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No. 1086480
Oh ho ho, a lucky number…
May this be the thread you find catharsis in.
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>>1086579High school was torture for me but I work at a small office now and it's so chill. I find the "high school 2.0" fear about workplaces is
valid if most of the staff is young and there's someone who likes to start drama. Or if it's shit like sales. But most in my office are just doing thier own thing and there's other antisocial people too.
No. 1086694
Lol guys are such a mess it’s insane. I was very up front with a guy from the beginning about not wanting casual sex. So we would just hang out and go on dates for the beginning. I told him making out was okay. Today we are supposed to go on a date and I asked if maybe our first kiss could be romantic, since I never had a romantic first kiss, and due to the conversations we had had before it seemed like he would maybe understand. It made him seethe sooo much though. He said it was annoying him that I switched plans so quickly, but I didn’t switch any plans. I’m fine with making out, I just want to have a romantic first kiss together for once. And if we can’t have that today, then it’s fine since there will be plenty more opportunities in the future. We both agreed we would take it slow, so it’s not an issue to me. I told him that my reasoning didn’t matter, though. This is what I’d like and if it’s an issue to him, we don’t have to meet up. I really don’t care that much and I have plenty of other things to do, lol. He started whining a bit and murmured about how it was a lot of gas (dude just don’t come, idgaf. Find a different girl or respect my boundaries.), that he was annoyed at me etc. He hung up on me really angrily too, it doesn’t make sense. Why do they throw these weird tantrums. He wasn’t getting pussy anyway and he knew it, so why the bratty attitude. And if he doesn’t want to come he doesn’t have to, I’m not the one causing problems about it. He can find a girl for a one night stand and I truly wouldn’t care. But I have a feeling he doesn’t want a different girl and wants me… it’s so hard for men when they actually have to work for what they want and can’t just act like babies.
No. 1086797
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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA WHAT IS WRONG WITH MY BRAINNNNN
No. 1086850
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>>1086825Don’t mourn it, it’s lost time, all you will end up doing is lose even more time and keep on mourning. You could try becoming a professional mourner using your lost time as inspiration to cry though.
No. 1086866
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I've been a sad sperg all day.
I worry I won't be fully happy until I can be fully out of my parent's house, and still feeling lost and directionless in life which I'm sure is common for 18 year olds but most 18 year olds have family that support them, at least the ones I know…
ALL of the ones I know, actually.
Which just makes me feel worse.
They say comparison is the enemy of happiness, but of course I'm jealous that my only friends that are my age got offered their own place and job just because they were born into rich families and how it'll likely take me years, if ever, to work up to something they just got handed to them. Life is unfair, of course it is. I know I have it better than a lot of people too. But it's very hard to be happy in a home you don't enjoy living in. It's very hard to find the motivation to work when housing prices are so high and when you know you won't have a comfortable home to return to after work. I just don't know what to do. I'm expected to figure everything out by myself but most people have parents that helped them or were born in a more fortunate place. Maybe I'm just making excuses for myself. I feel very lost and I'm not sure how to make myself not lost.
No. 1086892
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>mfw forced to stay in the UK for years
I am literally Eren Yeager. I am forced to stay on a tiny island full of giant retards I want to BREAK FREE
No. 1086897
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>Just found out my sister's friend is now going by they/them pronouns, dyed his hair blue, and is in a poly relationship with two of his roommates. (both are women)
Absolute clown world. It was painful listening to my sister trying to explain pronoun shit to my mom. I want to know who hell encouraged him to do this and if his roommates really are women or just trannies.
No. 1086901
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WHY DOES MY LANIEGE TRAVEL/STARTER KIT COST SO MUCH ITS SO SMALL CHAAAHDBSHDDBDB GIVE ME MORE PRODUCT YOU FUCKING HACKS
No. 1086962
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>>1086825idk the answer
nonnie, other than to just move forward and try to bury your regrets. What's done is done, and there's no way to undo the past. I'm in the same boat as you, I feel like I wasted the last decade of my life living in a dream and am now scrambling to catch up.
But we've got the rest of our lives to catch up and make up for lost time. We're all going to make it, I believe in you.
No. 1087066
Without getting into too much detail, I was an extremely sexual child. I have a lot of childhood memories of me trying to get my friends undressed, touching other peers inappropriately, and getting in trouble for taking off my clothes in public. Since I was 4, my primary interest when it came to having friends over was to do stuff with our bodies. It wasn't just curiosity, but I recall having a real sex drive when I was in kindergarten onward. I stopped getting invited to sleep overs because I would be extremely weird and make other kids and parents uncomfortable. I did things that were more extreme and disturbing that just getting undressed. My parents never questioned me or put me in therapy regarding it, they would just be upset with me and tell me to not be naked around people. I hate being explicit because it's just disgusting and I feel like I was kind of evil. I just want to be clear about the extent of my behavior at that age. I guess I just want to know if it's at all possible I WASN'T sexually abused as a child? Almost every sign points to yes, including low self image and chronic stomach aches and anxiety, but I just have no memory whatsoever. Even with everything indicating I was, I don't think it's possible for me to actually process that or take it seriously, because I have no memory of it.
No. 1087103
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Men really be out there looking at their phone lock screen pics of there smiling, gorgeous girlfriends, unlocking their phones, and immediately opening pornhub
No. 1087169
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this tif told me i exuded such "masculine energy" and i told her in turn that she seemed very feminine. had a lot of fun with how uncomfortable she got.
on this note i often get mistaken for a guy/tgirl on the web. i dunno why it makes me smile.
No. 1087180
>>1087169exact same
how I get categorized & how it turn it around on gendered ‘energy’ obsessed losers
No. 1087182
>>1087180how *I
even better irl when someone has to explain offensive sex role stereotypes to justify their weirdass praise
No. 1087288
Look dude, every couple of months you do something that affects me and our relationship greatly, and every time I try to confront you, you play the victim card, tell me how you have 0 friends, you're having "a mental breakdown", etc. Etc. Like that time I told to you stop bringing up my abusive ex in conversation cause it hurt me, and your answer was "I almost od last night and you don't care" as if I'm somehow supposed to know and be responsible of every shitty desition you make. Then I stop talking to you for a while, cause I have problems more important than dealing with you, and instead of taking that as a hint, you see it as a cue to pretend nothing happened, and then start talking to me again like whatever. The situations have been escalating like crazy the past years, to the point they no longer affect just our relationship; you literally made a scene in my house last time, and the image that left on my family was just priceless dude, I had to go out of my way to talk to everybody involved and ask them not to do anything to you. And I wish I could just stop being your friend, but chances are you're just going to go victim complex again, and argue that I'm "abandoning you", or that I'm "being awful to you", and so on instead of understanding that you did this to yourself, and is not easy for me to take this decision. I wish I could still talk to you, cause honestly we have such good times, but how does any of that still matter, if every three months you start saying you're going to kill yourself if I don't do what you ask of me? You're holding this friendship hostage dude, and I'm this point I'm no longer interested on negotiations. You need some serious professional help, and I mean actual help, not just buying xanax off some guy you met at uni. I really wish I could actually come and said this, but I'm a coward, and I'm scared that if you actually go and die, is gonna be on me, so I guess I'll just suffer through until the day I die, huh.
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As I get older my patience for scrote nonsense gets less and less. Now when one of those things makes a lame "joke" or stupid comment in my presence I just ignore it. No fake laugh, no acknowledgment. They get so mad its hilarious "oh I guess you didn't hear me" no I heard you moid, I just don't recognize your words as having any value.
No. 1087316
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Found out my husband's been cheating on me virtually as I expected was happening because it's been an ongoing issue since we dated 7 years ago and I'm just so fucking over it nonnies, no one was awake while I went through a shit ton of emotions but I sent my bestie screenshots and vented to her and then in turn sent the screenshots of my venting to her to him while he's passed out on our couch. I took my whole daily atarax allotment and hoping I'll pass out soon but Idk if that will happen. I was so fucking close to self harming tonight after seeing it and thankfully didn't give in. I'm about 10 years clean of cutting I think and thankfully still going strong but fuck tonight was rough. Nervous for him to see the messages but also beyond caring at this point. It's not emotionally driven and we've had a relatively open relationship because he's more poly driven than I but I'm sure but the effort put towards sexting randoms could easily be fixing our fucking dead bedroom life. I haven't been proper fucked in a year now meanwhile he's sending dick pics to randos… Hold me while I wait for the meds to kick in nonitas?
No. 1087366
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>stay at mother’s house four days if not more most weeks
>wake up this morning, have a five minute shower
>mother is outside the door waiting to go pee after i had just asked her if she needed to and she said no
>as i’m going into my room she says “anon you can’t shower here anymore, you live with your dad”
>tfw here four or more days a week
>tfw hormonal body acne that i have to stay on top of
>tfw moved out of mum’s because she had a bpd meltdown, threatened to kill herself, and then left the house without her phone and me and my sister had to get the police involved for the millionth time that she’s pulled that same stunt
>tfw toxic mostly absent emotionally unavailable father who i get along with more than bpd mum (but only because i’m also emotionally unavailable because of him) who has recently started losing his eyesight and is ten times more emotionally unavailable so i can’t even try to cheer him up without him shutting me down
>tfw he’s also neurotic about using water for showers despite having baths every single day
>tfw went through whole crisis of confidence because i thought i was being selfish and wasting water, started timing my showers and they were always less than eight minutes every time, literally never even got close to ten minutes which i’ve been told is “too long” my whole life
>tfw crippling autism and now i’m paranoid about wasting water so i only shower every three days to accommodate neurotic parents despite autism that needs healthy routine and also body acne
>tfw now can’t shower for four or more days if i’m staying at my mother’s house
>tfw can’t get my own place because i'm stuck on waiting lists still and was literally told they’re just waiting for someone to move out of their home, i’m quite high on the list because of my situation but even then it’ll probably take years to have a place of my own
>tfw chronic depression and anxiety, autism and history of suicidal tendencies
>tfw “get a healthy routine for your mental health uwu” is the only advice i’m given
>tfw can’t get a healthy routine for my mental health uwu because of toxic parents
>tfw can’t just move out because life doesn’t work like that
>tfw not autistic siblings are both in their own places after working hard as fuck and i’m self pitying because my autism has quite literally ruined my life and stopped me doing so many things i wanted to do
>tfw this whole thing has been set off by something as stupid as not being allowed to shower for four or more days
>tfw autism and bad parents
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Fuck. It's all fun and games until you actually match with someone on tinder and have to respond to her message. How do I stop being such a socially anxious retard?
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>W-wahmen are just as evil as men g-guys!! Equality!!
No. 1087495
>>1087316your husband is a literal brainlet bing bing yahoo digital feedback retard, polyshitting stdbags deserve to permanently live on someone elses couch
>>1087366you can use a bucket to shower if you're really autistic and paranoid I used to do it when I was really poor, it's fine and not that cold also it's kind of more efficient than showering somehow, get bucket lather up extensively shave (optional), scrub down with water (use one hand to pick up water so it's not cold) and rinse with rest of bucket water or by going in shower quickly. easy
No. 1087506
>>1087501>Men are addicted to porn which is now something propagated culturally.men oppressing and sexualising women has always existed of course but i do genuinely miss the days before the internet where porn wasn't as accessible. i feel like internet porn really fucked it up more allowing young boys to watch the most fucked up content for free without any sort of safeguarding.
my brothers grew up during the 80s and early 90s and they said it was a lot harder to find or watch porn back then unless you somehow managed to get stuff from the top shelf of stores or find a stack of videos/magazines in a shed. i also remember them saying shit like choking a woman or bondage etc wasn't even a normal thing and unheard of for younger men and women getting into sex/relationships.
it's so wild looking at that vs now where if you just enjoy normal healthy loving sex without any weird violence or choking you get called boring and vanilla. i really fucking hate both men and the internet for allowing more violent and extreme things to just become 'the average' and normal.
No. 1087507
>>1086480Every now and then theres one anon who storms through a thread i lurk and they are a total bitch for no fucking reason. I feel like Im having a lunch at a cafe and this anon is at another table yelling at the server who is just doing their job. Its like this person has been active here SO long they are absolutely livid anyone else would post in -their- thread and berates anyone who says chill.
Like, maybe you're the bigger cow in real life and it drives you crazy? Please go somewhere else. Like another forum or the fucking gym. I wouldnt want to know you irl.
No. 1087549
>>1087541>>1087513Fucked up thing is as of now many young girls are tricked into liking porn, being told that its empowering and that only boring christian prudes are against porn
like I have witnessed some horrendous shit when I was just 11 years old and I was convinced that I was into degradation and being treated like crap, It took a long time of self healing, some vanilla erotica and understanding partner to "fix" myself essentially
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>>1087549>>1087556the even worst part is that they've branded anyone whose against porn as being a fascist and racist, even the women involved are labeled as radical bigoted Christians and "transphobes"
none are even willing to write about the damage porn does to the women performing, no they just label their critics as being intolerant bigots and that's the end of conversation
the only one compliant wokies have against pronography was that its not "diverse" enough
>Are there serious problems with porn? Sure. But we can’t have that conversation if we’re narrowly focused on poor men degenerating into antisocial incels. The biggest problem with porn, after all, is that people have stopped paying for it! Pirated content powers free tube sites that promise bottomless wells of dopamine blasts, making porn both more addictive and more accessible to children.
>If we started consuming porn ethically, we’d give a boost to better, more creative porn, and young folks could be exposed to sex that didn’t follow the pattern of bored kissing, bored blowjob, bored pussy-eating, bored missionary position, bored doggy-style, a little more bored blowjob, money shot. Paying for porn would also encourage productions with a more diverse array of bodies, skin tones and gender identities.just kill me already
No. 1087574
>>1087561yes, the leftist movement has turned into the modern religion, they do not allow critical thinking. Just as in the old days, Christianity dictated the thoughts you were allowed to have and the things you were allowed to say, now they have replaced that ideology with leftism and
le modern science. They are as oppressive to critical thinking and open discourse as religion used to be and they are unaware of their hypocrisy. They are the modern fascists which persecute, label and shut down anyone that shares a different opinion. Just like religion did. Leftism is the new right wing movement. It censors and limits any sort of genuine self expression. As a woman, it is the worst. If you don't allign yourself with what they say, they turn you in a witch. Women are not truly welcome in neither right wing or left wing movements unless they become complete handmaides to that ideology.
No. 1087584
>>1087549>when I was just 11 years old and I was convinced that I was into degradation and being treated like crapI'm so happy you recovered from this
nonny, I experienced the exact same thing. I grew up pretty much online and because of my social anxiety, didn't have a lot of street-skills or irl knowledge so my understanding of sex or sexuality as a woman came from porn. Like you I saw so much disgusting, degrading fetish shit online that I shouldn't have even known about at 14 years old. I grew up so obsessed with being NLOG and being the kinkiest freakiest around and it did absolutely nothing for my self-esteem or self-worth…at 16/17 it led me to doing some very questionable stuff with my bf at the time who was severely addicted to porn, specifically "cnc" or rape sort of stuff.
It is so hard to unlearn all of it and also 'revert' yourself back to your default sexual state when it's all you've seen or ever known since being a child, but not many people seem to understand how much it really does change your brain.
