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No. 2548671
A thread for venting about difficult, weird, or stupid stuff going on in your life.
Previous vent thread:
>>>/ot/2537677Follow all the /ot/ board rules & do not reply to bait.
Please, do not come to this thread to make fun of anons' vents, to demean them, or to try and be funny with some shit snark reply. It's annoying. If you do not have anything nice to say, don't say it at all.
No. 2548709
>>2548704I’m hoping for you too! If nothing else seeing your post has motivated me. I’ve been a NEET for years too but want to finally get a job… and I haven’t lived normally my entire life due to shit mental health RNG. I just wanna finally be normal and do stuff and see friends. I still don’t know how I’m going to cope moving out on my own especially since I won’t be anywhere near family which is embarrassing and childish I know… I honestly think I’ll end up being paranoid. I don’t understand how people live on their own.
Also kek I just started my period yesterday too, can’t say I’ve been productive though.
No. 2548744
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>>2548721you shouldn't judge, moids gets their gender euphoria from taking the pregnant women seats, it's the little things…
No. 2548951
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>>2548950They all seem like cockroaches to me
No. 2548981
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>doesn't talk to people irl
>talks to myself in english
>uses socmed in english
>writes diary in english, even translating conversations from my native tongue
>forgets how to communicate in my native language
I need to start talking to people again I'm genuinely concerned about my loss of brain capacity since covid
No. 2549005
>>2548965>Where did all the people who used PULL and other gossip websites go to?For the most part people just aged out of it I think, once you have a job and a family spending that amount of time online just kind of stops being a thing. Most compulsive Internet users above a certain age are either full-time influencer media types or autismo neets. Internet users are far more passive and less participatory now, probably in part because the larger user counts make your participation feel like screaming into a void rather than interacting with a small clique of weirdos.
Other than that, the Internet going fully mainstream and moving far more in the direction of people posting and participating under their real names probably killed a lot of the old spontaneity and fun. When it was niche and seen as irrelevant by society at large it was a lot easier to relax and have fun, nothing you said on the Internet ever really felt like it could be used against you in real life.
I miss the old days too but times change and in the end it's probably best to move on.
No. 2549032
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Anyone else feel like they'll just mean to be an embarassing retard no matter what? Like I feel like I'm a professional bullying victim, I have pretty much all the traits that a bully would look for in a victim if that makes sense and no matter how hard I try they're always there. I feel like I'm also retarded in a lot of ways sp I feel alone in my thoughts and opinions and every time I try to publicly articulate my options I just get dunked on and I feel very stupid and lonely, like no matter what side I'm on I'll always embarass myself no matter what. I just wish I wasn't so embarrassing, my actions are embarrassing and the things I like are also embarrassing and would get me mocked on here and pretty much everywhere else. Even if I woke up the next day and started being cool and not embarrassing the fact that I've been embarrassing for so long is even more embarrassing.
No. 2549107
>>2548981If I want to read a book in my native language, I'd rather read an english translation of it. When learning a new language or studying, I use english resources.
I also studied in a French school my whole life and it's supposed to be my 2nd language, but my french is nowhere near as good as my english. I learned most of it from the internet, games, and tv.
No. 2549112
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I'm turning 30 in a month and it suck to realise that I've never genuinely never had a friend or was loved.
When I was in school I was bullied so no one wanted to be my friend so they don't become a target and my only ex liked me only for the vision me he had. I never found a person who would be genuinely interested in me as a person and wanted to be at least a friend, they either lost interest or wanted to use me for trauma dumping.
I know life isn't over, but I'm so tired of having to rely on anonymous places online to vent and having no one to talk to and having to drag my ass through everything alone.
No. 2549127
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ouch my period ouch ouch oooh ah ow ow ow ow ow ow owww owwwwwwwww ow ow ouch ow
No. 2549182
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I spent 2 hours trying to convert a PDF in my retarded language to a txt file and didn't succeed. I was going to buy a kindle for my mom's birthday and put books in our language on it but seems like it is impossible. I don't know if I'm more mad or disappointed. She saw me using my kindle and she really liked to have one too. I wish I could find a way, she would've been so happy.
No. 2549211
>>2549194I use calibere for converting English books easily but it can't convert books in my language because it only supports left-to-right texts (or at least doesn't support my language).
>>2549197Kindle supports PDF but that doesn't help because I can't change the font size on a PDF and my mom is old and has poor eyesight.
No. 2549226
>>2549225samefag
But I wanna lose weight
No. 2549260
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>start the gym
>happy, have fun
>fall, hurt my hand
>have to drop out a week later
Why am i so unlucky holy shit, i just wanted to lose weight.
No. 2549261
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>watch video of female athletes on the catwalk for sports illustrated
>they all look great, healthy and strong
>check the comments expecting like 90% of women to be very happy about seeing healthy natural bodies for once
>most of the comments from women are them insulting the athlete's appearance or the way they walk
Women will never be free.
No. 2549268
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>>2549262I am having this nonnas, they are so good
No. 2549300
>>2549278I just thought
nonnie was a joking. How can you be anti-nigel but have one who sends you nice letters in the mail kek?
No. 2549302
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>>2549278nta but im gatekeeping you harder right now
No. 2549305
>>2549304Yes. She would always start shit and didnt believe in me having privacy or the right to say no so it would always end in shouting and arguments. I moved out in 2020 and have only seen her once since. I hope you can find a way to move out and get some peace in your life
nonnie.
No. 2549311
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>>2549306>attacksShe sounds like a retard , that’s all. Shitting in the same plate you willingly eat is just funny.
No. 2549417
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I hate how people misinterpret this poem, just like they misinterpret the “I love the way men love poem”. This isn’t a mother telling her children that they can make the world a beautiful place, it’s a mother trying to sell the world to her children like a sneaky realtor would. She feels guilt about the horrible things she is hiding from them.
No. 2549421
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My parents would beat the shit out of me every time I refused to finish my food and now that there's food in front of me I have to finish it no matter what and It's killing me anons
No. 2549444
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was supposed to have a phone interview with a place i wouldve really liked to work. they never called. i called them and left a voicemail and nobody's responded. at what point do i just stop applying to jobs and walk into traffic
No. 2549527
My job is so fucking frustrating y'all. I made the absolutely unforgivably retarded mistake of taking on a "WOMEN CAN HANG IN BLUE COLLAR/MALE DOMINATED/LABOR INTENSIVE INDUSTRIES AND I WILL PROVE IT IF IT KILLS ME" mindset and now look, fucking pikachu face that it's killing me. The way they rely on my hard-ass work but REFUSE to legitimately acknowledge me for it, or acknowledge that the entire operation is fucked without that hard work seeps into every moment, every interaction. They LITERALLY cannot handle how they feel about me- they are biologically attracted to me (mid-looking but big tits and only female in the building so they can't control themselves) so they want to have a good rapport with me but the fact that I work circles around them and have better ideas for management of both labor and people just scrambles their simple little minds. I'm completely aware of this and went into this whole stupid fucking career with methods and plans and a mindset of how I need to treat them- don't overstep, don't make them uncomfortable, do not let them interact romantically, do not give them an opportunity to undercut my intelligence or quantify my actions as hormonal. Somehow, though, it ALWAYS comes back to bite me. Every situation, no matter how I approach it, somehow twists its way back to fucked up. And yknow what? Fuck it I'm gonna go on a schizo rant here hold up
No. 2549560
>>2549527So I'm speaking about the cannabis industry. Here's the thing about weed nonas. Only female plants flower, and those flowers are what we dry and smoke. You may have noticed since it's been legalized that THC percentages are getting higher and higher, weed's getting more and more purple and sparkly. You know how we're making that happen? Stressing the plant out. Meticulously editing all factors, environmental or otherwise, to get an end result of the most concentrated, potent version of the FLOWER, the PRODUCT, of feminine energy. For all intents and purposes, this is a pure concentration of female essence, female work- the entire structure of cannabis as we have manipulated it to be relies on the over-production of what ONLY A FEMALE CAN CREATE. The more she gives, the more we desperately try to squeeze out of her. She works tirelessly, we stress her out, she adapts to those stresses and in response her output IMPROVES. You stress her out and she gives you MORE. For what? What does this boiled-down essence of female stress and work and success bring to you? I know weed makes a lot of people anxious ( more women than men -_____- of course ) but the ideal experience is that of total relaxation and openness. Creativity. Breakdown of inhibition. Comfort in your own skin.
Unfortunately weed has become a reflection of how society treats women anyways. If you can't provide the perfectly balanced female essence and all the good that comes with it, you're discarded. If you can, it's harvested, then you're discarded. No one says thank you. They give themselves the credit for providing the "correct" stressors.
No. 2549611
>>2549527Hey ops nonna, was about to come post about my demoralizing,
toxic male director once again having another thankless shitfit at me tonight. I hate that this is such a commom experience for us. I am so overwhelmed and overworked that I am to the point that I hope some awful shit happens to me so that there's an excuse to not carry on at this shitty job anymore.
>pos director takes on a post-construction contract at one of my several accounts and hands it to me>he put in job reqs late, we have no staff and are being asked to begin work>meaning in addition to managerial duties for other accounts, I now have to be at this one for 8 hours on 2nd shift performing manual labor>12-14 hour day indefinitely–and of course I am salaried>oh and one of the other accounts just had a three person walkout because they did not want to do their basic job expectations under the new customer leadership that does not curry to paying them to sit out in their vehicles and steal time>I come prepared to work and the client commends me for it even though I would have to pass qualifications and training documents first>obviously customers are wanting the staff they are paying for>I need to urgently hire but have been ignored by recruitment HR in the past>try to be proactive and monitor application resumes, politely reach out to HR about which I am interested in interviewing>HR dispatches resumes on shoddy reasons >I call my director to talk about it>he accuses me of "not wanting to do the work," as I stood four hours into the manual labor job>says that I am only wanting to hire so I won't have to service sites myself (uh………….?)>he claimed I was "overstepping" and taking HR's job for suggesting people and not just letting them schedule whoever when they have proven to recommend shitty people in the past who did not work out>and when these employees don't work out I am blamed for "bad hiring">director says if I wanna hire someone then just tell HR I wanna hire them>but apparently, if I want to interview them first="overstepping"He makes zero sense, and I hate how he is grossly mischaracterizing my want to hire as implying I am lazy or something even though I work RIDICULOUS hours lately.
And furthermore, he is being retarded. NO SALARIED MANAGER WANTS TO WORK A FULL ON EMPLOYEE JOB WHILE ALSO BEING EXPECTED TO UPHOLD THE DUTIES AND HOURS OF THEIR OWN ROLES.
Convinced this is only happening because I am a woman and I dared to complain and do something about the situation.
He cosplayed as my "mentor" for the longest time but now I am actually seeing him as a dog who wants to throw me into these unprofessional, meat grinder situations and doesn't wanna hear any shit about what that does to me except for the good news.
I hate him. Looking for new work asap. Four years in this company down the drain.
No. 2549653
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I hate bf's toxic narc "friends" so god damn much.
>they're asking him to work on their dumb personal crafts for gaming bc bf is talented
>of course they are not paying him for any of the labor
>bf is up early for job that he just got promoted at
>adding additional night hours to work unpaid for narc friends is not helping
>most of them are un/underemployed so they don't know what it's like
>he comes home hyperventilated and upset, says they were weaponizing their incompetence when he was trying to show them how to make the stuff
>head honcho narc who orchestrated the whole grift no where to be found except with his handles and whores in a different room the whole time
>cannot blame bf for not wanting to deal with narc meltdown he'd face if he said no more
>I play bad guy
>call head honcho narc
>explain how bf came home very upset and stretched thin tonight
>and that he can maybe dedicate one more hour after work tomorrow to show them how to attach handles but that is it
>(and that is far more than fucking generous!)
>narc acts entitled to his time
>claims it's his job that pays his bills that he just got promoted to a leadership position that's the issue
>blames me for taking him out to do stuff over the weekend
>it's everyone else's fault and not narc friend's
>"Weh well after tomorrow I won't ever ask him to do anything again!"
Gee, how convenient for you to discard him after you got what you wanted out of him. Fucking piece of work smelly douche faggot.
No. 2549813
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i honestly hate my useless idiot moid boyfriend who i'm about to leave. i hate insecure and entitled moids so much.
I got into this relationship 5 years ago when i was super mentally unwell and a NEET. I was at a really low point in life, and then came COVID and a few profoundly traumatic events in my life. last year i decided to stop being useless and re-enrolled back into uni, got a job, through my job i ended up scoring some amazing opportunities and i'm now really well known in my town/community for my work.
I can tell that my boyfriend truely doesn't give a shit and barely outwardly tolerates me because of it.
i didn't think this had anything to do with me until we recently had a fight and he had a massive go at me for, god forbid, "always fucking chatting to someone." he's reacted negatively when i've mentioned out in public when i know someone, he refuses to tell his family about my achievements and then lies to my face that he did, even though his family are interested in my life, he will shut them out unless i say it to them myself.
I don't boast or brag about it, i'm not special nor is anything about this profound, it's just my job and my studies.
Any reaction to my success seems completely forced, or it's just barely scraping past apathy. He's upset that i have good things in my life, and he reacts pretty normally to anything else in my life, just not the good things. I've attempted to get him involved in what i do, he always has excuses and refuses to even look into it.
i don't get it. there's no point in being jealous and petulant and then making no effort to even try to do good for yourself. do you think you deserve the fruits of someone's labor for doing nothing? why do moids think we need to celebrate them and love them for being utterly mediocre? it's embarrassing and unattractive.
i worked extremely hard to be where i am and i didn't do it for admiration or some stupid entitlement towards being celebrated.
it reminds me of all of this stupid manosphere shit where men think women are worshipped for being women, and then turn around, do fuck all, act hateful and unlikeable, are entitled, can't hold good conversation, contribute nothing meaningful, and then scream and cry because "muh society doesn't value me!!!!!" DO SOMETHING VALUABLE.
No. 2549817
I hate my life. The only thing i wanted was to draw, but noo i had to be born in a shitty dysfunctional poor family. I have a hand injury and i cannot treat it because i have no money, i talked to my family to lend me money and they are all cheap assholes and refuse to lend me money for treatment. I am losing strenght in my hands i keep dropping forks, glasses, my phone. No one cares, no one gives a shit. I hate it, i hate it so much. I have so many health problems and no money, no insurance, no support. Everyone ''cares'' about you when it doesnt require money, once they have to sacrifice themselves for you then they dont give a shit. I am so tired, i want to kill myself. I just cannot think of any other escape from this shitty life, death is the only solution. Everything keeps getting worse. I tried everything to get out of this shithole, out of this family and nothing worked, i am completly useless. I just want to be free. I feel so lonely.
No. 2549836
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Why is having a big butt so embarrassing? I hate how it just has to stick no matter what I put.
I think that if people would be less weird about big butts then I wouldn’t feel like this, even women make comments about it, so many of my friends slap it unprompted too or cup it, it’s so humiliating.
I’m not even balanced because I just have ass and the fact that I’m not fat makes it even more pronounced, when I lose weight it’s still there too, I can’t do nothing about it. I wish I had a flatter ass. I know this vent seems retarded as hell so feel free to call me that kek.
