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No. 1073966

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH


previous thread >>>/ot/1063620

No. 1073974

AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

No. 1073975

I can’t enjoy anything anymore. Watching videos? Gets boring. Playing games? I want to turn it off after 5-10 minutes. Drawing? I want it to be over in a few seconds. Writing stories and reading? Couldn’t even be bothered. I’m slowly growing impatient towards activities and I find no enjoyment in them anymore and I don’t know how to turn that around.

No. 1073976

I know they're not serious in the end, but working with women who jokingly complain about having to work and why can't they just get pregnant and look after four children is… tiring, to say the least.

No. 1073977

WHY DIDN'T I GO TO THE DOCTOR SOONER WHY DIDN'T THEY ASK ME FOR MORE INFORMATION ABOUT MY PAIN WHY DIDN'T THEY SCHEDULE ME WITH A DIFFERENT DR LIKE THEY USUALLY DO I DON'T WANT TO HAVE PERMANENT DAMAGE I AM SO SCARED I JUST WANT TO BE OKAY I CAN'T LIVE A LIFE OF PAIN I WOULD RATHER DIE

No. 1073983

how desensitized humanity has become- we literally watch war unfold through our phones, continuing our daily routines, as if nothing has ever happened

No. 1073985

>>1073983
Imagine caring about ukrainians. They aren’t even sheltering black Eastern Europeans

No. 1073997

>>1073975
If you want to try and fix this feeling of boredom and unable to focus, I would suggest doing exercise at the moment of boredom or intermittently through the day. Doesn't. I had the same issue, but think it's just because I felt alienated from the world and focused again after the body got some movement and spent some time in nature. Can be a simple walk around the block, or jumping non-stop for 60 seconds. I think it may have to do with the brain needing oxygen and novelty or something.

No. 1074002

>>1073983
most humans empathy is fake is nothing but a gimmick to bring attention of themselves. Most people do not even experience real empathy. Just a moment of flickering sympathy as most humans have to nihilate any traces of real feelings in order to function in the real adult world. In the moment in which you feel, you become desolated from others and you turn in nothing but a mere target, as your being is nothing else but an object to other individuals. We see our fellow humans as simply objects, everyone cares only for themselves and only when an injustice happens to you, you can feel for others. The average human being is nothing but a monster, a mere shadow of what a human should truly represent.

A passionless, void of intensity, void of empathy or true feeling world. A dystopian world with a dystopian future. How long can we hide ourselves? For how much longer can we ran away from the truth? Do we have to reach that which is almost the annihilation of the human species for a couple of us to wake up? And even in such case, those that could take the lead are not allowed to do so.

No. 1074006

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>>1074002
shut the hell up and eat a cinnamon roll

No. 1074007

>>1073975
lol i said that a little while ago. watchin my favorite movie? im uninterested in like 30 minutes. However if you want to stay consistent i guess you should force yourself. i force myself to do my hobbies such as spend at least about ten minutes on the daily if not more and since they are my hobbies it ends up feeling not forced

No. 1074009

>LOL UKRAINIANS ARE RETARDED FOR HAVING THEIR MEN STAY BEHIND TO FIGHT FOR THEIR COUNTRY WHILE THEIR WOMEN AND CHILDREN LEAVE. feminists, where is this true gender equality you keep speaking about???

>omg i can't wait for hawt ukrainian refugees to come to my doorstep haha women are so mad and jealous haha im gonna get all the women



Can someone put a bullet in these men's skulls, especially American men, already? They think like homosexuals (the bottom kind) and expect women to do all the work for them while they fall in their lap. Useless, subhuman, and parasitic.

No. 1074014

>>1073997
non you sound random and down to earth.
upvoted

No. 1074031

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>>1074009
ukraine go boom haha little piggies(bait)

No. 1074052

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>>1073983
>>1074002
The fuck am I supposed to do from a continent away while trying to keep myself alive? We know it's bad but we can't change anything. The average person can only share resources, donate so little if any, watch the horror, and remember when it's over. Let the people who know what they're doing help with everything past the basics. Not gonna give away my food and heat money, not gonna protest and hope Russia stops because of me, let celebs play that facade. You're just like male philosophers "thinking deeply" and spouting shit for a living while consuming everyone else's literal hard work. These are fucking embarrassing and reddit-tier posts.

No. 1074062

Girl I like just put a story up about football and I got completely turned off for a split second. My brother really ruined that entire sport for me completely.

No. 1074072

>>1074009
>believing Ukrainian women will choose soycuck fattards over their men who fight to protect their country.
American males are so delusional, they can't even get the attention of one American woman out of the millions they share their country with yet think all Ukrainian women will be all over them. Because Eastern European women are trafficked so often men think they're easy when in reality they're forced into the stuff that's done to them. Disgusting.

No. 1074085

>>1074079
ignore the shitty racebait

No. 1074086

>>1074085
You're right. I'm not American so don't know about the races of countries as it's not a topic of discussion in my country so I thought it may have been true.

No. 1074087

>>1074079
Anon I’m referring to nationality, a lot of Africans who go to europe as refugees is due to proximity and closeness to the continent. Not everyone is a nasty scrote seeking refuge you dingus, do you want them to die too because they aren’t white~ ?

No. 1074090

>>1074086
And yes it has always been a topic of your country, you just live in absolute mind-boggling ignorance as all disgusting eurofags do. And no this isn’t bait I’m genuinely angry and disgusted by your reply, I’m tired of that excuse racial politics has never been just an “American” things it goes international and always has been.

No. 1074092

>>1074002
stop projecting

No. 1074108

>>1074052
why is it so? We love watching the disasters of humanity through the internet. Almost as if we love feeding off misery and suffering. The world is void of feeling and desensitized and as an adult if you feel things too intensely or are too concerned for others, that will fuck up your life. Why am I not allowed to have passion and speak my thoughts freely only because men have my passion? Don't take my words literally, it is not necessarily about you and it is true that we can only do so much for others, but don't tell me it is a lie when I tell you society is void of feelings and desensitized and a lot of times we fake empathy because if we truly felt it with our entire being we would observe how beyond saving the entire world is, how many people suffer, how much injustices take place. You are telling me I am like a scrote because I feel too much because I think the future is dystopian. We are only using each other for pleasure. We are destroying humanity and I am telling the world " we are destroying humanity" because we are and everything you can tell me is that I am a scrote. Users on reddit don't make posts like these because they are too lost jerking off to anime waifus, playing games and the philosophy scrotes are too lost in their theory to even observe our world is collapsing and that our culture is becoming more and more desensitized

No. 1074115

I hate when on every themed drawing board, people draw something completely unrelated. I know it's not a rule but it's annoying seeing all these beautiful or funny drawings, then there's your oh so special unique piece clashing with everything else. You can see the same nonas altering their little characters and doodles to flow with the boards and the other who wants to take up as much space and attention as they can.

No. 1074117

>>1074108
people have always been largely apathetic. this is the best it has ever been and it is still pure shit because people are lazy, easily distracted, and want to prioritize pointless culture war crap over addressing actual suffering

No. 1074131

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I've got braces for an open bite this November, with bite blocks and tongue crib. I wear a mask in public because I feel so self-aware of it - I cannot clench my teeth completely, there's a gap because of bite blocks, I cannot smile normally because my lips do not cover my mouth unless I have a neutral expression. I wanted to try Tinder again but I will have a long face until my ortho takes of my bite blocks. I'm so embarrassed to face anyone rn. Hate it here.

No. 1074132

>>1074052
and why you are telling I am thriving off others hard work? I have only thrived off my work so far. There are people that literally make a living off consuming korean noodles on camera, people that make a living off commenting on the suffering of others, people that make a living off stuffing pens up their asshole. In the modern world all of these are considered "work" and youre telling me that me wanting to write and spread a message to humanity and create a piece of art and literature is not work TOP KEK in a world, in an ideological system where ANYTHING that brings you money is considered a job and most things that bring people money are unethical and lack any sort of value and do not BRING ANYTHING OF VALUE TO THE WORLD. No real service, no value, no change. There are millions of people making money sitting on a chair on Youtube regurgitating ideas or simply consuming products until they become obese and you tell me that me being concerned about the ethics of humanity and the future of humanity and me wanting to make art and philosophy is not work. So, if I worked as a mukbanger, worked in a coporation or in mcdonalds or showed my tits on the web on the internet it would be me bringing a service to humanity. Most jobs bring nothing of value to humanity and by working them you are just feeding into a sick system and perpetuating abuse.

The system we live in is organized in such way to perpetuate abuse and it thrives off the suffering and abuse of others in weaker positions. There are few jobs which have meaning or bring real service to humanity, most jobs bring nothing but suffering to humanity so by working those jobs you are perpetuating the suffering of humanity.

The future is entirely dystopian and there is nobody to blame but ourselves as an entity, nobody to blame but our own species for the destruction of our species.

No. 1074133

>>1074002
you are wrong, anon.

a person only has so many resources, emotional or otherwise, to put forward; it's impossible to care for and save everyone simultaneously.

we all want to have a good life, and if not unhealthy, want others to have a life of dignity and fulfilment.

No. 1074135

>>1073976
I would pick working 40 hours a week over raising four kids every time. Why do these types of women seem to think that being a mother doesn’t involve work? If anything it involves more work than a full-time job because at least you can clock out every Friday.

No. 1074138

>>1074115
stop trying to humble other people it’s literally just a drawing board let people draw whatever the fuck they want. i had to bear with the husbandofags drawing their fanart you can do it too I promise you just click off kek

No. 1074139

>>1074108
>>1074132
>everything you do perpetuates suffering, we are a disease on this planet, humanity has no empathy we only use each other to feel good, muh message to humanity on a gossip board, the future is dystopian!
All that and making up stuff I never said. Now you really sound like a reddit philosopher

No. 1074145

>>1074133
yes, but in a highly immoral and unethical world where everyone is too lost in their own comfort everyone puts their hands in their pockets and lets abuse happen. Sometimes a life in which you sacrifice yourself for others can be more meaningful than a life in which you see for your own self and well being.

This reminds me, there is no political movement that actually fights against oligarchy, the state and a movement that actually stands up for the poor. In the past, liberal leftism used to be the movement which I am talking about but now it has been hijacked by the internet, capitalism and wokeism. We do not even hold, socially an ideology that could save the world. Just listen to this rage against the machine song this is the true revolutionary spirit of the liberal left.
>>1074139
No, I literally covered everything that you said in my response. Theres no reddit philosophers darling. Most redditors jack off to anime pictures and play LOL and they shut down and downvote any sort of deeper discussion because its pretentious. They hate holistic knowledge or philosophy and are only obsessed with le science.

No. 1074146

>>1074108
>>1074132
stop projecting romani anion, not everyone is as awful as you

No. 1074153

>>1074146
romanianon when she realizes she has to go to prison for molesting those kids and people are just being “unempathetic” for her molesting

No. 1074158

>>1074145
Romanianon didn't you get banned?

No. 1074160

>>1074145
>darling
>thinking redditors favorite game is still LOL and not MGTOW

No. 1074162

>>1074158
probably ban evades with an vpn on cost of those sweet guberment bux paid by those very same "mcdonalds workers, mukbangers and titty streamers" she shits on kek

No. 1074166

>>1074158
She constantly ban evades, and then gets banned for that too kek. Repeat.

No. 1074171

>>1074115
It's not annoying, you're just being autistic. Don't try to ruin the fun by taking everything so serious and policing the board, just chill and draw.

No. 1074174

>>1074162
>shit on fastfood workers who provide food, supermarket workers who provide a place to get basic ass necessary shit from
>live off of government money taken from the same hardworking people and still manage to get by because you have some sort of support system
She thinks communism would fit her needs but she'd just be killed off for being useless honestly. Communism is about working so hard til the brink of death for your country and doing even the shittiest job if it benefits your country.

No. 1074176

>>1074174
>working so hard til the brink of death for your country and doing even the shittiest job if it benefits your country

Didn’t know capitalism was called communism. Thanks anon!

No. 1074180

>>1074138
>Saying someone's huge boob doodle and retard sasuke is taking up drawing space from nonas who want to draw and making the board get cleared faster is trying to humble people

No. 1074185

>>1074174
we do not have the need of 10000000000000 millions stores that are under huge corporations that pay their workers like shit and provide no real value to society and we surely arent in need of 1000000000000000000 fast foods which DO NOT BRING HUMANITY SERVICE THEY BRING SUFFERING. A lot of humans are simply addicted to consuming useless products. In society we do have a need for so many stores and fast foods where those that were born in bad social situations are enslaved due to socio economical factors

No. 1074186

I've got 6 hours to finish all these assignments and I feel like shooting myself. Wish me luck on my test and 3 pointless mini essays, lest I survive them

No. 1074192

>>1074180
The board is not just for art anons or for super amazing pieces of art. If anons want to draw boobs and retarded Sasuke, let them. Boards getting cleared is no big deal, it's literally how the board works and the whole point is to fill up the board. Farmers like you suck the fun out of everything like you just hate to enjoy something.

No. 1074196

>>1074180
but the retard sasuke was apart of the themes kek

No. 1074197

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>>1074186
Good luck nonnie!!

No. 1074200

>>1074185
get a job,you don't ease the suffering by leeching off others

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>>1074185
Cadre Romania anon will decide which food everyone enjoys and what style of furniture and clothes and every other item they want. We only need one type of everything, and by everything I mean nothing, because wanting things is evil.

Do you still make a fortune with your youtube channels while your parents pay your bills?

No. 1074204

>>1074202
Holy cow. Let’s make a bet that I could find all of anons videos?

No. 1074209

I read a piece about forgiveness by a woman who's husband of 15 years left her with all of their 5 kids after she spent their entire marriage as his live in maid and child minder while he got to pursue his education and career. She talked about how she knew she forgave him when she gave the new gf he brought to their son's baseball game her spare pair of sunglasses. I am probably insane and definitely stoned but I cannot imagine wasting 15 years of my life pumping out babies and cleaning some cumstain waste of skin's house only to be left with 5 kids to feed while he chases fresh tail. I cannot stand men, I despise each and every one of them and the fact stories like this aren't horrific outliers but essentially the cultural norm now makes me want to shit. I wish every man out there a terrible day and an unforgettably shitty year.

No. 1074215

>>1074202
she was getting money from the scrote too, he spent quite a bit on her, like, thousands in a short amt of time. which is it? do you make money or don't you? every word out of her mouth is a constant contradiction

No. 1074219

>>1074174
realistically, we do not truly need any of the shit we produce, probably 10% of the shit we produce and consume we truly need it. The governments need to help people, your life is at the mercy of financial luck. If the governments give people minimum wage, free education, health care and mental counseling we can change humanity. Money is not even real, just a concept we have created at some point. The governments can regulate markets and print out money without it turning into another oppressive dictatorship like communism, but those ruling the world right now, which are some billionaire scrotes on a power trip are refusing to let this happen, to give financial opportunity, educate the masses and free us from our chains. Because those scrotes did not get there through value or the quality of leadership, they got there simply because they happened to be born into rich families and learnt the ways of the devil. Most billionaires use others as means to an end to make money.

>>1074202
what job do you have? where do you live? Did you grow up in a normal family and your parents have helped you financially to pursue college and such? I have not had parents support me financially since I was 17. I think you must be talking down on me like everyone else that talks down on me but in reality they have had much better opportunity than I did but still managed to do a mediocre job with the resources they were handled

>>1074202
thats not my post you dumb fuck. I will like to make content or create and talk about things I am truly passionate about like, literally analysis, art and philosophy and my own philosophical/political school of thought, but I am not allowed to because of my social/economical situation and because of me being a woman. My ambitions have transcended my environment and my intellect has transcended my verbal capacities. Most people that get somewhere in life, do so aided by their parents or are given that life by their parents. Most professors, artists and such were born in families that financially and socially aided them to become that.

No. 1074222

>>1074209
women can say all day long they want to have kids with their partner and even if the man left, the man is irrelevant because they want the kid, but having kids with men is the biggest way to get cucked and fucked by both men and society. the reality is very, very different, and very, very difficult.

No. 1074239

>>1074219
>thats not my post you dumb fuck
I guess that post was made by the other Romanian who loves to sperg about western feminists and was groomed into being a camwhore by an Ukrainian she met in a madhouse. There's probably dozens of posters like that on this site, my bad!

Your posts in this thread are bizarre and incoherent, even by your standards, are you out of your mind on drugs? How many benzos did you take today?

No. 1074246

>>1074219
>my intellect has transcended my verbal capacities
Kek

No. 1074255

>>1074192
>The board is not just for art anons or for super amazing pieces of art.
Exactly. I'm not defending or praising people's 1+ hour drawings. Let's have a retard sasuke board if we want to. But coming in to draw with the theme after being busy for an hour and having glowie spergs and schizo doodles taking up a quarter of the board is shitty.
Only 10 people maximum will skim through my vent anyway, eventually someone would make my post if I hadn't. Let me suck the fun out of it if I want to.

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I admit I love pissing off the anons here sometimes. They think talking to other women is gonna be like sugar and gumdrops, like no I’m going to be aggressive and angry and I love a good fight. I thought we hated gender expectations here? Talking to an anon is like bumping into a GTA NPC, giving the same typical angry rebuttals and responses.
>hey that was out of line!
>you must be a scrote

Kek it’s so much fun, sorry

No. 1074258

>>1074219
you could financially help yourself by getting a job

No. 1074262

>>1074257
Hey, that was out of line! You must be a scrote!

No. 1074263

>>1074219
romanianon spiraling into her manic phase. you haven’t transcended your verbal capacity you need to get the fuck off the internet and stop writing essays of nothing in this thread

No. 1074266

>>1074202
i honestly think most of this is just a lie too or her wishful thinking, because she has been seething and shitting on people who do ASMR a while ago, like she did a few posts above

No. 1074269

it's my birthday, I dumped my shitty ex, it's about to be nuclear war, everything is depressing, I have to go to work tomorrow but it's pointless

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>>1074266
It's an old post, so maybe she just changed her mind after she got banned or something. Her twitch says it was suspended, not deleted for example, so maybe she sperged out and lost it all.
She seethes particularly about things she ruined herself or that made her feel low, like that Ukrainian being prettier and more successful as a camwhore than her, so her saying ASMR is garbage after having her ASMR channel die fits the bill imho.

No. 1074273

>>1074002
t. a sociopath
while I agree most men are sociopaths, women also exist anon

No. 1074274

>>1074272
omg stop being autistic bitches and make the romanianon /snow/ thread already

No. 1074276

>>1074274
I'd love to use it, but I don't have the brain to compile all the information.

No. 1074277

>>1074257
I agree nonna, and I hate the mentality that anyone who disagrees is immediately a moid. I don’t like how anons think that just because we are all women here we need to share the exact same opinions and be a hive-mind. Surprise women have a ranging variety of personalities and views, must truly be groundbreaking.

No. 1074283

>>1074257
youre so cool anon, not like other farmers

No. 1074287


No. 1074288

>>1074276
Right. We need a real autistic anon to find her posts and to compile the narrative because there's just too much.

No. 1074291

>>1074274
I wish I could do this since i’ve had interactions with her but i’m too busy to look through every vent thread and old screenshots

No. 1074296

>>1074291
what interactions did you have with her?

No. 1074301

>>1074296
We were in the same discord server, i’m pretty sure other people who were in it as well have already shared all the info.

No. 1074305

>>1074301
not really. no one outside of her from the server has really elaborated much, she has just gone off on tangents, making accusations about how horrible you all in the server were.

No. 1074307

>>1074301
>>1074305
Yeah, I'm curious about the server, too.

No. 1074311

>>1074291
This can serve as a starting point >>1013274

No. 1074320

>>1074301
Anon get back in your discord account and find that shit lmao why are you being hesitant

No. 1074328

>>1074320
>>1074307
>>1074305
I also left the server a long time ago, she isn’t entirely wrong when she says the people in it are bitches because a lot of them could be, some were nice too of course it was 50/50 but for the most part she deserved it. When I have time i’ll comb through what >>1074311 linked and see what I can find and dates and such because I swear there was some big discord drama right before she left that leaked onto here but my memory is shit. The last I remember is that she got into some sort of disagreement with another girl? And made some vague post about here here or claimed someone was “impersonating” her or some shit and they fought in the server and I think that’s why she left.

No. 1074332

Stop responding to romani anon. If her posts were just ignored then she would have left a long time ago. Don’t feed her.

No. 1074337

>>1074332
She's too powerful, I can't resist…

No. 1074338

>>1074332
She's entertaining.

No. 1074339

>>1074277
Same. Having to read that another poster must be a moid because they dared think for themselves is the sort of misogynistic bullshit that I would expect from a 4chan incel. The way the accusation is always used to either make another anon shut up or to derail a thread just makes me think that it's actual moids that do this to disrupt the site. It's also very effective at causing infighting.

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No. 1074349

>>1074339
>because they dared think for themselves
No one gets called a moid just for having a different opinion, it's almost always because the poster sounds like they're fresh from pol/r9k/etc and didn't even bother to lurk or because they sound like trannies trying hard to larp. I also don't see how calling someone a moid makes anons shut up unless it's accurate, you can just brush it off.

No. 1074361

My younger brother keeps bringing his friends home and I can’t stand them anymore. They scream and play loud rap music that makes me want to puncture my eardrums. Both of our parents don’t seem to care because he is a teenager and he’s only hanging out with his friends but it’s really bothering me. I hate teenage scrotes they are demons

No. 1074362

>>1074328
What about that steven guy? Was she lying about him?

No. 1074366

>>1074362
i doubt it, because he still occasionally badly larps in threads

No. 1074369

>>1074366
Damn now I want an anon to compile his larps! This discord shit is crazy. Nothing good comes from it.

No. 1074372

>>1074349
This almost exact response gets posted every time the issue is mentioned
>just ignore it
The better solution would be to report and ignore the poster that is suspected of being a scrote. Farmhands can see post history and will be aware of who is a genuine farmer or moid. Report and ignore is such a simple concept the fact that certain posters refuse to do it just convinces me more that it's men acting maliciously.

No. 1074374

>>1074366
I wonder if Steven was also behind some of her other insane posts.

No. 1074380

>>1074374
i don't think so.

No. 1074382

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I give up, I surrender, there's no getting better and I'll always end up alone. Nothing's worth the work because nothing is good enough and never will be. All is for nothing. All is for nothing

No. 1074383

>>1074374
He seemed very stupid, I doubt he could fake her style.

No. 1074384

just purged for the first time in 4? years… cool and fun. i've been binging lately so i guess it was bound to happen idk. i am the eternal fattychan

No. 1074396

I feel so bad when I see other people having fun online. I'll never be fun to be around, deep down I'm too stuck up and boring. I want to leave it behind already, I don't care about sharing what I make anymore. It feels like no one else cares either, the likes I get mean nothing to me when no one ends up talking to me. But then again I also wouldn't have anything to say in response. It's all too complicated for me, I'll never get it

No. 1074399

my boyfriend keeps liking random insta thot pictures so now I'm liking random chad pictures and responding to their dms
idgaf anymore

No. 1074401


No. 1074405

>>1074277
IMO disagreeing with someone or having a different opinion than the majority is not the same as what that anon apparently likes to do, which is starting fights and pissing people off on purpose.

No. 1074406

>>1074399
Based, it's not even simple resentment at that point but pure equality and justice

No. 1074411

>>1074399
cheat on him

No. 1074421

>>1074399
grow a pair and dump him, embarrassing

No. 1074423

I should’ve never checked in on my ex. He’s living a dream life and mine is total fucking garbage. It’s bad to compare, I know, but he’s been to amazing places, has an extremely well paying job, just bought a house. Meanwhile, I’m barely scraping by.

No. 1074424

>>1074399
Wow anon you sure showed him sounds like a very stable relationship

No. 1074429

>>1074424
kek right her boyfriend is clearly too busy looking at other women on instagram to notice what she's doing

No. 1074432

>>1074349
>No one gets called a moid just for having a different opinion
Bullshit. Obsessed schizos here accuse people of being moids for literally any stupid reason

No. 1074448

Maan what id give to be born again with the genetic lottery. Ill never be anything more than average and that kinda saddens me because im supposes to be in my prime and i look so forgettable. Nothing looks good on me and all my suitable haircuts just hide my face. Same with clothes. Couldn't i of been suitable for something sexy and more free? Why does everything that looks good on me have to hide me lol

No. 1074461

>>1074423
I was you a week ago. Just find your center and don't associate yourself with those people and their progress. You'll be okay.

No. 1074465

>>1074197
i finished them! thank you nona

No. 1074467

>>1074423
it's ok. i felt the same about my extremely privileged cheating ex but then his mom and young asshole brother died, leaving him with no one. it'll happen to your guy too most likely. just wait.

No. 1074475

Fuck I don't wanna live anymore I want to kill myself l, I'm done I'm just not strong enough I can't. I'm still here for my mom fur I want to duck off, nonnas. Oh god, I'm in so much pain, fuck.

No. 1074479

I come here every time I feel like this and it's almost embarrassing how often it happens now, but I feel like something is inherently wrong with me and everyone can clearly tell. Even online people will do their best to avoid talking to me. One time some girl reached out to me and she mentioned off-handedly how someone in her discord made this joke or thought that about something I posted. Why wouldn't you say it directly? Why tell a friend and have them screenshot and send it to me casually? It's so upsetting. Everything upsets me. I wish I had someone to talk to or just casually joke with, but I don't. I can't stand being around anyone anymore because there's always someone else on their mind. It's like I don't matter to anyone, if anything they'll save a picture I drew without losing a word about it. What's the point in doing anything? I feel like nothing I put in comes back out and sooner or later there will be someone else filling that niche anyway. I don't matter, nothing I can say matters. My brain feels so empty all the time, I don't know what to do with myself anymore. I'd be better off dead honestly, all I do is inconvenience others. I want someone to know how I feel, but I also want to keep everything to myself until someone finally notices and apologizes or something, I don't know

No. 1074484

>>1074052
Idk spamming gay Putin memes to demoralize seems like a free supportive thing to do.

No. 1074487

>>1074484
that's so millenial of you anon, how do you make time between your harry potter marathons

No. 1074490

>>1074209
If women went full annihilation like men do, the men won't try to pull this shit.

No. 1074492

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Reee got randomly reminded of a really shitty ex friend who treated me like dirt and no one in the friend group ever acknowledged it properly. Fuck you, you shallow bitch fuck you for putting me down and then gaslighting me to make me think I was the crazy one reading too much into your insults, then playing victim. And fuck the rest of our friends for never growing a spine, fuck this one girl in particular who's still asking about me after years, like she cares, if she really did she could contact me herself, she has my number and I've never blamed her for anything until now. Why bother asking about me and pretending like you care through our mutuals when you're totally fine excluding me in games and groupchats on purpose on discord just to appease the first bitch? Did you figure maybe that might rub me the wrong way and make me not want to speak to you? Spineless.

No. 1074496

>>1074448
Cringe, avg looking ppl can look pretty if they have the right styling. Look at Kibbe body stuff and work on your posture.

No. 1074497

I drank some juice that I think expired and now I want to throw up, I don’t want to, I hate throwing up, but I also just want to go to sleep so I can go get this week’s water at 6 am

No. 1074499

my boss keeps having me do stuff at work that I have no clue how to do and won't help me and then it makes me look bad but he won't take responsibility at all. like i've edited this document for a client three times now and they're still sending it back with edits despite me fixing them to the best of my ability bc I have very minimal knowledge of the subject matter. this whole project has been a shitshow because he fucked up the whole thing and now the clients think i'm inept when i'm trying to pick up the pieces. I send him my edited document for his review and he doesn't even bother to look at it, just sends it back to the client and then they're dissatisfied and the cycle repeats again. he clearly also has no fucking clue what he's doing but instead of taking ownership he uses me as a scapegoat. I want to quit my job or im going to kill myself

No. 1074501

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I don’t care if I ruin others people’s lives anymore.
>stop making other people miserable

What about me? What the fuck about ME? It’s never about ME it’s always about the idiots I will never ever interact with or ever impact but everyone is allowed to fucking ruin me and my entire will to live but no it’s me that has to have morals, it’s me that as to think about the “people I’m going to hurt” but what about the fucking person that is already hurt which is me? I’m so fucking angry right I fucking hate everyone

No. 1074505

>>1074497
Where are you anon that you have to gather water

No. 1074509

>>1074501
>you just want to make everyone miserable
>I hate doomers like you
>you just want to pull everyone down

Because everyone is responsible. Everyone in some way is responsible for me being miserable. It isn’t just me or myself it’s living in this awful world, having to type this stupid shit up on a shitty fucking website instead of being free of the loneliness I feel every day. I constantly have to remediate my words, my anger, my bitterness, my frustration, and keep it all down with care and fragility and people have to watch me slowly decompose before their eyes and don’t even know it. Even on this website I can’t express my rage or humor without other retards piling in complaining “hey what about myyyy daddy that died that’s no funny :(( kill yourself” maybe your daddy shouldn’t have been a fucking idiot and died from alcohol poisoning, maybe your dumb fucking daddy should have thought to be smarter, maybe daddy should have put the bottle down and attended to his kid who has clearly fucking failed at life if they are posting on this god awful website. Everyone’s families here are alcoholics, pedophiles, narcissists, and I am not surprised that the nest you come from never leaves you and that is why everyone is so unbearable. What sisterhood shit is this? Nothing about this is better than 4chan, it’s just slightly more bearable

No. 1074511

>>1074501
Constantly being ignored, constantly being forgotten, constantly being restricted, and going no where. What is even the point of anything? Sometimes you just want to truly fuck shit up I don’t give a damn about your papa

No. 1074543

>>1074509
Get a blog, girl.

No. 1074545

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>>1074509
seek help

No. 1074546

>>1074509
anons in that thread pointed out that you could end up running over children and animals too you know, or do you think they also deserve harm?

No. 1074552

>>1074546
Who said I was gonna hop into an actual car and drink and drive? It was a joke. That anon is truly pathetic I bet she posts man hate all the time but when her dad finally dies it’s all boohoo, it’s a bad time for a joke. The man is dead anon, your smelly fat burping daddy is dead

No. 1074555

>>1074496
Nta but most clothes recommended by kibbe are hideous and he's inconsistent with his own rules.

No. 1074559

Wish I could have a stay at home job selling custom work for decent money, that would be the dream. Feels like I'm about to sell sfw furry work to give myself better financial security I just absolutely hate the fact so many are troon, pedo, and zoo fuckers.

No. 1074585

>>1074496
No offense but kibbe is shit and not everybody can look pretty even if they had professional work done. You can't fix uneven skulls and deformities.

No. 1074589

>>1074585
Deformities are very uncommon. The beauty standards have become unattainable in the last 20 years but honestly before that, most women could be beautiful just with a little grooming. As women get independence, male's standards rise in an ironic way as they want to leave women so obsessed with looks, they can't really accomplish anything in their loves aside from trying to appeal to the male gaze.

No. 1074617

I wish I didn't have internet access when I was a minor. It made me lose faith in humanity and hate myself. It impacted me deeply for good. Even now, internet is deteriorating my mental health, but I'm addicted to it. I hope someday I can be free from this shithole.

No. 1074627

Tired of the lsa immigrants on celebricows who get a free pass to shit on white people because jannies are scared

No. 1074629

>>1074627
I don't understand why farmers keep saying this because it's not true, those posts can and do get banned for racebait/racesperging.

No. 1074637

I only have my (currently LDR) boyfriend and my parents as the only people I talk to regularly. I used to go out and do social things prior to the pandemic but I feel like I've become more and more socially withdrawn these last two years. It's probably incredibly unhealthy and I know it would be better for me to go back to my more active pre-pandemic routine but I've grown too habituated to my current shut-in life. Now I am at the point where I feel like I would be fine not ever dealing with other human beings other than my family and my boyfriend.

No. 1074647

Saying a woman is “jealous” of another woman is misogyny-lite and no one will change my mind. There are cases where yes, a woman is jealous or envious of another woman and it’s always very apparent. A woman making a valid point or just trying to help a girl out does not make her jealous. It’s just another term to keep women down like Karen, “The girls that get it, get it. The ones that don’t, dont.”, tHaT gIrL, etc.

No. 1074664

>>1074647
I partially agree. Women helping out women or voicing out opinions usually get shot down with jealousy accusations but there are real cases where women are jealous of other women, though it's usually abouts wealth, success and stuff like that rather than male attention in my experience.

No. 1074731

Why do so many moids stink, are unwashed with bad breath?

No. 1074733

>>1074731
Because you live in a shitty druggie ghetto?

No. 1074735

>>1074733
no most moids are stinky and ugly

No. 1074738

sick of retards expecting me to care about ukraine, as if that nazi state holds any significance at all. good riddance and let it go boom.

No. 1074748

>>1074735
Yeah most are. They don't even change their outfits or shower often most of the time and when they do, they don't wash up their whole bodies.

No. 1074754


No. 1074777

I fucking hate myself for staying in this relationship. Every fucking week I have to defend myself and fight for respect. But god knows the moment everything falls back into place again I am head over heels and fawning over them again. They can be the sweetest and most loving being, and the moment after I am the one who never does anything, who is stupid and lazy.
I shouldn’t be fighting for being properly respected and I hate that I always go back to the starting point. He won’t leave me and I won’t leave him I don’t even know why.
Everyone else is alwaYs saying how much we love each other and the heart in the eyes, yet no one is ever there to call them out on their disrespectful bullshit.

No. 1074816

>>1074777
I hate this situation when somehow both parties cant bring themselves to break up. When it's good, it's amazing and you know you'll regret losing it but when it's bad it's honestly the worst and you question why are you even still together. So exhausting.

No. 1074830

>>1074372
It's because reporting and ignoring both doesn't help half of the times, and it's also funny to assume that the ones calling out the moid also aren't the ones reporting.

No. 1074853

>>1074501
don't make yourself recognizable on here anon. You will be told insane shit. In female society, women are only allowed to vent anger by making fun of other women or gossiping, you cannot go the scrote route and see how in such an immoral world where we constantly use and hurt each other even murder can be justified and you cannot philosophize your suffering or have an inclination towards literature. This from a purely objective perspective. But don't do this, like don't actually go out there and hurt people, but expressing yourself and your anger through literature and art might be the only thing helping you. Unfortunately, on most internet spaces art is completely censored and self expression is censored too or what is acceptable to say is remediated by the group you are in. You won't find your solace here though, most women on this website are actual sociopaths or very low IQ and I wouldn't say it's better than 4chan, women can be as vile as men and this website is built around female sociopathy which is wishing the death of mentally ill women, it's other mentally ill women wishing death and suffering on other mentally ill women that at some point have gotten something they wish they had, like being a moderu in Nippon. It's solely projection, I've observed this pattern of calling abused women with bad life coping mechanisms "narcissists" it's on here a lot. This place is built upon the strongest feeling women have in their society which is hatred and jealousy towards other women and complete objectification. I came across lolcow when I was underaged and I was looking at Ashley Issac's thread, that's how I came across lolcow, back then I got hooked onto it and I thought everything the anons were saying was true, but later I realized threads are constructed in such ways that they demonize the person the thread is made about and the posters are incredibly mentally ill and porjecting on the cow. It's always 4-5 vendetta fags with extreme sociopathy and mental illness which are cowish in themselves. C'mon you have to recognize that you are a cow to some extent if you've been posting in some mentally ill and abused girl's thread that does not even cause immoral deeds for years turning everything she does into something evil. Only BPD fags or sociopathy fags obsess over people suffering and observe each of their actions like that or wish for their downfall. You have to have some form of extreme mental illness if you've been posting for years in a mentally ill girl's thread. Being around men nowadays as bad, you could have the same ideas as them and they would love your ideas in anonymity, yet if they would find out you're a woman they will completely objectify you and forget about your words and work and hate your guts.
>>1074543
That's so stupid. A very stupid thing to say.

No. 1074858

>>1074853
Even as a hyperbolic vent you must be insane to not understand how fucked up it is to say you will drunk drive and kill people and double down on it. If you are pining to vent like a male then just go to the pigpen and wallow with them.

No. 1074861

>>1074853
>That's so stupid. A very stupid thing to say.
I'm guessing this is your first encounter with romania-chan? kek

No. 1074877

>>1074858
yes, but what if? nobody is truly excused from the sin of being human. Humans are terrible, most humans are criminals but they hide it. There's no difference from committing a crime and killing someone and living your life as a human and committing millions of crimes throughout your life that you are not even aware of. Most humans are vile and they contribute to the suffering of the world. Most humans are willing to step on their brothers and sister to get to the top, most humans are bullies, rotten inside with a fake mask of positivity. Most humans buy and consume so much shit that is made at the expense of poor children in China or underdeveloped countries. When someone is unwell or dying nobody will aid that person as humans are inherently self centered and society makes us even more self interested, it conditions us to being void of feelings or empathy towards others. It's always performative empathy, not genuine. If you kill people from an objective and completely non subjective and detached stance you bring no more suffering to the world than there already is as the world is already full of suffering and abuse created by humans. There are millions of people dying in wars, millions of people dying of hunger and the average western person lives on the labor and abuse of those weaker than him. Most humans use other humans. In such society murder is only to be justified. We laugh at murders, at atrocities, we laugh at the mentally ill and see them as jokers, we live those that were born unlucky rot in the streets. We are vile as a species.

>>1074861
everyday I'm being convinced this place's collective IQ must be somewhere around 80

No. 1074878

>>1074861
you are literally replying to her

No. 1074881

>>1074853
Get a blog, girl.

No. 1074899

>>1074877
Then don't come back, easy.

>>1074878
Am I? Romania-chan sounds more unhinged, I'm convinced it's just someone who shares her worldview but is less extreme about it. I haven't been keeping up with whether she LARPs as someone else and replies to herself, though.

No. 1074902

>>1074877
stop projecting your own awful character traits and get
a job

No. 1074905

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>>1074509
>uwu za warudo sucks
Again, if you hate living so much, seriously, just drop dead already, you know that nobody will miss you and nobody cares about your existence since you’re just a grain of salt in the ocean. So like, just do the world a favor and either seek help or die.

No. 1074909

>>1074899
yes, you 100% are, she nade this exact wall of text several times already down to the details..

No. 1074919

>>1074909
Goddamn it, thank you for letting me know kek.

No. 1074989

>>1074905
na, i wish I could drop dead easily. legalize nembutal

No. 1075019

I’m so tired, I wish i was normal

No. 1075111

An internet friend passed from cancer. we weren't super close but they were always so kind to me. I'm crying i don't know how to process this and i dont feel like i have the right to grieve

No. 1075132

>>1074853
Leave me alone romanianon you literally molested kids. I actually can’t fucking stand you and the way you butt into things that doesn’t involve you like fuck off

No. 1075173

>>1074877
>everyday I'm being convinced this place's collective IQ must be somewhere around 80
Girl it's you bringing the average down

No. 1075187


No. 1075245

>>1075111
You have every right to grieve anon, doesn't matter if you were her best friend or just an acquaintance.

No. 1075303

>>1074585
Note I said average looking ppl can become pretty. Ugly ppl obviously can't. Though if you have uneven features there's way to myofacial exercises, and makeup to make it look more even. Having hair swept to higher side/having an earring only on higher side gives illusion of symmetry.

No. 1075312

>>1074738
Back to 4chan and take your psyop brainworms with you

No. 1075316

>>1074853
you need to stop sperging but i will agree with you on only one point and thats >>posting in some mentally ill and abused girl's thread that does not even cause immoral deeds for years turning everything she does into something evil.
I agree with this especially when it comes to the anachan and lucinda threads.

No. 1075324

>>1074777
It's called trauma bonding and you need to break up. Get another addiction for a while if you need a hit, being addicted to a male is 100x dangerous than alcohol or caffeine.

No. 1075330

that girl is haunting the vent thread

No. 1075335

>>1074877
When was the last time you helped/cared about someone? Wasting your life seething like a redditor, well done.

No. 1075346

i've said it before, discord is the root of all evil. what a festering pile of shit place, every despicable thing comes from that apocalyptic wasteland of a platform.

No. 1075350

>>1075335
Based. She's now gonna come and tell you she's helped so many women by giving them a tiny amount of cash even though she time and time talked about how she raped little kids and doxxed can whores she disliked so they'd get harassed.

No. 1075352

>can whores
me. i'm a slut for canned soup.

No. 1075355

>>1075316
Lucinda is a munchie though and also aggressively selfposting, on top of being an ana-chan and encouraging others not to take their meds.

No. 1075369

My job makes people feel really good (not a whore) and I feel so weird getting complimented afterwards about how amazing I am or whatever compliments people usually have. I especially hate it when it happens around other people/coworkers. I’m grateful for how they feel(it’s why I got into the profession), and it’s not their fault I am an emotional sped, but some reason I just cringe when people give me praise. Why am I like this. 13 years later and I still can’t get over it.
>inb4 childhood trauma

No. 1075370

>>1075355
even the things you listed aren't that severe, there are way worse cows than her.
She just seems like a mentally ill struggling ana-chan and alot of the anons in the thread are just like her,a bunch of projecting ana-chans taking out their anger out on her kek.

No. 1075371

>>1075369
your a therapist or a massager?

No. 1075373

>>1075369
Whats your job anon?

No. 1075376

>>1075324
NTA but thanks for introducing me to that term anon, reading about it opened my eyes to a lot of things in my life

No. 1075381

>>1075371
>>1075373
Massage therapist

No. 1075384

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Why do men be great til they gotta be great?

I've been talking with this guy I met online for over a year, we're both close friends who talk quite a lot. But there is a huge timezone difference, and I'm ahead by 10 hours. An issue I keep running into is him sometimes choosing to sleep in for another 2-3 hours every now and then, instead of talk to me. And he audaciously apologizes and assures me that he's trying, but I'm not sure if I buy what he's selling, for this to be a consistent issue. This was one of the worst weeks ever because it happened twice, it happened last Sunday, and the Sunday just yesterday. Anyways, I forgave him and sneaked onto discord at around 1 AM his time while hiding my online status, and this audacious moid was online doing god knows what until he got off at around 1:30 AM or so. Anyways, I caught him around his usual wake-up time that we agreed to, 5:30 AM, and he greeted me like nothing was wrong. I asked him for what reason are you staying so late if sleep is an issue for you and it leads to you neglecting me. He apologized and said that he usually doesn't sleep well, even for the days that we both talk for hours and hours on end. I told him to vocaroo an apology to me for staying up so late. And this utterly testosterone-poisoned, arrogant asshole actually did it. Anyways, he was in bed so he sounded kinda sleepy still and he had a joking tone to his voice, which made me think that even though he apologized, he didn't mean it. I went out for a bit, and am writing this now.

Hey, faggot, the reason why you're so sleepy and not around for me is because you stay up doing moid shit like probably looking at porn or playing a videogame or something.

No. 1075389

>>1075384
>online dating discord moid
See what happened to romianon and her online bf, don't do this

No. 1075398

>>1075352
Kek. I love you anon.
>>1075355
Lucinda is cute but I think she feeds off of the attention of these threads and they only worsen her situation. I also thought some posts were selfposts, especially when someone mentioned how kiwi moids did better at appreacting her rather than the women on lolcow who were supposedly jealous, even though most of the thread is recovered girls wishing her well.

No. 1075407

>>1075389
We're platonic friends. The most we've done is masturbate together.

No. 1075408

>>1075384
>>1075389
Anon’s right, don’t bother online dating discord scrotes, this moid is probably flirting with multiple women at different hours. It’s discord. You can never really know what someone’s up to online.

No. 1075415

>>1075389
sorry for asking to be spoonfed, but what happened?

No. 1075419

>>1075408
We're both in-between jobs and spend around… a double digit amount of hours talking together on discord on a normal day? I don't think he's a good multitasker if he can't even balance SLEEP and waking up at a time we agreed to so we could spend more time together. So I don't think he's talking to other women, but you never really know.

