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No. 1506737
Let it out.
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why's it's whole pussy out
No. 1506764
My boyfriends exes friends are stalking my socials and showing her, making her spiral and go crazy on my boyfriend/his friend(they are in the same friend/work group and she has bpd so he wants to keep things polite). Her friends are also bpd and the exes of his best friend, so its a whole mess. She has him blocked now, which I think its for the best, so I dont get why her so called best friends have to shove our relationship in her face?
I have nothing against the girl, I just feel bad for her. Its so unnecessary of her friends to keep tabs on me and tell her, what good comes of that other than ripping up wounds and causing drama? I know my bf also has nothing against the girl, they just werent compatible in the long run so he broke it off, he has said nothing bad of her, just that their views didnt align and he realised he wasnt in love with her. So no bad blood really, feels like her friends are tormenting her for the entertainment
No. 1506765
>>1506755that can be a sign of cancer, get it checked out. Also it will be uncomfortable? And your vagina is not just for sex. You sit on top of that thang constantly.
>i have a cockroach burrowing into my left breast but i'm never going to have sex so i guess i'll just let it live in thereheadass
No. 1506786
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I know nonnies, I know, I shouldn't be expecting even a bit of sanity from twitter and it's stupid of me to be angry at this… But I merely went there to see some fanarts of one my favourite novel 'Clear and Muddy Loss of Love' and instead got to witness this bitch calling my beloved character a 'he/him lesbian' LIKE WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK. And how is it even 'canon'? It's a lesbian character in a lesbian novel written by a lesbian author, but twitter just can't let a butch lesbian breath without turning her into a gendertard. maybe it could be because she's referred to as a 'Prince' in the novel but it's solely because she's a woman in a position of power and it sticks close to reality to label her like this, the same way Wu Zetian is called the first 'female emperor' of China rather than an empress. It still doesn't make her a he/him
No. 1506790
I don't know if I have mental illness, a personality disorder, or if I'm just really lonely and anyone in my situation would be this way.
I don't have any family, I work from home (alone), I live alone, and I am single. So the only people I really talk to are my friends. I don't see them in person that often, maybe once a week maximum. And we also rarely talk on the phone, it's mostly texting. It's not unusual for me to go a couple days at a time not saying a word outloud just because there's no reason to speak when there's no one to talk to. I cry so often when my friends don't respond to me…some of them are quite distant, or bad at texting back. I'm never really sure if they don't actually like me, or if I just need to get a grip and it only seems like they don't text back quickly simply because I have SO much free time I'm always with my phone and responsive to texts. None of my friends are like me, they all have partners or roommates or work in offices. So I don't think they really understand how lonely I am and how they really are my only social interactions. I don't want to put any weird pressure on them, so I try very hard to play it cool or act like I am busier and happier than I actually am.
The reason I am not sure if there is something mentally wrong with me or if its just normal is that I cry and get depressed SO often. I have extremely intense mood swings when I start to feel lonely..the worst is when coincidentally all my friends are busy at the same time and so I don't get any text replies from anyone no matter how many I send. I start to feel so alone and I spiral so fast. I cry and hate myself and wish that I was dead, or fantasize about killing myself because being so alone feels so unbearable. I start to hate myself for not having more friends, and get confused and upset because I don't know if there's something wrong with me that has made me this isolated and drives people away that I don't realize (am I actually autistic? Mentally ill? so socially awkward it drives people away and I don't realize?), and terrified that there is something wrong with me I will never be able to fix because I don't know what it is, and that means my life will be this way forever.
But then as soon as a friend texts me back, suddenly I feel completely ok again. I am happy and smiling and laughing. When literally less than an hour before that I was wanting to die. and this happens ALL the time, not just sometimes, and it's exhausting. I don't think its normal. But I don't know if its just because of how isolated I am, or if its something more. I don't know if I would be this way if I talked to another person every day, or had someone in my life that genuinely cared about me and wanted to talk to me more than just once a week or so (I never even had that with my parents growing up, they were abusive and horrible and I did not know any of my family outside of my parents).
I don't know. I'm so confused. I wish someone could just tell me if this is normal and fixable or if there is truly something wrong with me. If there is something unfixably wrong.. I probably would genuinely consider suicide. I have no interest in living alone like this until I die.
No. 1506793
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>>1506755Bartholin's gland cyst maybe? extremely common, and also extremely painful. don't ignore it just go to the doctor, it might need to be drained but sometimes you can also just take antibiotics. don't try to wait it out bc they legit can get to the size of golf balls and women can have them for literally months. they get BAD and its needless suffering when the treatment is so quick (if drained, basically instant)
No. 1506802
>>1506790Nonna I’m so sorry to read this, this sounds super painful.
Can you afford therapy? It’s the obvious answer but it might help you get some answers.
I also don’t know if I have BPD or am autistic or if the search for a label is futile, but DBT and mindfulness have helped me a lot. There’s lots of self-help available for both.
Also, living a healthy lifestyle with regular exercise (while weight training is the trendy thing for women now, cardio really does the most for mental health), eating well (which means healthy food and also eating enough calories in general), and getting sunshine can help take the edge off of most mental health things.
I think a lot of people are lonely these days and it’s a tough nut to crack. I wouldn’t recommend dating while you’re in this headspace but if there’s any group activity you enjoy it might help you get out and meet people.
No. 1506821
I really miss lockdown. Unemployment was paying me more every two weeks than I get monthly even with my 2 dollar raise so I could finally afford to buy my needs and wants, the streets were so nice and calm and empty, I had so much time to dedicate to my art and my online shop as well as my studies, I had time to play games and read books and watch movies and anime online with my friends and got to chat with them all day. Now I'm constantly exhausted and depressed, I can't stand how crowded and fast paced everything is because everyone is so desperate to catch up, everyone is resuming their normal lives so I feel my friends drifting away and I don't have time for my hobbies and the only time I can study language is during my commute to and from work. Even my work is busier now so I can't even multitask like I used to be able to. I just go to work, come home exhausted and unable to do anything and rinse and repeat. I feel like a loser for saying it, but 2020 was one of the best years of my life, 2022 sucked and 2023 is also shitty so far. I realize how bad it was for many people because they lost their jobs, health, and family members but god it was such a good time for me and I dearly miss it.
No. 1506925
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it hurts really bad to pee and idk if my reproductive problems are encroaching on my uteran tract or if i have a uti again from holding it one too many times
which is kinda funny because i haven't held it that often lately, its just a dull pain where my groin is every time i try to
No. 1506938
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quitting weed again and I'm already fuckin sweating
No. 1506984
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The /ck/ mod banned me for posting this
No. 1507023
>>1507018Absolutely nothing. Some scrote in the thread had a tard meltdown at me accusing me of being a "Troll that baits with ai threads across 4chan to make people mad". Even other people called him a schizo but he got my thread deleted
Fuck me for wanting to talk about something that isn't fast food or youtubers they find fuckable right
Another poster on lolcow posted about getting banned for making a thread about sandwiches
The /ck/ janny must be stopped
No. 1507054
>>1506984>using 4chan at all in current yearISHYGDDT
t. Nona who used it for over a decade and stopped browsing last year
No. 1507072
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I wish Empress put a popup or something where you need to check whether or not you're a "trans supporter" and if you check yes the file would delete itself from the pc. It's hypocritical that people who leech her hogwarts crack despite believing in "trans rights" and other tranny/nupronouns garbage.
>Lololol I don't support joanne since she's the next hitler but I'm still gonna pirate the game from a terf and comment twans rwaghts
Stop whinging and just kill yourself, you fucking idiot.
No. 1507086
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dang I currently have like 5$ in my balance and I don't get paid until next week except I have this week off from uni so I won't be able to do anything fun with my friends like go to the movies or eat out because everything costs money and I'm simply too poor right now
sigh nonas don't be stupid with your money like I am
No. 1507089
>>1507086too late already did, dropped $60 of a bruxism mouthguard that barely works, wizzy
sorry though nona you gonna be okay?
No. 1507096
>>1507089Ah one of the worst feeling.. but maybe it'll start working magically out of nowhere let's hope so
I'll be fine dw probably just holed up in my room watching youtube
No. 1507105
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Mfw I see Americans online who are filming their 'first drink' at 21 while I'm 19 and already an alcoholic, I hate my life
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>>1507105kek anon I'm pretty sure americans start drinking since high school at parties and stuff, just not legally. sorry about your alcoholism though you should look at pictures of fat drunk english men, you'll be too disgusted too drink
No. 1507131
>>1507124It's not embarrassing at all you're only 19 nona you're taking so many classes that you finish at 5pm it's normal to get overwhelmed and drinking became your escape it happened to me as well in my first year of uni
It's not too late to start getting better, take it slow and once the semester is finished it'll become way more manageable trust me
No. 1507150
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A lot of women suffer from imposter syndrome in the workplace and think they are doing much worse than they are…but I am not one of them. I'm a fucking dumbass for real, I'm terrible at multitasking and I constantly make small mistakes because I'm not detail oriented, I speedread, I forget to double check, and I'm just all around scatterbrained lol. It's great for low wage retail type stuff because I can do a whole bunch of things at once without getting burned out. But I have an office job now and holy moly do I suck balls. I made the mistake of applying for a manager-type position and somehow bullshitted my way into it and I'm so bad. Even though its been almost a year now my team is constantly having to correct me or point out my mistakes. The people I am supposed to manage have to double check MY work, and I ask them questions on procedures. I'm constantly showing my ass in that I don't know how some things work even though I've been here a while at this point. People who were hired after me but are below me know more and frankly are more capable and on top of it than I am. I have no idea how I haven't gotten fired. I try to make up for it by just being really chill and I never get upset or narc anyone out if they make mistakes in turn since I still make so many. I try to be hands off and I don't bullshit if I don't know something, or I'll fall on the sword for mistakes someone on my team might have made because ultimately I didn't catch it. Things like that. So I hope that at the very least they don't hate me for being a hard ass. But I wish I was less of an idiot.
No. 1507160
>>1507154lol thanks anon. I hope so, at the very least I just don't wanna make anyone's job harder. I'll be embarrassingly honest after working like 4 different retail/customer service positions I watched a ton of tiktok videos on how to rework your resume by rewording your previously job roles to sound more impressive than they were but I #girlbossed too close to the sun. Like if I was a cashier at a mall store, instead of saying I worked the register I put shit like "handed customer service and inventory management for 20-50 clients daily". Then I just started applying to positions that had titles like manager, team lead, etc. Before that I only ever tried for entry level stuff. And somehow I had an interview where I vibed with the hiring manager and she brought me on like the very next week since they were looking to get someone hired quickly, and I've been here ever since. So it was a mixture of luck and BS.
If you're ballsy I'd say try it, someone who actually had the skills would benefit a lot. I think I'm just not made for the corporate world.
No. 1507162
>>1507150Dont put yourself down,
nonnie. I'm applying for a job now that I am definitely not qualified for, but as women, we need to do this more since men do this shit all the time. I am hoping to also keep quiet and just learn the ropes through a training program. You get this. Just keep doing you.
No. 1507182
>>1507167(adding this after I reread your post, damn, somehow I missed that you consider your dad's children half-siblings but not your mom's, so just have it in mind while you read my response, kek)
I didn't even know this term till I started learning English, surely it exists in my language, too, but I don't think I ever heard anyone using it. But I get what you're saying anon, my brother and I have different dads and my sister and I have different moms, but I would never specify they're not my full siblings if it wasn't absolutely necessarry and relevant to the conversation. We spent so much time together even though my sister didn't live with us. I actually even refer to my brother's cousin as a sister because we were really close growing up and it just feels weird to explain that she's not my blood relative and so on. Saying they're half-siblings seems kind of strange, like it matters to you so much that you don't share one of the parents and it makes them more distant or something. Although it's ok if you're really distant and were growing up separately. Just my subjective feeling about it.
No. 1507183
>>1507182I'd feel that way even if I didn't know my mom or brothers/sisters I had with her. I'd still consider my dad kids as "Half" but my mom kids as my full siblings. Maybe it's because my dad sucks, I never had that connection he was
abusive and his kids treated me like shit, he treated me like shit.
However even before that I always felt it worked that way. They are my siblings, the others are my dad kids/half. In fact, I'd go to say they are nothing to me, kek.
I would'nt dare think or say my mom kids aren't my real brothers and sister. To me the mother always matters the most. Maybe it's because the mother always
keeps the kids in my community. There's a lot of single mothers with different baby fathers, but most of the time they keep the kids 90% of the time or 50% of the time, but regardless the kids always share a mom vs. sharing dads.
i guess it depends on the relationship but I'll always considering Sharing a womb with someone more deeper then sharing the same sperm spurt or some shit
No. 1507291
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made the realization a few weeks ago that my entire friendship history ( no romantic ones to speak of ) has always been in some way influenced by yellow fever and it makes me feel idk sick. three days ago some girl i was friends with in highschool hit me up again after going abroad and boldly admitted that she fetishized asians and i didn't know what to say kek like umm ok. what am i meant to say to that…
every single one of my past friends has been either a weeaboo ( which was so much fun and i'm grateful even if they saw me as a token piece ) or a kpop fan, or both, or their siblings were and they were copying them thus actually becoming the same with time. literally Zero of the people i've always been afraid of boys and men so i've never had a male friend so i'm only talking about girls, and women. because this includes my mom. she legitimately keeps telling me that she specifically sought after asian men only and eventually did end up marrying one. yes i'm mixed but i don't look even one percent of her race that approached me, and i have deeply thought about this it's not something i'm exaggerating or catastrophizing, have been any other than those two categories of people. everytime someone new strikes conversation with me they start talking about how much they want to get with asian people how much better they are etc and as much as i have a diplomatic personality it's gotten to the point where i'm just dropping truth bombs about how awful the people actually are within the actual continent of asia and how horrible it would be to live there in their current conditions. it's either that or i get harrassed and made a mockery for people to laugh at like a circus monkey. it's the same type of racism delivered differently. can't even escape it here if i'm honest some anons are strangely racist against us it's so odd and genuinely makes me sad and sick. i've posted about this issue itt before i know i don't have it the worst so i'm trying to be grateful for what i have but it's hard. it i think it's maybe something to do with living in the capital that makes it so bad, it's literally neverending, by children to the elderly i get harrassed. i just feel like an object of entertainment
No. 1507299
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When nonnies say "you can't be a radfem and date men", I used to think that was a bit extreme. I can't stop being hetero, right? But after trying to date and put myself out there for a couple of years, I kinda get it. I feel like I keep having to hold back and shut my mouth to not seem too feminist, and having to shut my mouth to not clap back when they have misogynistic opinions. I'm not talking about MRA-type dudes, I mean "normal", chill men. A little woman stoopid joke here, a pornsick joke there. I can get to know a guy, but when we get closer I have to constantly… water myself down? Are we supposed to just leave our core values at the door before visiting our moids house? I don't think I can do it.
No. 1507309
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>>1507299i was confused seeing this woman thinking she was a folk singer from my country turns out shes just a stoner?
No. 1507317
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>>1507299>>1507308have you ever thought that maybe, just maybe the pretentious writings of a moron who literally ate herself to death might and maybe you should read the writings who actually did something with their lives and helped other women
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>>1507315It's Andrea Dworkin. Who do you think she is?
No. 1507341
>>1507330Stop putting so much pressure on yourself in this potential relationship. You need to focus on
your needs. Workout, self care, cook. Men are gonna disappoint you so dont invest until he proves hes worth it
No. 1507345
>>1507308I get sick of all the make up whining on here, it comes off like it's from the same Nona, and it's always focused on scrote attention. Just like the Ugly girl vs. pretty girl, where the anon always acts like ugly women are below pretty ones and the pretty girls are the true
victims of this or that.
It's weird. So much shit that all boils down to troons or scrotes (also troons). Like I do not care if some women want to wear make up, I do not care their reasoning. Who fucking cares.
No. 1507353
>>1507345Same. The average person doesn't give a fuck either way. Same with shaving. The average moid doesn't give a shit, only the terminally online and
abusive scrotes care about that stuff. And you don't want them anyway
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my cat is being such a bitch lately. I play with a few hours total every day with a variety of toys to keep him interested, brush him daily, teach him tricks, give him plenty of love ofc. He has a cat tree, lots of hiding spots, various springs and balls scattered around the ground he can play with on his own… but when I'm not petting him or playing with him he just sits at my side and yowls ALL DAY. If I lock him outside of the room he'll just scratch at the door and yowl instead. I'm going to go insane. I work from home but I've started working at coffee shops just to get some quiet. I'm guessing it's boredom but I genuinely don't know what he wants from me
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I want to cry and scream from how much I hate rich kids god nonnas I hate them so much. I just found the instagram of this faggot who goes to my uni and his entire page is him and his other rich friends cosplaying us, the poor. their entire pages are dedicated to larping as white trash. their photos are low quality, their clothes are ripped, their skin is blemished, their hair is messy, their furniture is all over the place but no, you don't get it, it's supposed to be "art" it's cool and experimental and nuanced when they do it.
His dad is a fucking real estate developer and his mommy is an art collector. Just why do they insist on acting above all of their money when they wouldn't know how to live a day without it. Why invade our spaces and replicate the working class lives for their aesthetically curated feed
I prefer when rich kids used to bully me because I don't go on vacation or skiing trips, now they're pretending to be starving artists on Instagram
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>>1507390Oh wow I was going to tell you to look at her Japanese comments but it seems like they have no updates on her either.. it's so worrying I hope she's doing fine
No. 1507406
>>1507394Thanks
nonnie, I was trying to find people through her Instagram, but it's difficult. There is one moid a lot of people messaged, but as usual scrotes are useless, he doesn't answer.
No. 1507427
>>1507366what did she in her pathetic short life that anyone hadn't said, "porn is bad and misognystic towards women" "we live in a patriarchy that is hostile to woman" smarter women had already said what she had written centuries before her
she was the OG fatsoc and you know someone as academically brain rotted as her would have supported troons
No. 1507442
>>1507390i also watched her back then. she's from south east asia (or even had a fiance/husband there), i wouldn't worry too much. she was in tokyo to earn money for her family, likely went back and then no longer felt like filming.
if you're interested in similar youtubers i'd recommend nami's life
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Idk nonnies I think it’s a scrote. I mean cats don’t have belly buttons right??
No. 1507499
>>1507448Why settle for half decent when most of them demand for women to be "wifey material" (whatever the fuck that means).
Porn sickness/lack of sexual discipline isn't the only scrote issue and the fact you said he
made you go noporn instead of you two mutually reaching that agreement gives me pause. But maybe it's my sensitivity from former
abusive relationships and what you meant was he suggested it and you gave it a go.
No. 1507629
>>1507622Maybe you need to go to a dermatologist or even to an endocrinologist, I've been having issues with my hair lately even though my diet is amazing and I'm following my dermatologist's directions, he told me to wash my hair at least thrice a week and to only use medicated shampoo and conditioners because my skin is shit, and even so I'm still losing hair.
So maybe you could go to both and see if there's something else you could do, maybe you need a special shampoo or maybe you have some hormonal issues.
No. 1507633
>>1507631Ntayrt but tbf i think she meant to say "i hate pickmes/handmaiden brained women" or even "i hate women who…" but yeah she could have chose a better way to say that…
To all nonas who want to 'hate' women for silly little reasons, retrospect those reasons… are the reasons you hate them tied to men and the patriarchy? Because if so, youre playing into the patriarchy. Men love it when women hate women. Remind yourself that and then say "i hate the patriarchy"
No. 1507702
>>1507647Nah, anon makes a good point most genuine hatred of women is more the patriarchal bullshit that women have been programmed to spout, completely untied to the actual women themselves and their distinct opinions.
>the vast majority of us are unfortunately groveling spineless handmaidens anywayEver consider why you have this thought in the first place?
No. 1507729
>>1507727ayrt, sorry for the anger. i should've thought it through, as the radfems here are actually nice.
however, it just doesn't correlate to me how women being self loathing is the fault of men. it seems more like seething and coping because they don't feel as worthy, which no woman should have to go through.
No. 1507794
>>1507790There is no medical,biological or physical reason for transsexuals. Get a life. They all suffer from a strange sexual pervusian in which they want their own set of opposite genitals
I'm sick of this shit being legitimised. Trannies literally are freaks.
No. 1507796
Dealing with an inheritance conflict and it's been wearing on my mind.
My aunt passed away a few months back. My uncle, her husband, was not there when it happened because he suffered a stroke prior to her death. My other aunt and my mom were at the very least by her side when she passed.
Shortly before her death, my late aunt decided she would let my other aunt inherit her apartment. My uncle is American and not a citizen of our country so his name was not attached to the apartment. Because of this, my late aunt was able to fully bequeath my other aunt the property. She also bequeathed some cash to my mom.
The inheritances happened while my uncle was in a coma so he basically had no say in any of them. After my aunt's death, my mom went through the trouble of caring for him in the hospital as well as arranging for his family in America to come pick him up. This was an extremely stressful time for my mom because not only did she have to deal with the trauma of witnessing my aunt's final moments and arranging her funeral but she also had to deal with my uncle's recovery. Furthermore, my uncle was an extremely poor husband to my late aunt and my mom had witnessed the inadequate care that he provided for towards the end. He never did anything to make her final days more comfortable and didn't even do things like help her bathe when she was unable to. Furthermore, my uncle seemed completely emotionless and oblivious to the fact that my aunt was about to die. Things like this really made my mom bitter towards him and made the task of caring for him even more emotionally difficult for her. My mom eventually helped arranged for his family to come over to pick him up and all seemed alright at least. He was extremely thankful for my mom's efforts in helping him recover and reunite with his family.
