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No. 1930750
What ails you, o anon?
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I haven't spoken to my friends in over a month and it's been amazing. I haven't had to come up with things to say, I haven't had to be funny or witty, I haven't had to listen to other people talk. It made me realize that I'm not an incredibly social person, and that I really only need one friend to be happy. The problem is that I feel immense guilt for ghosting my friends. Every day I think about how I'm going to broach this topic with them. They deserve to know why I haven't talked in over a month, but I have no clue how I'm going to explain it to them. It's not as if they're bad people, either. I just think something is wrong with me.
No. 1931416
>>1931370Anon, I'm the same. But are you sure there is no reason for you not to talk to them? Personally I realized there are things I actively dislike in my relationships with certain people and it exhausts me but addressing it will likely be futile because I doubt they'll take it well. But it would be too dramatic to "officially" end these relationships, moreover, one of them is my sister, kek. I feel like I try too hard to be nice though, so that's what I probably have to change and it will likely change our relationships as well (my recurrent ghosting has already put some distance between us).
You can tell your friends you were overwhelmed and it was hard for you to talk but you can't really explain why. Some might not accept it/like it but the majority will probably take it without any questions and complaints and will be happy to hear from you. Don't overexplain yourself. Many people go through times when they want to be alone.
No. 1931418
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I created a burner account to DM my ex and call him a faggot and a whore and tell him that I hope they name a strain of AIDS after him because he cheated on me and has multiple rape allegations. It wasn't even cathartic, I don't feel any better, I feel worse because I remember all the times he used to be so nice to me
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I've doxed celebrities when I have fallen into bipolar manic benders. I don't do anything with the information. I figure if the bling ring could do it I could too, and yeah, stuff can be public. not always under trustees, sometimes it's just out there in the fucking open. The internet is scary
No. 1931440
>>1931416They're not necessarily bad people, or at least their flaws aren't so pronounced that someone could find fault with them. I really do think it's a me issue. Sorry that you've had to ghost your sister, though. That sounds stressful, to say the least.
My problem is that I'm honestly not interested in continuing these friendships. This month has been so peaceful and I can't imagine going back after this, but I feel an obligation towards them.
No. 1931460
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I'm still friends with the guy I lost my virginity to when I was 11 and he was 13. We were friends with benefits for a long time but we'd only fuck during the periods where he didn't have a girlfriend. I actually loved him and wanted to be in a relationship but he said he had commitment issues (even though he got in a relationship with a girl years ago and they've been going steady ever since). I've been in a bunch of relationships since but I haven't let anyone see me naked or touch me since. He irreparably damaged me and I don't know how to cut him off when I spent so long acting like everything was fine and repressing my feelings
No. 1931465
>>1931460This is
toxic AF, you need to push his guy away and never talk to him ever again. Instead of loving him and wanting to be in a relationship with him you should be pursuing therapy
No. 1931510
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I become a total doormat when I'm in love so now I stay away from men and the world in general like a recluse because I can, but sometimes I'm still nostalgic for the feelings of love I felt even if it was at my expense.
No. 1931634
I've beaten disco elysium like 4 times now, going on 5. I've become so in love, like literally in love with Tequila Sunset and Kim, i had a dream that was so fucking hot and heavy.
I become attached to the dumbest shit in the world, like my favorite games are Sims 4, Fallout New Vegas, Disco Elysium (of course) and Hypnospace outlaw.
I often wonder what that says about me and what I like in games, roleplaying? I don't know, but man is disco Elysium a great game. I'm literally looking into buying's Kims jacket and when I get it Im going to play the game naked in just the jacket, nothing sexual, I just want to do that
I'm drunk but i'm not stupid.
No. 1932397
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I am not a Christfag, but I can't help but cheer for christianity over other mainstream faiths because I love the idea that out of all the narcissistic delusional despots on this planet, the mass-raping murderers and inbred god kings, some poor carpenter became a God for billions and his saintly mother is more well-known and more beloved than all those "great men" and conquerors.
No. 1932399
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I used to hate summer so much and anything related to it, i would get anxiety and feel super down just at the thought of summer approaching and having to endure it but honestly gacha games helped me appreciate it.
I know they do it for scrote reasons but i've come to really like elaborated cute swimsuit and vibrant colors, i used to be kind of a goth kid so i can't really put in words how much of a change that was.
I also really hate seeing people in swimsuits irl, i can't stand sun, and i've never learnt how to swim because whenever i tried as a kid i would always risk drowning.
So since those silly swimsuit cards and costumes in gacha games, i started enjoying tropical and beachy themes and sometimes long for that kind of relaxing and bright feel i know i could never enjoy irl.
No. 1932524
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>>1932399I relate hard nona, I love how bright and colorful summer cards are. like an idealistic version of summer
No. 1932528
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>>1932399Love Live cards used to be absolutely lovely! i totally agree with you, i absolutely despise summer and i dread it, but seeing husbandos in trunks cheers me ups
No. 1932686
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I developed very fast and it always made me very conscious of my body, i was a weeb for almost my whole life so i found gentle and cute female characteres who tend to be remembered just for being characters "with big boobs" and nothing else very comforting.
I hated how being busty was associated with things i disliked, i knew those characters were sexualized too and that they pander to male audience but i just really loved how they would let them be cute and shy and not turn them into gross latex bikini sluts characters or whatever.
In my mind i still think that all of those characters would be better with smaller breasts but if that was so i wouldn't have found them conforting and i would have continued to feel alone and disgusting.
Also i'm embarassed that i still struggle with it at my age but it's hard sometimes, whenever i feel this way i go look at cute fanart of those characters or original works, no matter if they come from a moid-gaze series, and it helps me feel a bit better.
No. 1932859
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>>1932222Badass and witnessed
No. 1932915
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I want to be completely open with people but I don't think they would understand me.
No. 1932953
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I can't focus on my extremely important assignment due tomorrow. It's not even difficult. I hate ADHD, it's the only issue I have that I can't just brute force my way through like depression or anxiety.
No. 1933129
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>>1933058You're doing well Anon.
No. 1933255
>>1933187i do think there are moids out there who's brains are so broken they love
abusive women, and i can only speculate why
No. 1933256
>>1933255Yeah like how can we
trigger this on a mass scale?
No. 1933357
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I sometimes whistle when I talk. It's rare now, and I did a bit more when I was child. My mom thought it was cute but it just pissed me off. I remembered about it the other day because I said something to myself and it happened. Made me laugh.
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one of my biggest accomplishments is that I was able to recreate my sims mods folder to my absolute complete likeness that it makes me super happy. i shouldn’t be excited over a boring computer game but it looks so much better
No. 1933810
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Forgive me if this sounds totally convoluted and terminally online but I need to vent about this.
One of my online friends is an intersex bisexual man. Recently I’ve been considering converting to Christianity, and I’ve been posting about it, as well as my struggle with gender dysphoria (I don’t want to troon out) and my frustrations with the LGBT community. Right after I started talking about this he made a post that said “Self hating trans people are insane, what do you mean you’re devoting your life to Jesus and you hate gay people now? Either slit your wrists or take hormones, you’re clearly not happy.” I assumed the post was directed towards me because I’m the only person he follows who posts about this stuff so I unfollowed him.
I was angry so I posted a screenshot of his post with his name blurred out and said that he of all people should be sympathetic towards what I’m going through considering he constantly posts about his mental illness and how childhood trauma made him develop weird unethical kinks. I also mentioned how a couple months ago he was threatening to kill myself and I was frantically messaging him begging him not to but he ignored me and after all that he didn’t even attempt it. One of my followers sent the post to him and he messaged me today and told me that the post wasn’t about me and I’m being neurotic. He accused me of mocking his mental illness and childhood trauma. I told him I wasn’t mocking it, I was just saying that he should be more sympathetic to what I’m going through. I took down the post but he’s still angry at me and giving me the silent treatment.
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>>1933810>my struggle with gender dysphoriaGod it feels so good being a GNC stacy with a healthy relationship with my masculine side.
No. 1934693
>>1934572i wait for my bf to fall asleep and then i play on my nintendo switch for a few hours kek
if he wakes up i just tell him i couldn't sleep like this is a once in a while thing, rather than something i do on the regular
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>>1934723Oh absolutely, don’t ever insinuate he
should pay, he will get a massive ego boost from that and will utter some smarmy Jordan Peterson esque “logic” that basically boils down to “are you a prostitute? If I’m not guaranteed a chance to use your body like an object for my pleasure, then you don’t deserve kindness and generosity”
Ghosting is the right thing to do. He won’t figure it out until it’s too late, he will be 40 odd still splitting bills wondering why he never gets a second date.
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I like to put a doll that represents me, either irl or in a game, sleeping or being in a comfy place so whenever I feel down, I imagine myself in that comfy place or sleeping. I guess I kind of use that doll as some sort of thing? That just helps me channel the comfy feelings. I've done this throughout my whole life and today I just noticed that I do it.
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I also want this so much, you can't even begin to imagine
No. 1934968
>>1934949proud to admit i literally have no idea who that is. i'm talking about
yamaguchi tomohiro, i'm embarrassed to admit this, but he's pretty damn fine for a guy in his mid 30s
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>>1934948Definitely, I agree that for a significant period before the recession it was the last true golden age of America and the West as a whole. I believe we are currently experiencing not only an economic decline but also a cultural decline. It is a slow and painful process, but it will eventually come to an end, and hopefully things will start anew.
No. 1934994
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>>1934905>>1934914We used to be a proper country
No. 1935172
I kno anons will bully me relentlessy but i wanna share my "confession" of being a sugar mommyish.
I work in stem so my salary is good, while my bf is still a student and works as a waiter. Even when he graduates, he'll probably make less than half of what i make. So in general, i tend to pay more in our relationship, mostly because i wanna spend my well deserved money since im working my ass off (both like i did in college and now at work). cant let the money rot. So i buy tickets for concerts and i do end up paying some of his ticket because he cant spend money as freely as me, and i enjoy going with him.
Now before lolcow calls me a pickme for dating a guy much "poorer than me" and paying more:
1. He does like spending all the money he has with or for me. It just isnt enough for luxury things. He uses his money to come see me, buy stuff for our future home like towels, kitchen tools etc. (Our home emphasized, i make the final decision in everything he gets).
2. Im introverted so i only know guys from my major or my work. I dont date guys even 1 year older so most guys at work arent gonna be my type, as im 23. And in general i hate most men in stem as theyre either sexist, unwashed, has deep forehead wrinkles because they only drink energy drinks and spend too much time online, or all of the above.
3. My bf genuinely is passionate about womens rights as he always had strong female bonds and seen women she cared about get preyed upon.
