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Migraine is killing me latest few days, painkillers dont help anymore, this is the worst. If any of you have any advice I'm willing to do anything
this is a really weird fix ive done before, and depending on what kind of migraines you get it may or not work.> When caffeine is added to the combination of acetaminophen and aspirin, the pain relieving effect is increased by 40%.
medications for migraines often include caffeine, for any warnings of how you can use this method in moderation I'd suggest researching this. It personally worked for me.> Vincent Martin, co-director of the Headache and Facial Pain Center at UC Gardner Neuroscience Institute, said that people with a history of migraines should limit caffeine intake to no more than 400 mg daily.
Stay within the 100-200mg range.
100mg is half a monster energy can for reference. 200mg is half a cup of coffee.
I'm sorry if this is long, ik it can be rough to read long ass shit with migraines. just click the links for a more simplified explanation. Sorry if this doesn't help, it's worth a shot.
I am so tired of being gaslighted and dismissed whenever I try and speak up about my past abusive relationship. Even people who know my ex and know he's an asshole do this. It boggles my fucking mind. It's hard not to be paranoid that there's just something about me as a person, or something about my personality that makes people assume I'm either exaggerating things, or that I'm just not the type of person gets abused. I've been told every shitty insensitive thing in the book whenever I speak up about it. "It sounds like you two just weren't compatible," "you guys will smooth things over and go back to being great friends in no time," "you shouldn't let someone else affect you so deeply," "maybe you should have just accepted him for who he was and tried to change your own attitude," "you shouldn't be so hateful," "have you tried practicing gratitude?" or anything to the affect of "pull yourself up by your bootstraps and get over." Eat shit. It's not exactly easy to leave someone when they isolate you from your friends and family, coerce you into moving halfway across the country where you don't know anyone and have to depend on them almost entirely, and spend the next six years emotionally abusing you so severely on a daily basis that you become a literal shell of a person and no longer know up from down. Like, yes, he doesn't have this amount of power over me anymore, but it still hurts. This isn't the kind of thing you just "get over." This asshole preyed on me and nothing I did was going to change things. Nothing is going to change the fact that this happened to me and that I have literal PTSD as a result of it. Like, do I really need a doctor's note stating this in order to get a fucking ounce of sympathy from people who are supposedly my friends?
Anon,what souped up coffees are you drinking for half a cup to be 200mg?
To other anon with the pcos period shittery that started a low starch diet, hope you're still here.https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC1334192/
Same anon, and no one will ever fully believe us. The only people that believe (and truly only ever matter) is my current boyfriend and my family. All of which have witnessed my panic attacks at banging on the door, fireworks and blocked calls, which all ended in me being a blubbering crying mess and hiding beside the bed. Thankfully I've had a lot of therapy and time and beefed up on security. But it still amazed me the people that would laugh or play it off when I told them "Yes my ex held a gun to my chest and threatened to kill us both" as if it's so hard to believe that could happen to me.
So I stopped telling people. What are they gonna do for us anyway? They wouldn't understand unless it happened to them.
>>670272>But it still amazed me the people that would laugh or play it off when I told them "Yes my ex held a gun to my chest and threatened to kill us both" as if it's so hard to believe that could happen to me.
Jesus, I'm so sorry anon. That makes me feel even worse about my own prospects, considering my ex never physically harmed me or threatened to. My relationship was just very severely emotionally and financially abusive
, which are forms of abuse that apparently don't even exist according to the general public.
I'm glad your current bf and his family at least believe you. My bf does, but his family doesn't. They're actually some of the people I was talking about in my post who are saying shitty things/assuming things weren't that bad and I just need to stop letting it affect me so heavily. It makes me scared that he's going to stop believing me at some point too, since nobody else in our support circle does.
This is so dumb. Like, I get the idea of not letting the abuser
see that they've affected you (ie: "grey rocking") if you're still in contact with them for any reason, because many of them do get off on knowing that they've hurt you, but the idea that someone can just let something stop affecting them, or that the fact that they're still hurting means they've somehow failed in their recovery, is fucking ludicrous and short-sighted. That's not how trauma works.
Yep. I wish I wasn't so fucked up that other people's trauma didn't trigger
me, because I pretty much exclusively only trust people who have been through similarly abusive
relationships at this point.
I wonder if there's going to be a generation of boys raised to do chores correctly like girls are just because of the bullshit their mothers in my generation experienced from picking up after men?
I hate that while my boyfriend generally keeps up with chores without me having to ask, he still fucking sucks at doing them. Not even because he's doing it on purpose, he just doesn't realize methodology and details cause he's never been conditioned and trained for it. Because he wasn't raised being nagged, shamed, guilted, and disciplined for not doing chores correctly like I was. For example he's good about doing dishes and throwing out the nasty shit in the drain, but terrible at loading the dishwasher and skipping over real nasty stuff if he's gotta manually wash a pan.
My dad is even worse. My dad just doesn't do any chores period and feels he doesn't have to because he works (as if women don't). My retarded ass pickme mother acted like his maid for years and never demanded domestic shit from him. What little she did was always met with his indignation, and he'd often stall out until she did it anyway. Meanwhile she screamed and yelled at me to do his adult's share of the work cause I was the other female in the house when we all lived together. I hate her, and I hate how I was her backup maid and therapist for years for hearing her bitch to me about this useless man without ever making ultimatums for him or just leaving him altogether. Some fucking good that did us all! It's poetic justice that he wound up cheating on her with "fun" younger women, because obviously it doesn't pay to be a pandering miserable cunt that grooms her daughter into almost being the same way because she's too scared to set men straight.
I swear if I ever had a child and it was a boy I'd make his ass fucking useful and make sure he can scrub a god damn pot. If he turned out straight and treated his girlfriends shitty, I'd make him ashamed of himself. If my husband doesn't do a chore then I'm not gonna pick up his slack. And if the useless bastard continues then I'd fucking leave him. Of course men from generations past never changed cause there were never any consequences.
My relationship is going great so far and there's no signs of us breaking up but I sincerely think if it doesn't work out I'll never be able to find someone who can live up to my current partner. I'll probably still be able to be fulfilled by friendships and self-love/improvment but it's still sad to think about.>>670317
a hug for you and a good tug on the windpipe for the pickmes, reading this made me livid
said sounds like a good idea, if they're doing so well they don't need mommy wife to arrange things for them
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The tumblrites/twitterfags sperging about male privilege in the confession thread gave me aids. Excessive buzzwords hold no weight here.
I’ve learned to recognize people like you. At some point I just want to say “hope you don’t but it’s your life”. If you truly do not wish to outlive your pain then you should have the right to end it. But of course you lot would just take this as affirmation that no one loves me :( and get triggered
harder. Why you make it sound like a bad thing that people eventually move on from deaths. Would you not kys if someone can convince you that they’ll die without you? If you actually want to be left alone so much then why made your suicidal woes known as to bait others into reaching out, just so you can push them away. Sorry most normal people aren’t trained therapists who know exactly what will appease your warped brain. BPD behavior tbh.
Serious question: What would you want someone to say to you?
Somehow I think if they said nothing, you'd take it the wrong way since you're in a state to be telling them about your ideations in the first place. You want them to say something, but what is the right thing to say?
Thank you, it does help.>>670473
Holy speculations batman. I can't tell if you're intentionally trying to be cruel or are triggered
yourself and lashing out impulsively because I remind you of someone who upset you once. Either way, none of this is accurate. I'm posting anonymously on a vent thread about a thing I was pissed off about in the moment. I'm not "baiting" people into responding and wasn't even necessarily expecting anyone to respond.>>670487
I'm not sure tbh. As long as they don't make their feelings the focus of their supposed support and actually acknowledge that I'm in pain, I'd probably feel better. I very rarely even tell people I'm close with that I have suicidal thoughts because I'm pretty sure they either would be too uncomfortable to react at all, or would somehow spin it to put the focus on them. I get suicidal usually if I'm isolated for too long and not speaking to anyone, and I have a hard time reaching out to people. Someone offering to spend some time with me would probably make me feel better than any words could.
Not a guilt trip, this is fact. People don't grieve for a month then move on. Especially after suicide. Have you ever lost anyone? Did you think about them for a month and then stopped thinking about them?
At the point of suicide, a person doesn't gaf how their closest friend or family would feel. The pain's so bad you don't think. You just do it. It's not selfish, it's pain that can no longer be tolerated. I get it.
Have you ever tried to deal with your trauma? Have you spoken to professionals? Seen a psychiatrist? Therapist? They don't cure your memories but they help find ways to work through how it's scarred you.
Okay, you just posted this:>I get suicidal usually if I'm isolated for too long and not speaking to anyone, and I have a hard time reaching out to people. Someone offering to spend some time with me would probably make me feel better than any words could.
The upside of being in the system for YEARS is that most of my friends have mental illness and it's easy to open up and tell them how shitty I'm feeling. Really, you need to talk about it or post on a MH forum. Damn, I'd give you my email address if you needed to talk. People care and you'd be surprised once you open up that the person you confide it experiences the same feelings. Yeah, sometimes they want to do a one-upmanship for really fucked reasons, but you just don't speak to them about it again!
Soz if this is long winded and makes no sense. It's almost 4am. Point is, it's not bs that suicide doesn't leave those left behind devastated. It does.
Idk, I want to help because I know how you feel. Really. There are ways to lessen the rawness of your feelings.
That sounds horrible, anon.
I know this is very corny and not meaningful to many people but I'll pray that something turns around for you so you can rest.
I don't know what to do about my narcissistic mom. I have had her number blocked for months and recently unblocked her and saw that she sent me a message saying she had a radiography and they found a shadow on her lungs. She also sent me a list of her friends who are ill or have died. It made me feel really shitty and I know I should call her but the concept of calling her still terrifies me, she always makes me feel like a small, helpless child. I don't see us ever having a normal relationship. I don't have enough love in me to forget and forgive the things she did or said to me>>670517
Anon, I'm really sorry, that sounds terrible. You'll be in my thoughts
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>interview went great
>said they would let me know by Friday
>it's Tuesday afternoon
fucking end it, fuck this year, thought it was all going to come together.
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Why would I make her up? Okay I searched for it again, her name is Hannah Hays and what happened is that she got into a bad car crash which resulted in brain injuries. Here's a link to a post on this site and it has a few links to what she's said. Mentioned her agent tells her to take down posts which reflect negatively on them.https://ovarit.com/o/GenderCritical/5006/is-there-anything-we-can-do-for-hannah-hays
>>670657>"this is a space for female and GNC and nonbinary ppl to discuss fitness!!!!'
It seriously enrages me every time I go on a female oriented sub and it has a big obnoxious disclaimer about accepting trannies pinned to the top. Racism, sexism, homophobia? Who cares? But you better make men feel welcome, otherwise reddit overlords will fucking ban the whole sub! It's even more insulting when it's on subreddits that specifically refer to chromosomes, an obvious attempt by the original creator to distance it from the bedicked.
Which subreddit are you talking about btw? xxfitness? I never noticed that message there if that's what you're referring to, but either way since they're about building muscle, TIMs don't tend to go there. I think they're mostly actual women.
Because some people have to live with you and don't want to clean up after a spoiled man/womanchild? What's there to not get?
My dog is neater than my ex and he's 12 and incontinent.
I hate when men are perfectly capable and aware of how to do chores because they have lived alone for periods of time and managed on their own but as soon as you start dating and move in together they just sit back and stop doing them…. like I know you had to wash shit somehow before I came along. Now you're suddenly blind to any mess that's in front of you?
I swear any future relationships I get into I'm just not moving in together.
I saw how useless men were over the last few years of flatmates and boyfriends, so now my son (15) and I alternate cooking/cleaning duty for dinner and he does his own laundry, as well as knowing how to change a tyre and fix a leaky tap. I'm pretty sure heaps of us are sick of this shit and teaching boys as we speak, so the future will be different.
I wonder if it's enough though. I grew up with a housewife mother who either did everything or outsourced housework so I was like >>670705
as a teen, and yet when I moved out at 18, I just had to figure out how to do chores myself, before youtube even existed. It wasn't really mind boggling stuff so what's stopping men doing that? I wish that was what MGTOW really meant.
noticed, it's more that dudes have learnt they can get chicks to clean up for them. It's learned helplessness of a different kind.
>>670778>No, I don't buy it! Women don't get exploited in porn! It's all a gimmick!
Yeah, you're free to cope or whatever. Just stop randomly telling people about it and acting like it's totally coming from a valid
>>670839 >I live in an area that's gotten raped
Call me triggered
but I hate seeing the word rape used this way. Never been raped so I'm not even sure why it bothers me so much. Am I ok?
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I spend too much time dwelling on the past. I constantly wish I could go back in time and convince myself to do better and stop being lazy.
I'm trying to do things now but sometimes I feel like I'm never gonna catch up.
Holy shit, ew. Clout chasing on Twitch in your 30s is a new circle of hell. Good for you handling it the way you do, I'm sure she hates it, especially since other people do
kiss her ass for it.
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We have a second lockdown in my country, I live with my family because I was abroad before and had to come back after I got really sick for two months and couldn't even go to the doctor because they didn't want to test anyone where I was. It took me months to recover by myself and then I had to get a shitty job I'm overqualified for. Now my family won't stop inviting other family members we don't live with or my little sister's bf despite the lockdown and the fact that it's forbidden.
I told my sister and my mother about it and that it could be dangerous, I don't want to get sick again right after getting my shitty job and they're more fragile than I am and now they're making fun of me saying that they're at THEIR home so they do whatever THEY want, and they legit think I'm severely depressed and I'm a hypochondriac. Even though I was actually sick for two months and had to ruin my plans just to come back home because they all promised they'll be careful and our home will be safe. Fuck them. If they die they die, I'm not calling an ambulance for them.
I don't even get why my retarded sister thinks the lockdown is affecting me that much since I've always been a turbo shut-in while she feels the need to invite her bf to eat fast food of all things. She's so retarded that despite saying I was coming back to our country to JUST recover after making sure I wasn't contagious and to stay safe at home, she still thinks I came back because I had no money left.
lmao no just the channel for this podcast>>671090
some d&d podcast. basic boring stuff
She's been an alcoholic since I was about 8. During lockdown she's been fall-over drunk from 11am, everyone who knows her knows she's been getting worse but she refuses to get treatment (she had a horrid time in rehab for drugs in her early 20s, I think it tainted the place for her). She pushes away everyone except me, and she clings to me relentlessly when she's coherent enough to do so.
I gave her the ultimatum of if she doesn't get sober, I can't visit her when I'm moved out, because it hurts too much to see her killing herself like this. She seemed to take me seriously, apparently she's been in denial that I've noticed her being drunk which is ludicrous but I guess she had to cope somehow.
Most of the people she interacts with are addicts she knows or addicts she sells to (she doesn't do drugs much any more, but her ex is a dealer and her only real sort of friend, so). I don't know how she'll succeed in getting sober with a social group like that, but I also don't know how to get a woman in her mid-50s a brand new group of friends during a national lockdown, really. She's very artistic, so I might try and get her to join an art club type thing (or even teach one!), but… I guess I'm keeping my expectations low so I don't feel totally crushed if she fails again.
