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No. 1627083
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah (What it do
nonnie?)
Let's go!
Previous sins:
>>>/ot/1595652 No. 1627145
>>1627130>subhumanI'm having flashbacks of crap-chan.
Anyways, cute thread picture
No. 1627173
>>1627118Big evidence is the fact Usher is a nun. Only women can be nuns!
OP picture is great btw
No. 1627231
>>1627213no one will get hurt if you eat a little bit more leafy greens, they're cheap and low cal if you're counting
>>1627221i'm not a burger and i'm not sure why you said that, dairy is trash, osteoporosis inducing cow rape juice
No. 1627249
>>1627231>i'm not a burger didn't mean to imply that
>dairy is trashnot the point I was trying to make. You just sound too far removed from nature, that's all. The food industry loves to convince you to eat their nutrient deficient processed food they can produce for much less than the unprocessed equivalents to maximalize their orofit over your health and then to supplement it with even more processed pills. They can even make edible fats from parrafin wax (aka what vasaline is made of) and put that into foods, tasty huh. Most foods including supplements we take is created with nasty processing techniques like that. No wonder iron deficiency is so common nowadays.
Processed foods increase the chance of dementia and other illnesses even if the nutritional values are good on paper. Nothing will beat a good diet. If you gotta kill a cow or milk a cow for that so be it.
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>>1627224It really works that way. The amount of iron it adds varies based on what food you cook and how long you cook it and the skillet itself. Acidic moist foods like tomato sauce cooked in cast iron will give you the most iron. Some people don’t cook tomatoes in cast iron because they’re worried about getting too much iron / toxicity but if you’re deficient it’s probably not a concern, more something for children to be worried about because they’re small enough it could matter. I’m not a doctor, so take it with a grain of salt. I don’t think doctors normally recommend it because it’s imprecise and they can just prescribe supplements but you could ask your doctor if it’s a good idea, it’s not an urban legend.
No. 1627270
>>1627249You can minimize your intake of processed food by switching to raw veganism (with only a b12 supplement on the side). Better than exploiting an animal.
>If you gotta kill a cow or milk a cow for that so be it.Sociopath logic
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>>1627271Legumes, nuts, grains? All raw, all plants
No. 1627278
>>1627270That's mother nature logic. Even your skeleton and innards were made to eat and process meat. If you're forced to supplement at all on a diet of voluntary choosing and not because you're financially limited or whatever you're a retard.
We're part of the food chain, face it.
No. 1627310
>>1627278Looks like Eric Harris came back to life to post on lolcow.
We already do a lot of unnatural things and some of them are much better than the "natural" route, we can choose to not abuse animals if we want to and get nutrients from plants and synthetic sources. If you want to be all natural, why are you on the internet?
>>1627280Heating foods up to 45 degrees Celsius doesn't make it not raw vegan anymore, use that
>>1627290No one is suggesting to make children vegan plus having children is retarded anyway
No. 1627315
>>1627302Don't want to ruin your fun, but meat is a main protein, so even if every human consumed the "right" amount of meat, we would still need to kill cows on high amounts to satisfy the macro supply around the world
>>1627310>No one is suggesting to make children vegan Don't ignore her point, meat is important for human development at any stage of life, you cannot just replace it
No. 1627323
>>1627315As long as you're healthy and in a developed country there's no excuse for you to not be vegan.
Mother's milk gives the essential nutrients at the first stages of life, anything beyond that? Plants and supplements
>>1627232You probably have some underlying stomach issues, you should fix them first
No. 1627355
>>1627310>We already do a lot of unnatural things and some of them are much better than the "natural" routeThat's the point though, a highly processed vegan diet and supplements isn't healthier than the natural option.
>>1627323>at the first stages of lifeA mother won't be able to feed her child for a long time (especially if she's vegan and taking a shitton of supplements and eating carcinogenic vegan fake food), and a child needs to develop for a lot of years after the breastfeeding phase. A human still needs B12, plenty of iron and Omega-3s that are either completely absent or present in very tiny amounts in plant foods. Humans shouldn't be taking that many hardly digestible supplements from a young age.
>Having children is cringe and retarded!!So no one should have children anymore and be emanciated. Got it, you're insane.
No. 1627371
>>1627355>highly processedAgain, raw veganism if you want to be so crunchy.
>Humans shouldn't be taking that many hardly digestible supplements from a young age.How so? They're not that hard to digest and there are variants in how you can take your supplement: pills, spray, even fortified toothpaste
>no one should have children anymore Yes, trad-chan
>be emaciatedNuts are extremely high calorie, you don't have to eat only handfuls of greens for 300 calories per day. Plus fruits are full of sugar
>>1627368Infertility? Social issues? Never heard of her
No. 1627411
>>1627371>How so? They're not that hard to digestThere are tons of people who can't handle supplements and have actual physical issues (even severe) while taking them. Just because you like to chug tons of supplements and fucking fortified toothpaste to compensate your lacking diet (which somehow has all the essentials) doesn't mean everyone can and should.
>trad-chanYeah, I'm a trad-chan because I understand that we exist because people reproduced and that we can't tell everyone to just stop having children so we can all eat raw poorly digestible plants. Actually let's all kill ourselves.
>Nuts are extremely high calorieOh shit what a genious! Let's all eat tons of nuts and destroy our pancreas by eating too many sugary fruits so we can get up without feeling dizzy and tired after taking two steps.
No. 1627424
>>1627411>chug tons of supplementsJust B12 and vitamin D3 for the colder months (you can go without a D3 supplement if you live in a very sunny and warm area, just go outside). Anything else is for special cases like if you already had a deficiency.
>people who can't handle supplementsEasily explained by underlying physical issues or choosing the wrong supplement (type, dosage, frequency, etc)
>Actually let's all kill ourselves.If you can manage doing it, ok. Most can't and will have to wait until old age to die of degenerative diseases.
>Let's all eat tons of nutsYou don't have to eat just nuts, a balanced plant-based diet includes way more than just nuts.
>>1627415What supplements did he take?
No. 1627426
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>>1627411>>1627424Nobody gives a fuck.
No. 1627476
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I use both KF and lolcow.farm. On KF I pretended to be a man for a long time because people are shitty and creepy to female users, but lately I just can not contain my hatred of moids so I have been posting a lot of blatant manhate and now they think I am just a selfhating scrote, which is very funny to me. My gambit is just to confuse idiot moids as much as possible while blatantly calling them rape apes to their face.
No. 1627529
>>1627473"umami" taste of animal products can be replicated by spices and soy sauce
>>1627426you clearly gave enough fucks to find a picture, name it and make a whole ass post
>>1627477it's ok to admit you ran out of arguments
No. 1627644
A1 threadpic. I suddenly feel not alone anymore (c'est moi ici
>>1559770)
No. 1627786
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I wore my ahegao face mask religiously throughout the pandemic. Grocery shopping, doctors appts, plane ride. I even wore it (multiple times) to Disney World and was surprised when three different cast members complimented it kek. If I were a moid or a tranny or fat or ugly it would be cringe but I’m none of those.
No. 1627828
At a glance I thought the thread pic was Whoopi Goldberg in Sister Act and got extremely excited. I haven’t seen a new movie in like 10 years but I’ve watched Sister Act at least 50 times over the last 20 years because it’s stupid and I love it.
>>1627817You sound legitimately antisocial, underage, or both. Grow up.
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>>1627817It’s just cringe. Like wearing pic related and thinking you’re clever and cool.
No. 1627879
>>1627869If I saw a woman wearing something like that I actually wouldn’t assume she’s pornsick, just internet poisoned and desperate for attention. You saying you wore it specifically because
you knew it would irritate people sounds antisocial or just retardedly immature.
I love striking up conversation in public with weirdos who are obviously looking for attention. It’s always hilarious; I get to practice small talk AND walk away with a funny story to tell!
No. 1627895
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sometimes anons talk shit about me and i don’t care what they think obviously, BUT it does make me worried that this might be how my friends secretly feel about some aspects of me that anons are making fun of (this is unrelated to any of the anons above btw)
No. 1627917
>>1627898People are allowed to be offended by things your creepy ass doesn’t find offensive. Essentially trying to bait people in public is pathetic weirdo behavior.
>>1627912NTA but you’re right and I wish I knew where all these strange anons who don’t seem to understand the concept of anonymity were coming from so someone could build a wall to keep them away. I’ve been here since 2016 and while the culture has changed over time, the last year or so has had an influx of infantile posters that make browsing a chore.
No. 1627921
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>>1627893Samefag and the ayrt but just wanted to say that I’m not unattractive and can easily get positive attention even in really boring normie clothes without makeup and even looking a bit unkempt. I rarely leave the house without getting a few compliments on my style, hair, eyes, and/or general appearance.
I’m just an edgelord deep down. I just love stirring the pot, especially in subtle ways. I love it so fucking much. I love social experiments of all sorts, the world’s a stage nonnies. Why not fuck around? It’s easy to get positive attention (for me anyway), it’s fun to irritate people by doing things that shouldn’t be irritating. Unless you wanna be really ridiculous and make a total ass of yourself, the art of irl trolling is a subtle one.
No. 1627928
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>>1627920Man I was just waiting for the pedo comment kek. Yeah tongue sticking out is absolutely pornographic and explicit. That’s why I was allowed to walk around with it and even got compliments from people working there. Cause you’re allowed to show porn to kids at Disney world. Let me guess I’m also a pedo because when I was 18 I was dating a guy who was 17 and wouldn’t be turning 18 until 4 months after I did and we fucked. Hurry up and call the FBI, cuff me nonna (I’m kinda into that)
No. 1627930
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>>1627924My dad was
abusive and bullied me constantly my whole life and I’m autistic and was rejected by my peers until I became an edgelord and befriended other edgelords in high school. Deciding to purposefully piss off my bullies and laughing at them getting annoyed and me being introduced to something awful and then 4chan when it was a new SA offshoot and I was 10-13 was influential as well kek. I was allowed unfettered internet access in the mid 00s and even used someone’s card to buy myself a something awful account. This shit goes way back. Admittedly I’ve kept it down for a long time, I stopped wearing my ahegao mask after a while even though I still have it. But I still remember those days fondly and have edgelord tendencies. I knew my confession would garner a lot of pearl clutching replies so I got what I wanted and also got to kinda vent. Thanks
nonny ily.
