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Confess your woes, sins, regrets or pleasures, and let your soul ascend.
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I repeatedly rip off my scabs and let the blood drip because it’s psychological relief, baby
I’m a beast
It's ok nonnie
, we forgive you.
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You’re ruining the suspension of disbelief you absolute nonce. Tug out your coochie flaps make wings out of it and then fuck off if it bothers you
Believe in the positive vibes, anon! Once you believe you can fool yourself out of the bitterness.
, it was funny.
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My ex keeps appearing in almost all my dreams. I have reoccurring dreams about us meeting again and in the dreams she apologizes for everything and I finally get some sort of closure. And every time I wake up again, realizing it was just a dream and I'm bitter for the rest of the day.
Sidenote, it does feel good to see your own blood. Not sure why.
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>>774325>how is it possible to be guilty about something that happened over 7 years ago anons?
Your mind is rumminating on it, so in your head events feel recent. I do that crap too, I randomly think of cringe shit I did on the past and I feel bad
The key is to not pay attention to those feels, and dissipate the thought. Just say "that's in the past, I've changed, I forgive myself" and try to move on. Easier said than done I know but yeah
One technique that helped me at some point was hopponopono. It sounds like new aged shit and it quite honestly is, but hey it might help you.
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sharing this one too
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If I were ever to choose to be murdered, I would want to be sliced in half. To subdue the quick pain you could probably pop a pill, but like I’m so curious it would make my body look like an artistic performance piece, blood everywhere. I wish human blood physics were like anime so it could ducking spurt like a popped pimple or something idk just a thought, it would be the greatest moment of my life a moment where I can finally be beautiful and know it in the most gruesome way possible
Same, I gained 2 dress sizes and 15kg over the last 2 years and I'm slowly losing it. I'm going to miss this soft body, it's very comfy and feels luxurious. If I had a gf with my belly I would be obsessed.
If all my clothes fitted amazingly I'd probably stay at this bf%
Posts like these fish for validation so badly lmao.
Oh yeah, you're totally to blame somehow because your fat friend who got hyped up by her mommy accused you of cheating at fucking swimming. You know the answer here, and you couldn't have felt even too bad about it at the time cause even a shitty friend probably would have thrown a round just to let the underdog have one.(infighting)
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The lady who went on that Bath and Body Works candle rant on youtube a few years ago makes vlogs on her channel and I weirdly enjoy watching them.
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I save every instance of an anon leaving their icon/pfp in a screencap. Once I have enough I'll put them in a big collage.
I hate porn and don’t watch it, but a lot of my sexuality was informed by it from a very young age, so now I have a mixture of retarded brainrot fetishes, and either hypersexual tendencies or an abnormally low libido. It’s also depressing to me that any guy I might get with definitely watches it, so I’ll have to not get mad at him for being a coomer, but basically teach him, and go over all the shit that turned me against it to get him to even try to stop. I’ll have to play nurse and teacher to a scrote with an addiction for the rest of my life, or risk getting murdered in my country and have my family ostracise me if I ever come out as bi and try to get into a long term relationship with another woman. I guess there’s always the option of choosing to be alone.
I resent that there’s a whole generation that has basically been groomed into normalising this shit, but the worst part is the fact that we’re always going to be fucking gaslit about it with stupid arguments like “Well what if all those women actually consented??” or “It prevents rape”. Fact of the matter, no 12 year old should know what a fucking bukkake is, no woman should have to do any of that shit just for a paycheck, and there are a lot of disgusting old pieces of shit who are getting money from warping people’s sexualities. I would almost prefer to be completely technologically incompetent and be among others who are the same than live in this hell.
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I'm straight, but I had a dream that I was visiting some sort of military academy, and it was full of beautiful women with big muscular arms and I wanted to marry them. I wish I was actually bisexual because masculine women are fucking hot. Maybe I am, idk.
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I cried over Lily's episode of Zombie Land Saga. I hope my sins can be forgiven, fellow terven.
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I haven’t eaten a single chicken wing in my 25 years of life because of the fear of being single that i got from my family. They used to tell me that if I ate chicken wings, I wouldn’t find a boyfriend for some reason, lovesick child me thought it was horrifying and never touched a single wing. Now I don’t eat them because they just somehow seem repulsive even though they’re not a bad thing.
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Lick dis pussy anon or enjoy the show
to be fair to some of the parents, we didn't have that in 2007
I'm nta though
The fact that CP can just be uploaded to porn sites and the victims
have to fight tooth and nail just to get it taken down disturbs the shit out of me. Fuck porn sites and the retards that defend it.
I am managing.
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I like kuudere characters. They're not my most favorite archetype but I think the hate for them on imageboards is overblown. Maybe they're liked on other types of sites but on imageboards in particular they get shit on non-stop more than other anime girls for being "autistic" "boring" etc. but I think some of them can be interesting in a mysterious kind of way and I relate to quiet characters in general. Even the ones specifically made for waifufags get attacked by waifufags somehow. There's this weird mentality that aggressive is always good even when it's done in an annoying, unlikeable manner so even if an anime girl is written like a 3D scrote or a deranged psycho they're quicker to defend that than kuuderes because "reserved (hell even being nice from what I've heard)=boring" apparently.
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I got embarrassingly invested in the monster anon’s experimentation with a scrote on discord but she confessed she fell in love with him a few threads back and I stopped supporting her. I don’t understand how you can fall for a scrote, let alone your own subject of an imageboard sideshow social experiment. I feel like I’m remorseless when it comes to males. At some point they’re are game to me. They’re real people and everything but on some practically primal level I can’t consider them my equal under any circumstances. Maybe I dehumanize them to cope with how they fuck the world up and the real life threats they impose? But I can’t get myself to give a shit. I’ll obviously never act on this (how would I? men act like the worst thing in the world is when a woman tells them “no”) but deep down inside I hope another anon is willing to have time to waste so she can do the same thing and share her results.
it's normal to not feel empathy for males
women who "fall in love" with males just have a fetish>>775170
it was a bunch of posts over many threads, i think one of the lolcow caps thread had some of them compiled into one image
Precisely!sadly,you can unfortunately see repugnant fetish or porn crap when searching a cartoon character (mainly a popular one)even with safe search on>>775103
This was around 2010 or 2011 so such technology wasn't really advanced or common back then.
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I am kinda going through a witchy phase again
And although I wouldn't be caught dead telling anyone else IRL about it; as a solitary self care thing, the practices are actually really nice.
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I really want it to be fall…
you don't have to put up with people just because they have ~a condition~.
there are autistic people who aren't insufferable. admitting that you aren't patient enough is a form of maturity, imo. rather than subjecting yourself to this situation and eventually blowing up at them, distancing yourself would be better.
when i was a kid i wished i was patient enough to spend time with my mentally disabled neighbor, but why should i force myself to tard-wrangle when it obviously hadn't worked and i'd sometimes end up so frustrated i'd be dry or quiet?