No. 2549849
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A guy that I messaged and I wanted to be in a relationship with. I was at his house and he kept touching me. I told him that I'd like to move in together with him and am expecting commitment. He told me that "we don't know each other enough". Some chick with BPD that I had tangents with and we fought. Messaged him and they immediately moved in together and they're dating. They keep posting pictures together. I forgot some of my clothes at his house and she's wearing my clothes. I love being alive.
No. 2549899
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Tiktok is the worst app
No. 2550056
>>2549260You can't walk on the treadmill without your hand?
>>2549421if you can control the portions then make yourself a small portion (get yourself a plate or bowl that is a good size for that!)
Damn a lot of nonas struggle with losing weight atm
No. 2550061
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A really nice discord server I'm in died and I'm sad about it.
No. 2550079
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>disclose to acquaintances that I'm planning on getting a divorce
>noooo you guys are so cute together I like you guys together?
Like? Are you retarded? Oh my bad the emotional neglect and OF thots on his phone are negated by the fact we look "cute together". Thank you for your enlightening revelation when you have no idea all I've gone through for 10 years. I will immediately postpone the divorce since it ruins the fantasy we've built up due to the fact he has catastrophic meltdowns if I seek advice or tell anyone about our issues because it "makes him look bad" and "we should fix it on our own."
No please ask me if I've considered marriage counseling or "told him how I felt" like no fucking shit? Deadass? I'm almost 30 and I've never even entertained the thought of telling my supposed life partner how I feel, thank you so much for the life-changing advice I've never ever ever attempted or thought of before. You are so wise! Perhaps consider quitting your job to be a monk in the mountains, spending eons writing ancient scrolls of wisdom? Since you are so fucking smart?
Holy fuck I hate peoples reactions to my divorce. Fucking retards. I have begged, pleaded, and sobbed for 10 years of my life for a breath of care only to be denied and deluded every time. Literally walk into a pit of spikes for whining about how much you like us together because you have no idea what it's like. Fuck you and fuck off
No. 2550130
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>>2550122It's just ending, and I can't ask for more months because I already renewed it for 2 years
No. 2550131
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I'm going to sound unhinged but I do not care anymore.
I cannot take this pituca seriously. She's parading around like she's some kind of literary titan when there is NO real evidence that anyone outside her friend group and some 14 yo girls has actually read her books. No fandom. No discourse. No TikTok edits. No memes. No one quoting her. No fanart. No reviews. Not even hate. Zero, zilch, nada. and yet she’s out here booking interviews and getting invited to cons like she’s singlehandedly reviving fantasy fiction in Peru.
Her books are “bestsellers” in a country where 50% of the population is working informal jobs and no one has money to buy books unless they’re school-required. This isn’t the American publishing industry where hitting a list means clawing past 500+ other releases a month. This is a post-colonial, underfunded, culture-deprived market where the top rated show its a gaudy soft-core porno toutedas "entertainment for the whole family" where B-list young celebs do Squid games type of challenges in skimpy clothing. she has literally zero competition and still needs to buy her way to the top.
You can TASTE the money behind it. the grating pituco accent its basically just a mushmouthed Coastal Spanish if you ae curious, Beauty Queen mom and rich dddy, PR team, sponsored features in magazines no one reads, vanity metrics, the works. Everything is pre-paid. Everything is an illusion. And she’s just coasting on it like she’s earned something. Like she built it herself. Girl you wouldn’t last a week in an actual market.
>“uno de los best seller más populares de la literatura juvenil internacional”
Are you FUCKING KIDDING me?? WHERE? On what planet?? In what timeline?? This book has the same international impact as a wet napkin. There is literally ZERO trace of it in any English-speaking YA circles—no BookTube, no Goodreads chatter, no lists, no fanbase, no even mild curiosity. You dropped a Penguin English edition into the void and no one even blinked.
This Brand of White criollas are infamous here because they are racist as fuck and it takes them getting wasted in Miraflores to start dropping slurs at waiters or security like it’s second nature. The mask always slips eventually, i hope she does.
No. 2550137
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>>2550131i don't get it at all but i'm dialed in on the Peruvian fraud author milk
No. 2550144
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>>2550137I wonder if this is a Handbook for Mortals like situation minus the self-insert angle (replaced with a blatant fujo pandering though) where the author and her close circle buy books in bulk to make up for the illusion of organic sales
No. 2550160
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>>2550147did you not suffer enough nonna? Maybe it's time to realize that you're stuck.
No. 2550199
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aaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH
No. 2550332
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im in between jobs at the moment and wont get paid for another month or so (with the exception of a paycheck for $35 KEK). i won't starve or anything but money is going to be tight for a bit. just sucks
No. 2550432
>>2550420I dreamed I pretended to have a whole week of night shifts and randomly showed up to your grandma's house and you were kind of upset that I had ignored you and suddenly popped up for a vacation but also kind of happy
first time I dreamed of you in a while
thoughts?
No. 2550461
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>>2550437your kid is going to be so fucked up
No. 2550484
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My dad was walking around the house naked, I'm killing myself.
No. 2550512
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Everyone is so hostile at the most innocent posts lately. Has the userbase changed this much or is it summerfags? I'm constantly seeing posts saying so and so isn't enough, like someone says they hate men then they get some angry reply about how they don't really hate men followed by some dumb argument. Why is everything suddenly a competition?
No. 2550534
>>2550437>opsi daisy my daughter saw me and her father having sex teheheheThe way you are downplaying it is so gross. Many parents are like you, which is why many kids are fucked up at the end of the day and become fucked up adults.
If I could make it possible only 1% of people should have kids.
No. 2550541
>>2550540it was an accident, she saw 20 seconds of it, she's laughing about it
it's not like they sat her in front of a hardcore porno
it's literally no big deal
No. 2550546
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Retards like you taint everything with sex, it’s fucking disgusting.
It’s just sex, sex, sex, sex in this goddamn world. From ads, Tv, college, work, it always has to be insterted. Makes me sick.
Even a child can’t retain their poor innocence without some retard tainting it with their dirty hands. It’s a grooming sickness imposed on us from the very first time we gain consciousness.
Makes me sick.
No. 2550571
>>2550558Sounds like insecurity and a chronic fear of rejection. She drops hints hoping you'll bite and interprets any time you don't as you not being interested.
I wouldn't take it personally or overanalyze it, in her mond she's probably being polite.
No. 2550575
>>2550541It’s the fact that she was so teehee whoopsy daisy about it for me. Bet the nigel thinks it’s funny too. I guess my post
>>2550496 was right, you guys are the same, god I hate the fact I share a site with anons like these, so nasty. You’re not even my nonas anymore, just my anons.
No. 2550579
>>2550572I am just fed up with it. Go out with your friends, look the world around you, open the tv you’ll see sex at least twice. I am fed up.
>watch a tv showBAM! Useless long scene of two actors banging , front row of the woman’s breast and her face or the hairy ass of the scrotes.
>TV adWeird innuendo
>out with friends The topic always fucking comes up
It’s boring, redundant. I have tried having sex and honestly it isn’t even all that, at least not so much that it has to control the world.
No. 2550580
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>>2550575>Bet the Nigel thinks it's funny tooI don't know if saying this makes me a bad/deranged person or whatever, but all men are pedos or at least pedo adjacent, so probably.
No. 2550588
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exactly one year ago my cognition started declining and i have way less thoughts and more ocd. ive done so many tests and appointments and all i gave gotten back is very minor sleep apnea and some bloodwork issues that have been corrected. my sleep is also much better so wtf? should i go to the ER for some brain scan?!
No. 2550589
>>2550583Exactly. I hope the daughter doesn’t go to kindergarten and starts imitating what she saw . CSA between children literally starts like that.
Adults should be weary of exposing children to these type of content. Once it’s a mistake, but don’t let it happen again.
It doesn’t take erculean force to lock the door and keep it in the bedroom since you have a wandering toddler.
No. 2550592
>>2550583I'm not even saying this to be a bitch, but I hope the OP keeps an eye on her kid from now on because that's…concerning behaviour. It's in the area of plausible deniability where it
could just be imitating this one thing she's seen, but statistics don't lie, there's always a chance. Inb4 this whole thing turns out to be some troon's fanfiction.
No. 2550600
>>2550597>ayrt yeah i questioning if it was bait from some tranny at first tooI feel like it's bait. I know Nigelfags are retarded but surely even
they would realise what kind of responses they'd get in response to this story kek
No. 2550601
>>2550597You’d be surprised at how many parents are brazen about showcasing their sexual life to children.
I once found out my dad’s affair through his phone, safe to say that I don’t speak to him anymore. I feel gross when I see him, I can’t take him seriously.
No. 2550635
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lol a moid got triggered by me
No. 2550718
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Down so bad i am unironically watching findom vids hoping i can grift degen moids. I cant find a job, i am too retarded and disabled to find one. I struggle talking to people, i have mental and physical disabilities. I live in a shithole so i dont even get tardbucks, i am just a waste of oxygen. I haved signed onto every scummy survey and ai trainer that pays pennies just to make something. I am currently trying to catfish on some cringe site where you can rent an e-girl. If someone asked me to spread my ass cheeks for 5$ i would do it asap. I hate my life, this isnt living. This is hell. I just want a family that loves and supports me and health, i dont ask for much. If this doesnt work out i am just going to hang myself, i have enough for rope at least. I love life but i hate my life, and i was born with all the odds against me so my life will never amount to anything, it will always be painful and lonely.
No. 2550773
>>2550765 samefagging I didnt scroll up but I'm glad someone noticed it too
>>2550512Even in this thread its bad looking at some of the posts. Ugh…
No. 2550786
>>2550778yeah during the vpn years, not even recently there were fights in these threads that lasted much longer (like nearly an entire day, and at times continuing in the next vent thread) and sometimes anons were weirdly hostile towards assault
victims. it's surprisingly less shitty now despite still being shit
No. 2550788
>>2550550This was intentional narcissistic voyeurism, she doesn’t care about her daughter. She immediately followed by feeling embarrassed about what her relatives would think if her freshly traumatized daughter started humping them like a child stripper
As always the wrong people are reproducing and flaunting it. Eugenics soon I hope
No. 2550789
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Took a break from my project today because I'm sick. Now I really wanna work on it even though I shouldn't be, because I'll find myself working on it for 5+ straight with no breaks like the manic retard that I am.
No. 2550808
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Saw the title of this, was intrigued, now feel like we just got hit with a third wave of anime video cringe along with the "I spent 9 years ranking every anime" watchmojo scrote and the "dark truth behind gothic anime angel" pedo apologist.
>scrote voice (he has "they/them" pronouns on his bluesky profile, and this is a video about yurishit, so he's probably a soon-to-be troon)
>melodramatic timewasting editing style
>can't pronounce "similarly" without whining bc he has tranny mushmouth
>UUUUU BUT THEY WERE GIRLS IN LOVE HOW COULD THEY RUIN IT LIKE THIS??
I could not get through the first five minutes of his whining bullshit before just looking up the manga myself to see if it's even worth all the hullabaloo, and wow. No it isn't lmao.
>manga author has never posted their face and might be using a pen name, very likely a man
>le generic first day of high school setting
>whole premise is around a love at first sight trope between the MC and her crush before pulling a bait and switch
>manga immediately opens to the MC being physically affectionate to a longtime friend that we, the viewer, have only seen for just seconds, feeling like it's pandering to touch-starved scrotes
>whole thing reeks of parasocial bullshit and their interactions don't feel organic in any way
Idk but the part where the MC just starts lovebombing her love crush and then darts off before we can even see the crush's reaction creeped me out a lot, especially when it's followed up by her friend abusing gossip to tell the MC personal info about her crush. Then the next scene is MC just shouting at her crush by her name, which the crush hasn't even told her yet. It's just so creepy and icky. And yet all is forgiven because the crush just inexplicably "fell in love at first sight" too, but the gimmick is the MC is an airhead and just means she's a fan but the crush somehow wants a romance with the obsessive fangirl. It's just so uncomfortable and feels like it's a fantasy made for repressed gooners. I don't like the groomer vibes of the MC and I think it's purely male fantasy, especially the part where the MC gushed about how the crush is taller and then pouting when her friend mentioned how short the MC was. That felt so male it was sickening. I can't get over how disingenuous and cringey that stupid bullshit is. Yurigooners truly do not value real women's feelings, only their own. And only the feelings of pickmes that validate their worldview. It makes me hope they suffer more, they deserve it.
No. 2551007
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There's an anime convention happening on Saturday and I have been waffling on buying a ticket. It has a lot of really fun things and events in its program page. It even has a maid cafe which I am actually tempted to spring out some extra cash to attend. I want to go and meet some women, maybe even score. However, I feel really insecure about my current state in life that I almost don't want to go. I am 21 yet I'm still in college, I don't have a job (I only managed to scrape up enough cash for the convention and maid cafe from commission work.), and I don't even have a car so I'm going to be dropped off and picked up. I didn't have enough money for a hotel room so I can't even attend the late night dance party event which looks really really fun. I guess I'm worried about the hangups and lacking tied to my independence and level of "adulthood" that I fear would put off any potential connections I could make. It's not like I'm stagnating, I am doing well in my studies, I am going to get my driver's license before fall and I have worked before and plan to work again once I get my driver's license but it's those things I'm lacking in now which makes me not want to go in the first place. I mean, what woman would want to connect much-less date another woman who as accomplished so little. What should I do? Anyone else relate?
No. 2551101
>>2551007Anon you are going to an anime convention. 50% of people there live in their mom's basement and only shower once a month. And all of this
>I am 21 yet I'm still in college, I don't have a job (I only managed to scrape up enough cash for the convention and maid cafe from commission work.), and I don't even have a car so I'm going to be dropped off and picked upis completely normal for your age, not to mention that doing commission work IS having a job.
No. 2551127
>>2551007Honestly nona you’re doing just fine, if you’re ‘failing’ I’d hate to know what I am kek. Being in college at 21 is normal, and most people consider being in college a
valid reason to be unemployed. If you think it’ll be fun then go. Unless you’re really hung up on not going to the after event, then maybe wait for another con with similar things. But I think you can enjoy it without that part
No. 2551274
>>2551264>>2551265Thank you, I will check that rule out and definitely let the apartment know that I'm not okay with it. I know they're allowed to come in in an emergency of course but really for a running toilet? I'm mad I feel like they have a vendetta against me because one time at like 3am one of them out of uniform knocked on the door and asked to see our bathroom because there was a leak somewhere. I said no sorry! because I was by myself and that freaked me the fuck out, and I went to my bathroom and kitchen sink real quick to look and nothing was amiss. A week later they came during the day to take a look, and they did and I asked "Everything look okay?" and they said yes. Then like two weeks later I get a claim submitted to my renter's insurance that my bidet (one of the cheap attachment ones) was the cause of the leak two floors down. I went to the office and asked them to look into this because how was that possible, they said everything was fine when they were there. Guess what after me coming there, the claim disappeared.
This scares me even more because if they do hate my unit then what did they do when they were in here? Like I'm super fucking upset and it's already happened and I'm trying to tell myself they don't give a fuck and just did their job but idk.
No. 2551290
>>2551007Girl you are doing well. Just have patience, enjoy your anime convention. You’ll get your car and you’ll get more money in the future.
21 is still super young and a normal age to be in college. Don’t stress darling.