No. 1627940
>>1627933Thankfully not a troon or a moid
>>1627936I am white trash though
No. 1627965
>>1627960>didn’t get the replies I wantedI wanted any replies and I’m getting a lot of them, I just put my dog to bed and am smokin a joint outside. Maybe you can’t laugh at yourself and people talking light anonymous shit about you would
trigger that response in you, but I love getting roasted.
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>>1627976So you agree, you’re projecting because you can’t genuinely laugh at yourself and would be secretly seething while pretending to find it funny. Believe it or not some people aren’t pissbabies.
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>>1627987See you in 25 years
nonnie No. 1627996
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>>1627995Absolute mancandy. The dude who played the mean fiance in titanic looked insanely hot in twin peaks too, sadly wasn’t in many episodes. Billy Zane. He hit the wall hard though. Meanwhile Kyle MacLachlan aged well and is a nice looking dude even at 64.
No. 1628218
>>1628039>>1628040Yo, you guys think after this realization you will start to behave normally and go out more and interact like normal people do but years later, the years you thought you were the most normal person there is, you'll realize you never were. Been there 2 times. If you're not normal, you'll never be, you'll either have these episodes where you try to be normal and convince yourself of it and later realize it wasn't true as you grow as a person, or you'll just stop this cycle and continue being weird. Some of us are not meant to be that person who you saw around you all your life and though was the perfect normal. And i'm not trying to say it in a negative way, i am at the point where i recognize that "that" life isn't for me no matter how much you wish it was. So i stopped wishing it, it's not even something real to me.
We are all cows in different ways. We are what we eat, it's ok.
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i'm only trying so hard to get a job and make money in hopes virtual reality gets to the point of being 1:1 (or at least, very freaking close) to actual reality. i'm too autistic and unpleasant for this world and its people. i want to escape.
No. 1628356
>>1628039>>1628040You guys will never be normal as
>>1628218 states. Might as well just accept the cringe and wear ahegao masks in public.
No. 1628382
>>1628378I saw
but didn't watch that one
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>>1628394You see why I didn't watch it, yes? kek
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>>1628449nonnie why are you going so hard against my fantasy btw
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>>1628449nonnie why are you going so hard against my fantasy btw
No. 1628703
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I like seeing anons seethe and become bitter when they get banned during hellweek, like what do you think would happen? /ot/ isn't exepted from hellweek.
>INB4 spoiler image exist, short explaination without linking when spoonfeeding, scroll up or ctr+f
No. 1628750
>>1628746I think we need signatures and banners
☆~☆ gR00v3 sL@m. W3rk iiT b@kk. Filt3rr th@tt. B@bii bUmPp th@t tr@kk. ☆~☆
No. 1628752
>>1628736>(redditspacing; line breaks after each sentence do not improve legibility and serve no purpose)Literally check any ban post regarding this on any other board. Stop just browsing /ot/
>>1628746>I'm just complaining about the autismIn the confessions thread
No. 1629113
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Sometimes i fantasize about getting raped while my bf watches helplessly
No. 1629153
>>1628218Something about this is weirdly comforting.
I guess I'll always be the person people make fun of. Which is saddening to me but I guess that's what you get for placing a person like me next to women who have the same interests as me but are not as unhinged and cringe as me.
No. 1629176
>>1629171samefag but how did you afford that at 23?
i used to think about it but i don't want my hormones thrown off any more than they already are from bc
No. 1629472
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reading fan fiction since my mid teens has completely destroyed my relationship with 'normal' fiction. i'm not even after weird niche shit like mpreg or god forbid abo, which makes it worse actually as i am unable to become immersed in stories that i would have loved if it weren't for ff frying my brain. it's like i lose all interest in romantic stories that don't include my fave characters from haikyuu. ugh writing this kind of makes me want to kms. but the truth is that reading ff while my brain was developing was a mistake kek. while there is a lot of rly good ff out there, i wish i could enjoy other fiction stories to the same extent. i love reading non-fiction though so that's something i guess.
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I like watching slice of life 'cute girls doing cute things' anime to simulate having friends.
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I oddly enough feel accomplished in life because I have achieved what Destiny's Child sang about in Independent Women. I support myself 100% without aid. It was a struggle but I made it. Have a car that's mine, a house that's in my name, everything I have was bought by me. Single and thriving bumping girl power songs is my life now and I couldn't be happier.
No. 1629583
Sometimes I imagine that people I know irl, mostly from work, use the image boards I frequent and that makes me feel closer to them.
>>1629511I wish I knew you anon, so we could do cute girl things together like eat macaroons, start a soft rock band, skip class, or climb mountains for fun together.
No. 1629619
>>1629486No.
Just kidding that’s probably a good idea but I’m weird, I was cured by mentally letting go of all shame around it and indulging in my mental fantasies until it lost its appeal. Would recommend for other weirdos. I think the shame turns it into a complex.
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Sometimes I forget what I posted on lolcow and might have replied to myself a couple of times, if the post was made longer than two days I won't remember what I wrote, but at least I might have bonded with a couple of nonnies, even if those nonnies were myself.
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>>1629113sometimes i fantasize about being chained up in a basement naked while a woman force feeds me, dunno why i have the most retarded trauma fetish out there sometimes i wish i was normal and fantasized about cuckold shit
No. 1629766
>>1629761I dont have that issue but I also don't see the issue. You aren't "rampantly mentally ill" for roundabout fantasizing about strange things ever so often. The difference between thinking about 'rape' abstractly and the way men fantasize about rape are completely different. None of you
genuinely want these things at all. It's all under strict controls in your mind, it isnt like people with BIID or men who want to rape people. If you can easily distinguish this at least you understand that it isnt something tangible or healthy or necessary. Even women with rape fantasies are able to seperate the fiction from reality, they would be traumatized by real rape but in their mind it isnt
actually rape, you are in control of everything you are imagining. Men don't realize that women watch porn or fantasize more abstractly than they do, you can watch something and be thinking of something entirely different, and you can be thinking about something you don't find attractive or desirable in reality or outside of the confines of your imagination.
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Ive said “kek” out-loud by accident but it sounds like a laugh anyway
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I love silly 90's shojo, with all the cheese, stupid misunderstandings, and retarded incest, I really do.
No. 1630362
>>1630026season 1 episode 6 iirc
>>1630091also that scene isnt till about episode 10 of season 2 just fyi. but damn is it the best part of that season tho
No. 1630476
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I have this massive gut feeling that whoever my ex dates next will look exactly like me even though he insisted his type was my polar opposite.
No. 1630695
>>1630668I did the same thing as a teenager. I only followed people on tumblr and twitter who overshared their lives. I never interacted with them I legit only used tumblr to see what stupid drama they had gotten themselves into or seeing their mental meltdowns. I would comb trough their mutuals to find blogs where people listed a gazillion mental illness (probably all self diagnosed) in their abouts because those blogs where the juiceist. Bonus point if they had a privilege list where they listed all the privileges they had and listed how they where opressed.
These people where smart though since they never revealed their real names and rarely uploaded selfies so I have no way of finding them now
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My twin sister had cancer until last year and the chemo ruined her. She was very young-looking for her age and quite pretty. Now she looks very gaunt and nothing like she used to. This is not a weird brag, we're fraternal and she's always been much prettier.
It was really scary to see sis's "friends" and colleagues practically dancing on her grave when she started losing her old looks. It really made me bitter. Does being prettier than someone matter to people THAT much? I'm so glad our parents raised us both to focus on things other than looks because it was a huge lesson in how fast something some people base their entire personality around can be taken from you.
No. 1630787
>>1630749People overshare too much online and it's easy to get addicted to the curiosity of seeing what happens next in their disastrous life. The best way to keep online stalkers off your tail is to be as boring as possible. I remember doing
>>1630695 as a teenager too, everyone was way too open about their personal issues and I would be lying if I wasn't intrigued by the potential for gossip. I never approached them or sent them hateful messages though, I merely observed from a distance. Most of them grew out of it and I can't even remember their online handles anymore.
No. 1630827
>>1630799She's doing really well now! Started getting into lifting recently because she was so happy to have her energy back. The only thing that sucks is that we have to keep a close eye on her health in case something comes back, but so far so good.
The not-so-good thing is that she ditched most of her friends. She only has family and a few others who live in another state. I still can't believe how relieved they were now that she's no longer "competition". At least pretend to be sad ffs. Thanks for the well wishes though,
nonny!
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>>1628703I get banned a lot usually for a-logging but I a-logged twice this week and didn't get banned. I guess hellweek raised smoke enough for me to blend in.
No. 1630973
>>1630960well
>>1630953 used "he"
>he'd have gone straight to the snuff department No. 1631223
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I have a secret social account which I use to slag off my best friend because I actually hate her. It’s similar to my personal diary at this point and it has been going on for more than 6 years now.
I can’t tell her shit because we share the same friends and it would start a lot of drama so when she does something that pisses me off or when I think she’s being a complete jerk, I go there and write all these horrible things about her.
No. 1631277
>>1631236Your rubbish gets recycled when it goes in the general waste.
Basically, splitting out the waste makes it easier on the local authority and reduces recycling cost for them. However, the batteries would get filtered out via the use of a magnet along with metals that have found their way into the general waste.
I don't throw my batteries into the trash as I'm not a degenerate though and you should bag them and take it somewhere suitable.
No. 1631288
>>1631277You sound British, it might be different where I'm from.
>>1631270They have
toxic chemicals and there's some places that offer somewhere for you to drop them off, you just gotta google. Hardware stores like Lowes have battery recycling.