Also I know this is more information than you bargained for anon, sorry. It's been building up for a while.>>671146
Thank you so much, anon, I appreciate you loads.
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I'm actually consciously thinking of relapsing back into my ED because my life is getting stressful for reasons out of my control, plus I've been reading /fit/ recently to help me stay in the habit of working out and eating normally, and even though no one on 4chan is worth my time, their insane coomer standards are nevertheless getting to me. I hate my body, I just have nothing I can do about the stressful situations around me, losing weight is the only project I can think of that will make me at least content with existing in the world. I constantly feel like dirt, and there is no future.
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Uh I feel weird posting abt this here but I don't really want to talk to anyone irl so here goes.
Abt a week ago I was at a party and I got pretty drunk. This guy I kind of knew was there, and he ended up coming back to mine. We drank some more, and he kept trying to get me to sleep with him and wouldn't stop going on about it. Eventually I decided I might as well, but he was too drunk to get it up lmao. We ended up just kissing, but he kept trying to choke me. I had to tell him several times to stop, and he only did bc I told him some pretty serious stuff abt my past related to it.
At the time I didn't rly think anything of it, and I saw him a few times after (coincidentally, bc we live pretty close to eachother).
Now though the thought of everything makes me kind of uncomfortable. I don't really know what to think of it all :(
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Where is he, anon?
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my god… anon, location please, we need to cut up that asshole
I don't rly think I'm a victim
bc of it, I think it was just a fucked up situation and the man's a dick, but thank u guys still
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>want something sweet
>bf asks if I want anything from store before he comes home
>"yeah can you get those yogurt covered fruits?"
>bf comes home
>he brought fruit yogurt
He said the fruit candies I ate last time were actually white chocolate covered. Therefore when I said "yogurt covered fruit"………guess I meant "get fruit yogurt."
Either men are retards, or they're purposefully dense in order to save a couple of bucks.
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It is time to annihilate men
its not racebait to be a retard i guess. roaches can stay dorment (hence their indestructability) and stay relatively hidden until something disturbs that. odds are you had roaches, the move is what probably caused them to move too lol. its pretty much impossible to rid housing complexes of bugs, especially when you dont see them until a full disturbance happens and theyre forced to come out and see you.
bugs go where people go, and you are, infact, people.
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This guy I knew in HS is still on my Snapchat. I just now checked it, and it said I got a message from him something like 3 months ago.
My wi-fi was dying, so I switched to mobile data, then went back to Snapchat, and it said the message was received/opened.
It's gnawing at me now. What did he say? I literally have not spoken to him in years.
Should I message him and ask what's up?
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My grandma's friend is over to visit and when I went to say hi to her one of the first things she said was "ew you're so skinny, you'd look a lot better with more weight on". Worst thing is she didn't say it directly to me, she directed it at my grandma like I wasn't even in the room, like I was some spectacle for them to glare at, joking about how if I had a boyfriend he would probably crush me. Like fucking hell thanks a lot, how nice of you. She has always said things like that throughout the years but somehow it still gets to me. Wtf is it with Italian elderly women and making rude unnecessary comments about someone's weight? And to think I was feeling kinda good about myself looking in the mirror an hour before….I wish my self-esteem wasn't so fucking shaky.
God damn it, you're so retarded. >>671444
is right, you dumbass.
Agree, it’s so dumb and so is the feeling of superiority when Western food is objectively worse from a nutritional perspective.
The conditioning is deep though, I couldn’t stomach a non-Western breakfast but I also hate Western breakfast. Usually I just have coffee and I’m starving by lunch which is dumb.
Throw non-Western breakfast ideas at me, anons. I want to try a few because fuck this stupid culture.
I'm really starting to believe straight men can love their friends more then anyone on this planet.
My friend's boyfriend is literally mourning a dead rapper who is said to be a serial killer, like seriously in bed sad as fuck. He missed work, he's writing long ass love letter & shit, even implied HE may find out a way to get the person who killed the dude.
Yet when my friend's dad died he was barely there for her, then whenever his friend call he'll drop anything he's doing, when his girlfriend? 5/10 he may do it.
When a trans women exposed his friend online he was about to beat the fuck out of him for "Disrespecting" his friend, saying it wasn't the truth.
Yet, when some dude from my friend's job was starting rumors because my friend turned him down, he did nothing.
I know this guy is just a shitty boyfriend, but it's something i've been noticing a lot. Straight men act like fucking groupies to each other, I won't even call it gay because gay men don't even share that deep unconditional love that some straight men share with their friends.
It's like a love men ONLY have for each other when they aren't fucking.
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It's sooo easy to make
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So, one of my closest friends is a dude and our main thing to do is play videogames together. He recently got a girlfriend and I’m happy for him, tho he has been absent and I haven’t seen him much at all lately which I understand. There’s a big release coming up that we’re hyped for and planned on playing it together but now apparently he bought a console for his girlfriend and is going to play the new release with her instead.
I get it, he wants to include her in his interests and there’s the honeymoon phase etc etc but fuck man I can’t help feeling hurt over this. Sigh.
Not Italian but my family is the same. My grandma lived through the war and always insists that everyone eats enormous portions of food otherwise they’ll get too skinny. All but a few of her descendants are morbidly obese and even people on the low end of obesity are “skinny” to her. Every time she sees me she tells me I’m sickly thin and about to keel over. She used to pinch me really hard and say that she could feel my bones.
It’s really sad and understandable in a way, but so many of her own children are disabled due to obesity-related conditions so you’d think she would eventually realise there’s a healthy middle ground and eating yourself into a wheelchair isn’t the answer.
But anon, they put sensual, flowery titles on the DP bukkake gangbang videos! Clearly it's meant for us ladies.
Seriously though, they even openly admit they get their videos from the same place everyone does (ChildPornHub et al). Such horseshit.
I don’t think they’re internalising shit they see on here so much as internalising everything negative. Anyone blaming lolcow alone is using it as a cope. So many anons post about their shit lives, scrote boyfriends, major depression - that’s not all down to an imageboard and anyone who thinks it is needs to work on their self awareness
Like yeah if you obsess over your nasolabial folds you probably got it from here but also consider social media and the fact you care so much is probably because your boyfriend cheats and your job is dead end etc
They need to grow a thicker skin all round. It’s shit but that’s life
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>>671582> People crying about how they need a break from here and how it’s becoming toxic for them
THIS! or just take a break, you dont have to announce it, literally no one cares and no one will ever notice. attention seeking on an anonimous imageboard is peak 'tism
>>671588 >I don’t think they’re internalising shit they see on here so much as internalising everything negative
One thing I've always loved on here is people misreading posts in a way where they are just projecting their own existing issues and insecurity onto innocent enough posts. They come here with plenty of issues already and will start shit because they can't even read posts at face value.
Or you make a joke and with the high autism rates on here that gets misread too lol
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I hate being so sensitive to animal Abuse. Its disgusting but finding out about these things ruins my entire fucking day. I really hope this person gets arrested.
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Okay now I’m annoyed bc she said “well you’re so close to my house, you should have just walked over,” how could I have done that if I didn’t know you were awake since you didn’t text me….We were supposed to spend the day together but now I don’t want to.
Don't do it for him. When he's done point out specifically what's still unclean so he can wash them again.
Sorry but taking over for men just teaches them that we're okay with picking up their slack and that they've done enough.
Well you dodged that bullet, he was bound to show his lack of empathy at some point. Better now than later.
Is your back/neck ok?
Imagine living with someone who doesn't give a shit when you get into a car accident. Better to find out now and quickly exit than to end up stuck with his ass and trying to dig your way out.
Hope you're okay, anon.
>>671878 >>Was trying to talk to another girl at least 6 months into our relationship.
This cancels out all of the positives
And I bet he watches porn
>>671878>Generally is selfish in bed. I once cried while giving him a blowjob and he didn't notice. Not his fault I guess.
I remember you posted about this before. This shit gets worse and worse.>He feels bad about it but doesn't do anything even though I communicate with him the best I can.
Lmao, guys like to do this thing where they show guilt and that's all. They don't try to fix anything, they just talk about how bad they feel until you let it go. How long are you going to waste your time like this? "Flirts/flirted with other girls behind my back, lies to me, and is generally an ass, but he likes to cuddle, doesn't treat me like I'm subhuman for having OCD, and washes dishes :')"? Stop this shit.
Women are trained to have minimal (or no) standards so men can have their cake and eat it too. It's so upsetting to watch girls rationalize away the worst behaviors because they think that's "just how guys are" or that they don't deserve better. As if having a few okay qualities makes up for being a lying, cheating, literally filthy coomer.>>671878
Anon, go check out the Reddit sub for FDS. I'm serious. They're overzealous at times but you literally have no standards whatsoever and you don't even see it. Having your views shaken up a bit would help. The things you listed as positives aren't anything special, like that's all basic "decent human being" shit that's also immediately voided due to the fact he's a sex-obsessed liar. Also listing this as a positive>Ghosted the girl he thought he was cheating on me with.
Lmao. Wow what a Prince Charming, bravo.
He has lied to you about multiple crucial things throughout your relationship, you can't trust a word he says. Why are you with a man who actively lies to you? And that's besides the other valid
points anon's (and you self) are making. Trying to talk to another girl 6 months into your relationship is basically unsuccesfull cheating. He is not a 'very sweet guy'.
I mean yeah >Likes to cuddle
Where would you ever find that again… one in a million right there! And he cheats but then stops.. that's another positive
>>671878>Breath can be very not great as he doesn't floss.
This is the most gross part for me good grief. How do anons kiss men whose breath reeks of rotten ass? You know these are the most sociopathic men of all cause they don't think about how their gross mouth is an offense to their partners despite it being the easiest thing to fix.
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I'm never putting my eggs in someone else's basket or relying on anyone for anything again. It's hard for me to accept help from others at all and not feel like a burden, and yet any time I have allowed myself to do so (even during a pandemic) I end up being used or fucked over. I thought this time would be different, but I am in the exact same spot as I was two years ago and now there is a plague going on.
>>671945>he just seemed so genuinely sorry
He's not.>he ended up self harming
Classic manipulation tactic.>I can't help it despite how angry and hurt I feel.
Yes, you can.>He's just been through so much
Highly doubt it. But even if he has, that's no excuse.>I just feel like I deserve it or that I need to tolerate it
No, you don't.
Dump him and get some therapy.
Same, anon. I have went through my puberty without one spot and now, in my late twenties, my skin is a whole mess.
I started using benzonite clay face masks and I feel like it helps, but idk, maybe I am just trying to convince myself.
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Between this post and the one upthread about anon's bf having ass breath because he doesn't floss…
I don't know why you all put up with this shit, honestly.
Have you always been like this or is it related to the current situation?
I barely interact with anyone. I have a couple online friends I message, but I’ve been quieter recently as I’m happiest alone.
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Relating hard to this.
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See? You’re cute.
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I got a raise but I didn't get promoted despite working my ass off. To be fair, I've only been here a year and a half but a few people that all started working at the same time as me got a promotion a while ago. I feel worthless despite being hardworking is one of my traits. I did get a 3% raise but that doesn't feel as great as being promoted. What's a girl gotta fucking do? I want to fast track to success.
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Was listening to a podcast I casually enjoy and one of the male hosts just made a "lol jkr terf" joke. Men are always so happy to take potshots when it lets them show how woque they are about something they barely understand istg.
I had a psychiatrist make up shit to my dad before. I was being discharged from hospital and I had to have a meeting between the psychiatrist, myself and my dad before leaving. She sat there and lied in front of my fucking face and there's nothing you can do in that situation. If you say they're lying you look crazy.
I don't know if they just get really sick of dealing with ill people and turn shitty
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I just realized that my ex boyfriend was actually abusive and groomed me to the point where I almost considered being a trans dude for him. It took me months that it wasn't love and I was just being a retarded simp.
I swear doctors are gaslighting pieces of shit when it comes to mental health. I have similar experiences and blamed myself at first for not being clear. But even when I categorically say “X medication didn’t work at all” they’ll later say “you need to try going on X again because you said it helped at first”
The worst thing was when they discharged me from specialist mental health in the same letter where I was given a specialist mental health diagnosis… what’s the fucking point
And if you pull them up on their shit, they’ll turn it back on you and claim you’re refusing to engage with services. It’s like they’re trying to fuck you up even more to keep themselves in a job
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Anons I am so absolutely tired of this hell. I saw that I had some spam messages (so from a blocked number) I went to delete it but curiosity got the best of me because I read it first and it's a message from this man probably a pedo who I used to talk to every day for months when I was a young kid and he still has my fucking number why won't he leave ne alone, it's worse that I'm pms-ing because I'm crying so bad remembering those times and how innocent and stupid I was and how I thought I loved him, he was twice my age, I hate this. I'm trying to better my damaged brain, why won't this leave me alone? Why won't he leave me alone? What if he still has all those pictures of me? I'm so tired.
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It's a stupid thing to care about but it's so annoying to see girls like sugarf4iry from insta egirls thread on /snow just waste their youth away to pander to degenerates. Physical beauty is not all but it still is a huge advantage to have in the so called "real life", and she - and many other girls like her - could go out there, build a legit career and use their attractivenes networking with people that matter instead; and not even in a "sleep your way to the top" way, but just making friends and connections as it's just a fact that a lot of people are more likely to want to interact with attractive men and women as opposed to unattractive ones.
I guess I'm just ugly and envious, but while I firmly believe it's possible to achieve everything without beauty, it's upsetting to see someone have this advantage I don't and just throw it away.
I had such a bad experience with a psychiatrist claiming that I acted a certain way while in hospital (I didn't and i've also never had mental health issues that cloud my ability to remember) I got out of the hospital and after that I never wanted to engage with help again. I'm a hermit type and too afraid to re-engage with services because despite me being this super-quiet anxious person… Never raised my voice in an argument even, I have this note now in my file making out like I'm explosive? Unless she literally mixed me up with another woman on the ward I don't know how she made that up. >I swear doctors are gaslighting
Thats spot on what I had, walked away scratching my head at what just happened. It's sad that your word means nothing against that of a 'respected psychiatrist'
I have health anxiety and this covid issue is really making me go crazy sometimes. Heart attacks are also a big fear for me, even though I'm young and skinny and have no past history of it.
My jaw and neck are hurting a bit probably because of something tooth related or a muscle strain. But of course when you look online EVERYTHING is a sign of a heart attack. I'm tired ugh…
I don't usually have health anxiety but a few months ago I had a handful of times where laying in bed my heart fluttered and then beat extra hard right after the flutter. One of those times was particularly scary as it lasted longer
Whatever you do don't google that stuff. I did and the results were so mixed that you sit there not knowing whether you're totally normal or about to die. Sorry you're going through that. I know people with that hypochondriac type of anxiety often get laughed at or called attention seeking but it is what it is, anxiety is a bitch, in all its forms.
Thank you for the kind words anon, I have a brother that is a doctor so he's usually the word of reason and helps me haha but yeah, I haven't met anyone that called me an attention seeker (I don't really talk about it with people just quietly panic lol) but I've met people that do not "get it". It's a horrible anxiety and it can really make you lose logical sense sometimes.