No. 1075431

>>1075419
Why tf are you spending double digit time talking to a useless man instead of meeting a guy irl and having a normal relationship?

No. 1075432

I cannot with you lot. You fuckers. Can you fucking stop being discordshitters for one second, it's ruining my life. Always some idiot with their inane problems about some 4chan or discord scrote like a 15 year old idiot. I cannot with you idiots. I got over my kik phase at 12. Why, I ask. Why subject yourself to this? Then have the audacity to think of yourself as a sensible human, you are not. You are not. So fucking tired, how many of you moronic morons are up late at night, spending your energy on complete bottom of the barrel discord/reddit/4chin scrotes? I cannot take anything any poster says seriously, I guess that's a good thing, whenever some insanely dumb opinion is posted here, I can make myself feel better knowing some girl who wastes her time vying for the attention of discord-using men is behind it. Your need for male validation… I get it, I get it! You are only human. But at least chose a good man! Tired.

No. 1075433

>>1075407
Nvn I think this is bait. No woman would masturbate with a discord moid and say it like this and just say they're friends… Right?!

No. 1075434


No. 1075435

>masturbating together with a discord moid
The fucking state.
The absolute fucking state.

No. 1075437

Girls, please just block that discord moid you are talking to. Block every moid you are talking to on discord. It is not worth it.

No. 1075444

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I want to like this game so bad but dumb harem anime shit keeps happening and ruins it for me. I wish the characters started as adults and became older adults after the timeskip. I like the social sim aspect but it feels gross and slimy to play an adult teacher seducing their teenage students.

No. 1075445

>>1075437
They will not consider it right now. You know it as well as me. One day, I'm hopeful, every girl will realize it's a major waste. At this moment, they will keep getting giddy and giggly over some text by a dirty guy.

No. 1075448

>>1075384
>>1075407
Besides the fact it's an online "platonic" friendship with a discord moid, I wouldn't be waking up earlier/not sleeping in for an online friendship either.

No. 1075468

a while ago i posted that i have no addictions bc im built diffferent. well now it's klonopin and coffee

No. 1075475

File: 1646065970995.jpg (2.71 MB, 4608x2592, 20170726_133634.jpg)

I MISS YOU SO MUCH, I MISS YOU SOOO MUCH.

No. 1075479

>>1075444
You can skip most of the social stuff after you're done with some tutorials, then you can focus on the actual game, you know, the maps and battles. It's way less well written than the previous games, Fates included and it doesn't know if it wants to be serious or fanservicey, Edelgard is the best example of that.

No. 1075501

There’s an office potluck and the laziness of some people. I’m not putting in money or effort again. Two of the only moids in the office vaguely brought “meat”, and the other “drinks” (neither planned ahead despite there being weeks before this and lots of reminders). There’s some that brought actual food, other’s, nothing or something last-minute. I spent too much and I regret it, these assholes don’t deserve my cooking.

No. 1075506

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No. 1075509

>>1075506
this is NOT the time girl

No. 1075517

>>1075303
>Ugly ppl obviously can't
You understimate the power of makeup. It can make people look unrecognizable.

No. 1075518

I always feel guilty thinking this way but I’m tired of the homeless in my area.
Local richer towns come and dump their homeless in our city since we’re mostly minority and low income.
I can’t walk down any street without someone sleeping on the sidewalk or go to the store without someone pestering me for money along with the insane meth usage.
I feel bad but my sympathy has a limit.

No. 1075540

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I just wanna kill all moids

No. 1075541

>>1075506
bruh seriously?

No. 1075545

>>1075518
Why feel bad? I've had homeless scrotes pull weird ass shit and try to attack me and shit in open daylight they don't deserve respect. Homeless commit a lot of sex crimes

No. 1075548

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No. 1075549

>>1075540
Yeah, right. LCtards say that and the next day they're whining about their cheating scrotefriends lmao

No. 1075550

>>1075437
I feel like a lot of women go through this. I never thought I would be giddy about an internet moid, but I was a couple years ago. I think it is easier for moids to hide their true nature through text and they have to put no effort in. It is weird how it feels hard like leaving an abusive relationship because you depend on that validation, even though it is all online. These discord moids prey on the vulnerable and those that are lonely, as all males do. I hope everynona realizes soon and blocks. But they have to realize it for themselves.

No. 1075552

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>>1075549
all the more reason to purge them

No. 1075560

>>1075549
I swear. These girls need to know a moid will never be a good friend. You should never waste energy and emotions on them. We all have moments of weakness but some of them, I swear.

No. 1075561

>>1075518
Same. Majority of homeless people are insane and/or dangerous. I hate the moralfags that will shame you for not liking homeless people, because they’re “disadvantaged”. I don’t care, most homeless people have sexually harassed me, yelled at me, or aggressively pestered me for money. It’s mostly men you see on the street anyways, defective men that are where they are because of drug addiction or stubbornness not to get a job. You rarely see women because they’re either snatched up by human trafficking or able to stay in a shelter without pestering the public and eventually get back on their feet. I don’t have sympathy for the moids on the streets.

No. 1075563

>>1075549
You realize all posters are different people… Right?
>>1075560
I think they meant boyfriend.

No. 1075569

>>1075563
Wow, no way! Never realized it!

No. 1075572

>>1075561
Yeah. The man attacking me was very mentally unstable and would've probably hurt me if someone at the Cafe I was sitting in didn't come and ward him off. He got upset he tried to talk to me and I didn't reply, he started yelling and teied doing weird ass shit. This is nature's way of killing defective males but people still protect them. A homeless man who's useless is worthy more in the eyes of society than the woman he's raping or assaulting.

No. 1075582

>>1075572
I notice that homeless men seem more brave with pestering women for money atleast thats what i feel.


I do feel sorry for the homeless people who are homeless due to their job closing down or not enough $ wage to have a place to stay. Those people are living hard and its sad that they get grouped in with druggie and alcoholic homeless people.

No. 1075606

There's way too many 18 year olds in the friendship finder thread

No. 1075617

>>1075606
Are you suggesting they're underage or that there are a lot of teens?

No. 1075634

>>1075617
Nta but yes.

No. 1075659

>>1075518
The only male homeless people that never pestered me were young gay guys who got kicked out by their homophobic parents and a pretty cool but mentally ill guy who stayed near my old place so he'd make small talk with everyone in the neighborhood until he got brutally murdered years ago and the police never investigated. I actively ignore the rest. I'm also sick of gypsies in public transport stealing wallets and phones, smelling awful and making their kids beg for money everywhere they go. I feel bad for their kids mostly.

No. 1075670

I think I won't get closure from my ex until he dies. Just putting that out there.

No. 1075696

>>1075518
I've lived in areas where people who aren't even homeless (they had free social housing and disability allowance) but were alcoholics would constantly walk around making up stories about needing 2 euro for bus fare for an emergency..BS.

At the time I was temporarily disabled myself and no better off than them. It annoyed me that I was living a frugal life and being approached with the same made up story every day by someone who matches my own income. Like you do know I recognise you? I know where you live and I hear your sob story every day Lol. Its rarely even genuinely homeless people that beg where I am. We have a decent system looking after people and they still want strangers to buy them their alcohol.

No. 1075697

HOUR 3 ON CALL WITH INSURANCE
tldr, the approved coverage for meds but it's not updating. The customer service sent me to the pharm company they contract out to, and by the grace of god this chick who answered was like " NO, we are getting the ANSWER".
She has been attached to the call the whole time, and every time we get sent somewhere else she is on it.
I might just have a guardian angel today.
Pray for us nonnies. we are on hold… again.

No. 1075701

>>1075697
OOOH she pulled a "Get Your Supervisor, NOW."

No. 1075713

Days been shit. Realized that i've begun turning into a wagey with no plans nor ambitions. Every single time I want to do something, I quickly lose that flame, and end up just playing vidya instead. Real friends are half a country away, internet ones are playing elden ring. Relatives are far away. The only close one, sis, i don't think she gets me, I just dont want her to be nervous. Economy is shit, and its gonna be shittier from now on, and i didnt even get to buy myself a gpu. Or make renovations.
Seriously, fuck life. I'd fucking kill myself if my sis didnt depend on me. Dont want to turn to alchohol either.

No. 1075718

>>1075701
Tell her I love her

No. 1075726

I applied for my first retail job, I'm hoping to challenge my anxiety but I feel like I was a bit too autistic in the "why do you want to work here" but maybe that'll lend me a hand, the people there look like fellow autists anyways

No. 1075732

>>1075726
Cute, I hope it works out for you anon, you'll do a good job!

No. 1075757

>>1075352
guys my bf eats cold soup directly from the can, is he a can whore?

No. 1075816

>>1075701
Guy picks up phone; said supervisor is busy… again. It's been 40 minutes. I finally raise my voice, "Look, we have politely asked 3 TIMES to speak to the supervisor. I'm not answering any questions until you do as we have asked." Back on hold
By the way, I have a SIGNED letter saying this is a special request.

No. 1075823

I hate how mental illness has been claimed by LARPERs, zoomers and Twitter tards. Actually mentally ill people that have been through hell mask it. I hate these Twitter faggots making a competition out of mental illness. My entire family has been destroyed due to poverty and mental illness and my life is being destroyed by that and for these faggots being mentally ill is nothing but a competition and some form of status quo. They are huge fakers. We're losing the definition of what it means to be mentally ill

No. 1075835

I genuinely have never wanted to do anything with my life or had any ambitions or dreams at all, I will always be depressed and useless and just want to give up and kill myself but my mom loves me too much and it'd ruin her life, and I know this is retarded and selfish etc etc but it feels unfair

No. 1075853

>>1075823
Makes me mad as well. I used to watch the Pixielock’s thread, but I had to stop because her larping having trauma made me infuriated. These people are spoiled and have no idea how difficult living day-to-day is with mental illness. It’s not “cool” or “quirky”, it’s debilitating and takes a lot of work to function in this society with it. If they really had mental illness and lived with the effects of trauma, these fakes would never publicly talk about it or would kill themselves.
And for the zoomers that buy all this merchandise, like pins that read “anxiety” or “be gentle I’m autistic”, you look like attention-seeking retards and walking red flags. Yeah awareness is good, but there’s a point where it becomes some sick competition to them and they weaponize it as a way to excuse their shitty actions. I’ll see zoomers wear lanyards, pins, stickers, beanies, t-shirts, hell even get tattoos. They have no identity.

No. 1075864

>>1073983
What the fuck else do you want us to do
What are YOU doing retard

No. 1075866

>>1075726
never fucking mind the website crashed before I could submit I want to cry

No. 1075879

>>1075864
it's not about YOU stupid fucking cunt. It's an observation regarding humanity. Why do you have to turn everything into something about YOU. Take all my posts personally and twist all my words. I give 0 fucks about you. You completely misread my post because you either have 0 reading comprehension, you are stupid or very young. It was not about you. It's an analysis towards society and how he have evolved as a mass of people and how the internet has been affecting us into turning into sociopaths. We are consuming tragedy on a daily basis. Feeding off tragedy and suffering, being addicted to it. I hate technology.

No. 1075886

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I like kind people who want to help others and not fight

No. 1075887

>>1075864
Just ignore it anon, it's Romanianon again. She'll start raging again.

No. 1075888

>>1075835
sameee i always say if it werent for the fact that killing myself would hurt my mom and siblings i would have done it years ago

No. 1075890

>>1075879
And? What do you want people to do?

No. 1075901


No. 1075904

>>1075879
Romanianon how can you live without working? Does government pay you for your disability? Do you still have those 3 youtube channels or do you camwhore?

No. 1075906

>>1075886
This image being posted under a ragepost is perfect.

No. 1075914

>>1073983
What else are people supposed to do though? People are still gonna have to eat, sleep, work to make eating and having a roof to sleep under possible. It's either continueing our daily routines to survive or dying.

No. 1075915

IN TOTAL I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO RESOLVE MY PRESCRIPTION ISSUE FOR 4 HOURS!!!!! Finally the idiot transfers us to the supervisor. The woman who answered (ofc a woman comes in to solve it), is polite, welcoming, and informative. She already sent the final email to whatever fucking department needs to change the price, and it's resolved. it took 4 HOURS with a pharm tech rep on the phone with me from ANOTHER COMPANY to resolve this.
I thanked my Monday Hero (Tory, if you are reading this, you rock) and we both agreed to drink a glass of wine tonight.

also, I had enough downtime to make banana bread, if any nonnies want in. ♥

No. 1075922

i had sex for the first time in 2+ years, we used a condom but i’m feeling suuuuuuuuuuuuuper paranoid as fuck
help me anons

No. 1075929

>>1075922
Plan B! (or other brands) works… I wannna say max 5 days out?
If you can't afford it and are in the US, Planned Parenthood can hook you up.
I understand being anti BC if you are, but I wouldn't risk a baby

No. 1075930

>>1075915
I'd take a piece, please and thank you.

No. 1075932

>>1075922
no baby no baby no baby no baby no baby, there that should work. Thank me later!

No. 1075933

Gay baby

No. 1075941

>>1075890
nothing. It's the vent thread and I can write whatever I want to take it off my chest. I can vent my thoughts and objectify contents that are torturing me on an anonymous website, in a vent thread without being questioned like I'm taking an interview. It's the vent thread.

How could we improve humanity? With a large scale revolution. That is the only way. Revolting against an oppressive system that enslaves those who lack financial opportunity. REFUSE TO CONSOOOM. IF WE ALL STOPPED CONSOOMING THE SHIT WE CONSUME DAILY IT WOULD STOP FUELING THE ECONOMY BECAUSE RN THE WORLD IS RAN BY HUGE MEGA CORPORATIONS. IF WE CAUSE REVEOLUTION IN WHICH WE AS CIVILIANS ASK FOR OUR RIGHTS.ASK THE LEADERS TO STOP THE WAR ASK THEM TO GIVE US BETTER WAGES, FREE HEALTH CARE, FREE SCHOOLING. But most people are too stuck in the comfort of their lives to do anything for humanity. If we all Unite, we have the power to change the entire world.

>>1075904
I'm very poor. I don't want to live very much. I live in a house that is running down and I dont have food. I'm getting 100 euros from the government monthly ATM, sometimes I get donations on my Twitch stream. I don't want to be a camwhore, I don't want to be homeless and I don't want to be the average titty streamer or someone pandering to scrotes. I hate men. My ultimate dream is to make money off art and philosophy. I'd like to continue my studies. I have a bachelor's in Philosophy, I wanted to take my masters and my Phd but my life became to stressful and I couldn't partake in this race. I've been having no parents and having no stability in my environment. Those that end up in certain life positions or jobs do so because their parents and environment do it for them. Most artists, Philosophers, professors come from backgrounds of families that help them get there. Even in my year, amongst my colleagues, I was the one with the worst background and it clearly affects the way I can climb the social ladder. I am above average in looks but I cannot pander on the internet. I hate most people and find them stupid and ideologized. I hate both left wingers and right wingers. If you wanna make money off the internet you have to pander really hard to left or right. My mouth is big, I always speak, it's important to me. I have no interest in manipulating others or hiding my true self. I fucking hate woke tards but I hate right wingers too. If you wanna be an artist you gotta be ok with what woketards say and kiss their ass or simply be a liar and grifter and not care if you are being genuine with your beliefs. A lot of internet figures lie about their real political beliefs just to pander. I hate most internet content too qnd when someone makes something unique or speaks out on a REAL issue and is not just some dead NPC robot making their personality into whatever their audience desires to be, your content will be taken down or you won't have an audience to pay for your work anymore.

Most people are right wing or left wing nowadays. I hate both, fuck them. America has created all of this. SJWS,ONLYFANS, INTERNET ABUSE , EXTREME CAPITALISTIC EXPLOITATION, EXPLOITATION OF POOR HUMANS THROUGH MEGA CORPORATIONS, MARKETING, MEDIA MANIPULATION

No. 1075945

>>1075929
do you think i’ll be okay without it? i was thinking about getting some, but i’m in europe and have no money kek.
idk why i’m so paranoid, i feel like it should be okay.

No. 1075949

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>>1075930
Its still cooling down, but ill serve a slice with some whipped honey butter for you ♥
Im the mom-anon who makes everyone comfort food. Tonight its chicken soup with my own stock!

No. 1075954

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>>1075949
Nta, but thank you mom-anon. Banana bread is a favorite of mine, yours looks so good! pretend that's not a burger in the gif

No. 1075957

>>1075941
>It's the vent thread and I can write whatever I want to take it off my chest
Bitch you were supposed to fuck off multiple times. You shouldn't be writing anything

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>>1075945
Umm hmm… you may be? Its a risk… let me
Look around and see what i find… do you mind being more specific, like country? Might help me find programs, sorry if thats invasive.

No. 1075967

>>1075964
i’m in Finland, i really appreciate you anon

No. 1075970

>>1075964
also we had sex around the last day of my period, hopefully that would be an infertile day but i’m not too familiar with fertility awareness

No. 1075975

I called my friend (we're not very close but see each other every once in a while) for his birthday at about 8 pm today and he told me it was the first call he got. I feel so bad for him, I didn't know he really did not have any other friends.

No. 1075978

>>1075941
You could improve humanity by getting a job, taking yoyr meds, finishing your degree and getting out of your shithole.

No. 1075987

>>1075941
You always scamper off when the topic of making a thread about you comes up. Why? And why do you keep typing so autistically when you know it's what draws negative attention? You're funny, romanianon. I'll pray for you.

No. 1075988

>>1075941
You're not wrong but I don't like your delivery

No. 1075989

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>>1075967
https://stm.fi/seulonnat

https://www.infofinland.fi/en/living-in-finland/health/sexual-health
I hope these help! I couldnt translate that fist link but the second as a few info bits and links too. Also, i read (pic).
I hope this helps. Next time you have some extra cash, id buy a spare pack just in case if possible.

No. 1075994

>>1075989
thank you so much anon ♥

No. 1075995

>>1075941
>If we all Unite, we have the power to change the entire world.
I think we'd just get nuked honestly

No. 1076003

>>1075922
Did you see that the condom was intact afterwards? As long as its intact and as long as you didn't touch genitals before putting it on, I wouldn't be too stressed.

I only took plan b once, a condom broke and we didn't know til afterwards. It was surpisingly costly and he never offered to help out which was lovely lol. It's perfectly reasonable to ask btw. A guy who won't do that for you.. shouldn't be getting laid in the first place.

No. 1076018

>>1076003
i did see that the condom was intact afterwards and had his cum in it kek. what worries me is that he came in the condom, inside me.
ty for responding to me anon

No. 1076025

>>1075978
I've gotten a job before and me doing things for myself won't improve humanity. It will improve my life, but not humanity.

>>1075988
sorry, I have grown up in extreme poverty and been struck to the head multiple times in my childhood and not offered education until 8 years old so I feel like parts of my brain have not developed properly. I have a lot of ideas and understand the world very well, but my linguistic capacities are limited. I think being struck to the head and growing up in extreme poverty has affected me and once life victimizes you, you will remain perpetually victimized and if you dare speak the truth about how you tried your best others will blame you, say it is your fault you are the way that you are, when in reality we don't even have a choice over who we are and everything is defined by genetics and environmental factors. I have not had for a minute the peace to develop genuine skills. Even my English, I have picked it up by mistake, but according to my environment I shouldn't want to be an artist or philosopher. This is why I am afraid of making my ideas public. My delivery is bad so I wont reach an audience or get my work supported and someone will catch onto my ideas and use them and become popular using my theory. Also, as a woman you are not allowed to get into politics unless you are braindead woke or a stupid right winger braindead thot. If you say anything interesting as a woman or transcend what society expects from you, you will get chewed up.

>>1075995
No, we wouldn't. They depend on us. I know I am writing this on a bottlecap collecting forum made for laughing at anorexic girls and camwhores, but we are stepping into the most oppressive and authoritarian regime in the history of humanity. It is also born from free market capitalism, but ironically it is the most oppressive form of political ideology towards the freedom of the individual. If nobody does something humanity will literally cease to exist in around 300 years

No. 1076056

>>1076025
When your life improves, you will also have more options to help the people around you and that will eventually benefit humanity. Endlessly ranting and venting on a website you actually hate does not do anything but help you temporarily let of stream, but since you seem to be trapped in some kind of endless victim AND superiority complex, you don't actually take the next step which would be to actually do something to improve your awful situation, even if those steps are uncomfortable (aka getting a job you deem useless, so you can save up the money to invest in resources that eventually help you get closer to your real goal). Whining about how awful you think the world is has never improved anything.

No. 1076077

>>1076025
Just curious, what kind of streaming do you do now then? Like do you just game?

No. 1076079

>>1076056
I don't have that option and because of my background and how I grew up, not being offered basic necessities, continously abused, never offered proper mental health care I believe that my efforts might be useless. I used to put in a lot of effort into my life, but I realized we are so limited by things outside of ourselves. It's not a complex I would like to believe. It's my reality and not a schizophrenic reality I am experiencing in my head, it is the empirical reality. Until recently I have been schizophrenic, lying to myself that it will get better, that my work will pay off. Life is nothing but a race and you could have been gifted with amazing potential to be excelent In a certain field, if you are not handed the resources it is for nothing. Life has put me in such situation in which I cannot win.

No. 1076099

Vent:
SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT THE FUCK UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT THE. FUCK. UP!!!! FUCK!!!! SHUT UP!

No. 1076107

>>1076079
You can still get a low entry job and despite all of this. Having a shit childhood, anxiety and coming from a poor family is not a cop out, many many people are in that situation, including some of the 1st worlders you hate so much. I know it's hard, but you can still take small steps towards your goal. This is also not the 50s, thanks to the internet a lot of resources are freely available (even if not completely legal), especially when it comes to knowledge and more artistic fields. Literally no one but yourself is stopping you from improving. The one thing rich people have the most upperhand over is the contacts and nepotism they are gifted with since birth.

No. 1076111

Why polish thread is closed? Why other countries have their own thread but Poland can't have one?

No. 1076121

>>1076111
The Spain thread was also locked not very long ago. Weird, there are a bunch of threads for several countries, including European countries, it's not really a new concept.

No. 1076130

>>1076079
I'm the no electricity anon that people said "wtf?" to every time I posted about my schizo lifestyle, so I stopped posting back then. I say this as someone who agrees with 90% of what you say, get off your arse and learn to forage and survive off grid without seeing it as being poverty, survival and self sufficiency is how women will and have liberated ourselves now and in the past. Abandon the anthropocentricities that weigh you, rejoin the natural symbiosis that you neglect to mention in any of your shitposts. Fuck thinking about male supremacy all day anon, Im in support of your liberation, learn fire safety, how to live outside if needed, and how to make what you see others consoom. Sell it if you want to be complicit in the shitstorm. Just exist on your terms. It really is the life worth living.

No. 1076136

>>1076130
Samefag
>Inb4 no nature near me
Find some then

No. 1076144

so do you nonnas think i’ll be okay? any of you had sex using only a condom?

No. 1076163

>>1076144
I have only ever had sex using only a condom and have yet to get pregnant and I've been sexually active for like 5 years with the same man.

No. 1076186

>>1076163
bless, thank you nonna, all the best for you

No. 1076197

>>1076144
Can't you get a morning after pill if you're that worried? They're cheap (where I am anyway). Not the best for your body obviously but anything's better than getting pregnant.

No. 1076199

Why does she keep using this site if she claims to hate it

No. 1076201

>>1076130
I doubt she wants advice honestly nonna

No. 1076209

>>1076121
I think farmhands got sick of the many threads getting opened, we've had Polish, Spanish and North African threads open within like 24 hours? That's a LOT of extra threads the bulk of the userbase can't participate in on top of the ones that were already around. They should re-open /int/ like someone suggested earlier.

No. 1076217

>>1076197
i suppose i could, but i live in a country that isn’t my home country. and i’m getting worried because my time to get the morning after pill is running out. also i don’t have much money at all. i could buy the pill in the morning if i think i need it.
i think i’ll probably be okay, i’m just extremely paranoid because it’s been years since i had sex
and i don’t wanna do it again maybe ever

No. 1076219

>>1076144
You should be fine but I really think you should consider getting plan B tomorrow. I know it's expensive but it will be worth it to have peace of mind.

No. 1076224

i only hate this site after moids come in to spam their cp/gore and the infighting infuriates me more than usual because of it

No. 1076244

>>1075350
Didn't she also torture and kill cats when she was a child? I'm pretty sure she talked about that before. She threatened to kill her pet cat earlier this year, but changed her mind when her madness receded a bit.

No. 1076245

>>1076025
I agree with many of your observations especially the one about RW and LWers. It would be interesting to talk to you one on one.

No. 1076246

>>1076217
What the fuck nonnies please get some sex ed before doing it, the Internet is right here. Why would you take a morning after pill? They can really throw off your hormones and fuck you up for a month or longer.

No. 1076254

>>1076246
so you think i’ll be okay? i’m paranoid because i don’t have sex often

No. 1076263

>>1076254
unless you suspect he poked holes in the condom or something you’ll be fine. The condom fail rate is from damage or tards not putting them on right so they fall off during sex

No. 1076268

>>1076217
There are a few different brands and at least one works for 5 days after you've had sex, they're more likely to give you that one if it's been more than 72 hours. Source: I relied on condoms for years and regularly took plan b, unlike what >>1076246 is saying, I had no adverse effects. It will put your mind at ease.

Also, highly recommend looking into another form of contraception after this that's more reliable and effective, your pharmacist might talk you through your options when you're getting plan b.

No. 1076287

>>1076263
thank you anon, i don’t think there was any issues with the condom
>>1076268
appreciate your response anon, how did you decide when to take plan b and when not to?

No. 1076313

>>1076246
Getting the morning-after pill within 6 hours after having unsafe sex max 2 times a year is exactly what I was taught at sex ed as a teen.

No. 1076315

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>>1076130
Based. I am thinking about male supremacy but I am thinking about basically class struggle and something beyond that. The struggles of your family that are passed onto you. You are nobody else but your parents and cannot escape the trauma your family places on your back. You're just a continuation. I am not sure what to do now. I've been thinking about living off grid. You know, if I can make enough monthly to support myself and then have the rest of the time left to make art and write and read Philosophy or any literature then I will be happy even if working in society. I find it hard being around people. I've always wanted to express myself towards an audience but I hate the idea of having a "niche" I wanna do what I want when I want and I wanna express my ideas freely without being pressured by the thought of satisfying an audience that will turn against me if I say the wrong thing. My system of values is very complex. But in this way, if I don't satisfy the system and the people around me I think I will never be rewarded for my work, sometimes I think knowledge just weights you down. It disconnects you from people. My life has been very hard, so hard that at 14 I decided that I would kill myself at 30. I've been having panic attacks non stop since my childhood, I have a lot of ideas and knowledge but there's always something wrong with my delivery, something wrong. But I appreciate this, for a while I've been thinking about going off grid, but I still believe you need connections to the outside world. How can you get food? Or medicine if you fall ill if there is no form of income? You grow the food yourself I suppose, but ultimately you will still need a couple of bucks from time to time.

Like Ted, he had his brother so he could go to him. I dont really have family. I've been financially supporting my dad for 2 years because I live in his house and my mom has been dead for 5. My dad has no job or pension so I buy both of us food. I think rent is too expensive. My father has also given me extreme depression because his entire life he has refused to be normal. My entire life I have been cleaning this house I live in and the only time I've been outside this household in the past 10 years was when I got a wagie job that in my country is paid very badly compared to western countries. Huge corporations take advantage of work force from 3rd world countries. The only time I was emotionally and mentally fulfilled was when I was in college, but those taking their masters and PhD were from much better backgrounds than mine. It hurts so much to know that. Everything is defined by material resources.

I would like to know more about how you live off grid.

I feel like I'm just someone meant to be used, others use me as a stepping stone and drain me of energy just to get to their goals. I am a punching bag, a stepping stone, a fool. But I cannot stop coming back to them, coming back to people and trying to communicate with them, although they hurt me so much. It's been like this since my childhood. I feel like an alien that tries to interact with people.

No. 1076322

>>1076313
do you think using a condom makes it “safe” sex?

No. 1076325

>>1076313
after unsafe sex

No. 1076342

>>1076287
>how did you decide when to take plan b and when not to?
Whenever I wasn't 100% sure. For example, if the condom slipped off during sex, if it tore or if something leaked out (especially if it was close to my ovulation date). I've never got pregnant but relying on condoms really stressed me out which is why I recommend talking to your doctor about the pill or an implant because you won't have to worry like this again!

Most unplanned pregnancies are caused by not using contraceptives correctly (not that the contraceptives aren't actually working), so if you don't trust your sexual partner I'd consider plan b honestly.

No. 1076346

reeeee stop replying when scrotes post you absolute fucking retards, it doesn't matter if you're trying to own them or whatever, they're looking for attention and you're giving it to them

No. 1076363

>>1076315
>I would like to know more about how you live off grid.
Nta but if you google some books about living off grid (and maybe something regarding self-sufficiency or survival aswell) and then search the titles that interest you on libgen, you can pirate them for free. I'm working towards living off-grid (for different reasons) too.

No. 1076399

Not sure if it counts as venting but I was curious and nostalgic and I remembered the "your fave is problematic" blog on tumblr, which was always horse shit but everyone took it way too seriously and decided to shit up tumblr as a whole partly because of it. I found the name of the girl who made this blog and she wrote an article for the NY times. Turns out she was just a retarded teenage girl who was bored and insanely immature so she decided to act like a child on a platform made for adults and she contributed to making american SJW topics way more popular in discussions where it does not apply at all. She admits that she just wanted to feel important. God I wish retarded teens could be banned from the internet but what's done is done.

No. 1076417

>>1076399
Your Fave is Problematic RUINED tumblr. Tumblr will literally never be as fun as it was before the YFiP arc. Smh.

No. 1076440

The retards on /g/ are infighting again. I swear /g/ has the lowest iq of the website.

No. 1076445

Fuck you, you pretend that other people ruined your life when it was all you. You can keep trying to blame everything on everyone else, but at the end of the day nobody had control over your life EXCEPT FOR YOU, you mentally ill bitch. You literally find ways to harass people that never talk to you and somehow still twist it around in your head so that you're the victim. You will never be the victim no matter how much your disordered brain convinces you that you are. You are and have always been the aggressor. I hate you for what you've done to me, and I hate that I ever had to share my life with you.

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>>1068730
update, i checked some of their friends that i'm not friends with (more like 'i met them at parties and we talked a little') and they all got buzzcuts and are they/shes and they/thems now. i'm witnessing the social contagion in real time, what the fuck. this is a group of like 10 girls in their early 20s.

No. 1076493

>>1076315
Fuck em up nonnie

No. 1076507

>>1076440
/ot/ infight all the time

No. 1076509

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I wish that I had a loving mother.
I don't miss my ex at all, but I really, really miss his mother, so badly sometimes that I just cry. I didn't want to be around him after the break up, but god do I miss his mother. She was so lovely and so sweet. She's the closest I've ever had to a mother figure in my life. I miss eating pancakes with her, I miss going shopping with her, I miss just having a female friend. She was very special to me.
But I was never and will never be her daughter. I wish I was.

No. 1076515

>>1076417
Yeah, it's an abomination and even though it targeted celebrities it created or heavily contributed to that trend where everyone would write 20 pages long callout posts describing normal, harmless human behavior and lies about whoever the posts were about. And now to this day it impacted fan communities and small artists who are just minding their own businesses. And the bitch didn't even apologize for it in her article. There were also blogs about how watching anime on TV is racist against asians as a whole because anime don't represent Japan accurately but I can't remember these blogs' URL. There was also that weird Medieval history blog full of bullshit, the person posting it would sperg about "practical armors" all the time. But yeah, "your fave is problematic" was the worst one.

No. 1076527

I’m so tired of being so incomplete. Broke. Speech impediment. Retarded. I just wish I was normal. Living in a shitty place. So far away from everything I want. It’s impossible, anyway. I can’t talk right, I can’t act right m. And I wish I didn’t have to come here to bitch about it. It’s pathetic.

No. 1076531

>>1076440
To be fair, infights are common in relationship advice thread (for obvious reasons) but the other threads are very chill, unlike /ot, /ot has the unpopular opinions thread, vent thread, things you hate, celebricows, etc, all full of infighting

No. 1076533

I miss talking to one of my discord friends, I stop talking to them cause I caught feels and they were asexual basically, I was all emo and couldn’t separate feels and friendship so I stop talking to them and I just want some best friends to lovers shit honestly it’s so cute

No. 1076566

i really wish my parents weren't retarded nerds that forced me into joining math olympics that ended up contributing absolutely nothing to my life other than making me despise anything related to math. why couldn't they just be the artsy fartsy type? i wish i took ballet classes or picked up cello or something. I crave making some form of art but I have no skills or opportunities for it and I'm too old and busy to pick up an instrument or a dance class now

No. 1076568

>>1076566
you’re never too old for dance class, i absolutely love taking random local dance classes, literally any kind of dance, i just go once in a while, i always have a blast

No. 1076582

My boyfriend brought a bunch of leftover muffins he made at work. I want to stop eating them but they are so good. Normally I don't even like blueberry muffins too.

No. 1076627

I have no idea how to visit America. I want to meet my boyfriend's family but I got denied from going on an ESTA because of retarded reasons I've vented about before. I don't know who to ask for advice, I hate that I even have to speak to strangers about my relationship. I don't know what visas to look into, I have no idea what to do or where to even start. Why does America have to make it so hard? I want to be with him and meet his family. We don't want to stay in my home country. I feel completely lost. I'm desperate for help and advice and confused on who I should even be asking for that or what I should do.

No. 1076638

I once made a vent about it, but I have to vent again. My coworker has a serious disease that will affect her forever and maybe wastly lower the quality of her life in the future. She was always very full of herself, but that's not the point. She annoys me but of course I still feel sorry for her. What I can't tolerate though is the part of her behavior I knew she was going to exibit the moment I heard about her diagnosis. The "I'm so sick and I still smile, meanwhile you're healthy and always sad and moody. Stop being so ungrateful, it offends me durr". See, I don't consider myself healthy. I suffer from C-PTSD from childhood abuse and I'm autistic (all diagnosed, not made up). I've always been sad and quiet. I've been depressed for many years and on various drugs since I was like 14, and nothing ever helped me. I have no social life and I only interact with other people at my work. I can't magically stop being this way just because she's sick. She's the only person at my work who knows about my past and trauma yet she takes it as an insult and can't get off her high horse. Everyone treats her as a hero, is that not enough for her? She has to put me down? Everyone knows about her illness and gives her attention, and I'm not blaming them for it. No one knows about my suffering because no one ever brags about mental trauma and mental disorders (even though they actually, physically change our brain), people only care about "normal" illnesses that can damage your body. My coworker has great supporting parents, boyfriend, money, so she doesn't have to worry about her treatment. She had a happy, safe childhood, she was never abused, her parents treated her in a way that allowed her to develop very high self esteem and social skills that made it very easy for her to socialize at work and get everything she wants. I never had those things. I have to almost constantly deal with psychosomatic pain in my body from all the abuse I endured as a child, and there's no way to make it stop, but I'm healthy?
I often felt like I was treated unfairly compared to my coworkers, including her, even though our skills were on the same level. But because I wasn't so open and communicative, they assumed I'm less capable. How to not be bitter about this? If we switched places, and I could take my coworker's illness, it would absolutely destroy me, because I have absolutely zero social networks to support me and a much weaker mental health. Studies show that traumatized individuals deal with emotional stress much worse than non traumatized individuals. Meanwhile she has the means to somehow deal with it. But maybe if I got sick like her, I would finally be allowed to be sad and aloof in the eyes of normal people? Normal people, even when they get sick, they're still winning over such as us. They can still enjoy spending time with their loved ones, socializing, spending money, going back to their happy childhood memories and creating new good memories. She does it all the time and talks about it, because she already had it before she got sick. For people like me, it never even began. We never even got the chance. Even when a normal, happy person dies, in their last moments they know they had a good life. When someone like me dies, they know there was nothing but suffering in their lives, and it's the most bitter end imaginable. There's nothing sadder than a lonely person dying and having no one to bury them and no one to remember them. It's as if you never even existed.

No. 1076650

>>1076627
Tourist visa? Fiancé visa? Meet in a third country? Also look into visajourney, it’s a community that discusses the difficulties of immigrating and how to better understand the process in different countries.

No. 1076665

>>1076627
You got denied ESTA? That sucks, I'm so sorry anon. Going off what the other anon said, not just that site but a lot of law related sites have info about going to the states. I was also recently looking at this site called immigration hacked or visa hacked or something like that and it has some references to professionals and I think the stuff I read from there cleared some things up for me a bit where I am in my process. They might have some stuff for initial visits as well.

No. 1076666

>>1076627
if he doesn't want to marry you for a fiancée visa it's over. you guys don't want to stay in your home country but he refuses to take the only realistic steps to take you to america, then you're just some third world girlfriend to him. sorry if it sounds harsh but it's true.

No. 1076673

I smell so goddamn bad and I can’t shower until tomorrow morning

No. 1076680

>>1074877
you’re literally confusing humanity with men, get more women in your life. 90% of violent crime and rape is committed by men. most men are sociopaths and/or narcissists.
>>1074209
I want to be friends with you and people who think like you

No. 1076693

>>1076650
>>1076665
Thank you so much anons. I'll look into those sites.
>>1076666
That's a lot of weird assumptions. We've only been together for a couple of months so whilst I'm not against a K1 visa, I'm hesitant because of the length of our relationship. I wanted to meet his family and especially his mother, so I just wanted it to be a visit like he visited my country (which isn't a third world one, why did you think that?) to meet my family and me. I want to move to America in the future, but fuck I wish just visiting and meeting his family wouldn't be so hard and confusing.

No. 1076705

>>1076693
if it's not a third world country why don't you just stay where you are with him

No. 1076707

>>1074877
Based. Humanity was a mistake. Pessimism and antinatalism are the way to go. Life and the consciousness itself are cancers of the universe.
>>1076680
Of course men are much worse than women, but women are accomplices in crime because (most of them) willingly give birth to men.

No. 1076711

>>1076705
We are for now. If we have to live here to be together then so be it but we'd both rather live in America because it would be more convenient along with other reasons like better weather, bigger country, my place is tiny his is already perfect for two people, he cares about being close to his family more than I do, more places to go, etc.
My abuser lives in the same city as me and I would be lying if I said the idea of not only being in a different city, but a whole different country away from him wouldn't be nice tbh.

No. 1076713

>>1074905
Funny how natalists write comments like this and they only prove how shit the world is and how much they truly don't care about other people's suffering kek
Even the people who think the world sucks usually don't have the courage to kill themselves because we are biologically programmed to cling on to life, just like we're biologically programmed to cope and defend life and pretend it's worth living because our DNA wants to spread itself like the little parasite it is. Breaking one programming (le life worth living), doesn't mean you are able to break the next one (I'm ready to off myself). I'm afraid to commit an act od violence against myself. What if I fail and turn myself into a vegetable or not fail but suffer before death? Maybe if euthanasia on demand was legal and I could comfortably off myself in a bed and just go to sleep, I would consider that

No. 1076717

>>1076680
I met women that sexually traffick women out of the mental hospital into the sex industry and women on lolcow are calling me jealous for criticizing literal sex traffickers… I'm not excusing women anymore. Women can be as bad as men.
>>1076707
I used to want to live so badly. I wanted to live more than anyone else but life keeps on facing me with misfortune and then I look at others that are unfortunate and I look at all the abuse that happens in the world on small scale and large scale and I think "this is all insanity".

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No. 1076724

>>1076718
Not an argument

No. 1076732

I know this isn't a safe space but I hate when anons here are rude. I love when I get genuinely kind and well thought out responses. It feels like internet spaces are either stupidly hostile or stupidly safe space that are anti-all forms of criticism. I'm tired of all the infights even if that's just how the internet, especially anonymous places, are.
Maybe I'm just being silly. I wish the internet as a whole was more relaxed.

No. 1076733


No. 1076734

>>1076732
The internet acts very personality disordered–it's either very saccharine to the point it hurts or very corrosive and bitter. It's really dehumanizing in general.

No. 1076735

>>1076733
Don't you have some male dna to spread

No. 1076736

>>1076717
>I met women that sexually traffick women out of the mental hospital into the sex industry and women on lolcow are calling me jealous for criticizing literal sex traffickers…

You doxxed your competition because you were jealous. Go rape some children or kill some cats now.

No. 1076738

I wish getting a job wasn't so tedious aahhh why can't it be like how it was for boomers
I'm too retarded for this

No. 1076740

>>1076735
Don't you have to kill yourself because you hate life and wahh wahh pregnant women are disgusting in your moid tier brain?

No. 1076743

>>1076740
My mindset is still better than giving birth to literal rapists kek

No. 1076744

>>1076743
You gonna kill yourself or naw

No. 1076749

>>1076740
that's not what she said, get some reading comprehension. I swear you bitches twist words and twist truth however you want or maybe you're just stupid and you don't understand when you read something more sophisticated than an anon venting about something trivial in her life. I believe you're just really fucking stupid. You cannot understand context or metaphors or meanings. She said women are complicit when it comes to the opression men create in society and she is right! Women side with scrotes. Abuse other women for scrotes. Groom women into becoming sexual commodities for scrotes and choose to give birth to scrotes.

Yet you are so intellectually dishonest you twisted what she said into her being a woman hater or pregnant woman hater when that was not her message at all.

No. 1076752

I'm stupid and retarded!
I don't know how to do simple things everyone else can!
I don't know how to talk to most people!
I hate being alone!
I'm afraid of getting a job purely because I'm afraid of other people!
I don't know what to do with this life other than escapism hobbies!

No. 1076753

>>1076738
Ugh, same, going through the interviews process now. I hate it

No. 1076755

>>1076749
Is that you B

No. 1076756

>>1076753
Good luck nonnie you got this, I believe in you.
I hate applying for jobs online but applying irl seems so awkward. I hate the stupid quizzes some sites make you take. Everyone I know who has a job has that job through connections, but I have none. I don't have a family or a friend that I can just piggyback off of. Almost everyone has a job and works, why is it that it seems so difficult for me?

No. 1076757

>>1076749
Genuinely what’s the point of samefagging. I’ve even seen you switch to first person in the middle of your rants defending yourself. Own your shit.

No. 1076760

>>1076752
Damn anon, are you me?

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>>1076757
Nonnie, take your meds. Not every post you dislike is the same person.

No. 1076765

>>1076744
Not right now because I like reminding you about your pro rape ideology too much

No. 1076766

You're me. The next post is me. The anon you replied to that one time was me. The OP is me. Admin is me.

No. 1076767

>>1076766
You're literally me

No. 1076770

>>1076767
Why are you mocking me

No. 1076772

>>1076770
Stop talking to myself like that

No. 1076773

>>1076770
Look at this samefag over here

No. 1076774

>>1076752
What are your escapism hobbies? I used to play world of Warcraft 20 hrs a day and taught myself how to script mods for it. Then I kept acquiring languages, then I got some formal training, now I’m a software engineer where it’s like… relatively fine that I’m autistic. You could do the same or write a fantasy novel or a video game storyline or something. You can turn your hobbies into a career if you wanted.

No. 1076777

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A friend of mine just got diagnosed with BPD, which i don't think she has, and instead of getting better she's just spiraling and getting worse, it's like she internalized the diagnosis and made it her whole identity since there's no cure for bpd, I've known her for almost 3 years and all this time she didn't show any bpd symptoms at all, no impulsive self destructive behavior, stable identity etc, she has a mild anxiety disorder and had ONE panic attack when a teacher was specially harsh on her work in college. And that was it.