>>1631284I think I accidentally deleted the last number on the post tag lol
No. 1631293
>>1631289>>1631290In fairness rechargeable batteries are better for the environment, so there's that as well and the cost saving in doing so.
Most waste in the UK is already heavily filtered by us before it gets to the facility, but they still strip it with magnets and also filters for glass and plastic.
No. 1631297
>>1631134Bankruptcy is a better path than escorting to make 25k. I was about that much in debt when I turned to camming. I couldn’t cam without being drunk. I even blacked out once while camming and woke up to vomit all over my floor and “concerned” messages from the coomers asking if I was okay.
I was also being sued by my bank and two credit card companies. The bankruptcy cost me like 1.5k total I think? And I got a scrote to pay for most of it. Did this 4 years ago and my credit score is in the 700s again (before bankruptcy it was like 375)
No. 1631311
>>1630894that's because hellweek ended this week
nonny kek. it was probably over by the time you posted.
No. 1631327
>>1631321a) Looks are everything.
b) go to the gym with him and he'll appreciate you for it and it will bring you closer together.
c) Women generally date up, so you shouldn't feel bad it's natural.
No. 1631472
>>1631304When I met her I didn’t have any friends and she portrayed herself as this kind and sweet girl who enjoyed knowing I relied on her because I was so lonely.
The moment I started to trust her and her friends and basically started acting like myself, she got all defensive want passive aggressive with me.
I.e. she tried to choose who I dated, how I should dress, how I should act with other people, even what I should eat. She was always the first one to judge me in front of other people until it got to a point where our mutual friends decided to call her out.
I’d send a picture of my bf at that time and she started saying how she couldn’t do this fuck buddy thing with anyone (I never did btw).
I’d go to the gym with her because she didn’t have anyone else to go with and when she (who weights +66lb than me and I couldn’t care less tbh) noticed someone was looking at me, she would start saying how they were probably looking at me because of my flat ass (I wish I was kidding).
I got a job which was kind of my dream job and when I immediately told her, her first question was how much they would pay me, her response? “Yayyy anon I’m so happy for you! It’s just a shame they pay you that low…I could never do a job with that low money, even if I wanted it so much”.
>you should try to eat healthier, no one will like someone who can’t cook for shit, that’s why I cook and I do it so well and it’s so easy, you’re just lazy but you should work on it.>I hate people who don’t have any kind of ambition, just like you, anon >I think you should try more and better to be happy because no one would ever love you until you love yourself and you’re pretty boring at this point with the same old stories over and over again>I think people nowadays are just lonely and they try to get with anyone just to fill this void and it’s pathetic because that’s not true love, just sexual attraction and they’re not capable of having a healthy relationship after all (when I started dating)As I said, we share the same mutual friends and even thought I don’t keep anyone too close because she made me this insecure mess year after year, sometimes I need my own place where I can vent and say everything that I know I could never say to her because it wouldn’t mean a thing
No. 1631491
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>>1630935>not just some internet randos on tumblr being cringeThat's what a cow is in many cases, especially in the past. It's only with the dawn of modern social media and zoomers developing extremely black/white thinking due to it that all cows had to become horrible and cancellable in order for you to follow them so it can make you feel morally superior and not bad for internet stalking kek
Just look at asherbee/luvmonkeys for example, /cgl/ used to follow her religiously and all she did was be bad at crafts and was unable to get better
No. 1631558
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I can't wait until I "hit the wall" so that I have an excuse to troon out immediately. Unattractive/old women are essentially treated like men anyways and don't reap any of the social benefits that I do as a young average looking woman, so when I troon out, nothing of value will be lost. I have been fantasizing about doing this since the age of 9. I have been on every medication on earth, seen every therapist, read every Lolcow thread and everything Andrea Dworkin and Janice Raymond have written and the urge will not go away. Someday I will cave in and I cannot fucking imagine how good it will feel.
For the first time in my life I am actually excited to get old. This fantasy is one of the only things that keeps me going.
No. 1631571
>>1630935Cows used to just be cringe. Pixyteri started off that way. Asherbee was just bad at everything, even Chris Chan was just an autistic guy that people liked trolling back in the day. Then you had a whole swath of weebs and furries like the foam adventure girls (now trannies) and tuna melt-chan.
People had an ED article about them for literally no other reason than being cringe on the internet. I remember being friends with some girl named AtJap13 on I think Gaia Online and finding her ED article when I went looking for her blog, finding out that she was posing as a half-Japanese man online.
No. 1631753
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>>1631558>old women are essentially treated like men anywaysAnon no they are not. Picrel isn't happening to old moids.
No. 1631772
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I block everyone who has the same husbando as me on sight because I get jealous.
No. 1631791
>>1631558>I have been on every medication on earth, seen every therapist, read every Lolcow thread and everything Andrea Dworkin and Janice Raymond have written and the urge will not go away.I don't know what kind of useless therapists you're seeing, but you don't really need to get rid of the urge, merely accept it as a ridiculous fantasy that represents a fear of aging or being a woman.
You've read what Janice Raymond and Dworkin have written, have you really read Raymond's Doublethink? Do you actually seriously follow the gender critical debate? No one thinks of these older GC women as men, they see them as senile old mommies out of line who need to go back to being kind. It's still very gendered. Victoria Smith writes about it well.
No. 1631829
>>1631633I like having clean spaces too, and cooking.
Hate that either is seen as a "pickme" attribute just because men have taken advantage of our goodwill so many times. As if no woman would care to eat and live well if we didn't have a manchild to tend to.
No. 1632066
>>1632052>>1631988>>1631999>>1632048Thank you nonnies. You're right, I guess I just never cared about it enough to consistently do something about it.
I just tried the thing with setting a 15 minute timer and although I did stop after that it's actually amazing how much I can get done in just 15 minutes. It's obviously not enough to get rid of all the built up mess but it still really surprised me. I feel stupid for not trying this before. I think I tend to make it into this huge thing in my head where I'll need a full day of hardcore cleaning to get rid of the mess because I want to get it all done at once.
I tend to be pretty bad at consistency and keeping habits going but I'm motivated to eventually not be a slob anymore so I'm going to try my best to make it a regular thing.
No. 1632142
>>1632137yes, all animal products, eggs and dairy too.
maybe as a result i started consuming a balanced amount of fiber (has an effect on bowel movements and is mainly found in vegetables)
No. 1632263
>>1632256i know
nonnie i fucked up. NEETdom and its consequences have been a disaster to the human race (my life)
No. 1632319
>>1632318Batrees
Chewsday
Dun
Vitahmins
No. 1632410
>>1632408Straight dudes who are into dudes aren't straight just because the men they're jerking off have a skirt or pink stockings. They're gay/bi on denial.
If youre a woman who is sexually aroused by other women who happen to be wearing suits or whatever, that's still homosexual attraction. There's nothing straight about a female wanting to fuck another female. You're bi nona.
No. 1632416
>>1632410>>1632409>>1632415I really don't think I am though because i'm not attracted at all to any normie styled women. Only women in that specific suave cross dressing style. So it makes more sense that it's some sort of weird fetish. And yes
I do want to have sex with them in what people would consider a ~gay way~ but it's 100% dependent on a certain aesthetic being present which is not a normal way to experience attraction. And i know that's really shallow and offensive so that's why I am going to keep it to myself forever kek but it does make me feel like a gross fetishist.
No. 1632424
>>1632416Clothes don't make you any more or less heterosexual just like it doesn't make the people you find attractive any more or less male
I find masculine women that look like that attractive, but when I think about it I don't feel the urge to have sex with them or be embraced by them like I do with good-looking men. I'm not attracted to their femaleness at all, only the clothes. You're bisexual, I'm not (or at least, you're more attracted to women than I am).
No. 1632784
>>1632709True that.
>>1632768>>1632737You two, however, are high on youthful maximalism.
No. 1632787
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There was a 19 year old girl who killed her newborn baby boy in a hospital bathroom and I feel much more empathy for the girl than the newborn. People who are raging about how she is an evil murderer who deserves to be executed sound unhinged to me, I don't get it.
No. 1632806
>>1632787There's been cases where girls a few years her junior have done the same but locked into their home bathroom with no medical help and I think people are way over the top in how they react to a terrifed 13 year olds actions under those conditions. Esp given how often people will downplay teen males going on shootings because of their age. We'll act like violent teen males are little boys but don't seem to do it for girls giving birth alone and nearly killing themselves in the process.
That said, I don't get why a 19 year old already in the safety of a hospital couldn't hand the baby over at that point. She had/has? a steady bf of like 2 years and theres police body cam footage of him not looking that upset in the hospital. People at her school say they knew. She was showing like crazy. It took a whole village of people with their heads stuck in the sand for it to even get to that point. Its a strange case all round.
No. 1632815
>>1632787Cognitive dissonance from the folks who cannot reconcile that their peachy Hallmark movie fantasies around having a baby may actually be a traumatic, or even fatal, childbirth experience where women die from bleeding out or whose minds go through postpartum psychosis.
Birth being a natural part of our reproductive cycle has fooled people with the illusion that it is safe, because it is common, and so they naturally do not hear or want to dismiss the cases where childbirth has gone awry.
No. 1632908
>>1632902she was in there a long time (i believe her mom took her to the ER because she was complaining of back pain) and the staff knocked and asked if she was okay just in time. the baby was ultimately suffocated by the trash bag put over him, and the staff saw a lot of blood in the bathroom when she walked out (probably not that unusual at the ER after all). while she was in the room being examined, she was still bleeding a lot and the pregnancy test they gave her came back positive. they questioned her and she denied that she could be pregnant. then, the custodian found the baby in the trash bag while cleaning the bathroom. the police were called. she had to get airlifted to another hospital to give birth to the placenta.
i did believe the mother initially that she did not know but the footage of Alexis' parents and boyfriend (along with his mom) was oddly calm. i think they did know and were too stupid to get her any help.
