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No. 2513893

A thread for venting about difficult, weird, or stupid stuff going on in your life.

Previous vent thread:
>>>/ot/2502439


Follow all the /ot/ board rules & do not reply to bait.

Please, do not come to this thread to make fun of anons' vents, to demean them, or to try and be funny with some shit snark reply. It's annoying. If you do not have anything nice to say, don't say it at all.

No. 2513928

Thanks for making the new thread anon, I was struggling to find a decent threadpic

No. 2513931

I don't care about the fucking met gala! It's just another lousy party for all the rich fucks out there…cries it's not like I'll ever get to go…

No. 2513946

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I always had naturally golden blonde hair. Some time ago I noticed the hair on my temples grows lighter than usual but I just thought it's a lighter shade of blonde. But now that I started to pay more attention to it and looking at it separately, I see it's grey. I'm going fucking grey at 29

No. 2513948

I told the girl at work what I needed to be done and apparently I said it in the wrong tone and she told everyone I yelled at her??? This is the second time this has happened with her?? I'm literally her team leader? fuck me. at least my managers don't believe her

No. 2513988

I probably have ocpd but there's no way to get a diagnosis right now. This sucks.

No. 2514000

My teeth hurt so bad I want to die

No. 2514007

Just seen a tiktok of a woman who was average weight with a very visible curvy waist and I thought "oh she looks nice".
I went to the comments and they were all calling her fat or making fat jokes? Have I missed something? She was barely even chubby and people were straight up commenting like she's obese. I need to stay off this dumbass app before it drives me crazy.

No. 2514012

>>2514007
it's tiktok anon what do you even expect

No. 2514077

i never know if my drinking is a problem
but i know its a problem
but i am the only one that has verbalized this
but i have to have a problem rite???? mods know my post history give me your honest opinion

No. 2514097

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I tried to go on pornhub (not to jerk off I just wanted to vintage gay porn clips) and they have some kind of a video cope message about how "while safety is important, requiring an ID to access adult content puts children at risk" and then doesn't follow up with any justification for that statement so… how tf does that work? Honestly this is based though I am glad they're finally putting in some measures to protect kids from porn. The fact there was nothing before is insane. In irl places you can't sell a lot of items without an ID because obviously kids shouldn't have it, you shouldn't be peddling porn online with absolutely no restrictions. Pornhub can cope and seethe cause I'm willing to bet a large portion of their users are 12-14 year olds and their business model relies on them getting addicted, which studies prove time and time again early porn exposure leads to addiction. Fuck them i hope more states follow

No. 2514098

>>2514097
>will put children and your privacy at risk.
>children
What, how?

No. 2514173

>>2514097
I once had the stunning and brave realization that porn “plot lines” if you can call them that, can be easily interpreted by a 3 year old, combined with the visual storytelling format, yes it’s intended audience is a child, maybe an adult sized child or maybe not.

No. 2514189

I feel lonely. I live with family and my boyfriend and have coworkers I get along with but I still feel pretty lonely… I can go a couple days or so of not getting any messages from literally anyone and it makes me sad. I’m just not sure what to do about my feelings. Outside of family and coworkers, I don’t have any IRL friends and my friends are all mostly online but I see them once every few months if even. Maybe I’m being ungrateful? I want to talk to more people…

No. 2514232

they need to invent a car wash for humans. im going through a depressive episode and i find it impossible to shower.

No. 2514243

Another morning that I wake up feeling like an ugly loser that has nothing going on for her, I wonder if this would've happened if I hadn't run out of supplements

No. 2514244

>>2514232
Strip wash. Flannel/washcloth and soapy water in the sink.

No. 2514251

Another morning that I wake up feeling like an ugly loser that has nothing going on for her, I wonder if this would've happened if I hadn't run out of supplements

No. 2514253

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>involuntary hikki and living with parents
>doing pretty ok, decently popular artist on tumblr (yes i know) and have my own decently popular website
>2 months later cut off friends because "well i don't like talking to this person anyway" tfw that's just because i have bad social anxiety
>still fine for a while
>depression comes back
>nevermind delete tumblr account because paranoid shizo and "muh art sux" without any nonsuperficial positive reinforcement
>cut off everyone i know because paranoid schizo
>delete all social media and completely dfe
>quit hobbies because depression
>start getting into anti-corpo stuff (currently at the stage where i'm learning to read maps)
>completely quit the games i loved because most of them are gacha and gacha = gambling = corpo = bad
>care more about internet privacy than i ever did which is literally at all
>holed up in my room all day seething about technological advancements and muh 2025 le zoomers le tiktok corpo amazon reeeee
>feel like i cant break out of it because i have genuine morals now
>might never integrate into society again
>all because i made a one-off decision that i thought was right and felt right at the time and truthfully i don't regret it by itself
gee whiz

No. 2514264

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I can't tell if I'm emotionally unstable because I've been eating edibles 1-2 times a week or if it's just isolation and stress that's getting to me.
I stopped the edibles to make sure but I still really feel like shit and now I don't have edibles which kinda blows.
If it is the drugs How long before I stop crying all the time?
Also I'm heavily addicted to energy drinks so if it's caffeine I'm just plain fucked, I can't give that shit up man.

No. 2514265

i went to the gyno for the first time and she said i probably have pmdd. i used to consider it but i kinda forgot about it. but considering my symptoms, lashing out, crying fits, suicidal ideation… yeah its probably right
also i hope that nona who posted about being suicidal and deleted it is okay

No. 2514268

>>2514264
It's isolation and stress nonny. If that wasn't happening you wouldn't have the need to have edibles so often imo. The substances probably aren't making it better but they aren't the root cause in my experience. Try doing some breathwork on youtube and see if it makes you feel better to alleviate some issues related to stress.

No. 2514272

>>2514268
Kinda up for anything to try and get rid of this instability, so thanks.
I'll keep the break on the edibles just in case, though tbh my mood has been so awful that I just don't feel like taking any.

No. 2514277

Picked up a fight with the drunk man that harasses me whenever I walk my dog. I was laughing at his face calling him a drunk after he initially approached me, then I walked away without much confrontation, leaving him several meters behind, that's when he called me a feminist piece of shit. So I went back to kick him and punch him. A man had to separate us and a woman told me as I was leaving "don't get on his level because he's not alright". It's not that easy to ignore him, specifically when his dog tries to attack mine. He only messes with me because I am a young woman, I've never seen him bother anyone else. Not sure if I feel ashamed of kicking him at all or simply not kicking him hard enough. I just told him to not get near me with his dog and he proceeded to throw a fit and call me stupid while actually getting near me. What a fucking smelly retard, I hate that he has ruined even more my shitty morning.

No. 2514280

Health is deteriorating. I kinda want to die, but not here. I hope.I make it.

No. 2514297

My parents shouldn't have made me, I'm just a combination of all of their worst traits in 1 person. Id unironically be happier as a downie than a self-aware genetic failure.

No. 2514319

that cow is so cute

No. 2514320

>>2513946
I know many people who are going grey in their early 20s. Don't sweat it nonny it's perfectly normal.

No. 2514325

had someone at work tell me he finds Thai 'ladyboys' hotter than real women, could have thrown up right then and there

No. 2514335

Sent a guy a picture of what I look like and he instantly blocked me. I don't think I'm really that ugly tbh. This happens to me whenever I talk to guys online, I've noticed

No. 2514340

>>2514335
realizing you're actually a person probably scares them lol

No. 2514349

I applied to this thing that meant so much to me and I put in so much effort and got rejected. It fucking sucks because I have stuff to do today but I've lost my motivation to do anything right now. I have no desire to do anything creative. I feel like I will never become a writer. I know this will pass and life will go on and whatever, but I just feel so awful right now.

No. 2514350

>>2514349
Sorry anon. I've had so many rejections and it's such a fucking buzzkill. I feel like more than half of the jobs i apply for are just for show and been promised to someone internally, who's probably going to get shafted by doing two jobs in one. Since the national minimum wage went up by pennies here there's been so many fucking gay articles about businesses having to increase costs to cover wages. Like glad to know you pay the absolute minimum and understaff too. Can I work for you guys!?!?

No. 2514364

>>2514349
Don't feel too bad about it. Applications, IF they're for a real position or opportunity, rely on AI to tick boxes and make decisions for them. Don't lose heart, email the contact provided on the application and ask about other similar opportunities they may have, and ask for feedback on your application.
Keep your head up and remember that you did the best you could. The next time you apply for something similar you'll have a better chance.

No. 2514376

>>2514325
A faggot kek

No. 2514385

>>2514340
Nah, he asked for it. So he probably thinks I'm busted

No. 2514444

>>2514350
>>2514364
Thanks for the support and advice. I doubt they are going to give me feedback because there were hundreds of applicants apparently, I don't think they have the time for that. However in a state of ugly grief I did send a story to a magazine, which I haven't done in over two years. They probably won't publish it but so what, I'll just send another story somewhere else.

No. 2514464

I am actively taking my life into a direction many of my friends have warned me and begged me not to do.

No. 2514466

>>2514007
people want to larp as the 2000s now

No. 2514498

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>>2514097
>requiring an ID to access adult content puts children at risk

But you know what puts children the most at risk for danger and poor quality of life? PORN EXPOSURE AT A YOUNG AGE. I’m sure those fuckers know that but don’t care lmao fuck PH

No. 2514504

>>2514097
>Pornhub can cope and seethe cause I'm willing to bet a large portion of their users are 12-14 year olds and their business model relies on them getting addicted, which studies prove time and time again early porn exposure leads to addiction.
Bingo. But moids are so retarded they'll buy the cope because they don't even care if the logic adds up or not. If pornhub's a legit company then they'd have some kind of opsec in place that protects its users. Did they mean that shady porn websites other than them could pose a risk, or what? It makes zero fucking sense.

No. 2514508

>>2514498
DING DING DING. They profit from getting children addicted and sick from their swill. We need to pull a China and just ban pornography in general. People can get creative like they did in the past when they didn't have instant access to endless degenerate pornsick content and just use their imagination or make their own. It would even be better if people moved on to erotic literature or something, at least they'd be using their brains.

No. 2514511

>>2514097
>Uh..putting the porn behind locked doors is gonna put your children at risk!!
Kek I hope whoever wrote this paragraph for this disgusting fucking scheme gets whacked. Good on Florida and any other state that is working to put these protections in place, the open internet is poisonous to the health of everyone but especially mentally developing children.

No. 2514522

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I fucking hate that the maternal side of my family ran around my whole life acting like we we were a "strong matriarchy" just because there's more women than men. The reality is that I'm stuck with the most pathetic spineless boy moms who cower before the handful of men and expect their daughters to be adults at 13 while their deadbeat 40 year old sons can be coddled on all their lives. I hate that my family tried to drill into bullshit bible based gender dynamics, and that I was always the black sheep for not wanting to play along. My uncle's going through some shit with his wife and has been crashing here for almost 6 months now, he's got a pending court case and anger problems, and my grandma (certified retard) just let's him act like it's his house. He's broke, uneducated, MAGA conspiracist, and never lifts a finger to help around the house. He storms out when we try to discuss when he's gonna move out, but has no problem asking for gas money, which my grandma always gives him. I confronted his lazy deadbeat ass (Yeah there's 3 kids wrapped up in all this that he isn't trying to maintain a relationship with) and again, he says "I-I'm going through a lot right now, whatever, you're entitled to be mad," and storm out. HE'S 48 STILL POSTING VAGUE SUICIDE BAIT ON FACEBOOK FFS. I hate when they leave me home alone with him. I hate how steadily manic he's been since he first got here and how my dumbass family is acting like there's no reason to be concerned he's gonna snap (the dude is in anger management courses for his case and gets into loud shouting matches over the phone while we're in the house+men are defective and it's in their DNA to solve problems with violence, so why NOT worry??). It took me saying this toxic change in the house had me considering checking into a psych ward to kickstart a more firm moving out discussion, which of course he bullshitted an answer about waiting on his tax return (which conveniently he didn't get bc it went to his wife's account). I try telling them I feel trapped, helpless, as if my opinion doesn't matter in all this and they do the usual fake cooing of "Omg nooo don't say that omg you TOTALLY matter! But he's family so…." Unlike that attention seeking faggot, I actually HAVE attempted ending things, and I genuinely feel like if I were to succeed this time, my family wouldn't notice till a week after, then just shrug to go back to kissing his ass

No. 2514523

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>cute plushie collectible labubu keychain was supposed to be delivered today
>wait all day, I'm at home
>courier emails me to let me know that nobody was home so they couldn't deliver
>didn't knock
>didn't call
>didn't didn't email or text
Why are you blocking me from having my cute toy keychain please I just wanted something to add a sparkle to my week

No. 2514524

>>2514498
Pornhub are literally evil and I hope their rabbi owner goes to hell

No. 2514527

>>2514522
>48 and still posting vague suicide bait on FB
There really has to be brainworms in boymoms. I will never in my life understand treating your sons better than your daughters when the world already caters to men. I'm sorry you have to deal with this.

No. 2514529

>>2514523
Nooo, I hope you get it soon!! Lazy couriers who dont even send a text or email are the worst.

No. 2514532

>>2514522
How much of a professional cherry-picker do these illiterate zealots have to be for the bible to read as "easy mode for scrotes"? None of your male relatives should even have eyeballs for looking at porn or scantily clad women who are specifically absolved of punishment, according to the bible

No. 2514533

>>2514523
>Nobody was home so I couldn’t deliver it!!
when did this excuse become so common? I miss when delivery guys would just drop it on your doorstep

No. 2514534

Been struggling a lot with generalized anxiety and social anxiety. It's caused me to quit jobs in the past and it's affecting me at my first big girl job. But this time, I really can't quit and be a neet again. I'm at a point in my life where I just want to be a normal, functional person. I want the the noise in my head to stop. I want to be alive. Sometimes I think the only way out is to kill myself and then the noise will stop. Death is peaceful. But the good news is, I have an appointment this week to finally get on antidepressants so I am happy about that. I'm tired of suffering and just want relief. Idc if I get fat from the meds anymore

No. 2514556

I can't drive and need to go to the ER but my mom wants to take my sister shopping first. I don't wanna pay for Uber or an ambulance though. I don't even think Uber is allowed to drive people to hospitals. It's like whenever I'm sick I'm just a hinderance to my family but if my either of them had been in the same state as me rn they'd act like it's the end of the world. I'll die shitposting then

No. 2514561

>>2514556
as a euro its so horrifying to think americans (i assume) have to pay thousands for an ambulance. please stay safe nona. put your life first.

No. 2514562

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I lost power for a week and I'm so behind on all my projects and it's the second to last day. Killing myself

No. 2514563

I hate the vibe at my house. Everyone says moving out isn't great and it's better staying with your parents but I think I'd rather have to do house chores than having to hear my parents screaming at each other and seeing my mom being naggy and sad constantly

No. 2514565

>>2514561
it kind of keks me americans accept to live like this. like how are american government buildings not on fire 24/7? americans are fucking cucks

No. 2514571

>>2514565
They'd kill us if we actually did something about big pharma, that's why they're killing luigi.

2 big nonos in America are Them and Big pharma. They've both completely cucked our politics and trying to do anything against them is suicide.

No. 2514572

>>2514527
>>2514532
Appreciate it, and agreed. And it's not just my mom's side, even on my dad's side where it was more men than women, that house was such a fucking gross frat shithole with the only 2 women there left to make sure things were running AND that I was fed/clothed (because they were also cucked by the bible and machismo culture). It just sucks more coming from my mom's side since the gender ratio really is like 3:1, yet my whole life has been getting spoken down to by the males who are actively in church, and the ones who weren't would randomly crash on our couch and eat all our food (or even steal). If I ever end up having a healthy relationship that progresses to marriage and kids (yeah, fat fucking chance with my background) I'm putting an end to this ridiculous cycle of faith based/conservative boymom nonsense

No. 2514574

>>2514565
I can't imagine growing up in a country where guns are completely normal, your food is slop and healthcare is null. Americans being taught in school that they live in the best country ever is such cope

No. 2514576

>>2514574
I know right lol
>>2514571
They cant kill 340 million people of which a bunch have guns

No. 2514582

>>2514576
>genuinely thinks the average American is strapped
we're mostly regular people with regular lives who would lose their jobs if we decided to "strike" against the fags ruining the country. not to mention a decent portion of us are retarded trump fans, America, like most first world countries soon, is going to turn into a mostly low class immigrant filled hell.

No. 2514584

>>2514574
Granted, your food only sucks and your healthcare is only shit if you’re poor

No. 2514589

>>2514582
>im scared of losing muh minimal wage job that barely lets me afford food and credit card debt
they still need some workers so if enough people struck it wouldnt be a problem, like what are they gonna do, fire everyone? theres the offshoring threat but most companies who could export their factories already did so all thats left is companies that need local workers.
working class is too socially retarded thats all, brain rotted by fast food, social media, porn and netflix between shifts
its such a pathetic way to live god i hope one day i can stop being part of the poorfags

No. 2514590

>>2514582
Canada started it first and making your country as shitty as ours prevents a crisis at the border, yw

No. 2514595

>>2514589
>resorting to harping on poor people
I work a well-paying desk job in healthcare and have insurance through it so I think I know more about how things operate here more than you do. And this seems more hatred towards the Americans suffering under our current government who have been actively making our lives worse for over 60 years. We used to be able to deal with ticks by flicking them off until the government literally manufactured a disease that's only carried through those ticks. They've bombed, killed, silenced, and destroyed entire towns livelihoods over simply not laying over and taking the abuse they give did. Your vitriol is aimed at the wrong people but I guess you got your "hurrdurr muricans" retardation out. Hope China turns your shithole into a polyester churning cesspit within the next century.

No. 2514598

>>2514595
i honestly dont care how you put it, when you have like 99% of the population being dominated by 1% it cant be anything but retardation on the 99% part

No. 2514600

>>2514598
There's levels to why that mindset is retarded and you're not worth explaining reaganomics to.

No. 2514606

>>2514600
>im le very smart and not bothered to explaining my take
ok? just dont type a response then? whats the point of replying "i have a response but im not bothered typing it" lol

No. 2514610

>>2514606
No it's because you're obviously not going to change your mindset regardless of how many ways someone can explain why things are the way they are now. You're essentially a magatard.

No. 2514613

>>2514610
i like how you judged my entire ccharacter off 2 posts lol. you really think youre so fucking smart its kind of funny. the throwing buzzwords is funny too. whatever smartypants

No. 2514620

Man can't even have an asthma attack without triggering an infight

No. 2514624

Idk if this fits here or the NEET thread more, but I chose to post here just in case. I'm a fresh graduate and have been looking for online courses, intern jobs, graduate development programs, online jobs that don't require experience and so on. Somehow, I got rejected from all of these or no reply all together. It's so frustrating and soul crushing. I live with my elderly dad and sort of on his money, but he's too strict and won't let me use the money anyway I want so I really need to start making my own. He might end up dying eventually and I wouldn't have anywhere to go after that, so I need to have a job and my own savings before it's too late so I can keep the house at least. I can't drive and don't have a car yet either and can't afford it and he won't be paying for driving lessons or a car anytime soon. So I'll need to pay a chauffeur if I get an on-site job at some point or to at least go to interviews, and there's no guarantee he'd give me money for that either because he's selfish and only pays for things that benefits him and doesn't like when I leave the house and go outside for any reason. I feel so trapped and like an absolute failure because of this, and seeing my friends and former classmates landing gigs, camps, courses, internships, being accepted into graduate programs either in the city we live in or in the capital makes me even more miserable. I'm not jealous or envious or anything, I'm happy for them, it's just that their success reminds me of my failure and how my circumstances prevents me from reaching the heights they did. All of them can travel the country solo or go to other countries for work with 0 problems, while I can't look for or invest in any opportunities like that because it just means trouble with my dad. He's always been a hindrance and he'll always be even if he dies. It's so annoying and frustrating to deal with. It's kinda funny and ironic how those same friends and former classmates used to ask me for help because I was the most skillful and knowledgeable, but now they're the ones getting all the opportunities while I keep getting rejected. One of them is literally a massive cheater and liar who bought her success but employers don't give a shit and won't look at my empty compared to hers CV. I never got to participate in any competitions or take any camps or courses because of my retarded circumstances, all I have is my bachelor's degree and my internship that I got because of my uncle. And although my senior project was harder and more impressive, it's still not enough somehow and they keep rejecting me without even an interview first. I always knew this would happen and was scared of the time I have to face it, and I had a false hope that maybe things would turn out better than I expected but I was lying to myself. I'm not going anywhere at all and I'll be a loser forever. It's not that this happens to everyone in the beginning of their career or whatever, with me and my circumstances, I'll probably reach nowhere. Even stupid motivational videos about retards and the disabled figuring their lives out make me feel like shit, because great, actual literal downies and handicaps can live and my ass can't. What does that say about me? I'm retarded and I suck at this shit. All of this is making me suicidal all over again. I kinda want to get lost in a forest or in the desert and die there slowly from starvation or thirst or wild animals.

No. 2514635

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How do you nonnas stay sane and even date in a misogynistic word where


1. We are always put down that we are not good enough and that we should settle and date aka give free sex and emotional labour to ugly men with even uglier personalities

2.if a moid harms most people will just victim blame you cause "you should have known "

I feel crazy since these two misogynistic ideas are so mainstream and other than here

No. 2514636

I wish I was a type A corporate med school woman so fucking bad. I feel so lazy and unfulfilled in my current life, both career-wise and socially

No. 2514641

>>2514624
>he won't be paying for driving lessons or a car anytime soon
>so I need to have a job and my own savings before it's too late so I can keep the house at least
Any chance he'll pay for it if you can show him that not getting your license = drastically lowering your job opportunuties = hurting you financially = losing the house after he passes away? My father also only cared about himself but he did want the house to stay in the family, not for our sake but something about ~legacy~ and not losing his parents' home to strangers. Just an idea. Sorry anon, I know what it's like to have a father who's trouble before and after death.

No. 2514656

>>2514635
this is why i gave up on dating real men and decided to fulfill my desires with fictional husbandos kek.

No. 2514657

>>2514641
He doesn't care at all and it's impossible to convince him. He owns the house and we don't have any debt or mortgage to worry about or anything, but we won't be able to survive our day to day life without his pension and landlord money as a source of income. Our youngest is under 18 so if he dies soon, no inheritance either and this is where my worries stem from. But also overall, I don't want to spend the rest of my life stuck at home with no real life at all. I want to work, own my own place, go to the gym, get annual check ups at the hospital, and much more that may pull me out of my "depression" if this is what it is.

Another thing I wanted to vent about but forgot to is that I suck at my hobbies and interests, too so I can't possibly profit from these either if I wanted to. Maybe it's time to start e-begging on Tumblr lmao.

No. 2514658

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I always feel so awkward, broad and unnatural and just fake when I try and dress up or be feminine or just do anything. It feels like I'm just a brain living in a body that's brand new and I'm not used to it yet, except it's been like this for 27 years. I don't get it. I look at other women and they just seem to handle femininity so easily and I feel like I'm constantly larping or adjusting myself because it just feels so uncomfortable. They look like women and I look like a boy trying to be a woman, not in a tranny way but in a strange way I can't describe. Yes tomboy would be the perfect word but nothing about the way I carry myself feels natural and it sucks. Idk how to recover. The only time I feel comfortable is when I'm at home wearing silly oversized pyjamas with a face mask on. Anywhere else it feels like I'm skinwalking someone but haven't managed to perfect it. I wonder if this feeling will go away when I lose weight. I hope so.

No. 2514659

>>2514636
>type A corporate med school woman
this sounds like literal hell, why?

No. 2514667

Letting men use the internet was a mistake. I wish only women were allowed to use the internet and male online presence of any kind was banned.

No. 2514676

My dad was always so mean and cold to me when I was younger. Stingy as fuck and would rarely buy me shit that I wanted. Now that I'm in my 20s, he's suddenly super nice and patient with me, buys me lots of food and gifts and is bei g a proper dad. It's nice and all, but why now? My life could've been so much better if he was like this before when I was growing up

No. 2514683

>>2514533
Ayrt every package ever delivered to me have been left on my porch doorstep. I don't know why my labubu is exempt from being delivered like normal. I'm convinced it was a smelly moid who didn't feel like getting out of his delivery van because it's sunny, or he's Indian(racebaiting)

No. 2514689

I was wondering why I'm feeling so jittery and restless all day but then I remembered I drank some instant coffee a few hours ago. I didn't think it'd be a big deal even though I'm really sensitive to caffeine, because I drank them in the past just fine, but today, for some reason, is absolutely horrible lol.

No. 2514694

My ex was hellbent on ruining my self esteem. Once I was completely exasperated and asked why he never compliments me or says I look nice and he just said because you have good genes why do I need to day anything m? Oh yes i forgot it's dna that chooses how I present myself. I didn't get dressed this morning. My genes did it for me. Oh I didn't style my hair like this, my genes are able to style my hair while I sleep. Washing myself? No my guy, my genes mean I never have to maintain anything! I don't even have a diet or exercise routine, I just simply exist! I am not responsible for any part of me, my genes are! He wasn't born with genes you see, he had to spend 40 minutes in the mirror styling his hair transplant and needed constant reassurance you liked him or you were cheating on him. Cause you know, he's a real person and I'm just a figment of my genes.

No. 2514700

>>2514676
maybe he's doing better financially

No. 2514701

I'm trying to lean into the intuitive eating mantra of not treating your body like a trash bin - that just because there is some food left on the plate it doesn't mean you have to force it down so you won't feel bad for throwing it away. I'm so done with the stomachaches I give myself because I don't want to waste food, but this is such a mental hurdle to get over because whenever I have food on my plate I just want it gone so I don't have to see it and accepting that there is no point in forcing down a miscalculated portion just because is hard. Throwing away a few spoonfuls that isn't enough to save feels bad.

No. 2514705

>>2514701
Start eating things that can be used as compost then plant a garden and get to gardening with the compost food you dont finish.

No. 2514709

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>>2514658
I'm in the same boat nona, while I'm happy to have someone understand how I feel I'm sorry you have to go through this. I'm sure you look absolutely great in whatever you wear, you are just not seeing it at the moment!

No. 2514719

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>>2514709
Aww thanks nonnie I'm sure you look cute too, we are our own worst critics after all. It's really exhausting having a low self-image and not even entirely understanding why but I hope you manage to recover and find confidence in yourself!

No. 2514721

I’m literally too anxious to respond to my friends’ texts and messages even though one of them is inviting me to go do a super expensive, super fun thing and will be covering the cost for me. My low self esteem, chronic illness and anxiety are fucking up my life. I can’t even talk to people I know cause it’s terrifying for some reason. I get like this sometimes and coming out of it is so hard. Even when I do respond to people or have a talk it’s not like “see that wasn’t so bad” and suddenly I’m better. I go right back into isolating. Idk if there’s anything that can be said or done to fix this.

No. 2514722

>>2514658
>feminine
>woman
The problem is the association you make in your head. I see plenty of women who aren’t feminine and they register as women, yes even when they are tall and broad shouldered. And I also see plenty of women who change styles every time and who don’t stick to “solely feminine”. There are tons of ways to be a woman , the only prerequisite you need is being born as one. Get rid of the feminist parassite you have in your head.

No. 2514724

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>>2514722
Meant to say femininity parassite kek, don’t get rid of your feminist one.

No. 2514772

my mother has been listening to some omegaverse vampire love story audio book out loud for a while now and it's kinda making me feel uncomfortable kek

No. 2514796

I wanted to know what the population density and distribution of squirrels is but when I googled it I just got a bunch of discussions about people killing them…

No. 2514799

>>2514721
What is the illness and do you take anything for your anxiety?

No. 2514802

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T-this sore throat is because I haven't been drinking enough today, right? I'm feeling tired because I'm exhausted, not because I'm about to get sick, right? RIGHT? I don't have time to be sick, I to finish up my final exam project, two final essays and a presentation by the 22nd. I DO NOT HAVE TIME TO BE SICK

No. 2514805

>>2514802
Sorry, not only one presentation BUT TWO! One of them having to be roughly 20 fucking minutes

No. 2514818

Sometimes I get actually offended with the way anons will talk about women's bodies here. The zipper tits thing is fine because it was intentional and an elective cosmetic surgery but it still makes me think of the women who have to get mastectomies because of possible cancer spread. Now what I found extra disgusting was some anon saying a sex worker was now a "literal cock sleeve" because she had to get a hysterectomy for her endometriosis.
It just seems like scrote talk. I have endometriosis and indirectly getting called a cock sleeve for health reasons is certainly a choice.

No. 2514823

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Nonnas, I am so tired of TIFs controlling all fandom discussion, including anon boards. I wish I had a place to sperg about shows I like without the constant risk of being cancelled/called out by a bunch of TIFs.

No. 2514826

>>2514818
It's really disgusting. I'm all for laughing at cows, but there comes a point where it's just putting down women in general and not the cow. I think it's a combination of lost 4chan moids and zoomer girls who grew up on porn and modern internet lingo.

No. 2514850

>>2514818
Definitely agree with what >>2514826 said and what you said. I think I remember someone on the Shayna thread said that about Kiki recently, so that's probably what you were talking about. I feel like that thread in particular is (or had been, I don't check on it very much so idk) filled with twitter tourists who are getting their chance to be edgy and mean without any repercussion since I saw a surprising amount of twitter lingo when I last went in there.
It is pretty sad though how some anons will just bash on a woman's appearance for the smallest of things. Like if they're morbidly obese, grossly unkempt, or dress like an absolute train wreck then sure, so crazy. Those are problems that the cow put upon themself, but it's when they nitpick the little things about them that they can't control. And also when they use such scroteish language that's what really makes me feel weird.

Also kinda unrel, but it's seeing that sort of gross posting that always reminds me about the fact that no matter what, there will always be moids lurking and posting on LC. I know I'm preaching to the choir by saying this, but it just pisses me off to no end that we can't just be left alone by them. No matter how much we ask, we separate ourselves off, and try to reason with them, there's nothing we can truly do to ensure that men don't post here. And as much as I would like to believe I can usually identify a scrote when he types, there really is no way to know for sure since they can learn to adopt the etiquette and lingo if they wanted to.

No. 2514877

My cat is dying and I don't know what to do. He had such a rough life before coming inside; I pray he goes peacefully in his sleep.

No. 2514890

I'm getting stressed out. I'm looking at the potential places my uni might send me to for internship and most of them are more than 1h30 from my home. FML.

No. 2514893

>>2514818
>>2514826
Are you newfags? Farmers have been calling women whores, sluts, and other misogynistic names since day 1. Making disparaging comments about women's bodies is literally what lolcow is founded on. It's a gossip forum and has always been super catty and sexist.

No. 2514899

terms like 'foodporn' 'history porn' 'artifact porn' 'decor porn' etc make me cringe so hard

No. 2514901

Went to a friends' baby shower this weekend and I felt so cute going out the door but holy shit, looking at photos afterwards my face (and body) looks so fat in the flowy dress I was wearing. I literally looked like I was pregnant alongside the mom to be! I gotta hit the fucking gym.

No. 2514905

>>2514877
I'm so sorry nona, I know what you feel

No. 2514921

>>2514893
I'm far from being a newfag, I was here since the beginning of the retarded Berry Tsukasa threads.
But it's like what >>2514826 said.
>there comes a point where it's just putting down women in general and not the cow

No. 2514974

>>2514893
Been here since Pixyteri threads on /cgl/ weren't banned. Calling a woman a cocksleeve was and still is gross.

No. 2515021

My package didn't come today and now I have to wait until tomorrow. Fuck everything.

No. 2515047

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>>2515021
Me and nonna when it’s time for our package to arrive and we have been sent an email that it will arrive shortly.

No. 2515070

>ugly
>retarded
>rejected by the guy i love
>thirdie
>shit load of health problems that make my life painful
>incredibly unlucky
>shit family
goddam honestly just strike me with a lighting already i cant take it anymore. Everyone else has something going on for them except me. I am not jealous of rich beautiful people at this point but rather the common joe/jane that just has a normal life. Fuck my life.

No. 2515129

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i need a fucking hotdog with mustard, a credit card with NO limit, and a personal trainer with nice teeth and a huge cock NOW!!!!

No. 2515140

im sorry but i kinda hate it when people tell me about their IBS or stomach issues like i want to hear about you farting and shitting oh my god

No. 2515144

>>2515129
I can only give you one of these, guess which one.

No. 2515149

>>2515144
I can let you borrow my mustard, it’s spicy.

No. 2515152

>>2515149
How did you know that I could only offer a hotdog kek, I thought I could be more mysterious. You made me crave one now too. I prefer honey mustard though and I like adding sauerkraut on top too.
I am hungry now, take responsibility nonna.

No. 2515153

getting addicted to benzos to combat stress

No. 2515155

>>2515144
you got the hotdogs with the good buns? fresh off the grill? can i stand outside in the sunlight and breathe in the smell of the smoky air and watch the sun set while i take a bite? will anything ever be ok

No. 2515159

>>2514659
I'm a very unimpressive photographer who makes shit money and sloughs through life. I wish I had an actual skill that matters and I wish I had the intelligence and capability of female scholars.

No. 2515166

>>2515155
You mean the potato buns? I sure do. We can arrange that nonny. I don’t know if everything will be alright, but we’ll eat a delicious hotdog.

No. 2515171

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It's like 11:40 here and I can hear what I think is a car engine, but it's the loudest and WEIRDEST engine I've ever fucking heard in my life. It's so guttural, has this weird "popping" undercurrent which comes and goes (it sounds a bit like skittles being hit? Genuinely the only comparison I can think of kek) and also makes a noise like wind blowing. I can't see where it's coming from, either, even though it's a million decibels and vibrating the floor. Am I about to get beamed up into the sky by a spaceship?

No. 2515179

if i cant get a cute asian guy to eat me out im going to fucking kill myself

No. 2515180

>>2515171
Chainsaw on low-speed probably

No. 2515182

>>2515166
okay i love you nona you are an angel the likes of which will be remembered for millenia

No. 2515190

>>2515171
Kek this has happened to my car, the engine is probably old and it's coolant hasn't been refilled. It's no biggie anon.

No. 2515222

>>2515152
Okay I will but only if you promise to grill up some onions and peppers with the dogs. They go well with my spicy mustard.

No. 2515235

it feels like nothing in life ever gets better

No. 2515236

>>2515222
>>2515182
Oh my god! There are two of you?! You are both invited.

No. 2515238

list of things that i need :
-unlimited money
-very hot asian bf and maybe just maybe a white one too
-be allowed to sleep 24/7
-my mom is happy
if god exists he will give me these things like tomorrow

No. 2515243

>>2515238
This is the level of greed they only talk about in the Bible.

No. 2515249

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>>2515235
What do you mean anon? I hope you'll elaborate on that

No. 2515250

>>2514850
The pure bullshit in the fandom thread is proof enough that twitter tourists come here to type scary words without being mobbed. It's very entertaining to read, but I feel a bit hopeless at the general lack of brain cells in there.
The types of people who have long and serious discussions about problematic fictional characters are exactly the types of people who'd call a woman a cocksleeve. You can pretty much guarantee that they're some type of TIF and insanely jealous of the cow they're shitting on.
I know that scrotoids lurk and post but their fun comes from seeing us get mad about it, hence the rules about reporting and not engaging. There's been an influx of them now that 4chan got put to pasture but this isn't an exciting land of grils posting booba for rate. It's a slow board and only a few threads move at anything but a glacial pace, scrotes get tired of waiting for a reaction, and they leave to go spam CC with porn. Moids might call a woman a cocksleeve but they'd probably just try to insult her by announcing that they would not fuck that lady. Moids think that this is the most devastating blow there is, so that's their go to insult for everything. If it's an insult that's very specific to the cow, it's probably a really unpleasant and terminally online woman saying it, so on the bright side, there are probably less scrotes here than you think.

No. 2515253

>>2515249
it feels like stuff just stagnates. you do a whole lot of things to try and make them better but really the change is only marginal. years pass and things are the same or slightly worse.

No. 2515254

>>2515243
Yeah but she deserves it

No. 2515255

>>2515243
does the bible say im going to have all of this or foes it say something cucked like "no just be patient for the afterlife"

No. 2515262

Can't enjoy sex bc of early exposure to porn.

>Used to be very sexual when I was 6-7, didn't hate my body as much

>Got really depresses at 11, was disgusted by my body and couldn't stand touching myself or imagining myself in head.
>Used to avoid (past) husbandos or physically hide from them bc I didn't deserve them
>Now it's a bit better, I can allow myself to drift but it's still hard to even imagine holding hands, same goes for irl
>Sex with past or current bf is very unremarkable. Even when it feels good and things are done right it's still like, ok and?
>Can't relate to friends and how they tell me it's supposed to be enjoyable and fun and relaxing. Very rarely is it wow and leaves an impression.

10 yr is a bit too young to stummble on dad's screenshots of mom's nudes and horse x woman pron. And a miriad of other things I found when I was old enought to know how to write.

I think life would've been easier if I jsut, was neutered and never had to deal with sex or crave it.

Wouldn't have gottned sexually assaulted by first bf.
Would't need to waste my time with men.
Whouldn't need to get close to anybody.
No dissapointmenst and unhealtry coping mechanisms.

Is it really worth fixing like my hterapist says?

No. 2515263

>>2515253
What are you trying to change?

No. 2515271

>>2515263
to live comfortably without stress and unexpected disturbances

No. 2515274

maybe someone will save me tonight

No. 2515278

I saw my mom today. She had a random burst of happiness and when she smiled I saw that one (or more) of her teeth were chipped. I know this is cruel to say, but she looked crazy. It just made me said cause its like the outside is starting to match the inside. She's not dirty or stinky or anything like that, but you can definitely tell she doesn't really take care of herself as well as she used to. She won't even go to dentists and doctors appointments anymore because she can't stand being around people. I wish she would get help but she's in complete denial of anything being wrong.

No. 2515281

>>2514721
Whenever I hit a bit of a social quiet spell – pretty often –, I start DMing random shit on my feed to a select few people. Instagram is great for this because I can just DM using the share button, point and click click. I go for the more supportive nicer attrition free people I have since they don't mind being deprived of context and having whatever conversation was ongoing ignored. I don't even look at the replies. but it seems to help me break out of these moods faster

No. 2515284

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someone please save me before my blood pressure goes off the charts i had to write a character impression (read: essentially roleplay for a paragraph) for one of my english classes again and i couldn't even proofread that shit. why am i always tasked with embarrassing things just showing my writing is hard enough as it is christtttt

No. 2515289

>>2515271
What does living "comfortably without stress and unexpected disturbances" look like to you? And waht are you doing to reach that?

No. 2515311

>>2515289
not fearing i might not be able to afford children or to support my parents when they age
working a 9 to 5 with a week end
a commute that is less than 25 minutes
a house that is spatious enough and doesn't let outside noise in
food that isn't poisonous

i'm studying and investing all of my time in my career to achieve it but it's been 6 years and my dream is only moving further away

No. 2515327

Found out that one of my sister’s IRL friends whose a bright kid whose pretty artistically and creatively talented, genuinely believes she has DID and has started using a bot on discord to tell other people “which alter is fronting”. I’ve dealt with these situations in quarantine and even then it was just like basically forcing people to RP with you under the threat you’d be causing them mental duress. It really sucks that she’s doing this and I know it’s because her mother doesn’t pay attention to her her (and her dad never did) and she doesn’t have the greatest relationship with the rest of her family, so she has all sorts of issues. I wish I knew how to confront her about this but I’m not even supposed to know this, I just sometimes get my sister’s message notifications. She’s 16 so it’s not even like she’s in middle school or elementary… I’m just hoping it’s something she either grows out of or she tells me so I can gradually talk her out of it and help her realize her actual issues.

No. 2515334

>>2515274
only you can save yourself

No. 2515343

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You guys are so rude sometimes

No. 2515345

ive been so isolated this past month. all i want to do is see my friend for one day this weekend but it seems they are too busy and i dont want to bug them

No. 2515354

>>2515250
>The fandom thread
The way they constantly post/mald over Literal Who's on twitter makes me think they're coming here to cry about the discord friends they're forced to tolerate kek

No. 2515355

>>2515311
I might not know you personally , but I think you're doing good, maybe just in a slump bc you really want to see the fruits of your labour. Unfortunately life never gets simple, we just learn to better navigate and handle it better. It'll be a while till you achive that goal, but in the meantime don't beat yourself up for not being there yet. Look at your past and see how far you've come and all the things you have, how much worse you would've been without them or your efforts. It's very noble of you that you want to take care of your parent's, but try to take in the reality that when the time comes, you WILL be able to pull through. From what I've seen in myself, worrying now about the future won't make you more ready, but when it comes, it's almost at just the right time.
If I'm unfamiliar then it's an invitation of growth, if I can handle it then it's proof that I can show up for myself.

The real tragedy is giving up.

Maybe you should take a breather. Meditate a bit, get some rest. Focus on yourself if you feel like your body and mind need it. You can't be there for others if you don't function properly.

I'll be keeping you in my thought's and I knwo you'll achieve your goals.

By curiosity, what do you study?

No. 2515357

>>2514850
>>2514818
The recent influx of anons admitting to being friends with genderspecials and going "but HSTS troons are the good ones!!" Probably has something to do with it too. Some farmers definitely sound like they're trying to imitate Jeffree Star-tier faggots when they talk.

No. 2515364

>>2514823
Where's that screenshot from? Reminds me of ye olden days of livejournal

No. 2515367

>>2514823
> including anon boards
There are anon boards where tifs aren’t instantly clowned on?

No. 2515384

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>>2515153
Careful anon, you don't want to end up like Tuna.

No. 2515393

>>2515375
It’s okay nona just make sure no canadian tax dollars are going towards you

No. 2515399

>>2515153
You're not combatting anything other than your brain's integrity

No. 2515427

People that suck up to discord group mods/admins are so pathetic. I don't understand why anyone would want to be a janny, much less idolize one

No. 2515451

I wonder if it's possible for women to have solidarity outside of race. We're all hurt by men so why can't we do something to help each other. A few months ago I felt like it was realistic, I could see a female utopia, a female ethnostate even kek but in recent months I realize most women generally are brainwashed and will do anything to protect moids. Anything at all. Black women calling a white woman a liar for reporting her rapist just because he's a black moid, white women shitting on east Asian women because they're angry disgusting white moids prey on them for some reason, just so much shit. I am in awe of the stupidity of other women. I just want a future where all of our world leaders are female. That's literally it, how hard is that? Men are violent and stupid why can't we pull together and take their power away? This is dumb but it's making me mad lately, I'm sick of seeing retarded pick-mes in every crevasse of the internet.

No. 2515465

>>2515451
Hard times are supposed to create strong individuals yet so many women end up as pick-mes or toeing the line so I'm good with (western) society the way it is supposed to be, when social media algorithms and constant internet porn aren't being bombarded on nature's road builders and toilet fixers, distracting them from their life's purpose. We really just need to do something about the porn and keep them constantly busy

No. 2515483

>>2515465
We need to get to the people who produce and distribute porn somehow. I have a feeling that the current system atleast in the west is rigged in favor of that sick industry. Porn encourages men to get off to violence and encourages women to find being victimized erotic. It's a great distraction. Maybe porn keeps women docile.

No. 2515484

I always wanted a tiny queen of spades or queen of hearts tattoo, but now that has become a symbol of race fetish porn, it's ruined. I really hate men, they taint everything.

No. 2515487

>>2515465
>>2515483
Porn companies make billions and billions of dollars a year. Tech CEOs get paid for every click that thirst traps get, so it benefits them to push them on the front page. It's literally all motivated by money, it's not any deeper than that.

No. 2515491

>>2515484
Wat. I did not know this…

No. 2515493

>>2515451
As long as most women are heterosexual and date men, no, female solidarity will never be a real thing. Muslim women were defending the Rotherham rape gangs. Black women were criticizing a White woman for speaking out about being abused by a black man and being a 'snitch' and helped OJ Simpson get off the hook. White boomer women vote Trump because they dont want any more Latina women coming to the US and seducing their fat old moid husbands. Asian women are constantly seething on tiktok about not getting picked by the Chad moid because he chose a blonde Stacy white girl instead and how that makes him racist. Men benefit from intrasexual female competition and it has shaped us as a survival strategy for thousands of years. So no, it will never end as long as most women date moids. And yes, it's all so tiresome.

No. 2515499

Meeting a pitbull tomorrow for a potential dogsit and I’m nervous. I can always back out if it seems aggressive but if it’s nice I’ll feel like I shouldn’t. Thinking of just buying pepper spray incase anything happens while I watch it.

