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what have u guys done that make u happier/more fufilled?
finally got the illustration from my visual novel game
it's nothing big buti am very satisfied
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After years and years of saving money, I finally bought the laptop I've always wanted and I'm really stupidly happy right now. Cannot stop making random folders and deleting them, because I own this laptop. Only me. Me. I have this much power. I can create it and I can take it out of the computer world.
Yeah, I mean I'm not saying I want to see people being sexually assaulted but it's just a matter of principle for me. Like you're polite, super intelligent, and cunning and also love evil? You must be asexual, no way! Polite and even kneeled people can't be hypersexual unlike those wild and bad mouthed people, impossible!
And then you see the irony hits further when radio demon was a serial killer driving my point further.. which is fucking hilarious because the polite and intelligent serial killers are the most sexually sadistic and lustful and brutal. I'm not saying I wanna see rape but they're pushing some idea unintentionally about rapist or creepy males only being slobs and idiots I
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Not sure if this belongs in here or elsewhere.
Theres this chatting browser MMO, think Club Penguin, being made as a kind of recreation to a defunct one named Fantage (think CP Rewritten).
The beta opened a few days ago and it was a shitshow of bugs. Its only been like 2 days and the admin implemented a safemode restriction for chatting, where you have to pay 20$ to write whatever you want instead of just using a filter or report system.
I don’t know how hard or easy it is to program a game but the admin always seemed greedy to me ($3k donation page where at 1k we get a functioning inventory, 60$ for a day early of access, etc..) but it’s funny to see everyone starting to get upset and turn their backs.
Did you like the netflix Ted Bundy movie if you saw it? The fiction one. They chose not to show (most) of his crimes but they do show him using sex/sexuality to manipulate his long term gf. He did assault his victims
and they reveal it at the trial and don't pull punches with how graphic it was.
It's not a perfect movie but you mind find it refreshing anon.
Also maybe for a fully fiction horror rec The Loved Ones? The villain isn't totally sexual in a straightforward way at first but her whole murder thing is clearly is driven by getting off/getting what she wants in an immature and disturbing way.
I also reccomened this film to a lot of women who like horror overall because it's rare to get a film with a female villain and hero who have interesting motivations (the villain has a very "male" way of wanting to keep and conquer her "boys" and the hero girl is the first character to start investigating her bf's disappearance.)
Yes I did and liked it. It was respectful to the victims
except in the trailer. Thanks for the recs anon
It's a weird cliche when you think about it, I mean some of the most abusive
and cold hearted people I've met have had insane sex drives as they are driven by their own personal pleasure
There's an anon on here (at least I think I recognise their style when they post) and they have the most intense disliking of people who call themselves asexual, like why?
The sociopaths who make these movies/shows don't want to alert their viewers to the fact the sex addict who values their own pleasure over all is more likely to be the baddie, not the quiet asexual.
Conflating sex with love is another intentional diversion in movies/shows so we consider pleasure-seekers as "loving" instead of narcissistic
That's a really good theory, actually. I suspect it's just sociopaths covering their tracks
Anyone into true crime will tell you the most polite, reserved, well spoken and intelligent serial killer tend to be as sadistically hypersexual and fetishist just as bad as the dumb and openly Brutish ones it not more.
Also to the anon who brought up it's because Hollywood falsely conflated sex with love, you're too correct. It's also another manipulation tactic
these days you gotta make every single character out to be gay/trans/disabled in some way or you'll get attacked for "erasure". a lot of people jumped on that trend ever since being lgbt is "trendy" somehow. and it's mostly those people who preach about being woke and identify with mogai xe/xim/they/them bullshit.
disney not having a gay/whatever character? they're being homophobic, committing a hatecrime and here are my headcanons as genderqueer elsa in a wheelchair with vitiligo and autism.
don't even bother listening to them or getting offended by it, it's just completely ridiculous.
people assume all flirting is seduction or coming onto someone. that's not the case. why do you guys assume this is something women do? the most flirtatious people who flirt without intent, and "friendly flirt"/"innocent flirt" without attraction have, in my experience, been popular, outgoing men. have you people never been to parties or in an environment where people innocent or friendly flirt just to be social? flirting is often very nuanced, relies on cadence, eye-contact, subtle flattery, all of which can be very ambiguous, and that's the point for a lot of people. it's not outwardly sexual for flirtatious people, generally. some people, though, take it really far and then it becomes obviously sexual and serious. the spectrum has become too wide and people associate the more heavy stuff with flirting, but just being playful and charming is considered flirting as well.
it's supposed to mean "to behave as though attracted to or trying to attract someone, but for amusement rather than with serious intentions.", but i guess a lot of people seem to conflate all flirting as being hit on, or a form of seduction, but it's not always so.
