrel and it’s all just so much projection and OT it makes me wanna lose it, every other post is like “I’m having daily panic attacks over the election and these influencers are doing NOTHING with their platform” or oblig “I haven’t left my house in 8 months and no one else is taking covid seriously enough”. I just want milk!!! Idc about your politics!!!!
>>665204 >Go Trump
One minute later.. >Samefag actually no, let me take that last comment back
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Nope, he died. All because of fucking covid. If he hadn't caught it he could've lived like 5-10+ years.
This will be the first time I had a family member die and the second time I've ever been at a funeral. I don't want to do this. I wish we could've cremated him so he would finally come home.
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Not from covid but yeah…hug someone you love and cry it out
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My narc mother telling my dad (they're divorced) that there's something "horrible happening with me", implying that I am sick/depressed/whatever and that the best cure is "me moving back to hometown and live with her". Yea, try better, bitch.
Needless to say, I'm slowly healing and doing better, learning new things. It's been so long since I've had anxiety stomach pain and I would never come back to living with her.
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I’m so sorry anon…my heart aches for you. I hope you can find some comfort.
I'm so sorry. I wish I could do something for you. Please think about seeing a psychologist or a therapist or doing anything that can help you.
I'm so, so fucking sorry. You shouldn't be going through this.
I hate when people I just met touch my hair. They also ask if it's my natural color a lot but I don't mind it as much as the fact that they think it's ok to touch a stranger like that, I have high anxiety levels and I just don't like when anyone touches my hair, especially strangers, some people also don't believe it's real, I have natural golden blonde hair, the hair at the top is brighter than at the ends, and it's always been like this (when I was a small child people were accusing my mom of dying my hair), but it's not a huge problem, I just wish they stopped touching me. With women it's just uncomfortable, but with scrotes it gets really creepy, the worst were adult men doing this to me when I was like 12-13. I can hide my body but my hair? I guess I will just start hissing at people
ghost his ass right back, give him a taste of his own cunty medicine. block the fucker.
don't be weak anon, you got this.
Right here anon. I lost my job in March, and the govt instituted an emergency benefit which more closely matched and in some areas exceeded min wage. It was less than I was making at my job, but closer to what we could consider a living wage. The benefit came to an end this fall even though many people, like me, still haven't been able to return to work because there's just no demand. Now lockdown measures have come back into effect, so it's even harder to find work than before. The worker's comp program that people have been redirected to is barely enough money to survive on. I also feel really bad for people working in essential services that are slaving through the pandemic for very little in return. I just hope that we come out of this with something positive to show for how much people have suffered, especially young people, like improved public infrastructure, better wages, more accessible public health, a cultural renaissance idk. Something's gotta give.
I’m 5 months pregnant, almost fainted on the way to work this morning because yay pregnancy related low blood pressure I guess. Luckily it was a holiday today so the train was a lot emptier than usual and I could sit down. If it had been a regular weekday I would have been standing and 99% chance I would have actually fainted on the train since nobody gives pregnant women seats here, not even if they’re in a priority seat. I reach my transfer station and am like deciding if I should even get up and get off the train because it literally feels like if I stand up I’ll pass out immediately. I have ringing ears and muffled hearing, tunnel vision, body drenched in sweat, feel like I’m dying, etc. I decide “fuck it” and stand up and by the grace of god there’s some benches right outside my train car so I manage to hobble over and sit down and put my head down so I don’t pass out. I sit there for several minutes fighting back and forth with myself about whether I should just go back home now or not, but I convince myself to be a big girl and just go to work.
Then I arrive here and open the staff room door and the first thing I’m greeted with is a huge bag of cardboard and a garbage bag full of garbage which is extremely strange and there was a note saying they put it in there because “it was going to rain overnight and I didn’t want it to get wet” “and also the garbage dumpsters are full so I’m leaving this bag of smelly gross ass garbage here” obviously not the exact wording. But like WTF WHO DOES THAT. the basement is literally a lounge, not just a gross storage basement. So anybody using the lounge has to smell a gross garbage smell??? And we literally always keep the cardboard outside in the several months I’ve worked here. It doesn’t matter if it rains because we keep it in huge plastic garbage bags. There was literally cardboard outside last night in a huge plastic garbage bag, cardboard that I put there last week, and it was F I N E. not wet at all. So I can’t understand their logic of putting some down in the basement when there was already some outside?? If you didn’t want it to get wet shouldn’t you keep it all downstairs then by their logic??? Why half???? And I’m pregnant as I said before and kinda really don’t want to carry a big bunch of garbage up the narrow staircase to upstairs and out into the garbage area. I hate the absolute morons here. Jesus Christ. I really wish I had just turned around and gone back home now.
I'm in a discord for one of my courses and my classmates are retarded, ungrateful, lazy as all hell, and are starting to piss me off. They complain constantly about the professor, who I agree is not the greatest, but it's clear that none of them can be assed to put in any genuine effort into the class either. The professor is kind of disorganized and changes the syllabus a lot, which is annoying, but at the same time, our actual assignments and exams are laughably easy. You can literally cheat on all of them so long as you take good notes. She doesn't require a lockdown browser or anything like that. I've half-assed every single one of the assignments and have gotten A's on all of them. She just wants to make sure you do them.
Lately, they've been complaining about a journal assignment due at the end of the course, which literally just requires you to write a double-spaced, one-page entry every week. 14 journal entries by the end of it. Nobody aside from me has done any of them, and these clowns now have the audacity to talk amongst each other about emailing the professor to claim that the assignment is somehow unfair and that we shouldn't have to do it at all. These entries take less than ten minutes to write and you only have to write one a week. It's fucking mind boggling to me that the entire class is this lazy. I hate these idiots and I hope they all fail.
She says in the vent thread lol.
Tbh a lot of people here are assholes, but just enough of them are genuine and looking for human connection. Not everyone here is fortunate enough to have advice-giving figures in their lives. I don’t give I’d cringey, I think it’s sweet and gives me hope in others. To each their own though
i know i shouldn't, but… my partner & i hosted a small get-together with some friends for halloween (we were covid conscious, we all work from home & are very careful, pls no bully). we always host a halloween party, and usually it's also like a mini bday celebration for me, since my bday is a few days before. the focus is on halloween shit, which is preferred, but usually i get like a cake and gifts are exchanged. anyway, a few weeks prior we had coordinated a small surprise party for my partner's birthday, back in september. it was super sweet and she wasn't expecting it at all, and they gave her gifts and we had dinner and just had a great time overall.
now for halloween i wasn't necessarily expecting anything, i'm always happy with just the halloween party, and it's fun to host our friends… but they didn't get me a goddamn thing lol. no cake, no gifts. it was still great to hang out with them, i just don't exactly know how to feel that they went out of their way to plan a bday get-together for my partner with me, but i didn't even get a card or a "happy belated." we've all been friends for like 5 years now, and i'm probably overthinking it, it just sucks that like… i'm the one who remembers our friends' birthdays and anniversaries, i'm the one who makes sure we get them gifts for birthdays and christmas and shit. i dunno. maybe it's coincidental, maybe she's just more likeable, lol. i'm done being petty i just have been stewing for a few days lol
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After 24 years I've finally admitted to myself that my Dad is a genuine Narcissist and that he's never truly wanted me around. He has always used me as a prop; roleplaying as a dad for his image and then treating me as if I'm a burden the rest of the time. I will never have a real relationship with him, but I still mourn the dad he should've been. I deserved better but all I can hope for is that my mom and I can move out and finally start to heal within the coming weeks.
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You said hands like five times.
I've been craving garlic bread for four fucking days straight and can't find anywhere decent to get it from.
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Pic related and a decent crusty bread, maybe even a baguette.
