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No. 780175
Life sucks and your bf/gf/coworker/parent/sibling/hamster is a bitch? We want to hear all about it!
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>>>/ot/772649 No. 780199
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DMX is gone, may he rest in peace. I honestly thought he was many years sober, addiction is a monster.
On the other hand, I can't believe how narcissistic some people can be. I had a friend post about the passing of DMX and she made it all about herself. It was 3 paragraphs of just "me, me, me!" It wasn't even her talking about how she listened to his music, she was bragging about how much of a good person she is. I am kind of not surprised.
Anyways, look at this photo of Dark Man X.
No. 780213
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>>780206Intellectualizing lolcow, one step at a time kek. It's better than the usual animu pics anyway
No. 780252
>>780237It’s not that he did anything wrong but he’s just so on and off with me, he was supposed to come visit me a couple weeks ago but he kept putting it off, keeps blaming muh emotional issues which is kinda
valid I guess but come on now it’s been ages, you’re a grown man. Also I was going through probably the worst depression of my life so he could have at least pulled through and tried for me. He basically refuses to understand the complicated situation I’m in and he’s not being supportive at all, he’s also stopped saying I love you which???? Idk I’m sick of crying over him. I am literally there for him all the time and he refuses to call me because he ‘can’t handle talking right now’ and it’s really upsetting me. He makes me feel like I’m soooo clingy and awful when I’m literally being a normal human being. I love him but mane this is awful.
No. 780273
>>780252>I am literally there for him all the time and he refuses to call me because he ‘can’t handle talking right now’Fuck that. This dude is using you for free emotional labor. It’s just as bad as using you for your body.
My bf drops everything when I say I need him.
No. 780315
>>780263my mom was like that too. but i think it's because she had to work since she was young so she couldn't study.
since i was a kid everyone told me i was gonna "succeed" in life because i was a good student. i innocently believed that all my life, little i knew that in the end grades mean nothing
this song says everything
No. 780329
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I tore my fucking vagina up. I'm a stupid heavy-handed, rough ass bitch
No. 780333
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the state of intersectional feminism, it's probably the greatest waste of what potentially have been something that improved feminism for women as a whole, cause there was an actual problem in representation with in the feminist movement, upper class/upper-middle class white women especially in academia were the were the only ones whose stories and experiences were being held up as something all women go though
early intersectional feminism was about including black women, Hispanic women, poorer white women and even religious women with in the movement but also about relating their shares experiences and for better understanding, but it turned into a woke fest where its just a game of oppression Olympics with in liberal academia and now includes degenerate men as well
No. 780341
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>>780333i hate all of this. early feminism was just women wanting to be able to be women. the early 1900s (and honestly still into this day) was a nightmare for anyone who wasnt white and had a dick. fracturing into so many different pieces will only harm the greater cause.
you must be speaking on feminism on twitter. because any biological woman ever has never excluded based on color of skin or religion. where has any reputable feminist ever separated color? beliefs, sure, religion will reliably guilt anyone into believing any deviance from an old book is wrong but shit, we just want men to stop telling us what to do with our organs.
No. 780361
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Just scrolled like 3 years back into my group chat with my once closest friends and saw when we would literally chat from waking to sleep, narrate our days to each other, open google docs to co-write short stories. We were in crazy friend-love with each other. Nowadays the chat is dead except like maybe twice a week someone sends a pic of their pet and everyone perfunctorily emoji-reacts. Convos last less than a minute. Idk what happened. It can't be as simple as us outgrowing each other because I haven't even gravitated to a new group of friends. I just miss them
No. 780386
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I don't have a problem with my fiancé in any other sense besides the fact that he's just so…I'm not sure how to describe it?
He isn't stubborn or anything like that. When I ask him to do something he will do it. He will at least initiate doing things by himself. My issue is that when he gets around to doing more complicated/difficult things, he struggles. It's like he puts things off completion if he feels he can't do it. He needs my input or guidance, and it's annoying. Sometimes I just tell him gently that he needs to figure shit out for himself–after all, how did I learn? Perhaps my capacity to complain should be minimal because I'm not dealing with typical male behavior like stubbornness/laziness/won't-do-shit attitude. I just wish he would have a more commanding backbone and follow through. It's like he doesn't know how to do things. Maybe think about how to solve a hard problem on his own first and tell me what he's tried. He's intelligent and has the capacity to learn, but this trait makes him look like such an idiot.
We're trying to get pre-approved for a mortgage and he's practically dead weight when it comes to getting shit done. I'm already fighting my personal issues like my bitterness about having been with my deadbeat ex who prevented me from buying a home for a five year span. It's a seller's market here, a home that would have cost me $250k in 2015 now costs over $300k and people are over-bidding just to get anything! That said, we're trying. He insisted he apply through his credit union. He initiated the application. Well he left the application on hold for almost a month cause he asked his parents to give him some money for closing costs, and lo and behold the apr for the loan jumped to something ridiculous when he went to complete it today. They can do that, we never submitted the application because we waited for the money. So while bf was acting defeatist I suggest he try to talk with a human instead of believing everything the online portal application shows. Excuses, ~but they don't do meetings right now~ bull-shit. He may be telling his truth but I know he didn't know where to look. I went to the website portal myself and found a list of mortgage offices and agents he could speak with. I showed him one agent's page and asked him to write an email explaining how we need help with the pre-approval process, what rate we want and if we could schedule a consultation. He would not stop asking me questions about how to formulate the email! I finally said just write something and I will review and correct it, which I did. The email is done but it pisses me off that it's just more waiting. More time for properties we miss out on.
I just want this over with but I know I'm going to be the one having to co-deal with this shit. I know it's part of my responsibility to be involved with the loan for what will be my own house, I just wish I had a fiancée who wanted to spearhead this instead of showing his belly for me to fix it whenever there's a setback. I'm a selfish fuck who wants an easier life.
No. 780399
>>780386You're not being selfish.
Unfortunately I see a lot of myself in your fiancé. I often go to others repeatedly for extra clarification and procrastinate big tasks because I fear failure. Maybe he's anxious about horribly fucking up? It might help if you tell him things like "Don't stress about the email, I have full confidence you can do it!" because it sounds like that
is the case, you
do have faith in his intelligence and ability. Remind him he's as much of an adult as you are and that he has the same toolset as you. I also think just straight up being direct can help kick him into gear. I'll never forget the day my boyfriend kind of snapped and was like, look, you're smart, you can do things on your own; come to me after you've exhausted all options, you've got this. He said it in a way that made me 1. realize how much of a dead weight I was truly being and 2. made me feel like I am just as capable as him to get the task done. Sometimes when I fall back into being a noodle about things he'll tell me bluntly to be an adult and honestly it works. He's not being a bully about it, he's just telling the truth. It reminds me of my responsibility as an adult and that I can't just be a passive entity that relies on others as a safety net. I hope that made sense.
That fact that he's asking you for help and not just asking you to do it for him (even if that's kind of what ends up happening) indicates that he's probably trying, he just needs a good push.
No. 780421
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It amazes me how the redneck girls I work with throw shade at me for not being "lady like" on the basis that my politics are mostly on the left and I don't want kids. I also see them making fun of feminists all the time on social media and reposting "left women vs right women" memes showing fat chicks with fried short green hair next to pretty Fox News anchors. I don't understand what reality they live in where they think they channel feminine Fox News anchor vibes and are more ~feminine~ than me.
Me
>married
>always wear makeup
>always wear heels and pink and/or floral vintage dresses like pic related to work
>most interests are pretty girly
>cook and sew
>eat healthy and am in good shape
>maintain a very clean home
Them
>all unmarried and baby crazy or single moms
>always look the bare minimum they can get away with at work (hair just thrown in a ponytail, no makeup, basic shirts with jeans and sneakers or Uggs)
>messy cheap cars or trucks all falling apart because they don't properly maintain them despite acting like they're obsessed with cars to impress men
>interests are shooting, hunting and fishing
>don't cook and eat/feed their kids minimal effort shit like stovetop mac and cheese or frozen nuggets
>literally all of them are overweight and pride themselves on not exercising and eating burgers almost every day
>all but one have very sloppy homes and only clean for special occasions like holidays
>pride themselves on being "redneck"
My tolerance for right wing women is already pretty low, but nothing makes my blood boil more than those who act like they're the gatekeepers of ~femininity~ and shame leftists and feminists for not being "lady like", when they're unmarried redneck tomboys who are bare minimum quality mothers.
(Obligatory disclaimer: I'm not saying there's anything wrong with women who aren't traditionally feminine, just right wing tradthots who are super hypocritical about it)
No. 780433
>>780421I wish country girls would stop being pick me and retarded. I want truck driving gf to show me how to shoot guns and gut a
man boar.
No. 780469
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>want to order chinese food for pickup
>place down the street sells subpar westernized food
>but I can make the order online
>place opposite to the street sells legit chinese cuisine
>but no way to order online
Oh my god, they'd get so much more business if they realized people like ordering online so they don't have to awkwardly call in and deal with the language barriers.
I just want to tell the computer I want the spicy beef tendon.
No. 780502
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Just took a nap and I started realizing that whoever decided to make the Cruella film must be trying to send out a clear message. or trolling scrotes and pick mes. Am I the only one who isn’t opposed to this movie being made and the ones seething are screeching that it’s about a fictional character who they assumed is getting a redemption arc because of some concocted “girl power” plan or whatever. Why is something like the Joker widely accepted but someone like Cruella isn’t allowed to have a film? someone fill me in im a retard
No. 780503
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The retards forgot the boba in my boba tea today. Also, it was chalky and tasted like shit. I was so angry I went on google maps and gave them a 1 star review.
No. 780530
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I don't know why but in the span of a week two friends who seemed to drop off the face of the planet appeared to message me again and wanted to send me parcels/gifts. I received one box from a friend who I had sent a Christmas card to, as a late Christmas gift. It was a framed picture with artwork, really cute stickers, and a necklace with earrings.
Did one of you farmers burn sage recently or something? I'm super shook.
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>>780530I did think of y’all during the worship
No. 780551
>>780547Nothing to add, I just relate to you. A lot.
> I just want to sit outside and people watch and have good conversations One of my last friends was like that - we could only meet if we did something she likes and there was a 'reason'. Basically no simple hanging out like just walking around or coming over, we HAD to go shopping or something (basically spend money), or else 'there is no point'
No. 780588
>>780175I hate that I have a family full of fucking narcissist who do no wrong and act holier than thou then play
victim when confronted about their behaviour. When I make a geniune mistake it's never tolerated and it gets thrown in my face constantly. I'm stupid,lazy,spoiled or incompetent. They even being up mental illness and autism to spite me even though one family member is on 4 different depression medicines, has hoarding tendencies,is obese from binge eating and is emotionally dependent! They're also allowed to have emotions like for ex. being tired after work but I'm not allowed to bc apparently all I do is sit on my fat ass all day and rake in a paycheck. Also, their opinions and likes are sooooo much more
valid than mine could ever be. It's so frustrating bc I do t have anybody to talk to bc everyone outside of my family thinks they are angels if they only knew.
No. 780602
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Probably have to break up with my bf cause I don't see him as ever being capable of being a good father and husband.
It's sad cause I love him, but I wanna have a family soon and I think he's not the right one for that. I don't wanna fall of the sinken cost fallacy, but is is gonna suck really fucking bad.
No. 780607
>>780605Thank you, anon. I know my best friend really regrets wasting 10 years of her life on a man who was shit and I don't wanna do the same.
You always hope they will change and improve but they never fucking do.
No. 780672
My friend has become obsessed with MBTI theory and I think it's affecting our friendship. She keeps constantly typing people and talking about it, and I'm showing no interest in it at all. It's too much for my bpdfag brain to comprehend. I've told her this time and again, that it's not for me. She's becoming more and more pretentious and insistent that people only can have one set personality type, can never change, and is acting stuffy, like she's defined by the fact that she went from an ISFP to an ISTJ or whatever. It's all meaningless letters in the end. I believe and manifestation and find astrology interesting, and mbti on its surface is ok for figuring out yourself but I don't put stock in trying to forcefully fit others into boxes and I think becoming obsessive over it in pertainment to constantly falling back on your mbti as an excuse for why you do what you do is retarded. I don't have the heart to tell her this is really starting to annoy me, because I've got my own spergery and obsessions, but I try not to let them affect my relationships with other people. And she's accused me hypocritically enough of being more obsessive about something else when she's adamantly and creepily obsessive with mbti. I wish I could just tell her to stop without offending her or threatening the friendship. I fear she might crumble and thusly we'd waste two years of talking and end it on this note. Before this happened she was so sweet and I still care about her deeply and dearly, I just can't take how judgmental and pretentious this is becoming on her end. I don't care about fucking personality theory, I just want to talk about normal shit.
No. 780720
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caught feelings for the dude ive been seeing casually and he told me that he plans on moving to a different state eventually and i broke down and sobbed bc im a dumb bitch and should've left feelings out of the picture but i couldnt!!!!!! now im drunk and hoping he eventually falls for me and stays
No. 780722
>>780713He has a really nice face (from what I remember) and I personally wouldn't mind if he got obese or started to bald.
I have convinced myself I have been talking to an AI with a this entire time.
>>780716 we proclaim our "love" to each other and I don't find having any romantic interest in anybody else unfortunately…
No. 780728
>>780570Self taught has little impact on ur potential tbh just keep doing it
That thread is so fucking trash anyway. It really demonstrates to me who uses the artist salt thread on /ot/. Only a few good pieces,once in a blue moon graced by some bored anon who knows what she’s doing. I imagine decent drawfags don’t actually want to post there lmao. The rest are so comically beg that no one can muster up the energy to even shit on it. Some are obviously underage and male.
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i hate pics like this
i understand the joke and i see the humor in it but it also makes me feel like shit as a bi person. i'm already often excluded from lgbt discussion if i happen to be dating a man at the time, i hate feeling like i have to "prove" how bisexual i am by not dating men
No. 780766
>>780746I can’t take this seriously because I only ever see these memes aimed at women, especially any woman who isn’t white. Like plenty of “woke” guys don’t also date similarly bland white women? Not trying to racebait, it feels sexist to me and like just another way to control women. “Oh, you care about inequality? How come you’re not dating
me then?”
No. 780773
>>780766I agree and disagree with you, there is a trend of annoyingly woke women who date basic white guys but said basic white guys aren't really ever
problematic, they often have progressive views and beliefs
now the amount of woke and misogynistic black men who abuse and mistreat black women and lust after white or Asian women is a lot higher then the former, look at Childish Gambino
No. 780782
>>780776>to fit the socially acceptable beauty standardsI don't wear it to fit beauty standards. Why do you assume that, as opposed to assuming it's a fun aesthetic creative outlet? Spoiler alert: subconcious misogyny.
>>780777It's a perfectly
valid comparisson. The point is that it's really shitty to tell other women their interests are only to impress men, as if there's no other motivation that could possibly be behind a hobby. It's extremely infantalizing and sexist
No. 780798
>>780788>we should all just band together to stomp on men's ballsExcept most of women would never do that because ~*~not all men~*~
>>780790Feminism isn’t about loving and accepting everyone unconditionally, sunshine and rainbows like the libfems want to pretend it is. Women are not exempt from criticism just for being women. Women can be fucking dumb, be it their fault or not. Women have to confront difficult topics with ourselves.
No. 780811
>>780797>Why don't you just grow thicker skin?Because this is a vent thread and literally meant for complaining.
Also, an explanation doesn't make it any less annoying. I strongly believe it definitely is misogynistic and infantalizing to jump to the conclusion that any woman wearing it is doing so for men and/or because they're brainwashed to feel insecure.
Alsp, for extra context- my initial post was made because I overheard my roommate's girlfriend making fun of me for wearing full glam and going on about how desperate I must be to please my partner and how you'd think I'd be more secure after being together for so long instead of trying so hard to impress him. That is pretty blatantly misogynistic.
No. 780823
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Women: maybe we should examine why we have a hard time letting go of historically oppressive traditions. Why don’t men feel empowered by these same things? Why does surrendering the makeup brushes feel less like liberation and more like a disadvantage? Why does being without it gets equated to a loss of identity? Could it be we intrinsically link our self worth to beauty even when men aren’t looking? Why does the mere suggestion that we still might be too entrenched in thousand years of subjugation to fully see our own copes so deeply uncomfortable?
Makeup sellers: u just h-hate women hunty
No. 780852
>>780823Yes, good post, anon. I agree it is good to ask ourselves these questions. In fact, I will answer them for myself right now.
>Why don’t men feel empowered by these same things? Because it was not socially acceptable for them to wear it until recently and now that society is making progress on gender roles, it would seem many do.
>Why does surrendering the makeup brushes feel less like liberation and more like a disadvantage?For myself, personally, I wouldn't say it feels like a disadvatage, but it would feel like the sacririfice of a hobby I deeply enjoy.
>Why does being without it gets equated to a loss of identity? I can't really answer this as I don't feel a loss of identity when I don't wear it. I imagine for some, it's fear of not feeling like they look their best, for others it's likely a feeling of loss of an essemtial element of their self-expression.
>Could it be we intrinsically link our self worth to beauty even when men aren’t looking? Most definitely. Beauty should never be linked to self-worth, however there is nothing wrong woth embracing your own beauty standards and being passionate about them as long as you don't compromise your mental health by assigning to much value to it.
>Why does the mere suggestion that we still might be too entrenched in thousand years of subjugation to fully see our own copes so deeply uncomfortable?I can only answer for myself, but for me, it's because it really isn't that deep. I didn't start wearing makeup until I was 25. I don't feel like I need to wear it and I feel totally fine leaving the house without it. It's literally just a fun aesthetic cute thing to me. I can understand why to women who have dealt with feelings of societal pressure surrounding it, they might assign much deeper psychological meaning to it, but for me- it just really isn't that deep. Hopefully some day we'll live in a world where that's more the norm.
>>780844Why do the two have to be mutually exclusive? Why is contouring because you like the way it makes you look better not acceptable in makeup as self-expression?
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>>780852>Why is contouring because you like the way it makes you look better not acceptable in makeup as self-expression?>because you like the way it makes you look better Lmao I can't anymore.
No. 780859
>>780855Explain to me how self-expression and looking prettier to yourself are mutually exclusive. Why is prettiness magically barred from having a part in self-expression?
I'm not the one with the brain worms here, anon lol.
No. 780863
>>780858>you need to stop thinking of makeup as some kinda creative self-expression and start thinking of it as a tool used to change your appearance, for better or worse.I think of it as both of those things. I use fashion as a form of self-expression and makeup is an extension of that.
I do not wear it for men. My partner prefers me wothout it, in fact. I don't use social media and I barely leave the house. I really do just wear it for me, because I enjoy it. It's not a "cope" like that anon said, and it's really annoying that it is so damn hard for people to just accept someone likes something without attaching belittling speculation.
