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No. 948357
Previous thread:
>>>/ot/948334Let’s be eVENTful
No. 948427>>948437
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FUCK people who ghost
FUCK people who never engage
FUCK people who don't care about your feelings while you care about theirs
FUCK fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.
FUCK You, I hope you'll read this and I hope your life keeps falling apart.
No. 948447
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>>948437WHAT ARE YOU GONNA DO FOR BRUNCH NOW???
No. 948449>>948454
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>>948437WATER BATH THAT SHIT,
Take a second larger pan, add water and place quiche pan in. Then cover with foil and let the quiche soften
No. 948462>>948465
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I'm so fucking tired of people making 0 effort in conversations and me having to carry them. It's one thing not to be interested but just expecting someone to interview you is just pathetic, you're not that interesting.
I started to just ghost if after 3 questions they don't ask anything back. Most conversations so far have been nothing but covering the basic work, education, age and hobby stuff. I have 5 hobbies and yet no one asks anything about them, amazing. Maybe I'm just a turbo autistic retard who learned to make conversation material out of everything due to anxiety. Either way it's fucking annoying.
No. 948469>>948479>>948481>>948482
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hung out with a friend the other day and she was so unlikable that it shocked me and i keep thinking about that lunch date even a full week later. we met up in front of the dining hall but the line was so long that we decided to eat elsewhere. the dish of the day was a popular meat dish in our country and on the way out she said something like "everyone is so stupid, they don't even realize how many cows have to die for their shitty lunch today." she said i could decide where to eat, so i picked a coffee shop that had some vegan options. she got a vegan sandwich, then complained the whole time that it's so expensive (~6 usd) and that she could make this at home for half the price and that she never eats bread and it's totally useless to buy bread at a coffee shop. i told her that my drink is expensive too and i could make a whole pitcher of it at home, but when you go out, you also pay for the experience or some shit, and then i said something corny like "i keep telling myself that i'm not paying for the food but for spending time with a dear friend." she seemed to like that but brought up the bread thing one more time later. she then checked the menu and saw that the store was using organic milk, to which she commented "they're so fucking stupid, as if that means anything" in that really angry/hateful tone of voice. stuff like that kept happening. constant mentions of how "fucking stupid" people are for eating animals/animal products.
to top it off, i mentioned another friend of mine and added "the one that's also vegan" to jog her memory and she actually said she thinks higher of that friend now because she's vegan. now i can't stop thinking about how low she must think of me just because i eat animal products. the entire meeting she was just so unpleasant and negative and now i'm wondering if it's worth staying friends with her. i don't care that she's vegan, i don't care that anyone's vegan, but the absolute hatefulness she displayed is so unattractive and really ruined the afternoon for me.
No. 948481
>>948469More often than not, I deal with elitist vegans too. It’s a superiority complex for sure.
Recently one of my friends vegan shamed me for eating some protein when we were traveling. I
just opened up to her privately about seeking treatment for my ED I hid for years, and she was shaming me about eating some fucking chicken with no remorse.
She makes it impossible to have a meal with. She’s acting like she didn’t eat 50 nuggets in a sitting a few weeks ago. Pepperidge Farm Remembers
No. 948485>>948489
>>948480Go in at 7, and before you clock out speak to your manager privately and be stern about the face you need to know your schedule in advance, and follow up with “when does the official training start”?
If they can’t provide a polite and clear response do not go back.
Plenty of jobs out there with better pay and clear leadership/ orientations. Since you worked for such little time there is no need to put it on your resume.
No. 948488
>>948480Don't you have a boss or some kind of supervisor you could call or text and ask? There is probably some kind of master schedule that goes at least a week in advance, otherwise how is anyone supposed to plan to get there at the right time. I would guess they just forgot to tell you where to find the schedule.
Also your coworker may have just been late lol, I used to work in a cafe where I had a key to open the place at 6am and then another employee would come in at 7am or 10am depending on the day. One time I overslept and the 7am person got there and was locked out until they called the owner who called me like "hey are you alive? get tf there and open" lol. Luckily I live close but I've been your coworker I guess kek.
No. 948489>>948491>>948498
>>948483>>948485i do have a manager, but he doesn’t work at the same location as me, i have sent him a few messages asking for a schedule and he told me i will get it once i get my work phone, which will be in a couple weeks. there’s not even a place for me to clock in. my manager told me to ask my “coworkers” but i only have one and she doesn’t speak to me.
i’ve never had a job so unorganized, there’s no schedule posted anywhere and my coworker hasn’t made any attempt to show me what i’m supposed to do, i just follow her around all day trying my best to do our work and follow what she does.
i’m being taken advantage of tbh, since i’m an immigrant and don’t speak the same language as the rest of the people at this company. i’ve been trying my best to communicate with my coworker, using google translate and such. i work really hard and i want to keep this job, but it sucks that they treat me like shit. i probably won’t stick with this job for too long, even though i wanted to!
No. 948491>>948512
>>948489Oh no no no no this sounds like a train wreck
nonnie, please don’t go back. There are other jobs! I promise, ones that can be kind to your needs too. Don’t let them take advantage of you!
No. 948506>>948507
I went out with friends tonight and had such a good time except for one enby who came. My friends were inviting their friends not everyone was familiar with, but we were all cool with it because we're all cool people and thought "if you get along with X, then we'll probably get along too!" I don't give much thought to trans people, I have friends who are trans/enbies and we are good friends but I don't speak gender shit with them precisely because of what happened tonight.
This enby was sorta quiet, mostly stuck to my friend who invited her and didn't interact too much with everyone else but I didn't give it much thought because she was just introduced to like 10 new people she's never met before- like ok cool, you're probably uncomfortable and it's a lot to take in, whatever, doesn't really bother me. At one point I was talking to another friend and she was telling me old drama that happened between her and a person we both no longer speak to. This person is a scumbag of a person. In recent years she's kept changing her name to stupid ass shit. When I first met this person, the name I knew them by and most commonly call them by isn't even their real name, it's the name of some stupid ass fucking anime character, and I didn't know her real name for years. She decided maybe two years ago that now she's also trans, but she's as much trans as Chris chan is trans. She's an attention whoring cunt using it as a shield and me and my friends know it. So, my friend is telling me a story about her and we keep referring to her as 'she/her' and calling her the original name I know her by (which, again, is not even her real name to begin with) like we always do. The enby my friend invited decides they want to leave, but before they leave, decided to give ALL OF US a lecture about enby rights and respect and "you shouldn't deadname them, you should still respect their name and pronouns even if they're a terrible person and hurt you" etc etc. The whole tirade. Bitch I came out here for a good time, not whatever the fuck this is.
I'm so tired of this garbage. Trans people? Yeah, whatever, do whatever the fuck you want I don't care. This nonbinary and genderfluid shit? Is especially grating and stupid. Say you want to be special and create problems for yourself with no commitment without saying you want to be special and create problems for yourself with no commitment. Yeah, gender is a spectrum but just because you don't feel comfortable in society's enforced gender roles doesn't mean normal people 100% do either! Being so concerned about gender roles and feeling like you fit into neither of them 100% is such a first world problem that it's fucking stupid. This is the hill you want to die on? I have to give this cunt the benefit of the doubt and ~*~*respect~*~* her names/pronouns for the rights of all genderspecials? Sorry but I do not really respect any of you, I just keep quiet about it to avoid hearing this exact type of stupid lecture. It was so fucking cringey to sit through. We still had a good time after they left but this left such an insanely sour taste in my mouth.
TL;DR got lectured by some bitch I don't even know about deadnaming and not using the correct pronouns for some transtrender I know and it ruined the good vibes of me and my friend's get together
No. 948556
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>hum under nose nad sing a bit while studying
>roommate, who doesn't bother cleaning, bangs on the wall
i hope you enjoy vocaloids, shitty kpop and 00's pop music bitch, cause now im taking off headphones and turning the volume up
No. 948557>>948581>>948603>>948671
>>948553Your Twitter hugbox that hates lolis/shotas is about the same size as the degenerate people who have drawn comissions and reblog accounts of the stuff on Twitter too. I'm not into loli, but some shota stuff is appealing just because of the whole anime trope it comes with of inexperienced curiosity, but that doesn't mean I read eromanga about it. There's straight anime that follow those tropes too, especially in otome. There's always that one smaller than the rest guy, but it's drawn more child-like as well. The same with a lot of loli characters, but that doesn't mean people actually want to go out and harm children. I understand it from a fictional state.
I do, however, hate 3D modelers who base their child models off of real world children. That's incredibly fucked up and I feel the same about when they use the child voice actors for sound clips. You are literally normalizing the depictions of real world pedophilia at that point even if it is 3D. The whole point of the 3D is to look as real as possible. That's when I draw the fucking line and if you get off to that, that really is a massive red flag that you need to seek help and you should never take care of children or have children.
No. 948567>>948602
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Aaand once again my mother called me fat. I lift weights and was on a bulk until recently, of course I gained some fat but christ the upper part of my abs is still somewhat visible, I'm not even chubby. I'm so fucking tired of her comments about how I look while the cunt looks and is shaped like a potato and hasn't exercised since high school. Just.shut.up.
No. 948574>>948671
>>948553Calm down
nonnie, normal people think loli is disgusting. The link posted in that thread is to Bounding into Comics, which is full of scrotes that hate anything sjw or woke so of course they defend pedoshit too.
Also loli, wether 2d or 3d, is disgusting but stop conflating it with CP which has actual fucking
victims.
No. 948602>>948605>>948681
>>948567My mom did the same thing with me. All my childhood I thought I was fat and then I was surprised to look at my high school photos to see that I was one of the skinniest people in the class, like borderline anorexic. Since I was 10 I remember being on a diet, it's sickening that as a kid I felt guilty for eating an ice cream. I stopped inviting friends over because she would prepare the birthday party and every friend would get a piece of cake except for me and she would always say things like, "when you're as thin as your friends, you can get your cake."
I just hope her words don't get to you because I know that in my case they completely destroyed my self-esteem and I'm trying to rebuild it but I won't be able to until I move out. But I've spoken to several girls and I was sad to learn that a lot of mothers are like that. Just why? Anyhow, I'm really sorry to hear that you're also in the same boat as me.
No. 948617
>>948608because skincare is a scam. they put shit in the products that make your skin worse so you have to buy more
simplify your skincare routine, i just use astringent, moisturizer and a face wash. i still have acne but not nearly as bad as when i was using a bunch of fancy skincare products
No. 948618
>>948606I know right, in my case, the anachans were and are, my brother and my cousins, they’re not even skinny legends, but when we were kids, they would be mad at me for not being the “hot sister/cousin” who had lots of hot friends that they could fuck.
I hate them because of that and I really hope they’re ashamed of their behavior.
No. 948625
>>948600Me too, I have it allll over down there. I'm a god damned sasquatch and I hate it so much.
I've learned where to shave and where to just keep things trimmed. Keeping it trimmed short helps a lot and doesn't look that bad imo.
No. 948646>>948647>>948649>>948706
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is there a dumbass debate thread on /ot/? would such a thing be allowed? i just want a place to argue about shit that's been argued to death already for fun (prime example: the lesbian fujo discourse)
No. 948661
>>948647we had that a few months ago and everyone who was in it got extremely
triggered when dua lipa was called ugly
No. 948670>>948683
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>>948637i keep re-writing a response to you but in the end i cant find any words. just know i understand how you feel and i would be your friend if possible. Hang in there. You are probably a lovely person. Have this bun at least, dont cry
No. 948671>>948700
>>948557>but some shota stuff is appealing>but that doesn't mean I read eromanga about itsure anon
>but that doesn't mean people actually want to go out and harm childrenWhat? You don't know that shit like that makes people more willing to put their fantasies into reality?
You would really leave a kid with a degenerate who fap to a drawings of child getting raped by a monster?
People who watch a lot of porn will be looking for more and more extreme content to fap. You think they wouldn't like to try those scenes they see in porn irl?
When you watch drawings of child pornography, the line between irl and fantasy blurs quickly.
Do you think that most people who fap to drawings of child don't have real cp on their computer? Why are you so naive?
Well, you are a degenerate who wear their shotacon title like a badge I guess…
>>948574>which is full of scrotes that hate anything sjw or woke so of course they defend pedoshit too.Maybe, but aren't you worried that the number of these degenerates is increasing? Why is there even a small amount of approval for this sort of thing?
>but stop conflating it with CP which has actual fucking victims.What? CP is terrible but we shouldn't allow drawings of child pornography either, for a reasons mentioned above (although I shouldn't really explain it, anyone with brain should understand it).
>>948603>>948581Of course there will be lolicons that would agree with that…
Also, I want to mention that there is diffrence of drawing of kids doing kids stuff and drawing pornography with kids. If you like to draw kids for example cooking or playing with plush bear then it's ok. Drawing kids in normal situations in clothes is ok.
Idk why I should even explain it but I guess anons have hard time understanding things.
Sigh, do we get raided by scrotes again?
No. 948681
>>948602Thank you!
It used to affect me when I was a teen, I starved myself to a BMI of 14 and only then was she happy. It was such a pain in the ass to unlearn all that shit and having to fight with the disordered eating, mostly because of her and her constant comments
No. 948682>>948695
>>948637Why can’t you draw anymore?
Friends and family will let you down, you can only rely on yourself. I hope you become your own friend and take it easy. Write your small victories in a diary, clear away the cobwebs daily. I hope you get better friends and remember that you’ll get there even if you’re not getting the right now. Plus, you have a tacobunny from the other anon, that’s pretty good!
No. 948695
>>948682I used to draw with colored pencils but I've stopped because my parents think that it's a children or autistic people's hobby (in a bad way) and I hate being called that by them because I might actually be on the spectrum. My parents openly insult neurodivergent people so yeah…
And I've been drawing digitally for years too but I'm bad to the point that it makes me feel ill instead of being a fun thing.
No. 948706
I don't know exactly what's going on, but shota/loli-fags are always annoying
>>948646We had one, it was called the Fight Club thread or something like that. It was banned shortly after it's creation though
No. 948715>>948716>>948727>>948729>>948933
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Wasted Fri-Sun clicking back & forth between imageboards and daydreaming with music instead of doing anything more fulfilling. Why do I waste my time like this?? Why???? Why can't I just do what needs to be done, even if it's just one of my hobbies?
I feel like I need to reset in the mountains or on a farm for a year away from everything if I want to be a normal human again.
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i don’t even know if i’m deserving of love and i pretend i really don’t want love or attention but damn it I secretly want it all
No. 948736
>>948608IKTF
nonnie, I've given up myself. Only bother with moisturiser and sunscreen now.
No. 948743
>>948608thats a whole rabbit hole to go down really
first step should always be buy fragrance free and then cut out specific common ingredients that fuck with people like witch hazel, tea tree, pomegranate, citrus, snail mucin if you're allergic to dust. Download skin bliss and put in all your specifications then go through what they recommend without fragrance or start scanning ingredient lists. If you wanted I could post my skincare for you. Anything outside of it fucks up my skin since it's finicky.
No. 948768>>948771>>948786
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You guys say TIFs aren't like real men at all, but I swear they're as infuriating as one.
No. 948780
>>948773It's sad when butch lesbians end up turning into mtfs. Lost a friend to that, she couldn't bear her last
abusive relationship that involved cheating and turned into NB, later turning into a tranny.
No. 948786>>948794>>948877
>>948768I think the really bad ones carry some of the worst of both gender stereotypes.
The anger issues and arrogance of the most annoying man, crossed with the nagging, catty, false moralfagging of the most annoying woman. It's pathetic and annoying. They're obnoxious tomboy pick-mes with disproportionately high rates of autism, but they get a halo of false authority on certain subjects (usually fujoshit and otomeshit) because other women are too kind to disregard their feelings. They also usually can't fuck off from women's spaces because they can't relate to actual men, and gay men don't really want shit to do with them. That's how they end up stuck, "affirming their gender" by yelling at other fujoshi, resenting themselves and other women even more daily lol
No. 948794
>>948786>They also usually can't fuck off from women's spaces because they can't relate to actual menOh my god this is what annoys me so much. Like okay, you think you're male, whatever. Now can you fuck off from predominantly female circles? Playing games and reading manga with predominantly fujoshi fanbases and thinking your genderspecial "coded" headcanons are anything but your mental illness.
The same goes for the fake lesbians that exclusively talk about 2d (or 3dpd, kpopfag shit) males in depth despite making "i'm a lesbian" their whole personality. They only mention women when they want to make a sexual comment.