However, a week ago, my mom started to get really accusatory and passive-aggressive messages from my uncle. He started to accuse my other aunt of basically stealing the apartment from him and wanted my mom to confront my other aunt about this. First off, all the inheritances couldn't have happened without my late aunt's consent. Second of all, he can't even speak the native language here at all. My late aunt likely foresaw that there was no way he could stay in our country alone without even knowing how to speak the native language here. Plus, she had always intended to leave behind some of her estate to my mom and my other aunt.
My mom just told him there was nothing to discuss and that everything was done under my late aunt's own will. She then decided to ignore him and to leave all his messages afterwards unread because of how unreasonable he was becoming. This seems to have infuriated him and he is now sending emails and messages every day. It's gotten to the point where he's even sending them to me and my only English-speaking cousin. The messages have been pretty deranged and the anger he has seems to be escalating. He keeps doing childish things like trying to bait my mom with empty emotional pleas or trying to bait my cousin into replying with supposed (and almost certainly nonexistent) inheritance money. This has left us concerned about what to do. We are not obligated at all to have any relationship to him but we all have concerns about outright blocking him on our chat apps. It doesn't seem like he will stop and we fear that he might do something crazy in the future. In his mind currently, he likely sees himself as a victim and probably thinks us ignoring him is some form of betrayal. The way he's acting is utterly childish and not fitting at all of someone his age. It's honestly concerning. Shit is just really wearing me and my entire family out.
No. 1507815
>>1507807I'm the anon that said the "TIFs shouldn't be included" bit, my reasoning being that they're more misogynistic and hateful than most males in my experience, and actively fight against women's rights because they don't want to be included.
Maybe I'm stupid, but I would like to understand why include them in feminism? I'm not a radfem myself, but it seems counterproductive to me
No. 1507839
>>1507815nayrt because they are female and feminism is the advocacy for females to put it in blunt terms for you to understand.
here's the google definition
>the advocacy of women's rights on the basis of the equality of the sexes>sexesit doesn't matter what delusion they're under because they are still women.
No. 1507963
>>1507856You did nothing wrong. You just delt with a horrible incident and now you have to seek medical attention. that isnt fair to you. I hope they will come around, but please seek our support groups or friends to talk to you. Dont do this alone and do not kill yourself. I'm so sorry,
nonnie.
No. 1508019
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this sounds so silly and unimportant but i'm genuinely so upset over this it ruined my entire day. yesterday i was randomly browsing through a local version of ebay and after years and years of searching everywhere, i found someone selling some vintage toys that i've desperately wanted since i was a little girl, they were slightly damaged but in decent condition for their age. i immediately messaged the seller and anxiously waited for a reply… after daydreaming about how happy little me would be if she knew her future self would own her dream dolls, cleaning up the dirt and spots and fixing the damaged doll hair, i woke up to a message saying "sorry it's already been sold". if it's already sold then say so in the listing or just take it down and don't give people false hope. for fucks sake.
No. 1508030
>>1508019Anon, I fell to the floor crying the other day because I lost out on an auction for some really lucrative vintage figurines I had been looking for because I got distracted. I cried a lot. I completely understand your frustration. those sorta things aren't always easy to come across.
With that being said, this is how I like to think of it: It didn't occur to me to look for this thing until that very moment. I saw it. And wanted it but didn't get it. I was fine before when I hadn't thought of it, it didn't even occur to me that it existed in the moments before I searched for it. There were probably many before available and will probably be many available afterward too.
You will find them again! What was it, if you don't mind me asking?
No. 1508048
>>1507621Its complicated. This will all sound like excuses but they are circumstances so i hope you understand.
I live in cali, everything is expensive. I live in a small town with limited to no section 8 housing and they reserve it for women with children due to deadbeat/absent father pandemic. We got this house that has two rooms and a basement room but we turned the big den into our room so now it technically has four bedrooms. We are paying $700 rent. Again i make the payments in my name using checks from my bank account. We moved out of his moms and i told him. "Im moving out with or without you, if you want out of this relationship dont follow me." He followed me. Played me. Told me he will be better and things will change… why should i have to leave?
He often goes on anger tyrades about being broke and "not wanting to have moved out of moms because we were finally saving money" and says i forced him to do all this. And still wants to kick me out?
One excuse he thinks i wont be able to afford it. I told him ill do fine and thats none of his concern. Now his arguement is "I want to STAY HERE." When he damn well knows i have zero family to go to because they either have full houses, live somewhere else, are in prison, or are too old and being taken care of by other family members.
Theres so many layers and no matter what i do i just feel so hopeless. Like im not going to be able to take care of all the people who need me because i feel so emotionally compromised.
Thanks for that advice though. I just truly do love him so much. I love him for the person her is. Not how he treats me nor our past or our relationship. But the more im around him the more i realize how selfish he is to me. Someone who, i feel, is trying to be most selfless… but then he wants to say im selfish for making him stay in this relarionship.
Im so tired…
No. 1508057
>>15080560/5 people ended up coming out*
double negative not intended but you probably knew what i meant
No. 1508101
>>1507796Oof thats tough. You can get a restraining order under the guise that he is harrassing you and he wont be able to contact you anymore without legal action against him.
Honestly fucking american men (im a burgerfag) are some of the worst and im truly sorry you have to deal with such a selfish retard scrote.
No. 1508153
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Completely humiliated myself and left one of my groupchats last night, tried not to relapse and instead ended up clutching a stuffed animal and bawling on the floor. I'm not going to be alone all the time soon, so I'll have to make amends with this crazed side of myself. My friends accusing me of being a terrible person even though I didn't do anything with malice and just trotted off and did something impulsive when manic. They're mad because I told them I wouldn't. It's like I've tried to explain to them that I'm mentally ill, suffer to taper off things, and they're now pressing me that I'm not the fun kind of mentally screwy. My life is a rollercoaster, we can't always be at a high cascading down the steep hill. Right now it's in a lull. I'm sad, I'm broken, I'm scared, I'm a little schizo, and it's not improving quickly.
I lost a friend last year due to similar reasons, her not being able to accept my mental problems and some other issues at close distance. People wonder why I don't get close to them. If I aim for self improvement, which I have, September through December last year was rock bottom drowning? Then why don't they see it. I have improved. I was literally self harming and felt like I was going to kms last year. Maybe none of these people were worthy friends, but I cared about them, they invalidated me when I just wanted to stop talking about something, kept pushing the issue, and I exploded. Interventions and tough love dogpiling don't work on me. I run and end up crying. With my obsessive ass personality everything I'm going through has to trickle out gradually. I just left before I could blow up entirely. When I resigned myself to weeping on the floor and wondering why I cant keep any support systems anywhere, I know I'm the problem, but there's also a lot of people who can't handle when you're not at your best.
The truth hurts that most people lack empathy to care about your problems or lose it when your alleged problems are too overwhelming or numerous. I just want someone to love me for who I am, put up with or understand my issues, who's able to resolve conflict and not just dump when the going gets tough. That type of friend is a rare breed.
I have lost part of myself and who I am the last couple years. I may never be able to find her again, but I strive to reinvent myself better. It's not my fault. The things sprung on me and that are hurting me aren't all my fault. But what is my fault is prolonging my exposure of misery and letting them wound me the way they have. I miss the old me
No. 1508160
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My fucking insane abusive scrote ex bf somehow got ahold of my number and started messaging me from a new number that I haven't blocked. I know I should just block him again but I really want him to know how deluded he is because last time we spoke I was too scared to 'be mean' and basically just begged him to leave me alone. This guy really beat me up on so many occasions and he asked if we can meet up for food or coffee after I basically told him to khs and that his life isn't worth living when he first messaged. Dude really thinks this is his redemption arc like hell no you are a danger to society. Worst thing is that I never reported him to the police or filed a restraining order when we were together so now he was able to pass a background check and get a job working with children. I'm somewhat tempted to pretend to be nice and ask him enough questions to find out where he works and let his boss know, but I'm scared he would show up at my house and do something crazy. He also said that the kids remind him of me which is such an insane thing to say tbh
No. 1508171
>>1508101Yeah, if it escalates even further (i.e. him actually attempting ton visit us), we will consider doing that. Tonight, he sent another angry email to my mom along with a poorly Google translated version to my other relatives. It's absolutely pathetic and just makes us not want to talk to him even more.
I wouldn't be surprised if a lot of American boomers are extremely entitled like him. I get the impression that a good chunk of them are.
No. 1508177
>>1508160He thrives off of the fear and distress he causes you, so it's better to block him and ignore all attempts at contact, otherwise you're fueling him and giving him more power over you which he craves. As someone who had an
abusive ex narc stalker who kept trying to harass me with fake accounts for an entire decade, asking purposefully inflammatory things in an attempt to get a reaction from me because they thrived on my fear, he seems to have finally fallen off and hasn't tried to contact me with his dumbass poorly veiled fake accounts pretending to be other people for at least 3 years or so now. You've got to take the time to protect yourself and try to heal and the more you let him interact with you, the worse you're going to hurt.
No. 1508180
>>1508160Love yourself enough to stop communication hun bun. Hes not a good man; he will not give you the closure you want.
Companies sell our info to people search sites all the time. Theres not much we can do about it unless you keep on it weekly.
You are a strong woman. You can make the decision on how you direct your energy. Treat him like a troll, block and move on to a project, a treat, a friend date. He was never worth it, and its not fair to you to ever spend a second more on him.
No. 1508186
>>1508171Ayrt. Oh yes. Boomer burgerfag men are the worst. They dont let anyone have an opinion other than them, ESPECIALLY not women. They are entitled because they grew up in a golden era. So they constantly harrass the younger generation for "not having a house or a higher paying job or a wife and kids." But then turn around and complain about how "everything is so damn expensive and not like it was in my day." Yeah bitch thats what we try to tell you! We cant afford a house and two cars and a wife and three kids on one income anymore like YOU did in YOUR time. And then they want to blame the fucked economy on the current generation when we have all barely entered the the economical enviornment THEY screwed up! Ugh. They suck.
Good luck nona! Thank god he is in another country because that bastard is fucking delusional.
No. 1508189
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Why does my bf expect me to just accept his immature rages and temper tantrums and pretend I'm not upset or triggered afterwards. I hate scrotes. I can't wait till this lease is up so I can break up and not be screwed.
No. 1508190
>>1508160Don't even read future messages if you suspect they've come from him, satisfying your curiosity isn't worth losing the peace of mind you'll get from deleting the messages, blocking him, and getting his influence out of your life altogether. Every time you interact, you give him satisfaction and validation that he got through to you. What these types hate more than anything is being ignored because you take the power from them, and place it back into your own hands to take control of your own life. It drives them crazy and "hurts" them more than anything you could do or say to them. Stay safe
nonny, you got this. Get on with your own life, focus on you and the things that you enjoy and don't spare him any thought, let him rot like the trash he is.
No. 1508208
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>>1508177>>1508180>>1508190Thank you for your kind words nonnies. I know it's the wise thing to do but this guy has somehow idolised me as this submissive ideal gf he needs to win back, I literally haven't spoken to him in years and he's saying everything he's doing is to get me to like him again. I was hoping if I'm nasty and mean enough he'll get the idea that I've never been this kind of person, I was just scared of him, and he'll leave me alone. I know I should just block him but I really want to send one big nasty message first. Is this petty and/or a bad idea?
No. 1508215
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>>1508194Nonna, I believe in you. I was a binger age 13-28. I recommend (if you can), go to the doc and talk about it. Even a family doc can navigate you. Therapy and a weightloss clinic has done wonders. Reprogram the body and mind.
I havent binged in 3 years besides
one or two instances when my period started right after.If you cant afford it/ having trouble booking, please check out
https://www.theprojectheal.org/They are verrryyyyyyy helpful.
Love you nonna, you can change your relationship with food !!
No. 1508224
>>1508186Thanks so much. Your post is spot-on about how easy he's had it. He basically was able to get six-figure salaries his entire career while having a very basic STEM degree and below average grades. It's another reason we want nothing to do with him. He isn't lacking in money at all and, again, the inheritances were all under my aunt's will. He still has a decent place to live in and more than enough funds to comfortably live out the rest of his life. My aunt had the same STEM degree and actually pulled more than her fair share during their marriage so she more than deserved to determine where her share of the property goes. He's just basically being an entitled man-baby and it really feels like he cares more about money than grieving over my late aunt.
(Also, I meant to specify American boomer men in my previous post. I feel like the women are much less like this in my experience.)
No. 1508226
>>1508208I've had several fantasies of replying to my psycho ex and telling him off, but i've never acted on them and I truly believe that's for the better. No matter what stupid shit he's said to try and get to me, I just feel like, "Bitch, why do you think I care?? You must think you really fucking matter a decade later to come and say all that!". The biggest "fuck you" you can say to him is to say nothing at all. Walk away because you ARE strong and in charge of your life, he can't make you do or feel jack shit. You're not a
victim to his whims anymore.
No. 1508244
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My neighbor's dog has been barking non stop for literal hours. I don't know if they left it on the balcony or what, but it wont stop. it's a large dog too (pit mix) so it's just barking and barking. I just started a job from home recently and I'm losing my mind. I have to be on the phone with customers and it's making it harder to hear myself think.
I left a tiny note on the door to ask them to be more considerate because it's just awful. I dont know what to do, nonnies.
No. 1508254
>>1507824Why
nonny? I’m friends with a lot of my exes. The sexual tension makes the relationship more fun.
No. 1508259
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i'm feeling so lonely and depressed and insane atm but i think my period is coming soon. idk. i have nobody to talk to and i have to isolate myself anyway atm because i feel totally like shit and like everyone is better than me and that i'm just awful and stupid. i'm just not in a good headspace at all atm. can't focus, can't do anything, don't feel good, it's all just shit, kms
HOWEVER my friend sent me this bad lad for my birthday and i received him today and i'm IN LOVE with him. he's fucking giant and squishy and perfect. literally bigger than my head. love him to bits. amazing. 10/10 perfect.
No. 1508260
>>1508244>pitmix>shitty ownersof course
>>1508254If there's sexual tension, then that's not a friendship
No. 1508309
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Months ago I made a post on some thread that I can't remember(I think it was the stupid question thread?) about how I was confused because I told a group of girls that my uncle died and how it has affected me. And then the girls reacted weird to it by saying that it made them uncomfortable that I told them because they can't deal with emotions.
Earlier this night I approached the same girls in a friendly manner at a party and they told me to come back later because they where having a personal conversation. I don't get it. When we first meet they had no problem telling me about their personal lives and issues and now they don't want me near them when they are discussing it. And why do they suddenly prioritize emotions so much? When I told them that my uncle died they didn't give a fuck. I don't get it. Why do they suddenly want nothing to do with me? I genuinely thought we where friends I wish that they would at least tell me what I did wrong. I'm giving up on making any meaningful human relations ever again I need to admit to myself that I can't make friends
No. 1508311
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I have a good friend that have a zoomer tif sister, and when I mentioned Hogwarts Legacy really quick (it was just to give context to a thing that happened that is unrelated to everything surrounding the drama about the game), and when she heard the name she went "yeah I'm trying to avoid all of that because of the all the antisemitism stuff and because they only have one trans character". When I pointed out that there are more trans characters, and that most of the antisemitism bullshit that is being spread about the game is made up or just huge reaches, she started talking about how the GERMAN TRANSLATION happens to have a lot of similarities in how they talked about jews in the 30's (I don't know enough about what she's talking about, so if any german nonnies know anything about what she's talking about please enlighten me). She also refused to take a stance towards all the streamers that have gotten harassed and the friends we have in common that have gotten death threats and lost friends because they worked with the promotion of the game.
She used to be someone that would question troon stuff, despite her tranny sibling. But said sibling have started using a lot of twitter logic against her, and since they live together and she of course wants to stand by her sister she is slowly getting radicalized I think. Said troon sister also would get upset if anyone "misgendered" Christ-chan when the mommy rape allegations came out, and she just stomped back into her room when I asked if the pronouns really are the most important part when someone has literally assaulted their parent for god knows how long?
She is super sweet otherwise, but last few years she has proven to be one of the dumbest people I know despite being really damn smart. Idk this whole tranny escalation thing is making me want to distance myself from most of my autismo friends, and I'm saying it as an autist myself. I miss when things were easier and everything didn't have to be so fucking black and white all the fucking time.
No. 1508325
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i hate reggaeton!! I hate reggaeton!! I'll never listen to the sounds of the antichrist!! They turned that genre into a malicious product to brainwash my people and the poor into hypersexuality, hyper breeding, misogyny and decadence. You can't even criticize it anymore and It's fucking everywhere, EVERYWHERE, ALL THE TIME. I'll upflift my real cultural heritage, I will uplift the beautiful sounds that the original Latino musical masters once created, our glory, our real sound! I hate reggaeton!! I'll never fucking like it!! Fuck the antichrist, I'll not mass produce more children just so they turn them into slaves and prostitutes!! I refuse! Fuck the sounds of the antichrist!!!
No. 1508331
>>1508311>GERMAN TRANSLATIONYour friend is dumb, there isn't any antisemitism in the German version because if there where then the game would have been overhauled into something acceptable because of Germany is known for hitler and Germans do not want to the association anymore.
>sibling have started using a lot of twitter logic Her sister is even dumber then a sack of bricks, she gobbles up twitter hot takes like cakes with even researching herself. Twitter is word of god to her.
>troon sister also would get upset if anyone "misgendered" Chris-chan when the mommy rapeGod I hope your friend peaks.
No. 1508349
>>1508331>God I hope your friend peaks.I wish, she has no balls and will most likely try to play the neutral game while leaning towards the TRA side because of her tranny sister. She has met an american that lives in a conservative state that she might move to in the future. She used to be on the verge of peaking, when a former male friend trooned out suddenly she kinda called bullshit on it, but had it been today she would probably just thought it's no big deal just to avoid any discussion.
But at least another friend seems to be about to peak instead, she used to be very TRA to the point she really lightened up when a friend said she's giving up and might try to date transwomen (said lesbian friend has luckily since peaked hardcore btw) but now that she has gotten married and pregnant she seems to slowly see this clown world for what it truly is. She will most likely never say it out loud though because some of her oldest and closest friends are very heavy TRA leaning (as in slacktivists that just share pro-tranny stuff without looking further into it and will most likely wave off any issues with it all because it is uncomfortable to think about), but she has shut up a lot more when I and a couple of other borderline
terf friends bring up the subject of the misogyny of troon activism.
No. 1508404
Work problems constantly, nasty coworkers, shitty job, mentally ill mom, mom's financial problems that I pay suffer the consequences from and cause me great worry and stress plus I have to support her financially with my shitty wage, no real goal in life other than constantly working hard to get better jobs, the only thing I feel any kind of pleasure from in the last 10 years is drawing and watching/reading crime and mystery on my free time, no will to socialize because it gives me no pleasure and is often annyoing, I'm really only pushing my years until my mom dies naturally so I can kill myself because she would never recover if I did it now and causing her this much suffering distresses me.. I hate my life so much, not a day goes by without some kind of problem involving the aforementioned things and I have no reason or joy to be alive to make it worth it. nothing that I strive for because I don't like nothing other than drawing and consuming violent content.. I have been depressed since I was ten years old but I'm not even depressed now, I'm just in an abyss, a void, I have sought psychiatric and psychological help for years but it doesn't do much for me.
I exercise every day, eat healthily, meditate. But I hate my life and wish I could kill myself without causing distress to my mom. She's already mentally ill and would never recover. She's the only person who would suffer from this in such a way. I know some other people would be sad but no one like her , I'm not really close to anybody from my family and my dad is an abuser with rage issues so whatever.. I wish I died peacefully in my sleep and that my mom died with me because she doesn't have anybody else either
No. 1508419
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i can't stand people who constantly joke about having themselves killed. i want to feel bad and i used to but it's seriously getting on my nerves. it's so constant it's impossible to feel any pity. i know it's a cry for help but it's overwhelming to bear that knowledge, yes they're hurting and that's why they're saying it but honestly it's been a decade and a decade ago i was in elementary school and it's still happening today. it's like they completely tune out the awkward silence. dude nobody likes to hear that shit and you're making everyone uncomfortable thus dislike you like you are so afraid of. you are sabotaging yourself which yes is a trait of your mental illness.
this is actually a vent of having to handle my mentally ill older brother. i also found out he's been spending money on his equally as suicidal if not more girlfriend meanwhile we're literally not even living paycheck to paycheck, the only thing he spends on my mother and i is groceries every month and he makes such a big giant deal out of it like this one time when we were putting groceries in "his" car (it's really my father's before he was gone. also he never ever drives us anywhere because "gas is expensive" but can drive to other cities no problem anytime) and he threw an adult tantrum in the parking lot breaking the rice bag and spilling it everywhere embarrassing us enough that the security guard had to help us salvage some of it. he obviously didn't help but can drop money like it's nothing for other people. dude 15 dollars is not enough for anything these days and you know that. my mom always makes it seem like he's such a saint for this and he puts this facade of being nice and hardworking but he literally works from home and talks to his friends all hours he is awake on the job unless he's in a meeting. i used to idolize him and i know he loves me but i really just can't fucking stand him anymore. he's such a manchild and he's nearly thirty years old. i'm not saying you have to act 50 at 30 but you CANNOT be acting that immaturely at that age. speaking of being immature and constantly talking to his friends i keep hearing him and his friends ( including women ) talk about shockingly revealing topics because he doesn't wear headphones and has the volume up so high i can't escape it anywhere in the apartment.
i'm so tired and frustrated but i can't do anything about it. everytime he is away i'm afraid he might kill himself and i found out he's becoming a pillhead a month ago. just as i'm typing this he made yet another joke about ending his life. if you do this you seriously have to fucking stop doing it in front of people who care about you because while you might be hurting know that in their powerlessness you are making them feel worthless. might make you feel worse but you need to know it. it's not like i don't have my own problems but i was highly suicidal to the point where i have permanent irremovable damage dealt to my body and this sort of behavior completely made me reevaluate and change my mindset. i don't know how to go about helping him in that way and honestly i don't think he wants to but i'll try anyway
No. 1508431
>>1508224Haha some burgerfag boomer women can be bad simply because they have increased internalized mysoginy, but i personally forgive them and direct my hate, if there is any, towards the patriarchy and the shitty men who made them think the way they do. And some are overly conservative and lack the respect for abortion rights. So its hit or miss fot sure.
