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No. 937713
>>937696Fucking disgusting. Did they think you couldn't hear them or something?
Also on a related note, I notice most of the women at my gym are perfectly polite and fastidious about wiping down the machines they use, re-racking their weights, etc. It's always some fucking scrotes that don't know how to clean up after themselves and it's so fucking gross.
No. 937731
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I'm friends with this girl who is totally a weeb and I cannot stand it. I'm weeb too, but I don't revolve conversation around Japan all the time. I literally am tired of her comparing our North American city to Japan. STOP
On top of that, she fucking slurps her ramen hardcore on purpose and tells me it's because in Japan they do that. STOP.
No. 937734
>>937696I remember at the beginning of my old gym membership I turned up wearing new workout clothes that fit me.. then within weeks I was exclusively wearing mens baggy clothing or wearing shorts with leg hair on show. Stare at that lol
Fuck them and their sad 'who would I have sex with' games. Reality is they're the ones in least demand.
No. 937746
>>937705>I always hate how weak I feel after for "giving in" after things like thisThat's exactly how I feel right now. Realistically I know those pricks mean nothing to me but I'm still human and I still hurt. You're absolutely right about them working out to get women's attention though, and I know that because they were all dorito shaped with skinny lil chicken legs kek.
>>937706I'm actually a lesbian which makes this even dumber because I have no logical reason to care what random moids think, yet here I am…
>>937713I think they were talking loudly on purpose to try and get me to react. Bullies pulled the same shit when I was at school, moids never change. The exact same thing happens at my gym where women very thoroughly clean and re-rack, etc but the men seldom bother or do a half-assed job of it. Actually I take that back, there's
one guy who does clean up and re-rack and he's in his 70s. All the women love him because he's a really polite, old school gentleman who actually encourages and compliments us women on our form.
>>937725Will do! I've already hit a bunch of my goals for recovering muscle lost during my illness and no moid will ever stop me from keeping fit no matter how gross they act.
>>937734Yeah same, I bought a bunch of new gym wear and I barely wear it now. I might start working out exclusively wearing a potato sack kek.
No. 937747
>>937696>I did my best to ignore them by blasting music in my headphones>Usually a situation like this would make my anger go through the roof and I'd probably do something to get myself banned from the gymI admire your ability of restraint. You did the right thing, garbage like this doesn't even deserve one look, they're doing this for attention and because their egos were
triggered.
No. 937802
>>937740>>937799>>937757The thing is, we met when we were 14, and we are now 24-25, somehow her weebness got a lot worse from when we were teens.
Just depressing.
No. 937831
>>937825Keto is the answer [without extremo butter]
I'm a retard waiting for after halloween candy dayz to do the same and lose fifteen pounds again.
No. 937856
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I feel irreparably fucked up in my body image from a lifelong exposure to beauty ideals in media, art, fashion… It seems I'll always feel unsatisfied as long as my body's not like an anime girl or barbie doll like the photoshopped models everywhere. Tiny waists and thighs even though I don't think I'll ever reach that ideal unless I starved. The obvious solution is to just unplug and go in the real world I guess. I hope I can reverse this fucked up view. Even though it is definitely possible for me to improve and get healthier, I need to stop focusing on my looks as the source of my worth. It's hard when that is how women are judged by even here. I think I'd better find other ways to value myself first. I hate this viewpoint that even a fat woman is defined by being fat and will get mocked even though she has other qualities that define her as a person and should probably come before her looks. It's really fucked up but probably a lot stronger on the internet vs real life. I guess I solved my own problem and should log off
pic unrelated, I just like enya
No. 937858
>>937831thanks anon. i might give keto another go, it worked last time i tried it but i gave up because i found it kind of hard to make/find keto food and snacks. ive seen protein bars and stuff that are advertised as keto friendly online so maybe i could order some of those.
good luck with your diet anyway i hope it works for you anon!
No. 937867
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this brings me back to a time when I didn’t even know what suicide was
No. 937872
>>937857Coming from an attractive person: being attractive won't help you or solve your issues. Sometimes it's even worse because you can't discuss mental health without someone bringing up how, "At least you're good looking." Attractive people have insecurities too, and anyone else who thinks differently is ignorant to their surrounding world.
In short - beauty is subjective. You seem to hold it highly, so I'll remind you that even beautiful people are targeted for something they genetically can't help, considering beauty is based on every single person's preference. I would trade my physical looks for great mental health any day.
(Also, unrelates, but I fucking love Enya).
No. 937876
>>937857>Its just embarrassing when they talk about their aspirations and I'm like, satisfied working in social care.It's tough to feel that way and
ahem valid but this is what matters most. If you are satisfied with what you do you are already winning. Think about how miserable you'd be studying whatever the hell computer science shit you compare yourself to. You didn't take interest in it for a reason, so you are fine. Tbh what you are noticing is the trend in society to value STEM over everything else, just because it seems harder I guess intellectually. But the computer nerds would be sweating just as much in your situation and struggle to do it right. It sucks that people try to pit everyone against each other instead of acknowledging that each different part of society is needed to function. I'm sorry it's like that… also fuck, I do relate to the looks obsession. If you're insecure in your career and station in life, it sounds as though you're ignoring that as proof of your value to instead fixate on looks. I hope it gets better for you nonna, please remember that what you do is important and needed, but society kinda sucks and doesn't talk about that
No. 937885
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>>936525thank you for replying, anon! it cheered me up a bit. she didn't comb through old pictures tho; she sent a memory off of Instagram (a selfie) to me via DMs and I replied with an old selfie of myself. I just realized, also, it's been over a week since that interaction and I'm still reeling over it. last night I sent a snap to her and she didn't acknowledge it, so… lmfao
I know I said crushes are fun and I was enjoying having one but now I'm starting to regret it. I can't stop thinking about her to the point of obsession. I need to get a fucking hobby.
No. 937901
>>937857I’m a multi-lingual (future? I’ve got a long way to go) computer scientist and I’m retarded. I have lots of aspirations and but they’re not likely to happen due to my circumstances. However, anon: being content is a good aspiration to have, and however you may achieve that to you. A lot of people will try to make you feel bad—they’re almost always projecting their anxieties into you, by the way—because you are satisfied with your station in life, because you don’t want for something grand. You should never let their judgement impact you in any meaningful way, because there are people who don’t derive their identity from work, and there are people who use their work ad a means for “fundraising”—for food, shelter, hobbies, family, and not everyone has to be militant about it, because evaluating people who do not share your goals or interests by YOUR standards is insane and retarded. That is something I have learnt going to college.
I think something that may help you is trying to shield your sense of self or status from people’s feedback. That can be a recipe for disaster: their approval will send you one way, and their disapproval will send you another way, and no path will be truly yours. So:
> Its like the things I'm good at aren't worth anything compared to the people around me. Are you satisfied working in social care? If you have earned your own approval, then who cares what they think? They don’t cash your cheques, kek. Keep your relationship with yourself independent from external opinions, lest it becomes fragile. People often look for things to derive their identities from when they don’t possess a stable sense of self, and sometimes it can be our looks, because if we don’t have that, what else will we have? Well, a lot of things, actually. I hope you find out.
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No. 937936
>>937929Come on,
nonnie, scrotes are not worth the self-hatred, and being white isn’t what makes someone more or less desirable.
No. 937953
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>>937946you did not have to expose me like that anon kek
No. 937982
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>>937840>>937836Thank you both, it was very kind of you to respond. I'll definitely consider both of these. I've heard that Japanese straightening doesn't work correctly on my hair type, but I have no idea how true that is so I have some research to do.
No. 937986
>>937972Why would she even get
triggered, though? According to your post, she would be getting everything while you get nothing and resort to good old coping and seething on the farms.
>>937976This
No. 937997
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Lost a shit ton of weight (15kg+). While I was losing that weight i felt really motivated cause i thought i'd be happy with the end result. But now that i arrived at my end result i just feel maybe even more depressed than before my weight loss. I'm just not beautiful. I have a lot of loose skin and really don't look good naked at all. Lost some fat on my face and now my cheeks look really weird. I thougt i could get to date people of my physical preferences but no. I'm too damn ugly. I always reassured myself that i was ugly cause i was overweight but even now that i hhave a normal weight i'm ugly. I'll never be like the pretty girls i see in the bus. I'll never have an attractive bf or gf. And honestly if i can't date someone i find attractive i just prefer not to date at all. I really wanted to enjoy my early twenties but now i think i'll live as an hermit in the mountains. Pathetic vent over.
No. 938000
I'm fully an adult and I still have a massive individuality complex. I know it's super immature but I get annoyed when my friends start liking the same things as me, even though I know that's like … a facet of friendship. For example my friend who was, not gonna lie, pretty "basic" - in terms of her style, interests, etc (very much christian girl autumn vibes). We knew each other in college but started getting close during COVID because we didn't know anyone else in the city we had just (separately) moved to. Since that it seems like she has been adopting a significant part of my personality, style, and taste. She says the same phrases as me, has started listening to the same music as me, reads the same books as me, watches the same shows and movies as me, shops at the same stores and even buys some of the exact same clothes as me. I would never confront her about it because it's stupid to accuse someone of liking the same things you do but it's still annoying. I know I should just get over it.
No. 938001
>>937997Anon I'm in the same boat. I grew up overweight so when I finally shed all my fat off I know there'll be some lose skin and shit going on.
I know the feeling of not being perfect like the girls we see everywhere else is overwhelming and it feels like we'll never be pretty. But skin removal is a thing. Collagen is a thing. Dermarolling is a thing. You can do so much more to feel happy. I believe in you.
No. 938051
>>937997You have your health, anon. Which is way more important than the ability to attract pretty partners or have other people think you're pretty. Being "pretty" doesn't mean it's what's best for you. Think of all the harmful and self-destructive things that people do trying to achieve pretty.
Have you thought about any exciting hobbies now that you have your fitness? One trait that the majority of people consider attractive is confidence. Maybe there's a hobby out there that will make you realize your value and talent beyond your looks. There's more to people than appearances.
No. 938063
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Husband likes to watch movies and tv series centered around rich people. The characters in these shows are always the most flagrantly entitled and disgusting examples of humanity and I can't believe people like my husband care to watch this horseshit and their bullshit dramatics centered around their privileged lives.
Shows like this feel like a psy-op to me, like
>omg these poor rich people have problems just like you, dear peasants, maybe one day you could be rich too if you work for them hard enough because they're so relatable huh!
Except they fucking don't and I'm tired of people pretending like these assholes face even an iota of struggle that the common person does. It's not fucking interesting, it's insulting.
No. 938099
>>937856I get what you mean… I don't know if this is helpful at all, but one of the things that helped me was reminding myself of women who I personally find beautiful despite not perfectly fitting the ideal. For example, I think Florence Pugh in Midsommar looks absolutely gorgeous, but she's not really stick-thin.
>stop focusing on my looks as the source of my worthI guess the other thing is thinking about women you admire who don't fit that ideal but are really intelligent, self-assured, etc. Think those kinds of beauty-norm defying 70s? feminists/academic types.
>a fat woman is defined by being fat and will get mocked even though she has other qualities that define her as a personhard agree with hating this. At least if you hear someone make fun of a fat person it's an easy way to tell they aren't worth associating with at all
(also your picrel is gorgeous)
No. 938112
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I’m tired of being berated for being aggressive and angry let a bitch be MAD TIRED MEAN AND ANGRY AND AGGRESSIVE FULL OF SEXY RAGE, stop being jealous that you can’t be as much of a bitch on an anonymous imageboard like I can you have to wake up shut up eat look up and suck and fuck everyday dissociating from your body letting the world fuck you and abuse you andi cant do this the monotony of EVERYTHINGN is fucking killing me the waiting and hearing people talk and waiting for it to end the monotony of it al make it end I’m so fucking tired I’m tired I’m so fucking tired tired of being literate and educated I just want to transform into a borzoi and motherfucking run in a damn field THEY CAN NEVER STOP MEill be free
No. 938192
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>>938099Thank you for pointing that out nonna. I agree, it is helpful to notice that and Florence Pugh is gorgeous. Another woman I thought was mesmerizing was Kate Winslet in Titanic, who was not stick thin either.
Later on after I posted that, I was viewing old artworks like pic related. The bodies look (to me) more natural than what you see now which is often cartoonish anime proportions. Not that some women aren't lucky to be extra thin or whatever, but it's crazy how that became the norm in art at least what I see. I want to see more depictions like these, where women look soft and natural. Seems it's usually less obviously about sexy boobs/ass or alternately, being physically childlike which is what I see by many artists online. That's why I like Enya's style too, because it's beautiful and feminine but in a way that I can enjoy for its own sake as a woman, not for the goal of being sexy I guess. All this has been helpful to see the bigger picture and take my mind off my insecurities, ty! Btw these are only my personal tastes, not saying I'm against other figures but it is unhealthy now when everyone's shooping and stuff. Before that it was heroin chic, right, so it hasn't been easy for our time, but probably never was.
No. 938201
>>938189I feel like this when anyone (gay or straight) happens to just stroll into a pretty even and functional relationship.
Meanwhile I'm here just collecting damage from mine lol
No. 938205
>>938189This is possibly a new low for me but I saw a ftm who I genuinely could not tell was a woman, she just looked like a hot dude. The more I think about it, the more I realize I would love a woman with a male body. A guy who wasn't born with male privilege, who never absorbed all the misogyny associated with his sex, who completely understands what it's like to grow up a woman and can empathize. Who the hell
wouldn't want that? Of course a trans "man" is just a confused woman. I think it would be great if there really was a way for people to completely change their sex rather than just mutilating themselves. Let men fuck other pornsick men in bimbofied female bodies while women enjoy and appreciate each other. I've tried to get into butch girls thinking I clearly just like a masculine appearance but it's not the same and obviously I'd never ask a woman out as an experiment. Biology or whatever determines our sexuality is the worst.
>>938194Of course there are shitty women too but the average man is still a million times worse than the average lesbian.
No. 938230
>>938205Hi, I was on the verge of dating a FTM as a women who is straight. I really liked them at first, but the personality cracked quick when I was too slow to be physical… it was exactly like any fuckboy situation I ever experienced with straight men. The asshole called me transphobic because I didn’t want to rush into sex. (Give a bitch a minute, damn)
Meanwhile messaging my other gal friends trying to hookup.
I’m not saying all FTM because that wouldn’t be fair, but this person was
toxic and shitty. In my opinion, it’s better off they chose to identify male, because women never treated me that way.
Never again.
No. 938232
>>937696Nonnie let’s lift weights together and make fun of them. I hate when men stare at me at the gym, but blasting heavy metal helps me act like I can’t hear them.
(But also next time you should drop weights on their feet )
No. 938245
>>938244Saw this when I was scrolling the homepage momentarily and I relate very heavily right now, just know that you aren't alone in how you feel and I hope you can get the help and support needed to feel better
nonnie, take care of yourself
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>>938159thank you
nonny you too
No. 938282
>>937633I feel so alone when it comes to politics. I live in a homophonic country so when I find people that don’t think my existence is a sin it’s a relief however they tend to blindly follow whatever is being pumped out by the west and are uncritical of what they come across in a desperate attempt to seem progressive and open minded. I hate MENA LBGT+ circles they’re so painful.
