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No. 2537677
A thread for venting about difficult, weird, or stupid stuff going on in your life.
Previous vent thread:
>>>/ot/2525310Follow all the /ot/ board rules & do not reply to bait.
Please, do not come to this thread to make fun of anons' vents, to demean them, or to try and be funny with some shit snark reply. It's annoying. If you do not have anything nice to say, don't say it at all. No. 2537725
>>2537705If no one actually cares that's awesome, but then why am I seeing giant rants about het partnered women like every fucking day? Also this is a vent thread, I'm going to be venting just like everyone else even if you disagree with me. I've said before I'm not opposed for being with a dude, that doesn't change that I still encounter women on radblr who annoy the shit out of me for being so daft. Seeing them not understand the reality of their situation does get on my nerves after so long of hearing about it. The only way to really get other female friends that don't do this seems to be pretending to not hate troons and not hate religion
Okay I don't want to drag this out into the new thread so this will be my last reply, I was venting anyways so even if someone else has a great point in response I'm too heated to really listen to it honestly
No. 2537730
>>2537725It’s the same as the 4B movement, western women can’t really abandon men but still want to be included in movements that don’t fit them. That’s why you are this “heated” in the first place.
It’s called RADICAL for a reason, not because it’s quirky and cute.
No. 2537734
>>2537725You literally sound like a child throwing a tantrum over not being included in a play game.
>Seeing them not understand the reality of their situation does get on my nerves after so long of hearing about it.Kek people really get surprised when something radical is actually radical.
No. 2537765
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i am now overeating to fill an emotional void kek. i worry that i am in fact an endless void, where no amount of activity, social or physical, accomplishments, hobbies, or otherwise will make me feel like i am not happy or otherwise missing out on life.
to be fair, i have had a total lack of these things and have only seen sunlight for a couple hours in the last week. i'm just scared that i'll never be satisfied or feel like i made the right choices in life. i have to be talking/laughing with someone nonstop or else the feelings come right back
No. 2538041
>>2537959nayrt but it's still part of the site history/origin story. and i think probably the other nona meant that she's just sad to see how /cgl/ culture has completely disappeared/become irrelevant after 10 years.
i'm an oldfag too for what it's worth. /cgl/ was always funny as fuck to me because everyone in our comm denied browsing it yet every single one of them immediately were aware when drama was going on or one of the locals had been posted there. they'd only fess up about it in private. imageboard culture overall has just gotten affiliated with rancid incel types by the general public nowadays, though…
No. 2538289
>>2538271Shit genetics, my mom's and grandma's hair never grew fast nor long. I don't put my hair into updos at all and have silk everything.
Everyone says the appearance of body hair growing faster is an optical illusion but it's simply not true for everyone. I experimented this by comparing a 4 week old plucked pube hair to the virgin hair growth on my head after a fresh dye job (inb4 dying it is the reason; nah, it was like this before too) and the pube hair was way longer.
No. 2538321
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I genuinely want to die. I looked at photos where I was an anachan and I'm now 5'4 and fucking 147 pounds. I'm literally my old worst nightmare. I used to have such a nice waist and it's somehow completely gone with the weight gain. I look like the fucking Pillsbury Doughboy and I'm not even joking. I don't want to go full anachan because I was a fucking judgmental, evil creature when I was (I currently still hate most anachans), but I'm definitely going to be taking some drastic measures to get close to where I was. Godspeed, nonnas.
No. 2538338
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Why did I decide to fall in love with a moid that I know my life will be significantly harder than with a more conventional choice
No. 2538456
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I feel pathetic. I'm still hung up on my ex and I have been hung up on him nearly a decade. We've talked on and off but I always fuck it up. Last time we talked, it ended up with me getting blocked on pretty much everything. Minor stupid detail, but I guess relevant, I have a feeling he's checking my socials despite having me blocked. The thing is, I've tried to date other people(prior to being blocked and after), I've dated some fantastic men but it all ends up the same, I start thinking about him. Should I just prepare for the life of a spinster because nothing else is working. I tried every coping mechanism possible throughout the years. I truly doubt he will come back and I'm tired of feeling like I'm waiting for him. The only thing that brings me comfort is my fictional husbando. I feel like I've been cursed, it's so bad I joke that this is just the angelfire-esque love spell backfiring that I did for him when I was middle school.