No. 948853
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I want a job.
No. 948881
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I hate Christmas because last year and Christmas itself was a complete shit to me.
I miss my family and I haven't seen them in 3 years, and with COVID and how roughly my home country is doing, I dont think it'd be able to see them even next year.
I just wish I could feel like a family member around my husband's family. One of the family members hates me because I got married to him and everytime they come the atmosphere changes drastically. I can't wait to get some shitty gift like a notepad while actually putting thoughts and effort. On top of that I am sick from flu right now while taking care of everything, visiting dentists and having language exams coming up. I'm so tired. I miss everything.
No. 948893
>>948891He's most definitely lining her up as a backup, scrotes be scrotin'
Guys with gfs tend to do the "totally innocent friendly conversation with person of sexual interest" thing if they aren't total scumbags, but the intention is there.
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>>948902omg nonnatella you sexy fiend i didn’t slap his dick during sex and kept sucking sucking sucking and he fucking exploded and he said “damn nice job bbygurl your bpd made me cum”. he said he went to the 7eleven across the street and I turned on fight song by rachel platten and rubbed my pussy out and that’s when I vomited my heart out! what are you talking about stop making me blush <3
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>>948907THISIS
MY FIGHT SONG
NONNIE No. 948916>>948925
>>948904O M G
Your bf is gonna be SO happy you laid out your heart for him!!
No. 948918>>948926
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we turning this into the shitpost thread again?
No. 948925>>948927
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>>948916I’m gonna eat your pussy anon. You, me, admin-sama, fight night
No. 948956>>948972
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Who is the cry baby in complaints?
No. 948960>>948964
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Nonnies, is anyone really truly happy? I’ve been thinking… maybe we are just running in circles till we die, we have become extremely individualistic (now more than ever). The only truly happy people I’ve seen are people who live in farms and post their baby goats videos on Instagram. Does anything make any sense at all? Did it ever made sense? Where are we all going? Some say the way to happiness is purpose, but is that always true? Others say happiness is in interpersonal relationships, like friends and family, could it be both? One more than the other? It seems like everything everyone does is go to work, nag about work, watch Netflix, nag on social media and pretend to be happy. I’m rambling but I want to know what is happening, why is happening. Nonnies tell me pls.
No. 948963>>948965>>948968
>>948942im literally not since i rarely leave my room enough talk to her and support myself entirely expect bills/rent by selling my own things depop/poshmark so she isn’t even really spending any money on me because my room would just be empty otherwise (..or a guest bedroom for her grandchildren that only visit 2 or 3 times a year)
she is just a fucking tyrant about everything i do and will even criticize every little thing i do even as simple as the way i dry my hands after washing them. she literally patrols around to check if i leave any of my belongings outside of my room for some fucking reason she does not want anything i own anywhere except my room or she will throw a massive fit (example if laundry is in the dryer for longer than a couple minutes after it’s finished i get screamed at). she literally laughs at me when i mention wanting to move out eventually and im 24. it’s because i am the unwanted ugly baby that ruined her marriage she just likes to shove in the corner and forget about and while pretending the favorite baby that became a multimillionaire just because he got married to a doctor and has 3 kids is the only one that exists because he pays for her international vacations sometimes.
No. 948964>>948969>>949342
>>948960It's called being on autopilot. Some days I feel like I blacked out and can hardly remember even going to work because everything just comes and goes like a hamster wheel. My alone time, outside on the porch with the rain, was probably the only nice thing to happen today and it wasn't that it made me happy, it made me content and just not care if I was alive or dead. I just was.
I've been badly depressed since last year, my body dysmorphia is abysmal since I gained 30lbs after losing 30lbs from not eating, so I think that even'd out. IMO, there is no real happiness. I know where I am. I'm not going to ever afford my own place, I'm not going to be able to get a better job because I couldn't focus in school, even when I tried. I just a more hands on person than a book reader. It's this thought that I'll be in the same place, probably homeless by the time I'm 50 because my parents will be dead and I can barely afford my car payment. God forbid the rent keeps rising while wage stays the same, so can't rent. It's impending doom constantly.
But those little moments where I'm alone, or with my boyfriend, and we are just there, not even talking [I apologize for the silence a lot, but he's so understanding about my mental health and how talking exhausts me sometimes], and those moments I try to remember and look forward to, to keep me going. That doesn't mean I don't spend my time crying, wishing I was dead, but I try to hope there's more than where I am. Even if it means finding comfort in just sitting in the bathtub, chewing ice, and crying for a few hours.
If you don't know where to be, I'm there too, and I think a lot of people, for the majority of the planet, just want something better, but they know that's not where they are going. It's a realization that I wish I stopped thinking about.
No. 948968
>>948963either ko yourself or leave
she has no obligation to take care of your overage ass.
No. 948970>>948971
>>948965i didn’t even notice to be honest since i’m in a mood right now, feels nice to let that shit out sometimes though since this is the only place i can say it
just hate really life sometimes
No. 948973>>948977
>>948969I hate being such a downer, but I'm a realistic. I get so mad when my boyfriend tries to spin situations that are series into optimistic turn-arounds, and that doesn't change the situation I am in. I'm sorry, anon. I wish I had better advice, but I am looking forward to being in at home where I am now at least with a cake squish thing from Amazon coming soon. At least I look forward to squeezing the heck out of that and maybe draw a little with the window open so I can hear the rain.
I need to think about the future, but dreading on it 24/7, hasn't helped me at all and its not like I am finacially saving up to fix that future right now either. We got this for now. ♥
No. 948977
>>948973I appreciate you so much
nonny, let's look forward to the little things. We got this for now. ♥
No. 949010>>949018
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I'm so fucking mad, I took a big risk, it didn't pay off and now I'm a bit fucked.
I applied for an IT course via the government job agency and was told it would start in October. It's notw the last week of October and it's this week or nothing. However, even if I get the call I'll be called in for TESTING not actually attending. How the FUCK can they not find FIVE participants in the ENTIRE county? It's all set up isn't it? They're waiting for someone, a student or someone to quit their job so they can get in.
This shit could change my life and now I wasted a month and since it's the end of the year I won't find another job until maybe February. Holy shit why does life hate me so much? It's like no matter what I do or try or how much effort I put in I end up failing or getting fucked over in every way possible. Fuuuuuck
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Recently found out I'm pregnant with identical twins and this is my first pregnancy (unplanned). I decided to keep them since I found out too late, lol. This morning sickness is so violent that I just want these creepy hallway bitches out of my vag ASAP!!
No. 949037
>>949002i’m gonna try, friend. i wish went into biology so that i could become a dermatologist. i’m a computer science major so i’m very far from that dream
>>949007i’ve streamed to friends in the past and it felt very easy to. the game i play isn’t something that demands your attention for long periods of time, either
No. 949053
I didn't deem our age gap a significant difference. After all, I've had friends a decade older for the entirety of my adolescence. But I was wrong to diminish his experience. A twenty two year old can very well recognise the responsibility to use a condom, even if the barely legal girl whose virginity he is about to take is too frightened to say yes when he asks if he should put one on the dick that is already inside of her. A twenty two year old can very well reason he should advance slowly, even if the barely legal girl is overrun with sexual feelings. A twenty two year old has the capacity to recognise this girl is vulnerable by virtue of her age and inexperience, but also her upbringing and the struggles she spoke so clearly about. He promised he'd go slowly. I told him I struggle with the sudden surge of sexual feelings, especially as I am not ready for sex… His fake empathy is revolting. Ultimately, men are driven by their sexuality. He might be able to understand my vulnerability, but if the opportunity arises to fuck me, he'll take it. Twenty two is still young, granted. Yet when comparing someone whose body count is so high he doesn't wish to disclose it (which is such a cruel and irresponsible move in itself) to somebody who has never even been in a relationship, the power imbalance is obvious. Fruitless is the benefit of the doubt. At the end of the day, he knows. Men know. But like his brethren, he doesn't want to admit it. Instead, he seeks out circumstances in which the barely legal girl has no other choice but appear willing. It couldn't be his fault at that point. He is a disgusting, conniving cunt like the majority of men, and I am absolutely appalled by it. He endangered and manipulated me. He took advantage of me. And he knows it, behind everything he tries to tell himself and others, he knows it. I am sickened and angered… Each past generation of women that I'm familiar with in my family has known this reality. I find comfort and strength in the knowledge that they persevered, yet find myself frustrated the cycle has yet to end.
also, I would like to say thank you to farmers… I've been dealing with a lot lately and every time I've expressed myself about it I received such wonderfully uplifting responses. I'm really grateful for the heartfelt yet curt messages, they compel me to return and confide in you again and again. you make me feel safe!! thank you…
No. 949119>>949124>>949129>>949154>>949697
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Had a date for the first time in a long time and I wasn't too satisfied. We went to a museum and he kept making asinine, shallow comments about the artwork and various cultures. (all of Asian history being boring, Monet is easy to replicate, religious art is bad because of organized religion, etc). It was really displeasing seeing something interesting and hearing him try to 1-up it. Not to mention he complained about the 10 dollar fee… I don't make much but am happy to support the museum. This isn't even the first time I went on a date with a man and really wished I went alone. I feel like some people's personality is just an embodiment of part of the internet, like a YouTube comments section that's taken the form of a man, habitually yelling "fake and gay".
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My girlfriend is a they/them butch and it's actually killing me inside because I love her so much and she loves me so much, but I'm attracted to butch women, not butch enbies
We primarily speak a language that doesn't use pronouns and is largely non-gendered so I've been able to avoid thinking about it for this long, but it came to a point last night and now it's really unavoidable. I love her so much and I really think she's the one, and she even has been letting me call her she/her and girlfriend in english for so long just so she doesn't lose me, because she loves me too. I feel so fucking bad, she even cried because she feels like shes guilty. but dating someone who I have to call they/them makes me so uncomfortable and unhappy
She also admitted that before dating me, she was thinking she was going to transition and it was only wanting to stay with me that made her consider remaining female.
My current solution is just completely avoiding speaking English to her and just using our language. She keeps insisting that its fine and to keep calling her she/her. She says its only a tiny issue and she doesn't care, but I don't really believe her. I feel guilty and conflicted as fuck
Am I being retarded? Am I a shitty girlfriend? What would you lesbian ladies do? Pls shame me if I'm being a dipshit
No. 949171>>949202
>>949163I don't think you're being unreasonable anon, this goes much deeper than pronouns and into your ideology, what you believe about humanity is fundamentally different than her idea.
Have you tried peaking her? Enbies are easier to peak than FtMs I think. Ask her what about her personality and identity can't be included in the label of woman. As a butch she's probably been lowkey bullied by genderspecials for being a lesbian. See if you can get her to see the misogyny and homophobia in that.
Love is precious and you shouldn't let it erode because you're afraid of having an awkward conversation. And it's a totally abstract philosophical conversation at this point, she's not transitioning, nothing material is happening so there is no pressure to figure it all out at once. You love her, so give her a chance to understand your point of view.
No. 949172>>949197>>949202
>>949163Your girlfriend has problems, identifying as an NB or wanting to transition is not normal and healthy like it's made out to be. It's not your fault she has problems.
>>949169>but what difference does it really make in the end?Nta but considering anon said her gf wanted to transistion before meeting her.. the possibility of her trooning out anyway will always remain. I get being concerned about that. + identifying as something other than what you are is not normal or healthy.
No. 949182>>949197
>>949169>what difference does it makeHer girlfriend is drinking Koolaid. A woman who refuses to be called she is distancing herself from the fact that she's female. Obviously this is unhealthy, a cognitive dissonance and denial that everyone plays along with… Indulging it will provide temporary relief because she's disowning herself, but it never lasts. So the identity games will escalate and lead to further alienation, which she obviously is drawn to because she wanted to transition before.
An adult female saying "I am not a woman" is merely saying "I am not myself".
It is not harmless to agree and play along with that false statement.
No. 949197>>949225>>949228
>>949172If she wanted to actually transition I'd understand being uncomfortable with it, since that is a pretty big thing, but just changing how you want to be identified isn't. If this was a pretty new relationship, breaking it off would be easy, but anon and her seem to be invested in it already. If she truly was the one, it would be stupid to end it over mere possibilities.
>>949182I will be honest, you sound deranged to me. Being a woman is hard and I totally understand people that want to distance themselves from it, you have no idea what that person is thinking or feeling. And why does "myself" have to be "a woman" first and foremost anway? "Myself" is simply who you are, not your body. Maybe it's because I struggled with similar things some years back, but I don't think gender is this important. It doesn't have to mean anything to you. I understand the overall importance of women being seen as such to not be overshadowed in the world as a whole, but if someone has issues with being seen as a woman and can't bear what comes with it, then they shouldn't have to? You can also just talk it out with the person, why decide for her?
No. 949202>>949216
>>949169I do understand what you mean, because despite my own terfy/radfem ways, I love her so much that I was basically arguing that I shouldn't be so rude and call her she/her while she was insisting I call her that for my own comfort and to ignore her feelings. I honestly never want to call my own partner they/them (I don't care about anyone else) but for her even I would force it out.
I am very femme and was stuck in "heteronormative" hell relationship with a man previously while trying to convert myself straight. Men still try to bother me into sleeping with them despite knowing. To finally have a a gf who i can call "girlfriend" and refer to as "she" just makes me feel relieved and happy, and I think she knows that. But I know how selfish that is and I feel guilty for disappointing her like this when I love her so much
>>949171I actually did try, but I don't think I did a very good job.
>Ask her what about her personality and identity can't be included in the label of woman.I really like this. Its exactly what I want to know and tried to explain to her but in a far too roundabout way. I'm going to ask her this the next time it comes up, thank you
nonnie.
Unfortunately she's kind to a fault and tries to be on everyone's side at once, which includes unintentional NLOG behaviour like bringing up that men have it hard too when I talk about women's rights. I did end up taking her to task on that, but unfortunately I have to pretend like I give a shit about men's "problems" because she tries so hard to see the good in everyone that if I'm too negative in her eyes she doesn't believe me lol
>>949172Trooning out is one of my biggest fears, but she knows clearly if she was FTM we would have to split up, and I think she never will fully go there just because she doesn't want to lose me, which is why I feel so guilty. I think if she really actually wants to transition she's going to end up resenting me, even though I never asked and it was completely her own choice.
At the moment she doesn't seem like she wants to, and she said she feels confused and doesn't know what she is
No. 949216>>949235
>>949163Maybe it just feels awkward to go from a gender neutral language to being aggressively gendered constantly in a different one? I'm not sure why it's such a big deal, since you primarily speak a different language.
>>949202Be careful when asking about what about her can't be included in the label of woman, because it's not just simply "being bullied by gender specials" probably. You might be bringing up genuinely traumatic shit for her. I don't know why a lot of people don't want to acknowledge that these pressures start the moment you are a tomboy or deemed too old to be one. She might have been bullied a lot for it, gotten shit from her family, from strangers etc. After a lifetime of being told you're not a real girl or woman or you're pretty shit at being one, it can really feel like you just don't belong anymore. Being aggressively gendered suddenly can then feel very uncomfortable. I know it feels nice for you after having been in a straight relationship to emphasize gender a lot, but you might be genuinely asking too much of her. It's really not as simple as that she's just "drinking the koolaid".
No. 949228>>949264>>949303
>>949197>why does "myself" have to be "a woman" first and foremost anway? "Myself" is simply who you are, not your bodyPerhaps I can word it a different way… I'm not saying "she should embrace her womanhood" and see herself as woman-gender-label (boobs and dresses and long hair etc) as part of her identity.
Frankly I think identity is overrated. Identity is just how you see yourself, and how others see you. It's a story, always changing, never completely reflective of reality.
But your body is reality. By woman I mean adult human female, that's all.
If you live in your body, your body is part of your reality. It is the vessel through which you experience reality.
Being female (a woman) is as real as being human. That is more constant to me than the "myself" which is a collection of identities, beliefs, hobbies, preferences, histories.
No. 949235
>>949216Together we speak that language, but I speak english natively. That means in referring to her with my friends, family, etc, I can't avoid pronouns. She also is interested in english and meeting my family so that's where it starts getting difficult.
When it comes to asking questions, from the start we were both clear with each other that when we want to know something or argue we talk it out and don't let it escalate, just communicate. She has never reacted badly to any question I ask, but i just have to communicate it properly, vice versa. I'm not very good at wording questions properly; i basically asked what anon said but in a really unclear way so she couldn't answer clearly.