>you don't need to defend makeup's honor to us.It's not that I feel the need to defend makeup's honor. It's that I'm frustrated that I can't like anything traditionally feminine without it being assumed male attention is motivation, and makeup is the latest example of that. Hell, I can't even like traditionally masculine things without that assumption.
I just really wish women could do anything for themselves, because they enjoy it, without people assuming men are the reason. I just want to look cute and pretty and colorful for myself, I don't get why that's so hard for people to accept.
And this thinking can be very harmful. I've read a few stories of women who were accused of cheating because they got into makeup, despite their partner not caring for it.
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>>780858>you need to stop thinking of makeup as some kinda creative self-expression and start thinking of it as a tool used to change your appearance>When I want to be creative I make music or write,Nta, and I don't care about this entire argument, but makeup can definitely be used in a creative way. A lot of the time it doesn't apply to everyday looks, but it's not like people can't use makeup as a creative outlet.
No. 780866
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>>780865Samefag, but I'd even argue that more simple stuff like those graphic eyeliner trends that were going around last year were creative.
No. 780871
>>780852>Because it was not socially acceptable for them to wear it until recentlyGirl… who do you think defines what makes things socially acceptable? Why do you think it is socially acceptable for one group and not the other? Who benefits from it?
I really dgaf about women wearing makeup, we're all influenced by patriarchal standards some way or another and it's low on my list of feminist causes that I'm passionate about. But getting all defensive like "AKSHUALLY being critical of makeup and the motivations behind it is the real misogyny here!" is a seriously underdeveloped, naive, babby's first libfem thought process. You can enjoy a hobby while also being influenced by external pressure which directed you towards that hobby in the first place. It's reductive to say women wear makeup for male attention, chances are they don't give men a second thought while they're doing it. But women are consistently compelled to improve our appearance, even if we're only impressing ourselves there's still the underlying fact that we aim to impress via our looks. You want to look pretty for yourself, sure, but why do you want to look pretty in the first place? That's where the 'doing things for men' comes in, because men have worked very hard to ensure we feel the need to be pretty.
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>>780866Yeah, the kind of makeup I do is colorful glam shit like pic related at the tamest. I wonder if part of why the other nonnies are scoffing at the idea of makeup for self-expression is because they're only imagining super basic natural looks that just enhance your features and cover up your flaws.
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>>780869this is exactly it anon, why does "being pretty" only apply to women as a way of expressing themselves? No doubt people can be creative with makeup, but the goal of everyday cosmetics is to alter the facial features of a person - a woman, specifically.
Using cosmetics 'creatively' is a very small fraction of the way women approach makeup. IF it was all about self expression, you'd see a lot more SFX stuff out on the streets right? Again I say I like wearing makeup, I do like to feel prettier, it makes me feel better about myself. But I don't pretend it's because I'm 'expressing myself'. If I did shit like picrel it may be different, but instead I'm just basic bitch Glossier-ing.
No. 780877
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>>780866>>780858This is idiotic, both of these images are showing off looks that still adhere to beauty standards. Bigger, more upturned eyes through the use of liner, cut crease and lashes. Perfect, even complexion complete with contour and highlight to define the face. Perfectly filled in and clean brows. No under eye circles, zits or any flaws in sight. If you want to claim makeup can be used in a creative way, at least post something actually creative.
No. 780878
>>780874Yeah, that's why I said
>A lot of the time it doesn't apply to everyday looksI'm just trying to say that makeup
can be creative. That's all.
No. 780879
>>780872Yeah that pic is definitely not covering up flaws at all /s
The only remotely true self expressive makeup is special effects makeup, everything else is cope
Even then in sfx, monster girls still have to be attractive compared to male monsters
No. 780881
>>780871>You want to look pretty for yourself, sure, but why do you want to look pretty in the first place? Because I am am artistically and aesthetically driven person who likes everything around me to be pretty, myself included.
>>780877Once again, beauty and self-expression don't have to be mutually exclusive.
Well, I'm off to bed, ladies. Good night, y'all. Thanks for the interesting debate. It's a nice suprise to have opposing discourse on here that is actually interesting and engaging.
No. 780882
>>780853Sorry the infight drowns out your post, you're
valid. I hope you get to have Panda Express soon.
No. 780901
>>780900Nta but
>smelly crotchWhat?
No. 780905
>>780877Art is supposed to be beautiful tho. That's why most people draw pretty landscapes and beautiful people.
Sure, some weirdos draw disabled fatties and construction sites, but most people want to look at art and think "ah… pretty, this makes me feel good." Why should make-up be any different?
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>>780905>Art is supposed to be beautiful tho. That's not true anon. Art CAN be beautiful and the purpose of an individual piece of art can be to be beautiful or aesthetically pleasing, but it doesn't have to be.
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>>780905Read this and get back to us nonnette.
No. 780963
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Working and going to school is fascism.
No. 781024
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I have to piss so bad but my nails are wet
No. 781043
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i just realized how empty the word she is. gay men use she so fuckin much, scrotes have a hateboner towards she's, we name objects she. no wonder women feel like shit we're not seen as human or something.
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>>780905>>781030Then why do people like this?
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I want to kill God. Why are things so confusing? Is it possible to kill God and everything will finally collapse
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>>781030
Since you don't want to quit being a clown
No. 781117
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30 min ago couple of randos started ringing my apartment door and cursing, then went down a stair flight and sat there for couple of minutes arguing about something. Idk who they are and what they wanted, I didn't answer as well and now I have extreme anxiety and am literally shitting myself whenever I hear something happening on the stairs
No. 781156
>>781120>>781135>>781143>>781146Wtf, I never thought you anons would be so nice!!! I expected to be shit on for freaking out lol. It's been like 2 hours now and am better, but probably will still be shaken for the rest of the day. Nobody has ringed anymore.
Also, I called my mom and she said this type of thing happened to her in this apartment regularly couple of years ago. She said that someone in our house was selling moonshine and allegedly they lived in the same spot just different staircase. Maybe they were related to that, because they didn't sound like any of our neighbours. I'm in a Soviet blockhouse btw, if that helps you to imagine.
No. 781187
>>781156its good to see youre okay. my mom had some weirdo watching her thru her kitchen windows in the late 80s when murder was p high in that area, thankfully nothing came from that but its affected me to this day.
apartment living isnt the best but its kind of safer in its own way.
its why i avoid drugs and alcohol, it makes people act so terribly.
>>781167take a day to plan the best masturbation session youve ever had. i wish the population at whole could grasp how good that could be, maybe it could lessen incels murdering randos and whatnot, sexual repression is an awful common cause fore murder and violence. sorry just a thing i believe in p hard
No. 781278
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my boyfriend is "not like other girls"-ing me so fucking hard and its driving me insane, he sees it as such a grand compliment and says it with such admiration and love and if i didn't know better i would take it as such but god fucking damnit i do know better and i know he's being soft handedly mysoginistic when he says stuff like that.
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I'm so mad at Her's interface (the dating app)
Why doesn't it show the "Like" or "Nope" text before swiping??? I always forget which direction each swipe means, so I drunkenly swiped "Yes" on multiple ugly troons last night by accident. Fucks sake, I mean I'm just ignoring their messages now but it's so embarrassing.
No. 781408
>>781167i did this. thought "FUCK MUH
ABUSIVE EX BOYFRIEND !!!!". Out of the people i fucked:
>both "friends with benefits" weren't actually friends the second sex was involved and are shitty people i dont talk to anymore. >the other was the worst sex of my life and just thinking about it makes me cringe so fucking badly cause of how awful it was, i was horny and thought fuck it ill fuck whoever who cares if they ugly, and whoever ugly lied and was actually a virgin and it fucking showed but thats what i get for fucking the ugliest person i know over horniness and pettiness. >last was someone that was good in bed but the more i knew about them the more i realized theyre fucking insane, and look i was in a mental hospital for months and had multiple diagnosis and talked with very strange people there… but that person was "i think he might murder someone one day" insane, i just wanted to fuck cause they were attractive. a friend who had actually talked to him way before i met him and i thought they were friends, shes like no we arent actually friends he just talks to me cause i was friendly with him but hes a narc with an awful personality, dont do it hoe. but they were attractive and didnt listen. but by god he does have a fuckign terrible fucking personality and because of it has no actual meaningful relationships ever (he told me and i could tell). i fear anyone who tries to have anything with him because he's actually scary in how he sees the world.regret every single one of them and if i wanted to feel bad about myself for months i should have just stayed in that
abusive relationship uh
do whatever you want anon, just venting myself
No. 781455
>>781446I have this problem too and I've been thinking about it a lot recently. I started writing down tactics that I can refer to when that feeling hits that basically create a path toward self empowerment. I can see how that might sound retarded but I really do think it's helpful. When you feel defeated or helpless, you need to reset your outlook in order to develop a certain level of emotional detachment from the discussion and regain control. So along with basic grounding techniques, I've been thinking about images, songs and phrases that I respond positively to, and keeping them in the back of my mind so that I can visualize those references when I feel overwhelmed. I've also read that some people will think about a person that they admire and consider how they would handle a similar situation, idk if this is a weird or bad suggestion but I can see how it would allow you to take a step back and rationalize what's going on.
Next time I find myself backing down in mid-argument I'm gonna think, what would Chaka Khan do? lol Whether or not any of that helps I'm wishing you good luck anon. You have the power to change you just have to keep working on it.
No. 781466
>>780263>>780264God my dad is like this too and it's fucking insane because I was an autist who couldn't even speak to the other kids in my class and he didn't care because my grades and standardized tests were good. When I got a really good SAT score he would say shit like "you can get into any college you want!" and even made me tour really selective colleges that I had no interest or chance of getting into. He reads the news and shit so I don't know how he didn't realize that no matter how good my numbers were I had almost no extracurriculars/sports/instruments/volunteer hours/etc that you actually need to get into an elite school.
Not to mention the fact that social skills are infinitely more important to any kind of life success than being good at fucking fill-in-the-bubble tests.
No. 781479
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Is it wrong for me to be really uncomfortable with the fact that my boyfriend just told me he's friends with ALL his exes? Like. All of them. I don't even know how many that is but I know for sure it's over 4, I know one of them and I already feel a weird tension when I'm with her but I didn't know it was THIS much. It makes me also feel like I'm going to soon be just another one of them. I'm also a severe bpd shithead so maybe it really is entirely on me.
No. 781492
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women in primarily moid-based hobbies or in moid-based spaces online need to start being more actively anti-moid. damn i know i'll sound like a retard, but the moment i stopped pretending to be a man and began being more open about how annoying i found moidshit on /a/, and how much i ENJOYED my otome/bl series, posting there became a lot better. mostly because when i do it other women start doing it too. it's like irl feminism but on 4chan. fucking silly thing to be happy about but it's so fun to see a thread be overrun by fujostacies and men bitch and cry about all the "faggots"
No. 781494
>>781489I hope it still manages to be a good day,
nonny. Congratulations!
No. 781530
>>781501>mexican citizens think you're gringaHola, soy mexicana de mexico
Tu eres mi
nonnyy eres mexicana en mis ojos
a menos que seas mamona, entonces no lol
ok bye
No. 781542
>>781530Gracias mi hermana.
>>781532Why are you defending terfism to me like I don't know this. I'm literally a
terf. All I was saying was how the racial dysphoria discussion made me think about gender dysphoria in a different way.
No. 781546
>>781540Anon no, I know it's difficult and tiring but don't off yourself. It's the depression, the illness convincing your brain you want to die, don't allow it to win. Killing yourself is not the solution, please don't do it. Think about calling a suicide hotline if you want someone to listen to you and who can give you better advice
https://www.opencounseling.com/suicide-hotlines It's tough but stay strong ♥
No. 781575
>>781492Based anon, this is how everyone should be. After I abandoned my "I-I don't want to cause any trouble" persona and started openly loving fujo stuff and calling men out for their double standards and loli fetish my experience has gotten a lot better. Scrotes can continue to seethe and cry into their oppai mousepads about how mean fujos aren't kissing their fragile asses. Imagine having a media universe pandering to your coomerism yet still being so
triggered over cute anime boy threads and a girl calling your waifu shit online.
No. 781678
>>781639If it helps in any way, sometimes Facebook will recommend adding other people based on all sorts of data such as where it has logged your information, what apps you have used at the same time as other people, things you have typed in messages and all sorts of things.
She might still have been stalked but Facebook really assists anyone who wants to find someone
I hope she didn't accept the add, nobody uses Facebook much so it's acceptable to ignore requests
No. 781682
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>>781479For ur bpd shithead's sake, date one who isn't friends with all his exes
No. 781684
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>>781492Extremely based. I will now follow your example anon! WE SHOULDN'T ACCEPT PRETENDING TO BE A MAN ONLINE
No. 781762
>>781749I had no idea this was a thing you freaks are wild
You should give her constructive criticism anon, if she can't handle it never commission her again but if she takes it well and improves you know you have someone to repeat commissions
No. 781766
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I think my dad might be a sociopath. A ton of his lies came to light recently and I'm no longer sure if he truly loves me or my siblings or if he even once told us truth.
No. 781783
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>>781584stop this
nonny and go see a therapist. you don't deserve someone
abusive and you need to work on yourself
No. 781790
>>781762It's the only thing that gets me off, and the only form of porn except from DJs that I don't hate.
Yeah thank you, I think I will. I think I might suggest she writes scripts for other
more talented VAs
>>781771SoundCloud is your friend bbg. I search for "[husbando] ASMR NSFW" and loads of lovely fujos have uploaded some great ones. My favourite is Seikyuu (misspelled it in the last post, sorry). Her acting is really good, she's slimy in the right way, she gives you hints before he comes so you can time it, and she does in-character romance and scenarios as well as aftercare. It's just the full package, I just wish she'd get a bit louder and desperate when she does the climaxes but that's a really small point. She has a Gumroad which I think I'll support, since I love the content that's been reuploaded.
I only listened to her Nagito ones so I don't know how she is with other voices. No. 781792
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>>781708Huggies. You sound sweet, your friends are lucky they get to hear your autistic rants.
sorry about what happened to you, you have a very healthy and productive way of dealing with the trauma from it which is admirable No. 781801
>>781708You're doing great anon I'm so happy you have an outlet and friends because you deserve to be happy. If it helps, I really enjoy when people post in depth on /m/ because that's what slow forums about
If you ever want to try to shorten things a little for talking to normies in work situations, you can analyse the writing of others and try to imitate it? I am quite long-winded myself but I had to learn to fit essay word limits when I did a course, I would read texts similar to what I was writing and just imitate that, and now I'm also trying to do the same with emails at work. It feels like you lose the nuance of your writing and adds on extra time but I enjoy it like a crossword.
No. 781890
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Can't apply for student accommodation without men because that's twansphobique but there are a limited amount of rooms like that reserved for religious international students because to not do so would be islamophobic! Wokescolds contradicting themselves through avoiding offending any group always slip up and unknowingly acknowledge that scrotes can't be women. Fuck you if you say it out loud though. Also they made all the toilets unisex so maybe I just shouldn't go
No. 781901
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Friends saying they're there for you yet can't handle venting so you don't vent to them to not make them feel uncomfortable, then they say you're too cold and when you open up they laugh at you, but it's probably just nervous laughter so you don't think much of it. Knowing you're depressed and or have a mental illness due to family history but still deny it because parents deny nothing is wrong and then you just eat spaghetti for 3 days straight for breakfast, lunch and dinner. I'm tired of eating spaghetti. I don't know why I always resort to spaghetti.
No. 781914
>>781800The guy finally came, wasn't too bad til he told me that this process will include several more assessments where more strange men will come into my house, photograph and measure shit and I'll probably be a bag of nerves each time. Fuck.
I'm not even some 18/19 year old new to living alone. I'm 30 with a mortgage but still stressed any time workmen have to come in.
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I'm fucking crushed…
I applied to an online IT webinar education thing which could've given me a good start into a new career. I had to take a test, sure, no problem!
Except… the test had questions that you could only know if you had an education in computer science. The whole thing has been advertised for women who have no job, no education IN GENERAL or in that field etc. SO WHAT THE HELL? Do they think CS students are just sitting around bored at home? As if they're not really high in demand?? Some of them in my country get a steady job even before they finish college.
I have no fucking words, wtf… I was so excited about this, it could've changed my life… just… what the fuck?
I only got 53% :(
No. 781959
>>781916How did you keep from laughing in her face and calling her a retard?
I bet she wishes she could actually forget and not think about how she brought around a violent male to her child. She must also have severe low self-esteem to keep wanting contact with that abuser and not have gotten with anyone else who at least wouldn't brandish a weapon to her face.
There is no cure for that delusion, I'd distance yourself from her if you haven't already. Fuck parents who can't just own up honestly to their mistakes and change.
No. 781994
>>781966PowerShell, networks, servers, hardware, command lines, Linux etc
Might not be CS, I tend to lump it all together since I'm ESL but it was still advertised for beginners or people with no knowledge in the field. I do some front end web dev stuff as hobby so I know and have heard of some of these but someone working as a cashier sure as hell hasn't.
>>781990Lmao might as well
No. 782014
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Losing my mind at this one lady in my psych class who's in her late 40's (in an intro to psych class, no shame based on age though) yet has the most retarded twitter-tier opinions on gender. God, she keeps acting like a holy martyr for the transgender cause to the point where I've had to just be quiet and let my autism simmer just so I don't go off on her. Pray for me nonitas
No. 782043
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I’m developing parasocial feelings with a fellow streamer. I regularly get to talk to him and he’s super nice to me, but I know he’s just like that with everyone (which makes me jealous) and even if he were to develop feelings for me, there is a whole continent in between us. I hate this.
No. 782053
>>782020Ramadan kareem anon if you're practicing!
I'm very excited
No. 782126
>>782107I completely understand you, this is the case for a lot of people. What I did was ask myself "where is this coming from? why do I like it? is it giving me more harm than joy?" Then, I just accept that certain things arouse me, but arousal shouldn't be the thing driving my life for me. I accept it, and try to move on as much as I can.
Example, I have a pissing outside kink because someone in my family saw me piss on a roadtrip once and they stared. An adult at that. I was a child. So I have cum to videos of women pissing outside multiple times.
But it's the feedback of cumming to it that affects your brain and wires it differently. It gives feedback to your cells and says "this is good", and then you'll get accostumed to it. If you conciously take the time to control your impulses, I promise everything will be better.
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>>782043Bitch, the fuck? same here
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>>782128Let’s cry while watching our streamer’s be nice to everyone on their chats. I’m never chatting with small streamers ever again
No. 782181
>>781859Yee I know. It's not really a problem I think about that often because they are both important parts of my identity, but it can get really annoying and confusing sometimes.
Especially when ignorant people try to invalidate my nationality because I know that they would never even think to tell a descendant from European immigrants that they're not a real 'murrican.
No. 782262
>>782237Thanks anon!