I’m also really tired of feeling like a bigot idk I wish I could brainwash myself or something
No. 938298
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Slowly realizing that my female generational curse won’t allow me to experience love or sex in my life and just accept that all the cards are not in my favor and that I’m an angry, dreadful bitch
No. 938305
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>>938303Let’s destroy this world together
nonnie No. 938312
>>938294As someone who was in your shoes just a year ago, I feel I can lend you some advice. I understand you must feel like you can't take it anymore (the mental illness) and you want to talk to someone asap. However, what that lady does sounds extremely unprofessional, most therapists would at most have an official social media account and that's that… My advice would be to wait a little bit more and start with another therapist, I know it's hard, because you only sought help when the glass overflowed, like me. But what you're saying sounds concerning, especially since you're not a religious person yourself, it might make you feel worse in the long-term; and switching therapists is not ideal, you would have to start over for the new person to be accustomed with your trauma and past.
So if you can wait just a little bit more after waiting for so long - you know what they say: you're on the right path when you start encountering obstacles. That's just my two cents, the final decision is yours!
No. 938331
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>>938230you dodged a bullet
nonnie.
>>938314well some FTM pass fairly well especially if you like "soft" men. But if you are a het woman it can only be a superficial attraction. I think when it comes to actual phisical contact it's completely normal to feel weirded out and not attracted sexually
No. 938336
>>938314I’m questionably bi, but never perused it, mostly because I gaslight myself. When it came to that person, the FTM , they definitely knew my position. I told them I felt chemistry but needed time to figure it out. In fact I made it clear that I didn’t them to feel like a social experiment, and they lost patience when I wouldn’t have sex.
Actually, I’ve always felt like a phoney when it comes to my crushes on women, but it’s most likely some internalized homophobia from my childhood in the southern USA . I avoided dating because I was never sure enough and didn’t want to waste anyone’s time or energy. I’ve seen a lot of girls , especially from my years in school, act bi for attention, and really lead other girls on.
No. 938371
>>938231My opinion on trans people is that I don’t have the full scope, and I try to be respectful. (Self aware that I am ignorant on some aspects.)
But you’re right, it would have been a terrible relationship of walking on eggshells.
There was this one butch I was friends with and I was crushing on her. We’d go workout almost daily and she was an AMAZING photographer. Her nature shots were
chefs kissI never attempted it pass friendship though, because I was afraid to mess up such a great bond we already had.
That, and she happened to be in the same social circle as my psycho ex from years ago, and I didn’t want to put her in a situation to “choose”.
Still regret it though, she’s so fucking cool and talented beefcake. Now she’s married and she’s stopped doing any artistic photography and it breaks my heart.
(If you’re reading this I’m so embarrassed but also get back out there and make some art)
No. 938426
>>938419Hormonal imbalances have nothing to do with how ~female~ you are.
By your logic troons are women because they take estrogen.
No. 938460
>>938419Please spend less time in
terf circles, you are not a man just because you have more testosterone than the average woman.
PCOS won’t make you less feminine or less of a woman.
No. 938464
>>938460She needs to spend more time in
terf circles since what you wrote is exactly what a gc feminist would say.
No. 938472
>>938468PLEASE go to a different doctor,
nonnie. there are people who can help you. trust me, one bad doctor doesn't mean there isn't help out there
No. 938505
>>938460OP doesn't sound like a
terf, she sounds like a tradthot.
No. 938513
>>938477Some doctors are the fucking worst. Op, go
Get another doc. Fuck this rude bitch
No. 938567
>>938301I would, but I don't want it to somehow come back on me or something. Sorry, anon. I wish you could see this shit too. Her videos have like 10 views. But her name is one of a kind, so that's why I'm apprehensive with sharing. It's even crazier to me that she's a mental health professional who uses her real name for her youtube channel with her nutty religious rants.
>>938312Thank you, that is actually helpful and I'm glad there's someone here who understands. The main thing that kept me from seeking a diagnosis (other than the type of therapists I would've had to settle for in my hometown,) was the thought that a doctor wouldn't believe me, maybe all of this disordered thinking is actually normal, maybe they'd think I'm a drug addict or something just looking for pills. Logically, I know that's far-fetched, but women are also too often
victims of doctor's skepticism as well. Not to mention that men are the fucking "standard" and we're the "exception." I hope you get what I mean.
No. 938631
>>938629I know right, the worst part is that then they make the characters as OOC as possible, to the point in which it didn’t even make sense to make it in the universe of the character or whatever. Like, at that point just create a new character.
The best way to RP is to do so with a friend who you’ve talked with for a long time, rping with strangers is always tiresome if not utterly cringe.
Specially when they’re unable to make long replies or when they use fucking asterisks, like, shut up, just don’t write anything and block me already.
No. 938642
>>938619You are young? Everyone on this planet will feel what you are feeling in due time. Everyone's loved ones will die.
There is no comfort for any of us, even though we will all suffer through the same thing.
Nobody's going to literally spoon-feed you for going through what everyone goes through eventually.
We empathise. But we don't accept responsibility for your reaction. That's on you and you alone.
No. 938643
>>938587“Everyone is jealous of me because I exist” a whole lot of your problems would be solved if you would express this with your friend if you had a mature relationship with them but nope you probably don’t, your friends aren’t jealous of you, you aren’t the main character, you’re not the
victim for being a skellie, talk to your friend instead of venting here.
No. 938652
>>938642What are you even trying to say? Someone dying suddenly doesn’t feel quite the same as someone dying of old age or even after a long battle with illness.
And it’s totally
valid to feel like this when you have someone die when you’re young and others around you aren’t able to understand it because they’re still naive and unconsciously feel that invincibility. Are you just trying hard to sound edgy?
No. 938653
I hate modern technology. I hate my shitty lenovo laptop where the mousepad is one solid piece, the right button broke within a few months of buying it. But you just know they design it that way because it looks "sleek" without any regard for functionality. My 6 year old desktop with 12gb ram that ran like butter served me well until it crapped out, now I don't have the money to buy a new one.
For work and school you can't get away from having a smart phone these days, my old job did groupchats or whatsapp instead of just finding another person and speaking to them directly like we used to a few years ago. I had one of those shitty nokia 3310 3G, it had horrible software but it could text and store music, that was pretty much all I needed, but now for college I need to be able to take pictures and my school has an app for covid you need to sign in with every day, so I'm forced to use my moms old iphone 6 which is a frustrating piece of shit. I used to use android but iphone makes sure to do everything different just enough so you feel retarded trying to learn how to use every function on the phone, once again with the "minimalist" design instead of just displaying the info every button is hidden and every time you touch the screen it brings up some menu of shit no one cares about, for no reason. Also the timer on this phone is set with rotating wheels instead of just typing the minutes in. So fucking stupid. It's supposed to be convenient but it just makes me angry. The design makes NO fucking sense to me, like the fuckers at apple looked at every established facet of software design and said fuck it, let's throw that shit out the window just to be different and do something absolutely retarded.
And microsoft, fuck microsoft. I was so comfy on my old pc with windows 7, this windows 8 shit is ridiculous. I need to make a microsoft account to access MY OWN COMPUTER, that I paid for, that I already put a password on and am accessing physically. My computer was almost locked this morning because I avoided completing the setup for my computer for months today it forced me to provide the password for my microsoft account and I panicked because I remember being so pissed off and offended that I had to make the account in the first place that I made it something to the effect of fuckmicrosoft@outlook.com (but that was taken) and I thought I didn't bother writing the password down (turns out I did). Like I couldn't get out of this screen, I tried shutting my computer down and it kept coming back with no exit button. I needed to comfirm the password…..on the computer…..that I fucking OWN PHYSICALLY. and if I didn't have the password I'd be fucking locked out. I have a paper to write today. I'd be calling up Micropeenis with some choice fucking words if that happened, hoyl shit. And don't even get me started on microsoft word. I can write a fucking hanging indent on wordpad by pressing the tab button. But that would be too easy for ms word. I have to right click…….with my broken right mousepad button, and go through a menu inputting this shit manually like a fucking programmer to get a tab in my line. What the fuck. Also, this laptops keyboard fucking sucks. It's been condensed so much, the top and bottom arrow keys are half sized and placed between the two full sized left right arrow keys, it's fucking uncomfortable to use so forget about any games that require those buttons. Not like I can play most games on this piece of shit. 8GB of ram allegedly yet I can't run a 20 year old game with the grpahics turned all the way down without the fan going BBRBRBRBRBNRDJBDFKNKNGSKJGDNSKJN the sound is so annoying to my autistic ears so I gave up. I keep making typos on this shitty keyboard because it's just not suited for typing and I;m not used to it despite using it for months. Shit's fucked I payed 400 dollars for this piece of shit (and it was on sale).
In conclusion, Microsoft, Apple and Lenovo are on my shitlist, fuck them all. Firefox is the only piece of software that doesn't utterly piss me off anymore. I can't wait to graduate so I can throw my iphone off a fucking cliff and become a luddit. Fuck modern web design with it's pop up menus and shit. everythings gotta be "sleek sleek sleek" like the fucking diarrhea that comes out of the assholes of the scrotes that designed this shit.
Any linuxfags that want to sent me some links to get started that would be appreciated
No. 938661
>>938643We have found the fat friend.
>>938587I have a “friend” like this too, whenever anyone compliments me on how I look in public she will say something mocking them afterwards. When I’ve expressed I’ve felt insecure about a, b or c has never tried to make me feel better e.g. If I say “I feel I look bad today” will never reassure I look ok and will say “oh well”, but I always tell her she’s stunning if shoe is on the other foot. One time she made a comment asking if I did something to make my lips look smaller whilst I was taking a selfie, which I hadn’t, then started talking about fillers afterwards unlocking a brand new insecurity. These people aren’t friends, they see “friends” as competition and feed off our woes like vampires.
No. 938671
>>938657It depends on the type of roleplay, if you’re doing something that has an interesting plot, you will need better replies than
>nods I get itIf you’re shitposting, it doesn’t really matter, but it’s annoying when you’re trying to make a nice story and all you get are short answers that won’t make the plot move.
So like, it’s not the same writing about how a character is ready to shut down the power of a museum that has an important piece of art, and your answer to that, as the guardian in charge of that area of the museum is
>oh no, this is terrible runsTo answer something like
>she looked around in panic as the lights shut down, she took her gun and ran out of the security’s office, she needed to fix this before the precious sculpture of queen Pixyteri was stolen. No. 938709
>>938684if you can't be honest (and potentially self pitying) on an anon imageboard, where can you be? wonder if that nails for breakfast 'deal with it' uberprick feels great about herself and kicking a
nonnie in a weak moment. I have moments of similar death anxiety, fear, and emptiness too, I hope yours evaporates soon.
No. 938714
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>>938661>We have found the fat friend You mad
nonny?
No. 938719
>>938699>>938703>>938707>>938709Ayrt.
We will all feel the same.Enjoy your youth.
No. 938722
>>938684Come on. Have some dignity. You’re apologising to some ESL fag who would cry if someone came near her. I read your post: you were not whining or self-pitying, you were simply venting about something in life that we all have to deal with when we come of age. The anguish and selfishness is part of it, and it’s up to you to cope with that and make peace with it. And KEK at the “we don’t take responsibility” anon — who even is “we”? This is an anon imageboard and this is a vent thread, no one wants to outsource responsibility and no one wants to be spoon-fed, people come here to be unreasonable and complain so they don’t do that shit in real life. God knows what you’d have said if you weren’t the type of shitty country ESL tards who stutter when even daring to make phone calls.
Anyway, loss is a big part of life, if not all of it. You can never make a commitment to something or someone without tackling it, because if you truly love, you now have someone or something you can not bear to lose, and you’ll lose anyway because death is inevitable. Getting up and trudging on anyways despite knowing in the back of your mind you’ll suffer and lose is a part of life. Ys by Joanna Newsom is a terrific album about loss and death—she wrote Cosmia about losing her childhood best friend in her early twenties. Listen to it. It’ll help.
No. 938735
>>938724>Who made you so bitter? People I love dying.
Gee, why are old people are down all the time when most of the people they love died and all that's awaiting them is their own death?
You'll see.
No. 938738
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One of the main reasons I got my own car was so I didn't have to carpool with my brother anymore and deal with his angsty, judgmental ass but FOR SOME REASON I'm still carpooling with him. I can't relax around him at all, and I have some hang-ups from our past that makes me immediately detest his presence. He doesn't even have to say anything at this point because I immediately get irritable and just want to distance myself from him as much as possible.
No. 938747
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>>938720Picrel is Weyes Blood. I’m kinda in a similar boat. I’m 19 and my dad is in his 70s. He’s gotten weak and slow, and has trouble remembering some things about me. His back is now bent and his fingers crooked. We’ve had a difficult and complicated relationship to say the least, and a while a go he said something to me, “When I go, try to pray for me, okay?” And while I (think) have made peace with his death, it still surprises me to imagine how your world could change like that, like someone would turns light off and the light off….and boom, you’re left alone. It’s all I’ve been thinking about, death and loss, since we’re in the latter half of the year. Another year has and is passing, and you can’t have a future without loss, because that’s essentially what the passage of time is about. Loss stretching into future. I think about graduating uni and I think that my parents would be late seventies by then and possibly dead. I think about waiting for my next pay check to buy a lyre and start making music and I think that next paycheck means another month and means closer to loss, to death. It’s not this abstract thing anymore, it’s very real and concrete, worse; your parents become walking embodiments of potential (and inevitable) loss. And you just have to go on knowing that, and make peace with that. Because your mom’s mom died, and her mom’s mom died, and her mom’s mom’s mom died, and they all still made their way forward keeping this loss—and knowledge of future ones—inside them. For me at least, it only makes sense to derive strength from your mothers, grandmothers, and grand-grandmothers, and those who died and will die. And try to not let the guilt eat away at you, “like I’m here but I could be with my mom before she goes!”
She’ll go, we’ll go, I’ll go, you’ll go, and one day all of these kids will be skeletons. Call your mom or send her a meme and enjoy her boomer-isms. We might, at least, stand a little taller and have fun while we’re here, make our grandmas proud. Good luck.
No. 938778
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Let me preface this vent with this: yes I have made an appointment with my primary care doctor (who will hopefully refer me to a sports medicine/orthopedic specialist) but it's not until monday, I may call to see if I can push it up to the weekend if this continues as terribly as it does
I can't sit, stand, or walk without pain radiating in my ass. The lower back pain shifted even lower now. I've been sitting properly and getting up to move around frequently. I'm in so much pain nonnies, please pray that this subsides and I'll make it to my appointment, or I'll at least be able to see someone this weekend instead!!!