I never said I thought she drank the koolaid, but I do think the koolaid is a escape for her. The country we live has extremely dated views about women. If I grew up in the same society, I think i would feel the same as her, so I understand, but I also feel like her simply trying to run away from it is just accepting society's misogynistic definition of a woman
>I know it feels nice for you after having been in a straight relationship to emphasize gender a lot, but you might be genuinely asking too much of her.To be clear anon, I haven't really asked her for anything. For the first few months of our relationship, I genuinely thought she identified as just a butch female. I'm not saying I was tricked or anything stupid like that, just that I went in thinking this was all very different. She knows this which is why she feels so bad about it, and in turn, i feel guilty that she feels she has to force herself
No. 949252>>949258
>>949247It takes time but it’s possible,
nonnie, i had the same issue, all I did was start putting alarms earlier than the time I want to wake up so I have to do so and so I have enough time to throw a tantrum in bed.
No. 949264>>949300>>949302>>949306
>>949228NTA Why is 'woman' such a hill to die on? Why isn't it enough to acknowledge that someone is an adult human female, why does everyone have to identify heavily with the word 'woman', when etymologically speaking, it literally means 'wife of a man'. It's so aggressively straight. Even the whole womyn thing sounds better if it wasn't so heavily associated with polilez. In a lot of other languages the word wife and woman is literally the same, which can also feel uncomfortable. Even within radfem circles 'women's issues' ends up often being a code for straight women's issues, which has been a problem since the 70's. I'm not sure why everyone now insists on how it's just such a simple equation, as if it's 2+2=4 and you must be completely insane to not feel comfortable with being aggressively labeled like that, after all the things written by Simone de Beauvoir, Monique Wittig, etc. Personally I feel I'm a butch (lesbian) first and foremost, which should already indicate what my sex is and the kind of struggles I go through, which aren't exactly the same as those of straight and/or (more) conforming women. I still think nonbinary as an identity is a bit retarded, but I can see where it comes from. This whole insistence on class reductionism really doesn't work for everyone.
No. 949300>>949316
>>949264You sound super mad about being a woman lol, what do you even want? You can't call yourself a butch lesbian without woman (adult human female) being a category it's predicated on.
If you're mad about dead feminists using woman as a label - okay? You can do that with anything. I hate how Genghis Khan described humanity, why should I label myself as human, etc. Who cares what they thought. Practically these labels mean very little. Politically and medically they are essential for minimizing suffering in society.
No. 949303>>949314>>949316
>>949228>By woman I mean adult human female, that's all. If you live in your body, your body is part of your reality. It is the vessel through which you experience reality.
Yeah but does she think of the same definition? Women who don't feminize/play the personality role expected get shit on hard by everyone. It can be traumatizing and make you reject everything about what society tells you is womanhood. I was always a "tomboy" and if gender special shit was around growing up I'd probably fall for it. It's normal to want to dissociate from your body when everything and everyone reminds you of your body in a negative way and expects you to act a certain way because of it.
No. 949314>>949317
>>949303Ayrt yeah I get that, it's very sad that happens and I would definitely be an Aiden too if I was younger and exposed to this narrative.
>It's normal to want to dissociate from your body when everything and everyone reminds you of your body in a negative way and expects you to act a certain way because of it.Yes its normal but it's sick as well, just like it's normal that traumatized people numb themselves with drugs and alcohol. Doesn't mean it's the only way to function. Humans have an incredible capacity for healing and I think radical self acceptance and mindfulness is the beginning of the cure for all this dysphoria. We have documented ways to heal trauma (read The Body Keeps The Score) but gender ideology is pushing this dissociation-as-cure narrative instead.
No. 949316>>949323>>949324>>949337
>>949300>If you're mad about dead feminists using woman as a label - okay? You can do that with anything.So you completely missed my point, that is not what I'm angry about. I'm angry about this insistence that woman is as simple as being an adult human female, when that is just not how it is experienced by society and culture as a whole. The point of "one becomes a woman", has to do with female socialization, which includes heterosexuality. If female socialization has failed, you are deemed by society as either a failed woman or not a woman at all, but something 'other'. What they wrote about is descriptive, not prescriptive. This whole insistence that it's so simple and that if you feel uncomfortable, it must be because you drank the TRA koolaid, comes across as gaslighting. It doesn't just come from 'gender specials' and it's not a new phenomenon to feel 'othered'. This phenomenon can literally be traced back all the way to the 1500's (at the very least), but no it must all be new gender koolaid and we have to deny deny deny that some people have been so aggressively pushed out of womanhood, that it just doesn't feel comfortable anymore. Never mind that the whole concept of woman and female socialization is aggressively heterosexual. Aggressively shouting 'you're a woman' at butches and tomboys isn't going to solve anything, aggressively gendering and saying 'sister' non-stop isn't going to help. Especially not when the same people who do that, have no qualms about saying you're 'male-aligned' or 'scrote-like' when it suits them.
>>949304>Man just meant human and wif can mean wife but also just woman (just like Weib in German).You obviously didn't read what I wrote then, because I already referred to that. Wife and woman being so intrinsically tied together, can be part of the reason why some feel uncomfortable with the word in the first place. This bullshit is starting to get just as grating, thought-stopping and mantra-like as the 'TWAW and TMAM' crap.
>>949303Thank you, some sanity.
No. 949323>>949333>>949346
>>949316> I'm angry about this insistence that woman is as simple as being an adult human female, when that is just not how it is experienced by society and culture as a wholeYes it is. If you look and act like a man you get insecure men seething about it but they still know you're a woman if you're a woman.
>If female socialization has failed, you are deemed by society as either a failed woman or not a woman at all, but something 'other`Mostly by parts of men and who gives a shit what they think, especially when you're gay.
No. 949324
>>949316>Wife and woman being so intrinsically tied together, can be part of the reason why some feel uncomfortable with the word in the first place.What the hell do you want it to be called ? Of course, they are linked, because the literal definition of wife is 1. a woman 2. that's married, if it's not a woman it's not a wife, even though not all women are wives. Just like an armchair is uncomfortably linked to a chair, because the definition is 1. chair 2. with arm rests, even though not all chairs have arm rests.
Your wife is literally your woman ("your" as in "your father" as opposed to "your pen", i'm not implying ownership but a family tie). In many, many languages including English, you also say "he's my man" to say he's my husband.
I can't believe you have to have that explained to you. Of all the sexist shit there is in the world…
No. 949337>>949349
>>949316>If female socialization has failed, you are deemed by society as either a failed woman or not a woman at all, but something 'other'.See this is where radfems lose me. What does this even mean, what are some examples of "society deemed her as a failed woman"?
Show me on a security camera some footage of a GNC woman being labeled as failed woman and what that materially changed about her life experience. Some scrote yelled dyke at her? A man didn't hire her? Her parents are ashamed to say she won't give them grandkids? Besides actual homophobic hate crimes, all this shit is just opinions and awkward social situations. GNC women aren't stripped of citizenship and shipped to labor camps for failing as women.
No. 949376>>949398
>>949078Its always the people who love socialism (despite never actually living in a country which practices it) and who have often never worked a day in their life. I was friends with a girl who is a lefty/commie/"stand up to the man and the system", etc. type who complained about capitalism often despite being pretty well-off, never working a day in her life, or even considered working as she relied on her parents cash (bought stupid fujo porn books with it etc)…
Nothing about people like that rebellious or "alternative", especially when popular culture holds about the same views and is just as useless..
No. 949398
>>949376Kek my country used to be 'communist', have to bust my ass to live and I still think that socialism could be the future (or at least capitalism with UBI, for a start). The 'only fundie retards believe in that' argument is bullshit. I don't agree with ignorant tankies glorifying regimes, but capitalism also isn't the way to go. We live in a world where a life of an innocent child has a price, an incredibly high one at that. How fair is that? BTW, that was one of the first bitter lessons of capitalism my compatriots learned. Not that healthcare was better before. It was still a cruel awakening from the capitalist dream. Imagine finding out that in the far-away USA, there are doctors and machines that can give your baby a happy life — it's just that you will never ever see a fraction of money needed to get their help. The despair one must feel in such situation is terrifying.
The saddest thing is that people at the top, of course, don't give a fuck about the masses, as they benefit from mass exploitation. Meanwhile, the people are too tired trying to survive to start a revolution. What an awful circle.
TBH I don't care, if there is any form of capitalism that values life and ethics instead of money and profit - I would be more than fine with it.
No. 949414>>949418>>949440>>949554
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am i still a lesbian if i find boys cute? i don't want to fuck them or anything but i generally prefer … *media that features men, and i prefer to rp men in d&d and stuff (and ship my d&d boys with other men, hopefully played by women)
(*2d media, i don't have any vested interest in live action shows unless they're like, crazy popular somehow, ala squid games)
No. 949415
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I caught a horrible flu and I haven't gotten sick ever since COVID started. Feeling incredibly tired, having to keep studying my ass off because I got sick right after my paid lessons begun. Next week is GIL's birthday and I am hoping I will feel better because I am excited to give her a gift.
But damn, all I want is nothing but bubbly water, crêpes and cocoa while watching Ponyo. I hate feeling weak. Take care of yourselves anons.
No. 949583>>949586>>949599>>949608
>>949564>especially in japanese mediaAre you fucking joking? Japanese media is the biggest culprit of writing garbage female characters who exist as waifubait and they pedopander endlessly.
Obviously not all male characters are well written, but compared to a busty 14 year old who gets a bunch of pantyshots and acts like an infant to appeal to Japanese men… I'll take the angsty male OC, thanks.
No. 949597>>949606
>>949591nona, it's common for restraining orders to include clauses relating to third party contact, which is what your situation would be. third party contact is someone using another person to relay messages or information to the person with the injunction against them.
do yourself a favor: get hard evidence that this new chick is dating your ex, write down exactly when she has come into your work. take that info and go back to your local clerk of court and check to see if your RO covers indirect contact. if yes, and ex is in violation, report it there and then.
good luck nonita
No. 949599
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>>949583>but compared to a busty 14 year old who gets a bunch of pantyshots and acts like an infant to appeal to Japanese men… I'll take the angsty male OC, thanks.i was just arguing about something similar to this, holy hell.
blogging now but, some chick was whining that people hated female characters in shonen because of "misogyny ):", as if most female characters in shonen aren't just walking talking fan-service machines who don't actually do anything of importance.
i mean, most of the time, they're literally terrible characters written by old men for young boys. come on now, i feel like people always forget fictional characters aren't real people
No. 949601
>>949591of course she is. This world loves to fuck with us when we are most vulnerable. Fuck both of them, especially him,
abusive scum. I take comfort in the knowledge that life fucks us all, so he'll get what's coming to him naturally. Don't kys anon you're a valuable addition to this world, no doubt. Fuck them
No. 949606
>>949591Women really can be our own worst enemies, it's so disgusting that so many of them can willingly be agents for violent moids. I would take
>>949597 this advice, i hope you get the justice you deserve anon.
No. 949619
>>949608Don't you think that exact same advice applies to the anon who thinks all male characters are
>cliché or written like an angsty teen's OC, especially the fake-deep ones??
In series with male characters like that, the female characters are often how I described. In well written series, neither are going to be totally awful cliches or bait but it's still way more common for the misogyny to seep through in female characters. Japan is shitty about women, the world in general is, fictional characters are no exception. Male characters are characters first, male second, but female characters are always female first - meaning there's pressure to make them attractive and palatable that doesn't apply to male characters.
No. 949641>>949648>>949650>>949653
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It's currently 4:30 AM and I am so tired from staying up finishing my midterm art school presentation. but the farther I go with it, the more I realize how worthless it might be. I turn 22 next month and am now even worrying about ensuring my own quality of life and job security wrt money and building a life for myself. I don't have a job, am in my second year of university, live with my family. I want a job so that I can rent my own place and live seperately without my family/relying on their finances, but I can't even figure out what exactly it is I want to do as a "real life" job or normal side hustle to actually earn a living while doing "art" shit. I'd be comfortable just landing a position as a graphic designer, but I still need to work on my skills before I could apply for a position anywhere in my country. I'd like to see myself running a buisness as a long term goal, but I keep being filled with existential regret, or guilt for the fact that I know that everything is fine and it will all work out. I just want to find the right school/job balance.
No. 949661>>949689
>>949652God I hate male doctors. I think the ones that specialize in women's medicine
are somewhat sociopathic. Speaking from experience.
No. 949687>>949692
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>>949682when society went to shit
No. 949697
>>949129i have a coworker exactly like this. I seriously dont understand super insecure and uneducated people who need to constantly lie or try to 1up anyone.
>>949119Sorry your date sucked. Imagine complaining about a $10 fee to support a museum, which should be gov funded, instead of donation funded like it usually is. That guy sounds like he spends all his time on reddit
No. 949699>>949702>>949703>>949709>>949710
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The way my stupid boyfriend stans trannies because it's "the right thing to do" is so annoying. He constantly makes arguments but then when I make a factual statement he says "Again, I'm the worst person to ask about this! I don't know enough information about that to have a solid argument on it. I'm not the right guy to talk argue this. This all seems anecdotal!"
It's such a weak copout. How're you gonna say "Well, trans women XYZ and this is how it affects them" and then follow up with "gee idk actually" when presented with facts about women?? I tried to bring up some facts regarding violence against trannies vs violence against women and he's saying "Well statistically it makes sense that there are less trans women so of course they're more likely to get killed". I've just gotten so emotional and tearing up because my moid doesn't understand that women are being raped, murdered, killed, assaulted, threatened every single day.
I brought up an article I was reading which in many words boils down to this:
>"But because 2 out of 4 trannies get killed, it surpasses 25 out of 100 women getting killed. oooh well that's 50% of trannies! that's higher than the 25 women getting killed, it just adds up so that means trannies are 50% more likely to get killed."
I told him the article doesn't make sense. What he did say to that was "I don't know enough about statistics to back that up"
You know everything in the whole fucking world now suddenly you don't know anything?
He's such a nigel, so fucking pure hearted though he can't have a single rational thought that involves "betraying" his moral compass. "oo i gotta respect all human beings" okay then.
No. 949707>>949713
>>949702>>949703We've been dating for 4 or 5 years and I only just recently became GC a couple years ago, so before I was completely "trans lives matters!!" and I'm sure this has been weird of him too. Not to make excuses for him. But to be fair to him, me turning more radical was difficult esp. since I was the opposite when we met.
Ever since then, I've been trying to get him to open his eyes, but he's extremely lefty. Once a year, we have these heavy debates where I stress that trans women are encroaching on women's rights and being absolutely retarded. sometimes I can get him to agree with what I'm saying, but this particular argument was upsetting because I discovered just how many women and girls are being killed/raped/threatened and it just bummed me out that he's upholding the "well the statistics might make sense idk tho"
No. 949710
>>949699Are you me? My moid is also like this. He's very sweet and shit but also wants to be kind to everyone. So when I say my cool
terf shit he listens but then he's like "…but maybe not all of them are bad!" cause he wants to believe there's good trannies out there. He was just raised to be a respectful person even with the crazies I guess.
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I made a plan to get money, everything was going nicely, but my mom told me that now we need more emergency money. So I'm back to nothing and my job won't pay me until 2 months. I won't be able to buy what I was planning. Good luck to the one who gets it first, I guess.
No. 949728
>>949718My younger brother's schoolarship and books for the next year, because of the pandemic they are asking for more stuff and we need to see how to fulfill that first. I really care for him tbh, so it's not something I'm going to complain much about, but I'm still kind of upset. Thank you for you nice wishes tho, love you anon ♥
>>949719An Etsy plushie, pic unrelated, is not the Lemongrab
yet, maybe No. 949759
>>949751i cant find where she works. I've been trying though
>>949754pretty sure she uses her phone.
No. 949772>>949786
>>949756you’re extremely based, if people can share their shitty useless opinions and fear mongering on social media i don’t see why you can’t inform people about how terrible moids are. keep it up kek.
i would be right there with you but i don’t share any opinions on social media, i like to keep it really vague and neutral
No. 949787
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>>949782If he doesn’t have security surrounding the apt do one of those papers with magazine cutout letters and freak him out. Tell him to shut the fuck up
No. 949809>>949811>>949812
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What the fuck? I’ve never talked about Doja Cat or drag queen Meg on lolcow ever. Anyone else had this problem using a VPN?