I can only speak for myself here but I absolutely think that If I didn't watch porn/get involved with fetish shit from a young age, and instead had a robust healthy outlook on consent and sex, then I would have avoided being assaulted or persuaded into a lot of weird stuff later on. We (young girls and women in general) really are brainwashed into this shit and it feels like you can't speak up about it much because you just get called a puritan or sex-negative.
No. 1087597
>>1087584honestly more or less my life, I think getting a Job and my own self discipline training helped me gain some insanity
vanilla erotica also was great for "reprogramming" my brain as well
No. 1087601
>>1087574I'm quite in support of marxist feminism and socialist/communist theory in general and I found this to be very very true in most left-wing spaces.
There's no critical thinking or even any question of anything allowed especially if it's towards sex, porn and prostitution, women or troons. In most of these spaces you get labelled as swerf or transphobic for even the most minor criticisms of stuff and it's fucking exhausting honestly, the key to learning and becoming a better person is questioning and constructively criticising things and they don't give a fuck about any of that.
I left a lot of spaces like that and the only ones I'm in now are rad-leaning leftist communities only consisting of women. There's also (in those other leftist spaces not the women-only ones) a blanket silence and refusal to acknowledge a lot of trans ideology is classist as fuck. They just can't acknowledge that because half of the people there are terminally online 'commie mommies' 27-year old porn addicted males with receding hairlines dyed pink.
You are completely correct in that you are never welcome nor integrated into those spaces unless you, exactly like in right-wing spaces, basically just shut the fuck up, don't question things, and just deny the most obvious classism and biology.
No. 1087617
>>1087601anon, modern leftism and wokeism has absolutely nothing to do with real liberal leftist values, the movement has been entirely corrupted, they support capitalistic oppression. The movement has been corrupted by corporations. I am a liberal leftist myself and a Marxist feminist, but the modern leftist movement has nothing to do with what real leftist liberal school of thought promotes. They don't question authority, they don't question the government, they don't question what is imposed on society ideologically by power hierarchies such as science. They promote class opression, are obsessed with buying things, promote opression of women through prostitution which is exactly the opposite of Marxist school of thought. Some modern right wingers are literally becoming the new left wing of society. They question what is imposed of us and they question capitalism and the
elites as they call them in their circles. Modern liberal leftist movement has became the opposite of what it used to be and what it should have been. They promote censoring of self expression, hatred, a form of authoritarianism. The liberal left was all about questioning AUTHORITY what it is imposed on you by society and now they do exactly the opposite. Modern communists are the new age capitalists and the right wingers have become the new communists because they question society. A crazy world. The political paradox happening right now.
No. 1087667
>>1087662My family I guess, but truth is I know there isn't any point to existence
I guess for you I'd say maybe a find an ideology or group(don't even have to fully believe in) that actually practices radical change and self improvement
No. 1087686
>>1087551Where did you get that insane view of what being a junkie is like from? Like that other
Nonnie said, addiction is NOTHING like that, in no way.
No. 1087806
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This is really stupid but i have a genuine phobia of babies and pregnancy and i keep get recommended baby shit on social media because of my age and being a woman and i want to poke my eyes with a fork.
No. 1087900
>>1087880You are not responsible for your siblings. Your parents should provide and, at best, far far into the future. Please don't feel pressured to be a 2nd mom. Your parents decided to have a child, not it is disabled which is no one's fault, but still.
Saying these things to you as a child or when you are an adult is pressuring you even more. What about your future & your dreams? I am infuriated with your parent nonna!
No. 1087970
>>1087880I want to add on to this because I have a lot of thoughts and feelings about my family I've never spoken aloud or told anyone about. My mom would get into screaming matches with my dad when I was young. And they'd throw around divorce like it was nothing. My mom told me multiple time throughout my childhood that they were
definitely going to split up (they never did) and my sister would go with her and I would go with my dad and that he and I could live in filth like we wanted to (keep in my I was like 7-12 years old when she would tell me this). It was always "you're acting just like [oldest sister who my mom hates]" any time I said something out of line or misbehaved in class. So I grew up with the idea that my mom didn't like me or who I was [oldest sister comparison] and that she would be able to drop me at any time, whenever [constantly reminding me that I'd go with my dad if they divorced]. Not only this but I was conceived like a year after my oldest sister had her first child. So now I can't help but feel like my mom had me to take care of my mentally challenged sister and or because she was competing with my oldest sister.
My dad is physically disabled and has a hard time walking place to place (it's to do with a condition he was born with). I'm fine physically but now I worry about passing the gene on to my child if I ever choose to have children. And I worry about taking care of him and my mother when they get older. My dad couldn't take care of my mother physically and I'm probably going to have to take care of her before I take care of my dad because she's older than him. This is very frustrating to me. All of it. My mom and my dad and my sister. It's hard to think about. I spend most of my time in my room. I think I stopped being around them very much when I was at the end of elementary school. I discovered the internet very early and it was much more pleasant than my family was, even the bad parts because even though I saw things a child shouldn't see, it was all much more exciting than my family was, so I've had nearly a lifelong internet addiction. It's fucking rough.
>>1087900>>1087906>>1087912I know the logical thing to do would be to find care for her. It's most likely what I'll end up doing. It's just hard to think about because she doesn't have friends, hasn't worked in years, has never been in a relationship, all she does is watch tv/movies/youtube and collect toys and dolls. It makes me feel awful to think about putting her in care because she's living such a lonely life with nothing very mentally stimulating. She can't tell time or do basic math. If things went my way I'd put her in some sort of day treatment or something to maybe keep her doing things that are stimulating and meet people she can maybe have a conversation with. It feels like cruelty, almost. Just having her sit all day and eat junkfood. Fuck it stresses me out just thinking about it all. And the thought of sending her away and forgetting about is tough too. But I barely have a relationship with her in the first place. I barely even speak to her. I appreciate the positive words and advice, and it's what I'm going to have to do. But it's rough.
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My therapist asked me to draw whenever I have a angry outburst like to take it out slowly onto something creative rather than on myself. She wanted to see it too so I am showing her this picture later today when I don't feel as embarrassed of my grand creation kek.
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>>1087316>we've had a relatively open relationship….
Anyway just leave him
No. 1088022
>>1087880You're not responsible for her. Don't let people make you think you are. She is your sister and you should care about her but giving away the chance to have a normal life to take care of her is too much.
>>1087970Anon my mom hated me too because I am a lot like my dad. I don't know what to say to help you feel better but I want you to know you aren't responsible about your parents, they're not your children. Try to move away and build a life on your own, distance yourself from them as far as you like. You don't owe them anything, they decided to have a kid not a caretaker.
No. 1088064
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Any nonnies who feel like a nuisance just for existing? I feel like a waste of cells and sometimes I wish someone was born instead of me. Someone who'd appreciate being alive and someone who's loved by the people around them. And I swear I'm not one of those "Ueeeeh everyone else sucks why are people so mean to me reeee" people either but I genuinely don't know what I'm doing wrong. I've tried bending myself over backwards so many times. I feel so invisible to this world.
I've always felt like just my mere presence was annoying to those around me. I was never invited to anything, never seen as funny or a good friend. And I don't get it. I don't bug people with my problems, I'm not obnoxious nor do I have a weird or inappropriate sense of humor and I don't just latch onto people or insert myself into other people's business. Some uni colleagues and I just chatted through Whatsapp and they all wished each other a good night but they left me on read when I said good night. Just. Why.
No. 1088066
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i first discovered this imageboard around 3-4 years ago when i became extremely invested in the Onision drama. i came back about a year ago after someone i knew was briefly posted about and developed an on and off "addiction" (probably at least 2 hours almost every day) checking snow and pt, mostly. its weird to admit and at first i felt holier than thou because i never replied to the threads and was sort of appalled at how nonnies would reply in some of the threads (i still am). i was never one to gossip or be into drama, and at first it definitely was for entertainment purposes (which is not okay, still) but i did find/do find going here to check snow/pt was very subconsciously causing me to be more judgmental toward others in order to feel better about myself, and i still struggle to really admit that because its something im not certain about. do i believe its more of a way to waste time and procrastinate? yes. but the exposure of the threads and coming on so often most certainly has had some other effects im not all that aware of. i just cant bring myself to believe im not somehow making myself feel better by reading about people shittier than i am.
regardless im not posting this to shame anons who lurk these threads or post in them for whatever personal reasons they have. my vent is that i know i have enough self control to avoid the topics and discussion of others even if some of them are truly degenerate and disgusting people.
i have come to really adore ot/g and i know its still not a healthy habit for myself to lurk daily, but id like to limit myself to just those boards a few times a week. i wanted to thank all of the sweet nonnies who are always so helpful and kind and it breaks my heart that so many of you go through so much. im grateful this isnt a hugbox imageboard and im not here with a desire to reform it or something…i suppose my point is that i dont want to lurk discussions of cows anymore, i just want to enjoy the threads where i can engage in conversation, offer help, and receive help from like-minded girls. its a nice feeling. i so thank you nonnies. i adore you guys.
No. 1088077
>>1088066Aw that's sweet of you! I enjoy ot/g way more for the same reasons.
>>1088072Thank you
nonny. I really hope so.
No. 1088092
>>1087650i should've elaborated; what makes me smile is the fact that my enby/"transmasc" friends are all very clockable as female despite desperately identifying as anything but whereas i, existing in my natural state – just doing whatever the fuck i want – am not. i have what they want but don't know how to get because their minds have been rotted through by tumblr and etc.
i have what tims want too, but will never have: a female body (but once again: while just living how i want).
No. 1088101
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Went on reddit and the second thing I see is some topless protest for Ukraine. The camera fucking leers and stops on their chests and you see the anger and embarrassment in their faces. Whether a woman or man is behind the camera, they know how people walking by will see them, how the internet and random men will sexualize them for daring to stand in bodypaint without a shirt. I don't want to see the comments, I don't want to look at it, I don't want to see all the misogynist comments and sexualizion of these women's boobs that we know will be in the comments. "WOW LUCKY CAMERAMAN HAHA" "GONNA SUPPORT UKRAINR HARDER NOW IF YOU KNWK WHAT I MEEEEAN" "INSERT BOOB JOKE HERE" You don't have to imagine the comments when they write this shit every time they see a baby simply being breastfed. I am so fucking sick and tired of men, even more than usual lately. I wish they would all die so I can walk 2 miles into town without groups of boys of all ages leering at me or making gestures in checkout lines.
You could put posters of men in speedos on the side of liquor stores, insta ads,put blurred out porn on YT ads so men will report them for once. All this would not fucking help or make them feel like we do because women, teenagers, and young girls don't want sexualized images surrounding us 24/7 each day. Mother's don't want their daughters to see sexual images degrading women, they definitely don't want to expose them to men who'll "RUIN YOUR PURITY DONT YOU DARE HAVE SEX." Meanwhile in Moidland: "Hey Son, heard you slept over at your gf's house. Niiiice, you're a real man now!"
It is insane that for 99% of our existence, women have had to curate where they go, how they dress, what words they use around men, and shield themselves from male depravity. Or join in and brainwash themselves to "reduce" the risk of becoming a victim. You can not go to the front page of a website you use to talk about video games for the first time in a week without sexualizion and objectification launching itself straight at your brain.
No. 1088112
>>1088101I know I'm gonna get a
>Went on RedditI know I should delete my account on that male site but its so fast-paced, convenient and safe compared to 4chan. If I didn't like games I'd delete it all.
No. 1088114
>>1088037thank you anon, it’s really hard trying to unlearn all the ridiculous things they’ve planted in my head. it’s so weird you mention that though because this morning before i posted in here i was thinking about starting to go swimming for fitness/health reasons, i didn’t even think about the showers. i guess that’s a good sign that i should push aside my nervousness/paranoia about public spaces and give it a try, thank you!
>>1087495i like your idea too! i used to do something similar but instead of a bucket i would fill up the bath to about ankle level and do it that way. i think i’ll get a cute funky bucket and spice it up now though lmao
No. 1088205
>>1088189I completely agree with you anon. Had no idea there even was drama until I saw a long video in my suggestions the other day. And it's so nothing. Meanwhile these same dudes will defend their other fav male creators being sexual abusers.
It's a good reminder tho to never date an autistic man, even if you are a sperg yourself.
No. 1088218
>>1088189Fully agreed nona, I've only read about the whole drama once because I had no idea about what was going on behind the scenes and didn't really care after reading it. There's this one obsessed autist on various sites (YouTube, Reddit, Know Your Meme) who won't shut up about it (that's how I found out) and he can't understand when people don't give a shit, even after learning what's going on. Ignoring all the drama surrounding his channel is literally the best thing we could do for him and his family, not turning it into an unavoidable mess of a scandal. People like that obsessed guy are selfish, entitled pieces of shit who pretend to care about James but in reality they just care about their own nostalgia.
I did not know scrotes insulted his wife and daughter like that, I always try to avoid anything related to him on sites like 4chan. Fucking disgusting. That's usually what happens when a popular male content creator gets into a serious relationship, they automatically blame the girlfriend or wife for everything.
I remember how hard they were projecting onto him when he announced that he would not review the 2016 Ghostbusters movie. That was fucking vile, the way they used him for their own rightoid misogynistic scrote agenda, when he always wants to avoid drama.
No. 1088222
>>1088197It dates back to when he was out filming his movie and Mike took over for a while, Mike in turn managing to piss off the autistic half of their fanbase by running his mouth at them and being his usual egoistical self. They started spreading rumors that James was using the crowdfunded money for the movie in buying a new house for himself despite there never being any proof for it, made a huge deal about James saying that he doesn't really play video games that much because he prefers movies and dug up every single piece of drama from people he had associated at some point and tied it back to him.
So because of this they still fill the video comments with their screeching at how Screenwave ruined Cinemassacre and how James is a hack and the old AVGN was so much better as if someone was there forcing themselves to watch it. I haven't followed AVGN in at least six years and I was legitimately shocked at people still wasting their time bitching about the dropping quality when they could just as well tune out and find something else to watch like I did. But no, when moidspergs hyperfixate on something they're not letting it go until a new obsession sets in a decade later. The partner company Channel Awesome crashed and burned so hard it was almost painful to see yet they barely turned their gaze from writing the 100th post about how the AVGN doesn't even really play vidya and he's scamming all the true gamerbros.
>>1088205I think I know what long video you mean because it showed up in my suggestions too and inspired me to sperg out like this kek
>>1088218Back when he was filming the movie in LA he asked his wife to produce some posts for the Cinemassacre site to give the fans content so she wrote some really nice blogposts answering the fans' questions about their relationship (how they met, how she helped behind the scenes etc) and the Nerd and some cooking tips and so forth. The worst moids seethed so hard over an icky woman taking daddy James away and after having an incel meltdown in the comments they developed a deeply rooted hatred for her, spreading rumors about her fucking men behind James's back and their daughter not being his real kid etc. It's so awful and James being one of the few male content creators who hasn't been involved in drama, has always been attentive to his fans and is actually a responsible father for once doesn't deserve it, and neither does his wife.
No. 1088271
>>1088260>>1088262That's crazy. I wasn't that invested in her thread, but I was just thinking about how I feel like I've heard of a lot of cow deaths recently and it made me a little sad and it's even worse when it's stuff like an OD. I saw anons talking about a Winona in the stupid questions thread, but just assumed they were talking about Winona Ryder for whatever reason. Anyway, RIP.
