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No. 1094760

it do be like that sometimes

previous: >>>/ot/1086480

No. 1094773

I FUCKING HATE PEOPLE WHO USE A BUNCH OF PLASTIC-PACKAGED FACE MASKS AND LIP MASKS AND GENERAL BEAUTY PRODUCTS. Like just get something that works for you out of a bottle- sure they cause waste too but at least some are recyclable. not to mention those condom wrapped shits will only cause MORE problems for your skin because they're filled to the brim with fragrance.

No. 1094793

i dont feel so good

No. 1094800

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Do you ever hang out with a group of people and realise you never want to see any of them again
>go drinking with local ag club members last night
>only like six people there
>this rhino shaped moid a decade my senior keeps looking at/speaking to me directly in a group of six people and won’t leave me alone
>we all talk about school
>mention that I went to an all girls school
>starts asking me about whether I had any ~lesbian experiences~ just a little too eagerly for it to be a joke
>just spends all night in my face while the rest of the table are either sitting there doing nothing or embarrassing themselves in front of the entire bar and telling the most disgusting jokes I’ve ever heard
>meanwhile his horse girl fwb on the other side of the table is staring daggers at me because he’s talking to me instead of her
>mocks me for having a 9-5 because its “soft work” then cries about how she has to get up to milk the cows at 4 the next morning

No. 1094802

I have to pee so fucking bad and my dad won't get out of the bathroom god damn it

No. 1094803

>>1094802
Better get a cup, anon.

No. 1094809

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>put on makeup early for job interview
>went whole day with makeup on, some of it rubbed off etc
>didn't have time to reapply makeup before family function right after interview
>just got home
>look in the mirror
>picrel
Holy shit I can't believe I walked around and interacted with people while looking this crusty.
I'm used to matte foundation because I used to be an oil slick before I fixed my acne, but I guess now I'm old and dry so I need dewy foundation. I used primer too. Pisses me off.

No. 1094817

>>1094800
Omfg it's glep

No. 1094820

My dad thinks i hacked his phone to see his messages and don't stop bothering me about it and yes he's mentally ill.

No. 1094822

>>1094820
My cousin did the same and I blocked her

No. 1094842

Someone retweeted art from my NSFW Twitter. I was happy about it because no one ever does that so I checked their (NSFW) profile. First of all, they had an avatar from a BL game I liked. But in their bio it said that they're a shotafag. I checked their carrd and it turns out he's a gay male (not tranny) and calls himself a proshipper. He retweets lots of furry and gay coomer shit. But on the other hand I agreed with some of his opinions and I like that he says he "hates fake woke people". Then I read the rest of his carrd and he's also a lolifag and likes cub shit.
Well, fuck. Guess that's what I get for being a degen myself

No. 1094846

Ive just accepted ill never have any friends. I dont know what is wrong with me, but i have just accepted it at this point. I was so excited to go to anime expo but i dont think there’s any point anymore, its not like itll be anything for me besides me buying shit, waiting in lines awkwardly, and then going home after a couple hours. Everyone says to make friends online but that doesnt even fucking work for me, i used to not care about this because I could just throw myself into my hobbies but im so fucking depressed that i dont even like those anymore

No. 1094854

>>1094842
I wanna see your nsfw account anon

No. 1094856

>>1094822
so did my uncle and i blocked him.

No. 1094865

I'm so fucking annoyed I can't fix my sleeping pattern aaaa
I don't have any melatonin or shit like that
Fall asleep at 7pm wake up at 3am, nothing to do wifi isn't even on so have to use shitty data, hungry but always hesitant to go downstairs because I don't want to wake my dad up
I don't know how to fix it fuckkkk I'm so fucking annoyed I hate this I hate sleep I hate it

No. 1094868

>>1094865
Just force yourself to stay up, you’re not three years old.

No. 1094869

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When I got my wisdom tooth removed a couple years ago the dentist was really horrible. I had local anesthetic and the dentist put all of his weight on my jaw so he could pull out my tooth but he pushed so hard that if I had just relaxed my jaw he would have completely dislocated it. He was even grunting when he was pulling, like a fucking medieval procedure, and his gross glove was covering my entire left side of my face pushing all my cheek-skin up into my eye, if that makes sense. It was so weird and unprofessional. I heard my masseter muscles stretching/tearing and was feeling pain even through the local anesthetic but was too nervous to speak up. The surgery took 5 minutes and the local anesthetic wore off just 10 minutes later and I was in the worst pain of my life. Now I've seen the procedure done on youtube and, obviously, never do you see dentists practically laying on top of the patients face and just yanking and moaning. Now my jaw is forever fucked and hurts and pops whenever I yawn, and gets random shooting pains now and again. Fuck that dentist. Pic unfortunately related.

No. 1094871

>>1094856
Kek i just woke up when i typed that, i mean my cousin accused me of hacking into her devices and conspiring with her colleagues
>>1094820
I guess i was trying to say is ignore him

No. 1094872

Can’t enjoy anything. Wish there was a way to fix me. I’ve done every type of medicine out there including the weird stuff like ketamine. Spent years with lots of therapists, they’re all the same broken record and have nothing to offer that I’m not already doing. Why do I bother.

No. 1094874

>>1094868
What did you think I've been doing you stupid bitch

No. 1094877

>>1094874
jakkin off

No. 1094880

i don't want to be home alone anymore. my dad keeps leaving for business trips and some very suspicious creepy things have happened, tragedy always strikes when he leaves or some odd happening ends up driving me into paranoia. the house is a groveling mess so I don't want to have a friend stay over here. i cant go to a friends house while he's gone unless they'll let me take the dog, since she's my responsibility. i don't want to be here alone, it makes my skin crawl. this house is too big and too eerie for one woman and a dog. I don't feel like telling my father this myself knowing he'll somehow find a way to make an insanity plea out of me for it, so where the fuck else am I supposed to turn to? I guess I'll tolerate it. hopefully six more months before I move out, if I make it that long. the only good thing about being alone is when your life drives you into mental ruin, you can self harm alone in a massive house and scream and cry like a wailing banshee whenever bad luck befalls you, the only good thing. if I die before i get the chance to move out though, it probably wasn't an accident. im a little fearful I am being watched right now for reasons and it's not helping my case, the bad luck, paranoia, and creepy things that keep happening only deepen my fear none of its a coincidence

No. 1094885

>>1094880
keep screaming and wailing like a banshee until your paranoia disappears. that sounds fun lole

No. 1094888

>>1094885
It's all fun and games until the blood thinners cause you to start dripping all over the floor and frankly I'm tired of relapsing at random intervals every month or some shit

No. 1094889

>>1094880
Moving out isn’t gonna cure your burgeoning schizophrenia, anon.

No. 1094898

>>1094854
No way, I'm afraid of getting too much attention. Sorry

No. 1094901

Decided I'm no calling no showing or something tomorrow. They have had a weeks notice that I couldn't be a double for two days because I have a very important test. Meanwhile a key worker got to go home early today, essentially fucking us, because he had a headache. They can go fuck themselves the money today wasn't nearly as good as it would be in the same position different place.

No. 1094903

>>1094877
That's naughty

No. 1094914

>>1094889
well it also isn't going to mean I'm stuck in a feedback loop where I deal with my shitty and unsupportive monotonous environment all the time, at least being somewhere else would be different

No. 1094919

My mom, me and my dad are talking about my sister right now. My little sister is very rude and gets fucking mad over the stupidest things like asking her to share some of her food. My dad ALWAYS defends or justifies her shit behavior, saying that my mom always screams at us and that's why she's wrong and my sister is right to react like that. Mom and dad always disagree about how to treat us as their children, and it pisses me off, how they never agree on that. But lately, I've been more on my mom's side because she hasn't screamed at us for no reason in a very long time, and has been trying to control her own issues.
What the FUCK is my father's problem? He sounds exactly like someone defending their abuser! "Oh it's my fault, I shouldn't have provoked him!" Why does he deny so strongly the fact that my sister has real issues?

No. 1094921

>>1094919
relax gal
your on lolcow
eaaasseee your sssssstresssssss

No. 1094929

>>1094921
NTA but stfu

No. 1094941

I have a new neighbor that moved in downstairs and I saw him let his cat chill on the front steps once while cleaning his bike. I guess it's a Dad, wife and son? Two days ago I found their cat roaming by our bushes so I brought him back.

The guy seemed nonchalant and ungrateful but I shrugged it off. Today the cat was our AGAIN with the neighbors door shut and dove under my car. I spent 5 minutes getting it out before it ran across the street almost getting hit by another car. I had to go to a meeting, or else I would have confronted my neighbor. But wtf. That's so reckless and ghetto to let your cat roam free where there's an active drive way. My spouse is worried that cat isn't neutered. If I see this cat again, I'm going to say something.

No. 1094944

>>1094809

this is how foundation looks when I do it no matter what can any makeup anons say what they do to avoid this? primer and setting spray?

No. 1094952

i just wanna thirst over my ideal, partially imaginary bf with other girls

No. 1094960

I wish it was easier to make friends online, I have no idea how people do it nowadays. I guess there's discord but I dislike it.

No. 1094970

>>1094944
It’s a dry skin issue. Your skin might need better hydration overall with a foundation that is not matte and/or full coverage. Try out some serum foundations and add more hydration to your skincare routine. Stay away from setting powder for now too.

No. 1094972

>>1094809
I found that if I use moisturizers that are slightly sticky make the foundation blend in better. But yeah, be sure to moisturize

No. 1094976

>>1094846
Aww nonnie! If you still feel like attending anime expo, have you considered volunteering for the event? It could be a good way to meet new people, make some friends/acquaintances?

No. 1094985

I am usually ok with being an averageuggo, but sometimes it takes me by surprise. Wish I looked like some unattainable model or something but no, I look like an average, slightly ugly girl. Reeee.

No. 1094986

>>1094952
I’m curious. How is he only partially imaginary?

No. 1094987

>>1094800
This is too fucking hilarious. The absurdity of the mundane life, it gets me.

No. 1094988

>>1094986
hes a kpop man

No. 1094992

>>1094986
because i project my ideal personality onto him and use only certain parts of him as a base. he is a person and definitely not a porcelain, dead-eyed kpop boy

No. 1094993

>>1094991
literally stuttered saying kpop, just admit it

No. 1094995

>>1094993
lmao, but really, he is white

No. 1094997

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Why am I so horny after I sleep
jesus christ I always wake up with a need for grinding on something. I want a partner I just need someone to cuddle me and finger me whyyy

No. 1094998

>>1094995
alright well, as long as he is not some streamer or youtuber.

No. 1095002

>>1094998
no, i'm not that trash. though you guys may consider it worse, but all of that is irrelevant as it's replaced in my imagination

No. 1095005

>>1095002
it's ok man. we all have our embarrassing little things that make us happy, you see i was projecting because i am invested in a kpop man. anyways, hope you can thirst over him with other girls. no harm done.

No. 1095006

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I'm not even an anachan i just couldn't stop eating today out of stress and now my stomach hurts and i feel like an unhinged fatty

No. 1095007

I am so disconnected from the people in my country. When I encounter any of them online, I can't help but cringe. It's not that I'm racist towards my nationality, I just don't get them. And our toxic traits are considered part of our culture, too, like they're taught in school and everything. Embracing these traits is one of the reasons why we're still a third world country. Plus the men here can be so corny. I'm so relieved that death exists kek, I love the idea of being free from all this. Free from my genes, my place of birth.

No. 1095008

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I've been losing enjoyment in drawing and it's upsetting me quite a bit, it's the only thing that keeps me going.

No. 1095012

>>1095007
If this isn't me to a T. It makes me feel bad because you know, I'm acting like a total nlog but in regards to my race/nationality. But I am really disconnected from my own country's young adult culture and internet culture, especially. Like, my friends or family will mention something that went viral locally and I'd have no idea because I've completely blocked out anything and live in my own customized safe-bubble online. I just don't enjoy it, it's usually something I find "cringe" or "problematic" because I'm like, totally so superior and above it all, lol.

No. 1095013

>>1094869
Most dentists are sadists, having ppl depend on them to help, then opening them up & violating them, and hurting them, get them off.

No. 1095032

>>1094869
My dentist accidentally pierced under my tongue and it still hurts when I raise and stretch it

>>1095013
>tfw may work for a dentist starting next week

No. 1095038

>>1094869
that's why I went to an oral surgeon. dentists are not always qualified for all dental/oral procedures.

No. 1095040

i really don't get it.- every time, every fucking time i need to wake up early and look presentable my neighbors are guaranteed to be noisy little shits and wake me up, and i end up with most horrifying looking eyebags ever. it's like they have a fucking sixth sense over this shit, usually i'm home, no need to go anywere, the moment i need to boom it's fucking 90s classics at full volume at 3 in the morning. what the fuck

No. 1095050

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No one answered my stupid question in the stupid questions thread. I must be the most estupido on this website. I'm feeling very sad about that.

No. 1095061

>>1095050
aw nonnie it’s ok, it happens to all of us, I’m sure you are not as dumb as you think

No. 1095067

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I've been on a waiting list to get a stuck baby tooth removed for 2 years now. There's literally nothing I can do but wait. Thanks NHS.

No. 1095069

I'm going to be petty later in the day. I just had a annoying crying bout with dumb flashbacks and it's way too early for this crud. Cried for about an hour. Now I'm pissed off and my dumb brain reminded me of something. All of this is extremely dumb but my head hurts, and I want some sort of revenge. Idgaf and my lack of sleep is making me giddy. Kek.

No. 1095127

Tonight I found out my dad jerks it to photos of 8th graders from his middle school yearbooks, I want to die.

No. 1095131

I fucking hate this virtue-signaling bitch who bullies other people while she believes she’s some empathetic, wholesome being just because she thinks trannies are victims and BLM. She also has some female friends who delight in ganging up on and talking down on other people. This community I’ve been in has had some of the most wretched personalities I’ve run into online and many of the women in it constantly disappoint me. I used to be closer to them but couldn’t stand them anymore when they constantly would use childish tactics against the admin if they didn’t get what they wanted. Joining an online gaming community was a mistake.

No. 1095133

>>1095127
Disown him.

No. 1095136

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I was going to go clubbing with my best friend but ended up puking all over the train station causing a shit ton of paramedics to surround me because I was lying on the ground like a retard and my puke apparently looked like blood. I ended up in an ambulance holding a bag of my own puke, then we ubered home (which cost 40$) as our uber driver talked about how he wanted to fuck “transgenders” and “femboys” (since we told him we were planning on going to a gay club). I genuinely could not make this shit up if I wanted to

No. 1095138

>>1095127
Tell him to seek therapy asap or you will tell your mom and his work buddies.

No. 1095144

I hate that I have slut tendencies because nobody, men or women, likes sluts. I don't even like this part of myself but it is just how I am. I had whoreish behavior ever since I was a kid, it's not going away anytime soon. I wanna wear revealing clothes and be slutty and have casual relationships but I know if I do that, no one will respect me. Even worse is that, I live in a muslim, 3rd world country, double whammy. Like, can't even show cleavage. I want to have more sex but as I said, due to where I live, only the nastiest, weirdest, grossest scrotes who really do not respect women are okay with premarital sex and a worthwhile guy, if there are any, would at most holdhands with his girlfriend before marriage. The most scandalous thing I've been told is my cousin kissing her boyfriend of 3 years on his cheek. While I've been out here licking assholes. LMAO. I hate myself. I wish I wasn't such a whore and having to like, repress that part of me. This is so wildly stupid, I'm sorry.

No. 1095146

>>1095133
Already did emotionally.

>>1095138
Funnily enough I think my plan is to blackmail him, but he'd never go to therapy. And he doesn't work or have friends. I just want him to spend time with my mom, take her out of the house, make her happy, help me keep the house clean for her. She's disabled and pretty miserable, me and her don't get along and never really have but she deserves a lot more than what that pathetic fuck up does for her. Every time I snoop through his shit I find something disappointing. Even worse he has all these accounts and passwords for websites all written in bizarre codes, I can't even imagine the degenerate shit on there but I can't figure out what any of it means. I'm so mad and confused

No. 1095152

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>mother is dating some man who divorced with a literal mentally fucked schizophrenic nudist woman that went as far as tried burning mothers house down for dating him

>mother decided to let the kids stay alone at home with her bf right when ex came over with their kid, wanting to PLAY AT A COUNTRYSIDE AT 12 FUCKING AM!!
>Mother spent the whole night at a bar instead, ditching the kids
>In a fucking foerginer country that's also always been fucking hating us - she would get death threat emails before dating the man through her mail box for just being x-nationality, telling she should gtfo or they'll murderer her
>I cant contact mother nor she still never tried calling grandparents about how the kids are, meaning she most likely found someone to hook up with and spent the night
>I am in entirely different country, far away from everyone, living my life and now being worried for my two little brothers that I could even call my children because I was the one RAISING THEM, terrified of any possibilities of what could have happened to them without her
I am so fucking mad right now, I swear to fucking god. and she wonders WHY I WENT NO CONTACT WITH HER FOR 6 YEARS. I CAN ONLY PRAY MY LITTLE BROTHERS ARE SAFE AND OKAY.

No. 1095155

>>1095136
Nonnie wtf

No. 1095157

>>1095127
This should be illegal, maybe it is? I'm not sure. I'm so sorry nonna that's fucking awful.

No. 1095166

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I don't know how to describe it but it feels like I have a high libido that is just super sensitive to everything? Does that make it a low libido? Who knows but it's pissing me off. One month I will be insanely horny throughout and the next 2-3 months I will simply be uninterested in sex altogether, not out of disgust but mostly down to work, being tired, having other priorities etc. I don't know how people can consistently have sex every single week, it fluctuates so much for me I can never tell when I'm next gonna be in the mood.
I'm sure stuff like body image and my vaginismus plays into it but even during times where I haven't had issues with vaginismus I've just been so disinterested in it. I enjoy it, but if there's something else that needs doing/prioritising I just forget to be horny, almost.
Anyway it's super annoying like I said and it makes me angry because it's like my hormones are completely unpredictable. I HATE IT!

No. 1095168

my neighbors freak me the fuck out, they're a bunch of dudes carrying guns around like it's normal, and I've been told that a prosecutor is the one that rents the house. I can hear them most days, burning rubber, before dawn. I saw 8 men arrive in 2 separate cars, carrying guns, cheering loudly last Saturday at like 2 pm. Today they noticed me. I feel uneasy.

No. 1095175

>>1094919
Maybe you have better examples of her behaving shitty but tbh anon I'd start getting mad if people asked me to share my food too. That's kinda weird.

No. 1095179

I miss having a female friend who would walk around museums with me and not judge me for my interests

No. 1095181

>>1095144
>no one will respect me
Lmao anon I've had tons of casual sex and done/worn slutty shit. As an adult I have no less respect than the next adult because it's always been nobody else's damn business. I'm successful and likeable in my own right and didn't let sexual desire become a personality trait. Cleavage is actually not considered altogether slutty anymore.
Just be smart about your operations.

Now the ACTUAL problem I'm hearing is that you live in a Muslim country, whereby women will never be looked upon with great respect period.

No. 1095189

I started using a period tracker for the first time in my life because I wanted to be sure my tender boobs are period-related. I hate knowing when I get my period so much, the counting down, the dread of it. It also made me realize how much of my fucking time I really spend bleeding goddamnit why isn't here a flipswitch to turn this useless function that only brings misery off.

No. 1095192

>>1095168
can you move?

No. 1095193

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Today I went to six (6) different book stores (five of the same chain, one an independent one) to get at least one of the six books I planned on buying. Each store page said they'd carry at least one of the books I wanted. You know how many I came back with? Zero. Zero! Zero!!!!!!!!! 0000000000000 Play the smallest violin in the world for me, because I now am forced to use online shopping to get it shipped to a nearby store in a few days time instead of reading anything in this instant right now.

No. 1095196

I just noticed a double standard I should've realised a long time ago. Why is it only men can be the "stoic mysterious" type? Not saying I see myself as that but I really don't like to talk or say much. If there's nothing notable I'd rather say nothing at all.

But my whole life, really my whole life I've had to navigate people thinking that either I was a bitch who thought too highly of herself to talk to others, or this poor wee shy wallflower who just needs help getting out into the world. I'm a reasonably confident person and I've straight up said to people that I'm not shy, I'm not anxious, I just don't talk much, straight up. Men can be "a man of few words" but women? Doesn't exist apparently. There has to be SOMETHING wrong that needs fixing.

No. 1095197

>>1095007
>>1095012
Same. But for my country of origin, it's common to be self hating so I don't think it's nlog behavior kek.

No. 1095200

>>1095168
I know it may not be possible with the housing market being as it is but holy shit I'd be out there asap

No. 1095204

>>1095181
Wish I was half as brave as you. If I don't dress 'modestly', I am not taken seriously. Even a normal half-sleeved top is enough to write you off. Wish people minded their business but I know if someone found out I am not a virgin, it'll be like social suicide, lol. I try to keep as lowkey as I can and it sucks. I hate having a thot-streak in the first place, or whatever, most of all, really.

No. 1095208

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Not my dad liking some 19 year old prostitute's tweets lmfao

I mean it's a sex positive woke feminist or whatever not some random whore, but idk if this makes it any better bc my dad has always used feminist rhetoric to explain why i have to be my male family member's mom and punching bag

No. 1095212

>>1095208
Some men use feminism as a way to manipulate women. A male feminist told me I should sexually liberate myself and sleep with him, when I told him having sex with a loser wouldn't be empowering his whole facade fell and he went full on incel.

No. 1095217

I hate when you finally reach the point of having empathy fatigue, years into dealing with someone and their struggles and their endless shitty decisions that don't help themself.. and you're immediately a heartless monster to them. Just like that.

Years of support instantly forgotten, your efforts are shat on because yes there's a limit to how much you can gently support someone who refuses to do their own part in getting better. You wouldn't do this for me. Tbf you would never extend this effort to anyone. You're never the giver. You're never the listener. You're never the shoulder to cry on. You're comfortable being a lifelong fuck up because it allows you to always be the taker. Nobody expects anything from you. Theres no thanks for the one sided efforts everyone invested over the years but a whole hissy fit when the efforts run dry.

No. 1095222

>>1095217
Fuck these ungrateful people, anon! They don't deserve you. You did nothing wrong. It's only their problem if they want to find themselves some nanny instead of growing up. There are much better people out there, that will remember you are a human just like them and got your own boundaries. My life became much better after I learned to say no or if I am too busy or not in the mood to take care of someone's problem. At the end of the day, we all have different lives to live. They should respect that. And it's not like you can change or heal people either, they have to change themselves alone. If person chooses to fuck their life up - it's always their own choice, nobody else's.

No. 1095238

I'm sorry but I made an online friend in the same fandom as me (she's 25, that's relevant) and she stopped liking the same thing and she's been acting like i've mistreated her or something for chatting with her about ~problematic fiction~ because she feels embarrassed now she doesn't like it anymore. I hate this BPD behaviour, I'm not responsible for her being unable to state her boundaries as if she was a child. She told me she liked angsty stuff so I gave her a recommendation and now she tells me she was pretending to like it so I would find her cooler but she hates it in reality and it made her cry?? I find that so humiliating. It makes me feel like a creepy abusive moid.

No. 1095249

>>1095144
Cringe larp go back

No. 1095251

>>1095166
Stress easily effects libido, and couples have sex regularly bc the scrote wants it and the woman "wants to keep the peace".

No. 1095252

>>1095189
They steal your data Nona just go with a calendar

No. 1095253

>>1095193
i understand the frustration anona. hope you get sum good books soon

No. 1095254

>>1095217
I’m going through the same thing with a lot of people and I feel like a heartless bitch at times but the truth is I’m just focusing my empathy and care into a few people who really matter instead of every pathetic loser I see and one incredibly draining BPDette.

No. 1095257

>>1095196
I hate this shit, women especially take it as a personal offense. We're also expected to be sociable and cheery every second even if we're stressed/depressed.

No. 1095261

Warning CP SPAM BELOW

No. 1095282

Thank god I already have images turned off on lc

No. 1095290

Can we really have women only spaces anymore? I'm getting so tired of troons forcing themselves in everything and if you object you get canceled and shutdown. I wish more women would stand up against this but they're probably afraid of being labeled a terf. The cancel culture is so fucked. I just want a break from men and you can't even have that

No. 1095295

>>1095282
How do you do this? Please someone teach me

No. 1095297

>>1095238
Fuck anon are you me, this is my friend to a T
>She starts planning out really dirty sexual scenarios about our OTP and goes into extreme detail, clearly enjoying the ~problematic~ parts, completely on her own initiative
>I get excited because I'm a degenerate and show my enthusiasm
>She suddenly stops, starts whining about being hurt that I got so much into it because she finds it disgusting and she doesn't really even like it that much, she just thought I would enjoy it
>What the fuck
And this keeps being repeated all the fucking time. If I don't "get into it" she starts whining about how embarrassed she is for being such a pervert. Like you I feel like a predatory creepy moid for being gaslighted into believing that somehow it's me who's forcing her into creating fiction she feels is sexual abuse. BPD-chans are insufferable.

No. 1095298

I don't wanna do my homework

No. 1095301

I really feel like I've ruined my body by being depressed. I was so healthy when I was a teenager, but then I stopped exercising and started binge eating, gained loads of weight and lost so much of my resilience and strength. Over the last 2 years I've managed to lose the weight, but only through a combination of having 3 fairly serious illnesses and being in an abusive relationship, which has made me even more unhealthy. I'm looking after myself better now and keeping the weight off, but I feel like I have the health issues of a 50 year old because of all this. My hips hurt all the time, I have saggy knees and tits, I'm weak and have no stamina, I have IBS. Young nonnies, look after yourselves. Wallowing in misery just leads to more misery.

No. 1095302

>>1095290
The closest is fujo spaces that kick out the obvious gay men

No. 1095314

Finally had the time today to cut off a manipulative scrote that I've been "dating" for the past month. I sent a text wishing him well yaidada and his response was a sentence basically saying "ok". This guy has anger/control issues so this unbothered response surprised me. Other moids always try to "win" me back, even moids that I know did not like me.

Also, yesterday I cancelled our date scheduled at night after work (around 4pm) and he responded that it was fine and we should reschedule. I gave a generic "okay sometime next week", and later that night (around 8pm) he texted that if "it" (meaning the cancellation i assume) was due to something he said 2 weeks ago (he was critical of my shoes, I took it as a joke who tf cares). Nonnas, how do I interpret this?

No. 1095322

I feel like I'm in a dilemma, but I think it's more influenced by the fact I feel strapped for cash at the moment probably influencing my thought process. Just moved to a new city and newly single after a long term relationship, so I've been focusing on furnishing the place. Either way this is unrelated to my apartment.
I feel like the only men I have a close connection with are already in long term relationships, but I also think I'm simply impatient and desperate at the moment.
One guy I like, he's recently married to his girlfriend of 7 years and he admitted to me it's for tax benefits. We've been friends for about 5 years and we often talk to each other for hours at a time when we get a chance to. At first it was with friends and more recently we've found each other ending up hanging out just the two of us or basically just us only talking to each other. And whenever someone comes across us, joking how we're in love, he doesn't say anything back.
This was also occuring when I was with my ex and he was fully aware of my ex and often making jokes about them being secret best friends, but over the past 2 years, I had a hunch he viewed our friendship as something potentially closer, majority of our group chat messages were directed towards me too.
I'd feel bad if he left his wife for me, because he also just moved, he's now across the country, and immediately he told me how much he hates living at his new place and joked to me about him anticipating his wife breaking up with him. He also mentioned how his sister lives close to me.
Right away, I can think of a few things I don't like, the fact he does drugs, or I guess "brags" about them for the funny? Either way, it's a huge turn off for me and I'm certain he knows I don't like that. He mostly does that around male friends who brag about them legitimately.
It feels so complicated. Even recently he left the group chat we've had for a few years and is now messaging me directly, which I don't mind because I have a few other friends in the group chat who do the same, but with him it feels different, he rarely has ever directly messaged me before.
I don't know… I'm probably looking too into it, but maybe my gut instinct is right. We obviously have a closeness in terms of multiple interests and he's got a good paying career, but that drug thing is huge for me. I would've likely asked him about his feelings for me years ago if it weren't for that. And either moved on if he said no or broke up with my ex years ago to pursue a relationship with him while our relationships at the time weren't very long term. I guess I'll likely find out what will come out of this situation when his lease is done for the year.
At this point, I know there's bound to be a guy who fits all my preferences, it is so hard to find the right guy so easily. My personality unfortunately lures in troons, autists, and NEETs. It's going to be so difficult weeding through them. My first ex was a troon so now I know the kind of personality and "look" to avoid so that's easy, it's just a tedious process, and it's been the exact same when trying to find friends as well.
I previously made the mistake to date some of the first men who took interest in me whenever I was looking for companionship and we had similar personalities, but they took a turn for the worst very quick. My most recent ex I was with for over 5 years mainly for survival and to try to prove my narc family wrong and I did love him, but I was more in love with the thought of a better him. Now I'm realizing there's a friend I've known for years, and my other friends approve of him and like to hang with him too, so there's that social vetting that I didn't have previously that I actually needed.
This is too much for me to handle myself and I need to understand that's why I have friends to help me out as well.
Ok, sperging over. This shit is even hard for me to talk to myself about out loud while I'm in my car.

No. 1095328

>>1095314
If he's angry/controlling then I'd bet that in a while he'll start up a convo again because in his head this isn't over yet, not til he says it is. How did he out his anger issues in less than a month tho?

No. 1095336

>>1095322

Why are you wasting the effort worrying about this guy he has a literal wife, he's saying to you it's for tax benefits but clearly having a relationship with the girl whilst also flirting with you, why would you want to date someone who's willing to completely cut down his wife to you behind her back
You have conflicting life views
Try chasing a guy who is way less messy come on

No. 1095341

I am driving my boyfriend away with my craziness. I just had an episode where the plumber came and I thought he was a murderer so I locked myself in the room. I was blowing up his phone because I was so scared I was about to be killed but then he told me it’s just the plumber. I still am having really bad anxiety from it as we speak and I know I probably spooked my boyfriend. Even though he said “it’s because you’re on your period.” I feel horrible because I really don’t know what’s wrong with me, this isn’t the first time it’s happened. I don’t have any major physical abuse traumas so I don’t know why I freak out like this

No. 1095349

>>1095196
A man can be stoic and mysterious, but when a woman is she has no personality or she's just an uwu shy girl.

No. 1095350

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Still ruminating from >>1092463.
I had an interview for my second part time job as a team lead, still relevant to my field. It pays marginally more than my current job and it will be my first supervisory position, he said there's room for growth in his company and that he wouldn't be surprised if the company he works for tries to steal me over. We'll see, maybe if I like it there I will quit my first job.

I'm working 14 hours a day just to pay my bills while my first job is treating me like a greedy bitch as if I am asking for more value than what I do or something. Technically that job is 3 jobs in 1, so already underpaid, but it was made worse by the fact that I'm absorbing some of the manager duties since October to May while they hunted for their perfect delegator (who I will have to train btw), and then got me to help out their laziest golden child engineer by promising me a promotion to that level if I helped her with her duties. She's lazy and doesn't do barely shit yet somehow gets all the praise and promotion, she even brags in our department as much. I hate her ass, she talks shit about me to management probably because she's threatened by me. Anyway.
I've been fucking flexible with this company. Like I would have done the work either way because I'm fucking proud of what I do, but they lied to me while giving me false hope and it's been a toxic environment in the almost two years I've been here. It makes me sick to my stomach. They couldn't even let me work from home two days a week when I submitted my request a bit ago. They used to grant these as long as it was approved. The BPD department head said she would approve it knowing HR would conveniently reject it. Now they're making me go through "disability" because apparently everyone else was allowed to WFH for the past year but now that I'd like it to lessen my burden they refuse. Joke's on them, I've got documented anxiety from another past shitty job and can most likely get the doctor to sign an accommodation letter if I really ham up this fucked work situation.

They want me to meet with them on Monday. Probably to talk about what a very demanding, brazen bad employee I've been to ask for a suitable wage. I expect my department head will deny everything she ever promised, gaslight, and then use my perceived 'insubordination' as an excuse to blacklist my progression in the company ever again. I'm past the point of caring.

No. 1095358

>>1095196
Feel this in my bones. I'm a daydreamer and I have a rich inner life, but I don't really like to share it with other people most of the time. I'm a quiet person and I live in my own head a lot, I don't talk just to talk. Depending on the person I'm viewed as a bitch, arrogant, shy, or just plain boring. It's been that way since I was a kid, but my brother who has a very similar personality type never gets any shit for the same things.

No. 1095361

>>1095350
Does anyone else see no difference between employers and abusive relationships? They're pretty much the same thing except the employer fucks you over harder financially.

No. 1095364

>finally go to check out 2x
>top thread is about men

No. 1095366

>>1095302
Gay men don't even want to be in fujo spaces, legitimate biological male fudanshis are extremely rare and they keep to their own gay male communities instead of bothering female fujos. All the fujo spaces I'm a part of are 100% female because even the hysterical genderspecial Aidens refuse to associate due to muh fetishization of MLM and instead they go circlejerk in their own mastectomy scar bodybuilder dadbod worship cells.

No. 1095367

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I miss being a skinny legend but I was also hooked on heroin at the same so I don't know how to feel

No. 1095368

>>1095367
I miss being an underweight skinny legend but I was hooked on amphetamines so I can kinda understand. Feels bad.

No. 1095376

>>1095367
>>1095368
Did ppl treat you that much differently?

No. 1095418

>>1095328
He's said misogynistic shit, got annoyed when I decide on things (like where to meet up etc), I mentioned I was on my period and he got mad. We hugged and kissed once and he was very rough. I'm not a homophobe, but like how do you not know how to be gentle with a woman? Overall 0/10. The fake "nice guy" mask he wore slipped after 2 weeks. The only thing he got going for him is his appearance.

No. 1095439

>>1095336
I can definitely acknowledge it's messy and I'm being dumb. My experience with dating has mainly been messy so it's difficult to imagine less messy situations even be possible.
Even with my recent ex, this guy was the one who suggested I marry my ex since we were living together.
I'm so impatient ugh, but I really need to slow the fuck down and stick to my preferences and boundaries.
These are all thoughts I've only had for a few days since he started directly messaging me so I'm certain 60% of this is coming from my imagination going wild.

No. 1095459

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other people in my age bracket (i'll be 23 this year) have good/interesting jobs and are out of university, are living in fancy places pursuing their careers, have significant others, etc. and i'm just trying not to flop through my last year of university…i should graduate after this upcoming fall semester is over.

i've no idea what i'll do once i graduate either. now learning that i probably should've been studying functional programming alongside everything else because my head is full of theory and really basic programming principles (i'm a compsci major). i picked up a mild study plan last night but sheesh i'm so behind.

praying i'll be able to get a decent if not boring/slightly stressful office job somewhere once i'm out of uni. of course i feel dumb for not spending my free time in better ways.

No. 1095469

not sure if this belongs here but i just started wailing and sobbing over the two headed calf poem and my bf genuinely though i was putting it on, can't read it without getting hysterical, is this normal.

No. 1095499

>>1095469
Probably not but same, that poem makes me feel so many things. I avoid reading it when it gets posted bcs i know i'm gonna cryyy

No. 1095505

>>1095499
its literally so fucking upsetting idk what it is. i hate stuff like that which is weird cause im autistic and generally unempathetic

No. 1095511

>>1095459

Hey I was the same in my final year. CompSci is such a slam dunk in terms of useful degrees to graduate with. You will work a boring office job at the start, but it will pay decently and you will naturally figure out where in the IT spectrum of jobs you want to end up. As for learning the correct language, that stuff happens on the job irl for the most part.

Just focus on graduating and staying financially healthy. You will be okay. Don’t let the LinkedIn grinders make you feel bad for not using your free time more productively.

Free time is for you. Yours. Jobs are not your whole life.

No. 1095519

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>>1091891
Samefag, it happened, I was fired. They couldn't see me trying hard enough after the feedback they gave me, they said. I just genuinely can't see myself getting employed again. My CV is patchy, this job lasted for a little over 6 months, my last one lasted for 3 months and between them I was unemployed for half a year. The whole thing is just so fucking stressful, looking for a job, learning your new tasks, pretending to be interested in them, trying to focus on doing them well, and then at the end of the day when you're left with 0 energy, you're free to do what you want, except you can't because you're exhausted. And this is life.

And for the record - I WAS trying to do well, I was not shitting on my responsibilites, I just suck under pressure and it's hard for me to pay attention sometimes.

Although there was one good thing about getting fired: my period, which I didn't get for 2 months due to stress, came literally an hour after I was fired. It was an enormous amount of tension that was released from me.

No. 1095522

I could send these screenshots of him cheating to her, but I'm worried about my safety. Man this sucks

No. 1095523

>>1093268

giving some extra context

context: I'm a girl, graduated the year this happened.

It was in 2018

I'm still not sure what the ACTUAL rumor even was. The one I heard from someone who tried to stop me from like, walking by her in the parking lot because she was talking up how she was gonna kick my ass for something I literally had no way of knowing about.

I heard like 2 variations of it but both basically said I assaulted a kid like 3-4 years younger than me who went to our school. Cops got called because she came up to me in the parking lot with her friends behind her and started kicking and punching me and then laughed about it with her friends while someone helped me up.

It occurs to me now that at least the person who helped me up knew I didn't do anything because they tried to keep me from going where this person was.

Anyway, cops got called, I took her to court, and from what I was told, the case got dropped. I can only assume she admitted she lied about it? (The details are kind of fuzzy but I know I had a restraining order against her by the end of it.)

Someone brought it up a few months later in the middle of class and we both ended up in the office because I threatened to throw a book at her if she finished the sentence. I had to explain to THAT person the above story (ass getting beat, case being dropped because she admitted she lied)

Nobody brought anything about it up after that, I just assumed the girl gossiped about the fact that the original girl lied about it. I still feel bad for the kid she used as a scapegoat for the rumor though because she used to sit next to me on the bus and she kept trying to after it all blew over but I never let her. I have no idea if she knew what happened or not.

No. 1095531

is there a way you can do it anonymously?

No. 1095533

>>1095136
Just to let you know that I have a hearty belly laugh every time I scroll past and read this comment, sorry for you misery but it's hilarious. I thought you were maybe Finnanon until I got to the dollars.

No. 1095536

>>1095522
You could send them from a temporary email address?

No. 1095538

>>1095531
meant for >>1095522 I'm dumb as shit

No. 1095541

>>1095531
he knows who he sent these pictures to so he'd know who leaked it to her. They're getting married soon too and she might be pregnant so idk

No. 1095549

>>1095469
I kind of don't get it. Will the calf die soon? Why would the boys wrap it in newspaper if it wasn't going to die?

Please explain

No. 1095554

>>1095549
I think the implication is that the calf will be hauled off and shown around like a freak show exhibit. That's just what I think

No. 1095566

>>1095549
the poem itself is about enjoying life while you have it i guess but i think its assumed that the calf died in its' sleep from complications or the boys killed it, the former is more likely i think.

No. 1095567

>>1095519
Oh anon, I'm so sorry. You can get another job, and you can lie about the gap, i'm sure there are tonnes of plausible excuses available online. Have you been diagnosed with any sort of behavioral disorder? If not you might want to look into it.

I have ADHD and am lucky to have found a position that's low pressure, low responsibility and flexible enough that i'm given a ton of leeway. I really hope you can find something similar for the future.

No. 1095574

>>1095519
Girl I am so sorry, this exact thing happened to me little over a year ago, I cried for about a week. I have autism and ADHD and they said the exact same things they said to you, it gets better I promise.

No. 1095576

>>1095249
Literally what do you think I am larping as? And where should I go back to?

No. 1095579

>>1095469
let me talk to beat up your boyfriend nonny

No. 1095583

>>1095523
adding onto this: the girl who started the rumor left me with years of shit i had to unpack in therapy because I became paranoid that I was somehow secretly a monster and didn't know it. That was a time.

My therapist helped a lot tho tbf.

No. 1095588

>>1095579
to be fair to him i was way too upset over it so he thought i was joking kekkkk

No. 1095602

Often father and daughter look down on mother (woman) together. They exchange meaningful glances when she misses a point. They agree that she is not bright as they are, cannot reason as they do. This collusion does not save the daughter from the mother’s fate.

No. 1095607

My BFF is chaining herself to a bludgeoning tranny but she is being so irritating about her new 'bf' I am choosing to let her suffer her fate.

No. 1095614

>>1095574
Thank you for your kind words! Did you find a job after that?
>>1095567
>Have you been diagnosed with any sort of behavioral disorder?
I've been in therapy but the therapist never told me anything because he said he doesn't believe in labels. What I know made it difficult for me to work is that I rush processes, it's hard for me to focus and so I make inattentive mistakes and in general it's just hard for me to force myself to do things that I don't feel like doing. My sense of time is also shit.
>am lucky to have found a position that's low pressure, low responsibility and flexible
That's nice to hear, I'm happy for you! May I ask what is it?

No. 1095619

Serious advice needed:
I think someone threw a baggie of dog shit under my car. Should I just deal with it and throw it away or get petty and throw it under any random dog owners car in my neighborhood?

The other possibilities is that the wind blew it over but… Idk, feels unlikely. I was looking out the window yesterday and did notice that the lady across the street "threw away" a bag of dog shit but it fell on the ground instead of going on the actual bin, she walked away and I feel like she knew that she dropped it but her husband went ahead and picked it up for her. Should I just toss it across the way?

No. 1095632

>>1095619
Don't occupy yourself with literal dogshit any more than is necessary. I can't believe how much thought you've already given to it. Don't you have anything better to think of?

No. 1095653

I got called up for jury duty and I'm a neet so I have no excuse to get out of it easy…
Hopefully if I get picked it's not some murder case or something horrible.

No. 1095655

>>1095619
Anon just throw it in the garbage and give it no more thought.

No. 1095660

I'm so angry, I hope the shithead fucking dies. I'm trying not to hate myself for being naive/blind and not acting sooner. I hate that karma isn't a real thing.

No. 1095662

>>1095619
I doubt anyone is doing it to play games. If it were on your doorstep or sitting on top of your car that'd be a concern.

I live in a town where nobody has even heard of dog shit bags. I hate how walking past so much dog shit everyday gets me down, but it does. It's like a visceral reaction to being surrounded by turds lol

No. 1095680

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>>1094760
I love stepan I hope he and his owner are doing ok and are safe cuz theyre in ukraine. no post from them for over a week.

No. 1095681

>>1095295
Sorry for late reply anon, just install the browser extension 'images on/off'. Click of a button will turn them all on or off whenever you like.

No. 1095687

>>1095632
>>1095655
I guess I'm just wondering if it was done on purpose, but you're right. I should just throw it away and let it go, but I am definitely installing a camera just in case someone decides to do it again.