No. 949868>>949873
>>949864God you retards are really annoying. I was just saying that it's dumb that "homophobe-chan" (stupid) said gay men are worse. I didn't say "gays are not so bad."
I mentioned it because the other anon sperging said that lesbians should take note because they'd come for us next. That is also idiotic.
No. 949879>>949880>>949888>>949922
>>949873She said they're worse, not as bad. Which is retarded.
Maybe the other sperg had a point about you guys coming for lesbians, kek.
No. 949886>>949889
>>949880I don't like drag you absolute fucking retard. As I literally already said, I mentioned being a lesbian only because homophobe chan anon said people would come for lesbians next, and I think that is moronic.
I was not mentioning it to be an ally to gay men but the actual fucking opposite, I was using it to say I'm gay and I don't give a fuck if you shit on gay moids for being moids.
No. 949891>>949895
>>949888And I still think that's moronic.
>>949889Are you mad at someone saying retard on an image board?
>>949890Holy shit kek you people seriously have zero reading comprehension. How many times do I have to say I only brought up being a lesbian to call the other anon using us as a shield to defend gay men an idiot. I'm not the one licking genderspecial asshole.
No. 949894>>949897>>949913
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>arguing about gay men in three different threads
Oh my fucking god. Anyway, hope mods wakeup soon and delete the images. Usually it's quicker than this.
No. 949922>>949926>>949954
>>949879>Maybe the other sperg had a point about you guys coming for lesbians, kek.They absolutely are. First they start sperging about gay men because it's an easier pill to swallow for us who already hate scrotes, then they proceed to screeching about "Aidens" who can be passed as "men lite" with the help of hyperbolics, then butch lesbians who they also consider "as rapey and sexist as men", then GNC women, then lesbians in general. This is an ally you absolutely don't want to have and it's happened before.
>>949921Oh look, it's happening at record speed.
No. 949932>>949957
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I’m hotter than all of you aidens/lesbians/gays
fuck bitch anon and all the other gay spergs
I’m out this bitch(USER HAS BEEN PUT OUT TO PASTURE)
No. 949956>>950410
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I have become increasingly more egoistical
No. 949959
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>>948904I'm sorry but this fucking redtext is killing me. Of course the scrote posts like this
Really got some hanging ballsack bitchboys in here talking about nonita nonnatella nonna
No. 949961>>949968
>>949957I’m mixed
show yourself or not because you’re too scared by the looks of your hippo ass
No. 949962
>>949952Yeah there are some actually deranged posters here who think it's okay to wish rape on women, and that you're the problem if you dislike people who do that. They're happy about being mentally ill that way too
It's shitty that you ran into one of them. I think they're either extreme pick mes in denial or troons, either way they should fuck off
No. 949973>>949974>>949981
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>>949964It won't, but you're free to leave anytime.
No. 949987
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There's gore, be careful scrolling
No. 950034
>>949974Just hit the x button or get a website blocker if that "lolcow is your life" is just projecting. I know you can do it.
>>949981What?
No. 950051
>>950033Aw hopefully they just won't notice it's expired and let you proceed normally.
I've been using an expired passport for way longer than I should and as it turns out 99% of people checking your passport won't pay enough attention to notice the expiry date. I've literally only been turned away once, and succesfully used it maybe 50 times. Good luck and try to stay calm! (Unless they have to actually scan your id, in which case you're probably fucked.)
No. 950145
>>950121I've faked my way through school, through college, through jobs. Even now my life is fucking fake. Be polite, be nice, care about people.
In reality I'm pretty sure I'm just traumatised and don't want people to be upset. All I want is move to the fucking forest and go batshit insane and feral for two weeks before I eventually starve to death. Or die of dyptherie.
No. 950160>>950165>>950168
>>950112I think the realization is coming that almost every single tiktok/youtube content creator is a soulless, disturbed liar.
I mean look at that shit that just happened with those two youtubers where the guy murdered the girl on their road trip - they were "dating" for a long time but when they actually had to spend a couple weeks around each other, often with no phones, they went so bananas that he fucking killed her for no apparent reason.
If you're going to date someone, you should test them by going and being in the park, alone, no phones, for a whole day. Not like far from anyone, just walk around a city park, maybe go to a restaurant or cafe or two. But no phones! See how they behave. It is always revealing, either that they're a balanced person who likes to do things with you, or if they get antsy and wig out and need phoneywoney, that they're a fake incomplete person.
No. 950165
>>950160You should read into it more, friends of Gabby warned police of her boyfriend’s temper and habit to argue her to death. She was 21 with very little real world experience.
Their engagement was on and off. She didn’t know how to escape the abuse, it really is that simple.
No. 950168
>>950112I know exactly how you feel anon, you could've written this post for me. But don't worry- it will start to get better soon.
More and more people are becoming more aware of this "fakes, liars and assholes get everything" problem, so soon things will start to change. People are sick of slimy assholes with good reputations cheating their way around people who spend their lives trying to work toward their dreams only to get left behind after putting in all the work.
>>950160Social media/phone addiction is a big bad issue that causes problems everywhere. Soon Silicon Valley should be facing more restrictions about what sort of pavlovian brainwasing techniques they can use to force your time and attention onto marketing bullshit instead of improving yourself or genuinely connecting with another person.
No. 950202
>>950193Samefag but literally if I try to include myself in a conversation with family they cut me off or tell me what I'm saying is stupid it's not even like I'm bitching or trauma dumping they just don't wanna hear my input unless it's entertaining I feel like a jester
Also when I was 9 I let my older cousin molest me after he said something about touching my sister (he had already molested me years before but that day he told me he wanted to touch my sister) so I let him molest me instead. I never told my sister and don't ever plan on it but she's randomly a huge bitch to me and it's tiring I sacrificed alot for her since we were kids I fed her clothed her gave her a phone took the blame for her shit had our cousin molest me instead of her. Idk she acts like she hates me but if I don't help her when she needs I'm the one with the problem. I do too much for people and I need to be selfish. I'm going to die alone anyways my mom always told me that as a kid she wasn't wrong I'm too fucking weird and retarded for companionship that's ok tho
No. 950247>>950250
>>950223Hey, have you tripped before? It’s a-ok to say gibberish while tripping. I once wondered off, found a shower and sat in to with my clothes on, saying “there goes my brain, down the drain, I’m insane “ looping for hours. (Ah, good times good times)
Give your brain time to recoup from the chemical imbalances that happen with tripping. Good rule of thumb, never trip more than 2 times a year.
I’ve seen friends do too much, and they never get back to their normals.
No. 950278
>>950193This sounds like the result of a neglectful childhood surrounded by people who only see you as a resource or work horse. Really, your post feels all too familiar.
If you can, try to move somewhere else and stop talking to your family, they won't change if they haven't after all these years. There really are people out there that will treat you like a full human being with feelings and dreams, contrary to what parasitic and predatory people love to meme, not every place is the same and there are too many different kinds of people out there for you to be disliked or ignored by literally everyone.
No. 950292>>950355
>>950270I have the same thing, had a car for anout a year until I got in a retarded accident that was entirely my fault since I tend to zone out if I have to try to focus on something like driving. I decided that probably means I shouldnt drive (and no one was injured thank god but I would kms if my retardation hurt anyone).
I have a license but don't have a car & don't want one, family keeps trying to give me cars when they upgrade. They have kept this one old car around that they dont use because they want me to take it but I won't.
I think it bothers people because you're showing that a car is not a necessity, and that you're fine without it, while they be spending hundreds of dollars a month on the insurance alone, and hundreds more on the lease or loan most likely. And so it annoys them that you're showing it's a colossal waste of money for many people.
I use a giant size granny cart to get groceries & heavy things. I'll push it two miles there and back idgaf. or if it's too much for me I take an uber for like $15 which is only once a month or so, save so much money tbh.
No. 950302>>950307>>950312>>950318>>950353
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I hate it when someone uses "we" to refer to doing something ie. "We'll prepare couscous with dinner tonight," but what they actually mean is that they are volunteering YOU to fucking do the work or else they're not doing it.
>text fiance about dinner plans since I'm at work and he has off
>almost a futile attempt because he's so lazy and rarely thinks about dinner but idc
>get past his bullshit joke non-answers and knock away one real suggestion bc we don't have the ingredients for it
>tell him to look in the freezer
>tries to steal the tortellini for my work potluck that I've already told him about
>try again mf
>picks out two sausages
>he asks if we still have couscous
>reply yes and spoonfeed where the stock and seasonings are so he can cook it
>mention I'm on low carb so I will be preparing spinach as my side instead
>"Oh okay I'm just going to have chicken tenders then."
>"Are you really not frying the sausages anymore just because you'd have to cook your own couscous eyeroll emoji"
>no response, clearly expected me to cook and do everything
Jfc how useless.
No. 950321>>950325
>>950318>It's women's fault men are useless! Nah, a reasonable man wouldn't take it for granted and would still want to be a responsible adult.
Do you think women enable serial killers from wearing short skirts and taking walks at night? I mean they're just begging a scrote to take the opportunity, right.
No. 950329
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Can't believe I was seriously asked to refer to Chris Chan as "she/her". I'm so fucking tired of this garbage.
No. 950333
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Everything changes, everyone leaves. I'd rather be friendless than pretend to be social. I'm tired and it shows.
No. 950341>>950345>>950348
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I was scrolling on social media yesterday and I came across a post of a man that was brutally beaten by the police and the photos were pretty gore-y, no signs of the body or anything but there was blood everywhere in each pic. The last picture showed a pool of sparkly blood and I swear I’m not an edgy teenager or a cannibal I swearg but I would be lying if I said his blood didn’t look so fucking delicious it looked like juice. What is happening to me?
No. 950354>>950359
>>950325You're enabling scrotes with blame shifting is what I'm saying.
An adult male is 100% responsible or not for his actions. If he takes advantage of his gf or wife it's not because she "enables" it, it's because he's a scumbag.
That logic is what scrotes tell themselves to make their abuses okay in their minds because they can cope that they weren't fully culpable.
No. 950355
>>950292Thanks for replying, anon! I'm sorry you had an accident, but I feel like your decision not to drive based on you tending to zone out makes you far more responsible as a potential driver than a lot of actual drivers out there. I don't think it makes you retarded at all, just self aware.
I might steal the granny cart trick.
No. 950360>>950369
>>950359Then don't reply to me picking a fight? I don't like it when a woman experiencing shitty behavior from an adult male is
victim blamed. You can take your tard rage about it and blow it out your ass.
No. 950374
>>950357In no way did my post even insinuate that you either enabled him, nor referenced the time-frame in which he turned to shit- especially since you didn't include that info yourself. Actually two of the posts you linked are simply saying that men better than yours exist. It's
good that you had a 30-minute argument with him about it, as I'm sure that will change him into a better man and make him cook tonight, too.
that all said, I hope you get home from work and he's pulled up his socks.
No. 950485>>950529
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I'm turning twenty-three next year, and I'm content with that, but two things are bothering me:
1.) The number of anons younger than ME who feel life is over at twenty-one. What the fuck. Please stop, it's stressing me out, and it doesn't even make sense.
2.) My wasted time. I found a post on Reddit where I asked about learning Japanese, one year ago. If I'd studied every day from that point to today, I'd probably be well on my way to learning the language. Same with art, math, my other hobbies, etc.
Why can't God just give me the ability to follow a personal schedule/have some work ethic, I don't even need to be rich or pretty, just these things.
No. 950549>>950558
>>950542Half of lolcow is
triggered and half would post gore
No. 950616
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>>950611You can't tell me what to do!!
No. 950617>>950619>>950625
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Please tell me how to get over someone who's already taken but you developed feelings for them before you found out about it. This person is my coworker and this saturday it's basically just me and them at work, I don't know how I'm supposed to survive 8 hours with them alone with no other people around, my mind will go crazy. Every time I see that person I think about the life we could have together. Sometimes I even want to confess my feelings, like that would make it easier to let go, but I don't want that person to think bad of me
No. 950641>>951423
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I'm kind of looking forward to my eventual future working some blue collar job for which I have no passion or real talent. I'll only have my hobbies to keep me alive and that's genuinely enough for me. Godspeed.
No. 950665>>950674>>950701
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At a new college and this bitch I made friends with keeps ranting about how she likes this guy in our group, (bare in my mind we are like 2 months in) like it isn't fucking painfully obvious to everyone. She's now hanging out with him alone and shit, like I've tried to deter her so many times. No one in our group wants friendcest to happen & I'm so scared she's gonna fuck it up for everyone since I'm a tard and find it hard enough already to make friends. He's a nice dude and decently attractive so I get it but like bitch save it for another fucking time oh my god. I know this is like THE most vapid shit there is but it literally makes me feel sick, these people are already annoying and painfully normie as it is, I don't want to suffer even more. Even writing this I feel like I'm gonna get bad karma or something and get fucked
No. 950711
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I hate myself for biting my nails still!! I was doing pretty well last year not biting my nails and now this year has been a disaster and I just want to stop, I hate when my nails look ugly and hurt but its so tough to stop
No. 950727
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i can’t stop having romantic daydreams what is going on with me? i’ve never really dated anyone in my life and lately my mind has been drifting off into the most detailed romantic scenes that play in my head and i can’t help it anymore because i genuinely really want love but i want to continue to shield people off. don’t get me wrong there is nothing that I could even offer to a partner but there are some strange feelings boiling inside of me and part of that is because i’m extremely sexually repressed and the orgasms lately have been sort of amazing
No. 950748
>>950734It was the last straw, kek. They were right, the line
was long and every woman in line was thotted up like we were going to a club. Passed by 3 of them straight up wearing just a bra despite it being chilly
No. 950817>>950822>>950823>>950824>>950850>>950860>>950884>>951012>>951024>>951047
wasnt sure where to put this cause its a pretty rage inducing story for me but also has a happy ending and i have a lot of things that i need to just rant about to anonymous people online
december of last year i was lonely as shit, first sem of college, no friends, covid, etc. aimlessly walking around campus one day and see a sticker that says "download bumble" and i go what the hell, ill try out the friend side of it. so i match with one dude and we talk a bit. go home for christmas break and expect well stop talking within a few days but we end up getting along super well and plan to meet once i get back. he has a wife whos a total vulnerable narcissist i mean TEXTBOOK: everything is always about her, shes always the victim, everyone is out to get her, yeah she punched you but 5 months ago you said something she didnt like, etc. one time i picked up a fry off her plate and she SCREECHED at the top of her lungs and sat in the kitchen crying for 30 minutes while husband tried to console her. anyway, shes gaslit her into thinking hes asexual because he doesnt want to have sex with her (because she has stank coochie from showering once a week) and shes hypersexual so she basically coerces him into trying out poly. brings her ex into the picture to fuck in their shared bed and my friend is pretty much ready to nope out. starts hanging out with me whenever hes off work, getting smashed together, watching cartoons, complaining about his wife, etc. realize were falling in love and have been for a while (known him 7-8 months at this point) and that he needs to gtfo. so cue the last 3 months of her basically trying to ruin our lives and make us miserable because im finally helping him get back his self worth after years of emotional abuse and she doesnt have a slave anymore to do everything for her (he cooked all her food, only one who went to work, dealt with her daily emotional breakdowns, drove her everywhere, etc etc etc) and is now stuck with her crackhead ex instead. meanwhile him and i are incredibly happy together having adult conversations and going hiking and hanging out with his old friends he wasnt "allowed" to see when he was with her. his parents and friends love me and all agree i am a huge upgrade. he finally told her today he doesnt want contact with her anymore and i am super proud
theres so many juicy details to this story and i left out a lot of occurrences to keep from writing a novel but i gotta send it out into the void thanks nonas for letting me do so
No. 950843>>950846
>>950834>How would you feel if the roles were reversed?Society would tell me I'm being controlling and jealous. That men are allowed to look but not touch. Boys will be boys. That if he does cheat it's probably because the woman came onto him.
I guess if I found out he saw someone in that way I'd personally freak out at myself and wonder what it was that
I was lacking to make him want to seek attention elsewhere.
Deep down I don't want to risk spiraling my relationship and ergo my house and all the securities I've built in this partnership for our survival all over one night. I don't think this is a "dump him" situation, I recognize that I'm being petty. I irrationally want the attention just because it fancies me and things are tough. It's a vent, anon.
No. 950849>>950851
>>950846Ok? Because wanting attention=wanting to take my clothes off to any stranger for money.
Sorry you were cheated on, but you're being a bitch for no reason tbh.