I have a friend that started developing health anxiety and he gets me so much now when before he probably saw me as a bit ridiculous. I guess its one of those things you have to experience to really grasp.
It's not the case, being pretty just makes you confident because… well, there's fewer things you'd be insecure about.
I know several gorgeous women who have a resting bitch face or an autistic hobby and they don't even have many friends, let alone being invited places. Likewise, I know some women who are objectively not that good looking but they're outgoing and charming so people love them.
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When I get old, I just want to die peacefully. I don't know why elderly people put themselves through treatment to prolong very painful, unfulfilling, and difficult lives when they're in their mid-70s to 80+. I would simply pass away. I try to maintain my health so that my body doesn't deteriorate prematurely, but once it does start its natural shut down, so be it.
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I wish my husband would stop relying on me to find a boyfriend for him. His type isn’t mine and I can’t play bait because of his sexual preference in the matter. I am a girl after all. It’s impossible.
My husband is bisexual. He decided he wanted to go the poly route so he could have male attention without feeling guilty. We talked and set boundaries, I’m not the jealous type and am very open anyway so it’s cool with me. The problem is he wants my help in finding a boyfriend. He wants me to do all the talking because he has social interaction problems. I can’t do that though. I am a girl. So it gets tiresome. >>672736
Nah. Wish it kinda was though.
Modeling is less than a one in a million chance of being discovered. I forgot the exact number, but my mom quoted it to me as a child. She did modeling and told me what psychological hell it was. She ended up not getting her contract renewed because they "found prettier." Even the most beautiful woman is made to feel horrendous on the job to encourage weightloss and competition against each other.
I see beautiful people on the street who live ordinary lives. You are amping it more than what it actually is because the media makes us all believe beauty is a criteria to be a worthy person OR to live an easy life because of celebrity status. Those Hollywood and Insta celebs like the Kardashians paid heavily with things like sexual abuse.
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>look for easy recipes because I'm lazy
>find one that says ready in 15 minutes
>requires a shitton of food prep
>requires a bunch of pots and pans/mixing bowls/utencils
I just wanna cook something that doesn't require washing dishes for a half hour afterwards.
nah friend, it's not too late.
It's not rare at all that people end up doing great things in their lives and achieve success and happiness even after struggling with major obstacles through their twenties and beyond. With age comes wisdom and prioritization skills, a better ability to cope with mental issues, a stability that lets you flourish even if you feel like you wasted a lot of time.
Consistency in minor improvements, habits and feedback loops will let you move forward. In a year from now you can be in a much better place.
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I got back into sports because no one gives a fuck about cowona anymore, and fuck I fucking hate being a woman, I hate this stupid weak body, I hate not being able to be as good as men who train half of what I do, Pregnancy disgusts me, I can’t find a single good thing about being a woman, Biology is unbearably cruel.
>>672975>Mother nature needs us and men are expendable, that's just facts.
Sigh, that always also makes me sad, the good thing about women is always uwu giving birth and life, and I loathe anything having to do with motherhood.
Also I have pretty shitty health and not the most spectacular life expectancy so I was dealt a bad hand with physicality in general, I think im just angry that if I was a man if I was as fit as I am it would make up for it but as a woman I have to exercise and be a health nut just to not feel like im rotting from the inside.
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My mom has scoliosis, chronic pain, untreated depression/ocd, obesity, a big smoking addiction, is probably malnourished, is losing movility and doesn't want help
And I try to be there for her as much as she lets me but she doesn't really let me. She wants to do everything alone and still treats me like a child. She feels like she wants to die soon too, she's almost 60 and didn't want to live this long. One time she even told me she "learnt to be suicidal" from me attempting to kill myself multiple times as a teen.
I try to be a good kind daughter but idk, there's days when her being super sick is grating to me. And I can't just say this to anyone because they wouldn't understand, she's always suffering and seeing her suffering makes me anxious. She always has something to complain about too, be politics, her job as a teacher, her coworkers, politicians, anything she sees on tv, etc.
It's hard to live with sick parents. My dad was super sick too and died 4 years ago after 8+ years of him needing special medical care (complicated diabetes, then dialysis). He was abusive but like, still, I felt bad for him at the time.
Having two sick parents as a teen and young adult isn't fun. Please if your parents are healthy and treat you well, please, try appreciate them.
I'm just stressed out, my mom stresses me out, it stresses me out that 80% of what she talks about is some gossip, complaining, or judging people. Never realised this wasn't normal behaivor in someone until now.
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I wish my mom let my brother go 4 years ago when he wanted to move out instead of crying and throwing herself on the floor, begging him not to go. My brother is abusive towards me and here he is, still being an asshole and yelling at both of us
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Should I ghost my ex gf? she's is still a nice girl. But she's so dismissive and I hate her tone of voice. I feel like a bpdfag because I really don't feel as comfy with her and she ends the calls sooner and distracts herself with other things when we call but she still cares about me, she gave me a big sum of money the other day but like otherwise idk. I'm sorry for venting about this
My scale is slightly physically broken. A small part of one of the sensors on the back came off, and the number changes depending on what tile I weigh on. Can't buy a new one right now.
I know I can't fully trust the numbers, but do they work as an approximation? Like, if I count calories, fast and see the number going down week by week, should I take it into stock, or is it all pointless? If I get three specific numbers consistently, should I just estimate my weight as being somewhere in the middle, or take the lowest one?
Someone who's like 70kg can't get 50kg, even on a broken scale, and the same is true the other way around, right? This shit is doing my head in. Help.
Extremely stupid rant incoming but god, this dude. We've been talking for like a while I guess, met twice but then he got busy with exams and stuff and p.s he is definitely gonna fail, he doesn't study, says he can't, for the past 2 weeks all we've talked about are his exams but it's fine tbh, since that is something stressing him out currently. Today we were talking and he asked me a question, I answered and he proceeded to ignore what I said and talked about himself relating to the question he asked, well okay maybe it was something he wanted to talk about. Then after he is done asks a question again, I answer it and my answer is ignored again so he can tell a long story answering his question. I am really stupid, yes, because I got annoyed. I feel like I am only there for him to talk at, not talk to. It's not only this incident. Like I ask him about himself, questions and stuff and he never bothers to ask how I've been or anything. I mean, clearly not a good sign that I'm already getting annoyed by him. Maybe I should tell him about this trait of his? But what if he takes it badly?
>>673071>Do you even really like this guy?
Okay, well, I'll be honest, I'm not that sure. I mean, he doesn't seem bad, he is good, but am I attracted to him? I'm not sure. I downloaded a dating app a while ago while I was crying on my bathroom floor, idk, weird episodes. Anyways, he added him on other places and have since deleted the app. He is really nice so I was thinking to like, give dating a chance finally? Maybe I could like him after a while? After this current exam thing is over? I sound so retarded, but I hate confrontation. I think I will do what you say and just wait till the exams are done and see what's up. Talk to him about his lack of willingness to know about me.
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Having a DAP is no joke. It kills any crumb of confidence I can get my hands on. I barely even feel clit stimulation and have to fucking smash it around to feel even something faintly pleasurable. I'm not even sure I have a clit.
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My first ex gf ever was (and still is) a husbandofag that loves yaoi and nowadays she's into BTS and any flavor of the month anime and calls herself asexual and genderfluid even though she's clearly straight or bi. This is why I can't take yaoi seriously anymore, it rots brains. And this is also why I avoid anything that looks like it has boring and shitty bishonenuwu characters like these.
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samefag but this is an example of how husbandos and shit are already used tooooo much in media to sell and consoom shit. Disney made a bishonen dating simulator because of course, they need money from the girls who can't get off to anything but 2D. These character designs are so boring, bland, and samey. Even some fire emblen characters have more flare than this, lol.
>>673091>This is why I can't take yaoi seriously anymore
Yaoi was never meant to be taken seriously, it's just a genre that your average fan read or create for fun, it's not that deep. If anything, taking it and its western, Americanized fandom too seriously creates people like your friend.
>Even some fire emblen characters have more flare than this, lol.
Depending on which Fire Emblem game you're talking about I'll have to judge you. If anything I think for this game the main appeal isn't "ooh look at these pretty boys, please download our game!!" but "ooh look at all these Disney movie references, pls download our game!", kind of like Kingdom Hearts.
sorry, I meant to say "anyone who is into yaoi"
And I'm not just saying casual fans, but extreme hardcore fans as well. Idc
>>673214 > live in a small town > I don't have a car I have to walk 40 minutes
Living in a similar situation and covid temporarily shut down certain shops giving me some a simularly shitty moment of needing things and having an uncomfortable walk (in the lashing rain) to get them, only to find out the shops that were open were operating with new 'priority elderly hours' so they wouldn't let me in lol.
I feel your pain. Treat yourself to choc or something nice to have to when you get back home and put your feet up.
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>>673266> only to find out the shops that were open were operating with new 'priority elderly hours'
Yeah, that too. Sometimes even double checking on sites isn't reliable so it can be a hit or miss but it sucks when you urgently need something or the conditions aren't great.
> Treat yourself to choc or something nice to have to when you get back home and put your feet up.
Yup, I'm binging on some raw choco bars. It helps a little but I'll take anything I can get. Thanks anon! I hope you have a nice weekend.
So thankful I live alone
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Admittedly a little bothered that my bf didn't want to start a guild with me in FFXIV. The truth is we used to be on a discord server with a bunch of people. He knew them for a few years. I joined and it was awesome, but at the same time I never fit in and since I was a newb at the game, I couldn't really do all the fun stuff with them. He hasn't played with them in 2 years and when we just started back up again, I got excited with the idea of making our own Guild but he declined and said he wanted to stick in that group. For fucking what? you havent played with them in 2 years and you never even talk to them anymore or chat with them…. what would be the point? they havent reached out to you…
at the same time, I guess I get it. if he left there could probably be some tension there and he might still want to play with them. I'm just a little sad. I stopped playing this game because I felt lonely, he was always playing with them and I just dont have a high enough level to play with them. I'm at least 3 expansion packs behind everyone. Now I feel the same way, lonely. I don't even really want to play with him anymore because he chose ppl he hasn't talked to in years over me. I get that he has fun memories with them though. guess i'm a little conflicted.
Still, sucks. I joined a fun FC to spite him and told him he's dead to me, game wise (jokingly) but I'm still a lil sad
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I just realized I'll be 25 when I graduate college
God how did I fuck up so badly, I'm going to kill myself
If it makes you feel any better I never finished high school, live with my parents, sell sports goods for a living at a dead end job and am 26 and a half
really am gonna kill myself one of these days
I'm 29, intended to finish high school this year and get in college next year but covid messed up everything.
If I'm able to get in college by 2022 or 2023 I'll be over 35 when I graduate. Nothing wrong with that.
Reminds me of when I said I wouldn't date bi guys and some anons said it was wrong.
Now you cunts can see why as an example
My ex had slept with a couple guys before, wouldn't bother me too much if he was strictly a top… but he wanted his ass played with. He felt deprived without it.
I gave in a couple times thinking I had the right to change my mind and stop doing it at any point. I depriiived him of anal! Dude made out like I was the devil for simply refusing to perform a sex act that mpst women will also refuse. Go fuck other men then
wow didn't know we had people like that on here, usually people 100% understand why women don't want to deal with Bi guys.
I hope you didn't explain urself, I stopped doing that a long time ago, shaming no longer works on me.
I know what I want and what I don't want, I suggest women do the same, date who you want and deny who you want.
I have siblings with established careers and marriages that I am constantly compared to. My parents paid for all of my college and I basically just spat in their faces by failing everything and not graduating on time. I'm just angry at myself for being so chronically inept even after being handed everything, I'm a useless leech. I didn't mean to shit on older anons.>>673429>if youre good looking or have a special talent or charisma
Why would you kick me while I'm down like that kek
I hate "reassure your friends when they ask uwu" culture. Yes, when a friend is having a rough time, reassure them that you're there and that you love them, but if they're constantly asking if they're annoying you, apologizing for existing, or expecting to have access to you 24/7 otherwise you must hate them, it is fucking exhausting. No, I generally don't think you're annoying otherwise we wouldn't be friends, but as soon as you ask, that changes. I don't know why so many people are like this nowadays. If this resonates with you, do yourself and your peers a favor and grow a spine. Please.
I absolutely fucking hate this culture of using your friends as personal nurses or caretakers. You see this shit enabled on social media constantly.>Please keep asking me how I'm doing every day and pleasure reassure me I'm your world, you should absolutely have nothing else occupying your mind than validating my existence uwu>Sometimes I ghost you for three months because I'm too ~anxious~ to reply back and you should just accept me back into your life like nothing happened because that's just how I am!!!>It's veeeeeeeeeery anxiety inducing to not reply to my message in under 5 minutes, please don't do this or you'll trigger a panic attack and send me to the ER because I thought you were ignoring me!! thank you!! uwu >Please listen to my very personal and threatening rants about being suicidal and wanting to self harm, that's your solemn duty as my fwend~>I have the freedom and the god given right to fade every single occasion I want to, if we had plans and I just want to stay at home playing video games then you should be okay with it no matter what! I'm just practicing self care, mind my spoons uwu
All in all everyone should just revolve around you and your needs, you should not have any responsibilities but only rights to demand services from people around you.
Thing is nearly everyone is mentally ill now so I can imagine current teens just using mental illness against each other and nobody being the stable reliable friend anyway
I had depression in my teens and I remember quietly telling my best friend that I was on meds. She had no clue what depression was. Had never heard of it.. that was the early 2000s. How have things changed that much
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Well I guess my weekend is ruined…and semester.
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This has been discussed a million times on this site, and its autistic of me to bring it up again. But it fills me up with rage every time I see someone get mad over BL "misrepresenting gay relationships~" It maybe just me, because I see it everywhere online. Why can't they let women enjoy harmless things like these? All I wanted to do was see some cute animu bishies together and I suddenly see stupid articles about how awwwful it is for this genre to misrepresent gay relationships!!! and how it should be corrected so gay men will rElAtE better!!! It's just oooh sooo terrible!!! How daaare women enjoy these things!??? How daaare they fetishize US???
It just makes me so mad. There are worse things happening to women everyday and they wouldn't let us have this one thing but all I see are retarded articles like those. Why won't the world let women enjoy harmless things? It's probably cos I'm on my period but seeing another one of those triggered me and I just had to let out my rage.
BL used to be consumed by fakebois but the modern fakebois are aware of that so they pretend to be all woke about it so no one will think they are fakebois.
Of course, real gay men have never cared about the issue at all.
The gay men i known dont give a shit or they enjoy it too maybe it's me not having social media but avoiding those people and remembering it's a small percent who give a shit will help
I think about the opposite where some day I want to marry another woman and god the thought of some dates turning out to be coomer straight men that want to get into lesbians pants scares the fuck out of me. Somehow it's fine for men to show off their lesbian porn then they to become it but when a woman enjoys two men in media may god have mercy on her soul.
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i was looking at a picture of myself from a year ago compared to now and it ive notably aged, ive been taking adderall for 6 months now and have been really stressed lately which explains it but damn. im really sad about this, i dont know if bringing this up with my psych is stupid because of how vain i sound but its really getting to me
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My boss gave me the silent treatment all day yesterday after I openly disagreed with him and called him out on providing incorrect information during a morning meeting. Despite one instance when he was trying to make a show out of attempting to ask my coworkers for help with things that are in my department (so he only got them looking all ??? as a response so he just quietly shuffled back to his office) it was honestly the calmest and most relaxing day we've had in the office since he started.