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>>775642> ur young and pretty to be some old dudes fucktoy breeder
If that doesn’t scream dusty saggy balls and dick cheese idk what does
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Shortly before graduating high school I admitted to my 50 year old teacher I had a crush on him and I asked him out. At first he was like "we will talk about it after graduation" but thank god he was a decent man because in the end he refused. I even cried in front on him. It's been 5 years and I still cringe when I think about it
I wanted to hang out with him after graduation, not when I was still a student lol. We met only once outside of school, I remember we spent like 2 hours at the park talking about music and shit, and it was even before I said I had some feelings for him. No one knew about it. I was an autist who desperately wanted a friend, I wasn't able to connect to boys and girls my age, I didn't have any adult I could talk to either, he was the only one, and I was starving for some connection with another person. We could talk about everything, life, literature, politics, movies etc. I could sperg out about my hobbies. I'm still a virgin and I'm sure that back then I wouldn't be able to have sex with anyone because I was grossed out by human biology even more than now, I just wanted to hang out with him. He was struggling with his feelings for me though, so I didn't push anything and I stopped talking to him after graduation
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Nah that’s not cringe, that’s an experience to cherish. You had the balls big enough to actually ask him, and he is a good man for declining. You learned, grew some thicker skin (hopefully), and it’s a great story. >tfw that was his final lesson to you
It's not considered okay in most countries but you'd be surprised how many teachers still try to get away with romantic sexual relationships with their students. In particular, they target isolated students with weak support groups, which they can tell easily based on parent interactions and seeing them among their peers in school. It's a pedo's playground.
All they gotta do is convince the students that if they really
love them, that they'll keep things a secret or else they could get in big trouble. They just keep quiet about it until after graduation and then the pedo teachers mysteriously cut them off when they're adults and done with them. The poor students become convinced it was the natural progression of a failed relationship. Then they wind up blaming themselves and feel they can't go to anyone about it cause "they should have known better," coupled with the fact that they still care about the scumbag teachers and don't want to get them in trouble.
The pedo in question does have to have a fair deal of manipulative charisma to get away with this though, the idiots get caught first but the sly ones can fly under the radar of this shit for years.
I literally think I’m psychic because I imagined this exact post appearing in this thread while I was taking a fat shit earlier today.
Anyway, you sound like a pedophile, applying adult responsibility (especially for adult content) to children. Tell me, why don’t a single one of those porn sites have a more hardline policy to keep kids out? All that’s necessary to clamp down on the problem by a large margin is a fucking ID check, or some other age verification method. Even a small one-time fee for access or a short, on-camera discussion with some attendant would do the trick (yes, I know coomers reading this who love to watch ands search for borderline illegal shit would be very angry at such a concept: Kill yourselves). You really think these companies are so naive to believe “Ohhh don’t click this if you’re below 18” will keep out literally any child who can use a computer? Why is it still this way when it’s basically a meme now that children bypass 18+ warnings? Why do SFW sites for streaming children’s cartoons have links to hentai games and ads like “Make sure no one is around when you open this”? Don’t try the “It’s your own browsing history” excuse, because even now that I don’t visit any porn sites, don’t search porn terms, am using an entirely different device from my childhood and only stream things through Incognito (when on my browser) and those watch apps like all those rabb.it clones, I see them.
If you can’t come up with the answer yourself: It’s not just easy. It’s not just that they don’t care (though even that is a huge problem). It’s a deliberate, manipulative method to create addicts and lifelong consumers for their putrid content. It’s a form of grooming, by all means. Don’t play dumb or post stupid BS like this again just to defend porn companies.
And answer me again why the children’s toy brand Bratz was promoting sex work on their official IG, in 2021, where they knew kids would see. All a coincidence, it’s the kid’s fault for not looking away, nooo you can’t just call out these disgusting corporations monetising human trafficking and child exploitation while giving the populace collective brainrot noooo, etc. Retarded. >inb4 “you are schizo”
Don’t care, fuck porn and fuck anyone who downplays how fucked up it is.
>>775851>applying adult responsibility (especially for adult content) to children
Some children are fucked up though
Littlee boys rape other children, little girls don't. Ask yourself why.>muh porn makes them do it
Little girls watch porn too, yet they don't rape other children.
Nta, but probably because they’re not taught boundaries like how girls are taught? I’ve never seen a family telling their boys that they should behave and keep their hands to themselves, it’s always downplayed and that’s how they experiment with fucked up shit, because they don’t know that it’s a bad thing.
What I honestly think is that children shouldn’t use the internet until they’ve earned the trust of their parents, so like around their late teen years and with a really strict schedule and monitoring.>but what about when they have to do homework
You do it with them, like normal parents do, duh.
And if their friends are disgusting, you teach your kids about how disgusting they are and how they should avoid being like their friends.
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I was groomed by a lolicon hentai internet creep from ages 9 to 11
I started watching hardcore tentacle hentai and worse when I was nine
I had already been molested from kindergarten to first grade, so I was already too familiar with that kind of thing, it wasn't very hard to convince me that was just grown-up shit and I was mature and cool
I had really horrible I guess it would be called a porn addiction until I was 24
Now I'm completely sex-repulsed and can't even handle seeing nudity in movies
I'm fucked up and sad and I wish I could escape all of my memories
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I fantasize about having a lover who’s an androgynous android—with androgynous secondary-sex characteristics(whatever that is) and just, LEGO, no genitalia. And we telepathically give ourselves pleasure without touching; just sitting by each other. I hate sexuality, I hate sex.
I hate being scared and confused by intimacy. I wish I knew for sure if I was lesbian straight or bisexual. Fuck the internet. Fuck biology.
I'm severely mentally ill, I take all the medicine, but I still love dressing eccentrically. Not a lot of things make me happy, but particularly flashy clothes do. I wish I wasn't like this, but at the same time, I desperately want to be happy. I know it's wrong to draw attention to yourself like that, but it makes me happy when I look at myself and see myself looking exciting and pretty, at least to me. I don't mind when people ask questions or take pictures or laugh, and I get that that's normal to be curious when someone looks like this. I just want to be happy and I never am unless I can see myself looking like this, and knowing that that's what I look like. I'm not right and I feel guilty for it, and I know it's broadcasting to the world "hi everyone, I'm mentally ill and a social deviant," but what else can I do? If this is all that makes me feel better, I don't want to stop
just to be clear, it's not like skimpy clothes or lingerie or anything like that
Struggling a lot with being a lesbian lately since it's Easter weekend and I've always been a very spiritual type of person. A fast and pray a ton for Good Sunday, also patterns + earth appreciation + bunch of other weird shit sort to be more specific. I came out only recently after a life of denial and while I understand that everyone is forgiven and saved and ALSO have something of a weird, mixed view of theology where it's like ~this shit doesn't matter because Energy and God and Jesus are metaphors~ I can't help but feel somewhat cursed. On some level I still expect I'll end up staying in the closet and being with a man, having a kid or two, because that's simply the easiest life trajectory for me to visualize- it's what I expected. I don't hate myself, I don't have a low self esteem, and I accept that being imperfect is a fine and totally natural part of human life, trials are lessons, etc ect- it would nonetheless be unbearably more convenient if I wasn't like this. It doesn't help that I find a lot of other female-attracted people annoying- I know, most of them aren't, but the ones I've encountered create such friction with my nature. Like every single "wlw sapphic" i've met has been an obnoxious "ooo step on meee hee hee useless lesbian" sometimes POLY ass handmaiden bitch and I'm tired. I'm a Christian. How are they all bigger pickmes than a Christian?
Shit sucks. I have meditated a lot about it and yet I'm coming here, complaining about it on the night before Easter because it feels as though there's no way out without a shit ton of cognitive dissonance, even, once again, with my ridiculously specific allegorical views on the subject. Fitting for a confession thread, I suppose.