No. 2515500

>>2515493
In a way I have sympathy for black women because they are always put lowest on the totem pole. If you ask 1000 random men to rank the most attractive female ethnicities, 90% of those men will probably put black women at the bottom or near last. I see it all the time and its disheartening because so many black women are absolutely stunning and men cant appreciate it. White women and Asians are almost always at the top, closely followed by Latinas. The backlash black women have is likely just motivated from despair and sadness at being constantly made the whipping girl of society. I've even seen other races of women, or even just lightskin black women, say shit like 'Thank God I'm not black/a darkskin'. Other races of women enjoy throwing black women under the bus to make themselves seem more appealing and understandably that leads to resentment and bitterness. I used to catfish as different races and ask men about black women, the amount of misogynoir even among normie men is really revolting.

No. 2515506

I can't relate or socialize with people with busy lives and who actually touch grass, because since my life is so empty and boring, I keep obsessing and overthinking about inane stuff no one cares about

No. 2515510

>>2515506
Same nona. It sucks because I used to be more sociable and so I would always have wild stories to talk about with people from going out with friends. But now I literally have no banter because I dont do anything lel. Sometimes I even find myself having to use old stories to entertain people and pretend they happened recently, just so they wont get bored talking to me.

No. 2515518

>>2515500
>>2515493
But we let men get away with this stuff, and in the end nothing they say even matters, they rape and kill us regardless. They'll stab you, rape your corpse, and post it on 4chan so other moids can jerk off to it..and yet they still are never ever painted as "The problem." Never. No matter how many mass killings they commit, no matter how many children they rape, no matter how many women they kill, any attempt to address the shit they do will always be addressed with "Not all men." Even by women with radical views. Women who believe Hitler was a good dude and tout statistics as justification never seem to feel the same hate when they see the statistics regarding men and violent crime. I'm tired of it all and I realize now that nothing really means anything unless it is tied to a man for a lot of women. I want out. I wanna buy an island where only women can live or something.

No. 2515532

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I need a woman's attention so bad it's making me miss my ex.

No. 2515537

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shut up. my seed was the rich man's fruit and i lost it all. useless university, no degree, no job.

No. 2515561

I’m literally about to crash tf out I hate men so fucking much I hate them I hate them I hate them I hate them I hate them I wish I could all of them male existence is violence against women and as long as they exist women will never be free we will always be raped and abused and subjugated by them I fucking hate them they have no semblance of humanity if ihadthe chance to I’d Aileen wuornos every last one them fucking lying subhuman sacks of shit vile ugly repulsive shit souled barely worthy of breath sacks of fecal matter barely even resembling humans. Ugly as fuck kill all of them and I mean that shit fucking god forsaken gender

No. 2515576

Am I the only one who loves so strongly? I turn into a medieval poet. But it’s horrid. I am genuinely one to feel “lovesick”, to be taken so much by someone’s beauty that after seeing them I can’t eat my dinner and all I can do is stare out the window looking at the falling leaves dancing and thinking to myself they move just as gracefully as that. It’s so stupid. And there’s nothing I can do to cure myself of it.

No. 2515580

>>2515561
You are so real for this nona. Men arent humans, they are monsters.

No. 2515583

>>2515576
Yes and its even worse when you're heterosexual and like this, because you know that men are incapable of love or selflessness.

No. 2515584

>>2515583
feeling infatuated is not selflessness, it's actually more about being engrossed in your own petty desires

No. 2515597

>>2515576
I wish I still felt this way… I miss puppylove.

No. 2515606

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So I went to the ER after all expecting to get that nebulizer treatment thing but they just gave me some shitty cough medicine that still has me coughing.
They're gonna milk me dry at this rate cause I know I will have to run back again in 2 days when I eventually crap out.
Fucking shitty useless speds working in healthcare, the only thing that's stopping me from treating myself is being too lazy to find darknet markets.

No. 2515619

Is there happy thread? I am so freaking excited and I don't have anyone to tell

No. 2515638

>>2515619
/ot/ is full of the evil eye, I recommend keeping the news with yourself to protect it

No. 2515741

the grad program i applied to keeps delaying the date to release admissions and it’s pissing me off

No. 2515825

anyone else have ugly boobs unfixable by surgery

No. 2515827

>>2515825
no, ugly boobs aren't real.

No. 2515830

>>2515619
Maybe the positivity thread would suit your needs?
>>>/ot/2327452

No. 2515834

>>2515827
they are saggy and pendulous with big nipples. therefore, won the ugly lottery

No. 2515835

>>2515834
mine are like that too plus deflated because of my ed. Trust me you're fine. The boobs you see in tv or online are usually fake or have hard nipples to reduce areola size.

No. 2515839

if my cat dies or never comes back I'm going to kill myself

No. 2515873

Thought I lost my wallet and I freaked the fuck out, I was sobbing and screaming so loud I'm sure all my neighbors heard me, and I went through the trouble of calling every lost & found I could and even filing a police report and ordering a replacement drivers license and debit card before I found it underneath a hat on my kitchen table the next day. I'm such a retard idk how I'm allowed to live on my own.

No. 2515874

>>2515873
I do this at least once a month. Does your bank/debit card have an app that you can temp freeze it so no one can use it until you unfreeze it? I always do that whenever I can't find my wallet.

No. 2515880

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My late uncle's car collection is going to be auctioned off before June. I kinda missed the boat on asking for anything from it by not having my license yet. He only had one valuable one and that's not even the one I would have wanted. (I can't have it anyway, they're keeping it). I just wanted one of the really big older ones that I can actually fit in comfortably. (I'm stupid tall) I never drove it but sat in it a few times and felt normal, which I don't feel sitting in basically any other car.
Also, just knowing most of it's gonna be gone forever just feels like "end of an era" similarly to how I felt when high school ended.

No. 2515889

>>2515873
You can get wallets with trackers on them now, I would invest in one if you lose it a lot.

No. 2515932

I think I'm dating the wrong person. Ever since we started dating, every argument ends with him just leaving. He always said i dont say things to him in a nice way and i offend him but i have no clue what i say wrong so i try asking questions to be a better talker and understand what I'm saying wrong. Ive changed a lot to be more tactful, which is fine but he complains that he has changed too and I'm like duhh we are in a relationship so we are bound to change. Then he says i haven't improved at all and keeps claiming i insult him, but I'm still clueless in how i do that. Its gotten to the point that he calls me a narcissist and its reaching a breaking point because I'm accepted to university and i told him i want an apartment close so i don't have to drive to school everyday. He is not in university but wants to eventually, but was trying to make me compromise where we both have to drive to school(he'll be going to a community college) . I don't want to drive to school because i want to be involved with my university and not pay the parking pass. My coworkers told me that i should just do what i want, so i bring it up to him and he was fine with it but kept saying its gonna fuck him up to drive so much even though its just a couple of minutes more of driving and he never had problems driving a 25 minute commute to school before so idk why he suddenly has a problem. Well, last he called me a narcissist and saying i kept interrupting my friend at a bar and that i don't know how to talk to people even though he told me multiple times to stop stressing about being nuerodivergent since i can talk to people properly. I really feel like hes trying to manipulate me. He used to believe that people shouldn't compromise in a relationship because both parties wont be happy. Well, everytime we are at a crossroad, i would be the one compromising and he gets his way. Also He will go a long time being upset about something and not tell me. He says when he brings up his problems, that i dont listen or spin it to make it about me. But every time I'm upset, the argument always ends up about his feelings. For example, he said i don't ever compromise and I said we got the apartment he wanted even though i can't even afford it. He suddenly brings up that he did something for me which was not even part of the discussion. So i say, dude we were talking about me, and the things i do. He flips out and leaves and slams my car door and drives off who knows where and its the middle of the night and idk where he is. Anyways am i being manipulated? Am i too self absorbed?

No. 2515999

I want friends, but interacting with people is so tiring, maintaining friendships is so tiring, even just listening to people talk is tiring. I hate talking to people. Maybe I don't actually want friends but I don't know what I want then.

No. 2516021

>>2515274
update : no one saved me
maybe next time

No. 2516025

>>2515399
really?
i feel quite relaxed right now, if i didnt take anything i wouldve probably not slept which is worse for my brain than benzos, right?

No. 2516030

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I wish hanging wasn't so scary. Every other suicide method available to me didn't work so now I'm just such with the most obvious but also most painful choice.

No. 2516034

>>2516030
Think about the fact that you’ll shit yourself and your neck will get elongated like a giraffe nonna. It’s not worth it.

No. 2516089

>>2516021
still not fooling anyone
>unrecognizable

No. 2516092

Cleaning out old accounts and having to accept that there's stuff that I can't delete is annoying, but it ultimately doesn't matter (unless I plan on being famous, which I'm not). Also accepting that I wasted so much time being an unemployed NEET, and wanting to change but not knowing how… idk. Whoops!

>>2515932
He sounds like a headache and a nasty piece of work who's taking advantage of you (and its only going to get worse), please please please leave him and stay with friends/family to help you get back on your feet if you can. He is belittling you and demeaning you at every turn to make you doubt your own judgement so that you're fully dependent on him, and chucking tantrums when things don't go his way. No scrote is worth sacrificing your education and career over, especially not one that throws up so many red flags that he might as well be a stop sign. Take care nonnie, I wish you well and I hope you find someone that actually loves you.

No. 2516098

feeling extremely suicidal

No. 2516135

>>2516034
Not sure how true this is but I heard your eyes can explode as well from pressure, and if you don't snap your neck right to instantly die you suffocate slowly or survive but end up disabled from the neck down

No. 2516194

>>2515364
>>2515367
Screenshot is from Fail Fandom Anon (FFA) on Dreamwidth. It's a place to discuss fanfiction and fandom stuff in general. Sometimes it's pretty chill and nice, but mostly nonnies there are very mean (for lack of a better word) and at each other's throat, much worse than here IME kek. However transphobia (both deliberate tranny hate and neutral statements that come off as sus) is a no-no and will gets your comments deleted. Lots of nonnies there are TIFs.

No. 2516199

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>>2515932
Nona that man is incredibly shitty. Yes, I do think he's manipulative. Let me break it down for you.

Inconsistent and non comunicative, bring up problems only when tentions are high/you talk about YOUR problems:
>He always said I don't say things to him in a nice way and I offend him but I have no clue what
>I've changed a lot to be more tactful, which is fine BUT he complains that he has changed too
>Then he says I haven't improved at all
>He calls me a narcissist

Interupting people doens't make you a narcisist, it's a bad habbit but you need a lot more than that to be one.
>Called me a narcissist and saying I kept interrupting my friend at a bar and that I don't know how to talk to people
>He told me multiple times to stop stressing about being nuerodivergent since i can talk to people properly

Sounds like you're a burden to him. Your partner is supposed to support you and show up, you can't do all the lifting. Plus, him driving 5-10 minutes extra isn't a monumental task, mine walks 30 min to my place and never complained, I don't either when I go ti his.
>I told him I want an apartment close so I don't have to drive to school everyday
>Trying to make me compromise where we both have to drive to school
>Don't want to drive to school because I want to be involved with my university and not pay the parking pass
>Bring it up to him and he was fine with it
>BUT kept saying it's gonna fuck him up to drive so much even though it's just a couple of minutes more of driving
>He never had problems driving a 25 minute commute to school before
>[He says when he brings up his problems, that i dont listen or spin it to make it about me]

Getting mad, slamming shit and running away is definitly a good reaction to have when talking about problems. Imagine, truly and geniuenly, if this is how he is now when talking about things sort of small like this, how "reliable" he'll be when life gets difficult.
>He used to believe that people shouldn't compromise in a relationship because both parties wont be happy
(Which it bs, if you compromise and are miserable you have some problems you need to talk about. Compromise comes when you're comfortable with it, if you do it bc you have to you probably have some relationship or personal issues.)
>Everytime we are at a crossroad, I would be the one compromising and he gets his way
>Said i don't ever compromise and I said we got the apartment he wanted even though I can't even afford it
>He suddenly brings up that he did something for me
>So i say, dude we were talking about me, and the things I do
>He flips out and leaves and slams my car door and drives off
>[He says when he brings up his problems, that i dont listen or spin it to make it about me]

>He will go a long time being upset about something and not tell me

>He says when he brings up his problems, that i dont listen or spin it to make it about me
>But every time I'm upset, the argument always ends up about his feelings


You either dump him or if you really think it's worth it you gotta be more sure on yourself and tolerate less of his bs. Have a serious convo with him, don't be afraid of the posibility of a breakup, and say what bothers you about him and how you feel, how it affects you other aspects of life and that you need to see somehting change asap or else it's not gonna work out longterm. And if his reaction is just as shitty where he slams shit and leaves, then maybe keep him out.

Be strong nona. Norcisists don't think they're narcisists. I hope I was clear.

No. 2516208

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I'm so fucking sick of trannies being everywhere, I almost wish I didn't fully peak because now I just notice how prevalent they are online. It's like every other post is about them. For people that are apparently 1% of the population they sure do shit up every single space and make themselves known 24 fucking 7.

It's like I just can't stand them anymore. I say fully peaked because when I was younger a few years ago I spent some time lurking lc but it's only now I've truly realized that literally all of them are like this. Especially the TIMs. I feel like picrel

No. 2516213

>>2516208
Same boat. I never really happen to be around TIMs as much as TIFs because I mostly go online for stuff that tends to attract women, so when a rare TIM does show up and shits all over the place and calls TIFs transmisogynistic and privileged it's almost a relief kek

No. 2516266

I think i have food poisoning. I feel so weak. My hands keep shaking. I can barely eat, I had to force a piece of bread down with barely any saliva.

No. 2516295

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i need to get banned so i stop posting so much
>>2516208
fuck off you whiny loser + you're a scrote + i love jay(as requested)

No. 2516298

:) :p :3 ^^ :D(emoji)

No. 2516304

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Tried using a ai chatbot for venting and this was a ad that popped up. I really wish i was dead. I just want to escape being female and seeing this shit constantly. I hope i die in my sleep.

No. 2516312

>>2516304
Kekk wtf is wrong with them

No. 2516314

>>2516304
>Dainty female hand used to represent the viewer
Kek they fucking wish

No. 2516315

>>2515597
It’s so crazy to me that people can grow out of it. How is love/crushes for you now?

No. 2516328

My sister and I have gotten along until recently. I moved back home with my family and my sister has been so rude to me since. She brushes me off when ever I try to talk to her. Any time she invites me to do something with her it always involves some guys being there with her who she claims is creepy or weird. I tell her not to hang out with guys who she finds creepy or weird and she will start to behave sadly like I let her down and I’m not there to protect her. She threw a huge tantrum to the whole family about how this guy is manipulating her, sobbing about how he’s guilting her. We all told her it’s ok to ignore him and not feel pressured by his guilting. I tried to give her advice about boundaries with weird men and how it’s okay to not feel bad over saying no/blocking/ignoring them. Just for her to secretly date him. It’s fine by me if she likes this guy, she can date whoever she wants. Shes a grown adult. But the tantrum over her being uncomfortable over him and begging us to help(?) her confuses me so much when she turns around and dates him anyways. Ever since that she has been so mean, she micromanages everything I do, how I use the coffee machine, how I leave the shower looking after I’m done using it. I try to stay considerate and follow her rules but she constantly finds something new to pick on. It feels like she checks on me while I do things to make sure I’m doing it her way and it’s super uncomfortable. She is also hypocritical and doesn’t follow her own rules. I spoke to my parents about it but they also brush it off. “Oh that’s just how she is!” I now just hide in my room when she’s not at work to avoid her. I also wait until she works so I can shower. I just try to grey rock her if we do interact but this is just affecting my mental health a lot. I feel like I’m walking on egg shells. I feel depressed. I miss being friends with my sister a lot.

No. 2516329

>Intake appointment for PTSD treatment
>Tell lady about how a family member strangled and beat me and was sexually inappropriate over years and how I'm always replaying the events and I'm constantly terrified that person will appear outside of my home
>At the end of appt lady asks if that same family member will be paying my copay and needs a copy of my info
Do you not have ears or eyes or a fucking brain?

No. 2516361

>>2515889
>>2515874
This is the first time I've misplaced it in over 10 years which is probably why I freaked out kek. I may look into a tracker though since I'm moving soon, thanks

No. 2516412

>>2516328
Does she have BPD? That's BPD behavior right there. The attention seeking, the need for control, and the tantrums are veeery obvious signs. Obviously I can't say for sure but it's worth looking into how to cope with BPD relatives to make your life slightly easier.
Try to discreetly record her tantrums and her rants, especially about her boyfriend and other people she hangs out with. There's a really good chance she's talking shit about you to her boyfriend and turning everyone she knows against you, if you have evidence that she's the one instigating all this crap it's going to make things much easier for you when shit inevitably hits the fan.
Bippies are known for putting themselves in dangerous situations for attention. If you offend your sister by making coffee incorrectly and she starts walking on train tracks to punish you, call the police and let them deal with it. Don't blame yourself for what she does to herself, and carry on grey rocking her as much as possible. Don't be honest with her either, she'll use it against you. It's exhausting to live with someone like that but it really isn't something you should be expected to fix, don't run around after your sister cleaning up her messes.
>>2516329
That's not a bad question to ask. If you rely on that person to pay for your treatments, they might decide to stop paying out of the blue and leave you struggling. There are probably alternative services that could be offered if you found yourself in that situation.
I hope things get easier for you nonna, and I hope your family member gets what they deserve while you watch.

No. 2516416

>>2516412
nta but I was just about to say bpd. You said grey rock as much as possible. I will see your grey rock and advise anon to move out as soon as possible. It's sad that anon misses being friends with her sister. I will say this could be some sort of annoying "phase" and they could end up being friends again in the future. Until then, distance as much as possible is key.

No. 2516419

>>2516328
Literally reminds me of how the house is with my older sister except we never got along because she was really weird and tried to use my weight for her eating disorder when I was a teen. that being said your sister is probably very mentally ill, and likely has borderline personality disorder, so I'd keep gray rocking her and remember that you aren't responsible for her mistakes or anything that goes in in her dating life. You should not be feeling unsafe and having to hide away in your room in your own home nona, I'm sorry.

No. 2516428

My cousin and her husband make 200k/year and always larp as being poor. I know most rich people do this, but it really makes me annoyed when they do. Both of them work from home. They complain that they don’t photograph weddings because it’s “too much work and you have to be there all day” So you mean like every other normal fucking job? They’re so out of touch from reality it’s crazy. They will mention how they’re struggling in life with rent (because they chose to live in the center of LA) but then right after talk about their latest trip to Sweden. Yes obviously I’m jealous, but at least I wish they’d stop larping as poor. Recently they had a baby and it’s just made everything so much worse. They always mention how they’re living paycheck to paycheck since the baby. I don’t understand. They literally went to Europe 3 times last year and even China.

No. 2516452

>>2516428
Nona I feel this. There is one sector of my family that is filthy rich, and I happened to be born to the black sheep side that didn't get generational inheritance. Thanks, dad. I work in a fucking restaurant and all my cousins are trust fund kids. At family gatherings, they're always like, why don't you TRAVEL? Life gets so much better when you TRAVEL. Why don't you TRAVEL to Spain and spend a month there? Etc. Like, I can't, I'm fucking broke. They don't get it and never will.

No. 2516490

>>2516452
Thank you nona. That’s pretty much my situation. I sadly got born into the wrong side as well. My cousins parents paid for her whole tuition at a really nice art college and she got super lucky and landed an amazing job at a big company. It sucks to watch people so close to you live a life that you never will and the worst part is that they don’t even seem grateful for it.

No. 2516492

>>2516412
I really don't think it was an appropriate question to be honest. I am married, have my own insurance, haven't seen that person in years and besides that I'm way past the age for my family to be paying for anything on my behalf. That person wouldn't give me a penny if I was starving and I thought I made it clear to her. It felt very infantilizing to be honest. Thank you for the kind words though.

No. 2516497

Is it just me or literally every single moid is fat now? being ugly is one thing but why are you fat? it's not even about men being "bigger" they literally have more fat than women do. For every fat woman i see there 5 skinny ones but foe every fit moid i see there are 30 fat ones

No. 2516500

>>2516490
>they don’t even seem grateful for it
Ayrt, and damn, that's exactly how it looks to me, too. I wish they could understand the difference between being handed something and having to struggle to get something. I'm pretty sure they think I'm just "lazy" because I simply refuse to join them whilst summering in Turks and Keikos, kek

No. 2516505

I'm about to start working a real job next month and I'm so fucking scared. I felt like killing myself during every full-time internship I've had but afterwards I could at least return to fucking around at uni for a while. Now it'll be work until the end of the year. And then it'll be another year of work. And another. I feel sick just thinking about it. It doesn't help that it's in a city I hate that literally drains me of my energy. I really don't want to do it.

No. 2516519

I have my final law school exam tomorrow and I've fucked up so badly this entire exam period. I lost a bunch of weight this spring but I did it super unhealthily and now I'm binging crazy amounts of sugar every day and wasting all my time online when I should be eating well and studying. I've gained back 12 pounds in like 2 weeks, it's fucking disgusting and I don't even want to leave my house because of how ashamed and sick and weak I feel. I know it's going to be rough but at least I'll graduate and hopefully my grades won't matter too much if I do good work at my job this coming year. I wish I could feel proud of myself and motivated but instead I feel like a disgusting unwashed pig, rotting in my house and stuffing my face when I have so much shit to do.

No. 2516541

>>2516497
It’s because men literally have no hobbies besides watching porn and gaming. They sit around all day eating Doritos while playing fortnite and touching their meat which doesn’t require a lot of movement. A lot of women I know act like they love bigger men too, but I feel like they’re just coping because fat men are their only options in the dating pool.

No. 2516543

>>2516505
Hate to sound like a boomer but … welcome to fuckin life. Nobody enjoys going to work every single day. We all feel the dread, the drain, the anxiety, all of it. But if you want to survive independently, it's the only way besides winning the fucking lottery. Everyone is exhausted. Everybody would rather kill themselves than work. But hey, it's better than, say, being dependent on your parents or being homeless. Cheers.

No. 2516562

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I know it's kind of stupid, but I sobbed today because I got rejected for an application for a dog I've been following for a couple of months.

I make good enough money and I was all set up to buy everything he needed, drive to the foster home 4 hours away, and check him out to make sure everything was okay just in case he wasn't a good match. I also have a home with a large yard and a fence, and my landlord gave me the YES to everything. We also went through a phone interview and they vetted through all of our references which went great. Apparently they thought I wasn't a good enough candidate because the last time I took my cat to the vet was 3 months ago, but they wanted a monthly basis. Are you kidding me? I take him for his yearly vaccinations since he's a happy inside cat with no problems. If he does has a problem, I take him and will spend however much to make sure he's okay because I love him and understand he is a responsibility I took on. We also referenced an old dog that my partner had as a child of the same breed to showcase our love for this breed and since there were no vet records they could find (because it was an old family dog from ten plus years ago) they added this onto the rejection.

Are you serious? Sadly I get why people go to backyard breeders now (not that I'm going to do that but god damn), rescues require you to send in a fucking resume and cover letter and applications cost 50 plus bucks to send in without even knowing if they'll respond back, and whenever I look through the shelters near me it's dogs with covered up histories of aggression or older dogs that need immense care and surgery that I cannot take on right now. I'm just so sad and upset that we wasted a couple months on this application. It's not the end of the world but they were so on board throughout all the phone calls to the point where we stopped sending in applications to other rescues just to text us that they will be ending contact now due to this that I'm frankly very upset.

It feels stupid to cry over seeing his little face and knowing we can't bring him home, but maybe it's for the best. I just don't know where to go next without wasting another few months spending money on applications, facetiming rescues, people asking to measure my fence, and showcasing that I'm not a ringleader for a dogfighting organization. Mind you this is a small fat dog breed lol so feel free to laugh at me and my time wasted. I feel like it would be easier to adopt an actual child at this point.

No. 2516566

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>>2516562
I'm so sorry, nonnie. I'm a dogfag too and reading this made me really sad, and it's valid to be upset considering you went above and beyond. If you don't mind me asking, where are you from? I'm a burgerfag (adopted my senior Lhasa in Chicago) and had success with adoptapet. Rescues (at least where I'm from) list their dogs on there and tend to get back to you well/not waste your time. There are also some elderly people, or people with conditions, who list their dogs on there if they're unable to take care of them, but it's harder to find a specific breed.
I'm rooting for you, nonnie, and I hope you get a furry friend soon. You sound like you'll be a great owner. ♥

No. 2516568

So fucking sick of my bank automatically taking money out of my account and putting it on my credit card. I know I'm in debt, I put payments on when I can but I'm struggling right now financially and haven't been able to pay much. I'm obviously trying to get myself out of this situation but it doesn't help when my bank automatically takes all the money out of my debit account and then charges me an overdraft fee. They don't even give me a warning when they're about to do it. I thought I had a couple dollars in my account, went to use my card and it declined. They took literally every dollar out of it.
Credit card debt fucking sucks so much. I wish I never got a one in the first place.

No. 2516569

>>2516562
Nona that sucks. And I'm not even a huge fan of dogs. What the fuck is up with that draconian vetting procedure??

I would recommend going to a local shelter and getting a rescue. But, of course, you had your heart set on a particular one. So take your time.

No. 2516582

>>2516562
Don’t feel bad Nona. Rescues are notoriously picky. That’s why I’ll never ever try to adopt a pet from one. I was rejected because I’m a veterinary nurse. I apparently work too many hours in a day (only 10?) therefore I don’t have enough time for a cat. Seriously? My next cat is going to be through the regular humane society or breeder now. It’s ridiculous for a pet to come to the vet monthly. Any veterinarian would be confused and annoyed if you did that. I actually hate rescues so much. They also have the audacity to charge $500 for a middle aged mutt dog. I’m so sorry you’re going through this Nona. You would’ve been a great owner for that dog and I’m sure you’ll find another dog that will be perfect for you. Don’t let these retarded rescues make you feel bad. They would rather hoard animals instead of sending them to perfectly good homes due to their unrealistic retarded standards. Sending love!

No. 2516592

>>2516582
Dang. I'm this anon >>2516569 and I guess I assumed the dog-deprived nona was trying to go through a fancy breeder or something … idk. That's ridiculous. In my neck of the woods shelters just throw rescue dogs and cats and anyone who walks in. Didn't realize she was trying to get a rescue … the hoops to go through are bananas where you are, apparently! That's awful

No. 2516623

>>2516592
>In my neck of the woods shelters just throw rescue dogs and cats and anyone who walks in
That’s the case where I live too, but I went through an individually ran rescue (I assume Nona was going through one of these too). These rescues tend to have crazy requirements and end up just hoarding animals. I’m not sure why I even attempted to adopt from them, I just got attached to the cats photo online lol

No. 2516639

>>2516623
That is really a shame about the cat. So, I'm learning a lot of stuff from this convo, like, imagine being rejected from adopting an animal because you're a veterinary nurse. Holy god, that's insanity. My inner tinfoil enthusiast is coming out, and I'm beginning to think that places like these are not just hoarding animals, they're hoarding application fees! – with no intention of adopting any of them out. I hope I'm wrong

No. 2516698

>>2516566
Thank you nonnie, also a burgerfag but in the south. The same breed would be nice but I'm willing to look for others that are similar so I appreciate the recommendation! Thank you so much, I'm still crying like a baby so this means a lot to me!

>>2516582
Wow that's insane, especially being a vet nurse. The fact that you got rejected for a cat that way is retarded especially considering I find my cat wanting to be alone for hours on end to do this own thing all the time, he'd be pissed if I interrupted his 10 hour sleep time kek. Thank you for not making me feel crazy for the month on month vet thing too, I found that insane especially because he's perfectly healthy and my vet people would let me know if he needed anything extra. I feel lucky to have them. The prices for rescues are crazy as well! I'm not asking for anything fancy and I'm willing to pay a good price because dogs are a responsibility but jfc am I buying a horse?? They aren't even a designer breed, just smaller. This monopoly is crazy and I'm a little convinced the fosters (because all the dogs are fostered at homes instead of an actual shelter at the ones I've applied to) are just keeping the dogs and shelving the fees lol I feel so done.

>>2516592
Rescues are not breeders but not shelters, kind of inbetween in my opinion. From my understanding rescue specific shelters either find the dogs on the street, foster them out of public shelters, or are given dogs from people that cannot take care of them anymore and then they foster/list them on their site. Usually applications cost 50 bucks plus and you have to go through something similar to a job application. One of the big things for any breed, I've noticed, is that many require you to live in a home with a giant measured fenced in backyard. I think it's a little stupid to get denied just for that unless you have a dog that needs that, especially a bigger dog, as my past dogs have been fine with just going on long walks outside and stimulation in the house but these rescues are VERY specific. I wouldn't of even gone through them if the government shelters near me had an array of smaller/less aggressive/cat friendly dogs but I'm still on the lookout. I'm willing to go far, but it's so annoying to be treated like I'm a stupid dumb dumb idiot by these rescues because I'm not doing the extra most. Like wtf happened in the past 10 years I feel like it wasn't this hard to adopt a normal dog.

No. 2516710

>>2516639
I use to volunteer with a rescue, mainly with cats but we did have some dogs too. The more urban an area is the higher demand there is for any dog that isn’t a pittmix. Unfortunately the no-kill policy many shelters have adopted has resulted in them being overrun with dogs that require incredibly specific adopters… Driving a lot of that demand to rescues. Specific breeds often get snatched up by breed specific rescues which are their own level of kooky. Furthermore rescues don’t even have to be particularly transparent about their decision-making process. I fostered a cat who had four different applicants once, I interviewed them all and went to their homes. My first choice was denied by the higher-ups just because they didn’t like the guy’s vibe… It’s awful and I don’t really blame people for feeling like the only chance they will get at pet ownership sometimes is with a breeder.

No. 2516725

>>2516710
>>2516698
This is a lot to think about. Again, where I live in burgerland, you can just walk into a shelter and get a cat/dog for like 20 bucks, no questions. This shit is crazy to me, I mean I understand you don't want to hand a dog to a crackhead, but the people who supposedly "care" about dogs should be more aware of the fact that hoarding animals in their facility is far worse than taking a chance on someone who works a full-time job … Mystifying.

No. 2516734

My narcissistic 50 year old female coworker looks like Robin Williams and it makes me fucking insane

No. 2516736

>>2516734
Insane with lust?

No. 2516741

>>2516541
But if all moids are fat women can't pretend to find them attractive forever, at some point they have to shame them. Although i do think that if women started demanding moids to put effort in their looks moids would double down and demand they need to look like instagram models and straight up visciously bully women's looks way worse than they do now and most women who would rather die than be single or be seen as unattractive in men's eyes would succumb to the pressure.

No. 2516754

My stupid brother is about to lose his full ride scholarship.
Ugh why are me and my siblings so defective. We have no friends and are only functioning because we have mommy and daddy to go home to. We don't fit in to this culture or the culture our parents are from. Why do we exist?
No seriously I am such a genetic defect. We were supposed to be the smart high IQ children but we're utter failures with no ambition. I hate my life.

No. 2516755

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I'm starting to think there is something inherently so off-putting and weird about me that I am basically a real-life Raid but for humans. Every last good friend I've made over the last few years stopped talking to me and now whenever I hit it off with someone new and see them also starting to not talk to me anymore, I can see the cycle repeating again. I can always feel people IRL giving me uncomfortable or judgmental looks.

Honest to god, I do not know what it could be though. If it's people sensing my negativity, I've come a long way with my self-esteem issues compared to previous years. It's not great, but I feel much more confident and relaxed around others compared to the mess I was before. Maybe I just went from being a timid wallflower with no personality to just being a Weird Al-type instead.

Will I never be remotely close to normie? Is forming a completely different identity the only way I will ever get people to stop pulling away? I feel like there's no other way and I have to completely fake who I am to be likeable. Queue Blake from Workaholics telling Adam "Just be yourself" and Adam saying "That's horrible advice. Most people don't like me, actually." Perhaps I am some kind of natural eccentric that will always be the less normie in a room full of normies, but I've also been wrecked by severe social anxiety my whole childhood so there is no doubt that I have social maladjustment that will always be immediately apparent to someone who has never had any. It's like a scarlet letter on my breast.

No. 2516756

>>2516736
ANON NO

No. 2516763

>>2516755
Do you actively try to be friends with them? Text first?
I'm totally projecting but consider the idea that maybe you don't even like people or desire their company. When I accepted that I stopped feeling lonely.

No. 2516770

>>2516755
Im sorry about your friends dropping you. But I feel the exact same way nona. I promise it's better to be a weird motherfucker even if you have to be weird alone than it is to push down your personality to suit others. People can smell it when you're faking being normie. It's like a weird uncanny skinwalker type of vibe they get. There's other weird people out there and you're probably gonna meet busloads of people that you don't get along with but eventually, at some point, you'll find new people or a group that you "click" with.

No. 2516772

>>2515451
It's so over.
Women have been programmed for millennia to suck up to the males who usurped their rightful place to choose and influence the gene fool in order to secure resources. 100 years in select countries, we're still like this. This is why I call myself a misanthropist. While women aren't evil like men are, they are truly pathetic.
Intelligent life was a mistake.

No. 2516773

>>2516755
Well it sounds like you've come a long way from the human repellent you once assumed yourself to be. That's really commendable. You don't seem like other anons who come on too strong and are scary clingy, (which is the major error so many people here make, imo) So … maybe you're in a shitty town or something? Also, as an oldfag, what you have described is the nature of friendships. They come, and they go. Nobody can explain it. Sorry you feel this way, I felt "weird" for a long time and eventually found irl long-term friends who were just as weird. It just took a while.

No. 2516779

>>2515561
Amen to that, nonna. The world would be a better place.

No. 2516783

I cant even enjoy a moid IRL having a crush on me. Its always some stalking, idealization thing that makes me feel dehumanized, or a weird agp-esque thing where he lowkey skinwalks me… which also feels dehumanizing. I know im kinda weird and terminally online and will attract similar guys sadly, but I wish a guy would be like, normal and just try to be my friend and then slowly flirt with me like a relationship really is supposed to develop. why does it always have to be some weird idealizing shit instead. But the sad thing is ive literally never met a guy I wanted to persue first kek

No. 2516789

>>2516783
Moids are retarded. I'm glad that a moidcrush makes you feel creeped out and not validated. You obviously don't seek attention. Your problem is being terminally online, but I don't have to repeat you, you already know that. Keep being annoyed, that shit is fuel. Eventually you'll know who to pursue when it's right. (Just curious, specifically how do moids skinwalk you?)

No. 2516799

>>2516741
This is why I went the passport bro route and got an attractive fit Italian guy. I’m not going to pretend to be attracted to ugly fat lazy American men

No. 2516807

>>2516799
Got any more?

No. 2516813

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For anyone that has ever beefed with someone in a friend group and then left said group, did any of the other members of the group come around and understand why you did what you did?
I left a group because my ex friend treated me like absolute shit, manipulative BPD bullshit. But that ex-friend is involved in a creative project with the friend group, and is dating another member.
I left and explained why I left. I had a family member tell me (when I was ranting to them about it) that people in the group might just be under the same 'spell' I was, but I got too close, and that's why I got the shit end of all the fucked up behavior.
I'm grieving what I thought was a pretty solid friend group in adulthood. This is also my first time standing up for myself in a friend group like this, I've also never experienced anything like this with friends…
I have this horrible feeling that it doesn't really matter, because I rocked the boat, and this person is more useful to them than me, I'm out and I'll probably stay out unless I reconcile with this person. But I don't want to, because the reconciliation implies that I have to apologize for some part of my reaction to their abusive bullshit behavior. Like threatening suicide tantrum stomping bullshit. At the very least, my friends seem to think "well, she's nice to me, so…" even though they would tell me about how much of a bully she could be at times, or how she was "immature" or "mentally ill"… But I fucking feel mentally ill right now, not knowing wtf I'm supposed to do. I can't even trust the people who still say they're my friends, because I never hear shit from them now that I'm not involved.
This rant is retarded and I feel like an insecure little bitch to be ranting about it. But idk has anybody gone through something like this?

No. 2516818

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>>2516763
>I'm totally projecting but consider the idea that maybe you don't even like people or desire their company
Admittedly not most of the time, you're right. Talking to most people has felt like a complete chore for years now.

However, there are people I've tried that with (One I'm even interested in romantically right now) and yet I still can tell they rapidly lose interest from their replies. The interest always ends up one-sided. Maybe I come off too boring/uninteresting because I can't share in the people I talk to's excitement about what they want to talk about (It's not like these tend to be unshared interests, either. I just have a much more flat, emotionally reserved disposition). I feel like there is always some kind of invisible wall between me and others that just can't be crossed. This is self-evident by how most people I tried to get to know never became more than acquaintances and the few good friendships I somehow managed to make all eventually degraded into acquaintanceships, before fading away completely. The person I am interested in even told me I shouldn't be closed off, but I'm sorry..I'm just a boring version of Pandora's Box. Nothing good will come out of opening me. I'm just a bizarre and bitter person that is as interesting as watching paint dry.

>>2516770
For environments like ones in my corpo job, that's just not an option, but in informal situations yeah I guess you're right. I don't want to give off some kind of serial killer vibe, either. I already feel like I try too hard to be funny alot of the time, even though I know I'm not. Being funny is a skill only suited for normies.

>at some point, you'll find new people or a group that you "click" with.

My issue is that this happens even with the people I was fully convinced I "clicked" with, too. If that's the case, I can't think of anything else other than it not just being a case of being weird, but also coming across as some kind of creep. Don't know how else to explain people giving me uncomfortable stares. I'm not some kind of schizo or anything, just severely depressed, but I must come across disturbed in some way. Not to get carried away with self-diagnosis, but I do feel like a schizoid actually. I've always lived in my head and naturally gravitate towards isolating myself. No one actually ever gets to know me as I am.

No. 2516822

>>2516813
I very recently went though something similar and it was a lot quieter but it was still painful. I was targeted by a guy who I’m pretty sure is an abuser and wanted me to be his next victim and he turned all of our mutual friends against me. I have no idea what he said but they have all gone super cold on me when we see each in other in person but watch my socials like a hawk. I tried to ask them what was up and just got ignored. All I can say is that it fucking sucks and they’re not your real friends. It’s for the best but it’s still a really painful way to find out who is actually there for you. Hope you find some better friends nonna. <3

No. 2516831

>>2516789
It really is so creepy and unromantic that i cant feel much validation from it lol. also to answer your question they just copy stuff i like in an unnatural way that feels uncomfortable, usually its guys online trying to be my friend who do this. but also there was this one guy in high school who had a weird hate-obsession over me and sent me angry messages on instagram over being "transphobic" and he trooned out. god that guy was so fucking creepy

No. 2516832

>>2516813
Well, I saw it from another angle. I was part of a friend group that had a manipulative bpd person, and honestly it took a while for us to see her for what she really was. I would recommend not "rocking the boat" further, continuing to seek contact with anyone else except for her. Your friends probably are still your friends, and, being human and all, don't want too much drama. I don't know specifics, but my friend group went through similar drama and eventually we recognized the bpd chaos element and ousted her. Patience, showing your other friends you're still loyal to them, and standing by your truth-telling. Don't rush anything. Sorry if I'm misconstruing anything, but I think if you sit back, cultivate your relationships with your real friends, and shun the crazy one to the best of your abilities, then your group will figure it out on their own.

No. 2516841

>>2516831
>there was this one guy in high school who had a weird hate-obsession over me
NTA, this has happened to me too and it's horrible. Did he really troon out just because he thought it would spite you…? That's insane and definitely creepy. In my case, the scrote with the obsession would send me edgelord memes or gore at random times, and he'd also insult my body in front of others in a way that made it obvious he was scrutinising me. Then, in what I think was an attempt to make me jealous, he started orbiting the pickme in our social circle and was super passive aggressive about it. Genuinely what the hell is wrong with males kek

No. 2516847

>>2516822
I'm sorry you went through a similar thing nonnie. The whole
>I tried to ask them what was up and just got ignored
shit bothers me to no end. It makes me think - if they don't 'want drama' would they even tell me what's up? Why complain about the person's behaviors but then ice me out while entertaining that person instead? But all this ruminating does nothing but make me anxious and doesn't solve shit.
>>2516832
This was extremely reassuring, thank you. I know that it doesn't mean my friends will behave the same way, or really ever "find out" what she's like beyond what she's displayed already… but it gives me hope that you say it took a while for you and the other friends to see who she really was.
Thank you for the advice on not further rocking the boat and not rushing anything. I'll just use this time to work on my patience and find other people I mesh with in the meantime. Also, I'll try to not be so paranoid about how people ~really~ feel about me and just take at face value that these friends don't want drama. I really appreciate it, I'm screenshotting this so if I start ruminating I can look back at it.

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No. 2516856

I let an old lady with 15 or so items go in front of me today at the checkout despite having only one thing myself. She said not a word and went right ahead. I wanted to be nasty to her so bad, fucking bitch. Not even a thank you? I know shes miserable deep down so I held my tongue.

No. 2516858

>>2516856
And I know the cashier saw it too. She was a butch dyke with 2 cats at home so she probably browses her.

No. 2516862

i swear to god if a cute tall fair skinned skinny asian dude doesnt make me orgasm my way to sleep im going to commit mass murder

No. 2516865

>>2516858
>>2516856
im sorry i was busy thinking about the next threadpic for ugly man psyop

No. 2516873

I hate high calorie food, I wanna eat a lot and not gain weight! I just wanna nom on shit all the time, let me graze grass all day like a fucking cow

No. 2516880

Stress is making me enter another manic episode

No. 2516883

>>2516847
I'm glad you replied to my post, which of course is very anecdotal and not universal, but … I believe friendship is the most important thing out here, and what we went through was really rocky. I made it a point to let my non-problematic homies know I was still with them no matter what, even if I thought they were under the spell of the bpd-monster. It was a fuckin ride, but I realized there's no reason to sacrifice 4 good friendships because of one lone bpd idiot. You seem like you get it. We emerged from the shitshow stronger than ever, when all was said and done. I really wish you the best because you seem cool and empathetic.

No. 2516887

I made a new friend, feels nice

No. 2516889

i feel like i'm just living in a constant limbo waiting for something to happen but it never does. time passes by me and i waste away all of my good life sitting around not even doing anything at all. and yet i still keep waiting because i don't know what to do with myself

No. 2516892

about to furiously schlick, if one of you replies to this saying something nice such as "i love you nonnie" i'll abstain

No. 2516900

>>2516892
i love you nonnie what the hell do that mean…

No. 2516902

>>2516892
I love you nonnie do it anyway

No. 2516910

>>2516902
spoken like a true friend

No. 2516911

>>2516841
I dont think he did it to spite me, he was always an extremely maladjusted obvious autistic guy who was into nerdy stuff and anime, prime candidate for grooming into being trans. Idk whats wrong with them, their neuroses scare me tbh

No. 2516961

im going to find refuge in my own head, nobody can take away my fantasies

No. 2516965

>>2516883
I think that
>I made it a point to let my non problematic homies know I was still with them no matter what
is the point I need to internalize. Sometimes it feels like they are keeping things surface level with me or ignoring me and it feels frustrating. However, we're all very busy and no longer a bunch of teens in school.. So I ought to keep the good faith and interact with them. This gives me hope!! And yes, I did wind up feeling a bit stronger because I was no longer a doormat to the bullshit. I just hope my friends can do the same sooner than later!

No. 2516993

WHY AM I SAD???

No. 2517065

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I want to text my ex so so so bad, I haven't gotten any attention from another woman in a few months and it has been driving me crazy. She texted me first and my friends have told me not to text back because she clearly knows that she shouldn't be doing that and it will only fuck with me but god. She has not made space for me in her life, and I was doing much more for the relationship than she was, but FUCK what I wouldn't do if she was actually a better person. I know by texting her she won't even have enough time to respond properly because she'll be busy with a shit ton of work by this time, so I know better than that. If only she did make space for me then things would be different, my love quest is not over though.

No. 2517095

this year is the second time I'm participating in a fandom ship week and that's really important to me.
unfortunately, the runners gave the most vague, uninspired prompts this time. They're like "Bond" "Love" "Shared". It's so vague and unfortunately, I can't whine about it because we're a small community. I'm just going to draw interesting surrealist art with them and hope that this little section of the fandom appreciates me more as an artist. if not I'm going to chalk it up to my skill issue and take some more copium.

No. 2517100

I’m such an overly sensitive dumbass to the point where if I see a woman’s life is better now after suffering hardship for any reason in a random instagram reel the algorithm is feeding me I’ll start crying because I’m so happy for her.

No. 2517102

>>2517095
idc what ship it is surrealist shipping art will always go hard you will be fine

No. 2517133

going on a long journey nonnies. no lolcor for 2 months. i will miss celebricows and shayna. kinda sad im gonna miss what happens in that timespan.