He has been acting like a fat bully ever since he started four months ago, the others hate him and occasionally dares to say no to him but I am the only one willing to argue back or put my foot down when he is being an ass.
is this making fun of >>673720
or something? Weird.
No I’m dunk and I’m miserable so I just stock took 2 shots of Swedish vodka and 6-7 shots at of body vodka and tow 2 modelo beers… I never felt so happy I was flying last n like a raven …..,.,,
I don’t wanna be drunkjkk anymore I don’t want to go to the internet anymore because I don’t know what if I don’t want to go back to sleep I just hope I don’t feel like I don’t want to get up and get a hold of you myself
That's what you get for having the society consistently shaming women for harboring interests men don't find attractive. Starting from boy bands to YA fiction, everything (especially young) women consume is relentlessly nitpicked, hated, policed and overanalyzed while young men get to keep their absolute trash of entertainment and nobody minds.
In the case of BL fujos have always been looked down upon but now it's just made woke like everything else that has to do something with hating women or their sexual autonomy. Now it's just 10 times worse than before when it was mostly homophobic dudebros going "eeeww homos are nasty", now we have young girls trooning out after swallowing these narrative pills.>Hmm, I really like this genre made by women for women that allows me to explore my sexuality in a safe environment without my gender being objectified or sexualized, instead replaced by characters that follow the concept of men but have a female-coded nature so there's a right amount of detachment from my own persona. But I'm not an evil fetishizing straight racist Karen fujoshi, so this must mean I'm really a gay man who's also obligated to shame all the other fujos to keep my head above the water!
What's really frustrating is that during the decades BL advanced from the "seme meets uke" setting to become a large genre with complex stories and character types yet people still judge it based on tired stereotypes. Meanwhile yuri is still about cute high school girls doing cute things and playfully groping each other but for some mysterious reason it's never targeted as hard. It's because it's predominantly enjoyed by men.
Like other anons said, I have never in my life seen a cis gay man give a fuck about the BL discourse. The gay men (not Aidens) I know are the thirstiest fucking fudanshis I've ever met and like their garbage anime porn even more degenerate than I do.
Sort of, but he would get in trouble with the union for a number of reasons if he did and the company is already bleeding employees at the moment because of his behavior and dishonesty. I'm already looking for a new job anyway and have a couple of interviews lined up, of course it is not a guarantee that I'll get those though (so wish me luck).
Some employees have started speculating that he might be trying to push us that have been in the company for a long time to quit by treating us like shit, putting three times as much pressure on us until we pretty much break mentally, or trying to push shit jobs at ungodly hours without any warnings. It's easier to have us go by ourselves than getting into even more trouble with the union than the company already is at the moment, and thus also gives them a good reason to hire people that don't know better and agree to lower pay.
The whole company went to shit after they kicked the old boss, while he admittedly was pretty bad at making good economic deals he was still someone that would make you aware of your worth in the company and made everyone feel like a team. Now we don't even have time to eat lunch and watch the boss go out for a 1-hour lunch with his wife.
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godspeed ricky powers, let us know if you're alive in the morning
YES! I hope this isn't taken as racebait, but sometimes I feel like black men feel like they are exempt from taking responsibility. It baffles me because, so many of us were raised by single mothers. How can you feel like your own mother made bad decisions because your dad didn't stick around? And then these boys grow up to become deadbeat daddies themselves knowing how much their mothers struggled. A never-ending cycle.
I also think part of this has to do with mothers coddling their sons and encouraging them to be reckless, while the girls are kept on a tight leash and expected to pick up their slack.
>>673894>> Women should choose better
I love when women actually stick around and spend their lives raising and caring for kids and the excuse that makes up for a totally absent dad is the above. She doesn't even get 40 or 50 percent of the blame in creating the situation, all blame is dumped on the woman. The selfish fuck who lives every day as a deadbeat with no conscience gets off cause 'well what did you expect?' Talk about misplaced anger.
I'm childless but I've certainly found myself sucked in by men putting on an act in the beginning. I have signed leases I regretted, I had shared pets that were then dumped on me. Thank god I never got pregnant before their mask slipped.
I hate the "women choose badly" stuff! No women gets punched in the face and then goes out with the guy that punched her because she loves a bad boy.
The worst men wait until they think you're trapped before the insidious things start to show. That might be when you're finances are tied up with his, when you live together, when you're married, when you have kids, etc.
And honestly, rather make a bad choice than BE the bad choice.
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Yes haha. Him and his overfilled bee-stung face get on my nerves.
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Literally anything to do with pregnancy and children is considered entirely the woman's responsibility. Men get pretty much no stigma for getting a woman pregnant or leaving the kid. If the kid turns out crazy, you can guarantee the wiki page for him and his psychotic rampage are going to include something about how his mom didn't love him enough kek.
There's no way to escape the stigma. If you're a single mom, you're a burden on society damaging your children. If you have an abortion, you're a baby killer. If you don't have kids, you're selfish.
by this post I don't mean to say that Black men=bad
Rather the lower economic situations many black men are stuck in
>>673899> I love when women actually stick around and spend their lives raising and caring for kids and the excuse that makes up for a totally absent dad is the above
Nayrt but I agree, it’s like these people live in opposite land. These deadbeat dads doing fuck all and you want to have a pop at the women actually raising the kids, being on duty 24/7, cleaning up their sick and shit for years, trying to do the best by them? The mental gymnastics involved in that thought process, kek.
That being said, I have no idea how sexism against women even came to exist. A person can grow and push a whole human being out and you don’t think they’re basically a demi god? I wouldn’t want to be fucking with someone with such power.
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I don't know how much of this has been researched further, but according to this dude we had quite the stellar history working. Looks like religion fucked us for the most part, and likely gay men masquerading as hets with a hateboner for women (King James). Picrel.https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC1694293/?page=1
Despite all my rage, this will still be a post I must sage.
I understand how you feel, but just know you're not alone and that it will end eventually. My guess is that things will start going back to normal halfway through next year, if not earlier. It's really dependent on how much people (cough
burgers) insist on fucking things up for themselves.
Girl, what are you even doing? Just make them some fucking soap in a thriftstore crockpot and call it a day.
Anon, can your parents or other family members put in a good word for you somewhere?
Failing that, maybe apply to do volunteer stuff in other places. You can't be turned away from every
Lastly, If your parents can afford you being this way, maybe you shouldn't be stressed about it. It's not as if you're depressed on purpose. If you can survive this way, don't beat yourself up.
I've been on the other side of this. It driving my first love away. In hindsight it needed to happen > they're not going to heal unless they want to
Having had 6 or 7 seperate long rounds of therapy spread over 20 years my experience is that you're opening pandoras box and you get worse and worse before you get even slightly better. Deciding to heal.. is when shit hits the fan tbh. Then the timeframe for healing is years with no end point because it's never fully resolved.
You're certainly not garbage. There are men out there who specifically target abused women to date and take advantage of and those are garbage people. You're going through all these emotions in response to seeing them in pain… you're a decent person. You'll probably ideally need some therapy yourself when you move on. It's time to look after yourself and your own wellbeing here. The reality of that situation is that it's like trying to fill a bottomless pit.
Some anons on here put so much trust into one job application, lol. I have a sister and a couple friends who announce on Facebook every time they send a single application I just have to laugh because I know they're most likely not gonna get the position.
I'm so used to applying to like 10 places a week like it's nothing. Given the commute time I gave myself was an hour away from home, sometimes working in your city isn't the best option.
I'm in the same situation as you right now. We've talked a couple times about her speaking with a therapist, but I think she knows how painful and messy that's going to be and is putting it off. We both have a habit of pushing everything down and never acknowledging bad emotions until it's too late and everything comes out at once, and I'm worried what will happen if she keeps putting off her healing. It's not driving us apart by any means, but it hurts to watch. It affects our love life, it leads to seemingly random panic attacks and depressive episodes, there's memory gaps, triggers
that we don't even realize are triggers
until it's too late. I can't help but feel like a failure for not helping her more.>>674061
All my care and support to you anon, I hope your healing process has gotten less painful with time. Do you have any advice for someone who loves someone is afraid to start therapy? I don't know where being supportive crosses the line into being pushy, I just love her so much and want to see her start feeling better and less afraid.
Thank you anon you're gonna make me cry
You're right, I hate to see him hurting and I just wish there was a magic button I could press to take it all away. Knowing that there's no such thing makes me feel so helpless…>>674074
I know what you mean by it hurting to watch. I think the most heartbreaking thing was seeing the person I love crying and shaking, and instinctively going to touch his arm to provide some comfort, but being told to please not to, not right now.
My bf is in therapy atm, and it seems to be helping. It took both of us reaching our breaking point for him to realize that if he didn't do something I would have to leave for my own sake. If it gets that bad with your s/o, I think it's important to remember that you can encourage someone to get help, but you can't force them. And when reading about this kind of trauma specifically, advice I found mentioned the importance of not pushing. I think what that means is, if you're at your breaking point it's fine to tell your s/o that if they don't get help you can't stay. But you have to mean it, if they're not ready or willing then you can't force it, and have to be ready to actually end things for your own sake. Idk if that helps, hopefully other anon can give you better advice
Drunk anon/Ricky Powers is back yo,
My head hurts and is spinning, my cramps won’t leave me alone, I have to pee and throw up - I think but am too lazy and just wanna go back to sleep….
I went through this too. I feel like there aren’t as many resources for partners of people who have been sexually assaulted, because rightly the focus is often on them healing the trauma. But it does
affect the partner as well, and it can be super confusing and difficult to know how to be there for them and to continually remind yourself that their reactions aren’t a reflection of you. You end up feeling so unloved and unimportant. Not to mention the guilt for wanting to be sexual with them without retraumatizing them, and never wanting to remind them of what they’ve been through.
Everyone heals on their own time obviously, but I can at least say that for us, sex felt good and normal within a year and a half. It’s not a long time in the scheme of things but it felt pretty miserable getting through it. Things definitely became easier once he was at least able to talk to me more openly and share what he was going through so I was less likely to blame myself. I hope you both come out of this stronger and closer than ever.
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I'm sick since yesterday and god I hate it so much. I woke up on Friday morning when I suddenly got overwhelmed with the worst stomach pain since forever. Shit was so heavy that I was covered in cold sweat within seconds out of pain. Of course I dragged myself to the doctor later that day, got some medicine but I still feel eeeh. God I hate being sick so much. I had some food plans for this weekend but for now I have to live from camomile tea, zwieback and soup ugh
You can get that feeling from high self esteem, aka having a good relationship with yourself.
I do wish I had a friend close enough that you just do everything together by default like in a relationship though, sometimes I feel bad asking less close friends to do things with me if it's not especially convenient or their preference.
She literally said > I feel really lonely sometimes
You're really good at picking up on things anon lol
thank you anon, you guys are making me cry
>Things definitely became easier once he was at least able to talk to me more openly and share what he was going through so I was less likely to blame myself. I hope you both come out of this stronger and closer than ever.
this is where we're at right now. when things first came to light, i was very scared, overwhelmed, and uncertain. but since then he's become a lot more open, about everything, so communication has been a lot better. now we seem to be much closer and i feel a lot more confident in our relationship.
i think i was just beating myself up badly earlier; i had brought up something that bothered me and it triggered
him. which is never the goal, you know? we've talked it out and are okay now. and i feel better. thank you girls
sometimes i really really love this board
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Welcome back anon, glad you didn't died or throw up in your bed.
I've also ranted about child-free people a couple months before, but those people are just so fucking weird. I'm sure the ones irl are cool, but the ones on the internet have this strange, seething hatred for children and parents (especially mothers for some reason?). I've always thought the nicknames they use were incredibly gross.
And I say this as a person who is probably never gonna have kids.
Hi, I just wanted to share a trick that helped me. If you want to be employed no matter the circumstances.
Find an job that you can do, preferably a little bit skilled because obviously entry level are the most competitive. If it's posted by a recruitment agency it'll usually let you know who's responsible for it. Then come up with a question to ask them that's not too stupid. Because at that point you've already made more effort than most. They'll look at your resume, and chances are they'll forward you to the company as a candidate of interest. I got a decent job that way despite no experience or connections because I asked the recruiter a direct, technical question. It sucks because when you don't have those it's so, so hard to get into something.
I'm giving you this advice as someone who had long bouts of inactivity because I got too in my head about applying for jobs, would apply to about 10 in a day then nothing for a month. I agree with the others that 4 in 2 months isn't much, but I really get how daunting it is for someone who just doesn't have that confidence built up.
It's funny with entry level jobs, because it is just a numbers game. Earlier in my life I had to apply to 7 jobs daily, then eventually I guess I just applied to the right place and they called me in and I signed the contract more or less without questioning. It sucks because you don't know what those places are, but they're out there. Just needs to be the right time and place. Good luck.>>674223
I'd love to know a bit more about this. I wouldn't want to be friends with anyone like that.
Don't be ashamed of hating it. We don't need any more people who encourage this shit, especially when it can ruin so many people's lives.
I lost my best friend to this. She went on hormones, chopped off her breasts, and the last time she posted on social media she said she had detransitioned but that she would have to live with the effects of the hormones and mutilation forever. There's nothing you can do for them though, I had to leave my best friend because I knew I couldn't support her decision and I knew she would get angry at me if I tried to change her mind. As much as it hurts, you just have to let them make their own mistakes and distance yourself from them for your own mental health.
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One neighbour keeps throwing wet wipes in the toilet, which keeps overflowing into the main kitchen pipe. My kitchen stinks of sewage sometimes because if it. I use water exclusively from the bathroom, but both my washing machine and dishwasher are connected to the kitchen pipe. The idiot has been confronted multiple times about this and told to dispose only toilet paper, but they keep being an idiot.
I'm exasperated. As if we don't have enough of a health hazard with the virus, I have to think about fecal contamination. I can't with these apes anymore, the morons from the 2nd or 3rd floor that keep throwing out food through their window, the retards two floors above that let their shower leak until it started leaking into my apartment TWICE and the idiots right below them who didn't react either, the inconsiderate twats floor below that keep stinking up the entire block with cooking entrails every day, none of these people are fit for living in a city.
THIS is supposed to be "civilization"? It's still just a bunch of dirty monkeys. Pic related, it's a perfect representation of my neighbours.
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I was talking with my bf about how I love Christmas, and he goes “You’re not even Christian.” I say something like “Christmas doesn’t have to be religious, it’s just tradition for a lot of people these days,” and he replied “That’s sad.” I thought that was stupid but I just shrugged it off. I love him but I really wish he was also an atheist. It honestly does makes me question our future sometimes.
>>674424>unless the christian doesn't really practice
He doesn’t really practice. He never was the type to go to church every Sunday. I really think he’s Christian because he was raised that way and for whatever reason has never questioned his beliefs. I don’t think he’s stupid or anything, but it does make me look down on him a little and I know me saying that to him would offend him..>>674425>he sounds full of himself
Exactly what I thought. I squinted my eyes after he said that just out of confusion and irritation.