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I am going to get hate for it, but sweet lolita fashion, and idol/magical girl costumes but just the dress, not the accessories or shoes that come with, I accessorize the dresses the same way I do with lolita
I don't have any paraphilias and it's not a sex thing, not that it is for most lolitas, but it is something you feel like you have to say in some contexts
also sometimes just shit I make up, like pic related, which isn't me but I wish it was
We're somewhat similar in that I'm a lesbian that's still finding it hard to detach from my old Christian habits of praying/talking to God, not saying his name in vain, discerning meaning and morals in Biblical stories, etc. I find too much comfort in the idea that there's some cosmic being out there that loves me unconditionally to ever declare myself an atheist tbh. And I also share your irritation with other ~wooloowoo around me, lol. Tbh they all come off to me as attention seekers. Not that I'm even ashamed of my sexuality, I just don't think it's anyone's business but my own/my dating pool.
Anyway, I hope you're able to find peace somehow, without having to resort to going back in the closet and marrying a man. You deserve better than that.
I just mean that the dress itself looks cool>>776007
Thank you. I don't know, I don't really have any friends or use social media, so the only time I see people talk is on here and I see so many people say they think lolitas are creeps or at the least attentionwhores, and I can't imagine anyone would think better of someone wearing literal costumes too. I really don't mind when people say anything, but it does make me think I'm wrong or disturbing them and that makes me guilty>>776040
I use an iron but no one loves me anyway lol
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Saw some local blogger on the news or something and thought they looked so familiar, even the name was familiar. Thought it must be my preschool classmates with a kinda unique name, tell a friend and said I was going to google them and all that, but I am pretty certain.
My friend linked me a news thing, turns out it's a tranny who just picked my classmate's name, I feel like an imbecile
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I’ve raised donations for money I didn’t even need. I technically didn’t lie about what happened. Just said “hey guys, donating would really help me!!!”
Didn’t say I couldn’t afford it…
Wtf anon-chan, your self esteem is not a reason for you to end up becoming a weirdo with a huge clitoris. What's up with you?
There are many self-acceptance books out there on internet. It is difficult, sure, but it's better rather than destroying your life for nothing. In the end of you hate yourself a lot even such things as losing weight won't help, because you will keep finding something to nitpick on. Maybe get a good distraction such as a new hobby?
even if you do it, no one is every going to see you as a real man or treat you like one (because you aren't one). you will just end up even more miserable.
i'm not saying that to be mean, i just hope you get actual help for your self-hatred and don't mutilate yourself.
Anon, have you seen the health problems that come with taking T? It's serious, not all trans people like to talk about the negative side of things so look it up yourself.
If you really want to do this try doing it without any drugs first, try a haircut, a butch fashion style, see if baggy clothes make you more comfortable idk but please for the love of god don't cut off your tits on a whim.
If it's possible go to therapy before doing any life altering decision.
And stop visiting trans sites to see if it's something you really want or something you've been exposed to so much you think you want it.
if anyone should dress like they're mentally ill and not feel bad about it, I would think it would be mentally ill people
I think the old adage about it only mattering if it makes you happy counts here>>776110
I highly suspect everyone who isn't asking for insulin or chemo money does that
That actually warmed my actorfag heartYou're probably super sweet cause you seem like the kind of person that see a lot of the positive in things
In case you and >>776393
ever watch a movie with him that you wanna talk about, it will be more than welcomed there, doesn't need to get to stan level
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For the longest time, I always wanted to be violated and sexually groomed by an older man. I guess it started around when I was 9? I was really into anime and as I got deeper into the culture, I found out about hentai. I started to get an addiction to it and watched it almost everyday. Then, I found out about lolicon. I always projected myself onto the lolis and wished I was them. I even stripped for this random old dude I found on a chat website on cam around that time.
As the years went on and I got into my teens, I still really wanted to get molested by an older man. I frequented chat sites (Like Kids Chat and Teen Chat) looking for pedophiles to talk dirty to me. I never did meet up with any of them in real life, though.
This want still follows me to this day. I'm an adult now, and still a virgin. I now use this AI roleplaying thing to play out all the fantasies I had in my head since I was a kid.
I don't think my thoughts are okay at all, but I've never been able to shake them off.
I have no idea what the fuck is wrong with me.
As a Fantasy. Pedophiles IRL should get the snip. Don't lay words into my mouth.
As a victim
of sexual abuse it help to cope with the trauma and it's 100% a power fantasy.
want love and seek it in sexual degeneration, because they got groomed into love = sex. I don't expect people to understand me but im just stating how I experienced it.
I only can repeat what I stated before, don't do it or with somebody with who you trust and have a long term relationship, the risk of getting exploited is too high.>>776670
Ofc you shouldn't this shit with a guy you barely know nor parade it around. I meant a partner you know for years and who you trust. Do you always tell your fucked up fantasies every guy you meet?
I’m kind of similar, except I’m pretty sure I was abused before I even knew how to use a computer
, and instead of an older man, I want a guy who’s not too far from my age, just a bit older, like a young teacher or an older brother.
I tried to kill it, and it only sort of worked. Now I just think of the kind of scrotes who like it and how many of them probably have fixations on actual young actresses like Shadman, and I start to feel ill. I just see it as something made by predators.
The problem is that my brain basically did a 180 using that logic, and now I’m into the exact opposite content, sh*ta. I feel less bad about liking that because 99% of the creators and fans are males self-inserting while fantasising about permanently thirsty, big tiddy women who are bigger than them. Also, in the cases where it’s not pure femdom, I suppose it makes rape scenarios seem less scary. It’s all super unrealistic, male-invented and tends to centre the male as the subject instead of the female, so I guess it just doesn’t seem as problematic
I don’t really think about any of this much since I have a very low sex drive anyway, but your post reminded me of it. I think the only thing that could really help to ‘cure’ this sort of thing is to find an IRL lover and learn to enjoy normal, loving sex. That’s what I plan to do.
You're right, anon. It totally is a fantasy that, if carried out in real life, would most likely traumatize me more than I am right now.
If I get a loving partner one day, I'll probably dabble into some daddy kink with him. If I start to trust him enough, Maybe I'll tell him about my fantasies and go from there. That'll help me feel satisfied, I hope.
I just want to do anything to make me feel normal and not like a disgusting, wannabe groomer victim
Best option would probably be talking it out with a therapist, so I'll start there.
There is no evil message, I don't want to roleplay pedo or abusive
shit but it's still particular fantasy. Also I'm in therapy and it's not a magical fix for all my insane issues. I'm starting to doubt it will help me with sex problems at all since I'm not making huge progress
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I did a retarded movement like gif related irl, a few weeks ago, I did it unconsciously, I only noticed what i did a few minutes after. I haven’t even watched anime since 2018
If you want to do it, do it. This website is anti-kink/power play with the man being the one with power in the bedroom so you're going to hear a lot of "get therapy" if you are into being in a sub-type role.
Just know that roleplaying in the bedroom should not be a form of therapy. You can experiment with your fantasy, but don't rely on it as an escape or outlet for something else going on in your life because that's where is can get dangerous. Start slow and establish limits, and make sure you stay true to yourself and follow those limits.
Also respect your boyfriend and what he is comfortable doing. If he's not comfortable with that fantasy, drop it. If he is into or the idea of it, do not forget to establish those limits and make sure he follows them, or else never give him the opportunity again - make that clear and stand your ground.