In like two weeks she completely changed her cutesy artsy girl wardrobe for egirl shit, started drinking, got a tattoed eboy boyfriend and completely dropped her nerdier quieter friends (like me kek) to live life as a bpd steriotype. I don't want her to go this path because its not just an outer shell thing, shes binge drinking and using drugs which never did before.

Nonnas any advice?

No. 1076778

>>1076777
Sounds pretty bpd to me, but this could also just be typical teen/twenty-something behavior. Could be just a phase that she’ll grow out of, but if you’re really concerned maybe you should sit her down and tell her how you feel?

No. 1076779

>>1076777
My advice is to stop caring about her honestly. She's shown you she doesn't care about you by dropping you. Would she be as concerned as you are if you went down the same path? There are better friends out there for you I'm sure.

No. 1076786

I've had this new roommate for one week, she's a raging alcoholic lesbian in her 40s. I mention her orientantion only because she made some sexual remarks towards me and it made me uncomfortable. She's very vulgar and drinks lots of beer, two days ago we had a small birthday party for my coworker's bf at our place, and later my room mate accused them of stealing her alcohol from the fridge, and she was literally screaming to me about it in our room at 1 AM even though I wasn't even at the party when they started drinking. They claim they didn't take her alcohol, but I don't care, regardless of the truth she should not scream in our room like this. Today she got fired because she was skipping work and she has to move out before friday. Normally I would feel sorry for her but now I can't. I don't feel safe around her at all. Now she's drunk and sleeping in the living room. I went downstairs to make myself some tea, and there was my housemate eating dinner, he asked why is she sleeping there etc., we talked for a bit and I said to him she got fired and he said "what a pity" with a smirk, and my room mate screamed from the living room "I don't sleep and I have a pretty good ear" lmao. Now I'm seriously scared she will be mean to me when she comes back to our room. Please let me survive this week

No. 1076787

>>1076777
Make sure she’s okay first because I’ve seen psychs slap a bpd diagnosis on anyone who SHs regardless of lack of other symptoms. Don’t put the idea in her head because now that she’s bpd she may start, just ask her if she’s okay. Then let it be. If you were genuinely good friends then give her space to explore this new identity and hope that she grows out of it and comes back around.

No. 1076791

>>1076778
I mean if she had a rapport of doing this shit id think the same thing but we were considerably close and she never had bpdfag behavior, never even dyed her hair, before the doctor told she had it. We are also a little bit old to be "going through a phase", already graduated college, im engaged etc.
>>1076779
Its been only a little bit of time and I haven't had any friend-needed moments so I don't know how hard her friend dropping is, she just cancelled our (considerably lame) plans to go out and drink boyfriend, its more concerning than anything, and mind im not being prudish, shes been getting black out puking drunk multiple times a week.
>>1076787
Thanks anon, no SH that i know of, recently some mild anachan behavior though, i guess i'll keep an eye on of her from whatever distance she puts on. Any chance it might also be the meds the doctor put her on?

No. 1076793

I'm anxious and I should be asleep but I'm too anxious to sleep and I don't know how to calm down. Lolcow sometimes calms me down but right now the site is too slow. I don't know what to do.

No. 1076810

i watch sfm porn, because i'm a horny bitch but have no interest in watching real people be abused, but holy fuck futashit is ruining all of it. i just want to see two women together not one with a giant horse dong. it's shit

No. 1076813

>>1076793
Dig deep & read a thread about a cow you've never read about before

No. 1076815

i'm tired of romanianon but especially the farmers who keep entertaining her. i don't know how hard it is to just ignore the walls of text?

No. 1076835

>>1076813
I did and it calmed me down nonnie thank you mwah mwah

No. 1076878

>>1076815
Not every anon frequents /ot/ often enough to know who she is or know this thread is haunted. So half are giving pitied well-meaning advice that she resents and the other half are genuinely concerned when she talks about murdering people and animals. Maybe a warning can be put in the next thread though.

No. 1076892

Can someone put me out of my misery, please? My rage level is sky high. If I have to hear another qanon bullshit thing about the current war, I will go homicidal. I fucking hate how brainwashed these assholes are. Fuck Ron Watkins.

No. 1076918

>>1076793
Sending you a hug anon!

No. 1076926

>>1076918
Sending you one right back ♥

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No. 1076946

Men…

No. 1076956

I hate when normalfags think everyone had the same relatively normal upbringing as them and think everyone should be held to the same standards and punishments. These people are so devoid of empathy and understanding even though they had warmer happier childhoods and guidance than the people they crucify and criticize. They literally don’t think outside of their experience. No i’m not romanianon just read a dumb article thats all

No. 1076957


No. 1076966

Does anyone here have any advice about coworkers who spread rumors about you? I had a really bad time at my previous workplace and I can't get the memories of my time there out of my head.
They would tell each other that I had lied about where I'm from, taking the vax, my major at uni and certain facts about my life. Two of them in particular - both loserish type men with nothing going for them - would quiz me on things I've said and on facts pertaining to my major in front of other coworkers to try to catch me in a mistake. When I offered to show proof of my major, certain facts in my life, or otherwise, they would ignore me and look the other way. At times they would literally walk away. At one point they all looked through my laptop and started making more shit up about me.
Why would they do shit like this, man? WTF? Any idea on how to deal with people/ dudes (because let's face it, it's usually insecure men who pull this type of shit) who are actively hostile towards you?

No. 1076972

>>1076966
Disengage, laugh in their face and give them a “are you ok?” Look aka mirror their gaslighting and flip it on them

No. 1076974

I'm at my fucking wits end I'm just so fucking tired and i have so much anger in my body right now. I hate how it feels that no matter what I say I'm just never heard or my opinion is never taken into consideration. I hate having to give up so much just for no payout in the end. I'm fucking over this.

No. 1076987

>>1076956
I feel this. It sucks so bad. Especially when you have to deal with authoritative/higher ups with this mindset. You just can't win with these people unless you lie.

No. 1076998

>>1076966
How old were these little fuckers? If they act like they've just entered high school, take them to the principal's office (HR). Them going through your laptop had to be some kind of line crossing. Do they not have policies against that?

No. 1077000

>>1076998
HR is a rat

No. 1077003

>>1076966
I was in a situation like this with family but they would just blatantly deny proof I've shoved in their face and then start blocking/ignoring when I pointed out I provided proof against their lies and accusations. These people are mentally ill and will make up stuff about you as well as making up stuff in general regardless of the proof you provide. The best thing that worked for me is simply asking them proof for their own accusations and it shuts them up best, if they're stubborn with zero self awareness they will keep going though. At least some of these people feel some sort of embarrassment when called out

No. 1077009

I hate writing a fucking wall of text every time I share an opinion. I don't know how to stop doing it, honestly my posts don't look that long on mobile, but later when I see them on PC they're huge and stand out a lot. I'm sorry. I can feel how every time I accidentally do it, people stop replying because they're put off by the amount of text and sheer autism.

No. 1077012

>>1077009
I’m not put off plus i love long posts i enjoy your typing autism nonnie

No. 1077016

>>1075949
Is that you bakery anon? Pigeon bun anon? I love you

No. 1077017

>>1074479
Noticed and apologized

No. 1077034

I hate living in a suburb so much. I lived in a city my whole life but then my retarted parents decided to buy a house in a fuckign suburb and I am stuck there for 3 more years until I graduate from college bc I cannot afford leaving rn. Fuck suburbs. Fuck cars. I miss walking around seeing people experiencing culture. I am decaying alive over here I am gonna kill myself. Fuck this shit. No one in this house even uses the lawn. Tf did we need a lawn for. My retarded neighbors are so annoying too. These bitches are so socially starved and mentally unchallenged in their big boring houses they develop retarded personalities. And I can see one because i am turning into fuckign one of them, I’ve been gaming alone like a loser. Fuck. FUCK

No. 1077050

>>1077016
hey its not the same anon but i would bake with them too!

No. 1077067

I was beaten up by a moid when i was 15 and it continued to terrorize me till i was 18, he was 30 at the time and im not gonna go into what the relationship was because i cried about this before but all you need to know that its a relative. Even after all these years my mind still finds reasons to blame ME for its actions… like i would remember a response typical of a teenage child to abuse like screaming insults but i’ll tell myself things like “see? Thats why it beat you you shouldn’t have insulted it” i’m so tired of getting panic attacks and severe feeling of helplessness i feel like i want to disappear

No. 1077071

Moids don't have any regards for anyone. My brother has rona and expects me to bring him groceries instead of just ordering them online even though we don't live close to each other (we are in the same city though). Not only that, but he's unreliable as fuck, meaning I'll have to bug him for a grocery list just so that I can still stick to my daily routine.

I'll be short on money this March too and he won't be able to pay me back till the end of the month. And my parents keep coddling this 37-year old toddler, telling me "don't be like that, he'd do the same for you"

"Huehue I got the rona, looks like you'll have to bring me groceries" is literally what e texted me prior to this rant. Fuck you.

No. 1077074

I just arrived at my office and the first email I received is about how we're gonna receive a bunch of phishing attempts from Russia because of the Ukraine war. What the fuck… I shouldn't be surprised but still.

>>1077067
I know your reaction is probably a reflex but I want to tell you that it can't be your fault. A grown man shouldn't lay even a finger on a teenage girl, I don't know the guy but I hope he dies soon and painfully.

No. 1077076

I fucking hate newfags that won’t post any screenshots or proof, or ridicule those who do. They are ruining the site. They will come along like “oh he’s defending himself on Twitter now” but won’t post the screenshots. I’ve even seen people recently ridicule others for bothering to post a lot of milk like screencaps and videos, for being obsessive, shitting up the board or just “nobody cares!” Or even “are you their PR team trying to shill them?! Hurrr durrr!” We are going to become as useless at collecting milk and self important as the fucking kiwifarmers if we don’t get it together.

No. 1077082

>>1077071
Don’t bring them, let him starve. He’s probably fat anyway so he could stand to lose a few.

No. 1077085

>>1077071
Can't you get out of it by saying you dont want to get corona from him?

No. 1077086

Nonnies bring me so much joy in this horrible life. You make me feel sane and understood I know its unhinged to feel this way towards faceless anonymous walls of texts but i love you all and i wish you happiness

No. 1077089

>>1077082
Yes but ofc I'll be the asshole in this situation since women are always expected to cater towards people around them.

>>1077085
No, he already mentioned me just leaving them in front of his door.

I already keep pressing him to just order it online but he keeps telling me that most stores have minimum delivery fee and he said he doesn't need that many groceries all at once (he's the type to buy stuff every couple of days instead of planning and buying it once or twice a week, which is one of the main reasons why it all pisses me off so much.)

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>>1077067
i'm so sorry this happened to you, nonna. do you have any kind of support system, maybe a trauma therapist near you that you could have some sessions with? in general, your response is very human like! we humans are very driven towards "stories" which is how humanity moves forward - because we constantly want to find out the how and why (=the story behind a thing or an event). when we can't explain things, we try to get to the bottom of things to get an explanation. there are aspects of our lives that can't be explained outside of coincidence, so people turn to religion or believe in stuff like tarot or crystals or gender. this is commonly described as spirituality and humans have a natural drive towards this spirituality. even when we think we are completely free from any believe in gods or tarots or astrology, we still wonder, "why did this happen to me, why did i get rained on, why didn't i get the job even though i was the perfect candidate?" and analyze everything to find the story behind the event. in your case, the story behind this horrible experience isn't you being at fault. it's that scrote's fault for being an absolute asshole. by telling yourself that it's your fault and overanalyzing your actions, you might be trying to get back a sense of control and power, like you alone are responsible for it and someone didn't take advantage of your young age and your vulnerability. which is completely understandable, but it will only lead to more victim blaming. it's not your fault, nonna, it absolutely was not your fault at all.

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>>1077086
Same here. Sometimes only nonnies can make me laugh when I feel down. I know it's a vent thread but pls accept my love nonnas.

No. 1077094

>>1077071
He's 37. Why does he need your help? Tell him and your parents to fuck off, you're not catching a dangerous disease for an overgrown baby.

No. 1077098

>>1077071
Can't he order is groceries from an online supermarket or have his groceries delivered by his usual one? That's a thing.

No. 1077103

>>1077098
He can but as I mentioned here >>1077089
he usually doesn't buy/order groceries that would reach the delivery fee (where I live you have to order at least 40€ worth of groceries, some stores won't even let you place an order until you've reached that amount )

>>1077094
Because he's lazy and my parents have always enabled him.

I know nonnies, I really need to grow some cojones but it sucks always being the villain once you set boundaries.

No. 1077108

>>1077103
Girl just ignore him and your retarded parents. It’s not that hard.

No. 1077109

>>1077103
Honestly I'd tell him to suck it up and order for a whole weeks worth. A 40 euro minimum isn't a lot at all, I spend more on groceries a week and I'm a student on a budget. Unless the prices are significantly lower where you are in the EU. But I get that telling him to figure it out himself is hard when you're under family pressure.

No. 1077119

>>1077109
Nope, that's about how much as I spend when I go grocery shopping too (also working student on a budget.

>But I get that telling him to figure it out himself is hard when you're under family pressure.


That's one of the main things. I'd gladly tell them all to fuck off but they've helped me out financially in the past so I feel like I can't just do that. I still refuse to get him his dumb groceries though. Might as well tell him I got the rona too if I get desperate.

Anyways, thanks nonnies.

No. 1077124

i want to kill myself to spite my mother because im tired of the way she treats me. i asked her for advice on something and asked if she thinks im a loser and she proceeded to tell me im a very sick person and psychotic to think so. she screamed at me to get away from her and walked off. what the fuck do i do i cant afford to move out in this city and im not done with college

No. 1077125

im sorry i didnt sage nonny i feel impulsive im shaking like a pathetic child would. i have nobody in my court her boyfriend kisses her ass and my dad is a junkie who i dont see

No. 1077139

>>1077125
Who are you replying to?
>>1077124
Your mother doesn't read as mentally stable. She's lashing out and acting mentally ill herself, don't kill or even hurt yourself for anyone. They're never going to take the blame even if you left a note after your suicide and cope thinking you were too mentally unwell.

No. 1077142

>>1077103
If your parents are used to him being a lazy bum they better get used to you setting boundaries and being "selfish" fast, fuck them. You have my moral support.

No. 1077167

>>1077103
I live alone, don't drive and I usually shop every couple of days to save my bad back any strain but I've had a plan just in case rona hits. I checked out my options for online ordering in advance and made sure that'd work.

He's had a couple years to think about how he'd deal with this semi-expected scenario, to put extra non perishable/frozen items away just in case or to put away 40 euros. I kinda wanna know his incomings and outgoings.

No. 1077247

When I was 18 I was living in a houseshare with a man who eventually came out to me as a crossdresser and tried to fuck me. He was 31 and had a long term gf who often stayed over at the weekend. I was naive as hell and just wanted to stay polite and be left alone but didn't know how fucked up it all was. I'm his age now and damn it's hitting me.

What was I doing living with a 30 year old stranger at 18? My dad has strong views about tough love. He thinks you should get kids out at bang on 18. Coming up to that age my mom died. I was in bits. School fell to the side and I was on meds that had me feeling a lil zombified to cope. My dad still wanted me out. I got a low paying job and looked for a room somewhere. There was a crazy shortage of housing in the area at the time and still is to this day. I didn't have the luxury of finding a house with a couple of cool younger working women. That was the hardest set up to find and they usually wanted 'professionals' and not cashiers.

I moved in being told a third person would probably join at some point but that my rent is a set rate either way. He never rented out the third room. It was me and him and knowing what I know now I'm 50/50 on whether I think he was likely to have fucked around with my clothes if they were drying on our clothes rails or if the shared bathroom was ever.. taken advantage of. I'm not that naive anymore. I wish I was. At least I wasn't assaulted but there was a whole 'can I touch you moment' that was essentially me cowering away from his hands. I'd no voice. I was meek at that age. Thank you for the tough love dad. Flawless plan, especially for a daughter.

No. 1077253

>>1077247
Disgusting. Also that's individualism for you, chucking your kids out at 18 and kids chucking you into care when you're 70. Thanks for reminding me to always protect my future daughters.

No. 1077258

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there's this guy that i'm friends with in a WoW guild and idk if I'm just being jealous and envious or if he's just actually really tasteless and tone-deaf about certain stuff.
i'm from england and grew up poor and am still working class (he knows this) so i guess i'm biased in how i perceive this, but he is from what seems to be a pretty wealthy family in Denmark. He keeps posting little things like "ugh its so nice having your own home gym so i dont have to go to a public one" and also keeps posting pictures of his massive fucking house and saying shit like "if we have a guild meetup we should do it in my house because look how nice it is <3"
i can't tell if i'm just jealous because obviously i wish i was in his situation or even in his country where the standard of living is higher, or if he's actually just a bit of a snob? i also remember him making a joke-ish comment about how we have shit minimum wage and how you get paid loads to just even work in Mcdonalds over there and i was just like "lol".

i lived in sweden for a few months in my teens and got a lot of classist and ignorant comments about the fact that i didn't know what xyz was/couldn't afford xyz or the fact that my council estate house was small and that we do our laundry in the kitchen. i don't want to apply that to all people in scandinavia obviously but this guys attitude just reminds me of all those petty little comparison comments i received because i just happened to be born in the 'wrong place' i guess. my brain is registering it as him showing off but i also don't want to jump to conclusions because i personally got offended by this. i also don't mind people appreciating the wealthy things they have obviously, but idk how to describe it…it doesn't feel like he's just 'appreciating' those things, it feels like he's showing off? or maybe i'm just being super jealous after all? idk but it pisses me off every time i see him post something about his incredibly large beautiful house or home gym or the fact that he doesn't even have a job but spends loads of money on art commissions and stupid shit.

No. 1077316

I made a stupid mistake regarding school and now I'm afraid it'll impact future opportunities and I don't know what to do. I'm miserable, have been overly sheltered and I want to be sheltered more. I don't want to be independent, I want help from people. I'm too retarded to function in adult life. I just want to be held and have the difficult things done for me. I don't know how to function without a loving family or friends. It's easier to get by in life when you're extroverted and have support. I don't. I wish I'd be forgiven and not be spoken to so harshly. I'm sorry I made a mistake. I'm not perfect like you, not everyone is as knowledgeable as you. I don't want to stay sheltered with my father forever but how can I make it in this world when because of being sheltered I'm incredibly stunted. I know I'm not up to where normal people are in life, I want to be but it seems I'm already too far behind. I want someone to hold my hand and help me. I've never really had anyone's help, other people get helped by their parents usually right? It's so hard to be like normal people without a normal upbringing. I hate that I have to mask. I hate that I'm not accepted for who I am and have to change myself to get far in life.

No. 1077327

>>1073966
I am so tired of my dad, narcissistic typical man. He literally is just a waste of space and makes our lives difficult or puts us in danger if he throws a tantrum. He is a lazy disgusting slob yet he makes my mother feel terrible. He feels like he never has to apologize for anything because he goes to church. I am so tired of dealing with him

No. 1077331

>>1077258
He's keen to brag about it because deep down he knows he didn't really earn it himself. Spoiled kids do this all the time. Some can admit it and are sensitive to the situations of others, and yet some need that validation no matter the costs or how they come off.

No. 1077334

It feels so hard for me to move out I hate it I hate it
Whilst I'm stuck here I'll never be happy but I don't know how to be unstuck I don't know what to do I never do
Everyone I know my age who has moved out was able to because of money from their parents
I don't have that
I can't stay here but I also can't move
What do I do
I hate that I have to work not because I'm afraid of labour but because I'm afraid of other people, I wouldn't mind doing hard work but what stops me is being scared of interacting with the interviewer, customers, coworkers, managers, all of that
Just give me tasks that need doing, teach me how to do them and I'll do them as long as im not expected to communicate or act a certain way
But I am, I always am and it's always wrong
I hate lying and pretending but I have to
There's no reason to give me a job over a more sociable and normal person but I need one what do normal people expect me to do I don't get it
You need to get a job because NEETs are bad and you want to move out, but you're too retarded socially so we don't have to give you a job, but society still expects you to get one
I just want to be comfortable in my own place in a not so bad area, a nice home is literally all I need to be happy, yet a nice home is so difficult to get
You're either born in one or you aren't
You either get help or you don't
It would be nice to be independent but I don't know any successful or happy independent people so it feels like a far off dream
Because you need connections
I hate when people have any expectations of me
The nicest thing somebody has ever said to me is that they expect nothing from me
That is the most refreshing thing in the world to me, to not be expected to do things, act a certain way
I'm a blubbering lonely retarded autist who knows barely anything of the world because she wasn't allowed outside until she was 18, so what can I do in this world which will let me just live the way I want to
I hate this feeling of my throat and chest tightening and the sheer helplessness of it all, helpless and hopeless are the two worst things to be

No. 1077346

>>1077331
that's what i think too. i wouldn't even care and would be supportive if he had worked hard for the house and home gym etc with his own money but its all his parents doing. i just think that when you're born in to a quite obviously well-off or wealthy family that can afford a huge country house and a summer vacation home, you should at least be reasonable enough to understand that not everyone has those luxuries.

No. 1077349

>>1077258
Fuck that guy. I relate to you nonnie, also English and working class and even about to do my laundry in my kitchen. I've encountered too many assholes like him and the thing is they are NEVER self made. They are always where they are in life because their family helped them, at least from my experience, which just makes it worse. You didn't even earn this, you were just lucky, and I was just unlucky to comparison to you. What the fuck are we supposed to do about where we're born? We have no control over that. They so clearly don't understand what it's like and whenever they try to offer their advice and insight I want to punch them. I'm so angry on your behalf nonnie. And you have every right and reason to feel annoyed by what he's doing or jealous. I'm never dating a man born into luxury and wealth and I even want to drop my born into wealth friends because of all of these reasons.

No. 1077350

>>1077346
samefag but now he's also gone down the route of putting "he/they" pronouns in his stuff and will most likely come out as demiboy/non-binary or some shit in the future i'm betting.

No. 1077352

I want to curl up into a corner with my blanket and cry whilst listening to music but my house is too small with too many people so I can never have my own space to do things like that and be unjudged

No. 1077354

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I try not to be spiritual and I’m not a very religious person but I feel a very dark presence in my life right now that feels like it transcends my ordinary depression and anxiety. It isn’t just a sense of impending doom but like something is trying to drag me into a place no human wants to go, like hell?

No. 1077365

>>1077349
thanks nonna, i totally agree, idk if you had the same thing but looking back throughout my life i realise how many people really are ignorant to the working class or the fact that poor people just can't have shit and it's not really their fault a lot of the time when we are working hard just to barely survive. whenever you speak up about being mad you just get called jealous, which is why i doubted my own feelings and generally keep quiet about it unless i can be anonymous.
the advice and insight from them is the WORST for real, i can never imagine a scenario where i'd like advice or wise insight from someone who grew up being able to afford everything not through hard work but because they just happened to be born in the right family in the right country. i just hate the sarcastic surprised expression they have when i explain that no we don't get paid to go to college, yes we do have to work full-time and still have to get benefits because we can't afford shit with rising living costs, and god forbid you do the washing in the kitchen right! barbaric!!

i have stopped friendships with those type of people and i'm considering just dropping it with this guy too. i remember one time he mentioned a restaurant he went to with his bf and recommended it to me, he sent me the menu and the main courses were like £60-75. that's almost a day's wage for me and it genuinely shocked me kek. they are so out of touch with this shit even after you tell them you're working-class and have to be very strict with money.

No. 1077367

>>1077258
I'm poor and I've had this done to me. Most people take their wealth for granted and have very little to none empathy(most people are literally incapable of real empathy). Most people don't understand circumstances or how luck literally determines your social class because you are literally born into it.

No. 1077372

>>1077365
drop him. People like him are monsters with 0 empathy and if you try to face him about this he will pretend to be the victim or like you're harassing him. I'm poor and my dreams have been crushed by the lack of money and most rich/well off people or even people from normal families tell me get a job although that would have no impact on my life literally. No positive impact whatsoever. I wish death on all rich people. I wish suffering and death on all of them. They're all the same and have 0 understanding of how the world works, 0 empathy and they want to be coddled non stop.

No. 1077373

I don't want to always have to be strong. I want to be allowed to be weak.

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I woke up with sick diarrhea and I think I almost passed out in the shower just now

No. 1077405

I hate most people that I have ever met and feel like I've always offered people more than they have offered me in terms of empathy, advice, friendship and open mindness.

I've never received real emotional support and it has always been empty advice that does not even work for me or apply in my life. It feels like everyone wants their ass kissed and everyone thinks they are right even when they are not. Most people are biased and then they try to push their biases, opinions and preferences on you and when you refuse to entertain them, they end up persecuting you. It's really sad realizing that everyone is a narc basically that wants to get something out of you while they give you nothing. I'm tired and I'm tired of being nice to such people.

Everyone I have met does this stupid performative empathy thing towards me when they meet me and then they try to shove their preferences, political opinions down my throat and when I argue with them they take a place of superiority just because they've had more opportunities in their life and for some reason they're unable to see their own biases and how they're trying to push things down my throat like the world revolves around them

No. 1077414

I hate not having money so bad. After utility bills and groceries, I have shit left. It's tiring.

No. 1077417

I don't get the camwhore thread. Pumpy is not doing anything shady besides being an ana sex worker.

No. 1077440

i really miss my family. we were fairly tight knit but my two cousins got taken away by social services and it’s been devastating. we were raised together and they’re like my sisters. we see one sometimes but the other one needs supervised visits.

we had a supervised visit with most of us yesterday but she just spent most of it crying and panicking cause she misses us and doesn’t understand the situation. it broke my heart nonnies. it also makes me really angry at my aunt for not being able to get her shit together or properly do what child service was asking. this just sucks.

No. 1077543

I'm always disgusted when some media implies that all families fight or have skeletons in the closet or whatever. I always take personal offense to it, my family is so loving and comfortable. Everyone belongs and there are no secrets, it's like a damn disney movie. The only downside is that my dad died of cancer, but everyone acted like a safety net around us. I just heard someone say "My parents fought, like how all families really do" in regards to her mom cheating and her dad doing heroin. Like speak for yourself, girl! The worst person in my family is me because I watch crappy TV and talk about boring topics constantly. That's not drama-worthy.

No. 1077549

>>1077543
Very happy for you and your lovely family.

No. 1077575

>>1077543
That's lovely, good for you. I wish we had more stories like yours.

No. 1077587

>>1076956
Worst thing is how they always blame you for not just being social/confident. Must be easy to be those when you weren't socially isolated and never told one compliment or praise. "Good" things about me just brought me further pain, like classmates harrassing me about how weird it was that I dye my hair (I didn't, I just had nice hair, fuck them).

No. 1077602

>>1077543
Yeah, I feel like people push that narrative as an excuse to continue to treat their family like shit and never attempt to have normal relationships with anybody they're related to because "family is always crazy!!!!"

No. 1077606

>>1077543
Lost my mom to cancer and the moment she was gone the whole family just disconnected. She was the only glue keeping it together and I've spent every holiday alone since with the only exceptions being times when I'd a bf. Tbh I tend to assume every else is happy and loved up and functional. Like I try not to think about things in such a black and white way but I guess it's a thing people do. You either imagine your fam is the miserable norm or you pine for the happy family you imagine everyone else has. It's a trap to let yourself think of it in such extremes.

No. 1077614

I hate constantly being blown off by my friends who would rather spend time hanging out with or talking to their boyfriends who they don't even like and complain about. And then if you invite them anywhere they bring their gross ass moids and fight the whole time and leave early. Have any other anons had friends like this? And how do I meet people who won't do this shit I'm tired of it.

No. 1077616

My life’s ambition has always been to be a politician, but it’ll never happen because I/my family have done too much shit that I don’t want aired on a national stage. Guess I’ll just give up and settle into casual hobbies.

No. 1077635

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It is my birthday today, and oddly I do not feel the urge to die as I did the last previous years since I was 12. I feel good.

No. 1077653

>>1077543
You might be an exception. A lot of people only learn some nasty shit about their families a few decades too late so who knows what's the most common situation. And tbh I hate when people in your situation think that just because people are from the same family they HAVE to love each other and get along even when they learn that your parents physically or psychologically abused you, both cases are just people projecting their personal experience unto others.

No. 1077669

>>1077635
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR NONNY
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU

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>>1077635
Happy birthday anon. I'm glad you don't feel like you want to die anymore, I hope life is good

No. 1077675

>>1077635
>>1077669
…and many moooore!! Cha cha cha cha!

No. 1077698

>>1077635
happy birthday nonny, I hope you have the best time!!

No. 1077721

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>>1077543
>people who have valid reasons for not liking their families is now unrealistic my “loving” family exists and i can’t realize my family is the exception to the rule haha everyone love your families don’t think don’t disobey everyone love everyone stop complaining everything isn’t that bad! there are africans who don’t even have families because they were blown to bits by paramilitary troops~ :( be grateful 4 ur family i’m only here to arouse unnecessary anger and frustration from people and i hide my real intention of creating infighting and instigating problems because maybe i might be a piece of shit? do I really care about this issue or am I using it as an opportunity to humble brag and be a bitch about it! mmmm lemme humble brag

Anon I would drag your becky hair so hard you would not even be able to see anymore for the stupid shit you just typed right now. I can’t read these “unpopular” opinions anymore, people don’t need free speech they just need their ass beat to infinity and beyond(calm down)

No. 1077730

>>1077721
0 reading comprehension on this site.

No. 1077736

>>1077721
She said nothing of the sort…

No. 1077744

>>1077721
Are you legally retarded? I'm glad your family is bad though, you deserve to be as unhappy as you are. Hope your dad beats your mom even harder or whatever, you violent turd. Your bloodline is filth and your children will stick you in a home at 70. I'll react to your post by calling my grandmother, aunts, cousins and my mother just to tell them that I love them and I'm grateful that not only are they alive, but they share a life with me. My exception to your horrible rules of life is exceptional in its bliss. Kek(infighting)

No. 1077745

>>1077730
I understood what the fuck you were trying to say. Stop trying to cause infighting “tehee my family is better than urs~~~” what the fuck is this preschool? Love how you put in the vent thread of all threads where people are more likely to complain about their families. I hate cunts like you because you are one, you are a cunt anon

No. 1077747

>>1077721
wtf is this gif? What's the context?

No. 1077750

>>1077745
I didn't write the post. Maybe if your family was a good family they would have taught you some reading comprehension because that anon said none of the words you're shoveling in her mouth kek

No. 1077752

>>1077669
>>1077672
>>1077675
>>1077698
Thank you nonnies, you've made me cry! Thank you so much

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>>1077744
Oh no the anon who keeps calling people subhuman is back and it offends no one. Get fucked cunty-chan you and your shape-shifting reptile family(take a break)

No. 1077767


No. 1077770

idk what to do. im 23 and i want to move across the country to california to be with my long distance boyfriend that i’ve been with for like 7 months, but my mom yelled at me and said i’ll never make it in california and that it’s a huge mistake and i’ll lose all my money. it would only be for like 5 months and then him and i would move to a different state. she said she’s putting her foot down and not letting me go. before you call me crazy i’ve lived in a depressing state with my parents for 4 years now, haven’t been able to make a single friend all this time, and i’d want to move regardless if i have a boyfriend or not. i have like 20k in my savings so i could manage there as long as i work and he would help pay my rent too. but nope my mom says she won’t let me, that long distance relationships are impossible anyway, that i wouldn’t even make it if i moved out here. i feel so fucking trapped by her. she sees how miserable i am here, how much i want my own space and want friends and a real life relationship, and she won’t support me in getting that. he came to visit her for the first time two weeks ago and it was like she didn’t even care, she didn’t ask him any questions about himself or really treat him like my boyfriend. and now i’m starting to not want to do it anyway because my bf says if he has to wait much longer for me to move there that we can’t be together. so when he said that i told him we weren’t exclusive anymore then if he’s not going to wait for me while i figure this out. i just don’t know what to do about my parents. and i can’t believe my boyfriend would act like i’m taking too long to make the move when we haven’t even figured out a place for me to live yet, and this situation with my mom is stressing me out. i just don’t know what to do and i feel so alone without any friends to confide in. i feel stuck in a cage, like i’ll never get out of here, never connect with anyone else and i’ll be alone forever.

No. 1077773

>>1077763
This bait is weak. You have to threaten to kill someone and write a manifesto for it to be entertaining.

No. 1077776

>>1077763
I've rarely posted before and I'm not that anon, Frigoli-chan.

No. 1077782

>>1077776
It would also help if I had spelled Fregoli properly for this to really work

No. 1077788

>>1077770
You're 23, your mother cannot hold you back anymore. You're an adult and should be able to make your own life choices and take your own risks. That being said, your boyfriend should be more understanding too. I know how it feels to be trapped with your parents nonna, I'm sorry… I hope you can make it out happy

No. 1077797

>>1077773
Because I’m not a scrote. Stop craving dick 24/7 anon

No. 1077807

>>1077797
What's that got to do with anything? Christ. You keep reading into things.

No. 1077810

>>1077770
you're legally an adult. just pack your shit and leave, they can't stop you. and they'll get over it eventually.

No. 1077814

I've been feeling sad and lost all day and I have no idea what to do. My problems can't be fixed immediately, but I'm too stressed and sad to distract myself by playing vidya or whatever.

No. 1077828

>>1077770
Idk your relationship with your boyfriend, but Im assuming he's giving you an ultimatum to try and get you to actually leave your overbearing mother. Like the other anon said, you're 23, you have your own money, places are looking for people to work so even if it's not a glamorous job, you'll probably be able to find something, you should just go even if your mom won't support you. She sounds controlling and if you are waiting for her to give you the go-ahead she'll continue to be able to exert her will over your life. I also have a controlling parent, so I know it's not easy and that their opinion does end up having massive control over your life decisions because you were likely raised to not trust yourself and your own needs and desires, but what your mom thinks. It's not gonna be easy, or even feel that pleasant because you'll second guess yourself after all of your mom's negativity , but you should definitely go, it'll be the best for you in the long term.

No. 1077849

>>1077770
Your boyfriend is pressuring you with a huge life decision, wow, what a keeper. He should be supportive in hard times, not be making it worse for you. I'm sorry your mother is controlling but it sounds like moving from one shit situation to another.

No. 1077851

>>1077770
The bf sounds like he could be flakey or controlling tbh, when ultimatums are getting thrown around this early it can set a bad precedent, man learns how to get his way and repeats the thing that got him his way.. making threats.

If you go, don't tell him you have 20k in savings.

No. 1077867

>>1077770
A lot of anons responding to you make good points i think you should take into consideration. But i’m just gonna say moms right about california living here at the moment and making ends meet is hell

No. 1077870

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Put me into a coma and wake me up when I don't have to worry about big things anymore

No. 1077878

I wish I was married. I hate that I’m single at 33. I thought I was going to end up marrying my last partner but they ended up dumping me for a younger woman and are going to start living with her and qigong HER and not me who they’d been with for 5 years.

It makes me feel like I’m one of those women who are just meant to be alone. I hate how when I confide in people about this they go “enjoy the time you have by yourself” “ live in the moment” “find happiness with in yourself”. No fuck all that. None of that shit applies to me. I’m one of those girls who needs companionship and. I I’m not going to get a fucking dog if I “just want a warm body” like I need an actual fucking person by my side. I long for it no yearn for it and no one ever fuckingn stays with me. Idk what I’m even doing wrong. I pour my heart and cash into these relationships with no give back and then they fuck off when someone “better” comes along. I’d rather fucking kill myself then end up alone tbh.

No. 1077889

>>1077878
Maybe you make it easy for yourself to be taken for granted. I'll be 32 this year and broke up with the guy I thought I'd marry a month before I turned 30. I was always with someone or had other options since 15. Half my life. Like I also need laid but with experience comes wisdom and I'm just so reluctant to jump back into things with anyone. I spent so much of my money on the last two serious relationships. I was always making myself available and dependable. Always going the extra mile and always doing all the emotional labour for any conflict. All issues I took responsibility for. I was a walk over. You could treat me like shit but if you were sweet to me all was forgotten immediately I was so forgiving. Give a man an inch he will take a mile. I can't wait for the day I find someone again. I fear the good guys are already married as a few people I've had an interest in of course are not available. Shit sucks.

No. 1077897

>>1077878
So go date? Have fun, meet guys? You don't have to be married to not be alone lol. Btw it's proven that marriage only temporarily makes you happier, after a while your happiness level goes back to how it was before, so people aren't kidding you need to find happiness within yourself first and foremost. I understand longing for companionship (which you can also find in other things than just a romantic/sexual relationship) but marriage isn't the end of all things.

No. 1077905

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I sometimes think about like dating around and having fun while I'm still in my early 20's and scope out potential partners. But it's so hard and I'm very shy around people. And tbh I think I don't want that? I think about having to experience everything with one solid life partner and I'd be okay with that. One day i hope he/she will come. I don't think I can take this loneliness anymore but it's also scary?? What if they learn more shit about me and end up falling out of love? Maybe I'm bound to be lonely? Idk

No. 1077908

My dream was to work in a job related to animals, but these don't really pay well in my country and I don't have patience to do university, so I'll probably give up. I'll try to find another way to help animals and be close to them.

No. 1077911

In light of recent events I’ve been trying to look up/find my old nanny, who was ukrainian. This woman took care of me at least once a week until the age of five. My earliest memories have her caring face in them. But then she didn’t come anymore. I never gave it any thought. After prying my mom about it this morning she admitted that she let her go because they were worried her teaching me her language was a "bad influence".
I didn’t even know it was ukrainian. I only remember and vaguely at that having a "secret language" to talk to her in and that we had fun, like two friends. My heart feels broken right now. How in the hell was that bad? If anything me being able to remember all that was impressive for a kid! I was going to an english school, so i spoke my language, english, and ukrainian at that time? And they made her stop making me use my memory? Lol am i a limited capacity usb stick??
This is so gross in another way, that this woman gave up all her time to take care of a child that wasn’t even hers, and got dismissed because she dared communicate to the child like an individual instead of a childcare robot. Nannies and babysitters are exploited. Ive always felt this.
Anyway I can’t find her but I’ll keep trying.

No. 1077916

>>1077908
I didn't learn about agriculture schools until I was already in a field I studied for but maybe there's things near you like that. Like an access course directly related to animal management with a focus more on practical actual experience that looks good on a cv for so many animal jobs. You could also volunteer at an animal shelter or see if there's other animal related things you could volunteer at. It could open doors for you. A girl I work with volunteers with horses at the weekend and helps kids with learning disabilities using the horses. She loves it, it sounds so rewarding.

No. 1077933

>>1077908
Animal care is a lot harder to get into than most people think. I have a friend who works with wildlife and she worked very hard to get her job, yet 90% of her classmates were only able to do the same line of work because of connections and money. I wish I had advice to give you… maybe farm animals? I have no idea.
>>1077911
I really hope you find her nonnie, good luck!

No. 1077951

>>1077911
Good luck nona! I hope she's safe and well.

Slightly related but I had a friend who is part Thai and she said she never learned the language because her pediatrician told her parents not to teach it to her because she would "become confused" so she only knows English.

No. 1078090

People on clothing resale apps get so defensive when you do 5 seconds of googling to find out if the item they’re listing is overpriced. There are people selling kids clothes from the thrift store for $60. THRIFT STORES ARE FOR POOR PEOPLE

No. 1078180

>>1078090
I fucking hate what zoomers are doing to thrift stores. Hehehe time to raid the shit out of this good will and salvation army (but I thought they hated gay people… not very woke if you ask me!) and sell it for seven times the price it originally was when it was brand new. Any time I go thrifting I'll see at least one zoomer with clown makeup going through the clothing aisles and looking at the clothes one by one fast as fuck and then they grab whatever looks like would make money and then dump it in their carts.

No. 1078208

>>1077908
Animal sanctuaries and similar places are always in need of volunteers, so maybe you could volunteer there if you had the time? You'd be helping animals and if you ever decided that you did want to work with animals it would probably help you a ton on a job/university application.

>>1077933
Maybe it's different where you live, but in my experience wildlife is much more competitive to get into than stuff with domestic animals like being an animal care assistant at a vets or something, although basically anything with animals is going to be pretty competitive.

No. 1078310

>>1078180
Anon Gen Z needs clothes too, they can't just walk around naked. Also it's weird to blame a bunch of children for corporations overly inflating their prices for no reason (seriously, the same damn things in thrift shops will sit there for months until they can find some random to pay $50 for a used coat)

You also have to remember stores that are supposedly catering to middle class are getting way too expensive for even them, it's almost $100 per piece of clothing now. An entire outfit nowadays would realistically cost an entire paycheck or two for average people. You can't possibly expect a bunch of teenagers to drop that sort of money unless their own parents have money, and if you think it's the rich Gen Z going thrifting then…

No. 1078315

>>1078310
>Anon Gen Z needs clothes too, they can't just walk around naked
Anon is obviously talking about zoomers who buy up shit for cheap and sell it for 50 bucks more on depop.

No. 1078318

>>1078310
Are you the same anon who started moralfagging in the temporary vent thread about how it's not the poor zoomers fault everything is sooo expensive? Anon, I don't care. They annoy the shit out of me, and I'm going to continue complaining about and making fun of cringey zoomers hoarding thrift store shit and reselling it for crazy insane prices.

No. 1078320

>>1078180
i wonder if anyone has seen me buy clothes for myself and thought this lol

No. 1078331

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this friend that i met and have become very close with since we hit it off in early 2021 said he's into everything about me, and despite my fears that he'd get sick of me, he seems to enjoy spending time with me more than ever. he writes and leaves good night messages to me every night, and makes and leaves good morning voice messages in the morning, when i told him it would mean a lot to me. he says he'd do just about anything for me, and he does, but i dont believe him, or that he means what he says despite him being great 97-99% of the time, because there have been some hiccups to drop to that percentage. i asked him what he did last night, and he said 2 things: making a let's-play video of a new game for me, and thinking about me. but it just reeks of fishiness when he says he is thinking about me. although i did get the video that i requested and hoped he would make for me. and despite my fear that my pussy is the only thing about me of value to a guy, all i really want from this guy is his dick in my pussy and nothing more, because he's an older virgin and that's a kink. but he says that even though he's really into me sexually, that he's a more long-term and committal type of person, and that he's looking out for me by not just fucking me casually at least once.

we watch youtube, movies, read, talk until the sun rises and about any topic, even really weird or niche ones that i bring up and don't expect him to enjoy. he still endears himself to me when i talk about women's fashion or drama with the lolcows i follow. but even though he says he'd do anything for me, he won't do this thing i just requested - go out with me and flirt with other girls in front of me (yes, this is a kink too). now im reconsidering my whole relationship with this guy if he clearly doesn't like me or care about me enough to do that.

No. 1078336

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I have had anxiety pretty much all my life, for many years without even knowing what it was, and my biggest regret is ever letting people know I have it. I wish I had kept up the mask of being "fine" and "chill" honestly.

It's like I can physically feel it whenever someone clocks that I'm a very anxious person, and it pisses me off because rarely are they understanding and let me do things in a way that is both challenging and safe for me. The only people who understand it are my partner and my closest friends. Apart from that, I just have to act like this crippling mental disorder just doesn't exist for me or else people will instantly try to find a way to either take advantage or just take the piss out of me, really.
I have always been an anxious driver and due to where I live and working at home, I haven't drove my car since maybe 2020 before lockdown so it has made me anxious to drive again. I have to physically restrain myself from ever mentioning that, because people will assume I'm either just lazy or a neurotic nervous wreck and make little jokes about it. They honestly can't even take a second to be in my shoes and understand what it feels like to have your brain constantly working against you. My brain, through years of trauma and growing up disadvantaged, has by default learned to always think of the absolute worst situations and possibilities first, and I cannot control those thoughts. I get embarrassed by so many things and hyperanalyze things that "normal" people don't, and people can't even take that shit into consideration before they sit on their throne and say shit like "well you don't even drive that car so ___" and "why can't you do it, don't be boring"

Because of shit like this I'm learning to love just being on my own and advancing through life at my own pace, but people want to assume I'm lazy for that?! I work, I take care of my cat, and I don't hurt other people, I'm just minding my business out here.
Everyone wants to act like they support mental health awareness until they come across someone with severe anxiety and suddenly that facade drops. We're not lazy, we cannot help the card our brains were dealt, and the vast majority of us are genuinely fucking trying to survive and catch up in a world that for the most part, doesn't seem to have room for us.