>>1095662
That's awful anon. I wish people would realize that the whole town starts to smell like shit when that happens. It's unfair to non dog owners. But I don't hate dogs, I just hate irresponsible dog owners.

No. 1095689

Happened a long time ago. I was abused as a preteen. The first person i told it to was my first boyfriend when I was 16. He said he was sorry about it. The day after, maybe, he had the gall to say "I’m mad that this guy ruined you for me."
i dont have any further comment it speaks for itself.

No. 1095695

My friend is really annoying and a contraian about everything and also a conspiricist. I hate hearing his opinions about Putin and basically every contraian comment you can read online. Putin is a wanker. Russia is not a free country. There is no democracy. There is no opposition party and independents get jailed. There's no challenge to policies. I have Ukrainian friends who have family in Crimea that they can only contact sporadically and she only tells them she's ok since all the phone lines are tapped and listened too. I have friends who have male family members stuck in Kiev because the Russian army is bombing their country. This person also never fucks up that NI is occupied and freedom fighters this and that but is so fucking cold towards the plight of Ukrainians. The fucking troubles are tame compared to this and he acts like a fucking martyr for being born in this country after the worst of the conflict. Just stfu!!! You're an ignoramus. You talk about the Middle East yet you hate fucking foreigners and refugees. You voted for Brexit because you were against the humanitarian effort the EU was undergoing with the refugee crisis from the wars you now pretend to care about!

No. 1095701

>>1095695
I am generally sick of people throwing their shitty opinions when they don't know both russia's and ukraine's situation, treating it like some tv reality show or a videogame. my advice to you is to just not listen to retards, there will always be stupid people in this world, whether we like it or not. These people will never see anything beyond their own countries and life too.

No. 1095702

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I am tired of being my own doormat. Is it doormat-y to always think about getting others gifts/presents/anything with your hard-earned commission money (I'm a freelancer..) on others instead of myself? I swear I still never treated myself with anything from all of my artwork money. Maybe I can finally stop being an idiot and buy myself that cute thing!!

No. 1095723

>>1095689
Men are shit. Hopefully you're doing better now, anon. He's the one who's ruined and who's probable never going to have anyone that love him if he didn't change that personality of his.

No. 1095732

being an alcoholic and drug addict it's too entertaining, i have always some interesting shit going on because i go out, i go to squatting parties, ug parties, am drunk have good time and my health cries

No. 1095737

>>1095732
i would like to talk to my close friends but they dont want to hear


i should worry about real things and yet i drink drink drink

No. 1095738

>>1095701
What I hate the most is when you counter one of his more I outlandish points or he says so many wrong things you have to say something for humanity's sake and he pulls out his phone and wants me to read screenshots or tries to force a YouTube video on you. It is not normal behaviour

No. 1095748

>>1095602
??? You mean being a daddy's girl?

No. 1095769

>>1095602
isn't it amazing how you can be so much like your father but also inherit the worst parts of your mother whether you mean to or not

No. 1095775

>>1095614
AYRT I've actually only just now found a job as an axe throwing instructor kek, I used to work in IT primarily.

No. 1095781

>>1095775
>axe throwing instructor
Crazy, that's so cool.

No. 1095794

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>Feeling like shit
>Feeling like shit 2
>Feeling like shit 3
>Feeling like shit: Electric Boogalo
>Feeling like shit: in New York
>Feeling like shit RELOADED
>Feeling like shit: IN THE SPACE

No. 1095797

>>1095794
Jason is that you?

No. 1095801

>>1095376
people were asking me constantly how did I manage to stay so skinny and I had to lie through my teeth "I just don't eat carbs and sugar teehee". Now I'm not fat but none of my "junkie" clothes fit me properly and I wanna renew my wardrobe kek.

No. 1095802

>>1095801
samefag "don't wanna renew my wardrobe" *

No. 1095807

>>1095797
Who is Jason?

No. 1095816

>>1095807
Jason Voorhees

No. 1095820

>>1095523

God, people like that make it 10x harder when people actually do that kind of thing.

No. 1095828

There's a type of woman who deliberately tries to bait people into calling her crazy. It's the worst

No. 1095837

>>1095794
feeling like shit: AT A THEME PARK
feeling like shit: I WANT OFF MR BONES WILD RIDE

No. 1095864

Maybe I should die, I ruin everything around me… every relationship I have, even every object I own. I'm not fated to be alive in this world, I don't deserve it. I hope everyone forgets me

No. 1095919

My nephew moved states to live with his dad last year. He just came back for his first visit and he hit mega puberty while he was gone and I can't handle it. He was a kid when he left and now he's almost 6ft and has a beard and a girlfriend.

I've been ugly sobbing nonstop I just want him to be a baby again. I'm really close to my sister so I saw him literally every day when he lived with her, like I helped raise him and now he's an adult and it feels like it all happened overnight.

No. 1095930

>>1095919
This is a little unhinged.
Try to instead celebrate that he has become an adult and is starting the bigger stages of his life, and that you helped him to get there by being close to and influencing him as a child!

No. 1095954

Was it normal that i was gullible and easily influenced at 16-17? Girls at the time seemed so mature and were coming into their own while i was desperately seeking approval from the adults i thought i loved I fell into a lot of shitty rabbit holes at that age, and i was obsessed about being beautiful i left all my interests and hobbies that i loved doing prior (that i’m picking up now) and that time of my life bothers me. It feels like a stain in my personal history and i feel like a fraud when i try to heal from it and do what i enjoy in the now

No. 1095987

>>1095954
dw nona im sure we were all gullible at that age. the more “mature” girls were just better at masking it and/or groomed

No. 1095999

>>1095614
Lmao someone replied on my behalf, it's a mundane job that's kind of just cataloguing samples we have at the company, where and what it is. If we ever have any small issues it's straight to the guy who runs the department who loves to help OUT. The manager is extremely chill and there are never any problems with holidays or sick days. I do this role with 3 other people so I'm never isolated in my issues, the things to catalogue are endless, and the expectations for us amount to about 3 hours of actual work a day because we conspired to keep expectations low, although our work isn't monitored. Otherwise we sit on our laptops or in the coffee room, the manager warns us ahead of time if higher ups are visiting so we can pretend to be less chill kek

I guess I'd recommend looking for "routine" jobs, but the thing that makes this one is the people, and I guess for that it's just luck.

No. 1096007

>>1095999
trips.
nice.jpg
yea nona chill managers make the best managers

No. 1096015

>>1095999
>someone replied on my behalf
Yeah, the axe instructor answer was sus kek. That sounds nice, the personality of higher-ups does indeed count a lot

No. 1096017

i went from bmi 23 to 17.5 and i thought id be hotter once i got skinny but i still look chubby bc of my face shape. all that happened was that i lost my ass and boobs. fml

No. 1096022

uhh? no, self! you do not have a crush on this man! you just haven't been able to look at a guy properly for like, 3 years. get a hold of yourself!! you're better than this! haven't you learned anything from your traumatic past?

No. 1096026

There's been a ton of theft at the store I work at lately and there's always some fucking customer making snide comments about how we "don't even go after them", and other such things implying that we, the employees, are lazy for not going after a (sometimes armed) crackhead stealing a couple TVs. I work for one of the top 10 retailers in the United States so we are more than insured against theft. I am a 130 lb short woman what exactly the fuck am I supposed to do to regain a cart full of shit from a grown man on crack? Even my biggest and strongest coworker would get fired for laying hands on someone. I am not fucking Batman for christs sake.

No. 1096029

>>1096026
same dumbfucks that complain about how stealing makes the prices go up, because they dont know stores have the aforementioned insurance on their items. im sorry you have to deal with that anon, working retail is hard enough as it is without stupid bitches implying you should put yourself in harms way to protect the profits of fucking walmart or some shit.

No. 1096045

>>1096026
Kek this actually made me laugh some people just wanna be angry with someone even if it doesn’t involve them

No. 1096048

I want to kill myself I just want to kill myself I want to do it

No. 1096049

My irl girl crush got a boyfriend and he looks so unkempt next to her. I’m straight but if she chose me I would be better for her. Drown my skin in retinol, keep my nails and hair flawless etc. I get that looks aren’t everything but she’s just too stunning for him… reeeeee

No. 1096051

>>1096049
Retinol sucks, why would you use that garbage?

No. 1096054

>>1096051
can you elaborate why it’s garbage? I think different skin types react differently, and the quality of the product is a factor, too. personally it’s worked for me but I only apply it at night

No. 1096055

>>1096026
when I worked in retail we were explicitly told not to go after shoplifters, I'm guessing for legal reasons or maybe for our safety, it's crazy how so many people don't understand that, and we only get paid minimum wage anyway so it's not like it's worth it to endanger ourselves like that.

unrelated but after the pandemic started we weren't supposed to tell people without masks they had to leave (even though there was a mask mandate) because someone had shot and killed a security guard at target because he made them leave because they weren't wearing masks (we were supposed to tell them "you're required to wear a mask" but not make them leave) and where I worked I saw the security guard get screamed at for not enforcing masks, then also get screamed at by an antimasker all in the same shift.

No. 1096057

>>1096054
Why? Because you’re scared of getting wrinkles? Stop wasting your money on that shit and get something that properly hydrates your skin and doesn’t make it more sensitive to the sun. You aren’t going to look like a prune at 30 I promise.

No. 1096064

I hate my childhood, i hate my teen years even more and now i’m dreading my 20s and the stress is killing me. I feel so lost and what even is the point of moving forward with my life when everything so far was an utter nightmare and absolute shit. I hope i drop dead, i feel broken and ruined i wish i wasn’t an autist, i wish i didn’t have neglectful parents, i wish i came across kind people. I wish it wasnt like this

No. 1096069

>>1096057
>Why? Because you’re scared of getting wrinkles?
Honestly yes. I’m really insistent on keeping my skin firm and not acne-prone for as long as possible.
>Stop wasting your money on that shit and get something that properly hydrates your skin and doesn’t make it more sensitive to the sun.
I get where you’re coming from nonnie. One time I tried applying retinol in the morning and it made my skin sting lmao that’s why I only use it at night now. I’ve been incorporating hyaluronic acid and vitamin c into my daily routine (along with sunscreen of course!) and they’ve been really helpful. I appreciate what retinol has done for my skin but maybe I should rely more on vitamin c over retinol since they’re supposedly the same anyway without the increased photosensitivity. thank you for your concern

No. 1096073

>>1096069
Nta but I'm worried about you and your self-worth. And serums are always better than some overhyped products, did you check with your dermatologist?

No. 1096074

I wish I could post a picture of some skin issues I'm having but I'm too shy to. Also can't see a derma because waiting lists are unbearably long in my country.

No. 1096078

>>1096069
Being afraid of getting wrinkles is one of the most pussiest shit I've heard in my life lmao

No. 1096082

>>1096015
I'm axe anon and I was just responding to someone who asked if I had found a job? kek

No. 1096086

I'm a high-functioning autist that really push myself to the limit to appear "normal" with a good job, I'm exhausted but I figure that is just the price I have to pay for it. However being able to be out there have certainly helped me develop a different sense of empathy, which some of my autist friends that have a much lower energy threshold to handle haven't really gotten the opportunity to develop, which means I understand their side when they childishly push they wants and needs and I end up relenting and pushing my own feelings to the side even if I really don't want to do something because I value our relationships, but FUCK is it annoying and tiring being the only one that does it.

No. 1096097

I hate how much having abusive parents and being bullied at school has damamged my ability to socialise and function like a normal human being. I don't know how to grow past it. Whenever I go outside I'm immediately in defense mode because I feel like I have to be due to how I was raised. I wish people as a whole were more empathetic to autists like me but nobody really is. It's not easy for some people to go outside or do normal things, yet normal people can never sympathise.

No. 1096099

Life has been rough since my childhood, and I was finally doing a bit better, even more after meeting a guy who seemed to be everything I ever wanted and hoped for, but he has serious health issues and stopped replying to me after he found out. I already decided to move on, but fuck it hurts. It's not only because of him, but because something good came into my life, and it made me happy, and then I had to find out that this amazing guy with a beautiful soul won't live long enough to become old. This is starting to feel like a cruel joke being played on me by god. Despite everything I've gone through, I have never felt so much despair like I do now.

No. 1096113

i hate group projects so fucking much. did every fucking thing and yet this bitch had the nerve to complain about how i did it last minute despite having been absent the whole time i was doubletexting in the gc trying to get them to work, not that anyone else did jackshit but at least they arent complaining about how my presentation looks boring. i hate that im serious about my gpa or else id have done nothing

No. 1096119

i can’t do anything properly anymore nor can i pinpoint what’s making me feel this way. ctb soon

No. 1096121

>>1096113
I remember a group project where we had to invent a new innovative product and a business plan from an already existing company, we had to write a 20 pages long report and do a 20 minutes presentation and one friend and I wrote a perfectly coherent thing and our other friend barely had to do anything and yet she wouldn't stop saying the exact reverse of what was planned during the presentation, and we all lost a bunch of points just because of her bullshit. She couldn't even read a 5 lines long summary of her part before the presentation for some reason and I wanted to bitch slap her so hard back then.

No. 1096122

>>1094760
I had a dummy email where I saved a lot of art resources on it's associated cloud but now I can't remember my password.
Rip videos

No. 1096128

>>1094842

I used to have a secret twitter for incest shipping lol and lolishota artists would try to interact with me all the time. I hate the "all or nothing" vibe twitter has, where you're either a raging sjw who'd dox someone for being incredibly mildly problematic or you're a hyper degenerate who has no boundries

No. 1096130

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>>1094985
averageuggo gang rise up

No. 1096132

>>1094842
Aaaand this is why women into shotacon don't interact with men into shotacon. While even the depraved female shotafags just like the concept of objectifyinh cute anime boys men go full furry lolicon degen with extreme kinks, prison gay bisexuality and most likely 40 sexually charged convos with underage discord users open in their tab.

No. 1096134

>>1096128
Which pairings?

No. 1096138

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>>1096134
I'll never tell

No. 1096167

>>1096130
We are legion.

No. 1096168

>>1096121
what an experience man, god i hate these types

No. 1096170

>>1096069
I mean this in the kindest way possible nonna but wrinkles is something that happens to every one of us eventually. No amount of skincare is going to keep it at bay, for stuff like wrinkles it's just a waste of money unless you can afford to splash hundreds or thousands on botox or expensive products. I can get focusing on keeping your skin hydrated and clean, but focusing on wrinkles is ultimately pointless. We are all aging, so trying to prolong it as much as possible is only going to end up in you being disappointed.

No. 1096183

I’m starting to feel like “doing the right thing” and being morally just are just a way for others to guilt you in to not getting what you want or possibly taking whats theirs and a cope for when you sit alone with nothing that “you did the right thing”. People who get ahead and live happy fulfilled lives always seem to be those who trample on top of others to get there. Me doing what I thought was the “right thing” has lead me to a dead end where the words “I did the morally right thing” are the only comfort I now have, which in hindsight I would happily trade. In an ideal world people would be rewarded for their good deeds, but we don’t live in an ideal world. The worlds fucked.

No. 1096196

I need my fiance to nut up and apply for higher paid jobs without a fight about it. I know he'll try because he loves me and doesn't want to lose me cause he's said as much, but I shouldn't have had to escalate and threaten 'consequences' as the ultimatum to get him to wake the fuck up. It should have been embarassing enough as a man to see that I made more than him on the W-2s. It should have absolutely wounded his ego that not only will I be working 60 hours a week, but that also I'll be more than doubling what he currently earns. Maybe it all did, but his initial resistance to my urging seems like denial.
All I need is for him to be an agent of reality. It's no one else's fault but his own that he squandered his degrees by working in retail for most of his adult life. He's a man, all he had to do was try a little to get into something else and apply himself for promotion and he would have gotten it on the basis of having dick and balls! Meanwhile women like me always have to go the extra mile to "prove" ourselves, fight rumors and disapprovals for so much as dressing the wrong way, get dangled promotions to get tricked into overperforming while rarely receiving what was promised, and if we want extra money then we gotta take second or third jobs because of the difficulty of being recognized at our ordinary ones. And now failing all of that–because of the normalization of sex work–failing professional means, society expects women to sell our bodies for money cause it's not enough to just be domestic anymore despite that being a job on its own as well.

Men are so spoiled and take this shit so for granted that they don't even realize how fucking good they've got it. Society demands responsibilities from women while making it entirely optional for men.

No. 1096203

I have the opportunity to attend a fucking amazing conference where I could learn a shit ton but it's oversea and it would be too expensive and my husband is concerned about being alone in a period where there's a lot of work (we do the same job)
I want to be selfish for once in my life but i feel so guilty about the money part I wish we didn't have to scrap at the bottom every fucking month in this shit fucking country

No. 1096206

>>1096183
I've been thinking about this lately. I wrote out a big ramble but I think if you have strong convictions it's hard to break them. I could be malicious and calculating at the expense of others but I know it would damage my psyche. Idk if this is weird, but my dad was very cold and cruel and became very successful. He's very well off but got very ill and diagnosed with an autoimmune disease that doesn't have a successful treatment let alone a cure. He's lamented that he paid an ultimate price and when he reconnected with me just spoke of happiness and that's the most important and he's become religious too. He supports me now, but from a distance still. He talks about feeling alone and people only want things from him. I think happiness can only be found in yourself and I so think a lot of that is doing what you think is right. It is thankless but if you want to world to be better you have to start with yourself. I just wish others spoke more about morals and there was a focus on being good. Idk if marvel movies try to fill that gap since I can't cope with male fantasies and superheroes. Religion is obviously a big thing that tries to address that question but religion is its own mess too since people bastardise the sentiment for their own gain. Can we blame Satan? Idk

No. 1096209

I just came across a video on tiktok where a woman filmed her child sucking on her boob. I don't have any problem with mothers nursing their babies in public but this made me almost barf. Why would you film yourself doing that esp your child with a full face shot?! It is disgusting. I reported it and I hope they remove it

No. 1096235

I have so much emotional bullshit on my mind constantly and I need therapy or a spiritual person to just get all this shit out. I need absolved or something. I think I'm good but I'm also on lolcow and I can be self righteous and superficial in the same condescending posts towards cows. I need to get it together.

No. 1096236

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I'm sick of having fucked up rape related or sex related dreams, I wake up feeling disgusted and I have them almost every night. Last night involved two strange men I have never met. I don't have a "kink" for this gross shit and don't wake up thinking wow what a nice dream, I wake up depressed. I just want to know why my brain keeps creating these scenarios when I sleep, it doesn't tell me anything. That I'm scared to be assaulted again? Sure but in the dream I'm not even reacting or trying to stop it. I'm just there getting whatevered and not enjoying nor hating it. I want someone to dissect my brain and turn off the switch that makes me have vile horrible dreams. I never have nice dreams or motivational ones, my boyfriend is never in any of them, just strange men who's faces I can never properly describe or look at.

No. 1096267

I feel like such an outcast lately. All my friends or my uni peers in general seem to be just slightly different versions of each other. They all watch and imitate euphoria, subscribe to libfem ideology, listen to the same 5 singers that are currently popular on Twitter and obsess over their identity and how they can show they’re ~kweerness~ through fashion. My friends seem to have it so easy to make friends cause like I said they’re all almost identical but I just cannot pretend I’m that degenerate in long term. At some point I can not pretend someone is a ~queen~ for dressing like a stripper to show it to the xyz-phobic ~cis straight men~ (that they ironically cannot give up). It’s just so exhausting not being able to be your authentic self. Yeah I could tell them all fuck you and leave but that would ruin my college experience entirely since I’m sure they’d start covertly bullying me and making it living hell for me and going online telling people I’m an evil terf. I really didn’t want my uni experience to be like this…

No. 1096335

Why do farmers have such shit taste in books?

No. 1096345

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It is now week 2 and my husbando figure is still in customs. Usually nothing stays there longer than 3 days even when I don't send an invoice and even when I'm getting stuff from China. And it's not customs being held up in general because I had another package from Amazon delivered at that same time and it came in two days.

No. 1096350

>>1096335
What are you sly digging at?

No. 1096357

Theres this guy i sorta know hes an incel and he is always going after 17 year olds. Depresses me everytime i hear about anything about his life because although its legal, its horrifying. I feel so bad for those girls god i wish he would die.

No. 1096363

>>1096350
Nothing just that most of the books in the book thread aren’t very good, and some of them are scrote trash.

No. 1096366

>>1096363
Then please come into the thread and give recs, I'm on the desperate search for new stuff to read.

No. 1096367

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I recently learned some stuff that makes me think that a mental disorder runs in the women in my family (with a skip or two), which means that kids are basically off of the table for me.

No. 1096371

>>1096366
What type books you like?

No. 1096374

Men are so fucking dense. I always wonder, do they not notice others' emotions or do they just not care? I have hurt some people in my life and felt horrible about it every time, but I've never noticed a man do that. They mostly don't even try to apologize, and when they do it's just a bunch of excuses saying why you're a bitch and over sensitive. Why can't moids acknowledge women's feelings?

No. 1096379

My supervisor at internship is going to be observing me on Wednesday and I am so, so anxious about it. It’s the kind of anxious where my stomach starts hurting every time I think about it. There’s only so much I can prepare for since most of it also just depends on what my client is going to talk about, which is why I’m so nervous. I am going to do what I can to get ready and then not think about it. Until then, I will focus on myself and what I can control and even if it does end up terrible it is not the end of the world. I will exercise, eat healthy, focus on class, and whatever happens will happen even if I majorly fuck up.

No. 1096381

>>1096371
I don't know, that's my problem. I just recently got back into reading and I'm trying to figure out what I like, so I'm open to at least try anything that isn't murder mysteries or Stephen King. If you need more details though, here >>>/m/189086

No. 1096382

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>friend group going to convention
>plan on outfit theme
>buy outfit even tho I kinda don't like the theme and it's not very flattering for me
>everyone else later changes theme and they wind up standing out and looking way better
Mcfuckingkillme

No. 1096393

Did an internship last year and just learned that the married dude who obsessively tried to get in my pants is now the boss of the whole company. Ew.

No. 1096397

>>1096382
Ooh, I wanna be a bad ""bich!""

No. 1096402

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>>1096374
They don't even see women as human like themselves. And they know most women will just accept their shitty apologies anyway so why try to be sincere? When they were children everyone just shrugged off their antics so is it any wonder they're still entitled as adults?

No. 1096412

This man I know is officially planning to start transition soon and I'm dreading it. He's drifted from our friend group but wants in now that his life is stabilized, trans aside. One of the girls is already offering our collective subservience to him. A joke was already made about sex and the boys with psuedo bisexuality from porn addiction find it enticing. As a teenager were happily outcasted together, not friends out of any commonality. Thought he had a crush on me, thought he was bi, thought he was gay, now thinks he's a woman. I don't want this in my life. I know he will come to me looking for guidance. People used to make fun of me by saying we look the same. Can't imagine it will be better from here.

No. 1096423

Cooking has been ruined for me because I spent the last 10 years cooking for an ungrateful POS older brothers. Now that I finally moved out I just make myself the closest proper meal that gets me off the stove the quickest. Having a family is on the table for me but I don't think I’ll ever be able to cook a meal for a husband without it feeling utterly demeaning, I might end up resenting him. Are there guys out there that don’t expect you to take a bigger control of dinner? I feel like most straight relationships that pretend the guy helps in cooking still has the GF do the majority of meals. I think I literally have to shrink my dating pool down to chefs.

No. 1096430

>>1096402
men dont write letters anymore they text. consider what they got going on special. arthur is an absolute gem in a gold mine

No. 1096432

>>1096423
Find a guy who enjoys cooking. They exist, though I imagine they are very very rare.

No. 1096447

>>1096432
they're really not that rare at all, kek. some of you are so melodramatic

No. 1096455

I'm stoned. I tried having sex with my bf. Couldn't. His Skinny fat body is revolting. Gut hangs out like a potbelly. Hasn't done shit to change it.

When can the nuke hit? When can political dissidence camps open up and he gets thrown into one.

seriously though, it's impossible to move out into one's own apartment. Thanks for letting me vent.

No. 1096482

>>1096455
is he one of those types that thinks women love 'dadbods' so he uses it as an excuse to not eat well or exercise?

No. 1096505

Even though some of the posts in them are really funny, the tinfoil threads were better when they were mostly anons who actually like to tinfoil instead of just memeing on whatever tinfoil is posted and replying with "you actually believe ___?" to everything. Yes, it's fun sometimes, but it feels like you can't have serious conversations there anymore without being the butt of a joke. For the record, I think it was covid tinfoils that changed the threads because a lot of people who don't really like conspiracy stuff came in to talk about you-know-what and it was never the same since.

No. 1096520

How you bitches can be in school for 4 whole years studying at your fancy expensive colleges with the latest most specialized courses for your field, yet not a damn one of you can answer the most basic questions about things that were covered extensively in your coursework?

No. 1096543

>>1096482
AYRT
No, he's just lazy (He works but is a slob) and I'm realizing that I need to stop feeling sorry for myself and get my shit together. I don't want to waste my energy trying to change a dad bod scrote.

No. 1096595

>>1095251
NTA but holy frick I guess I'm constantly stressed cause boy do I feel guilty over having a low/nonexistent libido like 80% of the time. I dunno if it's the BC or what.

No. 1096615

>>1096595
please dont feel bad, if hes saying things that make you feel bad about it just hit him with well how do you think it makes me feel? in a slightly aggressive tone, that always shuts them up in my experience.

No. 1096620

Some ASPD troon turned a bunch of people against me because he's a slimy and cunning fucker and I sincerely hope he 41%s. Not just because of me but he's screwed so many people over the years because, somehow, they are still blind to his true nature. Literal waste of space and breath.
He probably trooned out to escape the blame for any of the crimes he's committed. Someone in the MTF thread mentioned cluster B tendencies with troons and my mind jumped to him immediately

No. 1096648

>>1096447
Yes they are
I went to cooking school and the guys there didn't even like cooking

No. 1096660

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i think i'm the only person who sees it. or, at the very least, i'm the only person who sees it right now (at this present moment - not to say people won't ever see it, or that nobody has ever seen it). i wouldn't consider it a gift, or even necessarily special, but i think most people live out their lives and have no perspective on anything. i really wonder what that's like, to have no philosophical interest or thought or just consume everything until it consumes you. i know i'm never going to be normal but it doesn't really bother me. it's either accepting it or taking pills (humanity lasted long before their advent). i'm not even necessarily sad, just - technically speaking - suicidal. but if you think about it, all good artists take their own lives. (and i'm not advocating for suicide here, it's selfish and fucked up, go get help) - the point is that it's an inevitable consequence. i don't want to die. i love people but i don't understand them. i love life but i don't understand it either. i hope other people feel the same way (not that i want people to be sad, or even if you were it wouldn't really affect me, but just hope that people see things the way i do, where everything is infinitely complex and cosmically stupid)

No. 1096675

>>1096660
babe i think you meant to post in the copypasta thread.

No. 1096714

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Some bitch ass hoe keeps stealing the internet of my neighborhood and the internet company isn’t doing shit about it. I just want to watch the retarded furry girl Pixar movie.

No. 1096718

fucking masks are finally gone and my throat is itchy. because of course.

No. 1096755

>>1096423
Yeah at this point it's 1 "cooked" meal a day with the other 2 being some 5 minute shit. I have no interest in cooking or experimenting with new things. I have no interest in washing tons of dishes and pots, paper plates/eating over the sink ftw. I have no interest in catering to whiny scrotes specific tastes.

No. 1096759

>>1096423
Dutch men love cheese sandwiches

No. 1096764

>>1096402
>When they were children everyone just shrugged off their antics so is it any wonder they're still entitled as adults?
I will continue blaming mothers for raising entitled demons, no matter how much they seethe about muh raising kids is hard.

No. 1096779

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that anti trafficking PSA anon posted was good and effective, but also very disturbing and all men should unironically die

No. 1096784

I find it disgusting that my phone gave me two articles next to each other one about a large increase in homelessness due to the insane cost of living the past 2 years that essentially requires everyone to earn 25+ an hour for living alone from apartment and home prices skyrocketing from out of state residents moving here, higher grocery bills, wages refusing to be at 16+ an hour. Then theres the article about "best new small restaurants now in our town!" Like fuck right off even the colleges have had to extend their food donation hours, give pamphlets about food programs, and ask students if anyones homeless. I know other anons have said it but I wish covid never happened. Maybe my town would have been actually liveable instead of average with insane prices so I wouldn't have to keep working my current job that's high stress. If I wasnt such a pinch holding onto all my money id get a a simpler job at a cute shop or something. If things hadn't turned out this way we could have had the option to live on our own with easier jobs like pre 2020. Im bitter most of my family is dead so there isnt anyone to lean on financially without going into debt if I was fired.

No. 1096792

My internet fandom pals are dragging me down and I had decided to cut ties online but like the spineless dumbass I am I’m staying around a bit longer to draw for this fandom related character event thing. They’re so confrontational and overly defensive about this certain character/ship that they’ve managed to isolate themselves from the rest of the fandom. I initially befriended them bc they’re so vocal and positive about our fave but whenever some other artist from the fandom interacts with me/my art the girlies sort of guilt trip me on discord about interacting with someone one of us had beef with. Now that the chiller side of the fandom has been interacting and complimenting my art I’m realizing that I really hate this petty fandom drama circle I ended up in

No. 1096806

Girl realize the effort you place into bullying me isn't worth it; you spend your life obsessed over people and I wish you'd take a fraction of that effort and focus it on your situation instead of others.

No. 1096814

>>1096779
which one was it? need something like that after the last CP raid

No. 1096817

I hate that I have a non expressive/slighly annoyed looking neutral face. My mom always gets defensive with me because she thinks I'm mad when I'm actually not having any particular feeling. I keep explaing to her that I'm not angry, that's just how my face looks like, but she never listens.

No. 1096824

>>1096817
That's how I feel about my voice. Way too deadpan and mismatches with the way my face looks. I swear I'm a lot more interested than I sound but I sound like a slightly more peppy april ludgate and I can't really change it

No. 1096826

>>1096714
Can I vent about what autistic weebshit this movie is?

No. 1096838

>>1096455
Lol, dump him girl. Don’t date people you’re not attracted to

No. 1096844

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again, i am sorry for this, but imagine coming to this website meant for young women who've not yet been presumably trapped (especially the off topic boards), spending your time bathing in very justified and abundant male-skeptic sentiment, and still deciding to have a child with a man and post on this website. just why. why do people do this

No. 1096848

>>1096844
bitches be like “based” then give a moid a blowjob

No. 1096855

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No. 1096859

>>1096844
damn slut, I just wanted to vent.

No. 1096863

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>>1096859
>>1096855
>>1096848
>>1096844
>>1096861
Stop infighting and kiss, gaddamn it

No. 1096865

>>1096844
>meant for young women who've not yet been presumably trapped
Weird take. This website is also several years old…

No. 1096866

>>1096863
there's no infighting, just observations and almost all of your posts are not infights

No. 1096868

>>1096714
I thought this movie was really cute and I liked it.

No. 1096872

>>1096826
Vent, nonnie, I want to know what you feel.

No. 1096874

>>1096865
>Weird take. This website is also several years old…
i'd say the oldest (frequent) posters here are like, max 33-34 (except for that one 45 yo from san fran from a few yrs back that kept posting her pics), most are likely 19-28 and there has been a general male-skeptic presence for years and years now. this isn't some decades running shit, lc is only like 7 years old and basically necessarily attracts like… youngerish people and the ot boards only gained a really, really significant presence over the past couple of years so i'd say most farmers would still be young and capable of avoiding male entrapment that is uniquely damaging and complicated once you have a kid w them

No. 1096878

>>1096870
Ayrt, I'm 30. Entrapment is a common theme among my peers, and I do think it will be common among millenials due to the specific financial burdens our generation will face as we're graduating college and not living with family. Women have been trying to make it work with men for stability for eons and especially now. Male skepticism is here because so many of us got taken for a ride while trying to be fair and doing our best for what turned out to be the same old ingrates, and a society that would rather gaslight us that it's our fault that scrotes are immoral.
Zoomers will probably face the same shit once they're outta school. Which explains why I'm seeing more posts about living with shitty family and roommates instead.

No. 1096888

>>1096878
and how does a child with men avoid entrapment or enable stability? i'm not really understanding why you thought my post was weird given all you just said. the most radical male skepticism posted here is likely not being posted most commonly by married mothers, anon. this isn't ovarit. it's just not. i have a feeling they probably dip their toes into that tier of posting and will agree with others but i don't understand in particular the exposure to reality and yet still choosing a completely counterintuitive and unnecessarily difficult potential life path. many posters i see talking about kids have young kids or talk about ttc btw

No. 1096895

>>1096888
>and how does a child with men avoid entrapment or enable stability
Sounds like a strawman I didn't bring up. But since you did–shit happens anon. Like I said, women tend to stay with men out of a sense of security, and being alone in the world with a child as a single parent is a doable albeit difficult path. Not every woman can afford an abortion. Not every woman has the same rights and access to birth control.
But that's besides the point, one doesn't have to have a child with a man to feel entrapped in the relationship.
>the most radical male skepticism posted here is likely not being posted most commonly by married mothers
You're correct and I didn't say that, I said it's posted by women who've been burned by men which may or may not be because they're currently in a relationship with one. There's no real way for any of us to know.
>I don't understand in particular the exposure to reality and yet still choosing a completely counterintuitive and unnecessarily difficult potential life path
Because straight women have romantic and sexual needs too.

No. 1096901

>>1096895
>Sounds like a strawman I didn't bring up.
not really a strawman, you were just trying to link having children to somehow developing a sense of (financial) security given other pressures and obligations? or i don't even know what you were getting at with that really. DINKdom is like pretty clearly the most secure if you want to go that route. having children with men actively threatens your longterm financial, mental, legal, and physical security.
>Like I said, women tend to stay with men out of a sense of security, and being alone in the world with a child as a single parent is a doable albeit difficult path. Not every woman can afford an abortion. Not every woman has the same rights and access to birth control.
this conversation has never been about dating men, it's about the choice to have children with men. the majority of mother posters on here or ttc posters don't seem to be desperately in need of abortion, but okay. it's entirely possible but seems like a different subset of people entirely.
>Because straight women have romantic and sexual needs too.
again, how does this relate to the choice to specifically have a child with them and complicate your situation massively, given the general awareness of male shittiness on these boards? why do you keep referring back to dating or cohabiting, essentially, as if that's even the question at all?

No. 1096915

>>1096901
>you were just trying to link having children to somehow developing a sense of (financial) security
I don't define "entrapment" as necessarily having a child with a man so maybe that's where you're misunderstanding. As I've mentioned, I know plenty of friends my age without children who don't have great relationships with their partners who stay in those relationships out of financial necessity. But yes children most definitely would complicate finances and compound that fear of leaving.
This conversation started because you have a belief that women can't both have a disparaging view about men while simultaneously being in a relationship with one.
>this conversation has never been about dating men, it's about the choice to have children with men
Again I think we just define entrapment differently. Women absolutely can be entrapped to men without children–fyi.
>again, how does this relate to the choice to specifically have a child with them and complicate your situation massively
…you really can't grasp how biological needs hardwired into most humans would drive them to perform actions against their own overall good in the long run? Things change anon. What seems like a good idea in the honeymoon phase of a relationship can be a road to hell paved with good intentions.
>why do you keep referring back to dating or cohabiting
Because I definite entrapment differently than you based on my observations of childless women still feeling trapped in relationships for a variety of reasons. Hope that clears it up.

No. 1096916

>>1096874
i was wondering how old lolcow was thanks for answering that for me

No. 1096936

>>1096895
> Because straight women have romantic and sexual needs too.

NTA but I really fucking hate this shit. It’s literally incel logic. And as if lesbians all can easily get partners and have sex any time kek

No. 1096975

>>1096936
How is it incel logic and what does that sentence have to do with thinking lesbians get laid more easily? However there is no doubt it's much easier to hold steadfast opinions about men when one biologically wants nothing to do with them romantically nor sexually, hm.

No. 1097008

>>1096975
incels argue that sex is a need

No. 1097009

so something happened in my city (think like a tornado) and my university schedule all got pushed back a week, so people who weren't affected by the event had a free week to catch up on anything they missed, while the people who were affected barely had any time to do anything, so that extra week was useless to us. I'm so pissed that people who weren't affected by this event got a free week to relax or catch up on work while we had to focus on the damage the event had on us and our houses, and also struggle with no power or internet. fuck.

No. 1097014

Pleasepleaseplease can this week be a good week? Last week I had so little energy to do anything except the bare minimum. I couldn't even concentrate on things I wanted to do to relax. I feel like I wasted most of my free time because I didn't even have energy to do something as simple as watch anime or play a game. It was so awful. I actually have a lot of things I need to do this week so I would appreciate it if I didn't have to force myself into doing things and take twice the time to complete them because I've been so out of it. I also would appreciate it if I had motivation to be able to do anything other than sleep. Thank you.

No. 1097015

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No. 1097016

>>1097008
Incels are also extremely misogynistic males and think they’re entitled to sex. Heterosexual women desiring romantic and sexual relationships with moids aren’t the same thing.

No. 1097018

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Kek
>heterosexual women have romantic/sexual needs

Not me though, you all stay safe though. I feel like I’ve ascended above male desire

No. 1097022

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Nonas I am actually at my limit with people in general. Whether I’m at my customer service job or just amongst the general public all I can feel is pessimism at the absolute entitlement and ignorance all around me. Clearly I shouldn’t let others affect me but god when it’s day after day it just burns you out, especially when you yourself try to give a bit of care back into the world.

No. 1097023

>>1097018
same queen

No. 1097024

>>1097016
Calling something a need does imply some level of entitlement. Anyway, isn’t it amazing that we live in an age so full of diverse ranges and types of sex toys?

No. 1097027

>>1097022
what is that pic from

No. 1097028

>>1097016
and what in the world does this have to do with the choice to have children with these men? the choice to have children is not even remotely as biologically pre-determined and unavoidable as society wants to make it appear. ffs, the "biological clock tick" isn't even real but male supremacist societies have literally induced women into thinking it is an actual biological reality. yeah, people want to fuck, but there's an obvious reason why having children is emphasized. it's perfectly easy to not have children and still reap all of the benefits of a sexual or romantic relationship with men, with fewer downsides and potentially far fewer or 0 lifelong draining entanglements. it's incel tier to insist relationships need to lead to lifelong, inescapable entaglements with men who hide their abuse or shortcomings anyways and choose to resent you for "trapping" them, after they've ironically trapped you into a terribly one-sided situation.

No. 1097033

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>>1097027
Some art I saw on my Twitter feed, the face really invoked my current feelings

No. 1097034

>>1097033
someone please make barbie x poe a comic or something I'd love to see this as a fancomic

No. 1097036

>>1097034
Absolutely, that would be such a fun concept

No. 1097038

>>1097036
barbie murders in the rue morgue or barbie and the black cat too, while we're at it, a limitless expanse of ideas, too bad they're too dark for canonical barbie

No. 1097057

>>1097033
This is such a cute idea and great art.

No. 1097067

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I live in a pretty constant state of anxiety, but tonight is the worst it’s ever been. I can’t sleep, I keep edging into a panic attack. It’s always health and mortality related. Thoughts of having a terminal illness, since I haven’t had a check up or even went to a doctor in so long. I don’t have medication, I can’t afford therapy, and I live in a cannabis legal state, but using any of that has always amped it up rather than calm me. I just don’t know what to do. I hate living this way. I would rather enjoy every day as it comes than be constantly worried about the moment I’m going to die, but I just can’t turn that part of my brain off.

No. 1097069

The users on the site I mod are so fucking retarded sometimes. Can't go into detail about the users or the site but sometimes I just wanna close my laptop and walk off of my balcony

No. 1097074

>>1097069
I'm sorry we cause you so much stress, I'll try to be good

No. 1097076

For the last 2 months i've been having some rlly horrible intrusive thoughts that don't let me sleep and i'm also paranoic about losing stuff like i check multiple times my purse when i grab something bc i think i left it somewhere else and i dont trust my memory. This intrusive thoughts are getting worse and worse to the point that fucked up my sleeping. I've been thinking that it could be OCD but i dont like to diagnose myself. Also the health system in my country is shit and affording therapy is a luxury. Can anyone relate??(namefag)

No. 1097078

>>1097074
kek I almost wish I was dealing with farmers.

Scratch that, no I don't.

No. 1097091

I saw a guy who tried rape me years ago today in passing. I had known him for a while and we had mutual friends so I didn't think it was a big deal to have a few drinks at his apartment. Made me realize I've never even tried to process that experience. Like it doesn't feel "that bad" compared to other experiences I've had but when I saw his face I felt so sick and angry. It's the only experience like that I've had as an adult since I'm usually extremely vigilant because of what happened to me when I was younger. I think I'm more upset that I let my guard down than that he put his hands on me. Idk.

No. 1097099

>>1097076
I’m gonna ignore your newfag behavior and say yeah it’s probably intrusive thoughts, you should google how to deal with them if you cant afford therapy and find some coping and self soothing methods to shut them up. It took me years to figure out how to deal with mine

No. 1097129

Something happened and i think whatever progress I’ve made the last 7 years is shattered now. I’m full of anguish. I’m not even going to fight the mental illness anymore I’m letting it take it me and then it will all be over.