The more i hear about this scrote the more i despise him. Kek and yet this is such a common occurence your experience almost feels familiar.
No. 1508437
>>1508434Ntayrt but kek. Based
nonnie.
No. 1508440
>>1508352This saying has helped me to avoid those exact situations and emotions: "arguing with idiots, makes you an idiot."
Its just not worth it. Your sanity and emotional well being suffers in every engagement like that.
No. 1508453
I want to track down every single piece of shit that abused me as a child and kill them. Thinking about my childhood, and questoning it all. What possesses adults to be cruel to children? Did I really deserve all that? The worst part is they influenced other children to be cruel too. As an adult, it's bothering me more than ever to think about it. I could never act that way toward kids, let alone someone else's. I just don't fucking understand. If you hate children, why on earth would you become a fucking teacher or daycare worker? Some of the nastiest, most putrid bitches on earth are taking those jobs, it doesn't make any sense. There's so much I just have blocked out, but the few memories I do have are bad, and I never want to know for sure. The damage is done, addressing it in full wouldn't heal anything. My mom keeps telling me I have "no reason" to be like this, and then I feel ashamed, but then I get mad because from what I know and what she's said (then denied, then confessed to again, over and over) yes, I do, and it all happened when I was too young to even talk about it. You knew something was wrong from the start, you fucked up badly, and that's why you turned into a helicopter parent who locked me up constantly when I wanted freedom. Your own guilt.
I'm sad, asocial and unmotivated and whatever, but it's also turned me into such an angry person on the inside. I wish I could do something.
No. 1508520
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Nonnies on here are so sensitive and dumb sometimes that I wonder why they're even here for, like bitch can't you look at other threads and stop being prissy about how other nonnies act and like. This isn't twitter where you post about [Insert Interest] and expect everyone else to be like you, AKA a sensitive prissy baby vaugeposted and censored myself since the babies on here can't handle others being right and tend to start a fight over it
No. 1508660
I accidentally wrote this in /w/ (whoops) but I have an ultrasound on March 9th and I'm super excited, albeit nervous to figure out what is wrong. I have a thick, long hair right above my right aeola, my breasts, especially my right, is constantly sore (not just before my period), my periods are extremely sporadic and happen at any time of the month, sometimes two in a month, sometimes once every two months, sometimes once a month, I'm constantly in sharp pains on my right ovary and a dull pain in my groin, I'd post this in a relevant /g/ thread but it legitimately feels like hell on earth and I don't know what to do, other than wait for the appointment. I have a genetic predisposition to a uterine tumor, endometriosis, and fibroids. When I was 4, my mom had to get emergency surgery to get a hysterectomy when she bled for 4 weeks straight, through literal garbage bags.
I honestly hope I get a hysterectomy. It'd fix the pain, permanently. And I have no intention to ever have kids, so all I'd have to deal with is menopause. Which I've heard is hell but I've had hot flashes before, so I know how to deal with those at least
I'm only 19, nonnas. Why must I suffer?
No. 1508683
>>1508681Jesus Christ
I know there are definitely scrotes who lurk in FF threads and that's why I'll never bring myself to post there
Poor romanianon
No. 1508735
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I got in a car accident a few months ago in my dad's car and my dumbass thought he took care of the accident report because he took care of all the insurance stuff, well silly me he didn't and now my license is gonna get suspended lmao I just keep winning! One day I'll start feeling like an adult with my shit together but not my mid-twenties apparently!
No. 1508828
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how am i supposed to find love and eventually get a family when i can't even make friends
No. 1508845
>>1508514When I got proposed to it was the same. He didn't have the ring but we spent that weekend going to jewelers and going out for nice meals to celebrate. I got sized and found out I had child sized fingers so I couldn't just buy a ring on the spot if I wanted to. It took time and some shopping around. He then proposed again with the ring. Did it in a scenic spot. I didn't sweat it.
If you're more worried rn than excited about the engagement then idk if that in itself is a sign that you have doubts.
No. 1508944
I've quit all vices and larp as normal, but I'm getting tired of that and am thinking of going to sleep permanently. I never had any friends growing up and I'm now distanced from the 1 or 2 friends I had. I talk to my family maybe 3-4 times a year. I only interact with my boyfriend and his parents treat me like I'm stupid because they're from a different culture. My net effect on people around me is fortunately low, so it's unlikely my suicide would be that bad in term sof negatively affecting others. My boyfriend is very tough mentally, so I am not too worried. I'm tired of internally fighting and I wish I could just smoke a cigarette or two. Those used to make me so happy because I'd go outside and just think, but I quit. In October, my boyfriend got a job that tired him out so much we stopped having sex every day. I have SA in my history as a kid and an adult and I have a terrible relationship with sex, I basically need it with my partner or I feel useless. Anyway, that was a hurdle for me and it has made me reconsider a lot about myself and my beliefs. But ultimately, I'm miserable feeling ugly and not having sex with my bf every day. He changed jobs for me so we can now have sex every day, but now I feel sick inside and can't do it because I feel so suicidal and hideous. I try to practice body neutrality and not pay attention to my appearance and it kind of works.
My job sucks, too. I've been told I'm the best person they've filled in for my position, but I also get yelled at every single day for shit I don't do. Half my work at work is documenting everything I do so when I inevitably get shit on, I have proof. I think that's normal, except my manager yells and screams and he belittles me and all of my coworkers.
I wish I were different and didn't have to move from my issues. I wish I were already perfect. I feel like my struggle is fruitless. I haven't self harmed in years, but I wish I could. I haven't done drugs or alcohol in years, but I still wish I could. I just wish I could have some sort of pleasure on this earth, but sex makes me feel so hideous now, I can barely force myself to do it anymore. I've become the person I'd hate.
I can't afford a psychiatrist or a therapist, so it is what it is.
No. 1508998
There has been one thing that has been bothering me for some time now. That is my ex from way back. We were together for a long time, and both of us were young and stupid, we were both only like 14-15. Back then I did stupid shit, but now I look back at those things I did and see a sad depressed girl. Anyways, I feel like this ex used my not-so-great state of mental health to his advantage… I remember feeling like a goddamn sex doll, just being there to please him. The day when we broke up was an absolute mess. He came over like a gentleman to break up with me f2f, but when we were in my room, the only thing he wanted obv. was sex, nothing more, nothing less. After that, he started to date some other girl just after the breakup. I have felt so stupid for the past 2-3 years after I realized he might just have used me for his own pleasure… Sometimes I just want to beat him up, sometimes I want to cry so bad, and sometimes I just laugh at it. I really don't know what to do with these feelings
No. 1509004
>>1508994>19 year olds You're literally just making things up now.
>>1508995No she's not, but the "criticism" was stupid and didn't make any sense. It's literally just "how dare you complain about these people that are a nuisance in your workplace!!!".
No. 1509011
>>1509004That actually wasn’t the criticism, what was said was
>WHY DO WOMEN SHIT ON EACH OTHER SO MUCH, You say as you anonymously shit on two women you know irl, when you could be doing something productive like exercising or becoming more likable or somethingAnd if that’s all you got out of that then maybe you needed to spend some extra time in LRC as a kid. Also, based off how their behavior was described, and the fact that this was posted on lolcow and not facebook or something it’s more likely that they’re younger and OP is too.
No. 1509026
>>1509020I don’t mean that as in “become more likable and maybe they’ll change their behavior” kek…I mean, why waste your time crying over these random women in a way that won’t change anything? Why not cry over these women on the
phone with HR? Or is that too hard for neurodiverse lolcow users?
>>1509019Honestly I’d love to hear a recording of what they say cause chances are it’s mild as shit and she’s just easily annoyed. Cause if they were really creating this unhealthy of an environment and being “bullies” she could open that grown adult mouth and tell her boss so that it stops being a problem. End of story.
No. 1509035
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I'm crying while eating tamales because I was imagining how I am going to have to explain my cat's eventual death to my future kids and just thinking how much I am going to miss her. There will never be another cat quite like her and I love her so much nonnies. I'm an emotional wreck right now. She's still a baby and she wants tamales but I can't give her any because it will poison her with all the garlic and onion from the sauce. Why am I sobbing about this?? My period just ended and there's no way I am pregnant. I have no excuse to be a train wreck and I'm just this way. Please stop meowing I love you so much I can't give you everything you want.
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>>1509062
Or, you can infight itt and talk about colors in the unpopular opinion thread. Like a true farmer.
No. 1509090
>>1509085Neither I like the big california oranges
>>1509086You too by the looks of it
No. 1509109
>>1509103Why not send the paragraph you wrote to your human resources lady’s email instead of lolcow though? Like if they’re really bullying
everyone and making it an unsafe work environment try doing something about it instead of sitting idle
No. 1509118
>>1509109she already complained about it to higher-ups and her other coworkers has too
>>1509103poor reading comprehension and autism = infigting anons
No. 1509119
>>1509103One nona is a vehement sperg about your issue. Don't worry about it. Keep venting despite
triggering her kek.
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the guy I am seeing recently didn't listen to the album I tald him I am passionate about and he might like it too due to similar music taste and I am still fucking mad about it
and not even the album part: the fact he doesn't see me as a friend for same interests conversations then, he doesn't care for me romantically if he is not curious what I things I like, and he is not interested in me physically, cause he didn't even bother to pretend and make it seem he cares just to make me trust him more for us to get intimate eventually
what the fuck he wants from me then, is he just wasting my time
what the hell, I really am mad, this is important, I don't have autism, I don't!
No. 1509168
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IM SICK OF THESE GENDERSPECIALS BEING THE ONLY ONES THAT I CAN ENGAGE WITH IN FANDOMS!!!!! i know youre a woman you know youre a woman why the fuck are you throwing a fit over being referred to with she/her pronouns to your followers who only care about your art in the first place?? im fucking tired of these species being so blatantly sexist towards their own selves and pretending they're the blushy bottom bitches they draw for fetishization purposes. we're all women who like to fetishize pretty men here fuck off!!!!!! worst is when they get bewitched into making ugly moid art. no one wants to see a pretty boy turn into a smelly hairy fat fuck with boob demolition scars you dumb fuckers take your ugly ass art off the tags and put it up your ass!!!! if that character actually looked or acted like your autistic sexist tranny ass he would fucking kill himself. i know teens do this to feel better about themselves and feel like they belong to a community or whatever but if youre a woman over 25 with "he/tiger" pronouns in your bio advocating for turning fictional men into butchered women like yourself im judging you so hard and think the world would be better without you!!!! i wish i could say all this on social media and push their already low life expectancy even lower!!!!!!
No. 1509191
>>1507299It might have been the most idiotic thing I've ever done but it was so freeing to date someone vocally misogynistic because I could be misandrist as I liked. Whatever misogynistic stuff he had to say I could come back with "listen here you idiot monkey man" and list off stats that'd shut him up. I don't care to fix these moids opinions but I do think I gave him some perspective.
I couldn't imagine doing such a thing with a "woke" man. I couldn't even say I'm against sex work or I'm not cool with him being super close besties with another woman. They're all misogynists in different packaging so why not have one you can openly insult?
Thinking about it, I suppose the core difference is open misogynists do view men and women as inherently different, so it's easier to talk to them on that level instead of having to say "people" instead of men or women. Oh sure, PEOPLE are body shamed in society, PEOPLE are sexually exploited, it's sooo terrible when an older PERSON dates someone 20 years younger, mhm yeah fuck off.
Sorry I just meant to agree but went off on one.
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God I’m such a fucking inattentive irresponsible dumbass, I waste so much food just forgetting about it in the fridge. I’m stuck in a fucking loop of ordering takeouts and thawing grocery that goes bad from not being used quickly enough reeeee
No. 1509388
i don't know what took over me on friday. everything was good, my mom, sister and nigel came to visit me and my new kitten, it was awesome and i felt so happy. i also got a zolepidem prescription and i know i need only half a tablet but i took 3,5 along with trigan d, nospa, ibumetin, tavegyl and my head hurts like hell even thou it's been exactly 24 hours. it doesn't help i cut myself all over with not a single limb unscarred. i texted my nigel 23 hours ago that i'm restless and i think my kitten is disappointed to see me cut myself, i distinctly remember walking around my apartment and leaving a blood trail because i didn't realize blood was running down my legs. the curtain, the toilet, the bathroom, the pillows and blankets all covered in my blood. he came over at 2pm because i wasn't responding to any of his 7 calls. i was asleep, but without dreams. i texted random people too and even made plans with my best friend, but i don't know what to lie to cover up why i didn't text her back or call even. my head hurt so much, it still hurts. i think i fried my brain and the scars all over me remind me of this night. i want to cry but my head is so dull. my mom also came over because my nigel called her or else he'd call the ambulance on me. they wouldn't take me, it wasn't a suicide attempt, i don't know what it was. i am sorry to my mom, nigel and especially my kitten. i was such a mess, i regret letting my kitten see me like this. i think i don't care if my nigel leaves me, he saw scars all over me and refused to kiss or hug me. my mom didn't either, she was scared to hurt me. i don't think he was, he seemed disgusted. i bet he thinks "what a freak, why would she do this?". go to hell and leave me if you want. i've been scared of you and your threats to call my mother every time you hurt me and i freaked out. maybe i did all this on purpose, to disgust him, awaken sympathy in my mom and show myself that true freedom is being in charge of my own destruction. thank you for this thread for letting me write all this batshit nonsense kek
No. 1509393
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I feel like my overall life experience with men can be best summed up with one specific experience in my childhood. I was drawing on concrete with chalk and got really into it, drawing all over the concrete elaborate flowers, swirls and hearts. A slightly older boy came by and settled in beside me and started drawing in chalk with me, and I was happy to let him join. Feeling like this was a sort of bonding experience over a mutual enjoyment for the freedom of drawing. Only to find he was drawing dicks over all my drawings and swear words everywhere. I remember feeling crushing disappointment and hurt seeing that and walked away.
Feel like that experience could be extrapolated to describe what a lot of my relationships with men have been like.
No. 1509409
>>1509390One certainly never sees it coming.
I was in shock, the sound was…remarkable.
I really would have liked the reason anyone would have done that to me though to have been for a good reason. Not this shit.
No. 1509424
>>1509370Im sorry but isnt that the thread which is mostly for shitposting, hornyposting and retarded husbandoposting? I know I dont browse /g/ much but from the quick looksie I took from the current thread you all seem to be fighting about what could be summed up as
>whether or not shipping should be thereWhich according to the thread rules it should
>baitstheres always been baits in every thread and there always been anons that fall for it. theyll learn to ignore it next time as do all anons eventually
>too horny postsLike the thread has hornyposting in the title, so I would assume it should be there
>not horny posts>the thread was supposed to be about love? about sharing the things we love about the men we loveIsnt there also another I love my husbando thread similar you could use on /g/? I don't really know the difference but the anons there should be more accepting maybe
Im no husbandofag myself as I view you guys as lonely women that want to escape reality and either wants to hurtfuck or comfortfuck your husbando and general hide your thread since I honestly dont really care about you guys but it will get better if you just report and ignore like everyone else
No. 1509431
>>1509424On /g/ there's "How to Devote Yourself Completely To Your Husbando" which is even more autistic than the retard hornyposting thread
love those nonnies but it's true and a bunch of specific threads like IRL husbandos, gnc husbandos, and robot husbandos(??). hornypost thread is most active
No. 1509437
>>1509431>How to Devote Yourself Completely To Your Husbando, IRL husbandos, gnc husbandos, and robot husbandoswow thats a lot more then I thought, I know of the weird smell thread and guess how anon act like irl thread in /m/ that are based on husbandos but like thats a lot. Im actually speechless
>>1509432>piss or violentThat preference has actually been here for a long time, I remember the old sexual fantasy thread and more had it when I used to browse /g/ more back in the day. and other and weirder things too
like that airplanefucker No. 1509439
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My narcissistic coworker is coming back from her vacation and I fear it. I felt so much better without her. Someone who puts me down every day and jokes about things I have no influence on while still claiming to be my friend, liking me when we agree on something and immediately cutting conversations if I have the opposite view and giving me the cold treatment and saying "this conversation is pointless" or warning me that "we're going to have a fight if you continue". She's so incredibly two faced, constantly talking behind people's back and then playing super nice, she told me I should learn how to say what others want to hear while keeping my actual thoughts to myself, like she does. There were two new coworkers transferred to us from a different department, and they were our manager's colleagues. We all saw the double standards applied to them and us, like we got criticized for the things they were allowed to do, but someone like me was never talking behind their backs, meanwhile my narcissistic coworker was constantly calling them "bitches" etc. One time all of us were invited to the manager's office and we were asked why is the atmosphere so toxic and the manager wanted us to speak up. One girl and me said that we don't feel comfortable enough to talk about it in front of literally everyone and we know that certain people are at disadvantage here and it's not fair to ask them to speak up when it can get them into trouble. One of the newly transferred coworkers asked us if the atmosphere was ruined by them because they feel like it's their fault. Then immedietely my narcissistic coworker, the one who called them "bitches" and stuff, said "Of course not! I would say that the things got actually BETTER since you got here! I'm so so sorry that you felt this way! We greatly appreciate your work" I couldn't believe my ears. What a clown and a bootlicker. I feel like there are only two people, me included, who see how two faced she is. Everyone else loves her because she can be extremely nice, talkative, charismatic. Even I feel fooled often. I'm like "maybe I'm wrong? She's so nice now, maybe I was overthinking stuff". She really makes me question myself. But I started reading about narcissistic friends and narcissists in the workplace and how succesful they are because they know how to play social politics and they're charismatic, and she fits the bill. I even talked to my therapist about her and she also said she might have npd. I don't know how to protect myself. I wasn't like this when I met her. When she started working with us, I was the person she spent the most time with, she was gravitating towards me the most and I didn't know why. I just enjoyed being around someone who talks to me a lot, because I was always a loner I guess? But then being around her started to feel like something sucked the life energy out of me. Then I started noticing how two faced she is and her obsession with gossiping, then other things, like subtle ways she was putting me down. Now I really feel like shit around her. I also know I could never be this successful because I can't act and fake like her, and I'm not as confident, and it makes me feel like shit about myself. Someone like me could never get ahead in a corporate setting. Being against her also doesn't work because the manager loves her and I don't want to get into trouble. Fml
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I feel like I'm not truly pushing myself with my art. I would have an idea, but while drawing it I start to have thoughs about how it's not creative enough, or how it's not filling the page enough, or how it looks too similar to other piece of art I saw. It's making me feel tired but no progress is being made.
No. 1509452
>>1509439Most narcissists and bullies vacillate between extreme friendliness, sucking up, playing
victim, and then conversely being petty, judgmental, meanspirited and cruel because it all centers around their own ego. Both cruelty and kindness are ways they can boost their ego because cruelty pushes others down while kindness also increases their social status and raises them up, so it’s all for the same goal. I’m
>>1509234 and the asshole I know is similar to the one you know in a number of ways, and because of it I also doubted myself a lot (like “how can she really mean to be so consistently terrible and mean and evil when she also is so extremely sweet and pitiful?”) and took ages to detach from her. Unfortunately I think you won’t be free until you find another workplace because narcissists always find ways to make themselves seem justified, by playing nice enough so that everyone can’t just gang up on them and oust them. They ruin every place they go and can’t be truly discouraged or stopped, especially because no one wants to be the bad guy by telling the dickhead to fuck off when it seems like a grey area.
No. 1509468
>>1509452Sorry for your experience anon, it must've been tiresome. I'm glad you kinda got mentally free from that girl though. Now that you talked about it, it just got to me that my coworker doesn't even have any friends. Like, she's in her early 20s and she literally doesn't have friends and the only women she talks to are those at our job. If it wasn't for her boyfriend and parents, she would be totally alone. She said that she had many friends in highschool years and one best friend, but that best friend suddently stopped talking to her and she didn't know why. Well, now I can assume why… She also said that in her previous work she had a problem with one girl who claimed she was bullying her and bossing her around and she also didn't understand that allegation. I'm seeing a pattern here
Now she's kinda obsessed with creating a new group of friends with me and two other women. Before her vacation she announced to me she plans to go to a bar with the three of us and she wants me to come. The worst thing is I felt scared to refuse? So I basically didn't say anything, but I will find a reason not to go.
But yeah, you are right that I will only get free when I change the job. I can't do it right now but I hope I will manage to change it within a year
No. 1509514
>>1509468"Sorry, I don't drink."
Easiest solution to ever exist. Best of luck to you, nona.