No. 1078353

>>1078318
>ArE yOu ThIs AnOn?1?1??
Bitch I didn't even use the temp threads at all, have "are you this anon?" bitches ever been correct? ever?

>>1078315
It seems like mostly millennials doing it tbh or at least encouraging it via Pinterest, same with fba which is just reselling cheap Chinese shit. same with cars and furniture. Although raging and assuming the worst because you saw kids in a thrift store is autistic as fuck, I've met a lot of these people who buy things at discount and upsell them and most, if not all of them are millennials, on top of that they usually raid discount stores in order to upsell. I can barely find discount clothes and shoes anymore because these fucks like to come to local stores and raid them so they can sell full price on amazon so it's impossible to find new items anymore for a decent price, not to mention it's inflating these stores like crazy too

No. 1078375

Had to put my elderly cat to sleep on Sunday after she started to go blind a couple weeks ago and I'm in a daze. My room feels so quiet and empty.

No noise from her water fountain, no noise from her walking around the room. No litterbox to clean after every time she used it. No tray of various foods to replace with fresh food every time she seemed hungry. Her cat bed with a heating pad that was always kept on for her is empty, she isn't sleeping in it anymore. The scratching posts that I always sprinkled catnip on are gone. No more boxes of medication or prescription food for her health problems, I donated all her leftover medicine to the vet. No more waking up at random hours of the night because she wanted to hop up on the bed and sleep next to me, or curl up in my lap and purr with happiness because she was able to find me. No more carefully escorting her outside my room as she inspected the places she remembered and gradually forgot her mental map of the house. No more accompanying her when she demanded to go out and sit on the porch for a while to enjoy the weather. No more waking up at sunrise because she could still tell that it was getting brighter and would complain until I opened all the blinds. No more holding her in my arms. No more brushing her fur since she couldn't groom herself anymore, carefully monitoring how annoyed she was and switching to brushing areas that felt good instead of the matted fur when she got annoyed enough to try and slap me. No more watching her like a hawk every time she jumped up on anything so I could catch her if she fell, or reach out to steady her if the fast movement disoriented her. No more using my vibrator as a back and tummy massager for her so that she could have a bowel movement without throwing up from the strain. No more letting my legs and arms cramp up because she fell asleep on me and I'd be damned if I woke her up from a nice kitty dream. No more watching her try to clean her eyes off, knowing she didn't understand the blindness. No more intervening to scratch itchy spots for her as soon as I saw her trying to get at them with her back paws. No more kissing her forehead. No more rubbing my face against her face while she purred, and holding still so she could do the same thing. No more climbing on me to demand a little bit of whatever I was eating, even though she only wanted to sniff it most times. No more watching her slow blink in my general direction based off the sound of my voice and knowing that she couldn't see me return the slow blink - "I love you" in cat body language. No more playing the only game she had energy left to play, the game cats play with their kittens - briefly catching her tail once she flicked it into my open palm and then waiting patiently for her to move it back in range of my fingers. No more deciphering her mood based on tail motions alone, because her mobility was reduced. No more bribing her to eat real food with treats. No more nibbling on her ears, or shoving my nose against one of her paws. No more gently removing grains of cat litter stuck to the fur between her little toe beans. No more warm, alive girl, only happy when she was resting in my lap. No more annoying her by putting vaseline on her dry/cracked skin in winter. No more exploring outdoors together and leading her through the big backyard, happy she trusted me enough to follow me even if she was doubtful about where we were headed, because she couldn't see me to use me as a landmark anymore.

In a lot of ways, being her caregiver for the final six months was a pain in the ass. But that's exactly what you miss when they're gone, the privilege of being inconvenienced by them.

I forgot to check and see if she was interested in having some vanilla ice cream the night before she died, something she always wanted to lick out of the bowl when I was done eating it. I remembered to give her some pizza cheese earlier in the week, another favorite to steal, but I forgot the ice cream.

I probably won't eat ice cream again for the rest of my life.

No. 1078382

>>1078375
I wish I had something more insightful to say but I'm so sorry for your loss, anon. You sound like you were an amazing owner and she sounds like a very sweet cat.

No. 1078388

Reading about how to be less indecisive makes me embarrassed. The suggestions seem so simple and babyish, I feel so incompetent.

No. 1078392

Feel fucking ugly because I grew up in a masculine worship household and when I did feminine stuff, I got made fun of, told I looked like a prostitute over shittily applied eyeliner, and my sisters who looked plain and never wore makeup and looked masculine got told how beautiful they were but at most I looked "nice", maybe. Everyone was mean to me about my makeup and fashion, but they praised my sisters. It doesn't matter my sister's boyfriend's have asked me for nudes, that I get told I'm beautiful a fuckload now, I feel inside like it's not me who is attractive, it's just my stupid fashion and dumb makeup and I feel like I'm always going to be ugly. My parents made it out like I was only pretty because I did that stuff and they made sure to praise my sisters probably to discourage me. It just made me feel like fucking shit. I feel like they're always prettier than me even though they have terrible hygiene and one has never dated and is in her 30s. I wish I didn't care. How do I heal this wound?

No. 1078396

>>1078375
I'm honestly crying reading this, nonna. You cared for her so much and she will always appreciate that. I have a cat who is getting quite old too, he's around 10 I think, and although I'm hoping he has many happy years left with me I can't ever be prepared for when it's time to let him go.

>But that's exactly what you miss when they're gone, the privilege of being inconvenienced by them.


So very true. Just know that she will always love you for taking care of the little things and sticking by her until the end.

No. 1078456

God I wish my mom would just shut the fuck up already. I got high for the first time last week and it was a fucking disaster of an experience and had to ask my parents to pick me up because there's no way I could've gotten home by myself on the subway (plus it was very late at night already). My dad's already lectured me and now he's just like "yeah, you fucked up but you learned your lesson so that's that" but my mom won't stop bringing it up. She's constantly asking "where are you going?! don't you see that girl again!!" as I'm heading out to see friends, as if I didn't already tell her multiple times already who I'm going to see and where!! She acts like I didn't tell her last week when I first made plans, then reminded her the night before and morning of where I was going!

I get it! I made a shitty decision! I fucked around, I found out, and now I'm over it! Realistically, why would I go see that girl who gave me weed again? What sense does it make for me to go see her (I had just met her so we aren't close) and try weed again when I had an absolute terrible time? I didn't sneak out, I just went to see this person after work under the assumption we were just going to hang out and then when she offered me weed I was like yeah why not. I didn't go with the intention of getting high. I'm a really adventerous or spontaneous person to begin with and my parents know this. I feel like a dumb teenager with too much to prove when I say "I'm an adult" but I am an adult and I do know better now than to try stupid shit twice.

My parents stopped being overbearing in highschool and I dormed for college/studied abroad across the world so they're pretty hands off with me, but I try weed, which is legal in my state, once and now it's the end of the world and mom wants to act like I'm addicted.

No. 1078463

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I fucking hate how my man's family is so fucking loud all the fucking time. he is away at his hometown with his family and every single fucking time I trynna tall to him on the fucking phone it sounds like a fucking asylum for travesties who think they're cher or some faggot shit like shut your cunt ass lips I neED TO TALK TO MY HUSBAND.

No. 1078468

>>1078375
I'm so sorry nona. I have a elderly pet right now and I cry thinking of the inevitable future without her.

Did you have her cremated? Would it be okay to offer some ice cream to her soul? I always imagine in the future that I will leave out my dog's water bowl and favorite towel to sleep on in case her spirit comes back to visit, as well as presenting regular offerings of her favorite foods to a little shrine I want to make for her.

Your sweet kitty was so well loved. I hope she's having a good time up in kitty heaven. I hope at the end of our lives we might meet them again.

No. 1078495

>>1077354
You might be in the process of developing psychosis.

No. 1078531

for the 10th year in a row, people, taking a vacation day from work, smoking weed in silk lounge pants, and cooking gnocchi for dinner is a perfectly acceptable way to celebrate ones birthday. just because i dont want to go out and blow money on food or alcohol doesnt mean im having a sad or tragic day or whatever, some people just enjoy the quiet

No. 1078535

>>1078353
t. zoomer

No. 1078537

>>1078535
t. millennial blaming children for all of their issues

No. 1078544

My ex and I are broken up. He kept and keeps fucking up, and he knows it. He loves me a lot still but his behaviour is what matters. I broke up with him and we are separated. So I shouldn't feel guilty about having gone on a date with a new guy. This is my journey and my path with my lessons. He isn't entitled to any of it. I didn't do anything wrong. Just because we are still in contact doesn't mean we are together. He keeps doing things still that are negative and I simply let him but ignore him when he does. He knows this. A healthy normal distance was developing between us anyway and he's the one who's still in love with me. He's the one who wants sex with me. He's the one who wants to go on a date with me. He's also the one who can't think of an appropriate date. Maybe what I did hurt him but I'm not responsible for him. And his beliefs on what an ex's responsibility is aren't my issue. His feelings aren't my issue. And my journey is none of his business. My choices, my challenges, their my business and mine alone. He can be angry, upset, disappointed, spiteful– it doesn't matter one bit. It's all the same and doesn't hold that influence over me.

No. 1078545

>>1078537
I'm a zoomer myself. Give up the depop reselling and get a real job.

No. 1078547

>>1078544
Beautiful

No. 1078549

>>1078382
>>1078396
Thank you nonnas. She was with me for seventeen years and was my best friend, as sad as that sounds. A few years ago I was in very bad shape mentally and I overdosed on benzos a few times, but each time it happened she would yell for help nonstop until humans came to help me. So she really saved my life a few times. I could tell stories about how smart and caring toward me she was for days. Taking very good care of her when she couldn't take care of me anymore was just me trying to repay her. I'm glad I got the chance to try for the last two years once I got my shit together, even if it doesn't feel like I did enough for her

No. 1078559

>>1078468
I dropped her off at the crematorium on Monday and they'll let me know when I can pick up her ashes this week. I initially wanted to bury her in a nice spot in the backyard where we used to hang out together but the ground is frozen solid and won't thaw for months. But this way I can keep her ashes with me always, and I have some of her fur saved so I won't forget how she smelled. I am planning to build a small shrine for her once I get the ashes back. Making an offering of a little ice cream sounds like a nice idea.

No. 1078563

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i am very mentally unwell

No. 1078564

>>1078545
Did you miss the entire part where I agree that upselling cheap items is shitty but blaming an entire generation consisting mostly of teens is retarded?

No. 1078571

>>1078563
me too sis

No. 1078590

>>1078563
girl me too FUCKING CHEERS!!

No. 1078600

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alchol is bad blah blah blah, but it's the only shit that helps me truly relax. benzos are useless, ssris give me patience but not peace or confidence. seriously, the only thing stoping me from daydrinking is being constanly sleepy and needing coffee, salt and energy drinks (and meds, can't forget the fucking meds) to not fall asleep on my fucking feet.

No. 1078614

>>1078600
I feel the same way only thing stopping me from being a day drinker is the calories :((:()

No. 1078623

>>1078331
>go out with me and flirt with other girls in front of me (yes, this is a kink too)
Oh I'm kink shaming that shit is pathetic

No. 1078636

>>1078375
>>1078549
Oh anon, I'm so sorry. Your posts are so heartfelt and you sound like the most amazing friend she could have ever asked for, and her to you. I hope she rests in peace. It takes so long for our hearts to heal when they're gone, I guess they never heal completely. But the good times you spent together and the impact you had on each other is something precious that you can always look back on when you need to be strong. Love you, anon.

No. 1078666

>>1078331

Sounds like you have a boyfriend that you want to cheat on you? Sis what the fuck

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No. 1078691

>>1078331
Kys pickme

No. 1078693

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>>1078331
if this isn’t bait you seriously have to be euthanized

No. 1078701

I JUST WANT TO FUCKING SLEEP SHUT THE FUCK UPPPPPPPPPPPP I'M SERIOUSLY ABOUT TO BREAK DOWN IN FUCKING TEARS OVER THIS SHIT. LET ME FUCKING SLEEP. I FUCKING HATE THIS. I FUCKING HATE THIS. I'VE BEEN SLEEPING LIKE FUCKING SHIT I FUCKING HATE PEOPLE SO FUCKING MUCH. FUCK SCHOOL FUCK PEOPLE FUCK EVERYTHING HOLY SHIT JUST LET ME FUCKING. SLEEP.

No. 1078705

>>1078331
It sounds like he's stringing you along and you're way too naive, I mean what kind of a guy won't have sex a year into a relationship? I don't think he's as into you as you think he's into you

No. 1078710

>>1078701
Good night to myself in this post.

No. 1078713

I really, really want a cigarette but I'm visiting family and staying with my mom. Legit she will throw a fit and tell the whole family, who will then proceed to lecture me one by one for the rest of my life. I'm 30 ffs let me kill myself in peace.

No. 1078718

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>>1078691
>>1078686
>>1078666
>>1078623

ok im clarifying he's not a boyfriend and i don't want him to cheat on me if he was, and i don't want him to one day say he has a new friend that he's spending all this time with either. i just wanna see him flirt with other women, and it's more about getting a confirmation that he'll do 100% anything for me like he says, and that if he could have an amazingly hot and sex exchange with a hot and sexy woman, he'd still with no thought come back to me.

No. 1078723

>>1078718
Get help, LARP-chan

No. 1078726

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>>1078375
Sweet Nona, I’m so sorry for your loss. I know this is kind of corny/old but it might bring you some comfort.

No. 1078744

>>1078718
>>1078331
zoomers were a mistake

No. 1078765

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>>1078331
and you made me real all of that why?
>i just want his old virgin dick in my pussy

you sound like someone who has a bedtime wtf

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No. 1078781

>>1078718
Damn and I thought that was insecure. He doesn't want to do that because he seems to only want you for some reason.

No. 1078782

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No. 1078789

>>1078782
god that man is so ugly ew ew ew spoiler it!

No. 1078796

I've put myself in this fucking hell and I'm too chicken shit to change it. I'm a nasty doomer.

No. 1078813

>>1078782
What an emotionally stable looking young couple!

No. 1078823

>>1078331
Aww babies first love bomb

No. 1078843

I will realize periodically throughout the week that I haven't been eating very well or very consistently and I'll get so fucking hungry when I realize. I'll start craving fatty, deepfried, greasy-ass foods. But I'll have no desire to get up and make it/go out and get some fast food. I just end up losing interest in eating despite being hungry as fuck. I can't even make myself get out of bed to go to the kitchen. I don't want to eat anything. I don't want to get up. I kind of just want to stay in bed and rot away. I'm hungry but I can't even eat. I fucking hate this. I don't know what's wrong with me.

No. 1078855

GIVE US /M/ BACK MODERATOS WHY DO YOU LEAVE US HALF DONE WHAT IS THIS JUST REMOVE THE BOARD IF YOU CARE SO LITTLE YOU RUINED MY VALENTINE'S DAY ALONE AND YOU RUIN EVERY SUBSEEUQNET DAY SINCE THEN CORRECT YOUR MISTAKES AND RETSTORE /M/ TO ITS GLORY ITS NOT RIGHT ITS JUST NOT RIGHT'

No. 1078858

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>>1078855
I warned you that I wanted you a great mod, you troll the janitor and you fuck the janitor I warned you that I would return here to LOLCOR by my next presence We're helpless Nothing comfortable You're doing nothing You're not doing anything You're not using anything You're not using anything You hurt us you are the worst than you are the worst I want to go home, and I want everything to be normal again, and it unleashes my hellish world, I still feel like I'm back and there's nothing yet please please please please please please please PLE Correct the eyesight I'm begging for you please give me GIVE US /M/ BACK MODERATOS WHY DO YOU LEAVE US HALF DONE WHAT IS THIS JUST REMOVE THE BOARD IF YOU CARE SO LITTLE YOU RUINED MY VALENTINE'S DAY ALONE AND YOU RUIN EVERY SUBSEEUQNET DAY SINCE THEN CORRECT YOUR MISTAKES AND RETSTORE /M/ TO ITS GLORY ITS NOT RIGHT ITS JUST NOT RIGHT

No. 1078864

>>1078782
Even though Greg has always looked awful it's jarring seeing this relatively babyfaced picture of him now when in the last picture an anon posted of him he looks like he's been living in a sewer

No. 1078869

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>>1078331
>this fucking unrealistic and UNGRATEFUL rude pickme bitch can get a guy to dote on her, but I can't get a guy to maintain eye contact with me even in a situation where we're practically forced to interact together, like for a project

I hate to be jealous (especially of someone of your ilk) and self deprecating, but I guess the moral of life is you can get away with anything if you're hot.

No. 1078895

>>1078869
This. So many women in abusive relationships struggle trying to make their man NOT flirt with other women right in front of their face, this bitch is enabling abusive scrote behavior and claiming it's a kink

No. 1078897

IM LETTING MYSELF GET PLAYED BC IM CRIPPLINGLY INSECURE AND WANT VALIDATION FROM A HOT GUY SOMEONE PLEASE STOP MY DUMBASS REEEEEEEEEEEE

No. 1078899

>>1078897
stops u

No. 1078903

i need to shave but am afraid i am going to somehow reopen one of my leg wounds

No. 1078904

An artist I really look up to announced she's a they/them a few days ago and I'm so fucking disappointed and annoyed by it. I guess it wasn't that big of a surprise but god damn it. I had hoped she'd have enough pride in herself to feel comfortable as a woman but guess not even after all these years

No. 1078923

>>1078904
I swear I see posts like these multiple times a week on lolcow. This troon pandemic has to fucking stop, this is so sad.

No. 1078925

>>1078895
Doubtlessly she and bitches like her would say that they're in an abusive relationship too when something slightly goes awry, or conjure up issues from innocuous actions. Devoid of self-awareness. She doesn't want affection, she just wants attention including demanding her friend basically cuck her when he's imploring her not to? How the fuck does this even happen?

No. 1078931

I grew up on tumblr and it was what sort of brainwashed me into consuming media just to ship characters together. I remember being 16 and reading fanfictions of Michael and Trevor from gta fucking. I'm thinking back on it now and I'm like what the fuck? What would possess me to read stories about these two old, ugly fictional men having sex? Thinking about it now honestly confuses me. What was going through my mind to do that? Fuck tumblr. If I could travel back in time I would smash my families internet modem with a sledgehammer. I'm still on tumblr occasionally and while the part of the site I'm on is always like "ugh these BRAINDEAD idiots who only watch shows/read books to ship two male characters together are CRINGE" because they, like me, have probably grown up and realized how weird it is to only focus on a noncanon relationship between characters and not giving a fuck about anything else like story and themes and etc., they STILL end up only talking about how generic man #1 and generic man #2 from whichever show is in right now are toooootally gay and fuck eachother all the time. I would not have a problem with it if they didn't act so fucking hypocritical and holier-than-thou about it. They're still tumblr western media fujos at heart, bless them. But I have moved past that shit. It's just annoying to watch it in action.

No. 1078933

>>1078931
Samefag. I can literally never post anything on lolcow without some really stupid typo, can I? Guess I'm just too in my feels.

No. 1078934

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Everything feels terrible. My job sucks my country is a joke my ex-college classmates are running circles around me in terms of their careers I’m never gonna find love my grandpa is lying in a hospital bed dying the same time my sister is getting married and I’m stuck in this shitty house for God knows how much longer and I’m pretty sure I have COVID but I can’t get tested because then I’ll miss the wedding and I’m part of the bridal party and I still haven’t broken my ugly ass heels in. I can’t fucking cope anymore. I think I’m actually going crazy.

No. 1078936

>>1073966

start writing down every instance of this happening, get witnesses to back you up, show it to your boss/hr after compiling enough evidence of them harassing you

No. 1078939

>>1078925
a female cuck wouldn't demand their man to cheat on them since cucks get off on being subservant and used as doormats. It's most likely an incel or something larping so he can get screenshots saying shit like "SEE guys women LOVE being treated like shit! look at this thot with a loving boyfriend who is begging for him to cheat!"

No. 1078943

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Broke up with my girlfriend today. She never had time for me. Right after we break up she says that she want to coordinate to meet up to exchange Christmas gifts. Fuck you.

No. 1078945

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No. 1078950

>>1078945
I'm sorry but I hate this fucking gif so much, I instantly associate it with old scrotes whose follow list consists of at least 80% ewhores

No. 1078955

>>1078939
I've seen both girls and guys with low self esteem say that their partner would be happier with someone else, and it makes them happy to see them with other people, and yadda yadda yadda. I wouldn't put it past anyone, much less this young generation, to find comfort in being a doormat. We have females in these very threads who have admitted to apologizing and making excuses for their completely detestable, cheating, ABUSIVE partners.

No. 1078956

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how do i know if i'm actually a rad fem/feminist, and not just someone who hates trannies? little stuff i do for my fellow women are things like
>only seeing female doctors and etc.
>only really befriending women
>tipping my female servers extra (if i can afford it, within reason)
i don't actually volunteer or read theory because i lack time and energy.

No. 1078958

I had an trauma (ik nonnies hate that word but i went through something i promise) induced identity crisis as a teenager for a bit like maybe two years and then after a while i was rediscovering myself and i feel embarrassed because i sperged a lot during that period and i obsessed about things i loved pre said identity crisis that i thought defined who i am to be honest i’ll dismiss these feelings but i have dark thoughts about that phase all the time. Such a small phase yet i let it define me so much and hinder the qualities and morals i love about my present self

No. 1078963

>>1078956
theres an easy joke in here about the two being one and the same somewhere

No. 1078975

>>1078956
It depends. Radical feminism is SCUM manifesto eliminate all men. Radical doesn’t mean “very,” it’s literally a radical praxis and it’s not meant to make anyone comfortable; it’s meant to upset and disrupt. It’s also objectively correct, though probably not feasible in any world but a utopia. Hating trannies is obviously included in that because TIMs are males. But lots of regular degular feminists are getting peaked by troon behavior, but they don’t necessarily believe all men should be eliminated. They probably date men or have known men that they like or have dubbed “one of the good ones.” A radical feminist will believe there is no such thing as a good men. Men have taken to using TERF as a pejorative misnomer but obviously “men are men” is not a radical take. It was the majority opinion not even 20 years ago. So if you hate troons for their troonery, that’s mostly just common sense. If you recognize that their troonery is just standard male tactic oppression of women and you realize the problem is not that they’re trans but that they are MEN and the only solution is to eradicate them, you might be a radfem.

But I could be wrong and it could be a spectrum, I’m not like a gender studies major or anything. Just someone who read scum manifesto and some Dworkin.

No. 1078982

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>>1078943
Christmas gifts for the one just been or the one in ten months time?

No. 1078991

>>1078982
From last year lol

No. 1078992

>>1078956
>>1078975
most radical feminists from the 1970's were subhumans who sniffed their farts and thought it was time some sort of big fight against the patriarchy despite being university educated upper middle class white and jewish women

the ideas of subhumans aren't really worth anything

No. 1078996

>>1078992
(c)rapperchan is branching out to radical feminists I see!

No. 1078997

I don’t see the point of getting in a relationship. I don’t see the point in having kids. Am I just immature? If I move out of my third world country run by corrupt people will I stop thinking that I should never bring a person into this world considering how traumatic living can be? I don’t care for love. I don’t care for sex. Why should I feel shame for not being in a relationship at my age when I am happier without a partner than all the times I was ever with one?

No. 1078999

>>1078
>Subumans
>Muh jews
Tbh you sound subhuman.

No. 1079002


No. 1079003

Nonnies is texting a therapist on better help worth it.. 60$ a week feels like too much… i know therapy is expensive but will texting one even work?

No. 1079004

>>1078999
Upper middle class WHITE AND JEWISH women in academia, that's not muh jews

No. 1079005

>>1079004
>Muh jews
>Muh white
>Muh educated
Didn't say it did. You just sound subhuman calling other people subhuman.

No. 1079006

>>1079004
Only subhumans call others subhumans distract from the fact they are subhuman.

No. 1079007

>>1079003
nonny it depends on how badly at the time you need support. if 60 a week is going to be your lifeline to a person that knows how to handle someone going thru a crisis then YES it is worth it. if it is not as immediate of a need, i would at least start searching for an in-person therapist, because the best thing any "therapist" regardless of their educational degrees is just the human support, believing that someone is caring about you, understands, has the answers to help, etc. and being able to maintain that until you're able to kinda wean off of it. sorry if this is not coherent im inebriated but i have 10+ years of therapy under my belt and the main thing you can take from it overall is mainly a sense of hope. so if thats the quickest best way to achieve it thru betterhelp then yes do it

No. 1079008

>>1078997
I'm first world and I think the same. Instead I believe the only kid I would want is a daughter so being pregnant runs the risk of a male and I wouldnt be a good enough mother anyway so it's best I stick with plants. I also question if I'd ever find another woman who could deal with my social retardation, that I don't care for men, or just other unconventional opinions based on today's social climate.

No. 1079010

>>1078992
it's not (c)rapperchan, it's romanianon

No. 1079012

>>1078997
There's nothing wrong about not wanting either a relationship or kids. Don't worry about it.

No. 1079013

>>1079010
Wonder if she killed the cat.

No. 1079019

>>1079013
She didn't kill it, anon. She just sent it to live on an old farm, miles and miles away, that's all… she definitely did NOT kill it!

No. 1079021

>>1078956
Don't get caught up in labels. I'd say you are gender critical or agree with radical feminist beliefs (on gender identity and transition if you focus on those compared to other issues like porn). I think keeping the label of feminist for leaders in the movement or actual activists makes sense, though online it makes sense to call yourself one to more easily find other women with similar beliefs.

>only seeing female doctors and etc.

>only really befriending women
>tipping my female servers extra (if i can afford it, within reason)
These are examples of separatist behavior, wouldn't consider them forms of activism but have much value in enriching your and other women's lives. The main separatist action radfems (and lesbian feminists) discuss is avoiding romantic and sexual relationships with men.

>>1078975
>Radical feminism is SCUM manifesto eliminate all men
SCUM is based but this is not the case, example one being Gail Dines work, she is male-partnered. So whether a woman is in arelationship with man does not exclude them from being a radfem. Of course dating men can and does affects women's feminist behavior, and women that are politically celibate or in lesbian relationships have carried the movement compared to het women.

No. 1079024

>>1079021
You might get shat on for your point of celibate and lesbian carrying the radfem movement in comparison to non-celibate het women, but I agree 100%

No. 1079030

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i need meanspo nonniess pls tell me to take a shower its been 3 days

No. 1079032

>>1079021
Based.

No. 1079033

>>1079030
Your pussy lips and scalp stank

No. 1079034

>>1078945
Womack is among us. God bless.

No. 1079036

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>>1079030
DO IT YOU FUCKING STANK-ASS NONA. YOU SMELL BAD! YOU NEED TWO SHOWERS! GET UP AND START SCRUBBING! GO GO GO!

No. 1079037

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It's really hard for me to show my emotions or what things have been done to me in the past, that nagging feeling I'm doing this for attention because that MeToo movement with the False accusations and such, and its still fucking me up.
Too the people who lied for clout I fucking hate your guts.

No. 1079039

>>1078992
>>1078975
okay this is wrong as well
radical feminism is not about hating men, one can hate men and be a radical feminist but its not how the theory works
radical feminism has roots its in Marxist feminism, it views men as the oppressor class and women as the oprsssed class

that's what it literally is

No. 1079043

>>1079033
yeah u right i got all this dry shampoo caked on my head
>>1079036
ok ty im gonna go now the waters heating up. idk i feel like i dont smell too bad yet id imagine to certain people id smell awful. the only BO in the world ive eber felt disgisted from the smell is my sister everyone else a lil bit of must is like whaterevr. i will be clean soon

No. 1079049

…I have a pimple in my eyebrow and it's DRIVING ME FUCKING CRAZYYYYYY

No. 1079051

>>1079049
lole i dare you to pop it

No. 1079052

I have holes in my brain i can’t remember anything at all

No. 1079054

Fuck our medical system. Fuck unnecessarily prescribed hormones, fuck bandaids that ultimately fix nothing long term. I feel mentally retarded from ##blood loss# and have so much shit to get through. I'm struggling to formulate the sentences for what I'm pissed about.

No. 1079055

>>1079054
dont get mad. get glad

No. 1079056

My anxiety is off the roof because i have to go to my doctors appointment and a follow up to get a pap smear tomorrow. Fuuuck man I need like 6 years to mentally preps myself for these kinds of things. Younger anons don't fuck men because they seriously only bring health issues and bring an ungodly amount of stress that stops your period so you have to take fucking pregnancy tests every god damn time you go to a doctor and lord knows how awkward it is to pee in a cup while the nurse waits for you outside the door making sure you piss. Like i try to be careful every month and make him wear condoms and yet there are slip ups. Im gona chop his fucking stupid cock off for causing me all this stress onto me. At least hes paying for all the expenses but i need my fucking routine!!! IF I DONT HAVE MY PERIOD EVERY MONTH MY AUTISM GOES OFF THE ROOFS. I can't god damn function like a normal sped if i dont expect the same thing every fucking day, week, and month even year! I wish i could delete semen from existence like why does that even exist??? Fuck man

No. 1079063

its almost 11pm and damn bitch is blasting their music in the kitchen. like jfc stupid fucker, there are people trying to sleep.

No. 1079071

>>1079054
>##blood loss#
why do you write it like that

No. 1079077

>>1079071
she was trying to spoiler it but i think the blood loss made her forget the second pound sign at the end.

No. 1079078

>>1079021
thanks anon. i do want to know, though: is being against sex work also considered a radical feminist issue?

No. 1079083

>>1079071
newfag alert

No. 1079096

>>1079071
I fucked up the spoiler tag.

No. 1079115

>>1078992
OH BOY HERE WE GO AGAIN

tbh at this rate you can just divide feminism into anti-trans vs pro-trans or whatever and leave it at that because youve got as much ~radfems~ who think trans is a valid pushback against gendernorms versus the rest

whatever it is, idiots on twitter need to stop falling for bait whenever someone says TERF at them

No. 1079144

If my professor says the word “actually” one more time i’m gonna purposefully crash on the way home

No. 1079151

my mom just found out her best friend is dying soon from cancer (friend stopped talking to her ~5 mos ago when she found out) and i don't know what to do. it's 1 am and my mom is sobbing. this is horrible

No. 1079159

>>1079024
Tbh non-celibate heterosexual women are the ones most likely to have families (and therefore have husbands/sons) and trying to be radfem alongside being a loving wife/mother to males just fucks those males up. So they either compromise on their RF beliefs, or they compromise their relationships with (and the psychological well-being of) their husbands/sons… creating more screwed-up men.

No. 1079176

We’ve reached a point where people are putting off their shitty behavior on their ~aura color~ or whatever the fuck. “If you don’t have this color you’ll never understand. It’s deep.” “It’s not done out of malice but energetic exhaustion.” Do they not hear themselves? Grow up and communicate properly like a healthy human being.

No. 1079188

>>1079056
Yeah ill take your advice cause literally just broke up because getting three pregnancy tests paying for pills paying for the gyn exhausted my patience and sex never even feels good to me
i really dont want to have sex ever again

No. 1079226

>>1079056
I wasn't long into being sexually active before I decided that it's rarely worth it. I avoided piv like the plague then got into a serious relationship and had to face all the bs again. After a while he got a vasectomy and I thought my problems were solved.

I then got a pap smear and I had hpv and precancerous cells on my cervix. I wondered how I got the hpv but sucked it up and dealt with my ongoing appts. Fast forward a bit and it turns out that guy was cheating for the entirety of our relationship so I'll never know if his other gf was the cause of my cancer scare and years of stress that it put me through. I lost my mom to cancer so I was in bits throughout it. While I cried on this guys shoulders.. he knew there was a liklihood he gave it to me through infidelity.

No. 1079232

>>1079226
>While I cried on this guys shoulders.. he knew there was a liklihood he gave it to me through infidelity.
I seriously gasped, this is so fucked up… like, on a human level. I'm really sorry you had to go through that. Fuck him.

No. 1079248

My cats have never particularly got along but they've always tolerated each other until recently. My younger cat has suddenly got very aggressive toward my senior cat. It's making everyone miserable. I don't want the senior cat to be constantly stressed. I can try to keep the younger cat occupied but literally all he wants to do is terrorize the senior cat. I made an appointment for the vet to see if maybe there's something wrong, for 6 years he's kept to himself. I don't want to have to rehome him. I've thought about taking him to my bf's mom's place for a while and trying to reintroduce them as well. I hope I can solve this.

No. 1079249

>>1079226
What a vile, evil man. You deserve so much better than that nonna, reading this genuinely shocked me.

No. 1079252

>>1079056
sex with men is absolutely the most overrated thing in existence. yeah, star wars, football and expensive cars exist and are overhyped, but piv sex takes the cake. all this shit you have to go through and for what? so some pornsick scrote can jerk off inside you? it's worthless. 0/10, would not recommend.

No. 1079253

>>1079248
Sometimes cats start bullying eachother (attacking, lurking when the toilet, interfering the victim cat in eating) when they notice the other getting weaker. The only thing you can do is consequently interfering every time and temporary isolating and scolding the aggressor cat in a way that you know works (of course not physically) while actively supporting and giving your attention to the victim cat when it happens. This way, it may get better with time. It's also possible that it could be due to health problems of your younger cat, so it's good you made a appointment with the vet. I know my youngest one starts wildly attacking the others out of nowhere when he's stressed or frustrated.

No. 1079254

>>1079248
Is the younger cat neutered? Older cat spayed/neutered? That can cause problems if they aren’t both fixed. If they are, you’re going to have to reintroduce them. My two youngest ones very recently went through something similar all because a stray walked by our back door. Took three weeks of reintroducing but they have been best buddies since reconciliation. Hoping the best for you and your kitties.

No. 1079261

>>1077602
How do you know they never attempted? Maybe they did and it backfired. Some people refuse to get along or will try to beat you if you try.

No. 1079270

>>1077897
I can’t find anyone to date though. I work full time with wack hours where I have to go to bed at 8pm to wake up at 5am. Online dating is full of the ugliness fucking chides I’ve ever seen all poses next to the same white truck or holding up the same fucking fish. I don’t want to be old when I’m married. My last partner of 5 years was my first everything. Yup. Lost my v-card at 29. How pathetic right? I never dated in Highschool. Or college, Cuz no one asked me out lol. So like it has to be me right? That’s why my last partner impede me for someone younger right? I should just kill myself right? I hardly think I’ll ever find anyone again. Not with how my life is scheduled now. No one at work is dating material. There’s no where in my town to like go and meet people. It’s just a giant pit stop lol. Lots of hotels and fast food and gas stations. The nearest cities are 2 to 3 hours away. I just don’t think it’s possible for me now. When I was younger it felt like I had all the time and options but I’m nearing 33 and since I got dumped for someone 7 years younger than me it just was a blow to my self esteem. Like I’m too old and boring in my routine to do anything. 6am to 2pm work an 8pm bedtime doesn’t give me a lot of option. I’m lucky to get two days off of work. I don’t want to be an old woman all alone and annoying with like an animal hoarding problem because I could never find someone who loves me.

No. 1079312

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i know it’s just PMS making me feel like this but it’s seriously so unbearable… idk how it happens like this every month and im still caught off guard every time. why can’t i have control over myself and my feelings like a normal person…

No. 1079323

No matter what I eat lately my stomach hurts a bc little. It's been like this since February. I have no idea what to do. I just want to eat healthily and not be in pain. I'm scared of going to the doctor since they've been busy and overbooked recently and because I have no idea what they could even tell me.
I don't think it's my diet, because I've been switching it up and no matter what I eat it always always makes my stomach feel like shit.

No. 1079355

>>1079323
Drink yoghurt/kefir often, they help soothe the stomach and aid digestion with their probiotic cultures.

No. 1079375

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i wish people stopped obsessing over muh representation.

No. 1079376

My boyfriend is probably slowly developing some kind of eating disorder because of his gym rat mentality. It annoys and concerns me very much because he constantly eats the most disgusting things you could think of and chugs it down no matter what because ‚he needs to reach his calories‘ and ‚can‘t lose his gains‘. He talks about how disgusting food and is how he wants to puke just thinking about certain things like pizza which he excessively consumed and now can‘t go near it because of is disgust towards it. He doesn‘t see food as anything else besides ‚fuel‘ and ‚requirement for his gains‘ which is so fucking bizarre to me? Maybe it‘s just me but I am anorexic and this mindset of his fucks with my head entirely. He is already very big and has gained 15kg because of it but can’t seem to recognize how much he has changed and describes himself as small, weak and pathetic because he isn‘t ‚big enough‘ for his standards. He also doesn‘t seem to give a fuck about anything health related and seems to consume anything he can get his hands on that could increase his gains. He gives a complete fuck about his health and tells me that it‘s not that dangerous and he couldn‘t care less since he ‚doesn‘t experience any real issues‘. He literally does so weird fucking like drinking literal salted water in huge amounts just for water retention because it stops the lose of water weight? I often told him that his behavior is very concerning and that I am worried about his mental health but he just brushes it off and tells me that it‘s ‚discipline‘ and not mental illness because he just ‚works hard for his dream body‘. Am I in the right for being annoyed, mad and concerned about it? I don‘t even know what I should fucking do? What kind of fucking mental illness is that even?

No. 1079384

>>1079376
It's an Eating Disorder, plain and simple. Definitely a cause for concern.

No. 1079389

>>1079376
I wish I was him tbh, can't stick to gym friendly diet for shit since it's disgusting most of the time. Can you share examples of what are the "most disgusting things" he's eating? Because as long as he's not filling himself with chemicals it cant be that bad? Just being so angry about your boyfriend actually doing something to improve his physique sounds a bit unhinged but lack of proper details makes it hard to judge

No. 1079393

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i js wanna be loved nonas

No. 1079397

>>1079393
Don't we all…

No. 1079399

>>1079393
And IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIEEEEEEEEEIIIIIIIII WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOUUUUUUUUU UUUUUUUUUu UUUUUUUUUUU

No. 1079401

>>1079389
>gym friendly diet is disgusting
Excuse me? Lean meat and eggs are disgusting? What are you talking about

No. 1079408

>>1079401
Not after few months

No. 1079410

>>1079408
Samefag sorry, I mean, sticking to only healthy gym friendly meals gets really tiring after few months, eggs I still love but I think it spoiled lean meat for me forever lmao

No. 1079413

>>1079408
Wha-
What the fuck do you eat the rest of the time?

No. 1079426

>>1079376
ED and muscle dysmorphia. huge thing amongst men that go to the gym.

>>1079389
>i wish i was him
>gym-friendly diet is disgusting
fucking grow up and cook some chicken and vegetables. no you don't want an ED but it's also not hard to make a healthy and tasty meal, it doesn't have to be salted water and 16 eggs a day.

No. 1079437

>>1079426
It really is impossible to have a polite conversation here nowadays, even on most inoffensive topics. Why do you have to be so aggressive?

No. 1079438

>>1079426
NTA but chimken and veggies make me feel sick
Very sad lfie

No. 1079442

>>1079437
This. Fucking grow up and stop being such a sperg, wtf did that anon even do

No. 1079455

>>1079437
Nta, but anon (who also has an ED) is talking about how she's concerned about her boyfriend's ED behavior, and you don't think it's a little insensitive for someone to respond with "I wish that was me" and "it can't be that bad, you're just unhinged"? This is the vent thread, have some awareness.

No. 1079456

>>1079437
>imageboard
>polite conversation
Are you lost
Fuck off back to whatever hugbox you came from

No. 1079467

>>1079455
Exactly this. He doesn't just have a disciplined diet or cares about his health, it's a full on raging ED to the point where he is drinking tons of salted water. Saying "I wish that were me" is dumb as fuck. You never want to be in a position where you will lose your sanity because you're worried about not being a certain way or not eating enough…it's weird to wish that upon yourself or even act like it's a good disciplined diet.

No. 1079477

I want to talk more about my niche interests online but most of the places where good discussions about them happen require you to make an account to talk. I'm always very hesitant about making accounts online. I have been stalked before and my stalker would somehow find almost every single one of my social media accounts. That, and I'm just a shy person so anonymity is a blessing to me.
I'm worried about being judged, people reading my posting history, I don't know.
I hate spotlight of any kind.

No. 1079481

>>1079456
NTA but I wish this place DID have more polite discussions. I want an imageboard where most people aren't aggressive.

No. 1079492

>>1079481
Make it then. Lolcow ain't it.

No. 1079495

>>1079492
I don't have the money

No. 1079508

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I had a sex-trafficking documentary on in the background while I was working (weird Ik but I like to educate myself on this stuff) and I suddenly hear this high-pitched estrogen falsetto voice, I tab in and lo and behold a troon talking about being welcomed into a community of actual women who have faced sexual abuse/been trafficked.
Why the fuck do they keep doing this? I've no doubt this guy was abused and treat terribly but there are mens communities for shit like this. Why are you putting this large male in with a community of vulnerable women? Dumb as shit I hate it and it feels like every other documentary I watch about serious topics like this there's always one tranny who is conveniently shoehorned alongside underage girls or vulnerable abused women.

No. 1079512

>>1079508
that same wig…

No. 1079537

>>1079508
Yeah I don't doubt that alot of tgurls get the same rapey treatment as actual women who are in bad situations/prostitution but like.. just don't tran out if it means you'll be stuck in the same position as alot of women who had no choice in where their lives headed.

They always talk about family kicking em out for it as teens and nobody hiring them, having to sell their ass out of necessity.. wait a few years to sort your life out and then assess whether your gender thing is worth it. Hell if you have an established job they can't fire you for tranning out anyway. Play the long game if you must.

No. 1079762

Why do so many anons in the euro thread sound like trolling scrotes? Clearly this website isn't pinkpilled enough.

No. 1079818

I went and finally got a gym membership to get in better shape and I went for the forst time today and alnost had a panic attack. The gym was packed and super full with people my age and they all made me feel extremly insecure. I always had the feeling everyone was judging me and staring at me (I wore very loose clothing since I gained some weight on my legs and my mid section during the pandemic). The worst part was when I had to do exercises in front of a woman that looked like kim kardashian and had a really sour face and a very annoying middle aged guy that swung his legs around on his machine and was whisteling like a maniac. I will try going really eraly in the morning next time I hope there will be less people here bc today it was unbearable

No. 1079822

I need to relationship vent as it is a 1 year anniversary of me being single. I feel like absolute shit. All my exes are better of without me I feel like. They both started dating blonde girls who constantly post pictures of them kissing. One of these men was physically abusive pos so I pity the girl but the other one really hurts. He was shit sometimes too (not considering consent enough, not ever letting me be secure in our relationship…). I think maybe if the girl has better confidence than me their relationship is probably amazing.
It's been a year. Exactly a year since we split up. I'm alone, going through million first dates. I fell in 'like' two times and both times the guy who was overly into me just ghosted all of the sudden. One time was my fault but the last one boggles my mind. He was so into me, we set up our next date, even the day before he was hyping it up and suddenly he's gone. I didn't mess it up in any way! He was planning getting together so much, he was more into me than I was into him. Yet still fucking disappeared. I'm so so sick of this. SO SICK OF THIS! I'll never find a person I like who matches my standards and also likes me back again. But I'm very lonely, I loved liking someone and being with them. I miss doing cute couple shit.