May it be easy for all
No. 782322
>>782302Ramadan kareem anon!
Try working out 2hrs after breaking the fast. Don't go hard on yourself and do easy exercises. Keep hydrated and try to divide your meal and don't stuff yourself by eating one meal directly.
Your hard work won't go to waste I hope. You can do it
No. 782426
>>782202>>782219if i didn't live in the u.s. where scholarships can be taken away if you dip below a 3.5 i would not be feeling like this
hate this fucking country lads
No. 782427
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My boyfriend's mother committed suicide today. She was a horrible woman and he had basically cut her off because of her behavior. She called him earlier in the morning and they fought on the phone and now she's gone. I'm heartbroken for him, and I cannot imagine the grief he is going through. Despite her behavior and his resentment towards her, losing a parent is still a terrible experience. He's a complete mess and I feel so bad. I feel like I cannot support him well enough through this. Having lost my sibling suddenly myself years ago, I know how miserable grief is. I never had anyone to support me through it, so now that I'm in a position where I should support someone else experiencing it, I don't know how to support him. I just want him to be alright in the long run. He deserves to be happy and I'm so worried for him. I don't know why this had to happen. Now of all times.. fuck this gay earth
No. 782472
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People always misinterpret my posts here and start infighting with me. I'm sorry I'm autistic please be patient
No. 782562
I got so annoyed yesterday trying to search for redhead male porn. Like, just anything, anywhere. By himself or with a woman, doing whatever sex act, I don't care.
Not very specific, but apparently an impossible task unless I want to see some grotesque gay porn (not that it's all grotesque, but these results were).
All the results were "redhead fucks guy", guy being generic guy while all descriptors were about the woman. Nothing professional, and nothing amateur found. No videos, or pictures.
Like I get that porn is majorly catered to men, but Jesus Christ, there's NO wiggle room for even basic preferences on how a man looks (except for "black thug" I guess, for cucks).
It's 2021! Why has this not changed?
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>be me
>join hobby server (hobby being rp)
>in it for a year
>i'm one of the people who joined first
>find out by total accident – girl didn't mean to let it slip – that the other people who joined first (about six others) started a cool clique chat without me
>find out that they've been seriously discussing my character behind my back
>find out that even someone who joined way later than i did got in
man i hate being a social autist. this always happens, whether offline or online. also bums me out to think that people are negatively discussing my plots and such without me being there. fuck
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>yOu'Re ExACtLy WheRe YoU'Re SuPPosEd tO Be"
Ger thanks, didn't know I was supposed to be poor, suicidal and alone. I fucking hate that tOxIc positivity, especially when someone parrots it around without thinking.
No. 782624
>>782607Is there a chance you could befriend her too? He should be able to have his own friends with their own history. I recently had an experience where I was the girl who was friends with a married man and it made his wife uncomfortable even if it was just online atm. We ended up hanging out in Skype calls together whether playing games or drinking and it was a good time. I feel closer to my friend for getting to know his wife a bit.
If no one is ok with a compromise or similar you're all fucked lol
No. 782629
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Moid told me today he "has been leading me on" because whenever he says he loves me his anxious brain tells him "but do you really??? or is she just a friend???". Either way I feel played. I don't know, I don't care, it's his shit. So far all I've done is being patient, kind, understanding, nice, because he's a nice moid, an extremely dumb himbo. But I'm exhausted. I'm damn exhausted and depressed. I don't want to talk to him anymore. I want to ignore him forever if possible.
No. 782646
>>782627If you don't trust him to be able to just be friends with her then maaaybe work on yourself a bit more anon because I don't want to day dump him.
Reaching out to old friends isn't something strange to do.
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i'm old enough not to be this codependent with my parents yet here i am!! i feel like a piece of shit and every time i think i'm being a productive fine adult here comes my crippling insecurity and codependency!!!!!!!!! why am i such an absolute dumbass baby! i wish life would just slap me across the face so i'd stop feeling like such a useless idiot
No. 782749
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>>782746I agree with you but perhaps you are overreacting just a smidgeon…
No. 782758
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This male artist in my social circle who is demonstrably straight and openly depraved (likes bdsm, once posted an artwork of himself domming his ex, whom he drew gagged and in tears) just came out as a he/they. Why didn't I see this coming
No. 782788
>>782774You could try inviting him on walks when you go to class or work or even the gym. Start with small things then maybe he'll feel more comfortable to get back into his old lifestyle. Outside of yourself going to the gym, work and class what do you do together that isn't sex? Maybe a walk, picnic or even cooking a meal together might help him (and even you to relax lol)
Lockdown has really effected a lot of people and im not making excuses for him but I can see how he's easily fallen into this pit.
No. 782798
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Some lady honked at me and made me jump when I was at the dumpster next to my car (I was NOT in the road and I have no idea who she was so there was no reason for it). It made me so angry I got in my car and followed her to a stop sign and the moment she stopped I laid on my horn for a really long time, flipped her off and then went home. I don't know what came over me
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I'm such a nonce lol. In the advice threads I always encourage anons to dump their shitty boyfriends who clearly don't care about them, yet I'm willingly shackling myself to a junkie BPD-chan. I love her so much. Not only does she have my ideal personality, body type, fashion sense, etc., we also share similar values and life experiences. Our insanity is miraculously complimentary. I swear we're soulmates. If only she wouldn't get pissed off by outside circumstances and decide to torment me even though it's not my fault, then blame me for my worsened abandonment and trust issues. Being mistreated at the drop of a hat is hard to deal with, but I think I'm getting better at it. Good practice for when we're finally married. She's so lucky I've been groomed for codependence since birth. I love my parasite more than anyone and I'll never love again. I hope that she'll say something kind to me soon.
No. 782823
>>782774for me, the disgust doesn't go away easily. this might be the beginning of the end.
>>782798kek this made me laugh
No. 782857
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My birthday is coming up soon so I thought I'd try going to therapy to sort out my shit and be a responsible adult. I was browsing online to get an idea of who to contact, but I got overwhelmed and this strong feeling of imposter syndrome. So many therapists are already fully booked and it seems like they're in high demand right now. I've never been diagnosed with anything or experienced severe trauma. I go to school and can take care of myself fine, so I almost feel like if I went to therapy I would be wasting my therapist's time or taking the spot of someone who needs help more than I do. I know that therapy can be beneficial for anyone, but now I feel sort of stupid if I were to contact a therapist and when they ask me to describe what troubles I've been having I can't say anything more than "I just feel shitty sometimes and hate men lol." It's like I know there is something about the way I am that isn't healthy, but I don't have any actual proof to back it up .
No. 782862
>>782857Hey, I've been there.
>It's like I know there is something about the way I am that isn't healthy, but I don't have any actual proof to back it upThis is a perfectly good reason to seek therapy. You want to be better, you want to figure out how. When the pandemic first came around I booked a therapy session, and when she asked me to talk about why I'd reached out I found myself "umm-ing" through a bunch of (what I felt were) relatively mundane issues. I did feel stupid at the time, but she simply devoted that first meeting to asking questions and learning more about me (family, upbringing, friends, etc). Whoever you find will probably do the same.
Also, don't feel pressure to outline some kind of "agenda" within that first meeting, like "here's what my major character flaws are and what I'm setting out to fix with these sessions." Your therapist is not a research grant; you don't need to present a project proposal for them to take you on. I only started
really confiding in my therapist a few weeks in, even if it was just to tell her about a fight I had with a family member that week. Slowly we worked out that I feel like I'm not taken seriously, I presume too much to know what people are thinking, etc. It's a slow journey and that's ok. Just treat it, to borrow the language, like a "safe space". Good luck, anon!
No. 782880
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One of the nsfw audio youtubers I watch had her account deleted, and now she's barely uploading anything to the new account. There was one really good one that was uploaded before her account got deleted, and I don't think it'll ever be uploaded again. I'm probably gonna have to buy her patreon if I ever wanna hear that shit, ugh.
No. 782883
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bought new jacket today, before that had to deal with anxiety what comes to my appearance. i keep remembering how mom verbally abused me and touched me to private areas as a kid, bc i was ugly fat piece of shit. exposed my stomach to her friend when i was 8, groped it and spanked me in butt. my friends did same shit, i couldn't do anything bc i was scared as hell, i was just a kid.
pretty much i hate my appearance most of the time and i've battled with ED in past. for now trying to just keep up with health routines. i hate it remembering this shit, so i dissociate by reading books.
No. 782907
>>782818Yes I have! Thank you for remembering me. My gf certainly doesn't.
>>782841… Well now I do. I spent my whole life thinking it was synonymous with idiot, nuisance, etc. How embarrassing. Thank you for telling me haha
No. 782953
>>782816I hope she's getting some sort of treatment. I'd be a hypocrite to tell you to drop her, but from one BPD-partnered person to another, you should push her to get help of some kind. Even if it's just doing a workbook on the disorder or DBT. Being in a relationship is a huge
trigger for them and her reactions aren't healthy for either of you. I'm sure you don't want her to continue suffering through stressful emotions that seem to come out of nowhere without understanding their cause. She should learn how to actively manage them to avoid such frequent anxiety (which manifests as the borderline rage).
No. 783006
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noooooo i sent my favorite taxidermy pictures to my crush because im an unhinged retard and they got scared said it was gross and stop responding i swear to god im the dumbest bitch who has ever lived please help me god please let them like me back PLEASE IM BEGGING YOU I WILL WORK ON MY RETARDATION
No. 783018
>>783006Yeah, that's pretty gross, anon.
Please learn if the person is into taxidermy/creepy weird shit before sending these.
No. 783026
>>782825nta but there's
https://disboard.org/ for discord roleplay, and
https://pixel-perfect.boards.net/ +
http://cttw.jcink.net/ for forum roleplay. the former is mostly for sites that use anime characters are face claims, the latter for real life characters.
No. 783042
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There's this local girl who I met on Discord a month ago and I can't stop thinking about her and second guessing every single thing I've messaged her about it's making me go crazy
She's my very first fellow lesbian irl, we have back to back birthdays, we share a lot of similar aspirations and we often chat for hours from 1am to 5am. I want to be with her so badly but I often wonder how she really feels about me.. we were supposed to hang out for the first time today too but I had college stuff on last minute.
This is my first time attempting at trying to date someone (irl), I also feel so clingy and insecure each time we don't talk / our convo goes dry and I hate it.
No. 783056
>>783006Sorry your crush is a square anon
>>783035Leave the pos on read forever
No. 783061
>>783046>>783041I will anons, thanks for the support
>>783056I left him on delivered for a month lol.
No. 783062
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I finally took the first step to get an asperger diagnosis going and it made me misereable the whole day. I just ate junk food and slept all day I don't even have an appointment yet!! Why is it so difficult to do simple tasks like that god dammit wtf
No. 783074
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>>783056>>783030>>783022this ones my favorite. its a fully functional bunny toaster. the mad man cant be stopped.
>>783018i will be careful now
No. 783075
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>>783074How does this not overheat and catch on fire or some shit
No. 783079
>>783075i sincerely doubt the guy uses it. he probably used it once to make the video and that was it. so yeah "functional" but youre right probably wouldnt last long if you… for some very strange reason… bought it to put it on your house
>>783078im not gonna post more i just wanted to share to the anons that liked the rat pencil case
No. 783196
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I’m at my fucking limits right now and I feel so frustrated I want to cry. I have a project coming up soon and I have to do it in Illustrator and I fucking hate that program, it’s so restrictive and if you have Windows the colors and shapes always look so choppy and ugly. I had this really cool sketch that I put into the program and I tried making it and it’s not turning out well at all and I seriously just want to ducking quit my major and just work minimum wage my entire life because I can’t handle this stress and failure anymore. I truly want to be an animator or a character designer or something artistic but I’m so pidgeonholed in this stupid fucking college and life. My brain literally hurts no matter what I do it always turns out horrible and inadequate. and the worse thing is that I’m a perfectionist.
No. 783206
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>>783201Was morbidly curious so I looked this up, and yeah these types of videos are 100% for ad revenue. The ticks in the thumbnails are terribly photoshopped, the animals having them 'removed' are clearly drugged, and then there's picrel. Absolutely nasty and cruel to sit there gluing fake ticks to a cat's fur, then drug them and tweeze them off. Hope these people rot.
No. 783218
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>hi we need someone to provide us monetary support and housing for two people, a cat, and a large dog for an indeterminate amount of time, oh and we need you to move all of our shit for us… ASAP like today pls
i see shit like this on instagram and twitter constantly and it blows my mind. how can people be so entitled? who the fuck has time, money, and space to just drop everything and do all that shit for you?
No. 783219
this sounds minuscule but a bunch of 14 year olds tracked down my insta from a tiktok comment section, in which i refused to call someone bug/bugself or whatever the fuck. They then added me to a group chat and, chronologically, told me to starve myself more, cut words into my arm, hang myself in front of my mother, overdose, and to suck my fathers dick. This didn’t bother me considering they’re little kids and this was based on nothing, however what did bother me was the absolute state gen z has become. what they were saying was disgusting, and to think they justified themselves on the basis of someone having a different opinion is fucking scary. To make it worse, I checked their profiles and, god forbid, they were filled with activism posts / shitty little infographics. so much for kindness and tolerance lol
No. 783252
>>783238Good for you
nonny, I hope it brings you some satisfaction. I know it would for me
No. 783275
>>783261aww you sound so sweet.
definitely shout them out, i'm sure they'll read it.
No. 783276
>>783266I wanted to respond to some of the things they said specifically which might be risky if I don't word it carefully, but I also thought of doing something like that.
>>783275I need them to know they're not alone! And we are the same!
No. 783280
>>783276Yes! We are not alone and it's an awful feeling when we feel we are!
I admire you for being understanding and using your platform to help others.
No. 783306
>>783301Are you me? I've been at my new job a month too and I actually like it but I'm worried I'm shitty at it. They tell you every time you do something wrong and I can't gauge if I'm making minor, expected mistakes or if they think I'm an absolute dumbass. It seems like everyone gets told off for their mistakes though so maybe it's just the culture there… it's kinda anxiety inducing either way.
Being new really sucks because people (understandably) hate training newbies and dealing with their fuck ups and constant questions, I know I always did. Even if you know it's not the newbies fault it's hard to not get frustrated.
No. 783325
My sister is an extremely violent and angry person. She has been this way since she was very young. She has this fits of rage she would always fly into. These fits of range include screaming, insulting people, hitting them, breaking things, biting her hand and hitting her own head. She would do this at least multiple times a day. She used have at least ten ones when she was younger and it’s gotten better as she’s gotton older but she still has them frequently throughout the day. She had no problem doing this in public or infront of others. These “fits of rage” could be triggered by anything, reasonable or not. My dad could ask her to do the dishes and she would have them. I could ask her to close the lights and she would have them. They are not very predictable and she would have them for the silliest or smallest reasons (which is why she has so many per day). I always felt like I had to walk on eggshells growing up around her, as I didnt know what would upset her or when and why the next fit would come. Her and I got into frequent violent fights because of her anger. Growing up, I always had bruises and scratches all over my body because of her. My parents always forced me to cater to her needs so she doesn’t have mental breakdowns. I could never do normal things growing up like having friends over or going out for a nice family dinner because something will 100% upset her and she will throw a tantrum.
My sister is a diagnosed Aspie and tbh I do not think that is an excuse for her behavior. I’ve met some other siblings of Aspies and they would say things like “my sibling is a sweet and compassionate person but they can be a bit difficult” “I love my sibling and they are a lovely person but they can be a bit frustrating sometimes”. Well, I cannot tell you that my sister is a sweet or compassionate person. She is actually a very rude, condescending, selfish, and mean. She does not hesitate to put me down and bully me and tbh I believe that has nothing to do with her Aspergers and its just her narcassitic personality because my parents codled and enabled her so much.
Plus, she is just annoying to live with. She has this thing where she runs up and down our hallway all day I guess that is her form of “fun”. It is very loud and annoying as we live in a small house so she goes THUD THUD THUD all day. It is loud enough to constantly wake me up and my parents at night (she stays up very late) and it is extremely distracting when Im trying to study. We cannot call her out on this as - you guessed it - she will throw a tantrum. She is extremely sensitive and cannot handle being called out on her toxic behaviour. She does nothing but sit on the same spot for 12+ hours and play video games which isnt a problem as at least it keeps her quiet but she smells HORRIBLE. She has no concept of self-hygiene whatsoever and smells atrocious (to be the point where I dont want to walk near her). I share a room with her and she basically sits there and stinks up the room all day.
She also does a lot of other Aspie behaviours like talk to herself, make strange noises or talk weird but I cannot blame her for those things as they are simply part of her disorder. However, I will 100% blame her for being a bitch. I tried to have a relationship with her multiple times I failed and I realised that our “friendship” is plain abusive and toxic. We had a short bit where we were close friends a few years back due to some similar interests but it dissolved because she is a fucking cunt tbh. She would talk incessantly about video games I do not know or care about so its hard to have a conversation as she is also very dismissive everytime I talk about my interests or myseld. Everytime I tell her or ask her related around my interests she wills say “nope” “no” with a big smirk on her face like she just enjoyed putting me down. This is why I stopped being friends with her and just try to ignore her.
Plus, she is a massive SJW. She constantly weaponizes her Aspie. She blames biting her hand (which has thesehuge permanentl purple spots because of this tbh) or smacks her own head on her aspie and we cannot call her out everytime she hits her head because she got pissed at something small or normal because we are making fun of her “self harm UwU”. She also has this new thing where she doesnt want to go to malls because they overwhelm her senses even though she had no fucking problem going to them before until she found out she had ASD. She used to think she was trans and called us “transphobic” “cisheads” for not supporting her (my parents are anti-LGBT conservatives) and I did not believe her because she came out as a fucking lesbian the week before. Now she is saying she is not trans?
I am 24 and she is 18 btw. Thankfully I do not have to live with her anymore but I am now stuck with her because of covid. She does fine at school and even though she dealt with bullying she usually has a group of friends. I cannot wait till I can cut her out of my life.
Sorry for long read and bad English.
No. 783493
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i left both my spare and my actual glasses at home. so now im at work zooming into like 200% just to see my computer screen. Idk why but this is making me feel so old because when i was younger sure i needed glasses, but I could always still see my computer screen lmao.
No. 783512
>>783424Record the screams for a few days, try to present yourself to her so you can know at least know her first name, if you live in a place where it's common to be cordial just make up comments about the weather/ how's the neighborhood going etc. Try to recollect info, depending on her age doxing will be quite easy.
When you have access to her FB send the audios or video to her family and friends, these people do not care if you confront them, only public shaming and being seen as the bad mom will do the trick. Obviously do all of this with a burner and dont give out your real info to her.