No. 2538486
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Asshole ex bf is sperging at me for deleting a photo I had of him on an easy to climb rock because " he bruised his knee climbing that rock and doesn't have any other photos of himself in general and he wants it for him and his mom"
Now I am scared of him doxig me because of this
Also saw him naked and didn't see no bruise after that so…
No. 2538605
>>2538570The male equivalent of this is "yeah my girlfriend is tooootally insane but she
controls me with
sex" kek
No. 2538688
>>2538639Murican politics are a fucking virus infecting every country. I live in a third world country with a high rate of femicide, but guess what activists are focusing on now? Yeah, it's troons. Fuck real women I guess, the only ones that matter are the ones who were born male.
>>2538673Great question, I also wonder who's making bank out of this. The only answer I see is medical and pharmaceutical businesses. Troons are patients for the rest of their life, they're reluctant to criticize or analyse what's being done to them, and they convert others to a life of pain and misery at an alarming rate.
No. 2538811
>>2538783Befriending artists online is always weird ime. I feel like once you get to know them they care more about the person than the artwork and will straight up forget things you've made for them. But some of them don't even care about the person, they just like having
someone around. If you don't pull back often enough they'll take you for granted. Maybe there are normal and well-adjusted fandom artists out there but I've never met one. My only advice is to never make more drawings than the other person is willing return unless you're really into the subject and would've done it without their influence, otherwise you'll start to get resentful eventually.
No. 2538813
>>2538802she said nothing untrue, muslim moids lock up women to serve as broodmares while they rape goats and boys
t. ex-muslim woman
No. 2538828
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My new job makes me feel so stupid and worthless. A manager gave me a task and told me to ask her if I had any questions about the process. I sent her the first basic part and asked if I should be able to do the next without client input and she hasn't responded in two days. I feel like she's gotta be trying to find a replacement for me because she didn't expect me to be this useless. It took me a full week because I had other stuff going on and needed some extra days just to get familiar with the topic but I'm sure it could've been done in like two hours by a smarter person. And that person would've had additional input or questions as well. But I just don't understand what I'm missing. Somehow everyone else is seemingly able to conjure up info out of thin air. I really don't get it. It's difficult to sit there and not think about how I don't belong
No. 2538831
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I'm sick atm and I hate how good my roommate's food smells, but anything that isn't yoghurt or meal bars taste like puke to me right now. So I'm sitting here smelling spaghetti bolognese from the kitchen like a starved dog knowing I can't have any at the moment.
No. 2538905
>>2538904he even left the food out again im just so annoyed
does he expect shit to just be cleared magically or what
No. 2538906
>>2538859Ntayrt but if I didn’t know better I would assume we were siblings kek. I understand how frustrating it is
nonny, especially if the stories your family members tell don’t include you in any way. I’m happy for you and whatever happened in your life at the very least.
No. 2538916
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I've been trying to get help about my self-hatred for several years. The way it's absolutely impossible for me to take in any sort of compliments or positive assertions about my skills or personality. I just can't. I'm so full of hatred and can't enjoy any sort of win for myself because I feel like I didn't deserve them or faked it. It's like impostor syndrome on steroids. All of this with how much I absolutely hate my body and have periods where looking at myself in the mirror causes me genuine distress.
But no one has ever taken me seriously on these parts. They tried to diagnose me with BPD and have me do DBT, which well…turns out I don't have BPD (but they did consider body dysmorphia and ptsd, but nothing came of it despite several requests from me), but DBT did help with some other issues I had but not these specific ones.