No. 1509529
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At least half of men smell like pubes from touching their balls and leave that smell on everything they touch and I'm sick of it
No. 1509575
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>bf of 4 years leaves me for other woman
>new woman taunts me over this, shows up at my fucking house, generally is a smug arsehole and prick, rubbing salt in it at any chance
>he leaves her 4 weeks later for an e/bf
>she sadposts on ig mourning their 4 week relationship an entire 6 months after the fact (cringe)
>she really thought that shit would never happen to her only it did and took only 4 weeks
>if she’d have had some humility during the entire ordeal i’d have sympathy for her
what goes around comes around. the homewrecker gets homewrecked
why do women ALWAYS think they’re an exception to being mistreated by men with a history of abuse and infidelity?
same with all Goiters gfs they thinks it won’t happen to them because they’re ~so special~ and then get humbled in the most painful and humiliating way possible
No. 1509580
>>1509578it was fucking horrible but i’m so glad she got what was coming to her
why do women ALWAYS think they’re an exception to being mistreated by men with a history of abuse and infidelity?
it maddens me that men like jonny depp and jonny craig always finds a new
victim who thinks theyre an exception
it’s the same with women who go after men who cheat with them. you think it won’t happen to u because you’re… special? ….better than other women?
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I'm grinding relationships in FE and am not having fun. Niles you stupid piece of shit stop dying and get it on with Odin.
No. 1509626
>>1509575i will never be one of those women who ‘warns’ the new woman about my dangerous ex.
it’s not that i don’t care but at the end of the day, they’re not gonna take the advice and she’ll probably tell him, they’ll laugh at me, and she will think she’s special and somehow better than me up until history reshits itself
i love women but we have no solidarity and most women do not heed warnings about men and think they have a magical pussy that will ‘change’ an
abusive. cheater
No. 1509633
>>1509627same
nothing u can do except block and disengage
No. 1509681
>>1509674Idk why anons forget were all once 18-19 yr old girls before and know how they think, they aren't a different species and most of us aren't exactly far off from that age anyway. Also on social media where you can see people's profile, I notice it's usually only other 18-19 yr old girls calling out stupid behavior in 18-19 yr olds. They arent retarded children and there's very little and rare situations where they were raised in a cult or something with no access to the outside world to understand basic manipulation tactics or the fact that it's wrong to mess around with men in relationships. It's kinda gross to consider homewreckers, who pride themselves on being homewreckers,
victims when they were having a blast trying to live a Lana del Rey song irl until consequences caught up with them.
No. 1509711
>>1509691You're the one doing work for them. Actively speaking about the consequences of fucking around with trashy older men is exactly is what is stopping more and more young girls each day from doing such. Turning them into poor little groomed
victims just encourages their mindsets and making them think they were too young to know any better. It's ridiculous, a line needs to be drawn. If you keep shutting down people for talking about women they know who faced shitty consequences for fucking around with older men what will they really learn?
No. 1509720
>>1509711>shutting down people for talking about women they know who faced shitty consequences for fucking around with older men what will they really learnThat wasn't the issue and you know it. Arguing about this is useless because you won't see the point either way and I can tell you just want a fight, but no I'm not going to completely blame young girls for being in relationships with older men, especially if the girl is underage
No I'm not saying 18 is underage. I'm speaking in general. But most older men who were/are with 18 year olds were with looking at them before they turned of age anyway, and I'm especially not going to do that while basically absolving the men of any blame. Again, predatory thank you for the work you do for them by pointing the finger everywhere but them.
No. 1509728
>>1509724It has to do with what I said and the post I replied to here,
>>1509674 . And no, this has nothing to do with my personal life, nice try.
No. 1509743
>>1509730I'm the anon who posted
>>1509615And I assume you're talking about me. Me and my cousin are the same age, it was so eye rolling seeing her open her mouth about how she was the young hot side hoe and how dudes current wife is fat, ugly, etc. She faced the consequences of getting with shitty men. Do I hate groomed teens/don't think men shouldn't be accountable? Of course not. But why do some of you jump to the most extreme conclusions for even just describing the whole situation? I didn't even mention who's blame for what, it was just not surprising to me history repeated itself
No. 1509746
>>1509743Anon I wasn't talking about you, I was talking about the anons who called underage girls whores and so on.
>>1509744It was on /g/ dating app thread if you're interested in looking but anon was mostly saying as a woman it's over after 25 and you're useless even as a one night stand, kek.
No. 1509747
>>1509720The girl I am talking about in question met him at a job the required her to be 18 to work and got pregnant at 19, so definitely didn't meet him underaged. There are specific situations where girls are groomed from the moment they are underaged be I am not talking about those situations and typically the Lana del rey-esque girls purposely go for married men and have short term relationships with them if not put in a good bit of the initiation. There's a lot of cases where the girls are genuinely
victims of heavy manipulation starting from when they're very young but typically with the homewrecker/old man lover type it's not the case since those girls usually try to cope by convincing themselves their relationship is normal and happy, a groomed girl wouldnt take pride in short, dysfunctional flings
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Don't get me.wrong, I actually agree that Celibricows should be saged for non-milk but how's anyone supposed to know that's an actual rule when the reigning rule is you don't have to sage in /ot/? Are farmhands just making up rules on the spot and expect all users to just magically know?
No. 1509761
>>1509756What I mean is a truly groomed girl would justify her relationship, be more long term, etc. Actual groomed children are in the mindset that what is going on with them is good
i hate that I know this but I worked at a home for abused children, kids as young as 4-15 in situations of grooming see their predator relationship as a romantic/good thing and the trauma doesn't come in until later when their brain processes how fucked up the experience wasSomeone who is older and is taking pride in doing something they know is wrong isn't being groomed and it's not fair to women who actually have been groomed since they were a child to be grouped with the same people as 18 yr olds who wanted to fuck around with an old married man just because it's ~aesthetic~
No. 1509767
>>1509762Well it sucks there are other girls groomed but it's gross to group actual
victims of manipulation together with young adult women who get off on the idea of being the better younger girl
No. 1509768
>>1509730I'm wondering the same. Either they're moids in disguise (especially those who say women expire at x age), or just bitter and have their own issues. I suppose some are just tired of both the groomers and
victims calling them ugly, old and jealous when they're only trying to help, but the
victims are usually young and easily influenced.
My vent is that I guess I just don't understand why anyone would want attention from an older guy. If they're not outright creepy and
abusive, they certainly will be eventually.
I read an interview with Dick Van Dyke a few days ago, the interviewer asked him how he has so much energy despite being 97. He said it helps that he has a wife half his age that takes care of him.
I'm also wondering how those much younger girls/women never worry that they'll be next on the chopping block once they get too old, or that their grandpafriend loves their age and naïveté and not them in particular. They could be any other girl fitting the criteria and he wouldn't care.
Idk there just isn't a lot in it for the girl, you should be scared that you're pissing away your career, youth and life to play a hooters nurse to some old man who can't even get it up. Most of them are deadbeats who aren't even rich.
No. 1509769
>>1509364People don’t really care what noobs are doing, I promise. My only thought when I see newbies is “aw a newbie” and when I see a new girl around repeatedly coming in making progress then I just feel a kind of protective, encouraging feeling and affection when I notice her doing her workouts in my peripherals. Since we all were new once too, experienced gym rats tend to be internally rooting for anyone who comes in regularly over time, but they don’t care about anyone they don’t recognize at all really.
I was once a lost weak fuck at my gym and now I’m probably the strongest woman there and get new girls coming up fawning over how much I’m lifting. But no one really bugged me the whole time except some creepy men which is typical. People are too focused on their own workout and progress and only care if they see someone breaking their spine or lifting a really impressive amount. Mostly people just think like “guy nearby is doing deadlifts. Me too today” “oh that’s that big guy. He overhead presses a lot.” “I’ve seen that guy once before.” “the pilates girl is here today, I see her a lot” stuff like that.
No. 1509791
>>1509207
Basically to summarize your post
>Not my nigel
Boring
>We shit bricks when men do it to us but oh boy do nonnies love to do it to men
Because unlike moids unfounded, and unjustified generalizations of women, womens generalizations of moids are correct and justified. If women were responsible for 97% of rapes I'd agree with you. If 1 in every 4 man was sexually abused I'd agree with you. If the source of all crime in the world was greatly disproportionately represented by women and not men as victims of said women I'd agree.
>But your doom posting isn't going to lessen your misery
Who says everyone here complaining about moids are depressed and living in misery lel. Statistically heterosexual and bisexual women have higher quality of life when single, while moids do not.
>If your idea of feminism and raising women up is to belittle, shame and devalue other women including yourself, it isn't fucking feminism.
Scathing review. Just like you are belittling, shaming and seek to devalue women who aren't accepting of moids shit as being "miserable", consider the language you're using here to describe these hypothetical women in your mind.
>you don't just accept that you're going to be alone forever and become fine with it if your desire was to be with a partner in the first place.
Nah, sometimes some women do. Some people prefer to be alone and they are allowed to do so, some women prefer to be with other women romantically, you seething about them not "settling down" for a moid has little impact on them and only seeks to reinforce shitty moid hierarchies. The absolute paragon of feminism you are.
No. 1509797
>>1509761Nta, but why do you think only children can be
victims? It kinda seems like you think that
victims (or someone you can sympathize with) should be necessarrily "perfect" in a sense that they're pure and innocent, don't have any flaws and demons of their own. Everyone can be delusional and manipulated, and people don't usually like to see themselves as
victims so they cope and put on a facade. Moreover, 18-19-year-olds are still very young and inexperienced, have unresolved (daddy) issues, have low self-esteem and poor boundaries, might have mental issues, might have
toxic families they want to get away from (I feel like it's a common reason why young girls get pregnant and marry some assholes), etc. No one becomes mature overnight just because of age. And those older guys that date them know full well what they're doing, they know these girls are still naive and can't see through their bullshit, they're convenient for them. Yes, these girls aren't literal children, but there's still a great power imbalance and older men use it to their advantage.
>>1509732Nta, I disagree they're necessarrily "ugly" and aren't in a relationship because they're unlikable (not only nice people can date or have sex) but it does seem like they're very young themselves and haven't grown out of black-and-white thinking and nlogism. They surely are inexperienced tho and most probably sexually frustrated hence the slutshaming. Although you know, I remembered some older women who are just like that and some of them are even married (which doesn't mean they aren't sexually frustrated though). I guess it's just good old internalized misogyny.
No. 1509817
>>1509797Being a
victim isn't a free pass to not hold any accountability. Men going for much younger girls are creepy for sure and the girls are
victims to said creepy men. If you're 18/19 and getting off to the idea of stealing some old creep from his wife and is shocked that you ended up just like his wife it's hard to feel bad or not hold any blame at all. There are situations where adult women are manipulated but at that point you should've known not to fuck with an old guy you know is a deadbeat dad. I also feel like if we give more real examples of how young women having relationships with much older men ended up blowing up in their face, it will steer young girls away. Instead of the constant disgusting shit they're always being fed by the media
No. 1509900
I know what responses I'll likely get for this but anyway. My ex has begun to ice me out since getting a new girlfriend and it's so disappointing because I really thought he wouldn't. We moved to a new country together and broke up after about a year because it was clear we weren't long term compatible. Since then we've been friends longer than we were together, we both have a hard time making new friends and we'd hang out every weekend or two, and it was purely platonic (one of the big things was his lack of sex drive so it was definitely mutual). When I started to date someone new (now also broken up with), even though it was easy to get swept up in it I made sure to make time for my friend.
So when he said he got a gf after 3 years of being single I was super happy for him, then remembered we were in fact exes and all the (understandable) stigma that comes with that. So I suggested we all hang out at some point because I wanted to get to know her, be friendly and maybe friends etc and he said it was too soon. Understandable, I guess. Then, I found out he mentioned having an ex as a friend but fudged the details. He brought it up when I asked to hang out at some point only because she asked to meet on the same day, which surprised his gf?
Turns out she didn't know we actually hung out in person. Never mind that we went on holiday last summer, that I stayed at his place for a week because of an autumn event nearby his or that we hung out near every weekend. Like he really played it down to the point that if I were his gf I'd view it as a lie. What I don't get is why he fumbled it so hard. If he were to be genuine about it I think there'd be no issue, but instead he chooses to keep us separate and trickle truth her so there's like the maximum level of distrust from her and it's jeopardising our IMO quality friendship. It's a shit and senseless thing to do to someone who supported you and who you supported. This vent was triggered because he said he was going to a local event with his gf and I said I'd be there too (coincidentally) and he hasn't responded. Where a friend might, you know, say something?
No. 1509975
long because i have a meltdown and i'm going to kms anyway.
10 years ago in high school i started learning programming. requirements for web dev jobs weren't high, i could get a job but everyone went to uni so i decided to go too. my mental health was rock bottom then. i'd go to classes and then isolate myself at home. i've also always had issues with finishing projects - overwhelmed leaving them until deadline and then do them in panic.
so despite there being a uni close i wanted to move to a different city so that i'm forced to meet new people and get my shit together. but when i brought it up to my mom she went 'and who will be taking care of me'. we had some family issues and so i thought she needed me close so i stayed. months passed, i applied for uni and then she tells me suddenly she bought a small at for herself. we didn't have money, def not for a flat and i thought she'd discuss smth like that with me but apparently not.
during first semester i didn't finish all my projects. i decided it's better to drop out than to repeat. i wanted to apply again and in the meanwhile get a job. of course i didn't get a job and just neeted my life away for months and lost a year compared to my peers.
enrolled again.
1 year in mom moves out. my mental health was a mess but now being left alone, taking care of the house and having no significant human interraction..not sure how i functioned. i barely remember anything from uni. at some point i did some dumb impulsive bravery and i switched from programming to another program.stopped coding then.
2 semesters left for the bsci and covid hits and we go online. i do well in classes but me being me i postpone contacting the professor i chose for my bachelor thesis. it doesn't help the topic is smth i had 0 interest in. i tried writing the paper multiple times but every time i got overwhelmed. months pass, the deadline ends, i get a letter from uni saying i got kicked out for not submitting the thesis, 3.5 years (+the one i wasted) into the drain. i forgot coding, technologies changed, the industry filled up and ive to start from scratch. kids who were copying my homework,barely passed n leeched off of me in group projects are just fine. i see them looking like people who earn well. while i'm neeting at home going through circle of suicidal thoughts > 'no. i'm going to finish this course and apply for jobs and start life over' > 'i'm a fucking loser i don't understand anything' > back to suicide for over 2 years. i hate myself im the most pathetic person on earth idk what to do idk where the time went i'm done with myself again and i should stop being a problem for everyone and just die
No. 1509981
>>1509975Go on Google or LinkedIn or coursera. Take the data and coding courses there. Speed run them at a pace your comfortable and can afford. Relearn the code and collect certs from them like Pokémon cards. Attach everyone to your job profile. Put your uni on there and end with a gap year. Degree in progress. If they ask why you paused. Say your taking care of your mother. Play the caring sympathy card.
Are you on the spectrum? I can tell you how I got through shit like thesis and finals if you want.
The game isn’t over anon. The jenga tower just fell over rebuild it. You can do it. Have a shower. Have a cry and then put on your adult pants and get that shit done. Half way in is half way out.
No. 1509998
>>1509730I'm 90s/vanilla ice chan and defended the groomed teen right away, most older women I know would be horrified by that story. The idea we wouldn't sounds like repackaged "personal responsibility". Which is insane to expect of a hormonal teenager being groomed by a someone half a century old, who has a confirmed history of manipulating and impregnating teenage girls … ????
I'm very concerned if younger chans believe or are experiencing shame instead of guidance from older women about scrotes. That sounds like centuries-old moid propaganda/ape-like binary thinking, I hoped places like fds and ovarit would create a new and protective hive mind for us
If older women are becoming feral in this way, which ones? What about women who aren't competing over men for resources, who have jobs and homes?
No. 1510011
>>1509981i've been trying to do courses those 2 years but everytime i get stuck i get into a panic mode. i restarted so many times at this point i just think its hopeless, i have a brainrot. today i had a good morning and decided to go look at job offers to get motivated to start again and there is nothing at the entry/junior level. so even if i wanted to apply i have nowhere to
>>1509985>plenty of pathetic people workingwell then i guess they are better than me. i've always been a failure from a problem home, unable to keep any relationship going, family hating me for just being born. the only good thing about me was being a smart kid parents could brag about and being the first person in my family to go to uni but it turned out that i'm nothing but a weak dumb bitch. i wasn't lazy, i wasn't slacking off, i had above average grades, i put a lot of effort into studying and being stressed out with projects was anything but comfort but you are right and i know it's my fault i'm like this. i'm trying and i'm fighting but i'm ultimately too weak and pathetic. it's been years and if nothing worked nothing will
No. 1510055
>>1509976I mean its not like you made plans to go somewhere together and then stood her up while she waited for you in public. Its a missed chat. Unless you have a track record of being flakey all the time.. this isn't major. You can only wait to see what she says but your bf isn't helping by talking down to you.
>says I should message her more bc apparently I have no real friends so I really need to chase her Having few friends doesn't mean you have to shit yourself and grovel any time a lil thing comes up. Does he just want you to have a low view of yourself?
No. 1510065
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So I used to have a problem crushing on fictional characters to the point where I didn't care about real life romantic relationships. That was as a teen. Whatever. But I'm an adult woman now damn it. And I've known about this character for a while without much problem, it's a very well known and old stereotypical superhero IP. So why do I keep having retarded ideas at the back of my head of this person coming to save me? And why does it depress me so much? Before anyone says I should talk to someone, I'd never say this to anyone without anon even if you paid me. Like yeah wonder woman and all the rest are hot, who hasn't said that before. And who doesn't indulge in being a yume sometimes. But I'm embarrassed to be THIS emotionally moved by some drawn coloured lines, by some fictional person in ugly spandex, granting my childish wish of coming to help me and making everything okay. Like moved to the point of tears kek. Maybe I'm just lonely. But something tells me just jumping on bumble won't fix this.
No. 1510091
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Sucks when I inevitably let my obsession with something consume my empty existence for a year or two & end up buying a bunch of merch within that time. Only to wake up one morning and realize I no longer get the escapist dopamine from the series like I used to and now I'm left with a bunch of meaningless objects. Perhaps someday I'll learn …
No. 1510093
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hey nonnas does anyone else have an emotional/probably bipolar dad? how do you deal with that? my dad is in another one of his moods after being in a great mood last week now he just mopes around all day scoffing and huffing I'm not sure if he wants us to talk to him or if he wants to be left alone… Absolutely zero communication he doesn't say a single word it's all silence so like what am I supposed to do
No. 1510175
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I have OCD.
I forced myself to not clean up after my sister this week (she is my roommate).
She hasn't done the dishes or thrown the trash out for a week.
What the fuck do I fo while being on the verge of a nervous breakdown and throwing the rotting trash on her bed.
No. 1510210
>>1509432i'm not into violence or piss or husbandos that would treat me like shit, but in a fantasy setting, nonnas can playtest those types of scenarios and whatever else their hearts and libidos desire without putting themselves at risk with an actual moid. in this way they can express those feelings in relative safety, and i won't shame them for that kind of exploration, even if the objects of their affection and their preferred fetishes are ones i find personally off-putting.
you don't have to like every single nonna that comes along, or the behavior she projects onto her husbando, or even her husbando himself, but maintaining a bare minimum of civility toward her and all the other husbandofags you don't particularly agree with isn't going to kill you, i promise.
No. 1510237
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>>1510211A fucking bird is a better mate than her husband
No. 1510259
I have a narc grandmother(grandma) who abused me for years, and a really, really sweet grandmother (nanna)
I just learned that Nanna has lung cancer. They're going to do a biopsy to find out what kind it is, or if it was just a scary looking benign tumor. She's one of the sweetest people I've ever met, she lives on a mountain in a giant fir forest, she feeds the squirrels, raccoons, and birds while smoking her own joints, and is generally one of the few people I've met who has a genuine hippie "everyone should love who they want & do what they want" attitude. She's an old school feminist & one of the toughest people I have ever met. I really don't want her to die, and it isn't fair that she's dying from one of the most painful conditions out there, when my grandma is still fantasizing about killing me for being lesbian, talking shit to her neighbors, and refusing to speak to me or confront me over it because I'm a "demon." Dementia is not enough I need her to get bone cancer or into diabetic shock.
No. 1510284
>>1510279>There’s nothing wrong with living off government moneyRight.
>There’s nothing wrong with living off other peoples’ moneyWrong, cope.
No. 1510315
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Sexual frustration is ruling my life. I've been dressing and planning to dress more stereotypically how people in my subculture do just to get those men in my school to notice me and bond over music. I almost bought a rose quartz charm 2 different times to attract guys but I resisted because I don't want to constantly think about attracting men. A "friend" drove me home after I baited him into giving me a ride somewhere else and thought of launching myself at him even though he's a greasy uggo. All would go down the drain when they realize I don't shave legs or genitals to be a barbie. I'm too scared to ask my type of hot guys out. Luckily I'm bisexual but all the women around me are too feminine(clothes and face) /not tall enough (at least 5'9). LGBTQ+ club is full of you-know-who's. Not out as a bisexual to anyone, I overcame the shame and guilt religion instilled inside but family and society will act stupid if they know. It's just me and my fingers up until now and the near future. HOT MEN ASK ME OUT AND FUCK ALREADY OR BUTCH LESBIANS FREE ME FROM THE URGE TO FEEL NERVOUS AND PANDER FOR MALE SEXUAL ATTENTION I BEG YOU
No. 1510335
>>1510232>>1510274how incredibly self-defeatist!
first of all, this isn't about sympathy, and this isn't about what other trash talking nonnas will or won't do. this is about picking your battles. this about the nonnas that think they need to respond when they really ought to just let whatever potential argument is trying to rear it's ugly head lie.
there's always going to be someone stirring the pot and looking for a reaction, but you don't have to be the one to give her what she wants.
what's more, why does the opinion of some nonna, who you don't even particularly like and barely tolerate, inspire such a strong reaction in you? does her opinion really mean so much to you?
why?