No. 1097152

>be me
>bored
>decide to msg old guy friend from HS, were close back then but not very, almost best friends but hes a grade younger, hung out in our close group of friends over the 4years
>he used to have a crush on me
>we talk and decide to catch up
>asks if he wants to see my new place and have coffee
>comes over
>he asks me my rent, my rent is pricey but he lives w his munchie mom and says I should move in his basement, think hes joking and brush it off,
>asks me "What would have to happen to make you move out Anon? Haha"
>still think hes joking
>"Unless theres cockroaches or an earthquake, I'm gonna keep this rental no matter what"
>knows my cleaning obsession from being traumatized as a child, suite is <350sq ft, in new apartment building
>I get on my hands and knees and scrub my house with brushes for literally 10-18 hours every week, know every inch, pull put fridge etc, my room is a box.
>doesnt know how often or long or frequent I clean. Just thinks house is clean.
>fast forward a week
>we get along
>decide to hangout more (this happens over two weeks and three visits)
>he comes over one day
>me in bathroom
>"ANON !! COME OUT!! WTF IS THAT!!"
>I come out
>young cockroach on middle of floor
>me, obviously grossed out, screams
>him, steps on it
>"wow anon!! That's so disgusting!! (Was on phone with his friend for no reason that I've never met) Ew I found a cockroach in anons house!!"
>tell him that HE must have brought it in because I've never seen even a fruit fly in my house, I also own two cats
>him, gets defensive and hangs up
>"well anon you should call your building manager RIGHT NOW."
>tells him "no", anxious because new rental and im young tenant.
>he gets mad and tells me he has to go home because hes grossed out
>I stay up for three days (literally) cleaning my house, room is box w patio door, no cracks or holes, literally a box, you wouldnt know unless you moved my bed, futon or computer
>no signs of any bugs or life
>dont tell him this

>he comes over again

>"wow anon, your place is clean, you havent seen any cockroaches again? you probably just sleep when they come out"
>"wdym anon you havent seen any signs of bugs? You can just stay at my house while they fume your apartment. I cant believe you didnt tell your manager yet anon, I can do it for you"
>keepplayingdumb.jpeg
>tell him I need to take shower
>he tells me he needs to leave my house to do XYZ and will see me next time, tells me he will 'pack up' while I shower
>hears him leave about 5 mins into me 'taking a shower'
>me, leaves bathroom
>sees coackroach on counter????
>coackroach looks terrified
>coackroach not moving
>isitdead.jpg?
>grabs glass, traps it
>no way someone would do that to me
>call him because retard.jpg
>my dad is coming over
>he insists on coming back and seeing it
>bring him back and tell him to watch it as my dad is on his way and I have to let him on my floor from the lobby
>my dad and I go upstairs
>coackroach missing
>what the fuck
>calls him because hes gone too
>"oh it pushed the jar and I'm in rush so cant explain bye"
>I talk to my dad about how GUY thinks I'm retarded and I'm 99% sure he is bringing them in but I dont want to seem psychotic
>dad tells me to trust my gut

>decide to give him one more chance

>he comes over
>tell him I'm so scared and grossed out and if I see one more I will move into his basement because hes so sweet uwu
>REVEALS to me it's a good idea because then we can live in his basement suite in separate rooms while he gets disability subsidy from the government because he hates his current warehouse jobs and then me, who loves to work, can work and take turns watching his munchies mom anxious dog who cant be left alone with a stranger or alone because it screams so loud the neighbors keep calling the cops and city so they get noise complaints
>tells me that if this goes well he might even consider marrying me
>holy fuck this guys a psychopath.jpg
>aha ok agree so he doesnt murder you
>tell him I need to use washroom
>"ANON!!! THE COACKROACH!! THEYRE BACK"
>leaves washroom and sees him about to step on it
>grabs him by his jacket and tells him not to step on it and leave it
>tries to step on it and asks me wtf
>stops him from getting near it and stays quiet
>I used to study entomology (study of incests) but no one knows that
>the coackroach stays still, doesnt move
>I tell him to stand in the hallway and not move or else
>he stands in hallway and keeps talking about how he NEEDS to kill it
>realize it's the third time I've seen a young adult coackroach with same markings
>walk towards it
>it runs to corner of my room, frightened, not even to the dark corner
>I kill it, grab his shit and scream at him to get out

This fucker used to own a hedgehog and would feed his pet the exact same young adult coackroach speices that's only available at pet stores.

Nonnies I know I sound schizosperg but I swear to god I've never seen a coackroach since and it's been 8 months.

I'm only 21 and I seriously cant even talk to men now without thinking they're allfucking psychopaths, he hasn't tried to contact me since either. I hate men and would gladly die with a vibrator in my hand and joint in the other.

sososo glad to get this off my chest.

No. 1097169

>>1097152
samefag but I know this is the vent thread but at the same time I feel so stressed posting this, it sounds so fucking bizarre but I swear I cant make this shit up. He actually ruined guys for me after pulling that shit. I didnt have any guy friends before that and I'm not close w any woman I know irl but om honestly convinced all men are psychopaths except for my dad now and I even get sus sometimes. My old experiences from HS already gave me little hope but now it's real fucked. He seemed SO normal too but I guess his mask couldnt help but slip eventually. I am actually SO mad over it. I totally trusted him enough that if I had a child he would be the godfather. I would have trusted him w everything. He even had told me that he would think about me when we weren't talking but I think he REALLY meant it. This guys whole plan was centered around me moving in with him.

We even went out on a date in between coackroaches and he did an ILLEGAL LEFT TURN on a Green while cars were coming towards us (I'm a traffic controller????) And I was like HOLY FUCK you almost killed us and he laughed it off and said "I read traumatic experiences make people bond better". J could be reading into it but I was so mad and scared and he kept laughing at me and telling me it was going to make us bond better and I shouldnt be serious because hes a good driver.(he also went down the wrong side of the highway with me in the car later that day and tried to justify it as 'the wrong turn signs aren't clear enough' DESPITE ME TELLING HIM AND THEN I COUNTED TO HIM 8 FUCKING WRONG WAY TURN SIGNS?????)

I dont even know

No. 1097170

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nonas, its like 2 am and im so horrified. im pretty sure my phone is about to explode, i connected it to a power outlet and i immediately started to smell burnt plastic. i saw actual smoke coming out of the USB port. what do i do with this thing now?

No. 1097174

>>1097152
holy shit anon what the fuck kek is your high school friend a sitcom character??

No. 1097180

>>1097170
just put it in rice water nonnie
(but fr I hope your phone is fine)

>>1097174
my whole life is a fucking sitcom so I wouldnt be surprised ugghh

No. 1097181

>>1097152
Anon that guy is derangement incarnate. You’re fire for getting so thoroughly to the bottom of it, what a gripping tale. I cannot believe he really thought he could trick someone into moving into his basement and marrying him. He’s gross and fucked up. I totally get how you feel about only trusting your dad but I don’t want you to start feeling too scared and wary of people or anxious on top of living on your own so young. I hope you can remember this as a funny, freaky experience.

No. 1097182

>>1097170
unplug it and put it in another room, far away from you

No. 1097183

>>1097170
Take it to it’s respective ‘store’ as soon as possible. When my phone overheats I just put it in the fridge …I do this when it’s room temperature too though. I like it chillay~

No. 1097184

>>1097182
i just put it somewhere else but im still so paranoid its gonna catch on fire

No. 1097187

>>1097184
>>1097170
samefag, if its not connected does it still have the risk of exploding or something? i dont know what im doing pls help

what the hell do i do with this literal fire hazard in my house

No. 1097190

>>1097187

If it gets too hot it can explode the battery but my old phone was notorious for the battery getting too hot. I would let it cool down in the fridge (freezer can cause condensation which is no beueno).

If it gets really hot quickly then I would check your settings>battery/device matinence or settings>storage to see if you're using a lot of storage or memory (which can cause your phone to overheat). I only use android so I am unsure how apple works, but you might just need a new phone or to take frequent breaks, the older the phone, the hotter the battery will run.

Some phones you can just get a battery replacement and it will stop over heating too

Hope this helps xo

No. 1097192

>>1097152
as an anon dealing with roaches due to a neighbor who probably brought them (never had them the other years I was here and also clean freak) fuck him. absolutely fuck him for trying to bring something so god damn invasive in that types like the German ones can live off WATER.

No. 1097193

I think my therapist hates me

No. 1097199

>>1097152
>>1097169
holy shit nonny, that's insane. it reads like a deranged seinfeld plot. also
>"I read traumatic experiences make people bond better"
this guy is absolutely nuts.

No. 1097202

i hate myself. my boyfriend is here and i got upset over something stupid like i always do and now neither of us will talk. i just drank a bunch too because i was upset even though i knew it was a bad idea. i wish i wasnt like this so fucking bad, i wish i could just suck things up and act normal, but i cant around him. i feel so fucking pathetic every time this happens, what the fck is wrong with me, why am i so sensitive.

No. 1097205

>>1097152
Lmao what the fuck nonny. This is insane, like other anon said, some weird seinfeld plot.

No. 1097208

>>1097202

my bf and I are like this too sometimes and we've been together for 3 years. Hes avoid avoidant attachment which means he pulls away when he feels uncomfortable or theres an issue which sucks BUT hugging has helped us SO much. I'm stubborn too and hate it but sometimes just a hug and rub on the back can resolve and start talking again.. we actually did this today too lol.

I was upset but slowly scooched over and eventually just let myself hug him and rubbed his back.
I hope this helps you, he loves you because if he didnt he would leave/remove himself from the situation (my bf told me when I stress over issues like this that i should remember he can always go home or leave in the sense he can always physically remove himself if he was THAT mad/uncomfy)
you can still have a good time together!!

No. 1097210

It's nearly 6am, I've been crying nearly all night. It's been nearly 3 years since I graduated and I still haven't found any work thanks to the pandemic making my country's shitty job market even shittier. I still miss my mom even though it's been months since she passed, the house just isn't the same, it's too quiet now and it makes me uncomfortable. I miss my cat that ran away January. I'm still lamenting over my best friend leaving to go to a better country in a few months. My heart aches knowing that our times hanging out and doing stuff together is almost at an end and I'll only ever see her irl if she comes back here on vacation or if I go see her. I feel like I've been on a losing streak since September and I'm losing hope that I'll get out of this rough patch, right now it feels like everything is just going to keep getting worse and worse and it has me questioning whether it's worth it to continue on.

No. 1097216

>>1097210
It's always worth to try to go on in hope of good things happening, no matter how small or sparse. Hope something like this comes up for you soon, anon. And in meantime it's ok to cry, you've been through a lot, and uncertain future is not making things any easier.

No. 1097237

>>1096138
rihanna can't wink for shit lol

No. 1097257

>>1097208
thank you anon, physical affection is always what snaps us out of it too, it just sucks because im insane and hes so affected by my mental state, but he always pulls me in to cuddle when he notices me holding my breath so he cant tell im crying lol. i just really need to work on getting over myself, and start making the first move. i guess i just feel so ashamed that i do it so much, but i do know that he loves me and would rather be with my crazy ass than without me.

No. 1097264

>>1097216
Thanks for the words of comfort anon. I cried even more but being reminded that it's ok to do so lifted some of the weight. You're right, I need to keep going. Thanks again for being so kind.

No. 1097285

>>1097210
nona, i can't imagine how it must be for you. wish i could give you my strenght. i hope you can have many, many good days very soon and your sad days are bearable. i'm sorry.

No. 1097291

I had a really bad fight with my therapist today. After 22 minutes I told him that I would not argue with him about this pointless stuff anymore and that I will end the appointment for today early. He doesn't make any effort to understand me and my situation. He should try to understand me better and be more helpful and stand on my side but all he does is defend my abusive parents and tries to get me to understand their positions. I felt angry, sad and also as if he is trying to manipulate me. It just makes me angry and doesn't do anything for me or my goals.

No. 1097297

I hate feeling arousal, I hate being horny, I hate when I desire sex. I want to cry. It is so embarrassing and humiliating. I barely experience sexual arousal and I like it that way, it's perfect, it's how I am. It is so weird the rare times I am horny, like I am right now. I hate it. I feel weird and out of my element. Please… just stop…

No. 1097298

>>1097291
Oh wow, fuck him, so insensitive. I hope you can find someone else. I can imagine for some people it's easier to forgive once they understand the other party's position, and once they forgive it's easier to move on, but it's not true for every person and it's crazy he'd insist on going in that direction despite you being clearly not okay with it.

No. 1097300

>>1097298
Yes thank you anon I also didn't understand it. I went to therapy for depression, abusive parents and low self esteem. I told my therapist about a bad fight I had with my mother who hurt me pretty bad and how I finally argued back and didn't back down and he just does this dumb shit and tries to get me to understand my mother. This doesn't serve me at all and I feel kinda betrayed as if he wants me to get manipulated and controlled. It was also a mistake to have a scrote therapist

No. 1097311

>>1097291
Don't get male therapists. They're retarded.

No. 1097312

>>1097300
Samefag when I told him that I wished that my boyfriend would finally get a job and finish his degree he told me that I should try escorting if I liked money this much

No. 1097315

>>1097291
I've generally heard more negative stories than positive ones when it comes to being a woman and seeing a male therapist.

No. 1097316

>>1097312
Kek. He's an incel, these types become therapists or psychiatrists very often. I had an abusive situation with a man and a male psychiatrist just gave me meds to calm me down while telling me the man bullying me and forcing me to get plastic surgery was right and I was over reacting.

No. 1097320

>>1097300

Aww, feeling sad for you anon. I hate to generalize but I find males are typically worse in healthcare when it comes to being a woman, whether its therapy or going to get a cold checked out- they generally are more apathetic and less considerate.
I would 10000% switch theripasts and leave a review after, if you wouldn't take his advice as a friend then the label should make no difference.

I'm so sorry nonna, I hope your next theripast is much better. I want to tear out my hair for you xx

No. 1097324

its been almost a year since ive been with my ex but it was my first relationship, i lived with him and it was abusive etc etc. i do not feel anything for him anymore nor am i in contact with him but a couple of times a month i have scary dreams about him or things he did to me?

is this something i need therapy for? it makes me wonder if part of me has not let go yet or something is lying dormant. i wish him the best in his life but i do not want him in my thoughts as he is a very sick person. i have finally felt ready to pursue someone else and i have been but aghi just dont. want my ex in my dreams???? is there something i need to heal more from?? i feel pathetic to get therapy for this if need be and im worried it could be seen as unnecessary since it wasnt incredibly physical and more so emotional and mental abuse with only a bit of physical.

i just want to make sure i am healed and i want to lead a happier life, just hard to tell if this is bringing me down as i only have my perspective right now. open to therapy unless something else may help; journaling/mindfulness? not sure, thank you nonnies.

No. 1097326

I swear to god the cliche sjw's are always one of the rudest, most unempathetic people to deal with.

No. 1097327

>>1097312
What the fuck report him.

Female therapists can be just as bad though. Told one I finally broke it off with my verbally, sexually and physically abusive ex and that I was sad about it, but it was for the better and I need to put my health and safety first. She spendt the rest of the appointment trying to convince me to go back to him, that I could win him back if I wanted, that we should try again. Wth.

No. 1097333

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Manager: I thought I told you dust the shelves? There is a speck of dirt there.
Me: oh I did dust it, that is just a chip in the paintwork
Manager: ok, well can you dust it again? And try not to chip the paintwork this time.
MFW:

No. 1097339

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Future generations of men are gonna be even more fucked up because of the shit that exists on TikTok. Shit like this freaks me out

No. 1097341

>>1097311
>>1097316
>>1097320
>>1097327
Thank you kind anons, this was def. the final nail in the coffin and I will try and get a new therapist. I feel bad for his wife, children and other patients. I will call the health insurance company tomorrow and tell them all about it
>>1097327
Wtf what a bitch. I am so proud of you that you ditched your ex you deserve so much better. I hope you also got a better therapist.

No. 1097349

>>1097339
This has been happening since forever gen z grew up with ipads kek why do you think they’re pornsick gender specials? We’ve been doomed for a while now

No. 1097350

>>1097327
Male therapists can be pickmes or have a belief that women should get bfs to fix their psychology when going in to relationships while you're not stable is a bad idea. I've had a therapist try to set me up with her patients or make me use tinder and my friend also had her therapist tell her she should get with a guy.

No. 1097354

I am finally at the gym after a lazy inexcusable break from it. I get so anxious going here even though when I'm already here its like a sanctuary for me, the only place I can relieve stress. I just hate how theres moids here. I wish it was a female only gym but unfortunately there are none within walking distance. Now, back to my barbell hip thrusts.

No. 1097355

>>1097339
Dumbass for leaving a 5 year old on a platform which mostly has thirst videos of teens. I also watch dumb short tiktok videos and I only get pet or fashion videos so the boy must've watched the porn videos for them to be suggested and it's shocking his parents didn't realize it. Also a child cant even comment or dm at 5 years old so I feel like someone else was using the same account, probably the dad, and that's why the porn stuff got suggested.

No. 1097362

>>1097350
nta but this sounds highly unethical, if not crossing into violating patient privacy laws in some way??

No. 1097364

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I want friends I WANT FRIENDS is it crazy that i still believe in pure loving friendships despite not being a child anymore? Is it so strange and unnatural to crave companions that lift you up during bad times and love you through your highs and lows? A lot of people tell me i should look for that in a partner but i’m not a romantically inclined person, i just want platonic but genuinely good companionship… or is that only in fairytales?

No. 1097387

>>1097364
Of course it's not childish! I have way better friendships now as an adult than I did as a kid. While romantic relationships are great (for me, not everybody is interested) and can be a lovely addition to one's life at best, imo people sometimes overestimate their importance and downplay the importance of friendships. The fact is that I've known some of my friends before I ever had romantic relationships and they've stayed while my romantic relationships have ended, and I'm just eternally grateful to have friends with whom I genuinely have fun with and love and who love and support me in return. So it's not childish at all to wish for friends and I hope some really good friendships come your way, nona.

No. 1097413

>>1097387
Thank you anon, i self sabotage and have really bad habits i’m working through but i really genuinely love people regardless at the end of the day. Its super painful to deal with doubts and passivity of others

No. 1097427

>>1097355
Nope, if you are on a male owned device they automatically reccomend porny vids and suggestive teen girls. Did an experiment with my ex where we both downloaded tiktok(we both had never used it before), and all I got was makeup, funny vids, animals etc, but he only got porn and teen girl dancing.

I also know for a fact he didn't watch much porn, less than me at the time, as I was staying at home while he worked, and he was a workaholic who never took breaks. So he didn't really have time jerk off to porn.

No. 1097435

>>1096844
kek

>>1097339
What the fuck is a 5-year old doing with a Tiktok account? What the fuck is a 5-year old doing with a smartphone?? Holy shit these parents need the CPS called on them

No. 1097448

It's my first week at a big name group and I don't understand why they put, me, junior on this client.
I feel dumb, I can't manage the simple task assigned to me.
I fucking want to quit. I'm an idiot, I can do the simple shit but that's it. I don't know why I thought I would be good at this.

No. 1097458

My friend and I are both looking for jobs atm and I mentioned I had an interview for a coffee shop today and she asked me if it’d be weird if she came and asked for a job there after me. This is a small business and I think they only plan on hiring one person, so I’m fucking stressed right now. I don’t want her stealing this job opportunity away from me. I’m worried she’s just more sociable that if they agree to interview her they’ll choose her over me. Fucking shouldn’t have mentioned where I’m interviewing, FUCK

No. 1097491

>>1097458
Nvm she agreed to wait until after they decide to hire me or not to apply. FRIENDSHIP IS GREAT

No. 1097595

I'm so fucking depressed and broke, I just wanna drink for at least a few hours of…okay-ness. I wanna watch Jerma videos, get drunk and forget about everything.
But im broke and don't feel like doing anything. I'm useless.

No. 1097608

>>1097491
I'm glad things worked out! I hope you'll both find jobs soon!

No. 1097631

I hope reincarnation is real, i love life but not the one i was given

No. 1097633

WHY on gods green earth would i BUY a home in an area thats going to tell me what i can and cant own inside?? or in an area where they force you to maintain a grass lawn with no exception for alternative landscaping? if i wanted other people to tell me how to live i would continue RENTING.

im like legit disgusted that the realtor would send us a link to a house that has a 'no dog policy' for the entire neighborhood when she knows we have 2 already. wtf kind of spineless idiot does she take us for that we would just accept being told we couldnt own a pet in the home we OWN. im appalled such a practice/places even exist

No. 1097643

>>1097631
Do you think you get reincarnated if you commit suicide? Been thinking about it lately. Or does your form sway around in limbo forever? Guess it depends on what religion you consult.

If I do die by suicide one day I hope there's an afterlife for me and not just purgatory. I already feel like I'm in purgatory

No. 1097653

I can't with my mother's everchanging attitude. Literally yesterday: 'you should get yourself new glasses, actually, why don't we go shopping together? I'll pay for the new pair, just pick whatever you like!!' Today: 'Actually' you should get the eye surgery, your cousin had it too. And since you're a big girl, you should pay for it yourself.' I'm unemployed for the record

No. 1097691

>>1097643
I hope there is an afterlife or limbo where you don't have to work every day because then i would off myself so fucking fast

No. 1097700

>>1097691
The worst form of limbo would be whatever Madison's afterlife in AHS was. 24/7 retail job

No. 1097724

>>1097633
where are you from? a lot of people in america deal with HOAs, it's bizarre and very dumb but accepted so if you're in america it's not the realtor's fault. a lot of people don't mind it that much, at least not enough to avoid not buying in them.

No. 1097728

>>1097643
Samfag, but theres no specific religion i subscribe to so whats gonna happen to me? Lol i want to be reincarnated and given like 3 more chances top thats all

No. 1097740

I'm so done, but I'm kind of happy I got back to where I was years ago. Friendless, in pain, far away from everyone I've known and jobless. It should be a bad thing but it's comforting somehow. I realize I don't really care about the people who don't care about me. I'm in pain and depressed, I feel like I'm at the end of the road and that's also fine. I will wake up every morning by myself and stare at the sky or the people passing by. If I want to do something, I'll just draw or write some shitty poetry. I will take long walks in the fields nearby with my dog, even on foggy days. If I hurt, I will cry or cut and I will mend the wounds myself. I can do it as many times as I want, I don't need to hide it because no one will see me. I'm happy that I don't need to pretend everything's fine in front of others and I'm happy I won't have to make up stories to make my ex friends believe that my life's alright and interesting and I'm functional. I can be miserable.

No. 1097783

I hate myself. I hate not having executive functions. I make a million plans and do nothing. I have dozens of books on my bookshelf I never read. I have dozens of movies on my computer that I never watched. Messages on my phone I never read. I literally cannot function. Time to time the desire to 'get my shit together' pops up, I do things for a while, but then everything falls apart. I hate myself.

No. 1097822

Middle eastern men should not be allowed to work as doctors or psychs for women.

No. 1097824

It's been 2 years and I think I've finally caught corona. My father tested positive a few days ago and my throat started hurting today. Still I've only tested negative on self tests for 4 days in a row.

No. 1097837

I hate meeting people similar to me because more than often enough they start to trauma-bond with me. And as we slowly get to know each other it just doesn't work out because there's just nothing interesting left to find out. Though I'm glad I'm starting to realize that I don't have to make friends who come from the same background or have the same interests as me.

No. 1097840

Radiohead wrote a beautiful song for that bond movie but they went with some pop drivel by literal who Sam Smith instead

No. 1097847

>>1097822
True

>>1097783
>>1097740
I don't have anything productive to say to either of you, but I'm offering virtual hugs anyway

No. 1097859

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Anons. What the fuck? Why is Japan seen as and romanticised like a whimsical place yet stuff like this is normal.

No. 1097860

>>1097859
Is this real news?

No. 1097862

>>1097859
Oh my god. Why live as a woman.

No. 1097866

>>1097862
If men can't handle normal boring standard hairstyles like ponytails they should seppuku.

No. 1097867

When I was 7 a boy in my class just came up to me and slapped me in the face so hard his hand print was on my face for days and I'm brown. My parents were livid but they couldn't do anything about it because "oh he was just playing too rough, anon isn't used to playing with boys, etc". His parents never were called. I had to stay in classes with him until I graduated and I never saw him again. Until today. He apologized profusely and explained that the reason he hit me was because his father was abusive to his mother and when he asked about it his father told him he only hit her because he loved her. And back then he had a crush on me so to show me his love he hit me. He said after graduation his mother ran away with him and started over. He's been to therapy but he never forgave himself for hitting me. I just told him I forgave him and we parted ways but idk if I can ever really forgive him for making me afraid for so many years.

No. 1097868

My coworker said that she’s thinking of quitting and I hope she actually goes through with it.
I’ve only been at this job for 2 months, but she’s such an asswipe. I don’t get what her deal is. She likes to gossip and I’m nearly sure has already talked shit about me (people outside of department have somehow known things that could pertain to me), despite me never talking to her. She talked bad about the intern when she didn’t really do anything, so it’s possible. I’ve tried to be polite; (used to) say bye before leaving and got ignored by her every time, gave everyone in the office some candy when it was Valentine’s Day. She’s rude to almost everybody but seems to be annoyed with me the most, despite her not even knowing me. The only person she gets along with is this sociopath that’s obsessed with her and buys her lunch and gifts. Seems like the asshole wants everyone to go out of their way for her, but respects a two-way street and she’s never done anything nice for anyone, not even the bare minimum of being polite. I want her to quit so there’s no more drama, because she likes to gossip and shit stir. She’s just ugly and rude.

No. 1097869

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i feel like this place is filled with male posters more than ever before and it gets stressful looking at the threads here for me.
There were always scrote posters but there is way more now. I also felt like some of of our oldfag nonnys also left after some of the issues lolcow has been having and we are stuck with a new wave of scrotes and newfags.

If i wanted to look at shitty male opinions i would just use social media or 4chan.

No. 1097871

>>1097859
Is this recent news? When the fuck will men stop to blame women for their own degeneracy?? If they get excited by ponytails, they should cut their dicks off and let women wear their hair in ponytails, simple as that

No. 1097872

>>1097867
I wouldn't have forgiven him, I would have spat on his face and told him to slash his own throat.

No. 1097873

>>1097869
dw nonnie I'm not male, just an angry tomboy

No. 1097876

>>1097859
Men sexualize everything especially normal things women wear. Disgusting pieces of shit.

No. 1097877

>>1097859
Cue flashback to when my ex (American) said that Japan was better than the west because they were more sexually liberated and less prudish because they never had Christianity. Right

No. 1097878

>>1097873
Nta but there ARE still a lot of scroteposters here tho

No. 1097880

>>1097869
I feel this too. I also hate that you can't even tinfoil about moids being here without anons butting in going "you're clinically retarded for thinking ONLY MEN say that!" like sorry but I am not the clinically retarded one for thinking that there are males on this site. The clinical retarded anons are the anons who never even stop to consider that maybe males really are lurking and posting here. Of course, the finger-pointing gets tiresome, but there definitely are males on this site. Just look at the femboy thread in /snow/, it's full of obvious troony moid newfags.

No. 1097885

>>1097873
lmao same highfive!

No. 1097887

>>1097880
Yeah and the threads of any cows that do OF are filled with moids too. Some of the comments just seem scrotish. Mooriah’s thread reads just like KF. Same with Shayna.

No. 1097888

>>1097862
Things like these are why I can't completely hate aidens because can you really blame them? We are forced to live in a world ruled by degenerate men and their degenerate fetishes, I can understand why some women want out.

No. 1097890

>>1097880
people just need to accept that there are female retards AND males and there have always been Y-tards amongst us shitting up the board for their own purposes, including lots and lots of falseflagging and demanding /ot/'s destruction, namely.

No. 1097892

>>1097869
I bet you %100 this is because of the anti-lesbian poster KEK

No. 1097898

>>1097880
i mean its not even tinfoil and the anons who think that are dumb as shit pickmes. The males who come to troll and post here have admitted numerous times that they are males and that they will keep on posting indefinitely, i think the scrote-posters who are good at hiding themselves here are worse than the openly troll ones because they are total creeps and predators. The steven situation is a good example of scrote being good at integration (until he got exposed).
>>1097890
it was never like this,i remember even when we had the pinkpill threads in the past there wasn't this much scrote posters.
>>1097892
what are you even talking about loon.

No. 1097902

>>1097877
It’s like the complete opposite…weird how so many guys think that. Japan produces the most degenerate and bizarrely violent media because their society is sexually repressed (not sure if that’s the term). Torture porn in hentai, VNs, manga. There’s a fetish for nearly everything and it sucks that the women there get pulled into it. Ponytails? Really? Let women wear their hair how they want to.

No. 1097910

>>1097902
That's exactly what I thought. Arguing with him was painful. He was a literal autist.

No. 1097912

>>1097898
>it was never like this,i remember even when we had the pinkpill threads in the past there wasn't this much scrote posters.
it warded them off the rest of the site BUT they were here trying to sabotage the pp threads and tranny threads (not the ones on /snow/ that we know they also use) much meta posting by them too. the less hospitable the environment, the less they'll feel likely to casually use. they were more here to sabotage before, now it feels like they're actually using the site. they were also here when the robot threads were open, too. my tinfoil is that last admin refused to show backbone and instead demonized the people that were keeping them from becoming casual users.

No. 1097916

>>1097902
i'm almost afraid to ask as a ponytail wearer, but… explain?

No. 1097922

>>1097912
The ppl who kept the scrotes away (fujos, radfems, pinkpillers) were chased off, not even containment threads.

No. 1097923

>>1097922
exactly

No. 1097927

>>1097867
So funny how men can get out of any situation by playing the muh mental health card. Demand he give you money for emotional reparations and then spit in his face. JFC.

No. 1097928

>>1097916
My first thought is that ponytails make them think about giving blowjobs or pulling hair during sex, but who knows what other degeneracy men have in mind.

No. 1097930

>>1097912
Maybe you are right. I feel like I've always been able to identify moids on image boards because they are always seething vessels of hatred and always arguing with each other which is one of the things that makes male dominated spaces so unbearable. I do recall some moid admitting he uses lolcow to get away from that, but he was swiftly banned. I wouldn't be surprised if they came here because "muh cozy vibes" and also this site has a thread on kiwi farms where they seem to think we are stupid whores who sit around and talk about are periods. I do think in a way that the man hate thread being removed has done the site some good in terms of the worst moid offenders. I'd like to know how you came to your conclusion because most men are completely clueless about interaction between women and think we all have empty brains and their interactions with this site proves it.

No. 1097932

>>1097912
you explained what i was trying to say/think.
In the past the males here would mostly troll and bait and had no interest in anything beyond that but now these freaks are trolling AND trying to become a part of the userbase and are shitting up threads ,trying to make this place just like 4chan.

Also anyone find it weird how seemingly normal threads that anons here love get taken down (cow makeover is a recent example of this) but threads here that attract males/trolls and have mostly male-posters in them are allowed to stay.

No. 1097933

>>1097922
Fujo stuff doesn't help against scrotery, remember when a scrote spammed the war thread with yaoi pics and making gross kissy comments?

No. 1097934

>>1097339
Be more worried about actual porn and anime.

No. 1097935

>>1097869
> i feel like this place is filled with male posters more than ever before
Sweet summer child, males didn't even used to get banned here before. Seriously just go check in /sty/, there used to be threads here where anons would happily interact with self proclaimed R9k men. You think NOW is bad? Oh I'm cackling.

No. 1097940

>>1097933
That was shota shit though, normal yaoi aimed at women repels scrotes. Also, that may have been just a woman anon baiting.

No. 1097943

>>1097935
and? so that means we should be okay with bare minimum because of how it was almost a decade ago.

The last team did a good job at keeping away males from here as much as they can and they actually would communicate with us unlike the new absent team.

No. 1097945

>>1097943
>so that means we should be okay with bare minimum
Where did I say that
I'm just saying it's been much worse than it is now

No. 1097947

>>1097888
Yep. That's how I feel as well. It's ironic, isn't it, men transition to be "women" for their fetish and women transition to be "men" to escape the sexualizing and objectifying of the female body by men.

No. 1097948

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seething and coping and telling myself that elise grav*l (cute childrens author who draws a fuckton of pro-female, pro-tomboy, anti-gender stereotype content) just included this in her newest book so she could keep creating all her usual stuff without being cancelled

No. 1097950

>>1097943
uh literally no, the last team was actively against shit that kept the men away.

No. 1097951

>>1097943
>they actually would communicate with us unlike the new absent team.
This is the biggest problem with the site right now. Seriously, what's wrong with the current admin? There has barely been a word from her despite boards being down.

No. 1097954

>>1097951
I think current admin is just sick of everything to do with lolcow atm, I imagine dealing with Elaine just made her even less motivated to deal with the site. The new admin isn't fully the new admin yet and is still learning the ropes it seems. Here's hoping she'll be more active, she's talked once in /meta/ iirc

No. 1097955

>>1097948
This is so stupid…what is being a girl supposed to feel like? Or feeling like a boy? No one has been able to answer this question without making a stereotype. I don’t think anyone specifically feels like a girl or a boy, but TRAs really like pushing this to children (and older).

No. 1097956

>>1097950
the admin yes but the mods were fast as fuck back then because there so many seething males back then because of the pinkpill threads which lead to alot of raiding and the mods then were faster at banning and removing male-posters and their spam.

No. 1097957

i cannot trust him anymore. I hate him. He sees me as a piece of meat. He does not respect me, I don't respect him.

No. 1097960

>>1097859
>>1097871
not defending coomers but it's not the ponytail itself that's being sexualized, but the exposed back of the neck. same reason why geisha makeup doesn't paint the back of the neck. In short the decision makers are pervy old moids but even Japan these sort of regulations are considered weird, thats why its news.

No. 1097965

>>1097955
Yeah, even as a concept, how can you possibly know what it feels like to be something you are not, and not feel like something you are? Literal insanity.

No. 1097968

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>>1097948
>>1097955
>>1097965

picrel is the kind of stuff she /usually/ draws

No. 1097972

>>1097955
"Gender" is a word they use to basically tell their dull personality/tastes and which stereotype they want to fit into. When they "feel" like a girl, they mean they like make-up, dresses and pink and to act overly soft, gently or submissive (like they think women should be). When they "feel" like a boy they mean they don't like to be sexualized, they have a strong personality, maybe they like videogames and "men" interests. They don't want to see that women and men can have any interest or personality regardless of sex, they need to act like stereotypes (mostly because they're autistic).

No. 1097987

>>1097968
Weird.
Something like that happened to a book series I read recently. A major plot strand involved people play acting gendered clothes and behaviour to coom, in a future society that erased gender centuries ago. The direct result of gender fetishism (literally called that in the books) spreading was removing women from positions of power, terrorism and a general undermining of democratic processes.

Except at the very end there was a paragraph about how actually maybe gender is cool and we should totally explore it more and abolishing it was probably too hasty. The author got a lot of shit for literal genocide of trannies (can't be trans if there's no gender roles), so I guess she was bullied into adding that.

No. 1097991

>>1097987
Which series?

No. 1097996

>>1097991
Terra Ignota. It's very eclectic and you have to be kinda into the same weird things as the author to really enjoy it I think.

No. 1098016

I’ve been having technical issues all day at work and IT does not believe me even though I’ve been reporting it with proof. I wish I could be tradfem so bad

No. 1098021

Why I'm sweating so much? I sit in front of my computer, doing nothing. The fuck? Calm down bitch.

No. 1098025

>>1097152
this was an absolutely fascinating story.
some people live such interesting lives.
also sorry that happened to you, especially the lost sleep, i will put a cockroach in his ear while he sleeps for you

No. 1098031

>>1097339
i used to think ppl were overreacting about this shit but now i've spent more time around kids more and i've seen boys who were like 6 talk about "tits and ass" irl and making anime girl cumming noises as a joke. it's super concerning. how do they perceive the little girls around them? do they see them as people?

No. 1098042

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I miss a friend. We were so close but she was so bad for me. She suddenly started treating me horribly after being friends for so long, always picking apart my interests and personality, along with other terrible things behind my back. Her mask fell off and I left her, but despite her terrible nature, I miss the masked friend I had. I remember small moments we had, genuine and warm moments. I still cannot delete our pictures together. In my heart I know those little times are not enough to balance out the bad stuff, but I do miss her. I sometimes see memes or pictures I want to send to her. Jokes that would make her laugh. Why do I miss someone incapable of change? I wish I could think more rationally, but I am missing someone that never really existed.

No. 1098044

>>1097948
I can't tell if you're twitter censoring ironically or not

No. 1098045

>>1098031
Sadly when I was picking up my little brother (when he was in elementary school) after my lessons, I'd often have to listen to kids complaining to me about 1st graders showing p_rn on their iPhones through using social media. It's horrible. The amount of times I had to come tell the teacher about it was crazy.

No. 1098049

>>1097608
Thank you, anon! I got the job, so I’m pretty happy right now! Now I’m just hoping my buddy runs into some luck as well.

No. 1098053

>>1098044
i got irrationally scared that elise would google her name and see this somehow bc i am stupid, nonny

No. 1098054

>>1098042
It's not wrong to retain the aspects you liked about her, nona. I had similar happen and I still think about her sometimes. That sentimentality remains for some people, they never really leave you fully

No. 1098055

i'll just give up. i finally found a job that makes use of my useless degree but i can't find an apartment because the city i would have to move to is completely overrun. i booked a hotel for the first two weeks but at this point i'm just giving up. i guess i'll just quit this well paying job early on, move back in with my mom and get a shitty retail job or something. it's not ideal but what else am i supposed to do when i can't find a place to stay, airbnbs are too expensive, furnished/short term apartments are too expensive and unavailable, flat shares don't want me because of my age and i can't afford to live in a hotel for months? nothing ever works out in my life.

No. 1098057

>>1098055
Have you tried asking your coworkers for help with finding a place to live? Them and / or company's HR should be able to provide better help that "general" search.

No. 1098062

>>1097333
i will fucking maim and kill your manager. i'm enraged

No. 1098068

I find it so depressing that my mom will never leave her abusive pos husband, she’s spent over half of her life trapped with to him

No. 1098070

>>1098057
i haven't started the job yet, but when i met the rest of the office they basically just smiled and wished me good luck with the apartment hunt. it's a tiny company and in my country, help with relocating isn't really provided by employers unless you're some expat with mad skillz and work in IT, academia or finances or something. my dad even has a friend who works in real estate and he gave me some contacts but they couldn't help me either despite me namedropping said friend several times. it's just a hopeless, overall shitty situation. i got invited to another apartment viewing next monday, but since i have a temporary contract for 2 years and haven't even started working yet, i'm very unlikely to get the apartment. landlords only want tenants with permanent contracts, bonus points if it's a couple with two permanent contracts and one can cover the rent all by themselves if the other loses their job for whatever reason.

No. 1098072

>>1098031
my ex's 8yo brother (his mother is soooooooooo pretty, used to be a model and has huge boobs) would take pictures of her boobs and reference them, talk about them sexually, maybe possibly was attracted to them/her or was like using them maybe potentially for clout because maybe his friends referenced them?

i think a lot of little boys are tainted early by society and then by especially inappropriate and pervy dads. i'm not sure if this incestuous thing was like induced by society or if it was something he genuinely felt. i have a feeling he must have noticed others sexualized her and he felt obligated to do the same.

given the prepubescence i just don't know that it was genuine. i don't know fully what the deal was but the kid was raised by a dad who would also try to get me to agree to fucking him while we were in the same room as my own boyfriend so i don't think there was any respect for boundaries or recognition of how certain things are just very wrong.

No. 1098082

>>1098070
I feel your pain. The entire prospect of moving for a job sounds like a nightmare. I hate my current place and I wouldn't mind a better work life balance but how do you line it all up. I am not made of money I don't want to be stuck at this job and there's so few near me. Sorry to hop on your rant

No. 1098086

>>1098031
I remember when I was like 7, two classmates (a boy and a girl) were fighting in the classroom (during recess, so no teacher) and then when the boy pinned the girl down he started to kinda hump/make grunting noises and the girl said "we're making love, idiot!" and hit him

No. 1098087

>>1095511
late but thanks nona. this made me feel a lot better.

No. 1098102

>>1098031
Kids are given smartphones when they’re in middle school and instead of having kid/tween stuff like neopets and gaia they’re using snap and tiktok…and the crappy parents say they don’t want to do anything because it would be invading their kids’ privacy.

No. 1098112

>>1098082
yeah i was hoping to find a job in my university city, but couldn't find anything so i looked for the next big city 1 hour away from here (but still 2 1/2 hours of commuting and i cannot stomach 5 hours of commuting every day for a job) and found one that asks for my degree. i already signed the contract and everything and everyone seems sooo nice at this place and the pay is great… but finding an apartment is incredibly difficult. i should have interviewed at this other place in my hometown but i immediately canceled that interview when the first place said they wanna hire me. real dumb bitch hours, i guess.

No. 1098113

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why isn’t my art in da lc drawing room cute too? nonnies it makes me sad i put my whole amateur self into that shitty piece and no one cares

No. 1098117

>>1098113
I'm sure I find your art cute but I've been too lazy to plug my tablet and write compliments today

No. 1098120

>>1098117
>typing on a drawing tablet

kek anon

No. 1098122

>>1098113
If you’re drawing doodles on a gossip board’s anonymous art page as a way to impress people then your drawing skills should be the least of your concerns.

No. 1098123

>>1098120
is anyone ever typing on these drawing boards? i'm not about to attempt handwriting with a mouse so yeah, tablet's needed

No. 1098125

>>1098120
She said writing, not typing, and handwriting is definitely better with a tablet than a mouse

No. 1098126

Why do women continue to reproduce with shit men and then act pikachu surprise face when they become shit parents???

No. 1098128

>>1098122
Everyone is here for some sort of validation. If you disagree with me you are huffing straight copium, doesn’t matter if “it’s making the internet serious business”, human interests will always infiltrate in certain spaces no matter the different means of communication and I love validation

No. 1098132

People who believe in kinning as a 'spiritual' thing or reincarnation as FICTIONAL PEOPLE are fucking stupid and need severe mental help.

Letting them exist ends with other mentally unwell people getting suckered into the BS they constantly spew. You're not Jason Dean or Spinel. You're a 26 year old social pariah who uses it to justify treating people like shit.

People who even entertain it just end up enabling them to snare people who are gullible, or too big hearted to doubt someones intentions.


fuck people who kin lmao. if you relate to a character just say that.

No. 1098140

I stay indoors for weeks at a time because of how physically repulsive I feel and I know it's affecting my sanity but I can't just go outside.

No. 1098142

>>1098128
Well put, I think it's important to be aware and embrace this mindset

No. 1098143

I just dropped half a slice of cake. I know I could get more, but there's only one slice left and I hate being the person to eat the last of anything.

No. 1098146

>>1098143
are you going to eat the floor cake?

No. 1098147


No. 1098148

>>1098147
Don't mind if I do…

No. 1098149

>>1097927
If scrotes in my country weren't so violent to anything they perceive as a slight I'd have said something. But in my area guys stab one another for stepping on each other's feet.

No. 1098150

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>>1098148
I mean, have at it anon

No. 1098151

>>1098150
Thank you. I will remember this boon.

No. 1098154

I have no female friends, i only have male friends who inevitably want to fuck me even though i’ve never been interested in anyone, men or woman. I always feel like i should be paying them in pussy for their friendship. Like these relationships are shallow and with ulterior meaning just because i had the misfortune to be born female and of only having male dominated hobbies and interests.

No. 1098158

>>1098154
what are your hobbies and interests?

No. 1098159

>>1098154
There's a friend finder thread on here, for fuck's sake use it and get some fucking self-worth.
>I always feel like i should be paying them in pussy for their friendship.
This had better be a fucking LARP.

No. 1098161

>>1098154
>>1098158
Yeah like what I have a ton too so maybe we can be friends…

No. 1098163

Cumbrains are the fucking scum of the earth.

No. 1098165

>>1098163
Agreed nonnie, hoping some people are able to get over that shit at some point.

No. 1098168

>>1098154
I feel you anon and it's not about self esteem I think, like >>1098159 implied, it's just how it often seems like; doesn't mean you will necessarily "pay the price" or accept it in any way. It's just so demeaning when you spend time with someone, it's all nice, feels normal and safe; then suddenly they start hitting on you and the second you don't respond positively to that, friendship ends. And it hurts, because it's nice to be friends, so this ending is kinda like you're being punished for not being available. I hate men for being fake like that.
It's hard for me to make friends with other women too, since at my age they usually already have their own established friend circles and me being a socially anxious person have a hard time squeezing myself in.