Nta, but it is really important to consider why a man would feel comfortable rping as a predator molesting/grooming a young girl. Fantasy or not, that is kind of…concerning. I mean, Travis Alexander was one of those dudes and look what happened lol.
I just hope that whatever you do, you don't end up with a weirdo.
Sorry if this is autistic, but can someone explain the idea of fantasies? I always assumed people wanted to act out their fantasies, but obviously can't because they would either have to face the consequences of acting it out, or because it's physically impossible/can't find the right person/work out the logistics of the fantasy itself.
It always confuses me when people say "it's just a fantasy dont judge me!!" because you're still placing yourself in that situation mentally even if you aren't doing it. Like fantasizing yourself being abused is just simply fucked up and I still consider it a form of mental self-harm even if you aren't acting on it, especially when women do it
Me personally, fantasies are like reading a book. When I read a book I get immersed in that world and the characters, but once I'm done reading, that's it. It's over. I've rarely fantasized about being abused, but it's not a mental self-harm cause I can fully control everything that's going on in my head. If I don't like it, I just change the story/character. I like to daydream a lot and insert myself in stories I've read so to me it's the same as that. Not sure about the people who actually want to act out their fantasies tho, cause I don't want to.>>776786
Exactly, its not reality so the things that would have consequences/side effects I can just plot device it away. I fantasize about running away and living in the woods while sustaining myself from my garden, but that would take actual work which I would hate cause I'm lazy.
I’m becoming obsessed with this guy from Reddit I ERP with. We talk about our daily life alot, and we’ve sent each other (clothed) photos and videos. He’s actually pretty attractive (skinny but muscular, long dark hair, sharp teeth), and every once in a while, I send him little comics, dress up game characters or autistic SFW short stories I’ve made of him. It’s almost like I made an OC with his appearance and personality. I think he’s weirded out by me, but he definitely doesn’t hate the attention and thinks I’m attractive. I sorta want to send him nudes, but I know it’s not a good idea.
Based on his fantasies, he’s a complete degenerate and probably a psycho, but something about his personality keeps drawing me in. He just seems so innocent and soft in a way usual coomers aren’t. It’s really hard to explain. He’s almost like a shy girl. Not in a fake way like internet trannies, either. I’d tinfoil that he was an FtM if I hadn’t accidentally seen his nudes before. I don’t want to date him per se, but I can’t get him out of my head. It’s weird, help. I feel like a yandere anime character.
This is really
cute even though from the sounds of it reddit guy is not making cute fanfiction about you in return, which is criminal.
I know that you know your mindset is illogical, but any potential abusers probably haven’t targeted you because they can’t envision you as a victim
. If you’re going to base your worth on that (don’t), I’d argue that it means they know you’re too good for them. You may not have been targeted yet but your mindset is dangerous - already allowing fucked up people to define how lovable you are. Genuinely hope you’re able to overcome this outlook before you end up in a bad situation.
Kek, that saga actually filled me with secondhand embarrassment for the guy, because I kind of get it. At least I only did this after interacting multiple times with my person, though. >>776833
That’s true, he doesn’t do nearly as much for me. I think at this point, I might just projecting the character I made up onto him. He could even be lying about some parts of his life, and I wouldn’t even know.>>776837
Yeah, you’re right, anon. I’m just going to get hurt if I get caught up in my feelings. I think I’ll start keeping more of the weird stuff to myself and be a bit more normal with him. Hopefully he doesn’t notice and start asking if he did something wrong lmfao, then I’d start feeling bad.
At least my fictional husbando will never betray me.
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I had my first job at a restaurant when I was 15-17. It was a family business (I wasn't part of the family) so you can imagine how toxic it was, kek. There was a chef there who was always really nice to me so I liked him. He was into anime, he told me I should call him "senpai" and he'd call me "name-kun"… just now I'm realizing how creepy and weird that was. I laughed it off when he told me that, thank God I didn't do it and feed into his weirdo scrote fantasy
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I may just be paranoid but I am genuinely afraid my sister's bf is going to troon out.
He really likes cosplaying female characters and being in drag. I understand it's entirely possible he just likes the attention of dressing in drag and is comfortable being male. But it's always in the back of my mind…
Me too anon! I'll always support GNC dudes who like wearing feminine things and are comfortable with their sex.
I get worried tho since Tranny rhetoric is strong, especially on social media. I really don't want to go full TERF
on my sister if he does. I love her a lot.
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I can't stop reading the Korean manga sadistic beauty, I'm usually not that into femdom but something about this just works so well and plays into my ladyboner for dressing embarrassed flustered hot guys in panties and watching them try to cover up. Idk I'm fucking weird but it's like a different kind of fantasy I get from time to time and this read really helps get that out when a new chapter comes out. I would never tell anyone I'm into this ever irl or social media. I hope my tablet is burned when I die.
Serial-killer-ERP anon here and I need you to know that even I think this is pretty sad. You deserve someone who will love your autism, anonita.
(still not murdered btw)
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Idk if you're talking about masks like pic, but I also love them because of how warm they keep my face. I don't think I'll stop wearing them, even when restrictions are lifted
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I am married, have a good job, own a house, and am doing well for myself given I came from trash. I hate myself and my life though and I constantly think about killing myself. I keep sabataging my job and my gradschool progress for who knows what reason. I have been sitting on my bathroom floor pretending to shower for an hour so I can just cry to myself. I'm on Paxil for my ptsd but I don't think it's helping my chest always hurts and living feels unbearable.
One of the only things in life that brings me joy is matcha. I love everything about it, the color, the smell, the taste, the texture.. it's perfect and I'm going to get up now and take a shower + make myself some matcha and pretend this past hour didn't happen. I'll lie to my husband and tell him I was picking out ingrown hairs or something.
Posting this here instead of vent because I've never told anyone this before.
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I read this before and I get it. I would never tell people I read S Flower, which is like the shittier cousin of Sadistic Beauty story wise. I also would never, ever tell a soul irl or on social media (attached to my identity) that I read yaoi, or how much of it I’ve read. I tried to make a separate social media account for it and it’s fun to talk to others about these things but I don’t think I could live if I had to explain to anyone who knows me what this shit is and why I read it. I hope my tablet explodes when I die too. All of my devices actually. I didn’t want to sell my out of commission ipad from school (this is another confession, I got an ipad from school years ago and used it for bullshit and would tell them I forgot it at home when they asked for inspections initially but really it was because I was fucking stupid and didn’t think to use dropbox or onedrive to save my cringe yaoi shit and would save it directly on the ipad. They never asked for them back so naturally I and many others did not give them back and that was how I solved that problem.)
because I didn’t have a chance to wipe it before it broke and I fear that the traces of shitty webtoons and manga will still be there if anyone looks for it. There’s good, normal manga and webtoons on it too, but I don’t think that matters and it’s not nearly as humiliating as gay cartoon porn.