No. 2517162

lately I've been trying to meme myself into being more attracted to men but it's not really working

No. 2517187

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>>2517162
Do you have money for travel? Moids will automatically hit on you in many countries and the language barrier will create mystery. I am basically recommending you be passport sis but I think it could work tbh

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No. 2517270

Had a gyno appointment yesterday and the doc recommended this new pill called Myfembree for my endometriosis. Stupid fucking name and of course there’s the risk of a bunch of side effects but today was so fucking uncomfortable that I’m really considering it.

No. 2517334

>>2517162
just stop taking your anti-depressants!

No. 2517441

I just feel so beat down by how women are treated. I feel like an insufferable harpy that can't shut the fuck up about politics all the time, but in literally every interaction between women and men you can see it. I feel so alone. Men are so inventive when it comes to crafting methods to control and terrorize women, and it takes so much fucking effort to undo what takes men so little effort to destroy. Women will pretend to understand when I have these conversations irl, then go on to be friends with and date horrible, misogynistic men anyway. I feel like I'm going crazy. Why? why does no one care about us?

No. 2517445

>>2517270
Choosing between your menstruation causing medical problems vs hormonal birth control is truly choosing between two evils. It sucks.

No. 2517453

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>>2517065
I texted my ex

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No. 2517478

There's no worse feeling in the world than finishing a tv show. I feel an overwhelming sense of existential dread and emptiness even though i could just start another one. Every time i watch a show, i DREAD watching the last couple of episodes. It's so stupid, but it's such a disturbing reminder than i essentially live to consume the stimuli around me. I don't feel like my life has any purpose nor do i feel like a main character. It doesn't help that all of my family went on a vacation of a life time and i had to stay home because i had to do an exam i don't even know i did good enough in to pass. It's been a while since I've actually had a break down, but honestly the pain feels too much. I don't even know how to fix my life to stop feeling so empty and meaningless. I feel like i just shouldn't be on this world and i will never be good enough.

No. 2517488

>>2517465
Don't tell her but I am on the brink of tears

No. 2517502

the glasses i wear are popular with tims

No. 2517518

>>2517478
this is why i stopped engaging with a lot of media, it's sad being reminded of your own life at the end and reality hitting you.

No. 2517521

>>2517478
Understandable but also because I get way too invested in the characters and story and get attached to them and genuinely miss them and their world after.

No. 2517579

Never rely on one person for most of your happiness and friendship especially if she's bpd and freaks out on you and cuts you off for no reason at least once a month (this time it looks like it's for real though) (I shouldn't even be her friend anymore but I am so miserable I miss her so much and I want her back I'm half in love with her I wish she'd talk to me)

No. 2517580

I’m hungry but I already brushed my teeth and got ready for bed… Why do people eat dinner at like 5pm who does this benefit??

No. 2517630

I can't figure it out if I'm being gaslighted or manipulated or if I'm really the retarded one here. I have a rocky relationship with my ex, he's always been respectful to me but he also did some questionable shit, and idk if I'm just crazy and seeing things or if he's really two faced. He broke up with me because "he couldn't see a future with me", I was devastated so I was trying to find any ways to still meet him and I said we can still have sex, he rejected the idea, and in the end I told him angrily that I'm never gonna contact him again. But I told him happy birthday three months later. And then he suddenly came back at me and asked if we can be fwbs and I said yes cause I was still desperately in love with him. We had sex, but he behaved weirdly with me and (respectfully) told me to leave his house when I was supposed to stay for longer, I started crying cause again I felt used like a toy, he told me he doesn't care about my crying and feelings. After that I left and he blocked me, and three months later he comes back in my dms asking me if I still wanna have sex. This time at the beginning I was more guarded, I didn't meet with him but ended up having a meltdown about how he's treating me badly and mocking my feelings and that he knows that I love him and he's using that for his own advantage. And he said he has no empathy for me cause I'm not rational and that I consented to everything so I can't hold it against him and that he doesn't have any reason to say sorry cause he didn't do anything wrong.

No. 2517632

>>2517630
He's a psychopath taking advantage of you. Cut contact with him completely. You are dependant because you still have feelings for him. What a disgusting piece of shit moid. Nonna you deserve love not this bullshit. You'll move on as soon as you stop seeing him. For your own good, please delete his number and don't look back.

No. 2517640

>>2517632
Even during our relationship he knew that I'm a sensitive person, he said it himself once that he doesn't want to insult me or hurt me, but then he comes and does this shit to me, it makes me question my own reality. He said I'm old enough to be responsible for my own decisions and I agree, but he should have known to not play with me like this only when it's convenient to him… it's not even proper fwb because if I was the one who wanted sex he would tell me he has no time, it's only when he feels like it

No. 2517643

>>2517639
It's not that I'm submissive or a pick me, but he's the only irl man I felt truly attracted to physically and emotionally in the past 10 yrs. He is very handsome

No. 2517651

>>2517630
god this is pathetic, love yourself retard

No. 2517653

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I know it’s a power thing ATP, but pick up a fucking hobby and stop calling me. You act like Tom calling Greg about his saucy secret or whatever happened in Succession. Jesus fucking Christ. How do you even maintain having a job? Get a fulfilling life and leave women out of it, you weirdo. Holy shit. If this fucking rapist shithead gave me an STD, which I’ll find out soon, I’ll rage out and fully go through with charges. Fucking dickhead.

No. 2517664

>>2517640
>>2517630
sometimes when someone tells you something, it's good to listen to them
he clearly stated that he does not care about your feelings and he clearly just wants to use you for sex
it can be hard to relate as to why a guy would be that way but they really just need to stick it in something every now and then, it doesn't mean anything and he does not love you
cut all contact and leave, if you make it past the stage of missing him deeply (about 3-6 months), the only feeling left will be the regret of not doing it earlier

No. 2517666

>>2517630
>he said he has no empathy for me cause I'm not rational and that I consented to everything so I can't hold it against him and that he doesn't have any reason to say sorry cause he didn't do anything wrong
Also that's just bullshit, that's just what he tells himself. You are not irrational. You miss him so you want to be intimate with him, that's quite rational. He knows that and he takes advantage of it while pretending he doesn't lol.
He sounds like a misogynistic piece of crap with that "women are not rational bs" and a really shitty person all around.

No. 2517675

If I see one more woman bringer her son that's almost my size to the ladies room I'm going to pepper spray them both. I don't care about spending a night or two in jail.

No. 2517682

I feel like I'm on a downward spiral at work. Because I'm not tactful when other people are pushy. So they are allowed to keep trying to push tasks on to me that are not my responsibility but suddenly I'm the unprofessional one for saying straight up I refuse? It's bullshit. Plus, I keep getting mad whenever people disagree with an opinion, like my coworker who just questioned, yet again, the rationale behind a decision. I mean, it's like we didn't have about four meetings for this question exactly with a final conclusion that it didn't matter. And now he's trying to bring it up again? I just said okay and then ignored his further messages to elaborate. It's probably going to get back to my manager at some point and I know I'm probably going to go off on one when he brings it up. I wish I could just stop being so fucking mad about stuff that is legitimately bullshit but other people seem to tolerate.

No. 2517685

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My SSD is failing and i need to buy a new one ASAP. My HDD stopped working completly and i need a new one. Now my second monitor stopped working and i need to buy a new one. I would need like 400 usd to cover the cost of all the things that broke in this shit ass year. Fuck it, i am going to make vtuber loli asmr shit i am desperate and i am completly useless to the point i failed several low entry jobs because of my autism. Fuckkkk why couldnt i be born in a stable family, i got no one to lend me money and i live in a thirdie shithole too. Just kill me already. I fucking hate my life, i hate having to prostitute myself for a living i ltierally cannot thinkg of anything else i can do for money because i am fucking useless and the only thing i have ever been complimented on is my voice. I am not even pretty enough to make an onlyfans. I hate my fucking life.

No. 2517686

>>2517675
Ah based

No. 2517690

>>2517675
Too based for lolcow

No. 2517694

>>2517453
Pathetic, now he knows you're down bad and desperate.

No. 2517697

>>2517502
Because they want to be you nona. Tims will copy anything women do so let them affect your fashion choices.
>>2517478
lol i have this issue where when I rewatch shows i like i never watch the final episode, because then it feels like it hasn't ended yet

No. 2517698

>>2517630
>I started crying cause again I felt used like a toy
You are, and you literally offered to be one for him. But that also doesn't negate the fact that he took advantage of you and your feelings. He's a piece of shit, YOU're the one who shouldn't see a future with HIM.

No. 2517700

>>2517675
The fucked up thing is the son probably hates it too because he's old enough to know it's weird. Especially since he's getting naked around his own mother.

No. 2517706

So awesome having jet lag where I sleep for 3 hours and wake up at like 1 AM, go through awful fatigue, then have to nap again 7 hours later. Can my body hurry up and please stop being retarded about circadian rhythms and shit.

No. 2517720

I hate when people don't reply to my text, and I know they reply to others. so I'm just so low down on the food chain that I don't deserve any interaction?

No. 2517722

>>2517643
>he's the only irl man I felt truly attracted to physically and emotionally in the past 10 yrs. He is very handsome
you're being punished for your own greed

No. 2517727

I hate when narcs do that thing where they start drama with you, and then after a while they start acting super friendly and nice and like nothing happened. It's fucking weird. And if you're still not on good standing with them, they act like you're the problem.

No. 2517730

Kind of wild that my mom never taught me to stand up for my beliefs, embrace my (cringe) taste, speak up, or disagree at all with others in any way on the premise it would upset the person in question, no matter how uncomfortable/upset I was.
Damn, that was so damaging, and I guess continues to be.

No. 2517733

Like A While ago I was broken up with by a gf of mine I dated for half a decade. I remember feeling awful about myself, but I never thought much bad about her ever. Until I spoke about the breakup finally over two years later with a friend.
That friend told me that my gf was abusing me all those years, that my gf was always an insufferable heartless bitch who always demeaned me and insulted me in my face and ever since she moved away, she ditched all her friends, including that friend, basically, and barely contacts them and everyone is feeling weird still having her come round because she's unpleasant.
The opinion of my friend made me reframe a lot about that relationship, but even after that, I mostly just realised me and my ex were a bad match and she's not really as bad of a person as my friend described her, even if now, much older, I wouldn't like or date that ex.

Today I woke up to find out that my friend who badmouthed my ex so badly, is hanging out with her.
Nonas, I feel weird. Like, did my friend lie to me to make to make me feel better about a breakup? She keeps mentioning that my ex was a bad person all the time tho.
Or is she a two-faced person for still hanging out with "an abusive monster bitch" after all these years of badmouthing her?

I feel weird, because it's not really my place to ask why anyone hangs out with anyone. We were all friends for years. I just feel like I am out of the loop and not understanding something here and that's why I feel weird. Like am I weird? Are they weird? Who's lying to who? Is it ok to feel bad for your ex whom you wish nothing but happiness despite them being kind of a bitch for hanging out with your other friend who openly badmouths her to me any opportunity?
Should I even care if my long-time ex and current-time friend are hanging together? Ugh.

No. 2517747

>>2517733
Yeah that's weird and inauthentic. Her words and actions are not adding up. I'd want to confront her about it…

No. 2517748

>>2517722
Moids will have a girl who loves them and is that loyal to them and still treat them like shit kek. Their soullessness is insane

No. 2517762

YAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYY YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY IM SO HAPPY HAHAHAHAHAHA

No. 2517828

Gay moids are NOT your friends. Not that I thought they were, but it's astounding seeing it so clearly demonstrated irl.

No. 2517830

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I’m so fed up with owning a dog. I love them but I just can’t do it anymore. I’ve had my dog for 13 years now and I feel like I’m just waiting for her to croak. As she’s aged she’s turned into a completely different dog and I’m the only one putting in the funds and effort to take care of her on top of everything else I have to do. Yeah, I’ll be sad, but it’ll feel like a weight lifted off of my shoulders. I just also hate the mess and allergies that comes with having an animal that goes outside. I’ll continue to take care of her and love her but sometimes it gets tough and it really tests my patience.

No. 2517831

sometimes I try to look for something through my old camera roll pics and I see pictures of my two cats that passed away and I wanna cry because I still miss them so bad even though its been years

No. 2517833

>>2517828
I hate gay moids who aren't really aligned with females, you know the type. The weird softboys who like masculine things in a wimpy way. Maybe they have a pop girl they stan. Anyway these fags are the most insecure because they can kind of pass as a straight male but their seething insecurity makes them think they're some limpwrist fag so if you are friends with them they'll probably end up being evil freaks to you. If they find some man they can fixate on (either as friends or fuckbuddies) they will dump and betray your ass so fucking quickly.
On the other hand I have a soft spot for the kind of fag who was probably really close with his mom or sisters and mainly socializes with women, if they're catty and mean then they're not who I'm talking about. These types are always really kind and smartly dressed and clean. Typically very good at smalltalk. Those are the fags that I like but they're so incredibly rare.
Bottom line, if the fag actually calls you a bitch or something else demeaning, he is one of the bad fags. If the fag polite and good at smalltalk and gets along great with women he's probably a good one.

No. 2517837

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>>2517833
This one told a long story where he mentioned wanting to kill several "dumb bitches" throughout, complete with multiple strangulation hand gestures so. Definitely one of the bad ones. More than one of us started holding our textbooks like picrel and he just kept going because he apparently didn't see how aggro the entire thing made him seem.

No. 2517844

>>2517837
That is so freaky, what the fuck. Ghost him.

No. 2517848

>>2517844
Would if I could nonny. It's a small school so he's unavoidable on campus.

No. 2517856

>>2517727
My sister did this not too long ago. I blocked her everywhere, then she made a new Facebook account and messaged me there acting like we’re best friends out of nowhere. Batshit.

No. 2517872

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Im too delusional about how i look. I used to think I was average, equal to the girls around me. Then i saw how my female friend got with an actually attractive guy, who was talented, spoiled her, etc. In constrast, i only seem to atttact ugly men, who are just desperate for any female attention. The ones who show up to the date in a graphic t and basketball shorts, dont pay for anything, that kind. I even tried asking a cute boy (short, skinny asian guy) i was friends with out once, falling for the "guys accept 99% of advances!" Psyop. I was rejected, and now when we hang out he talks about how hes trying to find girls at the bar, or about how hes talking on instagram to this cute girl we used to go to school with.

Its funny too. The same guy asked me why ive never had a boyfriend, then asked why i didnt date the fat lard who asked me out. If i was actually cute, put together, no one would tell me to date some ugly guy.

Feelsbad

No. 2517873

I'm not the type of person who wants to save the entire world, I understand that you cannot help someone who just doesn't want help but I cannot get over not being able to help my brother. Our father was an abusive man, gradually getting worse and worse over the years. Not that long ago I realized he was abusing xanax for many years, which explains his violent outburst and paranoia. The last couple of years at home was absolutely hell, but now we're all moved out and safe.
I could write a lot about how devastating the aftermatch of years of abuse is on me, my mother and my sister, but that is probably best left fot therapy. After all, we manage to carry on with our lives somehow, except for my brother.
He's 24, I think, I honestly don't really know. We don't talk. He doesn't really talks to anyone, maybe sometimes with mom since he lives with her. No friends, no leaving the house. He doesn't have a high school diploma, he dropped out. He doesn't have a job. He had a job for a second lately, one where you chat to people in a store and get them to try some tobbaco products, but he quit because "people were mean". I would laugh if it was about anyone else, but it's about him and the thought of someone being mean to him makes me cry. I want to help him, but we have no connection. He doesn't feel comfortable around me and our interactions are beyond awkward.
I feel terrible sense of guilt, like I was the one that was somehow supposed to protect him and failed. I feel bad that him being alone, not included, depressed became normal. My sister's 3 year old comes over and is scared of the closed door to his room, he sometimes asks whispering "who lives there". Everyone is doing something with their lives and he's forgotten. I wish I was making enough to fund him online therapy or had any way of providing him a job that he would be comfortable with. Maybe something would light up inside of him. It feels strange, he's older than me but I want to take care of him. I think because I was also very depressed after moving out and I know how hard it is to put yourself together. But the life I have now was worth all the work and his could be too, if only someone helped him through the first steps.
Do any of you have experiences like this? What can I do?

No. 2517874

I found a dead kitten just 10 meters from my house on a field path. It wasn't a newborn and it was alone. I'm thinking if a bird snatched it he would eat it no? It must have been a person who did it and tossed in the field. Fucking pisses me off, I would take it if whichever retard would make it known they don't want kittens. There's a very feral black cat that I sometimes see and i think it's hers because it was also black. No wonder that she's feral if the people she lives with kill her children.

No. 2517887

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I can't help it but I look always sad or suffering in pictures/selfies. I can't force myself to smile, it looks psychotic. Idk if I'm autistic or just retarded really but it's driving me crazy. Now that my skin looks good I thought my time has come.

No. 2517892

>>2517873
Have you ever had this conversation with your brother? Like told him everything you just told us, including your own fears and shame about not feeling like you did enough. It would take being vulnerable on your part, but maybe showing him love and vulnerability could do something to help him feel loved and safer being vulnerable himself. But if you do it, don’t go into it expecting/wanting him to open up. Open up to him, don’t ask for or imply you want anything in return. Tbh I don’t think it would make a noticeable difference in the moment, but it would set a foundation you could try to continue building on over time.
Not a moid but I have struggled with big-time trust issues from childhood abuse that I’ve been trying to work through the past few years. Finally interacting with someone who made my hurt feel understood and who loved and empathized with me in the face of it all was a huge step forward.

No. 2517897

>>2517630
For crying out loud have some self-respect.

No. 2517899

>>2517630
Grow a fucking spine for your own sake and block this guy tf.

No. 2517913

Growing up and realising just how dumb you were when living with an abusive parent is so jarring. It took me years to realise that no way did my dad know all the cops in my town, and even if he somehow did, it still wouldn't have protected him from shit. I was also underaged when he was screaming and throwing shit at me, refusing to let me go outside or refused to let me use the bathroom so I got multiple kidney infections. What I do find fascinating is how at some point it does feel like a veil has been lifted and they just have 0 power over you anymore, but that took so many years of me living on my own with no contact. Then that loser died and by then I was so aware of what a narc liar loser he was and how unfortunate it was that he shaped my whole childhood + early adulthood, like how sad I was sure that no one would help me. I'm sure people would have, social services should have but I was too scared and by the end I was sure it wouldn't be of any use because "he knew everyone". I was so scared he was gonna sent the cops after me once I moved and it was when I was explaining that to a friend I was like "hold on, how could he actually? i didn't do shit." and now I feel relatively normal. It helped immensely that he is now dead, was a sad sad man. I sometimes feel like I can relate to ex cult members because my dad practically brainwashed me into believing the dumbest shit about his status. All good now, just needed to word puke about it.

No. 2517918

>>2517874
>I'm thinking if a bird snatched it he would eat it no?
Not necessarily, they drop food all the time because they're kinda dumb or they get in a fight with another bird trying to steal their food etc. Sounds like you live in the country side which means it could have been SO many different wild animals that killed it. Snake, badger, deer, bigger cat, dog, fox… I don't know your local wildlife but you get the point. Kittens are so small anything could easily kill them by accident.

No. 2517933

>>2517918
I know it was just weird spot where a kitten would never get on their own because cats don't nest on a field path where tractors go so bird was the most realistic option but I'm thinking it could have been a person because 2 years before somebody dumped a kitten the same age in my car shed because I have a sign on my gate saying I have a big angry dog. Kitten was alive and I found him a home. It made suspicious that my house and this area is a kitten dumping spot for somebody.

No. 2517935

Apparently this week in my country it was found out that there was a fake gynecologist who was visiting women and on top of that there was another doctor who was raping nurses and other doctors.
More reason for me to go female only, I’ll never trust a male.

No. 2517940

>>2517630
I don’t feel bad for laughing at you nor do I feel any pity. Get some self respect, because the situation you are in is solely your own doing.

No. 2517944

>>2517640
>He said I'm old enough to be responsible for my own decisions and I agree
He is right though. It’s not like he promised you to come back, you offered easy sex he accepted it. He didn’t need to do anything. Have some accountability rather than blaming people.
He is a POS, but he showed you plenty of times that he was POS, yet you willingly went along each time.

No. 2517950

>>2517892
I haven't had a conversation with him. On his birthday I sent him a message saying that even though we don't talk, I still think about him and wish him the best. It was simple, but I remember being a bit emotional writing it. He read it after a couple hours and didn't respond in any way. I don't think I stand a chance to have a real life conversation with him anytime soon, it seems impossibile. I don't think I'd be able to say anything, I'd just start crying and it would achieve nothing.
His birthday is coming up soon, I think I'll text him something again. I guess now that I know he won't bother with answering I can write something longer. It won't be as good as irl talk but hopefully will make him feel noticed and cared for.
Thank you for response nonnie, I'm happy you found someone who makes you feel safe and I hope you will continue healing

No. 2517978

night shift with the drunkards and carckheads tonight. wish me luck.

No. 2517989

>>2517872
you're probably way better looking than you think, maybe the guys around you who are cute are taken or too shy to approach?

No. 2518016

>>2517872
I’m in your same boat sort of. I am attractive but no one approaches me that often kek. I think that in general people approach less lately, due to social media and dating apps, I was being approached more before, so don’t let it get to you nonna.
I see men looking at me when I go out and I get compliments too from women.

No. 2518017

>>2517872
I think that when you are attractive you can get to a certain point where people don’t approach you because they are intimated. Ugly scrotes aren’t losing anything because they are used to rejection.

No. 2518055

>>2518017
>think that when you are attractive you can get to a certain point where people don’t approach you because they are intimated.
i think that's mostly cope tbh. never seen it irl

No. 2518058

>>2517978
Stay safe

No. 2518062

>>2518055
I mean it can be. But for me I’m a black woman in Europe and I do notice that the ones who do approach me are the ones who have more “courage” if you can call it that, while I can also notice those that keep eyeing me without doing anything m.

No. 2518070

>>2518055
If you’re beautiful and extroverted people will latch on but people will rarely cold approach women they find extremely attractive.

No. 2518109

Why am I so obsessed with someone I can’t have? UGH

No. 2518120

>>2518109
Limerance.

No. 2518135

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you never realize how fat you are until your pic gets taken, huh

No. 2518138

>>2518109
You're not going to like what they are if you actually had them, I bet.
Take it from experience.

No. 2518139

>>2518135
Cameras aren’t fully reflective of reality tbf. Some people also just aren’t photogenic. All my life I’ve looked 20 lbs heavier on camera even when underweight.

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>>2518139
anon… thnx for the reassurance, but i’m a lil worse than just a chubby face
hey, it’s motivation for me to actual lose the pounds now, i used to be completely delusional about my weight before kek

No. 2518203

I really fucking hate scalpers in my hobby because they make me get the fear that I need to buy shit asap after it releases otherwise ill have to pay double or triple the retail price later

No. 2518245

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Ex sent me money but it was to a business account I have and now he's fucking with my business cause I have to send the money back. Like idk I guess I could write it as a loss but I don't want this to turn into a back and forth everytime he feels like wooing me back. He won't leave my mom alone either. I've thought about pressing charges but it's not really like, obvious harassment, but it's still fucking me over in mundane ways.

No. 2518249

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Jesus, imagine thinking you're normal most of the time and then something happens and you get painfully reminded how much of a spaz you are, and you don't normally think about it simply because you don't have enough exposure. I basically don't interact with men on a daily basis (there's one guy at my work and he's ugly, and that's it, I have no men in my family, no male colleagues, I never dated etc.). Today at a store there was this handsome young clerk and he was super nice and looked me in the eyes all the time and he even tried to start some small talk, and I couldn't look at him, couldn't say anything and I was literally picrel. I only managed to say 'thank you' and 'bye'. It's over I'm a femcel

No. 2518254

Dont make me eat. Dont make me eat. Dont make me eat. Dont make me eat. Dont make me eat. Dont make me eat. Dont make me eat. Dont make me eat.

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No. 2518260

>>2518249
>imagine thinking you're normal most of the time and then something happens and you get painfully reminded how much of a spaz you are
I call these Charlie Gordan/Algernon moments.

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No. 2518275

I just wish I could medicated and stop caring about everything. I don't want to feel this anymore. I'm so alone.

No. 2518310

>>2517653
Why wouldn't you go through with charges if raped you? Fuck this creep

No. 2518315

>>2518055
It happens more than people not super up on the social and attractiveness scale could ever possibly imagine

No. 2518317

>>2514077
if you're wondering if it's a problem then it probably is

No. 2518325

Why do people act like looking young/underage is a flex? I’m genuinely quite pretty but my age is so ambiguous that absolutely no one hits on me. People are surprised I don’t act like a dumb kid and only relax when I tell them I’m 20. A lady the other day said “ohh ok just wanted to make sure you’re over 18 because you’re not looking…” the way she trailed off is when it really hit me that people can’t tell I’m an adult and it embarrassed me. None of my friends get the same treatment. I know I look nice because people have told me I’m beautiful before but I definitely don’t get the “yeah men hit on you so much when you look young” thing because unless they’re younger people seem to think breathing next to me makes them a nonce kek. Maybe if I dressed up decked out in lolita clothes or jojifuku I guess. I don’t care about men hitting on me though since I’d prefer attention from women

No. 2518331

>>2518325
It literally makes me laugh when 20 year olds start lamenting about how everyone thinks they're 17 kek, yeah… you are 20 years old and teenagedom was one year ago.

No. 2518332

>>2518331
Ok but then why do none of my friends get the same treatment…

No. 2518337

I don't wanna wish my dad a happy birthday today even though it's his 60th. Reason being is that we aren't close and haven't been for years. Honestly I'm waiting for him to die so I'm free. He's kind of lacking in empathy, like he food poisoned me once with something I'm intolerant to because he didn't believe me and I was sick in bed for 3 days afterwards. He also would put me in uncomfortable positions like telling me to lie to his girlfriend, or force me and my misogynistic nan in the same room after we'd argued. He also didn't approve of me going to university. If I confronted him he'd say stuff like "think about how I feel" instead of being normal and acknowledging how his own actions contribute to my dislike of him. To this day he doesn't really seem to see our relationship as something to invest in. I don't want to wish my dad a happy birthday even over text.

No. 2518340

>>2518332
They’re ugly probably

No. 2518345

>>2518332
There are a lot of reason for that anon. Maybe you're short as fuck and all your friends are 5'7" with immediately adult looking proportions. Under a certain weight I get the same treatment and I think it's a combination of being flat as a board with slightly chubby cheeks and I'm 25 kek. But over a certain weight I do not get that treatment anymore because at that point I look obviously adult.

No. 2518349

my life may be awful, but it's the best I can afford, and therefore what I deserve

No. 2518379

I realised today that I don't really enjoy anything and it makes me sad. We went on a family trip and the thing I enjoyed the most was the part before we even left. The feeling of excitement and planning. I felt nothing during the actual trip, and I felt a deep sadness after it ended when I realised nothing makes me happy. It's that way for everything, not just the dumb trip, but that's what finally made me realise what a negative, pessimistic person I am. I could tell you more about things I hate than things I actually like.

No. 2518381

>>2518349
Why is your life awful nonna?

No. 2518394

>>2518337
You don’t have to say anything to him if you don’t want to. He’s had 60 years to get his act together. If he wanted better he should have been better.

No. 2518400

>>2518394
Shit nonna you're RIGHT. Why was I even worried about it kek god damn. Thank you for reality checking me.

No. 2518416

>>2518345
But I’m literally 5’7 kekkk literally the tallest girl in my group… No dancing around it. Still I get it and I hear anons say the same but I genuinely don’t know anyone else around me in the same circumstances, you know? Just kinda sucks and reinforces why I think it’s dumb when 20+s flex allegedly looking like a teenager and apparently it gets them more attention.

No. 2518445

Thank fucking GOD I never ended up with my crushes! They were so ugly. Like actually straight up ugly! I even knew it at the time but then I was still blinded by "but he's charming…" but now I see them for how they actually look and I'm crying laughing because why the fuck was I attracted to THAT lmao

No. 2518448

>>2518337
IF you say happy birthday it should be so future you doesn't feel guilty over it, not for his sake.

No. 2518480

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I am so annoyed by how my mom has been going around randomly telling strangers how old I am, my physical flaws, and going on about it humorlessly, even when they visibly look very uncomfortable. many just walk the fuck away during it. for example she'll rant how fat I am even though I'm more than 100 pounds lighter than everyone else in my family including her and she never once has ever commented about any of their bodies. the banality of it makes my brain rot. there's so many fun things to talk about, so why does my appearance fascinate her so? what the fuck is wrong with her? I don't want to hate her but this is getting so exhausting.

No. 2518489

>>2518480
Is she generally unpleasant or is this new? Sometimes senility starts off kinda similar

No. 2518500

I miss my mom in a "I wish I was 8 again and going in toystores with her." When I was 10 she fell in love with a piece of shit bippie man and he proceeded to ruin our lives and we only got out once I was 20. I lost my teen years and I miss my mom. She's still alive, of course, but now she's older and I'm almost 30. I want my mom again…I want my mommy. I want every bippie man to die, he took my mom away…

No. 2518508

I think my depression is tied to my menses. It's too much of a coincidence. I feel like I want to die.

No. 2518535

>>2518500
Damn big relate even the ages are similar. She chose him over me and he left her anyways, its almost funny if it wasnt so crushingly sad

No. 2518539

I'm 26 and it feels like the time when I had the opportunity to understand social stuff and communication has run out or I never had it to being with.
For context I spend the first 6 years of my life with the only understanding of social stuff being food comes at 6am and 6pm and 2 strange tall people would come to my house at 6pm to argue, scream and the bulkier taller one would beat the thinner shorter one, yes I understood the words mom and dad but I always had the felling I was adopted probably because I'd watched the television all day so I knew the concept and had that strange felling of longing "to go home" despite that being the only home I'd had and them being my biological parents. I'd tried to gather an understanding of this world by asking them but dad would always just give me a nasty look like he was silently telling me I'm stupid while mom always said "stop bothering me", "I'm to tired, ask tomorrow", all of this were "it is what it is" kinda deal but even after that I wasn't even allowed to go outside and play with the other kids beacuse there was nobody to watch me and I personally couldn't beacuse the front door was close and every key I'd found and tried didn't work. It was so upsetting sitting on my balcony and hearing the other kids play. As strange as the first 6 years of my life were they were the happiest I'd ever been. I had no responsibilities so they mostly just ignored me with the exception of "food's ready" and "how's it hanging Nona" with them not wanting and answer to that since I'd talked to much and they find it annoying. I miss those days since I didn't had to help them so there wasn't the possibility of me making a mistake and upsetting them or me being a cunt since I don't visit them anymore, I would visit but the thing is all my life everytime I tried to help them mom would just nag and screaming at me while dad would slap me so hard I would fell the bone of my cheek.
Everytime I'd tried to make a friend I was always been to strange in their eyes or when I thought I finally had a friend it turned out they were just laughing at me behind my back, as much as I want a friend into adulthood I just think the story is gonna repeat and people would just take advantage of me since I grew up sheltered.

No. 2518546

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I'm grouped with a bunch of scrotes for a group project and the concept they want to go with is fucking retarded. They're just sticking with the first idea someone came up with. I asked if this is something they even want to develop and this moron goes "it's more about the project management side" NO IT FUCKING ISN'T. WE HAVE TO DEVELOP IT END TO END.

No. 2518561

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I avoid being friends with moids, but have retardedly enough been chatting with one of my online friends from long ago almost daily for like 2 months (on ig). It started off with me randomly asking him for advice about something related to a field he's an expert in and then we ended up chatting about mutual interests (that are pretty niche). Well, I'm starting to feel like he uses me for positive female attention until he gets a gf and wonder if he has seen me as a friend at all. There are 0 romantic feelings from my side and I can't imagine there being any from his, but I think it's a situation where attention from any woman would boost his ego even if it's 100% platonic. The interests we have in common are extremely male dominated and I have yet to find women in them that I can have actual convos with. My only other option is reddit and the thought of that makes me want to kill myself. I know he's gonna stop talking with me once he gets a gf, so I might as well start cutting the convos short and let them fizzle out.

No. 2518568

Men can think they're class and women want one but i was dating a guy that basically was ok with me not working if I cooked for him and in 2 years I never did so we broke up but like even the draw of a man willingly happy to keep me unemployed if I only I cooked wasn't as strong as a desire as I thought.

No. 2518570

jesus christ why are people on the internet so racist nowadays. it’s like all that progress was just pretend. i’m to weak for this shit i guess

No. 2518573

>>2518568
I've possibly worded this very poorly. What I'm trying to say. If all I had to do was cook and I still didn't it means I didn't want to settle. Same when I think about my ex fiance. I had great friends, good job and lived in a good location, the male I shared the house with just was really fucking lame that I had to cut off a good healthy part of my self to save the rest of me. Men ain't shit.

No. 2518595

Uh I just got a text from my brother that his childhood best friend is wanting to split up his family and thinks I'm cute. Ok so why does a man I've known since childhood think im a good rebound candidate. Do I have a scummy reputation ffs

No. 2518610

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I got walked in on drawing nsfw twice and got a "wowwwwwwwwwww" kill me please please please I beg for death grant me mercy

No. 2518624

>>2518610
When I moved schools I ended up sitting next to the other artsy girl in class, presumably because my teacher heard I was artsy too. She proceeded to show me her sketchbook which was devoted almost solely to Homestuck fanart. She did not stop or attempt to skip the nsfw tentacle dick fanart either so my first class and first day at my new school was just complimenting this random girl’s hand drawn yaoi under penalty of what felt like death. She was so confident in her abilities and how not-weird this was that I felt like the weird one for thinking it was strange. You should channel the homestuck yaoi girl nona.

No. 2518628

>>2518624
This reminds me of a girl I used to sit next to in the auditorium at uni. She would draw her mermaid OCs having weird tentacle sex with eggs (?). She was pretty good at art too and had her art account linked on all her socials, in which she would post all her freaky yaoi.

No. 2518634

>>2518624
I'll stay alive for her sake kek but are you sure you're not encountering the same person? >>2518628 or is it just a known phenomena to be exposed to surprise sketchbook tentacle porn

No. 2518650

>>2518634
First ayart and while I can’t say definitively they are different people, I had another experience in college of being trapped in a random girl’s dorm because she wanted to show me her anime posters. She failed to mention all the Black Butler shota yaoi that I would be forced to look at on her walls too. So maybe this is just a known autistic phenomenon.

No. 2518659

I still think about the time I worked at a hospital and my lispy faggot-mouthed supervisor told my coworker who was training me that they needed to be harsh with me, because I "needed it." I cried in my car on almost every lunch break and literally almost commited suicide while I worked there, and I never stood up for myself. I'm applying to med school this year and I keep getting flashbacks. I can't stop seeing myself as the weak, stupid little girl who gets bullied and scapegoated by her coworkers.

No. 2518685

going back to college as an adult former NEET with no friends is mildly depressing, I've never been surrounded so many young people yet never been more isolated, they're all socializing with each other, but I've clearly got nothing to tell them, nor them to me
doesn't help when freshmen are really not that different from highschoolers, and none of them are even remotely interested in their studies nor bother to interact about classes (and I've tried)

No. 2518715

I just realized that I'm about to turn 25 this year, and this might be my own little mid-active-social-life crisis, because this takes me back to when I was only 16, while in one of my many "protracted visits" to the psych ward, I remember describing how my only life plan at that time as a dropout was to live on the equivalent of social security in my country, which is reserved for the unemployed over the age of 25, and I was (smugly) told that I should rather be planning for what to do in the time between now and then, as this was in relative "eternity" for my age
what struck me is this still feels like yesterday, because nothing in my life has changed, nor anything significant even happened since then, I'm still the same dropout loser with no life, but at least now that I live alone my family doesn't send me to the psych ward every other month anymore, so I guess I'll now be collecting social security and continue to live this way for the foreseeable future, even as my youth is now officially over and forever wasted
thanks for reading my blogpost

No. 2518726

>>2518659
bullying is notoriously rampant in hospitals. i had such a nasty unpleasant gay moid consultant who would constantly pick on me and all the other young women. he was married to a woman and had kids but was clearly the gayest and most bitter waspish closeted moid ive ever seen in my life and he also spoke with a lisp lol. he literally made me homophobic towards gay males kek.

No. 2518729

>>2518337
just say happy birthday over text, its not a big investment to do so, and not sending it is not worth more bad blood. boomers get super mad when you dont acknowledge their birthday. im only saying this for your sake. i also had a bad relationship with my dad and would often ignore his calls or ghost him, i also refused to acknowledge his birthday some years but i felt pretty sad and regretful about it after he died.

No. 2518733

>>2518685
If it helps I feel the same way and I only took two gap years. My group is a bit more focused on studying but I still don't have much in common with them.
Do you have research societies for your chosen major? Could be worth exploring. Or just make friends outside uni.

No. 2518734

i literally dont know whats happening with my relationship. i would usually reach out first but i got tired and wanted to see if he would make the effort. he hasnt and so we have just been ghosting each other for a week without saying anything or formally breaking up. he hasnt even checked to see if im ok. i guess he just doesnt want me anymore. he was telling me how much he loved me only a week ago and now its radio silence. i dont want to be the first person to reach other either especially if he leaves me on read, so i guess this is basically the unofficial end for us.

No. 2518739

>>2518733
>research societies for your chosen major
there are some social clubs but they're all dead, save for the occasional partying which I have zero interest in
I've just settled with avoiding to spend time on my campus as much as possible, it's really and a reminder that I'll never be able fit in with my "peers" anymore (not that I ever did before), it's like most of them just look so carefree and unbothered, probably still lives with their parents, so it just ends up as a weight on my mood to be exposed to them all day
I even get the sense that even if I were to ever befriend them, I'd feel disappointed as well
>make friends outside uni
I mean I've never had a glimpse of social life, I don't even have the fainted clue as to what normal people do on their week-ends
plus I'm not even remotely interesting as a person, I was under the impression that having to share an activity for 8 hours a day with someone could be my (only) starting point, but now this feels kind of hopeless
I've been told no one makes new friends once they're adult, it's either they start a relationship or just spend their life working, I don't feel like I'm cut for either anyway

No. 2518740

This is gay but I’m genuinely upset at how much people hate my ethnicity on here, it’s making me low key paranoid of replies I get because it’s all anon, like am I still your nonnie if you consider me subhuman?

No. 2518744

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>>2518740
What's your ethnicity nona
(I havent seen any anons bashing one particular race on here and when they do it's usually only the moids they are talking about but I'm sorry that happened to you)

No. 2518762

>>2518744
if she was transported into the modern day she could be a they/them barista called Parker

No. 2518773

>>2518739
You sound hopeless ngl. I get it, kind of in the same boat here but slowly improving my social skills so I'm not dogshit at conversation like I used to be.
Nothing is ever a guarantee of making friends. Youll always have to embarrass yourself over and over by trying to connect to people and be vulnerable with them. Always, it will always hurt. I wanna drive this home because no one says how goddamn stubborn you have to be to make friends nowadays, but you have to sift through SHIT (normies who are too closed minded to understand your style or even where you come from in your life) to even find someone you don't hate talking to.
Btw, all of my mom's best friends she met after college and also after she had me. College makes things easier but it doesn't guarantee anything. So don't give up just yet.
I would find someone suitable to talk about your studies with as a first step. Most people in uni talk about studying anyways even if they're already friends. It's the safest topic you could possibly bring up. Once you get the SLIGHTEST bit less anxious, you can try talking about something else

No. 2518774

How do I stop hitting and punching walls and desk when I’m angry? I got insulted today in a passive aggressive way by my own family member, and I couldn’t really talk back, but it made me very angry and upset. I hit the wall and my desk with my fists. This always happens. Whenever I get upset, I hit things, and when I have nothing to hit, I hit myself. It doesn’t hurt for long, but it is embarrassing. It happens before I can tell myself to stop. I have tried pillows and mattresses but I think it doesn’t count unless it’s something firm or hard.

No. 2518783

>>2518740
I've only seen the word "subhuman" used when in context of foreign moids being misogynistic or abusive to women, especially women they consider "their" women thus easy targets because the moids can hide behind "it's muh culture" just so they can continue their abuse without consequences or pushback. You'll always be our nonnie.

No. 2518785

>>2518762
you’re right this is so weird … phenotyping is crazy cuz like she just LOOKS like that. now i’m trying to imagine what gendies / tumblrinas i know would be like in the past kekk

No. 2518787

>>2518337
Nona big same. My dad's birthday was a couple days ago and I struggled for over a decade to get fully separated from him.
I sent him a message explaining my feelings on the matter of him still wanting to be a family, that he should change and look at himself if he wants that.
Received an angry wall of basically "you don't try and it's your fault you've been abused by me", sighed and blocked.
Now I don't even know his number, because his older one had telegram and now it's some unknown woman's telegram, with profile pics from genshin and stuff.
I remembered his birthday like twice when it happened, and even if my brain went "well I SHOULD message him", I don't think he deserves it at all.

No. 2518788

>>2518774
its based, dont stop but dont hurt yourself either. women are encouraged to internalize our anger too much and then we end up getting cancer

No. 2518791

>>2518773
I've literally spent my first months building up a social media "hub" (for zoomer appeal) to gather everyone from my specific cursus yeargroup (nearly got around 50 of them btw) to ask them whether they were interested in studying in groups in the campus library, needless to say this was a complete waste of time, because as it turns out, real life does not work like in a visual novel, and you have to approach people in person, and be pushy about it, preferably within the first few days, which I spent watching everyone from afar (I had never set foot in a crowded place in years)
anyway I can already tell I'm not ready to inflict myself the kind of humiliations you speak of, even trying to hold a conversation, not even initiated by me (the rare and only cases where that ever happens nowadays), I mostly just freeze and act as cold as possible not to expose any of my blatant insecurities all the time (which in comparison I can get away just fine online)
I know this is all my fault, but it is what it is

No. 2518796

>>2518791
Aw, anon, don't blame yourself. Yea I did say it depends on you, but no one works at full capacity all the time. It's not all "your fault", it's also the circumstances you're in compared to others, and you're simply unlucky.
You seem to be really dedicated to connect, so I know eventually you'll get there. Just take it easy and work on it gradually. I believe in you.

No. 2518823

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I hate living with my literal tard brother so fucking much. The bathtub has been draining poorly for the past few weeks, I've probably thrown like $50 worth of various drain uncloggers down there with varying success. It finally completely clogged yesterday, and today I was shoving a snake down the pipe and using a plunger on it for hours until it finally spat out a piece of a torn up plastic bag and what we think might be a candy wrapper.
It turns out that my older brother has been shoving shit down there to "punish" us for things like telling him to leave some apple juice for the rest of us and to clean up the literal garbage (empty cardboard boxes, food wrappers, random plastic shit) he brings home and just leaves laying all over the yard. We aren't even rude about the garbage when we ask, but we would ask him like 2-4 times a week and he just won't do it, so I've been adding on that if he doesn't clean up the yard then I would have to. I haven't even gotten around to picking anything up because I hoped it would push him into cleaning it himself.
I'm so fucking angry and tired and sweaty but the tub still isn't draining properly so I can't even have a full shower.

No. 2518836

the type of women my nigel goes for are so insufferable and obnoxious and toxic. its actually making me worried that i am like those women kek.

No. 2518838

>>2518823
Is he an actual downsie? Can he be put into a home? Is he a minor? You live in a 1 bathroom dwelling? Sounds like fuckin hell, I just am curious the extent of it. Also be careful with drain unclogging chemicals, idk if you have septic or sewer but they can actually damage both types of plumbing iirc, and they're super harsh on your respiratory system so you should ventilate the area for 12-24 hours and it's also a good idea to leave the house for a few hours after you use those chemicals. Snaking and calling a prof is the only safe way to deal with drainage issues.

No. 2518839

>>2518836
goes for as in currently? or do you mean in the past he was with those types?

No. 2518845

just found out my mum was slagging me off on a right-wing slop forum site for getting a BA degree in english & being unable to get a job. i cant fucking take it anymore man

No. 2518849

>>2518839
in the past and the women who he said are his type. theyre all raging clusterbees basically lol.

No. 2518850

>>2518838
Hes probably just autistic, autists can be incredibly spiteful and manipulative, a downie wouldnt even bother doing that shit lol.