No. 2551565
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I've had periods for almost 20 years now, WHY THE FUCK DO I STILL GET SURPRISED OVER THAT I GET INTO AN EXISTENSIAL CRISIS SPIRAL ONCE A MONTH
No. 2551582
>>2551565relatable
nonnie I start making suicide plans every month like my ass has amnesia every time I have my period
it doesn't even matter that I track it I fall for it every time
No. 2551607
>>2551582Honestly it makes me feel the dumb, emotional stereotype because I'm already unstable because of these dumbass hormones and then I turn into a crying mess as soon as something goes wrong. I've had times where I've even had to go home early from work because I need to crawl into fetal position and cry for a while because something didn't go as planned (usually pretty big things, so it's not like I have public breakdowns over cancelled dinnerplans).
Usually I don't really get this emotional and outwardly don't really seem affected by most things around me, but a few days before my period I turn into a blubbering mess because someone was mean to me or I saw a cute video of a baby penguin. So happy I've decided ever since I was a kid that I want to be child-free because I would be a nightmare pregnant.
No. 2551666
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>>2551653What a coincidence because I was just about to award you this year's cutest
nonnie award.
No. 2551854
I can never be at peace. Not even in my own house. My brother disgusts me he makes my skin crawl. Every time I think I'm alone or have a second of peace he appears like he fucking knows exactly when to show up and ruin it. He does it on purpose I fucking swear he does and then I'm the one who has to move, get out of the way, act polite like I'm the problem when he's always in my space always hovering always present I hate that it feels intentional because it probably is and no one ever says anything. And I can't say anything cause if I do I'm squeamish because we're not in talking terms. Oh and he lives here too. But he does it on purpose and I know it. The fucking prick. I am officially done. I don't want to deal with his mess anymore. I just had a fight with my mother. I feel sorry because she works so hard and she will end up being the one doing it. But I will not pick up his clothes because he doesn't do anything to deserve it. He can stay all day cooped up in his pig den and it's fine. When he is home he just washes his own cup over the pile of dirty dishes. Doesn't clean a thing, his room is a mess, he barely changes his sheets but always showers and cleans up just enough to go meet his girlfriend. Fucking disgusting. He doesn't deserve her she's so sweet, pretty and hardworking too. My mother acts like me and my sister and her dumb self are the resident maids. Fuck him. He's in his early 30s for fucks sake. I'm not a fucking maid and just because I'm not currently employed doesn't mean I have to do everything. He goes out for leisure and to shag his gf I only go out to pick up my niece. Can't he do something? He knows it's so hard getting home bathing her feeding her being with her until it's time to go to sleep. The clothes and dishes are in the sink did he do anything????? Naaah just washed his cup to drink more coffee and went back to his room. If he goes out for a weekend and comes back home with dirty clothes, his clothes are washed by my mother (she's picky with clothing separation so that's something that only she does) and if no one picks them up from the clothesline????? They might as well stay there forever. But they don't, because who does she bitch at if they're still there???? Me or my sister! And it's only his clothes there! Kek! Please kill me! I stopped cooking and going to the grocery already because they didn't even appreciate my food kek. Which is valid but what did my mother do? Bitch at me in the 1st few weeks. Bitch u and ur son said I can't cook, can't season food but always ate everything. Topkek. Why not bitch at ur fucking son? I can count on one hand the times that he cooked a meal for us. 3.
They were exactly 3, if I am not mistaken!Even my sister's food is never good enough, he survives on sandwiches and coffee but thinks he's ooooh soo healthy, little bitch can't eat a cream based sauce, but when it's pizza or burgers he will eat it just fine! And only soy milk and butter, even if it is more expensive, bro is on a health journey. But mother or sis have to buy it!!!! He can only afford his weeeeeed, ya see. Or who knows what he does with his money when he has some. Or how does he get weed. Whatever. Only cooks at his gfs house, she probably thinks he is such a catch. He lived with an ex gf before and did everything there, so it's not that he doesn't know. He just has no respect and takes advantage of my mother's misogyny. I wish I had my own bathroom so I would not have to scrub ours anymore maybe he'd start doing something and couldn't keep up with his clean appearance to the world kek. But he'd probably shower in the nastiness anyway. Fuck this baka house kek. Even if I get a job I can't move out alone. Oh and what is rest here. Don't know what's worse being employed or not. I'm so fucking tired of trying to fix my life while being stuck in this suffocating environment with no privacy no space no dignity. People wonder why I gave up on my dreams why I don't do anything anymore it's because I'm exhausted because no matter what I do I'm always brought back to this fucking hellhole.
No. 2551915
>>2551775Update: not sure if the same one but IT WAS IN MY FUCKING ROOM above, I failed to kill it and now it's crawling somewhere between my furniture,books and everything else I AM LOSING MY FUCKING MIND.
IF i had bought the spray today I could've gassed it out of existence.
I'm buying storage boxes tomorrow and putting every fucking thing inside sealed shut so there is nothing anywhere on the floor or sofas and placing those fucking gel traps everywhere.
The kitchen will be a warzone that shit always gets messy I fucking wish I had a maid jfc
>>2551863Do you really wanna see a pic of it because I took one after I stopped screaming and cursing
No. 2551964
I hate women's dormitories so fucking much. These walls are paper thin, you know they're paper thin and yet you still bring your pet scrote over at midnight and scream like you're being murdered. I just want to sleep.
You know exactly what you're doing and you're not fooling anyone, nobody is impressed that you can fuck a fat pipe fitter. Screaming like a tard in a skin flick so that your neighbors can hear you is a really pathetic flex.
If you can't keep your legs closed for a couple of weeks at least learn to keep your damn mouth shut while you're being gunted by a highschool dropout.
>>2551915NTA but… Show us the bug!
No. 2551983
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>>2551964>>2551919>>2551863Here's the bug. His friend was much bigger. Biggest bug I've ever seen.
Apparently it's a sewer/drain one that has low chances (?) of nesting in my home but i aint taking any risks, I'm going DEFCON 1 on this shit.
No. 2552007
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>mfw be in niche Chinese fandom
>so obscure there are only 11 fanfiction
>enjoy fanfiction written by Chinese writers
>suddenly see troonshit tags
>"must be a western faggot"
>she's a Chinese westabo (and from Beijing ofcourse)
>she's using terfs dni
I'm killing myself the troonshit has spread to my cozy niche asian fandoms.
No. 2552050
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why does everyone always doubt me? why can't i just share a goal of mine without someone talking down on it?
i'll show you i'm capable, i promise i'll prove you wrong
No. 2552063
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>therapist suggests me to do self checks on myself throughout the day to see what I'm feeling instead of just zoning out
>"okay lets how I'm feeling today"
>fear
>fear
>fear
No. 2552091
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My birthday is next week and I just feel really sad and lonely. My friends were supposed to come up but I don’t think they will, they’ve been ignoring me asking if they still intend on going. My heart hurts, I feel really lonely. Thankfully I have my boyfriend who is amazing and wonderful but I wish I had more friends. It’s not really possible if you’re a weird autistic freak like I am. I don’t even know why I bothered. I just want to cry, everything hurts and I wish I could be normal. Maybe I really am this unlikable and annoying no matter how much I try.
No. 2552106
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I think I'm going to have to give in to virtual dating to stop being single. I'm just way too much of a weird introvert to date in real life.
No. 2552159
i feel like a lot of women who tend to do unstable shit don't let themselves act crazy within. like, even just voice wise. i like to make silly voices all the time. i say dumb and retarded shit with my friends, but i just tend to have a stable life. i've had a lot my female friends tell me i'm one of the most stable women they have met, like it's rare for them (and me) to find another friend who doesn't have that One Ongoing Thing (ex. does poppers, BPD, does coke, alcoholic, severe eating disorder, casual sex) all these things are like issues that a lot of people would consider being a flaw in their value/character. I guess the only other way I can put it is these other female friends I have don't really give themselves a good outlet to express themselves. I don't know, maybe I just got handed a good card in life. I know there's a lot of other women who have a good sense of stability, I question how it's so hard to find that, especially online. Like, DUH it's online, but I'M online too, yknow?
No. 2552187
>>2552159I agree with what you're saying nona. I kinda hate those dickhead type people who always have to go to extreme lengths to blow off steam and make it everyone else's problem, when you can just release that stress in smaller and less harmful ways.
Like no, you actually don't have to do 15 lines of coke, cut your arms into shreds, purge for hours and bang your head off the wall. It's like those people who don't shit for a long time but then go into random bathroom stalls and suddenly projectile shit out 15 litres of diarrhea and just leave it there for someone else to clean up, instead of just shitting like a normal person. Some people are just overly dramatic assholes who need to make their problems into everyone else's problems too. Those people are prime lolcows.
No. 2552196
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i became asexual this year
No. 2552207
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returning to lc after fucking off to shitpost on altchans for several months, feeling like I returned to my beautiful wife after cheating on her with a cheap hooker
No. 2552210
>>2552207stupidest question ever but is shitposting fun?
>>2552199agreed, though I'm guessing that anon counts people that have prior failed relationships as "sluts" too.
No. 2552219
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>>2552210yeah, the strict rules here make it feel a little stale sometimes, but also make perfect sense for the purpose of the site
>>2552209>>2552215IM SORRY please take me back
No. 2552220
>>2552213I want to assume the woman in question has pure intentions, but tbh I think it would be pretty weird if a man was just about to get married and then suddenly started pining for his female childhood best friend and focusing more on her than his wife, and I would understand if the wife was pissed too
>bachelor partiesare trashy as hell but normie women also have that equivalent and hire male strippers, sometimes cheat if they feel like it etc
Normies are just weird and dysfunctional at relationships in general imo
No. 2552221
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>issue affects mostly men
Seen as a mens issue
>issue affects women and men about the same
Still seen a mens issue
>issue mostly affects women
Somehow still seen as a men's issue because "men who go through it get overlooked"
We truly live in a society
No. 2552269
>>2552225I often see PSA ads in public bathrooms about prostate cancer and getting checkups, because they know wives are responsible for managing their manchildren husband's doctors appointments.
I have a tangential vent I want to post actually. I was listening to a podcast with some fertility doctors who run IVF clinics, and they were talking about how the husbands are often super reluctant to give sperm samples for testing. So while their wives are going through frequent, invasive, even painful tests, taking supplements, cleaning up their diets, doing acupuncture in preparation for giving themselves injections, having surgery and going through pregnancy and childbirth, all the while shouldering the blame for whatever fertility issues they have, these fucking moids won't deign to JERK OFF INTO A CUP. They think they are above doing the bare minimum to just check if there's male factor infertility. God men are the worst.
No. 2552311
>>2552305if you ignore them, they will go away
stop replying to them, replying compels them to post more
No. 2552337
>>2552323
Money, power, influence, being the president of the world and controlling everyone evil laughter, talent, art, food, a dream job come true, popularity and fame without having to do anything in return, a massive fancy house, nature, music, fashion, exercise, stories to enjoy, friends to hang out with, health, physical strength, beauty, intelligence, a real family, sleep, really anything that can make a person happy. Romantic love is lame and for retards with no personality or aspirations in life who follow basic animal instincts and think they're being deep and smart for it, they never have anything else to do with their lives and their world view shatters if they can't get it. You're no different than the ~male loneliness epidemic~ fags. You should join them, maybe you'll find your love starved virgin prince charming there.
No. 2552364
>>2552355Yeah, that's not a big deal or the end of the world to me like it is to some mentally ill people out there.
>>2552359Only if you're hot, baby.
No. 2552383
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>>2552375If I could be American I would surely be a fattie kek
No. 2552403
>>2552383I mean, most American fast food chains opened in other countries so you could always eat at one. I personally love the super salty fried chicken and the cheese sauce. I love burgers and chicken sandwiches. I love citrus soda. But I want to also try real American food that's unique to each state, like a NY sub, spaghetti and meatballs, pizza, hot dogs, cheesecake etc. from small non-chain places in the state itself, Chicago pizza, Cajon food, and those diners in 80s movies with eggs, bacon, pancakes breakfast with a glass of orange juice and after that a cup of black coffee for the real American experience.
No. 2552411
>>2552403>italianfagWe have nothing apart from McDonald and burger kind. They have opened some though, there’s a five guys’s in Florence , Milan and in Rome now and even Starbucks. I want to try wingstop too, Panda express , Mexican food hasn’t reached the hype here yet, we are still stuck at sushi. I want to be a fattie in America just once.
When I’ll be older I’ll come and visit just to eat kek.
No. 2552415
>>2552411Well Italy has some awesome food. You can maybe make an Italian American fusion dish or something. Chicken sandwich but it's focaccia bread filled with a parmigiana chicken cutlet with tomato sauce and mozzarella.
>>2552412I want to try mashed potatoes and gravy, can't buy gravy anywhere here and the process of making it gives me a headache. Mashed potatoes are also frustrating to make so I'm not making either lol.
No. 2552417
>>2552415Italian food is really yummy I agree, there is also tons of choice. But sometimes I just want an extra greasy, super sized, red40, calorie dense food. You get me? Kek
I would also like to go to those American fairs and taste the ridiculous food kek, especially the candied turkey leg.
No. 2552616
>>2552403Late but I wish we could do snack/food exchanges here secret santa style. I have a long distance friend who sent me a bunch of candies from NZ and I sent her back a bunch of unique stuff from the US.
The candy she sent me melted in the southern heat tho lol, it was still delicious.
No. 2552668
>>2552589Horny scrotes would never want a tranny, they know what a woman is when it’s time to play with their dicks. God forbid you remove their wank material kek.
Even on reddit the only female exclusive spaces are porn subs.
No. 2552698
>>2552003KEK nonna
>>2552005I'd burn the whole place down at that point, respect for you
nonnie for going nuclear on that shit
>>2552095yeah I don't want any chances of that shit happening, my friend found one 3 days ago in her bedroom and she's a clean freak, so these things are popping up uninvited it seems since it's the season
the funny thing is she tried to grab it with a tissue to free it kek and was shocked when it went turbo speed and hid under her bed
just whack it with a fucking shoe
got my sprays and shit, if I find any of these creepy crawlers tonight it will be killed on sight for them
>sleep tightI feel asleep at 5 am, but thanks kek
No. 2552701
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I am applying for my first job this monday and it makes me suicidal. I am just going to be another depressed wagey working to live. I wish i had normalfag ambitions but i don't have any. The only thing i want is to stay home and draw, i dont ask for anything else. I just want a comfortable existence where i can draw all day and focus on my hobbies. But i cant because i was born into a shitty poor family. Honestly all poorfag families should abort, i am tired of my life being consumed by the idea that i need to earn money to survive. I envy american NEETs with rich families so much. Why couldnt that be me?. I really hate what my life has lead to, a shitty call center show in my thirdie shithole that earns me less than when i was drawing furry transformation fetish art for furfaggots. I dont know how normalfags do it, but i cant. I just dont have the motivation, i hate my life and i want out of it.
No. 2552708
>>2549849I'm sorry
nonny but you dodged a huge bullet. If he's stupid enough to fall for the BPD shit he's probably got some flavour of that himself.
No. 2552709
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Coworker is borderline a munchie and is always bringing up her multitude of health problems and I don’t even know what to say to it anymore.
>I got blood drawn but the doctor messed up and blew a vein
>they think I have asthma cuz I can’t stop coughing
>my chest hurts so much from coughing so much
>I’ve been vomiting everyday for the last month from coughing so much
>my iron levels keep dropping, they have to rule out some cancer
>anon your nails are nice, I can’t because my iron levels aren’t stable
Shut up shut up shut UP!