As someone who is agnostic, that "well you're not Christian so you can't celebrate Christmas!" thing is so annoying. Let me have fun and eat and shit with my fam.
Celebrate Christmas if you want anon. Yes, it's a religious holiday, but it's also a holiday to enjoy spending time with the people you love. Holidays can have different meanings to everyone. What's sad about that? Besides, if you weren't celebrating Christmas then what else would you even do that day? Even if you do stay at home by yourself, not doing anything special just sounds so depressing.
My mom always threatened to kill herself when I talked about wanting to move out.
She refused to teach me to drive, my stepdad couldn't, we lived so far in the country, we literally did not have neighbors.
I had no friends, my mom always told me no one else's parents loved them, and at sleepovers, all of the children were getting raped one at a time, and none of them new better and that's why they kept going back.
She told me if I ever left her, I would be stolen, raped, and murdered.
Every time I tried to move out, she would threaten to kill herself.
She has gotten crazier and crazier over time.
She had a hysterectomy two years ago and ever since, she's been using it to act even more outrageous.
She's always flapped her hands and screamed and said wildly inappropriate shit, but now it's just fucking constant, it is like living with a furious special needs child.
I am now the biggest loser piece of shit in the world.
I had to quit my glorious job at del taco because my doctors couldn't figure out if I had a brain tumor or if my thyroid problem I can't get anyone to treat has finally gotten out of hand.
I had to quit because I was getting sicker and sicker, I have diabetes too, and my toes had started goign numb and I had some pretty big blind spots in my vision, and my endocrinologist said if I don;t want shit to keep getting worse, I had to get rid of stress.
I knew I couldn't move out. I tried to earlier that year and my mom was screaming that she would kill herself and it was my fault and I don't actually love her and I would leave her alone with my stepdad.
So I quite my job. I never saved any money anyway because she kept taking more the more I made, so I gave up.
This year has been good for me, I've been trapped with her for over a year and now I know that even if every horrible thing she says is true and happens, the other option is to die helpless crushed beneath her.
I don't know what to do now, I won't be bale to get a license until next october because they changed it since I was in high school, you have to have the permit for a full year now
And there's a global pandemic, and I'm not sure which job is least dangerous for a sick piece of shit like me, and who would even take me with a gap in my work history, which was taken for illness, and a GED
I need to get out of here so badly.
I am such a piece of shit.
I have to get out of here.
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Same anon, my mom and I saw this at FiveBelow and bought it
I can deal with the American dub for One Punch Man but only because the plotline is bombastic Power Rangers shit anyway and that's the only place where the over the top American voices make sense and there's not many female characters, which always sound even worse.
Are dubs in other languages this bad?
ESL too and I can't take american anime dubs seriously either, it's always the same five guys in every series, and the delivery and accents are so weird. For some reasons video game dubs tend to be way better (like MGS or FFXII), are anime voice actors so cheap they don't give a fuck?
I don't watch dubs in my language either because it also makes me realize anime autism, but I think it still sounds awkward bad than in english.
Ugh, he sounds just like me, anon. I'm so sorry you're dealing with that. Chances are that he knows exactly what is wrong and is probably literally not able to stop in the mental sense. I'm certain there's something changed emotionally, there's probably some sort of comfort in him eating the way he does that he enjoys.
I know in this situation, the only person that can help the fatso IS the fatso kinda speaking to myself here
, but what are some ways you can help? Here are some ways that I think my boyfriend helps me to be more conscience of what I eat and how much I eat: he suggests cooking more, he makes comments about me spoiling my appetite before dinner and gets me to agree that I don't want to spoil my appetite, suggests snacks I could eat, keeps me distracted by saying he's not hungry yet, etc.
I'm not saying at all that you need to do those things, but they COULD help him. Really though, it is all up to him. for the past few weeks i have been telling myself "today is the day I eat less" and every time, I fail.
My last super suggestion would be to get a digital scale that links to an app. I got one called Renpho and it was like 30 bucks? Maybe? And it links to your phone, gives you a full body scan (allegedly) and tells your your daily weight fluctuations. It has REALLY helped me. I suggest getting one like that and having him SEE the numbers for himself. Because when I saw the numbers, I lost 10 pounds because it's gratifying
to see the numbers dwindle every day and disappointing to see them go up. Everybody always says "oh blah blah blah you shouldnt be obsessed with the numbers". Well the truth is, being conscience (not obsessed) with the numbers is one of the best ways to actually think about weight loss for the better.
(breathes) sorry for the blog
Step one would be being honest with him. If the weight gain isn't affecting your attraction to him at the moment then fine, but you should make a list of how the weight gain seems to have affected and altered his behaviors and overall health.
Sometimes people who struggle with weight assume that others are only concerned for selfish and shallow reasons. Seeing the changes here and there laid out in plain writing can be a serious wake up call for someone who either didn't notice gradually or is in denial.
Imagine the impact of "look how this weight is changing you" versus "look how this weight makes you unattractive." It's a big deal.
If his family is fat then he's probably going to get fat too, anon. I know people can change with a lot of willpower but it usually comes after a scare and a genuine want to change.
Realistically, why would your bf want to change right now? He likes eating to excess and it's clearly not affecting him in a way that matters to him - he's still getting fed, fucked, and financed.
I think decide how much of a deal-breaker him getting fat and unhealthy is to you and tailor your approach accordingly. Be blunt.
For example, if he can't perform because he's too out of shape, then he needs to get back in shape before you let him near you again, that sort of thing. Presumably you take care of yourself, so demand the same of him. Get into a moid mindset.
You can try the whole "let's exercise together!" or "let's go keto together!" thing but truthfully it won't stick unless he's personally committed to it.t. ex fatty
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I really don't want my bf to bring his maladapted cat with him when we move in together. I wish he would just leave the cat with his ex like they're doing with the other (ofc the better behaved and socialized) cat.
The way he talks about the cat fills me with dread that I'm going to be cleaning up and caring after a cat that's never going to display affection and who I didn't even get a say in having. He himself doesn't even like the cat all that much, and says that the cat will be scared of and not like me. Which makes me sad cause animals tend to like me. I worry cause even though I brought up my preference, he says his ex has been withdrawing from the cat cause she's assuming he's gonna take it. Apparently she had some lame cop out about not being able to afford the second cat even though that's bullshit. She's constantly at their old apartment where the cats are, they are her cats, she's just too guilty to adopt the cat out and wants to push it on us rather than admit she raised a cat she doesn't like.
I wanted to adopt a cat when we moved into our place. I haven't had a cat in over a decade since mine died, and my abusive ex threatened to kill me over the cat that I adopted and paid everything for–but even then I didn't get to pick that cat.
I feel sorry for the cat but I'm sick of being expected to be selfless for other people when all I want is a pet that I got to choose. Whose responsibilities of care I actually signed up for because I picked a cat that I liked and got to bond with. I'm so sick of having my choices dictated and predestined. It's not fair. My bf's dumbass solution is to have two cats. Except we're gonna be living in a small ass apartment where two cats will be disgusting and a nightmare to keep clean, and that's even if the cat I adopt would get along with his reclusive hellcat. Maybe if we had a house, but he won't get his shit together for that anytime soon. I know this doesn't seem like a big issue but it is to me, and I want to fucking lose it cause I feel my happiness is being sabotaged before I even get a chance.
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cried for two hours in front of my co workers. couldnt even make it back on the work floor i was so overcome with anxiety. we are woefully understaffed and i just want to die
Didn't you already post this?
Also what the fuck a Cat is a Cat.
not to be a total catfag, but cats are highly individual. unlike dogs whose temperaments are largely determined by breed, cats personalities are much more randomly determined, so a cat is a cat is a cat really just isn't true. >>674934>I'm so sick of having my choices dictated and predestined.>I'm sick of being expected to be selfless for other people
i empathize with you because i used to feel this way. however, you have more control over the situation than you're currently allowing yourself.
you are forcing yourself to do something you already know you will be unhappy with. why are you making yourself suffer? if your boyfriend is not compromising for you, why are you compromising for him? does he not have friends or family that would take in his cat? if the cats are bonded, the ex should really be taking both or neither. you can be in control of how this situation plays out by being steadfast in your choices.
well I feel like shit, this entire week has felt like a fucking dissociation. I can't tell whether it's my period or actually me becoming a fatty, I've seemingly gained a couple pounds but I feel like a swollen and bloated fuck, like I've gained twenty in my abdomen and my thighs are rubbing together. Is the body dysmorphia back in full swing? Fuck if I know, I'm supposed to be starting new birth control after this cycle hoping it'll help my ungodly back acne. Watched a movie that I wasn't super into with friends and kept talking the whole time, only paid attention because my celebrity crush was in it. I hated the way he was styled but he's literally one of the few things that makes me happy besides my friends. Work has been breaking my back and I feel like I keep having heavy headache spell that lead to me functioning slower and slower. My coworker took over a task for me when I told her I had a blaring migraine and I felt so bad seeing her help me. Nobody seems to really care and I don't care enough to find out what the problem is. I feel like I'm being dragged along by a hair and losing my mind, when nothings changed in my life. I just want to fuck, lose my virginity, then die at this point, living is so monotonous, everything is pointless. My family doesn't care about me and I don't have enough friends to warrant saving my existence ig. I'm at the passive "please let me manifest and get what I want and then I can die happy and sooner rather than later" stage of quarantine acceptance because I would be surprised if I could hold out till February or March if not later for a vaccine without a mental episode or relapse, I'm going to be at the end of my rope
my sister actually did do some awful things to me and I can only ever talk to her in the family groupchat with my dad and her, otherwise I never talk to her on my own unless I'm forced to. I dread her coming back for the holidays from her uni, I wish she'd just stay the fuck away from me, but I have nowhere else I can go when she would be in the same house as me unless I can switch residence for the season, which I doubt. I get this visceral sense of disgust that her sociopathic ass is going to try and egg me on into a fight and I'm not going to deal with anymore wounds caused by this pompous little bitch. I'm the shittiest older sister for not seeing all these years that she was never on my side at all despite us undergoing the same trauma of having shitty parents and shitty life experiences. she let herself become a fucking psycho who only cares about herself and knowingly stomps on other people, she's even worse than our mother because she's 100% aware of what she's doing, when I truly believe my mother is deluded to the point where she believes she's doing good, my sister has no empathy and full awareness of the fact she treads on others to get what she wants. I wish I had someone to confide in but all she does is criticize and mock me. no wonder my friends are my surrogate siblings
taking into consideration and witnessing how continuously horrible my family is the older I get, realizing how they shaped me into the disordered bitch I am, it's such an ugly and harrowing realization to come to, thought at least one of them would be on the right side of things, they're all horrible as it turns out, and they'll only get worse
This is like the 8th fucking post that I've read today about you bitches starting your period.
You made me start mine ten days earlier and it's not appreciated.
Look. You're fine, and there's something in the air. I had a nervous breakdown in the dining room the other day and full on ugly cried half slumped half standing like some kind of troglodyte with bpd because my cat shit on the floor (etc. but no one cares).
I'll make it, you will too. Drink some water.
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Just had to console some crybaby qt emofag who was cutting himself he is sad over his ex. I am so .. idk how to feel? I like him but this mans in love w his ex and I wanna die my heart gets crushed over the fact that he still likes her so much also I like him slightly less cause he sent a pic of his bleeding Wrists prompting me to call right after I told him I was going to bed. I’m still crushing and idk why goddamnit he’s so ethereal To me
Lol my ex was never over his ex when we were together. He could cover my face with whatever he could get his hands on and fuck her through me. Heed this advice however you will.
This site is 18+
Im often conflicted by seeing both sides to similar situations to this. I hate the Oppression Olympics but then I hate people with small problems blowing them out of proportion because they have no bigger problems to compare them to for perspective, usually that's just through them being young and it being their first hurdle.
At the same time I think it's almost a necessary process that yeah teens whine about relatively small problems and then grow into adults with 100 times more stress on their plate and it eventually hits you how much you complained during relatively carefree times of your life. Life throws worse things at you and it gives you perspective that you kinda have to learn through lived experience.
No point bitching at those young people, I remember everything hitting me harder 10/15 years ago
You're making yourself feel bad, and your comfort matters a lot more than the feelings of a groper, a harasser and a manchild.
You gave them a chance but you can't fix these people, please don't go back from your break.
My boyfriend is so clingy and useless, it's getting really annoying.
Even when we're around other people he follows me around like a puppy, whenever I ask him what he wants to do together he always says "I don't know" and just watches me while I do my chores or whatever when I get tired of waiting around for an answer. He doesn't have interests or opinions of his own and just copies whatever he thinks will make him look cool from the internet, or parrots whatever he hears some MGTOW-tier incel say. For this reason he thinks I'm sooooo smart, me, a dumb fucking bitch who doesn't even know what she's saying most of the time.
In the morning he always wants to cuddle, even when it's too warm, and he always pulls me back into bed when I want to get up and be productive. When I don't get up on time he'll start rubbing his dick on my ass in hopes of waking me up with sex even though I told him I don't like it and his breath smells in the morning which turns me off.
He always wants to stay at my place even though there's nothing for him to do here, I live in a tiny studio that's too cramped even for me and I can't study, work or exercise with him around and then I also have to sit around since I can't do my usual stuff.
When I go to the bathroom he sometimes likes to ask me things through the door as I'm taking a shit, I've told him multiple times not to do it and that it's too awkward but he just says 'I dont mind :)' and does it anyway. Plus whenever he's idle with nothing to do he whistles and snaps his fingers and it's driving me fucking nuts.
I just want him out of my apartment, but when I tell him to go home he'll start moping and sadposting how he feels useless and lonely and I'll have to console him and tell him he's handsome and nice. Manchild.
Whenever I feel bad he never comes to console me but instead offers shitty backhanded 'advice' that just makes me feel worse. He also loves to 'listen to my problems' and then only respond with 'hmmmm' and a long stare before turning around to whatever he was doing at the time.
I can't wait to break up with him (after Christmas, he got me an expensive present) but until then I'll just have to seethe quietly. Bet he'll call me an evil bitch and tell his mommy all about what a good doting boyfriend he's been while painting me as a manipulative whore who was just in it because he's a rich, spoiled mama's boy. Must be nice to have everything and be told you're perfect and can do no wrong your whole life.
Men are a meme.
I'm older now and living alone but my dad had a rule that no friends or partners were coming into his house full stop. That and once he's in bed you need to be home and either in bed or being quiet in your room.
Both my brother and I moved out at 19, in a way I think he was smart to uh.. encourage us out like that lol. It got both of us out early and independant. Then neither of us ever returned home after any break ups or money problems. Win for dad
I stayed with my shitty ex for 6 months too long because he paid the rent so I was getting to put money away every month…it felt like too good of a deal to give up. Looking back…. I can always earn more money, I can't get that time back. I can't forget how infuriating he was to be with.
You are kidding yourself if you think it's worth it
Normally I'd agree, but his family insulted me on a racial basis back when I did
still like him and I hadn't done anything to warrant it, this way I'll at least get a nice coat for my suffering.
The sooner Christmas comes, the lonelier I feel.