No. 938784
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the job offer i was counting on fell through. i hate it. i feel like such a failure. it wasn't even my dream job or anythin,g, jsut something to pay the bills, and it still didn't work out. i feel like i'll never find anything.
i majored in law instead of doing what i really wanted so it'd be easier to get a job and i still can't fucking get shit. i feel fucking hopeless
No. 938785
>>938729ayrt, and wow my mom also had me at 39. I'm so sorry. Those moments when reality hits you are the worst. I hope we both find a way to cope with it. Love you nonna
>>938747> It’s not this abstract thing anymore, it’s very real and concrete, worse; your parents become walking embodiments of potential (and inevitable) loss. And you just have to go on knowing that, and make peace with that. Because your mom’s mom died, and her mom’s mom died, and her mom’s mom’s mom died, and they all still made their way forward keeping this loss—and knowledge of future ones—inside themYou have a way with words, thank you for taking the time to reply.
No. 938795
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I've had dysphoria my whole life and and I just try my best to repress it. I cope by presenting as a butch lesbian, and I'm actually pretty popular on TERF twitter. But today I went to class and this kid walked in with some blonde "Stacy" type girl who I assume was his GF. Just a normal teenage guy, or so I thought. He starts talking to the teacher. Real cheerful, real upbeat. Discussing his plans for college and whatnot. Then, out of the blue, "he" mentions how "top surgery was the best thing thing that ever happened to me." I nearly spit out my drink. This mutilated lesbian is better off than I am. I'm literally so abhorrent and repulsive that a woman would choose an actual fucking troon over me.
Whenever something like this happens I can't help but feel like god wants to torment me. All these years of repression for fucking nothing. I repeat the same mantra every day. I tell myself that transitioning wouldn't make me happy, that I would still be dysphoric, that I will never be a man. But whenever I see youngshits I can't help but wonder what could've been. Deep down I still hate my parents for not letting me troon out. It's like the world doesn't want me to move on. I've never felt more alone in my whole life.
No. 938802
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I recently saw pictures, both old and new, of the girl who used to bully me in like 9th grade and I was astounded by how dweeby she looked and especially how dweeby she looks nowadays. Suddenly it’s as if I’m looking back at my 14 year old days and see everything in 4D, with a strange omniscience that reveals how she didn’t have a lot of friends, got no attention from boys, and was just angry and insecure. All the dread I had whenever I remembered her has instantly disappeared. I don’t think she has a bf and I kind of want to meet up with her and give her a hug. Back then I thought she was some classic bitchy cool/popular girl archetype, but now I see she picked on me because she saw herself.
Perhaps I’m getting ahead of myself and am projecting too much. Does anyone recognize this? Should I reach out to her?
No. 938818
>>938795Have you tried going to a therapist? not the genderfandom ones, but like, to a normal therapist?
You’re basically being a munchie, would cutting healthy parts off yourself really make you happy? Might as well do like that cow who picked at her legs so much that she got a double amputation, that certainly made her happier and it’s totally not batshit insane stuff.
No. 938821
>>938802I swear this was just posted a couple days ago
>>938818Nta, but what the fuck is a genderfandom therapist?
No. 938823
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>>938795Transitioning won’t make you happy
nonnie, it’s the same as stapling a frankenbaloney or flesh water snake to your crotch and any issues as a result of surgery will only make you feel worse. I would imagine transitioning would actually make dating harder because you would have to find the small percentage of “straight” women who would ever date a ftm, with lesbians it’s straight forward go to gay clubs and find other lesbians. Maybe work on becoming handsome. Nice stylish tomboyish lesbians are more attractive than butch dinner ladies.
No. 938824
I fucking hate when people act all paranoid and shit but I got thought policed in my own home.
>moved to new apartment a few days ago, haven't seen/met any of my neighbors or anything
>have friend over last night, we were talking about the chapelle special and how he has been a misogynist for decades but no one gave a shit but now that he's making jokes about mtfs everyone is demanding his special be removed, that netflix apologize etc
>we talk about how one of the netflix employees who is mtf said chapelle was an idol before this happened, and how it shows that mtfs don't truly identify as female because how could a woman think he was any sort of idol after he's degraded women for so long, some other topics too
>this morning, I go out of my apartment to take my dog for a walk and see a note taped to my door
>2 page anonymous handwritten note from some person saying they heard me being transphobic, how it was harmful to their mental health, and a bunch of links to "resources" on trans shit and about dave chapelle being transphobic - WRITTEN OUT - I can't imagine how long this would have taken - and saying if they continued to hear me "speak transphobically" they would tell on me to the apartment management
>apparently I have an mtf neighbor who is listening to me through my walls or something, we weren't out on my balcony at all. I tested today seeing if I could hear any of my neighbors speak and I only could if I pressed my ear against the wall
>I am scared
wtf do I do anons, should I be concerned for my safety, should I be concerned that I could somehow get evicted for this?
No. 938825
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>>938821A gender therapist, those that will recommend transition regardless of what real issues has a patient.
No. 938834
>>938823I was just thinking about these weirdass toys,
nonnie. I had one with dolphins in it
No. 938844
>>938826I know that feel,
nonnie, I mostly feel disgusted because it’s literally a cult, like, people feel the apprehension when they’re approached by Scientologists, but they don’t when they’re told that trooning out will make them happier? It’s retarded.
No. 938865
>>938840>>938843unfortunately the building I live in is managed corporately and the managers for this specific building are mid-20s white women, and I live in a liberal city so I am sure they are handmaidens. so i'm worried that my neighbor could potentially escalate it to claim I am harassing or creating a nuisance, and from what I understand that can be grounds for eviction. my state has piss poor protections for tenants so that could either work in my favor or against me I guess
>>938848kek
No. 938869
>>938865In that case, i guess you will have to make sure that Big brother never catches you again, it’s time to take hiking as a hobby so you can talk comfortably about whatever you want without prying ears.
Like, i feel like even if you managed to find another apartment, since the city is quite liberal, you might find yourself in the same problem.
No. 938885
>>938880Why would anyone believe a woman over a poor oppressed tranny? uwu You can be a tranny sex offender and they will assist you with accumulating more
victims in fear of seeming transphobic. Plus this person knows where she lives, don’t forget this person is a man with mental issues. (Not to scare anon I’m sure you are fine but I wouldn’t want to aggravate a moid on HRT)
No. 938899
>>938865Okay anon, here’s how you play it. Complain to your landlord/apartment manager that you feel unsafe, you feel people pressing themselves against your walls/hear weird shit at night. Cry if you can,
nonny LISTEN to me I want you to milk your uwu f-f-feminine f-f-fragility, and your e-e-estrogen-fuelled willingness to snivel and fear threatened by strangers. Complain to your neighbours, make friends with them, talk to them about how you’re worried because sometimes you hear someone loitering outside and you feel really unsafe at night. Hell, call your manager right now and ask about cameras, if he asks why then go, “Well it’s nothing really, but I’ve been feeling unsafe because A and B it’s probably nothing hahahaha”
At this point, if this spreads enough for the person to hear, they might approach the apartment manager. If they do then you lie and then snivel and stress your unsafety. What kind of person eavesdrops anyway And if they even approach the manager they’ll instantly get read as the Creep because you’ll have complained by then, and if they bring up transphobia then you lie and cry and say you don’t know what they’re talking about, you’re just an uwu fragile woman feeling unsafe! And it’ll look like they’re an insane creep who heard gossip from neighbours about then loitering outside and approached the manager using “transphobia” as an excuse to cover it up. Good luck.
No. 938930
>>938927You were and I was yours.
Before.
Now it's just… the same shit as on all the other 2 and a half main websites. It's so sad, anons.
>>938921Suck my clit minijanny
No. 938940
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I'm sick of feeling alone while constantly surrounded by people. I find it extremely difficult to make friends and I've been at university for too long without making any new connections at all, I feel like it's just not going to happen at this point. All my old friends live far away and have their own thing going on and I can feel us drifting apart and it sucks.
The one friend I still keep in touch with I can't tell all the things I'm going through because it's already an effort to maintain the friendship, I don't want every conversation we have to end up being me whinging about my problems the entire time. Plus it's just unfair to burden one person with so much. We meet up so seldom I feel like I have to put up a happy front when I'm not. So even though I have a great time hanging out with this person I always leave feeling empty and even more alone.
To top it all off I don't have the kind of relationship with my family where I can talk to them about such things. I'm guess I'm just realising now how hard it is to make friends as a (semi)independent adult.
No. 938943
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>>938909I think the cleverest posters are all busy with schoolwork this time of year. Also you deserve nothing but scorn, you reddit spacing heathen.
No. 938955
>>938943I don't even have a reddit account retard
>I think the cleverest posters are all busy with schoolwork this time of yearNope. Been here for too many years. It's not a seasonal thing, it's a shift.
And I'll peace out eventually. Just -
Just why does it have to meld into the Borg collective
Why am I reading here same things that I can read elsewhere
Are we not supposedly individuals interacting?
Why are those interactions then so predictable and same?
There are 8 billion of us, each unique. Countless possibilities. But I load the screen and get nothing new?
There is something wrong with all of you. Snap out of it.
No. 938962
>>938959Hello.
I type out like this.
The spacing is intended to drum in my point, because my readers are retards.
Get it now?
Quit being a faggot. Use normal spacing.
No. 938963
>>938955People like you are the reason why others are bored of imageboards and get annoyed whenever they refresh the page.
Consider going outside and never coming back.
No. 938970
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>>938955>>938909>>938962Look at you, pretending to be clever when you can't use proper grammar. Your posts are pseudo-intellectual drivel and your opinion is trash.
No. 938972
>>938970idk
nonnie I'm new to this conversation and it tickles me. I was just telling my mother about how I can spot a Redditor and how retarded they look based on their writing style. I said, "You can tell immediately where they came from and you can tell them to go back." Ticklesome
No. 938973
>>938962>>938963>>938964>>938970Cannot entertain,
Felt personally attacked
As you should, you boring bores
No. 938976
>>938972>TicklesomeLol, thanks for the new word anon
>>938973Dude, go read a book or watch a movie
or better yet, go outside if you need to be "entertained" that badly. We're not jesters, just imageboard posters. You can't force funny or interesting conversations.
No. 938978
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>>938955Caca
Caca poo poo
Pee
Pooooooppp haha
No. 938994
>>938977Couldn't have made more of a typical tribalist post eh?
Eat shit
I don't align.
You're so fucking boring.
>>938978Boring
Stop doing what everyone is doing.
If you're gonna insult me, innovate bitch
(USER HAS BEEN PUT OUT TO PASTURE) No. 938996
>>938994You
Are
A
Massive
Faggot
I
Know you are
A male
<3
No. 938997
>>938995I’m glad,
nonnie!
No. 939000
>>938996Har har tranny funny
Nope, same old boring shit, try again
Is there like just 3 things in your mind you cycle, jeez
No. 939010
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Anyways, I have been encompassing my full on nancy drew larp and have been rotting my brain with hours of recycled content from a male micro-celebrity that I find to be incredibly hot and my male counterpart. I’ve figured out his forgettable quirks and controversies, I almost feel like a stalker but that gives me cozy halloween vibes
No. 939011
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>>939010>nancy drew>content from a male micro-celebrity?
No. 939038
>>939002This "faggot" probably made you laugh many times, because I tried.
I notice you're off and repetitive and want to bring back the fun in you, you become even more repetitive and dull, like this sped
>>939004Same 3-4 things on repeat. That can't be interesting and funny to many people for long.
Stop. Or not, but do something else too, something interesting. Show me you're a person, cuz you're acting like a bot.
I mean, you cannot just endlessly circlej-
Oh, sure you can. But please don't do it here. You've got the entire rest of the Internet to do so.
Try being interesting when you come here.
Apparently, that's too much too ask from you boring clones.
Except I know you're not clones and I can't understand why you'd all choose to behave like the swarm.
I don't come here for that, I get that everywhere. I came here for you.
YOU.
(ban-evading autist ) No. 939132
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I cannot stand V-tubers, but the people on a server I'm in keep talking about them, roleplaying them or posting NSFW of them. I don't get it, they are so ugly and over-desinged. I tried to understand why they like it and I got so bored so quickly, for example, I watched a video that said that one girl left her camera on and she was having a massive rage fit, but all that happened was that she got slighly annoyed and gentely kicked a table leg; is this the most interesting thing to happen on a V-tuber's video? Just gentely make some annoyed sounds and playing games? God this is so boring.
Can someone explain to me what's even the appeal of V-tubers or Hololive? At least with Thot Streamers there's a parasocial relationship with another human. I think I am going to mute the whole server the next time someone makes an image chain of memes of these people.
No. 939134
>>939099I'm really sorry this happened, I don't know the circumstances under which the dog was taken or how difficult it would have been to get the dog back but I'm with
>>939131, I wouldn't have stopped until the dog was back with me, I would have made that moids life a living hell.
No. 939197
>>939195I said I don't regret having sex because I saw how tiny his dick is. Imagine trying to date this guy and find out after a month that he's this bad.
Also I already feel shitty, do you have to be this hostile?
No. 939203
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I just feel like this comic
I don't want friends anymore
I don't want to be vulnerable
I do not wish to connect to new or old people
I want to be an hermit, I want people to know me for my success not because they used to know me from x or x place
I hate them, I hate them all
I can't trust people anymore
No. 939226
>>939221Men will literally say anything to get what they want and then say they have postnut clarity afterwards. Gross. The hopeless romantic “I’m not like other guys” but then initiate sex anyway are the worst.
>>939216If you like sex try avoid all situations that could result in sex, it’s easier that way. I will only meet men in public spaces with an activity planned. They can’t come to my house, I won’t come to theirs, and never end up in a bedroom together. When the temptation is there and your caught up in the moment it can be hard not to give in. However if you’re an exhibitionist, well I don’t know how I can help you kek.
No. 939270
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>>939210Being celibate well into a relationship is key but remember that you WILL knock out 90% of men (at least) in this process and many of them who ghost you for not fucking them immediately will be the type who pretend to be in love. You have to learn to hurt your own feelings in regards to letting go of "potential" so that they don't get to hurt you.
No. 939421
>>939415Maybe you can try a guided meditation? Or a short (10 mins) yoga/stretching session. Also try to get some air, stay outside on the sun for some moments just trying to focus on your breathing and trying to put yourself at ease. You can also go for a short walk.
Any of this helps me when I'm anxious too, I hope it helps.
No. 939431
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>be bpdfag who starves to cope with autistic emotions and shitty relationships
>start restricting fluids and weight dips below 80
>therapist threatens to kick me out of dbt, vaguely threatens a section just to be an ass
>about to lose my job
>okay i’ll eat more
>one meal later autistic emotions come roaring back and i feel motivated against my best judgement to continue to not eat for days on end
>80 is a normal weight anyway says my stupid brain
>literally going to lose my job if i take any more time off meanwhile the ex friends who triggered my bpdfaggotry get to work and happily eat 3 meals a day with zero mental anguish
I know I’m a whiny cunt but I just hate my brain so much
No. 939434
>>939205it's not you (probably). windows keeps getting worse and more bloated with each passing year. like most cheap-end laptops can barely even function with the windows 10 they come with. i have a cheapo laptop to travel with, and every time theres another windows update it gets even slower. and the start menu and search functions take fucking forever to open. like seriously, why is a $400 laptop now fucking worse and slower on windows 10 than a $400 laptop on windows xp 15 years ago?