No. 1098169

it's been nearly a month. i just want this fucking school to tell me if i got accepted into their program or not.

No. 1098183

>>1097869
yeah i'm really worried this site will lose its identity someday if more moids come in. i'm conflicted because on the one hand i want this site to stay active and grow its userbase, but if that means more moids will infest this place then i'm not sure it's worth it

No. 1098184

>>1098132
hot take: "kinning" is just method acting for non famous people

No. 1098199

I was doing some reflection on my status as a volcel (don’t like incel terminology but I guess it’s really the best way to describe me) and I kind of realized that even though I’m pinkpilled and jaded about men, it’s not the main reason I am this way. Truthfully, even if I was attracted to women I’d probably still be chronically single because I just can’t imagine myself in a relationship with anyone I’ve known. I do fantasize about having a boyfriend pretty often and get lonely sometimes, but even with my closest friends I can’t spend more than a few days with them before I’m tired and want to be alone. It’s a little depressing for me to think that maybe I’m just into the idea of being in a relationship and that’s it. I haven’t really met anyone who has made me actively wish to spend more and more time with them and I’m not going to be naive and think I just need to wait for ‘the one’ who will change my mind. Maybe this is just how my brain works and how it’s meant to be. Can anyone else relate?

To be fair, I don’t think I was always like this and I’m still young…ish (23), so I can’t tell if this is a phase of development of if I’m just ‘growing up’ and facing reality.

No. 1098213

>>1098199
I'm 25 going on 26 and this feels like something i wrote. I am exactly like you, i always fanaticised about having a husband and still do, but in reality it's never happening for me and I decided to focus on building a comfortable life for myself where i go on vacation every 3 months and own property. There are definitely plenty of women who find someone in their 30s but i am not going to suggest that you consume yourself with this fact which is advise you probably don't need anyways.

So to answer you, i don't think you should worry about it being a life long thing or not if you feel like it's something that serving you in the current moment.

No. 1098217

I feel kinda agitated and keyed up for literally no reason whatsoever. I’ve had a good day even. Wtf has me so annoyed?

No. 1098224

>>1098199
>>1098213
I'm 25 and I feel the same. I sometimes feel a need for skinship and get lonely in that way, but I can't imagine having to share my life with another person. I get tired of people too easily and get annoyed at having to manage their feelings and listen to them talk about things they want to talk about or do things they want to do. It seems like such a massive sink of energy and time, I'd rather just stay on my own and spend time with my online friends and pursue my hobbies in my time off.

No. 1098226

>>1098199
it sounds like the right person for you is someone who also values their alone time, i think youll be able to find that eventually anon, but its best not to dwell on it.

No. 1098227

I wish my mom lived closer. I spend like 2 weeks every month at her house because the drive is long, but I wish I could combine visiting her while also not leaving my house. The drive out here is too much for her, and parking is rough. It makes me feel guilty when I feel this way, even though I still want to see her and still go. It just makes me feel bad, I know it's based in the fact that I hate leaving the house but it also makes me feel like a lazy cunt. I'm going tomorrow, but I wish I didn't have to pack and sleep there. Maybe I'll bring my own pillow and see if it helps.

No. 1098228

You're so thirsty it's actually painful to see your dumbass icon on every single video and in every chat, with your 8-paragraph-long comments. Like holy SHIT. You are 19 or 20 or something; for the love of god, get your own personality. You're so fucking embarrassing and I don't get why more people aren't weirded the fuck out by you.

I'm over here fearful of coming off as an obsessed freak for making a comment once every few months but maybe I shouldn't be, jesus

No. 1098236

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>>1098199
>>1098213
I'm exactly the same. I fantasized about being married and whatnot… Then I realized my mom, my sisters, and my aunts all had horrible marriages. Hell, my great grandmother was burned alive by her scrote. I couldn't name a married woman irl whose life I'd want. I had one attempt at dating when I was 22 and it was the worst experience of my life. I felt like I couldn't even go to the mall without sending a pic or doing a video call to prove I wasn't cheating. Just like what my dad did to my mom. Even when she was in bedrest after cancer treatment, he convinced himself she was constantly fucking men the 2 hours a day he want home. The my sister, good God. She married then divorced a man who gambled away all her money and beats her kids but the state won't do anything about it. He even follows her around and smears dog shit on her car at night.

I'm 28, I work, invest, stack money, drive a sports car, in a women's fitness club, yes I'm lonely but it could be so much worse.

No. 1098256

>>1098236
why do you drive a sports car? it's like the least functional car imaginable and you pay more in car insurance compared to other types. i don't understand this choice.

No. 1098261

I have this odd scenario that never fails to give me really bad anxiety for no real reason. If my boyfriend falls asleep before me, for some reason I just get really freaked out and end up staying up due to this feeling. He always falls asleep before me, but these are instances where it's quite early or on the couch that make me feel so shaken. I end up watching calming programming that reminds me of my mom, but then the feeling starts to make it so every time I hear the theme songs from these things, I associate them with this crawling feeling and it starts to ruin it. So now even when I'm chill and just revisiting a media, it starts to freak me out. REEEEEEEEEEEEEE also I get really bad restless leg syndrome at night which makes me uhh restless

No. 1098265

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>>1098213
Thank you for the advice nona, I appreciate it. Sometimes I get wrapped up in the existential dread of being alone forever (especially because I have a friend who is also chronically single and rants about how much it sucks all the time), but you are definitely right that I should just focus on building a nice life for myself. I'm definitely not as upset as my friend at the idea of being alone, so I guess I shouldn't worry if it isn't bothering me in the moment.
>>1098224
This is how I feel as well. I also get really tired of people easily and part of me thinks I wouldn't do well with a partner because of this. I think I've experienced a lot of burnout from being the 'therapist friend' for much of my life and that's why I feel like this now. Your current lifestyle sounds really comfy though and I'd ideally want my life to be that way too!
>>1098226
Thanks for the insight. People like to push the 'opposites attract' narrative but in this case it probably isn't true. Although I can't help but laugh at the thought of two people who enjoy being alone ever being able to find each other lol
>>1098236
Holy hell anon, I'm sorry the women in your family had to go through all that. That's really, really awful. I'm happy to hear that you seem to be doing well for yourself now though. You sound like you're providing for yourself better than any man realistically could anyway tbh. I actually have friends who are engaged/in long term relationships that seem pretty healthy and happy so I know that it's possible. Even then, I don't ever feel envy for them because I just can't imagine myself in their position for whatever reason.

I appreciate all of the replies… Sometimes I feel like something is really wrong with me since my inability to get a boyfriend isn't out of fear or inability to talk to men, but your replies all made me feel less alone and I feel more okay if this is just how I am.

No. 1098268

>>1098256
I have 2 cars. One for commuting and one for nice days out.

No. 1098269

my ugly anime titty obsessed moid friend I hang out with to feel better about myself got asked on a date by a cute girl. embarrassing af to be less wanted than this creep, kms

No. 1098270

>>1098269
i mean shes probably just straight or something like most women are, don't take it personally

No. 1098283

>>1098270
NTA, it's probably not really about her specifically. There's just something about watching scrotes complain about how difficult it is to get a girlfriend, meanwhile they can be gross coomers who have nothing going for them and get asked out by women way out of their league anyway. The bar for men is on the bottom of the sea, meanwhile it's a miracle when you come across someone who is genuinely lesbian or bi and standards women have for women are high af too thanks to ~society~.
>know woman who is in an abusive relationship with scrote
>he makes her clean the bathroom with a toothbrush
>he pressures her into doing anal
>he randomly moved into her apartment and eats all her food, barely works
>he threatens her with his gun
>she still says the mildly depressed woman she dated for a week and all women on Tinder in her area are worse
I don't even like her that way, but it's disheartening and almost insulting (to women in general). Logically you know that it's a mix of sexuality and just patriarchy and society conditioning women to put scrotes on a pedestal, but that doesn't make it hurt less when you're considered less desirable than a creep or rapist.

No. 1098286

My mother's pissed off at me. She's watching a movie, My Best Friend's Wedding, I'm just messing with phone on couch. She keeps calling Julia Roberts and Cameron Diaz men. It's fucking agitating. Can't call her on it cause she'll scream you're calling her a conspiracy theorist. Literally goes into full blown rants about it while calling whomever pretty much retarded. So you can't ever debate her but tell her that because she'll double down even harder. So I decided to get my headphones cause screw that noise and decided to sit in a chair away from her. She turns to say some sort of crackpot shit to me and sees me in the headphones. Says some dumb stuff about me wearing them. Kek. Dumb dumb doesn't realize I have them low enough to hear. I fucking cannot watch anything with her anymore. I hate this time line so much. End me.

No. 1098292

I'm so fucking tired of other people. I'm tired of how I'm treated, I'm tired of being put down, I'm tired of being forced to be the bigger person because no one else will.
I don't understand how fucking anyone keeps up relationships with other people, maybe I'm just unlucky and put my eggs in the wrong basket.
They want you to apologize, but when you do it's wrong. They want you to be nice, but when you are they treat you like shit. Their opinions are right, their options are valid. But mine? Oh fuck yours. They're wrong and delusional and how dare you even think for one second you're right.
People disgust me. The way I get treated disgusts me. The way I can't even exist and be happy without having someone shit on it behind my back disgusts me. I just want to get away from it all. I don't want to deal with it anymore.
I feel like I'm not even allowed to have my own thoughts anymore without being forced to have repercussions. If I speak my mind, I'm ignored and told I'm crazy. If I pretend to be happy then I'm just putting on a mask and dying behind it. Why can't we just coexist without making me the scapegoat. Why can't someone else take the blame for once, how does it get pinned on me still even when I do nothing and other people just dislike me.
Part of me wishes I could just be a piece of shit like the people I know. Maybe life would be easier if I could lose all empathy and treat people like tools in the same way. Maybe if I knew how to mask and lie better without it hurting I could be like them too.

No. 1098293

>>1098286
holy shit i'd kms. my mom is like one of the only sane-ish people i know. are you from some flyover state or outside of the us or?

No. 1098299

Most dreaded thing about sleeping is waking up with panic attacks they hit me like a train the impending sense of doom is so strong I feel like throwing up

No. 1098303

>>1098286
so that's what it's like to live with the psycho anons who call every woman under 16 haggard or manly is like? I'm so sorry anon, i'd probably stay in my room and avoid her if i was you.

No. 1098321

>>1098292
lol do your dbt exercises already

No. 1098342

>>1097847
I welcome the hugs, thank you nonna

No. 1098356

>>1098293
Grew up in the midwest near a major city (~1hr away), but now live in the south west. My mom grew up in a small town in the midwest. She always was a bit wacky with some things. Has always had bizarre expectations in general. Literally told me a stupid story of when she was a teen some friend of hers uncle made them wear tights under jeans just to wear sandals. Acts like it was normal. Tells me this because how dare I not wear tights with dresses, even sun dresses. No one she was/is friends with are super religious. She's gotten worse with age and the whole covid thing really pushed her into more bizarre territory on the internet despite being technologically challenged. Apps make everything easy sadly.

>>1098303
I do for the most part. She complains about me staying in there, but it's best for the both of us. We get in a vicious cycle otherwise that always ends with me having intense suicidal ideation. I try to avoid this as much as possible.

No. 1098359

nonnies what’s the best way to kill yourself that isn’t super messy? I am so lonely and I’ve tried everything to make friends irl and nothing works I just can’t hold onto friendships anymore. All my friends forgot my birthday and this was a month ago and I’m still hurt. I am only talked to by my friends to be their therapist and I can’t take it anymore. None of my friends ever reach out to me and ask how I am doing. I am simply a diary that responds. No one wants to hangout with me irl. Basically I have nothing irl. My parents keep me trapped at homes, school is all online and I’m Learning nothing, my poor boyfriend is trying so hard to help me and it’s just not getting through. I can’t take it anymore so please any genuine advice on how to go out with the least amount of mess would be appreciated thanks

No. 1098367

>>1098359
Anon I know it's bad now but it'll get better after covid, trust me. All people I know had their psychology destroyed by this situation and most of us grew apart from our friends. Once school gets back to normal you'll have the opportunity to make new friends, I lost my friend group too recently and already made a few new friends that I now hang out with. You seem like a sweet person and I'm sure anyone would love to have you as a friend so don't worry about it. Try to spend time with your bf and parents if you like doing so. You could also hang out with your extensive family like cousins or stuff if they live close by. If you're still sure about suicide, please check the risks for methods and realize that all of them are messy and most will likely fail.

No. 1098374

Just found out the guy I've been dating for weeks is a fucking pedo aliged creep. We were cuddling yesterday and I stil feel so disgusted by what he said. We haven't had sex yet but we were talking about past partners, sex, porn etc. I was clearly against porn and so on and he already knows how I feel about that. Then we started to talk about what we like in the bedroom and I said something like "as a woman, i like this and that" and he interjected and said I'm not a woman I'm a little girl wtf?? He's 6years older but we are both grown ups, I'm in my mid 20's. I honestly feel so betrayed idk how to feel. He then talks about women's bodies and how he likes "small girls". Idk it felt so gross laying next to him after that. What disgusts me is the objectification of underage girls and extrapolating that to adult women for your own coomer pedo fantasy. I haven't responded to his texts and it's gone hours tbh I'm over it. Im losing hope that there is not one normal guy who hasn't had his brain fried by porn and is not creepy.

No. 1098375

>>1098359
All of this is temporary. Time will heal everything. It sounds like you need to learn how to focus on your own needs and wants instead of always worrying about what others think of you. Sometimes it’s better to be alone rather than with a bunch of fake friends. Sooner or later the right people will come into your life, so don’t stress about it.

No. 1098379

>>1098359
Nonnie, please seek help. Permanent solutions to temporary problems is not something you want to do. Whatever you're going through will pass, everyone goes through shit, and you are not alone. Take a year break from school and move out, do whatever you want to do, assuming you're in college. If you can, move out, dump your bf and all of your friends and start new.

No. 1098386

>>1098374
Don’t forget to tell him how disgusting you think he is when you break up with him

No. 1098387

>>1098374
Ew, good riddance

No. 1098391

>>1098374
>fried by porn
At this point you nonnies have wishful thinking, even if porn didn’t exist they’re still un-empathetic violent pedophiles

No. 1098393

Co-star is so scary, how does it know my life that well?

No. 1098396

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>>1098391
this, i see this a lot from straight women, it's cope (as a straight woman myself)

No. 1098400

>>1098374
This drives home a point it feels like people are always trying not to see. It’s so annoying people say an age gap looks suspicious and the younger woman (as always) insists that because they’re “both adults” nothing matters and everything is fine/everyone is overreacting. We’re probably close in age anon but even I can tell you that men in their 30’s see everyone a decade younger like that. Being an adult doesn’t stop men from fetishising the difference in maturity levels, which no amount of living on your own etc can make up for. The ones that like age gaps even fetishise ones that you likely wouldn’t think anything of and with that fetishisation comes unequal dynamics and a gateway to worse behaviour. I’d like to conclude this PSA with the following advice: “Do not date a man in his 30’s until you are in your 30’s”. Yes even you 29 year old, just go for a cute himbo, ALWAYS CHOOSE THE CUTE HIMBO.

No. 1098404

>>1098400
Based. Those older man also replace the woman once she's not young enough. Disgusting.

No. 1098405

I just want a good nonny to talk to me rn. About anything really

No. 1098411

>>1097339
>>1098405
While I disagree with the porn industry, I used to not necessarily mind the the women involved and focused on convincing those interested to not join. I felt it was more important to prevent children seeing these things on mass than to bother the women for example advertising their OF on tiktok/twitter etc. I still do but at this point, with no animosity towards them, I think it’s necessary to remove and blame them too. Women are more trustworthy than men and these people in particular present a very placid disposition to make it seem like none of the explicitly and openly degrading things that go on are “wrong”. They’ve been actively trying to encourage young girls to join them so it isn’t surprising but if in a young person’s daily life, they start seeing a larger percentage of people who are just so accepting of their own dehumanisation, it is going to make things worse. Obviously, nobody respects sex workers already and the industry still thrives so bullying people isn’t going to do anything. It’s just becoming clearer to me as a necessary evil. Especially when you consider that the average person who would disagree, would insist that there wasn’t a problem at all.

No. 1098413

>>1098407
Like pikachu! Do you like that color? I used to be very into looking up "yellow aesthetic" and "orange aesthetic" on pinterest. But those colors don't suit my sking, or, well, I have no idea which ones do. I know there's cold and warm and neautral tones, but I never feel right with any color, so I just wear whatever "feels right".

No. 1098414

>>1098405
Good morning nonnie I just woke up and I'm going to make brekkie. I'll make some for you too. Fruit, eggs, toast and salmon for today!

No. 1098416

>>1098414
That's delicious! A very delicious breakfast. Salmon is awesome. Pls take a picture if you can ♥

No. 1098423

>>1098405
You need to hang out in the cytube room nona, we'll treat you right

No. 1098452

Someone put me out of my misery i dont have friends no money either i hate my useless major i’m suffering from severse intrusive thoughts i live with a schizophrenic evil woman who groomed me since i was a kid and a jealous mother who despises women for god knows what. Its so pathetic, nothing good ever happened, i don’t have one good memory in my life it’s all so embarrassing its all just me running around in circles and suffering from paranoia its such an unfortunate pathetic life.

No. 1098455

>>1098452
Who's the woman you're living with? Can you move out?

No. 1098456

Hating influencers is misogyny. Moids canget money for screaming in a mic or playing videogames and no one cares but suddenly influencers are evil kek
Most influencers are women. People just hate to see young girls and women making money online especially men. Men bash influencers but never male ones. I dont trust women or men who bash them. Im always happy to see women make money online.

No. 1098457

>>1098452
sending lots of love to you nonnie, it's okay to feel frustrated with the life you've been given. you're very strong to even be surviving in such a hard situation.. i hope you keep pushing

No. 1098459

>>1098455
My older sister, she’s 15 years older than me and did a ton of damage on my mental health growing up, she basically dedicated her life to making my own life hell I want to move out and i’m trying but don’t have enough money yet and my mental state is literal shit
>>1098457
Thank you anon, I appreciate it

No. 1098460

>>1098456
Influencers mostly make money off cultivating insecurity in other women, the damage they do to our self esteem is significant? A lucky few (who were probably already well off) getting rich off it doesn't compensate for that. And don't forget the ones really profiting are men in the beauty/fashion industry who pay them a comparatively small amount to promote their products, treatments, clothes, surgery etc etc.

No. 1098462

>>1098456
Based
>>1098460
Misognypilled. Plastic surgery, makeup, modelling and all of those other industries that benefit from women's insecurity are set up and ran by men. Quit blaming women who fit the beauty standard and earn money from it and start blaming the men who put the standard to make money off of the women.

No. 1098464


No. 1098467

>>1098462
They aren't to blame as individuals but their existence is net negative for women and hurts way more than it helps. We would be better off without them, and that's not hating on them as people but it's just facts.

No. 1098469

>>1098460
Dont care. Women and young girls are making a lot of money and it triggers men. If influencers make you insecure then get therapy. I see young girls with 10k subs receiving PR shit and deals and im happy. Women and girls should make money. Theres not a valid answer to hate them. Blaming random women for your insecurities is just pathetic. Ill never understand how someone can be against influencers lol
Do you not get happy seeing how women can make money? Theyre not all rich but its still good. More and more women are finding ways to make money on youtube without the need for men and im loving it. Besides who wouldnt love to get paid to review makeup and dresses?

No. 1098470

>>1098391
>even if porn didn’t exist they’re still un-empathetic violent pedophiles
Not wrong but extensive consumption of porn did desensitize a lot of people, making them seek content much more hardcore than what would otherwise be explicit enough to satisfy them; which I think it's reasonable to assume could push a porn addicted dude that used to just google "naked women" as a boy look for brutal rapes now, and it wouldn't happen if he didn't spend years watching - and getting bored of normal - relatively normal depictions of sex

No. 1098471

>>1098467
How? So all the young girls and women making money so they dont have to end up homeless or rely on men for shit like OF are bad? Influencers are harmless kek
The og influencers were models in vogue magazines. Being against influencers is being anti-women. Sorry anon.

No. 1098483

So tired of seeing men online say that the real issue today is the fat acceptance or body positivity movement. Thinking somehow that's the reason that their ungrateful fap material is getting fat. Somehow it's only relevant when it's about women though, sure a mystery as to why.

Couldn't possibly be that feeling like you already are worthless as a fat woman that feeds into it. Or eating disorders. Nah it must be the women's fault which is why they should shame them cuz that definitely will make them want to loose weight.

No. 1098484

My landlord is my buddy's dad. Super chill guy, always going the extra mile, never an issue. And to top it off, he gives us easily $600 off the actual price of what it could be listed for. It's a 130 year old, 3 storey home of which we rent the upstairs and we've been here almost two years now.
All of a sudden, he moves in this girl, easily 30 years his junior who has a brand new baby and a toddler. Suddenly its like overnight this hardworking, easy-going landlord became a crackhead-like man fucking someone who two kids under 4 years old. All she's been doing is screaming at him (which I luckily can't hear unless I go outside) and fucking CHAIN SMOKING beside the house's furnace. So the ENTIRE HOUSE smells like reserve cigarettes. She's not even.. really "living" here so much as she is staying in the moldy laundry room in the sub-basement. It's just so fucking crazy. I wish they would both die, but then my rent would suddenly skyrocket. Our whole house now smells like a crackwhore with two children destined for CPS has decided to light an entire cigarette pack on fire; packaging and all. I wish I had a gun because I'd go downstairs and pistol whip her teeth onto the floor, then shoot him. I understand gun laws now.

No. 1098486

>>1098456
Influencers are not just young women but also men.

The industry is inherently exploitative and will discard the women the second they don't sell enough product. Capitalism and consumerism are inherently misogynistic and prey on women to make money. And I'm not just talking about the potential buyers of the product, but the women whose labor is exploited to create, produce, and distribute the products.
You're basically saying anyone who doesn't praise Kim Kardashian because she's ~rich and female~ is a misogynist lmao.

No. 1098488

>>1098483
>So tired of seeing men online say that the real issue today is the fat acceptance or body positivity movement.

Are you sure it's just men saying this? Definitely seen a few galaxy brains on lolcow parrot this too.

No. 1098490

>>1098488
There's def more then a few here too, but the most blatant ones that aren't just being petty are men. But I'm not going to deny that my early /cgl/ days didn't help ruin my self esteem too.

No. 1098500

>>1098486
But makeup industry will always exist. I dont care about male influencers but we all know people never bash them. People only bash FEMALE influencers. Bashing them is aligning yourself with moids kek
Im all for women making money. Women dont have to be kind and care about everything. Men dont give a fuck about ethics or the environment or fast fashion or labor or anything and they get rich asf and no one cares but the moment a woman does the same thing suddenly its bad. Sorry but if youre against influencers then how the fuck can you complain about sex work then? Women will try to make money in every way. Its so much better being an influencer than a sex worker. Hence why influencers are based. Also i dont care about kim k (cuz its her mother who made her rich).
Hating on women for making money is pathetic. MEN invented beauty standards, child labor and all the shitty things in fashion and makeup and itll never change so why bash women who want to make money too. thats my point. Ive never seen someone say a valid reason as to why they hate female influencers. Its always blaming women for everything men caused. Im so happy theyre thriving and i hope more girls are influencers or make money online in general. It will prevent many women/girls from ending up in sex work or homeless/broke

No. 1098504

>>1098486
Also youre right capitalism is anti-women. But thatll never change so i dont see why women trying to make money in it is bad. Influencers wont last i know that. But gaining 10k can change someones life. This economy is so fucking shitty i just dont get why someone would be against a woman making money by influencing someone (which is what models and celebs used to be fore before)

No. 1098508

>>1098500
>>1098504
You are delusional if you think influencers are poor and in desperate need of that money. How tf do you think they got so attractive, with such aspirational lives if not through money? How do they afford nice cameras? They are upper middle class at the very least, poor people don't get the same opportunities and sponsors in the first place. You're caping so hard for some of the most privileged women, it's bizarre.

No. 1098549

>>1098456
>>1098500
>>1098508
Influencers are shit. But I do agree moids get so triggered when women earn money or get status. And they always go after women's money, they never go after a man's money to cancel/get back at him. Like Roseanne who got "cancelled" over some dumb tweet and most of her assets and industry titles were distributed to men above her. Women aren't allowed to amnass any wealth, and if they do they'd better now down and keep quiet around any moid.

No. 1098551

>>1098486
Male influencers are the worst, they always treat women like props. I get that the whole thing is harmful on some level but the women are still more tolerable

No. 1098556

>>1098551
Male influencers always use their influence to do weird ass shit. James charles sexting underage men, other ones grooming girls, etc. No female influencer is as bad, even the worst like Kardashian only got plastic surgery which on its own isn't a crime and it's so obvious can't be counted as a scam either.

No. 1098606

Contemplating suicide by taking panadol but dont want to live with liver damage

No. 1098611

>>1098606
same, failing is way worse than death

No. 1098614

>>1098508
Most (not saying all, but I’ve seen this happen IRL) poor people would also spend 10k in a week if it was given to them

No. 1098677

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I MISS BEING A CRINGE FANGIRL, I was lonely and kind of a loser and failure but getting excited over my favorite video game/anime character or kpop group was a joy I haven't felt in years, now I have a job and bf and stuff and I feel so numb all the time, nothing excites me anymore, even when I get into a new game or anime I just appreciate having an enjoyable distraction and don't get excited about the world or characters at all. I don't write fanfic anymore or watch dumb youtube crack videos about my favorite ships. Maybe I was supposed to grow out of that but I miss it, I miss being excited about things. Taking steps toward becoming a normie just made my life worse because all I can do is compare myself to others now.

No. 1098680

>>1098677
aaah the feeling of being young
we all miss it

No. 1098682

>>1098677
It's harder to get something worthy of immersing yourself so deeply into the more old you become because your standars get higher and fresh new things are tough to come by. But if you're anything like me, you'll eventually find that thing again, it just takes a while!

No. 1098688

>>1098682
true. amazing hobbies arent easy to come by

No. 1098690

I hate that the art/oc site I use has a 90% TIF userbase. They are so retarded. I will never understand why you would think you are a gay male because you enjoy looking at anime penis. I get so annoyed looking through the forums or surfing profiles…I want a new site but there is nothing like it that exists. Please kys you freaks, you ruin my enjoyment.

No. 1098707

My mil is so generous, so generous that she uses all the things she’s done for me against me when me and my bf are fighting. I hate living with them . Inb4 leech yeah I know this is exactly what I get

No. 1098711

>>1098707
you sound like a retard

No. 1098712

>>1098606
Don't do it. If anything live to gain the means to kill yourself guaranteed quickly and painlessly. You owe it to yourself.

No. 1098714

>>1098711
you sound like a preteen

No. 1098717

I hate having no dentist. My teeth are starting to degrade (I think genetic because my dad got false teeth at 38, I'm 31). I'll have enough money to go abroad and get treatment, but not for the next year or two at least. At the moment I can FEEL one of my cavities, it's so sensitive. I bite into something and feel the pressure, too much pressure against my front tooth, It's going to snap.

I kind of think at this point it might be time to commit to a mainly sugar free diet under the guise of health.

No. 1098720

>>1098717
ill never go suga free

No. 1098730

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>me doing a pap smear on a patient
>moid knocks on door
>I go outside, hear his problem and tell him to wait until I'm done
>go back inside and close door
>moid opens door and walks in anyway
Why are men?

No. 1098734


No. 1098743

>>1098400
OP here, this whole thing has made me really depressed but there's a voice in my head that says "what did you expect?". Ik, I shouldn't be sad for a moid I met a few weeks ago. Honestly I wish I was a lesbian, you hoes have it so good. Imagine never having to deal with moids and not having a biological/sexual need for them. I'm forever jealous.
>>1098404
His dad actually divorced and remarried. I don't know the grounds to their divorce but something tells me it's this. His mom lives by herself by the country side.

No. 1098745

>>1098730
What the fuck? I couldn't imagine what the patient was thinking

No. 1098757

>>1098745
Op here, if I could've I would've thrown the used speculum at him. And it was her first pap smear too, she was already scared and I fear she may never come back.

No. 1098763

>>1098730
I hope he shits himself in the car

No. 1098766

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How long would you wait before refunding the language courses?
I've got a new group teacher. It's her first time with us and it was down-fucking-right terrible. Horrible. She went brb 2 times throughout the lesson as well, also turned out to be sick of COVID right now. The lesson started being a mess from the start because she was late. Then unlike other teachers we had, this one didn't show the book nor did any excersies with us, nor explained anything. She was only using her IRL book which is a different, newer version of the book we had from the start - the PDF file that is entirely different from the new version of the book.
She didn't explain anything in English either, 98% of which were in the language we were learning. My partner said that it's a good thing but our group is a chunk of people from completely different places in the world. There was a lot of vocab that we had no idea of. I had to be a mini-teacher, explaining everything to other students, which page to turn, what is she trying to say, etc. It downright felt like she couldn't speak English. Her microphone was bad too. I am so lost. And i am paying 299 for the full fucking courses. The first 2 lessons weren't with her, but with my first teacher who is the best one i've had, but she doesnt seem to be doing group courses anymore. (she was a substitute) and now this one appeared.
I am thinking about giving another chance tomorrow since we will have the lessons again and then request a refund. The problem is that the group lessons are 5 times more affordable than the solo lessons and it hurts me.
Even at the start she said she cant help us because she doesnt know how and who should give us th enew ver of th ebook shes using. wtf is that shit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

No. 1098771

>iPhone storage is full
>delete 300 photos
>iPhone storage is full
how

No. 1098775

>>1098771
I had that issue a while ago, the phone was trying to download something because some app was retarded and so kept filling the storage the instant I freed up some. I uninstalled the shitty app and it stopped.

No. 1098784

I wish my parents would stop spending money unnecessarily. My dad has much better income now, but they have thousands of dollars of credit card debt because he's retarded as fuck. They used to be on medicaid, but now because of my dad's income, they'll get kicked off. Both of them have a cocktail of health issues, including diabetes for my mom, which she needs insulin for. I've read way too many horror stories of people dying from not being able to afford insulin, or rationing their insulin, and I don't want that to happen.

I have plenty of savings and I will step in if I have to, but the solution really is simple: stop being a fucking consoomer and pay off the debt!!! It's not like we have to become gung ho minimalists, but jesus fucking christ we don't need have the garbage my dad buys off facebook market place. I know their finances are not my problem, but they aren't evil, abusive narcs so I can just kick them to the curb and not give a shit. They're just retarded and I want them to be able to just live comfortably.

No. 1098809

>>1098112
Don't doubt your decision! Hopefully you get a place soon and big things start happening for you.

No. 1098813

I want to stop counting calories and weighing myself and thinking about all the numbers that go on with food but I'm just not sure how it would benefit me or if I'm going to spiral out of control and magically gain 40 lbs

No. 1098852

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Almost everything I eat has suddenly started to give me a stomachache and it makes me REEEEE because I can't get shit done because of it. Trying to figure out what makes me so bad but no real pattern so far, the only thing I can really eat are salads and an occasional sandwich with fried egg. So far my best guesses is that I'm at the moment a bit sensitive to:
>red meat
>carbohydrates
>gluten
Not too sure about gluten yet since it's only occasionally

No. 1098856

>>1098766
honestly get a refund, how can she gets better after that?

No. 1098867

I graduated from university and just haven’t done anything for 2 years. First year I played a lot of games because of the dumb fucking pandemic and everything felt uncertain
Online courses? I audit to see if I’ll like then, them then have no motivation to finish which is fine since I don’t spend money
Jobs? No connections and I never get a reply
Prepare for masters? I didn’t do enough research and I should have prepared earlier, people are getting their acceptances now and I still didn’t finish a single application
I also feel annoyed since a friend said we should do our application together but she just never talked to me much and instead talked all the time with my boyfriend. He told me that she got accepted and well I spiralled because I felt betrayed by her. I know I shouldn’t rely people and I need to depend on myself more but she’s my friend and it was her idea but she never ever bought up applications again and just kept talking to my fucking boyfriend she’s been doing that a lot I realized I could write a whole paragraph about it.
I barely perused my hobbies whenever I do I start crying because I feel like a failure.
I started a language course then paused because I felt so behind I wanted to go back and study everything but I barely did.
I had too much time to think about what I want to do and reorganise my thoughts. I don’t know what to do I have a responsibility and obligation to my family.
Why am I so pathetic what the fuck happened to me. I’m so stupid and spoiled, anyone in my position would be able to achieve whatever the fuck they want. Im so jealous of everyone and and so annoyed at myself. I don’t have real friends everyone is double faced they always were.

No. 1098878

>>1098852
Ahh sweet nonna I'm so fucking sorry. I had the same problem and for me I found out it was two things: I developed lactose intolerance and, for some reason, just could not handle a specific brand of eggs I was getting (not just eggs overall, just THAT specific brand for whatever reason). The best you can do is just cut off specific things from your diet and pay attention to how your tummy feels. Best of luck and I hope it doesn't go on for too long! I know how awful it feels. I really hope you feel better.

No. 1098881

>>1098184
which means being batshit insane because method acting is for performing. not living.

No. 1098889

My mom would always shush me and public and say I was talking too loudly when I was speaking in a normal tone of voice. But my little brothers were allowed to be loud and obnoxious or even throw tantrums without criticism. I felt like I was held to a higher standard. If I had an anxiety attack or overwhelmed and couldn't take a stressful or crowded situation my mom would get frustrated with me and be like, "UGH ANON STOP BEING FREAKY!" The word freaky really hurting my fucking feelings. I felt like she never had any empathy for me. I always have to make myself small and insecure just like her because I'm her little mini me, to her

No. 1098896

>>1098889
my mom used to do this too, but i don't have any siblings so i never noticed if i was held to a different standard. i do remember that this made me incredibly timid and awkward and i was sorely lacking in social skills and it took me until way later in life (around 22-25) until i finally developed some social skills. the ironic thing is that my mom would also get mad at me for being so quiet and timid and for never speaking up for myself. and now that i'm almost 30 she blames herself for raising me as a too nice kid.

No. 1098900

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I'm 31, and youngest out of three siblings and mom still treats me like I'm retarded at times. Even more so now that her dog died so she can't dote on it anymore. And it. drives. me. insane.

No. 1098924

>>1098896
> she blames herself for raising me as a too nice kid
Kek mommies really do raise their girls like slaves and then call it "too nice".

No. 1098926

I'm going on a 10 hour study trip but I'm on my period and there's only one restroombreak planned. That's not enough! I'll be anxious about bleeding through all day.

No. 1098934

>>1098924
>my mum always beating me into submission over fuck all and then hysterically crying and pleading with me and forcing hugs and kisses on me
Her now: why do all ur boyfriends hit u and u stay

No. 1098939

>>1098889
Dang, I do that to my mom, but she really does speak too loudly. I think anyway.

No. 1098940

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I've been planning on breaking up with my boyfriend, but he's having a rough time at the moment. I love him, but it's not working out, yet I can't find a proper moment to tell him I want to break up and I realize I just have to get it over with. He's not manipulative or suicidal or anything. He's got friends and a good family, so he'll be fine. I guess what frustrates me is that he's always had a nice and convenient life compared to mine, so whenever I've been struggling mentally, he's given me the "stop overthinking" speech. Meanwhile I'm being supportive, encouraging, listen to his rants and never try to undermine his feelings, knowing full well he rarely extended such care for me, but rather found my sadness an inconvenience.

Side note, I was also recently diagnosed with a mood disorder by my doctor. When I told my boyfriend, the first thing he did was pull up his phone to google how the disorder causes low libido, and then jokingly told me we had to do everything we could to cure me because then I would probably want to have more sex again. That just tipped me over the "well fuck you" edge.

No. 1098946

My mother has body image issues, she thinks she's obese while she just has the body of an average woman. My father knows that my mom thinks she's fat, and while he doesn't think that's true, he still calls her fat as a "joke". He knows she's deeply insecure about that and he still chose to call her fat like the retard that he is. Now she's going on and on about how she will start to eat a little less and maybe do some more excercise. She also bodychecked while trying on tight clothes.

No. 1098949

>>1098940
your boyfriend seems to give no shits about you so why care about his?

No. 1098951

>>1098940
The majority of men have zero emotional intelligence but this part
>jokingly told me we had to do everything we could to cure me because then I would probably want to have more sex again
Is truly repulsive. Yeah, I'm sure him never showing support and then "joking" about how the most important thing is ensuring he still gets to fuck will really help boost your sex drive. He sounds like a loser and frankly I hope you dump him at the most inconvenient time

No. 1098957

>>1098940
idk anon he didn't treat you with much love or respect when you (presumably) had a rough time with your diagnosis and mental health. Should you really grant him what he hasn't given you?

No. 1098962

>>1098949
>>1098951
>>1098957
You guys are right. I feel kind of silly that I'm being this soft on him. Thanks for clearing my mind on this matter, I'll make sure to get it over with!

No. 1098963

>>1098946
Tell your dad hes fat/take a bad picture and mock him while laughing like its a joke. People like that only realize the effects of their actions when the same is done to them.

No. 1098971

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One of my old best friends is a tranny and the last time I spoke with him was 6 years ago bc I peaked but last night I dreamed with him and I've been missing him fucking feelings

No. 1099003

Fuck Spring break and fuck all the idiotic customers who come in during this week with the most rotten attitudes and the stupidest questions. It's only Tuesday and I need a drink

No. 1099006

I feel left out of things, even though it's my own fault for never saying anything. I wish I hadn't lost all my friendships at such a young age and became scared of talking to anyone because of it. It just feels useless to try at this point, because underneath everything I am extremely boring and hard to be around.

No. 1099018

I need to bite the bullet and unfollow him everywhere.
He's needlessly made this playlist visible and it's making me insane thinking he may have wanted me to see it. He's normally secretive, it's the first he's made in years, and it's clearly for a romantic interest.
He was just passive-aggressive and sneaky enough for this to be true which is why I question it. He got off on hurting my feelings sometimes for sure, and I stopped being his friend after I started dating a decent person. It would be an easy "if she's still checking…she'll see this" for sure. Just enough to rub in my face "oh, you left me? I love this person more than your worthless ass anyway and I treated you accordingly even though I'm capable of more."

I shouldn't be checking. 2 years of his nonsense was enough, but it's become a bad habit.
There's also a chance it was for another woman he strung along instead, which isn't much better.

No. 1099033

Wish someone told me online relationships are fucking garbage. Was in a relationship with a guy for 2 years but we never met and he couldnt visit me. I got tired of waiting so i broke up. Im in love with someone i never even got to meet and im sure it seems retarded but i hope the pain will go away

No. 1099037

ive overdone it on the insoluble fibre and now i cant stop shitting im in so much pain help me

No. 1099038

>>1099033
are you, by any chance, an anon that I remember she used to talk about how much she wished covid was over so you two could meet? I remember an anon like that. I feel very sorry for your situation.

No. 1099044

>>1099038
yes anon. im surprised anyone would remember me

No. 1099056

>>1099033
Just curious when/how do you consider someone you know online a partner if you've never met? Esp if you never talk face to face? Don't want to shit on people who have online relationships but I would feel like it was fake if I never see them in person

No. 1099060

>>1098757
Please tell me you chewed him out for that shit.

No. 1099064

>>1099056
love can happen anywhere

No. 1099065

Yesterday at work I felt so excited I will finally have few days off. It's getting warmer, you can feel the sun on your skin. So much stuff to do!
I had plans with my friend. Long story short, the friend didn't show up because [insert weak excuse]. I tried another friend, she said no. I spent the whole day just hanging by myself, going to thrift shops, trying on clothes… sat on a bench in the park, called my mom, chatted with her… I got back home and started crying. Can't stop
I realized this is my life. I have two close friends. One doesn't appreciate me, the other I had to cut off recently because they were being toxic. Other people just don't like me enough to hang out. I have no one to invite for stupid coffee. My life is friendless, empty. I have a shitty part-time job at 26 and I'm too insecure to try better. My boyfriend spent the evening with the same room as me and never noticed me crying.
I have nothing to do with myself during those free days I felt excited for. I guess I should have just gone home, to my parents, play with my dogs and ride my bike, like I'm still 16, instead of playing life here. There's none.

No. 1099069

>>1099060
Can't I'll get fired. But I made sure the injection he got hurt him. He won't be sitting comfortably for a while.

No. 1099071

>>1099056
nta but I met my bf online and then we met in person, now we live together and honestly things feel exactly the same as they did online except we can be physically affectionate now. Maybe it's because we both had very strong imaginations or grew up on the internet, idk. I knew I loved him before I met him and now after we've met I still feel the exact same amount of love. I'm not trying to be cheesy or anything, I just never understand when anons doubt LDRs or that you truly don't know someone until you've met them irl because of my experience. If they've been honest, if they've opened up to you, if you love them for who they are as a person, then you can love them even if you haven't met.

No. 1099072

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sometimes i see an ugly man in public and i imagine myself walking over to him and beating the shit out of him. i never do, though. my own brain scares me sometimes.

No. 1099080

I'm so retardedly bad at picturing measurements in my head. I just can't imagine what the hell 100g of rice looks like, for example.
I've been recording what I've been eating to help me meet my daily calorie intake since I always under eat, and the app I'm using wants me to record the amount I've eaten (like 10g of banana or whatever). But I'm just so bad at measurements. I could use a scale but they're inconvenient especially if I'm eating meat. I want to be accurate but I just keep guessing like idk today I had 30g of rice.

No. 1099089

>>1099080
Do this: take an average handful of rice, weigh that one time, see how many handfuls or cupfuls you need to meet your requirements.

No. 1099097

i can't believe i committed to living but my life continues to be dogshit wtf is this

No. 1099102

>>1098900
I'm sorry, nonnette. My mother does the same to me too. She'll do it til the day she dies. I hate it so much.

No. 1099106

>>1098962
Do it over text if you have to, he’s already groomed you into putting his feelings on a pedestal while overlooking your own. Who gives a fuck what happens to him.

No. 1099111

>>1094760
I fucking hate my new job but it's so easy and there's minimal supervision normally but it's something I can definitely do remote so why do I need to make a 20 mile commute there and back every day just to appease boomer bosses
I was unemployed for 3 months and living off of school loans and it was the happiest I've ever been
Ready to risk it all and do it again

No. 1099115

>>1099072
anon i know exactly how you feel, ugly men are useless

No. 1099136

I really hate bugs. All of them. I saw a little moth flying about, so I made a gesture with my hand like I wanted to catch it, but didn't expect to actually do it. But I fucking did. Nearly screamed. but bit my tongue at the last second. Now I have to bathe to cleanse myself from it's remains.

No. 1099140

I subscribed to a really good youtube channel about feminine energy. I really like her way of thinking and advices she gives.
She often mentions that her husband proposed to her in just 2 weeks using her methods.