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Just make it yourself, be your own savior
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Doesn't matter, had sex.(USER HAS BEEN PUT OUT TO PASTURE)
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WHY do you have to be so RUDE?(USER HAS BEEN PUT OUT TO PASTURE)
Skinwalkers creep me the fuck out. I'm genuinely afraid of them, and I'm not sure why. Maybe because they remind me of vampires living off other people's life force. Skinwalkers never seem simply crazy, they seem malicious
I think the craziest thing to me is that they’ll convince themselves they’re better than the person they’re stalking. It’s insane. A friend of mine had a skinwalker that she hated intensely (thinks she’s undiagnosed aspergers and uses bpd as an excuse) that would hire creeps on d33pw3bz to find all her internet shit, ended up doxxing a whole other girl in her family instead like a retard because she wasn’t stupid enough to give her real info. She got so sick of it after several years, like straight up snapped, and hired someone to break into her apartment to keylog her laptop and go through her shit just to scare her. Personally I don’t see anything wrong with that because it was deserved given all that the skinwalker did kek, served her pathetic creepy ass right. >>665833
It has to be some sort of PD, nothing explains the way they can just latch on to a single person out of nowhere and be so unabashedly unashamed of being completely empty beings. It’s also often extremely competitive in an obnoxious way, they’ll develop this one-sided competition with the object of their obsession. Girls like this can never keep friends either, I wonder why kek.
Start of the year, I had met this girl who was super cute and nice, super femenine and then, few months later, she comes out as trans? Kinda don't give a fuck, but think it's funny, now she keeps posting tranny related stuff(comics about getting misgendered when she doesn't pass or attempt to look like a man just cut her hair) and later found out she's a fucking fujo. It all makes sense now, the gay anime boys, the BJ Alex posts,I don't know how I didn't see this coming. I really wanted to be friends with her, not anymore though
why has quarantine made some of us so unbearably horny and I'm not a driverfag either. but damn I need to stop wanting to fuck the celeb I'm into. he's not a good person, at least driver is an okay seeming person, unlike the majority of unconventional attraction thread scrotes>>665948
i just want to hear some comforting words please, because i'm having a breakdown. samefag from >>665984
lol. my ex boyfriend (and my only boyfriend ever, and the guy i lost my virginity to) cheated on me multiple times in a way that was pretty vile, basically it traumatized me when i found out. it has made me so fearful of sex, i literally want to rip my hair out, i want to be in a relationship again and have sex and be intimate but i'm so scared i don't want to give my body to a man so they can just get bored of me or cheat on me again. i'm so frustrated i want to cry, i just can't believe it left this deep of an imprint on me, that i just won't give myself to anybody anymore.
I also haven't fucked in 2 1/2 years after my ex cheated on me… I loved getting sti tested after that and having to tell the nurse exactly why I needed testing. Good times.
Sex feels ruined for me and even with my celeb crush I don't fantasise about full sex with him because I'm that scarred. Cheating really fucks you up sometimes
Oh anon, I'm so sorry. Being cheated on is incredibly traumatizing for so many reasons, and I'm sorry that your ex did that to you and made you feel this way for so long. It's fucked, you didn't deserve that. But him doing that to you was his problem–you and your body aren't boring. He's just a piece of shit, and his actions are NOT a reflection of you, your worth, etc. I've been cheated on as well, and I'm fucking dope lol, I'm sure you are too and it's seriously just moid lunacy/degeneracy that causes them to cheat instead of just breaking things off.
It's been so long, he doesn't deserve this hold he has over you…you deserve to have freedom and agency over your body without fear based on what some idiot did to you. Your body and mind are yours to share with whoever you want to, and not everyone, not even another man, wants to or will hurt you. I hope you're able to overcome this. It's been a long time, anon, try not to let your ex keep holding you hostage. You deserve love and trust in your partner, and I think you'll find it.
thank you anon and he is definitely a piece of shit, i don't miss him whatsoever. i hope that can happen too eventually but everything looks so bleak still.>>666003
i'm so sorry that happened to you. i feel you completely. why do they do this? why can't they just break up with us instead of being psychopaths? it's fucking horrible, it leaves you feeling insecure until the end of time.>>666005
thank you for giving me hope, even though it feels like nothing will change. you're right it has been TOO long for me to feel like this, it shouldn't have a hold on me and i don't know how to break free of it. i can't even imagine how to form intimacy again with a good man, because i feel like if i end up telling him all this and how i feel, it will trigger
something in his brain that will make him want to cheat on me. it sounds crazy, but my ex basically implanted that idea in my brain. i told my ex i could never forgive cheating (this was at the start of our relationship), and he said something along the lines of "you shouldn't speak ultimatums into existence" and some months later it's like he did it out of fucking spite. so how the fuck am i supposed to bond with a potential partner if i can't even talk about this thing that has deeply wounded me because i feel like i'll be baiting him into cheating on me like my ex did?
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I have a neurology appointment soon and I'm so fucking scared.
>>666016>i told my ex i could never forgive cheating (this was at the start of our relationship), and he said something along the lines of "you shouldn't speak ultimatums into existence" and some months later it's like he did it out of fucking spite
Jesus, your ex was an absolute psychopath. But he didn't do it because you said that, he did it because he was going to anyways and gaslit you afterwards. It wasn't your fault. You and every other sane person on the planet who doesn't cheat has this ultimatum, and it's NORMAL and expected as a bare, bare minimum. I'm serious, anon, you got bad luck with this guy, but like…normal people surely aren't like this. I'm fucking horrified that this is what happened to you, I'm so sorry. I mean, if anything, can you maybe go to therapy or try and do some reading on healing after something like that? That said, if you say this to another man and he reacts the same way, you can always cut your losses. Just. Damn, I'm sorry. You didn't deserve that. It wasn't your fault for speaking up, though, please internalize that.
my celeb crush is the same age as my dad anon
please save me from this hell
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There's a viral video linked by my brother, about a death of guy who has been a popular porn star in my country. I completely forgot about it, and bro told me and sis to check it out, when we had a video call, especially certain seconds. Apparently, the other porn-star guy was his primary-school friend. Additionally, a guy who has been molesting me during summer holidays our families spent together when I was 9 years old. I doubt any of my siblings did remember that fact, but hell, that did feel uncomfortable af.
Thanks anon. The only reason I'm even trusting her now is because she has finally admitted to me just how absolutely horrible my childhood was and that she was sorry she didn't step in sooner. My dad's abuse and my sister's death pretty much put her out of commission until I was an upperclassman in high school. She fucked up a lot, and I won't forget that, but I know that she is a victim
of him as well and that she genuinely cares about me. A family friend has an empty house they might let us stay in and I'm really hoping they do.
The manipulation is so strong but I think we are both finally breaking free of it. A lot of his rages, while 100% twisting reality, still had a sense of logic to them and as a kid you don't really know how to defend your points even if you know the other person is wrong. With the pandemic though he's gotten sloppy and all of the shit he's blaming us for makes absolutely no sense and he's losing his footing. He's essentially trying to blame this Pandemic and the stay at home order on my mom and I despite the fact that a claim like this is so insanely ridiculous that even your daughter who's been gaslit since birth and blames herself for everything can't fathom it.
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i fucking love you guys
Japan actually. Idk why there’s the stereotype of Japanese people being polite because most people aren’t especially polite imo. I’ve seen so many like extremely old people, people with crutches, pregnant women , etc. Who need seats and there will be young/healthy people in the priority seats and they’ll just be on their phone or fake sleeping to avoid giving up their seat.
Thanks anon. Today is actually my birthday too so hopefully it’s better than yesterday.