I am half of the world away from my family, and its my first year of actually living without them being around. No matter how good relationships I have with my s/o's parents, I still obviously know thaf I will not be considered something as close as an actual family member to them anytime soon, after all I am only his wife. I always do my best to make sure everythings okay, I clean our house on daily basics no matter of how tired I feel (I am the only one who does that), taking care of clothes, while also always making sure his wonderful family knows that I am there for them, so whenever they need help with something, his mother always shyly asks to. But there is still one family member who can't stand me, even though i did nothing wrong. They hate me because they are a hysterical, spoiled person who is about to reach 30s that never had a job in their life. They always make sure I will feel as lonely as possible whenever they are on a meetup with us. They always throw tantrums and talk pasive aggressively towards me. It makes me feel horrible all the time because I cannot talk to anyone about it but my own family, to whom I talk only once or twice a week. But it still doesn't feel the same. On top of that my family are having health issues, my sibling needs surgery, along with grandpa and coronavirus in their country is going complete downhill. I also couldn't find any friends IRL because of neverending lockdown, let alone job.
I just feel so tired, I do not even feel like buying any Christmas gifts. I miss when times were simpler, I miss my family. It's funny how much I hate my countrys government, but damn, I miss my home's candies and nice New Years food. It sucks feeling so lonely.
I'd do this >>675218
too if I where you. But if you can't, I'd sit it out for a nice coat too ngl. Milk him dry and have no regrets.
Good luck if he hounds you and plays dirty because he's bitter you dumped him right after the coat. Set things in place for your own safety if you can. Will you be reachable after the break up? Does he know where you and relatives live? How well off and connected are his family?
If hes the type to try everything to get revenge on you..then it's a case of stupid games (with crazy men) wins you stupid prizes. He loves mgtow talk… yeah he sounds crazy enough to try everything
Screen = babysitter
I don't know why they can't just put Barney or Daniel Tiger on and instead give them access to YouTube, but that's all it is.
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I've been feeling so hideous. I have fine lines and wrinkles under my eyes from lack of sleep and it's making me consider just donating all my cute clothes. I went through something traumatic that really fucked me up and I haven't slept a good night's sleep in nearly 4 years. I look like a hag and I'm only 24. I wish I could be 18 and young again.
Honestly it's worse than that. Children that age can't properly interpret what's going on on screen. For example there's an experiment where you show a child, a video of someone hiding a teddy in the next room over. Then you bring the child into that room and ask it to find the teddy. Most kids don't know where the teddy is.
Meaning that these people are essentially showing their child uninterpretable nonsense for hours a day and expecting their brain to learn patterns at a normal rate.
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i sometimes consider giving up on life and just taking up a miserable wageslave job. if i do this i'll have money, at least, and maybe even be able to afford my own place (even if i do live paycheck to paycheck).
it's an absolute last resort option though. i mean i go through these extreme periods where i hate myself anyway, for being a NEET leech tbh
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I suspect that my etsy customer is trying to scam me. She ordered something a month ago and although the order should have arrived to her in 3 days(which I told her) she only now decided to contact me(a week after I finally decided to throw out the order number from the post office) that she hasn't received it.
Left a negative review right after sending me the initial message, without giving me the chance to sort anything out and now she proceeds to tell me that she's a single mother of 3 disabled children that just got out of the hospital and that her child spent her birthday money on my order…
like, don't go with all 3 of the sob stories. Choose 1 or else it seems too fake.
Trying to fix it has been so stressful because I don't want to refund the money, as it cost me both time and effort to make the product. But at the same time I know that I sent it out the correct way(checked the address twice and used the office to hand it over at the counter) and the way she's acting is weird, so I'm starting to suspect it's a scam.
I will feel horrible if it turns out that she truly hasn't received it lol
>>675479>the fact that she gave a bad rating and that she told such a story is highly suspicious (really, three disabled children?)
Exactly! I would 100% understand it if she had messaged me earlier and waited for me to respond(even just 2 hours, so that I could get as much info for her as possible), but then the sob stories just kept coming and she got pretty aggressive with me, with comments like "Shame on you for scamming an autistic child with learning difficulties out of her birthday money, that's so low".
Her account is totally blank, with nothing on it. No picture or anything else, no liked content either. This is what set me off, seeing as how she claims she has bought multiple items from etsy because I suggested for her to doublecheck the address(I print mine out instead of handwriting them for this reason).
She said that she contacted etsy support so we'll have to see what they decide on. All I know is that I'm in the right this time and that she's not even looking for a proper solution(besides getting a refund, of course).
Sadly no. I'm new at this and for some reason I thought I could save money by not doing it, which was my only mistake. I thought that bringing it in to the post office and her living near me would lower the chances of anything shady happening. Lesson learned, I guess.
Thankfully there's nothing in the shop that states that I do tracking and I have marked it as not tracked, so at least I didn't lie about it. >>675503
Yeah, I was willing to work with her, but then she started semi-spamming me with messages full of typos, and the initial review just felt forced, if that makes sense. She even lied about me not contacting her, even though I informed her that I sent it off and that it should arrive in 3 days max. I don't think there was anything else I could have done, as I was under the impression that she received it, seeing as she didn't contact me after a month of not receiving it.
It was slightly less than $120 and furry shit lol
Are you a furry headband maker?
From a business perspective I think it's a mistake to guarantee a three day delivery unless she paid for and specified a priority delivery service that can make such promises. Most services I know of currently have delays, and maybe even because of her address it could have taken an extra day or two.
Honestly life happens, and her story could be true. Some people get too caught up in their personal dealings to notice missing packages, and maybe she gave benefit of the doubt for so long due to the mail issues I mentioned.
Did the parcel have tracking? Were you able to verify it had been delivered before you threw the number away?
On orders that go a bit pricey ($100+) it's a good idea to send all tracking and delivery numbers in the message so no one can claim there wasn't an attempt to deliver on your end.
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My father depresses me at times because he's so, SO obsessed with people. He wants friends. He wants to "form connections".
He wants me to do the same shit and is always going on and on about how inexperienced and silly I am for not wanting to engage with people unless I absolutely must…because everyone has an important lesson for me to learn or whatever. It's miserably hilarious to me.
See, ALL of his "friends" and "connections" regularly take money from him (despite having more money than he does lol), treat him like shit, don't even like him, and only ever call to complain about their own lives, etc. He's in his mid fifties and should KNOW better but he just fucking doesn't. Or he's so weirdly obsessed with the idea of having a large family and companionship that he'll put up with anyone.
And I've been around for some of these sessions where people just bully him. He always plays the role of clown-fool idiot-bastard so the insults hurt less. I know that's what he's doing, because I used to do it too before growing enough balls to just tell people to fuck off. I have to tell THEM to fuck off then he gets mad at me for saying it. Am I just supposed to stand there and let them talk down to you in your own fucking house? Get real holy shit.
I want him to adopt my mindset of not giving a fuck about "family" who wouldn't give you twenty dollars if you needed it without a lot of grand-standing and self-righteous behavior. Want him to grow some damn balls.
Welp. Thanks for the clarification and warning. Hopefully I'll receive a response from the mail service, just so that I know what happened. I'm starting to come to terms of having to give her a refund after these 2 replies. Not the best learning experience, but it is what it is. >>675515
I told her 3 days because that's what the post office claims to provide, I even checked their website to make sure of it.
>Are you a furry headband maker?
Furry as in fursuits.
>On orders that go a bit pricey ($100+) it's a good idea to send all tracking and delivery numbers in the message so no one can claim there wasn't an attempt to deliver on your end.
Yeah sadly I was too trusting of the mailing process. It's a shame because I was actually proud of the product and the way it came out :(
Do you talk to your father about this?
He's probably never had a model of a healthy friendship so he doesn't even know, would it be weird to make him watch films or shows where friends are actually good to each other?
trust me anon, you will need to cut her off sooner or later, and the sooner you do it the easier it will be on both of you. Don't let this become a habit more than it already has.
The fact that you've given in so many times makes me sad, as I used to be the same. I can assure you that she will manage on her own. You've given her plenty of opportunities to save up and if she hasn't done it then it's on her. You've already helped her out a bunch.
My mother did the same thing, using my credit card for certain purchases so that it wouldn't show up on her card etc. The fact that you had to literally beg for her to be more considerate of you is insane.
My heart aches for you, especially with your other family members not helping you out.
Please listen to the other 2 anons who replied to you.
Best of luck
>>675358>I went through something traumatic that really fucked me up
So that shit can not only fuck you up internally but also your face? Kinda explains my situation>>675559
Food as a coping mechanism is only good when there are other (good) coping mechanisms you use.
Otherwise it'll just make everything worse.
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I hate this country so much, there's nothing I want more than to leave this shithole.
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tfw bf got promotion from getting 27$/hr to now getting over 30$
and still won't give me a break during these times or help me with bills… this guy actually complains to me that he makes too much fucking money and that he doesn't want it.
Fuck off, I hate this dumb shit.
Yeah, he is complaining. He's going through this phase of "minimalism" he got rid of the couch and a shitload of things. I also asked him to help me and he told me to "get a job" and I've been trying, it's hard with covid, chemo, and stress among other things.
Yes, I'm THAT anon. I feel retarded for complaining all the time here, but I don't have anyone to talk to.
Men shouldn't even be allowed to have a girlfriend without spending money on/for her, they turn into selfish babies otherwise. This one does not even know how to spend the money he's making. Minimalism?? Lol. Loser is living for aesthetic/lifestyle principles spearheaded by women richer than him and too attractive to even look in his direction.
This man has made himself into a couchless bitch and is still whining about dumb shit while you're suffering. And you're paying for chemo? This is self-harm anon
What will you do when he stops using deodorant because some skinny YouTube girl said she considers it a luxury? Lol
anon you are not the problem. couples that seem perfectly compatible and totally in love with each other are usually>still in the honeymoon phase (from what i’ve seen it can last anywhere from around a few months up to 2 years) but after some time passes their relationship is pretty much only gonna go downhill
or>have plenty complains about their partner and sex life but keep suppressing their feelings for months and years until one or both of them realize they’re wasting their time and snap
sadly relationships are just fucking hard overall and nothing is ever guaranteed
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god i fucked up again, i'm so stupid. why is my brain like this? fuck
I've given my boyfriend everything in my life. We're on the verge of having more money than we ever wanted or could even use and I have realized that I hate him literally more than anything in the world. we're getting married and if I know anything about him he'll make me sign a fucking pre-nup. I hate him. I really, really hate him. I hate being with him, I hate being around him, he is literally the personification of evil.
But I'm a dumb materialistic bitch. Do I stick with him and be miserable and rich or do I ditch him and hope I luck out again with someone more tolerable?
He's just a nasty, evil, spiteful person. He's emotionally volatile, he hates women, controlling, difficult, egotistical, thinks he's the best man in the world.
Tbh I'm just venting. Nothing about the situation will actually ever change. He branched off to start a tech start-up and it just got funded, he's going to make a shit ton of money and it will only make him worse.
You need to leave him then. Preferably before you get married. Not sure why you're acting like it's a life sentence when you have a choice. Even the richest man in the world couldn't justify such shittiness. Are you sure he'd even share his money with you given how shitty he is?
It's better off being a little poorer than having this man drain the life out of you every day.
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I am so retarded. I have been having panic attacks since last night thinking about this, I am livid at myself. Why did I let him take pictures of me with him, I was ass naked and SIXTEEN and evem though I wanted to refuse I didn't! I am so retarded. He was 30, he had more power than me, more power than me, what if he just decides to ruin my life one day and post those two fucking pictures online? I cannot let thay happen, I live in a muslim state, I would absolutely fucking kill myself before my mother does, I am so stupid. I cannot imagine. It won't dent his reputation a bit but I would be absolutely disowned and hated and beaten up I am sure. I am so stupid, I was so stupid. Why did I allow it to happen. I am so afraid of checking his social medias wokdering if today is finally the day he decided to take revenge for me blocking him everywhere. He doesn't know why I blocked him, it's because you forced me into sucking you when I really did not want to, and you recorded it when I explicitly said no!!!! I am sure you have shown those pictures and videos to your friends and they all laugjed at my whore self probably but I JUST want peace, some peace for a single day without being riddled with anxiety over this. Over my own retardation. I am so over it. I have no one to talk to about this, who would i evem? I would get judged to hell and back and it is partially my fault yes but everyone would say it was FULLY my fault, which I don't think so!
You are right anon, I should try and change my way of looking at it. Like, it was the result of years of bad actions that lead to that moment, I just felt, I still feel, worthless, because I have been fed since I was a child that my only worth is being pure till marriage, it's everywhere, when a woman gets raped, what people say is that her family is now dishounoured, but I got molested for years and years and it stopped when I was 11 but at that point I already felt that all my worth in society has diminished and I can just do whatever and I was so reckless for so many years. I am 19 now, and I am trying to let go of this way of thinking, but it's so hard to do alone, anon. Premarital sex here is illegal I think, and legally the age for marriage is 18 so I'm not sure what I should classify those times I did it with him as. It doesn't matter anyways. But you're right that if he hasn't done anything all this time, he probably won't do it now. I just hope he deleted those files, he didn't show them to his friends. I still autistically look at his twitter every day. Venting has made me feel a little better, thank you for listening to me anon.
I really don't think I'd be able to handle it all again. He's also married now, and I remember he told me he was gonna get married soon and if we could continue this relationship even after he was married, and I was so shocked he didn't find anything wrong with that. Sorry, weird tangent. But it's even risky now with a spouse by this side. But this also makes me think that he might not post those images now since he is married with a good muslim wife and all.>>675861
I hope you're right anon, he's changed his phone twice since then so I hope those files are just lost. I really pray that's the case.
Just remember that your brain is a muscle. I used to be the same because all I did was browse the net without bothering to learn or properly memorise something, as I had always gotten good grades without trying, but after a few weeks of memory games/trying to remember poems/reading books without distractions my focus and memory issies have gotten a lot better.
I unironically believe that many children nowadays who are diognosed with ADHD just need to lay off the phones and focus on their own brain more. There is still a chance that it could be medical, of course.
So he makes too much money and he doesn't want it.
But he also can't use any of it to support you and make your life easier while you deal with chemo, and has actively done shit like gotten rid of your couch under some blanket excuse about aesthetics.
That man is either mentally ill or doesn't love you.
It sounds like he's actively trying to make you miserable with him so that you'll end the relationship.
Are you two living together?
>He's going through this phase of "minimalism" he got rid of the couch
He honestly sounds equal parts asshole and loopy. You might aswell be single and broke than date someone who will still leave you broke at a time like this.
I found out this month that i was misdiagnosed as autistic and depressed ten years ago. This diagnosis has had a big impact on how doctors have contextualised my symptoms when I came back to say treatments weren't working and has really affected my life. I spent over a decade being fobbed off and not examined properly, taking SSRIs that don't work, and feeling like I am genuinely incurable and that life will always be painful.
I kept my problems to myself and bullied myself into functioning properly, going to uni and work and trying hard, and not talking to people more than necessary so that I didn't overshare or burden them. I stayed away from sex, drugs, and alcohol because I knew they all made me worse. I've gotten pretty far doing this and now I'm doing my PhD and working as a lecturer at 28, but I don't have any close relationships and I don't have any personal joy or happiness. I was only working hard to make sure I didn't end up homeless like my dad. I didn't understand what the point of being alive was.