>>1088264Ashley is gonna outlive everyone, even The Queen. of England herself.
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>>1088064You are not a nuisance
nonnie. As for the group chat, don't think too much into it. Someone's gotta be the last to say it or it'll just be "goodnight!" all night with no sleep Kek.
No. 1088336
>>1088101>I wish they would all die so I can walk 2 miles into town without groups of boys of all ages leering at me or making gestures in checkout lines.God, yes, please. The last time I went into town a group of teenage boys were in my way so I simply said "excuse me" and then they followed me around shouting coomer and harassing shit at me. For me, lolcow is the only small safe haven I have away from men for the most part. I wish I could make a universe in which only kind nonnies lived, including you. We would have men there but they wouldn't ever speak and would just do manual labour for us. We wouldn't ever even
see them.
>>1088112I get it. Reddit is not good, but compared to 4chan it's great. Somehow after the years have gone by I can have better genuine discussions about my interests such as vidya than I ever could on /v/. Where else is there to go? Subreddits make places to discuss a niche interest very easy to find.
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I stayed up all night playing puzzle mahjong, now my brain is delirious and I just keep thinking of bad things.
I wish the last time I spoke to my rapist I would have been crueler to him. I do not blame myself, I was only 16 and still scared of him… but I hate that by telling him that I don't hate him I just boosted his ego up more. I ghosted him, but before ghosting him I wish I would have told him something simple like to kill himself. Anything. My religious ""friends"" at the time brainwashed me into not being hateful, but I say fuck that now. Being hateful is justified sometimes. That man deserves nothing but hate. I want him to suffer. I want him to die.
I met a girl that has exactly the same sense of humour as me but other than that I can't stand her. She constantly speaks like she thinks she's above everyone else and always knows better. No, you don't. You are nothing special!
I hate how cruel and judgemental the officers I was forced to interact with were. "You haven't gotten a job after college?" Hey, boomer, it's not that easy, I was going through things, fuck you.
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>>1088341God I'm tempted but I don't think he has any public social media anymore. I stupidly forgot his address too. If I remembered it I would have set him up a fake profile on Grindr and sent every ugly old man I could to his house. It would be funny, I don't care!
No. 1088377
>>1088371I get the same way, but then I remember:
Today's paranoid schizo is tomorrow's wise prophet. Keep the list handy, and sleep on it. If you still feel that way in the morning: It would be best to stock up on things that don't expire that you would not be against eating if this turns out to be lots of hot air. Dry beans, canned foods, powdered goods are a good example of things you may want to buy a little bit of on top of your regular shopping list. Maybe buy a little bit at a time so you don't end up buying 6+ months of canned food or something like that.
This is coming from someone who may or may not have stocked up 3 months of canned and freeze-dried food on the lead-up to Covid and found herself having to embarrassingly give it away to friends and family.
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sometimes i just stare in the mirror and cry because of my looks. im a bit on the chubbier side and have been actively dieting and losing weight, i've recovered from BED and im logging my food, doing everything correct. i wonder if im not getting enough exercise, though i start a fairly active job next week part time so maybe that will help. or ive just fucked my metabolism from bounding between bulimia and BED since i was 12.
my body is one thing, but i look past it sometimes (probably a cope) because im hoping ill lose these next 30 pounds and be a lot happier. but god my face. my philtrum is too long and i feel like it makes me look manly with my resting face. my eyes are hooded and my nose is wide and i have chubby cheeks. dairy bloats my face like hell maybe this is just because my period is coming but ive cried so much today over my looks. many people tell me im pretty but ive had a couple of comments over my lifetime, one where a guy said i looked like fiona kek. i wish i didnt care but my appearance is the one thing in life that has kept me from doing so much and im just tired. i keep hoping once those 30 pounds fall off ill feel happier but will it even change much? will i still look ugly? its hard to compare my skinnier pictures to now because im in my 20s. ive also noticed small wrinkles forming on my forehead when i lift my eyebrows up. it just sucks. i want to feel pretty but despite all the skincare and self care in general i do i feel like im stuck in forever ugly limbo.
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What the fuck did I just read. You can’t post pictures about fucking nap time? I mean, I honestly think it’s retarded and weird to post your kids’ lives since the moment they’re born, but to think that some piece of shit is into children sleeping makes me wish I could personally stab all pedophiles with a rusty knife.
No. 1088462
>>1088421okay I wrote this and it'll be long but I hope it helps someone.
sugar is the devil. I say this in no small terms: the problem with sugar isn't that you eat some of it, it's that it or some substitute for it is in everything. When you start looking for it, High fructose corn syrup, or substitutes like Agave Nectar. You may believe that you're avoiding it, but be missing a sugar substitute in something that you're eating regularly, and they can be just as bad. Keto bars are one such example of something that may have a substitute in them that you should be wary of.
Fruits and vegetables are a great staple of your diet but can't be the only staple, fruits, for instance, also contain sugar. Known as 'fructose'. Fructose is generally not as bad as Sucrose, but it's still a sugar, and you should still keep an eye on your consumption of them. Your body processes it, but it can't be the only thing you eat.
The hormone side is a bit foggy because it's dependent on a number of environmental factors. Your hormones depend on the food you eat, the stress you feel, the time you spend outdoors, and if you're on your period, along with a number of tiny things you cannot account for on your own. There are a couple things to keep in mind though: Some foods you eat, particularly dairy, may contain hormones from the host animal that produced it. Milk and cheese can contain hormones used to force cows to produce more. Red meat and Chicken could contain hormones that get absorbed into your body and mistaken as your own. An overabundance of these hormones messes with your hormone imbalance. In moderation, this should never be an issue.
This works both ways, though. Your body also uses food, particular types of protein only found in meat and meat supplements/replacements, to produce hormones. So if you're starving yourself, you're also messing up your hormone imbalance. Imbalanced hormones = imbalanced growth and weight gain = You start finding puffy or swollen pockets of fat where it shouldn't be even though you've eaten no where near enough to build any sort of fat whatsoever.
Thankfully you can do things about this. The correct way to think about hormones isn't too little/too much, but a balance. It's a compromise of body chemistry with the things you eat.
I've been watching a youtube series from a cardiologist who talks about fasting and the effects on the human body. I don't like his language because it gets pretty
toxic at times and he's very straightforward with his accusations, but you have to remember he's lecturing a seminar full of 70 year olds who are on the brink of death. If you can look past that, the advice he gives about paleo and fasting is pretty eye-opening. You don't have to go on a paleo diet and I think that stuff is kind of out-there anyway, but the statements he makes on the frequency of food intake is probably the best part of it.
No. 1088464
I've been talking to this guy (a coworker) and I get strong vibes that we really like each other. I haven't told him because im scared of rejection due to it occurring to me in the past. We tease each other and play fight a lot too. Our manager (a friend of mine before he got the job) has also teased us about constantly being together and doesn't even try to separate us anymore.
I've been getting paranoid that maybe im being too intense and that im just following him around like a lost dog and I look embarrassing to him. A bit earlier I teased him and, because I am terrible about reading tone through texts, I cant tell if I actually annoyed him or if he was playing back. fuck. Part of me is worried he never liked me back at all and im looking into a friendship too much, but he shows a lot of signs? He invites me to go places with him a lot, lets me know when we get food/drinks in stock I may like (we work at a grocery store), once literally let me rest on his shoulder when I was tired, comes over to talk to me every time he sees me, and today specifically went out of his way (making more work for himself) to help me. I was extremely stressed out over a drive up order I had to put together for a customer- things had happened and when I had only 5 minutes left, an essential piece of equipment I needed died. I was freaking out and even though I could probably finish it on time myself, he overheard and immediately stopped what he was doing to help me.
We've also been staying up to play games with each other lately and been getting to know each other a lot more. With every new thing I come to learn about him, I fall a little bit harder. He has so many of my ideal traits. We only see each other twice a week at work, but we work the same shifts those two days. I was thinking about offering to carpool with him those two days so we could see each other more (and save on gas), but im scared im coming on too strong. I really, really, really like him and I want to tell him but im fucking terrified of rejection and im awful with emotions. I struggle so much to open up to someone the first time and im scared of what will happen if I put my heart on my sleeve. im just so scared of being hurt despite how badly I want it. I'm scared of being wrong and the hit my self esteem will take if I get turned away by someone who so clearly seems into me. I'm also scared that rejection could change our relationship- we talk every day and I consider him one of my closest friends, possibly even my best friend. I really want him to make the first move so all this stupid fear can just disappear but he doesnt seem to have a lot of dating experience, so im worried he wont have the confidence to do it (I may be wrong about this, but im nervous that asking him about his dating history would be too on the nose and bring about some awkward questions even though hes asked about mine and we even laughed about it together).
Anyway, mushy shit below. I looked for a love related thread, but couldn't find one.
R, I really like you. You have fantastic music taste, which is really important to me. You laugh at all my jokes and I love all of yours. When you showed me you could tell the difference between my real and fake laughs (which is usually not noticed), I realized how much you really pay attention to me and notice me. You told me you like my laugh and my voice and you make me feel so pretty when you just look at me and smile. You're dorky and take interest in my hobbies and I really love the reasons why you want to be a nurse. You're smarter than you think and i'm envious of your work ethic. You also struggle with ADHD, im so fucking happy you understand me when I talk about how my ADHD impacts me. I know you have a soft spot for me and the little things you do make me melt. You also surprise me with my favorite drink so often and I love how sweet and caring you are towards your mom. You're hair is also really cute. Thanks for making me so happy when I wake up every morning.
Anyways sorry if this is autistic, I feel embarrassed to pour my heart out like this so anonymous thread it is!
No. 1088469
>>1088464Go for it sister, pull the
trigger and never regret doing it for even a second.
No. 1088474
>>1088462I'm re-reading this and realize that I've really simplified the Hormone problem. Your body is in balance with hormones like estrogen and testosterone (yes, you make some too) and the amount isn't actually as important as the ratio. If you're still producing say, 75%estrogen and 25% testosterone (these aren't real numbers I'm just saying hypothetically) and this is in balance for your body, it doesn't matter if you're producing/consuming a lot of it or a little bit of it, as long as the ratio sticks.
But we can't measure percentages of these chemicals, just the effects they have on our body. And your body is producing estrogen and a little bit of testosterone all of the time. I don't want to say it's trial/error to find the right balance point but trying to cut your food intake back (which is hard, I still haven't done it all of the way) and adding a little bit at a time until you get your desired results is a safe way of finding it.
No. 1088478
>>1088474thank you for this
nonnie its a lot to take in and i still have to watch the video and do some outside research on paleo. my takeaways right now are:
>basically avoid sugar like the plague, but with my self control i think i need a fruit every other day at least. ill stick to flavored tea more often to sate the sweet tooth.>get outdoors more for walks because i never spend time in nature anymore>cut out cheese completely (i feel this has a lot of effects on my diet not to mention im lactose intolerant anyway)i hate how weight loss feels so mathematical. the thing is, ive done all of the above before but i guess the issue was it was never consistent for a long period of time.
No. 1088484
>>1088478np
nonnieIf you can't do it all consistently, don't try to force yourself to do it all at once. Forming habits takes about three weeks of reinforcement per habit you want to break. It's why stop-smoking programs operate on steps. Each food you eat right now you can think of as a habit, and instead of trying to cut it all out cold turkey, instead try substituting pieces parts of the stuff you want to get rid of gradually over time. 20s is still young, and you have plenty of time to course correct.
Instead of saying "I need to cut all of this out right now" think "I need to cut all of this out in the next six months". Think about things you could crave for to replace something like cheese that may not also be as healthy, but is a step in the right direction. Yogurt would be a great direction to go in, especially probiotic yogurt.
Supplement this with exercise, maybe some light jogging or just taking a nice hike someplace where you can get your pulse up (this is the important part, make your pulse reach levels it wouldn't normally hit), and you're onto a winning formula.
Remember: We're all gonna make it
No. 1088488
>>1088482Oh wow, how cool and amazing, something that hasn’t happened in 100 years, the prophecy will be fulfilled thanks to your sacrifice, oh valiant heroine! Please do tell us about your wonderful experience full of insights about life.
Maybe even tell us about the future, most of those who lose their virginity become able to see the future and prevent catastrophes and the sorts, you are our only salvation, soon-to-lose-her-virginity, the precious, unique and amazing gift given by god himself, the only thing that only you have and that nobody has ever gotten in 100 years.
Thank you so much, for losing your virginity tonight.
No. 1088496
>>1088494Don’t feel sorry,
nonnie, as long as your moid isn’t a beast, he should be able to know when to go slow and such. It will be fine! And remember that men are disposable, just have fun.
No. 1088505
>>1088502I will do this just for you
> Oh wow, how cool and amazing, something that hasn’t happened in 100 years, the prophecy will be fulfilled thanks to your sacrifice, oh valiant heroine! Please do tell us about your wonderful experience full of insights about life. Maybe even tell us about the future, most of those who lose their virginity become able to see the future and prevent catastrophes and the sorts, you are our only salvation, soon-to-lose-her-virginity, the precious, unique and amazing gift given by god himself, the only thing that only you have and that nobody has ever gotten in 100 years.
Thank you so much, for losing your virginity tonight.
/JIt means it’s a joke in underaged autist, I hope you understand now No. 1088507
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nonnies I will never feel happy the deeper I go into the void… help
No. 1088522
I think about my first boyfriend too often.
When I was 17, I dated a guy a few years older than me, a college guy. I thought I was so cool for being able to snatch a college guy. He had gone to my high school and I saw him around a few times, but never spoke too much. we started talking over snapchat and he asked me out. First boyfriend ever, yay!
Our relationship had been going so well. He took me out to such nice dates and paid for it all- even took me on an overnight trip to the beach. He was so sweet and normal. Things started to go fast pretty fast.
He started to lie about strange things. For example, I love boba tea. He knew this and once took me to a place. He looked at the menu, even told me what he was going to get, but when we ordered, he got nothing and just paid for my drink. When I asked why he didnt get anything, he told me he actually hated boba and didnt want to get anything. I got annoyed and told him the only reason I wanted us to go was because I thought we both liked it- I felt selfish and awkward because of him. Why did he lie about wanting it? I told him to be more honest with me because I felt weird about it and wanted to do things we both liked. This happened repeatedly throughout the relationship and he never tried to change this. It got more intense and I began to feel guilt by default any time we did something I wanted to do since I knew he probably wouldnt like it.
I lost my virginity to him. It was not good and I did not enjoy it, even though he did. I had terrible self esteem at the time, so I insisted on keeping as much clothes on as possible. As we had sex more, I would wear less clothes. The first time he saw my breasts, I blushed and asked if he liked them (or something similar to that). He shrugged and said they were okay. He kept making comments about everything about my body. Even whether I had shaved my legs. He refused to eat me out and said I tasted weird, which I found humiliating. I was so nervous, I had kept everything so clean and eaten as healthy as possible so it wouldnt taste, well, bad. Mind you, I was also his first, so he had no frame of reference. After time, I became self conscious about every part of my body. I'm still so hyper aware of everything. It got to the point of me never wanting to have sex with him. He became more angry and pushy every time he wanted it. He would count the days since the last time we had sex and get angry if it had been too long for him. Shortly before the end of our relationship, he had cornered me. I thought he was going to rape me. He got a phone call he had to answer and I left while they were talking. I still wonder if he would have done it. Every day I regret that I wasted my virginity on him.