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Thank you for the kind words, anon!! Everything went fine, my brain was being stupid going to worst case scenario. It was an initial appointment for possible MS symptoms, so no examination yet. My doctor was really nice and understanding even though I was super nervous. Still gotta get all the testing done, but I'm just glad I got today over with.
the honesty is brutal anon. I love it. I heard mine is still very "active" for his age and he's not quite 60 but nearing it in a year or two so I still think he can get it up. he seems like a messy person but one who'd be sexual in spite of his age, and that doesn't help my lady wood for him at all
not like I'll ever get within fifty feet of him or talk to him for more than ten minutes if I'm lucky but I'm still gonna fantasize about him
You and your bf sound like self-absorbed assholes. This girl is talking about a change she wants to see and you're both hung up on her looks? I hope you're both 18 or under otherwise this is ridiculous and creepy behavior for adults.
Also your bf doesn't attack women because he has adhd he does it because he's male and has a pick me girlfriend that's too scared to call him out to his face.
i'm angry for you anon, I HATE people like this. They can cry all they want but if the police are involved the guy is in the wrong as soon as his dogs step off his propery.
If they leave his property call the cops straight away and report a loose dog. You don't have to give them your info, just say you walked passed.
Sometimes you have to train men like dogs. Just keep repeating the behaviour until they get it. At some point he'll realize the cops will turn up every time his dog leaves his property and will correct the behaviour, like a bitch.
It's not something he exclusively does towards women, mostly other men honestly but I agree it's just trash behaviour really. Especially a teenage girl, that really irked me. He just seems to like dissing people's looks sometimes. He's good in many other ways but like many men he has immature traits.
I'm not hung up on her looks at all, saying she didn't have killer looks was just an unecessary addition on my part because one might objectively think so. We all have vague initial thoughts about people's looks and that's human, but voicing them is a different ballpark.
and yet you came here to voice your opinion that this teen girl wasn't good looking. Imagine if you had rejected that thought instead of airing it. It speaks to insecurity on your own part and says nothing about the girl.
Anyway, you seem to just want to make excuses for him and don't seem to have said anything to him about his behaviour so enjoy your scrote and remember to fake right, dodge left when the beatings eventually start.
not cops but sheriffs have been called to his place before. i don't know what for but the other day i heard the sheriff say "it's your 3rd time huh? 3rd time's the charm." honestly felt like i have seen them more than 3 times.
but he's always there yelling when his dogs run off. makes me think he purposely lets them out it happens multiple times a day. like dude, seriously? maybe close the door.
Why is Instagram so dumb??? It literally says in THEIR community guidelines that hate speech isn’t allowed and it says these exact words:
> It's never OK to encourage violence or attack anyone based on their race, ethnicity, national origin, sex, gender, gender identity, sexual orientation, religious affiliation, disabilities, or diseases.
> We define attack as violent or dehumanizing speech,harmful stereotypes, statements of inferiority, or calls for exclusion or segregation.
Today I literally reported an account that had in the bio
And was posting a bunch of misogynistic shit yet somehow that’s “not against their guidelines” How is that not “ statements of inferiority” or even some sort of call of violence to basically say it’s okay to rape women because of their clothes. I got one of my stories removed before because it “went against their guidelines” because It contained the phrase “men are gross” but every time I report comments or accounts calling for like rape and abuse and killing of women or saying they’re inferior or shit that’s “not against our community guidelines”. Seems like every sns hates women these days.
Had a friend that tested this.
"I hate men" gets deleted immediately, like, within 5 seconds.
"I hate women" didn't get taken down. I have seen giant accounts dedicated to mocking women or harassing them. "I hate men" in fact is an automatically censored word. When I did have IG, whenever I said the three words my comment was taken down immediately and I received a strike. (Although they were jokes related to friends getting creeped on)
I hate women is just a funny mee-mee. Definitely not true. Just irony! It's sarcasm, apparently.
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my bf made me feel shitty about my cryptocurrency hobby and i'm having trouble getting over it. it's not a new hobby, i work in an adjacently related technical field, and so i have been trading and mining on/off for like 6 years now. i don't have anyone to talk with about it (too many act like it is just a meme), but he saw some shit on my screen and asked, so i was excitedly geeking out to him about staking rewards. after i'm done talking, he says it feels like "a pig rolling around in mud or dancing for capitalists” to him and so he could never get into them. I replied that was really insulting and that I won't talk to him about them again if that's how he feels. He apologized and tried to backpedal, but damn, his comment actually made me cry. It’s okay for it not to be his cup of tea, I don't expect anybody to be interested, but what the fuck.
None of the claims about Trump have ever been proven. It's difficult to believe any of it because it's politically motivated. I don't need to rely on second hand information about Biden sniffing children because he does it on camera and I see it with my own eyes.
Also as a non-burger Trump has been a decent president because for all the shit talking he does, he hasn't actually started any more wars. Biden will probably go back to bombing the shit of the middle east.(politics derailing)
Like are these >>666415
posts made by trolls from Moscow or something? I'm not a burger or know much about Biden but the trumpfags in this thread sound just like the Russian trolls trying to rig politics in my country.
Unironically this. But when it comes to getting a Supreme Court nominee pushed through who can finally overturn Roe, they suddenly get their shit together.
A lot of people are still out of work. Hospitality workers got absolutely fucked due to covid. The pandemic was handled so fucking poorly, so many people laid off without health insurance, and Trump is busy trying to dismantle fucking Obamacare. I flat out don't understand what anyone sees in Trump unless they're rich and just genuinely don't give a shit about anyone else.(politics derailing)
WaaHhHh ruSSiA baAdD
Jesus, shut the hell up.
Couldn't say for certain, anon, but this denialism about how Russia wages misinformation campaigns and has entire bot farms just for infesting western social media is sus…
Or hilariously stupid. Take your pick. And yes, Russia IS bad. That isn't a controversial statement kek
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I JUST WANT A GIRLFRIEND
I associate it with teens on twitter too. If someone misreads or misinterprets what you said either explain it and leave it at that or ignore them if you think they're being willfully ignorant. But to actually bother explaining yourself and then still feel the need to add in > but go offf sis!
I hate that shit, oh and these closing lines > Nice cope! > Nice humblebrag! > Stay mad!
It's the classic teenager attempt at a cool brush-off lol. They get overwhelmed and can't articulate a snappy response, so they ape what they've seen some influencer doing so they don't have to think, or worst of all, not "clap back". Gasp, the horror!
It's typical of teenagers to be self-absorbed and fake-deep, regardless of the year they were born in. Teenagers always think they're massively smarter than people older than them, and that they have some unique insight into shit they've only just learnt about circa 20 minutes ago. The self-righteousness and the black-and-white myopic view on everything can be cute sometimes - however, it's exhausting dealing with the ones that have zero self-awareness or concept of other people as people who also have their own inner lives and lived experiences…
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My bf is so far up Kanyes ass it's annoying af
But am dumb. I have to take cavewoman approach to handling my finances, can't complicate.
Kudos to financially-savvy people like you though.
Are they making comments about you not losing weight fast enough? Or because of your decision to lose weight?
Either way, good job taking the step anon. I'm a former fatty myself. The journey towards being healthy is not easy or fast but well worth it.
It will take a while but dont lose hope and you might have weak moments where you eat a lot but don't give up. You will feel better as your body gets healthier. (For me going up a steep hill was a big change)
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Was anyone else sickened by this?? I hate the world
Its so weird the Americas are so obsessed with credit cards. Everyone has one….no, several credit cards! When I check my group of friends there are exactly 2 people who have one (purely for travel) We once had an American friend visit us and he was baffled he couldn't pay with credit card in bars and restaurants (before covid, it'd be cash or gtfo).
I would not want one, so weird how you guys seem to toy around with your money.