I got so tired of living like that that I tried to kill myself at the start of October and was found unconscious by a family member who came to the house unexpectedly. I was taken into hospital for a few days for emergency surgery and a blood transfusion. It came as a shock to everybody and I've spent the last six weeks being assessed and medicated and they said I've been historically misdiagnosed and that I actually have bipolar and EUPD. The doctors are now giving me lots of treatment and listening to me and I feel really overwhelmed and emotional.
I'm grateful for the help but I also wonder where I would be if I had been correctly diagnosed and supported back when I first got referred to the mental health services. No wonder life has been fucking horrible and difficult living with unchecked bipolar. Everyone who has worked with me says I'm very strong and resilient and should be proud of what I've accomplished while managing two illnesses alone, but I keep grieving who I could have been with earlier intervention.
I'm also grappling with the new idea that I'm borderline. I'm worried that I'm an intrinsically abusive, manipulative person, so maybe it's just as well I never got very close to anyone. Everything I Google about it is so negative and that's understandable. I've been referred into long-term treatment to fix it, but I am genuinely wondering what the point is. I don't know if I deserve all this help if I want to die anyway.
Sorry for the long post. It's been a lot.
Saw your post, and while I don`t have bp to provide better advice, I wanted to comment that I'm sorry you went through all that and offer a reassurance about at least one thing. The fact that you're concerned about the possibility of "intrinsically abusive
…" tells me , a random stranger, that you won't be. You want to be good to others and I believe that you'll do your best to do so. Hope that offers some comfort.
Saged because i'm not venting but i am tired of dealing with my rhuematism ( even spelling the word is annoying!)
What the fuck kind of podunk hospital…I also work at a hospital where we're
(obviously) required to wear masks, and in the spirit of conserving PPE for medical and clinical staff, we're to wear cloth masks from home and they have some they provide and launder nightly for people who forget theirs. How is this a difficult concept? Their director or whoever enacted this practice is an absolute retard.
I couldn't imagine that it hasn't already been reported. There's just too many people who work there that would be pissed about it. It should be reported to the health department, but if it's been reported there and they still haven't done anything what could you do?
This company also had people come in and interview employees to tell their story and evidently offered one of the immigrants money to go back to Cambodia after writing his story on how he and his family fled camps there
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I become irritated and have a visceral reaction when people give advice in the context of religious philosophy. Religion is personal and texts written thousands of years ago have nothing to do with the issues of today in the way people tend to frame the advice. Blind faith in yahweh, god, Jesus, Mohammed etc isn’t going to fix your sons crippling depression Janice, or your financial troubles Gertrude, or your husbands coma Yazmine. What got me today was a youtuber saying “may your heart soften to him as he fellowships with you” (talking about Jesus) and I felt so violated hearing the same bs I had to listen to constantly in the past, like I was the one who needed changing despite being a child. I think I’m definitely traumatized from growing up in a conservative household and being forced into performing a narrow way of thinking lest I be rejected by everyone for it. I can’t help but feel just a little bit of hatred towards organized religion after dealing with the hypocrisy my whole life and getting literally chased around the house with a bible for liking women.
Nta but I’m from latam too and in order to move out of your country legally you have to have an absurd quantity of money. Sometimes we can’t even apply for a visa because our countries are not even considered to be on the list of countries that can apply for them, so that means entering by investing on something, so you need at least 60k dollars in a bank account so they consider accepting your ass.
Latam is a trap, it’s difficult to create bank accounts outside because most of the times you will get a bunch of buts and ifs from them, but you need the bank account to be able to say “I kind of would like to live here?”.
At the end of the day it’s easier to create your own bubble
in which you can try having your best life but shit happens and then you remember you’re living in Latam.
nta but a latin anon here, exchange rates are obscene and fuck up our hopes of ever leaving this shit show. we pay really high rates for internet but at least is in our local currency. and also everything >>676033
My current bf and I sometimes vent to each other about our past relationships. I tend to let him vent more because he had a more serious ex (10 years married) and right now he's dealing with the finalization of their divorce which is coming to a head since they were separated for years. He pushed to finalize recently cause he wants to marry me. I understand why he's frustrated right now and why their relationship is on his mind. Whereas mine were mostly short, I never married. Plus I know men disdain hearing about their gf's past relationships so I tend not to bring it up. The past is so behind me that a part of me feels stupid for bringing it up, but another part wants my bf to know my struggles. Sometimes it just feels nice to commiserate and talk about shitty exes.
So I dated a pretty abusive guy for about 4 months during the lowest time of my life about two years ago. Back then I broke up my 4 year relationship and was so distraught that I rebounded with this lovebomber. This man abused me, financially took advantage of me, the works.
I can't for the life of me remember his name. I remember all the abusive shit he did and I could probably pick his face out from a crowd, but I can't think of his name. Perhaps this is my brain on trauma. Maybe this man was such a fucking monster that my mind zapped his name because it might have lended him some humanity I don't feel he deserves. I don't know, I'm not a psychologist.
Anyway his bullshit came up during a vent because it's kind of a key piece of my timeline between breaking up with my last long term relationship and how I got here now.
My bf thinks it's weird that I don't remember his name, implying that I'm being flippant, but no? Why does it matter if I don't remember an abusive dude's name? I feel like my bf is being insecure and takes it as a sign that I've just been with so many guys to remember this one in specifics. But all it means is that I really hate that man and don't find his name worthy to remember.
I'm going to ask my bf to stop bringing up his ex wife around me from now on. It's not fair that he gets to vent all his emotions, but when I vent mine he's not really hearing me because he's jealous.
Oh and haha I just remembered that dude's name as I typed this up. No wonder I forgot it, it's a stupid name that sounds like a comic book antagonist.
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i've been on venlafaxine and it has killed my appetite, i lost a lot of (needed) weight. i've been happily subsisting on maybe 4-700 calories a day with no hunger because of the appetite reduction (NOT an ana-chan) but i'm losing less weight now than expected with my bmr. this would be fine but now i'm so so hungry right and i'm worried if i start eating any more i'm going to gain all the weight back fuck. but i'm so hungry.
Yeah, they're being pretty amicable towards each other but they're both passive aggressive in their own ways which is why the venting to me right now makes sense.
If I did marry him, the timeline wouldn't be for another 2-3 years which is good news in regards to vetting him more before making any commitment.
Aw anon, I've gone through this with meds as well (topamax) and I understand exactly what you're talking about. It's scary to think that you'll gain all the weight back instantaneously, but that's not how it works. >>676088
anon said it pretty well. Just eat when you're hungry, seriously. There's no need to starve yourself. It'll be okay. ♥
After focusing on building strength and muscle for a year I decided to lean down over the summer, and did a proper cut. There is a point that everybody will reach eventually when in a caloric deficit, where your body begins to compensate
for further reduction of calories by just lowering your non-exercise activity thermogenesis (NEAT), everything your body does besides exercise, eating, and sleeping. You get into a cycle of chasing this moving goalpost where your caloric intake is already miniscule, but even when you try to lower it you dont lose more weight you just "do less" without realizing (little things like how much you fidget, move around etc), but the worst part is that you are also consuming less basic nutrients, and probably not getting enough protein to maintain lean body mass, so you start to feel awful. This state really can't be maintained.
What I would recommend instead is just eat more in general, lots of veg, and protein until you reach 1.6-1.8g /kg bodyweight, and whatever your coloric intake ends up at, accept that that's what you'll be eating. If you need to lose more weight beyond whatever that puts you at, then introduce a deficit by adding more exercise, not by eating less.
thank you very much for the reassurance, anons. i know it's silly but i've been really upset all day over it and worried i'm going to snowball into being a fatty again. i'm going to eat a little bit more and try not to stress out too much about it.
topamax anon, thank you for empathising and sharing your experience. you made me feel a lot better. sorry for the personal question but did your med weight loss stay off for you? obviously you don't have to answer i would just like to think it's possible while eating a normal amount. hope you are doing OK>>676098
i really like your approach anon, it sounds sensible and healthy. i'll look into this more and start thinking about some nice meals. thank you for sharing with me.
hope you all have a lovely evening ♥
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Ngl im drunk and bummed. Out of all the scrotes i fucked the past few weeks, i never heard back from the one scrote i actually kind of cared about. Its not like i fuck around and expect anything serious… but the sex was outstanding even for my hardcore porn standards and well, he did mention getting back to me and i mentioned i fucking hate ghosting, i never ghost if i can help it. so yeah im stupid and deserve the sad… I do have another manlet to distract me at least..
But i still wanna rim and finger that other moid, i wanna get inside so bad… sorry for being disgusting…
No worries! Yes, it has stayed off. I find myself not wanting to binge when I take it, which is where a lot of my weight gain occurred. So yeah, I lost my appetite overall for a while and lost, but when it came back, my stomach was a bit shrunk anyways, and I physically wasn't able to eat as much, nor did I mentally feel the need to. I worried when I stopped losing as much weight too, but when I realized I was actually maintaining at a good place, I was really happy with that. I just eat when I'm hungry now–including the odd occasion when I'm ravenous and do want to eat a bunch of food. You won't gain it back all at once, and probably won't snowball back into old habits as long as you're mindful. Take care of yourself pls!!
I hate entitled tech (Canadian) workers who have willingly moved to the States for a way higher pay (ok fine) and now want to come back here because I DON'T FEEL SAFE HERE and I DON'T LIKE TRUMP ANYMORE AND I'M TIRED OF IT!!! Yeah you're right, but you guys keep saying just one more year and you'll move back here. Yeah, right. Stay in your grave full of money. >>676133
You can do it, anon!! You can lay out your course outline in front of you and organize what you need to do in a schedule. You can also try doing the pomodoro method. It helped me out a lot. I'm gonna spoiler this in case you don't want to hear my unsolicited advice.
You can do it!
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I hate being a hoarder so much.
I’ve spent so long learning about decluttering and minimalism and I love those ideas. At this point I care about few individual items, but I have a compulsion to retain and grow a hoard. It’s getting so bad I’ll probably end up like pic rel in a few years which scares me as currently the bathroom is fully accessible and I never leave dirty dishes or laundry around. The day I can’t maintain hygiene will be dark.
Therapy fucked me up before (went for different reasons), can’t afford it currently anyway. I’ve had several times I’ve purged a lot of stuff and maintained normality for a few weeks but always end up hoarding again. Fuck my life.
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today has been so shitty. I just wanna curl up and cry
Anyone else go a bit manic with hobbies? At the start I'm like crazy, reading online, watching videos, buying the tools or accessories needed for it, thinking about it all day long.
The problem is that after a few weeks, I lose interest entirely or only do it from time to time. I burn myself out, its like I can stay up all day doing that hobbie or reading about it, to the point that I start to go crazy.
I started crochet recently and bought so much yarn and a lot of the needed hooks, did several beanies and practiced some stitches and lost interest (also because it's summer and can't really wear scarfs or hats lol). But at the start I could stay like six straight hours crocheting without realizing. Like I will go to bed and wont stop thinking about the particular hobbie and my mind will be racing like crazy and I can't sleep.
I just want to stick to a hobbie and get good at it, why can't I be normal lol
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samefag but I saw this comic and I can't stop laughing lol so much this
Anon are you me?
I know I’m only going to be hyper fixated for a month, I’ve just accepted it and changed my spending habits. Now I just buy things I need for specific project I want to accomplish. Then everything gets stowed to be pulled out the next time it catches my fancy.
Focusing on specific projects has helped me stay interested longer too. I enjoy the rush of deep diving into hobbies and so long as I’m not overspending I just enjoy it while it lasts.
So I'm not a specialist or anything, but what you say sounds like all the stuff you surround yourself with, you feel is a part of you? And that's why you can't let it go, b/c you feel like you're losing smth important?
Would it be possible to try and select only the items that you cannot live without, and slowly get rid of less meaningful stuff? Like one thing/one category at a time? I know it's hard!!
Lol same but sometimes hobbies you want to try are expensive from the start and you know it's a bad idea. I like that I get really into it but I can't shut my brain off when I'm that way and I feel like the hobbie would last more if I didn't burn myself out so quickly.
I like the deep dive too, I guess I enjoy planning in a sense? Like another example, this is the second time I've downloaded Sims 4 and all of the expansions and I keep building perfect worlds and perfect townies to fill all of the maps and then just lose interest and not play the game. Why can't I just make a sim and play without making things so difficult? lol
, but I also think you should consider finding out if you have OCD if you ever to get to talk to a professional (which i hope you do eventually).
I have ocd and also have a connection to inanimate objects, even if it's not worth anything. Idk if my ocd is apart of it, but apparently a lot of hoarders do have it so it's something to consider.
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I hate always being older than everyone.
I was born at the beginning of the year, even as a kid I was the oldest in class and teachers treated me like the class's big sister, while the kids bullied me because I was the smallest and youngest-looking so I never got the advantage of being the older kid people are scared of. I was always expected to be more mature and rise above everything while the teacher ignored the bullying.
Most of my friends are younger than me by 3-4 years now because I went to college later after caring for a sick parent as a teen. People are always surprised to hear it, but now that everyone knows it I'm treated differently.
The youngest girls in the year are telling me what I can and can't wear (apparently I'm too old for Brandy Melville and Ann Taylor is way more age-appropriate, despite being in my mid-20s) and calling me jealous of teen girls when I tell them I'll wear what I like.
Both my exes so far were 2 years younger and it was nbd in the relationship itself, but outside of it people were calling me a cradle snatcher as if I was attracted to pimply teenagers and not guys with beards and forehead wrinkles who just happen to be younger.
I don't know if they genuinely see me as a hag or not but I'm bothered that men can be wear the same Captain America T-shirt ages 4-54 without anyone saying anything and impregnate women 40 years their junior but I get so much shit for having a boyfriend who's just a tiny bit younger.
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sounds like they're jealous of your "cougarhood", and in a few years will face the same shit. and when brandy melville only sells one size, if you look good in it embrace it.
For all the insidious, pedophilic behavior that's (deservedly) being called out on social media, I made a really sad realization while reading through YouTube comments earlier today. A channel popular among young children recently uploaded a video specific to pet care. Some kid left a comment about how she wishes her dad wouldn't threaten to throw her pets outside all the time, and eventually revealed in a reply that he does this because he gets mad at her for asking to go to the hospital (for what sounds like a concussion). She doesn't phrase it that way though, doesn't say how she hit her head, and actually tries to downplay it as her dad being "not that bad."
How fucking awful, this poor kid is not only being physically harmed, she's being punished for wanting medical attention and is living in fear of losing her pets as well. To make things worse, other children who are completely oblivious reply to her with things like, "Stop making your dad so mad or you'll be killing your pets." This is blatant emotional abuse, I am genuinely afraid for this girl, but what the hell can be done about it? I left a short comment telling her that she was justified to be upset and to talk to another adult she trusts can keep her and her pets safe. But who fucking knows what good that'll do, who fucking knows if this kid has any other adults at all. I dont know where else to talk about this, it is one of the most disturbing things I've ever read
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Ann Taylor Loft is the shit, they actually have petite sizes for my short ass legs and their skirts/dresses often have pockets. Pockets!