At one point my password was “ifyoutouchmyipadyouwilldie” or some shit because I was mad at my grandmother because she made me be around my cousin who I was fighting with. I was so deranged I even used it as an imaginary death note at one point because I was too retarded to reasonably explain how I feel and deal with consequences. If I could go back in time I would run myself over.
picrel Also I’m like 1000% sure either the illustrator for Sadistic Beauty was responsible for Cherry Boy, That Girl or I’m stupid and this is a common enough art style for webtoons that just so happens to have the same instructions for drawing people, clothes, scenery, and movement even though I’ve never seen this style outside of a handful of webtoons and none match up as perfectly besides these two. But it even has a similar cross-dressing element and a prominent strong female main character and loser whiny guy chasing after her too. I swear they were created by the same person. There’s too, too many similarities.
Have you tried other medications? Maybe Paxil just isn't the one for you. I swear by Lexapro, that shit really changed my life for the better. It got rid of my anxiety-induced stomach pains immediately. Went from 10mg to 15mg, then up to the 20mg I've been sitting on for about three-ish years now. Hydroxyzine works wonders when your mind and heart start racing. Can't be anxious if you're asleep! Do you see a therapist at all? That may help as well, should it be possible to get one. I know they can be costly…
If switching SSRIs doesn't work, your body may just not like them. There are also SNRIs (Venlafaxine), and tricyclic antidepressants (Amitriptyline). There are an absolute ton of medications for depression/anxiety/PTSD, and you might have to experiment until you find what fits best.
Matcha is truly wonderful, I love it too.
The only way to break the cycle is to stop restricting. If you keep restricting you will keep binging and if you keep binging you will keep restricting.
I got out of this by just forcing myself to eat 3 normal meals a day that neither my restrictive nor my binge side liked. But once you actually start fueling your body regularly your urge to binge on crap starts to go away. It's your brain sending out the wrong signals cause you are depriving your body.
It goes against your instinct and I still sometimes want to binge or restrict and it's not always perfect but so much better. Never gonna be normal about food, but it is what it is.
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You petty but I like it
So she's still trying to send mail to a PO box she no longer pays for?
Pretty low, that isn't right and I'd tell her as much.
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One of these bad boys
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Out of nostalgia I visited the tumblr of someone I followed back in like 2015. Their last posts were vague messages about how they didn't use tumblr anymore and how they were happy and making money in their new career. I went from curious to totally obsessed in like an hour while combing their blog for clues I could use to find their new social media presence (I got a first name, city, hints at what that new career was, some selfies). I used those to find their new instagram and saw that they really were thriving, popular, and clearly happy. Now I'm momentarily emotionally invested in and extremely proud of a low-tier celeb who doesn't know I exist
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Here to post in my moment of weakness that I still wish I could cut my tits off
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when i was 4 i had an imaginary “holiday cabin” where i went to hang out with my favourite characters who all lived there. i had a layout of the rooms in my head and everything. whenever i was going to invite a new character i’d think of an elaborate story of how i met and befriended them and throw them a welcoming party. it was basically a harem because all my husbandos lived there.
my first guest was the danonino dinosaur.
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I’ve been thinking of making a suicide tips website or social media account
People should have the right to end their lives successfully
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i own over 20 furbys from the 90s, currently browsing shelves to display the new ones i have coming in the mail. why am i so retarded when it comes to spending money
One already exists, actually- there's a whole forum and it's just a little ways down the google results.
Ironically, I think the people who could
actually go through with a successful attempt all generally manage to find either that place or another method aggregate because they have the motivation to plan and execute the requisite actions.
People who don't have the motivation to dig for an answer typically have the brand of executive dysfunction that wouldn't have allowed for them following through in the first place; I get the impression they'd just ideate suicide and not induce it whether they were given resources or not. Little dark, but it really is an interesting dichotomy.
its an easy search. the general crowd sourced info is relatively 'safe' and effective but costly and even offered a subforum for pacts but doubtful you would have the means to support something that could be so risky.
warning are given to be careful who to meet up with because people could lure you for murder (lul) or sexual assault or robbery or whatever. the effects of a failed attempt could be horrendous, what if a member buys drugs or service from a supplier that fail to work? what if these means are used in murder? you as the owner could be culpable. just as you said, self chosen death or assisted suicide is frowned upon. so imagine you run a collective of a means for death.
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I'm going to buy a puppy from a breeder one day. I used to be strictly pro-rescue and adoption but the more I've though about it, I want to know all of the dogs past history and train them properly from the beginning instead of retraining a likely very traumatized ill-behaved adult aged shelter dog. I grew up with super sweet rescue dogs but there was so much odd behavior and mysterious histories that came with them and stayed their whole lives. I also just want a puppy so badly; a dog who's whole life I can spend with them. Of course I'd do my research and choose a reputable breeder that prioritizes health and temperament over aesthetics. I feel guilty about it though. Adoption is objectively the more ethical choice.
I hope you'll find the puppy of your dreams anon! I don't think there's anything wrong with getting a dog from a respected, reputable breeder. I think there are lots of people who equate it to puppy mills, but there's a lot of information out there now and that just isn't the case! Some people are not cut out for adopting a dog that may have a lot of trauma or issues, and some people may want a pet in their life but the adoption process can be so insanely difficult for some people. I have a friend who got his cat from some random lady off craigslist but the cat passed away, and now he's trying to adopt but shelters make it (for good reason) so insanely difficult. He has to relive the trauma of losing his first cat (they asked what happened), they want his paystubs, copies of his apartment lease, references from a whole bunch of people. Yes, wanting these animals to go to a good home is great! But sometimes it feels very off putting and jumping through the hoops time and time again feels so tiring.
My dog did not come from a reputable place. We got her when I was very young and the internet wasn't what it is today, so I didn't even know puppy mills were a thing. My poor dad had been trying to adopt a dog for the longest time for me, but shelters turned him away or let another family adopt the dog before us. I remember driving two hours somewhere with him to go to a shelter to meet a dog and going home with no dog. He got fed up and found a pet shop and we got my current dog. She doesn't have any insane health issues that aren't uncommon for her breed so I assumed maybe she came from a reputable breeder, but I found her records in our apartment and she definitely came from a backyard breeder lol. It sucks, but I know better now and what's done is done. Sorry for the breeder sperg. I have no problems with whichever reputable place people choose to get their pets from, but I don't like it when people equate responsible breeders to backyard breeders, or shame people who choose to get a dog from a breeder.
I remember reading a post somewhere about how this person wanted to adopt a dog, went through the whole application process and home checks and everything, but didn't get the dog. Fine, whatever, but then they saw the same shelter still posting about the dog needing a home. It seemed more like the shelter was too obsessed with finding the absolute perfect
home and willing to keep that poor dog in the shelter for way longer than necessary. I'm sure not all shelters are like this and it's just a part of the process, but it sucks that there are people who can definitely provide for these animals not getting to give them a home because of one misstep here or there.
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You made me feel a lot better about my possible future decision, thanks anon! Youre right about the massive difference between backyard breeders/puppy mills and responsible breeders.
I had kind of forgotten about the shelter process. Way back when my parents were trying to get our first dog we were rejected multiple times on the basis of my age. I was 8 or 9 at the time. I had a really middle class childhood: decently sized two story house, big front and back yard, and parents who were both in the position to work from home. What else did they want? I even recall at one particular shelter they wouldn't let you pick a dog but instead would match you with one after an interview. I get it to an extent but man, do you really have to wait for the perfect, moderately active, 30-something childless trust fund couple to arrive in order to send your dog to a loving home? I dunno.
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Whoever that anon or anons are who post yaoi on moid boards to piss them off, you guys are my heroes.