No. 950866
>>950713Your manager doesn't sound like she knows how to lead. Gossiping itself is already pretty risky at her level. Just think about her style of approaching things–if you ever had a problem with her or if she ever caught you saying something she didn't like on your social media that upset her, would you appreciate being publicly lambasted on a company group chat?
They're supposed to either go through HR or talk about the issue one on one with said person, it was no one else's business. It doesn't bode anon. I can see her as easily going off on you one day. Leadership that can't handle their emotions are bad news.
No. 950906>>950908
>>950904sadly it's all voice chat. But she follows (and stalks) him everywhere. Like the moment he's on discord she follows him from chat to chat. Girl even told her friends, family and parents that she's dating this guy.
The level of thotty-ness is out of control
No. 950916>>950919>>950920
>>950911He says she's cool sometimes but the whole server likes her. And this is a huge server too. If it was up to him yeah he would.
Gosh I'm tempted to say who it is but it would be a dick move
No. 950923>>950926
>>950919Honestly it is annoying to watch because no matter how popular you are, you can always tell people to fuck off if they make you THAT unhappy. To keep the peace? But then be miserable to yourself and in front of your friends?
>>950920Honestly just venting. But the guy who wont grow a backbone is Telepurte
No. 950939
>>950937I don't think so. I've met rabid k pop fans before. There are levels.
If listening to it pumps up your work outs I say go for it. I listen to disney remixes during my jogs. You're never too old to enjoy shit
No. 950942>>950944>>950951
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was scrollin thru the personal account of an artist i like and wondering how did her life seem so comfy and reasonable until i realized she was in sweeden and not the united states like me
sigh
anyway i wish i wasn't retarded and scared of driving so i could make more regular trips to the supermarket and like, cook healthy meals like this. it looks so good
No. 950949>>950952
>>950944our freezer has no space. i live with my dad and he's loathe to toss anything out, even the freezer burned chicken that neither of us will eat.
also we don't have a deep freezer. sucks but compromises must be made
No. 950951>>950954
>>950942That soup looks so good
besides the mushrooms, and I hope that's sweet tea. I wonder what's inside the sandwich?
>>950944I guess it's true. My family has a deep freezer and a fridge. The refrigerator freezer is for all the smaller items, and the big freezer is for bigger packages and things that were meant to be stored for a long time.
No. 950958
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>>950944This is a standard American fridge, it’s about 1.6 meters tall.
No. 950961>>950963
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>>950956Yes a lot of fridges here have two doors, but there's also a lot that are smaller and have the freezer compartment stacked on top of the fridge, like picrel. And yes I think the ice cubes are common.
>>950957>only wealthy people have the fridges that make iceNot true anon lol
No. 950963
>>950961by wealthy i mean “not poor”
if your family owns a house you’re not poor
the average apartment dwelling, working class american does not have a fridge that makes water and ice cubes
the freezer might make ice cubes but they dont come out the door
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Please I need help / advice
My mom quit her teaching job and I don't want to be cruel as she is 50-something and has scoliosis and chronic pain but she just doesn't want to teach because going up and down a 3 store high building is debilitating for her and honestly when she gets like this is very annoying but I can't help to think she's being a bit lazy. Anyways she wants to make them quick bucks and she got in her head the idea of streaming on facebook. Yes my mom wants to be a streaming sensation on facebook, she wants to talk about the same stuff she has teached but let me tell you something: she gets offended easily, she keeps going offtrack when she teaches, she keeps mixing it other stuff into her class like "why men suck" and yes men suck but when I hear it from my mom I cringe. I just dont have the heart to tell her this is fucking cringe. She told me to make her a logo and help her make a facebook because she's digitally illiterate and I just dont have the heart and to not do it. All I'M TRYING to say is I'm scared of my mom becoming a fucking cow but our fridge is empty, she is bad at managing finances, and she needs those quick bucks. What do. I'm fucking tired of her complaining all the fucking time.
No. 950981>>950984>>950987>>950998
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>>950974I can go deeper into the missery hole if you want
I'll tell you about my current life
>Dad dies 6 years ago>My mom's life had been all about my dad for like a decade because he was sick (kidney failure, daily dialisis) and she had to be the one who basically became a personal nurse to him>Now what>She has no job, she had to quit to help my dad in his final months>Ok teach at a very shitty school>Small pay but she also gets some money from the goverment>Coronavirus hits>She works from home and teaches zoom class now>Schools start opening again>New building school is gonna relocate at is far away and we have no car (no money to repair the one we have)>She can't walk it, she can't spend it on cabs, the building is too much for her chronic pain anyways>Too old to get another jobToday
>We have no food in our fridge. Pic related is from google but pretty much this (I dont wanna dox my fridge sorry)>She has no money. I have no money. My older brother who still lives with us rather buy alcohol than food.>My mom wants to resort to streaming>I'm fucking scaredDunno what else to say.
No. 950987
>>950981Well, it's good you might get a job at least. Is the government money she gets very little? Even if she streams you know it's not the end of the world because 1. She won't become popular most likely so it's like she has never done it.
2. If she gets popular at least she will make money which is good and if she will make money that means she would have found a niche of people that like her
No. 950992
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I woke up in the middle of the night after having dreamt of Yaniv and couldn’t go back to sleep after such an awful nightmare.
In my dream he was living in the same town as me for some reason and we were to my dismay acquaintances and he ran up to me and started ranting about how a 4-year old had sexually harassed him by pulling on the edge of his dress (he was wearing a latex babydoll-ish dress with a bolero over it) and I kept seething in silence despite wanting to tell him he’s a worthless waste of space that should get over himself but I couldn’t because we were going to the same party and I didn’t want to cause a stir so I just shut up.
Just thinking of this dream makes me uncomfortable.
No. 950994>>951010
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my partner is spergy and needy and
I am an antisocial intorvert.
her neediness is beginning to grate on me and also her autistic tendencies .
she denies being autistic but she is so deficient sometimes when it comes to communicating.
I get so frustrated always having to make every decision in this reltionship, from dinner, to what we are doing etc.
when I get home from work I just want time to go to the gym or go on my computer or just dissociate with my thoughts but she sits there passively like she's unable to do anything on her own if I am home.
I also was in this kind of scary situation last week at the gym, a scrote was trying to sexually harrass me and intimdiate me after hours while no staff were there. He was making lewd gestures and leering and following me around the gym. I tried to ignore but left rattled. She was totally dismissive or just her default aspie self.
Anyway I ordered a self defence knife that night. It arrived today and of course she was in my business when it arrived and was all like… acting like I was some scary unhinged knife enthusiast. She was minimizing my fear of moids, like a typical scrote defender. Anyway I don't keep the knife in the house, it's under my car seat cos I guess you never know.
Maybe I'm just too weird for even the weirdest people to be in a relationship with.
I want to be alone in an inner city apartment, working free lance or not at all. Going to the gym and hating moids in peace.
No. 951015>>951269
>>951010I probably should
nonnie, but guilt?
It would break her heart
And also mine too I think since there is so much I love about her
I don't always feel so disdainful and trapped, just today needed to vent more than usual
No. 951024
>>950817You seem to believe absolutely everything he says, especially about his wife. He could be feeding you dog shit while telling you it's chocolate and you'd believe it. That's the vibe you exude here. You sound like a potential clueless dumbass.
If you can't be bothered to do your own research on people, you probably deserve to be eventually cucked and shittalked by him to another retarded woman after he's done with you. I really hope for your own good that you know who you're actually with.
No. 951052
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If I hear "startup" one more time, I'm killing myself
No. 951185>>951282
>>951155suck on icecubes too hydrate, if you can, get groceries delivered to your house. get pedialyte and drink a bit every hour until you’re hydrated enough to drink water or clear soda.
i had the exact same thing happen to me, i asked my mom for help and she accused me of being drunk
No. 951187
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The clinic hasn't returned my calls. My blood test returned abnormal, like possibility prediabetic and kidney issues. I'm fucking spiraling. Why me? It isn't enough that I'm fucked in the head?? I'm fantasizing about killing myself.
No. 951206
In my mind I've kind of made a metaphor for life being a banquet. You go to one and, while there are a few meals you like, it's mostly filled with stuff you dislike and don't enjoy eating. These days, hell the past couple of months have been like that for me - sure there might be some nice moments here and there you can enjoy, but is that enough to keep on going? Are there enough reasons to stay at the banquet if there's not a lot of good food around? There's nothing much to look forward to, and few things to distract me. It's like all the hope was been drained from my body. I keep asking myself, what can I do to make it easier, to make me cope better, make living hurt less? Find a better distraction,a new self destructive habit? Anything to escape, really. The options are running dry
No. 951226
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I'm so tired anons. I tried my best to be a cheerful person but I can't do it anymore. When I was younger everyone and everything was so beautiful to me and I miss that feeling so much. I'm so worn down and bitter at the world for turning me into yet another cynic. Call me weak if you want but there's only so much a person can take before they completely break down.
No. 951282>>951300
>>951190>>951199>>951185>>951177Hinhope I got everyone
Can’t keep anything down for too long, including meds and water. It’s been awful. Once I can keep that down I’ll try pedialyte.
My Medicine is cherry so it pukes up terrible
Thank you all for your help and advice.
I appreciate you all, thank you
No. 951288>>951290>>951305>>951486>>951674>>951813
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A couple threads ago I posted about how an ex-friend of mine decided to troon out and is a "boy" now. Well. It just keeps happening. A close lesbian friend of mine came out to us like two weeks ago that she is nonbinary. She said she's nonbinary because she doesn't feel like a woman nor a man. And I wish I could scream at her that I don't feel like a woman either, and nobody does, gender is a scam, feelings have nothing to do with your sex. But that would only get me in arguements, so I stay quiet.
We speak a language that doesn't have gendered pronouns, however we often speak English around eachother (Internet-induced brainrot I guess) so I gotta use they/them.
Trannies and everything tranny related just goes completely against my beliefs and I find it so difficult to be constantly validating her bullshit. Which I must do, of course, because my circle is super liberal and nobody knows about my views. If I'd say anything that even slightly indicated that I don't find her identity sUpEr-DuPeR vAlId, well, I could kiss my friends goodbye. I'd hate to lose them, and I'd hate to lose this specific friend also, because we've been getting closer to each other lately and I really do like her.
Having to constantly validate her is honestly very tiring and actually kind of emotionally taxing to me. I'm not allowed to refer to our group as "girls", can't jokingly address them as "ladies", I can't even say I'm hanging out with my girlfriends. It's just that this female bonding that I wanted all my life was taken from me/us. Like, yes it's actually important to me that my friends are women and I hate pretending that one of them isn't. I can't even use the bs "gender neutral" (aka male-centered) stuff like "guys". Because even that is iNvAlIdAtInG. So I usually just say "girls plus (name)" or something.
The fact that she's also lesbian (and dresses pretty masculine) is just the icing on the cake lol. Yay for more lesbian erasure!
Oh and the funniest part of it all is how we're all bending over backwards to respect her identity (like we seriously go ridiculous lengths not to misgender her and are constantly policing each others speech to be more inclusive) and she is the one who refers to herself as female the most often. Sometimes we're the ones to correct her, because if we don't, she catches on and will be like "why didn't you correct me".
It's killing me. It may not sound that serious, but to me, it is.
No. 951305>>951319
>>951288god, im sorry anon, that shit is so annoying.
i was in a female group chat that i enjoyed, but when we did a group video call i said something like “you ladies are all so gorgeous!” and one was like UhM acKtShuLly iM noT a LadY!!!! and made me feel awkward and shitty. this woman was very feminine presenting too, not that it matters.
i wish those genderspecial people would just shut the fuck up, they make everyone so fucking uncomfortable. i don’t even correct people for saying my name wrong i don’t understand how people can spend their entire day correcting people on their neo-kinship-twans-uwu pronouns
No. 951313>>951314
>>951300But.. but I’m in the land of expensive healthcare… I cant pay 2k plus for an ER visit. I mean, I will.. I guess, if I’m dying
Worst part is, the food poisoning is from something I ate I thought he mountains during a day trip for my birthday.
The one time I decided to eat whatever in-spite of my dieting and working out, and it’s fucking mishandled by some mountain man working minimum wage in a dirty kitchen. (Not Ana Chan, just getting healthy)
Also, update, my roommate brought me some weed and a bong and it’s helping. Thanks stonerbro. I know not everyone agrees with weed but holy fuck it’s helped calm my stomach already.
Thank you all nonnas on this thread, I’ve vented a lot here, and I appreciate the medical advice and help. I don’t have social iall media anymore, but here I feel like there’s real interactions (mostly, but there are exceptions)
No. 951319
>>951305>i don’t even correct people for saying my name wrongThe difference between normal people and the gender fandom kek. But for real, you really should correct people if they mispronounce your name. That's like basic respect.
I'm just hoping she'll come round eventually.
No. 951366
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I hate when my loud ugly stupid hideous older brother comes home, because he's so loud that I can hear whatever he's doing no matter where he is in the house and he has a habit of talking to himself. So then I'm forced to put my earphones in and listen to asmr or white noise but I hate being forced to do that because I don't want to listen to anything right now aaaaaaaa
I wish my dad (who isn't even my brother's dad, our mother is goddamn dead) would just fucking kick him out already. He HAS another place to live. It's unfair because I can't move out yet, but my brother easily can. I never get the place to myself and when my brother is home I feel uncomfortable bathing so I also haven't bathed in a couple days, which I know is gross but I feel uncomfortable naked if he's here. I can't do anything when he's here.
No. 951409>>951412>>951436>>951442
It's been getting real hard lately for me, my boyfriend pays less and less attention to me and instead gives that attention thats supposed to be focused on me and us in general, to this girl hes friends with and constantly playing arams with on league.I remember us both always playing arams or just normal games together, and talking. Since we are long distance and covid makes it almost impossible for us to meet and hang out. And whenever i ask him if we could do something together like old times, he just gives me excuses like "im busy" "maybe when i finished reaching this rank" etc.
Also what i always wanted to try to tell him, but always ends up in an arguement is when i tell him not to play with any random girls he just met, because it makes me very uncomfortable and i feel insecure about it. Well, tried that and he always tells me "we are friends" "oh now i cant play with my friends?" and completely disregarding how i feel.
I don't mind him playing with other girls, but im only okay with it if its friends he has known for YEARS or even before we even dated. But not some random girl he just met a second ago and now calls her his friend. I'm just really sick of it how he has been treating me, its like he changed completely over the course of a fucking month. It's almost like i don't regonize him anymore, and feels like im talking to a very mean spirited and hateful person who doesnt give any shit about other peoples feelings. Really don't know who he is anymore, i feel like its gonna end up in a break up.
No. 951450>>951461
>>951446speak firmly and frankly to identify the problem, and promise yourself you'll react to anything ugly you'll discover in a way that protects your interests and your dignity.
it's unimaginable for me to tolerate a boyfriend telling me to shut the fuck up over nothing.
No. 951465
>>951446You're a doormat because you've already tolerated blatant disrespect.
>if it continuesShould've broken up already. No ~he's just misunderstood~, no "I just need to communicate I'm hurt!", no waterworks, just calmly state "that's not the kind of behavior I tolerate from a boyfriend, this isn't going to work out" and fucking yeet him out of your life.
No. 951486>>951491
>>951288You're not their friend, just own up to it
if what they say is good for them is only registering as taxing and a burden on you you you all of this is about you, then let them go. Tones on the internet dont carry well so I am saying this in the least bitchy way I can, I mean it in the cut yourself free way.
Clearly it bothers you on a fundamental level, so why keep marinating in it? Just be honest with them, say you don't care about what makes them feel good about themselves and toddle off.
No. 951495
>>951493The Mexican Mom energy off of people that say/do that shit lmao
It annoys me too, especially since obviously if I am into it the imaginary market is probably already oversaturated with people that have been doing it longer and make actual sales so like fuck just let me be a goblin and enjoy this on my own
No. 951518
>>951514NO
I really, really mean it.
If that's what you really sincerely want, then really hope you find fulfillment and inspiration with what you do enough to the point that other people feel the love in your craft and want to pay to have a sliver of that love in their life.
Please go forth and do your best.