No. 783520
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Some random scrotes decided it was ok to express their desire to draw rape porn of me (they never saw me, just a sona I drew). DON'T INTERACT WITH PORN ARTIST EVER IF YOU'RE INTO ART YOURSELF. Don't join communities that allow coom shit, don't follow or follow back coom artists for clout, truly the worst men are the ones who draw porn. I am not a human being in their eyes. I am an object of their desires. Men deserve to be castrated. Don't make the same mistake I made and leave at the first sign of coom dumb shitery
No. 783555
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I'm being sent anonymous rape threats on social media. I'm trying to ignore it but I was sexually assaulted in hospital by another patient in December. I thought I was coping really well but I was trying to confide all of this to my best friend and I had a panic attack in public like an idiot.
They've been sending threats, along with disgusting sexual things and very personal insults about my appearance, for the last three months, several times a day. I'm collecting them in case I need them as evidence.
I don't know if I should be scared or not. I was looking over my shoulder a lot while I was in my little town yesterday. At the same time, it's almost like I want something to escalate so that I have something legitimate to take to the police. Just anything to break the tension I feel.
No. 783561
>>783493Don't strain your eyes too much, anon
>>783424That's so horrible.
I don't know if there's anything you can actually do, but if you ever see the kid I'd try giving her a compliment. It's not much but it might make her day nicer.
No. 783572
>>783562lmao i'm asian and if someone called me a "person of asian culture" i would think theyre a fucking weirdo. you can tell your coworker i gave you the a word pass anon. also kek at islam being a "
POC" religion there are plenty of white muslims
No. 783576
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>>783562it really is the new excuse to bully others. I'm also Asian and you see how this strain of thinking is racist in some ways, especially in regards to trans shit and people comparing black/south asian women to men.
No. 783623
>>783569>>783572>>783573>>783576>>783578Yes she really did say that. The catch is I'm Asian and she's white lmao. I just didn't want to get banned for race bait.
She's just such a hypocrite. I really have gotten the feeling that she views the non-white people we know worse than the white people, especially white guys. And there's so many other woke women like this.
No. 783657
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being treated under the assumption that I was retarded when i was a child really destroyed my self-esteem. i have family members who constantly talk shit behind my back about how i'm slow and incapable. when i first meet people it's like my reputation is destroyed before i can even get a chance to make a first impression. i wish i had family members who actually loved me and cherished me rather than interacting with me only out of pity and then going behind my back to slander me. i feel like everyone in my family gave up on me before they even gave me a chance. i have whatever is the opposite of gifted kid syndrome lmao
No. 783684
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I’m so stressed right now because I managed to get a job offer from wagie job and I’m trying to search for documents and oh my god I might not even be able to do this because my dumb mother couldn’t keep my government documents together
No. 783689
>>783640massive sperg incoming but i have always really struggled to make friends because of this, and i don't like social media so i have no online friends. more than anything i just want to meet other women in real life who are also obsessed with their own niche things even if it's unrelated to my own interests because at least we will understand each other. i desperately wish i could into normie topics of conversation. how do so many people not have any hobbies or interests and yet still manage to strike up and maintain relationships, it's so frustrating and confusing for me it honestly makes me cry sometimes. it's not even that i don't want to talk about anything except my own interests, but it feels like no one i know has anything of their own things to sperg about so i would feel bad making them listen to me. and for some reason my slightly more mainstream interests seem to attract really pretentious and rude moids so i never feel comfortable talking about them in case i get my knowledge randomly "tested" or what the fuck ever. god why am i like this
i'm definitely not autistic>>783655godspeed anon i've never listened to that but i love you
No. 783696
>>783636I know. And I think she knows what she is doing with that shit.
Like today she was going on and on to some middle school boy on how it was “soooo weird” to want to hurt peoples feelings. But it’s so hypocritical because I know she wants to hurt peoples feelings too, she’s just more crafty about it. Otherwise she wouldn’t correct me, an Asian person, about that and accuse me of making micro aggressions against her. What a snake. I fucking hate working with her.
No. 783702
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>>783689Holy fuck anon, are you me? I could have written this word for word, although I've never been tested for autism (yet) kek. My obsession is video games, which is unfortunately packed to the fucking brim with scrotes and e-girl pickmes. Having moid-favored interests is a curse. I hope we find some equally spergy friends someday anon!
No. 783707
>>783684Relax
nonny. idk if you live in the US but its so so easy to get a replacement social security card (it'll take like 10 days or so) and it's also easy to go to irs.gov and get a full history of your taxes/income!
No. 783715
>>783702>>783710it's so relieving to know there are other people out there who get this. good luck anons, i'm sure you'll find your people eventually!
also i forgot to say this but this is the vent thread so i wanted to add that the most annoying thing of all is people assuming you only have these interests for scrote attention. i'm not even attracted to men but even if i were why the fuck would i learn so much about a subject just to impress some guy lmao
No. 783717
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>>783689same here. main obsessive interest is history, specifically a period that attracts a lot of scrotes. most normies think i'm boring and/or stuck up. even my friends don't care to hear about it most of the time. i have a whole-ass library and spend most of my leisure reading everything i can a find on the topic and no one gives a shit except me. feelsbadman
it's hard to find someone who's obsessed on the same level you are. hope we all do
No. 783797
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>Enter quarantine at a healthy weight
>Spend months without stepping on the scale because I didn't notice any significant changes to my body
>Jumped on scale out of curiosity a few days ago, sitting comfortably at same weight as I was in March
>Pretty cool I guess
>Few days pass
>Go to mall with mom
>Try on a pair of thigh-high boots
>Zipper won't go up my calf
>ohfuck.jpg
>Go home without new shoes
>Attempt to try on shorts in preparation for summer
>None of the non-athletic ones made out of natural fibers instead of polyester or elastic fit fast my thighs
>Realize all of the muscle I worked so hard to develop before COVID-19 has turned into fat
>Notice banana rolls, cellulite, and flabby ass
>Can barely sleep since then because I'm too preoccupied with the feeling of my perpetually bloated stomach pushing up against the band of my pajama pants
What the fuck. I'm so anxious to get the second dose of my vaccine just so I can buy a gym membership and schedule a colonic to get this shit sorted out. Why did it take me so long to notice all of this shit? My friends will be asking to see me in person a month from now and I look like a monster.
No. 783803
>>783753Oh yeah, she's here now and we're playing through Spyro. I'm just going to tell that dumb cunt that my friend can't drive home, because she's been drinking. Which is true. Dumbass NEET doesn't even wake up before 2pm and I guarentee my friend will be gone by then, since she has work.
As far as my dog, I've told her repeatedly not to put her in the yard and leave her. But she uses the excuse that she's playing with our neighbor's dog. My neighbor and I actually arrange playdates for the dogs, not just let them play through the fence.
No. 783814
>>783758Bih I'm 30 and I went back to school this year to finish my degree I put off for ages. I'm doing great in my classes and I've got 20-somethings thinking I'm around their age. I got out of a long ass
abusive marriage, followed by another shorter
abusive relationship, essentially I "wasted" all my teens-20s being depressed and retarded in my personal life but without that I guess I wouldn't have gotten the much-needed perspective I have now. I'm in a nice apartment I can call my own, doing hobbies I enjoy, in great shape, and committing to my work and education. You're crying about getting older but honestly you could
stand to do some growing with all the moaning and whining you're doing for no reason. The only time it's really too late is when you decide to give up on yourself like you're doing now, cause no one else can convince you to respect you except you. Get therapy or whatever you can afford, push yourself out of your comfort zone and focus on building love for yourself.
No. 783816
>>783758literally same, I don't recommend suicide though, I fucked up my first ever attempt recently and got thrown down the psychiatry hole, it's way worse now
Honestly, do drugs, start with the baby shit like marijuana, and don't move up to anything harder until it stops working, next step up psychedelics
No. 783822
>>783799Well I'm sorry anon. That's one of the reasons I don't talk to anyone because I know people don't want to hear this stuff. I only have negative thoughts. It's either this or escapist fantasies in which I'm the arist I always wanted to be and I'm dating the guy who's beyond my reach irl and I'm not attracted to anyone else
>>783814>push yourself out of your comfort zone Every time I tried to get out of my comfort zone I failed and made a joke out of myself. Ever had a meltdown in public? It's a suicide fuel. Doing anything I want to do requires being around other people, and I easily get panic attacks. I'm not even able to speak in front of a group or raise my voice in any situation.
>>783816Yeah that's what I've been thinking about. I really want to smoke pot but I don't know anyone who could get it for me, I'm gonna ask my cousin
No. 783827
>>783821well I couldn't kill myself, what's the other option? just be exactly this miserable for ever? I go to therapy, I have a psychiatrist, I exercise and don't eat sugar and I've committed to everything I've been told to do and I
want to be well, but I am not. if I don't get any reprieve at all, I know I'm going to try again and this time I know hanging doesn't always work out, and I've always known pills will only give you liver damage, so I'd try something more effective, and I really don't want to, what I want is for things to ever get better someday and to be here for that if it does
>>783822Which country are you in? I might at least be able to give you a tip to help (obviously not a hook up, but still)
No. 783832
>>783824Anon, you don't have to have a loose asshole to fart a lot. And you have to be annihilating your butthole hourly with dragon dildos to not be able to hold it in. It's probably a matter of diet, what the fuck is he even eating?
And more than the farting itself, you're probably just mad and disgusted that he isn't ashamed of doing it especially in front of you. Some women are scared to let their boyfriends hear them pee or are terrified of bringing up much less disgusting things like periods, meanwhile your boyfriend is being so brazenly gross and not trying to hide it. Personally I'd be fucking annoyed at a boyfriend or even worse, husband, being that comfortable in front of me.
No. 783834
>>783830Damn, that's certainly not going to make anyone feel better
Good rule of thumb in any country, dealers often hang out around military posts
Tourist areas are also a potential, especially if Americans are around because they're literally always looking for weed in Europe for some reason
Walk-up dealers look like a lot of different things, but they're usually people who hang around a general area for a long time, kind of like hookers do
No. 783837
>>783827Why even try if you don’t want to die. Most ways work if one is duly motivated. Every moment is a decision to breathe in spite of pain. Things will never change for Sisyphus.
So yes, if you don’t want to die
right now, you can only keep living and suffering anon, you may even choose to enjoy it in moments here and there, and then it will be over.
No. 783839
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Just wish everyone on social media just blew themselves up
No. 783842
>>783837Oh, excuse me actually,
>Why even try if you don’t want to die.becasue despite how badly I want everything I'm doing to work and how badly I want ot feel better, it isn't and I don't, and it doesn't look like that is ever going to change.
>Most ways work if one is duly motivated. Thank you for taking a jab at me for being too much of a loser to even kill myself right; the fucking strap I used broke and, you're right, I was too pathetic to try it again.
No. 783844
>>783843He's 29 and I'm 24 and we're adults.
But ehh.
No. 783845
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I want to go back on tinder and start flirting with boys so bad even though I know that 1. I'm only doing it because of the void from daddy issues and 2. I'll just end up extremely bored with everyone I talk to because most men are either too normie or incel-weird.
No. 783851
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I think about killing myself everyday, but I wouldn't say I'm depressed or suicidal like I've been before. It's more of a passing thought. The world is going to shit. I know I want to have at least one child, for that I need to finish my studies, find a job, move out, find a good partner, build a stable relationship and then get pregnant. But for what? Why would I bring another person into this shitty miserable existence? I'm not rich. I can't guarantee a happy life for them. I would try, of course, but ultimately, what's the fucking point. We all die. There's no higher reason life exists, it's just random, there is no God, no higher being that will validate my 70 years of life at the end and say good job anon. I know I can give myself that reason, find my own meaning, but in the end it's all just a big fucking cope. Everything I did or do will, ultimately, be for nothing. I can only enjoy small moments of life here and there, good food, a good book, movie, video game. Go to sleep, wake up, keep thinking about this bullshit. I'm curious enough to stay alive and see where I'm going to end up. I wish I could just shut the fuck up and continue to exist, I wish thinking about this didn't affect my mood.
No. 783890
STEM is fucking killing me during covid
8 courses a semester, with no intention from the professors to reduce the workloads, Ive got parallelism/concurrency graded labs every week, 2 computer architecture projects, 2 system oriented programming projects, 1 sociology project, calc, theory of computation, stats, machine learning (only field where Im doing good by doing almost nothing, I just like the topic is it's alright) and a bunch of other bullshit that are due every single week, without even taking into account midterms and finals.
I love what Im doing but Im failing because there is no way for me to handle all of this without actual professor / TA presence and people to work around, working at home is hell and I quickly end up distracted, also the midterms were hard as FUCK despite me acing every single labs, im ready to drop one or two classes and retake them next year because they will just bomb my gpa.
I'm tired.
No. 783928
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My autistic brother walked in on me getting dressed yesterday and got a full eyeful of my tits. He apologised and got out faster than a shot but he's been walking around the house all day with a bonk on (v. obvious - my sister noticed too).
He's 26 and it's just really fucking gross. If he were still a teenager, maybe I'd get it but eugh. I don't know if it's because he's an autist but this doesn't generally happen (sometimes he walks around with morning wood and upsets everyone at breakfast but that's funny, like a dog farting or something). I never usually think of him as a man because he's so placid and all he talks and thinks about are synthesisers, but now I feel uncomfy.
No. 783932
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Look at this shit. Where's the title? OP put the title in the name field.
This is like the umpteenth clutz that can't put the title in the proper field. Makes the thread hard to search for.
There's only 3 top boxes, and you miss the correct one 2/3 times, you must be putting the title in any random one and not even reading what they stand for.
No. 783933
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>>783928I'm sorry anon here is a picture to help you forget look at this weird cat
No. 783959
>>783945We had a pretty "hands-off" upbringing, putting it gently.
It's difficult because I want him to function well in society but equally I feel like addressing it with him will do more harm than good. Right now he's like a eunuch; if I mentioned the inappropriateness of his boners or suggested "dealing" with it, I'm seriously worried he'll either become an obsessive coomer or decide his willy is bad and troon out. Many of his autistic male friends have followed that path through sexual development and I think we're pretty lucky he's relatively well-adjusted.
It shouldn't really be my job, but this is the situation we find ourselves in. I don't know how I can talk about it with him without setting him off. I've found guides for talking to autistic kids about sex and their bodies, but they're usually aimed at parents talking to their kids, not adult siblings having a chat. I decided I can live with the occasional oblivious erection better than a porn-addled maniac or a tranny.
>>783933Thank you, I love her. Looks just like my dear departed Holly (but with curly ears)
No. 783973
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Ive hit the worst depressive episode of my life. My body is screaming for a vegetable but alas, Mac n cheese it is again.
No. 783975
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>>783950They where poor farmers, trying to stop boars from eating their crops, who don’t have the money for humane deterrents like water sprinklers and electric fences. They risk starving if they lose their crops and are already in poverty. They didn’t intend to harm the elephant.
Still it’s incredibly sad. It’s a horrible way for any animal to die.
No. 783991
>>783842Lmao being able to complete suicide isn’t a point of pride, why are sadfags like this.
>waaa I’m too pathetic to kms rightOh my god shut up, you know you get off on hating yourself. You don’t wanna die and you didn’t die, those are the facts. Accept that living is miserable and things might never improve. You get the choice every moment to continue out of scorn or you can quit whenever. Don’t think anything beyond that.
No. 784008
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My country is in hell right now, cities are blocked and people are dying and the violence is only escalating
basically a Islamist leader who wanted to remove the French embassy from Pakistan(cause of the recent Hijab ban) got arrested(cause he and his followers were gonna siege the french embassy) and now his hundreds of thousands of followers and other Islamists from across Pakistan are acting a bunch of animals literally ruining the lives of everyday people, cars are on fire and religious minority run hospitals are being burned down, fuck this pedophile Arab worshiper faith
No. 784015
>>784009I won't but my grandad's in the hospital and my mother and father have to visit him daily check on his health, despite the roads being blocked
also our dumass Prime Minister has done nothing about these extremists, he's instead claiming Freance is at fault for starting this by banning the Hijab and mocking the Pedophile Prophet
No. 784036
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>>783983Thanks nonna, here's an update for you.
No. 784073
>>783846thanks, guess so
>>784012Yeah, it was recent, it's been on my mind a lot, I posted either in the vent thread or the confession thread about it before. They wouldn't give me insulin while I was in psychiatric hold, so that's been a whole thing too. and thanks
No. 784099
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My family having selective amnesia when it comes to the shit I do and pin me as the slacker one but have no problem with my sister being basically a bitch who refuses to help pay the bills. Guess I'm the black sheep forever
No. 784113
>>784063My mom has the same two-faced attitude. Most people thinks she's this nice lady, but people she doesn't like have seen her awful side because she doesn't bother with the act and show for people she looks down on or has power over. She's a teacher and this obviously bled over with the distinction of how she treats "good" versus "bad" students–aka if you kiss her ass and do what she says without question or if you fail that. A few high school friends used to tell me how fake my mom was, and I remained pretty blind to it until I grew into an adult and she still treated me like a piece of shit no matter what I did because there was never pleasing her unless I made her look really fucking good. I wish I could've seen it sooner to have protected myself from her ways.
You'll always get people telling you that you don't have it so bad because you weren't hit or neglected. It's because people are the most afraid of emotional abuse because it's something most people have done in their lives and don't want to be accused of. The difference is however, that good people are aware of when they commit bad behavior, apologize, and avoid it. What makes an abuser is repetition of negative behaviors with no accountability. Also their deflection for the need to change and a minimization of their abuses.
Only you can be sure of your truth anon. If your family is like mine and they won't change their behavior to treat you with respect, then continuing a relationship with them is pointless.
No. 784119
>>780396you just described my life too. I just ran away from everything that caused me anxiety from friendships to doing or going anywhere and now I'm just in this perma comfort zone where nothing happens and I'm miserable and bored. still get anxiety too though
>>780929nta but this is good advice
>just remember that you won't die when you don't "perform" well sociallyI wish I could get this into my head but I have an overwhelming fear of rejection. any tips on overcoming that fear?
No. 784120
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I opened up an online dating profile and have spoken to a couple of guys but once they start asking me what my hobbies are or what I'm interested in I go blank. I don't have any hobbies or interests, nor do I have any friends. people want to hear exciting things too, nothing is worse than someone going 'oh I'm really boring I just watch netflix'. I just know these guys are going to be so turned off once they realise what a loser I am. I wish I could say my lack of interests and actual friends was my only problem but I also live at home and I'm almost 31. my mum also planted the seed the other day that telling guys I only work part time could put them off too.
I've just told the two I was talking to that I'm disabling my account for the time being because I'm not sure online dating is right for me at the moment but the real reason is I feel like a loser and a boring bitch!