Ah, yeah. I was born at the beginning of the school year, I feel your pain.>>676307
Thanks for the nice rec anon, gonna check them out
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Same OP but I've attached a pic of boobs that look similar to mine. The left obviously.
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how can I tell my toxic hispanic mom that I don't wanna eat her fattening food without her lashing because I'm getting fatter and wanna diet
The tits are fine. Are they instagram tits? No. Mine aren't either, and probably the vast portion of this site has a personal problem with how their boobs look. It's weird how obsessed with what are effectively just sexualized feedbags we are.
If you come into money, get a fat transfer if it really bugs you. But honestly, they're as good of boobs as any
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I want a 80's japanese delinquent bf, we could do a lot of fun things together and I would gladly take care of him when he gets hurt from fights…
Why did I born so late?
There are so few interesting guys, why can't I found a guy who does something more exciting than watching porn and complain about their ex-girlfriends.
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Same anon. I'm such a sucker for delinquent characters. Just want to smooch their injuries away
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I found out my boyfriend did some things that I really, really don't agree with in the past. He told me himself, feels bad about it now and was young and dumb, but like… I feel there are youthful mistakes, and then there are gargantuan fuck ups that no amount of explanation in the present day can reconcile. I don't feel like breaking up because I love who he is now and he's good to me not to mention we live together and moving is a pain in the ass, but it doesn't sit right with me either. Fuck. He knows the kind of person I am, why couldn't he have told me earlier when we weren't as serious? Men are shit.
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I had a very, very detailed and realistic sex dream last night in which I gave Adam Driver head and then proceeded to violently throw up all over him and his dick, after which he got offended and kicked me out of his house. I do not watch anything he's in and definitely would not have even remembered what he looks like enough to dream about him if not for Adamposting. So thank you anons for ruining my day once again.
Honestly anon, I think they’re probably pretty lonely too. Most of their friendships are probably a result of their success, either other influencers wanting to boost their profile or nobodies wanting in. Must be hard to trust anyone, and feel shit that every time you hang out you must be looking your best because there will inevitably be a photoshoot. Then you have people gossiping about you online, even if you’re pretty inoffensive you’ll get many people criticising you and it’s hard not to focus on the negative. Overall, I think it would be really hard not to feel deeply lonely even if you don’t want to acknowledge it.
Just my two cents, probably some of them are really deluded and genuinely feel like gods gift.
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i hate when professors give us easy assignments that can be done in like 10 minutes because the demons in my head convince me “it’s so easy anyway you can finish it later” and i procrastinate until the very last hour before the deadline
I have similar boobs and feel shit about them too so I get it anon. But they’re fine, boobs are supposed to look like that. They’re not even saggy, just big (ish) - the only boobs that won’t eventually fall like that are really small ones. You’re a woman, not Barbie.
If you can’t accept that they’re just fine then I think a reduction would be a better option. You can have a lift or implants but it might not work on your body type (research breast roots) or would only be effective for a few years before they sag again. Maybe you’ll grow out of the insecurity when you’re older but it’s not a good sign if you’re already upset by your young, relatively unsaggy boobs. The only way to avoid sagging completely is to reduce them to a small size but you probably don’t want that on a fridge torso.
The best option is to work on your mindset.
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I fucking hate the retards in my French class, like, I’m not some goddess of pronunciation, but these people are constantly stuttering and it’s so fucking annoying, I feel like I’m in some sort of ED group study and not with grown ass people that should be thinking something along the lines of “HMMMMM my pronunciation sucks! Maybe I should practice on my own instead of waiting for the class to correct my hell a bunch of speech issues! I should remember that I’m learning another language!” but no, these people just don’t fucking care and it makes the pacing of the lesson extremely slow, because we will always get some asshole unironically asking just what the fuck is the meaning of fucking chocolate or how the fuck should they pronounce motherfucking prendre fuck!
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>mfw people say “everything will be different after the pandemic”
>bitch people couldn’t even keep themselves from clubbing and travelling the moment their city/country got a bit more lenient
Humans are creatures of habits, things will be different but our habits and most of our lifestyles will be the same. Hollywood is probably already casting for six upcoming covid-19 movies.
true and based
we've seen how the likes of ellen/madonna/other hollywood dipshits reacted. special mention to vanessa hudgens "yeaaah people might die uwu but it's unavoidable uwu" fucking hope they all get the coof. pedowood needs to burn
trust me please anon bounce the fuck out of there. you're only seeing the tip of the iceberg of degeneracy, and that's based on what he's told you. if you had a machine to go back and watch it, could you ever look at him the same?
scrotes and shit but hoes and tricks, dump him. love yourself please.
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I have no friends, my friends treat me like I don't exist no matter how hard I try to force my way into the convo or be on the same level as them, my family hates me because I'm their worst child, I don't have online friends and I don't have a dating life when I'm not completely ignored and dismissed I somehow just make people uncomfortable because I'm an unpleasant person to be around. my life is endless stress and headaches, I have nothing to look forward to in life and nobody cares if I live or die even when I disappear and isolated myself for days and weeks nobody cares or asks, I'm struggling in every aspect of life and I waste so much time without getting anything done, I have so many health issues that I can't even get checked and it's all so meaningless and the suicidal thoughts never leave and I couldn't quit self-harming… in fact, I just did after batteling the urge and laying in bed for two hours and after I was done I looked in the mirror and saw the most hideous face I've ever seen and it made me feel all worse.
I have no reason to live and nothing to look forward to,, my past is awful and my life is meaningless, I wish that my suffering would've made sense but it doesn't, I'm just a faulty clump of cells and a waste of space.
no close friends
I have a similar problem to this >>676185
Besides that, I get fixated on one meal and one piece of clothing. I only eat and wear one thing for a few weeks, and then I'm moving on to another thing. I've been like this since I was a kid but back then my mother would literally force me to eat and wear something else. Now when I live alone nothing is stopping me. I know people judge me for wearing the same thing every day (I wash it btw, it's not like I'm stinky), but I can't help it. Could it be autism?
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I fear that maybe I'm becoming a more annoying and unrelatable person over the years, mainly due to trauma that I don't realize seeping into the way I present my side of things. I know no one likes a victim, but perhaps furthermore I just come off as aggressive and people don't really see reason to empathize with women who express a deal of anger even if it is justified?
I know this is a poor metric to go by, yet I was perusing old vent/advice threads on lolcow from a few years back and I noticed I got a lot more genuine and sympathetic types of replies to my posts back then. Whereas now it seems what I post doesn't get much engagement at all and when it does it's usually an attempt by anon to shitpost me as if they have a problem with what I talked about. Although I won't discount one or two good egg anons who do try. I can either believe lc userbase left or changed that drastically, or maybe it's just me. I admit my problems are a bit more bitter and jaded so maybe everyone just has too much empathy fatigue anymore, and my issues are likely exhausting, or maybe they just make me an easy target to berate sometimes.
Combined with everything else taking a nosedive in my life, even if it's laughably small like a lack of engagement during my interneting, it truly feels like death by a thousand little cuts. I barely exist, and it makes me want to avoid the internet altogether just so I don't have to be reminded of how much I don't belong even in unconventional spaces.
and I feel like I can understand what you mean aside from the engagement thing since I hardly ever use those threads but I feel like few years ago I was shy and isolated in a relatable way for people to invite me along or try and talk to me but now I'm just intimidating and I get aggressive and angry more times than I'd like to even online and it's getting worse.
Not to dismiss your vent by "same"-ing you but at least I feel like I can relate to this, can't tell you much since I'm planning suicide all day in my head but keep on pushing I'm sure something will change either to the better or worse.
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my mother is so disconnected from reality it's fucking insane
I think the user base has changed quite a bit. This place isn’t as niche as it used to be. A lot of people are feeling very alone right now. It’s been a difficult year. >>676575
Your poor grammar made me throw up in my mouth a little. I would get off lc and study a little if I were you.
No worries anon, the solidarity is appreciated and it comforts me to know I'm not the only one with these issues. That's so funny how you posted that around the same time I started typing mine. Guess we're on that same wavelength shit~
My friends are ignoring me too for what it's worth. One deactivated her socials so I talk to her much less, another has her own problems and is withdrawing, another doesn't care about me anymore cause I have no online clout, etc.>>676575
What gave you that impression? I wouldn't really say every post I made is all negative towards other people in particular, most times it really is about myself and my stupid situations.
And anywho, how would you recommend airing out grievances without coming off as smug and shit talky? I wouldn't want sympathy I didn't earn and maybe there's a better way to talk about things that I'm not seeing. If you're being serious. >>676596
Yeah it's true. The world is a chaotic place and I think most others like me just feel trapped in our own problems and feelings to reach out to anyone else. It's a vicious cycle.
I feel bad putting all her business out here, but we're all anon so fuck it.>probably a narc>medical neglect>yells all day
idk how to explain this one cause there's so many layers. it's like she's imagining she's having an argument with someone else.>would beat me for the smallest things when I was a child
This only happened a couple times, so honestly it feels small on top of all the things she did. It wasn't just hitting me with a shoe or a belt or something, she would literally beat me up like I was some girl on the street. And then when she was done would come back and convince me it was my fault and that I had done something wrong to deserve that.>also pats herself on the back for not beating me like other parents. (delusion).>gets pissed off whenever she sees/hears someone smiling or laughing, including me.>making up stuff so she can cause an argument. Like saying "did you just tell me to shut up?" despite the fact it was dead silent and no one was saying anything.>she literally demolishes every relationship she has ever had. I rarely saw most of my family members when I was younger because of this. >she believes everyone is out to get her
there's more but tbh its too much to write. I feel like she solely exists off of drama and negativity. I'm glad I'm going to be moving out soon, this shit is draining.
Are you gay or?
I don't like penetration either, and I'm straight so that's been fun
Sorry ladies, I had to sleep on it because I was in a state of shock. It's partly what >>676441
said. And there's something else. I don't want to get into too many specifics because he does know I use this site, but fuck it. He had sex of questionable consent with a girl he used to know. She came to him drunk and made passes at him, but when they started having sex she was clearly upset. She didn't verbally tell him to stop, but it was obvious she wasn't having a good time. He did not ask her what was wrong, he did not stop fucking her until he came. He used a sobbing human woman to get off. Later he tried to talk to her (maybe in a delayed sense of guilt?) but she acted blasé about it and uninterested, probably to cope if I had to guess. At "best" he took advantage of her feelings and allowed her to hook up with him while drunk. Worst case he raped her. >>676512>>676540
Thank you anons, I'm fucked up right now. He has never done anything remotely coercive to me. He spends the majority of his time with me and at work so I know he's not going off to do drugs or cheat, he doesn't even have social media. He's been a great boyfriend to me but even if it's in the past I can't spend my life with a potential fucking rapist.
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anon i have no words this is really fucked up if i was you at that moment i would probably jump off the window.What is on your mind right now? if u wanna leave u have the right honestly he's no good man because he lied willingly about this,he waited for this moment to ""confess"" about this is like a predator playing with his prey what a disgusting piece of shit he's totally testing you,probably a potential rapist.
>>676757>It's scary how men can hide shit from their girlfriends and seemingly feel nothing or expect forgiveness.
Thank you for the kind words. I'm terrified by this exactly, we've been together for years. I can't believe he's kept this from me and not only that, doesn't feel anything about it aside from, "It was a bad thing and I regret it but she came to me (so it wasn't coercive) and I wouldn't do anything like that now, so…" I will likely avoid dating for a long time after this. Or forever. I'm so sorry you were lied to by a partner as well. >>676763
I feel like jumping out of a window. I'm stunned honestly. It's such a fucked up situation that he himself was the one to tell me about this, you know? I could've gone my entire life living with this guy and having sex with him not knowing he took advantage of women (and probably worse) except for the good graces of his honesty. I never want to be with a man again when even the seemingly good ones can pull shit like this, and I might not ever know about it.
Ugh. It's frightening that he's making excuses for himself and blaming the woman> but she came to me (so it wasn't coercive) and I wouldn't do anything like that now, so…
Obviously a cope, but if he truly regretted it and understood the weight of what he did, he wouldn't make excuses. Like, I'd be more likely to…forgive isn't the right word at all, but I can't think of a better one. But something, if he owned up to it instead of throwing the woman under the bus. It just kinda shows that he's not very sorry or wants forgiveness for something he hasn't even forgiven himself for.> except for the good graces of his honesty
Probably why he expects forgiveness. You know what's right, anon. I'm so, so sorry that he's put you through this. Purchasing women's bodies is bad enough, but potentially if not straight up raping that woman really solidifies his character and attitude towards women, no matter how much better he seems. Really think on your relationship and things he's done, too, you might see things differently. I wish you the best. Big hugs.
The reveal about prostitution was very indirect, which makes me even angrier about it. I was curious about a certain period of his life and he explained that it was a blur to him and that he regretted a lot of his behaviors. He said he would have big parties with friends that involved a lot of drugs and sex. I dug more about that and he said he couldn't remember many specifics about the parties, but there were obviously a lot of addicts there hoping for freebies and "some were actual prostitutes." I may be reaching here, but to me that translated as, "I and/or my 'friends' paid those women and I had sex with some of them." >>676779>if he owned up to it instead of throwing the woman under the bus
Exactly, I specifically asked him, "So do you feel sorry for her now?" And he basically said he doesn't feel much of anything for her. That seems straight up sociopathic to me which is why I'm in shock. He is usually quite empathetic. I guess just not toward his victim
Christ. Very sociopathic and disturbing. Idk if it's just men or what, but I had one event where I thought I pushed my partner a bit far and had a panic attack and couldn't look at him for like 4 days, despite him specifically telling me otherwise and that he didn't feel violated. I worked through it in therapy I felt so bad and sick. Like, that woman still probably thinks about what he did to her–I know I still think about my attempted (thankfully) violent rape as well as times moids have simply coerced me into sex I didn't want. Like. He's not empathetic, anon. At least not wholly. Even if it's just him coping, which I wouldn't give him the benefit of the doubt of tbh, it's not excusable. Every new post you make just makes me think you should run more and more. Again, I'm so sorry, and it may take a long time to heal, but you will be okay and far better off. There are genuinely good men/people out there, and he's not one of them if he's capable of using women in those ways and lying about it.
Ugh I feel for you anon. I'm the same age and my mom is like this as well, either bringing food or random little gifts that I don't need nor want. I used to appreciate the spirit of that but when you've repeatedly said "Thanks but please save your money, I can't use these things" and she still
does it, the situation changes from naive to manipulative. Don't let her guilt trip you for having boundaries, she is trying to control your outlook and emotions surrounding her by essentially bribing you and that's not cool.
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At this point all I want to is get my diagnosis so I can finally work on whatever the fuck is wrong with my brain, pour all my effort into school, have sex without freaking out, and help my mom with shit because she deserves to be happy and not stressed for once.
For partners perhaps they just want to pleasure you and feel guilty if you don't get off. Idk about randoms though, if anything it's gayer to have sex center around the other woman.
I'm the same but have yet to date and it worries me. Have you been successful finding anyone who is accepting of this?
No. Differentiating yourself from the other white people (you know which ones) is a good thing.