No. 951538
>>951503I get that they're trying to be nice but it completely kills my drive to do things for myself. I feel an immense pressure to live up to it and get good and it makes me feel like shit because I know I never will, I'm not capable of greatness, and I wish that I was enough for them as I am, not as they dream I could be because they don't understand what it means to be a retard. I can't walk or even talk or think in a straight line, I have no sense of space and direction so I'm always getting lost and confused and injured, I can't do controlled movements with my hands or fingers so I'm always dropping and breaking and otherwise ruining shit, I have to reread the same sentence multiple times to understand what the hell I just read, I can't retain technical information or do basic math, I don't have a creative eye or ear or brain, and it's not for lack of trying I've been trying so hard for so long, I'm developmentally stunted and will be this way forever. I can't try really hard and get good at something I love like a normal person. All I can do is love it in my way. But it's never enough for them. I don't even want them to lie and pretend I'm good at things like most retards. Why can't they just say, "oh that sounds fun, it's cool that you're doing that" or if they really want to be involved, "let me see what you've been working on, it's great that you're having fun with this." Everything has to be about success and money.
No. 951626>>951645
>>951618AYRT And I'm literally a lesbian. It baffles me how they can do this without hesitation, because even I feel "not gay enough" a lot of the time, even though I've never kissed, had sex with, cuddled, held hands with, or been on a date with a man, nor have I ever genuinely been attracted to men. If my brief comphet "dating" (no physical contact, no attraction, never alone together) is enough to make me doubt myself (even though I've done/felt all but a couple of those things with women), how can these retards have ongoing sexual relations with the opposite sex and call themselves gay without issue?
No. 951644>>951651
>>951637How do you do something literally twice but technically once?
>>951643NTA But since when do scrotes care, so long as they're getting laid?
No. 951645
>>951624Twitter brain rot. The man she's with now posts lesbian porn on Twitter all day so I guess she adopted the title for his fetish, even though she's totes a man now and was saying she's a gay man not that long ago. The last guy she was with, she pulled a gender switcheroo on and insisted he call himself a gay man and would call him a twink and faggot. He didn't do it and they broke up over it. I like to keep an eye on their twitters now and then just to keep up with her gender madness. If the new guy troons out, will she go back to calling herself a woman so she can stay gay, or are he/him she/her lesbian couples heckin
valid?
>>951626It baffles me too. She's only ever been with straight men but swears up and down that she's gay/lesbian and so oppressed for being gay/lesbian. Like comphet is real and bisexuals are a thing, but how can you keep on dating and fucking dudes and only dudes, PIV, never date or express attraction to a female in your life, while saying you're a lesbian? She's a woman attracted to men… Or according to her, she's a man attracted to men. How does one take either of those two things and come up with "yep, I'm a lesbian"? Words have no meaning anymore.
No. 951651
>>951644The first time I sent costumer service an e-mail, I don't think it actually sent. I think I may have accidentally restarted the page or backspaced
which would make sense because my mouse is broken and that happens occasionally before it could send. The second time I wrote an e-mail it gave me confirmation that they received the e-mail.
Anyway, I won't send another one, that would be dumb.
No. 951674
>>951602All while continuing to be straight
>>951288Damn I’m sorry anon. Do any of your other friends feel the same way as you, or can you like. Find out somehow? I’m sure you’re not the only one who feels this way at all.
No. 951718>>951721
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This is stupid but I work with this girl and she's super nice and we get along well but she seems to literally fart ALL DAY LONG. It's not loud and the smell isn't vomit-tier, but it's still nasty and unpleasant. I think she has a lot of digestive issues and her personality is pretty meek and shy so I don't want to confront her about it and be mean… but holy crap we work in a relatively confined area and it's constant.
No. 951993
>>951813It IS a fucking power move, I'm pretty sure that the unexplored aspect of troonery (that's gonna be found out soon though) is its comorbidity with stuff like NPD, HPD and BPD.
It's already been established that (actual) autism and ADHD runs rampant among troons, the next step is to acknowledge that it's not just the unconventional way of self-expression and identifying that's going on - it's straight up manipulation and attention-seeking.
Protip4Nonnies: If someone troons or enbies around you, cut THEM off lmao. For your own health.
No. 952086>>952088
>>952080Stop seething and chill
nonnie uwu
No. 952094>>952097>>952099>>952103>>952359>>952368>>952551>>952623
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My boyfriend and I have different sleep and work schedules (he works nights) and when I wake up it's like the whole home becomes a mess overnight. He always leaves stuff where it doesn't belong everywhere (deodorant and lotion bottles on the kitchen table, half empty water bottles everywhere, random litter that's never thrown in the trash). He never bothers to put it away. I can cook but because of our different sleep schedules I'm not always awake or there to make food so he makes his own, but he uses pre packaged stuff. And it always dirties the sink because he doesn't clean out the pots after he cooks and he never rinses the plates, so it's a damn chore to clean them afterwards. I don't eat pre packaged food and cook my own meals, so whenever I wake up I have to deal with washing all his dishes just so I can make myself some food, but it always makes me lose my appetite because it's just so gross. Even then he never washes any dirty dishes so he can use them. Like for example, if he wanted ice cream and all the spoons in the house were dirty, he would use a damn ladle probably. I tried not washing his dishes and only washing my own for the food I want to cook, but obviously that doesn't work because he uses mine or other clean dishes. I wouldn't even mind washing all the dishes if he at least rinsed them and cleaned out the food. This is why I always want to cook for him because when he does it himself he makes such a mess and most of the time actually, he doesn't even put the used pots and utensils back in the sink and I hate leaving them out. I know this is such a stupid thing to vent about but I just needed to let it out somewhere. Shit if I were like those based husbando /g/ anons I would only have to wash my own dishes. My husbando would never do this to me.
No. 952103>>952104>>952107>>952180
>>952094Tell him that if you're going to be his personal live-in housemaid he should pay you for it. If not he should start treating you like his partner that you are. What are his excuses for not cleaning up after himself?
>>952099Nta, I always thought this shit too, stop doing cleaning or cooking food or washing clothes for men and they'll start doing it themselves. They won't, they'll literally start living as hobos with a home. I've experienced it first hand, it's absurd.
No. 952107>>952110
>>952099>>952103This anon isn't me
>>952104 but maybe they're in a similar situation. I do try to tell him and he does do it for like a few days, but he always goes back to it.
No. 952116
>>951780>>951794Because history books read in schools are extremely sanitized and vague on details. They don't want their own country and its allies looking
too bad, and they don't want the average person to be interested in finding out more. Even aside from that, American history classes tend to cover new material and old material at a 1 to 1 rate, at best. I remember learning the same material about the Revolutionary War and the Civil War every single year. Not expanded material, literally the same shit every year. The only two times I remember a class expanding more on literally anything else were in 6th grade (Rwandan Genocide and United States conflict with the Middle East) and 11th grade (WWII and the Great Depression), both instances I firmly believe were the result of skilled and dedicated teachers, rather than the American education system itself.
No. 952150>>952155
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I finally started talking more to my mother, which is nice and all, but our conversation styles are so different, it's painful. Me and my friends are very fast-paced in our conversations with lots of interjections and trailing off in the middle of it just to return to the topic ten minutes later after we're done discussing whatever the other one brought up. With my mother on the other hand, it's more turn-based, and she seems to see those interjections that I do as actual interrupting, and I can see how she's taken aback whenever it happens. She sometimes doesn't even try picking up on where she left off unless I bring it up after a short awkward pause, probably because she thinks I decided I'm "done" listening and don't want her input anymore. My heart hurts, she's got to be shaking her head about how she managed to raise a child this rude.
No. 952161
>>952158Hard same,
nonnie. It's rough, because the longer you put things off, the more impossible they seem. Don't be too hard on yourself, you're doing your best.
No. 952166>>952236
>>952156Same here,
nonnie. And I know I'm a great friend, too, I know this is a fact. So why is it so hard?
No. 952180
I’m filling out a health questionnaire for an insurance policy and it’s treating autism spectrum disorder like it’s a treatable illness or a broken bone or something. When did it happen? What caused it? How often do you experience symptoms? Are you taking the appropriate medication and if not, why not? How long are you expecting it to last?
I feel like a snarky asshole answering with
>at birth I guess
>unknown>every day>no there is none>foreverbut I don’t know what else to write down. None of the questions are skippable.
It also asks if I’ve ever had suicidal feelings and when I click ‘yes’, it wants me to select an exact date on one of those little calendar widgets lmao what the fuck
>>952103I think for many of these guys it's a war of attrition that they know they'll win in the end, as long as their tolerance for dirt is higher than yours. Letting them stew in their own filth doesn’t work when you share a living space with them because 1) you’ll still be tripping over their garbage and smelling their stink and 2) even if you only clean ‘your half’ (of the dishes etc.) they’ll just start dirtying those too. It’s not just because they’re too tired or have no time to clean. When these guys live alone, or with male roommates who are even grosser than they are, they will eventually find time to clean up after themselves because no one else is going to do it. When there’s a woman in the house, though? They know she’ll wear down and start cleaning eventually.
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I'm not the anon that was replied to, just a /g/ lurker but I don't like posts like this. Online relationships, not just romantic ones, can be real friendships and it can hurt to lose someone even if you've only known them online. Not everyone has the fortune of having IRL friends.
No. 952220>>952233
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I'm tired of society°I'm tired of being tangled in the chaos°I'm tired of humans and their voices°humans are horrible°humans are inherently narcissistic and individualistic°I don't need to justify myself in front of you°I know the things that I know• It also took me a while to accept that I actually have done many good things in my life and that I did the best I could for my situation. I hate words and I'm disorganized
No. 952225
>>952185you’re right to not tell your boyfriend, men are disgusting, i’ve had boyfriends say they want to fuck my mom or describe what sexual acts they want her to do to them.
i can’t believe i put up with that shit, but to be fair i was really young when that was happening
my mom isn’t even young though she had me in her mid thirties, and boyfriends would still say nasty shit about her
No. 952261>>952268>>952307>>952310
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>computer tries to update
>oh no you don't bitch
>pause updates and choose the date so it shouldn't do fuck all for at least 3 more weeks
>hours later it still updates anyway right when I'm in the middle of something (claims the "pc ran into a problem" as an excuse when it's working perfectly fine)
CUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUNNNNNNNNNNNNNNTSSSSSSSSS fucker faggot assfuck I'm taking the biggest, steamiest, nastiest, shittest dump of all dumps on bill gates head. i'm shoving that shit in every orifice hope he fucking chokes and dies cockhead
No. 952340>>952384
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Decided to try listening to the "Sleep With Me" podcast everyone recommends to insomniacs as I went to bed. Put on a random ep and the host opens it by talking about BLM/LGBTQ issues. I'm sorry but what the fuck? Admittedly I chose some episode from early 2020, but if I were a regular listener settling down and putting this podcast on in order to peacefully fall asleep, the LAST thing I would want to hear about is sociopolitical turmoil? Put it in the episode caption maybe? Jesus fucking christ now I'm too pissed to fall asleep and am logged on here to complain about it
No. 952384
>>952340Jesus Christ, I'm so sorry
nonnie. I've never had to use a sleeping aid like that, but I get mad enough as it is with that shit seeping into my daytime entertainment, so I can't imagine how mad you must be.
No. 952466>>952516
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i'm trying very hard to be a good girl i'm trying to be reasonable and laidback and not be a nitpicky perfectionist selfish dumbass bitch IM TRYING and i think it's working. God just be nice to me please im begging you
No. 952467>>952812
>>952198She's right though. All she said was
>losing an online gf isn't devastating>how heartbroken could someone even be losing someone onlineShe didn't say it wouldn't hurt him, she said it wouldn't devastate him or break his heart. It would be significantly less emotionally impactful than a break up with someone you live with or see all the time, and had a solid foundation to build a life together. If the relationship is still online, it's clearly not important enough for the person to travel or move to the other.
No. 952551>>952565>>952569>>952578>>952589>>952595
>>952094I read if you go the damsel in distress route and sweetly ask a man to do something adding “for me” with a little pout at the end men are more inclined to help and not feel it to be nagging… Unsure if this is true as I haven’t a guinea pig to try this out on. I feel as women we must master the art of manipulation to avoid becoming an actual doormat. If he’s going to act like a big baby try making a fun rota together with highlighters and doodles to stick on the kitchen wall which takes in to consideration what day who does what and taking consideration on working schedule but make him feel like he’s in charge of deciding because he so big and manly ug ug
beats chest. Final option is burying him under the patio kek
I kid No. 952623
>>952094You sound like you're living with my filthy brothers. Word for word, bar for bar, down to the rinsing dishes I could've written everything you have. These type of habits never change, I can guarantee you this. It's selfishness to another degree entirely.
Luckily for you he's just a bf so drop him as soon as you can because you wont be able to change this about him ever. You might only be slightly annoyed now because despite it all you still love him but I promise you no person is worth a lifetime of this. It's completely dehumanizing.
You have to understand that his retarded little brain has no idea what it feels like to walk into a kitchen and see the shit you see. When he walks into a filthy kitchen he knows the next time he steps back in it'll be all clear. People like him were never taught to be responsible for themselves, and they will remain their entire lives this way unless someone forces their hand.
No. 952628
>>952599Some people are just shitty, specially online because you can’t ever know who they really are.
I hope you can get to have at least a real friend who will reciprocate your feelings, it takes a lot of time and luck, but it isn’t impossible.
No. 952697
>>952668Same energy as my parents, they're emotionally immature/unavailable.
Sorry you're going through that. Life gets 1000× less stressful by moving and going low or no contact.
No. 952761>>952767>>953010
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feels so awkward to be almost twenty-three (i hit that next year in december), but still trying to get my degree, and still living with my parents, and unable to drive.
i'm such a loser too. people will ask me what i've been doing and it's just "uhh procrastinating on school-work and watching anime."
i sometimes think i should get a job but i
>a.) am lucky enough to not be in real, desperate need of funds right now
>b.) don't really want to work customer service unless it's in a lowkey bookstore or something.
when i realized how much cheddar i could've stacked up had i started working earlier while still living at home, i also feel it's pointless to even start now, idk. just trying to graduate and enter a small time office as a paper pusher or something
No. 952787>>952791
>>952767>take pride in growing up quickly that it makes you feel so behind.i have such mixed feelings on this. on one hand i'm all
yeah, go you, you've moved out and you're independent now…but i look at the circumstances for that independence and it's like, they're either married or have a roommate. or they live in an apartment and paycheck to paycheck + paying a car note (sometimes people do this even while having a roomie/marriage partner). it just seems tiresome to me
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>>952797Samefag, should I change my background too? Is this weird? Would you judge a classmate you don't know for this? The group is majority scrotes too.
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>>952883Picrel is the only acceptable Pitbull
No. 952893>>952907
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>>952883You guys have an entire containment thread, just stay in it
No. 952946>>952949
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drinking alone again anons. Have a whole bottle of vodka to myself. Skål
No. 952953>>952979
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I’m literally never horny except for like the week before my period and holy shit it’s bad this time. I’m so horny my whole body hurts what the fuck is wrong with me
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Ah shit, it’s bait. Oh well.
Reading is based
No. 953138>>953142>>953189
>>953103or
or, hear me out
maybe whitetrash ass parents should teach their fucking children better
and maybe it isn't a child's fault when they get murdered, maybe it's the adults around them who consistently failed them
also, you think she would have killed someone? she's a
she, retard, we don't do that
No. 953139>>953140>>953142>>953241
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>>952002insomniac anon here
in the past 4 days i have slept…………..17 hours? and that was only in 2 days of sleep. i did not sleep for 2 days then slept for 14 hours. and then i slept 3 hours last night. and now i cannot sleep again. i am suffering. SUFFERING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!
No. 953142>>953143>>953189
>>953138she clearly meant that bianca would've been killed by someone else for fucking around too much anyway
>>953139how can you struggle to sleep, lol? i don't get insomnia. just close your eyes and clear your mind.
No. 953143>>953144>>953146>>953151>>953155
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>>953140YES I'VE TAKEN TRAZODONE FOR THE PAST 3 DAYS
i took it last night. and slept……..3 hours!@ 3 HOURS!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK!!!!!!
>>953142damn fuck i wish i had thought of that earlier anon. thank you so much. i will try closing my eyes hahaa!! man….i wish i had thought of that 12 years ago!!! hehe…
No. 953146>>953152
>>953143Serious question, have you tried edibles yet?
I am also on Trazadone (hey sis) and sometimes when the pills run out I'll take half a gummy and it usually gets me cozy enough to fall asleep fine.
No. 953150>>953392
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>>953141I hate it when they pick Tomie. The opposite of a crybaby uwu pickme. As if bitch.