Lol, might be too on the nose>>666313
Impressive anon, how'd you pull it off?
They're jealous, plain and simple. I have a friend that tried to sabatoge my diet after my weight loss became noticeable, like always bringing unhealthy food to work and saying she likes me bigger. Tbh i just wear baggy clothes now because I feel like most women in my office get bitter about me putting some effort into my appearance.
Stick with it, anon. I dont know you but I got your back.
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my life went to shit this year. came to japan specifically to work in a certain field but every company i applied to told me no. Confidence destroyed 100%. The shit company I worked for at the time lost a contract with the location i liked working at so i had to be transferred to a new one 1 hour away in bumfuck japan countryside. said no and quit. another company strung me along and ghosted me so i had to go back to my old job. they send me to a location 2 hours away up a fucking mountain and told me "lol bike it" in professional clothes in the summer.
suffered the whole time. location hated me and called me by the wrong name the entire time. broke my foot after crashing on my bike. because they gave me my job back after quitting i thought i'd just grin and bear it so i wouldn't cause trouble.
well they ended up firing me so now i'm living the neet life and may not even get unemployment because they're lying and saying i wanted to quit.
while all this was happening i thought i'd be able to escape my shit life and got to the 2nd stage of an audition. full of hope and thinking i'd finally be fucking happy not only did I not pass but i found out the bitch who was terrible to me in high school passed.
take up a new hobby to try to get myself motivated to be productive and not be so whiny. crippling jealousy as people who started the hobby at the same time or after me are 10x more successful.
I have no one to vent to. My husband doesn't know how to help and my mom just tells me to come home. I just want to jump in front of a train because no job, no money, no hope and no real skills. Things are looking real bleak and I honestly don't know how much worse this year could get. I'm just so fucking tired of trying to motivate myself out of these shit situations. I don't want to try anymore.
Anon you should just wear the clothes you want and stop hiding your hard work! You're allowed to feel proud of yourself!
Their jealousy will wear off when they get used to your new figure.
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Been there, anon, you're not alone. When I was waiting, I looked up mental health infographs, advice, charts, things like that, that pertained to the issues I needed help with. For example, for anxiety I attempted to read on/practice mindfulness, use gifs like the one attached to regulate my breathing (and still do! it's a good tool), and do exercises like trying to identify what's causing my anxiety and worst/best case scenarios in a safe/controlled setting instead of letting my mind run away.
If you're dealing with grief or depression, charts of those exist, and it's comforting to have a visual reminder that healing from those things isn't linear. Overall, putting the work in before going to therapy until you get there is what kept me sane. Just trying to cope enough to feel better and remind myself that mental illnesses are medical conditions that I'm seeking help for, and seeking out that help as much as possible before being able to sit in the chair. I'm glad you have the appointment–it's a great point to look forward to. These things in the mean time should help, at least they helped me. Good luck, anon.
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how do i stop being hyper-self-aware? i was a cow as a teenager (though i guess almost everyone is/was lol) and now i just live in a constant state of self-awareness and feeling like i’m still who i was at 16, it’s overbearing. realistically i don’t even meet cow-criteria based on site rules, and i think the most “cringe” thing would be that i have poor mental health but i manage it. i don’t manipulate/pick fights/suicidebait, i just keep to myself, or that some of my interests are kind of morbid. i’m fine with the self-awareness even though it was a skill i had to learn lol but i want to get to an area where life isn’t so joyless for me because i’m constantly worried about it. like i want to be able to do the things i actually want to do and say in life idk
I think what it takes is minimizing drama and not being an egotistical degenerate. or at least don't air that shit in public
These are the main traits i notice in cows. after all, to be a cow you have to be "milkable" for laughs, and those traits are guarantees.
In my personal view, everybody is a cow from time to time. Including and perhaps especially farmers. The key is to be open to seeing your mistakes, and to just be a good person. If you care about others, have a healthy ego and don't seek to create trouble, that should be enough.
Maybe take a break from this site. That is likely why you're obsessing
that’s really good advice, thank you. i think i do need a break from the site for a bit, at least until i can see the things around me more objectively.
i was thinking about it after i posted and part of it too is i have some acquaintances who treat anyone they meet/know and disapprove of as cows. it’s toxic
, borderline sociopathic, and honestly makes even the meanest farmers look like mother teresa. i should probably distance myself if i want any of my sanity back
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Found out my job is going to let my contract expire out for good in the beginning of December which means I have less than a month to find a new job…during covid…and hopefully be onboarded before I become terribly behind in my rent and bills. This is assuming best case scenario.
I'm not surprised cause management led me on for a year without giving me an actual offer, but it still hurts. My agency never had complaints from them about me and always praised me for the work I did, allegedly. I even have a desk space with my name placard on it.
I only found out because management sent out an email for a meeting on the 18th, and one of the agenda bullets said "New tasks for employees that are currently performed by Anon." I'm not stupid. When I asked the director about if I was being let go, she lied about it to my face and told me I'd have to contact my agency. My phone call to them confirmed it, they just didn't bother to write me an email or leave a voicemail telling me that I was going to lose my job. I told the director the news and she admitted she knew but couldn't say, and sent me a good vibes gif on microsoft messenger with a "I know it's hard." No bitch, you don't. But I kept my professional cool and put forth some pseudo positivity bs to hide the fact that I'd like to smear shit all over their offices right now.
The agency washed its hands clean of me and told me they probably can't place me anywhere else due to covid and it being a low employment season, but assured me everything's gonna be okay cause at least I have a month to look for work instead of two weeks! Gee thanks, bastards.
I sat at my desk yesterday and quietly sobbed. I placed at least 10 applications yesterday and another 10 today, but I doubt I'm going to get many bites. I have two degrees and a shit ton of tangibly related job experience, but even after paying hundreds to get my resume refocused, I barely get interviews cause my skills just don't pay well and are competitive cause a lot of people have em. I'm still reporting to work, and as it seems they've taken all my assignments from me I've had the opportunity to get paid while I search and no one will call me out. So, silver lining. Fuck me dead.
I'm almost 30 and facing financial instability again, and it's not like this job paid exceptionally well either. I'm a loser and it's hard to pretend I'm confident when underneath I'm so fucking desperate to be able to afford a living.
My boyfriend can't help me because he's broke and stuck in a lease with a roommate–his roommate refuses to allow me over and bf is too chickenshit to quarrel more about it. Boyfriend thinks I can apply for unemployment but I doubt I would qualify. My friends don't seem to understand how dire the situation is (maybe they don't think I'm a loser and believe I can find new work quick), or they just don't care cause none of them responded when I told them about this. Also my family can't help me cause they either disowned me or don't really care either.
My stepdad, who I rent a two bedroom apartment with, told me he wants to move out of the apartment after the new year. Leaving me high and dry to pay a $1400 rent alone unless I can find a roommate until the lease is up in the summer. I'm going to refuse signing him off the lease. We're in this situation together cause my mom divorced and kicked him out, and I'm in this cause I broke up with my ex and couldn't afford rent alone either.
It feels so hopeless, and I feel so unsupported. I don't know why he agreed to sign a new one-year lease term with me again if he actually wanted to be near his new gf so soon.
If it weren't for this shit lease I'd live out my car like I did temporarily a couple years back but now I can't. My only options are
>find someone to take over $1400 lease
>roll the dice and find a roommate which will probably land me with creeps like before
I hate that my boyfriend is broke and can't help me, a part of me feels like he doesn't seek opportunities to get paid more cause he doesn't want the responsibility even though he's a man and it's so fucking easy for guys to make more money and get promoted.
I hope the lizardpeople in DC will roll out another stimulus before January so I have a hope of being able to make it through December. It's bleak.