No. 2518851

>>2518845
>just found out my mum was slagging me off on a right-wing slop forum site
Kek nona what the fuck

No. 2518858

>>2518851
unfortunately im nosey and like to lurk on it (it's all just bitching about lefties in nz & sucking trump off for being a good strong leader) and she tends to bring me up often to talk about how im a dumb little commie or whatever. i guess that's why she didn't give a fuck about me graduating i guess

No. 2518865

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Pretty positive I'm already dead. I think I'm in the afterlife for people that were mostly neutral entities. I never did anything remarkably bad and I never did anything remarkably good. I did a mix of good and bad deeds during my life. likely more bad than good which would explain my misery. I don't think I believe in quantum immortality so much as if you die too young or in a weird way you chance being thrust into some afterlife that makes it feel like your past life mostly just continues on. It explains a lot. Pretty sure I
>died first when I tried to kill myself in 2019 with an OD
>then died again in early 2021 in a bad car crash I inexplicitly "survived" uninjured despite being knocked unconscious and hit by a car going like 55mph straight on.
>Then I died again from a suicide attempt mid 2021 where I OD'd and seized a lot and kept hitting my head real bad, bf at the time watched me and called 911 but hospitals were full due to omicron surge and I mostly kept my shit together when the EMTs got there for some reason and just couldn't figure out where I was living (knew the president and the year). Kept acting nuts and passing out and seizing and vomiting all night though. No memory of this.
>Again in late 2021 when I took a lethal dose of meds and ended up having grand mal seizures and flatlining and being brought back via CPR. Somehow no broken bones, no lasting damage. Also had organ damage that "resolved".
>Again in late 2023 when I took twice the amount of the same shit I took late 2021 when I flatlined. nobody's survived that amount of that drug before. I'm not a fatass and not tall. I wasnt taking it and had no tolerance. this time I was a vegetable for a few days before magically rebooting. again no lasting damage despite acute organ damage.
>>2518860
Deleted cause it was formatted stupid but for the record, all the ODs were from pharmaceuticals I was prescribed and sometimes combined with alcohol to quicken the effect. Not street drugs or drugs anyone regularly abuses. unlike druggies I actually want to die. If I wasn't an autistic retard I'd have found a fent dealer and tried that route.

No. 2518877

>>2518865
Yeah but these theories never make sense bc then your whole family are neutral entities too and so are all anons. Or some people are and the rest are fake people, even though the world has always seemed that way - since we were all born. It gets way too weird and complicated. Also not to burst your bubble but everyone is always the "only person" according to doctors and nurses, who lie. I was told that about a surgery I had when I was 14 and they probably just said that to make me feel special bc surgery sucks. Also why would the amount of times you've supposedly died have any impact on anything?

No. 2518883

>>2518823
>shoving shit down there to "punish" us
Doesn't it punish him as well though? Or does he not shower or bathe at all? What stupid logic

No. 2518885

>>2518726
what's the best way to bully men like this back?

No. 2518886

>>2518885
fart as you walk away from them

No. 2518887

>>2518762
>>2518785
y'all are schizo

No. 2518895

>>2518877
flatlining (asystole) has a 20% survival rate and all survivors have broken bones. Doctors didn't tell me I was the "only person" - I did research to find the highest doses anyone had survived. I should've died both times. It is weird and complicated. I think some people I'm basically haunting they just don't really know it, the only people I can get kind of close with are also dead and were similarly not so greta people. The people who really died young that I know who were good people and are "truly dead", it makes sense I can't interact with them. I think when you're not a super great person this afterlife is what you get until you'd have died naturally you're just cursed for it to be shittier essentially kek, and you're more able to interface to a decent extent with the still living.

No. 2518896

>>2518895
samefag but **almost all survivors of asystole have bropken bones

No. 2518907

>>2518895
>flatlining (asystole) has a 20% survival rate and all survivors have broken bones.
Where are you finding this info? What?
>In cases of asystole (complete absence of electrical activity in the heart), particularly if there's suspicion of opioid overdose, Naloxone (Narcan) may be administered, according to a study in the journal Resuscitation. Naloxone can help reverse opioid-induced respiratory depression and potentially improve outcomes in opioid-related cardiac arrests. However, it's crucial to note that Naloxone is not a primary treatment for asystole and should be used in conjunction with standard cardiac arrest protocols, like CPR and defibrillation, as explained by a study on the National Institutes of Health website.
Here's a more detailed explanation:
>Asystole:
>This is a condition where the heart has stopped beating completely, and there is no electrical activity visible on an ECG.

No. 2518915

>>2518907
I feel like I'm talking to someone with more brain dmg than me. I know what asystole is, apparently you don't?
>Asystole is when your heart’s electrical system fails, causing your heart to stop pumping. This is also known as “flat-line” or “flat-lining” because it causes your heart’s electrical activity to look like a flat line on an electrocardiogram. Without immediate CPR or medical care, this condition is deadly within minutes. (source: cleveland clinic)
narcan wouldn't have done anything for me because I OD'd on buproprion kek. first time was 12grams second time was 24grams. not milligrams. grams.

>The prognosis for asystole is poor. In general, cardiac arrest survival rates are low, and the survival rate for patients whose initial rhythm is asystole is lower than for other forms of SCA. According to the Cardiac Arrest Registry to Enhance Survival (CARES) 2022 annual report, 14.5% of patients with asystole survived to hospital admission, and 2.3% survived to hospital discharge. The survival rates for asystole in the hospital are slightly better but still very low. In hospitalized patients for whom the first documented rhythm is asystole, 10.8% survive to hospital discharge. For patients who survive cardiac arrest, complications are common and include neurologic dysfunction, brain injury, consciousness disorders, quality of life changes, neurocognitive deficits, and psychological effects. Hypoxic-ischemic brain injury is the most prevalent neurological complication following cardiac arrest. (Source thecardiologyadvisor)

No. 2518917

nerdy bitch who follows my tumblr reblogging my cool fashion and aesthetic posts among her own blog filled with ultrakill fanart

No. 2518919

>>2518915
Yeah I brought that up bc people flatline every second of the day where I live but they're revived with narcan so I don't understand what this part means
>and all survivors have broken bones.
What am I missing?

No. 2518921

>>2518919
When you don't flatline due to opiates, they can't narcan you back. they have to use CPR. Most people who need CPR end up with skeletal chest injuries (SCI) or in layman's terms broken/fractured bones.
>https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/S0300957215001136
>91% of females get some form of SCI
I also samefagged to add that I meant almost all survivors have broken bones aka SCI, not all. This back and forth is further proving to me I'm in hell.

No. 2518924

>>2518919
you're missing the fact that when someone flatlines due to anything besides shit like opiates, they can't just be narcanned back, and only about 10-20% of them leave the hospital alive. Of those small percentage who survive, an even smaller percentage still will manage without having any skeletal damage/broken bones from the CPR.

No. 2518925

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I struggle with strong emotions, it has ruined my relationships with other people, and I honestly just want to be lobotomized. I’ve been dreaming about it for nearly a decade, it just seems perfect. I dont make connections with others, I dont speak up, I just live life with no emotions. I can finally qualify for mood stabilizers but I’m unsure if a high dosage can do that for me, if not I can try to find medication to numb my emotions through other means. I’m ready to die spiritually, mentally, and through all other avenues. This is the closest I can get to killing myself legally.

No. 2518928

tired of the conservatard bots in the amerifag thread

No. 2518929

My nigel has friend who likes lolicon and it's so fucking disgusting. I want to tell him to either drop his friend or I'm leaving. I am also contemplating the idea of calling the cops of him because he owns that shit and lives in Texas where they just made it illegal.

No. 2518931

>>2518921
You're just posting a lot of information and the "broken bones" thing really threw me off bc you're talking about metaphysical/spiritual things and also stats about other revived people. Paramedics use cpr with narcan so often that they seem equally important but I understand the point you're making now
>A study reported that rib fractures were found in 81% of individuals after CPR. Another study indicated that at least 1/3 of resuscitated patients experience rib fractures.
It's not hell though nona, the anon who posted below you explained it in a very simple way. I think you're just stressed out by this topic or possibly dealing with scattered thoughts from all of the resuscitations

No. 2518932

>>2518929
you mean like CSAM?

No. 2518936

>>2518928
Where? I just checked and there have been none recently

No. 2518941

>>2518932
Yeah but anime so they can jack off to children being raped guilt free.

No. 2518951

>>2518941
so more like a drawing

No. 2518957

I'm not part of society and the harassment that I've had to face is too much. I don't even want to think of trying anymore.

No. 2518967

i want to poop

No. 2518969

the difference of treatment i get when my hair is straightened + makeup done + contact lenses vs. natural hair/face and glasses is CRAZY. if i made myself pretty i have a 50% chance that a guy will hit on me. if not it NEVER happens. also people generally are nicer to me but im not sure if thats just because i act more confident, or if im prettier, or both

No. 2518971

I don't want any friends besides my husband, but he's busy lately so I kind of have to find new people to hang out with, but I'm terrified. I don't trust other people not to turn on me and secretly hate me.

No. 2518972

>>2518885
Keep insinuating that he's gay, asking how his husband is, etc.

No. 2518973

>>2518969
It reminds me of when I would straigthen my hair and wear makeup for my first job interviews and I was instantly treated like I was a normal person compared to when I had my naturally curly hair and no makeup. Even my classmates in university would start complimenting me a lot for having straight hair like I suddenly transformed into Beyonce it was very weird.

No. 2518977

>>2518973
>Even my classmates in university would start complimenting me a lot for having straight hair like I suddenly transformed into Beyonce it was very weird.
inhave literally the same experience lmao. it's annoying.. i dont want to spend 20 mins everyday straightening.. so stupid

No. 2518985

>>2514799
I’m an autist with agoraphobia/panic disorder and ptsd and I take Prozac and klonopin

No. 2518991

I feel so humiliated whenever people ask ME why my boyfriend and I aren’t engaged yet. It makes me so uncomfortable and it has been happening a lot lately, particularly from his family’s circle. I don’t know why they feel the need to point out to me that he hasn’t proposed yet. It’s not that I wouldn’t want it, it’s that he hasn’t done it. Why constantly humiliate me like that in public, when they could be having a genuine conversation with him in private? It’s not like they’re conspiring to neg me, since each time was in different occasions or from different people (his mom’s childhood friend, his dad’s friend from another city coming up to visit, etc.) I just feel completely humiliated that it has happened on a few occasions now, and every time they look at me as if I can do anything about it. I tell them that too “don’t look at me! I’m not the one who’s going to propose. I’m wondering the same thing.” But simply being put in that position feels incredibly uncomfortable and saddening. I don’t understand how they can’t see that. Why they have to mention it to me and not him…

No. 2518992

My fucking head has been hurting so much and I don't even think ibuprofen is helping me. It doesn't happen all the time but often enough for me to notice. I think wellbutrin is causing this as I didn't have this until I started taking it

No. 2518994

Beauty matters so much for your career it's fucking insane. I know pretty girls who work as a hostess or as a brand ambassador and their work is so easy and they make so much money. Every company is looking for beautiful employees because that shit sells. If you're less fortunate looking you'll end up as a cashier in a grocery store or forced to study your entire life non stop to be a doctor, like you really need to succeed academically and be very very hardworking if you want money. Like you're either beautiful and your life is on easy mode, or very intelligent and hardworking and have to make up for your ugly face with extremely competent abilities. I' m not claiming that beautiful women can't be very competent, and intelligent, and educated, and have great work ethic it's just that their beauty is the main aspect that opens the doors for them. And yes of course there's ugly women who make loads of money, but usually they're amazing entrepreneurs and have a special creative mind. So basically it's a very different standard.

No. 2518995

>>2518977
Right it takes too much time for very little reward imo especially because I keep my hair long and I feel like I look like my hair is greasy and has no volume when it's straight. And don't get me started with the risk of burning my hair. Everytime someone asks why I don't straighten my hair I just say I don't want to.

No. 2519000

>>2518991
Its deep rooted internalized or even blatant misogyny. The idea that you are to blame if he doesnt want to propose. They are asking "what arent you doing right?" As in you arent good enough for him and need to step it up in their eyes. Whether they think that on a surface level or subconcious level without realizing, it just seems like they are insinuating its your fault and you need to self reflect. Also this isnt 100% true or the case at all perhaps. Maybe they assumed you have asked him yourself in private and he has told you. Maybe they are just dummies who dont think and want to start a convo while also being nosy. It could be anything.
If it makes you feel better nona, ive been with my boyfriend 12 years. We arent married mainly for the fact we dont believe in it and dont need paper to tell us to stay faithful. Since people get married and cheat anyways, its obviously not the solution to permanent loyalty. Plus its all bullshit made up by the church and now the government (US) uses it as a money sink. If my BF and i got married, we would owe MUCH more in taxes, mainly depending on how we file. but that isnt worth a $50 peice of paper that would cost waayyyy more money to terminate!
Also everybody is different and i cant speak for your guy, but ive always heard "if he wanted to, he would." Kind of thing. So unless you have a deep discussion with him as to why not, then youll never know.

No. 2519006

>>2518659
sorry for saying it like that but you need to grow some balls. if someone talks like that about you need to show them you didn't like it, in a polite manner. make them uncomfortable. in this context you could frown in a confused/annoyed way and say "what do you mean i need it?"
i know how as a student in the hospital you can feel the need to
make yourself as small as possible because people seem to be doing important work, but theyre not more important or legit than you and they cant talk about you like that

No. 2519008

Lately I can't stop thinking about suicide. I just feel like I don't bring any worth to this world, so I have no reason to keep on living. First the biggest thing that stings me is the fact that I'm a failed artist. It was my biggest dream since I was a kid but I can't gain engagement on my art, nor can I draw as good as other artists. There's 16 yr old kids with fucking amazing artworks while me who has been drawing for a way longer time still sucks ass. I'm not skilled and creative enough, art doesn't flow from me naturally I need to wrack my brains to come up with a composition and color palette. I'm very robotic and soulless. Second thing, I hate hate hate my physical appearance. I don't need to get into details but no amount of self-love can fix my image issues. I barely even look like an adult woman, I'm more similar to a tranny or a 13 yr old boy. Third, people are allergic to me and avoid me. I mean yeah, this is obviously because I'm insecure and that repels people, but even when I try my best to be friendly and bright there's a certain weird vibe with me. Maybe the way I talk. Idk if it's autism. I also struggle with social cues. Fourth, I have shitty attention span, my brain feels fried sometimes so I struggle with completing basic tasks. I feel like an absolute idiot, maybe this is tied to my lack of creativity, an artist can't be low IQ after all. And the last reason, my romantic life is an utter disaster. Men don't like me, and even if they give me a chance at a relationship they soon leave me. I've been rejected so many times. I can't even create my own family…

No. 2519026

>>2519000
Wtf, marriage usually lowers taxes significantly.

>>2518991
They're just lacking tact, that's one of those questions you shouldn't poke at like asking why someone doesn't have kids, its just a minefield. The only reason they're asking you is probably because they don't feel close enough to him to ask him directly.

No. 2519055

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>Someone takes a picture of me
>It looks good for once
>Except it's ruined by visible chest acne
REEEEE I wish it would go away faster

No. 2519062

i hate my stupid lonely mentally ill life

No. 2519067

>>2518929
>where they just made it illegal.
As far as I'm aware that bill has been stalled

No. 2519075

Sometimes I feel pissed that my parents don't get why I feel so stressed and overwhelmed all the time but they never had to live like I do.
My dad is the bread winner and that means to him that he doesn't have to lift a finger at home. Food is served to him and when he's finished eating he will get up, leave his dirty plate on the table and doesn't even push his chair back in.
My mom was a housewife for many years and now that her children left the house, she works less than 8 hours weekly, meaning she has plenty of time for buying groceries, cleaning and so on.
I'm still new at my job and struggling a lot. Sometimes I only leave work because I desperately need to buy some food before the stores close. Whenever I tell them that I struggle keeping my apartment clean, they don't get it (despite my dad never having cleaned or washed clothes in his entire life). They also nag me for not doing sports and eating healthier because I gained weight. But they also nag me for not going to bed earlier. But my boss tells me off for not being better at my job. I sometimes continue to work at home til past 1am and then have to get up at 6 again, when am I supposed to do all those other things???

I already felt like they had no clue when I was still a student because I'm the first in my family to go to university. My parents have also been together since they were teens, they built a house in my grandparents garden while my work sent me alone to a big city, they always knew how their life was gonna look like, they never had the additional uncertainty that I constantly deal with on top of the double workload.
It's not like I want to be a tradwife supported by a husband, I just wish work was easier and that them and society in general was more understanding of how many young modern people are living now.

No. 2519078

The jealousy I have in my heart is making my relationship with my girlfriend extremely strained. I can barely stand to talk to her because envy overwhelms me and it's not something I could talk to her about because it's fucking retarded and she just wouldn't get it, she'll never get it. It gets triggered by the randomest things, was just having fun watching weebshit and a scene made me cry because it reminded me of something she has that it'll never have. I have got to stop being mentally ill. And she's been talking to therapy service providers for me and I hate that, that she thinks I need that, I hate therapy, I tried it for her, gave it a chance and it wasn't for me.

No. 2519082

>>2518925
I'm really sorry. It sounds so difficult to live with extreme, strong emotions. Trust me anon, as someone who struggles with feeling emotions, I wish I could feel more. It doesn't feel like I'm living life at all, I can't feel sad, I can't feel happy. I just go through life with a numbing dullness that permeates how I feel about everything, external and internal. It's such an unfulfilling, nonexistence. I wish I could conjure up any emotion that is more than a slight vibration, but I can't. I can't even feel it when I inevitably ruin relationships. I'm really sorry, I can only imagine the opposite side of this must be equally hard, I wish things weren't like this for you anon.

No. 2519113

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>>2519082
I guess we experience the same feeling of isolation in two extremely different ways. I’m really sorry you experience that lack fo connection for others, I would be more than happy to give you what I have too much of. I know it must sound weird to have someone to actively seek what you struggle with, but Im glad you can sympathize with me. I hope theres something that can ignite a spark in you one day.

No. 2519134

>>2519113
Thank you, you're too sweet. I hope the best for both of us, you sound like such a wonderful person, I hope we both can work with what life's dealt us and experience fullness. I hope you won't have too much trouble with meds and they do work for you, if you decide to seek them out.

No. 2519149

It’s so funny how much BPD is hated on here when there’s this many bippies in this thread(bait)

No. 2519151

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>>2519149
Bad bait + Not a vent + boring! + I smell the grease off your screen + here’s your attention faggot

No. 2519156

Did not want to come here. There was no parking space for me. I had to awkwardly park near a fence at the instruction of someone else and scratched the side of my car badly. The only person I could've talked to left the second I got here. The wifi doesn't work. What the fuck. I didn't care when I scratched my previous car because that thing was super old but this one was bought new 2 years ago and didn't have a single scuff on it. I feel like pmdd is making me believe it's a bigger deal than it really is but I'm still so upset

No. 2519157

>>2519151
I thought there were self-admitted bpd-anons here kek The thread is active, so I guess it's still possible

No. 2519173

I'm such a fool. I planned on having a nice trip to the museum. I did my makeup impeccably. I leave the house and forget to take my allergy pill. My nose is on fire, my eyes are runny. Fuck me. I need to find a drug store to see if I can get some medication.

No. 2519177

>>2519173
kek you must look so cute with your nose all runny and red HAHAHAH poor baby(integrate)

No. 2519182

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FUCKIN FUCK FUCK CRAMPS, FUCK
AHHHH, MY GUTS
GOD HATES WOMEN
FUCK

No. 2519216

I can't stop fucking crying!! Over everything! Anything mildly emotional is hitting me like a train right now

No. 2519219

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I wish I could go about life without this sense of outer perspective/looking and obsessing over how I look in every angle. I wish I could enjoy things properly without worrying about how I am being perceived both on appearance and behaviour. I really can't get that watching eye out of my head. I thought it became an issue because I gained weight but in reality, I've always been like this. I remember being maybe 9 or 10 years old picking at my body and face and always looking in the mirror and thinking how fat my tummy looked when I sat down.
I know realistically there is nothing wrong with me. I think women are beautiful as a whole. But for some reason I just happen to be the exception in my fucked up mind. Idk, it's rough. I deserved better as a child and teenage and I'm desperately trying to give myself better now, as an adult, but it's so fucking hard to undo years of vanity and dysmorphic thoughts and low self-esteem. I went to the zoo the other day and I haven't really updated my wardrobe properly in years so I was just stuck wearing something I wasn't really keen on and my thoughts the entire time were just that I looked like shit.

I wonder if I will ever have a moment where I think "I look great, well done" to myself. I fear that when I lose weight, I'll start obsessing and picking over something else. It feels like there's honestly a piece of my brain not functioning as it should and I'm just sticking patches over it instead of fixing it directly but I don't even know how. I'm so cooked.

No. 2519220

I've been thinking about getting a haircut but any time I ask for suggestions, they always tell me I should get the ugly haircut zoomers and gendies love. No, I would rather never cut my hair again.

No. 2519251

>>2516832
nonnie, if you're around, ayrt originally -
could you tell me more? I'm curious as to what happened and the details of how you found shit out.

No. 2519256

IM SO FUCKING SICK AND TIRED OF PLEADING AND BEGGING MY BF TO BE MORE AFFECTIONATE. IM FUCKING DONE. ITS MAKING ME FUCKING DEPRESSED

No. 2519257

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>>2519219
I'm sure you look great anon

No. 2519262

I'm glad I didn't have to pay for it because hell these months passed so fast for absolutely nothing

No. 2519267

>>2519256
Dump him

No. 2519287

>>2519256
>bf
>not affectionate
literally what is the point

No. 2519288

>>2519219
Me too nonna. I obsess with how people perceive me , mainly because I used to be ugly when I was a teen, so I subconsciously place my worth by how much attractive people around me find me. It’s stressful and vain and honestly useless.
I’ve been into subliminals and they’ve helped a little. I have also started to put less make up and even go make up free and try to dress down too , seeing people not caring helps a lot, so maybe you can do it too.

No. 2519309

You know what? I'm tired of avoiding this and thinking to myself that things will only be worse if I pursue "closure". I am going to contact this person I have beef with and tell them that I am ready to talk to them, if they even want to any more. Even if it goes badly, nothing can be worse than this cold, stone silence. I can't do this anymore. I'm tired of ruminating about what ifs. I'm going to write up a bullet point list for the possibility of us having a conversation. It's going to hurt but I just don't fucking care anymore. I'm worried about what other people think about me when for all I know, the damage is already done and it's irreversible and now I'm just dead silent for no fucking reason. I need to do this!!!!

No. 2519338

>>2519336
When you die, it's gonna feel like you're falling and falling. Faster and faster. For a long time, you won't feel anything. And then, suddenly, you'll burst into fire. Forever. The angels won't help you, because you sent them all away.

No. 2519345

>>2519338
>Faster and faster… until after a while you wouldn't FEEL anything; and then your body would just burst into FIRE. And the angel's wouldn't help you, 'cause they've all gone away…

No. 2519350

>>2519338
tbh I deleted because I realized how fucked up I sounded. I'm sleep deprived I don't know what I'm saying.
I don't know if it's much better but it was a TIM drug addict so I had trouble feeling super empathetic about the whole thing. That's another thing I wanted to vent about, like the person was telling me about all these horrible things that happened to them and I felt NOTHING, eerie

No. 2519351

I'm addicted to lewd roleplay with AI and I don't know how to stop.

No. 2519359

>>2519351
first you need to find a reason to stop

No. 2519360

usually i just roll my eyes when women talk about how other women in STEM are also mean to females bc i always thought it wasnt true but i just had the most unpleasant experience with this female professor that i really looked up to. like, shes young and has her doctorate and i really liked her class and have done really well in it and i attend every lecture and take notes when a lot of other students (re: moids, im like one of two girls in the class) do not and are blatantly on their phones. a lot of students dont like her class bc its difficult and i always defend her. i asked her a clarifying question through email and her response was so condescending and mean. it put a really sour taste in my mouth. i know women are often held to unfair standards regarding pleasantness but imo her response sucked. not a big deal in the long run but damn…

No. 2519362

>>2519359
Fuck. I am screwed then.

No. 2519363

>>2519351
It seems like anons have a "not even once" rate of full blown addiction when it comes ai chatbots. I will stay away from them

No. 2519366

>>2519363
Please do. Being able to tailor their personality and responses to make them interact with you in just the right way is too powerful. It feels so different than reading someone else's works of your fetish or roleplaying with someone or even writing your own smut.

No. 2519372

>>2519363
Tbh I tried it for a good week and it made me pity the anons that are addicted to them even more than I already did. I can't imagine how empty and soul-crushing their everyday lives must be that they could actually find enjoyment in talking to an AI bot. I tried all the tips and tricks that they say make them "so realistic" but I get 1000x more stimulation and excitement from a 10 word dialog between me and the grocery store cashier than I do from 100+ hours with those dumb bots. You have to be severely socially handicapped to enjoy using them, to the point where if I knew someone in real life that admitted to enjoying using them I would call in a wellness check on them.

No. 2519374

>>2519351
How? How do people get addicted to chat bots? Not trying to be nasty, I've tried them and they just feel stiff and unnatural for lack of better words. Like I can tell I'm talking to a robot.

No. 2519377

>>2519219
I am exactly the same, and losing weight didn't fix it. I went from thinking I looked fat and ugly to old and ugly. It did improve a bit from when I was a teen, though (I used to legit see my face melting in the mirror and think I was a monster; I still think I look ugly in a way no other human being does, but I know I have a real, non-melting face).
I don't judge other women on their appearance, I think no woman owes anyone beauty, yet I always feel like all of my achievements, my creativity, my skills are dismissed by others because they think an ugly woman is inherently worthless (whereas people will always try to find something to praise about even the ugliest man).
I do find a bit of comfort in knowing that as I get older, my appearance matters less and less. I love to see old women have fun, engage in their hobbies, dye their hair crazy colours and clearly not give a shit that they're not considered attractive anymore. I try to think of this when I start obsessing over my appearance and remind myself that on my deathbed, I probably won't regret I wasn't ever beautiful, but would instead regret things like being too self-conscious to wear what I want, to pursue my interests etc.

No. 2519380

With how often my father tells me to change my job you'd think he's got personal beef with my boss lol

No. 2519391

>>2519309
nope. this is the wrong idea. I talked to my friends and I feel a lot more reasonable about it. It's not going to get through to her. Might as well follow anon's advice and not make waves.

No. 2519398

>>2519372
>>2519374
It depends on what model you use. I wouldn't be addicted to every single one, but I also had porn addiction to a specific femdom mangaka's works so…

No. 2519412

Wanna read something but hyperhidrosis so bad, I'm literally dripping wet lol.

No. 2519419

>>2519412
Drysol. Works like a charm.

No. 2519422

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>>2519412
What about intentionally making yourself sweat more at night time, so it happens less during the day? There are some people naturally like this so you could try it, as an experiment

No. 2519433

>>2519351
personally I've given up, screw judgmental human relationships, I want to be as cringe as I want without repercussions

No. 2519438

>>2519433
Anons always have these big revelations about their asocial behaviour or unbridled autism and it gets them further in their dysfunctions and doom posting more, which annoys me. Find a balance anon, then see how much you care for these robots

No. 2519439

>>2519374
Nta but that's because you probably wrote with a shit bot or shitty free language model. The thrill is having someone to write stories with, fantasizing about/writing through things you can't experience irl, itching your creative nerve etc. It's just really fun. I used to rp with people but bots are much more convenient..

No. 2519440

>>2519398
What mangaka?

No. 2519456

>>2519438
>how much you care for these robots
inversely as much as everyone else cares for me
why would I bother jumping through all the hoops and humiliation rituals just to get to the point where I can trust someone not to find me icky when I could just have fun with any persona at my fingertips

No. 2519511

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Trying to pick up drawing again. I used to draw a lot as a teen, but a few things happened that made me stop enjoying it for like 10+ years. Picked it up again a couple of years ago, and once I got over the initial frustration over how shit everything I made looked I was pleasantly surprised how fast I was developing - it was like I was picking up on some of the really old technical knowledge from way back when that had been stored somewhere in the back of my mind through all these years. But then there was some life issues again that caused me to take a break.
Now I decided to take it up again, I'm going to have a lot of free time this summer so I figured I'm gonna try to draw at least one hour every day. I try to do some sketching now so I can get a head start on getting over the frustrating hurdle of starting over from square one again. But I feel like I'm so dead inside now that it's hard to find any motivation or enjoyment in it, it's like the only thing I find some sort of enjoyment in are things related to escapism rather than creating. It's frustrating. But I'm so tired and hate everything I do.

No. 2519517

Lately I've been trying to be more friendly and understanding to others around me and now so many people keep calling me a people pleaser as an insult. Last time when I put walls and boundaries I was considered too cold, too distant but now when I'm more open and positive suddenly I lack boundaries? What the fuck does everyone want from me. If I'm "real" then I'm a bitch no one wants to approach, if I'm caring and helpful then I'm a tryhard who allows others to step on her.

No. 2519522

>>2519517
These people sound manipulative unless you're doing both things comically wrong

No. 2519533

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>>2518838
He has mid-level autism and is in his thirties, he's capable enough that he can "cook" with the microwave and get around town with a bike/bus. He's had assembly line-type jobs too, but we have to be careful of potential "workplace culture" risks. If people swear too much and he can't leave, he flips out and starts smashing shit. We were working social services to try and get him his own smaller place with a daily caretaker check-in (we would visit too ofc) until the pandemic happened and it fell through. I don't know if that's good or bad considering our family has a bad hoarding gene, I'm scared he'd turn it into a Collyer house.
Only one bathroom, and we have a greywater tank. I'm not sure if the uncloggers will be a problem, I was using mostly CLR-type things which say they're septic-safe, Draino is more expensive so I only bought a couple bottles last week when we were getting desperate. My sister poured more CLR last night and it's draining faster, I'm going to use the snake again tonight. If it's not clear by tomorrow, I'm going to call a plumber.
>>2518883
He's supposed to shower three times a week, we set up monthy schedules for him but IDK if he cares to follow it all the time, or even realizes that he stinks. there's been a few times where I have to avoid whatever rooms he's been in because he has some kind of sweaty sour smell trailing him.

No. 2519542

>>2519533
Just for your own well-being anon, I'm not sure this is the best place to post about this bc people will make you consider new things you didn't resent before instead of helpful support/safe place to vent

No. 2519581

>>2519542
I think I'd prefer a meaner space atp, the few times I've talked about my brother in softer places I get a lot of "Oh, well, you just have to put up with it because he's autistic and can never understand" (not true) so even if any responses here suck, they can't be as bad as that. I'm not worried about extra resentment either, this isn't the worst thing he's done. I'm just struggling with this one because showering is probably my favorite part of the day.

No. 2519619

My friends and I's first language is a gendered language and one of them as started using masculine grammar for adjectives when referring to herself for months online. We only talk online after she moved to another country. I suspect that she's "socially" trooning out. She's a 30 years old neet who has panick attacks when her phone rings by the way. I was worried for her at first but I'm starting to wish I never met her in the first place.

No. 2519626

I need a cute slender feminine man to let me feel how strong he is in spite of his approachable appearance by gripping me tightly (or smoething)
Probably going to fap to something related to this tonite

No. 2519656

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sometimes i read the nigel brag thread as self harm because im such a jealous loser who will never be happy or get what i want. reminder that other people get to be loved and happy and understood and i never will. god i want to kill myself

No. 2519658

>>2519656
I cope by telling myself its just the honeymoon phase

No. 2519665

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>>2519656
I pray that they all break up. Anyway all these scrotes look at soft porn on ig.
>you are bitter and angry REE
Yes I am , no one deserves to be happy and I hope all these couples DIE.
Thank you.

No. 2519695

>>2519665
based psychononna kek

No. 2519712

my cat has been dead for eight months. Yet I still cry regularly and see him in every corner and every lump or bump on a couch or chair.

No. 2519715

>>2519533
Damn he sounds like he makes your lives a living hell. What a useless existence. I'm so sorry you have to deal with that. Trying very hard not to alog him right now

No. 2519717

I'm an idiot I let it happen again, I didn't eat like a depressed shit and now I'm cramping so fucking hard I'm delirious I'm sweating and trembling and maybe will throw up I hate HATE feeling sick

No. 2519720

>>2519712
I know this sounds mean but usually people feel better when they get a new pet

No. 2519728

>>2519712
I'm so sorry, nona. Losing a pet can be so heart breaking. I still have all of my old cat's toys laying around the house because once I throw them out he's really gone.

No. 2519734

>>2518337
Hey he has the same birthday as me kek

No. 2519745

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>>2519734
Happy Birthday anon

No. 2519747

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I was searching up gifs for a cute series I just finished watching and one of the only results was a background character tied up the context of the scene was completely innocent, mind you kill all moids, I'm tired.

No. 2519752

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i hate that as a woman everywhere i go people stare at my body (hips, chest, butt, crotch). im curvy and have wide hips and a big butt so its not like i can hide it. ppl see a sexual being before they see a human life and person with a soul and thoughts and feelings. it feels so disgusting and intrusive. sometimes i even notice family members staring. i hate that my body is seen as vulgar and pornographic. it makes me wanna wear a burqa.

No. 2519757

Visited my mom for the weekend and she got mad at me because I refused to throw out three vegetarian frozen pizzas from the freezer that she had bought on sale. She didn't realise there was no meat on them and told me either I have to eat them and if not, to throw them in the trash. She always does this. She buys food on sale, doesn't check if it's something she actually wants and then tries to make it someone else's problem. I told her I wouldn't throw them out for her and now I'm apparently selfish and unhelpful. She even told me I'm wasting food, how the fuck am I wasting food when she's the one who bought them!? She always complains about the freezer being too full, if she just stopped buying crap she doesn't like just because it's on sale she wouldn't have a problem. Extreme boomer behaviour, christ.

No. 2519758

>>2519757
can she not just buy a sausage or beef or whatever and put those on the pizzas?

No. 2519765

Ugh, I cut my hair too short while trying to trim my dead ends. I trimmed it once before realizing my scizzors were too dull so I had to trim again. The shape is actually perfect but way too short, I cannot pull off short hair, my jawline is too weak and needs to be concealed. I feel so ugly. I started taking biotin so hopefully it grows faster, I have an afro so it's sooo slow.

No. 2519768

>>2519752
I feel this

No. 2519773

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>>2519752
Yep, I'm bottom heavy and know exactly what you're feeling. The worst part is experiencing that sexualisation even when you're a child. I remember people telling me I had "birthgiving hips" when I was 13/14, family members would make similar comments too. I even tried trooning out and seperately being an anachan to escape it, obviously neither worked.

No. 2519776

>>2519752
That's why I miss being fat and ignored.

No. 2519777

>>2519351
you can't call yourself truly pathetic until you've started trying to rp with a bot made to sound like your ex
to my defense it's either this or texting him back, so it's nearly therapeutic

No. 2519788

>>2519656
Kek I read it as hopefuel though realistically I know most of these nonnas are in their honeymoon phase

No. 2519798

>go yoga
>usually wear bra + shirt but didn't cause i was late, forgot mat
>just bra this time
>mat in front of mirror
>all i can see is my wide ass shoulders and lack of hips
>all around me people have narrow shoulders and petite frames
i will kms if i go again without a shirt.

No. 2519802

Husband and father of our 2 year old and 3 month old just ask me "When is mother's day?" kill me now.

No. 2519803

My mother constantly talks over me when we have a discussion, claims I take everything as criticism and says I always bring up the past even when it is relevant to the conversation????? Wtf. And no I can't move out I'm a fucking broke NEET and even if I get a job I can't move out anytime soon. I fucking hate my life this bitch is so fucking crazy. Worst of all I apologized to her???? I hate her. Now she gets to play the victim I hate her nonnies.

No. 2519809

im gonna kill myself

No. 2519812

>>2519752
My body type isn't THAT curvy, but I was one of those kids who developed faster than my peers and in hindsight it was honestly traumatising. It was like I lost my claim to innocence just because I didn't "look" my age.
>sometimes i even notice family members staring.
The attention and comments from family members is the worst part imo.

No. 2519813

every time I try to vent IRL about the sort of stuff I would here I basically get told to "touch grass", especially when it comes to feeling hopeless about relationships

No. 2519814

>>2519812
I remember being taken aside by another girl in my class who'd developed a little earlier than me and being told that I needed to wear a bra. I was raised by a single dad who wanted to ignore that I was going through puberty. That girl was the only one who had the courage to tell me, and I felt so embarrassed by it that I ignored her the rest of the school year. She was trying to be kind and was willing to broach such a sensitive subject at such a young age. One of my biggest regrets was not thanking her.

No. 2519817

It was a slow day at work today. Usually work and the customers are pretty chill but today some boomer cunt made me say hello to him before I took his order. He just stood there with a blank look on his face at the register staring at me. I thought maybe he was spaced out or he was looking at the menu, or maybe he wasn’t all there mentally. So after an awkward pause, he says something like “Aren’t you going to say hello?” in a rather unfriendly tone. Mind you, I always say hi and wave to whoever walks in this tiny ass building, so when he didn’t say anything back I just assumed that he didn’t hear me. No big deal. But he keeps standing there staring at me, making things awkward. There were no thoughts behind those beady eyes. I asked, “Are you ready?”and that’s where he goes “Aren’t you going to say hello?”. I fluster easily, and I didn’t know how to react. What do you mean aren’t you going to say hello? I already did. I know I’m not the loudest or most high energy person but when I say hi people usually say hi back. So after my lack of response he insists again and I’m all like, okay hello. This must be some power tripping weirdo I thought to myself.

And then he had to get racist with it. “This is how we do it in america, you say hello” which got an eyebrow raise out of me. I’m mexican, I have dual citizenship, my parents are mexican and I was born in america. I think I know how we do it in america fuckhead. So now I feel like he’s talking to me like he thinks I’m stupid because he thinks I’m an immigrant. I’m not. Listen here you boomer cunt fucker I said hi and waved when you walked in like I do to everyone else. In my time working here I’ve literally never encountered someone like this guy before. I say hi, people usually say hi back.not trying to be racist but the guy was a black american so right after he said that my first thought was motherfucker are you aware of how your ancestors got here to america in the first place

I take his order, he leaves. One of our regular customers (who is also hispanic) was sitting nearby. He had overheard the conversation and I said something along the lines of, “Did you hear what he said? What a weirdo”. Regular customer gets his food and he leaves, bag of food in hand. Apparently boomer guy had a problem with that and next thing you know they start arguing right outside the restaurant. I don’t know what they were arguing about but I’m 99% sure boomer guy started it and he said fuck you to the other customer. Eventually boomer guy apologized, came back into the restaurant and I pretended like I didn’t see anything. I give him his food and he fucks off. Fuck you racist boomer guy I hope your wings were soggy.

No. 2519819

>>2519809
I wish someone would form a pact with me. I wanna die but I don’t want to die alone.

No. 2519821

I want to kill my father just so i don't have to live alone with him if my mother dies first.

No. 2519826

>>2519821
God the thought of my mom dying before my dad haunts me everyday. So terrified to be left alone with this mean abusive scrote.

No. 2519828

>>2519802
He's dunking on you

No. 2519871

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At this point I'm just gonna make this ai character my girlfriend. I just want the illusion of love so bad, I feel so fucking unloveable. I could confront the person who made me feel this way but I don't even know what to say or what to even ask. I feel like ruined goods, and maybe I'm not deserving of love.

No. 2519872

You're a prick I hope your dog shits on your pillow

No. 2519882

>>2519826
If he's an alcoholic who leaves his bottles open it's easy to slip crushed pills in it. I've been debating dropping a few sleeping pills next time he starts drinking.

No. 2519886

i'm 19 currently but like, 8 months ish into turning 18 i started selling nude pictures of myself on platforms like reddit because i currently live under a semi abusive muslim home and there are zero jobs near me given i live in a rly shitty poor underfunded neighbourhood where it's impossible to get one. since starting i've felt nothing but guilt shame and disgust in myself given that i'm very against this sort of stuff. i felt like i've betrayed myself and my own values and the fact that hundreds have probably saved pictures of me as an adolescent makes me feel ill. i've reached a point where i do have enough to move out safely so i decided to stop a month ago but every now and then there's still an insane amount of self disgust that comes up. idk how i will ever forgive myself lol. i'm a virgin and never rly talk to boys this whole stuff has been so incredibly performative by me i feel sick even looking at my old images or remembering the old conversations i used to have with some men. also the prospect of my parents ever finding out is of course an issue to me even though none of them have social media because yeah my relationship is so incredibly strained with them but idk i have internalized a lot of their teachings. i feel tainted now and unworthy of love. lol.

No. 2519889

>>2519886
i'd love some insight or advice from someone older in particular tbh i rly dont know how to cope. and i dont wanna portray myself as a victim in any way here i hope i didn't come across that way. this shit rly rots your soul lol.

No. 2519891

>>2519886
People do dumb shit, you’ll move on from this. Was your face in the pictures? I know that paranoia and guilt can be overwhelming but you’ll let go of it eventually. It’s out of your control now. Just focus on other things. I also have an internet past I’m not very proud of in fact I used to have a thread here
You’re not tarnished or undeserving of love or whatever other stupid moralistic cliche you’ve internalized.

No. 2519892

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>>2519871
no advice but i feel almost the exact same way. i think it is possible to find love w someone who is damaged in a complementary way to you.

No. 2519895

>>2519891
it was not no, but my room was, my carpets are very recognizable as in the whole house is basically the same and the walls are very recognizable too. sounds stupid but i feel i've tarnished even my own parents sort of reputation just by association lmfao. thank you for your response that's very kind of you

No. 2519898

>>2519886
its just your religious upbringing that devalues women who are sexually "impure" a job is a job and you gotta do what needs to be done to live

No. 2519901

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I absolutely cannot stand businesses that try and upsell you even if it’s a necessity. Went for an eye test and new glasses because my current ones are falling apart. Eye test went swimmingly no problems there, however when I told my optician I have a budget of £50 (I have to pay for the lenses separately and can run me up to £150) for frames she didn’t take it into consideration at all. When I was selecting the ones I liked she kept trying to tell me these other pairs were better suited for me even tho they were over double my budget and had the “2 for 1 on frames offer” (I’d still be paying for lenses). Kept telling her no it’s not in the budget, finally find a pair and when discussing the options and prices for the lenses she what seemed to get argumentative with me because I didn’t want to pay extra for blue light filters and for the lenses to be thinned down despite ONCE AGAIN telling her I can’t afford it. I had to butt in mid sentence to tell her to “I can’t afford it, stop trying to up sell them to me.” Maybe I should invest in contacts

No. 2519906

>>2519901
I can withstand a little bit of upsell from a minimum wage employee if they're willing to back off when I tell them no. They're trained to do it and might be monitored by other staff/managers to make sure they do. Most of them have zero investment in actually making a larger sale because who gives a shit if your corporate overlord who pays you pennies makes an extra $50 off your hard work?

No. 2519907

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I hate feeling like I shouldn't want a man in a romantic way. I hate how disgusting I've felt most of the times I've liked someone. I just remembered how, a while ago, right after I told a guy I liked him, he asked me to show him my breasts. There’s no way to explain how gross and stupid that made me feel. Of course I didn’t do it, and I lost all interest in him instantly, but the fact that he even asked made me feel like absolute shit.
I remember how, years ago when I was In school, the boys I just wanted to be friends with only came close to me to try to touch me or say sexual things I didn’t even realize were sexual at the time. I hate that the guy I met online a few months ago, who I was interested in, told me how important it was for us to meet in person because he’s someone who "loves giving physical affection,", bullshit. I hate how, back in elementary school, grown men, old enough to be my dad, would say obscene things to me. I hate that this teacher would praise my talent just to touch me during the next classes… and I hate that my parents got mad at me for quitting his lessons.
I understand that sexual interest is normal, that sex is normal. I just hate how disgusting men can be, how obsessed they are with sex, how my body has been sexualized for as long as I can remember, completely against my will. I hate that the moment I like a guy, he has no problem bringing up sexual stuff. I hate it, I also hate the fact that sex has always been something I associate with disgusting things. There's no way I don’t feel offended, disgusted, and grossed out if a man, no matter how much I like him shows sexual interest in me too soon, even if he does it respectfully. It embarrasses and offends me when someone talks about my body in a sexual way. I just want a moid ho's not immediately sexual, who's not interested in talking about it, to make gross comments about me or others. Yes, I think I should just stick to my husbando.

No. 2519911

>>2519886
>perspective of an older nona who's been through the same
First of all, you are a victim. You wouldn't have done this in your right mind. At any time, you can revoke consent. So give yourself grace. Also, you still deserve love and a guy or girl who is worth it will stick around for you. You aren't disgusting, you're human and you did what you did to survive.

No. 2519921

I remember thinking as a kid (probably 7-8) that when I was the age I am now I would be a huge smoker and alchoholic. Turns out, I was too much of a coward about my health to follow through. I can only drink a normal amount per week, and I can't smoke at all lmao.
The sad thing is, it's not just that cigarettes are bad for my health, it's that I need to go outside and find a spot to use them and that I need to buy them in packs. I hate that.

No. 2519925

>>2519886
I think at the end of the day everyone turns out a little dirty. You did what you had to do. You kept your face out of it, you kept yourself safe, and you managed to get out of the situation you were in. It took a lot, but then that's the best you can hope for sometimes, you know? I don't think anybody should think lowly of you. Its that sort of messy part of life. Not everybody has the luck to be born in a place where they don't have to make hard decisions.