No. 1632955
>>1632923so she just threw the infant in the trash?
even so, the autopsy report does not indicate the baby was stillborn. there are several tests that can be done to see whether or not the baby was breathing. ultimately it was decided the infant died due to entrapment (asphyxiation), which would have been caused by her putting the second trash bag over the bag she placed the infant in.
No. 1632990
>>1632960I really think that her and the bf already had a pact that they'd get rid of the baby and carry on as normal afterwards. But they didn't bank on the mom taking her to a hospital and thats where the plan got complicated, though she still followed through with it.
I've seen so many people speculating about the womans mother being a controlling narc and all sorts of theories around that but very lil talk about the bfs lack of a reaction to what happened. Smiling prom date pics together weeks later.. Tell me that guy wasn't in on it the whole time.
No. 1632992
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The one thing that gives me the energy to get out of bed at six o'clock sharp is the thought that Pony and Claire do it everyday, day in day out.
No. 1633019
>>1632990>very lil talk about the bfs lack of a reaction to what happenedI don't think the child was his tbh, her stepdad is
sus.
>>1633015To be fair it was a male baby.
No. 1633089
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On some days like today I feel like I'm gradually going insane and the only thing keeping me from going completely feral is the fact that I live at home with my parents. I have a remote job because I cannot handle working around other people and have been fired from every in-office job I've ever had. I don't have to leave home unless I need to, I talk to myself, I laugh at my own jokes, I find random things hilarious, and when I talk to strangers I often speak so fast that I stutter or mumble my words.
I was always weird I guess, but since my ex-friends decided I wasn't good enough to hang out with anymore ten years ago, I've pretty much socially isolated myself. The only people I speak with regularly are my parents and my younger brother. When not working I spend most of my time reading, thinking, or writing stories of my own. I'd like to start dating but I doubt anyone would be interested in a weirdo like me.
No. 1633293
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>>1633089A glimpse into my future
No. 1633927
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I sent my friend a Twitter thread made by a cow because I thought it was funny and she ended up commenting a bunch of nasty shit under the post. Now the cow in question has been missing for like 3 months and no one knows if she’s dead or alive. She had a lot of health issues, so that might have killed her, but if she killed herself I will feel awful. I feel like I am/am going to be responsible for her death somehow, even though I didn’t actually tell my friend to harass her/cowtip
No. 1633989
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I never believed in voodoo until I did it on my ex.
I've never been the kind to want revenge but when my ex cheated on me
Because she kept accusing me of cheating on her for being molested and almost raped I lost my shit.
I went to her one day for comfort when I got molested and from that day on there wasn't a day where I would not hear about myself being molested and being accused of cheating to the point where I couldn't have any friends.
When she left me I got so upset and unhinged I did voodoo on her and she almost died in a car crash and couldn't pay rent the same week when all I wanted was for her to get what she puts out. Why did I do voodoo? I was afraid she would do it on me because the week before breaking up with me she asked for a vial of my blood in a necklace and my idiot ass gave it to her.
coincidence? Probably.
No. 1634006
>>1633996>>1633999Sending voodoo vibes to you girlies.
No, just kidding but I don't have BPD, she did and I can't stand faggots who have it too. Now, a Schizo? Probably.
No. 1634030
>>1633999Lesbians are addicted to unhappiness and being as
toxic as possible for some reason.
No. 1634055
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Idgaf about SAG strike or even the writers tbh. Everyone deserves fair compensation but i just cannot care and don’t know why people who aren’t even in these industries keep posting about it
No. 1634081
>>1632934Thanks nonnoe ♥
>>1632936I'm sorry anon. I don't have much family (that I talk to) and a really bad relationship with my momma, but it pushes me to improve my life so one day I can be the best mom. Maybe unfortunate family relationships are kind of a blessing like that.
No. 1634261
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When I was younger and looking for a pose reference I found a male model on Pinterest that looks like he could be my brother. Picrel
I was weirdly drawn to him. I spent a while reverse image searching until I found his social media and I was so shocked to find out that he was a reasonably commercially successful model in high fashion and we were the same age with him being like 4 months younger than me or something.
He’s even from the country adjacent to my ancestor’s that shares a lot of the same heritage (I’m a burger and this hyper specific ethnic group is relatively rare in the US outside of certain areas).
I started following him on socials after that casually. He’s quit modeling now and seems normal but I still kind of idealize him in my head in a weird way.
Like I actually kind of have a crush on this Gus just from looks. He seems like a typical cringe euro zoomer moid in terms of personality but I don’t even care I just fell in love with how he looks and I still dream that my family never immigrated and I had to be in an arranged marriage with him and that we’d fall in love
You guessed it: the reason I looked him up wasn’t just curiosity. I immediately had a huge crush on him from first sight even though he looks like me. And to be honest he’s a way more attractive male version of me. The masculine feminine vibe isn’t as cute on me tbh. I feel really gross and evil about it because 1) it’s parasocial af and 2) I have brothers but I have never thought about them in that way at ALL. And neither of them look much like me and they are literally my brothers so EW. But even just beyond all that oddness: This guy is like my moid twin though? I feel unhinged about this. I worry that like I have some sort of undiscovered narc self love complex, even though I hate how I look, and I can only fall in love with my own reflection. I feel so demented to be honest that I have a parasocial crush on my hot male clone.
>inb4 you probably look like an TIM
I don’t because I’m obviously female
>inb4 you are projecting and are a larping TIF
I was very lucky to avoid the TIF phase because of how hard I tried to be a normie in hs. I probably would have been one if I was born too late. I had a fashion blog/was into modeling myself and at my most masc-feeling I really just wanted to look like saskia de brauw who is a very elegant and handsome woman, instead of wanting to be a man. Thanks fashion tumblr xx
>inb4 you are creepy for parasocial crush
I know
>inb4 you are creepy for parasocial crush who looks like you
That’s why I am posting in the confession thread
No. 1634266
>>1634261What's his personality like? I think it's fairly normal to be interested in people who look like you, especially if your appearance is uncommon, I wouldn't worry too much about it. Loads of people marry people who look like their siblings kek
Interestingly I'm not attracted to the faceapp/male filter version of myself when I see guys like that irl, though he's objectively a hottie, I prefer people who look a bit different from me, but your feelings are actually pretty normal.
No. 1634277
>>1634264Kek you’re probably right. Guys who look like this are kind of rare outside of areas where Baltic Swedish and Finn people didn’t emigrate so I guess I’m kind of just weirded out by being hyper attracted to someone who would have been the boy next door in another life (I wish!) because I’m normally way more into people who look different to me in America since a lot of the Nordic diaspora is kind of fugly and lame. I’m kind of masc and lame though so it’s probably just projection all the way down
>>1634266See I normally feel the same way and in my actual life I date guys who look super different. I’ve dated a Chinese American, a Venezuelan expat, and two Irish Americans with black hair and super dark eyes. I think half of the weirdness is just me finding a blonde guy super beautiful. And as for personality he’s like a boring gamer who’s into basic tiktok humor with the boys and top 10 rap artists. Nothing malicious just a basic bitch. I delude myself into thinking that I could fix him but it’s probably a lost cause lol especially since I will never meet him as we are separated by an ocean and a mother tongue language barrier with an uncommon language
>>1634267marten padama feel bad posting his name unspoilered even though he was a fairly well known Gucci model because my post is so weird lol
>>1634270Kek unfortunately I’m a female bicycle head and he is legit the only other bicycle head I find attractive. It’s honestly a weird looking head shape on men and women irl but men can pull it off better in photos imo. I look like I’ve had Korean plastic surgery to change my head shape but I still have wonky features so it’s an odd look for sure
No. 1634278
>>1633989Insane that all the responses to this were just hating on lesbians. Like even if nonna and her ex sound high-key insanse, she doesn't deserve to get blamed for having a shitty ex who ruined her relationships and
victim-blamed her after she experienced sexual trauma.
No. 1634665
>>1634612Why would you post about being a lesbian on KF lol. Not to
victim blame or w/e but you could have seen that coming. I always pretend to be a guy.
No. 1634689
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>>1634679I kinda feel bad for them but at the same time they choose to hang out there and sometimes they make try hard cringey posts too. They remind me a lot of PULL and I wouldn't be surprised if they were all ex-PULL users trying to fit in with the edge lord ChYmps.
No. 1634700
>>1634694Which BP threads are the most readable tho?
Just the troon ones or
No. 1634915
>>1634269I don’t know if you’re being retarded on purpose or you’ve never experienced an emotionally
abusive relationship or both but she told me she bullied someone into suicide before for “betraying” her by ruining a piece of clothing she let them borrow, she calls me every day (usually multiple times a day), she constantly berates me and makes “jokes” about my mental health issues (also makes “jokes” about sexually abusing and/or killing me), and she has diagnosed ASPD. She is not giving up that easily.
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>>1634261This is not uncommon I love James Spader and he looks a lot like me it’s mostly the lazy eyes. I’m full of myself so when I see a man with similar features to me I think he’s hot or almost as hot as me
No. 1635657
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I have yellow fever I know I sound like a female neckbeard but my romantic dream is to settle down with a rugged man from nippon who admires me dearly
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>>1635657Me and you are the same.
No. 1635880
>>1635830I wuv you too
Nonnie mwah
No. 1636093
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I used to have this burner account where I would just scroll through Tard Tok until I would stumble across some degen (trannies, furries, kinksters, fatties, etc.) and leave snippy comments on their videos out of sheer boredom. Some of them were deserved but I also feel bad for making someone’s day worse just for my amusement, because I know what it’s like to be ostracized and those people probably got bullied IRL.
No. 1636094
>>1635799The seethe just doesn't stop. Amazing.
>>1635777>tradthottyIt is true that having kids is way more useful than having a husbando. That's an objective fact. Inb4 "u wanna force me to have nine children, kids bad, reeeee crotch goblins": learn2read.
No. 1636103
>>1636093don't feel bad,
nonnie, at least the former deserves it.