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Reborn/baby doll fetish exist and there's tons and tons on this garbage completely unremoved or censored, straight up in google. For some reason it's all women too doing the most disgusting obviously pedophile shit. I want to die and I want to un-know this exists completely without any persecution.
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Im gonna have surgery by tomorrow since i got myself an infection on my toe, i got my fathers genetics and he had too his toenail growing into his skin. Im just really anxious and i don't know how to calm the fuck down about it, i know it will be painful after but i also know it will prevent me from having another ingrown toenail. I lost most of my sleep due to my toenail hurting very badly and since my wound is basically still open and fresh and pus oozing out, it just hurts anons. It's also frustrating for me to wash the wound properly because even if i drip just water on it, it fucking hurts. It burns so badly and i really want it to stop.
Im not sure if the surgeon can give me an anesthetic where im FULLY asleep due to my anxiety being bad, but im also anxious asking that, so i just have to pull through it, i really hope my anxiety attack wont hit when the surgeon is doing his thing.
Anyway off to wash my wound and cry in pain
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I joined a guild a while ago and they already made a big deal about accidental misgendering on the server idk just enjoy the game you can always get corrected later on if it was the "incorrect pronouns"
No, they did full on sexual acts on it. I see nothing wrong with these dolls either, I think they can be helpful for certain women, but this is just straight up vile.>>666905
I was reverse-searching dollfie clothes and clicked through the suggestions. Remove the "reborn" from your search if you can deal with that kind of stuff.
I applied for a job finally after months of working through depression and low self esteem. The main reason I was avoiding it is because I have a crippling fear of rejection. It always just really hits me hard and knocks me down, I take everything way too personally. My therapist built me up and was like “what’s the worst that could happen?” And I was finally just like ok yeah fuck it let’s do this. I applied to be a substitute teacher for my local school district because a friend I know referred me to the position and even vouched for me. it required no experience, and there are currently 30+ positions open due to the pandemic. I have a strong work history and felt qualified for the position. I guess I only applied because I felt like I would get it.. guess what. I didn’t fucking get it, they said my application wasn’t up to district standard. I politely called the coordinator and asked why but she said she didn’t see any notes and couldn’t even tell me? She then referred me to her higher up and I had to leave a message. They haven’t contacted me back and I want to know why I didn’t get the job when I have good references and a year of managerial experience. Anyways my depression is in full swing and I doubt my therapist was ready for this because I haven’t showered in days, haven’t been cleaning , keep feeling suicidal, and going on rants to my family and this website. Idk what to do I’ve just been stuck inside since my job let me go due to Covid in March and I’m on unemployment making barely enough to survive haha. I have no reason to get off of my couch really, not a good one. I just feel like shit and I know I’m rambling I just idk. I feel like I’m neglecting my dog because I haven’t walked him in the last few days and I keep thinking I’m going to do it tomorrow, tomorrow will be better, but it’s like it’s getting worse. My depression is physically palpable: my body is always heavy and sluggish, I have no energy whatsoever not even motivation to eat or drink things I like. I’m struggling to even drink water like what if I die. I have no motivation to follow through with my usual routine and structure that I know I need. I am trying to reach out but honestly nothing anyone says changes how lifeless I feel. I know not getting the job triggered this episode but I am almost kicking myself for even fucking trying and thinking I had a chance. I should have known I’d be struggling to cope if I didn’t get it. I can’t handle rejection because I’m already such a disappointment to myself. Sometimes I like who I am and I’m doing good but sometimes I completely lose touch and can’t even function or be responsible for myself. What do I need to do to get out of this slump? Does anyone else have MDD and experience with hitting a new low? I feel like I haven’t been this depressed in years.
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One of the biggest overestimations I've ever made about people who've mistreated me or abused me is that they knew and intentionally were doing so.
I was so wrong.
The reality is that many bad people have no fucking idea they're being bad people. They feel justification in what they're doing, like they're the protagonists in their own little movies. It's helping me heal from the trauma somewhat, but it makes me mad how they get to go about life as if they didn't do anything wrong or framed myself like I was the bad one.
sad vent i guess
i was in hospital overnight on monday and the woman next to me had cervical cancer, i heard the doctors telling her it had spread and she needed to go to a hospice (they said it through the curtains because she was too sick to move). her husband was allowed to visit which was rare because there's a strict no visitors rule in hospital ATM because of covid. all night she was throwing up, i couldn't sleep because i could hear her retching, in the morning i saw her sick bowls and they were full of black lumps. her and her husband lay on her bed in silence with the curtains drawn, he was there for hours and they didnt speak i just heard the occasional sniff and her throwing up. i guess this is a vent because i havent told anyone how scared i am to have seen that, i cant stop thinking about them, its heartbreaking and so so scary. that could be anyone, it could be my mum, my best friend, me.. cancer is merciless and does not care who it infects, i've always been frightened of it because its CANCER but suddenly im terrified, its hit me that anyone can get it and it's so much worse than we know to witness it in person. there's a history of cancer in my family. i feel as though im taking this womans illness far too selfishly; using it to cry about my own potential misfortune when i should be taking advantage of mine and my family's health whilst i still can but god anons, im so so scared. i've never been scared like this before; atleast with my usual fears (murderers, kidnappers etc) i can protect my love ones from it but cancer? there's no shield available, nothing to stop it, the treatment is torment within itself. i feel helpless.
Start applying at as many temp agencies and contract employers as possible.
Also, your boyfriend is.. wow. Anon, maybe you should just move to a new area as soon as feasible.
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I lost a few lbs and finally got to the point where I was comfortable with my body, but US politics got me fucked up so bad that I've spent the last 2 days binging. I know I'm just bloated now and will bounce back to my comfortable weight after a week of my normal diet, but fuck man, I just feel so bad about my body again.
not milky enough for personal cow thread, but one Extremely Online guy I know posts shit like this constantly:
>Hey friends, so here's a thing I want to make abundantly clear. If you voted for Trump or would have voted for Trump, eat shit and die slow. You aren't welcome here. Don't let the door hit your ass on the way out. You're a racist, sexist, rape apologist, xenophobic, misogynist just like him, and I'm done mincing my words.
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>tfw he's not even american
It's so embarrassing/annoying to see, especially since when he's not sperging about stomping on Trump supporters he's posting about how fragile his mental health is, he's so uwu depressed, and so brave for sharing this dark time, hates himself so much that the only thing that could cheer him up is buying ANOTHER funko pop or emo shit on etsy
I think he'll be heartbroken if Trump loses because he's been posting shit like this for four years and getting asspats for larping as a big dick liberal badass on the internet
Meanwhile if you met him in real life he's a chubby manlet with 2002-era facial piercings and a fucking nightmare before christmas tattoo, and if you said a mean word to him he'd roll into the fetal position and spend six months writing medium posts about it to 'process the trauma'
also loves to defend TRAs as a "cis ally" so countdown to him being featured on the MtF thread in a few years
are you 1. gnc, or 2. bi yourself? i ask bc i'm both and most guys who are into me end up being bi, it might be why they're drawn to you>>667201
what the fuck. I have literally never ran into this kind of degeneracy.
Not sure if I want to google that with safe search off…. the heck
What is it with boomers and news medias? My dad is obsessed by them, whatever he does he has the radio turned on, even if it's for brushing his teeth for two minutes, and he always tries to watch the evening report even for just 30 seconds (we have a no TV policy during meals). He gets angry easily when he sees something he doesn't like, is it some kind of masochistic pleasure? Even my mom has the radio turned on whenever she does anything because "she can't stand the silence", but she's always listening to shitty programs and gets annoyed by them, why can't she just put on some music she likes?>>667192
Reminds of an artist I follow who was like "if you voted for Trump unfollow me right now, you don't deserve to see my porn" as if people are actually going to come out of the woodwork and unfollow, they are going to do whatever they want. She's not american either and I've never seen her tweet about politics in her own country, Twitter brainrot is truly its own thing.