I used to put ubuntu on my laptops eventually but theyve gone all windows vista with that now, its not even faster. I have to use kubuntu for something lightweight and now i sound like a linuxbeard and i dont even want to be. I just want windows xp back.
No. 939472
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It sucks having great ideas and creativity but not having enough talent or skill to properly execute them, I am an artistic person but I don’t really have much faith in my own abilities anymore and I feel like that’s what happens to most artist, every time I doubt myself and say I should have went and pursued another degree my mind can’t stop going back to doing creative things, I was born to do artsy stuff but my life just doesn’t allow that I’m such a gigantic cheeseball mess
No. 939476
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I love women so so much.
No. 939480
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I am not doing well. I have a lot of pain and I think it's time to taper off booze again. I have to do that before I can even think about getting a job I can hardly function
No. 939495
>>939430have the same thing with a rancid smell in my apt on occasion that my partner never seemed to notice. it always seemed to come from the kitchen but i couldnt figure out where. I think it's basically a "drain burp" where a gas bubble comes up from the sewer and it's smelly but then kind of dissipates and there's no obvious source.
All drain pipes have vents somewhere that allow air & gas to be released safely. This vent is usually inside the wall so… it's probably just a sewer burp inside ypur wall. It obviously shouldn't be happening on a regular basis, and the reason for it is probably that your building's main drain line is probably clogged or backed up in some way, which is forcing fermented poo gas back up through the pipes and out the vents. They had to unclog my building's main drain and the whole place was stanky for a day or so but after that the smell never came back so I'm pretty sure that's what it was. Nasty!
No. 939525
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I recently reflected on my life and I realized that I hate what I have become and obviously I'm the one responsible for that (plus my mother who infantilized me). After leaving university, I retracted back to my shell and stayed solidly within my comfort zone for years, avoiding any challenging (social) situation and now I am a girlchild in a fucking adult body. I lack the most basic life experiences everyone else already has had and I noticed that in situations where things are new, I tend to act really dependent and sort of expect others to take care of me. I hate myself. I hate what I did to myself. I hate that I thought of pain as something to be avoided and not something to learn from. I literally have no idea how to behave in social situations and feel like a freak. Also…I used to be such a curious, knowledge hungry kid and now I avoid reading the news and don't have the attention span to read a book either. I'm literally a void.
No. 939551
File: 1634323545214.jpg (50.64 KB, 815x470, apartment.jpg)
>>939495unfortunately I think I have to rule this one out anon, unless the air in my apartment travels in a very weird way. My mom has that sewer burp thing at her place and its always concentrated in the bathroom, where the pipes are, but it's not the case with my apartment. I made a rough sketch of the layout so you can see where it smells. The wall between my bedroom and the living room is super thin, there's definitely no pipes in it. Logically, the stinky air could be wafting in from the bathroom, but the problem is when the shit smell appears, it's only in my bedroom, the bathroom doesn't smell at all plus it still happens with the doors closed. Another weird thing is that the smell does not travel into the living room at all, even though the doorway is open (there's like a doorframe but no actual door) and my apartment is tiny. The stink is literally confined to that small green area, if I step two meters to the left I almost can't smell it anymore. Idk, this shit creeps me out so much.
No. 939571
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I'm fucking sad that this site will probably go down by the end of the year. Where else am I going to talk to smart women? And read their opinion? And help others out? And then give my opinion? social media is cancer and everyone irl is stupid and disgusting. What should one nonny do.
No. 939578
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>>939571Anon, I've been here since 2015 and very few people here have sounded intelligent. In fact, I began to limit my time here because the way that some people project their neuroticism was aggravating and I noticed I was assuming everyone around me to have insidious, ulterior motives when they didn't. This place is okay in doses, but a lot of anons read way too much into certain things, practice bad faith criticism, and are generally unpleasant to be around if you were around for the friend finder threads. Communities which are born from documenting drama inevitably become incestuous and once milk runs dry or the main site closes down and people retreat to their private channels, they cannibalize their own. I've seen it happen so many times. My advice is to spend more time offline. Not everyone is shitty, stupid, perverted, etc and even if you have only one good friend in this lifetime then that's all you need.
No. 939591
File: 1634325648747.gif (1.25 MB, 450x366, 4yehhe.gif)
I want to start going out, meet new people and maybe even date. But fuck me it's all so exhausting. I feel tired almost 24/7 thanks to depression so I just stay at home.
No. 939599
>>939581When its someone's sole form of social interaction coupled with mental illness that tends to happen and its the case for the majority of people who browse this place. Like
>>939584 said, its fair if not everyone is like that, but for many anons this is the only community they're active in because the others suck. This place isn't even perfect because I remember when certain discussions were allowed to be had and now they're an instant ban. I've had an easier time talking about certain subjects offline, despite the fearmongering imageboard culture promoted since 2005 (for me, at least).
There's also the caveat that the people posting here are still real people somewhere, holding the fucked up views which they do, and that can make a person question themselves and offline occurrences. Its not exactly unfounded given how poorly friend finder threads had gone and we do have a personal cow thread after all. Sure, a great many are shitposting, but after some experiences getting to know anons one on one over on Skype/Tox/Discord, there was little trust, high neuroticism/paranoia, but pretty big superiority complexes which played out.
No. 939607
File: 1634326367258.jpeg (21.9 KB, 480x360, 27046885-DBAC-451E-807C-1954C4…)
I NEED TO GET LAID BY A GOTH WHITE DUDE SO BAD PLEEEASEEE
No. 939613
>>939525Been there done that
nonnie. There's a way to fix this especially if you have had a normal childhood and college experience. It just requires reminding yourself to take the first steps and say yes to things that you would usually avoid for your own comfort (not talking about fucking please don't traumatize yourself)
Maybe start by taking a new job or reaching out to friends or new people. Good luck for both of us
No. 939664
>>939645Anon, this isn't the thread to die on your no true scotsman hill.
>>939647 is right about how a good chunk of libfems are pro sex work and pro trannies being all up in our spaces.
No. 939665
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>>939658kek, the art anon also had the same worries and made a version with wine.
No. 939681
>>939664Yes, a lot of libfems are just
>pro bdsm>pro prostitution>pro onlyfans>pro men>pro tranniesetc. It's tiring
No. 939687
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>>939665>winethere I fixed it
>inb4 its menstrual bloodboard-tan is discharge anon confirmed (jk)
No. 939690
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>>939687why is the wine half brown
No. 939707
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>>939695>>939690Y’all’ve been really autistic today, here you go. I added a blood clot.
No. 939717
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OCD is crazy
No. 939726
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I am a maniac, why is this world trying to contain my wild spirit? My face is full of OCD skin-plucking scars, I feel like I’m a powder keg of insanity, I don’t have any of my stuff done, aren’t I thriving? Isn’t this thriving? Isn’t this all amazing? Just keep plucking, plucking, plucking, endlessly until my face is just exposed skull because this world makes me too anxious I can’t do this anymore
No. 939799
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i want to throw away everything i own and live a minimalist life but what if i need this thing i bought for extremely unlikely, very hypothetical emergencies reeee
No. 939801
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>>939799I want more stuff, I want so much stuff that every inch of my walls is covered in stuff.
No. 939830
>>939605I did this when I was 18 and broke and desperate
Changed my email’s password and pretty much everything else. Do any nonnies have any tips to better patch my now-holed opsec with tape?
No. 939837
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>>939578It was the opposite for me. This place made me insane and paranoid at the beginning, which is weird knowing that I’ve been on imageboards since I was a teen and have pretty much have seen everything, so my tolerance threshold was pretty high. But this being a female space coupled with the female-specific neuroticism anons projected…..
nonny, I was having nightmares about farmers stalking me and writing shit about me, all the shit things I hadn’t resolved within my self, like I was trapped here in the nightmare. And I stopped applying to shit despite being broke because I was so paranoid that a farmer was watching me and I’m a literal who. I was so paranoid it was insane.
Now? Boom boom boom,
nonny. Paranoia and neuroticism completely extinguished. The way these things work is that they give me immunity instead of dragging me down.
No. 939838
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>>939801ok but the cat stuff in this pic is amazing, please replicate this irl nonnita
>>939822i already threw away so much stuff (sold almost all phyiscal books/games, sold entire manga collection, sold most of my merch, donated clothes/shoes/bags/stuffed animals). the problem is that i live in a dorm and have the bare minimum of furniture. i use my wardrobe as a storage unit so aside from clothes i also have like an inflatable mattress or an electric fan in there, but idk where else to put stuff like that since i hate having stuff out in the open. buying additional furniture is a waste of money since i will move out in two years anyways and i want to make the move as painless/unannoying as possible. (rn i still live in a dorm because the rent is dirt cheap so i can save more money for when i move out and get my first apartment) i'm still going to try and throw away more stuff, though, i just have to get over my fear that i will desperately need an inflatable mattress or something kek
>You don't have to throw out everything and own no more than what fits into one bag to benefit from minimalistic practices.yeah, i'm trying the 'does this spark joy/is it a necessary item that i use almost daily?' approach for buying stuff. i don't want my room to look empty like picrel, but i feel like my room is just so incredibly cluttered and busy, even though i don't have any clutter. like just knowing i own so much stuff is ticking me off.
No. 939844
>>939838Oh hell yeah anon, I'm already half way there
>>939841I don't think it's dramatic, I've had periods so bad I couldn't walk and have passed out, it's understandable that you'd be feeling such high stress. I hope this one isn't as bad anon. I usually take a naproxen and drink lots of warm water and use a heat bag and that helps a lot, trying to stay still helps as well. Try to distract yourself. And remind yourself that it's only going to hurt this bad on the first and maybe second day and after that you just have to deal with the mess.
No. 939849
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I have a white father/ asian mother and it's always so weird reading people analyse this pairing online
No. 939884
>>939864>abusive brother deadCongratulations for your passing, he needs to rest in fucking piss!!! Fuck your family too, they always have contorted explanations for why men do bad things, he was no broken soul now he’s broken bones!!! You better party and stop worrying about your family, they’re retarded and can’t even be bothered
> the wife’s stupid family of Jehovah witnesses is blaming her for his deathThis made me laugh my ass off though
No. 939886
>>939877Thank you
nonny, I feel for his wife too, he left 2 kids behind. Thankfully yes this is all temporary but god is it annoying and heavy. I hope you never have to go through something like this because of your brother.
No. 939889
>>939884You are right
nonny I should be partying like a wild hog out there. Glad I made you laugh. <3
No. 939919
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>>939916NOW IM READY YEEEEEEEHAWWWWWW BITCHES
No. 939920
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I have to go on spiro for my pcos and I feel like irl Kikomi
No. 939937
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>>939919Nooooo I forgot my gym’s hours changed and I had less than 15 minutes when I arrived. I played myself
No. 939995
>>939992No because you have to really think about what
>>939990 is saying because to some degree it really is true. MRAs are still bitching about the transition of a “matriarchy” while arguably we still live in the ruins of a paternal world, the future will be marked by this decision: do we finally stop including men in the feminist conversation where we can transfer to the next step of liberation or do we continue this bullshit with men? The future is honestly waiting and so am I, this sounds very spergy but I’m just so fucking tired of men. I understand women like you who are very confused and live normal lives where you’re shielded from seeing this reality and are used to never orgasming, but I refuse to be like you, I am tired of this shit.
No. 940007
>>939954Please find a way to see a doctor.
Pink pee indicates the infection had reached your kidneys and waiting any longer for antibiotics could result in serious consequences. UTIs are no joke.
No. 940010
>>939995Are we getting state-mandated orgasms in the matriarchy
nonny? Ride your husbando to increase his score by 10 points?
No. 940090
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it feels like lately something is really wrong with me. my impulse control is basically gone and i've hurt the person i love so much because i can't control my emotions or actions anymore. i've also been experiencing some mild hallucinations particularly about bugs. it could be hearing loud buzzing in my ear, could be seeing a bug on me, or on the ground, or on the wall, feeling things crawlin on me, or seeing things in the corner of my eyes. bugs are a huge phobia so i suspect it's purposeful torture. i have very realistic dreams and apparently my rem cycle is fucked cuz i'll sleep for 15 minutes and have the most intense dreams i've ever had. my paranoia of being hurt by the people i love is getting worse too. like sometimes i'm genuinely convinced that they want to hurt me and are out to get me, and i'm scared of going out in public much since someone could kill me. i was warned by psychiatrists years ago after a lot of testing that there was a chance i'd develop some form of psychotic disorder in my early 20's i guess due to genetic history (my dad's side is entirely mentally ill batshit insane) and the symptoms i already had as a teenager. plsu a lot of childhood abuse catching up to me it's like i'm starting to remember things i had repressed for so long. it scares me that i might go absolutely insane it's making it worse. even physically i feel something is wrong, i get a lot of random pains, i can't eat much bc i have no appetite, i have very often tinnitus, i feel itchy all the time, my hair is falling out. but then i'm like oh i might be crazy it's not real. i'm losing my shit and i have no one to turn to about this no one ever takes me seriously and i pushed away some of my greatest friends due to all of this. i'm so empty
No. 940109
>>940107>I’ll just say it didn’t work out well.What happened to her?
>>940106>latent schizophrenia that got revealed through LSD and weedNta and I don't have schizophrenia or am at risk but something happened to me after a big bad trip that I feel like after that happened I'm just not the same. Not in the "dude weed" or "spiritual" sense but like, my eyes are different, my vision is different, my brain is a bit foggy like just a bit but I can function like normal. I'm not a weed smoker at all, I took a lot of weed edibles that time though
No. 940134
>>940078Sounds asinine but maybe practice mindfulness. There's anticipating problems that may arise and ruminating over them. I used have what you're describing because I was in a shitty workplace, then did mindfulness and just sort of stayed in the present. If things got shitty, then they were shitty in that moment, and that moment will pass. When lying in your bed, where you are phsyically isn't shitty for you, you know? There's no need to place yourself mentally in a shitty place.
That said, I fell out of the habit and now seethe frequently over past and future slights.
No. 940161
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I had a vivid dream where there was a terrorist attack inside a mysterious garage and I saw a bunch of people getting shot and dropping like flies and this one military dude who ignited some kind of bomb that was strapped to his chest and he caught on fire and let out a blood-curdling scream that was so vivid. Why do I keep having dreams about mass shootings or people getting killed?
No. 940163
>>938838Where I live, listening in on other people's apartments on purpose is a crime. If you didn't get rid of the threat note yet, I'd maybe use it to file a restraining order or something similar, it's very incriminating to whoever wrote it. It's worded like blackmail.
I know a lot of people are taught to be polite growing up and to just keep their head down, but your home is your one safe haven, and intruding on that is really crossing the line.
No. 940168
>>940134I used to meditate and it helped a bit but lately I just can't seem 5o do anything about it.