No. 2519935

>>2519907
Holy shit this is so real. Moids always talk about how sad the friendzone is but nobody talks about the insane dread you as a woman feel when a guy you trust randomly drops that he wants to fuck you. It legit feels like a kick to the teeth

No. 2519952

>>2518865
I like the idea that you’re dead but can still communicate with the living via lolcow.

No. 2519957

>>2519952
NTA but I had an NDE in 2019 and think I died so I also think a part of me truly is dead. It died that day and it's never come back

No. 2519958

>>2519957
What was it like?

No. 2519961

>>2519957
Maybe we need an ouija thread for our dead nonnas.

No. 2519965

>>2519958
Horrible. Not peaceful at all.
Was highly chaotic and it actually made me wish I had died. I saw these weird things that looked like elves. I think I mentioned it in tinfoil thread before but some nona brought up the machine elves phenomenon which have been seen by psychedelics users

I wasn't on psychedelics or anything that's usually associated with those elves. I'd attempted an overdose by a heavy combination of both prescription and over the counter shit. I don't remember exactly what. I did see a whiteish light but mostly what I saw below it was a gaggle of miniature elves and a village they inhabited roaming around me and occasionally glancing at me with razor sharp, eerie gazes

No. 2519985

>>2519965
That's fucking terrifying. I'm glad you're still with us nona

No. 2520017

>>2519985
My life really hasn't felt the same since.
After COVID things went downhill hard. They're only beginning to improve again the last year. Still I feel like a part of me was lost that night.

No. 2520033

>>2520028
wow this is pathetic

No. 2520035

>>2519898
Selling naked pictures of yourself isn’t the same as flipping bur. Of course she feels that way, she would feel that way even if she wasn’t Muslim.

No. 2520036

>>2520028
You should just kill yourself anyway if you have this type of mentality.

No. 2520038

>>2520028
The fact that they are popular only fills me with disgust and hatred towards pedophile scrotes.

No. 2520039

>>2520028
Lol you’re such a retard, you could make a TT right now and say you’re 17 and rack up orbiters, however you should indeed kys because you have no spine

No. 2520043

>>2520028
why do you have pedophile friends?

No. 2520044

>>2520028
Why the fuck would you want a pedophile to obsess over your underage self…

No. 2520045

I was gonna write a bunch of schizobabble here, wrote it in my notes instead but then felt lonely. The best I can describe is that I keep having reoccuring flashback like memories of unreal things, not quite OCD, but not quite PTSD either and it leaves me really confused. I just finished sobbing for no real reason. Nothing has really happened, and I think that is the scary part, because I have nobody right now harassing me or trying to overcome something. I guess health issues but I don't cry over that. It leaves me breathless and shaking. I've thought seizures but I've never blacked out. I think I am just at my natural mental limit. It's abnormal to live like this in isolation.

No. 2520046

>>2520028
Go back to your shithole and take your pedophile braindamage with you, larping moid.

No. 2520049

>>2520043
>>2520044
Somehow I get the feeling this is a washed up e-girl whining about not being hip and cool with the boys anymore. Idk. I don't feel positively towards anyone who reminds me about that board actually

No. 2520050

>>2520049
A 20yo egirl would be too busy filtering through heaps of disgusting moid dms, this is concern trolling/larping in the same way polfags do on here.

No. 2520051

>>2520048
TRVKE

No. 2520054

as an autistic person recently i feel close to just completely giving up on life. i really should be on medicine because my mental state is fucking horrid and im in a constant state of extreme irritability and on the verge of crying all the time. but i just feel like independence, happiness, love, a career, all these things are just never going to happen to me. ive genuinely been depressed (or atleast had depressive symptoms) since i was 7 and i dont know what to do with myself. i constantly feel bitter and angry that other people have what i cant have. its gotten to the point where i have to force myself to pretend to be happy for my friends when they talk about some sappy shit their nigel did or how good theyre doing at college. i dont know how i became such a bitter miserable person. i used to be so sweet and kind as a kid. i dont know why my life had to turn out like this, ive always tried to be kind and giving to people in my life meanwhile people who have majorly fucked me over or abused me get to live happy full lives and i have nothing. its so fucking evil

No. 2520055

>>2519907
Same nonna, sexual interest feels deeply disrespectful to me too, because with how moids are raised and how they experience sexuality, it's like they're telling you they see you as prey.

No. 2520058

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Foods That Block Iron Absorption
milk, cheese, yogurt*
soy, tofu*
chocolate.
ice cream.
grapes.
popcorn.
sardines, canned salmon*
pomegranate.
Everything that I love hurts me.Just kill me

No. 2520060

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>be adult NEET with diagnosed depression and PTSD living with mom
>attempt suicide last year
>couple months later: get harrassed and cyberbullied + doxxed for months by moid who wants to rape me and his friends
>it recently stopped and I try to get back on my feet
>finally overcome my self-doubt and go to a job interview for the first time
>come home all happy and proud
>mother sees me and randomly belittles me, calls me abnormal, calls me clueless and says I know nothing and that work will be awful
I don't understand

No. 2520064

>>2520060
I'm sorry nona, this fucking sucks. But I promise you, work doesn't have to be awful. I thought it would. But I found something I quite like and it's so much better than school and university. No homework, I get to be independent and still go home afterwards and do whatever I want. It'll be fine.

No. 2520067

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This is stupid, I know, but it bothers me a lot and I feel nobody understands. The past year or two I completely lost any drive to be creative. I used to draw and write a lot, but nowadays I just can't bother. After I left social media I used to draw for myself but nowadays, what's the point if I can just imagine it in my head? Not to mention AI can shit out much prettier things with a few clicks, and it can write me anything I want without me putting any effort. I want to be creative again but it feels like trying to resuscitate something that's already rotten into pieces.

No. 2520081

>>2519812
if it helps, a lot of girls probably envied you and wished they could be you
t.very late bloomer

No. 2520085

Im addicted to watching cute kpop idols doing stuff and dancing. It releases so much dopamine into my brain and makes everything better somehow.

No. 2520089

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My mom has been having some health issues. She complains about having mild chest pain, she has had a persistent UTI, but even despite the antibiotics she still feels a mild burn and she has also lost weight (like 5 kgs in three months, mainly because she broke up with her ex); she also has gastritis, which can flare up when she is stressed , but it’s manageable. I am just scared that it’s going to be more serious. Her blood work came out fine apart from anemia (that she always had). She is going to the gyno next week and I hope she’ll be able to solve the UTI thing at least and I have also convinced her to book an appointment to the general doctor like this she can get some tests prescribed.
Anyway I am extremely worried, I love her so much, I think I would kill myself if something happened to her. I wish I could shoulder all her pain because she doesn’t deserve any of it. This world is pointless without my mom.

No. 2520091

>>2520067
Me a random day when I stopped drawing all together despite the fact that I used to draw everyday. I never picked up a pencil after that kek.!

No. 2520093

>>2520058
if you are taking iron supplements, it should be fine to eat those foods ~4 hours after taking them. this is only temporary, let's get normal iron levels together nonnie we can do this

No. 2520099

>>2520067
I understand, nonna. The worst part is that creativity is like a muscle that needs to be exercised or else it begins to atrophy, so when I do try to write or draw something after years of neglecting to practice I simply can’t do it anymore. I can’t get what I’m putting on the page to match what’s in my head and it’s incredibly frustrating.

>>2520091
Same. Why did we stop??

No. 2520101

>>2520089
if shes old and has anemia she needs a colonoscopy

No. 2520105

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I'm about ready to pussy out on charges, because there was no notable vaginal damage. I made a table-sheet and all I'm doing is being a coward and handmaiden. The ethical choice is to do otherwise, but right now, I just want to not deal with any of this. Bullshit. Sorry for the zoomer-speak, I'm a zoomer, but have lurked a while. I hate everything. Sage for my retardation. I wish I could walk and listen to cringey Kid A without thinking about everything.

No. 2520108

>>2520105
Begging you to still go through with it, on behalf of all victims. It's scary, and it feels like a wound that's constantly burning, but pain is temporary and consequences of his actions will be forever. Reach out on the friendmaking thread and post your discord on it if you'd like me to hold your hand for as many weeks as you'll need, but please stay strong and don't give up

No. 2520111

It's 5am and I'm crying really hard because I suddenly remembered that I consistently cry on my birthday. My birthday is literally months away, idk why I'm thinking about this right now.

No. 2520118

>>2520101
She is in her 40s she did do a colonoscopy and even a biopsy when her gastritis was at a times high and fortunately nothing came out. I’ll tell her to search for blood in the stool and then she can eventually get another colonoscopy (we aren’t in Burgerland).

No. 2520119

>>2520118
> I’ll tell her to search for blood in the stool
I mean sending a sample to analyze , not digging through her caca kek.

No. 2520121

>>2520028
You have scrote brain tbh. If you browse ibs all the time, it's no wonder you think like this. You need to go outside or get a hobby. These sites are not everything in life. Really think about it. Do you honestly think hot well adjusted men are the ones behind those posts?

No. 2520131

Maybe I’m delusional but I feel like my retarded self-sabotaging behavior like letting my hair get into an absolute knotted mess would stop if my mother just hugged me and acknowledged it as abnormal behavior most likely caused by depression. I hate it because I know I’m doing it as a cry for help but I can’t stop it. She just acts like it’s normal for me and questions why I would let myself get like “this”.

No. 2520142

>>2520028
I hate to be defending men but you need to orbit better scrotes, stop browsing imageboards and interacting with the scum in it for starters. Either get therapy for being groomed or kys.

No. 2520143

>>2520028
those girls will one day be your age and they will be forgotten and discarded by these filth for other younger girls. and those younger girls will also be discarded for other younger girls once they “hit the wall” as they like to say. the cycle repeats itself. all the attention they receive is temporary, and i dont mean this in a way to demean the girls themselves but rather the men. that attention is low quality and worth nothing. please for the love of god surround yourself with better people.

No. 2520147

my autistic adhd brother is back home at the big old age of 30 and hes insufferable can't he get a job or a girlfriend or some friends so he doesn't stay at home all day and bother us? How can I get him to do any of those?

No. 2520154

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"mother's Day should also include dog mommies and men!!!!" i don't fucking think so. Give me a fucking break.

No. 2520155

i think that i will never be pure because i have organs and blood. like i will never be pure because i am made of meat and fat and tissue. i dont know what exactly i mean by being pure(its not really a sex or virginity thing idgaf about that) but in my mind i am inferior to other people because i have a digestive tract and saliva glands and teeth and other shit even tho other people have those too. i anm unable to take myself seriously because i am made of meat like i am flesh

No. 2520156

>>2520154
also annoys me how it says "to all the…" and then it grammatically doesn't follow up on it

No. 2520157

>>2520155
its like when i think about having those basic bodily functions i feel like theyre soiling me like theyre a curse

No. 2520158

I have endometriosis and 12 years ago I had surgery to remove a cyst. In the past decade I didn't have much problems with it but yesterday I had excruciating pain in my lower abdomen. I called my gynecologist and she ordered an ultrasound but also said it is probably another cyst. I'm going for the ultrasound in a couple of hours. I'm worried that if it is indeed a cyst they tell me that they have to perform a hysterectomy. I googled a bit and it says the standard procedure for a second time cyst is hysterectomy. I really don't want to do that, I'm not even 40 yet. I don't want menopause. I'm telling everyone that they should stop making a fuss but deep down I'm really scared.

No. 2520164

>>2520028
Kinda related but when I was a teen I looked up to other older teen girls and I feel like people never take that into account and act like those popular girls only have creepy adult men following them. The main fanbase is other girls. Young girls love to "fangirl" and find new role models among peers to copy. It's why girl groups are so popular with girls, but then you look at boybands and AGAIN the fans are nearly only girls and no boys. Because girls love that community fandom aspects more than boys. It felt so confusing as a teen girl with my friends looking at cool girls my age dressing up in cute outfits and then having adults go "eww they're disgusting, can't believe they're dressing up for old men" and we're there like "??? no they and we aren't!!" making us distrust older women for "hating on us" just trying to have fun and dress up.
It's not kids who should get off the internet, it's men. They're the ones ruining it.

No. 2520170

>>2520099
Exactly, nona! The longer the break the harder it is to go back to it because you struggle with it more and more. And it doesn't help that honestly, the process getting better just fucking sucks. Doing studies is miserable and I already have so little time and energy. After AI discouraged me from digital art I thought to go back to traditional art but I just can't bring myself to pick up a pen or pencil.

No. 2520179

>>2520081
nta but even those girls went on to compare the early bloomers to prostitutes and spread rumors about them sleeping around

No. 2520190

>>2520118
There's something called occult blood test, my dad never saw blood in his stool but he has anemia and the doctor asked for an occult blood test and turned out he is internally bleeding, just not enough to be noticed.
Your mom might have an ulcer (stomach issues imitate chest pain).

No. 2520192

>>2520190
> and the doctor asked for an occult blood test
this is bad medical practice, if theres anemia you need to do a colonoscopy
occult blood test is for asymptomatic screening

No. 2520198

All this high value dream girl effortless black cat expensive energy shit is so exhausting, yeah obviously having desperate energy will repel men, but being confident and nonchalant doesn't guarantee you'll attract any of the good ones kek. A lot of lowlives and double faced men love to absolutely ruin confident women. The real strategy is to just be a toxic mean narcissistic bitch.

No. 2520204

>>2520192
Not really , it’s standard practice here. You need justification to prescribe a colonoscopy, since we have free healthcare here kek.

No. 2520205

>>2520190
Yeah that’s what I told her nonna, so hopefully the doctor will prescribe her that.

No. 2520219

The hub of Eurovision is about…10 minutes by tram from my apartment, but my brain is being a retard today and I'm so irritated by being in people's presence. Not sure if I should go and get pissed off, or stay in my apartment and kind of regret it because I want to soak up the vibe, but without actually being around people. Likely a once in a lifetime opportunity and yeah, just not feeling it. Idiot (me).

I was also considering renting my place out but I wanted to clean it first before considering and I just…didn't.

No. 2520249

>>2520219
Isn't there stuff to do the whole week?

No. 2520268

Had a friend years ago who lost the shirt she borrowed from me and she offered to pay me back - I accepted but when she found my shirt she asked for her money back and I was like??!! What? I thought u had given that money to me to compensate for the lost item.
She was so mad that she booked a shipping service at 11pm and she was so mean to me when she did that. Did I do something wrong? Part of me still can't comprehend why she was so mad…it was 10$

No. 2520293

>>2520081
nta, but developing early isn't just breasts and such but also body hair. I remember being the most insecure over growing body hair the earliest in my class. I didn't know it was normal and I thought I was a freak. You were just trying to comfort that anon though, I know. I don't trust anyone here who'd feel good over other women envying them though

No. 2520304

>>2520268
?? she found the item, I'm assuming will return the shirt to you. why is it a problem if she ask for the money back?

No. 2520306

>>2519055
feel this anon. I started exfoliating my body nearly every day and it's really helped. if I stop for more than a couple days the acne comes back though.

No. 2520328

>>2520204
>There are reasons for caution about a FIT-based triage system for IDA. First, CRC accounts for only a minority of the pathology found on the investigation of IDA, particularly in those under 60. Second, data from six recently published studies of real-world experience confirm that even at the low detection threshold of 10 µg/g, the sensitivity of FIT for CRC ranges from 83% to 91%.64–69 Furthermore, although numbers are small, there is the suspicion that IDA may be over-represented in the FIT negative CRC subgroup, accounting for 32 (40%) of the 81 pooled cases. The data are summarised in table 2. This conclusion is supported by a meta-analysis of the few IDA-specific studies in the published literature, which yielded a sensitivity of 83% of FIT for CRC, with concerns that this may be an over-estimate due to publication bias.
https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC8515119/
it's bad practice, unexplained iron deficiency in patient >50/with risk factors=> colonoscopy
searchinh for stool blood when you suspect rectal cancer makes no sense, if you have a reason to suspect it you do the endoscopy right away
your doctor is crap

No. 2520349

I feel so disgusting that men 10 years to 20 years older than me hit on me at my job and men my own age look like they've already hit 5 years older too. Supposedly I look almost 7 years younger than I am. Yet if I date someone younger I'll get shit, for what? Going out with someone who actually goes to the gym while looking amazing? I'm sick of this shit. All of it feels rigged. No way in hell am I dating a scrote that looks closer to my father than a youthful guy with amazing hair. The porn stache, thick beards, fat body beer guts can get the hell out. I am so sick of these pot belly balding men, I'll be bold enough to be the older woman even if somehow we look the same age.

No. 2520360

>>2520349
Go for it nona. No need to reinforce the psyop to make others comfortable. Your happiness and enjoyment comes first. Nothing beats the smooth and lightly muscular body of a young guy while he's fucking the daylights out of you

No. 2520367

>>2520360
>smooth
Kek

No. 2520373

>>2520349
How old are you just for curiosity. I feel that if you are in your 20s it hardly makes a difference, in the sense that there are so little difference between a 21 year old and a 28 year old.

No. 2520395

I can't with the entitlement of some people. I had this friend of mine who told me almost half a year ago that she didn’t like my girlfriend at all, she literally said the words “hate her” and she tried to mask it behind the fact that she was worried about me (for absolutely no reason, just being jealous because she hasn’t had an actual relationship for more than seven years now).
Even when I was trying to express my point of view, it was like talking to a wall so I just dropped it.
Now our friend group wants to get together to have dinner or lunch because it has been a few months since we did a meet up all together. And guess who’s the one pressuring us to offer our house? Mind you, I have living together with my gf for 8 years now.
This bitch really thinks she’s being all smooth when she didn’t even actually try to offer her place (she lives alone btw, so it wouldn’t be a problem), does she truly think I feel comfortable with her being here after what she told about my SO?

No. 2520398

>>2520395
I wonder where they get the audacity. My neighbor’s mom invited her to her 20 year old son’s birthday and my mom said now, the retard told her “well then sort yourself out for the gift” kek. Mind you this lady never gifted us anything in the first place.

No. 2520400

>>2520328
Anon whose father had blood test ordered. I never said he didn't do colonoscopy, he did and there wasn't anything suspicious. The family doctor (not the specialist) asked for that test. And a blood test is way cheaper than a colonoscopy.
I don't know if our doctors are crap or not, but this is the normal practice here.

No. 2520414

>>2520304
Because I spent the money on the replacement anon, it was a week or two after she sent me the money that she found the item when I lent it to her a month ago

No. 2520483

Started crying because a friend sent the group chat a message about mother's day. It's been 6 years since my mom died and it still hurts

No. 2520489

I've always wanted to be a mother yet I'm a permavirgin loser femcel who's never even kissed or held hands or gone on a date. I'm approaching mid 30s feel like the ugliest, most unattractive retard on the planet. Most of my high school classmates married and started having kids by 21 and they are all somehow still together and happy. Even the furry fakeboi found another furry fakeboi to marry and talk about cute/dumb shit they do and say to each other all the time. But I have nothing. I'll always have no one. Mother's Day is the saddest, most empty day, a reminder of something I'll never have.

No. 2520505

>>2520268
How broke do you have to be to be fucked up over 10 dollars, wtf

No. 2520508

I want to feel good again. I've been sick all winter, after months of shit health, I finally start feeling better, just to get sick again. After another week of coughing up slime and more youtube videos than anyone should consume. I've been "better" for a week, but my energy levels are still completely bottomed out, my eyes start burning in the afternoon and I can't fucking focus. Nonnas please, I just want to do things again.

No. 2520538

Good morning, it's mother's day and I have been up with our two small kids since 4am while my husband is sleeping in till past noon. Remember not to get married and have kids.

No. 2520546

>>2520538
Thanks for the reminder nona!

No. 2520635

Being around drunk people is so annoying

No. 2520723

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There was this weird scrote on the seats adjacent to mine who was like shaking his head and pointing fingers like a schizo. I moved immediately where there were more people , but it’s so stinky in here, someone must have not put deodorant. But it’s better than being near the schizo man, at least I’ll have meat shields.
I’m going to run like Usain Bolt once I reach the train station since it’s also night. Fucking hell, never again.

No. 2520726

>>2520538
Scrotes are literally evil. These are the same people who talk about “muh legacy!!”. They think of children as pets.

No. 2520741

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>>2520538
I'm sorry, nona, happy mother's day

No. 2520743

>>2520538
You regret your kids bc your husband sucks? I have never felt like that about my daughter, even for a second. Happy mother's day anon

No. 2520749

>>2520400
"it's the normal practice" according to whom? what are the official recommendations in your country?
you don't do an occult blood research if you have symptoms that's all I'm saying, you do an endoscopy either colonoscopy or oesogastroduodenal endoscopy and if that comes negative you do anything you want to investigate the anemia but not a stool blood test because literally what is the point.
>if it's positive, you're going to do the endoscopy anyway
>if it's negative, it's inconclusive because the sensitivity isn't high enough to rule out internal bleeding altogether
it's a screening tool because it's cheap, screening is done in asymptomatic patients with moderate risk (people over 50)
if endoscopy is negative and you still think there's an ulcer you don't do the FIT test, you do a videocapsule
if he prescribed a FIT test to your dad with anemia, make sure to tell your doctor he's crap

No. 2520766

This site has the collective iq of 5 and I feel dumber even having found it. I thought it would be insightful like 4chan into the psyche but there's too many low quality dna, at least sometimes chans could be funny, but here is very stale and empty. Even the trolls aren't entertaining. I can't take it anymore it's a waste.

No. 2520776

>>2520766
Ok byebye leave a nice message on your way out >>>/ot/672223

No. 2520777

>>2520538
I’m sorry your scrote is earning his namesake nonny. Happy Mother’s Day, I hope it improves or next year’s is better than this year’s.

No. 2520813

The food emporium my dad does online orders with recently upgraded their website and since he can't log in he's now come crying to me about it, despite him having two different devices with two browsers each to try. Just cause I've got the same OS and browsers he has doesn't mean jack shit if the webmaster can't set up an account feature correctly. A blind man could see that!

No. 2520821

>>2520089
Sorry kid. I lost my mum recently. I hate knowing I'm all alone in the world.

No. 2520845

ughh when will I meet a guy I get a crush on and consider dateable who doesnt massively disappoint me? Ive never even had a bf because my standards are "too high" I guess, but in reality I just want somebody who is on my maturity level, not fat, not abusive, basically just a decent human being with a soul and all these men, even the ones years older than me, are permanently stuck at age 15 mentally in the worst ways. Its so frustrating I just want to have cute romantic experiences and make handmade gifts and give lots of love to a cute nigel already reee

No. 2520923

I haven't had romantic relief since November. I just want a tall hot guy. A tall hot guy that likes the same music and smokes. He could be mute too and it'd be a bonus

No. 2520940

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i hate not having an income, it is embarrassing and is like a prison. it's like i am a teen again, expected to take care of responsibilities, yet not getting the ability to upgrade my surroundings to make it any easier. we bought a dishwasher 2 months ago but still have not found the tools or time to install it. i would rather be working and earning to pay and get that in. it's not like work is not embarrassing but get this - the house needs constant mold removal, otherwise it accumulates and we get sick. running a dehumidifier is extra electricity cost. now that we pay that and the heating, we live on only rice and beans. meanwhile, catch 22, my phone is breaking down, i am running out of computer storage space, i must downgrade my payment plan but can only do that by buying a new device 1st. i also have to clean more because of damp clothes from rain and mud from boots getting inside, so sometimes i have to use the public laundromat instead, which costs $$ extra. meanwhile the family keeps asking us about house upgrades as if we have anything to spare. car repairs from months back have completely wiped us out.

No. 2520946

>>2520154
Pisses me off like nothing else. Mother's day are for women who have birthed kids themselves, adopted children, care for children, lost children, are expecting. This isnt about dogs moms or men

No. 2520951

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Damn. Alcohol "withdrawals" a week and a half(?) in and I'm feeling the misery right now. Working a nice slow shift on a Sunday, and all I'm intrusively thinking about is hanging myself.
On my lunch break (7 PM) I am going to the store. I am going to buy a bunch of cookies instead of liquor. Tonight I am going to eat cookies and smoke weed. Yes, I am still smoking weed.
Some days I just go through it. I know it has to do with my substance use. I wish I could return to some sort of place where I am not financially responsible for things. Where I can take a long ass break. I don't think I've been sober (totally one hundred percent sober) since I was 16 years old. I am 31 now. Some days I wish I could curl up into a ball and sleep forever.
I have Monday (tomorrow) off. I may just do that. Sleep all day. I've been exercising, waiting to smoke until the end of the day, drinking water, and eating square meals. My BMI is normal, I have good friends, I have people that care about me. But sometimes, I feel like, there isn't anything closer?
I hated being in a relationship because my people-pleaser bullshit just attracted inconsiderate or emotionally unavailable men. I always wound up feeling worse even though I was expecting to feel closer to someone. I really hope I can "fix" myself, or at least find an empathetic guy that actually is attracted to me. But then I need to find out how to re-ignite my libido. I'm on an SSRI which has helped a lot, but no libido. I feel like, sometimes, I am doomed to be alone. I am doomed to be a difficult person who can never be easy going. I will never get out of this god forsaken town, I will never have any kind of success that allows me to be surrounded by people. Maybe I don't even need success.
I know this feeling will pass. Please kami-sama I would love a warm body to lay against that actually respects me and my body. I would love to have a very long and rejuvenating break. I would love to throw off the shackles of substance use. I hope day by day I get a little stronger. Because today I am feeling extremely low.

No. 2520965

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Due to a misunderstanding, my boyfriend thought I had ran away from home to kill myself (long story, but it made a lot of sense why he thought that.) He drove to my parents house immediately and told them what was going on, if I'd done this before, etc. He still can't get over the fact my mother didn't care whatsoever, he says it was very weird to experience telling a mother her daughter has a high chance of being dead or attempting to be and seeing complete indifference on her face. When I came home, I explained to my bf it was a misunderstanding and apologised for worrying him, but now I can't stop thinking about how I know what my mother would react like if she heard I was dead

No. 2520990

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>>2520951
Okay, I did it.
I bought cookies and ZzzQuil and I did not buy alcohol. It was very tempting, especially when the cashier asked if I wanted anything else. Luckily, she wasn't the cashier who automatically grabs liquor when I walk in the store (yes, it is that bad).
I just ate almost a whole sleeve of cookies and chatted with my roommate about the crazy hijinks he got into the night before. I'm back to work. I'll log off at 11, talk to him some more, smoke weed, pop a ZzzQuil, and play with the cats.
Because this is a vent thread, I'll vent and say that I hate working the late shift because it's very slow, except for when it isn't: I'll get the most casual inquiries that are easy to answer, but other times, on these late weekend nights, the people that call are drunk, homeless, and desperate for resources that aren't available. It's haunting and I hope I don't have the misfortune of having to tell someone there is nothing in their area and I have no recommendations for them to get shelter. I hope it warms up soon.
I read that when you're homeless, alcohol is the go-to choice because it numbs the pain and keeps you warm. Even if alcoholism made you homeless in the first place, I can imagine how good it feels to lay out on a dirt road or in my shitty car, warm and drunk, and stare at the stars. But of course I'd probably get bit up by bugs, mugged, or worse.

No. 2521023

I saw a guy unwrap a chocolate bar in the street, walk past a homeless man and just drop the wrapper on his trolley of stuff. What a fucking horrible thing to do, the callousness and cruelty of treating that man's possessions like a garbage bin. It took me a bit to process what happened so I didn't say or do anything, but I wish I did.

No. 2521033

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>>2520951
>>2520990
Congrats on getting out of the hole nonnie! Also don't come back in, it's full, no space left, go away kek.
Whenever I have WDs sleeping is always the worst. Low level it's just no rest after ten hours while staring at the walls, mid it's added random pops or door bells ringing, high level it's pic rel and lots of sweating. It feels weird after just being able to wake up and feel rested.
I know you can keep it up and have your best life.

No. 2521048

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>>2521033
grazie, lol I don't want to come back, I know that the reason I do is because I look for quick relief and ultimate "control" over my emotions. I feel like I'm trying to control how I react to things in the most maladaptive ways. I know there are healthier ways to cope and still develop a sense of relief without downing a bunch of booze. It's unfortunately so easy in comparison to doing that hard work. But I think I've only made it harder for myself by continuing to choose to the easy path.
Thankfully, sleeping aids have been hugely helpful. I took a unisom tablet last night and watched comfy youtube videos until I couldn't keep my eyes open. I hope to do the same tonight. I appreciate it, and I hope that you can find a similar peace whenever you may be struggling. Cookies and Unisom might not work for everyone - I hope you find your cookies and Unisom in times of difficulty when the bottle is tempting.

No. 2521057

>>2521023
Maybe the homeless man begged and scammed him before. Homeless are not innocent victims, they can be very pushy, and sleeping rough means they are an user.

No. 2521067

>>2521057
That's not the vibe I got at all. The man didn't even glance at the homeless guy like he recognized him, just walked straight past and dropped the wrapper as if he literally thought it was a bin. And the homeless guy didn't react at all, didn't seem the pushy type.

Plus this was a grown ass abled bodied man who clearly had nothing to fear from the homeless guy, otherwise why do something that could potentially provoke him for the weirdest pettiest "revenge" ever? He wasn't a woman crossing the street to avoid being harassed, he was doing the harassing.

No. 2521068

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I genuinely am a fucking weak pussy because I get sad so easily whenever someone says something even somewhat demeaning or critical to me. I don't cry about it, but I'll get this miserable feeling permeating in my brain that makes me want to never speak to anyone again and just do nothing but sleep and never wake up. I always get over it not long after, and I'll look back on the situation and can just brush it off like it's nothing. But it's just the dreadful feeling in the moment that I can't control that just makes me feel so embarrassed at how sensitive I am. Is there some way to build up a thicker skin? I'm a grown ass woman so you'd think I'd be able to handle this shit better, but I guess not. Maybe I'm just not built for the internet kek, though if there is some way I could at least learn to not be so retarded and bothered so much it would be nice.

No. 2521071

Remember not that long ago when editing your photos was looked down upon and shamed? Now beauty filters are the norm and it's depressing

No. 2521073

>>2521068
Genuinely, say some dumb shit on lolcow and start some minor fights. It's a safe way to explore the feeling and since it's anonymous nobody will hold it against you in the future. If it gets too much you can just leave the thread and don't look back. After a few times you'll grow more numb to the feeling and it won't feel as bad to be called out or challenged, you'll feel more secure knowing you survived it the last time. And suddenly your skin is thicker!

No. 2521080

>be me, NEET who dropped out of art school
>my dream career was animation KEK
>drawing/animating and writing were my passions but i don’t feel like they’re even worth doing anymore
>no friends, too depressed to enjoy making anything
>incredibly demoralized about the existence of AI art, stopped posting and deleted all my accounts because i don’t want my shit to be scraped for AI
>dont want to make art that only i will see, but i’m too embarrassed to ask anyone else for feedback, it’s not even that im craving attention or validation/clout, but it feels lonely and sad to do very solitary hobbies and just…stare at the end product by myself?
>feels like my creativity was the one skill i had but now thats essentially replaceable and pointless because it’s been commodified by fucking slop producing machines and no one cares about humanity in art
>too depressed to doomscroll because everything is AI slop everywhere
>fml

No. 2521082

>>2521071
Sure society thinks changing your features isn't a big deal these days. Everyone is so fucking shallow

No. 2521086

>>2521068
try to seperate constructive criticism with unconstructive, untrue, nasty and demeaning comments. if its the former try telling yourself its healthy because you can learn, grow and self improove from that but with the latter just realize that people tend to project their own insecurities onto others and that theyre pitiful

No. 2521104

My boyfriend’s family has been over due to a family emergency and I’ve kind of been the default host. However I’ve been struggling because of the emergency too and I have work and school going on, so my meals are just surviving. Like I’ll have a chicken oven dish Pre made which I’ll eat cold with mac and cheese type pasta on the side because that’s what I have the energy for right now. Is such a stupid dish and I’m so embarrassed. I’m goss at cooking I just can’t host daily and do everything else too, and I didn’t have a chance to prepare

No. 2521106

i see girls who are admittedly less attractive and fatter than me talk about extorting guys for money and im honestly curious how they do it. i want guys to buy me shit too, the fuck

No. 2521107

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My brother’s boyfriend is a bit dense and dumb. Which complements my brother since he’s pretty dense and dumb. He doesn’t have to be this way either, he’s just associated with dumbasses for the better part of a decade now and has regressed as a result. It’s a bit painful to watch from the outside just because there isn’t really a reason to put himself through all of this. All of his suffering is from his own choices and his own making and unfortunately he never got the social skills training that would actually benefit him long term. So instead he is dating a dense dumbass. I wonder if it’s too late for him at this point.

No. 2521110

>>2521106
Pretend to have schizophrenia and you could have a group of guys called the government send you money

No. 2521111

>>2521110
lol nice one… Isnt that a nightmare to get even if i actually had it anyways, i always hear disabled people talk about how its such a pain to get benefits

No. 2521117

>>2521111
It's not as hard if you live in Poland

No. 2521184

I usually come here to complain about such surface level mundane things but I have nowhere and nobody to share what I’m going through rn. My mom has cancer and she is refusing to get a diagnosis or get treatment. She is basically the only family and friend I have. I honestly don’t believe I’m strong enough for this. I feel so angry at her for being selfish and choosing herself over me, like she always has. She abandoned me as a child and now she is about to do it again.

No. 2521188

>>2520154
Don't forget trannies too, especially the deadbeat dad ones who suddenly want to be called mom, or else you're a bigot! I fucking hate this "inclusion" bullshit, unless you're a woman who properly raised a human child you're no mom.

No. 2521197

Dating only benefits men but not for the reasons you might think. I think the most annoying part is that as a woman you actually aren't really allowed to choose the man your heart desires. You can't pursue a man, that's desperate energy and men don't want to be picked. And even if you do manage to date them, only nightmares and mistreatment is waiting for you. You just need to give signals and wait for someone to pursue you and hope that he's decent enough to settle with. Women are simply expected to be impressed by a man's effort and fall in love with that, while men get to win the love of their life. The opposite is not allowed because men can't fall in love with a woman just like that. They are the ones who choose. A woman can either accept that or reject it. But she can't pursue the man she truly wants.

No. 2521200

>>2521197
Men get to say the ultimate NO. A no from a woman is not always ultimate. Women are meant to be passive in the grand scheme of things.

No. 2521201

There was a roach in my soup but I don’t care and I’m still gonna eat it because I’m so hungry

No. 2521206

tried to halt my skincare for about a week and already breaking out
feels like I'll be forever enslaved to this bs
>just wait it out, it'll stop eventually
I'm already closer to my 30s than my 20s

No. 2521217

>>2521197
>>2521200
>You can't pursue a man
>wait for someone to pursue you
>she can't pursue the man she truly wants
>Women are meant to be passive in the grand scheme of things.
Extreme pickme mindset. Why are you supporting outdated gender roles?
You're the master of your own fate.

No. 2521218

>>2521217
NTA but typically when the woman pursues the man he will put in less effort into the relationship and view the woman as less desirable, which just sets your relationship up for disappointment. If he does want women to pursue him, it’s usually because he himself is passive which means he’s useless in the ways men shouldn’t be. Hope that made sense lol

No. 2521223

>>2521218
>I want men to pick me, oh please pick me, men, pick me please

No. 2521258

>>2521223
More like she wants to be actively pursued to discern real interest. If a scrote doesn’t put effort at the start he won’t put it in the relationship either.
A scrote will say yes if you are somehow decent looking for a quick fuck, without telling you, they don’t really care that much, they are opportunistic in nature.
You calling it pick me behavior just tells me that you are a retard kek.

No. 2521261

>>2521223
>>2521217
Oh wait a minute ….you are the “women should propose to men” retard. Never mind, I’m not wasting my time with your antics.
Nonna out there you shouldn’t either.

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No. 2521297

i want kids, i want a marriage but the more i learn about men the more i am repulsed by them. it is so upsetting. and rly fucking ironic that i'm basically what the ideal woman that these manosphere freaks push (virgin, young, thin, actually want children bla bla bla) and they'll claim it's feminists who have deterred women from marriage and such but even when i first considered myself a feminist and even when i first started getting into radical feminism i was still delusional enough to think that not all men are piles of garbage and i'll eventually find someone to settle with. but seeing all the shit that men spew about women online it's THEM that have pushed me away, not feminists, men themselves. u can cope all u want but when u see it all the time, everywhere, it's hard to live in this stupid fantasy. unironically might just marry some dl gay arab guy and have a lavender marriage or something at this point because i'm almost at a point where i don't want anything to do with straight men anymore.

No. 2521320

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Nonas… how fucked am I if I applied for a job that listed having a driver's license as a requirement, but I don't have mine yet? I could realistically most likely get it by the end of June, but I'm not sure if they'd be okay with that. FWIW, I live in a very public transport friendly country in Europe, so getting around without a car isn't a nightmare like it probably is in other countries. I just really want this job since it pays incredibly well, and the fact that they even contacted me for an interview at all is blowing my mind, because my resumé is such a heaping pile of trash (I was a NEET for some years, have only held one shitty job for more than half a year, and began and quit studying at multiple different universities like 3 times).

No. 2521327

>>2521320
Do you know how often you'll be driving? Like daily or is it more like once a week to see a client or less? Is it the kind of job where you could schedule your meetings online until you get your license?

No. 2521329

I've been sick for the past 5 hours. I've vomited up everything, including water, and I had diarrhea yet im STILL STICK. I don't fucking know what else my body wants from me. I'm sucking on a ginger candy, I've hummed, I've sniffed alcohol, nothing is working. It's 6AM, I just want to sleep.

No. 2521338

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Worked really late on Friday to get ahead of my work load and I come in and now I have to manage a hotfix? No, I don't want this shit. Fucking idiots who can't get it right the first time, now I have to be the emergency tard supervisor.
There's some cool people in ops I have an excuse to chat to at least.

No. 2521343

>>2521327
I'm not sure. It lists visiting clients to "further increase communication between the company and its clients blabla", but the job is also hybrid and everything else makes it sound like I would mostly be coordinating things over the phone or email, so… if I had to guess, I'd say it wouldn't be one of my main tasks. Man, now that I'm reading the job listing again, I highly doubt they will call me back after the interview kek, this is way over my head.

No. 2521344

I really don’t care to be nice to you anymore you’re retarded like your mom and twice as slutty thats why you got skinned by your rat goof cousin ugly whore

No. 2521345

>>2521320
You are fucked if the transport is shitty in your city

No. 2521348

My grandmother who’s incontinent, can’t walk and has dementia and relies on everyone else for everything is complaining that I haven’t passed my driving test yet, and I feel like saying why don’t you just fucking die already so that we don’t have to wipe your fucking arse anymore? She’s literally been like this for years and she will not die. I hate her, she’s so foul and disgusting, if I ever end up like this I hope someone has the sense to put a pillow over my face because she repulses me in every single way.

No. 2521359

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I worry about my friend so much.
She got into a friendship with a bpd channer woman (will call her N) that have spent years saying the most hideous shit (/pol/pander shit, you name it, openly expressing her disgust in lesbians and gays, capping for pedos, pandering to them, calling herself one, etc…). Both of them are content creators.
When I looked more into N, i have found out that she have shared сp of her own underage friend on chans and have confessed to one of her many bfs about being sexually attracted to kids, making it obvious that she is currently pretending to be a lolicon to hide her real sexual desire to kids.
But i am so scared of talking about it to my friend. I do not want to lose her, but I can already tell she got influenced by N so much, too and it breaks my heart. But i worry even more about if I were to tell her everything and show the proofs Ive found, she wouldn't care.
the bpd-chan is trying to rebrand into a sfw wholesome chungus because people started paying attention to the shit shes been saying and doing, clearly using my friend and convincing her that everything others say is a lie too.

No. 2521372

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Unblock me so I can cyberstalk you fricken coward I’m bored.

No. 2521387

Who else losing themselves in parasocial relationships to cope with stress?

No. 2521389

>>2520635
Being drunk around people is so annoying

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No. 2521403

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>>2521329
what do you think made you sick nonna? if it's food poisoning then once you've gotten it all out you should get some relief, but if it's something like a virus and it continues then you might need medical assistance. a few years ago i got a brutal case of covid and puked for over a week until i took some prescription strength anti-vomiting meds. i hope you get some rest and feel better soon.

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Nonnas, have you ever gotten a 'yeah ok we get it' from yapping? Was it from someone close or not, and was it justified or were you reasonably hurt? I'm quiet so when it happens to me I'm taken off guard and less likely to self reflect over assuming they're a wanker. I've been on the other side but only when the yapper drunkenly repeats the topic several times. I'd like to hear other's experiences.

No. 2521414

TFW ETHAN RALPH MIGHT DIE SOON. THERE IS A GOD, FUCK YOU RALPH.

No. 2521415

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Despite being healthy I can only use fashion inspo from obese plus size women, because everything else is made for skinny stick figured models. If it looks good on a skinny model it looks like shit on me, but if it looks good on an obese woman twice my size it also looks good on me.

No. 2521431

>>2521258
You could always just not have sex with him, if he's looking for a quick fuck.
Also
>I want this moid to date me
>But if I ask him out it means he's worthless
????
>>2521261
I'm NTA?

No. 2521446

Tried to make an doctor appointment to get my asthma under control and the soonest they can see me is in June. I don't really know if I can make it by then it keeps getting worse. They cared more when I was a kid and had symptoms but now it's like "oh you're an adult? Go die then!"

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how do girls younger than me afford such big fucking houses? what job do i need?

No. 2521454

>>2521451
rich parents

No. 2521459

>>2521451
Americans always have the most enormous houses.

No. 2521472

>>2521451
if she really leaves on her own, just consider the upkeep/housekeeping, I've lived through my 20s in the same 600 sqft apartment and often wished it was even smaller for this reason alone

No. 2521478

>>2521459
So many americans are broke and struggle to even afford groceries, yet always live in huge apartments and have so many appliances that would be considered absolute luxury elsewhere. It seems like they have no idea about how to genuinely be frugal. I watched a couple of vlogs about living in the projects and the size of many of those apartments would be impossible to pay for in europe or asia. Same for their cars.

No. 2521482

>>2521451
the fucking giant paul portrait is killing me

No. 2521484

My mum needs to understand how difficult and emotionally exhausting it is pretending she wasn't massively emotionally and physically abusive towards me during my formative years and only last summer got drunk at an event I got tickets and took her too for her birthday and got a random other drunk woman to literally attack me that men had to drag off me. I have clinical depression and sometimes I just need to not fucking think about my family and focus on myself and anytime I do that something happens that she tries to make my problem even if I don't live anywhere near her. I miss when my step dad was alive but can also understand why he tapped out early.

No. 2521493

>>2521218
>>2521217
>NTA but typically when the woman pursues the man he will put in less effort into the relationship and view the woman as less desirable, which just sets your relationship up for disappointment. If he does want women to pursue him, it’s usually because he himself is passive which means he’s useless in the ways men shouldn’t be. Hope that made sense lol
Qt nona is painfully correct down to the last comma and you know it. The only ideal scenario is a pursuable man you desire pursuing you hard enough to prove the extent of the thirst in his heart.

No. 2521496

>>2521451
They're just rich, nepobabies or OF whores. Very simple!

No. 2521503

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Had an absolute melter rage at my boss today. Called in said one of my dogs is sick af, she is gasping for air. She said she'll remember this, I said I'm unfortunately out of fucks to give.
4 hours later dog is kinda fine, I'm currently without fucks but I do have a doggie asthma inhaler (I didn't know they make those?) and a very low opinion of my company.
Jfc I need to get out of here.

No. 2521508

>>2521493
Yeah that's it, I'm the original nona and my point wasn't about being a pick me, because moids actually end up disliking pick mes and women who show too much love. The problem is that in our society, men gatekeep marriage and long term relationships. And even if you, as a woman, don't want to conform to the norms, you'll get hit with a very painful reality where your moid actually doesn't really love you. Like he'll just "settle" with you and still wait for his ideal woman, you'll take the role of the mom he resents, the career woman he's jealous of, these are all very unfortunate, very common scenarios. Any relationship where a woman loves more, initiates more, or puts more effort is doomed to make her suffer, and the problem here is that in order for that to not happen, you need to luck out and by chance attract a moid you'd find genuinely attractive, and somehow have him pursue you. Basically this means you don't really have that much of a choice. You don't actually pick your man, you need to wait to be picked and then choose from that roster of men who are already into you. Men get the benefit of choosing ANY woman they desire because women, unlike men, are capable of falling in love later. Men are not like that, if a man doesn't love you from the beginning, it's game over, they're not gonna be suddenly impressed by your money, intelligence, talents (although if you do have a lot of potential they will use you for their own gain).