No. 784125
>>784063"at least your father doesn't hit you" what kind of argument is that, oh the man that brought me into this life doesn't PHYSICALLY ABUSE ME i should thank him by licking his butthole clean and letting him use me as a doormat? fuck off, anyone who tells you that doesn't have your best interests at heart. not being
abusive is the absolute bare minimum he could do for you, and as you've said, you shouldn't have to beg and plead for someone to do the least bare minimum and respect you, both as his daughter and as a real human being.
stick by your choice, anon. if he can't respect you then he's not owed your time.
No. 784129
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i think i’m going to break up with with my boyfriend kinda sad but gotta do what you gotta do eh girls
No. 784158
>>784113>she still treated me like a piece of shit no matter what I did because there was never pleasing her unless I made her look really fucking goodI think for a lot of
abusive parents it's a matter of this. They look at their children as accessories or status symbols, and when the child doesn't act or behave exactly like they envisioned, they take it out on the kid instead of accepting them. And with your mom being a teacher she probably has a ridiculous ideal of how her own child should be, too. I'm so sorry you had to put up with that. I think it would break my heart more to have a mother like that, versus my dad.
>>784125Yeah, I've had multiple friends that said that (whom I've cut out of my life). And of course my dad thinks I should be grateful that he didn't abandon me (like his own dad did) and he hasn't physically abused me (like his mother). I've made SO many excuses for him because he had a bad childhood, but like you said it's not my job to be a doormat. Funnily enough if he wasn't so fucking mean-spirited I wouldn't mind emotionally supporting him even though that's not my job either. He just has to be an dumb bitch, though.
No. 784168
Guys help!! I'm so weirded out by this situation. I called my landlord on Monday, saying that I would like to end my lease, he was like okay, I'm gonna send you the papers to sign. The next day, there's still no email about the termination of our lease agreement, so I assumed that since it's the middle of the month, maybe he's gonna send it at the end of it and I still have time to move out. My mom helped me move out the next day, but I still had some stuff there that I was gonna take plus I wanted to clean the room properly. I assumed that since my landlord still hasn't sent me the papers, I still have time to do these things. I went there today, my room is cleaned, the rest of my stuff is neatly put in plastic bags. I messaged my housemate if this is her doing. No answer. I message my landlord saying that I'm officially done with moving out and when can I give him back the keys. No answer.
Now, I have Avpd so I know I come across as aloof and I'm not exactly communicative and maybe this is their way of taking revenge but still. What is going on? I really need my deposit back because I'm in a shitty financial situation. He can't deny that from me, right? I haven't destroyed the room, I always payed the rent, I haven't done anything wrong
No. 784181
This is all pretty retarded internet drama and everyone involved including me is like 18-20. I'll talk about some crazy incel who got mad at me and question slutshaming.
I am a virgin and I've never had a relationship. I do not have a porn addiction or crazy fetishes. I just masturbate a lot. I've always thought it was normal because as far as I know most of the human population does masturbate, including women. Apparently it's such a shock to some people. I don't think think there is anything wrong with me.
Some retarded scrote who I have the misfortune of having been in the same online circle, once ear dropped on a conversation we were having with other girls and some gay guys in our group. We were talking about sex, guys we find attractive and shit. This dude lost his shit over finding out I masturbate. He said he thought I was a "good girl" and had a crush on me. He started freaking out about how I'm just like all those other whores who are only going after the hot guys, the typical incel sperging. Now he keeps talking shit about me to other straight scrotes like oh she's such a superficial whore who only cares about looks, how dare I turn down his innocent love just because I don't find him good looking blah blah blah. I haven't even said a single thing insulting ugly men or anything, he's just mad I find hot guys attractive. He's very hypocritical too because he has simped for other girls during the time he claims to have been having a crush on me and talks about his own sexuality, the shit he jerks off to all the time.
My own side friends told him off and supported me so I'm good. I'm glad he fucked off. I do know he's just an insecure retard but it still feels bad because before he freaked out on me, I've never been rude to this guy yet he's acting like a nutjob, totally inconsiderate of how I feel. I also grew up in a misogynistic shithole of an environment so I've felt bad about having sexual urges before. I don't think there is anything wrong with women being sexual. Why would there be? This whole slutshaming thing makes no fucking sense, I'm not hurting anybody by masturbating in my own room. Yet I still feel kinda bad because these scrotes are so vile and full of rage even though I've done nothing to them. I haven't done anything besides not fucking him, yet he's losing his mind. He'd probably be crazier if he knew me in real life or something so thank god.
I don't get why people shame women for something as normal as feeling attraction or having sex. I don't get it but it makes me feel bad. They scare me and make me doubt myself. Am I doing something wrong? I really don't think I am. I despise the word "whore", it's only ever been used towards me by scrotes who are mad I won't fuck them. Like I owe them something.
A lot of men I've known were like this. It makes me feel like I'll never find a boyfriend who isn't a misogynistic nutjob and doesn't lose his shit over me having sexual urges and expecting him to make me cum, just be mutually respectful and considerate in general. But these scrotes, the kind who hates women, thinks women are "whores" for being sexual, uses those slutshaming slurs left and right, simps for a girl then starts shit talking her after getting rejected scare me away from even want to get involved with guys. I do care about looks, I do care about personality and a whole bunch of other things, despite this retard's inability to understand it's possible for a woman to care about all of these things at the same time… I really don't think it's that wild to find a guy who I'm attracted to and is also a good personality match for me. I hope I do.
You've probably also had experiences with scrotes like this. Why do people slutshame in the first place? How do I stay safe from scrotes like this? Do you think all of this boils down to insecurity? I don't know how to deal with it tbh, they're nutjobs and I had trouble responding to him to defend myself because it just felt so absurd. I didn't have any obligation to defend myself to begin with… All of this is so stupid
No. 784201
>>784181that incel sounds completely psycho, cut all ties for your safety. you haven't done anything bad anon. do not feel bad. almost every adult masturbates. it is very normal. his autistic reaction is what is abnormal.
>Do you think all of this boils down to insecurity?a lot of misogyny is usually rooted in insecurities, it's true. women make scrotes seethe from insecurity all the time. they feel entitled to your body so once they find out you are displaying sexuality as a woman, they think they have the right to act like you should also be having sex with them. you don't owe anyone shit. i'm sure you'll meet multiple guys who are your type, succeed in whatever area you want, accomplish at least some of your dreams. you'll find love and he'll always be a miserable, unloveable, unfuckable incel who wasted his life. you are fine. while he's young and still autistic, the amount of people like him continues to get smaller. we still have a long way to go but the world is less misogynistic than it's ever been. we have hope. those who hate women will always keep losing.
No. 784207
>>784181>Why do people slutshame in the first place?To control women's behaviors through social stigma so they're more accommodating toward vile men and lower their standards. (In women's case, internalized misogyny and belief they can improve their value to men by devaluing others.)
>How do I stay safe from scrotes like this? At the first sign of retarded behavior like this, at the mere hint of it, cut them out of your life and do not re-engage.
>Do you think all of this boils down to insecurity?Partly, also just straight up entitlement. Scrotes are not complex enigmas, they're overemotional, egocentric, degenerate children at every age.
No. 784220
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Why isn't there any cute games with GOOD fashion and interior? I swear every cute game has pedophilic undertones in their art design or flat out meant to pander men's coomer idea of what "cute" fashion is. I wish more women were involved in the process of games development. I'm so bored of art as well when it comes to depicting women. It's always soulless dead eyed stares with pouty lips. I'm bored of being badly marketed to. I'm bored of what comes from being a woman. It's all so bleak and performative and suffering and anger follows it. My vent goes past games and what I wish appeals to me. Womanhood is so stripped down to being something so fraudulent. It's so vacant and empty behind a front of keeping up with a fantasy. I don't want to be a fantasy, i'm a human with bodily functions like all the rest. My voice will sound however it comes out. My hair grows wherever it's meant to grow. My fat accumulates where my body is directed to store it. My body is going to age like it's going to age. And my anger will kill me because it can't escape where it shouldn't belong.
No. 784232
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>>784223He mostly draws sad little girls if that's what aesthetic you're into.
https://www.aronwiesenfeld.com/2018>>784226I understand that there are cute games that fit my vague description, but not in the way I envision it. I'll take what I can get honestly.
No. 784344
>>784334You're not an introvert - I mean, maybe you are, but being an introvert doesn't mean you can't speak to people, just that you get tired doing so and need time alone to recharge. You have some form of social anxiety which unlike introversion is actually a disorder. Now, I'm not a beacon of good adjustment otherwise I wouldn't be here, but it's always weird to go to an introvert space online just to see bunch of socially awkward people claiming to be introverted just because they don't know how to function among others, giving actual healthy introverts a bad rep. And it's harmful to these people too because it's easy to just blame your lack of social skills on "Oh that's just my personality" and never try to improve, thinking "it's just who they are", while they totally could if only they put some effort in it. I'm sure a lot of them would even discover they actually are extroverts or at least ambiverts, just too scared to discover that part of their personality. So yeah, consider looking into what makes you worried and unable to interact normally because this is not a normal, healthy personality trait at all.
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>tfw getting intimate with someone for the first time in ages
>no penetration besides some rubbing and fingering
>fucking end up with a bartholin's cyst
It's slowly going away but fuck this shit, it's taking forever and it's making me paranoid. Why can't I have ONE thing without it going wrong?
No. 784469
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Earlier this week I told my bf I wanted to be more intimate but didn't want him to always be flaccid since he might've cum for the day, so he told me he'd lay off and if I were comfortable with it we could have sex. Today he says "Y'know I haven't masturbated this week…"
"So do it. Naw, do it." was my response. What in the fuck do I look like? Am I supposed to clap and then jump on your dick? Fuck off… I haven't masturbated in weeks, do you really see me cascading that fact as if it's an accomplishment? Ugh.
That just made me kind of mad since I am already very sensitive to the topic. I get it, everyone masturbates, but it only serves as a reminder to me that I am not sexy (or at least sexy to a niche group of people) and that he's probably jerking it to his real preference of women. Well, whatever I'll let it slide since all I do is watch lesbian porn anyway.
But for him to say that as if it's my fault he couldn't cream himself. Ugh that really bothered me. Bastard. Go fucking jerk off all you want, I don't care.
I am so hateful today.
No. 784475
>>784469Anon if he can't get hard for you he's not cumming once a day. It sounds like he is in full coomer mode if he can't even get hard around you.
You're going to keep internalziing his porn sickness and blaming yourself for not being "sexy" enough, when the actual problem is your bf is probably addicted to porn and has death gripped his dick into not functioning. You're already saying you're not "sexy". Run from this man.
No. 784479
>>784469Anon you got have a talk with your bf, I've dated men who were coomers and regular non porn watching men and the difference between performance was night and day
don't leave him but just talk to him about this and inform of the negative side effects of porn
No. 784481
>>784475Not to try and defend the male, but I should clarify a bit. He's able to get hard, it takes longer and it's not as super stiff. Additionally, takes longer for him to cum. All of those things just make me feel like he's settled or something.
You're right in that I should run from someone with coomer brain… it's just hard y'know? It's so hard to be in love with someone and to not chalk your worth up to "Is my bf able to get hard at the thought of sex?" (For me, anyway with issues my issues)
No. 784485
>>784484Broken*
Probably broke too kek
No. 784527
>>784520not normal, jfc, I am saying it's not unheard of or a good chance it has nothing to do with a lack of interest as per OP.
don't rely on every stereotype ffs
No. 784543
>>784537The op is confused and suspects bf wanks a lot. "I haven't masturbated in weeks". Him jerking once a week could be comparably obsessive.
Op masturbating to lesbian porn but worried bf is masturbating to porn that doesn't resemble her… Ok.
No. 784581
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I'm so fucking scared there will be war at Ukraine. I'm not ukrainian but I live in a country bordering with Ukraine and if Russia makes a move and shit hits the fan, USA will definitely force us to partake in the conflict and then Russia can go after us. I don't know if that makes me a schizo or not but I'm already planning an escape if something happens. The thought of leaving my apartment and most of my things behind fills me with dread. More and more people withdraw all money from their bank accounts "just in case". My ex military uncle can't stop sperging out about a war. There's a feeling of paranoia slipping in
No. 784608
>>784581Is there anything new happening that is not being reported in the world news? I remember situation was VERY tense when Russia took Crimea/Donbas in 2014 but thought it lessened a bit with time? Russia fucking sucks, Ukraine's situation proves every former soviet union country should feel worried. I hope nothing happens…
Definitely can't blame you for making an escape plan. Better safe than sorry. Where do you plan to go?
No. 784610
>>784604It
is ground raw meat, that's why it's so fucking expensive, if I looked at the label properly I wouldn't have bought it as I know he won't eat raw meat or raw eggs or anything really except high quality cat food (but not top quality as I see now) and olives. He goes mad for olives.
No. 784641
>>784618That's good you have a place to go to, if it comes to the worst.
It always makes me feel a bit annoyed to see stuff like this, quote from the article
>On Wednesday, NATO members Germany and the United States urged Moscow to reverse course and de-escalate the situation in the region. A day earlier, NATO Secretary-General Jens Stoltenberg urged Russia to end its “unjustified” military buildup.All NATO can ever do is to "urge" Russia to do something and that's it. They'll never stand up to it. In the end alliance only works in the time of peace for smaller countries like ours, if anything happens we will be sacrificed to keep Russia from getting angry at poor baby USA and co. Sorry for the sperg, it's just upsetting to see these empty words of support again, we all know how it played out in 2014.
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Anyone else got the fewest birthday wishes ever this year? They get fewer every year but this one was just sad for me, I need new friends so bad, corona made me even more antisocial than I already was.
No. 784852
>>784844Some people have no sensitivity whatsoever about how their actions might affect other people. Your story reminded me of the time when my mom, who works in the hospital, started to tell a detailed story about how she
sawed off a patient's leg during surgery.
During dinner. I almost threw up. If I don't tell her that this is inappropriate and that most people are not desensitized to these sort of things, I don't think she would have realized it by herself
No. 784868
>>784855I watched some real life gore (not as hardcore as magnotta video though) when I was an edgy teen and wanted to prove myself as strong and unbothered, even though I'm actually pretty sensitive; maturing made me realize these are real tragedies and I think it's not respectful for the
victims to be just watched like that for entertainment, I suppose this is also why it was so shocking for me to see my dad, a mature person supposedly, to act like a dumb teen me. I get that this kind of stuff gets shared and watched, but like you've said, at least a warning would seriously help to have…
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>>784868I used to watch animal attack videos. I watched several of elephants attacking large crowds. Also Jaguars/dogs/chimps/horses/cows attacking people.
Also looking at car crash
victims, autopsy photos, crime scenes, cadavers, bloated corpses etc. I don’t know wtf was wrong with me but I felt very ugly on the inside and vicious. I got a kick from the elephant videos, because they where essentially circus/mahoot elephants getting righteous revenge for years of degradation. However the people they attacked where brutalised in a truly horrific way, and most of them where just innocent spectators, not to mention the elephants where probably shot and killed afterwards. Horrible for everyone.
I wasn’t even that young I was 22 - 23. I was very isolated and in an
abusive, occasionally violent relationship at the time.
No. 784923
>>784844I'm sorry anon, that's pretty messed up of your dad to do. I'd probably have the same reaction and it would change my feelings towards him.
Did anyone else from your family say anything?
No. 784931
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>>784929I’m struggling to understand that
nonny. Are you massively overweight or something? Are you big boned, tall and strong-featured like sevdaliza? Who is definitely a woman.
tbh sometimes I get worried by it cos I have wide shoulders, strong jaw and kind of a big head kek.
No. 784932
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>look at content that i know will upset me
>get upset
>picrel
idk why i am like this. i always think to myself "maybe this time it won't get me", even though i know for a fact it will, and then i'm pissed at myself for spoiling my mood deliberately. my only saving grace is that i don't actively seek this stuff out, i just don't ignore it when it lands on my page.
No. 784936
>>784931No, I'm underweight and I look like one of those lanky ugly men putting on a dress and a wig with bad or no makeup. My face is too short, I look retarded and I often have the thousand-yard stare.
I recently watched a video about a pedophile troon with a little fetish and I was shocked because I looked similar and it's so embarassing.
No. 784994
>>784923Thank you, I'm glad you understand, it's been over 12h ago and I can't shake off the bad feeling I got from this situation.
>Did anyone else from your family say anything?My mom was shocked too, she said they talked and he seemed remorseful. At the same time, I've tried to call him, he didn't respond, didn't call me or contact me in any way later so I'm feeling very betrayed. I'm worried what you said will happen, that it may change the way I feel toward him altogether, really makes me sad.
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wooooo my life is spiraling its fucking spiraling haha life go brrrrrr
No. 785111
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Men should die.
No. 785113
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>>785075read moar on autism
No. 785152
There's so many people who cannot rationally think for themselves and are too impatient to feel satisfaction. I'll admit I'm guilty of this as well. I catch myself falling into this mindset, but just observing it in others frustrates me. And pointing out their impatience won't fix anything.
Example, I'm in a low-carb diet group because I just want to find recipes for my pre-diabetic ass, but it's been overrun by so many people complaining about symptoms. Yes, of course switching to a low-carb diet after 20+ of consuming sugar, rice, and bread is going to make your hair fall out, why wouldn't it? Oh, you decided to pause eating low-carb for a month because the side effects are discouraging you, and you miss eating cake? Fucking dumbass, you're just making things prolong. There are low-carb versions of cake, but people are just so lazy to do a simple Google search.
Another example, during my Tumblr years, I used to stumble upon so many people just obsessed with blogging about their mental health. Like an unhealthy amount, doing it for clout. Literally having a panic attack because their anti-anxiety medication isn't working after three days of starting. Of course the hell it isn't, you have to do the work too. And said person was in an abusive environment, no wonder the medicine wasn't going to do shit. You can't medicate yourself out of living with a gaslighter.
No. 785153
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I hate my job I hate my job reee it's getting worse we just lost another fucking coworker and so that means Im not even going to be getting a piss break we already dont get normal breaks or lunch breaks but now I will be completely alone on every shift oh my GODDDD.
13/hr isnt worth it but it's not worth looking for another job since I'll be moving across the country soon but GOD DAMN I hate this stupid ass department I work for. I've told the highest authority there that we are getting more and more understaffed and he basically said 'We will handle it'.
HOW
IT TAKES MONTHS OF TRAINING TO DO THIS JOB AND YOU HAVE NOT HIRED ANYONE IN MORE THAN A YEAR.
And in that time we've lost 8 out of 11 people…to do a 24/7 job….
It's public safety too so if we fuck up someone could potentially die…and we are on the hook for it despite being overworked and paid so fucking little.