4. Bf is also a terf.
5. I find him attractive, he is more attractive than me. Is very underweight but facewise im uglier objectively.
6. I know you wont believe it but i never found any evidence he watched porn. Before we dated, he said he sometimes watched stuff but most porn was "brutal" For him. His kinks are vanilla as shit and he talks about them like he's nasty so i genuinely feel like he isnt pornbrained, which is extremely rare.
7. In the 3 years we dated, he never yelled at me. Raised his voice like once, which was because i was beating myself over being mean to him. And he said he forgave me and dont wanna hear me beat myself up over it and get distant again because of guilt.
8. Unrelated but he writes me letters and poems. They are cringe but i do like that he is such a hopeless romantic
Idk am i redeemed? Am i a pickme? I just dont wanna go alone to places so paying for him and having him around makes stuff more fun for me. Thats why i dont think im a pickme. But im waiting for yoır judgement
No. 1935228
>>1935172Samefag. Replying to all in general.
>>1935186Cockcrazed is a sexist ass way to refer to a woman who commited the sin of being straight. I understand you believe this is pickmeism etc, but you are using incel lingo. Most women are straight whether you like it or not. I make the money i make so i can date guys who are nice without caring about our finance. He makes me happy, dated me before i started making money and while i was at my worse academically and thinking of quitting school. He didnt know i was gonna "be rich" And still bought me a promise ring 2 months after starting dating, idc if its cheap he spent what is a good amount of money for him.
Idc about getting shit on for "defending a man". All the other replies are fine whether they think im wrong or correct. This one is just sexism. Stop calling straight women deragotary terms.
No. 1935251
>>1935172men can't be terfs. other than that you needn't the anon seal of approval, but i'd advise you to always keep your finances separate and makes sure he has olans for the future that dinnt involve moiching off of you. yeet him the second he starts slacking off. you don't want to hitch your wagon to a lsoer scrote who sees profits off tour high work
also don't marry him but if you do, for the love of god make an ironclad prenup
No. 1935261
>>1935251Thats good advice anon. I have the password to his bank account but he doesnt have the password of mine. I do plan on having separate accounts. We dont plan on marrying right now but i will still keep my money if we do. He knows im leaving in a minute if i find any hint of cheating/using etc anything else. I guess
terf was a wrong term. You guys are right
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This nonna’s post
>>1935439 reminded me of something stupid I have a bad habit of doing as a result of all cars looking the same to me in addition to being kind of an airhead. I don’t drive, so I often have people drive me places and then wait for me outside. I’ve gotten into the wrong car about a half dozen times at least… one time the guy in the driver’s seat was like “wrong car!” As I opened the passenger door. Im mildly hard of hearing and didn’t hear him or hear my bf yelling for me, so I sit down in the passenger seat and the dude is like “WRONG CAR!” and I was so embarrassed I leapt out of the car apologizing profusely. I’m glad I’ve never been kidnapped kek autists really need a wrangler in public
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>>1933187That's really sad. I want to hug a moid now.
No. 1935574
>>1935568No, that image, it's off model
Mega Man is 144cm and Samus Aran is 191cm
No. 1935597
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There’s this moid I have to interact with on a regular basis because he plays bass in my band. Lately I’ve been really upset because I found out my ex cheated on me and had multiple rape allegations and he’s been acting like I’m overreacting and being crazy. He still follows my ex. When we were together he made countless excuses for his behavior too. A couple days ago I started receiving these mysterious texts from an unknown caller and he started joking that I was probably talking about my ex with the unknown caller. I just snapped and told him off in front of everybody and asked him why he’s acting like I’m overreacting and being crazy when he has never been in a situation remotely like mine and if he was me he would be angry too. He just laughed and said “I don’t know.” He hasn’t talked to me the whole day
No. 1935623
I want an older moid with money like the one in this video, I don’t care.
No. 1935670
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>>1935626It's had some genuinely funny moments and episodes.
No. 1935778
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>>1935768My condolences… You'll probably just have to become good friends with the toilet in a bit.
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Whenever my dad would upset me in middle school, I would open my camera roll just to stare at this photo and cry
No. 1935975
>>1935973Your daughter needs that masculine figure in her life because how else is she going to know who to bow down to when she grows up? How else is male supremacy going to be normalised in front of her eyes every single day until like her spineless mother she internalises it as a necessity? I’m not even saying that you shouldn’t live with a man, I’m saying that
you, personally have already failed your daughter by being cowardly and spineless enough to be a man’s slave. Children only need a masculine figure insofar that the mother and her children need a meat shield to hide behind when things go awry.
No. 1935986
>>1935827Spring doing a number on all of us
nonnie. I feel you
No. 1936068
>>1936048He does 60 hours a week while you do 168.
>my "only" work is keeping up the home and be there for the babyMales are constantly undermining how challenging it is to look after a young child while managing household tasks. You’ve internalised this, of course, like a good girl. If you weren’t there, he’d have to actually get off his ass and do household tasks himself, but he has a) a maid and b) someone to put 90% of the work into raising their offspring (you admitted to this) to the point
they are too tired to even play with a ball, so that he gets to be the fun parent. Maybe the reason you can’t cope with discipline or playtime is because you’re exhausted? Maybe you’d have more time to actually bond with a child if you lived with other women, since they don’t think having a job entitles them to a slave who’s on the clock 24/7, and doesn’t see housework as beneath them so fakes weaponised incompetence to get out of it.
No. 1936072
>>1936068Samefag I don’t care if I get banned, I’m having such a hard time believing you’re a woman. Do you know how fucking easy it is to make a baby laugh? You can’t
play with a ball in a way that makes your 18 month old laugh? It’s not like you’re expected to kick it with the power of a male footballer is it? Only a man would come up with something so fucking stupid.
No. 1936082
>>1936077ntayrt but
>a woman enjoying male attention? wow you must be a sex offender you realize literally every human being ever hardwired to enjoy attention from others, right? how dare a lady want to show off and find a mate kek are all of you forgetting that the average woman isn't allergic to men the same way you are?
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>>1936074Clearly you are very sleep deprived because you have no reading comprehension and you didn’t bother to read the rest of the discussion. This is what I was replying to. Who the fuck said anything about “a pool of women”? I was merely suggesting a partner that does their fair share of childcare meaning you’re not so sleep deprived you can barely comprehend what you’re reading.
No. 1936086
>>1936083>>1936081>>1936072>>1936068take the blackpilling to the appropriate thread, not all of us are
femcels who are afraid of the difficulties of motherhood ♥
(baiting retard) No. 1936087
>>1936082And also, I didn’t say anything about them looking after the baby? I meant that theyd pick up housework. So I was suggesting that would give anon
more time and energy for leisure with her baby.
Also can I just say I’m so sorry that you got lumbered with a scroteling. That really sucks. Best of luck to you.
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>>1935833>I know moid hating is very in fashion esp on this websiteWhere do you people even come from
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>>1935833Baiter or newfag, begone
No. 1936117
>>1936110I love reading comments like this because I gave birth 2 months ago kek
>>1936112Good thing he has a loving father who takes care of him when ma's busy infighting!
No. 1936120
>>1936111You’re being very disingenuous. “You weren’t expressing an interest in men”, you were expressing an interest in yourself gaining male attention by dressing a certain way. Which, I’m sorry to say, is
very AGP.
No. 1936122
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>>1936119Can’t get divorced if he annihilates you and the children
No. 1936127
>>1936117I hope that’s true. Male children need all the help they can get to prevent them growing up into rapists. Even then it isn’t guaranteed they won’t.
Good luck with the moidlet. I mean that sincerely.
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>>1936117>he has a loving father>I gave birth 2 months ago Meanwhile minutes earlier:
> I'm love being leered at by random men teehee it's only natural uwu>how dare a lady want to show off and find a matecan't even keep the larp up, I see. You will never be a mother and you will never be a woman. You are an ugly balding man.
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>This whole board reeks of insecurity and is a prime example why misery seeks company. You call yourself feminists who care for women's wellbeing until one of them chooses to be a housewife. As soon as you dont fit into the role of an independent business girlboss, you get belittled and ostracized. Really pathetic behaviour!
No. 1936175
>>1936074Children are most likely to be abused by a parent or step parent. Babies can't speak, and toddlers often lack the knowledge and words to explain what happens to them at the hands of adults.
If you, as a mother, leave your baby alone with a man (including a husband) in any situation but a full-on emergency, you are irresponsible.
No. 1936176
>>1936168is there a reason not to support moms and wifes i totally get not supporting men thats
valid but why us
No. 1936180
>>1936168>>1936174Being a wife and mother does not automatically make you a bang maid or scrote worshipper. What
does is admitting you do 90% of. The child rearing and housework, acting like husbands 60 hour work week is comparable, and then saying “every child needs a strong masculine figure to look up to” which is what the anon said.
I think you’re the one who things being a wife and mother=bangmaid since you get angry and feel attacked every time a woman suggests it doesn’t have to be that way.
>>1936177I don’t think she can be bothered. It’s exhausting having to explain over and over again, we don’t hate mothers, we don’t care if they don’t want to be career stacies, we care about mothers and respect them deeply, which is
why we are so passionate about calling out their husbands for being lazy pieces of shit and leeching off their wife’s labour. It just becomes difficult when women suggest these leech like husbands are
necessary for healthy development, and that “masculinity” is necessary to raise a child. Masculinity is not necessary, it is exactly what made women a slave class that weren’t allowed their own bank accounts until the 70s. No child, especially not a girl child, needs to be influenced or stifled by masculinity in any way. Masculinity is not special or necessary.
No. 1936187
>>1936180But that was only just one anon? Just because
one mother here has some wagie fast food worker husband doesn't mean that's life for all of us. I'm anon from here
>>1936074 and my husband is able as much as he possibly can considering the fact that at this point in my childs life he needs to be constantly attached onto me. A healthy, loving masculine figure is necessary for the development of every child. That's what we've been referring to from the very beginning. Not just "masculinity" kek. The nuance is nonexistent.
No. 1936199
>>1936198It’s my strongly held belief that if a man still consumes porn while in a relationship (which is 99.9% of them according to
them) he wholeheartedly deserves to be cheated on.
The best solution would have been to just break up, but I’m not interested in ensuring your loyalty to a scrote. It’s just not wise to cheat on them because they chimp out over it.
No. 1936203
>>1936175My dad was so secretly
abusive to me I would cry and beg my mom not to leave me alone with him. He never sexually touched me but he made constant sexual comments around me and about me and my innocent child behaviors. It disturbed and disgusted me before I even had words to describe why it made me felt that way. The misogyny he would spew around me and casual comments about women and children being property and how they should be seen and not heard. Making sexual comments if I ever had a popsicle or a lollipop or banana or hotdog around him. I can’t even type about it anymore, I’m getting fucking flashbacks and feeling enraged. I honestly need to go smoke a joint. I know moids whose single dads would take them on outings only to show them photos of naked women and explain blowjobs and a “woman’s role” to them too so Scrotes don’t even have to have daughters to fuck them up sexually without any overt molestation. Grim.