He introduced me to his friends after a while. I didnt think they were very funny and didnt get many of their jokes. I wanted to be polite and leave a good impression though. I pretended to laugh when I could tell it was appropriate. After a bit, we decided to go out to dinner. We rode in the same car, but when we arrived, he told his friends to go inside and that we would catch up. I was confused, but could tell he wanted to talk. When they were gone, I could see his hands gripping the steering wheel until they were white. He looked at me in rage and with tears in his eyes and told me firmly to stop laughing at their jokes. I felt guilty- maybe I had accidently been flirtatious or ignoring him. I apologized and helped him calm down before we went inside, where I carefully calculated how often I laughed at their jokes for the rest of the night.
As we got closer, he began to make dark comments about his parents (whom he lived with). He would talk about how much he hated them and even started to tell me that he wanted to kill them. I had no idea how to react and tried to brush it off- I thought he was just being dramatic and edgy. I told myself relationships were about understanding each other emotionally.
He had diabetes. He ate pretty poorly and, for some reason, refused to take his insulin. On multiple occasions, he exploded at me and screamed until I was frozen. I became too terrified to speak during these episodes. A few times, he went catatonic and I had to take him to the hospital mid panic attack. He never took it no matter how much I begged him to.
I found out he had been using weed, shrooms, LCD, and heroin. When I confronted him, he explained that my source was an old ex friend and that he had cleaned up. He didnt do any of that stuff anymore. I never got a definite answer on whether or not this was the truth, but I now believe I have good reason to believe he was lying. At the time though, I felt guilty for being so mad and I acted happy for him in his sobriety.
One day, while we were hanging out, his parents called him down to talk about school. I had been wary and suspicious of him. He was still logged onto his computer. I went through his desktop folders and found my worst nightmare. Pictures of mutilated body parts and dead people. He didn't take them- they had watermarks and were clearly downloaded from those dumbass gore websites. I was still scared shitless, though. I closed everything and tried to act normal. When he came back, I quickly made up an excuse and left. I was fucking terrified.
He always carried a gun with him. I wasnt weirded out by this. My dad is a gun loving republican and I am a born and raised Texan. Guns are everywhere and im not surprised when people have them, much less scared. He began to have a bit too much fun with it. He would wave it around constantly and play with it. One day, he pulled it out and pointed it at me. He told me to give him a kiss. After I did, he burst into laughter and put it away. He did it a few more times before we broke up.
It was hard to hang out with my friends. He always wanted to be with me and got mad when I wanted to leave. He would constantly text me and would get mad if I didnt respond soon enough. The time frame got smaller- a few hours, one hour, thirty minutes, ten minutes. He would blow up my phone, calling me and telling me he was crying and having a panic attack and asking if I was going to break up with him. It was impossible to hang out with my friends because I had to constantly be texting him to support him.
One day, he looked me in the eye and told me he was a terrorist. I had no idea how to react and tried laughing. I thought it was a ridiculous joke. This was right before we broke up- I had been thinking about it, but was nervous and had no idea how to do it. To prove it, he showed me proof of him being in the registered terrorist database and being on the no fly list. I don't know if he was being honest or unbearably edgy. I have not tried looking it up myself due to 1. not remembering the spelling of his name and 2. wanting to distance myself from the information and situation as much as possible. Regardless, considering everything that had occurred prior (above), I was terrified. I went home that day sobbing, calling all my friends and finally revealing everything about our relationship that I had tried to hide.
I had a bad relationship and lived separately from them. I called them, though. They answered and I told them everything. Our talk was awkward and strained and they had called me stupid. We had agreed I would break up with him and made a plan for my safety. Where I lived at the time had no house key; I entered with a number pad and code. Due to my boyfriends insistence, he knew the code. I was sobbing and thought he was going to try to kill me. I dont know if he would have actually, but I was overwhelmed and more scared than I had ever felt in my entire life. He could get to me whenever he wanted. My parents bought me plane tickets to go stay with them at their home in Colorado until I could find a new place to stay. I called my friends again and told them my own plan.
I met him at a popular park. My parents told me to just ghost him- I wish I had. He didnt deserve to hear from me ever again. My friends sat in their car in the parking lot with 911 punched into a phone. My signal to call 911 was if I rubbed the back of my neck with my hand. I had no idea what to expect. He didnt know they were there- he just thought we were meeting up. It was short. He broke down into tears and I had no idea what to do. I was scared of him lashing out, so I gave him a hug and quickly left. I hid until he left and joined my friends in their car. They were mad at me for hugging him, but relieved my fears didnt come true. I spent the night at my best friends house and left the next day for my parents. The "old friend" I had heard about the drugs from? Apparently he had lied about their relationship- they were still close. The friend was upset when I told them everything, but decided to keep neutral to keep tabs on my now ex. He told me that the night I broke up with my ex, he wrote a suicide note and went back to the park where I broke up with him. He put the gun in his mouth but couldnt bring himself to pull the trigger. I dont know whether I wish he had. Maybe he just lied for pity points. Who knows. I kept tabs on him online still, and for good reason. Years later and he was still making tweets about missing me and never loving anyone again. He talked about hating me as well and how I deserve to be raped and killed. I havent checked in a while. I wish he would forget I ever existed. Our entire relationship was blinded by me thinking things were my fault and that I wasnt being understanding or kind enough. I was stupid.
I'm doing good now. It was traumatic and I sometimes have nightmares about the experience. I still think about what could have happened. Maybe I was being dramatic and none of my fears would have come true. I was scared and that may have distorted it all. Maybe I was just being dramatic. I have an okay relationship with my parents now. I'm fully independent and am moving in with my best friend soon (the one who let me spend the night with her and watched me in that parking lot). Things arent great, but theyre okay. I cant afford therapy. I've managed this long, so I may not even need it. He only comes back to haunt me every once in a while. I guess i'll see. I still feel so conflicted and gross about it all. I hate that I remember it all.
I'm sorry this is so long. I needed to get it off my chest, its really been getting to me today. I hope you are all doing well. Im sorry you guys are even in this thread in the first place, I hope things get better for you soon.
No. 1088538
>>1088521NONA STOP
Everyone is into ultra hot people they feel are out of their league. I cant speak on your appearance, but beauty is very much only skin deep. im a bi woman and every time I have been into someone attractive, I have quickly lost interest if I do not like their personality. I would (along with many others) rather date someone considered conventionally unattractive if I have a deep love for them. Your heart is what truly makes you beautiful- appearances are temporary.
Know that there are so many people who feel how you do and even more who will date you and find you beautiful even if you do not think you are. ily nona
No. 1088546
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>>1088522Wow
nonny. That's a lot to be put through especially when you were so young. I've been in an
abusive relationship before but it definitely wasn't this intense and I
still had nightmares and trauma reactions from it for quite so time, so honestly I think you're doing amazing for handling it as well as you are. Therapy would definitely be a plus at some point but I'm super proud of you for getting out and being independent now. I believe you will only keep healing in time.
No. 1088557
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>>1088522Christ, that was hard to read, but I'm glad nothing happened to you when you broke up with him
nonny and I'm sorry for all the shit he did to you.
No. 1088561
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the lead in my deli department pisses me of so much. yeah i hate this job too and i also do the bare minimum because this just a part time job for me but i don’t do shit that screws over my other coworkers.
he never fucking tells me when he’s going on breaks or lunches so when i’m swamped with customers, i go looking for him and waste time trying to find him when he’s actually just in the break room. often times i get such a short shift, i do not get a lunch, only a 15 minute break and i’m never asked if i want to go before he takes his lunch. he just goes.
he also just randomly leaves to go talk to other employees at different departments or in the break room, leaving me all alone. today was the worst of it since this limped dick decided to do this on a really busy day.
it all started with me being in the front ALONE with customer after customer. he was working on shit in the back and when i asked him if he could help me with a customer that was waiting, he sent another coworker to help me instead. she was actually working and you know what he was doing?? making a sandwich just for one girl in a different department. with a bunch of add ons that shouldn’t be on the sandwich and she didn’t get charged for. (we don’t make sandwiches to order btw. we just have one or two types of sandwiches on a heat display.) so that was annoying.
but then, when i want to desperately go to the bathroom to change my pad, i keep getting one customer after another AND MY FUCKING LEAD NO WHERE IN SIGHT AGAIN!!!!! so when customers finally stopped showing up, i said fuck it and ran to the break room bathrooms to change my pad. and who do i see??? my fucking lead talking to the girl he made the sandwich for while she’s eating the sandwich. i was so fucking pissed.
and that’s not all. it didn’t just piss me off as an employee, it pissed me off as a woman. because here he is making sandwiches, practically flirting with this girl all while being engaged to a woman he’s been in a relationship with for years and has been living with for years. what he’s doing is absolutely emotional cheating.
i feel so fucking bad for his gf and i’ve never even met her. i have seen pictures of her and she’s honestly drop dead gorgeous and she’s smart and successful too. she’s a nurse and makes far more money than he does since he’s such a unmotivated loser who just gets by. i’ve heard through the grapevine that they often have periods where they fight and i honestly hope in the next one that they have, she kicks him the fuck out.
imagine being the breadwinner and your useless 30 year old bf is emotionally cheating with a girl younger than you and he can’t even get his shit together enough to finally marry you. why the fuck does any woman put up with this??? i bet my left tit he doesn’t do shit around the house, like all fucking men, and she does all the chores. oh but he CAN make a sandwich for his coworker. just coworkers btw. i fucking hate men and i fucking hate my job. the only cope i have is that i graduate next year and hopefully have a better life with my degree. fuck wage slave part time jobs. you get the worst fucking specimens.
No. 1088678
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i missed a major deadline for a super easy class and now my grade is fucking abysmal (i'm talking sub 50%). i feel so numb to it. i can't ask to turn it in late either because she has a "one late assignment only :)!" rule.
late on some other assignments for another course as well. i feel utterly retarded but at least i have a chance at getting those in late. gonna go to sleep now (it's 3am) and plow through everything. at least i have a's in my other classes (though one of them is like, a group-based course, so that's fucked in its own ways). cannot wait until spring break i'm gonna zone out even harder than usual
No. 1088823
>>1088713Anon i know my experience is not like yours, but i casually dated through apps for fucking years and it was awful (like coffee dates so most dates fizzled out quick when i realized they were lame. They all were so… vapid? Fake? Pushy.
When I Finally except ill be alone forever and delete the app i met my person 3 weeks later and the spark was there, it was dorky, and we are still happily together years later.
Cupid is gonna shoot his arrow - not match ya on some app made by silicon valley men who are far too socially inept.
Get ur but out there socially so cupid can take its shot ♥
No. 1088890
>>1088885Are you anon's cat?
>>1088881She didnt mean it sweetie
No. 1088897
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I'm so weak mentally, the more I grow and the simpliest task becomes harder to do. I just can't stand a single wall and give up easily, I want simplicity and clarity for everything I have to do or else I procrastinate because I'm confused. Fuck my defitist mind I want to be stronger.
No. 1089185
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>>1089163How do you get past their looks though? Obv it's not the most important thing in a relationship but how do you manage to be intimate with them?
Being with an "ugly" guy can give him an ego boost though and I've seen girls getting cheated on by their ugly moids because they suddenly got a burst of confidence and thought they could do better (the irony).
No. 1089186
>>1089006Anon, ex bulimic here, its not fun and is actually immensely painful. Its like feeling your body slowly die because of your actions, your teeth rotting, ulcers forming everywhere, you cant function. I used to faint all the time from it and had a lot of deficiencies as well.
I also used to have bed so I understand it can be hard. I still struggle with it on occasion. I would recommend seeing a therapist or reading some books on bed to learn how to move on from it. I personally recovered by getting into vaping
for a few months until I was able to transition into chewing gum and other coping methods that didnt involve my mouth. But if you really think you'll get long term addicted to the nicotine try not doing that
No. 1089204
>>1089185>>1089178I think for my its just a lot of psychological association. Like, I associate attractive men with bad relationships and unhappiness due to my own dating history. I just always try to keep an open mind and have seen in myself that when I love someone's heart, they become immensely physically attractive to me as well. And getting cheated on by an ugly guy DOES happen but it happens way less than when with attractive ones
>>1089197I mean any guy can be. I believe really strongly in meeting people through hobbies so you can actually be friends and know their morals before committing. Ugly guys, from what ive experienced, just tend to be more humble cause they didnt get shit handed to them for their looks and they dont feel immensely entitled (like for sex)
No. 1089206
>>1089186Apologies, I didn't meant to imply it's actually better, I know that's the disordered thoughts talking. It's like intrusive thoughts when I see someone who gets so ill they can't hold down food and I realize it's absolutely terrible but a voice in my head wishes that was me.
I'm starting intensive therapy for it this month actually, I guess that's part of why it's on my mind even more then usual.
No. 1089213
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Almost flipped out on my friend's boyfriend today for calling another friend of ours a whore (she wasn't present though). I HATE HATE HATE it when moids do that. They're the biggest whores.
No. 1089380
>>1089342>he said people just dont want to climb the ranks and $15/hour is a liveable wage and he made even less at his age and didnt want to hear about inflation or anythingkek I fucking hate people like this so much.
I think college is only worth it if you're in a tech related field, or if you're making tons of connections to secure a job. I went to school for international relations and only recently lucked out for a job slightly related to my field but the pay is absolute shit. It has its upsides (I maintain good worklife balance and my boss doesn't mind even though the poor dude id overworked af, decent benefits, and easy workload) but god damn the pay sucks. If I didn't live rent free with my parents I don't know what the fuck I'd do. It's bleak. I would say to stay in college regardless of your degree because a lot of jobs just want a bachelors. Doesn't matter if your degree is related or not, I've seen a lot of jobs require it as the bare minimum which is stupid as fuck if it's not even related to the position.
No. 1089382
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I hate that I can't carry a decent conversation due to social anxiety and language barrier. I always get old people trying to talk to me and I can tell they're lonely but my autistic brain can't handle it REEEEE
No. 1089398
>>1089342>>1089380Not US but my field also has decent wages generally. But man the housing market is so fucked I wonder if I'll ever be able to move out. Worse, I'll make too much for social housing.
Even for the most basic of 1 bedroom apartments its an average of a 1000 euro a month and they all want you to make at least 3 to 4 times that.
No. 1089411
>>1089185tbh you have to be the type of woman to value emotional connection and satisfaction over looks in order to date an ugly guy. i have to be emotionally validated to be turned on.
to me, my bf isn't ugly (like duh of course i'd say that) but i know he's not considered attractive by most people but i don't care. my attraction to him is how sweet and considerate he is. he's also funny and i'm attracted to humor. it's how he makes me feel that keeps me with him. i feel safe with him too. if a scrote actually has a personality and satisfies your needs, it can completely over shadow his looks.
don't date stinky men tho. no excuse for not washing your ass and cock.