I try to be nice and listen because I’ve had bad days at work and my coworkers have been very supportive but I can’t handle this. She’s always having some sort of health problem, it’s always something!!!!
No. 2552732
>>2550588Have you been very stressed out? Stress fucks you up
nonnie, stress got me borderline retarded
No. 2552877
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I feel really bad for people who have their own or their loved ones deaths used for political arguments, and it's scary that this can happen to literally anyone.
I get that it's unavoidable in situations like terrorist attacks or war where politics is the driving factor, but it's so unfair that all you have to do is be in the wrong place at the wrong time and now you're just a talking point or edgy joke material for weirdos online rather than an innocent person who died.
No. 2552980
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I bumped into a lover I had months ago. Last time we were together his life wasn't going well. His life has gotten worse, he literally put down his cat yesterday. I went back to his and I held him and told him all the things I could but I felt so useless. I've been through the same grief before but I felt like nothing I said was helping. I stayed over, we had sex, it was great, but it was tough to get him up and out of bed today. Whilst I told him everything I wanted to: if I could I would devote myself to him, my only want is to comfort him, this is a "right person, wrong time" situation, I want to share his burden, I would never judge him - and then I called him by my boyfriend's name. It just slipped out. He laughed but I felt crushed. If I could, I would drop my current boyfriend and go for him in a heartbeat. But I'm going back to my home country soon and I can't throw my life away for one man, as much as I love him, who I'll never see again in a few months. He's everything I want in a man but it just can't be. It's all so sad.
No. 2553034
>>2553020lolcow is not relevant enough to attract summerfags this year kek
>>2553022the latest unpopular opinions thread was made by a scrote lmao they're getting so bold its sad
No. 2553051
>>2553019This kek
>has a Nigel >goes to depressed ex and fucks him because the retard had to put his cat down>right person wrong timegirl he just wanted the easy punani , he didn’t use the dead grandma excuse at least.
No. 2553052
>>2553051lmao you just said here
>>2553043 that we should stop arguing and here you are arguing
No. 2553054
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>>2553049I feel like you are teasing me nonna
No. 2553062
>>2553051It's weird bc I think these excuses would have the opposite effect on most anons
>you up?>me so sad. cat die soon>sounds like you could use time alone bye!Instead anon viewed this as an opportunity for closeness and bonding, like the wife or gf in a movie or marge from the simpsons
No. 2553070
>>2553056I have such a big problem with stink. People are just so calm when they smell like literal urine or two weeks old sweat and it’s always the smelly ones who have no qualms wailing their arms around and spreading their foul odour.
Everyone would be better if they used a tad bit of perspirex.
No. 2553103
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>>2553097KEK this is a pretty tactful way of saying anon gets her idea about bars from yt true crime and drama videos
>>2553091Check out fetlife nona! Home sweet home
No. 2553104
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>>2553091Smile and wave girls, smile and wave.
No. 2553118
>>2553108She gets tingly when listening to 3 hour video essays about popular male yt personalities or frontmen of awful bands who groom actual minors and thinks "why can't that be me?". Who else is consuming this content all the time, other than weirdos who get off to it. Groomer/
victim is basically part of zoomer sexuality at this point
No. 2553140
whoever here recommended liquid iron thank you this shit is great. ive only been sipping a teeny bit since i dont want to exceed 18mg daily
>>2553091>>2552980ill just pray this is fanfiction bait
No. 2553163
>>2553141>Turning 27 next monthYoung lady, you're practically a baby and really need to get over this silly aging is death mentality. The hag years are the best years of any woman's life and you're not even a third of the way there.
Like this nona said
>>2553149 most of your problems are solved by getting out of your own way and spending time with other people rather than just preemptively ejecting yourself anytime you act strangely. I used to think like you do and getting past it isn't necessarily easy but it's definitely worth learning to live with the awkwardness.
No. 2553171
>>2553168Nta but these sound like autistic hobbies to me. Also saying
>Bummer!but Idk why
No. 2553188
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>>2553184Serving billions and billions of anons, every day
No. 2553223
>>2553212You are asking for it if you are friends with a moid, don't you know they are incapable of empathy? They only care about their cocks.
Also he may have a hairy head but he has the energy of a balding man.
No. 2553234
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My countries culture is all about being extroverted, loud, objectifying women and being pro kink and sexuality. I'm glad at least i didn't get born on an islamic country but fuck, i still just wanna pull my hair out sometimes.
No. 2553301
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>>2553062Aside from the cat dying (I liked the cat) his life is just shit rn. I wanted to cheer him up. I didn’t think he’d be in the mood but hey, got what I wanted so I’m happy. Just wish I could be with him but practically being with my Nigel is better. It’s the vent thread, let me be melodramatic.
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>>2553240>>2553234>>2553238The way I also immediately thought of Brazil. Fuck.
No. 2553383
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i slowly lost touch with everything i love and value due to a health issue that is being resolved slowly. because of this, the past months have been dominated by my worst habits: scrolling, ocd thinking, comparing myself to other women online. i sometimes am motivated to make a youtube or blog but never do because i am insecure or feel it to be vapid. i also remember that when i had friends, or people to share things with, i’d often engage in my hobbies and dress up. as i got older and more stable and content and found my nigel, i didn’t need any of that. but now i feel empty. i can’t tell if it is solely that, or the health issue, or both. i have my values and things i love but i just feel it all to be pointless. not so much of a depression, but the literal inability for me to have energy or create or be silly. my mind is ruled by worrying and neuroticism, despite good sleep, good diet, etc. even when struggling with true depression, i had more articulate thoughts, engaged in my interests, so on and so on.
i think i just miss engaging with things i love again but don’t know where to start. i feel uncreative and uninspired to be silly. i really want an internet place to share thoughts or archive things i like, but who is to say that i’m not just trying to find validation or love myself more through unhealthy means? i just feel really empty and all i do is compare myself to other women and what they show on social media. i feel low IQ lately.
i should probably begin to curate magazines and websites to get inspired but again, it all seems so overwhelming, knowing where to begin so i can feel normal again.
No. 2553391
>>2553383Depression is pretty much that, nonna. I understand, you need to construct your desire to live from the bottom, but it's not possible. Try going slowly, first try doing something you like, just one thing, for a week or some days, feel something good again, and go on from that. That's exactly what i am doing right now. Also, try learning something new, it helps A LOT. I know it's hard and you don't want to do anything all day, not even move, but i swear it is worth it at the end.
No. 2553412
>>2553383I think it's not too unusual to go through fallow periods like this in life, it can be rather tough when we stop enjoying or finding meanings in things that used to keep us motivated and thriving. Try to embrace some spontaneity and just act kind of crazy for a spell, say or do absurd things just for the sake of doing them and try to not build up silly activities into sacred penances and observances. Hell, after my divorce I sort of pulled myself out of the doldrums by making soyjak edits and lolcow art.
Alternatively you can tell me to shove it, I'm sure you'll pull through in the end.
No. 2553465
I’m going to spoiler the shit out of this vent because it’s all mentally ill bullshit.
Honest to god, I am getting worse. As the years have passed and as I’ve gotten older, my mental health has only gotten worse. I haven’t starved myself on purpose in like a year but I still might as well. Even if I don’t do it on purpose anymore, I still don’t think I eat enough and I’d be lying if I said I never think about relapsing. I’ve been clean about that for over a year and I don’t want to throw that away, and I remember how miserable and cold it was. But I still miss it. I miss it, and I want to do it “right” this time. I get this voice in the back of my mind that says that if I do it one more time, that if I try for real this time I’ll be okay, and I’ll hit 100 pounds and I’ll be okay. I feel like I wasn’t doing it “right” last time, I wasn’t doing it “properly”. I was never that bad but for the short while that I was doing it, it felt good. I miss the rush I felt when I had to hold onto the wall so that I didn’t fall. I miss the hunger pain. But I know that I shouldn’t relapse. Starving yourself makes you ugly because your hair falls out and no one wants a skelly, and if they do then they usually want one for the wrong reasons. Starving yourself makes you cold and miserable, and thinking about food nonstop is hell.
I don’t starve myself anymore, but the cutting has gotten worse. There is no way someone could look at my arm and not think that the scars are self inflicted. That’s why I go out of my way to hide them. I can’t stand the thought of people finding out and asking questions, but at the same time I kind of want them to know just so that they realize that I’ve gotten worse. It’s selfish and probably manipulative of me to think like that, so I’d rather just hide them whenever I can. As long as no one asks any questions, I’ll be okay. I don’t want to drag someone else down with me. I’d rather just keep this to myself.
When I was a teen, I used to think about killing myself by hanging but I’m too pussy to do that. I’m also scared of fucking up and becoming a vegetable, because if I did I’m 100% sure my parents would keep me alive against my wishes. Funny how some people think that suicide is selfish but keeping someone alive even though they’re literally braindead and can’t consent isn’t selfish because “they might get better” or something stupid like that. Both are selfish. Anyway, I’ve come around to the idea of just slitting my wrists open and bleeding out. But like I said, I’m selfish and manipulative and a part of me wants to be found. I have this fantasy where I’ll be found right as I’m bleeding, and they see my wrists slit open and it’ll sink in that I wasn’t kidding when I said that I needed professional help, and that all I ever wanted was someone to actually listen to me. To not tell me that it’s all in my head, or to just go outside, or to just stop thinking, that it was years ago, or that I just need to go to church and believe in god. I need help and I’m tired of having my feelings being explained to me, and I’m tired of being talked over whenever I try to open up. And with this violent fantasy I hope that someone will realize that it actually is that bad, and that I’ve been downplaying everything for years. No one knows how bad it really is because I never told anyone. And I never told anyone because no one ever listened. I can’t talk to my family, I have no friends, I isolate myself and when I get like this I want to get worse. I haven’t cried in front of someone else in years. I repress most of my emotions and only let them out when I know that I’m alone. I’ve squeezed my throat to avoid crying and to make the lump go away. Internally, I feel like a mess of emotions but I try my best not to show it. All my jokes are obvious cries for help. There will come a day when I will explode and really try something. I didn’t think I’d live this long, but now that I have, all I can think is what now?
No. 2553509
I love my friend. I really do. But their anxiety is complex about things I don't consider to be a big deal. They're eloquent, verbose, considerate… Almost poetic in a way. But comparatively speaking, I'm just a monke. For instance, they have a fear of their own mortality. They see the ever encroaching inevitability of death as something to fret over - how they'll feel, what it's like to not feel, etc. But I embrace the darkness (kek), and think
>lmao it comes when it comes idk maybe ill die on the toilet or some shit maybe ill die in my sleep
I told them about my mental meds, and they had a existential crisis about the implications behind how medication can curate someone's personality, overwriting who they are completely and replacing the base line with a new form of insanity or something, as if I lost who I once was (not that it's any real loss, considering why I got on my meds in the first place). They're super sweet and all, and I want to comfort them. But so far, everything I legitimately don't give two fucks about, worries them on this meta level that makes me feel like a monster for dismissing it originally.
And some twisted part of me likes being schooled in this way; I like listening about the way a normie thinks (?), about stuff I take for granted and whatnot. I can't just ditch them for being an energy vampire. It's like it balances out my primative brain that's focused on shit like husbandos and fictional men fanservice 24/7.
Normally, it'd be me being the worrysome person, since I have a lot of negligent moid friends. This is the only male friend I have that… gives a shit. Too much of a shit, even. I feel like a moid in this situation since I'm usually just so far gone in terms of being a jackass in comparison to his hyper emotionally-aware self LOL
No. 2553590
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my best friend is male and he's becoming a bit annoying to me, we still get along and i still think he's funny and a good person and all but hearing him talk about his "romantic interests" if i can even call them that kek pisses me off for some reason
No. 2553605
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>>2553593im not
nonny i wouldnt care if he just said he likes some random guy and will try to meet him, i wouldnt even care, that would be fine!
but he talks about random ass men like they might be his next husband while also half mentioning his defects but doesnt even fucking talk to them, he sends me 1 billion texts about how much he tries to make conversation but they didnt say hi to him, and one day he finally meets them personally and suddenly he doesnt care because they did something wrong and now they're the ones being annoying
by saying hi, thats it btw and now i have to heard about how those guys are gross and stupid
hes such a retard about this, i cant wait for him to learn about making good choices or something
No. 2553737
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just bitterly remembered that runawaysiren is dead. And from diabetes mismanagement too, and yet HRT and life worsening surgeries are given out like candy. i am so bitter that she's dead and so many foul moids that deserve to be drawn and quartered are not.
No. 2554027
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Some Tumblr users are serious cunts that go out of their way to go to someone they don't even follow's blog and try to tell them what they can and can't write in their tags or on their profile. It just happened to me for the second time yesterday. These people are such annoying, childish pond scum.
Back when my Tumblr was full of people with radical left ideology I would bend over for them. I would use a tag called "doki" for posts I find cute or romantic and some chick went into my messages telling me not to use it because its "cultural appropriation" and because I'm "not Japanese". I bent over replying "Oh I didn't know, I'm sorry. I won't do that again" but that is cuck shit. Now I tell them to get fucked. The fact they're always with anon turned on tells me they're stupid cowards anyway.
No. 2554110
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I don't like when I say something and it gets misconstrued as rude or offensive. I don't know if I'm blunt or retarded, but I never mean it that way. Whenever I try to explain myself or apologize, everyone accuses me of pretending to not know what I said. Why does this keep happening to me.
No. 2554111
>>2554070I disagree completely
>>2554081I’ll believe it when I see it. My friends who are in engineering or tech have a slightly higher salary than me, and not by much. They struggled to find work about as much as I did despite good grades and internships.
As for networking, it’s not the easiest but it’s totally doable. If you attend events for what you’re interested in, do research on who the important faces are in your industry, and have a fun project or ambition (it can be a personal or hobby thing) it will happen naturally. Also, by supporting others you are making a name for yourself too. You just have to have evidence of being into what you wanna do and havjng some knowledge about it, the rest you can fib and even use friends as references (ask them to act as your former supervisors on the phone). Worst case scenario you do something unrelated to your degree.
No. 2554140
>>2554081the girls I know with biology degrees are struggling, so ymmv
I think the future is in those part stem/part humanities subjects. computational linguistics, computer-human interfaces, cognitive sciences.
>>2554111>Worst case scenario you do something unrelated to your degree.I got a humanities degree and angled it into a techy job. The biology majors I know who are now doing other things are all much happier and more stable too lol.
The worst thing to do is box yourself into a specific mindset, you never know when an opportunity to pivot arises.