No. 1510341
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>>1510335Fuck this, I say all the husbandofags band together and virtually jump Rancefag. Everytime she posts that motherfucker say the nastiest, most cruel shit about him. Shitting on other anons husbandos will not go unpunished. Fuck her and Rance.
I'm just stirring the pot, I don't post my husbando so id even k who Rancefag is or what's going on in the husbando thread No. 1510356
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>>1510351To be honest I don't know if how I feel about my husbandos (and one waifu) would constitute for being posted in any thread. Cause I don't imagine myself with them and find oc x canon or self-inserting disgusting and repulsive and I prefer shipping my favs over anything else. I suppose husbando/waifu isn't a good term but I more so just see them as idols to worship and cheer on and put into scenarios/ships that makes my heart pound fast. I want to talk about them without the context of "yous" or self-inserting. Just character worship and shipping.
No. 1510367
>>1510357Learn2Read
>>1510356from what I read from the thread description it was supposed to be one for shipping too, but they seem to dislike anyone who posts about them but you can possibly post about your husbando/waifu stuff in the husbando thread
>>>/m/188499 in /m/ which was the first husbando thread and was created as a free for all before that thread in /g/ got created for some reason.
No. 1510373
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I can't help but think that a lot of my life has been robbed from me for the fact that my parents decided the ignore the obvious signs of autism as a child and left me to me own devices to find out on my own as an adult. They are so negligent. They threw me into school despite the fact that i was non-verbal at the time, teachers had to call my mum in to make her send me to a speech specialist. i was wondering why everyone avoided me, but all this time it was because i was retarded and didn't know it. All the times they got angry at me for not behaving and being the person they want me to be, they knew i had fucking issues and thought they could aggressively get me to submit to being the child they wanted. I can't help but feel so angry at this, especially since my dad have been gas lighting me literally pulling the "children in Africa card" constantly, complaining about how hard his life was when i used to live in a 3rd world country, meanwhile he sits on his bourgeoise arse not having experienced hardships in the past 30 years and is practically a millionaire now. I don't even understand why they had children, they don't have a paternal/maternal bone in their body, they are not loving and they are cold and rude. My life could have progressed so much if i just had parents who actually gave a shit about me and were slightly more sensitive.
No. 1510377
>>1509207
women generalizing men vs. men generalizing women is barely comparable bc womens generalizations are rooted in things that have been proven to have strong gender correlation (violence, rape, porn use, domestic violence, etc), and often come from real life, repeated bad experiences with men. and yet 90% of mens generalizations about women are either rooted in a false stereotype or in blatant double standards and hypocrisy that has no real proof and is only accepted as reality because it appeals to mens delusions (women cheat more than men, women are whores, women are innately less capable of everything, women are too emotional, women are bad drivers, etc)
No. 1510378
>>1510377Nobody should generalize anybody, nonna. I think that's why radfems have lost so much support over the years in favor of TRAs, although TRAs are losing support now very few of the people who don't support them are radfems.
Radfems are fun to be around when they're not constantly shitting themselves over breathing around the opposite sex.
No. 1510390
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>>1510379If you careened off the road do you really want lolcow to have been the last thing you were looking at before you died?
No. 1510393
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The fat kid(s?) who live above me are running around and I want to kms
No. 1510395
>>1510390Yes, I think it would be not only a radical way to die but rather feminist too.
Roll credits.
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>>1510393Are you living with me? But tbh, in my case it's some freakishly tall and skinny moid jumping around.
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5 months since my last break up and I feel like giving up on love. Everyone pales in comparison to him but the shot he’s pulled has made me lose any interest in reconciling. I want him back so bad but I know it wouldn’t work. I either feel super emotionally connected to them and it scares them off, or I barely connect emotionally and they cling on to me because I provide sex/food/emotional support that’s never reciprocated. I have one guy I dated who keeps trying to come back yearly but I know it’s only because I let him just blab about himself the entire time we were “together” and he never asked me a single question about myself. I feel like giving up on love.
No. 1510488
>>1510434I meant to say *shit but he pursued me heavily after a bad break up on his side then kept acting severely hot and cold. Asked me out first, initiated physical intimacy first, asked me to be his girlfriend, told his parents/introduced me to them first etc. He said he loved me but couldn’t actually say I love you because it scared him. Kept trying to have real conversations about things that were obviously bothering him and either he would shut down and avoid it and twice broke up with me. He said he didn’t 3ant to be with his ex anymore and I think it’s true, BUT he was so in denial about their relationship being
toxic possibily abusive that I feel like he projected all the shit she pulled on him onto me. The first time he broke up with me (I know) when I came over to have a real talk about what was going on he said he was relieved I didn’t threaten to kill myself even though I had never talked about being suicidal before? In the end he kept saying that he had too much anxiety to be in a “real” relationship
Honestly I do think he saw a future with me but that meant expectations so he chickened out and that we would just end up hating each other so we should just end things now. It’s such a cruel way to discard someone IMO and really condescending as he’s basically decided an outcome for both him and me without even considering that I’m an adult with autonomy and can actually put the work into my relationships and that the way things ended with your shitty high school girlfriend were not inevitable with me.
No. 1510540
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god i hate boomers so fucking much, they had every opportunity given to them, ruined economy and then blame us for complaining and being depressed for things outside of our control. I have tried explaining to my mom that i lost half my clients out of fucking nowhere because of AI and she refuses to understand and calls me lazy for it. I also hatenot knowing what the fuck to do, i dont wanna study a career that's going to become obsolete 5 years after i graduated. I wish the devils who puppeter the world would stop making it worse for a while so i can think about my future without wanting to kill myself.
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i can't stop falling out of bed. save me nonnies.
No. 1510646
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i need something to happen that will mass peak women. if i weren't such a dirty fujo i'd put forth effort but alas i'd rather just play with my BL and pray others carry the mantle of creating GOOD f/f content and female characters
No. 1510670
I don't get why my family keeps getting me clothes that are too small. I mean yeah, I need to lose weight but I won't go from a 32W or around size 16 or more to a size 8 in a year.
So they go from gifting me stuff that's too small to gifting me stuff that's too big, like 2XL big and it shows, and it's uncomfortable to wear too because the tops while they're loose, they open on their own or the bottoms are too loose and feel uncomfortable, plus I look extra frumpy.
And I've been dieting my whole life, I also exercise daily, I don't eat sweets, I drink my tea or coffee only once and without sugar or even artificial sweeteners, my diet is balanced nowadays with plenty of vegetables and protein.
But I'm not really losing any weight, if anything I may lose a few centimeters of my waist and hips and that's it, then I get them back, then I lose them again, then I get really fat again, and it's a never ending cycle.
And all of my blood tests are perfectly fine too, maybe I just have to live with being fat forever, and I'm not even unhealthy anyways, I can run, I can walk for long periods of time, I can stand around for long periods of time too and my knees are fine and whatnot.
I wanted to be a skinny legend and wear cute clothes tbh, but maybe that's not for me after all of these years trying really hard.
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>>1510646ive been working on a peaking project for two years but it's taking forever to finish because there's just too much shit to radpill women on. i just want it to be finished so I can finally enjoy my maneating gfs having healthy gay sex. im fighting every day to get it done but it still at the scripting and concept art stage, fuck my life
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>>1509207
>mfw nonnie writing out this essay of a reply while her boyfie is sitting on the shitter jerking off to 18 year old thai trannies and nonnies 13 year old cousins vacay pics
No. 1510713
>>1510670Oh I had this issue too, I got around it by saying I'm trying to figure out my style so want to buy my own clothes. Or are you in a situation where you have to have clothes bought for you? Either way intentional or not it's pretty cruel.
When I was a teen I was low key traumatised by my mom dragging me around shops and telling me to try on clothes that I knew would be too small for me. I'd say so because if a size 8 didn't fit me last time why the fuck would it 30 minutes later? And she'd say try it anyway and I'd go in there, feel like a sausage in too small a casing then come out to tell my mom that in fact yes, I am too fat for this also. So it's a touchy subject for me but also how retarded was she to literally never learn her lesson? There were larger sizes RIGHT there but it was like some stubborn delusion she had that I needed to be skinny?
As an adult coming home for christmas she gifted me more (too small or big) clothes after I made it clear I don't want any, I just left that shit in her house. If you can, just take a hard stance on it.
Your lifestyle sounds quite healthy, much more than mine (pastries, pasta and chocolate every day) and I'm a size 12, but a natural size 16 does sound a bit irregular/unlucky. Could it be some kind of allergy or intolerance to some kind of food you're eating, or maybe medication? Maybe there's some kind of food you're eating that's deceptively really high in calories? Either way so long as you feel healthy that's what's important.
No. 1510721
>>1510011Anon, I say this as someone who had to rebuild my life after it got derailed by severe mental health issues- you're never going to succeed at anything with your defeatist attitude. In a situation like yours, the only thing you can do is map out your goal and what you need to do to work towards it (and get CBT therapy if you can access it because you clearly have harmful thought patterns). Focusing on planning for the future and following the advice here
>>1509981 rather than ruminating on your failures is the only thing that will prevent you from spending the rest of your life in a pit of misery.
No. 1510961
>>1510751Oh wow that's really bad, I'm so sorry Nonna. Hate that it seems like typical women putting other women down behavior. Wishing you the best in a better job!
>>1510659Any connection that is associated with my livelihood I take very seriously. Unfortunately you just don't know people. It's enough to be courteous and make small talk, you don't owe people anything else. To not be so much of a negative Nancy the way I make work friends is after I leave the job. Have about three ex colleagues that I'm close with!
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>>1510928>>1510952that is a silky anteater
No. 1511015
>>1510974Infuriating on many levels, I simultaneously feel bad for women like this and also annoyance. No man should ever expect this from a woman. No woman should ever give in to a demand like that. It has bigger implications and ultimately negatively affects all women.
Never split bills with a scrote.
No. 1511037
>>1510961Thank you
nonny! I just have to vent here some more but literally who tf just gift exchanges right in someone's face and it's again a product I mentioned I'm a big fan off and love (its a flavour of jam from my OWN COUNTRY,) like I feel like it's a bit racist because I'm the only one of my ethnicity working there so I'm just so so fucking tired when they were all giving themselves a round of applause for their stance on Anti Black discrimination and its like! What about me? Like sorry im not either black or white, so its like when I mention the issues i have to face, crickets. Or when I mention how I was almost physically attacked by a racist guy and no one even bothered to care, I'm so fucking tired of all this, I wish I could find a job where I don't have to deal with people and if I have to work a place where I do have to, at least not be so completely excluded and forgotten but at least I got friends outside to keep me sane even if they now live 3 hours away
No. 1511058
>>1511049>keep making excuses to fuck [ugly men]But then
>most women don’t have the luxury of being picky so I don’t blame themYou just said they’re “making excuses” to fuck men, which implies responsibility…but now they’re not to blame. Bitch, pick one. Are women responsible for fucking men you think are ugly or aren’t they? If they aren’t, why would you accuse them of making excuses to do so?
No. 1511069
>>1511058>you just saidI didn’t. You do understand that not all anons are the same person….right?youre
triggered so I’m assuming your scrote is probably ugly and you feel personally attacked kek
No. 1511121
>>1511032No it's very slow nowadays. Especially with popular apps dominating and everyone perpetually on their phones without creating anything themselves, it's like all of the creativity/personalisation went out the window. Even YouTube is fucked now for that reason.
I weirdly miss reading others websites or how Google had that "I'm Feeling Lucky" button and finding so much stuff!
No. 1511149
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Received 3 rejection emails in a row today. Feeling real bummed out right now.
No. 1511214
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Literally everyone here told me not to talk to my abusive ex and just block him but I spent hours arguing with him even though I’m literally on vacation rn. I should have just blocked him while he was still grovelling for my attention but now he started being nasty to me again. I’m sorry for ignoring good advice, I just regret not getting closure on so many things in my life but this was definitely a stone I could’ve left unturned
No. 1511409
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Anons, you will not fucking believe what happened yesterday, what in the actual fuck. My father decided to keep this car from almost a decade ago. It was a good car, supposedly (Apparently it had already caught fire due to overheating, but dad hadn't told us, and secretly refused to sell it too) Yesterday, while we were driving home, our car caught fire in the middle of the road, I had to jump far onto the sidewalk with soft grass…i injured myself a little but I didn't break anything as I used my back to shield my arms and legs, I just got a lil scratched with maybe one bruise. Luckily, this happened right in front of a hospital, where there were also policemen and services. We all survived, except the car, of course. It also happened near a family home, were everyone attended us.
Wanna know the craziest shit about all of this? in the morning, on our way to work and before all this happened, we saw a random car burning down with no one inside…just there, in the middle of the road, just like our car ended up…I'm absolutely pragmatic and not religious, but, it really seems that something wanted to warn us, and the fact that we had all these incredibly fortunate circumstances (in front of a hospital, with a family home nearby, with grass to jump on, it did not explode right there, no one died)…it seems that something also saved us from an absolute tragedy. I don't even know what to think…I'm just in shock. That was movie-worthy, I'm glad to be alive here to post this to begin with cause what in the actual the hell
No. 1511413
>>1511408>>1511407Thank you so much you two.. Was at the vet already, they can't test and he said not to waste the money on an autopsy. Farm vets. I'd have to send the corpse to the government, which would take them a few days too. If its bird flu, I'll know sooner sadly. There isn't anything you can do and most will just drop. It's mostly deadly. If it was bird flu and so and so many were miraculously spared, if I send it in, the rest will still be culled even if they survived it.. Even if they're just my pets.. Which is why I'm not contacting the government yet. If it turns out to be the flu, I can still send them in then to get the warning areas expanded and updated.
I'm selfish, I agree. I don't care, this entire thing is utterly stupid and ridiculous in the first place.
There is a chicken vaccine against the bird flu, but it's not been approved. It would leave markers, making the chicken bird flu positive even if it wasn't, ruining the chicken meat market all over the world. Glad we agreed culling thousands and thousands was just easier. I would've vacced mine immediately. I don't eat them, I don't sell them. They give me eggs and love and endless entertainment just watching.
But hey, capatalism and cheap meat.
No. 1511424
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>>1511413>>1511408>>1511407Picture tax, thank you for listening. Black girl without any bum feathers in the middle. Yeah, that's normal for her kind..
No. 1511478
>>1511409what the fuck. That is super crazy. If that happened on TV, I would call bullshit about the whole thing for being too unrealistic. How's car catches on fire in front of a hospital?
I'm glad you're okay.
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I don’t even watch historical costuming channels but I keep getting recommended this shit. Why are these bitches so invested??
No. 1511528
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>>1511520Even back then it was some pickme shit kek. May as well say fillers and the tik tok teen filter are harmless as well
No. 1511531
>>1511528>>1511529Stay out of /g/ if this
triggers you this much O Holy and Based Modestly Dressed Anons.
No. 1511536
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That thing people say about mothers being a girl's first bully is completely true. At this point in my life I just want to be left alone.
And fuck people who immediately try to find ways to shift the blame to victims or say they need to take accountability. "What were you wearing?" culture is alive and well.
No. 1511547
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>>1511537All the big historical fashion youtubers looove corsets and sperg about how great they are all the time and I keep getting recommended this video about them being angry about actresses not wearing corsets. Makes me want to try one on to see what they're raving about. They seem really claustrophobic though and women stopped wearing them in the 1920's for a reason, when more sporty and practical styles and hobbies were popular.
No. 1511549
>>1511536I feel you anon, my mother was my bully as well–but she needed me for emotional supply when her marriages would shit the bed so I had this weird push/pull dynamic with her up until I went no contact with her years ago.
The last straw?
Told me I deserved being deceived after sex because I "slept with the man too early." Then she promptly shifted focus on herself because she wanted me to dote on her third divorce. So I told her she deserved it cause she was frigid, bitter, and unfun so she shoulda seen the cheating to come–she didn't like that taste of her own medicine and went into screaming hysterics.
I have zero empathy for that emotional vampire.
Too many women aren't fit to raise daughters. Maybe my mom could've been a great boymom though with the way my family spoils their loser men.
No. 1511564
>>1511549Wow this couldve been a post about my mom
before she committed murder and is serving timePlus,
>3 marriages>Moved every year>Untreated bpd>watches fox news 24/7 No. 1511580
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I'm getting sick of my bf constantly painting me like an asshole just cause he has mental issues.
I got up at 6am to travel to a site for work. He got up with me to help me load some things in my car then went back to bed. His brother employs him under the table but he hasn't worked since the first week of January, he's afloat cause he has a trust fund with stocks so he has no real schedule. He also claims he has long Covid so everything we do has to tiptoe around his "sickness" that he has yet to see a doctor for and seems to be very selective i.e. when he wants to do something he is never too sick to prevent him from doing it.
Anyways.
After I got done at my site, I headed home. Otw I called him to ask if he wanted lunch, he said no and I clearly woke him up so I assumed he went back to bed. I got lunch then drove back to my place. Got home at 11am. Kept my boots on cause I gotta go back out to a different site at 2pm.
Dogs needed to piss, which told me he hadn't been awake at all since I left to let them out. He didn't come downstairs to greet me, I presumed he was sleeping, so I turned on the tv and ate my food with our dogs. After 10 minutes he stomped down the stairs and was giving me a look like I had offended him.
Claimed he didn't remember me asking him if he wanted lunch–not that there isn't food to eat around the house. I asked him if he wanted some of my lunch cause I had an extra chicken sandwich. He snipped "You gonna go back out and get me lunch?" Lol no. "Well I am not hungry for chicken." Ok, sorry then but too bad. "But I didn't remember you asking me if I wanted food!" Not my fault, you said no and I am offering you sustenance.
Anyway, he's really mad because I didn't go upstairs to greet him to hang out and he angrily told me he had been awake since I got home. Why doesn't he just come downstairs if he wants to engage with me? He's got a ton of excuses. It's just always on me to put in that effort to bend to what he wants to do and I didn't do it this time, but because I am doing what I wanted he accused me of trying to force him to bend to me.
He rejected me asking for a kiss and stormed back up the stairs.
Then 10 minutes later he came down to sperg at me more how I "am all set up downstairs to be alone" and so I am discarding his feelings cause I won't go upstairs to be with him.
I just wanted to eat my meal, say hello to my dogs, and watch a show/nap with some peace. I am not asking to be alone, but if he has a million excuses as to why he can't be downstairs with me then tough shit cause I don't want to be upstairs? It doesn't have to be anyone's fault. We are two people who want to do different things at the moment, yet his mentally ill ass cannot grasp this concept so he interprets me as the aggressor.
Still hasn't booked a therapist like what he's been promising me either.
No. 1511595
>>1511580What is there in this overgrown child that makes you tolerate even a little bit of this
nonny? There are men out there who can talk and act like adults. If you keep entertaining this man he's gonna ask you to hold his hand while he pees next. No reason to put yourself through this your whole life. I feel about no empathy for women who put themselves through this.
No. 1511646
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i had a mock court assignment for class and i got the feedback back today. i feel so fucking stupid for thinking i did a good job. all the feedback was about how i seemed argumentative, how i needed to be friendlier, etc. i don't know what's wrong with me but people seem to just be repulsed by me. i constantly get told i have a bitch face, that i seem angry, that i'm aggressive. i try really, really hard. but even when i'm trying and i think i'm doing well, i get comments about it, and it breaks my heart. i want so badly to be friendly and likeable, the kind of person people want to be around. i have no idea how i was aggressive or argumentative during the assignment. i thought i was acting normal. i don't know what's fucking wrong with me. i wish i was a man so i could say things plainly and not have to smile aggressively and use a customer service voice with everyone without getting called a bitch. obviously my prof didn't call me that, but i get called it so much, and the worst is how many times i've heard people call me that when they didn't know i could hear. do i seriously have to smile 24/7 and constantly act submissive to be considered 'nice?' i don't want to do that. but it hurts so much to think i'm acting normal then to find out later that i come across as stuck up, angry, argumentative. how can i fix it if i can't even understand what i'm doing wrong? i am my personality. so if my personality is broken, how the fuck do i fix that?
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I have to go get a transvaginal ultrasound in a few hours and I’m terrified
No. 1511651
>>1511595>>1511586"why do women stay in relationships that aren't healthy when the other person is obviously the problem? btw i blame the woman for it. it's kind of the womans fault men are even like this in the first place, if you think about it. anyway, why would women blame themselves and stay with shitty men?"
if you don't feel empathy for the person maybe just don't respond to their vent. just a thought. there are other threads if you feel like reeing about "handmaidens," no need to reply to someone's personal post just to blame them.
No. 1511672
>>1511580What a huge faggot
>>1511657Why would you not call HR
No. 1511676
>>1511651That's a lot of jumps to end up not saying what she said. At some point, if you hate your job, you have to quit. There can be a lot of reasons to not quit: You'll be in danger of losing your house, you've been at the same job for years, you only have a pension and not a 401K. But at some point, you have to rearrange your life around getting a different job. Because if you stay, you're going to be miserable the entire time. And you only have one life, are you really going to spend it that way?
The abuse is the abuser's fault, but at a certain point, staying becomes a choice.
No. 1511680
>>1511651instead of getting your panties on a twist every fucking time someone questions such behavior in this board, you should realize that no mentally sane person would understand doing all this stuff over a moid to begin with, only someone that is already too deep into it would and its only fair anons find it repulsive, cause is
not normal or healthy
No. 1511694
>>1511676this is a lot of assumptions for someone who knows absolutely nothing about her situation except for the what, three paragraphs she posted here? how does it help anyone in a shitty relationship to feel like they can't even anonymously complain without people jumping to tell her it's her fault and she needs to leave immediately right now or else no one should ever empathize with her? i am getting heated about this because ive been in physically
abusive relationships and "tested the waters" by complaining about smaller stuff, and it fucking sucks to have people you don't even know trip over themselves to tell you it's your fault based on a few sentences online. again, why is it so difficult to just let people vent without thinking you have to anonymously make them "take responsibility" and let everyone know you don't care? if you think that (and i do reading a lot of posts here), you can just not respond and move on. there's no point, it's never helped anyone, and you do not actually know the situation of the person you're responding to.