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Ive been eating an insane amount of jalapeños and getting nightmares… but it’s ok because even in the very scary ones I get to see my dead brother and talk to him. I miss him so much. It worth it to see him again.
No. 1936215
>>1936207there are more
abusive fathers than neutral fathers. The amount of actual loving fathers - actual loving ones, not just ones that tick the box of being “not
abusive” - is slim to fucking none.
No. 1936216
>>1936214Keep talking to yourself, maybe you'll
trigger a tulpa wife era and won't have to keep coming here.
No. 1936219
>>1936215And Samefagging to say there’s no way you can tell how a man will act as a father. Statistically he will be
abusive in some way or you might get lucky and he will just be a lump who isn’t
abusive but adds nothing to a child’s life except maybe money. Landing a scrote who actually is a loving father is a like being struck by lightning of winning the lottery. Chances are even if the scrote isn’t actively abusing his child he is jacking it to teen girls and contributing to exploitation of women and trust me when men who are fathers watch porn it seeps into the way they interact with all human beings including their children. Most men are not suitable to ever be around children due to the simple fact that most of them are pornsick.
No. 1936220
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>>1936215>>1936219fascinating numbers here, if you want to play the statistics game
No. 1936222
>>1936196Cheers admin but I feel they might be ban evading
>>1936207I have reported it.
No. 1936224
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>>1936220samefag but when i google the prompt
percentage of abusive mothers vs fathers in the US i only see studies that say that mothers abuse children more frequently, at least according to recorded data.
(ban evasion) No. 1936230
>>1936227Agreed 100%. I don’t think men are even half as likely to actually have the abuse they inflict on their children reported to any authorities. Nobody I know who was abused by their fathers ever had it reported to any authority in any way. It has to be egregious. Whereas men will use a woman becoming frustrated and striking a child as ammunition to get the child taken away so they can do even more nefarious things to them and also use it as a way to psychologically abuse the mother. There’s also no sex/age breakdown of the children being abused. Are these women beating their scary teen moidlets and then they are running to their daddies to convict mean scary mommy?
Most father on child abuse isn’t going to be reported because of a variety of reasons. My mom was too scared to leave my dad because he always let her know he’d never work legally again and she’d get no child support and he would get custody of me because she’s been diagnosed with a mental illness (meanwhile my dad is extremely mentally ill but has no diagnosis since of course he doesn’t, moids never see a problem with their mental illness cause they take it out on external factors).
No. 1936245
>>1936242I fucking knew it kek. I wonder if he will ban evade again to try and refute it? So not only are they more likely to abuse, they abuse WORSE, and they also abandon their children so often that it has THIS dramatic affect on the statistic.
Men aren’t beating the allegations I fear.
No. 1936260
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Another screenshot
No. 1936283
>>1936270I've seen people say this, it opened my eyes on how much redpillers hate women. If our babies die we need to be further traumatized while already dealing with one of the most traumatic moments of our life, if our husbands die or leave its cause we're evil women and should've done better for our kids, or how they want to punish women for "false" rape accusations which will do nothing but silence
victims since majority of rape cases are written off as fake anyway. Everything is women's fault, never mens
No. 1936344
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I am very attracted to bimbos. Big lips, huge boobs, fake everything, slutty flashy clothes. If I were a scrote I’d probably want that kind of woman. Something about a woman willing to risk her life and health just to be a whore is one of hot in a cuck queen way.(USER HAS BEEN PUT OUT TO PASTURE)
No. 1936368
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>>1936365Nope they’re actual women they just got a lot of plastic surgery and have a bimbo fetish so they changed themselves to become that
(USER HAS BEEN PUT OUT TO PASTURE) No. 1937117
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My sugar addiction is getting out of control. I'm spending actually embarrassing amounts of money on candy. ironically i'm a recovering? ana-chan and it feels easier to eat a candy bar, because the wrapper tells me exactly how many calories it has, than for example to make a sandwich, where I would have to calculate all the ingredients separately, weight or eyeball amounts to know how many calories I'm eating. It's unhealthy and I know I wouldn't feel like shit all the time if I actually ate healthy instead of "whatever but over/under x amounts of calories" but I can't get myself out of the mental spiral and am constantly impulse-buying candy
No. 1937151
>>1937117Try fruit (or corn/carrots if you prefer vegetables), still sweet but less calories.
You could also buy, for example, presliced bread which roughly has the same calories per slice - so one calculation and you’re set.
No. 1937322
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>>1937261Glowing hard af, you are not slick.
No. 1937387
Ok. I don't know how this will fare on a Supposedly Radfem Website, but here goes.
I am a lesbian. I can find men visually attractive (rarely), but dicks seem just. Weird and alien and gross to me.
But. When I masturbate, I get off the easiest with a fantasy of being owned and used. Men creep up quite often into it. Pain does also.
Before you ask. No, I have never even consciously watched porn. Most I've seen are random screenshots and gifs. Porn doesn't seem all that interesting to me at all.
And in my real life, the only people I am ever comfortable around for intimacy, or even friendship, are all women. I currently have a crush on a girl and dated several before.
If that ever matters, by circumstance: I have limited experience with sex with women, although I see it as desirable irl. And with men. Well, I have had sex with one, not entirely consensually.
I just. Get a thing that would be best compared to "post-nut clarity" and I hate myself every time out of cognitive dissonance. That's not at all what I would want irl, but that seems to get me off the quickest. Just. Ashamed, I guess.
No. 1937394
>>1937387could it be youre possibly bisexual
nonnie? have you considered that? or are you coping with what happened to you when you were assaulted? im lesbian as well and have some husbandos i like but most of them are 2d
and i genderbend them kek. real men disgust me to the point of nausea and their genitals too i mean if youre having men appear in your sexual fetish even though you hate them maybe you just try to comprehend why, there can be alot of different reasons. it could be that your mind is trying to rewire your trauma into being something normal and since it was sexual in nature it creeps in to haunt you?
No. 1937653
At first, the men came to me. They’d message me and I’d say I was 14 so they’d leave me alone and they’d send me a dick pic, so I’d keep talking to them until I could find their family, job, address, etc. and have ample face and dick pics to send. Now, I just find them in discords and telegram groups and get to work based off their post history. Tranny taking a dick pic in the women’s bathroom mirror? I sent it to his boss and he privated everything. Guy leaving sexual comments on toddler videos? Guess his mom will have to see that. It’s genuinely so fucking fun seeing moids get what they deserve for being pedophiles/sex pests, and their opsec is always shit tier so it’s pretty easy. Plus, men are retarded, so they always post publicly about the repercussions they faced and how they have a “stalker” (lol) I have the time right now, and I’m sure it could be better spent even though I don’t really spend that much on it, but I am really enjoying being a predator PI until I find a new hobby or run out of freaks in the groups I’m in.
No. 1937812
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Idk where else to put this but kingcobrajfs is the funniest moid cow. His older streams before he went full alcoholic brain damaged junkie make me laugh harder than I have in a long time. TBH even now that his life is more bleak he’s still pretty entertaining. he reminds me of like a male version of Shayna. Both are alcoholic jobless slobs who do nothing but eat, drink and beg for money all day. I ship it
No. 1938043
>>1937812I think you or someone else posted him to alt-cows? I wanted to check him out cause it would be refreshing to see someone new but he's so repulsive kek
I think he's popular on the moidfarms too? I took a peek on the site recently and I think I saw him. Since you find him that funny I think I'll try reading the highlights and the op sometime. Maybe he'll be my new Onision (I can only have so many moidcows at a time, Cooking With Jack with exception cause I actually first found him as a kid on youtube searching silly reviews eons ago)
No. 1938154
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I eat sauerkraut straight out of the can as a snack. Maaaybe I'll eat it with a sausage if I have it
No. 1938169
>>1938154>>1938161You two are welcome at my home anytime.
Bring snacks
No. 1938193
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This is the third time in a row I hit it off with a cute bisexual girl at a party and she starts ignoring me and leaving me on the read the next day. Whenever I get drunk girls tell me I’m funny and intelligent but when I try to text them the next day they complain I’m a dry texter and lose interest. Why is it that every woman in a ten mile radius claims to be bisexual yet every single one of those women will choose a douchey hipster moid with a mustache over a woman every time? I’m about to coat the wall with my brains.
Whoever said that being a woman is life on easy mode when it comes to dating lied. Being a butch dyke feels like being a castrated manlet.
No. 1938227
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>>1938217So you're into picrel?
No. 1938261
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>old virgin
>want to have sex at least once to see what it's like
>never had a crush
>don't want to use a dating app
>don't want to fuck a rando at a party
No. 1938267
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>>1938231Of course. Picrel.
No. 1938304
>>1938261How old are you anon? I'm 30 and I'm exactly the same. It definitely doesn't help that I'm a bit of a germaphobe and have a fear of contracting an STD, especially now that I know about men's collective hygiene.
Still feels like I'm missing an important life experience, though. The amount of women that talk about sex and boyfriends around me makes feeling like the odd wheel out unavoidable. It's not like they know my status or treat me differently but I have overheard how they feel about older virgins and it comes off as them viewing us less mature adults but I have a feeling that their sentiment may be colored more by virgin men than by women.
I guess my confession here is that I feel a twinge of shame for being a 30 year old virgin.
No. 1938369
>>1938304Ayrt, I'm 31 and I feel the same as you.
>inb4 having sex doesn't change anything about youI still feel like a weirdo for not doing something the vast majority of people has no problem having.
No. 1938553
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I hate Twitch and i don't even crush on actual celebrities but when it comes to looks, i always liked Pokimane a lot and even F1nnster kek i'm very sorry.
But i'm talking only about how they usually appear on camera and i don't keep up with them because i don't care, but i just wanted to say that i found them cute looking.
No. 1938577
I'm married, but i've got a huge crush on a coworker.
It started out innocently enough, just sharing spotify links, gym routines, and recipes. But now for some reason I can't stop thinking about him ugh. He's super masculine, has goals he's working towards, handsome. I love my husband so much, but all he wants to do is smoke weed and post on reddit. I would never cheat, but when I talk to this guy there's like a fire between us and he smells so good. It's annoying but I love it at the same time?? I need to just try to ignore him and let the crush fade, but I can't seem to let go of this electric connection we have.
Oh, and I masturbate to the thought of him… a lot.