Ehh, ‘innocent/friendly’ flirting has always struck me the wrong way. Feels immediately uncomfortable.
I don’t consider being friendly and normal flirting but touching your coworkers, making eyes, and even vaguely sexual comments are way beyond being charming.
ive only seen bits of the first Frozen (i worked at a movie theatre when it came out. didnt work there long after) but i could see her being gay
like another anon said she practically had a coming out song. also, and this is just the vibe i get, she reminds me of lesbians of olden times that wore pants and didnt date men only to find out centuries later that she had a collection of journals where shes written a shit ton of poems describing women she came to adore
like i can see how tumblr pushes it sometimes, but if disney was gonna make a princess gay, id expect it to be her
Yeah dude I don’t believe in innocently flirting either. Imo it’s all a means to display sexual and/or romantic interest.
It would be weird to be a married woman and flirt with the men in the office. They’re not gonna see it as casual or friendly. Men flirting with everyone in the office is, IMO, more about them signalling they will fuck anyone than them being charming or nice.
Being normal and making a joke (what’s being called innocent flirting itt) isn’t flirting as far as I’m concerned. That’s regular socialisation.
Has nobody ever told a joke to you at work?
Never made a quip and had a laugh with a coworker?
Everything else like touching them or giving them compliments outside of ‘good job today’ is flirting and imo flirting isn’t the same as socialising. I think you’re calling being friendly, banter, and signalling availability and interest are all just flirting.
>>489679>Everything else like touching them or giving them compliments outside of ‘good job today’ is flirting and imo flirting isn’t the same as socialising.
i've had people from all ages and sexes touch my arm when they make a joke or touch me without being romantically or sexually motivated. i assure you it's not always sexual or anything more than playful socializing, or "innocent flirting" with no sexual motivation, at worst. you guys are honestly kind of autistic if you interpret touching someone on the arm, alone, to be sexually motivated or uncomfortable. i've had all manner of people give me all kinds of compliments, lots of which were not done with sexual or romantic intent, and i've done the same and it not be done with sexual or romantic intent. "what's up?" can sound more than friendly with a specific tone, or not. either way, it's incredibly autistic to overestimate that everyone is sexually interested in you, or seriously sexually interested in you because they touch your arm when they make a joke or laugh or give you compliments, especially people who are very outgoing. you guys are going to be woefully disappointed when you realize your 10 minute interaction with a 'desirable' outgoing guy or girl was just them being charming and that their compliments weren't sexually motivated.
I just know you're insufferable. Like I don't even have to guess
If it's not sexually charged then it's not flirting. Period.
your post too? The definition you posted from google even includes these synonyms>synonyms: trifle with, toy with, tease, lead on, philander with, dally with, make romantic advances to, court, woo, vamp, pull, chat up, make eyes at, make sheep's eyes at, give the come-on to, come on to, be all over, set one's cap at
well, i guess my point (that i couldn't make clearly) is that what someone considers flirting is very subjective, and a lot of people assume all flirting is sexually motivated. i don't even know how to use it because i've had people describe behavior towards me as "flirting" with sexual intent when it wasn't, or my actions as "flirting" with sexual interest when it wasn't, so i have no idea how to even use it at this point because it seems to vary based on interpretation of certain actions. "flirting" encompasses a pretty wide range of behaviors and is up for interpretation. that's why you'll sometimes hear about socially awkward men assuming that a barista smiling at them means they're flirting with them, when they're just being friendly. some people think literally, on their own, touching your hair or smiling is flirting, maintaining eye contact while talking is flirting, certain cadence, laughing, taking a drink when they take a drink is flirting, complimenting, alone, is flirting, using nicknames, etc. and obviously people think playing footsie or saying obviously sexual stuff is flirting, so it's a pretty wide range of behaviors that people consider to be "flirting", and a lot of it, like touching someone on the arm or shoulder, or complimenting them, or giggling, is flirting, and i think can just be playful socializing that may or may not indicate interest. you really can't know without further information or confirmation, but some people think the mild stuff is definitely more than being friendly, they claim it's "flirting" and so it's necessarily sexually or romantically motivated. like above, anon considers complimenting someone and touching their arm when you make a joke to be flirting and so it's sexually motivated, because all flirting -> sexual. i don't, i think that's just a certain form of playful socializing, or, at most extreme, it's some kind of "flirting" but it's not necessarily sexual or romantic. i just think there's a certain grey area of ambiguity where interest can't be assumed, and certain people seem to believe that grey area is definitely flirting and so it's definitely sexual.
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This qt girl in a server I'm in dmed me asking to be my friend after talking a bit. I might cry. especially since i have like 2 friends.
I'm a little worried since I'm really not that fun to talk to. I'm just happy.