Well, that husband is incredibly ugly. Of course, he would propose to a woman who looks much better than him.
She has all these good advices but she marries a fucking uggo and talks about it as an achievement.
So disappointing, but I will still watch her videos.

No. 1099141

it do be like that sometimes

No. 1099143

>>1099140
what's the channel called

No. 1099146

So many moralfags in /g/. The relationship advice thread is mostly just anons shitting on other anons for being in a relationship or arguing with each other rather than giving actual advice to OP (even if the advice should be ‘you’re stupid, just dump him’). The unconventional attractions thread is less fun because 50% of the time when some rando is posted it devolves into an argument also. Roasting anons for having shit taste in men or finding themselves in shit relationships is a given, but I feel like it used to be more fun and people took things less personally. I might make fun of a nona for having shit taste but I don’t actually give a fuck if she’s dating a 4chan scrote or attracted to Putin or John Lennon because it doesn’t matter. I don’t think we have to be a hivemind with the same opinion on everything. I might just be looking with rose-tinted glasses though and it’s always been like this.

No. 1099148

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>>1099143
The universe guru.
As I said, I like her advices as they often sound quite based, but her husband…
If she says that she's a "divine queen" or something like that, why she can't find better looking man?
Pic related, she and her husband.
I don't like to shit on people but damn, at least listen to your own advice.

No. 1099149

>>1099146
The fact that john lennon anon got roasted is based. She tried to claim he was a feminist when he made women drink his pee kek.

No. 1099150

>>1099149
he
he what

No. 1099155

>>1099149
Ok actually maybe John Lennon was a bad example because we ended up getting a pretty good copypasta out of it

No. 1099169

there is an issue of troon skinwalking but what the fuck should you think when they get a gf that looks exactly like you? like not to be a snowflake but i don't have a usual look with my face compared to others in this country, after years of chasing me they got a gf who looks exactly like me and they always have been so ready to abandon them for me (never humored it i have just left the places where i have seen them, especially when the guy has come to talk to me i have just left and not answered his messages after he realised i am gone so you know not to step on the toes of the girl) (like this is not some imaginary shit either i have woken up with them groping me and watching me sleep different times and eve once he offered me money to fuck him)

i always thought he was a good friend of mine and he still is chasing clones of me and i feel bad for them, i have always just thought i need to stay away so he forgets me but he is fucking obsessed apparently always geting gfs who have a face like mine and dress like me and even after months even years not seeing him he has lived in damn different countries he is ready to drop them

fuck i miss the days we were just pals

No. 1099171

>>1099148
She seems like she has some legitimate advice, but with a lot of wacko pickme shit thrown in too. The whole "divine feminine energy" thing has always been so weird to me, like it's some weird convoluted way to get men to like you.

No. 1099178

not really a vent and I stopped caring about radfem politics but someone informed me that a bunch of trans people (yes including trans women) they know post here. i rarely post here anymore just wanted you nonnies to keep a look out

No. 1099179

>>1094760
I really ate fries/ ice cream/ salad/ mc donalds/ carrots and i want queso and pickles? My pms is wilding out and my titties are sensitive. dont YELL AT ME ill eat like a sane person tomorrow but can someone get me gummies

No. 1099189

>>1099169
like before the weird shit, if he had been a woman (and normal) he could have been a love of my life i guess

but i just never was and never can be sexually attracted to him

No. 1099190

>>1099178
Yeah we’ve figured it out

No. 1099218

>>1099178
The misogyny seeps through a lot of their shit while they desperately try to larp along with the politics here.

No. 1099231

One of my friends committed suicide last night. He overdosed in discord VC with us.. we thought he had fallen asleep. I was the last person he spoke to. We were there when he passed. He didn’t want to be alone. It was literally his birthday yesterday. This feels so weird. All my experiences with grief could not prepare me for this… and I have had so many people close to me die.

None of us know what to do.

No. 1099250

>>1099178
yeah we know… it's pretty obvious especially in certain threads i want the obvious troons in the mtf threads to die

No. 1099285

>>1099178
Omg I'm literally shaking and crying rn anon… Not.

No. 1099311

>Have acquaintance group that I mostly keep at arm's length save for one person
>Not really into their ideologies but have fun with them on occasion
>Group has an internet tough guy type, now in his 30s
>Rants about MRA shit, extremely short temper, never shuts up about all his exes being crazy and him being the nice guy
>Gets really upset for no reason whenever I'm in a relationship, though he's never once implied he was interested in me
>One time I tell him to stop talking about gross sex details with his then gf in the group chat
>Confronts me, but I'm at work so I don't reply right away
>Gets absolutely butt blasted and says I'm a fucked up psycho to our mutual friend, proceeds to block me
>"Bro I was literally at work"
>Years later he wants me to hang out with me
>I agree for some retarded reason
>By coincidence I run into a personal emergency leading up to it and end up not hanging out with him, staying off social media, out of contact with people for a bit while I deal with it
>Other friend tells me that this dude was flipping his lid over it and was ranting about it for weeks, months on end
>Eventually return to social media, confront him, explain to him I was dealing with a personal emergency
>Send me a long ass rant saying why I had no right to do that, why I should have told him instead of ghosting. I barely even read it kek
>Fast forward to now he has another gf
>Still gasses me up for whatever reason, offers to do things for me. I decline each time
>Still get the occasional message from our mutual friend saying he shit talks me when I literally do nothing to him, especially if I don't reply to his messages right away
What is his fucking goal here? Why are moids like this? And no, I haven't blocked him because I know I won't hear the fucking end of it

No. 1099339

couldn't go to work for a week and a half because my car was in the shop. supposed to get it back tomorrow but now I'm having my period and I'm in a lot of pain, I also just feel really tired and not good emotionally either. why couldn't my car have broke down this week instead? fuuuuuuuuuckk

No. 1099351

it do be like that sometimes

No. 1099355

>>1099351
it do.

No. 1099357

>>1099311
>no, I haven't blocked him because I know I won't hear the fucking end of it
If you block him, you will hear the end of it. That’s what blocking is for.

No. 1099361

>>1099357
I meant through the mutual friend and also risking him potentially fucking me up if I have to encounter him in person again.

No. 1099362

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No. 1099363

>>1099361
>also risking him potentially fucking me up
Uh, get mace? Get a fucking gun? You're allowed to protect yourself, you know.

No. 1099364

I wish time machines existed

No. 1099365

>tfw small earth quake happening right now
I hate it

No. 1099373

I was at Disneyland today and witnessed a perverted pedophile take a picture of a very underaged girl in a skort. He was walking to the left in front of me when he did it and I wanted to throw up. I wish I said something loud to him but it caught me off guard and all I was able to to get out to my friend was “he just took a picture of her!” It was seriously disturbing and I felt horrible. That poor girl. He was probably doing it all day. I am well aware of how degenerate men are but witnessing something like it at a place like Disneyland is just… I hope he dies in a car crash on the way home.

No. 1099374

>>1099373
You should've reported him. How long until he touches a kid?

No. 1099378

>>1099374
How would I though? There was no cast member around and there’s thousands of guys that were in the same outfit as him. Never saw his face.

No. 1099379

>>1099374
Shitty response

No. 1099380

>>1099365
Another one just hit
EARTH-SAN PLEASE I JUST WANT TO SLEEP.

No. 1099385

>>1099379
Why? Should I congratulate anon for watching a pedo stalk kids and not take any action? Read again, she doesn't have to report but she "should've." Got it?

No. 1099386

i'm almost certain i've been rejected from my dream school's grad program at this point. shit's bumming me out. i just want them to tell me i've been rejected to get it over with.

No. 1099387

>>1099373
Call the park, tell them what happened. Give a description of the guy. If they have security footage, they can look at it to try and find him.

No. 1099397

I’m taking a mentorship program and i’m excited and everything but i just realized i don’t like the mentor’s work… i wonder if he has anything of value to teach. I even paid and everything…

No. 1099402

>>1099373
one time I was on a plane and the old fuck next to me was taking "sneaky" sidelong pics on his phone of a very little girl, I was a teen at the time and too shocked to say anything (plus trapped on a plane), even as a naive dumbass I knew the "m-maybe he just thinks she's cute!" cope I was telling myself was not true.

No. 1099410

pls god no more apocalypse dreams

No. 1099411

>>1099387
Nta but I used to work at WDW and reports go nowhere. Most aren’t even recorded. That goes for everything, not just creeps. There were reports of molestation and nothing was done for 99.999% of them because it’s impossible to find footage let alone identify anyone; they aren’t “wasting time” (that would be their words after the call) looking for a man with hardly a description taking a photo. You can’t prove what he was doing anyways, it’s not illegal to take photos of someone unfortunately, and again indentifying and tracking him would be next to impossible. Only time I personally saw something go anywhere was when it involved a family member on a ride with exact date and time known and courts involved. Footage still was not released though and all that could be said by Disney was that the person in question was on said ride on that date during that time with the victim and it wasn’t an official statement.

>>1099385
>not taking action
Because we know how well men respond to women calling them out. Totally not a dangerous thing to do at all. See above as why reporting it would not have mattered anyway.

No. 1099412

Whenever i have a panic attack or feel extremely insecure and doubtful i watch this, i know its unwarranted but i feel like shes screaming at me and its tough love

No. 1099414

>>1099410
lol same

No. 1099418

>>1099411
Jesus Christ that is bleak. I didn’t work for Disney but another amusement park pre-pandemic and I know security got tons of prank and fake calls. It’s probably even worse for Disney parks so I’d imagine that’d also play a part in them not searching for something. In a perfect world there’d be enough time to investigate every call that comes in, real or not, but there’s not enough time in reality. Men are horrendous.

No. 1099422

So for the past year I've had this male friend, Ken, that I knew from a psych class we took together. He's always been really funny and easy to talk to. We've even been "Whatsapp Wine Buddies" where we watch crappy movies together while drinking and exchanging snarky comments. Several times I've gotten the impression that he's into me, but since he knew I had a bf (whom I often mentioned), it was kind of a moot point.

Fast foward to last week when I accidentally let it slip that Tyler (my bf) and I had just broken up. Immediately Ken starts innundating me with messages about how he's always had feelings for me and maybe this is how things were meant to be, etc. The whole thing was really offputting and doubly so since I wasn't at all attracted to him. I tried to find the most tactful way of telling him that I was flattered but not interested. He sent back a curt, "That's OK, I understand," and I didn't hear from him for the rest of the night.

Since then, I've texted him a few times, but his replies have been terse and delayed (in the past, they were instantaneous). I get that he's disappointed, but I'm feeling pretty pissed myself. Was Ken only interested in being friends because he was biding his time and waiting for me to be single again? It just feels really dishonest. Am I wrong, here?

No. 1099424

>>1099418
There was definitely prank calls but not as many as you’d expect but that’s only because it was/is a pain to get directed to the right number lol I’d say most calls were about stolen property, pushy behavior from guests, and rude cast members which may be valid complaints but at that point security isn’t getting involved especially if you’re no longer in property. It should be said though that sexual misconduct from cast members was taken more seriously but that’s handled extremely hush-hush if something is found. Usually there wasn’t and it was just guests mad about another situation making up things and I know buddies hid things. There’s a reason only a handful have made the news. Most are just let go and banned from property for life.

No. 1099427

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>>1099412
when the homicidal urges hit

No. 1099428

>>1099412
can someone explain the context of this clip? is she really just mad at this girl because she's not crying?

No. 1099431

>>1099422
men are fucking garbage

No. 1099436

Why is this world so fucked up
I'm having anxiety over something I just read. Good god
Help. I don't know how to calm down, actually
This world is just seriously FUCKED UP

No. 1099440

>>1099428
She is but she masked it as a “you’re ungrateful” thing i still appreciate the histrionic speech

No. 1099444

>>1099373

My mom was a young single mother while I was growing up so she's always been on guard and one time she was at the kids-only part of the amusement park and she seen a couple whispering and taking photos A LOT of photos.
At first she thought maybe the one was a photographer with their gf/bf until they randomly got up and left. With no kids. What's worse is that she said this was before mobile-phones were a thing and same with normies owning digital cameras.

She reported it to the park and police but never got a follow-up and we never went back since. Awful

No. 1099445

>>1099436
I hope you can calm down Anon, I find that when I think the world is THAT awful that there's always good things to outweigh it.
Watching social experiments has helped me regain faith I'm humanity, same with the random ccp propaganda that randomly appears on my YT homepage.

No. 1099463

Husband wants to move cause he's afraid rent is gonna go higher next year. "Let's check places then" I said.
Every place we checked is a fucking downgrade. They're almost the same price, but they're also smaller, run down, and way away from the city. I tell husband we need to reconsider, and staying might actually be cheaper. No, he says his parents are pressuring to buy a house, and he's anxious about money.
I tell him that his parents can choke on a dick, since they have no opinion on where and how we spend our money, still won't change his mind.
I love my apartment nonnies, is spacious, the area is great, the price is cheap in comparison to other places, I really don't want to go. I'd rather die than live two hours away from the city in a shitty suburb.

No. 1099484

we have a new coworker and i said im lesbian from some convo. she says she is too while i was busy. i swear if my cunty other coworker goes after her im gonna be pissed. she's been rude to me ever since i was hired without any real reason even though i was just happy to meet another lesbian in my somewhat conservative state. the new girl is too sweet i wanna be her friend or gf. my current coworker can fuck off.

No. 1099488

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My best friend is a great friend but her passive-agressiveness is really grinding my gears. I've been super busy with uni and work and I get home at aroud 7pm every day. We talk on the phone at least once a day (we live in different states), even if it's just for 10 minutes. Sometimes she'll tell me to call her when I get home but then I forget because dinner, showering etc. gets in the way. Then she'll text me in the night or the day after that I didn't call her and she's upset that I'm so busy and I'm like… wow. We're also in our late 20's.

I'm exhausted doing the same rinse and repeat shit every day and trying to cram self-care and responsibilities into the 3 hours of free time I have before I go to bed, while she only works from 8am to 1pm and complains how she's bored because everyone else is at work and she has no one to hang out with (and she has no hobbies either because she's codependent as fuck). I really appreciate her as a friend but kindly fuck off I'm not your fucking babysitter.

No. 1099489

>missed the bus, walked 20min to the nearest subway station
>entered subway, sat down at the only empty seat available
>the fatass next to me removed her handbag from the otherwise unoccupied seat so I won't sit down on it but she's so fat and pushing me on purpose I feel like I have half a seat only
>next station, a woman point at the other seat next to me to tell a retarded man to sit there, the person already there lets the man sits
>old retarded man won't stop moving so I gtfo here asap because I see where this is going
>retarded man starts jacking off, everybody pretends nothing wrong is going on
>next station, another obese woman pushes me from the back before saying "excuse me" and sits down next to the retard because she didn't notice anything wrong
>some people are looking at me all offended and shit because I fled from my sit when I saw the retard
Please can someone invent teleportation soon?

No. 1099490

I had a dream about my old best friend. I keep having dreams about us just hanging out like we used to again and I really miss her a lot. She probably doesn't want to be my friend anymore and I'm too much of a coward to try to contact her again to ask if she'd like to be best friends again, but damn these dreams hurt. I love her a lot and always will.

No. 1099493

All I had last night was white rice and mince beef yet this morning I felt horrible and vomited it all up. Why?? I just don't understand my stomach. Those are two very plain easy to digest foods so why?? I'm afraid to go to the doctor because of long waiting times and because I'm afraid of what they'll tell me, if they'll even care… I know I should I'm just a coward. I would be miserable if my husband wasn't so lovely and caring. I feel like I can't move or get out of bed and I don't know what to eat. And honestly I'm really grateful to be a NEET right now because I've had problems with vomiting up my food for almost 2 months now. I just want to eat delicious food and make delicious food but now I'm afraid I'll just vomit it up. I've been underweight my whole life and I'm wondering if there really is just some issue with my guts and that's why I've been vomiting and never gain weight?

No. 1099496

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WHY DID I SEE THAT SHIT WHY DID I SEE THAT SHIT WHY WHY WHY WHY DID I HAVE TO SEE IT WHY THIS WORLD IS FUCKED UP

No. 1099499

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I came across a couple of posts by this one woman on a forum I use and she sounded so sweet and nice. She mentioned she was looking for female friends so I was tempted to contact her but hasn't been active in 140 days. She's also quite a bit older than me so maybe it wouldn't work out anyway. But now like a loser I'm fantasising about being her friend and making bentos together, fml.
I think I just want one friendly and non judgey female best friend again. I'm too afraid to use lolcow's friend finder because I worry the anons here won't like me or will judge me negatively, that I'm too autistic and our interests won't align, I'm also afraid of moids pretending to be women but I guess voice chat could get around that. My last close female friendship ended because she wanted something more than platonic and I didn't, so we agreed it would be best to part ways so she would not be hurt by me eventually finding a partner. I find it much easier to make friends with men but I don't want to be friends with just men all my life. Female socialisation scares me.

No. 1099501

>dream about physically harming moid
>dream about slicing his dick with a serrated knife
>laugh maniacally.
>also get turned on
A lot of my dreams consist of hurting moids

No. 1099502

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I did not need to know about your gigolo antics in japan. I did not need to know about how many women you banged for women on the pretense of being a "private english teacher". your life is super fucked up. I know you were homeless, young, and good looking, but it feels like I stumbled upon something I will never be able to erase from my mind. now whenever I see you I see a male prostitute. that fucked a lot of girls and women. you're seriously a piece of work. Idk, I know shit sucks life sucks. but for some reason I wish I could unsee what I saw. god. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. but also fuck you, in a way. wow.

No. 1099505

>>1099499
You like higurashi, so I'll be your friend!
barusamikosu#5951 add me on discord. Let's voice check too.

No. 1099506

i feel like the universe is punishing me for something i dont know what ive done wrong other than use this site. what did i do to deserve these things.

No. 1099507

>>1099506
your post just reminded me I used to delete my browser history whenever I came to this website to lurk, like as if I was commiting a crime, doing something illegal. turns out you don't go to jail if you post gossip on an image board lol

No. 1099524

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I hate Luca, and I hate Turning Red. This is the shittiest Pixar has ever been. I honestly hate Pixar so much now.

No. 1099527

>>1099502
Sounds gross nonny, I hate finding shit like that out about people who don’t seem the type

No. 1099528

>>1099463
Nonnie tell him if you move you'll leave him, I will never understand why men believe they have the final say. Refuse to move into the house and ask for a raise at work if it's reasonable enough to live by yourself, you never want to be stuck in a mans house
>>1099488
It sounds like she thinks you're in a relationship together anon
>>1099524
MajorKEK my ex showed me Luca and said it was his favorite movie and that he cried and when we watched it together he kept looking at me for tears and I'm ??? least memorable movie ever, I dont even remember what happened lmao

No. 1099532

>>1099528
>least memorable movie ever
Kek, my mom loves animated movies (even dumb ones like Sing) and she had to actively pause that shit and stop watching it because she says she found it both boring and also stupid, she hated it.

No. 1099534

>>1099527
it was someone I kinda admired too

maybe someday I'll post the link of what I saw. but for now, I would rather forget.

No. 1099537

>>1099524
Just this screenshot is too ugly for my eyes, no way I'm watching an entire movie of that shit.

No. 1099539

>>1099534
I’m not gonna lie I’m incredibly curious, but you do you. Glad to hear you weren’t talking about your bf or something kek

No. 1099540

anons I know I'm a schizosperg(not exactly schizo but bd) but I honestly have a hard time believing that what I experience is fake or my intuition is wrong because 99% of the time its it's right but I think I'm falling down a hole right now and im not sure what to do.
I cant tell anyone irl because they're going to think im insane and I probably am but I think I could be poisoned? Someone is poisoning my food? In the last three weeks, my nausea has been awful and I literally just threw up mid-bite on my blanket but I don't feel sick, I just feel like I can't eat and everything tastes off. I am most likely just going insane but part of me cant help but to justify it and I keep seeing other nonnies saying they're sick and part of me thinks that maybe it's a sign I'm right but I know this is bizarre. I live alone and my fridge is in my room, I've been home the last few days and I havent seen anything but part of me tries to justify that maybe when I went to get mail? I think I'm losing my head and idk what to do without seeming psychotic because I still feel ok. I'd take my meds but its $500 w.o insurance currently oop and I've never been THAT bad.
Part of me is self aware and just hates that I will always have this disorder and that it will always make me paranoid and question myself. I think I'm probably just losing it but I also feel like it's fine. I should just brush it off. I just dont know why someone would poison ME. I havent bought new food either cuz I'm scared lol. I'm trying to be normal abt this hngh

Feels good to get off my chest ty noonies

No. 1099543

>>1099540
samefag but reading this to myself I know I sound crazy and I hope I don't make anyone else start to question themselves or feel insane too. I hope I didnt make anyone uncomfortable. I just have no irls to share this with but maybe I should lol

No. 1099545

>>1099543
you absolutely need to talk to someone IRL, you are losing touch with reality and need grounding.

No. 1099548

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>>1099524
Same, I really should stop seeing Pixar as the holy grail of animation becasuse that time is clearly long behind us.
First of all, the "calarts" style really puts me off. It looks cheap and samey for some reason.
And second, nowadays I feel like they are way too obsessed with representing and depicting different cultures accurately and letting the director put their whole biography in the movie to make it "personal and authentic", instead of actually writing a good story first. Same with Disney, I couldn't give less of a shit about Encanto or Raya, I was cringing and yawning the whole time throughout those movies.
Just write a good story again for fucks sake. The only Pixar movie I've genuinely enjoyed over the past decade was Coco. And for Disney it was Big Hero 6, and maybe Zootopia as well.

No. 1099551

>>1099540
maybe you're experiencing a stomach bug or you can not digest your food well and your mind is interpreting it in a paranoid way. What kind of stuff causes the most nausea? When I feel sick I eat a bland diet of bananas, apples, rice and potatoes. Maybe this helps. Or make yourself some nice tea also, with some ginger. This helps with nausea also. Don't stress yourself so much please.

No. 1099552

>>1099528
>>1099524
I liked Luca but my reasoning is a little different, my family used to take me to our home village when I was younger
Luca reminded me of those memories, of growing up in thay environment

No. 1099554

>>1099524
>>1099548
I think you two have to accept that you're no longer an audience for children movies

No. 1099557

I have a 15 min phone interview thing for a job/internship and my tongue has already swelled up in my mouth I am so anxious. It is literally in about a few mins too

No. 1099560

I feel like I was broken in by having a strict ass mentally ill mom who gave me cruel and bizarre and really embarrassing punishments and talk about every private thing to “muh” church congregation. She also never let me go to school dances or after school things, and not like she spent a lot of time with us growing up either, she just wanted us there in another room and she would come in to yell at us randomly. She is such a shitty mom, she did everything wrong, she cut off all my hair and made me wear a trash bag at 15 when I ran away and they caught me. I wanted to kms, because when I went home, I had no phone, no friends, wasn’t allowed to, and not that I even wanted to, I was bullied by both boys and girls for looking like a boy (dudes were always the worst) She’s been a methhead for idk how longand I just can’t help but always think of how much she failed me. I used to have a spark in me, I was always shy but now I am legit scared of people and I can’t trust anyone.

No. 1099561

>>1099557
Good luck nonna!! Tell us how it went

No. 1099563

>>1099560
Sandbag and my stepdad was a total perv who got off on humiliating us
>my mom told us he got boners at her crying
>made me and my sisters cry all the damn time, called us ugly, humiliated us.
I can’t believe my mom let someone like that in our lives she fucking sucks

No. 1099570

>>1099560
I'm so sorry anon, I hope you can get some help and with that and cutting your mom off, eventually reclaim your life

No. 1099572

>>1099563
Wtf. Please get away from them and get therapy. You can heal and you deserve to be loved, first by yourself

No. 1099584

>>1099560
Overly religious parents should be forbidden by law to raise children. They can only traumatise them and force them to do and think fucked up things to ruin their lives long term. Hopefully your siblings and you are old enough to be away from this bitch.

No. 1099586

>>1099501
anon this is unironically fucking disgusting and degenerate. you should be ashamed instead of broadcasting your gross pornsick fantasies to other femcels who will validate your retardation.

now how exactly did you slice it off?

No. 1099592

>>1099557
>>1099561
Thank you for asking nonnie! It went really well! I was very prepared so that helped. The job is absolutely ideal for me so now I want it even more. Don’t want to get my hopes up there.

No. 1099596

Therapy seems so useless to me, I don't get the point.

No. 1099628

>>1094773
Agree. it's so much better to use serums and whatever because everyones skin type is different too. single use face products are horrible

No. 1099629

>>1099596
Apparently there are good therapists. People say so. Idk, i havent found one yet, and ive seen a few.

No. 1099630

>>1099596
I have a coworker who does it but still has massive anger issues and is extremely passive aggressive. it's useless for most people if they are just shit human beings

No. 1099631

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I'm really really really tired. I had class in the morning, went home to eat and cry, now I have two more classes in totally different places and commuting time is gonna be around 3 hours 40 minutes…. Tomorrow I also have classes with this exact same crazy commuting, I have to talk to patients the whole morning and we have an assignment that my teacher made me feel like an absolute idiot about… I should be also studying in my spare time to keep up with my classmates but I have no fucking energy. I gobble up coffee any moment I can but it's barely helping anymore. How the hell do they manage? I am so underweight, can't gain more weight, don't have enough appetite, I'm so tired and have brain fog and it's so hard to be functional. Yet I still somehow manage it even though it's literally tearing me apart inside. Yesterday I cried myself to sleep without having any apparent reason except existential ones. I've been so lonely for so long but I don't have mental energy to date. I need a break so much but I can't afford it. If I wasn't so afraid of dying and believed in any kind of afterlife, I would have killed myself already. Fuck I wish I got injured and got to sleep and chill in hospital for a few days.

No. 1099640

>>1099631
How old are you if you don't mind me asking ?
Like in University or secondary education

No. 1099642

>>1099640
I'm 25ish, med uni. At least I don't have much of it left.

No. 1099645

>>1099642
well you can look forward to that

No. 1099647

>>1099631
That sounds insane, I get exhausted from way less than that, I don't understand how anyone could do that much and still keep up with studying material… I hope you get a break soon nonny, stay strong!!

No. 1099648

I woke up with a stomach ache due to binge eating last night. Can't stop binge eating for months and I've gained like 15 lbs in a short amount of time due to it. My PCP and psychiatrist are not taking me seriously because I'm still at a normal weight and my psychiatrist says that I need a therapist to help with the binge eating when she full damn well admitted that increasing the dosage of my antidepressant will help but yet she refuses to. She also refuses to prescribe me Klonopin or Xanax. I've never been addicted to either of them and live with abusive family that caused me to be on meds in the first place. I take Xanax when needed and don't take more than 1 mg per day. I'm trying to find a new psychiatrist but no one is accepting or have long wait times out. This is Hell.

No. 1099650

>>1099631
I'm going through something similar too and what keeps me going is thinking of the alternative. Sure you feel bad now and sure you might wanna quit but have you considered the lifelong guilt and self hatred you might have if you actually did give up? How you might feel five years from now looking back?
It's pretty unhealthy but it works for really short term tasks and it's like sticking a bandaid on that will peel off soon. For more longterm:
1. Schedule mental health breaks. It doesn't need to be a whole day, even an hour break where you tell yourself that you can do whatever you want(!!!!) really does help.
2. Figure out why you're doing it. You say you're in med school, so is it money? Think of how rich you'll be if you keep going, how you'll beat all your peers. Is it to help people? Think about how many people you'll be able to save if you just keep going.
The general mentality of "It's gonna get worse before it gets better" or "it can't get worse than this, I've come so far I can do the rest" really helps too. You just need to remember there's a light at the end of the tunnel.

I still haven't figured everything out but these have really helped out. Good luck anon, I'm rooting for you!!!!!

No. 1099651

Me and my boyfriend wanted to meet at this specific place. 10 minutes before the meeting time he says that he would come 45 minutes later. I am already omw to the place so should I just leave and go back home? I don't really want to wait this long

No. 1099654

>>1099647
>>1099650
Thank you nonnies, didn't even expect any replies.
I'll screenshot the reply to keep it in mind! What kind of drags me down is that starting doctors here don't get paid much and the workload is quite huge so I've gotta endure it a few more years. But I possibly could work abroad for some time. It's gonna be worth it in the end (if I don't get a stroke before graduating).

No. 1099658

Ate garlic yesterday despite probably having sensitivity to it and couldn't sleep at all because I felt like my bowels are getting torn apart. It's slightly better now but christ

No. 1099667

>>1099651
Samefag i went back home

No. 1099683

>>1099373
How do you even deal with this? Is it too much/too direct to walk up to the parents to tell them directly that someone's taking pictures of their kid?

No. 1099684

I just finished talking to my therapist today and I was telling her after I graduate from my
program that I was planning to take a break for the summer before finding a job because I’ve been experiencing a lot of mental burnout. She gave me a long look and then asked me “and how are you planning to fund yourself?” I told her my parents would still continue to pay my lease and stuff because they’ve basically been funding me my whole life since I’ve been in school. And then she didn’t say anything and kept looking at me, so I continued and explained how grateful I was that my parents are willing to pay for my shit until I get a job and how I’m really fortunate to not have to worry about finances. And then she agreed with me that I was in a fortunate position and we moved on.

Obviously everything I said was true, but that felt kind of uncomfortable. I don’t know why she asked me that since it didn’t have much to do with what I was talking about? I do recognize that I’m in a really privileged position, but now I wonder if she was judging me or thinks I’m a spoiled brat or something because I don’t know why she asked me that and then responded the way she did.

No. 1099705

I am so worried for my friend. She is 22 and she just got married to a guy her parents arranged for her. Okay. Now, they had sex for the first time with each other (and in general) on their wedding night, as is tradition, and she got pregnant. I am just in awe, she is so not ready for a kid and not with someone she is barely acquainted to. She also left her city to live with him. It's just insane, she doesn't have her family with her there, I can't believe her. She says herself she is not ready for pregnancy at all and wasn't planning on it but now she is and I'm telling you guys, she is too, too immature for a child. I am stressing for her. She said she was gonna start bc like a day before her wedding, couldn't even wait a week for it to be effective. I'm just so… oh well, most parents aren't ready for kids when they have them, anyways.

No. 1099713

>>1099684
A lot of therapists, including most from my past, actually aren’t cut out for what they’re doing. I’m not necessarily trying to imply anything more about your therapist than that maybe she should have been more mindful of how she was reacting when talking to you. But if you’re in a privileged position, you might as well do something nice for yourself like you are on track to do, and what, does she want you to feel guilty about that?

Full disclosure, I quit going to therapy years ago and just vent to lolcow and my bf now, and I’m happier bc of it. I know therapy works for a lot of people, and I’m happy for them! But imo so many therapists have to learn to do better.

No. 1099714

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Dear nonnies, I'm so depressed…I lost 23kg and am now a size small and yet I still see my body as when I was heavy! I keep buying size 12's and 14's without realising that I'm no longer those sizes, i've wasted so much money buying clothes too big. It's just so frustrating because I keep waiting and waiting for my brain to see myself as what I actually am and It's not happening. Ugh!

No. 1099716

>>1099705
Apologies for Samefag but it’s crazy how some diaspora POC from cultures heavy on arranged marriages will not hear any criticism about modern arranged marriages, always talking about “but arranged marriage isn’t forced marriage!” That’s true a lot of the time, but there is often significant parent/family pressure that goes into it, and women marrying men they barely know and going to live with them (as mentioned in your post) is a serious safety risk…. Let alone a situation with kids involved.
I wish nothing but the best for your friend.

No. 1099718

>>1099714
Don’t weight yourself, measure yourself and compare your old clothes with other sizes, check the measurements of other sizes and compare them with your body’s measurements, that helped me a lot when I was losing weight, because what matters isn’t the kilos, but the sizes of your actual body and how toned it is.

No. 1099720

It’s almost that time of year again where it’s too hot to sleep. Had the AC and the fan on and still woke up sweating.

No. 1099721

>>1099714
take pics! let other people take pics of you! then compare those pics to pics of when you were fat. this helped me immensely when i lost a ton of weight. i still thought i was the ugly fat girl but then i saw pics that my mom had taken of me and i was shocked at how small i actually was all of a sudden. i went from a 4XL/3XL to M if that helps.

No. 1099724

>>1099714
Kek I’m a tall 12 and my BMI is in the healthy range. You sure you ever had a weight problem rather than your head just being screwed up all along?

No. 1099726

>>1099716
>significant parent/family pressure that goes into it
Definitely. It's a whole thing. We also have the whole 'marriage isn't between two people but two families', it gets so complicated. I really hope she'll be okay and it will all turn out better than fine. I am just worried…

No. 1099752

I'm at the office, I want to take a nap or even just go back home because my work can be done later this week. I'm so tired.

No. 1099763

>>1099724
I absolutely had a weight problem, I was 83 kg at 163cm(obese)! I lost weight initially because of thyroid concerns and now my thyroid is normal, I think it's that phantom fat phenomena but knowing the term for it doesn't make this change less weird to my brain. I don't know, I just find it hard adjusting to being 'skinny', I still feel like fat teenage me. Maybe my head is a little screwed up.

>>1099718
>>1099721
And thank you nona's! I have been keeping my measurements(partly to help with my buying clothes too big) but looking back on old photos is good advice, I hated the way I looked back then so I never took photos or let people take photos, I have so little that I never really considered actually comparing myself to my highest weight.

No. 1099767

he's the first attractive man to be attracted to me and he's a textbook scrote. fml

No. 1099770

>>1099714
i recently lost a ton of weight and it took a while for me to see it. it will happen though! try wearing some clothes that didn't fit. it can really help drive it home.

No. 1099771

>>1099763
Oh wild, I’m 75kg at 180 cm, crazy that we could theoretically fit into the same pants in your old days.

No. 1099786

>>1099713
That's what I was thinking as well! If I have the chance to take a break without worrying about my finances then I will. Of course I totally acknowledge that not everyone is able to do that and I'm really lucky to do so, but I don't know why I was made to feel guilty for doing something that will be productive for my mental health and also will contribute to my job productivity once I do get a job since I'll be refreshed instead of hating myself and my brain like I do now. I don't think she meant it that way, but yeah she probably could have done better ironically I am planning to work in mental health, so I definitely think she could have done better.

Honestly I've been thinking of quitting therapy too once I graduate. I just need some place to vent about how stressful my program is and about my imposter syndrome, but once I've graduated I think I'll be in a better place mentally to just process my problems myself.

No. 1099790

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I'm tired of this obvious newfag replying to anons with nothing to contribute.

No. 1099801


No. 1099816

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I can't with my mother. Whenever I bring up some health problem she always tries to push me towards alternative medicine even though I have expressed that I do not believe in them and I'm not interested in trying them. She's obsessed with Ayurveda and keeps telling me to go to an Ayurvedic doctor and even though I literally read out articles about how there is no evidence suggesting that Ayurveda works, she just shrugs it off saying that 'I cannot know until I try it'. She also looks down on anyone who does not buy organic food and the other day made a remark about me buying 'ordinary non-organic' cheese from the store. But the funny thing is, she contradicts herself. She worship anything organic but also buys Coke because 'she heard from a friend that it's good for stomach bug'. She'll believe anything

No. 1099829

>start checking Mei thread because her rebrand that I had only vaguely heard of seemed weird, even though I don't care about her content much
>all this cultish shit and manipulation by a creepy man at the center of it all comes up
>anons start posting more women who seem to be in the cult aside from Mei
>check thread right before bed last night
>my old internet pal from tumblr might be in this cult too
>think of all the times we shot the shit about anime, simpler times
>she's suffered a lot and this gross scrote is probably making her suffer more if she is actually in the cult
>cry myself to sleep a bit because I had been wondering for a long time how she was doing and this is how it ended up

No. 1099833

>>1099829
that mei thread took a fucking hard left turn

No. 1099890

I really hope that one day I can move countries. It's so hard. But other people have done it so one day I can too right? I'd rather live almost anywhere else.

No. 1099893


No. 1099896

I was at work last night and I'm right back to it. I'm irritated and cramping and I just wish I was home. A moid customer came to ask questions and I feel very unhinged because I'm in such a bad mood that I wanted to strangle him for bothering me.

No. 1099902

Friend works at a nerdy pop culture store and tells me that they're going to slowly phase out all Harry Potter merchandise. Fuck this clown world. How brainwashed can people be? Or is it just them not wanting to lose clientele? Ridiculous how you need to bend to these people or your livelihoods are in danger. I'm tired of living on this planet

No. 1099906

>>1099902
Did she say why? Surely the merch earns them a lot of money.

No. 1099916

>>1099902
one of my irl friends works in a store like that too and they're not phasing out hp merch, but when my friend is on shift she purposely arranges the hp merch in hidden corners or pulls shelves/tables in front of the hp tables so the view from outside the store is obstructed. you only find the hp merch when you walk to the back of the store. i remember watching her do this when i visited her at work and suddenly a customer interrupted our conversation and asked for the hp merch kek.

thing is, most nerdy people who aren't terminally online really don't care about hp woman evil.

No. 1099917

>>1099906
Because of JK Rowling's supposed twansphobia, most likely. It's an extremely liberal area, probably the most liberal in the entire US, clientele is primarily leftist tumblr types. They are probably avoiding any backlash so they don't lose customers.
I worked there seasonally a few years ago and HP merch was already dwindling since other IPs are bigger and it was before the JKR stuff, but I guess they have ample reason to just get rid of everything now and not restock.

No. 1099919

my roommate, who i considered a best friend, was dating a friend of mine for about 6 months until recently. i was at the same time having a fling with that friend's roommate. so it was this weird situation where we're all seeing each others' roommates. just lesbian things

less than a week after my roommate and friend broke up, my roommate was caught making out with the girl i was having a fling with at a club.

it fucked up my living situation bc i hate my roommate now. i lost a friend group. i'm just feeling hurt and betrayed and thinking what the fuck.

the girl i was seeing drunk called me 10 times the other day, she keeps saying we're gonna be friends again one day, and that we're all gonna be closer friends because of this. like girl fuck you.

No. 1099939

Why are men so annoying about "muh mental health." Like what do men struggle with so bad that they have to always put their problems in the spotlight. It always boils down to them being ugly virgin freaks, or ugly retard normies that cry about the lack of blowjobs. Also last time I checked, men caused their own problems with their faggotry. Please kys males, I am sick of all of you. Go get drafted or something

No. 1099943

It feels shitty not being able to get in touch with any of my culture.

I'm French/Polish. But the actual culture is lost over time if you're not native to those places.

I wish I had some form of culture I could look back to and feel part of I guess. I'm so removed from it by my redneck family and years of pushing their racist ideas at me.

No. 1099954

>>1099919
Kill maim destroy! I hate the whole inbreeding lesbian myth.

No. 1099976

okay yeah they’re lifting the mask mandate (at least where i live), whatever, but i really wish that the people making my sandwich or scooping my ice cream would do it with a mask on. i’ve worked in fine dining but i had my first food service job last year at a sandwich shop and it occurred to me how bizarre it is that i wouldn’t have been required to wear a mask before the pandemic. without the mask, i would have been breathing on someone’s italian sub. gross.

No. 1099987

(i posted this in the relationship thread in /g but this thread seems to get more traffic so help me out nonnas, please. sorry for the weird spacing)

I'm a woman with autism (undiagnosed) and I'm currently dating. I have a hard time knowing if a guy I'm seeing is truly interested or not. My older sister always gives me advice so I don't get played and taken advantage off. I also listen to other women online. So far, I've filtered out guys successfully and been good at choosing guys to go out with who meet my standards.

I met a guy in the beginning of February, and things went really well initially. He showed interest, we went on dates, he didn't act creepy or sexual. However, it feels like he's been losing interest when I gave him my number and I told him "what are you looking for". He said he didn't know. I've been told this is a red flag, that the guy isn't looking for anything serious, but I kind of understand him. He barely knows me. After that, I basically have initiated all the dates so far. It's really exhausting and I feel like he doesn't like me anymore. But when we do meet he seems really into me. What does this mean?

I send him a text this past weekend and I told him we should just be friends. He didn't seem bothered at all. I texted him this past monday (i know, bad move) and told him we could still meet each other as friends. He agreed and we're meeting this friday.

I feel like a clown because initially, it felt like he was really into me and I kind of "fell" for him. I'm not in love, but I really like him. What should I do to make him come around? Should I even try? And no, we haven't slept together yet.

No. 1099989

Picture this. You're fucking knackered you're 5 hours into a 12 hour shift, everything hurts and your smell is suddenly heightened. My period is a week late and suddenly she comes. I have to get up at fucking 4am tomorrow I don't deserve this

No. 1099994

>>1099989
*sense of smell. I can always smell everything much more when I'm menstruating.

No. 1099999

>>1099987
I'm an idiot but maybe just be honest about it? Although it depends on how many dates you've been on after you've asked that question. Any more than 4 and it's no good that he doesn't know. It sets the precedent that you're waiting on him warming up to you, rinse and repeat for being a gf, moving in, getting married etc. id he say anythign in addition to not knowing? Like he doesn't knwo yet because it's too soon but he really likes you, based on past experiences it takes at least 3 months etc etc. Any further communication or was he vague? Because if vague, again red flag.

Be friends if you can handle it, but if you'll do it to wait for him to warm up to you more…don't.

No. 1100006

>>1099987
Ehh you can do better. It'll take luck to find him but the best man is one that never leaves you second guessing. Even at the very beginning of meeting each other, I never had to question whether my husband was into me or not because he made it so obvious. And to this day he makes it obvious. I like that, it's straightforward and easy. That's why I married him. I am autistic too so I hate having to take social cues, hints, guessing how someone feels etc, which you seem to have to be doing with this guy. Maybe still keep him around but aim to go on dates with other guys? Good luck nonna.

No. 1100013

I hate how I get caught up in the moment so it's afterwards I feel embarrassed my behavior. Every time!

No. 1100020

>>1099989
Hang in there nonny!! Take a painkiller and you can pull through. I also sometimes predict my period based on my sense of smell as well! It's like a superpower kek

No. 1100037

I feel like my friends are rubbing in my face that they get to hang out with their friends and SOs and have fun. They know that I suffer a lot because I'm alone and sick. Or maybe I'm just being bitter.

No. 1100041

>>1099976
It's always amazed me how little western countries care about hygiene. Not sure if you're a burger but I was really hoping that mask usage would become more common, just for general sickness and food stuff too. But no, you gotta come into work, even food, if you're sick. Sometimes places make you wear hairnets and gloves..why not masks too?