No. 953151>>953160
>>953143fellow sufferer here, trazadone will tear your ass the fuck wide open, stop taking it, tell your doctor to give you a referral for a sleep study so you can actually get treated
I don't know why they make sleep a fucking inaccessible human right, but there you go
melatonin is snake oil and trazadone dries out every gland you have and still doesn't even make you sleep
No. 953152
>>953144melatonin just makes me feel like a bobblehead and then i have nightmares so bad they wake me up after 3-4 hours. hehe lol……fuck
>>953146i've tried d8 edibles. they make me very anxious. drinking 1 white claw helps tbh. i don't drink at all so just having a little bit of alcy is enough to make me tiredish. but i hate drinking kek it feels like im being an obese FUCK even though its just one FUCKING CAN. maybe actual weed edibles would help idfk…….but d8 made me so fucked up kek but weed kinda does the same shit i am just not well suited to drugging tbh
No. 953160>>953163>>953166>>953171
>>953151can you elaborate on trazodone drying out your glands? what do you mean nona. i'm spooked. my doc offered me a sleep study but i usually only sleep at like sporadic hours (like about 3-5 hours from 6am-noon) so i did not think i would even get any relevant information from a sleep study bc i wouldn't be able to…..sleep
>>953155literally, no. i cannot. lol
i try and try and try and try and try and try and i cannot fall asleep. and of course that isn't until i also roll around for hours on end to even fall asleep. but then. BUT THEN!!! you wake up after 3 hours. still exhausted. and still. AND STILL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CANNOT FALL BACK ASLEEP! WHAT the fuck. just kill me.
No. 953164
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>>953163I'M GOING TO FUCKING A-LOG FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU
No. 953169
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If you ever decide to try them this is the bag I am trying to work my way through, the taste is a little eh but half of one is usually enough.
I used to really make fun of stoners, still do actually since this is just for my emergencies, but any harbor in a storm, you know?
No. 953171>>953200
>>953160means exactly what it sounds like; you get miserably constipated, can't breathe through your nose, dry mouth, dry eye, dry vagina, fucking hemorrhoids from the giant bone-dry logs it makes you shit, etc etc
it sucks. sucky ass medication.
Not sleeping during a sleep study is actually just as informative as sleeping; ie: they have proof you don't sleep right, and must require some sort of aid
No. 953189
>>953129look up edgecult (there’s even a kiwifarms thread). the callouts probably won’t make sense since it’s retarded kin drama so don’t say i didn’t warn you lol
>>953138what
>>953142 said, funnily enough her mother was contacted about all the stupid online drama and she was kept off the internet for a few months. what i’m saying is this was years before she got murdered but she still found herself back in even worse online communities. what happened to her just seemed pretty inevitable
No. 953200>>953204
>>953171okay this makes sense kek i already have dry skin and whatnot but i have felt it amplified even moreso after starting it but i haven't taken it TOO MUCH…only like 7 or so pills (i only got prescribed it like a few weeks ago but i dont take it ALOT)
but i didn't know that about sleep studies. i was just afraid that i would get no useful information. i will bring it up to my doctor thank you anonny. it sucks that like…almost every sleep aid has really shitty side effects
No. 953204
>>953200the good news is, once you've had the sleep study, that like, basically unlocks the 'real' sleep aids, which in my experience, have waaay better results, which is to say, they actually work at all
good luck,
nonny No. 953210
>>952965>she had death coming because she pissed him off by being a pickmeIf only we'd feel the same indifference for murdered men who pissed off the wrong women who they played their games on.
Bianca died because she denied the guy the puss.
Men have collectively stolen years from women's lives, their finances, their domestic labors, and have been subjected to their hot and cold player games and infidelity. Maybe they ought to have cut their balls off and shit down their throats before lighting them on fire to put out with their piss.
If only women were as needlessly and unpredictably violent as men for even a fraction of the crimes they put us through. Maybe then we would be the ones telling them to be careful and not piss us off lest they get what they deserve.
No. 953237
>>952819Happy late birthday nona
It's not really something you can make a big deal of, but it's not weird to be upset by it. I think friends should try to remember birthdays. It's not hard to put it in a calendar and send a text,especially if you're told just a few days ahead of time. It can mean a lot to people.
No. 953331
>>953255hi, nona. this pain is temporary. stop projecting your worst fears that she's already "moved on". if you're not talking to her then you have no way of knowing what she's feeling.
you need to start caring for yourself in little ways. can you get up and get a drink of water? can you splash some water on your face? eat a little simple food? just a few bites. you will come back to life, I promise.
No. 953445>>953567>>953577
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I am a boring person, I have no friends and a bf that doesn't really do anything with me. I hate life and I feel alone but yet relationships sound like effort I don't want to deal with. I cry every night because I know I will probably die alone. Halloween is making me more depressed because I don't have anyone to hang out with.
I hope everyone has a good Halloween though
No. 953567
>>953445I hope you can find the energy to talk to people.
Years ago I made good online friends that got me through those feelings. Maybe try to find a hobby group/ discord for something you enjoy doing. I'm sure you're not as boring as you say or think.
No. 953626
>>953606Girl same, but younger living in the middle of fucking nowhere
Time to get some new hobbies, it's the only thing that keeps the loneliness away
No. 953659>>953677>>953678
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We attracted a stray cat to our home–scratch that, we've spotted many strays around our property–yet this is the only one who consistently comes back every night. She really likes to sleep a lot on our bench because it's cozy, but she's clearly anxious around us and if she notices us, or if we get too close, she runs away and hides until she thinks we're gone again.
I watch her a lot on my Ring camera, which is how I know she spends so much time on our bench. She's a young adult at least.
My husband thinks we should feed her because he's got cat fever and wants to adopt her but idk.
I haven't been able to have my own cat in over a literal decade (the closest I got was buying one and its supplies for an abusive ex who tried to triangulate his affection with the cat against me and threatened to kill me if I took it when I broke up with him).
When I finally do get a cat, I either want to buy a kitten or adopt the most socialized cat I can find because I all I want is a pet that actually likes me.
In my experience strays (and barn cats) that I've had from my childhood are never social and are often temperamental. If you bring them inside, which is what I'd want for our pet cat, they always caterwaul for the outdoors and escape any chance they get because that's where they want to be.
I don't know if he has experience with strays, but just because one feeds a stray doesn't mean it will trust or like people. Some just eat and run and then poop/spray in the yard to mark the territory that feeds it.
I told him we should see if she adjusts to having us around and not running away before giving her any food. He's guilting me about the weather getting colder but…if anything we should trap her and take her to a no kill shelter if it were really so dire. We live in the south, it won't get north-cold with snow. He just wants a cat. I do too but fuck me I just want to have it my way for once.
No. 953702>>953722
>>953686I'm starting to see some push back against the porn pandemic and men are fucking
triggered that they got lifelong limp dick for no reason
No. 953750>>953752
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jokingly called my coworker racist, really hope he doesn't report me lolol. He asked if I was taking work off for "black friday" and I just was like "racist"
then I followed up with "HAHAHA I'm so sorry"
I'll report back if I get in trouble
No. 953770>>953774>>953890
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This bitch used to bully me in highschool and I log into my old fb to see her baiting this shit.
Bitch you pulled the same shit for money, a new phone, and now rent free living?
I have a spare room In the house I own, but best believe I’d never welcome her in.
How long can you claim living in an abusive house as you turn 30, when I know for a face you lived with some mutuals for months and dodged rent because of “mental health”. You got the money, you just want everyone to pity you for the rest of your life.
And if No OnE HeLpS you it’s their fault you die?
Fuck off you selfish cunt.
No. 953773>>953787
>>953765I’m so sorry
nonnie ♥
No. 953792
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woke up yesterday (10/28/21) with a weird sore spot on my foot. there's no bruise or anything the upper part of my foot is just red and it hurts to walk on (so i can't walk).
hurts to flex my foot too.
i don't think it's related to the splinter i got the day before yesterday (10/27/21), despite being roughly below where i pulled said splinter out. i can see the splinter bruise, after all, and it doesn't hurt like this does.
hope it clears up by saturday at least so i can go to the store and buy some actual food to cook, i'm so tired of frozen dinners
No. 953793>>953796
>>953787Anyrt, I can’t imagine how you feel, but I hope you know I don’t think this has any reflection on the mother you will be. Our bodies just suck sometimes, and life sucks.
I hope you don’t give up on being a parent.
(Not trying to diminish/ direct how you should feel)
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Sick for the first time in almost 2 years. Holy shit I didn't miss this at all, even sneezing hurts
No. 953857>>953869
>>953824>>953842I'm the anon and this is exactly the case, she wants to pay lip service and be a dutiful handmaiden when we're around other people. She wants to
unlearn her "transphobia" because it's making her life harder and it breaks my heart because she knows how personal this is to me. She started crying because she wants to be liked by her peers and doesn't want to be "contaminated" by my wrongthink and that was what offended me the most.
No. 953862>>953886
>>953809I was in a similar boat in my last relationship. I was/still am kinda dysphoric and was close to trooning out but I was still an evil
terf at heart so naturally I would rant a lot to my girlfriend about the manipulation and lies I saw from the trans crowd and how butch lesbians like me face extra pressure and she would just be like "nope, they're just living their life, they would never do that" despite the fact she's very gender conforming, only knew one troon (an Aiden from her fandom online) and not having the right to deny my opinions of what I faced. Our break up was caused by a few issues but her not listening to my lived experiences was the straw that broke the camels back. It's so demoralising to live like that. Not telling you to break up with your gf but you need to find a middle ground where you respect each others beliefs and she acknowledges what you've been through. Good luck, anon. I hope things turn out well for you and your gf.
No. 953869
>>953866Wait ignore this, I just read
>>953857That's grounds for breaking up, it seems very spineless
No. 953875>>953950
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So I developed a ridiculous crush/obsession on a coworker a month ago, idealized the shit out of him, got a rush whenever he'd contact me, cyberstalked him, fantasized about him incessantly, read the books he mentioned in our conversations, watched the movies he mentioned in our conversations, and suddenly, today, after a short and insignificant conversation with him, the feeling was completely gone. He felt just like any other person. I actually even felt slightly disgusted and annoyed by him for some reason. I'm both relieved but sad at the same time. No more emotional highs.
No. 953886
>>953862Thank you so much anon, you sharing your experience means a lot to me and sounds very similar to what I'm going through.
And for clarification, I barely speak to her about this stuff. Something really enraging just happened that made me lose my shit and I ranted to her about it, she was very unempathetic and even got mad that I brought it up in the first place. She used to be very terfy herself but after she got berated for it by her handmaiden friends she started toning it down a lot.
No. 953991>>953998>>954002
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>>953980I read cosy mysteries aka 'cozies'! they're murder mysteries but are set in little quiet towns and such, they deal with death obviously but unlike usual crime/murder books you're spared too much violence. they usually have a mary sue as the main character but I like mary sues tbh! I'm currently reading the first in a series called 'murder is binding' by Lorna Barrett
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>>953991nta, do you know the flavia de luce series? it's for kids but it's super charming and flavia is such a fun protagonist.
we also have a book thread in /m/ if you wanna drop by there and talk, nonna. i'm always excited to see activity there.
No. 954009>>954031
>>953998I haven't read any of the flavia de luce series but I have heard of it when looking into cosies, thanks for reminding me about it anon I will have to remember it once I'm looking for a new book
I've not a super avid reader, only read a few books a year but I will check out the thread on /m/
>>954002I'm actually quite new to cosies but the author's I've written down that interest me so far are Lorna Barrett (author of 'murder is binding', the book I'm reading now), Agatha Christie (the original!), Joanna Fluke, Rita Mae Brown and Ellery Adams. I recommend checking out Intentionally Bookish on youtube, she posts about cosy mysteries a lot. this video could be a good start since they're all free cosies,
though there's alwats https://z-lib.org/ for downloading books! No. 954056>>954058>>954067>>954068>>954076
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i hate this type of story so much. have YA novels always been so fanfic-y?
No. 954087>>954098>>954112
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>>954073If you ease up on the troons and libfems even 1%, they start strutting around here and immediately dictate what's "
problematic" about this place.
The hate keeps the vermin away.
No. 954094>>954100>>954101
>>954073No offence, you really don't have to be a full-on "
terf", but if negative opinions on trans bother you that much maybe this isn't the place for you. There are plenty of "gender affirming" spaces for "women and femmes" kek
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>>948357Guy I was friends with for a couple months online messaged my boyfriend to say that I lead him on and was cheating on my bf with him. We were just friends and stopped talking when he told me he had feelings for me and I genuinely wasn’t leading this dude on. He was a decent amount older than me, and frankly I had no clue because I’m pretty stupid. Anyway, my boyfriend is a super paranoid person and is always worrying I’m cheating on him so this absolutely set him off. Also, he had told me before he didn’t want me being friends with men and people he considered bad influences AND that I had to delete my instagram which… I made a new one and had an extra discord to talk to my friends. So, as it was I was lying to him. The guy sent screenshots of us talking which along with claiming discord calls were lovey, boyfriend was convinced I had cheated on him. I was so messed up from him getting upset at me that I ended up vomiting from the anxiety it caused of believing he was going to leave me. He also called me some pretty nasty things and although he didn’t intend to hurt me he was really agressive with me, like grabbing my shoulders and shaking me. I proved I was innocent through chat logs of my own, and he apologises, everything back to normal except because I betrayed him I have to now let him go through my phone and computer every week to check. I don’t mind that to be honest, I’m just glad I didn’t lose him. I haven’t had anyone to talk to about it but I still feel really shook up. I also want to brutally murder the other guy and am filled with burning hatred thinking of him.
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>>954073>unironically uses the word "femmes" to refer to women>thinks transphobia is badJust go back to Twitter, you obviously belong there.
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>>954073>femme spacejust say FEMALE, retard
No. 954107>>954115
>>954097You should have burning hatred for that faggot who shakes you and dictates your phone privileges because he's too insecure and retarded to not get wound up by some discord cunt.
>I’m just glad I didn’t lose himKey to being treated like shit
No. 954110
>>954101lmao right? lolcow is based because it's for females, not whatever the fuck a femme is. And presumably that's why anon likes it despite her attempts to avoid wrongthink.
Sis just can't admit she doesn't wanna be around male energy, which trannies have in spades. Hence her guilt.
No. 954115>>954116>>954117>>954127>>954589
>>95410219
>>954106This is a vent thread, I just wanted to get my feelings out and frankly get some sympathy because I mean, everyone does once in a while right? right hahah…
>>954107I do partially but good outweighs the bad with him. As much as a perfect boyfriend would be obviously perfect, I love him and he loves me, even if he is obsessive with it. To be honest it kinda makes me feel secure that he is so obsessive and I’d be lying if I wasn’t similar. I flew off the handle once finding his old social media followings. I forgot the phrase, but to summarise, I’m as shitty as he is sometimes.
No. 954118
>>954076there is a big difference between children's books and teenage romance novels vs today's YA novels that just slap a bunch of overhyped fanfic tropes, token pocs and additional kweer flavor together.
fun fact, this irene abraham character is supposed to be indian.
No. 954129>>954135>>954143
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Before I describe my problem I just want to say that I never acted on those feelings, I was always an autistic loner and I barely talked to men in my life. I didn't have any major interactions with the male species except boys bullyig me at primary school, some gross old scrotes making sexual comments towards me when I was a teen, and, most importantly, my emotionally distant and domineering stepfather who didn't even live with my mom but I was seeing him every few days, and my biological father who first time appeared when I was 8, and who was an irresponsible alcoholic, I never had a normal relationship with him and I barely talked to him, I haven't seen him regularly since I was 16 and then he disappeared completely after my mother died, which I'm glad happened. There was no other males in my life, I never dated anyone, no male friends etc.