No. 1938625
>>1938577Moid 1: someone you could share spotify links, gym routines, and recipes with
Moid @ home: all he wants to do is smoke weed and post on reddit
Not to be the devil in your ear, but if you're already masturbating to him, why not see if you could make your life overall better instead of just those sessions? Better to be happy with him than repress yourself to those small moments of fantasy
No. 1938731
>>1938681not everyone can get up and leave, but if neither person has debts divorce isn't actually all that difficult. A lot of women stay with husbands when they would be happier alone because they're too afraid to pull the
trigger and just end it. An affair is probably unrealistic to pull off, but if she's sitting there fantasizing and even masturbating to a better life, why not just go for something better?
No. 1938931
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>>1938543Me too, nonna. Me too
No. 1938961
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I wish I was pretty. Sometimes I edit my nose to be smaller on beauty apps just to see if that would help, i never post the edits ofc. Still ugly tho, and as the years go on its only going to get worse!
No. 1939024
Sometimes when I’m about to do something, but don’t want to spend any of my own money, I create a burner account, make a picrew avatar, and write a sob story about how I’m a BIPOC Latinx Trans Femme Pansexual with POTS PCOS PTSD ADHD OCD or any other jumble of disorders, and how my evil narc landlord who kicks puppies and is Christian is kicking me out for being queer, and how I desperately need funds to escape this abusive situation while also paying for all my medical expenses. I usually raise anywhere from 100-500 dollars for this, and when it’s all done, I say that conservatives are bullying me and that I have to delete my social media presence. You would not believe how many handmaidens just hand over their money if you have enough labels, it’s an infinite money hack. My secret fear is that one day, someone will post it in the e-begging thread and not know that I’m just fuckin with them.
No. 1939039
>>1939014Exactly, it's a huge issue because it affects other women. All these women saying they like being choked, pinned down, dominated, humiliated, have rape fantasies, etc, and now guys think it's a normal thing to do because a very small minority of women (with mental health issues) like it. Even boomer women say that when they were young, men were never this violent and aggressive during sex. Porn doesn't help, but women who play into this are emboldening them so that they're likely to try to strangle and abuse the poor innocent women they're with in the future, and probably traumatizing them.
No. 1939066
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I am a parasite. I have a net worth of $300 in birthday money that i refuse to spend. I live with my parents. I never had a job. I don’t want a job. I hate society and the wage slavery dating back to the year 0 that will never dissipate. I wear my pajamas when i go outside once a month and subtracting. When i do go out, i make sure that i am sweaty and did not shower so that i can rape the noses and eyes of the disgusting moid creatures as a defense strategy. I have zero friends, never have boy/girlfriend, never had sexo, I don’t shave at all, i don’t do my hair and i don’t open doors for the mouth breathers. I intend on being a parasite forever and my parents don’t care. “BUT BUT NONA! YOU’LL BE A DISAPOINTEMENT! UR AN gROSS LAZY AUTIST RETARDZ! A LEECH!!!” Yeah exactly, and i have the world’s best life for it. I am comfy, while yous is wage slave. Enjoy your society.
No. 1939486
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I recently discovered Jerma and i'm becoming kind of weird about him. Like i can feel a parasocial relationship forming or whatever that means i'm kind of obsessed with him Please help. No im not i'm fine. I have ADHD so i need background sound whenever I do anything so i've been watching a lot of him he's just really funny IDK. I read a fanfic of him last night and it made me cringe and i hated it but the fact that I even read it in the first place…I googled "jerma hot" and then immediately closed the tab.
No. 1939572
>>1939501I know he doesn't stream much nowadays so I've been watching older content and not sure what he's like now. When I learned his age I was shocked tbh. I feel like TIFs are into him because he's a fucking weird spaz and it's very tumblr humor-esque like "glorpo from my shows" or whatever the fuck.
Mildly related but I hate when chatters push trans stuff on streamers like leave them alone and shut the fuck up lol "Say trans rights" "I just got my first hormones today/changed my name!!!" in the donos, I love that most streamers i watch do the bare minimum of responding to that shit
No. 1940204
>>1940148Being racist isn't the same as not wanting to deal with tranny shit, don't compare the two of them, I'm sick of retards thinking that just because someone hates trannies, that that person must also be racist.
Anyways, you're racist and you need to get that checked.
No. 1940439
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I love doing this to scammers. As you can see he blocked me immediately
No. 1940890
>>1940565It's normal
nonnie. Reading romantic stuff just turns you on. Same thing happens to me with manga.
No. 1941075
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>>1940565this shit happened to me too but specifically when I got back into reading/drawing
yaoi No. 1941082
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I've been on 4chan since I was 5 years old. When I was around 8 I was browsing the mlp board and my mum saw a weird pony image and scolded me really badly and I got so mad because she suspended my computer use and I almost sent moot an e-mail saying how mad I am that he made my mother take away and hide my computer for multiple weeks, and how he should delete the mlp board because I didn't want to see nsfw pony images and how it's ruining the cartoon and I was so mad I threw away my Pinkie Pie toys (because she was in that image). I also told him if he wouldn't delete the board he's a fuck. Yes I called him a fuck in that e-mail kekk. But I did not send the e-mail, I just composed it then saved as draft then deleted it. Wonder what would've happen if I did send the e-mail
No. 1941179
>>1941121>>1941122I found it through an entry on KnowYourMeme lol
So pretty much it wasn't my parents' fault because when they first let me use computers they didn't allow me on the internet. I was just curious and sneaky and would go when my parents went to work (I learnt how to do so from watching my father). To add he told me all about cybersecurity when I was little, eg don't reveal sensitive info about yourself, don't post pics of yourself, don't talk with strangers etc
Maybe they should've delete the web browser lol
No. 1941648
>>1941272I don’t understand why is it so hard for you to comprehend that?
But believe what you want to believe kek
No. 1942357
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Ive decided to break up with my man bby bf, but I feel guilty about taking the cats. They love him too; they love this home.
At least my father offered me the house he was going to rent out. Fully renovated, and the rent will be a steal.Thanks Dad, for being so wonderful. Thanks for telling me not to settle for this life with my pathetic soon to be ex. “You are dodging a bullet kid, dont worry”.
I cant believe I thought this man would step up
to be the husband I and our future children would one day need. I thought I caught the unicorn Nigel, but he crumbled at the first notion of any pressure.
I must keep my head high, and move forward. My heart breaks for the happily ever after I wanted, but I believe in myself, and I believe in my infinite possibilities.
One day I will be singing to a sweet child, and they will grip my fingers and coo along. I feel this deep in my soul.
That child deserves nothing but the best, and this current situation is not that at all.
I must carry on. I must be strong.
No. 1942387
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>>1942363>>1942378>>1942377Thanks sweet nonnas, so thankful for the support. All the love to you
No. 1942402
>>1942397This is what dads are for?
This is also why it's crucial to be raised by a present, good dad. If anon didn't have her parents, she likely also wouldn't have high standards, she wouldn't have stuck to her principles and she would have ended up living a miserable life alongside a scrote who isn't deserving of a woman.
No. 1942419
>>1942402Exactly, well said!
Other anon (most likely baiting) does not have the full scope of the situation, but is so quick to tear another woman down… sad to see.
No. 1942421
>>1942402kek why is this post giving trad vibes. saying that someone specifically needs to have a present
dad is weird because what's most important is to have a present and loving parental figure. the gender shouldn't matter, tons of people have lesbian parents. and believe it or not some people are raised by narcs but still have standards and aspire to be in healthy relationships.
No. 1942438
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I keep breaking my own sexual boundaries because I’m so desperate. I’m a stone butch but every time I tell someone I’m uncomfortable with being touched so I only like to give head and touch other people they start begging me to make an exception for them. I sent someone topless pics and pictures of my ass but she kept begging me to send full frontal nudes even though she said she was ok with me not sending full nudes at first and then she blocked me because I wouldn’t
No. 1942453
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My cheating ex with multiple rape allegations somehow found my YouTube account and commented on one of my old videos like nothing happened saying that he “went down the rabbit hole” and my found channel. I literally cussed him out and told him I hope they name an antibiotic resistant STD strain after him about a week ago, I have no idea why he’s doing this (especially considering how in the past before I knew about everything he did I told him I wanted to get back together and he said no). I’m kind of terrified now, he knows my address
No. 1943230
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Reading YouTube/IG/tiktok comments makes me want to turn in a Nazi.
No. 1943241
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>>1942509>>1942510I was stalking his Twitter account and saw that he posted this the other day. The caption just said “J” (the initial of my first name)
No. 1943291
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I wish I was insane enough to live in NYC and find that loser who is assaulting women and kill him.
No. 1943705
>>1939926I secretly feel the same way in regards to the race discussions that go on here, even with fiction,
and especially how people respond to female vs male versions of certain types of characters but I won't elaborate further in case a fight breaks out But besides that all my other opinions aren't considered woke enough for the actual woke crowd, they would outright say I'm bigoted so I don't really fit in anywhere.
No. 1944410
>>1943967I had a coworker that was near obese (and for some reason got hired for a very active job - I guess the “no discrimination” policy kicked in) and I was chosen to train her. I barely knew this woman and on our first day, she kept making comments about how thin I was and basically going “woe is me” to herself. When we went to get her equipment and uniform, she kept making backhanded comments about “oh it’s easy for you to find your size, they won’t have anything for me”. It was just very aggressive and the insecurity was oozing out of her. Another part of the job is squeezing into tight places occasionally and when I told her it’s okay to go through this area(there was still plenty of space), she kept insisting she can’t really angrily. I wouldn’t even say I’m the thinnest person, but she was so
triggered. Not the first time this has happened but it was weird to experience it at work. Fat women can be so aggressive to skinnier women, if they have anyone to be angry towards it should be themselves and not to strangers.
No. 1944974
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I left 4chan but theres an ESL moid obsessed with me and making creepy posts about me.
No. 1945190
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>>1945177i miss it too. i understand why it had to go but that doesn't erase the persistent urge i feel to post something absolutely retarded
No. 1945205
I feel guilty about it, but I feel like moving out and interacting with more "normie" types at a large state college might've lowered my faith in womankind. I used to laugh at "girlfriend bad" and "woman bad" rhetoric because it was so absurd and so inaccurate of me and all the women I knew in real life, but… man, the stuff my current roommates (and their friends) say and do really does align with some of the worst stereotypes of gen-z women sometimes. I always assumed that even outwardly-stereotypical people surely had hidden depths of some sort, but they genuinely seem to not have any… and sure, maybe that's an unfair judgement to make, but it's been nearly a year, the walls here are thin, and they are quite vocal. So I've heard far more from them than I ever wanted to.
In the interest of fairness, their boyfriends aren't much better, but that was less disappointing to me because I didn't expect anything of them to begin with.
No. 1945617
>>1945205what
>>1945611 said, you need to assume that anyone you're interacting with nowadays could potentially be a lobotomy patient
No. 1946674
>>1946259Yeah, I support it in theory but in practice I can't participate in it in a meaningful way. I absolutely fetishize weird traits in men and have zero sexual interest in the men that anons would approve of. I've been bullied for my tastes in the male body thread. It's not even a pickme thing, it's just years of virginity and autism.