No. 1100051

My friend is extremely critical of other women’s looks, like if we’re watching the bachelor or some reality show like that she’ll nitpick every woman’s feature and call them ugly. The thing is she’s not even attractive herself, like those women on tv are already beyond her in looks since they style their hair, have nice bodies, nice clothes, etc. whereas she doesn’t try at those things and is not that genetically beautiful either. I don’t care whether my friend is attractive but it’s insane how little awareness she has of her own looks. But then she’ll pity herself and be like “omg aren’t I so mean? Tell me I’m not a bad person” and it’s like… yes you are very mean and judgmental lol. Remind me to never make friends with insecure people again

No. 1100056

>>1100051
I have a friend like this too and it's so exhausting to be around. She is about average but I myself am very unattractive. So when she nitpicks conventionally attractive women but then says I'm pretty I can't help but worry about what she really thinks.
I hope you're straight up with her and say she's an insecure bitch one day kek

No. 1100082

>>1099705
And i'm guessing she's too dumb or religious to get an abortion?

No. 1100085

>>1099790
hentai is trash too but i'd rather have people watch that shit than real porn where real women are being hurt and exploited.

No. 1100088

someone just sent me screenshots of our own message thread

No. 1100092

>>1099976
Western countries, esp america never think to wear masks or food safety gloves. I'm surprised everyone isnt dead in America.

No. 1100093

Kek life has been testing me. After almost burning down my kitchen and having to get rid of the smoke smell through an ozone sanitizer, my mom left some food on the stove and once again, my kitchen almost burned down. I’ve been cleaning all day an the smoke smell is back. I don’t want more ozone sanitizer I swear that shit fucked up my lungs. And my university is back with lectures at the campus after 2 years of zoom lectures. Now I have to come back as the smoke-girl. I smell like a chain smoking white trash.

No. 1100095

Troonery shit has been making me really depressed lately… We're losing everything our predecessors fought for and more, and we're doing it with a big forced smile.
I used to think that soon, people would realise trannies are unhinged attention-whoring fetishists, but we're all just accepting it more and more, walking on increasingly fragile eggshells. I also used to think trannies themselves would realise that hacking up their bodies and pumping themselves full of hormones only ruins their bodies, and the trand would die down.
But instead they're either going deeper into the delusion, or blaming all non-trannies for their post-op unhappiness. And we're all supposed to prostrate ourselves and beg forgiveness for… reasons? Shit's getting weird anons. I'm afraid for women, our safety and our autonomy.

No. 1100096

>>1100041
lmao “burger”…it’s true tho. i hate this country. capitalism prioritizes profit so yeah, doesn’t really matter if the working conditions and safety precautions are ideal as long as companies are profiting.

No. 1100115

Sigh, what happened this time?
I was washing the dishes and noticed that something had happened to my hands, especially my right hand.
This time it was obvious, I was washing myself with really cold water, but my hand felt as if it touched hot water, same feeling as touching something hot.
I checked with my other hand and water was cold.
This has been going on for a while, but it wasn't obvious, so I didn't care.
So annoying, strange things happen to me quite often.

No. 1100116

As a neglected kid if you don’t receive any crumb of love from your parents at such a critical age you’re doomed. Its like we were meant to die had humans still lived primitively, we would have been left to die off. But now we suffer eternally, normies can sniff out the desperation and misery and domt have any empathy for such pathetic existences. we’re supposed to be killed off i think sorry nonnies this was supposed to be in my journal but yk

No. 1100123

>>1100116
Yes.
Emotional neglect is terrible. You will end suffering for the rest of your life if you don't do anything about it. And it is not easy to cure either, most specialists cannot deal with it.
I'm trying to heal it, but there is still a really long way to go.
I'm glad my parents are showing me love and attention now, but it's already too late, damage was done.

No. 1100130

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I'm so tired of men coming into female spaces just to act like they're special for it. What, do they really think enthusiasts are going to go on about how much they hate their own hobby? No of course not, they just want asspats for nothing! Not only that but some variant of pic related is posted LITERALLY all the fucking time, I swear half of the discussion in this hobby is UHHHH IS IT OK TO LIKE DOLLS IF IRRELEVANT XYZ REASON??? if you're that insecure about it fuck off and go be a normie somewhere else why does this bullshit get 20+ responses in 10 minutes all saying the exact same thing every time. Im so tired. The internet is dead.

No. 1100147

>>1100116
Yea, but that's why you need to stand by yourself and if you have the opportunity give yourself what they didn't give to you

No. 1100153

Saw my own pussy just now and she's FAT and UGLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

No. 1100154

>>1099790
Hentai is even worse than porn. uGH

No. 1100155

>>1100153
She's beautiful anon, don't be mean to her.

No. 1100156

>>1099548
I actually preffer Encanto to Coco tbh

No. 1100167

Why do people here have no idea what a paragraph is and suddenly calling it reddit spacing
Imagine being that retarded
Why
They never read books? Articles?
Never wrote an e-mail in their life?

No. 1100170

>>1100156
Yeah coco was ok but it really dragged at several parts and I remember the end being super boring. Some nonnies on crack

No. 1100173

>>1100154
I would disagree, because real people are not harmed and not objectified

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No. 1100178

>>1100173
Hentai (I'm not talking about yaoi here, just Hentai) often mimicks porn, the worst aspects of porn, and then builds upon it in gross ways. Since it's a drawing, a lot of weird shit can be implemented. Just look at netorare for example. Or rapey druggy hentai doujinshis.

No. 1100194

>>1099631
Easier said than done in this circumstance, but try quit coffee. You'll have more natural baseline energy. Caffeine stresses you out, kills your appetite and generally fucks you up. I've quit it several times and upon drinking it again it's only really effective for about 4 days (in my experience).

Really though you've got to ask, how DO your classmates do it all?

I've been in your situation before (though not so long term) and for me the solution was pick something you should be doing, then choose ahead of time to not do it and instead lie on the floor or something with no outside distractions. Obviously you'll suffer later, but it's very recharging.

No. 1100201

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thinking about how my landlord stole my cat

when I was 13, my sister was 11 and my mom was in her early 30s, single mom.
-we moved into this basement suite and the landlord (a fat alcoholic divorced in his 60s) used to watch my sister and I play outside through his window for hours
-our clothes started going missing or things would be moved, we thought we were crazy until my mom mentioned her stuff
-our layout was so you could enter one room and do the suite in one loop, never backtracking
-we set up clothes on the floor for a trap and took photos and videos and left for a few hours, we came back and they were moved around
-my mom tried to end the contract that day but we still needed to arrange moving
-next day we go out and our cat doesnt come back home, we lived in a rural but suburban area and she never left the yard
-we cry for days, sister and i ask landlord if he seen her and he says no, laughs, and then tells us "the coyoates got to her"
-we cry at night and call out her name, like 11pm
FAINT MEOW
whatthefuck.jpg
FAINT MEOW
-ask sister if I'm schizo
-she hears it too
-look up at vent
-call her name
MEOW
-gets mom
-cat is crying through vent
-remember landlord showed my sister and I the layout of the house alone for some reason and upstairs was connected to his guest room
-mom calls police
-they say they cant do anything
-grandpa comes over and tells him to get out, guy says he has no idea what hes talking about and refuses to open the door
-grandpa has screwdrivers and shit from his work van
-starts manually unscrewing his door
-guy opens door and screams he'll call the police
-we don't care bc we already did and they did nothing
-grandpa holds him down to the side while my mom runs in looking for the cat
-he had the cat trapped in his guest room that doesnt even have a bed, just a room, cat shit on the floor and no food or water for her
-we scream of joy and fear
-grandpa threatens him not to pull this shit again or else
-we move out that night over 15 hours
>fast forward
-neighbor says he got drunk soon after and fell off balcony, broke his legs and back, paralyzed
-house taken by bank

Karma is sweet but thinking back now in my 20s, that whole situation was creepy as fuck and he was probably jerking off into our panties while watching us play, I used to make my sister and I go inside because it was so eerie.
Thank God for grandpa

No. 1100203

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I miss you, you dumb bitch!! literally all i need to see from you is some initiative, like text me or something, put your big boy pants on and fix your fucking life please i don't want to have to cut you off
i hope you won't get over me before i do

No. 1100209

>>1100201
samefag and sorry for my shit layout, my grandpa basically started busting down his door with tools and crap. thinking about it now, it was probably so scary for my mom. I can never trust men again, my experiences have been way too whacky

No. 1100219

>>1100130
men always make everything about themselves.

No. 1100222

>>1100201
That's psychotic anon. I'm so sorry you went through that. I'm very glad your grandpa helped you and that the sick pedophile got injured. It should happen to all of them. Hope he's dead now.

No. 1100232

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i don't really care about what they're arguing but whenever edgy sort-of-leftist-but-i-still-want-to-say-slurs moid streamers call a woman a bitch/moron/cunt (anything along those lines) their point becomes null and void. it makes me so genuinely upset and angry how they can't even have discussions without letting the mask slip. i dislike plenty of conservative women and their opinions but i somehow manage to NOT reduce them down to their sex. picture is tangentially related (can't take a screenshot rn so this image will have to do, sorry). i honestly feel bad for classically abby - her opinions are gross but the amount of weird, dehumanising anti-semitism and misogyny she deals with is crazy

No. 1100234

It's depressing how many pedophiles exist and how little I can do about it. I know it's edgy but I really wish I just had a Death Note for all of them. It sucks being helpless.

No. 1100239

I hate how the world is organized. Karl Marx was right, it is all about dialectical materialism and being born in a wealthy family, then you must know how to pull the strings in order to make even more money

No. 1100242

>>1100234
I feel you anon, I want to protect every kid. If I would have Death Note, they would go first.

No. 1100244

>>1100234
what's worse nowadays is that people are proud of it on twitter and stuff (not even talking about the MAP people, but the freaks of nature who are open 'lolicons'). if they all died the world would be a better place.

No. 1100245

>>1100244
(not talking about MAPs because they're another breed of degenerate altogether and that goes without saying)

No. 1100249

>>1100232
Leftist men love being misogynistic against women who don’t share their opinions and will usually preface it with “white” and “cis” or the classic “terf” because that makes any misogyny you spew about said women okay. Liberal men are worse than conservatives in the sense that they try to act morally superior while being misogynistic at least conservatives openly admit to being sexist but leftist men try to act all high and mighty and “woke”. I’ve said it a million times but at the end of the day I sympathize more with right wing women than leftist men even if I think their views are horrible.
>>1100234
Felt this anon, there is nothing I hate more than pedophiles, I wish they would all die immediately especially since that would kill the majority of the female population.

No. 1100250

>>1100249
male** not female, my phone is sexist

No. 1100258

>>1100244
They're really open on Twitter. Even reporting is useless, they just make new accounts. What can I do? All I do is grieve about it. It really is depressing how many people do not care about other people, especially children. I am a firm believer that society should be mostly focused on children, protecting them, seeing them grow up healthy, teaching them life skills etc. Yet so many children aren't protected. I just don't get. Their lack of empathy and care for anyone that isn't them is depressing. No matter how many children get abused, no matter how many poor adults have survived CSA, they don't care. They don't care about the victims, they'll never listen. For some reason they just believe pedophila is not vehemently morally apprehensible. I hate that they're alive. I hate that I can't really do anything about it. I wish I could protect all children on earth. I wish we could have a world without men, even for just a short while. I hate how women are treated in this world.

No. 1100259

>>1100167
a single sentence is not a paragraph and is not how books, articles, or emails are written

No. 1100276

I should sleep soon but I saw something that disturbed me and now I just feel like I need distraction from thinking about it. I hate how hard it is to have a consistent sleeping schedule. I don't know how people do it, besides being less autistic and medication.
I just feel like unless I'm literally passing out my thoughts will not shut up and let me sleep. Especially right now after what I saw. I'm so jealous of people who can fall asleep easily. I wish I wasn't so sensitive. I see something that upsets me and I just want to cry. I wish I could turn my thoughts of. But I'm scared of possible side effects of melatonin and if it would conflict with my other meds. I don't know what to do. I wish I could just get knocked out for 8 hours and wake up feeling refreshed.

No. 1100287

>>1100276
I found journaling and exercising really hard before going to bed helps, melatonin is ok but it sucks as it's not a permanent solution. I hate that with the internet, so many horrible things people would never hear about or see are now in our faces 24/7 and normalized. It's good to retain your empathy anon as it's what makes us human, some days the pictures don't phase and others it feels like it hits like a canon. I hope you will be able to sleep tonight, have a warm drink for me and sweet dreams nonnie xx

No. 1100295

I hate it when I just want to eat my own food and my parents act like it's some big fucking deal just because I'm tired of eating their greasy garbage food. Oh no, some buttered toast for dinner, how will I ever survive? Get the fuck over it, it's not I'm not starving myself. My dad just started screaming at me because he wants take out and I told him to go call and order what he wants and I'll go pick it up, but he doesn't need to order for me because I have leftovers from the other day that I'm going to eat instead (would prefer to eat and also I made too much so I want to eat it all before it goes bad). What's the big fucking deal? I get my food, you get yours, and I'll even go pick up your food. Why the fuck are you throwing a tantrum??

No. 1100299

>>1100295
I hate this shit so much. I tried eating healthy and succeeded for a while but then they started to try to force me to eat the same thing they are eating, buying more junk food that’s easily accessible, and making cooking harder. Why do they care so much how we eat? What kind of mental illness are we both witnessing nonny??

No. 1100300

>>1100234
Same anon.

No. 1100314

>>1100299
I can't even cook for my parents because they're picky eaters. I'm not shoving raw celery down their throats, I cook normal meals mainly centered around vegetables because that's what I like! But no, it has to be meat meat meat, fried fried fried. I'm tired of eating like this. I'm trying to lose weight right now too, but it's a struggle. It's not even like we all sit down at the table and eat dinner together either and I'm disrupting dinner time.

This shit is so fucking annoying but god I hope our parents get help for their retarded mental illness soon.

No. 1100331

>>1100276
I know it's highly discouraged but I watch relaxing videos while in bed before I sleep. People camping or really chill vlogs that don't involve a lot of loud talking, and sometimes some massage videos. It can keep you awake because of the light but I think because I've been doing it for so long that it does help me sleep. After I feel sleepy enough, I turn on a podcast and put it on a sleep timer for me to fall asleep to. Nowadays it's just something I do and part of my routine, but back when I used to have frequent intrusive thoughts, it was something for my brain to listen and focus on instead. But again, this runs the risk of just keeping you awake instead of falling asleep. I play the exact same podcast every night so I know what to expect, but just paying attention to the words is enough to shift my thoughts away from things that will keep me up.

No. 1100355

I work as a video editor and one of my clients is a wedding photo and video company. It's gonna be two months and I'm still working on the same stupid video, they want something that simply wasn't there. Like, I'm sorry I can't change the groom's poor dancing skills and I'm sorry there's only like a 2 second clip of the bride running in slow mo before she falls down. They keep asking me for more "magic" and romance and I've tried so hard, I watched the whole 7 hour footage many times just to see if I missed something good but no, I already selected all the best material. They want something dreamy, bucolic, Twin Peaks, Aragorn and Arwen type of thing but it can't be done with the footage that I have, sorry! I mean, the place looks really beautiful and they use pretty good cameras but the vibe is off. I'm going crazy, I'm blocked, no motivation.

No. 1100385

I’m having an OCD tic where I can’t stop tending my back and my back hurts so bad because of it and the more I feel it hurt the more I want to tense it as if I’m trying to relieve the pain but I’m just making it worse and worse and worse and worse

No. 1100405

I’ve barely got any sleep the past 3 nights because my airbnb bed is brutally uncomfortable, and tonight there’s a fucking smoke detector low battery alarm going off on top of that. I have an overnight bus tomorrow i’ll have to take while already sleep deprived, and the idea makes me want to cry, i’m so fucking tired, i just want to sleep so badly

No. 1100413

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>>1100355
I'm sorry you're having to deal with such a difficult client but boy this gave me the giggles. Imagining a clumsy, sloppy, uncoordinated couple bumble their way through a wedding as you helplessly try to add romantic music and enough bokeh to please them yet it just keeps making it more and more ironic as it clashes with their awkwardness. Kek.

No. 1100443

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Somehow I forget how much of a perennial loser I am until I'm at a social gathering and get reminded all over again.

I'm a nobody to everybody.

No. 1100470

Why did I have to be born to a crazy mother. She treats me like I'm forever 12. She acts like I'm immature and retarded when in reality she's both. I had to have done something terrible in my past life. I got some pretty crazy birthmarks, cafe au lait type, one pretty big on my torso near big intestine and liver. I'm losing my mind. Why couldn't I have a nice mother who encouraged me to follow my dreams and not impose her version of me onto me. If I didn't have health issues, I think I'd be an alcoholic.

No. 1100481

>>1100201
go grandpa!!!

No. 1100509

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Today I realized a mobage I like was first released on the anniversary of my father's death.

No. 1100526

>>1100470
The point when you become mentally developed enough to be capable of blaming other people for your life decisions is the point when you can no longer blame other people for your life decisions.

No. 1100528

>>1100355
> They keep asking me for more "magic"
You’re giving me ‘nam flashbacks of customers getting upset that I’m not giving them the design they want when they don’t even know what design they want. Every day I’m glad I didn’t go into that field.

No. 1100553

While running errands today I saw, in different stores, TWO hulking (I mean like over 6'4" each) troons. This town is medium sized and "purple" politically and this is the third time I've seen hulking troons. One of them was putting on a girly voice at checkout and had long, disgustingly dirty pink dyed hair with about 5 inches of root growth.
what the fuck i lived in LA for years and didn't see a single troon

No. 1100558

>>1100355
>They want something dreamy, bucolic, Twin Peaks
Oh fuck thank you for reminding me to go post something

No. 1100584

Feeling incredibly alone. I feel like I'm not normie enough to make lasting, meaningful friendships irl and too afraid of judgment from others to try to make friends online. Furthermore, I stopped making art because I see little point in making it anymore if I'm that disconnected from other people. The pandemic really fucked up my habits too. I used to have healthier habits and would actually go outside and make art with other people. Now I have little motivation to do that.

No. 1100591

I love my cat so much, but she plays with her poop and it drives me crazy.
When she was a few months old, I'd notice a turd outside of the litter box occasionally, but figured she was accidentally kicking them out. No big deal, didn't happen often and animals can be messy.
By the time she hit ~5 months, it started becoming a much more frequent occurrence. The turds were much too far from her litter box to have been accidentally kicked out. I realized what she had been doing. So I started checking her box hourly, and have since become extremely neurotic about monitoring it. Everything gets scooped immediately. She has TONS of toys of all shapes and sizes, gets loads of attention, and always has a clean litter. But I couldn't get her to stop.
I tried new toys, I tried moving her litter into different spots (some sources online say this can help- but there isn't much information to be found about cats playing with their poop), different kinds of litter… you name it. I also have always made sure that the box is full enough with litter, because apparently that can sometimes be an issue.
Sometimes she'd quit for a day or two, but the poop was too irresistible to her I guess. She also takes the poop out immediately sometimes (I've seen her do it, but this doesn't always happen), so it's not a matter of having a dirty box.
One day I walked across the house to find brown streaks all across the floor. She'd managed to leave streak marks in multiple rooms… cleaning that sucked. At that point, I did some research and found out about top-entry litter boxes. I had one shipped overnight, and thought it would be the perfect solution.
It wasn't. She had no problem using the top-entry box (we are still using it, she seems to like it), but two days later, there was a turd on the floor. I don't get it… I really hope she isn't carrying it out in her mouth. Ugh. I brought her into the vet, and he basically just laughed at me and told me that there's nothing wrong with her, to try putting toys in the litter, and that hopefully she'll outgrow it. After that appointment, we were poop-free for about a month, but she has since relapsed. I've never met someone as determined as my cat. It's nowhere near as frequent, but what the fuck. She's so cute and perfect aside from her weird poop fixation. Pray for me and my weird cat nonnies.

No. 1100592

azn anon here - the way that fat, gross white dudes feel so goddamn entitled towards me has put me off males entirely

No. 1100596

Not sure if I’m sad or just deeply bored.

No. 1100608

>>1100526
Kek. Past life stuff is a joke, anon. Let me give you a bit more info: no one in my extended family wants to touch my family with a 50 foot pole, mental illnesses can all be cured by ignoring them and powering through (medicine bad and I had some therapy therefore I should be cured), because my parents put me in private schools I have to do what they want because of the money spent to put me in mediocre schools, homelessness isn't an option because either get a private eye or just harass me, I don't want to involve friends because they know how crazy my mother gets and seen her at some of her worst. I have two options: get married or die. Even getting married wouldn't stop my mother.

No. 1100625

>>1100608
Adding on: got injured in middle school. school wanted to call an ambulance for me but I was too scared to go alone, they called my mother who instead never took me to hospital and screamed at me accusing me of wanting to skip school. In university studying the major my parents wanted me to, I tried to commit suicide because the professors acted like I was autistic/dyslexic and wanted me to quit. They also told me I had a too """"feminine""""" voice for the major. Sad it didn't work because now she's into the Qanon cult stuff. Never voice your opinion about it because it is totally happening and Trump will save us.

No. 1100629

>>1100591
I’m praying for you nonna. I also have a cat and I think it’s weird that dog haters claim they’re so clean and mature and superior but quite a lot of them have disgusting habits. My cat is a chronic scent market despite being a fucking spayed female and I have tried everything to get her to stop. She will improve but always does it again after a while. She knows she gets praise and treats for going in the litter box so will make sure to do it in front of people but I’ve fucking caught her when she thinks nobody is looking pissing in hidden places behind furniture. She won’t even do a large amount, just a little squirt of piss. I’ve also seen shit out of the litter box and smeared on the carpet on a few occasions so now j think my cat might be doing the same thing. Just like yours, she’s a perfect pet in every other way.

No. 1100640

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god y did she have to yell at me so hard and call me vulgar things over a dish i accidentally made wrong ok im sorry ill never do it again just leave me alone plz

No. 1100644

>>1100175
girl I still sympathize but kek what did you expect from a moid video game journalist

No. 1100661

>>1100644
kek I know I'm retarded asfhghrkghh

No. 1100664

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I'm tired of this bullshit, I'm tired of people trying to normalize this bullshit, I'm tired of people celebrating this bullshit, please make it STOP

No. 1100673

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>>1100664
we really are living in end times, the fact that shit likes this is so fucking normalized and gets celebrated by the mainstream left makes me want to develop further into my so called "reactionary" views
I have a son and planning to have a daughter at some point as well, I want to keep my children safe from this madness, just go to the woods with the few non-degenerate and non-misogynistic media on the planet

as for the mothers and fathers who allow this, I really think they should be jailed for child sexual abuse, cause that's exactly what this is

>The quiet war has begun with silent weapons

>And the new slavery is to keep the people
>Poor and stupid; "Novus Ordo Seclorum"
>How can there be any logic in biological war?
>We all know this is wrong, but the New World Order's
>Beating down the door

>Disengage their minds, sabotage their health

>Promote sex, and war, and violence in the kindergartens
>attack the family
>Keep the public undisciplined till nothing left is sacred, and
>The "have-nots" get hooked and have to go to the "haves" just to cop a fix
An ancient mystery, nobody could interpret

No. 1100680

It depresses me how sometimes people stop liking me for no apparent reason. I'm college aged and I still see and experience this.
I don't even change my behaviour, maybe I'm tired one day but I'm always nice and try to engage them in conversation.
I can just sense the change in their attitude all the next times we meet.
Why? Is it because they start thinking I don't have enough social cred among the bigger groups so they stop trying? But I'm not trying to butt myself into loud groups that don't have anything in common.
I feel like that's it. It sucks talking to them and them being low energy as fuck and then you see them with 'popular' more confident people and they suddenly beam and laugh loudly. Bro you're not fooling anyone, you just look awkward and brown-nosing to me.
I want to make friends that are less extroverted and more calm but Jesus christ those people just aren't satisfied being that and having friends that have some shit in common, they will throw you under the bus the moment they get to interact with someone louder or more popular in their eyes. Have some confidence in being calm and yourself. You wouldn't feel like am outcast if you actually didn't feel like the one or two big groups were only 'whole' people there.

No. 1100699

>>1100680
I don't think it's your fault nonna. I hope you find better people soon. I would go to starbucks with you, or whatever good coffee you like.

No. 1100716

I hate men so much it's unreal, the only good thing about not being straight is that I don't have to stand their bullshit in a relationship

No. 1100725

>>1100716
I hate being a straight misandrist so much, I wish I was a lesbian or at least bi.

No. 1100727

I burnt my rice because I was being a little gossipy bitch here at lolcow.farm

No. 1100740

>>1100664
>America

No. 1100747

>>1100201
Shit nonna, sorry you had to go trough that. Give a hug to your grandpa for me, he sounds great.

No. 1100749

>>1100287
Thank you so much sweet nonna. I did manage to go to sleep eventually ♥ I really like what you said about empathy. I guess being the way I am is much better than being desensitised to all the horrible things we see now. I hope that when you next go to sleep you have the loveliest dreams.
>>1100331
That's a good idea and would probably work for me too. Thank you nonna.

No. 1100751

>>1100725
then just become celibate?

No. 1100763

Want to crawl into a hole, never to be seen again. I want to escape my body, i hate this place so much it’s so unfair

No. 1100769

>>1100664
ohnonononono this and child beauty pageants should be banned

No. 1100775

I keep wanting to stay off lolcow but there is literally no other place to escape troonism and being attacked for wanting to protect female rights to not see boners in women's dressing rooms.

My friends literally think a man weakened by drugs is the same as a woman and should be allowed to compete with women just because the drug is called estrogen.

My social media is full of people posting support for letting mentally ill female teens amputate their breasts, and sterilizing kids from the age of 10, sometimes earlier. And if I post any kind of objection they'd attack me and cut me out of ever talking to them ever again.

No. 1100797

Cats aren't fucking stupid and know the difference between "prey" and a toy. I'm sick of these "animal experts" who think every animal is a fucking simpleton that can't make obvious distinctions in their own minds. They're not fucking retarded. They know the difference between their jingle ball and a fucking mouse, they know the difference between the laser pointer and a bug. They know the difference between "hunt" and "play" and they can be two distinct things within their minds. When my cat hears me pick up the laser and get gets excited, and immediately looks at the floor waiting for the laser to appear, he isn't waiting for a bug to spawn in, he KNOWS that I am the one controlling the laser and that it comes from the little thing that I'm holding. If it was about "hunting" and "prey" then why the fuck would he play with balls or stuffed toys at all? They're already "dead". This vet really tried to tell me it wasn't "fair" to play with a laser with my cat because he can't catch it and therefore, doesn't "win" and this will make him depressed. Bitch, what??? Why are you pulling this shit out of your ass? To make you seem smart? To make it seem like you "get" animals? Because you don't, and you're a retard. My cat enjoys playing with the laser and he knows that it can't be caught but that it's FUN TO CHASE. The same way kids play chase. Fucking retarded.

No. 1100800

>>1099658
24 hours later I'm still in pain. I drank peppermint tea but I feel like it made it worse somehow

No. 1100803

Just found out that my (soon to be ex I guess) boyfriend's "crazy stalker ex who ruined his chance with woman he had a good thing going on with" was actually just a part of his friend circle, so after break up she probably just wanted to continue hanging out with her friends and he happened to be there, and "ruining the chances" situation was her happening to attend the same event and the other woman rejecting him because he started berating and yelling at said ex in front of her, in public. I fucking hate scrotes, never believe in "crazy ex" stories anons.

No. 1100835

>>1099658
Sorry to hear this anon, you could give your stomach a good oil massage to ease up or distract from the pain. I've only had stomach pain a few times in my life but it always feels like there's nothing you can do about it

No. 1100837

>>1100803
>fuck your ex to be, youll find better
>he sounds like a master manipulator.
My crazy ex bf actually wrote me bloody notes and stalked me (he cant now bc i deleted all my social media) and told mutuals -I- am obsessed with him.
My best advice? Dont make the mutual friendships a war zone, just save the receipts. Play it cool, and when the time comes, you can show this evidence if necessary
Break up with your scrote and live your bet life honey bun

No. 1100841

>>1099658
This happened to me once… i ate a whole head of roasted garlic in meal. NO REGRETS
…except for the pain.
My best advice? Move. Walk. Any movement, gentle yoga, etc, the idea is to move the gas around and it will help with digestion.

No. 1100848

I fucking hate hook up cultures and online dating.

Trying to put myself back out theres year after a break up. First guy on dating app, seemed nice. For some reason thought I was a furry and kept sending me furry memes but it’s whatever. Keep talking back and forth. Eventually stops talking to me altogether because I guess he wasn’t getting titty pics after talking to me for two weeks.

Second person to talk to me on a dating site blocks me after I said I didn’t have a snap chat.

Third person, a girl. Seems comfortable. I seem hopeful. Talked about driving to meet up. Get busy with work and don’t talk for a few weeks. Talks to me last night saying they found a romantic partner this ending our chatting session.

I hate this. I hate it. I hate being single at 32. Everyone just wants to fuck or have me flash my tits because nudes=love I guess. I hate it. I don’t wanna be one of those forever alone bitches. I just want to be in love and have someone love me. Why is it fuckingn hard. I’ve only ever had one romantic partner my whole like from 25 to 31. Never dated in Highschool or anywhere. What the fuck do I do. Am I damaged? Is it me missing milestones? I don’t think I’m ugly. I’m not a supermodel but I’m not fat. Is it because I’m monogamous?!?!

No. 1100849

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Feelin' mad sympathy for the anon who's pug got drawn over. I want justice.

No. 1100857

>>1100803
This is a shitty lesson to learn but been there too. My ex said his ex would drink and then keep him up all night screaming and getting aggressive with him.. said she was bpd and obsessive. This guy went on to drink alot, scream alot, refuse to sleep once he started drinking and he put his hands on me when I refused to take part in the drunken aggro. Everything he said she did… it was him. He just flipped the roles and rewrote history to suit himself.

No. 1100920

I love drawing so much, but my life is so painful. i’ve been contemplating suicide since 2022 started and it’s gotten worse this month but i still wanna stay here to draw things but also i’m genuinely planning it out and it’s scaring me, last time I attempted it was when i was 16 and it went away unaddressed i was a kid so i blamed it on being hormonal edgy and overreacting but those feelings never went away and now everythjng in my being want to escape my body and the only thing keeping me is my love for drawing but i’ve been doubting that too lately so its hard to fight those thoughts it sounds really ridiculous when i speak these thoughts out loud theyre so pathetic and childish but i’m scared

No. 1100925

>>1100848
Nonny, I feel your pain. I’ve been there. I was on dating sites for about two years, on and off. I’m 33. I’ve been dating a guy now for about 9 months. But DAMN. I looked back at my journal a week or two ago - I felt so hopeless and like something was wrong with me. What was it about time that repelled anyone I was attracted to?!

Online dating is brutal. I felt the loneliness like a physical pain. I had the most luck making meaningful relationships on Bumble - I made a few friends that I still interact with today, even though there was no sparks between us.

Nothing is wrong with you. So much of it is just rolling the dice, over and over. It’s a numbers game. My advice would be to change your pics every so often or profile - it seems to re-shuffle your profile to get more views. Sending you good juju and hugs.

No. 1100940

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I literally can't believe that Normies are actually humans with brains and not fucking NPC's. Today in Uni we have watched a film based on true events regarding the sexual abuse towards children in the catholic church and the shit these fucking Normie NPC's were talking about made me want to kill myself. How can you in your 19 years of living on this fucking planet have not heard about this happening? Some dudes were literally flabbergasted that things like this happen and that it 'opened a new insight to the world' for them. Like what the fuck dude? How the fuck are you living on the same planet as me not knowing that this shit is happening? How fucking braindead do you have to be? The other NPC's weren't really better because some of them were disregarding the fact that this is a traumatic experience you go through and were wondering how 'sensitive' these people could be that they are still suffering from this event and remembering every single detail of it. I could not believe any of this shit like how the fuck is that even possible? How fucking sheltered and ignorant do you have to be to say things like that outloud and really mean it? Another person even said that they didn't understand why these people were suffering so much because 'it's in the past' and that they should just move on. It's so fucking bizzare knowing that these people were basically born with a silver spoon in their mouth and never had to struggle with anything in life and are living in their own fucking sheltered reality. It makes me so fucking mad knowing that these people will never face a fucking struggle in their life while I am considering whether kill myself because of my horrible abuse, parents and entire living situation or continue living this misery I was born into and will never escape. I fucking hate life.

No. 1100945

>>1100940
I hate those stupid cunts too. Anyone who thinks that you should just “move on” from being molested deserves to be slowly fucking battered to death.

No. 1100951

>>1100920
Wish I could give you the biggest hug. Please talk to someone. As lame as it seems to call a prevention hotline, it can help you get resources to climb out of this. I’ve been on medications for depression before - like you said, hormones or brain chemistry can play a role. Sometimes, you need a hand.

No. 1100953

>>1100940
What kind of rock do you have to be living under to not know about the catholic church abusing children? I'm shocked that your classmates are real, too, after reading that

No. 1100986

I'm so lonely, it hurts so bad. I just want to have a group of friends that's made up of cool women. I would settle for a gc or discord server but I am too retarded to find one or start one. I can't even make friends online so I don't know why I think I can make some irl. I hate being 31 years old and still feeling like the loser reject 14 year old I was in high school.

No. 1101037

>>1100986
I'll be your pal

No. 1101071

>>1100940
I refuse to believe these people have a brain. In one of my history classes at uni we watched a drama film about the slave trade and this white woman kept gasping and acting shocked through the abuse scenes and she declared that she had no idea either. Bitch how can you live in America and say that unironically?

No. 1101078

>>1100986
Are you me anon? We're even the same age.

No. 1101080

I'm peevish because I feel my fiance can be very controlling. He's freaking out at me because I told him that I want to go back on Vyvanse. Work is getting burdensome (I work 14 hours between two jobs) so I want more energy and the ability to focus. I mainly went back to my GP for my anxiety since my first job is refusing to accommodate me for it, but tbh I don't even want to take the Wellbutrin.
Vyvanse worked wonderfully for me when I tried it a few years ago (after fumbling with different anti anxiety meds and BED) but back then it was $100 for a month's supply after a coupon. Now it's $25 with my new insurance. Ofc I want it again.
He's scared because he said it will "change" me. He just sent me a text with an article about how it's addictive saying "I don't want you to be a tweaker methhead" cause things are going in the right direction for me or whatever. I replied back saying to respect my decision, I taken it before and did not develop addiction.
But honestly? I'm fat. I can't focus at work. I need energy for my night job and I'd like to have more motivation than what my fiance enables re: crashing on the bed and watching tv every night.
I want to walk our dog after work late at night and in the morning because I barely see him anymore, and just have extra juice for chores around the house in general as he does a pretty meh or half-assed job at them.
If this "changes" me in those respects, then it's good thing IMO.

Idk, I want to believe he's genuinely scared I will become different but I think he's actually really insecure. He gave me a lot of pushback about taking up the part time work after my first job–but is now supportive of it after he's seen the money I pull. But with this? He's probably upset at the thought that I might shape up looks-wise, he's complained lately about getting fat himself. I've criticized him for how little money he makes and have encouraged him to find better jobs or redlining his resume.
I think what he actually feels is, threatened.

No. 1101081

This cat has such human eyes

No. 1101083

Friendships have always been really important to me but after the whole virus debacle my social life has not been near what it was.
So my psychologist is like "hey you shouldn't feel afraid to take some space and put yourself out there and ask people more often" and I'm like ok so I get back on the horse.
Ask a long time good friend who I haven't seen much in this 20's hell of a decade so far and ask him whenever he's available this week.
He says he's got a lot going on but Thursday or Friday evening.
I pick Thursday because I'm not working that day so I figured I could relax more in advance.
It's later in the afternoon and I texted him hours ago asking what exact time he thought was best and even explained that we could do Friday instead in case something pops for him.
He hasn't answered me yet and I mean there's still time but like can't you just answer my message?
Like I really do try to put myself out there (asked another friend if we should go see Batman but her mom bought them tickets for example, oh well) but something always seemingly ruins it and I am just tired of it.
I just want to see a friend here and there more often.
At this phase in my life that's been going on for almost 2 years now I just wish I was more of an introvert.

No. 1101084

How the fuck does one deal with a sudden bout of existential dread? I don't have the peace of mind to do anything, not even my responsibilties, I feel a little suicidal, and to think this all kickstarted because I heard an old song from my childhood. Someone hold me, I don't feel good at all. I hate thinking about these things, I am worried for my sister.

No. 1101087

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Boy moms are a fucking scrouge on this earth maybe even worse than the scrotes themselves. My little brother stole $100 worth of shit from my room and my mom keeps gaslighting me with "are you sure you put it there, maybe you lost it". Anything to pardon her pwecious boy. Fucking die. No wonder scrotes grow up to become such demons, they're excused for every little thing.

No. 1101091

>>1101080
He sounds like a good candidate for the position of exboyfriend

No. 1101092

>>1101080
girl, you already know what I’m gonna say

No. 1101094

>>1101078
>>1100986
>>1101037
I'll recommend a visit to Tunesday Tuesdays. Next week is emo, but join us even if it isn't your thing, we have of [your age-appropiate] fun! People are pretty EU timezone based and everyone is just lovely!

The threshold to join is super low so join us next week! ( Or earlier if you feel like it!)

No. 1101097

I wish I knew literally anyone irl or even online at this point who was into the same music I am.
I got into jpop/jrock/VK in highschool and still listen to it. On one hand I'm glad that Japanese never reached the normie level of kpop but it sucks to never be able to play music I like around other people and have them get the little inside jokes or even tolerate it.

No. 1101100

>>1101097
How do you not know anyone who likes those? I can’t escape the annoying fuckers.

No. 1101102

>>1101100
Where do you even find people who like jrock specifically in 2022? Maybe I just don't have enough friends or something. I used to know people back in the early 2000s who were into it but lost contact with all of them.

No. 1101103

>>1101100
>>1101097
Oh and for the record I absolutely hate kpop. I listen to jrock mostly but included jpop cause there is some overlap.

No. 1101109

>>1101080
>I think what he actually feels is, threatened.
I have to agree it does sound that way. I have no advice for you but I do think your gut instinct is right.

No. 1101140

>>1101097
I used to really be into jrock/visual kei and made some friends from it, but only one girl was normal and vanished off the face of the earth and the other three I know are run of the twittard/nlog variety. I do listen to kpop but I haven't gotten into any artists in the same way I used to get into jrock/vkei bands. I haven't listened to any new vkei bands in so long, are any of them even good? My old favorite band still releases music but I'm just not that into them anymore.

No. 1101157

>>1101140
Tbh I haven't found that many new bands so much as I'm finally able to listen to a lot more from older bands I missed out on with things being on Spotify etc now and not having to download random individual tracks from "mp3 rotation" blogs. I try to keep up with all new material/side projects from older bands since I know they're good already. Part of why I wish I knew more people into this music is so I could have an easier time finding the new bands that are actually good.

No. 1101172

most humans are sociopathic

No. 1101176

>>1101172
Romanianon?!

No. 1101183

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>take IQ test conducted by a professional
>my brain: you're still stupid, you cheated
Reeeee

No. 1101184

it's insane how people lose their empathy for you once you slightly disagree with them over a subject. I was severely abused as a child raped beaten etc and most people lose their empathy once I disagree with them over something. Proof that most humans are egoistical and self centered. I wish this world would end already as hell is truly other people

No. 1101187

>>1100443
Same. It's hard to talk with people and even if they like me, I don't really enjoy talking with them.
Never ending pain.

No. 1101190

life is also about money, if you have money you have freedom and can afford to deal with your issues. Class struggle is also real, if born poor you will die poor

No. 1101193

I wish death and misery upon others as they wish upon me. I'm just a mirror reflecting the never ending misery of the world and all the sociopathy I've been dealt with

No. 1101194

>>1101184
Stfu romani-chan.

No. 1101195

most humans are immature and eogistical retards with little to 0 self awareness

No. 1101197

humankind deserves nothing but misery and suffering humans are vile

No. 1101199

>>1101184
Have you killed anyone yet like you promised you would? I want an update.

No. 1101204

truly hypocritical

No. 1101206

everytime I interact with humans my presumptions about them are just proven to be true. Mindless, self centered with 0 empathy. I just do to others as it has been done upon me.

No. 1101208

I think she's about to have another breakdown nonnas. Get ready for the post spam.

No. 1101216

Moids that are obsessed with Vtubers or Hololive whatever the fuck it's called are so pathetic and gross. Something about them makes them extra disgusting. I don't know what it is. I want to burn them all alive

No. 1101223

>>1101216
Funnily a lot of the older weebs find vtubers gross, just like they dislike anime dubs kek
I hate them because they all sound infantilized

No. 1101229

>>1101216
The one that has the cute ESL speech impediment for "turtle" is precious, and I will die on this hill.

No. 1101233

>>1101208
Is it because of a drug she takes? She was addicted to something, was it opioid?

No. 1101234

>>1101229
If you're a scrote, leave. If you're a regular nonnie stop consuming that weird shit kek.

No. 1101235

>>1101199
She wouldn't and shouldn't. I wish she'd go to a better country, get a job and get proper mental help but something like that is hard when you dont have money.

No. 1101266

>>1101216
Because it's like a blow-up doll come to life. It's a real person but with a flawless anime avatar, and they're completely trapped in providing an approachable girlfriend experience for their fans. Vtubers are beyond cancerous to begin with but their fans are even worse, I hate what kind of a culture they're cultivating.

No. 1101272

>>1101234
>being bullied on lolcow for finding something cute
Ma'am. Have you seen the rest of this site?

No. 1101273

>>1101266
Me too i hope life gets better for her from here onwards, finds some peace

No. 1101276

I can't fucking break this cycle. I isolate myself so I feel safe and far away from people and potential emotional harm that overwhelms me. But then I get used to the isolation and even the smallest interactions and external problems to be solved seem overwhelming and make me panic

No. 1101287

I don’t think I was meant for this world
I just need someone to hold me right now

No. 1101294

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My life is so meaningless now, I got married and my husband works for the both of us, so I can sit around all day and at first that was great. Then I just started retreating into myself and got lazier and lonlier, and now my only close friend moved to Canada and I don't have anywhere to be ever, or anything to do, and I'm so bored it's hard to get out of bed. I tried picking up my hobbies but I just get so depressed about what the point even is that I give up. I should probably get a job just so I feel like I have something to do. I'm starting to realize why housewives in the 60's knocked themselves out with klonopin. Maybe I should start taking some classes.

>>1101276
Me too. Feels so unnatural and uncomfortable to talk to people anymore.

>>1101287
Sending you positive thoughts

No. 1101297

my life has been literal hell since my childhood being thrown around like a piece of cardboard, never having stable parental figures, never having money, seeing my parents fall ill and now as an adult I am taken advantage of because life has put me in a weak position. Most humans I have talked to haven't even had half the hardships I have had and Im supposed to meet them with unconditional empathy, I'm supposed to work, be perfect, be agreeable etc when I already am in a way. Daily I see way more capable people than me taking advantage of others and grifting through life. I wish I could learn this. Most humans don't understand, unless you are in a utterly shit life position

No. 1101306

>>1101294
How the fuck do you NEETs always manage to find husbands willing to take care of you
I wanna be a NEET housewife too, somebody tell me the secret

No. 1101318

>>1101294
I think if I were in your shoes I would do regular, consistent volunteering.