Not to be dramatic but I feel like I'm on a verge of a breakdown these few weeks so I'm looking forward to it happening and passing and feeling a bit better afterwards. Now meditation just makes me feel frustrated.
No. 940230
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The second I woke up I did about 3 hours and 45 minutes of cleaning. I was able to make 1 room look clean, but also ended up moving a lot of the clutter to a different room, so I'll have to clean that too. I'm currently taking a 2 hour and 30-minute break after cleaning that first room and I'll start working again in around 10 minutes, but I really dread it
No. 940270
>>940269People still egg houses?
I never see kids trick or treat anymore around my area
No. 940287
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7 years ago TODAY I was bailing myself and a shot head boyfriend out of jail. I spent so much money to take him to his favorite band -on his birthday- VIP, front row, king suite at the hotel.
Next day we were driving home and got pulled over. We were smoking a J like dumbasses, so naturally they search the car.
This dumb fuck had cocaine on him (I never used, and he had a cold and COULDNT FUCKING USE IT) and he had a scale that HE FORGOT HE HAD ,
I’m trying my best to be nice and warm with the officers and he’s being a dick. 3 felony charges later, processing and sitting in the jail for the first time, I use all my savings left to bail us out. It’s 3 am and we are finally getting home and he decided to go on about how it’s my fault and he couldn’t believe I was flirting with the Sheriff charging us.
Fuck him.
We obviously broke up not much after.
Fast forward to now, and I saw a photo of him. Finally, his ugly, terrible soul and insides matches the outsides. He’s balding and drug abuse as not been kind.
Whew, lord mercy what a bullet dodged.
No. 940345
I started a new job about a month ago and already have to leave. I ended up working with an old ex of mine but it's been nearly two years. It did not end well, yet we talked it out a year after the fact. I guess he couldn't still let it go though since I was consistently sexually harassed at work when no one was around. He helicoptered near any other employees who might talk to me, acting kind and friendly otherwise. It helped the first few days since I was new, but the second others were out of earshot, he would give me gross compliments, talk about how he knew we would end up together and how I still want to fuck him, how he would impregnate me, while conspiring to trick a lesbian coworker out of a relationship by being a 'friend' in order to fuck her too. Would corner me during breaks or types of activities where we're spread out. He said I owed him my time, that I need to unblock him so we can talk more, to meet up alone outside of work and I refused, told him to back off I don't know how many times in so many ways. There's such a huge list of things he said specifically about not just me that were so gross I physically couldn't stomach being around that.
I started getting so anxious before work I'd get sick and call off. Couldn't handle my performance being low so I contacted corporate, filed an extensive HR complaint with all the evidence available with dates etc. An investigation was launched but of course he said 100% of it didn't happen and they told me to "be a professional" and basically deal with it. I'm qualified to work other departments, including those at other facilities owned by the same company, and they said no. So I still get to sit 2 feet away from this asshole.
Now get this – legally we cannot disclose any of this to other coworkers. Retaliation is unacceptable and so is another instance of him harassing me. I wasn't allowed to work during their "investigation" while he got to stay, so guess who told everyone everything by the time I got back? So my last day at work this week, 90% of them did not speak to me whatsoever. He also started a month before I did so he managed to charm them when he heard I was joining, he even told me he made sure to fill them in. So this fool has been lying on my character before I had a chance and now it's even worse. I look stupid, feel more uncomfortable, and can't say shit.
No. 940355
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>anons defending the twitch streamer who attended some brothel
No. 940364
>>940353Wow you were really bovvered enough by people pointing out buying crap is harmful that you went to another thread to whine about it. Sad!
Maybe the reason ypu're so bovvered and don't just ignore the posts ypu don't like is because you know you're being retarded and immature.
No. 940371
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>>940355Do you think he could be fixed?
No. 940391
>>940355This fuels me with rage
But then I remember the guy I'm having casual sex with is also a twich streamer who visited a brothel
No. 940405
File: 1634408260274.gif (2.95 MB, 600x338, 1606159040413.gif)
>>940384>we'rekys deformed y-chromosome
No. 940423
>>940384people like you who group women toghether into a whore-only category piss me off
belive it or not, besides the stupid onlyfans-havers on twitter, real women do other stuff besides have sex.
No. 940429
>>940371this cumbrained idiot
triggers me way more than he should. I guess everything that's not compatible with the blind pursuit of hedonism at all costs is "nofap energy"
>>940384kill yourself
No. 940434
>>940431use it*
my money, when I finally have money I have no time to enjoy it
No. 940453
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>>940384Even as a tranny you must admit that grabbing that rope and finally relieving yourself of your necro sex fetish is the only thing you’re good for. Go shove down your heart-stopping horsepiss pills and rot in loneliness, bastard.
No. 940487
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I was just chilling, and then suddenly I just remembered when my dad once decided to play on "prank" on me by coming into the house with a chainsaw and saying stuff like "I'm tired of this family" or "Why couldn't you be good?" I just remember feeling numb and repeating "I'm sorry" and "I love you." I pissed my pants.
Then my mom came in and made him stop. Straight up thought they were going to get divorced after that for a quick min—good dad, but Jesus Christ, the audacity of some men.
No. 940494
>>940487It would be kind of funny to do that if your kids were obsessed with serial killers and such.
That would definitely make them stop being into that.
No. 940500
>>940489>>940494lol, it is kind of funny from an outside perspective. It was a running joke between my brother and me that our dad seemed a little "family annihilator" -ish so little 10-year-old me believed it 100%.
At that age I was a creepypasta fan– it didn't make me stop liking it though lol
No. 940542
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This is pretty dumb, but I used to soft follow a guy on Twitter, he was the first person that began to open my eyes about the situation of the porn industry, or the downsides of the consumption of porn as a whole tbh. I began to be more careful with my consumption of porn with his advice. But some days ago he has been posting stuff that sound more like the sayings of a /pol/tard incel.
Firstly, someone linked him to an article about how muscular abdomens in women are becoming the new boob cleavages. It was a really dumb article, clearly made by some guy just begging for girls to like him, but the guy I am following began to retweet posts about how muscular women are gross and awful, even taking photos of a girl with just a semi-defined torso and calling her fridge shaped, ugly and a bad example for women. At the end he posted a really weird black and white gif of women in some form of cage thing were they were getting kneaded by some metal tubes (?), I highly doubt that getting rolled like a piece of dough is a very effective work out, but he believed that it was the correct work out for women, The gif was filmed kinda coomerish tho. There even was someone on the replies who began to talk about how women getting more muscular was a secret conspiracy of the jewish and the reason why men are becoming asian girl chasers is because asian girls are actually femenine. I had to turn off my phone after that.
Eventually I came back and the disscusion morfed into something about the age of consent. And he was trying to push the idea that it's normal to feel attracted to girls that are 16-18 years.
>Your grandfather probably married your grandmother when they were 25 and 17, you guys are just libtards!!!
Now even girls were posting about how their mothers and grandmothers were married before they were 17 and how happy they were with their 20 or 30 something husbands. When people got mad about those comments, he began to say that lesbian or gay relationships are more immoral than those relationships because history always had men married to young girl but homosexuality is something semi-recent.
I stopped reading, I know that some anons might make fun of me because there should be at least some redflags about this guy before, but his advice about how to stop with porn was something that really helped me, and I wanted to believe that he was a good guy. Now I feel so nasty by the way he and all of the replies were talking about women's bodies and other things. The whole discussion was a huge /pol/tard magnet I don't want to go back to it.
Feel free to make fun of me tho, I kinda deserve it for thinking that this wouldn't happen.
No. 940553
>>940546Yeah, you're right, I'm sorry.
I'll try to find them now that I already know, I just want to leave porn altogether if it harms other women, that's all I really wanted.
No. 940615
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Every time I try to show an european movie to my friend/family member that isn't a dumb comedy they fall asleep after like 20 minutes because "there's not enough action", and it's not just with young people with short attention span, but also with boomers. I wish I had someone irl I could watch movies with and talk about them. I don't know if my taste is that boring or if the people I know just can't appreciate something else than super mainstream cinema, fuggggg I feel boring and stupid
>mfw I tried to watch The Hunt with my aunt and she fell asleep
No. 940616
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>watch tv with dad and little bro
>segment about surf in Australia
>huge zooms on female surfers ass and boobs
>i say it's unfair female surfer are sexualized whereas male surfers have normal interviews
>dad says "b-BUt It'S bCuZ wOmN aRe BeAuTiFuL!1!1
>i say that there are beautiful men too so why aren't they sexualized
>"AKcHuAlLy mEn ArE uGlY"
>"well you're saying that because you're a straight man obvs. But it's a pain growing up seeing my sex constantly sexualized on media"
>tries to laugh over me
>brother says real feminists should stop wanting to overpower men and preach sex equality instead
Can't wait for my job to start and move out, I fucking hate it here and wish scrote genocide
No. 940647
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>>940627That sucks
nonny. my aunt dissapointed me like double time because she's secretely very horny and I thought that even if she find the movie boring mads would keep her cum brain awake but even that didn't work. she also said he looks romani not scandinavian
>>940628I'm not american but I assume it's even worse over there
No. 940682
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Not sure where to post this
It's so hard being neurodivergent
I have ADHD and don't take any meds, I live like picrel literally everyday
I just can't get shit done for some reason, I daydream all day, don't know what to do anymore
Does anyone have any tips on how to get out of this numb state and get my shit together?
No. 940683
>>940639Literally the
first recognized adult animated movie was Fritz the Cat
No. 940698
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My brother hates me, he's a mysogynistic stupid piece of shit that has been abusive towards me since forever. Fuck that guy honestly. I hate living with him, but I can't move out yet out of my mother's house because no job. And she enables him. And she sides with him. I love my room, I re-decorated it and made it all pretty so I could be more comfy with the fact I almost always am inside my room because I run from him whenever he comes out of his. I can't be in the same room as his so I always hide and there's very little places to hide in this house so I just go outside to the patio even if it's cold or raining. I haven't seen him over 5 years even if I live here too, because I run when I hear him coming near. And no he never checks out if I'm outside either, the fat fuck never cares. Also the only instance we have ever interacted with each other in the span of 6 years was when he followed me around the house stomping his feet and yelling and I had to sleep somewhere else that day because he would not calm down and my mom just let him be.
Either way today I was eating some chicken as fast as I could in the kitchen and then I hear him coming so I forgot to close the fridge door. I was eating with the fridge door open and just standing there because I was like "better do this quick" but then he came out and I could not close it in time. Well I went to the patio and then I hear him cussing and closing the fridge door very violently and he left me a written note in all caps saying how ungrateful I am and how I'm the cause the electricity bill is so high. I dunno. I'm tired of living like this you know? My house feels like a prision and it has felt like this since I was 13 years old. It adds insult to injury how my mom infantilizes me. My room feels more like a cage to me than anything else.
No. 940702
>>940690Even though I was never diagnosed via brain scans, I think I do, anon, since my attention is really scattered even when I feel motivated and try to focus
But I do think I have some addiction to daydreaming on top of that
No. 940749
>>940733>watching porn is badJesus christ, probably the tone you gave that in and the fact that you completely disregard that women do enjoy sex too and it's not always for the male gaze to enjoy sex with one. Also Kpop isn't infantalization culture.
Thinking your friend is better off without you.
No. 940754
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>>940749I wish I had the patience to explain to you why you are wrong, but I just don't. Women can enjoy sex without literally watching trafficked women being raped. Also
>kpop isn't infantantilization cultureAnon…
No. 940755
>>940754Photobooth stamps are considered for children?
Not all porn is trafficked women. Wtf.
No. 940761
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>>940755How do you know amateur porn is not made out of trafficked women anon? How do you know, really?
Also yes, phtobooth stamps that make grown men look like children is infantilization. They're grown men and are treated by their fans as "omg so smol uwu".
No. 940763
>>940761They don't look like children, not even close with all the implants in their faces to add jawbones and botox to smooth out even normal labials folds children have.
And you can get porn that isn't trafficked.
No. 940767
>>940763>you can get porn that isn't trafficked.And how do you truly know they aren't trafficked, anon? How do you know they don't hit them behind the scenes? How do you know they don't rape them? How do you know they don't make them do things they don't want?
Kpop men usually act like children. Have you forgoten aegyo? Liking kpop is whatever to me, but you can't say they aren't infantilized. Use your brain.
No. 940784
>>940780No u
But if you are willing to change your opinion, here. Read this.
http://kultscene.com/its-time-to-stop-infantilizing-k-pop-idols/https://seoulbeats.com/2012/05/your-company-and-fans-know-best-the-babying-of-idols/Imagine thinking this grown man acting like a literal child is okay lmao. Fuck kpop and fuck anyone who thinks this shit is okay. I'm out.
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Imagine flirting with someone 24/7 for six months and then ghosting that person when they get feelings, and then having the audacity to complain that people only like you for your looks and that's why you push people away.
No. 940970
>>940940I've never stopped my maladaptive daydreaming but a few months ago I met a guy that I liked.. nothing ever came of it but he became my main character in my daydreaming. It created a dramatic shift and I stopped imaging my old characters. I'm trying to get myself back to those made up characters again because daydreaming about this real guy makes me feel like a weirdo.
Maladaptive daydreaming all day every day… fine.. doing it about a guy I know irl.. yeah that's my limit lol
No. 941087
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>>941076Did you get tired of posting on the celebricows thread?
No. 941093
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>husband never takes me out on a date unprompted anymore unless I beg
>beg him to go with me to the local fair since we're both vaccinated
>haven't been to the fair in years and I'm super nostalgic
>he gives me such a hard time but finally caves
>return the date night by buying us cinematic movie theater tickets to a movie he really wanted to see next week + beer and a meal costing me $90
>he's super excited cause I did it unprompted and it's a great surprise and I was being fucking thoughtful
>day of the fair comes
>says he's only bringing $50
>it isn't enough to do anything
>I tell him how that's not really enough
>he bitches me out and gives me grief about what I could possibly spend at the fair
>tell him fine and that I'll bring my own money and take myself on the date even though I just spent a lot of money for one of our dates
>now he's acting snarky at me because he knows he's got a guilty conscience
Men are cheap fucks and they ALL end up like this. He would have never pulled this shit back when we first were dating, I guess he doesn't feel he needs to pull any effort anymore. Can't even stretch to spend more than $50 on me after I spend nearly $100 on us. Fucking. Asshole.
No. 941098
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>>941094You’re gonna make some fan art of me? Aw, thanks
No. 941104
>>941093Forgot to mention I technically already bought the advance admission tickets which was $30. So I'm literally just asking him to bring money so we can try out some different foods and go on the 'big ticket' fair rides that are usually $15/per.
>>941096He is being a chode, if he gives me any more shit I'm going to yell at him for being fucking mean to me.
No. 941115
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>>941098delusional bitch. Tell us about that time lesbian stacy rejected you, get it out of your system once and for all instead of shitting up all threads with your sperging.