That's menopause age, increased anxiety is common
Looking back my mom had a pretty rough time with it. Was angry and uptight. As she was getting past the worst of the affects on her mood she then got diagnosed with breast cancer. Menopause affects mental health. On top of that you are entering a whole new risk category for all sorts of illness. I can see how it's not a fun time tbh
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>>489135>So, you listen to heavy metal too?>>yeah>What are your favourite bands?>>Slipknot, POWERWOLF, and System of A Down
I'm tired of these people, I have nothing against their taste but I hate that when I make them listen to a heavy metal music they turn away and say that it is 'too heavy'…smh
I'll have to check those out, except Death which I already know I don't like.
Honestly metal is such a broad genre that sometimes it feels pointless to say you like metal because there are so many different types that 2 people can love metal but the music they listen to is completely different, so different it might as well be a different genre all together.
IKR! but the dumbasses whom I talk to insist on calling it all metal.
They are good bands, you won't regret looking them up.
Wait, some people call SlipKnot metal?? i never heard that. some weird. shit>>489823
Nice! I'll check these bands out
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I wanna go home and pet my dog so bad.
I feel the same way about black metal.> do you listen to black metal> yeah, I love metallica <3
instantly dropped. It's not even black metal ffs. Also a lot of hard rock artists that are nowhere near the metal genre let alone black metal.
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I went to a convention last year and an artist was doing $5 dog doodles and I got 3 done of my dog. I'm going nuts trying to find the artist again. I want to pay her more money for drawings of my dog.
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I completely forgot that I wanted to buy a climbing harness and some sites have them on sale but I already spent money on a shirt and I'm too much of a cheap fuck to now spend $50 on a harness!!! I want one so bad. I've been sticking to bouldering because I'm too cheap to buy a harness and too much of a coward to ask someone to belay for me but I've been wanting a harness to practice endurance on the autobelays in my gym…
I'll probably suck it up and not buy one because in reality I never spend more than half an hour on the autobelay walls anyway. Bouldering is fun enough for me, but whenever I see new and fun routes on the autobelay walls, I really want to try climbing them too… 70% of my gym is top rope climbing and it sucks. I wish we had more space dedicated to bouldering walls.
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For a year now I wanted nothing more than for my ex-best friend to unblock me and talk to me again. But they just unblocked me and I had an anxiety attack after seeing how much has changed and the people they're talking to again. I want to hate them and block them myself but I can't stop checking my messages to see if they're tying to reach out or if it's just like an unblock-stalk-reblock thing. I'm scared and I feel like this is a big trick. Fuck you, dude.
I love this so much>>489823
Any similar bands like Death? Just recently started to listen to them I surprisingly LOVE it! I also wanted to get into Napalm Death but idk where to start …
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And me, please! Adorable!
I honestly can't believe that people pay $5 for this. I really need to get into drawing.
Tho no hate, it's cute but not for that money.
I used to work retail and the most heartbreaking moments were coming home late at night but having an early shift the next day and having to decide whether to spend the 10 minutes I had to spare between a) going to bed immediately, b) stuffing my face real quick, or c) giving some quality time rubbies to my dog.
I'll sound like a shit person but most days I could only give her a quick rub or pat down before heading to bed, and she would follow me around and stare at me for more love. I now work an office job with stable hours and the single best thing about it is having hours to devote to loving her before and after work. She is truly the light of my life and I'm so happy I finally get to spend all the time she deserves with her.
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Im in love with this girl off Zaras website and theres nothing I can do about it
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She looks like Motoko Kusanagi. I love effortless "looks" like that, they're admirable.
Not sure why the other anon thinks she looks 12 (small breasts?).
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Work evaluations were today and not only did I recieve high marks but my boss called me one of the hardest workers she's ever had and that I'm highly respected in other departments. Feels good to hear especially since I never thought I would ever find a career I'm actually good at.
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We're in the same boat anon, i cant help but relate so hard on this. A dear friend of mine broke up with me out of nowhere and blocked me instantly after the incident. Sometimes i wanted to check up on her because i knew she'd unblock pp from time to time out of curiosity…the thing is anon, its very rare for a friendship to actually form again after sth like this happens let alone talking to each other, my advice to you is dont try to check up ur ex-friend or any kind of ex-relationship after this (as tempting as it might sound) because its only bring pain, further hurt you and you wont be able to move on afterwards. If they really want your friendship to last they wouldnt do this to you anon, trust me, every relationship ends for a reason and its not your fault. Be strong anon, godspeed!
I'm bitter about my job and am about to say some dumbass shit. I mean congratulations but unless they show you with money it's meaningless jibba jabba. Unless they show you with a promotion and more money, they're jerking you around and you're falling for it.