No. 1079829

>>1079078
Yes the "sex industry" is extremely misogynistic and dangerous for women. The term sex work lumps together disparate roles under a vague label.

If you want to find some writing on it, check out Rachel Moran's Paid For. And Spinifex Press has a wide array of feminist nonfiction and literature. https://www.spinifexpress.com.au/shop/non-fiction

No. 1079856

>>1079818
The random whistling man made me laugh but I'm sorry you were so uncomfortable. I hope your idea to go at another time pans out better. When I went to the gym I wasn't paying attention to anyone unless I was waiting for them to be done with something I wanted if that makes you feel any better

No. 1079887

One thing that really bothers me about some anons is that they ignore reasonable explanations and answers, and would much rather infight and continue arguing with other anons.

No. 1079917

I wish that I had a loving mother so badly. I selfishly hope that if I get married my partner will give me a nice mother in law. I'm so stupidly jealous of anyone that has a good relationship with their mother.

No. 1079938

>>1079822
Here's a tip, don't check up on your exes. I firmly believe this. I don't remain friends. I remain cordial until we separate entirely and I put all the photos on an external hard drive. I saw an ex once in public and before I knew it I had hid and he saw me and was approaching lol. One of my exes is engaged but I feel nothing towards it, it's been years since him (we were engaged young) and he honestly means nothing to me. People probably compare us that knew us and are like he's done well while I'm shock horror single, but what they don't know is that I was miserable with him. Just remember those relationships you had ended for whatever reason so don't look back to reminisce just learn what lessons you can and live your best life.

No. 1079941

>>1079537

yeah, i know, >defending trannies on this site but youd be surprised at the type of bullshit a company can pull for less. A lot of companies still have the gall to make up reasons to fire pregnant women before maternity leave.

No. 1079942

>>1079938
Like the hardest thing I had was separating him out of memories in which I had experience a new thing for the first time. Like a lot of exes were present for certain moments and there does come a point when you can remember and love the moment and not even have their memory be a contributing factor. I travelled with one ex and I'll love all those experiences I had specifically relating to the new destination etc. You become a more rounded person lol.

No. 1079947

>>1079413
You can use whole words here, you know.

>>1079456
>wah boo hoo other people who type different exist in my imageboard

/b/ no longer exists, sweaty.

No. 1079956

I have the PMS sads.

No. 1079961

Wish Christianity wasn't so sexist because I get the appeal of being part of a community and going to church, aiming to be loving to one another etc

No. 1079965

I experienced a traumatizing event as a child and my family never addresses it so for a long time I couldn't tell if it actually happened or not

And it makes me feel crazy
But it did happen and it ruined my life

No. 1079976

awww sweetie lolkek it off

No. 1079984

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The retardation that's going on in the eurofag threads are fucking off the walls at certain hours holy shit

No. 1079985

>>1079961
excuses. idk about you but the last time i went to church there were both genders in approximately equal amounts

No. 1079990

>>1079961
Just go do some community service then. It has pretty similar benefits without the indoctrination.

No. 1080001

>>1079985
Because Christian women are brainwashed from birth to accept the sexism. Been raised in a Christian household, I know what it's like.

No. 1080018

>>1080001
nuns seem to accept it. furthemore like it. and make something of themselves about it.

No. 1080029

>>1079985
Do you think that means the actual religion itself isn't sexist? I really dislike most Christian men. But of course you're biased. I don't want to infight.

No. 1080038

>>1080018
Yes and? Of course they like it because they've been taught all their life that this is how it's supposed to be.

No. 1080039

>>1080001
I agree nona. Religion is sexist.

No. 1080078

Fuck crunchy moms ghee is disgustang now what am I supposed to do with this $12 jar of shit

No. 1080132

>>1079985
the christian women at the churches i went to and within my family are giga-handmaidens that would make tradthots blush and the men are typical sexists.

No. 1080276

I am such a fucking dumb ass. For the past 10 years I’ve always had very trad values partially due to every moid I come in to contact with becoming a degenerate coomer looking for a quick fuck and chuck and me knowing I don’t have the emotional fortitude to withstand that, I have been volcel verging on femcel as years and years passed. Mistake number 1, with many more mistakes to follow, was getting back in contact with a man I was dating many years ago who unprompted immediately apologised for how he acted telling me that he handled it badly and he disappeared/ghosted because he realised he just doesn’t want a relationship with anyone and worried he would hurt me (he did anyway) but would really like something casual with me and should be upfront (aw how sweet /s) , I suggested we could be friends as we have similar interests and he said he would be lying if he said he didn’t want something more. Mistake number 2 was going along with it thinking I was lonely what have I got to lose. How about my personal morals, how about everything I personally stood for, how about my sanity. I knew I wouldn’t handle it. Over the years my ego has been battered by so many scrotes that I felt worthless, that I was worth nothing more than sex and no one would value me more than that anyway and just went along with it. Now after the fact was it really worth it. No. It has caused me more pain than good. Convincing myself I could handle casual while quite obviously still longing for that emotional connection and being left disappointed when he doesn’t respond or validate my existence, now he has got what he wanted and can smuggly tick me off his conquests list and move on to the next. It’s my own fault for thinking that I would prefer casual than nothing, would prefer to ignore my jealousy of him possibly being with other women, or having very little time to see me, or not wanting a label for me, just as long as I had a slight connection or a few crumbs thrown at me from the table, not realising that’s not casual, that’s an open relationship. Casual does not mean consistent and occasional, casual is polite speak for a fuck and chuck. Modern day dating has mentally broken me.

No. 1080277

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I'm dropping my "best friend" of 15 years. I've officially had enough of her bullshit. We got into a discussion about porn and she is just all fucking for porn, in all of its forms. I mentioned to her that porn is exploitation, that no woman in porn is truly "willing" and that it's coercion, abuse, drugs, not some hot sexy fun. She's completely unwilling to understand. She's so up her own ass that only her own research into the topic could even remotely change her mind. I told her that I wasn't willing to invest hours of my time gather resources for her to understand what is wrong with porn/OnlyFans because she won't even take what I'm saying seriously. But apparently that makes me sound "literally psychotic" and she says that coming to LC has "rotted my brain". I mean for fucks sake, she was a Trump supporter and the bitch isn't even from or live in the United States. She supports Blaire White and can't see how he's just a fucking fetishist making a game out of "being a woman" by slapping on tits and thigh padding. Now she works with gender specials at her stupid job and is even friends with a FtM who wants to lop of her tits when she used to be totally against that shit. She understands men are disgusting trash, but doesn't understand that there is NO DIFFERENCE between the mind of a man and a trans woman. It's STILL A MAN. She said that what I said about porn was basically me saying that women can't make their own decisions and I just can't believe how disgustingly naive that is. Like, this bitch is a huge racist, hates all Muslim people, hates black people and hides that hate behind "BLM is evil" when that isn't a fucking reason to ignore the shit that happens to black people. She fucking hates farmers???? She thinks ALL farmers are evil, yet she eats meat every day, she can't even explain WHY she hates farmers, but I'M psychotic.

This bitch has never made real time for me. She has never fucking made an effort for me. I've prioritized our friendship for fucking 15 years but she's allowed to just shelf me whenever she wants because apparently she's anxious? Bitch, no you are not. No you are fucking not. I've know you more than half of your life, you're just fucking selfish and lazy. How many times have I BEGGED you to hang out with me, only for you to legitimately ignore my messages and not even respond, or make some fucking weak excuse. You didn't want to spend time with me, so why pretend later than you do? I'll tell you why, because you're a selfish cunt and you NEED a person to shove all of your boring interests onto. I don't fucking want to watch anime with you, dumb bitch, you won't even go see a movie with me. You live with your parents and you're almost fucking 30, and your two brothers who are OVER 30 also live there and act like fucking teenagers and you think this is normal? You can't work at a fucking toy store for the rest of your life you stupid bitch. Remember when you tried to SHAME me for not going to community college for interior design at the same time you were going for accounting? You told me "you can't work at a fucking coffee shop forever anon". You fucking hypocrite. I didn't go to college because my crazy fucking father MADE me work full time and took ALL of my money, I DIDN'T HAVE AN OPTION. And look at you, 2 years of school and you work at a woo woo crystal shop and a fucking toy store. You're a fucking loser. You're not even smart, you just THINK you are. Worst case of Dunning Kruger I've ever fucking seen. God when I was younger and my parents were literally BEATING me you told me it wasn't that bad and that you and your parents fight too. Holy FUCK. YOUR PARENTS LITERALLY WORSHIP YOU. THEY ACT LIKE YOUR SLAVES. YOUR MOM JUST BOUGHT YOU A 600 DOLLAR RING FOR NO REASON OTHER THAN THE FACT THAT YOU ARE HER DAUGHTER. MY PARENTS BEAT ME, YOU DUMB CUNT, THEY USED HARD DRUGS IN FRONT OF ME, THEY DESTROYED MY THINGS, THEY DRAGGED ME DOWN THE HALL BY MY HAIR. YOUR PARENTS ARE FUCKING ANGELS WHO DON'T EVEN DRINK ALCOHOL LET ALONE HIT YOU. Stupid dumb bitch I can't believe I gave you so much of my time. I can't believe how many times I've lied to you about my opinion just so it didn't turn into a fucking fight, because if I don't agree with you I'M WRONG, but if you disagree with me, I'M BEING PSYCHO. I officially hate your stupid ass. I'll mail you your fucking uhhhhh 6 month late birthday present, because you REFUSE to visit me or pick a day that I can come by, and then we can go our separate ways for the rest of our lives. Fuck you. I used to be in love with you you dumb bitch, and you threw me away. I hate you.

No. 1080281

>>1080277
>But apparently that makes me sound "literally psychotic" and she says that coming to LC has "rotted my brain".
Never, this place is based and pinkpilled me

No. 1080283

>>1080281
Exactly, I'll take the pinkpill over this selfish bitch trying to gaslight me any day.

No. 1080285

>>1080277
>She thinks ALL farmers are evil, yet she eats meat every day, she can't even explain WHY she hates farmers, but I'M psychotic
Kek wtf? That's so bizarre

No. 1080289

I fucking hate my mother in law. I hate her I hate her I hate her. She flips out into a rage over the most inconsequential shit like opening a window (sHe'S cOlD) and so I'm constantly walking on eggshells around her fucking tyrant ass. She's self absorbed and inconsiderate and takes out her attitude on people around her, and will sulk and be angry about being "wronged" for literal days like a toddler.
I haaaate spending time around her but I have no choice.

No. 1080293

>>1080285
Right? She also can't stand the site of cows, because they remind her of slaughter, yet she watches actual gore?? And still eats beef regularly. She actually used to be all "anti SJW" two years ago, but now her friends are as follows: an incel, a furry/therian, a FtM, and several they/thems. How much lower can she go? I'm expecting her to transition into a man, honestly.

No. 1080299

>>1080277
She sounds like a fattie who defends male rights because that's the only time she gets male approval that she so desperately craves.

No. 1080300

I'm going to stay with a friend this weekend and even though I was excited at first now that the day is coming up I'm getting really nervous. I don't know what I'm so nervous for since we've known each other for years and have stayed at each other's places multiple times in the past. I guess sometimes I feel that when I am around her for too long that she starts to get irritable, but I can never tell how much of that is me overthinking it. I don't want to overthink it and just want to go and have a good time! Maybe this time if I sense that she isn't in a good mood, I can at least ask her what's up instead of just pretending I don't notice, but maybe that will make it worse. I don't know…

No. 1080311

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>>1080277
I'm proud of you for dropping her anon. I know it hurts but I'm sure as time goes by you'll feel better without her. You are better than her. hug

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fuck I hate the month of March I fucking hate it so fucking much, fuck spring, fuck summer, fuck the sun, fuck people driving around in their fucking cars, fuck everything in between February and October, fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck

No. 1080322

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>>1080299
She literally is a fattie. This bitch has type 1 diabetes but has a whole fucking laundry basket worth of snacks stashed in her room. She also keeps candy in her bag at all times. She says she a lesbian but she seems to enjoy the attention from her incel neck beard friend, who btw, wears a Naruto jacket like picrel every day unironically at 30 years old. Her wardrobe consists of tacky sweaters from Spencer's with ahegao anime girls on them. GOD, why was I friends with this person so fucking long????

No. 1080323


No. 1080324

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>>1080311
Aw thank you anon! I feel like I'm going to move on rather quickly, we've been talking less and less in the past weeks so it was like I was already in transition to saying goodbye.

No. 1080338

what the fuck is wrong with some females? i posted on an imageboard about considering streaming craft tutorials, cooking, or other things of that nature with the hopes of helping other lonely people learn things and feel better about themselves and their skills.

the anon suggested i was taking an only fans route and taking advantage of lonely men (so am i taking advantage of women, too?) who wouldnt be able to form relationships because of me and said nobody would watch me because im not professional (which i can definitely understand, this isnt a career or would be one) and therefore men would have no desire to watch me other than to form a parasocial relationship with me.

im sorry if i sound retarded nonnies but what the fuck? can i just not do anything id enjoy doing for myself and others because i have to fear taking advantage of moids? she said if her boyfriend watched me shed break up with him.

No. 1080341

>>1080322
Befriending fatties or anyone with low self esteem is a mistake. They'll do whatever they can to bring you down.

No. 1080349

>>1080338
>the anon suggested i was taking an only fans route and taking advantage of lonely men
Moid eay of thinking. This is the same type of moid who blames the women abused in sex industry to cause him erectile dysfunction and ruin his chances with women. Just ignore it and move on, men think anything a woman does has to concern them from the way woman dress and what they do to work to literally existing in the same room as them.

No. 1080353

>>1080349

the reason this bothered me is because they claimed to be female (could be larping of course) and if a fellow female thinks this way it just really upsets me but thank you anon

No. 1080356

>>1080338
That makes no sense at all, that anon is just wrong. I support your goal and I hope you follow through! I've always wanted to stream crafts/sewing myself.

No. 1080357

uuugh here I am again, breaking my head over an assignment I don't understand. I feel so fucking dumb, it's like shit isn't connecting in my brain or my brain is taking the worst most illogical routes to come to conclusions. I just want to understand what I study, is that too much to ask? I can't imagine others struggle as much with the subject as I do. And to top it all of I actually LIKE the subject, why am I cursed to be this fucking bad at what I like enough to want a carreer in? god killlllllll me

No. 1080361

>>1080356
it felt like a hasty generalization and a whole slew of logical fallacies really, but i guess if this bothers me even in the slightest i have to brush up on that before throwing myself in the open eh?

thank you for the support nonnie!!! i would encourage you to try the same though i can see why there would be hesitation for many reasons. godspeed!

No. 1080364

>>1080357
I feel like it's the brain self sabotaging, they say the brain always takes the easiest route unless you train yourself not to. Sometimes that route is to give up, or to cause confusion/frustration because that will make the stress/hard thing easier to let go of. I have this problem when studying anatomy. I just want to draw, but it's like nothing makes sense to me, my brain starts to fry and it's like I can't think straight. I can't understand the line of action, I have a hard time imagining things in 3D space. Blehh. I feel your struggle nona.

No. 1080368

>>1080357
are there specific pieces that perplex you or the whole subject in general? furthermore, is this a problem you deal with regarding many difficult subjects or just this one :(

im wondering if it could have any connection to your sleep, diet, or ADHD. sorry i dont mean to try and "fix" this issue. but i do understand this and the only thing that typically helps me is doing the assignment when nothing else is on my mind, taking baby steps, and googling a shitload.(:()

No. 1080373

>>1080338
yeah that’s some serious moid-like thinking that anon has. if the anon really is female, she's likely projecting her issues on you.

No. 1080374

>>1080357
What's it on, and could nonas do small help?

No. 1080375

>>1080338
>she said if her boyfriend watched me shed break up with him.
Yep just disregard everything she said. Inevitably, sometimes you'll interact with mentally ill insecure people, especially on lolcow

No. 1080390

>>1080338
I'd watch you nonnie

No. 1080394

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>>1080375
I am the mentally I'll person on lolcor

No. 1080406

Women's time is worth more than men's and I will die on this hill. Men need to pay for whatever on dates and the fact that saying that is controversial is fucked.

No. 1080435

>>1080406
I was just thinking about this too today because my friend was on a date, women are actually pleasant to be around, they deserve gifts for listening to men's drivels and stroking their ego, anyway my friend got two boxes of chocolates from her date and we are eating them

No. 1080437

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I thought after reading English YA novels and fanfiction for over a decade and spending all my internet time browsing English websites exclusively I'd be equipped better for reading more challenging stuff, but I think I heard my brain sigh when I closed the book and read something in my native language instead. Sad!

No. 1080442

>>1080406
They need to pay for frivolities, too. He likes your nails done? He needs to pay for them. Likes when you wear xyz? He pays the next time you buy xyz.

No. 1080448

>>1080437
don’t feel bad nonna this happens to me all the time and I lived the majority in my life in an english speaking country

No. 1080460

So much poop. So. Much. Poop. Four cats and a family member that is unable to wipe themselves. I can't handle the poop anymore. My life would be so much easier with robo litter boxes and bidets but no. All by hand because I'm not God's favorite.

No. 1080491

All my besties are libtards, I used to be one too until I kept being called dyke and queer. Now I can’t stand any of it. Men don’t have to « reclaim their slurs » so why do women? We don’t have faggot pride parades? I’d rather be called a faggot than a dyke or a queer by a straight person. I feel so isolated nonnies

No. 1080497

>>1080460
You need a fancy litter box for the person and a bidet toilet attachment for the cats, you can get them cheap online if that's any good to you

No. 1080501

>>1080491
Are you having a falling out or?

No. 1080507

You stupid. fucking. moid. Stop fucking texting me! Absolute autist moid doesn't know when to stop. Why the fuck are you texting me every damn day? We're not friends. We are not going to be friends. I don't care if you're lonely or whatever. Why the fuck do I have to be your therapist? Why must I be responsible for your feelings? Why don't my feelings matter, too? I should just block your ass. Too bad I have to see your stupid face and hear your stupid voice in class.

Honestly wonder how he made it this far in life. Nothing he says makes sense and I feel bad for my professors for having to put up with him. I can't help but cringe every time he opens his mouth. I want to block him so, so badly, but yet my stupid handmaiden brain still feels like I'm responsible for his feelings. I'd feel less bad if I gave a good excuse for ignoring him, but I can't seem to think of one. Telling him that I'm busy doesn't seem to work because I guess he's too dumb to take a hint. Hope I never have to see him again after this semester. I was hoping I could be done with him. Why the fuck did I respond to the initial text?

No. 1080527

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>no job
>no social life
>no talent
>no sex

No. 1080542

>>1080501
No we’re not falling out, they’re kind decent people that don’t mean any harm. But I want to scream when they pop off about “terfs” or Harry Potter of whatever Twitter is talking about today. How can you actually call someone a queer and not realise it’s an insult

Thanks for replying non I just need to vent

No. 1080556

I still think about that time I was 16 and so rude to my mom while we were on vacation staying over with family. She didn't want me sleeping over with the neighbours I made friends with that holiday and my stupid fucking self shouted at her in-front of everyone, she's not strict or violent and I remember her response, she must've been so embarrassed. Puberty is so fucking evil.

I made so many stupid mistakes that holiday like making out with my cousin 8 years older and it still haunts me. I'm currently the age he was back then and I can't imagine what the fuck was going through his deranged mind.

I have enough self-hatred to make about 7 copies of myself filled with it.

No. 1080567

I did everything right. I went to school, I got a uni degree, I got a job, I struggled to create a good career and to get myself in a comfortable financial position like a normal, successful person. In the end I'm in my 30's, I've never truly been in love, I've always been exploited in my relationships and by my friends, I've always been betrayed and abused, I have no fucking worth as a human being other than just waking up each morning to work. It's all I have. I want to cry and scream every time I realize how nobody would miss me if I died tomorrow besides mourning the loss of someone who they could use and then throw away when I'm not needed anymore. I fucking hate living like this, I wish I had actual friends who gave a shit about me, I wish there wasn't a voice in my head telling me what a worthless waste I am and how my life has no purpose or direction. I'm going to die alone and forgotten, nobody will be at my funeral and I don't deserve anything better simply because I wasn't mean to be around people other than to be treated as an expendable tool. Being completely torn to pieces by narcissistic shit "friends" in my life left me awkward, scared and hostile in my interpersonal relationships and learning out of it seems hopeless.

I had to get this out of my system, I'm ugly crying like a little bitch because I'm so frustrated with my whole life. I wish I could just restart it all and try again, I would not get into all the toxic situations that ruined me far into my adulthood. If anyone bothered to read this mess of a vent I sincerely thank you for giving me hope that I was seen for once in my life.

No. 1080569

>>1076144
>>1075922
Fuck off with your humblebragging

No. 1080576

>>1080567

We see you gal

No. 1080621

>>1080569
That was 2 days ago why are you sperging at her now

No. 1080623

>>1080567
I see you, and I wish I had advice and could help you.

No. 1080627

>>1080569
NTA, in what way is that a humble brag?

No. 1080631

>>1080567
If you wanna try and be buddies I can leave an email for you, I know it's not the same as having someone around physically but maybe just having someone to goof around with when you're feeling down might make things a little bit brighter?

No. 1080637

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I'm in a very loving relationship which makes me happy, but I hate where I live and I'm struggling to get a job so I still feel like an abnormal loser. I wish I lived in a nice home, worked a job I don't hate, didn't hate my neighbours and was financially stable, then I'd be genuinely happy everyday I think. But I'm not sure what steps to take. Hurts looking at the nice houses people live in, I'm jealous. Your living space is so important. I feel behind everyone else. My future is uncertain and I hate that.

I think my main problem in life right now is where I live but fuck it's so, so hard to move. I don't want to live with strangers, yet housing prices just keep going up and up. It's honestly depressing. How do young people not born into wealth move out now? How??
Even if it was just some small apartment, I want my own place reeeeee

No. 1080652

Im cursed to be invisible and unlikeable

No. 1080653

>>1080637
>I hate where I live and I'm struggling to get a job so I still feel like an abnormal loser
>I feel behind everyone else. My future is uncertain and I hate that.
Oof. I can't give you any advice but im in the same boat as you right now, but I'm a NEET living with her parents. I totally agree that where you live is important. It hurts more when you have a partner whom you love but who is also much more "ahead" in life than you are, and looking at them makes you want to impress them, improve yourself, but you just don't know how.
If nothing else, it's refreshing to know someone else understands me.

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>>1080567
Are you me? I don't know if it helps, but trust that there are plenty of people who feel the same way, so you're not alone nonny. And you're not a little bitch either, so cry as much as needed. People suck for many reasons and it's not your fault these assholes treat you so shitty. It's not you, it's them and they don't deserve you or anyone if they treat people like this.

No. 1080658

>>1080652
I feel you

No. 1080661

>>1080567
I'm so sorry you feel that way. I relate quite a bit to parts of your post. I know that probably doesn't mean much, but I hope you at least know that you're not alone in your feelings.

It won't fix things, but are there any hobbies that you can do to help distract yourself? Maybe you can try looking into talking to someone as well? If you get a good therapist then at least you'll have someone in real life who is there to listen to what you have to say.

No. 1080669

>>1080653
I'm sure that unfortunately as time goes by only more people are going to understand us, which whilst I agree is refreshing, is obviously sad. It honestly makes me question if I should even bother leaving NEETdom when even if I do and land a good job, I probably won't be able to even get my own place. Perhaps I'm just being pessimistic, but a part of me tells me that I'm not and it's a real issue a lot of people are going to face more and more as time goes by because the price of living is just too high for the average person. Everyone I know my age who has their own place got it paid for by their parents. Having your own place should be the norm, not a luxury. I wish the best for you nonnie, I hope things get better for us both soon!

No. 1080681

>>1080669
Aw, thank you anon. You can do it - we both have a bright future ahead of us!

No. 1080685

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The absolute state of the Eurofag thread. All I wanted was to wish nonnies to stay safe.

No. 1080687

I thought i made a friend and some progress in my social life but my anxiety and imposter syndrome messed it all up again.. i hate myself and even if I decide to open up I’ll probably go back to old habits and be a spaz instead of interacting normally

No. 1080691

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I wish I had an easier time befriending people. Being a neet for so many years, and the last time I was able to make friends being in middle school, I don't know how to grow close to people naturally. I don't know what the pace is supposed to be like. How do I know they consider me a friend like I do them? I desperately want the experience they have, people I can rely on, people who seek out my company. I know I'm not able to get close because they think bad of me. Maybe they know there's some invisible barrier there too and hesitate just as I do, if that's even something preventing a friendship. Even when they refer to me as their friend, I feel like it's just an easier word to use than acquaintance

I have a very long term boyfriend at the very least, and a few friends I've had for a very long time, but I really want local friends where I live now. The only people I regularly speak to outside of my boyfriend and now long distance friends are my coworkers, whose relationships with eachother are much stronger. I feel like I'm shoehorning myself in where I don't belong

No. 1080692

Personally as a former scrawny I kinda miss being told I looked “sick” or “small” as opposed to unwarranted pregnancy speculations… I don’t know why I hated my body back then, it was perfect , I was teased for my “flat ass” well now that. I’m chubby, it’s still flat as fuck and has a disgusting muffin top pooch above it. I am going to lose weight and start changing my lifestyle habits but still feel shitty about my mother in law teasing my body.

No. 1080696

How the hell did women in the past deal with periods? If I didn't have pain meds, I'd kms.

No. 1080698

>>1080691
>>1080687
Nonnies posting a lot of relatable vents tonight. God I am so fucking sick of being sad and alone all the time.

No. 1080705

>>1080696
Bandaids?

No. 1080708

>>1080696
Men spent their lives completely unaware of menstruation, there's no way anyone would make a lasting public record of what women did for periods when many would die of humiliation from even talking about it, female authors were rare, and historians preferred to record how males killed rival males vs mundane everyday life issues.

No. 1080727

>>1080696
I imagine they had special garments to bleed in, idk the full history of underwear but i'm assuming there was a reason for both men and women to wear them lol. As for pain, I guess they just delt with it

No. 1080742

>>1080696
Medicinal plants, herbs, I guess

No. 1080745

I have no personality. I thought this series I'm watching was amazing but I wasn't sure if that was influenced by a friend I like loving it. Still, I brushed it off and told myself that I like it because I myself like it. Then, I saw many of people shit on it and now all of a sudden I like it less. Why did my heart do that? I have no personality. All I do is mould myself into what I think other people will like me for. I try so hard to find my own personality, likes, dislikes, but I think it's impossible for me.

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I guess this isn’t really a vent but I’m reading a book because I’m at a seminar so it was unavoidable.
And this faggot, Vargas Llosa, has been talking for a whole ass page about “fucking great females” being “female” the kind that you use specifically for animals, and it’s seriously cringe and annoying to read.
I again feel like I seriously hate Latin American literature. I sperg about this all of the time but I just can’t believe that Latin America just doesn’t have anything that doesn’t have sex, we don’t have a Harry Potter or something like that, I don’t know, I’m just so annoyed that everything is about politics, fucking women, fucking teenagers or kids, poverty, racism. Like yeah, those things happen, but goddammit think of something else for once, don’t you have escapist daydreams? Don’t you ever want to think that instead of some pathetic village, you could create something that makes someone sigh with actual happiness?
And I know that maybe those things don’t sell nor get you literary Nobel prizes, but gosh, I’m honestly sick of these type of stories, I don’t want to read about a moid tard raging in his bathroom because he could fuck some women.
I don’t know if the artist is doing this as a critic, like, it feels like it because the main character is disgusted by the males who stare at her. But I feel like the way such things are described makes it seem like he was having way too much fun describing them like “the exact weight of each of her tits” like what? That’s just gross, I will never stop thinking about it, it’s nasty. Imagine an author talking about the exact weight of each ball of a moid, god.
I’m not made to read these sort of things, I should’ve just done anything else, maybe I should’ve become a master diorama maker or the best pottery painter. I had the skills for diorama making, I was really into it when I was a kid, maybe I should’ve just ignored how shitty I was at technical drawing, I mean, maybe I could’ve just sucked it up and gathered more patience. Then again, the teacher was the worst and would tell me that everything I made was shit and that I had to do it again from the start.
Maybe I’m just not made to be alive, I will probably sperg again after reading for a while, maybe I will understand the view of the author later or I will read something about him.

No. 1080758

>>1080754
>esa foto
jajajajjaaja. same

No. 1080775

>>1080696
Sponges or moss to shove up there, pads made out of cloth or some kind of knitted grass. In victorian era they soaked tampons in opium kek. Alot of cramps comes from hormonal imbalances, pelvic area muscles being out of wack, nutrient deficets, etc. It was probably less common back in the day tbh.

No. 1080783

>>1080442
Agreed, all beautification expenses need to be paid by father or date/bf/husband. They're the ones benefitting from it and women shouldn't have to use what little $ we have to appeal to them.

No. 1080784

this is really bitchy of me but some of my classmates in my creative writing class annoy the fuck out of me. we'll have to get into groups and collaborate on a story together and some of their ideas are pure shit. i know it's a creative writing class and it does not matter in the long run, but i wish they took it just the slightest bit more seriously. it's obvious many of them don't give a shit and they'll blurt out the dumbest fucking ideas with this dumb little look on their faces like they think they're being funny. i get that it's an easy-ish class but damn motherfucker have some respect for the people who actually like writing and reading books and let them do the heavy lifting if you're just gonna sit back with your arms crossed and offer nothing of substance or value.

No. 1080805

Sitting here panicking and crying about this fucking infection that seems to only be getting worse even though I know I'm doing the right things to take care of it, this is piggybacking off of a completely different health problem I just got through and I just want SOME PEACE. I don't even know what cause this infection, besides stress maybe??? Well my stress is making it even worse then. I have to try and get into a clinic tomorrow and maybe get some anti biotics or something. I just don't want to have to sit around and wait for hours and hours because the world is garbage and nothing works as it should. I'm terrified anons. I hate my life right now. This health shit has totally drained the life out of me, I don't feel like I can do anything, I feel hopeless and just looking at the tasks I want to complete makes me feel like breaking down.

No. 1080808

Vent about the war I'll spoil for people who understandably don't want to read about it but fuck I'm so upset. I know this is absolutely nothing new and there's absolutely nothing I can do but I feel so bad for all the innocent Ukrainians and Russians being fucked over by Putin right now for no reason at all. There is no reason! This shouldn't happen. I hate that this is happening, I hate that I can do nothing. I'm especially worried for Ukrainian women. It's terrifying how men act in war when laws go awry, it's terrifying that we're weaker than them. I wish this will stop soon, I wish that no more innocent people would die, I wish these wishes meant anything at all other than words on a screen because I am powerless. I wish prays worked. There's nothing the average person can do aside from perhaps donate which I can't even do. It's terrifying how large and powerful China and Russia are. War is terrifying. I wish that I was strong physically. I wish that I was stronger than every single man on earth.

No. 1080810

>>1080805
Samefag if I ever develop a serious condition of get some disease, I'm killing myself. It's not even a question, I am not going to live in pain and discomfort for fucking nothing. This shitty world is not fucking worth it.

No. 1080814

>>1080754
I disagree so much with you about subjects in literature, except that part about sex and fucking. I've already complained in other threads about a movie I watched the other day on TV, which had a lot of graphic sex scenes with barely any censorship (only male crotches were censored). And then, after that, my mom made me watch another movie from here which also had several (not as graphic but still quite awkward) sex scenes. So yeah, I think it's not just our literature but also films. At least I'm glad that we don't have that many overt incels here, but I don't like the fact that we're still a society that is obsessed with sex. Also, machismo.
>I know that maybe those things don’t sell nor get you literary Nobel prizes
Look, Nobel prizes aren't always well-deserved, in many cases they're complete bullshit. The institutions and organization are extremely biased. I mean, they awarded the Peace prize to fucking OBAMA (and other 3 US presidents before him, in fact). And this kind of shit isn't exclusive to the Nobel Peace prize nor is it uncommon. And of course, renowned male authors are just like any moid. Just because they're famous and critically acclaimed doesn't mean that they can't have retarded takes or be obsessed with tits.

No. 1080817

>>1080784
Trust me, everyone who has taken a creative writing class has felt what you're feeling now. They're universally awful. If your retards can at least write a coherent story without bragging about doing drugs, you're ahead of the game.

No. 1080839

Can't sleep cause my piece of shit jobless loser neighbors are smoking weed on the balcony and the stank comes in through my window and wakes me up and now I am nauseous. I hate those inconsiderate cunts so fucking much, always listening to loud rapmusic all day long and having a new man over every day. I think they are probably selling their ass for grass and it must not be good ass because the grass they smoke smells like burned pubes. They also yell at passerbyers on the street like the annoying braindead retards they are. I'm currently working on training the pigeons to shit on them.

No. 1080842

>>1080839
Get their asses nonnie. Inconsiderate neighbours are the worst.

No. 1080844

I went on a date with a man the other week and it was one of the nicest first dates I'd been on. We laughed, had lots of things in common, and shared a kiss at the end. At the end of the date he said he had a great time and that I was easy to talk to, and we planned our second date from there. The night before the second date, he messaged me to say he had to fly to his home town for family reasons, and that he'd message me when he's back in my state. I don't doubt what he was saying was true, the message was thoughtful and he expressed sadness we couldn't see each other as he was really looking forward to it. What I am worried about is that something pretty bad has happened, I know his dad is quite old and probably on his death bed, that's what I'm assuming has happened, and if he dies or something really horrible happens, he won't really be in the state of mind to continue seeing me. It's been nearly a week since he sent me that message, and I'm not going to bother messaging him as he's pretty consistent about getting back to me when he mentioned getting back to me before.

It's just making me sad and unsure because I had a really great time with him and I wanted to explore more of what we could've been, it was really such a nice time and I'm really attracted to him both physically and mentally. I hope that what's happening with him gets resolved, or at least isn't so traumatising that he's going to come back here and have no interest in dating afterwards. My mind is preparing for the worst but it's paining me nonnies.
Of course there's a paranoid part of me that thinks he's using it as an excuse not to see me again but I really doubt that when he gave every indication that he likes spending time with me and wanted to do more of it. He was so respectful and let me kiss him at the end of the night, and the kiss we shared was really something. We didn't want to pull away from each other. He's been going through a hard time in general but still made the effort to meet me and have a good time. He's really all I've been able to think about since, but I don't want to get my hopes up when it's only been one date.
I don't know how much longer to hold on, or if I should just mentally set it aside until he eventually messages again (if he does). But right now it's paining me. Rarely do I meet someone down to earth, not attached to social media, politically aware, animal loving, just an all round good person.
All I can really do is sit and manifest a message from him saying it's all good and he can't wait to see me again. But for now I just needed to get that out

No. 1080904

Thinking about my Ukrainian ex a lot lately and wishing he wasn't such a cockhead to me

No. 1080930

Perspective really is everything it shapes our reality even if we were the worst person on the planet. my paranoia kicked in when i was a teenager and everything changed i literally think i’m an irredeemable trash of a person who deserves nothing because something in my brain went off a few years ago

No. 1080937

>>1080338
>search craft stream in 4chan archive
>post is from fucking /r9k/
why are there so many pickmes here lately

No. 1080940

I just confirmed/found out my father watches teen genre porn. tbh I always knew was a disgusting moid but it just makes me scared for me and my younger sis. Funny, he pretends he doesnt have skeletons in his closet FUCKING SICK BASTARD HOW THE HELL DOES ANY SCROTE BELIEVE THAT PREDATORY BEHAVIOUR IS OKAY??

No. 1080945

>>1080940
let’s make it a trend to out these moids to all of their family, friends, and workplaces

No. 1080946

>>1080940
Ugh, I'm sorry. That's so fucking gross. Reminded me of when I was 14 and my mom yelled at my stepdad for watching shit in the teen genre with looked like me. Idk if I was ever meant to hear but it still makes me feel sick. But he's dead now so that's cool

No. 1080948

>>1080946
*With girls who looked like me

No. 1080954

My mental health is severely backsliding to the point that I'm becoming unbearable even to myself. I am utterly and completely miserable. I'm becoming highly paranoid and have been thinking of taking a bunch of pills or just not being around anymore. The current cause of all this is long story and I don't want to write it all it right now. So I finally decided I can't do this anymore and I need to seek help. I picked what appeared to be a good choice from Google and contacted an office. I've been to several therapists throughout the years and they've all sucked. So I call, get their answering machine, but don't leave a message. I call back the next day, leave a message, and now it's been two days and they haven't even called me back. So besides feeling worthless and like complete shit, I can't even get a goddamn therapist to give me a call back.

No. 1080957

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Everytime I go out in public I come home even more aware of how awkward of a person I am and it's starting to bother me a little.

No. 1080966

Theres an invisible crowd that live in my mind and they judge my every action

No. 1080974

>>1080966
well since they are invisible if mute them also that will make there be no pressure

No. 1080987

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I don't have any social ties. It hurts to think I am a ghost but it's also freeing and I'm reluctant to change it. Ashamed that I am wasting my youth. Especially being female. I didn't get this way intentionally like picrel but is funny jojoke.

No. 1080992

>>1080966
Same but it's two entities, one is basically made up of different aspects of myself who act as "voices" (not actually audible) and debate each other over everything. The other is silent and omniscient, a feeling of God I must have acquired since my childhood. The first drives me crazy with overthinking and self-abuse while the second makes me feel paranoid and ashamed. I'm thinking meditation and mindfulness could help though.

No. 1081149

This girl kept pestering me while i was at the vet, it’s so weird to have panic attacks on the way there then have someone’s kid asking you questions about how to take care of their cat but to be honest i don’t interact with teenagers much and i have a lot of self esteem issues and traumas from that time, it’s so strange how the interaction was a healing eye opening experience somehow

No. 1081157

>>1080974
Invisible doesn’t mean its a YouTube video sis i can’t mute them i just cant see them

No. 1081168

>>1080992
It’s insane how much i relate to this; the silent omniscient judging presence always fuels the crowds in my head to judge me even harder while i try to frantically explain myself and why i did what i did

No. 1081223

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I hate people who always try to one up you. Someone I went to school with (and I've considered her a friend up until this point) recently switched her major to the same one I have and she keeps asking me how far along I am, probably for comparison and it stressed me out because I know that I'll need longer to finish. She even already found a part-time job in that field and it makes me feel like a complete incompetent loser. She's part of a circle of friends, so I can't cut just her off because she'll always be around them too so it would suck if there was tension between us and if friends had to make sure we don't run into each other. I want to cut her off so bad but I don't want to lose my other friends (I don't have many anyway and it's taking a toll on me) and I'm sure they'd wonder why I try to avoid just her.

No. 1081229

>>1081223
Just ignore her dont engage her

No. 1081260

I really want to do something with my hobbies and make some income through them but I don't know to like… do it. How to market myself? How to even know which one of my ideas will work? Do I create an account on etsy, ig, twitter? Everywhere? Multiple accounts on the same sm? I want to do something with my sewing and embroidery and I have an idea on what I want to do but I just don't know how to start. It's just daunting. I gifted my friends some of my projects and they suggested I could really do something with it and now I want to but it's scary.

No. 1081321

Stop deleting your posts for no reason to repost it 3 secs later, bitch I'm responding to you and now my post quoting is all fucked up aaaaaaaaaa

No. 1081331

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I have horrible fucked up dreams almost every night and they almost always involve degenerate sex stuff that I don't even care about irl.
I want it to stop because all I get is traumatizing nightmare->something out of a bad porno. I had a dream someone broke into my house then my brain decided to be a pornsick little raisin and dream about me fucking the burglar. Hello???!! Bitch stop that shit I want to dream about houses that I build in the Sims 3, not getting sexually assaulted by people I know would never do it to me in real life. It's exhausting and whenever I've tried to speak about it anonymously online before everyone just goes down the kink/fetish route, they don't understand I HATE it.

No. 1081348

Can nonnies stop larping as normies after the whole bunker threads fiasco and come back to this site its so damn dead now

No. 1081380

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My mom hated fat kids, and being a chubster as a kid she always told me to suck my stomach in. Today at 31 I still do it subconsciously most of the time and get uncomfortable when I'm not. Today I learned it can force your upper abs into a state of paralysis, eventually leading to scar tissue, and a harder time expanding your lungs. Which kinda aligns with how the PT I started going to yesterday reacted to how he didn't get much of a reaction from my stomach muscles when he was testing what I can and can't do. Thanks mom.

No. 1081410

I just hate myself so much. I hate that I'm immature, I hate that I'm overly emotional and take things personally and hate that other people also see this and act as if they had to walk around eggshells around me. And I feel like when you're labeled as sensitive, you will never get rid of this label

No. 1081458

SOMEONE TALK ME OUT OF THINKING I CAN FIX HIM

No. 1081469

>>1081331
I feel like I could have written this. All of my dreams are nightmares about SA. I don't speak about it online anymore. People either try to psycho anal eyes you or claim you are repressing your kinks or w/e. It sucks but you're not alone. I found some articles saying that eating before going to bed makes your brain too active or something so I'm going to try fasting.

No. 1081473

>>1081458
You can't fix him. He's the only one who can fix himself because he needs intrinsic motivation for it to work and not someone who tells him to, or else he'll act all goody goody around you but will still follow the same patterns when he's not with you, simply because he does it for you but not because he truly wants it for himself. There you go, nonna.

No. 1081474

>>1081458
You can't do it, man.

No. 1081486

It's not fair. I wish it would have been me who died. My life isn't worth nearly as much. I just waste time and float around like a ghost. I wish it would have been me.

No. 1081489

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I was checking this picrew with lolita themes, and I liked the artist so I went to check their insta, and it is this fucking autistic cringe cow SadCats-whatever its name.
Holy fuck, the other art almost gave me an aneurism, it seemed like she was trying way too fucking hard, god.
Her art is good, specially the lolita related art; but image going to a tea party or something and theres this retard going "hey nonnie, do you know any cows? wanna see my cow/neonazi art?"
And shes all "omg, im autistic, im femcel" it almost seems like some stupid larping.
Is cringe, is mortifying, and it appears as if she wants to be a cow herself or something. I literally went to check if there was something about her here, AND IT WAS. Somebody come and hit me with a pan so I can forget I ever saw that.

No. 1081498

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It’s over. My grandpa is gone. He passed while we were partying the night away. My middle sister got a text from our mom in the middle of the celebrations telling us that he was gone and she managed to hold it together until the guests had left and the dishes were clean. If any anons reading this haven’t spoken to their grandparents in the last two weeks, pick up your phone and call them right now. You don’t know when is the last time you might speak to them. He was so fit. The last time I visited I couldn’t even see him because he was playing lawn bowls. I’m going to miss him so much.

No. 1081574

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I’m so fucking pissed I’m homeless. I hate that my ex will think it’s because I can’t live without him. No you fat fuck I’m a disabled retard with a deathwish. I have no direction in life and quite frankly don’t know what I’m doing with myself. My meds, my current bf, and my dog are the only things that are keeping me trapped on this godforsaken earth. I’m tired man. I’m just so fucking tired. I’m always in pain. Drugs don’t do shit. I just wanna shut my eyes and sleep.

No. 1081606

>>1081469
Thanks nonny, I'll try not eating so close to bedtime. It really is fucked up and what's worse is that people think it's acceptable to just say "well maybe you have a secret kink for getting fucked by your male relatives/random stranger/burglar it's ok that's empowering<3" they don't know how much disgust we feel when we wake up after dreaming about that shit.
It does feel like my brain is trying to tell me something but at the same time i do have obsessive/intrusive thoughts or OCD mannerisms irl. Do you have any of those? There needs to be some reason as to why we dream about this shit.