No. 1089543
My best friend and I have been planning to move out for years, but whenever she sends me listings, 90% of the time they're usually too far from public transport. For YEARS she has refused to acknowledge that I want to live <10 minute walk from the subway. It's a luxury, sure, but if she plans on having a car and driving to and from work and has the luxury to just pull up to the apartment, I should get to have the luxury to be able to walk to/from the subway in less than 10 minutes. My reasoning used to be because I used to work very late shifts, but even as I work an office job with regular hours now, I just don't want to walk so far to the subway!
It's so fucking annoying that she doesn't consider proximity to public transport. She doesn't even drive yet, nevermind the cost of owning a car in my state (plus dealing with parking), so I don't know why she acts like she most likely won't be relying on public transportation too! Also fuck the buses in my city, I want to be near the subway, being near a bus stop isn't good enough.
No. 1089562
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seeing my friends still be into weebshit into their twenties gives me secondhand embarrassment now that I don't like the majority of weebshit. and it feels like we have nothing in common anymore. there is a very complex reason I started disliking anime and abandoned it, but I feel like a sperg everytime I try and explain it. i just wish they'd discuss other shit that wasn't teeth rotting, mind numbing nihonjo cartoons. anything for gods sake, or I didn't have to see it so much, because I am starting to feel repulsed, especially by the sight of 2d men
No. 1089585
>>1089568I was into it since my early teens until my early twenties. After spending a long time around weeb spaces and in weeb interest groups, I started to lose patience. As I became increasingly educated on feminism I also realized how the genre objectifies women and youth, and pushes some disturbing fetishistic implications. When the pandemic onset I had contemplated ditching japanese animated media for awhile. I did. Occasionally I will still read manga. There are anime I still don't hate, a few still hold up, but I realized Japan had a degeneracy problem seeping into their animated media. Like unironically Miyazaki was right that anime is a mistake.
while in anime communities I was harassed by numerous groups of people, mostly pedophilic men, incel men, deranged fujoshis, and the people therein were quite catty. I used to be sort of a pickme, I'd throw myself into slights for the sake of attention. This backfired on me when years later I had revenge porn spread that contained old photos. They tried to push those photos as recent. The moids who spread them also made badly shooped deepfakes of me. Having felt disgraced and disgusted by weebs behavior, this combined with my feminist ideals made me want to stop watching anime altogether. It's both personal and social reasons. Plus, as someone who loves expressions, I realized a 3d person can emote a lot better than a weeb character can. I don't really like idealization of 2d dorito chins, I'm now attracted to 3d folks with flaws, and that's ok. Just drives me batty to see my friends so into it
I feel like I wasted ten years of my life watching fetish crap, even though I know it's not all like that. It didn't compile everything I watched. I feel so stunted and childish because of it
No. 1089646
>>1089641Nice argument after you blame a girl who got fucked over by weebs because it hurts your feelings and your totally
valid addiction to cartoon gay porn.
No. 1089653
>>1089645adding to this that I'm also bisexual and not straight and I never got any gratification out of watching two men fuck, so take with that what you will, I'm not sexually attracted to watching gay dudes fuck and never will be. western fangirls on tumblr with the superwholock shit weirded me out too
if anything again, all this would have made me a worse pickme coomer than I was. I can't understand why y'all uphold watching scrotes fuck as powerful or feminist, it's not
No. 1089660
>>1089655This is the first time I expressed by opinion about this topic. Take ur meds. Not everyone who hates your aids riddles porn addiction is the same person.
>>1089653I'm bi too and it does nothing to me either.
No. 1089666
>>1089655I'm OP not the other chan and I don't really care about fujoshit as long as you're a harmless fujoshit, problem is there does exist a deranged form of fujoshit. I don't really care as long as you keep it away from me.
I always hated when I went through my sports anime phase how rude the fandoms were if you dared to say the cast wasn't homoerotically gay for one another. Like far be it for me to say they're not gay I guess
The west does gay stories a lot better, yaoi is a needlessly sexed up genre that fetishizes its characters and unhealthy power dynamics
No. 1089715
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this site or at least ot is practically dead. i’m so bored i will gladly take my ban if it’s handed out. i am doing art while sperging so i’m not totally wasting time but yes I am too retarded to log off.
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>>1089585>I also realized how the genre objectifies women and youthanime is not a monolith, but alright.
> japanese animated mediafaggot-y way to phrase this.
>Like unironically Miyazaki was right that anime is a mistake.he never actually said that, that screenshot was a meme edit, check your sources.
> I was harassedoh man that sucks what did you do to get their attenti–
>I'd throw myself into slights for the sake of attentionyeah, that'll do it!
>I had revenge porn spread that contained old photossooo…YOU yourself sent your nude body to a moid, or let him record you during sex? smart move seesta.
>I don't really like idealization of 2d dorito chinsnot every show features dorito chins, but alright.
> I'm now attracted to 3d folks with flawswoww you're so mature, and it's impossible for fictional characters to be complicated. yass queen yasss!
anyway you just sound balls to the wall retarded. i bet you only watched shonen anime and seasonal moecrap/harem shows. very sorry that you restricted your experience of an entire art medium to a few shitty series and double sorry that you think ditching "weebshit" makes you somehow superior to anyone that enjoys it. hope you enjoy whatever you're into now. probably euphoria or some other normie shit.
>>1089638>this entire postholy shit kill yourself and i mean that
No. 1089891
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the nice old lady housesitting next door left me my mail by my door but it was placed exactly underneath a shelf so when i stood up i boinked the fuck out of my head and now i have a goose-egg bump and it hurts a lot. whats the likelihood she was actually attempting to murder me?
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The Ivy league school my sister goes to doesn't have any fucking vegan food for her. A school that generations of successful/rich fuck business people have graduated from and the only thing she could eat was 3 PIECES OF BROCCOLI. She has an exam tomorrow and she's only going to have unfulfilling cereal and hurt with hunger pangs. Ivy league colleges are such a fucking sham what the fuck is my little 90 pound sister going to eat
No. 1089896
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Some people are just letting themselves be lied to in order to confirm their biases at times. It previously made me feel bad and annoyed at the person doing the lying, until I realized that some falsehoods and hypocrisy are so incredibly glaring and if anyone doesn't see it they either aren't paying attention or are actively choosing not to
No. 1089900
>>1089896What’s this about,
nonny?
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I just want karma to get his ass. I shouldn’t put out negative energy but I can’t believe he fucking betrayed me after accusing me of having another bf. I was so in love with him and I’m embarrassed how he moved on so quick. I feel like a loser. He was like my best friend we would text everyday and not having that hurts. I just miss laying next to him. I don’t think he will ever be with me again and I hate myself for thinking maybe he will realize he fucked up and regret losing me. But I doubt that. I don’t know if this relationship was real, everything he said was probably lies I feel like I’m going insane
No. 1090021
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>>1089645>>1089648lmao NTA but you made me remember that time I was in middle school and a massive fujo with fujo friends who were even bigger spergs than me irl, I forgot exactly how I met them but these two adult women (in their 20s or 30s) in a fujo Facebook group invited us to a meetup to talk about yaoi and other than them only my friend and I showed up. They gave us this CG printed as a postcard for attending.
Those older fujos would post pretty explicit shit on their FB all the time too. One of them posted her cellphone theme and it was all full of gay anime porn
>>1089585>I realized Japan had a degeneracy problem seeping into their animated mediahave you read this article? because it's true
https://crawfordpro.wordpress.com/2020/05/03/article-the-castle-of-doom-and-the-lolicon-boom/>I was harassed by numerous groups of people, mostly pedophilic men, incel menugh I remember when I used to go to cons every year, also in middle school, and I hanged out with some of the people who frequented them. I was super into Pokemon at the time so I went to a small event organized by the local Pokemon autists. One of the organizers was a creepy, literally autistic guy in his 20s while I was like 15 and had just met the guy who would later be my first boyfriend. Not sure how true this is (probably 100%) but later when we became a couple he told me that the autist and he had talked for a while that day, and that the autist had told him that he liked me and about his love for lolicon. I used to wear shorts all the time so imagining that he was looking at me, a 15 year old that way is revolting.
I am still into
some anime and manga (but find most of it terrible for many different reasons), and enjoy playing video games from time to time, but I unironically believe that anime, cartoons and video games attract more autistic, degenerate and childish people than most other hobbies. They're hobbies full of people who haven't matured psychologically despite being fully developed adults, manchildren (and plenty of womanchildren too, lbr).
My mother always told me this. I became convinced of it after I found out that someone who I had known since childhood, a man in his late 20s who is into all that nerd shit and very invested in those hobbies, had molested a kid in his family when he was almost an adult. Before we knew about that, my parents would use him as an example.>>1089602You're not wrong, I've also noticed that anime has only gotten worse over the years, in many different ways. There are still a few good anime coming out each season, sure, but few of them become as popular as the cheap shit full of fanservice or dumb, still sexist shonenshit.
No. 1090070
>>1088225me too anon and it makes me wish blade's thread hadn't been deleted, luna and all the drug addict girls kinda helped me not to relapse or romanticize my using days. does anyone know what blade's tumblr is? one of the fan accounts on instagram has been posting screen shots of old tumblr posts of hers so I think it's still up, or maybe an old one is? i loved the internet ghost threads and wish there was another one.
also the thing with lil bo weep that was so sad is I really do think she went downhill and everything the surgery and the tattoos and the anorexia ensured that she wouldn't recover because it was so visible. altering your appereance to that extent makes people in society treat you differently, you don't get to be treated as a normal person ever again, even in small interactions and that stuff kinda wears on you. reminds me of when I had two black eyes and would be followed around stores and treated like a crackhead.
No. 1090165
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I think the real pink-pill is that post-WWII Japanese is just really fucked up and unnatural for both men and women
fujoism, lolicon, kawaii culture e.t.c all come up from a really fucked up society that embraced neo-liberalism and destroyed itself
It is fucked up to read to read stories of little boys and girls getting raped and the fact people actually argue that this is somehow art just blows up my mind, like Christ
No. 1090172
>>1090168This is what I mean, it shouldn't be controversial to say that both are fucked up
literally some of the first Fujo "artwork" is just full on filled with rape
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kaze_to_Ki_no_UtaSure one may be a worse but the other still is just filled with rape and sexualization of children, I just don't get it
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>>1090180>The primary characters of Kaze to Ki no Uta are bishōnen, a term for androgynous male characters that sociologist Chizuko Ueno describes as representing "the idealized self-image of girls". Takemiya has stated that her use of protagonists that blur gender distinctions was done intentionally, in order "to mentally liberate girls from the sexual restrictions imposed on us [as women]." By portraying male characters with physical traits typical of female characters in manga – such as slender bodies, long hair, and large eyes – the presumed female reader is invited to self-identify with the male protagonistI always find this odd, cause apparently
the appearance of most of the cast was based of then 14 year old Bjornn Anderson and while he was a cute kid, he was still undeniably male looking
there was nothing gender bending about him
No. 1090204
>>1090191samefag
you'll often see the claim that going to Japan helped him somehow and he liked going there but in his In a recent documentary he actually said he fucking hated Japan and the pedo art of him
No. 1090209
>>1090207I think the point was that moids
will likely act on it unlike women, even the most degen women who like loli porn and other coomer moidshit would never rape kids unless coerced and groomed into it by male pedos.
No. 1090210
>>1090195Only gore I'd ever post would be male suicide related and sent to scrotes to make them seethe. Take your pills, I'm not a man for telling you it's unhealthy to hate on women.
>>1090187Kek. Thank you anon. They judge all women for consuming any other media like this anon did here
>>1090108by calling any woman who likes anything else than yaoi self inserting narcs.
>>1090207Ofc not.
No. 1090243
>>1089868kek I've been on a film kick but most of what I watch is random or trash cinema and not critical darlings, I do enjoy what's labeled a film bro movie every now and then. I think I'm also pretty insufferable with or without the anime lmao. the problem is I like to be entertained so a lot of movies bore me with their lack of engagement. no matter how much scrotes like to prop up crap like the Irishman as good film a lot of scrote films bore me. 2.5-3hour movies are heavily hit or miss
I wish you luck with your film venture, nona. If you ever feel like hyper fixing on an actor, it's pretty fun to watch their entire filmography. These days for me it's mostly about random films at random times. My latest was some 00s teen romcom and now I want to watch something completely different
No. 1090264
>>1090176I dont get the yaoi hate. I dont care for yaoi because im a lesbian but fujos are based for making men feel uncomfortable. Why should we care about fictional moids being raped? Im glad to see moids in media being treated like shit kek
I just dont get how yaoi is seen as bad meanwhile im a lesbian and most stuff meant for lesbians are actually meant for gross moids.
No. 1090266
>>1090218>>1090214I know he's been a mentioned a lot but the case of Robert Maudsley disproves the childhood trauma defense of serial killers and rapists
Maudsley was physically and sexually abused his entire childhood and had to work as a call boy when he was a teenager and despite that he never harmed any innocent woman or child
he murdered a client who had a collection of child smut porn almost immediately after he showed him, he was sentenced to life imprisonment and so murdered 3 other human cockroaches, 2 Pedophile rapists and a wife beater who beat his wife to death
>In 1978, Maudsley killed two fellow prisoners at Wakefield Prison in one day. His first victim was Salney Darwood, convicted of the manslaughter of his wife. Maudsley had invited Darwood to his cell, where he garrotted and stabbed him before hiding his body under his bed. he was in prison, he could have any killed any drug dealer or petty thief, but he only went after the truly horrible pieces of shit
No. 1090269
>>1090264See
>>1090191 where fujo writer uses an underage boy as the idealized female, proving the misogyny and wish to be male.
>>1090184 and
>>1090187 about the internalized misogyny of most fujos. They don't make men uncomfortable, they usually act weird towards women and even send porn to underage girls instead. They call women interested in fm or ff stuff narcissistic and treat any woman character or actress as a potential threat to their gay ship. They only like yaoi because there's no male competition and whenever a female character id depicted happy in one of their comics, they get very upset because they can't stand the sight of happy women.
No. 1090273
>>1090269Thats disturbing anon. I always assumed yaoi only
triggered moids and troons but its creepy theyd take it out on women wtf
No. 1090274
>>1089775Nonna, are you doing things genuinely because you want to or because you're expecting your friends to do the same for you?
It seems that you're doing this to be liked/valued more, and it could be that your friends already know that you're gonna be the one to always put up the effort for things to happen (planning special events, for instance) instead of doing it themselves, because you're the doing it all the time. It is okay to be a bit "selfish" and let people fend for themselves every now and then to show that you're also have responsabilities and other stuff going in your life (even if you actually don't have anything going, your time is precious too!). Why are you always putting up the effort? You need to match their energy if you've seen time and time again that you're the one keeping the fire alive on the friendship.
Try not to be so reactive to them; if there's an event coming up, don't be the one to organize. If they ask for you help to push the responsability to you again (weaponized incompetence), be a bit aloof and vague about your availability to do it ("ah I have XYZ happening the same week, will be hard for me to help").
I know it sounds kinda schizo but I once was in your schoes and a lot of times I'd be the one doing everything while my friends would just leeched my goodwill out. I still struggle a bit with this but nowadays I only put the effort for people that actually has done something for me and has been a good friend/emotional support in times of need, and made my friendships way better. You might lose people in the process, but it's better to not have them in the first place once you know they don't care about you. Remember that not everyone that hangs out with you is trully your friend, sometimes they just want to spent time with someone and be entertained, but you won't be the one whom they tell their deep darkest secret (and nether should you).