>>1511686it's not the "encourage me to take responsibility for my choices" thread. and if a fatty wanted to complain about being fat here and wasn't currently dieting, that would also be fine.
No. 1511697
>>1511687No one is calling you repulsive but the
circumstances, anyone sane enough would find such living conditions or relationship to be repulsive, calling who disagrees "psychopaths" is quite deranged
No. 1511710
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>>1511704how on earth do you think i would know…? anyway i have to go now but i really dont like this trend that seems to be increasing of treating the vent thread as the 'unsolicited advice' thread. yes it's sappy but i really value having a place where i can get things off my chest without having to justify myself all the time, i hate seeing other people do the same and get responses from people who have the tiniest bit of info and suddenly become experts and have to give their opinions and blame them for their situations. bottom line is we don't know her, we don't know why she's staying (or if she even is staying!) or anything else. if you can't say anything nice, don't say anything. it's just not the thread for trying to moralfag about how you would never be in that situation or tell someone you don't care about what's happening to them. namaste.
No. 1511779
>>1511710Ntayrt but I agree. Having a place to vent is so important for validation and actualization of relationshit problems for women.
I posted about my past relationship problems here and for anons to simply
agree that my ex was being a peice of garbo was the mental boost I needed.
Every other place on the internet just blames women outright or says to ~CoMmUnIcATe~ with the scrotes more as if it does fuckall at times.
I think it's fair to have a place to blast their behavior without facing backlash for giving them a chance, we aren't their mothers and we don't owe them shit lest we are at fault if the partnership falls short on their account.
No. 1511799
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Being in a ~close knit~ family sucks. I'm not extroverted and I've preferred to be independent since I was a child. I regret that growing up and in early adulthood I felt that I had to put every decision I made past my parents, they weren't authoritarian or anything, I just felt because of my upbringing that keeping them happy should have been my biggest priority in life. Now I'm almost 30 and I'm nowhere that I want to be. They talked me out of every interest I had, which is normal for parents to try to do, but it's not normal for young adults to actually listen to. A combination of depression and my parents "reasonable" advice led me to give up on my dreams at first, and then my will to live thereafter.
The past few years I've done a lot of soul searching and realized that I'm just not supposed to be living like this. My family are all boring, sedentary people who obsessively watch the news and consider politics to be the most important thing in their lives. I'm not trying to insult them, I'm just the exact opposite to them and I find their lifestyle boring and unproductive. My parents both spend all day looking at their screens, and then at dinner the retire to the living room to watch TV all night. I guess they like the way they live, but it is so fucking dull and boring to me. As a teenager I would spend most of my free time on the internet like most weird autists my age, and I grew up in a small town so I felt out of place with the people around me. I used to have so much more fight in me, I wanted to run away from home when I was 18, I wanted to try different jobs and different things, I really wanted to go to school but I had no idea how to do any of the steps to get in, and my grades were probably not sufficient.
Over the years it feels like any struggle I had inside me was snuffed out, and I gave up on every being who I wanted to be. It's weird when I see people I went to school with, they look so different, like they found themselves; I still dress like I'm fucking autistic(and I hate it). I'm literally so scared to express myself in any way because other people will judge me. I'm sick of caring.
I love my family but I'm sick of being roped into their shitty lifestyle. I have a "bathroom" health issue that is hard to treat while living with my parents because they will ask me why I'm going to the bathroom so often. I can't tell them about things like that casually because they will take it upon themselves to check up on me, even though I clearly hate it. That's pretty much why I'm in the vent thread right now, I'm just so humiliated to be in this position in my life. My mom is forcing me to go pick up fast food with her tonight. She could literally get it herself but this is ~family bonding~, my parents are always fucking making me pick up fast food, they're not fat but I really fucking wish they were as punishment for eating such disgusting shit all the time and encouraging me to do the same.
Is it selfish of me to wish my parents pushed me more? Sometimes I'm in disbelief that they think that the life I live right now is actually acceptable for someone my age. When I was 22 it was just a minor failure to launch, but at my current age it's just fucking bleak. My life isn't their responsibility, certainly not anymore because I can take care of myself, but I can't help but be bitter that they didn't push me more when I was 18. I am pretty sure I'm on the spectrum, and I just needed a push in the right direction. It's taken me until now for things like entering a new career or signing up for school to no longer feel like it's over my head.
I don't know what else to say, every couple of months I come into the vent thread to ramble on about my life in a way that probably looks incomprehensible and mega gay and cringe to anons, but I'm so helpless here. I stay in bed when I'm not at work because of my current health issue, it should be temporary but honestly I don't have time to see a doctor. Consequently because of that and the fact that I'm just so burnt out a depressed, my room is a smelly mess, I don't wash my bedsheets anymore because the laundry is above my room and I don't like the noise, my cat barfed on my comforter weeks ago and I just left it there. My brother has covid so my mom decided he can have the washroom we share and I had to leave all my stuff in there. I haven't shaved my legs or exfoliated my skin in a week I feel even more disgusting. And since I have to use my parents bathroom and I can't use it before work because they're still sleeping I've been peeing in an icecream bucket and dumping it outside. I could risk getting sick to use my brothers bathroom and a real toilet like a human being but I got covid once already and now I feel like I have fucking alzheimers, I don't need to get any worse. It just feels like everything is being taken from me. I think god hates me. I'm moving out in a month(?) but the more time passes the longer it seems until I get to leave. I feel like I'm literally rotting and going insane. I need to see a doctor and I woke up for work today feeling like I wanted to kill myself. I'm not even gonna proofread this before posting it probably makes no sense anyway. My life feels like groundhog day rn
No. 1511824
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My pelvic floor issues have ruined my sex life, I hate dilating and I feel so broken and just dysfunctional when I do it. It takes up time out of my day and I just feel like what's the point when it takes around a week of everyday dilating just to have sex that isn't painful. I also feel terrible about my mildly overweight body and just feel like I don't look good enough to have sex anymore. I even had vaginal swabs and general testing done recently just to make sure it wasn't an infection but everything came back clear…yup, my body is just broken. Never got wet before, and the first few inches of my vaginal canal is extremely painful. Almost peed myself at my cervical exam because of the pressure and pain but I got it done.
It's honestly got to the point where I just prefer to fantasize or indulge in escapism like reading fanfiction about characters from video games. That interests me sexually more than actually doing anything sexual because I just associate my body with being broken and not meant for that stuff anymore. But if I escape to a fictional world I can technically dream/imagine anything and it's great, I don't have to worry about my self-image or my health issue.
I also woke up yesterday with some mild pain almost like a cramp in my pelvic floor. It almost felt like a UTI at first but it wasn't at all, then it went after 20 minutes. Idek what's going on. I feel like I am being punished for just being female. I used to be able to cope with this when I was younger because I'd have no sex drive anyway but as I'm getting older it's getting higher and it's insanely frustrating to try and manage. I need a subservient, knightly masculine moid to unleash this frustration on but I realise that every moid out there is either a porn addict or just a highly undesirable scrote with weak calves. I'm losing my marbles!!!!!
No. 1511837
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I know these bitches are going to ghost me and never text me back. Why does this happen EVERY. SINGLE. TIME I try to make plans with other women? They'll be really excited to hang out and then boom fucking nothing and we never end up hanging out. They'll alwyas tell me they're totally free and totally down to hang and then we never fucking hang even if I ask them if they're still down to hang out, I.E. I am giving them an out if they have something come up like JUST FUCKING TELL ME SOMETHING CAME UP!!!! JUST LIE OR SOMETHING!!!! Like this one girl doesn't even have a fucking job and she told me she cleaned her room so she can have guests over and I just know she'll ghost me. Call me a fucking NLOG or whatever but why can't women just gear up and communicate that they can't hang out? I'm not a moid so there's no chance of violence and I've ALWAYS made sure to be understanding with them for ghosting like JUST FUCKING COMMUNICATE YOU RETARD. I always make sure to tell a friend I can't make it whenever something comes up because I know it'd suck if I ghosted!!!! Why do I always have to be the one getting ghosted and the one to constantly forgive and forget. I know it's not a big deal but I JUST WANT TO HANG OUT AND HAVE FUN JESUS FUCKING CHRIST WE CAN WATCH WHATEVER YOU FUCKING WANT WE CAN SMOKE WEED I WILL BE THE DESIGNATED DRIVER JUST HANG OUT WITH MEEEEEE REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
No. 1511852
>>1511799Sending you a hug nonita, this is such a miserable and stifling situation to be in. I was a mega retard with zero social skills and was in a very similar situation to yours, so trust me when I say you can absolutely get better.
Don't worry about looking/acting/feeling like a tard because everything's beyond you. Look up how-to guides online and follow them, they might not be the best but they'll work until you get the experience you need. Make sure you have a moving checklist and start sorting your things out now, so you don't forget anything important. Change your sheets if you're too overwhelmed to wash them. Start sorting out your mail, bills, and anything else that you need to change the address for. I know you don't have time to see a doctor, but can you look into having an appointment over the phone? It might fit your schedule better, and your parents won't try to tag along.
No. 1511903
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I hate when men find me attractive. Hate hate hate.
I don't mind having male friends, there is just no longer any appeal to their confessions or interest. It used to give me an ego boost but there's no need for that in my life anymore so instead it's just uncomfortable. I get embarrassed for them, too.
I've leaned more into being gnc lately, both for comfort and to appeal to other women, and it seems to have made it worse somehow. Must be the confidence.
Gonna kys myself, nonas…
No. 1511976
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i hate the cosplay community, i love the creativity, I love crafting and sharing projects but god it’s infested and impossible to be in any more. Every female cosplayer I meet is either a tif, NB, or filters the hell out of her photos. I’m so sick of it. Even the semi normal cosplayers constantly share pro trans activism shit, or fighting about shipping ethics, and anyone I manage to befriend enough to get close to spends all day posting mental breakdowns on their private story / account or self diagnosing & whining about reach and likes!!! I feel like everyone has been zapped by some laser that melted their brains and makes them act retarded, no wonder so many cosplayers distance themselves so severely
No. 1512096
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my face is gets so delightfully bloated after i wake up or cry i wish there was a surgery to keep it looking that way permanently because i look like a gaunt ghoul after the swelling goes down. i can't cry ot sleep enough to keep myself looking like a (cute) human being for a long time. i look so scary snd disgusting but at least i know i have the potential not to…
No. 1512098
>>1507299I dont consider myself radfem but I believe in this wholly. I'm completely straight but will never date, and I am holding myself to that. In the past it was "I want to work on myself" but now I realize what is the point of working on myself when the man I end up with wont do shit for me? Even men I met in real life, though I dont know a lot of guys, have a level of scrote to them that I know wont go away. That's just how it is. I don't want to say something like women and men shouldn't be together but ultimately one will end up sacrificing themselves for the other and the relationship and its usually the woman. I don't know how any woman can date someone knowing they essentially disagree with your entire existence. Not me.
I told my sister about this and she pathetically tried to vouch for dating as if theres anything worthwhile in it. It ultimately feels like women date bc they cant handle being alone. Even as a child I thought it would be cool just to live with my sister and we'd be mean old ladies together, and that sentiment is only strengthened now. I only ever imagined having a husband bc I thought I had to marry in the first place.
No. 1512102
I wish people weren't as fat, and I say this as an ex-fat person who grew up fat. It's insane to me that 50% of my country is overweight, it's so unhealthy and terrifying to think this is the direction we are heading in. And I'm not just being fatphobic, I don't care how it looks but I care a lot about the surrounding factors and health risks that comes with it. I don't want people to be out of touch with their bodies and not knowing how to take care of themselves, I don't want them to not even realize (some of) their medical issues could go away if they changed their eating patterns. Especially kids! I truly want people to be healthy for both their own and society at large's sake.
Food addiction isn't talked about enough. I'm not overweight anymore but I'm pretty sure I'm currently addicted to sugar, I can't go a day without it or I get grumpy. Countless friends are addicted to caffeine in the form of sugary energy drinks. I hate that I can't help people or point out bad habits without seeming like a dick even though they all want to lose weight. Ordering 2 burgers, fries, nuggets and a shake is not a normal 1 person meal! You don't just eat "small meals" yet magically put on weight, you snack all day leading to you feeling full at the proper meal times and that's why you think you don't eat a lot, but you do. You're not fat because you don't work out and you don't need to work out at all to lose weight, in fact it's a lot easier to eat less than to work our for weight-loss. Live the exact same life but skip the extra snacks and suddenly you're slowly losing weight. I wish I could help people.
No. 1512108
>>1512103Thought its my fault for everything and to a degree it is. But i realize the result would always be the same no matter how hard i tried because it was like that even when i gave it my all. Now i realize there are no rights in thia world for a ugly mentally ill early 20's woman in a shithole country with no other family members except for borderline unhinged parents who also hate your guts and are waiting for you to move out.
Maybe i should enjoy human cruelty until my last days. Maybe its written in the stars that this is supossed to be my life so i should enjoy and live every misery because quitting (sudoku) the game would be considered cheating the system and we dont want that dont we. We need to keep the lowest people breathing so we can verbally and physically abuse them and feel better aboout our shitty lived because hey atleast thats bot ours.
I mean even this site too was originally built on making fun of mentally ill people although i am not as retarded as them to post myself online.
No. 1512111
>>1512108Dear feds, I am and i repeat NOT suicidal. What i say is just jokes. Dont raid me.
Atleast the earth will love me and understand me. Ill have value to the bugs eating me atleast.
I dont even have a soul, pretty sure fragments of them already died. Now its just a empty husk, a vessel with bipolar disorder and depression.
No. 1512165
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>Already has bad knees
>Starts doing squats and stretches whenever I take breaks from sitting down
>Suddenly I can barely get up from squatting position without being pulled up
>Slight, but constant pain in my knees
>Visits a physiotherapist
>"Anon, either your knees are so weak they can't handle squats or you at some point in your life got a muscle inflammation that never healed properly without you realizing it"
>Now I'm scared of doing any exercises at all
No. 1512208
>>1506737I'm in the last half of college and this one awful moid I met at the very beginning is still cropping up in my life somehow even though I have blocked him and everyone who associates with him on as many platforms as possible. He has a history of creepiness and a HORRIFIC reputation among women, but because he can appear mildly outwardly "charming"/"nice" he amassed this crowd of men and pickmes who will defend him to their last breath.
I actually lost an entire friend group over this, because he sexually assaulted my best friend in front of me at a party and me and one other girl in the friend group were the only ones who wanted to cut him off or even acknowledge it. Even though the majority of the group witnessed it happen.
Actually, my last female roommate, who I fucking introduced to that group lol, took his side so hard that she cut us (me, my best friend the
victim, and my other best friend who allied w/ her) off to go hang with the rapist and his posse of scrotes more. So now I live with a misogynistic bitch who constantly goes around telling everyone that we are all just jealous and lying about the SA. And there's a chance she could just bring this rapist (who she probably fucked after the fact) around my apartment at any given time.
And you know what all the defenses of him are? From women:"Oh, he's so nice, he would never do that." "He's just not that type of guy." Really? I was in a car with him and one other man alone and he made a joke about "feeling like he could rape someone right now". And when I fucked around with him freshman year (I was making terrible decisions and this was before I knew his reputation) he would make all sorts of jokes about date raping me (its a joke tho!!), getting "rapey" around me when he was drunk, he choked me without asking, he forced my legs apart sometimes when I would shut them while kissing him. Same dude also told me he had to switch to watching solo porn only because he was afraid looking at dicks for too long was gonna make him gay. He also was infamous for getting so blackout drunk that he would make out with big fat chicks at parties, which apparently perturbed him so much his frat had to have an intervention with him about it (but somehow none of the other shit).
Annoying women love him because he has thigh tats and paints his nails and shit, but I just want to scream all of the disgusting information I know about him into their faces. I want him to walk around with a laundry list of his disgusting deeds (I honestly haven't even mentioned half of them in this post) taped to his forehead. The problem is even when women know this they take his side anyway for the validation I guess? I've had 2 different women side with me to my face, then go fuck him behind my back later and tell everyone I'm lying. And I only tell them about my friend's SA, not the extraneous offenses. My friend's SA, which was so bad she cannot even get a pap smear now without having a panic attack and when she sees him in passing she starts crying.
And of course, he lives at my apartment complex (just moved here a year after we did). I see him on campus constantly. I see him at our fucking campus gym, even though I avoid the male-majority areas FOR THIS REASON. I feel like I can't escape and everyone loves him for some reason and I am just going to snap one day.
No. 1512216
>>1512208I hate when a moid is so clearly an evil retard and people just can't see past like, the shallowest of niceties.
>thigh tats>paints his nailsMaybe
that's why. I take men painting their nails as a red flag now, especially if there is nothing else feminine about them. It sucks that this is going on in a place of education. Men don't deserve college. To them, it's just a place to harass women. He's probably always been a sex pest. Can't you report him? I wonder if he has a ton of money or something. I don't understand when the most grotesque of men get so much love and attention when they are the biggest walking red flags in the area. In my experience, even the most outwardly rapey moids I've met in school have at least one female orbiter, how does this happen?!
No. 1512233
>>1512216I'm so glad you understand. Yeah, I think maybe subconsciously women think that defending/befriending these predators will prevent them from becoming future prey. I think a lot of women also buy into the lie that women accuse men of rape falsely because of jealousy or something. I think it comes from a place of not wanting to believe that it could really be this bad, that misogyny runs so deep even through men that appear """safe""" on the outside (i.e, not a literal homeless person in a bush). I think it breaks a lot of peoples' worldviews to discover that a conventionally attractive man can be just as much of a degenerate rapist as an ugly brutish one.
About reporting him, I wanted to. But ultimately, the thing he did that would actually catch university attention, the actual tangible sexual assault, is my friends' choice to report and not mine. He ended up texting her pleading her not to "because she'll ruin his life" (kek, I wish that would happen but realistically it wouldn't). I don't know if this had an effect on her because I think she already didn't want to before he sent that. She seemed humiliated to talk about with the school. I think she didn't want to have to see or interact with him ever again and was afraid it could lead to that. I told her that it could be anonymous and everything, that she almost certainly would not have to face him if she didn't want to, but this didn't budge her at all. I always try to reassure her but she's really against it for now
No. 1512246
>>1512227This is currently why I'm planning to break up and move out of me and my boyfriend's apartment in a few weeks. He's become so dull and boring it's insane, and thinks watching Netflix with me is spending quality time together, because in his words, we've apparently got nothing left to talk about so might as well just watch something in silence. A few months ago I suggested a breakup already because I took this disinterest as him not being in love with me anymore. He was shocked and cried because he could not stand the idea of living without me, but I'm like how? He barely looks at me or talks to me. No sex, because I don't want to sleep with someone who takes me for granted, so I can't even pin his panic on the idea of losing access to intimacy which I guess is most men's reason for keeping a partner they don't love around.
I truly think most men have to make a sincere effort to be interesting, or else they just go into this vegetative, half-depressed state where they take everything for granted, yet still somehow expect people to want to be around them. Since I mentioned that I wanted to break up he's made no effort to change and will probably feel blindsided when I actually go through with it. Fuck him.
No. 1512274
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>>1512263Please love yourself nonna. Seriously though, having that much diarrhea is bad for you. Make sure you replenish your elecrolytes and drink extra water if you're resigned to instant coffee shits.
Anyways I can only ever be interested in media if it'a horror-themed and it's pretty annoying. It just doesn't hold my interest if it's not spooky or otherwise dark and fucked up. I probably am missing out on good video games because of this but I can't help it.
No. 1512287
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>>1512263Is it this one? My sister and I loved this as kids but only got it once or twice cause it gave us the shits lol
No. 1512294
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>>1512274>>1512287yea I know I'm trying to drink as much water as I can, some lemon juice with salt too. I know I will eventually need to stop bc I don't want to ruin my guts permanently lol, maybe I will just start from drinking less, like a few per week instead of a few per day, and then once per week etc.
>>1512287no I mean like coffee sachets, especially maxwell house with powdered milk and sugar which makes it even worse, I have like 3 of those a day kek
No. 1512336
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I'm going to a cousin's religious wedding in a few weeks and I'm really not looking forward to it. I dodged her first wedding with her now ex husband (but went to the religious celebration before that one) but I'm not getting out of that one. I hate having to waste an entire Sunday in a shithole among dozens of retarded muslims for a cousin I talked to like 5 times in my entire life. What can I do to pass time once I'll be there?
No. 1512349
>>1512336consider leaving without telling anyone shortly after saying hello to the bride and a couple other people.
if that's not possible then hide out somewhere at the venue. the kitchen is usually good.
No. 1512356
>>1512349Can't do that, they decided to celebrate everything in another region that's 2h away from where I live, and I don't have a car or a driver licence because I really don't need either. My father will drive everyone there and I'll only go back home once everyone agrees to go back home.
>if that's not possible then hide out somewhere at the venue. the kitchen is usually good.I'll try that. I have no idea how the venue will be though.
No. 1512364
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>meet scrote
>extremely boring like most scrotes
>he keeps trying to steer the conversation to sex, I’m not offended by sex talk I’m just bored of it.