No. 941150
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I’ve been doing pilates physical therapy to get in good shape for a very major surgery I have coming up in a few weeks. It’s challenging but also relaxing and makes me feel great, it’s my best workout of the week, so I am always looking forward to my appointments. Today I had to cancel it last minute because some charity marathon had caused literally all the roads to the highway to be closed and I couldn’t find a way there. I spent 25 minutes driving around trying to find an open road to the studio, getting yelled at by sergeant fatass traffic pigs, and navigating around jaywalking marathon runners and other drivers who were just as confused and stressed out as I was. I know I’m being a dramatic bitch but I am so upset, I feel like my day is ruined. I can’t even go out and do something else because of the road closures. I just wanted to get my last couple nice special workouts in before they cut me open and rearrange all my fucking bones
>>941093anon that sucks I’m sorry. I hope you can get him to wake the fuck up and invest in your relationship or just divorce his miserly ass
No. 941230
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Why do all men in my city must have that ugly ass short haircut. where did all cute guys with longer messy hair go
No. 941254
>>941251this is solid advice, my ex didn’t even want to spend $5 to buy me a fucking mocha from a coffee shop and made me share it with him. cheap ass motherfucker. and he was always like “i spend so much money on you!!!”
god i hope he dies
my girl friends have bought me coffee multiple times without ever making a big deal out of it. (i return the favor of course)
No. 941334
>>937633First post here. Been reading the dumbass ftm fakeboi thread and been like, fucking yikes, thank god I only know one reasonable ftm who has other things in their life than their gender identity and is therefore okay to talk to. Been sad for the nonnies who post about losing a friend to the ftm cult. Fast forward to today, one of my fav lesbian couple friends now identifies as he/they.
Fuck. I’m too old for this shit. Let me off this planet.
No. 941351
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There is just no way I’m a black person because when you really think about it I’m just a bundle of flesh and bones and throughout my life I’ve pretty much been designated in an area that I’ve never really felt like I was. I’m not black but I am to other people but I also transcend that line not in a “I’m colorblind” kind of way but even with my nappy ass hair I’m not even the slightest black and just don’t relate to anyone on this planet I am not human and never will be. Okay I pull up on the Okay okay I pull up Okay Okay I pull up Okay okay okay okay I pull uppp
No. 941363
>>941218I'm currently battling cancer myself so I can tell you confidently that having a loving partner is an absolute godsend. Without my fiancée I would be so much worse off, hell, I might have actually an hero'd by now without her. You're right that it's a lot of suffering. Not just the illness itself and the treatments but also the depression and nihilistic attitude that is so very easy to adopt. But having someone there for me makes the world of difference. It's the light at the end of the tunnel, it's what I fight for. You'll struggle of course, there will be mood swings, petty arguments born out of frustration and breakdowns but your husband will be so grateful to have you. You will be his light at the end of the tunnel too. The people I know from my support group have mostly come to have a greater appreciation of life, if you can find your husband a support group (they're very helpful and you might also find a group for people like you who have loved ones with cancer) I'm sure he'll meet some people that can help him see the beauty in the small moments life gives us too. I wish you both the best of luck,
nonny. Stay strong.
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>>941363>It's the light at the end of the tunnel, it's what I fight for.You’re going to see the light at the end of a tunnel once you finally drop
nonnie No. 941399
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>>941397you deserve the world, anon. keep fighting the good fight. you have my respect and i can’t imagine having to deal with that and keep everything going.
No. 941404
Whenever people reply callously to a post on here, it’s so weird because they must be helpless in real life to only be able to lash out online, not even to anybody in particular that they hold special hate for but an anonymous vent post that’s just someone talking about their personal life, a total rando with no other real context. How do you deal with stupidity irl, like family, friends, partners, coworkers, your boss, things that matter? I feel like it’s always the opposite for me where I assume it’s my issue and back down pretty easily, so in a way it’s comforting to see other people who are really bizarre personality-wise.
No. 941411
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I hate how I get real shaky sometimes and feel like fainting, thankfully haven't fainted before though. I always assume it means I need food so I go eat but I just did now and it's taking too long to go away. Also, before it came on I had eaten not too long ago. I've been tested for anemia and gotten negative results. Also once when this happened a diabetic I knew helped me check my blood sugar or whatever and it was normal. So what gives?? It's not going away yet though I consumed fiber, protein, and sugar. Why does this have to happen it's so annoying I was in the middle of something important
No. 941414
>>941399You're so kind, anon. Thank you so much. ♥
>>941406I'm so happy for you! I hope you're really enjoying life now. ♥ I'll be ok, the fight's not over yet but I'm currently winning and I have a fantastic life and my loved ones to keep going for. Yeah I know, don't feed the troll. My bad for engaging it in the first place.
No. 941415
I lost an uncle for covid June, an aunt for cancer July, my therapist for cancer august, my other uncle & aunt planned and murdered a family September and now the family is falling apart. I've been managing to keep going, but the sorrow and depression is still there and sometimes like now I have crisis. Each crisis people just back away, even though I'm an emotional reference/pillar for many (people are constantly praising me for how comfortable I make them feel to vent), when I try to speak about these things there is nothing to say or I should go on… But I just want to share the pain. I just eant someone to embrace my sadness, you know?
Today I'm once again having a crisis and left alone because "there are more important things happening", like visiting the family (which happens every Sunday). Or resting.
I'm walking closer and closer to suicide. This time is the first time I cut myself. Last month I began harming myself. I think that's it nonas. Im in a countdown for death.
Also, I found yesterday that my second degree cousin who is around my age and spends Christmas with us is with lung cancer. 50%
You go, life.
No. 941418
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Some of you anons are unhinged, you guys want to punch some of the weirdest "cows" It's creepy, there are legit cows that deserve a-log (that pedo tranny art guy for instance) yet you focus on some rando because they posted something you don't like
No. 941424
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>>941421those new cancer treatments bills about to come into the mail and the POV about to be like
No. 941425
>>941403I feel this, word for word. Especially
>I don't think I'm cut out for human interaction.I'm 22 now but around 20 is when I realized that mentally I feel the same as I did at 17. I hope you can get out of this fog sooner than I failed to nona
No. 941431
I should take it to the stupid questions thread but I'm
>>941411 and thought I could ask if anyone knows what this could be that's been happening to me for years?
No. 941464
>>941237thank you anon!
>>941446NAYRT but I'm pretty sure that anon is just speaking generally. Also someone in this thread keeps making posts trying to taunt a girl for having cancer so that might have inspired the thought
No. 941468
>>941411this could be so many things. hypoglycemia, malnutrition, POTS, some other heart problem. i know its not the advice you wanted but you need to keep going back to your doctor and advocating for yourself until they can give you a diagnosis. good luck
>>941465same anon, im having the sunday sads. im going to log off, drink some apple cider and try to watch some halloweenish thing and try to feel better. i hope you feel better too.
No. 941476
>>941471It's because she mentioned having a loving/supportive fiancee. I honestly think that's what
triggered em.
No. 941479
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I had an x-ray photo of my teeth taken for some other reason and discovered this stupid tooth, fuck it nonnies all I can do is wait for the pain to begin and hope it maybe stopped growing
No. 941498
>>941479Get it removed
nonnie it's really not a big deal. That's an impacted wisdom tooth. It looks like it's surfaced past your gums already so the procedure shouldn't be bad at all. When I had my lower wisdom teeth removed they were still under the surface so they had to cut through the gums, break the teeth into pieces and take them out with tweezers. It sounds bad but it's really not. I was under local anesthesia but if that's too scary check if you can get general anesthesia. I was prescribed percocets after so I never had pain and they felt good too kek. I missed two or three days of school so I could fully recover but I'm generally very weak. Have strength and get it done quickly! I'll have to get my top wisdom teeth removed in two weeks too so you're not alone.
No. 941501
>>941479Same anon as
>>941498 but the reason I got my bottom teeth pulled before the top teeth is that my dentist said they posed a bigger threat. If you just let the tooth grow, its roots will get very close to some jaw nerve. So if it gets painful in a few years and you really need to get it removed, it will be hard for the dentist to avoid the nerve and you might lose sensation in your jaw. If your dentist tells you to get it removed just go ahead and don't wait.
No. 941531
>>941425Thank you! Part of me feels glad that someone is going through the same thing, but I know that in this case, that's not a particularly good thing. I hope we can both improve,
nonnie!
No. 941581
>>941471>>941475honestly not surprised when some anons kept shitting on a rape
victim in one of these threads a few months ago
No. 941596
>>941593I think anon meant just generalized anger overall. I also sometimes google that type of stuff and just get reddit posts of angry men. Reddit was a mistake.
Sometimes anger is all you can feel in life. It's weird but it happens.
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i feel so weird right now
>>941697i needed that love you
lol @ how i’ve been sitting on these for 10 years and someone finally outs him and kiwis still seethe and cry MOAR, WHY NOW? give a scrote a mile and he takes out his incher. i wish kiwi was anon
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No. 941715
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>>941708The pedo is ugly? imagine my shock
No. 941717
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Ugh… I had sex for the first time a week ago, and it was so terrible (literally ow ow ow the entire time) that whenever I think about sex, or have to interact with men I feel sick. I skipped classes for three days last week because I don't want to interact with men cause I feel sick and nervous, and I had no energy to even leave bed honestly.
I need to be normal ASAP somehow and get back on my sigMA GRiNDset hahhaha :DDD(:D)
No. 941720
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i didn’t post this one on kiwi my old hard drive is scattered as fuck
No. 941729
>>941701guilty admirers? for this?
>>941708 he's fucking hideous. not obesepilled like i expected him to be, but a different type of hideous for sure.
feels satisfying to finally see that ugly scrote's face and know that he looks precisely the part of the creep he is online.
No. 941734
>>941726Thank you, but it definitely wasn't assault. I was the one who told him to keep going haha. Idk why it's affecting me like this, if this keeps up I'll definitely seek professional help though, thanks for the suggestion.
>>941727Thank you, hopefully I get back to my old self soon
No. 941735
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>>941697It was a man who posted it, the person we’ve been replying to and giving validation for ruining our eyes is a scrote
No. 941755
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>>941737He's your typical disgusting coomer male
No. 941759
>>941735that's just your average kf scroteposter assuming everyone in the internet is male. doesn't prove a thing. nona who posted the facedox is a queen
>>941753>>941751>>941749no one ares about your autistic tangents, sage
No. 941836
>>939864I have an
abusive brother too and I just know my mom would act the same way if he committed or died. I'm praying for you anon. Kinda unrelated but your post reminded me of a dream I had about my brother overdosing in new york… hmm….
No. 941839
>>941835That’s so uncomfortable, I would probably just leave like a coward tbh
But you’re probably less of a coward than me so go ahead and make some experiences together, as a three. Halloween is coming up, you could go to a theme park, or just join a sports club together.
No. 941848
>>941476That's what I think too. IIRC anons were mentioning a homophobe upthread and then I mention my fiancée in response to the anon posting about her husband potentially having cancer and then suddenly out comes the 14 y/o atheist edgelord "humour".
>>941721I had the exact same thought lmao. It's a bad omen because girls still swoon over Ramirez despite him being a serial killing rapist with notoriously poor hygiene and meth mouth. Shadman is practically a chad by comparison.
No. 941849
I hate it when people with avoidant dismissive attachment styles make themselves out to be these soft wittle beans with anxiety issues that make them treat their partners badly. Wah wah wah you fucking cold superiority-complexed faggot.
Like you're the one who reels people in by faking an image of an emotionally available person. With you everything's about performance and your shallow notion of strength. You specifically seek out and attract anxious, emotionally scarred people while simultaneously despising them for being 'weak' for having needs and expressing them. Dumb bitch you have them too, just because you have crippling misanthropy doesn't mean you've transcended your humanity. Ok yeah you have your issues and they're real ones too, but I'm tired of the excuses you make when called out on how absolutely poorly you treat the ones you 'love'. Fuck your issues for a moment, get the fuck out of your own ass for a second. Stop fucking rolling your eyes at your partner, stop cheating on them, stop comparing them to your mediocre ex you hyped up in your sick head. Making fun of your partner who's trying their hardest to understand what's going on is fucked up, you're fucked up, fuck you. You are not innocent, you're fully accountable for how you treat people. Get over yourself you fucking retard, grow the fuck up and stop using others.
No. 941880
>>941849I've spent a stupid amount of time reliving arguments with my ex and when I found out about attachment styles a while back it all made sense. Didn't make me feel less shit but it explained how it wasn't exactly personal and how he's likely treating his current gf to the same treatment today.
I dont know why but one memory in particular where I was crying/distraught and he put on a whole performance of ignoring me and instead checking for dirt under his fingernails.. that killed me.
No. 941920
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I wear this weeabo bow and circle lenses I draw tear bags and I also wear a seifuku I'm a disgusting weeabo I need to off myself I'm also incredibly ugly. My face isn't perfect or maybe I have developed BDD,I want to look like an IRL anime girl. I hate other women anyway. I mean I'm not a pick me I'm definitely a radfem but I mean I still post in Mikan's thread seething, I-I-I mean she totally deserves to be criticized. I'm tired of women accusing other women of jealousy. I'm shaped like a fridge. Jesus I wish men would stop raping women.
No. 941957
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I have a crush on my ex (who has been just a friend for the past 3 years) again only because they've started dating again and it feels so shitty. I don't want to be a horrible jealous selfish person and I enjoy having them as a friend! I hate that I feel so possessive. I hate that I wanted to be their friend so that we could still be close emotionally. I hate that I was so mentally ill when we dated and ruined our relationship
No. 942068
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we're back to in person classes at university and i saw a girl i loosely befriended (aka we had great talks in/before/after class but weren't at the contact information exchange stage yet) shortly before the pandemic hit. she's now a transmasc enby, had her tits lopped off and goes by a jewish boy name… what the fuck.
No. 942084
>>942078It has to be a country where crazy surgeries are supported by the government or where people are frugal enough to drop money on expensive surgeries.
I don’t go out of my house anymore though, so probably I’m just safe while away from them.
No. 942092
>>942083what wi she resent you for if she's (aspiring to be) a stacy?
>>942086I don't think it's wise to cut off contact with such close family for this, the situation is way too tame.
No. 942117
>>942109same, I originally responded because it read like a komaedapost but hesitated since I wasn't sure. sorry innocent
nonnie, don't even pay us mind
No. 942127
>>939963Update to this, I went to the doctors cutting my first day at work short because I started pissing brown mucus this morning and felt like shiiit, and she didn't give me antibiotics. She wanted to test the bactria in my urine first, so it'll be Friday that she'll MAYBE decide to prescribe me something actually effective. Until then it's ibuprofen. I get apprehension but this is something that can get worse and more complicated if left untreated.
The doctor was a last resort because everything I obsessively read online indicated only antibiotics would be effective, and I'm usually a DIY healthcare girl in the first place, so honestly I'm mad. I'd get a second opinion, but healthcare prices here are really too high, and available doctors are hard to come by. Just finding this one took a full day of phoning around.