No. 1101320

>>1101294
get a part time job. i used to be neet for 3 years and got insanely sluggish because i had no purpose in life. even working like 4 hours a day made the difference for me. it also helped motivate me to go back to school and get a degree.

No. 1101321

>>1101294
>>1101320
I can't understand how people can get bored. During corona lockdowns everyone complained about it.
Don't you have hobbies? Don't you have a drive to enjoy them?
It's so weird that people are addicted to work, that they MUST work or they don't feel alive.
It sounds like mental illness tbh.

No. 1101325

>>1101321
oh i was never bored during those 3 years. i watched a lot of anime and played tons of videogames and stayed up all night talking to online friends and i loved doing nothing/only the things i enjoy. but when i did have to do stuff, like buying groceries or cleaning the apartment or running errands for my mom, it would cost me a lot of effort to get my ass up. i think people need a healthy balance between work and free time. which is why i think no one should work more than 6 hours a day.

No. 1101329

>>1101306
Lol right? But tbh I think men seek out a specific personality for this setup because most men in these dynamics just wanna pull the strings knowing they've got a dependent woman at home.
They probably couldn't stand it if these women used their money and time to pursue hobbies or otherwise heighten their value and quality of living over the men's. No disrespect OP, but you are depressed and your life shouldn't revolve around welcoming home a dude. I hope he at least pays for a car that you can drive yourself around in, otherwise, yikes. Because what you're living in is voluntary prison. Couldn't be me.

No. 1101330

Fuck you for not sending me the amount we agreed on. You're 30 and you're trying to weasel 50€ out of a 20yo student? I don't really need the money that badly but you don't know that so fuck you still. And I even liked you as a person. I trusted you to send the money when you could, it's been one week and you take off a fifth like it's nothing. I was going to not say anything and just start trusting people even less but fuck you. I hope you read the message I sent you and feel ashamed. You won't because you're a bitch.

No. 1101334

>>1101321
I’m sure that most of the people complaining about not being able to go to work 24/7 were the same people that would complain about a 9 to 5 job. Then again, lots of workplaces thought that being at home meant you would be available 24/7, lots of teachers got tired of that shit.

No. 1101341

>>1101321
I tried doing hobbies, I picked up drawing and weirdly enough I enjoy it when I'm doing it, but once I'm done I get so depressed about how meaningless the activity was.

>>1101320
Gonna do this. I have a degree but I wanna work part time in a coffee shop.

>>1101329
You're not wrong. I love my husband but he doesn't have a lot of friends either and it's hard for me to meet people because whenever I go out he wants to come along. Kind of hard to have a decent connection with someone when your husband is right there. Even on discord voice chat, he's breathing down my neck. If you get a husband, maintain your independence because that shit is hard to get back once you lose it

No. 1101343

>>1101321
Most people can't stand to be alone with themselves, work is the perfect distraction from yourself

No. 1101345

>>1101306
Kek this was my thought reading it too, I legitimately have no idea how so many NEET imageboard women find men to provide for them leaving them with nothing but housewife duties.

>>1101329
This is my guess too, I don't trust men enough to be fully dependent on them and their money. There must be something sinister behind willfully letting your partner just stay at home while you live an actual life outside.

>>1101341
>whenever I go out he wants to come along.
>Even on discord voice chat, he's breathing down my neck.
red flags all around, please don't tell me he's like 35 while you're 23 tops

No. 1101348

I keep having these moments where I get dizzy, nauseous and my heart starts beating hard and it fucking sucks. I eat as good as I can, take my meds, take my multivitamins and whatever, I do daily excercise, sleep well and I try not to get too stressed but I still manage to feel like shit. I won't even bother to go to the doctor because I've gone before and the tests are always fine, there's always nothing and "it's anxiety or stress". I feel so bad. Sometimes I stand up and I'm afraid to fall because I feel weak. I just want to walk the dog and not feel like I'm going to faint or do chores without getting too tired.

No. 1101353

>>1101345
… he's 31 and I'm 24 lmao. Not terrible but there's an age gap. But yeah don't fall into that trap, I'm gonna try to get out there again but it's a hard hole to dig yourself out of

>>1101348
Sounds like you have POTS or something

No. 1101354

>>1101294
I think that maybe because you don't have a "set" schedule your days tend to fold over themselves and just….give in to endless scrolling. Anon, is there something you've always wanted to do? Sewing, drawing, playing an instrument, ballet or dance class, weight training, range shooting, being an audiophile, writing, making jeweler, being a beekeeper, building a MIDI, making cyberdecks, woodmaking, smithing, boating? Pick something that you think you would genuinely get a use out of in real life. For example, if you're into music, look into building a MIDI. Or buying an instrument. And then, look around you for the nearest "community" of this hobby: maybe it's a class, maybe it's a club, but I think it would do you some good to be around new people who share one thing with you for a certain time every week.
And I like this >>1101341! The idea of a working in a coffee shop sounds great. Particularly if it's an ~artsy~ area, a a lot of people who do Broke People Activities work in coffee shops and cafes, you might meet someone who enjoys drawing as well, and the companionship might make the activity more meaningful. Just try to put yourself out there, even if it goes against your base instincts. You'll never find your kind of people unless you go out there and actively look for them. I hope your days grow better.

No. 1101355

>>1101345
Nonnies act like it’s hard. Men don’t care what you do if you be their bangmaid. It probably helps to be hot though.

No. 1101368

>>1101355
For what most of us here would probably want? Absolutely.
If I sacrifice my earnings to rely on a man I'm not throwing away my standard of living ie. My sports car, expensive hobbies, ability to go where ever I want, etc.
To find a man who would support all that and be okay with the fact that you're living an awesome life while he goes to work is extremely difficult. It truly is only reserved for bombshell hotties because men want them for the status in spite of the resentment they harbor for them deep down.

OP is easy cause she isn't demanding and doesn't do anything or goes anywhere. Of course it's easy, but who'd want that situation?

No. 1101369

>>1101368
No shit, what about my post makes you think it’s a good thing? That’s why anons saying they want it are retards.

No. 1101370

>>1101369
I'm saying it for the sake of anons who don't realize what a shit deal OP's situation is in case they're glamorizing the thought, it fucking sucks.

No. 1101378

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I’m so fucking sick of druggies. We just kicked out our roommate because all she does is sit in her room and smoke weed and whine to us about how hard her life is during her brief periods of lucidity. The last straw was her asking to be taken off the wifi bill for the month because she just quit her job and is “sooo short on money right now” and then getting her mom to send her $50 so she can pay her weed guy. Don’t cry about how your mental health so bad that you have to take an MH day and skip uni just to spend that day sitting in a dark room and numb yourself to the world around you. I’m glad that we can speak more freely about mental health now, but the whole movement around it has been completely co-opted by the same of people who would still be sitting around and complaining about how the world is out to get them 30 years ago. I can’t think of a single person who wasn’t a terminal cancer patient who weed has helped in any way. I’m just glad she’s gone now because my room was next to hers and I was getting really sick of the stink drifting into my space and her greasy pothead orbiters trying to talk to me or looking in on me in the middle of the night because they “got the rooms mixed up” right after they were done fucking her.

No. 1101379

>>1101306
Why tho. It's scary to be fully reliant and dependent on a man. And even if he's a good man, he could still easily break-up/lose his income/pass away or whatever that leaves you with no support and no carreer as a back up.

No. 1101385

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>even if men are ugly they still are loved and get an unconventional attractiction thread filled with the most hideous and horrifying options imaginable
>woman is ugly-looking
>automatic /snow/ subject
>life is nearly over
>it just continues

No. 1101389

>>1101294
>>1101354
Having a set schedule makes a huge difference, I think that's the key to living that kind of lifestyle. Keeping a set time to wake up and sleep just like you would when you had a job, dedicating time to making a schedule for cleaning/cooking/exercising/doing hobbies and following it every day. Knowing when my "free time" is makes it easier to resist the temptation to just slack off. And having something to do where you see or help out other people at least once per week is a good idea, whether that's volunteering for some kind of organization, or even just helping out someone in your or your husband's family or someone in your community with things they need to do. Doing creative stuff is great too, like writing or other art, and it could even become an income stream for you one day if you hone your skills and practice whenever you can.

No. 1101393

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Someone I know (very loosely. Friend of a friend but we've shared a couple conversations and hung out a few times over the years) just talked about raping someone. I don't know what to think. He described it in a very detached way and the whole conversation is giving schiz vibes, either that or he's telling the truth. He also talked about how he stopped drinking water 4 years ago, went on a rant about toaster rap, and talked about being involved in a murder. He's a pretty clean, quiet guy, hard to read and hard to keep up with conversationally but I'm in utter fucking shock at what is going on. He asked me over for beers earlier in the evening which I declined. What the FUCK.

No. 1101395

>>1101378
I had a college roommate who was the exact same. Just smoked all day and skipped class whenever she felt like it, or brought over her disgusting obese dropout bf to fuck in our room. She was the only person who I knew there so when I had my own issues I'd vent to her here and there, but she eventually claimed I was the one forcing her to skip class to deal with my problems. No bitch, you easily did that on your own with your stoner lazy ass. Couldn't have gotten out of there soon enough

No. 1101397

>>1101393
Report it to the police and also tell them about the murder.

No. 1101400

>>1101393
I cant even decode what the hell he's trying to say

No. 1101403

>>1101393
schizophrenia

No. 1101404

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>>1101400
I didn't understand either. It's so fucking off. This was just before that screen.

>>1101397
I'm thinking about it but this happened a long time ago from what I think he's saying. Idk??

No. 1101407

>>1101403
That's my gut feeling. It's really sad but still scary.

Sorry for the rapid vent nons. Took me off guard.

No. 1101409

>>1101404
Rip anon, just wait until the twerp makes a manifesto and kills people. I would keep him on your radar and don’t rationalize anything, sociopaths do not care about your attempts to help or your concern actually they weaponize your concern against you. I would not drop all contact just yet, I would pretend to be his friend and if he gives ty more sus info, you should record all of it if you are that concerned.

No. 1101412

>>1101404
Creepy. This kind of schizo is really creepy. Be careful anon.

No. 1101419

>>1100175
nta and idek who this guy is but i weirdly enough enjoyed reading this, i can’t explain it but i’m always enthralled by reading about peoples lives and such hes no doubt a shitty moid though

No. 1101420

I love my mom but she's so fucking loud about her petty opinions sometimes. Giving me lectures about how gross secondhand clothing is and how only 'gross poor people' wear them. As if it's morally wrong to spend 80 cents on a secondhand top instead of 20 euros for a piece of polyester that everyone has and is made by Chinese slaves. If she just said that she thought that I wouldn't mind but she goes on and on about it and keeps picking fights about it for no reason. I wash them before wearing and it's not like they have holes or anything. I'd love to have the time and skill to sew all my own clothes or have all the money in the world to spend on handmade clothes but I don't. Leave me alone with your classist bullshit. She acts like I'm one of those extreme cheapskates from TV, I just don't want to (and can't) spend much money and I don't like slave labour either. I know this is really dumb but clothes are pretty much our only mutual interest and I hate that I have to constantly walk on eggshells when talking about it with her. I just told her I wanted to get some new sandals and she started yelling at me about how gross my secondhand boots are for no fucking reason and I should buy new and leather ones even though she knows I'm a vegan and don't buy new.

No. 1101427

I don’t think i’m really living I feel like my whole life i’ve been just passively waiting to die

No. 1101433

>>1101404
anon be extremely careful around this guy. and document EVERYTHING to eventually turn in to the police. You never know when he's going to turn on you. I'd recommend getting some sort of weapon too. If you don't know how to shoot a gun pepper spray is fine. or if you really want to hurt him lye water

No. 1101447

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>watch asmr video to try to calm down and stop overthinking before sleeping
>she mentions desktop pcs
>get sad that I don't have room for one
>mentions stretching
>get sad that I have barely any room to even stretch
>"maybe I should finally just get a job and try to move out…"
>look at housing and renting prices
>cry
It's all useless
I hate my tiny room in this tiny house in this tiny country, I also rarely ever leave my bedroom because I hate being around my father who I live with. My bedroom is my only privacy yet it's too small to be happy spending 24/7 in. It's very hard to muster up the motivation to want to labour just for the possibility to move out. It's very hard to sleep when I can't stop thinking of how much I hate my situation, distractions help but what distractions can help when you're supposed to go to sleep and avoid getting too immersed into something that'll likely keep you up..?

No. 1101449

>>1101420
It's not dumb, I'd be annoyed too. Dealing with classist people who are dedicated to misunderstanding and mocking you for things you likely have no good alternatives for are so so exhausting.

No. 1101450

I wish I wasn't so stupidly sensitive to any perceived rejection. No matter how nicely I'm treated, when I experience anything negative it sends me down a spiral. One time when I was already feeling bad, a girl talking next to me loudly said "No" to something and for some reason I thought she meant me. She didn't of course, but it made me want to kill myself, I almost started crying in public. I feel misunderstood. I want some form of attention, but I don't want anyone near me. I can't picture my life not being alone. I'm too scared to get close to anyone, because I've never been as important to others as they've been to me and I don't want to have to depend on anyone. I'm meant to be an outsider for my entire life

No. 1101453

>>1101404
How did this conversation even come up? Tell your friend who he's a friend of too, and do what other anons said

No. 1101455

>>1101433
Lmfao WHAT lye water.

Jokes aside yeah I'm definitely doing the fadeaway. He's been over to my house a few times which concerns me (came to a few house parties, was a casual friend with my bf but this was all 5+ years ago at least) and despite having a hard-to-follow element about him, he was v nice and interesting to talk to. This is like…ALL out of left field. Especially because he's gay?gas?? Like photos of him with boyfriends 15+ years ago. which makes me think he's sick and this is some delusion. It's freaky af how nonchalant he is though and I'm not gonna respond further. I'm considering contacting his mom as shitty as that sounds. He comes from what looks like a VERY involved tight knit middle upper class family and I think he even lives with his mom. So. Idk. Still wrapping my head around this

No. 1101465

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My hypersomnia has been so bad lately holy fucking shit
Today i couldn't stop falling asleep at my desk and when i got home i almost got it by the fucking tram because i'm that sleepy and my eyes were closing automatically
Also quite literally "fell" asleep to my knees on the curbwalk for a good minute. Heard teenagers laugh saying i was drunk.
And no i'm not treated for that because the sleep doctor said it was "just depression" and gave me a fucking anti depressant that didn't help at all and gave me breathing exercises for anxiety or some shit.

No. 1101468

>>1101465
Sleep doctors are fucking horrible. I had such a bad experience with one, all he did was print off some advice from some site as if I couldn't have just read that myself and as if I didn't already try them all. Why are doctors so respected when so many of them are garbage

No. 1101473

>>1100940
I actually didn't know that happened in recent history. I've heard about it since I was a kid, but because of the way people talk about it, I always thought it was just an old urban legend, or a stereotype dating back to the middle ages when popes used to be warlords. Like when religious sects make fun of each other, "haha those catholics sell indulgences and groom altar boys" and it's always said in the kind of way like it's a preposterous historic reference to archaic times, and not something that could happen in modern civilized society.

No. 1101475

Im pretty sure that im developing DID and other severe mental illness due to extreme abuse and I have catatonia for hours and I'm supposed to watch all sort of retarded grifters like that fucking british retard lie and be histrionics hungry for attention when im suffering with no support system or money

No. 1101482

>>1101475
Why DID?

No. 1101485

I am fine with having no friends and actually prefer to be alone. But I am so unbelievably lonely right now and I feel so hollow because of it.

No. 1101486

>>1101482
I do shit I don't fucking remember and record myself taking different stances and saying im different people and then I forget and I have two names and for 10 years of my life I was called by one name and I have recordings of myself where I present myself by that name and talk like a little child stuck at 8 years old and I have great chunks of memories missing

No. 1101487

>>1101485
Me too nonnie. I also hate the process of making new friends and the getting too know each other stage, especially online since I can't voice chat because my walls are very thin and I live with other people.

No. 1101491

>>1101487
We are the same

No. 1101494

>>1101468
Original anon here and maybe we had the same doctor because he gave me a shit ton of mild advices for "anxious people" that i actually found almost word for words on the web.

Also i'm in the process of seeing a new sleep doctor and i'm gonna str8 up tell him that if he doesn't plan on giving me actual medication this is useless and there will not be a second appointment. Tired (ahah) of this shit now i gotta be brutally honest

No. 1101505

>>1101494
Good luck nonnie I hope you get the treatment that you deserve

No. 1101514

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Was mindlessly scrolling on Twitter and randomly came across this guy and he's like my own personal horrorcow or something. He's not interesting, just some mentally disabled retarded man but everything he says is so bizarre to me it never makes sense. He regularly doxxes himself and just spouts out the same nonsensical shit constantly. I think it interests me because he's obviously a human being but he's literally too retarded to even write down comprehensible sentences. Uncanny valley I guess. It's hard for me to see men as human to begin with let alone low functioning autistic/mentally disabled ones. I don't think they should be alive tbh, they certainly shouldn't be given internet access. It's really hard for me to have any empathy for mentally disabled men. Just kill it with fire already. He can't even form proper sentences. Mentally disabled men just live to coom and be a nuisance. Even with all his delusions at least Chrischan could form actual sentences and have actual conversations.

No. 1101518

>>1101514
I have a mentally disabled male family member and he's actually really sweet and wholesome. He is too low functioning to even use the Internet but that means he can't become a weirdass coomer like the guy you found, seriously ew. I understand though, I think it's important especially as women to be cautious around men and if they're mentally impaired in some way that can sometimes mean they are even more likely to encroach boundaries. So even though I will always be like "not my nigel" lol (literally he is a sweetie) I 100% understand especially with a dude like that. Low functioning males, actually males in general should be kept away from porn and fucked up stuff on the internet. Seriously disgusting behavior and finding their profiles is deeply unnerving, I wish I could physically rip their device out of their hands and ban them from it forever, it's for everyone as well as their own good.

No. 1101538

>>1101450
I feel you anon. I don't know if that's BPD or AVPD by default, though some may say it is. Have you been diagnosed with anything? Rejection sensitivity has held me back from doing so much in life, from dating like a normal person to applying for jobs. I don't have much advice to give but I know it's rough. It's scary and takes practice but trying to find casual friends and keep them a bit at arm's length just to keep your expectations in check has worked out for me.

No. 1101539

>>1101514
>>1101518
also want to add that I've met many disabled men and there's this guy in my neighborhood, he's very nice to me when I run into him but I still have my guard up around him and tbh try to avoid him. It's because there's already too many creeper men without mental disabilities and this guy is very friendly, he could very well just be a nice friendly person but still to be safe as a woman I avoid interacting if I am going to be alone with him. Because I don't know how friendly and males in general overstep. Maybe it sounds hypocritical because of what I said of my relative but truly I think it's a good policy to be careful around them, only family members and social workers have the need to be close as well as anyone who is comfortable with it, but if you're not then I don't blame you. The only thing that gets me down is when people see my relative in public and give sour judging looks, even though he is happy and friendly to the world, nothing else. But most people are kind and smile at him. I don't expect that from everyone but it's easy to tell if someone is simply uncomfortable vs being nasty. Sorry for the essay, just wanted to say even in my scenario I understand your feelings.

No. 1101557

>>1101518
>>1101539
You don't have to be sorry for the essay nonnie I enjoyed reading it. I get your points and I can see your side too. It's already hard to be friendly to men because you never know if they'll take just being a polite human being as flirting, but even more so with mentally disabled/autistic/whatever men. I think a lot of those men just genuinely cannot comprehend boundaries or how actual relationships form. "Woman is kind to me, she smiled, is she my wife now?" Is a thinking pattern I've noticed a lot of them unfortunately have.

No. 1101568

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I am procrastinating a lengthy assignment. Gfsdsd.

No. 1101576

For some reason I have a very vivid memory when I was a kid of overhearing my parents shaming my neighbour for moving countries, saying that "if you can't be happy in your home country you'll never be happy anywhere" and I think that's such a stupid thing to say. There are plenty of reasons why somebody would want to move and be unhappy where they are, it's too much of a nuanced thing to simplify like that. Why were they always so judgemental? I guess because they were unhappy. I only live with my dad now in the same country and I'm unhappy here and want to move. I wish he would help me clean the damn house and didn't need to be ordered around to do anything helpful. It's so embarrassing having to ask my 50+ year old dad to do simple everyday chores. We live together, I can't do everything, you have to help too. I wish I could move and never talk to him again for the rest of my life. He embarrasses me with how incompetent, autistic, robotic and lazy he is. Embarrasses me to the point where I wish I could just never interact with him again.

No. 1101577

Oh my god I shared a tiktok video on here and apparently you can see who opens what you linked. And vice versa people can see that I shared it. Whatevs so I looked at the farmers out of curiosity. Most were just girls, regular. A fucking man clicked on the link… I posted it in the MTF thread so it might be a TIF, They had a pubey mustache … I am so unsettled

No. 1101582

Very upset about my grandma. She's in her 70s and for the last couple days has been complaining about being able to breathe. Its all very sadding to me, although with her its hard to tell how sick she really is because she always exaggerates. Literally she's been saying she was gonna die soon for last 20 years. Either way though I feel like I should spend more time with her, but its so fucking hard. We got rid of cable awhile ago and she was already annoying because of fox news, but now its so fucking worse because she's on youtube. I can't even express an opinion that barely disagrees with her because she just says I'm a communist. I've tried to get her on anything else but she just refuses to watch anything but conservative click bate. Its sorta sad because now she's convinced that in 5 years there's going to an apocalypse and that we need to stockpile food. I don't want to police what she watches but I dont think its healthy for her to be in such a negative mindset all the time.

No. 1101583

>>1101577
Could be potential milk to post on that thread tbh
Anyone who has a tiktok account is a retard anyway

No. 1101589

>>1101577
first what? really? how can you see it? and second i agree with >>1101583 please post his ugly mug

No. 1101594

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>>1101583
>>1101589
@momothewise on tiktok wtf are you doing here go away nerd

No. 1101596

>>1101576
Sometimes there’s a little truth to the idea that “destination-based happiness” is setting yourself up for disappointment — the idea that, “when I get THIS job or THIS house or THIS car, THEN I’ll be happy.” And it’s true to some extent, but on the other hand, your environment does have a huge impact on your overall mental health, and sometimes people play the destination-based happiness card to gaslight you into accepting your shitty circumstances instead of trying to leave them.

It’s like people watch some shitty Hallmark movie where the moral is “money can’t buy happiness” and they make that their entire worldview instead of thinking critically. Move wherever you want and make whatever changes you want and don’t let anyone shame you for it.

No. 1101599

>>1101594
ewwwww thats a MAN

No. 1101623

>>1101594
Checked the account, looks almost like a depressed FtM from the eyes, dyed hair (and sort of the voice) to me. Might be one of the faghags/HSTS whiteknights

No. 1101628

>>1101594
Delete this before I get angry

No. 1101641

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No. 1101652

>>1101628
The devil shivers when momothewise loses his temper

No. 1101665

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My period is slightly late, there's no way I'm pregnant but WHAT'S TAKING SO LONG. I want to get it over with

No. 1101668

This is a niche vent but I’m so tired of seeing western/american twitterfags trying to “cancel” literally-who eastern europoor artists/tiktokers/whatever for “”copying asian aesthetics.”” Are they not teaching geography and social studies in school anymore? Do these children not understand the overlap between Russian and Asian features? I would say go outside but this is like easily googleable

No. 1101687

>>1101623
That’s what I thought cause a scrote would come to bait and be crude that thing just lurketh

No. 1101694

>>1101568
Alright nonnies so I finished it at 11:56 but it turns out it's not due at 11:59 like everything else but it's due at 11:55. Fucking online college and their hard deadlines. A decade ago I could've stayed up until 2 and delivered it to class. But no, one minute late and it's over and if your class doesn't submit late work than too bad.

No. 1101708

>>1101582
Tell her the elites are lying to make everyone give up so it's easier for them to take over. Demoralization is their no.1 tool and of she wants to survive she needs to do stuff like make friends garden and pray.
Play the game Nona.

No. 1101713

>>1101594
He needs to apologize to his mother. Literal medieval peasant tier face.

No. 1101718

>>1101665
Do a hard workout or use a dildo

No. 1101769

My parents send money back to their relatives all the time. But I feel like they fail to realize that they really don't need to send the amount that they do so frequently. Its like they are supporting multi families and yet, growing up they would always blame me and my siblings for eating up their money when in reality the finance crises of ours couldve been solved if they didnt take it upon themselves to be supporting people who practically take advantage of them. Right now my mother took up another job to be able to fund her mother's surgery back home and none of her siblings seem to be contributing as much and
Are making it so that my mom has to be the sole provider once again. Its been taking a toll on her physically and Its hard to see her struggle with my dad like that.

No. 1101785

>>1101665
hate that feeling (even without any chance of pregnancy ever)

good luck nonna

No. 1101788

>>1101577
What the fuck? Why is that a feature? That's almost too terrible to be believable. Anyone can post a link and harvest doxx data from people who click on it. What if trannies use it to collect GC women accounts?

No. 1101821

It hit me that I'm going to be 24 soon and that I can no longer identify myself as in my early 20s. I'm not that upset about aging or growing older, so normally birthdays don't depress me but I find myself dreading this one. I recently had a conversation with a friend about how our selves from 10 years ago would feel looking at us now. She was really positive about it and thinks her 13/14-year-old self would be proud. I think my 13/14 year-old-self would be disappointed. I bet if I looked into the future at that age I just wouldn't have any motivation to live. Sure I am better at being functional/taking care of myself and being less socially weird, but on the inside I'm still the same. I feel just as alone as I did then and I still cannot find any purpose or meaning in life. I really just grew up to be one of those burnt out, boring, purposeless adults that I was so afraid of becoming as a kid.

No. 1101841

why can't i stop thinking of everything as temporary and using it as a reason to not try my best? what is even my best? am i doing alright compared to when my perfectionism defined my best as my burnout, or am i coping? did i really destroy my brain with sometimes drinking and occasionally smoking jay?

No. 1101898

>>1101514
Are you sure this isn't just AI/a bot

No. 1101910

I'm so done with this stupid e-relationship. We're so incompatible.
I have ptsd and any time he's moderately annoyed, his voice becomes really scary I freeze up and become non-verbal and then he gets more annoyed at me, especially if what annoyed him was me to begin with.
He isn't kind of sympathetic when it happens, either. We've been e-dating for over 7 months, and he still gets annoyed at me for having these ptsd episodes after him snapping at me if it's because of me doing something wrong.
He thinks it's unfair I react that way despite knowing why I have ptsd from being raped and abused for years, so raising your voice at me makes me freeze up and break down. I didn't even do anything that bad. I was trying to help him fix a setting, there was a miscommunication, we were both frustrated, and I said "did you look at the screenshot I sent you?", and he snapped "why are you talking to me like that?" and I tried laughing and talking in a cheery voice saying sorry I just thought you didnt see, then we went back and forth about some miscommunication, and he told me I'm "just being shitty", and I froze up and quietly hyperventilated for 20 minutes. About 10 minutes in he justified himself again by saying "You were being shitty. That's why I got upset.", 10 minutes of silence later I type "scared" and he asks why, and I typed "your voice" and he says "No..?" And tries to say he didn't have a scary voice I'm just being shitty. Then I started sobbing (he can hear this), I typed "okay I'm going to bed", he said "Okay." and I hung up. It's been 30 minutes and no message or anything.
I don't understand how someone awho speaks to me practically every day 7 months won't understand they can't talk to me like that without me having a ptsd episodes.
I've tried ending the relationship after these instances so many times and every time it's after us arguing for an hour about why what he said or did scared/hurt me, then me completely breaking down and saying this isn't going to work, then him lovebombing me into staying and saying he will work on himself and get better, hes amazingly sweet, and of course it happens again a week or two later.
I don't think the severity of this issue is as bad as my past relationships that were severely abusive, and I think that's why I stay, on top of being really lonely.
I'm not ugly or fat or anything, but I'm severely online and don't have any friends at the uni I go to. I don't think him and I even have a lot in common, and our dynamic (in my eyes) has been tarnished a lot by this happening over and over again. I can't even draw with him or play certain games with him anymore because I've had ptsd episodes from him getting mad at me while doing these things together, and I strongly associate them with negativity.
He's the nicest bf I've ever had, but, on top of it all, he lives on a different continent and won't get vaccinated, so there's no future for us any time soon.
I know I'm crazy and extremely sensitive but I know I shouldn't be with someone that constantly makes me feel this way, even if it's unintentional. I laid everything out on the table for him 9 months ago and told him about the ptsd and I need someone who is calm. Then as we got closer he just got more prone to snapping at me.
I've wanted to get back to therapy for a long time but I just know if I see a therapist again she will tell me to end it. The majority of my ptsd episodes these days are from interacting with him. If we broke up at least I'd be confident in going back to therapy.
I don't know what to do nonnies.

>tl;dr

I have ptsd and my e-bf of 7 months from another continent gets annoyed very easily/has a sharp tongue which makes me have ptsd episodes and idk what to do

No. 1101913

>Find a cute girl online
>She gay
>We communicate really well
>She's a vocal TRA
Why does God want me to suffer?

No. 1101918

>>1101910
Freezing up really? Just turn the screen off

No. 1101920

>>1101910
Come on nona. Classic retarded abusive scrote, please do yourself the favor and break up with him.

No. 1101922

>>1101918
I know, but my brain goes full retard mode. I hyperventilate and ping pong thinking about leaving and memories of being abused. I can't speak or move really when it happens, so I just sit there frozen like a deer in headlights

No. 1101927

>>1101910
Oh my god just dump his ass already. Why would you voluntarily spend time with scrotes like this.

No. 1101932

>>1101910
>I laid everything out on the table for him 9 months ago and told him about the ptsd and I need someone who is calm. Then as we got closer he just got more prone to snapping at me.
And this didn't bring up HUGE RED FLAGS TO YOU? FUCKING DUMP HIM. TELL HIM TO FUCK OFF FOREVER.

No. 1101933

>>1101927
>>1101920
Like I said, every time I try to he switches to lovebombing me, and I always fall for it. In the moment, he makes me feel so loved and listened to and like he will actually work on his temper.
How do I not fall for it? And how do I stop myself from letting my loneliness reel me back in?

No. 1101946

>>1101910
he doesn't sound very nice or empathetic at all. plus he's a retard that won't get vaccinated, not even for you. literal trash bin bf.

No. 1101947

I realise this sounds straight out of r/childfree but I went to go get a piercing today and they told me to sit and wait on the couch but there was only one small couch where some scrote was playing with his kid and the child had his toys scattered literally all over the couch with no room to sit. I ended up standing next to the couch and it wasn't until minutes later that he moved some toys to the side so I could sit on the very edge. Sure, this is somewhat the parents fault but why do kids need THAT many toys? And to scatter them absolutely everywhere? I can't help but see things like that and seethe.

No. 1101949

>>1101933
Block him everywhere and don't accept new contacts.

No. 1101950

>>1101947
They don't, that kid is getting spoiled by retarded parents.

No. 1101954

>>1101932
It did, and I've told him it makes me sad and that I wish things were back to how they used to be.
Hes acknowledged he has a problem with his temper and wants to fix it, and I've slowly stopped believing he can.
I don't think he wants to hurt me, I think he was just trying really hard early on to be patient for me, but just let that slip away. And subsequently, he tries really hard after every fight about this until it slowly slips away and he reverts back to his true nature.
His nature is being stubborn with a short fuse because that's exactly what his dad is like, and I know that. I guess I have sympathy because my dad had a really short temper and was abusive.
Not that it makes it not bad. It doesn't make me feel good that things are how they are, and I don't think I can do this long term. Over the past few months, Ive slowly stopped believing he can change.
I've just never felt this loved before by someone, and I'm scared to throw it away. He buys me flowers and sends me love letters and all these other things that make it hard for me to let it go

No. 1101961

>>1101933
just block, work, shitpost, workout, drink, see friends, get high. if you have guy friends or want to flirt with guys or whatever do it with other guys and see where it goes or whatever for getting a taste of guys again (likely will be a distasteful experience though if your expectations are not in the gutter and if you get attached). at a point now with my ex bf that i so am done with where he is trying to pay me to talk to him (though personally mine won't change so fuck it). maybe your retard will cashapp you a bunch if you his stroppy ass gets desperate enough too.

No. 1101963

>>1101954
flowers don't pay for shit. shit gift. tell him to to GO TO THERAPY or take an interest in some fucking therapy. point though is that dude won't even get vaccinated for you. what kind of future is there for a relationship like this fr?

No. 1101969

>>1101961
I don't have any friends in real life like I said, and I'm too scared of men to flirt unless I'm incredibly close with them.
And I really don't like the idea of just blocking him because I met him through my only group of online friends. I'd really rather end things on good terms, but he always ends up roping me back in with saying sweet things and me just being lonely.
Getting high sounds good though. I'll go do that now

No. 1101974

>>1101969
just tell him to go to therapy then and that there are serious incompatibilities here that should be worked out alone, or something. i think he's making your shit worse tbh. being snapped at for extremely minor shit as someone with PTSD is harmful in the long run and whether he cares or not, he's still dealing you damage and providing you… what? what exactly is he doing for you outside of worsening your mental health in aggregate?

No. 1101977

>>1101947
That's fully the father's fault. He bought the kid too many toys, didn't even tell his child to make rook for you, etc.

No. 1101979

>>1101947
sorry who brings a kid and A BUNCH of toys to a piercing/i'm assuming also tattooing place?

No. 1101982

>>1101974
You're right, and I've acknowledged he's made my mental health worse like a couple months ago. I was at a really good place mentally when I first got close with him, and that's why I was able to get close with a man in the first place, but I think it's slowly gone downhill, and I'm back to where I was 2 or 3 years ago.
I've suggested therapy to him before, and he seemed mildly interested like yeah I probably need to, but all the male therapists near him only take appointments during weekdays and during hours that he works… and so we kind of just never talked about it again.
As for what he provides me… Feeling loved and needed? Having someone to talk to? I had two female online friends that I spoke to a lot, and both started getting real lives and stopped speaking to me. I have one other female online friend who I talk to once in a while, but we don't click as well and it doesn't provide the companionship he provides me.

No. 1101990

>>1101982
ime pisspoor companionship if you're at a point where you're fearing being snapped at any given thing. that's not really a form of companionship or "love" that i would appreciate personally. i prefer peace and stability. that is not peaceful or stable. that's constant whiplash of feeling liked and disliked. sounds like excuses for therapists, plus he can see a female one, he can even see one on the computer ffs. 2022 and men STILL have to be begged to resolve their retardation then make a multitude of excuses as to why they can't make steps forward themselves, without any nudging from a gf or wife, to stop acting like annoying assholes. idk what to tell you becuase you sound lonely but consider making friends online or refocusing your efforts on making friends and slowly transitioning yourself mentally out of this relationship. until he takes the steps himself to improve, doubt there's chance to get better. once again, this is someone who will not even get vaccinated to see you. obviously you are not a priority.

No. 1102002

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>say something in groupchat or similar platform
>conversation instantly dies
i will never make friends like this, my inner critical voice is killing me alive

No. 1102003

>>1102002
groupchat sucks, worst way to build emotional bonds

No. 1102009

>>1102003
In some hobbies, it's hard to bond in any other way over interests.

No. 1102012

>>1101990
I respect his decision to not get vaccinated, that doesn't bother me. I just included that as context to how it's hard to handle this e-drama when I probably won't be able to see him for another year… Maybe two. I would do it if it meant spending my life with the love of my life was waiting at the other side, but I'm beginning to see we are probably not compatible long term to begin with.
I think I respected not wanting to see a female because I sure as hell wouldn't want to see a male therapist, but, even then, I offered him a pdf of a dbt workbook on anger management from the same company I got my dbt workbook from and he didn't want to. He thinks it's better to just will himself into being better, not reading a book I guess? So yeah… it does upset me.
You're right though, our dynamic has slowly become me fearing him lashing out at me. We used to get drunk and draw together, but now I'm even scared to draw by myself now because he's gotten annoyed at me so many times when we were drawing together. (Usually because I wanted him to draw in a similar style to me when we'd do collabs and he'd snap bc it annoyed him so much)
I'll try to make friends more and distance myself more I think.

No. 1102018

>>1102002
Oh my nonnie I relate, I'm pretty sure this experience is more common than you think. You might be reading too much into it but then again friend groups can be cruel. I make a mistake more of talking too much then regretting that I spammed and overpowered everyone else. If you're possibly in a gc that I'm in, I can at least verify that I never judge anyone for what you said, never even noticed

No. 1102024

>>1098771
hey anon, don't know if you're still here, but here's what helped me in this particular scenario:

connect phone to pc,
look for folder "trash",
delete folder,
… storage profit!

hope this helps!

No. 1102068

Zelensky is 5'7 and putin height is UNDER 5'7. No one knows his real height but going off photos and videos he's 5'5 at the most. Im literally shaking right now. What are the heights of other world leaders? I swear to God any man 5'7 and under should not be allowed to lead. They are too unhinged and terminally angry from being a Manlet, suffering from short man syndrome. Short men were a mistake. I FUCKING CANT. These men are political incels.

No. 1102069

>>1102002
Me too, i cringe at everything i say

No. 1102070

>>1102068
damn i’m taller than them, and i agree there needs to be a height minimum

No. 1102072

>>1102068
Isn't Macron a manlet too?
Anyway, Kim Jong Un is the tallest world leader. The party says so.

No. 1102073

>>1102068
Kek Germany's has the same size.

>>1102072
Yes, he's 5'8 kek

No. 1102074

>>1102072
WHY ARE ALL THESE WORLD LEADERS MANLETS WHAT IS REALLY GOING ON ARE MEN DEVOLVING, BECOMING SO MALNOURISHED THAT THEY CANT GROW ANYMORE. IS IT THE DIET OF SODA, FLAMIM HOT CHEETO AND P0RN? WITH NO PHYSICAL LABOUR. OOH NO THEY DONT EVEN GET OUT OF BED TO WORK ANYMORE. JUST GET A CODING JOB WITH THE ONLY QAULIFICATIONS YOU HAVE IS BEING A MAN. THEN U CAN LAY IN BED ALL DAY, PLAYING VIDEO GAMES, EATING SOY AND WATCHING ANOTHER MANS PENIS EJACULATE. WHAT IS THE AVERAGE TESTOSTERONE LEVEL OF MEN, RIGHT NOW?

No. 1102075

>>1102068
daaaamn he's shorter than a short woman! No wonder he's a powersick scrote, he can't exactly dominate anyone with his height.

No. 1102076

>>1102075
Purina is so short he wears massive platform shoes. Everyone says purina was a shy, meek, skinny, autistic looking boy before he rose into power.

No. 1102082

>>1102076
>>1102075
I dislike Putin but this schoolyard level shit, also I really hate this Freudian analysis of world leaders (its so fucking cringe and not accurate)
It ignores the wider politics of regions, complex histories and social movements, Putin was an old believer in the Soviet Union, he believed in those ideals and the Idea of Russia as a leader of the world
Its those ideals of why he's invading Ukraine and doing the shit he does, its the same reason Taliban members fought has hard as they did and for so long, they truly believed in their own ideals and religion

Its why people do what they do

No. 1102086

>>1102082
explain why all of them are manlets though

No. 1102087

My Rune Factory 5 copy came early but my Switch won't charge. Nonnies I can't take this

No. 1102091

>>1102082
>really hate this Freudian analysis of world leaders (its so fucking cringe and not accurate)
Are you saying you unironically believe anons genuinely think Putin is what he is solely and for no other reason than for being a manlet? Kek. Anons are shitposting on an imageboard and pointing and laughing at manlets because we can.

No. 1102092

I find most men incredibly unattractive. I see them as braindead zombies completely controlled by their desires

No. 1102094

>>1102092
This. It's even worse if they're ugly.

No. 1102098

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My first tumor doubled in size to 5cm and I got new ones in a very short amount of time. They first told me it must be all in my head or it's just the flu. I'll probably be fine, but I hate how women are never believed.

No. 1102111

>>1102098
fuck I'm so sorry, my niece got breast chancer a while back but she ended up fine. I'm sure you'll be fine as well

No. 1102113

>>1102098
Sorry to hear about this nonnie, I hope you can feel better soon and I think things will be ok for you. Sending good vibes xx

No. 1102116

>>1101594
Definitely FtM. Wtf is she doing here
>>1101910
I know how it feels nonnie, I'm so sorry. I wish you luck in making friends and leaving him for good. Trust me when I say he's just a waste of time. You can do it. You'll feel better.
>>1101918
That's how a rational person thinks, but PTSD makes you irrational. Try to have some sympathy for her.

No. 1102125

>>1102116
Probably hate-reading

No. 1102131

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God, I want to give up on life. I flunked university and haven't told my family in years. I'm stuck in retail hell. I can't get a refund for the boot camp I tried to do. I bombed my credit and can't get any loans for school.

I'm overweight, no friends, no love life, haven't been out of the country in 20 years and still financially dependent on my mom.

I'm gonna be 25 in a week and the suicidal thoughts have been getting louder and louder.

No. 1102132

>>1102098
I'm gonna pray for you nonnie

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>>1102111
Yeah, I'm young and still healthy despite all that, so it should be fine.
>>1102113
>>1102132
Thank you!

No. 1102145

>>1102131
Join the miltiary maybe ? that's what I did

No. 1102150

>>1102145

I come from a muslim family and I don't want to be disowned. Also, I don't want to be raped.

No. 1102157

>>1102150
okay, I don't recommend joining any third world nation army, but western nation army life is basically university but with daily PT
Anyway maybe flee to a western country

No. 1102161

I have the most important test of my life in like three hours and I can't stop running to the bathroom and shitting my guts out, what the fuck is this? Why is this happening today of all days? I have been like this for about three hours now already and the only thing keeping me from complete dread and despair at it not letting up is laughing at the Spongebob posting from last night

No. 1102162

>>1102161

Maybe you have IBS. If you're stressed about the test that makes sense.

No. 1102165

>>1102157
I already live in a western country. I don't want to join the fucking military

No. 1102166

>>1102161
can your friends help you out by getting you some drinks with electrolytes like gatorade? did you take any medication?

No. 1102172

>>1102165
okay then, alright then marry some western dude and you'll be set

No. 1102173

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Don't know whyyy I keep fucking doing this to myself!! Every single fucking time I eat breakfast, I immediately gotta shit it out. I finish the food, 5-10 mins later immediate bowel evacuation!
I never could eat breakfast even when I was a kid, but eating it anyways didn't give me the bubble guts like it does now!!! I am truly suffering, nonas…

No. 1102177

>>1102172
Nta but that’s kind of a retarded idea “just get married” as if most moids aren’t batshit insane. It would only make sense if she already had some absolute nigel of a boyfriend.