You know they're taught in seminars, classes, etc, to say things like that to keep decent employees loyal. You probably actually are
the hardest worker, but they'll use that to make you work even harder. Beware. This is the exact point where you ask for a raise. Do it. Do it now. If you don't do it now, you're being tricked and used. DO IT.
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More like child-Motoko.
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i love women…you're all so cute and nice and kind and strong and talented and beautiful
i'm working on this collab with a ton of girls and i'm so happy…the memes are on point. everyone treats each other with dignity and respect and communicates well. i love you all
women are good
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this only really matters to me and only concerns me and I've been more relaxed about it but I'm more confident about my bisexuality now. I sometimes feel like I have to know whether I'm just curious or really bi but I never had a relationship with a woman or great chemistry. Anyhow, I have been really attracted to unfamiliar women in public recently and it feels good. I try not to stress about it anymore but this is nice. Feels like there are opportunities in the future
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Great taste, anons.
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tfw want to charge earphones for gym but at mall, and all they have is those chargers you pedal except i cant gym 2 hrs after immunotherapy what is this
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i feel kind of loony saying this but recently i've noticed a ""trend"" i guess? in children's toys and media in general. i didn't know where else to put it so here it goes:
there are SO many children's toys now that are specifically centered around poop and i find it slightly sinister and unnerving. it's EVERYWHERE. there's these weird fetish-esque children's toys that popped up on my instagram a few weeks ago called "The Hangrees" (pic related) which are literally made to "poop" out slime and come with all kinds of poop-related paraphernalia; yesterday an ad for something called "poop game" came out while i had a kid's channel on my tv, today i passed by this claire's-esque shop they have in my country that mostly caters to little girls and there was something called "unicorn poop" (just some rainbow-mashed glittery slime). it's popped up way too many times for it to feel like a coincidence.
call me crazy but i feel like someone is behind this? maybe a company, maybe sth else idk, but there's just SO much centered around poop directed specifically at children and i don't know why. i've read about elsagate being some sort of conspiracy meant to groom children into normalizing perverted behavior but i can't say this is purely related to that, but i DO find it strange. why poop, specifically? why is it ALWAYS directed at children?
Eh, as a kid poop and farts are just peak funny as I recall it. It seems marketing teams are just trying to profit off of that?
I turned out to be a degenerate though so take this with a grain of salt. I blame the internet and weeb shit more than poop jokes though. And I'm no scatfag or brapfag for fucking sure.
Speaking as someone who remembers childhood: Because slime is fun and poop jokes are funny.
The actual travesty is how over marketed and expensive that cheap Chinese shit is.
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I think pooping and crying baby dolls are a lot different from what we're getting now with >>490287
which are infantile unicorns with heart-shaped assholes. The vomiting part is just wtf. I know kids think poop is funny but vomiting as a kid was hell.
I like to follow toy lines a lot and the sheer amount of actual shit-themed toys is really weird and the genuine family-friendly toy youtubers I follow don't even like them and are clearly creeped out when doing vids on them for PR. They especially are weirded out with the "OMG Surprise" dolls that have nipples sticking out, all while looking like adult babies, pic related.
I'd rather give my child Bratz, they were just teenagers in heavy makeup. This is really something else and it wouldn't surprise me at all if it were some guys with a pedo-poop fetish behind some of this stuff.
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that's what i was trying to say.
pic related has ddlg written all over it. it has fucking tattoos.
anon's point is that bratz dolls are teenagers
not DDLG fantasy babies with booty dimples. do you think guys don't jerk onto literally anything?
The weirdness aside, that’s such an ugly body design
Like I actually do like the design of the unicorn poop-puke babies sue me
but these are just straight up ugly as sin
Dollfag here, I have avoided all the trash new toys as I'm into art dolls, but I have to say all the current range of toys look cheap as shit. The dummies, pooping, vomiting, "sexy" bodies and thicc asses is something else.
I agree with other anons that it's definitely a fetish thing. Baby dolls that we had as kids was an extremely different thing to this.
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Do not even get me started on LOL dolls
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I started watching The Untamed/Chén Qíng Lìng, I haven't watched these types of show since I was a child. I've only indulged in some Chinese (trashy) literature since.
But wow the cheesy wuxia drama and action makes me incredibly nostagic, the subtle classy twink-free BL, the aesthetics! Gotta say the Netflix English sub can't convey the historical context very well but understandable. Anyway I just wanted to gush a little.
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I'm gonna compile a list of every fictional character I've had a crush on.
Might take a while.
Unfortunately I don't watch enough Chinese entertainment to give you good recs anon (feelsbad). This one just happens to be on US Netflix. Douban is like Chinese imdb, you'll find what's popular/critcally acclaimed there, then using a VPN, the world is your oyster! Or just get a Viki account lol>>490404
Anon I'm so into it, I really like ancient chinese cosplay! All the women in this are impossibly pretty.