Today I stumbled upon the term rejection sensitive dysphoria, and while it wasn't a 1:1 it felt like it hit close to home. I don't know if I should bring it up with a professional though, because it sounds like such a made-up tumblr term even though it appears to be a very real thing.
No. 2538925
>>2538906Ayrt, thank you
nonnie. There's a very particular type of frustration and helplessness that occurs when you have to be around a family that has a combined total of zero social skills. It actually makes me seethe sometimes listening to my boyfriend's or my friend's parents talk to them because they seem like real people with real thoughts and feelings and a brain that works and not like narcissistic robot AIs with canned responses kek. Thank you again
nonnie and I hope your family can manage to be less stressful to be around, but that is definitely a pipe dream. Hope you don't have to deal with them so much at least.
No. 2538946
>>2538933>>2538927it feels presumptuous, like stop trying to read my mind or predict my movements like a creep. but I think it feels like that because she's consistently wrong. I'm always having to be like "No, actually…". Sometimes her assumptions are so off base/based on fanfic that it trips me up.
In a way you're taking away my agency to tell my story by trying to jump ahead to the conclusion. And then if you're wrong it's like…why should I bother to explain if you're gonna make up your own explanations
No. 2538963
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>>2538953As someone who knows nothing about VTubers, their arguments over who is more "male pandering" just look like this kek
No. 2538966
>>2538947Practically all my life. Sure, I can point at my mom who is an ex-model turned workaholic that had the same high expectations of me and my siblings both effort- and look-wise. Or that "frenemy" I had that I considered a close friend but would bully and put me down every chance she got and lie about what people actually thought of me. Or my
abusive ex.
All of these are very
valid reasons, but again - I felt like this all my life and all of these are so many years ago I feel like there is a limit to how long I can blame it on these people and acting like a
victim. At one point I have to take accountability for myself for a better relationship with myself, but I don't seem to have tools to do it on my own no matter how much I try.
No. 2538972
>>2538968problem is the idea of the fucking dishes rotting away is so disgusting to me, i have a bad fear of roaches and i know its the kind of stuff that attracts them
but if i do the dishes then its over im his mommyslave for the rest of the week
No. 2539001
>>2538966NTA but it sounds like, apart from your dislike of your appearance, your fundamental struggle is less one of self-hatred and more based in experiences of your trust being fucked with and a resulting understandable reticence to see any compliments as sincere. It can be hard to see compliments as anything other than two-faced insults when you've been deceived or held to impossible standards by people close to you.
If you have things you are good at and know you're good at, try to focus on those and share those with other people_normal people, not obsessively perfectionist insiders who will pick even good work apart. Also, try to not pathologize perfectly normal learned behaviors and reactions, that can just as easily be used as a cudgel to beat yourself with.
The very fact that you acknowledge that the self criticism is unrealistic and unfounded says to me that you'll be alright in the end.
No. 2539144
>>2537852>>2537121 was the specific post that made me write that post, but there have been others in the past.
>>2537867It's not that I think everyone on /cgl/ was a lesbian, just that women who used to use 4chan should be somewhat used to weird shit (or became fucked up from said weird shit themselves).
No. 2539204
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I wish this looming sense of hopelessness would go away or finish me off already. I don't think I'm strong enough to be here but I don't wanna make my family sad either. I feel trapped right now.
No. 2539235
>>2539227it was a dollar more than my previous company, and admit it wasnt too great though i wasnt bored. There were some girls i was bonding with but it was more the commitment i cared about, getting that consistent experience.
>>2539231part of my job was making sure ai didnt fuck up so ive some added anxiety from that. I know im perfectly capable of these jobs. But im worried im being outpaced simply because of the fact im a little retarded. Yes i can do more than ai, but can i do the same role + QC for lesser pay?