No. 785171
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Why do I overreact when I think about how men are, like how most watch porn and view women like shit, how do I stop getting this sick feeling in my stomach from knowing this? It feels hopeless and distressing. I felt so sick earlier. I wish porn never happened because it's made their view of us and behavior even worse. I wish I still believe in Christianity actually so at least while there are still sexist beliefs, it's less unabashedly degrading like the secular world and most couples aren't that strict to obeying the "wives submit to your husbands" bs. At least my parents are not like that, it's funny my mom brings it up the most but she regularly runs things. Anyway it was a tangent but I unironically wonder if that is better than the current norm where we are just sex dolls to men and they have no respect for us at all. I really hate it. My dad is a good guy but he is of the last generation to not watch porn I think and he's just a rare type of male
No. 785205
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I hate being BPD, my bf is tired of my shit, he's trying and says he doesn't want to break up but I can tell he's fed up in even attempting to compromise on stuff to lessen my retarded paranoia, I should leave him but I love him and I'm too selfish to just deny myself a guy like this, I'm getting therapy but even my therapist says it may take years before I work out through all my issues and honestly nothing is guaranteed, I wish I could go into coma and wake up completely neurotypical and well adjusted.
No. 785209
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I'm -really- jealous.
While scrolling through reddit I came across a post about a mother seeking justice after a teenage male babysitter molested her daughter 8 years after the fact when she finally confessed it. Immediately the mother believed her, took action, and recorded the male confessing it. Which she found out will hold up in court. Apparently his mother tried to dismiss the molestation saying he was "just a kid," but she wasn't taking that shit. She even held herself partially accountable for not being more diligent. I'm happy & sad that some mothers actually stick up and defend their own daughters. Mine never did that for me.
Same exact situation happened to me: I was super young but my mom just had to have a weekend to herself–my bio dad had partial custody of me so he usually got me on weekends, but for whatever reason (probably because he canceled taking me) I was with her that weekend. My typical female babysitter wasn't available so she got the babysitter's brother to watch me. He was only a teen, but old enough to have known better. He molested me. I remember locking myself in my room and he fled back across the street in fear before my mother returned, and yet she never questioned this. I never told my mom, although I do recall displaying signs of trauma like nightmares about beasts with private parts, and stuff that was confusing but what I couldn't verbalize cause I had no real knowledge of it. All I knew was that my mother would be mad at me, so I kept it bottled up inside for years. I feared her, and when I believed in god I feared about that too. I had hypersexual tendencies and was exposed to sexual topics really young, partially out of curiosity but mostly due to my parents not giving a shit.
My mom was frustrated and hated my guts when I was a teen because I committed the sin of enjoying sex with my two high school boyfriends, mostly because I was trying to chase the feeling of love I never felt from any of my parents. She thought it looked bad on her, and she was very obsessed about her image. Once in anger she yelled, "Why are you like this?!" Through tears I hysterically confessed that it was a lot of things, but it could have all started when I was molested as a child. She didn't believe me, I was just a liar trying to get one up on her and make her feel sorry for me. She also shamed me for losing my virginity at 14 to a 19 year old at my high school who she allowed to date me believing he wasn't gonna try to fuck me.
Everything was just all my fault.
Years later, in my late 20s, I remember the subject of molesting babysitters being brought up at a family dinner. I reminded my mother of the time the male babysitter molested me. Shockingly, pity. Yet I believe because she didn't want to look like a cunt in front of everyone calling me a liar again and risking a scene. Nothing ever came of it. She never apologized for what she said and when I reminded her about how she called me a liar about it, she claimed to not remember. I don't think she can ever admit wrongdoing or admit culpability for some real dark shit that happened to me. Her perfectly curated image was always more important than my well-being and justice. It makes me feel so sick, I can't imagine treating my little girl like how some women do.
No. 785213
>>785171I totally get your point anon, but I completely disagree that things would be better in a religious society as opposed to a secular one. My parents are super conservative/Christian, I was raised hearing pretty fucked up views of women from church and my family. A lot of churches are rife with sexual abuse that gets covered up or never reported. Amish society is absolutely awful to women. A lot of the men in power in religious institutions are not good people, and they definitely still watch porn and have fucked up fetishes, they just aren’t as public about it. Remember the BTK killer was found to be a prominent member of a church.
Not saying you can’t be Christian or anything
nonnie, but it’s good to stay critical. The problems you talk about are a lot deeper than just secularism.
No. 785216
>>785209That's terrible anon. Had a similar situation with my own mother when she shamed me over reading my diary detailing my rape.
I was around your age too, similar situation with that age gap. Could you imagine being 18 or older and wanting to fuck a preteen? You were a child that was raped. Fuck your mom.
No. 785217
>>785213Not OP and I agree with you.
It's a shame that secularism became synonymous with being a degenerate, as if someone can't have values and principles without following a really old book written by men.
No. 785271
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Tired of not being able to just let loose and do the things I want to do exactly when I want to do them. Everything has to be rooted in some misplaced sense of convenience for my dumb ass or something. I can't just do things for fun unless I know I'm going to be productive somehow.
In some cases that's fine I guess, but times like when I want to wind down with a video game or practice crafting it really fucks with me. I try to tell myself that if I'm doing something I want to do, it's productive. That only helps so much before I'm back to square one and then it all continues on an endless cycle. Its been this way for so long.
There are many things I really want to get good at, things that take a lot of time and practice. On a base level that's fine, I very much enjoy the process of learning, but I can never practice consistently because of the way I am. I have a lot of passion for many things and wish to expand upon those feelings, but it's like there's a wall in my way at a certain point whenever I try, no matter how much I try.
It's so frustrating knowing what the issue is but not knowing how to deal with it in a way that actually sticks. Hopefully it made sense, maybe another anon or two can relate?
No. 785275
>>785209In the same boat as you, anon. My mother is a narc, but I don't think she knows what happened. And yet, I wonder if she did, because over the years she'd keep asking me shit like "You had a happy childhood, right?" Like, hi, bitch, am I supposed to be remembering something traumatic, and you're just double-checking that my subconscious hasn't remembered it yet? Anyway, cut your mom out of your life. She's emotionally dead, so she's dead weight.
No. 785394
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Anon in the MtF thread made me sad implying Sarah Z. could be a troon… she seems to have gained a bit of weight recently, never been good at makeup but that shouldn't be a basis for the MtF accusation, maybe I'm interpreting where that post was coming from wrong, but it really feels like being a cute-but-unremarkable woman nowadays is not enough to prove your femininity.
No. 785416
>>785394I think anons are scared of being told HA! You didn't clock this
troon transwoman, transwomen are non differentiable from cis women (And the next step is: transwomen are better than cis women, if we're not already there). So they're just overcompensating just in case a woman ends up being a troon. Like how there was basically no gossip about NikkiTutorials being a troon before he came out I guess. But I think that's harmful behaviour for women in the longrun, considering that just pushes us further into a narrowframework of what a (biological) woman should look like. Which is interesting because a reason to be anti-tranny is because their behaviour and opinions are harmful for women.
No. 785418
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My period was ridiculously heavy today and towards the end of my trip to Ikea I looked down and both my jeans and even parts of my coat had bloodstains on it. I couldn't fucking believe it. I literally wore thick tights under my jeans as well as overnight pads. I have no idea how the fuck it happened. I go home to have a shower and as I undress I notice there's a large, worm-sized blood cot on the pads. Fuck my body. I'm exhausted and gonna spend the rest of the day in bed
No. 785420
>>785418Oh anon! I hope you feel better.
Rest and eat sth.
No. 785438
>>785394she's just not fortunate looks-wise and bad at makeup, definitely not a troon. i actually quite like her intelligence and thoroughness, it's sad she regurgitates some mindless sjw stuff, but she has the potential to grow up and distance herself from it/gain nuance.
>>785416spot-on, anon. we need to accept some rare TIMS (TIMs of the self-hating gay variety from my experience, not AGPs) can pass through a screen. Nikki got hormones early, and was reaaaally tall, but her excuse was that she was Dutch so it worked.
also its' so stupid when someone goes "you can't tell someone is trans by their appearance !!!!" which yeah… sometimes you can't tell if someone secretly identifies as a closeted fakeboi or as an AGP who makes no effort… but actual maleness or femaleness is clockable on 99% of people
No. 785468
>>785452Even if it was basically just touching? And couldn't you say that he couldn't have known better? He was a teenager but like 14-16, I know I didn't know what I was doing either at that age. I'm not trying to argue with you of course, I'm just confused and I think it's a bit of a complicated situation.
>>785453I'm so sorry that happened to you anon, I hope you're okay now.
And funny you say that, I actually do have a few problems sexually. It's weird because it started bothering me when I entered my 20s, it's like I suddenly realized that what happened may not have been normal. Still living with my brother, seeing and talking to him every day may have also normalized everything. I have issues, but I don't "feel" like I've been violated.
>>785455What do you mean?
No. 785472
>>785468>Even if it was basically just touching?Then I guess it's not rape, but it's still sexual abuse.
>And couldn't you say that he couldn't have known better? No, I couldn't. 14-16 is more than old enough to know that you don't touch your siblings like that, especially if your siblings are children. Most teenagers probably couldn't even imagine doing something like that. I know I wouldn't have.
I know you may want to give your brother the benefit of the doubt, but there's no excuse for what he did tbh.
No. 785511
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I fucking hate whoever posted this. This doesn’t help the problem at all, it’s just another fucktarded narcissist trying to hang power over the anon’s head. You don’t give a slight fuck about the plight of sex workers, you just want to larp as an alpha female. Ridiculous, go scarf down your boring fruit salad and leave these people alone. The thread has now been infested with bitchy anons and scrotes(sexwork sperging)
No. 785520
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>HI freshly graduated high school student, would you like to sign your life away for a school loan? All you need is a co-signer and place your name on this dotted line please!
>WOAH THERE, are YOU now trying to apply for a first time home buyer's loan? Well now just hold your horses! In order to qualify for a 30 year fixed, we need to see some documentation to prove you can even afford this! Do you seriously believe we're going to lend you for a $1300 monthly mortgage, when you're already paying $1500 to rent your shitty apartment hovel?! HA, we need more trust than that!!! Please submit your W-2s, pay stubs, lists of assets, a blood sacrifice, the deed to your left kidney, and anything else we arbitrarily fucking demand because you're not getting off that easy!
Fuck you. Eat shit and die. Develop ass cancer.
No. 785522
>>785441>I was curious and horny even as a kidit's completely normal for children to be curious about sex/sexuality, that's where the term "playing doctor" comes from. Instinctually, even as children, we all know to some degree sex exists, and children are curious about their entire world because they don't know anything about anything.
Once someone starts molesting a child, even if they had no concept of sexuality at all, they will be curious about it then, there's no way not to be.
Abusers will
always blame child
victims for their "participation," they will use that normal curiosity to guilt their
victim into silence. Sometimes they don't even have to guilt the
victim because the
victim implicitly blames themself for their completely normal and out of their control curiosity. It is absolutely not your fault in any way.
No. 785532
>>785513Is that so? I'm pretty sure it's just how I've always been. Some kids are more curious than others I guess, and my parents always liked to talk about their sexual life while me or my brother were present, so I've always kind of known what sex was.
>>785472>>785514>>785522Thank you for your opinions (and support) anons. What you all say makes sense, I guess it's hard to see some things if you're involved in the situation.
No. 785620
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Last night I made a thai beef noodle soup and my bf didn't really like it. He's a fast food junkie and bar food basic. I need to learn to accept it.
Don't get me wrong, I still would have made the soup regardless because it's something I enjoy, I just wish I had a partner that would enjoy this kind of food with me and really show it.
Man, all this effort though. The braised beef and homemade bone broth took a few hours. I could tell he was being polite when he said it was good, but he later confessed that the fresh noodles I bought were 'slimy,' packet ramen noodles would have been better in his opinion. He's never had fresh noodles. He wasn't an ingrate or anything, I just wish I cooked something and there wouldn't be anything off about it cause he wouldn't be so picky.
No. 785639
>>785601I think one latina
nonnie decided to start it, and either the latina anons are compulsive lolcow posters or it caught on very quickly.
No. 785643
>>785620Wow that's sad. For you but also for him, not being able to enjoy great food is terrible and he probably doesn't even realize what he's missing.
That dish sounds delicious Anon, I hope you enjoyed it yourself.
No. 785651
>>785639It caught on fast because a lot agreed
nonnie sounds retarded iirc
No. 785778
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I made a promise to myself while ago. I promised myself to stop comparing my life to others but today I unintentionally broke that promise while I was on facebook I saw a profile and I ended up in another profile just looking at other people's lives. My country is considered poor and it really is. People here are divided into two groups, it's like we live in parallel worlds. The people in the profiles lives a veeeery privileged life! It's hard to see girls my age and younger living the life I've always wanted. I know my parents worked their asses of to make me live good and I'm grateful but still I feel less whenever I see those people. I graduated from university last August and I am still unemployed, every job wants experience and it's hard to find jobs with 0 experience. I really want a scholarship to study masters outside of my country pray for me anons. I also come across an ex-friend of mine and it's difficult not to remember our good times. I really hate social media and I was doing fine without it and I don't know how this happened tonight but I really feel hopeless and sad at this point. It's like there's no way out.
No. 785838
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I hate hate hate how scared I am of men. I feel like I should be an "empowered woman! >:D" but truthfully, I'm scared. I can't even talk in group discussions unless it's an all-female group. When I see a man pass by, I stop in my tracks like a deer in the headlights. I feel like such a weak person who has no chance of going into my field of interest (Engineering) since it's so full of men.
I just want to be normal and not panicky all the time. I can't even look my dad straight in the eye anymore some days. I'm turned into such a weak, ineffectual person. Even if I do end up saying something in front of a man, I retract my statement like a little mouse at first sight of displeasure, only further making me seem like a dumbass. Yeah, I get it's trauma or whatevah, but jeez, can't I catch a break? One night with an asshole a few years ago, and now I'm constantly annoyed by how stupid and scared I feel all the time.
*pic is me when man
No. 785855
>>785849I hope everything goes well for you anon.
Please don't stress yourself before being sure you're pregnant. And in case you were, please let your boyfriend handle it with you. You shouldn't go through this alone. It takes two to get pregnant.
No. 785858
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Now how the fuck am I supposed to compete with other artists who appeal to shit tons of retarded zoomers on instagram and Twitter? god it’s like a lucrative dystopia for artists and it’s so hard to break through because some untalented narc will create an account and try to accumulate cyarin levels of unwarranted self-importance and delusional fans. make an account they say it will be fine they said, but all I’m seeing is a bunch of overcompensating tendering over amateur skills and talent. so done, it’s impossible to be successful online without having the audacity to shove your sparkles cover shitfest and hope the pigs come flying
No. 785860
>>785852i'm not 100% sure, as i said i still have a week before i can take a test. but i just don't know how i wouldn't be. it says online that it takes 7 days for BC to work, and stupid me did it only 3 days in, not to mention so close to ovulation. i started the pills improperly, about a week after my period (because i couldn't get them on time)
>>785853yes, i should give it a look. i think it's afterwards when i'd need the help. i know it will be heavy to deal with on my own.
>>785855you're right, i ought to confide in him more. he did do this to me after all, lmao. thank you for the kind words <3
No. 785942
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I'm ranting anons, don't mind me.
I feel utterly weird tonight. When I was a little girl there was this guy, my friend's brother, he's probably 8 years older than me whose I've never had a conversation with and he's known to be very cold and aggressive , he only played with my hair once as I was playing video games with my cousin and said sth about me being cute. As a kid I thought nothing of it, you know people are nice to kids. We met again when I was Older, at his wedding, he ended up marrying my cousin! I was clapping and when I looked at him he was staring at me so I looked away immediately, but felt his stare piercing my face, his aunt caught on this and smiled at me and the whole situation was weird, like dude it's your wedding. Tbh, I thought it was weird but didn't really think much of it, after all it's his wedding. After one year he became a father! His sister invited me for a sleepover night so I went and he lives next to his parents house, we ran into each other but I pretended to not see him. Later on, his mother told me that he was asking who I Was and that he liked my hair color and that he thinks I'm pretty !!!!! I was astonished that he didn't recognize me! But again they live 3 hours away and I rarely visited their house so understandable. He came to his parents house for lunch and I entered the kitchen without knowing he was eating there and as soon as he saw me he smiled widely and invited me to eat with him but I refused politely and left the kitchen. I felt so uncomfortable when I saw how cold he was with his wife!! He kept staring at my face and didn't respect her at all!
I never went there again and asked my friend to come over my house instead. It just feels strange now that I think of it.
No. 785946
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>>785943I'm sorry anon that must hurt a lot. please keep in mind that there are millions of people, of course a lot of them are shitty about looks but you can find a bunch with other values who may not be so attractive either. don't let the ones who are shitty (admittedly a lot) make you think everyone is this shallow, because the unattractive and/or un-shallow people are equally as valuable humans you could seek out. I wish I could hug you I'm sorry it's this rough
No. 786014
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>catch up with gay friend
>tells me he broke up with his long term bf
>His bf not only cheated on him with another scrote but also caught HIV from him
jfc My friend luckily did not get infected too, but man do I feel bad for gay scrotes in general having to deal with the bullshit that comes with dating men. He also tells me he's now starting to use condoms when he hooks up, like dude you should've been doing that from the beginning.
No. 786016
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god my ex is such a disgusting coomer scrote i wish i could just insult him to his stupid face but i must control myself
No. 786029
>>786025How long have they been broken up? What was the gap between the final break up and the start of your relationship? I feel like these answers are important as to whether you’re overthinking or not.
On one hand, he is with you now but on the other, I can understand your feelings. Did he never discuss the relationship with you in detail? I get that talking about exes is uncomfortable and can be a red flag, but someone he dated for 8 years is different. I had a similar (but shorter)
toxic relationship and I would definitely discuss it with future partners, not so I could talk about my ex but to explain about what I went through and how it changed me. I’d find it weird if a partner hadn’t been open with me about something like this. Eight years is a long time to blank out.
If you feel he is hanging on to the relationship, that’s something he needs to work on because it’s beyond his ex. He needs to figure out why he is clinging to someone who probably hurt him a lot, and who he probably hurt in return. That’s not healthy. I don’t think there’s an inherent issue with them staying in contact - they were huge parts of each other’s lives for the best part of a decade. But if you think there’s more going on than there should be, even just emotionally on his part, that needs to stop.
No. 786108
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>>785943don’t let that distract you from the fact that men can go out wearing picrel and still be accepted into society. you’re probably not even ugly at all, you just don’t fit conventional standards
No. 786121
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Waiting for the day when e-celebs learn that their careers are much more fragile than actual celebrities because their success is based on the parasocial relationship built with their fans rather than their actual skills. Like bitch how many of your peers have you seen get cancelled for sleeping with fans or some other shit until you realize that it's probably not a great idea to do it yourself? There is enough history of people getting cancelled through the years ever since e-celebrities became a thing that it's fucking easy enough to take a few pages out of their books to learn what not to do.
I swear to god people need to do it like in the junji ito manga and hire someone that spends their time continually whispering in their ears to not be a dumb shit today.
No. 786126
>>786123Honestly anon, same.