No. 1636461
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I saw Joker in a theater about a month after I'd tried to commit suicide by overdose and had a near death experience. I thought about my mortality and trauma as a broken women, the amount of time I had left.
Growing up abused and trying not to snap by substituting the pain at times with delusion and obsession, I understood what escapism meant to the main character.
Although I don't agree with the characters actions, nor would I ever commit murder or start an uprising… I understand. Three years on what it feels like to have lost part of my mind and been left in the dust.
Lost my insurance, lost my medication, lost many friends and had parts of my life halted, i did achieve things and have new revelations, but I'm in pain. I'm forced to get back up with little support and the intrusive thoughts plague my mind. about flying off the rails and doing something outrageous and horrible, even though I'd never follow thru. though I've tried, I don't want to be a perpetual victim, or do something crazy to be considered a villain, I just can't imagine that I'll ever be in a happy, healthy position.
It's even worse to be an eccentric woman than it is to be an eccentric man. I wish I could be normal and vapid instead of thinking, feeling too much all the time, it's like the world is out to violate my five senses and is encroaching upon my sixth.
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>>1636486>>1636509hoping it will get betor for all of us nonitas.
No. 1636576
>>1636536"nona" feels very neutral to me, even if it's co-opted by moids
who comprise half the site userbase at any given time it doesn't really change how I feel about it.
No. 1636604
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i feel like i'm too weird for normal people but too normal for lolcow.
No. 1636655
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>>1636649picrel how I'm struggling right now
No. 1636681
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I stopped posting at the retarded hornyposting thread when I realized I could simply write down my fantasies on my note app kek it's very comfy actually
No. 1636774
>>1634261>>1634277reach out to him
nonny…slide into his dms! you never know what might happen
No. 1636775
>>1636681Congratulations
nonnie! Do whatever makes you comfortable and your heart content.
No. 1636829
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i’m a straight woman with literal internalized toxic masculinity.
No. 1636832
>>1636826Thank you,
nonnie. ♥
No. 1636864
>>1636834I was like this after years of abuse by my older brothers, it was hard for me to express myself or be as emotional as other girls because I was simply "trained" not to do so, I had no female rolemodels. After going through CSA, I wasn't comfortable with feminity and I feared men, I acted tough to conceal my smaller anatomy, tried my best to scare boys I liked away. I was like a rock, until I got therapy and now I'm on a better place, it may sound like a meme but
toxic masculinity is actual poison
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maybe this is the former fujo inside me talking but I thought that scene where tom holland gets railed was hot as fuck. i am ovulating rn though so my judgment might be a little bit clouded. more hollywood a listers need to get railed on screen.
No. 1636890
>>1636604go back to tumblr then
>>1636834that’s called having a personality. it’s normal many women aren’t all that girly. you’re fine.
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>>1636604 said I would never come back and here I am out of fucking boredom.
2020-2021 lc where are you, I miss you…
nonny my
nonny No. 1636906
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>>1636888He did not look cute, the makeup was horrifically off-putting, but I generally find him very cute although in theory on his own like, factory settings out of the box he isnt cute without his charming personality
No. 1636976
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My phone is filled with casual match 3 games. Pic real is my current favorite.
No. 1637009
>>1636969I was also a hairy girl and got bullied by other girls mostly. To boys I was invisible. But you know what I don't do? Go around calling other people's experiences fake and invalidating them just because I personally didn't go through that.
I swear to god every time I mention my experiences with bullies on here I get either called a pickme or told I deserved it because I was probably a bitch.
No. 1637250
>>1637067Nonny, I dropped out twice from different uni courses because what I wanted to do is not accessible from graduation on in public unis and would have cost 5k€ if not more a year in a private uni/school, and I couldn't ask that to my parents. At 24 I was at the same stage as you.
At 25 I finally found one two year course that worked with the skills I already had from jumping around Yurop to find myself, while big family shit storms were happening and making me depressed if not suicidal. And I passed that course with flying colors, even doing better than at graduation where I did the bare minimum.
I'm turning 33 this year, full time employed in a field that interests me with a majority of good colleagues. I'm 900 kilometers away from where I'm from in a town that has a bunch of stuff to offer, enough savings to allow myself to take small and large trips, made some friends through different hobbies (even crochet/knitting), and I have not been on a date with a man in my life either. But considering the amount of childhood and teenage trauma I got, I don't even want to consider dating anyone for their and my sake.
The only thing I had more than you
nonny before that change in 2015 was my high school best friend, but even in the years I was struggling, she had her own battles to fight, so we both had to pull ourselves out of the gutter separately to meet at the end of it, more grown.
Don't despair, there's definitely something out there for you that can be a hobby, a passion you can turn into a real professional skill, with or without uni.
No. 1637256
>>1637011I think so too, it would be a waste of time for the both of us.
I have a very low libido so the good part is I do not really need to fuck anything.
>>1637017Eh, I doubt there is someone that I could find attractive. Also My self sabotaging would not let it happened.
I wish you the best.
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>>1637311theres overlap with autism and OCD/compulsive behaviours as they both fall under the umbrella of neurodivergency, but yes it sounds like its not very nice to deal w this at all and i hope you're able to learn to cope with it better anon. it is a bit ridiculous sounding but it still sounds extremely unpleasant to deal with, even though im sort of envious and in awe at your ability to walk so much in a day bc right now im struggling even to leave the house kek. but im rooting for you and wishing you the best
nonny!!!! kick those compulsive thoughts in the ass
No. 1637328
>>1637301Please be careful anon, gait and tendon problems get worse the longer you ignore them and can get super bad.
My legs are different sizes because I had a split tendon for 5+ years and didn't get help, please don't follow my retarded path. If you can't afford or don't want to see a physical therapist, there's online guides for range of motion exercises and other stuff they teach you in PT. You're cool and deserve better!
No. 1637335
>>1637301can you switch your obsession to pushups? just to give your legs a break… I know that's not really solving your problem but this is obvious psychological so you could replace one habit with another. I think there's technology to count pushups now just like steps.
You should see a podiatrist anyway so they can prescribe you special gel inserts. Lie and say you are a mail carrier or biological field researcher or some job that makes you walk a lot, then you don't have to tell them you're doing this to yourself lol.
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Bump
No. 1637499
>>1637396Gosh I love big booty men in office suits so fucking much.
Source?
No. 1637519
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>>1637499@segu_ishida my beloved
No. 1638350
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currently debating if I should post in the friend finder threador not. I have done it an the past and anons have reached out to me but the conversations never went anywhere. Problem is I have no interest or hobbies so I have nothing to write about myself or to chat about lol I legit spend all day refreshing lolcow or rebloging oil paintings on tumblr no wonder I'm boring to talk to
No. 1638375
>>1638350i honestly don't recommend it unless you're 200% committed to being able to hold up conversations and getting to know eachother. ive tried twice and i realised that not only are most other anons not actually that bothered about making friends and putting in effort, but ultimately neither am i. conversations felt really superficial amd fizzled out quickly, outside of maybe 1 exception who i ultimately still ghosted kek
i also feel like a boring person with not much to offer anon & i wish i had a better suggestion for a social outlet, its something i struggle with too. but yeah ive learnt to just not bother with the friend finder thread here
No. 1638409
>>1638375Nta but I had the same experience as you. I feel guilty still for ghosting but it just wasnt happening. I feel you so much when you said you realize you didnt actually want to try that hard yourself. I learned that about me too. I hope if any anon I ghosted reads this they know that I am sorry and it is actually me, not them, that sucks kek.
I wish there was a thing like discord meets nextdoor, where there is a local server that people in the area join and are verified as who they say they are (but still anon to the other users by default) where you can come and go, but also has various topics/threads (like subreddits?) each user can go to and chat or leave a meme in. That would eliminate the weird Angry Karen news feed of Nextdoor, and garauntee that if you find yourself chatting with the same person about the same thing, like idk chatting about yoga in the 'yoga room' or something, each user has been geo verified on the back end and the users can then decide to share personal info with each other/meet irl to do their yoga session or whatever. It would probably have to be run via the city like a city hall type thing and heavily moderated obviously, but I wouldnt mind paying a little more in taxes if a sort of virtual rec center existed hosted by my local municipality that meant real connection within the city was feasible. Or remain completely anon if you want too. I like the idea Musk had about a virtual city hall I guess….kek. It really is so hard sometimes to make connections with people if you arent just seeing the same person regularly by way of life happening (work, school, etc) maybe bumping into your neighbor virtually- without the pressure of maintaining a convo with one single person (the reason image boards and reddit do so well)- can plant the seed of irl relationships.
No. 1638729
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I consider every anon who responds to me with something funny or sweet my friend and refer to them as such if I bring up a conversation irl.
No. 1638748
>>1638573Awwww
nonnie I’d feel bad too, but you gotta do what you gotta do for your baby. My parents have a cat who will literally howl like a wild animal and then spray urine on their TV when he sees other cats outside. He BROKE one of their TVs by pissing on it so much because of his hatred for outside cats (he is fixed and does not have a UTI before anyone asks, he’s just a territorial psycho). So you gotta spray the outside boy cause your baby could develop a medical condition due to the stress or could start destroying stuff in your house in territorial displays.
No. 1638755
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Staying in my lane, being gentle on myself, focusing on the things I love.
Running around in the park, a nice juicy steak, getting my back scratched, peanut butter, napping, and friendly strangers.
Hope you nonnies are taking it easy too.
No. 1638775
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I just want a moid who devotes his life to me, is sensual and fucks me good aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah
No. 1638984
>>1638777i'm sorry nona, i know how you feel (except mine remain messy/
abusive). if you can afford it, i hope you can look into therapy. that gaping hole where a parental figure/someone to guide you and listen to you should be is horrendous to deal with during your childhood and teenage years, but it somehow feels even more uniquely horrific when you're an adult. and remember - you do not have to forgive them, and you don't have to push yourself into keeping (consistent) contact, or any contact at all. you should do the best for you and your own mental health and stability. i know how desperately lonely it can be, and i'm really wishing the best for you ♥
No. 1639173
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I love all cats but I get so moved when I see a picture of a black one in particular, probably because my own cat is black but I find them so lovely. Like today I saw an ad with just the back of a black cat and it gave me fuzzy feelings.