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I wanna have a wholesome summer fling.
What the fuck? Did they ever bother to explain why dolls would need nipples? It seems like such a creepy, unnecessary edition to a children's toy.
I do like Popovy dolls, and they often have nipples, but they're made as art. These dolls, on the other hand, don't seem to have much artistic merit in mind other than "big eyes cute girl doll pink hair princess toy play", so what was the reason?
I agree with >>490474
, I don’t think it’s weird that a children’s toy has a feature that all human beings have. However, I do think the doll’s figure is setting up some unrealistic expectations like people always bitch about Barbie doing - but instead of impossibly skinny it’s just impossibly curvy. I don’t think little girls are going to be corrupted by a doll with nipples, but there are a lot of creeps who are going to ruin these toys for little girls just like my little pony.
It's more the fact that they felt the need to add them than the nipples themselves being a thing that might "corrupt children". I don't think any kids thought having nipples was weird or bad just because dolls don't have them or anything (I didn't, at least). There's just no real point to them, as most dolls don't need to breastfeed or perform any real human biological functions.
I'm just having trouble imagining the mindset of an adult who thought "It's time for dolls to have nipples". Like, of all stylistic choices, why that? They didn't think to make the eyes not look like runny eggs with blue yolks, or for the bodies to look anatomically sensible, but that's where they draw the line and demand realism?
I just don't get it. It's a weird thing to zero in on for a designer who seemed to not care much in the first place for aesthetic beauty or anatomical accuracy, and the fact that it's from the same company that makes seedy-ish designs of toddlers in fishnets and seems to have some obsession with scat is also weird.
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I only watched The House Bunny because I really liked how Kat Dennings looked in it, before the "transformation".
You can't free the nipple before changing what the female nipple means in our culture. First, change the culture, then you'll be free to do as you please with nipples. Just because YOU think they aren't sexual doesn't mean the general population does.
Not that I don't agree with you, I do believe nipples are a natural part of the body, but I also know that they are viewed as a sexual thing. If you imagine breasts without them, they suddenly lose the sex-element and become balloons, lol.
NTA and I also agree but>I do believe nipples are a natural part of the body
sounds funny to me, cause what part of the body ain't natural? Vulva is natural as well and we don't want dolls to have defined pussies… (okay, I know that you mean that nipples are nonsexual, it was just an awkward way of putting the idea into words)
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this is relevant >LOL means Little Outrageous Littles
i read this and it made me think about scarcity and behaviours:https://www.theatlantic.com/family/archive/2018/06/marshmallow-test/561779/
i was neglected as a kid and i remember being so hungry i would swallow air to make myself feel full. i used to eat paper when i was at school and whenever i was given a gift like an easter egg i would break it into thousands of pieces and store them in a hidden place and ration myself to a couple of tiny shards of the egg a day because i never knew when i would get to eat again. i would take my brother and sister to the fields near where we lived to find as much wild fruit as we could because i didn't know how to cook and we never had any food in anyway. i was dangerously underweight growing up and have had health repercussions from malnutrition as a child. my sister had one of the worst cases of scoliosis the queen's medical centre had ever seen, it put so much strain on her organs it would have killed her by the age of 12 if they hadn't corrected it and i think it was made so bad because she grew up malnourished.
unsurprisingly i developed anorexia in my teens and was forcibly hospitalised with a bmi of 13 about 8 years ago. now i'm a few years into recovery and for the first time in my life i'm really, really fat - about 230lbs at 5'9". it's hard to deal with, but i know exactly how i got here - it's because when i have the opportunity to eat i will eat everything on my plate and i'll eat everything that is offered to me, even if i'm not hungry. i don't eat a lot of junk food, i've learned how to cook and mostly make vegan curries and rice but clearly i eat too much of them. my doctor told me my metabolism might have been damaged by my history of starvation but i don't know if that's a real thing.
i keep wondering if this impulse to eat is just because of a lifetime of not knowing when the next bit of food will come. since getting better the thought of cutting down food makes me really anxious now. i don't really know what's normal. i think it might be why poor people tend to be much fatter, like i understand it now and have a lot more sympathy. if you grow up in extreme scarcity then often you feel like you have to eat now or you won't again for a long time.
>>490638> unsurprisingly i developed anorexia in my teens
How is that unsurprising? Do you think history of malnourishment leads to anorexia? Because it doesn't. That's a separate issue you have.
> i've learned how to cook and mostly make vegan curries
Curries are incredibly caloric. Tons of fat and sometimes sugar.
>>490654>How is that unsurprising?
I think anon means that a twisted attitude about food leads to a twisted relationship with it.