No. 1081630

my girlfriend is korean and is incredibly racist about japanese people to the point where i feel relieved hearing her talk positively about a japanese person

No. 1081648

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semi good ending vent!

My manager at my job is a nasty manchild of a misogynist!!! He is in his thirties and repeatedly finds exes to fixate on and antagonize, and sometime last year he decided he was obsessed with me and I rejected him. He initially seemed genuinely okay, just apologetic, but he has since put me through so much shit I put some heavy boundaries in. He is a shitty drunk and did some horrible things to me at the Christmas do and he apologized the next morning, but since then I've become more and more distant. Anyway, because he is a NARC, he cannot handle this a single bit. He finds things to get angry and passive aggressive at me about. This time it was the fact that he kept trying to prod me about who I hung out with last weekend and I didn't answer, that and he was incredibly rude to me. He has spent all week trying to make me uncomfortable at work as a result, but I simply remained calm, didn't respond, ignored him.

WELL nonnies, he's SO triggered that I didn't fall into his weird little "oh I know FEMALES, I can narc guilt trip them, slam doors and make them feel bad" traps that he's put in sudden leave for his mental health but only on my shifts next week.

Nonnies, I think I won because I've pissed off an r/niceguys incel manager so much by having boundaries and not letting him walk all over me for not wanting to date him despite my numerous rejections that he's put in leave

I'm laughing

I can throw more details but this is just the summary, I made a grown man take leave because none of his passive aggressions made me respond as he wanted me to. I just did my job.

No. 1081663

I was removing blood stains from my mattress cover on low heat and my mom decided to "help" by boiling the shit out of the bloodstains on the highest washing machine setting. Sigh.

Does anyone know of any tips to remove them now, or is it now permanently stained.

No. 1081674

>>1081663
Don't wash in hot water or it will be permanently stained. Wash it in cold water.

No. 1081677

>>1081630
I mean Japan raped and killed so many Koreans and don’t even acknowledge it. Id hate them too if i was Korean. It is what it is

No. 1081680

>>1081677
I agree. It's less about racism and more about history between the two countries.

No. 1081761

>>1081674
Yes did you read my post. Thats what I did, but my mom decided upon herself to wash it in hot water behind my back.

No. 1081771

>>1081761
nta but hydrogen peroxide maybe? I haven't actually tried this myself but that's the first thing that comes to mind.

No. 1081782

>>1081648
KEK excellent, why the fuck would he ask out an employee in this day and age. Piece of shit.

No. 1081787

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i find it so funny and ironic when men complain about how the courts and childcare-related matters are biased against them. duh, obviously? your species is notorious for being apathetic to your own children until you want sympathy online.
men throughout history have just spread their seed then disappeared leaving the mothers to raise the kids and do all the hard unpaid labour. even the dads who do stick around still do fuck all apart from go to work, they barely help with kids/housework when they get home even if the mom works too. there are some good dads out there of course and my own mom wasn't a good mom but i still understand why courts are going to favour the mother's opinion and side over the father - statistics don't lie. the rate of dads abandoning their kids compared to moms is insane, and tbh because of this, they have no right to act surprised and like a victim when it turns out that yes you do have to pay child support and no you can't have full custody.
what's even more funny is that every moid i see who complains about not being able to see his kids, barely even put in the effort when he had the chance to.

moids love to play up the wholesome caring dad persona until it actually comes to buying baby supplies and taking care of them, then they suddenly disappear and/or go on to groom and fuck girls 10 years younger than them. whenever i see a male complain about the fact that the mom won't let him see the kids i'm instantly dubious and kind of suspect that there's something more to her side of the story. yes some moms are manipulative, but every moid i've seen who complains about this shit is a terminal weed-smoking manchild who is in and out of employment and who would probably burst into tears if he was ever asked to use a condom or stop playing video games 6 hours a day. god they're so disgusting.

No. 1081798

>>1081787
Unpopular opinion but even the bad mothers are, yea no not the actual ones that kill their children the ones who neglact, are better than the average father. I've never seen a father actually know stuff about their kid as perfectly as mothers do. They memorize everything and do so many sacrifices while men have a hard time not spending their money on hookers or passing stds to their wife because they cheated on her.

No. 1081809

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I draw a lot but I'm still bad at it. I drew a lot this week and my arm and wrist hurt and I'm frustrated so I'm going to take a nice warm shower and then come back and do some figure studies.

No. 1081810

>>1081798
you are totally correct, like i said my mom was manipulative narcissistic and very neglectful but she was still leagues better than my dad. i know my experience doesn't speak for everyone but my mom still made sure i had food and clean clothes but my dad was doing just what you described there: cheating on her, disappearing for years at a time and overall being a violent vacant piece of shit who would flip back and forth between crying about not getting to see us, then not making an effort to see us regardless.
i just don't know what makes them think they can have the audacity to do not even the bare minimum as a man and then complain that they're not getting Dad of the Year awards. they give themselves way too much credit, and society enables that just as much. every time I see a video of a dad doing the bare minimum people gush over him in the comments but if a mom so much as slips up or makes a mistake she is criticized for it.

No. 1081814

>>1081810
I had a similar experience and that's why I made the comment. I hope things are better for you now. Most fathers are shit but it sucks when you get stuck with one of the shittiest.

No. 1081820

People keep complaining about me at my workplace. I can't focus and I make 2463677 mistakes. My time management is also shit. If I get fired I would never get employed again. I haven't slept in a week. I want to commit.

No. 1081830

>>1081787
>whenever i see a male complain about the fact that the mom won't let him see the kids i'm instantly dubious

my dad spent so much effort to have part custody and yet when he did he never let me go home without bruises. He just wanted custody to pay less child support and to torture my mom

No. 1081831

I tried sculpting in blender again, I tried it before but I couldn't get the sphere to look like anything more than a crumpled up sphere, now I actually got it to look like a dragon's head and then I fiddled with some properties and set the detail level too high and my whole computer froze I'm so sad I'm never gonna fiddle with random tools again until I've read what they do in the documentation. RIP

No. 1081864

My mom just told me she went to school in a wheelchair for a while because of anorexia… wtf that can happen?
Also couldn’t she have told me about her ED history earlier? You know… maybe that would’ve helped with mine??
Also found out two of my aunts had bulimia… wtf

No. 1081871

>>1081820
Anon have you got ADHD?

No. 1081886

worried i will have to be drug tested soon for medical stuff. have you guys had delta 8 show up on drug tests? i had it last like 8 days ago and will probably have to test in like 25 days, think i'll be good?

No. 1081898

>>1081886
Delta 8 is still THC but it’s less potent, so you will definitely be fine for pee test in a month. But also wdym medical stuff? In US you could piss pure PCP and as long as it’s in a doctor’s office and you aren’t trying to kill the doctor or or pregnant or something, they wouldn’t do shit about it.

No. 1081917

I feel bad posting about my dad but he always calls women from his work 'girls' (in the sense 'oh she seems like a smart girl') and it makes me want to reeee every single time.

No. 1081929

>>1081917
Regardless of if it's your dad. Men referring to women as "girls" is just irritating. I feel for you nonnie.

No. 1081945

Bought my first house a few years ago. Go to sell it and suddenly it’s unmortgageable because it has a timber frame construction and is cladded, so post Grenfell no one wants to lend on it. Now I’m stuck in this shitty area with all my wealth tied up in a building I can’t sell. Gonna fucking lose my mind

No. 1081951

Being a chinlet with a wide. jaw is tough work but someone's gotta do it.

No. 1081954

>>1081489
Which picrew is it?

No. 1081955

>>1081898
In my coyntry they can deny you mental health services if you test positive on drug tests. Also they wont give you some drugs, like adhd pills.

No. 1081966

I was trying to tell my lesbian coworker of something that happened to me last week and she wouldn't stop interrupting me saying "ooohhh a girl? ohh is she cute? are you going to date her?" etc etc. because I started it with "so I met this girl last week." The story had nothing to do with my romantic interest and I thought I very clearly prefaced it with a "whew guess what terrible shit thing happened to me last week!"

Just because I'm a lesbian doesn't mean every story involving a new girl I just met is about me potentially seeing her as a partner! Just because she's always going on dates and trying to find a girlfriend doesn't mean I am too! I have zero interest in trying to wad through all these gender whatever freaks to meet a semi decent woman.

No. 1081970

>>1081898
thanks, anon! i'm enrolled in the esketamine nasal spray program for treatment resistant depression and i'm worried they'll try to deny me thinking i'm just trying to abuse drugs or something

No. 1081971

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self-worth and confidence is so overrated. you just do like a few minutes or a few days desperately trying to convince yourself that you have worth in the first place maybe you didn’t really have any inherent worth in the first place.
>have some self-esteem
>ooo i’m the baddest bitch i don’t chase i attract
like my brain is nearly incapable of maintains any self-worth for a long time, it reverts back to reality, the only way confidence and self-worth can existence is by larping and pretending to other people. i can’t lie to myself like that anymore anons

No. 1081975

>>1081971
Nona I love you. Marry?

No. 1081987

I haven't saw my Dad since 2016 and he lives in the same country. He texts me but we can't meet because his wife hates kids even though she met me when I was 12 and I'm 31 now. My dad even paid for me and his wife to go to the same therapist and the therapist was such an inept cunt. I was going for months and just asked her outright in a session what is my step mum's problem what has she stated is the issue (she's infertile so I understand that her and my dad can't have kids is a thing, but damn, you had an affair with a married man of 2 kids wtf did you expect, us to die on your wedding which we weren't invited too??). The therapist told me her issues were confidential then fast forward a few months later in dating this guy who happens to be the ex of my therapists friend. She couldn't tell me the fucking issue my step mum had, you know the reason my dad was paying this cunt, but she did tell her friend all about me. Because me and the guy ended up having an argument about this ex and I was adamant to see his fucking messages because I knew shit was being said that I never did. And I see the messages and this bitch is dragging my name through the dirt. All my issues with my family, of course exaggerated or misconstrued to make me out to be a bitch and it's just like. Is my life a joke? Luckily I have a really cool step dad, but it's just sad that my own dad doesn't push to see me. Doesn't he miss me? I get along with men well, I grew up taking after my dad. We use to play golf and all my interests he encouraged and would take me to things. He got diagnosed with MS when I was 12 and slowly deteriorated but I became his caddy at golf and he got a golf cart I would drive us about in. We even had holidays just him and my brother. He's a lot worse a decade on but in 2015 the three of us went to Florida together and my brother assisted with bathing and did everything else. On the last day my dad got upset and said he didn't want to return home. He's told me before he thought about leaving his wife but he's ill and she left work to support him. I wish she was like my step dad and saw his kids not as burdens. We are able to help. It's been so long seeing my dad it's not even worth it to ask to see him because I've been told for years no. I wonder if I've already saw him for the last time.

No. 1081988

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>>1081975
of course nonna

No. 1081989

>>1081988
ew, ew….EW!

No. 1081995

>>1081989
go away weirdo

No. 1082031

I fucking hate rancid munchie cunts that pretend to have cptsd. My mom has actual cptsd and it ruined her life, my life, and my siblings. She can't leave the house to get my brother life saving medical care because she's just too fucked in the head. She is almost always in a a state similar to that of a wild animal backed into a corner. She can't call people on the phone, she doesn't just have anxiety, her resting heart rate is like fucking 99 and she has uncontrollable twitches and body movements due to the level of stress fucking up her nervous system. She can't even listen to fucking music without it triggering her in some way or another. These stupid pieces of shit like lilboweep make me wanna a-log SO FUCKING BAD. Cpstd my fucking ass I wish they'd all just neck themselves.

No. 1082035

>>1081988
I support it

No. 1082036

>>1082031
dzamn wut did lilboweep ever do to you? he kyoot

No. 1082053

>>1081809
don't draw if your arm still hurts, rest. how are you drawing, from your wrist or from your shoulder? make sure to loosen up too. if you really want to commit to getting better, developing technique will set a good foundation.

No. 1082068

>>1082053
big secret they dont tell you, drawing is all in this hips

No. 1082070

i wish i had the guts to kill myself. like, i tell myself that i don't do it because then my sister would be alone with my parents, and no one deserves that, but truly is because i'm a coward.

my life is pointless, i have no dreams nor goals, and my only "joy" is drowning myself in media, that i recognise is not because i enjoy it but because it's the only time i can forget how much i just don't want to be myself.

i hate being me, living as me. my life is objectively good (ok family, good country, ok health, ok money) but i don't fit it, any of it.

No. 1082081

>>1082053
I make a conscious effort to draw from my shoulders and elbows but I've been working on details a lot so I'm forced to use my wrist. I also stretch very often, it's just that I've had an episode of minor nerve damage from drawing in the past and I think it's made my arm/wrists more prone to feeling achey than before, and I'm still getting used to it. I'll rest. Thank you anon!

No. 1082095

I've been single almost two years after a horribly abusive first and only relationship. It was so bad the idea of being with another person again legitimately terrified me that I would end up dead if I ever dated again. Like, I can't go outside out of fear that she will know where I live since I moved. It's been really horrible mentally recovering from that relationship (but it is getting a lot better).

But I have made a really close friend the past six months. We spend a lot of time together every day, and he legitimately makes me feel like someone cares about me. I think I might have romantic feelings for him, but I also think it might be inappropriate since there is an age gap. I'm older than him, like by a lot. I'm 24, and he's 18. I don't even know if our friendship is appropriate let alone anything more, and it makes me feel like I'm a predator or something like my ex was and it really really scares me that I might be a horrible person for befriending him at all. I haven't been friends with someone who is as concerned about my feelings as I am about theirs before so I really don't wanna give up the friendship unless I have to. I just don't want to be like my ex and abuse and hurt anyone especially not someone that has been like my best friend for the past few months.

I tried to talk about it with other friend's but they don't seem to understand my worry that I'm taking advantage of someone and just think it's about whether a girl can be older or something (which according to my friend, no they can't be).

No. 1082104

I get so sad when Spring starts rolling around because I know it won't be long until we enter our Summer that lasts at least half of the year. I wish I could just enjoy the brief period of time we have nice weather but it only signals the suffering to come. I miss the cold.

No. 1082111

>>1082095
I'm really sorry about your previous relationship and yeah, I kind of see why you're iffy about it. I wouldn't personally pursue a romantic relationship with him even if he reciprocates the feelings. Maybe because of my own past, I have a lot of regrets dating an older person and having my 'firsts' with him. I still wish I had experienced it all with someone my age who was just as stupid as me, you know? But as I said, this is all me projecting so who knows. I'd still be hesitant.
>past few months
So he has time enough to really show his true teenboy self, kek.

No. 1082114

want to die because I realize I'm not anyone's sexual fantasy and that is all I want to be and it's also depressing bc that's a sad aspiration, and my dream since I was 9 is dead and it's like, I have no idea what to do with my life anymore. I fucking suck. I am just done. I hate feeling ugly or never enough.

No. 1082130

>>1082114
anon do you realize how cool that is tho, you have the freedom to explore and find a passion for literally anything you want. there's nothing holding you back. like you could decide on any random thing or things that seem interesting to you and just give them a shot just because you can, because why not? you've got nothing to lose!

No. 1082134

when i remember embarrassing shit i've said i want to kms no wonder rates of suicide for autistic people are so high

No. 1082154

>>1080937
Desuarchive really does reveal a lot about some of the retards who post here. Sad.

No. 1082155

>>1080338
Nvm fuck you pickme, keep to R9k, nobody wants you here

No. 1082161

https://desuarchive.org/r9k/thread/67629855
This bitch is so stupid, of course you're a twitch thot if you do this shit because the only people that are going to watch you will be lonely ugly old men who want a parasocial relationship. If you want to actually help real lonely people who aren't shitheads get off your ugly ass and volunteer. There are many places, especially around Christmas, that get volunteers to be on a phone line that lonely usually elderly people with no family left call. But she won't do that because she wants attention from ugly men on R9k and money. When will pickmes learn that if you browse R9k nobody here wants you. This girl cannot be above 20.

No. 1082168

>>1082114
How easy does your life have to be for this to be a problem. Grow a spine and get some self esteem.

No. 1082170

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Am I really this incompetent? Are my skills this shit? Why can't I find a job? Why can't I be hired? I have a bachelor degree and they are not even hiring me at my local grocery store? Why? This makes me so depressed, I feel like I should just be eaten by jaguars already and that I would be more useful to society like that instead of being a dead weight for my parents

No. 1082172

>>1082130
Yeah, I mean. It feel so stupid that I knowingly fell into the trap of wanting male validation and knowing I was doing that, I still wanted it. It truly is a drug (or marketed as one). I was abused as a kid and ever since then I just wanted to be a fantasy to someone bc I knew I was abused just bc I had a female body. But it's like, I am good at a bunch of other topics. I feel like my brain is fried to get 1 good picture of myself being all that matters bc it means I could sell myself and be a fantasy to someone. It disgusts me yet I heard for it so. I feel like I am a person who just let their trauma define their life because I ended up being hypersexual.

It's hard coming to grips with the fact that I don't really care about sex outside of the validation. I cum and my boyfriend is great, but I feel like shit I feel this way. He's really sweet and understanding, and it feels exhausting for me to relearn my sexuality. Learning that it matters what I think is hot, not whether I'm hot. Learning to fantasize about him, not fantasizing about him fantasizing about how hot I am. I used to see sex as part of my identity and in a sense it still is. It's just fucking crazy to me that once it's become so obvious that I'm never going to be this idea I'd like to embody, I'm like, thanks, I'd rather leave.

It hurts my heart how I'm not the only woman like this, either, I feel like I'm so entrapped and it's not like I want it to be banned to care about my appearance, but it needs to be from a place of me not trying to directly please men (and I understand even a lot of what feels attractive to me is bred from men, too).

Thank you for responding anon, it means a lot.

No. 1082173

>>1082161
literally the worst board to post on for this too. not even /adv/ or /ck/, it's just pure pandering by the move to post on r9k. not even going to shit on her too hard but yeah she needs to not try to seek out the attention of some of the worst men on the internet. fuck, if you'd pandered to sushigirl it'd even make more sense

No. 1082176

>>1082161
the entire thread is a sperg about how women have life on easy mode and they can easily get an audience of simps supporting them but they are literally ignoring reality. Top earning Twitch streamers are male, top earning Youtubers are male and as a male you can look gross and be fat and nobody cares.

Look at reviewbrah, if reviewbrah was a woman she'd be called ugly, gross but simultaneously fetishized and sexualized and stripped of any humanity while simultaneously being harassed for simply being a woman.

No. 1082180

>>1082174
I thought it was because less qualified workers have less options, and thus less opportunities to leave the company which means a lower turnover.

>>1082170
Hang in there. Sometimes it's just a matter of luck and applying at the right time and place, and unfortunately that's something that people won't admit unless they're the ones not being able to get a job. So don't lose your self-esteem over this.

No. 1082181

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>>1082170
At least you're trying nonna. That's all you can do. There's nothing wrong with you, the system is just stupid.

No. 1082219

I sincerely wish I was a lesbian. Went to a a party a few days ago and a friend of mine told me today that this one moid asked for my phone number because he wants to "get to know me" even though we only talked very briefly. Not only that, but apparently he had an open relationship with his ex, is a cheat and a stoner. Ugh. And this is not the first time something like this happens. All moids think about is getting their dick wet so how am I supposed to find someone who's interested in me besides looks and sex? I don't even care about speaking to anyone anymore and I'd never speak to moids anyway if I wasn't straight.

No. 1082220

>>1082180
>>1082181
Thanks, anonas. I have already cried about this today lol but your comments made me a little less miserable. I am actually aiming to get out of my shitty country and work abroad, but I need a job in the meantime, of course. I need the savings, I need to help my parents, I need the resume, I need the routine. I've been trying for a while and I was like "Okay, it's the pandemic, nobody has a job" but then I just kept being a NEET against my will even when the covid cases subsided. I hope I can get out of this slump by the end of the semester.

No. 1082235

>>1082219
Keep high hopes nona! I met my husband in a very chance meeting and he's just the perfect dude. He waited two years to have sex with me, too. We were both virgins and I wanted to be sure he was who I wanted to be with. Now it's been 7 years and I'm still as giddy as I was when we first started dating, and he's even more perfect than before hehe. Have faith! Just remember that you come first.

No. 1082239

>>1082235
Thanks nonna and I'm happy you found a nice husband! I hope I'll have as much luck as you because men like your husband are a rarity.

No. 1082250

>>1082220
Best of luck nonna! Like >>1082180 it's all about luck and being in the right place and the right time. I was in your position a few years ago, even pre-pandemic when everyone was hiring yet I still couldn't get a damn job! I almost didn't take the job that led to my current position because I almost ignored the recruiter who contacted me (I was meeting with tons of recruiters and it kept leading to nothing and I was getting fed up). I got hired so the HR girl could prove a point to the HR head with me! So dumb. But I lucked out and I lucked out hard. Here's to passing on some of my luck to you!

Life is unfair and particularly shitty right now, but I'm rooting for you nona. I'm praying to sanic that you'll land a good, well paying job with good coworkers!! ♥

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>>1082250
Thanks, anon! ♥ You are so kind. I wish you a very good rest of your life!

No. 1082346

I'm tired of acting like I'm ok after 2 years of being celibate.. but I cannot do casual sex either so

No. 1082403

>>1082346
Why not get sex toys? I'm the same way where I hate casual sex (constantly think I'm going to die and am generally just uncomfortable with casual sex). I used to prefer sex with another person over masturbating but now I see that it's the superior choice. I can be 100% selfish while also not fearing for my life or contracting diseases, and after investing in some pricey but well made toys, I'm basically set for life kek.

No. 1082411

I wish i was homeschooled socializing with kids while youre being neglected at home was embarrassing

No. 1082420

I am already in a pretty bad place mentally today, so when I learned that this youtuber passed I started feeling even worse and have to hold back the tears.
I didn't follow her that closely at all and I thought her avatar voice was kinda annoying, but once I started actually watching her videos, not only did I find them extremely helpful, but also when I paid attention to her speech pattern and mic issues that I came to the conclusion that it was probably just a slight tech illiterate middle aged british woman that loved dolls and wanted to help people how to learn japanese for one reason or another, and was always very kind and attentive when answering questions. So the fact that she died while battling some bad illness really made me super sad. I hope she had a peaceful passing surrounded by her loved ones.

No. 1082525

fuck medical school, fuck it being so hard, fuck that I study so hard and still feel like I'm a lazy person at the end of the week, fuck that I'm the worst in the class. i feel like there's something wrong with my brain, i feel so retarded

No. 1082550

I wish I left him on the noose. I am responsible for her suffering. I dream about her every night. I doubt she even knows I exist.

No. 1082572

>>1082420
Oh my god WHAT she died?? I got lazy and dropped off with my Japanese studying but I loved her videos so much, no other person explained grammar better. I'm so sorry you were already having a bad day on top of this, nonny. I hope tomorrow will bring good news for you.

No. 1082576

I always get accused of being xyz anon. It's weird because they never get it right either. Last time someone said I was the anon hating on asap because I said kanye was unattractive, no correlation.

No. 1082581

>>1082525
YOO you're in medical school! That's already so cool! Imagine telling kid you how far you've come! And you will get tired and pissed, but the fact you're still there is so so cool, I know lots of people drop out.

No. 1082593

>>1082581
im a pharmacist, street pharmacist. yeah i went to school…school of hard knocks…from the streets…and lemme tell ya, the streets….they are pretty hard….made of cement, see boofs cigar

No. 1082595

>>1082576
I knew it, you're THAT anon!

No. 1082599

>>1082595
NTA, but are you the anon from my dreams?

No. 1082611

>>1082599
From your dreams and your nightmares

No. 1082628

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No. 1082634

>>1082611
That is so scary anon please do not say such frightening things to your fellow nonnies.

No. 1082655

Nexpo's content has gone down the gutter. It's been shit for a while but the video he put out about gemini home entertainment was so fucking lazy. Two and a half hours of just showing the ghe videos, one after the other. His zoomer fanbase was sucking his dick in the comments ofc. One of the most liked comments was something like "nexpo feels like a late night television channel" like what. That should be insulting. "Your youtube channel feels like a tv channel! Because you just copy and paste other people's videos and then add the most bare bones commentary in between videos with some faggy distortion to make your voice and video SCAWWY" spookytube is in the middle of a drought it seems.

No. 1082659

>>1082655
tbh I lost interest in most spookytubers, they almost all rehash the same content and themes.

No. 1082661

I’m such a misfortunate person, i don’t wanna go on anymore every second of my life has been an utter and complete joke

No. 1082674

>>1082655
Anon it’s been shit ever since these types of channels started getting popular. You think Nexpo is bad? Try watching a MamaMax video. I honestly think there is just something very unethical about making videos based off of real life human exploitation and suffering for clout like they tend to do but wtf would I know honestly kek

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>>1082572
Thank you so much for your kindness, nonnie. She did die, unfortunately. I hope she knew how many and how much she helped those that watched her content before passing, it's always good to know the impact of your life before ceasing to exist.
Anyway, I hope every anon here have a great weekend, as corny as it is. Life is so fleeting.

No. 1082677

>>1082659
Ayrt, yeah. It sucks. Spookytube was really at it's peak when I was in the middle of high school. Now they've all shifted away from weird irl mystery stuff and have started focusing primarily on args, which are scarcely very interesting nowadays. the monument mythos and the mandela catalogue fucking suck I'm tired of people acting like they shat their pants over these cheap spooky videos

No. 1082685

>>1082674
Oh my god I've tried watching MamaMax multiple times but I literally can. not. get through the first 2 minutes of any of his videos. Literally. It's not even the subjects he chooses to profit off, it's the terrible way he talks. Absolute torture.

No. 1082686

>>1082655
>>1082677
Samefag
>>1082674
I tried watching Mamamax once, I think maybe a couple of months ago. The way he presented his pedophile hunting shit as some badass edgy larp threw me off. I think I posted about how retarded I thought he was in the vent thread? I think? And anons were like "well, at least he's exposing pedophiles!" kek. Men who are OBSESSED with hunting and exposing pedophiles are usually all doing it for clout and asspats, they don't actually care about the children and teenagers being exploited.

No. 1082689

I’m a swimmer and if I saw a fucking man on the block next to me I’d simply step down and refuse to compete. Fuck that. Fuck him. Fuck every single person who allowed sports to get this way in the fist place. Fuck. Fuuuuckkkkk

No. 1082708

>>1082689
Based. Men really think they're entitled to win womens competitions because they can't compete with other men. Fuck this shit.

No. 1082744

I really think it’s fucked up that i got my period at a really young age i was 11 man the shame and uncomfort of it all

No. 1082763

>>1082744
Same, nona. Except I didn't know that wasn't typical until well into high school. I honestly thought it was weird when I heard girls talking about getting it at 13-14.

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>>>/ot/939864
samefag. Today when I was visiting my mother she casually mentioned, as I was about to leave, that she threw out the chair he use when he kermit. That shit bent my fucking stomach on sight, my poor mother having to grab that fucking nasty chair the moid used. She said she had to throw it away because it was constantly reminding her of how he kermit, which is completely understandable, but I had to hold my tears back so bad. After that she told my father who agreed with her decision, later a local junky passed by and asked if he could keep the chair, she said yes. I don't know how to feel, I want this to go away but I gotta be there for my family. FUCK MOIDS AAAAAAAAAH.

No. 1082775

>>1082744
I honestly only got annoyed at the pain, I got it when I was 9, I probably if not surely sound like a weirdo, but I was really excited about growing up, getting my period, wearing bras. Maybe it’s because I grew up around 3 annoying ass moids so anything remotely feminine made me feel at peace for some reason.

No. 1082784

>>1082744
I got mine a little younger than that. I wasn't bothered by it, but I basically went into puberty with barely any guidance from my mother.

No. 1082799

I just broke my fucking nail, I had finally grown them out to a nice length & shape. I don't oil these bitches once and they bail on me

No. 1082854

>>1082634
Rooarrrr hiss grr

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>>1082854
Nona don't do that!

No. 1082879

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I have a chance to flee from Russia, which is where I am now. I've lived my whole life here, all of my friends are here, and I met my boyfriend a few months ago who I think I love (who can't sleep out of fear of being drafted at the moment), but if i stay, I might have to really struggle (and of course, so does everyone else in Russia). I really don't want to leave, because if i do I know I'll feel like a huge traitor and deserter. I only have a few relatives in america, some of whom i love but most of whom i'm mostly apathetic about. That's it. What am I going to do there? I don't want to abandon my mother, who can't leave - and if she dies, it'll ruin me. But then again, I have no idea what will happen here if I decide not to go. Anons, I'm scared.

No. 1082889

Sometimes I think I might be seriously depressed when I feel downright suicidal for half a week, but then I feel relatively normal just a few days later and it makes me suspect I just exaggerate the bad times for attention. But I feel even worse when I do get attention, so I never mention to anyone how terrible I feel or how little I think I matter to anyone. When someone tries to comfort me I start to cringe and begin to think that none of it is that important to begin with and I'd rather stay neutral. Sometimes I want other people to feel as bad as I do too, but I don't expect them to, so when it happens I want it to stop. I feel like this all goes back to how my mother used to treat me when I was sad or angry all throughout my childhood. I'd be five years old, crying about something that upset me and she'd say something like "Thanks! Now you've ruined my mood too! Thank you very much, everything just has to be about you, huh?". No empathy at all, just annoyance about me expressing any negative emotion to her. I guess most people have worse problems though, so it's probably nothing after all.

No. 1082931

>>1082879
I'd take the chance if possible. Have you talked to your mother about it and how she feels? The situation is pretty uncertain right now, but there's surely no future to be had in russia right now. My parents left russia before I was born to go to a first world country and at first had to survive a few years with what little welfare money they could get there, so it wasn't easy by any means, but now they have a very comfortable life. If need be you could always go back or keep in contact through social media and such? Maybe you will even find new friends?
Just don't feel pressured to stay because of other people, you can choose yourself. It doesn't make you a traitor to flee from a situation you had no say in

No. 1082933

Had 1/4 glass of alcohol with cranberry juice and water 3 hours ago I just feel like shit now my head hurts and I feel nauseous and tired fuck

No. 1082944

>>1082879
If you aren't sure you're in love with your boyfriend, I wouldn't let him affect your decision. I am so sorry you have to make this choice. You are not a traitor, you are one of so many people who have to make hard choices. What are the chances of your mother dying? If can't your mother get out now, could you help her later if you leave for America? If something bad happened to her, would you even be able to do anything if you stayed or would it be futile?

No. 1083010

>>1082879
I was thinking about this kind of thing recently and I'm pretty sure that if my parents would refuse to leave I'd rather die with them than potentially have to live knowing I left them there to die.

No. 1083075

>>1078375 again.
I miss her so fucking much. Holy shit this is hard. She's never going to ask to sit in my lap again, she's never going to purr for me again… why did she have to get sick, why did she have to die… why couldn't I do more for her… I just want her back so badly, I feel like I'm being ripped apart. I love her, I don't want to forget her, I don't want to keep moving forward through time, further and further away from her… I am falling apart. The only thing keeping me sane is thinking about the shrine I will make for her ashes once I get her remains back. Everything hurts. My baby is gone

No. 1083113

I have to see a doctor next week to get a prescription but i really don't want to go, i hate going to hospitals, it really ruins my week even if nothing happens, I'm too mentally unstable and last time i barely controlled myself, i wish people would understand this type of struggle, i feel humiliated cause i know this is not a normal reaction, I'm sorry for being such a failure

No. 1083128

nonnies I wasted 3 years on a scrote who barely even gave me the bare fucking minimum and I feel so angry with myself every single day. the more I think about the whole thing the more upset I get. I didn't deserve this. I just wanted to love him

No. 1083206

>>1083128
I was you at one point, stop dating and focus on making money. He'll inevitably keep your number and reach out when his cock gets hard and no other women are answering his texts. Guaranteed, may happen in a week or a year. Then you can bait him with a date and not show up then block him.

No. 1083302

I want to be safe and comfy and I want all truly kind people to be safe and comfy too
I want my wishes to come true

No. 1083304

>>1082775
Samfag, i was happy at the time too but deep down i was uncomfortable and frequently bled everywhere my family was patriarchal so they looked at me with pity and disgust. Bad time

No. 1083310

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I love lesbians thinking separating themselves out of their own sexuality (which seems very ince-ly why are separating yourself from straight women just because they’re straight? kek, makes you wonder) is gonna make people be like “oh no, don’t go on your lesbian separatist society no baby don’t leave us!” This is actually fucking hilarious and sad. Straight women have to get rid of their straightness in order to earn respect from lesbians? Hell no, fuck off lmao, heterosexuals are not tainted just as homosexuals are not tainted for liking the same sex. What the actual fuck?

No. 1083334

>>1083310
>bisexual women who are Kinsey 3s
what the fuck does that mean KEK

No. 1083341

>>1083310
I love how she starts naming specific people kek

No. 1083344

>>1083310
That post makes sense to me. Anon was just saying that basically they can’t relate. I get it, I’m straight but the way men are center in everyone’s lives even makes me feel alienated sometimes

No. 1083354

>>1082879
is Russia dangerous for the average citizen right now? Are you in danger?

No. 1083358

>>1080621
Because I only saw it now and it annoyed me. Also, it's not the first the time that that farmer posts that bullshit story
>>1080627
>Boo hoo, being sexually active is such a hardship. I'm soooo worried, but not enough to refuse spreading my legs.

No. 1083377

>>1083358
Femcel detected

No. 1083378

War brings out a disgusting lack of empathy within people

No. 1083392

>>1077721
I still wanna know what her problem was. She read that post wrong.

No. 1083404

>>1081680
i know about that but it’s just annoying because she operates on an “all japanese people are terrible until proven otherwise” mindset and has refused to speak to me for watching japanese films before. i try not to bring up anything to do with japan unless she brings it up first

No. 1083407

>>1083378
This. Everyone feels so unemphatetic and narcissistic

No. 1083413

>>1083378
My poor ukrainians… not!

No. 1083461

>>1081606
NTA
>at the same time i do have obsessive/intrusive thoughts or OCD mannerisms irl
It could be related to those, as I do too, and ironically your distress about these nightmares could be fueling more of them. You could work on taking them less seriously by reminding yourself dreams are out of our control, and having horrifying nightmares doesn't mean you want it to happen, that's why they're nightmares. For whatever reason our brains try to run us through things that scare or disgust us, perhaps in an attempt to pick it apart and face the fear so to speak. Maybe if you change your waking thoughts about the dreams, by recognizing they are only dreams just like the intrusive thoughts are only that, then those dreams might happen less as your brain worries about those things less and less. Often what you fret about in waking life can appear in dreams, other times it's something subconscious, but you know best that they are unwanted and it's the OCD that makes you doubt.

No. 1083467

>>1083378
It does, it's disappointing but I remind myself that 1) people are inclined to be insensitive online for various reasons (like trolling) and 2) to be honest most people's foremost concerns are what directly impacts them, even you and I are this way, it's natural but some people are ugly about it.

No. 1083540

I wish I was a kid again. Like 14, I had nothing to worry about. I'm not even that old but I feel like a completely different person. I just want to be into spirituality and have my only worries be homework for the next day. I had a very chill evening, watched a bunch of shit I watched around that time and now I'm nostalgic but not in the good way. I took it for granted but if I knew the things I know now and had my life from back then it'd be perfect.

No. 1083573

>>1083378
Greek anon?

No. 1083577

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wow nonnas you actually were right, most men really are just not that attractive to look at or interesting to engage with. they all give me the ick now

No. 1083632

I'm on my period, already had a fight with my mother (she got hurt, blamed me, I got pissed off, she got pissed off that I was pissed off, she did apologize after 10-15 minutes of heated anger), and the scrote I hate who is friends with my parents won't fucking leave. He wanted to show my father something but decides he needs to stay for hours literally talking about capeshit or DnD (sometimes sneaks in anime because fucking creepy weeb). I'm fucking tired (emotionally and physically) and just want ice cream. Fuck everything. Hopefully chickens I have to watch are chill. I was told the chickens are good. Send hope it is true.

No. 1083673

i genuinely wonder how many women have killed themselves from pms/pmdd. one day i will most likely also join this club, there is literally no cure besides ripping out your insides and i'd rather kill myself than do that. and life sucking is just whatever because the issue is i can't laugh it off or feel better during this shit.

No. 1083679

yall my professor has not been answering any of her emails this week. I sent her one on Tuesday (the issues was resolved but she NEVER responded to confirm with me it was resolved/letting me know she got my email) and then I emailed her yesterday and she still hadn’t answers. She normally answers within an hour of me emailing so I thought maybe my emails aren’t going through but other people in my class were saying she wasn’t answering either. SO, me being a worry wart I thought maybe something is wrong and our emails aren’t going through and everyone else was like yeah something might be wrong. So, I emailed her department head letting him know (and I CC’ed her in) to ask him if he could contact her and let her know we were emailing her because she usually responds but something might be wrong with the emails. So he emails me and says sure that she was at a conference this week and he will let her know. WITHIN MINUETS OF HIS RESPONSE!!!! SHE EMAILS ME!!! And she gives me ATTITUDE.
She tells me she made a post explaining that she would be busy this week at a conference and would answer emails when she was at her hotel room… well girl why haven’t you answered my last two emails have you been pulling ragers at the conference???? Bc I emailed her during the day and she just never answered AND im not the only one she was not answering, there were multiple of us that sent her emails through out this whole ass week and she never answered us!!!! So she’s like I told y’all I was at a conference (I did not see this announcement she made till after her email so that’s my bad for not seeing) and then she gets to answering my question. I told her she got something wrong in the video she posted going over practice work for our homework, AGAIN I am not the only student who has emailed her about her error in the video, she tells me IM WRONG and that I need to go back and rewatch because I misread/misheard her on the video. I LITERALLY DIDN’T BUT OKAY-.
Then she tells me she will not look over the work I sent her because she does not pre-grade work and that I just will have to submit it and get the grade I get. I HAVE LITERALLY SENT HER MY WORK BEFORE AND SHE HAS TOLD ME IF I DID IT RIGHT??!?! So, I go to the group chat… and she is emailing the other girlies in out class chat BEING RUDE TO THEM TOO!!! Literally everyone was like yo what is up with this attitude, she is refusing to help any of us and is not giving feedback. I think this lil missy is mad I went to her department head and told him hey she’s not answering emails BUT LIKE I DIDN’T EVEN TELL ON HER?? I literally said to him “hey I think our emails might not be going through to her inbox if you have a way of contacting her will you let her know that our class is trying to get ahold of her?” I am just so fucking mad that she is purposely now withholding help to the class and its because I wanted her to answer her fucking email and not ignore us FOR DAYS, I get it if she’s busy during the day but like ma’am u are teaching a class, please for the love of fuck answer ur emails!!! i dont even wanna do the fucking dumb as homework now im so mad at her

No. 1083682

Why the fuck do I have to pay money to see. And if I want to not look like a goddamn dork I have to pay a shit ton for nice looking frames.

No. 1083691

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HE’S SO CUTE I CAN’T TAKE IT

No. 1083710

>>1081871
It's very possible. I've never been diagnosed though

No. 1083711

My stomach is really really hurting again no matter what I eat and I don't know what to do about it. I genuinely have no idea. It came out of nowhere. Do I just have to live with random stomach aches that last for hours for the rest of my life? I need help and I don't know what help I need. I feel like I can't move it hurts so much.

No. 1083719

>>1083679
go with the other girls that are having the issue and tell the deparment head about how she's now acting rude and being not helpful.

No. 1083720

>>1083711
Go to the doctor

No. 1083723

>>1082879
Live. Always chose life. I know its fucking hard but you have to continue living. I'm sorry anon.

No. 1083728

My usual organic cotton brand pads weren't in stock so I bought a different brand and the sticky backing on them isn't very good. At some point the pad folded up so I had blood stains on my jeans. My husband never told me so I could have been walking around like this for a while. Thank God I never left the house.

No. 1083731

>>1082420
how did you learn about her passing?

No. 1083734

>>1083719
idk if the other girls are as mad and upset as i am tbh and I dont wanna look like an angry psychopath. plus the head of her department was cc'd in on the email so he saw her response and didn't say anything about it so i am going to wait and see how she grades my homework and i may email her again tomorrow in regards to where she fucked up in her lecture and see if she is receptive to the correction but sigh i am just so mad

No. 1083740

>>1079818

i wore rlly dark sunglasses even tho indoors and often it being night time i was so insecure it helped me not look at other people and also feel more comfortable they couldnt see my eyes. i always started by going and running on the treadmill at a fast challenging past for at least 45 minutes till i felt the calm that comes from intense exercise. i was neet so i could go late at night, maybe that is an option? i was in a bad place mentally and couldn't run outside at the time and literally felt i had to go run my ass off because i didn't wanna be cutting myself at 28 years of age. just remember at the end of the day you're there to get ur workout, focus on that and only that, noone knows you or your story and if anyone judges you or looks down on you or gives u more than a passing thought they should be focusing on their own workouts.

No. 1083742

>>1083731
I was checking if she had any new videos and the latest one was from last year talking about taking a break for medical issues. Then all the comments were talking about her passing and how it was announced on her patreon. I'm still sad about it, which is kinda weird considering I've never followed her that closely, I guess it's cause she always came across as kind and genuine to me.

No. 1083798

>>1082879

what if you leave and the war blows over in a few years and you get a good job in america and you are able to bring your mother to america, or send her lots of money and improve her life?

No. 1083818

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https://getpocket.com/explore/item/the-2010s-is-the-decade-we-finally-stopped-obsessing-over-how-a-man-should-dress?utm_source=pocket-newtab
this is some dumb fucking shit. like "oh wow men are FINALLY free!!1" what the fuck? no one was ever "obsessing" over how a man "should dress". this isn't a problem we need an article about. MEN aren't the ones who've been living for centuries with oppressive retardery about how to dress.

No. 1083821

>>1083818
It's so forced too, only famous/artsy males dress that way in any number which is how things were already. cringe every taim

No. 1083829

I just cut myself trying to trim my pubes. Was not expecting that much blood, damn. Don't trim your pubes first thing when you wake up.

No. 1083863

So I contacted one of the other girls that share an abuser with me,and she told me she was glad to take part on the collective denounce, but that she "disliked revenge" and "she didn't want any problems". I told her she could be an anonymous testimony but FUCK DUDE this guy brainwashed us all to be scared of him, and this is our chance to make justice, and your afraid this counts as vengeance? WHAT? As if he was that important. No, I just want that predator to go to jail so he stops beating his pregnant wife. Even now this bastard is getting away with it, making this girl scared of publicly denouncing him. It pisses me off. Is exactly the reason of why he keeps doing it over and over again. We have a chance to stop that, do you know how many victims have that? NOT A LOT. Use it, exploit it, make use of this opportunity we have dude. And if he does something against us, that's better for our case, that just proves he's a violent asshole who cannot be trusted. I'm done being scared of him, I wan justice, I want retribution, I want reparations. I don't care if I get in trouble, what could possibly be worse than what he did to us already? What is he gonna beat me again? Here's the thing dude, he's done so much awful stuff, that theres hardly anything that he can do to scare me anymore. Stop being scared, start being angry. Understand that he cannot win against all of us, and that's why he used to isolate us. Fuck him, fuck his future, he's getting what he deserves.

No. 1083870

Are men really so fucked that my boyfriend got shit on at work because he said he found Ginnifer Goodwin cute? Like I know she's not super gorgeous but I've always thought she was cute as a button as well. But there are still overweight 40+ men who have never been in a long-term relationship saying she's ugly. God it makes me happy to know these men will die alone.