Sorry for the blogpost, but I wish I knew this type of stuff earlier in life and I hope it helps. Video related for more in-depth of what I'm trying to say.
No. 1090283
>>1090280Ignore them. By being affected you're only giving them what they want. They love writing about lesbians because they know those women wouldn't be interested in them and it's the powerplay of having someone that doesn't want them which turns them on.
>>1090277I don't consume manga, manwha or anime so I didn't know the difference.
>>1090276Based.
No. 1090286
>>1090225we discussed this sometime back, it was a set unique cultural phenomena in east asian society that led to this
it's a combination of a culture that has no problem or shame with finding a child attractive and thus sexualizing them + good looking kid + not being around white people enough
only Japanese culture could have produced loli and BL and have it be accepted in the mainstream, sure there pedos in other cultures but they do it behind closed doors, nothing really captures the openness of pedophilia in Japan and so it makes sense of why Japanese think its okay to see young boys getting raped, cause of the culture they grew up in
No. 1090289
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>>1089868Can I recommend some? I love, love, love the Wicker Man (1973). It’s so fun and good. If you’re into folk horror in general or think it might be to your liking, look for the Blood on Satan’s Claw and Witchfinder General. One of the actresses in the Wicker Man is called Ingrid Pitt, and she starred in some cool hammer horror films from the seventies, most notably the lesbian vampire film the Vampire Lovers. It’s really fun too. I also recommend Dario Argento films, particularly Suspiria and Phenomena. I think a lot of nonnies would like Phenomena, since one underlying theme of the film centers on being an outsider.
Queen Margot (1993) is also really fun if you’re into historical dramas. The Brontë Sisters (1979) is really good. It’s about (hint hint!) the Brontë sisters, but also about the limitations and immanence of womanhood, and trying to transcend the immanent self. And the paradox between the writer and experience! Writers write wild, wild stories, but they shut themselves off from the outside world; writing is inherently a solitary activity that demands isolation, so there is an irony in the fact that these writers write from a sterile, unblemished castle. Hence, their words can be even more dangerous, since they’re arranged with care and strung in tune; inherently impractical and inapplicable (in a practical, direct sense, at leastt) in real life, since real life is rarely as neat or as sing-songy! The Brontë sisters were great writers, but they lived uneventful lives, locked to their home, unable to roam and move beyond their gendered borders, unlike men. It’s very broody and “slow”, so if you want something quick and fun, ignore iit and watch Sunny (2011), which is a Korean film about female friendship. If you want something funny, then I really recommend Serial Mom. I don’t laugh easily at all, but there were some really good bits there as well. There are other stuff I like, but can’t really think of any at the moment. Mhm.
No. 1090318
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>>1090268And there it is, like clockwork
No. 1090323
>>1090268>Yuri is garbage made for men. Don't care
>Objectifying lesbians get us killed. Reading yuri isn't getting anyone killed
>Fujos are harmless because women dont go out raping and killing gay men. Imagine thinking you can even compare the two.Women who like yuri are harmless because they don't go out raping and killing lesbians.
No. 1090373
>>1090366True. I just have good experience with yuri mangas (that are mostly liked by women).
I guess its just harder to find good yuri animes tbh kinda like how gal mangas are good but gal animes are badly written
No. 1090382
>>1090353mobile games and games that have lootbox mechanics.
Think Genshit impact, fate grand order, etc.
No. 1090492
>>1090489Really? Saying a specific moid is
triggered whenever he sees two vaguely male anime humans kissing is infighting to you and not everything above? And no, I will keep bringing it up because it obviously bothers him.
No. 1090495
>>1090491Thank you anon.
>>1090492I'm not a moid but it "
triggers" me because I had fujos spam violent porn to me when I was 11-13. Happy? Men don't get
triggered by seeing women lust after men, if anything they'd be happy considering almost %30-40 of men are bi-flexible and could get turned on by yaoi.
No. 1090503
>>1090494One in the bunker thread has been sperging out who has been redtexted as a moid and samefag before and has been carrying his seething in various threads but keep gaslighting lol.
>>1090495I'm sorry about your experience but lucky for you it doesn't even take sexual stuff to
trigger them and moids definitely get
triggered by it, which is why it's funny.
No. 1090518
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I envy Shayna's confidence that she's a small uwu baby and yaoi spammer's confidence that the only people that don't like her are moids. I'd gain 8 extra gigabytes of brain ram if I stopped considering everyone's perspective and questioning my own actions.
No. 1090699
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My leg is feels so uncomfortable from how I've been sitting these past couple of days. I usually don't have to sit for as long as I have been.
No. 1090703
>>1090701AW YESSSSS
Sadly only the first two books were translated in my language, I need to buy the english ones and finish it. The witches and their lore are so good
No. 1090714
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Warning: I’m about to overshare as much as romanianon does. I’m a younger anon, not underaged but considered a mentally ill zoomer by the oldfags here. I don’t go to an intensive university/college or anything I go to the community college in my area and I’m slowly getting disengaged with everything. My classes are starting up because fuck accessibility and I have a hard time getting there because I have no desire or energy to even try to get my permit over the age of 18 in my shitty area. It takes an hour or more to get to my classes and the buses are already so unreliable in a car-centric society. I obviously can’t rely on family for anything because they are sometimes shitty people so I’m really considering just dropping out entirely and starting everything over with a crumby entry-level job. Am I overreacting because no one will help me or should I just deal with this shit or should I really just drop out of community college and enter the workforce? I hate education. It would be sad to not finish my (semi-useless) degree because you have to finish what you started but whatever. Don’t expect anyone to reply with advice I just needed to vent
No. 1090747
>>1090742>>1090165Uh-oh, you
triggered a fujo.
More are probably coming to bury you.
RIP OP
No. 1090828
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>class chat talks about going to a women's march
>one dude's gf made pamphlets and signs
>they all have the troon sign (⚧) right in the middle
>mfw
No. 1090867
>>1090828That dude is gonna troon out soon isnt he?
My god, not even a day we can escape fellating the troons dick.
No. 1090937
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my mother is so misogynistic its insane. today is womens day so of course she has to be like "what about the men what about mens day what about fathers day?" as if those dont exist, she doesnt even care about them when they happen she just wants to say this to be against women. this extends to animals as well; for example, my brother's cat shits and pisses everywhere but its fine even gives him wet food afterwards almost as if she wants to reward that behavior, but when the female cat scratches her nails on already damaged furniture its reason to beat her up like a crazy person. i dont understand what goes through her mind. when somebody says anything remotely nice about females, she has to counter it by saying about how males are better because MUH RELIGION.
this mindset of hers to tell her to just kill me if she didnt like me that much when i was only seven and wanted to run away when i was eight, she just laughed in my face made fun of me and then beat me. she was like this with her own sister too, beat her until she was black and blue for simple mistakes that she would have otherwise not done to any male no matter what he does. when i presented masculinely to be more like my older brother, she hated me even more, called me a dyke, tranny you name it. she will never be satisfied with whatever females do because of the fact that they are females and males are inherently better. i wasnt even meant to be born, i bet she hates me even more because not only did i almost killed her but i caused her permanent irreversible damage to her body AND i happened to be female. i wish i was never saved.
No. 1091119
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>mid-term coming up
>open book
>three questions
>professor wants us to come into the classroom for some reason
>it's a web-based course
i would not be complaining if it weren't open book (i can understand not wanting us to cheat) + three questions long, but c'mon man.
it doesn't help that i can't drive, uber is unreliable, and thanks to covid bus routes are all fucked up (i have to walk 10 minutes to the nearest bus route in cold weather just to get on the bus). ubers are unreliable; i could try scheduling a ride but what if the driver cancels on me at the last moment? then i'm fucked.
tried e-mailing him about it and he said "no you must come in" fuck.
No. 1091123
>>1090750i'm 1000% sure men don't rape women because they were inspired to do so by japanese cartoons, you stupid bitch. i'm totally certain men have been raping and abusing women and children for literal centuries before the first anime was ever put to paper.
you can't blame ficitonal shit for real world tragedies that's brainless behavior, practice some critical thought maybe.
No. 1091133
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man i’ve been thinking about how florida passed an extremely strict abortion law the day before international women’s day and i’ve seen basically nobody talk/post about it, it’s like that quote from the handmaids tale about being boiled to death or whatever, and it’s making me depressed…fuck.
No. 1091146
>>1090765God me too
I love the warmth and the blue skies, what I hate is that other people love it too so they go outside and I hear their every conversation because of my extremely thin windows and walls. Also fuck anyone who plays music outside.
No. 1091157
>>1090937I'm sorry
nonnie. I agree with the other anon. Your mother is a bad person and I doubt she'll ever be reasoned with. You and your sister should leave her so in her old age no one will be taking care of her because I doubt any moid will. Let her experience first hand where her hatred for other women will get her in life: alone.
No. 1091169
>>1091153This might be surprising, but tiny dicks can hurt. A normal/big one will fill the entire vagina, a tiny one will stab at your walls if he aims wrong and it's extremely uncomfortable.
Regardless of that, the instinctive psychological repulsion is real when confronted with one irl. They look really pathetic.
No. 1091185
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>>1091182>im not saying that because i have a tiny dick which i might MOOOOODDDSSSS fuck off male nobody wants you here
No. 1091222
>>1091221NTA but he literally got banned you can see the red text what are you talking about
Anyway props to that mod for banning him so quickly, thank you ♥
No. 1091227
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I hate it when moids say nonna nonnie etc. That's anon to you.
No. 1091230
>>1091227I love when they say it. Anon is too formal. Nonna,
nonnie, they're cute!!
No. 1091250
I love that the husbando thread has the potential to piss any lurking males off. Based Arthur Morgan posters, real males cannot compare
>>1091227Same, that's why sometimes I'm suspicious of anyone who uses those too much. There was one incel scrote (which got banned) in the bunker threads that could be identified by its excessive use of "
nonnie".
No. 1091256
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I'm about to fucking snap. I'm laying here on the couch because my boyfriend keeps grinding his fucking teeth at night while he sleeps and it makes it impossible for me to sleep. Even when I do go to sleep I end up waking up because he squeaks his fucking teeth. He got a mouthguard but it was too big for his teeth. Okay then get a smaller one you dumb bitch.
He woke up before because I lightly smacked his chest and told him to shut the fuck up. He flipped and didnt even bother to apologise for grinding his teeth and preventing MY sleep. I guess all that matters is that he is up for work and he gets a nights rest, not me or my quality of sleep. I'm not speaking to him until he apologises to me, I've had enough. If he can't even be bothered to say sorry to me and try and get me to come back to bed and sleep then I will treat him like a roommate acquaintance. I now understand the motives behind Amy Dunne.
No. 1091271
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This is such a stupid problem, but I'm afraid of taking commissions simply for the fact that I don't want people to see my name in paypal and find out I'm a woman.I really shot myself in the foot by chosing to draw nsfw on 4chan and not wholesome stuff on twitter or some shit And I can't and also don't want to make a business account.
No. 1091300
>>1091271>I don't want people to see my name in paypal and find out I'm a womanMaybe try to do other account with fake name? Once they send you money on that fake account, you can send it to the right one.
But idk if it is possible.
No. 1091309
>>1089887I gotta agree with this
nonny. Imagine not knowing the Miyazaki thing is a meme
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>>1088644Samefag, there's brown shit coming out of my vagina so it's starting thank god
No. 1091323
>>1090562Nona, this might not mean much as an anonymous post on the internet, but you're a real person, not the caricature that Tumblrinas make of people like you. They are incapable of portraying real people in their art, for them those traits of yours are just accessories to give their shallow characters to wear, not to mention that they have a particularly bad art style that makes anything look worse than it really is. But you are not shallow or two-dimensional, and most people aren't or know about Tumblrinas so they don't know about those ugly caricatures they make, you can rest assured that normal people aren't comparing you to some shitty drawings. Also in real life people don't judge looks or nitpick as much as you might think they do. If they looked at you most strangers would probably think that it's uncommon to see someone with vitiligo, but that's it.
>>1090217Please get over him as soon as possible. Being attached to a pornsick troon is not good.
No. 1091365
>>1091332I love u
nonny, glad you snapped out of it, hopefully it becomes a trend in your country too
2X is a hidden board, change the link in the URL bar No. 1091427
Hahahahahah I just opened my mother's WhatsApp by accident on her phone and accidentally read a convo with some scrote that looked younger than her (she's in her 40s, dude looked in his 30s and like a typical fuckboy)
He said something like "It's hard for me to let you go" and she replied something like "I'll remember the beautiful moments we spent together" blah blah blah or some shit. I swear I… I didn't even know what to feel. My whole body tensed up in the split second it took me to accidentally read the first message. I feel like puking for a second, then I felt like crying but I held back my tears. I briefly fantasized about murdering that motherfucker, about sending a message saying that I'll shoot him, about pummeling his retarded scrote face with all my strenght. Then I thought about screaming to my mother. But I remained silent while she watched TV. My rage and sadness quickly turned into numbness. And now I'm cold, shaking and tearing up.
When I was a kid I accidentally found a video of her sucking some guy's dick in her phone (I wanted to record something so I asked her if I could use her phone's camera). I think I've already mentioned it in some other thread before so I won't elaborate on how I reacted. Later (not the same day, but not many years later either) I was playing on her phone when she got a message, I opened it and it was some moid calling her something that only lovers say to each other, I forgot what the exact word was, but I got angry and started to cry, and showed it to her. She tried to make me believe that it was "JUST A FRIEND!!1" and that he was just very friendly. I pretended to be dumb and that I believed her at the time.
Many years later, when I was already an adult (I think), she finally told me how she and my dad fell out of love not too long after my little sister was born, and that she had "cheated" on him ("cheated" because apparently my dad was aware of it/they had given each other permission to cheat), and that that message had been from a lover and not a friend like she told me. But supposedly she and my father had been working on their relationship and that they were relatively stable again. I guess not so stable after all. I don't know what my dad has done and I don't want to find out ever, but I don't think I've ever found anything incriminating other than him watching porn like 100% of scrotoids in the world (which, of course, also affects me and from time to time it makes me depressed to think about that). Although I've had many nightmares about finding out that my dad cheated on my mom too, and me beating the fuck out of him haha. So this kind of shit has been traumatizing me since childhood.
But, you know what? I hope that my mother is trying to cut that random piece of shit out of her life, just in a way that is… TOO passive and polite. I just hope that was just her trying to tell him that she doesn't want to ever see him again. I just hope the fuckboy was trying to find her again after many years of not knowing where she was and her rejecting him. Please, please just let it be that.
I wanna kill myself I wanna kill myself I wanna kill myself
No. 1091437
>>1091408May I ask why moving back with your parents isn't an option? imo i think nobody should move out if they can't 100% take care of themselves.
>>1091427I'm so sorry anon. I think the best course of action is to accept your mother for who she is, as nasty as she is. I hope one day her behaviour stops being a shock. I also think you should distance yourself from her as much as you can.
No. 1091440
>>1091427I can relate to you
nonnie one time I was using my moms computer for a school project and while saving pictures I found a folder with pictures of her spreading her cooch and holding up signs with scrote usernames from a chat site she used to frequent I've never recovered.