No. 2539264
Today we had a floater at work from another store. Never met her before. She was such a horrible tar pit of a person, I'm still reeling from it. She stole one of my clients, insulted my handiwork on another, and constantly condescended to me. Tried to neg me or one-up me on literally everything I said. She even talked shit about me to my work bestie when I went to the bathroom, because I wasn't cowering at any of her mean girl nonsense. She was the walking embodiment of a pickme… obsessed with validation, talking nonstop about her multiple baby daddies, bragging how every guy she meets is like totally obsessed with her, and insulting everyone's looks the moment their back was turned. She even faked a slight Irish accent every time she talked about how Irish she is. It was… insane.
I honestly feel bad for her, it must be a very pathetic life if you're in your 40s and still bragging about how you were a cheerleader in high school. A part of me wants to report her for stealing my client (they requested me specifically, she changed the name and took the appt instead), but I'm trying to avoid starting shit at this job. Wtf.
No. 2539271
>>2539219That sucks. I hope things improve for us and this is just a bump on the road.
>>2539222Thanks, nona. That is true. I feel like I just keep striking out, but you never know if you don't try. My mistake is always letting things like this get too in my head and make me more afraid of trying.
>>2539226I guess that's true, but being in therapy before didn't really help me overcome my romance anxiety. Maybe now that I'm older it would go better.
No. 2539300
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i think my sister is homophobic but i really thought she wasnt, i remembered her being more accepting for some reason.
Nowadays she constantly says most gay men are pedophiles or victims. Hearing her say this reminded me of something i completely forgot but years ago when i told her there was some lesbian girl in my class when i was in high school, she told me to be careful because lesbians are like men and one could rape me or something like that also the girl ended up being straight kek idk it feels weird to see how everyone around me is homophobic
No. 2539301
There's this woman in my class who i find completely insufferable. She talks so fucking loudly and i overheard her getting irritated over the one troon in my class who wants to join her clique conversation, when she and her cohort talk so fucking loudly, why the fuck do i know she is going to court whilst being all the way and the other side of the room. Don't get me wrong, i find the troon annoying too, but not as annoying as her surprisingly enough, only because the troon knows not to talk to me. She is just too reactive and over emotional, it's so fucking annoying. She talks so much shit about everyone in the room, i don't understand why she doesn't just shut the fuck up. She needs to have a strong opinion and emotion about everything, it's so fucking exhausting to be around, i wish she would take a xanax or something. This is a 30 year old woman with 3 kids and she acts like she peaked in high school and you can definitely tell she used to be a bully and thought she was hot shit because she was getting fucked at 16 and drinking alcohol and being a bad ass kid. I just want her to shut the fuck up forever, i can't wait to never see her dumb as fried hair again.
No. 2539378
>>2539373it's not, it was actually rather easy for me, I meant it was petty because all I needed was the motivation, but being unable to socialize even to the slightest extent made me give up, also many aggravating factors like going through a breakup, and isolating myself from everyone including my own family in the process
maybe I'll try again next year, but I'm not hopeful unless I find a good reason to be driven to do it all alone this time
I just wish it was as easy as some apparently make it to be
No. 2539380
Why do people still deny that blonde women with light colored eyes live life on easy mode lol when you're a brunette you must impress with your body, but a blonde can have an average build and still be considered a gigastacy. Blonde hair and light features are a halo and multiple women admitted people treated them better and that they got more attention as a blonde and that when they dyed their hair brown suddenly became invisible… Blonde women also don't get cheated on as much, and especially not with brunettes, and they get to date richer, higher value men, athletes etc. Even blonde kids get more love wtf. I remember as a kid with darker features, the blonde girls got more attention, more affection, all the kids wanted to play with them, adults coddled them.
>inb4 someone here mentions famous gigastacy brunettes popular with men
The point is the standards are different. When you have brown hair you must actually be a gigastacy of model tier. Othewise you get lost in the crowd. You're "basic", especially in a country where most people have brown hair. But when you have blonde hair, especially natural blonde hair (not an obvious brunette-to-bleached job) the hair alone elevates you.
No. 2539399
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There's no bottom to how evil a moid can be. I'm sickened that this hideous pos studied her videos, probably pretended to be the kind of man for her. No wedding ceremony, no real marriage according to his words just to cheat on her while she's 4 months pregnant with his child. Probably an ego thing for him that someone like him can get a woman like her. Fucking hell. At least, she's chose out immediately.