Assuming those dogs come from a puppy mill (not an usafag, but the low price points to it)…
I know it sucks for the puppy, especially since he's an innocent victim
in all of this, but by buying him you support people who breed his mother to death in a dark cellar and throw her away like trash once she's not needed if she somehow survives. There is also a high chance of the puppy having tons of genetic illnesses since puppy mills have no problem breedong a mother with a child or her brother etc.
Not sure if I understand you correctly but I imagine that the price hike goes like this
buying directly from a puppy mill -> buying from a pet store (if they get puppies from a mill) -> buying from a reputable, registered breeder
Speaking as an eurofag, I bought a purebreed dog from a breeder (I considered adopting from a breed-specific organization, however decided I'm not ready to take care of a dog with lifelong conditions that requires almost 24/7 care). I had to join a waitlist (waited like 9 months) and paid about $1000. To compare, puppies from a mill are being sold constantly (wonder why). No need for a waitlist, you just reply to an advert on a craigslist equivalent. The puppy costs around $500, often even less. The price of getting a cheap animal is supporting abuse as well as a huge risk of your dog suddenly fucking dying or developing serious health issues.
In my country there were several puppy mill rescue operation and the quality of life of the dogs there was appalling. Real nightmare shit.
I’m the anon who posted a bit earlier with a dog that came from a backyard breeder/pet shop and I can’t agree with this sentiment. Would I go back and make the choice to get my
dog again? Absolutely. Would I ever get from a pet shop who gets their supply from backyard breeders/puppy mills in the future? Absolutely not. Those dogs still deserve love but if I ever get a puppy mill dog it’ll be from a shelter who rescued one. There’s supply and demand and puppy mills will never stop bringing genetically fucked up dogs into this world as long as people demand it. Responsible, ethical breeders are expensive for a reason.
Didn't Pewdiepie met Marzia through fan DMs?
Anyway, you never know, if you're confident enough to not have the knowledge that women are very interested in your boyfriend ruin your day, maybe it will be fine. People like Mortem3r and Egoraptor seem to have a very good relationship and he's a pretty popular content creator so it's not necessarily impossible.
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I didn't know when I first messaged him, I really just wanted him to make a video about a topic I was interested in and we started talking and kinda hit it off>>778665
idk, I guess cause I am kind of a femcel and I don't know many normies who can laugh at funny internet memes with me and he tells me about all the girls who message him, none of them have been hotter than me so far tho, they are all pretty fat, but I am worried what will happen if one of them is really hot>>778655
thank you for the only positive reply so far, I really hope it will be fine cause I really like him
If he has a separate twitter/IG for his youtube fanbase it shouldn't be a problem for him to let you look through his DMs when you want to, since it should just be fans and people wanting to collaborate. I'm not really one of those people that thinks your phone should be unlocked for your partner to look through at all times but your boyfriend should understand this is a different situation and looking through his youtube related DMs should be equivalent to looking through someone's LinkedIn DMs. It's simply inevitable that one day a very attractive woman will start flirting or sending nudes; you can't just count on that never happening. I do
think men can resist this temptation, but how incel are we talking? Was he an autistic redditor before or an /r9k/ women-are-holes type? >>778672
It would be weird if he didn't. If my boyfriend got sent a nude by some girl I'd expect him to tell me about it. Keeping that sort of thing a secret is fishy.
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I met a farmer in the old /g/ friend finder and we actually ending up hitting it off pretty well in Discord. I ended up sperging a bunch about irrelevant shit and now I feel too cringe to message her back, plus I kind of had a crush on her but she had a BF. Anyway…hope she's doing well.
god i wish that were me
this pandemic has made me hopeless and suicidal, i haven't left my house at all in a year now
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Those type of site are exactly why the state should propose a solution for euthanasia. If we had more legal structure, we could maybe save some of those people who are just going through a dark time and allow the more desperate case to kill themself peacefully and in full security.
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I have forum RP as a hobby (you can think of it as collaborative story-telling, or D&D without the table) and I just try to avoid writing romantic scenes with male role-players if I can.
It makes me feel silly, but moids annoy me. I won't say I blanket hate them (because there are and have been some decent to good men in my life) but overall the majority of my issues have been with….men. Idk
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I think I've ruined my life in spite of having a solid upbringing and I don't know how to fix myself.
Not a druggie, alcoholic, or anything, but so damn neurotic. I don't think I'm capable of intimacy, and it kills me because I want it so much? But then I'm afraid of actual intimacy? Rip to sanity.
A lot of it stems from body image insecurity, probably. I want a QT boyfriend or girlfriend, but whenever a real possibility approaches, I immediately sabotage myself into thinking that they'd probably find me gross and my personality unappealing. That comes from being rejected a lot by people, I think.
But I don't get why I react this strongly to romantic partners? I have not had too many bad experiences, as my dating experience is limited, and I wasn't abused in childhood (or now, even), so I don't get why I am so avoidant to something that I want.
Any kernels of advice appreciated. Even if it's just GIT GUD SWEATY.
You are neurotic now, but I don't think this has to last forever. You can always change for the better!
What is it that bothers you about your self image? Have you thought that maybe other people like those certain things and don't ascribe to mainstream depictions of beauty? Those standars are lame either way. And well, maybe you spend too much time comparing yourself to other people? I think, if you go outside, you'll see more than 10 average to very not attractive couples dating and being happy. And they're having a blast!
I think you need to talk to a counselor about these issues. Go to some form of therapy. Your mental health and self image can be improved a lot, trust me. It's not the outside, it's the inside and the self sabotage. You don't have to suffer forever.
It’s like those men who say marriage aren’t for them but then get married within months with the next gf.
It’s weird, I get why you keep thinking about it, I would too
I'm scared of intimacy but it's because of sex, it just looks unnatural, alien and grotesque to me. I have no idea where it's from, I didn't grow up in a religious household nor was I abused, it's probably just plain old autism. This is why I'm 28 and still a virgin, but since I don't particularly crave intimacy, I don't really care.
You shouldn't consider yourself a failure because you don't have a romantic life, maybe you should first focus on other aspects of your life (like friends, hobbies or work) and seek improvement through them, making you into a better and more confident person in the end, and thus be ready for relationships.
Maybe he used mockery and insults as a cope for his secret attraction to fat girls. Hate and love aren't opposites, sounds like they were living rent free in his head.
Either way being a shitty deadbeat dad is a big red flag that he's a bad person and partner to begin with, maybe he just took whatever opportunity presented itself regardless of the consequences or what he actually wants out of life.
Whenever a guy protests too much about a kind of woman he supposedly hates or doesn't find attractive, that's when you know who to look out for. He'd never bring those women up if they weren't on his mind. Men lie because they're cowards and opportunists.
Cowards because they can't just admit who they really like. Opportunists because they keep lying to those they don't like while they wait for their chance to be with someone whom they do.
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One of my recurring daydream is literally me going to summer camp and meeting my twin flame soul sister a la The Parent Trap
I’m 20 sighhh
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the sensation of nails like picrel make me want to barf. i always cut my nails as short as possible. i cut all the white away. i can physically feel the white when it grows back in even a half a milimeter.
idc what other people do with their nails (though i find those really long ones people sometimes have on one finger repulsive) but on me i just cannot stand the feeling of nail length. i'll even deal with cutting too close and experiencing some pain from clipping my nail too short over letting a long nail stay
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Same! I tried to grow them out a few times, but it was unbearable. It feels like the nail equivalent of a dog walking in shoes to me, it restricts me so much lmao.