No. 2554237
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i was going to put this in the 'what's your honest opinion of cows?' thread but it isn't really about one particular person. and i guess it could go in meta but it's not like, an issue i think is wrong with the site itself or something the mods could address. so i'm just going to whine about it here: there has been a notable decrease in quality of posts since the radfem cows thread took off. actually, general "community cows" threads in were a mistake, but the radfem cows one is particularly bad. these types of threads allow for people who are not notable enough for their own threads to be posted about. this seems like a good idea, since it prevents a million tiny threads that will inevitably die from popping up and allows for more general discussions without spamming a specific persons thread. but they have also made it so that a good chunk of the discussions on /snow/ are about people who just do not meet the criteria for being a cow set out in the rules. why do i think the radfem cows thread is particularly bad for this and has affected lolcow as a whole? because the venn diagram of dramamongering radfems on tumblr and radfem cows posters are a circle. so rather than /snow/ being used to watch cows out in pasture, as the site is intended to be used, it is now full of nonas who use come here exclusively for vendetta posting. not only is this against the rules, it is also boring. and it spills over to the rest of the site and lowers the standards across the board.
the attachment is from the personal cow threads but it really bugs me so i'm using it as an example. one of the criteria for being a cow is an unhealthy desire for attention and an inability to accept criticism. the person in the screenshot had a post of theirs put on personal cows and then archived and deleted their blog. i don't really think their original post was that cowish although it was a cringey and i see why it was posted (she stole a book and posted about it). but anyway, someone being posted to personal cows and then throwing a fit, deleting and reactivating over and over again? that's lolcow behavior. but getting unwanted attention and deciding to stop posting and quietly shut it down? that's literally the opposite of attention seeking and being unable to accept criticism. the comment from the person who posted the screenshot cements in my mind that this was not someone who thought it was a genuine cow, but someone in her circle of tumblrinas who disliked her and thinks lolcow.farm is her personal radfemconfessions page. yes, personal cows is for personal cows, but a personal cow is a smaller cow you know, not a non-cow you just don't like. "hurr she deleted do you think she knows i was gossiping about her" yes bitch, probably! who cares! this is not milk, it's like that canola oil and sugar creamer americans use. it's uninteresting to anyone who isn't personally involved and 70% of the time, no actual cows are involved. but because so many tumblr radfems have migrated to the farms over the past several years, there are enough people personally involved to keep it going, despite it usually being a combo of vendetta posting and self posting that is obvious to any outsider. i know there was a discussion a while ago about a subset of new posters who only used /ot/ and i feel this is an extension of that. of course the culture of a board will change over time and maybe no one else noticed this or cares. i guess it doesn't really matter if everyone else posting is entertained. but once i started seeing it i see it EVERYWHERE across the site and i think the radfem cows thread is primarily to blame. imho cows who are actual cows should get their own threads and community threads should be limited to 1. personal cows (for cows who have a limited or nonexistent online presence) and maybe a few others. wow, this turned out a lot longer than i meant it to.
No. 2554251
>>2554110Dude I'm autistic and black and this has literally been my entire fucking life lol. It's worse that it's usually friends and family who you'd think would know you well enough to not misinterpret you. Then they'll get mad when you make the logical decision of not talking to them so you don't get annoyed and actually say something rude.
Something I'll give them is that I am generally pretty blunt and direct. But I don't think it's to the point of rudeness.
No. 2554297
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I've been strugling for a while with my perception of men and how they actually are.
I'm also an ex pickme so the fall feels greater.
I've noticed that for a large portion of my life, 85% of men in it share the same traits and it lead to dissapointment more or less.
Problem: men are retarded. Behavioral problems, manipulative, egotistical, emotionally unaware, immature, violent at times and lazy when they know you'll let them.
Advice from friend who spent 3 years basically training her nigel: That's how they were raised, I get your frustration but they're all like this. You jsut knwo that that's your person and if the benefits outweigh the downsides, you're willing to reeducate them. It's not for everyone though.
Ok so men are retarded but as long as my quality of life isn't massivly affected, then it's worth baring the stupidity. A lovable stupidity if you will. Everyone aproved of this realisation.
But simultaniously, you can't ever trully trust them and a rational moid doesn't exist. They'll always be on good behaviour when they feel like you're going to leave. They'll always pull your heartstrings when you talk about their problems. They'll always shun/ignore you when you hold them acountable bc they're uncomfortable. Just like how they always did throughout time.
I like dick unfortunately, my biology craves it sadly. So does it companionship. But why is it soo funny and unrealistic when I talk about wanting to live a normal life where there's mutual trust, love and understanding of one another. Where I don't have to pick between training my moid or denying my sexuality bc the pool is full of retards I'm unwillink to put up with. Like I get the naivety of my statement but what else is there to hope for?I know it's possible.
Which one is it? What are men to you and how do they fit in your life?
No. 2554336
>>2554297>What are men to you and how do they fit in your life?They're big dumb shaggy beasts with hair-
trigger tempers that like to see themselves as above-it-all unemotional patrician brains logically piloting a meat mech through an absurd world. They're also colleagues, family members and even friends. Romantic relationships are a lot trickier because the expectations are generally unrealistic from the get go, most men only really understand male socialization and the overwhelming majority of the few men who do understand women's socialization are predators. Always keep a certain emotional and even physical distance from them, any sign of overt friendliness is inevitably seen as an invitation.
There's no real pat or easy answer, even good relationships can sour over time and all relationships probably carry some risk of heartbreak or worse. Learning to see moids for what they are and understanding both their good and bad qualities helps a lot, accepting that they are essentially half feral semi-domesticated brutes also helps.
No. 2554513
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Got another mediocre grade while everyone else in my class got above average grades. Every lab practise I have It seems Im getting even worse, forgetting basic stuff, asking things to the technician 70% times more than my other peers. Someone gives me instruction manually and I take too long to understand what the fuck is happening.
I have already swallowed the blackpill about intelligence, fuck everything.
No. 2554621
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I got fucked up bangs and a big ass cold sore. Damn.
No. 2554733
>>2551983>>2551915Update on my bug situation
I just found an INSECT BUTT WITH ITS LEGS HANGING POPPING OUT OF A FUCKING HOLE in the wall behind my sink that I had forgotten about. I sprayed tf out of it and that bitch bug ran away. I am going to seal that hole shut tomorrow and file a pest control request for the whole flat entrance. There's some shit going down in the basement.
No. 2554740
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I feel like this site is so much more dead than it was a few years ago, esp cow threads. makes me kinda sad, where'd everyone go? (I can sorta guess but it's still depressing.)
No. 2554746
well this is it. I finally got a diagnosis that explains why the fuck I spent most of my life since I was a kid feeling awful. even as a kid I never showed any emotion, played, or acted out. but I had brief times where I felt alive - maybe once per year - that made me wonder if it was normal to feel awful most of the time. and the thing I resented most was how bright my mind felt during those rare times. it feels like a prison mostly! how much of who I am is just some vestigial growth off my exhaustion? it's so scary to think about. and I really have been damaging my body all this time by pushing it too, by trying to live life, by trying to stay really active. I guess I should have known because it was like my body was screaming at me in pain and exhaustion and like it was breaking down, and that it never, ever seemed to get stronger even when I started seeing muscle show up after all my efforts. the worst part of it all is that there's never gonna be a full "recovery". only management and whatever my doctor can throw at me. I spent so many years telling myself there was nothing wrong with me, but there really is, isn't there?
>>2554621at least he's ugly in a dumpy fantasy shrek way. no offense to shrek he's handsomer than this creature.
No. 2554767
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>>2554748Rebuttal, there is only one perfect man and he's Suomalainen.
No. 2554768
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I caved to the weaknesses in my mental/emotional armour and posted a picture of myself to ChatGPT, basically asking for an honest "analysis" about a flaw I'm insecure about. The answer made me feel a little better but now I'm just embarrassed with myself. I know there's always the possibility that it's lying so I don't kill myself or whatever but I'll take it anyway kek
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>>2554740I was only able to post 15 times today across boards sorry boss
No. 2554843
>>2554839He is obviously attracted to me though, he’s always trying to talk to me when we run into each other. Plenty of obvious cues.
>>2554841If you saw him you’d get it
No. 2554866
>>2554856ive never been cheated on but it isnt something id want to happen to other women. i dont understand how youd have the mentality unless youre just completely desensitized to cheating
>>2554860at the expense of another womans potential pain? just to validate some man without morals?
No. 2554870
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>>2554866I don't know anon. Clearly that nona is a hot sexy young woman who is so fertile, sexy and in charge of her own womanhood that peripheral objects like "other women" don't matter. You're probably just ugly and that is why you are saying this. I'm a baddie like the cool anon
No. 2554881
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>>2554862Which is something like this
(Courtesy of Pinterest)
No. 2554883
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>>2554881Or like this (she is cute though)
No. 2554884
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>>2554879It's true! He even said when she asked him, I was there
No. 2554911
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>>2554905I just don’t want to shit the thread, nothing more. If I’ll say the reasons it will be a long, long day, and I’m sure no one wants that.
No. 2554918
I hungout with an old friend the other day, a gay moid I've known since childhood. And it was so fucking weird, like a lot of it was fun and we have similar taste in humor and have a lot of funny memories together. But he was talking about the fact he's been fucking random men in parks or in parked cars in dark parking lots and sucking them off or giving them a hand job, and I'm just so confused as to why he thinks this behavior is good or safe? Some of the men seem really sketchy, some he didn't even get to see a profile pic for and still met them in a secluded park in the middle of the night to hook up. Not to mention how gross that is to use a children's playground as a fuckshack, probably getting sweat and cum everywhere. It was so weird because he used to be a turbo virgin and would even call me a slut for fucking one guy that I was in a relationship with. He also talked about wanting to transition which I half expected but I don't know what to say, he seemed casual about it and like he knew he wouldn't actually be a woman but then said something like "ew I'm not a lesbian" when talking about a tif wanting to hook up with him. So idk, he also said "cunt" literally 50 fucking times but got offended when I said retard a few times mostly just jokingly (and lovingly) referring to myself. I don't get how he can think saying cunt is okay but any other word is offensive unless the person using it is ~reclaiming~ it. Like faggots don't get to reclaim cunt it never had anything to do with them. It was just so fucking weird, he also kept making really mean comments about people's appearance. Like he said "oh that bitch with the so and so" talking about a physical abnormality this woman has, like it's so rude and juvenile. I can't imagine identifying someone with a physical attribute tied to an insecurity of theirs. I thought he'd grow out of it but it's worse, he's worse. I feel for him because he has a lot of stress and responsibilities in his life that shouldn't fall on his shoulders but this is just too much. The vibe was fucked, it was fun at first but after a while I just wanted him to go so I could watch some of the women I watch on YouTube and go pet the neighborhood cats. I don't know what to do, I probably shouldn't have reached out to him to reconnect but I was dumb and thought it might be different this time.
No. 2554927
>>2554918Gay scrotes are like dogs, they will have sex with no condom with two strangers everyday because they take PREP kek.
The faggot world is just like mixing up straight men with other straight men, you get degeneracy amped up to the maximum. If you get low-lives that live to fuck and place their penis first and you also make them attracted to other low-lives that live to fuck, you get the perfect recipe for the STD and degenerate machine, aka faggots.
No. 2554928
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>>2554922OH kek no she di'nt!!
No. 2554953
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>>2554947>keep stuff tidy>small cleanups >always leave the kitchen cooking stoves clean>fold your clothes >throw the dirty clothes in the laundry basket immediately >do the big cleaning up (vacuum+mop) on Sunday. This will be your best friend when you are in the middle of the week.
No. 2554960
>>2554918given how
toxic gay men are it makes me wonder if they're
toxic towards other men? like do they act catty and bpd and insult their bfs too?
No. 2554962
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My mom insists that I "stay home and save money!!" instead of moving to the city and paying 1500 in rent (or whatever…) but I don't think she realizes that I barely feel alive. This town sucks, there's nothing to fucking do and it's full of racist retards. The common saying about people here is that they don't go looking for anything they can't find, and that's true. They're proud of being stubborn, backwards clowns. I need to get the hell out of here. I figure if I can nab a well-paying job it won't be a problem, right? Right? I tell myself this then I go the subreddit for the city I'm looking at and see people crying about the rising price of rent. I fear I'm too stupid to leave sometimes and maybe where I am currently is the best I can do but my desire to leave is so much stronger. I don't care if I end up stuttering like a retard in ten million interviews, I WILL get out of hicktown. Fuck.
No. 2554964
>>2554960The over feminine ones are basically mean girls. They will backstab each other on the backs like every other day so that’s why they prefer sticking with other women than other effeminate faggots. The scrotes who are gay but don’t fit into the stereotypes tend to stick by themselves and other faggots, they would rather be surrounded by other men than women, they still engage in this hazardous sex life though.
There’s also a lot of lookism in the gay community, if you aren’t white, 20 and skinny you are shit and used goods, whether you do the bending or bend others.
But they are much worse to women though.
No. 2554971
>>2554958Kek, amen
Nonnie, amen.
>>2554960Oh yeah, he had plenty of gossip about the men he insults and puts down too. One guy he straight up berated for not cumming quickly enough cause his jaw was getting tired. I don't understand why he's so mean, he could easily be verbally torn to shreds the way he does to others but seems to not understand that or I guess he thinks he's above it. He is especially critical of women though, and it's almost always appearance focused. I don't understand why he values meanness and pettiness, and why he wants to have drama with everyone. And he seems to think everyone is trying to fuck him, he said one time years ago that I was giving him "sexual tension" or something and I told him honestly that I don't think of him like that but he didn't believe me. I can truly say I'd rather fuck a stick I found in the woods than get with him, sorry to say but I couldn't be less sexually attracted to him if I tried. The second he was out of my house I just sighed like this huge weight had been lifted, cleaned everything up and took a shower. I kept thinking I can't wait to vent here with women who get where I'm coming from kek, it's extremely cathartic.
No. 2555015
>>2554994Nta but I feel the same way Nonna, I can't offer any advice aside from trying to focus on the things that make you feel happy or at peace or makes life feel worth it and hopefully with time things will start to improve. That's what I started doing and it actually does help, good luck and I'm sorry your going through this. Just know you're not alone and it's actually more common than it seems. It's also not usually a permanent state someone ends up in, if you keep trying you're bound to have improvement eventually.
>>2554998>Lolcow’s for calling out retards.Nta but not this thread, this thread is for venting.
No. 2555044
>>2554740Nona I spent all day procrastinating on lc on most boards for your entertainment wdym. Maybe take a break (like I should) to do something else (like I should)
As I see it the cow I posted of /snow/ lacks your attention.
No. 2555055
>>2555037>alpha female course that's all about princess treatment and getting worshippedWhym I thought it was our birthright? Why would I need a course for that?
>>2555045Seems like it. Idk, unpopular opinion but it seems like mainstream exploitation for big monetary gain is similar between men and women with different executions.
>if you're a woman you open an OF>if you're a guy you make your gf open an OF or sell ai porn courses>insecurity market is booming, start making coursesThat and I think mainstream feminism has had scrote meddling. Ofc you'll say sex work is real work when you are the main consumer. If anyone actually cared about prostitution they'd be thinking about offering those women accessible ways to get out of those lifestyles easy and safe so we TRULY had more freedom.
No. 2555062
>>2555053and compare the upkeep cost of time and money that these look require and then you realize the "payoff" is purely performative for the sake of validating their own luxurious vanity rather than improving the lives of the average person
>>2555057then they're just mentally ill/bpd-tier
No. 2555076
>>2555061I'm not talking about relationships, I'm talking about getting treated well in general everywhere you go. If you've ever had conventionally highly attractive friends, you will see the way almost everyone they encounter, especially men, treats them so much better. Even rando people are nicer, more polite, offer to help you more, are more interested in your problems, will let you off the hook when you do wrong, will go out of their way to do you favors, etc. Pretty privilege is 100% real and I have seen it with my own eyes.