No. 1639227
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>>1639173same here, I love seeing them. I want a black cat because they're beautiful and special.
No. 1639258
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i am not trying to racebait i swear to god and all higher powers but i get so annoyed when (pale) east asians like chinese people, south koreans, and jpn in the usa try to act as if they are SERIOUSLY being oppressed. you are not. where is it happening. asians are basically white people here kek, even jewish people get more shit than asians do. they'll be like "I'm a POC and navigating America is difficult for me" like no honey you are WHITE, basically.
why are they always such insufferable pseudos too. why do you think anyone cares enough about you being a 10th generation chinese-american to make an entire sad little shitty twine game about a tough conversation you once had. female east asian leftists are almost as bad as white troon men.
No. 1639343
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i record unhinged audio rants when i'm alone that are only to be released after i die. a real one woman whinging carnival
No. 1639449
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i subscribed to an app that lets me track the instagram activity of the scrotes i am seeing. since i am dating seriously i want to figure out (and as soon as possible) if they are coomers, cheaters or degenerates in other ways. turns out they are normal and mostly react to things about their hobbies and normie posts from their friends. i feel like such an autist.
No. 1639458
>>1639449When you get so hypervigilant about red flags that now
you’re the red flag
No. 1639489
>>1639486dont mind
>>1639485 it's just retarded bait
No. 1639496
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>>1639173posting these just for you, friend, i hope you like them.
No. 1639504
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I find people that use terms like "adulting" cringe usually and did not like people gamifying everyday life and treating social awkwardness like some quirky, dorky thing. But lately I've been falling into the same thinking patterns myself, because I feel like I'm losing the fight with my autismo tendencies, and congratulate myself for managing to sound like a normal human would, and literally feel like I'm loading in the next appropriate small talk phrase/question as if I was loading in lines of code.
No. 1640091
>>1640047NTA but growing up one of my best friends was a gay dude a few years older than me. We played Pokémon (like pretended to be Pokémon and/or Pokémon trainers, not just playing the video games kek) and tons of fun outside games with lots of fun shouting. We’d play fighting games like dead or alive 3 and then go pretend to fight each other like that in the backyard while shouting Japanese sounding gibberish phrases. We’d play Barbie’s and board games like monopoly and pretty pretty princess. He’d literally stay over at my house all day long, sometimes he’d already be chilling on our porch waiting for me to wake up (we lived in the same neighborhood). We were both only children and Libra Suns (sorry I know people hate astrology here but it’s something I think helped us be so close kek), I think he was actually raised by a lesbian couple if I remember correctly. They were just always working so he was home alone a ton, and my mom was a SAHM.
I hope he’s doing well. Haven’t heard from him in about a decade but we were besties starting when I was like 6 or 7 until I was about 10-11 and he moved away.
No. 1640104
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finding old neocities sites has been an on and off hobby of mine for years now. I find it interesting to compare oldweb to newweb and see people make sites dedicated to their favourite things are cute. However I genuinely didn't know that people still made sites like that and it had an active community until the first oldweb and personal sites thread was madewhich was a year ago yeesh time really does fly Despite having an interest I have never read those threads for some reason. I bet it can give me some good insight but I just never bothered. I do appreciate all the nonas who make the internet a more interesting place with their smallsites though
No. 1640336
after ashnikko got famous with STUPID, i typecasted her and dismissed her music as typical weeb girl man-hating for clout while still seeming like she had a particular affinity for men, but she has really grown and become a pretty good artist that genuinely is leaning into the tankgirl aesthetic and doesn't mind being unattractive to men, genuinely. i'm glad to see her become more and more female-centered/dating women talented butch wowmen and earnestly enjoying it for herself and not men. no queerbaiting despite her enby bullshit or whatever. she really seems to be deeply in love with women, although highly sexual, which i thought was only for men but i'm buying that she's just got a high sex drive. her music is actually extremely relatable (despite the sex but idec about young women being sexual openly anymore and it being demeaning, as it is becoming so visibly hated by loser men again so whatever) and is very catchy. her audience seems to seriously be 99.9% girls and young women. it's nice to see although i feel embarrassed.
anyone relate? vidrelated is excellent imo, despite the obvious sexualization but it's still pretty based for a tiktok mainstream young artist. feel pretty weird for it honestly but i'm glad to see a lot of relatability in her singles, particularly invitation, daisy, and you make me sick.
No. 1640371
>>1640336>>1640364I want to believe a lot of female artists who claim to be bi aren't just pandering
but that's just my bisexual hope I also think women's sexuality is more fluid than men's and we're less conditioned to be aggressively straight, if only men wouldn't fetishize that so much. even my "straight" friends have occasional thirst over women, we're just naturally better looking
No. 1640398
>>1640336ill check out her music, thanks for the rec!
i like rebecca black bc she sings about loving women (since like 2019ish?) and recently released an album. she's really good!!
No. 1640416
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>>1640336Nope sorry I'll forever hate her just for pic related
No. 1640422
>>1640409sure, but there are good and genuine parts to take from almost everything, imo. i think writing anyone off like this entirely isn't healthy tbh. obviously musicians have a persona, and it seems to me like she uses her musical persona to empower herself, vent, and channel her self esteem/confidence. she has said as much and i think for a lot of people, particularly women, personas can be very useful in a world that seeks to diminish them. she reads to me as someone who has routinely been violated or taken advantage of in her past by men and has reflected on it. i don't really see the financial utility in targeting a very very small niche audience of young women who don't offer mainstream support overall when she can instead target a larger audience that would be more supportive and sustain her career better. she has gotten more and more into her niche shit, which makes no sense from your standpoint imo.
regardless of authenticity, i think it's very helpful to encourage any kind of empowering female music. most of her newer music especially can definitely be cathartic to girls and women.
No. 1640468
>>1640422I actually have the exact opposite impression of her. She seems like someone who lacks actual life experiences (both negative and positive), also regarding why she caters to niche demographic rather than trying for the mainstream, well, the mainstream pop stardom is a cut-throat business. It's far easier and requires less effort to dominate niche circles
>>1640419>she said this really happened irl. and every rap musician claims they get into gang-fights, but we all know that's bullshit, same with her.
No. 1640610
>>1640336I really like her song
Toxic.
No. 1641028
>>1640358i would never say it personally but i never understood the claim that it was sexual. I have always interpreted as a pseudo compliment towards the parents "the child is going to grow up pretty because the parents are pretty". Besides "you're look pretty/handsome" is a normal compliment to give small children when they dress up in fancy clothes. I had aunts who told me "you grown so pretty" when they hadn't seen my in a long time. It wasn't a vanity thing for them it's just that children grow so fast and can look different when you haven't seen them in months so it's just a way to comment how fast a child is growing. Pretty and handsome are often used in a non romantic and sexual context like, its common to call pets for a handsome boy but that doesn't mean you are sexualizing a dog by doing it.
There is a discussion to be had about whenever you should compliment child's look because it might led to obsession over appearence and insecurity but calling a baby pretty is far from sexual
No. 1641453
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My bf rated himself a 7/10 the other day and it made me realize how fucking delusional moids truly are.
No. 1641891
>>1641489I'm attracted to him and I love him, but I don't think he's that much more attractive than me. We're average people. A 7/10 is a model.
>>1641491>>1641516Kek that's mean, I told him he was a 10.
No. 1641970
>>1641917Idk Margot Robbie? Moids aren't that attractive to me tbh. My 3dpd husbando is Adrien Brody.
>>1641928Imo a 5 or 6 is average. 7 is pushing it, I don't see many 7s outside everyday and if I do they're women. 7 is exceptional enough to be noticed. Maybe the people in my city are just ugly though kek.
No. 1642066
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My confession is not that bad, but a little frowned upon among dedicated husbandofags. I consider myself a dedicated husbandofag, but I am also in a relationship with a 3DPD. He is well aware of my obsession over my husbando and just finds it kinda cute and funny. I don't think of my husbando the same way I think of my bf, they are different feelings in my head. He is helping me purchase merch and when I am upset he sends me a picture of my husbando to cheer me up as a little inside joke. He knows my husbando is fictional so he doesn't care in the least. I don't see myself with my husbando directly, I create an avatar for him based on me, but I am pretty dedicated to him and the avatar I created. This avatar is like an ideal version of me, in a way I strive to be her. I take care of myself and try to become closer to this ideal version of myself. She would give him all the love I feel he deserves and it makes me happy. She is still me in a way and I feel his love for her is also mine. I've been obsessed for my husbando for years, I don't think I'll stop any time either, he brings me too much joy and being a husbandofag helped me through some rough times. Feels weird being in this position sometimes. I've devoted so much for my husbando for years that I can't consider myself simply a 2D enjoyer, at the same time me having a real relationship makes it feel like I am not a true devoted husbandofag. On the other hand I can't stop loving my husbando, I would never share my feelings to just anyone, I don't talk about this with friends, with very few exceptions. When I'm with normies I feel like a freak, they would never understand. I am just lucky my bf gets along with it, he is a normie and no, he doesn't have a waifu. I hope this doesn't ignite the same retarded infight from last week.
No. 1642156
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I kind of miss the time in my life when I had no friends and just worked. I'm grateful for the way my life has changed but suddenly having a ton of people in my life plus studies, it's so hard to find just one day for myself in a week. I miss having no friends to worry about, I have a few but none of them like each other, I try to keep them 'separate' but one always picks a fight with one another and I have to solve it. I miss my shitty job because you could cuss out a customer and they wouldn't give a shit, I miss just being able to be sad and not having to put on a happy face all day to look approachable. I feel so tired, my skin is breaking out and I can't sleep. I just want a break from life. It's all I dreamt of back then but now I have it I don't feel happy at all. Add insomnia and it's the perfect mix. I just want to be a teenager again, sleep however long I want and worry about the most banal shit.