No. 942144
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I think I just peaked because of this hellsite, and I'll have to keep it to myself forever because I can't risk losing my only friend group and relationship with my sister
I can't deal with cognitive dissonance once fucking again, and because of the fact I'm still mostly left leaning, I won't find people to relate to since the web seems to be either neonazis or the twitter mob
No. 942193
>>942181You honestly don't have to stop crying. I believe your therapist asked out of curiosity and to understand you better, not out of annoyance or judgement. You can express your feelings clearly. I understand the "it's embarrassing" part because I always think crying (on my part) is embarrassing, but I realized that I never think it's embarrassing when someone else does it, so I shouldn't judge myself so hard - and so shouldn't you judge yourself so hard either. Bottling it up is worse and makes for a poor emotional health. Cry,
nonny! Until you feel like you don't have to. And if that time never comes, that's okay, as well!
No. 942205
>>942181Make sure to talk exactly about that on your next therapy session, your therapist will definitely help you with being more at peace with the way you react! It's exactly like
>>942193 said though, crying is totally okay and it's actually good that you're not bottling things up.
No. 942227
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I just found out that my great grandparents were rich. They had horses and stuff like that. But my pos retarded great grandmother pissed it all away on idk what stupid shit and now my family is on the border of poverty. WHY HAVE KIDS THEN YOU DEAD CUNT. I'm so fucking angry I could cry
No. 942301
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I fucking hate teenagers, they scare the shit out of me. I was on my balcony, smoking and talking to myself because I'm retarded. My teen neighbour saw me and laughed at me to her sister, wtf. Let me sperg on my balcony, you fucking twat
No. 942364
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>moid friend that ghosted me making sad posts about how people enter his life just to leave it
i want to hurt him so fucking badly
i was finally over us becoming strangers after talking every single goddamn day for months and months until i saw that. you fucking bitch. i'm right here
No. 942389
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>>942378sounds about right
No. 942422
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>>942410
He’s kinda cute
No. 942452
>>942127Ayrt, that's good that you went to a doctor, but it really sucks that you have to wait for antibiotics. Tbh, it doesn't sound like a UTI (or maybe it is, but an extreme one?).
I honestly really hate having to wait to be treated for something. I have to wait 2 months to get a root canal for an infection I've had for a year.
No. 942477
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>>942471You mean that guy that Laci Green was dating? That's who he looks like tbh
No. 942478
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>>942471I love that I knew exactly who you were talking about
No. 942505
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I feel so overwhelmed with my work and university schedule this semester. I thought I could handle it but I took on too much responsibility and difficult classes and now that mixed with relationship issues makes me feel like running away and giving up although that's not possible. And it sucks even more that other people around me saw this and warned me and I didn't listen. What do you guys do when you feel overwhelmed by life?
No. 942510
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i'm on 4 mg of xanax a day and my psychiatrist doesn't care. i used to be on 6 mg of ativan per day in order to get through college and graduate. i know it's a lot but there is literally nothing else that helps my crippling anxiety. i've been on and off benzos since 13 or so and i'm almost 28. "go take a walk" or "do yoga" is the biggest load of shit ever. i've tried numerous antidepressants too and nothing helps.
No. 942515
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I hate trannies trying to shove tranny shit into every single thing. I shouldn't be surprised considering the game's fanbase but holy shit shut the fuck up with your warped brain thoughts
No. 942517
>>942515I finally got Monster Hunter Rise for my Nintendi Switch and literally the first thing that happens is that you choose between "body type 1" and "body type 2". No
nonnie, you read that correctly. It wasn't asking if I wanted to play as a male or female character, they wanted to know if my body type is penis or boobs
No. 942527
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I did that thing where you stop initiating texts/calls with your SO and start acting friendly but distant to instill dread in them (with the intent of making them start working harder to keep/impress you) and all it did was scare and upset him. The accidental benefit of this fuckery is that I realized I actually needed space from him to think things through, and then we talked and we're both starting to feel better but things are so awkward now. Why am I so fucking stupid, I'm gonna lose him for a stupid reason because I was too awkward and prideful to just tell him he wasn't meeting my needs.
No. 942637
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i failed (anything below 75% is failing i got a 72%) my first exam on the endocrine system and literally want to off myself now FUCK the hypothalamus and especially fuck the pituitary gland im so angry and mad and pissed off
No. 942642
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>>942637I'm so sorry anon
No. 942648
i thought i found the perfect guy.. the guy who wants to see me everyday, opens doors for me, asks me how i am, texts me first thing in the morning, is handsome, smart, kind, etc. he plays soccer and does logistics for some company. we really fell for each other hard and i only met him a week ago. im so fucking dumb. i had sex with him too. i was totally swooned. he was crazy about me. he took me on some amazing dates, and brought me to this christian group where i had a lot of fun meeting people my age, beamed about how excited he was to do this and that with me, last night he even drew a picture of us together (lol) so you can probably see why i fell for him.
well, today, it happened.. i found out what's wrong with him. he drove me home from a date and basically confronted me on the fact that im orthodox christian and he's baptist, and that he wants me to convert and go to his church. i just woke up and realized he was literally just initiating me to be his wife the entire time. he said im perfect "except for the fact that you're not baptist…" he spent an hour trying to convince me to try it, and that we can debate/discuss the differences in our religions and see who's "right," and that this is a 'dealbreaker' from him. uhhhh motherfucker i just met you a week ago??? idgaf that he looks like a 10/10 perfect chad with a nice cock and can put a mask on and say all the right things and be nice to me. god wouldn't want this! i thought both of us being christian was enough, but nope. he tricked me, got me emotionally invested, and then dropped the 'dealbreaker' on me when i was hooked. he drove home thinking id 'try' it, i kissed him goodnight (and uh… fucked him one more time. dont judge me i gotta get one last ride in.) and sent him a text basically saying it ain't gonna work. im really hurt rn because of how emotionally invested i got but ill be fine. just wanted to share with you guys. dating sucks.
No. 942672
>>942648my father was a Methodist and my mother was a catholic, they both been trying to convert each other for as long as I can remember, It was very strange how many "debates" they would get into regarding religion, but they somehow managed to be civil
ironically I think these debates pushed me and my siblings away from the faith, though I still identify as a Christian mostly for the community and friends
No. 942673
>>942648I have to hand it to you, you're strong to stick to your convictions, you're not the perfect Christian but at least you put your faith first in the end. Myself I'm too weak willed and would probably get convinced by a pretty face, but who knows what else is up with him if you only knew him for a short time. I agree with other anon it's kinda scummy of him. To be fair I can see why it's important to him in a relationship. Still he dropped a ball on you to be planning for you to convert for him. You're both Christians so it's pretty disappointing he is so focused on that difference which doesn't seem so big, and that he expected to get
his way when there's two of you involved each with their own valuable convictions.
No. 942697
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>Misgender some girl
>Immediately get death threats
This is so outrageous I can't take it seriously. Everyday I'm glad I snapped out of that bullshit when it was rampant on tumblr years ago.
No. 942713
>>942680>>942700Its a fairly significant difference, hundreds of thousands if not million have died over these differences
It would be imposable to explain every splinter group, but most protestant sects developed in western Europe and north America, all have there some what similar practices and takes, but there are some extremely odd ones here and three that standout, like unitarians who completely reject the aspect of the trinity and jesus being the son of god
there's also Mormonism which is its own flavor of strange
No. 942719
Sometimes I feel like I overdramatize whatever it was I went through as a kid. I had problems almost all households with single moms have, it's nothing bad. Obviously, parents are also flawed humans. And even though I got molested as a child, it wasn't something extremely terrible like, yes, it was bad considering it went on for years and I was a kid but it wasn't at least physically painful and I can think back on it without completely panicking. I feel like, despite being 'let off easy' so to say, I am too effected by it all. Like, I let it take too much of a hold on my brain, if you get what I mean. It shouldn't envade my thoughts this much, it shouldn't have molded my personality this much but it has. I want to be stronger and resilent. I don't want to blame my past for everything currently wrong with me, which I feel like I do sometimes.
No. 942756
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My mother resents me so much it's not even funny anymore. She never liked me much because she never wanted a second child and I was never "girly" enough nor did I ever want to do shit she wanted me to, like become a preschool teacher.
Now that I'm almost 30, not married, no kids or career she resents me even more and is ashamed of me. She doesn't even talk to me much anymore and when she does she usually becomes incredibly passive aggressive.
She keeps constantly talking about my cousin and how great she and her kids are, how she will visit them again soon etc. I wish she'd just move in with her sister and leaves me alone.
She acts like it's my own fault for everything that has happened. Meanwhile she never emotionally or financially supported me (but gave my brother money so he could get drunk). She neglected me my whole life and is now surprised just how I didn't manage to achieve everything on my own. A real fucking mistery.
No. 942761
>>942751>>942754Fucking same anon, let's hug our plush and try not to to insane
>>942756I'm sorry your mom is such an ass. Trying to achieve some kind of dream or aesthetic through your children is so gross, especially when you can't even do the bare minimum in supporting them. Does she really think hounding your with negativity and holding other family over your head is going to improve anything? She sounds so selfish she can't even see beyond herself. I relate to the part about your brother too. What is with this momma's boy shit.
No. 942787
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I'm going through a major depressive episode, got my period yesterday, haven't slept properly for a week, haven't eaten properly for two weeks and on top of it got sick today. I feel like this is what hell must be.
No. 942818
>>942759>why am I doing so bad if it's not real?This is exactly what I feel everyday. I feel like it has really affected me and I don't want it to. I hate being weak and then, when I catch myself following the same behaviour patterns other people who had to deal with similiar things as me, I just think, 'wow, I've really let it get to me this bad'. I'm really glad you have started to get help for yourself. Your words made me feel better, like we both have had different experiences but the same feelings. Good luck on your journey! I'll try my best too.
>>942764For some reason, I never thought about it this way. If another girl was going through the same thing… I wouldn't tell her what I'm telling myself. I really would never be that cruel. I just like to think that whatever went on during those years in the past just stayed there but it's clearly shaped me so much and I feel stupid about it. I feel like I give it power over me and if I just think that it was something miniscule, it won't affect me anymore. Which is dumb. Thanks for putting it in perspective a little, anon.
No. 942895
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>>942883>he wouldn’t let it go, so I went over to an ATM and withdrew $20 God damn it anon, don't do that.
No. 942897
>>942883Yeah please do NOT do this. Give them money if you want if you have money on you, but do NOT let them get you to an ATM jesus christ. That's how you get actually mugged for your PIN. This reads like country sally's first day in the big city. If I saw a homeless man trying to get someone to an ATM, I would genuinely intervene. I have intervened in the past when this guy was trying to bully an old lady into getting him cashback at a rite aid.
The guys who play the trombone at the street corner are harmless but a lot of homeless men are predators toward women & especially old women. Crazy, pathetic, sad, pitiable, still predators.
No. 942902
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>>942900Please get some self defense tools, like that pointy cat ear keychain or something; he definitely will be looking out for you to score again. Stay safe, and if you need to, don’t hesitate to call the police if he does not leave you alone. Don’t tell him your calling, just do it.
Also call your bank and change your pin.
No. 942907
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Girl got an official diagnostic for ADHD and now she makes sure to mention it weekly. Terminally online people don't have a sense of identity but that's nothing new
No. 942908
>>942905Samefag, looked it up, some states don’t allow it. (Like 5 or six) Canada doesn’t.
It doesn’t have to be the cat keychain, but young OP needs to do some research for self defense in her area
No. 942920
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>>942911kek I didn't know it was leaked by a farmer. based. I can't believe how quickly that thread degenerated into a lolicon debate, way to prove the leaker's point
No. 942921
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So my ex from high school who cheated on me showed up on my college campus today (apparently to “drive a friend home”, he lives 3 hours away from where I am btw) and had the nerve to say hi to me. I didn’t respond and just walked away. I’m a freshman in college. He never left our hometown and lives with his mom.
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>>942911>>942920Just checked the recent posts in Shad’s thread on KF, and christ, seeing braindead scrotes slapfight over the morality of lolicon has both sent my sides into orbit and greatly disgusted me.
>Then I’m leaving back to lolcow because this site is full of trannies.Based as fuck anon, if you’re reading this then I hope you’re having a great day. Fuck Kiwifarms and fuck Shad.
No. 942937
>>942926kek i wonder if this is the same girl i saw posting on linkedin the other day about how she finally got diagnosed with adhd and wrote a big life story on it. i only go there to job hunt, but the kinds of personal info people share there are so stupid. so much virtue-signaling about race, mental illness, and trannies.
it really feels like adhd and autism are the new depression and anxiety (were not special enough)
No. 942962
>>942953Several times homeless have approached me over the years with some bullshit story about how they need to eat or get home and the moment I offer to pay for the thing, they get angry and rude and walk away.
They know what they want to do with that money, but they want you to buy their bullshit and pity them.
No one should buy into the scam. If a homeless person wants to actually better their lives, you’ll see it in action.
No. 942974
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What is it with people who say you should forgive your bullies? Especially with that "you were in high school!!!" or "they had it bad at home!!" shit? It's not a fucking excuse, fuck you and fuck them
I had a shit home life too and somehow managed NOT to beat and verbally harass the the same kid 5 times per week for 6 years. Why the fuck should I forgive the people who stole my shit, destroied it and fucked me up mentally to the point that, even at 26, I still have serious emotional issues? I have fucking PTSD and anxiety thanks to them. I never made any friend because people were scared to hang out with me so they don't become a tartget. I couldn't even go to events because they'd bully me there too. I spent a fuckton of my time in my room because of these pieces of shit. And I should forgive them while they go on and have a normal life? No, fuck that. I don't care if I'm being "petty" and not the "bigger person".
I don't think about these things on a daily basis and tbh I have forgotten most names/faces of the scrotes who bullied me (and it was only men who did it, mostly because I was a GNC woman therefore I was "basically a male" which made it "okay") but if they ever tried to apologize or ask for forgivness I'd tell them to fuck themselves.
No. 942989
>>942974I agree with you 100%. I try to put on a brave face but I'm traumatized. Two bullies tried to reach out and apologize to me after school and I didn't accept either of their apologies. They don't deserve to feel good at my expense one more time
>"basically a male" which made it "okay"IKTF they snapped my brastrap like I was an amusing creature
No. 942994
>>942974>"they had it bad at home!!"This. Boo-hoo if some bully has divorced parents and cries to the teacher about it when they're caught.. only to go back to bullying kids 10 mins later.
In my class there were a couple of a girls who barely spoke. One was not far from mute and nobody knew why, the other was just in her own world if you didn't snap her out of it, like in a constant state of daydreaming. One day that girl started talking to me about the facts of life… I won't go into detail but I now realize this kid was very likely being fiddled with at home. She exposed me to anatomy knowledge no girl that age should have. Then in class some fucks with the excuse of 'muh parents hard divorce' were making her time there hell and the teacher had more sympathy for them than for her. She just left the school one day and that was that. I wonder how she is today. Not great would be my guess.
No. 943000
>>942974Tbh the mindset I have is that reasons and excuses don't matter and if you do bad things I will treat you accordingly. Other people's trauma is not my responsibility, they don't have the right to pass on their trauma onto others.
That is, ignoring the fact that most bullies didn't have any trauma and it's just a myth.