No. 2555081
>>2555076that's just because that multiplies the amount of attractive women he figures he can approach through you, him being extra careful is not even about you, you're just getting preemptively cucked, that's why these kind of "pretty girls being pretty" friend groups tend to be extra
toxic to begin with
No. 2555090
>>2555083>people who they are almost certainly never going to see againso they're just opportunistically trying to get an eyeful out of them or their group
>women with no sexual interest in these girlstesting the waters trying to find a place among them out of jealousy
>I won't bother arguing with youaren't you supposed to be telling me to go back to my containment board?
No. 2555109
>>2549421Smoke weed if you aren’t on medications
Play with your food
Drizzle oils and shit so food looks cool or weird or silly and take photos videos
Slow down
It gets better
No. 2555127
>>2548792AND JUST LIKE THAT, THEY ALREADY
FUCKED UP>Get call from the one who doesn't have the horrible family>She tells me the one with the horrible family is letting them talk her into hiding "really nasty" (possibly fighting) dogs in their basement.>Tweedle dumb is trying to talk her out of it, tweedle dumber is potentially letting her family do it.And of course the landlords require a pet deposit and notice before animals can live there and
OF COURSE her family is telling her to keep it secret.
It might not happen anyway but the fact that it even got to this point is vindicating.
No. 2555198
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>>2555193This site is sort of like a slot machine. There's the occasional jackpot but you're mostly just feeding it coins and being disappointed with what comes back to you as the minutes or hours disappear.
Then you look at the clock, realize how much time has passed and you feel disgusted.
No. 2555205
>>2555194>>2555193what are some specific examples of things you guys dislike from here?
for me it has to be seeing so many farmers insult the appearance of other women, even the ones who look completely normal or even fit the beauty standards of our society.
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>>2554862>>2554891I mean, we already have real examples kek
No. 2555289
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The current era of josei and shoujo manga looking no different than moid coomer porn makes me suicidal,josei was meant for adult women with topics having wide range for deep psychological and issues women faced or just fashion and work life now its been turned into another moid gaze porn shit with misogynistic tropes and toothpaste shaped moids and shoujo has dropped from the face of the earth and replaced with 10000 million copies of the same clip studio castle asset villainess manwhas with Mary Sue's,I literally have to rummage through Seinen shit to find well written recent manga nowadays (which is also filled with shounen slop) I hate seeing posts defend it as "it's the female gaze!" And the mc is elephant tits McGee who acts like a toddler despite being collage aged and the moid the usual abusive rapey scrote I'm reminded of picrel whenever someone tries to convince me why the fl needs triple E tits and a personality of a wet sponge
No. 2555303
>>2555299I remember the first shoujo manga I ever bought was Strawberry Marshmallow when I was like 9. Even back then I was a bit creeped out by it. Several of the female characters are literal NPCs whose only personality traits are being ‘timid’ or ‘completely generic’. The oldest girl just likes watching the younger girls do ‘cute things’. There are some random gratuitous nude/bath drawings which is a bit
sus since the girls are supposed to be like 12 years old (Japanese people don’t have a problem with nudity yeah yeah ok whatever) I even remember my little sister reading it and her putting it down and thinking it was some weird pedo slop kek.
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>>2555294I’m so sorry you struggle so much nona I hope you come across a doctor one day that can help you get a diagnosis!
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>>2555336>Midnight SecretaryKekkk this is the only time in almost two decades I have ever seen this manga mentioned outside of when I originally read it. I almost thought I dreamed it because it predated 50 Shades and a lot of the Twilight hype, but yet no one mentions it. Thanks for making me feel not crazy anon
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College is using a new LMS, this is my first semester using it. Uploaded an assignment but didn't submit it on time because I misread the layout. Emailed the professor about it and I'm hoping she'll be easy on me since it's an easy gen ed class anyway and I have a 100% otherwise but the rubric says "Late assignments will not be accepted unless approved by the instructor prior to the due date" so I might be shit out of luck. I'm trying to keep my 4.0 but this class has so few assignments already that if I do everything else perfectly including extra credit I'm only getting an 83%. I'm too mentally unstable to care about how I'd look escalating it to admin so I might do that just to see if it works because otherwise I'd give up and raid my medicine cabinet kek
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Youtube needs to rework their "near you" thing. An eight hour flight is not "near me". Stop getting my hopes up asshole.
No. 2555490
>>2555290It’s difficult but a part of growing up, ESPECIALLY as a woman, is to learn to not give a shit and that a lot of things you’ve been told and will be told are wrong. I can’t stress how important this is, it is the only way I know that you can have a nice life outside of being born rich. This is paradoxically more difficult for us because of how girls are raised to consider everyone else first and conform, but also more important because the things we are taught to want are actually miserable.
There is a reason why the happiest adult women were usually rebellious as kids, and why women over 30 always say they love their thirties because they just stopped giving a fuck about opinions. I can’t think of a single time where I went “hmm I really wish I was more of a goody goody and did what my peers and family pushed me to”. Not one. It was always a shit deal and people got mad if you said it out loud.
The good news is that it’s actually easier to do than it used to be, the bad news is that you can now have the whole world’s opinion on it in your ear because of the internet, as opposed to just your town or circle of friends and family.
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>>2555289>shoujo has dropped from the face of the earth and replaced with 10000 million copies of the same clip studio castle asset villainess manwhas with Mary Sue'sKek not castle-nim catching strays
I agree with you about webtoon manhwas but I still like them for how ridiculous they get. I still miss propa shoujo, especially Ai Yazawa’s work. There used to be some amazing stories in the 70s and 80s that are now impossible to find, I’m so sad about the decline of the genre.
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Growing up in the 90s, all I really remember about anime is the big tits and revealing outfits tbh. I remember our school banned Sailor Moon merch because they thought it was sexualizing young girls too much.
No. 2555529
>>2555514>>2555518Writers and artists have run out of plots, that’s all there is to it. All I consumed as a kid was shojo manga and animes targeted at young girls, and even back then I remember realizing how samey and repetitive 90% of the animes were (especially magical girl shojo shit, literally just a troubled schoolgirl waves a magic wand around, transforms her outfit into a cute pink ensemble, now the day is saved ans that cute boy likes her!)
Josei was usually a little bit more creative, but hell even Nana and Kamikaze Girls (both of which I love) have an extremely similar innocent girl meets badass girl and they become besties plot.
It’s the same in the west, writers and producers have no ideas anymore it’s why they keep rehashing the same old remake garbage annd remixes of old songs over and over.
No. 2555560
>>2555529Nana is a shojo manga though. But it did feel more mature than the average shojo manga. Even when several stories can have a smiliar premise the execution can be done in vastly different ways depending on who's the writer or artist so even if a lot of shojo manga are very similar I'm not sure that's the only explaination. Anything that's less simimar than usual is relegated to shonen magazines despite it being obvious that the authors are making their series for girls and women so maybe publishing companies and anime studio investors need to get their shit together already.
>It’s the same in the west, writers and producers have no ideas anymore it’s why they keep rehashing the same old remake garbage annd remixes of old songs over and over.There are a lot of anime remakes and adaptations that are going to follow the original manga a lot better too. Same thing with Western and Japanese video games. It's crazy how now that I have more time and money than ever I'm not looking forward to anything anymore except a few remakes of games I couldn't play before and anime adpatations of manga I already like since like 15 years ago.
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Everyone around me have been telling me I suffer from clear burnout, and what was made me finally accept it? Fucking chatgpt, after I explained my symptoms and what's been going on lately.
It's a dumb fucking language machine, but I can't deny it when it practically reframed everything I said in a way that made me finally accept that yeah - I'm probably burnt out and need to take it very easy for a while. I have a doctor's appointment on friday so I'll see what kind of professional opinion I might get.
I just hate having my body and half my mind fighting against me when I want to get shit done.
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Yesterday two fighting birds flew into me so I dropped my glasses and lost a screw. Today I was chased by a dog because my dog ran into his garden (they're friends) but he didn't appreciate me on his ground. I'm fucking tired.
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>>2555620
>Sailor moon crystal
'member creepypasta Usagi
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>>2555620
KEKKK Crystal was such a mess, the way the first two seasons absolutely DIVIDED the fandom (a tumblr specifically meant to point out what a mess it was got violent threats way to often).
I even turned it into an event on my social media for my friends where I would just post screencaps without commentary because it was so bad kek
No. 2555643
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I hate being a thirdie poorfag. I went to a job interview and they offered me 100 usd MONTHLY for dealing with clients and selling insurance. Meanwhile i started talking to neckbeards online a few weeks ago and i made that much just vc and playing videogames with them. I hate my life so much. Why couldnt i have been born American? my life is ruined, no matter how much i work or how much effort i put into things, i will always earn less than the literal tards that work at walmart in the US.
No. 2555742
>>2555696Its not cheap to be live here unless you are living in a mudhut and eating bugs. I dont know where people got the idea being a thirdie is somehow ''cheaper''. The rent prices are in USD and the cheapest i could find is 500 usd. Mind you the min wage here is like 200 usd.
>>2555718My country has ''free'' healthcare and its shit. I would rather pay than have to go to a rat infested hospital or die in a waiting list. I have to work a shitty job just to pay half of my medical bills.
No. 2555766
>>2555751I'm sorry the education system of your country failed you so bad that you can't process what you're reading. Let me help you:
You CAN get it from sex. That doesn't mean sex is the only way to get it. You can also have a predisposition to it, get it from holding your pee too long, from a weakened immume system, etc. Even virgins and children can get UTIs.
No. 2555770
>>2555130We’ll never have it because the truth is that most women believe in a “good man” and they completely dismiss whatever experience or thought they have about men when they think they are special or that they found the perfect man. Many women aren’t feminist at all.
Look at the nonna in the advice thread on g/ who went on a rant about this poor girl that entered her male only friend group, never met this girl or knew her but according to her she has “bad vibes” and “looks autistic” kek. 85% or even more women would bite each other’s throats for a speck of male attention/validation.
No. 2555780
>>2555770Like
>>>/g/571102She goes on a long rant to justify her animosity towards this woman that has done nothing towards her kek. This is a very textbook example of it.
No. 2555792
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>>2555766you can keep your pee in as long as you want, you won't get an infection if there is no bacteria in your bladder
urine is sterile, meaning it has 0 bacteria in it
keeping in your urine would only allow bacteria to proliferate if they somehow got inside your bladder
little girls will get it from not knowing how to wipe properly
adult women will get it from having sex
it is the overwhelmingly dominating cause of UTI in adult-age women
https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC6502981 No. 2555917
>>2555889>feminism is when poop getting into your urethra is fine>>2555838it's less frequent
>>2555883> i had UTIs before even knowing what sex wasl2wipe your asshole front to back then
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Artists are such a frustrating group of people to spend one's time with, hypochondria is almost universally endemic condition among them and I swear they compete with eachother over who's the sickest, the saddest, the most useless. Every time there is a slim hope that the conversation might become about something other than chronic health conditions, therapy, or dating woes, some tiresome arse just has to start screaming about American politics for some damned reason and all at once the whole herd is bellowing and mooing in abject terror that The Americans™ are going to take their pills away.
Why is it so hard to find people who are able to draw that aren't basket cases? I hate feeling like a freak for being physically healthy and being guilted by these louts for not being in therapy. I much prefer the company of my normie conservatard friends but it would be nice to be able to meet artsy lefties who aren't panicking cattle or coom cultists.
No. 2556058
>>2555927theres one things incels have right, stuff like how autistic, mentally ill, weird or even ugly a woman has wont stop her from having options and some of those can be with like you said kind and loving men.
the only way to find out how they found them would be by asking them tbh
No. 2556063
>>2556058and just to add, tons of stacies date
abusive chads who cheat on them. and then there are fat women who have been in happy marriages that have lasted more than a decade
No. 2556066
>>2555917People with compromised immune systems are more vulnerable to utis, and like anons have already mentioned, lesbians can get it from sex, too. UTIs are not exclusively caused by fecal coliform bacteria, which is almost everywhere by the way. Phone screens, doorknobs, computer keyboards, steering wheels– basically everything humans frequently touch with their hands has fecal coliform bacteria. That's why you're supposed to wash your hands before you eat.
Also I'm 90% sure you're the same schizo who always spergs about "poop particles" and "poop ghosts" and I have no idea how you haven't been permabanned yet. Either you're a very persistent baiter or you are deeply mentally ill with both OCD and schizophrenia.
>>2555943There's a while hidden board dedicated to feminism, newfag.
No. 2556089
>>2556074I'm just mentally ill/insecure, and constantly getting called out for it
people my age actually tend to feel intimated by me and the way I present myself
that's my theory at least anyway
No. 2556096
>>2556089well does that insecurity manifest itself into being
toxic and putting other people down or simply just yourself?
No. 2556153
Silly vent, but I have lots of hobbies I enjoy, primarily singing and listening to, exploring and collecting music, and sometimes making collages, designing stuff like characters or outfits, and coming up with stories but I won't call that writing because I nevee truly write them down, I just like fantasizing about them inside my head. And yet, I'm better at the collages and story creating department than I'll ever be at either singing or making music and it's so frustrating and soul crashing to suck at the thing I love most. I'm not creative enough at it and could never write lyrics to a song, or write a melody, drum beat, bass line, riffs, licks etc. that isn't repetitive, unoriginal, uninspired and too derived it borders on plagiarism. Why did I have to be this retarded? Kurt Cobain is a retarded cringy faggot but the line from Smells Like Teen Spirit "I'm worst at what I do best" rings true every time I have these feelings and thoughts. I don't think I could write gibberish and produce a good song out of it either. It doesn't help that I hate the laptop "musician" type who uses software to program already existing snippets and make a "song" out of it or the kind that uses sampling and I have a stupid superiority complex kind of thing where I think being able to play actual instruments and write lyrics on your own makes you a real musician, so not meeting my own standards but judging others for not doing so is really retarded of me and makes me hypocritical. Worst part that the laptop and sampling crowd can do better than me, too. I have nothing to show up with it's so embarrassing. I only exist to parrot other people's work because I can't come up with my own. And even if I could, I would never be able to share it because it's too intimate and vulnerable it makes me sick to bear the thought of someone else veering in on it. No one deserves to know anything about me. I'm too insane. End of vent.
No. 2556177
>>2556176thats really cute tbh
>>2556169yeah its never too late, and you wont believe me when i say this but i find awkwardness kind of endearing in women irl. but you do what makes you happiest i wont tell you what to do
No. 2556180
>>2556153you're having a meltdown because you perceived yourself as not good enough in something, but also aren't taking any steps to try and get better at these things
yes you are insane
why does the Kurt Cobain lyric speak to you, when you've also admitted you're better at other things?
No. 2556203
>>2556153Honestly I could relate with a tiny bit of this, in the sense that I love singing and feel like it's what I was put on this earth to do, but I'm too anxious and self-critical to sing in public or make myself vulnerable in that way and it seriously depresses me. I sang a lot when I was a kid and teenager, took vocal lessons in school and was always in choir etc. But my parents were always extremely critical of me and would put me down and mock me, and would never show up to my concerts. I wanted to study music in university so bad but they never let me, so I ended up doing something else, now I'm almost 30 working a job I'm not particularly passionate about, burdened with fear and regret about time that I've lost. Feeling envious of people my age who've spent the last decade honing their craft.