No. 1642159
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i've kept my nails long ( nothing crazy just like 1, 1.5cm past the nailbeds ) since i was 12 due to everyone saying how masculine my hands were and the "manicure" had a masking the effect i have long very thin fingers and my fingertips aren't really tapered in they're more like, square. honest to god i have troon hands and no i'm not that one poster which is when i started really being hormonal and self discovering and everything which means that i've never really got myself off and honest to god i've never finished. tbh i always felt disgusting uncomfortable and ashamed before and during the act and it never really did anything for me anyway probably because of my nails but yeah. i dont really remember getting the urge very often then but i reckon the length probably aided in killing it. if i ever feel like jilling i just use my imagination until i get bored or fall asleep KEK true story, but mostly i just try to change my mind to something else. i just feel so confused and aimless even when i do try it never leads to anything but being uncomfortable. i don't want to cut or file them off because i'm so used to life with nails the last time i didn't have them like this was when i was 13 or 14 plus i'm still insecure about my hands, that and knowing that whenever i break one to the pink part it literally feels like i'm missing a joint until it grows back kek so cba. needless to say i'm a virgin obviously. soz4vapidness i realize that now. yes i'm really repressed and ex-religious
No. 1642209
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i don't feel bad for male celebs getting creeped on or when they get scared of their fans. most of them are creeps themselves, (which makes their concerns sound like reverse-uno "n-no u!" bullshit) I hope more fans continue to scare them (unless it's like a child actor tho). i doubt most of these men are genuinely scared in the first place since they have no problem working with violent directors and producers and other actors known to be violent. like how are you not scared of getting your ass beat by someone you have to work with daily but you're scared of a young woman you've never even seen lmao. these are grown, like 30-60+ men. quaking in their $50000 boots, pathetic. sometimes it's not even them being concerned but tumblr-esque fans acting concerned for them, the "muh cinnamonroll" types.
the idea of psychologically torturing these men and putting subliminal messages in their homes to mess with them kind of makes me horny
No. 1642211
>>1642159Get a simple vibrator to help out
nonnie.
No. 1642212
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>>1642209>spoileryou have an agenda there
No. 1642224
>>1642214A great starter especially if they're an actual creep is to badger people for tea or seek out old tea, beat rumors and allegations like dead horses, connect those narratives into new ones. Make him more unlikable.
If he's already a bad guy, maybe it'll make him feel worse. If all fails, you'll at least have the satisfaction of having wasted time for his PR. Especially amazing if you can pick a sensitive target who is offended by the slightest criticism and he either has a public account where he'll screech, or he's the type of guy to use 99 alt accounts. If you piss him off, you know you've succeeded
From a safety standpoint I would not recommend this, but from a hypothetical hilarity standpoint, those men deserve to cope and seethe
No. 1642231
>>1642209I wrote out an entire response about those terminal losers complaining about "sexualizing" actors, but then I deleted it because your post was more about actual inappropriate behavior. But hard agree, everybody is so ready to coddle moids. Embarrassing when you don't even realize the tryhard wk'ing is one of the lamest things to waste your time doing, and he will never ever ever fuck you
>spoilerAnyways you're right
>>1642229Two things can be real.
No. 1642234
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>>1642209the best thing kpoopies have done is making grown men scared and disgusted and i applaud them for that
No. 1642251
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I am lonely to the point of fantasizing meeting or finding a nerdy autistic girl online in some fandom circle, becoming friends and then e-dating. Bonus points if they somehow turn out to be living where I am too and we can meet up. I think about acting on this sometimes but the communities with most bi girls are infested with fujos and/or tifs
No. 1642356
>>1642251Hey if it makes you feel less lonely
nonnie I have fantasies like these too.
No. 1642665
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>>1642659No, but I looked back at this thread earlier and ended up sending a few nonnies friend requests or emails. I thought about posting myself sometimes but I have this insane paranoia of getting recognized by my combination of interests somehow or attracting a shit ton of scrotes because of them. Maybe I'll get the courage to bite the bullet and post someday… Any anons reading this and have posted there before, what were your experiences?
No. 1642720
>>1642682Holy fuck. Did you do any voice verification at the start of contact? I'm afraid that isn't good enough because it's easy to fake with voice changers or asking a friend to help out.
>>1642698No surprises I guess. This
is lolcow.
No. 1642726
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every time i see a scrote being obnoxious and misogynistic on lc my first thought is to harass him with creepy, invasive sexual questions even though i know you should just ignore them
No. 1643292
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i just realized i have terrible internalized misogyny. i saw a woman share what she eats in a day on youtube and couldn't help but think "ew, too many carbs, disgusting, eat a vegetable once fattie" yet an hour later i saw a dude share his meals of the day and they were much worse, but i kept making excuses for it, like "oh he's young, he's just having fun, he can eat whatever he wants"
so not only am i an asshole who tries to police what other people eat, i'm a fucking misogynistic retard, i should kms
No. 1643298
>>1643292The realization is the first step towards improvement
nonny, it's nbd
No. 1643322
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Sometimes I wish I had a more squared face and less of a round one. Would make my features look 1000x less awful
No. 1643357
>>1643298but how do i improve? i've spent years only talking to guys online and i grew up with a verbally, sometimes physically
abusive dad who would always put me down.
fortunately i've made a few female friends since then, and i try to make a conscious effort to read books and watch movies made by women. i also mostly follow female youtubers. but the intrusive thoughts keep coming back
No. 1643366
>>1643357It's really significant and great that you understand that your experiences with men would result in you taking on these thoughts. It takes time to relearn and realign yourself with a healthy outlook of the world not mostly informed by prior male trauma. I don't think this is something you need to feel guilty over but try looking into the details of men's claims and actively try to remind yourself that the real situations are far more complicated and a lot of women are
victims in these situations and men have an interest in you holding these opinions and actively remind yourself that this is probably the case. Men like simple answers and use simple answers to pretend there aren't issues with them and will twist or obscure the details with regularity. Like the Johnny Depp case for example. Look at how many women are convinced he's in the right or that she is deserving of mistreatment when he was the abuser. Another example is the Shannan Watts case. Women are so deeply deluded about men and need to vilify women, but this is the doing of men. Just repeatedly question situations regarding men and ask what man could be benefitting from what they're claiming. You'll see most women are not deserving of the dislike and begin to regularly take this in and improve.
Brainwashed women sometimes never get out and see from underneath the influence of the men.
No. 1643380
>>1643366Sorry, I meant to say
see out from the influence of men and my browser crashed.
No. 1643674
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I feel guilty about it, but I feel no sense of connection or personal identification with the race I was born. I don't hate other people of that race, it just doesn't feel like "me", and has almost nothing to do with my inner world. I have had a peculiar life, but my family always tried to instill a sense of love and pride in our culture. It just didn't work on me, I don't know why. I tried to appreciate it, but it wasn't happening. I'm convinced that this and having to hide and/or fake my race online to avoid getting bullied as a kid in certain spaces helped give me something resembling race dysphoria. I live in a progressive, metropolitan area, so I'm not really pressured to conform to the culture in daily life, but things like my natural features, skintone, etc still bother me. I know I just have to live with them because they can't be changed unless I'm ready to dedicate myself to surgery, a high-maintenance (and non-permanent) skincare routine, hair changes, lying about my ancestry, etc. Basically living a lie and running from my own DNA like a tranny. I try to embrace my features, but it never really extends to my sense of self. I just end up looking at other people and thinking "Wow, they are beautiful and so cool. I guess I'm like that?", but there's this layer of "but that's not me or exactly what's right for me" clouding everything. It's not that any of it is "bad", it's that it's vaguely "wrong". I feel like something got fucked up in my pattern of self.
I've accepted that I am what I am, but being reminded of it too much still kind of hurts me, and I get unreasonably upset when people make comments about how women of my race shouldn't blahblahblahblah because it's for other races. I start thinking things like "Okay, then what should I do? Die?" because I am not faking anything, or trying to steal from anyone. The way I am and the things I like aren't a trend for me, I've been this way since I was a child. I'd just be living another lie if I tried to "act", speak and dress like how my demographic is usually typed. I literally can't help being how I am. This sounds so stupid, because there are so many things that shouldn't even be racial or have any kind of (stereotypical) racial coding, but they are and do. People do follow those made-up rules, they do judge you if you don't conform to what you think they should, and the only thing that seems to have changed is that they're quiet about it and (usually) won't outright harass you or call for you to be banned. I resent it. I would rather die alone than marry a man of this group and have kids with him, though I love the other women. Thinking that I was born and will die this same race is almost like thinking I was born and will die with a broken leg, or maybe an extra one. It really feels like nothing if you're used to it, just a mode of existence, but it gets depressing if I actually sit down and think about it. All of this is much too embarrassing to talk to anyone IRL about, and I don't think there's a single therapist who could help me other than telling me to "love myself".
No. 1643702
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>>1642665It was mostly short conversations, I had a nice discussion with someone about vocaloids and which songs were our favorites and we were both gumi fans so that was neat.
No. 1644350
>>1644303No, someone calling him ugly doesn't bother me, it was way worse that. Anon was wrong but I still don't want to share in the thread anymore.
>>1644302Thank you anon! Let's have a double date.
No. 1644420
>>1644215Yeah some anons get really nasty out of nowhere. I won't pretend I understand everyone's taste, but I avoid being mean at all costs there, even when I see weird posts about my husbando. Wished more people would do the same.
>>1644289I hope you come back to the thread some time. I don't know what they told you, but I miss when nonnas disappear, even when they have weird husbandos.