The only saving grace is that I only like younger men and have only dated younger men.
No. 1946820
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Males acting slutty like this makes my ovaries go fucking nuts
No. 1947034
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I've put on a lot of weight these last weeks and I look like shit.
The other issue is that I lost my job, so now everything is painful (paying a gym)
No. 1947059
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My nigel is in a low libido time atm and I'm not. I feel guilty about the thoughts I have about random moids since I'm not used to it.
No. 1947203
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>>1946820this just looks like der humpink to me kek
No. 1947323
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>>1946821Kek I kinda miss this meme. We should bring it back along with smexy
No. 1947348
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>>1947323>smexyThis word gives the worst millenial lol so randum make yaoi not war exdee vibes
No. 1947407
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I can’t believe the westaboo thread in /m/ made me want to draw again kek. the art in there is way too wholesome and soulful it actually made my cold, black empty heart move a little
No. 1947540
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I give stock photo models plastic surgery in my free time and send it to them if I can find their socials. Right is my enhanced creation. It’s my favourite hobby.
No. 1947648
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I'm kind of an online stalker. Every bit of information I find gives me a high but I feel like a horrible person immediately after.
(post-stalk clarity?) Why share so much sensitive information publicly if not for others to read? He probably didn't expect anyone to go as far as I did. Opsec skill issue tbh. It feels good to know more about him than he is comfortable to tell me. God I'm disgusting.
knowing what I know now I think it's possible he would be into it if he found out tbh >>1947540KEKKKK MY SIDES nona what the hell?? Reminds me of these youtube videos where some guy would photoshop characters to fit into a "perfect" face outline. Did you get a responce?
No. 1948240
>>1947648I got to (consensually) fondle a man after 4 years of stalking him like this, and it did indeed turn him on in some fucked up way. He would never have crawled back to me like that if I didn't behave in such a manner.
Don't let your dreams be dreams. Religion may have cockblocked me but it doesn't have to stop you.
No. 1948501
>>1947307>>1947373Honestly I don't think she's like that. She rarely contacts me anymore unless I message her first and ask her how she's doing. Which I only do like once a week at this point. And when I do she describes her situation pretty matter of fact-ly. I don't feel like she's trying to manipulate me. She does have abandonment issues and acted really stupid when I started seeing this guy but she later apologized for it and hasn't done it again so I feel like she's doing her best to not cause issues for me.
One of my friends is pretty concerned about how I'm doing and keeps saying that maybe she's exaggerating some of her issues and idk, maybe she is. I know she's definitely causing some of them herself by being so self destructive. But she's deeply mentally ill and I can relate to that cause I used to be like her. I see my past self in her. I have a massive jesus complex so part of the reason I'm suffering because of her is my own fault. I made a report about her to the authorities and I'm waiting to see if that helps at all. Meanwhile I'm keeping contact to minimum. Abandoning her completely is not an option for me considering that she's also my colleague and I will have to see her again once the returns to work which, granted, might take a while.
Thank you nonnies for replying to me, it made me feel seen and heard. Sorry to hear about your situation second
nonnie.
No. 1948672
File: 1712152340861.jpg (1.5 MB, 1500x1500, Invader Darling.jpg)
I have a little problem when it comes to collecting merch of some favourite illustrators, the monkey part of my brain goes off whenever I find a merch from them and I want to get almost everything from their catalogue. Especially stickers. I try not to get 2 of each and actually use them to decorate my notebooks and such. It's like collecting small pieces of art, it makes me happy when I see them,I could flip a book of these stickers and feel a bit inspired to draw/create colourful and cute things. I just feel a little bad about the consumeristic aspect of this lol.
No. 1948965
File: 1712167957147.gif (1.56 MB, 350x197, giphy.gif)
I need to see my boyfriend engage in some toxic masculinity. I would really like to see him get into a fight or do something heroic and masculine. I don't think he's feminine or anything and I'm not saying this like our relationship is at stake but sometimes I feel like a man just has to be challenged and endure something intense. It's not about seeing him win a fight either, I just need to see him try. Plus it's hot to watch guys wrestle to the floor. My dream scenario is him defending my honor with old fashioned fisticuffs, maybe coming out of it with a black eye or a cut lip, nothing major. He can't come out of it butthurt or too worried about his health either. Yes I am toxic.
No. 1949057
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Dated a scrote in 2020 who suddenly broke it off with me, and i later find out he was dating me while he was on break with his girlfriend and he dumped me to get back with her.
4 years later and I’m still miffed about a scummy guy, even though I didn’t particularly like him too much.
i want to stir the pot and tell her “hey this guy is kinda shitty and dated me while you were still calling him your boyfriend on Twitter” but I know it’s not worth the effort and too much time has passed where it doesn’t make me not look insane.
No. 1949060
>>1949057Samefag but she’s Japanese getting an American visa through him I’m assuming and he’s also trooning out on his Twitter but she’ll still refer to him as her boyfriend on their account so I’m not sure if she’s aware of his troonery.
Also please don’t think I’m obsessively looking, I remembered this situation last night and looked at her account.
No. 1949290
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I think it's romantic when two people choose to kill themselves at the same time.
No. 1951309
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My life has gotten exponentially better and my mind has become astoundingly healthier, and I honestly feel really incredulous at how much my life has changed. I genuinely feel disbelief that I have a group of friends and a future, and how I do a much better job at integrating in society… Well, I think a lot of people think I'm weird, but maybe in an endearing way.
Still, I feel kind of anxious about it all. On the inside I still feel like that autistic NEET loser who wiles the days away on imageboards and goes ages without speaking to anyone or going outside and expects to die by suicide someday. I'm worried that one day I'm going to screw up somehow and ruin my life, I dunno.
This is so stupid but the reason I feel wound up about it suddenly again is because I said a really dumb and offensive joke to my bf and he (in a very unvindictive and lighthearted way, thankfully) called out that it wasn't an appropriate thing to say, and I just feel so embarrassed and retarded for saying that to begin with. I feel ridiculous that a guy like him, literally like my dream guy and so amazing compared to basically every other man out there, gives me so much grace to be spergy, it's like some incredible ironic surreal comedy. There are so many nice and lovely women in our community and yet he loves me, he loves me knowing that I have always been this socially inept gremlin whose mind was shaped by 4chan and altchans and stupid autistic junk and he doesn't get that stuff but he cares about me anyway. And he tells me how proud he is of how far I've come.
And I think all the time, why should my life get so much better? Every day I think about all the anons I've talked to who were like me and I wonder if they also got out of their rut or if it's just me. I really want everyone else to live a better life and it doesn't feel fair. I really didn't expect for things to get better like this and I don't really know what to do now.
This isn't really a vent but I guess I just feel the need to express how weird it all is. A loser like me living the dream. What the hell.
No. 1951871
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My ex is a fat fetishist porn addict who dated me because I was skinny and he wanted to watch me become fucking obese. I dumped him because of his porn addiction 2 years ago and now he has a new gf who is astoundingly skinny. Every time I see her I want to warn her and tell her what his real plan is. I want to save her from that disgusting scrote because she is actually beautiful, though I think he has pointed me out to her because she gives me a side eye when I pass her on the street and stuff. I forgot to mention that he also stalked me physically and online and threatened me after I dumped him. I kind of just wanted to get that off my chest. I know that too much time has passed and I shouldn't stir the pot, but…
No. 1951975
File: 1712336660105.png (1.01 MB, 895x669, disastergirl.png)
The girl I've been in love with for years is in a rocky patch with her boyfriend of a decade and they've moved out away from each other. I've given her advice that they should break up and no matter how I dress it up the truth is I said it because I want to date her. I feel kind of scummy like I'm manipulating her but he's a balding manchild vtuber and she's called him annoying to me so I can't feel too bad. She said she loved me yesterday (as in a casual "love you" way) and it hit me hard.
And yes I know her breaking up with him won't automatically make her date me. But it would be a significant barrier removed.
No. 1952585
>>1952516I agree with you. I know a lot of people my age who tried cutting themselves or starving themselves because it was trendy but couldn’t stick to it. You had to have a lot of inner pain and hatred to sustain self-harm behavior in the first place. I started because of the edgy kids on tumblr as a preteen but that turned into a massive cutting issue for 8 years. I was struggling with it into my 20s and to this day I still have thoughts of it. People can say we were edgy kids but I feel like if the problem persists for multiple years and becomes your main outlet for stress then it is more than just being “emo” or edgy. I seriously had a psychiatrist ask me at one point when I was going to stop being emo.
Do you still have visible scarring? Because honestly if you don’t have scars then you can act like it never happened. A lot of people ik who said that they used to cut themselves do not have scars at all. If I were in that position my life would be a lot different. Idk if any anons can relate but I have hypertrophic scars and I feel like a fucking freak with massive raised scars all over my forearms. I even carved a word right where my wrist is and long sleeves will often gape/slip and show it.
It’s sad but if I could go back in time and tell myself anything at all, it would be to never cut myself on my arms and cut my hips instead.
No. 1952664
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i'm miserable and so ashamed of myself because ever since I can remember, I've only been attracted to people with east-asian-type-eyes and dark hair. So obviously that winds up being 99% east asian people. I realized the very few non-east-asian people I ever found attractive all happen to have unusually asian-looking eyes, think barry keoghan (NOT him, but just an example of the phenomenon), Keanu Reeves, etc. My mom doesn't know about any of this and she told me offhandedly that as a toddler I was entranced by the asian babies in those baby-books-of-other-babies, like what the fuck, was I born this way? Was infant me already doomed to be a creep?
I know if anyone knew, they would think I have some weird fetish. And this is the part that really makes me feel like a horrible person, I know that asian people are rightly freaked out by people like me. So I've tried really hard over the years to change and force myself into being attracted to other people of my own race (I'm white) but I genuinely feel zero attraction no matter what mind games I try to use on myself. I can never date because 1) there are very few people with these features where I live and 2) even if I did find someone and they liked me initially, they'd probably find out about my issue if we ever discussed past crushes/ celeb crushes and become disgusted with me. Not to mention (and this is purely hypothetical because this would never happen since I'm a loser,) if I started dating, people would instantly see the pattern in my exes and think i'm a freak, and anyone new I started dating would inevitably find out about who I dated before and run for the hills. I don't blame them, I understand it would be creepy.