I'm obsessed with figures of authority. I always hated when I had to listen to anyone at school, and it got worse when I started working. I just don't like taking orders from anyone, be it women or men, but there's one exception. If there's a male higher in hierarchy than me, and he's even a few years older, and he's kind and competent, my mind will be obsessed with him. I had this "relationship" with my male teacher at high school, and now there's this guy at my work. He's only like 4-6 years older than me and yet, just because he's a normie, thus experienced in real life outside of basement, tall, male, nice and higher in hierarchy than me, I feel like he's much older. I have a really strong desire to be friends with him, but at the same time, I'm scared of him. I can't even tell if I wish he was my older brother, my partner or my dad. I never felt like I had a mother or a father, but at least I had a couple of older women in my life who helped me or guided me in some way, did the stuff that my mother never did. I never had a male counterpart for such figure. It feels like I'm subconsciously looking for it. I get fucking mad when I see this guy joking around with others. I wish I could talk to him normally. He's very playful, smart, sweet, laidback, chill but also very competent. He's the least confrontational person at my job and yet I'm scared to talk to him. And I'm constantly scared that if I fail at something he will think I'm an idiot. I want to impress him, and I want to be the best at my job, but how can I be good when I actually work better when he's NOT around? When he's close I get super nervous and breathless, my hands are shaky, I commit more mistakes, I can't focus etc. Sometimes when he greets me I can't even force myself to say hi or to look at him. He probably thinks I ignore him and I don't give a fuck about him, just like I don't give a fuck about most of my coworkers. If he only knew it's completely different with him. I know he was curious about me, but stopped initiating conversations since he noticed I'm not very responsive. I know from my other coworker that he thinks I'm much younger than I actually am. He asked me a few times how old I was but I never wanted to tell him, and I like that he doesn't know, because it keeps my fantasy real. I like to feel like a kid around him. I recently found out he's in a relationship, and it made it worse, but then again, even if he was free, I know that I probably wouldn't be able to talk to him like a normal fucking person, so it wouldn't change shit. I just have to suffer for as long as I work there. Actually I fucking hate this job, I hate myself, I hate the fact that I'm a loser with no friends. I know this vent is very chaotic and I'm sorry, I just came back from my second shift and I'm tired and frustrated as fuck. All I can do is just look at something I could never have. I can only observe the world throguh the wall of glass but I can never touch anything
No. 954135>>954181
>>954129hugs you very tight and strokes your head
it's gonna be okay,
nonnie No. 954150>>954168
>>954142Hashtag deep. You should post this on your tumblr where your main fake depressed circlejerk is. The mere fact that you can form a bond, even if it is surface level (which is where all relationships start), is more than what genuinely lonely and depressed introverts experience.
Romantic relationships aren't directly comparable to friendships either, no one would actually romantically like/love someone who can't open up properly. If you end up dating someone it means you've passed the chokehold introvertedness has on you, which lets be honest, probably didn't have much of a hold on those types of people anyway.
No. 954154
>>954133Yeah I think this might be the final straw, I told her unless she becomes more considerate I don't want to be her friend and frankly I don't see that happening any time soon. We are in our 20s and she still acts like this, it's teenage behavior.
>>954134>>954136Yep I said that and she was like "omg I didn't even think of that until now!!" Who knows if that's true because like I said she does act super self absorbed lately so it is possible that she did not even consider that. I think she probably doesn't want me to meet him bc she knows I'll hate him because he's lame as fuck. $20 she'll call me crying tomorrow night because he fucked her over kek
No. 954167
>>954164You gotta sautee them until they release the juices then until they soak them back up then they are ultimately flavored.
I'm sorry for your loss but at least you get the smells
No. 954177>>954179>>954184>>954202>>954204>>954229
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An old friend of mine keeps posting about how she hates having breasts and how she thinks this hate might be 'disphoria'. She's impressionable, has had anorexia and is pretty obviously bpd, so she is a prime target for trannyism. The urge to tell her she's so incredibly misled is unbearable, but I can't because of how estranged we are and because she's a pretty firm libfem. What if she turns into an Aiden, anons. Is there anything at all I can do? I have to admit, I did sort of see this coming, but it's so strange seeing it happen in real time to someone I know, as opposed to reading about it on the FtM thread. I fucking hate moids and their insidious tranny agenda so much.
No. 954229
>>954177if you have to say something maybe emphasize that there’s lots of women who feel that way about their chest so she’s not alone??? I think too many people associate not wanting breasts with ftm shit and it’s not always the case but if you don’t know where to look for support that’s the first group you run into.
your friends history sounds a bit like mine and it took a while to sort out wanting to be perceived a certain way by others because of the size of my chest and then exerting control over my body in a different way when I was attempting to not fall back into disordered eating habits. I didn’t (and don’t) dislike being a woman, but almost everyone I knew both online and offline, trans or not, equaled having breasts to being one and that was what made me question myself and who I was. that is what made me seek therapy again.
if you’re estranged and can’t say any of that I would mute them or hide their posts or even unfriend them if it is too much to think about. sorry for the blog response.
No. 954460
>>954397Leave him.. that's straight up emotional abuse and
toxic af. You deserve better, even if you're an asshole.
No. 954600
Last night I had some pretty awful pain in my right lower abdomen. At first I thought "Hmm, post-sex cramps? Okay…" but it has been a couple of days. Then I thought "This is really bad, this is making me cry and feels very localized" so I figured a cyst was rupturing.
Idk why but when I started thinking that it could be my appendix, I lost it and started feeling more pain and crying really hard. I had already taken ibuprofen but it wasn't working.
I couldn't tell if I had gas, had to take a shit, was gonna lose my appendix or anything. I looked it up, appendix pain is unbearable, but I could still breath calmly, I could still at least try to sleep but I was still crying from the pain. Eventually I got up and tried to poop a little, and I did, but I was still feeling pain afterwards. My boyfriend and I had gotten wasted and he was trying to help but tbh his talking and "Squeeze my hand!!!" somehow made the pain worse, luckily he fell asleep shortly after I went to the bathroom.
I just woke up and don't feel it atm but I'm scared that feeling can come back any second
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I thought I had made a legitimate male friend for the first time in my life. Then he told me he and his fiancé were “better as friends” and tried to fuck me. I want to die I fucking I hate scrotes.I feel so dirty I want to die
No. 954615
>>954611Please don’t feel dirty,
nonnie, it’s not your fault that he’s such a fucking retarded scrote.
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>>954611This.>>954615 It's not your fault, anon. I hate that men put all women in what I call the "fuckzone" where they chimp out and can't sustain any kind of platonic friendship for a long period of time without their dicks ruining it.
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Farmers, I feel bad. I was kinda dating a male, at first I thought he was going to be a good person because of the way he treated me, but in the end he ended up being the opposite.
The other day I found his twitter and saw that he posted this that I am going to translate:
"when I'm better emotionally (and a little drunk) I realize that I was with every mamarracho (and surely come back to be with others in the future) my list goes through: castrating, hysterical women (in the vulgar sense, I don't know if clinics), and ghosters. I don't know if I forget any. "
How do I get over this disgusting man? I feel dirty bc i fucked him too…
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OK I’m
>>952819 and yes I am still seething kek. Nonnies, bully me. I’m irked because I invest in my friendships and I have always thought I would die for them if the chance came to be and I don’t think they care. Which isn’t my fault, that’s just my retarded and obsessive nature. They care about their boyfriends but I don’t think they think I’m a real person. What really grinds my gears is that on my last birthday a family member ran me over and I ended up on the hospital and I texted them and they didn’t even visit. And they didn’t even call. Just went, “Oh, ok.” But the real reason I’m
triggered is that I’m not in a Halloween party right now, I would’ve dressed as Paprika from, well, Paprika or Re-I from Ergo Proxy. Maybe even Komaeda, that would’ve been fun. I’m aware I’m retarded and it’s my fault but god my Paprika wig would’ve looked great. If a guy approached me I would tell him that his opinion on Satoshi Kon’s work is wrong and then proceed to giggle mockingly while he spoke. If he said he’s really into Eva I’d snort and cover my mouth and say, “Of course.” I would’ve forced everybody to listen to shitty music and made friends with cool girls and saved all their numbers. Pic unrel.
No. 954682
>>954621It's not your fault, you couldn't have known that he was a piece of shit from the start. I know it's hard but try to not dwell on it, it's going to make you feel worse, instead focus on the things you love and keep your mind occupied for the time being.
¡fuerza anonita!
No. 954686
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I don't know why people ask me to help them just so they can disagree and tell me to forget it. Only for them to google and have it say the same fucking thing. They always do this to me, that whatever I say is wrong so why do I keep fucking helping. I'm retarded I swear to god
No. 954761>>954770
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I honestly want to cry why do we have to work for the rest of our lives and why are people so happy about capitalism. yuore all so evil have fun in h-e-double hockey sticks
No. 954848
I’m kind of glad my in-laws forgot my birthday this year because they probably would’ve bought me
another vegetarian cookbook. They’ve given me seven of those so far and I don’t even like cooking! Not eating meat isn’t a big part of my personality and I practically never talk about it but it seems like it’s the only thing they know about me.
>>954763I know this is about trans-identified women but it reminds me of the breast cancer awareness posters at my workplace that were like “Did u kno men can get breast cancer too?! Help us stop breast cancer!” like a life-threatening disease isn’t bad enough if it only affects women, and to make people care we need to remind them it can affect men as well.
No. 954864
I’m getting depressed again and I don’t know why. At this point I know I’m always going to be depressed but for a moment I thought I was getting better. I was accepting the fact that I was online for so long, that life didn’t turn out the way I wanted, that everything went sideways. I intended to weaponize all my disappointments and insecurities, saw all the bugs become features in a different light. But now everything seems listless and indifferent. I spoke with a friend and we talked about being online at such a young age. She said she regrets it and is envious of 13, 14 year olds who are utilizing it, but now she knows her limitations.
What if limitations aren’t real? What if that’s a bullshit excuse? Isn’t that a cope? I’ve been thinking lately about acceptance and coping, and the two are looking a lot like each other.
I should shut the fuck up. I’m 20. But my mind is doing this thing against, where I drop and drain, and I almost don’t exist anymore, like I’m unreal. I don’t want to go to uni or learn anything or become anything or try, I want to lie down and die for a bit. Worse thing I know this wasn’t it a week ago, but my mind is doing this shit again and I have to resist. It keeps doing it again and again and again.
No. 954881>>954884
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>>954867They do this in my country but they have to wear underwear/swimsuit attire by law. They also started putting a guy in just for the sake of equality lol. Called babe of the week/hunk of the week.
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>>948357Sigh
The feeling of no friends
If I would have planned this better maybe I could have done something with people tonight, I thought about it for weeks, why am I so scared to make plans?
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gonna be real mad if i end up getting killed @ 22 or worse tonight because my drunk father insists on hanging out with his abusive, insane, woman-beating older brother (and we – me and my dad – live together too). god i wish i had my own place.
hoping and praying he's really just heading out to get a drink. i wish there were places i could walk to but it is dark outside, and i highly doubt the hospital across the street will allow me to just sit in its lobby. maybe if i were younger.
pray for me lc. i wouldn't be worried about it if i hadn't heard him asking about me over the phone
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I am so jealous of people who have friends and can dress up for halloween I’m so bitter I just want the perfect life how can an idealist like me live in this world ffs??
No. 955019
>>955008You want anon to dress up alone by themselves??
>>955005Same I’m jealous of people who have parties to go to. Makes me wish I was a D list internet celebrity influencer who gets to go to LA parties without having talent but also that’s cringe asf. So alone on Halloween it is!
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I’m 21 and I feel like shit because I don’t know what to do with my life?? I’m working a minimum wage job because I wasn’t doing well in community college. Grades and mentally I was failing and was miserable. My job isn’t bad, my coworkers are nice but I just feel like an idiot not knowing what I’m going to do afterwards. I want to hustle and have many side jobs but it’s hard. I was thinking of selling stuff on depop, I have been (but I have sold some clothes but I haven’t been making a lot) I wish I could make a side job out of it. The idea of being having a boring job in an office all day makes me ill.
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>>955146Same. I made the mistake of posting my historical interests on /soc/ one time, got a lot of guys wanting to message me. But they were either boring fucks who didn't actually care, or laughless, serious-minded corpses. Fucking hell, can't I just geek out about medieval European culture and art in the presence of someone who gets it
No. 955159
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I was invited and went to a Halloween party last night thrown by a girl who I know through friends. They all knew each other from college dorms but since graduation their friend group has fractured, even the people I knew her through weren’t invited. I’ve moved away and I’m not socialising much in my new town so I decided to crash with some other friends and go that night.
Anyway long story short later in the night when we’re all drunk and leaving for the clubs she pulls me back from the guy I’d been flirting with all night and said she needed to fix her shoe or something and told them to go ahead. I try to help her and out of nowhere she starts making out with me, it’s fun but after a while I want her to stop but she just doesn’t, I literally tell her she needs to go home and drink some water but she just keeps pulling me in to kiss her and telling me to come home with her even though she’s sloshed. She was wearing this awful lip stain and got it all over my fucking face. She’s oblivious about me and the guy I was flirting with all night and basically says the whole reason she invited me because she wanted to hook up with me. I had to go back to her place and have her sober roommate wipe all the makeup off my mouth, chin and jaw. Not once did she even say sorry or try to explain herself, and then I had to run all the way back through town at midnight on Halloween weekend to meet up with the people who I actually wanted to party with.
I’m mad because she’s never even flirted with me or made any advance on me, in person or just over texting, just flings herself on me at the 11th hour of the night and expects me to immediately reciprocate. It’s especially pissing me off because she’s an IG activist whose always sharing posts about fighting rape culture and No Means No and women’s bodies don’t belong to anyone but themselves. Guess none of that applies when it comes to bi girls like you, does it ?
I’m so pissed off. I’m gonna interrogate my friends about what happened to their group because the story she told me was that someone else started a feud and she was just a bystander but after last night I highly doubt that.
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>>955146same, military history especially attracts the worst kind of scrote
i just want some female friends who won't treat me like i'm boring/a freak for being obsessed with history
No. 955213
>>954998why do you keep interacting with this person if you hate her so much? It's not like you're forced to. You know, if she's
abusive and you keep her in your life she's gonna make your life worse and you're also gonna make hers worse since you obviously hate her
No. 955292
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>hanging out with younger and older brother in older brother's room
>me chilling on my phone while watching Netflix with younger brother
>older brother asks me if I would like to hang out and shop tomorrow at a collectible store
>me, "I would love to but I got work on that day"
>him, "so is it yes or no?"
>me, "I'd really loved to but I got work tomorrow. Idk when I could get off early since that day is Halloween…"
>him, "OMG Jennifer just answer the damn question already" (he calls me that as an extended nickname for me being a dumbass)
>me,"idk if tomorrow's gonna be busy or not, Aiden" (Idk what that name really means but I thought it's a name for a gay person)
>he gets confused with the Aiden name and more pissed because of it and "not answering his question"
>he asked what time I'm gonna be at work and the time to be at the store
>turns out it's gonna work out
>ok it's all good
>he get unnecessarily misogynist saying "why are women so stupid, couldn't even answer a simple damn question"
>me, "whatever Aiden"
>gets even more pissed and wants me to get out of his room unless I apologize
>gives him a witty sorry while being smug about it
>he then talks nicely to my younger brother
>got bored moments later eyes on my phone the whole time
>I split on his floor as I leave to my room
>fucking dickhead
Tl;dr older brother gets pissed at me for "not answering his question" and probably name calling even though he does the same to me then makes a big deal out of the whole situation with unnecessary shit and being so extra.
How do I deal with a gay mysogyinst older brother who's also a furry manchild that has collected Funkos and is living with you and your family? He's ok I guess since he's knowledgable about most things, helped me buy stuff online, dropped me off at work, used his stuff like his tv and video games, etc. The thing that I fucking hate about him is when he gets unnecessarily stubborn and dickish towards people that are unsure or unclear of things. He mostly puts it as "stupid people" or "women" (usually towards my mom and sometimes to me an my dad when we are unsure about something and asked for his help). I know that you gotta learn, do and improve things yourself and not be stupid but you're just being an asshole. Not only that but he's a fucking hypocrite too. Complains about our fridge being disarranged even though he never wash his dirty dishes and has a messy bedroom with very little walk space, a filled closet and a filthy bathroom. Makes me wish I have a nice cool older sister with the same or similar interests as I do.
No. 955341
>>954674your friends, are they scrotes? they are idiots, assholes, or just don't care. tell them it annoyed you that they didn't say anything, if you see them changing… if not, then ghost these people.
i would've loved going out on halloween with you. the paprika costume would've been amazing. i love ergo proxy too.
i need to also keep to my word and stop hanging out with people who disappoint me. i will only find good friendships if i spend my time on talking to girls and ask them to hang out. scrotes only want one thing and it eventually slips out, destroying the friendship. and the shallow relationships i keep because it's better than nothing are actually a waste of my time since i always wish they were different. there is a group who only want to invite me because i have the games they like? and they never try getting to know me. the girl is too closed off and one boy thought i was hitting on him because i checked on his drunk ass.