That said, earlier this year I decided I've had ENOUGH of feeling sorry for myself and enrolled in private singing lessons. It feels so nice to be doing what I love again, even though I'm rusty as hell, at least I know I'm building towards something, and hell it's just fun to sing! Maybe you could do the same? The thing about making art is you have to go through the process of making bad art in order to become good. If you never try, you'll never know. Time will go by regardless.
No. 2556204
>>2556177>but i find awkwardness kind of endearing in women irlayrt but what kind of awkwardness do you mean? If it's just something mild like accidentally saying "Thanks you too" to someone saying "Happy birthday" to you or having a big stutter then yeah I guess there may be some people that find that "cute" in a weird way. If it's something like constantly looking away when someone is talking to you, being extremely quiet all the time, having closed off body language, etc. that creates awkwardness so severe that it is extremely unlikely for anyone to find that appealing. You actively start to make everybody around you uncomfortable. My only saving grace is that I'm a woman because it is probably slightly less bad for women than for moids. Awkward women don't usually
trigger your fight-or-flight like awkward moids do.
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>>2556153If we only made art because it's the best and most original idea ever, nobody would make art at all.
No. 2556218
>>2556215God I wish I could
not come off cold and distant but I always appear that way. I have terminal uncute awkwardness
No. 2556223
>>2555490Thank you for the advice. You’re right. And also - I’ve realised that yes, it’s the internet that makes me feel bad for growing older. Irl, I don’t care, and I see older women and look up to them and look forward to seeing how my life will change and end up like. It’s never seemed sad to me at all, quite beautiful actually. And I don’t plan on having kids and hope I can indulge in my hobbies and grow as a person my whole life.
I still wish society weren’t like that though.
No. 2556247
>>2556218>>2556204 and same, people in school used to always think I was a bitch or mentally challenged. This is why I'm amused when a moid says he likes "awkward girls" because it shows he hasn't been around one truly so awkward she immediately kills the whole vibe and conversation in a room with her presence alone to the point you can practically hear the proverbial record stop or cricket chirp. Though to be fair, most people would just call such a person "weird" and probably know that "weird" is not synonymous with "awkward".
People unironically think I'm autistic now (I've been suddenly asked if I have autism by an autistic girl because apparently she was looking for "people like her"). There is nothing flattering about being so awkward people think you have autism. Unless the other person is an autist or they have some kind of very unconventional and off the grid tastes/behaviors. Maybe I should actually stop being worried about being with a freak moid so much because a freak one would be the only one to ever even remotely want me. kek I am too fucking out there for a moid that only cares for normie women. The problem then though is they expect women to still LOOK like normies while not being normies, because they want their cake and to eat it too. They love saying they have a preference for XYZ when their idea of XYZ is not grounded in reality.
No. 2556257
>>2556180Well, yeah, this is the vent thread after all. I know for a fact I'm not that good and I'll never be, if I was, I would've probably already accomplished a lot. I can't take any steps atm because of some extreme circumstances I mentioned in another vent I'm too embarrassed to link, but long story short is I was never given the chance to flourish or explore so I feel like it's too late and I'm running out of time. The lyric relates to me because I think singing and music is what I love the most and want to do for the rest of my life, my one true life goal and the reason I live, so it's an awful feeling to not be that good at it at all and being good at other things I occasionally do on the side and I'm not that passionate about. Hell I'm good at tech and programming despite hating it. Why does it have to be this way?
>>2556203>>2556207I relate to your experience with feeling like singing is your calling and unsupportive parents, except I didn't even get to have lessons or anything. I'm self taught and I sing occasionally or daily alone but can't stand recording and listening back. I even bought an expensive USB microphone to plug into my phone and experiment with but ended up too insecure to actually use it. It feels pointless because I'll never be the diva of my dreams and go down in history as the best singer ever so why do it? I don't want to be another generic or forgettable underground artist of some sort, that's lame. I want to actually become a millionaire, Taylor Siwft tier from this but that's unrealistic because I'm ugly, too awkward and clumsy, and my personal background would put me in too much danger anyways it would sabotage and ruin everything from the start. It's so frustrating and annoying to live in this dichotomy of what I want vs. what I can actually get which is literally nothing in comparison. It drives me insane because how dare reality not match my fantasies. It's always been that way and always would and I hate it.
>>2556208But the unoriginal slop falls through the cracks and gets forgotten if not straight up insulted. I don't want to be in that position where my creations are looked down upon and mocked. I want to be critically acclaimed level of good and become an important figure in history. I know some of the greatest artists out there were disliked or underrated during their time and only appreciated long after they're gone, but they made their stuff knowing it was good and one day people will see it and they were right. I don't have that kind of confidence in my non-existent creations.
>>2556240True but he has a point lol. This crackhead can come up with something that hits while high and my sober ass who is probably smarter than him can't. That says something. The song was a parody of pop music, too and yet it was good and got popular, I could never come up with something as a joke even. I'm creatively bankrupt.
No. 2556282
>>2556264I just wish we could have a cosy internet space. Anons say asking for this means you want a cuddlebox like the rest of the internet for women but I wouldn’t even like that, I hate that shit. I just wish we were kind of friends more instead of so antagonistic like we’re at each other’s throats, I feel like I’m on a battlefield out there and everyone here is my enemy sometimes kek. I smile so much when I get a genuine reply. In the end I do value nonas’ opinions about everything the most out of anyone else on the internet though, and honestly all of the most insightful takes I’ve ever read have been on here, so when it’s good it’s good, just sucks it has to be kind of depressing half the time.
>>2556275Yeah, back when I was a chronically infighting newfag I just found it fun and didn’t care about the longevity of the site either kek. Lolcow has become like my internet third place though so now it feels like vandalising a treasured spot.
No. 2556292
>>2556287See? I already have the attitude of a star, so where is my Hollywood star pavement thingy with my hand prints in it?
>>2556289I do practice but it still gets nowhere and not what I want it to be. Can't afford voice lessons and all voice teachers are insane or charging 5000+ for a 1 month online GROUP lesson. I want one on one in person lessons. I can't afford an instrument or speakers or real food quality microphone either so how am I supposed to track any progress via recording? My phone alone isn't cutting it. I don't want to download some stupid software and play around with pre-recorded shit, that's not real creativity.
No. 2556299
>>2556292Sorry, I’m just observing this conversation so not particularly involved - but it sounds like you want to be famous, not want to make music, right? I make music for fun sometimes and people listen to me on Soundcloud now, not like I used connections it’s just that I enjoyed doing what I like and was lucky. I’m cool with just sharing and listening to underground music too because I just enjoy music. It sounds like you just don’t know where you want your happiness from.
You’re right that a lot of artists have your mindset though, just with better luck. They’re usually artistically worse though, so. Not who I look up to
No. 2556302
>>2556297Not really, in the music industry you need minimal equipment to make something that sounds decent enough and worth sharing or selling, and the equipment are important to the process of composing or writing. I can't have a melody in mind and just not play it and record it somehow, then I'll lose the idea. Already existing assets won't help create the idea I envision in my mind, not that I have any but hypothetically speaking.
>>2556299What's the point of doing anything if you're not gonna get famous? Singing is literally about connecting with an audience, especially a real live audience while you're on stage. You can't connect with anyone when you're singing behind a screen. It doesn't feel like being heard at all. Doesn't help that the recording and compressing could misrepresent your voice, while a live performance can be more authentic if you want it to be and is the perfect way to show off your talent and potential. I have no respect for singers or musicians who can't sing/play their music properly live and have to fall back on 292817819 pre-recorded tracks or keep making mistakes, I don't want to be like them because I know if I had the chance I'd probably be better.
No. 2556306
>>2556292Kek, I'm the exact opposite of you. For me art is more like an act of exorcism than anything, I have shitty music, stories and characters living rent free in my head and actually making things with them is the only way I can smoke them out of my skull. Almost zero desire to share things I make, I admire my janky handiwork and experience a moment of pride for finishing something then they immediately go into the bin.
Honestly, I think you suffer from
toxic perfectionist syndrome more than anything and the disinterested parents and lack of opportunities is just the excuse you've latched onto to never actually make anything. You need to figure out if you actually want to make things and like making things or are just attached to the idea of making 'great' things.
No. 2556308
>>2556302>What's the point of doing anything if you're not gonna get famous?I dunno, spiritual fulfillment? The joy of creation? Countless artists started out playing small gigs at open mics, they didn't get to skip straight to arena shows and press junkets. You want fame without any sacrifice.
>I know if I had the chance I'd probably be better.If wishes were horses beggars would ride. You sound like a 45 year old man who still talks about how he was on the varsity football team in high school. Vidrel, I listen to this song when I need to stop being so negative and feeling sorry for myself. It reminds me of you kek
No. 2556319
>>2556303With who and what? Air instruments and band members? Air sound guy? I can't afford to hire them or rent instruments. Doesn't help that my country doesn't have the culture of music clubs or friends forming bands or music competitions or any place where you can go and play for money or even basking because music was illegal up until the 2010s and is culturally frowned down upon. They arrest people for performing live and destroy musical instruments and gear all the time. Ain't no way I'm finding any opportunities in this godforsaken land.
>>2556306Being a perfectionist is the only correct way to live, striving for the best is great. Getting the ideas out of my head isn't enough if there's no real tangible payoff, but thanks for the advice.
>>2556308>I dunno, spiritual fulfillment? The joy of creation? Countless artists started out playing small gigs at open mics, they didn't get to skip straight to arena shows and press junkets. You want fame without any sacrifice.I know, I won't get to ever do the small gigs either. There's no fulfillment or joy if it doesn't go anywhere after that.
>I listen to this song when I need to stop being so negative and feeling sorry for myself. It reminds me of you kekFound my theme song, being a hater is fun. Jokes aside I am having a midlife crisis at 23 because everything is falling apart rather than in place and nothing ever goes my way and I never get to do what I want so why live.
>>2556312See my first reply at the start of this post for context.
No. 2556339
>>2556330I'm more upset that I was born in this environment when I have this aspiration so I never got to flourish into my dreams and was forced into a boring tech job instead. In an alternative universe where I was born somewhere normal and was a normal person with a normal life I'd probably make it big and be happy. Plus music academies and instruments shops started opening after the ban was lifted, both of my parents enjoyed singing and listening to music and literally exposed me to it, my dad was a poet and wrote and recorded tons of his poetry although it was awful, yet they got angry at me for enjoying music and wanting to be a singer because that's a "prostitute job". So they never allowed me to learn or invested in my potential and yelled at me and told me to shut up instead. While less passionate but lucky spoiled brats around me got to do what they wanted because their parents weren't as retarded and hypocritical as mine. I just feel trapped in my circumstances and like I missed out on living all together.
>>2556332But I unironically could do it better if I got the chance to and the perfect circumstances and was invested into and allowed to flourish enough. You won't get it until you experience it firsthand.
No. 2556340
>>2556315My former IRL best friend was someone I had known since sixth grade and she TIFed out in high school because of making friends with some weeb enbies from class that gave her a binder. She was also already insecure about being a tomboy and had just gotten out of an
abusive relationship with a crazy TIF, so after meeting those enbies it was bound to happen. It can happen anywhere if they're gullible, desperate to fit in, and insecure enough.
No. 2556342
>>2556339Excuses, excuses, excuses. Nobody in this thread feels sorry for you and explaining your situation more isn't going to make us feel sorry for you.
>You won't get it until you experience it firsthand.You think you're the only artist with parents who didn't encourage it? Lmao
No. 2556358
>>2556341Yeah in my bedroom, duh.
>>2556342No but I'm probably one of the few who'd get beaten up or arrested for being one.
>>2556346Why can't I be both? It's not like being famous cancels being an artist or being talented.
>>2556352We don't really have any and the few rare ones that do exist are propaganda songs choirs I'd never get into. Their music also suck balls I'd never want to sing it. I hate group projects/work and I'd just feel worse being in it.
No. 2556361
>>2556339Kek your mentality is so depressing and pathetic you've actually managed to motivate me to practice guitar today even though I wasn't feeling it. Thanks
nonny.
No. 2556363
>>2556358>propaganda songs choirskek is that a fancy new way of saying church choirs, or do you live somewhere like North Korea?
>>2556361God same. I think I'm gonna sing folk songs today. Enjoy your guitar
nonnie!
No. 2556368
>>2556363No, they are North Korea tier shit about how it's the best country ever and everyone else sucks and is trying to destroy us secretly so we should all be sheep and never question authority. There are religious songs as well mixed in. And in the rare occasion folk songs but these suck so hard and are so insincere thanks to the history being rewritten and lots of the real folk and native culture being destroyed but the culture also always sucked since ancient times so nothing they ever make is good. It's why I was drawn to the forbidden western and east Asian music because I can see the soul in it.
>>2556362>>2556361Glad I was useful I guess.
No. 2556369
>>2556363I'm so mad that she has the opportunity to join a propaganda choir and refuses to take advantage of it. I love those hammy juche and soviet songs.
Some people, they have all the luck in the world and refuse to do anything with it. Life just isn't fair.
No. 2556380
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I feel really shaken and mad right now. I have a little brother who is 11 and who has recently gotten into mangas, I knew that he was reading demon slayer, which is more or less okay , although I would have preferred if he didn’t read it yet.
A cousin of ours , who is 12, told him that he found this manga recommendation on YouTube and that they should read it together. My retarded father went and bought it once my brother asked this summer, since they spend summer together (parents are divorced).
You know what the manga is? Goodnight, PunPun. I stumbled upon it while I was tidying up since I came to visit (I’m away for uni), I was so worried. He told me that he didn’t read it and just saw the first pages and found it boring and preferred demon slayer. I don’t know if it’s true, I hope so.
Ughh why did they even start getting him mangas? Why do retarded adults don’t check the stuff they give to their kids? It literally takes 5 minutes to scroll the first book quickly and you’ll find masturbation scenes and pornography. I get that it might not be interesting to you, but goodness check the stuff you buy for your underage children.
Why do I have more common sense than a 50 year old scrote?
No. 2556385
>>2556380And I hate the parents of the 12 year old cousins too while I’m at that. They just let this child do anything he wants. I wouldn’t be surprised if he is already watching porn.
Why even make kids if you can’t even try to raise them.
No. 2556403
>>2556394I already took them , told my mother and sent a text to my father (but it’s late at night and he is asleep I think).
My brother was pretty on board once I explained it to him, I even told him that next time he should just call me and ask me for recommendations or ask if the manga that he wants to read is appropriate.
He’s a good kid at heart, at least for now, it just scares me that the world around him can pollute him so easily. Having children is terrifying.