No. 1091446
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Tried checking out /cgl/ for the first time in a long time. Outside of J-fashion image dump and haul threads, it's literally just a series of battles with retarded scrotes and trannies, jannies not banning any of them for derailing multiple threads with pedo shit, racebait, general off-topic stupidity (but apparently banning actual seagulls for derailing or drama), etc. What a fucking cesspool. Lolcow's definitely not perfect, but at least it's not this bad. I'm glad it exists, and surprised I used to just deal with this shit before. It gives me a headache now
No. 1091448
>>1091427I was going to say that sounded like an overreaction but seeing your mom suck cock must have really fucked you up, sorry you had to see that.
I do think it’s fair for a woman to cheat if her moid watches porn though. Of course breaking up would be preferable.
No. 1091464
>>1091433Thank you, anon. Sorry that you went through something like that too.
As hard as it is to not let this affect me, because my whole life I lived with the illusion of my parents loving each other and being my main example of a loving relationship, and because I love both of them, I guess my best option is to try to move on and treat this stuff like I would a dumb friend's personal matters. I mean, she even said it herself that time we talked about this, she told me that it ahd nothing to do with me and that I shouldn't try to interfere because it was an issue between her and my dad. Guess I should just listen to her.
>>1091437>I also think you should distance yourself from her as much as you can.I wish I could do that, anon, but I still live with her. I already wanted to move out and become fully independent, for many reasons, but now I'm convinced that moving out is the best thing I could do for my mental health.
>>1091440Holy shit that sounds even worse, I'm so sorry.
I can't be sure that my mom's video was ever posted online, but in your case, it's different. I wanna give you a hug.
>>1091448>I was going to say that sounded like an overreaction but seeing your mom suck cock must have really fucked you up, sorry you had to see that.It wasn't just that and the text messages. I just remembered that time she asked me how to delete her account on a dating website. For fuck's sake how did she ever think that was okay?
No. 1091468
>>1091466RAGE *
LIKE OF COURSE YOURE MISERABLE, id BE TOO DAMNIT
WHAT THEEEEEEE FUCK
No. 1091493
>>1091427Maybe I'm just desensitized because my mom is divorced three times and each one of my parents has always made it clear that their romantic lives aren't my business but
>i wanna kill myselfAnon calm down, you accidentally found out your mom has sex and hits up dudes. It's not like she was flaunting it in your face, she felt genuine embarassment when you did find out. You're going through the same disenchantment every adult kid goes through when they figure out their parents are flawed and have selfish desires. You're gonna be angry but you will also be fine.
No. 1091510
>>1091446Do you know who /cgl/ mods are? I bet they're all male.
>Lolcow's definitely not perfect, but at least it's not this bad. I'm glad it exists, and surprised I used to just deal with this shit before. It gives me a headache nowSame. /cgl/ was never my home board, although I lurked or posted on it sometimes because it was pretty nice, many years ago. But after spending a couple of years or so using less shitty altchans (most notably LC and CC, since they're unique in that they're for women), I really can't tolerate 4chan anymore. I'll visit an interesting thread, but after a while I'll stop checking for new replies because eventually it'll be flooded with degenerate pedo moids or annoying males who won't leave women post in their own threads in peace. That's far from being the only problem, though. But I also think that 4shit has definitely gotten worse since I stopped using it regularly.
Slightly ot but I wish the lolita/cosplay community here was more active. Maybe it could lead to more female /cgl/ users who are fed up with the state of their board to leave that place.
And also I want some advice from nonas here for my first cosplay.>>1091460kek I know that feeling, it pisses me off.
>>1091484Maybe they used your location. They also sell your data to who knows what third parties, and they definitely buy data too, through who knows what shady means. That's how every website is able to sell/recommend shit to us.
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>>1091533>he'd invalidate every sentence by making weird faces and shit.Literally a redpill tactic.
Please ladies, don't fall into the trap of trying to validate yourself with men. They use the natural social responses and feelings to try and make you anxious and wanting approval.
No. 1091537
>>1091526This is moronic. A paper full of flaws that’s actually finished is worth way more than a perfect paper that isn’t.
>it was due last semesterI hope you’re aware that people don’t tolerate this kind of crap in the working world and cultivating that sort of attitude early on is a great way to screw over your future self.
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tfw i procrastinated replying to an anon on /m/ and i will never get to reply now
No. 1091603
>>1091588Same thing happened to me, it was my first (and last) interaction with a fandom, everyone was a trannie, fakeboi or a libfem, it was hell. The more i posted, the more it become apparent that I was the only one who avoided trans arguments/didn't constantly share tranny propaganda, I had enough when I saw trannie fanart of my fav so I went full
terf on main, got hate in my dm's and someone threatened me with doxxing, bunch of lunatics
No. 1091607
>>1091603I saw some pride art of my favs too and I'm just so sick of it. Why must everything be turned into lgbtq+ garbage? In the universe gays don't even exist. They have no gendered things either. I really want to make a sideblog and go full
terf there.
No. 1091657
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I thought people were overexaggerating when they said that doomscrolling was addicting but here I am trying to wean myself off it and it feels like picrel
No. 1091659
>>1091644Read
>>1091614 male escorts are dangerous. Most of their clients are gay males too so you can get their shit dick or aida even if they don't hurt you in other ways.
No. 1091671
>>1091365Ily
nonnie be my gf
No. 1091684
>>1091677Well shit I'm an idiot I tried to bump it but it's maxxed out.
Someone pls make a new one, I'm not into that and wouldn't know what picture to pick.
No. 1091721
>>1091688Solidarity anon, I too also dated a 18/19 year old when I was 13/14.
He was super cringe, but I was left feeling like such an ugly duckling out of middle school that I basically took the first guy who asked me out in high school. Of course older high school dudes have mental defects for wanting to go out with immature freshmen. He was way more trouble for me than what he was worth.
At least the hairdresser story has some levity and is pretty funny, perfect example of how dudes think the world is gonna cater to them like their parents do.
No. 1091735
>>1091511Good luck
nonnie. I am also on the same boat. Hopefully it gets better
No. 1091749
>>1091408>>1091651You and I are in the same place,
nonnie. Just broke up with my bf, will move to a nearby city to save up on rent because I will fucking kill myself if I have to go back to my parents. They live in the middle of nowhere with no car and there is barely any heating - that would change if I supported them, but it wouldn't make up for no convenient way to go to a veterinarian if my dog gets sick. In b4 "uwu why aren't you helping them," - I've been living with them until I was 25 years old out of the guilt of leaving them with financial problems. It has stunted me socially and in other ways, as I wasn't allowed to be an adult (and probably they would still treat me like a child).
I also cannot fucking live with roommates because I can't stand the stress of living with random people bitching at me and using common space as if they are their bedrooms, laughing at 1 AM and stressing me out whenever I want to cook. Been there, done that. It made me move in with a bf of 2 months and I ended up in a miserable relationship. I'm scared of being on my own, losing job etc. but I don't see what else I can do…
No. 1091773
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>>1091599I will hold your hand
nonnie No. 1091794
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I probably sound so mean for saying this but fuck it, my boyfriends sister is so annoying and whenever I'm in a situation where I have to interact with her, I try and get out of it asap. She has epilepsy but is overall a spoiled brat, I understand her epilepsy is horrible but I've been told she never apologises when she flips out, for some dumb reason she decided to have a kid even though she was informed beforehand that she wouldn't even be able to take care of the kid most of the time and would miss out on crucial parts of the childs life due to seizures. Okay, she had the kid regardless and can't even do the most basic tasks with her. I know she didn't choose to have epilepsy, but if I had an illness that crippled me the last thing I'd want to be worried about is also birthing and taking care of a child. It's a miserable existence for her I understand as she can't drive or get a job etc but she seems to use it as an excuse to lash out at others and speak to her parents like shit one minute then love them the next.
Her limited lifestyle and attitude has just made it so that her life is pretty much just buying Amazon wigs, posting pictures on Facebook and bitching at her parents, the same parents that bought her an entire house and built a conservatory for it. She didnt even bother to keep the house clean, I'm not talking spotless but even the simplest of tasks like washing clothes or doing three dishes. When I walked in the house it was fucking gross, even more so considering she has already had some treatment for epilepsy and doesn't have seizures every day. Idk I just really dislike her and my bf says she's always been like that since she was diagnosed, like she expects everyone to grovel to her even after she acts super ungrateful.
No. 1091801
>>1091663Yuri fans are pick me lesbians and bi women who contribute to their same sexualization. Yall like garbage content for male approval kek. Im a lesbian and yuri fans shouldnt breathe. At least yaoi fans
trigger moids. Yuri literally pleases moids you retard
No. 1091811
>>1091808>implying troons aren't into yaoiDo that challenge
nonnie, I'd pay to see fujos go even just a week without insulting other women
No. 1091814
>>1091809>not fujo>yurifags are worseOk girlie. At least female Yuri fans don't seethe and wish death to female characters or actresses when their dream guys gets with them.
>>1091811True. Fujos love to tear down women and act like their faggy boycrushes are better than the women depicted in media they consume. Misogynistic autists.
No. 1091824
>>1091815>Fujos stay in their laneThey really don't though, for exactly what the other anon said.
>>1091817I think you're confused. I like yuri and am not into yaoi. I am saying that factoring troons and men to this extent into so many trivial likes/hobbies is pointless and I wish there was less of it here. And no, that doesn't mean I'm defending them, I'm just sick of talk about moids. That because I'm a woman, I may not dare to like something that men like. Like I have to let them have control over every aspect of my life. I hate that. It's pathetic to me.
>>1091822Two cartoon girls kissing is never this serious, anon.
No. 1091828
>>1091825Are you the same anon as:
>>1091815?
No. 1091835
>>1091823I don't dislike her because of the disability and would never think any less of someone because they're disabled, I just dislike her because she uses that as an excuse to talk to and treat people like shit, especially her parents who have done a lot for her and she doesn't even try to apologise to them whatsoever
>>1091825I'm not obliged to like people just because they're someones relative, she's consistently been proven to be spoiled and aggressive over the most minor things and doesn't even try to say sorry for anything. That doesn't warrant "respect" disabled or not. She didnt choose to have epilepsy and I understand that, but she can choose to at least try and be a semi decent kind person capable of apologies.
No. 1091837
>>1091832Whh do you care about being seen as stupid because of strangers that have little to do with you? Anyone that judges such a wide group like lesbians like that is stupid. The only thing lesbians as a whole have in common is their sexuality. Generalisation is stupid.
>even when the anime is clearly a pedo’s wet dreamDo you really think yaoi is also completely free of this?
No. 1091875
>>1091866I'm
>>1091857 and none of the other posts are mine. Obsessed?
No. 1091885
>>1091867Here you said yuri is worse.
>>1091809 and
>>1091801 No. 1091890
>>1091884Criticizing is fine. Telling women they support men who want to rape women like anon did here
>>1091816 just because they watched some jap cartoons is braindead.
(infighting) No. 1091891
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>>1081820Samefag. Just received an email from my supervisor asking me to have a 'talk' first thing in the morning. Someone complained about me again and this time 'this has serious ramifications'. I don't have illusions, I know I'm getting fired I just feel like shit because I know for a fact noone will employ me ever again. My last employment lasted for months as well. I probably have ADHD and even though I kept checking my work for mistakes, it was still full of them and really stupid ones at that. I just don't know what to do. I feel like I cannot do anything right. And this is not low self-esteem speaking from me, this is a factual observation. And for fuck's sake I actually liked this place, the people were nice, the management was not narcissistic, the benefits were amazing, etc. I'm so fucking nervous I'm not going to sleep tonight, I just know it. I literally always disappoint every fucking person around me all the fucking time and cannot even do anything to prevent it
No. 1091892
>>1091887>>1091885Yuri is worse and i used to watch anime. I dont anymore. Stop being
triggered at people criticizing yuri. Yaoi doesnt affect me so why would i care? How are anons this autistic they cant see criticizing yuri is the same as criticize “lesbian” porn. Its not that hard to understand
(infighting) No. 1091897
>>1091892Yuri also doesn't affect me. With or without it, men would sexualise lesbians because men sexualise everything. Stop being
triggered at women liking yuri. There are yuri made by women for women.
(infighting) No. 1091900
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>sadistic beauty released new comic
>Oh cool, looks a bit rapey though and authors penchant for incels is a bit cringe
>Guy grows vagina on his side
>
>Like literally on his side where his ribs are
>This mutant vulva stays there for the whole manga ruining everything
>Literally used in every sex scene
I'm sorry for being a coomer this genuinely shocked and grossed me out for the first time in a while why the fuck did she do that why? Why. Why?!
No. 1091901
>>1091891>I just feel like shit because I know for a fact noone will employ me ever again.First of all, this is completely wrong
nonny. There are always places that can and will hire you. I promise you that, no matter the stuff that has happened to you or no matter how short your employment is.
>I probably have ADHD and even though I kept checking my work for mistakes, it was still full of them and really stupid ones at that. I just don't know what to do.You can still come back for this, I believe. Maybe you will be "let go" or "demoted", but regardless of that… You can find a better opportunity that more fits your ADHD, and possibly a job that requires less focus. If you don't mind me asking, what do you do?
No. 1091903
>>1091882>>1091884You said this
>>1091866 here and then proceeded to actually…nvm lol
No. 1091904
>>1091897She's not
triggered it appeals to men. She stated above she was fine with men getting off to yaoi and that it didn't make yaoi bad but somehow Yuri is rapefuel. It's a fujo larping as a lesbo, why else would she think lesbians were pickmes who act like they like yuri to make moids happy?
No. 1091917
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Unironically, is there even any reason to work anymore? The world has always fucked women and neoliberalism has made it even worse
No. 1091940
>>1091926there are so many "neets with husbands" on lolcow half of you bitches have got to be larping
>>1091917world fucks everybody bb. there's no choice but to work unless you're one of the many wife-neets (lmao) or born into a rich family
No. 1091949
>>1091940Literally. Or anons who claim to be high end career women in med school making 6-7 figs, anons claiming they're all married to HVM with kids, like yeah I'm so sure rich women just go on a board known for shit talking cosplayers and infighting over stupid things all day. Or when they did the polls and all anons claimed they had PhDs, were married, made at least 100k a year and so on.
Anyway this board is anonymous for a reason. There's no way to really know if anons are telling the truth or not but what is factual is that this place is filled with mentally unstable people who are in the perfect place to lie with zero consequences or anyone ever finding out, of course you'll get LARPers claiming they're high status
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Got bloodwork done for my PCOS and when the tech saw that I was getting my T checked she asked if I ‘prefer to be called another name’ and I'm still pissed about it. I get that she has to ask because actual trannies will tard rage but fuck I hate that this shit has infiltrated everything.
No. 1091984
>>1091942>Or it's the same 10 neets with husbands who keep repeating themselves.there are a couple of us, maybe a dozen or so I think
>>1091974I don't think any of us have ever claimed that, I was a misrelate wagie who married my co-worker
No. 1091988
>>1091976I re-read your first post and there might be a chance you won't get fired. However, if you do, you have already survived it once before. And if the next place fires you after that, you'll have it have happened twice before. It might be a really shitty experience that crumbles your self esteem for a but, but nothing permanent.