No. 2539425
>>2539399I saw this and immediately thought he looked like a paler nerdy version of Andrew Tate. It's the eyes. Tell me I'm crazy.
Either way, psychopathic phenotype
No. 2539496
>>2539429You did well
nonnie, you stopped the little birdie from a more painful passing. It would have died feeling so much worse if you hadn't helped. I hope you feel better soon and get out of that depression funk, you have a good heart.
No. 2539512
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My friend starts to gush about everything that's good in her life when I'm feeling down. She's done this a few times and I've started to suspect she does this on purpose. I've tried to gaslight myself it's just a coincidence and/or she's just that inconsiderate and eager to talk all about herself when not even asked. But my internal alarm bells are blaring and sensing something's not right with her
No. 2539532
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Society and men hating on women getting pixie/ buzz cuts are overreacting. Every time a previously long haired woman decides to post her new look on the internet men go ballistic in her comments like she just killed somebody and it's so retarded, they act like cutting your hair as a woman is some kind of crime or tragedy. Women don't look as bad as men do when going bald simply because we look better in general, even if not everyone can pull off short hair. I find it sad because it can be practical, low maintenance and comfy but I understand why most women are intimidated by the look and don't even try it if society reacts so harshly, specially at more conservative/ sexist countries, as a thirdie, the amount of women I've meet who decided to pass on short hair only because of potential social backlash/ mistreatment is wild. I just wish people weren't so obsessed with our personal choices, it's unfair, men can get their ugly low taper fades and nobody criticizes them yet we're supposed to perform feminity 24/7. The more shit they talk, the more their hairlines recede(ai outside of containment)
No. 2539575
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>>2539517I've told her about this some time ago, and she apologized back then. It sucks to think she's possibly doing it on purpose because I've spent so much time and effort helping her and being her therapist/mommy friend. And it also sucks if her emotional intelligence isn't that high and she doesn't realize she's doing that because it's tiring me out.
No. 2539599
>>2539412>>2539405>>2539380Where do you people live that blonde women get halo’d this hard?
Not to be bad but also ime darker haired women have been more likely to be pretty so I’ve seen way more of them with pretty privilege. I don’t know one blonde woman in my life with pretty privilege. I’m Asian though and this seems like a white people thing to fixate on in all honesty, maybe I just don’t understand it
No. 2539602
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I am convinced i am retarded. I asked some timeslots for some classes and the guy sent me a message saying something similar to ''7 to 9, 11, 13 to 15'' and for the life of me i couldnt understand what he meant. I also struggle a lot when people tell me to grab something and dont directly point to where it is, or give me vague instructions like ''do this excercise for some time, repeat the excercise a few times'' no bitch i am retarded tell me for how long and how many times.
No. 2539639
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>Bored
>Try to work on project
>Stop because can't focus
>Bored
Why
No. 2539657
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>>2539566His mars isn't conjunct or trine with your venus
No. 2539697
Had a dream last night that it was the first day of college, which isn't uncommon but it was the most vivid dream I've probably had, I had 3 assignments due and it was in real time, first two assignments I had to read two different articles and highlight discussion points, third I had to read the pied piper. Real time I sat through the first class, tried to stumble through the discussion and flipped and picked a random point from the article to bring up, second class I forget what happened but it was some lecture I didn't have to interact with, then third class I was looking for room 318 and asked someone and he said "318… you'll never find that. No one has ever found that classroom" and I was like dang, looked at my sheet again and it was 118, went downstairs and was trying to frantically read the pied piper before class began and then I realized "why the hell am I trying to do an assignment I havent bene in college for years" and then realized it was a dream, left the class and walked around the school until I woke up.
I'm almost 30 I keep getting these school dreams, scary my grandmother was in her 80s and said she was still getting them. At least now in the dream I realized It didn't make sense and was able to be lucid for it