Not enough food, so you hoard it (many anorexics do this, keeping food stowed away all for themselves without eating any of it). Scared and ashamed of being greedy (and having it disappear on you), so you deny yourself and eat very tiny bits. Being faced with a full meal, being unable to stop yourself, and binging because your brain is worried you may never get the chance to eat so well again. Rinse and repeat.
mostly what >>490656
said, but also my ED doctor said that anorexia often follows a period of inadvertent or controlled starvation like an illness or a first diet. maybe i should have clarified that.
i don't add sugar or a lot of fat to curries, i make them wholly from scratch. mostly tomato based with green vegetables or pulses, though i do occasionally do ones with coconut milk which i accept is highly caloric. i eat healthy food - i still have a knowledge of nutrition from all the obsessive reading i did as an anorexic - but just too much of it, is what i'm saying.>>490656
thank you anon, that is what i was getting at. reposted for sage
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I'm self conscious that my ex thought I was love bombing her (she's only had abusive relationships before we went out) when in reality I'm just like a stupidly excited puppy. She was the girl of my dreams and I had been lowkey following her for years before we actually talked (I told her I had been following a lot of her socials ofc- we also have a lot of mutual friends so it wasn't really hard to find any of them).
We're broken up now so it doesn't matter but I'm afraid of future partners thinking I'm love bombing them when I'm just… too excited. I wear my heart on my sleeve and it sucks lol. I say shit like 'I love you' too fast because it's become the norm between my friends and I to say it to each other because I'm scared as shit that one of us will suddenly die and I want the people I love and care the most for to know that.
I wouldn't take it too personally. I needed a few years of just being single after getting out of an abusive
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sorry reading thru onision milk and this dude is 23? HOW? i'd think he was at least 36. no wonder anons are thinking barely legal guys are their age, it's bc men our age look older than us by far and the younger ones have yet to accrue as much skin damage so they might look similar to our ages. holy shit.
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samefag but also in that same vein, this is billie eilish's brother. does this look like a 21 year old to you guys? how is it that men don't look their ages at all? are they moonlighting as appalachian miners??
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nah, their family has an unfortunate case of looking 10 years older than what you actually are, billie is only 14 in pic related.
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pic related is one of my favourite male models, he is 23 and looks like it also an absolute hottie.
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This isn't a groundbreaking observation by any means but it seems 100% obvious that the body types that are popular on instagram and online these days are trying to literally emulate the bodies from cartoons we grew up with.
Women have to be literal cartoons in current year or else be considered fridge shaped ogresses.
It's funny since the features are clearly just exaggerated femininity because…duh, cartoons…but now we're expected to become the exaggeration. It's like getting PS to look like a caricature someone drew of you lmao.
i feel like meditation is best if you pick the type that suits you best. There are so many different ways to do it and once you start reading around it's actually pretty easy to make your own practice!
I like David Lycnh's approach so far because he's a) described experiences from his past that sound a lot like psychotic episodes. I some due to PTSD which I treat with medication but I need other tools to deal with it when the meds don't work. (i'm not recommending mediation as a way to avoid or supplement medication but they really don't work all the time and meditation has helped me through some really scary episodes!)
b) a creative so his motivations to meditate (to make better art and let your brain rest so you can be more creative) resonate with me in a way "just meditate to be happy!!" doesn't lol.
so find your "teacher" as corny as it sounds, don't worship the ground they walk on and shop around for people you relate to imo. and there are some legit health benefits but if you aren't motivated by that I don't think it would sway anyone's opinion lol.
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Does anyone else like hamsterfragment 's art? I heard he/she passed away? I hope it's not true.
lol, you're bored right?>>490847
came in to say her/his art is cute as fuck. sad to see his/her pawoo hasn't been updated in a while.
Sorry for sperging (I'm >>490911
), I thought I was in the art general because of the art post, my bad. Yes I agree, especially the butt thing holy shit.
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>At a new workplace
>All the girls in my office greet each other with big kisses on the cheeks
>Also hugging randomly
>And so many petnames
>Complimented a coworker's leggings and while telling me about how comfy they are on the waist she literally hiked her skirt up to show me
I probably seem uptight but I can't really see myself being so close to coworkers. Good for them tho
Stay on top of your birth control lol
I know alot of women with kids who have learning difficulties, autism, behavioural issues that bring a whole lot of stress. That's life
Yeah the main reason I don't want kid is because I don't want to pass on all the crazy genes from my mother's side of the family. >>490944
I will lmao. I just wanted to share those weird feelings, because I've literally never had baby fever before.
This was a cute post until the end when your handmaiden side came out.
It's good you are happy with the idea of having a baby with your boyfriend, very natural and good, but please don't put expectations on this idea of a baby. There is no "I would prefer." You get what you get.