I feel you. I got counselling for CSA a few years ago, told my then partner that I couldn't watch any films with rape depicted in them. So one day he picks out a film to watch, he had seen it before and I hadn't so I ask if it's rape free. He says it is… it had the most brutal rape scene I have ever seen and it just slipped his mind.
Few years later my next bfs fave tv series features regular scenes of rape and I tell him I can't watch it with him…the hissy fits he threw because I wouldn't share his love of a tv series. Every year when a new series of it released he threw another fit at me for making him watch it alone. Is it that hard for men to understand??
Were you overdoing it?
There's a guy working in a nearby store that I noticed looks at me an awful lot when I'm in there everyday grabbing a coffee. At first I was like 'oh this guy is into me' but now it's at the point where I'm like 'oh this staring is a bit much, dude's just staring at me long term with no communication or easing up on the staring routine' It got awkward. Do you two talk?
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One of my qualities is being a meticulous planner and good at scheduling. For the last couple of months I've been talking to an online guy and I fell for him, I planned his flight, bnb and locations to visit when he gets here. He was supposed to arrive last night.
I had a job offered to me and I had to delay the time I could come into work so I can have a vacation with this guy I like, I was going to get away with skipping a few days of class bc Im currently in a module that's fully online, until the middle of this month. Everything was perfectly planned as it should be, until this guy misplaced his passport and lost his flight.
It's uncertain when he's going to reschedule, but I already set my life plans at a certain date (the day after he was supposed to leave). Now I've fallen out of love with the guy because I'm so angry my hard work went to shit. I can't stop my life for anyone.
I'm so angry on your behalf but it's probably for the best, he's a manchild. He should be able to arrange his own shit and have checked his passport long before this, like when he knew you were changing plans to accommodate him.
Please tell me you didn't send him any money because "long distance relationship where the other party mysteriously can't meet up" is a plot line of 90% of Catfish episodes
Congrats on the job offer BTW!
You put way too much effort and investment into this guy >Now I've fallen out of love with the guy
In two months of online chat you fell in love and back out of it again, girl that is not right
Nah, never sent money out.>>667279
I apologize but that was hyperbolic, I still do love him a lot but I'm irritated about the situation.
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There's a new black guy working as a cashier in a grocery store near me. I've never seen a black person irl, only asians and some arabs. I'm a highly paranoid and awkward individual and I'm anxious even around white people because I feel like everyone stares at me and judges me and I'm trying not to stare at others. But this time I tried harder than usual because I didn't want to seem offensive or something so I was just staring at my groceries, trembling, and I mumbled only "good morning" and "thank you" (like I always do, but again, I was scared he would think that I'm like this because he's black).
A lady in a drug store asked me two times to repeat myself because I was mumbling again.
Then, while going home, I yelled "excuse me!" at a random lady. I was waiting for a delivery and I thought she's a delivery person (yellow jacket, she was holding some package and walking away from my apartment building and the package car was standing near). She stared at me like I'm a weirdo. The actual delivery guy was in a building right next to mine. What an embarassing day. I'm going back to maladaptive daydreaming. Can't imagine not being a neet and having to deal with all that stress inducing human interaction every day
by basic common sense
>>667259>I planned his flight, bnb and locations to visit when he gets here.>I was going to get away with skipping a few days of class
Sis, it hurts to hear this but you simped. Don't be mad, almost all women go through this lesson because men are lazy horrible idiots. The fact is this guy could have had a wonderful time with you and all he had to do was show up with the appropriate documents, and yet he couldn't even be assed.
But let's just pretend that he somehow had the sense to go through with this plan: I still think you would have been hooking up with someone who's not very nice. Why couldn't he have taken initiative to research your area and find places to stay and things he was interested in doing with you? I hate to say this anon, but you planning everything for him was setting up a tone in the relationship that you'd be the one doing everything and that would have never changed. He sounds super low effort and not very nice, and it sounds like he was eager to get you emotionally attached to him early so he could get away with his irresponsible and selfish horseshit.
You don't love him or you'd sacrifice your self-respect and good judgment to make excuses for his bullshit like so many other brainwashed women think they have to do for ~troo luv~. Try to get your money back and ghost him.
wait…what where do you live?
you sure you don't literally have a problem? not to be mean but it sounds like you need to be socialised. if you have a hard time making eye contact and dealing with stuff like this maybe see if you can get some help or a diagnosis. hope you're okay anon, it's a lot to work through.
I'm still curious about "new black guy" like I'm sure you know he's a human being who deserves respect just like anyone and aren't gonna pull the autism card to excuse racism. idk tho need more context tbh. weird you started out that way but sure
neetdom isn't normal and it might be your baseline but if you want to interact with the rest of the world and not feel this way you're gonna have to sort it out. maybe definitely check into a doctor soon that's no way to live.
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>take out salmon lox for bagel
>tell myself I'm only gonna use a couple slices of salmon for bagel
>only a few slices anon
>eat bagel with lox
>eat the rest of the remaining lox anyway
Why does it have to be so delicious and so expensive for a small package FUCK
lox is smoked salmon yes? totally don't blame you anon, shit is fucking AMBROSIA but careful of your mercury levels.
fuck I miss north america and it's bagels, they just aren't a thing here and I'm lowkey seething with jealousy but also chuffed for you. have some for me pls
have you tried smoked salmon nigiri? with just a little red onion on top? GLORIOUS
fair point, but I did ask them what country they're from and for more context. Sorry for being from a multicultural one where it would be weird to treat someone differently based on their skin colour but go off.> austism> on an imageboard
thanks for the reply, that's why I was asking. I wasn't accusing you of racism I was hoping it wasn't the case. there's a lot of spectrumites on here so you're not alone. definitely try and check in and at least talk to someone about it, even a loved one if you can. it's daunting but doable. I can understand where you're coming from though, is there any way you can explain that to him if he got the wrong impression or is your social anxiety too bad?
and when it does get bad how do you self-soothe? you defs sound like you might need a helping hand dealing with these things anon. in the meantime look after yourself hey.
damn the wall meme really hit these kids hard huh
your brain doesn't finish developing til you're 25 if that's any consolation. stay safe healthy and learn as much as you can and you'll grow up, look back at this age and thank yourself for the experience you lived through.
don't stress lil one, you got this.
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There's a new white guy working as a cashier in a grocery store near me. I've never seen a white person irl, only gooks and some arabs. I'm a highly paranoid and awkward individual and I'm anxious even around hispanic people because I feel like everyone stares at me and judges me and I'm trying not to stare at others. But this time I tried harder than usual because I didn't want to seem offensive or something so I was just staring at my groceries, trembling, and I mumbled only "good morning" and "thank you" (like I always do, but again, I was scared he would think that I'm like this because he's black).
A lady in a drug store asked me two times to repeat myself because I was mumbling again.
Then, while going home, I yelled "excuse me!" at a random lady. I was waiting for a delivery and I thought she's a delivery person (yellow jacket, she was holding some package and walking away from my apartment building and the package car was standing near). She stared at me like I'm a weirdo. The actual delivery guy was in a building right next to mine. What an embarassing day. I'm going back to maladaptive daydreaming. Can't imagine not being a neet and having to deal with all that stress inducing human interaction every day
Do you realize how crazy you sound
Lately I've been seeing more and more really young people (18-21) cry about being old and some saying your life ends at 25, the hell? I didn't start feeling old until I was 29, it's scary to think what they must be watching/reading online to start feeling like an old hag at 21. Wait until you're 40 at least, jfc.