No. 2556450
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i’m the nonnie who has posted about mysterious iron issues (ferritin of 7) and constant fatigue/brain fog before. been supplementing for a month and a half now, different kinds of iron, to no avail. i was desperate and gave up being vegetarian to eat a massive steak—to no avail. i thought i’d at least feel a rush of good feelings. my sleep is really good lately, so it isn’t that. diet is the same, mostly whole foods and i supplement with vit d, magnesium, b-12, etc.
this past week (before my period) has been the worst. i am emotionless. i lay in bed all day, and i lose breath and get dizzy if i try to go back to working out. i used to jog/walk 30-90 min daily and do pilates here and there. can’t do either anymore. can’t do my hobbies. my brain is mush and my doctors are out of options since we ruled everything out.
my only other guess is iron will still take many months, or my pmdd/combined with potential endo could be playing a role this week. i just have never had such an extreme period of fatigue during my luteal, to the point where i can’t even do things i love and i need to go sit down. i tried pepcid, nac, everything. i also take stimulants, have not felt them for months despite playing with dosages.
i feel so frustrated and lost. i hate myself but i know it isn’t “my fault.” but when the world is moving without you, you are gaining weight and unable to follow your goals…you feel useless. people judge you. i’m not even fun to be around anymore. i can’t care for others like i usually am able to. nonnies i feel so helpless
No. 2556848
I've never been this burned out in my life. Too burnt out to do anything I actually like or usually relaxes me. I don't even feel like cooking or eating anymore I snack on quick stuff or eat leftovers from my family's meals or takeout because I get hungry too quickly and need to eat instantly or I'd get too sleepy, go to sleep without food, wake up extremely hungry, have an ok breakfast, feel too braindead for the rest of the day, have the snack/leftovers, sleep, rinse and repeat. I've been like this for like 3 months or something it's insane. And I went back to my bad habits of doomscrolling and fighting online. Can't watch anything on YouTube either because I end up zoning out and bored, or the topic makes me think of some negative things and my mind drifts there. Weirdly enough I can binge watch shows, which is usually not something I can do when burnt out. Better than nothing I guess. Problem is this only works with English VA shows, won't be able to binge watch anything subbed because I don't want to read lmao. I don't want to read a manga or comics or fanfiction anymore either. Too braindead to process anything at all. Barely can listen to music, too. I miss walking but the weather is too shit and I don't have a treadmill and my bones and muscles are begging for movement. Someone put me out of this miserable existence. Yes I have anemia why are you asking?
No. 2556891
>>2556866Samefag but I keep getting worried that everyone's lying to me about my work being great. And I feel really guilty when I look at people trying to enter this industry and not doing as well as I am.
Even had a moment where I considered telling everyone it was all a massive prank and that I use AI for everything, even though I don't! I take pains not to use it even though it's now embedded in all the research tools and software I use. But it would take me off the hook.
I think entering this industry with already-low self esteem majorly fucked me up. If I don't fix it I could get everything I wanted, like critical acclaim and the ability to always live off my work, and still just ruin it from feelings of misplaced guilt. Really just messes up whole aspects of your life. Read a self-help book on this once and it helped a little bit. 'You are no better or worse than anyone else' is the mantra that occasionally works
No. 2557035
you know that awkward moment when you say something and the person in front of you is visibly uncomfortable, tries to change the subject of conversation, or worse, says absolutely nothing at all, just because they don't want to offend you, well I often only realize that happened way later, usually after I get ghosted, that no one actually tells you anything to your face, it's just left to you as a complimentary memory to revisit every night before falling asleep, when you start actively where everything went so wrong, and that's often all I can ever remember, the unspoken spit in the face
No. 2557070
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>be me
>30 years old
>live with parents
>never had boyfriend
>Go do something quick at the kitchen
>leave phone plugged to my charger but unlocked because I'm retarded
>Sex chat website in plain view
>engaging in a sexy scenario with anime boy
>persona has my nickname
>mom charges her phone with my charger
>phone is placed so she can easily just read everything
>consider suicide
So that's how my night is going, any tips for me to kill myself quickly? I was thinking of jumping out of the window, I live in a 10th floor.
No. 2557089
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>>2557079>>2557077Tbh, she was distracted playing clash Royale so maybe, just maybe, she didn't read anything? She was very calm, just playing her game and getting mad because she was losing and telling me about how she just knew that the game was rigged so non-paying users always lost.
I really need to stop thinking about this or I will just let the intrusive thoughts win and I will ask her if she saw something on my phone.
It's retarded but I think it's unfair that I have to worry about this when a cousin of mine, who is the same age I am, openly talks about the shit he does when he's hooking up with randos during family gatherings. We judge him but still, I want that freedom of not giving a fuck.
No. 2557129
>>2556660It’s an insecurity thing. A lot of people are pressured (successfully) into being a copy of everyone else and like the treatment that gets them. They are scared of sticking out.
It starts early in school when girls comment on your clothes and you get stares and whispers if you dress too weird, but compliments if you dress just like other girls you want to be friends with. You don’t want to be weird for the same reason it’s scary to be ugly, you think people will be mean. For a lot of girls this continues into adulthood. Most adults don’t care and won’t talk about you that way anymore, but the girls you’re used to hanging out with might so you keep conforming. If you’ve ever seen a group of normie high school or college girls walking around, many of them dress identical to one another. Same reason why they follow trends to some degree, including surgery, and ask “what are we wearing” instead of just picking an outfit. It’s comfortable to them.
No. 2557315
>>2557231That actually makes complete sense doesn’t it? Or is it that those retards still thrive? Retards are literally considered intellectuals. Fat people fit. Ugly beautiful. Men women, women men… It’s ridiculous. What has happened to us?
>>2557214But the way someone carries themselves can influence how we perceive their looks and intelligence. It’s not that I automatically find unattractive people unintelligent, but there is a noticeable overlap. for example, people with mild to moderate intellectual disabilities often also have asymmetrical facial features. Regardless I have no issue with disabled people. I have issue with people who are considered normal yet clearly fucked up.
No. 2557340
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>>2557332
She's just way too smart for low IQ things like socializing and empathy
No. 2557374
>>2557371I feel your pain, so many replies to deleted posts. The archeological record has been destroyed and, since I was not there for the event, I can only ever get a partial picture of what went down.
This must be how historians felt watching videos of ISIS trashing Palmyra.
No. 2557386
>>2556450I was on prescribed iron+b12 for over six months before I stopped being horribly anemic (to the point where I had nerve pain, could barely walk, struggled to even use my hands at the peak of it). It might also take a long time for you, I remember I kept getting tested after each box of iron pills and kept testing way too low, and the nerve pain took a long time to stop even when the fatigue went away and my levels went back to normal.
I'm sorry you're going through this, anemia gets joked about a lot as being something women are doomed to have especially if we have PCOS/endo, but it's really horrendous when it gets that bad. Be gentle to yourself while you deal with this and know it WILL improve. I'm still a vegetarian, I just take multi-vitamins now and have no anemia issues at all anymore, I'm back to all my hobbies and exercise, and the months of anemia are just a bad memory now.
No. 2557397
>>2557191Without more context, spitballing:
>below average people still tend to find happiness and values in their existence that you cannot understand because you yourself do not find comfort in your own in spite of whatever work you feel you put into being averageFix it.
No. 2557410
>>2557404Trust me, if I knew you in real life, I’d probably hang myself. Go play with your only friend (chatgpt) and ask them why you’re so below average.
>>2557403I don’t do visits boss
(infighting) No. 2557472
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There's this gay couple in my family who we've been very close to even though we're not closely related. Basically growing up my mom's cousin was my main "fatherly" figure and we went on holidays together once or twice a year and celebrated christmas together. I felt almost closer to him than my mom in some ways as our personnality and interests were closer. He often made misogynistic remarks in a catty fag way but I didn't mind it as it kinda trained me to answer to those attacks, and I took it as sarcasm. But I felt the real misogyny when by brother was born. I love my brother but to be honest I was a way brighter, calmer and just easier to handle child than he is, but it doesn't matter since I'm a girl. He has been showered with the most expensive gifts every year, whereas I get a cheap bracelet for Christmas. He's even been invited to holidays alone. Disregarding the material things they just care more about him and have been since he was born, just because of his sex. One of them even told my mom that he will put my brother in his will to inherit everything he has. I don't even care about the money but the symbolic act of seeing him as their "heir" even though I've lived twice as many experiences and memories with them is hurtful. It's the kind of deep-rooted misogyny that you don't except from your safe close environment and that hurts the most. They just don't see me past my sex. Moids (even gay ones, who supposedly encountered discrimination themselves) can never understand how it feels to be a lower-grade human. I'll be letting go of that kid in me that wanted to impress them and be loved my them.
No. 2557511
>>2557499Bullying and insults
>>2557492Post your MENSA card and I'll post mine.
No. 2557517
>>2557446You're moving goalposts. "Below average" could have meant anything in your original post (including "below average" people who are not mean, bullies, etc.).
Life is just unfair kid. That's the answer. Shit people sometimes win over you and you have no choice but to stiff upper lip.
No. 2557525
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i hate eating but i can't stop
it's the only thing that makes me feel some sort of sensation
i hate feeling empty all the time
i'm tired of carrying this weight
thank you parents for never doing more but providing the bare minimum and leaving me and my siblings alone for days on end for work WORK COMES BEFORE NURTURING I GUESSS HAHAHA haha HAhahaHAgHAHA GOTTA LOVE IT WHAT A GREAT JOKE
No. 2557532
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Goddamnit what is it with people on dating apps that only give you short replies without any attempt to add anything to the conversation? No follow-up questions, no proper response to the topic, nothing, already from the start I have to carry the bloody conversation. Why did you even match with me if you're not interested in holding a conversation? I'd rather you ghost me or unmatch then, instead of replying. What is your point in being on a dating app if you're not even going to try to find a connection with someone and just expect the other person to do all the work?
I usually give it a couple of days whenever I try to chat with someone like that, in case they were just having a bad day and they are too attractive/we seem to have too much in common to give up on immediately.
No. 2557594
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I don't know if I'm being controlled or if I even have a right to make my own decisions.
My mother hates my boyfriend and wants us to break up and although I don't think she's right about him, I can't blame her for her concerns either. I am also the last person in her life aside from my stepdad, and her happiness relies on my wellbeing.
She has been abused by men her whole life, starting with her father and brother and then every man since including my dad. My boyfriend also shares a serious mental illness with her first husband, who killed himself and traumatized her for life due to such behavior.
On paper my relationship does seem concerning, we moved very quickly and he is mentally ill and was still struggling with drugs when we met. She has made a point of keeping me away from even alcohol so I understand why this was alarming to her. But he is medicated quite well and has vowed to stay off of substances to maintain stability.
But I just can't make sense of her arguments and accusations aside from her saying anything possible to get me away. Some of it has been personal attacks.
>angry at me for hiding my relationships from her (the last one she knew about she insisted on being present during the break up despite me being 24 at the time)
>accused me of taking advantage of my boyfriend and my ex-gf who was autistic/also struggled with mental health (the same issues as myself)
>accused my boyfriend of taking advantage of me
>said he WILL beat and kill me despite him not being violent, if anything I've shown more signs because I'm a BPDfag and break things like a toddler when I'm upset
>says I'm ruining the rest of her life and now she can never rely on me emotionally
>accused me of dating him to make her angry or copy her life path (not the case at all, although her stories of her first husband desensitized me to mental illness and made me more accepting)
>says I degraded myself by having sex with him
>always brings up my OLD self-harm habits as if she's sympathetic but will say "I did it first when I was young and all on my own without the internet" and will do the same with my suicidal tendencies
Our relationship was always dependent growing up, both ways with almost no boundaries. I have no idea what is healthy and how to be independent. Maybe I am in the wrong. Part of me wants to just leave everyone behind in this situation. Idfk I just need to put this out somewhere.
No. 2557621
>>2557164Funny, wonder how many of them are former fujos who dove headfirst into the fujo-to-TIF pipeline?
>"EwWwW, women sexualizing men is so wrong and gross!"Meanwhile the dumb bitch based her entire identity off of a Mouthwashing mpreg fic starring Jimmy.
No. 2557677
>>2557628vpn ban is dogshit and doesnt work
but lolcow is still less bad than before
No. 2557686
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God fucking dammit, I finally find one guy I like after years of not being attracted to anyone and he has a girlfriend. We have so much in common, he's so sweet and has such a pretty face, and it's being wasted on a woman who posts her tits on Twitter. My only consolation is that him and his girlfriend live 2 hours apart, also he loves nature and wants to live somewhere quiet while she lives in the capital, so I'm just waiting for things to inevitably fall into place, even if that makes me sound like a bitch.
No. 2557772
>>2557472This is kind of a late reply but what the hell.
I'm sorry that you had to experience that, it's always really hard when people you're close to disappoint you in such a personal manner. I'm glad that you're aware that the difference in treatment isn't from any failing on your part and it doesn't sound like you're the kind of person who allows herself to be poisoned by resentment.
No. 2557780
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I went to visit my mom a while ago with my dad, wearing pic related and her first comment, before even a hello and in front of my dad, was "You should wear a less see through shirt, I can see your tits."
I've worn it around her before that and I was wearing a white bra underneath that day. Part of me thinks she was just trying to get me to wear clothes she picked out but now I'm worried that this shirt is actually somehow sheer and I'm not sure if I should go outside in it.
No. 2557938
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I always get a stomachache for hours if I force myself to eat, but lately I haven't had any appetite for some reason so I have to force myself to eat in the morning and in the evening so I get the nutrients I need, which usually means fucking stomachaches. I fucking hate it.
No. 2558039
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the bad news keep coming
No. 2558084
>>2558069Hes definitely not malnourished, we feed him plenty and not crap either. Hes 80 something percent for height and 60 something for weight. I read to him too, play with him. I dont know when they diagnose this stuff, but I noticed he seemed to be a little behind other kids his age at the playground.
>>2558071Not multilingual. I have some family members with aspergers but I dont think that shows up til much older.
No. 2558124
It’s been deleted
Anyways
>>>/g/573083 is a below average monkey, she literally wished rape on an clean hairless anon. This is exactly what I mean about stupid peoooe being ugly but I didn’t know they were hairy too eww
(infighting) No. 2558148
>>2558130Moids trying to win arguments will warp their perspectives and arguments to suit the argument. They care less about pursuing and promoting what they truly believe to be true and more for the perception of victory. When they can't come up with a rational argument to win they'll resort to personal attacks and they'll say whatever they think will offend or hurt the person they're targetting.
Hence: if they're trying to argue that it is harder to be a man, they will make up stories about how easy women have it in comparison — if they're trying to insult or demean a specific woman they will tell her she's ugly, undesirable and doomed to die alone if they think it will get under her skin.
No. 2558169
>>2558158I don't know anything about your particular situation or who you're arguing with but in my experience few things cause men more emotional harm than being ignored or pitied. Just showing that you're unbothered and living your best life makes them crazy, like
>>2558160 said.
They might scurry away and tell their buddies 'I bullied this foid until she ignored me!' but ultimately their goal is generally to get your attention and to make you feel bad.
No. 2558172
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>Gym is now more populated than usual because teens are on summer break
God as if it wasn’t annoying enough dealing with old scrotes who hog machines and then not wipe them down afterwards. Now I gotta deal with shit head zoomers. So fucking annoying.
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>>2558191>doesn’t know what an inconvenience it is to go to a full gymNGMI obese-Chan
No. 2558250
>>2557280won't change the fact that it keeps happening, the worst part is if they didn't care about me they'd just tell me to my face, but no, on one hand they tease me with good manners but they end up giving up all the same, that or they're just treating me like a child, pretending to ignore the bad aspects, meekly pushing for something else that's not coming their way, and eventually leaving you out to dry, it's a very specific feeling, lingering on my mind, having someone feel disappointed yet intimidated, paying you lip service (or not) until it's too much for them to bear, they'll never tell me what's wrong with me, because they don't care about anything but getting something out of me, and I don't even know what