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It's embarrassing but here's a couple
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I am falling in love with my nose after years of internalized hatred and visiting a plastic surgeon I see that this is the nose of my ancestors. My nose is formed like this because my ancestors had to moisten their breath through their noses in the hot ass desert of like the Middle East or Macedonia or some shit. My nose is beautiful and striking. Yes I would look a lot softer with a button or slopy nose but I was always meant to have a strong looking face. And it’s not bad at all I’ve never had a problem getting peen or puss so why did I ever hate it so much?
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i used to think i was a lesbian until i played the devil may cry games about three years ago…
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I don't want to start a husbando war but
Dante > Vergil
in the past i spent 4 years not talking to my brother a lot and it was surprisingly easy to reconnect and fall into a groove! it's not so difficult when it comes to family (unless there's obvious issues, but i don't think that's the case with you)
don't worry about annoying him anon! i'm sure he would love to hear from you more often too
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I fucking hate the movie friends with benefits with mila kunis and justin timberlake with a burning passion because it glamorized the whole fwb and cool girl pick me thing. Fuck this shit.
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I feel maternal feelings towards Apu. Not Pepe. Just Apu. I think he's cute and I want to protect this sad little retard frog.
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I do too anon! Pepe is ugly as sin and I care not for him, but I something about Apu makes me want to protect him.
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can someone please make an Apu thread? I just want to scroll through images of what goes on in his life
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I'm okay with this. I have some cute pics saved. I only hate on them because male posters use them.
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what the fuck anon, thats so messed up
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I wont respond to a redditors questions on the basis of their post history. I know this is some "Looked though your post history and Y I K E S" shit, but I cannot in god faith help a guy out who's most active subreddit is /r/femboyfitness or /r/incelswithouthate.
They do it to themselves too. They never post what they want me to critique, but instead say "Go find it in my post history". Never do they mention doing that requires going through 7 furry subreddits
Ayrt, it depends on a lot of factors. Like is the scar raised or dented, how deep, how old etc. It also depends on the artist. Some just aren't experienced at it. I got traditional so it's all thick black and it stuck well. >>782282
Mine were completely healed, around 5-4 years old. The advice on this varies a lot, my artist said 3 years minimum but I know some work on even year old scars.
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Tbh there’s nothing comfier than lazily flicking the bean and fantasizing until you doze off, don’t even bother finishing half the time tbh. I hate to say it but I understand why scrotes fall asleep with their hand in their boxers
Just cheat lol make sure your new lover knows what’s up tho>>782367
The best way to learn is to play anon
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I really want to play DnD just so I can own a pretty dice set without being told that I’m a filthy casual or something like that. I would definitely have matching dice sets with my bff.
what if i hurt my bfs feels really bad though like hes the only guy i've dated thats not addicted to anything or exclusively thinks with his dick. the sex is horrible but we were both(TMI trigger
idfk sorry) messed with as kids so i don't mind idk i want to kiss a girl so bad but the idea of guilt coming from cheating stops me and i don't wanna breakup bcus if im like "IM GAY" and then later on i date a man he may rightfully hate me. i hate men (except for him) but sometimes if they have big dicks its worth it? sorry im reatarded i hope this makes sense probably not though. what if he or one of his friends finds my tinder while im looking for a girl to kiss. what then
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I actually made a similar post these days, with picrel
I'd love to have the first and second sets!
But you don't need to play DnD, you could obviously play other tabletop RPGs (I don't like high fantasy so I prefer stuff like Call of Cthulhu), use for games that require one or two 6 sided dice and even some "choose your adventure" type of game/fanfic that use die to randomize your fate (someone posted something like that on that man thread on the media board if you want to check out what I am talking about)
nta but jesus anon, calm down, let the girl appreciate the aesthetics of freaking dices, who cares?
Go release your frustration on the infighting thread or something.
I try to lay low>>782402>Go release your frustration on the infighting thread or something.
That thread is unfortunately gone. She lived fast and died young, and won't be forgotten
I know nonnie
, I was just kidding. It's funny how we have to avoid saying those two blessed words to not get banned. The literal photoshop from a week back was hilarious!
What photoshop? Please post it on the shitpost thread>>782408
Report back when you do! There's actually so many varieties of tapletop RPGs, is just that DnD and other high fantasy ones are the most popular.
Cyberpunk ones were a bit on the rise again since it came back, and there are also a few zombie ones that are fun
The only downside is that playing with only 2 players is kinda boring imo because there's only one playable character and the one that gets to be GM is basically a God/NPC.
Anyway, good luck nonnie
If you do feel like you might actually end up having sex with or kissing someone else, then it's best to just leave him before that happens anon. Don't cheat on him. I hope some day you are able to find a woman (or man?) who can completely satisfy you and can also understand the pain you have been through>i don't wanna breakup bcus if im like "IM GAY" and then later on i date a man he may rightfully hate me
If you breakup, you wouldn't owe anything to him as his ex. It wouldn't be any of his business who you date after him, regardless of what reason you give for a breakup.
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I love my boyfriend so fucking much, I love him so fucking violently, I feel aggression when I look at him
When I squeeze his arms and put my hands on his face, I want to bite him so badly it's all I can do to stop myself
I shake when I'm around him, and not form anxiety or nervousness or anything like that, it's like the energy inside my body is too much to be contained, I want to attack him, I just fucking love him so much, I want to bite him
Sometimes he's said that I look at him in a way that's almost scary, but he smiles when he says it
I just fucking love him so fucking much, I've spent 11 years with him and I have never stopped wanting to maul him, I can still feel all the blood rush to my head when I see him walk in the door, I just fucking love him so much
I'm kind of scared that some day I may kill him because I just can't stand it, and in some way that I know doesn't make logical sense, but means something much further down in my monkey-brain, I just fucking want to have him with me forever in different deeper way
He's everything I want out of the world
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When I feel sad, alone, depressed, unloved, and lead on, I watch or read yaoi. I never read or watch shojo manga cause it sucks. Anyone does this too? I feel like I lack love in my life.
I grew up hating men who take care of their own appearance and in turn want very well presented women… then I realized that many men out there who look like shit often preach the same high standards (except it's a one way street where only the woman makes an effort) and now I feel stupid for hating on those vain men so much. They're not the worst. At least there's some give and take there.
People need to just date within their own league.
The subconscious is weird, don’t worry, nonnie
, I hope you can forget everything about that shitty dream.
True, usually I just have a laugh and move on but this one made me so disturbed kek
At least in the same dream I went into a thrift shop and found a cute utena graphic shirt, I guess
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I used to only have to masturbate like 2 times a month, but in the last few months, I've been crushing on this fictional character whose personality and appearance I've fallen in love with, and for the first time in my stupid life I'm insatiably horny.
I feel like I've been cursed by some sort of nympho sex demon. At first it was fun but now I'm really suffering. All day, every day, no matter what I'm doing, I'm horny about this dude. I have to stop studying to msturbate. I stay up way too late because I can't stop msturbating!!! And the worst part is, after I finish I'm only satiated for like half an hour & then I'm right back into cat-in-heat mode. Nothing helps and I feel like a fool, complete with that stupid hat with the jingly bells.