No. 943020
I absolutely love roasted poultry with onion and sage dressing. It makes the house smell good for hours, and tastes like happy family memories. But onion and sage dressing makes my body rebel and act like I'm undergoing an exorcism. Like, deep, strange noises, threatening gurgles and eruptions that smell like hell has come to earth. So I limit my consumption.
I had a super craving yesterday and made my Crack. I was feeling all lonely and melancholy and I treat my emotional problems with food. Anyways, I realized when I started crying during my meal that this was not an ordinary hankering. No, this was a period craving and hormonal surges affecting me.
Now it's today. I am being punished for my indulgence on top of my general endometriosis. I have gained 7 pounds overnight, and have bloated so much even workout pants are painful. My bathroom has a sliding glass door, and since I keep things clean, in the right light it can act as a mirror when you sit on the toilet. I look like I have MS from the way I'm writhing. I pray for sweet release. Everything is ashes and blood. Think of me anons, and treat yourselves with care.
No. 943032
>>942974>"they had it bad at home!!"i was bullied by everyone, even by a fucking cripple, but the worst of the fucking worst where the rich spoiled kids. and to add insult to injury the staff would only take my side (by letting me hide in their offices) against the poor and deliquent, with the rich brats i was at fault and punished
i don't care if i'm a sociopath, but seriously, there where years of my life when i wanted to do a school shooting (but alas no guns in my country, and too poor to make bombs). i think only someone who has been bullied for years and had a shitty home life, with no support and nowhere to run, can understand the fucking rage that makes a school shooter.
Fucking christ, i wish i could sue my school district for the years of life that i lost to mental illness due to bullying. Like, you can sue someone for psychological damage and harassement irl, why the fuck can't kids (or their parents) sue the fucking school for being complincit in physical and psychological (and sexual, ffs) damage?
No. 943045
>>943032The bullying got so bad for me in jr high that they called social services to "observe" me, because they said that my reaction is what caused the bullying. Somehow the SS agent found out about my dad's drinking and came to our house unannounced to question him. Funny because I'm the anon who never had a bed and slept on the floor in a one bedroom apartment with my dad, but that wasn't ever brought up with the agent, he didn't even care. He was basically like "your daughter has anger issues and reacts to being teased very poorly and I think it has to do with your drinking". He left and never followed up, my dad was furious with me and really took it out on me. People at school would throw shoes and pennies at me, steal my things and destroy them, make fun of the way I walked and dressed, said I had a death note, and it just goes on and on. It seemed like it was just everyone coming down on me at once. I tried to avoid even going to school and that resulted in my dad kicking me out of the house (I came home to everything I owned in the hallway of the apartment building). I eventually just decided to go to a school in an entirely different town that I used to live in a few years ago, it was an hour and a half bus each way. Just to escape those psychos.
sorry for rambling, this isn't the vent thread, but it felt good to say all that No. 943068
>>943060Yeah probably why it's hard for her to make friends. I had to go to school late too (couldn't afford it out of high school) and I didn't really bond with many other students.
>>943050I agree that you're focusing on the wrong thing… What you need to worry about is connections. Befriend your professors. Connections are super important in securing a salary as an artist, and your professors that worked in the industry have those. I know this is vent thread but just a suggestion for you. I know how you feel and sorry you're going through this.
>>943067You're an insensitive retard. Fuck off.
No. 943079
>>943069Name calling doesn't even scratch the surface of bullying. Bullying is straight up physical, verbal and psychological abuse and when it happens at school you're captive to it and have to experience it daily for years while you are most impressionable and unstable. That shit can stick with you for life even if you're in therapy.
>>943072No one deserves it. Why are you so pressed to blame the
victim if you were the world's sweetest most mature rational Stacy who would never hurt anyone and doesn't understand how anyone could feel lasting suffering from years of abuse?
No. 943081
>>943072Not any of those anons, but It’s shitty to say that someone deserves getting bullied when you don’t even know they kind of person she was.
Like, it’s not the same when a group of people bully the weird kid who eats boogers and is rude, than when the group of people bullies someone because they’re too quiet or too autistic to catch social cues.
No. 943082
>>943075I’m actually not baiting like what if anon was secretly a bully herself and she was also getting bullied? This isn’t bait, not everyone who posts their problems is the only
victim kek
No. 943087
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>>943058>>943068I know you anons are right and I hate it. lol. I don't know why I expect everything to be easy for me when historically I have a hard time with everything. When I got back from class today I was feeling particularly like shit and for a moment thought about killing myself, or dropping out and walking away right now, but I know I should at least ride out my first year.
I know exactly what I want to do, it's just actually putting in the effort and going through the process of getting there that I find hard. I really wish I could connect with someone though, I don't see anyone my age in my classes, just 18-19 year olds and a few late 30s moms.
I really didn't expect life to be this hard.
No. 943093
>>943075agreed its way too obvious lmao
>>943045anon, that sounds rough and im so sorry you had to go through all of that, especially at once. sorry to pry, but i was curious about how you were able to go to a different town like you lived by yourself or did you have other family?? good for you making a positive move for yourself at least!
no lie, i guess i was kind of a bully in elementary school just because i would sometimes talk behind some peoples backs or just call people names sometimes. one girl i bullied i ended up becoming friends with and stuff, but looking back i really regret when i did any of that. i think it was out of boredom and it wasnt for long but still looking back i think it was awful.
i probably got what i desrved later into elementary in grades 6-8 because i was bullied in a similar way and ontop of that my friends just started to isolate me for completely unrelated reasons and i started missing school a lot. i havent fared much better after that either since im in my mid-twenties with zero friends and i am very used to it at this point, but sometimes i wish i had some people to talk to other than my bf and family.
No. 943109
>>943093I'm in the same boat with zero friends and only my husband to talk to. Making friends isn't as easy as I used to think it was, where I could just walk up to someone and compliment them and maybe we could hang out. Idk I think it's partially because I think so low of myself, I don't feel cool or interesting enough to be anyone's friend. And being this anxious all the time has made me fearful of people.
I didn't actually move to another town, I had lived there years prior. I took the hour and a half bus every day because it was at least a town and people I was familiar with. I lied to the office and said I lived at a particular address and gave them my cell phone number as my parents number and they accepted it and never questioned me.
You were basically out of the crib in elementary school, don't be too hard on yourself for being a little mean. Kids in elementary school rarely show the same kind of vitriol that tweens and teens do. You didn't deserve to be bullied or isolated because of that.
No. 943121
>>942921Had an ex who cheated on me and seeing as we lived together and so far away from either family.. I had to stay somewhat civil until our lease ended a couple months later. I somehow did that. Dude expected me to happily message him with life updates and one day messaged that he was in my town (5 hours from his new town) Don't know what he expected.
I know he'd hit the roof if the tables were turned and I was fucking someone else behind his back. I know he would've chucked me out of our shared place somehow or made my life hell. I would be in fear for my safety. I don't get when guys expect you to take cheating in your stride when they certainly wouldn't? I pretended not to despise him for only as long as I had to.. and not for a moment longer than that.
No. 943147
>>942648I don't judge you for wanting to get one last fuck in, I've left the shittiest of shit relationships and weirdly still had to get that last session in.. mostly because I have long dry spell between relationships.
>this is a 'dealbreaker' from him. uhhhh motherfucker i just met you a week ago??What I don't get is, you're dating a week and he's giving you ultimatums and expecting you to just jump to do this. And he's not even doing his part by saving sex like he's told to do. Scrotes really pick and choose the parts they want to follow.. all while bossing you around and telling you how to 'live right' damn.
No. 943152
>>943144nonnie, i was a lonely kid with a shitty life that noone gave a damn about. how the fuck could i, a fucking kid at the time, give singular fuck about the innocent kids that saw me being beaten and did nothing (or joined in)?
like
>>943137 kids lack empathy. if the bully doesn't have empathy, how the fuck can you ask the bullied to have it?
Don't worry
nonnie, i ditched my school shooting fantasies when they grew bored of bullying me. No innocent kids dying over here.
No. 943168
>>943152Sorry to piggyback but I wanted to recommend Comics and and Columbine to anyone interested in the topic, or who has been bullied and still is suffering from long-time effects. It's a a great memoir on the topic of living with trauma of (pretty hardcore in author's case) bullying and finding a way to heal and fight it in a nonviolent way. I wish more people read it, I loved it so much as a bullying
victim (who didn't want to shoot up schools, but understood why others may have fantasized about that - I absolutely do not condone taking action).
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No. 943194
>>943165Exactly, this always happens. The vent thread can really suck, there are legitimately mentally ill people here who will project their bullshit on you at any chance. Sometimes they'll literally, openly admit that they're projecting, or that they just want to make other people as miserable as themselves, but they won't see the logical failure in that and will still insist you're the problem. It really is like bullying, in a way. Replying to them is pointless, but if you don't reply, it almost looks like you agree with them, and the whole thread gets this weird, hostile vibe because you know they'll be checking back to do the same thing again to another anon. It's a losing game
The anons who got bullied obviously don't have to forgive their bullies (especially when they never apologized) or "just get over it", that's a load of BS. I don't understand why this is even an argument, it's basic humanity. You can't expect people to just magically overcome childhood trauma like it's nothing
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i managed to make some friends at university fairly quickly within the first week of us starting but they've already lost interest in me. my family always told me that i'd meet "my people" at uni but this just isn't the case. i don't think it's a matter of meeting the right people for me, there are no right people for me because there is something fundamentally wrong with me, i'm lacking something.
No. 943203
>>943198my sister-in-law has a 6yr old kid who is constantly getting into fights with another kid at school and she swears up and down that it's the other kid's fault.
nevermind the fact that her son has openly said he was going to punch people.
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>>943194>accuses random anons who disagree with you of projecting, while projecting traits into themHow did you people find lolcow?
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Dating in a slavic country is hard, thank fuck I'm not straight so I get to be a bit more picky.
It's like men hit 30-35 and suddenly they get a beer gut, short greasy hair and face. They all look ugly in the same identical way
No. 943208
>>943195I really feel for you anon. I've never fit in and I don't think I'll ever find my people, either. I've come to accept it, though.
But there might still be hope for you!!
No. 943210
>>943205I wasn't even in your autistic argument, but I guess a hit dog hollers
>you peopleWhat year did you find this place? Genuine question
No. 943215
>>943210Neither was I, kek.
So how did you find lc? And I was here from the start after Staminarose closed down.
No. 943221
>>943215So you made up a sperg greentext from nowhere, then said I was the one projecting after I made a general statement? The "mental illness" part sure seems to apply kek
I've been around since Maxfag days after Moot banned drama from /cgl/
No. 943237
>>943221I just made that one post. What was spergy or mentally ill about it? I just pointed out the hypocrisy.
And alright, please explain to me how you can apparently be on imageboards for years but still cry about cyberbullying over anons bantering and baiting, complain about "hostile vibes" on a fucking imageboard and pull the "akschually bullies are just miserablet themselves uwu" after being on and participating on a gossip websote for years.
No. 943250
>>943237It's both spergy and mentally ill because you claimed I accused random anons of shit (I didn't, the post you replied to was my only post on the subject, and I was speaking on the cancer infesting vent threads in general).
I'm sorry you felt so attacked by me pointing out there are bottom of the barrel autists who just come here to screech at people. It's not "banter" if you're actually seething and there's no humor. Like, try to find a single funny post or a joke made in this whole shitshow. It was just some tard bringing down the OP as usual
If you actually were around back then, you'd remember we didn't have vent threads and other shit like this on the old sites, and edgelords in here infesting what would otherwise be chill threads to chat with other anons explains why. Grow the fuck up, you sound like you're still in high school with this fake tough bitch act. Being on an imageboard doesn't make you some kind of bad bitch underground cycle path joker sigma female, sorry most aren't into incel LARPing just because we like to have a laugh at random internet figures
No. 943254
>>942974I empathize anon. What's worse is when people try to gaslight you about what you experienced and minimize the actions of the bully because "they were going through a rough time too!" Bullshit.
People pulled this about my high school bully because she was low IQ and had issues, got knocked up by my ex bf so for some reason people thought this meant she could trash me with impunity. If I dared to retaliate or defend myself in any way from her harassment then that made
me the bully all of the sudden. Most of my bullies were cowards, and just set out to covertly harass me and sink my reputation using that sped.
It was the worst time of my life trying to mind my own business business and study in my college courses while that psychotic tard was allowed to act up against me all the time. I'm 30 and I still remember that shit. She admitted she was just jealous and she tried to "make up" with me after high school (when all the jealous bitches who used her proxy bully left her after she dropped out) but the damage is already done and she doesn't get to be just "sorry" for how she tried to ruin me and made my time in school terrible.
Don't let anyone tell you otherwise. Anyone saying that about you are likely just shitheads with a guilty conscience.
No. 943270
>>943260Yeah, I'm totally the one defending spergs who attack random anons for no reason, saying BS like they should just get over being bullied as children because "it was years ago" and insisting this is fine because we're on an imageboard lol. That's not you at all, and you definitely know what the word "banter" means. I'm "projecting", you got me.
The other anon was right, you're just trying to stir shit. Hope you get whatever it is you need, see you next thread
No. 943272
>>943266More than a few replies and we're all taking it too seriously sister
>>943269It's a bit
too girthy
No. 943289
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>>943285That's it! I'm healed!!!
No. 943293
>>943291No bad energy
She’s clearly healing
No. 943301
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I'm really glad that despite being on early /cgl/, the dead drama sites and LC for so long, I never turned into a truly rotten person, or felt the need to put on a "mean" persona and aim it at complete strangers. I think it'd suck to live that way. Mocking cows doesn't mean you can't be compassionate, or that you need to act like a misogynistic scrote to fit a perceived internet "culture". I get pretty annoyed by the anons who act that way, but I do genuinely feel bad for some of them and hope they can get out of that toxic bullshit. I'm sure a lot of them are secretly underage too, and I guess most people are more vicious and cruel when they're still growing up (especially online)
The most I got out of hanging out in these communities for so long was a hatred for males, but that's entirely justified and healthy
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>>943306It's genuinely not my fault I'm so hot and my pussy is so juicy and tight that anon can feel it over the internet and is obsessed with being me and wants to keep talking. I think she even called me a hoe and now she's cybering with herself and strangers to fill the void. Slut-shaming and symptoms of sexual obsession
I don't know what's going on anymore but it's more fun than fighting No. 943343
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>>943338I am fucking roaring
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>>943338This is what you look like in a good day
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>>943358>>943353Eggs! It's so simple!
No. 943370
>>943333Never in my 56 years on lolcow have I experienced such a display of online violence. I get you're compensating for your poor upbringing in greece with your alcoholic father that gave you npdbpd mentall illness and got rejected by a boy named billy so you took it out on innocent
victims to forget about the pain you have inside you so you continue your behaviour on imageboards everytime you have an episode after listining to a song by The Weekend but grow up sis. Bullying like this has no place on here.
>>943335Reported for infighting
No. 943388
>>943360ewwwwwwww
all trannies look the same to me tbh