I keep seeing more and more shameless pedos online at the same time, wonder if it's connected.
Honestly this sounds like some troll and your post could be used as a copypasta kek
You live in a white european country and you've never seen a black person before? Are you from fucking switzerland or liechtenstein or something
it's genuinely pathetic, by the time they get to 30 they will realize what pickmes they've been this whole time. get the notion out of your head or end up with a shoe on top. we all see how that turned out for sweet june. or should I say, december, cause she's at the end of her life apparently.
sorry pedos fucked your sense of worth maybe don't take scrotes words for shit. pink pill tastes good my children. imbibe.
earn your womanhood by acting like one, learning and growing and not letting dick dictate (haha dick-tate) your life.
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Wait I'll be 30 before the end of the year, am I supposed to feel old?
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Wait I'll be 30 before the end of the year, am I supposed to feel old? What if I can't get any more neckbeard dick? Do I have to get a career?
>whispers in your ear
women hit the wall at 20, I'm a map, can daddy teach you something new? I'm a feminist did I tell you? how is kitten feeling?
how's that hitting is daddy getting you JUICED
(genuinely sorry I need a shower now just typing that)
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There may be something wrong. Your esophagus has a sphincter at the top that could be made weak and disordered by routine purging. It usually resolves itself after a bit when you stop, but if not it could be another issue like acid reflux.
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Why do girls with bpd and superiority complexes always look like this… how am I supposed to take her weird slights seriously? I’m cracking up.
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please don't make it worse >>667406
No, I never worked in my life. I've been a neet since I graduated from high school>>667419
I live in eastern european country and I never saw a black person irl. I'm not trolling. See, that's why I rarely vent here, people won't even take me seriously
I appreciate you, anon. I wouldn't say fun because that would be crass. how is joy and elation for you? scintillating ethereal pure joy.
don't listen to scrotes ladies. it's the path to damnation. love yourselves.
I feel bad for them but at the same time some of them use their age as some sort of a one-up on older women and call you grandma as if we weren't young before and they won't be "old" too one day.
I sincerely hope dumbasses like that get what they ask for. Hope you get picked sweetie, enjoy your negging boyfriend who won't brush his teeth and demands anal twice a week. I'll be sitting over here crying into my piles of money and free time from not being mommy to a scrote.
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samefag, just looked her up and who the hell is still naming their kids Dolores
Anon he's indirectly either saying you're not sm0l or your tits aren't that big. Quit fucking this man, he doesn't respect you anyway and is literally bringing up other women's bodies to your face and arguing with you about it.
Also there are exceptions but generally speaking, he is correct. Less bf%=smaller tits.
Honestly, I'm kind of glad we had this argument because it really solidified the fact that all men are cumbrains who aren't worth dating/marrying. >>667534
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going to be working really late today to finish a lot of work that was dumped on me, likely it'll be an all-nighter. Just want to get through to the weekend…anons…give me your strength.
I'm sorry anon, this fucking world sucks. I wish I could find such community as well. The communities that I can mostly find some empathy in is here or inside radfem tumblr. But both come with a risk and you can't really talk openly about it.
I think that maybe if corona wasn't a thing I would search for an all-women's group centered about some hobby, like crafting or reading or such. Those always have nice vibes (even more if you get to hang around 25-30 year old women) and are not full of the kind of the people you're talking about. Maybe there's an online community like that too
I really want to have some warmness and understanding that comes from being surrounded with other women. Not dumb kids who love sanrio and domestic abuse.
i listened to comparisons of "it's just a burning memory", all 6 versions as well as the original. this is literal self harm…>>667584
oh god i hope your bf is doing ok… although that doesn't mean much since dementia is so devastating. my own mother getting dementia would ruin my life.
i already spent days feeling sad when i simply learned that "everywhere at the end of time" exists…
His mom is still in the very earliest stage and she can afford treatment, so he's being as positive as he can. I hope your mom's partner can also get treatment. I'm so sorry anon, this just really sucks, please listen to this song instead of the caretaker, maybe this can cheer you up, it always helps me
full version https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ixn2RlLUr64
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I noticed that dog people touch cats in a very weird way. They're too rough and they have no intuition, which often results in cats being irritated by them and walking away, which they brush off as cats being mean. I've seen way more cat people getting along with dogs than dog people getting along with cats. They have no sensitivity and no sense of timing. It's like a typical scrote touching a female body like it was a dough to knead, or trying to stimulate a clitoris by mashing it like a button
we’ve had a problem saving money lately and i was usually too meek to ask about spending or finances cause i felt like i never really contributed enough financially. in fact we started sharing accounts specifically because I wasn’t earning enough to keep my own.
well now we’re kind of even and i figured i’d finally take charge of the spending problem and made a budget. before i’d find out we were broke like a week before we got paid again, but I know what my partner is like and figured i found the perfect solution
well paychecks dropped today. i worked this morning and i felt like such an asshole for wondering if they’d somehow manage to spend too much before i got home. I already knew about the debt they had to the shop we work at and expected them to pay asked that they paid that asap which they did. it should have left us with a good cushion to last until next paycheck (pet stuff, food, gas, a bit of everything), their allowance, my allowance, and even a bit to put away to start off our new budget on a good foot
i checked our account. it’s all gone. lol. in a matter of hours. literally just a third of the day. And worse than that, it’s the STUFF that they buy that makes it that much worse. They did save me the portion i allocated for my allowance, tho, but ofc it’s not mine. Im not going to make them uber for food money, but damn.
At least with the debt out of the way, the whole of our next paycheck is ours. I might even ask our boss if he could give me our checks next time, but i always work the mornings and he’s a night person. Idk if that’s too controlling but idk what else to do. Im too mad to talk to them about it just yet, but will once i cool down.
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>pulling out of a parking lot when an older black man knocks on my car
>ask what's wrong and he points to minuscule paint chip on his old beater
>oh, did my door bump you as I was getting in? I'm sorry I didn't realize, would you like my insurance info?
>says it's no big deal then walks away. start pulling out again
>waves me down again
>says he is a man of Jesus and found it in himself to forgive me, but that I should remember if the roles were reversed I would be hysterically screaming and calling the cops, who would kill him
>excuse me wat
>say no, I would not be hysterical or call the police, I've ended up with plenty of damage on my car over the years and so long as it's running I couldn't care less
>man reiterates that I would definitely be calling the cops, but he doesn't judge based on race so just remember his kindness
>say he is still free to take me up on insurance info, and for someone who doesn't make assumptions based on skin color, he is making a lot of assumptions about me based on the fact I'm white
>mfw when dude is desperate to be a victim even in completely benign scenario
>when can I leave this country
Uhh I feel for you anon, things really be like this sometimes unfortunately, you'll be less bothered in time; and for now just be patient with yourself, it's enough that you're hurt about that one thing, no need to be additionally angry at yourself. Is there a way of effectively avoiding whatever triggered
you this time?
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It's a cope women tell themselves to feel in control over how their partner treats them when in reality many men are unscrupulous and would gladly devalue us over ANYTHING as long as it justifies the cheating in their minds.
Saying men only cheat on ugly women is laughable when you consider the broad range of excuses men use when they're caught.
Beautiful women are cheated on constantly, and it only benefits men by keeping women on our toes trying to be the prettiest versions of ourselves when that's not gonna stop them when opportunity calls.
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i just feel so fucking beat up and tired and just overall terrible. I made a very stupid mistake, my fiance asked if i masturbated and i am very repulsed by such topics, i really hate such topics. so i said no, it was a lie, a stupid one at that. it broke him and it shattered him.