It just hurts so bad because I swear I'm not some creepy person, I'm not attracted to any sort of fucked up stereotype (in fact my taste in women is basically the opposite in personality and looks to the the typical asian woman stereotype…I like masc women), it's not like i'm into just anyone at all who is asian just because they're asian, I have a more specific type than that because obviously individual asian people all look very different, also I would absolutely see my partner as a full person unlike those horrible guys who just want some kawaii waifu accessory, be interested in her and who she is, etc… but I know that doesn't help anything. Everybody will still always think I'm a creep. Maybe I am a creep. I will be alone for my entire life and it hurts so much that I have trouble finding reasons to keep going. I hate this part of myself so much and every day I go to sleep praying that I will wake up different and normal.
No. 1952699
>>1952682it's a big deal to other people though, especially the people I tend to be attracted to. Please don't pretend that this wouldn't at best cause me to be side eyed by pretty much everyone, and at worst, deeply unsettle and repulse people. I mean I understand you're just trying to calm me down and I appreciate that, but it is a big deal and it's totally ruined my life. The comically horrible part about this is that I've tried to draft a suicide note for my parents before so they're not left without explanation but this issue is actually a big part of why I want to die and so when I leave it out the note doesn't make sense, so I have to come up with something else to explain why I did it but I haven't figured out anything believable enough yet.
If this all sounds ridiculous that's because it is and I am living this ridiculous plotline that sounds like it's from an off-color sitcom. It's just all a big, pathetic, creepy joke. I hate myself so much and I'm so embarrassed that I can't even admit this to any of the shitty therapists I've tried so this secret is gonna die with me.
No. 1952788
File: 1712372161711.jpg (173.03 KB, 736x490, 3c1a7b2c2b29d79ebd4e9bd41aac16…)
I like the MDNA Girl Gone Wild liveshow, i don't care if she's a bloodsucking reptillian illuminati or that her singing is awful, it kinda looks like pop dark souls 3 so i enjoy it
No. 1952940
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>>1952937samefag thank you for introducing me to this bizarre part of 4chan, this shit is hilarious
>/pol/ 1 - Off-Topic, Politics/Current Events Only No. 1952991
>>1952496>>1952528I'm
>>1952007 and I just did some… embarrassing roleplays with my husbandos…. I did make some stupid throwaway account on both character.ai and janitorai so we're good. Although I can bet my ass if the staff reads my logs they'll probably laugh/cry/be confused/say an audible: what the fuck
kek
No. 1953175
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>>1953156And at no point did you think, maybe I should stop this?
No. 1953237
>>1953214Firstabubble, I'm terven. Secondable, MN has a policy where someone's account gets suspended pending investigation the moment another user reports them. I'm not being uncivil and am complying with all their rules. I normally cant be arsed to wait for the outcome of that investigation, so I make a new account.
I have been reported for the following:
>Seeking advice after a roommate stole my possession and was subsequently 'trollhunted' (because apparently bad things never happen to people)>Pointing out that Israel is murdering children>Querying the legalities are surrounding placing a hot tub in my front garden Ad hominem attacks are banned on MN, and I respect that rule with incredible patience. I will not be silenced. I have proxies for my proxies.
Half the site is filled with very entitled tax-suckling benefit-grifters, iPad moms, munchie 'autism' moms, misogynistic boymoms, but the other half are very based, kind and compassionate women, and I appreciate and love that better half.
I'm not crazy.
No. 1954147
>>1954130I have scars all over my arms, so I'm walking around like a crazy 13 year old, but I'm a grown adult, it's not that I can do anything about it anymore, kek. Legs and stomach just don't work the same for me, and I hate it, if I would have started with my legs maybe it would feel okay, but I started in the most visible places, so everything else doesn't feel right. And I know what you mean, accidentally cutting on paper or something else is just so "nice", watching how it heals over time, no one asking if it was on purpose, just seeing how it heals and knowing that your body is doing the most important work it can.
No. 1954165
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>>1954133
Ew. Gross as fuck.
No. 1954194
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>>1954133
You being a woman makes this like 5% less creepy than if you were a man.
No. 1954235
>>1954223ayrt, It's interesting because we seem to be very similar in our self-harm fantasies but my reasons and your reasons seem to be totally different. It sounds like for you it's a self-hate thing, but for me, if I had to armchair myself, I'd say it's probably a mix of
>complete and utter boredom, and blood and pain is exciting>frustration with the world around meThe only thing that keeps me from doing it is that I feel bad for my body, she's just trying to keep me alive and healthy and it feels fucked up to hurt it, like hurting a small animal. I know it makes no sense to think of my body as a separate creature, but I can't shake the guilt of harming something "innocent"
No. 1954244
File: 1712457740908.jpeg (67.59 KB, 800x450, IMG_1062.jpeg)
In a shocking turn of events, never before seen, I fell in love with my fwb. What an absolute waste of my time, free me from this hell PLEASE
No. 1954251
>>1954227isn't it amazing how we knowledge the hurt we have done to our own bodies but still know when to stop because it would be too much. Our bodies just want to survive, be alive, but we do everything to ruin it for our bodies.
>>1954235it's not self-hate for me anymore, it was when I started, now it's more to see how far I can go. I'm not living alone, so I won't do stupid shit that would traumatise another person, but to see and feel what it's like, how far I could go, it just feels so free, without judgement of other people or the world around me. I feel that we are very similar why we do, what we do, still I hope that you find another way to survive and find other interesting things than destroying yourself or your body. And I know that it sounds stupid, I would ignore a person telling me all this, kek. The world is frustrating and pain is exciting, the question is, if your body is the main target of the pain or if there is something else you could find to focus your pain and self destruction on.
No. 1954260
>>1954251>I hope that you find other interesting things than destroying yourself or your body.I think this is my primary problem. I have had severe anhedonia for years, so nothing is interesting to me. Literally nothing. I don't watch movies or TV, I don't listen to music. The only thing that ignites any faint spark of curiosity in me is browsing medical trauma cases and seeing how injuries heal. Obviously I can't be a surgeon or anything so the only thing I can do is watch my minor injuries heal. I genuinely feel nothing all day, every day, and it's maddening. I can't live like this for more than a few more years, I don't think.
Is anhedonia your problem too?
No. 1954261
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i hate gijinkas. i would much rather fuck the silly looking cartoon one. yes picrel
No. 1954265
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Lately I've been fantasizing about taking my savings and running away, travel around anywhere I want to go, maybe somehow find a way to get psychedelic drugs, maybe join a cult, idk, anything, until my money runs out and then i'd kill myself. I have about 40k in my bank account. IDK how long that would buy me because I've never travelled before or done really anything at all by myself. Maybe it would be better to buy a van i could sleep in. How long could I live on 40k do you think? What kind of places would I need to go to in order to find people who do psychedelics? If I was travelling far from home I'd just cut my filter and say whatever I wanted all the time, I'd stop playing my fake character and test how badly that weirds people out. because at the end I would die so none of the consequences matter. I honestly don't know how much 40k even is though. i'd want at least a year or so before I die.
No. 1954288
File: 1712462632617.jpg (61.23 KB, 600x750, dual_katana___ready_to_fight_b…)
>Brush my hair with 2 hairbrushes
>Shower with 2 sponges
I am tempted to start using 2 toothbrushes but i'm not ready for spending money like that because i use electric ones
No. 1954399
>>1954387Damn nona, i have that kind of envy too, i think that maybe women can be ok on their own too but that doesn't work for me, i just feel like if i had a dick i would actually experience pleasure kek.
>I don’t understand why incels even care or want more than thatI don't believe that moids can fall in love so the only reason why i think they care about that is because they want more control over someone.
No. 1954650
File: 1712494817161.png (401.71 KB, 1000x773, could-anyone-please-give-me-th…)
Mumsnet is now subjecting me to half-hourly 'captcha' checks in order to combat my proxy use. You will never stop me. I will not be silenced. You will never win this war against me.
Cope and seethe, fagmins.
>>1953156 No. 1954687
File: 1712499169259.jpeg (52.02 KB, 278x400, IMG_7563.jpeg)
sometimes i miss when shay would cam. It was so funny reacting live to her retardation with other nonnies.
No. 1954847
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every time something is off with what he says I'll come here and say it when I can for record purposes
nonas will tell me about the gaslighting
No. 1955040
File: 1712521492994.png (981.71 KB, 1308x946, misato.png)
>>1954933i hate ma'am because it is often used to condescend on purpose, but woman is never offensive. think of all the TIMs and DDLGfags who always refer to themselves as girls and not women, being a fully mature woman and seen as such is based and less people try to fuck with you
No. 1955200
File: 1712531382953.jpeg (510.6 KB, 812x816, IMG_0261.jpeg)
I love looking at bulges tbh
No. 1955306
>>1955040Ayrt, you’re right I think it’s because usually when people say “ma’am” it’s condescending/disingenuous and when I hear the word woman, it’s usually used in an annoyed or negative way like “this woman…”, so I’ve associated the word with bad connotations. No surprise since the world is full of misogyny. You’re right being seeing as a mature woman should be a good thing.
>>1955148It’s definitely weird when people cling to the word “girl” so much. I think I know what you’re referring to, I come across these videos all playing this “I’m just a girl” song. I don’t want to be called a girl either since it can be infantilizing too, especially in a work setting. I hate when people say “hey girl”, yuck. I guess I want some sort of other term like
>>1955145 said, there’s a term like “guys” for males that’s popular, but there’s not a relevant equivalent for women. Gals isn’t used in the same frequency.
No. 1955474
File: 1712546912629.jpg (Spoiler Image,25.24 KB, 691x411, 1712530809601585.jpg)
there's something so oddly ethereal about this man to me. it's as if he's a forest sprite i'm glimpsing through sparkling, iridescent mist. and his facial features are very delicate and androgynous. i'm in love
No. 1955593
File: 1712556497378.gif (15.32 KB, 220x220, IMG_0643.gif)
>>1955474>>1955502I was so unprepared for that reveal KEK
No. 1955685
File: 1712566122755.png (283.66 KB, 456x391, 56758565.png)
I've sent (not explicit) faceless nudes to my ex bf before but i've always kept the full ones, i can never delete them because they turn me on, it's been years and i'm still a virgin kek, most of the times i hate how i look and try to forget it though.
>>1955628That's nice, i was in my 20's when i started to lurk and for some reason i was really not interested in posting anything until i saw the husbando thread and got some courage.
I never wanted to infight but after some time i was weirded out about the fact that no nona was ever rude to me back then but maybe i should stop posting considering this confession.