>I tell him he’s not good at conversation
>goes on a rant about how women only want him for what he has and not him as a person
>gets frustrated and calls me an ugly nigger(I’m half black)
I feel kind of icky thinking about how 3 years or so ago I’d be the kind of person to have empathy and give scrotes a chance or try to reject them with dignity. Now I see why Stacy’s will bluntly call scrotes ugly to their face and reject them.
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>>1512364More from his rant
No. 1512380
>>1511424>>1511404beautiful chickens, i am so sorry for your loss. animals have such deep and strong energies, we have been taught that livestock animals are less worthy than dogs and cats but its not true at all. its not 'just chickens' theyre living beings who you have formed great bonds and relationships with, let yourself love them and grieve them. i hope the rest of your flock make it out okay, sending love
nonnie.
No. 1512471
>>1512096I don't know how plump you're talking, but try this moisturizer maybe?
https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B07519S8RF/ref=ppx_yo_dt_b_search_asin_title?ie=UTF8&psc=1It plumped me up too much for my liking so I quit using it, but a little goes a long way. Whatever you do, don't get dermal fillers- they're expensive and essentially permanent, even the so-called temporary ones, so there's no going back to baseline as what once was incorrectly believed. It just migrates and flattens, sometimes causing swelling in the face, which can be detected via MRI sometimes even 10 years after, and the dissolving agent isn't exactly a solution either because it can't tell the difference between your natural HA and synthetic HA from filler so just kind of "dissolves" the underlying tissue and leaves people with more wrinkles and crepe-y skin. I've gone on quite the tangent, but I can offer sources to back up my claims if needed. Just saying because someone's likely to naively recommend them to you and I want to inform as many people as possible because even a lot of dermatologists these days are still ignorant about the issue.
No. 1512476
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i hate that if a woman does absolutely anything online especially on those stupid reels on Instagram the comment section is usually always so negative and full of misogyny. like a woman could just do nothing minding their own business and moids will still always somehow find a way to be sexist and comment hate for no reason. And it’s never the case if were to be a guy in them instead.
i thought tiktok was worse with this kind of crap but if you’ve seen the comment sections on most Instagram reels they are even worse. i honestly should just delete that shitty app at this point.
No. 1512575
>>1512246Nta, just curious,
nonnie, was he different before? I had an ex similar to your bf and after the breakup, I realized he was just as apathetic before we started dating, although he did behave slightly different at the start of the relationship as they usually do…it's just that I'd known him before and, in hindsight, it was silly to expect something else. I don't really know why I'm telling you this lol, but your post just reminded me of that experience and it made me think that women tend to make this mistake, when we simply overlook a major flaw, (sub)consciously hoping that it will change for some reason, and it never does. We should be way way pickier even though it's already hard enough to pick, sigh
No. 1512592
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I only got to leave my a/c unplugged for a couple of months before having to plug it back in. I'm miserable. It's already close to 90 daily, all the shitty pest bugs are back, and I'm cranky as shit. The worst part is that it's only going to get hotter from here until no part of the day is bearable at all and it lasts for months on end. Fuck Spring and fuck Summer. I don't enjoy being sweaty, I don't enjoy the harsh sunlight that stays until 9pm and I don't enjoy the hustle and bustle of everyone being on vacation and having to deal with idiot tourists when I'm just trying to work. Where are my fellow warm weather haters?
No. 1512596
>>1512351Well nonnies I’m back and im confused as hell and upset and feel like I basically got nowhere but still have so much work to do. I want to share my experience so you can tell me if it’s normal or give advice or just in case you were wondering: spent hours on the phone with the officer so im gonna try to keep this short. He asked me to establish sort of how the relationship was. I told him about some stuff that I could have swore was counted as financial abuse and a lot of emotional and physical abuse. I had various instances of physical abuse I wrote about but only a few were written about from the city we lived in last so he was saying there’s not really much there for them to consider. He said I should call the 2 other cities we lived in to report the physical abuse I have written journals about to them. He was saying that it didn’t seem like there was a whole lot even though there were 2 reports that support evidence for what I told him. But because I wasn’t outright assaulted those times the police came he’s saying they might not mean anything for evidence. He was saying he can only really count things that were strictly physical or sexual assault.
I detailed some rapes to him and he was asking if the perp was 100% sure I’m his own mind that it wasn’t consensual. I tried to explain he’d have to be brain dead not to know he was raping me but basically he said if when he calls the perp he indiciates that he thinks it could have potentially been consensual then I’m fucked. WTF I’m so confused. I thought you could have people prosecuted for domestic abuse? Even if it wasn’t physical, which mine was. I thought keeping someone from being able to work or open accounts with violence and threats etc counted as financial abuse? Is it just because we aren’t married so I can’t do anything about domestic abuse and it has to be separate isolated assaults? Why are we in a relationship enough that me saying the sex wasn’t consensual isn’t enough, but somehow not in a relationship enough for literally any of the torture he put me through to matter?
Also I have a few people I had told about specific instances and one who was trying to help me get into a shelter for months but he basically said that if all they do is corroborate that I told them things on certain dates then that’s basically worthless?? He said they basically needed to have seen me be assaulted for it to matter? What? How is it not helpful for multiple people to have logs of us talking doesn’t that prove that I am not just suddenly making this all up? I swear to god this stuff has been used in DV cases was that all fantasy??? Can you actually not do anything about domestic abuse? Nonnas please respond I’m a burger btw
No. 1512630
>>1512372>Calls you a nigger>I'm not like other guys!Can't believe you pulled such a stud
nonny! How old is this retard anyway? I'm guessing mid 20s or early 30s kek
No. 1512633
>>1511868>>1512309Dear
nonnie, I'm ok! I'm really touched that you remember me, but please don't worry, it's pretty safe here in Kyiv. They still launch drones and missiles sometimes into the city but much less than in autumn and our air defense has been working great. Plus, we don't even get power outages anymore. I wish there was a way for me to report to you directly, haha, because tbh I feel kinda awkward reminding of myself here and turning that dead war thread into my blog, I just don't want it to look like I want to get attention from it, especially considering that comparatively I've indeed been one of the luckiest
(damn I'm actually scared to utter these words this boldly kek if universe is hearing this pls be kind to me) I'm probably repeating myself, but anyways I hope you notice my reply and I hope you're doing fine yourself, sending you hugs ♥
No. 1512656
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Just remembered that FtM girl in my highschool, who, with her stupid toddler looking, binder wearing, 5'1 never passing stupid self asking me about if I saw that another girl in our class had huge breasts. I Wanted to slap her goblin face so much and I still does for commenting like that about another women's body in public. Useless bitch also the girl was pretty in an timeless elegant way, what a cope
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>am right about an investment (no not crypto); it goes up 10x~ in a few days
>only put a little bit of money into it
>just make, like, 200$
>each time feels like a loss
>not once have any of my calls - which are very play-it-safe - lost me money
>keep on being too fearful to put in anything more
I'm guessing that the first time I get brave I'll end up losing money, kek.
No. 1512747
>>1512708Nta but they're unaware. A male friend of mine who's been using dating apps told me to try them so he could see how many matches I'd get and when I got 100+ in a few hours and the guys seemed interested in actually dating instead of fucking, most wrote like a few paragraphs as first messages and stuff, he got really mad. A lot of men know we get more attention but they don't know how much attention we get.
Though I disagree that ugly and fat girls also get matches because I've seen some anons in dating app thread and some women on these apps who get little to no matches aside from men who swipe right on everyone and then don't message back the girls they dislike. Either that or those anons put some super weird stuff in their bios.
No. 1512758
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homophobic ex-friend popped into my mind with a memory i repressed. when i was like 10 i was trying to talk about politics with her. i loved her very much, she was smart, passionate about animal rights, and happy and driven. she was older than i am so i thought she would have her own opinions and we could discuss or debate something. then turned out she was more childish than i was and she even got uncomfortable when i mentioned gay rights. and i was very passionate about this and ranted about how people live in fear because of being gay. she said something like "as they should, it's disgusting" and i did not believe it. i said then does she think they should get beat up or something? how would she feel? and she did not respond. i said homophobes should get beat up instead! then she asked something like am i normal, and am i threatening her? she never acted that weird so i was confused and choose to forgot. then she said she has a headache and i should go home. she did not come to school anymore but her classmates tried to beat me up soon after, and i was transferred schools. her mother told me to go to hell or something. i was not even gay you stupid cowardly cunt. i don't remember if her or her mother was the bigger homophobic in the end, but somehow my music teacher sent me away from his lesson lmao whatever i hated that old dickhead. why did she tell her mom though at age 14 i would not talk to my mom like hey my friend said gays should not deserve to be beaten to death what do i do!?!
i thought of messaging her friends and boss about her homophobia but that country is still homophobic as hell even 10 years later so
picrel because it would probably make her cry
No. 1512763
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genuinely at my lowest point. im in my last semester at this college i hate for a major i regret and i just cant do it. im so behind in all of my classes (literally only 4) and i have no clue what's going on. in theory id graduate this may but at this point i'd be shocked if that happened.
it sucks to waste 4 years of time and money like this but im just mentally at my breaking point. my college put me on the "urgent" mental health list and they got me medicated real quick (antidepressants and some sort of sleeping pill) but i can't even tell if theyre working. ive used up every resource my school gave me and i think my professors are sick of me. i don't know. the worst part is ive been trying to catch up but im too slow and everything else is too fast. thank god spring break is soon because im about to LOSE IT.
No. 1512785
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>started learning japanese with my friend on our first trip years ago
>go through big effort trying to teach her as i learn, she retains nothing, doesn't study on her own
>get to japan, she can't even read packages in katakana to buy konbini snacks, tries to repeat after me and tells people gibberish, misunderstands people and creates awkward situations
>start just telling people in japanese that she doesn't speak japanese so they don't try talking to her
>tries to do karaoke, cries when she realizes she can't do it because she doesn't know the words to songs she loves and has been singing gibberish all these years and can't read fast enough off the screen to keep up
>second trip comes around, she swears again she's going to really study and learn, i try again to teach her now that i know a little bit
>instead, she watched naruto to "study" and picked up one useless word ("fast")
>continue telling people that she can't speak japanese, she at least can't keep up with what i'm saying enough anymore to repeat me incorrectly
>she cries again at karaoke because she still has not learned the lyrics
>about to go on third trip
>i'm now confident in my basic proficiency at least in the specialized areas i need, starting to build a little, getting compliments from japanese people
>she's playing persona 5 in japanese to study
>test her today by holding up a bag that says "rice" in very clear and easy to read hiragana
>"n-no anon i just d-don't wanna read it right now"
>ends up admitting she's forgotten any hiragana she's learned
>but it's okay, she retained enough katakana to read some character names on a sanrio box in front of her weeb friends and impress them
>still karaoking, still doesn't know the lyrics, is going to cry again
>picrel mfw
No. 1512804
>>1512800yeah, i was trying to be short about it and ideally humorous, but i guess it lacks the context that she's just a crybaby who sets herself up for failure. i've tried telling her to get classes on her own or recommending apps but she only wants me to teach her, even though i don't know enough to be qualified to teach anyone. at the same time, she was bragging to me the day she couldn't read the bag about reading the sanrio box to impress her friends. she bragged about singing one of the songs she likes to karaoke in front of her weeb friends here without having to read the words, but that's because she doesn't actually know the words and won't admit that. she thinks she can do all these things but then can't when the time comes that she has to and melts down over it. at this point, i'm just trying to get her to accept her lack of knowledge so she stops being upset that she can't meet the goals she set for herself then never worked towards.
>>1512801i do go alone as well as with her. this will be the third trip with her over the span of almost a decade, how does that translate to a phase? how can i avoid translating if we go to a restaurant and have to use a japanese menu or order in japanese or order a taxi and they don't have an english alternative? no offense nona but you're the big dumb
No. 1512828
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>>1510450late but yeah, i was also against generalizing all men until i actually went out and started interacting with men. i think it requires a certain softening of one's mind (soft =/= stupid, soft = accepting) as a woman to remain around men at length without getting pissed off.
barring the most feminized hsts, you will always suffer their casual misogyny ('i hate women haha', onlyfans jokes, references to whatever porn they're jerking off to, defense of other misogynistic men, subtle to severe attraction to gender roles – etc.)
it's like i'm in a d&d server, right? we're talking female-run societies and a moid immediately starts posting coomer shit like picrel. he hears 'empowered woman' and his mind goes to this. nobody calls him out on it, a few woman cheer and say the coomer-orientated doodle is a "girlboss". it's maddening
No. 1512829
>>1512822The only reason you’re
triggered is because you know what was said is true and you care about what people on lolcow think kek
No. 1512830
>>1512829girl you were the one
triggered enough to start psychoanalyzing me and you're doing it unsaged every time. i'm just reporting you and moving on now, there's nothing to be gained in a slapping contest with a retard. sorry your post didn't get picked.
No. 1512843
>>1512815Nta but this is exactly how you treat your friend isn't it
>>1512817>she's definitely the my melody to my kuromiInsufferable
>>1512830>sorry your post didn't get pickedThis is such a stupid thing to get hung up on, other anon was right you're annoying and narcissistic. But we're just jealous we've never been to glorious Nippon three (3) times
No. 1512845
>>1512843i mean, you could use your eyes and read the posts where i explained the situation, or you could just be salty. you give me another reason why that anon was so hell-bent on dragging me for their misinterpretation of the situation if not those two options? like anyone lurking in this thread isn't just waiting for a response to something they posted, c'mon. sorry this also
triggered you for some reason.
No. 1512868
>>1512867Fuck em haters, keep doing you,
Nonnie!
No. 1512872
>>1512868Thanks
nonny. They're currently dogpiling me but they don't know I'll keep going until they stop and after that.
>>1512870You post about something you like and then a few bitter anons have to pop up and bitch about it and weigh in their opinions (which were completely uncalled for). I don't care about what they think and I'm not going to stop liking something just because anons are seething about it. It's funny how they only reply to you if they hate what you like.
No. 1512937
>>1512926Yes it makes no sense. I post an attractive man in the attractive men thread and nonnies instantly jump on the hate train, and why? Well, I've explained why a dozen times at this point so I'm not going to go into detail. Along with anons hating anyone who likes men outside of what they personally find attractive, I know for a fact there are some anons who jump from thread to thread solely for the purpose of making judgemental replies. I've seen it myself.
>Just don't give them the time of day to respond to their postsThe only reason I responded to anons in the IRL husbando thread is because I want to be able to post someone I find attractive without getting dogpiled each time. If I argue with them once I won't have to argue again. And now I have multiple anons agreeing with me on his attractiveness.
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Finally told my bf about my drinking problem and he didn’t seem to care in the slightest. I hate asking for help and opening up about stuff like this so it really fucking hurts. Fuck. Why does nobody care until you overdose or end up hospitalized or some shit?
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This will sound silly, but I truly feel like you nonas are the people that I’m closest with in my life. I feel like I can tell you guys anything because you don’t know who I really am, and it feels freeing. So, thank you.
Anyways. I’m currently speedrunning life right now, or it feels that way to me at least. I started driving like less than two months ago and I’m planning to get my license this month. I don’t think I’ll pass because last weekend I drove with my husband at night and made a left turn into the opposite lane. I’m just generally really anxious on the road still. I’m putting a lot of pressure on myself to get my license and buy a car so my husband and I can finally move out of his parents place and into our own house. I also have to start thinking about college, and what I want to major in and where. All of these opportunities that I didn’t have three months ago are suddenly available to me and I’m nauseated with how overwhelming it all is. Sometimes I wish I was smarter and could handle my depression and anxiety better so that I wouldn’t let myself get to this point. Sometimes I wish I was someone else, someone more capable of handling whatever life throws at them.
It’s all so tiresome, nonas. But at least I have you all.
No. 1513026
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>be me
>meet up with moid who I've known for a while
>cuddle at his place
>we start making out
>he gets horny
>try to tell him to continue watching a TV show so that I don't leave him with blue balls again because I refuse to fuck someone who I'm not in a relationship with
>"but nona don't you like it? I just want to make you feel good"
>continue making out
>I leave him with blue balls again and he gets moody
>tells me it's better for me to leave because he's horny now
Fuck this, I should've known. I've meet up and cuddled with him many times before and he always reassured me that we'd go my pace and he was never pushy before. I could punch him in the face for basically telling me to either fuck him or get out of his house. I'm gonna put him on blast the next time my friends ask about him so that he never gets laid again.
No. 1513043
>>1513040Where did I say that I wasn't interested in dating him? I was but I wanted to take things slow and not have this turn into a FWB thing, hence why I told him I won't fuck someone who I'm not in a relationship with.
>>1513038Nah I get it
nonny, I'm glad he wasn't violent at least. The only reason why I ever had hope was because my friends have known him for years and told me that he's a good guy.
No. 1513048
>>1513043Why did you make out with a guy that you're not dating yet? Don't you usually settle things and go on a few dates outside before you usually do this shit?
He doesn't seem to be interested in dating, find someone else.
No. 1513055
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they finally kicked out the troon pregnancy LARPer from my local pregnancy/mom fb group. some handmaidens complained it was transphobic and he wasn't hurting anyone. i'm not sorry i don't want some stank-ass agp with shitty eyeliner and a diaper fetish getting free fap material, jessica. he can go write about his butt baby on twitter with the rest of the hons.
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Reeee i'm not sure if i broke my ankle or not and it's driving me crazy. There was a big snap and it feels weird especially when i kind of twist my foot but i don't want to go to the hospital only to hear my ankle isn't broken. Going up and down the stairs is extremely uncomfortable but the first few steps i take are okay??? I hate it i hate it i hate it
No. 1513235
>>1513063Thank you so much
nonnie, reading that helped me to calm down a bit. I ordered some compression gauze, bless you
No. 1513239
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how the fuck did I get new wrinkles overnight. I'm trying to accept aging gracefully bla bla but I didn't know I could just wake up one day with deep ass nasolabial folds
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it’s rare that an experience in a school pisses me off but a retard with a bowl cut laughed at a documentary about genocide and i delight in knowing he will fare poorly in life
i will never understand why so many british parents raised spoiled, insubordinate fucking retards and then burden the school system with them. keep them home if they have no drive or ambition.
what’s the point in wasting my time teaching kids who will just be smoking weed on their mums couch on the dole in a few years from now when there are so many brilliant and gifted children who want to flourish?
they need to bring back behaviour units instead of trying to forcibly educate children who don’t want to learn
No. 1513274
I hate how toxic coworkers and bosses can literally ruin a job. It started out okay, but then I experienced workplace mobbing. I would dread going to work and would sometimes cry venting to my partner. I had to open a case with HR because there was harassment against me (verbal and nearly physical). It was so bad it got to the point where HR made me move to another position temporarily. It’s been months and the investigation is nearly over, but I just had someone told me that those nasty dipshits may still be there and that I’m going to have to just “ignore it, be professional, and continue doing my job”. Yeah right, I turned the other cheek for months and tried to focus strictly on my job, but I couldn’t get work done because my immature coworkers that act like middle-schoolers refused to work with me in what’s a very team-oriented job. And it also was draining hearing them gossip to people in other departments about how “bad” I was. Honestly, I don’t want to go back to such a toxic workplace where I know my coworkers are going to continue to hate me and mess up my shit (I had things in my cubicle broken and stuff thrown out). I know it’s important to focus on mental health and that there’s jobs in other locations, but ugh I can’t help but feel weak and it’s sad that this is the reason why I may have to quit. The job was decent, this is what I went to school for, but the people are just insane. I wish I wasn’t feeling so shitty and guilty.
No. 1513281
>>1512949I’m so sorry Nonna. Same exact story for me except 4 years. There is light at the end of the tunnel.
This is why I don’t date anymore.
No. 1513289
>>1513280Kek and how would women love other women according to him? By squishing their boobs together, giggling like idiots and talking about make-up like yuri anime girls?
This reminds me of a male friend that once told me that he felt more in touch with his feminine side because he grew up with his mom alone, and this feminine side of his included consuming pedoish incest porn, writing weird porn, defending incels and spouting sexist bullshit like "women are supposed to be the ones to take care of men because they're softer".
No. 1513312
>>1513241have you ever stepped back to think about how teaching might not be for you?
i get being frustrated with kids but calling one of your students a retard is pretty fucking sad imo.
No. 1513314
>>1512785I actually feel kind of sorry for your little weeb friend. Sounds like she has anxiety or autism or something and should get help with that first, it might help her learn to study better when she can manage whatever's going on behind the scenes.
I'm gonna drop a resource or two here that's good for beginners. So easy that even a spergy weeb can get it.
1. Hiaragana and Katakana SRS APP:
https://nihongo-e-na.com/ios/eng/id846.html2. IRODORI Japanese Beginner Courses (free):
https://www.irodori-online.jpf.go.jp/?utm_source=Tofugu3. Wanikani Kanji Learning (SRS again):
https://www.wanikani.com/4. Kanji worksheets (they even have them categorized by Wanikani lessons, which I suggest she print and use while simultaneously learning on Wanikani):
https://kanji.sh/writeObviously it's not going to be enough to help her in a short period of time, but if she's serious about learning even in the least, it's a great place to start. She has to want to learn for herself and not just for the trip, though. Otherwise i'd suggest she just learn basic hiragana and common phrases to use while there.