I just feel so terrible, he lost all feelings for me and doestn love me anymore, all bc of a stupid lie, i just cant do this anymore. I tried to explain to him and i also wrote a huge apology to him, i understand why hes hurt because he had exes who lied to him. It was just a stupid lie to get out of an uncomfortable situation.
now everything is ruined, those 3 years, ruined. all because of me, its all my fault. Im really not feeling good right now and im just so fed up with myself i really want to die.
this screams of abuse. Like he must know that topic makes you uncomfortable, so he brings it up knowing you'll lie, keeps on about it/know you'll feel guilty, now he's playing the "I've been lied to by all women!" card.
He's gonna come back to you but he's going to want something for it. Just dump his ass
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christ this reminds me of people who say my "stay single" line of reasoning is incel-esque. i could start a dating profile and fuck 50 men if i really wanted to. they will fuck anything. what they won't do is extend genuine respect.
I constantly see people smashing their psyche into a pulp running the neurotic hamster wheel of relationship pursuits, that was a life I used to lead and I'm relieved it's ending before I reach 30. being a volcel is infinitely better than that life and dildos and self-improvement do a fine job picking up the slack.
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I posted this in the advice thread >>>/g/154734
26 days ago (lol) and reached out to her 2 weeks after she stopped talking to me and she didn't reply. Anons were right and it wasn't something worth trying to reach out and fix. She didn't reply to me trying to fix things, so it's very obviously the end of that.
Typing this out makes me realize that what hurts is that she was the one who ended the friendship and not me despite every time she's treated me poorly, which is incredibly petty I'll admit. The basis of our friendship was that we were both each other's "rebound" friendship, because I had just lost a close friend and she didn't have anyone else to be friends with. I don't know what to say because I don't want to be like "woe is me" but I'm wondering if I'm the problem and I'm stupid for not knowing why.
I'd rather she had communicated that I was hurting her. I guess her cutting me off was her way of trying to save the friendship but why couldn't she ever tell me that I upset her that much? She would complain to me all the time about her other friends being terrible but she never left them. She would always tell me I was all she had left as a friend, and that everyone else around her were awful people. Was I really the worst person in her life or is she taking it out on me because I was closest to her?
I'm trying to tell myself that I should be happy that it's over, but I don't know what's next. There's another aquaintance who I've been getting to talk to and I think she actually wants to geniunely be friends with me which is nice. I've gone back to back with friendships all my life which I assumed was the standard, but many of those friendships were lost to time and not because of miscommunication like this. Maybe I should be alone for a while but it's weird to me. You hear about people taking breaks from relationships but never close friendships and I don't want to turn out to be some NEET with no real friends. Should I take a break or is that gonna make things worse for me? I really don't know what it means to have a friend at this point.
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I feel like shit; I work in marketing and looking online I saw some company's ad that made me wonder about marketing ethics, talked about it with my bf and he downplayed it heavily making me feel stupid for caring even though he knows nothing about my job; but then I went to ask about what other people from my industry think about it in a fb group related to that and they've dragged me too and accused of trying to stir shit while i swear I've just asked how it looks on the legal side and what they think about ethics of doing so.
I guess it IS stupid to care for in the first place but my job is the only thing holding up my self esteem somehow, so to be not taken seriously by both person who knows nothing and people from the industry really ruins my mood today.
lol I wish I was but i'm just dumb AF seems like>>668028
this is true; working in it you pay the price though, of feeling like you're walking on eggshells with most of the things put out there
Ah, I see. In that case, I think she's just feeling hurt and needs to collect herself before responding back to you. When I started talking to my friends again, I didn't realize how much my disappearance had worried them. In hindsight, I was super callous even though I thought avoiding them was the right thing. It was awkward apologizing to them, but it's important to let them know you appreciate their friendship.
Anyway, she probably just needs some time. I hope you guys reconnect. It's a tough place to be in.
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I met the perfect guy anons, he’s so mature and intelligent and understanding and too good for me and he’ll never be in love with me. Please tell me that The One is a myth and there’s someone else out there for me.
Is it Liam, anon?
Kek I'm kidding, I don't think The One exists, there will be multiple people that come through your life that make you feel that way. If he's actually unattainable for some reason, you may even be idealizing him a bit. Why don't you think he'll love you?
I had to unfollow like 50 people on twitter today before deciding to just nuke my useless account. Some Drill rapper passed today, a guy who openly mocked dead people he didn't like, a guy who people are basically saying was a serial killer, he was a gang banger.
Now tell me why so many people i was following talking about, "Do not judge him,do not mock his death, he had a family" showing pictures of him and his three kids, then when I said "This dude mocked dead people and bragged about killing people" I got told that we still shouldn't judge because he's passed.
What? I'm not going to mock his death but I damn sure won't pretend I care that someone living the way he did passed the way he did.
And get this most of these people had BLM in their name.Fuck out of here. These people ruin our communities. I grew up in the hood and seen what Gang violence does. Gangs kill innocent people, ruin innocent lives.
Excuse me if I don't give a damn about a guy who bragged about being a killer and mocked other dead people dying.
Then his dumb ass girlfriend who talked about last month about only dating men who have bodies (men who've killed people) is on twitter saying she wants to die. I also think she's maga, funny how people forget that though.
she literally said she only dated men who kill other people, yet your man dies and now we're supposed to feel bad?
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anon this is fucking garbage and so unfair, I'm really sorry for you and ur puppy. pic related for u
on my own shit… why is rent so fucking expensive in my city i cannot believe that i have to give up basically half of my pay every month just to have a god damn roof over my head. literally had a viewing for a 200 sq foot studio apartment and they wanted $850/month plus utilities… to live in a fucking shoebox.
I hope so too, but I have faith for you, anon! I've definitely been head over heels, thought The One person was my soulmate etc, but things still didn't work out. Even after like 10 years of being in love with this dude, I got over him in time and have felt deep love again, and it felt better even. You'll be okay. I'm sure you're also being a bit hard on yourself, if there's any possibility at all, I say go for it, but if not, then don't worry, there's still hope out there for you for sure ♥
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I am very sure I was sexually abused by a family friends teenage son when I was a kid. I can't say that 100% but I have the memories and a lot of my weird behaviors as a child makes sense. It's kind of relieving to acknowledge it but at the same time I'm very tired. Here's to therapy bitches.
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Why am I such a fucking retard???
I just realized how fucking STUPID I am for paying my ex fiances phone bill. The reason the bill exists is because he wanted a new fucking phone, he didn't even tell me that he made a new 1 year contract, I just got a message from my phone company that I got free data and calls for a year. He explained why and at forst he didn't insist on me having to pay anything so I was fine with it.
Few months back he got me via a sob story how he doesn't have money and is in debt so if I could help him pay off the bill. I said sure since I still considered him a friend/family and we talked like once every few weeks where he would check on me etc and all was well.
Skip to a few weeks ago he told me he was getting more serious with his current gf (who knew we were talking and was fine with it) so "we'd probably only hear from each other during holidays, bit I still care about you and if you want to talk or need anything just message me!" and I didn't think much of it except he started to "stonewall" me. I even told him that my dad passed away and he gave me the most robotic response ever, didn't even ask how I was or ANYTHING.
Found out via IG that he recently had a custom made kitchen delivered to his in progress apartment and that he booked an expensive holiday resort place. So obvioulsy he's not that much in debt as he claimed or he played me.
I feel like such a fucking idiot for ever considering him family and letting him take advantage of me like that. I know I only have myself to blame but holy fuck was I stupid. He's not getting any money from me anymore. Holy shit I could've saved up so much. I'm so fucking angry.
Lesson learned and I hope he doesn't fucking DARE to contact me about payment. If you have money for a new kitchen in a new apartment while living at your current gfs house then you have enough fucking money to pay the bill.