No. 1644460
>>1644431Gay scrotes have exceptional taste in women
Source: my dad is a fag
No. 1644601
>>1644588Yeah that shit is annoying, they act like it's incredibly obvious to everyone but a lot of the time their just tinfoiling and think women can't have weird beliefs or opinions without automatically being a scrote, not to mention how some anons are traddy or have some slight moid brain rot, they just assume it's a man. Rancefag seemed like a moid until she posted her nudes.
>>1644595How is vagueposting about it going to do anything then lol
No. 1644653
>>1644642I dont mean using it, I mean saying you
have to use it or else you're male. Ridiculous
No. 1644718
>>1644706Moids are far more likely to use
nonnie and nona to try to sound more feminine and patronizing
No. 1644947
>>1644706>>1644718I don't think everyone who says
nonny/
nonnie is a male but I do think they are all painfully retarded. It's redtexted for a good reason, and crystal.cafe is right to filter that shit out entirely.
No. 1645009
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A few years back, some I knew killed themselves. I didn't know him that well, but I knew that his mother was raped, and that he was a product of that rape. I can't say anything about what his life was like or what kind of person he was, but I can imagine that it was hard for him to know that his existence caused his mother such grief. But then I think about his mother, she had raised him in spite of all that happened, and then she lost him. I thought about those two people who I barely knew, a lot. my confession is that I wrote a short story with this premise and posted it online, I deleted it a couple of weeks later, realizing how messed up it was to use a real human tragedy for my writing.
No. 1645032
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>>1644706>>1644714>>1644947how else am i supposed to reply to kind anons in /ot/ and /g/ though, leaving it out feels so impersonal
no i'm not a moid
No. 1645033
>>1645032Keep using it
nonny. I think it's cute when nice anons use that.
No. 1645042
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I’ve been smoking this tea with weed because I’m too lazy to buy just dried valerian root
No. 1645056
>>1645009I understand why you felt like you needed to delete it, but the story itself doesn't sound so unique that a random person could recognize who it's about, and besides, many stories are inspired by things the writer has heard and it's not necessarily that big of a deal.
I feel you though, because I happened to overhear a story about a guy who was insanely talented in carpentery at school but kept experimenting with drugs to the point that he probably fried his brain for good and wasted his talent. I wrote about it and even though I made up all the details because I don't actually know anything about this guy, keep getting the feeling that I need to change it even more in order to not be disrespectful towards him and his family.
No. 1645362
I'm in this weird emotional tug-of-war where I want to distance myself from the friendship but I also don't. I know that I have to be hands-off now (both to protect myself from being hurt further, and also because it's the right thing to do), but given what's happened, I worry about how he's going to cope. It's not really my problem anymore, but the concern remains - and so does the desire to reach out and check in. Unlike before when I had less context and it hurt a lot to think about him, this is a latent, nebulous sort of feeling now that I know the full picture.
It's one of those relationships where if circumstances were different, then maybe it would've worked, and I suppose I just feel bittersweet about that. I don't think the outcome the selfish part of me is hoping for will happen, but even if it does, I don't think I'd want to go for it. Even so, I feel ashamed that a part of me like that even exists.
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Sometimes it’s so hard not to a log other women when they defend the grossest of trannies. Like do you really not see how this is damaging to us? I know you want to be nice but I can assure you that the moids you defend will not return the favor
No. 1645985
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>>1645977>I can't help but wonder if some anons are stuck in front of the screen 24/7 and only ever browsing lolcow.Yes, and? It's the only site I like.
>>1645982I feel the opposite unless I use very certain threads.
No. 1646060
>>1645989>>1645997Feeling worse when you go outside isn't normal, you might have internet addiction like some of the lolcow users. I think the ones who always fight or spam threads with multiple replies do so because of that as well, this is probably the only social interaction some posters have in their lifes so they infight to satisfy their urges.
>>1646022I hope it's better for you now anon
No. 1646078
>>1645982Too late I'm already a doomer.
I don't usually post about it though.
No. 1646308
>>1646269Internet relationships aren't real, just ghost. If he has enough info on you to to find you irl you should probably break up nicely (without telling the truth about your long term bf) just in case to prevent stalker/revenge behaviour. Put your long term relationship first.
>>1646289The problem with that is this is an online guy and for all she knows he's had online girls or irl girls on the side all this time. Nothing good comes from pursuing onlien relationships ESPECIALLY if you have an actual long term relationship already going irl.
No. 1646381
>>1646060Actually you have an irl addiction
>>1646080>If the most pleasurable part of your life is posting on a random forum instead of talking to real peopleNothing about life is pleasurable but how are people on the internet not "real people"?
>I'm sure there's a mall or a park nearby she can visitLike I said, the area I live in is shitty. It doesn't matter where you go. People here are trashy and rude and it's depressing. My nearest park even has a homeless encampment.
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I don’t really feel that bad for men who die in war. Like they literally signed up for that shit
No. 1646478
>>1646371I'm really sorry to hear that anon, usually taking a walk in a nature walk calms me and makes me feel at peace and I believe each street should have somewhere similar that people can chill at.
>>1646381I hope it gets better for you as well. It really is draining to be living in a bad part of the city, I used to do so as well and i couldn't go outside because of the criminals or druggies that'd be around at night.
No. 1646922
Do you ever just wonder what would your life be like if it was different? But not too different, just sightly different.
Reading romantic stories always makes me feel like I wish life was sightly different. I want a boyfriend, but I love my best friend a lot, if she was a guy, I’m pretty sure I would’ve pushed her a lot to become my boyfriend. But then I remember that being born a moid is being born with a mutation that makes them retarded, and then I fear that I wouldn’t really like her if she wasn’t herself, because she would act like the average moid and not like herself.
In my ideal world she suddenly wakes up as a guy and we date, we get married, have a child and everyone is happy because we both would have nice jobs.
I don’t know, I’m not a lesbian, I just only love her, when she sent me a text tonight, she told me that we should just leave the country and live together, away from everything and everyone. And I thought I was going to cry, and I feel like I could cry because deep down I know that it wouldn’t work because I was cursed with being straight I guess, or she was cursed with being born a woman, because if she was a man, I wouldn’t feel sad about knowing that moids will never even resemble her, even if we fight a lot and we don’t really have the same opinions on many things, she’s still just, so much better than any moid I’ve talked to so far, well, she kind of makes me feel so peaceful like how my highschool crush (a guy) would make me feel back then.
Maybe I was destined to only fall in love for real twice with a person that I would actually like to be with, and because I messed up the first chance, I’m being punished with a second chance that will never happen.
No. 1647086
I might be a bit addicted to this site kek. Woke up from a dream where I commented about a dog hate sperg that was posted on the “things I hate thread”.
I wrote that in a world where dogs have bred to be vulnerable and useless if by themselves, where they can’t even roam free without risking being hit by a car or dying by starvation/illness, where people do the unthinkable to animals (especially men and the nasty things men do for sadistic personal pleasure), where they’re tortured in the worst imaginable ways for animal testing… I can’t bring myself to care if someone gets spooked by a yappy reactive dog twice a year, I think it sucks if you got bitten three times tops through your life by lose dogs but odds are you didn’t get any lasting damage so I don’t think it’s the absolute worst, and I don’t actually care that much that allergic people have to put up with dogs being brought in everywhere. I don’t even like or own any of them themselves but beyond demanding responsible ownership and awareness, most complaints are just. Boohoo.
Especially when it’s highly likely those people complaining also smoke or use make-up; how many dogs have been strapped, injected with chemicals in their eyes and skin, forced to inhale tobacco before getting vivisected and culled for those people’s needless pleasure? That’s beyond any nuisance or bite they could possibly cause to anyone. Even all of the deadly dog attacks can’t even amount to the harm humans cause to vivisected dogs on the daily.
There’s of course a difference between some blissful idiot letting their “don’t worry, they’re friendly!” leash free when they nip at other’s heels, and some drug addict gangster wannabe letting their big-size, prey-driven breed loose. There is of course nuance. But I just can’t bring myself to care that you had to wear a bandaid once because a dog bit your index or that you have to take the occasional pill because a creature who also belongs to this world had to take the same bus as you. Too bad. The rest of the world still belongs to you and you have a monopoly on the right to exist due to luck having it so you were born this particular species of primate.
No. 1647330
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Once upon a time when I was a retarded kid, I was playing with my dad's helmet. It was quite heavy, at least for me at that time. I still wore it and was running around because that's what kids with nothing better to do tend to do, I suddenly lost balance and fell down the stairs. No idea why but it didn't hurt at all, maybe because I think I landed on my head which was protected by the helmet or something? Anyways, my parents came running towards me and were extremely worried because that's what anyone would do when they hear a loud 'thud' and see a kid just laying there, so seeing their worried expressions somehow my kid brain thought "shit it's a situation where I should be crying, so I'm going to cry" and I cried so hard that my parents still think it's one of the most traumatic experience I've ever went through in my life. I tell them that I wasn't actually hurt and cried for no reason, but they think I'm lying and continue to think otherwise. Sometimes, when my relatives' kids are being careless or annoying, they tell them my story as a cautionary tale and make sure to emphasise how much I cried…
No. 1647352
>>1647343nta. what's male brained is sperging about your hatred for animals. weren't there literal moids and people saying to kill neighbor's dogs in that thread? of course normal people will be disgusted, the "
valid concerns" get washed out by the psychos that are tolerated. get help, degenerate.
No. 1647360
>>1647335the cat hate thread was soooooo autistic kek ill never forget the
nonnie who posted about her friends cat being too hard for her to read because the cat came up for pets but would scratch her and play with her feet under the blankets at night
No. 1647483
>>1647426I use the thread cuz I hate basically every dog that aren't my dogs. Honestly I kind of am just waiting for my dogs to die
>inb4 give them up for adoptionYeah and be the ebil owner that dumps their elderly dogs at the shelter nah. I can wait fluffy and fido out kek
No. 1647665
>>1647573It’s not like I want to hate them, they just make it so hard for me not to hate them when they insult canon x canon ships.
>>1647631Case in point