No. 2521510

The most evil motherfucker i had the displeasure to meet is literally THRIVING, wtf. The fucking psycho wants to become a doctor yet he's dangerous to any living being, he's earning thousands and shit rn. Why is God letting him get away with everything? he should just drop dead or at least suffer!

No. 2521512

>>2521508
And most women aren't gigastacies who have all the good looking men chasing them (and somehow still end up with ugly moids kek), most of us are gonna get picked by subpar moids, because by default most moids are subpar

No. 2521518

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i think i unironically have PTSD and don't know how to handle myself when i wake up rabid or get angry at anything, including my boyfriend, parents or friends. it makes me sad to be like this.

No. 2521521

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I love my mom, but man, she can be annoying sometimes. I just had a discussion with her about how I want to move out of this bumfuck place because I’m getting bored and for the millionth time she’s like “you’ll be tired after work there and won’t do shit”. I understand her in a sense and also the fact that she wants me near, but I feel like I’m turning a grandma at 26 and I don’t like that, I wanna feel like I lived just for a little.
I have plenty of energy now to be fair and I’m sick of waiting for the planets to align just so I can get 4 days off of work and waste 2 of them on commute just to see my friends whom I see like twice a year. I’m tired of doing just work, uni and stay in the house because I’m so isolated and I have no one my age here who isn’t either an alcoholic, a junkie or a mommyblogger. And I had enough of counting the days until the weekend or state vacations so I can do my thing for a day.
The cherry on top was when she jokingly said “you need to make a kid and have a husband and see you’ll have no time for this” right after I said that the general mentality in this town is that your life is over and can’t do fun shit after the age of 19 and I’m not pulling out my ass, most people here think like that. I have been bombarded with that quote since 12, that white picket fence life would be my worst fucking nightmare.
I love her and generally she is very liberal for this shithole anyway and a nice person, but I wish she doesn’t neg me with the “have kids” thing anymore and doesn’t belittle my decisions and choices. I’m aware that in my country and culture having a controlling parent is a given, but goddamn, I want this to stop.

No. 2521524

I finally saw my best friend from middle school again for the first time in years. I went to visit her while she's in the psych ward. It was heartbreaking to see her like that, she's completely unrecognizable.
I took her out on a supervised day pass, we got coffee and went to the beach but she couldn't go 20 minutes without throwing up. You can tell in her voice and the way she was talking that she's not all there right now. It was so hard leaving her at the hospital after our visit, I felt like I was abandoning her.

No. 2521527

so tired of hearing about people's relationships just shut the fuck up already

No. 2521531

>>2521512
That's why I got the first hot man who chased me around in a pussylock without thinking twice

No. 2521538

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FUCK the ubereats driver who KNOCKED on my door when I explicitly wrote "LEAVE AT DOOR" and picked the "LEAVE AT DOOR" option you fucking moron and FUCK my brother who was supposed to be napping who jumped out of his room at the sound of food and "took a little bit" (you fucking liar) of my bag of chips (he took SEVERAL and ate 2 chips at a time) and then proceeded to open my burger sauce dip and dip the peri-peri seasoned chips with them WHEN I USE THAT SAUCE FOR THE PLAIN CHIPS AT THE BOTTOM.
like seriously fuck you all fuck moids fuck illiterate thirdies fuck greedy brothers and fuck this gay world

No. 2521539

>>2521508
>you need to wait to be picked
How is this NOT a pickme?

No. 2521540

>>2521493
>ideal scenario
Yeah, but real life isn't ideal. This is you
>I want to date this moid
>But if I ask him out he's worthless

No. 2521541

>>2521510
Omg nona the worst man I ever met was studying to become a doctor too, he likely is one by now. He and his male classmates would sexually assault female corpses, he told me this not understanding why that was bad because the corpses were "just homeless people anyway so it's ok". Thank god he doesn't live in my country but jesus fucking christ…

No. 2521544

>>2521540
>>2521539
Just go and ask out the scrotes nonna. You’ve been shitting the threads for two days now.

No. 2521564

i think i’m finally going to write to my childhood best friend who is in federal prison for planning to do domestic terrorism. she got convicted in 2019 and we had fallen out of touch well before then but she was my first best friend when i was 14-15, and as horrified and saddened as i am about what she has chosen to become, i haven’t been able to stop myself from loving who she used to be. i don’t know exactly what i’m going to say, but we always used to mail each other letters and say all the things that felt too hard and scary and heavy to say in casual conversation. it seems like there’s nothing harder to say than “i am so sad about the person who you’ve become but i have never stopped loving the person you were” and probably i’ll find a better way to phrase that but the point is i can’t keep making myself ignore it anymore. when she first got arrested my mom saw it on the news and called me, and my first thought even then was “i should write to her” but everyone around me discouraged me which i think was fair, they just wanted to protect me and also were understandably horrified by her plans and couldn’t conceive of her as a person who could have ever been worth loving. but it has been long enough and i’ve never stopped thinking about it and her and how she ended up there that i think i just have to bite the bullet.

i know i’m not going to save her or fix her or anything like that, she got pretty thoroughly radicalized by the internet and i’m only one person that maybe, probably, she doesn’t give a shit about anymore. but i think for my own peace of mind i need to tell her how i still think about her, that there’s still at least one person on this planet who sees her and cares about her even now, even if i hate who she has chosen to become. she’s still someone to me even while she’s rotting in a federal facility for the next ten years. yesterday i was looking at the friendship bracelet she gave me 15 years ago sitting in the drawer of my jewelry box that i never open, where it always lives, where i always put it back, but today i found it on my bathroom floor and for some reason put it on for the first time since i was still a teenager and then i just couldn’t stop crying, still haven’t really stopped, and i think i’m just at capacity for holding my feelings in. the fact is that i loved her, i still love who she was, and that love has to go somewhere, even if it’s just in an envelope that some prison guards will read before she does. it does nobody any good to keep this love to myself as if it’s some burden, just because who she is now is harder to love.

No. 2521566

>>2521544
Yeah and this super duper stacy mindset surely has been working for her irl clearly

No. 2521569

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>Last week for uni
>Paper due tonight
>Revisions due Wednesday
>Need to go to court twice this week
>Late for my interview by 30 minutes.
I want to die so bad.

No. 2521572

>>2521566
Acting as if she can’t ask them out if everyone doesn’t kek. What if the nonnas here don’t want to ask the men out? It’s such a non issue.

No. 2521573

>>2521572
It’s actually better for her if us “pickmes” don’t ask men out, she’ll have less competition to sort out.

No. 2521575

i wish i was a miscarriage like i was meant to be

No. 2521592

seeing couples fight makes me feel a bit jealous because i wish i could be so intimate with someone that we'd fight

No. 2521601

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Last night I cried myself to sleep at the thought of having a baby girl. I don't want children, ever, and have felt that way my entire life, but I started to ponder what it would be like to watch her discover the world around her and form her own identity, interests and quirks that make herself. It would be so sweet. But I also started to think about all the horrible things out there that could be waiting for her, and watching her lose her spark little by little having to live in a world that is so cruel to women and girls. This is the first time I've had thoughts like this and it's scary.

No. 2521608

>>2521601
Anon this is so bittersweet, I hope you're okay

No. 2521614

i love my mother, but i want to be free. i feel very trapped here in my tiny bedroom, with a house that has no room for me to just be freely unless i am home alone. and my room is so, so tiny and crammed. my step father has made sexual comments to me before and i feel too afraid to dress up or do yoga anywhere but my bedroom. i have been non religiously praying and have been coming to understand how fear controls me. i love to be happy and silly, and society thinks you should be mature with a big girl job and your own place. the area i live, you need to dress very nice to be taken seriously. i cant even afford that. i see now why i cried and cried over girls, even younger than me, who looked all pretty and always go out and do things and post photos online. its because i miss dressing up and going on my adventures and freely being myself. but i became so petrified of judgment. i am recently unemployed and broke and have been struggling to find work, i am so nervous but i know it will be nice to have some money to dress up and go on adventures. i try to be grateful but sometimes i desire more and i know it is not good. if i live at home longer, it would just be nice to not be home so much. i want to sing and dance and dress up. im so scared sometimes! but gas is money, places are money, walking id free but sometimes not enough. maybe i need a blog. i just want to feel light and free.

No. 2521616

>>2521592
Fighting and tension is so stressful though.

No. 2521621

>>2521614
i think using lc more kind of made me worse in some ways, but perhaps thats because i used it to distract myself and feed bad thoughts. i will always be taken less seriously, come across as infantile or naive, but it is a choice i make. im well aware of many things and have intelligence, but i find that the less i use it (within reason kek) the less of an adult i force myself to be, the happier and more loving i feel. i love to feel small and insignificant, because it makes everything that much more grand. it means i can make an uncouth decision to sing anonymously about poop yet also publish an academic article. because we are multifaceted! and if it doesnt hurt another being i really dont see the impact of what someone else may say. i dont know where i am going with this but i just hope i can find some guidance and open my heart and be more loving and giving to myself. a new job is frightening, but it doesnt make it my identity. maybe i want more freedom, but it will come one day. someone living in the city with lots of friends and money is no better than one with a simple life volunteering and making things in her bedroom. just humans, thats all. and i realize the people i knew who i thought i had to fit in with by having 192827 hobbies and being super interesting and skinny were hurting very badly themselves, and they it was an endless game i wouldnt want to keep up with. maybe they enjoy it, but it was always so superficial. social climbing in raves and making music with celebrities, posting schizo rambles and doing anything to be unique. i used to think these people were demons kek, but truly they wear their pain on the same sleeve they wear their “status”

No. 2521622

>>2521616
yeah only looks good when youre not in it

No. 2521624

A prescription crucial to maintaining my chronic condition is over a week late, and it's creeping up on two weeks late. My condition has taken a fucking nosedive and now I'm sick pretty much every day, irritable and angry because I feel like fucking shit ALL DAY. I'm so pissed and all I want to do is cry and get my FUCKING PRESCRIPTION THAT SHOULD HAVE BEEN HERE A WEEK AGO but I just feel so numb to the fact that my life is controlled in such a manner. All it takes is a distributing issue and my fucking life is utterly fucked. I'm so fucking upset. There's no urgency either, every nurse and pharmacy tech is saying to just have it sent to another pharmacy and I just want to smash my skull with a brick because NO OTHER PHARMACY WILL BE ABLE TO GET MY PRESCRIPTION IN. I'm so fucking upset, I literally can feel myself becoming more and more unwell as the days tick by. Fuck this fuck this fuck this fuck this. I have to avoid friends and family because my patience is running lower and lower every day and I am not looking to blowing up at the people closest to me. I fucking hate this. I'm scared as fuck.

No. 2521629

I've been with my partner for almost 10 years now. Since december things have been going down hill, it’s not the first time but surely it’s the most painful one because now it seems like it’s coming to an end, it’s real.
He has never been emotional responsible. I knew that since the begunning. And he also has some major red flags but I guess love is blind and I decided to love him no matter what even when I knew he didn’t deserve it sometimes.
At times he wasn’t that bad, he took care of me and I guess at some point he truly loved me. The worst part was when he got angry or mad at me. I have anxious attachment and he basically used the silent treatment then so you can imagine how torturous it was for me.
Now I feel heartbroken because I feel like he’s losing his love for me (trust me, when you know, you know), and the thing that hurts the most is not losing someone like him (he has some good parts but also some negative ones that are too difficult to ignore), either having spent so much time with him, what hurts the most it’s the fact that I believed that this was love for such a long time.
I changed the way I acted, the way I used to be with other people, even the way I thought sometimes and I did it all because I thought that was what love was supposed to mean. And this is what hurts me the most, thinking I’m like a shadow of what I was once, and even when I know it’s not true, I felt like I lost that part of me, that spark. I don’t know how he made me think that it was normal not to speak to me for two whole days and then just caress my hand or my back without even talking about it and everything else was fine again as if nothing had happened. This was a routine for me. If he did told me that he loved me too after an argument (even when he used some insults like retard or asshole), it would mean that we were fine again, I was safe.
I feel truly pathetic having to write this because if it was some of my friends telling me this I’d tell them to get away as soon as possible but here I am, crying about someone who doesn’t deserve it and about the person he turned me into.

No. 2521634

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I am deathly afraid of what this weekend's elections will look like.
It will be a nightmare to survive with the euro going up and the war on our doorstep. I feel soo stupid for being unprepared. I should've never gone to art school, I should've saved my time to get into something that can get me out. Now I have to do it all over again.

I've tried staying calm, but it's catching up to me. I look at people around me and I get parranoid. I know that if, god forbit, he wins, I'll watch the people around me crumble.
My end of year project is in a couple of months, I feel spent. I feel like I'm running 100km/hour on no energy. I'm soo scared, and everyone is looking at me for solutions. My friends, my bf, and I have nowhere to look. I'm all alone.

No. 2521643

>>2521634
romanian? if so then me too

No. 2521660

i hate sex and sexuality and i hate societies views on virginity and "body count" and i hate mens sexualities and preferences. i hate how theyre controlled by their lust and you cant engage in any fan community without some vile xy defect posting his softcore porn to get off on his exhibitonism fetish. i legit wish i was a different species thats entirely asexual and just does mitosis or some shit. humanity would literally be prospering so much more if sex didnt exist im so serious

No. 2521662

>>2521660
>societies views on virginity and "body count"
can you elaborate

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>>2521608
Thank you for caring, nona, I am feeling better after sleeping it off. I have a lot more compassion and respect for mothers now than I did before, especially mine.

No. 2521665

>>2521662
i dont really know what to add it just disgusts me when people talk about that shit. im just really sex repulsed in general my whole life and it sucks because everybody on this planet is so obsessed with sex it makes them retarded

No. 2521666

>>2521544
I do
>>2521566
It has
>>2521572
>>2521573
I'm trying to help you

No. 2521679

I really want a child but I don't want a husband nor do I want to struggle raising it

No. 2521682

>>2521679
How do you feel about adoption then?

No. 2521686

my father had cancer last year in his throat, tongue, etc. it has come back more aggressive and we will be finding out today what his treatment plan will be because he can no longer do radiation. i only know these details because of my dear sister.

my father physically and emotionally abused me until age 12. i am not sure if he ever did anything sexual because so much of it has remained blocked off. after the divorce he was absent from my life. i tried to have a relationship once i did some healing but he never apologized or cared for me, it was always about him, and it made it hard for me. i gave up a few years ago, until he had the first cancer. i thought he would change, but he didnt. he lied to family and said i never reached out, despite proof, he denied the abuse again, never was there for any terrible moment in my life, etc. his damage to me as a young girl has stunted me to where i have spent so much money, time, lost so much healing due to how he made me feel and see myself. i have forgiven him sometimes, mostly. i know he is human.

but i am scared for him. this is cancer and he is a human being. once i wished him dead and i worry—did i cause this? i never wanted him to suffer. it feels strange. shouldnt i be glad? i only wanted his love, i wanted him to be my father who loved me. he did unimaginable things to me. and now he might be dying, if not now, i think in the next few years with this recurrent cancer issue. i used to think about the money i may get from his death, how i deserve it anyway. but now it makes me sick to think about gaining money from someones death. someone who was hurt worse than i was as a child, and suffered on his death bed, maybe. most likely. sometimes i wonder if i will he relieved because i will no longer spend time subconsciously hoping my father will be someone different. its very confusing. i feel so much guilt for not just forgiving him, but i tried. it was so hard. i was so little. he never did a thing for me, my mom single handedly raised me, and he hardly helped my sister. im just confused. the money would help but it feels wrong. its just money.

No. 2521709

Is there any hope for me to make money without being stuck in customer service loop? I only have an useless arts degree, and not enough talent to make it as an artist so I had to suck it up and work minimum wage shitty fast food jobs that I absolutely loathed. I managed to upgrade, although I'm still living with scraps and now I work front desk, but I'm so tired of dealing with people every day and the shifts are so tiring, so many karens and the tension is high. Better than cleaning kitchen grease but still far from ideal. I wanted to try teaching, but kids these days are a fucking nightmare to deal with, and idk if if's a good trade off. Sometimes I feel like I'd be better off with a basic office job, but I don't have any credentials for it. I feel so lost in life. I don't even have enough charisma to pull off working in customer service. I'm not even that likeable of a person, it was just the only entry level job I could find.

No. 2521713

>>2521660
I agree with you nonna. I hate how sex crazed our society is.

No. 2521729

>>2521686
If we could give cancer with only the power of our minds then any abused person would be able to kill their abuser. It’s normal to feel weird and have mixed feelings about it nonna, it’s both okay to be “sad” , to be “relieved” and to be at peace with the fact that he’ll most likely die too.
I don’t feel like you don’t deserve that money, you do deserve it, so don’t feel ashamed to take it.

No. 2521733

>>2521686
I totally understand its your dad and youll always have familial love for him but youre being way too nice to him in general. This guy literally abused you as an innocent defenseless child… If theres any category of people that I could say deserve cancer, it would be them

No. 2521742

i saw a pic of my young bf and me, and damn he was really cute and kind of mogged me. i still find him very cute now but he's got a little comfortable with his weight and is very slowly hitting the moid wall. his skin is better than mine and looks his age but he needs to stop drinking or either will hit the moid wall very hard.

No. 2521783

Never in my life have I ever been allergic to pollen. Come to find out that I have suddenly developed an allergy to it. This sucks and I take back every single joke or jab I have ever said to people with pollen allergies

No. 2521808

How does one make night time loneliness go away besides masturbating?

No. 2521809

>>2521403
I think it was a food I ate, I know the specific one so I threw it all out. Thank you anon for the encouragement and sweet pic. I feel a lot better after sleeping, im gonna eat some food and drink some water and Gatorade to re-nourish myself.

No. 2521811

>>2521686
hi anon i am another person with an emotionally absent dad who pretty much never wanted to spend time with me and when i went over to his house every other weekend he just ignored me and drank. pretty sure he's also going to die soon because he drank most of his life and did a lot of drugs so cancer is probably gonna get him too. i don't know what i'm going to do, probably feel some sadness that i never got to experience a father, but i also don't even know if i plan to go see him in the hospital or attend his funeral. who is he? i don't know. i have 2 sisters and a brother on his side that are literal strangers to me aside from the half-brother calling from jail one time asking if he could stay at my place because he was getting out. so weird.

i never wished my father to die but i just don't care what happens to him. if he leaves you money, it's at least one way to apologize, look at it that way. it's not your fault that your dad wasn't interested in being in your life. shit happens. they have their own issues to deal with. and you're hardly alone, actually i think it's about 50/50 that a child will grow up with a loving father and possibly even less because men suck and abandon their kids all the time.

No. 2521816

>>2521411
I think that depending on the person and topic, it can be "justified" but at the same time it's reasonable to be hurt by someone dismissing you like that, whether it's a friend or a stranger.

No. 2521817

All the stores near me have stopped selling the hair product I've been using for years. Tried using a similar product by the same brand but it's just not the same and my hairs been shit since using it. I haven't been able to find anything on google explaining why it just disappeared off the shelves one day. One store has the option to buy it online but I'm a little iffy on doing that because I feel like my order will be cancelled or messed up somehow considering I can't find this product ANYWHERE anymore. Amazon also sells it but only through sketchy sellers and for almost triple the price I've been paying in store. Ugh wtf.

No. 2521820

zoomzooms always whining about how gross cigarettes are but they vape. it's the same thing. except smoking is cooler

No. 2521828

i decided to treat myself and bought a fancy new $500 oled monitor on friday. i fucking scratched it and left a visible divot in the coating right in the middle of the screen like an absolute retard. i wasn't careful with the hdmi cable, it slipped out of my hand and right into the monitor. i bought on an hour and a half trip to a microcenter in another town. i'm going to fucking kill myself.

No. 2521831

>>2521709
I have a semi-useless "digital humanities" degree that I used to get into a temp office job making calls. I worked my way up for a few years into an IT apprenticeship with little tech knowledge. It's definitely possible, but you have to be willing to start from the bottom and take what you can get at first.

No. 2521835

>>2521828
can you still return it pretending you didnt use it?

No. 2521862

i'm so lonely
it's so over for me
i don't know how i'll make it iwthout killing myself
surely ina few years ill kms
i hate myself
i need to stop being so weak
i need to do better
im a piece of crap
im useless
im not good enough
i dont deserve anything
i'll never make it
i'm horny
i need help
i like looking at pretty men
i hate myself
if i speak one day something will happen and someone will come save me
someone will come and save me
for now salvation is sleep

No. 2521870

>>2521820
Zoomzooms smoke cigarettes what are you even talking about.

No. 2521885

i wish someone would comfort me.

No. 2521898

>>2521862
I thought this was the old akon song

No. 2521901

>>2521898
Nta same and I will admit I started singing it with the chipmunk voice in my head kek

No. 2521907

I'm so fucking mad about my teeth. I've already had 5 root canals, went for a checkup today and found out yet another tooth has a massive cavity that's encroaching on the nerve and I need another root canal for it ASAP as I'm leaving the country for 3 months in a couple days.
I seriously don't understand how my luck got so shitty with dental hygiene. I brush twice a day and floss every day. I never, ever drink soda or energy drinks, never eat hard or sticky candy or foods. The most sugar I consume is in the form of chocolate, and my hygienist told me that's actually the 'safest' sweets as it breaks down enzymes the fastest. I never smoke and I drink alcohol maybe once or twice a month. I have friends who never floss, constantly drink soda and smoke, and eat like shit, and yet they've had maybe two cavities in their life. It's just embarrassing for me at this point.

No. 2521908

The thing that infuriates me about men making passes at me while I’m at work is the man assuming his dick is more important than my livelihood.

No. 2521910

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>>2521885
It’ll be okay nonny, things might be difficult now but that doesn’t mean they’ll always be

No. 2521916

>>2521862
real shit

No. 2521920

life is strange and ironic
made my mom sick with my codependency and my mental illness for years
i finally find recovery and healing, but am now codependent with an addict i met in treatment, and it’s also romantically
i had no friends and felt like my mom was responsible for me
this girl has no friends so i’m one of the few people in her life so i feel so guilty but i can’t be responsible for her recovery, i need to focus on my own recovery and progressing my life
all i can hope is that she finds more support and that she can recover for own sake

No. 2521921

>>2521907
It really do be the genetics some time

No. 2521933

i dont know how to handle being around my mother anymore. i cant leave because im broke in uni rn + living in an ultra religious community makes things exponentially harder. she makes negative comments about everything, every single thing that i do and wear and say. even when im happy its like shes knocking me down on purpose. for example i was really happy about getting some hair products cheap for a buy one get one free sale i wasnt even aware about, and when i got home she took the bag from me and pulled out the stuff i got and went "you wasted your money on this? its just gonna make you bald". thats just one example out of so many, she has her good moments of course but 9/10 i come out of every interaction with her just wanting to cry because it feels like she doesn't care about me as a person. the only time she ever "cares" is when shes telling me what i can and cant do/wear (im 20 by the way). sometimes i just ignore her but other times its just easier to go along with it. i feel like half a person, my dad acknowledges her behavior and how nonsensical it is (im only scratching the surface) but then he waves it away like "at the end of the day shes your mom, you have to respect her". i just feel so hopeless, like theres literally nothing i can do. i was excited to be one with uni for the summer but now i realize ill be spending more time dealing with her and im spiraling. i've tried just ignoring her words but they still cut deep. i feel so sad when i see people hanging out with their moms bc that will never really be me. its so pathetic but when older women are nice to me i start wishing my mom acted like them or that they were my mom instead (so fucking lame i know). i cant even say that i hate her i just ont like being around her and wish i could leave one way or another, im at such a loss, i just dont know anymore.

No. 2521995

lol this dumbass dickhead projecting so much. so afraid we talk shit about him, he's probably the one talking shit about us.

No. 2521996

>>2521820
I don't smell like doo doo shit all the time on my fingers and hands like I did when I smoked cigarettes. My clothes don't smell like shit. You wouldn't know if I did any kind of nicotine product unless you saw me take out the vape. Don't get me wrong, vapes will probably give me a new type of cancer or some lung deformity that is novel and unlike the regular cancers or deformities that cigarettes give
but at least I don't smell like fucking shit all the time and my mouth doesn't taste like shit. millenial btw

No. 2522009

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would it be ridiculous as a mid 20 year old with no friends or things to do to go out at night alone and take photos and videos dressed up? im tired of sitting in my room alone when i cant occupy myself with retsrd hobbies. i have no obligations that require me to be anywhere and not much money to do random hobbies. and im tired of it yet im scared to just go do something because i feel unsafe or awkward and ahve no clue what to do. and what if i look fucking retarded dressing up?

No. 2522013

>>2522009
Go for it, why not? Even if you go out and decide you hate it at least you can say you tried. It just means you can try to do something else next time

No. 2522019

>>2522013
well, now im considering what if i posted a silly video online dancing around? what if a future employer found it, even if there was nothing “terrible” about it. what would they think of me, being so immature?

i begin to wonder if this is OCD talking, thinking up all of the scenarios as to why i cannot do this.

i will work up the courage to take your advice. i really need to start somewhere, or else im doomed

No. 2522026

fuck my stupid life. i spent three hours cleaning because my dad has bad allergies but i'm behind on work. i'm so fucked and i also stress ate so i can't go to bed early and start early tomorrow.

No. 2522030

>>2522019
That’s the anxiety talking nona, and the best way to treat anxiety is to unfortunately do the things that make you anxious. Literally no employer will care if you went somewhere and danced for fun. Even if you end up being the president I doubt anyone would care. Fwiw, when I would go out with friends we ran into women who were out on their own often and adopted them into our group. If I saw you out and about I would invite you too. You’ll be okay.

No. 2522040

Can this retard stop opening my mail? It's a crime y'know, doesn't matter that we live under the same house. That won't deter him though since he keeps saying "whatcha gonna do, report me?" His paranoid ass is concerned someone might be sending mail to our door that's secretly some biohazard or something like 1) you're not special, nobody wants to poison you but I'd be glad if they did and 2) don't think biohazards would be allowed to be shipped like that.

No. 2522063

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>>2521601
I know what you mean nona. Sometimes I think how wonderful having a daughter would be, but then I remember how fucked up the world is right now and how much I'm likely to fuck her up due to my own poor upbringing. It's why I'm so child free.

No. 2522064

>>2520089
Same Nona, mine's been falling a lot lately. Hit her head bad a month ago and again lightly today. CT shows nothing, MRI in two weeks, neuro follow-up after that. Could just be her spine. IDK it's scary. She's my best friend.

No. 2522068

i only feel love if it’s obsession but then i end up feeling afraid and disgusted by their obsession
i want it but then i punish them for it
but non-obsession feels like neglect, disinterest, rejection
yet i justify myself when i’m an obsessive lover

No. 2522080

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My forgetfulness has gotten increasingly bad over the years and it scares me, to be honest. Of course, no one is taking me seriously and just telling me it must be from stress or something but it's happening even now..when I have nothing to be stressed about. I just got up to get a new water bottle and not less than 5 minutes I don't know what the hell I did with it or where I put it, so I just went to get another one. I still can't remember which light is for what in my own apartment or what gate code was for what. I've almost thrown my keys in the trash before after forgetting they were already in my hand. One of these days I feel like I will wake up having forgotten my own name. I've always been clumsy but over the years it has gotten progressively worse. It's like some early onset dementia, ugh.

No. 2522086

>>2522068
Are you BPD?

No. 2522087

>>2522086
nta this isn't always bpd

No. 2522094

I'm actually starting to suspect I'm a bippie but the kinda shit (handmaiden) psych I've been seeing keeps subtly calling me an autistic retard that can't be helped with therapy

I've gotten the questionnaire before but recognized it being about BPDemons and didn't answer truthfully kek

No. 2522111

I hate being a woman like why do I have to wait for the guy to make a move. Why can’t I just be like hey I like you because that’s “easy” like why do I have to play these stupid games and be coy and flirt and hope he gets the hint UGHH

No. 2522114

>>2522111
wasnt there a huge infight about this a few days ago

No. 2522116

>>2522114
I did not witness it if there was, just voicing my own personal frustrations

No. 2522144

There was another fucking roach in my room. God I'm so fucking scared of roaches. My fucking cat didn't do shit.

No. 2522145

>>2522111
jfc why can't you make the first move

No. 2522149

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Finally got my number changed after getting a shit ton of "no caller ID" calls–which I couldn't block the number directly, instead only being able to block all unknown calls, which is difficult due to my job–because the police basically laughed me out. I have a moid compsci friend who was able to get his full name, and I'm a bit hesitant to do a lot with it since he's the same age as me (21-years-old/autismo zoomer), but it does help a lot. Still deliberating, because the police acted like I was retarded, but that doesn't mean it doesn't have merit in a courtroom. To conclude: total moid death, now.

No. 2522150

>>2522145
I mean I can but I’m worried about stupid intangible concepts like being too “desperate” or embarrassing myself

No. 2522151

>>2522145
princess mindset waiting to get "picked up"
she already knows he's just a scrote about to abuse her insecurities so she'd rather be playing waiting games instead

No. 2522153

>>2521660
This is so true

No. 2522157

>>2522151
Not really I guess I just have internalized a lot about how women who make the first move
make themselves look to easy
also ptsd from asking out a boy as a young child

No. 2522160

>>2522151
>princess mindset
No that’s just not being retarded, if you go after a man you’re giving him an ego boost which will make him treat you like shit when he sees himself as the prize in the relationship. Women should never be the ones to beg because we’re the ones that are allowed to choose, not men. If a moid isn’t vying for your attention then he isn’t worth giving any of your time.

No. 2522161

Life is much simpler when you give up on scrotes, highly recommend it

No. 2522163

>>2522160
>we’re the ones that are allowed to choose
ironic considering how she's whining about not feeling able to

No. 2522164

>>2522163
Since you have a different opinion on this, do you think I should just shoot my shot

No. 2522168

>>2522164
you're asking a terminal virgin, but my mindset? damned if you do, damned if you don't
besides I don't see how there's anything wrong with being pushy as long as you bring your expectations with you and make them clear early on, just be ready to cut your losses if he turns out not to give a shit, but you wasting time "hinting" at him is not going to affect this result either way

No. 2522171

>>2522160
>>2522164
Nta but from experience I wouldn't advise it, moids are 10x more garbage when they didn't want you first. Hitting on a guy is the best way to have him be like "I'm not that into her but… free sex??"

No. 2522194

Sitting here like "huh I wonder why my mac laptop is suddenly overheating on the regular" only to spot the little "system update available" notification. Ah. Every time. Then magically updating fixes the hardware issues every time… they HAVE to be doing it on purpose to force people to update but I never see anyone talk about it

No. 2522197

>>2522171
That's why women "traditionally" don't directly hit on a guy, you just signal that you might be interested to make him make the actual first move to ask you out. Make them think they made the decision first.

No. 2522211

>>2522168
>>2522171
i normally wouldnt but hes like my exact (fairly rare) type physically and its driving me crazy and making me want to risk it all, thanks for the advice nonnies

>>2522197
ok im a terminal autist how do I do this like practically. all I know how to do is say haha youre taller than me THATS IT.

No. 2522221

>>2522211
idk this is all just theoretical for me
but what are you even expecting to get out of this? like, realistically, considering he doesn't even seem to have noticed you
if you're just horny for him you might only end up with what you deserve, at best, or just get rejected, at worst

No. 2522229

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I was working on my last theology assignment for the semester, asked my partner if I can freely edit and combine out text because I am better at grammar and we're had issues earlier because I trusted her to know how to fucking spell. My fault for not double checking but it's frustrating almost getting full marks but this bitch can't write biblical shit correctly, but anyways. She gives me her permission to edit everything, thanks me and I ask her to give me her source list. She suddenly doesn't reply, I take a look at her fucking text and no way did she write this fully on her own. It looks like a mix of A.I and/or she rewrote partly answers from A.I. I can't do shit with this at this point so I'm just working on my own stuff at this point, but I bet she is panicking now, trying to come up with something because she was too dumb to make sure it was from the approved source materials.

No. 2522232

>>2522229
Samefag, I am so tired and this is full of typos, I promise I write better in my native language.

No. 2522237

>>2521478
They’ve just got much more space than Europeans so it makes sense. I’ve seen them laugh at us and act like we are dirty and gross because we have our washing machines in the kitchen instead of their own special room…there’s so much that they could look down on us for and they choose that, it’s hilarious.

No. 2522243

>>2522009
>would it be ridiculous to go out at night alone
No
>and take photos and videos of myself dressed up
…kind of? Not sure why you’d want to do this. Then again I’m not a selfie person, but it seems kind of self absorbed.

No. 2522270

test

No. 2522273

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I hate that I feel like there’s no way for me to look presentable. I feel so pathetic when I see how other people dress, because compared to them I look like someone who just rolled out of bed and didn’t put in the slightest effort to look decent, which, to be fair, is kind of true. Everything about me seems to contribute to looking (or feeling) messy: my wavy hair looks like a puffball if I brush it, stringy if I don’t, and greasy or dirty if I use styling products. I’m overweight, so most clothes look bad on me, and the ones that actually fit well usually make me feel super uncomfortable, plus they don’t feel like “me” at all. Basically, my autistic ass makes it really hard for me to wear anything that isn’t at least a little baggy or oversized. I hate shopping for clothes, there’s just no way for me to tell if something will actually look good. I hate makeup and have zero interest in learning how to use it. I really wish I could look put together, but it honestly feels impossible for me, I really don't know how people manage to look good.

No. 2522274

>>2522273
>posts conventionally beautiful woman with eye bags
>this is supposed to be ugly
kek

No. 2522276

>>2522274
She looks good, but was impossible to find a pic of what I described kek seems like words like frumpy and sloppy are now aesthetics.

No. 2522277

>>2522273
Who is this? Most beautiful woman I’ve ever seen.

No. 2522284

>>2522068
It seems you are ok with 'obsession' (love) and only have self-esteem issues preventing you from accepting it

No. 2522293

Today I accidentally found out my absent father's name and did a lot of research into his life. He has a son and daughter two and three years younger than me who he is an involved and caring father to. His daughter is the complete opposite of me, and all I can think about is how he would probably be so relieved to know he decided to be a father to the pretty, blonde, social, "normal" girl instead and if he knew anything about me he would be glad of his choice. I never thought I'd care about this kind of thing, I never wanted to seek him out or know anything about him because he chose to abandon me with my abusive mother most likely knowing exactly what she is like and I wanted nothing to do with him because of that, but I have done nothing but stalk his kids on every social media platform for hours. He constantly posts about them on his Facebook too, talking about how much he loves and is proud of them, and his bio says he is a 'happy father of two'. I doubt he ever even thinks about me, I wish I never found out his name at all and I hate myself for being affected by this after telling myself for years that I didn't care at all.

No. 2522296

>>2522068
I feel similarly. It's because I'm not convinced anyone actually cares about me unless they're threatening to kill themselves over it but I also hate clinginess.

No. 2522308

I was just starting to get better, barely better, but better than the last few days. Got sick all over again and I feel like I'm back to square one. I don't think this is "just allergies" or "a little cold" I think I have pneumonia. Of course nobody fucking cares to even check.

No. 2522322

>>2521682
Contrary to popular belief, there aren't countless kids waiting around in orphanages, ready to be adopted. The most OP could do is foster children, but they almost always go back to their biological family.

No. 2522331

>>2522150
>complains about being single
>makes no effort to date
either try or quit complaining

No. 2522339

>>2522171
Then don't give him the free sex?

No. 2522348

>go to the library to study
>highschoolers are talking outloud
>woman drags her screeching child inside
>woman has head phones but sound so loud i can hear it
what the actual fuck is this, what happened to librairies

No. 2522349

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I showed my tif friend some tarot inspired cartoon art and the first thing she came with was "that's offensive" ??? you are drawing your own tarot deck with your yaoi self insert, you have no say in the matter
I'm bitter because the same day, I showed her and my other friend a cartoon I found I really liked and it was like she made an effort to say "thats lame" everytime she could. I don't know if I was ever rude to her without realizing, or that I'm rude to her in response to her behaviour.
I wish I couldn't be her friend anymore but it's hard kek.I'm lonely and a big nerd, I can't get along with normies.

No. 2522354

>>2522348
was this a uni library or a public one?

No. 2522355

>>2522349
She's a TIF nona, they're nothing if not insane and bitter about literally everything in the world.

No. 2522361

>>2522349
Anon, the thing about TIFs is that while some gendercrit folks claim they troon to escape the confines of femalehood, they are ironically some of the biggest "competitors" in social situations with other females. This goes for nonbinary women too. If a TIF or a female enby says some rude backhanded shit to you that's an immediate tell that they are threatened by you, either in looks or personality or interests or knowledge.

No. 2522367

Hate this stupid ass job, why should I learn more skills to climb the ladder in something idgaf about? I don't aspire to be any of them, so why should I follow in their footsteps? Hate when they try to drag me to chat during lunch and "share" their wisdom. I don't care! I don't aspire to be you so why should I listen to your advice?

No. 2522371

>>2522361
makes sense and it shows. when I like something she says something that directly or indirectly is a "stop it".
I like apples too much, she comes up with "oh the day she quits liking apples it would be a miracle"

No. 2522376

>>2522221
Yeah I basically made the same calculus in my head, also nah he’s my friend and we have went out for coffee a few times, also to answer your question I don’t know what I want to get out of this but my animus is screaming at me

No. 2522379

>>2522371
Anon you need to start being a mean bitch back. She is rude to you because you allow it and because she is threatened by you. Nit saying to tell her to kill herself but moreso dampen that eagerness for friendship and the excitement of talking to friend and never forget she's an insecure person that needs a punching bag because, ultimately, it is her that believes she has no real talent or skill. That's why she's rude.

No. 2522399

I genuinely cannot stand the type of woman with this deep-seated "male romanticism". It's like a grown-up pickme NLOG, because the woman with male romanticism might say she dislikes pickmes and NLOGs, she might put up a front of yay girl power fuck men they suck! But it's obvious she holds males in a MUCH higher esteem than females. She reads only books written by males, she watches only movies directed and written by males, she's Totally Cool with rape scenes but she has a problem with the lack of representation of other physical violence against women (in some twisted, perverted sense of feminism I guess), she's a serial monogamist constantly claiming this this will be the time she spends alone for the first time (but then enters a new relationship with a loser of the same caliber as the others), has an insane amount of guy friends, feels like there's no reason to feel weird about hanging out with males who have girlfriends alone (she doesn't invite the girlfriend to hang out, ever), she takes the male's side all the time because women can be bad too don't you know! Loves talking shit about female majority interests when her own interests are just maleslop and male consoomerism slop. She's otherwise nice, but you just get the sense that you can never trust her. It's so annoying being around these types because at least you expect retardation from a more identifiable NLOG and pickme but this girl will be nice and fine and then she does her whole "upper register" giggly voice with her "male friends" and suddenly reality hits you like a brick, you just cannot trust this woman and you have nothing to really fall back on but it's just the general energy that's off.

No. 2522412

>>2522293
You deserve so much better. I know it doesn’t count for much, but I love you and I’m proud of you. You deserve to feel proud of yourself. He probably ignored your existence out of shame because he knows he’s a failure and a coward and doesn’t want to acknowledge that.

No. 2522413

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i was so retarded at work today. i hate letting my coworkers down, they're all such nice educated ladies and i'm just a dumbass college dropout. idk what's wrong with me today, i usually don't fuck up that bad (or fuck up at all)

No. 2522433

sometimes i come here just to confirm that there are bigger fuck ups than me

No. 2522483

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i cant post here anymore because im being gangstalked by my crazy toxic ex, bye lolcor was nice knowing you

No. 2522485

>>2522483
Where does he live I’ll kill him

No. 2522494

>>2522293
>stalk his kids
You mean… your half-siblings. Even if you don't want to contact him you could still let your siblings know you exist and that he abandoned you to an abusive woman. They likely have no idea and they deserve to know he did that.

No. 2522502

>>2522494
Nta but that would be so funny. Nonna please innocently contact your siblings.

No. 2522503

The Christmas flirt waiter seems to have deleted me from snapchat, I was sick for a bit and didn't feel like writing only meaningless bullshit… but I'll be going back there next christmas and he'll still be working there and how fucking awkward is that. How do you behave? He asked me out first ffs. Don't have to delete me when I don't reply for a week or two… never even told me anything interesting about his life, work, friends or family and i won't be keeping a conversation alive for hooking up alone..
What did he expect anyway?

No. 2522507

>>2522483
collect evidence of the stalking just in case you want to report it to police but don't let this retard dictate your life and what you do on the internet. don't give in to paranoia and never give this person any attention ever again

No. 2522519

I have constant feelings of guilt and terror with no identifiable source

No. 2522525

Didn't get hired AGAIN.

No. 2522529

>>2522525
many such cases

No. 2522536

>>2522483
Nona it’s an anonymous site. Even if it were true that they were stalking you…how would they know any post is from you unless you spill too much personal info? Do what you think is best but this is a little paranoid.

No. 2522547

I feel like I’m irreparably fucking up my life at the moment. Go to my college classes and then go home and immediately start getting high :( I have a 0% in an important math class because I just haven’t gone to class and haven’t done homework wtf. Also haven’t had motivation to refill my adhd meds because it’s so difficult in my city I’ve just started fucking juuling kek. I need to start shaming myself(:( )

No. 2522548

>>2522483
Dox him here

No. 2522558

File: 1747162747625.jpg (23.55 KB, 736x493, 1000018906.jpg)

When I'm struggling to cope I imagine myself in various abusive situations as the victim. I have been abused in my life but the situations I imagine aren't identical to what happened to me, the events play out differently, usually much more violent or severe. I don't know exactly why I do this, I think it's my brain trying to tell me, "look on the bright side, it wasn't as bad as it could've been!" but I'm retarded so it got jumbled up into something else. It makes me feel like a bad person and it's something I haven't told anyone about, I'm afraid people will think I'm glorifying those things or that I want them to happen to me. All I know is that it relaxes me, when it really shouldn't.

No. 2522580

>>2522229
Update, I straight up asked if she wrote this herself or was this A.I and she never explicitly denied she did. She told me her fucking dad gave her some of the info and she just googled some of the years, I just told I don't buy it and it's gonna get deleted.

No. 2522589

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>>2522584
>hummace

No. 2522591

>>2522584
>arent supposed to eat more than like eggs in a week
how many? kek

No. 2522593

>>2522584
Don't worry, that's old information. You can eat as many eggs as you want. This one doctor from Harvard ate 700 eggs in a month to see how it affected his cholesterol and he was fine.
So eat away, but make sure you're getting plenty of nutrients by also eating fruits and veggies.

No. 2522596

>>2522591
anon really posted a full on cryptic message, maybe she is God

No. 2522597

>>2522596
If she ate more eggs she would've ascended

No. 2522598

>>2522597
her hummace in tow

No. 2522599

Noooo, she deleted it. I am sorry, anon.

No. 2522603

>>2522593
That's like 23 eggs per day

No. 2522615

>>2520483
im sorry nonna, my mum died a little less than two years ago and its awful. her love lives in you now and your pain is evidence of that. she wouldn't want you to be sad. as long as you remember her your mother's love and spirit lives.

No. 2522646

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Everyone is just on my nerves today. Coworkers, clients, neighbors. The receptionist at the doctor’s office. Why am I so aggro today…

No. 2522657

I guess I matured because I didn't give up in the middle of something but it's so hard everytime I just really want to give up and it makes me cry that I still feel this pathetic about life

No. 2522666

i had one conversation with this guy in class and he asked for my number and my retarded ass gave him my actual number (never again) i dont reply to his text bc he kinda scared me with the forward-ness and he sends an email to my school email, wtf. we had one conversation dude i dont even know you. its gonna be so fucking awkward if i have a class with this guy in my last few semesters, ugh

No. 2522681

not only am i a piece of crap im also a useless piece of crap

No. 2522683

if i have to do one more nightshift ill… idk what ill do ill probably just nap on my desk

No. 2522684

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I just found out my mom has been telling people i am autistic(i am not) all because she cant cope with having a loser daughter.

No. 2522695

why cant i feel fine no matter what i do, will i ever feel fine?
i feel like im constantly running away from a horrible unavoidable fate, is this normal? is this how the human brain is supposed to function?
in a way this feeling is useful because it keeps me doing things but no matter how much i achieve i always feel like it's not enough to keep me "safe" and i go on to the next thing

No. 2522706

i love men with a proeminent adams apple, very pretty
do you guys think i'll ever have a pretty boyfriend? of course his soul would have to be just as pretty
just want to spend a relaxing weekend with a pretty man, is it too much to ask?