No. 1957106
File: 1712670635443.jpeg (640.05 KB, 1700x1201, 9FDD758B-6F02-4E97-88F3-015F5B…)
I sometimes draw racebaity things to cause feelings of inadequacy in males(racebait)
No. 1957166
>>1957133Same,
nonnie. I've been able to separate artist from art with him, though. However, I don't believe the woo woo story told of his death, that he was trying to commune with nature and the moon or whatever bs they said. Dude was probably out of his mind high or drunk and fell, simple as
No. 1957344
File: 1712686314734.jpeg (84.71 KB, 736x734, IMG_9913.jpeg)
I enjoy reading /snow/ threads because I think the anons that are obviously casual posters are also cows along with the cows they’re talking about and making fun of. My fave example of this is the Western Animation cows thread, the autismo energy matches the autismo energy of the subjects/topics and it makes me chuckle so much, I honestly love it
No. 1957559
File: 1712701771503.jpg (47.89 KB, 1013x640, IMG_4432.jpg)
Made a friend on the internet years ago. Me and her got along swimmingly and really bonded. Confided in each other so often and also have so many inside jokes. We finally meet irl after a year of planning and it's fucking fantastic- it's like we've been life long friends and are just picking right where we left off in our past lives. It's lowkey tragic for me when she has to fly back home.
A few weeks after the visit and she confesses to me that shes a transwoman. I had. No. Fucking. Idea. In retrospect, knowing this, I can see it, but I truly was blindsided and didn't even have a sneaking suspicion when I met her. Inb4 retarded, whatever, I guess I was fooled. I don't even know how to feel or process it if I'm being honest. On one hand I feel betrayed and on the other I am devastated to lose a friend.
No. 1957630
File: 1712705995912.jpeg (76.93 KB, 640x480, pp_thatssoraven_herobanner_mob…)
That's So Raven was one of my favorite shows when i was a kid and now that i look back at it i feel stupid because i remember her being darker? I don't know if it's because i lived in a place and culture that has almost only white people but it really weirded me out kek, i don't live in the US but her and her family all look mixed to me now?
Another thing is that whenever i come back from arabian countries white people look so washed out to me, like where did the color go? Takes me 2 months to get used to it again, i'm so stupid kek.
No. 1957638
File: 1712706553272.webp (84.77 KB, 800x600, im ya man!.webp)
>>1957630yeah and corey looks way darker too, he is not that light irl kek
No. 1957765
File: 1712721009167.gif (4.94 MB, 226x275, cuddlehim.gif)
My boyfriend loves when I get my period because I usually hate cuddling but whenever I menstruate I insist on spooning so I can use his butt like a heating pad kek
No. 1957768
>>1957106KEK I love this
nonnie thank you
No. 1957777
File: 1712722688222.png (Spoiler Image,1020.28 KB, 1284x1529, out-of-curiosity-did-arca-get-…)
>>1957133I feel such a similar way, i am honestly kind of glad he is dead now anyways, especially since he is so obnoxious to me from an interview i saw of him where he is essentially writhing around on a bed. I have a similar sentiment on arca too. I loved his music so much before he trooned out. I can't believe he and everyone around him think he looks good, he is such an ugly tranny. Plus his music isn't as good after he trooned out, it's some weird reggaeton crap. A damn shame. spoilered for tranny jumpscare.
>>1957106I know people hate this for being mild, but i love how silly and light hearted this is lmao.
No. 1958110
I've cheated in a few of my past relationships, towards the end when the relationship was already about to end and especially if the guy was truly wronging me in some way (I mean on the level of physical violence, cruelty, etc). I really didn't feel good about it, yet I kept repeating that behavior. Lately I've been trying to introspect about it and I'm starting to think it's just some permanent design flaw I have, because I start to panic and feel disgust towards my partners whenever the relationship gets too serious. I don't know if that's because of being treated so poorly in my early relationships or, again, just a congenital flaw. I kind of desperately want to be alone, but at the same time I yearn for a family. Nothing feels right. I'm approaching the second marriage proposal of my life and I have a huge knot in my stomach even though I could really see a life with this person, as I did with the last. Maybe I'm just a bpd narc, but if that's the case can I go to Horrible Personality Rehab or what? I want to die a little bit more every single day.
No. 1958282
>>1957106Lmao this is hilarious
Sorry that the farmhands are literally so reddit and giving out bans for the mildest shit like THIS IS AN IMAGEBOARD ABOUT BULLYING PEOPLE. LET US BE RACIST.
(no) No. 1958638
>>1957765This gif took me out. Kekk Thank you,
nonnie.
No. 1958823
File: 1712805743034.gif (283.52 KB, 220x198, IMG_7490.gif)
I have a moid friend who is terminally pornsick but actually nice to talk to and has never been anything but kind to me. However he often sends gifrel (in addition to kind words) when I vent to him and my mind immediately goes to Shayna cause I know the scrotes that follow her will post the same gif when she has her Twitter tantrums, kek.
No. 1958908
File: 1712816137643.gif (1.54 MB, 201x197, 43e.gif)
>>1957106I know this isn't important, but I hooked up with a Korean guy several times, and he had the best dick I've ever had. I think it's ironic that white guys are the first to pick on Asians about their dick sizes, when my Korean lab partner had a bigger dick than every single white guy I had a relationship with. Basically, I feel like the "Asians have little dicks" stereotype is overblown.
No. 1958925
>>1958823i have such shayna brainrot, i saw this on the front page and was shocked it did NOT lead to a shay-specific thread.
but i hope the gif brings you a crumb of joy in your troubling times, remembering the godawful context of it.
No. 1958978
File: 1712824623198.png (847.29 KB, 798x594, mrwonderful.png)
I try to be anti-porn but I still watch it every so often. I've been moving onto comics, manga and audio but sometimes it's not enough and I just need to watch a pretty girl solo
No. 1959111
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When cgl wasn't a deserted wasteland, I used to make fun of people in the itabag threads who made shitabags filled with fake merch from taobao and aliexpress when official stuff was bountiful because it went against the spirit of the hobby. Now I'm on par with the shitabaggers or worse, I'm currently making my own bootlegs of official merch because I refuse to pay resellers on mercari ~$15 per can badge not including proxy and shipping fees. The way I see it, the effort I'm putting into recreating the designs negates the fact that I'm going to send them off to vograce to be made in bulk for less than a dollar a piece. I could see myself doing this in the future for other bags too if the merch I want is expensive on the secondhand market but can be replicated with some time and photoshop. It feels wrong but my wallet will be happy kek
No. 1959126
>>1959111If the bags well presented bootleg merch shouldn't matter, especially if it's an older series because instead of $15 on Mercari it'll be $30 + tip
I hope your bag comes out nice
No. 1959162
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I felt much more human as a kid, before I developed sexual urges. As an adult with a fully formed sex drive, I feel more like a primitive animal. So much of my time is spent thinking about sex and craving sex and worrying about sex, even the urge itself feels inherently basal and without higher thought, “I want to touch, I want to lick, I want to rub…” etc, and if you ask yourself “why?” you can’t really give an answer other than “because I feel deep in my bones that I NEEEED it.”
And if you can’t fulfill these urges for whatever reason, it disrupts your whole ability to concentrate and get important things done. Like your brain is valuing the primal urge to mate over all of your humanity-constructed obligations. It feels ridiculous to have a brain so capable of self-awareness and higher thought that still gets absolutely derailed by basic animal instincts.
P.S. DON’T unspoiler if you don’t want to see lesbian bonobos having a good time
No. 1959170
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Sometimes, I make up autistic "personas" for different, somewhat recent time periods. I have one that's some millennial woman from Portland. My dad would be an old, silly man who taught math and meant well, and my mom would've been a soft-hearted former art teacher who taught me how to paint and cook Polish food and stuff. The prime of my youth would've been 2013-2015, and I would have had a Sailor Moon tattoo (the Moon Stick specifically). Turquoise hair would've been "my thing". Animal Crossing would've been one of my favorite games. I would've felt grossed out and annoyed when men compared me to Ramona Flowers to flirt, but kind of enjoyed it when women did it. I would've had one of these big puke green jackets, and I probably would've been a prison abolitionist or followed some other misguided, well-intentioned political cause. I would've had an all-lowercase typing style and said "umm uhh ok" a lot. I would've defended homeless men, drug addicts and black people on the internet a lot, but instinctually crossed the street to avoid all three because of an experience in which a black homeless meth addict threw a plastic bag with his shit in it at me. I'd be in a bad indie band that never went anywhere, but still felt and looked cool to people locally. I'd work in a pleasant coffee shop and secretly mentally liken myself to construction workers. I'd have a psychology degree, and today, I'd be a stay at home mom married to a man who identifies as non-binary. I'd run an Etsy shop selling arts and crafts on the side. Our daughter would watch Bluey a lot (mostly because I put it on), and we'd have two cats and a dog. Today, we'd get posted in the "spicy straights" thread after I made some post on Reddit (my account would've been around since 2016, mostly discussing freak folk bands and Animal Crossing, with like two posts on a sub about sex work), someone would DM me with a link to the thread, and I'd delete most of my personal stuff and make a vague warning thread about "terf sites". Then, one anon would find my husband's twitter account and discover that he complains about the age of consent, "child rights" and how fathers are "robbed of time with daughters" for days on end. Instead of posting it in the thread, she'd personally DM me about it. I'd block her, then confront him, and eventually divorce him (he'd keep the house, I'd keep our pets and children). After some time, I'd go to unblock the person that DMed me to thank her, but she's already deleted her account. I'd start browsing Lolcow. Eventually, I'd become a farmhand. I'd be a bit ban-happy in the MtF threads because I'd still be kind of a handmaiden, but I'd peak slowly over time. Mainly, I'd start to feel disgust and rage at straight-looking adult men with painted nails. My daughter would experiment with they/them pronouns, and I wouldn't try to make her stop, but I wouldn't like it. I'd still attend pride parades with my friends and have she/they in the bios of my online profiles. Eventually, I'd start working for/with a friend who runs a "queer" hair salon. More stuff happens, but I don't know what yet.
No. 1959176
>>1959170Pull the fucking
trigger, Shadow.
No. 1959203
>>1959195How was I supposed to know that? Read your mind? Calling me a retard over your own mistake is also cringe and you should stop, act like a normal person. For example, you could say “oops! Didn’t mean to tag you, anon.” To which I would reply “no hard feelings dearest
nonny! For we all, at times, are liable to err.” Maybe you can try that next time.
No. 1959458
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There are valid points to be made but I can't take that thread seriously with this image.This shit is so fucking funny.I would absolutely do something this batshit on a cake for my birthday.I bet its delicious
No. 1960033
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I just wish I had friends that have shit taste like me but also lack the shame to be able to sing and dance with me. My dream meet up is being here at home with my friends, but instead of just sitting around talking about stuff, we would be singing silly karaoke songs, doing dumb choreographies that we would make on our own and maybe planing to go to cons to wear retarded idol clothes to sing and dance for the world to see us.
But my friends are all too introverted and retardedly shy, except my best friend, she's actually shy and I love her.
Like, if you can post pictures of yourself online, you shouldn't be shy about going up a stage to sing and dance, I managed to stop freezing on a stage, everyone else can do that too.
And I like to sing alone and dance on my own at home, or even sing in public, but it would be better to be with some friends while doing so.