No. 1083871

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I'm going to fucking scream. My best friend is so retarded sometimes and it doesn't matter what I say or what advice I give she just keeps doing stupid shit.
She has been on and off with this absolute manchild for about a year now, he is so verbally abusive and is obsessed with OnlyFans and ig models, doesn't have a job and just smokes weed and plays games all day. He treats her like fucking shit and she has been depressed for a very long time…then she gets pregnant. When she tells me I instantly think oh fuck no, sorry I cannot support or agree with this and she knows that.
I don't tell her what to do though and just let her figure it out, her body is not really my business but whatever. Then soon after she loses the baby quite early on, and ngl - correct me if I'm rude nonnas, but I would take that as sort of a sign that she isn't ready right now: she's only in part-time work, doesn't have her own place is severely mentally ill and keeps getting nutted in by this porn addict manbaby. When she talked to me about it I told her I personally think no one should be having a child until they can afford to and are in a comfortable spot in their life. That was kind of the end of it and now…she tells me she is pregnant again.

Hello?! I'm genuinely perplexed as to why she keeps giving this moid the pleasure of sex when he doesn't do shit for her. Literally nothing, he doesn't provide for her emotionally or financially, nothing at all. And now she's pregnant again and going on how she will be able to support the baby despite the fact its dad will not even want to be in the picture because he is too busy messaging OnlyFans women on instagram. Both of them live in a shit rural small town area with no opportunities either and she will absolutely have to raise that kid on her own. I don't understand why she couldn't have just waited to find someone decent who would actually be around for a child. I'm baffled.

No. 1083873

>>1083863
she sounds like a dumbass. i hate this forgiveness culture bullshit. there's nothing wrong with revenge. a lack of it is how and why abusers continue to cause wreckage and destruction. these people are enablers. being scared of him is one thing, but just "disliking revenge" is a shitty thing and says she doesn't really care about the suffering the rest of you have gone through. i can definitely understand being scared, but "disliking revenge" as a concept? nah. where is his pregnant wife on this situation? is she showing any signs of wanting to get out or being aware of the fact that he deserves to burn in hell or what?

No. 1083875

>>1083871
i would not be able to deal with her as a friend unless i got something out of it, sorry. how old is she? she's insistent on dooming herself and a child to nothing but circling a drain of misery, all just to satisfy a toilet-demon of a gremlin who is worth less than two pennies and a potato chip.

No. 1083878

Whenever I browse normie forums, there's lots of people referring to partners or friends as "they/them". And I'm pretty sure most of the time they're not actually referring to gendersnowflakes but regular "cis" women/men. It didn't use to be like that and this trend of referring to sane people as they/them just to obscure their gender for whatever reason is so annoying. Just let me know if you're talking about a woman or a man if you're going to share your story online damnit.

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Sometimes I wish I could just fall into a peaceful, slumbers coma. Like I just go to sleep and won't wake up for a month.

No. 1083880

>>1083875
she's 24 and her reasoning for keeping this second baby is just because "she really wants one and can raise it on her own". I know she loves kids but I at least thought she would try and have children with someone who is kind to her and would be a good father to the children.

We live in England and yes you do get a house/support if you have a baby but it's insanely hard to be a single mother anyway especially given how expensive living costs are here! I'm just extremely disappointed in her. I think she has this perfect single mother girlboss image in her head but that's not the reality of things.

No. 1083886

>>1083880
yeah my ex friend was the same and did the same. i mostly stopped talking to her because i couldn't deal with the shortsightenedness and the "i will get benefits/support if i have a kid" mentality. i have no problem with benefits, at all whatsoever, but purposely handicapping yourself and your child when you're JUST starting to get your shit together and figuring yourself out as a person is a horrible idea. 0 stability in that situation and she's going to have to navigate the court system too once he inevitably leaves, then tries to gain primary custody in order to lessen his financial responsibility while also taking 0 care of the child. he's most likely going to resent her for having the kid too shortly after birth considering his overall personality/behavior at present.

No. 1083912

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How is it so easy for people to find someone they like and the person likes them back?? For me it's always been either someone being interested in me and me not reciprocating or me liking someone but them not feeling the same. Why is it so hard for me to find someone who likes me just as much as I like them.

No. 1083915

I've noticed an uptick in people demonizing "ghosting" like it's one of the worst things you can do. The trend seems to be to cling to relationships as long as possible, even when they have run a natural course. Maybe this started with the emergence of social media and the "friend collection" of Myspace and Facebook. It's easier to keep in touch, even if it's a sliver of a connection, and what's your excuse NOT to? What, do you HATE them? When really, I think, why SHOULD I keep in contact with someone I haven't enjoyed hanging out with in 3 years? Why should I stay "friends" with an ex? Why should I have to have a long drawn-out conversation with someone just to tell them I no longer want to be associated? I feel like it's more naturally to just let things end. I stopped talking to some guy I didn't want to be friends with anymore and he messaged me, got his gf to message me, AND messaged my bf asking me for an explanation and I found it entitled and obnoxious of him. I had to plain tell him I just didn't like him anymore and it just confirmed I'm not entertaining that sort of convo again
>>1083878
I think it's annoying, too. Also, "partner". I get it, you think you are too mature for the terms bf and gf but it's obnoxious, to me, people don't really say that where I'm from

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>>1081648
>>1081782

Incredibly kek, he's so thirsty and degenerate!! I spent five minutes snooping his Facebook nonnas, and even from his statuses at the end of 2021 and last pfp, I counted about THIRTY SOMETHING PEOPLE who were no longer friends with him, including a bunch of girls he'd thirst liked everything on, those queens absolutely unfriended and blocked him so he must do nothing but sit at home flaming people and being an incel

I say this because when I put boundaries up he negged me and insisted I was crazy and also (he knows because he's a manager) he shoehorns in comments about my autism which feel patronizing and inappropriate. I mask to high hell anyway and people don't just go up to me and go "you're autistic, nonny" but he feels the weird need to use that as another blame. He also told me maybe I needed therapy because I didn't like him back and maybe I wasn't ready to let someone in. Did I mention I have a long distance bf, he just refuses to accept it and negs?

Negs about a guy being two hours away from me when he went all the way to Germany to get cucked by a German girl who never liked him, he's still salty a decade later kek what a cow

No. 1083935

>>1083915
>Maybe this started with the emergence of social media and the "friend collection" of Myspace and Facebook
You are right. Ghosting was normal in the era before social networking. Now people keep tabs on every single person they crossed paths with, it's a control issue.

No. 1083940

>>1083863
>Understand that he cannot win against all of us.
Men have and they will, you're being naive and reckless.
She's right to be concerned for her reputation and the drama that will ensue as there is still a pervasive belief that scorned women want to ruin men who hurt them.
It would be nice of her to come forward if it helps prevent future victimization but she doesn't owe it to anyone to become a target and open old trauma wounds if she doesn't want to. It doesn't make her a coward because it's a very real consequence and she probably doesn't understand your objectives and what you're trying to accomplish with this information.
What would her anonymous account honestly do? Are you legally pursuing anything or are you just kicking up dust on social media hoping to create a shitstorm that results in some kind of action that someone else initiates on your behalf?
If he's beating his pregnant wife and you have proof of this then this needs to be tipped off to police immediately. Did the battered pregnant woman talk to you and if not, why? The reason why he's a free man is because no one documented the abuse and reported it, which would indicate they were threatened enough to not do so. Now you're asking those same vulnerable women to stick their necks out to pursue your idea of justice. If you didn't report your abuse at the time for reasons then this woman not wanting to come forward to recount hers is just as legitimate.

>>1083873
Not wanting to cause unnecessary problems for oneself=/=forgiving an abuser.
You're victim blaming. Not every woman is up to task to face an uphill battle in a system where their abusers will face a slap on the wrist at best or get away with it then proceed to destroy their victims at worst.
It was up to the abuser to have never abused in the first place.

>>1083871
>When she talked to me about it I told her I personally think no one should be having a child until they can afford to and are in a comfortable spot in their life.
Poor people have babies all the time and many can generally be comfortable and happy.
You didn't keep it to be about the worthless moid. The male is the root problem! You needed to tell her she shouldn't be having children with an unemployed, porn-addicted boyfriend who cannot offer support of any kind. It wouldn't matter if she had money if the man would cause misery and be useless, hopefully you'd still disapprove her breeding with the idiot even if she did have the means.
If she was of the welfare/benefits mentality then bringing up the financial argument was moot and not addressing the root of the issue anyway. And if you couldn't have been honest with her about the boyfriend, then maybe you hadn't been true friends well before this pregnancy business.

No. 1083947

>>1083915
>I stopped talking to some guy I didn't want to be friends with anymore and he messaged me, got his gf to message me, AND messaged my bf asking me for an explanation and I found it entitled and obnoxious of him. I had to plain tell him I just didn't like him anymore and it just confirmed I'm not entertaining that sort of convo again
he didn't get the memo until after he asked, got his gf to ask and asked your bf? why didn't you just tell him beforehand

No. 1083948

>>1083915
You're right about what you say but it's not what ghosting is. It's when someone cuts any contact with you with zero warning when nothing points to the fact that they may do so; not when communication simmers down naturally to the point of no more responses

No. 1083952

>>1083947
>"Hey just letting you know I don't want to be your friend anymore. Ok, bye"
I find that autistic but you do you. I think he should've taken the hint when I wasn't returning his texts as much

No. 1083963

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There's a moid who has been called out for raping his ex and sexting with minors & emotionally manipulate them while having a uwu twansbian persona and I think he came back, I saw him hanging around in an art stream and even a discord server. I don't have any proof as I've seen the drama from an outside position but he looks so much like him in writing, have the same interests (the "lewd scene") and at this point I just need to hear his voice once to confirm or not if that's the same person. Heck even their birthdays are really close (he probably falsified the date but kept the month for his idol utaite persona), I'll have to ask his ex to confirm if their ages match and if he indeed went to art school in the past but idk how to approach that. I really want it to be just paranoia on my side because there's isn't much thing I can do beside warning any girl if he joins a group/project.

No. 1083968

>>1083963
I forgot to mention but he also (jokingly?) pretented to be a girl in the said stream, and didn't bothered to correct anyone after he's been mentionned as such.

No. 1083971

>>1083940
I completely agree that the moid is the main issue but ngl nonny I'm not going to ignore the fact that she is irresponsible as fuck for getting pregnant twice and thinking it's fine to bring up the kid in these circumstances. And maybe it's my unpopular opinion but as a child who was raised by poor parents and spent life in near-poverty until I was 20, I'm not in favour of people having kids until they are financially comfortable. They don't need to be rich at all, but they also should know that you cannot rely on the government to sort shit out for you either. It's not a good life for them or the child. Yes this waste of space of a moid should be held responsible and I despise him for treating my friend this way, I've told my friend that he's a piece of shit and obviously won't want to pay a penny towards his kid but it's like she doesn't care, she just wants the baby. I also asked her why can't she just wait until she meets a man who will be a good person towards her and the baby but she simply said "there's never really the perfect time to have a baby" and that's true but holy shit I wish she would wake up and realise her worth and just get the fuck out of there. I've tried to be honest with her about him and explain he will never take care of her and will always be a pathetic manbaby but she just says "yeah I know" then is back with him a month later, then pregnant again.

No. 1084009

Flirted with a younger kid as a joke and now he won’t leave me alone

No. 1084014

i crave a partner, a relationship, sex, etc
but the thought of even holding hands with a male romantically makes me feel so sick.
when i fantasise about it, i think from the perspective of somebody who isn't 'me', but a variation of me who's more mentally stable, feminine, elegant and graceful. in real life i feel clumsy and awkward and like I'll never be the type of woman who will be loved. and if i do, i know i will 100% turn anyone who shows interest in me because i won't be able to bear the thought of intimacy or vulnerability with them. i dont know what to do nonnies

No. 1084033

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Why have there been so many retards on this website lately spewing moid rhetoric, I can visibly see the site deteriorating everyday and it makes me sad because this is the only online “community” I enjoy.

No. 1084035

>>1084033
No we just have moids visit us often that's all

No. 1084040

>>1084014
Are you me, nonna? I hope things will work out for us eventually.

No. 1084041

>>1084035
Well they’ve been visiting way too often lately and i’ve had it.

No. 1084043

>>1084033
Unrelated but I want to slap the shit out of Hachiko for being a retard and having shit taste in men. She should have dated Nana instead of all these degenerate men.

No. 1084044

>>1084043
based I agree entirely

No. 1084048

File: 1646395347609.jpg (6.06 KB, 259x194, pepe.jpg)

I feel so lonely and all I want is to disassociate. It took me almost three hours today to get ready for the grocery store because I'm a crying mess and even cried a bit on the way there. I don't want to be me anymore.

No. 1084062

>>1083952
>I find that autistic but you do you. I think he should've taken the hint when I wasn't returning his texts as much
pre-emptive autism that might save you from more autism down the line but like >>1083948 said what you're describing isn't ghosting, you're just shy of conflict

No. 1084071

>>1084062
Of course she is, it's normal to want to avoid conflict. The other person should get the hint and not push for further contact, the pushing is what creates the conflict and you have every right to refuse to participate in it.

No. 1084082

IM SO MAD. MY DUMB IDIOT MOTHER GOT SCAMMED FOR £400 WHEN WE ARE POOR. old people full stop shouldnt fcking be allowednon the internet. and she is deflecting trying to 'haha well…' and find excuses everywhere because i can smell the fcking shame on her . she is a hoarder that has 4 cupboards of vitamins and always asks me for extra money for "bills" and then spends the money on more junk to hoard. so she went on some scammer website somehow to buy MORE VITAMINS WHY??? and put in her details, she claims somehow they took 400 fpr 4 bottles of pills and this site has 94% negative reviews. I doubt she will even get her refund. i hate this fcking moron woman and her bullshit draining me

No. 1084086

>>1084082
did she happen to put it on a credit card? can you do a chargeback possibly? you may be able to dispute it even on a debit card. i have done so.

No. 1084142

I was just thinking about an old fuck buddy and it hit me that he was a better and more considerate lover than the man I dated right after him, by a mile. I spent 3 years hearing 'I love yous' from this guy, living with him, going on dates, holidaying together, making plans, but somehow the near stranger that I fucked for a few months cared more when it came to sex being just as enjoyable on my end or everything being carefully consented to and not pressured.. fuck. Never looked at it from this angle but that only adds to how shit it was.

Ignore mens words, look at their actions, if they do a nice thing followed by something shitty that doesn't mean you have to accept the shitty thing. You shouldn't have to sacrifice whole areas of your life because hes ok in other areas. I miss the enthusiasm I used to have for sex. I want to go back to the summer I spent with that other guy.

No. 1084236

>>1084043
I got spoiled about what happens at the end of Nana and it ruined any interest I had in reading it. I hate when people write boyfriends and husbands being shitty and abusive to their girlfriends but she stay s with him through the end of it cause true love or some shit.

No. 1084241

>>1084082
I'm sorry to hear that anon and I relate as I also have a borderline hoarding boomer mother. It's hard to reason with them but I'd suggest forcing her to use privacy.com or a similar app/site. It's a virtual card service that you can set limits on for which sites charge your card so you can avoid hidden fees or subscription renewals. Not sure if it would help but figured I'd suggest it

No. 1084242

>>1083963
>at this point I just need to hear his voice once to confirm or not if that's the same person
samefag he apparently exchanged his discord with the artist he might come vocal next stream what are the odds lol. I have the recording software ready

No. 1084247

The constant stream of bad news lately from everywhere is so exhausting. If I could go back in time, I'd go back to when Holly Brown threads were really kicking off and I'd savor them a little bit more

No. 1084259

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I hate my boobs. I have wide set breasts (picrel) and when they are in a bra they look very round. I feel like everytime a man gets mad at me he starts mocking my tits, saying they look fake or "why do they look like that". I even get this shit from women sometimes. I always just laugh and tell them if they'd seen more tits irl it wouldn't be weird, but it still gets to me.

idk what to do other than cover them 100% of the time. I just feel so shit and I know other people wonder and just don't ask. Megan Fox is the closest I've seen to how my breasts look but mine are bigger. It's just to get cleavage I have to push them together and it gives a really round look.

can any nonnies help? I wish I had cute little titties. (reposting because dropped pic)

No. 1084285

>>1084259
I wonder if chest workouts would make any difference?

No. 1084288

>>1083915
It has become a a bit of a buzzword esp online, like saying someone gaslit you instead of them just being dishonest or saying your ex is a narc and not just an asshole. Half the time it probably isn't the right word for the situation.

No. 1084309

>>1084259
Kek I also have wide set tits and massive shoulders to go alongside it. I feel like I have bara-titties.

No. 1084322

>>1083915
>Also, "partner". I get it, you think you are too mature for the terms bf and gf but it's obnoxious, to me, people don't really say that where I'm from
'Partner' is also used by gay people so they don't get accused of shoving sexuality in everyone's faces.

No. 1084326

>>1084259
>I feel like everytime a man gets mad at me he starts mocking my tits
that actually happens or what?

No. 1084332

>>1084259
If you're into tattoos then having that extra space between them… free real estate

No. 1084334

>>1084236
Spoilers in case other anons don't want to see it but she doesn't stay with Takumi because of true love, so at least there's that. It's been so long since I read the manga but I think in the scenes taking place in the future she even divorced him and got more mature. If it weren't for her first pregnancy maybe she could have had more time to tell Takumi it was over between them once and for all before moving on with Nobu. But I totally understand why you wouldn't like it either way, it starts at a more slice of life thing and then all of a sudden the drama in never ending so there's that too.

No. 1084336

>>1084326
? yes anon, men will definitely go after a womans body when they big mad. It's not a crazy concept.

No. 1084344

>>1084336
Nta but yes it is crazy and I have no idea where you find such men, I just don't believe it.

No. 1084352

>>1084344
>>1084326
I'm not OP i just thought your comment was weird. How much of a shut-in are you that you don't think men operate like this regularly?

No. 1084356

>>1084344
Is this pedo-chan from the celeb thread yesteday that thinks it's normal and romantic for a man in his 20s to date a 16 year old girl? You type exactly the same way and your retardation is on the same level

No. 1084358

>>1084344
sorry ur an ugly fatty and men ignore u

No. 1084363

>>1084336
>>1084352
idk anons I have a regular social life (am a student, have a job, go out etc. so I'm around people all day most days) but have never had moids make negative comments about my body. And I have small boobs and a generally unattractive body and face so should be an easy target for them. So I was just wondering if they're straight up saying that shit to your face or what

No. 1084365

>>1084358
What is this thinking?

No. 1084368

>>1084363
Men aren't attracted to you so of course they ignore you. Men usually act that way when they get rejected. But to come in here and use your anecdotal evidence to call someone a liar is scrote-tier logic.

No. 1084369

>>1084363
I've not had men insult my appearance irl except for comments like I look dull or I should smile more but online, on dating apps etc, they felt brave enough to make many comments kek

No. 1084372

>>1084356
I have no idea what you're talking about. And none of your replies made anything more believable to me.

No. 1084373

>>1084372
No one is trying to convince you of anything? This is the vent thread you retard.

No. 1084374

>>1084363
A scrote I worked with once asked if I had a disease, because I have a small chest. Wtf

No. 1084377

>>1084374
what a bastard

No. 1084378

>>1084344
>>1084363
>>1084372
This is def pedo-chan from yesterday. She larps as a rich NY teenager that dates men in their late 20s but it's just a scrote that wanted to fuck underage Billie Eilish.

No. 1084379

>>1084373
They're trying to convince me it's normal for men to mock women's boobs, which is ridiculous and untrue

No. 1084380

>>1084368
>liar
where did I ever accuse anon? I was literally asking. my god

No. 1084385

>>1084379
>>1084380
leave scrote

No. 1084386

>>1084379
they're not trying to 'convince you it's normal', just that it happens sometimes. i would never disbelieve any negative thing men do even if it hasn't personally happened to me.

No. 1084392

>>1084379
people that come into the vent thread just to nitpick at anons are literal scum. Let women have 1 place they can go and unload without being picked at over every little detail they say. It doesn't effect your life in anyway. Move on.

No. 1084400

>>1084385
Anon there's two of us lmao now I see why you/whoever accused me of saying anon's a liar when I didn't. I'm >>1084380 not >>1084379. Last post because I'm not making this anymore confusing.

No. 1084403

>>1084380
this is the vent thread. Just because your experiences don't match up to a random anons, it doesn;t give you the right to start questioning them
>>1084400
you're both retarded.

No. 1084411

>>1084400
youre still an asshole to come in here and start using your experienced to tell another anon they're not being honest. youre either autistic or a moid. either way leave.

No. 1084417

>>1084403
Other anon here. I have the right to question literally everything and I will.

No. 1084438

>>1083310
Seething straight women like yourself are exponentially more cringeworthy than the women you're replying to could ever be.
>why are separating yourself from straight women just because they’re straight?
Homophobia, which this post is about, retard.
>“oh no, don’t go on your lesbian separatist society no baby don’t leave us!”
Did you get bullied by the mean lesbians or something? How does someone pull this from a woman venting?

No. 1084447

>>1083310
>is gonna make people be like “oh no, don’t go on your lesbian separatist society no baby don’t leave us!”
Kek you're seething like you said people wouldn't. Wrote a whole ass wall of text because some imaginary lesbian wouldn't wanna hang out with you.

No. 1084458

>>1083818
Men obsess and call one another faggot over their clothes. They literally oppress each other lol

No. 1084462

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>>1083310
Reposting, dropped pic. Straight women are likely to be lesbophobic and gay men are likely to be misogynistic. It sucks to be a lesbian and being expected to either focus on the homosexuality part of yourself or the woman part. It's damned if you do, damned if you don't.

No. 1084469

My mother loves getting upset over random shit. Right now she's been screaming for multiple minutes because someone swept the floor and then left the resulting pile to go to the toilet before cleaning it up completely. While this person was gone she stepped in the dirt and now she's screaming about how that shit should've been cleaned up immediately because that's how she always does it and it's how it's supposed to be done and it's our responsibility and we don't care about anything anyway and never help out and can't get off our fat asses. Sometimes I think her head is going to explode from how loud she gets. Over fucking nothing. My parents piss me off so much, every time they get mad they start to guiltrip my siblings and me because we're "grown bitches" and still need money for everything. Sorry I fucking exist, I didn't choose this either.
My mother doesn't care about anything else but the house being clean. Whenever I talk about my problems she manages to get mad too, like I'll tell her I'm upset because I had to work so much today and she gets into a tirade about how much she had to work all her life and how I have it easy and have no basis to complain. Until middle school she used to scream at and hit me for crying because it annoyed her and she wanted me to shut up instead of helping or anything. When all her wishes are met she either manages to still find some random shit to complain about, getting heated if things start to pile up, or she behaves in a girly way, like fucking giggling and singing and talking in a high pitched voice. Everything she does is annoying, I can't stand to be near her. And yet she has the fucking gall to complain about how no one wants to spend time with her. I wonder why.
It's comfortable to stay home because I don't have to buy food with my own money and I get to see my cat, but every time she gets bad like this I want to leave forever. I don't even know what names to call her, she's just barking like a dog

No. 1084471

I hate everything. I don't fit in anywhere and I am disliked whenever I go. I have bad depression and limited social skills and I come from a broken fucked up family. I have always wanted to be an artist or content creator but I am not in the position to and the world is fucked up and you have to pander to people or put up a facade. I hate trannies, I hate LGBT tards and woke tards but so do I hate right winger moids with their MGTOW shit. This world does not make any sense anymore. I will never be able to make money from what I love and I will die from suicide.

No. 1084485

>>1084469
Sounds like my mum she use to beat me until I had panic attacks and then would get more irrate because my breathing was freaking her out. How did you think I felt bitch lol. Move out when you can. It only gets better then

No. 1084508

Lately my orgasms have been lame as hell. I don't get aroused like I used to and I have to go at it for longer. Actual orgasm is lame and not that good if I'm gonna be honest, I think it's because I'm not super aroused throughout. This sucks. I don't think it's about what I'm thinking about that makes it disappointing, I feel like my feelings of attraction and arousal are like… kind of dead. Men don't interest me and neither do women and I feel like I could probably abstain completely from masturbation if I wanted to. I don't want to, I want to feel normal lol. I was literally JUST on my period and I didn't get horny once. I had to really set out to masturbate. This makes me sad, but whatever.

No. 1084510

>>1084485
I'm so sorry to hear! I hope you're in a better place now. My mother only stopped hitting us when one of my siblings started to scream about going to the police or CPS and my brother grew up and started fighting back which scared her. I'm just home during uni breaks and will leave again soon. I'll just miss my cat when I do

No. 1084522

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I'm filth of a human being, pure filth. No amount of trauma I've experienced, no amount of mental illness will convince me that the things I've done were out of pure choice, nothing more.

I'm suffering every day with guilt and disgust with myself. What makes it even worse is that my boyfriend is a literal fucking saint, always giving people the benefit of the doubt, he's selfless, nice. Loving and puts up with my bullshit. But I'm such an evil negative person, I hate myself so much. I feel guilty just being in his life because of how opposite of him I am. Yes he has his faults but he is such an amazing person I can't even understand how a moid like him was created.

God I wish I didn't have this evil disposition. I wish I didn't go through what I went through, I wish I had a different life. Why in the fuck do I feel so fucking cursed. God damn it. Fuck. Why can't I be nice, friendly, relatable, liked… fuck!!!!

No. 1084535

>>1084508
Same. It's coming back from time to time, especially in the last few weeks, but it only lasts for like… a couple of seconds lol. I've never wanted to go to a gyno, but not being able to get horny properly in almost two years even though I've been living healthier in those two years than in all those before seriously upsets me enough to make me think maybe I could bite the bullet after all and go there to get it checked out…

No. 1084582

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i think there's a cat in the solarium.. or a skunk or a masked bandit things. because i once woke up randomly and i saw black/white thing and noticed that the solarium garbage has bin ripped open. again this is the second time.

idk which one it is but i'm scared to go check it out. i hope its a cat so i can help.

No. 1084596

My urine is bright pink and I'm terrified this has been the worst week of my life why is this happening to me

No. 1084597

>>1084009
That's on you dummy

No. 1084598


No. 1084601

Not a day goes by where I don’t think about killing myself.

No. 1084602

>>1084596
hope it turns out ok, wtf did you eat?

No. 1084605

>>1084602
Nothing fucking red that's for sure

No. 1084606

>>1084596
Oh God what if I have a tumor or something, I don't want to have to have surgery or some shit I can't deal with this

No. 1084608

I've never been in a relationship but I've had sex and it makes me feel like a slut when I think about it and I hate feeling like that so much. I know it's my religious upbringing and environment but I can't help but think there's probably some truth to it and it makes me dirty and ugly and I want to cry. I know it may seem like overreacting but it is a big thing for me personally. I feel like a fraud or something because none of my friends or family know and I know it's not really their business to know but I know they won't feel the same way about me if they knew. I don't know, I'm pmsing and feeling extra bad. Been crying for no reason.

No. 1084616

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I'm so annoyed nonnas, there's this random guy online who keeps trying to get in contact with me. He claims we used to date (I have literally zero memory of him), he's contacted old friends who I haven't spoken to in YEARS to contact me including one girl that harassed me, he's contacted this one girl I never liked from highschool to ask my fucking sister at her work place if I'm "okay", he keeps commenting on this years old Instagram account I have that has been abandoned, he even somehow got my number to message me. I don't know who this guy is! I want to be cruel to him and just tell him that I think he's a fucking creep without holding back, but since he somehow knows girls I've been to highschool with, my number and my sister and her workplace then I don't know how 'safe' I have to play it with him.

This happens to me a lot, not even just with moids. Randoms from the internet trying to get back into contact with me desperately when it's clear I don't want them. Because of shitty parenting I've been online everyday since I was fucking 8 years old, of course as a child I didn't have any concept of internet safety and because of that too many weirdos know me too much. I'm afraid he may be a person from back when I was a dumb kid online. If we met when I was 11 or something of course I won't remember you stupid moid. I have no idea how old is he. He's dumb enough to put his full name and face online but he has a pretty good car and job so I doubt he's my age. I don't know what to do. I don't want to have to fake politeness to him but if I'm honest to him that may be risky. This is a nitpick but he types like a faggot scene kid too. He said some "random dude" gave him my number and that scares me too. What "random dude" is out giving my number to strange men?? Ahhhh I don't know what to do I just want to be left alone but people refuse to leave me alone.

No. 1084625

I can feel my friendship deterriorating as I grow to resent a friend more and more. We still talk daily but it's hard for me to take her very seriously. She's diagnosed herself with NPD, OCD, ADD. She's straight but insists she's demisexual and bisexual despite being a massive coomer, having a boyfriend, and never actually being interested in women. She hates her parents but is a neet living off of them, and is an r/antiwork user who makes snide comments at acquaintances who get jobs at companies said to have bad work cultures, like she doesn't get it's working at a bad company or working retail for most people. She has an ldr boyfriend who she seems constantly upset with. Normally I hate moids but I'm growing more and more sympathetic to the BF because she's usually unhappy with him because he's not providing endless validation to her every inane opinion and feeling, like her complaints about movies and shit like that. I think she probably used him in the same way she uses me, as a validation dispensor to constantly expel her problems to, and gets upset when he says his thoughts frankly, unlike me who pussyfoots around the issue. She's just a person who's insanely self centric, with an immense need to feel special and victimized.
Idk, I feel like I'm starting to be so resentful I see everything she says as disingenuous, like she's really only interested in herself and can't actually engage with other people on a meaningful level. I can hardly stand to open up to her too much because I know she'll either say something uncomforting in response, or copy what I said for a new way to paint herself as a victim (When I opened up to her about self harm she went and decided to start calling her skin picking self harm and would start talking it up so much more than I ever did).
Maybe I just need like a break from this friendship.

No. 1084626

>>1084616
That's so fucking creepy, I really have no advice on how to deal with this scrote but wanted to say I feel you. Wish your parents weren't this negligent with internet-use. I'm sorry, anon. My mom didn't gaf what I did on the internet as a kid, I kind of don't blame her but whatever. I 'befriended' so many old pedos online and they probably still have cp of me, it fucks me so bad. I get the occasional scrote from that time to try and contact and it ruins my brain for months. I just block them, only one of them has gotten to a family member. I have no idea what you could do that's the safest, faking politeness might just egg him on.

No. 1084629

>>1084616
change your number and figure out how much shit from your past you can get removed online.
>he even somehow got my number to message me. I don't know who this guy is!
Either someone hates you enough to be giving out your number like this or he's straight up stalking you. Please be careful this could escalate. Limit responses but save everything he sends to you and maintain a timeline in case you have to contact police or get a restraining order.

No. 1084631

>>1081820
I'm on the verge of a complete breakdown. Today I had a meeting where my work was reviewed and even though I checked it for mistakes SEVERAL TIMES before, it was still riddled with it and it was extremely humiliating for literally everyone. I was so fuucking nervous I literally couldn't eat during the day. I have a feeling they are going to fire during the course of the next week. This was the best workplace I've ever worked and I just realized if they indeed fire me I literally cannot do ANYTHING. I fuck up literally everything. I would even fuck up dishwashing.

I call my mother for emotional support and it's like I'm talking to a wall. I'm literally crying and she is telling me why I didn't keep the deadline and if I prepared for the language exam tomorrow. Absolutely no emotional support, just expectations, expectations, expectations. And when I explicitly ASK for emotional support she says things like 'I cook for you' and 'I cleaned your kitchen counter because it was dirty'. For fuck's sake.

I cannot go on like this, anons. I cannot. I'm still crying. I feel like it'll never get better.

No. 1084634

>>1084625
If you can't be open around your friends, they are not your friends. If they don't care about you, they are not your friends. It sounds like there's no friendship on her side, you just perform emotional labour for her for no returns… for what reason exactly?

No. 1084642

I’m going to walk out that door and never come back, I just want to die alone

No. 1084643

>>1081820
>>1084631
Bad mental health and stress make you make tons of mistakes you wouldn't normally make. It's not your fault. Those things usually get better though.

Also your mom is a bitch, I'm sorry you have to deal with her.

No. 1084646

I really feel like I’m going to kill myself soon

No. 1084647

Men have robbed my enjoyment in visiting several sites and platforms. One unpleasant interaction, one rude and unfunny post can really throw me off. I wish I knew how to retaliate. Instead I just close the tab and never visit the site ever again

No. 1084650

hope you lose everything for what you've done to me

No. 1084656

>>1084626
I wish your mother wouldn't have been negligent either. It sucks. Children are stupid because they're still learning, children make many mistakes, yet because of the internet for many children those mistakes are now immortalised. I've tried to completely wipe my internet presence, yet random people keep finding ways to contact me that even I forgot about! The internet is very much a double edged sword. It's harder now than ever to get away from people.
> I get the occasional scrote from that time to try and contact and it ruins my brain for months.
I can relate to this too. I know how it feels and I'm so sorry nonna. It sucks that there's not much we can do about it.
> I have no idea what you could do that's the safest, faking politeness might just egg him on.
This is the problem with men. If you're nice/polite to them they get obsessed with you, if you're dismissive to them they get obsessed with you but also want to hurt you and get revenge. I've dealt with both too many times. The only way to deal with men is to not deal with them at all, I know this, yet a part of me just wants to scream at this stupid man and tell him what he's doing is wrong and creepy because he's too stupid to even consider that himself.

All I've been doing so far is ignoring him, yet the more I think about it the more angry I get and wonder if to him me ignoring him is almost validation to him in a way, because I don't tell him what he's doing is wrong then he sees nothing wrong with it. If I contact him and express that I find what he's doing is disturbing then maybe he'll get a grip. But there's also the possibility that if I express any form of rejection to him he'll flip out. I don't know, I never do.
I'm especially annoyed that this random contacted girls I know and they naively contacted my sister. Do they not realise how potentially dangerous that could be? Why are they so willing to do what this random man says, why did they not consider that I may in fact not know him at all? The internet makes it hard to be completely unbothered and I hate that. One girl sent me what he sent to her and it was pretty much just "I want to get back in contact with anon again pls help". For all they knew he could have been anyone. I wish I could just be a bitch to him and express how I really feel but if I do then what will he do, how will he take it? Men are insanely bad at taking rejection even when I try to be the most polite I can be whilst still being straight forward. They're so bad that I still vividly remember how well this one guy took me rejecting him years ago. I was so surprised that he didn't throw a tantrum at me, that he took it well and was still nice to me because that's how rare it is. Sorry for sperging nonnie, I wish that I could protect both of us from ever being contacted by scrotes from our past ever again.
>>1084629
Will do nonna. Sucks that changing numbers is such a damn hassle. I haven't said one word to him yet, I'm just tempted to out of frustration. I'm also afraid to delete all of my public accounts online because I have the silly hope that one day my old best friend will try to contact me on one of them, but I guess if she's able to then that means anyone can as well.

No. 1084662

the new polish thread on cc already got raided by retard scrotes we really can't have shit

No. 1084663

>>1084647
Me too. This happened to me recently. I used a forum for a niche video game series that I've loved since I was a child and I asked a question, most people (probably women) responded nice and polite but this one guy responded with something along the lines of "I can't believe you made such a stupid mistake". Gosh I'm sorry I made a mistake, if I didn't then I wouldn't have made the damn post asking for help. What is even the point in a response like that? The only 'tip' he gave me was a stupid one that didn't even apply. Maybe I'm too sensitive but now whenever I go on that forum I'm reminded of his rudeness and it makes me bitter and removes the fun.

No. 1084666

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I'm trying to ghost this moid I've fucked once just for fun and he keeps saying shit like "I love you so bad. Never leave me. If you leave me the shadow people will take me". Well hurry the fuck up and take him already

No. 1084668

>>1084666
What did you expect? Never have casual sex with scrotes ever.

No. 1084673

>>1084668
Fuckin learnt this the hard way. Came to a mutual agreement with a moid to be FWB since I got dumped and needed a mood boost. The sec was awful and he kept going soft despite him hyping my up that he was going to sexually destroy me. Fucking loser.

over the course of the following weeks he’d message me “can I have a selfie? I like looking at you”

“Can you bring your perfume to spray on my bed next time? I want to always smell you”

“I miss you”

And then fuckiing cried when I told him he got too clingy for it to be FWB and said I’d never fuck him again. (Not that I’d want to. The sex was awful and he couldn’t make me cum and couldn’t eat Pussy to save his life)

And they call -us- the emotional ones.

No. 1084680

>>1084673
Men are such babies but he's giving you an out. If he thinks he has something that you want that he's withholding from you, he'll feel like he "won." Pure cope obviously but at least he'll fuck off long enough for you to block him without him going homicidally insane.

Or IDK tell him you're breaking contact unless he goes to therapy lmao. Men will act unhinged and psychotic until you say they need to see a psych and then suddenly "oh it's not that bad" and "I can handle it myself."

No. 1084681

>>1084656
You can always sperg at me.
>Men are insanely bad at taking rejection
Seriously. And honestly I don't know if it's feigned retardation or are they really that stupid that they don't realize what they are doing is fucked up. It really makes you want to rage at them to let them know how insane they are even if you know you shouldn't do it. Hope you told those girls to like, don't engage these types of messages again. I really wish at times like these I could just redo my internet presence with what I know now even if it means I'll also have to let go of some of the better memories.
Hope he leaves you the fuck alone and good luck with changing numbers, what a hassle. I think you should delete your old public account atp. Wish I could give you a hug anon, stay safe. I hope no other man from the past contacts you again and you can be peacefully left alone.

No. 1084682

File: 1646416351988.jpeg (865 B, 24x24, 1645461557830s.jpeg)

I'm auditioning for a conservatory next week and I'm so stressed I just want to scream. Everything just goes wrong when I'm practicing and everything just sounds like shit, my instrument sounds all fucked up, I keep messing up and no matter how many times I go over it the notes just wont stick. And I have to play and play until I'm exhausted and everything hurts and I feel like I'm never going to be good enough. Fuck this

No. 1084683

>>1084666
>Well hurry the fuck up and take him already
kekkkkkk

No. 1084684

>>1084682
Wow I love this pic, also good luck nonny just chillax take a chill pill and sleep and then wake up

No. 1084685

>>1084673
How did you get this jaded and… dissociated? about sex?

No offense, I'm genuinely curious.

No. 1084686

>>1084680
Or just tell him "go to therapy lmao" and ghost him that way kek

No. 1084688

i hate waiting for grad school decisions! why does it take so long to tell me if i got accepted or not?

No. 1084689

>>1084685
Nta, but not everyone is "the one". Personally I'm someone who rather have sex with someone I love than with some other person but I can't lie I haven't experimented with people for other reasons. One of them was curiousity, but people can also get horny and just fuck. As long as you practice safe sex everything is fine.

No. 1084690

>>1084469
This is how they try to excert control over their lives bc they realized too late marrying and having kids is usually a prison. Mental illness that's gone chronic.
This type of mother is so common I think we need to make a name for it. Chronic mommy syndrome?

No. 1084691

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so like,im a khv and i feel i will stay as such because im still socially awkward but even if i wasn't,IM AFRAID OF MEN.i have been thinking that maybe i wouldn't even want to be in a relationship because i do need my alone time but dude I JUST WANNA FUCK.you're gonna tell me there are sex toys and shit but i DO want to experience this whole affection/kissing/caressing shit.unless sex robots FOR WOMEN become realistic enough this wont happen.i wish it was easy to be fwb/have one night stands without being afraid the moid will be rapey, abusive, std-ridden, or simply someone who will get attached to you like >>1084666 while u simply wanted to have ur fun no strings attached.i dont even have a decent relationship to my sexuality due to mento ilness and i feel i will stay sexually unfulfilled forever

No. 1084692

My longterm best friend that I've known since middle school has changed a lot and it's a bit saddening and at the same tiring to try to keep the friendship going. For a long time we bonded over liking the same genre of music (it was a subculture kinda so there was a lot of material to talk about), then we bonded over both being pickmes. Now i've moved on from that but she's only radicalized more and has insane political views. She constantly tells me I'm the only person left that she can be totally honest to (she's lost all her friends and a lot of it was over them being grossed out by her political views) and she doesn't know that I'm actually not buying into any of the shit she tells me day to day. The only reason I haven't dropped her yet is because she's very mentally ill (schizophrenia, depression, anxiety etc…) and I'm scared she'll kill herself if I stop talking to her. She sends me over 20 voicemails a day along with other messages, most recently about the Ukraine-Russian conflict.
We currently live 5 minutes away from each other and I haven't told her I'm moving across the world in September, so it's the perfect time to distance myself from her. I'm just really scared of the consequences that will come from me dropping her. She's pretty much the only person that I've stayed in contact with for more than 5 years in my life so that's a reason for my internal conflict too. I'm just frustrated

No. 1084694

>>1084689
>>1084685
adding to this, if you aren't super sure and feel like someone in the agreement will catch feelings just don't risk it. And never have sex when your mental health is fucked up, that can give you a lot of bad consequences.

No. 1084696

I hate the Twitch streamers thread. It's so fucking mysoginstic. I also hate the egirls thread. It always feels like vendetta fagging or straight up jealousy from some posts.

No. 1084697

>>1084673
>>1084666
Why do men catch feelings with sex? I thought they were "alphas" and "sigmas" that didn't care about women or something.

No. 1084698

>>1084689
>>1084694
Thanks.
From my perspective sex is something very emotionally charged, inherently so, so people doing it with so little emotional response is alien to me.

No. 1084699

>>1084698
I should add that I'm a virgin in case that wasn't clear.

No. 1084700

everything in the world is about being born rich or being dead inside enough to sell yourself and grift. Most people are hypocritical but you need to present yourself to society like you're an angel. It's all about money and family. If you're born in a bad and poor family your success in life will be affected so much. The economy is so fucked and the way jobs work is so fucked, there are individuals with skills which never find jobs and so on. Society is a shitfest. It gives me OCD. I want to reorganize it from the basis. It is all about dialectical materialism and we eat each other alive.

No. 1084702

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I am sad to be leaving this place, but I have to keep my promise. Until the end of Lent I've said to myself that I will not use social media, no lc, no yt, no reddit, (unless for school). I will miss you farmers, see you next month ♥

No. 1084704

>>1084647
Posting yaoi is proven and effective

No. 1084705

>>1084698
>>1084699
Understandeable! Tbh losing your virginity feels special with the right person that you love and they love you. Better than just some rando.

No. 1084706

>>1084702
Good luck nonny, also lovely pic ♥

No. 1084707

>>1084702
I've done something similar in the past and it had been effective to an extend.see u anon

No. 1084711

>>1084691
There needs to be male prostitutes that are screened and handled by an agency. Japan already has this with host clubs, they need to expand.

No. 1084713

>>1084711
i've heard jap hosts are shit

No. 1084714

>>1084698
Sex nowadays is just recreating porn. If you show a dude any actual intimacy or caress they freak out/think it's weird/start crying/get obsessed or some shit.

No. 1084717

>>1084713
I saw a docu about it, is it different irl?

No. 1084718

>>1084708
I mean not caring about sex beyond its utility as a recreational activity. Like to me getting attached seems more like how I'd respond, because I respond that way to far less significant things.

No. 1084722

>>1084596
You probably just have a UTI or something which is very treatable. You’ll be okay.

No. 1084724

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>>1084033
It's because of all the moids passing by, I saw men talking about lc in /fit/ just yesterday. It makes me really sad

>>1083310
please, learn to read, you decided to interpret this post in such a weird and deranged way, wtf kek

No. 1084730

I want a baby so bad. I know I still have time and I will have one eventually but I’m tired of waiting for me and my bf to be on the same page about it. Just impregnated me already.

I have a copper IUD which I thought was going to be a nightmare, but surprisingly enough insertion was not bad and it didn’t give me horrible cramps or bad periods like I read. I was on bc pills and hated them a lot so having something non hormonal is really nice. But still, I want a baby.