Also,
>>1091978 is right, you might have a set-back, but it doesn't mean everything is over.
No. 1092054
>>1091999pretty normal stuff. what really bothers me is that he has used sites like fetlife which is basically a social media for kinky people. lol after posting this i found out he still uses it (after setting the boundary multiple times before that its not okay) and broke up
>>1091996i actually did like an hour after
No. 1092094
>>1091978I just genuinely feel so fucking inadequate. I didn't think I had AD(H)D until I had this job and this made me realize that the only reason I could stay at my first workplace for as long as I did (4 years) was because literally noone was supervising me and checking my work. This was the first place where they did and BAM, turns out I am shit. I also suck at socializing and get easily stressed out. I am just all-round a horrible workforce
>>1091988I just feel like my carrer from now on will be a continuous cycle of being fired after a few months, unless I find something like my first job, where the management didn't give a fuck about anything and the pay was also shit
No. 1092118
>>1092100I agree I always do a double take when I see an anon say they have kids
>>1092104Also agree, but it’s ten times worse if you’re a mom because then your patheticness is leaking into a child’s life kek
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i just realized- whenever i have felt genuinely suicidal, like truly miserable enough and self-loathing enough to feel like there is no meaning in my life and wishing for an end just so that the painful thoughts/feelings would also end, it has ALWAYS been correlated strongly with being super hormonal. i mean these episodes of severe hopelessness have always been 3-5 days before the start of my period. its relieving to be able to make this connection but also frustrating because there is no real solution, women's healthcare is an absolute joke, and i will never ever ever ever take SSRIs or psych meds again for any reason.
No. 1092226
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Why didn't I tell that girl I saw at this festival once she was cute I'm so angry we both made eye contact twice and lingered on it but we were with different groups so I guess we didn't have time to talk. We even got on the same bus to leave reeeeeeeeeee
No. 1092326
>>1092309I think so too but im tired of the evil step mom trope. Im tired of her playing these little games. I talked to my dad (who is currently cooking in NYC for a tasting that would result in a 40 mIlLion DolLar contract for the company he works for. This man once was a manager at lil ceasers pizza, way 2 go) .
He said shes angry he did that, and he said “tough shit”. So this power play is to piss him off and hurt me. She is almost 50…. I dont have time for this. I just want to be apart of his life and not lose money. I didnt grow up rich and i work so hard to build myself. Sorry i cant keep up with the joneses.
Also why is my step mom the trope of the resentful cheerleader with complex??? Girl we could be friends. Im a good sister, just let me be, and let the kid leave his neighborhood.
Thanls formltting me rant, i love this lil space on the web
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I hate parents who force their kids to be what they wanted to be. Boils my blood especially when they act like they give two shits what their own kids think. Dumbasses couldn't do it themselves so they think their child doing it is them doing it by proxy. Bonus points when no extended family member wants to really help the kids out but virtue signal instead.
No. 1092446
Replying but also venting myself, I guess
>>1092210Don't do that. just broke up with a bf that I settled on who:
>had a face that only looked good with long hair, and yet…>"fucking hair!!! I want to be bald!!! Fuck wasting time on washing it">would go 3 days without washing himself >was constantly walking around in underwear>would fart and burp like an animal>survived on a diet of junk food that I had to get him>almost never cooked, cleaned or got groceries>never got me gifts>screamed at video games>only interest was a tcg>randomly quit his low-effort job knowing it will stress me out, the other two I had to find/suggest for him because we would be in financial issue otherwise>zero fashion sense, dgaf about it>despite all of that, expected me to fuck him ("can you give me a bj", "hey, I want to make love" in a way that made him sound like a child asking mommy to tie his shoelaces). Didn't question why I suddenly became asexualAnd today he told me that I never was "the most beautiful creature on earth" to him (even when he was supposedly in love with me), contrary to some bitch that he just saw on a dating app. That my looks "were good enough to not be an issue when pursuing a relationship because of my wonderful personality" (that he was incapable of fully appreciating anyway). Do you know how humiliating it is to hear from a scrote that is below your level almost in every way? That looks worse than you?
maybe it's my fault for asking, but… I would never tell him as hurtful truthI've wasted years emotionally supporting him, trying to help him with his mental illness etc. Now he does the things he refused to do for me to get pussy from that one girl or other women way above his level. Do not fucking get into a relationship with someone who doesn't deserve you, even if you are lonely or in a bad economical situation (as I was). Please don't make that mistake. You deserve someone who will not waste your time, energy and mental health.
yes I'm severely mentally ill and have self-esteem issues, no need to snarkily point that out No. 1092449
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my stupid fucking brother came out as trans earlier this year. He's huge, hulking and has a deep voice and chose the female version of his name. He looks ridiculous. He's even a speed-runner, it's like the jokes write themselves.
My mom is a saint of a woman. She has (and still does) sacrifice so much for her kids' happiness. She was supportive to my brother's face but afterwards cried for two days. And society is telling her if she reacts with anything other than immediate acceptance and joy, she is a bigot who hates her child.
I run in very liberal circles and in 99% of my life I'm a typical libtard. The exception has always been tranny shit. And now I have one for a brother. No one in my life knows I'm a terf except my mom, not even my husband or best friend. I see people around me praise these ~beautiful stunning womxn~ and welcoming them into spaces they don't belong and letting them take things that don't belong to them. I look at jk Rowling who says the most moderate, reasonable things and gets death threats. I feel like I'm taking fucking crazy pills.
And now at Sunday dinner I have to look across the table and see my piss-dumb 6' brother stuffed into a sun dress with wobbly eye liner and trans comb-over and pretend I am so happy. I love my mom more than anything and even though she hates this she loves him too much to cut him off. She'd rather go along with this facade to keep him in her life and keep him happy. And I won't make her choose a side between him or me. So I'm along for the ride too.
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HR told me that a reasonable solution to helping with my financial problems (after being denied a promised promotion, being informed of my 3% raise aka 60 cents more an hour, and telling me I have to fill out disability papers for my work from home request for two days a week to avoid commute) is to sell my home to get quick cash and then go back to renting apartments because it's a "seller's market."
To reiterate: A professional corporate bootlicker who probably lives in a $400k+ home who makes sure her own salary gets her bag is telling one of the most underpaid and overloaded employees in the company to sell my home and go pay local rental apartments even higher than my current mortgage price for a single bedroom.
When I even explained how with rising gas prices wfh would help my financial expenses being that I commute more than 30 minutes, she said "well that couldn't make all that difference." The privileged bitch doesn't understand the gas dance and how not reporting to work for four days of the week makes a HUGE difference.
I had a full on panic attack because she made me go into details about my anxiety and the financial situation which made me cry in her office. My director told me she'd approve the request but HR wanted to deny it unless I get a doctor's note so whatever I'm gonna go make some fucking noise at the doctor's office I guess. Everyone else got to wfh except me and now when I need the consideration I get told no unless I jump through a dozen hoops.
Hope she gets vulva warts. Insensitive fucking cunt.
No. 1092473
>>1092468She's just a cunt getting paid to pretend to be ignorant when it comes to legitimate employee complaints.
We live in an area where it's popular news that people are desperate to buy affordable homes and every home is bought and under contract within 48 hours and sometimes less. People's rents are increasing anywhere between 20-60% when they go to renew this year for the same shitty places.
Even if I wanted to accept a cash offer on my home, I'd never be able to buy another house in the area now and as mentioned, they don't pay me enough to be able to make rent at the half forsaken apartment complexes around here.
She knew exactly what she was saying to me but doesn't give a shit.
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today my sister texted me a photo of myself from when i was a pickme and said i should start dressing and doing my makeup like that again. her and my grandmother are finally over constantly nagging me for not shaving, but GOD their internalized misogyny is so depressing. they are two of the strongest women i have ever met but they are so wrapped up in looking pretty and trying to push me to do the same. my looks are naturally above average (i think i’m 10/10 but that’s subjective) so i would rather not go back to starving myself and spending money on looking like a bimbo. my sister will put on a full face of makeup at 9 pm just to stay home and maybe take selfies, and my grandma worries that she looks like an “old lady.” my sister is insanely gorgeous, like lindsay lohan before the drugs level of beauty, but she styles herself to look like bhad bhabie. and yeah, my grandmother is obviously an older woman but the fact that she still spends money on looking young (because young=beautiful and beautiful woman=woman who is worthy of respect) is fucking sad. love them both but my grandma has the mindset that it’s too late to change her beliefs, and maybe she’s right. i have some hope for my sister but she’s so stubborn that idk if she’ll ever let go of the “i do my makeup for myself!” mindset. ugh.
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Scrotes shut the fuck UP about sex work challenge. You don’t give a single fuck about women or sex workers you stupid shit stain. All your talking points come from middle class whites who can afford to do gentrified hoe lite and act oppressed on twitter. Who gives a shit about the 99% of prostitutes of the world right. Having no better options due to life circumstances, financial destitution, addiction and mental illness will never ever be “consent” or “agency”. Sex workers will never not be victimized by the men who buy sex from them, the men who profit off them, and the men who seek to punish them. Feminists weren’t the ones making the world unsafe for sex workers. You are not changing the world or empowering women by buying Onlyfans OH MY GOD fuck off and dieeeee.
No. 1092536
>>1092519They, and incels alike, are endemic anyplace on the internet that's considered 'normal' because every normalfag space shelters them as if they're a precious commodity. Everywhere you go on the internet at large is either incels seething about women while hiding it under a passive-aggressive layer of irony or troons trying to seek out attention under the guise of identifying with the concept of having a vagina (actual vagina owners don't count in this sphere for some reason).
And calling either of these groups out varies from either being dogpiled to outright being banned depending on what time of the day you do it and which safe-space enforcing moderators are online to protect them. Needless to say, I miss the 00's internet a whole bunch.
>>1092531Speaking of safe-space enforcement, I can't imagine how much of a nightmare that is. I'm thankful to work with a bunch of older people whose egos have long since got a hold of themselves. It gets better when they go on tangents about how we need to fight for social justice and all of that jazz but then immediately become social ogres when it comes to dealing with their immediate staff. It gets worse when they eventually become supervisors themselves.
No. 1092548
>>1092535When I went to school, this was called "Last Year Burnout" or "Senior Burnout". You're in the final stretch and can see the end, so you're starting to stop caring about school and academics altogether.
The relaxation part isn't bad, the burn-out part is. It's stress from being anxious about it for so long that you simply quit caring. When you quit caring, you quit putting in effort, which is what used to happen to Seniors who experienced it; They would get almost to the finish line and wash out at the very last minute. That's not to say you're in danger of doing that, but being mindful about your classes while balancing relaxation and studytime is crucial at this point because it's very easy to get overwhelmed right now when you can see the end.
No. 1092554
>>1092536"Safe-space enforcement" is exactly what it feels like. I'm trying so hard to give them a stress-free environment with ample staff, resources and paths for maintaining wellness and work-life balance, on-demand scheduling, implemented PTO when I first got in the position, empowerment in the form of being able to shut down clients who harass them or get angry instead of a "customer first" enviro, on and on. And honestly I think that's where I fucked up. If I let it continue to be a busy bare-bones environment instead of a cushy uwu-feelings-come-first workplace, they wouldn't have all this time to larp their Commie TikTok fantasies. I absolutely support workers' rights and condemn
toxic environments and poverty wages. I've been in jobs like that for over a decade. But this company isn't that, and that's why I deliberately worked to be in management so that I could make it a career. It turns out when you try your best to make a safe space, it bites you in the ass. Of course I have a core of people I HOPE are normal and just vibing with the job - they give me feedback where needed and suggestions and ideas to help implement with them - but it's too small a group for the whole to be worth working for.
No. 1092558
>>1092536Also the modern internet: I don't post anywhere on the internet anymore except for here. I almost never log into any of my twitter accounts, I never use my youtube account, I've had facebook deleted for ages. I don't use Instagram anymore, my telegram is basically a ghosttown except for the music people I follow, I have several more that I haven't used in so long that I have basically forgot their existence.
I feel so isolated but these places are such hives of
toxic shit it's not even worth having them on my phone. It's the worst kind of
abusive relationship, and it's fed by every person I know being there and sharing pictures and things that I just get to look at but lack the urge to do anything other than like.
No. 1092561
>>1092554I hate to say it but the hands-off attitude attracts these kinds of people. I used to not know how
toxic workplaces formed and believed it was just a function of capitalism itself, but then I realized that it just took a generation of absolute slackers who thrived in these stress-free environments for years becoming managers themselves and deciding that the workers being generally stress-free made
their jobs harder and required
them to pick up the extra slack. Which they could never stand for if they're not the ones doing it.
>>1092555nonnie has every reason to be, the latest generation of zoomers are not cut out for the real world just yet.
No. 1092562
>>1092553I used to feel this way too, and that's all fun and games until they themselves want to start working long-term for a company and maybe get a job more substantial than burger flipper or customer service. Then it's the younger generation being jackoffs to them.
The people who are the stereotypical asshole manager usually act that way because they're not a low-level manager and there is no way for the average employee to even interact with them. They get to bully, harass, and abuse the lower-level workers and leave the supervisors and middle managers to pick up the pieces.
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Feel like shit
No. 1092599
>>1092531As someone with degrees and a decade in the workforce, my salary is around 20/hr and yes it is starting to be the poverty wage.
I barely make ends owning a home and paying back my debts and having a car payment. Children? Fucking forget it. I'm getting a second job soon. All absorbing extra duties and working hard at my job got me was being taken advantage of by the company and catching ire from coworkers who thought I was trying to make them look like pieces of shit by being competent or whatever.
It sucks what you're going through anon but don't take it personally. Being lower and middle management is about taking the employee complaints akin to how lower level employees are paid to take complaints from the front end.
No. 1092615
>>1092614its like the chocolate chip on a cookie
simply amazing
No. 1092630
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I refuse to be a jealous bitch. I refuse it. I won’t give in to my monkey brain. I will not be jealous of other’s achievements, especially those I love. I WILL be happy for them. Everyone’s pace is different. I have my roadmap for the next 5 years in front of me. I know what I’m doing. I have no reason to be jealous. I WILL NOT BE THAT JEALOUS BITJDKSKSKDMSLMSHFKSDMKDKSKSKDKNSJDJDJD just kill me already I hate everything
No. 1092632
>>1092629Same
nonnie. I never felt close to men/manliness but I always knew I was a different breed of a girl. Not in a i’m-not-like-other-girls kind. I have always carried a cloud of weird on top of my head like a cartoon effect. I remember back in kindergarten how the other girls would avoid me. Oh how I wish I could be loved by others
No. 1092669
>>1092656youth is only the beginning. make progess on the new and upcoming day
lol you youngins always so quick to get to the end
No. 1092706
>>1092675If it makes you feel any better it's disliked because of unfunny repetitive people who complain about their bad habits and things they can change/fix but just keep making self deprecating jokes so people pity them and give them a pass
What you described sounds like just letting people make fun of you so they won't think you're lame and "can't take a joke"
No. 1092728
>>1092675it's still better than
toxic false positivity, idgaf what anyone says, too much positivity makes me sick. I'm a very gray area slash positive negative sliding person
t. bpdfag so I can't prefer one side or the other, I have to mix both or else I'll go insane