No. 1960417
>>1960363it's not that hard though? you can just put your clothes in bags and dump them in the nearest clothing bin, it takes as much effort as simply throwing them away. or just leave them hanging from the dumpster/nearby it so people who need clothes can take them without digging in the trash
>>1960054lmfao
nonny don't remind me
No. 1960453
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I feel so connected to all the 'crazy' women on 90 day fiance. Nothing like a lazy, stupid scrote being passive aggressive, doing shit behind your back and playing dumb about it until you snap, then frame you like you're insane when you can't take it anymore.
No. 1960566
>>1960090>>1960077I unironically think that social media ruined us weebs, back then you would have some girl make her own cosplay with hot glue, cardboard and some nail polish, but now that everyone joined this universal dick sizing competition, no one is allowed to post their actual beginner cosplays, dance routines or singing videos because it's considered cringe.
This new internet era is retarded and has fucked up the youth and even adult life of many.
No. 1960786
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I feel so overly sensitive for not being able to consume content whether books or shows that depict misogyny, rape, or are overly sexualized. I wrote in /m/ about a book I picked up and stopped reading halfway through when there was a violent rape scene of a child. It actually made me cry for at the very least an hour I never looked at TW's or CWs before but I will now. I peaked some time ago and ever since then I've been avoiding a lot of things that I used to enjoy. I don't regret this at all but I don't know what to do with my life knowing what I know now. At least it somewhat cured my internet addiction, partially because I get so easily triggered. It seems every website I visit is filled with or even promoting anti-women sentiments. I went to watch a book YouTuber I enjoy and she discussed the misogyny in a Bond book and the comments of course attracted the 'REEE I"M GONNA READ IT NOW BECAUSE UR A FEMINAZIIII" crowd. I don't know why but that was the push I needed to disappear from YouTube. I wish I could isolate myself from men as a whole but the whole idea is pretty unfeasible for me right now. I don't consume any content made my moids (YAY!) but it's not enough for me.
No. 1960796
>>1960786Anon you're not overly sensitive for not wanting to consume media that features violence against women and children. In fact I think it is totally normal to not want to continue watching a film/show or read a book that features violent rape of women or children. Most normies will agree with you about that.
Sorry for mentioning a moid but my boyfriend cannot consume any media whatsoever that features any kind of realistic violence because it makes him deeply uncomfortable and upsetAll in all you are normal and unfortunately the internet is not a great place for normal people with sensibilities. Maybe you should take a bit of an internet detox and focus on consuming only media made by women. It's a scary world to live in but no one was meant to be hyperaware of all the horrific things in this world.
No. 1960977
>>1960935there is usually a list of
trigger warnings on storygraph, every other
trigger warning site kinda sucks
No. 1961382
So I posted this in OT already but I wanted to say I feel bad somehow. About how my ex is with another Vtuber girl (he's dated three). I feel bad because it's funny that he's only into beautiful women but has been getting catphished for months. I actually know this Vtuber and she photoshops her face and body but is actually really obese ad looks like she's 40. She use to be in the cosplay scene forever ago and made a failed only fans but no one bought it because in reality she has no sex appeal and tries WAY too hard. Her whole personality is literally "Pick me, I want cummies." He also has no idea she's cheating on him with another male Vtubers and sends her nudes to multiple famous guys. I just can't wait for the shit storm to happen. But a part of me is like "Dude you shouldn't care. Why are you watching this downfall with popcorn?"
This is her
https://twitter.com/puptayto/I'm sad because I just can't remember her old screen name.
No. 1961402
>>1961394He actually kinda looks like an ape/caveman. Unironically looks like the Striking face filter that's on tiktok.
I'm just surprised she's posting her body on her vtuber account. Though it worked, people think her body looks like that, but home girl forgot to edit her ankles.
I'm annoyed too because she's painting this image of women. That "real" women are wearing bikini's and cat ears all day while waiting to be bred. Literally a phrased she used constantly. Obviously Vtubing isn't going well because she still has to work 10+ hours at her dead end job.
No. 1961410
>>1961406And those are the better pictures she has. She deleted her old photos. She never edits her obsese legs though.
If you saw her old pics you wouldn't believe this is a 20 year old woman.
As for the person who's dating her, it's literally no surprise. My ex is a popular hentai/titty animator. He use to date models (aka me) but word went around in our circle so he's been on the Vtuber loop for a year. But gets upset when he travels to meet them they don't look the same.
No. 1961437
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>>1961406>>1961382Pic just in case she deletes it
No. 1961469
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>>1961437Bruh I check her other photos. Why is her place just empty? And what's with the prison mattress? Catering to scrotes obviously isn't working for her, espicially if she's complaining she has to work so much. Also those ankles, she really is morbidly obese. She's pulling a Momokun. Wear all black and edit only your waist. Whatever scrote fell for this is retarded and deserves to be catphished
No. 1961710
>>1961703Join the girlcow theme
nonnie or better the lunacow
No. 1961715
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>>1961710you're just forcing me to confess that i already use girlcow when i give up on darkcow
No. 1961752
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>>1961715Both of those wolves represent the obnoxious sides of the Sanrio fanbase. One is the traumacore poster, the other is that consoomer who buys anything with Hello Kitty on it.
No. 1961804
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I want to confess that when Overwatch was still new and i found out about Tracer's age, i found her hot for a second. I'm not into tomboy characters and i always hated Overwatch but it was almost impossible to avoid it so i don't know if i just glitched back then.
No. 1961989
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I laughed out loud when a farmhand banned me for "newfaggotry" because I have been terminally on this site for way longer than I should be and I'm pretty sure it's turned into an addiction.
No. 1962132
>>1961598Yeah, I knew it wouldn't. I had plenty more and didn't taken them, I'm way too afraid of death nowadays to try.
Just slept the day away. Very nauseous. Just feeling sad. I wish I could be different.
No. 1963278
>>1963274Thanks
nonny, it makes me feel a bit better. Thank you for real
No. 1963541
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I want to fuck Frollo so bad I'm ashamed. I've had feelings for him since I was a kid and watched the Hunchback of Notre Dame for the first time. Mea maxima culpa
No. 1963546
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>>1963541I've never watched the Hunchback of Notre Dame but i think that Cinderella's stepmother is hot. Ruin me queen.
No. 1963549
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>>1963541I use to feel the same way too as a kid but now as an adult I don't feel anything towards Frollo lol now it's Esmeralda instead.
No. 1963577
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I met my bf on 4chan's /lgbt/ board 5 years ago. we were both on the verge of trooning out but basically ended up peaking each other after a lot of discussion. I think I'm going to marry him. We tell everyone we met at a concert and I will take this secret to my grave
No. 1963728
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I've finally realized at 31 years lld that I'm actually an extrovert and not an introvert like I've always believed, but being a nerd surrounded by normies was suffering. I love meeting new friends, going to parties and sperging out about my interests with like-minded people, and I'll keep on doing it as long as I can.
No. 1964023
>>1963931Then break up with him and have your final bang with an explosive argument. You're doing yourself a disservice by staying with a man you resent
and have been wanting to break up with for ages.
No. 1964083
>>1964040I can identify some ones and i always try my best to ignore it because once i recognized someone i actually knew and felt awkward kek.
One of my stupid quirks is that i always forget or can't decide if i want to start in capital letters or end with a dot here.
No. 1964186
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I know I do not love him. I know he is not husband material. I only stay to live rent free while I pad my savings, earn certificates that supplement my resume. He pays for any thing I want. I have my own room, and turn down any romance. He dotes and waits, so optimistic.
Poor Little Rich Boy, with no self awareness or drive. It’s ok he does not want more out of life. But I crave more than this. A stepping stone forward, and not the final destination. I accept this, and feel no guilt for using him.
No. 1965032
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A $70 package I ordered had delivery protection added for $5 dollars. It covered theft so I claimed it was stolen and got the refund.
I don’t feel bad exploiting the “insurance” I paid for. It’s not like they don't profit from all the times the protection was not needed for other orders. I will not weep for a $20 million dollar company being scammed.
No. 1965070
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>>1965042I used to write stories about an angel, that was an attractive boy, protecting me from the bullies. At some point I felt ashamed for being a cringe Mary sue self inserter, so I made an OC that was an anime boy, and began creating yaoi stories that all of the girls I used to talk to loved, they were about a boy that went to a magical world in which he met some hot guys that were into him.
Then, during my cringe late teenage years, I wrote about a demon killing everyone at school because I was sick of being bullied.
This is what happens when a kid is autistic and raised under a catholic point of view.
I still cringe about the weird sexual stories I used to write too, it makes me wish I died back then kek.
No. 1965395
>>1964665>I swear that having some actual honest anger is healthy and i think that others probably don't realize that.Nta but no it's not.
t. has high blood pressure and broke some things
No. 1965664
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I was humiliated today because I couldn't remove the lid of a martini shaker for 10 minutes but my 60 year old mother was able to instantly open it. Starting grip strength training tomorrow.
No. 1965712
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I like mpreg content. Not even sexually I’m not turned on by the idea exactly (in fact i try not to think about it too much) but I want to fantasize about all my ships, het GL or BL having that perfect idealized adorable baby and family life that doesn’t exist irl.
My self esteem is so low I can’t really self insert. and irl good quality men are so rare) so I know I won’t ever have a family myself. Plus I won’t risk bringing another moid into the world just so he can shoot up a school or abuse women or something
and yes I’m ashamed of it, i definitely acknowledge that it’s weird as fuck.
No. 1965724
>>1965712People are autistic about hating mpreg. 99% of the time it's not fetish content, it's someone shoehorning baby related drama or fluff into their m/m ship because they like that particular trope AND they also like the male characters. They will just gloss over the whole birth and use it as a storyline, mixing aspects of straight and gay relationships in a silly fantasy story is not the crime people treat it as.
I hate fic that involves children though. 99% of fic writers cannot write realistic kids for the LIFE of them, they always come out so annoying.
No. 1965726
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i thought my recent return to tinder was going suspiciously well and it turns out i was just ovulating and now the curse is upon me and i need these men to disappear
No. 1965794
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Work in 3 hours and I ate 3 slices of cheesecake in place of breakfast. Idek anymore
No. 1965869
>>1965769R63 versions aren’t the character, at that point you might as well just make them ftm trannies. Technically it’s more normal than mpreg and the character remains the same because Aidens think their testosterone injections will turn them into cool yaoi husbandos and not balding histrionic midgets
On topic though… I was part of the “lifter” community on tumblr back in the day and now I still steal from every store I walk into (except actual small businesses) even though I’m way too old to be doing that shit. I consider it a failure if I don’t leave Whole Foods without at least some overpriced cheese.
No. 1965960
next thread:
>>>/ot/1965867last post btw.