But I'm also unemployed so I feel like this all the time. Hope someone can give an advice.
No. 786135
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I still can't get over this. I just can't. Have you ever seen a popular actor with a genuinely ugly wife? I don't recall any. Meanwhile I could name a few actresses with ugly husbands, Kate's case being one of the most infuriating. Even irl I see more pretty women with average or even ugly scrotes than attractive men with average or ugly women. It seems like generally there's more attractive women than men and there wouldn't be enough attractive men for every attractive woman. Most men are gross and women "have to" settle for something because that's better than being alone. It still annoys me. I can't cope with reality
No. 786138
>>786132Glad to know things are slightly better.
What are you planning to do with unemployment, are you seeking any jobs?
No. 786145
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I think my brother's an AGP. He also has a diaper fetish and a kid. I wish he would disappear.
No. 786151
>>786138Yeah, I keep getting interviews at great places and I'm always close to getting the job but there is always someone that is more experienced…hopefully I land the interview I have tomorrow!
How about you anon? Are you looking for any jobs? Have any small things in your every day life that might give it a little bit more reason?
No. 786166
>>786151I hope you get the job nony. Good luck!
I've been looking and applying for jobs but they always want experienced individuals and I'm a fresh graduate.
Well nothing in my life seems to go well these days but I'm grateful I'm healthy.
No. 786182
>>786151>>786166Original anon here, it's nice to see my vent led to a really nice conversation. I wish you luck at your interview tomorrow anon.
Anon 2 have you thought about volunteering anywhere? I started volunteering for a charity and that gave me good experience alongside my degree and it helped me in interviews. See if theres any easy online charities you could volunteer for.
The thing you said about plants was interesting because when I was younger and had a dog it felt great because of the responsibility I had to be motivated so my pet wouldn't get sad. At the moment I think the fact i won't get in trouble if i just lay around all day is a big factor haha.
No. 786195
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I just doxxed a scrote on Reddit and it feels so good. It all started when I saw his post on the front page. The post was titled: "To the woman who made me buy vegan ingredients to cook dinner, spend hours upon hours cleaning - getting ready for our date and not having the decency to cancel and ghost me for absolutely no reason? Thanks. Your loss. At least I got a decent profile picture?" And the dumbass posted a photo of himself with his dog for some reason.
I went through his account and realized that he's a law student with a vendetta against this girl because apparently she was mean to him. He posted screenshots of their texts and threatened to get her fired and threatened to sue her for defamation. Ranting and raving like a complete lunatic. He also included a photo of this girl along with her name, so he wasn't just putting himself on blast.
The idiot uploaded the screenshots as a file on Google Drive which is under his real name. From there, I was able to find his Facebook page, where he goes to law school, the names of his parents, and their address. What do you think nonnies? Should I notify his law school of his unethical behaviour?
No. 786221
My dad was a drug dealer and my mum left him, called me aboriginal because my grandmother on my dads side is part aboriginal, I don’t look anything like it. Mother takes us to an aboriginal mission where we watch tv all day while the adults do weed and get drunk and cry all the time. She cuts off all of our family members on both sides(understandably) but ONLY to move to a new town and make friends with the most messed up aboriginals in town, takes weed all the time and and keeps making me say help to random aboriginal people I don’t know telling me I know them and that they are my “Aunty”. She ends up bonding over her childhood trauma with a 19 year old aboriginal dude when she’s like almost 30. She comes into the house screaming at 11 year old me, and my 9 year old sister one day about how jer aboriginal boyfriend pretended the condom broke when screwing her. They have a kid and she finds out he is a drug addict, but she has another kid with him, tells me that all these aboriginal people from the drug addicts family are now my family members, the drug addict aboriginal boyfriend cheats on my mum with other baby mammas and my mum starts having drinking parties with all the aboriginals in town at the front of our house right outside my room so I can’t sleep. One time she lets a bunch of random aboriginal ladies who I don’t know sleep at our house(probably had weed, they were drunk though) and take me and my sisters bed so I literally had to make myself sleep on a chair somehow. One time when I’m 13, I run a bath and a random aboriginal man walks in and won’t leave until I yell for someone to remove him from the bathroom, the next day my mother is crying and thinking I was molested (wasn’t) and said that the drunk aboriginal guy thought that I was her… and says she won’t have drink house porch parties anymore. We move to a new state, skip years later and I’m a nazi.
No. 786229
>>786225>>786221Also she use to smoke right next to me as a kid up until I was 11, that’s when she was pregnant with my half aboriginal brother and she decided to stop smoking while pregnant and then stop smoking in the house after he was born and now denies ever smoking I front of me as a kid.
She did change her ways eventually with my younger half aboriginal siblings though, nobody really wants to be her friend and she hasn’t had a bf in like 12 years cuz nobody wants to be with her.
No. 786233
>>786195So he made her a vegetable dinner at his hovel that he's angry he had to clean?
This is like the lowest of all the efforts, he didn't even have to spend the typical $50 on dinner that scrotes usually bitch about. She took a huge personal risk showing up at his place to eat. And with a vendetta this strong just for being romantically rejected, I'm half surprised he didn't attempt to coerce or sexually assault her while she was there.
He deserves to be doxxed. I just hope there aren't any repercussions against her, I'd be nervous about making this manbaby even more angry at her cause of him not realizing matters would be his own fucking fault and not hers.
This makes me so angry. I had some loser in college slander me all over campus just because I didn't want a relationship with him. He never went as far as getting me fired from my job, but I lost a lot of acquaintances and some friends all because of a male who couldn't handle his own feelings.
No. 786239
>>786233That’s horrible anon, I hope you don’t
do this please beat him up expeditiously that would be really awful, what about the men?
fuck the men, a good man is on his death bed No. 786249
>>786199Upon further inspection, it seems that he has been posting about two different girls. The post about being ghosted went up today. But last week, he posted about what seems to be a different girl (Toni) who he met on Tinder. He suspected Toni was trying to use him for a $150+ dinner, so he suggested that they take his dog for a walk to the park and he said he would buy a nice bottle of wine to bring along (who tf drinks wine while walking their dog???). He claims that Toni then proceeded “to go psycho” for no apparent reason (although I'm betting he was the one to freak out when she ghosted him).
Apparently he’s pissed because Toni claimed to be a paralegal at a law firm and was telling all the lawyers and judges she knew that he was harassing her. He made a fake number to continue to talk to her (I’m guessing because she blocked him).
He's obviously omitting significant parts of the story. He selectively screenshotted to make her look like the crazy one when clearly he is unhinged.
>>786200kek for real though he doesn't even realize how cringey he is. Here's what he said on a different post: "I said some really fucked up shit to her today. I gave her four days to take her time give me an answer and she doesn’t do shit. Just blocks me. Fucking bitch. I said some things that are probably gonna make her cry, so I feel quite better."
>>786203It seems like even he doesn’t know her last name. I would contact her if I could but I was not able to locate her.
>>786203Toni said in the screenshots that her dad is a state trooper so I hope she has already notified the authorities herself.
>>786233Ugh, that's awful. I'm so sorry to hear that you went through something similar. We need more men to be held accountable for the harm that they cause. I'm seriously thinking about filing a complaint with his law school for sex-based stalking. Toni said in the texts repeatedly that she was scared for her life and she asked him to leave her alone.
No. 786281
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ugh my sister's bf seems like an assholes, he radiates this off "vibes" idk
No. 786349
i know im going to sound like an asshole for this, but i need to vent… im tired
>be me a few years ago
>attempt suicide, spend four months in mental hospital
>diagnosed anorexia (fully recovered now) and bipolar I (have been on meds for years)
>takes some time, but these past years for the first time im happy with my life
>become friends with a friend i had mutual friends with
>shes bipolar too
>she doesnt take meds because "she doesnt like how they make her feel"
>"eh whatever her decision"
>as time goes on i see her constant episodes, shes very erratic like i used to be
>suicide baits, but since im her only bipolar friend she only tells me about it
>"you make me have hope anon… youre so happy and smart and i wish i can be like you one day"
>"well… its all meds and years of therapy… you can do it yourself… id recommend it, since you struggle so much with your depressions…"
>she ignores me completely and refuses therapy and meds
>she comes and goes out of depression and suicidal thoughts all the fucking time and i beg her to get psychiatric help about it every single time cause im so tired
>"no…i dont need therapy (…) ah if only there was one way to stop my bipolar disorder"
>"THERE IS. I ALREADY TOLD YOU THERE IS. You always give me compliments about having my life together after the suicide attempt but you refuse to listen to me when i give you advice!!!"
>"ah… if only there was a way… i hate being bipolar"
>shes been even worse lately, having tons of breakdowns all the fucking time and calling me at four am and stuff
>ive dealt this for like two years now, she refuses to get help, what the fuck can i do
>she lives with her mom but her mom is going to leave her for some months
>she asks if she can move in with me cause shes afraid of herself
>of course i say yes, cause im also afraid of her being alone
>suicide baits me over and over for days now
>so fucking tired i just start giving her dry texts and shit cause i swear i cannot get anywhere with this her and im just so fucking tired
>more suicide bait yesterday
>ignore her constant messages and tell her the next day i was asleep
>she just keeps asking questions she can easily google and that all boil down to: go to therapy bitch
>now im kinda worried of her living with me cause i love her, but im very afraid of living this IRL every other day
>cant live her alone though cause i am absolutely afraid of it
i cant. i cannot give a shit anymore and i feel bad. but its just so exhausting living this time and time again.
No. 786379
>>786142You'd think the ones that are above the age of 20 would know better, even if you still don't ~feel~ like a celeb or haven't really changed your way of living you are still constantly under online surveillance by both fans and haters that are willing to get up in arms if you as much as breathe out of beat, especially now when people have been bored during the pandemic.
Teens I can get believe they are untouchable because their brains are made out of poop and hormones that are driven by instant gratification, they don't have the ability to understand that their actions might have severe consequences yet (and tend to have equally young - if not younger - fans that are willing to go eerily far to defend them, for now).
No. 786413
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>>786349She's a leech. You done fucked up letting her move in with you, anon. Don't feel bad, your own well-being should come first. Try to make up an excuse, kick her out and let her deal with her own shit, you're not her mom.
No. 786428
I hate how in the usual dynamic of having one especially abusive parent, there is the other enabler who really does a lot of manipulation work themselves. My mother is crazy and she made my life hell growing up, but my father drives me insane too. He got as close as to leaving our family, he sat me down and told me he would continue to support me but "couldn't take it anymore." He ended up staying but it just infuriates me that he had children and he didn't even bother to think maybe my mother's behavior also hurt us, especially considering she only got physical with us, not him. I moved out but now my mother is desperate to get in touch with me, my father hassles me too saying I need to be considerate of her. I burst into tears last time he called me, telling him I can't take hearing her voice after everything she's done and that it hurts to hear from her, but now here it is again, as if a few months erased his memory. Or he doesn't care, or he just doesn't understand me. I'm their child, so why do I always have to be the one pushing my own boundaries out of the way so they don't throw a fit?
It makes me sick, really. I'm the youngest in my family but I'm the only one who took the initiative to move out, and my brothers used to bully me instead of feeling protective at all so I don't feel close. Now my father and my brothers will text me, call me, begging me to call my mother, and I know it's because she's throwing a tantrum and yelling at them about why I don't call. Even at home, I was always the one who had to sit with my mother and calm her down when my brothers acted out, and one time my brother picked a fight with her only to shove me out of my room and "calm her down." What did I do to calm her down? I got slapped, kicked, and yelled at, but they didn't care, as long as she got her energy out on someone else.
It makes me mad and it makes me sad. It's like I don't matter to anyone, my father or my brothers, I'm just a sponge for my mother's frustrations and they don't care if it makes me upset, they're always more concerned over saving their own skins. Why couldn't anyone be happy for me when I moved? Instead, it's like they're upset with me for leaving because now they have to deal with the brunt of it. I know it's horrible, but at a point I have to say: grow up, and leave me out of this. I don't even know how to say it. I feel like I'll have to deal with this forever.
No. 786457
If we've been together for a year, why aren't we truly together? A change in words of what we are isn't going to change who we are.
If you really loved me and don't want me to leave, why won't you make me stay? It hurts knowing I want you more than anything else, and it's growing increasingly unhealthy. You should know what you want at this point. You refuse to walk away even though I'm begging you to stop dragging me along, yet you know I love you too much to walk away myself. Everytime I finally have the strength to try calling it quits, you're always around somehow to convince me it's okay because "one day". I can't keep counting the days, years could go by but you'll somehow still not want a relationship even though you act like you're in one 24/7. The only arguments we have are about this and random stuff we disagree about in terms of running our team at work.
Why did you get involved if this isn't what you wanted? You said that you cared, you said you wanted to run a business together, you asked about what to name our kids or what kind of house to buy, you looked me in the eyes and told me you loved me.
I've known you for so long. You were there when my six year engagement ended horribly and saw how much that hurt me. I told you I couldn't handle being in love again if you were going to do this but you keep hurting me in the same ways. Pretending we aren't entangled to all family, friends, coworkers and strangers while treating me so different in private is selfish. I deserve better than that. Just let go and instead of pretending, it'll be reality.
We both need to move on. There's no point playing a game we're both consistently losing. I love you, but I need to love myself and get past this before more damage is done.
No. 786507
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me kind of realizing that as a black woman there is no way in hell I could do anything but fit into an already preconceived box. i can’t imagine myself in pretty costume-y clothes like an absolute retard or pose in front of my dying parents casket while it’s getting whisked away in 10 thousand dollar limbo at the funeral house wearing a black dollskill dress with a gaslighting boyfriend that I’ll later complain about as a newfag in /g/ or get posted for my cow behavior in the e-girl thread. i can’t afford to be stupid/look stupid or cute at all. it even makes me feel a little nervous whenever I manage to talk about this and another anon tells me that “it’s okay! don’t listen to anyone you can wear whatever you want!” when that’s furthest from the truth. this is just the sin I was born with. it’s almost like I have to perform burgerland black culture all the freaking time, I have to be a fashion icon or a hoe or be a black taylor swift so the white anons can have an easier time talking about black musical artists. we stick out like a sore thumb all around the world and it will never change.
No. 786531
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>>786457Stop fucking men unless they commit
Stop falling in love with future fantasies and not his current reality
Stop allowing him to future fake, flatter, or play any word games as talk is cheap
Stop assuming scrotes don't understand they're treating you like shit, they know and they know you won't do anything about it while they still get to fuck
Stop walking on eggshells and being afraid of calling him out when he can flake, disrespect, and dismiss as he pleases
Stop being afraid to break up with scrotes as they all "fall in love" after they realize you're not gonna put up with their breadcrumbing shit. Pic related.
No. 786534
>>786507do you have an internet presence? i can't imagine anyone would care or post you in the egirl thread to make fun of you if you dressed up irl
>perform burgerland black culturemight be because im a sperg and am a east african diaspora but i kinda get this, especially when people just automatically assume thats my culture when it isnt. i can't understand some of your vent tho
No. 786541
>>786531>>786509>>786469Thank all of you ladies for reading, understanding, and giving advice. There's so many words I could say to justify it but at the end of the day, this is killing my spirit. I'm not going to waste any more time when life could be enjoyed alone without being deceived, gaslit, ignored. Any woman worth all of their love, patience, and grace should never have to deal with less in regards to any kind of friendship/partnership. We all deserve more.
Spend your energy wisely! Appreciate y'all for the input.
No. 786542
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I’m trying to make more female friends but it’s not going well. I feel like a fool and a turbo autist.
No. 786587
>>786581If you're breaking up either way, it makes no difference who pulls the
trigger.
No. 786626
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One of my closest friends has become really negative to me in the passed year or so and it's starting to take a toll on me. She has to give her opinion on everything I say or do. If I talk about a book or movie I like that she doesn't like, she always lets me know how much she dislikes that thing. When I described my ideal future life to her, she told me that it sounded like hell to her. Whenever we talk about things in the past, she always brings up times in middle school or high school when I wouldn't invite her to things and holds them against me. When we talk now, I spend at least a portion of the time listening to her complain about >tfw no gf, her dysfunctional family, how she can't afford a therapist, etc, which is fine because friends complain about stuff to each other all the time but I don't really feel comfortable talking about personal stuff with her anymore so now I guess the balance is a lot more uneven.
We both live pretty far from each other now and are busy with our own things so I think we'll probably drift apart a little bit just because of that. I guess I'm just confused because I used to like talking to her so much and now I feel like every interaction we have I always end up ruminating over something she said that hurt my feelings. I know a lot of it is probably me projecting and being too sensitive, which is why I haven't mentioned it to anyone irl. I just had to dump this shit somewhere because damn I think it was really impacting my mental health and I'm just realizing it now. I can't remember the last time she said something positive about me.
No. 786628
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>girls can’t do anything istg
MAYBE IT’S BECAUSE YOU DRESS LIKE ABSOLUTE SHIT. Keep telling yourself dressing like a waking trash bag isn’t for men this is getting out of fucking control the level of disconnect women have with the intentions of men is getting terrifying. I refuse to be a robotized fembot disheveled of my own being to look like some dated manic pixie for desperate incels and scum I want to get out of this shit so bad this fashion is everywhere it’s either 2010s clothes or this. I just want to go primitive and wear leaves to cover my boobs, make pottery, go wild. Fuck your ugly government buildings, fuck your ugly job, fuck your ugly politicians, fuck your love, fuck your competition, fuck your salaries, fuck your taxes, fuck makeup, fuck your peace, fuck scrotes, and most importantly fuck the future.
No. 786669
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saw this and wanted to stab my eyes out it such a bad fucking take
can you guess where its from? yeah its reddit because of course it is
No. 786670
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>>786669he's admitting he sees women as property. instance of pic related
No. 786671
>>786556That's awful. From someone looking on the outside and being replaced for a relationship that's obviously not going to stay, as a good friend, is unfair. Getting your clarity is the most important, protect yourself. Please take care.
>>786562Thank you. Watch for any traps like this and tell any friend to not trust scrotes unless it's truly worth it.
(PS good luck to you all in any problems you're facing. Find the answers you need.)
No. 786676
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>>786674samefag but I found a wikipedia article cuz I'm lazy, pic related is a snippet and here's the link
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Partible_paternity sorry for ot but well this /ot/ and a little relevant I think.
No. 786677
>>786674Yeah it makes sense. Like my grandma was born in the 1920s and they didn't have sex education and she thought babies came from belly buttons so I'm sure for thousands of years the exact science of conception was a mystery.
I suppose women also didn't just choose the men, I'm sure there were men naturally drawn to certain women and being fathers as well.