I'm committed to staying celibate for political reasons but holy fucking shit I think this is my animal brain telling me to go out and fuck. Until now I was convinced I could deal with it by myself but these fucking mating instincts are strong as hell. Life is suffering.
I'm wfh and can't stop getting off during the workday and I honestly hate it, I'm so fucking dopamine deprived>>782804>I'm committed to staying celibate for political reasons
I don't even want to know hahaha>>782873
There you fuckin go. Learn to cum for him, and you'll drive him nuts. Real ego boost for him :)>>782392
Break up or don't. What do you want, a relationship or always stimulating sex? Both require work. If you think cheating will hurt him, wait until you realize what it'll do to you. If he's extraordinarily good, you can talk to him about your feelings rather than act on them.
My ex use to neg me about pussy eating (she squirted in my mouth and it was probably piss! Most vaginas are ugly and gross and covered in bumps are too hairy with beef curtains, etc). I would never let him eat me out because if he's that picky towards other women's pussies what is he gonna say about me?
Apparently he was missing out because I tasted my own cooch off my boyfriends mouth and it tastes AMAZING. Like white chocolate covered honey lollipops. On top of that my cooch is attractive to porn standards anyway so fuck him lol
They can, but c'mon now.
Yes, my pussy taste like cherry cola too
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I’m usually the most lame vanilla girl ever but this scene was really hot.
anon did you even read the link you posted>a third armpit>watery sauerkraut>milk and coins>a sweat-covered barbell>white chocolate covered honey lollipops
bitch one of these things is not like the others
As a military brat I moved a lot when I was young, every two or three years, and I'll never forgive my dad for that, it was probably the biggest factor into turning me into a solitary weirdo. I have zero childhood friend and no place I can call my hometown, and I'm sure my tendency to ghost friends every three years when I get bored of them is a direct consequence of that.
Also I'll never forgive my parents for making me skip a grade, the school apparently put a lot of pressure to make me do it, but they should have insisted. Worst thing is that I skipped my grade during the middle of the school year, couldn't they have just waited for the year to end to do that? Way to fuck me for years to come, bravo.>>782804
Out of curiosity, who is it?
A few months before the pandemic I went out to a club to celebrate my best friend's birthday. I rarely, almost never, go out, because I have low self-esteem, but ofc I had my mind on being there for her and having a good time.
Then at one point I'm just walking inside, in the middle of all the people, trying to get to my a friend and I stumbled into a guy, we look back at each other and I see him patting his friend's back to get his attention (doesn't break eye contact) and starts pointing at my face. He was making fun of me, laughing with his friend and talking directly to me (as if I wanted to listen to that) comparing my face with an specific object. It was so surreal, I just acted like I didn't listen and continued my night.
The club had a problem with the lights and everyone came together to a bar that was close. I'm there with my friends but for one second I'm walking alone and stumbled across this scrote again, he "recognizes" me and starts making fun of me again. One of my friends catches up with me in that exact moment and heard him, she defended me and we just walked away.
We never talked about it, the rest of the group doesn't know, it's like some sort of secret between us and mine. Seriously what makes people (men) that they can freely talk about other people's appearance. I mean I do know..
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>total fucking loser
>type 1 diabetes, kidneys going bad, feet going numb, projectile vomitting multiple times daily possibly from diabetic neuropathy (haven't gotten an endoscopy yet), thyroid getting nodules, ovaries getting cysts, all from the fucking diabetes
>ptsd, bipolar, depression, anxiety all from the diabetes
>dropped out of high school to get a job to help my family
>and this is my reward
>get fired because I'm only trained to work in kitchens and you can't work with food puking all the time
>give the fuck up
>apply for disability
>try for year and a half to get a therapist that takes state insurance
>no one does
>disability takes literal years to get if they even take you
>fucking purse strap fucking breaks
>go to doctor next day for normal pre-scheduled diabetes shit
>wore turtle neck to hide mark
>doctor wants to see my neck to feel my thyroid
>doc sees mark, knows why it's there
>says she's calling 911 and I can either go voluntarily where they can only keep me for up to a week, or involuntarily and they can keep me over a month
>they take my insulin pump
>will only give me two fucking shots of insulin daily
>be begging for insulin for days
>go into DKA (dying)
>still begging for insulin, telling all of the nurses what to do if they find me seizing or in a coma
>keep getting told to just go back to bed
>get phone time
>call my doctor who sent me here tell her they're refusing me insulin
>doctor says this isn't an uncommon way for type ones to die in hospitals
>she calls and demands they send me to the ER and get me on IV fluids, obviously including insulin, and give me a ketone test
>in order to not admit that it happened on their watch, instead they just discharge me early
>sit outside with no shoes and clothes from the lost and found because all of my belongings were lost waiting for my mom to pick me up
>still the same piece of shit in the same situation as before but now with the knowledge I may be murdered by hospital staff one day
>give all the way up
>ask various elderly family members if I can just stay with them and do their dishes and laundry
>actually all of them say yes
>buy some game consoles I wanted since high school
>buy a large rolling luggage to carry my life in
>for once in my life, actually start feeling kind of okay
>start showering more often
>start actually brushing my teeth
>stop wanting to kill myself so much
I am a loser piece of shit wandering vagrant mooching off the family I love most, but I am finally living easier.
Is it okay? I don't know. I'm finally as close to happy as I've ever been
All I ever wanted was to be with my family, I have lost so much time with them, and then to find out out, everyone wanted to see me all along and they don't even want anything from me at all, as if I'm not even a burden to be there.
My life has been such an utter burden to everyone involved, my parents were destroyed by the debt my illness caused, and I have always felt the pain I caused them.
To get away from all of this, to leave all of the evil in the medical ties behind, at least for most of the month, it's such a relief.
To just be somewhere quiet and watch wheel of fortune with people who love me, and I'm such a bad person, but I feel so much better now.
I feel guilty for feeling better, I don't deserve it, but I don't want to go back and I don't think I will.
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I can only say that you deserve to have good things in your life, anon, you’ve been doing your best and that’s what counts after all.
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A scrote was posting a bunch of threads about the dangers of anal sex for a month or two. Most of his threads were deleted by mods, but you can probably still find some in the catalog if you ctrl + f "violence". Also, look in the funny caps thread for more Anorectal Violence stuff
It’s Anorectal violence
I can feel the trauma trauma
The girthy insertion in my anus
I can hear the fallacies fallacies
The CIA shill that, anorectalviolence
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I've never turned off adblock on youtube, even when watching the channels I like
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No, he got busted by some other scrote who saw him posting on 4chan for months or possibly years before, specifically on the /gif/ board in threads for anal sex
Was pretty disappointing, but gave us a couple of funny redtexts
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I consume way too much sugar because I love flavored milk
And I try to excuse it by taking a ton of vitamins
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Once I drew over some tranny fanart of one of my husbandos. Gave him the healthy girthy juicy penis he deserves to have. The og artist ended up finding out and sperged about it for days.
I have 0 regrets because she was a piece of shit and constantly harassed other artists.
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I just read a fucked up but well written fanfic that got me disgusted at first but then turned me on in a primal way, like against my will, and now I can't stop self-inserting as a girl who fucked her outlaw uncle who turned out to be her actual father and she turned out to be a rape baby. I never thought about fucking my father or my uncle, I'm just very attracted to the character she wrote the fanfic about. Anyway, please god, heal my soul