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I JUST WANNA PAINT AND SING WITHOUT BEJNG GOOD? WHY CAN'T I JUST SING WITH MY FRIENDS WITHOUT THEM LAUGHING OR ME APOLOGISING TO THEM? SAME WITH PAINTING
LET PEOPLE DO ART THINGS BECAUSE THEY ENJOY IT, AAAAAAAAAA
>>491126>introversion and extroversion isn't real
They're just words to describe people who either prefer being alone or prefer socializing. Sure, not many people are 100% either but these are definite traits that exist.
wait where did you hear that?? i loved their art so i hope not
their twitter updated last just a week ago but i dont know if they have a different social media that's more up to date
I wouldn't really wanna see the pointless times I've infought with other farmers, but lolcow is like a diary to me because I've posted on ot for a few years now. I like going back to old threads in the catalog and recognizing my old posts and reliving those thoughts and feelings. Stuff that I sometimes forgot happened.
I know it's dumb cause I could just get an irl diary but I have an aversion due to some childhood trauma cause my mom used to read it while holding me back and shaming me. Putting it on paper makes me feel like someone's gonna snatch it and read it and humiliate me for it. But on lolcow my feelings are anonymous and it's just there. It's freeing somehow.
Yes! I totally agree! I can tell a big
difference in my week if I exercise at least once and not exercising at all. I try not to beat myself up over it when I don't have the chance to exercise, but it's SO important for your mental health to get something in. 30 minutes of cardio within a 7 day period is all it takes.
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I used to buy weed from a telegram group and it was so cash, they delivered to you, it was great. They closed shop for some undisclosed reason some time ago so I went looking for another group (there's tons here). Well, I got scammed out of 25 euro. I feel so dumb now… Guess it's back to buying from random people at the park for me…
It would only haunt you.
When I started using lolcow I had no idea mods can see our entire post history in one place so I must have confessed very private things, even now I still shitpost too much. It's good I'll never be important enough that journalists would look into my anonymous posts on a gossip board.
This used to bother me, but then I remember that to moderate a site like this, you have to be sort of autistic yourself. Plus, if I ever become an important person, I plan to lie my ass off about my internet history.
If it really haunts you, just poison the waters and bend the truth about personal shit to destroy any real life connection to yourself. Switch genders, locations, and intricacies of situations. Posting from the perspective of another person helps, too.
If you really need to vent about something, and you're that paranoid about it being linked back to you, come back in the next few days or weeks and post some stupid bullshit scenario or anecdote that has nothing to do with your life.
I get the feeling! Sometimes I try to post it anyway. I do it in hopes that it might make them feel a little bit better too. Who knows? They could've been someone who said something nice to me when I needed it.
It's really dumb and optimistic thinking, but the world already sucks and a lot of parts of this board are already filled with vitriol, so even a bit of hope and optimism doesn't really hurt.
I missed out on black friday sales for climbing gear, so I might finally buy myself a harness. Or maybe I'll pay a 3rd party to buy me stuff from that 24-jikan pokemon line, all of the items are so god damn cute.
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I'm leaning towards this, it's literally called "grandpa" set.
Climbing sounds like a fun hobby!
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Got to ep 17 of the Untamed and bitch I’m big mad. The lvl of anime villainy is too advanced. Also, imagine my disappointment to find out that the main characters are of course cringy boy idols. I’ll just pretend to not know this.
Really liked the manhua so I was excited for it but as soon as i saw the cast I lost interest. I even watched a few episodes but the acting and the dialogues (like in most cdramas) were sooo bad.
Wang yibo was a big fat miscast.
It's pretty obvious that their main priority was to please thirsty fans.
Anon those are soooooo pretty!!! I'm a fucking sucker for cute mugs and cups and tea sets. I got a teacup that looks like the ones in the back of your pic, but it has a cute floral pattern on it and is white and pink. It's my favorite cup, but it just sucks that I drink so much tea and I have to use a plain huge cup just to get my fill lol.
I only started a few months ago but it really has been fun! A lot of physical and mental challenges to overcome every time I go, but I really look forward to going every week!
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I have this really cute idea in my head for Christmas gifts to give each of my roommates and I'm so excited to make them. I wanna make little personalized drawings related to their hobbies (plus throw in a little chocolate cause who doesn't love free candy?) I'm normally a grinch who doesn't really care for the holidays but I know they're gonna love it and I'm so excited to see it happen. Only thing is that I'm kinda insecure and overly perfectionist about my art so I'm hoping that I'll be able to make something I can proudly give to them. I can't wait though, neither of them even know that I can draw so they're gonna shit their pants.
I found Yibo cute ngl kek Not that he's a good actor or anything, he only has to make like 2 whole expressions after all. Knowing they're idols and this is essential an idol show just ruins my fantasy. They seem bland and fake to me now.