No. 786708
>>786413>>786367thank you anons. other friends have told me that i do too much for her, like sometime im at a point where im giving more than a friend should ever give. things that her family should give her interventions about and stuff, but i have to do it myself on my own. ive always justified it in my head, telling me how much i would have loved to have a friend during my suicidal time…
but you're both right, she does have a parasitic or leech type of relationship with me that i just keep justifying. i love her, shes very sweet and we get along very well. but i dont think i can do it. its hard enough dealing with her selfish manic behavior and then taking an uber to her house at four am when she gets to the depressive episode. i wont cut contact, but im going to contact a family member somehow. her brother is fine and has his own place. hes kind of a dick and doesnt understand her mental illness at all. but ill find a way… i cant do this anymore. i hope i can get her family to understand that they need to get her help wether she wants it or not at this point.
No. 786744
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>>786016oh I relate so fucking hard and I know the best thing is to forget them so we should, but I feel the rage and disgust too sometimes. let's take this moment to agree these guys suck and were mistakes but we will do better. I mean personally I'm enjoying being single, it disturbs me how blind I was to that guy's weirdness, but to be fair I didn't know what I know now about the red flags. we learned from it at least!
No. 786838
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I shouldn't let it affect me, but I'm so extremely salty that my abusive ex is now happily married while I'm diagnosed with ptsd because of what the did to me and having issues dating men because of the distrust I developed.
No. 786845
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>>786838nonita I’ll kill him, I hope his new partner sees what a piece of shit he is which is likely to happen as soon as he feels comfortable enough to show his true colors. I’m glad you’re safe and free from that situation, and working through the trauma it left you hopefully in a way that doesn’t hurt you or others irreparably. All
abusive men go to hell and I meet them there to torment them, so don’t worry, his day will come.
No. 786858
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>>786849>>786845>>786852im joining you girls, so sorry for the sweet anonitas, also would murder the scrotes
No. 786871
>>786867Yeah, I could totally understand why Dani ended up fully indoctrinated by the cult because if I've received so much love and solidarity from women when I'm at such a low point I'd stay with them in a heartbeat too.
I know it was the whole point and she was manipulated but that scene was so powerful and liberating.
No. 786884
>>786882judging from all of the comments midsommar cult is in all of our hearts, ILY ladies
Also, makes me want to rewatch the movie, I just may do it today.
No. 786899
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Emptied my storage closet to try and get everything to fit better and now it SOMEHOW DOESN'T FIT
No. 786915
>>786265from only redbubble, not a lot, checking the exact profit margins just now lmfao. $50 in sales in a year but a whopping $7 for us. she won't notice so now im looking for other petty things to do.
i forgot about a whole bunch of merch which probably made $300. we also did this giveaway and, surprise surprise, out of 12k people at the time, a close friend won. that bitch is so sneaky. i had no part in that. people had to buy an item that was $2.50 to enter, broadcasted to 12k people. if only 300 people bought the item, she made $750.
she was also pissed that i slept with her friend from high school. high school was four years ago, and the friend was also confused why she was mad bc they haven't really talked since then but people were trying to get me to apologize for doing that. but like why is that anyone’s business. then she was mad that i was friends with this other friend of hers that she made through the page. i ignored this person literally for months bc they spammed my DMs until i finally decided to be their friend.
i'm also annoyed that since my @ was removed from the bio, which i never wanted bc clout is stupid, people are gonna think i did something bad or wrong. many ppl irl know i ran it, like ppl idek from other cities but have mutuals with.
another annoyance is her deciding to do stick n pokes for money. i looked at her flash, it's a LOT of stolen work. i literally looked up some basic words describing her art and found them on pinterest. or they're logos of shit. and she's charging $250 for them.
one like and i delete the redbubble and all of its pieces from existence
No. 786922
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I fucking hate how everyone is so hateful.
There's barely anyone left who can talk about political subjects without instantly going on a rant about how much they hate the other side. It's ridiculous. Especially identity politics, at this point I'm just tired of it all.
I'm fairly gender critical and against a lot of left wing identity stuff, but when I talk about it to people who appear to agree with me it turns out these people don't just have a certain viewpoint, no, they HATE the left and want every individual tranny to hang. So when I tell them I would still be friends with someone who turns trans, I'm alienated.
When I talk to leftists about politics and say that I can see both pros and cons to open borders, that must mean I'm a nazi and there comes the sperg about how much they HATE the right. And so I'm alienated.
I don't even mind heated political discussions, I just wish people wouldn't take everything so seriously to the point of wishing death upon whoever doesn't agree with them. Like, it's not worth losing your shit about.
Robert who spends his time posting on /pol/ and watching Jordan Peterson doesn't deserve death for having an opinion. Brianna who likes to be called they/them and makes racebent Steven Universe art doesn't deserve death for having an opinion. What the fuck guys.
No. 786938
>>786922Yeah I'm tired of fighting people too. I don't want to agree with everyone, and I don't want to pretend every topic is morally neutral, but I also don't want fight about every little thing. I want to be able to disagree honestly without people getting all weird.
I'm learning how to listen to other people's disagreement with interest instead of annoyance but it feels hopeless when even family members are blowing up about distant abstract ideas.
No. 786955
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>>786946they're on the same level, this should be normal.
Looking this up made me run into an article titled "They could have any woman in the world yet they've chosen mediocre partners" and list of famous mediocre men with women on their level or slightly higher. Social standards for celebs relationships are fucked up.
No. 787067
I've always been attracted to women since like, I started puberty but lately I feel… maybe it's all fake? When I look at other women, I feel like they are too unattainable for me. Everyone is so pretty, confident, social, I don't know, it kind of intimidates me so I feel a bit less attracted and more, say, scared of them. The only girl I've ever been 'physical' with had so many friends and a vibrant social life and so we drifted apart because I am the complete total opposite and it's kind of made me think about/seek women less? Like, I can't ever see a woman being attracted to me in any capacity so I've just stopped thinking about ever dating a woman because it just seems so impossible. I'm not someone a woman would be attracted to at all. And so, I just stop dreaming about a potential female partner at all. It makes me feel like my sexual feelings for women are fake afterall. I've been on dating apps too and without fail, all the women there had been so much better than me and none of them really wanted to do much with me, since I'm pretty unattractive in every way, my extremely asocial, boring personality must be such a turn off for them. I think, then, maybe it's just not meant to happen. I don't know. I'm not making sense at all. But I had to get it out.
No. 787075
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>>787067anon if it helps both myself and my gf are not very attractive (I look ok but plain, my gf is super cute to me but has skin issues that people will stare at sometimes) and also aspies with the most boring ass interests and like one friend between us lol. we met by stroke of luck on an online forum. maybe don’t date someone off of lolcow but don’t go on dating apps either that’s for “normies” which i don’t mean in a derogatory way but if you use imageboards there is obviously something wrong with you. i felt very isolated most of my life including childhood but it finally clicked when i met her. best advice I can give you is continue pursuing your interests and you might meet someone super similar who shares them
No. 787081
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I fucking hating waiting on other people to go somewhere. Come the fuck ONNNNNNNN IT’S A 3 HOUR DRIVE
No. 787084
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Stress pulled half my eyebrow out last night. Not my eye but it looks like this now. Why am I so retarded?
No. 787086
>>787084Also I sometimes wonder if my friend is a farmer so if you are and see my half eyebrow today
nonny let's share our truths
No. 787139
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>>787125me too, wanna murder-suicide each other?
No. 787180
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I am tired of my male friends always mansplaining me or trying to create a debate with their unsolicited opinion over every random thing, even such little stuff as a small mention of " I find X game to be better for me because of X compared to the other game ".
I do not need your long essay about why you think your opinion is right when I never asked for it… I just want to have a casual convo.
Makes me remember how I always thought that having only male friends is super cool and ~ unique ~, when over years you realise that it isn't. I wonder how adult women handle not having female friends and being around only men. Must feel like hell.
No. 787200
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I just saw some furry post a pic of their child in a furry costume and it made me feel so disgusted. Why would so expose your own child to that kind of community? And they described it as "furry child content". Just weird.
No. 787220
>>786901Reading this is funny, because if you happened to be another race and talking about this, anons from all over would be spamming apologism about how they dindu nuffin and it was years ago get over it everyone was bad don't blame us how dare you be mad/sad about bad things that happened to your ancestors in history wah wah wah lol.
But yeah she sounds fucking annoying anon, hope you can block her ass somehow
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>be me, bored uni student attending a lecture
>rarely participate because autism and social anxiety
>teacher asks "what do you all know about stalin?"
>feel brave
>raise hand
>"he made the trains run on time"
>looking straight into my eyes she replies, "he sentenced my grandmother to death for owning two cows when the limit was one"
>oh
>of course it wasnt funny she's from fucking belarus
>so ashamed i nearly cry in the lecture hall
>punch the shit out of myself on the way home, then follow up with the heaviest object i can find
pray to God it bruises
No. 787255
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I just feel like shit
Complete shit
No. 787265
>>787259thank you this made me laugh out loud
>>787261it was a case study on the belarusian language and national identity, and how russia has been fucking with them for over a century. not sure where you can read about it, but it was very interesting and i learned a lot
>>787263>>787258this also makes me feel better. i'll stop crying now haha. thank you everyone
No. 787273
>>787252The second partner I ever slept with (of all 2 total, yes I'm pathetic but I also just don't care about people/sex I guess) said he liked my breast size but thought in a few years I might need a breast lift.
I was like, thank you so much
I will never forget that. It was the second time we slept together too.
And for the record, I'm not hideous. I work out 5-6d a week, take care of my appearance, etc. I do hate myself a lot for personal reasons but come the fuck on, you had to tell me that.?
No. 787290
>>787281my symptoms were usually associated with feeling hot/flushed, racing heart, palpitations, anxiety and feelings of doom. I also would feel nauseated and dizzy/numb. Some people have other symptoms, so you should definitely get checked out; the changes in blood pressure can be perceived in various ways. It's usually a blood and 24h urine test, followed by CT scan (well that is how it went for me).
Oh, I get headaches but I always had issues with migraines, so I am not sure those are connected.
I've been on alpha / beta blockers to prepare for surgery so I'm feeling listless but still nervous, idk
No. 787337
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I'm so tired of all the neuroses around race, ideology, and gender in the US; it feels like we're tumbling off a cliff, and even the people and institutions driving it are aware that they're fanning the flames but unwilling or unable to slow their roll. I'm lucky enough to be able to move to a few more stable countries with ease and was planning on doing so eventually, but the act of existing in this deteriorating shithole is increasingly unbearable.
No. 787339
>>787337It's like you guys are eating yourselves up. "United we stand, divided we fall" is a true addage. I don't see it going well like this either.
t. some foreigner
No. 787350
Ok I'm having an INCREDIBLY and INDESCRIBIBLE hard time getting over this. My boyfriend says he broke up with his ex for getting a "stripping gig without talking to me about it."
No, not because he sees stripping as bad or cheating, not at all, only because of that. And this isn't me misinterpreting what he said, i ask for clarification and he says "it would've been alright if i knew she was a stripper before we started dating or if she told me she was planning on becoming one."
I feel physically sick, thread pic
>>780175 is me right now. Maybe i'm overly dramatic but this is so fucking disgusting to me. Should I dump him over this? I feel maaaaaaybe he's not expressing himself well, or
thinks it would've been alright with him but it probably wouldn't have been. But this makes me think he's a motherfucking cuck, and i detest them. He also likes me wearing really short skirts with high heels and overly sexual clothing for sex, and the thought that he has a thing for scantily clad and "sexy" women, nothing of which i am on my day to day, makes me want to crucify him, /srs.
No. 787356
>>787350So you're disgusted by the fact that he
would have continued dating his stripper ex if the circumstances were different? In that I agree, I wouldn't date a man who was already a stripper nor be okay with my boyfriend becoming a stripper if only he brought it up with me first. Despite the power differential between men and women, I think in any scenario it's a degrading and morally low job, and if my partner didn't see a problem with it, then I would recognize that we weren't compatible. I don't think you can fault a guy for liking sexy clothes during sex, I like accessorizing my partner for sex sometimes too and if there's ever a proper time for trashy clothing, it's then. But the question you have to ask yourself is if you feel comfortable being with a man who wouldn't care if you were a stripper. I wouldn't try to clarify with him, to be frank most men say exactly what they mean in the first place and giving them more opportunities to explain themselves just allows them to worm their way out of situations and retract things they know you don't like.
No. 787362
>>787350i think youre just looking for a reason to justify dumping him. just do it. if youre this incensed over something that honestly isnt that big then idk b. him being ok with her being a stripper does make her a cuck but the same goes for any partner who supports their so with their onlyfans bs or something. its all really fucking stupid.
im with other anon tho, dress up during sex is not that unusual.
No. 787365
>>787356True, i also wouldn't be ok with it if the roles were reversed, would never date a stripper man, i don't care if they tell me how professional he'd be and that they are loyal to me etc etc. I don't know what his ex looks/looked like, but probably really hot if he would've allowed her to cuck him so blatantly like that. No man would be hot enough for me to put up with shit like that. The shit that gets me too is that is not like she was in a tough situation that forced into sex work, she just got laid off from her insurance job and went off to strip.
>>787362dressing up didn't unsettle me until learning this, makes me think i'm getting cucked and he's fantasizing about his stripper ex or some shit. It's ok if you're fine with that
nonny, but not all of us are fucked in the head.
No. 787400
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I can't be the only one who finds the phrase "black bodies" exceedingly creepy, right? I was reading this article and the subject matter I don't have an opinion about really, maybe it is more traumatic to portray violence against black people, but the phrasing just fucks with me. I'm white, but tell me the picrel isn't extremely creepily written? Where did this whole "black bodies" phrase come from anyway? Versus saying black people?
https://www.latimes.com/entertainment-arts/tv/story/2021-04-19/them-amazon-two-distant-strangers-netflix-debate No. 787407
>>787400It sounds like they are trying to be woah so deep but it sounds weird
>>787406Ugh my dad is like that too, he still brings up that one instance I came home from kindergarten (!) saying god is real because our teachers told us so
No. 787410
>>787400It was brought up in a discussion like two weeks ago by someone here
>>777717I think it just emphasizes the point that people of color can sometimes just be seen as their bodies instead of people when they're
victims of violence. It's usually just to evoke a visceral reaction. That's not to say I agree with the notion though. It's obviously rooted in racism, but I can see why someone would want to weaponize it for good.
No. 787411
>>787365>I don't know what his ex looks/looked like, but probably really hot if he would've allowed her to cuck him so blatantly like that.You'd be surprised anon. I've learned that men have very low/no standards when it comes to partners, and women having jobs in "sex work" can make them appear more attractive to them than they actually are. It
triggers their caveman brains and even though they respect women in those positions less they usually find it a turn on, especially if they
are cucks. It's the whole madonna/whore complex. In any case I certainly wouldn't take it personally as his responses and choices are not a reflection of your worth, but I'm glad you're planning to dump his ass.
No. 787413
>>787406I haven't encountered any that don't try to gaslight, and it's so exhausting. It literally made every conversation feel like a fucking debate contest, where I
did end up searching for and fixating on every inconsistency in their logic because I knew they'd do the same to me. Constantly keeping tally and fact checking and doing research to ensure basic respect from scrotes. Sometimes you just want to explore a topic with someone without feeling like you need a doctorate in the topic beforehand. Finally I just dropped all of them from my life and I feel like I can breathe again without being judged for it. Hope you are only surrounded with kind and humble people these days
nonny.
No. 787422
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nuff said
No. 787435
I'm a full time student with a part time job. Lately I've taken on some extra promotional work for my company. I like it. I like my job in general. It's pretty good money, but mostly I just like feeling that I'm doing something with my life. I've switched majors and universities with no way of transferring so I had to start over, which makes me feel like I'm behind in life, so it makes me feel better that I work. And the job isn't shit-tier, one of my family members works at the same company full time and does similar things to me, just has more hours. So I think the job is a good thing for me to be doing. I'm not particularly passionate about my major, but I feel like I have to have a degree to get anywhere, and that's what I'm told the situation on the job market is, long-term. So I feel like I have to stick with this one, even if it is a bit of a pain in the ass sometimes. There's a lot of hours and a lot of work to do outside of those. I think I'm doing pretty well, I'm near the top of the class.
It's just that lately I've been feeling so overwhelmed by everything. There's so much to do, constantly. I'm an organized person and I do manage everything on time, it just feels like so much. Like I wake up and my first thought is "I have so much to do" every day. I'm tired. Previously, I had been dealing with some personal things on top of that, basically splitting my time between studying, working and crying on the couch (working through things, not just wallowing in sorrow, and I'm in a good place).
I used to be really depressed and a piece of shit who didn't do anything. I spent a few months in between universities being a NEET and I felt like shit about myself. I'm doing better now and that's why I'm even able to handle university properly, not to mention working on top of that. I'm torn because I used to think that when I got better, I could be a productive member of society. I thought it would be good for me and help me more. And sure, I've learned a lot and I had a lot of growing experiences with this job and I like being responsible. But I just feel like the things that were supposed to be good for me are actually draining me, a lot. I don't want to quit. I don't want to scale down my hours. I don't want to drop out. I'm okay with myself. So why don't I feel excited about what I do every day, only scared and tired?
Thanks for letting me vent, lolcow. Back to my unending to-do list…
No. 787458
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How to cope with being completely insignificant in this world? How to cope when you know you had a chance to become an artist but your illness took it away from you? Sure, I could try to satisfy my need for performing with making a youtube or a twitch channel, but deep down I know this is just a cope, this is just me talking to a microphone in my room, not performing on a stage or a tv/movie set, this is not what I wanted to do. I know life is unfair and yet, I cannot accept reality.
No. 787464
>>787462You're not an idiot, it is possible. My ex is friends with most of his exes and there were never problems. Except he pulled the same shit on me as he did with you kek.
But who knows, he might be legit busy. I know it's an annoying situation to be in.
No. 787470
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>>787458>How to cope with being completely insignificant in this world? everyone is insignificant, everyone dies alone, and everyone is forgotten
cheer up
No. 787472
>>787464I'd like to have enough reasonable doubt to believe he's busy but he'd always stay in touch even when he was pulling all nighters on his freelance work so it's hard to believe. You know how it is seems like, I guess maybe it's possible for other people sometimes
>>787469If so it still would be cool for him to have decency to let me know he wants to focus on the new woman. I've been dating someone else pretty much all that time and while I totally get not always having the time, starting to completely ignore me still feels disrespectful kinda? I gues for what it's worth I'll know to no longer spend my time on him in the future
No. 787480
>>787474like a very tiny percent of extraordinary people
how many of your friends and family will be remembered 100 years from now?
No. 787508
>>787504forgot to mention that my only meaningful relationships in this way too long life have been with women
and if i and every straight woman i know can say this with THIS much confidence, then there's some problem with menall scrotes do, is want, and take
girls only planet when? i am so fucking frustrated lol. see you guys later, putting my head through the fucking wall
No. 787547
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I WANT A FUCKING BABY!
Time to go look at photos of diaper blowouts to remind myself why I'm no where near ready for one yet.