No. 1084731

Why am I this way, I bought a couple of new items and for whatever dumb really I really want to make an unboxing video and I’m so paralyzed by indecision that I didn’t open my new items yet. I keep looking up how to record unboxing videos like an idiot while getting consumed with guilt and fear that I wasted my money.

Posting this on lolcow is a 4d chess move because now I’ll be too paranoid if someone put 2 and 2 together.

No. 1084732

>>1084722
I just got through a UTI and possibly kidney stones, my Dr gave me no antibiotics, I'm also fighting a viral infection in my mouth because my immune system is fighting against whatever is happening. I've never had this level of blood happen during a UTI, my urine is bright bright pink and when I drink water I urinate almost immediately. I'm in the emergency room now.

No. 1084737

>>1084732
What kind of dumbass doctor would not prescribe antibiotics for you? I’m so sorry you’re dealing with this. Luckily you’re at the ER, I’m sure you’ll be okay.

No. 1084764

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>>1084033
nonna you know exactly why

No. 1084781

>>1084033
Don't look at the relationship advice thread right now lol

No. 1084782

I can tell it's almost that time of the month again because I have the urge to unalive myself kek. PMS sucks ass

No. 1084785

>>1084033
is because of the ukranian/russian situation, is a political issue, which means internet moids

No. 1084797

>>1084781
what's going on, i'm scared to look

No. 1084803

>>1084471
Same for me. Sometimes I consider suicide just because the world is so shit and I don't fit into either category. Doesn't help you have to be one or the other to be accepted anywhere

No. 1084810

>>1084797
If we don't exhaust ourselves trying to fix shitty men then we'll never get married… so never leave your scrote! Just keep trying trying trying trying

No. 1084821

>>1084782
Me too. I suspect I have premenstrual dysphoric disorder

No. 1084834

It's becoming annoying how long /m/ has been out. I want /m/ back.

No. 1084838

>>1084834
The radio silence from admin is the weirdest.

No. 1084853

>>1084834
I think admin walked away from her computer like a week ago and hasn't come back.

No. 1084855

>>1084681
>You can always sperg at me.
That's really sweet nonnie, thank you. You can to me too. I deleted all the accounts I could but I forgot the password to many since I made them when I was a kid, and I don't have access to the emails attached to them anymore either. I also asked my friend if she could delete an old account she has where she posted photos of both of us as kids publicly but she forgot the pass to that too…
Anyway, I checked this creep's Facebook account again and I just saw that he has a gf! And he's had her for two years, it's real, she has photos of them together on her account etc, which just makes him all the more hateable. He said he's been 'looking' for me since 2017. I'm tempted to contact her and let her know that her boyfriend has been routinely being a creep to me for years but if I did it would just 'out' me to him if she told him. If he was single it would still be creepy but then I could just guess he was lonely and decided to get attached to me for some reason. But since he has a gf I'm lost. What the hell does he want? Especially since he claims we 'dated', that just makes it worse.
Whatever. I'll change my number when I can too.
I wish I could hug you too nonnie, may we never have scrotes bother us again.

No. 1084858

>>1084691
why don't you type with any spaces for your punctuation

No. 1084862

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last month I got new laptop and everything was fine until yesterday when I started to have issues with my stupid adobe program and while trying to find a solution for my problem I feel like caused some technical issues myself because ever since it works different. Like just a moment ago chrome crashed and I had to log on every website I was logged in and everything was set back. I'm such a technical idiot so this stresses me out because I need this laptop to get my work done I don't have time for that fuck. I hate this.

No. 1084863

>>1084858
because that's how i like it.when i write i leave no spaces so why would i do it on the computer realised this could make me recognizable here tho thanks for pointing it out kek

No. 1084866

>>1084692
She sounds annoying as hell. I hope your move goes well and you can ghost her. She's not your responsibility. Let her suffer alone, honestly.
>>1084696
I agree. So many threads now aren't full of milk, just nitpicks and misogyny. The age of actually funny and entertaining lolcows is almost dead. This woman gained weight now let's talk about that for multiple days in the thread because that's entertaining milk, right?
>>1084724
> I saw men talking about lc in /fit/ just yesterday
Gross, male fitfags are amongst the worst 4chan posters too. Why can't they just leave us alone.

No. 1084867

>>1084863
>spoiler
If you've posted on the Genshin thread then it does. If not then you have a long lost twin sister who's a Genshinfag.

No. 1084872

>>1084866
>>1084724
Aren't most /fit/fags gay? Why were they talking about lc?

No. 1084881

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>>1084872
Also found a guy trying to pick up 'depressed girls' from here

No. 1084901

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Damn. I always thought I’d have at least 1 close friend by now

No. 1084905

>>1084853
maybe she's taking a nap

No. 1084908

>>1084881
lmaooooo they think it's "us" and not them. to any /fit/fags potentially reading this, it's absolutely you

No. 1084909

>>1084901
i'd rather we use the cece edit

No. 1084913

Just realising that I'm genuinely in love for the first time since my ex gf and I broke up. I wouldn't change a single thing about him.

No. 1084949

>>1084666
The best sex I ever had was with a guy who I thought was a bit eccentric.. turns out he was bipolar and very shortly after our night together he went off the rails. I wished him well and said to give me a message down the line if he's doing okay again… he just kept messaging me to update me on how he was staying with his parents several hours away and not great and then one night he was at a bar drinking and crying all night. I felt bad but like hit me up for sex or stop messaging me please. I couldn't help him from 6 hours away even if I wanted to.

Does biploar make you an amazing fuck if you time it right before the full mania hits.. was it just a fluke? He contacted me again last year saying he's in an open relatonship.. ugh I'll keep my one fond memory of him and leave it at that.

No. 1084968

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I wish men were more sensitive and talked about their feelings. The ones who seem like sweethearts are always worse once you get to know them. This one opened doors for me and always smiled at me but once he started talking, it was all a bunch of boring anecdotes and whenever I said something he'd just zone out and say 'YES I THINK FEMINISM IS REALLY IMPORTANT TOO' when he'd notice I was done lol. Everything he said and did was an act, he'd just agree with what I said and start talking about himself again. The ones who are genuine are always turbo autists, even though I'm an autist too when it comes to autistic men they're insufferable most of the time. They don't care about your feelings, they don't care about your emotional needs. Needless to say they don't care about romance. I just want a nice guy who says what he thinks but is also caring, do they even exist? I've been talking to this guy and I love how uncaring he is, he says exactly what he thinks and isn't afraid to disagree. He's quite intelligent and driven too, and hot as all hell! He just doesn't care about my feelings. I think he's autistic, and where women try to understand others he doesn't even attempt to read the room. He can't talk about his feelings, makes a big deal out of nothing, starts pointless arguments sometimes and I hate it. I don't need him (or anyone) to spend hundreds on a fancy meal or whatever, I just wish men weren't all insensitive retards who can't understand other viewpoints. My grandma always says 'Everything a man has more than an ape is a perk' and god is she right.. Why can't picrel be my boyfriend? He may be retarded but at least he's romantic. Being a man might as well be considered a brain disease.

No. 1084981

>>1084949
I feel like there may be some mysterious weird truth to this. I've also found that for some reason, men with ADHD/ADD are strangely good at sex or ironically enough, better at paying attention to you.

Unsurprisingly the average narcissist moid is the worst out of the lot. 0/10 would not recommend again.

No. 1084985

>>1084732
i hope you recover fast nonna, if it's any help I would highly recommend D-Mannose stocked up in the medicine cabinet for if you get another UTI. That shit saved me a hospital visit when I got a urine/kidney infection, I was as good as new the next day. Haven't had a UTI since.

No. 1084990

I feel like a fake in every hobby or interest i take up, i’m so tired of this feeling wish i took up space unapologetically

No. 1084993

>>1084682
im stealing this pic sorry not sorry.

No. 1084994

>>1084985
Thank you for the tip, nona! Much appreciated ♥

No. 1085005

I fucking hate migraines!!!!!!!!

No. 1085023

I just read an article on the "bimbo subculture" and I am convinced we live in Hell World. Like, everything in Ukraine is an old and known form of horror, but this kind of stuff is a uniquely internet-bred hell.

No. 1085027

>>1085023
The world ended and we all died in December 2012 and went to hell

No. 1085028

>>1084990
For the first few months you're learning something, pursue it yourself and engage directly with other people as little as possible. Engage for instruction only. Then you'll be more secure after you have a little bit under your belt, so to speak.

No. 1085034

>>1085023
I hate bimbo shit. It's so dehumanizing towards women. You must deeply hate yourself to partake in that.

No. 1085039

>>1084608
I know some related discussion happened earlier in this thread, but sex isn't a nothing action that you should have without any emotional connection.
I think you should focus less on trying to convince yourself that you've "done nothing wrong" and more on trying to forgive yourself.
Everybody makes some mistakes when young. You're a worthwhile person who deserves to heal from mistakes and love yourself for everything good you can do, nonna!

No. 1085043

>>108503
ayrt. I hate how people are trying to "reclaim" it but it's still predicated on shit like "thoughts bad, intelligence bad, be sexy".
Everybody should be educated and learn to the best of their ability. ESPECIALLY women.
Also, I hate how the crowning virtue is still something superficial like hotness. Here's my take: everybody is entitled to feel hot or sexy every so often, but it shouldn't be one of the qualities you seek as a base constant state, because there are much more worthwhile things to put your attention towards.
I just hate the whole sinister values lying beneath the """wholesome""" version people are now championing.

No. 1085050

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I hate when my mother makes fun of me for having no boyfriend. What in the no bitches meme? YOU made me ugly and unlovable. Also, it probably would have been good to socialize me a little more, but she wouldn't know anything about it because she's friendless as well. I am so angry, I do not want to go to Tinder to find a scrote and get this over with even if it lasts like a month or so. Why can't no one fall for me unpromptely like it happens for my friends? Oh… refer to the start.

No. 1085051

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No. 1085073

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I really want to leave this place. Pray for me anons. I don't want this prison anymore. The Twitch streamer thread showed me the truth. Most of this website's users are irrational bully chans with a deep hatred of women and I think it has rubbed off on me at a point. I'm tired of hatred and hypocrisy. I wish to never return here. There is no place for me in the world truly. Most humans are idiotic.

No. 1085077

>>1085073
just get a website blocker.

No. 1085081

>>1085077
It doesn't work. I think I need to smash all my electronics and go into a forest. I've been addicted to this place since I was 16.

No. 1085084

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i finally landed a cool job but it's in a city with the worst housing market ever. like 2k people apply for a single apartment and apartment ads are taken down again after an hour because so many people reply to them. i had an appointment for a viewing tomorrow and the guy just texted me that the apartment was gone already - thank fucking god i didn't book a train ticket yet because i would have gone for the cheapest option and those aren't refundable. i'm so fucking stressed. i can't pay 50 euros every day to drive to the city and look at places i won't even get into because i'm trampling through a tiny studio apartment with 50 other people an hour. in addition to all that shit i also hurt my foot and i need to rest it for at least 2-4 weeks, which isn't an option when i'm constantly supposed to run around and find a place to live. it just hurts so much and i'm basically limping at this point. right now i feel like i have to live at a hotel for my first week at my new job, then hand in my resignation because i can't find a fucking place to live. short term apartments like airbnb are way above my pay, hotels will use up my savings within 4 weeks (and that's not considering having to eat…), shared apartment/roommate situations are just as competitive as regular apartments. i can't commute from my current place to my new workplace because that would require getting up at 5 am to be there at 9 am, and i would still be late for work by a few minutes. working remotely isn't an option since i have to learn a lot of new stuff that is difficult to explain when you're not in the office.

i'm just sitting here bawling my eyes out because i thought i could have a new life starting next month but i guess i don't deserve anything good in life.

No. 1085089

>>1085084
Nona, I can't offer but but I hope things will work out for you. Even if not an apartment now to keep your new job (which I'm still hoping for you!!) then a cooler job in the future. I'm sorry nona, shit sucks right now. Praying for the best for you!

No. 1085092

>>1085073
I really don't get that impression. Maybe just stay off of the gossip boards? I almost exclusively browse /ot/ and /m/

No. 1085095

I have a writing assignment to do that requires me to interview a person about their experience in the school system. It's times like this that I wished I had friends. You know, besides wanting to go to places and having fun in general.
It's such a demanding standard. Not everybody has friends or family. They don't know it's a blessing.

No. 1085099

>>1085081
I often browse from the forest, kek good luck

No. 1085101

i just want to feel safe again. my panic attacks. has gotten so bad that i have to stay at my mother's house. everyone's worried about me and i fucking hate that. im becoming such a burden to my friends and family. i just want my stupid brain to work normally.

No. 1085105

>>1085099
Samefag
>>1085073
I had to hide that thread just now, I see what you mean. Enjoy your life nonnie I'll miss you!

No. 1085107

>>1085101
Work on toning vagus nerve, using enteric nervous system to influence brain also good luck to this nonny

No. 1085113

>>1084821
… Do you mean a hormonal imbalance leading to depression?

No. 1085117

>>1085089
thank you, nona. i hope that maybe i'll feel better tomorrow and right now i'm just crying out the stress of the past five days. thing is, my family knows this landlord guy and i've been calling his contacts, but they aren't helpful at all. i also got a reply for a studio apartment which is super cheap (like half the rent of my ideal rent) but i'm getting my hopes up so much, i just know it won't work out. even if she forwards my info to her landlord, they might still reject me because they don't like my astrology chart or something. i just feel like such a failure and everyone will be so disappointed in me and i'll never find a job like that ever again because it's pretty unique. i'm just so upset and sad and stressed right now. i feel like dani in midsommar when she has her final breakdown and the women are crying and screaming with her, but i'm just crying and screaming by myself. i just wish my life wasn't disappointment after disappointment after disappointment all the fucking time.

No. 1085128

>>1085105
f-f-forest anon? are you the girl that has told me to return to monkey and seek a lifestyle away from society? Would you like to talk to me outside of lolcow?

No. 1085151

>>1085099
kek anon

No. 1085163

>>1085128
Yes that sounds fun, do you use discord?

No. 1085164

>>1085073
Then do it already

No. 1085177

Boyfriend and I both came to the conclusion that we love each other platonically, but that there’s not much of any romantic or sexual feelings between us. I don’t know if I’m even into men or even women in all honesty. Im just not really interested in sex or romance anymore. I don’t know what that means. I don’t know if I even believe being asexual or whatever is a real thing.

He understands and there’s no hard feelings between us. We both care about each other a lot. I just wish it could have worked out. I wish I could be normal.

No. 1085184

>>1085163
My post
>>1085128
I went and made a throwaway email just for you anon, goodmud@mail.com - send your preferred contact there, that way we don't have to post tags in the thread.

No. 1085187

I know it's a childish desire, but I feel sad over the fact I've never had or will have a " party lifestyle ". Other people are experiencing fun things and will have stories to tell when they get older. Meanwhile the " highlight " of my teenage years were me abandoning the school because I was dealing with depression and social anxiety. And nowadays I'm loser adult struggling to get a job who needs to lose weight. You could say " well, just go there and do it ", but I wouldn't really enjoy myself. I wouldn't be brave enough to do anything and I'd just feel out of place, like I always do when I'm around other people. It's not only about having a social life. I feel so late and inadequate in every aspect of my life. I can't relate to people around my age. Idk

No. 1085201

>>1085073
>"Will I just hide upsetting threads and take healthy breaks from the internet? Nah, I'll do the most histrionic thing possible and call attention around my leaving while saying everyone's a bully."

See you next Tuesday.

No. 1085222

I wanted to deep clean and was thinking of clothes I could donate and I felt really guilty because the first things that came to mind were all gifts from my mother. I appreciate her effort, but I hate when she gets me clothes because she always picks the exact opposite of what I like to wear, e.g. a color that I hate or a material I find uncomfortable. This probably makes me sound ungrateful and bratty, but at a certain point it's hard to not get a little annoyed because she's raised me all these years and sees the kind of clothing that I buy and wear everyday and yet she still buys me these clothes. I don't even care much for fashion, I don't need or want clothes as a gift. I never even ask for anything for Christmas or my birthday because I don't want my family to waste money on me. Her heart is in the right place and she probably thinks she's being helpful and spicing up my wardrobe but it's just awkward. I don't even know how to bring it up to her because she's sensitive and I know she'll get offended no matter how delicately I word it.

No. 1085260

>>1084764
nta but kek, I made this image so long ago, I don't even remember posting it here. Love u nonnie.

No. 1085284

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Think my dad just overheard me talking about my boob size to my boyfriend

No. 1085287

>>>/m/187104
Even if the quote is based, he sounds like the male version of a pickme tbh. I've never liked the way some scrotes (especially older ones) won't stop complimenting women, it sounds fake, hypocritical and forced as fuck. Every time I heard my older history teacher (a total piece of shit who also treated me like a retard) talk about how smart women are during his lesson, even if it was completely off-topic, I rolled my eyes. It makes one wonder if those men actually believe what they're saying and how they really see us.

No. 1085357

>>1085287
This is the author of Lord of the Flies. He was responding to a question regarding why he chose to feature little boys in the story instead of girls so it wasn't coming randomly out of left field for brownie points (in fact he thought the comment might upset women). He was explaining that as a man he just didn't have the experience to properly write a story centered around girls, and his goal was to represent society at large on a small scale. In a world that has always been a patriarchy, civilization is more properly represented by boys and the inherent violence, conflict, dominance and injury that erupts from their unchecked issues. (He also didn't want to touch on sex and all the hairy problems that entails, especially with the characters being children.)
https://www.snopes.com/fact-check/william-golding-on-women/

No. 1085391

>>1084782
>>1084821
just vented about this last night. then i drank vodka, smoked weed and pms was chased off… for now.

No. 1085406

I forgot I had added this guy that my friend used to had sex with on fb. He's a legit good guy, has a good work, has some nice hobbies, talked to him once irl and he was nice. My friend stopped having sex with him cause he wanted something serious, my friend wanted to get back with her ex, who regularly makes rape jokes, has an alimony case going on, has no job, lives with his mother, and is 10 yrs older than her.
Yesterday the nice dude posted a pic showing his gains, and talking about how he regularly hits the gym. And my brain froze trying to process why my friend decided to let this guy go. Like, she kept telling me he was great at sex, he was interested on meeting her friends (hence, why I know him), he was the kind of dude that would send her flowers randomly without reason. AND HE CHOSE THE DEADBEAT DUDE, WHAT THE FUCK. And I wish I could say shes the victim here, but nah, the victim is me, who has to hear her complain about how her bf has a small dick, about how he's fat, about how he got fired from Walmart,about how he doesn't plan to marry her. You did this to yourself.

No. 1085412

>>1085187
I feel you nonita. Had to leave high school to take care of my sick mother before she died, spent last years working, taking care of her will, paying debts, etc. Now I'm 25, have no studies, and I feel like I just jumped in time, and I just lost 10 years of my life. I have virtually 0 friends, I don't even know what to do about dating,and I have 0 hopes of actually studying. Like having permanent jetlag. It sucks cause now I'm too tired to do any of that, partying, and dating, and stuff. I'm never getting those years back, and I'm stuck like this.

No. 1085417


No. 1085441

Want to crawl into a hole and die

No. 1085445

>>1085441
may i,,,, join you?

No. 1085446

i mourn the person i was. i just want to be sedated.

No. 1085460

>>1085446
Mood almost every day anon, sometimes I think lobotomy was not so bad of an idea lmao

No. 1085467

>>1080277
I just remembered years ago when she confessed to me that she instigated fights between us on purpose. She knew I had anger problems at the time, stemming from the constant abuse I was getting at home, and she took advantage of it to make herself feel better. Pushing me to my breaking point made her feel superior to me, she wanted me to feel irrational and psychotic. She was pushing my buttons on purpose to 'punish' me because the girl she used to stalk started to be my friend. She was jealous of me, but all the while I was trying to convince that girl that she wasn't that bad and that she just had abandonment issues with friends and was scared to lose her. She's such a fucking tool. Like, the reason she stalked this girl was literally because in elementary school when they met, the girl held her hand in the hallway because she was nervous. And she never let that go. She had friends move away from town and that equated to abandonment to her. Something that is entirely out of control of the other person, she sees as a personal attack against her. She grows up to be a self centered asshole who sees herself as above everyone else, and wonders why people have a hard time being her friend. She's the actual psycho. I am not going to feel bad about this shit, she doesn't deserve my friendship. Looking at these stuffed animals she's bought me over the years, I feel empty, honestly. They feel hollow. They aren't sentimental to me anymore, they're just cute toys that I enjoy for the sake of being cute toys. Everything she's ever done for me is shallow. It took 15 years for her to say anything sweet to me, and it's only because she was influenced by her enby friends to be less of spaz. If they knew about her fucked up head they would want nothing to do with her.

No. 1085496

>>1084142

I miss my Summer Lover too. I haven't seen him for so long. I really wish he was still around.

No. 1085515

>>1084855
Usually I believe women should contact female partners of men who seem interested in cheating or bad people but in your case, when he already seems unstable and obsessive towards you do not do it. Hopefully she picks up on red flags for him or she leaves him for other reasons.

No. 1085527

>>1085222
It's better to donate clothes than to leave them dusty in the closet. Maybe your mom would be understanding if you told her you already have enough clothes and don't need more?

No. 1085533

>>1085357
Interesting, I was afraid that the guy in the pic wasn't the kind of man I was describing lol. Thank you

No. 1085559

My mom has cancer…it’s in an advanced stage….what the hell am I gonna do without her. How has she been living with this for months and just finding out now….I’m so lost

No. 1085560

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Looks attract people to you but you still have to have an a good personality for them to want to be around you. I've got neither so I guess I shouldn't worry about it.
I just wish I could work on my shit personality and engage with people even at times when I don't feel like it. I'm jealous of people who can give off this perception of happiness constantly even when stressed because I tend to become extremely unpleasant and standoffish to people when I'm tired. Coupled with the fact I'm not attractive means that people don't approach me often and if they do and I'm not in a good enough mood they won't come back

No. 1085571

>>1085559
Not sure if you want a reply, but I'm sending you prayers anon, in a similar situation with my other parent. I'm an atheist, so those prayers are worth at least three. Hugs

No. 1085573

>>1085559
I'm so sorry anon. I know nothing can really make things easier for you at this point, but my heart goes out to you.

No. 1085575

being considered attractive to men is awful. I heard about a woman that grew a beard to make herself repulsive but I'm only managing a moustache (It's pretty impressive)

No. 1085586

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I’ve been really stressed and depressed lately but whenever I think about men not existing in my fantasy world and my stupid XY brothers finally no longer in our lives it makes living just a little bit worth it. I can just imagine finally being free, it almost seems too good to be true nonnies.. please pray for me and manifest for true female freedom

No. 1085587

>>1085586
FUCK ANON I HAVE SEVERAL BUCKEST OF MANIFESTATION ON THE BACK BURNER, HERE YOU GO! I LOVE YOU! I HOPE THEY ALL GET ABDUCTED BY ALIENS BUT DONT BLAME ME WHEN IT HAPPENS SINCE I DONT BELIEVE IN ALIENS I NEVER POST IN CAPS THIS IS JUST FOR YOU

No. 1085590

>>1085587
ty nonna <3

No. 1085603

>>1085586
I wish I could imagine a world like this too but it depresses me too much that it'll only ever be just a fantasy

No. 1085637

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I hate my career. i've been studying it for 3.5 years and i can't stand it anymore. i'm finishing this year but i dont feel happy or excited just miserable and depressed. sometimes i think about just giving up but its too late now. my parents forced me to study that and im thinking of studying someting that i truly like after graduating.

No. 1085647

>>1084881
"those types of girls" lol except all types of girls come here since half the world has an internet connection, this place has brought in fans and haters of all sorts of internet cows, and this place seems to be the only unmoderated female forum. there's anyone from teens to mothers, from femcels to stacies on here, americans, arabs, dutchies, hungarians, germans, muslims, japanese…

No. 1085681

>>1085647
He's just coping.

No. 1085698

I have been feeling pretty depressed and meaningless. My therapist suggested I look into religion and my friend suggested I try microdosing lol. I appreciate the advice but I guess that isn’t really what I was looking for… I feel ungrateful but it also makes me not want to be open about feeling depressed anymore because I am honestly not interested in trying mushrooms or looking into religion at this point in my life. I just wanted to be open about how I was feeling…

No. 1085714

>>1085698
Kek sorry anon. I'm with you, god forbid you want to deal with depression normally by focusing on yourself or just giving yourself time to work through it, gotta rely on SkyMan delusions to give your life purpose or shrooms to bring about total ego death

No. 1085716

Anons in the relationship thread crying about a shitty dude, then when you tell them yeah its cause he is a shitty dude and he isnt worth it, they cry and call you jealous and bitter. Yeah totes, jealous of your great realtionship. Totally.

sigh okay just go be abused by your nigel, but stop crying about it then.

No. 1085717

>>1085698
i am bouncing off this to talk about my experience with mushrooms and a chat i had recently. microdosing fucked me up, i basically got returning psychosis, or flashbacks. if you have a history of psychosis or schizophrenia in your family, don't even try them. the depression is better than seeing dead people, believing your innocent partner is cheating on you, and everyone is into some plot of defeating you, cheering on and laughing at your life collapse from the stupid shit you did while in psychosis.

my vent is also about this. i went out with a guy after a dance class. we had some drinks and i might have laughed too much, to the point of embarrassing myself, i don't know, he kind of hit on me, and i thought we went out as friends, and did not know how to come out of it. i tried making myself seem useless so he wouldn't try anything. we talked about drugs and i said i could give me leftover to him. he asked if i wanted to do them together but i tried avoiding this because he would try to have sex if we did. also because i did not want to admit to a stranger that drugs make me psychotic. anyway, he did then did the typical guy thing of trying to figure out if i am a whore or not. from then on, it was obvious he did not want friendship, but maybe would have been okay with it, or was just trying to make a connection, i don't know. we both drank and were a bit confused. i forgot to share contact info and he did not ask it either. i thought we would see each other in the next class but he was not there. i hope it's not because i was too weird and rather because he feels awkward about trying to hit.

No. 1085728

>>1085717
oh hey your the girl from class! na i only took of so i can lolkek post all day haha. we should totes have ses

No. 1085737

I am sane!!!! Do you think I'm unlikable and cringe because I type like this???? I'm just so happy??? I'm happy to be here!!! I'm happy to be talking to you. Do I really have to act so nonchalant all the time?

No. 1085744

>>1085737
Nope!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

No. 1085747

I’m staying with In-laws so I can’t complain much because it’s their house but there is ALWAYS people over, annoying ass kids and annoying ass people. I hate it so much I just wanna be alone we were forced to have my boyfriends niece sleep in the living room with us and it’s honestly so stupid, I wanted to get railed and fuck this seriously on top of randomly shoehorning this kid with us, my MIL offered my tablet to her, and let her watch some dumb loud kid shit and then I take off, i come to my sisters and like what does my breath of air ~just like a mom~ Message me but accusing me of cheating. I hate her and I hate living with her. I know they’re generous for letting us stay with them but I wanna kms

No. 1085756

>>1085698
keklol imagine

No. 1085760

>>1085744
Thank you!!!

No. 1085763

any other anons struggling with maintaining friendships? i used to be able to make friends super easy, i got into weeb/cosplay spaces as a teenager and could connect with people immediately. i feel like i've just gotten more autistic with age though. i literally can't stop myself from talking about my cringe interests or hobbies, and even when i AM talking about them with someone who relates i just feel like i can't make those connections anymore. i always end up icing people out because i can comfortably go weeks without talking to anyone, and then i realize that they never say anything and that i was always the one to reach out. it doesn't help that all the friend groups i used to have inevitably split off without me and seem happier for it. i just don't know what my problem is, i want friends but it's like i'm too much of a bitter loner to actually keep them.

No. 1085771

nonnas help me… my bf of 3 years current housemate is an absolute incel cunt. Said guy used to have a nice girlfriend for 7 years who he treated terribly and was really emotionally abusive to. He'd put her down, treat her stupid, speak to her poorly in front of his friends (I saw 2.5 years of this behaviour). She left him and he spiralled into incel culture. After the breakup he was angry depressed and then started to say how he was going to drive to her house and that he wanted to kill her. It was extremely disturbing. He then started being sad depressed and said he was going to get a super fit girlfriend. He thinks he is god's gift to women and has absolutely zero respect for women. It's been about a year since this all started now and he will watch woman hating or fat hating videos on super loud volume and laugh and make autistic comments loudly all the time. His criteria that he wants girls he meets on tinder to be is extremely high and nowhere near what he is offering. He currently lives in his grandmas bungalow (he rents one bedroom to my bf), works for his brothers company since he dropped out of uni, has a shit car, always complains he has no money and never wants to leave the house and do anything. He will somehow find nice, kind hearted girls on tinder that he dates for a while, fucks and then ghosts. It is really cringe worthy to see someone with such a terrible personality and looks actually lead these nice girls on. I can't wait for me and bf to buy a house and never have to see or speak to him again. There's so much more to it but those are the main points, basically this guy is a fucking cretin and I hope everyone in his life leaves him to rot and die a lonely, miserable existence

No. 1085775

>>1085771
No offense to anyone using tinder but it takes a lot of desperation and insecurity to use tinder as a woman. That's why men have such an easy time using them. It's a disgusting app designed purely for men to pick women, take whatever they can and leave them heartbroken. Nowadays any scrote with tinder on his phone is either a cheating husband who's old and ugly or has incel mindset, regardless of looks.

No. 1085777

I had a video chat with a classmate from uni a while ago and my god i acted so insecure during the video chat i couldn’t look at myself i cringe every time i remember it

No. 1085788

>>1085441
>>1085445
Nonnies take me with you!

No. 1085791

>>1085763
I do
I was think about this. I use to be better at intentionally fitting in when I was younger. You could easily match someone's energy but idk if you get older you get more set in your ways so it's harder to make those fake friends since you cba faking pretense. Although there's some people I know well enough but we're not real friends and they share about stuff they do and it's like that sounds fun maybe life is about networking. It's hard tho.

No. 1085806

>>1085717
psychedelics absolutely aren't for everyone and the people that act as if they are universally good are retards. I cannot believe that even medical professionals shill psychedelics as something good. Certain individuals are very sensitive and prone to developing psychosis.

No. 1085810

>>1085775
I'm not arguing for tinder, but is there any better place to meet scrotes online? IRL it would probably be best to just sign up for fun activities I guess

No. 1085823

>>1085810
I've stopped venting to my circle of normies about finding people to date. They get mad I haven't the time or money to join clubs. Or they want me to join walking groups where all the photos show elderly people bundled up for a day in the artic with hot flasks. My mum got set up with her husband on a blind date, what happened with friends talking up their single mates to other single people. I hope things have just been bad cause of covid and soon having nights out and mixing happens more frequently. I always met my past boyfriends through friends and people I know have been so reluctant to gather or my coupled up friends have got so comfortable staying in no one wants to go out. I got tickets to a gig and I don't even know who to ask, it's so depressing.

No. 1085828

>talk to guy for first time on the phone
>both drunk
>he insults my voice saying my vocal fry is annoying, mocks my voice
>speechless cause you know, what do you SAY to that
he hangs up after a few seconds of silence

i really have nothing to say, usually i get compliments on my voice (literally got one earlier tonight lol) so idek where to start. but uh yeah not feeling so great

No. 1085834

>>1085828
What the fuck, that's awful. And he just hung up on you right after? He sounds like a complete ass

No. 1085835

>>1085810
>>1085823
I say friends or friends of friends is the best. Men won't see you as an object when you're friends first or they know a friend of yours. As sad as it is, meeting on bars or dating apps mostly means the guy sees you as your body and nothing more.

No. 1085849

>>1085834
yeah it all made sense why hes still single at 37 lol.. i'm just like kind of in shock because i really didn't see him being the type to pul that but you know, moids

No. 1085860

>>1085835
Exactly. I've had people tell me to join the apps or go to bars and I don't want to immediately sleep with someone. Meeting like that I'm aware of the expectations and the types of people I'd be meeting. I want to meet someone that takes an interest in the full package, mind and body. I have never found casual sex appealing apart from when I'm horny but an orgasm usually sorts that out.

No. 1085862

>>1085835
you need to get quality friends first then, and even then it's not guaranteed they will have a friend of your type… Not that tinder has scrotes like that in my case. Shit is fucked ngl

No. 1085941

Nobody cares about you if you’re ugly.

I’m reminded of this frequently because I am. I spent years building my confidence and faking it til I make it. But there are constant reminders of this fact. I will never be beautiful.

And it’s hard.

No. 1085944

>>1085941
You could try getting fit and changing your styling. I know a lot of conventionally unattractive women who have good friends and even handsome husbands though so you dont even have to make that much of a change.

No. 1085948

>>1085944
I have been. Working out and eating right. I’m like my style and I know it’ looks good on me even though it’s technically alternative.

But it’s hard to shed the years of being treated like nothing. Even now instead of people telling me I look better, they point out loose skin, or my complexion.

This is what has convinced me I AM just ugly. No matter skinny or chubby.

No. 1085958

>>1085948
Yeah get rid of those people. Some people just like pointing out flaws in anyone, ugly or pretty because they like the reaction they get.

No. 1086150

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My friend unironically is starting to call women femoids. This isn’t incel shit this is a woman calling other women femoids because it’s more “diverse”. I don’t understand why the fuck I can’t become unhinged and stop this shit from happening

No. 1086154

>>1085716
I lurk there sometimes but don't understand that thread at all. It's meant to be an advice thread and not a vent thread like this one, but if anyone responds with advice that's not just assuring them whatever hurtful situation they are talking about is normal then they get accused of being lonely, bitter, and jealous. Advice =/= comforting and validation. Sometimes anons can be too quick to tell someone to break up, but even saying a relationship sounds unhealthy at all when anons are describing awful things that make them unhappy will earn you an accusation of jealousy of their relationship

No. 1086181

>>1085806
Do autists have different reactions than normal? Scared to try any drug (pharma included) bc they always fuck me up

No. 1086185

>>1086150
Surely you told her that she’s a dumb fuck right?

No. 1086188

>>1085941
Braver than me. I just turned into a hermit who doesn't care about apperance except basic hygiene. At some point it just felt like a waste of time. I'm glad we have the internet bc I'd definitely offed myself.

No. 1086213

>>1086150
You must be one of those scrotes from /r9k/ trying to integrate kek

No. 1086238

>>1086154
I feel like it didn't used to be like that even a few months ago. It all started about two or three threads ago after some anon managed to rile everyone up and derail the thread for weeks on end, and ever since then the mood's been weird there, even when that anon isn't even participating in the discussion at hand. Maybe people have started to notice that this thread is comparatively easy to bait after that.

No. 1086246

Bring back /m/ already!!

No. 1086267

>>1086150
Kek. Hope your friend one day gets the incel she dreams of.

No. 1086270

I lost my job and I've been drunk ever since also I'm russian and shit sucks I'm miserable as hell. One of my best friend lives in Kyiv and I'm worried. Also guy I used to love turned out to be a fucking war supporter and a fascist and he is going to be drafted to Ukraine any day now. Shit sucks please kill me now. I'm really considering going back to drugs

No. 1086304

Work vent that I just have to get out. There’s this really creepy coworker that’s obsessed with another coworker and it’s just so uncomfortable to watch. Both are female, and the obsessive coworker I’m pretty sure is a sociopath. The coworker she’s obsessed with is an asshole, and she has a baby daddy that she’s dating, so I’m not sure why she is so possessive. The obsessive coworker brings her food every day, asks to touch and talk to her stomach, and has planned a whole baby shower for her, despite the pregnant one herself not giving a shit or helping at all. She is so apathetic to the other girl’s actions. It’s just really awkward to watch. Also, I wish someone would bring me breakfast and lunch and gifts every day too kek

No. 1086330

Celebricows is NOT the euphoria thread.
If euphoria is all you have to talk about then maybe take it to fucking /m/.

Some of them can't integrate either , who are these newfags.

No. 1086338

>>1086330
agreed, i have had to say in twice in the past kek to be fair, i think anyone who watches that show is underage or around 18/19 and think they are now a "true adult" watching that show. on top of that, i think they are definitely newfags like you said, i feel like theres been a lot of twtterfags or something on this site lately, but in that thread especially. euphoria needs a containment thread like the kpopfags used to have.

No. 1086356

>>1086338
ironically enough the kpopfags are more oldfags here than the these new posters.
I feel like if we had the old janny team again maybe they would do something about the newfags repetitive same posts.

No. 1086446

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- makes you a cup of tea, offers you a seat, my cat joins. He likes your shoes, and lays on them.-

I gotta long one, sorry nonnas.
My friend from childhood hit me up this week with some old ass emo memes. Our friendship started from the era of Kerrang posters and studded belts. I loved MCR, she A7X. The iPods? Classic. The cellphones? T9 keypad. Sleepovers and parks at midnight. We went to the Black Parade Tour and screamed our hearts out. (Idc, let teen me live her lil emo life). We were creatures of the night, and I love those moments so much.

Immediately rekindled, joking, making plans to connect. Super!
The night before she calls and wants to talk about some stuff, and she said it was because she had some "social" energy to spare. We talk and 10 secs in we are laughing uncontrollably and catching right up. She shares some fucked up moments that have happened since we last talked, and I listen and absorb. I figure there’s some things that are hard to say facing someone who is reacting in real time.

Then she says "Also (anon), I got fat so be ready. “
This really hurt. It hurt to hear her feel anxious about it, it hurt to know she's been dreading our re-connection because of it, and how she feels the need to warn people that her body changed through a damn pandemic and raising THREE TODDLER BOYS. AT the same time escaping abusive situations on a minimum wage income.
Of course I tell her that she is welcome no matter what size and I’ll love spending time with her. We end the chat on a good note and I get ready for her visit, my bf helps clean the house. I make a little welcome sign on my dry erase board.

The morning of she cancelled, and she said there was an unexpected draft to her account, and she will reschedule after pay day. I offer to pick her up or send her some gas money, and she declines. She says her pride won’t allow it, and she will take me out next week.

I know life happens, but I already opened the nice coffee and cleaned the house, and made the signs, and rearranged my schedule to fit hers. I even picked out my most “’03 emo look” possible. I am worried she will avoid direct interaction because she’s not rail thin like she was in our youth. I miss her, I don’t have social media, and I know her time is limited socially.
(Also, I still stan Gerard Way too not matter what size. Bodies change, and we age. Life happens.)

No. 1086448

>>1086304
I'm pregnant too and I'm convinced there's a ton of women with a pregnancy fetish. It's bizarre to see so many strangers who otherwise won't give two fucks about me prance about the baby, invade personal space, and ask millions of questions even though I know damn well as soon as my baby is born, I'll just be an NPC to them

No. 1086451

God every time I hang out with friends I just fucking hate them and myself for days. It's not even that there's anything wrong with them, I'm just very introverted and an autist and somehow end up even lonelier after hanging out with people. It's like it just emphasizes to me how different I feel to other people and I can't even place why, I just find it really hard to relate.

No. 1086455

>>1086448
Honestly I feel like women are taught to behave that way? Like I genuinely give 0 shits about babies, do not think they're cute, don't want anything to do with them etc. but still when a family member or a friend has a baby I feel the pressure to show I think the baby's soooo cute. To aww around it like the other women.

No. 1086456

>>1086446
Aw, anon. You seem like a great friend. I hope your friend can gain some confidence about her appearance and get more comfortable hanging out, it's so sad to think she's missing out on things and people that would make her happy (and give her a break from three toddlers, holy shit that's an impressive thing to be able to handle on top of everything else you mentioned) just because of her looks. We are all our own worst critics, too, so I bet she looks much better than she thinks anyway. That just makes it even more unfortunate that she feels she has to limit herself. Hope for all the best for you both!

No. 1086457

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No. 1086465

A male friend-of-a-friend with a small youtube channel made a video on female representation in video games and invited a "female, gender expert" trans woman to talk about it. Everyone is praising it because it's so woke and inclusive uwu and I can't stand it. At no point did he think to include someone who was actually born a female in the conversation. It's really frustrating to watch and to know that I can't speak out on it or I'll be accused of transphobia and lose all my friends. I can't speak up on being a woman, because I'm a woman. Oh and guess what the "gender expert" trans said about men playing female characters for their sexual appeal to look at them? "not an issue, everyone does it anyway". The most male opinion ever, gross.

No. 1086482


No. 1086488

>>1086465
Lately I was watching content that I don't usually watch, I think it was about the fnaf game that came out a few months back. I'm not familiar with alot of gaming tubers and one vid had a person called gomotion on as the womans perspective… sounded male but they used character stills. I checked out their channel and they were still 'living as male' or not even even out yet in vids a year earlier. What an ideal female perspective giver.

No. 1086512

>>1086455
but that's the baby itself, not obsessing over another womans pregnancy

No. 1086895

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Jesus Christ do I need to vent. Have someone living with me right now who's gone through some shit, lost over 50% of their possessions and their rental (no fault of their own) and needs to find a new place. They're like a younger sibling to me, so I offered my place to them because nobody else did. I feel like a cold-hearted bitch but I want them to fucking leave ASAP.

I gave them a time limit of 3.5/4 weeks, which they've already used a week of. They're looking for rentals but it doesn't feel like enough. I live in a single unit and have one bed we share. Their fucking cat won't stfu at night and is making my own cat tetchy. Their shit is clogging up my clean spaces. I know they're going through some trauma from this whole situation and are internalising it immensely (so appearing super flat) but they have absolutely no drive to contribute to my unit or cook. I feel like a fucking tradwife. I know they're likely sick of saying thank you, but maybe they could say it to me just once? Make me feel like my good intentions aren't being taken advantage of. Outside of our friend groups, most of their friends I've met seem overly dramatic and flaky. As their older friend with a more stable life, I'm afraid this person is riding my charity as long as they can despite us being friends for years and me knowing they're a genuinely decent person.

We both have mental health issues and I don't think they realise how absolutely nuts I can get when I don't have my space. Because their work computer got destroyed and they work from home, they're on leave so they're around all the time. I'm about to start university for the year, am having health issues, issues with my cat's behaviours, and changing over to working full time. I don't have time to be the altruistic femmegod everyone wants and expects me to be. Being with this person nearly 24/7 has lead me to isolate from the friend group we're both in, who are as close as cousins to me and kept me out of the noose for years. (Yet none of them offered for him to stay with them or help out, which has made me critical of them. If I were in this situation, would they even help me?). I'm also isolating from my family because they're advice of 'JuSt KiCk ThEm OuT' is incredibly predictable and already makes me angry. I stick to my word and will give them the allocated time because though I'm angry I'm not an asshole.

My own home has become a place to flee from. It fucking sucks. I got my own place to get to know myself better after having a really hard 2021 (self harm, extremely toxic relationships) and now I'm fleeing back to an old FB from 2021 because I'm so desperate to leave my place and they've experienced something similar to this situation. I feel like I have no agency in this situation and just need to wait it out the remaining 3 weeks, hence posting her and not Advice. I know after this three weeks my relationships with my friends won't be the same. I don't think I'll ever be as charitable again, or see them as often as I used to. The fact this situation has lead to this makes me very sad. RIP.

No. 1086906

>>1086270
Stay strong nonnie. Focus on staying as sane and safe as you can in these batshit times. You got this.

No. 1087098

>>1086338
Euphoria is for adults and its a very good show. Teens shouldnt watch it lol

No. 1092965

>>1083921

ah nonnas, this scrote's salt is the gift that keeps on giving, another colleague friend came forward to admit he'd been guilt tripping about me, insisting I'd "completely broken his heart" and he's been trying to smear campaign me to his sister who he's done nothing but bitch about and bully for having BPD for a long time, he just continues to look saltier and saltier, I'm so glad he's fucked off but he couldn't do it peacefully if he tried could he? I'm woman number 200 he's antagonized for rejecting him and his incel self.



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