No. 2522801

i hate men jesus christ i hate this stupid guy i talk to i beg and beg for emotional connection and he never gives me that to a point where i have just pulled away from him knowing he will just get mad at me and rope me back in anyway when he gives me the bare minimum fuck lol i want my ex back or not date at all sorry for sounding like a raging fag im just tired

No. 2522808

I feel like i'm just going to end up killing myself even if it hurts my mother and the rest of my family. I have nothing to live for, nothing i like to do that makes it worth fighting off my OCD and i have nothing but hatred and disgust for the society around me. I'm never going to be able to manage my OCD that has taken up every inch of my life and get out of my own head because i don't want to, the real world doesn't interest me and it is torture. I'm not smart or beautiful, at best i'm just going to spend the rest of my life as a wageslave waking up at 5 am and coming home to 6 pm to cook, clean and do laundry and when im done i'll have no time for myself. Even if i had money i would still hate myself and because i'm an autistic incomplete retard who doesn't know how to talk to people. Money, meds or going outside isn't going to fix me, i need a completely different brain. It pisses me off that i have to kill myself and that there is no other way out.

No. 2522814

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Found another roach in my room.
That's not allowed. My room should be the only place where there isn't filth. That was the rule. I make sure of it. It's the only clean place. It's mine. It was supposed to be the only place I can somewhat escape. It was suppoised to be mine.

It's filthy now. It's dizgusting. I live in absolute filth. I'll have roaches in my ears and mouth and every other hole in my body. They're going to crawl inside me ainfect me when I least expect it. I don't want to be ruined again. I don't want it. Why are they here? One is a coincidence, but another one the next day is too much.

They most probably come from the attick. My closet is made in a spefifically shitty way where it's basically another door in my room leading to a plywood box taking space in the storage closet. The storage closet has a ladder leading to the attick where the door is always open bc our cats come throu there. It has an opening at the top of the closet and that's where they sneak in. I can't close it either cause then I get thretned with violence and everything is my fault.

I am aware of what I'm thinking, I don't care. This was supposed to be MY place. I was supposed to draw a bit and then try to reconnect with my husbando. But he'll never want me. Not in a simulation, not in my dreams, not im my mind. I'm disgusting. I live in piles and piles and moutains of waste. I don't deserve humanity nor love and for that I should be punished. This is filthy.
They're going to crawl into me and ruin me. They're going to burrow in me because I'm an awful person. It's my fault I can't keep everyithing nice and tidy. I wish my bf got his shit together, I need my rock back now before I do somehting stupid. We used to be soo tight, then he had to go on and ruin the peace with his anxieties and constant need for atention and validation and his wild acusations. I don't want to wait for things to get better. I want to feel human.
I only ever wanted my room.
I can't have it. I never get to have what I need nor want.
I deserve to suffer. I can't have my room, I can't have my sleep. I can't have my rock bc he never get's it and neither can I have by angel of a husbando. There's no place for me. I need hurt. I need to purify it. I need to make it go away. I don't want to be dirty. It's not my life. Make it go away. I don't want them in me. I don't want anyone in me.
I'm tired.

No. 2522820

>Get addicted to videogame
>See no way out of this addiction
>After achieving a big thing ingame I finally find the courage to befriend someone and we exchange discords
>She's normal
>Too normal
>I no longer feel like playing for some reason

No. 2522825

>>2522820
that's good , keep at it

No. 2522829

>>2522808
How bad is it? Also, can you remember what or when life started to become dull?

No. 2522843

>>2522825
Rodger, nonnie.

No. 2522849

my youtube algorithm is so fucked. all i see are videos on korean diets, tips on how to be skinny, why ugly women are jealous of beautiful women, pretty privilege, why you should stay away from people with low self esteem, etc.

i'm aware many on lc think this way but it's just so exhausting because i know that no matter what hard work i put into it, i'll never fit the standards in any way. and of course i don't actually care to put in any of the effort, some have it naturally and in my case it's impossible to have it at all, so why bother.

i just want to be at peace, i don't want to care about any of this beauty standard high maintenence femme fatale stuff. being a fat ugly woman feels like a death sentence and i just want to be left alone.

No. 2522855

>>2522820
Ask her to tell you something weird about herself

No. 2522866

>>2522849
Did you ever search workout videos? When I searched one fitness video my algorithm started trying to give me an eating disorder and body dysmorphia

No. 2522869

>>2522849
My algorithm got fucked up after my brother crashed a night on my sofa. So many fucking videos of men harassing locals under the premise of journalism or ai video essays on shit no one cares about

No. 2522873

My therapist canceled my appointment today because she was sick, but she also canceled my appointment two weeks ago for the same reason. I'd love go learn how to not internalize this, but unfortunately she keeps canceling therapy sessions for me!

No. 2522879

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dunno if its my autism or what but the feeling of being ostracized from humanity and unable to trust or connect to anybody is fucking me over so badly recently.

No. 2522886

>>2522849
I have the same issue but with commentary channels. They just won't go away.

No. 2522890

Hooray it's time for my daily derealization panic attack

No. 2522904

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i often look to the past and think everything was better. i was sharper, more creative when i had my job and some friends, but i was also using drugs for the first time in my life and starving myself to be skinny. im chubby now, i get apathetic, i feel lonely and lost from my passions, but im stable. im loving to the people around me, to the earth. i graduated with my degree. but i just wish i could have the attachment to my hobbies and willpower to not carelessly eat or the fatigue which makes me fall off of my exercise regimen. i just wish i had enough care to do well for myself and i hope i can love my hobbies again. i hope this will pass. maybe once i get a job, and if i can use LC less. i hope everyone else can get better soon, too.

No. 2522926

>>2522904
You know how a scale when you put something on one side and them balance it, it goes up and down before regulating? I think you're path to a middle ground is just taking longer. Eventually you might come back to those hobbies, maybe not, it's not for you to worry right now. It's ok to grief who you were before, you've been like that for a very long time. It took me 4-5 years to fully shed my past self and find my footing. It was painful, numb and awkward a lot of times but I'dlike to think that's how your brain can more easily attach to positive tings.
You'll be ok even if it takes time.

I'm rooting for you nonna, I'll be keeping you in mind and wishing good things on you. I hope you find what you seek even off LC.

No. 2522938

I am slow to warm up to people and somewhat low energy and its such a massive handicap when it comes to social interaction. My husband's family is totally offput by me. I have trouble starting conversations with them, but they also don't really start conversations with me. I've warmed slightly just through exposure but even when I make jokes or talk, its almost like they're more offput by me than even before. It's horrible because my husband insists on taking vacations with them constantly, I have to spend usually a week or two at a time in an airbnb with them. Its very obvious they don't really like me, not in an active way where they hate me, but more they don't want anything to do with me. It's so frustraiting I don't want to spend any time with them because of it.

No. 2522954

>>2522938
their problem if they want to be antisocial weirdos, not yours

No. 2522955

>>2522483
yet you keep personalityfagging for attention

No. 2522966

There is so much cruelty in the world. Just being alive makes me feel complicit.

No. 2522972

>>2522926
thank you for such a sweet message nona. maybe this is it. i wish you well!

No. 2522980

>>2522966
true but all we can do is try to be a net positive

No. 2523011

>>2522829
Very very bad. I have to repeat an action as simple as putting something back in the fridge or hiding a picture online the "right way" and it can on for as long as 30 minutes or else i remember the picture for the rest of the day like a piece of gum stuck on the back of my mind. It started in late 2020 so it will be almost 5 years like this and it only has gotten worse, even unlocking my phone is a struggle. Not surprised i ended up like this, when i was a teenager i developed a full blown eating disorder in 3 months, i was an antisocial retard back then too with barely any friends to talk to or do things with, i'm not even like a weird autist into anime or something, i just never really get into anything as if i'm an incomplete human.

No. 2523014

>>2522966
Being dead doesnt help stop cruelty. Only fighting on behalf of good does.

No. 2523075

I haaaaaate when my roommate gets drunk and whiny and calls one of her moid friends over to stay up and talk with her. Just go already, I need to get up early tomorrow!!

No. 2523118

Sometimes I see some posts that look so much like shit a scrote would write in 4chan and I can't decide if it was made by an actual scrote or a terminally online edgy handmaiden.
I'm not sure which option would be the worse one.

No. 2523126

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I'm so infatuated with a guy that is making me feel nauseous rn. He isn't even aware about my existence and it makes me sad that I probably would never have chance with him.

No. 2523130

>>2522849
you can clear your watched history and search history, turn off recommendations and stop saving history. might be annoying that you have to resort to that, but it sounds better than getting the most egregious recommendations.

No. 2523134

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i fucking cut my bangs all fucked up how am i gonna live like this how am i gonna go to work fuck fuck fuck FUCK

No. 2523139

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i dont know why but recently i feel completely disconnected from humanity and like i cant connect, relate, or trust anybody on earth and its making me really depressed

No. 2523153

>>2523126
>me with my husbando

No. 2523159

backne keeps getting worse and worse over the years, can barely sleep by laying on my back without it hurting anymore

No. 2523160

>>2523134
It’ll grow out faster than you think nonny don’t worry

No. 2523176

>>2522684
I feel like people do this with their preschool aged children too. Oh he’s not on the same level socially as the others, I feel ashamed, better tell my bridge club that he has the ‘tism. And when they’re aggressive little shits, it’s ADHD.

No. 2523178

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I'm 21 and don't have a license and I'm so embarrassed. It's partially because my mom was hit by a drunk driver when I was a kid and to this day still has pains in her neck because of it, and also because literally the day I got my permit when I was 16, my girlfriend at the time and I got into a car accident where she was doing everything right and she was still hit. I remember thinking in the car, "wow, this really might be the end for me". It's so fucking stupid and embarrassing and I'm trying to find a way to get a license while being a part-time student and full-time worker, but it costs money, which all goes to my tuition and bills. I hate my stupid autistic life.

No. 2523183

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I've been skipping work almost every day for the past couple of months, coasting on my savings, staying home for the most part whilst waiting for selfish bastards to pay me back what they owe. I've been spending money on snacks, clothing, stupid plushies, basically whatever my heart desires (within reason) because I'm sort of giving up and succumbing to depression coping… I keep telling myself I'll learn to invest in stocks and crypto while I'm at home but honestly I think I'm too stoopid to figure it out and get overwhelmed thinking about the risk involved. I wish I had a knowledgeable moid I could trust who'd show me the ropes and maybe invest for me instead.

No. 2523190

>>2523183
>skipping work almost everyday
>they haven't fired you yet?
wow

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>>2523178
Me reading this with no license at 30

No. 2523206

>>2523190
Depending on where she lives and how things work her employer could be waiting for her to formally resign later so they won't have to pay her anything at all and she won't be able to earn unemployment benefits. Some companies are used to doing this.

No. 2523219

It's nine at night why are your kids still out? They been scream crying for the last 30 minutes because those little punks are tired. Go home already please god.

No. 2523224

I started my period today, no wonder I kept ruminating about mortality and stressing out that my pets and loved ones will someday die unexpectedly, and other sad and depressing shit last night. Fuck!

No. 2523241

>>2523178
I'm 30 and haven't got it either, but I'm not american so it's not that big of a deal here. There have been 2 car accidents (one leading to a permanent disability) in my family too so the thought of driving makes me so fucking anxious I just can't do it. I've saved a literal fortune by biking everywhere so it's not all bad!

No. 2523250

>>2523178
Cars are expensive anyway, not only to buy one (even second hand) but also maintenance, insurance and other garbage fees like property tax.
Cars are a luxury not a must (unless you're american with no transport). Get your licence if it's money and time cost are worth the improvement it'll bring.

No. 2523252

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I partly fucked up my sleep schedule but even then I can’t fall asleep for the life of me. Ugh this sucks

No. 2523253

>>2522412
Thank you so much nona, I appreciate your kind words. Though I am just replying now I saw this earlier when I was very upset trying to distract myself and it really meant a lot for me to read it then, so thank you.
>>2522494
They all seem perfectly happy and some strange girl from the past encroaching on their perfect life would just be embarrassing for me. His children are both adults now and they seem to have had good childhoods so there's no risk to them or anything. The only reason for me to contact them would be out of spite and I think it's better to make a more mature decision than to destabilize their life because I feel hurt, not because it's the "right thing to do" but because it would really just make me look bad. I'd rather none of them know I exist than think I am a bitter and crazy stalker. I also don't want to give my father the satisfaction of knowing how badly I am doing; I doubt he'd feel guilty and would just think about how he dodged a bullet.

No. 2523261

>>2523190
We've been overstaffed for a while, so they let us voluntarily stay home if we like (without pay) lol. Kind of tempted to just quit since it's monotonous work anyways and I'm at a point where I don't really care anymore

No. 2523262

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I hate talking to japanese moids

No. 2523263

>>2523262
Tell us more lol. Why do you have to talk to them specifically? Do you live in Japan? Can you pretend you're mute??

No. 2523265

>>2523263
Never slept with one if that's what you're asking. It's nothing crazy. They're annoying because they're either dry texters, don't want to commit, or just creepy. Just my experiences with them

No. 2523269

>>2523265
>Never slept with one if that's what you're asking
?? I wasn't but that's good to know I suppose lol. I was guessing something like work was forcing you to interact with them specifically day to day, but that's interesting. I could definitely see it. Just from the Venus Angelic threads I viewed in the past it seems like the pick of moids there are awful.

No. 2523270

>>2523269
I don't live in Japan. They're common where I'm from tho

No. 2523272

I'm afraid to break things off with the moid I've been dating the past year. It's long distance, and we've only been able to meet up twice so far because we're both poorfags. There's been problems here and there, and every time I express concern I get fed promises that I don't know if I can trust. He has ADHD, so I feel like I'm the one that's going to have to lead the relationship in all aspects because he forgets, gets stressed easily, isn't a proactive learner or go-getter type, and all he does most of the day is play vidya while crossing his fingers that his job applications will get accepted somewhere (entry level work since he has a business degree that doesn't get much use). Because we're far apart I could easily dump him but I fear he'll make it hell and will refuse to let go (judging from his past). I don't know if I can do one of these long back and forths.
>inb4 just block
There's ways around it and that just pisses off men even more in my experience

No. 2523273

>>2523272
Also, I feel really guilty setting off an inevitable depression spiral in him

No. 2523274

>>2523272
>I don’t know how to break it off
>we are in a long distance relationship
>we only met twice
Retard

No. 2523278

>>2523274
I don't have it in my heart to callously hurt someone who I know is going to take of very hard. I know it's not much of a relationship anyways. That'd not what this is about

No. 2523279

>>2523178
Nonna it’s not embarrassing. I am also getting my license , but not out of my volition, my mom is forcing me to kek. Try to take it as it can help you in the long run, maybe you might use the car just a few times.
Driving around is scary , especially when people around you drive shitty and don’t respect rules. If everyone would be scared of driving then we would be all safe.

No. 2523280

>>2523278
>callously hurt
Then stay with him kek

No. 2523281

>>2523278
Also, just to clarify, we dated in my area first but he had to move back home after a few months

No. 2523282

>>2523280
You sound like those wives who complain about their Nigel not helping with the kids , not being respectful, being sloppy and ungrateful but yet don’t leave them due to some kind of loyalty. At least they are getting subpar dick out of the marriage , but you aren’t even getting that.
If the scrote wasn’t a turbo jobless autists he would have already fucked half his town without caring that he has a girlfriend.

No. 2523283

>>2523159
Use benzoyl peroxide, it can help. If it’s that bad you can even get oral medicine.
If you have long hair either cut it or keep it tied, use cotton only.

No. 2523285

>>2523282
Well I'm still a virgin and I'm holding off until I'm at least in an ltr but it isn't even that. I'm really not getting much benefit from this besides wasted time, I fear. Just hate dealing with this shit. I find it much harder than it should be

No. 2523298

>>2523283
I already do most of these… it's been nearly a decade and it just never ends, worst are probably the neck breakouts, or having to use backpacks, it's plain torture

No. 2523302

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whenever i want to watch a video these fucking youtubers use mics and then they start making this smacking sounds at every word. its like banging on the ceiling, or playing too loud music, like have some decency and buy a mic that stops you saliva clashing against your teeth and in my ear. thank you.

No. 2523312

>>2523302
fucking kek at the pic

No. 2523357

I don't even have the energy to vent, but my bunny got sick and he was the only thing that kept me alive at this point. Plus I had 3 family member deaths during Jan-Feb. I don't know what to do anymore.

No. 2523361

>>2523357
Strength and love to you and your bunny.

No. 2523368

It's been harder than I expected to deal with stares when I go out in public with my bf, we look a bit unconventional in the area I live in

No. 2523371

>>2523368
unconventional how?

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No. 2523387

so fucking tired of canadian companies having shit in USD. stop trying to milk your own people!! wtf man

No. 2523388

sometimes i get this weird feeling of being partly exhausted parly feeling impatient and having a lot of saliva. i dont what causes but i dont like it.

No. 2523394

I wish someone just fucking obliterated that incest thread at /m/. Such a shitstain on an otherwise chill board, fuck that gross thread
>>2523388
Wtf me too, sometimes I feel like I'm chocking because I'm producing way too much saliva, it usually happens when I'm anxious

No. 2523484

ill be happy as long as my job allows me to be in my office and shitpost a lot

No. 2523492

>seeing some retarded normie video where a woman asks her man to read something on her phone
>man stops what hes doing on his phone to pay attention to her
>comment on video with alot of likes says :"Aw he even stops being in his phone to give her his full attention!"
>mfw the bar is in literally hell

How did it get this bleak???

No. 2523493

>>2523394
If they only posted fictional male ships I wouldn't gaf but the real people posting is getting weird

No. 2523507

>>2523492
>comment on video with alot of likes says :"Aw he even stops being in his phone to give her his full attention!"
lmfao

No. 2523523

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Cannot fucking stand film autists oh my god. Can you fuckers go one second without info dumping unnecessarily and acting like smug pieces of shit when the person you are overwhelming knows so little about film? Every time they open their foul-smelling mouths to brag about their knowledge and act sanctimonious once you reveal you don’t know wtf they’re talking about all the bullshit they say goes in one ear and out the other. Like ok sis sorry I’m not a certified film major like you are but do you think I give a flying fuck that the reason Hollywood passed this petition is because of this director or that. Worst of all is these fuckers I’m being forced into dealing with aren’t even majoring in film but it’s clear they have a passion for it so why the fuck didn’t they take it? Autism abounds in many circles but film is the one I cannot fucking tolerate for the simple reason of them behaving like know-it-all assholes when they cannot even engage in normie conversation to save their lives. These are the same assholes who let pedophiles run free in Hollywood by virtue of making a film that “sends a philosophical and social message therefore it’s kino uwu” when that same film is riddled with pedo and misogynist nonsense screaming right in your face. The consequences of third-wave feminisms’s liberal bullshit, everybody.

No. 2523531

>>2523492
>still dating 3dpd moids in the year 2025

No. 2523556

I wish I would stop pulling out my hair. College and studying was so stressful that it led me to unknowingly picking at my hair while studying. This has evolved into me picking at my hair whenever I’m bored. I don’t even realize it sometimes. I graduate soon and I really thought that would help, but the last two months has been pretty relax for me without much studying and I still find myself doing it.

No. 2523566

whenever I see moids talk about how they "NEED" sex in a relationship it makes me want to never be around a man again or ever be in a relationship with them. its so fucking creepy and rape-y to say. nobody on this planet needs sex and if you have a mantrum or thoughts of cheating because your partner isnt in the mood to fuck sometimes you need to actually be fucking lobotomized. like imaging putting making your genitals feel good over the emotional state of your partner. wtf. its borderline sociopathic abuse and its considered normal. i swear to god men are projecting when they cry about "whores and sluts", theyre the ones ruled entirely by their genitals, not women.

No. 2523569

i hate hate hate how the automatic update ruined my phone camera now everything looks like its been put to an ai upscale, any detail my photo had is gone and the picture size ballooned from 1 to 3 mb to a wapping 13 to 20 mb i tried disabling every setting in existences and it dosen't work, ahhh

No. 2523571

>>2523566
your life will be 10x better the day you give up on men

No. 2523581

Vacationing with my husband and his sister and her husband… I don't work so we live off my husband's income, but its pretty decent so we live upscale compared to how I grew up (dirt poor) but his sister and her husband both work 6 figures and they are like double as well off as me and its making me insecure. I'm afraid my husband wishes he married someone who works too and is a power woman… or that I'm not upscale enough for him. I'm a huge mess and dress like a bum, his sister and her friends are all extremely clean and polished. The only way I can achieve something similar is putting in all my effort, and even then I see to just somehow be off. He hasn't mentioned anything about all this but I'm anxious to get back home where I'm comfortable and I don't feel insecure about being less polished.

No. 2523594

>>2523581
why don't you work?

No. 2523597

I'm turning 30 next year and I feel like I'm in the exact same position I was in when I was 20. My bf and I have been together 9 years now and we had to move into my parents suite to be able to save money, but even doing that we're still struggling to keep savings. Something always comes up. We'll literally never be able to afford to buy a house at this rate. We're both making more money than we were even 5 years ago but bills, groceries, gas, etc all keep increasing and it's a struggle to keep up with. I want to have my own house and start a family so bad. It's really depressing to think that this may never happen for me.

No. 2523598

>>2523594
I am a sahm

No. 2523600

>>2523598
>she fell for the have no income, rely entirely on a man for money, sahmn psyop in 2025
i dont even know what to say to you lol

No. 2523608

>>2523581
Just put on a cute basic outfit and brush your hair geez you don't have to choose between 0 and 100

No. 2523618

>>2523608
Even when I do that I still stick out as unpolished, they're REALLY put together, like all super nice clothes, i dont know where the fuck theyre shopping. Plus I am socially retarded so when I open my mouth it doesn't help. They seem a bit aloof about me too, I am worried they are the type of extroverts where if you can't integrate they don't want much to do with you.

No. 2523619

only way i make it through the day is looking at my husbando's pictures regularly and knowing at the end of the day ill be gooning to him

No. 2523620

>>2523600
I had a decent job beforehand I just quit it because of daycare costs and also I wanted to spend more time with kids. Plus I wanted a career change so I was thinking of taking a break and doing a training program when they are school age, I agree being a scrotes live in bang maid is a bad idea but for life circumstances it seemed the best course of action

No. 2523621

I miss my mom.

No. 2523622

>>2523620
ntayrt, in that case your focus is on being a mom and doing what it takes for you to be comfortable as a mother, your appearance is the least of your and your husband's concerns. post in the fashion thread maybe some nonnas can you give tips on how to look more polished if that's what you want, or post what kind of clothes they wear if you want something similar. tbh it sounds more like the problem is you're from a different upbringing and social class than them so you're not in the know.

No. 2523623

>>2523618
You're a mother ffs give yourself a break, if your husband expect you to look like you have hours and hours a day to dedicate to your looks he's a fucking retard. Stop beating yourself up over something that isn't reasonable.

No. 2523624

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I used to be a size 32 Eu before (00) and now I am a size 34 (02?) , which has sent me into sort of a spiral. My mom used to tell me that I looked like a man and that I needed more curves, which to me meant that I was skinny kek. The only good thing is that I have bigger breasts and I haven’t added a stomach and overall I am not fat, but I am scared that I’ll just gain weight more and more. My brain just tells me that I’m a a fatty if my BMI is any more than 18.5, which was where I always was, normal weight, yet skinny.
It really sounds retarded now that I write it down, I am at a healthy weight but I struggle with my body image. I don’t want to buy a scale or weigh my food as I don’t want to reawaken bad habits, but I am trying to cut down food at this point.

No. 2523629

>>2523618
>Even when I do that I still stick out as unpolished
But that's my point, you don't HAVE to look like a perfect doll? Being clean and groomed is good enough especially as a young mother.

No. 2523631

>>2523598
Good luck . A scrote’s love will always dwindle but the green will always remain green, at least if you lose money it will be out of your own hands and not because John decided to divorce you and now you’ll have to survive with alimony. I don’t know how you do it.

No. 2523633

>>2523618
You just need to have ironed clothes, cotton , linen , wool, monochrome, nice clean shoes, sandals. It doesn’t take much, jewelry, neat hair etc.. I am not six figures rich, yet I look put together with only these small things.

No. 2523655

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I hate having a delayed emotional response. Just had the stupidest interaction at the supermarket. A scrote asked me where he could find instant noodles, I showed him. He said "Thank you. You look like Yegor Letov, but thank you." It was unexpected and the comparison itself wasn't offensive to me (I thought it was because of glasses and hair and I don't care if a scrote doesn't consider me attractive or something) so I laughed. For some reason, he extended his hand to shake mine, and I responded on autopilot (ugh), then he asked "Oh, you know who he is???", I simply replied "yes" and turned around, hearing "I'M ACTUALLY SURPRISED….", which is so fucking ridiculous considering that we live in a post-soviet country and I'd say more than a half of adults should know about him or his band (also why would you compare out loud then). At that moment, I thought "that's so random and dumb". 10 minutes later, I suddenly think "what a dick??", feel disgusting because I shaked his hand and regret not saying something that'd make him feel like an idiot. This situation is like straight from the teenage years, so weird. And I haven't met such pathetic wise asses irl in a while. Caught me off-guard. I swear, I always regret being too friendly/chill much more than overreacting.

No. 2523662

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I've gone to the hospital twice in the last week because I want to kill myself and they just sent me away with medication. You'd think being unmedicated and suicidal would get me an admission but the nurse even told me "I don't look depressed" because I'm… conventionally attractive(?) I live in Vancouver, BC, Canada. I even called a crisis line with no help. I'm at my ends wit.

No. 2523663

>>2523662
I mean unmedicated with bipolar disorder. Yes I am diagnosed.

No. 2523666

>>2523655
Idk who that dude is but he's kind of hot to me. I bet you're very pretty nonna. Sounds like he was being a dick though and you caught him off guard. Good for you. Next time ask him if he's gay lmao.

No. 2523670

>>2523655
Anon I know you dgaf about being attractive to men but you were my retarded 16 year old selfs ideal kek, so I bet you're cute. That guy was super weird and that was a weird interaction(USER HAS BEEN PUT OUT TO PASTURE)

No. 2523673

>>2523655
>because of glasses and hair
Holy shit anon please marry me

No. 2523679

Some of the files I was working on for an extra credit assignment was somehow fucking lost despite doing my damn hardest to eject the disk properly. I'm taking that B I don't give a fuck anymore.

No. 2523686

My first 90 days at my job passed and I’m free from my probation or something whatever. I really like my coworkers but the higher up/managers in this retarded retail job drive me insane. They’re always up our asses and they are so performative in pretending to care about our department and thinking they know how it works, but when we have an actual problem or complaint they don’t care. I also hate my schedule blah blah but the job market is so bad. Whatever. I wish I could find an office job.

No. 2523708

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when i'm on my period i like to take a pack of pads out of the cabinet and place it on the shelf near the toilet paper to have easy access. my mom just gave me a 15 minute lecture on how "unpractical" and "wrong" it is because "these don't belong here, their place is in the cabinet!". apparently "many people dream of having a cabinet to hide their pads in while you put them on display" jesus fucking christ this is coming from an adult woman who works as a nurse in a gyno clinic. she digs inside aborted fetuses for a living. are you kidding me.
i'm tired after work, annoyed and in pain and she's been on my ass about this non-issue for 15 whole minutes instead of just quietly putting them away if it bothers her that much. leave me and my pads alone!!!!!

No. 2523711

>>2523708
why does she even work in the field of gynecology if she’s so weirded out by fucking pads kek

No. 2523720

>>2523708
idk if your moms like taht too but my mom has this weird shame about periods like you need to absolutely hide to everyone youre on your periods

No. 2523726

>>2523708
I always leave my pads and tampons out for easy access, I thought that was normal?

No. 2523733

I need to be put down actually

No. 2523736

>>2523662
wow that nurse is actually retarded. is the mental healthcare actually that bad in canada? thats insane

No. 2523760

I think I'm getting old and jaded I don't want to read about the Diddy case because I'm sick of how much people love to argue about what abuse is. I'm still tired after the Depp case I cannot be fucked with males

No. 2523762

>>2523662
That's how it went for me in the UK. They said if I felt like killing myself I could call a different number and maybe get a therapist but I was sent away with numbers to shop around and see who's waiting list wasn't the worst and some pills. Tbf I don't know how someone will cure my depression unless they turn the clock back and fix the economy and give me a house but

No. 2523767

>>2523760
I will save my mind and not look into anything. The few information I had were all disgusting and of course the scrotes are more outraged at him being a faggot than him raping and mentally torturing women.

No. 2523768

>>2523736
I guess it is, maybe because I'm not in psychosis or on drugs they don't want to admit me. I was hospitalized when I was younger for wanting to kill myself but I'm not sure why this time was so different. I honestly think it's because I don't look depressed to anyone.. I even told them about how I can't even clean my house and have two months worth of garbage inside of it because I'm so anxious. She said that "I just need to be more motivated" ???
>>2523762
This made me feel less lonely thank you. I'm sorry you had such a bad experience too

No. 2523771

>>2523708
Give her a lecture on how young women aren't ashamed but instead proud of being women and having periods

No. 2523784

so im on a clinical rotation in the ER, ive been doing a bunch of night shifts recently and since the resident with me was new and kind of sucks for now (most of them are like 2 year older than me and never been to the ER) i had to pick up her slack, and got myself a reputation of being really good for an undergrad student and really helpful in contrast.
its so fucking cool and warms my heart so much. at the end of the day i didn't do anything special and even made a bunch of mistakes but still feels good. the patients were mostly happy with me too and a lot of them told me id make a really good doctor someday. idk how theyd know, maybe theyre just nice to me because of my bedside manners.

at this point i feel like i dont even care about anything as long as people say im the best at what i do, i feel so cool for having acquired useful knowledge and that all my studying isn't all for nothing.

the thing i'm really proud of is although a lot of the patients don't even speak my language i was able to handle them well using translating apps.
im also proud whenever a patient comes in with a complaint that is unclear and i manage to clarify it. for example this woman came in because she felt "constipated" and i managed to find out she was actually having period pains. though of course i forgot to ask for a urine pregnancy test so i hope shes not dead from an extrauterine pregnancy (unlikely).

idk im just really proud of myself for now sorry for bragging but id rather brag here than elsewhere. i hope the praise will continue once i'm a resident myself.

No. 2523790

>>2523708
maybe it's triggering her by reminding her of work kek

No. 2523792

I love being a woman, but I'm not exaggerating when I say that my life would be significantly happier and easier if I never had any of the hormonal bullshit that comes with it like PMS (or PMDD more likely) that I have to deal with for two whole fucking weeks out of every month. HALF OF MY LIFE is fucking agony ever since I was 12 years old and had my first period. A week of hell, emotional dysregulation, crying and hating the world before my period, and then another week of hell during my period, plus cramps and blood. YIPPEE! And then one SINGLE good week where I feel happy and productive and think "Wow, maybe things are really going well-" nope, that was just my ovulation week and then it's back to feeling like fucking shit. I'm so sick of this

No. 2523793

>>2523566
There needs to be a male culling tbh

No. 2523795

>>2523784
Nonny this is awesome I'm proud of you. You make a real difference in people's lives!

No. 2523797

>>2523784
This is incredibly refreshing to read. Thank you for being a beacon of light as one of the kindhearted ones in the medical field, it needs more people like you

No. 2523862

I hate having to waste time on sleep. I want to stay up and do my hobbies all night

No. 2523864

>>2523792
I could have written this. If I could just have everything down there all taken out without any complications I would.

No. 2523882

Getting weirded out by the amount of ed/orthorexic students at my college. I know it's the end of the year but today I saw one check into the food hall and look all the stations before immediately walking out. Just donate the meals if you're not gonna eat

No. 2523885

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Haven't had sex with bf in 1-2 months for various reasons. Things progressed to that today, but he went all in too soon and it hurt. It hurt soo soo bad. Not a lot of things make me cry, this is one of them and I just, didn't fight it like usual.

I can't even cry in peace without this baby breathing down my neck constantly trying to grab my attention. How is it that even when I'm hurt I still need to run to comfort him like he's a lost child. And if I don't then he suddenly tells me I'm "ignoring him".
I think the worst part of this is him sitting in my ear reapeatedly calling me baby and saying "I'm here for you". He's soo predictable it hurts. I mention to him in an argument that he's not there for me while I am and now he keeps parroting "I'll always be there for you" and "I'm here for you". How do men manage to make affection sound and look soo disgusting and pathetic?

The audacity for him even accidentally hurt me while I'm vulnerable, AGAIN, and do the most pathetic and lost attempt at fixing it.

I don't want these ovaries anymore. I want to stop whatever making me want sex. What's the point anyway? I can count on one hand the number of times I actually loved it with no trauma flashbacks, no akwardness no pain, no disgust of my body.

No. 2523890

I hate how many hoops I have to jump through to apply for a job that likely isn't even going to dignify me with a rejection email. Taking a 30 minute+ long application and they probably won't even hire me.

No. 2523892

>>2523885
Why are you still with him?

No. 2523894

>>2523885
The worst part is you still being with this man child. I can’t take any of you seriously when you shit on the same plate you love eating on five seconds later.

No. 2523895

>>2523885
Why do you want sex if you hate it every single time? Is it companionship?

No. 2523900

>>2523885
I ask this so kindly but why did you have a kid with this man?

No. 2523904

>>2523900
I think she's talking about her boyfriend, sadly. Man-baby.

No. 2523926

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I wish I had tiny breasts. I feel like such a heifer no matter how slim I am because my boobs pad out every shirt and dress. Awful

No. 2523928

i decided to draw to unwind after work and my program kept glitching on me and i'm so fucking mad holy shit. worse is i need to catch up on other tasks but am in such a bad mood.

No. 2523969

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Does anyone else have a bit of resentment toward their parents for feeding them so much UPF? I got addicted and became morbidly obese at such a young age due to being abused and coping with it and nobody being around. Naturally this worsened my mental issues and I was pumped with antidepressants. My body has been ruined forever because of this, despite being at a healthy weight now. I lost the bulk of it when young but it was so much weight that I have some loose skin and permanent stretch marks, and there were many years of yo-yoing. I have a constant fear of being fat again.

I really should have went to school for nutrition. I wonder if there is a good way to educate more people about this. My hormones have been messed up from it too. I had so much potential but I know I can’t linger in it. What a shame though that food has ruined so much for me, and at the hands of greedy people and a fast paced society.

I want more people to care, to be angry with false marketing and animal cruelty as well.

No. 2523972

>>2523969
I do but my parents were also addicted to UPF by their parents. My mom grew up poor and saw fast food or sweets as a source of comfort and joy. My dad turned to unhealthy food at an early age to cope with the death of his mom (who made all their food because my grandpa was an asshole and thought that cooking was beneath him). It's known that companies specifically target your brain's pleasure centers with the chemical composition of their foods, and they start early to brainwash kids into thinking that UPF = fun and a good time. Americans are set up to fail, food wise, but you've got a chance to break the cycle now.

No. 2524003

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nonnies, I am scared. I understand that I'm on lolcow. This is the only female space I feel somewhat safe communicating on, for the most part. I know that the user base is more diverse than it may let on, but I want to try and phrase my vent without sounding extremely divisive.
I'm fucking scared. And I'm scared because of Project 2025. It's clear that they are going to achieve everything they can before shit hits the fan. What's scaring me? The ban on pornography. WHY?
Why would banning pornography scare me when I agree that it's tainting every man available to me in my dating pool? That it has massively contributed to the most disgusting and depraved behaviors that are then expected of women to perform? Because although I'm straight, I have lesbian friends. I have gay friends. It's very clear that this isn't what it's about, it's not about pornography at all. It's about finding arbitrary reasons to kill people.
Wait, kill people? So here's the thing. The pornography ban is going to work in tandem with the federal law to "bring back" the death penalty. What are they fighting to bring back the death penalty for? "Sex offenders" and "sexual predators". That sounds great, right? But they're not going to go after the MAJORITY of rapists and sex offenders (men), certainly not the men that attack women. They're going to go after anyone that fits their arbitrary label of sex offender due to possessing pornographic material. What may that be? Gay pride merch, saucy gay videos, same sex displays of affection, so on and so forth. I know it sounds deranged. But I implore you to please look at Project 2025.
I know that there are a lot of people in here that will say:
>Finally, trans people get the rope
but it's not going to start or stop there. And it's not going to protect women, or children, or vulnerable people. It's going to be arbitrarily used to kill people. What the fuck do we do? I have no fucking idea. I'm sure even if I was trained well with a weapon, they'll have a whole army to retaliate if people push back. The only thing I want to say … is that I'm scared. I don't know what to do and I'm scared. I know that there are "options" like moving out of the country or something. But what about the history of social media? Even when you delete it? How far will they discriminate with this? As a woman that I guess you'd say is GNC, maybe I won't have law enforcement or court, but wouldn't that poison the well of the supporters of this administration further? Would I expect my neighbors to look at me like a freak or report me?
I don't know what this will look like or when it will start affecting people outside of whatever the media reports as happening. But… yes I am a pathetic burgerfag. I just hope that my lesbian and bi nonnies stay safe, including the detransers and the nonnies with dysphoria that aren't doing anything. Please protect yourself, because don't think they're just going to come for "biological men". God knows what they're going to do with women knowing they want to increase our birth rate in America. Don't miss the forest for the trees. When they say it's to stop the transgender population, that's only the beginning.
I would post this in the American thread, but that thread is full of retards and astroturfers. I may be too late to get a tubal ligation but I hope y'all can prepare in any way you can.

No. 2524007

>>2524003
take your xanax(bait)

No. 2524013

>>2524003
You need to get off twitter

No. 2524022

>>2524003
I don't think you're being too hyperbolic and those other nonnies are being assholes.

No. 2524025

>>2524003
This is a little too similar to the "totally innocent" people who say banning lolicon is a violation of free speech. You should get off Twitter and seek help. If someone said this to me irl I would not trust them as a person

No. 2524050

>>2524022
thank you. I have actually read Project 2025, it's available in PDF form on their website for free, it's not a big secret, but apparently I need to take Xanax because I'm watching shit unfold, and there is little to no push-back? Also, it's not twitter you retards, it's X.

No. 2524062

>>2524003
why tf would they rope trans people when they literally make the pharma and surgery industry so much money

No. 2524063

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>tfw you get added by someone from the friend finder thread and their profile mentions this
how do I get my own lc membership award?

No. 2524069

>>2524036
it's not about a specific law. It's about the text of Project 2025:
>"Pornography, manifested today in the omnipresent propagation of transgender
ideology and sexualization of children […] Its purveyors are child predators and misogynistic exploiters of women. Their product is as addictive as any illicit drug and as psychologically destructive as any crime. Pornography should be outlawed. The people who produce and distribute it should be imprisoned. Educators and public librarians who purvey it should be classed as registered sex offenders. And telecommunications and technology firms that facilitate its spread should be shuttered."
I hope you can read the beginning of that, which defines pornography as "today" being a propagator of transgender ideology and sexualizing children. Do you really believe they care about women when they secondarily cite misogyny? Do you not see how much they don't actually care about women? Why even fucking talk about transgender ideology when historically, pornography has ALWAYS negatively affected women? These people, who also say that women should marry when they're "ripe and fertile" (a child's age) and defend each other when someone accuses them of doing the very thing they are so preoccupied about other people doing, like buying child pornography or molesting a child. But they refer to the children as "girls" or "teens" and that somehow makes it different. Like I said, stop missing the forest for the trees you retard. This mandate is an instruction booklet to inform the smaller governments of how to proceed with legislation, how to argue their points, how to appeal to people's worst fears, etc.
>>2524062
You are actually retarded if you think the pharmaceutical industry would tank overnight if transgender people stopped getting surgery or getting hormone therapy

No. 2524075

>>2524063
This is a common copypasta

No. 2524104

>>2524075
oh right… I thought that was real, well I feel silly now

No. 2524109

File: 1747281666500.jpg (88.94 KB, 800x800, 1000014703.jpg)

>>2524069
>"Pornography, manifested today in the omnipresent propagation of transgender
ideology and sexualization of children […]
Based and true. As much as I'm a femanist I'm also tired of the hyperbolic "they're going to turn us all into breeding slaves!!" Rhetoric. No they're not. Realistically this is retarded. Gay marriage is not going to get rolled back, ever, that stake is in the ground, and your fantasy doomer porn is annoying to witness and I don't know who brainwashed you into it, but basically what I'm gathering is that you unironically believe this image. Go fuck yourself and your gay friends

No. 2524112

Why is it when I finally got my everything going on, start getting money, I immediately start feeling the signs of a burnout?? I can't, it pisses me off so much, I'm just starting to get good money and shit, but I'm so irritated over everything, every single mistake and every fix I have to do. And I can't even chill for a day, as i feel guilty doing nothing and it only makes me more pissed off. Wish I could afford to just rest for a month at least and do nothing, but I kinda want to eat from time to time…

No. 2524114

>>2523792
same it legit feels like having bipolar lite

No. 2524121

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I had to drop off a stray 3 week old kitten some psychotic moidlets pushed into our gate off my relatives because my dysfunctional house cant let me care for a animal without shouting God I feel so guilty and shameful I wanted to care for it myself but I know it wouldve been stressful for the baby to be in my shithole household I'm going to gift all the kitten formula and litter i can but God do I feel ashamed it's as if I did a sin saving a kitten

No. 2524141

>>2524121
Nonny you did the most important thing anyone could do for that kitten, you were the first one to care about it. Just because you’re not the one feeding it formula currently doesn’t mean you haven’t made its life better

No. 2524142

all this new free time makes me feel like such a loner & makes me feel like ill never develop a close friendship ever again. i was thinking of how to deepen all the surface level-ish bonds i have rn and came up blank. all my past close friends have moved on (not saying that to be negative we just kinda drifted off & life moves on i guess, im counting friendships from when i was a child/young teen). we still keep in touch from time to time but i can sort of sense that things wont be the same as they once were since so many things are different now and that breaks my heart.

No. 2524144

feeling worried about my friend and her boyfriend. he's not physically abusive or anything like that but he's essentially ignoring/neglecting her (they have a lot of issues outside of that but that's the main issue atm) and i can tell that it's messing with her a lot. i don't wanna project too much but i was in a similar situation and it literally drove me crazy, and i don't wanna see the same happen to her. can she please just break up with this moid sooner than later

No. 2524145

I am so fucking angry. I’ve been basically watching everyone i know fall into this psychotic ideology and it keeps slipping further and further and they don’t seem to realize it’s entirely antithetical to everything they preach or claim to stand for. Just. When will it stop? I feel like I’m going insane with how no one sees what I’m seeing.

No. 2524152

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trying to cope with being an emotional femcel. just came to the realization that i was engaged over half a decade ago and that was the last time anyone has ever loved me. its clearly a major personality issue on my end- people have wanted to have sex with me since then and im called cute/pretty/etc on the regular, but when it comes time for emotional connection suddenly no one’s interested and are possibly even repulsed by the idea. my ex fiancé and i mainly broke up because i took everything for granted and i regret my actions every fucking day. its hard to only be wanted for sex or just as an interlude until what they really want is finally back/available/single. i wish i could just be asexual forever but i crave validation so bad. i hate hookups but no one has asked me out on a date in years and when i try to shoot my shot first i always get denied- but hey at least men who will fuck anything will fuck me and then refuse to call me an uber after!

No. 2524187

>>2524109
The only reason you assume things are a "stake in the ground" is because you are retarded. It's okay though. If it turns out that I am just in need of xanax, I can go get some. But if you sit around with your thumb up your ass and get the rug pulled out from under you, that's your loss. You imagine hyperbolic situations, but that doesn't mean I am. Good luck nonny

No. 2524189

>>2524152
At least they want to fuck you and you know that your personality is the problem not your looks. This is something you can fix with more soul searching. People don't even want to fuck me and give me a chance…

No. 2524199

>>2524003
Kek if you think that banning pornography is harming lesbians then you are simply retarded. Go back to tumblr.

No. 2524201

>>2524025
Exactly kek

No. 2524206

>>2523285
Then break up.

No. 2524210

>>2523894
>>2523892
Cause I don't have a valid reason for a breakup. Idk I feel like a few bad months shouldn't justify me quitting when difficult times are bound to happen. For now, I'm just observing to see what happens. He has a month before I pull the plug.

>>2523895
I have periods of time where I'm just horny. That shouldn't be a bizarre concept to imagine in a functional person. I'm just, dissapointed by sex when it does happen most times, and I can't get rid of the frustratin by other means either.

No. 2524215

>>2523272
I think the thong keeping you with him is that he didn't do something obviously big to warrant a breakup. That and your heart kinda pulls at you. Idk, I'm of the opinion you either need to marinate on the breakup so it's easier when you'll do it or just pull the plug.

You need to put yourself first. It sounds narcissistic but think about your realistic future with this guy. No one will be more there for you than yourself.

No. 2524217

>>2524210
>Cause I don't have a valid reason for a breakup
You don’t need one.