No. 1513336
>>1513314>>1513318Sorry I can't stfu but like, I have a little brother who was inspired by me to start learning Japanese and he's been taking online tutoring sessions for around 2+ years and still hasn't progressed much past a rudimentary level, but won't admit his mistakes and thinks i'm looking down on him when i'm just offering helpful advice and corrections. I've figured that his deal is that he wants to impress strangers whom are easily impressed by a foreigner speaking Japanese (like those annoying ass "white person speaks x language, shocks locals" youtubers) because when I offer advice, he gets defensive and says that it's enough that they get the jist of what he's trying to say and he doesn't need to speak "perfect" Japanese. While it doesn't need to perfect, I don't want him to be halfassing it and fishing for easy compliments, he at least needs to make an attempt to come correct imo. He doesn't break down crying but I see through his excuses and sometimes feel frustrated when he tells me someone complimented his Japanese and said he sounds native… not realizing that Japanese "Nihongo jouzu" practically everyone. Although I was never nihongo jouzu'd during my trip, but I did get an OHASHI JOUZU which made me chuckle. Another time, a waiter in a Royal Host asked me if I was French (because all blonde foreigners are Russians or French, I guess).
Another thing- since she seems anxious, maybe try telling her it's not a competition to catch up with you since obviously you've been studying for longer, and the whole learning together thing isn't working out. Just because someone is decent in Japanese, it's obviously not the same as having the skill to teach, which can even be said for one's own native language.
No. 1513338
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I relapsed and did nicotine for the first time in 3 months and I’m not even feelin the buzz
No. 1513388
>>1513018Good luck
nonnie, I'm proud of you
No. 1513393
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>>1512503I am 26 and i feel the same way. I can't complain too much because my worst area used to be my forehead and now i haven't had a pimple there in 5 years and I feel really good about it. It's not even just about the aesthetic it's the fact that you have to buy all these products just so you don't get clogged pores, meanwhile people with no acne brag about their 1 bar of soap they barely use. Life isn't fair.
No. 1513398
>>1513393Are you sure your acne isn't hormonal or dietary?
Ironically for me my skin calmed down around the same time I stopped throwing crap at it every night because I got sick and tired of it not doing shit anyway but that may have just been coincidence idk
No. 1513431
>>1513088What went wrong,
nonnie? What happened?
No. 1513469
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Nonnies need to stop replying to the obvious BPD-chan that keeps samefagging in this thread, kek. I do feel sorry for her autist weeb friend though. Autists tend to attract assholes.
No. 1513556
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Sometimes I just want to embrace self destruction. Purposely get totally lost in my bulimia, stick to my shitty part time gig job, waste money, get obsessed with new men knowing they'll fuck me over, be terminally online, and pretend I'm a teenager with no responsibilities.
Do I have any responsibilities, though? Do I owe anyone getting a real job or an education? I never want kids or marriage so who cares? I'm kinda living like Kiki is and I want to remain that way. Sometimes I'll think "nooo I'm 26 I gotta hurry and get my shit together because…" because what? I don't even know. There's no reason. I tried studying and it made me miserable. I tried a full time job and I wanted to die. I tried not being bulimic and it was very boring and I missed my precious binges. I just want to be free and act as retarded as I want.
No. 1513620
>>1513556ngl I have this urge all the time too. Like yes!!!! I wanna talk to my evil
toxic ex-friend that fucked me over!! she was fun and made me laugh even though she tried or did framed me as a child molester. Like yes I wanna get men's attentions and hang out with them, screw around in a shitposty way even though objectively they don't deserve to be near me
No. 1513626
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>>1513556>>1513620yooo this is the vibe. i'm 25, dropped out of 2 majors. working my way through minimum wage jobs where they don't respect us at all and none of them seem to be aware that we are pinned against each other and are being ripped off, kills me. i am starving myself to save money. literally in pain daily from the physical demands. cancelled all of my subscriptions and memberships. started drinking again. but i wish it was w3ed instead. i do. i imagine myself back in freshman year, fantasizing about a hedonism maxxed life i did not have.
oh to wake and bake, hang around with friends playing videogames and talking shit, doing fuckall but browsing youtube compilations and memes. having
toxic tinder hookups, eating junk and cake constantly, jacking off, joking around at parties and cruising around our city… dye my hair 4 different colours, get tattoos, piercings, spend all of my money on new outfits, merch and metal gigs.
No. 1513630
>>1513626>oh to wake and bake, hang around with friends playing videogames and talking shit, doing fuckall but browsing youtube compilations and memes. having toxic tinder hookups, eating junk and cake constantly, jacking off, joking around at parties and cruising around our city… dye my hair 4 different colours, get tattoos, piercings, spend all of my money on new outfits, merch and metal gigs.God I want a friend group like that with no muh studies or muh wedding or muhhh girlboss clean girl wannabe all beige outfit wearing-rich girl aspirations. And no I don't want to "meet up for coffee", I want to hang out at your place and talk shit while petting your cat and eating snacks. I distanced myself from my last friends because they were busy trying so fucking hard to be classy wine moms in their early 20s.
No. 1513707
>>1513626>i imagine myself back in freshman year, fantasizing about a hedonism maxxed life i did not haveI do this too. I fantasize about being in the middle of my teenage years again and having a gaming pc where I can screw around with my moid friends I used to have, hell even better I could time travel and bring back the
toxic group of girl friends I used to have and game with them instead, gaming, being stupid and making each other laugh with insults, laugh so hard we can't breathe like we used to. Go out to places too with them, bar hop at bars that look like raves inside, stay at a run down shitty hotel at the beach and play around in the sand, splashing water at each other and partying like worthless no goods. to equally shit eletronic music. go out shopping at large malls and overspend money, have lots of big shopping bags hanging off our hands and arms, shoulder. be idiots at all hours of the late night and early morning….. ahhhhh.
FUCK. We could've had it all.
Why does having mentally healthy, successful friends sound like such a pain in the ass to be friends with???? I know they would be way better people to befriend but fuck I can't help but be attracted to the insulting, degrading jokes at your expense types. The former sounds boring.
No. 1513709
>>1513702>At what age will I magically get over it and become worthy of love and care?Usually this won't happen on its own. If you are very good at "forgetting" you can get close but there are always reminders. If you can kill the person who molested you that actually works okay but it could ruin your life. If you can undergo some sort of therapy that puts the events that traumatized you in the past so you aren't constantly on guard like a PTSD
victim that works too. Always remember you are worthy of love and care, and don't be afraid to be angry at people who disrespect you and treat you poorly.
No. 1513712
>>1513626>and cruising around our city I literally love this part so much too omg. Mess around, joke about whatever is on our minds without offense, without having to consider if one person or the other will be offended or not. Not walking on eggshells. Just being generally stupid and freeflowing in the car browsing in the city, the lights of the tall buildings falling into the car and moving, becoming smaller as we drive by. Staring up out of the window at all the skyscrapers with colorful lights on them and some windows lit. Talk about whatever is on our minds with no limits. eat junk ass fast food, smoke cigs and w3ed. we each take a turn putting on our own music. Listening to good music together. do whatever our hearts desire even though we're a
toxic group of friends. But at least there's no moids, only just us girls.
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Nonnas, I am so stressed out and tired that I feel like I am going to explode.
It took me 2 months to finally be almost done with an art project, and I started asking for opinions about the designs and the people who are not even going to consume it, let alone ever see it are giving me the opinions that I do not like. Suddenly, assymetrical design is not their cup of tea (even if its a tiny detail), but looking at it more, it actually looks super nice! Oh no no, i want the design to be this. No, it doesn't look boring, it looks nice because it appeals to my coomerism. Fuck you!!
And the kitten keeps being a pain in the ass lately. After all, i can tell she is clearly bored. But she almost accidentally put herself in a huge, terrible danger and I had to rescue her asap.
And oh god, how am i tired of being the only one taking care of the place. It's such a damn thankless job!! I clean, i do laundry, i cook, i do everything. But no, not even a single thank you or acknowledgement that hey, i did it! I am so sick, i am so tired!! I want to rip my head off and have a drink!!
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Men are poisoning schoolgirls in Iran to halt their education. This is going to make me get off lolcow and study more chem.
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AHHH I need to save money but every time I try, I have to spend it on health related stuff. I have health insurance but it covers fuck all and all gyno's here are private doctors and you have to pay over one hundred euros out of your own pocket just for a regular appointment. I'm so close to cancelling my appointment but I was lucky enough to even get one because most won't even take new patients ugh
No. 1513910
>>1513709>>1513749Thanks nonas, I really really appreciate that. Like, really truly. I love you nonas who come into the vent thread to say nice things to those of us who are hurting.
>Try to imagine how you would treat a child who's been through the same things you have.This is helpful actually but I guess not in the way you meant. If you put a traumatized child in front of me I would have no clue what to do and probably just freeze up. No wonder I can't self-soothe, I literally don't know how. Maybe I should work on that instead of constantly dwelling on something that's currently out of reach? I'll give it a shot.
No. 1513991
>>1513697hot brown haired white guy? have you been here much?
the dumbasses here are too busy being hopeless and miserable dating obese aloof
abusive malformed ill-health broken-dick "men" and stacey-larping their lives away online
No. 1513994
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I think I'm fine, but then I get on Twitter and see girls like me, who are into alt fashion and all this other stuff, with a ton of friends they engage with all over their posts, and I get lonely again. How does that even happen? How do I make friends with people like myself? Is it my location? I'm always so isolated, even when I'm outside, touching grass.
No. 1514029
>>1514009pretty much what
>>1514015 says, plus on a personal level ill say that im kind of a dumbass but im interested in learning about all sorts. the way you spoke about christianity doesn't make sense to someone who isn't already invested in the topic i.e history/theologyfags. basically you gotta explain things a bit more in a way people will understand so that you can accurately convey tje sense of excitement you get from learning about this
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I HATE how wide my hips and ribs are!! Sure, they give me an hourglass figure which I guess is fine, but that is the only positive. It is hard to find clothes, and most items that sit around the waist look like they're too small and that I have the weirdest muffin top because of the way my ribs look. I will always look fat because of them and I hate it so fucking much and I hate that I can't do anything about it. Being tall and having most of my height in my torso doesn't help either, I fucking hate my body so fucking much I want to cry.
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Oh my god Twitter stop showing me retarded shit from people I don’t follow, piece of shit bird app . I hate it here
No. 1514094
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I feel exceptionally retarded because the more I long for human connection the more I isolate myself. This week I ended a 5+ year long relationship due to my own avoidance-related instability and I left most of my friend groups, including one I was particularly attached to/active in. I might sound like a total attention whore but I expected some sort of message like "are you alright?" from some of these people, but the fact that my sudden disappearence didn't rise any concerns only tells me that I never mattered to begin with. The only person that noticed (the aforementioned person I broke up with) got mad at me and right now I want to kms more than ever, I have no one anymore and it's all my fault. And even if I had somebody, I would avoid them and isolate myself even more.
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I need to learn humility before it's too late. And I have to stop using lolcow, it's really negative.
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I'm in one of those times when nothing is really wrong but everything is wrong. I wanna talk to someone about it, but I don't even know what I'd say. I just feel like little things are fucking me up, almost making me cry, and I feel like there's some deeper issue with me but I can't figure it out. I can't really afford therapy right now so IDK. I hate whining and trauma dumping but every time I bottle it in I definitely get worse. Even writing schizo wall of texts on image boards makes me feel better than saying nothing. I don't really know why I'm like this. Why can't I just ignore things that bother me and make my own peace with myself? Why can't I separate my feelings and self worth from garbage?
No. 1514243
>>1514240people always form parasocial relationships with me and then rip me off. A lot of artists are ripping off my ideas right now because I tried reaching out to them.
My entire life I've never had recogniton, love, money. Nothing. Not even empathy and I have had this brutal realization that the average person is incapable of empathy. It is always something condescending or self centered. I have never had a mature conversation with someone in which their empathy is not degrading.
No. 1514269
>>1514116Everything will be okay,
nonny. You are not alone, i understand doing things that are irrational, but for us it makes sense. Calm down, do something good for you like eating delicious food (not exaggerating, of course), do some exercise and just let yourself get better. It always pass, even if it hurts like hell.
No. 1514313
>>1514294It's retarded.
But I get you tbh, not from an Ana perspective though, sometimes thinking about what to cook is a pain in the ass, even for people with good relationships with food.
I don't even know how I could help you because sometimes I struggle with this and just eat whatever (not junk food, I just make something simple like a sandwich or a salad)
You could try making a menu with limited ingredients so you don't feel too overwhelmed, just make sure it has something like chicken or fish, lots of veggies like cucumber, lettuce, tomato, onion and zucchini, and a carb like a piece of integral bread toast, sweet potatoes, potatoes or some rice.
Buy powdered condiments, they're not too bad for a starter, and get some oil, you don't need to use too much.
Canned tuna and canned chicken are godsends because you don't have to worry about the stuff not being well cooked, and with oatmeal you can make tuna burgers.
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>>1514294hey anon, I'm in the exact same situation right now. My local grocery chain sells these prepackaged dinners you just stick in the oven and since they're fresh it's a good midpoint between home cooking and takeout, they have been my lifeblood for a bit now kek. Rotisserie chickens are also a good way to get some protein. But my biggest tip is to cook a LOT when you have the energy/motivation to cook. You can make a big pot of stew or curry, freeze half of it and eat off the other half for a few days. I do the same with rice, I freeze single serving portions and it reheats really well. Frozen meals are kind of gross but frozen microwavable vegetable mixes are pretty good, and some of them even have rice or couscous so it's more of a complete meal. Veggies like carrots, asparagus and broccoli can be easily baked in the oven with some olive oil.
I definitely don't come up with a set menu for every day. I just try to make sure I have stuff around the house that is easy or no prep. Sometimes dinner is a bowl of oatmeal, or a microwaved sweet potato and leftover rotisserie chicken, or rice with an egg and soy sauce, and that's fine. It's super important to eat even if it's not an ideal meal.
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>>1514009>>1514292>>1514107What the FUCK I'm also a historyfag! Don't get me started on the 1600's. Holy shit. A-are any of you on Discord or something, I wanna sperg about art history
No. 1514354
>>1514313>>1514322thank you nonnies for the suggestions and specific ideas seriously, i know it sounds simple but idk. when it comes to food i just get so retarded lol, i feel like an alien trying to understand what a human body needs to survive. idk why i've been thinking that i need to cook a whole meal in order to eat well. i really really appreciate you all, hugs
>>1514338oh my gosh, thank you so much!… just seeing these ideas is putting my mind at ease, you make it sound so simple and really it is. im gonna screenshot this and live off of it lolll. i feel so embarrassed now about posting my ana sperging earlier though, but tbh i'm grateful i did because you nonnies always have my back… thank you, thank you!! i shall now go eat something lol, and i wish you a very lovely evening
No. 1514379
>>1514369yeah I hate this too. It just comes across as condensed. Maybe part of it's me marinating in my misery but if any of these solutions work, wouldn't I be happier by now? It's worse when you hear it from people who you consider your friends who are trying to be nice about it, but you just want to smack them upside the head. My brain really is perma fucked for me not to have found better coping mechanisms by now, but can't I vent about it without the same mouthbreathing replies begging me to commit to things that just won't work or
toxic positivity
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They removed the dance dance revolution machine from the arcade and I started crying when I drove 45 mins there to play and realized it was gone. The other closest machine is 3 hours away. I love DDR so much idk what to do
No. 1514448
>>1514423You can try a home set up with a dance pad. Didn't work for me admittedly, I couldn't get it to stay stable on my floor but I also got the cheapest one I could find.
Or just play Stepmania to fill the void, it's fun and free at least even if it's not actually DDR.
No. 1514560
My “friends” completely ignore me yet have time to respond to this tranny they barely know. Seems like a small thing but I’m about done with them. I can’t stay in this friendship where I’m constantly second guessing how they really feel about me because of mixed messaging. It’s either intentionally cruel, or they are oblivious or careless about how their actions make me feel and in either case I don’t want to be around them anymore.
I don’t have many friends left. I’m supposed to move abroad next year (I’m pretty much forced to due to my complete inability to afford living here anymore) and then I’ll really have none, or I guess I’ll try to make new adult friendships, which are notoriously rare to find and maintain, so virtually, I’ll have none. Please don’t have kids if you’re a poorfag, they will lead lives like mine which will probably end up in pathetic suicide after a pitiful, painful failure of a life.
And I have to be up in 5 hours for a big important event where my top mental acuity is extremely important, yet I can’t sleep, its too late to take a sleeping pill, and all I can do is just lay here crying.
No. 1514576
>>1513991>>>1513697hot brown haired white guy? have you been here much?
the dumbasses here are too busy being hopeless and miserable dating obese aloof
abusive malformed ill-health broken-dick "men" and stacey-larping their lives away online
Nta but anons here are ugly obese/skelly mentally ill NEETS, who else were you expecting them to date?
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Industrial music is such a mess, i always regret exploring more artists just because i grow bored of the few decent ones i know.
When i browse for any other genre i don't really get anything so concerning and then BAM!
4/5 Industrial artists have some song called "asphyxiating my zombie dick with barbed wire as i march to war" and a list of allegations longer than Christmas time supermarket receipts.
Is it so hard to produce a couple of albums with that artificial GRRGURGRUCLALAKSSSKSKRR sound without posing as either nazis, misogynists or degenerates?
No. 1514632
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Imagine you're a man. What makes you think saying something like this to me was a good idea and it totally won't make me suspicious about you? Even if you wanted to be totally, completely ironic and meta. Just why?
No. 1514646
>>1514632delete him
sign his email up for mailbait
move on
laugh at scrote
report to lolcow
repeat
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I thought this was a Tim and my bf got mad at me cause I said she was unattractive then. He said he won’t participate talking about troops anymore to me because of this lol.
No. 1514707
>>1514704I should
nonnie, thanks.
No. 1514709
>>1514704samefag, your nigel is a nasty coomer who will leave you for one or troon out himself. leave him now.
your nigel is a coomer and your self worth is past the floor. report back when you've dumped the creature who actively treats you like a living breathing fleshlight.
you've been warned. ask sanic if you need backup
the farms say this is doomed, what do you say for yourself nona? did you want us to explain it away for you?
I love you. this is said through love and experience. sorry to be harsh but this is the truth you need.
again, I love you. I'm sorry.
No. 1514739
>>1514668put something nice and warm in his food for him, like a pipe bomb.
sorry to alog but moids are literally degrading every semblance of progress we've ever made. they're cooming us all into the grave, they can all fucking die off and we can finally live.
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Fail ninja is so disgusting. He goes to family friendly events and subjects people to his degenerate fetish. Likes to get stomped/ stood on.
(This is taken from an adult con so I suppose this is acceptable)
I hate how he subjects con goers to his degenerate fetish. Does he ask the girls who step on him if they’re of age? Why do the family friends cons allow him to attend, it enrages me that I’m subjected into seeing him act out his degenerate coomer riddled fetish. He’ll do it around children who have no idea what he’s actually doing. You know he has a hard on when he’s getting stomped on. I wish they would stomp his groin but I know it’d probably turn him on more. Fuck coomers man
No. 1514828
>>1514379i agree, it is condescending. it's treating you like you've just never tried before or like everything can be fixed if you follow really basic advice when in reality it isn't that simple, especially if you're not dealing with just feeling down but you're seriously depressed or you have circumstances in your life that would make anyone depressed. i already follow all the basic advice that people give anyway like keeping yourself and your space clean, exercising, eating well, spending time outside, journaling, whatever shit people suggest i'm already doing, and guess what? i've still been depressed for over a decade. and for some things hearing that advice makes me feel actively worse. like i already know my problems are my fault, i know i should be able to fix them, i keep it to myself because i'm ashamed because i feel its embarrassing and my fault then i finally talk about it and some idiot comes along and goes "well you can't expect to do the same thing and expect different results! you have to try to be happy and make friends!" like i know! i know i have to try harder and i know its my fault that i dont seem able to for some reason, the one time i try and explain how i feel i dont need someone to explain that its my fault and my responsibility! do you seriously think that's never occurred to me before?? i think about it every day! gaahhh it makes me want to scream.
No. 1514997
>>1514994Kek I feel terrible for laughing at this
>>1514986Anon, at least go to a doctor and see what's up before throwing your life away like that. Idk you personally or your symptoms, but as a hypochondriac I can say that sometimes a lot of things work out ok even when you think it's the worst case scenario. Don't freak out yet, because chances are you are okay.
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>>1514986Throat AND cervical cancer?! Did you drink river water in East Palestine Ohio recently?
No. 1515027
>>1514995I have HPV and haven’t lived a very healthy life, I’m still waiting for my biopsy for my cervical screening. It’s been a week and they haven’t contacted me yet.
I’m looking at my throat and it looks very infected ….
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>>1513630>>1513626>>1513707>>1513712i'm pushing ya'all around in a supermarket trolley, drunk at 4 am in a public park with everynonny who relates to the rebellious escapist-longing for a destrucvitely hedonistic dieyoung lifestyle
No. 1521721
Well, my ex and I were going to attempt to stay in civil contact and maybe be friends in the future but I've officially cut contact with him due to how to treats me when I do need to message him (I only message him if I need to like for legal stuff, which has been a slow ass progress) just a bit sad because we were together or many years but these things happen, it just feels weird because he was in my life for so long and during the pandemic he is all I had, we were engaged, moved around 3 times together and what not. He really wanted to have a kid and I'm so fucking thankful to myself that I always said no.
But I'm also upset because I had this friend of many years, she is not friends with my ex, has not seen him since she was 16, does not talk to him or anything and just a few days ago was asking me if I wanted to consider moving in together in a few months. I was ranting to her about my ex about very specific things I only told her and then I got a message about him from it. At the end of the day I get that if you message someone they can screenshot it and send it, but considering she's had nothing to do with him for years I just find it upsetting that she decided to contact him. I was talking to her an hour before hand and then bam she just blocked me on everything and I get the message from my ex. I don't even get why she told him because she isn't friends with him at all, never has been.