Where can I read the manhua anon? I read half of the novel and I thought the anime was crap.
The gym is a lot more boring and depressing than ring fit adventure.
Bouldering is a lot more fun, or dancing, or anything other than the bloody gym.
I had my hard boiled egg and I'm happy.>>491432
F. Would it be that bad if you had one sometimes?
I moved from a small town where I knew loads of people to a bigger town to be with a man, and did that classic thing of putting him first and not keeping up properly with my friends. I know, I hate myself too
now he's dumped me and I regret every choice I ever made lol
at the moment tho I'm glad all my friends are hundreds of miles away. I can sit in my flat like a hermit and wallow in sadness
He is cute but he can't act even if his life depended on it, unfortunately.
It's still ongoing but a good proportion has been translated: https://mangarock.com/manga/mrs-serie-100173630
>>491685>Just two years later, I'm baffled when people say they have no friends.
out of all people! if you've been in these shoes, how did you forget how they fit so soon? all Chad's are the same kek
on a serious note, hope my luck turns around but I just don't see it happening. my count of opportunities is going down and will flat line in 6 months when I graduate uni. after that I'll need to slave away fulltime at my job that's only 45+ aged people to afford masters (2 years for sure). I'm predicting descent into actual insanity, I'm struggling as is.
A lot of shit has happened in two years. I was on the verge of dropping out of college but I got my shit together and turned things around. I've been on so many adventures since then. Not all of them great, haha.
But my luck was that I reconnected with an old friend from high school. They didn't end up going to grad school like they had planned, and lived at home and visited me pretty frequently. Then they were tired of living at home, so we were roommates for a couple of months. Long story short, that put me back in the mindset of being able to do college and make new friends. It also made me sperg out less. That's why I say that luck is so important, because I don't think friendless people have worse social skills than me or are weirder.
lmao you're indeed really immature as fuck
god have mercy on your kids
** hypothetical/future kids
just for you, sperg
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JK Rowlings other novels really are something
This reads like some bizzare porn fiction ebook from amazon…
Is it from the Casual Vacancy or one of the Cormoran Strike novels?
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Why are there suddenly so many cowtippers? Why do anons like cowtipping? It ruins all the fun. Also cows find their threads so easily these days, are they constantly looking themselves up or is someone telling them about it? (or are they secretly farmers?)
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There’s absolutely no reason why I should like this dumbass yet somehow I fucking do how do you even get over someone you know you shouldn’t like.
I even find him physically attractive etc is wrong with me
some of the most notorious cows have been caught farming (see Kiki, Dasha) so I 100% believe even if they're not posting they're at least lurking.
even lower levels like Kelly's FOTR crew have been caught on here, it's not that big of a stretch to just assume.
as for cowtippers, some of them aren't even farmers I don't think? sometimes it's hard to tell. newfags for sure though
I used to be very into a girl who could be compared to the female version of a neckbeard/incel, and on top of that she wasn't even cute, I've been there.
How did I get over her? By slowly realizing how bad she was, by having my friends remind me how I could do infinitely better that that
, by keeping my mind busy and by getting on a dating app and start talking to other girls who were way cuter and nicer and not constantly toxic
and negative like her.
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I am really this fucking awkward?
I am really this incompetent when it comes to being social?
Today I sold a backpack on marketplace for $12,man was waiting for me,walked 20 minutes,arrives at plaza,waits 20 more minutes for this man to appear,man has a daughter,they like the backpack I have,he notices my weird Spanish accent,I tell him I'm from another city/department,he says that's not how said person sounds like from said department/city,my simple response was that Spanish isn't my first language,I even spoke so quickly in Spanish that I swore it almost sounded like gibberish,when they are both satisfied and when the man proceeded to give me the money,I say Merry Christmas,when it's not even Christmas yet even though there was this huge fucking Christmas tree next to us,fuck how embarrassing
Nta but this argument is kinda weak since there is so much shit
floating around. There's more than enough to go around, and more is being produced every second of every day.
What I find cute, most people might not. And odds are that those things are also hard to find, especially if you live in the middle of nowhere or a country where these things aren't really popular, so online shopping is the only option really.
Sure, most thrifted items are fugly XXL 80s deceased grandmother garb but you can find lots of nice items and some people are just too busy to thrift regularly as well.
They just naturally attract angst like crazy, their lives are too sad to avoid it.
There is lighthearted stuff though, just filter ao3 to exclude the angst tag and include fluff or humour or something.
it's fucking dried non-fat creamer. that's how not
milk their shit is. i don't get why people are so engrossed in those two. like, yeah, the mother is unhinged, but there are literally so many moms who are delusional about their kids that just spam twitter or whatever all day. yawn.