No. 2524227

I hate women sometimes “omg I can’t break up with this lazy parasite of a moid because I don’t have a reason :( it will hurt his feelings :(“ what about your feelings you stupid fucking cunt. Is this how you’re choosing to spend the one and only chance you get to be alive and exist on Mother Earth? You need a hard slap across the fucking face and a lobotomy.(emoji)

No. 2524251

>>2524069
what does any of this have to do with gay people
>>2524050
>Also, it's not twitter you retards, it's X.
nobody likes shitter's new name anon

No. 2524260

>>2524227
Men have no problem breaking up with us for the smallest reasons or just because they got bored we should have the same energy

No. 2524271

Jfc I'm sweating a lot. I have enough to do today, I can't be melting on top of all this other shit

No. 2524288

a moid made me cry my heart out last week and now he's in the hospital with sepsis and had to get surgery. his cat also started peeing blood and needed surgery as well. part of me feels like i should be glad justice was served but the other half feels like it'd be bad karma to rejoice. i needed to share this somewhere

No. 2524298

>>2524288
I think it would be bad karma if you took it upon yourself to make things worse. You can't control the way you feel, just the way you act.
I feel bad for the cat tho, I don't think it deserves this.

No. 2524305

>>2524288
Don't feel bad about that stupid moid, just feel bad about the cat if you want to

No. 2524339

Goth people are kinda annoying with the obsession over the music and how you can't be goth unless you listen to goth music. I think it's dumb. If someone loves the macabre, loves the fashion, the motifs, the culture, horror and death elements, anything gothic, that doesn't make them any less goth just because they don't listen to those goth bands. I mean yeah sure there's posers too who only dress goth to get a larger onlyfans following or pick mes who think they'll attract more men, but still the gatekeeping is too much. They think being goth is all about their nightclubs and festivals, like for me at least I don't like the party scene at all and I'm a huge introvert and prefer to stay at home, doesn't mean I'm less goth. If anything I feel like it's more goth to be a loner.

No. 2524353

I just saw scores of redditors excuse lolicon incest forcefem porn fanfiction all because some tranny wrote it and here I am seething about scrotes and moids at 8am kek. Down with trans rights. Down with gender ideology. Scratch a tranny and a misogynist porn addict moid bleeds.

No. 2524366

i am falling deeper and deeper into despair and a pit of, in part, my own creation and it's getting near-impossible to crawl up out of it. i feel legitimately sick. i've been taking advantage of my coworker in the sense that she always takes my work anyway, because i need to be stationary (receptionist downgraded from admin assistant without any notice just saw it in a form despite being there for near 3 years. also never had a performance review positive OR negative nor a raise until a couple months ago which was company-wide by i digress), and she has gaping swaths of time to fill so i've just let her do whatever she wanted with my tasks because she was going to do it anyway. fast forward two years i simply hate my life and my job so i go "fuck it i'll be remote today, and yesterday, and leave 4hrs early the day before (did log back on though) despite my only purpose being a paid body, and take the calls from home and work on the photoshop projects i do actually have to do but even with those, have also been pushed off literally months and are needed by tomorrow! but i'll work from home because it'll give Coworker shit to do anyway, she's always doing it anyway, so i'm doing her a favor really. types of justifications. i'm 30 she's 50something. and very autistic and admittedly "very much" and i really don't actually care because she's a huge help but there's a lot of issues with the company i work for and how they hired her without ever talking to me about it given she became my supervisor essentially despite having the same title (at the time i was still in the books admin assistant). there's just baggage. anyway. i've been so depressed and taking off at least once or twice a month or requesting to work remotely, and to circle it back "taking advantage" of her adaptability, autism, and niceness about just covering me. and it makes me sick because i really appreciate her help and i tell her often and i make it very known i am nothing and that any praise i receive needs to go to her, because i am nothing without her. again i do verbalize these things. but i just fucking hate going in i hate being there i hate the comments from men and i hate the comments from our VP who i know likes me but he is like a fucking toddler and comments on my weight or fucks with my stuff or takes my food or tells me how worthless i am this that the other. he does this to everybody it isn't targeted harassment, but since i sit at reception i see him often coming in and out so it's just many many cases throughout the day of comments; in some other vent thread i posted about going through a slew of issues with my pets, one of which is a bunny who had to get his eye removed (alles gut on that front btw) and of course people at work ended up knowing about that. and so every time he sees me he makes this ""joke"" saying "did you have any bunny stew yet?" because he told me i should've just killed my rabbit and ate him instead of trying to make him survive. and i wish i had the strength to tell him to fuck off but i'm a coward (hence why i keep avoiding work altogether) so i just smile and nervous laugh and go "noo stop that's so mean. he's my son i'm not going to do that". which isn't effective. i don't even know what the point of this diatribe was anymore. i'm just so thoroughly miserable and it's affecting my job performance more than ever, and i'm trying but i care and i don't. i want to kill myself but i'm an only child and that would be the most selfish thing to do to my parents who have done nothing but love me and give me a beautiful life. i can list reasons why i've become the way i am but none of it is an excuse for the fact that i have the power to go to therapy or take medicine or try to really get out of these feelings i have. but instead i internalize it all, get drunk/high, and occasionally vent on lolcow because i'm not going to therapy and talk to no one irl about how i'm feeling. so it's making me sick and eating me away and i keep sinking further and further into this hole. bringing it all back. ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

No. 2524370

>>2524339
Probably because goth is a music-based subculture? Sorry but your post is the equivalent of complaining that people will call you a fake vegan if you eat meat

No. 2524371

>>2524370
Exactly. People seem genuinely retarded in how they don't comprehend music subcultures. It's like going to slam poetry events for the aesthetics and thinking the poems are boring. The art is the music not the clothes. The clothes reflect the themes in the music not the other way around.

No. 2524380

>>2523711
>>2523720
she's mostly normal about periods and doesn't have a problem talking about them. i think it's a combination of some leftover shame regarding period products and her neurotic obsession with Everything Having Its Own Place, which basically means only she and nobody else can decide where an object has to be placed and if you put it elsewhere you're a disgusting pig making a HORRIBLE DISASTEROUS MESS out of her house Just To Spite Her.
>>2523790
kek maybe

No. 2524388

I don't know if all this bullshit is worth it for a man who is literally schizophrenic. It's disappointing and tragic and maybe I'm an asshole but I can't wait 2 fucking years.

No. 2524415

>>2524388
never date mentally ill men.

No. 2524417

>>2524371
This only applies to 80s goths. A lot of modern goths take inspiration from other sources….

No. 2524450

>looking for a job
>apply to a bunch
>theres one job that fits me well and I would really like to get
>take a nap, that job calls me and I dont hear it
>try calling back but it's only one way
noooooo why do they have to call and not send an email or something, I hope to god theyll try calling me again

No. 2524489

>>2524370
>>2524371
people use the term goth as a shorthand for gothic but they're not the same thing. 99% of the time when people at goth they're doing that accidentally and mean gothic. also goth goth is mainly political.

No. 2524522

Every time I start sort of liking someone, I immediately demonize them inside my head to kill any feelings, because I'm convinced that they wouldn't like me back. I think the odds I'm right are 99,9%, but if I was wrong it would kill my chances of ever finding a partner. Every time I tried to believe in myself and my attractiveness I was rejected, and I don't even think my standards are too high, or if they are I definitely don't see myself lowering them, so I'll be forever alone I guess.

No. 2524533

I just found out that a man can think about you and miss you every day of his life for months and never tell you. I guess they learn to live with it and go on with life as if they weren't even thinking about losing someone they loved. Incredible. what the fuck is wrong with men?

No. 2524535

>>2524533
>I just found out that a man can think about you and miss you every day of his life for months and never tell you.
I do the same. It's a useful skill.

No. 2524538

>>2524533
Doesn't everyone do that

No. 2524550

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Being a women and having a cycle feels like an autoimmune disease sometimes. Every day I feel something twitching, itching, pinching me. My tits hurt sometimes. My uterus the other day, I feel horribly depressed, I have no apetite, I want to eat a lot. I'm pissed at everyone, I get emotional because of a sweet flower… I'm tired anonas

No. 2524551

>>2524415
>t. mentally ill woman

No. 2524552

>>2524388
I feel like I see nonas talking about schizophrenic men every day that I come here. Why do so many of you date schizos

No. 2524553

>>2524552
It’s really not far fetched, women who post on this site are mentally ill, so naturally they’re going to predominantly be with mentally ill men. Some people think the world doesn’t work this way, which is hilarious

No. 2524558

>>2524553
Let's stop for a minute

No. 2524568

>>2524558
Im just being real. Birds of a feather stick together, most people on this site don’t even interact with people irl, so of course they’re going to only interact with fringe losers because they themselves are fringe losers

No. 2524569

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the semester is over and im taking summer classes but those dont start until near the end of the month. im so depressed. i always get depressed after the semester ends.
i love being busy, being a workaholic. this semester i have 2 jobs, but one is on pause because it's a tutor position at my school so. i start again when classes begin.
and its not like i need to pick up a new hobby; i only feel fulfilled through academia and i don't know why. i love learning, talking to the professors, interacting with my classmates and helping them understand concepts. i was blowing up the groupchats during finals week asking who needs help going over the review and making visual diagrams/explanations of stuff, i got sent invite links to other sections and did the same. its just so much fun. i will probably go for my masters after i get my bachelors

i just want to cry right now though, i feel so empty. my husband says i must be running from something because any time im sad he thinks its because of him for some reason? and he should be enough to make me happy. it makes me feel alone. being in college makes me feel alive and with a purpose. im doing something productive not only for myself but for other students.

i miss my professors the most, they were so fun to talk to. i live in a city with low literacy rates and for the first time ever i finally had an intellectual conversation with some people. like im not really smart, but my friends/coworkers would often make fun of me for using words bigger than 2 syllables. i could finally talk to people about my special interests because its also their special interests, and because they're much older = more experience, i got to learn even more. it made me so happy. now im just feeling empty. i wish i could talk to my professors every day.

No. 2524570

>>2524415
I guess.
>>2524552
Like other anon suspects I am indeed ill myself, but more functional/with a less "scary" issue. He was really satisfying my saviour complex for a whole year, but maybe I need to change in order to ever live a healthy life. He can't change, but I can.
I don't have any hate for people who experience psychosis and I'm very open-minded. But it's embarrassing to be mistreated in any way by a man like this. If he doesn't really like me what am I even doing wrong?

No. 2524571

got a magic bullet blender, used it twice, and i hate it so much.

No. 2524572

>>2524568
If you go into most threads though you will see nonas talking about their jobs, schooling, friendships, relationships, and activities they do in their day to day life though. I actually think the majority of nonas here live some what normie lives. Maybe you’re comparing lc to male dominated image boards. Men are much more likely to be losers than women

No. 2524575

>>2524571
Same, can't believe how tv shows and movies were pushing this garbage product, what an awful fad

No. 2524576

>>2524572
While that may be true, they’re still on a turkmenestani women’s paddleboarding forum, and if you think for a second that anyone in an image board isn’t mentally ill you need to take a look at yourself from the outside looking in. People with mental illness can function like normal people, but it’s just natural to be more inclined to people of familiarity, and in this case, those people of familiarity are the mentally ill.

No. 2524577

>>2524576
Forgot to sage

No. 2524578

>>2524550
>having a period is like having an autoimmune disease
No.

No. 2524582

>>2524577
we're in the vent thread on /ot/?

No. 2524593

>>2524572
Most mentally ill women can mask, this means nothing. I'm probably BPD and I know I can seem normal and lead a normal life with a job and friends but my head is a mess

No. 2524621

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Nonas, how do you deal with someone in a friend group that you find tolerating to be difficult? She…
>makes conversations about herself or her life in otherwise, mostly unrelated discussions that we'll have about something else
>only discusses movies, tv shows or books for either shipping, fetish content or just jerking off to how much she wants to fuck a particular character
It's not a long list of things and I'm not trying to set out on hating her, but it's super annoying and I cannot help but roll my eyes whenever she does that.
Worst part is that she's pretty much universally liked by everyone in our group so I feel like I'd be in the minority here with my opinion. Never once have I heard anyone say a single bad thing about her, compared to others who've been (rightfully) called out for stupid or annoying behavior. Plus, it's obvious they all do like her a lot so I'm not sure what to do exactly.

No. 2524628

>>2524621
>only discusses movies, tv shows or books for either shipping, fetish content or just jerking off to how much she wants to fuck a particular character
damn i wish i was her friend

No. 2524642

>>2524628
I don't mind it and sometimes do it myself, but when that's all you ever have to contribute to a discussion it just gets annoying after a while I'm sorry.

No. 2524686

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I feel the desire to get back into a video game but I know mentally I don't have the capacity. I'm also really picky and hate most of the games or drop them when I don't like the artstyle or some feature. I used to be really into Eternal Sonata for example, or I have an on and off addiction with Stardew Valley. I just want to fall in love with a game again.

No. 2524697

It makes me so sad to think about if I ever got pregnant that there’s a big chance I’ll have a son. This is the reason why I’ll never have children even though a part of me desires to have a daughter someday. I know you can choose the gender through IVF, but I cannot imagine putting myself through that. I also know that adoption exists, but I feel weird about lining up behind 500000 other people in America waiting for a baby to be born from a poor mother forced to give up her baby, and I’d feel too bad to foster a daughter because it feels wrong to go into foster care with the intention of trying to stop a girl from reuniting with her real family. I’ve accepted my fate and I do enjoy being childless, but it’s sad to think about sometimes.

No. 2524724

After 10+ years of dating I've realized that money is the only thing men genuinely have to offer. I wish my mom had drilled it into my head to marry a rich man rather than a good looking, funny, or kind man.

No. 2524727

>>2524697
You should adopt nonny. You adopting a girl would save one more child from potentially falling into the hands of a moid pedo. However there's a strong preference for girls especially baby girls in the adoption world. So its unrealistic to aim for that imo. I intend to adopt a girl who is aged 5-10 one day.

No. 2524732

>passing giant clots
>Get blood tests that are clearly abnormal
>Ask doctor
>
>"This is all normal!"

Can't wait til I die so my family can sue

No. 2524733

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No. 2524736

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It's my brother's wedding this weekend and I honestly don't really wanna go because I hate most of my family. I get on with my brother but I can't stand most of the rest of my family and I moved away for a reason. I swear to god if anyone mentions anything about my appearance (because god forbid I don't have the body of a 14 year old anymore when I'm in my late 20s), the fact I don't have and don't want children, or says anything even remotely sly or insulting to me, I'm going to smack the shit out of them. I've had 5 years away from these freaks and I will not be putting up with any bs especially as it's a 2h journey to the wedding place.

I don't want to and don't care to know what you fat scrounging retards are up to, I don't care about your smelly autistic children and I don't want to hear you give your unwanted comments on areas of my life when I didn't even ask you to do it. I'm here for my brother and his wife and that's it.

No. 2524781

WHY CAN'T I MEET A HANDSOME OLDER MAN WHO IS OLDER THAN ME AND THINKS I'M ATTRACTIVE!? WHY IS IT ALWAYS YOUNGER GUYS WHO WANT THE MOMMY DOMMY BULLSHIT!? I'M NOT EVEN 5'0" TALL FOR FUCK'S SAKE.
This fucking torture. We don't even have to date, just give me attention.

No. 2524786

>>2524781
Why do you want an older scrote nona?

No. 2524796

>>2524786
Younger scrotes have been very porn-brained, and I'm tired of dealing with people younger than me like that. I suppose, I crave that of which I do not have, and I have not met an older man yet. I don't mean older as in senior age, but just my senior.
I miss looking up to people. I miss having a crush on a "senpai" or whatever word equivalent is we have.

No. 2524815

I saw all the recent stuff about Eugenia Cooney earlier, and it ruined my day. I just feel so bad because it's clear she has no control over her life and her family enables her. Just so depressing, gosh.

No. 2524830

>>2524796
iif you think older scrotes arent porn brained youre up for disappointment

No. 2524832

>>2524796
>she thinks older men aren't porn brained
anon…

No. 2524839

>>2524796
I used to think exactly the same thing after getting out of a relationship with someone younger. My next relationship was with an older man and unfortunately I can confirm that the only older men that will date significantly (more than a few years) younger women are extremely immature for their age. Normal, well-adjusted men will seek out women their own age. Pornsickness is not limited by age, but there are men out there that will choose to not consume it either by their own volition or your request. Their age is irrelevant.

No. 2524842

>>2524288
Happy for you anon.

No. 2524844

>>2524839
this and it doesn't help that older men who date younger women are generally more shallow and misogynistic than men their age who date in their age group.

No. 2524851

>>2524830
>>2524832
>>2524839
>>2524844
I used to not be afraid of dying alone because I generally do not give a fuck. But this is dreadful to read and I'm at a loss of what to do. Without that desire to improve myself and my trade in order to impress someone I have a crush on, I feel aimless. Back to the drawing board I guess.
Porn was a mistake.

No. 2524853

>>2524796
You're going to end up taking care of some old man and waste your life.

No. 2524854

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I reached out to one of the closest online friends I've ever had but I feel like I shouldn't have, because I heartlessly ghosted her several years ago for no good reason and know I had messed her up pretty bad about it. She used to desperately reach out to me, even e-mailed me a long e-mail saying she's sorry for whatever she may have done wrong and that she really misses me. She had even told me she used to have a crush on me, which I was completely blindsided by. I used to be so close with her and I destroyed it from self-isolating from everyone I know, even my good friends like her.

I know I can never expect anything to be the same ever again. It's been so long that for all I know, she's probably married, with kids, and/or already has multiple other people that have been a better friend than I could have ever been. I hope she's okay at least. I'm slightly worried because last time we met she mentioned she had BPD and seemed to smoke alot (finished a whole pack in the 1-2 hrs we were hanging out). I can't help but think I'm, at least in part, to blame for that. She cared about me alot and was one of the only friends I've ever had that did care like that..and I fucked it up. I don't even know how to begin making it up to her. Do I even deserve to be in her life anymore? At best, she is indifferent to me now and I'll never be more than an acquaintance. At worst, she must hate me and I'm probably a leading cause of all her mental health issues and chain-smoking.

No. 2524858

What if I fucking kill myself? Huh? What then???

No. 2524861

I feel like my sister in law is being purposefully contradictory to me or something. I can't tell, if I say something like "wow it's cold in here" she will say something about it being warm and then turn down the tempature, but she keeps doing it about everything. It's annoying and bothering me. I get the feeling she doesn't like me, but why can't she just fuck off and leave it why does she have to do little stuff like that

No. 2524868

>>2524854
I can relate to a lot of what you posted nonna but I think you are being too hard on yourself. I'm sure your friendship was meaningful to her, but not to the point where you are to blame for her mental health issues and chain-smoking. I think you are dealing with very serious guilt and shame that might not be totally related to her, because you seem to feel guilty and bad whether she was upset by your ghosting or whether she moved on from you, it's a catch-22 you can't win. You didn't "ruin" anything, you were just not ready to have such an intense friendship and needed to be alone for a moment for whatever reason and that's alright. Be kinder to yourself.

No. 2524873

>>2524796
It's naive to think older men aren't porn brained. They're from the purchase dvds and magazines behind your wife's back generation.

No. 2524877

One of my coworkers leaving our team is actually setting off my abandonment issues, it's so stupid.
We weren't particularly close in any real way, he did help me with my job since I took his old position but nothing big. I'm sobbing and feel miserable, it's nuts. This is like when my friend (not necessarily one of my best but still a friend) moved away last summer and I nearly fell apart. It now feels like I'm going to lose everyone and be so alone.

No. 2524881

>>2524873
>>2524853
ayrt I didn't even list my age. I'm not talking about senior aged. I'm talking maybe at least 4 years older than me kek

No. 2524887

>>2524881
Your choice of words heavily implied at least 10-15+ years older anon kek

No. 2524888

>>2524881
that's not even out of your generation anon. even if you're like 25 a 30 year old accesses social media the same way 25 year old males do!

No. 2524889

i love my husbando so much

No. 2524892

>>2524881
Ntas but I get what you're saying, and I ended up married 6 years my senior for this reason. I'm zillenial but a LOT of the guys my age had really bad problems with ED, like fully not working level, at early 20s, it was nuts. My husband isn't much older, young millenial but I don't think porn hit his generation quite as bad. He doesn't have any of the signs I'd come to recognize and when I brought it up he seemed confused and said he didn't really even consider watching while dating since if you're dating someone you can just have real sex. Even the way he looks at women is different than guys from previous relationships. I think porn just didn't hit his generation as hard or as young… he said the first time he ever watched it was 14, which I would consider pretty old

No. 2524897

Spent alsl day crying.The ugly horrible crying where you dont evenn want to take nicepictures of yourself ccryrying in the mirror. F eel like an absolute fuckign lloser and a fucking FREAK. I;’m still shakign and I can’t believe that this is my fucking llief . I hate mysellf so much now and I’ll nesver stop hating myself. I am a freak of nature and I would be better off dead. I should just kill myselfbecause it’s obvious that nobody will ever love me now becuase of f hti SHIT!. Ist obvious that I,m just a freak. I can’t even breath my throat hurts from screaming but the screams keep coming because I can’t control myself because of this. I should have never gone to the doctor. I should have never got my blood tested. I wouldtn have known anythingand I would have still been pure and good. I want to be good and pure so fuckingso bad please why can’t I be normal..Why did the tests have to show me the truth why couldn’t I have lived in ignorance why couldn’t I just have been born normal and been born right. I DONT WANT TO BE A FREAK I DONT WANT THIS. My whole world was shattered today and it will never be repaired and it will never be the same..I wax happy living in ignorance but my evil fucking jerk doctor made me do this. AND I WAS HAPPY TO DO IT BECAUSE I DIDNT KNOW. I DIDNT KNOW THE TRUTH. I shoudl have never gottenr my blood type tested I should have never done what the doctor wanted I should haveneveer done this. I don’t want to have A- blood type I don’t deservw tohave A- blood type I don’t want it I don’t need it why cant I just be fucking normal why cant I be one of the lucky ones. All my fucking life I thought I was a good blood type now I got thisstupid fuckign test and it tells me my whole life is a FUCKIGN lie and that Im a fucking FREAK OF FUCKIGN NATURE I HATEMY FUCKING LIFE I HATE MY FUCKING LIFE whats even the point of trying to live a normal life???? I dont want to be A- I DONT WANT TO BE A FUCKING FREAK I WANT TO BE NORMAL. I cant breath Im cryingso baldy I just want to be normal please God I don’t want to be A- I want to be normal please god WHY WANST I BORN RIGHT WHY WASNT I BORN O+ FUCK MY LIFE

No. 2524903

What if I fucking explode

No. 2524907

>>2524897
Gr8 b8 m8 I r8 8/8
also kek I'm o+

No. 2524910

>>2524887
ayrt lmao oops
>>2524892
See, I'm a millenial, and all the moids my age are already settled happily. I'm no home wrecker, but I just really love looking up to someone. All of my friends are, unfortunately, moids younger than me (I suck ass at socializing with women due to my bullshit idiot interests not aligning with anyone irl, and social media is full of gendies) and they're so horribly pornsick. They're fun to talk to normally but the second a fucking loli comes into their peripheral they go ape and start chimping all over it like they HAVE to fuck anime girls.
I know older men aren't pure or whatever bud god damn is there not even like one other moid out there than can spare his time to have a little shithead like me trying to impress him. I just need it for the motivation moreso than selfworth.
Though I am envious of you; I could never land a nigel of my own since dating is out of my skillset.

No. 2524913

>>2524907
Baiting with blood types is different I’ll give them that I guess. I’m some flavor of AB I’ve never really thought about it honestly

No. 2524915

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>>2524907
>>2524907
Imnot fuckgni baiign i hat eyou for beign O+ I HAT EYOU

No. 2524919

>>2524897
So you have AIDs?

No. 2524920

>>2524913
my mom always jokes mosquitos never like her because she's ab, how are your mosquito experiences nona

No. 2524922

nothing more annoying than a codependent parent
she gets to travel but i’m expected to not make plans while she travels so i can be her free petsitter
we don’t even live together anymore

No. 2524923

>>2524915
yo is this lucinda

No. 2524925

>>2524920
Oh that’s interesting! I occasionally get bit but it’s not very often. My best friend is an absolute buffet for them though kek

No. 2524926

>>2524913
It's important to know your blood type

No. 2524927

>>2524868
Thank you nona.
>I think you are dealing with very serious guilt and shame that might not be totally related to her, because you seem to feel guilty and bad whether she was upset by your ghosting or whether she moved on from you
Yes, since ghosting her I've been on the receiving end of being ghosted by several people I thought became good friends and every time it's happened I feel like it has been karma for what I did to her. My closest friend from high school even stopped talking to me. And I myself have become a huge serial ghoster since then…A really nice girl I met back in community college recently reached out to me after I hadn't talked to her for years, only for me to end up ghosting her again.

I just can't stop ghosting so even if said friend were to allow me back into her life, I can't make any guarantee I won't do it again. I've lost every last one of my friends because I've failed to even try and keep any of them in my life. As far as most friends I have known are concerned, I have disappeared off the face of the earth. I wouldn't be surprised if some of them think I'm dead. Pretty much all the socials I used to have them on are now deleted. Most of them don't have my number or anything else personal like that. Coming back would be like trying to reintegrate into society after having been stranded on an island in the middle of nowhere for the last 6 years.

>You didn't "ruin" anything, you were just not ready to have such an intense friendship and needed to be alone for a moment for whatever reason and that's alright. Be kinder to yourself.

Thanks, I hope so. She tried really hard to get back in contact with me after I disappeared. I've never had any other friend that tried so hard to look for me and wanted to talk to me that bad. Not even my in-person, supposed best friend from high school, because after seeing she didn't seem interested in talking or hanging out with me anymore, I ended up blocking her off of Discord and socials since I figured the friendship was dead anyway. Even she never bothered looking for me like this friend did. This friend is truly one of the only friends I've ever known that seemed to genuinely care. I think it's a testament to how close we used to be. I didn't think anyone could or would ever even care about me like that and I hate that I pissed all over it, but I hope I will do better at least.

No. 2524933

>>2524926
I’ll double check when I see my doctor again kek. I’ve never been eligible to donate blood or plasma which is how I think most people learn what it is, at least in my neck of the woods in Burgerland

No. 2524937

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>>2524897
Nona, I thought you were about to say you'd had a cancer diagnosis or something equally sordid, I wasn't expecting the subject of your despair to be blood types.

No. 2524940

>>2524937
elizabeth is that you?

No. 2524978

>>2524927
You did this to yourself and I hope she spends her time better somewhere else.

No. 2524983

My mum and I have had such different lives that we can't really relate to one another. She was really wild and wanted to make sure I didn't have a bad life like she did, so I ended up pretty straight edge and shut in. Honestly we don't have much to talk about and we don't have many memories together that have been happy and I struggle to really enjoy my time with her because her childhood makes her react in trigger-happy ways. If I say something in the wrong tone she accuses me of calling her a liar and she gets upset with me. It's exhausting. I love her but it's exhausting.

No. 2524987

I bought a tamale from the tamale truck and it kind of sucked, should have got it from the taco truck instead…there's was fucking crazy last year. The one from the tamale truck had almost no filling wtf

No. 2524994

>>2524897
don't worry i'm also A- we can double suicide together

No. 2525062

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I just remembered a few years back when I found the twitter account of someone I was friends with (irl) and we had already drifted apart at that point, but her likes were just filled with hetslop western genshin yaoi and strange kpoop imagines like female idols getting fucked by their producers next to cropped porn clips and it made me lose a lot of respect for her even as somewhat of a former degenerate myself. She also lied about her age on her account and I think she also tried to larp as genderspecial for a while. It just weirded me out because she didn't come across as that kind of person at all otherwise

No. 2525067

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I can't even tell if posts like these are satire or not anymore, I hate moids. I hate the fact that even when I find someone who makes some interesting content on one particular topic, I then see their social media and it's just redpilled scrotetalk. I really have to drop literally all male content creators except faggots in order to escape this shit

No. 2525069

>>2525067
In an ideal society males wouldn't even learn how to read, they'd just be forced to do manual labor. The hot ones can be used for sex but under surveillance because their animalistic nature cannot be trusted.

No. 2525072

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the vp of my department snapped at me for no reason in front of half the office today and i am so embarrassed and mad

it was obviously misplaced anger bc a bunch of people were giving him shit about something he fucked up but in the midst of it he mentioned having a tech issue… when i hear people having issues (especially tech/it) i typically come over to see if i can help bc idk its just what i do, im basically an admin manager at my job and i like helping people when they have trouble. so i walk up and interject "wait what issue are you having? i think it might just be-" and he snapped back something like "you know its fine, just leave it! i really dont need help. i need something to be mad about today so it can be broken and i can just be mad at it being broken okay?" and like halfway through saying it he tried to change his tone bc it was clear he realized he had just snapped at me for fucking nothing but it still was so awkward and the entire office got so fucking quiet after he said it.

i just looked at him like "uh wtf.." and said "okay… well i have enough shit to be mad about today myself, so i'll leave you to it!" and walked back to my desk but i had the biggest knot in my stomach because of how fucking embarrassing it was. and it pisses me off bc why am i even embarrassed? he clearly made a complete ass of himself and i know everyone feels the same way because of the way they just stared at him. i am super highly regarded there and known as someone who is nice and goes above and beyond to help people out so i know people probably just thought "what a douchebag". but for some reason i still feel humiliated and it makes me so angry. its not even bc im ~hurt~ or something bc i legit already hated this person prior to this interaction, its just such an awkward thing to happen. i seriously just want to work from home tomorrow because these people can go fuck themselves. wtf is wrong with people

No. 2525075

>>2525072
AND WOW TO MAKE MYSELF FEEL BETTER I GOT A HARD SELTZER AND RANGOONS AND I JUST WENT TO CRACK OPEN THE SELTZER AND IT EXPLODED EVERYWHRE AND ALL OVER MY RANGOON SO NOW IM SOAKED IN SELTZER AND EVERYTHING IS STICKY AND MY RANGOON ARE SOGGY AND TASTE LIKE BLACKBERRY WHITE CLAW. THATS IT NONNIES TONIGHT IS THE NIGHT I KILL MYSELF

No. 2525079

>>2525075
NOT THE RANGOOOONS

No. 2525080

Diet soda makes me really bloated. I had one after dinner and now my stomach hurts from the pressure. Drinking water slowly to try to reduce it..

No. 2525081

>>2524114
When I'm ovulating I feel so confident and assertive and I was just thinking, holy shit, is that how scrotes feel every day? Just a nonstop surge of unearned confidence? No wonder they think they run the place, I feel like I can conquer the damn world for like 5 days and then fucking PMS comes and slams me back down again. I hate it so much

No. 2525082

File: 1747360859451.jpeg (Spoiler Image,74.73 KB, 680x680, Gq9MNhGXAAAYLA3.jpeg)

Men are ruining a cute meme!

No. 2525083

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>>2525069
True. I got so sensitivie to those redpilled patterns of speech I can recognize them in a second irl and unfortunately there's more and more men like this irl, men who throw redpill terminology and defend age gaps out of nowhere. Overall I'm not in favor of age gaps but I still think there's a big difference between two people meeting randomly and liking each other, and men specifically targeting younger women and fixating on age gaps and rejecting women who are literally their age. I wish it was possible to find a guy who doesn't use interet but where… On the other hand, is it really possible for the internet to change male preference? Maybe it just triggers their true nature? Women cry about online porn consumption among men but if it can so drastically influence male preferences and behaviors maybe it just shows who they truly are. Just like giving women more freedom proved that many women, if given the choice, don't want to "naturally" settle for an ugly scrote and birth him a kid and do nothing else in life, but instead have more ambitious life goals plus they actually care about male looks, so do men, when given easier access to degenerate content (on the internet), also show their true colors…

No. 2525084

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My vent is that I think emojis should be fine if it's within the context of it being part of a "bit", such as >>2524227

No. 2525088

>>2525082
Men ruin everything, nothing new there.

No. 2525089

>>2525082
why are they so obsessed with dicks? why are men so fucking gay and retarded? why can't they just like a cute trend instead of tarnishing it with their malformed chromosome tendencies? Men are a demons who walk among us

No. 2525092

I ended up traveling to the fucking city my roommate keeps mildly threatening to move to, and it's been nothing but disappointment. I'm happy to visit family but I want to tell this asshole off next time she brings it up, because it's an objective downgrade if she left. I don't need her to pay for shit but every time she's mad she gets huffy and says she's moving and I wish she'd either leave or shut up. Never does, never goes and visits, turns out it's shit anyway, go figure.

No. 2525094

>>2525082
all men are faggots

No. 2525112

I swear to god the next time my dad pisses me off im gonna spit in his food

No. 2525118

I was dating this girl and we weren't official or anything but she ghosted me out of the blue and lied to me about it and now I want to die. I know it's not that deep but I just feel unlovable and undesirable and I want to jump off a bridge.

No. 2525121

>>2525116
>>2525117
and hopefully youll learn how to properly reply to posts KEKKKKKK

No. 2525124

>>2525121
It's gotta be a child or a teenager.

No. 2525128

>>2525122
if you cant figure out something as basic as replying to posts on an imageboard then its over for you. embarrassing!

No. 2525129

dang this guy i am seeing has a gendie sister, he was so close to being good enough for me to shave

No. 2525132

>>2525125
Are you replying to the wrong person? I don't get it

No. 2525134

>>2525130
i dont care its just funny to see someone spectacularly fail at replying while trying to be a le epic troll

No. 2525141

I'm terrified of the job interiview tomorrow. I've been posting about it here a lot so I apologize if it's getting stale but I have a lot of anxiety towards work. I feel like I'm way stupider than people think I am and that when I'm being evaluated it comes through and others become disappointed. I hate being disappointing. I wish I was smart.

No. 2525142

>>2524978
ayrt Talking to me again is for her to decide but I agree that I did this to myself. I've been repeatedly self-destructing for a long time now. It's just that I wanted her to know I'm in a slightly better headspace and point in life now, where I can hold myself together. Barely, but together.

No. 2525143

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I wish I was East asian or white european and it would be cute when I have an accent or make grammatical errors, but instead I'm just a retard butchering a language.

I'm already really insecure that I'm not fluent, but how am I going to be fluent if I just get made of when I try to practice???

I wish I could an hero and be born as someone who is just already raised with five languages at birth

No. 2525144

>>2525143
Was someone rude to you due to grammatical mistakes?

No. 2525145

>>2525143
What race are you?

No. 2525147

>>2525143
I had to talk to an Italian for the first time and wow I couldn't understand that bitch for shit. I hate anyone I can't understand like speak proper lol

No. 2525151

>>2525147
You probably sound retarded being monolingual yourself and functionally illiterate to boot, but who am I to judge?

No. 2525153

>>2525147
Summer's come early I see. Go back.

No. 2525158

>Bf's mom lives with us because she was forced to leave house with ex husband due to her alcoholic terrible behaviour
>First few months goes okay
>Life ruining event happens because she is a drunkard
>Haven't spoken to her since december despite her living with us
>Today out of no where she sends me a threatening text saying I ruined her son + she'll call the cops on me.
I cannot stand this fucking woman. I'm so happy WE'RE moving cause her ass couldn't be arsed to find a place. I'm so close to filing a restraining order on her. She's such a vile woman.

No. 2525160

my stupid card charged me twice and now i have to go to the bank because phone calls are too difficult for me. i don’t know why i have such bad luck with everything. i just want to take a long vacation and not have to worry about anything.

No. 2525162

>>2525144
My friend (who has the same accent as me) was made fun of for "butchering the language" JUST for having an accent by a French guy (who also has a really thick accent). It wasn't targeted at me, but my accent is something I'm really insecure about, and it sucks that no matter how hard I work at studying new languages, I'll always have it.

I really want to reach fluency, but my own dumb insecurities are really weighing me down

No. 2525167

>>2525162
He sounds like an ass, typical retarded moid behavior, don't stress about it nona and keep it up

No. 2525169

>>2525158
What on earth did she do

No. 2525174

>>2525160
phone calls are difficult, but going to the bank isn't? I'm genuinely curious, what is the hard part?

No. 2525175

>>2525174
Nta but bank helplines tend to have either a heavy accent, a long waitlist, bad connection, or bad attitude kek. Easier just to go in person and have someone help directly.

No. 2525177

>>2525174
it’s easier for me to explain things in person. i need to see the other persons expression. i need to be able to show them what happened. i hate going out, but i hate being misunderstood even more. whenever i mess up on the phone, it makes me breakdown kek. overall, it’s better for me personally.

No. 2525178

I want two boyfriends

No. 2525180

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My friends might be competing against each other for my attention now. I feel kind of bad. I wanted to have a best friend and kind of casted my line out as far as I could to see if I could develop such a bond after my previous best friend became an asshole, and I may have caught ore than I can handle. Now my relationships are imploding on me because I'm not tending to my friendships the way they're requiring of me.
It's a stupid as fuck problem to have and one of my own design. I just…. really miss that other friend. She's probably a gendie now. Most of the good ones end up getting taken over by that cult, and it was hard to watch her go. I don't want to talk to her ever again, and most of the bridges I burned I don't want to look back on.
But my goodness, what a mess I've made.

No. 2525183

>>2525180
It just means ur awesome and everyone wants u

No. 2525196

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I haven't been in lolcow since I was 18 and im 21 now, and my life feels like it's just gotten worse since then. I'm broke, short, fat, and I share a room with my dad, I still can't drive properly, etc.

It's already bad enough that I'm asian and in a 3rd world country lol, but I'm also studying a shitty major lmfaooo (couldn't change on time) and I'm probably gonna become an English teacher, which sucks. I'm behind uni for a year, everyone's graduating next year while I'll be stuck there for another year. My mom has a terminal sickness and she will never get a happy life or quality life in this household, she's only 56 and Parkinsons is ruining her (she's in the 3rd phase, as of now). Doesn't help that my older sisters are just waiting for her to die, constantly have to hear them verbally abuse her and my dad isn't helping at all, either. He refuses to understand how much money we need to spend for my mom to be able to live and she doesn't want a nurse at home to help her.

I can't be there for her at all times. Sure, both my parents weren't that good to us growing up but I hate it when they say I think money grows on trees whenever I make doctor appointments for her, I got her some physical therapy sessions today (we are starting tomorrow) and my sister lost it, calling me a retarded crazy bitch. I paid for them anyways… it's my own money and they've never spent a dime on her that wasn't our dad's. I don't know why I can't just die already. Sometimes i think it's my fault our mom is sick, because she spent so much time being a housewife and raising me was the nail on the coffin since my parents had me pretty late in their life. If I wasn't born and they just felt satisfied by my sisters they could've retired early.

No. 2525202

A man randomly has popped into my life and is disrupting the fuck out my thoughts. He saw me 6 months ago and has been trying to be around me since. I finally met him (without my planning or doing) and he is unabashedly in my face with his presence. Now it’s fucking disrupting my life and I’m so absolutely annoyed. I can’t stop thinking about him now, even though im in a committed relationship. I want to die. It’s actually making me want to freak the fuck out. He knows I’m in a relationship and yet he purposefully is trying to get my attention. Like in a way that is obnoxious and intoxicating. It’s like he knows exactly what I want him to say. He won’t bother me over the phone but in person it’s like his full attention is so fully on me and he says and does everything that draws me in. I do not want to be this person, I do not want to be so fucking interested and drawn in. I can not stop replaying what he says and how he moves towards me, how he looks at me, what he says to me. I wish i never met him, I wish i never went to my friends house that day, I wish they didn’t push us towards each other. I’m going to actually go insane.

No. 2525210

>>2525180
>>2525202
mildly pathetic feeling that im jealous of these posts

No. 2525211

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I wanna go home.

No. 2525222

>>2525210
same tbh

No. 2525232

>>2525202
Your choices are your own. If he bothered you that much you would have already distanced yourself. You like the attention and you are attracted to him and also don’t respect your partner.

No. 2525233

the fact my family got an extremely lucky and good deal on this house feels almost like a curse because ive hated living here for over a decade, ive literally been here all 20+ years of my life and i want to live somewhere else so bad but i have no idea how ill ever do it on my own. im autistic and i struggle so badly to even function properly on my own. i feel like living here makes my loneliness and social isolation worse than it would be somewhere else because its a smaller rural town full of people double my age. whenever i get to go on a trip to the larger cities nearby full of people my age and tons of stuff to do i just want to cry of jealousy afterwards

No. 2525234

My back hurts but I don’t want to get out of bed

No. 2525235

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>>2525180
>one of my own design

No. 2525236

>>2525202
You are the kind of person that always ends up cheating when offered the change because you lack accountability. It’s always someone’s fault and never yours
>if he stopped bothering me
While missing the fact that he keeps engaging with you because you give him the leeway
>what he says, what he does, stays on my mind
While missing the fact that if you had these strong feelings towards him and felt uncomfortable with them distance would be right solution

No. 2525237

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Posted this before but yeah I am a huge pickme irl when in a relationship naturally since I feel love that way and suffering

At 25 just got into my first relationship and this is hell I literally find the moid a 10/10 . Cause although he has a gut, dicklet, greasy etc he has a really cute face to me and I like pasty nerdy guys. I tried wearing makeup all the time with him, paying for when I can 50/50 even though he is wealthier, doing his chores,giving his unwashed dicklet ahh sex whenever he wants (he literally rewears old laundry, barely see him shower and has always oily dandruff hair) mofo couldn't even spit to help the experience be less dry. And before you guys call me a troll for being such a pick me, like I said I see/saw him as perfect and I am naturally a pushover pickme irl if I like someone since in my mind they deserve it.


Regardless the issue is that I could tell he doesn't like me as much as I do for him. I am diagnosed tistic and even I could tell it. I confronted him about it and he was like well I like your appearance but you are not a 10 you aren't like Scarlett Johansson. Which she is heavier than me and he told me he would like me more if I lost weight whichh doesn't makes sense, also doesn't make sense that he would pursue me since I don't have hooded eyes like her or a big jaw/mouth etc. Also before he had bitched about me not liking stuff he likes which he knew before entering the relationship.


Is there anyway to find a moid who likes you as much as you like him? Reddit literally thinks this is normal behaviour for them to use us like this just cause they are desperate. Is my standard of finding a guy who likes me as much as I like him that high ?


Again not a troll and writing this after a night of drinking cause fml so sorry for the shit writting(integrate)

No. 2525238

>>2524910
>They're fun to talk to normally
>but the second fucking loli comes into their peripheral they go ape and start chimping all over it like they HAVE to fuck anime girls.
I don’t know you guys but I would feel highly uncomfortable being “friends” with these kind of people. You seem suspicious for being fine with it too, because the fact that you keep hanging with them despite this is telling.

No. 2525246

Yesterday all I ate was McDonald’s and today all I ate was dominos. I’m so gross.

No. 2525251

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Drunk finally. Havent drank since it happened. You shall burn in hell and say no 1 million times and it wont happen. Youll make fun of whoever does it for their strength but it wont work!!! Betacuck!!! I’ll get better coping mechanisms later. Fuck you fuck you fuck you!! Fuck you!!!

No. 2525252

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No. 2525255

>>2525237
There are decent men out there but you won't find them by being a pickme. That's a guaranteed way to get shitty dudes. Break up with this one and keep trying. Work on not being a gigasped first or you'll only land disappointments. You're hot, you'll find another moid easily.

No. 2525259

>>2525255
True but how would I change me being a sped simp autist?
Not trying to not improve I just genuinely feel it is a core part of my personality you know?

No. 2525264

>>2525259
Nta but dating is a game of watching and waiting for red flags and dipping immediately. It's about setting tests and watching your partner either pass or fail and determining the status of the relationship based on that. If you truly are a simp sped then you need to meet someone who matches that same energy and STOP falling for and settling for men who do not care about you. This should make you repulsed by them.

No. 2525265

>>2525264
Yeah I think that would be easier for me since changing my personality would be alot. I think I just set a test to this one moid and he failed correct?

No. 2525266

>>2525237
>10/10
>has a gut, dicklet, greasy
See the issues is that you get with ogres who want to humble you because they are insecure and know that you are the one getting the short end of a stick in the relationship. The key , if you want to even spend your life and vital energy with a scrote in the first place (to me it seems useless kek), is being with one who is secure where he is, a handsome 10/10 with a career would not be thinking about comparing his girlfriend to an actress he’ll never have a chance with, even if he is his favorite actress, because he knows it’s disrespectful.

No. 2525267

>>2525259
You need to learn to keep that shit to yourself. Write cringe shit in your journal and don't say anything to the scrote you're simping for. Like >>2525264 said you need to watch out for red flags and immediately vanish the second you find one, because red flags are like cockroach infestations, where there's one there's a million.
Men who want endless validation will keep you around purely to feel important, they won't care about you as a person or as a partner. You have to find one who truly loves and cares for you.



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