No. 1102178

>>1102172
I don't want cock

No. 1102180

>>1102173
Have you ever spoken to a medical professional about this

No. 1102190

>>1102162
I guess it's a possibility, but I haven't really had this problem arise from stress before and generally have a pretty strong stomach. It seems to have subsided for the moment so I hope that means the worst is over even though my stomach is still upset.

>>1102166
I do have lots of water so I am just trying to hydrate as much as I can, thank you for the advice anon. I took my vitamins and some melatonin last night before I went to bed but that's pretty normal for me and hasn't made me have the hypershits before. I ate chicken and rice last night for dinner and thought both were washed and cooked thoroughly enough, never had any issues with that before either, but now I am questioning if I missed something and it actually wasn't good.

No. 1102196

>>1101910
>Has an e-boyfriend
>Tells him about her PTSD episodes and what triggers them
>Moid doesn't respect them and traumatizes her further
>Moid lovebombs her every time she tries to break it off and promises to change while immediately returning to his old ways
>Moid is an antivaxx nut who refuses to get vaccinated even to meet his girlfriend
>Anon doesn't want to go to therapy because the therapist would tell her to break up with him
>"He's the nicest bf I've ever had"
Anon good fucking god love yourself, make close female friends via hobbies or communities, dump that stupid leech and start a new life. Or do you want to end up as a husk of a human being filled with bitterness, wasting your youth in a relationship with a retarded scrote abusing you? Learn to live without a boyfriend so you don't have to be dependent on them all the time and swallow this crap.

No. 1102200

>>1102180
i dont have any moneyyyy

it's cool tho, cuz it's just breakfast that does this to me and I read up recently on some yoga bullshit about how everyone naturally has different eating habits and internal clocks, so I'm not gonna freak out about this

No. 1102257

>>1102173
then don't eat breakfast? i love breakfast but if your body rejects food until later in the day, it's fine. just don't eat it.

No. 1102258

Whenever I feel any negative emotion and am met with something pleasant or a person who's feeling good my first instinct is to feel guilty for ruining the mood. It's like I can't allow myself to feel anything in order to not be an inconvenience to others. I don't want to bring the mood down, but I also feel resentful and jealous of people who show their emotions regardless of everything and aren't punished for it but instead met with sympathy. Which makes sense, I'm just certain I won't get the same treatment

No. 1102267

I'm starting to think my mother is even more mentally ill than I thought. I was out with a friend yesterday, went to a restaurant and then to the cinema at the mall, and then my mother sends me text messages out of the blue telling me it's been a while since she got news from my big sister and how nobody was able to reach her recently. My sister was at our home on Tuesday even if she has her own place because my mother invited her so I started thinking they had something planned today and something might have happened to her. My mother begged me to go bang on my sister's door to see if she's ok, so I foolishly thought my mother was panicking based on something, I don't know, maybe she received a suspicious message from my sister or whatever, and my mother tried to go to her place unanounced and nobody answered. So I also start panicking and send messages on fb to my sister asking her why she's ignoring everyone and plot twist, she tells me she was taking a long nap the entire afternoon and turned off her phone, and also that we're all batshit crazy and to fuck off.

I ask my mother why the fuck she was panicking so much when my sister was just taking a nap, and asked her when was the last time she was in contact with her, and my stupid bitch of a mother tells me she actually calls her twice a day and she panicked because she ignored the morning call. I suddenly remembered how happy my mother was that I nearly died of covid abroad at the very beginning of the pandemic because it forced me to go back "home" despite me leaving to find a job after lookong for one and utterly failing in our country, and how she'd call me non-stop regardless of the different time zones. And she was also really glad I couldn't go abroad on an exchange program due to being poor even if it would have greatly boosted my career, probably because she wouldn't have been able to stalk me then. Please tell me this isn't normal behavior.

No. 1102276

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>>1102116
I have PTSD freezing up once or twice for a few mins the first times it happens, whatever, but this is full on retardation. If she can acknowledge the situation she can disengage from the love bombing.

No. 1102296

>>1102131
Maybe you could get carreer counseling? Could be free depending on where you live. Or do one of those work while studying at the workplace things so you can earn money while learning a trade? There's definitely options if you're open to them and do some research.

No. 1102298

what should I replace my medication paroxetine with? I think it is giving me dementia, I'm finding it harder and harder to talk or remember words I'm so scared.

No. 1102300

>>1102196
>Learn to live without a boyfriend so you don't have to be dependent on them all the time and swallow this crap.
I got to this point before I got close to this guy so I know it's possible. Thank you
I do feel like I'm becoming more of a husk of who I was.
How do I find communities for hobbies? Like art communities and stuff?

>>1102276
Everyone who has ptsd is different and has different severities of dissociation. You don't get it as bad as me, and that is good for you, but it doesn't mean this isn't caused by my ptsd
Please don't generalize your experience to be the gold standard and insist that freezing up once or twice for a few minutes is what's normal
I've spoken to a couple therapists before about this and they've told me the freezing up and entering a dissociative episode for a very long time is extremely common and normal for people with ptsd

No. 1102314

>>1102267
This is not normal and her behavior, even if due to anxiety and not from seeking absolute control over you two, is awful. Why was it you who had to check while you were out with your friends and not your mother? Is she unable to send facebook messages? No, she's perfectly capable. If your sister is pissed at your mom, don't let yourself get dragged into it unless you want to take a side.
>turned off her phone, and also that we're all batshit crazy and to fuck off
Your sister is absolutely justified if your mom calls twice a day. I hope you two are close and talk about this regularly. If you haven't yet, apologize and mention your mom hid how often she calls your sister.

No. 1102323

>>1102075
>daaaamn he's shorter than a short woman!
aren't short women 5'3 and under, unless you're from a scandinavian country

No. 1102336

>>1102314
My mother is completely tech illeterate, she doesn't have any social media whatsoever. My mother asked me to go to my sister's place because my mother herself already did that earlier in the afternoon and then had things to do so she went home, she asked me to do it on my way home since my sister doesn't live too far away from our place. My mother also asked my little sister to get in touch with our big sister and her friends so even her friends were getting worried over nothing. So yeah, my mother was proactive, but not in a good way at all.

I had no idea my mother was calling everyone that often and she thinks I'm an asocial weirdo for telling her off when she calls me often while I'm with friends outside but I thought she was only like that with me for a bunch of other reasons. I knew my little sister was also often called but she likes it because she's way too obsessed with my mom and the only reason why she lives by herself is because she was gonna live with her ex-fiance who dumped her the day when they were gonna move their stuff in the apartment. So I thought only my little sister was being weird here.

btw I don't care if my big sister told me to fuck off on fb/messenger because I would have reacted the same way, it's just to show you how exaggerated my mother's reaction was compared to my sister seeing she got like 20 missed call from everyone.

No. 1102341

>>1102300
The point is that you continuing to have episodes is partly your own fault for not just blocking his ass

No. 1102351

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Had the fucking scariest, most intense dream pls listen. I know this sounds disorganized/repetitive and shit grammar but I just gotta let it out.

So I'm walking past the living room and my family is there too, and there's some emergency alert system on tv warning about how there will be something crashing in everyone's ceiling, a minute later my brother notices something crumbling from the ceiling, it's about to collapse so we all panic and run to the bottom of the basement (I almost didn't make it, almost slipped out of panic but I got there.) Everything is rumbling for several minutes and I shut my eyes as it's happening, I felt like I was actually about to die and felt a pair of hands trying to drag me to hell, (saw a small glimpse of some swirly green vortex thing too and the ground crackling) but somehow it didn't? It tried to pull me again but still didn't work. Also noticed my body temperature got extremely hot, felt like I was literally on fire. Eventually the rumbling stops, I open my eyes and me and my family survived but the entire house has turned into ashes, absolutely nothing left everything's destroyed into ashes. also my body was still extremely hot and the inside of my right ear was leaking blood. One of my brothers peaks out the basement window (for some reason the basement ceiling in still intact?) and there's this GIANT, like bigger than the worlds tallest building turtle walking outside, there's some jungle looking greenery/leaves around, the whole world in general has changed and the sky is an orange-like color with a mix of some other colors now. Then I woke up sweating and still super warm just like in the dream…

Anyway even though it's a dream and I didn't truly die I'm still scared as shit and can't go back to sleep and am crying a little. Tbh I have this feeling in me, like there's something I can physically sense I don't know how to describe it, that I really did die/am dead. I'm usually not into weird woowoo stuff but I think I really, truly did almost go to hell for a moment I can still feel it. Something is just off. I genuinely can't believe I'm even awake now, nothing actually feels "real." And I think something like my dream might happen in the future I'm sure of it. But I kind of suspect the dream might've been the actual real world and this one isn't but I'm scared to go back. I'm too scared to do anything at all now.

No. 1102362

I wish making online friends was easier. I get way too nervous, I don't know how people do it. Do I have to join discords until I find one that clicks? Do I have to make a social media account?

No. 1102419

Wrote all my schizo ramblings into my journal. Its so sad rereading it, not because i’m in a sound mind later and feel different from said ramblings no (i never am) but because i feel the exact same way every day. It’s sad that i have to write my thoughts like this; it’s sad that i’m not at peace with myself. I hate myself so damn much

No. 1102434

>>1102161
My stomach also does that when I have an important test. I think that's just a body reacting to stress thing. Good luck on that test.

No. 1102441

>>1102419
Putting your thoughts into words can be helpful with sorting things out and eventually becoming more in tune with yourself, maybe it can work like this for you too nonna

No. 1102445

My mom will cook with loads of oil and then let the dog lick the plate when shes done eating. Its fucking disgusting and also just cruel to feed your dog vegetable oil. She will feed him table scraps of food filled with spices and msg and saturated fat. Pieces of bbq chips, bread, pita chips, ice cream, gummy bears etc. The regular dog food she feeds him is varying brands of dollar store wet food. The dog is obviously fat, contantly scratching, smells horrible and passes disgusting smellinh gas, and cant form a normal stool. My mom always says "food is love" but its just comedic considering shes killing her dog with her own shittu diet. There was a few weeks where I was taking care of the dog and he lost weight and his coat started shining and he almost immediately stopped being lethargic. He also never begged at the table for scraps since I never did that. My mom kept joking that I put him through "bootcamp" even though everything I did was basic dog care. Just running him and feeding him dog food, no ice cream or oil. As soon as he was back with her he gained the weight back and become an itchy mess again and my mom keeps joking that she needs me to come do" bootcamp" again. Once again, as if Im doing anything special. I feel so bad for the miserable dog, in a constant state of begging for junk food and scratching and being constipated. Depressing.

No. 1102459

motherfucker never emailed me back I knew it was a lower chance but I'm still mad about it

No. 1102460

I will kill Simon Lieve.

No. 1102469

>>1100925
> I had the most luck making meaningful relationships on Bumble - I made a few friends that I still interact with today
Dude please tell me the fucking secret, everyone I try to be friends with on Bumble just falls off the face of the earth. It's like I send the ball into their court and they just keep it there!

No. 1102471

>>1102445
I feel so bad for the dog. I wish you could kidnap him and put him in a better home.

No. 1102478

>>1101080
Do you have ADHD? 'Cause as someone with regular old ADD, I'm inclined to agree with him. Shit like Vyvanse and Adderall work differently on people who have ADD compared to those who don't. I hate to get all "REEEE neurotypicals" on you but our brains are wired differently. You can choose to take it, but we NEED it. Want more energy? Lose weight. Pack snacks like energy bars and such. Pack a thermos of coffee. Can't focus at work? Then go see a neurologist and find out if it's undiagnosed ADD. But DO NOT just assume your boyfriend's being controlling because you want a quick fix.

No. 1102480

>>1102445
So next time that happens, take the plate out of her hand and tell her to knock that shit off.

No. 1102485

>>1102478
Imagine gatekeeping your crazy pills like this LMAO. No one cares about your special brain wiring.

No. 1102500

>>1101420
send her photos of the horrible working conditions or articles like in Bangladesh of all the people who've died in factories every time she goes too far.

No. 1102524

I really hate that when someone complains about them not making enough money to survive, especially women who work pink collar jobs, some asshole is always like "well you should've chosen to work in [insert male dominated field here] instead of wasting your money on a degree in feminist basket weaving" or "that job is shit just switch to [insert job here]". And some people seem to think that upward mobility is possible for everyone, which simply isn't true. Everyone can't be entrepreneurs, CEOs, tech giants or big influencers. If there's no one to do the jobs that need to be done, like teaching or nursing, how do they think society will continue to function? And there's not a class of subhumans who are there to do the work no one else wants to do, they're ppl too. I'm not saying everyone should be paid big bucks for all jobs but a livable wage shouldn't be too much to ask for without some dick making you feel like shit for actually contributing to society and still not being able to afford basic needs.

No. 1102534

My toes get so cold that I can’t sleep, even when it’s warm or hot. Sometimes my toes are so cold that it spreads up my legs and into my core, so I feel like no matter how hot my skin is I’m made of ice on the inside. The best I can do is use a heated blanket and usually that warms them but sometimes I still feel like a void of freezing wind.

No. 1102545

>>1102534
i struggle with this too, so i sleep with a hot water bottle at my feet most of the year, except when it's warm enough in summer. having cold feet is just a nightmare.

No. 1102546

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I really hate living with my dad but I can't afford to move out and I don't know how long it'll take until I can get my own place. Living with him depresses me. I feel like I won't be able to be truly happy until I move. I just want to cry at how much I hate my situation right now but I'm not alone so I can't. He never ever cleans. He never does anything but work occasionally and just sit on his ass on his iPad and shit up the house with his boxes upon boxes of records. I hate going downstairs because he's almost always there which makes me slightly hate cooking. There's not even a dining table anymore because he places his boxes on it and I can't exactly get rid of them since they're not mine and ultimately it's his house. I don't want to have to be a maid 24/7, it's miserable.

Why can't he just clean up his own messes, why can't he just throw things out when they need to be thrown out? There's literally hundreds of empty cereal boxes in the kitchen. Why?? Why do I have to clean up after a grown man's mess? I never asked for this. Why did I have to be born to him? Why did I have to be born in this country? I'm so lonely and sad and I have no idea what to do because to move I need money but I've been applying to jobs and not getting any because I live in a very small area. And even if I get money will I be able to move? I hate living like this. At the very least I wish I had a clean house. I hate existing with him. The more I think about it I just feel suicidal. It feels like I'll always be trapped here and I can't see an end in sight. What's the purpose of my existence? To stay cooped up in this miserable house with him forever? I wish I could pathetically beg for someone kind to save me and please take me away. It's the same misery everyday. What do I do? How do I escape? I feel like I'm being suffocated everyday.
My brother and I share a switch and I wish he would get off it soon so I could just escape into some happy video game instead of being alone with just my thoughts and thinking of how miserable I am because of my environment and how I cannot change it. I want to beg and plead at some deity or god to please just save me from where I am. But of course I won't be saved. I just have to get a job and save up money and move somewhere right? I wonder how long that'll take… hhaa if it's too many years please just kindly kill me now

No. 1102548

>>1102524
I agree. For lack of better wording, I just hate how ignorant privileged people are. I guarantee most of the people who say shit like that are either: born into a rich family, a boomer who doesn't realise how easier it was back then, has connections, or simply just lucky. Everyone less fortunate than them is just "lazy", they need to think this way for their superiority complex and egos to be soothed.

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>>1102546
>hundreds of empty cereal boxes
>boxes everywhere
I hope you can get out soon

No. 1102553

>>1102534
Me too, socks always in bed except in summer when my room is really hot. Sometimes though when I’m drifting off to sleep my toes will suddenly start flooding with heat by themselves and it feels so good. I’ve always assumed it’s an anxiety side effect mixed with the heat distribution of being a woman.

No. 1102555

>>1102546
This is depression or hoarding or some combination of the two. You won’t be able to fix him until he decides he wants it to be fixed. Hope you get out of there soon!

No. 1102560

>>1102534
Get a down duvet and some thick socks. Works for me

No. 1102565

>>1102546
>Why did I have to be born in this country?
What country do you live in? Depending on where, you could also try enrolling in university. I know it’s not a perfect solution, but it’s what I did to get away and beats working retail hell for years.

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The sound of lawn mowing in the distance is so bitter sweet. It reminds me of how spring is here again, but how I'll never again be a happy ignorant child just wasting my blissful days away on animal crossing with my only friends.
I'll never again play silly games with them whilst staying up late at night and hiding under the covers and pretending to be asleep when parents walk in. I'll never again suggest we go on an 'adventure' with me as the 'protector', that adventure being just walking around the neighbourhood, but back then that felt like the entire world.
It's been many many years since I spent everyday with them. It's strange. I don't miss being in school, I don't miss the person I was back then, I don't even really miss being a kid, but I miss her. I miss her so badly. I miss my very few personal friends, but now that we're 'grown up' we naturally split paths and grew into very different people. I wish I had a close friendship group who cared for me and each other as much as I do them. We'd play games together and indulge in each other's interests and help each other. I just wish she was there again and wanted to be.

No. 1102567

I googled "terf jewelry" just out of curiousity to see what would come up, first result
>Trans jewelry
sigh

No. 1102568

I have zero sympathy for my male friends and their stupid ass "relationship problems" while I'm going through way worse shit with stress and my abusive family. One of my friends said that he cried because he got promoted at work while his brother didn't and I stopped talking with him after that. He also wanted to date me. Can't take this shit from men anymore. They only just worry about "relationships" and nothing else in life. They're spoiled and don't do shit or don't aim to do shit.

No. 1102569

>>1102567
Idk what you were expecting, radfems wouldn’t list their stuff as terf kek

No. 1102570

got a rejection letter today from the only ivy league that considered me. i feel like shit because i was hoping to be the first person in my family to be able to be accepted into that kind of school. i’m surrounded by other families with kids went to cornell and mit so i feel inferior in comparison. i know nobody really cares that much about what school you went to once you have a career but being rejected is still a shitty feeling. i worked hard preparing my applications and for my interviews.

No. 1102572

>>1102566
I felt this in my heart, and now I feel like crying. Thank you for sharing. I wish I was your friend irl.

No. 1102574

>>1102567
Make your own terf jewelry nona. Actually, if I sold terf jewelry, would that be risky or would it be cool?

No. 1102577

>>1102570
I'm sorry nonna. I hope you feel better soon. I'm sure you're smart and resourceful.

No. 1102578

>>1102574
You would need a PO Box at the very least

No. 1102580

>>1102574
I'd buy it if you sold something subtle like a 2X charm

No. 1102585

>>1102570
I'm so sorry anon. I can relate to that feeling of inadequacy. But who knows? Maybe those fancy college kids might someday work under you. Chin up nonnie.

No. 1102586

>>1102577
>>1102585
thanks. i’m trying to feel better by thinking about how much money i’ll be saving for not attending. probably a massive cope but paying an extra $40k to be associated with a fancy school probably isn’t worth it..

No. 1102590

>>1102572
We can cry together nonnie. I wish I was your friend irl too, that was very sweet of you to say

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>>1102567
This is what popped up for me, kinda fucked up

No. 1102595

>>1102591
Ironic since we'll outlive them all tbh

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>>1102566
I miss my childhood best friend soo much, I don't think I could ever have a friendship as pure and sweet like that again.

I'd probably go over to her house to sleep every 2 weeks. We stayed up late and played video games, we always slept in her living room. There was a pond down her street, we would try (and fail sometimes) to catch turtles and bring spoiled bread to feed the goats through the fence across it. That's probably why I get happy to see goats to this day. Sometimes we'd get candy and we'd sit in her backyard on a blanket and watch the sky. I remember one time specifically we sat in the attic and ate raw ramen noodles before I knew how to cook them. I lost contact with her when she moved away.

I just miss the days you could have innocent fun with someone, no drugs or alcohol, just being your weird self and having no worries with someone else. Sorry for blog post but you reminded me of those times

No. 1102600

I hate my cringe weeb phase i had in my late teens i can’t watch or listen to any japanese without getting triggered. Literally feels like ptsd, i start breathing hard and close my eyes shut whenever i hear specific phrases or songs. One of the huge ones that trigger me is “okay~” with a stress on the “k” always gives me nausea kek

No. 1102610

>>1102600
kek nonny i heard that ok-keh in my head while reading this.

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>>1102610
Yes that one KEK i wish i continued suppressing the retardation and never said it out loud then i would enjoy it in peace right now without ptsd flashbacks

No. 1102633

you harassed me for so long yet you are convinced that I'm still in the wrong go hop on some scrote dick off tinder, dress in little's girls clothing, support mysoginistic industries or give nudes to 4chan scrotes because deep inside you're a pick me that wants scrote attention. Yess queen smash the patriarchy, welcome to cool girls club

No. 1102634

>>1102633
sorry I mean you're a lesbian TERF queen that is not mysoginistic like the libfems that's why you buy kpoop merch and harass sex trafficking victims because they wanted it

No. 1102635

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No. 1102638

>>1102633
stop projecting romanichan

No. 1102647

>>1102600
that's sad, don't hate your silly teen self so much. you were a kid having fun! do you have other bad memories or deeper shame to work through?

No. 1102664

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This going to be a weird rent but I HATE co-workers who say "Hello" the one day and then ignore you the other. I have co-workers who I never greet because they say never something back so why bother, others I greet all the time because I know I will get a "Hello" back and then the type of people who are all nice and and the then BOOM ignoring you and then giving you weird looks because the decided to to be nice again and find it rude when you stopped greeting them, fuck them.

No. 1102671

>>1102647
>do you have deeper shame/bad memories
Absolutely anon

No. 1102673

>>1102633
>>1102634
who are you talking about tho?

No. 1102682

>>1102664
Agreed

No. 1102686

I don’t know how to deal with being severely mentally ill to the point where I’m basically disabled. I’m self aware enough to know the people in my life don’t want to be around me but not aware enough to change my behavior. If I was them I wouldn’t want to be around me either. I mess up cleaning, cooking, working and pretty much everything I’m like a vegetable that makes everyone’s life worst and they really get mad at me when I’m severely suicidal. What can I give to this world I’ve done nothing but bring pain and misery I’m a waste of money and time

No. 1102688

Why does every nerdy woman in my state have to be a fucking themby or he/they? I feel like they all started trooning out when I was in the middle of high school. Nearly every single nerdy gal pal I had in high school trooned out. It's so frustrating. I want to talk to women who are stupid nerds like I am but they're all some flavor of genderspecial and tranny rights occupy like 60% of their total brain space. All of a sudden I can't talk about how shitty men are because whoops the girl I'm talking to is a transmasc bisexual bottom and it makes her dysphoric to hear people talk about how awful men are and #notallmen. I wish it wasn't like this.

No. 1102695

>>1102688
Theyre out there nonna this website is proof of that. You shouldn’t dismiss women who look like they’re normies either, sometimes theyre just as into the things you are but grew up and learned to mask the unconventional side to it

No. 1102710

>>1102688
>>1102695
my personal conundrum. outwardly nerdy women are weirdo boundary crossing red flags, and those who can mask that side and pass as normie are usually too cowardly to reveal their powerlevel and feel self conscious when you're not so concerned with fitting in. Eventually distance themselves for more normie women friends.

No. 1102716

I won't be home for another two hours and I forgot to bring an extra pad to change. Fuck. I hope I'm not bleeding through my clothes right now.

No. 1102720

im about to have an interview for a promotion at my current place of work. in like 20 minutes i have to go inside and get it started. im freaking out nervous sweating all over myself even though i know im qualified, wanted, and a shoe in. the interview is basically just a formality. i cannot stop freaking out though, im such a nervous person by nature this is sending me through the roof. wish me luck nonnas i hope i got this!!!

No. 1102722

>>1102720
good luck! sounds like it'll happen for you, so no worries

No. 1102726

I'm so sad and I don't have anyone to talk to. I feel left out and misunderstood and I don't know what to do with these feelings, so I keep venting on public social media, because I want someone to care. Which in turn makes me even sadder, because of course no one does and it makes me look pathetic to everyone else. These constant mood swings probably make me look like an idiot, I feel like I'm ruining all my future chances by acting like this. But I don't feel good, I don't want to act like I do and I don't want to pretend that the negative comments I get don't bother me. I don't want to be me anymore

No. 1102728

I got a bunch of insect bites recently that gave me a horrible reaction and found out they're ladybug bites. My condo is infested with them now and I am dying. I already hate beetles but I am actually allergic to these. I'm cleaning like crazy but they keep appearing. I already saw like 15 of them.

No. 1102731

O smoked cheese wedge, how I weep for thee.
I could have feasted on your divine aroma for days to come, but my dumbass left you out of the fridge

No. 1102737

>>1102710
They’re not cowards anon, they’re trying to get by and go through the day give them a break at least they chose the conventional grounded in reality way instead of frying their brain and trooning out kek

No. 1102741

>be me
>8, at a park with dad, sister and his friend+hiskid
>have to use washroom
>male bathroom has a note on it saying its closed
>coolbcgirl.jpg
>dad decides to pick up food
>tell dads friend I have to go to washroom
>he says he'll come with because he knows the bathroom is mixed (because note)
>he asks if anyone is in there
>sees all stalls open except handicap but no feet/seems empty
>no response
>I go inside and two older boys come out of the handicap stall (13&15) and start asking/whispering me things
>'hi anon, what are you doing? Are you alone?'
>I scream
>he runs inside and the two boys get scared and try to run out
>he grabs them and asks them what the fuck they were doing
>they claim they were peeing but didnt realizd he already checked
>he asks them again
>they get mad and claim peeing because they're playing at the park
>he tells them they're boys and can pee outside, he already checked the stalls and can see through their bullshit
>drags them outside and starts asking if they're anyone's kids
>no parents respond
>"these fuckers were hiding in the handicap stall when I called out to see if anyone was in the womans washroom so my (friends) 8 year old could pee, again are these anyones fucking kids?!"
>parents terrified
>"yeah you fucking creeps, everyone make sure to remember their faces because these fucks said they were playing here with their parents"
>13&15 look now apathetic and mad
>pushes them to side
>"you have to use the washroom now you sick fucks? no little girls are in there now so USE IT"
>they run away faster than lightning
>parents slowly return back to playing
>he guards door as I pee

Never realized how close I was to being molested by two sex offenders in the making, I was so shocked at the time and didn't realize how creepy it was. What a memory.
Also tg for my dads friend, they're both in construction and never afraid to stand up for what they believe in. Bless

No. 1102755

>>1102726
I'll talk to you nona. I can set up a burner email and you can email me if you'd like.

No. 1102756

>>1102741
Damn, finally a scrote I can get behind.

No. 1102788

>>1102741
I'm very glad that you had him there to protect you

No. 1102789

Theyre slipping through my fingers. Oh well, everyone eventually gets bored, No one sticks around long enough to wait for me to get out of my shell

No. 1102807

>>1102741
Teenage boys are a fucking abomination, thank god you were with a reliable adult back then.

No. 1102814

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I really hate what a fucking circus it is for that murdered women in the background of Nikocado's video.
Poor woman is now associated with this garbage moid and the mutants who will joke about it for weeks, and of course Nik will profit off the news.If it is for sure real I hope he offers her family money or some shit.

No. 1102826

>>1102755
Thank you so much for the kind offer! It made me tear up all over again and it really means a lot to me, but I wouldn't want to waste your time with my dumb issues. I'll get over it eventually, thank you again, I hope you have a better day than me haha

No. 1102828

>>1102814
Wait WHAT?

No. 1102833


No. 1102835

>>1102814
Kek anon you really believe what he says? Of course there wasn’t a stabbing, he just wants to generate clicks for himself and capitalized on loud neighbors to do it.

No. 1102846

>>1102814
Um WHAT?

No. 1102848

>>1102846
in one of his mukbangs his neighbors started making a lot of noise and allegedly his neighbor got stabbed while he was making a video eating like a pig.

No. 1102851

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interesting that they never apply this standard to jkr.

No. 1102854

>>1102835
I don't believe anything on the internet but the screams are definitely strange

No. 1102860

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Some fat scrote on my Fb shared this. And this is why I hate weebs and edgelords. They think they’re so 2deep4u because all their favorite media involves rape and violence against women.

No. 1102865

>>1102851
because she’s a woman and the principle of “separate art from the artist” only applies to misogynistic and abusive men obviously

No. 1102867

>>1102851
these same people also claim that thing about brains not being developed until 25 so they can excuse all their actions after they turn 18 because LITERAL CHILDREN.

No. 1102868

>>1102860
as a berserk fan i think men that are into berserk should be legally put down, men are so retarded at consuming media

No. 1102869

>>1102860
twitter being right for once.

No. 1102872

>>1102860
Berserk is for women, men shouldn't be reading it or allowed to even touch it

No. 1102874


No. 1102875

>>1102872
Based.

No. 1102877

>>1102860
This just shows that they clearly didn't read far, or much of what happened after the eclipse because the actual and only problematic thing is the implied pedophilia and how being around little girls "heals" you

No. 1102880

>>1102877
>This just shows that they clearly didn't read far
Well why should they keep reading a gore and rape fest manga?

No. 1102884

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Weird person called a proggy man a "girl" again, it pisses me off otherwise this person seems okay though, just a wayward troon girl but holy shit not every man with long hair who doesn't rape people and dresses cute is a girl he is a MAN he is a MAN he's a MAN

No. 1102885


No. 1102886

>>1102860
Berserk is great. Why didnt they go after GOT with the same energy when it actual has shit writing? At least Berserk has Guts and insanely beautiful artwork.

No. 1102887

>>1102872
Agree 100 percent.

No. 1102889

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>>1102874
come on now

No. 1102892

>>1102880
because it doesn't glorify it but shows that life isn't beautiful. The whole point of Griffith and the manga itself purposely ignoring all the blood and dead people they have sacrificed to get to the point when the Eclipse happens, just to show him the mirror and the truth of how terrible his actions are. He then chooses to become a monster and continue, and the manga isn't making excuses about it either. TBH Beserk should get an age rating of 21 or even over, as in order to actually understand it, and to understand what it means to struggle and keep going in the face of the most hopeless and being constantly faced with horrible consequences of your past actions, needs the reader to actually have life hit them before. If life didn't hit you yet, then no you will never understand it and never be able to derive hope from how Guts behaves.

No. 1102900

>>1102892
Blah blah blah
No one has to read that shit. I regret reading as far as I did. Nice art, but scrote content

No. 1102901

>>1102892
Also, the manga goes into how Griffith had to sell his own body to old men to get enough funding for his army. A lot of Griffith's backstory before the eclipse was really compelling writing.

No. 1102903

>A-ACKCHYUALLY THE RAPE MAKES SENSE CAUSE-
Here we fucking go…

No. 1102906

>>1102892
are a you a neckbeard male?

No. 1102908

>>1102900
at this point every time berserk gets brought up i want to close the site and not return for hours because hearing people who can’t consume media critically infight is so redundant you ask for an explanation and anon provides it and then go “i’m not reading that” ok don’t? I hope all of you who say berserk is misogynistic and such have never enjoyed a manga where a woman is killed or harmed in any way either, which I highly doubt.

No. 1102909

>>1102889
nta but Berserk is seinen, it's literally made for young adult males. Hot males in it means nothing, all moids are gay for the male form.

No. 1102911

>>1102909
So are women not allowed to enjoy seinen or shounen mangas then? Because from what i’ve seen on this site most of us have husbandos from “male” oriented media

No. 1102913

>>1102903
Which one? Because all three characters get raped at some point. Guts when he was a child and Griffith when he's forced to prostitute himself. At a later point someone gets raped by a demon horse also. Or do you only care about one of them?

No. 1102914

>>1102892
Sorry nona you've been got by the scrote rhetoric that attempts to justify enjoying misogynistic content. They don't care about muh deep content muh life not beautiful, they literally just want to see women get slashed and raped.

No. 1102915

>>1102909
It's definitely not for young people.

No. 1102916

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>>1102892
Um akschually, Griffith doesn't choose to be evil the Godhand manipulated him by forcing him to hallucinate his childhood and walk on the dead bodies of all those who have died so far, reflected as a bridge towards the castle that wasn't even close to reaching the front gates. They manipulated him into thinking that if he continued as he was, countless numbers of people would die and he still wouldn't get any closer. He was also desperate because he had just been tortured for a year straight, could no longer speak nor stand, and felt betrayed by Guts and the rest. This is why, in the CANON yet deleted chapter, he expresses his desire to have wings. He wants to fly over the dead bodies to the castle without having to cause more destruction. Unfortunately he sells his mind and soul to the Godhand. I like this interpretation better anyway because I like stories where a character has absolutely no autonomy over their own life and is manipulated and forced into a horrible destiny.

No. 1102917

>>1102915
It's published in a seinen magazine so yes it is. Young as in 18/20 and up.

No. 1102918

>>1102913
No one is raped by a horse? I think you might be thinking of when Casca gets raped but by Griffith/Femto or the scene where that girl was hallucinating shit but she’s saved by Guts. I haven’t read this manga in years sorry!

No. 1102919

>>1102918
Actually some girl is almost raped by the Rape Horse, nobody actually gets raped though she's saved just in time.

No. 1102920

>>1102916
imagine caring about his characterization/motives/action rather than just the fact that he’s sexy, nerds!!!i do like your view of it though nonny very nice

No. 1102921

>>1102908
Just because we don't like your moid-tier manga doesn't mean we aren't consuming media ~critically~
>>1102914
>Or do you only care about one of them?
Of course, only women matter, why i would give a flying fuck about some scrotes? kek

No. 1102922

>>1102921
sorry, mean to >>1102913

No. 1102923

>>1102911
>So are women not allowed to enjoy seinen or shounen mangas then?
I'm disproving >>1102872's claim that it is for women, it is not. It is literally MADE for men. It is not MADE for women. I'm saying nothing about being allowed to enjoy it or not. Your choice if you still want to enjoy something that's made for the male fantasy.

No. 1102924

>>1102920
Yes, thank you, also the fact that Griffith's life was planned thousands of years in advance and the whole theme of things happening because they were meant to, etc. Also that the God of their universe, the actual almighty God, was created from human desire and fear. Griffith is just a cog in the machine of humanity.

No. 1102925

Rape this, rape that, yuck. I wouldn't care if women weren't involved but of course they're cause is ""realistic""

No. 1102927

>>1102921
You don’t have to like it, but if your will keep saying it’s misogynistic or whatever because bad things happen to women in it then you need to have the same energy for 90% of mangas, books, movies, etc. kek

No. 1102928

>>1102923
it was a joke anon she doesn’t literally mean a manga made by a male was made with women in mind because obviously it wasn’t it’s more of “x is for girls only” as if we need to reclaim it or only women should be allowed to consume it

No. 1102929

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I hate these constant loose-loose situations so much. No matter what options I take, I will be equally fucked over. The only "win" I can hope for is to just forget about everything and all of them once it's over.

No. 1102931

>>1102925
seeing people die CONSTANTLY is normal and okay though, but sure this should be expected and the constant violence occurring never becomes sexual

No. 1102933

I really want to write a big essay about mommy issues in women and daddy issues in men. I actually think poor same-sex parental modelling is far more relevant to bad life choices than is talked about in The Discourse, especially when the opposite-sex parent is fully absent.

No. 1102934

unpopular opinion: i think griffith's ugly. he's a rapist anyway so he doesn't matter.

No. 1102936

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>>1102930
Honestly true, each kingdom also just seems so insular and there's like The Boss of the battlefield, there's always a group of knights and then the leader of them with a gimmick like the guy with a rhino helmet
>>1102934
Whaaaat

No. 1102937

>>1102933
Nonny do it I would love to read this! As someone raised by a single mom i think it would be very interesting.

No. 1102939

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>>1102934
I love Guts so much its unreal. I just want to make him smile.

No. 1102940

>>1102939
I love griffith he’s beautiful… i just wanted to see him brutally murdered but sadly we’ll never get it

No. 1102941

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>>1102939
what about him?
>>1102934
wrong and ugly

No. 1102942

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I will always be a Griffithfag.

No. 1102943

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My biggest issue that kept from getting into Berserk was the world building, call me autistic If you like but for me a big factor whether I read any fantasy or sci-fi set series is if the world is self-actualized and consistent
I get that its a character driven series so that's not the main focus but the story that features so much globetrotting, and yet we know very little of the world outside of whatever areas have direct importance to the protagonists. I'm not asking for excessively detailed accounts of the political situations of kingdoms and full lists of kings, but the little stuff like what's the culture of the native citizens in the empire like? How is life in literally any area outside of Falconia?

No. 1102945

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>>1102942
inshallah sister

No. 1102946

>>1102936
>>1102942
idk it just looks like he has downs syndrome in these pics. almost reminds me of null

No. 1102947

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No. 1102949

>>1102941
He deserved so much better, it pains me. He literally did nothing wrong and everything right.

No. 1102950

>anons unironically defending shitty mangas featuring women getting raped AND also simping for rapists just because they're hot!1!
Godless

No. 1102953

>>1102934
Same. Not hot

No. 1102955

>>1102950
FUCK GRIFFITH SIMPS

No. 1102956

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>>1102950
Ironic that you say godless, for in Berserk the world is filled with gods but is at the same time godless. The gods are demons and the one true god is the amalgamation of humanity's fears. Also just one woman gets raped.

No. 1102957

>>1102950
it’s literally cartoons not that deep
>>1102949
I was so sad when he died it hurt me so much because I just wanted to see him happy and live his dream, why is god so cruel. WHYYYYY!!!

No. 1102958

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I’m a dual burger citizen and I’m going through the trouble of trying to obtain a passport from my nonburger country and I genuinely feel like I’m about to get scammed. At a certain age to retain this secondary citizenship the country wants me to renounce my burger citizenship but the lady as the embassy is telling me that it’s purely ceremonially and that I wouldn’t actually lose my burger citizenship unless I file with the burgergov themselves but I’m so paranoid I’ll get deported or something crazy. There’s no reason the embassy worker would lie to me but something about renouncing my citizenship and it being ceremonially sounds so fake. She said I’d have to turn in my burger passport but it’d be fine because I can just go and get another one.

No. 1102961

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>>1102955
>>1102950
>>1102946
Poor taste spotted, sad!

No. 1102962

>>1102957
>not that deep
You better not shit on other anons for having "problematic" husbandos ever again, yours is truly shitty and gross

No. 1102963

>>1102958
nonny wtf? i’m a dual citizen and when i renewed my nonburger passport they did not ask that of me at all that is shady and weird

No. 1102964

>>1102957
>it’s literally cartoons not that deep
Tell that to the spergy neckbeard berserkfags itt

No. 1102966

>>1102961
you have to be trolling or you're talking to a mirror. Fuck off. He deserved less.

No. 1102968

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>>1102964
>toot toot
>pffffbb

No. 1102969

>>1102962
i’ve never shat anyone for having “problematic” husbandos? it’s only an issue if anons were thirsting after real life rapists and murderers, most people here like villains who’ve murdered and done awful things >>1102964
that’s just autism

No. 1102972

>>1102958
What country is this? Just say you don't have time for this bs and DONT give your passport away. And if they force you then go to the US embassy and report it as lost or stolen.

No. 1102973

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No. 1102974

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>>1102966
cannot believe griffith gets some of you this pressed kek, did a griffithfag murder your family?

No. 1102975

>griffithfags not giving two shits about a scrote raping a woman because said rapist is a hot bishie
God please end my suffering

No. 1102980

>>1102975
You're thinking of Femto, who is the ascended Griffith and no longer shares the same consciousness. Griffith was just the catalyst, his life was meticulously pathed out to create the perfect god to usher in a new age.

No. 1102983

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>>1102975
Unironically yes.

No. 1102984

>>1102961
kek he should at least get rid of the shitty bangs and move his eyes closer together

No. 1102985

>>1102980
Biggest cope I've ever seen. No wonder you need non-canon chapters to excuse it.

No. 1102986

>>1102980
>A-ACKCHYUALLY IT WAS FEMDOM-FEMTO-WHATEVER! NOT GRIFFITH!
lmao

No. 1102987

>>1102737
The most popular girl in my school was a turbostacy whose family held WoW LAN parties, and she was very open about spending summer vacations playing WoW, so it's not really a matter of normies hate nerds or nerdy interests. So nerds who force the normie shit to "get through the day" are cowardly to me.

No. 1102990

why the fuck does it hurt so much. my friend is fucking with her boyfriend rn and my soon to be ex boyfriend is falling asleep happily with another girl, all in the same room and i'm alone here just by the door. today i had a trauma response when he got agitated and waved his hands i just covered and then tears started to flow. what the fuck? "i didn't hit anyone before you" wtf did i do wrong? you can be as good as you can, but you spend too much time with him and the sparks in his eyes die, he starts freaking out and throw fits etc, you can be as much of a cringey cunt as you want but as long as you're new, he will lick your feet with the happiest face that i will newer get to see in front of me ever again. this isn't fair. i just want to be loved like before

No. 1102992

>>1102987
samefag but obv i'm not talking about autists or whoever who have actual differences and need to mask.

No. 1102996

>>1102990
abusers do as abuser does. sorry anon.

No. 1102998

I fucking hate euphoria and I hate seeing the actors get praised everywhere, I don’t want to see this porno high school show in any of the media I’m interested in. Like wow a girl has big boobs and can cry in a tv show let’s put her in every fucking new movie because I’m a Twitter zoomer and have been brainwashed into idolizing mental illness, drug abuse, and being a slut. I really tried watching and it was the most pretentious embarrassing thing I really don’t get it

No. 1103005

>>1102972
>>1102963
It’s an EU country and it has Japan tier retarded rules when it comes to dual citizenship. They passed an amendment to their citizenship laws that made it so yes technically you can be a dual citizen (via having a parent who is a citizen) but only up until you’re in your 20s then you need to pledge your allegiance to their country and renounce your other citizenship, or permanently lose your citizenship to said country altogether.

No. 1103006

>>1103005
What the fuck? That’s so retarded I don’t understand, so basically you have to lose your US citizenship if you want to renew your passport? Does the passport even grant better access than the US one? If not I say it’s not worth it

No. 1103011

>>1102933
Whew yes suffering from severe crippling mommy issues I literally opened this thread to vent about it

No. 1103033

>tries to watch something entertaining and enriching to soften my mood
>end up crying
>turn it off
>walk out to park and write garbage nobody will ever read in journal
>do daily evening mundanities
>decide to start watching thing again
>end up crying again after I finish it
>ask how my life could get like this
>cry so hard entire body is shaking
>"I should watch something else, it'll make me feel better"
>passes out instead

a day in the life of me falling farther and farther down the doomer tube, I think

No. 1290780

>>1094760
I be looking up suicide methods but I’m too pussy to actually try it
I’m just 18 and I know my life will get worse from now on (more responsibilities)
I need to get this over with but idk how I’ll do it



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